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Speaker 1: Caw from Well.

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Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hi, how are you?

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Speaker 1: Oh my god? No fucking away?

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Speaker 2: What's up, dude? What's going on? What's what's what's what's

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Speaker 2: your name? Caller? My name is nol Noel. What's what's up?

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Speaker 2: How's it going?

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Speaker 3: Did?

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Speaker 2: Is there anything you wanted to talk about? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Actually, so, I just been in like a rut. Like

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Speaker 1: I feel like I don't know if I'm happy or

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Speaker 1: like if I'm really sad. I'm twenty. I feel like

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Speaker 1: I've been through a lot of shit and I'm just

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Speaker 1: trying my best to be happy. But I don't even

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Speaker 1: know what I want anymore. Like I have all these

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Speaker 1: dreams and I used to like try to do stuff,

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Speaker 1: and now I just feel like the life sucked out

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Speaker 1: of me. And I go to work and I come

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Speaker 1: home and I just sleep.

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Speaker 2: Tell me, well, interesting, tell me about all these dreams

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Speaker 2: that you had. What were these dreams?

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Speaker 1: I used to do a lot of art. I saw

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Speaker 1: art back in high school. I was also in a band.

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Speaker 1: I was a drummer. Well I am a drummer, but

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Speaker 1: the band just like some drama happened and we broke up.

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Speaker 1: And yeah, I mean I do art, I do music.

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Speaker 1: I love animals. I just want to do something with that.

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Speaker 1: But I feel like it's really hard because I don't

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Speaker 1: have a dream of like, oh, I want to be

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Speaker 1: a doctor. I want to be a lawyer, Like I

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Speaker 1: want to do something that like means something in the

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Speaker 1: world that's actually like putting something into society that is

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Speaker 1: going to like leave something after I die to where

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Speaker 1: it's like, hey, like this actually helps a lot, whether

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Speaker 1: it's like helping people express themselves or like you know,

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Speaker 1: like saving animals or just doing something. But I feel

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Speaker 1: like lately it feels like there's nothing that feels like

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Speaker 1: it's gonna be remarkable.

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Speaker 2: Well, I there's a lot of thoughts about that. Well,

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Speaker 2: one that's exciting. That's exciting that you have a general direction,

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Speaker 2: and your general direction it doesn't sound particularly evil. You know.

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Speaker 2: If you said that you want to manufacture grenades to

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Speaker 2: throw at ponds of frogs, I'd be like, to each

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Speaker 2: their own. But why is it? Well, I'd use a

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Speaker 2: few things. The the the idea that whatever you do

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Speaker 2: has to be remarkable is going to just fuck with you, right,

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Speaker 2: because you could you can accomplish those goals that you

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Speaker 2: were talking. You can accomplish those that goal today. Tell

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Speaker 2: me that goal again. What was it?

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Speaker 1: I don't even know what the goal is. I just

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Speaker 1: want to do something that's going to like mean something

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Speaker 1: like affect the world in some way or somebody some way.

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Speaker 2: See, you can affect I mean, if we want to

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Speaker 2: get cheesy, I mean, you can affect the world today.

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Speaker 2: You know, you can go and find some way to

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Speaker 2: do that today. You don't have to start a fucking

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Speaker 2: nonprofit to to the world.

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Speaker 1: I feel like it's just sorry, go ahead.

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Speaker 2: No.

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Speaker 1: I feel like I have like an internal conflict of

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Speaker 1: feeling like I'm like eternally just doomed and like no

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Speaker 1: matter how much I do, like not that like you know,

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Speaker 1: no hate on anybody who's not, but like I'm vegan.

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Speaker 1: I feel like I try to make my like mark

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Speaker 1: what you call it environmentally. I do composting. I try

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Speaker 1: to like pick up all the trash in my neighborhood,

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Speaker 1: spend time like just like picking up trash, like doing

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Speaker 1: these things like being there for my friends, and you know,

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Speaker 1: like I provide for my mom, I'm a caretaker as

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Speaker 1: well for somebody else. And it's like I just feel like,

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Speaker 1: deeds and act with like the most pure intentions I can,

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Speaker 1: and like I just get like fucked, like overhere, I'm

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Speaker 2: What do you mean you get sucked? What is that? Man? Like?

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Speaker 1: I just feel like like just really extreme, like bad

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Speaker 1: situations will happen to me. That seems like almost like comical,

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Speaker 1: like a way of like like no, like not all

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Speaker 2: When was the last time you experienced one of these situations?

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Speaker 1: I feel like I'm still going through it. Like a

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Speaker 1: really major one was I was in a really really

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Speaker 1: bad car accident and I was eighteen. I got kicked

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Speaker 1: Like she basically said that I gave her a weed,

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Speaker 1: like hopping around and I'm still trying to recover from that.

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Speaker 1: I had to go back to my mom. This is

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Speaker 1: like I'm gonna try to wrap it up and leave

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Speaker 1: all this uh stuff in between, I guess. But now

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Speaker 1: I live with my mom, uh, which I did not

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Speaker 1: want to do at this age. But she's like relying

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Speaker 2: You know, like you're financially supporting your mom.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, she's she's like disabled and like supermantally ill and

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Speaker 1: like me too, But I guess.

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Speaker 2: Like, what's uh, all right, Well, what's what's up with

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Speaker 2: your She's like she's physically disabled, she can't work.

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Speaker 1: She's not physically disabled, but she's like she has just

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Speaker 1: like really really bad OCD and she has some health issues.

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Speaker 1: But she's like she's like really, I don't know exactly

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Speaker 1: her issue is. She's I'll put it this way, she's

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Speaker 1: like somebody who's really like into like Info Wars and

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Speaker 1: Alex Jones and like won't go outside. Pretty like yeah, is.

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Speaker 2: There does she have enough of a thing going on

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Speaker 2: where she can get some some of them freedom dollars

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Speaker 2: from the government. I don't know how any of that works.

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Speaker 4: But she does.

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Speaker 1: But it's just really messed up because they don't let

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Speaker 1: you have for like a certain amount of your bank account.

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Speaker 1: And where we live, like they keep raising the rent

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Speaker 1: on us, even in like a discounted housing, Like I

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Speaker 2: Okay, so your mom is like a Florida like, uh

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Speaker 2: where what is it? Q q andon type person? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm like I'm pretty much the opposite. Like I mean,

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Speaker 1: don't get me wrong, have my conspiracies, but like I

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Speaker 1: won't stop it from letting me live my life.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mm hmmm. So you're taking care of how

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Speaker 2: long you've been taking care of your mom for?

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Speaker 3: Well?

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Speaker 1: I kind of like I feel like I've kind of

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Speaker 1: like really bad alcoholic. So I'm like laughing, but it's

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Speaker 2: Where's where? Where's Where's Dad?

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Speaker 1: I don't we don't talk. I don't really know my

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Speaker 1: mom my dad met in the gave of like online

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Speaker 1: solitaire in early two thousands.

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Speaker 2: How does one meet another person in a game of

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Speaker 1: I guess from what I understand it was like early

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Speaker 1: and they had like chat rooms with online saltaire and chests,

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Speaker 1: and then they met up.

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Speaker 2: Are you like where you can just talk to other

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Speaker 2: people while you each play solitaire alone?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, like in a chat room, like in the chat I.

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Speaker 2: Guess counts like a great place for two crazy people

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and then I was born, and I'm like, what

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Speaker 1: the fuck? Like what I don't want to be here?

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Speaker 2: Hmm. Okay, So the dad's note in the picture. Does

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Speaker 2: your mom have like a boyfriend or or anything like that? Not?

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Speaker 1: Really, she has no interest in like friends boyfriends. Like

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Speaker 1: I'm like, please, like go outside, like go meet a

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Speaker 1: I don't like people. You can't trust them.

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Speaker 2: And you you can? She can she walk? Can she

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Speaker 1: She's just like she gets so anxious about going anywhere.

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Speaker 1: Like I really try to like be there for her,

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Speaker 1: Like I guess, I guess you could say I'm like

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Speaker 2: What kind of influencer are you? You don't have to

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Speaker 2: you don't have to tell. You don't have to dox

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Speaker 1: Honestly, I don't even care about but you know, I

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Speaker 1: But I just like, I kind of just do whatever

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Speaker 1: got really like there, I don't know that. Actually, somebody

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Speaker 2: Well? Was it Fantane? Yeah, that's cool. He's always he's

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's just I just do like whatever I don't

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Speaker 2: Was was there was there a period of time where

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Speaker 2: you where you were thinking to yourself, like, oh, I

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Speaker 1: Honestly only if I did OnlyFans. And I've done that,

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Speaker 1: and it was really terrible for my mental health. Like

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Speaker 1: when I did that, that's the only way I could

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Speaker 1: handle getting kicked out and everything. When I was eighteen

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Speaker 1: is like doing that, but it was it just weighed

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Speaker 2: Well, I mean the brand deals they were this was

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Speaker 2: was this like oh the brand deals, this was not

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Speaker 2: like a sexual thing like these these companies hiring they

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Speaker 2: didn't pay a lot.

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Speaker 1: Though it was more like like okay, maybe this one

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Speaker 2: Yeah, dude, you know this is really I don't know either. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: well well, well well it's a it's a tough it's

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Speaker 2: a tough situation because it's like, at what point, and

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Speaker 1: Like I'm about to be twenty one, and like my

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I will say. Podcast gets me through work. I

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Speaker 2: So you when you when you talk, so yeah, like,

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Speaker 1: Is she okay? She won't answer her phone, she never

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Speaker 1: like people are trying to be your friend. She's like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: Right, So your mom's got another lady in her complex

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Speaker 1: Yeah pretty much?

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Speaker 3: Yeah that and like YouTube, who's this, who's this?

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Speaker 2: Who's this other late? Who's this other lady that you

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Speaker 1: I'll take her name soorts with em.

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Speaker 2: Well, I mean not like I mean not, you're not

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Speaker 2: I'm not asking her name, like who, who? Who is she?

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Speaker 1: So I've been in this place for a long time.

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Speaker 1: I've known her since I was like six, and it

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Speaker 2: Stuff, because this is this is a job. You're getting

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Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, but she doesn't really have anybody else either,

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Speaker 2: Well well, i'll well, I'll I'll say I'll say this.

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Speaker 2: I know you say that. But if if, if this

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Speaker 2: I'm I I Well, Nole, you said your name is Noel, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: Nol you day to day Noel, You're you have all

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Speaker 2: You want to get the hell out of there.

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Speaker 3: I want to get truck out here.

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Speaker 2: Do you want to get the fuck out of and

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Speaker 2: you're twenty.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I just don't really have like a support system,

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Speaker 1: Like there's nobody tell.

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Speaker 2: Me, tell me, tell me about you. Do you have friends,

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Speaker 1: I do. As far as other family, I'm really only

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Speaker 2: Okay, and everyone's in fla.

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Speaker 1: Well one actually I'm gonna go take a trip to

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Speaker 1: Yeah, once in a while, I can like go away

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Speaker 1: She's like my best friend, so I have to have

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Speaker 2: What's your good? Tell me? Let's say I would. Let's

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Speaker 2: You can? You can wave a magic wand and dream

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Speaker 1: I don't know a state, but I can say because

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Speaker 2: Well I have, Look, I have what I want to

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Speaker 2: do some ads. Look, No, you seem like a really

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Speaker 2: It sounds like your mom and and you know whatever,

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Speaker 2: And I'm just like, I guess it. It would be

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Speaker 2: I don't need you anymore, Go have fun. What would

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Speaker 1: Assuming that I had like the money, I would go

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Speaker 2: into hippie shit, there's all these you know whatever places

436
00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:49,320
Speaker 2: in like Southeast Asia or Puerto Rico or whatever, all

437
00:22:49,359 --> 00:22:52,480
Speaker 2: these all these all these hippie farm places that you

438
00:22:52,520 --> 00:22:56,080
Speaker 2: could probably run away to. But yeah, I don't. I don't.

439
00:22:56,080 --> 00:22:57,880
Speaker 2: I don't know anything about whether or not they let

440
00:22:57,960 --> 00:22:59,520
Speaker 2: dogs on the floor.

441
00:22:59,280 --> 00:23:02,119
Speaker 1: But I'm scared of also, like I'm kind of scared

442
00:23:02,119 --> 00:23:04,560
Speaker 1: of I'm spiritual, but I'm scared of spiritual people. I

443
00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:07,240
Speaker 1: worked at a metaphysical shop and like I managed it,

444
00:23:07,320 --> 00:23:10,080
Speaker 1: and just like spiritual people have this way of being

445
00:23:10,119 --> 00:23:13,320
Speaker 1: so like like New Age spirituality, they like they love

446
00:23:13,400 --> 00:23:15,960
Speaker 1: to just like bypass things and be like, don't be depressed,

447
00:23:16,160 --> 00:23:18,560
Speaker 1: just be happy. And I'm scared to like go somewhere

448
00:23:18,600 --> 00:23:21,560
Speaker 1: like that. And then it's like okay, but I guess

449
00:23:21,560 --> 00:23:23,399
Speaker 1: I have to just like throw myself into it.

450
00:23:24,480 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 2: Well it's cool you. I mean, I've only been talking

451
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:30,480
Speaker 2: to you for twenty minutes, but you seem like a

452
00:23:30,560 --> 00:23:34,000
Speaker 2: sane and despite and fucking despite everything you've been through,

453
00:23:34,119 --> 00:23:39,840
Speaker 2: you seem like a sane uh uh, not douche person.

454
00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:41,359
Speaker 2: And I see why. I see why you could be

455
00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:46,120
Speaker 2: afraid that of that if you go into an environment

456
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:47,760
Speaker 2: like that, that everyone's going to be a douche. But

457
00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:51,879
Speaker 2: that's just that's just a preconception. You know. Ever, people

458
00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:54,320
Speaker 2: there could be cool or they could be douches. But

459
00:23:55,400 --> 00:23:58,040
Speaker 2: I don't know. But you got the dogs, so I

460
00:23:58,040 --> 00:23:58,320
Speaker 2: don't know.

461
00:23:58,359 --> 00:24:04,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, I got a dog in a van.

462
00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:06,920
Speaker 2: Are you you have a van?

463
00:24:07,640 --> 00:24:09,720
Speaker 1: Well, it's like a like a Hondic the RV. But

464
00:24:09,760 --> 00:24:11,680
Speaker 1: it's it's alright, it's decent inside.

465
00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:18,119
Speaker 2: Okay, when you I do you go? Do you go

466
00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:19,240
Speaker 2: to see a real therapist?

467
00:24:20,160 --> 00:24:21,720
Speaker 1: I do? I love her so much?

468
00:24:22,240 --> 00:24:24,000
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, what does she tell you about all this shit?

469
00:24:26,840 --> 00:24:27,040
Speaker 2: You know?

470
00:24:27,200 --> 00:24:30,359
Speaker 1: She can't really say directly like what to do, of course,

471
00:24:30,400 --> 00:24:33,040
Speaker 1: but she's just like been trying to help me, like

472
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:37,920
Speaker 1: more so stay sane and like stay sable, stay stay god, damn,

473
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 1: that's a tongue. Stay sable. Oh my god, stay sane.

474
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:43,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna stay sane. I go to her.

475
00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:45,360
Speaker 2: More.

476
00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:47,159
Speaker 1: Just trying to get me to like work on my

477
00:24:47,359 --> 00:24:51,719
Speaker 1: art and stuff, and like, uh, just you know, I

478
00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:53,879
Speaker 1: lost my job when I was seeing a therapist, so

479
00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:56,280
Speaker 1: we just have been in the transition of like, okay,

480
00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:58,960
Speaker 1: you went from having one job, now you've lost your job.

481
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,919
Speaker 1: Now you're working too. Do you not burn out? So

482
00:25:02,520 --> 00:25:04,960
Speaker 1: it's just been about like mainly the focus of like

483
00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:07,480
Speaker 1: saving money, trying to see who I can live with

484
00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:09,560
Speaker 1: because I can afford to move out if I have

485
00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:12,440
Speaker 1: a roommate. But I don't really know anybody dependable very

486
00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:16,720
Speaker 1: very much. So now. But yeah, I mean I go

487
00:25:16,800 --> 00:25:18,560
Speaker 1: to therapy and she's great.

488
00:25:19,320 --> 00:25:19,800
Speaker 2: I got a.

489
00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:22,160
Speaker 1: Medication, which I was really opposed to for a while.

490
00:25:22,200 --> 00:25:23,480
Speaker 1: But I do think it's helping.

491
00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:30,359
Speaker 2: That's cool. Well as like an SSRI, I yeah, I

492
00:25:30,359 --> 00:25:33,280
Speaker 2: don't know shit about it. I tried. I've never I've

493
00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:35,680
Speaker 2: never been a big I've never been a big medication guy,

494
00:25:35,920 --> 00:25:39,040
Speaker 2: just as me for everyone's everyone works differently, but I've

495
00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:44,160
Speaker 2: never been a big medication dude. Ah, that's it's cool.

496
00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:49,520
Speaker 2: That's working for you school. You're able to have a therapist.

497
00:25:51,720 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm just on the grind. I've been just like considering,

498
00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:58,040
Speaker 1: like I don't know if I should be on disability

499
00:25:58,119 --> 00:25:59,679
Speaker 1: or not, because I, like I said, I got in

500
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:02,320
Speaker 1: a car, so them I still have issues. But you know,

501
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:04,880
Speaker 1: the government likes to be like, oh, you need health insurance,

502
00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:06,840
Speaker 1: let's take it away from you.

503
00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:10,280
Speaker 2: Get some get some freedom dollars if you can man

504
00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:10,840
Speaker 2: get some.

505
00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:14,840
Speaker 1: I feel like, so, I don't know.

506
00:26:17,600 --> 00:26:21,800
Speaker 2: Hmm, Well, let me ask you what's what's what's have

507
00:26:21,880 --> 00:26:24,679
Speaker 2: you ever talked to your therapist about, Like, hey, you know,

508
00:26:26,119 --> 00:26:31,720
Speaker 2: taking care of my mom is restricting my uh movement

509
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:35,320
Speaker 2: throughout the universe. What do you think about that?

510
00:26:37,440 --> 00:26:39,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean she doesn't agree with like a lot

511
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,199
Speaker 1: of the things that my mom has like done or

512
00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:45,959
Speaker 1: said to me and like, but you know, it's just

513
00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,199
Speaker 1: like in the situation, like there's not a lot I

514
00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:50,720
Speaker 1: can do. We have like safety plans to where like

515
00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:53,720
Speaker 1: if something bad going on at home and I it's unsafe,

516
00:26:53,800 --> 00:26:56,000
Speaker 1: like I'll even I'll go to like x y Z's

517
00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:58,760
Speaker 1: house and this is my backup plan here and like

518
00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:02,520
Speaker 1: my room is my face space and you know stuff

519
00:27:02,560 --> 00:27:07,200
Speaker 1: like that. But yeah, I mean she doesn't agree with it,

520
00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:10,240
Speaker 1: but you know she doesn't really know what to do either.

521
00:27:15,119 --> 00:27:16,919
Speaker 2: Are you working on any music?

522
00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:23,439
Speaker 1: I bought a laptop that's not a dinosaur and like

523
00:27:23,480 --> 00:27:27,640
Speaker 1: my other one, I have electronic drum kit, acoustic drum kit,

524
00:27:27,680 --> 00:27:30,280
Speaker 1: and I have like a little MIDI keyboard, which I've

525
00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:33,600
Speaker 1: been trying to learn. But I feel like I was like, okay,

526
00:27:33,600 --> 00:27:35,480
Speaker 1: when I get this, like I'm gonna be able to

527
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:37,920
Speaker 1: make this, And now that I have it, like the stuff,

528
00:27:37,960 --> 00:27:40,760
Speaker 1: I'm like, I just find myself like just going home

529
00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:43,120
Speaker 1: and being like I can't set everything up, like I'm

530
00:27:43,160 --> 00:27:46,159
Speaker 1: so drained and like sad, and I just I can't.

531
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:49,200
Speaker 1: But Missouri is when I go see my friend, I'm

532
00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:52,439
Speaker 1: gonna take my keyboard in my laptop and just like

533
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:55,000
Speaker 1: during the flight and while I'm there, we're gonna just

534
00:27:55,040 --> 00:27:57,760
Speaker 1: like make music. I was, I've been hopping trying to

535
00:27:57,800 --> 00:27:59,760
Speaker 1: find like a new project. I think I worked best

536
00:27:59,760 --> 00:28:02,960
Speaker 1: in a band, but there's just a lot of drama

537
00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:05,720
Speaker 1: here with that and like trying to find the right people.

538
00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:07,960
Speaker 1: And I don't live in like a nice like part

539
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:09,960
Speaker 1: of Florida where all the arts people are. I'm like

540
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,040
Speaker 1: an hour and a half away, So it's like, where.

541
00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:14,800
Speaker 2: Is the nice part of Florida where all the arts

542
00:28:14,800 --> 00:28:15,960
Speaker 2: of people are is at Miami.

543
00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:19,840
Speaker 1: No, more like Tampa Saint Pete. That's like the spot

544
00:28:19,920 --> 00:28:22,879
Speaker 1: for like cool, cool, like open minded people.

545
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:26,479
Speaker 2: Really Tampa Campa.

546
00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:29,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, like especially like around the college. I have like

547
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:32,160
Speaker 1: a lot of friends, well like friends, not like super

548
00:28:32,200 --> 00:28:34,639
Speaker 1: close friends, but like most of the connections I have

549
00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:36,520
Speaker 1: in that world are in Tampa.

550
00:28:37,359 --> 00:28:39,280
Speaker 2: I was in a I did a show in Tampa

551
00:28:39,280 --> 00:28:43,200
Speaker 2: this year and I talked to on stage to a Satanist,

552
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:48,000
Speaker 2: which is pretty fun. So I guess I guess the tracks.

553
00:28:49,520 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 1: Well ship, Yeah, I missed that show, but I really

554
00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:54,800
Speaker 1: want to come see the next one.

555
00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:58,720
Speaker 2: No, I don't know, I don't know, you know, it's

556
00:28:58,720 --> 00:29:00,840
Speaker 2: funny when you when you when you said just now

557
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:05,560
Speaker 2: about like, uh, you bottle the equipment and then you

558
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,440
Speaker 2: get home and you're too drained to set it up.

559
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,840
Speaker 2: I've definitely been in situations like that where oh, I'm gonna,

560
00:29:11,440 --> 00:29:13,680
Speaker 2: you know, go do this thing, and then you and

561
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:15,520
Speaker 2: then the thing's in front of you and you're like,

562
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:18,760
Speaker 2: all I want to do is take a nap. Yes,

563
00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:26,240
Speaker 2: I hope, I hope you find I hope you can

564
00:29:26,280 --> 00:29:28,440
Speaker 2: find joy and whatever it is you do get to do,

565
00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:29,959
Speaker 2: you know, thank you.

566
00:29:31,360 --> 00:29:34,320
Speaker 1: But with my partner and my friend's garage recently, we

567
00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:36,720
Speaker 1: were supposed to play at a show, but these people

568
00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:40,120
Speaker 1: like rented on an Airbnb and then they didn't they

569
00:29:40,160 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 1: didn't coordinate it with the airbnb, so we got kicked

570
00:29:42,440 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 1: out and I was like, man, we worked too hard

571
00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:46,080
Speaker 1: on this. We end up playing in a garage for

572
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:49,040
Speaker 1: like ten people. But those ten people, they're the they're

573
00:29:49,440 --> 00:29:50,120
Speaker 1: they're real ones.

574
00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:53,720
Speaker 2: Do more of that, do more of that, find more,

575
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:57,160
Speaker 2: find more opportunities to do ship like that. That's that's

576
00:29:57,200 --> 00:30:03,520
Speaker 2: where that's where the real meet the juices of life is.

577
00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:09,880
Speaker 1: You know, there is something stopping me doing music though,

578
00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:15,880
Speaker 1: well kind of stopping me, why is it this Like

579
00:30:16,040 --> 00:30:19,920
Speaker 1: one of my former bandmates basically I found out recently,

580
00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:22,600
Speaker 1: like they started spreading a rumor about me a little

581
00:30:22,640 --> 00:30:25,080
Speaker 1: bit ago that I didn't know about. And they're saying

582
00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:26,880
Speaker 1: that I tried to like get with them when they

583
00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:30,000
Speaker 1: were minor, which is absolutely not true. I never did that.

584
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:31,840
Speaker 1: They actually tried to come on to me and I

585
00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:34,840
Speaker 1: told them no, and they're like okay, But now like

586
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:38,400
Speaker 1: people are having this perception of me that's not true,

587
00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:41,080
Speaker 1: and I don't I don't know. It's like when I

588
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:43,280
Speaker 1: go places that I usually go, like I feel like

589
00:30:43,280 --> 00:30:45,840
Speaker 1: there's people who avoid me and like it's like, I

590
00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:48,120
Speaker 1: don't know, I don't know. It's hard because it's like

591
00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 1: the internet's such a scary place that anybody can say anything,

592
00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:53,320
Speaker 1: and like I didn't do that.

593
00:30:54,720 --> 00:31:09,800
Speaker 2: Mmm mmmmm, whoa. This is a lot, well it it

594
00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:13,120
Speaker 2: it it is, but it's I it is a lot.

595
00:31:13,200 --> 00:31:18,160
Speaker 2: But I'm i'm I'm, I'm. I'm enjoying thinking in my

596
00:31:18,280 --> 00:31:25,440
Speaker 2: head about how how you should navigate it because it's

597
00:31:25,520 --> 00:31:27,560
Speaker 2: it's well, it's fun for me because I have all

598
00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:30,480
Speaker 2: these whatever problems in my own life. This is, I guess,

599
00:31:30,240 --> 00:31:32,240
Speaker 2: the thesis of the podcast, But it's like I have

600
00:31:32,280 --> 00:31:35,000
Speaker 2: all these uh. I mean, maybe it's not the thesis

601
00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:36,920
Speaker 2: of the podcast, but it's one That's a thing about

602
00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:38,640
Speaker 2: it that I find interesting is because I have all

603
00:31:38,680 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 2: these ship going on in in in my life that

604
00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:44,360
Speaker 2: I don't think about from any kind of objective viewpoint

605
00:31:44,360 --> 00:31:48,280
Speaker 2: because I'm emotionally invested and I'm and I'm thinking about

606
00:31:48,320 --> 00:31:56,080
Speaker 2: all this you know, stuff going on in yours. Well,

607
00:31:56,120 --> 00:31:59,520
Speaker 2: I'll tell you. I'll tell you this. Uh, you used

608
00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:05,600
Speaker 2: to make a a creative person with good intentions, and

609
00:32:05,640 --> 00:32:13,640
Speaker 2: I think if you lean into that, you'll be okay.

610
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:18,000
Speaker 1: You know, I really appreciate that coming from you.

611
00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:22,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, find because I mean because all this, all this

612
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:24,760
Speaker 2: should of all this should of like, you know, we're

613
00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:28,400
Speaker 2: gonna do a DJ set in the backyard and I'm

614
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:32,480
Speaker 2: gonna you're you have the you have the entrepreneurial, creative

615
00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 2: mind to be able to think of of of ways

616
00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:40,600
Speaker 2: to improve your life on your own volition without having

617
00:32:40,680 --> 00:32:44,960
Speaker 2: to without trying to wait for someone or something else

618
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:49,120
Speaker 2: to come. You know, I think that's really within you,

619
00:32:49,160 --> 00:32:52,080
Speaker 2: and I think you should you should think more about that.

620
00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:53,680
Speaker 2: Do you know what I'm saying?

621
00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:56,680
Speaker 1: I think I need to go back onto social media

622
00:32:57,160 --> 00:32:59,440
Speaker 1: after my trip. I think I want to go on

623
00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:01,720
Speaker 1: the trip to some time and then make my return

624
00:33:01,760 --> 00:33:04,680
Speaker 1: because I have like my followers on there. They're really nice.

625
00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:08,880
Speaker 1: I just felt like too obligated, like I had to

626
00:33:08,920 --> 00:33:11,360
Speaker 1: reply to everybody and it was stressing me out, and like,

627
00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:13,240
Speaker 1: but I think I need to go back and just

628
00:33:13,320 --> 00:33:14,280
Speaker 1: put one.

629
00:33:14,480 --> 00:33:15,640
Speaker 2: You don't have to you know how many you know

630
00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:18,440
Speaker 2: how many missed you don't you don't have to respond

631
00:33:18,480 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 2: to anybody. You know how many missed calls I have

632
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:26,440
Speaker 2: right now on this line the other day? Yeah, fuck them,

633
00:33:27,240 --> 00:33:32,240
Speaker 2: fuck them, you know no, but they'll be happy, They'll

634
00:33:32,240 --> 00:33:33,240
Speaker 2: be happy to see you again.

635
00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:34,160
Speaker 3: Uh.

636
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:36,920
Speaker 2: And if it's if that, if that, and and social

637
00:33:36,920 --> 00:33:39,120
Speaker 2: media can be a it could be a cool ticket,

638
00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:42,520
Speaker 2: you know yeah, be a cool ticket to to to

639
00:33:42,800 --> 00:33:43,680
Speaker 2: exciting things.

640
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:47,239
Speaker 1: I want to do a podcast with my brother. We

641
00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:51,880
Speaker 1: want to call it Nolan Void.

642
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:57,960
Speaker 2: No listen, Well, hey, do you wanna someone? Uh someone

643
00:33:58,000 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 2: that you? Do you want to plug any music? Do

644
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:04,240
Speaker 2: you have any music on your on the internet?

645
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,760
Speaker 1: I do have my old bands music up, but I

646
00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:10,960
Speaker 1: would probably rather plug like my actual page because right

647
00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:13,200
Speaker 1: now I'm still working on getting in a new project,

648
00:34:13,280 --> 00:34:14,000
Speaker 1: like I said.

649
00:34:13,800 --> 00:34:16,239
Speaker 2: But you know, you can plug if you want. I

650
00:34:16,239 --> 00:34:18,160
Speaker 2: don't know if you want to doc yourself after talking

651
00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:22,279
Speaker 2: about you. If you want, you can plug ahead, that's fine.

652
00:34:22,320 --> 00:34:24,799
Speaker 2: I will. It's it's cool. Like sometimes somebody will like

653
00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:27,960
Speaker 2: plug an Instagram page on here or something, and then

654
00:34:28,040 --> 00:34:30,160
Speaker 2: I'll go to the Instagram page like a week after

655
00:34:30,160 --> 00:34:32,200
Speaker 2: the podcast is out, and I'll see all these people

656
00:34:32,239 --> 00:34:34,279
Speaker 2: be like I'm here from the Gecko and that I

657
00:34:34,360 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 2: like that.

658
00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:37,279
Speaker 1: Do you remember the guy who like talk to you

659
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:39,960
Speaker 1: about like he worked at a theme park and like

660
00:34:40,040 --> 00:34:41,520
Speaker 1: he like wore a dinosaur suit.

661
00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:43,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, he never plugged though.

662
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:47,040
Speaker 1: Mutuals on TikTok and like had a little conversation.

663
00:34:47,960 --> 00:34:51,240
Speaker 2: That's cool. Yeah, that's cool. You guys can bond over.

664
00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:57,000
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, go ahead.

665
00:34:57,400 --> 00:35:01,920
Speaker 1: But so right now I'm only on like Instagram TikTok

666
00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:06,600
Speaker 1: unfortunately mainly. But it's nolofy so it's like n U

667
00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 1: L L I S E y e, so like nolify

668
00:35:10,120 --> 00:35:12,319
Speaker 1: but with the word eyeball like like I in it.

669
00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:13,440
Speaker 1: If that makes sense.

670
00:35:14,440 --> 00:35:20,000
Speaker 2: Fuck, yeah, I think that makes sense. I don't know,

671
00:35:20,000 --> 00:35:23,600
Speaker 2: my brain doesn't work right now. But no, thanks for

672
00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:26,560
Speaker 2: thanks for calling I hope. Uh, thank you so much

673
00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:30,600
Speaker 2: for some way, shape or form. Uh do is there

674
00:35:30,600 --> 00:35:32,560
Speaker 2: anything else you want to say to the people of

675
00:35:32,600 --> 00:35:35,680
Speaker 2: the computer before we go, or anything else we didn't cover.

676
00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:41,480
Speaker 1: Give me five seconds to put my brain in thinking

677
00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:46,120
Speaker 1: most I guess I do have one question?

678
00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:46,880
Speaker 2: Do you have you do?

679
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:47,560
Speaker 3: You do? You? Do?

680
00:35:47,600 --> 00:35:51,080
Speaker 2: You have art on this Instagram?

681
00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:54,520
Speaker 1: So, God damn it, I changed my art Instagram.

682
00:35:54,520 --> 00:35:56,160
Speaker 2: It should be here? What is it? What is it again?

683
00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:57,319
Speaker 2: I'll look I'll look at it.

684
00:35:57,239 --> 00:36:00,880
Speaker 1: Now, Yeah, because I have to and once for my

685
00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:03,200
Speaker 1: visual art and then one was for the actual like

686
00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:06,919
Speaker 1: my profile. But I change the art one. I think, well,

687
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 1: do you want the art one or like my normal one?

688
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:12,320
Speaker 2: Whatever, whatever, whatever one you want to plug to the people.

689
00:36:13,680 --> 00:36:15,560
Speaker 1: Okay, I'll give you my normal one and then you

690
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:18,839
Speaker 1: guys can go from the link tree from there. So

691
00:36:18,920 --> 00:36:23,480
Speaker 1: it's n U L L I F E y E.

692
00:36:26,080 --> 00:36:28,239
Speaker 2: Oh okay, now I get it now that I'm seeing it,

693
00:36:29,239 --> 00:36:31,520
Speaker 2: there's an I Okay, there's enough.

694
00:36:31,560 --> 00:36:37,360
Speaker 1: I yeah. I think the art one is like nol

695
00:36:37,480 --> 00:36:39,879
Speaker 1: is online. I've been trying to figure out a better name.

696
00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:46,400
Speaker 2: Well, nol Oh, there was a thing you wanted to

697
00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:47,520
Speaker 2: ask me? Yeah, what's up?

698
00:36:47,960 --> 00:36:50,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, I just I guess, if anything, I just wanted

699
00:36:50,880 --> 00:36:52,920
Speaker 1: to ask, like, how do you feel like you deal

700
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:55,640
Speaker 1: with so many people perceiving you? Like, how do you

701
00:36:55,640 --> 00:36:58,960
Speaker 1: feel like you like just like remind yourself, like, okay,

702
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:01,440
Speaker 1: it's just me like doing this for like just me

703
00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:02,280
Speaker 1: as a creative.

704
00:37:03,840 --> 00:37:06,080
Speaker 2: Uh well, I don't really feel I don't really feel

705
00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:10,160
Speaker 2: or internalize the idea that that alone, there's a fucking

706
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:14,480
Speaker 2: dog barking really loudly right now that's attracting me. I

707
00:37:14,480 --> 00:37:16,680
Speaker 2: don't really I don't really feel that. I don't really

708
00:37:16,719 --> 00:37:18,840
Speaker 2: feel as though I'm being perceived for lots of reasons.

709
00:37:18,880 --> 00:37:23,360
Speaker 2: One is obviously, uh, you know, I have this costume

710
00:37:24,080 --> 00:37:29,759
Speaker 2: that yeah, separate. Maybe I need a costume, Yeah, I mean,

711
00:37:29,840 --> 00:37:33,400
Speaker 2: yeah what you maybe maybe maybe what metaphorically whatever whatever

712
00:37:33,440 --> 00:37:36,279
Speaker 2: your geck costume is, whether it's like you know, you

713
00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:42,439
Speaker 2: have a some uh you perform under some alternative name

714
00:37:42,560 --> 00:37:44,279
Speaker 2: or in some costume or some shit like that. But

715
00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:48,759
Speaker 2: uh yeah, one, well well there's that. And then I

716
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:52,200
Speaker 2: also just like I no, no, I don't feel I

717
00:37:52,239 --> 00:37:57,560
Speaker 2: don't feel none of it feels really real. Like I've

718
00:37:57,600 --> 00:37:59,800
Speaker 2: just I posted a fucking picture of an almond on

719
00:37:59,920 --> 00:38:03,000
Speaker 2: my Instagram and it gotten thirty and thirty thousand people

720
00:38:03,880 --> 00:38:06,680
Speaker 2: liked it, and it doesn't and it just feels it

721
00:38:06,719 --> 00:38:09,880
Speaker 2: doesn't feel like, oh, these are thirty thousand real people.

722
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:16,239
Speaker 2: Even when I'm on a stage, I don't feel very

723
00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:19,560
Speaker 2: perceived and I'm always and I'm just like whatever, if

724
00:38:19,560 --> 00:38:24,960
Speaker 2: all these people like, you know, I'm really appreciated. I'm

725
00:38:24,960 --> 00:38:27,680
Speaker 2: really appreciative that that they're sticking around and that they're

726
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:30,279
Speaker 2: listening to the podcast and that they're they're into what

727
00:38:30,360 --> 00:38:37,319
Speaker 2: I'm doing. But I don't, I don't know, feel famous

728
00:38:37,440 --> 00:38:42,200
Speaker 2: or or anything like that. And also I'm trying. Like

729
00:38:42,239 --> 00:38:44,480
Speaker 2: I said earlier, actually I don't know if I said

730
00:38:44,480 --> 00:38:45,879
Speaker 2: it to you or if I said it to somebody else,

731
00:38:45,880 --> 00:38:51,439
Speaker 2: but I really don't. If I suck or people think

732
00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:55,239
Speaker 2: I'm cringey or or whatever, it's like they're only thinking

733
00:38:55,280 --> 00:39:01,520
Speaker 2: about me for like a second. You know. Here's the

734
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:03,600
Speaker 2: thing is if it's is if you is if people

735
00:39:03,600 --> 00:39:05,440
Speaker 2: are thinking about you because you suck, They're only going

736
00:39:05,520 --> 00:39:08,400
Speaker 2: to be thinking about you for like a second and

737
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:11,239
Speaker 2: then they're gonna move on with their day. And if

738
00:39:11,239 --> 00:39:14,360
Speaker 2: people are thinking about you because they like you, go

739
00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:17,680
Speaker 2: to the store, that's fine. But what I'm just trying,

740
00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:19,520
Speaker 2: I'm just kind of trying to do my own thing

741
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:21,759
Speaker 2: and live my own life and figure out how I

742
00:39:21,840 --> 00:39:28,520
Speaker 2: can not be a fat loser guy, you know. And

743
00:39:28,560 --> 00:39:30,880
Speaker 2: that has nothing to do with how anyone perceives me.

744
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:35,200
Speaker 2: That's just that's how I perceive myself, you know, not

745
00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:37,120
Speaker 2: that I perceive my well, I perceived myself as a

746
00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:41,400
Speaker 2: fat loser guy plenty uh plenty of times, but uh,

747
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:44,799
Speaker 2: you know that's that's that's the perception that I care about.

748
00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,080
Speaker 2: How do I perceive myself.

749
00:39:46,080 --> 00:39:47,799
Speaker 1: Well, You're an awesome little guy.

750
00:39:49,120 --> 00:39:51,719
Speaker 2: Thanks man, Thanks man, I appreciate that.

751
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:55,960
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for talking and like I really

752
00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:58,880
Speaker 1: appreciate your podcast me and a lot of other people

753
00:39:58,920 --> 00:39:59,520
Speaker 1: to our day.

754
00:39:59,719 --> 00:40:05,560
Speaker 2: So thanks Man music, and go check out No.

755
00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:07,839
Speaker 1: One.

756
00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:10,040
Speaker 2: Really quick question, Sure man, what's.

757
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:13,239
Speaker 1: I wanted to Basically, I've been kind of thinking of

758
00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:15,799
Speaker 1: like one day, like not as like my main thing,

759
00:40:15,920 --> 00:40:17,960
Speaker 1: but kind of like going live and maybe see people

760
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:19,680
Speaker 1: want to, like I don't know, skype and just call

761
00:40:19,719 --> 00:40:21,359
Speaker 1: and talk about whatever. But I was like, I don't

762
00:40:21,360 --> 00:40:24,000
Speaker 1: want to be stealing like therapy Gecko's thing at all.

763
00:40:24,120 --> 00:40:28,920
Speaker 2: But okay, hold on, hold on, Okay, it's full. We

764
00:40:29,440 --> 00:40:34,080
Speaker 2: just talked to a guy about this. Really, Yeah, there's

765
00:40:34,880 --> 00:40:38,399
Speaker 2: somebody called in. Somebody called in this stream and talked

766
00:40:38,400 --> 00:40:42,319
Speaker 2: about it. I did not event the call in show.

767
00:40:42,480 --> 00:40:46,680
Speaker 2: So yeah, you can go ahead and you can skype people.

768
00:40:46,840 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 2: I mean you can do you can skype people in

769
00:40:49,320 --> 00:40:52,080
Speaker 2: a Gecko costume. I don't give a fuck if you go, Like,

770
00:40:52,080 --> 00:40:52,760
Speaker 2: the last thing.

771
00:40:52,640 --> 00:40:54,560
Speaker 1: I want to do is have beef with therapy, get.

772
00:40:54,440 --> 00:40:57,120
Speaker 2: Go, go, go crazy. Do you do, do whatever you

773
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:00,920
Speaker 2: want to do. I have no influence for the decisions

774
00:41:00,960 --> 00:41:05,799
Speaker 2: you make in your life at all. Yeah, good people. Well,

775
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:09,200
Speaker 2: people have been doing call in shows forever, so it's

776
00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:11,239
Speaker 2: always I always find it's so funny when I'll like

777
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:13,719
Speaker 2: get messages or dms or whatever and being like, do

778
00:41:13,960 --> 00:41:15,359
Speaker 2: is it okay if I do a call and show,

779
00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:18,520
Speaker 2: I'm like, dude, I they've been doing call in shows

780
00:41:18,520 --> 00:41:22,520
Speaker 2: since like the eighties, Like, this is not my intellectual property.

781
00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:31,839
Speaker 2: Have fun with your life, Noel, go do stuff, Go

782
00:41:32,840 --> 00:41:36,040
Speaker 2: have go watch Info Wars with your mom. That sounds

783
00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:37,000
Speaker 2: actually kind of fun.

784
00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:40,080
Speaker 1: I'm good. I'm gonna go return my library book and

785
00:41:40,120 --> 00:41:42,759
Speaker 1: get the other ones that I checked out. That's where

786
00:41:42,760 --> 00:41:46,120
Speaker 1: I want to start, Hey, have a good night call,

787
00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:49,120
Speaker 1: take care to fye.

788
00:41:51,120 --> 00:41:52,719
Speaker 2: That was cool. I like talking to her. That's a

789
00:41:52,760 --> 00:41:54,759
Speaker 2: tough situation. I don't know what to do about. There's

790
00:41:54,760 --> 00:41:57,279
Speaker 2: a lot of that's a tough one, right because you

791
00:41:57,320 --> 00:42:00,640
Speaker 2: care about your mom. But I I you, you can't

792
00:42:00,719 --> 00:42:07,800
Speaker 2: let it stop you from ah doing you know, living

793
00:42:07,800 --> 00:42:15,160
Speaker 2: your own life. Uh yeah, good, good, good call. I

794
00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:18,719
Speaker 2: hope she hopes she figures out what's going on with her.

795
00:42:19,239 --> 00:42:21,800
Speaker 2: It's fun. I was talking about it. It's like interesting

796
00:42:22,200 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 2: talking to other people about like all the shit going

797
00:42:24,120 --> 00:42:29,279
Speaker 2: on with them and their lives. It's it takes me

798
00:42:29,320 --> 00:42:30,440
Speaker 2: out of it takes me out of my own it

799
00:42:30,480 --> 00:42:33,560
Speaker 2: takes i'm, i'm. It's like that. I was on the

800
00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:35,560
Speaker 2: phone with her for forty minutes, and then that forty

801
00:42:35,560 --> 00:42:39,400
Speaker 2: minutes I was like in my head thinking about like

802
00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:42,359
Speaker 2: how does how does? How can she figure this shit out?

803
00:42:42,880 --> 00:42:46,000
Speaker 2: And you know, it's a fun forty minutes because I

804
00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:50,480
Speaker 2: I The next uh uh twenty three hours of my

805
00:42:50,520 --> 00:42:52,040
Speaker 2: life are going to be me thinking about my own

806
00:42:52,640 --> 00:42:58,200
Speaker 2: problems and how I can make millions of dollars from

807
00:42:58,280 --> 00:43:02,880
Speaker 2: home to fly my friends just see me. That sounds cool.

808
00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:08,080
Speaker 2: I want to do that too. Thanks for calling Noel.

809
00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:15,680
Speaker 2: Go and you know what, try, if you ever try,

810
00:43:15,960 --> 00:43:21,440
Speaker 2: try eating a chicken sandwich sometime. You've earned it. I

811
00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:24,520
Speaker 2: know you're trying to save the planet. I know you're

812
00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:29,239
Speaker 2: trying to be nice, but if you have never had

813
00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:34,319
Speaker 2: a chick filed chicken sandwich, treat yourself. You earned it,

814
00:43:35,840 --> 00:43:40,080
Speaker 2: all right, folks. This ends the phone call portion of

815
00:43:40,160 --> 00:43:49,319
Speaker 2: the podcast and begins a transportation to the streets of Manchester, England. Yes,

816
00:43:49,400 --> 00:43:53,719
Speaker 2: I was in Manchester, England, which is a god I

817
00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:58,400
Speaker 2: want to say, north of London in England. I was

818
00:43:58,440 --> 00:44:01,800
Speaker 2: there over the summer to do a live show there,

819
00:44:02,280 --> 00:44:04,120
Speaker 2: and while I was there, I did a bunch of

820
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:07,680
Speaker 2: street interviews with people in Manchester. A lot of you

821
00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:11,200
Speaker 2: don't live in Manchester, and you live in I don't know,

822
00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:16,799
Speaker 2: Australia or America, or you live in a place that's

823
00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:20,719
Speaker 2: not Manchester. So here's a cool opportunity, right, here's a

824
00:44:20,760 --> 00:44:27,560
Speaker 2: cool opportunity to talk vicariously through me to two people

825
00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 2: who live in a place that you've never been to

826
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:33,440
Speaker 2: and hear what their life is like and what they

827
00:44:33,480 --> 00:44:37,920
Speaker 2: have to say. So consider it a cool It's like

828
00:44:37,920 --> 00:44:41,520
Speaker 2: you're traveling but you don't even have to move anywhere,

829
00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:43,680
Speaker 2: unless if you're listening to this in your car, in

830
00:44:43,719 --> 00:44:47,560
Speaker 2: which case you are moving. All right, let us transport

831
00:44:47,880 --> 00:44:53,680
Speaker 2: to the streets of Manchester, England to talk to some people,

832
00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:57,359
Speaker 2: not on the phone, to talk to them in real life.

833
00:44:57,960 --> 00:45:02,880
Speaker 2: All right, Yeah, Hello, what's your name? My name's Poppy,

834
00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:04,040
Speaker 2: poppyness to meet you.

835
00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:05,080
Speaker 3: Nice to meet you too.

836
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:05,719
Speaker 2: Life.

837
00:45:06,239 --> 00:45:09,280
Speaker 3: It's all right, it's not too bad, okay at the moment.

838
00:45:09,360 --> 00:45:12,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, what's making it? Uh? What's this? Is that a

839
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:14,120
Speaker 2: clown or a robot on your necklace?

840
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:14,920
Speaker 3: It is a clown?

841
00:45:15,160 --> 00:45:18,280
Speaker 2: I like that. That's cool. Man. Do you like clowns?

842
00:45:18,640 --> 00:45:19,800
Speaker 2: What do you like about clowns?

843
00:45:20,200 --> 00:45:23,080
Speaker 3: I don't know. They're just fun. They're happy, but they're

844
00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:26,080
Speaker 3: weird and colorful. I have a collection of like vintage

845
00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:28,320
Speaker 3: clown dolls, which a lot of people think is weird.

846
00:45:28,840 --> 00:45:31,000
Speaker 3: Now it's I I am certain one of them is

847
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:33,240
Speaker 3: going to kill me. It has the little like twist

848
00:45:33,280 --> 00:45:35,680
Speaker 3: on the back, and it moves and it plays a

849
00:45:35,719 --> 00:45:38,160
Speaker 3: song and it plays small world, you know, from like

850
00:45:38,160 --> 00:45:39,719
Speaker 3: the Disney ride. It's a small world.

851
00:45:40,080 --> 00:45:41,080
Speaker 2: It's very creepy.

852
00:45:41,120 --> 00:45:43,399
Speaker 3: It is very creepy, and I'm certain at one point,

853
00:45:43,480 --> 00:45:44,319
Speaker 3: it's going to kill me.

854
00:45:44,600 --> 00:45:46,719
Speaker 2: As somebody who's a fan of clowns. Would it not

855
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:48,240
Speaker 2: be an honor to be killed by one?

856
00:45:48,360 --> 00:45:50,480
Speaker 3: It would, to be honest. That's why I keep it.

857
00:45:50,560 --> 00:45:52,480
Speaker 3: They're all like in my bedroom on a shelf.

858
00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:53,880
Speaker 2: How do you feel like Ronald McDonald?

859
00:45:55,320 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 3: He's okay. He seems a little bit predatory for a clowns,

860
00:46:02,960 --> 00:46:08,160
Speaker 3: that's true. He is, so he's like a four out

861
00:46:08,160 --> 00:46:10,480
Speaker 3: of ten. I like his color scheme, the red and yellow.

862
00:46:10,920 --> 00:46:12,160
Speaker 3: It's a good look.

863
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:18,600
Speaker 2: But top three clowns ooh, I.

864
00:46:18,520 --> 00:46:22,160
Speaker 3: Don't know, like specific clowns. I mean, Pennywise definitely has

865
00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:24,120
Speaker 3: to be up there. He'd probably be like number three.

866
00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:28,280
Speaker 3: Number one would have to be Art, the clown from

867
00:46:28,400 --> 00:46:32,600
Speaker 3: the Terrifier. He is like a black and white Piero

868
00:46:32,760 --> 00:46:36,560
Speaker 3: French clown, but he's terrifying and murders people viciously.

869
00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:40,120
Speaker 2: I just thought I couldn't think of three clowns.

870
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:43,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, neither can I. I can definitely think of those two,

871
00:46:43,840 --> 00:46:47,360
Speaker 3: but there's not many like well known clowns.

872
00:46:48,160 --> 00:46:50,880
Speaker 2: I have a friend. She loves clowns, and she is

873
00:46:50,920 --> 00:46:54,759
Speaker 2: a I think she doesn't like when people say that

874
00:46:54,800 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 2: clowns are creepy.

875
00:46:56,480 --> 00:47:00,120
Speaker 3: Oh, I fully agree that they're creepy. Okay, But but

876
00:47:00,480 --> 00:47:04,880
Speaker 3: I'm a big fan of like creepy things. I like

877
00:47:04,920 --> 00:47:07,759
Speaker 3: a lot of horror. I like the idea of like

878
00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:09,719
Speaker 3: the unknown, the idea.

879
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:11,560
Speaker 2: Of the unknown. What is it that appeals to you

880
00:47:11,600 --> 00:47:13,280
Speaker 2: about the unknown and horror?

881
00:47:14,200 --> 00:47:18,080
Speaker 3: I don't know. I've always been like, very fascinated by death.

882
00:47:18,239 --> 00:47:21,680
Speaker 3: Not like death itself, but like what happens afterwards.

883
00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:22,279
Speaker 2: What do you think?

884
00:47:23,320 --> 00:47:25,960
Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't necessarily believe in heaven or hell.

885
00:47:26,560 --> 00:47:30,479
Speaker 3: I possibly believe in reincarnation. Maybe I think that would

886
00:47:30,520 --> 00:47:36,000
Speaker 3: be quite cool. Ghosts very possibly. I mean, I don't know,

887
00:47:36,080 --> 00:47:37,680
Speaker 3: but that no one can prove if they do or

888
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:42,240
Speaker 3: don't exist. Same as like religion, it's all about belief.

889
00:47:44,480 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 2: If you had the choice, what would you be reincarnated as?

890
00:47:49,440 --> 00:47:53,680
Speaker 3: That is a good question. I feel like a sloth.

891
00:47:54,560 --> 00:47:55,840
Speaker 3: I'd enjoy being a sloth.

892
00:47:56,000 --> 00:47:57,120
Speaker 2: A sloth? Why a sloth?

893
00:47:57,920 --> 00:48:01,480
Speaker 3: They just have a very chilled life, and they're cute.

894
00:48:01,560 --> 00:48:04,200
Speaker 3: They just hang on branches. They're just the vi.

895
00:48:04,640 --> 00:48:06,640
Speaker 2: You're a fan of creepy things, Yeah, have you ever

896
00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:07,560
Speaker 2: seen a wet sloth?

897
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:09,520
Speaker 3: I've not seen a wet sloth.

898
00:48:09,640 --> 00:48:13,359
Speaker 2: Go home, go to googlele type wet sloth. Okay, they

899
00:48:13,920 --> 00:48:18,600
Speaker 2: look they look like monsters that are trying to haunch it.

900
00:48:18,680 --> 00:48:20,760
Speaker 3: I will, I will check out some wet sloths.

901
00:48:21,160 --> 00:48:23,800
Speaker 2: What do you do for a living At.

902
00:48:23,640 --> 00:48:27,920
Speaker 3: The moment, I work in retail, but I recently got

903
00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:30,720
Speaker 3: a job working in like fashion.

904
00:48:30,800 --> 00:48:31,399
Speaker 2: Okay, sick?

905
00:48:31,520 --> 00:48:31,920
Speaker 3: Yeah?

906
00:48:32,040 --> 00:48:32,560
Speaker 2: What uh?

907
00:48:33,400 --> 00:48:33,560
Speaker 3: Now?

908
00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:37,160
Speaker 2: In retail? M M, do you encounter a lot of

909
00:48:37,160 --> 00:48:37,880
Speaker 2: crazy people?

910
00:48:39,880 --> 00:48:44,040
Speaker 3: Not necessarily crazy people. There are definitely some strange people.

911
00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:48,320
Speaker 3: I work in a shoe shop, so not the weirdest

912
00:48:48,360 --> 00:48:51,960
Speaker 3: of people, but there are definitely some strange people I've

913
00:48:52,040 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 3: encountered working in retail.

914
00:48:54,239 --> 00:48:56,360
Speaker 2: Do you have any stories of anything that was like

915
00:48:57,360 --> 00:49:02,680
Speaker 2: unruly that happened to you or anything like that unruly?

916
00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:06,319
Speaker 3: Not necessarily, But there's this one woman who's come in

917
00:49:06,480 --> 00:49:12,880
Speaker 3: quite frequently, and this was like my first week or

918
00:49:12,960 --> 00:49:15,520
Speaker 3: like first couple weeks on the job, and they essentially

919
00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 3: call it initiation if she comes in, the rest of

920
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:20,960
Speaker 3: the stuff, like the two other stuff who were working

921
00:49:21,080 --> 00:49:24,359
Speaker 3: left the shop and like they went out back just

922
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:26,000
Speaker 3: so I was the only one on the shop floor

923
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:28,520
Speaker 3: with her to talk to her. And she tells everyone

924
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:30,840
Speaker 3: about how her father always put her in shoes that

925
00:49:30,880 --> 00:49:34,800
Speaker 3: were too small for her, and it gave her really wide,

926
00:49:35,080 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 3: like short feet because they didn't grow properly. And she

927
00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:42,880
Speaker 3: only has specific shoes she can wear. And she previously

928
00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:47,719
Speaker 3: told one of my coworkers that her like speaking to

929
00:49:47,840 --> 00:49:51,680
Speaker 3: her was hurting her breast cancer. Bearing in mind my

930
00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:54,520
Speaker 3: coworker had gone through breast cancer and had a misectomy,

931
00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:58,439
Speaker 3: and because she was being loud, this woman turned around

932
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:00,680
Speaker 3: and went, excuse me, can you be quiet? You're hurting

933
00:50:00,719 --> 00:50:05,280
Speaker 3: my breast cancer. So she's just an odd lady.

934
00:50:04,760 --> 00:50:10,080
Speaker 2: Is there any scientific basis to that where being loud

935
00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:11,400
Speaker 2: causes cancer?

936
00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:18,160
Speaker 3: No, there is no scientific data to say that is accurate.

937
00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:19,879
Speaker 2: What's this job in fashion that you have.

938
00:50:20,800 --> 00:50:26,360
Speaker 3: It's fashion buying, so for like a big corporation, working

939
00:50:26,520 --> 00:50:32,000
Speaker 3: for like a website where eventually, like I have a

940
00:50:32,040 --> 00:50:34,960
Speaker 3: say in like what we buy in terms of design,

941
00:50:35,000 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 3: and then they get sent over to suppliers to then

942
00:50:37,920 --> 00:50:40,640
Speaker 3: like be mass produced for the online retailer.

943
00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:44,360
Speaker 2: Speaking of fashion, I like the shoes, the crocs, the

944
00:50:44,440 --> 00:50:50,000
Speaker 2: cross the care bears are on them. Yes, when you

945
00:50:50,040 --> 00:50:53,000
Speaker 2: were a little kid, what was your dream?

946
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:55,560
Speaker 3: My dream was to be a fashion designer.

947
00:50:55,800 --> 00:50:58,440
Speaker 2: So your dreams came true pretty much. Yeah, do you

948
00:50:58,440 --> 00:51:00,880
Speaker 2: feel that way? Do you feel excited all.

949
00:51:00,520 --> 00:51:03,839
Speaker 3: The Definitely feel excited. I graduated two years ago and

950
00:51:03,880 --> 00:51:05,799
Speaker 3: it took me two years to try and get a

951
00:51:06,040 --> 00:51:10,600
Speaker 3: job in my degree. I went through university during COVID,

952
00:51:11,320 --> 00:51:14,680
Speaker 3: so it was rough being on a practical course during COVID,

953
00:51:14,719 --> 00:51:16,160
Speaker 3: definitely on.

954
00:51:16,080 --> 00:51:18,279
Speaker 2: A practical course By practical course, that means like something

955
00:51:18,280 --> 00:51:20,640
Speaker 2: where you're like in a place doing stuff. Yeah, and

956
00:51:20,680 --> 00:51:22,320
Speaker 2: the COVID as the whole you can't be in a

957
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:25,000
Speaker 2: place doing stuff, Yeah, very much so.

958
00:51:25,000 --> 00:51:28,680
Speaker 3: So I did a course in footwear and Accessories design,

959
00:51:29,360 --> 00:51:34,319
Speaker 3: so like designing and making shoes, and obviously I had

960
00:51:34,440 --> 00:51:36,719
Speaker 3: none of the access to any of the machinery. So

961
00:51:38,239 --> 00:51:41,760
Speaker 3: COVID definitely messed up my university degree.

962
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:46,080
Speaker 2: I'd say, what do you do outside of fashion and clowns?

963
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:52,640
Speaker 3: I enjoy hiking. I go on a lot of walks.

964
00:51:52,680 --> 00:51:54,760
Speaker 3: I like just adventuring in nature.

965
00:51:55,719 --> 00:51:58,360
Speaker 2: Do you like living in Manchester?

966
00:51:58,960 --> 00:52:00,840
Speaker 3: I do, Yeah, It's one of my favorite cities in

967
00:52:00,880 --> 00:52:03,080
Speaker 3: the UK. I tend to find the north of the

968
00:52:03,200 --> 00:52:06,960
Speaker 3: UK is a lot more friendly than the south. Up north,

969
00:52:07,000 --> 00:52:09,440
Speaker 3: a lot of people will just happily talk to anyone,

970
00:52:09,840 --> 00:52:12,080
Speaker 3: and like if you cross people in the street, you

971
00:52:12,160 --> 00:52:15,600
Speaker 3: smile at them. Down South, everyone just sort of looks

972
00:52:15,640 --> 00:52:17,640
Speaker 3: straight ahead where they're going. No one talks to anyone.

973
00:52:19,080 --> 00:52:21,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, people here have been pretty friendly so far. But

974
00:52:22,320 --> 00:52:24,840
Speaker 2: as I'm going through Europe, I'm going I'm going down South.

975
00:52:25,120 --> 00:52:28,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, so people will get a lost less friendly. The

976
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:30,080
Speaker 3: closer to London you get.

977
00:52:30,000 --> 00:52:31,680
Speaker 2: Really okay, I'm going to London after this.

978
00:52:31,880 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean London. There's plenty of friendly people in London,

979
00:52:35,120 --> 00:52:40,840
Speaker 3: but the South is a lot less, Like they're the

980
00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:41,840
Speaker 3: stiff off p lips.

981
00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:47,360
Speaker 2: Hey, what do you think about all day? About what?

982
00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:50,160
Speaker 2: Just in general, like as you walk the streets or

983
00:52:50,680 --> 00:52:54,440
Speaker 2: fold clothes, or you know, are watching a movie or

984
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:56,880
Speaker 2: walking through the street, Like, what do you think about?

985
00:52:58,080 --> 00:53:02,640
Speaker 3: Not a lot usually where I'm going and I don't

986
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:04,880
Speaker 3: think about much when I'm going from A to B.

987
00:53:05,760 --> 00:53:06,919
Speaker 3: Just how to get back.

988
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:10,040
Speaker 2: That's gonna be. That's that sounds awesome. I think that's

989
00:53:10,080 --> 00:53:12,839
Speaker 2: the happiest human being can be. I mean I mean

990
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:15,200
Speaker 2: that with full sincerity, because if you if you mean

991
00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:17,759
Speaker 2: what you're telling me right now, that means that as

992
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:20,680
Speaker 2: you walk around, you were you were in the moment yeah,

993
00:53:20,800 --> 00:53:21,520
Speaker 2: you're in the moment.

994
00:53:21,680 --> 00:53:27,879
Speaker 3: I just look around, admired scenery, take in my surroundings.

995
00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:30,000
Speaker 3: But pretty much I'm just thinking of how to get

996
00:53:30,040 --> 00:53:30,520
Speaker 3: from A to B.

997
00:53:30,960 --> 00:53:34,160
Speaker 2: Are you happy, I'd say I'm fairly happy in life.

998
00:53:34,520 --> 00:53:35,040
Speaker 2: That's great.

999
00:53:35,200 --> 00:53:36,440
Speaker 3: I'm definitely doing better.

1000
00:53:38,000 --> 00:53:40,120
Speaker 2: What's what's making you be doing better?

1001
00:53:41,760 --> 00:53:48,279
Speaker 3: I couldn't tell you. Just you know, medication really yeah,

1002
00:53:48,320 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 3: you know I was good.

1003
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:51,040
Speaker 2: I was I'm gonna tell you this, I was gonna

1004
00:53:51,040 --> 00:53:52,080
Speaker 2: start doing medication.

1005
00:53:52,640 --> 00:53:57,920
Speaker 3: But I was like, ah, I genuinely recommend medication. Okay,

1006
00:53:58,080 --> 00:54:00,760
Speaker 3: I've been medicated for the last three years.

1007
00:54:01,120 --> 00:54:04,200
Speaker 2: You don't have to answer this question. But what Yeah,

1008
00:54:04,239 --> 00:54:05,840
Speaker 2: you don't have to answer, But what are you on?

1009
00:54:06,920 --> 00:54:10,879
Speaker 3: I am on a medication called venol vaccine venyl facts. Yeah,

1010
00:54:13,080 --> 00:54:15,360
Speaker 3: it's a bit of an odd one, like it's a

1011
00:54:15,480 --> 00:54:19,120
Speaker 3: twice a day one. I tried about three others before that,

1012
00:54:19,320 --> 00:54:20,520
Speaker 3: which none of them worked.

1013
00:54:20,560 --> 00:54:23,520
Speaker 2: Do you have a try let me think, do you

1014
00:54:23,520 --> 00:54:24,360
Speaker 2: ever do Lexapro?

1015
00:54:26,000 --> 00:54:29,160
Speaker 3: I believe that is a brand in America. In the

1016
00:54:29,239 --> 00:54:31,400
Speaker 3: UK it's called something different, and I think it might

1017
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:36,200
Speaker 3: be called Certral in the UK. That one worked for

1018
00:54:36,239 --> 00:54:39,440
Speaker 3: a while and then when they upped my dose. It

1019
00:54:39,480 --> 00:54:42,160
Speaker 3: was like the other end of the spectrum. I was manic.

1020
00:54:42,239 --> 00:54:46,080
Speaker 3: I could have stayed awake for seventy two hours completely

1021
00:54:46,080 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 3: did like a one eighty. So I was like, I

1022
00:54:51,160 --> 00:54:53,360
Speaker 3: like sleep, So I'm gonna stop taking these.

1023
00:54:53,640 --> 00:54:56,239
Speaker 2: You know how they say they think of your happy place, right?

1024
00:54:57,040 --> 00:54:59,240
Speaker 2: Is your happy place a haunted house?

1025
00:55:01,239 --> 00:55:01,680
Speaker 3: Probably?

1026
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:02,120
Speaker 2: Yes?

1027
00:55:03,280 --> 00:55:06,200
Speaker 3: I've been to haunted houses and like with groups of friends,

1028
00:55:06,560 --> 00:55:09,200
Speaker 3: I'm either always the one that they put first or

1029
00:55:09,239 --> 00:55:11,320
Speaker 3: the one that they put at the back because people

1030
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:11,920
Speaker 3: will chase me.

1031
00:55:12,480 --> 00:55:14,799
Speaker 2: See I could. I don't know how I would find

1032
00:55:14,800 --> 00:55:18,560
Speaker 2: a haunted house in the UK because all the ghosts

1033
00:55:18,600 --> 00:55:20,919
Speaker 2: would have British accents, which would make it a little

1034
00:55:20,920 --> 00:55:21,600
Speaker 2: bit funnier.

1035
00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:26,960
Speaker 3: That is true, there are a lot of British accents,

1036
00:55:26,960 --> 00:55:29,000
Speaker 3: but I suppose it depends where in the UK you go.

1037
00:55:29,600 --> 00:55:32,319
Speaker 3: There are accents all over, and some of them are

1038
00:55:32,360 --> 00:55:35,080
Speaker 3: quite scary. I would not like to be chased by

1039
00:55:35,080 --> 00:55:35,840
Speaker 3: a scouse ghost.

1040
00:55:36,880 --> 00:55:37,920
Speaker 2: What's a scouse ghost?

1041
00:55:38,920 --> 00:55:40,000
Speaker 3: A ghost from Liverpool?

1042
00:55:40,080 --> 00:55:44,319
Speaker 2: Oh? A ghost from Liverpool? Yeah, your mate, that was

1043
00:55:44,400 --> 00:55:45,440
Speaker 2: nothing like Liverpool.

1044
00:55:46,200 --> 00:55:48,520
Speaker 3: It's got a lot of like hack to it.

1045
00:55:48,640 --> 00:55:52,640
Speaker 2: I haunt your mate. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

1046
00:55:53,960 --> 00:55:58,360
Speaker 3: It's more like ah, I'm from Liverpool.

1047
00:55:59,080 --> 00:56:00,759
Speaker 2: What are you talking about?

1048
00:56:01,120 --> 00:56:02,440
Speaker 3: That was Australian.

1049
00:56:04,239 --> 00:56:06,480
Speaker 2: Can you do an impression of a ghost from Liverpool

1050
00:56:06,600 --> 00:56:11,160
Speaker 2: about to haunt somebody?

1051
00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:15,759
Speaker 3: What the fuck are you doing in my house? I'll

1052
00:56:15,760 --> 00:56:19,560
Speaker 3: smack your eyebrows off, all.

1053
00:56:19,520 --> 00:56:21,560
Speaker 2: Right, I gotta go to a fucking British haunted house.

1054
00:56:21,719 --> 00:56:23,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, there you go. That's all you need.

1055
00:56:24,000 --> 00:56:26,560
Speaker 2: What's your name again, Poppy? Poppy? Is there anything else

1056
00:56:26,560 --> 00:56:28,080
Speaker 2: you want to say to the people of the computer

1057
00:56:28,160 --> 00:56:28,759
Speaker 2: before we go?

1058
00:56:30,800 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 3: I would like to say, just like, live life how

1059
00:56:34,120 --> 00:56:37,480
Speaker 3: you want to. Don't let other people tell you how

1060
00:56:37,520 --> 00:56:38,640
Speaker 3: to live your life.

1061
00:56:38,760 --> 00:56:42,680
Speaker 2: Oh, what's your ultimate dream?

1062
00:56:42,719 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 3: Honestly, I don't really have like an ultimate dream. I'd

1063
00:56:46,520 --> 00:56:48,640
Speaker 3: like to go to Japan. That's probably the biggest one.

1064
00:56:48,800 --> 00:56:50,279
Speaker 2: Okay, well I just talked to a guy who went

1065
00:56:50,320 --> 00:56:54,680
Speaker 2: to Japan. If he can do it into Japan, I

1066
00:56:54,719 --> 00:56:56,839
Speaker 2: believe you've been to Japan, said, you've.

1067
00:56:56,760 --> 00:56:57,560
Speaker 3: Also been to Japan.

1068
00:56:58,400 --> 00:56:59,919
Speaker 2: Oh, so you've seen me on the computer before?

1069
00:57:00,040 --> 00:57:01,040
Speaker 3: Yes, I do know who you are.

1070
00:57:01,120 --> 00:57:08,280
Speaker 2: Okay, Sometimes people I'm like it's because I've had people

1071
00:57:08,320 --> 00:57:10,480
Speaker 2: come up to me and be like, yo, dude, I

1072
00:57:10,520 --> 00:57:12,920
Speaker 2: love what you're doing. Man, I'm a huge fan. Can

1073
00:57:12,960 --> 00:57:14,440
Speaker 2: we get a picture, and then we take a picture

1074
00:57:14,440 --> 00:57:16,080
Speaker 2: and then on their way out there. Like, by the way,

1075
00:57:16,120 --> 00:57:17,600
Speaker 2: I love that turtle costume.

1076
00:57:20,640 --> 00:57:21,920
Speaker 3: I mean you don't even have a shell.

1077
00:57:23,240 --> 00:57:24,440
Speaker 2: I could see this as a turtle.

1078
00:57:26,760 --> 00:57:31,360
Speaker 3: No, gecko's more of a lizard. Turtles a different type

1079
00:57:31,400 --> 00:57:33,480
Speaker 3: of reptilian entirely, I believe.

1080
00:57:34,400 --> 00:57:35,680
Speaker 2: Thanks for talking to a gecko, Poppy.

1081
00:57:35,680 --> 00:57:36,360
Speaker 3: You're very welcome.

1082
00:57:36,880 --> 00:57:39,760
Speaker 2: I'll see you around the universe. What's your name, Charlie, Charlie,

1083
00:57:39,840 --> 00:57:42,200
Speaker 2: Nice to meet you. What's going on in life?

1084
00:57:42,640 --> 00:57:45,120
Speaker 4: My life has not been great. I'm not gonna lie good.

1085
00:57:45,400 --> 00:57:48,440
Speaker 4: So my cat got fleas.

1086
00:57:48,320 --> 00:57:51,040
Speaker 5: Right a couple months back, and we thought we got

1087
00:57:51,120 --> 00:57:53,880
Speaker 5: rid of them, but we didn't, so we had to

1088
00:57:53,880 --> 00:57:56,920
Speaker 5: get an exterminator in and now we're living out of

1089
00:57:56,920 --> 00:58:00,920
Speaker 5: the hotel and it's just not really fun.

1090
00:58:01,120 --> 00:58:04,360
Speaker 2: Oh, your Sweet Life is Zach and Cody Literally Yeah, yeah.

1091
00:58:04,240 --> 00:58:06,360
Speaker 4: I love that show. Yeah, it's just it's not fun.

1092
00:58:06,440 --> 00:58:06,920
Speaker 4: It's not fun.

1093
00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:10,680
Speaker 5: I don't know how to like smile about it. Any

1094
00:58:10,720 --> 00:58:11,480
Speaker 5: advice missed the.

1095
00:58:11,880 --> 00:58:16,200
Speaker 2: Oh about living in a hotel? Well ship, dude, Here's

1096
00:58:16,200 --> 00:58:17,880
Speaker 2: what I would do. I would watch every episode of

1097
00:58:17,880 --> 00:58:20,360
Speaker 2: Sweet Life AzaC and Cody and just recreate what they're doing.

1098
00:58:20,560 --> 00:58:22,600
Speaker 2: Because if you see Zack and Cody seem like they're

1099
00:58:22,600 --> 00:58:25,040
Speaker 2: having a great time, Like do that get one of

1100
00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:29,440
Speaker 2: those bell hop fucking things and skateboard through the hallways,

1101
00:58:30,240 --> 00:58:33,120
Speaker 2: cause some mischief by crawling through the air vents and stuff.

1102
00:58:33,160 --> 00:58:35,120
Speaker 2: But actually I heard air vents in real life are

1103
00:58:35,400 --> 00:58:39,520
Speaker 2: fucked up. But embrace it. Just the hotel of a

1104
00:58:39,520 --> 00:58:43,280
Speaker 2: pool it is, but it's closed. But I feel like

1105
00:58:43,320 --> 00:58:45,960
Speaker 2: that's a mischief. You guys sneak into the hotel exactly?

1106
00:58:46,080 --> 00:58:49,520
Speaker 2: We maybe wear a disguise to get past the guard.

1107
00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:50,720
Speaker 4: Should I put like a mustache?

1108
00:58:50,760 --> 00:58:56,560
Speaker 2: One mustache? There's so much potential for misadventures in your situation,

1109
00:58:56,720 --> 00:58:58,000
Speaker 2: and you got to pick up on that.

1110
00:58:58,320 --> 00:58:59,800
Speaker 4: You're so right, man, You're so right.

1111
00:59:00,200 --> 00:59:04,320
Speaker 5: I mean it just I don't feel like I am

1112
00:59:04,320 --> 00:59:07,000
Speaker 5: feeling very inspired to do much mischief though.

1113
00:59:07,040 --> 00:59:09,000
Speaker 2: Are you in this hotel by yourself, with your family,

1114
00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:10,080
Speaker 2: with my girlfriend there?

1115
00:59:10,160 --> 00:59:10,240
Speaker 1: Oh?

1116
00:59:10,240 --> 00:59:13,680
Speaker 2: Okay? Rock and roll? Rock and roll? And is she

1117
00:59:13,760 --> 00:59:20,600
Speaker 2: feeling good about it? So?

1118
00:59:20,640 --> 00:59:21,000
Speaker 3: What do you?

1119
00:59:21,040 --> 00:59:22,120
Speaker 2: What do you do? What's your job?

1120
00:59:22,440 --> 00:59:23,439
Speaker 4: I'm a security guard?

1121
00:59:23,560 --> 00:59:24,480
Speaker 2: Your security guard?

1122
00:59:24,760 --> 00:59:24,960
Speaker 1: Man?

1123
00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:26,360
Speaker 2: What are you secure?

1124
00:59:27,000 --> 00:59:30,040
Speaker 5: We do like events and concerts and stuff. So I

1125
00:59:30,120 --> 00:59:33,840
Speaker 5: do the Albert Hall on Peter Street. Lots of gigs

1126
00:59:33,880 --> 00:59:35,520
Speaker 5: and concerts and that type of thing.

1127
00:59:35,800 --> 00:59:37,080
Speaker 4: I really I really enjoy it.

1128
00:59:37,120 --> 00:59:40,800
Speaker 2: You're like on the front line of crazy drunk.

1129
00:59:40,880 --> 00:59:44,360
Speaker 5: Yes, yeah, yeah, and like the ship that some people

1130
00:59:44,360 --> 00:59:46,400
Speaker 5: come out with. I mean, I was at a festival

1131
00:59:46,440 --> 00:59:49,080
Speaker 5: working this weekend and this guy he looks at me

1132
00:59:49,120 --> 00:59:52,040
Speaker 5: and he's like, is that a security announcement that my

1133
00:59:52,120 --> 00:59:52,840
Speaker 5: mom's come in?

1134
00:59:53,240 --> 00:59:55,240
Speaker 4: And I'm like, what are you on about?

1135
00:59:55,240 --> 00:59:55,400
Speaker 2: Man?

1136
00:59:55,440 --> 00:59:57,919
Speaker 4: And he's looking at the lights like is she coming?

1137
00:59:58,160 --> 01:00:00,800
Speaker 5: Like my mum is on the way, And I'm like, bro,

1138
01:00:01,280 --> 01:00:03,080
Speaker 5: unless you rang it, like you're fine, you know.

1139
01:00:03,480 --> 01:00:07,440
Speaker 2: Wait, he thought that the entire building made an announcement

1140
01:00:07,600 --> 01:00:09,600
Speaker 2: to say that his mom was there to pick him up.

1141
01:00:09,640 --> 01:00:11,000
Speaker 4: That's how much he was tripping.

1142
01:00:11,120 --> 01:00:12,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's kind of sweet.

1143
01:00:12,920 --> 01:00:15,240
Speaker 4: Actually, I wish I was on his level, like at

1144
01:00:15,240 --> 01:00:16,000
Speaker 4: that moment in time.

1145
01:00:16,360 --> 01:00:18,600
Speaker 2: Have you ever had to kick someone out so many times?

1146
01:00:19,280 --> 01:00:20,520
Speaker 2: Have you ever had to kick someone out and they

1147
01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:21,400
Speaker 2: just won't fucking.

1148
01:00:21,120 --> 01:00:23,680
Speaker 4: Go all the time? All the time.

1149
01:00:23,720 --> 01:00:27,160
Speaker 5: One time, this forty five year old woman forty five,

1150
01:00:27,640 --> 01:00:29,959
Speaker 5: she didn't want to leave, so then she like tried

1151
01:00:29,960 --> 01:00:31,880
Speaker 5: to get me on the floor and then she bit

1152
01:00:32,040 --> 01:00:34,840
Speaker 5: me holy crack, like a forty five year old woman

1153
01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:35,520
Speaker 5: bit me.

1154
01:00:35,840 --> 01:00:38,400
Speaker 4: It was quite it was quite like, it was quite humbling.

1155
01:00:38,600 --> 01:00:40,160
Speaker 2: Were you worried that when you woke up in the

1156
01:00:40,200 --> 01:00:42,240
Speaker 2: morning you would turn into a forty five year old woman.

1157
01:00:42,320 --> 01:00:43,640
Speaker 4: I kind of hoped I would not.

1158
01:00:43,680 --> 01:00:47,560
Speaker 5: Gonna lie, seems pretty sweet, you know, but I just

1159
01:00:47,600 --> 01:00:49,720
Speaker 5: wish she gave me some powers, like like a spider

1160
01:00:49,760 --> 01:00:50,560
Speaker 5: man bite or something.

1161
01:00:51,120 --> 01:00:54,000
Speaker 2: You know, what was she did she like? Did you

1162
01:00:54,040 --> 01:00:55,480
Speaker 2: have to like take her to the police or you

1163
01:00:55,520 --> 01:00:56,240
Speaker 2: just let her go?

1164
01:00:56,440 --> 01:00:57,520
Speaker 4: I mean I just let her go.

1165
01:00:57,680 --> 01:00:59,960
Speaker 5: I mean they always say, well, if you want to

1166
01:01:00,040 --> 01:01:04,080
Speaker 5: press charges, you can, but it'll take forever. So so

1167
01:01:04,120 --> 01:01:05,240
Speaker 5: I've just I've just fucked up.

1168
01:01:05,280 --> 01:01:06,080
Speaker 4: Sorry, benned it off.

1169
01:01:06,200 --> 01:01:07,800
Speaker 2: You can say, you can say I don't know why

1170
01:01:07,960 --> 01:01:09,880
Speaker 2: people I don't know why people think they can't curse

1171
01:01:09,920 --> 01:01:12,240
Speaker 2: on here. You can say any of you can say cunt.

1172
01:01:12,680 --> 01:01:16,040
Speaker 4: Can I just ask real quick? Are you the real Gecko?

1173
01:01:16,720 --> 01:01:16,800
Speaker 2: Like?

1174
01:01:17,520 --> 01:01:19,560
Speaker 4: Is there your Gecko?

1175
01:01:20,200 --> 01:01:21,000
Speaker 2: What does that mean?

1176
01:01:21,280 --> 01:01:23,680
Speaker 4: Like? You know, I've seen you everywhere and.

1177
01:01:23,760 --> 01:01:26,960
Speaker 2: You the you, the one, the true game, unless I

1178
01:01:26,960 --> 01:01:31,800
Speaker 2: don't think there was another. That's so gecko dude on

1179
01:01:31,800 --> 01:01:32,240
Speaker 2: the computer.

1180
01:01:32,280 --> 01:01:34,280
Speaker 4: I didn't realize how much I needed to see you today?

1181
01:01:34,320 --> 01:01:37,600
Speaker 2: Man? Honestly, well, man, I mean, can you like I

1182
01:01:37,600 --> 01:01:40,959
Speaker 2: got a question for you? All right, all these people

1183
01:01:41,000 --> 01:01:43,600
Speaker 2: around us right now, Let's say they fucking bum rushed me,

1184
01:01:43,680 --> 01:01:46,720
Speaker 2: tried to stab me. Could you would you secure me?

1185
01:01:47,160 --> 01:01:47,440
Speaker 4: Fuck?

1186
01:01:47,880 --> 01:01:54,000
Speaker 5: Yes, I would, honestly, Yeah, come on, I mean honestly,

1187
01:01:54,320 --> 01:01:55,600
Speaker 5: you wouldn't even see me do it?

1188
01:01:55,680 --> 01:01:56,640
Speaker 4: That's how good I am.

1189
01:01:56,680 --> 01:02:02,080
Speaker 2: Bro Okay, what's your ultimate dream in life?

1190
01:02:02,800 --> 01:02:05,320
Speaker 4: Okay, you're gonna laugh at me to be a fucking

1191
01:02:05,560 --> 01:02:06,600
Speaker 4: m I five spy.

1192
01:02:07,480 --> 01:02:09,040
Speaker 2: Well, you're already doing security.

1193
01:02:09,480 --> 01:02:11,160
Speaker 4: I'm figuring I've got a good way in there.

1194
01:02:11,200 --> 01:02:12,800
Speaker 2: You know, you could be the You could be like

1195
01:02:12,880 --> 01:02:14,040
Speaker 2: James Bond exactly.

1196
01:02:15,400 --> 01:02:19,040
Speaker 4: What's a female version of James Jane Jane Bond? Bond

1197
01:02:19,240 --> 01:02:20,080
Speaker 4: does not have the same ring.

1198
01:02:20,120 --> 01:02:23,040
Speaker 2: What's your name again, Charlie, Charlie Bond.

1199
01:02:22,800 --> 01:02:24,960
Speaker 4: Charlie Bond. I think I think we can make that word.

1200
01:02:25,080 --> 01:02:27,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, So you want to be it's super spy.

1201
01:02:28,000 --> 01:02:29,520
Speaker 2: What kind of spy activities do you want to be doing?

1202
01:02:29,560 --> 01:02:31,440
Speaker 2: Do you want to be spying on? Who are the

1203
01:02:31,520 --> 01:02:37,840
Speaker 2: UK's enemies? Uh, the Russians? And how are we are we?

1204
01:02:37,960 --> 01:02:40,520
Speaker 2: Chill of the US and we're good.

1205
01:02:40,600 --> 01:02:41,919
Speaker 4: We're good and you we're good.

1206
01:02:41,960 --> 01:02:44,280
Speaker 2: Well, I was talking about are the US and UK

1207
01:02:44,400 --> 01:02:44,919
Speaker 2: are they chill?

1208
01:02:46,080 --> 01:02:46,440
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1209
01:02:46,560 --> 01:02:50,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, hey, let me ask your question. Go on what

1210
01:02:51,200 --> 01:02:51,840
Speaker 2: you're British?

1211
01:02:52,120 --> 01:02:52,360
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1212
01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:54,000
Speaker 2: What do the Brits think of Americans?

1213
01:02:56,080 --> 01:02:56,880
Speaker 3: Uh?

1214
01:02:57,440 --> 01:03:02,080
Speaker 4: Well, we actually all think that you're a kind of silly,

1215
01:03:02,640 --> 01:03:02,800
Speaker 4: do you.

1216
01:03:02,840 --> 01:03:03,360
Speaker 3: Know what I mean?

1217
01:03:03,360 --> 01:03:05,919
Speaker 4: Because like you pay for healthcare? What is that?

1218
01:03:06,160 --> 01:03:08,440
Speaker 2: Every single person, by the way, did the way that

1219
01:03:08,480 --> 01:03:11,280
Speaker 2: your face recoiled and like looked down for a second.

1220
01:03:11,480 --> 01:03:13,800
Speaker 2: Everybody's face does that every time I asked them that question.

1221
01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:16,120
Speaker 2: I'm sorry you not to be sorry. It's funny.

1222
01:03:16,160 --> 01:03:18,840
Speaker 4: Did you hear about the whole Chinese food thing on Twitter?

1223
01:03:19,040 --> 01:03:19,840
Speaker 2: Chinese food thing?

1224
01:03:19,960 --> 01:03:23,960
Speaker 5: So Americans were like, you call this Chinese food, Brits,

1225
01:03:24,040 --> 01:03:24,880
Speaker 5: what are you on about?

1226
01:03:24,880 --> 01:03:26,840
Speaker 4: This isn't Chinese food. It's just slop?

1227
01:03:27,240 --> 01:03:30,560
Speaker 5: And how are you guys telling us what's food? When

1228
01:03:30,600 --> 01:03:31,760
Speaker 5: you eat cheese out of a can?

1229
01:03:32,040 --> 01:03:33,840
Speaker 2: People have told me you guys don't have cheese out

1230
01:03:33,840 --> 01:03:35,840
Speaker 2: of a can here, No we don't. I've been looking

1231
01:03:35,840 --> 01:03:37,080
Speaker 2: on all over the grocery store for it.

1232
01:03:37,720 --> 01:03:40,520
Speaker 4: We have proper cheese, I said. It was seemed great,

1233
01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:41,560
Speaker 4: like actual cheese.

1234
01:03:41,640 --> 01:03:41,920
Speaker 3: Round there.

1235
01:03:43,920 --> 01:03:47,640
Speaker 2: The thing is people like I think it's a thing

1236
01:03:47,840 --> 01:03:51,080
Speaker 2: that people say that the food in Britain sucks.

1237
01:03:52,360 --> 01:03:53,720
Speaker 4: It's not. It's not the best.

1238
01:03:53,840 --> 01:03:56,320
Speaker 5: Like everything else, every good food we have has come

1239
01:03:56,320 --> 01:03:58,800
Speaker 5: from somewhere else, like Indian, Chinese.

1240
01:04:00,080 --> 01:04:02,480
Speaker 2: I mean that's a lot of places is in America.

1241
01:04:02,520 --> 01:04:04,800
Speaker 2: I can't think of like a like American food.

1242
01:04:04,920 --> 01:04:07,080
Speaker 5: Have you had any like traditional British food since you've

1243
01:04:07,120 --> 01:04:07,439
Speaker 5: been there?

1244
01:04:07,480 --> 01:04:10,080
Speaker 2: I had a British breakfast. How was it they put

1245
01:04:10,080 --> 01:04:11,720
Speaker 2: all these like I was just like, let me, I'll

1246
01:04:11,720 --> 01:04:13,880
Speaker 2: get the British I'll get the British breakfast. And I'm

1247
01:04:13,880 --> 01:04:15,600
Speaker 2: seeing all these items on my plate that I have

1248
01:04:15,760 --> 01:04:18,200
Speaker 2: never seen before in my life, and they all taste

1249
01:04:18,240 --> 01:04:19,880
Speaker 2: like some weird different version of potatoes.

1250
01:04:19,880 --> 01:04:21,840
Speaker 4: Have you tried black pudding? Yeah, pudding?

1251
01:04:21,880 --> 01:04:23,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, I have tried black pudding. Was little gross?

1252
01:04:24,000 --> 01:04:28,240
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's like everything yeah a yeah.

1253
01:04:28,600 --> 01:04:32,080
Speaker 2: So uh hmm, okay, So you guys think that we're

1254
01:04:32,120 --> 01:04:34,360
Speaker 2: a bit silly. Definitely, Why what do you think it

1255
01:04:34,400 --> 01:04:35,240
Speaker 2: is silly about us?

1256
01:04:35,440 --> 01:04:35,840
Speaker 4: Iraq?

1257
01:04:36,600 --> 01:04:41,520
Speaker 2: Okay say that again?

1258
01:04:41,600 --> 01:04:47,160
Speaker 5: And no roundabouts? You have blocks instead of cul de sacs.

1259
01:04:46,840 --> 01:04:49,040
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, cul de sacs.

1260
01:04:49,080 --> 01:04:52,200
Speaker 5: Going on like oh yeah, I live ten blocks away? Like,

1261
01:04:52,360 --> 01:04:54,040
Speaker 5: what does that mean? It's a block a mile?

1262
01:04:55,280 --> 01:04:58,440
Speaker 2: I think a block is like like a city's okay,

1263
01:04:58,640 --> 01:05:00,840
Speaker 2: by the way, I don't I for a long time

1264
01:05:00,880 --> 01:05:03,440
Speaker 2: I didn't know what a block okay, but I don't judge.

1265
01:05:03,480 --> 01:05:05,040
Speaker 2: I don't know what a lot of stuff is, So

1266
01:05:05,160 --> 01:05:07,160
Speaker 2: a block I think, Like so if a city's on

1267
01:05:07,200 --> 01:05:11,320
Speaker 2: a grid, I think a block is like one little

1268
01:05:11,480 --> 01:05:13,880
Speaker 2: block on the grid. So I could say you're walking

1269
01:05:13,960 --> 01:05:19,440
Speaker 2: down Manhattan and there's like you're on First Street, like

1270
01:05:19,520 --> 01:05:21,600
Speaker 2: two blocks down would be Third Street.

1271
01:05:23,040 --> 01:05:25,560
Speaker 5: That makes more sense than I'd like to admit, to

1272
01:05:25,600 --> 01:05:27,120
Speaker 5: be honest, that actually does.

1273
01:05:27,200 --> 01:05:29,080
Speaker 2: All right? What other myth? What other myths? What other

1274
01:05:29,160 --> 01:05:31,520
Speaker 2: myths can I dispel? How can I defend the America today?

1275
01:05:31,800 --> 01:05:35,400
Speaker 4: And you're all pussies when it comes to drinking.

1276
01:05:43,360 --> 01:05:49,520
Speaker 2: I'm trying to think, I'm trying. I'm trying to think, Well, people,

1277
01:05:49,680 --> 01:05:53,680
Speaker 2: people in the UK, Scotland, Ireland here are are they're

1278
01:05:53,680 --> 01:05:54,400
Speaker 2: bigger drinkers?

1279
01:05:54,440 --> 01:05:57,440
Speaker 5: Yeah, pretty much alcoholics. But we don't see it like that.

1280
01:05:57,560 --> 01:06:00,880
Speaker 2: You know, you guys don't trust. Do you guys have frats? Frats?

1281
01:06:01,000 --> 01:06:03,080
Speaker 5: No, I've always wanted to go to a frat party,

1282
01:06:03,200 --> 01:06:04,720
Speaker 5: but they don't exist there.

1283
01:06:05,240 --> 01:06:08,320
Speaker 2: Well, the frats do a lot of They represent a

1284
01:06:08,320 --> 01:06:11,840
Speaker 2: big I would say probably pie chart of the piece

1285
01:06:11,880 --> 01:06:14,040
Speaker 2: of the pie of the American drinking culture.

1286
01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:17,640
Speaker 5: Is it like super super intense, like just what you

1287
01:06:17,680 --> 01:06:19,160
Speaker 5: see on films and stuff?

1288
01:06:19,200 --> 01:06:21,480
Speaker 4: You know, is it twenty two Jump Street?

1289
01:06:22,080 --> 01:06:23,960
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, it's twenty one Jump Street? I think. So.

1290
01:06:24,320 --> 01:06:27,040
Speaker 2: I was in a frat for like half a second

1291
01:06:27,040 --> 01:06:28,439
Speaker 2: and I was like, I don't want to do this.

1292
01:06:28,880 --> 01:06:31,680
Speaker 2: Is it like friends who were, and they.

1293
01:06:31,280 --> 01:06:33,840
Speaker 4: Yeah, you have to do an initiation and stuff.

1294
01:06:33,920 --> 01:06:36,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, you have to fuck a goat.

1295
01:06:36,920 --> 01:06:39,479
Speaker 4: Well, our PM, our old prime minister, like fucked a pig.

1296
01:06:40,520 --> 01:06:41,480
Speaker 2: That was black mirror.

1297
01:06:41,800 --> 01:06:42,320
Speaker 4: It was real.

1298
01:06:42,360 --> 01:06:43,160
Speaker 2: It was based onf.

1299
01:06:44,160 --> 01:06:47,160
Speaker 4: Do you guys know that David Cameron thing where.

1300
01:06:47,960 --> 01:06:50,840
Speaker 2: Wait wait this guy wait, that wasn't just a black mirror.

1301
01:06:52,400 --> 01:06:54,480
Speaker 5: He was in like a I guess, a British frat

1302
01:06:54,520 --> 01:06:57,080
Speaker 5: in like a really you only have frats in like

1303
01:06:57,160 --> 01:07:00,840
Speaker 5: posh schools, right, and he joined one and they were like, oh,

1304
01:07:01,080 --> 01:07:03,960
Speaker 5: to be in this frat of like mega rich people,

1305
01:07:04,320 --> 01:07:06,640
Speaker 5: you have to, like I think it was burn a

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01:07:06,680 --> 01:07:09,400
Speaker 5: twenty pound note in front of a homeless person and

1307
01:07:09,440 --> 01:07:12,080
Speaker 5: then put your penis inside.

1308
01:07:11,720 --> 01:07:12,400
Speaker 4: Of pig's mouth.

1309
01:07:13,440 --> 01:07:14,480
Speaker 2: So he did both of those.

1310
01:07:15,320 --> 01:07:19,720
Speaker 4: Well, he got in, so I'm assuming so, but he doesn't.

1311
01:07:19,520 --> 01:07:21,760
Speaker 2: Learn a lot about classic British traditions.

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01:07:23,000 --> 01:07:24,840
Speaker 4: I would never do that. I would never do that.

1313
01:07:25,160 --> 01:07:27,160
Speaker 2: What do you think about all day as you walk

1314
01:07:27,200 --> 01:07:27,920
Speaker 2: the streets?

1315
01:07:28,120 --> 01:07:28,440
Speaker 4: Weed?

1316
01:07:29,200 --> 01:07:29,520
Speaker 2: Weed?

1317
01:07:29,680 --> 01:07:30,000
Speaker 4: Weed?

1318
01:07:30,400 --> 01:07:33,040
Speaker 2: Weed's like illegal here, so illegal you can't do it.

1319
01:07:33,040 --> 01:07:36,160
Speaker 2: It's so ubin to California, No do you there's like

1320
01:07:36,200 --> 01:07:38,600
Speaker 2: fucking apple stores or you can buy weed?

1321
01:07:38,680 --> 01:07:40,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, don't you need like a medical card or something?

1322
01:07:40,920 --> 01:07:42,080
Speaker 2: In a lot of places you do, But in a

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01:07:42,120 --> 01:07:43,040
Speaker 2: lot of places you don't.

1324
01:07:43,240 --> 01:07:46,520
Speaker 5: Nice nice because I'm like one thing off getting a

1325
01:07:46,720 --> 01:07:47,640
Speaker 5: legal prescription?

1326
01:07:47,880 --> 01:07:49,240
Speaker 2: Can you get a legal prescription here?

1327
01:07:49,840 --> 01:07:50,400
Speaker 4: Technically?

1328
01:07:50,440 --> 01:07:53,080
Speaker 5: But it's like really complicated. You have to have tried

1329
01:07:53,120 --> 01:07:56,760
Speaker 5: two different legal medications and then if they don't work

1330
01:07:56,800 --> 01:07:59,640
Speaker 5: for you, then you can get a legal prescription. But

1331
01:07:59,760 --> 01:08:00,720
Speaker 5: it's it's not very known.

1332
01:08:00,840 --> 01:08:01,720
Speaker 2: Are you high right now?

1333
01:08:02,680 --> 01:08:04,800
Speaker 5: I'm on one prescription? So one more to goo when

1334
01:08:04,800 --> 01:08:05,439
Speaker 5: I'm nearly there?

1335
01:08:06,960 --> 01:08:10,360
Speaker 2: Hm, Do you have any questions for me before we go?

1336
01:08:12,360 --> 01:08:13,600
Speaker 4: How are you warm right now?

1337
01:08:15,160 --> 01:08:16,920
Speaker 2: I feel great? That's all I say.

1338
01:08:17,000 --> 01:08:17,840
Speaker 4: That's all I wanted to ham.

1339
01:08:18,080 --> 01:08:19,960
Speaker 2: What's your name again? Charlie. Charlie, is there anything else

1340
01:08:19,960 --> 01:08:21,120
Speaker 2: you want to say to the people of the computer

1341
01:08:21,160 --> 01:08:21,640
Speaker 2: before we go?

1342
01:08:22,240 --> 01:08:24,400
Speaker 4: I wanted I never thought this would happen.

1343
01:08:25,040 --> 01:08:30,120
Speaker 2: Fucking yes, fucking yes, that's it. Yes, I like it.

1344
01:08:30,640 --> 01:08:31,400
Speaker 4: Thank you so much.

1345
01:08:31,439 --> 01:08:34,200
Speaker 2: I need you, Charlie. I appreciate it. And that ends

1346
01:08:34,520 --> 01:08:38,920
Speaker 2: the podcast. This has been Therapy Gecko, I have been Lyle.

1347
01:08:39,000 --> 01:08:41,720
Speaker 2: If you liked those Manchester interviews, and or if you

1348
01:08:41,920 --> 01:08:43,960
Speaker 2: just like the I R L interviews in general and

1349
01:08:44,000 --> 01:08:45,600
Speaker 2: you want to see what these people look like and

1350
01:08:45,640 --> 01:08:47,800
Speaker 2: you want to hear the rest of the interviews that

1351
01:08:47,840 --> 01:08:50,800
Speaker 2: I did in Manchester, you can go to therapy no

1352
01:08:51,000 --> 01:08:54,879
Speaker 2: shit fuck. You can go to YouTube dot com slash

1353
01:08:55,000 --> 01:09:00,599
Speaker 2: Lyle forever and you can find the video. The video

1354
01:09:00,640 --> 01:09:04,040
Speaker 2: should be called being a Gecko in Manchester and it'll

1355
01:09:04,040 --> 01:09:06,160
Speaker 2: be up by the time this podcast is up, So

1356
01:09:06,520 --> 01:09:11,080
Speaker 2: go check that out. The audio on these intros sound shitty,

1357
01:09:11,680 --> 01:09:14,800
Speaker 2: because I don't. I'm just recording them with the voice

1358
01:09:14,840 --> 01:09:18,400
Speaker 2: memos on my iPhone. Normally I record with a like

1359
01:09:18,439 --> 01:09:20,880
Speaker 2: a blue Yetti microphone, but this is just my shitty

1360
01:09:21,280 --> 01:09:24,360
Speaker 2: phone microphone. And you know what is funny is I

1361
01:09:24,439 --> 01:09:28,320
Speaker 2: could get my real microphone, but it's upstairs, and I'm

1362
01:09:28,400 --> 01:09:32,280
Speaker 2: in a basement in my parents' house right now, and

1363
01:09:32,320 --> 01:09:34,760
Speaker 2: I don't want to go upstairs. I'm just gonna do

1364
01:09:34,800 --> 01:09:37,280
Speaker 2: and this I don't even think this part of the part.

1365
01:09:37,320 --> 01:09:39,559
Speaker 2: This is the very end. So fucking who even cares

1366
01:09:39,600 --> 01:09:43,960
Speaker 2: if this sounds good or not. This is the end

1367
01:09:43,960 --> 01:09:46,320
Speaker 2: of the podcast. Nobody's even going to be listening to

1368
01:09:46,360 --> 01:09:50,360
Speaker 2: this rant that I'm doing right now, and there's nothing

1369
01:09:50,600 --> 01:09:54,800
Speaker 2: beyond this rant. There's no content after this. So this

1370
01:09:55,080 --> 01:09:59,160
Speaker 2: minute and twenty three seconds that I'm recording into a

1371
01:09:59,240 --> 01:10:02,600
Speaker 2: phone right now that's gonna sound shitty isn't gonna be

1372
01:10:02,840 --> 01:10:10,000
Speaker 2: relevant to anyone's life or matter at all. So it's

1373
01:10:10,040 --> 01:10:14,960
Speaker 2: not worth it to me to go upstairs and get

1374
01:10:15,760 --> 01:10:19,439
Speaker 2: the good microphone. Actually, I'm lying to you, you know what,

1375
01:10:19,520 --> 01:10:21,880
Speaker 2: I'm lying to you. The microphone is not upstairs. It's

1376
01:10:21,880 --> 01:10:25,360
Speaker 2: in my car. But that doesn't fucking matter. So I

1377
01:10:25,479 --> 01:10:28,040
Speaker 2: just lied and said it was upstairs because it's up

1378
01:10:28,200 --> 01:10:30,840
Speaker 2: Whether it's upstairs or in my car doesn't make a

1379
01:10:30,880 --> 01:10:35,760
Speaker 2: difference to anyone. So it's not like one of those

1380
01:10:35,800 --> 01:10:42,440
Speaker 2: lies that uh, you know, matters. I don't think anyone cares.

1381
01:10:43,720 --> 01:10:45,160
Speaker 2: I don't know does. I hope. I don't know if

1382
01:10:45,160 --> 01:10:48,439
Speaker 2: anyone cares about any stuff. Do you guys care about things?

1383
01:10:49,640 --> 01:10:54,320
Speaker 2: What do you? I care about a few things. I

1384
01:10:54,360 --> 01:10:56,599
Speaker 2: care about a few things. This has been two minutes

1385
01:10:56,640 --> 01:10:59,760
Speaker 2: and twenty five seconds. I haven't stopped talking. I might not.

1386
01:10:59,840 --> 01:11:01,760
Speaker 2: I'm I'm gonna go the full three minutes. All I

1387
01:11:01,760 --> 01:11:04,200
Speaker 2: have to do is talk for thirty more seconds and

1388
01:11:04,200 --> 01:11:07,719
Speaker 2: then this outro, which I don't mind being that long

1389
01:11:07,760 --> 01:11:11,479
Speaker 2: because there's nothing that this is. There's no content ahead

1390
01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:17,120
Speaker 2: of this that this long rambley outro is obstructing. So

1391
01:11:17,160 --> 01:11:22,439
Speaker 2: it's fine that it's long, and I'm gonna I'm gonna stop.

1392
01:11:22,680 --> 01:11:23,880
Speaker 2: I don't want to be I don't want to do

1393
01:11:23,920 --> 01:11:27,080
Speaker 2: this anymore, not the podcast as a whole. I would

1394
01:11:27,120 --> 01:11:29,240
Speaker 2: love to keep doing the podcast as a whole for

1395
01:11:29,360 --> 01:11:32,120
Speaker 2: many more years. But this intro, this, I know, this

1396
01:11:32,240 --> 01:11:38,160
Speaker 2: outro I'm gonna stop doing right now. Okay, thanks for

1397
01:11:38,200 --> 01:11:39,960
Speaker 2: listening to the podcast.

1398
01:11:40,960 --> 01:11:44,680
Speaker 4: Literally, Akad goes on the line, taking your phone calls.

1399
01:11:44,479 --> 01:11:47,920
Speaker 2: Every nine everly, Akad goes to and Who's.

1400
01:11:47,680 --> 01:11:48,519
Speaker 3: Teaching you Cloud?

1401
01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:52,120
Speaker 4: In the memorial line, an expert