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Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of four Blad. This
Speaker 1: is yours.
Speaker 3: I'm your girl, Mady b aka dead Beach. Hi, everybody,
Speaker 3: welcome back for another episode.
Speaker 1: I'm weezy. We are in the studio today with no guests.
Speaker 5: Ooh, I know y'all happy, Go ahead and play with
Speaker 5: y'all pussy now, beach.
Speaker 1: Uh you looking at me like that? Okay? Okay, well
Speaker 1: if you at word, don't play with yo pussy.
Speaker 3: By the way, speaking of work, I have had people
Speaker 3: like on set be like, oh, you're a podcaster, what's
Speaker 3: your podcast called? And the second they click on something
Speaker 3: like we curse so much in the forty first forty
Speaker 3: five seconds, I'm like, I can't imagine how y'all feel
Speaker 3: when your headphones die.
Speaker 1: I mean, do we just curse right now? Go ahead
Speaker 1: and play with Joe pussy beach.
Speaker 5: Birth though, yeah, see's anatomy pre and bitch is a
Speaker 5: female name for a dog, so both of those are
Speaker 5: technically yeah, it's giving signs.
Speaker 1: Noah, Okay, you're right.
Speaker 5: I think that we should. We both recorded a lot
Speaker 5: the next time we in the studio.
Speaker 3: You're worse than me, I'm gonna work on it is
Speaker 3: Mandy worse than me? Who curses one?
Speaker 1: Thank you? Thank you? I like, well, who would you say?
Speaker 4: What? Ho?
Speaker 1: Whoa? I feel like it's here the oh there. I
Speaker 1: really don't think that you say.
Speaker 3: Nigga a lot when we have a white guess and
Speaker 3: it's and it advites you. I don't think there should
Speaker 3: be a nigga I wanna say nigga counter, not the
Speaker 3: not the nothing you are. No, I was gonna say
Speaker 3: a nigga counter. You know what a nigga counter. I
Speaker 3: don't think we need a nigga. A nigga clock on
Speaker 3: how many nigga times you got. But I'm just saying,
Speaker 3: we have white guests and you say nigga, I'll be saying.
Speaker 3: They're like, okay, I'm not gonna lie. I only catch
Speaker 3: myself as it's coming out. Then I'm just like, fuck,
Speaker 3: I already said it, So I'll be.
Speaker 1: Thinking of not to say that.
Speaker 5: When we was with Julie Ginger and he was like,
Speaker 5: cause these niggas, I was like, now she'll say it back.
Speaker 1: So here's the thing I do.
Speaker 5: I do do what it little tis because they talk
Speaker 5: a little bit too comfortable, and if they say the
Speaker 5: ship next to us, we're gonna have to clot the ass.
Speaker 1: Actually, now that i'm thinking about it, puck their butts,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try not to curse. I say it, okay.
Speaker 3: So like the volume in which I say nigga in
Speaker 3: front of white people is really up to their proximity
Speaker 3: to other niggas. For example, Rory, I don't get scared
Speaker 3: about saying niggas with Liz Goldwyn. I give her one
Speaker 3: or two, okay, because I'm just like, I know your
Speaker 3: other friends they like, and I'll be like, I'll let
Speaker 3: me cho. But when I'm real passionate about something and
Speaker 3: I'm like about to cry and we talk about Man
Speaker 3: or South, I'll be like, you no niggas just and
Speaker 3: she don't care obviously because she too. But with Rory,
Speaker 3: I feel like you listen to like music every day.
Speaker 1: Mall be like no, no, no, no no no, So
Speaker 1: it's okay. I mean, Julian definitely can't say nick.
Speaker 5: For me. It's really hard because not I only fuck
Speaker 5: with niggas. Like if I'm talking about men, there ain't
Speaker 5: no cracking, so they know I'm not gonna start naming
Speaker 5: all the words.
Speaker 1: That we call people of other ethnicities.
Speaker 5: However, I only deal with one, and these niggas be
Speaker 5: pissing me, y'all.
Speaker 3: He motherfucker, So I know he just said we shouldn't
Speaker 3: be cursing too much. Okay, I'm not cursing for the
Speaker 3: rest of the If you've never heard of our show,
Speaker 3: it's actually about to be fair. It's about decolonizing king
Speaker 3: for niggas. But you're allowed in here to listen, and
Speaker 3: we appreciate your subscriptions because.
Speaker 1: You know what it pays our nigga.
Speaker 5: Bills and so hopefully, uh, you support us with our
Speaker 5: book coming out. I kind of wanted that to be
Speaker 5: our ketchup. Oh, I'll put nigga in one chapter. That's
Speaker 5: the wait, Really, you're limiting the use of nigga in
Speaker 5: our book.
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 5: No, I literally I thought that you let me thought
Speaker 5: that's why we really wanted a black author so she
Speaker 5: could comfortably get our voices across the paper.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm I'm.
Speaker 3: Writing mine out where like she's just editing, but like, uh,
Speaker 3: I will read you a little part of mine. So
Speaker 3: I literally put Beard Bay in scissors scissors scissors in
Speaker 3: a group chat. I'm actually going to read you guys
Speaker 3: a text. So I forget a lot of shit. And
Speaker 3: I was like, damn, I don't want to lie because
Speaker 3: it's not like I'm lying, it's just how I remember something.
Speaker 3: So this is how I started a text to them. Hey,
Speaker 3: I know this sounds kind of crazy, but I'm working
Speaker 3: on writing this book with Mandy, and I wanted to
Speaker 3: fact check with y'all because one of the chapters is
Speaker 3: all about my threatfle They wrote, Lol, Okay, I said,
Speaker 3: all right, here, there we go.
Speaker 1: Happy Tuesday. Everybody did I.
Speaker 3: Eat the come out of scissors or did you pull
Speaker 3: it out and I licked it off of her pussy? Sorry,
Speaker 3: can't remember, Oh my god, he said, definitely, I pulled
Speaker 3: out out of her pussy and put it in your mouth.
Speaker 3: Out of body experience. I could have passed out from that.
Speaker 3: My body was nutting. And also add this in your book.
Speaker 3: You turned into a senior citizen after you come. Tell
Speaker 3: the people that.
Speaker 5: And then he said you should also add in that
Speaker 5: time that when you did, you started petting her.
Speaker 1: And then she said, bitch, are you petting me?
Speaker 3: You ain't in this, no mo, because see when I come,
Speaker 3: it's like I pass out and you're like, I was
Speaker 3: trying to do this to let them niggas. No, I'll
Speaker 3: still I rubbed a titty like in a circular motion,
Speaker 3: like I'm still in it. We still a ah. But
Speaker 3: here's one of the things that I wrote. And this
Speaker 3: is when I was like, oh, this is so like Black.
Speaker 3: Literally there's a chapter where I wrote, now mind you,
Speaker 3: and in parenthesies, I'll put nigga shit like Black should
Speaker 3: to say.
Speaker 1: Oh, that's the only time you're going to put in
Speaker 1: the book. No, no, no, In the parentheses.
Speaker 3: I'll read you something I wrote. Finally we get to bed,
Speaker 3: beard Bay immediately kisses her. I can't remember if it's
Speaker 3: their first kiss or not, but I could remember I
Speaker 3: was not needing to be involved. I felt everything that
Speaker 3: her body could be feeling, excitement, pleasure, nerves, this strange
Speaker 3: way of feeling connected to her and making me feel
Speaker 3: very healthy and safe. I even remember her peeking her
Speaker 3: eye open as a way of making sure I was
Speaker 3: looking and feeling comfortable.
Speaker 5: But this nigga, on the other hand, that's a second
Speaker 5: count already was just happy to be an m mofucker.
Speaker 3: I will say he's consistently one of the most sexy
Speaker 3: guys in the room, but it was still his first threesome.
Speaker 3: And I love watching a nigga on his knees serving
Speaker 3: a bitch. Oh sorry, two niggas three, that's three.
Speaker 1: It within ten, all right, So maybe I should break
Speaker 1: it up. It's giving Mandy chapter. Well, actually, no, my
Speaker 1: work on this book has been hard. H You started
Speaker 1: with the pain chapter. No, bitch, put those as.
Speaker 3: Last many Mandy and I, by the way, just calling
Speaker 3: like some of them are hard to so we say,
Speaker 3: oh these are painful, these are nice.
Speaker 1: So when I say.
Speaker 5: There's there are certain chapters that I literally went through
Speaker 5: and I put last last last, have to work through
Speaker 5: my therapist with this. One of the ones that I
Speaker 5: actually felt comfortable working through brought a lot of anxiety
Speaker 5: to me. So, uh, I am doing a chapter on
Speaker 5: my abortion, which is why I hit you up and
Speaker 5: me with my friends we've been talking about, uh, just
Speaker 5: all of our experiences with abortions lately, but basically for
Speaker 5: this chapter specifically, not only is my experience included, but
Speaker 5: I did an interview with my mom and maybe a
Speaker 5: day and a half after my abortion, it never happened.
Speaker 5: Me and my mom never revisited it, We never talked
Speaker 5: about it. It was never a conversation, and so for
Speaker 5: this book specifically, I interviewed her to see how she
Speaker 5: felt about me coming to her and how I said,
Speaker 5: how she remembers the day that I told her walking
Speaker 5: with me into the clinic and I had to relive
Speaker 5: kind of my abortion all over again that I haven't spoken.
Speaker 5: So I interviewed my mom. We ended up speaking a
Speaker 5: lot about not only that experience with me, but her abortions,
Speaker 5: one being with my dad. So there was a lot
Speaker 5: about relationship I didn't know one was with my dad
Speaker 5: and it was at the end. It was literally the
Speaker 5: abortion that she had knowing that. I mean, well, I
Speaker 5: don't know if this is going to make the book,
Speaker 5: and I mean, I'll share a little bit of it now.
Speaker 5: But basically her that abortion with my dad was because
Speaker 5: she knew she could no longer stand the abuse with him,
Speaker 5: and so she had the abortion right before we ended
Speaker 5: up in a shelter because she had to get away.
Speaker 1: No, I don't want to cry.
Speaker 5: It's been a lot. And then this was the first
Speaker 5: time I asked my friend who gave me the money
Speaker 5: for my abortion. I interviewed her, and it's just like,
Speaker 5: there's so much about my past that I just put behind.
Speaker 1: Me and shout out to Kita, love you. We're still
Speaker 1: friends to this day.
Speaker 5: I called her and I remember we literally relived our friendship.
Speaker 5: We weren't that close because I felt like she stole
Speaker 5: my best friend from me in high school because we
Speaker 5: went to different high schools after middle school. Shout out
Speaker 5: to Ali and us having the conversation. I had never
Speaker 5: asked her what that money meant to her. She was
Speaker 5: my only friend at the time that had a job
Speaker 5: and she literally sent me the money that she made
Speaker 5: at Coldstone And so this was my first time. My
Speaker 5: abortion was right before me going into junior year.
Speaker 1: Did you ever pay her back? Did you? Guys say?
Speaker 5: I paid her back immediately, which is which is what
Speaker 5: I found out. She was like, we never talked about
Speaker 5: it again. All you kept saying was you'll pay me back,
Speaker 5: and you pay me back, but we never discussed it.
Speaker 5: And mind you, she and this is how listening back
Speaker 5: to it, my abortion was only five hundred dollars, she said.
Speaker 1: I called and was like, I got a hundred. My
Speaker 1: mom didn't have nothing.
Speaker 5: She maybe gave me like three hundred dollars, and she
Speaker 5: was like, at the time, that was like fifty thousand dollars.
Speaker 1: Yeah. So, like the.
Speaker 5: Conversations I'm having around what's going in this book are
Speaker 5: hard because I realized having an abortion that young, all
Speaker 5: of my friends having an abortion that young, We all
Speaker 5: know we had abortions, and we don't really talk about it.
Speaker 5: And to know that I literally have not had the
Speaker 5: conversation with my mom or one of my friends who
Speaker 5: even helped me pay for it was brought a lot
Speaker 5: of anxiety to me. To even hear it because it
Speaker 5: was what I feel like, to this day, my mistake.
Speaker 5: It's also funny because I had to relive that day
Speaker 5: I was with you is with that motherfucking gang banger nigga.
Speaker 1: They got locked up, and so I'm abortion with that.
Speaker 5: So I'm just like this this book therapeutically, if that's
Speaker 5: even a word.
Speaker 1: Uh, has been a lot on me.
Speaker 5: I'm recording my therapy sessions with my with with my
Speaker 5: therapist for this book.
Speaker 1: But that doesn't feel invasive. I mean I ask everyone,
Speaker 1: so as you're giving the by the way, we should
Speaker 1: explain why you're recording them. I mean, I'm recording them
Speaker 1: for a multitude of reason.
Speaker 5: We have a book editor, well, we have a book editor, yes,
Speaker 5: But for me, I've been in therapy for three years.
Speaker 5: I am very much in the present and plan to
Speaker 5: be a better person in the future. I cut off
Speaker 5: from everything that doesn't fit well. My trauma response and
Speaker 5: defense mechan is removing myself. I recently had a conversation
Speaker 5: with my therapist that was so uncomfortable because in writing
Speaker 5: about this book, I keep referring to my past self
Speaker 5: as she she did, like, it's.
Speaker 1: Not even me.
Speaker 5: And so I'm having this outer body experience, trying to
Speaker 5: realize that she is me, that's actually my experience. And
Speaker 5: I keep referring to myself in past tense like it's
Speaker 5: a whole other person because either my decisions, I don't
Speaker 5: like them. And that's why I told you with writing
Speaker 5: this book, it was going to be really important for
Speaker 5: me to not fully be prideful of all the things
Speaker 5: I've done, because I'm not happy of the decisions and
Speaker 5: such that I've made all the time with every man
Speaker 5: every time I lay down the things, you know, within
Speaker 5: my family dynamic. And so it's like really been interesting
Speaker 5: getting through this. So I love that we've got into
Speaker 5: a place where we both like can agree to kind
Speaker 5: of what we want to share in this book. But
Speaker 5: this process heavily weighing on me, from the divorce of
Speaker 5: my last podcast to dealing with this, to dealing with
Speaker 5: the Internet, to dealing with the comments, Like it has
Speaker 5: been just heavy because it's.
Speaker 1: Been a lot.
Speaker 5: It's been a lot, like literally from possibly trying to
Speaker 5: reach out to my cousin about like his sexuality because
Speaker 5: that's a part of my antal sex story, like I'm
Speaker 5: getting into I'm Jamaican anal sexty you gay, And now
Speaker 5: I'm in a place where a bit chy'all love a boodle,
Speaker 5: like literally being able to see my transgression of just
Speaker 5: who I become and having to really sit with things
Speaker 5: that make me uncomfortable. It's it's been a really good experience,
Speaker 5: a really heavy experience. But I'm like hoping that y'all
Speaker 5: like this book and y'all buy it, y'all go see
Speaker 5: us on tour next year.
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm only in the erotica stages of the book,
Speaker 3: which is kind of scary, Like you just kind of
Speaker 3: even scared me talking just now. One of my chapters
Speaker 3: is about an our word story and mine was very violent.
Speaker 3: And he's a popular person in the industry and not anymore.
Speaker 3: I'm sure I'm making more money than him, but he
Speaker 3: was once upon a time. And it's crazy because, like
Speaker 3: I remember hitting up Charlemagne and I told him who
Speaker 3: it was, and I was like, should I not include
Speaker 3: that this person was famous that did this to me?
Speaker 1: Oh, you got to include that, And he was.
Speaker 3: Like, well, a lot of you at that age because
Speaker 3: what I was telling him about a little bit, And really,
Speaker 3: I think the reason I went back to that hotel room,
Speaker 3: and that experience happened to me was probably because he
Speaker 3: was famous, right, I'm nineteen twenty.
Speaker 1: I think it was nineteen.
Speaker 3: But yeah, like that young dumb girl shit like, I
Speaker 3: don't know the power in saying no now is so
Speaker 3: easy to me.
Speaker 5: And you don't understand though, the power dynamics either of celebrity.
Speaker 3: Like because remember I asked for help, right, but we
Speaker 3: and they didn't help me because of who he was.
Speaker 5: We've talked about. I shared both of my stealthy experiences
Speaker 5: on this pod. You know who one of them was.
Speaker 5: One of them was the other one. I'll tell you
Speaker 5: when we're done. Both of them were rich, famous celebrities,
Speaker 5: and I even recalled not feeling violated because Okay, they
Speaker 5: got the money, I'll get the plan B. And also
Speaker 5: I didn't know stealthy was a violation or an assault
Speaker 5: or some because I consented to have sex with you
Speaker 5: with protection you pulling it off later. Of course I
Speaker 5: didn't consent to that, but also in my mind though
Speaker 5: it was violating to not feel violated in the moment
Speaker 5: because of who it was.
Speaker 1: Have you ever confronted them? No? I did, did you? Yep?
Speaker 3: Wanted to talk to him about it got influenced by
Speaker 3: another one of his rap made and.
Speaker 1: He acted like I was tripping.
Speaker 3: I think he said I was tripping that he was like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I feel like if I saw him now, I might
Speaker 3: spit on him. But I really just kind of pity him,
Speaker 3: I guess, because like I know, I'm not the only person,
Speaker 3: because one of his bandmates told me that he'd heard
Speaker 3: it before, and he told me that in confident. Wow,
Speaker 3: not confidence to me that she put me up. But nah,
Speaker 3: I think the craziest part about my story and y'all
Speaker 3: read in the book, is that I literally ran out
Speaker 3: of the room ask for help, and when he came
Speaker 3: behind me, he was like, Yo, she's drunk and I
Speaker 3: asked a woman for help. That's the crazy thing about
Speaker 3: some of these And I'm like, damn, I do have
Speaker 3: to include that he's a famous person that you do.
Speaker 3: But the thing that's difficult about it is people will
Speaker 3: tell you or act as though you're, you know, searching
Speaker 3: for this clout within this thing. Bro, a famous nigga
Speaker 3: doing that to me is not going to make her
Speaker 3: break my career or this this story or this book.
Speaker 3: But I do think and I kind of empathize now
Speaker 3: with some women that choose to come out. I guess
Speaker 3: I always have, but like I realize, like, damn, you
Speaker 3: kind of want to release it, and it is a release,
Speaker 3: but I haven't got to that part of the book.
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm at this super juicy, nasty part of
Speaker 3: the book right, Like I'm talking about how I was
Speaker 3: sucking come off my fingers from scissors, how wet she was,
Speaker 3: how we would go in the bathroom when beard baby
Speaker 3: was sleep and we would dish about the threesome, like
Speaker 3: just fun shit I've never talked about. And also what
Speaker 3: makes this book even crazier is like I'm falling in
Speaker 3: love with someone while writing this book and experiencing new things.
Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't know, I just it's weird because
Speaker 3: I just I thought it would be more about like
Speaker 3: my release from like old bane and realizing I'm in
Speaker 3: this empowering moment, and now I'm just like, oh girl.
Speaker 5: We wrote this proposal when I was still witnessed nigga.
Speaker 5: The chapters that are last last are with him. I
Speaker 5: hate that I have to talk about a fun time
Speaker 5: with someone that I hate.
Speaker 1: No, like I've been able to give that Yes, I've
Speaker 1: released in two years.
Speaker 5: Well in I guess before we get intoarve vanilla shit,
Speaker 5: because bitch, I got outline and we're gonna stick to it.
Speaker 1: This was in your outline. It was it was I
Speaker 1: want to ask you, how do you remember.
Speaker 5: And enjoy or relive or try to think back to
Speaker 5: good moments with people that ended up hurting you so badly?
Speaker 1: I forgave myself. Listen, Old Bay is a dope person.
Speaker 3: He's fun. I have fun memories with him. He definitely
Speaker 3: violated my trust and my loyalty, but I forgave myself
Speaker 3: because I just was like, there were so many good memories.
Speaker 1: He'll change, He's great. We're such a fit.
Speaker 3: Who am I gonna meet that also has money too
Speaker 3: and can travel the world with me? Boom next week,
Speaker 3: bitch anyway, just saying like these niggas and my new
Speaker 3: nigga's finer and more connected to me and my body
Speaker 3: and spiritually able to like understand that.
Speaker 1: He needs to fill me up. I was so surface
Speaker 1: level with Old Bay.
Speaker 3: I was having so much fun with this person that
Speaker 3: like I just kind of thought it'll work itself out.
Speaker 1: But I forgave myself. That was the thing. I spent
Speaker 1: so much time in therapy. This is not a projection.
Speaker 3: Yelling about this nigga being mad and feeling not jealous
Speaker 3: but just well, yes, jealous that he could move on.
Speaker 3: He moved on with someone else and she's beautiful and like,
Speaker 3: I'm sure she's great, and I was jealous that she
Speaker 3: could possibly be getting a version of him that I
Speaker 3: didn't see.
Speaker 5: But I forgave myself because I should have left that
Speaker 5: nigga a while ago. I think that's my problem. I'm
Speaker 5: so upset with him, but now I'm like upset that
Speaker 5: he's not here. That's my problem. I think that that's
Speaker 5: why you should be happy. I know, but that's where
Speaker 5: I'm having the difficulty. I'm not interested, like I'm still
Speaker 5: where are we? I'm literally almost a full year out
Speaker 5: of this fucking relationship and I'm not.
Speaker 1: I don't feel at all any further in.
Speaker 5: Feeling empty without him, Like I still as much as
Speaker 5: he hurt me, there's so much that I missed about
Speaker 5: how he made me feel or the feelings of those things.
Speaker 5: And we'll get into that for the horrible decision, because
Speaker 5: it's kind of where I've been, but we'll get to
Speaker 5: it to it anellowship of this week. I wanted to
Speaker 5: have fun with this just.
Speaker 1: A little bit, oh, because we argue about dre a
Speaker 1: few weeks ago, and.
Speaker 5: This is some well, this one isn't. This one isn't
Speaker 5: current events because bitch, fuck that shit. Y'all are getting
Speaker 5: current events out of me. But this one comes from
Speaker 5: spiritual word. Uh. And this is actually funny because I
Speaker 5: wanted the room, if anything, we could talk and open
Speaker 5: up the floor to y'all with how y'all are using
Speaker 5: your dick outside in these streets?
Speaker 1: You bless you?
Speaker 5: I felt another one coming. A new study says that
Speaker 5: five percent of American are now having sex to save.
Speaker 1: On heating bills.
Speaker 5: Five percent made surging utility costs.
Speaker 1: Let me, let me get, let me get the thing.
Speaker 5: As for a recent report by New homes Mates, forty
Speaker 5: six percent of the thousand Americans surveyed are finding it
Speaker 5: challenging to cover their bills, and approximately a quarter ought
Speaker 5: to wear additional clothing, while over a third have decided
Speaker 5: between heating and buying groceries to stay warm. Five percent
Speaker 5: are engaging in intimate activities huh, while two percent are
Speaker 5: actually just choosing to drink liquor, because y'all.
Speaker 1: Know that should make you hot.
Speaker 5: For a more lasting solution, the report found that sixty
Speaker 5: percent of homeowners made energy saving upgrades to their homes.
Speaker 5: This included sixteen percent who upgraded their windows twenty two
Speaker 5: percent who adopted their thermostatched, which is great because clearly
Speaker 5: they have money. But basically, women, couples or singles are
Speaker 5: choosing instead of putting on the heat and raising their
Speaker 5: utility bills, to just bite the motherfucker over and have
Speaker 5: some sex.
Speaker 3: I've done some dumb shit to like, I'll tell you
Speaker 3: the dumbest thing that I've done.
Speaker 1: Please share, audience, save to save money.
Speaker 3: So you probably heard me mention my nigga drives, my
Speaker 3: street has cleaning on, like I think it was Wednesday
Speaker 3: from midnight, midnight to three am. He was like, damn, bro,
Speaker 3: I should just park and get the ticket. The ticket's
Speaker 3: gonna be a hundred dollars whatever. I was like, or
Speaker 3: we can go out for three hours and save the
Speaker 3: money that you would have got on the ticket because
Speaker 3: we're already drunk, so we only gonna get two drinks
Speaker 3: when we go to Buns or whatever spot.
Speaker 1: We're gonna be straight.
Speaker 5: Wow, I actually thought you were gonna say, dumb, let's
Speaker 5: just fucking the car and then you can move it.
Speaker 1: I literally thought, oh, I'm gonna tell you what they do.
Speaker 1: Still spent money, not a honey for the ticket. So
Speaker 1: this is what I've been doing lately. So couldn't find
Speaker 1: a spot.
Speaker 3: The other night we went to this party and he
Speaker 3: was like like, damn baby, I was called.
Speaker 1: It was raining. He's like, let me double park. Kiss
Speaker 1: you can really the lower he SAIDs.
Speaker 3: A wild place. So then you know, pussy was out
Speaker 3: look at juicy and you could see his car from
Speaker 3: the window.
Speaker 1: Bitch. We was fucking just like this, waiting for the
Speaker 1: cop to come, just waiting for whatever. Fuck. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh did the police? No, no, you're not getting your ticket?
Speaker 1: Oh out And he was.
Speaker 5: Unting out the window for a parking police safer. He
Speaker 5: watched that pussy, and I watched for the police. I'm
Speaker 5: not playing with speaking of the police, I.
Speaker 3: Just want to say a lot of cops know who
Speaker 3: we are, and it's a very uncomfortable situation.
Speaker 1: Is this happened to you when a girl when you
Speaker 1: were in jail?
Speaker 5: Wait, calm down, Oh sorry, that mean wo bitch whoa,
Speaker 5: it was what you just said. I'd like to share
Speaker 5: my personal story here.
Speaker 1: Have you cheered my toes like me a few weeks ago?
Speaker 3: I'm like, let me talk about tell you what the job?
Speaker 5: No, bitch, I actually, uh have met quite a few
Speaker 5: cops and it's crazy because I like him in a uniform.
Speaker 5: Sobe blue lives matter just as much as blue balls.
Speaker 1: Oh many way? Is that bad?
Speaker 5: Way?
Speaker 1: Okay? Sorry, that was a bad joke, y'all work. We're
Speaker 1: comedians here. There's a comedian in my slash.
Speaker 5: So in my splash, my slash, I'm a media host,
Speaker 5: personality producer, comedian. Comedian allows me to offend everybody. I
Speaker 5: had to add it.
Speaker 1: Okay, babe, it was a bad joke. Sorry, So tell
Speaker 1: us about this motherfucker cop. So no, no, no, I'm just
Speaker 1: saying that. And I think I mentioned it to you.
Speaker 5: During my December stint on the dating app that should
Speaker 5: go unannounced, I matched with a nigga who was in
Speaker 5: the academy and I was so ready because you know,
Speaker 5: I already had a firefighter.
Speaker 1: I said, ooh, the next will gonna be a cop,
Speaker 1: different uniform. I'm hype. I actually love a.
Speaker 5: Man in uniform. But it just wasn't working. Uh, it
Speaker 5: just wasn't It just wasn't working. But the cops that
Speaker 5: I've met on the out, y'all listen to the pod
Speaker 5: by the way, because y'all stopped me on the train,
Speaker 5: y'all stopped me on the corner. I didn't have at
Speaker 5: least three four cops be like.
Speaker 1: Like your show me like what you're doing.
Speaker 5: I have a lot of women come up to me,
Speaker 5: women cops. Do you think it's weird that cops listen
Speaker 5: to us?
Speaker 1: No, I mean, no one's ever come up to me.
Speaker 1: That's not.
Speaker 5: But I ain't gonna hold you any any career that
Speaker 5: has an extensive overtime pay full of pores because you
Speaker 5: could always just say, babe, I'm working like lawyers, cops, doctors.
Speaker 1: Like, I don't know, want to be a horror to
Speaker 1: listen to the show? No, No, you don't. I'm not
Speaker 1: even a horror and I do this.
Speaker 5: Show so so in your slash liars there, Okay, gotcha?
Speaker 1: Actually, do you want to know how much about Hawaii?
Speaker 1: Am so? For this Hawaii trip?
Speaker 3: We're like looking up shit, trying to figure out where
Speaker 3: we're gonna go, right, And I was like, yo, I
Speaker 3: just want us to have a really relaxing time, Like
Speaker 3: I don't want to party. Maybe we'll look for like
Speaker 3: a little black in Oahu group and we'll do one
Speaker 3: little aprob thing we go to. Baby. He was like, yeah,
Speaker 3: I want to wake up really. Plus we're gonna be
Speaker 3: six hours. Let's relax girl. Somehow I stumbled upon a
Speaker 3: sex party on a yacht in Hawaii the day we leave,
Speaker 3: and I was like.
Speaker 5: Oh, no, y'all gotta say the next night. Yeah, yeah, no,
Speaker 5: you just have. I was like, hey, I know that
Speaker 5: we were talking about relaxing.
Speaker 1: How am I gonna lie? And this is now?
Speaker 3: You just have to let them know for research purposes.
Speaker 3: I literally said, I think I should charge this to
Speaker 3: the car. I was like, oh, bitch, yep.
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, no, Now if you want to fly
Speaker 4: me to Hawaii on the business so that I too
Speaker 4: can experience this for research now, I just feel like
Speaker 4: they don't need.
Speaker 1: To be charging me because I'm gonna plug them. But no.
Speaker 3: We literally had to extend the fucking little car, extend
Speaker 3: the saying, and I was like, yeah, I really feel
Speaker 3: like I should be doing this. It's very difficult when
Speaker 3: you're like trying to be good, not try, because the
Speaker 3: horror comes out of you, you know, like where horror,
Speaker 3: the horror, horror, horror.
Speaker 1: It's really bad.
Speaker 3: Like I literally can't look at women in pilates or
Speaker 3: you yoka, Like.
Speaker 1: It's like, so you sexualized women.
Speaker 5: I'm horny because there's a war even side of me.
Speaker 1: Bro, has anyone ever done a happy baby position? You
Speaker 1: know what? This is? No go ahead? You just want
Speaker 1: to work your ass?
Speaker 5: No no, no, no, no, no no, Like, oh wait, you
Speaker 5: really when you you can't do it in it?
Speaker 1: Like is it? Is it a squirt? Is that? Why? Oh? Bro?
Speaker 5: You miss how nasty y'all? She this happy baby and
Speaker 5: you basically stretch.
Speaker 1: Your Oh yeah, I ain't gonna lie. I only look
Speaker 1: at bitches when they dog e yo, pussy crowd crowding cow?
Speaker 1: What are this everybody? And like that's the point, It's like,
Speaker 1: what the fuck?
Speaker 3: This ship is so horrish and sexual that, like I
Speaker 3: just want to know if I'm in a yoga class
Speaker 3: of fifteen bitches, you telling me nine ain't thinking the city.
Speaker 1: I'm thinking, I ain't gonna hold you. They have to
Speaker 1: look good. I don't know you could be ugly and
Speaker 1: I still think about it. Oh my god, all right, listen,
Speaker 1: ugly people.
Speaker 3: To have hot sex. I like, gang, you never watch people.
Speaker 5: Oh I'm not gonna lie literally and I've said it
Speaker 5: too much times on here. Now I literally be like,
Speaker 5: oh you so fine, Oh you're so fine, Oh you're
Speaker 5: so fine. I literally come up of how good they look, bitch,
Speaker 5: and if they ugly, I'll be like, this doesn't work
Speaker 5: for me.
Speaker 1: Okay, bitch, I'm gonna start sending you. I'm gonna start
Speaker 1: sending you videos so you can see these niggas be fun. Yep.
Speaker 1: The way these motherfuckers keep getting me to subscribe today,
Speaker 1: only fans just gonna look at the body.
Speaker 4: No.
Speaker 1: The only thing I can't do is a bad wig.
Speaker 1: No no, no, well I girl in South Africa. I shouldn't
Speaker 1: have paid her that wig.
Speaker 5: With men and they have to look so good that
Speaker 5: I can imagine them being my partner Hardwig hard life,
Speaker 5: because I was like, ooh baby, take that, ooh baby,
Speaker 5: give that, ooh baby, and I'll be acting like the
Speaker 5: man is my man and I'm watching him in action
Speaker 5: with another man. This is where my mind goes. I
Speaker 5: am I am directing okay, but anyways, let's to get
Speaker 5: into our hoar dirve.
Speaker 1: Not for this.
Speaker 5: It's kind of blending vanilla shit with a hoar dirve.
Speaker 5: I want your advice for this, give me a sex
Speaker 5: tip for this advice.
Speaker 1: South. After admitting that she reported her husband.
Speaker 5: To the police because of his creepy sexual kink, a
Speaker 5: woman has asked for clarification on whether or not she
Speaker 5: was in the wrong.
Speaker 1: Was the King? I'm about to get to it, because
Speaker 1: you know, I like a better knife.
Speaker 5: So a woman has been urged to pack up her
Speaker 5: things and leave her spouse after she shared that his
Speaker 5: sexual kink made her feel uncomfortable and she had reported him.
Speaker 1: To the police. Bab dl, do I know the King?
Speaker 1: You know the King? It's not baby diaper And based on.
Speaker 5: Where we kind of draw the lines with our fantasies,
Speaker 5: this is why I wanted to ask this question, especially
Speaker 5: based a couple of weeks ago on yours.
Speaker 1: South. Oh my god, hold on, let me get to it.
Speaker 1: She says.
Speaker 5: I told him it makes me very uncomfortable, but I
Speaker 5: went along with it for a short period of time
Speaker 5: because he said it's the only thing that can get
Speaker 5: him off now.
Speaker 1: But I just couldn't continue.
Speaker 5: With it anymore as it was making me fear for
Speaker 5: my life. His kink is essentially waterboard to have me
Speaker 5: to pretend to be dead and lifeless. The woman revealed
Speaker 5: that this sexual preference was a recent change, and hiss
Speaker 5: caused her to question her husband's mental state. Okay, he's
Speaker 5: also been getting a lot more angry and aggressive with
Speaker 5: me later lately, she adds. Wanting to get help for him,
Speaker 5: the woman decided to report him to the police so
Speaker 5: they could speak to him and he could get some
Speaker 5: professional help. However, thing's backfired, with the husband, of course,
Speaker 5: threatening her before she went to the authorities.
Speaker 1: Oh if she ends up dead, well well I don't know.
Speaker 5: But for this specific one, we've talked about the R
Speaker 5: word kinks. We've talked about kidnapping kinks. I've also played
Speaker 5: this with my ex in terms of the R word.
Speaker 5: For the sex tip this week, I wanted to ask
Speaker 5: you and both of us can do this together, Ay,
Speaker 5: what would be a sex tip to communicate to your
Speaker 5: partner that you can't help but judge them for their
Speaker 5: kink and also, though you want to please your partner,
Speaker 5: if you're uninterested in their kink.
Speaker 1: What should you do.
Speaker 5: So, I think that we've opened up the dialogue to
Speaker 5: have people want to try a whole bunch of new things.
Speaker 5: And clearly, as you're with somebody, maybe they're kinks and
Speaker 5: fetishes change over time. How would you communicate a partner
Speaker 5: coming to you with a kink that actually makes you uncomfortable,
Speaker 5: especially because she did say she played.
Speaker 1: Into the kink a few times.
Speaker 3: So I think that the scary thing about this because
Speaker 3: with mine, with the butter NIGHTE situation, I told him
Speaker 3: I want this, okay, well, I want you to scare.
Speaker 3: I told him I wanted to feel scared. I want
Speaker 3: to like you know, it was a feeling that you wanted.
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay.
Speaker 3: With this specifically, I'm trying to think what would I say,
Speaker 3: because I would definitely offer a suggestion, like, for example,
Speaker 3: someone told me they wanted me to play dead nick kink,
Speaker 3: I'd be like, that makes me feel really unsafe, but
Speaker 3: I would do a pillow princess thing.
Speaker 1: Okay, but hello, hello.
Speaker 5: It's weird because I remember role playing where I specifically
Speaker 5: wanted to be so intoxicated that I consented prior and
Speaker 5: told him I'm going to act like I can't consent
Speaker 5: h And so though I was so intoxicated, I wasn't lifeless,
Speaker 5: but I absolutely was like acting so inebriated that you know.
Speaker 1: And now I like to be woken up with Dick
Speaker 1: like I like to be faked. Well that too.
Speaker 5: And again, if he's saying that this is his kink,
Speaker 5: you would say that you would just flat out say
Speaker 5: this makes me uncomfortable and I can't do this for you.
Speaker 3: If if for the one that she's talking about to
Speaker 3: play dead, I don't like.
Speaker 5: That, okay, because so let's not What about something else
Speaker 5: that makes you uncomfortable like scatt maybe Okay, then I
Speaker 5: would probably offer pe.
Speaker 1: So you would just offer something to kind of compromise.
Speaker 3: So like I do think there's a compromise in everything.
Speaker 3: For example, like my fantasy would be two guys, right.
Speaker 1: But you're done.
Speaker 3: I know I ain't gonna beat but I've definitely had
Speaker 3: the dirty talk of it. Oh yeah, I've had the
Speaker 3: fingers in my mouth like you wish another digues in
Speaker 3: your mouth like I've had that. Yeah, And so I
Speaker 3: think that there's things of like compromise with everything, and
Speaker 3: I never want my own desires. Excuse me, let me
Speaker 3: say that my boundaries to be violated. Like I'm my
Speaker 3: year of no bro right. I love saying though it's
Speaker 3: my favorite thing. I think I say it a lot
Speaker 3: for work. Me to say it a lot for so
Speaker 3: you beget a lot of notes form me. You want
Speaker 3: to grab a drink? No, you know, like you want
Speaker 3: to record this? No, I say no to you too.
Speaker 5: Ye saying no to each other and I think like
Speaker 5: it's a lot of cows over you. No no, no
Speaker 5: no is such a It's something we are scared to say.
Speaker 1: And I'm so glad that we are both comfortable.
Speaker 5: I thought you were trying to give you a high five.
Speaker 5: No yea for me, I'll be honest with you. I
Speaker 5: think this is the thing when it comes to kinks, fetishes,
Speaker 5: or how you and your partner have chemistry in the bedroom,
Speaker 5: it's really important for you to also come to the
Speaker 5: realization that this may not be your person.
Speaker 1: I think that calling the cops is a.
Speaker 5: Lot and unless you know that Nigga be going to
Speaker 5: the cemetery to smoke some blunts and maybe that Nigga
Speaker 5: lent no no, no no, I get that, but that's
Speaker 5: that's outside of the bedroom. That's outside of the bedroom.
Speaker 5: I'm talking about this.
Speaker 3: If a man has been violent with you and then
Speaker 3: when you as fuck, he wants you to play dad bitch,
Speaker 3: that go to Gaelpaho, Okay, I'm scared. I I don't
Speaker 3: want me to play daddy. He wasn't cussing me out
Speaker 3: and hitting me. Maybe I'd be like this, ain't that scary?
Speaker 1: Oh? You telling me you get bothered.
Speaker 5: With me and then we want me to be angry
Speaker 5: and aggressive. That doesn't say that he's been beating her ass.
Speaker 5: So to me, though, that's where I'm taking that out
Speaker 5: of the bedroom. It's not It doesn't say that he's
Speaker 5: been doing that in the bedroom. So to me, that's
Speaker 5: where we're separating our desires and the behaviors in the bedroom.
Speaker 5: Clearly a relationship you shouldn't be with a man who
Speaker 5: you feel.
Speaker 1: Unsafe with period. We talked about the same.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but to me, this is literally leaning into the
Speaker 5: kink because our minds go crazy. There's bondage. But you
Speaker 5: just had a butt of night to your throat crazy.
Speaker 5: Iw I ain't here for it. Like I've got conversations
Speaker 5: with men who were like, you can't say, I that's
Speaker 5: it ain't for me y'all could do it. And if
Speaker 5: a man came to me ew my yam. Okay, yuck,
Speaker 5: it's yuck, my yam. But you ew though that's what
Speaker 5: I'm saying, you didn't say yuh. Well, because I don't
Speaker 5: like blood. I don't want you to act like you
Speaker 5: about to stab me. I talked about my Okay, what.
Speaker 3: It wasn't periods sex, bitch, because I'm gonna tell you
Speaker 3: right now we don't have our salt for a moment.
Speaker 5: But well, I'll say that there was someone that I
Speaker 5: was once interested in having sex with, and as soon
Speaker 5: as he let me know that his kink was knife,
Speaker 5: plate and blood, you have go find you a partner
Speaker 5: for that. I literally was not interested because A that's
Speaker 5: my boundary. I can't fulfill you. But I'm also not
Speaker 5: gonna have sex knowing that I'm not gonna fulfill you.
Speaker 3: And also, like to be fair, if the knife play
Speaker 3: was him actually wanting to see blood and it wasn't
Speaker 3: like this fantasy play.
Speaker 1: Would that have been different for you? Yeah?
Speaker 3: Okay, because to me, we're in this uh, I'm blind.
Speaker 3: Photo's just pretend land seeing the blood, the slicing.
Speaker 1: I don't. I can't do that, okay.
Speaker 5: So basically your suggestion, though overall, would be if you
Speaker 5: don't feel safe with this person, if you can't please
Speaker 5: this person, leave this person.
Speaker 1: No I think that. Okay, that's not true. That was
Speaker 1: my advice. I said, leave them.
Speaker 5: If this thiga got a cake, that make me uncomfortable
Speaker 5: so much so that I'm judging you and thinking to
Speaker 5: call the police because I think you need.
Speaker 1: Professional Oh, I'm gonna leave you. Why can't we just
Speaker 1: not do that part of sex? Though?
Speaker 5: Boom, you have a look. I'm like you like to peg,
Speaker 5: So if you can't peg a nigga, he's supposed.
Speaker 1: To leave you.
Speaker 5: Well. No, To be very clear, then he was open
Speaker 5: knowing that that was my kink and he was not interested.
Speaker 1: But if it was a hard no, you would have
Speaker 1: left him. He would no, no, no. But his compromise was
Speaker 1: to allow me to do it to someone else.
Speaker 5: So if if you don't have the wherewithal to let
Speaker 5: your partner go enjoy this kink with someone else, that's
Speaker 5: a whole different. I assume this to be a monogamous relationship.
Speaker 5: Pegging was a hard note for my ex, but he
Speaker 5: was open to allowing me to do it.
Speaker 1: With someone else.
Speaker 5: So it's not like I was kept from my from
Speaker 5: my kink or my pleasure at all. There wasn't a
Speaker 5: boundary put on what I wanted to enjoy with this.
Speaker 5: It sounds like, bitch, I gave you a little bit now, and.
Speaker 1: That's okay for there to be boundaries.
Speaker 3: Maybe you just did not have anything as crazy, and
Speaker 3: I agree this, there's boundary.
Speaker 1: Can I take over your horder with my foot job?
Speaker 1: That shit was really fun?
Speaker 5: Look at you wanting to bleed into my outline. No,
Speaker 5: you should have followed your own outline. I want to
Speaker 5: get into the horrible decision. All right, we don't have
Speaker 5: to talk about my foot job. Good, all right, we'll
Speaker 5: save it for another episode. We're gonna get in to
Speaker 5: the horrible decision because.
Speaker 1: Maybe, yeah, the niggas that want to pay for feet,
Speaker 1: they are in here. Pete. I want to you having
Speaker 1: a man in lifting your legs this many times? Babe?
Speaker 1: You trying to show plus to the YouTube.
Speaker 3: I did see something recently that was like, if you
Speaker 3: got a nigga, how many thirst traps can you do?
Speaker 1: And I was like, wait, I was who said it?
Speaker 3: It was conversation with Zoh and he like, sent me something,
Speaker 3: and he'll send me some of the clips. But I
Speaker 3: saw like, are thirst traps allowed if you're taking first off?
Speaker 1: If you find everything a thirst? Hello, bitch.
Speaker 3: Gonna be like he controlled niggas being hungry. I really
Speaker 3: be at the beach, babe, They're going to be starving
Speaker 3: for me.
Speaker 5: I could literally have my face beat it be a
Speaker 5: selfie and my lips look like it could wrap around.
Speaker 1: They dick. I can't help that. They won't it. These
Speaker 1: lisps be looking volumptuous way and do your petty lives
Speaker 1: for drama. Don't see the thing is you have to
Speaker 1: do that. You better calm the fuck down.
Speaker 5: You see what I mean? You see why I can't
Speaker 5: take her serious breath? And look everybody laughing? Why y'all laughing?
Speaker 5: I don't like seeing all his teeth in the background producers.
Speaker 1: Honestly, it's just honestly shot the bro I'm gonna tell you.
Speaker 5: It's only funny because I feel like I'm not keeping
Speaker 5: up enough.
Speaker 1: So whenever someone else told me better, I'm be like,
Speaker 1: what what do you mean?
Speaker 4: Me?
Speaker 1: Want to call me and to be like, hey, how's
Speaker 1: the weather, just so she can tell me. Sometimes I
Speaker 1: don't even be doing that. But I love other people'
Speaker 1: dramas the crazy thing, but.
Speaker 5: I don't be when I tell you I don't have drama.
Speaker 5: That's why I watch, you know, drama. I don't know
Speaker 5: what y'all talking about. I ain't got no drama. This
Speaker 5: is why I like reality TV. I'd be like, ooh,
Speaker 5: they lives. There's so much more drama food than mine.
Speaker 1: I ain't got no drama. What is this noise you're making?
Speaker 1: That drama is subjective and I ain't got a bitch.
Speaker 5: You literally just say I really going on the internet
Speaker 5: drama that was a couple of weeks ago. If we anyway,
Speaker 5: we're not gonna do this. I ain't got no drama
Speaker 5: because you know what's crazy. I don't think about nobody,
Speaker 5: So no more pain. You kind of look like her
Speaker 5: to with his little outfit. You could be on stage.
Speaker 1: Somehow like Mary. Don't do this.
Speaker 5: You look like the boots and is First off, sorry,
Speaker 5: first off, these boots ain't high enough to be married.
Speaker 1: That's true. They gotta go above my knee.
Speaker 5: But you can figure it out, all right, speaking of
Speaker 5: you might be able to pitch your little foot job thing.
Speaker 1: No, I'm not that. No, you might be able to No, Okay,
Speaker 1: that's fine. Put up bread brendon, y'all. Make sure you
Speaker 1: get your tickets now.
Speaker 5: May fifth, we are at the Earth Theater in London's
Speaker 5: and we made this a specific request to be in
Speaker 5: London on the weekend so that are are all of
Speaker 5: our euro people can come and see this.
Speaker 1: We want our whole Europe.
Speaker 5: And Europe pull whatever, all the black people that live
Speaker 5: over there, just take that another fucking Eurostar and come
Speaker 5: and see us.
Speaker 3: We're gonna be there May fifth. We are having a
Speaker 3: whole new show, one that you didn't see. This is
Speaker 3: a part of the Climax tour. So even if you
Speaker 3: were on the Climax Tour and you need a little trip,
Speaker 3: it's gonna be warmer, it's gonna be fun.
Speaker 1: Come through and see ag that's right.
Speaker 5: Make sure you head on over to hohrehive dot com
Speaker 5: and get your tickets now. So for the horrible decision
Speaker 5: this week, I want to lean into being touch starved,
Speaker 5: which I've been talking about a lot. I talked about
Speaker 5: it on Patreon like a month ago. Oh shit, sorry,
Speaker 5: not the bird. It was like gonna be through a
Speaker 5: a banana which you haven't sent me. I don't appreciate.
Speaker 5: Calm down, Calm down, we gonna giddy, We gonna giddy.
Speaker 5: Uh So, being touchstarved is also something I'm dealing with,
Speaker 5: not only in therapy, but this podcast and where the
Speaker 5: fuck I am in my fucking life.
Speaker 4: And.
Speaker 5: Oh my god, it's giving I changed because if y'all
Speaker 5: go back to the fucking beginning of this podcast, I
Speaker 5: talk about fucking niggas, did not kissing them, fucking.
Speaker 1: Niggas, ad not cuddling, doing all.
Speaker 5: Of those things, And since my relationship, that's been something
Speaker 5: I now realize I am completely yearning. It ain't even dick,
Speaker 5: even though I got the one nigga, which hopefully I
Speaker 5: get my round three, But I don't crave at all
Speaker 5: sex as much as I realize. I'm crying to my
Speaker 5: therapist saying that I want to cuddle, that I want
Speaker 5: to hug, that I want someone to massage me, and
Speaker 5: not one that I pay for, but one that's a
Speaker 5: little bit more intimate. I think we talked about on
Speaker 5: our Patreon that I found intimacy and watching a TV
Speaker 5: show with somebody and how much I missed that, and
Speaker 5: so I don't I could say it's getting older. But
Speaker 5: the things that I crave now from a man is
Speaker 5: so different than just the sexual desire to be with one.
Speaker 5: It's feeling respected, it's feeling cared for, it's feeling loved,
Speaker 5: it's feeling protected, it's feeling safe, all those things, And
Speaker 5: I realized that a lot of those things come with
Speaker 5: intimacy and everything that has nothing to do with actual
Speaker 5: dick and pussy. No vagina, no nothing. That's why I said,
Speaker 5: maybe you get to talk about your foot job, because
Speaker 5: maybe that's intimate. Maybe that don't count of sex. But
Speaker 5: job sound like a job, not really sick well to me. Actually,
Speaker 5: this is something interesting. The foot job, which I won't go.
Speaker 3: Into detail with us because I stopped trying, was how
Speaker 3: sex was about to start. And then we were both like,
Speaker 3: maybe we shouldn't come, Maybe we should hold it for
Speaker 3: our vacation. Like we're gonna be on vacation for a week,
Speaker 3: we're gonna be ten days as long. That's the longest.
Speaker 3: The longest we've been together was a week. And he
Speaker 3: literally was like, bitch, you don't annoy me.
Speaker 1: This is crazy. He don't call me bitch, but that's
Speaker 1: really my day. But Yeah, we have to go between
Speaker 1: LA to Hawaii back to LA leaving from New York.
Speaker 1: It's a lot. So we talked about holding it.
Speaker 3: He was like, yo, people go there for their honeymoon, Like,
Speaker 3: let's fucking hold this calm girl was crazy, literally like
Speaker 3: my foot.
Speaker 1: I thought his dick was gonna break, that's how heart
Speaker 1: he was.
Speaker 3: But say all that to say, I realized how intense
Speaker 3: the intimacy gets when you aren't having sex. We went
Speaker 3: to d C a few weeks ago. I met some
Speaker 3: of the whore Hive. They were great. Shout out to Marjorie.
Speaker 3: I hope that's her name at the lysle Long story short,
Speaker 3: we had a forty five hour make forty five minute
Speaker 3: makeout session and he told me he thought it was
Speaker 3: the best sex we ever had, And I was like, really,
Speaker 3: He's like, yo, it was such a build up for
Speaker 3: me touching you, looking at you, kissing you, talking to you,
Speaker 3: listening to the music in the bacts Like, it was
Speaker 3: so much of a build And I think that type
Speaker 3: of shit when you don't have sex, it's like it
Speaker 3: almost makes the sex not that big a deal.
Speaker 1: Right, You definitely need a cuddle, buddy, girl.
Speaker 5: It's so crazy because the word need is something I'm
Speaker 5: battling with now because of all the trauma associated. We
Speaker 5: can need touch, and I realize, though I do I
Speaker 5: need it, why don't you just do it with a woman? Well,
Speaker 5: so can I tell you? Oh my god, I hate
Speaker 5: that you brought that up because I was just in
Speaker 5: my fucking therapy. It's a sair when I tell you,
Speaker 5: I absolutely love and adore my friends. They've been now
Speaker 5: joining me on tour. They've been like, bitch, what city
Speaker 5: we go into next? Because I get to fly people
Speaker 5: in now and shit has camped and I feel like
Speaker 5: I'm on tour with my friends and I love it.
Speaker 5: I'm in a space where I realize love my homegirls
Speaker 5: to death, love intimately or not intimately, love fucking women.
Speaker 1: I have zero desire to date.
Speaker 5: Women, not dating man, no even being intimate, Like, oh,
Speaker 5: I don't want that with a woman. I enjoy eating
Speaker 5: slim pussy, rubin on a titty, kissing you with a
Speaker 5: man in the I sparke cuddling friends before. Yeah, but
Speaker 5: that's an I still want a man right now. I
Speaker 5: want that from a man.
Speaker 3: So I was going to make a comment about the
Speaker 3: touch starve Yes, but I think you may need to
Speaker 3: try out to just surprise yourself. The dude I was
Speaker 3: dating two years ago, Dreamville dude, he said to me
Speaker 3: during the pandemic, he was.
Speaker 1: So stuck to his computer.
Speaker 3: The company we worked for is when we were all
Speaker 3: participating in during the pandemic.
Speaker 1: I feel like you don't have to give any more details.
Speaker 3: No, no, no, I was just going to say, I feel
Speaker 3: like there wasn't a person that didn't almost crash this company,
Speaker 3: right because of how much And he said, I didn't
Speaker 3: get to leave my computer and I went to get
Speaker 3: a stretch, and he was like, I didn't even realize
Speaker 3: the person that touched me, like how much my body
Speaker 3: felt full, like I needed to be touched. I think there,
Speaker 3: it's easier said than done because you're associating all of
Speaker 3: that with a person that you love in a romantic way.
Speaker 3: Some touch can happen, bro, and I think you should
Speaker 3: explore it. And I think with try just try to
Speaker 3: survive yourself with central massages, with maybe some.
Speaker 1: Cuddling with people that you know you won't fuck.
Speaker 3: Just that touch point, Like it's like when you hug
Speaker 3: someone that really needs a hug, like you don't realize
Speaker 3: you need a hug until you get one.
Speaker 5: So that's the thing. I don't want to pay for
Speaker 5: a massage, I know. Oh and it's open now, so
Speaker 5: he back on the schedule of my to go see him.
Speaker 5: But oh, bitch, flood iron baby is open. Uh huh,
Speaker 5: don't be looking. Don't say, don't be going to get
Speaker 5: a masta. Oh Ben should fiel his massages? Oh yeah, yeah,
Speaker 5: let me bish when he put my leg up, baby.
Speaker 5: But even that, I realized that I want someone to
Speaker 5: spend the night. Oh like, I want the intimacy of
Speaker 5: those things without of course without sex, but I don't
Speaker 5: want to have to pay for it. You know, I
Speaker 5: ain't paying for Dick. I don't want to pay for
Speaker 5: Enemacy is a goddamn it. I just want somebody that
Speaker 5: I actually like to be around me, to cuddle, to
Speaker 5: lay up with, to fucking enjoy.
Speaker 1: And that's it.
Speaker 5: So being touch starved is where I'm just like, damn,
Speaker 5: I actually do need a person before we get to
Speaker 5: homell because I wanted to. I wanted to share with
Speaker 5: you guys the potential effects of a woman who is
Speaker 5: touch starved. And I mean it could be you could
Speaker 5: become a murderer. But I wanted to go through these
Speaker 5: things because where we may feel like we don't need
Speaker 5: a partner, we don't need nobody, especially in this modern
Speaker 5: woman era of super independency and codependency being such a
Speaker 5: bad word associated with relationships. I realize how much I
Speaker 5: need intimacy from someone that I'm not only attracted to,
Speaker 5: but someone that I feel safe with. So it's not
Speaker 5: a stranger, it's somebody that I genuinely like to be around,
Speaker 5: which is hard because you niggas be a niggas. Anyways,
Speaker 5: Things in which can be affected if you are not
Speaker 5: getting intimacy. The first one is low self esteem, loneliness,
Speaker 5: a lack of emotional connection. This one might be why
Speaker 5: the fuck I will celibate, decreased libido, increased stress, which
Speaker 5: that's not surprising. My word that I'm also working through
Speaker 5: in therapy right now, Resentment, a communication gap of course, infidelity,
Speaker 5: a negative body image, and for those of you in
Speaker 5: a relationship or in a marriage, this is actually where
Speaker 5: I know we talk about fucking money. A lack of
Speaker 5: physical intimacy is one of the leading causes of divorce,
Speaker 5: and of course it's because it leads to not only resentment,
Speaker 5: but sometimes in fidelity sometimes because that's a real connection, right,
Speaker 5: and it's needed as human beings. Okay, hey Jesus Mohammad Allah,
Speaker 5: I don't know all the love you hate it.
Speaker 1: I don't know why, you know.
Speaker 5: I'm mad that it got wired that way because now
Speaker 5: I'm dependent on another human being for this, Like what
Speaker 5: aliens that bring them? Damn bitch, I'm waiting. But we'dn't
Speaker 5: been wired this way by our creator to actually need
Speaker 5: someone else. And in my super independence as a woman
Speaker 5: and a part of me that actually felt strong and
Speaker 5: saying I don't need no man a, I'm like, fuck,
Speaker 5: I really fucking need this person to make me feel
Speaker 5: this way. And it has so many connections, so so
Speaker 5: many other things.
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say this because I think you and a
Speaker 3: lot of people need to hear it. Saying you need
Speaker 3: connection is okay and very healthy. That's why we, you know,
Speaker 3: replace friendships sometimes a partners. Like maybe you're watching a
Speaker 3: show or a movie with a friend because you're single
Speaker 3: right now, or you're taking trips with a friend because
Speaker 3: you're single right now, like just because you need Like
Speaker 3: it's just we have to live our lives. And do,
Speaker 3: and I think that is the thing that we're not doing.
Speaker 3: At least I could speak for myself because I was
Speaker 3: becoming so angry with my ex for the reason that
Speaker 3: I was single, that I couldn't just enjoy anymore. And
Speaker 3: like the openness I had for people was so close
Speaker 3: because I was so mad. That is the final phase
Speaker 3: of grieving in a breakup. I think, Okay, it's like
Speaker 3: my self worth. I'm not really speaking about you, but me.
Speaker 3: My self worth was becoming so attached to him and
Speaker 3: me thinking you talked about a friend that said they
Speaker 3: couldn't be around you because they were you know, uh,
Speaker 3: partnered or whatever, And like for me, I had felt
Speaker 3: that I wasn't feeling worthy because this person was gone,
Speaker 3: which is crazy because when we see single women we
Speaker 3: kind of pity them. Not we society pities them. She
Speaker 3: could have left a terrible person, right, you know, there's
Speaker 3: so much power in that antally unhappy people are we
Speaker 3: seeing in relationships. I was unhappy at the end, not
Speaker 3: for the full part of my relationship or even even
Speaker 3: more than half of my relationship was great, but I think.
Speaker 1: That like.
Speaker 3: The weight of the word need makes people feel like
Speaker 3: they're giving up their own power, but it's okay. Like
Speaker 3: living your life until it happens is the number one priority.
Speaker 3: I literally wrote in this book yesterday or journal, excuse me, yesterday,
Speaker 3: I was reading some of the things with the person
Speaker 3: that I'm dating, how happy and how I couldn't believe
Speaker 3: what was happening to me was like I really had
Speaker 3: just focused so much on my own personal joy day
Speaker 3: to day instead of being angry. Literally, I mean maybe
Speaker 3: the first eight things I wrote about I want someone alternative.
Speaker 3: I talked about wanting someone that looked like Lenny Kravitz,
Speaker 3: wro wrote it down it was crazy. And then the
Speaker 3: one of the final things I wrote was a man
Speaker 3: that makes me feel so sure of my place in
Speaker 3: their life. And on the next page I wrote about
Speaker 3: the things that I wanted for myself and that what
Speaker 3: it's tired of myself doing. And the thing that I
Speaker 3: wrote was, I'm so tired of feeling like it's my fault,
Speaker 3: like I get chosen over. I get so tired of
Speaker 3: feeling like I made a choice in my life that's
Speaker 3: keeping me from a partner.
Speaker 1: And I used to think, not horrible podcast. I was
Speaker 1: about to say not horrible, but just.
Speaker 3: Like my freedom, my personality supersedes horrible. Right, I've always
Speaker 3: been this girl. Yep, before I had a podcast, I
Speaker 3: might talk about sex and with everybody. Right, that used
Speaker 3: to scare me and like, ooh, is that why people
Speaker 3: don't want to end up dating me?
Speaker 5: Bro?
Speaker 3: We are exactly where we're supposed to be, and the
Speaker 3: people we meet celebrate that, and they'll match that and
Speaker 3: make that feel that energy feel increased and like purposeful.
Speaker 1: So like it's really about knowing that you're in the
Speaker 1: right place. Bro.
Speaker 3: Timing is everything, Like it's so everything. You're gonna meet
Speaker 3: a nigga because it's just happening to me right now.
Speaker 1: This is count number like sixteen, what for the N word?
Speaker 3: We both send each other a concert that we wanted
Speaker 3: to go to. It's elsewhere, Like same time. He was like, yo,
Speaker 3: you really like mine and I was like, bruh, I
Speaker 3: can't believe I met you right now? What if I
Speaker 3: met you two years ago and you're with your ex
Speaker 3: and I couldn't have you and I realize like, oh,
Speaker 3: we're meeting people that say, oll day meeting the person
Speaker 3: he's with. What if you met that bitch a month before?
Speaker 3: Right or he couldn't have been with her, He wasn't
Speaker 3: ready to be with her. He went through therapy, like
Speaker 3: we are so much in timing, Like the people were
Speaker 3: supposed to be with they're going through their face. You're
Speaker 3: going through therapy for when Nigga that you end up
Speaker 3: meeting seventeen count seventeen, he may like he may count
Speaker 3: you just said I said sixteen times.
Speaker 1: Oh okay, okay, nigga.
Speaker 3: He might really dislike equality that you are working through.
Speaker 3: If you met him today, you would he would not
Speaker 3: be able to be with you.
Speaker 1: I mean, you know what I told you. That's why
Speaker 1: I'm revisiting uh oh oh from okay.
Speaker 3: But that's what I'm saying right Like the person that
Speaker 3: you're looking for, there may be something they need to
Speaker 3: get over. There may be maturity levels they need to reach.
Speaker 3: Like I really have a strong belief that like there's
Speaker 3: a divinity and timing and I just believe that you're
Speaker 3: not our love but my life.
Speaker 1: Can I ask you?
Speaker 5: Then maybe you're a lot more emotional than me, So
Speaker 5: I feel like you need a guy way more than you. No, No,
Speaker 5: when I say emotional in regards to your ability to
Speaker 5: hop in and out relationships with people that you feel
Speaker 5: safe and comfortable and move forward with. And I ask
Speaker 5: you this because in terms of intimacy, how do you
Speaker 5: find or request this? So this is my issue right now.
Speaker 5: So I got the little nigga that you know y'all
Speaker 5: saw each other at that event at one time, you know, the.
Speaker 1: One I told you. So, I have.
Speaker 5: Mitch, the one I just sucked his dick and didn't
Speaker 5: get oh, okay him okay. So even with him, right,
Speaker 5: we know that we have this. It's not a relationship.
Speaker 5: We have casual sex and we enjoy each other. We
Speaker 5: talk damn there every day, but it doesn't go beyond
Speaker 5: us talking about how we can't wait to fuck each
Speaker 5: other the next time we see each other. So, because
Speaker 5: it's so casual, before we wrap out of here, this
Speaker 5: is my home mail and I would like your advice
Speaker 5: on it. I am having casual sex with somebody while
Speaker 5: also craving intimacy. This person I do not want to
Speaker 5: be with, but this person I truly enjoy being with
Speaker 5: when we're together. However him yes, However, in the times
Speaker 5: that we're together, and we talked about it all have
Speaker 5: my own rooms sometimes all the time, and we kind
Speaker 5: of enjoy what we've already created. However, I need fucking intimacy.
Speaker 5: How do I communicate to someone who I've already created
Speaker 5: a casual sex relationship with that I might want us
Speaker 5: to stay in the same room and cuddle, that I
Speaker 5: might want to wake up next to him, that I
Speaker 5: might want kisses on my forehead, and that I don't
Speaker 5: really want much else but in the time that we're together,
Speaker 5: because it it literally were never together, like we'll be
Speaker 5: together for like two days straight. How do I request
Speaker 5: intimacy from a casual sex.
Speaker 1: Is such a home mail question. I'm sure a lot of.
Speaker 5: People I know, I know, and and by the way,
Speaker 5: we have men in the room. So intimacy with a
Speaker 5: casual sex partner. If any of y'all have any advice,
Speaker 5: please come to the mic.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 3: So this is an interesting thing because this was a
Speaker 3: topic that came up in my relationship because when I'm
Speaker 3: away and I'm in LA and you know, something may
Speaker 3: happen with him and someone else. That was actually one
Speaker 3: of my hard nos. Oh no sleepovers, know this, know that.
Speaker 3: And he was like, yo, like I know what you're saying.
Speaker 3: He's like, not that he didn't agree He's like, I
Speaker 3: don't really date like women that are like bottom tier
Speaker 3: of bitches, like these girls definitely are used to men
Speaker 3: being able to give them a little bit more.
Speaker 1: I can't run through one of these day I can
Speaker 1: get more like it. But I think he meant.
Speaker 3: More like, I can't just run like when you're a
Speaker 3: girl of I hate to be like Kevin samuelsy, but
Speaker 3: like a certain stature of status or whatever, like you
Speaker 3: can't run through a bitch and dump and dub her
Speaker 3: like right Like He's like, yo, I might have to
Speaker 3: do a little song and dance here with this bitch.
Speaker 3: And he's like understanding certain things. I'm like, well, I
Speaker 3: don't really care. This is my thing right now.
Speaker 5: She just called me a bottom tier bitch, which is crazy,
Speaker 5: but I'm ana keep talking.
Speaker 1: No you, no niggas, don't just run through you. Mandy,
Speaker 1: the nigga flew your mouse. But that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 5: I can get the first class, first off, with no question.
Speaker 5: I get the first class. I get the room with
Speaker 5: the rits I get. I'm talking about a girl that'll
Speaker 5: be so desperate for dick they just let you do anything.
Speaker 1: But that's the thing, and maybe it's treat you any time.
Speaker 1: Maybe it's a love language thing.
Speaker 5: I'm telling you the first plus the gifts, the treatment,
Speaker 5: the games, like all of that means nothing because bitch,
Speaker 5: I want you to rub my forehead.
Speaker 3: Right, And I understand because that's a real thing, right,
Speaker 3: even for me, like when dating other people, like I'm
Speaker 3: sure that nigga don't like when they can take me
Speaker 3: to you know what I mean? But anyway I would
Speaker 3: say you need to I don't know. I'll tell you
Speaker 3: what I think you should do in this situation, but
Speaker 3: I'll tell you what you need to moving forward. Okay,
Speaker 3: stop being the cool girl. Okay, you are.
Speaker 1: I don't want to be much more with him.
Speaker 3: Hold on, you're being the cool girl to where guys
Speaker 3: feel so comfortable that they don't feel like you have
Speaker 3: an issue with this because you're cool, okay, and that
Speaker 3: and that friendship that you build and that cool girl
Speaker 3: connection kind of, he don't think he's mistreating you at all, right,
Speaker 3: you don't, of course he doesn't, because you're the cool girl.
Speaker 3: I'm not really scared to be vulnerable. Your vulnerability has
Speaker 3: been an issue for you. It's your safeguard for your heart, right,
Speaker 3: I don't give a fuck, and so it.
Speaker 1: Looks like a crying, whiny bitch.
Speaker 5: I don't think it's crying your whiny because you're not
Speaker 5: about to be crying winey when you when you say
Speaker 5: what I think you should say?
Speaker 1: Okay, what should I say? We've been fucking for a minute,
Speaker 1: and while.
Speaker 3: I say where we're at, I'm at the point where
Speaker 3: I need a fake boyfriend when we're around each other.
Speaker 3: Need you to be my little fake man. I'm hungry,
Speaker 3: I need to watch a show. I need a little
Speaker 3: kiss her too. I don't really think my pussy can
Speaker 3: get his wet if I don't got a fake boyfriend.
Speaker 3: Not a fake boyfriend, and you let him know exactly
Speaker 3: what you need. The fake boyfriend is one a cool
Speaker 3: girl joke. It's not being like I need intimacy and
Speaker 3: I need my hair stroked.
Speaker 1: And you don't have to go there. You can make
Speaker 1: it very light to where he'll understand. Can I ask you, Wolf,
Speaker 1: that was good?
Speaker 5: You wouldn't be thrown off or felt like a girl
Speaker 5: was lying like she wanted more.
Speaker 1: But she's gonna joke about the fake boyfriend need, it's
Speaker 1: definitely gonna pop in my mind.
Speaker 6: But if I can believe that you can really stay
Speaker 6: with it and it's not going to bleed over it
Speaker 6: and be complicated.
Speaker 1: And I think he trusts me my ability.
Speaker 3: And also wait, wait, wait saying remember hold on before
Speaker 3: you talk at it. I said, I understand where we're
Speaker 3: at and that we aren't pursuing more.
Speaker 1: That's how you started, how I started. Okay, I feel
Speaker 1: like that's such a trap.
Speaker 5: It's a trap because do you feel like as as
Speaker 5: women and maybe most men, once you include the intimacy
Speaker 5: that a woman does.
Speaker 7: Start just yeah, it's like fantasizing, like I know, romanticizing. Okay, romanticizing.
Speaker 7: That's kind of like, at least on my side where
Speaker 7: I've grown as a lover or I guess a partner.
Speaker 7: I try not to even make that a possible belief.
Speaker 1: That's my thing.
Speaker 3: I think that we need to be very clear though
Speaker 3: in that Mandy, it's tired of the transaction.
Speaker 1: Yeah, so don't use that word either. I'm in therapy
Speaker 1: right now.
Speaker 3: No, but that's that is a word you should be using.
Speaker 3: Like it's a little too transactional for me, right?
Speaker 1: Are you not even paying me?
Speaker 5: I want to see him, he wants to see me
Speaker 5: doesn't money, right, it's an exchange.
Speaker 1: But I'm not fully getting what I want.
Speaker 5: But here's this is why I ask for the men
Speaker 5: listening a woman comes to you and it's like, I
Speaker 5: enjoy just fucking you, but I want the boyfriend girlfriend
Speaker 5: treatment does with that scare either together.
Speaker 3: When you're together, it's not even like you're asking him
Speaker 3: to check on you on how your day was, if
Speaker 3: are you feeling good?
Speaker 1: You want me to send your soup? No, when doing that,
Speaker 1: I'm just saying like, I don't think you're asking for a.
Speaker 5: Lot, you know, Okay, So as men me asking for
Speaker 5: us to maybe be in the same room, the cuddling,
Speaker 5: that's not asking for a lot. I love it all
Speaker 5: on Wolf look a little talking to the mic like.
Speaker 1: You know how to buy.
Speaker 6: You can be committed to it if you can be
Speaker 6: honest about it, because the real truth is people who
Speaker 6: they positions in relationships and who positions Yeah, so if
Speaker 6: you can stay committed to it and really make deliver.
Speaker 5: On that and just be like, nigga, you only gonna
Speaker 5: be my boyfriend but thirty six hours because he wants
Speaker 5: it to to be honest.
Speaker 1: I wants it to that transactional shit for niggas.
Speaker 3: It's tough, and I even think a lot of men
Speaker 3: can compartmentalize.
Speaker 5: I can't, right, but now you surpride myself as a
Speaker 5: woman of being able to compartmental and you probably are
Speaker 5: driving me.
Speaker 1: I do think you need to say it on the phone, Okay.
Speaker 5: I mean we talk every day, oh every single day.
Speaker 1: Oh but like, hold on, we've been talking. Kid.
Speaker 5: He be posting his little outfits and I'd be like, damn,
Speaker 5: you look good, but that'll be like our conversation.
Speaker 1: I think you're correctly when I say I talk to
Speaker 1: him every day. I just be letting him know he
Speaker 1: looks good.
Speaker 5: He'll let me know I look good, or we talk
Speaker 5: about there's a touch point, yeah no, or we both
Speaker 5: get drunk and I'll wake up and I'm like, nigga,
Speaker 5: why did you hit me at four a m.
Speaker 1: We're not even in the same city, and.
Speaker 5: He'd be let I got lit last night and I
Speaker 5: was thinking about what we like.
Speaker 1: So we we've been doing a little bit.
Speaker 3: Honestly, and I think he's gonna receive this badly, Okay,
Speaker 3: like you, that's a lot of talking. He's even super cash,
Speaker 3: like very cash, so I think, yeah, I think get
Speaker 3: on the phone.
Speaker 1: So can I be honest? You've never talked on the phone.
Speaker 5: We don't talk on the phone until I'm like landed.
Speaker 5: Uh see soon we only talking. We don't talk on
Speaker 5: the phone. We text, but I'm not a phone person.
Speaker 5: I talk only until eleven am. I don't talk on
Speaker 5: the phone with nobody. All of my friends on I
Speaker 5: don't talk.
Speaker 3: You have this conversation on the phone, and okay, either
Speaker 3: it's a glass of wine. Either late night we maybe
Speaker 3: call him and you know, tease it a little bit
Speaker 3: so it doesn't feel super heavy.
Speaker 1: But I think fake boyfriend's a fun way to say it.
Speaker 3: And then even if you want to be honest and
Speaker 3: be like yo, I just don't have that many partners
Speaker 3: right now, niggas, So I can't just pull up on
Speaker 3: you to suck dick and leave, like make it.
Speaker 1: I would even make a job like I ain't getting paid.
Speaker 5: I like being around you, be like hanging no, because
Speaker 5: then he might just offer me money.
Speaker 1: Look at you. I hate bad advice. I like what
Speaker 1: you said. She was doing good. Goddamn I was joking.
Speaker 1: But anyways, guys, I guess you might take that serious.
Speaker 5: Jesus and he might be like, well, what you need, bitch,
Speaker 5: and just might pay me? And now I don't get
Speaker 5: into bitch. No, okay, this is dick.
Speaker 1: I want for free. God damn it be fine.
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Speaker 2: So not mind you.
Speaker 5: When we were done, it said it was loading. Not
Speaker 5: sure where the fucking went. Maybe our zoom updated in
Speaker 5: the middle. Nonetheless, y'all will be getting this bonus episode
Speaker 5: this week. But we don't have to react to anything again.
Speaker 5: If y'all were on the town hall, y'all on the
Speaker 5: townof you weren't you weren't. I got Easter just passed,
Speaker 5: so you wanna. I mean, it's April Fools today and
Speaker 5: I took a pregnancy test and it's negative, and that
Speaker 5: I want to say last year on April Fools, you
Speaker 5: did too. This is like becoming a recurring thing.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, there's no way.
Speaker 5: But Lamball was the that was two years I thought
Speaker 5: that was I thought that was that Angel cool though.
Speaker 2: The April fool episode, Oh they're plan B one. No,
Speaker 2: that was the New Year's episode.
Speaker 5: The pregnancy test though, I swear you came in here
Speaker 5: and did that on an April Fools before.
Speaker 1: I can't. Maybe I was joking, but no, I really
Speaker 1: took one this morning.
Speaker 5: Bro, When I tell you, I've been feeling so sluggish,
Speaker 5: I don't know what I got. I just feel like
Speaker 5: that's not be concalled just talking about don't know what
Speaker 5: I got. I feel like I can't I don't feel sick.
Speaker 5: I just feel like I can't do anything because I
Speaker 5: don't think we six feet away.
Speaker 1: But I think my body's run down. Some travel like
Speaker 1: that's a real thing.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, No, I've been traveling every week. And if
Speaker 2: y'all are.
Speaker 5: Watching war J Cole today, because I will be at
Speaker 5: dream Bell and Bitch I met as fuck and listen,
Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you all about my little hypocrisy.
Speaker 1: Right.
Speaker 5: Woke up this morning, was hoping it was an April
Speaker 5: Fool's joke. It's not Chris Brown will no longer be
Speaker 5: a dream bill and they replaced him with fucking fifty.
Speaker 3: And I just don't understand who didn't Usher was a
Speaker 3: replacement for someone else last year?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 2: I think it was Usher and Drake. They were always
Speaker 2: that like about Coachella.
Speaker 5: Here, no there, there's always some sort of replacements going on.
Speaker 5: Let me tell you what they did. So they replaced
Speaker 5: Chris Brown would fit the scent, and they replaced money
Speaker 5: Law one Hunt show.
Speaker 2: Now here's the thing, und nigga findest book.
Speaker 5: When I tell you though, when I listen to him,
Speaker 5: my ears hurt, Like I want to like him because
Speaker 5: he's so fine. Hopefully the sound is bad. I would
Speaker 5: like to ride his face.
Speaker 1: I love watching him and his girl, and I like
Speaker 1: their content.
Speaker 5: Oh they got he got a girl, And honestly, yeah,
Speaker 5: I thought him in. Gloss was just like fuck friends.
Speaker 5: They were laying in the bed and she was like,
Speaker 5: you like me as you like. But Gloss was like,
Speaker 5: that's her nigga, but not her nigga. If you posted
Speaker 5: in you in the bed and you cut it off,
Speaker 5: that's your nigga.
Speaker 2: But they've been doing that is not your nigga just
Speaker 2: because you hosting girl.
Speaker 5: No, look at all the little dots that be up
Speaker 5: in bed with niggas posting the day in the.
Speaker 1: Bed with these niggas.
Speaker 2: If you post only if he await my nigga asked me.
Speaker 1: When he was like, he was like, what did he
Speaker 1: say to me? We had a conversation.
Speaker 5: You want to be introduced on the but like we
Speaker 5: had a conversation about it, and I was like, Yo,
Speaker 5: I'm like a really consensual poster.
Speaker 1: Like even my homegirls there's a picture.
Speaker 5: I think they won't like like I'll ask, but I
Speaker 5: was like, you know, I do feel like it's time
Speaker 5: for you to get a leg in there. And he
Speaker 5: was left and he was like, yeah, like every time
Speaker 5: maybe you post me, it's like a new tattoo, like
Speaker 5: you got.
Speaker 1: One on this side, on this side.
Speaker 2: And then I'm like no, because there's gonna be a.
Speaker 5: Bit that's like I know that Africa absolutely, I know
Speaker 5: that calf and then I'm gonna be sitting there crying
Speaker 5: like did you fucker yesterday? No?
Speaker 1: So I feel like it's just a no for me.
Speaker 1: I really don't. And also my homegirl got me so
Speaker 1: convinced