WEBVTT - Brian Reed Thought "S-Town" Could Only Ever Be a Cult Show

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<v Speaker 1>This is Alec Baldwin and you're listening to Here's the thing,

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<v Speaker 1>My chance to talk with artists, policymakers and performers, to

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<v Speaker 1>hear their stories. What inspires their creations, what decisions change

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<v Speaker 1>their careers, what relationships influenced their work. Good stories teach

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<v Speaker 1>us about people. Great ones alter the way we see ourselves.

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<v Speaker 1>For many, the new podcast s Town has done just that.

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<v Speaker 1>The seven episode series from the folks who brought us

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<v Speaker 1>Serial and This American Life, provides a window into the

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<v Speaker 1>world of an eccentric Alabama horologist named John B. McLemore.

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<v Speaker 1>Released on March, it reached critical acclaim almost instantly, garnering

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<v Speaker 1>sixteen million downloads in the first seven days. But to

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<v Speaker 1>focus on its commercial success would be missing the point.

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<v Speaker 1>S Town isn't about celebrity, viral tweets, or even the

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<v Speaker 1>alleged Alabama murder that led host and producer Brian Reid

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<v Speaker 1>to McLamore in the first place. The front door of

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<v Speaker 1>the house opens and a man comes bounding out of it.

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<v Speaker 1>I found it nice to meet you. There's no nice

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<v Speaker 1>to meet you back, No how you do in no handshake.

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<v Speaker 1>John just takes off around the side of the house

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<v Speaker 1>with a pack of dogs following him. She's like the same. Next.

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<v Speaker 1>It's about a brilliant, cynical man whose very existence challenges

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<v Speaker 1>modern notions of masculinity, homophobia, and mental illness. A man

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<v Speaker 1>who had a story to tell, just not the one

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<v Speaker 1>he thought. As the world continues to devour s Town,

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<v Speaker 1>I sat down with Brian Reid to talk about the

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<v Speaker 1>critical acclaim the series has received. I don't know. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>getting a taste of it and I'm and I'm enjoying

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<v Speaker 1>it and I'm grateful to people like it. It doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>feel overwhelming, you know. Do you also feel it's an

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<v Speaker 1>enormous opportunity for you to channel this energy into you

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<v Speaker 1>big production deal and get things going and start making

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<v Speaker 1>some more content. Oh maybe I don't know, Maybe I

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<v Speaker 1>should be thinking that way. I mean, I'm back in

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<v Speaker 1>my day job right now. I work at this American

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<v Speaker 1>life and I'm just making stories now work. Yeah, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>the day after this came out, Ira was like, are

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<v Speaker 1>you back at work tomorrow? Like, basically, I've been gone

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<v Speaker 1>for a year on hiatus, and they wanted to who

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<v Speaker 1>are you? I knew you were. I'm sorry, but when

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<v Speaker 1>you did this, you obviously didn't predict the success. No.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought it was going to be if anything, like

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<v Speaker 1>a cultish thing. And I started working on this even

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<v Speaker 1>before Cereal was out, you know, so like or invented,

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<v Speaker 1>they were just started starting serial. So tell us that, Um,

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<v Speaker 1>what is s Town? And I mean, what is it

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<v Speaker 1>for a listener in an encapsulated kind of Uh? If

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<v Speaker 1>if there was the equivalent of TV guide like radio guide,

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<v Speaker 1>what would you say in a pithy para. It's really hard.

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<v Speaker 1>We struggled with this because there's certain things you don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to tell about the story. You want people to

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<v Speaker 1>learn them in the story. So that's been challenging because

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<v Speaker 1>it's a story that shifts a number of times throughout it.

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<v Speaker 1>Things happened that change that kind of the story shifts

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<v Speaker 1>underneath It happened underneath my feet in real life as

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<v Speaker 1>I was reporting it, but then also as that story.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what we've tried to reflect in the story as well.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's about a man named John B. McLamore who

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<v Speaker 1>contacted me. Um, he contacted you. He wrote our show,

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<v Speaker 1>and I saw his email and responded. He says in

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<v Speaker 1>his first email, I'm a longtime listener who recently started

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<v Speaker 1>listening again, which is sometimes crazy to be this whole

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<v Speaker 1>seven part. The thing is just about a listener, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like of which we have millions, which is nuts. But um, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he'd been hearing the show and um he heard a

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<v Speaker 1>couple in particular stories we've done. Um I Rea did

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<v Speaker 1>a story um investigating a judge and some possible malfeasance

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<v Speaker 1>that a judgment UM doing in rural Georgia. He'd heard

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<v Speaker 1>that story and in a show we did called getting

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<v Speaker 1>Away with It, which actually wasn't investigated at all, but

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<v Speaker 1>I think the title caught his attention. And uh, and

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<v Speaker 1>he wanted us to come down and investigate some wrongdoing

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<v Speaker 1>that he said was going on in his small town

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<v Speaker 1>in Alabama. So he reaches out to you. He talks

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<v Speaker 1>to you first. He wrote our general account, I want

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<v Speaker 1>to alert your producers to some stuff that's going on

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<v Speaker 1>in my town. And the and the subject line was

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<v Speaker 1>John by McLamore lives in Shiptown, Alabama. That was his title.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a liveliness to it, there was he had

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<v Speaker 1>you with that subject. Yeah, and there was a liveliness

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<v Speaker 1>to it, even even like the capitalization was erratic in

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<v Speaker 1>a way, that caught my attention in the email, and

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<v Speaker 1>then you know, he said, I would hope that you

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<v Speaker 1>guys could come down here and investigate some of the

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<v Speaker 1>terrible things that are going on in this ship town

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<v Speaker 1>would Stock, Alabama and bib County, Alabama. And he mentioned,

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<v Speaker 1>um two incidents, one of which was this murder that

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<v Speaker 1>he said had taken place, Um that a local kind

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<v Speaker 1>of rich kid had allegedly beating someone to death and

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<v Speaker 1>then was out bragging about it, had not gone to jail,

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<v Speaker 1>gotten away with it. And so that's what he was

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<v Speaker 1>telling us about. But it was also like just generally,

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<v Speaker 1>you need to check this place out. It's so fucking terrible.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that was like the general vibe with a couple

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<v Speaker 1>of examples. But I would imagine that beyond the kind

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<v Speaker 1>of fulk Ner esque tableau of the area, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean this kind of southern idol and the crazy

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<v Speaker 1>characters and the and and the implication of some crime

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<v Speaker 1>or some evil or what have you, I would imagine

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<v Speaker 1>that you must get variations of that pitch to you

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<v Speaker 1>all the time. We do. Yeah, that one made you

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<v Speaker 1>what what was it about this when they made you go, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>let's go down so the next thing is should go

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<v Speaker 1>down there. Correct. Well, I talked to him for a

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<v Speaker 1>while in the phone. It took a year for me

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<v Speaker 1>to get on the phone with him because it was

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<v Speaker 1>not a priority for me, like I was working on

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<v Speaker 1>other stuff that seem more real, you know. And then

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<v Speaker 1>eventually we got on the phone because he sent me

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<v Speaker 1>like a news report about some actual police corruption that

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<v Speaker 1>had actually happened, which reminded me that I should check

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<v Speaker 1>in with this guy you call him in what happens.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, we talked about the alleged murderer, but then

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<v Speaker 1>also he just starts talking about his life in general.

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<v Speaker 1>He you know, he's forty eight at the time we

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<v Speaker 1>started talking, I think around there, late forties, um, And

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<v Speaker 1>he'd lived there his entire life, in this town of

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<v Speaker 1>people are less. He'd never left. He desperately hated it.

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<v Speaker 1>He wanted to leave, but wouldn't leave if he lived

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<v Speaker 1>there alone, in the house he'd grown up in that

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<v Speaker 1>had been there for centuries, in a century and a half,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, with his mother who had dementia who we

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<v Speaker 1>took care of, and you know, a large number of

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<v Speaker 1>dogs fluctuating between thirteen and twenty one dogs and he

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<v Speaker 1>built a giant hedge maze in his backyard. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>he was, he was. It was just one of those

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<v Speaker 1>conversations where, yeah, I was getting the information about the murder,

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<v Speaker 1>the alleged murder, but also he seemed to be going

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<v Speaker 1>through something in talking to me. It wasn't even just details,

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<v Speaker 1>like all those details are interesting, but he was wrestling

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<v Speaker 1>with the fact that he had never left this place.

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<v Speaker 1>He despised and that caught my attention and I was yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was like, maybe there's a murderer. If there's

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<v Speaker 1>a murder, this guy is part of it. This is

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<v Speaker 1>what makes the story special. You know, it was always

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<v Speaker 1>going to be. He was a big part of it

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<v Speaker 1>from the get go. I mean, that's interesting to me

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<v Speaker 1>that when you you talked to this guy on the phone,

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<v Speaker 1>he's a good talker, and he's compelling, and his voice

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<v Speaker 1>is so kind of theatrical, and I know you're telling

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<v Speaker 1>yourself this, this has some possibilities. We are a radio show, absolutely,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I mean you need I mean, in order

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<v Speaker 1>for a radio story to work, you need a good

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<v Speaker 1>talk sound like. That's the phrase that said many times

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<v Speaker 1>in our office. Every day of this American life is

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<v Speaker 1>he a good talker, and a story can live or

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<v Speaker 1>die on that. A story that in a pitch on

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<v Speaker 1>a piece of paper, UM, could have all the beats

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<v Speaker 1>of an interesting story and surprise, we'll call him, do

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<v Speaker 1>a pre interview with someone and it just doesn't live.

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<v Speaker 1>You need a good talker to you know, great stories

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<v Speaker 1>happen to those. So a year goes by between when

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<v Speaker 1>you first picked this up when you call him, how

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<v Speaker 1>much time goes by after that from when you first

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<v Speaker 1>go down there. We talked on the phone for I think,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, eight to ten months, because I was working

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<v Speaker 1>on other stuff and I did try to see if

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<v Speaker 1>I could find anything about this murder from Afar. Basically

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<v Speaker 1>I was doing just getting into the court system and

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<v Speaker 1>stuff UM and I couldn't and eventually got to the

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<v Speaker 1>point where like, I just need to go down there.

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<v Speaker 1>But in the course of that I would be checking

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<v Speaker 1>in with John, and we invariably had these very long

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<v Speaker 1>conversations that were about much more than the murder. So

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<v Speaker 1>we're getting to know each other, you know. I got

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<v Speaker 1>to know about his obsession with climate change and about

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<v Speaker 1>this relationship that he had with these um you know,

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<v Speaker 1>this local guy that worked on his property. That was

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<v Speaker 1>interesting to me, Like there were just elements where it's

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<v Speaker 1>just like I want to go. He's the other protective.

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<v Speaker 1>Um what what was the root of his obsession with

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<v Speaker 1>climate change? What was he because of changes that were

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<v Speaker 1>happening down there? I don't know for sure, and I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't talk about. My sense is that what I've been

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<v Speaker 1>told this isn't in the story, is that, Um, he

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<v Speaker 1>got a computer only in the last few years of

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<v Speaker 1>his life, and stay the last five years someone at

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<v Speaker 1>town Hall hooked him up with an old computer before.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, he was incredibly intelligent and in touch with

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<v Speaker 1>the world. Um, but like I think he had like

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<v Speaker 1>books shipped to him from the library is how he

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<v Speaker 1>did it. Um, but he he was given a computer.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think my sense is that the climate change

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<v Speaker 1>and energy and peak oil fixations, and you know, him

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<v Speaker 1>teaching himself about that, like he really went down some

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<v Speaker 1>rabbit holes with the computer. But it's interesting. I wonder

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<v Speaker 1>also how he's so connected to the land to borrow

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<v Speaker 1>that cliche that he knows sort of to notice changes

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<v Speaker 1>in that. Yeah, and I think you're I mean, he

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<v Speaker 1>would talk about like I'm seeing less butterflies, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>he would notice things like that things are getting brown er,

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<v Speaker 1>we haven't had rain in this long so yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>think that was party was very connected to his environment. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so you go down and meet him for the first

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<v Speaker 1>time and describe that situation. It's just me. That's one

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<v Speaker 1>of the great things about radio reporting. It's super lean.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't need like a film crew, you don't need

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<v Speaker 1>the Golden Hour. Yeah, but it's just like a little

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<v Speaker 1>kid that I'm paying on my neck in a tiny

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<v Speaker 1>you know, like a medium sized microphone. So it's pretty

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm just in my car rental car. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's pretty much as I described in the story,

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<v Speaker 1>like I missed his house, you know, the first time

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<v Speaker 1>pass Birmingham, um, like forty five minutes rent a car

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<v Speaker 1>for if miss to an hour gets pretty I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>it's the kind of the beginning of like rural part

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<v Speaker 1>of West Alabama. Like they're they're the first county kind

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<v Speaker 1>of after you leave Jefferson County, which has um Birmingham

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<v Speaker 1>and Bessemer, which is kind of like the you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the end of the Metro era, I'd say, is my

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<v Speaker 1>understanding of it. You're driving, you're driving kind of southwest

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<v Speaker 1>out of Birmingham, UM, but it's bib Counties kind of

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<v Speaker 1>between Birmingham and Tuscaloose are these two kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>things on each their cities on either side that are

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<v Speaker 1>each about forty five minutes outside. He'd give me directions,

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<v Speaker 1>but he was like Google Maps doesn't really work, like

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<v Speaker 1>you should use latitude and longitude would be more helpful.

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<v Speaker 1>So I put that into Google Maps. Yeah, exactly. I

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<v Speaker 1>had you know, a compass with me. Missed his house

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<v Speaker 1>because it's just a little like driveway path through the woods.

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<v Speaker 1>Eventually like came back by and went down there, like

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<v Speaker 1>I think it was feet into the woods, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you had this clearing and it is this very old house.

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<v Speaker 1>And you know, I've been in Alabama once before, kind

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<v Speaker 1>of just passing through, and I've been in the South before,

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<v Speaker 1>and but I was kind of just like, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>well maybe this is just like a normal house and

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<v Speaker 1>like place to live in the South. This land that's

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<v Speaker 1>like this house in the middle of a clearing. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>that's very old. But I've since you know, spent a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of time in Alabama and talked to a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of people and everyone who know, even lifelong residents of Alabama.

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<v Speaker 1>I said, no, that place is not normal. When I

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<v Speaker 1>first went to John, that was like, where the hell

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<v Speaker 1>am I like, I'm stepping back in time? That That's

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<v Speaker 1>what's curious to me, is I mean, I'm not I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to say. He sounded to me and I

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<v Speaker 1>only experienced him on your show and his voice in

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<v Speaker 1>your show, and he sounded to me like he was

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<v Speaker 1>pretty wound up and pretty intense, and he's very colorful

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<v Speaker 1>in a way that would make me entertained by him

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<v Speaker 1>alternately and concerned about him alternately. So when you go

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<v Speaker 1>down there, you're not nervous, You're not worried for your safety.

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't worried for my safety. I was a little

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I was aware that I was going somewhere

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<v Speaker 1>kind of off the grid. You know. I don't remember

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<v Speaker 1>being conserned my safety with John. I don't mean you've

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<v Speaker 1>spoken to him so many times trust with him, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess so. Um, But he certainly was very intense

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<v Speaker 1>and he was exhausting to be with, you know, both

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<v Speaker 1>thrilling and could be frustrating and exhausting, you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>his it wasn't like a normal interview, like what we're

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<v Speaker 1>doing right now, Like I could not get him to

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<v Speaker 1>do that. You know, there were a couple of times

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<v Speaker 1>I tried to sit down and just talk to him,

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<v Speaker 1>and he was just he couldn't sit there and talk.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you attribute too, I think it's his personality and

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<v Speaker 1>whether that's you know, certain mental health issues or as

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<v Speaker 1>I talk about in the story, there's a question of

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<v Speaker 1>mercury poisoning. Yeah. I wasn't nervous, but it was like

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<v Speaker 1>just really trying to get a grasp on like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, you're reporting, you don't just like normally

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<v Speaker 1>let someone talk. That's not reporting, you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>Like you have questions and you have a focus, and

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<v Speaker 1>where were those questions and what was the focus when

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<v Speaker 1>you began well with him? I mean, like I definitely

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<v Speaker 1>was like, you know, we've got to do this murder

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<v Speaker 1>investigation stuff. So were certain steps I wanted to take,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, that were seemed safe but defined with him.

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<v Speaker 1>But then I was also open to like, I'm interested

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<v Speaker 1>in him in his life. I want to talk to

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<v Speaker 1>him about his life. I'm interested in this relationship he

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<v Speaker 1>started to tell me about with Tyler Goodson and some

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<v Speaker 1>of the locals there, So hopefully I'll get to like

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<v Speaker 1>get inside that a little bit. So that was those

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<v Speaker 1>were all kind of like through lines in my head,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, as I'm down there. But then he had

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<v Speaker 1>his own agendas to like, well, he wanted to teach

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<v Speaker 1>me about climate change. Like he literally, like the second

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<v Speaker 1>morning I was there, you know, called him. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm up, I'm going to drive over there. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I was staying like fifteen or two minutes away, and

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<v Speaker 1>he's like, Okay, I'm preparing a lecture for you on

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<v Speaker 1>climate change. I timed it, it's like five minutes. It

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<v Speaker 1>will only take twenty minutes. But did you sense he

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to teach you out of some kind of intellectual

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<v Speaker 1>vanity or was he the Obi wan Kenobi of climate

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<v Speaker 1>change and want you to run out and go fight

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<v Speaker 1>the fight somewhere? What did the artic constantly had this

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<v Speaker 1>feeling with John where in all my time knowing him

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<v Speaker 1>and to this day, his mind and his ability to

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<v Speaker 1>understand particularly science, um was so beyond mine. Like like

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<v Speaker 1>what he would talk about climate change, it was I

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<v Speaker 1>could get like two percent of it. And so I

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<v Speaker 1>constantly have this feeling of like either he is a

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<v Speaker 1>freaking profit or completely looney. I have no idea, and

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<v Speaker 1>it could be either at any points either I still

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, I mean, and I I hired to research

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<v Speaker 1>her to look into like a lot of his writings

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<v Speaker 1>on climate change, like to try and figure that out.

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<v Speaker 1>At one point it's I mean, it was so complicated,

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<v Speaker 1>like basically it seems like he's right. He's not like

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<v Speaker 1>putting factual and accuracies in these in his theories, but

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<v Speaker 1>he is. The general sense I got after the researcher

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<v Speaker 1>looked into it was that, um like he you know,

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<v Speaker 1>he's he's choosing things to focus on that serve his thesis,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, that serve his negative worldview. So you start

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<v Speaker 1>with him down this path of exploring the crime, and

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<v Speaker 1>then you find out that none of it is what

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<v Speaker 1>it was purported to be. Some of it is, but

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<v Speaker 1>one important detail is different, important detail different. When you

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<v Speaker 1>discover that, what prevents you from just packing up and

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<v Speaker 1>leaving and going we're done. I discovered it after I

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<v Speaker 1>So I did a visit there in October, but I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't actually really put it all, like come to the

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<v Speaker 1>conclusion of that until early summer. I still was interested

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<v Speaker 1>in him. He had other pieces of corruption that he

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<v Speaker 1>was telling me about. I was like maybe. And I

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<v Speaker 1>was interested in his relationship with Tyler Goodson, and so

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, Okay, maybe they I'll look into one

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<v Speaker 1>of these other things. Because what he was telling me

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<v Speaker 1>it happened. Everyone in town believed it. It happened exactly

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<v Speaker 1>as he told me. He didn't make it up. It

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<v Speaker 1>was just that, you know, one important detail was different

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<v Speaker 1>that didn't make it as bad of a crime as

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<v Speaker 1>he had said it was. So I was talking to

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<v Speaker 1>him like, I'm gonna come back down there. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>there are a couple of loose ends I wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>put to bed with this initial murder investigation, um, and

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<v Speaker 1>then just talk to him, you know, like kind of

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<v Speaker 1>get inside his and Tyler's relationship a little bit more. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>possibly look at another piece of corruption or you know,

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<v Speaker 1>wrongdoing that he was telling me about. So that was

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<v Speaker 1>in like June. We were having these conversations. I was

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<v Speaker 1>working on a big story that was coming on on

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<v Speaker 1>July four, and I was like, right after July four, John,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to come back down there, you know. And

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<v Speaker 1>he was all like, um, oh my god, it's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be the dead of summer. It's gonna be so hot,

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<v Speaker 1>and I need to get the house cleaner out here,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's the house is full of fleas and oh

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<v Speaker 1>my gosh, and I'm gonna have to prune the maze

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<v Speaker 1>and gracious. Yeah. And I was like, oh, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>worry about to worry about it. So right after July

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<v Speaker 1>four and then he he, um, I guess we're not

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<v Speaker 1>talking about this. That's the truck tricky part. But he

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<v Speaker 1>did the thing that he does in the story on

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<v Speaker 1>June two, and so that, um, do you do? You

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<v Speaker 1>want to tell it? You because you want to? Can

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<v Speaker 1>you tell people to maybe you like, go with the

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<v Speaker 1>show first before I say that was the next part. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna stop here. Here's where you press pause, pause

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<v Speaker 1>now and go listen to S Town, which in total

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<v Speaker 1>is what six hours or six and change. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 1>we mean it. If you haven't listened to S Town

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<v Speaker 1>and don't want more details about what happens, stop listening

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<v Speaker 1>to this right now. Go download S Town and come

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<v Speaker 1>back here in six hours if you are sticking with us.

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<v Speaker 1>Coming up, Brian Reid reveals why he can never eat

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<v Speaker 1>calamari again. Hint, it involves pork Brian started at This

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<v Speaker 1>American Life as an intern in two thousand ten. He

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<v Speaker 1>says he can't imagine another place where he would have

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<v Speaker 1>gotten to make s Town, in large part because of

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<v Speaker 1>the creative wisdom of his boss, Ira Glass, who I

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<v Speaker 1>spoke to a couple of years ago. I mean this

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<v Speaker 1>show because my taste, but also I have to say

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<v Speaker 1>the taste of my coworkers, you know, like it's not

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<v Speaker 1>just mine at this point, Like it's something that we

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<v Speaker 1>all share, and I happened to be the frontman, and

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<v Speaker 1>in that way it's different than than it was from

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<v Speaker 1>the beginning, Like I am the frontman for this thing

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<v Speaker 1>that we make together, like somebody who's in a band

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<v Speaker 1>that's been playing for a long time. To hear more

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<v Speaker 1>of my conversation with Ira Glass, take a listen at

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<v Speaker 1>Here's the Thing dot Org. This is Alec Baldwin and

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<v Speaker 1>you were listening to Here's the Thing. When Brian Read

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<v Speaker 1>replied to an email sent to This American Life from

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<v Speaker 1>John B. McLamore, he intended to get more information about

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<v Speaker 1>an alleged murder in rural Alabama. Instead, he met a

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<v Speaker 1>most compelling character who, after hours of interviews, left him

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<v Speaker 1>in an unusual position. So I was talking to Hi,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna come down after life. Fourth John. I was

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<v Speaker 1>beginning of June, you know, first couple of weeks of

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<v Speaker 1>June that I was having these conversations with him. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>And then on June's twenty, he killed himself, and so

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<v Speaker 1>I had there wasn't like did you see that coming? No?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean it was like it was a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>like the boy cried wolf with him and on and

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<v Speaker 1>on the show. You sound crushed. Yeah, it was one

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<v Speaker 1>of those things where you know, he talked, he said

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<v Speaker 1>he was going to kill himself, like he said, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to do it many times, and I knew he

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<v Speaker 1>said to other people. And it was still utterly shocking.

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<v Speaker 1>Where were you when you heard that he died. I

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<v Speaker 1>was in a studio in this American Life, recording it,

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<v Speaker 1>which I did not expect. How do you feel? I

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<v Speaker 1>felt shocked. I felt disbelief, but then kind of of course, Um,

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<v Speaker 1>did you feel angry? I didn't feel angry yet. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>you know other people you did. No, he didn't. He didn't.

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<v Speaker 1>He didn't know me anything. Here you've given him the

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<v Speaker 1>attention that he craved on a level he could never

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<v Speaker 1>have gotten it, you know. I mean, that's my I

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<v Speaker 1>get paid to do, right. I'm I'm not saying you're

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<v Speaker 1>doing any favorites. I'm just saying I found it interesting

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<v Speaker 1>that he did that, even in spite of the fact that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, had he lived, he could have been like

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<v Speaker 1>Lance Loud, like this cult figure. I mean, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>think he didn't want that, No, IM not. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know how he felt about I mean, I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>how he felt about that. I just think I was

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<v Speaker 1>not the biggest part of his life, Like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>that was that was something that was going on in

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<v Speaker 1>his life. He really felt, you weren't the biggest part

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<v Speaker 1>of his life. I'm definitely not the biggest part of it. Now.

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<v Speaker 1>We would talk occasionally and I went to visit him

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<v Speaker 1>for the better part, but he died before the podcast

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<v Speaker 1>came out. I know. I'm just saying, like, once the

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<v Speaker 1>podcast came out to it, you think he would have

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<v Speaker 1>been thrilled by the by the attention he got. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I think he would have really liked it. I think

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<v Speaker 1>he could have, though I don't totally know, because he

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<v Speaker 1>had such an unpredict He was such an unpredictable person

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<v Speaker 1>that he could have any number of reactions and I

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't deign to like get inside of his head about it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I appreciate that, which is very which because

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<v Speaker 1>he could also be annoyed by like the think piece

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<v Speaker 1>reactions and the you know, I think he would be

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<v Speaker 1>upset that I didn't have more climate change stuff in

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<v Speaker 1>the story, Like I think he would have criticisms and too.

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna leap back a bit. Where are you from?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm from Shelton, Connecticut. And when you like an hour

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<v Speaker 1>and a half from New York. And when you were

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<v Speaker 1>growing up was radio and communications that kind of thing

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<v Speaker 1>the goal were, you know? I never listened to radio. However,

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<v Speaker 1>my parents didn't know what MPR was Like. We're not

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<v Speaker 1>that kind of house. I feel there are a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of people who go work at MPR in public radio

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<v Speaker 1>who have this whole Like I grew up in an

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<v Speaker 1>MPR household. I did not have any clue what you

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<v Speaker 1>did it as a house painter? What'd your mom? She

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<v Speaker 1>a different jobs growing up. She always wanted to be

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<v Speaker 1>a teacher, but never became one fully, so now these

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<v Speaker 1>days she teaches adult head in different You have a

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<v Speaker 1>younger brother, what's he doing. He's in sales, door door salesman.

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<v Speaker 1>He's a door to door salesman. Your dad, your dad

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<v Speaker 1>was was a professional painting contractor. And how do you

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<v Speaker 1>get into this radio game? Where'd you go to college

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<v Speaker 1>to Yale? Would you study Yale theater and history? And

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<v Speaker 1>you wanted to be? I don't know. I think I

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<v Speaker 1>went in. I did like, you know, high school musicals

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<v Speaker 1>and stuff in high school. Going into college, I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be I would liked acting, but then I very

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<v Speaker 1>soon realized there are people far better at it than me.

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<v Speaker 1>So I did some performances in college, but I got

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<v Speaker 1>a little more into directing. Um, So I directed a

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<v Speaker 1>few shows and that was a little more my focus

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<v Speaker 1>in the major. And then and um and writing and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>I started to fancy myself a writer. I did some

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<v Speaker 1>journalism some friends and I took a road trip one

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<v Speaker 1>summer and like brought up cam quartering, like finagled some

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<v Speaker 1>grants and bought an old van and interviewed people about

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<v Speaker 1>what makes them happy, you know, and like tried to

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<v Speaker 1>write a book about it. I was just looking for

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<v Speaker 1>kind of jobs that were journalists, the you know, kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like writing that your initial direction was writing in journalism,

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<v Speaker 1>and yeah, writing, I fancy myself a writer, I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>I worked from a forum, an alternative weekly company for

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<v Speaker 1>very briefly for a few months in Washington, d C.

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<v Speaker 1>But got this fellowship at NPR called the Croc Fellowship,

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<v Speaker 1>which was funded by Joan kroc Um, which gave me

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<v Speaker 1>my career. Like I, I hadn't listened to radio, but

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<v Speaker 1>I went and did. It's a year long fellowship for

0:22:01.920 --> 0:22:03.639
<v Speaker 1>people who are shortly out of any kind of school.

0:22:04.080 --> 0:22:06.440
<v Speaker 1>You could do four different jobs in the organization, including

0:22:06.480 --> 0:22:09.760
<v Speaker 1>reporting and producing, and it's really trial by fire. And

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<v Speaker 1>at the end of it, I was like, Wow, radio

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<v Speaker 1>is really hard, but I really like it and I

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<v Speaker 1>think I'm getting better at it. I wasn't like love

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<v Speaker 1>at first sight like that, but I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>engaged by this. This is you know, there seems to

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<v Speaker 1>be opportunities here. And then shortly after that, I moved

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<v Speaker 1>to New York and got the internship what was then

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<v Speaker 1>the internship and is now the Fellowship at this American Life. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>what was that like when you got there? Because I

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<v Speaker 1>always show was such a monolith, you know, It's like

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<v Speaker 1>it's a great program, and yeah again, I was still

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<v Speaker 1>kind of new to it. I started listening to it

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<v Speaker 1>in the last year or two, just because I'd only

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<v Speaker 1>gotten into radio. I didn't listen to a growing up

0:22:39.960 --> 0:22:41.600
<v Speaker 1>and stuff. I think I was aware of it. I'd

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<v Speaker 1>heard some episodes, but um very soon after getting there,

0:22:45.320 --> 0:22:47.560
<v Speaker 1>Ira put me on a very big project. He was

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<v Speaker 1>producing an MPR reporter named Frank langfit on a hour

0:22:51.000 --> 0:22:55.600
<v Speaker 1>long story about a car plant called New me in California.

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<v Speaker 1>And really that's one of my favorites. I love well

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<v Speaker 1>was the first thing that produced, the one that one

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<v Speaker 1>with the one of that bung. I'm the one who

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<v Speaker 1>did the taste test, who got it wrong at you know.

0:23:07.640 --> 0:23:11.639
<v Speaker 1>So in actuality, Seth is eating calumari. The chewing you

0:23:11.640 --> 0:23:14.040
<v Speaker 1>hear from Brian's mic that is the sound of a

0:23:14.080 --> 0:23:18.760
<v Speaker 1>Calamari lever eating fried pig recton. I should also add

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<v Speaker 1>there were actually two varieties of bung on the plate

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<v Speaker 1>that day. One bung that my sister had blanched over

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<v Speaker 1>and over to mellow any organy fecal flavor and then

0:23:28.520 --> 0:23:33.200
<v Speaker 1>untreated straight up bung that one. The latter one bung

0:23:33.320 --> 0:23:36.040
<v Speaker 1>at its purest, at the height of its bungy nous.

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<v Speaker 1>This is what Brian was eating. I can't calmara legend?

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<v Speaker 1>Can Calamaria a legend among my friends? You know? That's

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<v Speaker 1>a very similar. The way that the Calamari story came

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<v Speaker 1>about is very similar to uh, the way East Town

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<v Speaker 1>came about. It was a tip line kind of email

0:23:49.320 --> 0:23:50.840
<v Speaker 1>where someone was like, I was in a pork I

0:23:50.840 --> 0:23:52.679
<v Speaker 1>believe it was someone saying, like, I was in a

0:23:52.720 --> 0:23:56.800
<v Speaker 1>pork processing plant and I saw boxes labeled with like

0:23:56.880 --> 0:23:59.440
<v Speaker 1>imitation Calamari, And that was how that's and they emailed

0:23:59.520 --> 0:24:01.200
<v Speaker 1>us about it. That was got what got us hooked

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<v Speaker 1>on that I don't I don't need Calamari anymore. And

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<v Speaker 1>even if I did, I would be like so uh

0:24:07.440 --> 0:24:10.040
<v Speaker 1>terrified because I loved it. So when you when you

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<v Speaker 1>do segments for that show, when you produce reports for

0:24:14.119 --> 0:24:16.199
<v Speaker 1>that show, you get to a point with some of

0:24:16.200 --> 0:24:18.399
<v Speaker 1>them where it becomes aborted. You sit there and go, well,

0:24:18.440 --> 0:24:20.399
<v Speaker 1>this isn't really holding together in terms of you find

0:24:20.520 --> 0:24:23.919
<v Speaker 1>somebody with many of them then you do. So that

0:24:24.000 --> 0:24:25.439
<v Speaker 1>is a condition when you work. There's some of it

0:24:25.560 --> 0:24:28.440
<v Speaker 1>just crashes and and it's considered the laws. Yeah, it's

0:24:28.440 --> 0:24:30.080
<v Speaker 1>and it's I mean it's built into it, like I

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<v Speaker 1>were very wisely, I believe, from the beginning of the show,

0:24:32.880 --> 0:24:35.399
<v Speaker 1>and they had like no money still built on their

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<v Speaker 1>budget to be able to kill a third of the

0:24:37.200 --> 0:24:39.960
<v Speaker 1>stories that we start and it's now it's probably around there.

0:24:40.119 --> 0:24:41.600
<v Speaker 1>And that could mean one interview, it could mean a

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<v Speaker 1>pre interview, but it can also mean you know, I've

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<v Speaker 1>gone on entire trips to four different states, come back

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<v Speaker 1>and like, can you give us an example, like of

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<v Speaker 1>a killed story. I mean an example of the story

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<v Speaker 1>that you're really keen and you think you go onto

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<v Speaker 1>something and then it dies, And how do you feel

0:24:54.119 --> 0:24:58.440
<v Speaker 1>about that? Yeah, I love killing stories because I know

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<v Speaker 1>I'm serious, But that's a are the culture. It's not

0:25:00.640 --> 0:25:03.000
<v Speaker 1>it's built into our budget. But it's also I think ideally,

0:25:03.119 --> 0:25:05.719
<v Speaker 1>Like not everyone who I work with like agrees with this,

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<v Speaker 1>but I believe like it was instilled in me by

0:25:08.040 --> 0:25:10.199
<v Speaker 1>Ira and Julie Snyder and the people who run this

0:25:10.200 --> 0:25:12.680
<v Speaker 1>American like that it's a triumph to kill a mediocre story,

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<v Speaker 1>like and it is so much hard, like when you've

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<v Speaker 1>been through this enough, like something that's not working so

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<v Speaker 1>well that you get in so deep that you're trying

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<v Speaker 1>to bring across the finish line to make it good

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<v Speaker 1>enough to be on the air. So much harder than

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<v Speaker 1>something that's got got all the goods and it's going

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<v Speaker 1>to be great, you know what I mean? I don't know,

0:25:31.640 --> 0:25:32.840
<v Speaker 1>but it could be a million things. So, like I

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<v Speaker 1>went on one story that I was excited about. It

0:25:35.240 --> 0:25:39.760
<v Speaker 1>was a Scottish reporter who was going to look back

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<v Speaker 1>at a single like photograph of a shooting that had

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<v Speaker 1>happened in a rack ten years on that he'd been

0:25:44.880 --> 0:25:47.720
<v Speaker 1>therefore embedded with a with a battalion or something. I

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<v Speaker 1>can't remember all the details. And we went to three

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<v Speaker 1>different states, four different states. We were like in a

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<v Speaker 1>week to interview different players back from that time. But

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<v Speaker 1>there was this one interview we really wanted to get

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<v Speaker 1>um that was going to make it come together. I

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<v Speaker 1>think he was a chaplain in the unit and we're

0:26:02.760 --> 0:26:04.480
<v Speaker 1>so we flew to Colorado. He was like the key

0:26:04.520 --> 0:26:06.800
<v Speaker 1>interview who would like it kind of like helped everyone

0:26:06.840 --> 0:26:09.560
<v Speaker 1>deal with their grief. And we got to the airport

0:26:09.760 --> 0:26:11.280
<v Speaker 1>and he can't. He was like, I can't do this.

0:26:11.359 --> 0:26:13.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to do this anymore. I don't want

0:26:13.000 --> 0:26:14.880
<v Speaker 1>to do the interview and We're in the Denver airport,

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<v Speaker 1>like calling and begging, and we came all the way

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<v Speaker 1>out here. We like you have dude had flown here

0:26:18.840 --> 0:26:23.400
<v Speaker 1>from Scotland. Um he did not meet with us. Um

0:26:23.640 --> 0:26:26.720
<v Speaker 1>we went home. No. I think he was just like

0:26:26.960 --> 0:26:29.280
<v Speaker 1>it was dredging up. It was a traumatic thing. He

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<v Speaker 1>just I don't know why exactly. So we flew home

0:26:32.280 --> 0:26:34.120
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, maybe I can salvage this, Maybe

0:26:34.119 --> 0:26:36.080
<v Speaker 1>there's some way to do it. And I pulled some

0:26:36.200 --> 0:26:38.240
<v Speaker 1>tape and ultimately it was just like, you're gonna be

0:26:38.280 --> 0:26:41.200
<v Speaker 1>happier if you kill this now, Like it's not you're

0:26:41.200 --> 0:26:43.720
<v Speaker 1>gonna be working so hard to make up for what

0:26:44.080 --> 0:26:47.920
<v Speaker 1>many people. Um, we've grown a lot in the last

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<v Speaker 1>couple of years, but like not many, like fifteen to

0:26:50.840 --> 0:26:54.240
<v Speaker 1>twenty fifteen are less producers. And then there's you know

0:26:54.280 --> 0:26:56.920
<v Speaker 1>other staff, you know doing operations and tech and stuff

0:26:56.960 --> 0:27:01.720
<v Speaker 1>like that administration. Do you feel that there's a uh

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<v Speaker 1>philosophically and uh politically, there's a d NA to the

0:27:05.560 --> 0:27:08.600
<v Speaker 1>kind of stories they do over there. Oh yeah, how

0:27:08.640 --> 0:27:12.160
<v Speaker 1>would you describe that? Not politically but but in terms

0:27:12.160 --> 0:27:16.240
<v Speaker 1>of philosophy, Like we're trying to amuse ourselves that's the

0:27:16.280 --> 0:27:20.400
<v Speaker 1>philosophy and amuse use the term, you know, that's that's

0:27:20.400 --> 0:27:23.920
<v Speaker 1>irish statement. But I believe in that, you know, um

0:27:24.000 --> 0:27:27.879
<v Speaker 1>thesis like um amused can be broad like it can

0:27:27.920 --> 0:27:30.080
<v Speaker 1>be into you know, you can learn something, you could

0:27:30.400 --> 0:27:33.600
<v Speaker 1>be engross in a character that's going through something. Yeah,

0:27:33.680 --> 0:27:35.879
<v Speaker 1>but we're doing it for ourselves, like we're trying to

0:27:36.560 --> 0:27:40.960
<v Speaker 1>do things that we would want to listen to. Yeah,

0:27:41.040 --> 0:27:43.440
<v Speaker 1>And so that's like one overarching principle. But then there's

0:27:43.440 --> 0:27:46.760
<v Speaker 1>actually just specific ingredients we're looking for in stories like that.

0:27:46.800 --> 0:27:48.560
<v Speaker 1>Stories have to have for the most part to work

0:27:48.560 --> 0:27:50.879
<v Speaker 1>on our show. And that's a good you know, a character,

0:27:51.000 --> 0:27:52.760
<v Speaker 1>a main character who's a good talker, who goes through

0:27:52.800 --> 0:27:55.840
<v Speaker 1>something like with plot um surprise that leads to an

0:27:55.880 --> 0:27:58.560
<v Speaker 1>interesting idea about the world. Those are the ingredients we're

0:27:58.560 --> 0:28:00.520
<v Speaker 1>looking for. But do you feel like with your success

0:28:00.560 --> 0:28:02.119
<v Speaker 1>of your podcast you want to kind of go off

0:28:02.160 --> 0:28:04.440
<v Speaker 1>now and do your own thing? Would you like where

0:28:04.480 --> 0:28:06.680
<v Speaker 1>you are as a good hub. That's a good mothership

0:28:06.760 --> 0:28:08.520
<v Speaker 1>for you. I get to work with the best podcast

0:28:08.520 --> 0:28:13.000
<v Speaker 1>creators in the world, Like it's so yeah, there's yeah,

0:28:13.000 --> 0:28:15.199
<v Speaker 1>I'm very happy. And I think last is such a

0:28:15.240 --> 0:28:18.560
<v Speaker 1>blindingly bright. Guy's great, you know, I you know, I've

0:28:18.640 --> 0:28:22.240
<v Speaker 1>learned like a lot of what I know from him,

0:28:22.400 --> 0:28:26.199
<v Speaker 1>and but it's a place that because of him we

0:28:26.240 --> 0:28:27.639
<v Speaker 1>get to make things like S Town. There is a

0:28:27.640 --> 0:28:30.160
<v Speaker 1>spirit of invention. They're like we're constantly trying to fend

0:28:30.160 --> 0:28:32.960
<v Speaker 1>off boredom and try things that are new, and like,

0:28:33.000 --> 0:28:34.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't think there's many of the places where I

0:28:34.520 --> 0:28:36.680
<v Speaker 1>could say, like, let me leave my job for a

0:28:36.760 --> 0:28:38.680
<v Speaker 1>year to make this thing that you're going to help fund,

0:28:39.280 --> 0:28:42.960
<v Speaker 1>you know, that is S Town, Like it's I imagine

0:28:42.960 --> 0:28:48.520
<v Speaker 1>pitching that a lot of places the show Best Town, Yeah, yeah, stuff,

0:28:48.600 --> 0:28:51.760
<v Speaker 1>And were some of the things that were said positive

0:28:51.800 --> 0:28:55.080
<v Speaker 1>and negative that resonated with you. I mean, they're really nice.

0:28:55.120 --> 0:28:57.360
<v Speaker 1>You know, there's a lot like there's some really nice

0:28:57.360 --> 0:28:59.920
<v Speaker 1>stuff that's been said that it's just a lot of

0:29:00.040 --> 0:29:04.320
<v Speaker 1>credible example of empathy, which I couldn't have. I did

0:29:04.320 --> 0:29:06.720
<v Speaker 1>not even occur to me that it was like more

0:29:06.760 --> 0:29:09.720
<v Speaker 1>empathetic than other things, Like it just felt like me

0:29:09.840 --> 0:29:12.760
<v Speaker 1>making the thing that I've heard a lot of that

0:29:12.800 --> 0:29:15.080
<v Speaker 1>and that was super cool in that way that your storytelling,

0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:16.680
<v Speaker 1>I mean, who you wanted to direct and do plays

0:29:16.720 --> 0:29:18.240
<v Speaker 1>and you wanted to act and what were some of

0:29:18.240 --> 0:29:21.240
<v Speaker 1>the negative things that hit you. It's been interesting. It's

0:29:21.360 --> 0:29:23.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm still sorting through all this, you know, it's only

0:29:23.320 --> 0:29:26.240
<v Speaker 1>been a few weeks. But I believe people have different

0:29:26.280 --> 0:29:29.800
<v Speaker 1>reactions to it that kind of betray like their background

0:29:29.840 --> 0:29:33.880
<v Speaker 1>a bit. Um. So there's a certain reaction I've heard

0:29:33.920 --> 0:29:38.600
<v Speaker 1>from mostly like white Northerners, um where like the podcast

0:29:39.840 --> 0:29:43.800
<v Speaker 1>makes them uncomfortable. They'll use that word like uncomfortable. I

0:29:43.800 --> 0:29:45.320
<v Speaker 1>don't quite know what they mean. Like in a couple

0:29:45.320 --> 0:29:47.560
<v Speaker 1>of cases, you know, it's been a reaction to there's

0:29:47.640 --> 0:29:50.040
<v Speaker 1>this one this one scene in the second chapter where

0:29:50.040 --> 0:29:53.680
<v Speaker 1>I was inside of this tattoo parlor, black sheet bank

0:29:53.920 --> 0:29:59.480
<v Speaker 1>and some very terrible racist contents, um. And so there's

0:29:59.480 --> 0:30:01.640
<v Speaker 1>this there's a certain reaction I've gotten from mostly like

0:30:01.680 --> 0:30:05.000
<v Speaker 1>people in the North, white people, like black people are

0:30:05.000 --> 0:30:08.320
<v Speaker 1>like yet, uh, but did you have the same reaction

0:30:08.320 --> 0:30:09.920
<v Speaker 1>your stuff when you were there? Do you find it

0:30:10.000 --> 0:30:12.160
<v Speaker 1>even for you when you went down the My god,

0:30:12.200 --> 0:30:17.160
<v Speaker 1>this is the same country I live in. I didn't

0:30:17.160 --> 0:30:19.000
<v Speaker 1>have that feeling, but I was cut. But that's the thing,

0:30:19.000 --> 0:30:21.040
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm wherever I'm reporting, I'm trying to find things

0:30:21.040 --> 0:30:23.320
<v Speaker 1>that are surprising. That's what I'm doing when I'm reporting,

0:30:23.320 --> 0:30:25.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't affect you know, it affects me. It's the

0:30:25.440 --> 0:30:27.120
<v Speaker 1>whole point, you know. But it wasn't because it's like

0:30:27.160 --> 0:30:30.200
<v Speaker 1>the South, the racism, It didn't. What surprised me about

0:30:30.200 --> 0:30:34.080
<v Speaker 1>it was how open people sometimes were. Not everybody, but

0:30:34.160 --> 0:30:36.960
<v Speaker 1>that there were moments where people would be open on Mike.

0:30:37.400 --> 0:30:39.880
<v Speaker 1>That surprised me. I certainly was not surprised that that

0:30:40.400 --> 0:30:43.320
<v Speaker 1>racism exists, and that you know, people would say things

0:30:43.360 --> 0:30:45.520
<v Speaker 1>even to a stranger. You know, that didn't surprise me.

0:30:45.840 --> 0:30:48.040
<v Speaker 1>And so anyway, so the react what did surprise you?

0:30:49.080 --> 0:30:53.960
<v Speaker 1>Um in general? You say, I do this to be amused?

0:30:54.040 --> 0:30:56.720
<v Speaker 1>What amused me? Like they're just like the only reason

0:30:56.800 --> 0:30:58.320
<v Speaker 1>to do this story is because I like it. Like

0:30:58.360 --> 0:31:00.560
<v Speaker 1>I realized in the middle of writing it, like there's

0:31:00.560 --> 0:31:03.160
<v Speaker 1>no news peg for this, there's no like business imperative

0:31:03.360 --> 0:31:05.880
<v Speaker 1>like to do this, like I like this story. And

0:31:05.920 --> 0:31:07.680
<v Speaker 1>so it was actually like a joy to write, even

0:31:07.680 --> 0:31:09.640
<v Speaker 1>when I was like staying up all night on deadline.

0:31:10.000 --> 0:31:12.000
<v Speaker 1>And the reason I like it is just a million

0:31:12.000 --> 0:31:14.280
<v Speaker 1>different moments, like you know, I I you know, there's

0:31:14.320 --> 0:31:16.800
<v Speaker 1>a moment where one of the characters talks about wanting

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<v Speaker 1>to like cut like someone's nipples off. I've just never

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<v Speaker 1>heard someone say that before, you know, to get someone's

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<v Speaker 1>gold nipple rings. I've never heard that on tape before.

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<v Speaker 1>That amused That amused me, Like, Um, there's you know

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<v Speaker 1>moments where John goes on at second rant talking about

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<v Speaker 1>like Putin should bomb us all and we're just living

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<v Speaker 1>in some crazy country, you know, Like that's just a

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<v Speaker 1>rant I can't even replicate because I've just never you know,

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<v Speaker 1>totally extemporaneous. There's a moment where, um, you know, an

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<v Speaker 1>old love interest of John's at the end of chapter

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<v Speaker 1>six lays out, you know, just exactly what he wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to do to him one day that he never actually did,

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<v Speaker 1>Like he wanted to make a move and he wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to kiss him on his belly. I've never heard anyone

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<v Speaker 1>do that on the radio before. That was wonderful And

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<v Speaker 1>so it was just like those moments they surprised me

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<v Speaker 1>and they were the reason to do the story to me.

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<v Speaker 1>So when you when you talk about writing and when

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<v Speaker 1>you're stitching the whole thing together and doing the tracking

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<v Speaker 1>of where you kind of bring it all together, you've

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<v Speaker 1>got to write all that down for you when you've

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<v Speaker 1>got to write heavily edited and right, and now you're

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<v Speaker 1>doing all the writing, the writing and who was doing

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<v Speaker 1>the editing. To have a good editor well, editing means

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<v Speaker 1>something I think maybe different to me in radio than

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<v Speaker 1>it would it to you and UM in shaping. So

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<v Speaker 1>so basically I worked with Julie Snyder, who's who is

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<v Speaker 1>the co creator of Cereal and um was the senior

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<v Speaker 1>producer of This American Life for years until she created Cereal.

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<v Speaker 1>Now I have her job, UM, but we made it

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<v Speaker 1>this together, and you know she so she she was

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<v Speaker 1>working at This American Life as senior producer when John

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<v Speaker 1>first contacted me. So she was my editor as I

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<v Speaker 1>was going down to Alabama in the early days and

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<v Speaker 1>then we kind of stayed on it together and saw

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<v Speaker 1>came up with a vision for this together. So she's

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<v Speaker 1>the person I would be checking in with on my

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<v Speaker 1>reporting trips because there's a million decisions you're you're editing

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<v Speaker 1>even as you're reporting in deciding what leads to follow,

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<v Speaker 1>what to spend your time on, who to talk to you,

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<v Speaker 1>what to talk to him about. So she was constantly

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<v Speaker 1>in the process with me, and it's so important of

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<v Speaker 1>a good editor. I mean, she's she is the secret

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<v Speaker 1>to what makes things so good. So so then finally,

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<v Speaker 1>after like you know, a year of reporting or more,

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<v Speaker 1>we had like a month where we sat down or

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<v Speaker 1>first we had a month where we went through all

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<v Speaker 1>the tape and kind of made summaries of every interview.

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<v Speaker 1>Then she and I just sat there and we're like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so how does the story start? And it was like

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<v Speaker 1>a good month of just like you know, I'm what

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<v Speaker 1>I imagine it's like to be in a TV writer's

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<v Speaker 1>room of just you know, talking through the story and

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<v Speaker 1>kind of jamming, you know, kind of like well what

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<v Speaker 1>if it went this way? You know, so you get

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<v Speaker 1>an email, then you write him back. Now you don't

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<v Speaker 1>need the writing back part goes straight to the phone

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<v Speaker 1>call like, no, this part we want to save for later.

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<v Speaker 1>And just like trying it with each other, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>she'd say, well, what if we want this and this

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<v Speaker 1>and this, and I'd be like, no, that part's boring,

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<v Speaker 1>Let's cut that part where that's too much explanation, and

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<v Speaker 1>and we would just go through it, write it on

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<v Speaker 1>a white board, and then move on to the next chapter.

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<v Speaker 1>Eventually we got to a point where we couldn't see

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<v Speaker 1>it at all and we were feeling overwhelmed in our heads,

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<v Speaker 1>and so we started again from the beginning with note

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<v Speaker 1>cards on a wall and stretched all around the corner.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a big fan of note cards, and it was

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<v Speaker 1>just that. So then we came more. Taught me that

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<v Speaker 1>they really is that the sketches and stuff, how he

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<v Speaker 1>pieces the show together, it's all not cards. Giant. It

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<v Speaker 1>was the first time I've done that. I can't imagine,

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<v Speaker 1>like to put that thing together six hours. That's incredible

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<v Speaker 1>in the time and the effort involved. What are you

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<v Speaker 1>working on now? Um, I'm back in my day job.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm my ideas. I'm helping other people with their stories.

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<v Speaker 1>So I do a lot of editing. So like people

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<v Speaker 1>i'm talking, you know, we're working on the show next week. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>that's a political show, so I'm editing a story about that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm ading a story about a Somali pirate right now,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's someone else's story. But so they're reading it

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<v Speaker 1>to me and I'm telling them structural changes and different

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<v Speaker 1>changes to make, and we're going through that process, which

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<v Speaker 1>I'm grateful for. I don't have a story in mind

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<v Speaker 1>that I love as much as s town and so

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<v Speaker 1>I can kind of wait for it to come to me,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, while I help other people with their stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello privates, Alick, Hi, alec Hey, Brian. I realized after

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<v Speaker 1>we spoke that I did have one more question for you,

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<v Speaker 1>and all right, I'm very curious what that is. Burning

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's I think it's a pretty obvious one,

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<v Speaker 1>which is, do you see any of yourself and John? Um, yeah, definitely. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I really respect like people who forged their own way

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<v Speaker 1>in the world, and I don't know, certainly like a

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<v Speaker 1>way of being in the world that I aspired to

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<v Speaker 1>that I don't know if I always accomplished. And that's

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<v Speaker 1>what I enjoyed about talking to him and being with him.

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<v Speaker 1>He was so unabashedly himself. When I'm able to do

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<v Speaker 1>that in my own life, I feel good about it,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I admire that and John a lot. And

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<v Speaker 1>it seems like he was somebody who insisted that he

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<v Speaker 1>could be himself regardless of who he was with. Do agree, absolutely? Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I think he was aware that he had a very

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<v Speaker 1>polarizing effect on people, and he was aware of that,

0:35:48.360 --> 0:35:52.200
<v Speaker 1>but his his personality could overwhelm people or turn people off,

0:35:52.640 --> 0:35:55.600
<v Speaker 1>or people really just loved being with him. Um, and

0:35:55.640 --> 0:35:57.759
<v Speaker 1>he kind of had a sense of bath, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like this is me and take it or leave it.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you make people on comfortable? You could, yeah, Or

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<v Speaker 1>you bring people along for like a very special ride

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<v Speaker 1>and the right type of person is willing to go

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<v Speaker 1>there with you. But one more thing that occurred to

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<v Speaker 1>me was if he were around, what was one question

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<v Speaker 1>you still wanted to ask him? Um? Something I wish

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<v Speaker 1>I did with John that I never did is to

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<v Speaker 1>like push back on some of his racial views that

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<v Speaker 1>he expressed. Sometimes. Um, you know, sometimes it would come

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<v Speaker 1>up in the course of some other discussion about something else,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would kind of note, like I want to

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<v Speaker 1>talk to him about that at some point, like why

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<v Speaker 1>he seems to be so enlightened in some ways and

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<v Speaker 1>that so kind of backwards and like thoughtless and others.

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<v Speaker 1>And I just never got the chance to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you attribute those views if it's just a certain

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<v Speaker 1>kind of stereotypical regionalisms or did you think he really

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<v Speaker 1>was a racist? I mean I think you certainly. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know his Like his professor said, when he got

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<v Speaker 1>to college, as a really young guy, like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>he bore kind of the markings of someone who've grown

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<v Speaker 1>up in that part of the world at that time

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<v Speaker 1>in terms of the way he talked about about race

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<v Speaker 1>and the words he used. I get the sense from

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<v Speaker 1>talking to people knew him that he got better over

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<v Speaker 1>the years as he read more and engaged with the

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<v Speaker 1>world more. I mean, I don't know, I don't even

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<v Speaker 1>know it's in someone's heart, Like he was both things

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<v Speaker 1>at once, but he, you know, sympathized with and felt

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<v Speaker 1>for people who are affected by racism, and he understood

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<v Speaker 1>that racism can be systemic. But then he would be

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<v Speaker 1>thoughtless and you know, really really shitty words and um,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, kind of retreat back into a cruder way

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<v Speaker 1>of talking. And it was one of the things where

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<v Speaker 1>it would have been like a whole thing to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about that I wanted to talk about with him and

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<v Speaker 1>always meant to, and he died before I could. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I wish I had. I wish I could have kind

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<v Speaker 1>of pushed back on some of the stuff he would say,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, because he knew better, all right. That's so

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<v Speaker 1>that's kind of what I wanted to talking about. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like why why do you sometimes still kind of retreat

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<v Speaker 1>into this way of talking when I know you know better?

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<v Speaker 1>You know well, thank you so much, and listen seriously.

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<v Speaker 1>I still look forward to discovering what's the next thing

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<v Speaker 1>you're gonna do. I'm really looking forward to seeing you

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<v Speaker 1>do another show. It would be great. I appreciate it.

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<v Speaker 1>This is Alec Baldwin and you were listening to Here's

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<v Speaker 1>the Thing