WEBVTT - No. 95: SEASON FOUR FINALE + LET'S GET INTO THIS SEASON'S TEA! 🍵🫖 0:00:00.320 --> 0:00:03.040 Hand Me My Purse is a production of iHeart Podcasts. 0:00:03.840 --> 0:00:07.600 So I happen to be perusing WHOOPI Goldberg's Internet and 0:00:07.640 --> 0:00:09.480 I found this and I said, you know what, let 0:00:09.480 --> 0:00:12.600 me share this with my folks because somebody needs to 0:00:12.600 --> 0:00:17.560 hear this. I was somebody, and maybe you're somebody too. 0:00:17.600 --> 0:00:19.800 It says things you may need to hear this week. 0:00:21.800 --> 0:00:25.000 Sometimes what didn't work out for you really worked out 0:00:25.040 --> 0:00:31.320 for you. Seeking reassurance from yourself is just as valid 0:00:31.520 --> 0:00:36.000 as it is from others. You are not behind, but 0:00:36.159 --> 0:00:40.960 exactly where you need to be. Have confidence that today 0:00:41.000 --> 0:00:46.479 will be another successful day. That dream was planted in 0:00:46.560 --> 0:00:51.440 your heart for a reason. And this is from an 0:00:51.479 --> 0:00:57.319 account on Instagram called the Mayfair Group and I like it. 0:00:57.440 --> 0:01:00.800 I like it a lot, and I usually don't do this, 0:01:00.880 --> 0:01:05.520 but go follow them because got some good stuff going 0:01:05.560 --> 0:01:09.480 on over there. Let's go ahead and get this party started, 0:01:09.560 --> 0:01:12.480 because I can promise you it is going to be 0:01:13.600 --> 0:01:38.320 a party. I can't see the patter that. Okay, what's up, y'all? 0:01:38.360 --> 0:01:41.479 Welcome to hand Me my Purse Podcast. I am none 0:01:41.480 --> 0:01:43.920 other than the incomparable me Me Walker, and I will 0:01:43.959 --> 0:01:47.320 be here forever host each and every single time. I 0:01:47.400 --> 0:01:50.160 promise each and every single time you tune into this podcast. 0:01:50.480 --> 0:01:53.000 So go ahead and get comfortable. Get yourself a glass 0:01:53.040 --> 0:01:57.280 of your favorite beverage, whether that's alkaline water, some red 0:01:57.400 --> 0:02:00.800 kool aid, a hot cup of tea with honey or Hennessy. 0:02:01.720 --> 0:02:05.440 Go light yourself a candle, some incense, or burn some sage, 0:02:05.840 --> 0:02:07.920 and just get ready to chill out and have a 0:02:07.960 --> 0:02:23.760 good time. What's up, friends, again, It's Mimi resident Auntie Supreme. Here, 0:02:23.840 --> 0:02:26.840 hand me my purse, and today I am actually sipping 0:02:26.919 --> 0:02:32.560 on some peppermint probiotic tea from a brand called Traditional Medicinals, 0:02:32.600 --> 0:02:36.639 and some organic haybiscuits or high biscuits however you want 0:02:36.680 --> 0:02:39.640 to say, tea. And I added a full dropper of 0:02:39.680 --> 0:02:42.680 this tincture that I like to drink called glucose bitters. 0:02:42.680 --> 0:02:44.920 Are supposed to help with your hormones. It's good for 0:02:44.960 --> 0:02:47.640 women who have pcos like me. Shout out to all 0:02:47.680 --> 0:02:53.760 the girlies that have pcos. This concoction is good for 0:02:53.760 --> 0:02:55.560 me to sip on because I want to make sure 0:02:55.560 --> 0:02:59.840 that my tummy doesn't act a damn fool tonight and tomorrow. 0:03:00.240 --> 0:03:02.240 After the meal that I had for dinner, which was 0:03:02.440 --> 0:03:06.400 very heavy. I was doing a little emotional eating this 0:03:06.520 --> 0:03:10.320 evening because today and I had two drinks because today 0:03:10.520 --> 0:03:14.200 was a complete and utter royal clusterfuck at work. Okay, 0:03:14.960 --> 0:03:19.680 it was bad. Stick to the game plan? What is 0:03:19.760 --> 0:03:22.960 the game plan? Is the real question? What is the 0:03:23.040 --> 0:03:28.200 game plan in education in America? What the fuck is 0:03:28.240 --> 0:03:33.560 going on in schools? Okay, I don't know, and I'm 0:03:33.560 --> 0:03:36.800 there every day. Actually I do know. I'm gonna not 0:03:37.000 --> 0:03:40.360 be sticking to the game plan right now. All I 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:42.200 can say is, it's the end of the school year. 0:03:44.240 --> 0:03:52.800 Next year when school starts. Parents, administrators, school district government, 0:03:52.920 --> 0:04:00.680 get your fucking act together. Please. The people are tired, Okay, tired, 0:04:03.400 --> 0:04:05.320 And it's clear that it's the end of the school year. 0:04:05.360 --> 0:04:08.360 It's upon us. But clearly students and their parents just 0:04:08.400 --> 0:04:12.120 don't give two fucks about that because they're still acting 0:04:12.880 --> 0:04:18.280 like completing up balls. And I gotta say that something 0:04:18.400 --> 0:04:23.760 is going to have to drastically change in education, particularly 0:04:24.360 --> 0:04:31.080 in urban environments or environments that are stricken with poverty, 0:04:31.279 --> 0:04:35.440 or there will be hell to pay. There's already hell 0:04:35.440 --> 0:04:40.080 to pay, and the staff members are definitely paying the hell. 0:04:40.160 --> 0:04:44.600 But something has to change. And however, I can help 0:04:44.720 --> 0:04:49.240 to facilitate that change. I'm open to doing that, but 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:53.760 I gotta say something has to fucking give because these 0:04:53.839 --> 0:04:58.000 kids and their parents got some soul searching to do it, 0:04:58.680 --> 0:05:01.719 and I mean that shit. Anyway, What are y'all sipping 0:05:01.760 --> 0:05:04.560 on today? Is it anything delicious? I can't really say 0:05:04.560 --> 0:05:06.920 that my tea is really delicious because I'm not drinking 0:05:06.920 --> 0:05:09.920 it to taste good. I'm drinking it for its medicinal properties, 0:05:09.920 --> 0:05:13.599 which y'all drinking anything good? You've got any suggestions? I 0:05:13.640 --> 0:05:15.560 saw this thing that I want to try out. It's 0:05:15.680 --> 0:05:20.400 like a a fake me out alcoholic beverage. I gotta 0:05:20.480 --> 0:05:23.040 find it. I think it might be called Heo or Neil, 0:05:23.440 --> 0:05:25.479 I don't know. I saw it on the instagrams. I'm 0:05:25.480 --> 0:05:27.560 really excited to try it out. But do y'all have 0:05:27.640 --> 0:05:30.640 any suggests or any new things to drink? Because summertime 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:32.960 is here and SIS is ready to have a good time. 0:05:41.080 --> 0:05:47.719 So friends and ken for the jam today. I chose 0:05:47.720 --> 0:05:52.159 a song from Erica Badu's album Let me see what 0:05:52.240 --> 0:05:55.240 the name of this album is? This album I want 0:05:55.240 --> 0:05:59.160 to say this New America Part two, Return of the ANC. 0:05:59.279 --> 0:06:03.839 It is number five. It's called gone Baby, Don't be Long. 0:06:04.400 --> 0:06:09.320 I love it. It's a groove, it's a bop. And 0:06:10.760 --> 0:06:13.640 when I went to see Erkabadu last summer in DC, 0:06:14.800 --> 0:06:16.720 she sang a lot of songs. Of course, she sang 0:06:16.720 --> 0:06:20.479 all her classics from like the first two albums. But 0:06:20.960 --> 0:06:23.240 I was really appreciative that she sang a lot of 0:06:23.279 --> 0:06:25.839 the songs that I have forgotten that I loved so much. 0:06:26.360 --> 0:06:29.480 And I chose this song simply because one is a bop, 0:06:29.560 --> 0:06:33.200 but two because of the title. Because this is the 0:06:33.240 --> 0:06:38.920 season four finale, this is the closing of season four. 0:06:39.160 --> 0:06:44.039 I have pumped out forty five fucking episodes, uh in 0:06:44.160 --> 0:06:48.680 this season. And I gotta say, I'm proud of myself. 0:06:48.720 --> 0:06:51.760 I ain't even gonna front on you today. I am 0:06:51.920 --> 0:06:53.080 very proud of myself. 0:06:53.320 --> 0:06:55.080 I want to thank me for believing in me. 0:06:56.240 --> 0:06:57.760 I want to thank me for doing. 0:06:57.600 --> 0:07:00.279 All this hard work, hard work. I want to thank 0:07:00.400 --> 0:07:03.640 me for having no days off, none. I want to 0:07:03.680 --> 0:07:07.039 thank me for for never quitting never. I want to 0:07:07.040 --> 0:07:08.640 thank me for always being a giver. 0:07:08.960 --> 0:07:13.800 It's what I do. Okay. So I chose this song, 0:07:13.920 --> 0:07:16.080 like I said, because I love the way it sounds 0:07:16.240 --> 0:07:19.840 like Erica Bad, like when She's in her bag. She's 0:07:19.840 --> 0:07:23.520 in her bag, and this song is number five. It's 0:07:23.560 --> 0:07:28.280 from the album New America Part two, Return of the Unk, 0:07:28.840 --> 0:07:31.360 and the covers like purple and she's like a robot 0:07:31.440 --> 0:07:34.000 with flowers coming out of her head with a purple sky, 0:07:34.160 --> 0:07:36.760 and you know it's real Erica by do it. It 0:07:36.880 --> 0:07:41.280 came out in twenty ten, and I was glad that 0:07:41.320 --> 0:07:43.000 I was reminded of this song when I went to 0:07:43.040 --> 0:07:50.320 see her last year in DC with Yasin Bay also 0:07:50.440 --> 0:07:54.560 known formerly known as most Staff. But anyway, check it out. 0:07:54.760 --> 0:07:56.480 I'm gonna play a little bit of it for you, 0:07:57.160 --> 0:07:59.920 and then we are going to go ahead and go 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:03.480 into the episode. Of course, there's gonna be a link 0:08:03.560 --> 0:08:05.720 to the song in the show notes, because that's what 0:08:05.760 --> 0:08:08.880 the fuck I do every time for your listening and 0:08:09.000 --> 0:08:11.480 viewing pleasure. So check it out so you can listen 0:08:11.560 --> 0:08:15.680 to the whole song, and don't worry because I'm gone, baby, 0:08:15.680 --> 0:08:20.120 But I won't be too long when I come back 0:08:20.120 --> 0:08:24.520 for season five, and I can't believe that it will 0:08:24.560 --> 0:08:27.480 be time for season five. H I don't know exactly 0:08:27.520 --> 0:08:29.440 when I'm gonna come back. It ain't gonna be too long, 0:08:29.480 --> 0:08:31.560 because I said I'm gone, baby, but you know it 0:08:31.600 --> 0:08:33.480 won't be too long. I ain't gonna be out here 0:08:33.880 --> 0:08:37.920 for no six months, not giving y'all no juice, but 0:08:39.000 --> 0:08:41.920 I need to break Mama's tired. If you can't tell already, 0:08:42.480 --> 0:08:47.880 Mother is exhausted, Okay, completely exhausted. So get into the song. 0:08:48.200 --> 0:08:50.800 Then we're going what is that? What was that? What 0:08:50.880 --> 0:08:56.679 was that? Mem the hell? Get into the swng? Okay, 0:08:56.800 --> 0:08:59.320 we're gonna get into the sowng anyway, get into the 0:08:59.360 --> 0:09:02.839 song and then we're gonna come back here and go 0:09:02.880 --> 0:09:07.240 ahead and get to this conversation. Okay, Okay, enjoy. 0:09:08.520 --> 0:09:16.079 Fazl and both Bassy and I loved You. 0:09:19.200 --> 0:09:19.760 Where you Go? 0:09:20.080 --> 0:09:25.240 And id lady watch no, no, you're got to get 0:09:25.320 --> 0:09:45.280 to us a long joy friends and kN So we 0:09:45.440 --> 0:09:48.160 have come to the end of season four, and that 0:09:48.320 --> 0:09:49.439 is pretty fucking amazing. 0:09:49.559 --> 0:09:55.640 I gotta say, like, that's that's that's Stern season four. Okay. 0:09:57.440 --> 0:10:02.040 On June thirteenth of two, twenty twenty three, which was 0:10:02.120 --> 0:10:04.960 last year. If you're listening to this in real time, 0:10:05.559 --> 0:10:09.840 I released my very first podcast episode with the backing 0:10:10.120 --> 0:10:16.000 of the mega network iHeartMedia or iHeart Podcasts, Right and 0:10:16.040 --> 0:10:17.960 what a fucking blessing. This has been for me, Like 0:10:18.360 --> 0:10:21.560 since then, it has been a serious hell of a ride, 0:10:21.679 --> 0:10:26.360 Like I can't even lie. The blessings just poured out 0:10:26.880 --> 0:10:30.959 like like it was just I can't even explain it. 0:10:31.040 --> 0:10:37.160 Like as soon as I was launched. As soon as 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:40.840 I launched, I was blessed with an opportunity that many, 0:10:41.880 --> 0:10:49.400 especially independent podcasters on iHeart Podcasts, are not blessed with, uh, 0:10:49.440 --> 0:10:53.760 and that was that I got to be in conversation 0:10:53.880 --> 0:10:57.720 and be interviewed by the president of iHeart Podcasts himself. 0:10:57.760 --> 0:11:01.640 His name is Will Pearson for their podcast where I 0:11:01.960 --> 0:11:05.800 Podcasts or a Heart Media's podcasts, and it's called Conversations. 0:11:06.480 --> 0:11:09.360 And I think the episode came out like in August 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:12.160 of August of twenty twenty three, so if you look 0:11:12.200 --> 0:11:15.200 it up, actually I'll link it so that you can 0:11:15.280 --> 0:11:18.040 check it out. But it was really amazing. He was really, 0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:21.160 really a nice guy, and I could not believe it. 0:11:21.160 --> 0:11:24.200 I almost started crying during the show because I was like, God, 0:11:24.320 --> 0:11:30.239 this is next level amazing to be awarded the opportunity 0:11:30.280 --> 0:11:33.520 to be on such a major network, but also to 0:11:33.800 --> 0:11:37.400 have the freaking president and the president of I Heard 0:11:37.400 --> 0:11:41.680 Podcasts interview me like, oo, me a whole me, Yes, 0:11:41.800 --> 0:11:44.840 a whole me, because I deserve it and I'm worthy 0:11:44.840 --> 0:11:47.320 of that, and so God blessed me with that. And 0:11:47.440 --> 0:11:51.240 I also got to go visit the iHeart Studios in 0:11:51.320 --> 0:11:59.680 New York City, New York City, Sorry to record actually 0:11:59.679 --> 0:12:03.719 one of my favorite series of season four, and that 0:12:03.920 --> 0:12:07.200 was the series about Sweet Daddy Grace, which is I 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:10.720 want to say, episode seventy four, seventy five, seventy six 0:12:11.000 --> 0:12:17.080 with Marcy Depina, who is an amazing human being, just dope, 0:12:17.240 --> 0:12:20.800 just all around fucking dope human being. But the episodes 0:12:20.800 --> 0:12:22.680 were great, the series was great, and I got to 0:12:22.720 --> 0:12:26.800 record them in the Red Studio. Like y'all don't really 0:12:26.800 --> 0:12:29.640 know what that means, but it's big shit. So I 0:12:29.640 --> 0:12:32.000 got to record in the Red Studio. Was so dope. 0:12:32.280 --> 0:12:34.000 It felt like I was supposed to be there. It 0:12:34.040 --> 0:12:38.840 felt like breathing. And I pray that God awards me 0:12:38.880 --> 0:12:43.000 the opportunity to visit again and record there again. And 0:12:43.480 --> 0:12:46.080 also another thing that I don't take for granted is 0:12:46.400 --> 0:12:49.160 all of the completely amazing interviews that I have shared 0:12:49.160 --> 0:12:52.280 with you guys this season, in the episodes that I 0:12:52.320 --> 0:12:54.840 recorded with myself because don't get it fucked up episodes. 0:12:54.960 --> 0:12:58.560 The solo episodes they hit and they don't miss. But 0:12:59.160 --> 0:13:03.120 the me, the solo episodes are just like me talking 0:13:03.160 --> 0:13:06.720 to you, right, But when I'm able to talk to 0:13:06.880 --> 0:13:09.640 other people and share it with you, it's really amazing 0:13:09.679 --> 0:13:11.880 with me. And I'm in awe, like I said, of 0:13:12.280 --> 0:13:17.040 all of the magic that was created in the conversations 0:13:17.080 --> 0:13:20.520 that I've had with folks on the show this season. Also, 0:13:20.559 --> 0:13:22.400 we're going to talk about some of the lessons I've learned. 0:13:22.440 --> 0:13:25.520 I'm going to share some of the journey over the 0:13:25.600 --> 0:13:29.479 last year with y'all, the stress, the grief, the confusion, 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:35.400 the loneliness, the greatness, the wonder and yes, the wonder 0:13:35.400 --> 0:13:38.400 because there are moments that I could have never would 0:13:38.480 --> 0:13:44.360 have imagined, that I could just never would have dreamed of, 0:13:46.040 --> 0:13:50.160 just so many awesome things. I'm currently in a strange space, 0:13:50.480 --> 0:13:53.120 you know, of uncertainty, and you guys know, that's like 0:13:55.360 --> 0:14:01.040 a space that I tend to navigate tiptoe that my 0:14:01.360 --> 0:14:07.160 therapist really supports me in working through uncertainty. And so 0:14:07.200 --> 0:14:09.120 I'm in a spirit of uncertainty or in a space 0:14:09.160 --> 0:14:13.280 of uncertainty now about the future of handing my purse 0:14:13.559 --> 0:14:18.880 as it pertains to iHeartMedia and iHeart podcasts. But one 0:14:18.880 --> 0:14:22.080 thing that is constant and that I'm fundamentally certain of, 0:14:22.720 --> 0:14:28.320 and that is that I have the most amazing audience 0:14:28.360 --> 0:14:32.400 of listeners on this planet. Planet Earth has never seen 0:14:32.600 --> 0:14:34.920 a better and when I say better, I mean, what 0:14:34.960 --> 0:14:38.800 the fuck I said, a better bunch of human beings 0:14:38.840 --> 0:14:41.960 and aliens. If there are people listening outside of Planet 0:14:42.040 --> 0:14:45.720 Earth or aliens on Planet Earth, okay, listening to my show, 0:14:45.840 --> 0:14:48.560 or in the galaxy, because, like I said, somewhere on 0:14:48.680 --> 0:14:54.200 Venus or Saturn or Mars or Mercury, particularly Mercury, because 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:59.240 Mercury is all about communication, somebody could be listening or 0:14:59.320 --> 0:15:02.640 something could be listening, and I kind of think that 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:05.160 would be cool. And I know you are probably judging 0:15:05.160 --> 0:15:07.000 me and think that I'm a weirdo, but I don't care, 0:15:07.080 --> 0:15:15.800 because other life forms and other creatures and other things 0:15:16.080 --> 0:15:20.680 they deserve to listen to Hanimy my pursue, Okay stuff. Anyway, 0:15:21.840 --> 0:15:23.520 I just want to say that I'm really really, really 0:15:23.520 --> 0:15:27.800 really really grateful for all of you that do listen 0:15:27.880 --> 0:15:31.160 to me run my mouth every week. Y'all. Listen when 0:15:31.160 --> 0:15:33.200 I'm running my mouth, just talking to y'all as if 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:36.280 we were sitting at a table eating together and just 0:15:36.320 --> 0:15:38.080 having a good time. And y'all listen when I have 0:15:38.160 --> 0:15:44.000 folks on to talk about their lived experiences and you know, 0:15:44.000 --> 0:15:46.520 folks who just come to share their story with us. 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:50.320 One thing about my friends and can is that y'all 0:15:50.320 --> 0:15:53.120 gonna be there. And for that, I say thank you again, 0:15:53.760 --> 0:15:57.560 so very much. Every single week. I'm humbled by your support. 0:15:58.120 --> 0:16:03.840 I'm humbled by your consistency, and I'm being so sincere 0:16:04.040 --> 0:16:08.840 as Frederick Entertainer said, I'm so sincere. I'm so sincere 0:16:09.440 --> 0:16:12.600 your support and your encouragement. And like I said, your consistency, 0:16:12.920 --> 0:16:16.360 because consistency is important, humbles me and it brings me 0:16:16.400 --> 0:16:19.800 to tears on a regular basis, Like you have no idea. 0:16:19.920 --> 0:16:24.720 Sometimes I drop a few tears because I'm like, these 0:16:24.720 --> 0:16:28.480 motherfuckers keep coming back to listen to me. And sometimes 0:16:28.480 --> 0:16:31.360 I can't even believe that I'm four years in and 0:16:31.760 --> 0:16:35.440 I cannot believe how blessed I am. I'm blessed, that's 0:16:35.480 --> 0:16:39.360 what it is. It's not luck, because God doesn't really 0:16:39.400 --> 0:16:42.680 deal in luck, you know, That's not how That's not 0:16:42.720 --> 0:16:45.360 what I believe that's not my belief. I just believe 0:16:45.400 --> 0:16:50.800 that I am blessed and that God favors me, and 0:16:50.520 --> 0:16:54.440 I'm really grateful for that. And I do understand that 0:16:54.560 --> 0:16:58.000 hard work pays off, and every single time hard work 0:16:58.040 --> 0:16:59.920 is going to pay off. As long as I work hard, 0:17:02.080 --> 0:17:06.520 I will reap the harvest for what I have sown. 0:17:06.960 --> 0:17:09.119 And I'm grateful that I have people in my life 0:17:09.160 --> 0:17:11.920 that consistently remind me of the hard work that I've 0:17:11.960 --> 0:17:14.600 put in over the last five years. And this moment, 0:17:14.640 --> 0:17:16.560 I want to say thank you to my cousin Randall, 0:17:16.960 --> 0:17:19.960 because I'm about to cry or get it together. Girl. 0:17:21.320 --> 0:17:25.960 Sometimes when I go through like bouts of self doubt, 0:17:26.600 --> 0:17:31.080 I always call him because he will always remind me 0:17:31.720 --> 0:17:37.480 that no matter what, no matter what, I earned all 0:17:37.520 --> 0:17:40.560 of these blessings, all of this favor, I've worked really 0:17:40.600 --> 0:17:44.080 hard and he was there to watch me grind this 0:17:44.160 --> 0:17:50.400 shit out before an iHeart, before anything, he was there. 0:17:50.400 --> 0:17:51.960 And I just want to say thank you to my 0:17:52.000 --> 0:17:56.520 cousin Randall for having my back and always reminded me, like, motherfucker, 0:17:56.560 --> 0:17:59.320 you earned this shit. You worked hard, man. He always says, 0:17:59.520 --> 0:18:02.040 manifest it is great, and you know it's great. That 0:18:02.080 --> 0:18:05.399 you say that you manifest things, but no, you fucking 0:18:06.240 --> 0:18:08.320 worked your ass off to get where you are. And 0:18:08.359 --> 0:18:11.200 he's right, and I need that reminder sometimes, So shout 0:18:11.200 --> 0:18:17.919 out to my cousin Randall. Now I want to play 0:18:17.960 --> 0:18:21.960 something for you guys. This is a recording before I 0:18:22.000 --> 0:18:25.919 even get into the journey. This is a recording that 0:18:26.000 --> 0:18:28.080 one of you guys actually one of my friends, and 0:18:28.160 --> 0:18:33.959 can shout out to my fucking friends and can that 0:18:34.000 --> 0:18:38.960 one of you guys sent to me. And I'm gonna 0:18:38.960 --> 0:18:40.920 just play it for you first, So go ahead and 0:18:41.040 --> 0:18:43.520 come on, let's listen up and get into this real 0:18:43.600 --> 0:18:46.280 quick large takeaway here. 0:18:46.520 --> 0:18:48.640 Thank you, Thank you for being you. 0:18:49.000 --> 0:18:50.080 I really appreciate you. 0:18:50.640 --> 0:18:53.240 Thank you for creating a space where you can share 0:18:53.280 --> 0:18:56.000 all of you with all of us. Because there have 0:18:56.040 --> 0:19:00.800 been a few instances where your messages and your podcast, 0:19:00.800 --> 0:19:04.160 whether it's from you directly, a book, you're sharing, a song, 0:19:04.200 --> 0:19:07.120 you're sharing a guest on whatever, you know what I mean, 0:19:07.880 --> 0:19:11.000 all of that has helped whatever I was experiencing in 0:19:11.080 --> 0:19:16.800 that moment. Because I do believe in intentions and diffinity 0:19:16.840 --> 0:19:18.879 of the universe. I believe in all of that. I 0:19:18.920 --> 0:19:22.760 believe that I am brought to your podcast and other 0:19:22.840 --> 0:19:24.800 things when I need them. And there have been a 0:19:24.840 --> 0:19:27.719 lot of times where I've been experiencing something on the 0:19:27.720 --> 0:19:30.520 inside and I put on your show and it's been 0:19:30.680 --> 0:19:34.240 just a message there to help me pull through whatever 0:19:34.240 --> 0:19:36.000 I'm going through. So I would like to say thank 0:19:36.040 --> 0:19:38.159 you for that. 0:19:38.160 --> 0:19:39.600 That is my message this morning. 0:19:39.680 --> 0:19:41.120 I hope you have a wonderful day. 0:19:42.080 --> 0:19:45.000 I'm not even go in front. When I receive this, 0:19:45.400 --> 0:19:52.600 I cried like a baby, like snot cry because nobody. 0:19:53.320 --> 0:19:57.520 I won't say nobody, but like nobody really knows how 0:19:57.560 --> 0:20:00.000 difficult it is. And I am going to say nobody 0:20:00.320 --> 0:20:02.560 how difficult it is sometimes for me to be so 0:20:02.800 --> 0:20:09.439 vulnerable to share so much of myself. I love saying myself. 0:20:10.000 --> 0:20:12.120 I don't know what that is? Do I need a 0:20:12.160 --> 0:20:19.680 speech freaking therapist? What the hell y'all know what's coming anyway? 0:20:20.840 --> 0:20:23.680 To share so much of myself without the fear of 0:20:23.760 --> 0:20:30.639 being judged, without guilt or feeling shame, And sometimes I 0:20:30.640 --> 0:20:33.800 do feel shame, and just to expose so much of 0:20:33.840 --> 0:20:38.280 who I am every week, all the while still trying 0:20:38.280 --> 0:20:41.360 to navigate my own shit because real life is happening 0:20:42.400 --> 0:20:47.960 outside of this microphone in this studio if you call 0:20:48.000 --> 0:20:51.399 it that, or this booth. Real life is happening for me, 0:20:51.760 --> 0:20:54.560 and you guys know that because I talk about it. 0:20:54.640 --> 0:20:56.679 And so for me to navigate my own shit and 0:20:56.720 --> 0:21:00.400 deal with my own healing journey, deal with grief, deal 0:21:00.440 --> 0:21:05.639 with joy, deal with confusion, deal with loneliness, not so 0:21:05.640 --> 0:21:11.760 almost lonliness, loneliness when I loneliness within my grief. You know, 0:21:12.200 --> 0:21:16.320 sometimes it's hard, and for some people it's really easy 0:21:16.400 --> 0:21:19.320 just to pretend that you're somebody else or to pretend 0:21:19.320 --> 0:21:22.040 that everything is great, And it's sometimes really hard for 0:21:22.080 --> 0:21:25.280 me to just come before you really raw the way 0:21:25.320 --> 0:21:29.720 that I do, and just not front and not pretend 0:21:30.200 --> 0:21:32.679 that shit is sweet, you know what I mean? Like 0:21:32.720 --> 0:21:36.120 in person with people. You know, people are notorious for saying, oh, 0:21:36.119 --> 0:21:38.920 how are you? Oh I'm fine. I don't I'm fine 0:21:38.960 --> 0:21:42.320 y'all with y'all, like I keep the shit a buck. 0:21:42.400 --> 0:21:44.679 I try to be as honest as possible with you guys, 0:21:45.119 --> 0:21:49.000 and just be myself, my authentic self, my most authentic self, 0:21:49.280 --> 0:21:52.399 and be really raw and naked if you will, with 0:21:52.440 --> 0:21:54.320 you guys, because I want you to understand that I 0:21:54.320 --> 0:21:57.439 am coming before you as myself and not pretending to 0:21:57.480 --> 0:21:59.840 be somebody else, which a lot of times, I'm going 0:21:59.880 --> 0:22:04.080 to say it a lot of times on when it 0:22:04.119 --> 0:22:09.880 comes to media, so on social media, the television, television shows, 0:22:10.880 --> 0:22:16.840 reality shows, podcasts, radio shows, people are pretending to be 0:22:16.960 --> 0:22:21.159 other people and it fundamentally goes against everything that I 0:22:21.200 --> 0:22:23.960 believe in to do that. So I really want to 0:22:24.000 --> 0:22:26.840 come before you just as myself. It's really important for 0:22:26.880 --> 0:22:30.760 me to do that. And so this message really made 0:22:30.800 --> 0:22:37.120 me feel seen, and it made me feel like the 0:22:37.160 --> 0:22:41.320 work that I do here with handing my purse for 0:22:42.000 --> 0:22:47.120 y'all and for me because please believe, this fills me up. 0:22:47.200 --> 0:22:49.760 It fills my cup. So if it fills your cup up, 0:22:50.359 --> 0:22:53.239 I'm that is a blessing for me as well a 0:22:53.240 --> 0:22:55.480 blessing as a blessing for you. But it fills me 0:22:55.640 --> 0:22:58.040 up to do this work, and it makes me feel 0:22:58.080 --> 0:23:00.760 like the work that I do is steeps and purpose, 0:23:01.280 --> 0:23:04.439 you know what I mean. Sometimes I listen to this 0:23:04.520 --> 0:23:07.879 message and it helps me to redirect my thoughts, my 0:23:07.920 --> 0:23:11.280 negative thoughts and my negative self talk. It helps me 0:23:11.359 --> 0:23:15.840 to redirect self doubt that I have Sometimes, Oh sis 0:23:16.000 --> 0:23:22.040 is getting a little wet eyes and it's and it's 0:23:22.080 --> 0:23:27.359 really wonderful for me that one of you thought enough 0:23:27.400 --> 0:23:34.600 of me to share this with me. And I open 0:23:34.680 --> 0:23:38.960 the door for you guys to please send me messages 0:23:39.040 --> 0:23:45.879 like this, because like they really warm my heart. And 0:23:45.960 --> 0:23:48.840 so I'm not saying that you need to or you 0:23:48.920 --> 0:23:50.800 have to. Clearly I'm not the boss of you, but 0:23:51.760 --> 0:23:57.159 if you are ever brought to a space where you 0:23:57.200 --> 0:23:59.760 feel like you know what, let me just share. I 0:23:59.840 --> 0:24:01.520 just I think that you should share that kind of 0:24:01.520 --> 0:24:04.840 stuff with people all the time. People should know that 0:24:06.000 --> 0:24:10.040 the impact that they have on your life and when 0:24:10.080 --> 0:24:12.640 you appreciate them, when you are grateful for them. So 0:24:12.800 --> 0:24:19.000 I just want to say shout out to you friend, 0:24:19.040 --> 0:24:22.919 my friend and Ken that sent me this message. It 0:24:23.000 --> 0:24:26.280 was I'm really really grateful, it was really kind. You 0:24:26.320 --> 0:24:29.800 didn't have to do it. But look I'm over here 0:24:29.840 --> 0:24:33.479 crying just talking about it because it has been a 0:24:33.520 --> 0:24:39.199 real blessing for me, especially, it has really been a 0:24:39.240 --> 0:24:44.359 blessing for me over the past probably four months. So 0:24:45.320 --> 0:24:48.080 thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm so grateful for you. 0:24:49.280 --> 0:24:52.479 Shut out to my friends again. And also I just 0:24:52.520 --> 0:24:56.280 want to say that it helps to remind me of 0:24:58.200 --> 0:25:02.240 my why. It reminds me me of why I do this. 0:25:03.880 --> 0:25:07.879 It ruins me why I do it, Okay, because sometimes 0:25:09.560 --> 0:25:12.359 I get so caught up and I talk about this 0:25:12.400 --> 0:25:15.760 all the time, caught up an outcome that I lose 0:25:16.160 --> 0:25:19.159 sight of why I do this work. And I just 0:25:19.800 --> 0:25:24.840 am so grateful that you guys send me the messages 0:25:24.880 --> 0:25:27.560 that you do, whether it's a voice message, whether it's 0:25:27.600 --> 0:25:31.760 a text message, whether it's an email or a message 0:25:31.760 --> 0:25:35.680 on Instagram or Facebook. I'm just grateful, And please don't stop, 0:25:35.720 --> 0:25:40.359 please and continue to share that with me, because like 0:25:40.400 --> 0:25:42.200 I said, it really fills me up. Shout out to 0:25:42.280 --> 0:25:58.000 my friends and ken y'all are the fucking best. Now, 0:25:58.080 --> 0:26:02.600 let us take a little journey into uh season four 0:26:02.640 --> 0:26:05.000 of Handing My Purse. We're gonna talk about the challenges, 0:26:05.080 --> 0:26:09.600 the triumphs, the lessons, the triumphs, the lessons, the joy 0:26:10.320 --> 0:26:12.600 and we're gonna start from like when I had to 0:26:12.680 --> 0:26:15.200 plan and prepare for the launch of my very first 0:26:15.280 --> 0:26:19.879 episode with iHeartMedia or IET Podcasts. So just as I 0:26:19.960 --> 0:26:22.160 was preparing and lining up all the pieces to launch 0:26:22.160 --> 0:26:26.240 Handing my Purse on iHeart, because there's a lot of 0:26:26.240 --> 0:26:29.879 fucking work that goes into the preparation for the launch 0:26:29.920 --> 0:26:33.920 of a show on a major network. There's so many 0:26:33.960 --> 0:26:35.960 meetings and things that you got to get lined up 0:26:36.000 --> 0:26:37.959 and just hell the shit to prepare for. So right 0:26:38.000 --> 0:26:40.880 before my producers and I really started to get down 0:26:40.880 --> 0:26:43.240 in the delta with the hardcore preparation for my launch. 0:26:43.640 --> 0:26:46.680 As you guys know, my grandfather, my grandfather, Well, that 0:26:46.920 --> 0:26:51.560 was before the launch of Handing My Purse. Period. That's 0:26:51.600 --> 0:26:56.960 so fucking ironic, hmm. I never thought about that. Right 0:26:57.000 --> 0:27:01.520 before I launched Handing My Purse. Period in January of 0:27:01.560 --> 0:27:05.879