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Speaker 1: Guess what decision We're about to make?

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Speaker 2: Horrible decision?

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Speaker 1: How do everybody?

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Speaker 3: We are the Horrible Decisions Podcast and we are going

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Speaker 3: and you bitch is better than I.

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Speaker 1: How no motherfucker work on Sunday? Call out?

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Speaker 4: Ho?

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Speaker 5: I mean you can do that. But also it's a

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Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of four Blad. This

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Speaker 1: is yours.

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Speaker 3: I'm your girl, Mady b aka dead Beach. Hi, everybody,

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Speaker 3: welcome back for another episode.

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Speaker 1: I'm weezy. We are in the studio today with no guests.

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Speaker 5: Ooh, I know y'all happy, Go ahead and play with

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Speaker 5: y'all pussy now, beach.

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Speaker 1: Uh you looking at me like that? Okay? Okay, well

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Speaker 1: if you at word, don't play with yo pussy.

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Speaker 3: By the way, speaking of work, I have had people

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Speaker 3: like on set be like, oh, you're a podcaster, what's

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Speaker 3: your podcast called? And the second they click on something

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Speaker 3: like we curse so much in the forty first forty

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Speaker 3: five seconds, I'm like, I can't imagine how y'all feel

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Speaker 3: when your headphones die.

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Speaker 1: I mean, do we just curse right now? Go ahead

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Speaker 1: and play with Joe pussy beach.

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Speaker 5: Birth though, yeah, see's anatomy pre and bitch is a

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Speaker 5: female name for a dog, so both of those are

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Speaker 5: technically yeah, it's giving signs.

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Speaker 1: Noah, Okay, you're right.

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Speaker 5: I think that we should. We both recorded a lot

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Speaker 5: the next time we in the studio.

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Speaker 3: You're worse than me, I'm gonna work on it is

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Speaker 3: Mandy worse than me? Who curses one?

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Speaker 1: Thank you? Thank you? I like, well, who would you say?

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Speaker 4: What? Ho?

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Speaker 1: Whoa? I feel like it's here the oh there. I

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Speaker 1: really don't think that you say.

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Speaker 3: Nigga a lot when we have a white guess and

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Speaker 3: it's and it advites you. I don't think there should

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Speaker 3: be a nigga I wanna say nigga counter, not the

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Speaker 3: not the nothing you are. No, I was gonna say

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Speaker 3: a nigga counter. You know what a nigga counter. I

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Speaker 3: don't think we need a nigga. A nigga clock on

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Speaker 3: how many nigga times you got. But I'm just saying,

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Speaker 3: we have white guests and you say nigga, I'll be saying.

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Speaker 3: They're like, okay, I'm not gonna lie. I only catch

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Speaker 3: myself as it's coming out. Then I'm just like, fuck,

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Speaker 3: I already said it, So I'll be.

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Speaker 1: Thinking of not to say that.

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Speaker 5: When we was with Julie Ginger and he was like,

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Speaker 5: cause these niggas, I was like, now she'll say it back.

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Speaker 1: So here's the thing I do.

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Speaker 5: I do do what it little tis because they talk

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Speaker 5: a little bit too comfortable, and if they say the

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Speaker 5: ship next to us, we're gonna have to clot the ass.

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Speaker 1: Actually, now that i'm thinking about it, puck their butts,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna try not to curse. I say it, okay.

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Speaker 3: So like the volume in which I say nigga in

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Speaker 3: front of white people is really up to their proximity

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Speaker 3: to other niggas. For example, Rory, I don't get scared

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Speaker 3: about saying niggas with Liz Goldwyn. I give her one

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Speaker 3: she don't care obviously because she too. But with Rory,

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Speaker 3: I feel like you listen to like music every day.

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Speaker 1: Mall be like no, no, no, no no no, So

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Speaker 1: it's okay. I mean, Julian definitely can't say nick.

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Speaker 5: For me. It's really hard because not I only fuck

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Speaker 1: That we call people of other ethnicities.

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Speaker 5: However, I only deal with one, and these niggas be

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Speaker 3: He motherfucker, So I know he just said we shouldn't

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Speaker 3: be cursing too much. Okay, I'm not cursing for the

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Speaker 3: rest of the If you've never heard of our show,

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Speaker 3: it's actually about to be fair. It's about decolonizing king

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Speaker 3: for niggas. But you're allowed in here to listen, and

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Speaker 3: we appreciate your subscriptions because.

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Speaker 1: You know what it pays our nigga.

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Speaker 5: Bills and so hopefully, uh, you support us with our

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Speaker 5: book coming out. I kind of wanted that to be

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Speaker 5: our ketchup. Oh, I'll put nigga in one chapter. That's

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Speaker 5: the wait, Really, you're limiting the use of nigga in

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Speaker 5: No, I literally I thought that you let me thought

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Speaker 5: that's why we really wanted a black author so she

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Speaker 1: Well, I'm I'm.

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Speaker 3: Writing mine out where like she's just editing, but like, uh,

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Speaker 3: I will read you a little part of mine. So

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Speaker 3: I literally put Beard Bay in scissors scissors scissors in

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Speaker 3: a group chat. I'm actually going to read you guys

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Speaker 3: So this is how I started a text to them. Hey,

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Speaker 3: I know this sounds kind of crazy, but I'm working

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Speaker 3: on writing this book with Mandy, and I wanted to

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Speaker 3: fact check with y'all because one of the chapters is

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Speaker 3: all about my threatfle They wrote, Lol, Okay, I said,

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Speaker 1: Happy Tuesday. Everybody did I.

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Speaker 3: Eat the come out of scissors or did you pull

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Speaker 3: Out of body experience. I could have passed out from that.

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Speaker 3: My body was nutting. And also add this in your book.

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Speaker 3: You turned into a senior citizen after you come. Tell

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Speaker 5: And then he said you should also add in that

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Speaker 1: And then she said, bitch, are you petting me?

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Speaker 3: still I rubbed a titty like in a circular motion,

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Speaker 3: here's one of the things that I wrote. And this

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Speaker 3: Literally there's a chapter where I wrote, now mind you,

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Speaker 1: Oh, that's the only time you're going to put in

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Speaker 3: I'll read you something I wrote. Finally we get to bed,

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Speaker 3: beard Bay immediately kisses her. I can't remember if it's

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Speaker 1: It within ten, all right, So maybe I should break

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Speaker 1: it up. It's giving Mandy chapter. Well, actually, no, my

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Speaker 3: Last many Mandy and I, by the way, just calling

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Speaker 5: But basically her that abortion with my dad was because

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Speaker 1: No, I don't want to cry.

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Speaker 5: It's been a lot. And then this was the first

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Speaker 5: there's so much about my past that I just put behind.

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Speaker 1: Me and shout out to Kita, love you. We're still

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Speaker 5: I called her and I remember we literally relived our friendship.

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Speaker 5: We weren't that close because I felt like she stole

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Speaker 5: went to different high schools after middle school. Shout out

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Speaker 5: to Ali and us having the conversation. I had never

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Speaker 5: asked her what that money meant to her. She was

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Speaker 1: Did you ever pay her back? Did you? Guys say?

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Speaker 5: I paid her back immediately, which is which is what

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Speaker 5: it again. All you kept saying was you'll pay me back,

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Speaker 5: And mind you, she and this is how listening back

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Speaker 5: to it, my abortion was only five hundred dollars, she said.

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Speaker 5: We wrote this proposal when I was still witnessed nigga.

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Speaker 3: He's fun. I have fun memories with him. He definitely

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Speaker 5: I felt another one coming. A new study says that

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Speaker 5: utility bills, to just bite the motherfucker over and have

437
00:22:07,280 --> 00:22:07,959
Speaker 5: some sex.

438
00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:11,480
Speaker 3: I've done some dumb shit to like, I'll tell you

439
00:22:11,520 --> 00:22:12,679
Speaker 3: the dumbest thing that I've done.

440
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:16,440
Speaker 1: Please share, audience, save to save money.

441
00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:21,080
Speaker 3: So you probably heard me mention my nigga drives, my

442
00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:24,320
Speaker 3: street has cleaning on, like I think it was Wednesday

443
00:22:24,359 --> 00:22:27,160
Speaker 3: from midnight, midnight to three am. He was like, damn, bro,

444
00:22:27,280 --> 00:22:28,840
Speaker 3: I should just park and get the ticket. The ticket's

445
00:22:28,840 --> 00:22:31,080
Speaker 3: gonna be a hundred dollars whatever. I was like, or

446
00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:34,399
Speaker 3: we can go out for three hours and save the

447
00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:37,000
Speaker 3: money that you would have got on the ticket because

448
00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:39,280
Speaker 3: we're already drunk, so we only gonna get two drinks

449
00:22:39,280 --> 00:22:41,159
Speaker 3: when we go to Buns or whatever spot.

450
00:22:41,320 --> 00:22:42,159
Speaker 1: We're gonna be straight.

451
00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:46,119
Speaker 5: Wow, I actually thought you were gonna say, dumb, let's

452
00:22:46,160 --> 00:22:48,479
Speaker 5: just fucking the car and then you can move it.

453
00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:50,280
Speaker 1: I literally thought, oh, I'm gonna tell you what they do.

454
00:22:50,640 --> 00:22:54,240
Speaker 1: Still spent money, not a honey for the ticket. So

455
00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:57,680
Speaker 1: this is what I've been doing lately. So couldn't find

456
00:22:57,680 --> 00:22:58,000
Speaker 1: a spot.

457
00:22:58,040 --> 00:22:59,760
Speaker 3: The other night we went to this party and he

458
00:22:59,840 --> 00:23:01,800
Speaker 3: was like like, damn baby, I was called.

459
00:23:01,840 --> 00:23:03,960
Speaker 1: It was raining. He's like, let me double park. Kiss

460
00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:05,600
Speaker 1: you can really the lower he SAIDs.

461
00:23:05,400 --> 00:23:08,240
Speaker 3: A wild place. So then you know, pussy was out

462
00:23:08,359 --> 00:23:11,520
Speaker 3: look at juicy and you could see his car from

463
00:23:11,520 --> 00:23:11,959
Speaker 3: the window.

464
00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:14,680
Speaker 1: Bitch. We was fucking just like this, waiting for the

465
00:23:14,720 --> 00:23:16,840
Speaker 1: cop to come, just waiting for whatever. Fuck. I was like,

466
00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:20,359
Speaker 1: oh did the police? No, no, you're not getting your ticket?

467
00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:22,720
Speaker 1: Oh out And he was.

468
00:23:22,720 --> 00:23:26,800
Speaker 5: Unting out the window for a parking police safer. He

469
00:23:26,840 --> 00:23:29,640
Speaker 5: watched that pussy, and I watched for the police. I'm

470
00:23:29,680 --> 00:23:31,560
Speaker 5: not playing with speaking of the police, I.

471
00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:33,920
Speaker 3: Just want to say a lot of cops know who

472
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,679
Speaker 3: we are, and it's a very uncomfortable situation.

473
00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:37,159
Speaker 1: Is this happened to you when a girl when you

474
00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:37,720
Speaker 1: were in jail?

475
00:23:38,080 --> 00:23:40,720
Speaker 5: Wait, calm down, Oh sorry, that mean wo bitch whoa,

476
00:23:40,800 --> 00:23:42,359
Speaker 5: it was what you just said. I'd like to share

477
00:23:42,359 --> 00:23:43,400
Speaker 5: my personal story here.

478
00:23:44,000 --> 00:23:46,119
Speaker 1: Have you cheered my toes like me a few weeks ago?

479
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:49,400
Speaker 3: I'm like, let me talk about tell you what the job?

480
00:23:50,119 --> 00:23:53,440
Speaker 5: No, bitch, I actually, uh have met quite a few

481
00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:57,080
Speaker 5: cops and it's crazy because I like him in a uniform.

482
00:23:57,600 --> 00:24:02,480
Speaker 5: Sobe blue lives matter just as much as blue balls.

483
00:24:02,560 --> 00:24:05,360
Speaker 1: Oh many way? Is that bad?

484
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:05,720
Speaker 5: Way?

485
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:08,360
Speaker 1: Okay? Sorry, that was a bad joke, y'all work. We're

486
00:24:08,440 --> 00:24:10,600
Speaker 1: comedians here. There's a comedian in my slash.

487
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,920
Speaker 5: So in my splash, my slash, I'm a media host,

488
00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:19,199
Speaker 5: personality producer, comedian. Comedian allows me to offend everybody. I

489
00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:19,840
Speaker 5: had to add it.

490
00:24:21,320 --> 00:24:24,160
Speaker 1: Okay, babe, it was a bad joke. Sorry, So tell

491
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:26,919
Speaker 1: us about this motherfucker cop. So no, no, no, I'm just

492
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:29,639
Speaker 1: saying that. And I think I mentioned it to you.

493
00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:34,520
Speaker 5: During my December stint on the dating app that should

494
00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:38,800
Speaker 5: go unannounced, I matched with a nigga who was in

495
00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:41,639
Speaker 5: the academy and I was so ready because you know,

496
00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:42,760
Speaker 5: I already had a firefighter.

497
00:24:43,040 --> 00:24:44,760
Speaker 1: I said, ooh, the next will gonna be a cop,

498
00:24:44,800 --> 00:24:47,760
Speaker 1: different uniform. I'm hype. I actually love a.

499
00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:50,960
Speaker 5: Man in uniform. But it just wasn't working. Uh, it

500
00:24:51,359 --> 00:24:54,520
Speaker 5: just wasn't It just wasn't working. But the cops that

501
00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:56,160
Speaker 5: I've met on the out, y'all listen to the pod

502
00:24:56,200 --> 00:24:58,160
Speaker 5: by the way, because y'all stopped me on the train,

503
00:24:58,359 --> 00:25:01,080
Speaker 5: y'all stopped me on the corner. I didn't have at

504
00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:04,960
Speaker 5: least three four cops be like.

505
00:25:03,760 --> 00:25:05,440
Speaker 1: Like your show me like what you're doing.

506
00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 5: I have a lot of women come up to me,

507
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:10,120
Speaker 5: women cops. Do you think it's weird that cops listen

508
00:25:10,160 --> 00:25:10,439
Speaker 5: to us?

509
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:13,600
Speaker 1: No, I mean, no one's ever come up to me.

510
00:25:13,680 --> 00:25:13,919
Speaker 1: That's not.

511
00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:19,360
Speaker 5: But I ain't gonna hold you any any career that

512
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:24,720
Speaker 5: has an extensive overtime pay full of pores because you

513
00:25:24,720 --> 00:25:31,560
Speaker 5: could always just say, babe, I'm working like lawyers, cops, doctors.

514
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:31,720
Speaker 1: Like, I don't know, want to be a horror to

515
00:25:31,760 --> 00:25:33,359
Speaker 1: listen to the show? No, No, you don't. I'm not

516
00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:34,320
Speaker 1: even a horror and I do this.

517
00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:39,119
Speaker 5: Show so so in your slash liars there, Okay, gotcha?

518
00:25:39,280 --> 00:25:41,040
Speaker 1: Actually, do you want to know how much about Hawaii?

519
00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:44,640
Speaker 1: Am so? For this Hawaii trip?

520
00:25:44,880 --> 00:25:47,240
Speaker 3: We're like looking up shit, trying to figure out where

521
00:25:47,240 --> 00:25:49,479
Speaker 3: we're gonna go, right, And I was like, yo, I

522
00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:51,359
Speaker 3: just want us to have a really relaxing time, Like

523
00:25:51,400 --> 00:25:53,399
Speaker 3: I don't want to party. Maybe we'll look for like

524
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:55,960
Speaker 3: a little black in Oahu group and we'll do one

525
00:25:56,000 --> 00:25:57,880
Speaker 3: little aprob thing we go to. Baby. He was like, yeah,

526
00:25:57,880 --> 00:25:59,280
Speaker 3: I want to wake up really. Plus we're gonna be

527
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:03,879
Speaker 3: six hours. Let's relax girl. Somehow I stumbled upon a

528
00:26:03,920 --> 00:26:06,520
Speaker 3: sex party on a yacht in Hawaii the day we leave,

529
00:26:06,560 --> 00:26:07,120
Speaker 3: and I was like.

530
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,639
Speaker 5: Oh, no, y'all gotta say the next night. Yeah, yeah, no,

531
00:26:10,680 --> 00:26:12,359
Speaker 5: you just have. I was like, hey, I know that

532
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:13,600
Speaker 5: we were talking about relaxing.

533
00:26:13,720 --> 00:26:15,040
Speaker 1: How am I gonna lie? And this is now?

534
00:26:15,320 --> 00:26:17,960
Speaker 3: You just have to let them know for research purposes.

535
00:26:18,200 --> 00:26:20,399
Speaker 3: I literally said, I think I should charge this to

536
00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:23,520
Speaker 3: the car. I was like, oh, bitch, yep.

537
00:26:23,800 --> 00:26:26,200
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, no, Now if you want to fly

538
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:29,880
Speaker 4: me to Hawaii on the business so that I too

539
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:34,199
Speaker 4: can experience this for research now, I just feel like

540
00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:35,359
Speaker 4: they don't need.

541
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:37,879
Speaker 1: To be charging me because I'm gonna plug them. But no.

542
00:26:37,960 --> 00:26:40,720
Speaker 3: We literally had to extend the fucking little car, extend

543
00:26:40,720 --> 00:26:42,240
Speaker 3: the saying, and I was like, yeah, I really feel

544
00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:44,600
Speaker 3: like I should be doing this. It's very difficult when

545
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:47,679
Speaker 3: you're like trying to be good, not try, because the

546
00:26:47,760 --> 00:26:51,600
Speaker 3: horror comes out of you, you know, like where horror,

547
00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:54,560
Speaker 3: the horror, horror, horror.

548
00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:55,960
Speaker 1: It's really bad.

549
00:26:56,080 --> 00:26:59,800
Speaker 3: Like I literally can't look at women in pilates or

550
00:26:59,800 --> 00:27:01,320
Speaker 3: you yoka, Like.

551
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 1: It's like, so you sexualized women.

552
00:27:05,160 --> 00:27:09,800
Speaker 5: I'm horny because there's a war even side of me.

553
00:27:10,080 --> 00:27:12,600
Speaker 1: Bro, has anyone ever done a happy baby position? You

554
00:27:12,640 --> 00:27:16,680
Speaker 1: know what? This is? No go ahead? You just want

555
00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:17,400
Speaker 1: to work your ass?

556
00:27:17,400 --> 00:27:20,119
Speaker 5: No no, no, no, no, no no, Like, oh wait, you

557
00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:22,119
Speaker 5: really when you you can't do it in it?

558
00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:26,520
Speaker 1: Like is it? Is it a squirt? Is that? Why? Oh? Bro?

559
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:29,879
Speaker 5: You miss how nasty y'all? She this happy baby and

560
00:27:29,960 --> 00:27:31,480
Speaker 5: you basically stretch.

561
00:27:31,200 --> 00:27:34,439
Speaker 1: Your Oh yeah, I ain't gonna lie. I only look

562
00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:39,320
Speaker 1: at bitches when they dog e yo, pussy crowd crowding cow?

563
00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:42,040
Speaker 1: What are this everybody? And like that's the point, It's like,

564
00:27:42,119 --> 00:27:42,800
Speaker 1: what the fuck?

565
00:27:42,880 --> 00:27:46,679
Speaker 3: This ship is so horrish and sexual that, like I

566
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:48,240
Speaker 3: just want to know if I'm in a yoga class

567
00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:51,440
Speaker 3: of fifteen bitches, you telling me nine ain't thinking the city.

568
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:53,439
Speaker 1: I'm thinking, I ain't gonna hold you. They have to

569
00:27:53,520 --> 00:27:56,080
Speaker 1: look good. I don't know you could be ugly and

570
00:27:56,119 --> 00:27:59,120
Speaker 1: I still think about it. Oh my god, all right, listen,

571
00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:00,200
Speaker 1: ugly people.

572
00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:07,280
Speaker 3: To have hot sex. I like, gang, you never watch people.

573
00:28:08,080 --> 00:28:10,720
Speaker 5: Oh I'm not gonna lie literally and I've said it

574
00:28:10,760 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 5: too much times on here. Now I literally be like,

575
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,360
Speaker 5: oh you so fine, Oh you're so fine, Oh you're

576
00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:18,280
Speaker 5: so fine. I literally come up of how good they look, bitch,

577
00:28:18,280 --> 00:28:20,920
Speaker 5: and if they ugly, I'll be like, this doesn't work

578
00:28:20,920 --> 00:28:21,159
Speaker 5: for me.

579
00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:24,240
Speaker 1: Okay, bitch, I'm gonna start sending you. I'm gonna start

580
00:28:24,280 --> 00:28:27,800
Speaker 1: sending you videos so you can see these niggas be fun. Yep.

581
00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:30,240
Speaker 1: The way these motherfuckers keep getting me to subscribe today,

582
00:28:30,320 --> 00:28:32,480
Speaker 1: only fans just gonna look at the body.

583
00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:33,199
Speaker 4: No.

584
00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:35,160
Speaker 1: The only thing I can't do is a bad wig.

585
00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:38,280
Speaker 1: No no, no, well I girl in South Africa. I shouldn't

586
00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:38,960
Speaker 1: have paid her that wig.

587
00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:42,440
Speaker 5: With men and they have to look so good that

588
00:28:42,520 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 5: I can imagine them being my partner Hardwig hard life,

589
00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:49,160
Speaker 5: because I was like, ooh baby, take that, ooh baby,

590
00:28:49,240 --> 00:28:52,440
Speaker 5: give that, ooh baby, and I'll be acting like the

591
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:54,480
Speaker 5: man is my man and I'm watching him in action

592
00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:57,240
Speaker 5: with another man. This is where my mind goes. I

593
00:28:57,280 --> 00:29:00,400
Speaker 5: am I am directing okay, but anyways, let's to get

594
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:02,160
Speaker 5: into our hoar dirve.

595
00:29:02,520 --> 00:29:03,040
Speaker 1: Not for this.

596
00:29:03,520 --> 00:29:07,640
Speaker 5: It's kind of blending vanilla shit with a hoar dirve.

597
00:29:08,000 --> 00:29:10,320
Speaker 5: I want your advice for this, give me a sex

598
00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:12,160
Speaker 5: tip for this advice.

599
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:18,240
Speaker 1: South. After admitting that she reported her husband.

600
00:29:17,840 --> 00:29:22,240
Speaker 5: To the police because of his creepy sexual kink, a

601
00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:25,560
Speaker 5: woman has asked for clarification on whether or not she

602
00:29:25,800 --> 00:29:26,840
Speaker 5: was in the wrong.

603
00:29:27,280 --> 00:29:29,000
Speaker 1: Was the King? I'm about to get to it, because

604
00:29:29,000 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 1: you know, I like a better knife.

605
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:32,360
Speaker 5: So a woman has been urged to pack up her

606
00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:34,480
Speaker 5: things and leave her spouse after she shared that his

607
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:38,440
Speaker 5: sexual kink made her feel uncomfortable and she had reported him.

608
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:40,320
Speaker 1: To the police. Bab dl, do I know the King?

609
00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:44,040
Speaker 1: You know the King? It's not baby diaper And based on.

610
00:29:46,560 --> 00:29:49,680
Speaker 5: Where we kind of draw the lines with our fantasies,

611
00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:52,160
Speaker 5: this is why I wanted to ask this question, especially

612
00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:54,600
Speaker 5: based a couple of weeks ago on yours.

613
00:29:54,880 --> 00:29:56,960
Speaker 1: South. Oh my god, hold on, let me get to it.

614
00:29:57,560 --> 00:29:58,200
Speaker 1: She says.

615
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:01,680
Speaker 5: I told him it makes me very uncomfortable, but I

616
00:30:01,760 --> 00:30:04,040
Speaker 5: went along with it for a short period of time

617
00:30:04,480 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 5: because he said it's the only thing that can get

618
00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:07,560
Speaker 5: him off now.

619
00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:09,960
Speaker 1: But I just couldn't continue.

620
00:30:09,440 --> 00:30:11,640
Speaker 5: With it anymore as it was making me fear for

621
00:30:11,800 --> 00:30:16,520
Speaker 5: my life. His kink is essentially waterboard to have me

622
00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:20,480
Speaker 5: to pretend to be dead and lifeless. The woman revealed

623
00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:23,160
Speaker 5: that this sexual preference was a recent change, and hiss

624
00:30:23,280 --> 00:30:26,120
Speaker 5: caused her to question her husband's mental state. Okay, he's

625
00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:28,200
Speaker 5: also been getting a lot more angry and aggressive with

626
00:30:28,240 --> 00:30:32,800
Speaker 5: me later lately, she adds. Wanting to get help for him,

627
00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:35,600
Speaker 5: the woman decided to report him to the police so

628
00:30:35,640 --> 00:30:37,560
Speaker 5: they could speak to him and he could get some

629
00:30:37,600 --> 00:30:41,520
Speaker 5: professional help. However, thing's backfired, with the husband, of course,

630
00:30:41,520 --> 00:30:44,280
Speaker 5: threatening her before she went to the authorities.

631
00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:47,920
Speaker 1: Oh if she ends up dead, well well I don't know.

632
00:30:48,240 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 5: But for this specific one, we've talked about the R

633
00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:58,280
Speaker 5: word kinks. We've talked about kidnapping kinks. I've also played

634
00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:00,920
Speaker 5: this with my ex in terms of the R word.

635
00:31:01,920 --> 00:31:04,120
Speaker 5: For the sex tip this week, I wanted to ask

636
00:31:04,160 --> 00:31:06,760
Speaker 5: you and both of us can do this together, Ay,

637
00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:09,280
Speaker 5: what would be a sex tip to communicate to your

638
00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:12,840
Speaker 5: partner that you can't help but judge them for their

639
00:31:12,920 --> 00:31:17,240
Speaker 5: kink and also, though you want to please your partner,

640
00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:19,880
Speaker 5: if you're uninterested in their kink.

641
00:31:20,120 --> 00:31:20,840
Speaker 1: What should you do.

642
00:31:21,480 --> 00:31:24,160
Speaker 5: So, I think that we've opened up the dialogue to

643
00:31:24,800 --> 00:31:27,480
Speaker 5: have people want to try a whole bunch of new things.

644
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 5: And clearly, as you're with somebody, maybe they're kinks and

645
00:31:30,520 --> 00:31:34,440
Speaker 5: fetishes change over time. How would you communicate a partner

646
00:31:34,480 --> 00:31:38,200
Speaker 5: coming to you with a kink that actually makes you uncomfortable,

647
00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:40,960
Speaker 5: especially because she did say she played.

648
00:31:40,680 --> 00:31:42,120
Speaker 1: Into the kink a few times.

649
00:31:42,160 --> 00:31:44,440
Speaker 3: So I think that the scary thing about this because

650
00:31:44,480 --> 00:31:47,000
Speaker 3: with mine, with the butter NIGHTE situation, I told him

651
00:31:47,000 --> 00:31:50,040
Speaker 3: I want this, okay, well, I want you to scare.

652
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:51,760
Speaker 3: I told him I wanted to feel scared. I want

653
00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:53,920
Speaker 3: to like you know, it was a feeling that you wanted.

654
00:31:54,240 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay.

655
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Speaker 3: With this specifically, I'm trying to think what would I say,

656
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Speaker 3: because I would definitely offer a suggestion, like, for example,

657
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Speaker 3: someone told me they wanted me to play dead nick kink,

658
00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:10,000
Speaker 3: I'd be like, that makes me feel really unsafe, but

659
00:32:10,040 --> 00:32:11,520
Speaker 3: I would do a pillow princess thing.

660
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:15,479
Speaker 1: Okay, but hello, hello.

661
00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 5: It's weird because I remember role playing where I specifically

662
00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:27,560
Speaker 5: wanted to be so intoxicated that I consented prior and

663
00:32:27,600 --> 00:32:31,080
Speaker 5: told him I'm going to act like I can't consent

664
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Speaker 5: h And so though I was so intoxicated, I wasn't lifeless,

665
00:32:37,280 --> 00:32:41,080
Speaker 5: but I absolutely was like acting so inebriated that you know.

666
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Speaker 1: And now I like to be woken up with Dick

667
00:32:43,320 --> 00:32:44,800
Speaker 1: like I like to be faked. Well that too.

668
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:48,400
Speaker 5: And again, if he's saying that this is his kink,

669
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Speaker 5: you would say that you would just flat out say

670
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Speaker 5: this makes me uncomfortable and I can't do this for you.

671
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Speaker 3: If if for the one that she's talking about to

672
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Speaker 3: play dead, I don't like.

673
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Speaker 5: That, okay, because so let's not What about something else

674
00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:06,120
Speaker 5: that makes you uncomfortable like scatt maybe Okay, then I

675
00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:07,040
Speaker 5: would probably offer pe.

676
00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:10,640
Speaker 1: So you would just offer something to kind of compromise.

677
00:33:10,760 --> 00:33:13,240
Speaker 3: So like I do think there's a compromise in everything.

678
00:33:13,320 --> 00:33:16,440
Speaker 3: For example, like my fantasy would be two guys, right.

679
00:33:18,040 --> 00:33:19,240
Speaker 1: But you're done.

680
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Speaker 3: I know I ain't gonna beat but I've definitely had

681
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:26,400
Speaker 3: the dirty talk of it. Oh yeah, I've had the

682
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:28,320
Speaker 3: fingers in my mouth like you wish another digues in

683
00:33:28,360 --> 00:33:31,040
Speaker 3: your mouth like I've had that. Yeah, And so I

684
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Speaker 3: think that there's things of like compromise with everything, and

685
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:39,640
Speaker 3: I never want my own desires. Excuse me, let me

686
00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:42,480
Speaker 3: say that my boundaries to be violated. Like I'm my

687
00:33:42,560 --> 00:33:45,760
Speaker 3: year of no bro right. I love saying though it's

688
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Speaker 3: my favorite thing. I think I say it a lot

689
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Speaker 3: for work. Me to say it a lot for so

690
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:51,000
Speaker 3: you beget a lot of notes form me. You want

691
00:33:51,000 --> 00:33:53,840
Speaker 3: to grab a drink? No, you know, like you want

692
00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 3: to record this? No, I say no to you too.

693
00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:58,479
Speaker 5: Ye saying no to each other and I think like

694
00:33:58,520 --> 00:34:02,680
Speaker 5: it's a lot of cows over you. No no, no

695
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:05,360
Speaker 5: no is such a It's something we are scared to say.

696
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:07,200
Speaker 1: And I'm so glad that we are both comfortable.

697
00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:08,560
Speaker 5: I thought you were trying to give you a high five.

698
00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:13,880
Speaker 5: No yea for me, I'll be honest with you. I

699
00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:16,640
Speaker 5: think this is the thing when it comes to kinks, fetishes,

700
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:20,840
Speaker 5: or how you and your partner have chemistry in the bedroom,

701
00:34:21,280 --> 00:34:24,040
Speaker 5: it's really important for you to also come to the

702
00:34:24,080 --> 00:34:25,840
Speaker 5: realization that this may not be your person.

703
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:28,400
Speaker 1: I think that calling the cops is a.

704
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Speaker 5: Lot and unless you know that Nigga be going to

705
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Speaker 5: the cemetery to smoke some blunts and maybe that Nigga

706
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Speaker 5: lent no no, no no, I get that, but that's

707
00:34:37,520 --> 00:34:40,280
Speaker 5: that's outside of the bedroom. That's outside of the bedroom.

708
00:34:40,480 --> 00:34:41,960
Speaker 5: I'm talking about this.

709
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Speaker 3: If a man has been violent with you and then

710
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Speaker 3: when you as fuck, he wants you to play dad bitch,

711
00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:54,319
Speaker 3: that go to Gaelpaho, Okay, I'm scared. I I don't

712
00:34:54,440 --> 00:34:56,399
Speaker 3: want me to play daddy. He wasn't cussing me out

713
00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:59,920
Speaker 3: and hitting me. Maybe I'd be like this, ain't that scary?

714
00:35:00,239 --> 00:35:01,719
Speaker 1: Oh? You telling me you get bothered.

715
00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:03,759
Speaker 5: With me and then we want me to be angry

716
00:35:03,880 --> 00:35:07,919
Speaker 5: and aggressive. That doesn't say that he's been beating her ass.

717
00:35:09,280 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 5: So to me, though, that's where I'm taking that out

718
00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:15,719
Speaker 5: of the bedroom. It's not It doesn't say that he's

719
00:35:15,719 --> 00:35:18,399
Speaker 5: been doing that in the bedroom. So to me, that's

720
00:35:18,400 --> 00:35:22,000
Speaker 5: where we're separating our desires and the behaviors in the bedroom.

721
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:25,200
Speaker 5: Clearly a relationship you shouldn't be with a man who

722
00:35:25,280 --> 00:35:25,800
Speaker 5: you feel.

723
00:35:25,680 --> 00:35:27,480
Speaker 1: Unsafe with period. We talked about the same.

724
00:35:27,719 --> 00:35:30,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, but to me, this is literally leaning into the

725
00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:34,400
Speaker 5: kink because our minds go crazy. There's bondage. But you

726
00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:36,360
Speaker 5: just had a butt of night to your throat crazy.

727
00:35:36,920 --> 00:35:40,239
Speaker 5: Iw I ain't here for it. Like I've got conversations

728
00:35:40,239 --> 00:35:42,160
Speaker 5: with men who were like, you can't say, I that's

729
00:35:43,480 --> 00:35:46,440
Speaker 5: it ain't for me y'all could do it. And if

730
00:35:46,480 --> 00:35:49,759
Speaker 5: a man came to me ew my yam. Okay, yuck,

731
00:35:49,840 --> 00:35:52,360
Speaker 5: it's yuck, my yam. But you ew though that's what

732
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:54,160
Speaker 5: I'm saying, you didn't say yuh. Well, because I don't

733
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:55,960
Speaker 5: like blood. I don't want you to act like you

734
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:57,799
Speaker 5: about to stab me. I talked about my Okay, what.

735
00:35:57,760 --> 00:35:59,440
Speaker 3: It wasn't periods sex, bitch, because I'm gonna tell you

736
00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:01,160
Speaker 3: right now we don't have our salt for a moment.

737
00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:03,360
Speaker 5: But well, I'll say that there was someone that I

738
00:36:03,440 --> 00:36:06,000
Speaker 5: was once interested in having sex with, and as soon

739
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,880
Speaker 5: as he let me know that his kink was knife,

740
00:36:08,920 --> 00:36:13,000
Speaker 5: plate and blood, you have go find you a partner

741
00:36:13,040 --> 00:36:17,319
Speaker 5: for that. I literally was not interested because A that's

742
00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:19,920
Speaker 5: my boundary. I can't fulfill you. But I'm also not

743
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 5: gonna have sex knowing that I'm not gonna fulfill you.

744
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:24,719
Speaker 3: And also, like to be fair, if the knife play

745
00:36:24,760 --> 00:36:26,640
Speaker 3: was him actually wanting to see blood and it wasn't

746
00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:27,880
Speaker 3: like this fantasy play.

747
00:36:27,680 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 1: Would that have been different for you? Yeah?

748
00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 3: Okay, because to me, we're in this uh, I'm blind.

749
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 3: Photo's just pretend land seeing the blood, the slicing.

750
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:38,680
Speaker 1: I don't. I can't do that, okay.

751
00:36:38,719 --> 00:36:43,080
Speaker 5: So basically your suggestion, though overall, would be if you

752
00:36:43,080 --> 00:36:45,320
Speaker 5: don't feel safe with this person, if you can't please

753
00:36:45,320 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 5: this person, leave this person.

754
00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 1: No I think that. Okay, that's not true. That was

755
00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:53,120
Speaker 1: my advice. I said, leave them.

756
00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:55,640
Speaker 5: If this thiga got a cake, that make me uncomfortable

757
00:36:55,680 --> 00:36:57,440
Speaker 5: so much so that I'm judging you and thinking to

758
00:36:57,560 --> 00:36:59,600
Speaker 5: call the police because I think you need.

759
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 1: Professional Oh, I'm gonna leave you. Why can't we just

760
00:37:02,719 --> 00:37:04,200
Speaker 1: not do that part of sex? Though?

761
00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:10,600
Speaker 5: Boom, you have a look. I'm like you like to peg,

762
00:37:11,800 --> 00:37:13,799
Speaker 5: So if you can't peg a nigga, he's supposed.

763
00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:13,880
Speaker 1: To leave you.

764
00:37:13,920 --> 00:37:16,760
Speaker 5: Well. No, To be very clear, then he was open

765
00:37:17,040 --> 00:37:19,040
Speaker 5: knowing that that was my kink and he was not interested.

766
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:20,520
Speaker 1: But if it was a hard no, you would have

767
00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:23,839
Speaker 1: left him. He would no, no, no. But his compromise was

768
00:37:23,880 --> 00:37:25,560
Speaker 1: to allow me to do it to someone else.

769
00:37:26,440 --> 00:37:31,000
Speaker 5: So if if you don't have the wherewithal to let

770
00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:35,160
Speaker 5: your partner go enjoy this kink with someone else, that's

771
00:37:35,160 --> 00:37:37,640
Speaker 5: a whole different. I assume this to be a monogamous relationship.

772
00:37:38,400 --> 00:37:40,279
Speaker 5: Pegging was a hard note for my ex, but he

773
00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:42,960
Speaker 5: was open to allowing me to do it.

774
00:37:42,960 --> 00:37:43,680
Speaker 1: With someone else.

775
00:37:44,239 --> 00:37:47,480
Speaker 5: So it's not like I was kept from my from

776
00:37:47,480 --> 00:37:51,000
Speaker 5: my kink or my pleasure at all. There wasn't a

777
00:37:51,040 --> 00:37:53,680
Speaker 5: boundary put on what I wanted to enjoy with this.

778
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:56,960
Speaker 5: It sounds like, bitch, I gave you a little bit now, and.

779
00:37:57,000 --> 00:37:58,240
Speaker 1: That's okay for there to be boundaries.

780
00:37:58,239 --> 00:38:00,600
Speaker 3: Maybe you just did not have anything as crazy, and

781
00:38:00,640 --> 00:38:02,400
Speaker 3: I agree this, there's boundary.

782
00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:05,279
Speaker 1: Can I take over your horder with my foot job?

783
00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:07,600
Speaker 1: That shit was really fun?

784
00:38:08,200 --> 00:38:10,360
Speaker 5: Look at you wanting to bleed into my outline. No,

785
00:38:10,400 --> 00:38:13,040
Speaker 5: you should have followed your own outline. I want to

786
00:38:13,040 --> 00:38:14,759
Speaker 5: get into the horrible decision. All right, we don't have

787
00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 5: to talk about my foot job. Good, all right, we'll

788
00:38:18,040 --> 00:38:21,200
Speaker 5: save it for another episode. We're gonna get in to

789
00:38:21,400 --> 00:38:24,160
Speaker 5: the horrible decision because.

790
00:38:23,880 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 1: Maybe, yeah, the niggas that want to pay for feet,

791
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:31,359
Speaker 1: they are in here. Pete. I want to you having

792
00:38:31,400 --> 00:38:34,160
Speaker 1: a man in lifting your legs this many times? Babe?

793
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:36,400
Speaker 1: You trying to show plus to the YouTube.

794
00:38:36,440 --> 00:38:38,120
Speaker 3: I did see something recently that was like, if you

795
00:38:38,120 --> 00:38:40,040
Speaker 3: got a nigga, how many thirst traps can you do?

796
00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:42,840
Speaker 1: And I was like, wait, I was who said it?

797
00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:45,279
Speaker 3: It was conversation with Zoh and he like, sent me something,

798
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:46,799
Speaker 3: and he'll send me some of the clips. But I

799
00:38:46,840 --> 00:38:49,839
Speaker 3: saw like, are thirst traps allowed if you're taking first off?

800
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:53,040
Speaker 1: If you find everything a thirst? Hello, bitch.

801
00:38:55,680 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 3: Gonna be like he controlled niggas being hungry. I really

802
00:38:58,760 --> 00:39:01,320
Speaker 3: be at the beach, babe, They're going to be starving

803
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:01,640
Speaker 3: for me.

804
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:03,440
Speaker 5: I could literally have my face beat it be a

805
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:05,760
Speaker 5: selfie and my lips look like it could wrap around.

806
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:08,879
Speaker 1: They dick. I can't help that. They won't it. These

807
00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:15,879
Speaker 1: lisps be looking volumptuous way and do your petty lives

808
00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:18,360
Speaker 1: for drama. Don't see the thing is you have to

809
00:39:18,360 --> 00:39:20,800
Speaker 1: do that. You better calm the fuck down.

810
00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:22,839
Speaker 5: You see what I mean? You see why I can't

811
00:39:22,840 --> 00:39:26,200
Speaker 5: take her serious breath? And look everybody laughing? Why y'all laughing?

812
00:39:26,360 --> 00:39:29,719
Speaker 5: I don't like seeing all his teeth in the background producers.

813
00:39:34,480 --> 00:39:38,480
Speaker 1: Honestly, it's just honestly shot the bro I'm gonna tell you.

814
00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:43,040
Speaker 5: It's only funny because I feel like I'm not keeping

815
00:39:43,120 --> 00:39:43,600
Speaker 5: up enough.

816
00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:45,560
Speaker 1: So whenever someone else told me better, I'm be like,

817
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:49,200
Speaker 1: what what do you mean?

818
00:39:49,360 --> 00:39:49,400
Speaker 4: Me?

819
00:39:49,480 --> 00:39:50,879
Speaker 1: Want to call me and to be like, hey, how's

820
00:39:50,880 --> 00:39:52,840
Speaker 1: the weather, just so she can tell me. Sometimes I

821
00:39:52,840 --> 00:39:54,920
Speaker 1: don't even be doing that. But I love other people'

822
00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:56,120
Speaker 1: dramas the crazy thing, but.

823
00:39:56,120 --> 00:39:58,840
Speaker 5: I don't be when I tell you I don't have drama.

824
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:02,239
Speaker 5: That's why I watch, you know, drama. I don't know

825
00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:04,200
Speaker 5: what y'all talking about. I ain't got no drama. This

826
00:40:04,239 --> 00:40:05,879
Speaker 5: is why I like reality TV. I'd be like, ooh,

827
00:40:05,880 --> 00:40:08,480
Speaker 5: they lives. There's so much more drama food than mine.

828
00:40:09,280 --> 00:40:13,520
Speaker 1: I ain't got no drama. What is this noise you're making?

829
00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:17,000
Speaker 1: That drama is subjective and I ain't got a bitch.

830
00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:19,960
Speaker 5: You literally just say I really going on the internet

831
00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:24,800
Speaker 5: drama that was a couple of weeks ago. If we anyway,

832
00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:26,680
Speaker 5: we're not gonna do this. I ain't got no drama

833
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:29,880
Speaker 5: because you know what's crazy. I don't think about nobody,

834
00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:34,560
Speaker 5: So no more pain. You kind of look like her

835
00:40:34,600 --> 00:40:37,120
Speaker 5: to with his little outfit. You could be on stage.

836
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:40,560
Speaker 1: Somehow like Mary. Don't do this.

837
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:43,320
Speaker 5: You look like the boots and is First off, sorry,

838
00:40:43,360 --> 00:40:45,920
Speaker 5: first off, these boots ain't high enough to be married.

839
00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:47,719
Speaker 1: That's true. They gotta go above my knee.

840
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:52,239
Speaker 5: But you can figure it out, all right, speaking of

841
00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:53,880
Speaker 5: you might be able to pitch your little foot job thing.

842
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:58,439
Speaker 1: No, I'm not that. No, you might be able to No, Okay,

843
00:40:58,480 --> 00:41:06,279
Speaker 1: that's fine. Put up bread brendon, y'all. Make sure you

844
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Speaker 1: get your tickets now.

845
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Speaker 5: May fifth, we are at the Earth Theater in London's

846
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Speaker 5: and we made this a specific request to be in

847
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Speaker 5: London on the weekend so that are are all of

848
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849
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Speaker 1: We want our whole Europe.

850
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Speaker 5: And Europe pull whatever, all the black people that live

851
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Speaker 5: and see us.

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Speaker 3: We're gonna be there May fifth. We are having a

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Speaker 3: whole new show, one that you didn't see. This is

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Speaker 3: a part of the Climax tour. So even if you

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Speaker 3: were on the Climax Tour and you need a little trip,

857
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Speaker 3: it's gonna be warmer, it's gonna be fun.

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Speaker 1: Come through and see ag that's right.

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860
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Speaker 5: and get your tickets now. So for the horrible decision

861
00:41:47,920 --> 00:41:51,480
Speaker 5: this week, I want to lean into being touch starved,

862
00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:54,680
Speaker 5: which I've been talking about a lot. I talked about

863
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 5: it on Patreon like a month ago. Oh shit, sorry,

864
00:41:58,040 --> 00:41:59,960
Speaker 5: not the bird. It was like gonna be through a

865
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:02,600
Speaker 5: a banana which you haven't sent me. I don't appreciate.

866
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Speaker 5: Calm down, Calm down, we gonna giddy, We gonna giddy.

867
00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:09,759
Speaker 5: Uh So, being touchstarved is also something I'm dealing with,

868
00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:12,880
Speaker 5: not only in therapy, but this podcast and where the

869
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:14,480
Speaker 5: fuck I am in my fucking life.

870
00:42:14,680 --> 00:42:14,839
Speaker 4: And.

871
00:42:16,480 --> 00:42:19,880
Speaker 5: Oh my god, it's giving I changed because if y'all

872
00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:22,560
Speaker 5: go back to the fucking beginning of this podcast, I

873
00:42:22,640 --> 00:42:26,759
Speaker 5: talk about fucking niggas, did not kissing them, fucking.

874
00:42:26,560 --> 00:42:29,040
Speaker 1: Niggas, ad not cuddling, doing all.

875
00:42:28,920 --> 00:42:33,320
Speaker 5: Of those things, And since my relationship, that's been something

876
00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:38,759
Speaker 5: I now realize I am completely yearning. It ain't even dick,

877
00:42:39,160 --> 00:42:41,880
Speaker 5: even though I got the one nigga, which hopefully I

878
00:42:41,920 --> 00:42:48,960
Speaker 5: get my round three, But I don't crave at all

879
00:42:49,320 --> 00:42:53,239
Speaker 5: sex as much as I realize. I'm crying to my

880
00:42:53,320 --> 00:42:55,759
Speaker 5: therapist saying that I want to cuddle, that I want

881
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:59,440
Speaker 5: to hug, that I want someone to massage me, and

882
00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:00,920
Speaker 5: not one that I pay for, but one that's a

883
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:03,960
Speaker 5: little bit more intimate. I think we talked about on

884
00:43:04,280 --> 00:43:08,040
Speaker 5: our Patreon that I found intimacy and watching a TV

885
00:43:08,160 --> 00:43:12,239
Speaker 5: show with somebody and how much I missed that, and

886
00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:16,520
Speaker 5: so I don't I could say it's getting older. But

887
00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:19,600
Speaker 5: the things that I crave now from a man is

888
00:43:19,640 --> 00:43:23,879
Speaker 5: so different than just the sexual desire to be with one.

889
00:43:24,280 --> 00:43:27,400
Speaker 5: It's feeling respected, it's feeling cared for, it's feeling loved,

890
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:30,719
Speaker 5: it's feeling protected, it's feeling safe, all those things, And

891
00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:33,359
Speaker 5: I realized that a lot of those things come with

892
00:43:33,440 --> 00:43:37,400
Speaker 5: intimacy and everything that has nothing to do with actual

893
00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:40,520
Speaker 5: dick and pussy. No vagina, no nothing. That's why I said,

894
00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:42,080
Speaker 5: maybe you get to talk about your foot job, because

895
00:43:42,080 --> 00:43:44,680
Speaker 5: maybe that's intimate. Maybe that don't count of sex. But

896
00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:48,880
Speaker 5: job sound like a job, not really sick well to me. Actually,

897
00:43:48,920 --> 00:43:53,279
Speaker 5: this is something interesting. The foot job, which I won't go.

898
00:43:53,280 --> 00:43:57,799
Speaker 3: Into detail with us because I stopped trying, was how

899
00:43:57,880 --> 00:44:00,200
Speaker 3: sex was about to start. And then we were both like,

900
00:44:01,719 --> 00:44:03,759
Speaker 3: maybe we shouldn't come, Maybe we should hold it for

901
00:44:03,800 --> 00:44:05,879
Speaker 3: our vacation. Like we're gonna be on vacation for a week,

902
00:44:05,920 --> 00:44:09,000
Speaker 3: we're gonna be ten days as long. That's the longest.

903
00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:11,080
Speaker 3: The longest we've been together was a week. And he

904
00:44:11,120 --> 00:44:12,480
Speaker 3: literally was like, bitch, you don't annoy me.

905
00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:14,319
Speaker 1: This is crazy. He don't call me bitch, but that's

906
00:44:14,320 --> 00:44:16,680
Speaker 1: really my day. But Yeah, we have to go between

907
00:44:16,800 --> 00:44:18,879
Speaker 1: LA to Hawaii back to LA leaving from New York.

908
00:44:18,880 --> 00:44:21,360
Speaker 1: It's a lot. So we talked about holding it.

909
00:44:21,360 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 3: He was like, yo, people go there for their honeymoon, Like,

910
00:44:23,200 --> 00:44:26,920
Speaker 3: let's fucking hold this calm girl was crazy, literally like

911
00:44:27,000 --> 00:44:27,359
Speaker 3: my foot.

912
00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:29,000
Speaker 1: I thought his dick was gonna break, that's how heart

913
00:44:29,040 --> 00:44:29,359
Speaker 1: he was.

914
00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:33,560
Speaker 3: But say all that to say, I realized how intense

915
00:44:33,680 --> 00:44:39,160
Speaker 3: the intimacy gets when you aren't having sex. We went

916
00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,000
Speaker 3: to d C a few weeks ago. I met some

917
00:44:41,080 --> 00:44:43,920
Speaker 3: of the whore Hive. They were great. Shout out to Marjorie.

918
00:44:43,960 --> 00:44:47,800
Speaker 3: I hope that's her name at the lysle Long story short,

919
00:44:48,560 --> 00:44:51,000
Speaker 3: we had a forty five hour make forty five minute

920
00:44:51,000 --> 00:44:53,480
Speaker 3: makeout session and he told me he thought it was

921
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:55,880
Speaker 3: the best sex we ever had, And I was like, really,

922
00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:58,319
Speaker 3: He's like, yo, it was such a build up for

923
00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:00,759
Speaker 3: me touching you, looking at you, kissing you, talking to you,

924
00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:02,239
Speaker 3: listening to the music in the bacts Like, it was

925
00:45:02,280 --> 00:45:05,959
Speaker 3: so much of a build And I think that type

926
00:45:05,960 --> 00:45:10,200
Speaker 3: of shit when you don't have sex, it's like it

927
00:45:10,239 --> 00:45:11,879
Speaker 3: almost makes the sex not that big a deal.

928
00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:15,479
Speaker 1: Right, You definitely need a cuddle, buddy, girl.

929
00:45:15,520 --> 00:45:19,279
Speaker 5: It's so crazy because the word need is something I'm

930
00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:22,360
Speaker 5: battling with now because of all the trauma associated. We

931
00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:27,239
Speaker 5: can need touch, and I realize, though I do I

932
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:29,719
Speaker 5: need it, why don't you just do it with a woman? Well,

933
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:32,839
Speaker 5: so can I tell you? Oh my god, I hate

934
00:45:32,840 --> 00:45:34,120
Speaker 5: that you brought that up because I was just in

935
00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:37,040
Speaker 5: my fucking therapy. It's a sair when I tell you,

936
00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:40,920
Speaker 5: I absolutely love and adore my friends. They've been now

937
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:43,600
Speaker 5: joining me on tour. They've been like, bitch, what city

938
00:45:43,680 --> 00:45:45,440
Speaker 5: we go into next? Because I get to fly people

939
00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:47,640
Speaker 5: in now and shit has camped and I feel like

940
00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:49,239
Speaker 5: I'm on tour with my friends and I love it.

941
00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:54,960
Speaker 5: I'm in a space where I realize love my homegirls

942
00:45:55,000 --> 00:46:01,120
Speaker 5: to death, love intimately or not intimately, love fucking women.

943
00:46:02,200 --> 00:46:04,600
Speaker 1: I have zero desire to date.

944
00:46:04,480 --> 00:46:07,960
Speaker 5: Women, not dating man, no even being intimate, Like, oh,

945
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:11,080
Speaker 5: I don't want that with a woman. I enjoy eating

946
00:46:11,120 --> 00:46:13,480
Speaker 5: slim pussy, rubin on a titty, kissing you with a

947
00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:16,920
Speaker 5: man in the I sparke cuddling friends before. Yeah, but

948
00:46:17,080 --> 00:46:19,800
Speaker 5: that's an I still want a man right now. I

949
00:46:19,880 --> 00:46:20,680
Speaker 5: want that from a man.

950
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:22,319
Speaker 3: So I was going to make a comment about the

951
00:46:22,320 --> 00:46:25,239
Speaker 3: touch starve Yes, but I think you may need to

952
00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:28,360
Speaker 3: try out to just surprise yourself. The dude I was

953
00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:32,080
Speaker 3: dating two years ago, Dreamville dude, he said to me

954
00:46:32,239 --> 00:46:33,759
Speaker 3: during the pandemic, he was.

955
00:46:35,200 --> 00:46:36,320
Speaker 1: So stuck to his computer.

956
00:46:36,400 --> 00:46:38,080
Speaker 3: The company we worked for is when we were all

957
00:46:38,080 --> 00:46:40,560
Speaker 3: participating in during the pandemic.

958
00:46:40,680 --> 00:46:43,360
Speaker 1: I feel like you don't have to give any more details.

959
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:44,719
Speaker 3: No, no, no, I was just going to say, I feel

960
00:46:44,760 --> 00:46:48,160
Speaker 3: like there wasn't a person that didn't almost crash this company,

961
00:46:48,239 --> 00:46:50,600
Speaker 3: right because of how much And he said, I didn't

962
00:46:50,600 --> 00:46:52,960
Speaker 3: get to leave my computer and I went to get

963
00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:55,440
Speaker 3: a stretch, and he was like, I didn't even realize

964
00:46:55,440 --> 00:46:58,640
Speaker 3: the person that touched me, like how much my body

965
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:02,879
Speaker 3: felt full, like I needed to be touched. I think there,

966
00:47:03,520 --> 00:47:05,840
Speaker 3: it's easier said than done because you're associating all of

967
00:47:05,880 --> 00:47:08,239
Speaker 3: that with a person that you love in a romantic way.

968
00:47:08,960 --> 00:47:11,080
Speaker 3: Some touch can happen, bro, and I think you should

969
00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:14,880
Speaker 3: explore it. And I think with try just try to

970
00:47:14,920 --> 00:47:18,920
Speaker 3: survive yourself with central massages, with maybe some.

971
00:47:18,960 --> 00:47:21,720
Speaker 1: Cuddling with people that you know you won't fuck.

972
00:47:22,719 --> 00:47:25,359
Speaker 3: Just that touch point, Like it's like when you hug

973
00:47:25,400 --> 00:47:27,280
Speaker 3: someone that really needs a hug, like you don't realize

974
00:47:27,280 --> 00:47:28,560
Speaker 3: you need a hug until you get one.

975
00:47:28,920 --> 00:47:31,400
Speaker 5: So that's the thing. I don't want to pay for

976
00:47:31,400 --> 00:47:33,799
Speaker 5: a massage, I know. Oh and it's open now, so

977
00:47:33,880 --> 00:47:35,880
Speaker 5: he back on the schedule of my to go see him.

978
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:41,640
Speaker 5: But oh, bitch, flood iron baby is open. Uh huh,

979
00:47:41,680 --> 00:47:44,440
Speaker 5: don't be looking. Don't say, don't be going to get

980
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:50,840
Speaker 5: a masta. Oh Ben should fiel his massages? Oh yeah, yeah,

981
00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:54,240
Speaker 5: let me bish when he put my leg up, baby.

982
00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:58,560
Speaker 5: But even that, I realized that I want someone to

983
00:47:58,600 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 5: spend the night. Oh like, I want the intimacy of

984
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:05,960
Speaker 5: those things without of course without sex, but I don't

985
00:48:05,960 --> 00:48:07,440
Speaker 5: want to have to pay for it. You know, I

986
00:48:07,440 --> 00:48:08,880
Speaker 5: ain't paying for Dick. I don't want to pay for

987
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:11,759
Speaker 5: Enemacy is a goddamn it. I just want somebody that

988
00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:15,279
Speaker 5: I actually like to be around me, to cuddle, to

989
00:48:15,480 --> 00:48:17,280
Speaker 5: lay up with, to fucking enjoy.

990
00:48:17,560 --> 00:48:18,160
Speaker 1: And that's it.

991
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:22,560
Speaker 5: So being touch starved is where I'm just like, damn,

992
00:48:22,760 --> 00:48:25,800
Speaker 5: I actually do need a person before we get to

993
00:48:25,840 --> 00:48:27,719
Speaker 5: homell because I wanted to. I wanted to share with

994
00:48:27,800 --> 00:48:32,440
Speaker 5: you guys the potential effects of a woman who is

995
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:37,439
Speaker 5: touch starved. And I mean it could be you could

996
00:48:37,440 --> 00:48:40,399
Speaker 5: become a murderer. But I wanted to go through these

997
00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:44,279
Speaker 5: things because where we may feel like we don't need

998
00:48:44,320 --> 00:48:48,440
Speaker 5: a partner, we don't need nobody, especially in this modern

999
00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:53,840
Speaker 5: woman era of super independency and codependency being such a

1000
00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:58,560
Speaker 5: bad word associated with relationships. I realize how much I

1001
00:48:58,719 --> 00:49:03,000
Speaker 5: need intimacy from someone that I'm not only attracted to,

1002
00:49:03,400 --> 00:49:05,520
Speaker 5: but someone that I feel safe with. So it's not

1003
00:49:05,560 --> 00:49:08,800
Speaker 5: a stranger, it's somebody that I genuinely like to be around,

1004
00:49:08,960 --> 00:49:12,560
Speaker 5: which is hard because you niggas be a niggas. Anyways,

1005
00:49:13,239 --> 00:49:15,879
Speaker 5: Things in which can be affected if you are not

1006
00:49:15,960 --> 00:49:21,200
Speaker 5: getting intimacy. The first one is low self esteem, loneliness,

1007
00:49:21,680 --> 00:49:25,839
Speaker 5: a lack of emotional connection. This one might be why

1008
00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:35,200
Speaker 5: the fuck I will celibate, decreased libido, increased stress, which

1009
00:49:35,360 --> 00:49:38,879
Speaker 5: that's not surprising. My word that I'm also working through

1010
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:45,240
Speaker 5: in therapy right now, Resentment, a communication gap of course, infidelity,

1011
00:49:45,880 --> 00:49:48,920
Speaker 5: a negative body image, and for those of you in

1012
00:49:48,960 --> 00:49:52,120
Speaker 5: a relationship or in a marriage, this is actually where

1013
00:49:52,120 --> 00:49:55,360
Speaker 5: I know we talk about fucking money. A lack of

1014
00:49:55,400 --> 00:49:58,520
Speaker 5: physical intimacy is one of the leading causes of divorce,

1015
00:49:59,239 --> 00:50:02,120
Speaker 5: and of course it's because it leads to not only resentment,

1016
00:50:02,280 --> 00:50:07,040
Speaker 5: but sometimes in fidelity sometimes because that's a real connection, right,

1017
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:12,840
Speaker 5: and it's needed as human beings. Okay, hey Jesus Mohammad Allah,

1018
00:50:12,960 --> 00:50:15,080
Speaker 5: I don't know all the love you hate it.

1019
00:50:15,800 --> 00:50:16,920
Speaker 1: I don't know why, you know.

1020
00:50:16,960 --> 00:50:18,879
Speaker 5: I'm mad that it got wired that way because now

1021
00:50:18,920 --> 00:50:22,200
Speaker 5: I'm dependent on another human being for this, Like what

1022
00:50:22,400 --> 00:50:25,400
Speaker 5: aliens that bring them? Damn bitch, I'm waiting. But we'dn't

1023
00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:30,560
Speaker 5: been wired this way by our creator to actually need

1024
00:50:30,920 --> 00:50:34,640
Speaker 5: someone else. And in my super independence as a woman

1025
00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 5: and a part of me that actually felt strong and

1026
00:50:37,800 --> 00:50:41,760
Speaker 5: saying I don't need no man a, I'm like, fuck,

1027
00:50:42,200 --> 00:50:47,280
Speaker 5: I really fucking need this person to make me feel

1028
00:50:47,360 --> 00:50:50,400
Speaker 5: this way. And it has so many connections, so so

1029
00:50:50,480 --> 00:50:51,200
Speaker 5: many other things.

1030
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:52,840
Speaker 3: I'm gonna say this because I think you and a

1031
00:50:52,840 --> 00:50:56,640
Speaker 3: lot of people need to hear it. Saying you need

1032
00:50:56,760 --> 00:51:00,239
Speaker 3: connection is okay and very healthy. That's why we, you know,

1033
00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:03,640
Speaker 3: replace friendships sometimes a partners. Like maybe you're watching a

1034
00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:05,919
Speaker 3: show or a movie with a friend because you're single

1035
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:07,399
Speaker 3: right now, or you're taking trips with a friend because

1036
00:51:07,400 --> 00:51:10,520
Speaker 3: you're single right now, like just because you need Like

1037
00:51:10,680 --> 00:51:14,719
Speaker 3: it's just we have to live our lives. And do,

1038
00:51:15,320 --> 00:51:19,680
Speaker 3: and I think that is the thing that we're not doing.

1039
00:51:20,120 --> 00:51:23,360
Speaker 3: At least I could speak for myself because I was

1040
00:51:23,400 --> 00:51:26,600
Speaker 3: becoming so angry with my ex for the reason that

1041
00:51:26,640 --> 00:51:30,440
Speaker 3: I was single, that I couldn't just enjoy anymore. And

1042
00:51:30,480 --> 00:51:32,959
Speaker 3: like the openness I had for people was so close

1043
00:51:33,040 --> 00:51:36,440
Speaker 3: because I was so mad. That is the final phase

1044
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:39,279
Speaker 3: of grieving in a breakup. I think, Okay, it's like

1045
00:51:40,840 --> 00:51:43,320
Speaker 3: my self worth. I'm not really speaking about you, but me.

1046
00:51:44,120 --> 00:51:47,040
Speaker 3: My self worth was becoming so attached to him and

1047
00:51:47,120 --> 00:51:50,040
Speaker 3: me thinking you talked about a friend that said they

1048
00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:52,880
Speaker 3: couldn't be around you because they were you know, uh,

1049
00:51:52,920 --> 00:51:56,320
Speaker 3: partnered or whatever, And like for me, I had felt

1050
00:51:56,360 --> 00:51:59,840
Speaker 3: that I wasn't feeling worthy because this person was gone,

1051
00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:01,840
Speaker 3: which is crazy because when we see single women we

1052
00:52:01,920 --> 00:52:05,719
Speaker 3: kind of pity them. Not we society pities them. She

1053
00:52:05,760 --> 00:52:08,160
Speaker 3: could have left a terrible person, right, you know, there's

1054
00:52:08,160 --> 00:52:10,440
Speaker 3: so much power in that antally unhappy people are we

1055
00:52:10,440 --> 00:52:13,399
Speaker 3: seeing in relationships. I was unhappy at the end, not

1056
00:52:13,440 --> 00:52:15,440
Speaker 3: for the full part of my relationship or even even

1057
00:52:15,719 --> 00:52:20,040
Speaker 3: more than half of my relationship was great, but I think.

1058
00:52:19,800 --> 00:52:20,319
Speaker 1: That like.

1059
00:52:21,719 --> 00:52:26,000
Speaker 3: The weight of the word need makes people feel like

1060
00:52:26,040 --> 00:52:29,759
Speaker 3: they're giving up their own power, but it's okay. Like

1061
00:52:30,080 --> 00:52:33,320
Speaker 3: living your life until it happens is the number one priority.

1062
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:38,400
Speaker 3: I literally wrote in this book yesterday or journal, excuse me, yesterday,

1063
00:52:38,400 --> 00:52:40,600
Speaker 3: I was reading some of the things with the person

1064
00:52:40,640 --> 00:52:44,040
Speaker 3: that I'm dating, how happy and how I couldn't believe

1065
00:52:44,239 --> 00:52:47,279
Speaker 3: what was happening to me was like I really had

1066
00:52:47,320 --> 00:52:49,839
Speaker 3: just focused so much on my own personal joy day

1067
00:52:49,880 --> 00:52:53,200
Speaker 3: to day instead of being angry. Literally, I mean maybe

1068
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:56,120
Speaker 3: the first eight things I wrote about I want someone alternative.

1069
00:52:56,120 --> 00:52:58,000
Speaker 3: I talked about wanting someone that looked like Lenny Kravitz,

1070
00:52:58,040 --> 00:52:59,840
Speaker 3: wro wrote it down it was crazy. And then the

1071
00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:02,040
Speaker 3: one of the final things I wrote was a man

1072
00:53:02,120 --> 00:53:04,400
Speaker 3: that makes me feel so sure of my place in

1073
00:53:04,440 --> 00:53:09,200
Speaker 3: their life. And on the next page I wrote about

1074
00:53:09,239 --> 00:53:11,560
Speaker 3: the things that I wanted for myself and that what

1075
00:53:11,560 --> 00:53:14,120
Speaker 3: it's tired of myself doing. And the thing that I

1076
00:53:14,160 --> 00:53:18,680
Speaker 3: wrote was, I'm so tired of feeling like it's my fault,

1077
00:53:18,840 --> 00:53:21,440
Speaker 3: like I get chosen over. I get so tired of

1078
00:53:21,480 --> 00:53:23,560
Speaker 3: feeling like I made a choice in my life that's

1079
00:53:23,640 --> 00:53:24,680
Speaker 3: keeping me from a partner.

1080
00:53:25,120 --> 00:53:27,719
Speaker 1: And I used to think, not horrible podcast. I was

1081
00:53:27,719 --> 00:53:29,719
Speaker 1: about to say not horrible, but just.

1082
00:53:29,680 --> 00:53:34,520
Speaker 3: Like my freedom, my personality supersedes horrible. Right, I've always

1083
00:53:34,520 --> 00:53:36,759
Speaker 3: been this girl. Yep, before I had a podcast, I

1084
00:53:36,840 --> 00:53:39,759
Speaker 3: might talk about sex and with everybody. Right, that used

1085
00:53:39,760 --> 00:53:41,719
Speaker 3: to scare me and like, ooh, is that why people

1086
00:53:41,719 --> 00:53:42,759
Speaker 3: don't want to end up dating me?

1087
00:53:43,280 --> 00:53:43,440
Speaker 5: Bro?

1088
00:53:44,200 --> 00:53:46,680
Speaker 3: We are exactly where we're supposed to be, and the

1089
00:53:46,719 --> 00:53:49,120
Speaker 3: people we meet celebrate that, and they'll match that and

1090
00:53:49,160 --> 00:53:52,839
Speaker 3: make that feel that energy feel increased and like purposeful.

1091
00:53:53,239 --> 00:53:57,719
Speaker 1: So like it's really about knowing that you're in the

1092
00:53:57,760 --> 00:53:58,520
Speaker 1: right place. Bro.

1093
00:53:58,600 --> 00:54:02,680
Speaker 3: Timing is everything, Like it's so everything. You're gonna meet

1094
00:54:02,680 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 3: a nigga because it's just happening to me right now.

1095
00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:10,000
Speaker 1: This is count number like sixteen, what for the N word?

1096
00:54:12,880 --> 00:54:15,080
Speaker 3: We both send each other a concert that we wanted

1097
00:54:15,080 --> 00:54:18,759
Speaker 3: to go to. It's elsewhere, Like same time. He was like, yo,

1098
00:54:18,800 --> 00:54:22,440
Speaker 3: you really like mine and I was like, bruh, I

1099
00:54:22,480 --> 00:54:25,040
Speaker 3: can't believe I met you right now? What if I

1100
00:54:25,120 --> 00:54:27,040
Speaker 3: met you two years ago and you're with your ex

1101
00:54:27,040 --> 00:54:29,839
Speaker 3: and I couldn't have you and I realize like, oh,

1102
00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:32,040
Speaker 3: we're meeting people that say, oll day meeting the person

1103
00:54:32,080 --> 00:54:34,600
Speaker 3: he's with. What if you met that bitch a month before?

1104
00:54:34,800 --> 00:54:36,879
Speaker 3: Right or he couldn't have been with her, He wasn't

1105
00:54:36,880 --> 00:54:38,480
Speaker 3: ready to be with her. He went through therapy, like

1106
00:54:38,920 --> 00:54:41,440
Speaker 3: we are so much in timing, Like the people were

1107
00:54:41,440 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 3: supposed to be with they're going through their face. You're

1108
00:54:43,560 --> 00:54:45,759
Speaker 3: going through therapy for when Nigga that you end up

1109
00:54:45,760 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 3: meeting seventeen count seventeen, he may like he may count

1110
00:54:51,480 --> 00:54:52,919
Speaker 3: you just said I said sixteen times.

1111
00:54:52,960 --> 00:54:55,239
Speaker 1: Oh okay, okay, nigga.

1112
00:54:54,800 --> 00:54:59,320
Speaker 3: He might really dislike equality that you are working through.

1113
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:02,040
Speaker 3: If you met him today, you would he would not

1114
00:55:02,040 --> 00:55:02,719
Speaker 3: be able to be with you.

1115
00:55:02,800 --> 00:55:04,160
Speaker 1: I mean, you know what I told you. That's why

1116
00:55:04,160 --> 00:55:09,680
Speaker 1: I'm revisiting uh oh oh from okay.

1117
00:55:10,360 --> 00:55:12,799
Speaker 3: But that's what I'm saying right Like the person that

1118
00:55:12,840 --> 00:55:14,520
Speaker 3: you're looking for, there may be something they need to

1119
00:55:14,560 --> 00:55:16,640
Speaker 3: get over. There may be maturity levels they need to reach.

1120
00:55:16,719 --> 00:55:20,200
Speaker 3: Like I really have a strong belief that like there's

1121
00:55:20,200 --> 00:55:22,560
Speaker 3: a divinity and timing and I just believe that you're

1122
00:55:22,560 --> 00:55:23,800
Speaker 3: not our love but my life.

1123
00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:24,440
Speaker 1: Can I ask you?

1124
00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:27,279
Speaker 5: Then maybe you're a lot more emotional than me, So

1125
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:30,879
Speaker 5: I feel like you need a guy way more than you. No, No,

1126
00:55:30,920 --> 00:55:35,920
Speaker 5: when I say emotional in regards to your ability to

1127
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:38,520
Speaker 5: hop in and out relationships with people that you feel

1128
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:41,120
Speaker 5: safe and comfortable and move forward with. And I ask

1129
00:55:41,200 --> 00:55:44,440
Speaker 5: you this because in terms of intimacy, how do you

1130
00:55:44,520 --> 00:55:47,600
Speaker 5: find or request this? So this is my issue right now.

1131
00:55:47,880 --> 00:55:49,960
Speaker 5: So I got the little nigga that you know y'all

1132
00:55:49,960 --> 00:55:52,359
Speaker 5: saw each other at that event at one time, you know, the.

1133
00:55:52,320 --> 00:55:57,319
Speaker 1: One I told you. So, I have.

1134
00:56:00,719 --> 00:56:03,520
Speaker 5: Mitch, the one I just sucked his dick and didn't

1135
00:56:03,560 --> 00:56:09,759
Speaker 5: get oh, okay him okay. So even with him, right,

1136
00:56:10,960 --> 00:56:14,680
Speaker 5: we know that we have this. It's not a relationship.

1137
00:56:14,680 --> 00:56:17,200
Speaker 5: We have casual sex and we enjoy each other. We

1138
00:56:17,200 --> 00:56:20,280
Speaker 5: talk damn there every day, but it doesn't go beyond

1139
00:56:20,320 --> 00:56:22,200
Speaker 5: us talking about how we can't wait to fuck each

1140
00:56:22,200 --> 00:56:25,200
Speaker 5: other the next time we see each other. So, because

1141
00:56:25,239 --> 00:56:27,359
Speaker 5: it's so casual, before we wrap out of here, this

1142
00:56:27,400 --> 00:56:29,160
Speaker 5: is my home mail and I would like your advice

1143
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:34,200
Speaker 5: on it. I am having casual sex with somebody while

1144
00:56:34,440 --> 00:56:39,120
Speaker 5: also craving intimacy. This person I do not want to

1145
00:56:39,160 --> 00:56:42,600
Speaker 5: be with, but this person I truly enjoy being with

1146
00:56:42,640 --> 00:56:48,280
Speaker 5: when we're together. However him yes, However, in the times

1147
00:56:48,280 --> 00:56:51,279
Speaker 5: that we're together, and we talked about it all have

1148
00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:57,000
Speaker 5: my own rooms sometimes all the time, and we kind

1149
00:56:57,000 --> 00:57:04,200
Speaker 5: of enjoy what we've already created. However, I need fucking intimacy.

1150
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:07,120
Speaker 5: How do I communicate to someone who I've already created

1151
00:57:07,120 --> 00:57:11,640
Speaker 5: a casual sex relationship with that I might want us

1152
00:57:11,640 --> 00:57:13,360
Speaker 5: to stay in the same room and cuddle, that I

1153
00:57:13,440 --> 00:57:15,560
Speaker 5: might want to wake up next to him, that I

1154
00:57:15,640 --> 00:57:19,320
Speaker 5: might want kisses on my forehead, and that I don't

1155
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:22,080
Speaker 5: really want much else but in the time that we're together,

1156
00:57:22,240 --> 00:57:25,280
Speaker 5: because it it literally were never together, like we'll be

1157
00:57:25,320 --> 00:57:28,040
Speaker 5: together for like two days straight. How do I request

1158
00:57:28,080 --> 00:57:30,760
Speaker 5: intimacy from a casual sex.

1159
00:57:30,760 --> 00:57:32,560
Speaker 1: Is such a home mail question. I'm sure a lot of.

1160
00:57:32,560 --> 00:57:35,000
Speaker 5: People I know, I know, and and by the way,

1161
00:57:35,280 --> 00:57:39,440
Speaker 5: we have men in the room. So intimacy with a

1162
00:57:39,520 --> 00:57:43,000
Speaker 5: casual sex partner. If any of y'all have any advice,

1163
00:57:43,360 --> 00:57:44,280
Speaker 5: please come to the mic.

1164
00:57:44,880 --> 00:57:45,200
Speaker 1: Wow.

1165
00:57:45,240 --> 00:57:47,120
Speaker 3: So this is an interesting thing because this was a

1166
00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:50,200
Speaker 3: topic that came up in my relationship because when I'm

1167
00:57:50,280 --> 00:57:52,640
Speaker 3: away and I'm in LA and you know, something may

1168
00:57:52,640 --> 00:57:54,440
Speaker 3: happen with him and someone else. That was actually one

1169
00:57:54,480 --> 00:57:57,840
Speaker 3: of my hard nos. Oh no sleepovers, know this, know that.

1170
00:57:58,360 --> 00:58:01,160
Speaker 3: And he was like, yo, like I know what you're saying.

1171
00:58:01,600 --> 00:58:04,520
Speaker 3: He's like, not that he didn't agree He's like, I

1172
00:58:04,520 --> 00:58:07,360
Speaker 3: don't really date like women that are like bottom tier

1173
00:58:07,400 --> 00:58:12,160
Speaker 3: of bitches, like these girls definitely are used to men

1174
00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:13,760
Speaker 3: being able to give them a little bit more.

1175
00:58:14,120 --> 00:58:15,680
Speaker 1: I can't run through one of these day I can

1176
00:58:15,720 --> 00:58:17,400
Speaker 1: get more like it. But I think he meant.

1177
00:58:17,280 --> 00:58:20,920
Speaker 3: More like, I can't just run like when you're a

1178
00:58:20,920 --> 00:58:23,120
Speaker 3: girl of I hate to be like Kevin samuelsy, but

1179
00:58:23,200 --> 00:58:26,080
Speaker 3: like a certain stature of status or whatever, like you

1180
00:58:26,120 --> 00:58:28,320
Speaker 3: can't run through a bitch and dump and dub her

1181
00:58:28,720 --> 00:58:30,560
Speaker 3: like right Like He's like, yo, I might have to

1182
00:58:30,600 --> 00:58:32,560
Speaker 3: do a little song and dance here with this bitch.

1183
00:58:32,880 --> 00:58:35,200
Speaker 3: And he's like understanding certain things. I'm like, well, I

1184
00:58:35,200 --> 00:58:36,760
Speaker 3: don't really care. This is my thing right now.

1185
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:38,680
Speaker 5: She just called me a bottom tier bitch, which is crazy,

1186
00:58:38,680 --> 00:58:39,800
Speaker 5: but I'm ana keep talking.

1187
00:58:39,840 --> 00:58:42,080
Speaker 1: No you, no niggas, don't just run through you. Mandy,

1188
00:58:42,080 --> 00:58:44,040
Speaker 1: the nigga flew your mouse. But that's what I'm saying.

1189
00:58:44,080 --> 00:58:46,720
Speaker 5: I can get the first class, first off, with no question.

1190
00:58:46,960 --> 00:58:48,600
Speaker 5: I get the first class. I get the room with

1191
00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:52,280
Speaker 5: the rits I get. I'm talking about a girl that'll

1192
00:58:52,320 --> 00:58:55,160
Speaker 5: be so desperate for dick they just let you do anything.

1193
00:58:55,200 --> 00:58:57,680
Speaker 1: But that's the thing, and maybe it's treat you any time.

1194
00:58:57,760 --> 00:58:58,920
Speaker 1: Maybe it's a love language thing.

1195
00:58:59,000 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 5: I'm telling you the first plus the gifts, the treatment,

1196
00:59:02,640 --> 00:59:06,520
Speaker 5: the games, like all of that means nothing because bitch,

1197
00:59:06,520 --> 00:59:08,120
Speaker 5: I want you to rub my forehead.

1198
00:59:07,920 --> 00:59:10,880
Speaker 3: Right, And I understand because that's a real thing, right,

1199
00:59:11,040 --> 00:59:12,960
Speaker 3: even for me, like when dating other people, like I'm

1200
00:59:12,960 --> 00:59:14,360
Speaker 3: sure that nigga don't like when they can take me

1201
00:59:14,400 --> 00:59:17,040
Speaker 3: to you know what I mean? But anyway I would

1202
00:59:17,040 --> 00:59:20,600
Speaker 3: say you need to I don't know. I'll tell you

1203
00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:21,960
Speaker 3: what I think you should do in this situation, but

1204
00:59:22,000 --> 00:59:23,880
Speaker 3: I'll tell you what you need to moving forward. Okay,

1205
00:59:23,960 --> 00:59:28,880
Speaker 3: stop being the cool girl. Okay, you are.

1206
00:59:30,200 --> 00:59:31,520
Speaker 1: I don't want to be much more with him.

1207
00:59:31,680 --> 00:59:35,000
Speaker 3: Hold on, you're being the cool girl to where guys

1208
00:59:35,040 --> 00:59:37,760
Speaker 3: feel so comfortable that they don't feel like you have

1209
00:59:37,800 --> 00:59:41,040
Speaker 3: an issue with this because you're cool, okay, and that

1210
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:44,080
Speaker 3: and that friendship that you build and that cool girl

1211
00:59:44,120 --> 00:59:48,400
Speaker 3: connection kind of, he don't think he's mistreating you at all, right,

1212
00:59:48,440 --> 00:59:51,640
Speaker 3: you don't, of course he doesn't, because you're the cool girl.

1213
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:58,720
Speaker 3: I'm not really scared to be vulnerable. Your vulnerability has

1214
00:59:58,760 --> 01:00:01,800
Speaker 3: been an issue for you. It's your safeguard for your heart, right,

1215
01:00:02,320 --> 01:00:04,880
Speaker 3: I don't give a fuck, and so it.

1216
01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:06,560
Speaker 1: Looks like a crying, whiny bitch.

1217
01:00:06,680 --> 01:00:08,320
Speaker 5: I don't think it's crying your whiny because you're not

1218
01:00:08,320 --> 01:00:10,040
Speaker 5: about to be crying winey when you when you say

1219
01:00:10,040 --> 01:00:10,840
Speaker 5: what I think you should say?

1220
01:00:11,040 --> 01:00:14,480
Speaker 1: Okay, what should I say? We've been fucking for a minute,

1221
01:00:14,640 --> 01:00:15,200
Speaker 1: and while.

1222
01:00:15,040 --> 01:00:18,040
Speaker 3: I say where we're at, I'm at the point where

1223
01:00:18,160 --> 01:00:20,200
Speaker 3: I need a fake boyfriend when we're around each other.

1224
01:00:21,200 --> 01:00:23,600
Speaker 3: Need you to be my little fake man. I'm hungry,

1225
01:00:23,920 --> 01:00:26,000
Speaker 3: I need to watch a show. I need a little

1226
01:00:26,040 --> 01:00:28,480
Speaker 3: kiss her too. I don't really think my pussy can

1227
01:00:28,520 --> 01:00:30,160
Speaker 3: get his wet if I don't got a fake boyfriend.

1228
01:00:30,800 --> 01:00:33,200
Speaker 3: Not a fake boyfriend, and you let him know exactly

1229
01:00:33,280 --> 01:00:35,600
Speaker 3: what you need. The fake boyfriend is one a cool

1230
01:00:35,640 --> 01:00:38,680
Speaker 3: girl joke. It's not being like I need intimacy and

1231
01:00:38,760 --> 01:00:40,560
Speaker 3: I need my hair stroked.

1232
01:00:40,600 --> 01:00:42,400
Speaker 1: And you don't have to go there. You can make

1233
01:00:42,440 --> 01:00:45,960
Speaker 1: it very light to where he'll understand. Can I ask you, Wolf,

1234
01:00:46,600 --> 01:00:47,280
Speaker 1: that was good?

1235
01:00:47,640 --> 01:00:50,280
Speaker 5: You wouldn't be thrown off or felt like a girl

1236
01:00:50,480 --> 01:00:52,680
Speaker 5: was lying like she wanted more.

1237
01:00:52,720 --> 01:00:56,280
Speaker 1: But she's gonna joke about the fake boyfriend need, it's

1238
01:00:56,280 --> 01:00:57,520
Speaker 1: definitely gonna pop in my mind.

1239
01:00:57,560 --> 01:01:00,000
Speaker 6: But if I can believe that you can really stay

1240
01:01:00,120 --> 01:01:01,560
Speaker 6: with it and it's not going to bleed over it

1241
01:01:01,560 --> 01:01:02,320
Speaker 6: and be complicated.

1242
01:01:02,680 --> 01:01:04,960
Speaker 1: And I think he trusts me my ability.

1243
01:01:04,800 --> 01:01:10,120
Speaker 3: And also wait, wait, wait saying remember hold on before

1244
01:01:10,160 --> 01:01:12,520
Speaker 3: you talk at it. I said, I understand where we're

1245
01:01:12,520 --> 01:01:14,600
Speaker 3: at and that we aren't pursuing more.

1246
01:01:14,720 --> 01:01:18,400
Speaker 1: That's how you started, how I started. Okay, I feel

1247
01:01:18,400 --> 01:01:19,280
Speaker 1: like that's such a trap.

1248
01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:22,520
Speaker 5: It's a trap because do you feel like as as

1249
01:01:22,560 --> 01:01:25,760
Speaker 5: women and maybe most men, once you include the intimacy

1250
01:01:26,200 --> 01:01:27,360
Speaker 5: that a woman does.

1251
01:01:27,240 --> 01:01:33,000
Speaker 7: Start just yeah, it's like fantasizing, like I know, romanticizing. Okay, romanticizing.

1252
01:01:33,040 --> 01:01:35,000
Speaker 7: That's kind of like, at least on my side where

1253
01:01:35,000 --> 01:01:37,320
Speaker 7: I've grown as a lover or I guess a partner.

1254
01:01:37,760 --> 01:01:41,360
Speaker 7: I try not to even make that a possible belief.

1255
01:01:41,440 --> 01:01:42,080
Speaker 1: That's my thing.

1256
01:01:42,360 --> 01:01:44,439
Speaker 3: I think that we need to be very clear though

1257
01:01:44,600 --> 01:01:48,000
Speaker 3: in that Mandy, it's tired of the transaction.

1258
01:01:48,240 --> 01:01:51,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, so don't use that word either. I'm in therapy

1259
01:01:51,600 --> 01:01:51,880
Speaker 1: right now.

1260
01:01:51,920 --> 01:01:54,600
Speaker 3: No, but that's that is a word you should be using.

1261
01:01:54,680 --> 01:01:56,720
Speaker 3: Like it's a little too transactional for me, right?

1262
01:01:56,760 --> 01:01:57,640
Speaker 1: Are you not even paying me?

1263
01:01:57,680 --> 01:01:59,120
Speaker 5: I want to see him, he wants to see me

1264
01:01:59,280 --> 01:02:01,760
Speaker 5: doesn't money, right, it's an exchange.

1265
01:02:01,480 --> 01:02:03,360
Speaker 1: But I'm not fully getting what I want.

1266
01:02:03,440 --> 01:02:05,720
Speaker 5: But here's this is why I ask for the men

1267
01:02:05,840 --> 01:02:08,360
Speaker 5: listening a woman comes to you and it's like, I

1268
01:02:08,440 --> 01:02:11,880
Speaker 5: enjoy just fucking you, but I want the boyfriend girlfriend

1269
01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:16,000
Speaker 5: treatment does with that scare either together.

1270
01:02:16,240 --> 01:02:18,760
Speaker 3: When you're together, it's not even like you're asking him

1271
01:02:18,760 --> 01:02:20,560
Speaker 3: to check on you on how your day was, if

1272
01:02:20,600 --> 01:02:21,240
Speaker 3: are you feeling good?

1273
01:02:21,240 --> 01:02:24,800
Speaker 1: You want me to send your soup? No, when doing that,

1274
01:02:25,160 --> 01:02:28,240
Speaker 1: I'm just saying like, I don't think you're asking for a.

1275
01:02:28,200 --> 01:02:32,280
Speaker 5: Lot, you know, Okay, So as men me asking for

1276
01:02:32,480 --> 01:02:34,800
Speaker 5: us to maybe be in the same room, the cuddling,

1277
01:02:35,440 --> 01:02:38,560
Speaker 5: that's not asking for a lot. I love it all

1278
01:02:38,640 --> 01:02:41,040
Speaker 5: on Wolf look a little talking to the mic like.

1279
01:02:41,000 --> 01:02:41,600
Speaker 1: You know how to buy.

1280
01:02:41,840 --> 01:02:43,560
Speaker 6: You can be committed to it if you can be

1281
01:02:43,600 --> 01:02:45,840
Speaker 6: honest about it, because the real truth is people who

1282
01:02:45,880 --> 01:02:49,200
Speaker 6: they positions in relationships and who positions Yeah, so if

1283
01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:52,520
Speaker 6: you can stay committed to it and really make deliver.

1284
01:02:52,320 --> 01:02:54,479
Speaker 5: On that and just be like, nigga, you only gonna

1285
01:02:54,480 --> 01:02:57,080
Speaker 5: be my boyfriend but thirty six hours because he wants

1286
01:02:57,080 --> 01:02:58,040
Speaker 5: it to to be honest.

1287
01:02:58,360 --> 01:03:00,840
Speaker 1: I wants it to that transactional shit for niggas.

1288
01:03:00,840 --> 01:03:03,280
Speaker 3: It's tough, and I even think a lot of men

1289
01:03:03,320 --> 01:03:04,400
Speaker 3: can compartmentalize.

1290
01:03:04,480 --> 01:03:07,520
Speaker 5: I can't, right, but now you surpride myself as a

1291
01:03:07,560 --> 01:03:09,840
Speaker 5: woman of being able to compartmental and you probably are

1292
01:03:10,320 --> 01:03:10,720
Speaker 5: driving me.

1293
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Speaker 1: I do think you need to say it on the phone, Okay.

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Speaker 5: I mean we talk every day, oh every single day.

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Speaker 1: Oh but like, hold on, we've been talking. Kid.

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Speaker 5: He be posting his little outfits and I'd be like, damn,

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Speaker 5: you look good, but that'll be like our conversation.

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Speaker 1: I think you're correctly when I say I talk to

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Speaker 1: him every day. I just be letting him know he

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Speaker 1: looks good.

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Speaker 5: He'll let me know I look good, or we talk

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01:03:31,840 --> 01:03:34,280
Speaker 5: about there's a touch point, yeah no, or we both

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Speaker 5: get drunk and I'll wake up and I'm like, nigga,

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Speaker 5: why did you hit me at four a m.

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Speaker 1: We're not even in the same city, and.

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Speaker 5: He'd be let I got lit last night and I

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01:03:41,200 --> 01:03:42,400
Speaker 5: was thinking about what we like.

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Speaker 1: So we we've been doing a little bit.

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Speaker 3: Honestly, and I think he's gonna receive this badly, Okay,

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Speaker 3: like you, that's a lot of talking. He's even super cash,

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01:03:50,880 --> 01:03:55,240
Speaker 3: like very cash, so I think, yeah, I think get

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Speaker 3: on the phone.

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Speaker 1: So can I be honest? You've never talked on the phone.

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Speaker 5: We don't talk on the phone until I'm like landed.

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Speaker 5: Uh see soon we only talking. We don't talk on

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Speaker 5: the phone. We text, but I'm not a phone person.

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Speaker 5: I talk only until eleven am. I don't talk on

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Speaker 5: the phone with nobody. All of my friends on I

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Speaker 5: don't talk.

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Speaker 3: You have this conversation on the phone, and okay, either

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01:04:15,920 --> 01:04:17,920
Speaker 3: it's a glass of wine. Either late night we maybe

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Speaker 3: call him and you know, tease it a little bit

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Speaker 3: so it doesn't feel super heavy.

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01:04:22,200 --> 01:04:24,520
Speaker 1: But I think fake boyfriend's a fun way to say it.

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01:04:25,000 --> 01:04:26,640
Speaker 3: And then even if you want to be honest and

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01:04:26,640 --> 01:04:28,040
Speaker 3: be like yo, I just don't have that many partners

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01:04:28,120 --> 01:04:30,080
Speaker 3: right now, niggas, So I can't just pull up on

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01:04:30,120 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 3: you to suck dick and leave, like make it.

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01:04:32,400 --> 01:04:34,280
Speaker 1: I would even make a job like I ain't getting paid.

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Speaker 5: I like being around you, be like hanging no, because

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01:04:36,240 --> 01:04:37,600
Speaker 5: then he might just offer me money.

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Speaker 1: Look at you. I hate bad advice. I like what

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01:04:40,200 --> 01:04:44,280
Speaker 1: you said. She was doing good. Goddamn I was joking.

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01:04:44,320 --> 01:04:46,480
Speaker 1: But anyways, guys, I guess you might take that serious.

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01:04:46,520 --> 01:04:48,840
Speaker 5: Jesus and he might be like, well, what you need, bitch,

1336
01:04:48,880 --> 01:04:50,640
Speaker 5: and just might pay me? And now I don't get

1337
01:04:50,680 --> 01:04:52,960
Speaker 5: into bitch. No, okay, this is dick.

1338
01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:56,320
Speaker 1: I want for free. God damn it be fine.

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01:04:56,480 --> 01:04:59,600
Speaker 5: Anyways, y'all, thank y'all for tuning in to another episode.

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01:04:59,600 --> 01:05:01,840
Speaker 5: If y'all to support us more and get more episodes

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01:05:01,880 --> 01:05:04,919
Speaker 5: like this, we're Risolla shooting the shit, talking the shit,

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Speaker 5: join us over on our Patreon that is patreon dot

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01:05:12,360 --> 01:05:17,400
Speaker 5: did that, bitch. Anyways, make sure you subscribe. Make sure

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Speaker 5: you also follow us on social media to see where

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Speaker 5: you could see us live in a city.

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Speaker 1: Near Hurry up, I gotta bee all right, this has

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Speaker 1: been yet another episode of horrible decisions.

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Speaker 5: Bye, hey guys. We are part of the second annual

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Speaker 5: Block Effect Festival in Atlanta, Georgire.

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Speaker 3: It's gonna be a wild and brand new show that

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Speaker 3: you didn't see last year. We're so excited to be

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Speaker 3: back with our atl family and our blacktech family.

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Speaker 1: That's right.

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Speaker 5: So the date is Saturday, April the twenty seventh. Make

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Speaker 5: sure you head on over to block effect dot com

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Speaker 5: and get your tickets.

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Speaker 1: Now, see that once in a blue some in home zooms.

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01:05:55,520 --> 01:05:58,520
Speaker 5: So I mean I've been honestly, and you do this

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01:05:58,600 --> 01:06:01,280
Speaker 5: a lot. We are never gonna please everybody.

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Speaker 2: Some niggas is.

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01:06:02,320 --> 01:06:05,800
Speaker 5: Like so happy, like they feel like it's content that's

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01:06:05,840 --> 01:06:08,400
Speaker 5: back in the studio, and others.

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01:06:08,320 --> 01:06:09,240
Speaker 2: Are gonna want home.

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01:06:09,520 --> 01:06:11,680
Speaker 5: When I tell you, I'll be reading them comments and

1366
01:06:11,720 --> 01:06:13,520
Speaker 5: maybe I just know we're not gonna please.

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01:06:13,240 --> 01:06:14,600
Speaker 2: All of y'all for nothing.

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Speaker 3: Behind if people like you, know, I get that you

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01:06:17,640 --> 01:06:19,640
Speaker 3: get to have a peek in because we would never

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Speaker 3: never get to do real.

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Speaker 5: Episodes like at Home or anything like that was COVID,

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01:06:23,280 --> 01:06:24,760
Speaker 5: so you kind of feel like you got a peak

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01:06:24,840 --> 01:06:27,040
Speaker 5: or something a little different. I can get the allure

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01:06:27,120 --> 01:06:29,920
Speaker 5: to it, Like I haven't really paid for bonus content

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01:06:29,920 --> 01:06:32,440
Speaker 5: in a minute, but when I did, I did enjoy

1376
01:06:32,760 --> 01:06:34,960
Speaker 5: feeling like I had something that you wouldn't give the

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Speaker 5: regular public. So if that doesn't work, then we'll just

1378
01:06:38,800 --> 01:06:42,320
Speaker 5: start doing nuts. You will start doing news vide you.

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Speaker 5: I did also want to apologize to some of the patrons.

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Speaker 2: Bitch don't know what happened to the town hall.

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01:06:50,840 --> 01:06:54,080
Speaker 5: So for the one hundred and fifty four people that

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Speaker 5: were in there this month, congratulations se.

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Speaker 2: Y'all for being able to join us. You got some

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01:06:59,480 --> 01:07:01,440
Speaker 2: tea a whole budget seat, babe.

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01:07:01,440 --> 01:07:04,280
Speaker 5: When I tell you, I was looking everywhere, and I've

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01:07:04,320 --> 01:07:08,640
Speaker 5: been recording, like first off, been using zoom. We've been

1387
01:07:08,640 --> 01:07:11,640
Speaker 5: doing town halls now for years. Never locked like one.

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01:07:11,720 --> 01:07:13,800
Speaker 5: Just it just didn't show up anywhere. I looked on

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01:07:13,840 --> 01:07:16,160
Speaker 5: my laptop, my desktop. I asked you to look.

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Speaker 2: I even shout out to Barry.

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01:07:18,880 --> 01:07:22,360
Speaker 5: Barry did some research and was trying to like see

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01:07:22,400 --> 01:07:24,080
Speaker 5: where it could be. So he was helping me, and

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01:07:24,120 --> 01:07:27,320
Speaker 5: I was like, bro, I can't find this shit fucking anywhere, and.

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01:07:27,280 --> 01:07:28,480
Speaker 2: So not mind you.

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01:07:28,520 --> 01:07:31,120
Speaker 5: When we were done, it said it was loading. Not

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01:07:31,120 --> 01:07:33,400
Speaker 5: sure where the fucking went. Maybe our zoom updated in

1397
01:07:33,440 --> 01:07:39,560
Speaker 5: the middle. Nonetheless, y'all will be getting this bonus episode

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01:07:39,560 --> 01:07:43,120
Speaker 5: this week. But we don't have to react to anything again.

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Speaker 5: If y'all were on the town hall, y'all on the

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Speaker 5: townof you weren't you weren't. I got Easter just passed,

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01:07:48,440 --> 01:07:51,880
Speaker 5: so you wanna. I mean, it's April Fools today and

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01:07:51,920 --> 01:07:54,040
Speaker 5: I took a pregnancy test and it's negative, and that

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01:07:54,240 --> 01:07:55,920
Speaker 5: I want to say last year on April Fools, you

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01:07:55,920 --> 01:07:57,760
Speaker 5: did too. This is like becoming a recurring thing.

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01:07:58,200 --> 01:07:59,080
Speaker 1: No, no, no, there's no way.

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01:07:59,120 --> 01:08:02,360
Speaker 5: But Lamball was the that was two years I thought

1407
01:08:02,400 --> 01:08:05,040
Speaker 5: that was I thought that was that Angel cool though.

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01:08:06,680 --> 01:08:10,000
Speaker 2: The April fool episode, Oh they're plan B one. No,

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01:08:10,120 --> 01:08:11,640
Speaker 2: that was the New Year's episode.

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Speaker 5: The pregnancy test though, I swear you came in here

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01:08:16,120 --> 01:08:17,759
Speaker 5: and did that on an April Fools before.

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Speaker 1: I can't. Maybe I was joking, but no, I really

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01:08:22,040 --> 01:08:22,840
Speaker 1: took one this morning.

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Speaker 5: Bro, When I tell you, I've been feeling so sluggish,

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01:08:25,560 --> 01:08:28,200
Speaker 5: I don't know what I got. I just feel like

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01:08:28,280 --> 01:08:30,240
Speaker 5: that's not be concalled just talking about don't know what

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01:08:30,280 --> 01:08:32,280
Speaker 5: I got. I feel like I can't I don't feel sick.

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01:08:32,320 --> 01:08:34,240
Speaker 5: I just feel like I can't do anything because I

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01:08:34,280 --> 01:08:35,719
Speaker 5: don't think we six feet away.

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01:08:35,800 --> 01:08:37,760
Speaker 1: But I think my body's run down. Some travel like

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01:08:37,800 --> 01:08:38,360
Speaker 1: that's a real thing.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, No, I've been traveling every week. And if

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Speaker 2: y'all are.

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01:08:43,280 --> 01:08:47,080
Speaker 5: Watching war J Cole today, because I will be at

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01:08:47,160 --> 01:08:49,400
Speaker 5: dream Bell and Bitch I met as fuck and listen,

1426
01:08:49,400 --> 01:08:51,240
Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you all about my little hypocrisy.

1427
01:08:51,320 --> 01:08:51,479
Speaker 1: Right.

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01:08:52,200 --> 01:08:54,599
Speaker 5: Woke up this morning, was hoping it was an April

1429
01:08:54,640 --> 01:08:57,360
Speaker 5: Fool's joke. It's not Chris Brown will no longer be

1430
01:08:57,400 --> 01:08:59,800
Speaker 5: a dream bill and they replaced him with fucking fifty.

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01:09:00,720 --> 01:09:05,519
Speaker 3: And I just don't understand who didn't Usher was a

1432
01:09:05,560 --> 01:09:07,000
Speaker 3: replacement for someone else last year?

1433
01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:07,240
Speaker 2: Right?

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01:09:07,479 --> 01:09:07,559
Speaker 5: No?

1435
01:09:07,640 --> 01:09:09,240
Speaker 2: I think it was Usher and Drake. They were always

1436
01:09:09,240 --> 01:09:10,839
Speaker 2: that like about Coachella.

1437
01:09:10,880 --> 01:09:15,320
Speaker 5: Here, no there, there's always some sort of replacements going on.

1438
01:09:15,560 --> 01:09:18,240
Speaker 5: Let me tell you what they did. So they replaced

1439
01:09:18,320 --> 01:09:21,320
Speaker 5: Chris Brown would fit the scent, and they replaced money

1440
01:09:21,400 --> 01:09:22,240
Speaker 5: Law one Hunt show.

1441
01:09:22,360 --> 01:09:25,160
Speaker 2: Now here's the thing, und nigga findest book.

1442
01:09:26,080 --> 01:09:28,240
Speaker 5: When I tell you though, when I listen to him,

1443
01:09:28,240 --> 01:09:30,519
Speaker 5: my ears hurt, Like I want to like him because

1444
01:09:30,520 --> 01:09:33,320
Speaker 5: he's so fine. Hopefully the sound is bad. I would

1445
01:09:33,439 --> 01:09:34,799
Speaker 5: like to ride his face.

1446
01:09:34,880 --> 01:09:36,880
Speaker 1: I love watching him and his girl, and I like

1447
01:09:36,960 --> 01:09:37,400
Speaker 1: their content.

1448
01:09:37,439 --> 01:09:42,080
Speaker 5: Oh they got he got a girl, And honestly, yeah,

1449
01:09:42,320 --> 01:09:44,879
Speaker 5: I thought him in. Gloss was just like fuck friends.

1450
01:09:45,439 --> 01:09:47,000
Speaker 5: They were laying in the bed and she was like,

1451
01:09:48,200 --> 01:09:51,160
Speaker 5: you like me as you like. But Gloss was like,

1452
01:09:51,640 --> 01:09:56,360
Speaker 5: that's her nigga, but not her nigga. If you posted

1453
01:09:56,439 --> 01:09:57,559
Speaker 5: in you in the bed and you cut it off,

1454
01:09:57,560 --> 01:09:58,200
Speaker 5: that's your nigga.

1455
01:09:58,320 --> 01:10:00,240
Speaker 2: But they've been doing that is not your nigga just

1456
01:10:00,240 --> 01:10:02,280
Speaker 2: because you hosting girl.

1457
01:10:02,360 --> 01:10:04,640
Speaker 5: No, look at all the little dots that be up

1458
01:10:04,680 --> 01:10:06,200
Speaker 5: in bed with niggas posting the day in the.

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Speaker 1: Bed with these niggas.

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Speaker 2: If you post only if he await my nigga asked me.

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01:10:11,520 --> 01:10:15,519
Speaker 1: When he was like, he was like, what did he

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01:10:15,520 --> 01:10:16,639
Speaker 1: say to me? We had a conversation.

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Speaker 5: You want to be introduced on the but like we

1464
01:10:19,720 --> 01:10:22,120
Speaker 5: had a conversation about it, and I was like, Yo,

1465
01:10:22,200 --> 01:10:23,679
Speaker 5: I'm like a really consensual poster.

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Speaker 1: Like even my homegirls there's a picture.

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01:10:25,120 --> 01:10:27,320
Speaker 5: I think they won't like like I'll ask, but I

1468
01:10:27,360 --> 01:10:29,280
Speaker 5: was like, you know, I do feel like it's time

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01:10:29,280 --> 01:10:30,680
Speaker 5: for you to get a leg in there. And he

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01:10:30,800 --> 01:10:32,559
Speaker 5: was left and he was like, yeah, like every time

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Speaker 5: maybe you post me, it's like a new tattoo, like

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Speaker 5: you got.

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01:10:34,920 --> 01:10:36,040
Speaker 1: One on this side, on this side.

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Speaker 2: And then I'm like no, because there's gonna be a.

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01:10:38,240 --> 01:10:41,600
Speaker 5: Bit that's like I know that Africa absolutely, I know

1476
01:10:41,720 --> 01:10:44,000
Speaker 5: that calf and then I'm gonna be sitting there crying

1477
01:10:44,040 --> 01:10:46,800
Speaker 5: like did you fucker yesterday? No?

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01:10:47,160 --> 01:10:48,519
Speaker 1: So I feel like it's just a no for me.

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01:10:49,200 --> 01:10:51,680
Speaker 1: I really don't. And also my homegirl got me so

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Speaker 1: convinced