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Speaker 1: Maria Manunos is a journalist, TV presenter, and actress who

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Speaker 1: is best known for being a host on shows like

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Speaker 1: Extra E News, Access Hollywood, and more. She currently is

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Speaker 1: the host of her own podcast, Heal Squad. She has

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Speaker 1: dedicated her life, her career, her energy to helping people

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Speaker 1: heal After her own medical journey, Maria is no stranger

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Speaker 1: to her personal life being in the public eye, but

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Speaker 1: the mom to be is stronger than ever and ready

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Speaker 1: for this next chapter in her life. This is just

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Speaker 1: be with Maria Manunos. Let's get into it.

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Speaker 2: So I remember that did we first meet each other?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 1: I think we first met each other at beaches for

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Speaker 1: that like pr.

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Speaker 2: Trip, yeah, and Caicos.

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Speaker 3: Right, yep, you're right.

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Speaker 2: I remember that being really nice.

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Speaker 1: Like I was sort of surprised at what I thought

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Speaker 1: beaches or sandals, and I think they actually advertise on here.

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Speaker 1: When I got went there, I remember it was like

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Speaker 1: a new building the Italian village, and I was surprised

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Speaker 1: like actually really beautiful?

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Speaker 3: Agreed? I remember they made the swans on our beds

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Speaker 3: out of the towels. Yes, it was so cute and

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Speaker 3: I'm friendly with Adam Stewart still and I've you know,

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Speaker 3: kept in touch throughout the years. They're really lovely people.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it was really nice.

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Speaker 1: But that's how I first sort of just met you

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Speaker 1: being at that event, and then I guessed maybe being

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Speaker 1: interviewed by you because we were extra an access Hollywood.

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Speaker 1: And then when I guess you reached out during relief

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Speaker 1: work for Be Strong, and that's how we kind of

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Speaker 1: really started connecting. Yep, and you introduced me to some

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Speaker 1: people during during Hurricane Maria.

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Speaker 2: Because my perception of you is just.

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Speaker 1: Really kind and friendly and nice and positive and always

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Speaker 1: reaching out. And you know, I don't know, I just

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Speaker 1: we don't know each other that well, but I feel

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Speaker 1: like we know each other a little bit.

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Speaker 2: And we hung out in New Orleans too.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I feel like we are kind of like sisters

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Speaker 3: on a path, right. We want to do better and

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Speaker 3: we want to help people. And so I remember when

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Speaker 3: you were doing all the relief stuff. I can't remember

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Speaker 3: which tragedy or disaster it was, but I was in

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Speaker 3: an airport in DC and I was seeing what you

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Speaker 3: were doing, and I was so blown away and I

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Speaker 3: was like welling up in tears. Like, gosh, this woman

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Speaker 3: is unbelievable in what she's doing for people and just

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Speaker 3: a one woman machine. And I reached out and I said,

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Speaker 3: how can I support you? And as soon as I

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Speaker 3: started talking to you, I realized, Oh, she really is

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Speaker 3: a one woman machine, making everyone on the planet her

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Speaker 3: like assistant in a sense, like you were like everyone's involved.

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Speaker 3: I don't care if I've never met you before. I

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Speaker 3: need you to do this, I need you to do that,

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Speaker 3: and you just know how to mobilize people and get

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Speaker 3: shit done. And I was so blown away, and so yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 3: when COVID hit, I remember as well getting you in

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Speaker 3: touch with I think it was Grant to get you

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Speaker 3: some funds and you.

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Speaker 1: Were amazing, And yeah it was Hurricane Maria and you

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Speaker 1: got me in touch with that guy Grant and people.

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Speaker 1: And then again you reached out and you kind of

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Speaker 1: were the one to let me know how much of

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Speaker 1: a shit show the PPE situation was, Like you were

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Speaker 1: one of the first people to care about that. And

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Speaker 1: then we ended up doing I Have the Hills. We

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Speaker 1: ended up doing PPE to all fifty states. I think

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Speaker 1: it was like fifteen million dollars in PPE. I'm the

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Speaker 1: type of person that someone else alerts me to something,

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Speaker 1: or many people do, and then I become like this

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Speaker 1: crazy like terminator that exactly as you said, becomes just

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Speaker 2: But You've always.

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Speaker 1: Connected about that, and and I've met Kevin, your husband,

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Speaker 1: and I think we I asked you this, but I

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Speaker 1: don't remember. What was the reason you waited so long

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Speaker 3: Uh? You know, when we first got together as a couple,

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Speaker 3: there was a lot of family turmoil. We had a

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Speaker 3: lot of issues with ironically both of us, with our brothers,

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Speaker 3: and it was it was just not in the cards

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Speaker 2: Oh oh, that's interesting.

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Speaker 3: So it really was that for like really because at

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Speaker 3: first we were like, oh my gosh, let's go get

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Speaker 3: and then it kind of just there was just this

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Speaker 3: there was no and for us, we just you know,

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Speaker 3: we were really sad about the family situations, and I

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Speaker 3: And it took many years, like twenty years to get

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Speaker 1: I mean, you don't have to tell me about it,

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Speaker 1: because I know that. I mean, that's not even something

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Speaker 1: I've ever heard about. But how did you resolve? First

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Speaker 1: of all, because you wanted it to be a big affair,

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Speaker 1: because you could have just gone to I relate to.

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Speaker 1: This is why I'm asking because I'll explain why. But

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Speaker 1: you could have just gone to city Hall. But like,

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Speaker 1: is there any part of you that it didn't matter.

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Speaker 1: You were committed to each other and it's just a

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Speaker 3: Contract and who can totally Yeah, forerever we were like

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Speaker 3: we're married in our hearts. I really didn't believe a

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Speaker 3: and so it didn't matter to me. And I remember

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Speaker 3: being at chris Generous for Christmas and she was telling me.

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Speaker 3: You know, my mom was diagnosed with stage four brain

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Speaker 3: cancer at the time, and she's like, tomorrow has never promised.

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Speaker 3: And I was hosting New Year's Eve for Fox with

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Speaker 3: want to get married on the show, and I was like, oh, no, way,

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Speaker 3: And then I thought about it. I'm like, wait, I

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Speaker 3: can get married on TV, meaning everyone can be a

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Speaker 3: part of it, but I don't have to worry about

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Speaker 3: inviting anyone or organizing, dealing with anything, which I had

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Speaker 3: been on Martha Stewart's show years ago and it was funny.

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Speaker 3: It was like a wedding week and I was like

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Speaker 3: the Debbie Downer about weddings. I'm like, I hate weddings.

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Speaker 3: They're nightmares. Everyone makes the wife the bride miserable, and

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Speaker 3: I don't want any of that stress. So I got

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Speaker 3: the perfect scenario for me and my mom and dad

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Speaker 3: were surprised live on air and it was a really

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Speaker 3: beautiful experience. And then later that year, my real dream,

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Speaker 3: which was to get married in the village my dad

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Speaker 3: was from, came together. So we got married in the

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Speaker 3: village in Greece and it was an unbelievable of wow.

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Speaker 1: And I like, and I get all that because often

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Speaker 1: so if something comes and it's like an appearance that

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Speaker 1: that someone else is planning the like they're gonna plan

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Speaker 1: the hotel, by all of it, you're gonna show up

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Speaker 1: and I could bring my daughter and we'll be meeting Koalas.

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Speaker 1: So I get what you're saying, like it was a

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Speaker 1: planned wedding. So you know, every time I hear about

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Speaker 1: something unfortunate happening with you, I almost can't believe it.

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Speaker 1: All back to back. So your mom passes away, which

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Speaker 1: and didn't you get married around that time or you

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Speaker 3: We had been married at that point, because my mom

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Speaker 2: You weren't married that long, right, wasn't it like all

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Speaker 3: Year or now, maybe it was like three years before?

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Speaker 3: Oh okay, it was soon.

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Speaker 1: It was okay, So so she got to see you

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Speaker 1: get married, your mom passes away, and your dad you're

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Speaker 1: very close with and he's devastated too, obviously, so you're

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Speaker 2: And then and then you are diagnosed with your own illness.

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Speaker 3: The first the first was the brain tumor soon after

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Speaker 3: she was diagnosed, So she was diagnosed late August twenty sixteen.

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Speaker 3: By April twenty seventeen, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor.

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Speaker 3: So we went through the brain tumor journey, which was

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Speaker 3: it five years, which was a miracle. We beat COVID,

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Speaker 3: But she was so weak, couldn't give her the chemo,

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Speaker 2: Oh my god.

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Speaker 1: And then you what were you thinking and going through?

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Speaker 1: And I mean, how did you remain positive? Like what

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Speaker 1: And like then how do you digest it and move

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Speaker 1: through it? And what is going on every day when

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Speaker 1: what goes on?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean none of that stuff matters. I remember

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Speaker 3: I filmed every step of the way, So if I'm

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Speaker 3: my video diaries because I'm too lazy to write, so

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Speaker 3: do video diaries. And I remember just being in shock

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Speaker 3: because my whole life was committed to helping her through

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Speaker 3: just piecing together her health. As I say here on

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Speaker 3: that power over to anybody. You can take opinions, you

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Speaker 3: can get information, you can go to people for things

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Speaker 1: Oh no, beyond it, we have to get into that,

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Speaker 1: because that's yeah, we have to get into that.

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Speaker 3: But I ran my mom's health and I know that

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Speaker 3: you know which he had comes with a six to

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Speaker 3: twelve month diagnosed death sentence. She ended up getting five

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Speaker 3: years and the only reason she isn't here is because

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Speaker 3: of COVID. So after she passed, I had a loss

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Speaker 3: of identity because I was a caretaker now for five years.

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Speaker 3: I had really given her the ferocity that I had

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Speaker 3: her and becoming a fake doctor, and so I had

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Speaker 3: a loss of identity. I was really kind of just

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Speaker 3: a sense, where I just kind of would look at

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Speaker 2: Like, what's the point of anything, what's going on? What

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Speaker 2: are we all doing? Like what?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and yes, I really do understand that.

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Speaker 1: That's divorced too. It's the same story with divorce and lawyers.

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Speaker 1: so I wonder how do you have it define what

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00:21:39,680 --> 00:21:41,120
Speaker 1: you're doing but not define you?

438
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:45,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, fabulous question. Never actually thought about it

439
00:21:46,240 --> 00:21:50,680
Speaker 3: outside of this, Like when this pancreas tumor thing happened,

440
00:21:51,720 --> 00:21:54,600
Speaker 3: it's a neuroendocrine tumor, and you know, it wasn't like

441
00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:57,159
Speaker 3: the doctor was like you have cancer, you're dying or

442
00:21:57,160 --> 00:22:00,199
Speaker 3: anything like that. There was moments where we didn't know

443
00:22:00,240 --> 00:22:03,879
Speaker 3: what kind of tumor it was and it was really scary,

444
00:22:03,920 --> 00:22:05,960
Speaker 3: and you're on that cliff and on the ledge of

445
00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:09,000
Speaker 3: death and you're like having conversations with Kevin saying this

446
00:22:09,040 --> 00:22:10,560
Speaker 3: is how I want you to raise our daughter. This

447
00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:12,480
Speaker 3: is what I want you to do. Like, it was

448
00:22:12,560 --> 00:22:17,560
Speaker 3: kind of crazy, but when I got the diagnosis, he said,

449
00:22:17,560 --> 00:22:20,240
Speaker 3: it's a neuroendocrine tumor, and I'm like, is it pancreas cancer.

450
00:22:20,280 --> 00:22:22,480
Speaker 3: He's like, yes, it's a pancreas cancer, but it's not

451
00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:25,520
Speaker 3: the worst pancreas cancer. He goes, there are two buckets.

452
00:22:25,760 --> 00:22:27,240
Speaker 3: If you could be in any bucket, you want to

453
00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:29,000
Speaker 3: be in your bucket, and the same thing happened with

454
00:22:29,000 --> 00:22:31,080
Speaker 3: the brain tumor. If you can be in any bucket,

455
00:22:31,119 --> 00:22:32,440
Speaker 3: you don't want to be in your mom's bucket. You

456
00:22:32,480 --> 00:22:35,800
Speaker 3: want to be in this bucket. Okay. So somehow these

457
00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:43,119
Speaker 3: crazy things happen or have happened, and I am able

458
00:22:43,119 --> 00:22:45,760
Speaker 3: to come out the other side, and so I'm super grateful.

459
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:49,399
Speaker 3: When this happened with the tumor and the pancreas, I

460
00:22:49,600 --> 00:22:51,680
Speaker 3: was scared to say something about it because I'm like,

461
00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:54,159
Speaker 3: oh my gosh, people are going to think I'm this fragile,

462
00:22:54,280 --> 00:22:58,800
Speaker 3: sick person and I'm not. I'm vibrant and healthy. I

463
00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:02,400
Speaker 3: know that there are things that have gone wrong, and

464
00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:06,080
Speaker 3: I know that COVID definitely played a role in a

465
00:23:06,119 --> 00:23:10,840
Speaker 3: lot of stuff. That's gone wrong. But I know I'm

466
00:23:10,840 --> 00:23:13,320
Speaker 3: a healthy person. But there was also this thing that

467
00:23:13,359 --> 00:23:17,760
Speaker 3: I couldn't I have a show that's dedicated to life

468
00:23:17,760 --> 00:23:21,399
Speaker 3: improvement and health and wellness, very very heavily focused in health.

469
00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:24,360
Speaker 3: How could I not tell the truth? Even just not

470
00:23:24,440 --> 00:23:27,680
Speaker 3: telling my audience in that timeframe hurt me so much,

471
00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:30,840
Speaker 3: And so it was a dark secret I was keeping.

472
00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:33,439
Speaker 3: But then to not be able to tell people that

473
00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:36,560
Speaker 3: there is a way. So that episode last April, when

474
00:23:36,560 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 3: I was saying I know something's wrong, and I was

475
00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:43,000
Speaker 3: researching thermography, I was researching all these things to see

476
00:23:43,480 --> 00:23:47,560
Speaker 3: what other way can I figure out what's happening with me?

477
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:54,120
Speaker 3: And this full body MRI. It's not at the hospital.

478
00:23:54,119 --> 00:23:57,920
Speaker 3: This is an outside facility. Because I'm not saying people

479
00:23:57,920 --> 00:24:01,440
Speaker 3: should go get full BODYMRIS and get get lineum injected

480
00:24:01,440 --> 00:24:03,520
Speaker 3: in their veins constantly. That's not what I'm saying. This

481
00:24:03,600 --> 00:24:09,800
Speaker 3: is a very safe procedure. But if you have something

482
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:12,720
Speaker 3: you suspect something is wrong and your doctors are not

483
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:15,119
Speaker 3: listening to you. There you know a lot of women

484
00:24:15,160 --> 00:24:17,840
Speaker 3: don't get heard unfortunately, and they make us feel like

485
00:24:17,880 --> 00:24:23,760
Speaker 3: we're crazy. I'm really blessed to have a doctor who

486
00:24:24,359 --> 00:24:26,159
Speaker 3: is so on board and so on sync with me,

487
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:28,640
Speaker 3: and he really saved my life because he kept pushing

488
00:24:28,640 --> 00:24:30,040
Speaker 3: everyone to move faster.

489
00:24:29,760 --> 00:24:31,600
Speaker 2: And faster exactly.

490
00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:38,520
Speaker 1: But but he was your concent he was like, yeah, center.

491
00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:40,200
Speaker 3: And they made fun of him. They're like, this is nothing.

492
00:24:40,240 --> 00:24:43,840
Speaker 3: This is maybe pancreatitis or inflammation. But he's, you know,

493
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:46,840
Speaker 3: up our ass to get this biopsy done. So we're

494
00:24:46,840 --> 00:24:48,520
Speaker 3: going to do it. But you're fine, We've been doing

495
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:51,000
Speaker 3: this for twenty years. These are very elite doctors, by

496
00:24:51,040 --> 00:24:53,600
Speaker 3: the way, of course, and I hate even saying that,

497
00:24:53,720 --> 00:24:56,120
Speaker 3: but you know, it's the truth. They did say that,

498
00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:58,639
Speaker 3: and and they gas lit him and me in the

499
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:01,080
Speaker 3: room before I went for the biopsy, and then after

500
00:25:01,119 --> 00:25:03,560
Speaker 3: it was like, well, I guess it's something, and I'm

501
00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:07,040
Speaker 3: like okay, And he kept pushing to move things faster

502
00:25:07,080 --> 00:25:09,640
Speaker 3: and faster. And what's crazy is it went from grade

503
00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:14,199
Speaker 3: one to grade two so fast. And so anyhow, my

504
00:25:14,320 --> 00:25:16,359
Speaker 3: point is the reason I had to come out about

505
00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:19,440
Speaker 3: this and kind of say whatever is going to happen

506
00:25:19,560 --> 00:25:22,840
Speaker 3: is going to happen, and people's perceptions of me is

507
00:25:23,040 --> 00:25:26,159
Speaker 3: people needed to know that there's another option and getting

508
00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:29,679
Speaker 3: these full body MRIs is another option. If you know

509
00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:33,640
Speaker 3: something's wrong inside of you, they will find it. They're

510
00:25:33,680 --> 00:25:36,040
Speaker 3: incentivized to find it because it's their only job and

511
00:25:36,080 --> 00:25:39,919
Speaker 3: their only mission. Now, they're very expensive. I understand that,

512
00:25:40,080 --> 00:25:43,880
Speaker 3: and I'm working on getting them covered for people with

513
00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:47,960
Speaker 3: Grant and a few other people because I know they

514
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,359
Speaker 3: know how to do it. With the insurance companies. It

515
00:25:50,800 --> 00:25:54,119
Speaker 3: behooves them to do this because if you catch something early,

516
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:56,239
Speaker 3: that patient is going to cost them far less than

517
00:25:56,280 --> 00:26:00,359
Speaker 3: if they catch it later. So I was like, Okay,

518
00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:03,000
Speaker 3: people say, turn your mess into your mission or whatever

519
00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:04,879
Speaker 3: the hell they say. I don't know, Like I'm going

520
00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:08,639
Speaker 3: to figure this out for people, you know, Do I

521
00:26:08,800 --> 00:26:13,240
Speaker 3: worry that people think these things of me. I still want,

522
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:15,800
Speaker 3: you know, to work in this business. They still want

523
00:26:15,800 --> 00:26:18,840
Speaker 3: to do things. I have such an energy and such

524
00:26:18,840 --> 00:26:21,840
Speaker 3: a I love having fun and do I.

525
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:23,960
Speaker 1: I meant more from you, not what people think though,

526
00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:27,960
Speaker 1: Like I meant, I think you're this person. I don't

527
00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:29,479
Speaker 1: think of you as weak. I think of you as

528
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:32,680
Speaker 1: a person who's like on this path to help, like

529
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:35,199
Speaker 1: not only your own health obviously, but just like you

530
00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:37,080
Speaker 1: are passionate about this. You've been through it and you're

531
00:26:37,119 --> 00:26:41,679
Speaker 1: communicator messenger. I meant within you, like you feeling like

532
00:26:41,720 --> 00:26:43,240
Speaker 1: you got scared, you weren't gonna be able to be

533
00:26:43,240 --> 00:26:45,760
Speaker 1: a mother to your daughter, and that you had all

534
00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,880
Speaker 1: these things happen, like for you, for it to be

535
00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:51,080
Speaker 1: for you to get out of the purgatory you said

536
00:26:51,080 --> 00:26:53,600
Speaker 1: you were in, like for you to be you know,

537
00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:58,200
Speaker 1: perky and silly and lighthearted and like, you know, not have.

538
00:26:58,240 --> 00:26:58,840
Speaker 2: It to find you.

539
00:26:58,960 --> 00:26:59,320
Speaker 3: For you.

540
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:01,960
Speaker 1: I don't think I get to party for people unless

541
00:27:02,119 --> 00:27:04,119
Speaker 1: I mean, you may think that. I don't see you

542
00:27:04,160 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 1: like that. I see you as like strong and a survivor.

543
00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:09,240
Speaker 1: But maybe that's what you meant that you don't want

544
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:11,120
Speaker 1: you don't want everyone to thank you as that.

545
00:27:11,560 --> 00:27:14,359
Speaker 3: Yeah, well that's what that was my worry, because you

546
00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:18,280
Speaker 3: know it would. This has just been a very crazy,

547
00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:22,600
Speaker 3: you know, crazy situation. But uh, for me, I think

548
00:27:22,640 --> 00:27:26,880
Speaker 3: the only thing I feel is at times some paranoia.

549
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:30,600
Speaker 3: If I like, there was a period and the healing

550
00:27:30,680 --> 00:27:34,439
Speaker 3: that happened. I remember being in Maui and I was

551
00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:36,720
Speaker 3: having really sharp pains and I was like, oh my god,

552
00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:39,320
Speaker 3: oh my god, what is this. You know, you're getting scared,

553
00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:42,480
Speaker 3: And then my doctors were like it's just things reconnecting.

554
00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:45,719
Speaker 3: You're healing inside, and I'm like okay, and then I

555
00:27:45,720 --> 00:27:48,639
Speaker 3: have to just pray. And then I have to remember

556
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:50,879
Speaker 3: that I'm guided and unprotected, and I have to use

557
00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:53,239
Speaker 3: all my tools that I've learned on the show and

558
00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:57,439
Speaker 3: implement them. And then I calm down and then everything

559
00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:59,920
Speaker 3: gets better. And so those pains have gone away and

560
00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:02,400
Speaker 3: I do feel better and I'm like okay, but there

561
00:28:02,480 --> 00:28:06,520
Speaker 3: are things that will pop up. Like the other day,

562
00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:07,959
Speaker 3: I was having pain in my side. I'm like, oh

563
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:10,639
Speaker 3: my god, is that my kidney? Oh my god? And

564
00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:13,320
Speaker 3: so I just prayed to Saint Niktarios or healing Saint.

565
00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:17,200
Speaker 3: I said, please, can you just remove that pain and

566
00:28:17,320 --> 00:28:19,960
Speaker 3: heal whatever's there? And it worked and I was like, okay,

567
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:20,320
Speaker 3: thank you.

568
00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:24,119
Speaker 1: So and how has and has Kevin been on his

569
00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:25,359
Speaker 1: own roller coaster ride too?

570
00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:26,200
Speaker 2: Like scared?

571
00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:29,040
Speaker 1: And you have a baby, and you're married, and you

572
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:30,959
Speaker 1: got everything that you want and you worked at your

573
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:34,120
Speaker 1: family issues and now has how has he been handling

574
00:28:34,160 --> 00:28:35,640
Speaker 1: everything emotionally?

575
00:28:36,119 --> 00:28:39,240
Speaker 3: This one terrified him. This one we were both like

576
00:28:39,480 --> 00:28:43,800
Speaker 3: fetal position, like what the heck? Because, like I said,

577
00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:45,880
Speaker 3: there was a moment we thought he was going to

578
00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:48,720
Speaker 3: be raising this baby alone, and that sounds really scary.

579
00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:55,400
Speaker 3: But he's been a trooper and he's been a great caretaker.

580
00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:57,320
Speaker 3: And I just said to him, I go, I just

581
00:28:57,360 --> 00:29:00,760
Speaker 3: don't know why in this lifetime. When I met him

582
00:29:01,080 --> 00:29:06,000
Speaker 3: at nineteen, what sealed the deal for me? First of all,

583
00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:08,360
Speaker 3: I was like, Okay, I'm attracted him. But I remember

584
00:29:08,440 --> 00:29:11,200
Speaker 3: him telling me that he took massage therapy classes to

585
00:29:11,280 --> 00:29:13,680
Speaker 3: heal his dad of pain because his dad had cancer.

586
00:29:14,600 --> 00:29:17,400
Speaker 3: And I remember thinking, wow, yeah, And I remember thinking,

587
00:29:17,440 --> 00:29:19,760
Speaker 3: oh my god, you're a caretaker. Done, I'm going to

588
00:29:19,800 --> 00:29:22,840
Speaker 3: make you fall in love with me. I don't know why, Bethany,

589
00:29:22,920 --> 00:29:26,800
Speaker 3: at nineteen, I thought I needed a caretaker. But I

590
00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:30,320
Speaker 3: am very intuitive and I must have known inside of me,

591
00:29:30,960 --> 00:29:34,840
Speaker 3: but not only to me, my dad, my mom during

592
00:29:34,920 --> 00:29:38,240
Speaker 3: COVID to protect us, he would take my mom to

593
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:42,040
Speaker 3: chemo to the hospital and it was not easy because

594
00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:44,720
Speaker 3: my mom had a lot of kind of brain damage

595
00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 3: and she had a lot hard time walking at some

596
00:29:47,840 --> 00:29:50,840
Speaker 3: point with her left side. It was a real job

597
00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:54,200
Speaker 3: and he loved it. He loved those days. He's like,

598
00:29:54,200 --> 00:29:56,800
Speaker 3: they're my favorite days. We have so much fun together.

599
00:29:58,040 --> 00:30:02,719
Speaker 3: So he's had this caretaking job this whole time, and

600
00:30:02,880 --> 00:30:06,040
Speaker 3: so yeah, he's I don't know why God has giving

601
00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:09,440
Speaker 3: you so many care taking jobs. I'm so sorry.

602
00:30:10,720 --> 00:30:14,080
Speaker 1: As important thing in life, thinking about that, like as

603
00:30:14,120 --> 00:30:17,880
Speaker 1: a people don't talk enough about not doctors, not medical professionals,

604
00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:20,200
Speaker 1: but the caretaker. That's like the day and day at

605
00:30:20,200 --> 00:30:23,600
Speaker 1: the morale, the real like feeding the spirit and the soul.

606
00:30:24,760 --> 00:30:25,520
Speaker 2: Very interesting.

607
00:30:37,720 --> 00:30:41,440
Speaker 3: It's funny because I started this meditation program last January

608
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:44,160
Speaker 3: and it changed my life. And one of the things

609
00:30:44,160 --> 00:30:46,760
Speaker 3: I focused on was full mind, body and soul healing,

610
00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:50,680
Speaker 3: and a lot of people in my life, like Abby Bernstein,

611
00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:52,880
Speaker 3: she was like, you know, sometimes when tumors come up,

612
00:30:52,960 --> 00:30:56,000
Speaker 3: it's a good thing, they say, because it's coming to

613
00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:58,880
Speaker 3: the surface to get out. And one of the things

614
00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:01,360
Speaker 3: I kept saying is I want to be super healthy.

615
00:31:01,400 --> 00:31:03,920
Speaker 3: And I see myself with like a superhero cape that

616
00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:09,000
Speaker 3: says super healthy and when she arrives and so funny enough,

617
00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:11,840
Speaker 3: all of this stuff came to surface at this point

618
00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:15,760
Speaker 3: so that it could all go away. And that because

619
00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:18,000
Speaker 3: my goal is and I say in my head, I

620
00:31:18,040 --> 00:31:20,240
Speaker 3: want to I want her to know when she lands

621
00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:23,520
Speaker 3: on my chest that I'm super healthy. I want to

622
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:26,000
Speaker 3: know who she is and that we're going the distance together.

623
00:31:26,080 --> 00:31:26,880
Speaker 3: That's all I want.

624
00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:29,560
Speaker 2: Oh that's so nice. Oh my god. So you have

625
00:31:29,600 --> 00:31:32,760
Speaker 2: a big summer plan. Wow? Yeah Wow?

626
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:35,520
Speaker 1: So what else are you working on? I know that

627
00:31:35,600 --> 00:31:38,040
Speaker 1: you're acting. I didn't even know that you were. I mean,

628
00:31:38,080 --> 00:31:40,080
Speaker 1: I know that because I I was reading back. It's

629
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:42,560
Speaker 1: so funny to read someone's bio that like you know them.

630
00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:45,400
Speaker 1: But I mean, I remember sitting with Brinn and talking

631
00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:47,840
Speaker 1: about One Tree Hill when we were watching it rewatch

632
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 1: it during the pandemic. I'm like, I'm friends with her,

633
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:51,720
Speaker 1: but I sort of had forgotten until I read it

634
00:31:51,760 --> 00:31:54,680
Speaker 1: again today. So I didn't even know that acting was

635
00:31:54,680 --> 00:31:57,040
Speaker 1: like a real passion of yours. Was that the first

636
00:31:57,080 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: thing that was before hosting?

637
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:03,000
Speaker 3: I don't know, Like, if it's a passion, it's it's

638
00:32:03,040 --> 00:32:06,760
Speaker 3: super fun. I really enjoy it. I have done it

639
00:32:06,840 --> 00:32:09,640
Speaker 3: kind of in tandem with my hosting throughout the years,

640
00:32:10,200 --> 00:32:13,080
Speaker 3: so there have been you know, the Fantastic Four or

641
00:32:14,160 --> 00:32:16,200
Speaker 3: any of the things that I've done, and then recently

642
00:32:16,240 --> 00:32:19,600
Speaker 3: got into Christmas movies and my husband and I are

643
00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:22,760
Speaker 3: obsessed with Christmas movies. It was on my bucket list

644
00:32:23,640 --> 00:32:27,280
Speaker 3: and right after my mom died. I got connected with

645
00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:29,280
Speaker 3: my friend Ryan and he was like, we're going to

646
00:32:29,320 --> 00:32:31,920
Speaker 3: be in Connecticut shooting. I'm like, I'm in Connecticut right now.

647
00:32:32,280 --> 00:32:34,200
Speaker 3: So it all worked out. And so Kevin and I

648
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:36,520
Speaker 3: are building a production company now and building a fund

649
00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:41,000
Speaker 3: so we can make these Christmas movies that people love already.

650
00:32:41,120 --> 00:32:44,000
Speaker 3: But we're like, let's just take them up a notch, right,

651
00:32:45,040 --> 00:32:46,240
Speaker 3: take them up one notch?

652
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:48,040
Speaker 2: And what does that mean?

653
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:51,880
Speaker 1: Like, you mean quality notch humor notch or yeah, I want.

654
00:32:51,720 --> 00:32:54,760
Speaker 3: To make I want to make even better Christmas movies.

655
00:32:55,160 --> 00:32:58,560
Speaker 1: That's amazing. So when is the first why? And you're

656
00:32:58,600 --> 00:32:59,959
Speaker 1: in them or of them?

657
00:33:00,240 --> 00:33:03,360
Speaker 3: We're well, I've been into I did one last year

658
00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:05,920
Speaker 3: and this year this time because of the baby, I

659
00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:09,959
Speaker 3: won't be able to film one this summer, so this

660
00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:13,080
Speaker 3: Christmas will probably be out. But we are in the

661
00:33:13,120 --> 00:33:15,400
Speaker 3: process of building this fund and so by next year

662
00:33:15,400 --> 00:33:16,480
Speaker 3: we'll be making them.

663
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:19,040
Speaker 2: That I love. That. That's so fun. What's the production

664
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Speaker 2: company called?

665
00:33:20,720 --> 00:33:22,400
Speaker 3: H We haven't figured out the name yet.

666
00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:25,600
Speaker 1: Oh okay, And so what do you spend most of

667
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:28,120
Speaker 1: your time doing besides doing your show? Like, are you

668
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:29,440
Speaker 1: what else are you doing? You're not writing?

669
00:33:29,480 --> 00:33:31,600
Speaker 2: Because you don't like to write, So what how do you?

670
00:33:31,800 --> 00:33:32,520
Speaker 2: How do you bounce?

671
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:32,600
Speaker 3: Like?

672
00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:36,080
Speaker 1: What does your time pie look like now leading into

673
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:39,080
Speaker 1: having a baby. What's the biggest percentage of time spent

674
00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:40,160
Speaker 1: on Well?

675
00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:42,800
Speaker 3: I do my show a couple times a week, so

676
00:33:42,840 --> 00:33:45,800
Speaker 3: we're a daily show. Kevin does one day. It's kind

677
00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:48,280
Speaker 3: of like we go to school Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday,

678
00:33:48,280 --> 00:33:51,360
Speaker 3: and then Kevin's the fun on the Friday slash he

679
00:33:51,400 --> 00:33:55,600
Speaker 3: does his priest sermons and so the show is my

680
00:33:55,640 --> 00:33:59,440
Speaker 3: big focus. And then you know, I do random, you know,

681
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:02,240
Speaker 3: commercial stuff, or I fill in for Kelly like you

682
00:34:02,320 --> 00:34:08,239
Speaker 3: do and ONLVE with Kelly and Mark. Now and my

683
00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:11,400
Speaker 3: plate has really just been filled right now with healing

684
00:34:12,239 --> 00:34:15,480
Speaker 3: and getting ready for baby. And so just the other

685
00:34:15,560 --> 00:34:17,279
Speaker 3: day we set up all the stuff in the house.

686
00:34:17,320 --> 00:34:19,359
Speaker 3: We're like, okay, I need to know how to use

687
00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:22,920
Speaker 3: this stuff, like this bugaboo carriage and all this you know,

688
00:34:23,640 --> 00:34:27,759
Speaker 3: mama rou like bascinettes and snooze and the whole thing.

689
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:29,160
Speaker 3: I don't know how to use any of this stuff.

690
00:34:29,160 --> 00:34:34,359
Speaker 2: It was so it's that easy, right, No friends come over.

691
00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:36,080
Speaker 3: Did you feel the same way?

692
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:37,719
Speaker 2: I felt the same way?

693
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:40,920
Speaker 1: I felt that don't over complicate it because you use

694
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:43,120
Speaker 1: the simplest stuff and the same thing with them, they

695
00:34:43,239 --> 00:34:45,600
Speaker 1: use the simple stuff, meaning your child as they get older.

696
00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:48,520
Speaker 1: But I was I had a PREMI and I was

697
00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 1: very just like I was scared to leave thet I

698
00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:53,959
Speaker 1: didn't understand how to just like we go for a walk.

699
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:57,560
Speaker 1: I have this tiny, fragile being and now we go

700
00:34:57,640 --> 00:35:00,359
Speaker 1: out for a walk, like why what are we doing?

701
00:35:00,600 --> 00:35:02,799
Speaker 1: The baby doesn't know what's going on, but like it's

702
00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: the fresh air and you just feel like you need

703
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:06,279
Speaker 1: to leave the house. And then that path the only

704
00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:08,120
Speaker 1: thing I really do love and it doesn't have to

705
00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:11,520
Speaker 1: be whatever the brand is. The patpoos on the chest thing,

706
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:14,040
Speaker 1: like that's a great thing because it just means you're

707
00:35:14,080 --> 00:35:15,399
Speaker 1: just like you're ready to go.

708
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:17,239
Speaker 3: It's what do you mean your cat poos on the chair?

709
00:35:18,239 --> 00:35:20,439
Speaker 1: I didn't have the pat the baby on your chest,

710
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:22,120
Speaker 1: Like you take a walk and it's just like you

711
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:25,360
Speaker 1: guys together, And that was I mean I don't really exercise,

712
00:35:25,440 --> 00:35:27,960
Speaker 1: but like taking walks to go places that just felt

713
00:35:28,040 --> 00:35:30,680
Speaker 1: very freeing because I felt very clunky with.

714
00:35:30,600 --> 00:35:33,480
Speaker 2: A stroller and all the stuff. So I liked the

715
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 2: Kangaroo program.

716
00:35:35,480 --> 00:35:37,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, I like the Kangaroo Program too, so I had

717
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:39,400
Speaker 3: to learn how to use that thing because one of

718
00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:43,560
Speaker 3: them is just like it's just this in little cloth

719
00:35:43,640 --> 00:35:46,000
Speaker 3: thing or like like the thinnest T shirt you've ever

720
00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:48,719
Speaker 3: had material, and you have to wrap it around and

721
00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:51,000
Speaker 3: do it all yourself. It's just this one more piece.

722
00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:53,040
Speaker 3: And then I'm like, wait, but this thing's so thin,

723
00:35:53,120 --> 00:35:54,680
Speaker 3: how is she not going to fall out of this?

724
00:35:54,719 --> 00:35:56,400
Speaker 3: And I was so scared, so I put a stuffed

725
00:35:56,520 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 3: animal in and I was practicing. But it's been fun,

726
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:04,920
Speaker 3: Like it's it's so crazy to have a baby later

727
00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 3: in life. I think it's it's such a cool thing

728
00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:11,280
Speaker 3: because I'm going to give her all of my time.

729
00:36:11,760 --> 00:36:14,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I was a lot of it.

730
00:36:14,080 --> 00:36:14,319
Speaker 3: You know.

731
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:18,800
Speaker 1: I was late thirty, so I was later too, and

732
00:36:18,960 --> 00:36:21,960
Speaker 1: it's funny you're bringing me back. I The one thing

733
00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:24,120
Speaker 1: I did learn was that when everyone would say how

734
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:29,120
Speaker 1: you balance work and being a mom, was that I

735
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 1: was really present and am present in both, like because

736
00:36:33,040 --> 00:36:34,640
Speaker 1: you try to do both at the same time. You're

737
00:36:34,640 --> 00:36:37,280
Speaker 1: trying to like I would be running out of photoshoots,

738
00:36:37,320 --> 00:36:39,960
Speaker 1: like taking food from the photoshoots so I could bring

739
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:41,080
Speaker 1: it to her because I didn't want to be gone

740
00:36:41,080 --> 00:36:43,200
Speaker 1: for a second, and she wouldn't even notice. Like you

741
00:36:43,239 --> 00:36:45,240
Speaker 1: get in your head about this stuff that doesn't matter,

742
00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:49,000
Speaker 1: and every class and every rug that has letters and

743
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:50,719
Speaker 1: numbers on it and they don't know. You just like

744
00:36:50,800 --> 00:36:52,960
Speaker 1: kind of feel like you should be doing everything, and

745
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:55,960
Speaker 1: it's it's a little it's too much. You don't need

746
00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:58,880
Speaker 1: to be so crazed. And also then to be really

747
00:36:58,920 --> 00:37:02,560
Speaker 1: just present in work, but versus like checking in all

748
00:37:02,600 --> 00:37:04,480
Speaker 1: the time and being obsessed with not being there and

749
00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:06,879
Speaker 1: the guilt, like it's just it doesn't serve you, that

750
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:09,360
Speaker 1: guilt in both directions that being torn.

751
00:37:09,440 --> 00:37:09,960
Speaker 2: I found.

752
00:37:10,680 --> 00:37:14,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, how did you feel about having an only child?

753
00:37:14,520 --> 00:37:16,279
Speaker 3: How has that worked for you? Because we're kind of

754
00:37:16,320 --> 00:37:18,319
Speaker 3: getting cozy with the idea now. I love it.

755
00:37:18,760 --> 00:37:21,000
Speaker 2: I love it. She loves it. I was an only child.

756
00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:23,600
Speaker 1: I don't even think of it as a thing, like

757
00:37:23,640 --> 00:37:26,080
Speaker 1: it's not and she doesn't think of it as a thing.

758
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:30,080
Speaker 1: I've loved it. I mean, being a mother is the

759
00:37:30,120 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 1: best thing in the world. It's the greatest thing if

760
00:37:32,040 --> 00:37:34,680
Speaker 1: you like get your own relationship with it, like not

761
00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:38,360
Speaker 1: getting caught up in your head and taking everyone's opinions

762
00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:40,120
Speaker 1: because you don't know anybody who has a perfect child

763
00:37:40,280 --> 00:37:43,320
Speaker 1: or that's a perfect parent, So like getting worried about

764
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:46,759
Speaker 1: doing things right or wrong, you know, I just I

765
00:37:46,800 --> 00:37:49,680
Speaker 1: didn't have a nanny, And I don't say that like

766
00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:51,640
Speaker 1: I'm some hero or anything. I had a baby nurse

767
00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:57,239
Speaker 1: for a while, but I liked later always doing the

768
00:37:57,239 --> 00:37:59,360
Speaker 1: bath myself and always doing these things because if I

769
00:37:59,360 --> 00:38:01,520
Speaker 1: had had some one there, I would have relied, the

770
00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:03,960
Speaker 1: muscle would have gotten weak because you have someone there

771
00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:05,319
Speaker 1: to do it. So of course the bath is a

772
00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:07,239
Speaker 1: pain in the ass sometimes like things are pains in

773
00:38:07,280 --> 00:38:09,760
Speaker 1: the ass, but when you do them yourself.

774
00:38:09,280 --> 00:38:11,000
Speaker 2: It's like it's really nice.

775
00:38:11,040 --> 00:38:13,120
Speaker 1: And I really really stuck to that schedule because it's

776
00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:16,160
Speaker 1: your only friend. So when they're sleeping, it's your only friend.

777
00:38:16,239 --> 00:38:16,960
Speaker 2: Is that schedule?

778
00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:19,399
Speaker 3: Yeah, you talk about like what I've been doing, I'm

779
00:38:19,440 --> 00:38:23,279
Speaker 3: reading books. Yeah, I'm trying to because it's like it's

780
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,400
Speaker 3: like a business, like it's a whole other world you

781
00:38:25,480 --> 00:38:28,160
Speaker 3: have to delve into and learn about. Not that you're

782
00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:31,520
Speaker 3: gonna do things perfect, but just an awareness of a

783
00:38:31,560 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 3: schedule even being important.

784
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:36,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, and awareness of schedule, the consistency and the schedule

785
00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:39,480
Speaker 1: is important. But you'll learn most everything from the baby

786
00:38:39,480 --> 00:38:40,960
Speaker 1: in front of you. But I do think that that

787
00:38:41,680 --> 00:38:43,640
Speaker 1: was something safe and you make up your it's it's

788
00:38:43,640 --> 00:38:46,520
Speaker 1: like same with the dog. Every four hours, you're letting

789
00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:48,160
Speaker 1: them up for a while, like you know, it's like

790
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,759
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter if it was three and a half

791
00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:51,839
Speaker 1: hours or five and a half hours, whatever thing you

792
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:53,680
Speaker 1: decided with your dog that worked.

793
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:55,319
Speaker 2: It's like that you just have to.

794
00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:58,600
Speaker 1: Stick to something that seems like, you know, some program

795
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,520
Speaker 1: that you can adhere to just for your own sanity,

796
00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:00,880
Speaker 1: you know.

797
00:39:01,000 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 3: Kevin jokes, he chokes that he's been in the infant

798
00:39:05,520 --> 00:39:08,640
Speaker 3: stages for twenty plus years with our dogs, that they

799
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:11,279
Speaker 3: wake them up every three hours anyway. So he's like,

800
00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:12,320
Speaker 3: what's the difference?

801
00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:15,239
Speaker 2: Not a lot. Well, we'll see where. You'll let me know.

802
00:39:15,360 --> 00:39:19,560
Speaker 1: They say, which made me very sad. They say, when

803
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:22,560
Speaker 1: you have a baby, your dog becomes a dog because

804
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:25,400
Speaker 1: your dog's are your babies. And when Ellen DeGeneres on

805
00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: her show asked me to debate, does to Brennan Cookie

806
00:39:28,080 --> 00:39:30,480
Speaker 1: my dog who passed get along, and I said, they

807
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:32,239
Speaker 1: do get along, and it'd be unfortunate to have to

808
00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:33,120
Speaker 1: give away the baby.

809
00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:34,359
Speaker 2: So I'm glad they do.

810
00:39:35,360 --> 00:39:37,239
Speaker 3: I die for you. That's amazing.

811
00:39:37,480 --> 00:39:39,160
Speaker 1: I could be hard hard to have to give away

812
00:39:39,160 --> 00:39:41,440
Speaker 1: a child cook he was there eighteen years. Sorry, just

813
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:42,440
Speaker 1: a new baby, you know.

814
00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:42,880
Speaker 2: Yeah.

815
00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:45,920
Speaker 3: So I love you, yeah, yep, yeah.

816
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:49,160
Speaker 1: So well, I'm really really happy to know you. I'm

817
00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:52,839
Speaker 1: really happy for your success, and I'm so sorry you've

818
00:39:52,880 --> 00:39:57,120
Speaker 1: been through such tragedy. But I mean, I hate to

819
00:39:57,880 --> 00:39:59,680
Speaker 1: refer to it the way that I think of divorce

820
00:39:59,719 --> 00:40:01,080
Speaker 1: with the world. Worst thing that ever happened to me

821
00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:04,200
Speaker 1: was my wretched, horrendous ten year divorce, And while going

822
00:40:04,239 --> 00:40:07,000
Speaker 1: through it, I would say to myself, like, this is

823
00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:09,000
Speaker 1: happening for a reason. I know it's happening for a reason.

824
00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:11,920
Speaker 1: It's one golf hole. There are eighteen holes. One day

825
00:40:11,960 --> 00:40:14,680
Speaker 1: I'll be done with this and I'll be able to

826
00:40:14,719 --> 00:40:16,960
Speaker 1: help other people. I mean, and I really am an

827
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:20,040
Speaker 1: expert on divorce. And like you didn't go to medical

828
00:40:20,080 --> 00:40:21,400
Speaker 1: school and I didn't go to law school, but I

829
00:40:21,480 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 1: am an expert on every aspect of divorce. So you're

830
00:40:24,480 --> 00:40:27,880
Speaker 1: an expert on many many things as it pertains to

831
00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:30,640
Speaker 1: health and at least the whole industry, you're definitely an

832
00:40:30,680 --> 00:40:32,560
Speaker 1: expert on, So you really can help other people.

833
00:40:33,239 --> 00:40:36,759
Speaker 3: Yeah, and that's always been my underpinning in life, right

834
00:40:36,800 --> 00:40:39,920
Speaker 3: I've always wanted to help people. I love helping people,

835
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:43,960
Speaker 3: and so I don't look at them as tragedies. I

836
00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:49,000
Speaker 3: look at them as opportunities for growth. I've grown so much,

837
00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:53,440
Speaker 3: I've learned so much. I know that I'm so freaking strong.

838
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:57,120
Speaker 3: I know that I can handle anything that comes my way.

839
00:40:57,760 --> 00:41:01,640
Speaker 3: My faith has become more and more rooted and strengthened

840
00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:05,160
Speaker 3: every single second of every day. Even though I thought

841
00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:08,200
Speaker 3: it was the most may like it couldn't get any better,

842
00:41:08,600 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 3: it does get better and better, and so I keep

843
00:41:11,560 --> 00:41:14,040
Speaker 3: becoming a better person because of all of it. So

844
00:41:14,120 --> 00:41:17,759
Speaker 3: I'm grateful for the journey. I know that, you know,

845
00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:19,919
Speaker 3: there's nothing I can do. It is what it is,

846
00:41:20,040 --> 00:41:22,160
Speaker 3: and so I'm going to do the best I can

847
00:41:22,280 --> 00:41:26,680
Speaker 3: to roll positively through things. And that's why I love

848
00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:29,759
Speaker 3: my show, because I learn how to do that through here.

849
00:41:30,040 --> 00:41:32,960
Speaker 3: Every single day, I'm getting tools to help me, you know,

850
00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:36,760
Speaker 3: ride those crazy waves of life, and they're gonna happen.

851
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:40,919
Speaker 3: Problems come, but they are opportunities for growth, and we're

852
00:41:40,920 --> 00:41:42,560
Speaker 3: not going to see it like that right away. And

853
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:46,640
Speaker 3: by the way, when I was facing what I was facing,

854
00:41:46,840 --> 00:41:51,280
Speaker 3: I was shook. But at some point I remember looking

855
00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:53,160
Speaker 3: at my mantle with all my icons, and I say

856
00:41:53,160 --> 00:41:56,239
Speaker 3: all my prayers every night for everybody and everyone who's

857
00:41:56,239 --> 00:41:59,320
Speaker 3: sick in my life, and I was like, this doesn't

858
00:41:59,320 --> 00:42:02,000
Speaker 3: make any sense, and I just kept saying it, and

859
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:04,279
Speaker 3: then I realized it doesn't make sense. So why do

860
00:42:04,360 --> 00:42:07,399
Speaker 3: I have to look at it like this is the end?

861
00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:10,920
Speaker 3: Why can't I look at it like perhaps it's not

862
00:42:10,960 --> 00:42:12,719
Speaker 3: going to be the story the way I think of it.

863
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:15,120
Speaker 3: I had someone on the show that said, choose wonder

864
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:18,319
Speaker 3: over worry, So I started saying, I wonder what it's

865
00:42:18,320 --> 00:42:20,480
Speaker 3: going to be like when the doctors call with good news.

866
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:22,200
Speaker 3: I wonder what it's going to be like when I

867
00:42:22,200 --> 00:42:25,200
Speaker 3: get through the surgery easily. I wonder what it's going

868
00:42:25,239 --> 00:42:27,040
Speaker 3: to be like when I hear that there's no cancer

869
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Speaker 3: spread anywhere, which is what I did here and once

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00:42:29,560 --> 00:42:31,640
Speaker 3: I started doing that. So if I can give you guys,

871
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:36,000
Speaker 3: one massive tip aside from the other stuff, choose wonder

872
00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:40,240
Speaker 3: over worry. It helps you and you also help manifest

873
00:42:40,280 --> 00:42:42,319
Speaker 3: the things that you start wondering about because you get

874
00:42:42,360 --> 00:42:45,280
Speaker 3: into this creative mode and the quantum and everything starts,

875
00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:48,720
Speaker 3: you know, conspiring in the universe to work in your favor,

876
00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:53,160
Speaker 3: so choose wonder and those things started happening instantly when

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00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:54,000
Speaker 3: I started doing it.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it seems like your combination of an emotional person

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00:43:01,920 --> 00:43:05,560
Speaker 1: and a problem solver. So you have something that happens

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00:43:05,560 --> 00:43:09,520
Speaker 1: to you that's certainly not fortunate in that moment, and

881
00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:13,040
Speaker 1: you're probably struggling with like the emotionality of it, like

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00:43:13,120 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 1: not just being because I get accused of like I'm

883
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:19,080
Speaker 1: in mode immediately as you described earlier, so like you're

884
00:43:19,080 --> 00:43:20,960
Speaker 1: in mode too, but you have to also deal with

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00:43:21,239 --> 00:43:24,440
Speaker 1: the emotionality of your partner of having a baby girl

886
00:43:24,480 --> 00:43:28,080
Speaker 1: coming like it's it must be interesting to balance both

887
00:43:28,080 --> 00:43:30,759
Speaker 1: of those elements because you just could jump over the

888
00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:34,239
Speaker 1: emotion and get right into problem solving, but you're kind

889
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Speaker 1: of dealing with both.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and I kind of do get in a problem

891
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:40,359
Speaker 3: solver fast. That's why you and I connect so much.

892
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 3: And now I'm having to, Okay, I got to go

893
00:43:44,680 --> 00:43:47,640
Speaker 3: into therapy now and really hash this out, because yes,

894
00:43:48,120 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 3: I moved through things so fast. Same sounds like Maria.

895
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Speaker 3: You go through things that are so crazy so quickly,

896
00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:55,840
Speaker 3: it's like it never happened, but it did happen, and

897
00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:57,640
Speaker 3: you need to process it, agreed.

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Speaker 1: But that's my proble exactly, Like because you're like, well, no,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna go here and I'm gonna do that. I'm

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00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:03,080
Speaker 1: gonna talk to that person. I got this, I got

901
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:05,160
Speaker 1: this notebook, this number two pencil, and I'm ready. And

902
00:44:05,200 --> 00:44:08,040
Speaker 1: it's like, right, but you just heard this crazy news

903
00:44:08,520 --> 00:44:10,759
Speaker 1: and you have a daughter and a mom that you

904
00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:13,400
Speaker 1: know this stuff. I have the same. That's why I

905
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Speaker 1: said it. Because you're very You can solve any problem,

906
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Speaker 1: but the emotionality of it has to catch up too.

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Speaker 3: Yeah. I lived for a guiver. I'm sure you did too.

908
00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:25,799
Speaker 3: I lived for that shows because I was like, my

909
00:44:25,920 --> 00:44:28,400
Speaker 3: favorite thing is to solve stuff and to figure it out.

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00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 3: So we do have to lean into our emotions and

911
00:44:31,360 --> 00:44:33,759
Speaker 3: we have to feel everything, but we can't get stuck there.

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00:44:33,880 --> 00:44:34,399
Speaker 3: That's the key.

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Speaker 1: Now, you can't wear it is part of your story,

914
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Speaker 1: but you don't wear it as your story, which is

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00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:43,080
Speaker 1: an interesting distinction. Well, I'm so, I'm so glad to

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Speaker 1: talk to you, Love you so much, have a great day,

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Speaker 1: and thanks for doing this.

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Speaker 3: Of course, like I said, if you need a health collaborator. Okay,

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Speaker 3: I'm here.

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Speaker 2: Awesome. Tell Kevin, I said hello.

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Speaker 3: Well, he sends his love too. He loves you.

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Speaker 1: Okay, have a gret bye bye. Marie is wonderful. She's

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Speaker 1: beautiful inside and out. She is physically beautiful, she is

924
00:45:03,480 --> 00:45:07,120
Speaker 1: beautiful inside. She is a really good person. She is

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00:45:07,400 --> 00:45:12,360
Speaker 1: genuinely interested in helping and loving and I respect that

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Speaker 1: she's been in such a long term relationship with someone

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Speaker 1: she's known since she's nineteen, who helped her take care

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Speaker 1: of her family. She's been through so much and she's

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Speaker 1: paying it forward, and I just really think she's wonderful.

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Speaker 1: So thank you so much for listening, rate, review, and subscribe,

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Speaker 1: and have a wonderful day.