WEBVTT - Ep. 37 "It's Always Me for Me" with Tweet 0:00:03.040 --> 0:00:07.160 We're just too unapologetically black women with an opinion. Who 0:00:07.240 --> 0:00:15.200 talks back? Oh my god, we got tweets. We talked back. 0:00:15.320 --> 0:00:18.920 Y'all don't even understand how excited I am about this interview. 0:00:19.079 --> 0:00:22.440 Thank you for joining us today. Tweet I have much 0:00:22.880 --> 0:00:28.960 look to the excited. I was too excited this time. 0:00:29.000 --> 0:00:33.839 I'm sorry, Okay, sorry, y'all, but listen. They give it 0:00:33.880 --> 0:00:36.240 to that for a new episode that we talk back. 0:00:36.440 --> 0:00:40.960 Is your girl a jam extra amp today? Yes? I 0:00:41.000 --> 0:00:45.280 am listen. We got the Southern humming bird on y'all 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:52.360 tweet things. I'm doing great, I'm getting good. I'm doing 0:00:52.400 --> 0:00:56.840 really really good. Um recorporating from the weekend, but I'm okay. 0:00:57.440 --> 0:01:01.480 Party girl with single. I had the party, uh you know, 0:01:01.640 --> 0:01:04.480 my my wine came out to have something humber wine, 0:01:04.560 --> 0:01:08.680 something kind of starmu stattle, and my new single came out, 0:01:08.720 --> 0:01:12.480 so we were partied a little bit. I love the 0:01:12.520 --> 0:01:18.520 new single. Let's let's talk about that single. So when 0:01:18.560 --> 0:01:21.480 I first read the name, I thought the song was 0:01:21.520 --> 0:01:24.959 gonna be just about heartbreak. But as you listen to 0:01:25.000 --> 0:01:28.240 the song, you realize that it's more about self care 0:01:28.360 --> 0:01:31.360 than it is heartbreak. So how how did you. How 0:01:31.360 --> 0:01:35.399 did you create that? What was the process for it? Uh? Well, 0:01:36.160 --> 0:01:39.520 the last relationship I had was exactly what it was. 0:01:39.720 --> 0:01:42.240 He pretended like he loved me. He gave me all 0:01:42.280 --> 0:01:45.640 of the the negative things that a relationship can give 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:50.520 you insecurity, all of that. Um, so I decided I 0:01:50.600 --> 0:01:52.480 was done with it, you know what I mean. So 0:01:52.640 --> 0:01:55.760 it just came out of life experiences of not allowing 0:01:56.640 --> 0:02:00.480 um another person to make you feel less and the 0:02:00.600 --> 0:02:04.120 value devalued. And that's where that song came out of 0:02:04.360 --> 0:02:07.320 just loving myself like come on, I'm going through this, Yeah, 0:02:07.320 --> 0:02:11.680 exactly the title I was like, is she saying, uh am, I, 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:13.640 I'm never going to hurt me again? You know what 0:02:13.680 --> 0:02:16.040 I'm saying because a lot of times when your relationships 0:02:16.040 --> 0:02:19.440 with people, you got the dig really deep. What it 0:02:19.480 --> 0:02:23.239 is about me? Right? That caused me to even attract 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:26.480 this type of energy? Right? So is it like that 0:02:26.520 --> 0:02:29.720 person hurting you again or you hurt you allowing somebody 0:02:29.720 --> 0:02:32.440 else to hurt you again? Now that you now that 0:02:32.480 --> 0:02:35.000 you said it, it's probably both. But when I wrote it, 0:02:35.000 --> 0:02:38.200 it was about him, because sometimes you can even break 0:02:38.280 --> 0:02:40.400 up and it's really not a breakup. But I ain't 0:02:40.440 --> 0:02:43.280 talking to you for a week, then you get back together, 0:02:43.360 --> 0:02:46.800 and then you back into that same mode of hamster. 0:02:46.880 --> 0:02:50.840 Wh Yeah, he's really doing the same thing. He ain't changing. 0:02:50.919 --> 0:02:53.480 So every time you do that, we take our heart 0:02:53.560 --> 0:02:56.000 is getting broken again, you know what I mean, Because 0:02:56.040 --> 0:02:58.440 you can't go a good month or two or three 0:02:58.520 --> 0:03:01.880 in love. Whatever you find out he's the same type 0:03:01.880 --> 0:03:03.960 of purpose and so you break it in your heart again. 0:03:04.480 --> 0:03:07.600 So that to um, I let him. I would never 0:03:07.680 --> 0:03:14.160 let him do that again. To me, what sign I 0:03:14.360 --> 0:03:22.240 want to give it away? Honey Capricorn, bless your heart. 0:03:25.480 --> 0:03:28.440 So let me ask you this, do you still believe 0:03:28.480 --> 0:03:30.880 in love? Do you want to love be in love 0:03:30.960 --> 0:03:35.280 with someone again? Like I find myself after breaking up 0:03:35.280 --> 0:03:37.440 with someone, like now I'm in this space where like 0:03:37.720 --> 0:03:39.360 funk that ship. I don't even know if I want 0:03:39.400 --> 0:03:42.400 to deal with that no more. You know, some days, 0:03:42.720 --> 0:03:44.760 some days I'm like that. But then when I watched 0:03:44.840 --> 0:03:47.320 certain movies that could be a romantic movie. If I'm 0:03:47.360 --> 0:03:52.440 scrolling through Instagram and see all these beautiful black couples, 0:03:52.480 --> 0:03:55.240 you know, black love is just so strong. And that 0:03:55.320 --> 0:03:59.560 new song by What's the Girl naing Um somebody sung 0:04:00.040 --> 0:04:05.440 learned me that's my joints. So that keeps me. Um yeah, 0:04:05.560 --> 0:04:09.680 because I deserve. I deserved to be in a great 0:04:09.720 --> 0:04:28.600 relationshipsolutely shout out to Mama D I deserved, have you stupid, Look, 0:04:28.680 --> 0:04:36.680 it's relevant. We all deserved. So I've been a fan 0:04:36.720 --> 0:04:41.720 of you since. So my honest to God, full transparency. 0:04:42.400 --> 0:04:44.760 The first time I ever masturbated was to your song 0:04:44.880 --> 0:04:48.920 girl like that. I got comfortable with you know, with 0:04:48.960 --> 0:04:51.520 myself in that way. I was like, I said, I 0:04:51.520 --> 0:04:53.880 can't do it, I can do it. I'm gonna go 0:04:53.960 --> 0:05:00.240 do it. But then there was a hiatus from you, 0:05:00.560 --> 0:05:02.640 and we didn't hear a lot of things from you. 0:05:02.839 --> 0:05:05.919 And I read this article that you did with the 0:05:06.040 --> 0:05:08.320 l A Times in two thousand and sixteen, and it 0:05:08.440 --> 0:05:10.520 said that you had hit a very low place of 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:14.039 rock bottom and it was your spiritual journey that brought 0:05:14.040 --> 0:05:16.440 you back to music. What was that like for you? Like, 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:20.240 what did that look like? Well? After the second album, 0:05:20.279 --> 0:05:24.520 I completed the second album, um It's Me Again and 0:05:24.600 --> 0:05:29.400 turned it in Um Atlantic was now a lecture. I 0:05:29.440 --> 0:05:31.839 was signed to a lecture, so severe room, everybody that 0:05:32.160 --> 0:05:35.080 knew who I was and where I was coming from 0:05:35.279 --> 0:05:39.160 turned into Atlantic. Atlantic was this big hip hop stage, 0:05:39.200 --> 0:05:42.440 I mean UM label. So I turned and turned in 0:05:42.480 --> 0:05:45.520 the whole album and they made me turn take off 0:05:45.600 --> 0:05:49.359 like six So it's depressing to turn in something that 0:05:49.440 --> 0:05:52.800 I know my fans and my people wanted to hear, 0:05:52.960 --> 0:05:55.279 but then have me take it off a do you know. 0:05:55.520 --> 0:05:57.560 Still good songs, but it's not what I wanted. So 0:05:57.640 --> 0:06:00.800 I felt like I compromised a lot. And then the label, 0:06:01.120 --> 0:06:04.480 you know, a lot of management wasn't really didn't have 0:06:04.600 --> 0:06:06.360 my back at the time, Like it was a whole 0:06:06.360 --> 0:06:09.359 lot of not doing anything. I would go up to 0:06:09.400 --> 0:06:13.120 a meetings about my album. Oh okay, your album's not 0:06:13.200 --> 0:06:16.200 coming out next you know. Ago they was skipping over 0:06:16.279 --> 0:06:18.960 me or pushing me, you know. And so I got 0:06:18.960 --> 0:06:21.840 depressed because I came from being in a group with 0:06:21.880 --> 0:06:25.240 Devantage from Joacin, so I was in Sugar and so 0:06:25.279 --> 0:06:28.240 we went through a whole lot of stuff. So that 0:06:28.360 --> 0:06:31.240 just made me remember everything that was going on, and 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:33.320 I just got tired and I just said, you know 0:06:33.400 --> 0:06:36.599 what that I was watching UM the e t S 0:06:37.160 --> 0:06:40.240 Gospel and Tony was sitting the Lord made me over 0:06:40.680 --> 0:06:43.000 And at that point I was drinking like every day 0:06:43.000 --> 0:06:45.080 all the day, just drinking every day and smoking like 0:06:45.400 --> 0:06:48.080 three or four packs a day. That's how depressed. It 0:06:48.240 --> 0:06:51.279 was depressing. And I saw that and I fell to 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:53.479 my knees. And that's just exactly what I did. I 0:06:53.520 --> 0:06:55.640 had to cut it off. I had to hit rock 0:06:55.680 --> 0:06:58.839 bottom in order to be built again. And that's why 0:06:59.640 --> 0:07:01.640 there were birth Yeah, it was a really birth thing. 0:07:02.360 --> 0:07:04.559 Have you ever thought about being independent? Because I feel 0:07:04.600 --> 0:07:09.479 like tweet ms Charlene Keyes has a numb loyal fans 0:07:09.480 --> 0:07:12.280 because I listened to all your albums like they came 0:07:12.280 --> 0:07:15.880 out yesterday, I swear to guy. So if you were 0:07:15.920 --> 0:07:18.840 to create a website or a platform where you're selling 0:07:18.920 --> 0:07:21.800 on your music there, I would buy it. So have 0:07:21.880 --> 0:07:24.560 you even thought about becoming independent as opposed to you know, 0:07:25.040 --> 0:07:27.680 having these big machines behind you. It's always good, but 0:07:27.760 --> 0:07:32.760 then sometimes they'll show you. Yeah, because I'm on independent 0:07:32.840 --> 0:07:36.680 label now even one is independent, uh in that way, 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:39.200 but not that way, you know what I mean. But 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:41.840 I thought about that. I thought about turning in this 0:07:41.840 --> 0:07:43.800 this EP that I'm going to turn in and then 0:07:43.880 --> 0:07:47.520 definitely going that route, you know, and have even my 0:07:47.600 --> 0:07:50.680 own my only fans. I would do a station and 0:07:50.760 --> 0:07:53.920 just do all of my music or performance, you know, 0:07:54.040 --> 0:07:56.520 special things for people that have really had my back 0:07:57.280 --> 0:08:02.920 this whole thing. You know, less singer like he has 0:08:03.040 --> 0:08:06.040 a platform for his music, so he taps into the 0:08:06.080 --> 0:08:09.840 market with the people who funk with him. Yeah, I 0:08:09.840 --> 0:08:13.000 think personally I do too. I really did, because you 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:18.760 get really tired of this industry. Yeah, it's it's it's 0:08:18.880 --> 0:08:23.760 something it would drag you down and leave you there period, 0:08:23.920 --> 0:08:26.040 you know what I mean. So yeah, I want to 0:08:26.200 --> 0:08:28.880 because I know what my fans want. And I've been 0:08:28.960 --> 0:08:32.200 lucky enough though, um, even since that second album to 0:08:32.240 --> 0:08:34.120 be able to put out whatever I want it. So 0:08:34.360 --> 0:08:36.520 that's not a problem to have to creative control. But 0:08:36.679 --> 0:08:38.920 it's just like when I want to move, I'm ready 0:08:38.920 --> 0:08:41.240 to move, and then we gotta, you know, do the 0:08:41.280 --> 0:08:43.679 business thing, and it's just just like, Okay, I'm I've 0:08:43.679 --> 0:08:46.720 been sitting on this album since two thousand eighteen, you 0:08:46.760 --> 0:08:49.920 know what I mean. Content may not even be really 0:08:50.040 --> 0:08:54.199 at this point, thank you. Yeah, so yeah, that's definitely 0:08:54.400 --> 0:08:57.840 the next move. It's side to still keep doing it, though, girl. 0:08:57.880 --> 0:09:01.000 You're gonna keep saying, girl, come on, you don't do 0:09:01.080 --> 0:09:08.600 that like that, because I will send a nigga a 0:09:08.600 --> 0:09:12.720 tweet song real quick that I'm too it's me again. 0:09:12.840 --> 0:09:16.440 Oh yes, yeah, I don't need to say that at 0:09:16.480 --> 0:09:20.319 the end of this interview. Also, thank you just running 0:09:20.360 --> 0:09:25.200 little sections. I'm a sound like very white as earlier. 0:09:26.760 --> 0:09:35.960 My boys don't wake up about five, do you. Girl. 0:09:36.000 --> 0:09:38.520 I've been smoking I listened to smoking cigarettes. I'll be 0:09:38.520 --> 0:09:41.280 smoking weed though, but I've been listening to smoking cigarettes 0:09:41.520 --> 0:09:47.760 all the time. So all right, you have that new one, 0:09:47.920 --> 0:09:50.400 the Southern Hummingbird with scottle How did you get involved 0:09:50.400 --> 0:09:52.599 with that? Like, how did that come about? Yes, ma'am, 0:09:52.679 --> 0:09:54.840 you need to tell us where we can get it too. Yeah, 0:09:54.920 --> 0:10:00.160 well you can give you that www dot scott Old 0:10:00.200 --> 0:10:03.679 dot com. So it's a star Nostato dot com. Um, 0:10:03.800 --> 0:10:07.839 but I just was approached by someone. Um her name 0:10:07.960 --> 0:10:10.800 is Hope. She's in charge of signature SIPs and she 0:10:10.960 --> 0:10:14.959 gives a whole lot of people opportunities to create their 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:18.640 own taste, their own brand or whatever. She's from Houston, 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:22.640 and um, we just connected one day and I was 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:25.040 because I really always wanted to do a wind or 0:10:25.040 --> 0:10:29.000 a liquor, and you know, God just started sending stuff 0:10:29.040 --> 0:10:34.760 to me. You know, yeah, absolutely, that's exactly what it's 0:10:34.760 --> 0:10:39.240 saying you have to. You got to. You got too. 0:10:39.400 --> 0:10:42.560 So I'm excited. We were doing really good. We're gonna 0:10:42.559 --> 0:10:45.440 do a red wine for the holidays. So that's another 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:49.520 one's gonna come outside, just gonna keep things, you know, moving. Well. 0:10:49.559 --> 0:10:51.800 I'm definitely gonna order me about it because I'm definitely 0:10:51.840 --> 0:10:59.559 a wine drinker. Yeah, made me feel depressed sometimes, I 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:02.319 me too. But you can do. You can do a 0:11:02.679 --> 0:11:05.320 mixed drink. You can put this, We'll put some Saint 0:11:05.360 --> 0:11:08.200 Germain in it and the splash of gin or whatever 0:11:08.320 --> 0:11:10.400 liott of your choice with this to make you a 0:11:10.520 --> 0:11:16.720 nice mixed drink. Okay, that sounds good too, So go ahead. 0:11:17.960 --> 0:11:22.719 All the holidays, you're gonna be fucked up. Why not? 0:11:23.080 --> 0:11:36.120 Look anyway, exactly right. They been in the house hold 0:11:36.160 --> 0:11:42.839 on tam Let's stay some bills. So we're gonna play 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:44.400 a little game with you to get to know you. 0:11:44.520 --> 0:11:46.440 It's called this or that, and it's just a couple 0:11:46.440 --> 0:11:53.880 of questions, right and you just kick you if you 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:56.280 don't want to ask to say pass, it's fine, alright. 0:11:56.400 --> 0:12:01.439 So so the first one is monogamy or open relationship, 0:12:01.720 --> 0:12:10.120 which one, Okay, um, fucking why just because I would 0:12:10.160 --> 0:12:12.720 like to share. You know what I mean, I think 0:12:12.840 --> 0:12:15.800 just this hard that should be, that should never be. 0:12:15.960 --> 0:12:18.319 I mean, it's your choice, but for me, that's never 0:12:18.360 --> 0:12:26.800 a question. Right. Um, I'm not open too many things 0:12:26.880 --> 0:12:31.120 out there. You're right. Sometimes I feel like that, like 0:12:31.200 --> 0:12:33.720 I want a monogamous relationship. But then other times I'd 0:12:33.760 --> 0:12:35.679 be like, Nigga, just go that way, go over to 0:12:35.880 --> 0:12:39.640 her house. Hey, what's she doing today? She's not free 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:42.720 today because you're getting on my motherfucking nerves today, sir. 0:12:46.160 --> 0:12:50.880 So ready, I don't know what I want? Okay? Alright? 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:56.560 So home cooked meal or fine dining? Can I can 0:12:56.640 --> 0:13:03.520 I say either? Or get not? Not recently? No, I've 0:13:03.640 --> 0:13:09.240 endored and doing something now. I just kid now I've 0:13:09.240 --> 0:13:11.760 been eating a lot of fruity salad. So that's what 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:19.280 I'm just trying to because I gave like twenty pounds pemmic. 0:13:21.280 --> 0:13:24.120 The pandemic gave me a chin I didn't have before 0:13:24.160 --> 0:13:26.960 the pandemic. It's a new one at the bottom, right, 0:13:27.080 --> 0:13:34.719 and the pandemic. Yeah, I don't like that accordion that 0:13:38.240 --> 0:13:42.480 that's not okay. So in a in a movie, would 0:13:42.520 --> 0:13:44.880 you be would you rather be the villain or the hero? 0:13:47.200 --> 0:13:50.640 I like to be the villain. I don't want to 0:13:50.679 --> 0:13:53.040 be the villain that don't die, you know what I mean. 0:13:53.360 --> 0:13:57.800 It's just always there. Yeah, I like that saying okay 0:13:59.040 --> 0:14:11.319 pit or Frenchy, Uh, frenchy, Frenchy. Yeah, but they're switch on. 0:14:11.440 --> 0:14:14.079 You don't passy. They're cool when they little, but when 0:14:14.120 --> 0:14:18.199 they get big, that's not true. Are not all the time. 0:14:18.640 --> 0:14:21.280 But I grew up. We had a couple when I 0:14:21.440 --> 0:14:24.640 was younger, and one of them flipped on us. You 0:14:24.720 --> 0:14:27.960 had to put them down. Yeah, so I'll say French frenchy. 0:14:28.120 --> 0:14:33.120 They ugly as him, but they are No, he's gonna 0:14:33.160 --> 0:14:39.840 eat somebody. My next dog on your big dog. Do 0:14:39.960 --> 0:14:42.240 you read them? The thing is you can't be hitting 0:14:42.280 --> 0:14:44.400 them dogs. He will be hitting them dogs, man, and 0:14:44.520 --> 0:14:46.240 one day they just be like, nah, you can't hit 0:14:46.280 --> 0:14:49.400 me today. That I come from the old school. So 0:14:49.520 --> 0:14:53.080 we were speeding the dogs we have left over us. 0:14:53.280 --> 0:14:56.440 They were right. So he was like mad, you know, 0:14:56.600 --> 0:15:06.680 like I cram legs and came in the house. You 0:15:06.760 --> 0:15:11.560 know it's cold outside. He looked the window. I don't 0:15:11.600 --> 0:15:18.680 blame him. That's why you want to fight um drink 0:15:18.760 --> 0:15:22.680 or smoke. If I could smoke, I think I would smoke, 0:15:24.360 --> 0:15:29.080 you can, nah, because I had true story. I had 0:15:29.640 --> 0:15:32.400 smoked some chocolate tie back in the day and it 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:35.400 made me a little loopie, and I was like, I'm 0:15:35.480 --> 0:15:38.800 never smoking more. You know, when you get to that 0:15:39.080 --> 0:15:43.560 level of paranoia, you know what I mean, you can't 0:15:43.560 --> 0:15:45.760 really smoke like that number one. So I didn't start 0:15:45.800 --> 0:15:48.600 smoking until I got into my thirties. And when I 0:15:48.760 --> 0:15:51.680 was younger, like fifteen sixteen, like early twenties, like I 0:15:51.760 --> 0:15:54.320 would smoke and be like super funked up. I really 0:15:54.400 --> 0:15:57.760 feel like your mind has to be like kind of steady. 0:15:58.200 --> 0:16:01.480 The type of stimulants. Yah, that's probably why you had 0:16:01.480 --> 0:16:07.160 a bad experience. I was putting the palm in my 0:16:07.320 --> 0:16:12.800 head at the time too, so I'm high and like this. Y. 0:16:14.720 --> 0:16:18.000 Yeah that was a bad combination. Yeah, that was a 0:16:18.040 --> 0:16:21.560 bad combination. Perm and weed. That don't go together. Friend 0:16:21.960 --> 0:16:24.400 the time, I don't even heard about that. Nowadays, you 0:16:24.440 --> 0:16:32.640 don't even had that, no more strand right, steak or seafood. 0:16:34.480 --> 0:16:36.920 I don't eat seafood, so steak and I don't even 0:16:36.960 --> 0:16:39.800 eat red meat like that, So so you're more like 0:16:39.960 --> 0:16:43.040 a vegetarian or vegans of sorts. Well, I don't eat 0:16:43.120 --> 0:16:46.280 vegetables either. That crazy, So I'm like almost like, um, 0:16:48.520 --> 0:16:50.560 I don't know. I only eat chicken. And when I 0:16:50.760 --> 0:16:55.240 do eat meat, either chicken or turkey or tuna fish 0:16:55.400 --> 0:16:58.680 or something like that. And fruit, yeah, fruit and salad. 0:16:58.840 --> 0:17:02.680 That's good. But I love me a good Califlier pizza. 0:17:03.560 --> 0:17:06.480 I love that. Oh see you ag can get along 0:17:06.520 --> 0:17:09.480 with that ship. I need my I need bread on 0:17:09.600 --> 0:17:13.320 my pizza. But it's good. It's just like, no, it does, 0:17:13.760 --> 0:17:16.800 it does take. It tastes like bread. If you ain't 0:17:17.080 --> 0:17:21.960 eating no vegetables, now you gotta drink some chlorophyll. Yeah, 0:17:23.720 --> 0:17:31.560 that's what makes the vegetable green. So yeah, and cucumbers 0:17:31.640 --> 0:17:34.320 like I do a cucumber and lemon water, lime water, 0:17:34.480 --> 0:17:41.760 I do, But far as eating like tomatoes and that, 0:17:44.600 --> 0:17:57.120 so no colar greens for you at Thanksgiving? So would 0:17:57.119 --> 0:17:59.760 you rather be happy and poor? Are rich? And said? 0:18:00.080 --> 0:18:02.000 I have to take that rich and sad and I 0:18:02.080 --> 0:18:04.480 can buy my hat. No, I'm just playing on. That's 0:18:04.520 --> 0:18:06.400 what most people say, like put me on the yacht, 0:18:06.440 --> 0:18:09.280 I cry on the yacht. Yeah, I'd rather be I'd 0:18:09.359 --> 0:18:13.600 rather be rich, m hm and sad and we should 0:18:13.760 --> 0:18:18.880 be yeah all right, yeah, I don't want to be poor, 0:18:20.000 --> 0:18:23.879 so uh right, in fact, we're manifesting right now. Okay, 0:18:28.560 --> 0:18:32.040 vaccine or trust your own immune system. That's my own 0:18:32.119 --> 0:18:35.000 immune system. That sea moss in there, the Elderberry and 0:18:35.040 --> 0:18:38.919 all of them, good old page. Yeah, I'm doing I agree. 0:18:42.520 --> 0:18:49.760 Heaven our reincarnation Heaven Heaven. Yeah, I think I'll be 0:18:49.800 --> 0:18:53.080 coming back. I really are we inclinated that thing? I 0:18:53.200 --> 0:18:56.840 think we because we're spirits. Yeah, we we don't know 0:18:57.280 --> 0:19:02.720 what's gonna happen once we die. I mean we don't. 0:19:02.880 --> 0:19:06.720 I mean we we we we assume something that, yeah, 0:19:06.800 --> 0:19:09.680 but we don't know what's really gonna happen. You know, 0:19:09.880 --> 0:19:11.639 once we get to have it, it could be a 0:19:12.480 --> 0:19:14.359 you gotta come back down here and do it again. 0:19:14.480 --> 0:19:18.200 That's re incarnation, you know what I mean. So I 0:19:18.320 --> 0:19:19.880 just hope it. When I come back, I'll come back 0:19:19.920 --> 0:19:24.360 as a rich white man. I ain't going back that ship. 0:19:27.600 --> 0:19:35.920 Go give me that please, right? All right? So two more? 0:19:36.119 --> 0:19:38.520 All right? Are you an early starter or a night owl? 0:19:40.040 --> 0:19:42.080 I can be an early starter if I have to 0:19:42.160 --> 0:19:45.240 get up and go like early flights and stuff, I can, 0:19:45.359 --> 0:19:49.720 but I really like to start my day later. But 0:19:49.840 --> 0:19:52.200 I can't get up all right. And last one, what 0:19:52.320 --> 0:19:54.520 are you in your car? What are you listening to 0:19:54.680 --> 0:19:57.280 right now when you're riding down the street right now? 0:19:57.280 --> 0:19:59.320 I told you my favorite song is that I came 0:19:59.359 --> 0:20:03.040 out with some Taiwa t I w A. She got 0:20:03.119 --> 0:20:07.240 the song with Brandon, somebody let me that. Um. I 0:20:07.359 --> 0:20:09.560 listened to a lot of v J to Chicago kids, 0:20:09.640 --> 0:20:17.800 Pandora his Pandora page, um Um, I listened to blow Um. 0:20:17.920 --> 0:20:21.120 I listened to a lot of gospel quartet um um 0:20:21.880 --> 0:20:27.760 groups too. So and now I listened to me sometimes yeah, 0:20:28.160 --> 0:20:33.880 sometimes they only listened to their music. They only listen 0:20:34.000 --> 0:20:37.719 to their music. Yeah. I don't want to hear your 0:20:37.800 --> 0:20:47.640 music no more right, yeah, yeah, so I I saw 0:20:49.480 --> 0:20:51.560 uh and it wasn't it was. I think you might 0:20:51.600 --> 0:20:54.440 have went live with your daughter and he was talking 0:20:54.480 --> 0:20:58.600 about um, how are you done with the church? Mm hmm. 0:20:58.960 --> 0:21:01.480 You're wanna talk about that? I we could talk about it, 0:21:01.520 --> 0:21:04.200 because I think have you went back to the church. No, 0:21:04.400 --> 0:21:06.800 I completely understand, because you know a lot of times 0:21:06.840 --> 0:21:10.399 people don't tell you, um, especially people who are in 0:21:10.480 --> 0:21:12.119 the church. In the church, they don't tell you to 0:21:12.160 --> 0:21:14.080 be cheerful with anything else. I mean they tell you 0:21:14.160 --> 0:21:15.840 to be cheerful with everything else. They don't tell you 0:21:15.880 --> 0:21:20.160 to be careful with the church about Christianity like everything else, 0:21:20.200 --> 0:21:24.280 be careful with it. But man, everything in moderation. Yeah, 0:21:24.800 --> 0:21:27.520 I want to talk about that a little bit. Okay. See, 0:21:27.680 --> 0:21:30.520 So what happened was they thought I was just coming 0:21:30.600 --> 0:21:33.080 after the church at that point, you know, at that 0:21:33.480 --> 0:21:37.240 live conversation, it was literally her calling me and telling 0:21:37.320 --> 0:21:40.160 me that some guy that she dated in the church 0:21:40.600 --> 0:21:44.360 tried to sexually abuse her. So I was going off 0:21:44.440 --> 0:21:47.680 of the emotions of what she told me, you know. 0:21:48.040 --> 0:21:51.679 And then they thought I was attacking Joan mar at 0:21:51.720 --> 0:21:54.440 the time, which we weren't even together, you know what 0:21:54.480 --> 0:21:56.720 I mean. So that was just my emotions which I 0:21:56.800 --> 0:21:59.920 didn't control because I was just tired at that point, 0:22:00.119 --> 0:22:01.840 you know what I mean. And found out that he 0:22:02.040 --> 0:22:04.440 was still working at the church and nobody said nothing 0:22:04.520 --> 0:22:07.760 to him about what had happened. It was a situation 0:22:07.840 --> 0:22:10.359 that happened with her. So but I still feel the 0:22:10.400 --> 0:22:14.200 way I feel, I mean, that hasn't changed because I 0:22:14.280 --> 0:22:17.159 feel like me and guy got this, you know what 0:22:17.240 --> 0:22:19.840 I mean. I got a relationship with him that I 0:22:19.920 --> 0:22:21.920 don't need no middle man at times to tell me 0:22:22.040 --> 0:22:25.119 how to talk to him or to read my word 0:22:25.359 --> 0:22:30.560 or whatever um thing I do. I'm not religious, I'm spiritual, 0:22:30.640 --> 0:22:32.639 So it's all a spiritual thing with me, you know 0:22:32.680 --> 0:22:34.200 what I mean. So I don't have to go to 0:22:34.320 --> 0:22:38.240 the four walls to find him. He's already waiting, you 0:22:38.280 --> 0:22:40.440 know what I mean. So it hasn't changed for me. 0:22:40.600 --> 0:22:42.640 You know, So when did you get to that point? 0:22:42.840 --> 0:22:45.520 Because I know you grew up in the church, right yes, 0:22:46.240 --> 0:22:48.880 was that when you you hit that rock bottom? Um 0:22:49.280 --> 0:22:52.880 you started going within you know spiritually? Is that when 0:22:53.160 --> 0:22:55.639 when you you know, because I mean we can have 0:22:55.800 --> 0:22:57.840 church right now, I can have church by myself, Like 0:22:57.840 --> 0:23:00.119 I don't necessarily need somebody else to tell me how 0:23:00.160 --> 0:23:03.080 they interpret the word as it pertains to my life, 0:23:03.240 --> 0:23:06.520 you know. Gota, yeah, you gotta make sure you're getting 0:23:06.560 --> 0:23:12.360 that information first in absolutely right, all right? Um, once 0:23:12.440 --> 0:23:16.000 I started back to doing my music and the church 0:23:16.080 --> 0:23:19.040 that I was going to in Atlanta got dispersed, everybody 0:23:19.160 --> 0:23:22.719 just left, you know. Um, I think I just started 0:23:22.800 --> 0:23:26.600 to follow what the pastor used to tell us. Anyways, 0:23:26.680 --> 0:23:28.680 even after I preach a word to y'all, go and 0:23:28.880 --> 0:23:31.440 make sure this is what God really said, you know 0:23:31.480 --> 0:23:33.840 what I mean. So that was a test for me 0:23:34.000 --> 0:23:36.640 to say, Okay, that is gone, that crutch is gone. 0:23:36.680 --> 0:23:39.840 You can't go back to that co inside they were 0:23:39.920 --> 0:23:42.800 talking to me. So that's where it started happening. Being 0:23:42.920 --> 0:23:45.959 data that pastor. It was yeah, you know what I mean, 0:23:46.200 --> 0:23:47.920 And I didn't mean that to him, but I'm just 0:23:47.960 --> 0:23:50.320 saying there was not nothing that I ever really wanted 0:23:50.359 --> 0:23:52.160 to do. And it just turned me off to see 0:23:52.560 --> 0:23:55.639 a lot of times being a certainly vincent just seeing 0:23:55.680 --> 0:23:57.720 how church people act, you know what I mean, Like 0:23:58.040 --> 0:23:59.800 this ain't what I could go home and take that 0:24:00.000 --> 0:24:03.879 ask off. Yeah, sometimes they don't go home to do it, 0:24:04.640 --> 0:24:08.440 know they they take their mask off in the church 0:24:08.880 --> 0:24:14.440 and be in the church. Absolutely, And it's not nothing 0:24:14.480 --> 0:24:17.120 against the church. But that's the let me just clear 0:24:17.200 --> 0:24:19.960 that up. It's just this is my walk, so I 0:24:20.080 --> 0:24:22.600 don't I don't choose to do that right now, you 0:24:22.640 --> 0:24:23.959 know what I mean. He was to say, I might 0:24:24.000 --> 0:24:30.040 be church, you know what I mean, the right way though, Yeah, 0:24:30.080 --> 0:24:33.080 because if I if I could find somebody who's a 0:24:33.200 --> 0:24:36.639 real human being, like, I'll probably go to church. You know. 0:24:36.720 --> 0:24:39.000 I mean when I said real human human being, like 0:24:39.080 --> 0:24:42.760 stop acting like, just live your life, because I'm pretty 0:24:42.760 --> 0:24:45.600 sure God wants you to still live your life rightly. 0:24:46.000 --> 0:24:49.520 Sometimes people become so godly that they're not worldly anymore, 0:24:49.720 --> 0:24:53.440 and and then you can't relate to them. You said it, 0:24:53.720 --> 0:24:56.520 you said it earlier. You said everything in moderation. Because 0:24:56.560 --> 0:24:58.600 he never said we couldn't have a drink, you know, 0:24:58.760 --> 0:25:02.000 he turned water into you. Never said we couldn't do 0:25:02.160 --> 0:25:05.520 certain things that they don't. Don't poured in our heads 0:25:06.080 --> 0:25:08.240 growing up in church. We can't do this. You can't 0:25:08.280 --> 0:25:10.479 wear skirts, you can't wear jury, you can't really make 0:25:10.560 --> 0:25:14.240 up what that's not even nowhere in the Bible, you 0:25:14.320 --> 0:25:17.520 know what I mean. So I look and look at 0:25:17.560 --> 0:25:20.400 those things. A lot of those things control women. Ask 0:25:20.480 --> 0:25:23.760 me what I'm saying women in particular. You gotta be 0:25:23.880 --> 0:25:27.680 careful with all religions because I mean, you have to 0:25:27.880 --> 0:25:31.119 take into consideration why it is that the word is 0:25:31.200 --> 0:25:33.240 focused that much on women, Because we are all a 0:25:33.320 --> 0:25:37.000 lot of power. Yeah, and some might say we are 0:25:37.000 --> 0:25:41.040 a god. So you're gonna the word is written by man. 0:25:41.200 --> 0:25:46.800