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Speaker 1: Hey, hey, hey, we're black. We're back bread ambition, ambition, ambition.

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Speaker 1: Hey marew how you doing girl?

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Speaker 2: Hello, welcome to the farm. I'm I'm doing good. I'm

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Speaker 2: just a working woman in America. My employer doesn't provide

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Speaker 2: me a nice place to pump, so I got a

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Speaker 2: pump on the are y'all. Oh, So if you hear

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Speaker 2: little mechanisms in the background, just know that it is

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Speaker 2: mother nature creating.

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Speaker 1: I love that women be literally so dope that you

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Speaker 1: produce your own food for the babies. You don't know why.

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Speaker 2: And they questioned it, like last night, my in laws

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Speaker 2: came because they've been helping out with the baby, and anyway,

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Speaker 2: the conversation of how big he has gotten came up

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Speaker 2: and what are you feeding him? You must be doing

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Speaker 2: more than milk. I'm like, actually no, and you know,

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Speaker 2: he's four months now. So people start trying to like

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Speaker 2: test to see how I feel about solids. I'm like,

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Speaker 2: do not try to tell me that, but just a

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Speaker 2: little bit of oat milk and his bottle, the mill

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Speaker 2: his bottle. Yeah, No, you can't give him water because

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Speaker 2: he has a hiccups. Nope, you sure can't.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, because how do babies how old do babies have

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Speaker 1: to be before they can get water?

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Speaker 2: Well, I mean the advice is six months and beyond,

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Speaker 2: but even no, no, even after six months, their primary

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Speaker 2: their their liquid should be breast milk, I think, or

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Speaker 2: like formula. Yeah. Yeah, And it's so funny because like

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Speaker 2: I'm just like reminding myself google it real quick. What

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Speaker 2: is the women again? What can I feed him? And when?

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Speaker 2: Because not me in the dark at like three am,

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Speaker 2: stuffing an uncrustable down my gullet because I'm starving, because

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Speaker 2: breastfeeding makes you hell hungry and thirsty. Yeah, holding an

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Speaker 2: infant who I don't know yet has if a peanut

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Speaker 2: allergy or not, and I'm just like I'm gonna eat

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Speaker 2: this real fast. I'm trying not to touch you.

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Speaker 1: Oh that's right, because peanut allergies are not just ingested,

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Speaker 1: it's like literally like in your like in the air.

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Speaker 2: Okay, there's just so many ways to soild.

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Speaker 1: I tell you, My sister, like she sent me this

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Speaker 1: It was this video of this woman describing being a

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Speaker 1: which wears you all the way out and you are depleted.

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Speaker 1: But oh no, no, there's second shift, which are your

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Speaker 1: you forgot about third shift if you're partnered, because you

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Speaker 1: know they want to hug and dinner and you good.

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Speaker 1: She was like, I I can't imagine first, second, and

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean you're kind of describing like I know,

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Speaker 2: so the next generation can be different. Congrats to anyone

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Speaker 2: They must have made up. But then he's got to

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Speaker 2: You know? And then he handles bedtime for Rio and

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Speaker 2: we married each other, you like you like me? Right?

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Speaker 2: You like think about me? He's like, but we're both

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Speaker 1: Just did myself. The women like single moms, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: Like what does that even mean? What does it mean?

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Speaker 2: Well? And if you like just not having to do

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Speaker 1: You know, the temper tantrums that are they happy? Are

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Speaker 2: floating down a stream. Just go to Dunkin Donuts and

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Speaker 2: I even go take a nap now that you've maybe

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Speaker 2: I'm almost sadden.

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Speaker 1: If you got to go to the video, you could

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Speaker 2: I'm just joking, did I It's not cute when they're

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Speaker 1: It's not cute. But I just think that, like sometimes

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Speaker 1: was like, oh, you should at least set the boundary

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00:20:41,800 --> 00:20:44,159
Speaker 1: just so he knows moving forward. And I just messaged

428
00:20:44,200 --> 00:20:46,080
Speaker 1: him and it was like, hey, you know, although I

429
00:20:46,240 --> 00:20:49,440
Speaker 1: enjoyed flirting, I'm just not into overtly sexual conversation with

430
00:20:49,520 --> 00:20:51,440
Speaker 1: somebody who I do not now you know.

431
00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:54,400
Speaker 2: Okay. He was like say like, oh no, go ahead

432
00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:55,159
Speaker 2: and go ahead no.

433
00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:56,600
Speaker 1: And he was like, okay, might have a good life.

434
00:20:56,680 --> 00:21:02,040
Speaker 1: Basically he's embarrassed. No, but girl, I was like, moving

435
00:21:02,080 --> 00:21:03,520
Speaker 1: on because you're way.

436
00:21:03,359 --> 00:21:05,080
Speaker 2: Too mature for him. He thought you were just gonna

437
00:21:05,119 --> 00:21:06,280
Speaker 2: let him have an easy out.

438
00:21:06,359 --> 00:21:09,360
Speaker 1: Girl as his big girl in age at fifty five.

439
00:21:09,400 --> 00:21:11,320
Speaker 1: And I was just like, well, I mean there's been

440
00:21:11,359 --> 00:21:13,680
Speaker 1: like you know, I mean not that a ton of

441
00:21:13,680 --> 00:21:16,120
Speaker 1: people slide on my dms but certainly there are people

442
00:21:16,119 --> 00:21:19,480
Speaker 1: who I knew before who I did not know held interest,

443
00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:20,560
Speaker 1: you know.

444
00:21:20,840 --> 00:21:23,720
Speaker 2: And so I'm just like, I catch, I'm you're talking

445
00:21:23,720 --> 00:21:27,560
Speaker 2: about your rich auntie life. But that's also too, that's

446
00:21:27,560 --> 00:21:29,560
Speaker 2: something like like my sisters worry about that, Like I don't.

447
00:21:29,840 --> 00:21:31,800
Speaker 1: I want. Of course, all your friends went to with

448
00:21:31,840 --> 00:21:34,480
Speaker 1: somebody rich, and I'm just like, that's not a prerequisite

449
00:21:34,520 --> 00:21:37,600
Speaker 1: for me, you know, Like no, My my rule has

450
00:21:37,640 --> 00:21:39,840
Speaker 1: always been from when I was preschool teacher Tiffany to now,

451
00:21:40,240 --> 00:21:42,159
Speaker 1: is that you should be able to financially take care

452
00:21:42,200 --> 00:21:45,639
Speaker 1: of yourself and your responsibilities. However that looked. If you

453
00:21:45,680 --> 00:21:48,000
Speaker 1: could do that on fifty thousand, okay, if you need

454
00:21:48,080 --> 00:21:51,240
Speaker 1: one hundred thousand, okay, that's your business. Like you should

455
00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:53,119
Speaker 1: be able to say, hey, this is my life, and

456
00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:55,199
Speaker 1: I could take care of my responsibilities and you live

457
00:21:55,280 --> 00:21:57,840
Speaker 1: within the means of what your responsibilities can provide. That's

458
00:21:57,880 --> 00:22:00,040
Speaker 1: my only rule. I don't have like a number of

459
00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:02,199
Speaker 1: what somebody can make, you know, because I don't need

460
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:03,920
Speaker 1: anyone to take care of mine. And if ever I

461
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:06,280
Speaker 1: decide to partner again, if you got yours and I

462
00:22:06,320 --> 00:22:09,360
Speaker 1: got mine, then together life is easier, you know, that's

463
00:22:09,440 --> 00:22:09,679
Speaker 1: like my.

464
00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:13,720
Speaker 2: Rule of a project. Yeah, I do to fix anyone,

465
00:22:13,760 --> 00:22:14,600
Speaker 2: are you No?

466
00:22:14,920 --> 00:22:18,720
Speaker 1: I just think like someone can come complete. I want

467
00:22:18,720 --> 00:22:21,440
Speaker 1: somebody who's really good at communicating. There's somebody I like

468
00:22:21,560 --> 00:22:24,159
Speaker 1: more than everybody else. He's really good at communicating. We

469
00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:28,800
Speaker 1: practice something called radical transparency, which is if it comes up,

470
00:22:28,840 --> 00:22:31,000
Speaker 1: it comes out. There's nothing that we can't talk about,

471
00:22:31,040 --> 00:22:34,680
Speaker 1: which I really like. But I'm not ready for partnership now,

472
00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:36,400
Speaker 1: you know. And it seems like that's the direction he's

473
00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:38,959
Speaker 1: kind of like leaning into. He listens to the podcast.

474
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,600
Speaker 2: So I'm just like, hey, when I tell my husband

475
00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:44,600
Speaker 2: that he's thinks he's to put on deodorant, he doesn't

476
00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:48,320
Speaker 2: view that as radical candor, but I do. I'm like,

477
00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:54,840
Speaker 2: he's like, you're mean, I'm radically candid. But when you

478
00:22:54,920 --> 00:22:57,760
Speaker 2: hand me the baby and the baby smells like pits all,

479
00:22:58,600 --> 00:23:02,159
Speaker 2: I'm gonna need sorry, that's a that's a married ladies like.

480
00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:06,520
Speaker 1: No, but I used to love that because honestly, like

481
00:23:06,640 --> 00:23:10,479
Speaker 1: Girall was like that. He'd be like, is that true now?

482
00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:13,520
Speaker 1: But you know that's married live. That's a level of

483
00:23:14,080 --> 00:23:15,960
Speaker 1: you know, and then you want that like you should

484
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:18,200
Speaker 1: be able to but like I like this radical transparency

485
00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:20,480
Speaker 1: because I can share I'm not ready for this, or

486
00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:23,720
Speaker 1: I'm afraid or I'm scared, or I still very much

487
00:23:23,760 --> 00:23:25,560
Speaker 1: love Darrell and I'm never gonna love you though I

488
00:23:25,600 --> 00:23:28,040
Speaker 1: can say those things, you know, where I'm just like

489
00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:31,480
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm not ready for partnership because quite honestly,

490
00:23:31,560 --> 00:23:33,240
Speaker 1: I don't know what to do with this love I

491
00:23:33,320 --> 00:23:36,880
Speaker 1: have for Jirelle, you know, like I don't know where

492
00:23:36,920 --> 00:23:39,680
Speaker 1: to safely put it so I can be open to

493
00:23:39,920 --> 00:23:43,520
Speaker 1: like something else. So I'm not open as a results fully,

494
00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:45,879
Speaker 1: you know, like certainly companionship and things are nice, but

495
00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:48,400
Speaker 1: I'm just like I don't want to I don't want

496
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:50,960
Speaker 1: to release this, like and I know there's a healthy

497
00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:53,800
Speaker 1: way actually have therapy tomorrow. I know there's there has

498
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:56,160
Speaker 1: to be a healthy way. Like It's almost like when

499
00:23:56,160 --> 00:23:57,920
Speaker 1: I bought the condo, I did not step foot in

500
00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:00,520
Speaker 1: that kindo for two months because the thought of leaving

501
00:24:00,560 --> 00:24:02,320
Speaker 1: this home that I built with Jerel was too much.

502
00:24:03,200 --> 00:24:05,680
Speaker 1: And so it wasn't until I had to like in

503
00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:08,320
Speaker 1: my mind place this house in the safe space, like

504
00:24:08,560 --> 00:24:10,159
Speaker 1: this is always going to be your house, this is

505
00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:12,960
Speaker 1: the family house. This house is not going anywhere. This

506
00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:18,280
Speaker 1: condo is not your home home. This is another home,

507
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:20,920
Speaker 1: if that makes sense, you know, because one day I

508
00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:23,240
Speaker 1: want to live in a penthouse. One day I want

509
00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:25,840
Speaker 1: to buy like some land. So this is one This

510
00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:28,480
Speaker 1: is I rationalize in my head. The condo is not

511
00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:31,359
Speaker 1: a replacement for home. It is part of a series

512
00:24:31,400 --> 00:24:33,879
Speaker 1: of different types of living environments that you're going to

513
00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:35,760
Speaker 1: live in. And so as a result, once I kind

514
00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: of was able to absorb that, like this is not

515
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:41,560
Speaker 1: replacing house, then I was able to go there, you know,

516
00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:43,639
Speaker 1: after almost three months of buying it and saying, okay,

517
00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:45,760
Speaker 1: I could see myself being here because one day I'll

518
00:24:45,760 --> 00:24:48,680
Speaker 1: be someplace else. But I have not figured out how

519
00:24:48,720 --> 00:24:52,040
Speaker 1: to do that with my love with Jarell. You know,

520
00:24:52,080 --> 00:24:54,480
Speaker 1: I haven't figured that out, Like what do I you know,

521
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:57,080
Speaker 1: And that's what therapy is for, because right now he

522
00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:00,880
Speaker 1: still occupies all of the space for like romantic love,

523
00:25:01,280 --> 00:25:05,240
Speaker 1: you know, or most of it, And so to allow

524
00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:07,000
Speaker 1: somebody else in in that way, at least in a

525
00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:10,280
Speaker 1: way that's like really hardcore, like a partner or whatever,

526
00:25:10,560 --> 00:25:12,840
Speaker 1: or potentially even a husband. One day it's like, well

527
00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:15,400
Speaker 1: what do I do? Am I pushing out this love

528
00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:17,560
Speaker 1: and I know that's not true, but your heart doesn't

529
00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:19,359
Speaker 1: tell you that, so I haven't figured that out. So

530
00:25:19,400 --> 00:25:21,399
Speaker 1: as a result, I don't want a partner, certainly like

531
00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:24,399
Speaker 1: today it's a companionship. But I don't want a partner

532
00:25:24,520 --> 00:25:27,600
Speaker 1: until I can safely keep this love and create the

533
00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 1: most beautiful box for it and to safely keep it.

534
00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,879
Speaker 1: So until I feel that that, I'm not ready, you

535
00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:36,159
Speaker 1: know for that. Although it's so crazy because like all

536
00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:39,320
Speaker 1: these the men who are not you know, trying to

537
00:25:39,359 --> 00:25:42,800
Speaker 1: have sex on the first date, are wanting partnership, you know,

538
00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:45,119
Speaker 1: and I'm just like, eh, I mean they all know

539
00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:47,359
Speaker 1: I'm always candid about with them about like my husband

540
00:25:47,359 --> 00:25:51,320
Speaker 1: passed away two years ago. But yeah, they're all wanting partnership.

541
00:25:51,320 --> 00:25:53,920
Speaker 1: But I'm just like, maybe one day, but as it

542
00:25:54,040 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: is right now, I'm just not ready to move into

543
00:25:55,840 --> 00:25:57,159
Speaker 1: the condo yet, you know.

544
00:25:57,440 --> 00:26:01,280
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I mean I think it's also important to

545
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:04,600
Speaker 2: have that radical transparency with yourself so you know how

546
00:26:04,680 --> 00:26:06,680
Speaker 2: you feel going into it. It's gonna make your whole

547
00:26:07,480 --> 00:26:09,960
Speaker 2: dating I feel like journey or whatever that looks like

548
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:13,480
Speaker 2: for you a lot less painful. Yeah, because you're not

549
00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:16,359
Speaker 2: like setting yourself up to attract these guys who are

550
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:17,760
Speaker 2: like looking to get wiped up.

551
00:26:18,720 --> 00:26:19,720
Speaker 1: Where I am I stracking them?

552
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:21,680
Speaker 2: And you deserve to just have some fun. What's the fun.

553
00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:22,800
Speaker 2: Have you been on a fun date?

554
00:26:23,200 --> 00:26:23,400
Speaker 1: Oh?

555
00:26:23,640 --> 00:26:26,440
Speaker 2: Let me see, let me she give some hope.

556
00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:32,320
Speaker 1: Well, just this weekend, I mean to me, I love

557
00:26:32,600 --> 00:26:35,119
Speaker 1: like experiential. I mean like I'm not really I mean

558
00:26:35,200 --> 00:26:38,640
Speaker 1: certainly dinners and things like that. That's cool, but like, well,

559
00:26:38,680 --> 00:26:41,800
Speaker 1: also well this weekend the date we went to the shore,

560
00:26:41,880 --> 00:26:42,760
Speaker 1: which is really nice.

561
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:46,720
Speaker 2: Like the minutes you canceled on our anniversary, I knew

562
00:26:46,760 --> 00:26:50,159
Speaker 2: a man without I knew, I said, I bet she

563
00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:53,320
Speaker 2: has because she hasn't seen sneak, not a sneak healing.

564
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:58,320
Speaker 2: In a minute, I'm gonna get shafted. I wish you

565
00:26:58,400 --> 00:27:01,320
Speaker 2: had given me the chance to like give me you know,

566
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:02,360
Speaker 2: I would have said, yes.

567
00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:06,719
Speaker 1: I went in the shore, which is about forty five

568
00:27:06,800 --> 00:27:09,560
Speaker 1: been a drive from where I live, and there's a

569
00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:11,639
Speaker 1: restaurant there that's like one of my favorites. It's like

570
00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:14,920
Speaker 1: so delicious and great. And then like we bought a

571
00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:18,119
Speaker 1: blanket because it was too chilly for the water but

572
00:27:18,280 --> 00:27:20,000
Speaker 1: warm enough to like lay on the beach, So just

573
00:27:20,080 --> 00:27:22,080
Speaker 1: sat on the beach to listen to music, talking which

574
00:27:22,119 --> 00:27:23,879
Speaker 1: is so great, for like an hour or so, and

575
00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:26,520
Speaker 1: then we walked around and then down the shore. There's

576
00:27:26,560 --> 00:27:28,479
Speaker 1: one of my favorite ice cream places called Day. If

577
00:27:28,520 --> 00:27:32,520
Speaker 1: you're ever in like the Asbury Park, Neptune, whatever area,

578
00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:36,400
Speaker 1: Ocean Grove, there's this ice cream place, this family owned

579
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:38,800
Speaker 1: and operated ice cream place called Days, like Days of

580
00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:41,320
Speaker 1: the Week. The best ice cream I have ever had

581
00:27:41,359 --> 00:27:43,440
Speaker 1: in my life. So we walked around, got that ice cream.

582
00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:45,639
Speaker 1: He'd never had it before. We were just like, but

583
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:47,879
Speaker 1: the shore is because where I live, you know, I

584
00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:49,720
Speaker 1: live in the city, which is like high strung and

585
00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:52,399
Speaker 1: hyper and the shore as soon as we hit it,

586
00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:56,399
Speaker 1: it was so calm. The energy it was like it

587
00:27:56,480 --> 00:28:00,359
Speaker 1: went from hyperactive to like literally zero. So it was

588
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:02,600
Speaker 1: just like such a that was such a nice immersive date,

589
00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:05,480
Speaker 1: you know, like going to the shore, sitting on the beach,

590
00:28:05,600 --> 00:28:08,240
Speaker 1: eating at a really the restaurant was, you know, not

591
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:10,760
Speaker 1: some super fancy restaurant, but just this cute, beechy kind

592
00:28:10,800 --> 00:28:13,720
Speaker 1: of restaurant, having ice cream. Literally just walking the neighborhood.

593
00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:16,840
Speaker 1: We went to like an antique shop and like like, look,

594
00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:19,240
Speaker 1: I'm looking for stuff for the condo. So that was

595
00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:22,359
Speaker 1: really nice. I'll tell you my very first date that

596
00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:25,480
Speaker 1: I had after Drill passed away was with this guy

597
00:28:25,920 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 1: and he was really nice, but I was so nervous

598
00:28:29,920 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 1: and it wasn't just nervous. I also was really anxious

599
00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: about being out. But we went bowling, which was cool.

600
00:28:36,119 --> 00:28:38,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I remember this one right. And then afterwards,

601
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna I'm not gonna date anyone in Newark.

602
00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:43,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was like I wanted to come, which is

603
00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,760
Speaker 1: crazy because we were on the train and so this

604
00:28:46,920 --> 00:28:49,680
Speaker 1: guy who I was dating, who I went on a

605
00:28:49,760 --> 00:28:51,479
Speaker 1: date with, you know, he didn't know. I told him

606
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 1: my name is Tiffany, I'm a teacher. You know. He

607
00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:56,040
Speaker 1: didn't know anything else. And so but we were on

608
00:28:56,160 --> 00:28:58,360
Speaker 1: the train and I saw a woman and I know

609
00:28:58,440 --> 00:29:01,080
Speaker 1: the look of budgeties as you and I looked at her.

610
00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:02,520
Speaker 1: So she looked at me like, you know, with the

611
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:04,959
Speaker 1: initial excitement like I about to say something, and then

612
00:29:05,000 --> 00:29:07,440
Speaker 1: she looked at him standing next to me. But she

613
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:11,000
Speaker 1: gave me to look like, oh wait, okay, okay, girl,

614
00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:16,640
Speaker 1: I love Yeah she did. I tell you the dates

615
00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:19,760
Speaker 1: that have been on that has happened multiple times and

616
00:29:19,920 --> 00:29:24,080
Speaker 1: I love black women are top tier. Okay, because one

617
00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:26,680
Speaker 1: time it was out walking with like this guy that

618
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:28,840
Speaker 1: I'm like currently like this gues's going out with more

619
00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:32,600
Speaker 1: regularly now, and this girl was like, oh my god,

620
00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:37,080
Speaker 1: oh girl, my bad, you're doing something. By when I

621
00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:42,840
Speaker 1: tell you, she was like, look me my business. She

622
00:29:43,040 --> 00:29:46,240
Speaker 1: literally said, you doing so I'll never forget that because

623
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:51,160
Speaker 1: the way she looked me was like, oh so, but yeah, So,

624
00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: I mean it's been interesting. I mean so far, Like

625
00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:55,720
Speaker 1: you know, the people I've met, I've been pretty nice.

626
00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 1: But like I said, I child, I don't know. I'm

627
00:29:59,840 --> 00:30:02,400
Speaker 1: just I figure out my life. No, you know, but

628
00:30:02,480 --> 00:30:04,120
Speaker 1: we're here for such a short period of time. I

629
00:30:04,200 --> 00:30:08,240
Speaker 1: remind myself this all the time, that, like, especially whenever

630
00:30:08,280 --> 00:30:11,080
Speaker 1: I go to visit Darrell's gravesite. He is in a

631
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:15,960
Speaker 1: historic cemetery and there are literally tombstones I say, seventeen whatever,

632
00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:19,880
Speaker 1: like eighteen, you know, And so I think to myself

633
00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:25,040
Speaker 1: all the time that these like people have stood here

634
00:30:25,320 --> 00:30:28,960
Speaker 1: hundreds of years before me, experiencing the same emotions I'm experiencing,

635
00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:33,360
Speaker 1: and that although life seems long, it's really just like

636
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:36,440
Speaker 1: a flash in the bucket and the entirety. Like nothing

637
00:30:36,440 --> 00:30:38,960
Speaker 1: taught me that more than going to Egypt thousands of

638
00:30:39,080 --> 00:30:41,800
Speaker 1: years ago someone touched the same pyramid that I'm touching,

639
00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:45,240
Speaker 1: and that as big as my life feels like to me,

640
00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:48,080
Speaker 1: it is a flash in the bucket. It goes by

641
00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:51,560
Speaker 1: so quickly. So I can live my life aligned with

642
00:30:51,640 --> 00:30:53,760
Speaker 1: what everybody wants me to do, or date this rich person,

643
00:30:54,720 --> 00:30:57,640
Speaker 1: or I can just try and say, like, girl, I

644
00:30:57,680 --> 00:30:59,280
Speaker 1: don't know, it's just a dagon day. I'm not gonna

645
00:30:59,280 --> 00:31:01,680
Speaker 1: be on my deathbed. Why did I go out with Jimbo?

646
00:31:02,640 --> 00:31:03,840
Speaker 1: Like nobody cares.

647
00:31:03,840 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 2: I just love you and your advice and your mixed cliches.

648
00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:13,760
Speaker 3: The flashing the bucket, what is it, flo I have

649
00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 3: become drop in the bucket. When I tell you, I

650
00:31:17,120 --> 00:31:19,360
Speaker 3: have become my dad, he is a king.

651
00:31:19,800 --> 00:31:23,040
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I know. I almost was like I

652
00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 2: give for it, but I'm glad.

653
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 1: I will always Oh my god, Rodney j why are

654
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 1: you coming out of my mouth? Like yo? He loved

655
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:31,680
Speaker 1: to be like, oh my gosh.

656
00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:33,080
Speaker 2: The flash in the bucket.

657
00:31:34,360 --> 00:31:38,720
Speaker 1: That doesn't make sense. But I'm honestly just navigating.

658
00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 3: That's it.

659
00:31:39,080 --> 00:31:40,320
Speaker 1: I'm just trying to put one foot in front of

660
00:31:40,360 --> 00:31:43,479
Speaker 1: the other and like and be honest, that's my big thing.

661
00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:45,920
Speaker 1: As long as I'm honest. Adults can choose what they

662
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:47,240
Speaker 1: want to do, you know, And.

663
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:49,760
Speaker 2: So older I get, the more I'm just like Buddhism

664
00:31:50,080 --> 00:31:52,360
Speaker 2: is just like, I'm gonna study it more because a

665
00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:56,240
Speaker 2: lot of these principles, like the cycle, the bigger than anything,

666
00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:57,880
Speaker 2: like all these teachings is a whole part of it.

667
00:31:58,000 --> 00:32:00,880
Speaker 2: But I agree, and it helps. It's it's that perspective.

668
00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:03,880
Speaker 2: I think we all need that reminder on a daily

669
00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 2: the big things are not that big. Yeah, you know.

670
00:32:07,160 --> 00:32:09,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a great book. Don't swam, don't sweat the

671
00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 1: small stuff. It's a really great book.

672
00:32:14,760 --> 00:32:18,360
Speaker 2: What's your dad's name? Well, RONDI Jr?

673
00:32:20,840 --> 00:32:21,440
Speaker 1: Take a break?

674
00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:25,120
Speaker 2: Can we right back with our boothster breaks? Ye?

675
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:33,560
Speaker 1: Yes, and we're black and back and brown. It's time

676
00:32:33,840 --> 00:32:36,200
Speaker 1: wait right, wait wait wait wait boost a break? Okay,

677
00:32:37,160 --> 00:32:40,720
Speaker 1: it's time to boost up, break up, boost up, break up,

678
00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:44,520
Speaker 1: boost up, break up? Boost Are you gonna boost? Are

679
00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:49,000
Speaker 1: you gonna break? What you're gonna do? What you're gonna do?

680
00:32:50,720 --> 00:32:51,840
Speaker 1: You want to go for a second, what do you

681
00:32:51,880 --> 00:32:52,640
Speaker 1: want to do? Mane?

682
00:32:53,320 --> 00:32:56,960
Speaker 2: Oh, I just switched my break I just chose to

683
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 2: break something because that just clicked to me what I

684
00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:01,840
Speaker 2: was thinking about earlier. And I'm gonna need a minute.

685
00:33:01,920 --> 00:33:03,720
Speaker 2: I can Okay, I'll go first.

686
00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 1: You say you want to go first, Yeah, I can

687
00:33:05,760 --> 00:33:07,120
Speaker 1: go first. Okay, I was up to you.

688
00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 2: Okay, okay. I want to take a break from ozempic.

689
00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 2: Have you heard about oh oh oh oh? It went

690
00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:25,880
Speaker 2: from being the commercial that always came on when I

691
00:33:25,960 --> 00:33:29,600
Speaker 2: was watching CBS, I call it the Gael Show in

692
00:33:29,720 --> 00:33:31,840
Speaker 2: the morning, to like this epic drug. You guys have

693
00:33:31,920 --> 00:33:34,640
Speaker 2: heard of ozempic. You probably know about it, but little

694
00:33:34,680 --> 00:33:37,280
Speaker 2: did I know. A couple of years ago, my doctor

695
00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:41,880
Speaker 2: tried to prescribe or did prescribe me ozempic. Really yeah,

696
00:33:42,040 --> 00:33:43,880
Speaker 2: because I was struggling, I think, like a lot of

697
00:33:43,960 --> 00:33:46,480
Speaker 2: new moms, to like lose the weight, and some of

698
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:49,480
Speaker 2: my some of my levels were not great and like

699
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:51,719
Speaker 2: my labs or whatever, like they weren't bad, but they

700
00:33:51,760 --> 00:33:54,440
Speaker 2: were just starting to, like, you know, change for the

701
00:33:54,520 --> 00:33:56,520
Speaker 2: first time. And I was like, okay, really got you know,

702
00:33:56,520 --> 00:33:59,800
Speaker 2: I want to lose some more weight and anyway, so yeah,

703
00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:01,880
Speaker 2: and I had gone to an endochronologist to get my

704
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:06,200
Speaker 2: hormones checked and the endocrinologists who like prescribed me ozempic.

705
00:34:06,360 --> 00:34:08,440
Speaker 2: And it was this shot that I put in my

706
00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:10,640
Speaker 2: stomach and I tried it. I think I had like

707
00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:13,680
Speaker 2: a six week supply and she was very excited because

708
00:34:13,719 --> 00:34:15,840
Speaker 2: my insurance covered it because it was newer and not

709
00:34:15,920 --> 00:34:18,880
Speaker 2: a lot of insurances, did I guess at the time anyway,

710
00:34:18,960 --> 00:34:20,640
Speaker 2: So this was a couple a couple of years ago,

711
00:34:20,719 --> 00:34:23,719
Speaker 2: maybe three years ago, two or three tried it. I

712
00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:27,240
Speaker 2: really hated it, like made mad, It made me nauseous,

713
00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:31,719
Speaker 2: and I hated the act of like shooting myself in

714
00:34:31,800 --> 00:34:34,239
Speaker 2: the stomach. I read that, And then now cut to

715
00:34:34,280 --> 00:34:36,440
Speaker 2: a couple few years later, and people are losing their

716
00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:39,839
Speaker 2: minds over this weight loss drug. And if you haven't yet,

717
00:34:39,840 --> 00:34:42,239
Speaker 2: there's a really great episode of the New York Times

718
00:34:42,320 --> 00:34:45,160
Speaker 2: podcast The Daily about ozempic and it really just like

719
00:34:45,239 --> 00:34:47,640
Speaker 2: lays the foundation for how did we get here where

720
00:34:47,640 --> 00:34:51,440
Speaker 2: it's become this viral you know drug and every and

721
00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:54,040
Speaker 2: I should have known we reached a tipping point because

722
00:34:54,080 --> 00:34:56,440
Speaker 2: when my mom visited like a few I don't know,

723
00:34:56,640 --> 00:34:59,160
Speaker 2: like early last year or whatever, she was like, is

724
00:34:59,239 --> 00:35:01,919
Speaker 2: that ozempic in your fridge? Because that's where I stored

725
00:35:01,920 --> 00:35:04,040
Speaker 2: it you're supposed to store in the fridge. She's like,

726
00:35:04,239 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 2: can I have some? And I'm like, mom, should we

727
00:35:06,239 --> 00:35:08,120
Speaker 2: be sharing needles like this?

728
00:35:08,360 --> 00:35:08,520
Speaker 1: Like this?

729
00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:12,160
Speaker 2: You know, it was just weird and I can see

730
00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:13,920
Speaker 2: the hunger in people's eyes, like, oh, this is a

731
00:35:13,960 --> 00:35:15,920
Speaker 2: miracle pill and this is miracle drug. Whatever, It's not

732
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,800
Speaker 2: a pill, it's a shot. But I was listening and

733
00:35:18,880 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 2: the more I was listening to this episode, I was like,

734
00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:23,959
Speaker 2: I'm really glad that I did not choose that path

735
00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:28,360
Speaker 2: for myself, because what's really frustrating to me is I

736
00:35:28,480 --> 00:35:31,239
Speaker 2: feel like I have just arrived at this base in

737
00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:34,440
Speaker 2: my life where I feel healthy in the body that

738
00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 2: I have now, which is larger and looks different than

739
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:41,360
Speaker 2: I did, you know, five, six, ten years ago. But

740
00:35:42,120 --> 00:35:45,000
Speaker 2: I feel and am healthy and I am happy, and

741
00:35:45,040 --> 00:35:47,239
Speaker 2: I'm just I'm part of this new I feel like

742
00:35:47,280 --> 00:35:50,920
Speaker 2: for millennial old old elder millennials, this new wave where

743
00:35:50,960 --> 00:35:53,520
Speaker 2: it's about really loving ourselves the way that we are

744
00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:57,960
Speaker 2: and looking for health, looking for you know, healthfulness and

745
00:35:58,120 --> 00:35:59,840
Speaker 2: that's not attached to a number on the scale and

746
00:36:00,120 --> 00:36:02,040
Speaker 2: having a good mentality around that as long as you

747
00:36:02,120 --> 00:36:05,040
Speaker 2: feel good and you're healthy and things are fine, just

748
00:36:05,160 --> 00:36:07,160
Speaker 2: at the time when I feel like this freaking drug

749
00:36:07,840 --> 00:36:11,480
Speaker 2: has landed like a nuclear bomb into all of this

750
00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:14,040
Speaker 2: and all of a sudden, I feel like a lot

751
00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:17,120
Speaker 2: of people are, you know, shifting and like, oh, but

752
00:36:17,239 --> 00:36:19,680
Speaker 2: this this is gonna be the thing. It's like another

753
00:36:20,000 --> 00:36:24,160
Speaker 2: It's another miracle diet. It's another beach body, It's another

754
00:36:24,440 --> 00:36:29,279
Speaker 2: like Atkins. It's another fucking key Sorry Keto, but for real,

755
00:36:29,480 --> 00:36:32,160
Speaker 2: f Keto. You know these diet things, it's this other

756
00:36:32,239 --> 00:36:34,600
Speaker 2: thing that people are going to try. Are you really

757
00:36:34,640 --> 00:36:37,200
Speaker 2: gonna put a shot in your stomach for the rest

758
00:36:37,239 --> 00:36:39,600
Speaker 2: of your life? Like, because if you stop doing that,

759
00:36:39,840 --> 00:36:43,239
Speaker 2: it stops working. Yes, you know. I heard. If you

760
00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 2: stop shooting yourself in the stomach with this you know medicine,

761
00:36:46,880 --> 00:36:49,920
Speaker 2: it will stop working. And so the same reasons why

762
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:51,800
Speaker 2: you struggled before are still going to be there. So

763
00:36:51,960 --> 00:36:53,920
Speaker 2: I feel like it's just not like a long term solution.

764
00:36:54,040 --> 00:36:57,600
Speaker 2: And I just and I had to know myself because

765
00:36:57,600 --> 00:36:59,200
Speaker 2: I started to even wonder, I bet I can get

766
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:00,920
Speaker 2: back in touch with that end chronologists and see if

767
00:37:00,960 --> 00:37:02,640
Speaker 2: she could hook me up with more hook me up

768
00:37:02,719 --> 00:37:06,160
Speaker 2: like as a like it's fentanyl. No, but like you know,

769
00:37:06,640 --> 00:37:09,439
Speaker 2: get some more and try it again after my after

770
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:12,080
Speaker 2: I just had my my new baby, because I genuinely

771
00:37:12,160 --> 00:37:14,440
Speaker 2: do have some weight loss goals with this one. But

772
00:37:14,840 --> 00:37:16,640
Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't want to. I don't want to

773
00:37:16,680 --> 00:37:19,000
Speaker 2: go down that path for my own self because I

774
00:37:19,920 --> 00:37:24,480
Speaker 2: have been on every like up and down of weight

775
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:26,440
Speaker 2: like many women in this country are, and I just

776
00:37:26,560 --> 00:37:30,480
Speaker 2: know the answers are probably for me not gonna lie

777
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:35,719
Speaker 2: in you know another uh yeah, another drug or another diet,

778
00:37:35,760 --> 00:37:38,200
Speaker 2: another plan like that. And yeah, it just makes me

779
00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 2: sad because I feel like I'm there is so much.

780
00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:45,560
Speaker 2: Especially at that Beyonce concert, I just felt so like

781
00:37:46,160 --> 00:37:49,799
Speaker 2: Seene and their dancers. I still think about that one

782
00:37:49,880 --> 00:37:53,520
Speaker 2: dancer with the crop short blonde hair and like with

783
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:56,120
Speaker 2: all that body, and I was like, her body looks

784
00:37:56,200 --> 00:38:00,200
Speaker 2: like my body, and it's and you know, just and

785
00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 2: we're getting to this place and it feels like this

786
00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:05,800
Speaker 2: drug and all the conversations around it are just bringing

787
00:38:05,880 --> 00:38:10,480
Speaker 2: us back too and like you know, not having like

788
00:38:10,600 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 2: feeling like feeling like we need to do something to

789
00:38:12,680 --> 00:38:17,839
Speaker 2: change ourselves. So that's my that's my break this week.

790
00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:20,320
Speaker 1: No, it's I didn't know that it was an injectable

791
00:38:21,080 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 1: and I had heard that you have to keep taking it,

792
00:38:24,080 --> 00:38:28,880
Speaker 1: Like I wonder, like what how has like the market

793
00:38:28,960 --> 00:38:31,200
Speaker 1: share that you know, like what's the financial ramifications of

794
00:38:31,280 --> 00:38:34,080
Speaker 1: like this this drug? I'm sure like that. Do you

795
00:38:34,160 --> 00:38:34,680
Speaker 1: know who makes it?

796
00:38:34,840 --> 00:38:38,439
Speaker 2: Like Procter and Gamba's No, what's it called Novo disc

797
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:41,560
Speaker 2: or No, it's one of those. It's a big pharmaceutical.

798
00:38:41,600 --> 00:38:42,640
Speaker 2: It's like called Novo.

799
00:38:43,520 --> 00:38:45,680
Speaker 1: I wonder how like if they if they are privately owned,

800
00:38:45,719 --> 00:38:48,799
Speaker 1: which I'm sure like and what they're to have their

801
00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:50,839
Speaker 1: stock prices rose as a result. This is the type

802
00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:53,880
Speaker 1: of thing quite honestly, this whole thing around like ozampic

803
00:38:53,920 --> 00:38:55,840
Speaker 1: and things like that. Like if you are in the market,

804
00:38:56,160 --> 00:38:57,840
Speaker 1: these are the types of things that you listen for

805
00:38:58,640 --> 00:39:00,719
Speaker 1: and you know, you're like, huh, this is something that

806
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:02,520
Speaker 1: this is how people kind of choose like where they

807
00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 1: might invest in, where they might place their money, you know,

808
00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:07,279
Speaker 1: depending on like you know, because not everybody wants to

809
00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:09,120
Speaker 1: invest in something like this, but I'm just putting that

810
00:39:09,200 --> 00:39:12,480
Speaker 1: out there. It's like a financial spend. But yeah, and

811
00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:14,800
Speaker 1: then to for you to have to use it forever

812
00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:19,400
Speaker 1: and ever, and that's that's a lot, Like I mean,

813
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:22,840
Speaker 1: as someone who was like, h you know, I you know,

814
00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:25,160
Speaker 1: I'd been pretty much skinny my whole life until I

815
00:39:25,320 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 1: was in and I put on like, you know, a

816
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,120
Speaker 1: decent amout like thirty pounds or so.

817
00:39:29,280 --> 00:39:32,840
Speaker 2: And person skinning is another person's like or one person's

818
00:39:33,320 --> 00:39:35,800
Speaker 2: I'm not skinny anymore is another person's like gold, you

819
00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:38,000
Speaker 2: know what I mean, Because there's no version of you

820
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:41,239
Speaker 2: that I've ever known where you haven't looked fucking amazing.

821
00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:43,320
Speaker 2: And I've been like, dang, I wish I could be

822
00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:44,759
Speaker 2: that size, you know what I mean, Like it's just

823
00:39:44,920 --> 00:39:49,600
Speaker 2: crazy what we do to ourselves. But I was with ourselves.

824
00:39:49,600 --> 00:39:52,239
Speaker 1: I just you know, I just felt uncomfortable, you know,

825
00:39:52,440 --> 00:39:54,560
Speaker 1: like with the way like it was feeling and sitting

826
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:57,600
Speaker 1: and yeah, and so like now that I'm down to like,

827
00:39:57,760 --> 00:40:01,000
Speaker 1: I guess what I would call like why regular normal weight? Like,

828
00:40:01,080 --> 00:40:03,839
Speaker 1: so just for transparency, because I'm not hung up on numbers.

829
00:40:03,880 --> 00:40:06,320
Speaker 1: So I'm five seven and then my peak it was

830
00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:06,839
Speaker 1: a little over.

831
00:40:06,760 --> 00:40:09,560
Speaker 2: Two hundred times I am triggered by numbers. Okay, so

832
00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:10,919
Speaker 2: I will not share your numbers.

833
00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:12,920
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, Okay, I won't Okay, I'm silent.

834
00:40:12,680 --> 00:40:15,239
Speaker 2: But now it's okay, I'm really I have got a

835
00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:18,279
Speaker 2: lot of like I've been like traumatized by this whole

836
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:20,640
Speaker 2: my whole life. Yeah, numbers triggered.

837
00:40:20,719 --> 00:40:23,040
Speaker 1: Okay, we know, Okay, good to know. So anyway, I

838
00:40:23,160 --> 00:40:26,320
Speaker 1: just lost a good amount of weight and I feel like,

839
00:40:26,440 --> 00:40:28,279
Speaker 1: for the most part, good about where I am now.

840
00:40:28,560 --> 00:40:30,160
Speaker 1: I'm just like, you know, y'all know, I've been walking.

841
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:32,520
Speaker 1: I just lately I've been considering going back to weight

842
00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:35,359
Speaker 1: training a little bit because I find that I yo, yo,

843
00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:38,440
Speaker 1: because walking is not no you know, you have to

844
00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:41,279
Speaker 1: like muscles underneath have to basically keep you where you are,

845
00:40:41,719 --> 00:40:44,279
Speaker 1: you know, and so like. But the walking has been great.

846
00:40:44,360 --> 00:40:45,759
Speaker 1: You know, I've been doing that for like the last

847
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:48,399
Speaker 1: two years, and it has mostly honestly been about mental

848
00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:50,759
Speaker 1: health to walking. And I was almost kind of like

849
00:40:50,840 --> 00:40:55,200
Speaker 1: the health component. I was like, oh, because I never

850
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:57,520
Speaker 1: thought it was not my intention to lose weight with walking,

851
00:40:57,520 --> 00:40:59,160
Speaker 1: because who thinks you could lose weight where I did

852
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:01,719
Speaker 1: not know that, you know. It was really just like

853
00:41:01,840 --> 00:41:03,920
Speaker 1: I need to walk because I cannot sit in this house.

854
00:41:04,320 --> 00:41:06,720
Speaker 1: Like I started walking after Jiroll passed away, just because

855
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:08,680
Speaker 1: I had to. I was looking for peace, and I

856
00:41:08,760 --> 00:41:11,400
Speaker 1: was like, it's nature it's sunshine, it's outside, I get

857
00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:13,320
Speaker 1: to talk to a friend or maybe listen to a podcast,

858
00:41:14,000 --> 00:41:17,360
Speaker 1: and inadvertently I started to like lose some weight, and

859
00:41:17,440 --> 00:41:19,399
Speaker 1: I just said, okay, And even now when I walk,

860
00:41:19,480 --> 00:41:21,719
Speaker 1: it's really not for that. I'm just like, I still

861
00:41:21,760 --> 00:41:23,480
Speaker 1: walk my one to two hours when it's not raining

862
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:26,000
Speaker 1: like today, because it brings so much peace to me.

863
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:28,320
Speaker 1: And it's nice to know that. Because I had a

864
00:41:28,360 --> 00:41:30,400
Speaker 1: personal trainer for a brief moment, he was like, typically,

865
00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:33,160
Speaker 1: it's so good for your heart, you know, Like are

866
00:41:33,160 --> 00:41:35,360
Speaker 1: you gonna become ripped from walking? No, but he was

867
00:41:35,480 --> 00:41:40,080
Speaker 1: like your overall health, like it tremendously increases your overall health.

868
00:41:40,120 --> 00:41:41,919
Speaker 1: Like now I'm into like I'm such an old lady.

869
00:41:42,040 --> 00:41:44,160
Speaker 1: I just went to this place in Montclair called Fleet Feet.

870
00:41:44,560 --> 00:41:46,200
Speaker 1: This is like where like if you're like a runner

871
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:48,520
Speaker 1: or a marathon or whatever, people go to get fit

872
00:41:48,640 --> 00:41:52,040
Speaker 1: for like for sneakers, like and so not that they're

873
00:41:52,080 --> 00:41:55,280
Speaker 1: not specialty sneakers, but they are really knowledgeable about depending

874
00:41:55,320 --> 00:41:56,840
Speaker 1: on what type of sport you do, which sneaker you

875
00:41:56,880 --> 00:41:59,000
Speaker 1: should get. So I like to go and so I

876
00:41:59,120 --> 00:42:01,640
Speaker 1: got my if you were to see my walking sneakers

877
00:42:01,680 --> 00:42:06,080
Speaker 1: You're like, you are now the thickest. So I don't

878
00:42:06,120 --> 00:42:09,880
Speaker 1: care because I have plants as fasciitis, which is just

879
00:42:09,960 --> 00:42:10,439
Speaker 1: flat feet.

880
00:42:12,440 --> 00:42:15,040
Speaker 2: So he's admitting for not admitting not but sharing not

881
00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:18,000
Speaker 2: because I feel like all these some a lot of

882
00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:21,560
Speaker 2: these like health concerns don't just affect overweight or you

883
00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:26,360
Speaker 2: know technically like heavy people. Yeah, regular people have these

884
00:42:26,400 --> 00:42:26,879
Speaker 2: types of things.

885
00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:28,440
Speaker 1: But yeah, I know I've been had flat feet girl

886
00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:30,520
Speaker 1: African place, it was flat first. I have flat feet

887
00:42:30,680 --> 00:42:34,600
Speaker 1: my well, because we never I never wore shoes like

888
00:42:34,719 --> 00:42:37,680
Speaker 1: I just like my dad has the flattest. Literally, when

889
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:39,239
Speaker 1: I went to the foot doctor, he was like, oh

890
00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:41,160
Speaker 1: my god, you got pancakes. I was like, I feel

891
00:42:41,239 --> 00:42:42,719
Speaker 1: like you're not supposed to stick.

892
00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 2: I have no art.

893
00:42:44,520 --> 00:42:46,759
Speaker 1: But as a result of that, that's what happened. I

894
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:48,680
Speaker 1: have a hard time with heels because you know that

895
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:51,879
Speaker 1: arch and then but like it was to the point

896
00:42:51,920 --> 00:42:53,880
Speaker 1: where I could not walk around the house without limping.

897
00:42:54,200 --> 00:42:55,840
Speaker 1: My foot hurts so much, and so I went to

898
00:42:55,880 --> 00:42:58,160
Speaker 1: the foot doctor. He said, you have plants or fasciitis

899
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:00,800
Speaker 1: aka flat feet. He gave me the these insoles for

900
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:03,399
Speaker 1: my shoes, which were so uncomfortable. I refuse. I started

901
00:43:03,440 --> 00:43:06,560
Speaker 1: wearing crocs. I got like house crocs because crocs have like,

902
00:43:06,680 --> 00:43:08,680
Speaker 1: you know, like they have an arch built in. Plus

903
00:43:08,760 --> 00:43:11,799
Speaker 1: the phone feels so great. I started wearing Birkenstocks. I'm

904
00:43:11,800 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 1: so glad they were in style because Birkenstocks are actually

905
00:43:14,640 --> 00:43:17,000
Speaker 1: orthopedic shoes, Like the guy who made them was an

906
00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:20,080
Speaker 1: orthopedic like doctor. And so I love my birken socks.

907
00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:22,440
Speaker 1: And then I realized that if I'm going to do

908
00:43:22,480 --> 00:43:25,160
Speaker 1: all this walking now, I go and get like, like

909
00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:27,600
Speaker 1: they just I have a pair of New Balance and

910
00:43:27,680 --> 00:43:29,840
Speaker 1: a pair of A six, but they're specifically for like

911
00:43:30,320 --> 00:43:32,919
Speaker 1: the foam and the cushion and the walking. So I'm

912
00:43:32,960 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 1: just like, I'm such an old lady now, because you.

913
00:43:35,719 --> 00:43:38,239
Speaker 2: Know, like if they're smart about your feet.

914
00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:40,360
Speaker 1: They're not fashion. I'll just say that, like this is

915
00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:42,279
Speaker 1: just for if you catch me in the street and

916
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 1: you're like, what are those there? Mind your business?

917
00:43:48,239 --> 00:43:50,880
Speaker 2: Well, I've just gotten to a place where I to

918
00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:54,000
Speaker 2: give you a sense of my journey. For me to

919
00:43:54,080 --> 00:43:56,040
Speaker 2: take a walk just for the pure love of it,

920
00:43:56,080 --> 00:43:58,920
Speaker 2: which is what I've arrived at now, has taken so

921
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:02,200
Speaker 2: long for me to take a walk and not think

922
00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:04,600
Speaker 2: I have to take this walk because I had a

923
00:44:04,719 --> 00:44:08,360
Speaker 2: sandwich for lunch, or I should take this walk because

924
00:44:08,520 --> 00:44:11,839
Speaker 2: I am gonna eat later, or I need to start

925
00:44:11,920 --> 00:44:14,600
Speaker 2: losing weight, like to make it like to have just

926
00:44:14,800 --> 00:44:16,800
Speaker 2: move your body for the joy of it, you know,

927
00:44:16,920 --> 00:44:19,359
Speaker 2: and for the way it makes you feel. That's where

928
00:44:19,360 --> 00:44:20,920
Speaker 2: I'm finally at. And I'm just kidding.

929
00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:25,040
Speaker 1: I love that here, Yes, I love that, And it's not.

930
00:44:25,120 --> 00:44:28,319
Speaker 2: Easy for a lot of people, like the mental That's

931
00:44:28,360 --> 00:44:30,279
Speaker 2: the thing with the way that Ozempeic works. I really

932
00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:32,319
Speaker 2: encourage you to listen to that episode because it'll teach

933
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:34,160
Speaker 2: you a lot about how it works. It actually blocks

934
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:38,840
Speaker 2: in your brain the uh it makes you stay shaded

935
00:44:38,880 --> 00:44:42,240
Speaker 2: for longer, but it also breaks it also like stops

936
00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:45,840
Speaker 2: your brain from thinking about food in some way, like

937
00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:48,800
Speaker 2: thinking about eating and what you're gonna make and like

938
00:44:49,400 --> 00:44:50,640
Speaker 2: in advance, you know what I mean.

939
00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:51,080
Speaker 1: M hm.

940
00:44:51,840 --> 00:44:54,040
Speaker 2: And of course also it blocks a hormone that makes

941
00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:57,280
Speaker 2: you like have an app have more of an appetite. Okay,

942
00:44:57,440 --> 00:45:00,279
Speaker 2: you know, so it it like it dulls all that down,

943
00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:03,320
Speaker 2: similar to like how anti anxiety medication dulls doubts in

944
00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:06,320
Speaker 2: the you know what I mean? Okay, So It's fascinating

945
00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:07,920
Speaker 2: how it works, and I know it helps lots of

946
00:45:07,960 --> 00:45:10,279
Speaker 2: people because you know, and and if you're on the

947
00:45:10,320 --> 00:45:12,840
Speaker 2: brink of some really bad medical condition, you can be

948
00:45:13,000 --> 00:45:15,880
Speaker 2: and you need something where you can lose you know,

949
00:45:16,040 --> 00:45:18,760
Speaker 2: weight to get better. All for it, one thousand percent.

950
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:21,759
Speaker 2: But yeah, I think my break is just about the

951
00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:25,200
Speaker 2: impact to other people I know who are on similar

952
00:45:25,280 --> 00:45:27,200
Speaker 2: journeys to me in terms of like your self love

953
00:45:27,280 --> 00:45:30,120
Speaker 2: and your body and all that. To think that it

954
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:33,279
Speaker 2: could potentially like set some of us back, it's just

955
00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:35,200
Speaker 2: kind of sad for me. I know it is.

956
00:45:35,400 --> 00:45:37,320
Speaker 1: And I'm saying, Wendy always thought you were so beautiful.

957
00:45:38,440 --> 00:45:42,480
Speaker 2: I know I am almost I always I trim my

958
00:45:42,520 --> 00:45:43,680
Speaker 2: own bangs, and I don't like.

959
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:47,920
Speaker 1: Girl, you always serve it face no matter what, Girl.

960
00:45:47,840 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 2: I feel so beautiful now I walk out thousand You know.

961
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:52,279
Speaker 2: I get hit on more sometimes when I leave the

962
00:45:52,320 --> 00:45:53,040
Speaker 2: house than I girl.

963
00:45:53,040 --> 00:45:55,880
Speaker 1: We were at Beyonce, Girl, the looks that Mandy was giddy.

964
00:45:55,880 --> 00:45:57,760
Speaker 1: I was like, oh and anohing one oh and another.

965
00:45:57,880 --> 00:46:03,800
Speaker 2: It was like, oh hey, yes, but anyway, thank you,

966
00:46:03,880 --> 00:46:05,880
Speaker 2: thank you. But yeah, it's it's really just about how

967
00:46:05,920 --> 00:46:07,080
Speaker 2: you feel about yourself.

968
00:46:06,840 --> 00:46:09,320
Speaker 1: Right, Yes, yes, that's true because you could be the

969
00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:11,520
Speaker 1: most beautiful women in the world. And if you don't

970
00:46:11,520 --> 00:46:12,640
Speaker 1: feel that about yourself then.

971
00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:16,200
Speaker 2: And I have been fifty pounds later looking at and

972
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:18,640
Speaker 2: feeling like, oh I wish I could lose twenty And

973
00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:21,520
Speaker 2: now I'm looking back like what was I thinking? I'm

974
00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:23,000
Speaker 2: done with that bullshit. I want to be in this

975
00:46:23,120 --> 00:46:23,879
Speaker 2: moment right now.

976
00:46:24,280 --> 00:46:24,600
Speaker 1: I love it.

977
00:46:24,800 --> 00:46:27,759
Speaker 2: I look right now, yes, like that's the journey. That

978
00:46:27,960 --> 00:46:30,080
Speaker 2: is it. That was a long ass break.

979
00:46:30,360 --> 00:46:33,240
Speaker 1: No, somebody needed to hear it. So mine is actually

980
00:46:33,320 --> 00:46:35,480
Speaker 1: mine is a light light and bright. So so every

981
00:46:35,520 --> 00:46:37,400
Speaker 1: once in a while I like to highlight especially women, know,

982
00:46:37,560 --> 00:46:40,000
Speaker 1: especially black women own businesses, and so I want to

983
00:46:40,080 --> 00:46:42,080
Speaker 1: highlight the lady who does my brows. Don't look at

984
00:46:42,080 --> 00:46:43,600
Speaker 1: them now because they have not been done in a while.

985
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:49,520
Speaker 1: If you're watching the video bit, you know Farah. Her

986
00:46:49,880 --> 00:46:52,160
Speaker 1: business is called me let me pull it up. It's

987
00:46:52,239 --> 00:46:56,360
Speaker 1: called Secrets with an S two plush secrets to plush.

988
00:46:56,400 --> 00:47:01,200
Speaker 1: She's on ig. But the waightst woman, what does she do? She?

989
00:47:01,520 --> 00:47:04,480
Speaker 1: I mean, well, one, she can certainly tint, she can

990
00:47:04,680 --> 00:47:07,440
Speaker 1: use Hannah, she can do ombre. So these are like

991
00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:09,239
Speaker 1: more permanent kind of like but I can't get that

992
00:47:09,280 --> 00:47:11,160
Speaker 1: because I'm allergic. So she did a little tests behind

993
00:47:11,200 --> 00:47:15,480
Speaker 1: my ear, and so behind my ear was like, girl,

994
00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:18,000
Speaker 1: you tried it, so you also, you know, because I'm

995
00:47:18,000 --> 00:47:19,680
Speaker 1: allergic to black guy, which I told you all about

996
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:20,799
Speaker 1: the story how my face blew up when I.

997
00:47:20,840 --> 00:47:21,239
Speaker 2: Died my hair.

998
00:47:21,480 --> 00:47:24,000
Speaker 1: So I told her, let's test. She's like, still allergic.

999
00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:27,879
Speaker 2: Wait, wait, but she's died. You've had your eyebrows died.

1000
00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:29,800
Speaker 2: You're not talking about like threading or waxing.

1001
00:47:29,920 --> 00:47:31,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, no, she does. So, so I only go

1002
00:47:31,920 --> 00:47:34,600
Speaker 1: for waxing because I can't get anything else because I'm allergic.

1003
00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:37,480
Speaker 1: But she does such a I have been going to

1004
00:47:37,560 --> 00:47:39,719
Speaker 1: the same lady since I was fourteen years old. Shout

1005
00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:42,400
Speaker 1: out to Lisa and Irvington, a little Asian lady who's like, hello,

1006
00:47:42,920 --> 00:47:45,360
Speaker 1: no baby, I'm like Lisa focused one herberos.

1007
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:46,239
Speaker 2: Oh my damn.

1008
00:47:46,280 --> 00:47:48,760
Speaker 1: I know. She was like an auntie. She's like, no husband.

1009
00:47:48,840 --> 00:47:51,279
Speaker 1: And then when I got mad, okay baby soon, I'm

1010
00:47:51,360 --> 00:47:52,960
Speaker 1: like Lisa, I just literally come here for my eyebrows.

1011
00:47:52,960 --> 00:47:55,560
Speaker 1: I don't care for the commentary, but from high school.

1012
00:47:55,400 --> 00:47:58,920
Speaker 2: And therapists and business commentary, right.

1013
00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:01,600
Speaker 1: And so Lisa, so yeah, so literally she was the

1014
00:48:01,640 --> 00:48:04,080
Speaker 1: first person when I was fourteen and then up until just.

1015
00:48:04,120 --> 00:48:04,640
Speaker 2: A year ago.

1016
00:48:04,960 --> 00:48:06,920
Speaker 1: But it was all the way in Plainfield at this

1017
00:48:07,000 --> 00:48:08,920
Speaker 1: place called Nails three thousand, the typical place you get

1018
00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:11,200
Speaker 1: your eyebrows and then nail salon. But it just was

1019
00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:13,319
Speaker 1: too far to go. And then my sister Kara was like, Hey,

1020
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:16,960
Speaker 1: I got this groupon for this place in Belleville, New Jersey,

1021
00:48:18,160 --> 00:48:19,680
Speaker 1: and which is like not far from where I live

1022
00:48:19,719 --> 00:48:21,759
Speaker 1: at all, like literally like a five minute drive, and

1023
00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:25,439
Speaker 1: I went and Farah won. She's like the sweetest woman

1024
00:48:25,840 --> 00:48:28,880
Speaker 1: black woman, and one I love when someone, you know,

1025
00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:33,600
Speaker 1: when someone really knows they're like like she was like, oh,

1026
00:48:33,760 --> 00:48:35,719
Speaker 1: what if your brows, you know, one of your you

1027
00:48:35,840 --> 00:48:38,240
Speaker 1: have a like I guess this is my left side

1028
00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:40,160
Speaker 1: goes a little high. She's like, so in order for

1029
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,480
Speaker 1: me to even out, I have to do this. And

1030
00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:44,640
Speaker 1: then like I said, my eyebrows are really thin, She's like, no,

1031
00:48:44,719 --> 00:48:46,400
Speaker 1: they're not to you actually have thick eyebrows. You just

1032
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:48,799
Speaker 1: have fine hair. And I was like, I'd never cause

1033
00:48:48,800 --> 00:48:50,960
Speaker 1: you know, you go to the nail salon. Lisa is

1034
00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:52,440
Speaker 1: just like strip shit by I get out of here

1035
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,920
Speaker 1: and have a baby. You know like Farah was like

1036
00:48:55,080 --> 00:48:58,400
Speaker 1: literally drawing lines on like she's doing a mathematical equation

1037
00:48:58,520 --> 00:49:01,600
Speaker 1: on my face. She's talking me through it. Plus she's

1038
00:49:01,640 --> 00:49:03,719
Speaker 1: just really nice and kind. We're talking like business talk

1039
00:49:03,800 --> 00:49:07,920
Speaker 1: as black women, and she just me it's her. Salona's beautiful,

1040
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:12,719
Speaker 1: and so she's just like, yeah, Secrets of Plush. If ever,

1041
00:49:12,880 --> 00:49:16,359
Speaker 1: if you are in the Jersey area, let's mob through

1042
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:18,719
Speaker 1: because I'm like, I need her to stay open. Okay,

1043
00:49:18,760 --> 00:49:20,080
Speaker 1: I need to stay open because I'm where else are

1044
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:22,560
Speaker 1: I going to get my eyebrows done? Her daughter just lashes,

1045
00:49:23,680 --> 00:49:26,400
Speaker 1: But yeah, she she's so all my Literally we all

1046
00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:29,120
Speaker 1: go now. Oh, my neighbors, my friend Rihanna, my friend,

1047
00:49:29,200 --> 00:49:32,120
Speaker 1: my other neighbor, my sisters, everyone, we have all switched over.

1048
00:49:32,560 --> 00:49:35,320
Speaker 1: Everyone goes there now because she does want such a

1049
00:49:35,360 --> 00:49:38,239
Speaker 1: good job. But she's also really really knowledgeable about all

1050
00:49:38,280 --> 00:49:42,279
Speaker 1: things eyebrows, and she's just really kind and she takes

1051
00:49:42,320 --> 00:49:45,920
Speaker 1: her time, and so Secrets with an as two Plush.

1052
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:50,000
Speaker 1: She's at two seventy four Bellville Avenue, Bellville, New Jersey.

1053
00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:51,960
Speaker 1: If you go to her the but Janisa, tell me

1054
00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:55,360
Speaker 1: about you girl, And two I just love like I

1055
00:49:55,440 --> 00:49:57,640
Speaker 1: love to see black women she opened the salon. I think,

1056
00:49:57,719 --> 00:50:00,279
Speaker 1: like he's it right join the pandemic right after, and

1057
00:50:00,400 --> 00:50:01,960
Speaker 1: she's just like I want to make it work, and

1058
00:50:02,040 --> 00:50:04,880
Speaker 1: I want to see her do well, you know, and selfishly,

1059
00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 1: I don't want to have to find a new eyebrow lady,

1060
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:07,759
Speaker 1: so I need her to be.

1061
00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:10,880
Speaker 2: A business brows. I mean, I don't do anything to

1062
00:50:10,960 --> 00:50:13,080
Speaker 2: my brows, but this is making me want to do something.

1063
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:16,319
Speaker 2: She's just great, honestly, she just you know they don't

1064
00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:18,759
Speaker 2: like waxing, Well, you don't have to. I think.

1065
00:50:18,760 --> 00:50:20,480
Speaker 1: I don't think she does threading though, but I mean,

1066
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Speaker 1: like that's something to ask, but like so much of

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Speaker 1: a baby for threading. I know, you know, threading is.

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Speaker 2: I know I did.

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Speaker 1: I used to get threading and I was like, why

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Speaker 1: you do hate yourself.

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Speaker 2: So you're insane.

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Speaker 1: It's so painful, so painful, like people used to. I

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Speaker 1: did it maybe three times, and I thought I was

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Speaker 1: going to be my paints with a level of pain.

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Speaker 2: I said, yeah, I'm appreciating that.

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Speaker 1: That was really my my boost. I want to boost

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Speaker 1: another black woman in business who is really nice and

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Speaker 1: kind and funny and smart, but also very knowledgeable and

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Speaker 1: good at what she does. And her prices are like

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Speaker 1: super like that's it? You sure? Yeah, secrets to Plush

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Speaker 1: you can find them on ig They're located in Belleville's

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Speaker 1: Tracy p r. Yeah. We literally all of us go

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Speaker 1: get our eyebrows done there, all of us, my sisters. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: So that was literally literally and I just want to

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Speaker 1: give another black woman a little you know, from time

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Speaker 1: to time, I would like to, like, you know, because

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Speaker 1: there are so many businesses that I you know, give

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Speaker 1: my business too, and I'm like, you know what, this

1089
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Speaker 1: black woman can use a little extra, you know, boost

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Speaker 1: you know, and so Farah is definitely one of them.

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Speaker 1: So that was a hey girl, hey Farra girl.

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Speaker 2: If the girls tell yous skin girlies like you, yeah,

1093
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Speaker 2: they actually know what they're doing.

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Speaker 1: When I tell you, I have never broken out like

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Speaker 1: I mean very sensitive skin. I mean like I can't

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Speaker 1: even do anything. I literally I have a rash on

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Speaker 1: my lips right now because I tried a new chapstick. Wow,

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Speaker 1: I know, Like that's how honestly, like I usually only

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Speaker 1: use birch bees like as chapstick. Because trying a new one,

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Speaker 1: I was a girl, just do it, m M. And

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Speaker 1: now I'm rashy so I'm back to birds bees. Literally,

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Speaker 1: I have my birth bees with me right now because

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Speaker 1: I have been. I don't know why Muskin is super

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Speaker 1: sensitive and like I said, pharahm super clean. I've never

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Speaker 1: broken out with her, which is huge because it's a

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Speaker 1: very easy place to break out.

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Speaker 2: I love it.

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Speaker 1: Well.

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Speaker 2: Shout outs to Parah. Hey, if you're taking ozempic or

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Speaker 2: rather weight loss drugs, I'm interested to hear what your

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Speaker 2: experience has been. I just feel like, yeah, I'm gonna

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Speaker 2: stay away from that. But in the meantime, come check

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Speaker 2: us out on Friday for ba Q and A and thanks.

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Speaker 1: Your questions you can ask them. Go ahead and go

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Speaker 1: ahead on over to the Brownibission Podcast dot com and

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Speaker 1: click like contact us or ask us anything.

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Speaker 2: Oh thanks? Yeah, we keep saying ask us anything, as

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Speaker 2: if we still have our old website.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, contact us.

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Speaker 2: It's contact us. I know because I just went on

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Speaker 2: there and I was like, maybe I should change. That's

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Speaker 2: not lying to everybody, but hey, your questions get to us,

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Speaker 2: all right?

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Speaker 1: How about you figure it out?

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Speaker 2: You got it or hit us up on Instagram at

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Speaker 2: Brown Ambition Podcast on ig We'll see y'all Friday. Bye