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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 1: I'm Mila.
Speaker 2: Happy hump Day, Happy hump day people.
Speaker 1: What's everyone doing? How's everyone feeling? My back fucking hurts
Speaker 1: because I'm an old bitch. That's my song. Oh dautiful, Wow, bravo.
Speaker 1: I went to yoga class today for the first time
Speaker 1: in like a very long time, and I was trying
Speaker 1: to do way too much. I was really really pushing
Speaker 1: it with these white people. They were doing a lot
Speaker 1: of crazy shit and I was like, oh, I could
Speaker 1: do that.
Speaker 2: It was like a level seven class.
Speaker 1: Like it's like intermediate and it's heated, so they get
Speaker 1: you all warmed up and shit, and you'd be thinking
Speaker 1: you can do more than you can really do. That's me.
Speaker 1: So I was been at work all day. I was like, fuck, Like,
Speaker 1: what the fuck?
Speaker 3: Man?
Speaker 1: This is what thirty two feels like today.
Speaker 2: Erica asked me how old she was because she forgot
Speaker 2: for a moment I did.
Speaker 1: I literally genuinely forgot. I was hold at I was like,
Speaker 1: am I thirty one?
Speaker 2: I know, like thirty one, thirty one, thirty two, thirty
Speaker 2: it just all seems the same.
Speaker 1: I was at work and like one of the girls
Speaker 1: is like she just had her twenty sixth birthday, one
Speaker 1: of the girls that works for the brand, and she
Speaker 1: was like, oh, I feel like I'm on the other
Speaker 1: side of like the prime of my life. And I
Speaker 1: was like, bitcha, you don't shut the fuck up. I
Speaker 1: was kicked st I was like, I'm thirty two, so
Speaker 1: shut up. And I was like, actually, I feel better
Speaker 1: that than then. Like there was this other guy who
Speaker 1: was there. I was thirty two as well. He's like,
Speaker 1: if I can go back to any age, it would
Speaker 1: be twenty eight, twenty nine, And I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: twenty eight. Wasn't that actually start to realize? I did,
Speaker 1: But like, honestly, thirties, I'm really enjoying my thirties. Like
Speaker 1: I'm no, there's obviously I'm struggling all the time, but
Speaker 1: I don't. It's a different type of struggle. It's like
Speaker 1: this like extreme desire to just be to grow and
Speaker 1: be better, Whereas before I was just like what am
Speaker 1: I doing?
Speaker 3: What am I doing?
Speaker 1: What's having?
Speaker 3: What am I doing?
Speaker 2: Yeah, like you know, I am drowning.
Speaker 1: And I and I am still drowning. But I just
Speaker 1: feel like I have more of a trajectory, like I
Speaker 1: know where I'm going, where you're headed. Yeah, Whereas in
Speaker 1: my twenties, I did not have that fucking clue.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, it was just like hoping for something
Speaker 2: to happen, but you're not really sure what that is.
Speaker 1: And I was in a relationship most of my twenties.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what. In my twenties, I felt like
Speaker 2: I was in a relationship probably from like twenty five
Speaker 2: to twenty eight, twenty seven, twenty four to twenty seven,
Speaker 2: and like the beginning of my twenties, I was just
Speaker 2: sledting out so hard that I thought like, Okay, I
Speaker 2: need to be in a relationship to contain myself. That
Speaker 2: was my thought when I got into relationship. And then
Speaker 2: when I was in relationship, it felt like kind of
Speaker 2: normal and like because I wasn't sletting myself out, but
Speaker 2: also it was it became miserable.
Speaker 1: But it's good to be in a place for I
Speaker 1: know the.
Speaker 2: Life on both ends to be a controlled slut but
Speaker 2: not have somebody to tell you what to do. And
Speaker 2: also I feel like I know, like I'm more sure
Speaker 2: of myself. Even like before we started recording, me and
Speaker 2: Erica were talking about like two separate friends up occasions
Speaker 2: apologizing for things I said to us and we're like,
Speaker 2: I don't fucking think about that shit. And literally my
Speaker 2: friend last night I was telling her like how I
Speaker 2: want a business partner, and a partner like if we're
Speaker 2: not making money together, if you can't like mentor me,
Speaker 2: I don't really see it working. And she was like
Speaker 2: kind of arguing with me. And today she's like, I
Speaker 2: really apologize for like saying what I said. If it
Speaker 2: offended you, I said, girl, I.
Speaker 1: Know what I want, I know who I am.
Speaker 2: You can't offend me. That doesn't offend me. Like I
Speaker 2: just I think that's a part of the thirties, just
Speaker 2: knowing even in this space, what we're doing, Like I
Speaker 2: think I mean a lot of you know, I've always
Speaker 2: I'm always asked like, well, how do you make money
Speaker 2: doing that or what do you know? Like so it's
Speaker 2: about sweet smoking moms, like there's all. People may not
Speaker 2: get the picture, but I'm so sure of myself in
Speaker 2: this space in thirty one, that doesn't matter if you
Speaker 2: get the vision or not.
Speaker 1: Like I don't. I don't.
Speaker 2: I don't need I feel like I need people's reassurance less. Yeah,
Speaker 2: for sure, when I feel sexier, I feel like more
Speaker 2: better sexually. Speaking of that. Actually, also I recently like
Speaker 2: rekindled or like starting to hang out with a guy
Speaker 2: that I used to hang out with in my earlier twenties,
Speaker 2: and he has like a stocking fetish, and back then
Speaker 2: I remember like talking myself out of the situation, like
Speaker 2: what the fuck this is weird? He probably wants like
Speaker 2: it just honestly being judgmental even though I participated or whatever.
Speaker 1: But I of course you did.
Speaker 2: Of course I did. Even then I was, you know.
Speaker 2: But reconnecting with him now as like thirty one versus
Speaker 2: like twenty three years old, I'm like, I can I
Speaker 2: can better appreciate, I can better appreciate the kinks that
Speaker 2: he's older, he's established, you know. So it's like it is,
Speaker 2: you know, the thirties are a great place, and people
Speaker 2: told me that like for women, thirties you have your
Speaker 2: best sex, it's your best time. And I was panicking
Speaker 2: when I was twenty six to twenty seven souse. I'm like,
Speaker 2: I almost feel like.
Speaker 1: I went through an actual like I really could have been.
Speaker 1: You know, I was in a long term relationship, but
Speaker 1: I just I wasn't. I feel more sexual now than
Speaker 1: I did then. I think I had spurts of it,
Speaker 1: but I think because I am more secure in what
Speaker 1: I can provide sexually, and you know, I just feel like,
Speaker 1: I don't know, like I feel more assertive when it
Speaker 1: comes to it, So it feels more like for my
Speaker 1: pleasure and not just for his pleasure. And it is
Speaker 1: just for his pleasure. I'm not really that interested, but
Speaker 1: we're not doing it again. Yeah, sex for me has shifted.
Speaker 2: I'm doing it less to get like to prove myself
Speaker 2: or be wanted. It's just like, if I want to
Speaker 2: do it, I'll do it.
Speaker 1: I think there's still some of that.
Speaker 2: There is definitely some of that, and also like way
Speaker 2: to you see these moves, you're gonna love me. It's
Speaker 2: more that like, oh you'll think you like me.
Speaker 1: Now how about now, Oh right.
Speaker 2: You didn't know I could get better? There's that?
Speaker 1: Not about that sound yeah? No, I agree, that's so funny. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I really I definitely had so much sex for the
Speaker 1: pleasure of I mean, I got pleasure, but it was
Speaker 1: always like either I had to do it to myself
Speaker 1: or like it was just sometimes but it was I
Speaker 1: mean not I don't want like I had good sex
Speaker 1: in my twenties. I did, but I just feel like
Speaker 1: I am more now as a single woman. Really, Like
Speaker 1: that's my only concern.
Speaker 2: I had great sex in my in my with my
Speaker 2: baby daddy for like four straight years, which was a
Speaker 2: problem and a blessing was.
Speaker 4: Probably the reason you probably overstayed, oh for for sure.
Speaker 4: But other than that, like I had some good sex. No,
Speaker 4: I've had some good sex, but like mostly an unmememberable sex.
Speaker 1: Well, I think I had good sex too, but I
Speaker 1: think a lot of times too though, because you know,
Speaker 1: just like any relationship, you have your ups and downs,
Speaker 1: and ours A lot of it had to do with infidelity.
Speaker 1: I always felt like I had something to prove, like sexually,
Speaker 1: and so like it became a lot for his pleasure
Speaker 1: and because you thought like yeah, I think I'm doing
Speaker 1: and not because and he probably it's not even his fault,
Speaker 1: like he didn't even he had no idea, you know,
Speaker 1: he was sure, I'm sure focused on pleasing me too.
Speaker 1: But like for me, it was like, no, look what
Speaker 1: I can.
Speaker 2: Do right right? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Whereas now it's it's changed and I don't know it's
Speaker 1: I it's gonna be. It's interesting to think about, like
Speaker 1: when I do find like a boyfriend at some point
Speaker 1: in my life, like what sex is, what sex will
Speaker 1: be like for me? Then like because of because I
Speaker 1: don't look at it the same way all the time anymore,
Speaker 1: will I only be with Yeah, obviously I need to
Speaker 1: be with a man that is a pleaser. I don't know,
Speaker 1: it's a give and take.
Speaker 2: Well do you feel like, now as you've had more
Speaker 2: sex and you're in a different place, do you feel
Speaker 2: like you are capable of having a relationship that has
Speaker 2: all the other qualities and maybe sexes are right because
Speaker 2: you know how important those other qualities are.
Speaker 1: Or do you feel like.
Speaker 2: When you do the relationship, you know how important the
Speaker 2: sex is gonna like it's it's still cause I think
Speaker 2: I struggle. I'm struggling between the two, Like, cause I
Speaker 2: really I do need a sexual a super sexual attraction,
Speaker 2: someone who has high sex drive, someone who's like wants
Speaker 2: to like be spontaneous. Like these are all really important.
Speaker 2: Like it's that it's large or do you think like
Speaker 2: as you get older those things become less important.
Speaker 1: I think as we get older, we're told those things
Speaker 1: are supposed to get less important. And that's the problem, Okay,
Speaker 1: Like I think because if you haven't found your partner yet,
Speaker 1: it's easy to give advice like subtle. Yeah, like if
Speaker 1: you haven't found your partner yet that you that that
Speaker 1: possesses that quality that you need, but maybe has possessed
Speaker 1: other things and you know you've you've walked away from
Speaker 1: that or whatever, like then people will say that, and
Speaker 1: like people say that to me all the time. But
Speaker 1: for me, I feel like I've had you know, I've
Speaker 1: come to the realization even after my last relationship.
Speaker 5: Too.
Speaker 1: It's like the things that I will compromise and the
Speaker 1: things I won't compromise, you know. And one of those
Speaker 1: things is like having a partner that's like super sexually
Speaker 1: open to explore and like have fun and we can
Speaker 1: talk about shit and it's not an issue and it's
Speaker 1: not weird.
Speaker 2: Right, you know, which I think is even more I
Speaker 2: think when you have that clear communication, it's even higher
Speaker 2: than the actual sex because when you when you have
Speaker 2: that kind of clarity and that type of honest relationship,
Speaker 2: if there are things that aren't fulfilled sexually in the
Speaker 2: relationship or at all in any space, you can you
Speaker 2: can have the communication to say, like we can sleep
Speaker 2: with outside of the relationship.
Speaker 1: I think I've also had someone tell me who will
Speaker 1: named nameless, but I think you know who it is.
Speaker 1: She's older woman, has been within a relationship for a
Speaker 1: long time. Tell me that you know when she broke up,
Speaker 1: when her and her man broke up, she told me, Erica,
Speaker 1: if you do one thing, don't you ever compromise sex.
Speaker 1: Don't compromise sex.
Speaker 2: But what's most important about that that conversation is that
Speaker 2: she would ended up in the same relationship again, I know,
Speaker 2: I know, which is very interesting because so don't compromise.
Speaker 2: But also is that important, I know, and maybe maybe
Speaker 2: they do have some type of like but that that.
Speaker 1: And she told me that it like really resonated with
Speaker 1: me and like stuck to my core. And so that
Speaker 1: although you know, she's chosen to be back with that
Speaker 1: person and that's you know, whatever it is. But I
Speaker 1: know for me, I can't, I wouldn't. I don't want
Speaker 1: to do that. I like, I just feel like I
Speaker 1: can have good sex, So I think I'm gonna have
Speaker 1: bomb fire like lit sex every time all the time. No,
Speaker 1: there's gonna be times where like we probably have to
Speaker 1: work through some shit because we energetically aren't together, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And that's just relationships, Like we're
Speaker 1: not always gonna be in sync and that's going to
Speaker 1: affect our sex life. But I want to be with
Speaker 1: someone that I know, at least we have the foundation,
Speaker 1: you know, like we know, like I know it's in you.
Speaker 1: We're just not aligned right now, right and yeah, right
Speaker 1: right right, you know. Yeah, So I'm not unrealistic about
Speaker 1: that either.
Speaker 2: But also I think you're right likeness to just having
Speaker 2: a fun sexual experience and like just being open is
Speaker 2: mostly what's the key. Because I've dated guys who sex
Speaker 2: was like it was okay, it was average, it was good,
Speaker 2: but I thought that there were some places that needed improvement.
Speaker 2: But also I felt like they were so they weren't
Speaker 2: able to take that type of.
Speaker 1: I think you're I think it's I think also too,
Speaker 1: sex can improve. It's not like I don't necessarily always
Speaker 1: judge the first time. Oh No, I feel like the
Speaker 1: first time we're we're figuring each other out, Like you're
Speaker 1: trying to figure out what I like. I mean, if
Speaker 1: it's great the first time, bomb, but if I feel
Speaker 1: that there's something there, I'll try it again. See how
Speaker 1: like receptive you are to my needs?
Speaker 3: Right?
Speaker 1: Because I'm a giving person, I want to please you,
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna ask you anyway, you know, I mean,
Speaker 1: that's just how I roll. Here comes to my child
Speaker 1: hear about her mother's sex abilities drama. Yes, maybe go
Speaker 1: get them, go get them, but put them back. Okay,
Speaker 1: alright my child? Yeah that's good, perfect, Thank you. I
Speaker 1: think it's loud, you think, actually, irie.
Speaker 2: You can here's snow waite or sleeping beauty from here.
Speaker 1: You're right, baby, it's too loud. You have to close it.
Speaker 1: You have to close it all the way cause my
Speaker 1: I can hear it on the here close it big, yeah, yes,
Speaker 1: thank you? Are you going back? Are you just r no?
Speaker 2: Anyway?
Speaker 1: What we're talking? Sex talk?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: Oh, sex of sexual abilities?
Speaker 2: Oh the openness to actually getting better and saying, oh
Speaker 2: I am open to this, Okay, I'll try that. That's
Speaker 2: that I said. That's bigger because if you don't feel
Speaker 2: comfortable enough to tell someone like that's you know, you
Speaker 2: don't want to do new things.
Speaker 1: And yeah, I don't know ship plateau. Yeah, I think
Speaker 1: relationships plato.
Speaker 2: Relationships do plateau.
Speaker 1: You know, I don't necessarily mean the end, but like
Speaker 1: they just do at some point.
Speaker 2: What do you mean, like there's no way of getting
Speaker 2: out of the there is.
Speaker 1: It's called sacrifice and you know, forcing shit sometimes. But
Speaker 1: I mean, I believe, of course I want like my
Speaker 1: life partner. Of course, I want the person that I'm
Speaker 1: gonna spend my entire life with, I'm gonna die with.
Speaker 1: You know, we're gonna be together, we're gonna get married,
Speaker 1: we're gonna have great sex, we can go, we're gonna
Speaker 1: go through hard times, we're gonna work through them. And
Speaker 1: all that ship I do because I don't know it
Speaker 1: sounds nice and baby, just do it. Open them and
Speaker 1: put it in the bowl. Just pull it, just pull it,
Speaker 1: pull it apart, use both your hands and pull it.
Speaker 2: But you can't open it. It's just like a ziplock bag.
Speaker 1: Yeah, there you go. You probably need to put it
Speaker 1: on a table, you guys, Hold on a second. We'll
Speaker 1: be right back. Okay, I'm sorry. My child knows when
Speaker 1: I'm on my rants. She's like, no, mom, we won't
Speaker 1: let you be great. I uh. I guess what I
Speaker 1: was just trying to say is that I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm not I guess. I guess I kind of am
Speaker 1: a pessimist when it comes to love. And I don't
Speaker 1: mean a pessimist, but I just feel like I know,
Speaker 1: of course I want that eternal love, but I also
Speaker 1: realize that people are people, and they grow out of
Speaker 1: each other forever. It's a real fucking long time. But
Speaker 1: also life is short too, you know, And I think
Speaker 1: about that too, because time goes with quickly, you know,
Speaker 1: when you're like syncd up if you find that person.
Speaker 1: I do believe that, like people have multiple soulmates, and
Speaker 1: they might not always you know that. I just I
Speaker 1: don't know, but it's confusing. It is confusing because I
Speaker 1: feels the same way if.
Speaker 2: I can love multiple people in a lifetime, we can
Speaker 2: have multiple soulmates. I mean, ultimately, yes, I guess I
Speaker 2: do want to just grow old.
Speaker 1: I guess that means it's a matter of like how
Speaker 1: much are you willing? Maybe you find a person that
Speaker 1: doesn't feel like a sacrifice. Maybe you find a person
Speaker 1: definitely you know, the good outweighs the badge so much
Speaker 1: that anything else feels like what's the point?
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's the only way, you know, it's the only way.
Speaker 2: That's the only way. At like period, I would never
Speaker 2: want to settle with someone and be with someone and
Speaker 2: feel like in that I've lost a little peace of myself.
Speaker 2: It would only be like, damn, you make me better.
Speaker 2: This makes my life better, Like it makes more sense
Speaker 2: to be with you than to not be with you,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean. Like, I do not believe
Speaker 2: however that looks for us. I still think that that
Speaker 2: looks like growing old together, hopefully you know. Like, but
Speaker 2: I guess, I guess. I guess the whole thing with
Speaker 2: wanting true genuine love is that and with the reality
Speaker 2: is that you have to accept that the truth is
Speaker 2: at any point, they could fall in love with someone else.
Speaker 2: They could change, they could shift, it could it could change,
Speaker 2: because that's reality too. But I think the most important
Speaker 2: thing is just experiencing love without expectation, which is hard
Speaker 2: because your mind forever, I know.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Anyway, so you guys were having a meetup in New York,
Speaker 1: going out there next Wednesday. We are going to meet
Speaker 1: Thursday night Supper NYC. Make sure you go check out
Speaker 1: their website at supper nyc dot com.
Speaker 2: You just made that up? Can you not?
Speaker 1: Can you find the restaurant? Fucking try information?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 2: Okay, this is the worst. One fifty six East Second
Speaker 2: Street in New York. One fifty six East second Street.
Speaker 2: And I don't see a website, but their profile is
Speaker 2: at Supper NYC.
Speaker 1: They have bomb pasta. It's really good. Ooh, this looks
Speaker 1: really expensive.
Speaker 2: It's a medium. It's like mediums are expensive. Okay, it's
Speaker 2: not really that expensive, all right, well, but it's it's
Speaker 2: even classier. I don't think they have hard liquor. I
Speaker 2: think they have wine. So bring a flask.
Speaker 1: They're a hard liquor.
Speaker 2: What are we doing there drinking wine like classys?
Speaker 3: Okay?
Speaker 2: Out Thursday eight pm, Thursday eight pm, Supper, New York,
Speaker 2: Supper NYC at one fifty sixty second set.
Speaker 1: Wait, is this not gonna run? We're at work, people
Speaker 1: have work. Should we make it earlier, I mean later
Speaker 1: work like eight is a good time. Okay, Yeah, well yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: it's New York, so uh, there's gonna be limited ours.
Speaker 1: There's gonna be limited reservations. So if you want to go,
Speaker 1: DMS the first twelve people two DM loo get a confirmation.
Speaker 2: No, we have ever made a reservation.
Speaker 1: We've already told everyone where it is. You can't come.
Speaker 2: You're not invited. No, honestly, Yeah, even if it's twelve
Speaker 2: more people come, we could. Oh my god, what if
Speaker 2: it take over the restaurant would be great, a good
Speaker 2: Mom's Supper NYC. Takeover as many people as you want
Speaker 2: to come. Fucking meet us up there, whether you can
Speaker 2: firm or not, just fucking meet us up there. I'm
Speaker 2: sure we'll figure it out. I'll just let us know
Speaker 2: ahead of time if you can. Yeah, if you're coming,
Speaker 2: for sure, let us know ahead of time. I feel
Speaker 2: like I.
Speaker 1: I love our crew.
Speaker 2: I just want to say this. I don't know if
Speaker 2: I say it and I have, Like I know there's
Speaker 2: extended crew that isn't on Instagram and just listens and
Speaker 2: like then there's a crew that is on Instagram. And
Speaker 2: then there's people that we've actually met from Instagram from
Speaker 2: the podcast, like in LA in New York. It's so bomb,
Speaker 2: Like even in the bathroom, the girls that I've found
Speaker 2: in the bathroom at the club or anywhere, and you
Speaker 2: ask and like that. Shit makes me so happy. And
Speaker 2: just to know that I can already imagine, like who's
Speaker 2: gonna come to the New York one because I know
Speaker 2: a couple of our NYC mamas, but also I know
Speaker 2: it's gonna be even more other new people. I'm just
Speaker 2: so excited. I'm so excited to make a friends so great,
Speaker 2: such a cancer I am, like, Gods is so exciting.
Speaker 1: I'm excited too.
Speaker 2: I love I love it, and I'm excited they're doing
Speaker 2: like a dinner so we can actually fucking have a conversation.
Speaker 1: That's a thing too. I mean, yeah, I want to connect.
Speaker 1: You know, I'm deep and I want to look at
Speaker 1: your eyes. Oh my god? What else is new? Oh?
Speaker 1: Live show?
Speaker 2: We have a live show scheduled for March twentieth. We
Speaker 2: have a venue that's gonna be for twenty friendly and bomb.
Speaker 1: It's amazing. It's it's a house of bad Choices. House.
Speaker 1: I feel like Lady Goda like house, House you know,
Speaker 1: it's like German house.
Speaker 2: It's Germany.
Speaker 1: No, but you know like House of Gada.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, oh oh, because it's so mad at me.
Speaker 2: But what because it's house of bad Choices? Like we
Speaker 2: should all dress like a little sluttie like a costume
Speaker 2: party because like why not? You know, it's called like
Speaker 2: house of bad Choices where your bad choices outsits.
Speaker 1: Oh you like that you can wear catsuit? Maybe? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Our live show is now a costume party. Bitches, Oh
Speaker 1: my god, who do I think I am? I mean
Speaker 1: I wearing a wig so right now? And you said,
Speaker 1: who do you think I really look like Cardi B?
Speaker 3: Right now?
Speaker 2: Cardi B's makeup artist did her makeup like? She looks
Speaker 2: like Cardi? She has those poudy cardis and lips again Salon, Yeah,
Speaker 2: oh my god. So did you take notes this time?
Speaker 1: How I was like getting filmed? I did. I was listening.
Speaker 1: I kept asking a lot of questions.
Speaker 2: Because I feel like when you did it, I asked
Speaker 2: her about the lips, when you did what the Ki
Speaker 2: Kim lips? For a minute, I was like really focusing
Speaker 2: on it because they were so bombed, and then I
Speaker 2: just let it go.
Speaker 1: I've tried to do it. I try to do like
Speaker 1: that sometimes with like in my own like subtle way, right.
Speaker 1: But I asked, I said, is there a technique that
Speaker 1: you use to like make like the blow up doll lips?
Speaker 1: And she was like no, I just like I just
Speaker 1: overdraw your lip. Basically, I just go over Yeah. So
Speaker 1: I got my makeup and I got my makeup done
Speaker 1: to look like as a Cardi B tutorial her at
Speaker 1: the Grammys this year. Oh yeah, okay, the purple eye.
Speaker 1: I wish I could do this, I would you. I
Speaker 1: mean for certain things what, But.
Speaker 2: I know I have a very basic makeup routine.
Speaker 1: I told her too. I was like, I'm basic as
Speaker 1: fuck compared to this ship right here, it was it's
Speaker 1: pretty intense. I really want to take this wig off though.
Speaker 1: It's like take it off. It's just like people should
Speaker 1: I take it off?
Speaker 2: They know you're runing wig.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, this is so ghetto.
Speaker 2: It's not ghetto.
Speaker 1: Oh do you feel better? Oh it feels so good.
Speaker 2: I put it out.
Speaker 1: If I have these nots, this wig is bomb.
Speaker 2: Though.
Speaker 1: Okay, let me see I want one. I can't. I
Speaker 1: would look crazy.
Speaker 2: But tomorrow I just my six No I was talking
Speaker 2: about where you are. I'm gonna buy it, but maybe Shit,
Speaker 2: I hate doing my hair, but then the wigs are
Speaker 2: not really I should just get clippings or something. Okay,
Speaker 2: a live show, wear a costume, meet up, and.
Speaker 1: Don't wear a costume. Please, don't wear a off just
Speaker 1: look sexy. Don't listen to Jamie. You don't have to
Speaker 1: wear a fucking costume. You start alienating people. You start
Speaker 1: saying costume, bitch. Not everybody wants to wear a goddamn costroom. Okay,
Speaker 1: I mean I do, but you know, so.
Speaker 2: This is it's a redressing slutty I mean, okay, well,
Speaker 2: speaking of slutty. The worst part is every time I
Speaker 2: tell horrific a bad choice story. For a week, I'm
Speaker 2: stressing air crow like I'm having anxiety about that thing
Speaker 2: I said, and then the next week you share it.
Speaker 2: I say, something to do.
Speaker 1: Is this a horror story? Yeah, this is a horror story?
Speaker 1: Who stories?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 1: Yes, I can't wait for a Jamila horr story. I
Speaker 1: feel like it's been a little while.
Speaker 2: No, I feel like it was like last week.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna light up for that, Okay, light it up.
Speaker 2: So my horror story is that well, I have to
Speaker 2: what is kind of funny and one is just horri Okay, wow,
Speaker 2: I've had quite a week.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 2: So I I told my girlfriend. She she has traffic
Speaker 2: going back downtown from the valley. Coming through the valley.
Speaker 2: I was like, you know, let's go have a drink,
Speaker 2: let's go have dinner, so deep deep in the valley,
Speaker 2: I was I took way too long. She was trying
Speaker 2: to leave me, and I was like, wait, no, like,
Speaker 2: I'm almost finishing my client. Oh cause I did.
Speaker 3: I didn't.
Speaker 2: Me and my friend swap lashes, but she had her
Speaker 2: granddaughter there and her granddaughter was like running all over.
Speaker 1: It was like it was kind of difficult to do.
Speaker 2: And then I decided to babysit the granddaughter the next
Speaker 2: day for a whole day. And then I realized, whoa,
Speaker 2: I don't think I wantny more kids. But that's beside
Speaker 2: the point. Anyway, I go to this restaurant in the
Speaker 2: valley with my girlfriend and we're talking and my girlfriend
Speaker 2: is like a cancer Leo. And if you're a cancer leo,
Speaker 2: cust I hope someone's listening and or you know, one
Speaker 2: those bitches are crazy, that cancer Leo cust with your
Speaker 2: birthday's like July twenty second, July twenty third, July twenty first,
Speaker 2: I know you're crazy.
Speaker 1: Anyway.
Speaker 2: It's this group of like they look like maybe like
Speaker 2: some kind of Middle Eastern older man, but they're all
Speaker 2: pretty attractive, and I do. I keep looking at my
Speaker 2: shoulder and like, god, this one in this turtleneck is
Speaker 2: kind of sexy. Like, you know, I love an old man,
Speaker 2: I really do. I don't know if I've said that before,
Speaker 2: but I do. Like it's like a distinguished older man
Speaker 2: who can dress swab and nice swave. Is like, you're older,
Speaker 2: but you still like look sexy.
Speaker 1: You have style.
Speaker 2: He has style.
Speaker 1: Yeah, he was like yeah, salt and pepper.
Speaker 2: And I just like, like, you know, it's just a
Speaker 2: big group of guys and look like they're talking about business.
Speaker 2: You know, okay whatever, we continue to talk anyway, Literally
Speaker 2: my friends.
Speaker 1: Were talking about it looked like it was important business
Speaker 1: being discuss.
Speaker 2: So.
Speaker 3: Oh.
Speaker 2: Also, I saw Trey songs come in the building.
Speaker 1: Where were you in?
Speaker 2: Deep that Joey's and Woodlands.
Speaker 1: Oh okay, that's not that deep, it is, No, it's trendy.
Speaker 1: Everyone lives over there now it's like fucking calabasas, bitch
Speaker 1: you have basically, I mean I thought you were gonna
Speaker 1: make her in Chatsworth of no bitch, I mean not
Speaker 1: hill No, honestly, I mean there was really nobody here
Speaker 1: except like it just happened to be fucking t songs,
Speaker 1: and it happened.
Speaker 2: These guys and that other guy who's my as drinks
Speaker 2: from the bar. Anyway, so my friend is looking really
Speaker 2: hard and she's like giving me the fuck me eye,
Speaker 2: and she's really good at that, and I was like,
Speaker 2: calm down with the fucking me. I've already been staring,
Speaker 2: you know, relax. I got this under control. Anyway, halfway
Speaker 2: through the dinner, I see them like destructor disperse because
Speaker 2: they're like in a booth, and I see the guy
Speaker 2: coming over. I'm like, oh my god, girl, he's walking over.
Speaker 2: He's fuck's walking home. So he's walking over to us,
Speaker 2: and like I'm like greeting and trying not to look guilty,
Speaker 2: even though I've been steering for like twenty five minutes.
Speaker 2: And my friend just swoops right in and says, hey.
Speaker 1: How are you dying, toad? I want to fuck you?
Speaker 1: She said that. Strap I was like whoa. She was
Speaker 1: making sure you had no chance zero.
Speaker 2: I was like, nope, sorry, okay, can't take that bitch anywhere.
Speaker 1: Wow, wow, you might have to rethink that friendship. Oh no,
Speaker 1: change your friend plot twist. There's a plot twist. So
Speaker 1: at first I was like, wow, what a bitch.
Speaker 2: But that didn't really care because I was like, that
Speaker 2: was pretty aggressive. Maybe I still have a chance, you know.
Speaker 2: But then I realized there was one guy whose back
Speaker 2: was fit not facing me. I couldn't see him. I
Speaker 2: saw his back of the end, but whatever, I can
Speaker 2: se him. So he starts walking up or this one
Speaker 2: is you cheaful? I'm a little bit younger too.
Speaker 1: I'm like, wow, he's fine as fuck. So I don't
Speaker 1: even know.
Speaker 2: I mean again, tequila, and even I didn't have that
Speaker 2: many drinks I had.
Speaker 1: Maybe like is that tequila? It's just he wanted to
Speaker 1: do it. Yeah, there's that.
Speaker 2: So he's like talking to me. Literally the conversation I
Speaker 2: don't know was like, Hey, what's your name? We start
Speaker 2: talking for two minutes, he starts making out with me
Speaker 2: two minutes.
Speaker 1: How did it get to that?
Speaker 2: I mean maybe maybe it was three. It was like
Speaker 2: a very small conversation and then I don't even know,
Speaker 2: but I liked it anyway. I was like, oh, well bye,
Speaker 2: and then the older guy like gave us some money
Speaker 2: to put towards the bill. I was like, wow, that
Speaker 2: was nice. Didn't even meat with us. And the guy
Speaker 2: was like, where do you live? And I told him
Speaker 2: and he's like, I live over there, is like take
Speaker 2: my number. Then this other guy's like, you know how
Speaker 2: many women waiting for him?
Speaker 1: He's choosing you Shut the fuck up. No one needs
Speaker 1: he doesn't need your help. I was like what He's like, no, no, no, yeah.
Speaker 2: He was like no he was so anyway, he left
Speaker 2: and I went to the house and then I said,
Speaker 2: what's your address?
Speaker 1: Okay? And I went over there. I was living in
Speaker 1: situations like is he okay?
Speaker 2: He's okay clean, he's clean, he's actually immaculate Fisco repeating now,
Speaker 2: no okay. It was almost like a like a look
Speaker 2: like a model the model apartment, like does he actually
Speaker 2: live there?
Speaker 1: Now?
Speaker 2: He does actually live there? I'm pretty sure yeah. There was.
Speaker 2: There was pictures, I think, and I was like and
Speaker 2: then I started overthinking it before I went like, I
Speaker 2: don't know, he's gonna like I don't just fuck. Sometimes
Speaker 2: those Middle Eastern guys can be super strovenistic and just.
Speaker 1: Be like fuck fuck fuck, what do you mean.
Speaker 2: Sometimes you just like like they.
Speaker 1: Just want to for their own self pleasure.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's just like I don't like it, probably won't
Speaker 2: go further anyway. You started really play is Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: you know, it's really manner. He's there inter being Israeli.
Speaker 2: It's very play a play and very like women because
Speaker 2: they fine, Yeah, because they're fine, and a lot of
Speaker 2: times they have nice sticks. Anyway, so we got it.
Speaker 2: I went in there, started making out. We had sex
Speaker 2: because I have no self control and I was already there.
Speaker 2: It was literally like three minutes from where I was,
Speaker 2: and it was good. Then he disclosed to me that
Speaker 2: he lasers entire body. He was completely hairless, completely hairless.
Speaker 2: And also then he gets the book. I told him
Speaker 2: what I do that I have a mobile spa. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 2: you have a mobile spa. Meals mobile spa.
Speaker 1: Go check it out.
Speaker 2: Follow Meal's Mumblespa, if you need any mobile services in
Speaker 2: the LA area. Anyway, back to our regular schedule program.
Speaker 2: He disclosed he also had some botox.
Speaker 1: Oh done? Why why was he telling you this and
Speaker 1: like to get old. Wait, why the fuck how did
Speaker 1: you get to botox?
Speaker 2: I said, I have a mobile spots, I do faces.
Speaker 2: What do you do wax to do facials? I'm like,
Speaker 2: but you seem pretty fucking hairless. He's like, oh, I
Speaker 2: leave it, my old buddy. Anyway, although I was nervous
Speaker 2: he wasn't gonna call me, he's definitely been.
Speaker 1: Calling me and trying to hang out. So how do
Speaker 1: you feel?
Speaker 3: For good?
Speaker 2: I actually want to go back over there and see
Speaker 2: how I feel, like just like in a different day,
Speaker 2: you know, not like immediately following a bar, makeout to
Speaker 2: your house, to your dick goodbye.
Speaker 3: Nice.
Speaker 2: But other than that was great. He's been calling me
Speaker 2: once hanging out this week. I said, of course, we're neighbors,
Speaker 2: and he was hot. So even though my friend was
Speaker 2: really aggressive, it worked out in my favor.
Speaker 1: Did she go what happened was her storyline? I don't
Speaker 1: think anything happened with that.
Speaker 3: Damn.
Speaker 1: I'll follow up though, Yeah, I need update.
Speaker 2: Okay, and now for my second story.
Speaker 1: Horror story, Part two, horse story. You like that improv?
Speaker 1: You like that live? We sing our own songs, we
Speaker 1: write our own hits. You can ask me the one
Speaker 1: sure horror story Part two.
Speaker 2: So I oh, okay. So I told you guys that
Speaker 2: I rekindled with an old friend that I was dating
Speaker 2: back in my twenties, my early twenties, like twenty three,
Speaker 2: twenty two, maybe early twenty four. I met him in Atlanta.
Speaker 2: Was working at a hotel, and again, you know, I
Speaker 2: like an older man, and he was. He was ordering
Speaker 2: some drinks and I was just like, in my head,
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I like him.
Speaker 1: So we got to cut small talk.
Speaker 2: We exchanged numbers. He's a designer. It's very cool guy Swedish.
Speaker 2: We dated like pretty intensely back in the day, but
Speaker 2: I was twelve, so I wasn't like really being serious. Anyway,
Speaker 2: we hooked back up. We went out one night, you know,
Speaker 2: for dinner, came back to town. He lives in San Francisco.
Speaker 2: While I'm telling so many details, I hope he never listens.
Speaker 2: He came down because he was work here and I
Speaker 2: met her at his hotel. We went to dinner. He
Speaker 2: made reservations. I love a guy that makes reservations.
Speaker 1: I love That's all it takes.
Speaker 2: Remember they just love accommodations. Tell us he made reservations.
Speaker 1: No reservations is crucial. It's so basic, it's so basic
Speaker 1: to do it. Letting me get check offs like, yep,
Speaker 1: made reservations. I care, but that we're growing somewhere for
Speaker 1: if your Jamila, yep owns plants? Yeah, do you own
Speaker 1: a plant?
Speaker 2: So we went to dinner, and you know, he has
Speaker 2: a nice car, he's a really good career, he's established,
Speaker 2: and he's basically just got out of relationship four years
Speaker 2: and that he's jumping right back into one because we're
Speaker 2: gonna be together.
Speaker 1: Just kidding not.
Speaker 2: I don't even know what I was gonna say about
Speaker 2: that girl.
Speaker 1: I don't have no clue.
Speaker 2: I forget.
Speaker 1: I don't have no clue.
Speaker 2: I have no clue, don't have I don't have no
Speaker 2: clues about to say. I don't know where that was going.
Speaker 2: I'm high you guys, Okay, we were going to a
Speaker 2: horror story. Oh yeah, okay, okay, I'm wordy like anyway,
Speaker 2: So we go over to dinner, have a great dinner.
Speaker 2: I'm like, I kind of like him. I forgot that
Speaker 2: I kind of liked him. And oh, he tells me
Speaker 2: he doesn't want he doesn't. Oh this is what I
Speaker 2: was saying him, just go for breaking up because basically
Speaker 2: she were the same age and she wants to have
Speaker 2: kids and be married and he's like, I've been married,
Speaker 2: I have a kid. I don't want to do it.
Speaker 2: I was like perfect, and anyway, I'm like, I don't
Speaker 2: know whatever. So we go, we have dinner, we head
Speaker 2: back to the hotel. We're supposed to go to this
Speaker 2: afrobeats party, but we're gonna put our food back in
Speaker 2: the room, but instead we start like making out and
Speaker 2: I'm giving him head and he says, yeah, something about
Speaker 2: sucking his white cock and I was like, oh no,
Speaker 2: he didn't.
Speaker 1: Yep, he did. And I was like no, I can't
Speaker 1: be it. You know.
Speaker 2: I'm like continue and he's like, oh yeah, you know,
Speaker 2: he's like a little like suck that white cheek. And
Speaker 2: I'm like, no, well he did say it. And then
Speaker 2: you know, it's so fucked up. I have a podcast
Speaker 2: and then I have friends every think everything is funny
Speaker 2: because immediately I'm like, oh my god, I can't watch
Speaker 2: all Erica this ship and then I'm like should I stop?
Speaker 2: This is all going in my head as I'm like
Speaker 2: should I stop? And I'm like, well, I'm like black,
Speaker 2: I say it right, Like, I'm like, only when the
Speaker 2: fucking white women, or do they tell you the black
Speaker 2: women too? Like I'm like, please, don't say anything about
Speaker 2: my black body. Just stop right here, let's just keep
Speaker 2: it here. Thankfully, he didn't say anything, and I didn't stop,
Speaker 2: and I almost forgot about it till the next morning.
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh no, and then you told me and
Speaker 2: I was like, what got so mad? And I'm like,
Speaker 2: am I a cello? Like I should have stopped, but
Speaker 2: I've actually come to terms with it.
Speaker 1: Well, all I said was well, I said, what the fuck?
Speaker 3: Yeah I did?
Speaker 1: And then I said what the fuck? Yeah?
Speaker 2: I was a disgrace.
Speaker 1: No, but and then I was like, well, I hope,
Speaker 1: I hope you plan on talking to him about that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm going to.
Speaker 1: I haven't yet.
Speaker 2: I feel like you still should. I'm that's gonna happen again.
Speaker 2: I'm definitely gonna talk.
Speaker 1: That's gonna happen again.
Speaker 3: I definitely know.
Speaker 1: That I'm going to talk to tell you do. But
Speaker 1: I just he's gotten away. Can you imagine? It was
Speaker 1: his ex girlfriend black? He likes block on, so obviously
Speaker 1: he was saying that to her. He felt comfortable.
Speaker 2: That's another thing I was thinking. I was like, I
Speaker 2: don't remember this type of talk before when we dated,
Speaker 2: but I don't remember any blacks. But I mean not
Speaker 2: any blacks, any whites, but also someone I was talking
Speaker 2: to a couple people like someone it's just in the
Speaker 2: realms of sex, like it's true, he's white, you're black,
Speaker 2: Like yeah, but I don't know.
Speaker 1: I was like, you know, well, you know slavery Swedes
Speaker 1: they have a very dark history. What they do is
Speaker 1: oh yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2: I thought Swedes love the blacks. No, I know, so
Speaker 2: many sweet like I just there's a.
Speaker 1: Lot of mixed people in Sweden and there are like
Speaker 1: I feel like it is now yeah, more like liberal place.
Speaker 1: But don't get a twisted what is their dark history?
Speaker 3: Do you know?
Speaker 1: I can't remember everything. Jennifer would always tell me Jenny,
Speaker 1: because I'm from Sweden, she's white. But I I did that.
Speaker 1: I just my mind went to she just says Swedish
Speaker 1: people are pretty racist. Yeah, like there's like I remember
Speaker 1: that we went to this place and these little chocolate
Speaker 1: balls and they're called something in Swedish it's racist. And
Speaker 1: she was like, oh yeah, the sweets called these little
Speaker 1: chocolate balls like nigger balls. Yeah, specifically I remember that story,
Speaker 1: and forever I've said the Swedish are racist. I mean,
Speaker 1: but so you don't go to Sweden with him? No, No,
Speaker 1: you should go to Sweden. Sweeden's beautiful and there are
Speaker 1: a lot of amazing cool people that are like general,
Speaker 1: I know, I just.
Speaker 2: Know a lot of like Swedish, like Swedish artists that
Speaker 2: are like obviously like like, I don't want to.
Speaker 1: Okay, I don't want to say all Swedish people are racist. Okay,
Speaker 1: let's rewind.
Speaker 2: Now, let's be clear.
Speaker 1: European people are racist historically speaking. That is a fact.
Speaker 2: When you travel as a black person, the first thing
Speaker 2: you ask is how is their temperature with the blacks?
Speaker 2: Because it's fucked up everywhere. That's the reality of it.
Speaker 2: We're not saying all Swedes obviously racist, I'm obviously sucking
Speaker 2: a white.
Speaker 1: Well, I just feel like, well, clearly he said that
Speaker 1: to his ex, who allowed it, and but I just
Speaker 1: feel like he's that's it's fetishizing you. Oh god, please
Speaker 1: don't make this a clip. Well, I'm just saying like,
Speaker 1: and he might not even realize it might be just
Speaker 1: a sex thing because We fetishize a lot of things
Speaker 1: in sex, including race.
Speaker 2: So it's is fetish?
Speaker 3: Is it fetish?
Speaker 2: That's what I'm sorry, so nervous.
Speaker 1: Banging the safe He might he might be my man,
Speaker 1: And this is what I'm the deal with.
Speaker 2: No, I guess is having a fetish actually negative? Someone
Speaker 2: said that if you fetishize something, is it negative?
Speaker 1: It can be. I think it depends, you know. I
Speaker 1: think race is kind of one of those things that
Speaker 1: I mean I have obviously, I think when you search poorn,
Speaker 1: you have a preference, which I guess I don't know
Speaker 1: if that's I don't that's not.
Speaker 2: Is whatever's preferences?
Speaker 1: Yeah, which you know very well might be you know
Speaker 1: who cares?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 1: But I know, but I don't think you should be
Speaker 1: saying white cock but I care about that. I think
Speaker 1: that's really don't because if you bend with that, what
Speaker 1: other ship will you bed with that? Will you'll normalize?
Speaker 2: Well, that's that's why I really want to say something.
Speaker 2: I just don't wanted to graduate from there, and then
Speaker 2: I'll really have to be like, look, well he might well.
Speaker 1: Also, you need to know he needs to know who
Speaker 1: you are. You're not like Timila, like you're black, you're
Speaker 1: black as fun, and it's gonna be a time where
Speaker 1: like it's gonna pop up again and it's gonna irritate
Speaker 1: you to become an issue. So you need to know now.
Speaker 2: But we talk, we talk about race. We like we joke,
Speaker 2: you know, like you joke. I mean, like we don't joke,
Speaker 2: but like it's not like oh, but it's it's comes up.
Speaker 2: And I'm very vulcal. I mean, obviously I can't like
Speaker 2: be dating someone and not be vocal about like everything
Speaker 2: I said, you know, which is who I am. But yeah, no,
Speaker 2: I do want to know, like what is like in
Speaker 2: what way is that empowering to you? You know?
Speaker 1: Or we're not or unempowering to you? And that's the dynamic.
Speaker 1: That's the which I get that because there's that dynamic
Speaker 1: and sex regardless of race too, like the power dynamic,
Speaker 1: like you're my bitch and I'm fucking you right right,
Speaker 1: But like I don't know for me, that's I don't know,
Speaker 1: it is weird. I mean, I mean, yeah, that is.
Speaker 1: That is a horror story, ladies and gentlemen. This is
Speaker 1: Erica's horror story. I'm so glad I have it. Hasn't
Speaker 1: happened to me yet, because I don't know, I might
Speaker 1: have punched a nigger in the face or a white
Speaker 1: person in the face. I guess I should say.
Speaker 6: Oh.
Speaker 2: And then we got back in the car. It was
Speaker 2: very luxurious, luxurious vehicle.
Speaker 1: Don't get blinded about the luxury, you know.
Speaker 2: Like luxury and reservation bit like luxury. Honestly, Oh my god,
Speaker 2: oh my god. Now that you say that, I'm never
Speaker 2: telling you the real thought I had.
Speaker 1: Oh my god. It just reminded me.
Speaker 2: Oh no, oh my god. So I got into first
Speaker 2: of all, it's it's just not like a fucking Bentley.
Speaker 2: It's the cheat wagon.
Speaker 1: That's nice. It's just nice. Anyway. I don't depreciate and
Speaker 1: they don't appreciate.
Speaker 2: I got in and had like like that nice car smell,
Speaker 2: and I was like, you know, what I thought to myself.
Speaker 1: Was like, I'm home.
Speaker 5: Literally, I was like, this is what I'm not, like,
Speaker 5: oh god, like what I've been like, I'm tripping, I've
Speaker 5: been in the wrong areas, Like this is my this
Speaker 5: is my smell, this.
Speaker 1: Is my smell, this is what I Yeah. I was like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 1: you do.
Speaker 6: I do.
Speaker 2: But the fact that the set put my mind there. Anyway,
Speaker 2: we got back in the car back to the hotel.
Speaker 2: He was playing some music and I was like, trap music.
Speaker 2: I don't know if you called trap music. Whatever's rap music.
Speaker 2: And then I really realized, like, this is not like
Speaker 2: a Spotify playlist, this is an album.
Speaker 1: And I was like, who is this.
Speaker 2: He's like, oh, Roddy Rich. We're listening to the Roddy Rich.
Speaker 1: But do you think he was playing that? Because no,
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't.
Speaker 2: He's like, my son sent it to me.
Speaker 1: I like this one.
Speaker 2: And then he was like playing the songs that he
Speaker 2: life and I was just.
Speaker 1: Like, this is great. I love you. Look that out too. Okay, I'm.
Speaker 2: I'm easily impressed by resus luxury cars and rap.
Speaker 1: White get white man that loves Roddy.
Speaker 3: Oh.
Speaker 2: I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed for the truths that come into
Speaker 2: my mind. But these are the truths. Nevertheless, that how.
Speaker 1: Does she get in here? She has been Oh my god,
Speaker 1: it's good something. Oh my god.
Speaker 2: I hope all my black people were not like you
Speaker 2: are a sell out, bitch.
Speaker 1: Well you know, well you know, I don't think you're
Speaker 1: a sellout, but I think it's like something a conversation
Speaker 1: that needs to be had, and you need to keep
Speaker 1: an keep an eye on what's happening. I don't get
Speaker 1: blinded by the luxury. I'm not No, it's not no.
Speaker 2: No, I do you actually like him?
Speaker 1: No, he might be cool.
Speaker 2: He sounds cool, but it's that it's cool, he's older.
Speaker 1: He's cool.
Speaker 6: I just.
Speaker 1: Also, some white people just need to be educated.
Speaker 2: And also I mentioned like being in a place where
Speaker 2: I don't like wherever you do, while you're where you're at,
Speaker 2: wherever you're doing. Like I'm cool with that, you know,
Speaker 2: Like if it's love here in a partnership here, I'm good.
Speaker 2: So I'm just putting everything I want out in the
Speaker 2: beginning and then like letting it see how that plays out,
Speaker 2: because it's the truth. Like I really do like him,
Speaker 2: but he travels all the time. He's like always going places.
Speaker 2: He's always traveling, and I don't even like we talk
Speaker 2: but not a lot, and I'm cool with that. And
Speaker 2: then when I see you, let's.
Speaker 1: Just be great, you know what. I even struggling with
Speaker 1: this makes me think of this because I feel like,
Speaker 1: you know, I've been doing my own oh shit, but
Speaker 1: I still feel like I'm ready to be married. I
Speaker 1: mean me too, like me too. I still however, but
Speaker 1: like I think what I'm having issues with in the
Speaker 1: midst of all of what I'm doing, whatever I'm doing,
Speaker 1: which isn't a lot whatever, I just, you know, I
Speaker 1: feel like having that conversation with someone that you're just
Speaker 1: starting to date and telling them that, like because really,
Speaker 1: I really feel like this is what should be happening.
Speaker 1: I feel like I've done it. I do it more
Speaker 1: with men. I don't give a fuck about that. I'm like, hey,
Speaker 1: I'm not really looking for just like a sexual encounter.
Speaker 2: Like say this to you, don't go.
Speaker 1: I just feel like I'm ready, Like just I'm not.
Speaker 1: I don't want to date just for fun, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like if we're not if you're not ready,
Speaker 1: or if the vibe isn't right and I'm not telling
Speaker 1: you to decide right now, they're just letting you know that.
Speaker 1: Like that's the intention that I'm going with when I'm dating.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, you didn't listen to Daphne's I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm starting to take Daphne's advice.
Speaker 2: Okay, because it's so funny because last week I'm pretty
Speaker 2: sure you told me that that you don't really give
Speaker 2: a fuck about said to you that he what did
Speaker 2: he say? He was like breaking up with you even
Speaker 2: they were together, and you're like shocked, Right, I.
Speaker 1: Don't want to date him, But you're saying you do
Speaker 1: it to guys you don't care about. I don't care
Speaker 1: about him.
Speaker 2: Actually, but you didn't do it to him, you didn't
Speaker 2: say that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I just well, that's because I'm saying I don't Okay,
Speaker 1: well maybe not maybe not every guy I don't care about.
Speaker 1: Some guys I don't care about it. I don't tell
Speaker 1: him shit, who do you care about?
Speaker 2: Bitch?
Speaker 1: I guess No, I'm just saying, but that's how I
Speaker 1: feel like. That's how I need to start leading my conversation.
Speaker 2: Oh right, so it's such a better like Okay, yeah.
Speaker 1: Better navigate the dating space because well me too, you know,
Speaker 1: like I haven't really been even like I guess I
Speaker 1: went on, I went to dinner the other night. You know,
Speaker 1: I haven't really been dating, you know, like I don't
Speaker 1: feel like i've been.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, well, I mean I feel like we have
Speaker 2: like it it's either it's either's like one or ten.
Speaker 2: We're like dating or I met you five minutes ago,
Speaker 2: I'm run a matter your partment having sex, like and
Speaker 2: then by catch you later.
Speaker 1: I have this very no but you know, like I
Speaker 1: think a lot of women do that they I mean,
Speaker 1: I think we're in a time two women feel really
Speaker 1: empowered and like we're sharing with the people that we're
Speaker 1: spending our time with, or at least like once I can.
Speaker 1: I'm not saying that's on the first date. But if
Speaker 1: I decide that I feel like we're having a vibe,
Speaker 1: you should probably know that I like you and like,
Speaker 1: I'm going to allow this like to keep growing organically,
Speaker 1: right right, I'm not gonna withhold it. I'm not going
Speaker 1: to stop it because I actually I want. I want
Speaker 1: if I'm feeling it, like, let why not and if
Speaker 1: but if you don't feel that way, you should know
Speaker 1: that I do, so that you can like fall back
Speaker 1: because I just I just feel like that's the fair
Speaker 1: thing to do.
Speaker 2: But also I might be fucking other people that too, Yeah,
Speaker 2: but I just.
Speaker 1: Mean, at least I'm being honest about the fact that like,
Speaker 1: I like you and I want to see where this
Speaker 1: goes and it's not just sex versus emotion and sex,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. There's a difference. There's a
Speaker 1: difference between the people I have casual sex with and
Speaker 1: I call every now and then we don't talk, versus
Speaker 1: the people that like, maybe I have sex with and
Speaker 1: they're like, I actually wanted to get to know you
Speaker 1: better type shit.
Speaker 2: Definitely, definitely, yeah, that's what I mean.
Speaker 1: Like more so it is like and then I've been
Speaker 1: struggling with that because like I've been thinking about, like, Okay,
Speaker 1: what if I did want to have that conversation with someone,
Speaker 1: how would that go? Would I say? Like how do
Speaker 1: I say that? Like it's so fucking awkward? I feel
Speaker 1: like you should just tell me And like and that's
Speaker 1: like my ego too, like what the fuck? Like I'm
Speaker 1: the woman. You should make me feel appreciated. You should
Speaker 1: make me feel like this is what we're doing.
Speaker 2: Right. No, I do feel I feel it, and I.
Speaker 1: Still feel like that in ways, like if you I
Speaker 1: also want to feel empowered enough to be able to say.
Speaker 2: How you feel I think I feel I most may
Speaker 2: feel that way, like I feel like as a man,
Speaker 2: if you value me, you should like tell me that
Speaker 2: you want it to be more. But also like the
Speaker 2: real side of me. Who I fucking I'm a lover
Speaker 2: and I can't help it.
Speaker 3: I love you?
Speaker 1: What do you mean? And I'm like this is serious,
Speaker 1: you know, like are you like that? I? When I
Speaker 1: like someone?
Speaker 2: Yeah, when I like someone, I get really, like, get
Speaker 2: really mesmerized, honestly, like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess I just don't really see that side
Speaker 1: of you. I don't see like you in that mode
Speaker 1: with your men's.
Speaker 2: I haven't because I hasn't really actually thinking about it.
Speaker 1: I haven't really been around you and a lot of men,
Speaker 1: like in an intimate setting like my girlfriend type, like
Speaker 1: someone i'm dating or like a little bit with like
Speaker 1: young Bay. But like that's it. Yeah, yeah, so I
Speaker 1: can't imagine in that way.
Speaker 2: Yeah, She's like, yeah, it's that's why I could be bad.
Speaker 2: I mean it's I'm not like annoying like PDIA annoying
Speaker 2: like bitch, calm down. But also like if I like someone,
Speaker 2: I'm a girl like let me come, let me come.
Speaker 2: Yeah you make spackhetti, Okay, I'll be right off. Sure, Okay,
Speaker 2: mushrooms are not Okay, gotta go.
Speaker 1: Oh my god. I'm a lover.
Speaker 2: When I love, I can love hard, so am I
Speaker 2: and like.
Speaker 1: I feel like my love is can be intense, so
Speaker 1: like I always try to, like I feel like I'm
Speaker 1: always withholding it, with holding back, and like it's either
Speaker 1: like all or nothing with me. So it either feels
Speaker 1: like I'm being cold or like I'm being too much,
Speaker 1: and then they get like I feel like people get nervous.
Speaker 2: I am a lover, but also I can I've really
Speaker 2: paid attention lately that I can. I can there's something
Speaker 2: I can hold away, Like I'm still very like blocked,
Speaker 2: like I'm I'm open, but also like I don't let
Speaker 2: a lot of people in in, you know. So if
Speaker 2: I really like you and I'm letting you in in,
Speaker 2: then that's a big deal.
Speaker 1: Like love her haters complicated and then we sit here
Speaker 1: and say we're not complicated.
Speaker 3: They are.
Speaker 2: No, it's not. I if it's mutual, it's not complicated
Speaker 2: if I'm forcing it or if I you know what
Speaker 2: I mean, Like, it's not if it's mutual, it's not.
Speaker 1: How I do. Because that's how I felt for a
Speaker 1: while with my happy pay.
Speaker 2: I felt like, is this is this mutual?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 1: Well it felt no, it felt just like so free
Speaker 1: and flowing, you know, and like because that's the only
Speaker 1: reference I have. I'm not only reference obviously, I have
Speaker 1: it with my baby daddy. But like, it happened so
Speaker 1: long before that, Like I literally been in a relationship
Speaker 1: for so long that I forgot what that feeling, that
Speaker 1: beginning to like fall, but like the beginning is is
Speaker 1: like so it's so fun. I think that's what I want.
Speaker 1: I just want to like begin at the beginning over
Speaker 1: and over. Let's just fall in love. Like let's just
Speaker 1: like keep falling, keep falling in love and like and
Speaker 1: then if we fall out, I'll find someone else immediately
Speaker 1: to fall No, but you know I used to do that,
Speaker 1: and that's weird. Like I think about like my I
Speaker 1: used to just jump into a relationship after relationship. I
Speaker 1: was like a serial monogamous. I was in monogamous relationships
Speaker 1: for a long period of time, back to back up
Speaker 1: until the time I first even started dating. So I
Speaker 1: think about that now and I'm like, I don't even
Speaker 1: like I was telling I tell you all the time,
Speaker 1: like how do our friends have boyfriends? I'm like, what,
Speaker 1: Like it has to be like I know, I know
Speaker 1: it's a lot of it is because I dodge so
Speaker 1: many people too, though I'd be like, like, how.
Speaker 2: Do like how does all your friends have boyfriends that
Speaker 2: you'd never end up?
Speaker 1: Or was before I did it, I would be like, Okay,
Speaker 1: you want my love, I'll give it to you. You know,
Speaker 1: I don't which I don't know if it's a good
Speaker 1: thing or bad thing. And sometimes I wonder if I
Speaker 1: if I'm missing my love, you know, because I'm so
Speaker 1: caicky now whereas before, why I wasn't that picky. I
Speaker 1: wasn't that picky, not to say my friends aren't that picky,
Speaker 1: because actually a lot of my friends are single. But like,
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't.
Speaker 2: See, I don't I don't get a lot of boyfriend
Speaker 2: like opportunities. I don't think, I mean, I mean, I
Speaker 2: don't think I give people enough time to get to
Speaker 2: the opportunity to be my boyfriend, like quite next week
Speaker 2: and probably yeah, part of it is like the really
Speaker 2: nice guys who could go there, Like I just.
Speaker 1: I can think of a few nice guy options I
Speaker 1: could have, Like I could still, I could foster and
Speaker 1: it could be more time, but I'm just not interested enough.
Speaker 2: I have to be interested enough to foster the relationship
Speaker 2: and you do too, And if it doesn't happen naturally.
Speaker 1: I'm cool with that. Maybe we could be friends, maybe
Speaker 1: we could have some like whatever.
Speaker 2: But like I think, naturally, if we both have a
Speaker 2: mutual like for each other, that's natural and organic. We
Speaker 2: will both foster that relationship, and I trust that it
Speaker 2: will be mutual. It just doesn't happen that often, because
Speaker 2: then everyone be falling in love every five minutes. Yeah,
Speaker 2: not this switch, not this switch either. I'm not a Yeah,
Speaker 2: I don't fall in love every five minutes.
Speaker 1: I'll fall in love for a week or two.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, even right now.
Speaker 1: I'm actually in love right now.
Speaker 2: I've had like I've had like a couple like crazy.
Speaker 2: That's another thing.
Speaker 1: So the Swedish guy, Swedish bae.
Speaker 2: I know it's so long, we're talking so much. She
Speaker 2: saw me to hurt. Yet, okay, fine, what we're talking
Speaker 2: about love?
Speaker 1: I'm in love.
Speaker 2: Oh I've had a couple of curzies.
Speaker 1: I was like, what have I end up together forever?
Speaker 1: But I realized how crazy women are. And I know
Speaker 1: it's not just me, And I know there's some pitches
Speaker 1: out there that don't do this shit, okay, but most
Speaker 1: of them, and you know what, more power to you.
Speaker 1: I want to be like you when I grow up,
Speaker 1: and I'm working on it, and sometimes I feel that way,
Speaker 1: but most of the time, I'm envisioning our future in
Speaker 1: marriage and babies together after our second date, and I'm
Speaker 1: just gonna keep it real with you, like do I
Speaker 1: like it's honestly out of my control at this point,
Speaker 1: Like it's not even like I'm trying to think about it.
Speaker 1: It's not happened.
Speaker 3: It just happens.
Speaker 1: I surrender. I'm not them. I think about them. They
Speaker 1: look cute or they don't, or they look I'm like,
Speaker 1: I get yeah, So that's it. That's that's it. And
Speaker 1: if and if you can't and you can, if you
Speaker 1: line to yourself and saying that you don't feel that.
Speaker 2: Way sometimes then I've been out with this guy twice
Speaker 2: since we've both re reconnected you and I've thought about
Speaker 2: all types of happy endings because I'm crisy, and even
Speaker 2: though he said white cock, I'm still thinking about it because.
Speaker 1: You're wedding in Sweden off the coast of Frands.
Speaker 2: He doesn't want to be married or have money more.
Speaker 2: You're but I'm also like caking, I convince some otherwise you're.
Speaker 1: You're togetherness ceremony.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I do want together in this ceremony. I'll suddle
Speaker 2: without having the legal papers, but also like I need
Speaker 2: to be your beneficiary. You feel like you can kill
Speaker 2: the man never, but I think I just never would
Speaker 2: never kill anyone, but unless you try to kill me.
Speaker 2: But what I'm saying is that's how people get fucked up.
Speaker 2: I know so many women who've been with men for
Speaker 2: twenty years. They never got married, but then at the
Speaker 2: end they're fucked and I don't even know how to
Speaker 2: work because they weren't doing shit to begin with.
Speaker 1: We need to have a setup.
Speaker 2: We don't have to get married, but we do need
Speaker 2: to set up anyway. Women are crazy, and so are we.
Speaker 2: And we're also yeah, and so are we. We're confused
Speaker 2: but not very clear.
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