WEBVTT - 7. Morning Light 0:00:14.996 --> 0:00:45.156 Pushkin no more going home. I'm on the ninth floor 0:00:45.236 --> 0:00:51.876 of the LA County Courthouse. It's the celebrity murder floor. 0:00:52.796 --> 0:00:56.196 This is where O. J. Simpson was tried, and Phil Spector, 0:00:56.676 --> 0:01:04.076 the grim Sleeper, the night Stalker, and now Anthony Rowda. 0:01:04.916 --> 0:01:08.436 Rowd has been awaiting trial for over a year. He 0:01:08.516 --> 0:01:12.196 looks like he's aged a decade. He's in a restraint chair, 0:01:12.596 --> 0:01:17.036 arms strapped down, doubtless the result of so many courtroom disruptions. 0:01:18.916 --> 0:01:21.916 He gets wheeled in backwards by half a dozen deputies. 0:01:22.596 --> 0:01:25.356 They're filming him, but the judge won't let me record 0:01:25.396 --> 0:01:28.036 in the courtroom, so I take notes the old fashioned 0:01:28.076 --> 0:01:32.716 way by hand in my reporter's notebook. By now, Route's 0:01:32.756 --> 0:01:36.596 exhausted the public defender's office and the alternate public defender's office. 0:01:37.076 --> 0:01:41.396 He's onto a private attorney who represents indigent clients. But 0:01:41.556 --> 0:01:46.036 still at almost every hearing he's asking the judge, sometimes nicely, 0:01:46.316 --> 0:01:51.316 sometimes not if he can represent himself. The question of 0:01:51.396 --> 0:01:55.396 Routa's mental state hangs over the whole proceeding. Which Route 0:01:55.476 --> 0:01:59.276 will show up today, what will provoke his rage? Is 0:01:59.436 --> 0:02:01.876 anyone going to mention the fact that he seems completely 0:02:01.956 --> 0:02:08.156 unstable today, he's a rate. He's yelling at the judge. 0:02:09.116 --> 0:02:12.156 A crime scene is outdoors, there was a fire, whereas 0:02:12.276 --> 0:02:17.076 his ballistics expert time is passing time he can't get back. 0:02:18.396 --> 0:02:20.756 I don't want to sit in jail another two years, 0:02:20.836 --> 0:02:23.356 he shouts, What do you want me to do? Be dumb? 0:02:23.796 --> 0:02:26.556 Want me to close my eyes and my ears? I 0:02:26.636 --> 0:02:29.956 have a brain, I have a soul, So I use 0:02:30.036 --> 0:02:38.556 that you don't tell me. I'm almost relieved when at 0:02:38.556 --> 0:02:41.756 a later hearing, the judge expresses doubt about his competency 0:02:41.796 --> 0:02:45.276 to stand trial, even though that means everything will slow 0:02:45.276 --> 0:02:49.596 down while he's assessed and stabilized. But what he's yelling 0:02:49.636 --> 0:02:53.916 about today is something I've been thinking about too, the evidence, 0:02:55.276 --> 0:02:58.596 What there is, what there isn't, and what it all 0:02:58.636 --> 0:03:02.876 adds up to in the case against Rowda. In other words, 0:03:03.076 --> 0:03:06.156 what's the theory of the case. How would Rowda have 0:03:06.196 --> 0:03:17.556 committed all these crimes? And more important why? I'm Dana 0:03:17.596 --> 0:03:50.876 Goodyear and this is Lost Hills, Episode seven, Morning Light. 0:03:52.916 --> 0:03:56.916 I'm holding a file stamped secret. It's the testimony that 0:03:56.996 --> 0:03:59.996 was presented to a grand jury convened several months back. 0:04:00.796 --> 0:04:04.556 It's been unsealed so finally I can see what the 0:04:04.596 --> 0:04:10.956 prosecutor's thinking. This is her best argument, all the evidence 0:04:11.076 --> 0:04:15.156 she wants to present intact, unblemished, no holes poked by 0:04:15.236 --> 0:04:19.396 Rowdah's defense attorney. That'll come later when the criminal trial 0:04:19.436 --> 0:04:26.116 gets under way. It's surprising, remember near Missus one through five, 0:04:26.436 --> 0:04:30.316 the shootings that use shotgun AMMO. She says. The reason 0:04:30.436 --> 0:04:33.636 law enforcement never found a shotgun is that there never 0:04:33.796 --> 0:04:38.156 was one. She says, Anthony Rowda used a zip gun, 0:04:38.836 --> 0:04:44.836 a crude DIY weapon he made out of pipes and nails. 0:04:44.836 --> 0:04:47.956 She called various investigators to testify to the grand jury. 0:04:48.716 --> 0:04:52.316 They said they found shotgun shells at Rowdah's camp that 0:04:52.436 --> 0:04:56.276 had markings indicating they hadn't been fired from a manufactured gun. 0:04:57.316 --> 0:05:02.196 They also said they found pipes and nails, But pipes 0:05:02.196 --> 0:05:05.116 and nails don't constitute a zip gun. They're just some 0:05:05.196 --> 0:05:08.396 of the elements. It's like if you walked into a 0:05:08.476 --> 0:05:12.316 kitchen and saw milk, eggs, and sugar some dirty cake pans. 0:05:13.156 --> 0:05:15.796 You might infer a cake had been made, but you 0:05:15.876 --> 0:05:20.796 also might wonder where's the flour. The prosecutor says Routa 0:05:20.956 --> 0:05:24.876 was fixated on killing when the homemade zip gun didn't kill. 0:05:24.996 --> 0:05:28.236 She says he left the area around Malibu Creek State Park, 0:05:28.636 --> 0:05:32.236 went to northern California. Cell Phone data places him there 0:05:32.276 --> 0:05:35.676 in January twenty eighteen, and when he came back a 0:05:35.716 --> 0:05:38.636 few months later, she says he had a new weapon, 0:05:39.036 --> 0:05:42.836 a nine millimeter carbing, and that's what allowed him to 0:05:42.876 --> 0:05:57.436 fulfill his deadly plan. Hallelujah blessed Mary Crazy's back. So 0:05:57.476 --> 0:06:00.356 we went from a crudely cobbled together zip gun to 0:06:00.436 --> 0:06:04.476 a precise and deadly semi automatic weapon, the nine millimeter carbing. 0:06:05.636 --> 0:06:07.756 I've never even heard of a zip gun and know 0:06:07.876 --> 0:06:11.476 almost as little about carbs. I call up Greg Block, 0:06:11.596 --> 0:06:16.796 the weapons expert. Again. A zip gun is a homemade, 0:06:17.676 --> 0:06:21.756 make it yourself gun, normally shooting shotgun rounds. It's a 0:06:21.796 --> 0:06:25.876 couple pieces of pipe, he says. Everything you need to 0:06:25.876 --> 0:06:28.436 make a zip gun you can get at the hardware store. 0:06:29.276 --> 0:06:31.356 The most basic would be a pipe to hold the 0:06:31.356 --> 0:06:34.676 shot shell, a nail, and something to force the nail 0:06:34.756 --> 0:06:37.516 into the back of the shell. Basically, they're a weapon 0:06:37.636 --> 0:06:41.756 for a person that cannot legally purchase one. So since 0:06:41.876 --> 0:06:45.356 Rowdah couldn't buy regular weapons and had gone to prison twice, 0:06:45.476 --> 0:06:50.276 for having antique weapons, maybe the next logical step the 0:06:50.356 --> 0:06:54.396 last resort was to make his own. It also fits 0:06:54.476 --> 0:06:59.596 Rowdah's survivalist lifestyle. One of his favorite survivalist authors wrote 0:06:59.596 --> 0:07:04.596 a book which Rawdah owned, called Gorilla Gunsmithing, about making 0:07:04.596 --> 0:07:10.036 your own weapons. Greg tells me that zip guns are dangerous, clumsy, 0:07:10.116 --> 0:07:15.076 and imprecise. They're unreliable if not made properly. They do 0:07:15.156 --> 0:07:19.036 not have an effective range. A zip gun is for 0:07:19.196 --> 0:07:22.996 up close personal, he says. You've got to be really 0:07:23.036 --> 0:07:28.076 motivated to build one. Usually it's hardcore gun geeks and teenagers. 0:07:28.636 --> 0:07:32.276 Depending upon the metal he's using for one or both 0:07:32.276 --> 0:07:35.236 pieces of pipe, it could blow up in his hand 0:07:35.996 --> 0:07:39.236 because when that round goes off, you're causing an explosion. 0:07:39.836 --> 0:07:43.276 And if you're not using good metal, that barrel could 0:07:43.356 --> 0:07:46.396 separate like a banana peels, and if you're holding that 0:07:46.436 --> 0:07:49.956 in your hands, it's going to get religious. The zip 0:07:49.996 --> 0:07:53.436 theory doesn't just explain why the detectives never found a shotgun. 0:07:54.196 --> 0:07:57.156 It could also explain a distinct feature of near misses 0:07:57.236 --> 0:08:00.916 one through five, the shotgun ammo shootings that took place 0:08:01.036 --> 0:08:05.396 well before Bodette's murder. In those incidents, the shooter fired 0:08:05.556 --> 0:08:08.516 only once. It was one of the oddities, along with 0:08:08.556 --> 0:08:11.116 the time of day in the area that early on 0:08:11.196 --> 0:08:14.516 made Sergeant Wright and Lieutenant Royal think the crimes were connected. 0:08:16.156 --> 0:08:20.276 Reloading a zip gun takes time, which could mean getting caught, 0:08:21.076 --> 0:08:24.356 especially if you're hunting ground is a crowded public park. 0:08:26.036 --> 0:08:28.236 So what about the other gun? The one Route was 0:08:28.316 --> 0:08:31.756 arrested with the Macon model was a Ruger PC nine. 0:08:32.436 --> 0:08:37.196 It looks just like a rifle, except that it takes 0:08:37.196 --> 0:08:41.916 a pistol cartridge. A pistol cartridge. In other words, Route 0:08:41.916 --> 0:08:45.236 as rifle took a nine millimeter handgun round. See, that 0:08:45.356 --> 0:08:47.676 was the whole thing with the car being going back 0:08:47.756 --> 0:08:52.636 to the wild West. Whatever your handgun shot, your car 0:08:52.716 --> 0:08:56.236 being shot, or your saddle rifle. Then the Old West, 0:08:56.236 --> 0:08:59.636 you carried a bandalier that had one caliber and it 0:08:59.756 --> 0:09:02.716 was used for your car being and used for your handgun. 0:09:03.956 --> 0:09:08.476 The Ruger PC nine resembles a short barreled military style rifle. 0:09:09.156 --> 0:09:13.396 According to grand jury testimony, Routes had been modified. The stock, 0:09:13.476 --> 0:09:17.116 which rests on the shoulder had been removed. Instead it 0:09:17.196 --> 0:09:21.276 had a pistol grip. And how much does a carving cost? 0:09:22.836 --> 0:09:25.156 You can get him for five or six hundred dollars. 0:09:25.756 --> 0:09:29.876 I ask him what people use them for? Hunting? Home defense? 0:09:31.076 --> 0:09:35.236 Not really, They're more for plinking and target shooting. That's 0:09:35.236 --> 0:09:38.916 really what they're designed for. I mean, because it's a 0:09:39.316 --> 0:09:42.956 it's a handgun round. It's really not effective as a 0:09:43.156 --> 0:09:50.676 hunting rifle. So why would someone get one of these 0:09:50.676 --> 0:09:56.676 guns for reasons other than target practice availability? I believe 0:09:56.836 --> 0:10:01.316 that's what he had available to him to get illegally. 0:10:02.076 --> 0:10:03.716 You know, he can't go into a gun store and 0:10:03.756 --> 0:10:07.076 buy a gun. He's going to get refused. He will 0:10:07.116 --> 0:10:11.756 fail the California Department of Justice background clearance check. So 0:10:12.756 --> 0:10:16.996 my personal belief is it was probably stolen and he 0:10:17.076 --> 0:10:20.796 bought it from a fence, or maybe he stolen himself. 0:10:21.436 --> 0:10:29.116 We don't know. Greg says that the Ruger PC nine 0:10:29.396 --> 0:10:34.396 is a loud gun. There's actually two noises. When you 0:10:34.476 --> 0:10:39.676 hear the noise of the gun going off, and then 0:10:39.836 --> 0:10:44.396 down range you hear what is, basically, for lack of 0:10:44.396 --> 0:10:47.436 a better description, a sonic boom, just like an airplane 0:10:50.156 --> 0:10:53.556 a flash on Scott McCurdy, Tristan Boudette's brother in law, 0:10:53.916 --> 0:10:56.596 and his bleary thought in the early morning hours that 0:10:56.676 --> 0:11:02.596 he was hearing the crack of fireworks and the sonic boom. 0:11:02.716 --> 0:11:06.996 Is that what would sound possibly like fireworks? Yes, very 0:11:07.076 --> 0:11:10.916 much so. And how accurate is it? I'll do one 0:11:10.996 --> 0:11:13.116 hundred yards. You can do a head shot with it 0:11:13.196 --> 0:11:17.076 if you know what you're doing. That's a long range. 0:11:17.436 --> 0:11:21.076 But even at that maximum distance, the shooter still might 0:11:21.116 --> 0:11:27.396 have heard the Boudette girls crying. Before we get off 0:11:27.436 --> 0:11:29.596 the phone, I ask Greg for his best guess as 0:11:29.596 --> 0:11:32.436 to what happened to the zip gun, that cake that 0:11:32.516 --> 0:11:37.916 the prosecutor assumes existed, but which detectives never found. Once 0:11:37.916 --> 0:11:43.596 he got the newer modern Ruger PC nine, he would 0:11:43.636 --> 0:11:48.716 either bury, hide, or stash his previous weapons. I don't 0:11:48.756 --> 0:11:51.476 see him throwing them away because he may need them 0:11:51.516 --> 0:11:56.516 down the road. I go back to thinking about the 0:11:56.556 --> 0:12:00.156 prosecutor's evidence based on what she presented to the grand jury. 0:12:01.276 --> 0:12:04.716 There's a lot she has and a lot she doesn't have. 0:12:09.196 --> 0:12:11.716 She doesn't have the zip gun, just some pipes and 0:12:11.836 --> 0:12:16.316 nails and spent shells with suspicious markings on them. She 0:12:16.436 --> 0:12:19.356 doesn't have witnesses placing Routa at the scene of any 0:12:19.356 --> 0:12:22.476 of the near misses, and she doesn't have Routa in 0:12:22.476 --> 0:12:25.836 the campground at Malibu Creek State Park with the rifle 0:12:26.076 --> 0:12:29.636 at the time of the murder. But she does have 0:12:29.756 --> 0:12:33.196 a lot of data from all those electronic devices found 0:12:33.196 --> 0:12:37.316 in Routah's backpack and on his camp mark. Donald, that 0:12:37.436 --> 0:12:41.196 Major Crimes detective told the grand jury that location data 0:12:41.276 --> 0:12:43.796 from the devices put Routa in the general area of 0:12:43.796 --> 0:12:45.796 the park on the dates of many of the crimes. 0:12:47.076 --> 0:12:49.636 There's also the stuff that was stored on the devices. 0:12:50.236 --> 0:12:52.476 One of Routa's phones had a file on how to 0:12:52.516 --> 0:12:57.636 make zip guns. The kindle had one called expedient Homemade Firearms. 0:12:59.076 --> 0:13:03.356 Routah's search history tells a story too, quote bullet hits 0:13:03.436 --> 0:13:09.356 car gas tank and quote nine millimeter incendiary bullets. And 0:13:09.476 --> 0:13:12.476 on the morning of the murder, the prosecutor says Rowda 0:13:12.596 --> 0:13:17.556 was nearby, Andy was awake an hour before Bodett was killed. 0:13:17.876 --> 0:13:22.396 One of Rodda's devices pinged on a nearby network, suggesting 0:13:22.436 --> 0:13:27.556 that he was in the area. About ten minutes after 0:13:27.596 --> 0:13:33.836 Bodett was killed, Rowda's searched breaking news headlines. Here's something 0:13:33.876 --> 0:13:37.236 else the prosecutor has which will probably be more important 0:13:37.276 --> 0:13:39.836 in the eyes of a future jury than any other 0:13:39.836 --> 0:13:44.796 single piece of evidence. She has the Sheriff's Department weapons expert. 0:13:45.516 --> 0:13:48.956 He testified to the grand jury that the bullet excavated 0:13:49.036 --> 0:13:54.196 from Tristan Bodet's right shoulder was fired by Rowdah's rifle. 0:14:11.996 --> 0:14:15.716 Beyond positing that Anthony Rowda was a killer bent on killing, 0:14:16.756 --> 0:14:21.356 the prosecutor hasn't offered much about why. Why would he 0:14:21.396 --> 0:14:25.836 have done these things? What would have motivated him? She's 0:14:25.876 --> 0:14:29.076 got ideas about the mechanics, but nothing about the meaning. 0:14:30.636 --> 0:14:33.676 From the research I've been doing, listening to his music, 0:14:34.236 --> 0:14:37.916 listening to him in his letters, reading all those court documents, 0:14:38.676 --> 0:14:42.076 I've started to see some patterns. I wonder if there's 0:14:42.116 --> 0:14:46.516 anything else out there that could help me understand him. 0:14:46.596 --> 0:14:48.596 I head back to the Internet to see what else 0:14:48.636 --> 0:14:53.636 I can find out. He's got a couple of LinkedIn pages, 0:14:53.756 --> 0:14:58.996 a word Press account, all those music sharing pages. He's Crazyhorse, 0:14:59.396 --> 0:15:03.756 He's Tony Rowda MC. He was almost in hiding in 0:15:03.756 --> 0:15:08.076 the real world, but online he really put himself out there. 0:15:09.236 --> 0:15:11.996 I think he wanted to be noticed as a musician 0:15:12.716 --> 0:15:15.796 and also as a writer. I searched up one of 0:15:15.796 --> 0:15:19.876 his aliases, Crazyhorse to one, and that's how I discover 0:15:20.676 --> 0:15:25.716 there's only one way to say it, a pair of manifestos. 0:15:27.316 --> 0:15:29.796 There is a great debate going on now about the 0:15:29.836 --> 0:15:33.796 Illuminati and New World Order. This is from one of them. 0:15:33.876 --> 0:15:38.316 It's called The True Illuminati. Rata posted it in twenty eighteen. 0:15:39.316 --> 0:15:42.036 Like Rada's letters, his writings are being read by an 0:15:42.036 --> 0:15:45.516 actor and have been lightly edited for clarity. I first 0:15:45.556 --> 0:15:47.916 heard of the New World Order through music albums in 0:15:47.956 --> 0:15:51.156 the mid nineteen nineties, and the Illuminati a few years 0:15:51.236 --> 0:15:54.836 later through the same channels. It's cut and paced conspiracy 0:15:54.876 --> 0:15:59.116 Theory the tracks from King David to George Washington, Freemasons, 0:15:59.156 --> 0:16:02.116 Skull and Bones, Morgan Stanley, and the founder of FedEx. 0:16:03.316 --> 0:16:06.636 I obviously listened and formed my own opinion, but it 0:16:06.716 --> 0:16:09.796 was only years later, when fighting some legal court cases, 0:16:09.796 --> 0:16:14.076 that I seen firsthand the existence of these illuminary beings. 0:16:14.876 --> 0:16:18.876 The other manifesto is called The Luciferian Theory. It too 0:16:18.956 --> 0:16:22.196 was posted in twenty eighteen. On the cover, there's an 0:16:22.196 --> 0:16:25.156 etching of a voluptuous eve handing an apple to Adam. 0:16:25.716 --> 0:16:28.716 They're naked in the garden underneath the Tree of Knowledge. 0:16:29.476 --> 0:16:34.036 The snake dangles from a branch above, just as there 0:16:34.116 --> 0:16:37.116 is a choice of good and evil. A person must 0:16:37.116 --> 0:16:40.516 decide between a nightmare or a vision in their way 0:16:40.556 --> 0:16:45.396 of thinking. This is where a Lucifer dwells. The Luciferian 0:16:45.476 --> 0:16:49.116 theory is named for Lucifer. He was one of God's 0:16:49.116 --> 0:16:51.796 favorites until he tried to overthrow him and was cast 0:16:51.796 --> 0:16:55.996 out of heaven. Narcissism and sadism are the foundation of 0:16:56.036 --> 0:17:01.396 my theory. They are the devil's marks. After his banishment, 0:17:01.716 --> 0:17:05.156 Lucifer stopped by the garden of Eden. Now with a 0:17:05.236 --> 0:17:08.956 God's eye, which means using facts and truth, we look 0:17:09.156 --> 0:17:11.876 to the paradise where what they call the stage is set, 0:17:12.396 --> 0:17:14.556 and Lucifer is about to set a scene in how 0:17:14.596 --> 0:17:19.436 to commit murder. Route is fascinated by Satan. Satan was 0:17:19.476 --> 0:17:22.116 like a snake in the grass. That he could still 0:17:22.156 --> 0:17:25.516 move quickly and strike with one lethal move, and that 0:17:25.596 --> 0:17:29.316 he was cunning and beautiful also plays into the story. 0:17:30.116 --> 0:17:35.756 He says he personally has felt Satan's manipulations through my 0:17:35.796 --> 0:17:39.396 own experience from my family life, community, my short time 0:17:39.396 --> 0:17:42.396 in the army, and the legal system. I have seen 0:17:42.556 --> 0:17:48.796 firsthand what mind games can accomplish or destroy. Mind games, 0:17:48.836 --> 0:17:54.636 he says, lead to pain, trauma, alienation, and ultimately paranoia. 0:17:56.076 --> 0:17:58.756 One of the most common tactics is to plant doubt 0:17:58.836 --> 0:18:02.636 in the individual, either by sexual inadequacy such as thinking 0:18:02.676 --> 0:18:07.396 of homosexuality when they're not, bring out the individual's feelings 0:18:07.436 --> 0:18:12.196 of insecurity, shame, guilt, and by some force or threat 0:18:12.316 --> 0:18:16.676 cause feelings of loneliness. Then, once alienated, they hope to 0:18:16.716 --> 0:18:22.996 wear the mind down. Paranoia develops and the individual begins 0:18:23.036 --> 0:18:27.156 to become suspicious of those close to them. Person can 0:18:27.196 --> 0:18:30.356 feel betrayed of what is true and who to trust. 0:18:32.236 --> 0:18:35.956 Then there's the unfairness that sense Rauta has that he 0:18:36.156 --> 0:18:40.116 is the victim that supposedly good people do bad things 0:18:40.156 --> 0:18:44.036 to him and then he gets punished for it. So 0:18:44.156 --> 0:18:46.556 why did these things happen? Did I do anything to 0:18:46.596 --> 0:18:50.276 these people? No? Shouldn't these people be suffering a state 0:18:50.316 --> 0:18:57.036 of hell and not me? The manifesto has dated April ninth, 0:18:57.116 --> 0:19:00.676 twenty eighteen, that's two and a half months before Tristan 0:19:00.676 --> 0:19:05.436 Boudett was killed In it. Rada sounds tortured, like he's 0:19:05.476 --> 0:19:08.676 in a cosmic battle for his soul. Like he said, 0:19:09.236 --> 0:19:17.756 person must decide it's nightmare or vision immortal vision. I 0:19:17.876 --> 0:19:26.156 promise you I will not lose my soul. The only 0:19:26.196 --> 0:19:29.356 official assessment I have of Routah's mental health is a 0:19:29.356 --> 0:19:32.556 form attached to one of his court cases. It's a 0:19:32.596 --> 0:19:34.876 case he brought in two thousand and six against the 0:19:34.916 --> 0:19:39.596 California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation, claiming abuse and civil 0:19:39.676 --> 0:19:44.276 rights violations while he was in prison. Next to developmental problem, 0:19:44.516 --> 0:19:50.156 the form says abuse eleventh grade education ged. If you 0:19:50.196 --> 0:19:53.036 read that as a chronology, it's a pretty awful coming 0:19:53.036 --> 0:19:57.076 of age story. The form says that in two thousand 0:19:57.076 --> 0:20:00.996 and two, Routa twice attempted suicide by pills, and that 0:20:01.076 --> 0:20:03.876 he has a history of alcohol in marijuana use and 0:20:03.996 --> 0:20:08.836 a history of depression and PTSD. The PTSD stems from 0:20:08.836 --> 0:20:11.436 an ledged two thousand and three assault in the Ela 0:20:11.516 --> 0:20:16.236 County jail. Rada has documented this allegation elsewhere, that he 0:20:16.316 --> 0:20:19.396 was badly assaulted by five or six other inmates and 0:20:19.476 --> 0:20:23.156 the deputies failed to protect him. His father, Ozzie, told 0:20:23.156 --> 0:20:24.756 me that the deputies were the ones who left his 0:20:24.836 --> 0:20:29.436 cell open, facilitating the attack. The form says he's been 0:20:29.476 --> 0:20:34.476 prescribed the antidepressant Lexapro and the antipsychotic whispered All which 0:20:34.516 --> 0:20:37.156 at low doses can be used to treat depression, and 0:20:37.236 --> 0:20:40.996 at high doses is used to treat schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. 0:20:42.356 --> 0:20:45.796 In a letter from jail, Rada wrote, my mental health 0:20:45.796 --> 0:20:48.756 had got worse as I've gotten older, but living alone 0:20:48.796 --> 0:20:51.676 has helped, even though being alone or in jail is 0:20:51.716 --> 0:20:55.676 what caused it. I'm not sleeping well right now. Somehow 0:20:55.756 --> 0:20:59.356 my thoughts get dark. I do not like taking medication. 0:21:00.036 --> 0:21:04.756 I usually receive counseling when I want outside or inside. 0:21:05.356 --> 0:21:07.276 He told me that when it's up to him, he 0:21:07.356 --> 0:21:11.836 doesn't take meds. He also said he drinks sometimes to 0:21:11.916 --> 0:21:14.956 the point of oblivion. When I was free, I drank 0:21:14.996 --> 0:21:17.836 liquor when I could, and my memory was sometimes bad. 0:21:18.436 --> 0:21:20.876 I would forget my age, write down what I needed 0:21:20.916 --> 0:21:23.956 to do so I wouldn't forget I've lacked out sometimes? 0:21:24.996 --> 0:21:26.716 Is he trying to tell me that he may have 0:21:26.796 --> 0:21:31.396 done things he doesn't even know he did. I'm trying 0:21:31.436 --> 0:21:35.076 to understand rowdas psychology, to imagine what his motive could 0:21:35.076 --> 0:21:38.556 have been. What I've been able to assemble combing through 0:21:38.596 --> 0:21:43.596 his writings and court documents is a weird, sad, scattered jumble, 0:21:44.316 --> 0:21:48.636 and it's far short of an explanation, still nothing to 0:21:48.676 --> 0:21:54.116 suggest a why I decided to call a psychologist. I 0:21:54.156 --> 0:21:58.316 find someone who specializes in adult male offenders, especially the 0:21:58.356 --> 0:22:02.716 connection between childhood trauma and adult deviance. His name is 0:22:02.756 --> 0:22:06.636 doctor James Revs. He's never examined Anthony Rowda, but he 0:22:06.676 --> 0:22:09.996 agrees to give me some educated guesses. I tell him 0:22:09.996 --> 0:22:13.116 everything I know about Rouda's past, what I've observed, and 0:22:13.196 --> 0:22:16.476 the crimes he's accused of. Now, the heat that you 0:22:16.516 --> 0:22:20.316 were talking about in regard to his emotionality, that to 0:22:20.476 --> 0:22:24.556 me comes from something that he has undergone, you know, 0:22:24.556 --> 0:22:27.676 in other words, someone has betrayed his trust or hurt him, 0:22:28.076 --> 0:22:30.356 or at least he perceives that to be the case. 0:22:31.556 --> 0:22:34.076 Revas says, it doesn't sound like rout is a psychopath. 0:22:34.956 --> 0:22:39.916 He sees him more as quote intelligent, wounded, impulsive, obsessional, 0:22:40.156 --> 0:22:43.596 and poorly skilled. I just have the sense, as you talk, 0:22:43.716 --> 0:22:46.996 that there's a lot of heat behind all of these acts, 0:22:47.036 --> 0:22:51.196 that they're not coldly premeditated in the service of gaining 0:22:51.276 --> 0:22:56.756 some good. That there's a lot behind that Rauta, he says, 0:22:56.996 --> 0:23:00.956 sounds like a textbook narcissist. You also mentioned that he 0:23:01.196 --> 0:23:06.036 acted as his own attorney in court, and many, many 0:23:06.156 --> 0:23:10.396 narcissistic criminals will do that, and he did that, for example, 0:23:11.436 --> 0:23:14.676 because they believe that they are smarter than their own counsel. 0:23:15.236 --> 0:23:19.196 And so then it may be that the murder and 0:23:19.236 --> 0:23:25.556 the shootings are sort of a narcissistic compensation for feelings 0:23:25.556 --> 0:23:29.756 of insecurity. My guess is it may make him feel 0:23:30.316 --> 0:23:33.876 very very powerful. If in fact he set fires, it 0:23:33.916 --> 0:23:37.356 may make him feel very very powerful. It's his way 0:23:37.396 --> 0:23:39.676 of sort of giving the middle finger to the world. 0:23:40.556 --> 0:23:44.516 I've witnessed Rout to do exactly literally this give the 0:23:44.556 --> 0:23:48.476 middle finger to the TV cameras in court. My guess 0:23:48.636 --> 0:23:52.676 is what's happening is it makes him feel omnipotent, all powerful, 0:23:53.236 --> 0:23:56.916 and probably in that moment it's massively relieving of all 0:23:56.916 --> 0:24:01.036 of these other negative tensions inside of him. So shooting 0:24:01.076 --> 0:24:05.596 cars and people could make him feel masculine, powerful and important, 0:24:06.396 --> 0:24:11.196 godlike even getting to decide who and who dies. It 0:24:11.276 --> 0:24:14.156 could be very satisfying for someone who's identified as a 0:24:14.236 --> 0:24:17.956 victim for so long. He's going away with a bang. 0:24:18.676 --> 0:24:21.516 He's pronounced if he's doing these things, he's pronouncing that 0:24:21.596 --> 0:24:24.676 he's still there. He's going away and then coming back 0:24:24.676 --> 0:24:28.396 and engaging an aggression, you know. So to me it's anger, 0:24:28.916 --> 0:24:34.836 narcissism and paranoia. Well that's one person anyway who can 0:24:34.876 --> 0:24:38.156 figure an explanation for a series of violent crimes against 0:24:38.236 --> 0:24:43.516 unsuspecting strangers. But in his letters and in court, Rauda 0:24:43.676 --> 0:24:48.116 keeps saying he's innocent. I go back to his writings, 0:24:48.756 --> 0:24:53.276 the manifesto he published just before Tristan Boudette's murder. I 0:24:53.436 --> 0:24:59.876 force myself to reread the Luciferian theory. Rowda makes a 0:24:59.956 --> 0:25:03.516 lot of connections. There's stuff about the third eye the sun, 0:25:04.316 --> 0:25:08.676 and there's a lot about Lucifer. Lucifer equals light equals 0:25:08.716 --> 0:25:12.716 in light. Mint to stay on the subject, my theory 0:25:12.716 --> 0:25:15.916 of an ancient secret knowledge being passed down through history 0:25:15.956 --> 0:25:19.636 by Lucifer. The name Lucifer literally means the morning star 0:25:19.916 --> 0:25:23.796 the planet venus or is like bringing onto the highest 0:25:23.836 --> 0:25:28.756 of initiates. Lucifer. The name actually means the one who 0:25:28.756 --> 0:25:33.596 brings the light, the morning star, first light. That makes 0:25:33.636 --> 0:25:36.476 me think about the timing of the crimes just before 0:25:36.516 --> 0:25:40.996 the morning light, and something I'd skimmed right past before 0:25:41.596 --> 0:25:45.236 jumps out at me this time. Routa makes a reference 0:25:45.276 --> 0:25:48.676 to Saint John's Day, the feast day of John the Baptist. 0:25:49.316 --> 0:25:52.356 It's in late June, and it's a big deal to Freemasons. 0:25:52.396 --> 0:25:56.156 Some of the Illuminati routa frets about the most. He 0:25:56.236 --> 0:25:59.716 writes that a quote happens to be Midsummer's Day, the 0:25:59.796 --> 0:26:04.836 day the sun is at its strongest. Midsummer's Day, the 0:26:04.916 --> 0:26:07.596 day the sun is at its strongest is the solstice, 0:26:08.236 --> 0:26:11.876 the longest day of the year. It's a day that, 0:26:12.076 --> 0:26:14.876 in old religious myths, represents a turning point in the 0:26:14.876 --> 0:26:18.796 battle between light and shadow, when the Winter King begins 0:26:18.836 --> 0:26:24.996 his ascendants by killing the Summer King. In twenty eighteen, 0:26:25.316 --> 0:26:30.116 Midsummer's Day was June twenty first, the day Tristan Bodett 0:26:30.196 --> 0:26:55.836 took his children camping, The last day of Tristan Bodett's life. 0:27:05.276 --> 0:27:07.436 I've been living with Anthony Rawda for two and a 0:27:07.476 --> 0:27:11.636 half years now. My office is full of his stuff. 0:27:12.916 --> 0:27:14.676 At one end of my desk I keep a stack 0:27:14.676 --> 0:27:17.956 of books on how to disappear, how to survive in apocalypse, 0:27:18.076 --> 0:27:20.316 live off the land, build a bomb, or make a 0:27:20.316 --> 0:27:23.676 gun from scratch. They are all books I know He's 0:27:23.676 --> 0:27:26.596 owned at one time or another in his life. I've 0:27:26.596 --> 0:27:30.516 got file, boxes of notebooks, court filings, letters, his lists 0:27:30.516 --> 0:27:36.836 of grievances, misdirections, red herrings, split hairs. Why has no 0:27:36.876 --> 0:27:40.396 one asked law enforcement why they have lied? Why has 0:27:40.436 --> 0:27:43.196 no lawyer wished to represent me? Why has no one 0:27:43.236 --> 0:27:45.996 tried to prove my accusations of the sheriff's assaulting me 0:27:46.036 --> 0:27:49.396 as lies? Why did the sheriff tell the media I 0:27:49.476 --> 0:27:51.876 was a suspect in the murder of mister Baudet on 0:27:51.996 --> 0:27:54.716 the day of my arrest, when the rifle had not 0:27:54.796 --> 0:27:58.476 been tested and I did not admit any wrongdoing. Why 0:27:58.556 --> 0:28:00.916 is there no direct evidence leading me to the attempted 0:28:00.996 --> 0:28:04.676 murder when the Sheriff's department official statement to Lieutenant Royal 0:28:04.876 --> 0:28:08.556 is that these crimes were not connected. Why did Lieutenant 0:28:08.596 --> 0:28:12.196 Royals in instigation not lead to any suspects. The media's 0:28:12.236 --> 0:28:15.076 portrayal of me has been slanderous. I have not been 0:28:15.116 --> 0:28:19.076 to Maliboon years. I spend a lot of time looking 0:28:19.076 --> 0:28:22.596 at his drawings, especially one that was published in a 0:28:22.636 --> 0:28:26.556 prison literary magazine in twenty sixteen, the year he was 0:28:26.596 --> 0:28:31.316 most recently released. On the left are two cops surrounded 0:28:31.316 --> 0:28:35.636 by little word bubbles that say nine one on the right, 0:28:35.956 --> 0:28:38.596 a snake and an apple with a bite out of it. 0:28:39.716 --> 0:28:42.676 Above that, the gates of Eden, with Adam and Eve 0:28:42.956 --> 0:28:47.516 standing underneath a radiant tree of knowledge. They look like 0:28:47.556 --> 0:28:51.556 they're walking away to the east of Eden after the fall. 0:28:53.276 --> 0:28:55.956 I feel like I know Rautah a little now, and 0:28:56.076 --> 0:28:59.236 I think he's grafted this story of paradise and loss 0:28:59.516 --> 0:29:04.796 onto his own and his artist's name, Crazy Horse. It's 0:29:04.796 --> 0:29:09.556 not random either. The original Crazy Horse defeated custom Army 0:29:09.596 --> 0:29:12.036 at the Battle of the Little Big Horn. He met 0:29:12.076 --> 0:29:15.916 the army in steep and treacherous terrain, then killed Custer 0:29:16.196 --> 0:29:19.796 and every last one of his men. That sounds like 0:29:19.796 --> 0:29:23.636 a rout of revenge fantasy come true. And you know 0:29:23.636 --> 0:29:34.756 how Crazy Horse died resisting imprisonment. Ded Rouda says he's 0:29:34.796 --> 0:29:38.276 not guilty and the trial will determine that. But here's 0:29:38.276 --> 0:29:42.636 what I think. Part of Anthony Rowda wants to be 0:29:42.716 --> 0:29:45.916 left alone. Part of him is dying for a fight. 0:29:47.156 --> 0:29:49.436 And now that I know about his hatred of police, 0:29:49.796 --> 0:29:52.636 his long and contentious relationship with the Lost Hills cops, 0:29:53.716 --> 0:29:57.156 I have my own theory of the case. It was 0:29:57.196 --> 0:30:00.836