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Speaker 1: All right, guys, welcome to Damn. I really put the

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Speaker 1: voice on every time we have someone white. I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: change it. Let me go back to being regular guys.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to another episode of horrible Decisions. I'm your girl

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Speaker 1: manby be a k a pit saying a full cork

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Speaker 1: punks a ka Mandy Baskins AKA, I'll fuck your nigga

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Speaker 1: and your daddy and your mama. What's up? And I'm

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Speaker 1: sitting here with Wow, I know it changed. I'm single

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Speaker 1: now I'll suck everybody sowing beer anyway. I'm easy. We

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Speaker 1: are back with our girl, Liam McSweeney. By the way,

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Speaker 1: this is the second time you've been on the show.

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Speaker 1: You came on the showg what do we talk? Oh

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Speaker 1: my god. I did not want you on because I

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Speaker 1: thought you were like some Republican or something. At the time.

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Speaker 1: This is when Andrew was like everybody was calling him

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Speaker 1: all right, Andy right, he loved Lee away too much.

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Speaker 1: I was like that bitch on the wrong tea. Like

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Speaker 1: I was like, now, oh, and then it sucked cause

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Speaker 1: I love you and like, you know, when you don't

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Speaker 1: want to like someone I know. I think you told

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Speaker 1: me that on the show and literally on the show

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Speaker 1: We got you because you also at the time I

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Speaker 1: had a podcast as well. Yeah that's right. Yeah, so

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Speaker 1: with the etiquett. Yeah so literally, and I think we

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Speaker 1: do if you guys reference to back. It was like,

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Speaker 1: gonna tell her everything I think about her, just so

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Speaker 1: you know. And oh, because I started to like you.

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Speaker 1: And you know what it was we were talking about

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Speaker 1: the me too era was really hot, like it just

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Speaker 1: back then, and there was like this rape triangle, the

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Speaker 1: rap angle. Do you remember that pyramid? The pyramid pyramid

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Speaker 1: basically saying what constitution what doesn't and all I remember

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Speaker 1: seeing a clipably of being like that's bullshit, and I

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Speaker 1: was like, well you are. I guess. Of course, let's

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Speaker 1: start with the introduction for those of you who do

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Speaker 1: not know this awesome white woman. And y'all know I

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Speaker 1: don't say that very often about the whites that join

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Speaker 1: us here, um, but I actually really really love you,

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Speaker 1: and I think that you align so well with horrible decisions,

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Speaker 1: but on a much larger platform now, so you are

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Speaker 1: a clothing not only designer but owner of merrit to

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Speaker 1: them up. You are now an author um too Chaos Theory.

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Speaker 1: That is your book. That just reading, by the way,

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Speaker 1: because I know that takes a lot of time in

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Speaker 1: but you read the whole book. I'm like, fo, I

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Speaker 1: wasn't thirty two minutes? God like, like reading it out

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Speaker 1: loud was the like most that was the hardest thing,

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Speaker 1: really why because you were reading rereading your own words

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Speaker 1: like this, and it was like so emotionally taxing and

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Speaker 1: like my voice started hurtingcause like you're in the booth

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Speaker 1: talking narrative. Now that I've been working in narrative, podcasting

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Speaker 1: someone's voice starts to crack. There's like things that we

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Speaker 1: have to have prepared. There's like certain like voiceover synthathizers,

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Speaker 1: some the sizes that you need for like you know

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Speaker 1: that happens like to just happen to me. But fucking

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Speaker 1: insane because the audiobook portion, when people are reliving a moment,

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Speaker 1: you're fucked then it is like it's a life. I

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Speaker 1: know I had and it's not again when I did

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Speaker 1: so I did a dating show with MTV, but we

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Speaker 1: were doing two episodes today. I was on set for

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Speaker 1: damn near twelve hours. Mind you. It was after we

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Speaker 1: like did hell a book recording for a podcast. Before

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Speaker 1: I went out there, Literally I drank about seven throat

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Speaker 1: coats today. I had someone literally making sure I had

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Speaker 1: It literally works. And also the name throat coat. Can

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Speaker 1: y'all just sponsor us because technically we could really get

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Speaker 1: you some sales another way, bro, that is the most

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Speaker 1: fucking name. Oh Okay, I was like, but I love it.

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Speaker 1: I think it just feld be like you nasty? What

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Speaker 1: But when I say that, you also represent somewhat horrible decisions.

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Speaker 1: You are a cast member of Real Housewives of New

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Speaker 1: York and I absolutely love how fucking uncomfortable you make

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Speaker 1: everybody because you will walk into a room and be like,

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Speaker 1: Real Housewives, but my mother does, and she calls me

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Speaker 1: and she goes, Eila, there's a white girl on this

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Speaker 1: show that reminds me of you. Oh my god, I

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Speaker 1: That's so, that's so sweet. Yeah, I'm talking about sex

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Speaker 1: openly just because that's like what I like. I didn't.

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Speaker 1: the rest of you bitches, uh specifically Ramona, Yes, I'm

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Speaker 1: Zaron fabrics? But no, that's Jill. She hasn't been on Okay.

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Speaker 1: my god, that's cocaine. But let me tell you, you

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Speaker 1: slut shaming that's happening. Icronic, bro, because all of them

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Speaker 1: don't suck the same white man exactly, Harry, why are

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Speaker 1: let's pretend no one's ever heard Real Housewives. What were

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Speaker 1: I give context. So I'm obsessed with ninety Fiance, okay,

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Speaker 1: because that is the greatest American television show of all time. Sure,

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Speaker 1: But also when you have fat white women going to Nigeria,

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Speaker 1: like it's almost like they're scouted in hunting out for

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Speaker 1: it be about? It would be about like mental health,

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Speaker 1: life really mental health, spirituality, sex, positivity and like healing

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Speaker 1: and like to see you and your daughter actually and

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Speaker 1: like the ups and downs of reading comments, being visible

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Speaker 1: The next one is nice guys can't fuck? Do you

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Speaker 1: so like you're a whore who likes sci fi. I'm

423
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Speaker 1: not really doing this the same you can't say you're

424
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Speaker 1: a good girl. You've got some crazy as sucking. I'm

425
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Speaker 1: a good girl, don't you peg man? We're not going up,

426
00:23:21,119 --> 00:23:23,920
Speaker 1: don't you peg men in a nice gents a way

427
00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:26,720
Speaker 1: I don't turn again is stricken nutbody. But if there

428
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Speaker 1: is enough lube and that it doesn't hurt, I'm not

429
00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:34,560
Speaker 1: pounding them. I'm generally penetrating their that you see how

430
00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:36,399
Speaker 1: you say it not. I like to read and I

431
00:23:36,480 --> 00:23:40,840
Speaker 1: also watched Bukocky porn, so this is not at all

432
00:23:41,000 --> 00:23:43,399
Speaker 1: what you think. Okay, So defined then what is a

433
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Speaker 1: nice guy who don't you want to give the pussy

434
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Speaker 1: to Lea tell us now, I mean if a guy

435
00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 1: I don't know, maybe it's my own fun up head

436
00:23:50,640 --> 00:23:53,960
Speaker 1: that is, thinking a guy is weak if he's too nice.

437
00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:56,840
Speaker 1: That's wild. But also hold on, I also did that.

438
00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:59,400
Speaker 1: I also made that, bitches on a long time ago,

439
00:24:00,280 --> 00:24:04,200
Speaker 1: and you still believe it. But like I've I've dated

440
00:24:04,240 --> 00:24:09,280
Speaker 1: and like fucked not that many nice guys. But I

441
00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:10,959
Speaker 1: think I do want a nice guy now who can

442
00:24:11,040 --> 00:24:13,480
Speaker 1: also fun. And I am hopeful that I was wrong

443
00:24:13,520 --> 00:24:15,840
Speaker 1: about that, bitches. I don't the problem when when you

444
00:24:15,960 --> 00:24:19,560
Speaker 1: have a nice guy, you go out and there's one

445
00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:23,159
Speaker 1: bad one and they fucking they got like confident, like

446
00:24:23,200 --> 00:24:26,000
Speaker 1: a motherfucker. It's like their dick is dragging from behind

447
00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:29,160
Speaker 1: them like a tail. And for some reason, I don't

448
00:24:29,160 --> 00:24:32,440
Speaker 1: know why, but I think that the issue with having

449
00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:34,360
Speaker 1: a nice guy is once it happens, you're like, oh

450
00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:36,520
Speaker 1: my god, this is what I deserve, and then it's

451
00:24:36,520 --> 00:24:39,639
Speaker 1: like you get like it's like taunting you. But you

452
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Speaker 1: want somebody that's gonna feel like Risks that show on

453
00:24:42,240 --> 00:24:46,440
Speaker 1: Netflix and are hot guys who are nice. Yes, I

454
00:24:47,240 --> 00:24:49,800
Speaker 1: I sunk a lot of nice, hot guys with great dick.

455
00:24:49,920 --> 00:24:52,120
Speaker 1: I don't know what y'all are talking about. I don't

456
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Speaker 1: know they're name one. First of all, I'm not going

457
00:24:54,680 --> 00:24:57,320
Speaker 1: to name their names on this name one. That's I

458
00:24:57,320 --> 00:25:00,840
Speaker 1: got an alias on our show. Um oh, the nigga

459
00:25:00,880 --> 00:25:03,280
Speaker 1: who got me to MacBook and the nigga that wasn't

460
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:06,000
Speaker 1: they married, they're not well, he was nice to me.

461
00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:10,840
Speaker 1: It doesn't matter that they're married. Yea not a nice guy.

462
00:25:11,320 --> 00:25:17,160
Speaker 1: If everyone knows about the name was married, that bad. Yes,

463
00:25:17,280 --> 00:25:20,440
Speaker 1: that doesn't make them a nice guy, makes them yeah

464
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:23,240
Speaker 1: a nice guys. Like the purity of them, bro like

465
00:25:23,560 --> 00:25:28,000
Speaker 1: they're good people. That wouldn't it could have been the

466
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:33,840
Speaker 1: open relationship. I never asked. I never asked, so let's

467
00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:36,040
Speaker 1: not put that out into the universe. By the way,

468
00:25:36,119 --> 00:25:39,840
Speaker 1: they both have money and power. Any wife, any woman

469
00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:42,760
Speaker 1: who marries a powerful rich man already knows that nigga

470
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:46,560
Speaker 1: gonna cheat. So technically, technically you're entering into an open

471
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:50,800
Speaker 1: marriage period. You're gonna yell field turn you're a blind eye.

472
00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:53,800
Speaker 1: Say that's to me the same it's it's it's t

473
00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:56,760
Speaker 1: thank you, and it's facts. Thank you. We talked about

474
00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:59,200
Speaker 1: it all the time. Bitches that live nice they ain't

475
00:25:59,200 --> 00:26:01,600
Speaker 1: even had to work. They definitely wasn't gonna leave because

476
00:26:01,600 --> 00:26:04,520
Speaker 1: he was sucking with me, So I didn't feel anything wrong.

477
00:26:04,600 --> 00:26:08,360
Speaker 1: They were nice men, okay, and I love my computer.

478
00:26:11,320 --> 00:26:14,920
Speaker 1: It helped me to start editing this podcast and the

479
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:18,200
Speaker 1: last one. I feel like again something Wheezy can relate

480
00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,480
Speaker 1: to very much. Don't be scared to be a bit?

481
00:26:21,119 --> 00:26:27,679
Speaker 1: Do you still believe I'm I'm scared to be a bit?

482
00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:33,440
Speaker 1: All right? You do not care to be? No? I said,

483
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Speaker 1: she's not scared to be a bit, and that and

484
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:39,159
Speaker 1: that and that meant that that doesn't mean like be

485
00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:44,760
Speaker 1: like a ton of people. Yeah, that's not what it means,

486
00:26:44,920 --> 00:26:47,400
Speaker 1: but not like it's not like, you know, be nasty

487
00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 1: to the person like serving you food or like whatever.

488
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:52,200
Speaker 1: You know what I mean. It means like, don't be

489
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:55,760
Speaker 1: scared to be like assertive and speak your mind and

490
00:26:55,920 --> 00:26:59,919
Speaker 1: like be clear about what you want what you don't want. Okay,

491
00:27:00,520 --> 00:27:02,600
Speaker 1: I can dig that. So yeah, let's see, that's a

492
00:27:02,680 --> 00:27:04,119
Speaker 1: nice way to put it. We see I met all

493
00:27:04,160 --> 00:27:06,479
Speaker 1: of the nice positive things when I said that, right,

494
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:11,399
Speaker 1: and I met when you were older than watching. I

495
00:27:11,520 --> 00:27:14,320
Speaker 1: am not a whore. I am I feel like I'm

496
00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:17,760
Speaker 1: the therapist, and you guys are like my patients right now.

497
00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:20,560
Speaker 1: Are absolutely not. We actually are on good terms at

498
00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:24,400
Speaker 1: the first time in are never dam we are doing

499
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:27,240
Speaker 1: We're supposed to be going to an event together. I

500
00:27:27,960 --> 00:27:30,159
Speaker 1: love it. I mean it's definitely giving set and it

501
00:27:30,280 --> 00:27:32,200
Speaker 1: might be giving a Real Housewives about to throw a

502
00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:40,280
Speaker 1: drink at the meat. All right, well, let's take a

503
00:27:40,320 --> 00:27:45,479
Speaker 1: little step back away from my Real Housewives fandom here. Um,

504
00:27:45,880 --> 00:27:49,080
Speaker 1: we're gonna get into our vanilla ship where if you

505
00:27:49,119 --> 00:27:51,399
Speaker 1: are listening for the first time, this has to do

506
00:27:51,680 --> 00:27:55,840
Speaker 1: with somewhat sex in the news, Um, and I found

507
00:27:56,080 --> 00:28:00,159
Speaker 1: here where a jail where an inmate smugg go to

508
00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 1: a prostitute is forced tighten security. Now, I really need

509
00:28:04,119 --> 00:28:07,040
Speaker 1: to know how this happen. But the Sun told last

510
00:28:07,119 --> 00:28:11,920
Speaker 1: June how the prisoner jailed for drug offenses use a

511
00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:16,000
Speaker 1: smuggled mobile phone to arrange a visit. He snapped the

512
00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:22,440
Speaker 1: raven haired woman posing on his bed. Raven or like

513
00:28:22,560 --> 00:28:27,760
Speaker 1: that really? Oh yes, ma'am, right on the prison bed

514
00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:34,400
Speaker 1: right by the way, raven hair is black, okay, glossy

515
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:37,880
Speaker 1: deep black. Listen. They wanted to use their adjectives. They said,

516
00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:40,480
Speaker 1: I gotta a in language arts and I'm gonna use it.

517
00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:43,480
Speaker 1: Okay um, But this is a wild because I actually

518
00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:47,480
Speaker 1: do like watching jail porn. Were like the CEOs never

519
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:49,840
Speaker 1: thought of mine in mad Still girl said you somebody's

520
00:28:49,880 --> 00:28:53,360
Speaker 1: kay um, I like gay porn um. So he snapped

521
00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:55,800
Speaker 1: the raven haired woman posing on his bed at HMP

522
00:28:56,320 --> 00:29:01,080
Speaker 1: Hollesslye Bay in Suffolk and open prison holding five hundred lags.

523
00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:04,160
Speaker 1: This is definitely written in like British something. That's why

524
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 1: I used raven Was it the sun dot co? It

525
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:11,120
Speaker 1: is bitch? Oh u k does One photo of her

526
00:29:11,560 --> 00:29:15,080
Speaker 1: was ingested g string and a crop top actually landed

527
00:29:15,080 --> 00:29:18,520
Speaker 1: on social media. After revelations, the inmate was moved to

528
00:29:18,600 --> 00:29:22,320
Speaker 1: a closed prison. The report, published yesterday by the Independent

529
00:29:22,400 --> 00:29:26,360
Speaker 1: Monitoring Board said that the following that following the adverse publicity,

530
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:31,680
Speaker 1: security patrols have been stepped up. I cannot believe that

531
00:29:32,600 --> 00:29:37,480
Speaker 1: a person the whole prostitute been like the CEOs must

532
00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:41,440
Speaker 1: have been involved in it. The fact that he was

533
00:29:41,480 --> 00:29:43,600
Speaker 1: in jail here the thing too. He was in jail

534
00:29:43,640 --> 00:29:46,440
Speaker 1: for drug offenses. It's given Nigga had like el chop

535
00:29:46,560 --> 00:29:49,320
Speaker 1: all type of money totally for short pace that I

536
00:29:49,520 --> 00:29:59,240
Speaker 1: want to regular And now let me ask you if um,

537
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:01,560
Speaker 1: now this is not if then because I actually read

538
00:30:01,600 --> 00:30:03,880
Speaker 1: your book, Um, was there any time that you wanted

539
00:30:03,920 --> 00:30:06,960
Speaker 1: to spuggle dick into any of the rehab centers? Oh? Yeah?

540
00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:10,400
Speaker 1: And where was it tight security? And we also just

541
00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:14,239
Speaker 1: debated this context, so I didn't even know you've been

542
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:16,800
Speaker 1: to rehab a few times. Yeah, and you get very

543
00:30:16,880 --> 00:30:19,840
Speaker 1: horny and rehab right, because like you're like disconnected from

544
00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:22,040
Speaker 1: the world. I also want to hear this. Tell me

545
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:25,360
Speaker 1: how long you're in rehab for? And then multiple you're

546
00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:28,719
Speaker 1: like having moments where I mean when I say long,

547
00:30:28,800 --> 00:30:31,080
Speaker 1: I mean like tenures, Like how many weeks? Or is it?

548
00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,520
Speaker 1: So the first two times it was a twenty eight

549
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:36,680
Speaker 1: day programs, the second time it was a ninety day

550
00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:40,400
Speaker 1: program days, and then I went to a place that

551
00:30:40,440 --> 00:30:42,080
Speaker 1: was supposed to be a year long program, but I

552
00:30:42,240 --> 00:30:45,120
Speaker 1: left and went to another place that was another three months.

553
00:30:45,280 --> 00:30:48,800
Speaker 1: What kind of like okay, because I watched Girls Interrupted

554
00:30:49,160 --> 00:30:52,040
Speaker 1: or I'm like thinking about fucking movies where she happened.

555
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:54,240
Speaker 1: I remember Jessa on Girls went to rehab and like

556
00:30:54,520 --> 00:30:57,000
Speaker 1: tried to scissor a bit. Yeah, what's going on? Like

557
00:30:57,120 --> 00:30:59,160
Speaker 1: are you allowed to do co ed ship like cany

558
00:30:59,280 --> 00:31:02,640
Speaker 1: like what are the So it depends like which which

559
00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:05,040
Speaker 1: place you're at, for instance, like the second place I

560
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:08,000
Speaker 1: went to, no one, we had like barely any supervision.

561
00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:10,920
Speaker 1: It was like it was I remember like lasting like

562
00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:13,760
Speaker 1: the Thong song and like grinding with dudes and like

563
00:31:14,160 --> 00:31:15,560
Speaker 1: and one of the girls being like, you can dance

564
00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:17,200
Speaker 1: pretty good for a white girl. It's like, thank you.

565
00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:20,720
Speaker 1: I was pretty proud of myself. Are the people who

566
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:24,600
Speaker 1: rehab normally hot? They're fun? That's what it's all. It's

567
00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:27,040
Speaker 1: all drug addicts. They're fun. And also, you know, I

568
00:31:27,120 --> 00:31:29,920
Speaker 1: was like a teenager. So in the first place I

569
00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:33,600
Speaker 1: went to, there was the hottest fucking guy. He was

570
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:36,520
Speaker 1: so fine, like he was fine as fun. And there

571
00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:40,240
Speaker 1: was this like little fucking shrimp bitch who was not

572
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:42,600
Speaker 1: hot at all, and she hooked up with him. I

573
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:45,120
Speaker 1: have no idea how. And I was so bun because

574
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:48,760
Speaker 1: she was easy. I was so mad that he hooked

575
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:51,680
Speaker 1: up with her. I was so pissed. I'm not gonna lie.

576
00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:53,600
Speaker 1: I had the same experience when I was in Juvie.

577
00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:58,080
Speaker 1: Just fine, this man was fine, yeah, braid. So I

578
00:31:58,160 --> 00:32:00,560
Speaker 1: was in Julie because I ran away. This was when

579
00:32:00,600 --> 00:32:03,040
Speaker 1: I was in middle school. I ran away and they

580
00:32:03,280 --> 00:32:05,239
Speaker 1: caught me at the Boys and Girls club, And when

581
00:32:05,280 --> 00:32:07,280
Speaker 1: my mama came, I said, I ain't gonna so I say.

582
00:32:07,320 --> 00:32:10,160
Speaker 1: I was there for like two weeks um and then

583
00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,920
Speaker 1: when I realized it was going thick, my g p

584
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:13,360
Speaker 1: a because they pulled me out of school and I

585
00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:15,080
Speaker 1: had to go to school and Julie, I said, now

586
00:32:15,320 --> 00:32:16,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go back home now. Because I was really

587
00:32:17,400 --> 00:32:24,800
Speaker 1: prideful with academic uh interest, like juvenile Delinklin who really

588
00:32:24,920 --> 00:32:28,160
Speaker 1: cared about her grave. I didn't even know that existed,

589
00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:33,480
Speaker 1: neither did you know what? And here I am really

590
00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: are You're not conforming, I like, not at all. You

591
00:32:37,680 --> 00:32:40,080
Speaker 1: either you either I'm reading this ship and you're all

592
00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:43,920
Speaker 1: against any societal north. I'm going against what do you

593
00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:47,720
Speaker 1: go to rehab for all sorts of things. But definitely

594
00:32:47,920 --> 00:32:52,800
Speaker 1: loved speed, loved ecstasy, loved it was speed back then.

595
00:32:53,320 --> 00:32:56,160
Speaker 1: But because like I was at the races, you know what,

596
00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:59,640
Speaker 1: I was in the rave scene. So like we did

597
00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:03,080
Speaker 1: like Crystal and like Ecstasy and Special K and we

598
00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:06,160
Speaker 1: smoked angel dust. I've never heard about like Special K

599
00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:09,400
Speaker 1: until like recently I know why it's made to come back.

600
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:13,600
Speaker 1: It's crazy that I accidentally did you accidentally did it?

601
00:33:13,760 --> 00:33:16,320
Speaker 1: Oh my god. And when she told me, I said, bitch,

602
00:33:16,560 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 1: that does something to horses. I said, I didn't know,

603
00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:25,760
Speaker 1: And what did you? How much did you take of it? Coke?

604
00:33:29,360 --> 00:33:34,440
Speaker 1: So I love how I love this podcast, Like god, damn,

605
00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:36,280
Speaker 1: how many years ago is this? I feel like this

606
00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:38,680
Speaker 1: is honestly, it's great. We should all be honest because

607
00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:42,720
Speaker 1: most people do recreational drugs and it's ridiculous to act

608
00:33:42,800 --> 00:33:45,000
Speaker 1: like they don't. Oh, if you listen to the beginning

609
00:33:45,040 --> 00:33:47,040
Speaker 1: of this podcast, mind you the story you couldn't fully

610
00:33:47,080 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 1: tell because you still had your corporate job. So we

611
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:51,160
Speaker 1: used to bleep out coke and we couldn't talk about

612
00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:54,120
Speaker 1: any of the drugs. And then back then I was

613
00:33:54,160 --> 00:33:57,160
Speaker 1: so prudish. Now I love shrooms, I love getting high, um,

614
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:59,280
Speaker 1: but I used to judge the ship out of sucking

615
00:33:59,280 --> 00:34:02,000
Speaker 1: wheezy with her. Mandy came in here Molly dot one

616
00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:04,200
Speaker 1: day and I was like, my have the table turn

617
00:34:05,840 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 1: guy that was at the sex club with me the

618
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,320
Speaker 1: night before. He was a gift on the show, and

619
00:34:09,360 --> 00:34:11,080
Speaker 1: we had to talk about how we hadn't slept yet

620
00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:15,279
Speaker 1: because the molly we took first of no one's no

621
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:18,880
Speaker 1: one's didn't, so we were all just petting each other.

622
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:20,800
Speaker 1: It was like a fucking petting zoo. We come in

623
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:23,000
Speaker 1: the next day. I'm like, have you slept yet? He's

624
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:24,920
Speaker 1: like no, I said, fuck me either. Are we sure?

625
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:27,800
Speaker 1: This was molly? Like we could not fucking sleep anyway?

626
00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:31,960
Speaker 1: Share about the you know, it was like six years ago.

627
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:34,279
Speaker 1: I went to mistery Land, which is in Woodstock, New York,

628
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:36,200
Speaker 1: and I was with Dub shout out to Lady w

629
00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:39,399
Speaker 1: and literally thought I was going to take a bump

630
00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 1: of cocaine and this guy didn't have a shirt on.

631
00:34:42,719 --> 00:34:45,920
Speaker 1: This in vitamin K but like, I didn't know. I

632
00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:48,919
Speaker 1: didn't know what chat of men. I was twenty four

633
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:51,000
Speaker 1: years old. I'm not gonna lie. I do not know

634
00:34:51,080 --> 00:34:54,440
Speaker 1: the periodic table either. You have. I did the buck

635
00:34:54,520 --> 00:34:57,239
Speaker 1: and I damn near dropped to the floor and he goes, oh,

636
00:34:57,520 --> 00:35:01,200
Speaker 1: ship bro not blow man, and he's like bugging the

637
00:35:01,200 --> 00:35:03,600
Speaker 1: funk out. So then fucking Dub comes back. She's like,

638
00:35:03,800 --> 00:35:05,560
Speaker 1: why do you be fucking with these white people? I'm like,

639
00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:11,640
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. But then I started getting good. Yeah, I

640
00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:14,000
Speaker 1: was like bitch, we got to do it together, and

641
00:35:14,080 --> 00:35:15,960
Speaker 1: then we never go and do it again. So we

642
00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:17,880
Speaker 1: were like, all right, well we do it together, how

643
00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:19,719
Speaker 1: do we make sure one of the other doesn't die?

644
00:35:20,400 --> 00:35:25,680
Speaker 1: One had to go first, not my god. I was like,

645
00:35:25,760 --> 00:35:28,000
Speaker 1: all right, so if I die, you know, if I'm

646
00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:33,280
Speaker 1: gonna get sick, make sure you're alert. So so stupid.

647
00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 1: But all I remember is we were laying in this

648
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:37,719
Speaker 1: fucking grass for what I thought was three hours and

649
00:35:37,800 --> 00:35:41,160
Speaker 1: it was twenty minutes. Anyway, I never did it again. Also,

650
00:35:41,239 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 1: haven't done Molly in a minute, Like it's it's interesting

651
00:35:45,040 --> 00:35:47,880
Speaker 1: when years because I was like a ravier too, you

652
00:35:47,880 --> 00:35:49,279
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I was like all tray E

653
00:35:49,360 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 1: d C. I loved all the ship. I would travel

654
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:55,400
Speaker 1: to Europe for festivals, but sobriety and festivals is actually

655
00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 1: interesting because now I mean, I guess I'm saying that sobriety,

656
00:35:58,239 --> 00:35:59,840
Speaker 1: but I'll do like shrooms and ship. Now when I

657
00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:02,600
Speaker 1: to the music festival and I'm not fucking cracked out

658
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:05,960
Speaker 1: on a Molly, I'm like, damn, is this like still good?

659
00:36:06,120 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 1: Like having a new experience? Like what is that? Like?

660
00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:12,239
Speaker 1: I can music doesn't sound the same why don't I

661
00:36:12,360 --> 00:36:15,440
Speaker 1: feel it? Right? But it's like now I just go

662
00:36:15,719 --> 00:36:17,560
Speaker 1: and like look at guys and like flirting, dance and

663
00:36:17,600 --> 00:36:20,719
Speaker 1: iPhone my friends. Before it was euphoric, yes, and I

664
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,680
Speaker 1: see why people totally get sucked into that, you know

665
00:36:23,680 --> 00:36:26,399
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Like I was like the biggest raver.

666
00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:29,719
Speaker 1: I mean that was my life, was raving really all

667
00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:33,040
Speaker 1: of high school. Yeah, how do you? I'm thirty nine,

668
00:36:34,040 --> 00:36:39,080
Speaker 1: so this was like real deal. But also like Mr Is,

669
00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:41,680
Speaker 1: like you would be funked up for like two hours

670
00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:44,640
Speaker 1: in New York. You were doing to be like the

671
00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:47,320
Speaker 1: top not ship because that's when like al Capone and

672
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:49,680
Speaker 1: Ship was in the streets and stuff. Right, I was

673
00:36:49,719 --> 00:36:54,040
Speaker 1: al Capone. I don't know that the monster from the

674
00:36:54,160 --> 00:36:58,839
Speaker 1: Monster from the Mobster Chicago. Oh, what's the one? Who?

675
00:36:58,920 --> 00:37:03,800
Speaker 1: The one? It was here? I'll chop them Frank Lucas

676
00:37:03,880 --> 00:37:07,080
Speaker 1: actually actually it was actually I think it was the

677
00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:10,399
Speaker 1: Israelis that we're bringing all the ecstasy to the rave

678
00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:12,920
Speaker 1: scene in the nineties. Well, and Frank Lucas brought it

679
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:21,200
Speaker 1: to hard I've been alive if I want American gigs.

680
00:37:21,520 --> 00:37:27,960
Speaker 1: But that Frank Lucas, Frank One. So what about today? Like,

681
00:37:28,400 --> 00:37:31,000
Speaker 1: can you still do drugs today? When when know I

682
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:34,080
Speaker 1: totally stopped, Like I'm completely like, so I was not

683
00:37:34,239 --> 00:37:36,440
Speaker 1: drinking for a long time. Would I say this alcohol

684
00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:40,000
Speaker 1: make it? I don't drink m hmm, I haven't drank

685
00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:42,840
Speaker 1: if like I drank for like a year out of glass,

686
00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:46,120
Speaker 1: like thirteen years didn't make you want to do drugs again? Yeah?

687
00:37:46,719 --> 00:37:49,840
Speaker 1: And I did. I put everything on my nose the

688
00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:52,920
Speaker 1: second I started drinking. It's like I can't even help it.

689
00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:56,799
Speaker 1: I'm like, what do you have to sniff? And then

690
00:37:56,880 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 1: one night I sniffed kay oh, and I was like,

691
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:03,800
Speaker 1: I'll say also like a like you just like you

692
00:38:06,360 --> 00:38:09,160
Speaker 1: one time on an accident. Do you know you'll say

693
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:12,840
Speaker 1: that all the time, don't you. Guys always say this

694
00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:15,280
Speaker 1: about anal and it really gets on my nerves because

695
00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:18,160
Speaker 1: if the tip went in, you had anal sex? Bro?

696
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:23,480
Speaker 1: Are you serious? Leah, I don't think that. But do

697
00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:26,520
Speaker 1: you fuck in the butt? No? I have, But it's

698
00:38:26,520 --> 00:38:28,319
Speaker 1: not like my favorite Okay, but here's the thing. Right,

699
00:38:28,600 --> 00:38:30,880
Speaker 1: if a guy plus the tip in, he's telling everyone

700
00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:33,560
Speaker 1: he sucked the tipica, I'll tell you, but that's but

701
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:35,680
Speaker 1: it's not. But I the thing is I don't think

702
00:38:35,719 --> 00:38:38,520
Speaker 1: you can really take credit and be like I had

703
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:41,759
Speaker 1: anal sex because it was just a tip. So if

704
00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:44,640
Speaker 1: you have, if you're like like being like, yeah, let

705
00:38:44,719 --> 00:38:46,520
Speaker 1: this guy suck my ass last night, you didn't, that's

706
00:38:46,560 --> 00:38:48,239
Speaker 1: not true because it was just the tip. So I

707
00:38:48,480 --> 00:38:50,239
Speaker 1: was so excited to come back and like share on

708
00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:51,680
Speaker 1: the podcast and I got it. Came back from Italy

709
00:38:51,719 --> 00:38:53,840
Speaker 1: and he sucked me in the ass. No, it was

710
00:38:54,080 --> 00:38:56,719
Speaker 1: just the tip. I'm sorry. I wanted like full the

711
00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:59,000
Speaker 1: way that like my pussy gets sucked, not saying I'm

712
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:00,560
Speaker 1: proud of it, but like I could take a dick.

713
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:07,000
Speaker 1: It was not that is, yeah, I mean the same thing, like,

714
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:10,680
Speaker 1: well I just go for it. My my assholedn't turn

715
00:39:10,760 --> 00:39:14,000
Speaker 1: into a whole bussy before, Okay, Like I had it

716
00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:16,400
Speaker 1: banged out like it's my pussy and I loved it.

717
00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:22,480
Speaker 1: Really every bit you comes right out. First off, it

718
00:39:22,560 --> 00:39:25,399
Speaker 1: comes right ouf. The next day, I don't gotta push

719
00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:28,120
Speaker 1: on nothing. That ship just fall into the toilet. But

720
00:39:28,360 --> 00:39:31,480
Speaker 1: it's okay, about twenty four hours it sucks right back

721
00:39:31,560 --> 00:39:34,200
Speaker 1: up and now my buddhahole bent normal. You know what

722
00:39:34,280 --> 00:39:36,239
Speaker 1: I want to talk about? How only do an know

723
00:39:36,280 --> 00:39:40,440
Speaker 1: sex once a quarter, like once every few months, every

724
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:45,040
Speaker 1: time it's giving taxes. I want to jump a little

725
00:39:45,080 --> 00:39:47,759
Speaker 1: bit into because like you're so down to talk about

726
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:50,920
Speaker 1: sex and everything like that, and um, I've become a

727
00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:53,320
Speaker 1: fan of your kid from your Instagram because she's adorable.

728
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:56,279
Speaker 1: What's it like talking about sex with your daughter and

729
00:39:56,719 --> 00:40:01,160
Speaker 1: like prep her for like what she's about to show? Well, Kiki,

730
00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:03,920
Speaker 1: you know what. I've been so open with her and

731
00:40:04,120 --> 00:40:08,120
Speaker 1: like that. She doesn't. But the thing is she doesn't

732
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:10,520
Speaker 1: like if we're watching a movie and it's like to

733
00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:13,640
Speaker 1: like much sex stuff, we're like like we like are

734
00:40:13,719 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 1: like no, She's like, mom, turned the shut off, you know.

735
00:40:16,280 --> 00:40:18,400
Speaker 1: So she doesn't want to like watch sex something. Because

736
00:40:18,400 --> 00:40:21,600
Speaker 1: I was like, let's watch maybe four you together because

737
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:23,080
Speaker 1: I was scared to watch it. She's like, I'm not

738
00:40:23,200 --> 00:40:25,520
Speaker 1: watching that. That's a lot of drugs in that. I know.

739
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:27,480
Speaker 1: That's why I can't because I think I'm gonna get triggered.

740
00:40:27,560 --> 00:40:29,200
Speaker 1: But I'm always like looking for things to do with

741
00:40:29,239 --> 00:40:31,239
Speaker 1: it because she's a teenager, so I'm like trying to

742
00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:38,040
Speaker 1: figure out, Like but she's like the chilliest mostly grounded,

743
00:40:38,680 --> 00:40:42,239
Speaker 1: like down to earth, like cool, funny kid I'm not

744
00:40:42,320 --> 00:40:45,120
Speaker 1: just saying that because she's mine and she's beautiful, she's hurt,

745
00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:48,640
Speaker 1: she's really she's perfect. She honestly is um what should

746
00:40:48,680 --> 00:40:51,000
Speaker 1: she do this wrong? Can she come home and tell

747
00:40:51,080 --> 00:40:52,920
Speaker 1: you that she had sex and you freak out? Like

748
00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:56,160
Speaker 1: what I mean, I'm freak out if she had sex? Yeah?

749
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:00,120
Speaker 1: Especially yeah, because I know because I know her. She

750
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:03,960
Speaker 1: hasn't even had her first kiss yet. I lied to

751
00:41:04,080 --> 00:41:09,160
Speaker 1: my mom really about like and no kids, really, are

752
00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:15,120
Speaker 1: you sure? I mean, she said she hasn't. I I

753
00:41:15,239 --> 00:41:17,960
Speaker 1: know you're cool. I don't know. I believe that. I

754
00:41:18,040 --> 00:41:20,560
Speaker 1: don't know. You know what, You're a cool mom until

755
00:41:20,680 --> 00:41:24,560
Speaker 1: you're my mom exactly. Everybody told my mom everything. People

756
00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:26,560
Speaker 1: asked my mom how to get a fucking abortion. Let's

757
00:41:26,560 --> 00:41:28,839
Speaker 1: be fair. Your gave us condoms going to the club,

758
00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:31,399
Speaker 1: and you would talk to my mom, I would talk.

759
00:41:31,440 --> 00:41:34,640
Speaker 1: I could not talk to my mom. But I mean

760
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:38,600
Speaker 1: she's still maybe she's look I mean, I I my

761
00:41:38,760 --> 00:41:41,640
Speaker 1: daughter is very open with me, and there's other things

762
00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:44,359
Speaker 1: that she's been open about. So I feel like if

763
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:46,200
Speaker 1: she had her first kiss, she tell me, I think

764
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:49,080
Speaker 1: she wants to, like I want to know as a mother,

765
00:41:49,239 --> 00:41:52,440
Speaker 1: like right when you become a mom, you try to

766
00:41:52,520 --> 00:41:55,080
Speaker 1: make sure that your daughter, your children don't make the

767
00:41:55,120 --> 00:41:58,320
Speaker 1: same mistakes you did. Do you feel like you're extra strict,

768
00:41:58,760 --> 00:42:01,600
Speaker 1: specifically maybe letting her go out? Like me hearing you

769
00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:04,120
Speaker 1: explain what it was like to be a teenager in

770
00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:08,560
Speaker 1: New York City, like the freedom was like, oh my god,

771
00:42:08,760 --> 00:42:11,680
Speaker 1: this is way scarier than growing up in the South

772
00:42:11,800 --> 00:42:15,200
Speaker 1: where there's no form of public transportation. Is there anything

773
00:42:15,320 --> 00:42:17,320
Speaker 1: now that you feel like you're super strict on so

774
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:20,400
Speaker 1: that she doesn't experience of the same time? You pretty strict,

775
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:23,560
Speaker 1: like she has to stay on honor role. Yeah, pretty

776
00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:27,239
Speaker 1: pretty like strict about like her grades, Like I like

777
00:42:27,360 --> 00:42:29,800
Speaker 1: she needs, but but I'm pretty lenient. She has like

778
00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:32,520
Speaker 1: a late curfew. I let her. She's like going to

779
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:35,720
Speaker 1: Coney Island today, like on the train and I mean whatever,

780
00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:38,719
Speaker 1: like theme park. I know it's not, but you know

781
00:42:38,920 --> 00:42:43,080
Speaker 1: it's it's still a little like so little like rough

782
00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:47,920
Speaker 1: out there is your life. You take one wrong turn

783
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:51,080
Speaker 1: and you're like, where am I know? I can imagine

784
00:42:51,320 --> 00:42:53,759
Speaker 1: how like I feel like you become a parent and

785
00:42:53,800 --> 00:42:56,200
Speaker 1: you literally all you do is worry because having a

786
00:42:56,280 --> 00:42:58,160
Speaker 1: kid be on the subway, like I would freak out

787
00:42:58,200 --> 00:43:00,640
Speaker 1: every funky. She takes the subway every day to school,

788
00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:03,000
Speaker 1: and like people, you read the horror stories every day

789
00:43:03,040 --> 00:43:05,520
Speaker 1: about what happens on the train. So every day I'm

790
00:43:05,600 --> 00:43:09,520
Speaker 1: like tex Uni at the school, be careful on the train,

791
00:43:09,760 --> 00:43:11,560
Speaker 1: you know, I say, all that ship, but I do

792
00:43:11,840 --> 00:43:14,560
Speaker 1: trust her. And also like if I try to like

793
00:43:15,120 --> 00:43:17,759
Speaker 1: keep her in, like I'm afraid she'll just want to

794
00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:24,520
Speaker 1: like go crazy, she'll become technically no, I mean, like

795
00:43:25,120 --> 00:43:27,319
Speaker 1: I think, like I'm making a joke, but no, lie,

796
00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:30,480
Speaker 1: Like I think the freedom our parents gave us really

797
00:43:30,640 --> 00:43:33,120
Speaker 1: was why like, yeah, we both only had one abortion.

798
00:43:33,239 --> 00:43:35,920
Speaker 1: I think that that's great. I was going to sorry,

799
00:43:37,600 --> 00:43:39,560
Speaker 1: that is impressive. I think I was going to bring

800
00:43:39,640 --> 00:43:41,400
Speaker 1: up the abortion. But the reason I was going to

801
00:43:41,440 --> 00:43:43,400
Speaker 1: bring it up was because of how it happened, right,

802
00:43:43,520 --> 00:43:45,920
Speaker 1: Like I was not scared to tell my mom how

803
00:43:46,000 --> 00:43:48,440
Speaker 1: old were you? Um, oh my god. It was like

804
00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:52,160
Speaker 1: the last day of high school eighteen and the summer

805
00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:58,400
Speaker 1: going into the summer going into junior. If you have

806
00:43:58,480 --> 00:44:00,279
Speaker 1: a scenario like that, like some of my ends when

807
00:44:00,280 --> 00:44:02,040
Speaker 1: they would come to their mother, like my mom, like

808
00:44:02,800 --> 00:44:04,080
Speaker 1: what do you you know what I'm saying, like, what

809
00:44:04,160 --> 00:44:05,719
Speaker 1: do you do when you can't tell your mom and

810
00:44:05,760 --> 00:44:08,680
Speaker 1: you're sneaking around and you're doing something unsafe. It's like, yeah,

811
00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:10,560
Speaker 1: it's not a good feeling. You want to be comforted.

812
00:44:10,640 --> 00:44:13,160
Speaker 1: And my mom never made me feel bad about it,

813
00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:16,120
Speaker 1: which is a really good thing. Yeah, just like you shouldn't.

814
00:44:16,120 --> 00:44:18,200
Speaker 1: When Ki tells you she gave the boy is say no,

815
00:44:18,760 --> 00:44:21,279
Speaker 1: I will not. I'll be happy. I'll be like some

816
00:44:21,480 --> 00:44:30,400
Speaker 1: show me a picture. You better be high. All right,

817
00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:34,160
Speaker 1: let's get into chaos theory. Um. We talked a little

818
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:37,080
Speaker 1: bit um about the wild past that you had with

819
00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:39,680
Speaker 1: all the drugs that we're gonna skip that. Um. However,

820
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:42,120
Speaker 1: I didn't want to talk about um. In your book,

821
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:45,239
Speaker 1: you really get into mental health. Um, you get into

822
00:44:45,560 --> 00:44:49,800
Speaker 1: a diagnosis of bipolar too. But then even towards the

823
00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:52,160
Speaker 1: end of that chapter or the end of that journey,

824
00:44:52,600 --> 00:44:55,560
Speaker 1: you discuss how you feel as though they just gave

825
00:44:55,600 --> 00:44:58,160
Speaker 1: you all these drugs, and really you went through what

826
00:44:58,239 --> 00:44:59,960
Speaker 1: a lot of people go through. You you went through

827
00:45:00,640 --> 00:45:02,919
Speaker 1: just not knowing how to maybe cope or not knowing

828
00:45:02,960 --> 00:45:05,480
Speaker 1: how to tell people your feelings. And I think that

829
00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:09,120
Speaker 1: in our community specifically, so many people fear a diagnosis

830
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:11,800
Speaker 1: or feel like something is wrong with them. Um. But

831
00:45:12,239 --> 00:45:14,800
Speaker 1: something that we has brought up in her going to

832
00:45:14,880 --> 00:45:18,719
Speaker 1: therapy and her journey recently wass with depression was the

833
00:45:18,840 --> 00:45:22,040
Speaker 1: use of lexipro would you bring up as well regarding

834
00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:26,160
Speaker 1: the withdrawal of it causing hyper sexuality but while being

835
00:45:26,320 --> 00:45:28,880
Speaker 1: on it you said it pretty much gave you a

836
00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:32,319
Speaker 1: dry spell. Yeah, I mean SSR eyes do that. They

837
00:45:32,440 --> 00:45:38,839
Speaker 1: just like serotone and like up inhibitors whatever re upstake inhibitors. Um.

838
00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:42,399
Speaker 1: But yeah, but I still but there were they were

839
00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:44,920
Speaker 1: like I was on lexeprob for so many years, and

840
00:45:45,080 --> 00:45:48,239
Speaker 1: like there were times that I was horny as fuck

841
00:45:48,360 --> 00:45:51,800
Speaker 1: on lexi pro so, but I couldn't come on it.

842
00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 1: It's but that's the thing. It's really hard to like happen. Also,

843
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:57,279
Speaker 1: you would just want to You would still would You

844
00:45:57,320 --> 00:45:59,520
Speaker 1: still wanted to funk, right, You just couldn't come. It

845
00:45:59,600 --> 00:46:02,240
Speaker 1: was so so when I went to the mental hospital

846
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:04,719
Speaker 1: and I talked about they took me off everything they

847
00:46:05,080 --> 00:46:10,480
Speaker 1: tell me about the mental hospital, um people talking about

848
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:12,640
Speaker 1: in the book. Oh my god. Yeah. And it was

849
00:46:12,760 --> 00:46:15,000
Speaker 1: like not like it wasn't like like a you know,

850
00:46:15,280 --> 00:46:18,480
Speaker 1: chic like oh you went for being repool No, I

851
00:46:18,560 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 1: went for depression. Like I went because my boyfriend at

852
00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:24,480
Speaker 1: the time went crazy in Italy and had a relapse

853
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:26,120
Speaker 1: and I had to come home from Italy by myself

854
00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:27,600
Speaker 1: and he had thrown something at me and that he

855
00:46:27,680 --> 00:46:29,319
Speaker 1: was gonna kill me, and I was like freaked out

856
00:46:29,360 --> 00:46:31,640
Speaker 1: and I was just so depressed. So it was at

857
00:46:31,640 --> 00:46:33,680
Speaker 1: this mental hospital. It was the best thing I ever did,

858
00:46:33,840 --> 00:46:39,640
Speaker 1: because that's when I just I realized that like exactly, yeah,

859
00:46:39,920 --> 00:46:41,919
Speaker 1: Like I'm like, okay, there's people here who can't tell

860
00:46:42,000 --> 00:46:46,600
Speaker 1: reality from like delusion and a lot of my own issues.

861
00:46:46,719 --> 00:46:49,359
Speaker 1: Of course, yes, I have depression, anxiety and some bad

862
00:46:49,480 --> 00:46:53,200
Speaker 1: coping skills and whatever. Like my I'm a little extra

863
00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:58,320
Speaker 1: and dramatic and manic sometimes whatever. But a lot of situations,

864
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,080
Speaker 1: it's me putting myself in functive situations that then made

865
00:47:01,120 --> 00:47:04,120
Speaker 1: me depressed her anxious and like dating the top TALKXIC guy,

866
00:47:04,239 --> 00:47:06,040
Speaker 1: I'm like, wow, I could just not date the talks

867
00:47:06,080 --> 00:47:08,440
Speaker 1: a guy. I won't end up in the mental hospital

868
00:47:08,560 --> 00:47:10,040
Speaker 1: or were the people like can there tell us about

869
00:47:10,040 --> 00:47:12,200
Speaker 1: like a crazy story? Um? So there was a girl

870
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:14,759
Speaker 1: who was next to me this like she was like

871
00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:18,640
Speaker 1: an orthodox Jewish girl and like she remember waking up.

872
00:47:18,760 --> 00:47:21,040
Speaker 1: She was the next few roommates. No no, no, I

873
00:47:21,120 --> 00:47:22,880
Speaker 1: had a private room. She was next. She was in

874
00:47:23,000 --> 00:47:25,080
Speaker 1: the room next to me. She was. I woke up

875
00:47:25,120 --> 00:47:28,600
Speaker 1: to the scream that was the most It was the

876
00:47:28,680 --> 00:47:31,239
Speaker 1: scream as if someone's like newborn baby, like died in

877
00:47:31,320 --> 00:47:32,680
Speaker 1: front of them or something like. It was like the

878
00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:36,200
Speaker 1: most tragic dark like it came from like her, the

879
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:39,080
Speaker 1: deep inside her soul, like I felt it, and I

880
00:47:39,239 --> 00:47:41,160
Speaker 1: like woke up and looked in her room, and then

881
00:47:41,200 --> 00:47:43,160
Speaker 1: they were like holding her down and they gave her something,

882
00:47:43,280 --> 00:47:45,239
Speaker 1: you know, like they gave her a shot. And then

883
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:48,759
Speaker 1: she came out later and was like hi, everybody, and

884
00:47:48,880 --> 00:47:50,520
Speaker 1: she was like talking to me about something you know

885
00:47:50,640 --> 00:47:52,600
Speaker 1: that was. And then there was a mate, this amazing

886
00:47:52,640 --> 00:47:57,200
Speaker 1: guy who liked me, and we sung show tunes together

887
00:47:57,400 --> 00:48:00,160
Speaker 1: and he was so sweet, but he was so eat

888
00:48:00,200 --> 00:48:02,920
Speaker 1: until he took a ship in his bed because he

889
00:48:03,040 --> 00:48:05,359
Speaker 1: wanted to funk with the people that worked there because

890
00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 1: he was mad at them. And then there was this

891
00:48:07,239 --> 00:48:09,160
Speaker 1: other girl who was like going into people's rooms and

892
00:48:09,200 --> 00:48:11,080
Speaker 1: putting clothes on and she couldn't fit into any of it,

893
00:48:11,400 --> 00:48:13,920
Speaker 1: and she was walking around like where are my cigarettes?

894
00:48:14,040 --> 00:48:16,360
Speaker 1: And like the guy was like following her and me

895
00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:18,040
Speaker 1: and my mom were like trying not to laugh because

896
00:48:18,080 --> 00:48:19,520
Speaker 1: my mom was like visiting me. She had like something

897
00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:22,600
Speaker 1: tied around her head and her like actual stomach was

898
00:48:22,640 --> 00:48:24,360
Speaker 1: like hanging out a little crop top, and she was

899
00:48:24,440 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 1: just like where are my cigarettes? Like walking around was like,

900
00:48:27,440 --> 00:48:29,839
Speaker 1: you said you saw this at a mental hospital, which

901
00:48:29,920 --> 00:48:34,200
Speaker 1: is crazy because it's giving hamper heard. I mean, wait,

902
00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:41,759
Speaker 1: maybe I'm just soa She literally also set on the sand.

903
00:48:41,800 --> 00:48:43,080
Speaker 1: It was a joke, and now I know it was

904
00:48:43,120 --> 00:48:47,400
Speaker 1: a joke made in portaste the fact that like, I'm sorry,

905
00:48:47,440 --> 00:48:49,840
Speaker 1: but if you are like able to do that, you

906
00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:52,520
Speaker 1: need serious help, like if you can take a ship

907
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:54,960
Speaker 1: and like something that's not a toilet, like you have

908
00:48:55,120 --> 00:48:59,800
Speaker 1: like a major Depp side of the bed, like literally,

909
00:49:00,280 --> 00:49:02,640
Speaker 1: and I saw the photo, I was rewatching girls and

910
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,320
Speaker 1: fucking That's why I brought it up earlier, justesse it

911
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:08,040
Speaker 1: was like, oh, you've never taken a ship anywhere but

912
00:49:08,160 --> 00:49:11,920
Speaker 1: a toilet, and everybody's like, no, bro. I had to

913
00:49:11,960 --> 00:49:14,840
Speaker 1: take a ship in the woods once and it was terrible.

914
00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:18,560
Speaker 1: It was terrible. It was at that same fucking a

915
00:49:18,560 --> 00:49:23,919
Speaker 1: Cademy festival. God my god, can I tell y'all. First

916
00:49:23,960 --> 00:49:28,399
Speaker 1: of all, that's honest, I don't know what the funk

917
00:49:28,440 --> 00:49:29,840
Speaker 1: her and I were thinking. I think we went to

918
00:49:29,960 --> 00:49:32,440
Speaker 1: mry Land Three's homes and Dub and I would go,

919
00:49:32,680 --> 00:49:36,120
Speaker 1: were you on k and shitting? No? Okay? Because know,

920
00:49:36,320 --> 00:49:37,759
Speaker 1: like when you're on drugs and you have to ship,

921
00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:41,840
Speaker 1: it's like the worst thing. Like just like being on

922
00:49:42,040 --> 00:49:44,040
Speaker 1: drugs and then you have to your stomach is like

923
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:47,920
Speaker 1: getting excited. It's like it's almost like, I mean, it's

924
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:50,200
Speaker 1: like you just can't. I'm not sure what a drug

925
00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: shit is? Are you serious? Man? You never had a

926
00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:56,040
Speaker 1: Molly shit? Molly, I stay awake in our fuck and

927
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:58,040
Speaker 1: I fucking have to stuck on a lotipot because all

928
00:49:58,040 --> 00:49:59,520
Speaker 1: I want to do is grab my teeth, I know,

929
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:01,839
Speaker 1: because of the drought, Like have you ever done coke?

930
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:04,600
Speaker 1: With her? And then I was like brought in filling me.

931
00:50:06,440 --> 00:50:08,759
Speaker 1: She was the only one that made me try, and

932
00:50:09,120 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 1: first though, I didn't make you try? Right, So the

933
00:50:12,719 --> 00:50:15,040
Speaker 1: whole time I'm on this card with her, I mean

934
00:50:15,120 --> 00:50:19,680
Speaker 1: not really. I'm a fun one. I'm a social first

935
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:23,880
Speaker 1: of all, I just like lick her a lot. So

936
00:50:24,160 --> 00:50:27,000
Speaker 1: first off, Mandy is acting like she felt nothing of bitch,

937
00:50:27,080 --> 00:50:32,279
Speaker 1: I didn't. You just didn't have this. And this is

938
00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:34,480
Speaker 1: how I know I wasn't high because when I'm in

939
00:50:34,560 --> 00:50:36,960
Speaker 1: New York and this bitch likes the posh places, which

940
00:50:36,960 --> 00:50:39,320
Speaker 1: I'm paying twenty dollars for my Martiniz, why do you

941
00:50:39,360 --> 00:50:41,520
Speaker 1: want to keep bouncing around? I didn't finish my drink first,

942
00:50:41,560 --> 00:50:43,719
Speaker 1: and it was twenty dollars and I'm broke right now, bitch.

943
00:50:43,880 --> 00:50:45,400
Speaker 1: So it started being every time I hung out with

944
00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:47,640
Speaker 1: the bitch, I'm spending a hundred dollars. Were in all

945
00:50:47,719 --> 00:50:50,200
Speaker 1: places where there's two white men, I mean two black men,

946
00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:52,640
Speaker 1: the only like white women? Why are we here? I'm spending?

947
00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:56,400
Speaker 1: It was? But ye know, I'm like, where are what

948
00:50:56,719 --> 00:51:01,440
Speaker 1: you mean? Got it? Okay? Giving that? And I'm just

949
00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:05,759
Speaker 1: like maybe, but also I'm just like I'm spending all

950
00:51:05,800 --> 00:51:07,759
Speaker 1: my own money. And then she told me how much

951
00:51:07,800 --> 00:51:13,720
Speaker 1: that ship calls. I said, I'm not that's was she doing? Okay,

952
00:51:13,880 --> 00:51:15,680
Speaker 1: you didn't I don't think you kept asking for more

953
00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:21,719
Speaker 1: because I didn't feel it. You held it. Yeah, I

954
00:51:21,800 --> 00:51:24,319
Speaker 1: didn't feel like maybe he's like anything. Do another one?

955
00:51:24,560 --> 00:51:29,000
Speaker 1: Definitely trying to feel something and did it. But maybe

956
00:51:29,040 --> 00:51:31,919
Speaker 1: because that's the upper liquor the downer. Maybe you didn't

957
00:51:31,960 --> 00:51:34,120
Speaker 1: have a reaction like you think that coke was gonna

958
00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:35,879
Speaker 1: give you that you're gonna be like super I think

959
00:51:35,920 --> 00:51:37,560
Speaker 1: you thought you were gonna be like hold on, I

960
00:51:37,640 --> 00:51:39,839
Speaker 1: know I never did it again, and it's Wheezy's fault.

961
00:51:39,880 --> 00:51:44,400
Speaker 1: Maybe she has to trash coke. I don't think. Okay,

962
00:51:45,640 --> 00:51:47,520
Speaker 1: I want to go to the bathroom to pee, and

963
00:51:47,600 --> 00:51:49,600
Speaker 1: she came right behind me like I'm gonna do another one.

964
00:51:54,440 --> 00:51:58,359
Speaker 1: I paid for it. I was go keep up spirit o. UM,

965
00:51:59,080 --> 00:52:01,560
Speaker 1: get into before we get out of here, a little

966
00:52:01,600 --> 00:52:05,319
Speaker 1: bit of dating um, because we did talk about your

967
00:52:05,360 --> 00:52:09,600
Speaker 1: sex positivity backlash Housewives already. But what we have two

968
00:52:09,680 --> 00:52:13,640
Speaker 1: yes girl, no? No, no, okay okay, So relationship wise, um,

969
00:52:13,719 --> 00:52:15,160
Speaker 1: first off, I want to start off in the dating

970
00:52:15,160 --> 00:52:17,759
Speaker 1: phase before I get into your actual relationship. And I'm

971
00:52:17,840 --> 00:52:19,759
Speaker 1: gonna ask you the same thing as well. So we

972
00:52:19,840 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 1: have like this debate regarding sexuality and how much to

973
00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:25,480
Speaker 1: share on a first date. I want to know in

974
00:52:25,719 --> 00:52:29,279
Speaker 1: terms of your mental state, if that you if that's

975
00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:31,480
Speaker 1: something that either of y'all feel that you have to

976
00:52:31,520 --> 00:52:34,399
Speaker 1: share with your new partners when you're dating, how soon.

977
00:52:34,480 --> 00:52:38,000
Speaker 1: Do you tell someone whether it's the diagnosis or that

978
00:52:38,080 --> 00:52:40,719
Speaker 1: you're depressed or anxiety or if you're on any sort

979
00:52:40,760 --> 00:52:44,600
Speaker 1: of medication. Do you tell the people you're dating? Uh? Yeah,

980
00:52:45,160 --> 00:52:48,520
Speaker 1: how soon? Like I'm pretty upfront because I have to

981
00:52:48,600 --> 00:52:51,920
Speaker 1: be like because it's such a part of like I'm suppressed, right,

982
00:52:54,719 --> 00:52:57,200
Speaker 1: but like I have to be honest without because it's

983
00:52:57,239 --> 00:52:59,080
Speaker 1: just something I have to that I deal with, you know,

984
00:53:00,000 --> 00:53:04,120
Speaker 1: and also like, yeah, he's gonna have to really understand

985
00:53:04,280 --> 00:53:05,920
Speaker 1: and I need to know if like he's crazy too,

986
00:53:05,920 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: because I can't deal with the depressed another depressed person.

987
00:53:08,640 --> 00:53:12,719
Speaker 1: I need someone to not be like for me, I've

988
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:15,000
Speaker 1: never really been in the dating pool all the way

989
00:53:15,040 --> 00:53:17,480
Speaker 1: through while being super depressed. I had a part, like

990
00:53:17,520 --> 00:53:20,200
Speaker 1: had a boyfriend while I was depressed, and I mean

991
00:53:20,239 --> 00:53:21,719
Speaker 1: he was a few of them things you had a

992
00:53:21,760 --> 00:53:24,920
Speaker 1: few boyfriends, That's probably what he was depressed. I'll be

993
00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:26,800
Speaker 1: depressed dealing with one thing, and I was dealing with

994
00:53:26,960 --> 00:53:29,960
Speaker 1: like three that would be depressed, you know what I mean.

995
00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:32,919
Speaker 1: I think the depression also probably was like, oh, I'm

996
00:53:32,960 --> 00:53:35,479
Speaker 1: not finding it in one person that could like maybe

997
00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:38,360
Speaker 1: amplified it, but no, mine was like totally like manic

998
00:53:38,480 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 1: like irrational depression, very like oh my god, like what

999
00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:45,880
Speaker 1: if my parents die? Like crazy dump? Yeah, oh my god. No,

1000
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 1: that's something that's like serious like brain ship where you're

1001
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:51,359
Speaker 1: just having We're also like that's what I was dealing

1002
00:53:51,400 --> 00:53:53,800
Speaker 1: with recently, was like intrusive thoughts. And I was like,

1003
00:53:53,920 --> 00:53:55,440
Speaker 1: heard you in your book. That's why I was like,

1004
00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:58,000
Speaker 1: you had what type of crazy fears? Yeah? And the

1005
00:53:58,160 --> 00:54:00,000
Speaker 1: thing is death is real, you know what I'm saying.

1006
00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 1: And so it's like I think we're all like scared

1007
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:04,759
Speaker 1: for that moment and scared to, you know, for it

1008
00:54:04,840 --> 00:54:08,719
Speaker 1: to happen. But it's like I and even instead of

1009
00:54:08,880 --> 00:54:11,680
Speaker 1: enjoying my parents, I'll just like keep thinking the worst thing.

1010
00:54:11,800 --> 00:54:13,520
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm not gonna lie. That's where I'm at now.

1011
00:54:13,640 --> 00:54:17,560
Speaker 1: Even in therapy. Um, I don't have a relationship at

1012
00:54:17,600 --> 00:54:19,480
Speaker 1: all really with my dad. But he went to the

1013
00:54:19,560 --> 00:54:22,440
Speaker 1: hospital two weeks ago, and literally every time I just

1014
00:54:22,560 --> 00:54:24,080
Speaker 1: even talked about him, like my eyes the water. So

1015
00:54:24,160 --> 00:54:26,000
Speaker 1: I was in therapy and I'm like, I have to

1016
00:54:26,040 --> 00:54:27,520
Speaker 1: see him. I talked to him, we have to get

1017
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:30,239
Speaker 1: through this because I would hate if he's no longer here.

1018
00:54:30,280 --> 00:54:33,680
Speaker 1: And we just never talked That's literally where I'm at

1019
00:54:33,840 --> 00:54:36,719
Speaker 1: in therapy is that thought. And it's not even that

1020
00:54:36,840 --> 00:54:41,080
Speaker 1: it comes from me being depressed. It's me having some

1021
00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:44,399
Speaker 1: sort of regret for what our relationship is. And when

1022
00:54:44,440 --> 00:54:46,719
Speaker 1: my mom told me that all of these feelings just

1023
00:54:46,960 --> 00:54:49,440
Speaker 1: came flooding, Well, I want to get into outside of that,

1024
00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:55,640
Speaker 1: Outside of the dating, you actually had someone who dealt

1025
00:54:55,719 --> 00:54:57,960
Speaker 1: with a lot of your depression. You guys were together

1026
00:54:58,040 --> 00:55:01,319
Speaker 1: for six years, um and then in your you went

1027
00:55:01,400 --> 00:55:04,640
Speaker 1: and got sober and went back to him because you

1028
00:55:04,719 --> 00:55:06,760
Speaker 1: were like, now that I'm sober, let's try this again.

1029
00:55:07,120 --> 00:55:10,680
Speaker 1: But it didn't really work, but you decided to remain friends.

1030
00:55:11,400 --> 00:55:13,879
Speaker 1: How do you get there? How do you get there

1031
00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:17,680
Speaker 1: to where even your partners while you're dating, are okay

1032
00:55:17,760 --> 00:55:21,040
Speaker 1: with this cool ass friendship relationship with your baby dad.

1033
00:55:21,120 --> 00:55:23,759
Speaker 1: I don't know, Yeah, I know. So I had I

1034
00:55:24,160 --> 00:55:26,040
Speaker 1: was dating a guy who was like so not okay

1035
00:55:26,120 --> 00:55:28,840
Speaker 1: with it, and we were like we were on vacation,

1036
00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:31,120
Speaker 1: and I mean I was over him, you know, I

1037
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:32,920
Speaker 1: just wanted to use him for this vacation and I

1038
00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:34,480
Speaker 1: was going to break up with him, to be honest,

1039
00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:37,480
Speaker 1: and I was like not really sucking him on the trip.

1040
00:55:39,680 --> 00:55:41,680
Speaker 1: I Actually he was so ugly it was crazy. I

1041
00:55:41,719 --> 00:55:43,120
Speaker 1: had to put like a pillow over my head to

1042
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:46,320
Speaker 1: like hide my like I didn't want Why don't you

1043
00:55:46,320 --> 00:55:48,200
Speaker 1: just fantasize about someone else? I do that all the time.

1044
00:55:48,600 --> 00:55:50,399
Speaker 1: I just needed to put the pillow over my head.

1045
00:55:50,400 --> 00:55:53,360
Speaker 1: Then it was really like he wasn't there. Um but

1046
00:55:53,520 --> 00:55:56,200
Speaker 1: like what I call I was texting with Rob while

1047
00:55:56,239 --> 00:55:58,560
Speaker 1: I'm on the vacation and he was like, you're texting

1048
00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:01,239
Speaker 1: with your baby dad like ex, like while we're on

1049
00:56:01,320 --> 00:56:04,480
Speaker 1: this fucking vacation. And I was like, yeah, I am.

1050
00:56:05,600 --> 00:56:10,000
Speaker 1: So you also reference Rob as your soul mate before

1051
00:56:10,080 --> 00:56:12,759
Speaker 1: we get into that, because clearly now I know I would.

1052
00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:14,920
Speaker 1: I don't know, really now how I would feel away

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00:56:15,000 --> 00:56:18,120
Speaker 1: about someone expressing to me that their soul mate is

1054
00:56:18,120 --> 00:56:22,920
Speaker 1: actually their ex. Also in the picture you multiple soul mates?

1055
00:56:23,000 --> 00:56:27,239
Speaker 1: What a soul mate is someone who's who's come into

1056
00:56:27,320 --> 00:56:30,040
Speaker 1: your life in like such a deep way and you

1057
00:56:30,160 --> 00:56:33,879
Speaker 1: know is sent there from God without a doubt. Oh

1058
00:56:34,719 --> 00:56:40,440
Speaker 1: have you met a soul multiple? Uh? I think I've

1059
00:56:40,480 --> 00:56:44,359
Speaker 1: had too. I'd say one was the guy that left

1060
00:56:44,400 --> 00:56:48,359
Speaker 1: me for Jesus. Yes, well, I was super in love

1061
00:56:48,440 --> 00:56:51,719
Speaker 1: with him. Ship we're sucking tattooed together right, like I've

1062
00:56:51,800 --> 00:56:56,719
Speaker 1: never experienced and intense love like that. And also he's bipolar, um,

1063
00:56:56,800 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 1: and he's dealt with some mental health issues, like even

1064
00:56:59,560 --> 00:57:02,400
Speaker 1: more recently, like people have told me things that happened

1065
00:57:02,400 --> 00:57:03,880
Speaker 1: I'll tell you when we're off then because they were

1066
00:57:03,880 --> 00:57:08,120
Speaker 1: super intense. But no, I don't think that his his

1067
00:57:08,200 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 1: mental issues could allow him to be with me in

1068
00:57:10,640 --> 00:57:14,160
Speaker 1: a healthy way anymore. And also like when you need

1069
00:57:14,280 --> 00:57:16,720
Speaker 1: someone to stay straight, I went to Europe for two

1070
00:57:16,720 --> 00:57:19,960
Speaker 1: weeks with Vinnie just to fucking raven party and when

1071
00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:21,760
Speaker 1: I came back, he was up and down, and it's

1072
00:57:21,760 --> 00:57:24,360
Speaker 1: like it's very hard when you're someone's I'm trying to

1073
00:57:24,400 --> 00:57:28,000
Speaker 1: find the word, uh, your onlyer only support system, I guess.

1074
00:57:28,440 --> 00:57:30,400
Speaker 1: But um No, he was definitely a soul mate. He

1075
00:57:30,480 --> 00:57:33,120
Speaker 1: taught me what love is, to be intensely loved, to

1076
00:57:33,240 --> 00:57:36,160
Speaker 1: be happy, um. And I also don't think there's anything

1077
00:57:36,240 --> 00:57:39,280
Speaker 1: wrong with it being over, Like I think that we

1078
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:42,720
Speaker 1: always think that soul mate means forever, and I don't

1079
00:57:42,720 --> 00:57:45,000
Speaker 1: think it does. It doesn't. And that was I was

1080
00:57:45,080 --> 00:57:47,400
Speaker 1: holding onto that, Like, once I got sober, I was like,

1081
00:57:48,000 --> 00:57:49,840
Speaker 1: why do I you know we have why can't we

1082
00:57:49,880 --> 00:57:51,640
Speaker 1: make it work? And I'm like okay, once I let

1083
00:57:51,680 --> 00:57:53,720
Speaker 1: go of that and was like we this is this.

1084
00:57:53,880 --> 00:57:57,440
Speaker 1: It is working. You literally like broken down so beautifully

1085
00:57:57,480 --> 00:58:01,760
Speaker 1: too in your book and again like you literally are

1086
00:58:01,920 --> 00:58:04,440
Speaker 1: on this journey with you because it's it's giving this

1087
00:58:04,720 --> 00:58:06,920
Speaker 1: the whole time when you got into talk. That's how

1088
00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:09,000
Speaker 1: I feel all the time, Like how the book is it?

1089
00:58:09,120 --> 00:58:11,520
Speaker 1: Is it? Your biography? Is it self help with a memoir?

1090
00:58:11,960 --> 00:58:14,640
Speaker 1: But there's some like little prescriptive like I don't I

1091
00:58:14,840 --> 00:58:16,840
Speaker 1: think self help should is like so like I could

1092
00:58:16,880 --> 00:58:19,000
Speaker 1: never tell people and be like do it. You know,

1093
00:58:19,120 --> 00:58:21,560
Speaker 1: here's ten ways to make your life better, like you

1094
00:58:21,640 --> 00:58:24,360
Speaker 1: know like that, like I'm so fucked up still, Like

1095
00:58:24,520 --> 00:58:27,440
Speaker 1: what can I tell people? You literally say, you say

1096
00:58:27,520 --> 00:58:32,919
Speaker 1: note to readers, don't take advice from depressive man, Like yeah, yeah,

1097
00:58:33,360 --> 00:58:35,480
Speaker 1: like I'm just here telling you about my life. Yeah,

1098
00:58:35,760 --> 00:58:39,240
Speaker 1: it's it's great, like so chaos theory it's out now.

1099
00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:41,560
Speaker 1: You can get it audible, you can get it and

1100
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:44,600
Speaker 1: you reading. Yeah, you can listen to my voice reading

1101
00:58:44,640 --> 00:58:48,240
Speaker 1: it to you, um, which makes it a lot more personal. Yeah,

1102
00:58:48,280 --> 00:58:50,160
Speaker 1: I love that. Charlotta Magne did that too with his

1103
00:58:50,200 --> 00:58:52,640
Speaker 1: book and it made me like it more. Yeah, And

1104
00:58:53,200 --> 00:58:55,840
Speaker 1: so what can we expect? Pretty much everything we discussed.

1105
00:58:55,880 --> 00:58:59,800
Speaker 1: You guys can hear about her from her teenage years, um,

1106
00:59:00,080 --> 00:59:03,200
Speaker 1: literally up until I got to I believe your mid twenties.

1107
00:59:03,640 --> 00:59:06,280
Speaker 1: What can someone expect in full? Like? Yeah, well I

1108
00:59:06,400 --> 00:59:12,080
Speaker 1: talk also like about my inspirations and my views on

1109
00:59:12,280 --> 00:59:16,080
Speaker 1: sex and yeah, like little Kim and how she helped,

1110
00:59:16,240 --> 00:59:20,600
Speaker 1: you know, formulate my ideas on like sexuality and like

1111
00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:32,000
Speaker 1: really havingism just having to just basically because I think

1112
00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:37,520
Speaker 1: Little Kim like she's she's able to be vulnerable but

1113
00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:41,360
Speaker 1: also flips everything around on the guys. I was like, Okay,

1114
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:43,560
Speaker 1: you guys are objectifying us. I'm gonna flip it and

1115
00:59:43,600 --> 00:59:48,320
Speaker 1: I'm gonna objectify you. Yeah, and myself Trina was and

1116
00:59:48,440 --> 00:59:52,480
Speaker 1: Trina right very much, very much. But I do love

1117
00:59:52,600 --> 00:59:58,040
Speaker 1: queen Bitch, supreme bitch. That Little Kim era was the best. Yeah,

1118
00:59:58,440 --> 01:00:01,680
Speaker 1: I love that. Um. And guess before we get out

1119
01:00:01,720 --> 01:00:04,160
Speaker 1: of here, where can people find you? What do you

1120
01:00:04,280 --> 01:00:08,280
Speaker 1: have coming up? Yeah? You can follow me on Instagram

1121
01:00:08,360 --> 01:00:11,680
Speaker 1: at leam mob. And as for things coming up, I'm

1122
01:00:11,760 --> 01:00:15,200
Speaker 1: just you know, promoting the books and there's other things.

1123
01:00:15,240 --> 01:00:17,240
Speaker 1: But you have to wait and see, you're not gonna

1124
01:00:17,280 --> 01:00:20,200
Speaker 1: give us no tea none. I just don't know what's happening.

1125
01:00:20,240 --> 01:00:21,520
Speaker 1: And we tell you this is coming out in like

1126
01:00:21,600 --> 01:00:24,120
Speaker 1: two weeks. Anything that's gonna happen the next to it

1127
01:00:24,200 --> 01:00:25,440
Speaker 1: HAPs to be like you're not gonna give us a

1128
01:00:25,480 --> 01:00:29,960
Speaker 1: first look and nothing ship just like you guys already

1129
01:00:30,000 --> 01:00:35,800
Speaker 1: let me sit talking about drugs? Is that really not

1130
01:00:35,920 --> 01:00:39,160
Speaker 1: a good word? Can you look that up? Is that

1131
01:00:39,720 --> 01:00:43,520
Speaker 1: it's not? It's not right? Really, I told you, man,

1132
01:00:43,720 --> 01:00:46,400
Speaker 1: just say any wait wait wait, hold up, hold up,

1133
01:00:46,400 --> 01:00:49,160
Speaker 1: hold up, l G B T Q I A plus

1134
01:00:50,400 --> 01:00:53,280
Speaker 1: is I is I? But they there? But no, I'm

1135
01:00:53,360 --> 01:00:56,640
Speaker 1: saying like I it was always under the impression that

1136
01:00:57,360 --> 01:01:00,320
Speaker 1: that had nothing to do with biological like I thought,

1137
01:01:00,320 --> 01:01:03,000
Speaker 1: because it's not about but it's about your sexuality. But

1138
01:01:03,120 --> 01:01:04,520
Speaker 1: technically I was saying it was a good thing. I

1139
01:01:04,600 --> 01:01:06,480
Speaker 1: was just born with a man brain, you know what

1140
01:01:06,560 --> 01:01:08,240
Speaker 1: I mean. So we could say, because we talked about it,

1141
01:01:08,320 --> 01:01:11,000
Speaker 1: maybe a man's booty hole if you like it so much,

1142
01:01:11,080 --> 01:01:15,160
Speaker 1: because no, because maybe that's like a prod thing. I

1143
01:01:15,240 --> 01:01:18,200
Speaker 1: didn't have an anal orchasm before, so then see this

1144
01:01:18,320 --> 01:01:21,440
Speaker 1: is unfair that you have that Mandy, maybe it's a

1145
01:01:21,480 --> 01:01:24,520
Speaker 1: lot of it was so good. I would literally talked

1146
01:01:24,520 --> 01:01:26,920
Speaker 1: about it too, Like I shook so much that I

1147
01:01:27,080 --> 01:01:29,560
Speaker 1: was like, I hope nothing came out. And I looked

1148
01:01:29,600 --> 01:01:31,120
Speaker 1: in the sheets were clean, and I was like, damn,

1149
01:01:31,200 --> 01:01:33,600
Speaker 1: I really came hard as fun and it was from

1150
01:01:33,640 --> 01:01:35,600
Speaker 1: my Buddha hole. Do you imagine coming so hard from

1151
01:01:35,600 --> 01:01:38,480
Speaker 1: your ask that you think you're like? That's literally I

1152
01:01:38,520 --> 01:01:42,880
Speaker 1: would I can't, I would be I would be so

1153
01:01:43,400 --> 01:01:45,760
Speaker 1: I would be so faked up. Why don't you guys

1154
01:01:45,840 --> 01:01:48,640
Speaker 1: get into the um directing horn? I need to talk

1155
01:01:48,640 --> 01:01:50,840
Speaker 1: to you about that. I mean, I'm not gonna lie.

1156
01:01:50,920 --> 01:01:53,040
Speaker 1: King Noir was gonna allow me to direct one before,

1157
01:01:53,400 --> 01:01:55,080
Speaker 1: but then COVID happened and it was too much. Mother,

1158
01:01:55,560 --> 01:01:57,800
Speaker 1: I think I have some I'm gonna talk to you

1159
01:01:57,800 --> 01:01:59,960
Speaker 1: about something when we're done. You have gay porn ud

1160
01:02:00,040 --> 01:02:05,080
Speaker 1: I want to see or I'll be there for transport.

1161
01:02:05,400 --> 01:02:07,280
Speaker 1: I watched. I know how I want a shot. I

1162
01:02:07,360 --> 01:02:10,560
Speaker 1: have some straight female friends who really like gay porn too.

1163
01:02:10,680 --> 01:02:12,400
Speaker 1: I love it. Yeah, I don't mind it at all,

1164
01:02:14,720 --> 01:02:17,080
Speaker 1: howives as you can see? Oh, first off, if you're

1165
01:02:17,120 --> 01:02:19,760
Speaker 1: not gonna lie, Like first off, I don't know why

1166
01:02:19,840 --> 01:02:22,160
Speaker 1: people do this weird ship. I know the blogs do it.

1167
01:02:22,240 --> 01:02:23,960
Speaker 1: They like go to look and see who people follow.

1168
01:02:24,920 --> 01:02:27,560
Speaker 1: My Twitter follow list is nothing but only fans people,

1169
01:02:27,560 --> 01:02:29,160
Speaker 1: because that's why I watched my porn now, so of

1170
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:31,120
Speaker 1: course I made an easy access because now they go

1171
01:02:31,400 --> 01:02:33,080
Speaker 1: like two and a half minutes, bitch, I'll be nice

1172
01:02:33,160 --> 01:02:39,080
Speaker 1: quick and so so literally someone wrote I went through

1173
01:02:39,720 --> 01:02:42,280
Speaker 1: Mandy's followers and whoa. I wish I never did, and

1174
01:02:42,320 --> 01:02:43,520
Speaker 1: I was like, you, nobody tell you to go on

1175
01:02:43,560 --> 01:02:46,200
Speaker 1: that ship. Didn't win people I want to follow. Also,

1176
01:02:46,360 --> 01:02:49,120
Speaker 1: thank you for book marks, bro, because I first off,

1177
01:02:50,160 --> 01:02:52,720
Speaker 1: first off, I didn't know. This is not much technologies

1178
01:02:52,760 --> 01:02:54,520
Speaker 1: and win up people can see it. I used, when

1179
01:02:54,560 --> 01:02:57,000
Speaker 1: you put the little heart, everybody can see what you'll

1180
01:02:57,080 --> 01:02:58,880
Speaker 1: language is likeing a whole bunch of ship. And I

1181
01:02:58,920 --> 01:03:01,640
Speaker 1: didn't know I was putting gay porn on everyone's timeline.

1182
01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:05,880
Speaker 1: I didn't know. Oh my god, I don't like whatever

1183
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:09,120
Speaker 1: you like. It gets retweeted out a bookmark a bookmark now,

1184
01:03:10,120 --> 01:03:12,840
Speaker 1: But I also followed him is that on Twitter? Which

1185
01:03:12,880 --> 01:03:14,760
Speaker 1: is why I also, hey, I told you the algorithm

1186
01:03:14,800 --> 01:03:17,560
Speaker 1: for fly fans. They posted one o'clock in the afternoon,

1187
01:03:17,600 --> 01:03:18,960
Speaker 1: so I'll be on the train and it's nothing but

1188
01:03:19,000 --> 01:03:21,320
Speaker 1: buddhaholes and I'll be like, thank you guys so much

1189
01:03:21,360 --> 01:03:24,640
Speaker 1: for watching part Decisions. Also, you're paying only fan, you're

1190
01:03:24,800 --> 01:03:29,439
Speaker 1: no girl, free clips free she loves the twenty nine second.

1191
01:03:29,920 --> 01:03:32,960
Speaker 1: I'm gonna check it out. I've never been on only fans.

1192
01:03:33,000 --> 01:03:34,400
Speaker 1: I need to look at it. Oh no, you could

1193
01:03:34,400 --> 01:03:36,240
Speaker 1: be on Twitter. I watch it all on Twitter. It's

1194
01:03:36,240 --> 01:03:39,360
Speaker 1: on Twitter because there's their boding. They're only fans, got it?

1195
01:03:39,480 --> 01:03:42,240
Speaker 1: But because they do, they do put porn clips on

1196
01:03:42,320 --> 01:03:45,120
Speaker 1: Twitter like no problems, like no problem. Yeah, I love

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Speaker 1: it's the new tim No Problem, Patreon dot com, Backslash,

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Speaker 1: Horrible Decisions check us out there also okay, tweeny out

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Speaker 1: now we're all over their play and just like chaos.

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Speaker 1: And guess what we're doing this without drinking because but

1201
01:04:01,760 --> 01:04:03,680
Speaker 1: you'd be liking to think I'll just being like this

1202
01:04:03,760 --> 01:04:05,680
Speaker 1: only when I a little bit of drunk energy. But

1203
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:09,720
Speaker 1: I had no I did have a dirty I like

1204
01:04:09,880 --> 01:04:13,240
Speaker 1: my things, dirty dirty martini. After that, that's what it is.

1205
01:04:13,400 --> 01:04:16,720
Speaker 1: It's the dirty. It's giving coke energy. Man, this is

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Speaker 1: not alway. Guys. Also, make sure you check out motherfucking

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Speaker 1: Picnic June four and fifth, not me, sharing the stage

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Speaker 1: with Jazz and Sullivan. Bitch, Yes, that's what's happening. I'll

1213
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Speaker 1: be thank you doing the dance to read that I

1214
01:04:42,280 --> 01:04:45,240
Speaker 1: am not interested in and this is not hate ration. Okay,

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Speaker 1: see what I did that. Anyways, guys, to make sure

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Speaker 1: a five minute bonus clip for our Patreon So that's

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Speaker 1: Patreon dot com Backslash Horror Decisions. Thank you again, Leah

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01:04:57,160 --> 01:05:00,160
Speaker 1: for joining us for It's like, thank you guy for

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01:05:00,280 --> 01:05:06,080
Speaker 1: joining us for yet another episode of horrible decisions. Anyway,

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01:05:06,600 --> 01:05:10,440
Speaker 1: let's get into the horrible decision. The horrible decision this

1222
01:05:10,560 --> 01:05:13,480
Speaker 1: week is weird sex terms, and it's because I'm also

1223
01:05:13,640 --> 01:05:16,400
Speaker 1: trying to figure out a way to bring back fucking

1224
01:05:16,520 --> 01:05:19,080
Speaker 1: Kink of the Week or some other thing that we

1225
01:05:19,160 --> 01:05:25,000
Speaker 1: can do. But I know, well, I ended up coming

1226
01:05:25,040 --> 01:05:29,920
Speaker 1: across an article that had weird sex terms, and basically

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01:05:30,040 --> 01:05:33,080
Speaker 1: it would be terms that when said, you might have

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Speaker 1: no fucking idea that it's even related to sex. So

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Speaker 1: some of the notable mentions, um would be a pearl necklace.

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01:05:40,840 --> 01:05:43,040
Speaker 1: Pearl necklace. We had an episode where we talked about

1231
01:05:43,080 --> 01:05:46,040
Speaker 1: that you wouldn't know that that it even has to

1232
01:05:46,120 --> 01:05:50,920
Speaker 1: do with uh sex unless you have back trouble butter

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01:05:51,760 --> 01:05:56,000
Speaker 1: trouble butter Urban Dictionary. That one trouble bridle is another

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Speaker 1: one scat play that's something Golden showers, and of course

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01:05:59,280 --> 01:06:02,400
Speaker 1: peggy Um, but I wanted to get into I found

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01:06:02,440 --> 01:06:06,520
Speaker 1: these other four terms that maybe we've talked about, but

1237
01:06:06,720 --> 01:06:09,200
Speaker 1: again these are terms that maybe you will hear and

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01:06:09,240 --> 01:06:11,320
Speaker 1: you would have no idea what the funk they're talking about.

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01:06:11,640 --> 01:06:18,600
Speaker 1: So one being felching. Felching you spelching in a sentence

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01:06:18,720 --> 01:06:20,920
Speaker 1: like if you just would would think felching was a

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01:06:21,080 --> 01:06:23,800
Speaker 1: regular term. What do you think felching would mean? If

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01:06:23,840 --> 01:06:26,240
Speaker 1: it didn't mean me and my daughter we go up

1243
01:06:26,280 --> 01:06:28,960
Speaker 1: to the Humpton's location, we'd love to do a bunch

1244
01:06:29,000 --> 01:06:32,680
Speaker 1: of felching. You know, it's just a ground old tom Okay,

1245
01:06:32,720 --> 01:06:37,760
Speaker 1: So felching to you sounds like a sport. Cool um felching,

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01:06:39,040 --> 01:06:43,680
Speaker 1: No to felch is to suck up semen out of

1247
01:06:43,760 --> 01:06:50,120
Speaker 1: an orifice. For instance, Sorry, guys, felch me that? Um Nope.

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01:06:51,080 --> 01:06:56,160
Speaker 1: For instance, someone may ejaculate inside their partners anus and

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01:06:56,280 --> 01:06:59,200
Speaker 1: then suck their own semen out of the anus with

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01:06:59,280 --> 01:07:02,000
Speaker 1: their mouth. Then they may or may not swallow it.

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01:07:02,400 --> 01:07:05,480
Speaker 1: So it would be mayor may we get we're giving

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01:07:05,480 --> 01:07:09,520
Speaker 1: you an option. Yeah, it would be basically kind of like,

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01:07:10,080 --> 01:07:14,840
Speaker 1: what are your cream pies? So felching is the act

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01:07:15,040 --> 01:07:17,720
Speaker 1: of what a cream pie is. Oh wait, no, that's

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01:07:17,760 --> 01:07:20,800
Speaker 1: just coming in. So felching would be eating the cream pie.

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01:07:21,480 --> 01:07:25,320
Speaker 1: That is the I did that. So that's the verb.

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01:07:25,560 --> 01:07:31,000
Speaker 1: That's what felching means that. So eating ejaculante out of

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Speaker 1: an orifice is what felching is. Not ejaculate, girl, she said, exacly,

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Speaker 1: do you watch Curb your Enthusiasm? No, well, we don't

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Speaker 1: want anything the same. Larry David, that's the best show

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Speaker 1: of all time. Larry David. Jav Smooth is in his

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Speaker 1: house and he basically found come on the sheet and

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Speaker 1: he's like, we need to have a talk because there

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Speaker 1: was ejaculate and he goes ejacutely. It was ejacuely and

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Speaker 1: He's like like come, We'll just say come Larry. Oh

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Speaker 1: my goodness. Funny. Um another term again, I would like

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Speaker 1: for you to use it in a sentence without it

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Speaker 1: being a sex term. Docking. That's I feel like that's easy.

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Speaker 1: The dick, dock, docking the boat we're bullying, we're docking, right,

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Speaker 1: Is it like marrinate, like when you docking and I

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Speaker 1: don't know, I'm lost? Yeah, right, you're super lost. So

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Speaker 1: docking is also a sex term. Um Docking is when

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Speaker 1: to uncircumcised people with penises get together. Um. So the

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Speaker 1: first pulls his foreskin back and holds it while the

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Speaker 1: second stretches. There is open and outward as far as

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Speaker 1: possible over the head and shaft of the other partner's penis. Um.

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Speaker 1: This is frequently asked if this act is real impossible,

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Speaker 1: and the response is is, um, that was enough imagination

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Speaker 1: and determination most things are. It's like a Chinese finger trap,

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Speaker 1: as bitch, but with a dick and and foreskin. Um.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, docking. If that is ever something that you

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Speaker 1: hear any of your gaze, uh reference, that is what

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Speaker 1: they're talking about. I did hear some gaye say some

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Speaker 1: really funny ship as I was walking up on the

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Speaker 1: call I had with you, and I've never heard someone

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Speaker 1: say this before, and I just want to make it.

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Speaker 1: What was it? As I was walking up to my

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Speaker 1: apartment door, I tripped and these two gang niggs walking by,

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Speaker 1: and he goes, oh the baby or the baby or

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Speaker 1: or what was it they were? They were kicking bitch.

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I'm watching right now, so you know where

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Speaker 1: she said double homicide for Johnson's cabaret she went into.

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Speaker 1: They ended up fighting later on in the episode, and

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Speaker 1: she went into the best known as imm