Speaker 1: Hi, guys, welcome to another episode of Horrible Decisions. I
Speaker 1: just want you all to take a home in a
Speaker 1: silence one time. Maybe what are you doing? You know,
Speaker 1: I got a little seem me in here. Welcome guy
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Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I'm glad to be back
Speaker 1: in the studio. We was doing Zoom. I want to
Speaker 1: shout out to everyone who rocked with us during the
Speaker 1: goddamn everybody like here you go. I do want to
Speaker 1: actually shout out to our listeners who have still rocked
Speaker 1: with us at home. I know you have your children,
Speaker 1: your pets, your spouse, and somehow you managed to find
Speaker 1: headphones and still listen to what I mean, I can't
Speaker 1: listen to podcasts in the house unless I'm cleaning or
Speaker 1: less I'm alone, bit I ain't going. I was gonna
Speaker 1: listen to the podcasts in front of my nigga and
Speaker 1: he's like, why you like? My friends hate it. I
Speaker 1: was in fucking Miami with Crystal and she's like, Bro,
Speaker 1: you think I want to get dressed to fucking Joe Button.
Speaker 1: I don't want to hear that nigga voice. And I
Speaker 1: literally will listen to Joe Budden and the Read and between.
Speaker 1: So Joe Button drops two episodes a week, three hours,
Speaker 1: then the read be over two hours. That's all I
Speaker 1: can fit in right now. You know what's funny? From
Speaker 1: the Read? I fell from like I can't listen anything
Speaker 1: for too long. But when I went to Mexico, I
Speaker 1: kind of wanted to feel more normal. I was like,
Speaker 1: I need more niggas in my life. So I started
Speaker 1: playing the Read and it's funny because they're coming to room.
Speaker 1: He'd be like, that's crazy. I know that ship about Keisicole.
Speaker 1: All right, It's it's funny how like you can take
Speaker 1: a break and like immediately feel like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: how have I not been listening to this? So for
Speaker 1: you bitches who even listening to our fucking show, how
Speaker 1: well you know what you do know they try to
Speaker 1: cancel us. But anyway, but y'all who is new because
Speaker 1: y'all still heard us through the grapevine. Um, I'm a girl,
Speaker 1: Mandy b a K A Mandy Baskins a K A
Speaker 1: peg the Stallion a K full corpus aka that motherfucking bitch,
Speaker 1: so uncomfortable and what I really listen, I have to
Speaker 1: okay and I need to actually keep it growing. I
Speaker 1: just haven't thought anyway. My name's speezy, and I am
Speaker 1: not like a person that just like a K S
Speaker 1: or whatever. The girl shut us talking about it. I
Speaker 1: ain't a person, did anyway? See the clip recirculate where
Speaker 1: you said we were talking about what we like the
Speaker 1: same man. He goes, I'm trying to catch that nut,
Speaker 1: and I said, that is so good. You know, it's crazy.
Speaker 1: I actually was just talking to my toy friend about
Speaker 1: it because he says I've only really asked him for
Speaker 1: dick one, and I was like, damn, that's crazy because
Speaker 1: when I was seven, you know, I literally hit him up,
Speaker 1: like let me catch that nut. You want a nut,
Speaker 1: let me and I will send him pick n emoji
Speaker 1: now like that nut. Yeah, we're that nut going baby,
Speaker 1: So dude, this is what why is is that ghetto? Man?
Speaker 1: You know what? I go like, he calls it southern,
Speaker 1: but then I realized, you don't like nothing southern, So
Speaker 1: I don't think he really like. I mean, I say
Speaker 1: it more sexy. Give me that nut, Give me the nut.
Speaker 1: You don't ask for the nut. What do you call it? Combach,
Speaker 1: it's synonyms. Okay, cynonylms. Anyway, let's go ahead and do
Speaker 1: a little quick catch up because y'all we are solo.
Speaker 1: There ain't no guests in the motherfucking bill. Dude, well,
Speaker 1: I think we should do our horrible decisions catch up.
Speaker 1: You guys. This isn't an announcement because we can't say
Speaker 1: it yet, but Mandy and I are about to have
Speaker 1: a boss. And this is really funny because yeah, we
Speaker 1: can't say yet. I can't wait to afflect when there's
Speaker 1: an issue and be like, well, you know what, taking
Speaker 1: up with the manager, bitch? I mean, that's just what
Speaker 1: it's gonna be. I'm excited, y'all. We have um some
Speaker 1: news to tell y'all, so we ain't gonna tell y'all. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's probably gonna be after Labor Day, but I'm fine
Speaker 1: with that, y'all. Um, By the way, um are we doing?
Speaker 1: You said we're not doing the contest, right, So now
Speaker 1: I won't say nothing about that. Never it's gonna be
Speaker 1: some switch ups. Um, I guess I guess I'll go
Speaker 1: ahead and start with the catch up because there's not
Speaker 1: much for me to catch up with. Y'all. Know, I
Speaker 1: got my little toy friend and he surprised me the
Speaker 1: other day. He no, bitchual, I get that all the time.
Speaker 1: But he Um, he was supposed to take me to
Speaker 1: home depot because I'm getting plants. Not that I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be a plant like you, but I have pots now,
Speaker 1: like I'm redecorating my house. So I'm getting these plants.
Speaker 1: And so I was like, babe, I need you to
Speaker 1: take me to home depot. So today he was supposed
Speaker 1: to take me to home depot. He hit me up
Speaker 1: and was like, so is the nude peach open? And
Speaker 1: I was like, uh yeah. He was like would you
Speaker 1: want to go? I said duh. He said I'll be
Speaker 1: there in thirty Have you met me before? I Well,
Speaker 1: I'm the one who told him about it. And he
Speaker 1: had never went. So I'm like, it's a random fucking Tuesday,
Speaker 1: and here we go going to the beach. So we
Speaker 1: went to the Nude Beach. I had a great time.
Speaker 1: He actually had a great time. Yeah we did. It's
Speaker 1: it's in Sandy Hook, so Gonnason beat y'all know. I
Speaker 1: talked about it all the time, the school thing, see,
Speaker 1: and that's what I told him. I was like, I
Speaker 1: only know about the school for Sandy Hook and you
Speaker 1: can't even say the word what what? What was it else?
Speaker 1: It was like a hurricane that ruined Sandy Hook to
Speaker 1: right and then I don't know. All the trains was
Speaker 1: sucked up going and leaving Jersey. I got stranded in
Speaker 1: Jersey one time and got kidnapped because I was new
Speaker 1: to New York. I shared the story of the last show.
Speaker 1: But anyway, so we went to the nude Beach. Um
Speaker 1: he actually got all the way nude. So it was exciting.
Speaker 1: Wouldn't need dick down to his dick is so big,
Speaker 1: but act I mean, because he's still like, I mean,
Speaker 1: he's still like I wouldn't say, like in that lifestyle.
Speaker 1: So we went there and it's crazy. Shout out to
Speaker 1: Candice Vane, she was there, so I ran into her.
Speaker 1: She was like, oh, y'all just looked so beautiful walking
Speaker 1: up good but even so, yeah, y'all want to go
Speaker 1: to the beach there as porn stars and all types
Speaker 1: of fun. So we got into the water and then
Speaker 1: came back. I was drunk as ship, so I don't
Speaker 1: even know what all conversations we was having, but I
Speaker 1: didn't let him know. I tell everybody he's my boyfriend,
Speaker 1: and he was fine with me referring to him as
Speaker 1: my boyfriends. So I was like, okay, I guess you
Speaker 1: understand your my boyfriend. Isn't it funny how that happens?
Speaker 1: I pretty much. I was like, so like when you
Speaker 1: talk to your friends about me, like, what do they
Speaker 1: know me as my boyfriend? Do you say toy friends? No?
Speaker 1: I mean I told him on the show he's a
Speaker 1: toy friend. But I mean I was like, my boy,
Speaker 1: don't do that. Don't do that. So you called him
Speaker 1: a toy friend? How you was like with toy friend? Um?
Speaker 1: But we ended up. Um. I ended up Like it
Speaker 1: was so nice for for I guess any of you
Speaker 1: guys who were in the New York area and I'm
Speaker 1: sorry to the life side of people. Every time I
Speaker 1: tell talk about Gunnis and they'd be like, damn, don't
Speaker 1: tell everybody, Um, but where, Like what the funk? This
Speaker 1: is like? This is like a horror arena. It's take
Speaker 1: a horror convention. Every time you listen to this show,
Speaker 1: whether you're in secret or in public, and you're part
Speaker 1: of the horror hive, you know you're listening to find
Speaker 1: out some ship that you feel like you either can't
Speaker 1: ask your friends or that you're a part of. So
Speaker 1: we have to tell them. We have to die. Mandy
Speaker 1: didn't want to tell you about the sex club. Don't
Speaker 1: do I know, but now I can't go there, but
Speaker 1: you do, but not since we really don't started show
Speaker 1: first off covid too, I'm thinking of doing in a
Speaker 1: s W but we're gonna talk about many had sex
Speaker 1: at NSFW after the nigga was interviewed at our show,
Speaker 1: And now you wanna be like, we can't tell everybody,
Speaker 1: but well, anyways, let me tell y'all what happened. For
Speaker 1: those of y'all who were interested. Um, so it was
Speaker 1: probably much space out than Miami was. I actually did
Speaker 1: feel everybody was six ft apart. He was comfortable, we
Speaker 1: got in the water. I ended up giving him a
Speaker 1: massage um on the beach, which is nice, and then
Speaker 1: my friend shot out Anthony a k A white chocolate.
Speaker 1: He pulled up with more to vodka. But then he
Speaker 1: put a barrier because is he white chocolate? Because here
Speaker 1: you go, he's white. He feels like he is a
Speaker 1: black man in him. I don't know much like gay
Speaker 1: men feel like they have a white gay man feel like.
Speaker 1: He looked like he looked like a short big Clay Thompson.
Speaker 1: So maybe he's makes with black but he looked white.
Speaker 1: I don't know, but anyway white. No, he don't feel
Speaker 1: like that, Okay, because I hate like that wigger ship. Yeah, Dawn,
Speaker 1: I really do everything. I ain't gonna hold you, but
Speaker 1: I mean I feel like that's at the same time
Speaker 1: the only type of white guy I would really a wigger,
Speaker 1: Like who's the nigger who dancing? Mike? Who? Who he
Speaker 1: is dancing? Like magic Mike? That who? What's his name?
Speaker 1: What's his name? Oh? Tom A something change him him?
Speaker 1: That's a wigger to me, and I would some chance, yes,
Speaker 1: he got some salt to him, like a justin Timberlake
Speaker 1: is a wigger to me. No, no, even though okay,
Speaker 1: wait hold on, wigger to me is like not white
Speaker 1: people that are like, okay, I got cold, I got you.
Speaker 1: White people have to have to like put avoid Paul
Speaker 1: wall Yes, Paul wall A, who's that white girl that
Speaker 1: she's like, Oh, bad baby, Cyrus be doing it. Sometimes
Speaker 1: it's not it's bad baby. That bed anyway bombs over
Speaker 1: behind baby. Anyway, we did. We did end um the
Speaker 1: nude beach with a nice parking lot. Fuck. So that
Speaker 1: was just nice. And guys, I just encourage you before
Speaker 1: the end of the summer to text duh, which I
Speaker 1: was drinking. I said, listen, I just wanted to get
Speaker 1: that net in the in the back of a call.
Speaker 1: So did. And so he had a little, you know,
Speaker 1: a little line in the the aluminum foil you put
Speaker 1: in the windshield. He kept that thing up so no
Speaker 1: one could like, look, that's cool, that's that's a great
Speaker 1: sex tip. That could be a hordr. That could be
Speaker 1: a HORDRV bitch. Let's see what I felt like. I
Speaker 1: wasn't an easy baker of and bit what's new? Oh
Speaker 1: a bitch moved to Brooklyn and we got trying to leave,
Speaker 1: and by the grace of God, yesterday I had a
Speaker 1: ghastly But you said they fixed it, right, Yeah they did,
Speaker 1: but I was still complained and it was my fault
Speaker 1: because I was getting TV's mounted. But that's not the
Speaker 1: bro you busted the pieoney. Some of Jamaican man came
Speaker 1: in and he hung up a living with when it
Speaker 1: was fine. So then the sea we're getting a Jamaican
Speaker 1: accent and mine, I think we broke a pace mind
Speaker 1: you right, like I'm on my computer worker or whatever.
Speaker 1: And he comes in with his basket on and I
Speaker 1: already can't understand him because it's through mask and accent thick,
Speaker 1: and he gave me this look. I was like, oh wow,
Speaker 1: it's finished already. He like, not exactly. Did you come
Speaker 1: the room and let me show you off? And so
Speaker 1: I come in the room and I'll like to hear
Speaker 1: is no seriously? And I said, is that smoke? He's like, no,
Speaker 1: that's gas. I'm just like, like if you smell eggs,
Speaker 1: act fast when you smell gas. I said, should I
Speaker 1: call nine one one? Yeah, because I'm on a contract
Speaker 1: with right, so hold on, this is one I knew
Speaker 1: I should have called one of my like old niggas
Speaker 1: to come fucking mount the ship during the day. So anyway,
Speaker 1: now the fucking pipe is sucking bust and the gas
Speaker 1: is coming out because opposite my bedroom wall is the kitchen.
Speaker 1: I guess I ain't gonna hold you. When I moved
Speaker 1: into my apartment, they told me I can't mount t
Speaker 1: vs because of how the walls and the pipes were
Speaker 1: set up. They literally told me I couldn't, and of course, aesthetically,
Speaker 1: I want my fucking TV's mount. I didn't add a
Speaker 1: millennial because who doesn't have mouth to TV? So I
Speaker 1: don't have to ask to drill anythings or whatever. So
Speaker 1: now I'm embarrassed to bother the super because I already
Speaker 1: locked myself out of the apartment twice because it heavy. God,
Speaker 1: So I called the super. I'm like, hey, something's going
Speaker 1: on with the wall and there's gas coming out of it.
Speaker 1: He's like, excuse me, was the wall fine or did
Speaker 1: you do something to it? I was like, well, now
Speaker 1: there's a hole in it, said because I was trying
Speaker 1: to watch my words. Time to get out of this
Speaker 1: lease and move back to Laurisa. He's like, well, what
Speaker 1: did you do to the wall. I was like, well,
Speaker 1: I didn't do anything, but there is a hole in it.
Speaker 1: Maybe you could send somebody up. Bitch. The gas starting
Speaker 1: to fill up the house so much. I'm getting light
Speaker 1: hated before Jamaica be you don't know what to do,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, wow, okay, you just can't break your Lisa.
Speaker 1: You did it well technically I didn't do it, but
Speaker 1: here's what I did. They had to cut off the gas.
Speaker 1: I feel so bad everybody on my side of the
Speaker 1: doing it. So my unit ends and they had no
Speaker 1: hot water and no stoves. If you but let me
Speaker 1: tell you what, I feel so bad, I'll go downstairs.
Speaker 1: I recognized this girl from like a bar in the
Speaker 1: mail room. She's like, oh my god, did you just
Speaker 1: move here? I'm like, yeah, what about you? She was like, girl,
Speaker 1: this is this fun my mother sucking hot water and working.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, wow, you did that well. I
Speaker 1: sleep in my house when I was like because I
Speaker 1: felt bad about it. But anyway, so here's really all
Speaker 1: that's new with me. You guys know, I was on
Speaker 1: birth control. I told on Patreon I'm off it because
Speaker 1: it like sucked me up and I feel like literally
Speaker 1: I have panic attacks about if I'm gonna be pregnant
Speaker 1: every month, and it was almost worth not having the
Speaker 1: craziness I did. For fourteen days, my ship was liquid,
Speaker 1: my period was weird, my body was going crazy. I
Speaker 1: got a pimple on my face in a place I've
Speaker 1: never got it in it, And honestly, I feel like
Speaker 1: every month I'm literally begging for it. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: I know my period is gonna be missing. Why am
Speaker 1: I asking for a cream pie? Why am I doing
Speaker 1: this ship? I don't know. It's like my mind gets
Speaker 1: so blind. Listen, I told you that I u D
Speaker 1: eleven hunted abortion five I could do tube befone called
Speaker 1: the amount of you can't my bad? Okay, all right, Well,
Speaker 1: like I said, I don't even think his swimmers swim
Speaker 1: any motherfucker. Let's just talk for you. But I was
Speaker 1: well thinking before we get Let me shut up anyway,
Speaker 1: since we talk about birth control. That is our vanilla
Speaker 1: ship for this week. Um guys, this comes from the
Speaker 1: New York Times and probably every Yes and probably every
Speaker 1: other news source that you can think of. This is recent,
Speaker 1: but the Supreme Look, you got me think about the
Speaker 1: Supreme Court upholds Trump administration regulation letting employers opts out
Speaker 1: of birth control coverage. The regulation was the latest attempt
Speaker 1: to undermine the contraception mandate, a signature initiative of the
Speaker 1: Obama administration. UM. The decision was made seven to two,
Speaker 1: and it is the latest turn in seven years of
Speaker 1: fierce litigation over the contraception mandate. UM. I guess I
Speaker 1: kind of wanted to talk to you guys about what
Speaker 1: kind of that means at UM. A lot of employers
Speaker 1: did have to under the Obama minist station were required
Speaker 1: to provide cost free coverage for contraception, and the Trump
Speaker 1: administration sought out to limit that. And what's crazy is
Speaker 1: UM and what a lot of people are saying is
Speaker 1: employers still have to cover viagra. So it's just like
Speaker 1: the idea that viagra can be something that can be
Speaker 1: covered from an employer, but now contraception and birth control
Speaker 1: is not. It's just kind of another way. They just
Speaker 1: be like fun women, and I just want to I
Speaker 1: just really hate them. I don't know, I've never really
Speaker 1: went through I know we talk avidly on just the
Speaker 1: free clinics planned parenthood, and I think that that's why
Speaker 1: it's so important too to donate when you can to
Speaker 1: those organizations. Um, because I know that that's a lot
Speaker 1: of places where I should my friends and shouldn't know
Speaker 1: where to go. I don't know what to me is.
Speaker 1: There's an obsession that we have with women and their bodies,
Speaker 1: even when I mean, we all do it, even when
Speaker 1: it's all no, no, no, we're all judge in this way,
Speaker 1: even if we consider ourselves liberal people, we all have
Speaker 1: this moment ship. You guys probably had it when I
Speaker 1: just said I'd be getting cream pies and then scared
Speaker 1: and I ain't even gonna hold you. I used to
Speaker 1: judge the funk out of Wheezy as having on protected sex,
Speaker 1: but I loved them. It's using a condom is different
Speaker 1: when you're in love. It's like, for example, sure, I'm
Speaker 1: risking an STD. This is some dumb ship to say,
Speaker 1: but let me just get this dumb sh it out.
Speaker 1: Let you get dumb. I feel like, Okay, if you
Speaker 1: get chlamydia at the risk of love, it's different from
Speaker 1: if you get chlamydia at the risk of like, damn,
Speaker 1: I'm just going to club this weekend. Like I loved that, nigga,
Speaker 1: Are you serious right now? It didn't happen to me.
Speaker 1: I'm just this is just a first your logic. As
Speaker 1: long as I love you, it's okay if you give
Speaker 1: me the class. That's what you're saying, Broke, I'm sucking around,
Speaker 1: but like not but just hearing me. I'm not scared
Speaker 1: to get pregnant because I can pay to make that
Speaker 1: go away. But I am always scared to get an STD.
Speaker 1: And y'all can judge me and think I sound dumb,
Speaker 1: and I know I do. But all I'm saying is
Speaker 1: when I stopped using condoms with certain partners from you
Speaker 1: that you've heard on the show me talk about, it's
Speaker 1: because you know I'm following for them niggas and my
Speaker 1: pussy and my brain do this dumb thing where they
Speaker 1: don't match. You know what I'm saying. It's just like
Speaker 1: they're like, bitch, why would you do that? You want
Speaker 1: your bodies to be connected, and I can't do it
Speaker 1: with latex in between me. It's I ain't even gonna
Speaker 1: hold you. That's how I know my little toy friend
Speaker 1: is meant for me, bitch, pH not affected period. Come
Speaker 1: on time like we are in synctime. So when you
Speaker 1: use when you're I mean it's literally one partner, but
Speaker 1: one partner. But I was never having sex with multiple partners.
Speaker 1: Show was and that's why I was like, kam kam, kam,
Speaker 1: kanda kandam. Will you know I'm a one man woman,
Speaker 1: even if it's a one man every three months? Listen.
Speaker 1: I remember when I was dating this dude last year
Speaker 1: and he said to me, like, why do I feel
Speaker 1: like you do all this ship that you're doing with
Speaker 1: me for all your niggas? And I'm like, what am
Speaker 1: I doing? He's like, you could you clean? You be
Speaker 1: calling me to make sure I'm okay? I feel like
Speaker 1: you do this for all the niggas you talked to.
Speaker 1: I'm like, well, yeah, I mean that's me. And I
Speaker 1: felt awful because it made him feel like he wasn't
Speaker 1: special to me. But yeah, that is what I do. Well.
Speaker 1: I like to play house sue me, I show don't.
Speaker 1: But this nig got me fucked up. Bitch. I was like,
Speaker 1: should I make chicken marsala or food? L I know
Speaker 1: who the funk? Am? I I'm about a thing. If
Speaker 1: he even like y'all. Mandy also has a protective style.
Speaker 1: I think somebody's turning into Yeah, I don't right there, sudn't.
Speaker 1: I was having protected the stove before you. Hold on,
Speaker 1: let's think about it, bitch, I didn't have braves before you. Oh,
Speaker 1: I don't know what before we gonna pull it up
Speaker 1: on the YouTube show did but anyway, the bitch, let's
Speaker 1: really think about it. Here you go, man, Dizzel is
Speaker 1: over here talking about she's hiking, she's booed up, she
Speaker 1: doesn't want to use condoms anymore, she's cooking for a
Speaker 1: niked she's in her feeling. You know what's crazy about
Speaker 1: not even being in my feelings. But we're like super
Speaker 1: open as far as like other partners as well as
Speaker 1: I'm talking to when we first met, like we were
Speaker 1: open about everything. Now you're falling yo. And you know,
Speaker 1: we had that conversation that he was like apparently he
Speaker 1: was controlling and past relationships, and he was like, I
Speaker 1: don't ever want you to feel like you can't do
Speaker 1: what you want to do and I'm keeping you from that.
Speaker 1: And I was like, I just want you to know too.
Speaker 1: I don't told my holes you in the picture, and
Speaker 1: I don't even want them holes no more. Like bitch,
Speaker 1: I didn't turn down the fluideouts just so that I
Speaker 1: just I don't even want no other Dick. Bro. Okay,
Speaker 1: well i'll tell you what I name the embody me
Speaker 1: right now. Oh my god, listen, I'll just tell you too.
Speaker 1: Outside of the COVID, the little NBA bubble helping a
Speaker 1: bit too, them niggas can't fly nobody in, bro, Yo, Honestly,
Speaker 1: let me tell all of that good. Test is serious.
Speaker 1: And I don't know if I could do it for Dick,
Speaker 1: like if someone had to, if I had to get
Speaker 1: that test. But I'm just saying, NBA Dick ain't even
Speaker 1: an option right now, bro, unless they not signed. But
Speaker 1: you can't get in that maybe you can't have a side.
Speaker 1: And again you can go down to the college guy.
Speaker 1: Well no, I'm telling you now, I know for facts
Speaker 1: they're not letting nobody in because this nigga just want
Speaker 1: me to watch him jack off all goddamn time. He's like, man,
Speaker 1: can't nobody get in this bitch. I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: well let me want off. Yeah, let me watch you
Speaker 1: jack out. By the way, I do want you guys
Speaker 1: to know that you know my clamdia comments, my clean
Speaker 1: tie comments, I'm not gonna stop until we are on
Speaker 1: that bi weekly salary because I really feel like I
Speaker 1: have to tighten. I need you to know, so it's
Speaker 1: not a bi weekly salary. We get paid that ship
Speaker 1: up front, bitch. That's why I'm getting my car and
Speaker 1: I'm about to I'm a I'm about to buy a
Speaker 1: property in Jersey too. I got a call, bitch, is nice. No,
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think it's a steal. Something gotta
Speaker 1: be wrong with it. But it looked like I still
Speaker 1: I maybe it's a fucking pent household. That ship nice
Speaker 1: uh portly with a view of the nice on the water.
Speaker 1: I think that's the only place I've been. Anguli had
Speaker 1: like a party there years ago, and I was like,
Speaker 1: I didn't have don't know in New York. I was like,
Speaker 1: probably over by Edgewater, Yeah yeah, but right over there.
Speaker 1: You know. I just really feel like this is my
Speaker 1: time to just say irresponsible, she actually and be fun
Speaker 1: because once I'm how accountable to company standards, I will
Speaker 1: I will try my best to be as POC or
Speaker 1: no as PC as PC no like y'all don't even
Speaker 1: want to know. Y'all, y'all know why she's saying this,
Speaker 1: because but she wrote me it was probably eight o'clock
Speaker 1: in the morning, like, I'm really nervous about signing this deal. Now,
Speaker 1: do you see what they're doing in Nick Cannon. She
Speaker 1: literally was like, no, I'm not gonna be able to
Speaker 1: say anything anymore once we signed to this business. And
Speaker 1: She's like, I just don't know if I'm ready for
Speaker 1: that type of pressure. I'm not. Eight o'clock in the morning,
Speaker 1: she says me. Goddamn. I saw one clip that he
Speaker 1: said we could talk about every place since whatever. I
Speaker 1: saw the one clip where he was talking about how
Speaker 1: white people are barbaric, and I was like, okay, no
Speaker 1: offense for Rianna, and we do have a way, okay, whatever.
Speaker 1: But then the issue is, and I know I sound
Speaker 1: biased because of my father, but I was about to say,
Speaker 1: is that it was Jews. But now I'm saying ship
Speaker 1: that just didn't make sense, Like he was saying that
Speaker 1: Jews weren't Semitic, right, So Semitic is it's the region,
Speaker 1: it's afro Asian Attic, it's where you're from. And literally
Speaker 1: geographically speaking, yes, Jews are. You can be a Ashkenazi Jew,
Speaker 1: which is the white kind. You can be a Safarti Jew,
Speaker 1: which is when I did my swab test why I
Speaker 1: came out more than half black, because you could be
Speaker 1: a North African Jew. So you can't just say a
Speaker 1: group of religious people are wicked and do all this
Speaker 1: ship when they're your brothers and sisters too. Now you
Speaker 1: sound dumb, but I ain't gonna hold you. That's why
Speaker 1: I really don't do the Christianity following because to me,
Speaker 1: not to get into like the parts of where they're from,
Speaker 1: but as far as Euro Americans and how they came
Speaker 1: and colonized America when they were Christian, what they did
Speaker 1: to slaves, and how they still viewed them selves as
Speaker 1: Christians despite them going completely against what the Bible said,
Speaker 1: and they were judging, you know, or or viewing black
Speaker 1: people as three fifths of a person and all of
Speaker 1: like the ship that they did to them. I'm just like,
Speaker 1: there's no way you can really follow a Bible and
Speaker 1: only pick out what suits you like. And that's my
Speaker 1: thing with really hard thing too. It's like, you know,
Speaker 1: we we can't go on this podcast and just say
Speaker 1: shitty things about Muslims. I have nothing bad to say
Speaker 1: about people do it every day. But as far as
Speaker 1: just can't be a nick Cannon. First of all, when
Speaker 1: I wh why I say that Nick Cannon's on his
Speaker 1: doctor umar right now with a white following. Nick Cannon
Speaker 1: is huge. He's realizable, not just to us, he is
Speaker 1: a huge celebrity. And now you go and talk about
Speaker 1: and white people love to throw out the Jews because
Speaker 1: they have really no other super marginalized and disrespected people
Speaker 1: within their blanket. So I feel like white people love
Speaker 1: talking about the Jews were slaves too. They love to
Speaker 1: tell you that. Well, I just want to let y'all know.
Speaker 1: She literally early as hell in the morning, She's like,
Speaker 1: we talk so much about white people. I'm just nervous
Speaker 1: that we're not gonna get to do it anymore. And
Speaker 1: I was like, bit y'all, I'm stay talking about them crackers.
Speaker 1: Oh I definitely called our boss, and um, you know,
Speaker 1: I just want to be sure because I'm doing accing.
Speaker 1: See here you go. Now for those of you don't
Speaker 1: like it, I do want you to know even understand
Speaker 1: that you can start a podcast yourself and then you
Speaker 1: get on there and you say, you know, what we
Speaker 1: see is terrible accents. Do you do it there? But otherwise, well,
Speaker 1: I do want it to This is gonna be a
Speaker 1: blankt a fuck honestly about like how anything I do
Speaker 1: in this show than because for me, I just feel
Speaker 1: like I started that's just an outlet for my like
Speaker 1: you know, like like whatever I'm trying to do on
Speaker 1: this show is what I'm gonna fucking zo. What is
Speaker 1: gonna be my accent? And I'm gonna just blanket this
Speaker 1: statement real quick. I feel like every episode someone is
Speaker 1: offended by motherfucking something. I said Maria um a few
Speaker 1: episodes ago, and someone wanted me to issue an apology
Speaker 1: to the working Latin X community, and I was just like, listen,
Speaker 1: we just said to quantas. We don't said Karen, Keisha,
Speaker 1: Tyrone were the name names. It's just what we do.
Speaker 1: And if you offended, I'm just gonna go ahead and
Speaker 1: just I apologize that if you're offended. But I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna keep saying that. I'm almost getting exhausted. It is.
Speaker 1: It's exhausting. Don't feel wrong. I'm a social justice warrior
Speaker 1: two and I have Twitter fingers and I get angry
Speaker 1: at people too. However, I think that this is the
Speaker 1: main thing now, So don't fight the fight for someone
Speaker 1: you know that's on your team, and that's what does
Speaker 1: that mean. I'm gonna explain. That's really something to me,
Speaker 1: Like when you see people that are actually violent or
Speaker 1: you know, are holding racist, racist racism in their hearts,
Speaker 1: perpetuating it, not employing people of color, not trying to
Speaker 1: forward conversation. I see why y'all jumped down their throats,
Speaker 1: but I understand that we're fighting the same fight too,
Speaker 1: and by comedy, through joking around, through doing the things
Speaker 1: we do on this show, making people laugh in a
Speaker 1: lighthearted way. This is not only how we make money,
Speaker 1: but this is how people enjoy themselves through us. We
Speaker 1: can't always make money doing the show. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying now, it's our jobs. But nothing has really
Speaker 1: switched up. I will say that I've said things on
Speaker 1: the show that I'm embarrassed about. I eat having the
Speaker 1: google what the difference was with transgender or what pronoun
Speaker 1: to use, Like I'm not there anymore. But certain jokes
Speaker 1: I make I genuinely feel like y'all expect too much,
Speaker 1: and sometimes that's hurtful when you know what fight we're fighting,
Speaker 1: Like the things that we want to teach people on
Speaker 1: this show, the men and the women that have come
Speaker 1: to us at live shows and say, dude, I think
Speaker 1: I was transphobic or homophobic or whatever. Someone jumped down
Speaker 1: my throat the other day about changing the title of
Speaker 1: the episode with Hope and Tahoe because it said Ami transphobic.
Speaker 1: They're like, how funked up is this? I'm like, have
Speaker 1: you listened to it? Bit right? It's just I don't know.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's not gonna be for everybody, maybe
Speaker 1: if you hear one episode, but for those of you
Speaker 1: that like growing with us and laughing at us and
Speaker 1: checking us, which we all appreciate, Like it's just for you.
Speaker 1: But I ain't even gonna hold you when y'all come
Speaker 1: with the bullshit BT you a post the ass home.
Speaker 1: I don't want to get no more anyway, though, we're
Speaker 1: gonna get into the Hord dirt, and y'all the Hord
Speaker 1: dirt actually comes from my toy friend. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: So when we have sex, right, damn did I delete
Speaker 1: the goddamn thing? Where to go? So no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I will not call aad. No. We needo tole say
Speaker 1: that old Bays wizard Kelly because I only posted his
Speaker 1: nose down, So you should just give us. I don't
Speaker 1: already told you y'all getting that post. Y'all got enough
Speaker 1: with a goddamn nickname. We'll put it. Let's see how
Speaker 1: it sounds, and then we could have Ben to maybe
Speaker 1: do a little a little little up anyway though. Um So,
Speaker 1: the Hord Dirt For those of you who are not
Speaker 1: hip or new time listeners, the Hord derv is a
Speaker 1: segment where we give a sex tip. And this one
Speaker 1: is a tip not only for men, but I wanted
Speaker 1: to give it to women too, because this is a
Speaker 1: sneaky way if your man is not saying hard while
Speaker 1: y'all are having sex, if he's not if he's coming
Speaker 1: once and can't get back hard, or if you just
Speaker 1: find that he has some sort of e d. Again,
Speaker 1: this is the tip four men and women. And this
Speaker 1: is what my my toy friend said. He does drink
Speaker 1: beat juice daily. Um. Low libido is a common problem
Speaker 1: that's linked to stress, tiredness, or an underlying medical problem.
Speaker 1: And I know with COVID right now a lot of
Speaker 1: us are stressed and possibly tired of being sick and tired.
Speaker 1: But drinking this unlikely vegetable juice could help to increase
Speaker 1: your sex dribe. The root vegetable contains high levels of
Speaker 1: the mineral boron, which boost the production of sexual hormones.
Speaker 1: According to beat root juice maker be active. So we
Speaker 1: were having this conversation because I legit had to ask
Speaker 1: that nigga, you know, I had to asked him if
Speaker 1: he either had a rod in his dick or if
Speaker 1: he was popping viagraph because I was like, I have
Speaker 1: never fucked a nigga like this this much to where
Speaker 1: I'd be crawling, screaming, wanting to get away. Not that
Speaker 1: I feel sore, but I feel like like like, I
Speaker 1: feel like fuck. Like he comes like so he doesn't
Speaker 1: work too long, but he'll nut and then put it
Speaker 1: right back in four times here or it sucks too
Speaker 1: longer he does that, he nuts and keeps going, and
Speaker 1: I'm just like, so let me tell y'all, say he
Speaker 1: comes for the bitch is a nut, So where does
Speaker 1: he come? So it's it's different places. So, um, we
Speaker 1: did different things. Now we do different things. Sometimes he'll
Speaker 1: just like and squired on my chest and I'll go
Speaker 1: like under my neck all the way down to my
Speaker 1: tips and stomach. And then sometimes I mean, you know,
Speaker 1: I still like swallowing, so it'll be a swallow sometimes um,
Speaker 1: and some other times it'll be just right on a
Speaker 1: little puss a little. I do love watching porn where
Speaker 1: girls get came on and then they still get sucked.
Speaker 1: I don't know what's and that's what he did. He
Speaker 1: just get your lashes done. Yeah, cholester came out damn
Speaker 1: for real with probably because I was crying. Oh yeah,
Speaker 1: I see, it was just too anyway. I wanted to
Speaker 1: talk about like the most recent time I got sucked
Speaker 1: with him, and that's where I was just like, what
Speaker 1: the fun is you doing? And this is how he
Speaker 1: told me. It's beat juice, celery juice and then sometimes
Speaker 1: some cold showers, but the beat juice, he said, help
Speaker 1: send me drinks a daily. And he sucked me into
Speaker 1: a fetal position and tears. So where listen, I don't
Speaker 1: think you understand. Guys, I know seven used to out
Speaker 1: of me. Why did you get in fetal and cry?
Speaker 1: Because so with how he fucked me, I don't know
Speaker 1: what it's like. Yes, he snatched my soul and I
Speaker 1: know I snatched soles with with with my mouth, he
Speaker 1: snatched the soul with like, let me tell you what
Speaker 1: happened first. So I got really drunk for the July weekend.
Speaker 1: And when I get drunk, because be saying a little
Speaker 1: nasty ship. So I texted to like one o'clock like, oh,
Speaker 1: I want to fill you in all my holes. I said,
Speaker 1: I need to fill you in all of my holes
Speaker 1: right now. I said to us on Friday one o'clock,
Speaker 1: drunk as fuck, and you know, didn't see him Friday,
Speaker 1: so we we fuck on Sunday. Bitch, let me tell
Speaker 1: you what this motherfucking did. So we're fucking. He's on
Speaker 1: top right next thing I know, bitch, he takes his
Speaker 1: hand and puts three fingers in my mouth. Another rifice,
Speaker 1: then he takes his other hand, puts it up underneath
Speaker 1: me and fits two fingers in my asshole, then starts
Speaker 1: fucking me, and and I was just like oh. And
Speaker 1: then while he did it, he said, you said you
Speaker 1: wanted all your holes field and I bit my whole
Speaker 1: soul was snatched. Bitch, my whole, I said, I said,
Speaker 1: all holes, not at one. Now. I didn't want to
Speaker 1: just refer back where I said. I cried from dick,
Speaker 1: and MANY was like, bitch, so here's the thing. My
Speaker 1: eyes watered right, so my eyes watered. But when I
Speaker 1: came the way I came after release, No, when I
Speaker 1: laid in the fetal position, like I was like almost
Speaker 1: I almost had a seizure. I feel like I don't know,
Speaker 1: but I laid in the fetal position. My eyes were
Speaker 1: so watery they burned to the point that I laid No, bitch,
Speaker 1: I didn't have lashes whole. I have no lations. I've
Speaker 1: been quarantine you hope I've been like this your first set, yeah,
Speaker 1: well no, my second, but bitch, the other one I
Speaker 1: got fucking when I went to Florida. I was like, bitch,
Speaker 1: I came to Florida for lashes. No, Mitch, nothing was
Speaker 1: open here, um, but he fucked me into this fetal
Speaker 1: position and my eyes were were were so burning that
Speaker 1: I wanted to lay there and like ball, like to
Speaker 1: where because I felt I felt like I was in pain,
Speaker 1: but not pain, but it was pleasure. But I felt
Speaker 1: like my whole soul was snatched and I just wanted
Speaker 1: to cry to where I laid there normally get him
Speaker 1: a little warm, ragging ship and he was like, baby,
Speaker 1: you're okay. The only thing I could think of to say,
Speaker 1: fuck nigga, what I feel telling nigga when he out
Speaker 1: at you, just suck you, bro, I'm good, but fuck you.
Speaker 1: I want to say love you, but I wasn't gonna
Speaker 1: say that, Just fuck you, nigga. How dare you make
Speaker 1: I've done? Dare you snatched my soul? This way? It
Speaker 1: was great. I had sex with hospital dick and I
Speaker 1: remember it was so intense that he looks at me
Speaker 1: after and I was like, I want you to and
Speaker 1: I didn't say it out loud and he couldn't hear me.
Speaker 1: But I couldn'tn't even a voice now. No, I was
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Speaker 1: What the fund did he just do to my body?
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Speaker 1: So I'm excited to get into the horrible decision this week. Guys. Yeah,
Speaker 1: because y'all know she don't read my preproduction. You didn't
Speaker 1: send it, bitch, I'm reading it through the text message.
Speaker 1: All you read with the homemail I sent you, Yes,
Speaker 1: which that's all you must have sent. No. No, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: no Ah, gotta scroll up. This bitch ain't even read
Speaker 1: this ship anyways. Guys, I think because of the place
Speaker 1: that Weezy and Iron not only with our our past
Speaker 1: lovers that I shared what this I know, I know,
Speaker 1: I know someone from my path I know. See. Can
Speaker 1: I introduce the goddamn topic? Did we get into your feelings? Hope?
Speaker 1: So y'all this week? It's really important because again, the
Speaker 1: person that I'm I'm currently talking to now has completely
Speaker 1: changed a lot of things that I've said in the past.
Speaker 1: Weezy has had different lovers over the show where she
Speaker 1: had all these feelings, but there was just a lot
Speaker 1: going on, either with her job or with what they
Speaker 1: had going on. And we don't know that a person
Speaker 1: is wrong for us until we look back and see
Speaker 1: that possibly just the timing was wrong. So the horrible
Speaker 1: decision for this week is right person, wrong time. I
Speaker 1: want to talk about that because we a lot of
Speaker 1: times think that someone is right for us, and when
Speaker 1: we look back, we realize, damn, they weren't even the
Speaker 1: ones that we thought was right for us. And so
Speaker 1: I wanted to talk about this because the heartbreaking truth
Speaker 1: about it is meeting the right person at the wrong
Speaker 1: time really just means that that's not the right person. Dude. Honestly,
Speaker 1: this is just so weird for me because you don't
Speaker 1: even know. I felt like that's what God, Icky is
Speaker 1: so raw for me because somebody from my past. I
Speaker 1: don't even want to say who it was because I
Speaker 1: feel like maybe even something y'all will know him, and
Speaker 1: it's like whatever. But you know, I had this conversation
Speaker 1: recently where during Corona, I've been, you know, trying to
Speaker 1: keep up with people that I care about, and you know,
Speaker 1: just at whatever capacity that may be in a respectful
Speaker 1: way to every single party then current level or whatever.
Speaker 1: So basically this person was like, if you can't be
Speaker 1: with me, then I don't need you to hit me
Speaker 1: up anymore. Do me a favor. If you know I'm
Speaker 1: in love with you and you know how I feel
Speaker 1: about you and you can't reciprocate it and I can't
Speaker 1: do this with you, don't hit me up, don't ask
Speaker 1: me how I'm doing, don't even see me in the
Speaker 1: street and speak to me. And it like broke my
Speaker 1: heart because I was like, damn, it made me feel
Speaker 1: terrible that like, of course I have loved for this person,
Speaker 1: but like, why shut me out like that? And he
Speaker 1: literally cannot handle us even being cordial if we're not together,
Speaker 1: and he's like, don't fucking crash into my life. That
Speaker 1: was like literally the words he said to me. And
Speaker 1: I feel like shit. He's like, I can't watch you
Speaker 1: with someone else. I can't be front row and root you,
Speaker 1: like root for you with someone else. And was like,
Speaker 1: no fucking way. And he was like, do you feel like, if,
Speaker 1: if if coronavirus was happening and Old Bay wasn't in
Speaker 1: the picture, that you would give a second chance with him?
Speaker 1: I do you feel like you're in a space now
Speaker 1: where maybe you could give him what you weren't able
Speaker 1: to give him in the past or vice versa? Is
Speaker 1: he able to give you what you think you want?
Speaker 1: All that, I've been thinking about it, like why wasn't
Speaker 1: I with him? And at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: I just don't think we matched. And the sad part
Speaker 1: about that is like love is just not enough. I
Speaker 1: feel like you know what I'm talking about, because girl,
Speaker 1: you'ven't been in love with so many niggas. Oh, but like, oh,
Speaker 1: it's just see, I didn't even know you really love that,
Speaker 1: nigga like that. I didn't really feel like I did,
Speaker 1: but I didn't need to talk about it on the
Speaker 1: show because I just didn't want to. And not everything.
Speaker 1: I mean, I share less thing out there and some
Speaker 1: hollow stories too, but yeah, I mean it really hit me, like,
Speaker 1: oh wow, I did. It's just that, no, are just
Speaker 1: lives don't fucking match. Like it's like love is just
Speaker 1: not enough, and I kept thinking that it wasn't. I
Speaker 1: had this conversation with Alex yesterday. I ran into him
Speaker 1: in Larisa and we were talking and he was like, nigga,
Speaker 1: like and I told him how hurt I was that
Speaker 1: he said that. I was like, you know, I feel
Speaker 1: had about fucking feeling heartbroken over some somebody like that
Speaker 1: from my past, Like I felt guilty about it, but
Speaker 1: also you know what you do feel like wow when
Speaker 1: you see someone that feels that strongly about you and
Speaker 1: you know there's nothing you could do about it because
Speaker 1: and he said to me like, I know you love me,
Speaker 1: but you don't love me like I love you, and
Speaker 1: that's why I can't talk to you. And I was like, fuck,
Speaker 1: it made me feel terrible, and no, we're not together
Speaker 1: because it may feel like he was the right person
Speaker 1: in moments, but long term or not. And he always
Speaker 1: says that, like I think in spreadsheets, He's like, you're
Speaker 1: not with me because you have a spreadsheet mind. You
Speaker 1: want to plan your things like this and blah bla
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. And actually it's funny because out of
Speaker 1: the two of us, I'm not that person. But realistically,
Speaker 1: I kind of do plan my life a little bit
Speaker 1: in a way. And when I think about it, I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: it doesn't fit. We don't fit. I like certain things,
Speaker 1: you don't like certain things. It's too much classic clashing.
Speaker 1: And I do believe that just because there's love there,
Speaker 1: it doesn't mean anything when opposites don't really attract. In
Speaker 1: my book, I do not think and I know people
Speaker 1: say it maybe extroverted introvert attracts, But as far as
Speaker 1: like that, my my nigga is definitely understand quiet because
Speaker 1: that's a balance when you the interests aren't there. And
Speaker 1: like even the stuff worn times where he'd be condescending,
Speaker 1: like I'll remember one conversation. This is so basic to say,
Speaker 1: and I hope he doesn't hear this, but it's simple
Speaker 1: but he because they have enough money for you. But
Speaker 1: we ain't gonna talk about that's not true. He said
Speaker 1: to me something about Soho House, like why do you
Speaker 1: even go there? And like he said something about how
Speaker 1: they like treat people, and like, well, why would you
Speaker 1: want to be in a place like that? And Dad,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, look there are places and I'm like,
Speaker 1: I just it bothered me so much because I'm like,
Speaker 1: I want to do elevated ship, whether it be travels
Speaker 1: somewhere or go to a luxury hotel. And you may
Speaker 1: always think like that, and I can't be with someone
Speaker 1: that's fucking thinking like that. I don't like simple shit.
Speaker 1: I just like, that's why I want to spend my
Speaker 1: money on. I want to fucking eat over priced food
Speaker 1: because I can't. I like to see you, okam down
Speaker 1: but the same way, man, I know, I know, but
Speaker 1: I know I know. So you feel me because I do.
Speaker 1: I do, but I don't lead me out at the
Speaker 1: daily So well, I okay, but do you tell me
Speaker 1: that when you spend your money and you want to
Speaker 1: congratulate yourself is yeah, I go to lights, Okay, I
Speaker 1: don't want to feel good. Look my eyes don't even
Speaker 1: eat a lot, so I'll be like, let me go
Speaker 1: somewhere with the crudo, the little yellow crudo, that's my sheet.
Speaker 1: What I like the little raw fish. I just felt like,
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, love is not enough
Speaker 1: when in the long term ship like it just won't work.
Speaker 1: I know the kind of ship I need in my life.
Speaker 1: I know the kind of person I am, and I
Speaker 1: know I don't want to feel guilty because I'm about
Speaker 1: to tell you I'm about to do this ship with
Speaker 1: my home girls. Yeah, I want to spend twenty three
Speaker 1: dollars on a drink because I want to because I can.
Speaker 1: I don't want to be like to me when I
Speaker 1: when I read this, and even with what's going on
Speaker 1: now with with my dating life. UM Jacksonville, Um, he's been.
Speaker 1: He reached out to me, Darren Cornsine, you were in
Speaker 1: love with him. The only times I've ever heard you cry,
Speaker 1: if it wasn't for like a crisis, was him when
Speaker 1: I moved up to New York and it even got
Speaker 1: to the point where we were talking about engagement. I
Speaker 1: went down and spent over a week with him in Jacksonville,
Speaker 1: and he wanted I don't know if they have to.
Speaker 1: They have to. Oh girl, perpendiculated and hit me up.
Speaker 1: Um fucking golden showered and hit me up. If I
Speaker 1: tell you, all the niggas want to pass that to
Speaker 1: hit me up. Dear motherfucker quarantine. I'm like they realized
Speaker 1: that here about somebody. So Jacksonville hit me up and
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, I'm so proud to
Speaker 1: see the things you're doing, everything that you said you
Speaker 1: would do and mind you. Um, when I did this,
Speaker 1: I was what twenty two maybe twenty three when I
Speaker 1: went down there, and we were talking about like furthering
Speaker 1: our relationship. And what's crazy is we're about ten or
Speaker 1: eleven years in age difference. And so back then when
Speaker 1: I went down there, I have a little I have
Speaker 1: a little crop tops. He hated me wearing crop tops.
Speaker 1: I had porn star sex all the time, which he
Speaker 1: didn't like. And he also didn't like that I was
Speaker 1: bisexual and dealt with women. And at the time I
Speaker 1: was a bartender. This was before getting back into school
Speaker 1: and all of this stuff, and so at that time
Speaker 1: I was ready. I thought I was. At twenty two,
Speaker 1: I was like, I just want to be with you.
Speaker 1: I'm ready If marriage. Whatever you want, I'll give to you.
Speaker 1: I'll moved down tore like. I was really in a
Speaker 1: space where I was like, I can give you everything
Speaker 1: you want. I'm a good woman at the time. I'll
Speaker 1: be honest with you. A bitch couldn't really boil water.
Speaker 1: So I'm really saying all this ship, but I couldn't cook.
Speaker 1: I couldn't like realistically, I still did want to have
Speaker 1: fun and go to the club and be you know,
Speaker 1: do whole trips and all that stuff like that. I
Speaker 1: was young, but in my mind I did think I
Speaker 1: was ready and I thought that he was the most
Speaker 1: perfect man for me. Our sex was amazing. I had
Speaker 1: a great time with him. His job, like he traveled,
Speaker 1: so I always met him like other cities, like around
Speaker 1: Florida sometimes. But I was just like, I'm ready to
Speaker 1: be with you. And it's funny because I look back
Speaker 1: now and bitch, there was nothing about me that was
Speaker 1: ready for a relationship. And he would tell me that,
Speaker 1: and I would think, it's because you see in that
Speaker 1: moment the idea of a man that you'd want to
Speaker 1: be with. Yes, but so you're like, that's what I want.
Speaker 1: That's what I want, man. But even though your life
Speaker 1: isn't ready and I wasn't ready. Just me, honestly, if
Speaker 1: you're meant to be, it'll happen. I think the reason
Speaker 1: that I'm feeling so guilty in this moment right now
Speaker 1: is because one of the things he said to me
Speaker 1: was like, you don't want me, And like hearing those
Speaker 1: words hurt when you know you care about someone, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, And like that's how you feel
Speaker 1: when someone can't be with you, You feel like you
Speaker 1: don't want me. But but I don't believe that's true.
Speaker 1: But also I'm to the point now too where I
Speaker 1: realized as far as being a hole, not only being
Speaker 1: a hole, but like y'all know, I really like me
Speaker 1: some fella bay. And when I met him, I was
Speaker 1: in my third or fourth year of college. I was
Speaker 1: just about to start um e y, so I was
Speaker 1: just starting my career and in my mind, nothing about
Speaker 1: him fit that. But also my money still wasn't necessarily
Speaker 1: where I want it it to be, so in my mind,
Speaker 1: I still when I dated someone, I thought about, okay, financially,
Speaker 1: what could this person do for me? And so now
Speaker 1: I'm at a time where my heart is open because
Speaker 1: I don't have that ulterior motive of wanting a man
Speaker 1: with super high finances because I don't need someone to
Speaker 1: finance my life anymore. So even the ideas of dating. Now,
Speaker 1: I'm realizing I was looking at men and dating men
Speaker 1: to see what they could do for me because I
Speaker 1: wasn't completely fulfilled with myself. And now that I feel
Speaker 1: like I can buy what I want, I'm living comfortably.
Speaker 1: I'm doing what I do. So even let me tell you,
Speaker 1: I was stressed because this week I knew I had
Speaker 1: to call with uh with my lawyer talking to you
Speaker 1: set up calls. I have a whole new company I'm building,
Speaker 1: which is fucking stressing me out, and then I'm starting
Speaker 1: my trucking business. So I just have all of this
Speaker 1: stuff this week, and he like, We're on the phone
Speaker 1: and I'm telling him literally everything I have to do.
Speaker 1: I know we're coming to the studio. I'm like, it's
Speaker 1: a whole cluster fuck this week. And the thing that
Speaker 1: he said to me that just had me like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, You're exactly what I wanted. I sat here
Speaker 1: and told him everything I was doing this week, and
Speaker 1: he was like, well, what do you need me to do?
Speaker 1: And him just saying that. My response was, I just
Speaker 1: want you to be with me on whatever days I
Speaker 1: have some free time. I just want you to come
Speaker 1: over and take me to home. People. But I literally
Speaker 1: just said I just I just want your company as
Speaker 1: an escape. Like when I'm with him, my phone is
Speaker 1: in another room, I don't open it and we just
Speaker 1: have our own the oldest so but she did had
Speaker 1: me watch all these movies from the eighties and nineties.
Speaker 1: I was like, looking, look at all is probably something
Speaker 1: like you never had no from other men. I haven't know.
Speaker 1: It's really when when you live in the same city
Speaker 1: or so. I told him that. When I was drunk too,
Speaker 1: I was like, this is why I don't I gotta
Speaker 1: stop drinking. I'd just be opening up around are so
Speaker 1: we at the beach, I'm naked as still stroking his dick,
Speaker 1: and I just like, I just want to let you know,
Speaker 1: like all the other guys in my past, yeah, they
Speaker 1: gave me gifts and flew me around the world and
Speaker 1: did all of these things for me, But I never
Speaker 1: got to time that you give me. And I'm sure
Speaker 1: he just thought that he calls me since his name
Speaker 1: is Hippo senseius for sensitive hippos, because I think he
Speaker 1: a hypocrite. He'd be talking about me traveling. But I'm like, nigga,
Speaker 1: you you go around everybody, you with your daddy one day,
Speaker 1: your sister the next, your homeboys the next year. You
Speaker 1: know what I mean? So yes, I'm like, they don't
Speaker 1: talk about me flying, and you'll ask around different people
Speaker 1: every day which your hippocrite or something. For those of
Speaker 1: you guys are scared to travel, the second you get
Speaker 1: on the plane, you'll be like, oh, okay, I mean,
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you. I told you I'd rather
Speaker 1: I feel more comfortable in the sex clubs than Home Goods.
Speaker 1: You know, my Marshals allows a hundred and four people
Speaker 1: in there. I don't know like, but and Home Goods
Speaker 1: allows ninety. The sex club ain't allowing that many people.
Speaker 1: So I'm saved. I feel like we could safer in
Speaker 1: the sun. I have ways that I'm carrying on about
Speaker 1: living my life now, and y'all could be judgy about
Speaker 1: it or not. I don't give a fun his mind
Speaker 1: to live. The only reason I'm gonna keep getting tested
Speaker 1: is because of other people. At this point, I feel
Speaker 1: alike for my space and mental health. I do need
Speaker 1: to socialize my nigga I have. I was thinking, no
Speaker 1: bullshit crazy ask thoughts about like, oh how long would
Speaker 1: this last? How long could I live like this? Like
Speaker 1: being you know, fucking I just want to apologize to
Speaker 1: a happy life, right, I'm not not. Nothing is going
Speaker 1: wrong with me. My parents are healthy, my money is plentiful.
Speaker 1: I'm happy as far as my relationship, and I legit,
Speaker 1: I was thinking, how long can I be alive like this?
Speaker 1: That's crazy? Ship. So the thing that I'm doing is
Speaker 1: boosting my immune system, keeping myself healthy, keeping active, keeping
Speaker 1: my body heavy and alkaline, trying to oxygenate my blood.
Speaker 1: And that's all I could sucking do. Would you say?
Speaker 1: Oxygen oxygen eight? Hold on you? You know, I gotta
Speaker 1: see you. That's the word, because I'm a comfy o
Speaker 1: with oxygen. Oxygen. Oh b, it is a word, Okay,
Speaker 1: oxygen supply, treat charger, enrich with it is a verb
Speaker 1: with objects, Okay. Anyway, Yeah, We're gonna get into the
Speaker 1: motherfucker homemail this week. And I sent this Sweezy and
Speaker 1: she was like, bro, is this are these people real?
Speaker 1: So they d m me. I'm not gonna put it.
Speaker 1: They DM me on Twitter. I won't put out their name,
Speaker 1: but they are located in Detroit. Um, so I'll ask
Speaker 1: him if I can put his name out. If any
Speaker 1: of you men listening want to offer up your services again, guys,
Speaker 1: if you guys want to send in a homemail d MS,
Speaker 1: I lose. I only have this because they sent it
Speaker 1: this morning. But if you guys want to send us
Speaker 1: a homemail, make sure you write us at horrible decisions
Speaker 1: at Gmail don't comb So this starts off, UM, good morning.
Speaker 1: I hope I caught you at an extremely giving and
Speaker 1: generous mood. Listen, he really needed some help, but this
Speaker 1: is crazy what he needed help with. Bro. I've listened
Speaker 1: to your podcast off and on for years and love it.
Speaker 1: Long story short, I'm addicted to my wife getting fucked
Speaker 1: in front of me like MMF train, I don't care.
Speaker 1: Problem is the niggas dicks are too small. I'm well
Speaker 1: endowed myself, but I'm not opposed to my wife getting
Speaker 1: a dick. My size are bigger. I actually theme for it.
Speaker 1: We just suck at finding guys. We're in Detroit and
Speaker 1: it's not that really many attractive black couples we can
Speaker 1: find any tips or tips just getting niggas for her
Speaker 1: and the ones that know how to shut up and
Speaker 1: not run their mouth if you're running his wife at
Speaker 1: their pleasure. To put it into perspective, I want my wife,
Speaker 1: you know right. I want my wife to be like
Speaker 1: the woman from She's gotta have it and get dick
Speaker 1: that she wants because I genuinely love it for her.
Speaker 1: We swing and I just love seeing her get berated
Speaker 1: with dix and her being open as a woman. It
Speaker 1: doesn't change my love for her, It actually amplifies it.
Speaker 1: My favorite porn start, she's my favorite porn start to
Speaker 1: clean up and my best friend as a woman and
Speaker 1: a quote unquote or I hope you can understand. I
Speaker 1: want her to do me how men do women, and
Speaker 1: it fuckeding creamed in. Like Wheezy said before, I want
Speaker 1: to be my wife's nasty stag, but she needs bigger
Speaker 1: and better dicks. Any advice, I just want to look
Speaker 1: a stagg really is a stag a horse? It's an animal, right,
Speaker 1: a male dear. But I want to see if it means, oh,
Speaker 1: it's a male dear. I know it was like an
Speaker 1: animal dear or same thing. So before we start, I'll
Speaker 1: actually got it. Stag Urban Dictionary the male half of
Speaker 1: a relationship who allows and find sexual gratification in allowing
Speaker 1: and even encouraging his female partner to have sex with
Speaker 1: other men. Why why do you read so fast? I
Speaker 1: think they would love this definition? So can you slow it?
Speaker 1: What I was? Real? Ship? I felt like it was
Speaker 1: my brain is on a hundred. The male half of
Speaker 1: a relationship who allows and find sexual gratification in allowing
Speaker 1: and even encouraging his female partner to have sex with
Speaker 1: other men. Not to be confused with the cup hold,
Speaker 1: because the male is typically weak and into humil humiliation.
Speaker 1: Stags are dominant but want to share their woman. I
Speaker 1: like that. I didn't know that. So look at you all,
Speaker 1: we're learning with you like it's a dear Now I
Speaker 1: figured it was. It was just such a random word
Speaker 1: of so stag. Um, So I like that because yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie when you do. Definitely, And when
Speaker 1: you think of cuc holding, you do think of um,
Speaker 1: the man being more submissive. I know who's a stag?
Speaker 1: The guy how well, he doesn't necessarily want it, but
Speaker 1: he was like saying how he didn't care if his
Speaker 1: girl sucked out niggas, but having at present, I feel
Speaker 1: like he's he more so just wants her to go
Speaker 1: out and big dicks. Like this guy doesn't seem like
Speaker 1: he's in the room all the time or cares to
Speaker 1: be in the room all the time. He said, I
Speaker 1: just want to get big dicks. I ain't gonna hold you. Uh,
Speaker 1: don't be king shaman, I don't Okay, he's a nasty nigga.
Speaker 1: I like that. That's the clip. There we go. Um,
Speaker 1: So my my bit of advice for this would be, actually, um,
Speaker 1: there are fat Life, my Wild Lifestyle go on these
Speaker 1: apps and men. There's a lot of men that want
Speaker 1: to partake in these type of engagements. So you just
Speaker 1: requesting big dicks like you can literally ask looking for Hey,
Speaker 1: I know you're gonna hate it a BBC. You can
Speaker 1: use those hashtags or you can you can you can
Speaker 1: make a Twitter for this too. I feel like it's
Speaker 1: Craigslist all the way shut down because I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: lie to you when I don't feel like watching porn.
Speaker 1: I used to go to like Craigslist and just read it.
Speaker 1: Used to make me so wet. I kind of want
Speaker 1: like an old school, Craigslist home, so like, I ain't
Speaker 1: gonna hold you. I used to just go on Craigslist
Speaker 1: just to read these people just offering their boy two
Speaker 1: chicks that we know from back in the day. And
Speaker 1: when you know she was doing Craigslist. Um, I wasn't
Speaker 1: really her friend like that either, but I know she
Speaker 1: was doing it. You know what I'm talking about. She
Speaker 1: was like when she had her hotel room, me and
Speaker 1: the X we picture up to take her to a
Speaker 1: strip c ever something, She's like, oh, this dude left
Speaker 1: his phone here, and I was like, Craigslist and what's
Speaker 1: other ones? And they always put the little squiggly line
Speaker 1: asterisks to her, like, what's what's the other one that
Speaker 1: got shut down? He no back page. Anyways, I suggest
Speaker 1: you to go onto one of the kink sites. UM. Also,
Speaker 1: there's if you look up even the hashtags honestly on Instagram,
Speaker 1: so swingers Polly open relationships and I started seeing those
Speaker 1: has hashtags from the relationship goals. When you go to
Speaker 1: their um podcast page, you see them use the hashtags
Speaker 1: a lot. I think that people definitely utilize those. So
Speaker 1: if you don't want to get onto lifestyle games, yeah,
Speaker 1: if you don't want to get onto an actual app,
Speaker 1: I would say get onto and Twitter. Twitter has the
Speaker 1: best porn stars, the best amateur people, a lot of
Speaker 1: those only fans people, and honestly a lot of people
Speaker 1: look for people to shoot content with. I'm not sure
Speaker 1: if you're comfortable with your wife being shot on film,
Speaker 1: but if you like that kind of sag position to
Speaker 1: where you like watching her get fucked by, here's the ones.
Speaker 1: Consider that. The hashtags I just clicked on them hashtag
Speaker 1: Polly Proud, hashtag US three, hashtag Polly, hashtag, pride um
Speaker 1: hashtag three, relationship goals, relationship goals, polyamory, um, lifestyle. I
Speaker 1: don't I know. You said you hate that word, but
Speaker 1: I told you lifestyle really Black and Polly hashtag Black
Speaker 1: and Polly Nation. Um No, I mean I hate the word.
Speaker 1: Like I'm just teasing when I say that, Like I'm like,
Speaker 1: because you never know I would. I would suggest too though,
Speaker 1: Like I said, getting on Twitter, um, there's a ton
Speaker 1: of people there that are looking for other other people
Speaker 1: to shoot with and just play with. Um. Also, if
Speaker 1: you're a stag and you like to feel dominant, I
Speaker 1: think the most dominant thing a motherfucker can do is
Speaker 1: be dominant with them pockets, So feel free to buy
Speaker 1: to pay for days. I'm just gonna say, like, I
Speaker 1: think as far as professionalism goes, like what if I
Speaker 1: don't know, if y'all don't wanna, I feel like people
Speaker 1: like want to do nasty thing. They're like, how would
Speaker 1: you not find someone weird? Do you pay them? Yeah?
Speaker 1: I would say, look look into paying people, especially guys
Speaker 1: with big dicks, do feel like they need to be
Speaker 1: taken care of a lot? Yeah, well it's COVID. Niggas
Speaker 1: ain't traveling like that. No, the more they in Detroit,
Speaker 1: they're in Detroit. Not well they didn't we have a
Speaker 1: Detroit cup. No, in Detroit we had a blowjob. We
Speaker 1: had the blow job in Detroit. Yeah she was great. Um,
Speaker 1: but yeah, I would say, honestly, get on get on
Speaker 1: some some message boards and find the lifestyle community in
Speaker 1: Detroit and there's a tournament. Men are easy to give up?
Speaker 1: Can you? I wonder I need to figure out if
Speaker 1: you could do this? Already? I know, Ready, it's really
Speaker 1: white back getting the whole dog. Ready, that's so white.
Speaker 1: I don't get a ready. I only like it because
Speaker 1: I'm starting to get into conspiracy theories and let's see
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Speaker 1: Here we go. Let's see what else we don't have
Speaker 1: people that we did put play? What else do I want?
Speaker 1: Black lesbian couple? Someone wrote us right me back. If
Speaker 1: you're a nasty and you're black and lesbian, I think
Speaker 1: that'd be great, we haven't had a black I also
Speaker 1: would love a Polly couple with two men, so we
Speaker 1: can get two men and a woman in here. And
Speaker 1: you already know. I want to talk about what else.
Speaker 1: I do have some some people who are by that
Speaker 1: white girl with a black guy. I feel like I
Speaker 1: see y'all in the street and we need to talk
Speaker 1: about it. Can you know that you're a big white
Speaker 1: girl and you know a pog? They're called POGs. No,
Speaker 1: I'm not talking about badass white girl. I mean, by
Speaker 1: the way, because Ashley Chevy but he said that word
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Speaker 1: But your man has to be obsessed with big white girls. Okay, No,
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Speaker 1: another episode up by here's another good one that you
Speaker 1: brought up. EASTA and Molly's friendship growing apart from a friend.
Speaker 1: Man even knows when do you know friendships from? Of course?
Speaker 1: And is it possible to outgrow a friendship? And can
Speaker 1: they can they hear those questions? Can they hear those questions?
Speaker 1: Because but this pre production I want them to know
Speaker 1: I really thought about I actually think that I am
Speaker 1: the East and I think it could be a bad thing.
Speaker 1: And let me tell you, guys, why Okay, real quick, guys,
Speaker 1: just so you know the questions because I didn't even
Speaker 1: hear how you read it? And I'm looking at it.
Speaker 1: Why are you reading it? So we're gonna get into
Speaker 1: the topic now. Of course, um Easa and Molly's friendship
Speaker 1: they started growing apart as friends, and it was really
Speaker 1: just because they were in two different parts of their lives.
Speaker 1: And so the questions that I asked for a weezy
Speaker 1: night to break this down, is when do you know
Speaker 1: a friendship has run its course? And is it possible
Speaker 1: to outgrow a friendship and end amicably doesn't have to end?
Speaker 1: And I think that that's what I have a lot
Speaker 1: of feelings about that. A few people come to my mind,
Speaker 1: but now I want to keep in mind this has
Speaker 1: nothing to do with let's take out a friend that
Speaker 1: pished you off and you gotta fight with because when
Speaker 1: you said to outgrow, I think those are the friendships
Speaker 1: that kind of like linger and you're not sure why
Speaker 1: you have them. But the reason I felt like issa
Speaker 1: is because I don't do well with letting a friendship
Speaker 1: end because I don't know why it's happening. I think
Speaker 1: that means something is wrong, and so I'll just do
Speaker 1: my best to keep it when I don't even need it,
Speaker 1: And I think that it can come across very like
Speaker 1: I don't know, juvenile almost But I had a friend
Speaker 1: recently where like I linked up with her for lunch
Speaker 1: and we had nothing to talk about that in common anymore,
Speaker 1: but I was one who pushed for it, and then
Speaker 1: I set up a time to meet up with her again.
Speaker 1: And I was like, why did I do it? Was
Speaker 1: like word on me, Oh, let's do it again next
Speaker 1: And I even want to see your next Saturday. And
Speaker 1: this is a few months ago, but I realized it's because, oh,
Speaker 1: it's this failure thing in my head instead of just growth,
Speaker 1: like people change and it's totally okay, like you can
Speaker 1: acknowledge what you have with someone at that time. Ship.
Speaker 1: Me and you, we were fun, we had fun, we
Speaker 1: were young, we were kids, and we just don't. We're
Speaker 1: not the same way. And I I think it's like
Speaker 1: it's such an issue for us learning and growing up
Speaker 1: that when things end, a break up, a friendship, whatever,
Speaker 1: you did something wrong. They did something wrong, and you
Speaker 1: feel guilty about it. So instead of that guilt, we
Speaker 1: would rather just keep some ship that we don't need.
Speaker 1: I mean, I think that that's how I view a
Speaker 1: lot of my friendships from back home, which is why
Speaker 1: I say I don't care to ever really go to Orlando.
Speaker 1: I don't have like a lot of the friends that
Speaker 1: I did have and that I, you know, grew up with,
Speaker 1: they all have kids, partners, never traveled. I remember the
Speaker 1: last time I went, I had um I went out
Speaker 1: to lunch with two of my two of my home girls,
Speaker 1: and we went to like this New Orleans restaurant. They
Speaker 1: had never even been in New Orleans, so which they
Speaker 1: didn't know it about. Like we literally had nothing in common.
Speaker 1: I don't care about kids. I don't want to hear
Speaker 1: about your little your little shit, and I you know,
Speaker 1: I have a whole different lifestyle that they don't understand.
Speaker 1: So I was just like, Okay, well, this kind of
Speaker 1: probably won't last much longer, like as and And it's
Speaker 1: not that we hate each other, but we like each
Speaker 1: other's picks on Instagram. We be in the d m
Speaker 1: s and we keep it putting either like I like
Speaker 1: knowing that I have that with some people. You know,
Speaker 1: it's weird because when your lives do go in different directions,
Speaker 1: you want to enhance your friends lives. You don't want
Speaker 1: them to feel like it doesn't match. Like I think
Speaker 1: Serrita is a great example, because we've never stopped being friends,
Speaker 1: and we won't. We really love each other, but I
Speaker 1: do know we live different lives, and I think that's
Speaker 1: why we talk less, you know, but I love talking.
Speaker 1: She came to our show about tickets. That felt great
Speaker 1: to see her husband does my taxes. It's nice to
Speaker 1: see her, but I do realize we don't talk as
Speaker 1: much because you know, she's got her grown as kids
Speaker 1: out the house and her and Alan aor do in
Speaker 1: their thing. And I'm just sitting here about saying little bullshit.
Speaker 1: But but also when I call her now, the conversations
Speaker 1: are a little different. You know, maybe I'll ask her
Speaker 1: for help she was a therapist from a mental health perspective,
Speaker 1: or advice about colleagues or whatever like those have been
Speaker 1: the things we've talked about in the last few years.
Speaker 1: And I'm like, Okay, it's changed. It's not gonna be
Speaker 1: the every day, every week call because her life is different.
Speaker 1: That's cool to me. Like, I don't see, so do
Speaker 1: they have to end um if it becomes toxic in
Speaker 1: the way that Molly and East's friendship was to where
Speaker 1: it was affecting their moods, they didn't even like they
Speaker 1: looked at the call and you could tell it, just like, like,
Speaker 1: I don't really want to answer this. I think when
Speaker 1: things when a when a friendship becomes toxic, or when
Speaker 1: a when a friendship can affect your mood for the day,
Speaker 1: or or how you move and you don't even want to,
Speaker 1: Like there was a scene where she really wanted this
Speaker 1: food and she saw Molly in the restaurant, so she
Speaker 1: didn't even eat the food. When things be, when a
Speaker 1: friendship starts to feel like wait that you're caring, that's
Speaker 1: when I think it's time to just okay, really revise
Speaker 1: it and think to yourself, is this is this worth it?
Speaker 1: And like I said, even in the dealing with mental
Speaker 1: health with partners, I think that you need to look
Speaker 1: at how you're how energies affect you, and I think
Speaker 1: that that's how you decide whether a friendship is worth it.
Speaker 1: I've had that call with a friend that like is
Speaker 1: a friend and we're getting attitudes with each other on
Speaker 1: the phone and then about to hang out, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: why am I doing this ship? Like why for what?
Speaker 1: This dumb shit? I haven't done it recently? Is an adult.
Speaker 1: But you know one of my friends who checks me
Speaker 1: a lot. I remember I used to bother me sometimes.
Speaker 1: Charterie would be like, bitch, you told me we were
Speaker 1: hanging out today, and I know we always canceled plans,
Speaker 1: but you can at least let me know five minutes
Speaker 1: before