WEBVTT - WOULD YOU EAT YOUR FRIEND'S LEG? 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:02.800 Hey, what's going on? Your name? 0:00:03.320 --> 0:00:12.000 My name's Max Max mm hmm, And I have a 0:00:12.039 --> 0:00:14.319 little bit of a hypothetical for you. I thought it 0:00:14.360 --> 0:00:15.160 would be interesting. 0:00:16.000 --> 0:00:18.240 Oh sure, what's the hypothetical? 0:00:20.200 --> 0:00:27.040 So hypothetically, I read an article on Vice one time. Right, So, hypothetothetically, 0:00:27.760 --> 0:00:30.800 if I had my leg amputated and I got to 0:00:30.880 --> 0:00:36.960 keep it right, and then I hired a professional fougias 0:00:37.560 --> 0:00:44.680 death like Gordon Ramsey Bobby Flay to uh cook this 0:00:45.560 --> 0:00:51.360 leg into burrito or something like that, would you take 0:00:51.400 --> 0:00:51.800 a bite? 0:00:54.760 --> 0:00:56.520 Would I take a bite of your leg? 0:00:59.160 --> 0:01:02.640 I guess anyone's legs. I don't think I have anything 0:01:02.680 --> 0:01:03.520 wrong with my leg. 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:09.640 Okay, So so a world class chef prepares a human leg, 0:01:12.680 --> 0:01:16.160 not my leg, just a random leg. When I take 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:21.399 a bite of the leg, m uh, where did they get. 0:01:21.240 --> 0:01:24.760 That h of a person? 0:01:24.920 --> 0:01:25.319 You got? 0:01:25.319 --> 0:01:29.640 I guess? Okay, I guess you would have to have 0:01:29.720 --> 0:01:31.880 the leg from me because I'm hiring the guy to 0:01:31.959 --> 0:01:32.280 do it. 0:01:33.680 --> 0:01:37.120 Okay, so you're telling me there you Okay? So I 0:01:37.240 --> 0:01:39.680 just gonna ask, is like, is every if? Because look, 0:01:39.720 --> 0:01:43.800 if a guy is giving up his leg, why is 0:01:43.800 --> 0:01:45.360 he giving up? Why are you giving up your leg? 0:01:45.400 --> 0:01:48.000 How did you lose your leg? I need way more details. 0:01:48.080 --> 0:01:51.120 It would already it was already dead. Like this is 0:01:51.200 --> 0:01:55.600 just purely coincidental. And I'm like, Okay, why not get 0:01:55.640 --> 0:01:58.000 some use out of this dead leg that's severed off 0:01:58.080 --> 0:01:58.880 with my body? 0:01:59.080 --> 0:02:01.280 Sure, all right, I'm gonna plan. I'm gonna pull it 0:02:01.320 --> 0:02:04.320 like this if I had a friend, I've had a 0:02:04.440 --> 0:02:09.640 rich friend, let's say, lost his leg in some whatever, 0:02:09.720 --> 0:02:14.080 crazy accident, but he got to keep it and they 0:02:14.080 --> 0:02:16.200 couldn't put it back on, And my friend called me 0:02:16.280 --> 0:02:22.680 up and he was like, la, listen, I'm hiring Gordon 0:02:22.800 --> 0:02:26.920 Ramsay to make a delicious meal out of my leg, 0:02:27.800 --> 0:02:29.400 and I would like you to come to my house 0:02:29.440 --> 0:02:33.400 for dinner tonight to eat my leg with me. One 0:02:33.480 --> 0:02:35.960 hundred percent I would say, yes, absolutely, I would eat. 0:02:35.960 --> 0:02:39.680 I would eat my friend's leg with him. So, I 0:02:39.680 --> 0:02:42.560 guess to answer your question, it would really depend on 0:02:42.840 --> 0:02:47.760 if if it was a random guy's leg, I don't 0:02:47.760 --> 0:02:51.000 think I would do it, But if I knew the person, 0:02:51.639 --> 0:02:56.320 because it's an intimate thing to eat somebody, and so 0:02:57.000 --> 0:03:00.720 I would. I would want to know the person. I 0:03:00.720 --> 0:03:02.840 would want to have a relationship with them before I 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:03.519 ate their leg. 0:03:05.080 --> 0:03:08.040 I guess this is uh, this is an icebreaker. I 0:03:08.160 --> 0:03:09.240 like to use a lot. 0:03:11.080 --> 0:03:12.760 As one of the first things you bring up in 0:03:12.800 --> 0:03:13.919 conversation with a person. 0:03:15.280 --> 0:03:21.280 Sometimes, yeah, especially how does that go for you? Usually 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:24.400 makes me seem a little nuts. But then like, if 0:03:24.400 --> 0:03:28.639 they match the crazy, you know, it's it's gonna go fine. 0:03:29.240 --> 0:03:32.000 That's brilliant, That's that's pretty smart. 0:03:33.440 --> 0:03:34.000 I would think. 0:03:34.080 --> 0:03:36.640 So, all right, what about you? Would you eat the leg? 0:03:38.360 --> 0:03:43.440 Oh? Hell yeah, dude, I would purely because like, you're 0:03:43.480 --> 0:03:47.080 never going to get that meat again, right, like, unless 0:03:47.200 --> 0:03:52.760 you're a fucking cannibal. And some people answer this like, oh, 0:03:52.840 --> 0:03:55.000 once you eat a little bit of the leg, you're 0:03:55.080 --> 0:03:57.000 just a cannibal. And I can't get past that. 0:03:58.040 --> 0:04:01.080 Well you you, but hold on, hold on, hold on, 0:04:01.280 --> 0:04:04.560 If you eat the leg, you're totally I don't know 0:04:04.600 --> 0:04:06.240 if we need to put a whole label on it. 0:04:06.280 --> 0:04:09.000 I don't know if if you, as a person become 0:04:09.040 --> 0:04:12.040 a cannibal, but you are I mean, what it really 0:04:12.120 --> 0:04:13.400 is a cannibal? 0:04:14.200 --> 0:04:14.480 Right? 0:04:14.640 --> 0:04:18.839 Is it a person who regularly engages in cannibalism. I 0:04:18.839 --> 0:04:21.159 don't know if if your whole existence needs to be 0:04:21.240 --> 0:04:25.200 labeled with your cannibal But you are absolutely undeniably engaging 0:04:25.600 --> 0:04:29.200 in an act of cannibalism. 0:04:29.320 --> 0:04:35.240 Yeah, but Mike, it's ethical cannibalism, I think I. 0:04:35.240 --> 0:04:37.880 Don't know if it's ethical as in, like, well, I 0:04:37.880 --> 0:04:41.719 don't know if ethical means it produces active good, but 0:04:41.800 --> 0:04:45.760 I don't think it produces active harm. 0:04:45.920 --> 0:04:47.640 Yeah, it's more of a neutral. 0:04:49.279 --> 0:04:53.640 It's it is a very neutral cannibalism. That's a great 0:04:53.640 --> 0:04:57.640 way to put it. So, yes, I would engage in 0:04:57.680 --> 0:05:02.800 neutral cannibalism. I can't think of a situation in which 0:05:02.800 --> 0:05:06.880 cannibalism would produce a positive effect, can you? 0:05:10.160 --> 0:05:15.160 Uh, maybe if your friend dies in the zombie apocalypse 0:05:15.360 --> 0:05:18.359 and you really like out of starvation or something, and 0:05:18.400 --> 0:05:20.240 you're just stranded in the middle of nowhere and you 0:05:20.240 --> 0:05:22.960 have nothing to eat, I can see how cannibalism would 0:05:22.960 --> 0:05:24.719 have a positive effect there. 0:05:25.279 --> 0:05:29.960 Right, Or if like there's a dead guy in front 0:05:29.960 --> 0:05:33.039 of a door that a bunch of people are trying 0:05:33.040 --> 0:05:36.080 to get into the place that the door leads to, 0:05:36.920 --> 0:05:40.240 and you eat the dead guy so that people can 0:05:40.279 --> 0:05:43.080 get into the door, that would that would be a 0:05:43.120 --> 0:05:48.320 positive effect for other people. So there is positive cannibalism 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:52.000 and neutral cannibalism. Yeah, and all and also bad cannibalism. 0:05:52.080 --> 0:05:57.320 There's situations in which eating a person is bad too. 0:05:59.480 --> 0:06:02.120 So I'm going to I got a three sixty view 0:06:02.160 --> 0:06:04.800 of cannibalism over the course of this call. Where is 0:06:04.800 --> 0:06:05.599 the line. 0:06:07.360 --> 0:06:11.120 Yes or does it cross into bad territory? 0:06:11.160 --> 0:06:16.039 Do you think I think if you kill a person 0:06:17.640 --> 0:06:23.119 with the express intent of eating their dead body after 0:06:23.200 --> 0:06:33.039 you kill them, I think that is bad. Interested, Max, 0:06:33.120 --> 0:06:37.920 Is there anything the computer before we got Uh? 0:06:37.960 --> 0:06:43.039 Well, I'm just glad you took my time on this. 0:06:43.680 --> 0:06:46.200 I was having a bad night. You made it pretty good. Man. 0:06:46.800 --> 0:06:47.200 Thanks. 0:06:47.279 --> 0:06:50.440 Hey man, listen, if you ever, if you ever do 0:06:50.600 --> 0:06:52.440 lose your leg and you want me to come eat 0:06:52.440 --> 0:06:53.920 your leg with you, I would do it. 0:06:56.279 --> 0:06:57.680 I'll give you. I'll give you a call. 0:06:57.760 --> 0:07:05.240 Man, Thanks for calling. Man. Yeah, he said you got it, 0:07:05.240 --> 0:07:08.840 but I cut them off at the end. Hey, is 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:09.640 this gummy worm? 0:07:10.720 --> 0:07:11.200 Yeah? 0:07:11.680 --> 0:07:13.000 So gummy worm? What's going on with you? 0:07:13.520 --> 0:07:13.720 Well? 0:07:13.760 --> 0:07:18.720 This is oh, yeah, this is pretty cool. Yeah. I 0:07:18.760 --> 0:07:22.480 got diagnosed with a thing with my eyes. It was 0:07:22.520 --> 0:07:27.800 called retinitis pigman tosa, and it's like basically going to 0:07:27.880 --> 0:07:31.440 take my vision in the next like five, ten, fifteen years. 0:07:31.440 --> 0:07:35.840 Somewhere in that window of time, and this has happened 0:07:35.880 --> 0:07:39.280 pretty recently, so it's just kind of given me a 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:45.040 lot of It's given me like a new perspective on 0:07:46.240 --> 0:07:48.240 what I should be doing with my days in my 0:07:48.320 --> 0:07:49.920 life and my future and stuff. 0:07:51.040 --> 0:07:55.080 Interesting. Interesting. What kind of perspective has it given you 0:07:55.120 --> 0:07:56.320 as to what you should be doing? 0:07:59.280 --> 0:08:03.200 I think for the most part, I think it's given 0:08:03.280 --> 0:08:06.040 me sort of this sort of this more go get 0:08:06.080 --> 0:08:11.040 them type attitude towards like, you know, getting the things 0:08:11.080 --> 0:08:15.680 I want and seeing, like going out and seeing and 0:08:15.720 --> 0:08:18.880 doing things. Because I used to be kind of a 0:08:19.720 --> 0:08:22.320 it used to be kind of like a social like introvert, 0:08:22.520 --> 0:08:25.760 kind of shut in a little bit, not really like 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:28.320 wanting to do much and not really like wanting to 0:08:28.360 --> 0:08:31.280 go out and do things. And in a sense, you know, 0:08:31.320 --> 0:08:34.400 in a sense, I haven't. It's not like I've changed 0:08:34.440 --> 0:08:36.959 completely as a person or anything like that given this 0:08:37.040 --> 0:08:39.680 new sort of thing in my life. But I think 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:45.040 now it's sort of like I don't know, I just 0:08:45.080 --> 0:08:48.600 feel like more motivated to like go and see some 0:08:48.640 --> 0:08:53.520 stuff before I like, you know, can't right right. 0:08:54.040 --> 0:08:57.880 It's this is interesting because you know, I know you 0:08:58.000 --> 0:09:01.880 have a thing where you you know that you're going 0:09:01.960 --> 0:09:05.880 to not be able to see in the next what 0:09:05.880 --> 0:09:10.840 you said, ten years. 0:09:08.840 --> 0:09:12.000 Yeah, somewhere like next yeah, somewhere in the next five 0:09:12.120 --> 0:09:15.520 ten or fifteen, like fifteen is years. Kind of depends 0:09:15.840 --> 0:09:16.719 see the thing with the. 0:09:18.640 --> 0:09:19.040 Go ahead. 0:09:21.280 --> 0:09:23.960 Oh no, it's just like you know, uh, it's just 0:09:24.000 --> 0:09:26.120 like a weird window of time. It depends on how 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:30.400 far it's like progressed. So it's like mine, my personal 0:09:30.640 --> 0:09:35.800 my personal like condition like status is that you know, 0:09:36.000 --> 0:09:38.240 it's probably going to be in like ten. 0:09:38.200 --> 0:09:39.360 Or fifteen years. 0:09:40.400 --> 0:09:43.240 It's interesting to me that this has motivated you and 0:09:43.280 --> 0:09:46.439 lit a fire under your ass to be more tenacious 0:09:46.600 --> 0:09:53.400 because we all do have an expiration date. We're all 0:09:53.440 --> 0:09:56.840 going to die, We're all going to lose our sight 0:09:56.920 --> 0:10:01.720 at some points that could be any day in the future. 0:10:03.280 --> 0:10:12.000 And this diagnosis putting a sort of more finite, tangible 0:10:12.080 --> 0:10:19.280 timer on your site has has now that it's a tangible, 0:10:19.360 --> 0:10:24.280 finite thing, it's it's inspired you to move about the 0:10:24.400 --> 0:10:26.960 universe and do things. 0:10:28.200 --> 0:10:31.800 Yeah, like I used to like kind of put things 0:10:31.840 --> 0:10:34.640 off a lot and like say no to a lot 0:10:34.640 --> 0:10:37.440 of things. Like I didn't I didn't really want to 0:10:37.480 --> 0:10:41.160 go out and do things like you know, partying or 0:10:42.040 --> 0:10:44.200 you know, not saying that this has like been my 0:10:44.280 --> 0:10:46.480 excuse to party it up or anything like that. But 0:10:46.679 --> 0:10:50.200 you know, I used to just kind of feel like 0:10:50.240 --> 0:10:52.760 I wasn't gaining any sort of value out of doing 0:10:52.760 --> 0:10:58.000 those kinds of experiences. And now that and now, like 0:10:58.040 --> 0:10:59.800 you said, now that I got this like fire on 0:10:59.840 --> 0:11:02.240 your my ass a little bit, and like I have 0:11:02.360 --> 0:11:05.839 to kind of take it all in while I still can. 0:11:06.679 --> 0:11:09.240 It's it's a weird saying. It's kind of like now 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:14.440 I feel I can, you know, sort of almost see 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:17.560 my goals a little bit better now and start like 0:11:18.080 --> 0:11:20.120 strategizing better on what I want to do. 0:11:21.480 --> 0:11:25.640 So so hit us, Okay, these these goals, these things 0:11:25.679 --> 0:11:30.800 that you want to do, this this uh uh you 0:11:30.800 --> 0:11:34.959 know tenacity that you now have? What what are these things? 0:11:37.280 --> 0:11:42.680 Well? I dropped out of school, like too, like a 0:11:42.760 --> 0:11:45.480 year ago, a year and a half ago or something 0:11:45.480 --> 0:11:47.600 like that. I dropped out of college, out of film school. 0:11:48.200 --> 0:11:50.840 I just didn't like my major and I didn't know 0:11:50.840 --> 0:11:52.920 what I was going to do. Like I just kind 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:55.480 of decided that maybe school wasn't for me, and I 0:11:55.520 --> 0:11:59.320 was just gonna, i don't know, like work a regular 0:11:59.440 --> 0:12:03.160 job and just like climb climb the ladder that way. 0:12:03.200 --> 0:12:07.920 But now that like I have this diagnosis, I kind 0:12:07.920 --> 0:12:09.800 of want to go back to school. Like I kind 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:12.560 of want to like get a job in something that 0:12:12.600 --> 0:12:18.080 I actually feel passionate about and like and you know, 0:12:18.480 --> 0:12:20.840 maybe a job that I can probably do even after 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:22.800 I lose my vision. So I don't know. I think 0:12:22.800 --> 0:12:25.560 I'm going to go into school and try to get 0:12:25.559 --> 0:12:28.960 my uh get my license to become like a social 0:12:29.000 --> 0:12:30.840 worker or like a psychologist or. 0:12:30.840 --> 0:12:31.480 Something like that. 0:12:32.720 --> 0:12:36.880 Interesting, I want to travel. Yeah, So you've described a 0:12:36.920 --> 0:12:41.200 few things you you you are describing right now the 0:12:41.240 --> 0:12:44.960 way that this diagnosis has influenced you in terms of 0:12:45.000 --> 0:12:48.280 your long term vision for your life, which I find 0:12:48.360 --> 0:12:53.400 very interesting because you mentioned that, But then you were 0:12:53.440 --> 0:12:58.640 also mentioning partying, saying yes to things, just sort of 0:12:58.640 --> 0:13:03.040 in your day to day life life, trying to take 0:13:03.080 --> 0:13:06.520 the moretinacity of what's right in front of you. And 0:13:06.559 --> 0:13:11.240 I find it interesting that both your short term day 0:13:11.280 --> 0:13:14.199 to day life as well as how you're thinking about 0:13:14.240 --> 0:13:16.640 your you know whatever, your ten year plan, your five 0:13:16.720 --> 0:13:19.480 year plan, have both been affected. 0:13:21.840 --> 0:13:23.960 Oh yeah, no, because at the end of the day, 0:13:24.120 --> 0:13:26.640 like I still I'm still able to see right now, 0:13:27.240 --> 0:13:29.280 and as far as I can tell, my vision will 0:13:29.280 --> 0:13:32.920 still be okay ish for the next five ten years. 0:13:32.960 --> 0:13:35.520 So I don't know, it's sort of like given me 0:13:35.559 --> 0:13:41.120 this feeling of like it's like I just want to 0:13:41.160 --> 0:13:44.320 see and do as many things as the same person 0:13:44.400 --> 0:13:47.200 can do before that time is up, you know what 0:13:47.200 --> 0:13:49.280 I mean. And I'm not saying that, you know, blind 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:53.720 people don't like live a fulfilled life or anything like that. 0:13:53.840 --> 0:13:55.960 It's just sort of like when you grow up. I'm 0:13:56.000 --> 0:13:59.800 twenty years old now, I've I've had my vision my 0:14:00.000 --> 0:14:03.719 whole life, and so now it's like, you know now 0:14:03.760 --> 0:14:05.920 that it's not going to be a thing anymore. It's 0:14:05.960 --> 0:14:08.360 not you know, it's going to get taken away. Essentially, 0:14:09.400 --> 0:14:12.400 I'm now sort of like forced to sort of think 0:14:12.440 --> 0:14:16.040 about the things that I haven't seen or the things 0:14:16.080 --> 0:14:19.000 that I haven't done that would be more and much 0:14:19.040 --> 0:14:20.880 more difficult to do as a blind person. 0:14:21.680 --> 0:14:26.840 Yeah, yeah, what are those things? In particularly? You know, 0:14:26.920 --> 0:14:30.400 I'm I'm I'm happy to hear that you've established for 0:14:30.440 --> 0:14:36.840 yourself a sustainable, long term type of plan with you know, 0:14:36.880 --> 0:14:39.440 going back to school, getting your job, But tell us 0:14:39.480 --> 0:14:42.680 about some crazy shit that you want to do. I 0:14:42.760 --> 0:14:46.120 know it's lingering in your brain of like the the 0:14:46.240 --> 0:14:51.520 yoloy fucking let's go to the Grand Canyon type. I 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:53.320 don't know why I picked the Grand Canyon, but you 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:55.760 know what I'm talking about, What are these kinds of 0:14:55.800 --> 0:14:58.600 things that you want to go see and do and whatnot? 0:15:00.480 --> 0:15:04.040 Well, you know, as as of like the super crazy stuff. 0:15:04.040 --> 0:15:06.040 I mean you listed off the Grand Canyon. That is 0:15:06.080 --> 0:15:08.840 actually something that I written. I'll wrote on my list, 0:15:09.080 --> 0:15:12.800 like I have a list. It's like, you know, stuff, 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:16.280 there's like normal stuff and like going to you know, 0:15:16.440 --> 0:15:19.480 visit Japan and you know, going to the Grand Canyon 0:15:19.560 --> 0:15:23.960 and traveling, you know, traveling in the United States. As 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:26.160 for like the crazy stuff, I've always kind of wanted 0:15:26.200 --> 0:15:31.080 to hitch hike somewhere or like train hop mm hmmm mmm. 0:15:31.280 --> 0:15:32.280 Do you think you'll ever do it? 0:15:35.720 --> 0:15:39.920 Yeah, I don't know, Like it's kind of hard. I 0:15:40.360 --> 0:15:40.760 kind of. 0:15:43.920 --> 0:15:46.680 Hmm. I don't know. 0:15:46.720 --> 0:15:52.280 I want to say yes, but it's like I got 0:15:53.160 --> 0:15:53.560 I don't know. 0:15:53.800 --> 0:15:54.240 I don't know. 0:15:55.800 --> 0:16:00.680 It's interesting to have a a finite timeline that you're 0:16:00.720 --> 0:16:03.920 working with here, because we think of life as so infinite, 0:16:04.480 --> 0:16:07.280 as we think of time as there will always be 0:16:07.400 --> 0:16:11.160 it we think of. You know, you know, when you 0:16:11.240 --> 0:16:14.160 have something that you want to do that you just 0:16:14.160 --> 0:16:16.080 don't have time for right now, you kind of place 0:16:16.160 --> 0:16:19.600 it in the ether of maybe I'll do it someday. 0:16:19.640 --> 0:16:23.440 But I mean this is very very cheesy but also 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:26.640 extremely true. I'm finding that the more I think about 0:16:26.680 --> 0:16:31.480 shit like the cheesiest, clichest shit, it's you know, it's 0:16:31.560 --> 0:16:35.480 cliche for a reason because it's damn true. Like the 0:16:35.520 --> 0:16:39.280 whole someday is not a day thing. I mean, it's true. 0:16:39.680 --> 0:16:40.920 You know, if you want to actually do you have 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:42.400 to do it now or else you're not going to 0:16:42.520 --> 0:16:47.440 do it. And it's interesting that you are playing with 0:16:47.480 --> 0:16:50.080 this timeline here, because you know, like, Okay, if I 0:16:50.080 --> 0:16:53.240 don't do it this year, and then I don't do 0:16:53.280 --> 0:16:54.480 it next year, and I don't do it the year 0:16:54.520 --> 0:16:55.760 after that, I don't do the year after that, I 0:16:55.760 --> 0:16:57.280 don't do it the year after that, then fuck, I'm 0:16:57.280 --> 0:16:58.360 not gonna be able to do it anymore. 0:17:01.120 --> 0:17:05.320 Yeah, no, exactly. So as of right now, I've you know, 0:17:05.440 --> 0:17:09.840 I only got diagnosed like through three months ago, like 0:17:09.880 --> 0:17:12.720 three months ago something like that, and so far I've 0:17:12.720 --> 0:17:15.719 already done like I've already done so many things that 0:17:15.800 --> 0:17:18.520 I never like thought that I would do. Like I've 0:17:19.160 --> 0:17:24.119 like I went to uh yeah, this is a yeah, 0:17:24.119 --> 0:17:27.040 this isn't. Like about three months or ago, I went 0:17:27.119 --> 0:17:29.120 to like a rave for the first time. 0:17:29.680 --> 0:17:35.159 Fuck yeah, yeah, how is that? Is that something you've 0:17:35.200 --> 0:17:36.000 always wanted to do? 0:17:37.920 --> 0:17:40.000 Yeah, I've always like seen it in TV shows and 0:17:40.000 --> 0:17:42.199 stuff and thought like, oh shit, I want to do that. 0:17:42.640 --> 0:17:45.040 And then, like like I said, I never really like 0:17:45.880 --> 0:17:49.760 decided to do it for myself. And then I got 0:17:49.760 --> 0:17:52.439 the news that I might have this condition, and then 0:17:52.480 --> 0:17:54.040 I just sort of like pulled the trigger and. 0:17:54.119 --> 0:17:55.440 Was like, fuck, yeah I should do it. 0:17:56.920 --> 0:17:59.040 And how was the hard? It was low key hard, 0:17:59.800 --> 0:18:01.040 really tell me why it was cool? 0:18:01.119 --> 0:18:03.280 It was really well. 0:18:03.760 --> 0:18:08.520 So the reason why this even came up was one 0:18:08.520 --> 0:18:10.840 of the side effects of my conditions that I can't 0:18:10.880 --> 0:18:14.159 like see in the dark, like literally at all, so 0:18:14.880 --> 0:18:16.800 like you know, you turn off, you turn off the 0:18:16.880 --> 0:18:19.800 lights and it's like fucking pitch black. So the only 0:18:19.800 --> 0:18:22.800 reason I was having a touch time was because like, uh, 0:18:23.440 --> 0:18:25.720 after like you know, being in the crowd or whatever, 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:27.439 you can go to the back and like sit in 0:18:27.480 --> 0:18:29.000 the seat, and my friends were all sitting in the 0:18:29.040 --> 0:18:30.840 seats and I went up to take a whiz and 0:18:30.880 --> 0:18:33.159 I came back and it's like pitch black, and I 0:18:33.280 --> 0:18:36.160 just fucking I can't find my friends or some shit 0:18:36.280 --> 0:18:38.520 like that, you know, or like the flashing lights will 0:18:38.560 --> 0:18:42.200 like blind me temporarily. But it was so cool. 0:18:42.320 --> 0:18:43.080 It was super cool. 0:18:43.680 --> 0:18:46.800 M that's awesome to hear that it was a good 0:18:46.840 --> 0:18:49.639 experience for you. And and and tell me, is there 0:18:49.640 --> 0:18:51.600 anything else that you've done in the past three months 0:18:51.600 --> 0:18:55.640 that you were just always kind of waiting to do, 0:18:55.840 --> 0:18:58.919 but but now you you took your opportunity to do it. 0:19:02.240 --> 0:19:06.040 This is going to sound like kind of like I 0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:08.680 don't know, this is gonna sound definitely like smaller scale, 0:19:09.119 --> 0:19:13.919 you know. But like I talk, I find myself like 0:19:14.040 --> 0:19:16.479 talking to people a lot more and like looking at 0:19:16.520 --> 0:19:20.560 people's like faces and their features and stuff. Do you 0:19:20.640 --> 0:19:22.760 know it's okay, I don't know, Like it's kind of 0:19:24.160 --> 0:19:24.720 don't I want you. 0:19:24.720 --> 0:19:26.679 To finish, but I have a thought for you, But 0:19:26.760 --> 0:19:27.840 I want to hear I want to hear you finish. 0:19:28.040 --> 0:19:29.040 I find that really interesting. 0:19:30.160 --> 0:19:31.679 I was like, yeah, it's kind of it's kind of 0:19:31.680 --> 0:19:34.680 a weird thing. But like before the diagnosis, I never 0:19:34.720 --> 0:19:37.560 really like looked at people when I was talking to him. 0:19:37.600 --> 0:19:40.960 I never like bothered to notice like, oh, this guy's 0:19:41.000 --> 0:19:43.520 got a scar on his eyebrow, or you know, this 0:19:43.600 --> 0:19:47.520 person has a you know, like a you know, one 0:19:47.600 --> 0:19:51.359 color eye is one color and the other eyes another color. 0:19:51.560 --> 0:19:54.479 Stuff like that, you know. And now I'm kind of 0:19:54.520 --> 0:19:57.520 like finding myself like taking these sort of like mental 0:19:57.560 --> 0:20:00.760 notes and characteristics of people as I talk to them, 0:20:00.920 --> 0:20:03.960 or like, yeah, even approaching them to talk to them 0:20:03.960 --> 0:20:06.000 in the first place was something I didn't really even 0:20:06.080 --> 0:20:08.200 used to do, and now I kind of find myself 0:20:08.240 --> 0:20:08.840 like wanting to. 0:20:08.800 --> 0:20:09.240 Do it more. 0:20:10.040 --> 0:20:14.200 Mm hmmm, hmmm, mm hmm. That's fucking awesome. The reason why, 0:20:14.680 --> 0:20:17.640 the reason why that got me so excited is you 0:20:17.640 --> 0:20:20.560 you said, it's a small thing. That's the biggest thing, 0:20:21.040 --> 0:20:26.119 because you can't fucking go skydiving and see the Grand 0:20:26.160 --> 0:20:30.640 Canyon and have like you can't go on grand amazing 0:20:30.720 --> 0:20:34.399 adventures every hour of every day of your life. But 0:20:34.480 --> 0:20:41.040 what you're talking about just being observant, really really looking 0:20:41.080 --> 0:20:44.680 at people in the fucking face when you're talking to them, 0:20:44.680 --> 0:20:47.719 going out of your way to talk to people, just 0:20:48.280 --> 0:20:52.439 really observing and taking mental notes of the things in 0:20:52.520 --> 0:20:55.240 front of you. That's you said it was a small thing. 0:20:55.240 --> 0:20:59.800 It's the biggest thing. It's what you're doing every single day. 0:21:00.400 --> 0:21:03.359 It's what's right in front of you and you talking 0:21:03.400 --> 0:21:08.679 about actually instead of you know, dozing off or or 0:21:08.880 --> 0:21:16.280 or getting distracted, like really putting yourself into your conversations, 0:21:16.280 --> 0:21:18.240 into what you see on a day to day basis. 0:21:18.280 --> 0:21:19.760 I mean, that's that's incredible to hear. 0:21:22.320 --> 0:21:23.399 Oh yeah, no, totally. 0:21:24.080 --> 0:21:25.439 Yeah, never really big thing. 0:21:25.880 --> 0:21:29.840 I never really did that before. Yeah, totally mm hmm. 0:21:30.280 --> 0:21:34.119 So tell me, yeah, it's just the whole No, go ahead, 0:21:34.240 --> 0:21:34.800 go ahead. 0:21:34.600 --> 0:21:35.320 No you please. 0:21:39.200 --> 0:21:39.840 Well I was just. 0:21:39.760 --> 0:21:42.680 Gonna say, like the whole I don't know, like you said, 0:21:42.840 --> 0:21:46.280 just like the whole day, like dazing, like dozing off, 0:21:46.440 --> 0:21:50.240 not paying attention, sort of like lulling through your days 0:21:50.240 --> 0:21:53.080 without really looking at anything, Like, honest to god, I 0:21:53.160 --> 0:21:55.119 used to just like stare at my phone all the time, 0:21:55.160 --> 0:21:58.399 like riding on the bus or you know, or like 0:21:58.480 --> 0:22:02.080 walking somewhere going to work, like and now now I 0:22:02.080 --> 0:22:07.560 feel so much like even with the diagnosis, now I'm 0:22:07.560 --> 0:22:12.000 almost thankful for like having that diagnosis a little bit, 0:22:12.119 --> 0:22:14.480 or like I'm almost thankful that you know, my vision 0:22:14.560 --> 0:22:16.720 is something that wasn't going to be permanent, because I 0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:24.560 don't know if I don't know, if I don't know 0:22:24.600 --> 0:22:27.240 if like I would have ever sort of kind of 0:22:27.240 --> 0:22:30.040 woken up from that sort of lifestyle if I hadn't 0:22:30.880 --> 0:22:31.720 had something like. 0:22:31.680 --> 0:22:32.440 This in my life. 0:22:34.520 --> 0:22:42.479 That's fascinating. That's really fascinating. Man. Hmmm. So, so in 0:22:42.600 --> 0:22:46.080 moments typically when you would be looking at your phone, 0:22:46.920 --> 0:22:51.000 you know, when you're riding the bus or any sort 0:22:51.040 --> 0:22:54.000 of thing like that, are you finding yourself just looking 0:22:54.040 --> 0:22:54.520 at things? 0:22:57.119 --> 0:23:01.280 Oh yeah, Oh definitely. I live like even one of 0:23:01.280 --> 0:23:05.000 the most interesting like people watching places in the world, 0:23:05.560 --> 0:23:09.680 and so like I find myself just you know, I 0:23:09.960 --> 0:23:12.240 write public transportation a lot, and so I just find 0:23:12.240 --> 0:23:14.880 myself looking out the window and just watching people now 0:23:15.080 --> 0:23:18.199 so much more often, not in like any sort of 0:23:18.200 --> 0:23:20.760 weird way. I'm not staring at people or anything like that, 0:23:20.880 --> 0:23:23.080 but like I just noticed things that people do now 0:23:23.480 --> 0:23:27.639 and like, you know, just watch people kind of do 0:23:27.720 --> 0:23:29.320 their silly little tasks. 0:23:31.560 --> 0:23:35.160 Yeah. Yeah, it's uh, I've done that shit before too, 0:23:35.240 --> 0:23:38.280 where like I go, okay, I'm I'm you know, I'm 0:23:38.280 --> 0:23:39.960 also I'm addition to my phone and I'm on and 0:23:39.960 --> 0:23:42.200 all the time, and I sometimes I go like, Okay, no, 0:23:42.600 --> 0:23:47.000 I'm just gonna sit here and uh stare at the 0:23:47.080 --> 0:23:50.359 old lady in front of me at the grocery store, 0:23:51.040 --> 0:23:53.200 look like no, like I literally, I literally I do this. 0:23:53.280 --> 0:23:56.160 I do. I know exactly what you're talking about because 0:23:56.160 --> 0:23:59.320 I've been trying to do it more where you just 0:23:59.359 --> 0:24:01.720 like you stare, You're like, what is this? What is 0:24:01.760 --> 0:24:02.480 this woman's life? 0:24:02.680 --> 0:24:02.760 Like? 0:24:03.480 --> 0:24:06.240 You're like, listen to the way that she talks, you, 0:24:06.359 --> 0:24:09.600 listen to the way that the cashier responds. Think about 0:24:09.600 --> 0:24:13.080 what's what's what? What the cashier's life is? Like? You 0:24:13.119 --> 0:24:16.120 look at the lines on their faces and you're kind 0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:20.320 of it's really beautiful. It's weird. It's like you kind 0:24:20.400 --> 0:24:24.719 of we're getting we're getting into it here. But you 0:24:24.720 --> 0:24:27.119 don't have to go to the fucking Grand Canyon to 0:24:27.160 --> 0:24:29.800 see some beautiful shit. It's right in front of you. 0:24:29.800 --> 0:24:32.760 You just got to notice it and pay attention and 0:24:32.760 --> 0:24:35.960 and really try to make an effort to see it. 0:24:36.560 --> 0:24:39.760 And it's it's it's super cool to me that even 0:24:39.800 --> 0:24:45.320 though you have this this diagnosis that's a really tough 0:24:45.320 --> 0:24:52.360 thing to digest, that it's getting you more into that mindset. 0:24:51.160 --> 0:24:53.879 No, totally. I feel so much like I feel so 0:24:53.960 --> 0:24:56.960 much less like internalized with my thoughts and emotions. No, 0:24:57.080 --> 0:25:01.240 I almost feel very like outwards and like, yeah, a 0:25:01.280 --> 0:25:02.280 lot of people now. 0:25:02.800 --> 0:25:05.920 Yeah dude, ah, man, that's so cool to hear. That's 0:25:05.960 --> 0:25:11.000 so cool to hear. Yeah, that's so cool to hear. 0:25:11.119 --> 0:25:11.320 Man. 0:25:11.960 --> 0:25:14.280 That's it. That's the big thing. So you presented this 0:25:14.400 --> 0:25:16.639 and like I I got so excited when you presented 0:25:16.680 --> 0:25:19.880 it as a small thing because I wanted to be like, no, dude, 0:25:19.880 --> 0:25:23.600 that's the big that's the fucking biggest thing. It really is. 0:25:23.640 --> 0:25:27.880 Because it's a day. It's day to Yeah, yeah, it's 0:25:28.000 --> 0:25:32.320 day to day. It's it's you know when you go 0:25:32.440 --> 0:25:34.760 when you're at your office or wherever you work at. 0:25:34.920 --> 0:25:39.320 You know, if you fucking work at an advertising agency 0:25:39.480 --> 0:25:45.760 in Phoenix, Arizona, and you go from your desk to 0:25:45.840 --> 0:25:48.840 the to the fridge in the kitchen to get a 0:25:48.840 --> 0:25:51.800 bottle of water, and you say hi to a person 0:25:51.840 --> 0:25:54.359 that you know you work with, you know, really be 0:25:54.520 --> 0:25:56.439 there when you're saying hi to them, Really look at 0:25:56.440 --> 0:26:00.639 their fucking face, Really be in that conversation, just in 0:26:00.720 --> 0:26:02.960 the in the in the day to day. It's it's 0:26:03.240 --> 0:26:07.000 it's finding this ship in the day of to day. 0:26:07.800 --> 0:26:11.920 That's that's so not key. I'm I'm I'm stoked to 0:26:11.960 --> 0:26:12.399 hear all that. 0:26:12.440 --> 0:26:12.600 Man. 0:26:12.640 --> 0:26:14.520 That that's that's that's really something. 0:26:16.760 --> 0:26:18.000 Hey, I appreciate it, GEK. 0:26:20.320 --> 0:26:23.880 Dude, is there anything else that you wanted to talk 0:26:23.920 --> 0:26:27.720 about or or say before we go? It's been a 0:26:27.760 --> 0:26:29.439 real pleasure talking about this stuff. 0:26:32.560 --> 0:26:33.359 Hey, Yeah, No, I. 0:26:33.560 --> 0:26:35.919 I just appreciated Gek. I've been a longtime fan of 0:26:35.920 --> 0:26:39.480 the show. I'm really surprised that I called it like that. 0:26:39.560 --> 0:26:43.800 I got in when I called in. Yeah, man, I 0:26:43.800 --> 0:26:46.720 think you're doing some amazing work here. I feel like 0:26:46.720 --> 0:26:49.120 you're probably so wise after doing so. 0:26:49.119 --> 0:26:49.680 Many of these. 0:26:49.760 --> 0:26:53.080 Now, No, I'm just a fucking guy in a Gecko 0:26:53.200 --> 0:26:55.400 costume on the Call of Duty website. But I appreciate 0:26:55.440 --> 0:26:58.240 you saying that, and you're fucking wise. 0:26:58.320 --> 0:26:58.520 Man. 0:26:58.800 --> 0:27:01.280 You're gonna learn a lot just being in the moment. 0:27:01.280 --> 0:27:03.840 You've inspired me, man, because I think I have. I've 0:27:03.840 --> 0:27:08.880 had some kicks where I've been really into the ship 0:27:08.920 --> 0:27:11.520 that you're describing of, like just looking up people's faces 0:27:11.600 --> 0:27:14.640 and trying to be more observant. And you know how 0:27:14.640 --> 0:27:16.800 it is when you do any self improvement thing. You 0:27:16.840 --> 0:27:19.160 get into it for a while and then you kind 0:27:19.160 --> 0:27:23.119 of slip back into your ways. But you've you've inspired me. Actually, 0:27:23.160 --> 0:27:25.000 I'm gonna I'm gonna try to take that back up. 0:27:27.160 --> 0:27:30.240 Hey man, I really appreciate that. Thanks for taking my call. 0:27:30.920 --> 0:27:33.960 Of course, thank you, gummy Worrem. 0:27:34.119 --> 0:27:34.800 I'll see you later. 0:27:34.880 --> 0:27:37.560 Done. 0:27:39.680 --> 0:27:45.560 Oh man, that was awesome. That was really great. Good 0:27:45.560 --> 0:27:49.439 for him, really really good for him. I love I 0:27:49.480 --> 0:27:52.600 love that that thing. It really it really. I'm not 0:27:52.640 --> 0:27:54.960 gonna say anything I didn't already say in that call, 0:27:55.080 --> 0:27:58.480 but it really feels like that's all there is. Right. 0:27:59.119 --> 0:28:04.920 I've always I've always felt like, if you can't, I'm 0:28:04.960 --> 0:28:07.320 just talking to myself. I'm not trying to lecture people. 0:28:07.320 --> 0:28:10.680 I'm talking to myself. And I've always thought for myself, like, man, 0:28:10.760 --> 0:28:20.280 if I can't find magnificent, awesome, spiritual beauty while I'm 0:28:20.520 --> 0:28:26.480 stone cold, sober, waiting in line at Ralph's, you know, 0:28:27.640 --> 0:28:33.159 staring at a looking at the person in front of me, 0:28:33.440 --> 0:28:37.040 or on the metro on the way to work in 0:28:37.080 --> 0:28:43.240 the morning, just looking out the window at a tree 0:28:44.000 --> 0:28:48.960 that I walk by every day. Right, if you can't 0:28:48.960 --> 0:28:53.120 find beauty wherever it is, you currently are in this 0:28:53.480 --> 0:28:56.680 very fucking moment, then you're not going to be able 0:28:56.680 --> 0:29:04.160 to find it going to some tropical, exotic location. Uh so, 0:29:04.160 --> 0:29:08.880 So I think that's really important, and I thank the 0:29:08.960 --> 0:29:20.600 caller for for bringing that up. It's a really great conversation. Hello, Hello, 0:29:22.440 --> 0:29:30.560 Hi there, Hi, what's going on? Oh? 0:29:30.680 --> 0:29:34.760 You know, just got done with the sash? 0:29:35.120 --> 0:29:36.000 Say that again. 0:29:38.320 --> 0:29:40.760 I just got done with smoking wheat. 0:29:42.120 --> 0:29:46.280 Oh okay, you tried to you kind of tried to 0:29:46.520 --> 0:29:49.560 do a little cool guy thing there. Just got done with. 0:29:49.800 --> 0:29:55.000 Yeah, just got done with the sash. Sorry. I I 0:29:55.000 --> 0:29:56.800 think it's the DPP adrenaline, you know. 0:29:57.720 --> 0:30:03.160 Okay, there's somebody screaming in the bat what is so? 0:30:03.240 --> 0:30:04.600 Why is somebody screaming? 0:30:06.040 --> 0:30:11.440 That's actually my cat. His name is Arth Okay, yeah, 0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:14.600 he like yells like a man, like a human. 0:30:14.360 --> 0:30:17.880 Screaming about anything in particular. Are you. 0:30:20.600 --> 0:30:23.760 Well, I actually just got back inside, and he's just 0:30:23.920 --> 0:30:24.840 really excited. 0:30:25.480 --> 0:30:29.840 He's like you because you're high. The cat has fear 0:30:29.880 --> 0:30:30.000 of you. 0:30:30.200 --> 0:30:36.480 No, she's uh, just really wanting attention and treats right now. 0:30:36.640 --> 0:30:38.360 He's a fat, fat cat. 0:30:39.360 --> 0:30:44.840 Okay, it's a loud cat. Well, so listen, Taylor, you 0:30:44.840 --> 0:30:47.320 said your name was? Or did I just bring that up, 0:30:48.880 --> 0:30:51.760 Taylor because I have a call screaming thing. Whatever, Taylor, 0:30:51.760 --> 0:30:53.640 what's going on with you? How's life? Tell me everything? 0:30:53.920 --> 0:30:54.560 Tell me nothing? 0:30:56.200 --> 0:31:00.320 So basically, I I've been I've been struggling a little bit. 0:31:03.840 --> 0:31:07.040 I had a customer at my at my job, I 0:31:07.080 --> 0:31:08.680 work at a smoke shop, so I have a lot 0:31:08.720 --> 0:31:10.080 of crackheads come in. 0:31:11.120 --> 0:31:11.920 And why. 0:31:15.000 --> 0:31:18.520 Yeah, exactly, I am one of those cool guys you know. 0:31:19.320 --> 0:31:23.160 Okay, okay, thank you for including me in the lingo 0:31:24.040 --> 0:31:27.360 of your culture. Anyway, you had a meth person, you 0:31:27.520 --> 0:31:30.160 had somebody who was on meth. We don't need to 0:31:30.160 --> 0:31:32.760 define this person. We don't need to call them a 0:31:32.760 --> 0:31:34.800 meth head, as if you know, their whole life is 0:31:34.840 --> 0:31:37.120 a big you know, but they were on math at 0:31:37.160 --> 0:31:43.280 the time that they were in your store. Continue exactly. 0:31:44.000 --> 0:31:47.280 He asked me if I was an NPC. If you 0:31:47.320 --> 0:31:49.400 know what an NPC is, I do. 0:31:49.400 --> 0:31:53.840 Know what an NPC is. It stands for non player character. 0:31:55.680 --> 0:32:02.680 Yep, a non playable character. Yes, And it kind of 0:32:02.720 --> 0:32:09.760 messed me up, Like this happened. This happened like two 0:32:09.800 --> 0:32:14.280 months ago, and uh, it's been on my mind ever since. 0:32:14.440 --> 0:32:17.240 And like I think about it at least twice a day. 0:32:18.160 --> 0:32:22.200 M why did it mess you up? And when you're 0:32:22.240 --> 0:32:25.640 thinking about it, what kinds of thoughts are you having? 0:32:29.560 --> 0:32:33.400 I just like almost realized I am that person behind 0:32:33.440 --> 0:32:38.239 the counter for a lot of people, you know, and like, 0:32:38.640 --> 0:32:41.760 I am that person who is doing things for people 0:32:41.880 --> 0:32:44.240 all the time and like kind of move people along. 0:32:45.040 --> 0:32:47.160 But I'm kind of like staying in the same place 0:32:47.600 --> 0:32:53.120 a majority of the time, and it's just kind of 0:32:53.160 --> 0:32:55.880 like a cycle. And it's a lot of the same 0:32:56.000 --> 0:33:00.160 people too, with like the occasional new person who who 0:33:00.200 --> 0:33:03.120 is like messing up the timeline And I'm like, whoa, 0:33:03.600 --> 0:33:06.680 what is this? So I like know what I'm supposed 0:33:06.680 --> 0:33:09.200 to say with most of the people that I talk to. 0:33:10.720 --> 0:33:14.600 Okay, let's impact this. You work at a small store 0:33:16.640 --> 0:33:23.680 where a select amount of local customers, recurring local customers 0:33:24.280 --> 0:33:28.600 are the clientele, and so you find yourself in a 0:33:28.640 --> 0:33:31.640 bit of a loop where you are performing the same tasks, 0:33:31.720 --> 0:33:34.840 talking to the same people over and over and over again, 0:33:35.520 --> 0:33:38.160 and that is distressing you. Is all that accurate? 0:33:40.120 --> 0:33:40.360 Yeah? 0:33:41.400 --> 0:33:46.920 Okay, So now that you've identified that you're in this loop, 0:33:47.640 --> 0:33:49.240 what is your relationship with the loop? How do you 0:33:49.280 --> 0:33:50.440 feel about being in this loop? 0:33:54.480 --> 0:33:59.960 I have mixed feelings about it. It's like, on one hand, 0:34:00.040 --> 0:34:04.960 and I'm really happy like helping people. I love being 0:34:05.000 --> 0:34:08.680 the person who makes someone else happy and like makes 0:34:08.719 --> 0:34:10.560 their day. Like I used to be a barista. I 0:34:10.640 --> 0:34:14.359 used to get people their morning coffee. That's that's them 0:34:14.440 --> 0:34:17.360 starting their day and being a better person afterwards. You know. 0:34:17.480 --> 0:34:19.799 That's that for a lot of people. And I love 0:34:19.880 --> 0:34:22.760 doing that, and if I can like change that for someone, 0:34:23.000 --> 0:34:23.640 I would love to. 0:34:23.880 --> 0:34:24.480 But it's like. 0:34:27.080 --> 0:34:31.000 I'm just doing that consistently with the same stuff over 0:34:31.040 --> 0:34:35.040 and over again, and it kind of like it's exhausting, 0:34:35.120 --> 0:34:35.319 you know. 0:34:36.239 --> 0:34:39.920 Yeah, do you do you get a deep sense of 0:34:39.960 --> 0:34:43.640 satisfaction when you help somebody find the perfect pickle? Rickbull? 0:34:47.000 --> 0:34:51.239 Honestly, yeah, A lot of people like it's so much 0:34:51.320 --> 0:34:51.600 Rick and. 0:34:51.600 --> 0:34:53.080 Morty mm hmmm. 0:34:54.640 --> 0:35:00.400 Well, in all seriousness, tell me, do you do you 0:35:00.480 --> 0:35:02.879 desire for more? You seem to be having some kind 0:35:02.920 --> 0:35:10.520 of existential crisis over the uh what is the word 0:35:11.760 --> 0:35:19.319 repetition of your life? What is there anything more in 0:35:19.360 --> 0:35:22.839 this universe with this short amount of time that you've 0:35:22.840 --> 0:35:28.240 been given on Earth that you wish to pursue what 0:35:28.239 --> 0:35:32.400 what what do? Because because you're having the sexistentral crisis, 0:35:31.920 --> 0:35:36.040 it would seem because you feel as though there's more 0:35:36.120 --> 0:35:42.680 to your routine that rhyme unintentionally, what more do you desire? 0:35:46.280 --> 0:35:50.399 I mean, I guess I'm going to school for hair, 0:35:52.239 --> 0:35:55.840 so like that's something that I kind of want to do, 0:35:56.040 --> 0:36:02.000 like maybe move up in that way. But also that's 0:36:02.040 --> 0:36:04.000 like really easy to say, and I feel like most 0:36:04.800 --> 0:36:07.759 people who do hair feel that way. That's all I 0:36:07.800 --> 0:36:12.160 ever hear anyone say. But also like I don't know, 0:36:12.520 --> 0:36:15.520 I want to make a difference somehow for a large 0:36:15.560 --> 0:36:19.759 group of people, more so than I do for just 0:36:19.880 --> 0:36:21.600 you know, the singular person out there. 0:36:24.600 --> 0:36:26.600 I have a few thoughts on that. First of all, 0:36:27.000 --> 0:36:30.279 with the hair thing, aren't you going to just get 0:36:30.320 --> 0:36:32.520 into another loop where you now work at a hair 0:36:32.560 --> 0:36:36.439 salon and you have a recurring group of clientele where 0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:40.120 instead of getting them Rick and Morty bongs, you're giving 0:36:40.160 --> 0:36:44.640 them Rick and Morty haircuts. 0:36:46.120 --> 0:36:48.960 I suppose, But at least in that way, I can 0:36:49.000 --> 0:36:52.000 form the clientele to where like if I want the 0:36:52.040 --> 0:36:54.720 people who are constantly changing, I can have the people 0:36:54.719 --> 0:36:58.799 who are constantly changing. That's more of like an art 0:36:58.840 --> 0:37:01.480 form like a hobby to me. 0:37:01.600 --> 0:37:03.959 Let me tell you this too also if I can't, 0:37:05.280 --> 0:37:10.400 you have a desire to help people on a grand scale, 0:37:11.120 --> 0:37:13.359 which I think is that's a beautiful desire. I think 0:37:13.360 --> 0:37:18.000 that's a great desire. I think that's a wonderful, compelling 0:37:18.160 --> 0:37:21.800 force and it'll take you to a lot of places 0:37:22.760 --> 0:37:25.920 if you follow that, and it'll take you to a 0:37:25.960 --> 0:37:32.880 lot of places that are fulfilling to you. But I 0:37:32.880 --> 0:37:40.759 think you should have a different sort of relationship with 0:37:41.560 --> 0:37:47.720 the scale aspect of it, right, Because you do feel 0:37:47.760 --> 0:37:51.600 as though you get a sense of satisfaction when you 0:37:51.640 --> 0:37:54.760 give somebody their morning coffee, when you help them find 0:37:55.040 --> 0:37:57.440 a piece that they really like at your smoke shop, 0:37:57.719 --> 0:38:03.040 when you give them a haircut that they are very 0:38:03.040 --> 0:38:04.640 happy with. Is that accurate? 0:38:08.080 --> 0:38:08.319 Yes? 0:38:08.480 --> 0:38:11.040 But I feel like some of them are like different 0:38:11.080 --> 0:38:14.960 forms of satisfaction. Like sometimes I'm happy to give a 0:38:15.000 --> 0:38:19.680 person their right bull because I just like want them 0:38:19.719 --> 0:38:22.480 out of the store faster. Like sometimes it is with 0:38:22.680 --> 0:38:28.520 like malicious intent, but not in a way where it's 0:38:28.560 --> 0:38:34.040 really harming anyone, I guess, you know. But like with coffee, 0:38:34.560 --> 0:38:36.799 that's a whole other story, And like with hair that's 0:38:36.840 --> 0:38:41.520 a whole other story that's like changing an entire person's life. 0:38:41.760 --> 0:38:47.839 Well, because here's the thing about about a scale is 0:38:48.560 --> 0:38:51.360 and I've kind of learned this, I've been trying to 0:38:51.600 --> 0:38:53.319 This is what I'm telling you right now so that 0:38:53.320 --> 0:38:57.759 I'm trying to learn on my own, is if you 0:38:57.960 --> 0:39:01.520 can't feel really really and it sounds like you do. 0:39:01.840 --> 0:39:04.040 So I don't know what I'm what I'm telling you here, 0:39:04.080 --> 0:39:10.719 but I think feeling really, really satisfied with helping just 0:39:11.200 --> 0:39:19.120 one person is important because if you can't feel the 0:39:19.160 --> 0:39:24.640 maximum amount of satisfaction and really really tap into the 0:39:24.680 --> 0:39:27.440 maxim amount of satisfaction that you could possibly tap into 0:39:27.800 --> 0:39:34.920 by helping one person with one fucking insignificant thing, then 0:39:35.560 --> 0:39:38.760 it doesn't matter how many people you end up helping 0:39:38.800 --> 0:39:44.160 on this so called grand scale, because it's it never 0:39:44.320 --> 0:39:46.960 is enough, do you know what I'm saying? 0:39:49.680 --> 0:39:52.840 Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. 0:39:52.920 --> 0:39:56.320 Actually, Like for me, I I you know, I get 0:39:56.520 --> 0:40:00.000 fucking you know, I get I get emails and stuff 0:40:00.080 --> 0:40:03.680 every day of people being like the podcast has helped them, 0:40:04.040 --> 0:40:09.080 and it's it's it's an interesting thing because if I 0:40:09.080 --> 0:40:11.400 if I sit there at my email and my DM 0:40:11.440 --> 0:40:14.919 every day and I'm like what we need. Let's get 0:40:14.960 --> 0:40:17.960 more and more and more people that you know are 0:40:17.960 --> 0:40:21.000 giving me a validation that I've helped them. Then it'd 0:40:21.160 --> 0:40:25.520 never be this is never enough. Right, But if I 0:40:25.840 --> 0:40:30.360 really take the time, I read one fucking email and 0:40:30.960 --> 0:40:34.160 I'm like, if this is the only email I've and 0:40:34.200 --> 0:40:36.160 I really try to think to myself, if this is 0:40:36.200 --> 0:40:40.919 the only email I've ever gotten or ever get out 0:40:40.920 --> 0:40:46.480 of doing this, that needs to be okay, right, I 0:40:46.560 --> 0:40:49.080 need to be like this, I like, really like and 0:40:49.080 --> 0:40:53.000 because that feeling, that feeling won't just appear to you, 0:40:53.000 --> 0:40:58.080 you have to tap yourself into it. Of I am 0:40:58.200 --> 0:41:06.080 satisfied having help this one person by giving them their 0:41:06.120 --> 0:41:09.239 morning coffee, like you've got to really tap into the 0:41:09.320 --> 0:41:14.719 one singular instance of the thing or else you're not 0:41:14.760 --> 0:41:21.680 going to be satisfied by a number. You know, if 0:41:21.760 --> 0:41:26.240 one person giving them a nice haircut that they really 0:41:26.360 --> 0:41:30.400 like doesn't satisfy you, then a thousand is not gonna 0:41:30.520 --> 0:41:34.600 satisfy you. It just keeps inflating. Does that make sense? 0:41:36.719 --> 0:41:37.960 That makes a lot of sense? 0:41:39.640 --> 0:41:40.439 Okay, good? 0:41:40.640 --> 0:41:45.680 Like changing the one is it just can be Yeah, 0:41:46.239 --> 0:41:52.839 more yourself satisfying yourself more than satisfying I don't know 0:41:53.040 --> 0:41:56.240 your need to help that. I don't know that makes sense. 0:41:56.280 --> 0:41:57.520 I just can't say it again. 0:41:59.400 --> 0:42:02.200 Well okay, so well so next time, so you work, 0:42:02.320 --> 0:42:03.439 So you work at the smoke shop. 0:42:05.320 --> 0:42:05.520 Yep. 0:42:06.560 --> 0:42:08.719 So next time a guy comes in and he's like, 0:42:08.960 --> 0:42:14.239 I want Crusty. I want Crusty the Clown and he 0:42:14.320 --> 0:42:18.000 has his ass hanging out and I breathe the smoke 0:42:18.080 --> 0:42:21.520 through Crusty the Clown's mouth and pack the bowl into 0:42:21.520 --> 0:42:25.160 his ass. And next time that guy comes in and 0:42:25.200 --> 0:42:27.600 you're like, I have that in the back, let me 0:42:27.680 --> 0:42:30.040 get it for you, and you present it to him 0:42:30.040 --> 0:42:33.239 and he smiles at you and whatnot, and you're like, oh, 0:42:33.280 --> 0:42:35.879 I've helped this guy get the thing that he came 0:42:35.920 --> 0:42:40.000 in to get. It's a really small, insignificant thing, but 0:42:40.080 --> 0:42:43.799 you sit in the moment that you're helping him with it, 0:42:44.480 --> 0:42:48.600 and you take every last drop of satisfaction you can 0:42:48.760 --> 0:42:52.320 possibly gleam from that moment, because that's satisfaction. It won't 0:42:52.920 --> 0:42:54.799 it won't just come to you out of doing it. 0:42:54.800 --> 0:42:56.719 You have to do it, but then also mentally be 0:42:56.840 --> 0:43:00.880 there and mentally go I'm gonna fucking hitting this moment 0:43:00.880 --> 0:43:03.520 with this person as I'm helping them and get everything 0:43:03.560 --> 0:43:05.719 I possibly can out of it and lean into it. 0:43:08.320 --> 0:43:10.879 That's that's where you'll get your satisfaction. 0:43:12.760 --> 0:43:15.320 Have you been to the shop, because you're just describing 0:43:15.480 --> 0:43:18.399 some bulls that we definitely have there. 0:43:19.239 --> 0:43:23.640 I've spent a decent amount of time in various headshops. 0:43:24.760 --> 0:43:27.000 Not anymore, but when I was in high school I did. 0:43:27.080 --> 0:43:30.319 I did a lot, and I saw that accrusted the 0:43:30.320 --> 0:43:32.960 clown Actually, I mean, fuck it, I have I have 0:43:33.000 --> 0:43:37.680 a crust to the clown bowl that is exactly like that. 0:43:37.680 --> 0:43:40.440 That's not true. I completely made a lot of this up. 0:43:40.480 --> 0:43:43.480 But I hope this conversation was helpful to you, Taylor. 0:43:45.440 --> 0:43:50.040 It was. It definitely like changed my outlook on on 0:43:50.120 --> 0:43:52.640 that question, Like, I don't know how I'm going to 0:43:52.680 --> 0:43:54.440 look at how I'm helping people in the future. 0:43:55.200 --> 0:43:58.799 Mm hmm. I'm glad it was helpful to you, and 0:44:01.320 --> 0:44:04.000 I'm gonna take my own advice. I'm gonna think of 0:44:04.080 --> 0:44:08.600 this call as the only one I ever take for 0:44:08.719 --> 0:44:13.400 the course of my everything. Really, soak it up. Now 0:44:13.719 --> 0:44:18.520 I'm sounding potentially, but I don't care anymore. 0:44:20.920 --> 0:44:25.640 Hey, it's your life. Man. You're not an NPC. 0:44:26.600 --> 0:44:28.879 Neither are you God damn it, Taylor, is there anything 0:44:28.920 --> 0:44:30.080 else you want to say to the people of the 0:44:30.080 --> 0:44:31.040 computer before we go? 0:44:33.760 --> 0:44:36.080 Don't do drugs unless you're twenty one? 0:44:37.040 --> 0:44:38.440 Perfect? Thanks for calling. 0:44:40.200 --> 0:44:41.200 Yeah, I have a good night. 0:44:44.440 --> 0:44:44.720 Hello. 0:44:45.880 --> 0:44:46.640 Hey, how are you? 0:44:48.440 --> 0:44:49.360 Hey? How you doing? 0:44:50.640 --> 0:44:51.360 Is this Sal? 0:44:53.440 --> 0:44:54.640 Yes? Is this Lyle? 0:44:55.760 --> 0:44:59.399 Yeah? Yes, it is you. You as anyone ever told 0:44:59.400 --> 0:45:02.719 you that you? You totally sound like your name is. 0:45:02.719 --> 0:45:07.280 Sal Yeah, I mean it's close. 0:45:09.200 --> 0:45:12.160 Is are you Italian? I don't know if that's cool 0:45:12.200 --> 0:45:12.560 to ask. 0:45:13.880 --> 0:45:18.719 No, No, it's okay, Yeah I am, but my name 0:45:18.800 --> 0:45:19.680 is definitely not South. 0:45:20.800 --> 0:45:23.359 Oh okay, all right, Well you picked a great fake name. 0:45:24.880 --> 0:45:28.080 Yeah, thanks buddy for you. Man. 0:45:29.160 --> 0:45:31.160 So, how's everything going with you? It says here that 0:45:31.480 --> 0:45:34.560 you have a fart fetish that is a massive secret 0:45:34.560 --> 0:45:39.160 in your life and you've never indulged in very different. 0:45:40.840 --> 0:45:44.719 It's difficult to talk about, but I feel like I 0:45:45.040 --> 0:45:47.839 need to learn a little bit more about how to 0:45:47.880 --> 0:45:51.400 approach this, if that makes any sense. 0:45:52.239 --> 0:45:52.479 Yeah. 0:45:52.640 --> 0:45:56.239 No, I just feel like it's it's a difficult thing 0:45:56.280 --> 0:46:01.200 to talk about. M I mean, it's not something I'm 0:46:01.239 --> 0:46:06.680 definitely proud of, Like, I don't know, I feel weird 0:46:06.719 --> 0:46:14.080 about it, but it's. 0:46:10.719 --> 0:46:15.520 So sal listen, I have to ask you this question. Uh, 0:46:15.560 --> 0:46:19.480 it's sort of just a formality here, but you're you're 0:46:19.480 --> 0:46:22.160 being one hundred percent serious, correct you. I don't think 0:46:22.160 --> 0:46:22.840 you would fuck with me. 0:46:23.120 --> 0:46:29.920 But you check my search history, check the search history 0:46:30.680 --> 0:46:31.400 on my computer. 0:46:32.560 --> 0:46:34.280 You you watch a lot of fartard. 0:46:36.120 --> 0:46:38.719 I want to say a lot. But when I do 0:46:38.800 --> 0:46:43.799 watch porn, I do happen to go towards that category. 0:46:44.440 --> 0:46:49.239 Mm hmmmmm. Okay, how long have you been into farts? 0:46:51.560 --> 0:46:53.759 See here's the thing. It's not so much farts, it's 0:46:53.880 --> 0:46:55.720 like this is where it gets weird. 0:46:55.760 --> 0:46:58.479 Man, I'm on board. 0:47:00.239 --> 0:47:05.040 It's like the forbidden fruit, Like girls don't fart, you know, 0:47:05.200 --> 0:47:10.279 and like, dude, bring it on. Like I don't know, 0:47:10.840 --> 0:47:12.600 maybe it's not even the fart. Maybe it's just like 0:47:13.560 --> 0:47:20.680 the the what would you call that, the like the 0:47:20.840 --> 0:47:23.640 you know, like the boundary line, you know, like that's 0:47:23.640 --> 0:47:28.280 where like I don't know, it's very it's very confusing 0:47:28.320 --> 0:47:29.120 to me myself. 0:47:30.280 --> 0:47:32.600 Well, you know, the weather, you're explaining it that that 0:47:32.880 --> 0:47:36.400 you Uh, it's kind of a forbidden fruit thing, you know, 0:47:36.840 --> 0:47:39.960 Like you know, girls are not typically very open about 0:47:40.040 --> 0:47:43.879 flatolence about pooping. About these sorts of things, and it's 0:47:43.960 --> 0:47:47.120 it's a forbidden it's a forbidden thing. It's a very 0:47:47.160 --> 0:47:51.000 taboo thing. And for many people, uh you know, taboos 0:47:51.040 --> 0:47:54.440 can be very uh you know, exciting to explore. 0:47:56.080 --> 0:48:02.600 Yeah, so here's where it also I'm sorry, No, go ahead, 0:48:02.840 --> 0:48:06.480 tell me, tell me more. No, I was just gonna say, 0:48:06.520 --> 0:48:10.319 like it's weird because like I'm not I would never 0:48:10.480 --> 0:48:14.000 kink shame anybody on the planet Earth for anything that 0:48:14.120 --> 0:48:17.279 they're they indulge in or they want indulge in. But 0:48:18.200 --> 0:48:20.640 I still hold myself to this is so weird. I 0:48:20.680 --> 0:48:23.279 hold myself to a high sterandard because I don't have 0:48:23.320 --> 0:48:27.400 a foot fetish let alone, nothing else but weird like that, 0:48:27.440 --> 0:48:31.000 but like not weird, nothing like that. But like here 0:48:31.040 --> 0:48:34.040 I am wanting to sniff a girl's ass, Like I mean, 0:48:35.120 --> 0:48:36.719 I'm demented. I gotta be. 0:48:38.640 --> 0:48:41.240 Why do you consider yourself demented? 0:48:42.880 --> 0:48:46.799 Because it's so gross, Like if you told like in 0:48:46.840 --> 0:48:49.680 my mind, I picture myself like if I told the 0:48:49.719 --> 0:48:55.879 previous girl like hey, fart in my face, Like they're 0:48:55.920 --> 0:49:00.279 just gonna look at me like what Like I'm not 0:49:00.280 --> 0:49:03.279 gonna say like the curse words, but like there's gonna 0:49:03.280 --> 0:49:08.120 be a ton of them. Like, you know, I feel embarrassed. 0:49:08.160 --> 0:49:13.600 I feel very ashamed of this, you know, and it's 0:49:13.719 --> 0:49:16.960 very tough for me to digest like that this is 0:49:17.000 --> 0:49:22.040 my kink, Like it's very it's very it's kind of frustrating, 0:49:22.360 --> 0:49:25.359 Like I'm mad at myself for liking this. But I've 0:49:25.360 --> 0:49:29.680 never experienced it, to be fair, I've never had that 0:49:29.800 --> 0:49:30.319 happen to me. 0:49:31.719 --> 0:49:35.440 I mean, let's boil down the shame here, Sal. You 0:49:35.480 --> 0:49:38.880 say it's gross, you say it's shameful. But but but why, 0:49:39.440 --> 0:49:43.320 Like let's let's ask, let's ask why why is it 0:49:43.440 --> 0:49:46.960 shameful for you to like farts just because a lot 0:49:47.000 --> 0:49:48.800 of other people think that it's gross. 0:49:49.680 --> 0:49:53.239 No, yeah, you nailed it. I think we circle back 0:49:53.239 --> 0:49:57.279 to that taboo part of it. It's so taboo, and 0:49:57.320 --> 0:50:01.520 it's so like not talked about. Like we just got 0:50:01.520 --> 0:50:05.200 into feat like in you know that the century, Like 0:50:05.320 --> 0:50:08.120 we just got through feet. We accepted that, you know, 0:50:08.480 --> 0:50:13.320 like it's taking a long time to get I'll probably 0:50:13.320 --> 0:50:15.560 be dead by the time like people accept that this 0:50:15.640 --> 0:50:16.799 is a fetus, you know what I mean? 0:50:18.600 --> 0:50:22.239 Sal, I actually think I think such a slow pace, Sal, 0:50:22.440 --> 0:50:25.480 this is a you know, Sal, in order for you 0:50:25.520 --> 0:50:28.720 to be self actualized. In order for you to really 0:50:29.960 --> 0:50:38.720 achieve happiness on your own terms, you need to transcend society. 0:50:38.760 --> 0:50:42.319 And yeah, I think you need to transcend society. I 0:50:42.320 --> 0:50:45.080 think that society has these rules. Some of them are 0:50:45.120 --> 0:50:48.399 for a good reason. You know, don't kill people, don't 0:50:48.400 --> 0:50:49.600 steal things, whatever. 0:50:49.320 --> 0:50:52.320 It is no harm. Nobody gets hurt, of course. 0:50:52.280 --> 0:50:54.840 But in this situation, you know, this is not a 0:50:54.880 --> 0:50:58.920 harmful thing that society is trying to event. This is 0:50:59.080 --> 0:51:05.920 just you. You need to transcend society's views on things 0:51:06.440 --> 0:51:12.120 and live your life for yourself sal and not get 0:51:12.200 --> 0:51:15.359 so hung up on what other people are doing. You're 0:51:15.360 --> 0:51:18.520 never gonna be happy if you're living by other people's rules. 0:51:20.520 --> 0:51:23.799 And I understand why, I understand why it's embarrassing, right, 0:51:24.239 --> 0:51:28.680 But there's so much power to be had in owning 0:51:30.000 --> 0:51:34.440 what is traditionally embarrassing, right, Because if society tries to 0:51:34.480 --> 0:51:36.840 shame you and tries to make you feel uncomfortable for 0:51:36.920 --> 0:51:40.680 liking what you like, you know you can take the 0:51:40.719 --> 0:51:44.040 power back and not and not let it, you know, 0:51:45.320 --> 0:51:50.160 now let it control you. Tell me this, Tell me this. 0:51:51.719 --> 0:51:57.440 Have you ever considered going out there trying to find 0:51:59.280 --> 0:52:06.600 or trying to or orchestrates a sexual experience that involves. 0:52:06.200 --> 0:52:08.280 Farts in that in that ballpark. 0:52:08.640 --> 0:52:09.799 Yeah yeah, in that ball park. 0:52:11.440 --> 0:52:17.680 So gek, let's let's get real. Yeah. I have looked 0:52:17.719 --> 0:52:22.600 into it. It's expensive because it's not something I would 0:52:22.680 --> 0:52:26.080 do to like a random grow at a bar. You understand, 0:52:26.200 --> 0:52:30.720 Like I have looked online in people in this field 0:52:31.800 --> 0:52:37.000 and it's just out of my ballpark and that that's 0:52:37.040 --> 0:52:40.239 where it is. But at the same time, I wanted 0:52:40.280 --> 0:52:43.320 to be genuine. I don't want it to be someone 0:52:43.360 --> 0:52:46.520 else that's just you know, excuse my language, but just 0:52:46.800 --> 0:52:50.440 farten in faces all day. I kind of want to 0:52:50.440 --> 0:52:51.360 be a little genuine. 0:52:52.040 --> 0:52:54.719 Okay, we sal I have another recommendation for you. Have 0:52:54.719 --> 0:52:57.680 you ever been on I mean, there's all these websites 0:52:57.719 --> 0:53:01.399 out there. Uh, I don't know any off the top 0:53:01.440 --> 0:53:06.919 of my head, but there are many, many websites for 0:53:07.480 --> 0:53:15.520 people whose sexual desires deviate from the norm who, you know, 0:53:15.600 --> 0:53:18.760 congregate together to find one another. It's never been easier 0:53:18.800 --> 0:53:24.239 actually for people with debate sexual desires to oh yeah, 0:53:24.239 --> 0:53:26.200 oh my god, I mean read it is one. 0:53:27.680 --> 0:53:27.840 You know. 0:53:27.880 --> 0:53:30.279 I'm sure there's all these dating sites where people can 0:53:30.440 --> 0:53:34.160 you know, explore their fetishes. I mean, I feel like 0:53:34.920 --> 0:53:37.560 I feel like I feel like there is still a 0:53:37.600 --> 0:53:42.879 lot of inhibition on your part that is keeping you 0:53:42.960 --> 0:53:50.080 from fully diving into this thing about yourself. And I 0:53:50.120 --> 0:53:54.319 think that you should accept it because I don't know, 0:53:54.480 --> 0:53:56.960 I'm not you know, this is an interesting thing and 0:53:57.040 --> 0:53:59.759 I'm not sure about it. I would love to talk 0:53:59.760 --> 0:54:03.120 to a real psychologist about it. But I don't know 0:54:04.200 --> 0:54:07.960 if you can make this go away. Have you talked 0:54:07.960 --> 0:54:10.600 to someone about this going anywhere? I don't know if 0:54:10.640 --> 0:54:13.160 you can just make this go away. 0:54:13.320 --> 0:54:14.319 I'm too embarrassed. 0:54:14.520 --> 0:54:15.560 I mean, why embarrassed? 0:54:17.239 --> 0:54:20.800 Uh? First, gat, I just want to thank your team 0:54:20.840 --> 0:54:23.719 that you had answered the phones, because I tried calling 0:54:23.760 --> 0:54:26.160 a couple of weeks ago about this and we had 0:54:26.160 --> 0:54:28.120 got this connected. But I had talked to one of 0:54:28.120 --> 0:54:30.479 the gentlemen that picked up the phone, and we talked 0:54:30.480 --> 0:54:33.320 about like this, and we had a good lack that 0:54:33.320 --> 0:54:35.440 that was the first time I ever opened up about it. 0:54:35.760 --> 0:54:38.840 You have no idea like this is uncomfortable for me, 0:54:39.239 --> 0:54:44.560 you know, and you have a great team. Really appreciate it. 0:54:44.640 --> 0:54:47.200 But he also told me something cool. He was like, 0:54:47.640 --> 0:54:50.279 you're not the first person calling about this. So there's 0:54:50.360 --> 0:54:54.120 other people out there with this people. 0:54:54.560 --> 0:54:56.960 Of course, there's other people. Every weird thing you could 0:54:57.000 --> 0:55:02.080 possibly think is some unique thing to you, it's everybody. 0:55:02.120 --> 0:55:06.680 You know, we all live, We all share this weird 0:55:07.960 --> 0:55:11.760 thing in our brains that causes us to like farts 0:55:11.800 --> 0:55:16.200 and you know, weird stuff fucking be depressed. 0:55:15.719 --> 0:55:18.439 And all that shit, arm pit, haairs and whatever. Yeah, 0:55:18.520 --> 0:55:22.640 whatever you got, Like, that's why you know, man, you 0:55:22.719 --> 0:55:25.000 have such an awesome thing going. Man, you have no 0:55:25.080 --> 0:55:29.040 idea how much like I appreciate you having this like 0:55:29.160 --> 0:55:34.319 open form. I appreciate that sound idea what my facebooks like, 0:55:34.360 --> 0:55:36.840 but like this feels so good to get off my chest. 0:55:37.080 --> 0:55:38.600 Like no, I don't know what it looks like, but 0:55:38.680 --> 0:55:44.040 I know that it loves itself some stinky farts. He 0:55:44.200 --> 0:55:48.200 is there, shout listen. I'll say this. I hope that 0:55:48.280 --> 0:55:53.840 you talking about this on this podcast, has you know, 0:55:54.040 --> 0:55:58.360 gotten you at least like one ring up when wrung 0:55:58.440 --> 0:56:05.359 up on the ladder to eventually either you know, embracing 0:56:05.400 --> 0:56:08.320 it or talking to someone about how it can go away. 0:56:08.480 --> 0:56:11.440 I don't know. I really like it's interesting when we're 0:56:11.440 --> 0:56:15.560 talking about like it going away, I do I don't know, 0:56:16.880 --> 0:56:25.840 to what degree humans can like change their psychology of 0:56:26.040 --> 0:56:31.120 like what they are sexually attracted to. And then I 0:56:31.120 --> 0:56:34.200 don't know what the healthy thing is if it's to 0:56:34.239 --> 0:56:35.879 pursue it or I don't. I don't know. I wish 0:56:35.920 --> 0:56:37.400 I had the answers of like off this ship from 0:56:37.400 --> 0:56:38.080 a psychologist. 0:56:39.200 --> 0:56:42.840 Yeah, the scary thing is what if and then you 0:56:43.160 --> 0:56:45.719 just go, what if I'm thrown out there? What if 0:56:46.440 --> 0:56:49.279 some chick farts to my face? I fall in love 0:56:49.320 --> 0:56:52.839 with this? Now I'm into the next realm. I don't 0:56:52.840 --> 0:56:55.040 know where that goes deeper? What are they doing poop 0:56:55.080 --> 0:56:55.640 it on my chest? 0:56:55.719 --> 0:56:55.799 Like? 0:56:56.440 --> 0:56:59.480 Where does this go? If I like that? That's the 0:56:59.520 --> 0:57:00.719 scary part. 0:57:02.040 --> 0:57:05.080 Mm hmm, Well, I mean look man, look man, look, 0:57:05.160 --> 0:57:07.200 look man. If you let's let's say let's say a 0:57:07.200 --> 0:57:10.040 girl as fartag on your face, and then let's say 0:57:10.239 --> 0:57:12.919 you know that slowly becomes not enough for you. Then 0:57:12.920 --> 0:57:15.360 she's shitting in your chest, Then she's shitting in your mouth, 0:57:16.520 --> 0:57:20.959 and then she's like shitting in your ass and while 0:57:20.960 --> 0:57:22.680 you are taking a ship and your ships are like 0:57:22.840 --> 0:57:27.320 sumo wrestling each other inside of your assholes. Let's say 0:57:27.320 --> 0:57:30.360 you do get to that point what it is really 0:57:30.360 --> 0:57:32.600 so bad about that? What is really so bad about that? 0:57:32.720 --> 0:57:39.480 So nothing except the ibar it all comes You're right, 0:57:39.560 --> 0:57:42.880 get It comes down to my own insecurities, like I 0:57:42.960 --> 0:57:46.520 have to find that power, but I just don't have it. 0:57:46.680 --> 0:57:50.880 I mean, you know, like this, I'm a I like 0:57:50.960 --> 0:57:54.040 to think of myself as a pretty good guy, you know, 0:57:54.560 --> 0:57:57.800 but like you know, there were things in my past 0:57:57.840 --> 0:58:00.320 where I did drugs and this and that, like gonna, 0:58:00.520 --> 0:58:04.080 it's taking time to build my ego wop, and it's 0:58:04.160 --> 0:58:05.320 very hard to talk about this. 0:58:06.800 --> 0:58:07.200 Mm hmm. 0:58:08.720 --> 0:58:12.560 You know, I'm clean now and I got this weird fetish. 0:58:12.720 --> 0:58:14.560 I don't know what I would want more like the 0:58:14.640 --> 0:58:17.880 drugs are the fetish, Like I don't know. I like 0:58:17.920 --> 0:58:20.560 being clean, so I'll take the fetish. 0:58:20.840 --> 0:58:27.720 Mm hmm, sal If I'm tell me no, listen, here's 0:58:27.720 --> 0:58:29.760 what I think. I said this before, but I'll just 0:58:29.760 --> 0:58:35.400 say it again just to hammer it in. Sal. I 0:58:35.440 --> 0:58:39.080 think for you to really be happy, you can't be 0:58:39.320 --> 0:58:43.440 living by other people's expectations, by society's expectations. And I 0:58:43.440 --> 0:58:45.320 hope you take that to heart, and I hope that 0:58:45.400 --> 0:58:49.720 you move forward in a direction that you know is 0:58:50.080 --> 0:58:53.960 overcoming those expectations. And leads to you more living your 0:58:53.960 --> 0:58:54.400 own life. 0:58:56.240 --> 0:58:59.360 Yeak, you're an amazing Gek. You have no idea. Man, 0:58:59.760 --> 0:59:01.720 You're saving lives without even knowing it. 0:59:03.120 --> 0:59:06.160 I wish you many farts to the face. I wish 0:59:06.160 --> 0:59:09.880 you many guilt free farts to the face and shifts 0:59:09.920 --> 0:59:13.160 to the mouth and pisses to the nose if you 0:59:13.200 --> 0:59:16.439 get there, and I appreciate it, Sal, is there anything 0:59:16.440 --> 0:59:17.320 else you want to say to the people of the 0:59:17.360 --> 0:59:18.120 computer before we go? 0:59:19.760 --> 0:59:24.400 Yeah, guys just called Gek. Be open with yourself, get 0:59:24.680 --> 0:59:28.800 off your chest. The guys here for real and the 0:59:28.840 --> 0:59:30.480 team's awesome too. 0:59:32.000 --> 0:59:32.800 Thank you for calling Sal. 0:59:34.440 --> 0:59:35.120 Get farted on. 0:59:36.360 --> 0:59:43.160 You know, there's also Sal for every guy out there 0:59:43.480 --> 0:59:47.920 who loves getting farted on. There's a woman out there 0:59:49.120 --> 0:59:55.200 who absolutely loves farting on guys faces. And there's an 0:59:55.240 --> 0:59:58.360 alternate universe where I'm getting a call from a lady 0:59:58.360 --> 1:00:03.080 who's like, you know, hey, Gek, I have this thing 1:00:03.120 --> 1:00:05.320 where I love to fart on guy's faces, but I 1:00:05.600 --> 1:00:09.120 can't find any guys you know who I'm willing to 1:00:09.120 --> 1:00:12.320 bring it up to, Like what if, Sal, I'm gonna 1:00:12.320 --> 1:00:20.240 call this what's a what's an equally Italian name? Maria Salam. 1:00:20.600 --> 1:00:24.000 What if Maria calls me and she's like, ghak, I 1:00:24.040 --> 1:00:28.240 can't find a guy who face I can fart on. 1:00:28.280 --> 1:00:30.480 Let's say Maria and Sal they meet on Hinge, some 1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:36.760 normy dating app, and you know both Maria wants to 1:00:36.760 --> 1:00:38.960 fart on Sal's face. Sal wants Maria to fart on 1:00:39.000 --> 1:00:42.640 his face, but both of them are too embarrassed to 1:00:42.720 --> 1:00:45.480 let each other know, and so they hide it and 1:00:45.480 --> 1:00:48.600 they hide it and they never are are are true 1:00:48.640 --> 1:00:55.080 to each other and the amazing fart sex that could 1:00:55.080 --> 1:00:59.480 be never bees? Wouldn't that be tragic? 1:01:06.760 --> 1:01:10.240 The GT goes all the line taking your phone calls 1:01:10.320 --> 1:01:13.160 every night, The repeat goes down his eye. 1:01:13.280 --> 1:01:17.040 He's teaching you cloud every life, but he's not really 1:01:17.200 --> 1:01:17.960 an expert.