WEBVTT - Ep 270: Chaos Theory (Ft. Leah McSweeney)

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<v Speaker 1>Guess what decision we're about to make A horrible decisions?

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<v Speaker 1>All right, guys, welcome to Damn. I really put the

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<v Speaker 1>voice on every time we have someone white. I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>change it. Let me go back to being regular guys.

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to another episode of horrible Decisions. I'm your girl

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<v Speaker 1>manby be a k a pit saying a full cork

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<v Speaker 1>punks a ka Mandy Baskins AKA, I'll fuck your nigga

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<v Speaker 1>and your daddy and your mama. What's up? And I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sitting here with Wow, I know it changed. I'm single

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<v Speaker 1>now I'll suck everybody sowing beer anyway. I'm easy. We

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<v Speaker 1>are back with our girl, Liam McSweeney. By the way,

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<v Speaker 1>this is the second time you've been on the show.

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<v Speaker 1>You came on the showg what do we talk? Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god. I did not want you on because I

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<v Speaker 1>thought you were like some Republican or something. At the time.

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<v Speaker 1>This is when Andrew was like everybody was calling him

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<v Speaker 1>all right, Andy right, he loved Lee away too much.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like that bitch on the wrong tea. Like

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, now, oh, and then it sucked cause

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<v Speaker 1>I love you and like, you know, when you don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to like someone I know. I think you told

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<v Speaker 1>me that on the show and literally on the show

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<v Speaker 1>We got you because you also at the time I

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<v Speaker 1>had a podcast as well. Yeah that's right. Yeah, so

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<v Speaker 1>with the etiquett. Yeah so literally, and I think we

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<v Speaker 1>do if you guys reference to back. It was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I guess you could come on, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna tell her everything I think about her, just so

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<v Speaker 1>you know. And oh, because I started to like you.

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<v Speaker 1>And you know what it was we were talking about

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<v Speaker 1>the me too era was really hot, like it just

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<v Speaker 1>back then, and there was like this rape triangle, the

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<v Speaker 1>rap angle. Do you remember that pyramid? The pyramid pyramid

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<v Speaker 1>basically saying what constitution what doesn't and all I remember

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<v Speaker 1>seeing a clipably of being like that's bullshit, and I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, well you are. I guess. Of course, let's

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<v Speaker 1>start with the introduction for those of you who do

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<v Speaker 1>not know this awesome white woman. And y'all know I

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<v Speaker 1>don't say that very often about the whites that join

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<v Speaker 1>us here, um, but I actually really really love you,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think that you align so well with horrible decisions,

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<v Speaker 1>but on a much larger platform now, so you are

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<v Speaker 1>a clothing not only designer but owner of merrit to

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<v Speaker 1>them up. You are now an author um too Chaos Theory.

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<v Speaker 1>That is your book. That just reading, by the way,

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<v Speaker 1>because I know that takes a lot of time in

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<v Speaker 1>but you read the whole book. I'm like, fo, I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't thirty two minutes? God like, like reading it out

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<v Speaker 1>loud was the like most that was the hardest thing,

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<v Speaker 1>really why because you were reading rereading your own words

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<v Speaker 1>like this, and it was like so emotionally taxing and

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<v Speaker 1>like my voice started hurtingcause like you're in the booth

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<v Speaker 1>talking narrative. Now that I've been working in narrative, podcasting

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<v Speaker 1>and filming people, there's time limits we can have before

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<v Speaker 1>someone's voice starts to crack. There's like things that we

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<v Speaker 1>have to have prepared. There's like certain like voiceover synthathizers,

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<v Speaker 1>some the sizes that you need for like you know

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<v Speaker 1>that happens like to just happen to me. But fucking

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<v Speaker 1>insane because the audiobook portion, when people are reliving a moment,

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<v Speaker 1>you're fucked then it is like it's a life. I

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<v Speaker 1>can't believe how much it actually works. And do you

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<v Speaker 1>know I had and it's not again when I did

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<v Speaker 1>so I did a dating show with MTV, but we

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<v Speaker 1>were doing two episodes today. I was on set for

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<v Speaker 1>damn near twelve hours. Mind you. It was after we

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<v Speaker 1>like did hell a book recording for a podcast. Before

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<v Speaker 1>I went out there, Literally I drank about seven throat

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<v Speaker 1>coats today. I had someone literally making sure I had

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<v Speaker 1>a warm, hot, hot, warm throat coat at all times.

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<v Speaker 1>It literally works. And also the name throat coat. Can

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<v Speaker 1>y'all just sponsor us because technically we could really get

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<v Speaker 1>you some sales another way, bro, that is the most

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<v Speaker 1>fucking name. Oh Okay, I was like, but I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>I think it just feld be like you nasty? What

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<v Speaker 1>is that? And I'm like, it's sucking te calm down, um.

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<v Speaker 1>But when I say that, you also represent somewhat horrible decisions.

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<v Speaker 1>You are a cast member of Real Housewives of New

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<v Speaker 1>York and I absolutely love how fucking uncomfortable you make

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<v Speaker 1>everybody because you will walk into a room and be like,

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<v Speaker 1>I just got done second day house Everyone's dad and

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<v Speaker 1>I love to said it. I mean, it's not that exactly,

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<v Speaker 1>but because if you did, remind you, I don't watch

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<v Speaker 1>Real Housewives, but my mother does, and she calls me

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<v Speaker 1>and she goes, Eila, there's a white girl on this

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<v Speaker 1>show that reminds me of you. Oh my god, I

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<v Speaker 1>think I never told me that. I want to send

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<v Speaker 1>you a voice message of it. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>is it Lee And she was like yes, you know

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<v Speaker 1>my mom like bugs the funk out and she was like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my gosh, reminds me of you so much. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like why. She was like, she's loud and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>That's so, that's so sweet. Yeah, I'm talking about sex

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<v Speaker 1>openly just because that's like what I like. I didn't.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know I shouldn't like, you know. And then

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<v Speaker 1>when I went on the show and openly talked about it,

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<v Speaker 1>it was like, I'm not what they show you make no,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm gonna tell you I don't care. All of

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<v Speaker 1>the rest of you bitches, uh specifically Ramona, Yes, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>talking to you. What is wrong with you? Ma'am? And

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<v Speaker 1>the other old hags. I don't know them because they

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<v Speaker 1>just act like, wait, is she's the one that has

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<v Speaker 1>Zaron fabrics? But no, that's Jill. She hasn't been on Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I started watching it in Mexico because it was just

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<v Speaker 1>like all that they had on tax season one one

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<v Speaker 1>or that's how I learned about They were talking about

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<v Speaker 1>rails and ship like that, and I was like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, that's cocaine. But let me tell you, you

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<v Speaker 1>can talk about that, but you can't talk about how

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<v Speaker 1>crazy it is. They all like slut shame Leah Damn.

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<v Speaker 1>Near the entire time that you're on multiple things. You

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<v Speaker 1>could watch whatever season Lee is on the amount of

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<v Speaker 1>slut shaming that's happening. Icronic, bro, because all of them

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<v Speaker 1>don't suck the same white man exactly, Harry, why are

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<v Speaker 1>you given they passed them around? Okay, wait, wait, wait, stop,

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<v Speaker 1>let's pretend no one's ever heard Real Housewives. What were

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<v Speaker 1>you talking about on the show? Every section? I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I think I talked about like like, uh, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know what did I say? Are you single when you're

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<v Speaker 1>on the show. I've been. I've been single for a

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<v Speaker 1>long time, so I would just openly talk about sex

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<v Speaker 1>and talk about like, you know, I like a tongue

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<v Speaker 1>in my ass every once in a while. What's the

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<v Speaker 1>context of this? So they like having dinner, so maybe

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<v Speaker 1>so maybe a couple of times it would be at

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<v Speaker 1>a dinner dinner, but like, you don't understand what these

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<v Speaker 1>women do. I mean they act crazy, they like have

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<v Speaker 1>no prostitution. No, I don't even watch and I know

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<v Speaker 1>that clip. No, but literally because you know she's even

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<v Speaker 1>my outfits they like blood shame me for what were

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<v Speaker 1>you having on? I mean a little scar measured tops

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<v Speaker 1>literally like, so, where as I'm watching, I'm like, whoa

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<v Speaker 1>the prudeness of so many women out here, like in

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<v Speaker 1>New York. That and my tattoos. Remember how they were

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<v Speaker 1>like acting so weird and out by my tattoos wouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>even have that many. They were like they were like,

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<v Speaker 1>we don't know people with tattoos. I swear to god.

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<v Speaker 1>It was really weird watching it is insane. It's interesting

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<v Speaker 1>because like you think about the franchises when as for cities, right,

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<v Speaker 1>like when you think about like Beverly Hills, Like when

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<v Speaker 1>I've watched in real house Beverly Hills, it makes me

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<v Speaker 1>feel like what I thought it would be, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying, Like I get it. I'm like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, it's blitz, it's glam whatever. Cool. When I

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<v Speaker 1>think about New York, I don't think that upity, to

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<v Speaker 1>be totally honest, but maybe I'm living in like this

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<v Speaker 1>different downtown. Say maybe I I do, because I would

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<v Speaker 1>see it more like eclectic, like cool, like where's the downtown?

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<v Speaker 1>Rich women like that like owned dope art, and like

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<v Speaker 1>husbands are like sick art collectors and art dealers or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>Like hold you Andy, Whenning got all the most stuck

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<v Speaker 1>up rich Andy, he got all the richest, prudish, most boring, toxic.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, don't get me wrong, and I do want

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit of a splash, But the Upper east

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<v Speaker 1>Side they've been pretty entertaining throughout, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>It's great mess. Yeah, we love a Caucasian man. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a major when white people start fighting on TV. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is so good. Are you guys looking at No? Wait, wait,

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<v Speaker 1>do you know what's even better? When wrong? Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>And because they film, I'm sure for a long time

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<v Speaker 1>you just get to see the bitch go from really

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<v Speaker 1>kind of sober insane to where she thinks she's sober insane,

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<v Speaker 1>but she's not. So everyone the next day have to

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<v Speaker 1>tell her what she did. But it's also on camera,

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<v Speaker 1>so that you can't have from me. It's entertaining. I

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<v Speaker 1>just want to just point out little franchise anyway. By

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<v Speaker 1>the way, the same thing she did to you, I

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<v Speaker 1>actually did to just sell Robin when they came onto

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<v Speaker 1>our show. First off, I made Robin it was the

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<v Speaker 1>wrong time because I knew she was gonna be late. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>And then I said, than I really like you. But

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<v Speaker 1>I mean that not everyone knows because bitch, at least

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<v Speaker 1>I give context. So I'm obsessed with ninety Fiance, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>because that is the greatest American television show of all time. Sure,

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<v Speaker 1>Game of Thrones was great to wire whatever you never

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<v Speaker 1>watched stick every time I looked on the goddamn time

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<v Speaker 1>to admit that that's one of the best shows I've

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<v Speaker 1>ever watched. What about Love after lock Up? I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you're not watching Love after lock Up? Tracy and Crack

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<v Speaker 1>was pretty good because you know, when Crack goes on

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<v Speaker 1>on a TV show, it's just really gold. It's wild.

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<v Speaker 1>But also when you have fat white women going to Nigeria,

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<v Speaker 1>that's pretty awesome too. That is just like the best.

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<v Speaker 1>And why are they always fat? But one of them

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<v Speaker 1>lost a lot of weight recently. Oh, Angela and Michael.

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<v Speaker 1>Angela looks looking good, Hendy, She's like face but still

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<v Speaker 1>like it's almost like they're scouted in hunting out for

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<v Speaker 1>these women. Yeah, like nobody else wants you, so we'll

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<v Speaker 1>take you with legos, Like what's going on? Pretty much?

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<v Speaker 1>If you could have a spin off show, what would

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<v Speaker 1>it be about? It would be about like mental health,

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<v Speaker 1>life really mental health, spirituality, sex, positivity and like healing

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<v Speaker 1>and like to see you and your daughter actually and

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<v Speaker 1>we have but my daughters, so I know. Actually the

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<v Speaker 1>show is me and my daughter that my daughter. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like the best, but it's too good that I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to show any to anybody. And my daughter would

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<v Speaker 1>never agree to it really no, damn. But I'm sure

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<v Speaker 1>she's seen like during the years of you being on Rowny,

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<v Speaker 1>like the ups and downs of reading comments, being visible

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<v Speaker 1>like and and we'll talk about it too, but like

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<v Speaker 1>and and ship even with this podcast, Um, she's filming

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<v Speaker 1>a television show death in the family. You pretty much

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<v Speaker 1>had to deal with the death of your family like

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<v Speaker 1>in cameras. People were film mean about it, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sorry it was awful, so horrible. I can only people

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<v Speaker 1>got mad at me the week that my grandmother died

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<v Speaker 1>about oh well, I wasn't contact like broth do you

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<v Speaker 1>know how insane that is, Like the things that I

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<v Speaker 1>had to worry about about other people's feelings about in

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<v Speaker 1>the speed in which I told them, are you fucking bro?

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<v Speaker 1>People were insane to me that week, And I really

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<v Speaker 1>don't understand how like much of again robots, people can

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<v Speaker 1>be when they're fucking filming. It made me lose faith

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<v Speaker 1>in like humanity, the way people like treated me about

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<v Speaker 1>my grandmother dying, and like how I like, even if

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<v Speaker 1>people you was filming with, they were questioning even if

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<v Speaker 1>you were really sad or if you were really going

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<v Speaker 1>through something, and it was like, are you kidding me?

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<v Speaker 1>Like they were judging your grief, which was it was

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<v Speaker 1>was wild. I mean they were just like, like, no

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<v Speaker 1>one was really comforting me that much. Like I felt

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<v Speaker 1>guilty about grief because like I wanted to go out

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<v Speaker 1>to a club and I was like, but I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to let go, that's really It wasn't like I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want to not be sad about my grandmother. I

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<v Speaker 1>just want to get drunk and forget about it, you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying. And I I like, I hate

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<v Speaker 1>that we have to constantly wonder like if what we're

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<v Speaker 1>doing is Okay, everybody's process is different. Everybody. I'm still grieving.

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<v Speaker 1>I cry like all the time over my grandmother. Still

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<v Speaker 1>the same. I just can't even believe she's gone. Still

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<v Speaker 1>I hate it. I'm sorry, I just hate life without her. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>well we're gonna come anyway. Let's just let's talk about

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<v Speaker 1>sex now. Mandy me Leia walks in. Everyone, Mandy goes,

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna get dart like your book. The book is dark,

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<v Speaker 1>but I love it. It's getting it goes like this.

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<v Speaker 1>There's ways did you get to the sex positivity. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just getting to the part where you were talking about

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<v Speaker 1>rob being so made but yeah, okay, so it literally

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<v Speaker 1>says I still have two hours and something left. So

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<v Speaker 1>I'm you're not there. Um, so let's go with the icebreaker,

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<v Speaker 1>is um, I have two games for you today. The

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<v Speaker 1>first one is this or that? Okay okay, so based

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<v Speaker 1>on even just when I'm reading, I'm this is just

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<v Speaker 1>giving some extra stout. The first one this or that

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<v Speaker 1>money or love money? You just said love? Yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I have love with my daughter. Okay, wow, what you want?

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<v Speaker 1>We know you want to love with your emotional ass, bitch?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I love my dog. She can't suck me

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<v Speaker 1>so well. I didn't say sex or you can still

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<v Speaker 1>get fucked. I needn't give love. You say I need

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<v Speaker 1>it Differently, You have casual sex and be like, it's

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<v Speaker 1>not casual because I have feelings for him and then

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<v Speaker 1>she makes it it's sorry. Okay, no, sorry, as long

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<v Speaker 1>as she loves them, it's a relationship, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean. Shut up. I do my best, detach. I

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<v Speaker 1>am trying my best to not get like two emotionally

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<v Speaker 1>involved when I'm having sex. But my heart is inside

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<v Speaker 1>of my biological it's evolution every time I get sucked

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<v Speaker 1>them in the heart. Okay, it's because like oxytosin is

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<v Speaker 1>like being released and like I read, you'll never read scientifically,

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<v Speaker 1>I know, but it's truth. The female brain. You have

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<v Speaker 1>to read the female brain. It literally talks about like

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<v Speaker 1>why sex is just so much different for us than men.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought, like, like I tried to be like a

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<v Speaker 1>man for so many years. I think I am, I

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<v Speaker 1>might have a different You're different. I think I was

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<v Speaker 1>born to wordest say anymore. But I don't even know

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<v Speaker 1>if I Mandie can't say right, I think we can't

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<v Speaker 1>say anymore. H word. Yeah, I think that's what I

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<v Speaker 1>was born. I don't even know what that is. I think,

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<v Speaker 1>why you say that, Mandy, I thought you were our word.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't. I think we can't say a date. But

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<v Speaker 1>that's the man I say, out of all the problematic things, less,

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<v Speaker 1>this is like what's happening every all the problematic she

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<v Speaker 1>ever said you that was the one when you born

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<v Speaker 1>with wet to beg you to stop saying and you

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<v Speaker 1>were scared to say just said to believe it because

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<v Speaker 1>you just said, I'll go my god. I still say

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<v Speaker 1>with my friends in privacy, yeah, I can stop saying,

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<v Speaker 1>what do you say? I feel like little people. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like they wouldn't care. And I feel like little people, Well,

0:15:30.560 --> 0:15:32.400
<v Speaker 1>guests are the little people. I feel like they're not

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<v Speaker 1>the ones who are being like, don't call us that.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like other people who are like, don't call them

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<v Speaker 1>that little They were Dwarf's weird. It's giving smurf. It's

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<v Speaker 1>just weird, but don't it should be giving spur but

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<v Speaker 1>like and it's just like I don't want to think

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<v Speaker 1>of a fucking children's book, Like don't want to think

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<v Speaker 1>about a little mom? Are we okay? Moving on moving

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<v Speaker 1>on sex stuff mission is or back shots? Um? Back shots?

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<v Speaker 1>Back shots? Really do you haven't? As she said, money

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<v Speaker 1>your love? She said back slots? That I think just

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<v Speaker 1>because like I saw, I have to look at us

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<v Speaker 1>giving real casuals. Okay, giving head or receiving head receiving okay? Um.

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<v Speaker 1>And last one because this is the black ass motherfucking podcast,

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<v Speaker 1>Real Houselives of Potomach or Real Houselives of Atlanta Stoa. Okay, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not mad, especially because Atlanta has off a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>I love p Stomach me too. Do you know this

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<v Speaker 1>girl didn't even do research for that? What do you mean?

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<v Speaker 1>I loved watching it? I mean because that's the thing though,

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<v Speaker 1>an amazing show. It's Kansas and Mia and Giselle and

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<v Speaker 1>the Grand Dome and the Karen. That's the way she's amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>Not calling her a wig, you're not calling it. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't call her the wig, I said, is that company?

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<v Speaker 1>It's way better than she made. Money's It's like when

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<v Speaker 1>they all get on there a little like a little crunchy,

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<v Speaker 1>and then as they start getting the Bravo checks, they

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<v Speaker 1>all get new houses and wigs. Oh that's right. And

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<v Speaker 1>Robin was telling us when we were interviewing her about

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<v Speaker 1>like how you know her car even she was like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I never felt like I had to like

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<v Speaker 1>get all this extra fancy ship, which I appreciate. Research.

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<v Speaker 1>The reason I don't dive into watching a show before

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<v Speaker 1>someone comes on is because we have hundreds of thousand

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<v Speaker 1>people that listen. They're not all watching Real Housewives in

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<v Speaker 1>New York. I don't want to like sit there and

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<v Speaker 1>be the person that they're probably watching one of the

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<v Speaker 1>Real housewives. Ranis, yeah, like you have the experience in it.

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<v Speaker 1>But like, girl, I hold you. My whole Twitter timeline

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<v Speaker 1>is Real Housewives, all the ship, all the tea, all

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<v Speaker 1>the I love it. I'm obsessed. Oh I didn't know this.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm real. I'm even shut the five out right now

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<v Speaker 1>to lose her mind all else, like literally, and I

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<v Speaker 1>just had I had this conversation too, Like my ex

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<v Speaker 1>felt away because he didn't like any reality TV. So

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<v Speaker 1>of course I'm not gonna cheat on you and find

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<v Speaker 1>a man who's into reality TV. So I started spending

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of time with a sante at his house

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<v Speaker 1>talking about all the real the real house my stuff,

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<v Speaker 1>and he even felt away about my relationship with a sante.

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<v Speaker 1>I said, you don't understand my gay homeboy, also a podcaster,

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<v Speaker 1>but he's in Fast for your house Lives conversation. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>yes you're gay. That's where we connected. Damn, I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want to cheat anyway. Let's get into lehisms or bitch

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<v Speaker 1>is ums, whatever you want to call them. This one.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually you and Wheezy have a very similar take on.

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<v Speaker 1>Lena says, quote unquote, good dick will imprison you, and

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<v Speaker 1>only you can let yourself out. Yep, the dick can't

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<v Speaker 1>let you out. Make good sometimes dick that starts off

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<v Speaker 1>really good. Have you ever had dick that good and

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<v Speaker 1>then it fell off? I mean, yeah, but I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>talking about That's not what that bitch is. Dick that

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<v Speaker 1>ditches him is about good dick that continues to be

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<v Speaker 1>good to the point where you don't know what the

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<v Speaker 1>fund to do because you don't even want anything to

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<v Speaker 1>do with the guy that's attached to it. But the

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<v Speaker 1>dick is so good that you can't stop. Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>it's giving hospital dick. But here's the thing too, write

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<v Speaker 1>that is to me man hantality and a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>men don't think that women can just want you for

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<v Speaker 1>your dick. We don't want to be with you like

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. But on this show and we with her

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<v Speaker 1>emotional ask swore I wanted to be with him. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just like, no, it's just the dick. Okay, it would

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<v Speaker 1>be fair. This is what happens to me. You may

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<v Speaker 1>want to take the dick away from the man. I

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<v Speaker 1>just want to help the man be the man that

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<v Speaker 1>I want him to do. Okay, illusion you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. Like I wanted to give this good job,

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<v Speaker 1>like I was trying to help him figure out what

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<v Speaker 1>a Pyco score is, Like I needed him to excel

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<v Speaker 1>in life. But then she wouldn't have been on the

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<v Speaker 1>pod that the reason why she wouldn't date him is

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<v Speaker 1>just because he was broken, because I thought I was

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be with him at some point I was like, damn,

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<v Speaker 1>I know he's gonna listen, but it now. Yeah, she literally,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna tell you now we have to bleep out

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<v Speaker 1>every time said she wouldn't dat you because you were broke.

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<v Speaker 1>He banned me from a bar bro That is the problem.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's also how you know, we never told y'all

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<v Speaker 1>a bartender but broke Thick is so good sometimes too,

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<v Speaker 1>and that sucks. But it is embarrassed that she was

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<v Speaker 1>in love with a bartender. I will embarrassed that I

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<v Speaker 1>was in love with Barten. You never wanted to say

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<v Speaker 1>he was a bartender because I didn't want people to

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<v Speaker 1>know his job. I would never embarrassing the bartender. I

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<v Speaker 1>was a broke bartender. I was never married from the bar.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro I can't believe you banned you from the bar.

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<v Speaker 1>That motherfucker. All right, okay, you want that fucking bar,

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<v Speaker 1>that barine in the Lower east Side. No, we're not

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<v Speaker 1>going to get anyway. What I was gonna say was

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't that he was a broke bartender. He just

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want to make any more money. He didn't really

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<v Speaker 1>give a fun up. He was just had no ambition.

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<v Speaker 1>That was really difficult. Um. And also so were the

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<v Speaker 1>three or four roommates. Nobody with three roommates. You never

0:21:07.800 --> 0:21:11.880
<v Speaker 1>had this dick LEO would you date somebody with three roommates? No? One?

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<v Speaker 1>Not a different part of thank You's, But like listen,

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<v Speaker 1>I had to dick in my own home first. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm telling you right now, you have no idea what

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<v Speaker 1>you'd be willing to do until you get sucked that right,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I guess it was so hot and like

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if he was so hot, and like

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<v Speaker 1>I was so attractively. I'm one house though, so he

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<v Speaker 1>could always just woke you at your home, right, so

0:21:37.920 --> 0:21:42.640
<v Speaker 1>so you would day maybe he was hot, I haven't.

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<v Speaker 1>And his dick was amazing and we had it wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>even if dick was amazing. We had amazing set and

0:21:48.240 --> 0:21:50.760
<v Speaker 1>you had a good chemistry. Yes, even we were mad

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<v Speaker 1>at each other. It was really damn. I want to

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<v Speaker 1>dake that fun leaping out and I don't leave it out.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't want that back again. I get that email. No no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>I will re upload it without the bleeps, do not

0:22:05.400 --> 0:22:08.760
<v Speaker 1>bleep that. I don't care. I like there was a

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<v Speaker 1>guy that I made that about, you know what I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>Like there was a specific guy. So now I need

0:22:14.400 --> 0:22:16.240
<v Speaker 1>to know if this one was made about a specific

0:22:17.320 --> 0:22:21.920
<v Speaker 1>The next one is nice guys can't fuck? Do you

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<v Speaker 1>truly believe that? Do you think that they are nice

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<v Speaker 1>only because they have bad days? I don't know, it's

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<v Speaker 1>just like nice guys. Maybe I just don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>suck them, or like maybe they're just I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean it's not for Yeah, maybe I just sucked

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<v Speaker 1>a nice guy, So I don't know. Nice guys just

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<v Speaker 1>don't turn me only. That's why I don't say type

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<v Speaker 1>that women like bad guys. I mean I don't. I

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<v Speaker 1>like nerds ironically, the niggas I like like being the

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<v Speaker 1>comic books and be having like they make them nice

0:22:59.000 --> 0:23:02.480
<v Speaker 1>guys though, like I've sucked guys that are like bad

0:23:02.520 --> 0:23:05.040
<v Speaker 1>guys are like anime when like, no, my guys are

0:23:05.080 --> 0:23:09.240
<v Speaker 1>so like you're a whore who likes sci fi. I'm

0:23:09.280 --> 0:23:12.040
<v Speaker 1>not really doing this the same you can't say you're

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<v Speaker 1>a good girl. You've got some crazy as sucking. I'm

0:23:14.640 --> 0:23:18.439
<v Speaker 1>a good girl, don't you peg man? We're not going up,

0:23:21.119 --> 0:23:23.920
<v Speaker 1>don't you peg men in a nice gents a way

0:23:24.040 --> 0:23:26.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't turn again is stricken nutbody. But if there

0:23:26.760 --> 0:23:29.440
<v Speaker 1>is enough lube and that it doesn't hurt, I'm not

0:23:29.600 --> 0:23:34.560
<v Speaker 1>pounding them. I'm generally penetrating their that you see how

0:23:34.760 --> 0:23:36.399
<v Speaker 1>you say it not. I like to read and I

0:23:36.480 --> 0:23:40.840
<v Speaker 1>also watched Bukocky porn, so this is not at all

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<v Speaker 1>what you think. Okay, So defined then what is a

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<v Speaker 1>nice guy who don't you want to give the pussy

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<v Speaker 1>to Lea tell us now, I mean if a guy

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, maybe it's my own fun up head

0:23:50.640 --> 0:23:53.960
<v Speaker 1>that is, thinking a guy is weak if he's too nice.

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<v Speaker 1>That's wild. But also hold on, I also did that.

0:23:56.920 --> 0:23:59.400
<v Speaker 1>I also made that, bitches on a long time ago,

0:24:00.280 --> 0:24:04.200
<v Speaker 1>and you still believe it. But like I've I've dated

0:24:04.240 --> 0:24:09.280
<v Speaker 1>and like fucked not that many nice guys. But I

0:24:09.320 --> 0:24:10.959
<v Speaker 1>think I do want a nice guy now who can

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<v Speaker 1>also fun. And I am hopeful that I was wrong

0:24:13.520 --> 0:24:15.840
<v Speaker 1>about that, bitches. I don't the problem when when you

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<v Speaker 1>have a nice guy, you go out and there's one

0:24:19.680 --> 0:24:23.159
<v Speaker 1>bad one and they fucking they got like confident, like

0:24:23.200 --> 0:24:26.000
<v Speaker 1>a motherfucker. It's like their dick is dragging from behind

0:24:26.040 --> 0:24:29.160
<v Speaker 1>them like a tail. And for some reason, I don't

0:24:29.160 --> 0:24:32.440
<v Speaker 1>know why, but I think that the issue with having

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<v Speaker 1>a nice guy is once it happens, you're like, oh

0:24:34.359 --> 0:24:36.520
<v Speaker 1>my god, this is what I deserve, and then it's

0:24:36.520 --> 0:24:39.639
<v Speaker 1>like you get like it's like taunting you. But you

0:24:39.680 --> 0:24:42.159
<v Speaker 1>want somebody that's gonna feel like Risks that show on

0:24:42.240 --> 0:24:46.440
<v Speaker 1>Netflix and are hot guys who are nice. Yes, I

0:24:47.240 --> 0:24:49.800
<v Speaker 1>I sunk a lot of nice, hot guys with great dick.

0:24:49.920 --> 0:24:52.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what y'all are talking about. I don't

0:24:52.160 --> 0:24:54.639
<v Speaker 1>know they're name one. First of all, I'm not going

0:24:54.680 --> 0:24:57.320
<v Speaker 1>to name their names on this name one. That's I

0:24:57.320 --> 0:25:00.840
<v Speaker 1>got an alias on our show. Um oh, the nigga

0:25:00.880 --> 0:25:03.280
<v Speaker 1>who got me to MacBook and the nigga that wasn't

0:25:03.280 --> 0:25:06.000
<v Speaker 1>they married, they're not well, he was nice to me.

0:25:06.040 --> 0:25:10.840
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't matter that they're married. Yea not a nice guy.

0:25:11.320 --> 0:25:17.160
<v Speaker 1>If everyone knows about the name was married, that bad. Yes,

0:25:17.280 --> 0:25:20.440
<v Speaker 1>that doesn't make them a nice guy, makes them yeah

0:25:20.880 --> 0:25:23.240
<v Speaker 1>a nice guys. Like the purity of them, bro like

0:25:23.560 --> 0:25:28.000
<v Speaker 1>they're good people. That wouldn't it could have been the

0:25:29.200 --> 0:25:33.840
<v Speaker 1>open relationship. I never asked. I never asked, so let's

0:25:33.840 --> 0:25:36.040
<v Speaker 1>not put that out into the universe. By the way,

0:25:36.119 --> 0:25:39.840
<v Speaker 1>they both have money and power. Any wife, any woman

0:25:39.880 --> 0:25:42.760
<v Speaker 1>who marries a powerful rich man already knows that nigga

0:25:42.760 --> 0:25:46.560
<v Speaker 1>gonna cheat. So technically, technically you're entering into an open

0:25:46.640 --> 0:25:50.800
<v Speaker 1>marriage period. You're gonna yell field turn you're a blind eye.

0:25:51.000 --> 0:25:53.800
<v Speaker 1>Say that's to me the same it's it's it's t

0:25:54.080 --> 0:25:56.760
<v Speaker 1>thank you, and it's facts. Thank you. We talked about

0:25:56.800 --> 0:25:59.200
<v Speaker 1>it all the time. Bitches that live nice they ain't

0:25:59.200 --> 0:26:01.600
<v Speaker 1>even had to work. They definitely wasn't gonna leave because

0:26:01.600 --> 0:26:04.520
<v Speaker 1>he was sucking with me, So I didn't feel anything wrong.

0:26:04.600 --> 0:26:08.360
<v Speaker 1>They were nice men, okay, and I love my computer.

0:26:11.320 --> 0:26:14.920
<v Speaker 1>It helped me to start editing this podcast and the

0:26:15.080 --> 0:26:18.200
<v Speaker 1>last one. I feel like again something Wheezy can relate

0:26:18.240 --> 0:26:20.480
<v Speaker 1>to very much. Don't be scared to be a bit?

0:26:21.119 --> 0:26:27.679
<v Speaker 1>Do you still believe I'm I'm scared to be a bit?

0:26:27.880 --> 0:26:33.440
<v Speaker 1>All right? You do not care to be? No? I said,

0:26:33.480 --> 0:26:36.320
<v Speaker 1>she's not scared to be a bit, and that and

0:26:36.440 --> 0:26:39.159
<v Speaker 1>that and that meant that that doesn't mean like be

0:26:39.760 --> 0:26:44.760
<v Speaker 1>like a ton of people. Yeah, that's not what it means,

0:26:44.920 --> 0:26:47.400
<v Speaker 1>but not like it's not like, you know, be nasty

0:26:47.520 --> 0:26:49.840
<v Speaker 1>to the person like serving you food or like whatever.

0:26:50.040 --> 0:26:52.200
<v Speaker 1>You know what I mean. It means like, don't be

0:26:52.320 --> 0:26:55.760
<v Speaker 1>scared to be like assertive and speak your mind and

0:26:55.920 --> 0:26:59.919
<v Speaker 1>like be clear about what you want what you don't want. Okay,

0:27:00.520 --> 0:27:02.600
<v Speaker 1>I can dig that. So yeah, let's see, that's a

0:27:02.680 --> 0:27:04.119
<v Speaker 1>nice way to put it. We see I met all

0:27:04.160 --> 0:27:06.479
<v Speaker 1>of the nice positive things when I said that, right,

0:27:06.960 --> 0:27:11.399
<v Speaker 1>and I met when you were older than watching. I

0:27:11.520 --> 0:27:14.320
<v Speaker 1>am not a whore. I am I feel like I'm

0:27:14.400 --> 0:27:17.760
<v Speaker 1>the therapist, and you guys are like my patients right now.

0:27:17.800 --> 0:27:20.560
<v Speaker 1>Are absolutely not. We actually are on good terms at

0:27:21.000 --> 0:27:24.400
<v Speaker 1>the first time in are never dam we are doing

0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:27.240
<v Speaker 1>We're supposed to be going to an event together. I

0:27:27.960 --> 0:27:30.159
<v Speaker 1>love it. I mean it's definitely giving set and it

0:27:30.280 --> 0:27:32.200
<v Speaker 1>might be giving a Real Housewives about to throw a

0:27:32.280 --> 0:27:40.280
<v Speaker 1>drink at the meat. All right, well, let's take a

0:27:40.320 --> 0:27:45.479
<v Speaker 1>little step back away from my Real Housewives fandom here. Um,

0:27:45.880 --> 0:27:49.080
<v Speaker 1>we're gonna get into our vanilla ship where if you

0:27:49.119 --> 0:27:51.399
<v Speaker 1>are listening for the first time, this has to do

0:27:51.680 --> 0:27:55.840
<v Speaker 1>with somewhat sex in the news, Um, and I found

0:27:56.080 --> 0:28:00.159
<v Speaker 1>here where a jail where an inmate smugg go to

0:28:00.280 --> 0:28:04.040
<v Speaker 1>a prostitute is forced tighten security. Now, I really need

0:28:04.119 --> 0:28:07.040
<v Speaker 1>to know how this happen. But the Sun told last

0:28:07.119 --> 0:28:11.920
<v Speaker 1>June how the prisoner jailed for drug offenses use a

0:28:12.119 --> 0:28:16.000
<v Speaker 1>smuggled mobile phone to arrange a visit. He snapped the

0:28:16.160 --> 0:28:22.440
<v Speaker 1>raven haired woman posing on his bed. Raven or like

0:28:22.560 --> 0:28:27.760
<v Speaker 1>that really? Oh yes, ma'am, right on the prison bed

0:28:29.080 --> 0:28:34.400
<v Speaker 1>right by the way, raven hair is black, okay, glossy

0:28:34.480 --> 0:28:37.880
<v Speaker 1>deep black. Listen. They wanted to use their adjectives. They said,

0:28:37.920 --> 0:28:40.480
<v Speaker 1>I gotta a in language arts and I'm gonna use it.

0:28:40.640 --> 0:28:43.480
<v Speaker 1>Okay um, But this is a wild because I actually

0:28:43.560 --> 0:28:47.480
<v Speaker 1>do like watching jail porn. Were like the CEOs never

0:28:47.600 --> 0:28:49.840
<v Speaker 1>thought of mine in mad Still girl said you somebody's

0:28:49.880 --> 0:28:53.360
<v Speaker 1>kay um, I like gay porn um. So he snapped

0:28:53.400 --> 0:28:55.800
<v Speaker 1>the raven haired woman posing on his bed at HMP

0:28:56.320 --> 0:29:01.080
<v Speaker 1>Hollesslye Bay in Suffolk and open prison holding five hundred lags.

0:29:01.560 --> 0:29:04.160
<v Speaker 1>This is definitely written in like British something. That's why

0:29:04.200 --> 0:29:06.560
<v Speaker 1>I used raven Was it the sun dot co? It

0:29:06.760 --> 0:29:11.120
<v Speaker 1>is bitch? Oh u k does One photo of her

0:29:11.560 --> 0:29:15.080
<v Speaker 1>was ingested g string and a crop top actually landed

0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:18.520
<v Speaker 1>on social media. After revelations, the inmate was moved to

0:29:18.600 --> 0:29:22.320
<v Speaker 1>a closed prison. The report, published yesterday by the Independent

0:29:22.400 --> 0:29:26.360
<v Speaker 1>Monitoring Board said that the following that following the adverse publicity,

0:29:26.760 --> 0:29:31.680
<v Speaker 1>security patrols have been stepped up. I cannot believe that

0:29:32.600 --> 0:29:37.480
<v Speaker 1>a person the whole prostitute been like the CEOs must

0:29:37.520 --> 0:29:41.440
<v Speaker 1>have been involved in it. The fact that he was

0:29:41.480 --> 0:29:43.600
<v Speaker 1>in jail here the thing too. He was in jail

0:29:43.640 --> 0:29:46.440
<v Speaker 1>for drug offenses. It's given Nigga had like el chop

0:29:46.560 --> 0:29:49.320
<v Speaker 1>all type of money totally for short pace that I

0:29:49.520 --> 0:29:59.240
<v Speaker 1>want to regular And now let me ask you if um,

0:29:59.440 --> 0:30:01.560
<v Speaker 1>now this is not if then because I actually read

0:30:01.600 --> 0:30:03.880
<v Speaker 1>your book, Um, was there any time that you wanted

0:30:03.920 --> 0:30:06.960
<v Speaker 1>to spuggle dick into any of the rehab centers? Oh? Yeah?

0:30:07.680 --> 0:30:10.400
<v Speaker 1>And where was it tight security? And we also just

0:30:10.480 --> 0:30:14.239
<v Speaker 1>debated this context, so I didn't even know you've been

0:30:14.280 --> 0:30:16.800
<v Speaker 1>to rehab a few times. Yeah, and you get very

0:30:16.880 --> 0:30:19.840
<v Speaker 1>horny and rehab right, because like you're like disconnected from

0:30:19.840 --> 0:30:22.040
<v Speaker 1>the world. I also want to hear this. Tell me

0:30:22.320 --> 0:30:25.360
<v Speaker 1>how long you're in rehab for? And then multiple you're

0:30:25.440 --> 0:30:28.719
<v Speaker 1>like having moments where I mean when I say long,

0:30:28.800 --> 0:30:31.080
<v Speaker 1>I mean like tenures, Like how many weeks? Or is it?

0:30:31.280 --> 0:30:33.520
<v Speaker 1>So the first two times it was a twenty eight

0:30:33.600 --> 0:30:36.680
<v Speaker 1>day programs, the second time it was a ninety day

0:30:36.720 --> 0:30:40.400
<v Speaker 1>program days, and then I went to a place that

0:30:40.440 --> 0:30:42.080
<v Speaker 1>was supposed to be a year long program, but I

0:30:42.240 --> 0:30:45.120
<v Speaker 1>left and went to another place that was another three months.

0:30:45.280 --> 0:30:48.800
<v Speaker 1>What kind of like okay, because I watched Girls Interrupted

0:30:49.160 --> 0:30:52.040
<v Speaker 1>or I'm like thinking about fucking movies where she happened.

0:30:52.200 --> 0:30:54.240
<v Speaker 1>I remember Jessa on Girls went to rehab and like

0:30:54.520 --> 0:30:57.000
<v Speaker 1>tried to scissor a bit. Yeah, what's going on? Like

0:30:57.120 --> 0:30:59.160
<v Speaker 1>are you allowed to do co ed ship like cany

0:30:59.280 --> 0:31:02.640
<v Speaker 1>like what are the So it depends like which which

0:31:02.720 --> 0:31:05.040
<v Speaker 1>place you're at, for instance, like the second place I

0:31:05.120 --> 0:31:08.000
<v Speaker 1>went to, no one, we had like barely any supervision.

0:31:08.160 --> 0:31:10.920
<v Speaker 1>It was like it was I remember like lasting like

0:31:11.040 --> 0:31:13.760
<v Speaker 1>the Thong song and like grinding with dudes and like

0:31:14.160 --> 0:31:15.560
<v Speaker 1>and one of the girls being like, you can dance

0:31:15.560 --> 0:31:17.200
<v Speaker 1>pretty good for a white girl. It's like, thank you.

0:31:18.600 --> 0:31:20.720
<v Speaker 1>I was pretty proud of myself. Are the people who

0:31:20.760 --> 0:31:24.600
<v Speaker 1>rehab normally hot? They're fun? That's what it's all. It's

0:31:24.600 --> 0:31:27.040
<v Speaker 1>all drug addicts. They're fun. And also, you know, I

0:31:27.120 --> 0:31:29.920
<v Speaker 1>was like a teenager. So in the first place I

0:31:30.000 --> 0:31:33.600
<v Speaker 1>went to, there was the hottest fucking guy. He was

0:31:33.760 --> 0:31:36.520
<v Speaker 1>so fine, like he was fine as fun. And there

0:31:36.600 --> 0:31:40.240
<v Speaker 1>was this like little fucking shrimp bitch who was not

0:31:40.440 --> 0:31:42.600
<v Speaker 1>hot at all, and she hooked up with him. I

0:31:42.680 --> 0:31:45.120
<v Speaker 1>have no idea how. And I was so bun because

0:31:45.160 --> 0:31:48.760
<v Speaker 1>she was easy. I was so mad that he hooked

0:31:48.840 --> 0:31:51.680
<v Speaker 1>up with her. I was so pissed. I'm not gonna lie.

0:31:51.800 --> 0:31:53.600
<v Speaker 1>I had the same experience when I was in Juvie.

0:31:53.960 --> 0:31:58.080
<v Speaker 1>Just fine, this man was fine, yeah, braid. So I

0:31:58.160 --> 0:32:00.560
<v Speaker 1>was in Julie because I ran away. This was when

0:32:00.600 --> 0:32:03.040
<v Speaker 1>I was in middle school. I ran away and they

0:32:03.280 --> 0:32:05.239
<v Speaker 1>caught me at the Boys and Girls club, And when

0:32:05.280 --> 0:32:07.280
<v Speaker 1>my mama came, I said, I ain't gonna so I say.

0:32:07.320 --> 0:32:10.160
<v Speaker 1>I was there for like two weeks um and then

0:32:10.400 --> 0:32:11.920
<v Speaker 1>when I realized it was going thick, my g p

0:32:12.000 --> 0:32:13.360
<v Speaker 1>a because they pulled me out of school and I

0:32:13.400 --> 0:32:15.080
<v Speaker 1>had to go to school and Julie, I said, now

0:32:15.320 --> 0:32:16.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go back home now. Because I was really

0:32:17.400 --> 0:32:24.800
<v Speaker 1>prideful with academic uh interest, like juvenile Delinklin who really

0:32:24.920 --> 0:32:28.160
<v Speaker 1>cared about her grave. I didn't even know that existed,

0:32:28.480 --> 0:32:33.480
<v Speaker 1>neither did you know what? And here I am really

0:32:33.520 --> 0:32:37.560
<v Speaker 1>are You're not conforming, I like, not at all. You

0:32:37.680 --> 0:32:40.080
<v Speaker 1>either you either I'm reading this ship and you're all

0:32:40.240 --> 0:32:43.920
<v Speaker 1>against any societal north. I'm going against what do you

0:32:44.000 --> 0:32:47.720
<v Speaker 1>go to rehab for all sorts of things. But definitely

0:32:47.920 --> 0:32:52.800
<v Speaker 1>loved speed, loved ecstasy, loved it was speed back then.

0:32:53.320 --> 0:32:56.160
<v Speaker 1>But because like I was at the races, you know what,

0:32:56.280 --> 0:32:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I was in the rave scene. So like we did

0:32:59.760 --> 0:33:03.080
<v Speaker 1>like Crystal and like Ecstasy and Special K and we

0:33:03.160 --> 0:33:06.160
<v Speaker 1>smoked angel dust. I've never heard about like Special K

0:33:06.600 --> 0:33:09.400
<v Speaker 1>until like recently I know why it's made to come back.

0:33:09.600 --> 0:33:13.600
<v Speaker 1>It's crazy that I accidentally did you accidentally did it?

0:33:13.760 --> 0:33:16.320
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god. And when she told me, I said, bitch,

0:33:16.560 --> 0:33:19.960
<v Speaker 1>that does something to horses. I said, I didn't know,

0:33:20.400 --> 0:33:25.760
<v Speaker 1>And what did you? How much did you take of it? Coke?

0:33:29.360 --> 0:33:34.440
<v Speaker 1>So I love how I love this podcast, Like god, damn,

0:33:34.480 --> 0:33:36.280
<v Speaker 1>how many years ago is this? I feel like this

0:33:36.440 --> 0:33:38.680
<v Speaker 1>is honestly, it's great. We should all be honest because

0:33:39.120 --> 0:33:42.720
<v Speaker 1>most people do recreational drugs and it's ridiculous to act

0:33:42.800 --> 0:33:45.000
<v Speaker 1>like they don't. Oh, if you listen to the beginning

0:33:45.040 --> 0:33:47.040
<v Speaker 1>of this podcast, mind you the story you couldn't fully

0:33:47.080 --> 0:33:49.080
<v Speaker 1>tell because you still had your corporate job. So we

0:33:49.160 --> 0:33:51.160
<v Speaker 1>used to bleep out coke and we couldn't talk about

0:33:51.480 --> 0:33:54.120
<v Speaker 1>any of the drugs. And then back then I was

0:33:54.160 --> 0:33:57.160
<v Speaker 1>so prudish. Now I love shrooms, I love getting high, um,

0:33:57.280 --> 0:33:59.280
<v Speaker 1>but I used to judge the ship out of sucking

0:33:59.280 --> 0:34:02.000
<v Speaker 1>wheezy with her. Mandy came in here Molly dot one

0:34:02.080 --> 0:34:04.200
<v Speaker 1>day and I was like, my have the table turn

0:34:05.840 --> 0:34:07.360
<v Speaker 1>guy that was at the sex club with me the

0:34:07.440 --> 0:34:09.320
<v Speaker 1>night before. He was a gift on the show, and

0:34:09.360 --> 0:34:11.080
<v Speaker 1>we had to talk about how we hadn't slept yet

0:34:11.080 --> 0:34:15.279
<v Speaker 1>because the molly we took first of no one's no

0:34:15.400 --> 0:34:18.880
<v Speaker 1>one's didn't, so we were all just petting each other.

0:34:18.920 --> 0:34:20.800
<v Speaker 1>It was like a fucking petting zoo. We come in

0:34:20.840 --> 0:34:23.000
<v Speaker 1>the next day. I'm like, have you slept yet? He's

0:34:23.040 --> 0:34:24.920
<v Speaker 1>like no, I said, fuck me either. Are we sure?

0:34:25.000 --> 0:34:27.800
<v Speaker 1>This was molly? Like we could not fucking sleep anyway?

0:34:27.920 --> 0:34:31.960
<v Speaker 1>Share about the you know, it was like six years ago.

0:34:32.000 --> 0:34:34.279
<v Speaker 1>I went to mistery Land, which is in Woodstock, New York,

0:34:34.560 --> 0:34:36.200
<v Speaker 1>and I was with Dub shout out to Lady w

0:34:36.480 --> 0:34:39.399
<v Speaker 1>and literally thought I was going to take a bump

0:34:39.440 --> 0:34:42.640
<v Speaker 1>of cocaine and this guy didn't have a shirt on.

0:34:42.719 --> 0:34:45.920
<v Speaker 1>This in vitamin K but like, I didn't know. I

0:34:46.000 --> 0:34:48.919
<v Speaker 1>didn't know what chat of men. I was twenty four

0:34:49.040 --> 0:34:51.000
<v Speaker 1>years old. I'm not gonna lie. I do not know

0:34:51.080 --> 0:34:54.440
<v Speaker 1>the periodic table either. You have. I did the buck

0:34:54.520 --> 0:34:57.239
<v Speaker 1>and I damn near dropped to the floor and he goes, oh,

0:34:57.520 --> 0:35:01.200
<v Speaker 1>ship bro not blow man, and he's like bugging the

0:35:01.200 --> 0:35:03.600
<v Speaker 1>funk out. So then fucking Dub comes back. She's like,

0:35:03.800 --> 0:35:05.560
<v Speaker 1>why do you be fucking with these white people? I'm like,

0:35:05.600 --> 0:35:11.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry. But then I started getting good. Yeah, I

0:35:11.840 --> 0:35:14.000
<v Speaker 1>was like bitch, we got to do it together, and

0:35:14.080 --> 0:35:15.960
<v Speaker 1>then we never go and do it again. So we

0:35:16.040 --> 0:35:17.880
<v Speaker 1>were like, all right, well we do it together, how

0:35:17.920 --> 0:35:19.719
<v Speaker 1>do we make sure one of the other doesn't die?

0:35:20.400 --> 0:35:25.680
<v Speaker 1>One had to go first, not my god. I was like,

0:35:25.760 --> 0:35:28.000
<v Speaker 1>all right, so if I die, you know, if I'm

0:35:28.000 --> 0:35:33.280
<v Speaker 1>gonna get sick, make sure you're alert. So so stupid.

0:35:33.680 --> 0:35:35.279
<v Speaker 1>But all I remember is we were laying in this

0:35:35.400 --> 0:35:37.719
<v Speaker 1>fucking grass for what I thought was three hours and

0:35:37.800 --> 0:35:41.160
<v Speaker 1>it was twenty minutes. Anyway, I never did it again. Also,

0:35:41.239 --> 0:35:44.920
<v Speaker 1>haven't done Molly in a minute, Like it's it's interesting

0:35:45.040 --> 0:35:47.880
<v Speaker 1>when years because I was like a ravier too, you

0:35:47.880 --> 0:35:49.279
<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying. I was like all tray E

0:35:49.360 --> 0:35:50.759
<v Speaker 1>d C. I loved all the ship. I would travel

0:35:50.800 --> 0:35:55.400
<v Speaker 1>to Europe for festivals, but sobriety and festivals is actually

0:35:55.480 --> 0:35:58.200
<v Speaker 1>interesting because now I mean, I guess I'm saying that sobriety,

0:35:58.239 --> 0:35:59.840
<v Speaker 1>but I'll do like shrooms and ship. Now when I

0:36:00.000 --> 0:36:02.600
<v Speaker 1>to the music festival and I'm not fucking cracked out

0:36:02.640 --> 0:36:05.960
<v Speaker 1>on a Molly, I'm like, damn, is this like still good?

0:36:06.120 --> 0:36:09.239
<v Speaker 1>Like having a new experience? Like what is that? Like?

0:36:09.360 --> 0:36:12.239
<v Speaker 1>I can music doesn't sound the same why don't I

0:36:12.360 --> 0:36:15.440
<v Speaker 1>feel it? Right? But it's like now I just go

0:36:15.719 --> 0:36:17.560
<v Speaker 1>and like look at guys and like flirting, dance and

0:36:17.600 --> 0:36:20.719
<v Speaker 1>iPhone my friends. Before it was euphoric, yes, and I

0:36:20.920 --> 0:36:23.680
<v Speaker 1>see why people totally get sucked into that, you know

0:36:23.680 --> 0:36:26.399
<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. Like I was like the biggest raver.

0:36:26.800 --> 0:36:29.719
<v Speaker 1>I mean that was my life, was raving really all

0:36:29.760 --> 0:36:33.040
<v Speaker 1>of high school. Yeah, how do you? I'm thirty nine,

0:36:34.040 --> 0:36:39.080
<v Speaker 1>so this was like real deal. But also like Mr Is,

0:36:39.200 --> 0:36:41.680
<v Speaker 1>like you would be funked up for like two hours

0:36:42.200 --> 0:36:44.640
<v Speaker 1>in New York. You were doing to be like the

0:36:44.760 --> 0:36:47.320
<v Speaker 1>top not ship because that's when like al Capone and

0:36:47.360 --> 0:36:49.680
<v Speaker 1>Ship was in the streets and stuff. Right, I was

0:36:49.719 --> 0:36:54.040
<v Speaker 1>al Capone. I don't know that the monster from the

0:36:54.160 --> 0:36:58.839
<v Speaker 1>Monster from the Mobster Chicago. Oh, what's the one? Who?

0:36:58.920 --> 0:37:03.800
<v Speaker 1>The one? It was here? I'll chop them Frank Lucas

0:37:03.880 --> 0:37:07.080
<v Speaker 1>actually actually it was actually I think it was the

0:37:07.239 --> 0:37:10.399
<v Speaker 1>Israelis that we're bringing all the ecstasy to the rave

0:37:10.480 --> 0:37:12.920
<v Speaker 1>scene in the nineties. Well, and Frank Lucas brought it

0:37:13.000 --> 0:37:21.200
<v Speaker 1>to hard I've been alive if I want American gigs.

0:37:21.520 --> 0:37:27.960
<v Speaker 1>But that Frank Lucas, Frank One. So what about today? Like,

0:37:28.400 --> 0:37:31.000
<v Speaker 1>can you still do drugs today? When when know I

0:37:31.120 --> 0:37:34.080
<v Speaker 1>totally stopped, Like I'm completely like, so I was not

0:37:34.239 --> 0:37:36.440
<v Speaker 1>drinking for a long time. Would I say this alcohol

0:37:36.560 --> 0:37:40.000
<v Speaker 1>make it? I don't drink m hmm, I haven't drank

0:37:40.160 --> 0:37:42.840
<v Speaker 1>if like I drank for like a year out of glass,

0:37:42.920 --> 0:37:46.120
<v Speaker 1>like thirteen years didn't make you want to do drugs again? Yeah?

0:37:46.719 --> 0:37:49.840
<v Speaker 1>And I did. I put everything on my nose the

0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:52.920
<v Speaker 1>second I started drinking. It's like I can't even help it.

0:37:53.000 --> 0:37:56.799
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, what do you have to sniff? And then

0:37:56.880 --> 0:38:00.640
<v Speaker 1>one night I sniffed kay oh, and I was like,

0:38:01.040 --> 0:38:03.800
<v Speaker 1>I'll say also like a like you just like you

0:38:06.360 --> 0:38:09.160
<v Speaker 1>one time on an accident. Do you know you'll say

0:38:09.200 --> 0:38:12.840
<v Speaker 1>that all the time, don't you. Guys always say this

0:38:12.920 --> 0:38:15.280
<v Speaker 1>about anal and it really gets on my nerves because

0:38:15.400 --> 0:38:18.160
<v Speaker 1>if the tip went in, you had anal sex? Bro?

0:38:20.200 --> 0:38:23.480
<v Speaker 1>Are you serious? Leah, I don't think that. But do

0:38:23.520 --> 0:38:26.520
<v Speaker 1>you fuck in the butt? No? I have, But it's

0:38:26.520 --> 0:38:28.319
<v Speaker 1>not like my favorite Okay, but here's the thing. Right,

0:38:28.600 --> 0:38:30.880
<v Speaker 1>if a guy plus the tip in, he's telling everyone

0:38:30.960 --> 0:38:33.560
<v Speaker 1>he sucked the tipica, I'll tell you, but that's but

0:38:33.680 --> 0:38:35.680
<v Speaker 1>it's not. But I the thing is I don't think

0:38:35.719 --> 0:38:38.520
<v Speaker 1>you can really take credit and be like I had

0:38:38.560 --> 0:38:41.759
<v Speaker 1>anal sex because it was just a tip. So if

0:38:41.800 --> 0:38:44.640
<v Speaker 1>you have, if you're like like being like, yeah, let

0:38:44.719 --> 0:38:46.520
<v Speaker 1>this guy suck my ass last night, you didn't, that's

0:38:46.560 --> 0:38:48.239
<v Speaker 1>not true because it was just the tip. So I

0:38:48.480 --> 0:38:50.239
<v Speaker 1>was so excited to come back and like share on

0:38:50.280 --> 0:38:51.680
<v Speaker 1>the podcast and I got it. Came back from Italy

0:38:51.719 --> 0:38:53.840
<v Speaker 1>and he sucked me in the ass. No, it was

0:38:54.080 --> 0:38:56.719
<v Speaker 1>just the tip. I'm sorry. I wanted like full the

0:38:56.800 --> 0:38:59.000
<v Speaker 1>way that like my pussy gets sucked, not saying I'm

0:38:59.000 --> 0:39:00.560
<v Speaker 1>proud of it, but like I could take a dick.

0:39:01.360 --> 0:39:07.000
<v Speaker 1>It was not that is, yeah, I mean the same thing, like,

0:39:07.600 --> 0:39:10.680
<v Speaker 1>well I just go for it. My my assholedn't turn

0:39:10.760 --> 0:39:14.000
<v Speaker 1>into a whole bussy before, Okay, Like I had it

0:39:14.160 --> 0:39:16.400
<v Speaker 1>banged out like it's my pussy and I loved it.

0:39:16.760 --> 0:39:22.480
<v Speaker 1>Really every bit you comes right out. First off, it

0:39:22.560 --> 0:39:25.399
<v Speaker 1>comes right ouf. The next day, I don't gotta push

0:39:25.440 --> 0:39:28.120
<v Speaker 1>on nothing. That ship just fall into the toilet. But

0:39:28.360 --> 0:39:31.480
<v Speaker 1>it's okay, about twenty four hours it sucks right back

0:39:31.560 --> 0:39:34.200
<v Speaker 1>up and now my buddhahole bent normal. You know what

0:39:34.280 --> 0:39:36.239
<v Speaker 1>I want to talk about? How only do an know

0:39:36.280 --> 0:39:40.440
<v Speaker 1>sex once a quarter, like once every few months, every

0:39:40.480 --> 0:39:45.040
<v Speaker 1>time it's giving taxes. I want to jump a little

0:39:45.080 --> 0:39:47.759
<v Speaker 1>bit into because like you're so down to talk about

0:39:47.800 --> 0:39:50.920
<v Speaker 1>sex and everything like that, and um, I've become a

0:39:51.000 --> 0:39:53.320
<v Speaker 1>fan of your kid from your Instagram because she's adorable.

0:39:54.000 --> 0:39:56.279
<v Speaker 1>What's it like talking about sex with your daughter and

0:39:56.719 --> 0:40:01.160
<v Speaker 1>like prep her for like what she's about to show? Well, Kiki,

0:40:01.760 --> 0:40:03.920
<v Speaker 1>you know what. I've been so open with her and

0:40:04.120 --> 0:40:08.120
<v Speaker 1>like that. She doesn't. But the thing is she doesn't

0:40:08.200 --> 0:40:10.520
<v Speaker 1>like if we're watching a movie and it's like to

0:40:10.960 --> 0:40:13.640
<v Speaker 1>like much sex stuff, we're like like we like are

0:40:13.719 --> 0:40:15.759
<v Speaker 1>like no, She's like, mom, turned the shut off, you know.

0:40:16.280 --> 0:40:18.400
<v Speaker 1>So she doesn't want to like watch sex something. Because

0:40:18.400 --> 0:40:21.600
<v Speaker 1>I was like, let's watch maybe four you together because

0:40:21.640 --> 0:40:23.080
<v Speaker 1>I was scared to watch it. She's like, I'm not

0:40:23.200 --> 0:40:25.520
<v Speaker 1>watching that. That's a lot of drugs in that. I know.

0:40:25.600 --> 0:40:27.480
<v Speaker 1>That's why I can't because I think I'm gonna get triggered.

0:40:27.560 --> 0:40:29.200
<v Speaker 1>But I'm always like looking for things to do with

0:40:29.239 --> 0:40:31.239
<v Speaker 1>it because she's a teenager, so I'm like trying to

0:40:31.280 --> 0:40:38.040
<v Speaker 1>figure out, Like but she's like the chilliest mostly grounded,

0:40:38.680 --> 0:40:42.239
<v Speaker 1>like down to earth, like cool, funny kid I'm not

0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:45.120
<v Speaker 1>just saying that because she's mine and she's beautiful, she's hurt,

0:40:45.200 --> 0:40:48.640
<v Speaker 1>she's really she's perfect. She honestly is um what should

0:40:48.680 --> 0:40:51.000
<v Speaker 1>she do this wrong? Can she come home and tell

0:40:51.080 --> 0:40:52.920
<v Speaker 1>you that she had sex and you freak out? Like

0:40:53.440 --> 0:40:56.160
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, I'm freak out if she had sex? Yeah?

0:40:57.160 --> 0:41:00.120
<v Speaker 1>Especially yeah, because I know because I know her. She

0:41:00.200 --> 0:41:03.960
<v Speaker 1>hasn't even had her first kiss yet. I lied to

0:41:04.080 --> 0:41:09.160
<v Speaker 1>my mom really about like and no kids, really, are

0:41:09.200 --> 0:41:15.120
<v Speaker 1>you sure? I mean, she said she hasn't. I I

0:41:15.239 --> 0:41:17.960
<v Speaker 1>know you're cool. I don't know. I believe that. I

0:41:18.040 --> 0:41:20.560
<v Speaker 1>don't know. You know what, You're a cool mom until

0:41:20.680 --> 0:41:24.560
<v Speaker 1>you're my mom exactly. Everybody told my mom everything. People

0:41:24.560 --> 0:41:26.560
<v Speaker 1>asked my mom how to get a fucking abortion. Let's

0:41:26.560 --> 0:41:28.839
<v Speaker 1>be fair. Your gave us condoms going to the club,

0:41:29.040 --> 0:41:31.399
<v Speaker 1>and you would talk to my mom, I would talk.

0:41:31.440 --> 0:41:34.640
<v Speaker 1>I could not talk to my mom. But I mean

0:41:34.680 --> 0:41:38.600
<v Speaker 1>she's still maybe she's look I mean, I I my

0:41:38.760 --> 0:41:41.640
<v Speaker 1>daughter is very open with me, and there's other things

0:41:41.719 --> 0:41:44.359
<v Speaker 1>that she's been open about. So I feel like if

0:41:44.400 --> 0:41:46.200
<v Speaker 1>she had her first kiss, she tell me, I think

0:41:46.239 --> 0:41:49.080
<v Speaker 1>she wants to, like I want to know as a mother,

0:41:49.239 --> 0:41:52.440
<v Speaker 1>like right when you become a mom, you try to

0:41:52.520 --> 0:41:55.080
<v Speaker 1>make sure that your daughter, your children don't make the

0:41:55.120 --> 0:41:58.320
<v Speaker 1>same mistakes you did. Do you feel like you're extra strict,

0:41:58.760 --> 0:42:01.600
<v Speaker 1>specifically maybe letting her go out? Like me hearing you

0:42:01.719 --> 0:42:04.120
<v Speaker 1>explain what it was like to be a teenager in

0:42:04.160 --> 0:42:08.560
<v Speaker 1>New York City, like the freedom was like, oh my god,

0:42:08.760 --> 0:42:11.680
<v Speaker 1>this is way scarier than growing up in the South

0:42:11.800 --> 0:42:15.200
<v Speaker 1>where there's no form of public transportation. Is there anything

0:42:15.320 --> 0:42:17.320
<v Speaker 1>now that you feel like you're super strict on so

0:42:17.440 --> 0:42:20.400
<v Speaker 1>that she doesn't experience of the same time? You pretty strict,

0:42:20.480 --> 0:42:23.560
<v Speaker 1>like she has to stay on honor role. Yeah, pretty

0:42:24.160 --> 0:42:27.239
<v Speaker 1>pretty like strict about like her grades, Like I like

0:42:27.360 --> 0:42:29.800
<v Speaker 1>she needs, but but I'm pretty lenient. She has like

0:42:29.840 --> 0:42:32.520
<v Speaker 1>a late curfew. I let her. She's like going to

0:42:32.600 --> 0:42:35.720
<v Speaker 1>Coney Island today, like on the train and I mean whatever,

0:42:35.920 --> 0:42:38.719
<v Speaker 1>like theme park. I know it's not, but you know

0:42:38.920 --> 0:42:43.080
<v Speaker 1>it's it's still a little like so little like rough

0:42:43.160 --> 0:42:47.920
<v Speaker 1>out there is your life. You take one wrong turn

0:42:48.120 --> 0:42:51.080
<v Speaker 1>and you're like, where am I know? I can imagine

0:42:51.320 --> 0:42:53.759
<v Speaker 1>how like I feel like you become a parent and

0:42:53.800 --> 0:42:56.200
<v Speaker 1>you literally all you do is worry because having a

0:42:56.280 --> 0:42:58.160
<v Speaker 1>kid be on the subway, like I would freak out

0:42:58.200 --> 0:43:00.640
<v Speaker 1>every funky. She takes the subway every day to school,

0:43:00.640 --> 0:43:03.000
<v Speaker 1>and like people, you read the horror stories every day

0:43:03.040 --> 0:43:05.520
<v Speaker 1>about what happens on the train. So every day I'm

0:43:05.600 --> 0:43:09.520
<v Speaker 1>like tex Uni at the school, be careful on the train,

0:43:09.760 --> 0:43:11.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, I say, all that ship, but I do

0:43:11.840 --> 0:43:14.560
<v Speaker 1>trust her. And also like if I try to like

0:43:15.120 --> 0:43:17.759
<v Speaker 1>keep her in, like I'm afraid she'll just want to

0:43:17.840 --> 0:43:24.520
<v Speaker 1>like go crazy, she'll become technically no, I mean, like

0:43:25.120 --> 0:43:27.319
<v Speaker 1>I think, like I'm making a joke, but no, lie,

0:43:27.440 --> 0:43:30.480
<v Speaker 1>Like I think the freedom our parents gave us really

0:43:30.640 --> 0:43:33.120
<v Speaker 1>was why like, yeah, we both only had one abortion.

0:43:33.239 --> 0:43:35.920
<v Speaker 1>I think that that's great. I was going to sorry,

0:43:37.600 --> 0:43:39.560
<v Speaker 1>that is impressive. I think I was going to bring

0:43:39.640 --> 0:43:41.400
<v Speaker 1>up the abortion. But the reason I was going to

0:43:41.440 --> 0:43:43.400
<v Speaker 1>bring it up was because of how it happened, right,

0:43:43.520 --> 0:43:45.920
<v Speaker 1>Like I was not scared to tell my mom how

0:43:46.000 --> 0:43:48.440
<v Speaker 1>old were you? Um, oh my god. It was like

0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:52.160
<v Speaker 1>the last day of high school eighteen and the summer

0:43:52.200 --> 0:43:58.400
<v Speaker 1>going into the summer going into junior. If you have

0:43:58.480 --> 0:44:00.279
<v Speaker 1>a scenario like that, like some of my ends when

0:44:00.280 --> 0:44:02.040
<v Speaker 1>they would come to their mother, like my mom, like

0:44:02.800 --> 0:44:04.080
<v Speaker 1>what do you you know what I'm saying, like, what

0:44:04.160 --> 0:44:05.719
<v Speaker 1>do you do when you can't tell your mom and

0:44:05.760 --> 0:44:08.680
<v Speaker 1>you're sneaking around and you're doing something unsafe. It's like, yeah,

0:44:08.719 --> 0:44:10.560
<v Speaker 1>it's not a good feeling. You want to be comforted.

0:44:10.640 --> 0:44:13.160
<v Speaker 1>And my mom never made me feel bad about it,

0:44:13.560 --> 0:44:16.120
<v Speaker 1>which is a really good thing. Yeah, just like you shouldn't.

0:44:16.120 --> 0:44:18.200
<v Speaker 1>When Ki tells you she gave the boy is say no,

0:44:18.760 --> 0:44:21.279
<v Speaker 1>I will not. I'll be happy. I'll be like some

0:44:21.480 --> 0:44:30.400
<v Speaker 1>show me a picture. You better be high. All right,

0:44:30.480 --> 0:44:34.160
<v Speaker 1>let's get into chaos theory. Um. We talked a little

0:44:34.200 --> 0:44:37.080
<v Speaker 1>bit um about the wild past that you had with

0:44:37.160 --> 0:44:39.680
<v Speaker 1>all the drugs that we're gonna skip that. Um. However,

0:44:39.760 --> 0:44:42.120
<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to talk about um. In your book,

0:44:42.160 --> 0:44:45.239
<v Speaker 1>you really get into mental health. Um, you get into

0:44:45.560 --> 0:44:49.800
<v Speaker 1>a diagnosis of bipolar too. But then even towards the

0:44:50.000 --> 0:44:52.160
<v Speaker 1>end of that chapter or the end of that journey,

0:44:52.600 --> 0:44:55.560
<v Speaker 1>you discuss how you feel as though they just gave

0:44:55.600 --> 0:44:58.160
<v Speaker 1>you all these drugs, and really you went through what

0:44:58.239 --> 0:44:59.960
<v Speaker 1>a lot of people go through. You you went through

0:45:00.640 --> 0:45:02.919
<v Speaker 1>just not knowing how to maybe cope or not knowing

0:45:02.960 --> 0:45:05.480
<v Speaker 1>how to tell people your feelings. And I think that

0:45:05.640 --> 0:45:09.120
<v Speaker 1>in our community specifically, so many people fear a diagnosis

0:45:09.200 --> 0:45:11.800
<v Speaker 1>or feel like something is wrong with them. Um. But

0:45:12.239 --> 0:45:14.800
<v Speaker 1>something that we has brought up in her going to

0:45:14.880 --> 0:45:18.719
<v Speaker 1>therapy and her journey recently wass with depression was the

0:45:18.840 --> 0:45:22.040
<v Speaker 1>use of lexipro would you bring up as well regarding

0:45:22.440 --> 0:45:26.160
<v Speaker 1>the withdrawal of it causing hyper sexuality but while being

0:45:26.320 --> 0:45:28.880
<v Speaker 1>on it you said it pretty much gave you a

0:45:28.960 --> 0:45:32.319
<v Speaker 1>dry spell. Yeah, I mean SSR eyes do that. They

0:45:32.440 --> 0:45:38.839
<v Speaker 1>just like serotone and like up inhibitors whatever re upstake inhibitors. Um.

0:45:39.840 --> 0:45:42.399
<v Speaker 1>But yeah, but I still but there were they were

0:45:42.480 --> 0:45:44.920
<v Speaker 1>like I was on lexeprob for so many years, and

0:45:45.080 --> 0:45:48.239
<v Speaker 1>like there were times that I was horny as fuck

0:45:48.360 --> 0:45:51.800
<v Speaker 1>on lexi pro so, but I couldn't come on it.

0:45:52.160 --> 0:45:55.000
<v Speaker 1>It's but that's the thing. It's really hard to like happen. Also,

0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:57.279
<v Speaker 1>you would just want to You would still would You

0:45:57.320 --> 0:45:59.520
<v Speaker 1>still wanted to funk, right, You just couldn't come. It

0:45:59.600 --> 0:46:02.240
<v Speaker 1>was so so when I went to the mental hospital

0:46:02.280 --> 0:46:04.719
<v Speaker 1>and I talked about they took me off everything they

0:46:05.080 --> 0:46:10.480
<v Speaker 1>tell me about the mental hospital, um people talking about

0:46:10.480 --> 0:46:12.640
<v Speaker 1>in the book. Oh my god. Yeah. And it was

0:46:12.760 --> 0:46:15.000
<v Speaker 1>like not like it wasn't like like a you know,

0:46:15.280 --> 0:46:18.480
<v Speaker 1>chic like oh you went for being repool No, I

0:46:18.560 --> 0:46:21.400
<v Speaker 1>went for depression. Like I went because my boyfriend at

0:46:21.440 --> 0:46:24.480
<v Speaker 1>the time went crazy in Italy and had a relapse

0:46:24.520 --> 0:46:26.120
<v Speaker 1>and I had to come home from Italy by myself

0:46:26.200 --> 0:46:27.600
<v Speaker 1>and he had thrown something at me and that he

0:46:27.680 --> 0:46:29.319
<v Speaker 1>was gonna kill me, and I was like freaked out

0:46:29.360 --> 0:46:31.640
<v Speaker 1>and I was just so depressed. So it was at

0:46:31.640 --> 0:46:33.680
<v Speaker 1>this mental hospital. It was the best thing I ever did,

0:46:33.840 --> 0:46:39.640
<v Speaker 1>because that's when I just I realized that like exactly, yeah,

0:46:39.920 --> 0:46:41.919
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm like, okay, there's people here who can't tell

0:46:42.000 --> 0:46:46.600
<v Speaker 1>reality from like delusion and a lot of my own issues.

0:46:46.719 --> 0:46:49.359
<v Speaker 1>Of course, yes, I have depression, anxiety and some bad

0:46:49.480 --> 0:46:53.200
<v Speaker 1>coping skills and whatever. Like my I'm a little extra

0:46:53.280 --> 0:46:58.320
<v Speaker 1>and dramatic and manic sometimes whatever. But a lot of situations,

0:46:58.440 --> 0:47:01.080
<v Speaker 1>it's me putting myself in functive situations that then made

0:47:01.120 --> 0:47:04.120
<v Speaker 1>me depressed her anxious and like dating the top TALKXIC guy,

0:47:04.239 --> 0:47:06.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, wow, I could just not date the talks

0:47:06.080 --> 0:47:08.440
<v Speaker 1>a guy. I won't end up in the mental hospital

0:47:08.560 --> 0:47:10.040
<v Speaker 1>or were the people like can there tell us about

0:47:10.040 --> 0:47:12.200
<v Speaker 1>like a crazy story? Um? So there was a girl

0:47:12.680 --> 0:47:14.759
<v Speaker 1>who was next to me this like she was like

0:47:14.800 --> 0:47:18.640
<v Speaker 1>an orthodox Jewish girl and like she remember waking up.

0:47:18.760 --> 0:47:21.040
<v Speaker 1>She was the next few roommates. No no, no, I

0:47:21.120 --> 0:47:22.880
<v Speaker 1>had a private room. She was next. She was in

0:47:23.000 --> 0:47:25.080
<v Speaker 1>the room next to me. She was. I woke up

0:47:25.120 --> 0:47:28.600
<v Speaker 1>to the scream that was the most It was the

0:47:28.680 --> 0:47:31.239
<v Speaker 1>scream as if someone's like newborn baby, like died in

0:47:31.320 --> 0:47:32.680
<v Speaker 1>front of them or something like. It was like the

0:47:32.760 --> 0:47:36.200
<v Speaker 1>most tragic dark like it came from like her, the

0:47:36.360 --> 0:47:39.080
<v Speaker 1>deep inside her soul, like I felt it, and I

0:47:39.239 --> 0:47:41.160
<v Speaker 1>like woke up and looked in her room, and then

0:47:41.200 --> 0:47:43.160
<v Speaker 1>they were like holding her down and they gave her something,

0:47:43.280 --> 0:47:45.239
<v Speaker 1>you know, like they gave her a shot. And then

0:47:45.320 --> 0:47:48.759
<v Speaker 1>she came out later and was like hi, everybody, and

0:47:48.880 --> 0:47:50.520
<v Speaker 1>she was like talking to me about something you know

0:47:50.640 --> 0:47:52.600
<v Speaker 1>that was. And then there was a mate, this amazing

0:47:52.640 --> 0:47:57.200
<v Speaker 1>guy who liked me, and we sung show tunes together

0:47:57.400 --> 0:48:00.160
<v Speaker 1>and he was so sweet, but he was so eat

0:48:00.200 --> 0:48:02.920
<v Speaker 1>until he took a ship in his bed because he

0:48:03.040 --> 0:48:05.359
<v Speaker 1>wanted to funk with the people that worked there because

0:48:05.360 --> 0:48:07.120
<v Speaker 1>he was mad at them. And then there was this

0:48:07.239 --> 0:48:09.160
<v Speaker 1>other girl who was like going into people's rooms and

0:48:09.200 --> 0:48:11.080
<v Speaker 1>putting clothes on and she couldn't fit into any of it,

0:48:11.400 --> 0:48:13.920
<v Speaker 1>and she was walking around like where are my cigarettes?

0:48:14.040 --> 0:48:16.360
<v Speaker 1>And like the guy was like following her and me

0:48:16.400 --> 0:48:18.040
<v Speaker 1>and my mom were like trying not to laugh because

0:48:18.080 --> 0:48:19.520
<v Speaker 1>my mom was like visiting me. She had like something

0:48:19.560 --> 0:48:22.600
<v Speaker 1>tied around her head and her like actual stomach was

0:48:22.640 --> 0:48:24.360
<v Speaker 1>like hanging out a little crop top, and she was

0:48:24.440 --> 0:48:27.120
<v Speaker 1>just like where are my cigarettes? Like walking around was like,

0:48:27.440 --> 0:48:29.839
<v Speaker 1>you said you saw this at a mental hospital, which

0:48:29.920 --> 0:48:34.200
<v Speaker 1>is crazy because it's giving hamper heard. I mean, wait,

0:48:34.440 --> 0:48:41.759
<v Speaker 1>maybe I'm just soa She literally also set on the sand.

0:48:41.800 --> 0:48:43.080
<v Speaker 1>It was a joke, and now I know it was

0:48:43.120 --> 0:48:47.400
<v Speaker 1>a joke made in portaste the fact that like, I'm sorry,

0:48:47.440 --> 0:48:49.840
<v Speaker 1>but if you are like able to do that, you

0:48:49.920 --> 0:48:52.520
<v Speaker 1>need serious help, like if you can take a ship

0:48:52.680 --> 0:48:54.960
<v Speaker 1>and like something that's not a toilet, like you have

0:48:55.120 --> 0:48:59.800
<v Speaker 1>like a major Depp side of the bed, like literally,

0:49:00.280 --> 0:49:02.640
<v Speaker 1>and I saw the photo, I was rewatching girls and

0:49:02.840 --> 0:49:05.320
<v Speaker 1>fucking That's why I brought it up earlier, justesse it

0:49:05.440 --> 0:49:08.040
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh, you've never taken a ship anywhere but

0:49:08.160 --> 0:49:11.920
<v Speaker 1>a toilet, and everybody's like, no, bro. I had to

0:49:11.960 --> 0:49:14.840
<v Speaker 1>take a ship in the woods once and it was terrible.

0:49:15.480 --> 0:49:18.560
<v Speaker 1>It was terrible. It was at that same fucking a

0:49:18.560 --> 0:49:23.919
<v Speaker 1>Cademy festival. God my god, can I tell y'all. First

0:49:23.960 --> 0:49:28.399
<v Speaker 1>of all, that's honest, I don't know what the funk

0:49:28.440 --> 0:49:29.840
<v Speaker 1>her and I were thinking. I think we went to

0:49:29.960 --> 0:49:32.440
<v Speaker 1>mry Land Three's homes and Dub and I would go,

0:49:32.680 --> 0:49:36.120
<v Speaker 1>were you on k and shitting? No? Okay? Because know,

0:49:36.320 --> 0:49:37.759
<v Speaker 1>like when you're on drugs and you have to ship,

0:49:37.800 --> 0:49:41.840
<v Speaker 1>it's like the worst thing. Like just like being on

0:49:42.040 --> 0:49:44.040
<v Speaker 1>drugs and then you have to your stomach is like

0:49:44.080 --> 0:49:47.920
<v Speaker 1>getting excited. It's like it's almost like, I mean, it's

0:49:47.960 --> 0:49:50.200
<v Speaker 1>like you just can't. I'm not sure what a drug

0:49:50.280 --> 0:49:52.160
<v Speaker 1>shit is? Are you serious? Man? You never had a

0:49:52.200 --> 0:49:56.040
<v Speaker 1>Molly shit? Molly, I stay awake in our fuck and

0:49:56.200 --> 0:49:58.040
<v Speaker 1>I fucking have to stuck on a lotipot because all

0:49:58.040 --> 0:49:59.520
<v Speaker 1>I want to do is grab my teeth, I know,

0:50:00.000 --> 0:50:01.839
<v Speaker 1>because of the drought, Like have you ever done coke?

0:50:02.800 --> 0:50:04.600
<v Speaker 1>With her? And then I was like brought in filling me.

0:50:06.440 --> 0:50:08.759
<v Speaker 1>She was the only one that made me try, and

0:50:09.120 --> 0:50:12.640
<v Speaker 1>first though, I didn't make you try? Right, So the

0:50:12.719 --> 0:50:15.040
<v Speaker 1>whole time I'm on this card with her, I mean

0:50:15.120 --> 0:50:19.680
<v Speaker 1>not really. I'm a fun one. I'm a social first

0:50:19.680 --> 0:50:23.880
<v Speaker 1>of all, I just like lick her a lot. So

0:50:24.160 --> 0:50:27.000
<v Speaker 1>first off, Mandy is acting like she felt nothing of bitch,

0:50:27.080 --> 0:50:32.279
<v Speaker 1>I didn't. You just didn't have this. And this is

0:50:32.320 --> 0:50:34.480
<v Speaker 1>how I know I wasn't high because when I'm in

0:50:34.560 --> 0:50:36.960
<v Speaker 1>New York and this bitch likes the posh places, which

0:50:36.960 --> 0:50:39.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm paying twenty dollars for my Martiniz, why do you

0:50:39.360 --> 0:50:41.520
<v Speaker 1>want to keep bouncing around? I didn't finish my drink first,

0:50:41.560 --> 0:50:43.719
<v Speaker 1>and it was twenty dollars and I'm broke right now, bitch.

0:50:43.880 --> 0:50:45.400
<v Speaker 1>So it started being every time I hung out with

0:50:45.480 --> 0:50:47.640
<v Speaker 1>the bitch, I'm spending a hundred dollars. Were in all

0:50:47.719 --> 0:50:50.200
<v Speaker 1>places where there's two white men, I mean two black men,

0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:52.640
<v Speaker 1>the only like white women? Why are we here? I'm spending?

0:50:54.040 --> 0:50:56.400
<v Speaker 1>It was? But ye know, I'm like, where are what

0:50:56.719 --> 0:51:01.440
<v Speaker 1>you mean? Got it? Okay? Giving that? And I'm just

0:51:01.600 --> 0:51:05.759
<v Speaker 1>like maybe, but also I'm just like I'm spending all

0:51:05.800 --> 0:51:07.759
<v Speaker 1>my own money. And then she told me how much

0:51:07.800 --> 0:51:13.720
<v Speaker 1>that ship calls. I said, I'm not that's was she doing? Okay,

0:51:13.880 --> 0:51:15.680
<v Speaker 1>you didn't I don't think you kept asking for more

0:51:15.680 --> 0:51:21.719
<v Speaker 1>because I didn't feel it. You held it. Yeah, I

0:51:21.800 --> 0:51:24.319
<v Speaker 1>didn't feel like maybe he's like anything. Do another one?

0:51:24.560 --> 0:51:29.000
<v Speaker 1>Definitely trying to feel something and did it. But maybe

0:51:29.040 --> 0:51:31.919
<v Speaker 1>because that's the upper liquor the downer. Maybe you didn't

0:51:31.960 --> 0:51:34.120
<v Speaker 1>have a reaction like you think that coke was gonna

0:51:34.120 --> 0:51:35.879
<v Speaker 1>give you that you're gonna be like super I think

0:51:35.920 --> 0:51:37.560
<v Speaker 1>you thought you were gonna be like hold on, I

0:51:37.640 --> 0:51:39.839
<v Speaker 1>know I never did it again, and it's Wheezy's fault.

0:51:39.880 --> 0:51:44.400
<v Speaker 1>Maybe she has to trash coke. I don't think. Okay,

0:51:45.640 --> 0:51:47.520
<v Speaker 1>I want to go to the bathroom to pee, and

0:51:47.600 --> 0:51:49.600
<v Speaker 1>she came right behind me like I'm gonna do another one.

0:51:54.440 --> 0:51:58.359
<v Speaker 1>I paid for it. I was go keep up spirit o. UM,

0:51:59.080 --> 0:52:01.560
<v Speaker 1>get into before we get out of here, a little

0:52:01.600 --> 0:52:05.319
<v Speaker 1>bit of dating um, because we did talk about your

0:52:05.360 --> 0:52:09.600
<v Speaker 1>sex positivity backlash Housewives already. But what we have two

0:52:09.680 --> 0:52:13.640
<v Speaker 1>yes girl, no? No, no, okay okay, So relationship wise, um,

0:52:13.719 --> 0:52:15.160
<v Speaker 1>first off, I want to start off in the dating

0:52:15.160 --> 0:52:17.759
<v Speaker 1>phase before I get into your actual relationship. And I'm

0:52:17.840 --> 0:52:19.759
<v Speaker 1>gonna ask you the same thing as well. So we

0:52:19.840 --> 0:52:23.160
<v Speaker 1>have like this debate regarding sexuality and how much to

0:52:23.239 --> 0:52:25.480
<v Speaker 1>share on a first date. I want to know in

0:52:25.719 --> 0:52:29.279
<v Speaker 1>terms of your mental state, if that you if that's

0:52:29.320 --> 0:52:31.480
<v Speaker 1>something that either of y'all feel that you have to

0:52:31.520 --> 0:52:34.399
<v Speaker 1>share with your new partners when you're dating, how soon.

0:52:34.480 --> 0:52:38.000
<v Speaker 1>Do you tell someone whether it's the diagnosis or that

0:52:38.080 --> 0:52:40.719
<v Speaker 1>you're depressed or anxiety or if you're on any sort

0:52:40.760 --> 0:52:44.600
<v Speaker 1>of medication. Do you tell the people you're dating? Uh? Yeah,

0:52:45.160 --> 0:52:48.520
<v Speaker 1>how soon? Like I'm pretty upfront because I have to

0:52:48.600 --> 0:52:51.920
<v Speaker 1>be like because it's such a part of like I'm suppressed, right,

0:52:54.719 --> 0:52:57.200
<v Speaker 1>but like I have to be honest without because it's

0:52:57.239 --> 0:52:59.080
<v Speaker 1>just something I have to that I deal with, you know,

0:53:00.000 --> 0:53:04.120
<v Speaker 1>and also like, yeah, he's gonna have to really understand

0:53:04.280 --> 0:53:05.920
<v Speaker 1>and I need to know if like he's crazy too,

0:53:05.920 --> 0:53:08.000
<v Speaker 1>because I can't deal with the depressed another depressed person.

0:53:08.640 --> 0:53:12.719
<v Speaker 1>I need someone to not be like for me, I've

0:53:12.800 --> 0:53:15.000
<v Speaker 1>never really been in the dating pool all the way

0:53:15.040 --> 0:53:17.480
<v Speaker 1>through while being super depressed. I had a part, like

0:53:17.520 --> 0:53:20.200
<v Speaker 1>had a boyfriend while I was depressed, and I mean

0:53:20.239 --> 0:53:21.719
<v Speaker 1>he was a few of them things you had a

0:53:21.760 --> 0:53:24.920
<v Speaker 1>few boyfriends, That's probably what he was depressed. I'll be

0:53:25.000 --> 0:53:26.800
<v Speaker 1>depressed dealing with one thing, and I was dealing with

0:53:26.960 --> 0:53:29.960
<v Speaker 1>like three that would be depressed, you know what I mean.

0:53:30.400 --> 0:53:32.919
<v Speaker 1>I think the depression also probably was like, oh, I'm

0:53:32.960 --> 0:53:35.479
<v Speaker 1>not finding it in one person that could like maybe

0:53:35.560 --> 0:53:38.360
<v Speaker 1>amplified it, but no, mine was like totally like manic

0:53:38.480 --> 0:53:42.800
<v Speaker 1>like irrational depression, very like oh my god, like what

0:53:42.880 --> 0:53:45.880
<v Speaker 1>if my parents die? Like crazy dump? Yeah, oh my god. No,

0:53:46.000 --> 0:53:49.160
<v Speaker 1>that's something that's like serious like brain ship where you're

0:53:49.200 --> 0:53:51.359
<v Speaker 1>just having We're also like that's what I was dealing

0:53:51.400 --> 0:53:53.800
<v Speaker 1>with recently, was like intrusive thoughts. And I was like,

0:53:53.920 --> 0:53:55.440
<v Speaker 1>heard you in your book. That's why I was like,

0:53:55.640 --> 0:53:58.000
<v Speaker 1>you had what type of crazy fears? Yeah? And the

0:53:58.160 --> 0:54:00.000
<v Speaker 1>thing is death is real, you know what I'm saying.

0:54:00.000 --> 0:54:02.400
<v Speaker 1>And so it's like I think we're all like scared

0:54:02.480 --> 0:54:04.759
<v Speaker 1>for that moment and scared to, you know, for it

0:54:04.840 --> 0:54:08.719
<v Speaker 1>to happen. But it's like I and even instead of

0:54:08.880 --> 0:54:11.680
<v Speaker 1>enjoying my parents, I'll just like keep thinking the worst thing.

0:54:11.800 --> 0:54:13.520
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I'm not gonna lie. That's where I'm at now.

0:54:13.640 --> 0:54:17.560
<v Speaker 1>Even in therapy. Um, I don't have a relationship at

0:54:17.600 --> 0:54:19.480
<v Speaker 1>all really with my dad. But he went to the

0:54:19.560 --> 0:54:22.440
<v Speaker 1>hospital two weeks ago, and literally every time I just

0:54:22.560 --> 0:54:24.080
<v Speaker 1>even talked about him, like my eyes the water. So

0:54:24.160 --> 0:54:26.000
<v Speaker 1>I was in therapy and I'm like, I have to

0:54:26.040 --> 0:54:27.520
<v Speaker 1>see him. I talked to him, we have to get

0:54:27.560 --> 0:54:30.239
<v Speaker 1>through this because I would hate if he's no longer here.

0:54:30.280 --> 0:54:33.680
<v Speaker 1>And we just never talked That's literally where I'm at

0:54:33.840 --> 0:54:36.719
<v Speaker 1>in therapy is that thought. And it's not even that

0:54:36.840 --> 0:54:41.080
<v Speaker 1>it comes from me being depressed. It's me having some

0:54:41.200 --> 0:54:44.399
<v Speaker 1>sort of regret for what our relationship is. And when

0:54:44.440 --> 0:54:46.719
<v Speaker 1>my mom told me that all of these feelings just

0:54:46.960 --> 0:54:49.440
<v Speaker 1>came flooding, Well, I want to get into outside of that,

0:54:50.120 --> 0:54:55.640
<v Speaker 1>Outside of the dating, you actually had someone who dealt

0:54:55.719 --> 0:54:57.960
<v Speaker 1>with a lot of your depression. You guys were together

0:54:58.040 --> 0:55:01.319
<v Speaker 1>for six years, um and then in your you went

0:55:01.400 --> 0:55:04.640
<v Speaker 1>and got sober and went back to him because you

0:55:04.719 --> 0:55:06.760
<v Speaker 1>were like, now that I'm sober, let's try this again.

0:55:07.120 --> 0:55:10.680
<v Speaker 1>But it didn't really work, but you decided to remain friends.

0:55:11.400 --> 0:55:13.879
<v Speaker 1>How do you get there? How do you get there

0:55:13.920 --> 0:55:17.680
<v Speaker 1>to where even your partners while you're dating, are okay

0:55:17.760 --> 0:55:21.040
<v Speaker 1>with this cool ass friendship relationship with your baby dad.

0:55:21.120 --> 0:55:23.759
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, Yeah, I know. So I had I

0:55:24.160 --> 0:55:26.040
<v Speaker 1>was dating a guy who was like so not okay

0:55:26.120 --> 0:55:28.840
<v Speaker 1>with it, and we were like we were on vacation,

0:55:29.040 --> 0:55:31.120
<v Speaker 1>and I mean I was over him, you know, I

0:55:31.280 --> 0:55:32.920
<v Speaker 1>just wanted to use him for this vacation and I

0:55:33.000 --> 0:55:34.480
<v Speaker 1>was going to break up with him, to be honest,

0:55:35.040 --> 0:55:37.480
<v Speaker 1>and I was like not really sucking him on the trip.

0:55:39.680 --> 0:55:41.680
<v Speaker 1>I Actually he was so ugly it was crazy. I

0:55:41.719 --> 0:55:43.120
<v Speaker 1>had to put like a pillow over my head to

0:55:43.200 --> 0:55:46.320
<v Speaker 1>like hide my like I didn't want Why don't you

0:55:46.320 --> 0:55:48.200
<v Speaker 1>just fantasize about someone else? I do that all the time.

0:55:48.600 --> 0:55:50.399
<v Speaker 1>I just needed to put the pillow over my head.

0:55:50.400 --> 0:55:53.360
<v Speaker 1>Then it was really like he wasn't there. Um but

0:55:53.520 --> 0:55:56.200
<v Speaker 1>like what I call I was texting with Rob while

0:55:56.239 --> 0:55:58.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm on the vacation and he was like, you're texting

0:55:58.680 --> 0:56:01.239
<v Speaker 1>with your baby dad like ex, like while we're on

0:56:01.320 --> 0:56:04.480
<v Speaker 1>this fucking vacation. And I was like, yeah, I am.

0:56:05.600 --> 0:56:10.000
<v Speaker 1>So you also reference Rob as your soul mate before

0:56:10.080 --> 0:56:12.759
<v Speaker 1>we get into that, because clearly now I know I would.

0:56:13.000 --> 0:56:14.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, really now how I would feel away

0:56:15.000 --> 0:56:18.120
<v Speaker 1>about someone expressing to me that their soul mate is

0:56:18.120 --> 0:56:22.920
<v Speaker 1>actually their ex. Also in the picture you multiple soul mates?

0:56:23.000 --> 0:56:27.239
<v Speaker 1>What a soul mate is someone who's who's come into

0:56:27.320 --> 0:56:30.040
<v Speaker 1>your life in like such a deep way and you

0:56:30.160 --> 0:56:33.879
<v Speaker 1>know is sent there from God without a doubt. Oh

0:56:34.719 --> 0:56:40.440
<v Speaker 1>have you met a soul multiple? Uh? I think I've

0:56:40.480 --> 0:56:44.359
<v Speaker 1>had too. I'd say one was the guy that left

0:56:44.400 --> 0:56:48.359
<v Speaker 1>me for Jesus. Yes, well, I was super in love

0:56:48.440 --> 0:56:51.719
<v Speaker 1>with him. Ship we're sucking tattooed together right, like I've

0:56:51.800 --> 0:56:56.719
<v Speaker 1>never experienced and intense love like that. And also he's bipolar, um,

0:56:56.800 --> 0:56:59.480
<v Speaker 1>and he's dealt with some mental health issues, like even

0:56:59.560 --> 0:57:02.400
<v Speaker 1>more recently, like people have told me things that happened

0:57:02.400 --> 0:57:03.880
<v Speaker 1>I'll tell you when we're off then because they were

0:57:03.880 --> 0:57:08.120
<v Speaker 1>super intense. But no, I don't think that his his

0:57:08.200 --> 0:57:10.640
<v Speaker 1>mental issues could allow him to be with me in

0:57:10.640 --> 0:57:14.160
<v Speaker 1>a healthy way anymore. And also like when you need

0:57:14.280 --> 0:57:16.720
<v Speaker 1>someone to stay straight, I went to Europe for two

0:57:16.720 --> 0:57:19.960
<v Speaker 1>weeks with Vinnie just to fucking raven party and when

0:57:20.000 --> 0:57:21.760
<v Speaker 1>I came back, he was up and down, and it's

0:57:21.760 --> 0:57:24.360
<v Speaker 1>like it's very hard when you're someone's I'm trying to

0:57:24.400 --> 0:57:28.000
<v Speaker 1>find the word, uh, your onlyer only support system, I guess.

0:57:28.440 --> 0:57:30.400
<v Speaker 1>But um No, he was definitely a soul mate. He

0:57:30.480 --> 0:57:33.120
<v Speaker 1>taught me what love is, to be intensely loved, to

0:57:33.240 --> 0:57:36.160
<v Speaker 1>be happy, um. And I also don't think there's anything

0:57:36.240 --> 0:57:39.280
<v Speaker 1>wrong with it being over, Like I think that we

0:57:39.440 --> 0:57:42.720
<v Speaker 1>always think that soul mate means forever, and I don't

0:57:42.720 --> 0:57:45.000
<v Speaker 1>think it does. It doesn't. And that was I was

0:57:45.080 --> 0:57:47.400
<v Speaker 1>holding onto that, Like, once I got sober, I was like,

0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:49.840
<v Speaker 1>why do I you know we have why can't we

0:57:49.880 --> 0:57:51.640
<v Speaker 1>make it work? And I'm like okay, once I let

0:57:51.680 --> 0:57:53.720
<v Speaker 1>go of that and was like we this is this.

0:57:53.880 --> 0:57:57.440
<v Speaker 1>It is working. You literally like broken down so beautifully

0:57:57.480 --> 0:58:01.760
<v Speaker 1>too in your book and again like you literally are

0:58:01.920 --> 0:58:04.440
<v Speaker 1>on this journey with you because it's it's giving this

0:58:04.720 --> 0:58:06.920
<v Speaker 1>the whole time when you got into talk. That's how

0:58:07.000 --> 0:58:09.000
<v Speaker 1>I feel all the time, Like how the book is it?

0:58:09.120 --> 0:58:11.520
<v Speaker 1>Is it? Your biography? Is it self help with a memoir?

0:58:11.960 --> 0:58:14.640
<v Speaker 1>But there's some like little prescriptive like I don't I

0:58:14.840 --> 0:58:16.840
<v Speaker 1>think self help should is like so like I could

0:58:16.880 --> 0:58:19.000
<v Speaker 1>never tell people and be like do it. You know,

0:58:19.120 --> 0:58:21.560
<v Speaker 1>here's ten ways to make your life better, like you

0:58:21.640 --> 0:58:24.360
<v Speaker 1>know like that, like I'm so fucked up still, Like

0:58:24.520 --> 0:58:27.440
<v Speaker 1>what can I tell people? You literally say, you say

0:58:27.520 --> 0:58:32.919
<v Speaker 1>note to readers, don't take advice from depressive man, Like yeah, yeah,

0:58:33.360 --> 0:58:35.480
<v Speaker 1>like I'm just here telling you about my life. Yeah,

0:58:35.760 --> 0:58:39.240
<v Speaker 1>it's it's great, like so chaos theory it's out now.

0:58:39.360 --> 0:58:41.560
<v Speaker 1>You can get it audible, you can get it and

0:58:41.640 --> 0:58:44.600
<v Speaker 1>you reading. Yeah, you can listen to my voice reading

0:58:44.640 --> 0:58:48.240
<v Speaker 1>it to you, um, which makes it a lot more personal. Yeah,

0:58:48.280 --> 0:58:50.160
<v Speaker 1>I love that. Charlotta Magne did that too with his

0:58:50.200 --> 0:58:52.640
<v Speaker 1>book and it made me like it more. Yeah, And

0:58:53.200 --> 0:58:55.840
<v Speaker 1>so what can we expect? Pretty much everything we discussed.

0:58:55.880 --> 0:58:59.800
<v Speaker 1>You guys can hear about her from her teenage years, um,

0:59:00.080 --> 0:59:03.200
<v Speaker 1>literally up until I got to I believe your mid twenties.

0:59:03.640 --> 0:59:06.280
<v Speaker 1>What can someone expect in full? Like? Yeah, well I

0:59:06.400 --> 0:59:12.080
<v Speaker 1>talk also like about my inspirations and my views on

0:59:12.280 --> 0:59:16.080
<v Speaker 1>sex and yeah, like little Kim and how she helped,

0:59:16.240 --> 0:59:20.600
<v Speaker 1>you know, formulate my ideas on like sexuality and like

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<v Speaker 1>really havingism just having to just basically because I think

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<v Speaker 1>Little Kim like she's she's able to be vulnerable but

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<v Speaker 1>also flips everything around on the guys. I was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>you guys are objectifying us. I'm gonna flip it and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna objectify you. Yeah, and myself Trina was and

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<v Speaker 1>Trina right very much, very much. But I do love

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<v Speaker 1>queen Bitch, supreme bitch. That Little Kim era was the best. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I love that. Um. And guess before we get out

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<v Speaker 1>of here, where can people find you? What do you

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<v Speaker 1>have coming up? Yeah? You can follow me on Instagram

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<v Speaker 1>at leam mob. And as for things coming up, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just you know, promoting the books and there's other things.

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<v Speaker 1>But you have to wait and see, you're not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>give us no tea none. I just don't know what's happening.

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<v Speaker 1>And we tell you this is coming out in like

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<v Speaker 1>two weeks. Anything that's gonna happen the next to it

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<v Speaker 1>HAPs to be like you're not gonna give us a

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<v Speaker 1>first look and nothing ship just like you guys already

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<v Speaker 1>let me sit talking about drugs? Is that really not

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<v Speaker 1>a good word? Can you look that up? Is that

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<v Speaker 1>it's not? It's not right? Really, I told you, man,

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<v Speaker 1>just say any wait wait wait, hold up, hold up,

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<v Speaker 1>hold up, l G B T Q I A plus

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<v Speaker 1>is I is I? But they there? But no, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>saying like I it was always under the impression that

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<v Speaker 1>that had nothing to do with biological like I thought,

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<v Speaker 1>because it's not about but it's about your sexuality. But

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<v Speaker 1>technically I was saying it was a good thing. I

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<v Speaker 1>was just born with a man brain, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean. So we could say, because we talked about it,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe a man's booty hole if you like it so much,

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<v Speaker 1>because no, because maybe that's like a prod thing. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't have an anal orchasm before, so then see this

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<v Speaker 1>is unfair that you have that Mandy, maybe it's a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of it was so good. I would literally talked

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<v Speaker 1>about it too, Like I shook so much that I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I hope nothing came out. And I looked

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<v Speaker 1>in the sheets were clean, and I was like, damn,

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<v Speaker 1>I really came hard as fun and it was from

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<v Speaker 1>my Buddha hole. Do you imagine coming so hard from

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<v Speaker 1>your ask that you think you're like? That's literally I

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<v Speaker 1>would I can't, I would be I would be so

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<v Speaker 1>I would be so faked up. Why don't you guys

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<v Speaker 1>get into the um directing horn? I need to talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you about that. I mean, I'm not gonna lie.

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<v Speaker 1>King Noir was gonna allow me to direct one before,

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<v Speaker 1>but then COVID happened and it was too much. Mother,

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<v Speaker 1>I think I have some I'm gonna talk to you

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<v Speaker 1>about something when we're done. You have gay porn ud

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<v Speaker 1>I want to see or I'll be there for transport.

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<v Speaker 1>I watched. I know how I want a shot. I

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<v Speaker 1>have some straight female friends who really like gay porn too.

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<v Speaker 1>I love it. Yeah, I don't mind it at all,

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<v Speaker 1>howives as you can see? Oh, first off, if you're

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna lie, Like first off, I don't know why

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<v Speaker 1>people do this weird ship. I know the blogs do it.

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<v Speaker 1>They like go to look and see who people follow.

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<v Speaker 1>My Twitter follow list is nothing but only fans people,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's why I watched my porn now, so of

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<v Speaker 1>course I made an easy access because now they go

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<v Speaker 1>like two and a half minutes, bitch, I'll be nice

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<v Speaker 1>quick and so so literally someone wrote I went through

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<v Speaker 1>Mandy's followers and whoa. I wish I never did, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, you, nobody tell you to go on

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<v Speaker 1>that ship. Didn't win people I want to follow. Also,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for book marks, bro, because I first off,

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<v Speaker 1>first off, I didn't know. This is not much technologies

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<v Speaker 1>and win up people can see it. I used, when

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<v Speaker 1>you put the little heart, everybody can see what you'll

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<v Speaker 1>language is likeing a whole bunch of ship. And I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know I was putting gay porn on everyone's timeline.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know. Oh my god, I don't like whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you like. It gets retweeted out a bookmark a bookmark now,

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<v Speaker 1>But I also followed him is that on Twitter? Which

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<v Speaker 1>is why I also, hey, I told you the algorithm

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<v Speaker 1>for fly fans. They posted one o'clock in the afternoon,

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<v Speaker 1>so I'll be on the train and it's nothing but

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<v Speaker 1>buddhaholes and I'll be like, thank you guys so much

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<v Speaker 1>for watching part Decisions. Also, you're paying only fan, you're

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<v Speaker 1>no girl, free clips free she loves the twenty nine second.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna check it out. I've never been on only fans.

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<v Speaker 1>I need to look at it. Oh no, you could

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<v Speaker 1>be on Twitter. I watch it all on Twitter. It's

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<v Speaker 1>on Twitter because there's their boding. They're only fans, got it?

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<v Speaker 1>But because they do, they do put porn clips on

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<v Speaker 1>Twitter like no problems, like no problem. Yeah, I love

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<v Speaker 1>now we're all over their play and just like chaos.

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<v Speaker 1>And guess what we're doing this without drinking because but

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<v Speaker 1>you'd be liking to think I'll just being like this

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<v Speaker 1>only when I a little bit of drunk energy. But

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<v Speaker 1>I had no I did have a dirty I like

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<v Speaker 1>my things, dirty dirty martini. After that, that's what it is.

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<v Speaker 1>It's the dirty. It's giving coke energy. Man, this is

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<v Speaker 1>be thank you doing the dance to read that I

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<v Speaker 1>am not interested in and this is not hate ration. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>for joining us for It's like, thank you guy for

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<v Speaker 1>joining us for yet another episode of horrible decisions. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>let's get into the horrible decision. The horrible decision this

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<v Speaker 1>week is weird sex terms, and it's because I'm also

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<v Speaker 1>trying to figure out a way to bring back fucking

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<v Speaker 1>Kink of the Week or some other thing that we

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<v Speaker 1>can do. But I know, well, I ended up coming

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<v Speaker 1>across an article that had weird sex terms, and basically

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<v Speaker 1>it would be terms that when said, you might have

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<v Speaker 1>no fucking idea that it's even related to sex. So

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<v Speaker 1>some of the notable mentions, um would be a pearl necklace.

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<v Speaker 1>Pearl necklace. We had an episode where we talked about

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<v Speaker 1>that you wouldn't know that that it even has to

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<v Speaker 1>do with uh sex unless you have back trouble butter

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<v Speaker 1>trouble butter Urban Dictionary. That one trouble bridle is another

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<v Speaker 1>one scat play that's something Golden showers, and of course

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<v Speaker 1>peggy Um, but I wanted to get into I found

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<v Speaker 1>these other four terms that maybe we've talked about, but

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<v Speaker 1>again these are terms that maybe you will hear and

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<v Speaker 1>you would have no idea what the funk they're talking about.

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<v Speaker 1>So one being felching. Felching you spelching in a sentence

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<v Speaker 1>like if you just would would think felching was a

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<v Speaker 1>regular term. What do you think felching would mean? If

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<v Speaker 1>it didn't mean me and my daughter we go up

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<v Speaker 1>to the Humpton's location, we'd love to do a bunch

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<v Speaker 1>of felching. You know, it's just a ground old tom Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So felching to you sounds like a sport. Cool um felching,

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<v Speaker 1>No to felch is to suck up semen out of

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<v Speaker 1>an orifice. For instance, Sorry, guys, felch me that? Um Nope.

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<v Speaker 1>For instance, someone may ejaculate inside their partners anus and

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<v Speaker 1>then suck their own semen out of the anus with

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<v Speaker 1>their mouth. Then they may or may not swallow it.

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<v Speaker 1>So it would be mayor may we get we're giving

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<v Speaker 1>you an option. Yeah, it would be basically kind of like,

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<v Speaker 1>what are your cream pies? So felching is the act

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<v Speaker 1>of what a cream pie is. Oh wait, no, that's

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<v Speaker 1>just coming in. So felching would be eating the cream pie.

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<v Speaker 1>That is the I did that. So that's the verb.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what felching means that. So eating ejaculante out of

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<v Speaker 1>an orifice is what felching is. Not ejaculate, girl, she said, exacly,

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<v Speaker 1>do you watch Curb your Enthusiasm? No, well, we don't

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<v Speaker 1>want anything the same. Larry David, that's the best show

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<v Speaker 1>of all time. Larry David. Jav Smooth is in his

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<v Speaker 1>house and he basically found come on the sheet and

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<v Speaker 1>he's like, we need to have a talk because there

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<v Speaker 1>was ejaculate and he goes ejacutely. It was ejacuely and

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<v Speaker 1>He's like like come, We'll just say come Larry. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my goodness. Funny. Um another term again, I would like

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<v Speaker 1>for you to use it in a sentence without it

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<v Speaker 1>being a sex term. Docking. That's I feel like that's easy.

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<v Speaker 1>The dick, dock, docking the boat we're bullying, we're docking, right,

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<v Speaker 1>Is it like marrinate, like when you docking and I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, I'm lost? Yeah, right, you're super lost. So

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<v Speaker 1>docking is also a sex term. Um Docking is when

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<v Speaker 1>to uncircumcised people with penises get together. Um. So the

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<v Speaker 1>first pulls his foreskin back and holds it while the

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<v Speaker 1>second stretches. There is open and outward as far as

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<v Speaker 1>possible over the head and shaft of the other partner's penis. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>This is frequently asked if this act is real impossible,

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<v Speaker 1>and the response is is, um, that was enough imagination

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<v Speaker 1>and determination most things are. It's like a Chinese finger trap,

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<v Speaker 1>as bitch, but with a dick and and foreskin. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, docking. If that is ever something that you

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<v Speaker 1>hear any of your gaze, uh reference, that is what

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<v Speaker 1>they're talking about. I did hear some gaye say some

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<v Speaker 1>really funny ship as I was walking up on the

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<v Speaker 1>call I had with you, and I've never heard someone

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<v Speaker 1>say this before, and I just want to make it.

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<v Speaker 1>What was it? As I was walking up to my

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<v Speaker 1>apartment door, I tripped and these two gang niggs walking by,

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<v Speaker 1>and he goes, oh the baby or the baby or

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<v Speaker 1>or what was it they were? They were kicking bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry. I'm watching right now, so you know where

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<v Speaker 1>she said double homicide for Johnson's cabaret she went into.

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<v Speaker 1>They ended up fighting later on in the episode, and

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<v Speaker 1>she went into the best known as imm