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Speaker 1: Hey, what's going on? Your name?

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Speaker 2: My name's Max Max mm hmm, And I have a

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Speaker 2: little bit of a hypothetical for you. I thought it

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Speaker 2: would be interesting.

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Speaker 1: Oh sure, what's the hypothetical?

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Speaker 2: So hypothetically, I read an article on Vice one time. Right, So, hypothetothetically,

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Speaker 2: if I had my leg amputated and I got to

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Speaker 2: keep it right, and then I hired a professional fougias

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Speaker 2: death like Gordon Ramsey Bobby Flay to uh cook this

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Speaker 2: leg into burrito or something like that, would you take

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Speaker 2: a bite?

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Speaker 1: Would I take a bite of your leg?

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Speaker 2: I guess anyone's legs. I don't think I have anything

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Speaker 2: wrong with my leg.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So so a world class chef prepares a human leg,

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Speaker 1: not my leg, just a random leg. When I take

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Speaker 1: a bite of the leg, m uh, where did they get.

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Speaker 2: That h of a person?

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Speaker 3: You got?

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Speaker 2: I guess? Okay, I guess you would have to have

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Speaker 2: the leg from me because I'm hiring the guy to

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Speaker 2: do it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you're telling me there you Okay? So I

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Speaker 1: just gonna ask, is like, is every if? Because look,

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Speaker 1: if a guy is giving up his leg, why is

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Speaker 1: he giving up? Why are you giving up your leg?

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Speaker 1: How did you lose your leg? I need way more details.

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Speaker 2: It would already it was already dead. Like this is

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Speaker 2: just purely coincidental. And I'm like, Okay, why not get

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Speaker 2: some use out of this dead leg that's severed off

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Speaker 1: Sure, all right, I'm gonna plan. I'm gonna pull it

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Speaker 1: like this if I had a friend, I've had a

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Speaker 1: rich friend, let's say, lost his leg in some whatever,

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Speaker 1: crazy accident, but he got to keep it and they

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Speaker 1: couldn't put it back on, And my friend called me

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Speaker 1: up and he was like, la, listen, I'm hiring Gordon

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Speaker 1: Ramsay to make a delicious meal out of my leg,

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Speaker 1: and I would like you to come to my house

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Speaker 1: for dinner tonight to eat my leg with me. One

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Speaker 1: hundred percent I would say, yes, absolutely, I would eat.

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Speaker 1: I would eat my friend's leg with him. So, I

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Speaker 1: guess to answer your question, it would really depend on

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Speaker 1: if if it was a random guy's leg, I don't

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Speaker 1: think I would do it, But if I knew the person,

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Speaker 1: because it's an intimate thing to eat somebody, and so

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Speaker 1: I would. I would want to know the person. I

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Speaker 2: I guess this is uh, this is an icebreaker. I

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Speaker 2: like to use a lot.

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Speaker 1: As one of the first things you bring up in

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Speaker 2: Sometimes, yeah, especially how does that go for you? Usually

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Speaker 2: makes me seem a little nuts. But then like, if

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Speaker 2: they match the crazy, you know, it's it's gonna go fine.

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Speaker 1: That's brilliant, That's that's pretty smart.

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Speaker 1: So, all right, what about you? Would you eat the leg?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Hell yeah, dude, I would purely because like, you're

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Speaker 2: never going to get that meat again, right, like, unless

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Speaker 2: you're a fucking cannibal. And some people answer this like, oh,

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Speaker 2: once you eat a little bit of the leg, you're

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Speaker 2: just a cannibal. And I can't get past that.

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Speaker 1: Well you you, but hold on, hold on, hold on,

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Speaker 1: If you eat the leg, you're totally I don't know

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Speaker 1: if we need to put a whole label on it.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if if you, as a person become

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Speaker 3: Right?

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Speaker 1: Is it a person who regularly engages in cannibalism. I

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Speaker 1: don't know if if your whole existence needs to be

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Speaker 1: labeled with your cannibal But you are absolutely undeniably engaging

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Speaker 2: Yeah, but Mike, it's ethical cannibalism, I think I.

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Speaker 1: Don't know if it's ethical as in, like, well, I

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Speaker 1: don't know if ethical means it produces active good, but

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it's more of a neutral.

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Speaker 1: It's it is a very neutral cannibalism. That's a great

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Speaker 1: way to put it. So, yes, I would engage in

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Speaker 1: neutral cannibalism. I can't think of a situation in which

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Speaker 1: cannibalism would produce a positive effect, can you?

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Speaker 2: Uh, maybe if your friend dies in the zombie apocalypse

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Speaker 1: Right, Or if like there's a dead guy in front

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Speaker 1: get into the door, that would that would be a

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Speaker 1: positive effect for other people. So there is positive cannibalism

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Speaker 1: and neutral cannibalism. Yeah, and all and also bad cannibalism.

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Speaker 1: There's situations in which eating a person is bad too.

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Speaker 1: So I'm going to I got a three sixty view

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Speaker 1: of cannibalism over the course of this call. Where is

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Speaker 2: Yes or does it cross into bad territory?

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Speaker 1: Do you think I think if you kill a person

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Speaker 1: with the express intent of eating their dead body after

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Speaker 1: you kill them, I think that is bad. Interested, Max,

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Speaker 1: Is there anything the computer before we got Uh?

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm just glad you took my time on this.

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Speaker 2: I was having a bad night. You made it pretty good. Man.

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Speaker 1: Hey man, listen, if you ever, if you ever do

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Speaker 1: your leg with you, I would do it.

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Speaker 2: I'll give you. I'll give you a call.

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Speaker 1: Man, Thanks for calling. Man. Yeah, he said you got it,

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Speaker 1: but I cut them off at the end. Hey, is

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Speaker 1: this gummy worm?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: So gummy worm? What's going on with you?

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Speaker 3: Well?

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Speaker 5: This is oh, yeah, this is pretty cool. Yeah. I

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Speaker 5: got diagnosed with a thing with my eyes. It was

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Speaker 5: called retinitis pigman tosa, and it's like basically going to

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Speaker 5: take my vision in the next like five, ten, fifteen years.

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Speaker 5: Somewhere in that window of time, and this has happened

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Speaker 1: Interesting. Interesting. What kind of perspective has it given you

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Speaker 5: I think for the most part, I think it's given

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Speaker 1: It's this is interesting because you know, I know you

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Speaker 1: you said, ten years.

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Speaker 5: Oh no, it's just like you know, uh, it's just

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Speaker 1: It's interesting to me that this has motivated you and

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Speaker 1: lit a fire under your ass to be more tenacious

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Speaker 1: because we all do have an expiration date. We're all

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Speaker 1: at some points that could be any day in the future.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, like I used to like kind of put things

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Speaker 1: So so hit us, Okay, these these goals, these things

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Speaker 1: know tenacity that you now have? What what are these things?

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Speaker 5: Well? I dropped out of school, like too, like a

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Speaker 3: Something like that.

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Speaker 1: Interesting, I want to travel. Yeah, So you've described a

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Speaker 1: way that this diagnosis has influenced you in terms of

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Speaker 1: your long term vision for your life, which I find

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Speaker 1: very interesting because you mentioned that, But then you were

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Speaker 1: also mentioning partying, saying yes to things, just sort of

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Speaker 1: I find it interesting that both your short term day

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, no, because at the end of the day,

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Speaker 5: I was like, yeah, it's kind of it's kind of

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Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, hmmm, mm hmm. That's fucking awesome. The reason why,

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Speaker 1: That's fascinating. That's really fascinating. Man. Hmmm. So, so in

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Speaker 1: And it's it's it's super cool to me that even

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Speaker 5: No, totally. I feel so much like I feel so

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Speaker 1: so cool to hear. Yeah, that's so cool to hear.

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Speaker 1: that's the big that's the fucking biggest thing. It really is.

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00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:27,880
Speaker 1: Because it's a day. It's day to Yeah, yeah, it's

440
00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 1: day to day. It's it's you know when you go

441
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:34,760
Speaker 1: when you're at your office or wherever you work at.

442
00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:39,320
Speaker 1: You know, if you fucking work at an advertising agency

443
00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: in Phoenix, Arizona, and you go from your desk to

444
00:25:45,840 --> 00:25:48,840
Speaker 1: the to the fridge in the kitchen to get a

445
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 1: bottle of water, and you say hi to a person

446
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:54,359
Speaker 1: that you know you work with, you know, really be

447
00:25:54,520 --> 00:25:56,439
Speaker 1: there when you're saying hi to them, Really look at

448
00:25:56,440 --> 00:26:00,639
Speaker 1: their fucking face, Really be in that conversation, just in

449
00:26:00,720 --> 00:26:02,960
Speaker 1: the in the in the day to day. It's it's

450
00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:07,000
Speaker 1: it's finding this ship in the day of to day.

451
00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:11,920
Speaker 1: That's that's so not key. I'm I'm I'm stoked to

452
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:12,399
Speaker 1: hear all that.

453
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Speaker 3: Man.

454
00:26:12,640 --> 00:26:14,520
Speaker 1: That that's that's that's really something.

455
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Speaker 5: Hey, I appreciate it, GEK.

456
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Speaker 1: Dude, is there anything else that you wanted to talk

457
00:26:23,920 --> 00:26:27,720
Speaker 1: about or or say before we go? It's been a

458
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:29,439
Speaker 1: real pleasure talking about this stuff.

459
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Speaker 3: Hey, Yeah, No, I.

460
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Speaker 5: I just appreciated Gek. I've been a longtime fan of

461
00:26:35,920 --> 00:26:39,480
Speaker 5: the show. I'm really surprised that I called it like that.

462
00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:43,800
Speaker 5: I got in when I called in. Yeah, man, I

463
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,720
Speaker 5: think you're doing some amazing work here. I feel like

464
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:49,120
Speaker 5: you're probably so wise after doing so.

465
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Speaker 4: Many of these.

466
00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:53,080
Speaker 1: Now, No, I'm just a fucking guy in a Gecko

467
00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:55,400
Speaker 1: costume on the Call of Duty website. But I appreciate

468
00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:58,240
Speaker 1: you saying that, and you're fucking wise.

469
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Speaker 2: Man.

470
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Speaker 1: You're gonna learn a lot just being in the moment.

471
00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:03,840
Speaker 1: You've inspired me, man, because I think I have. I've

472
00:27:03,840 --> 00:27:08,880
Speaker 1: had some kicks where I've been really into the ship

473
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:11,520
Speaker 1: that you're describing of, like just looking up people's faces

474
00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:14,640
Speaker 1: and trying to be more observant. And you know how

475
00:27:14,640 --> 00:27:16,800
Speaker 1: it is when you do any self improvement thing. You

476
00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:19,160
Speaker 1: get into it for a while and then you kind

477
00:27:19,160 --> 00:27:23,119
Speaker 1: of slip back into your ways. But you've you've inspired me. Actually,

478
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:25,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna try to take that back up.

479
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Speaker 5: Hey man, I really appreciate that. Thanks for taking my call.

480
00:27:30,920 --> 00:27:33,960
Speaker 1: Of course, thank you, gummy Worrem.

481
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Speaker 5: I'll see you later.

482
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,560
Speaker 2: Done.

483
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Speaker 1: Oh man, that was awesome. That was really great. Good

484
00:27:45,560 --> 00:27:49,439
Speaker 1: for him, really really good for him. I love I

485
00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:52,600
Speaker 1: love that that thing. It really it really. I'm not

486
00:27:52,640 --> 00:27:54,960
Speaker 1: gonna say anything I didn't already say in that call,

487
00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:58,480
Speaker 1: but it really feels like that's all there is. Right.

488
00:27:59,119 --> 00:28:04,920
Speaker 1: I've always I've always felt like, if you can't, I'm

489
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:07,320
Speaker 1: just talking to myself. I'm not trying to lecture people.

490
00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:10,680
Speaker 1: I'm talking to myself. And I've always thought for myself, like, man,

491
00:28:10,760 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 1: if I can't find magnificent, awesome, spiritual beauty while I'm

492
00:28:20,520 --> 00:28:26,480
Speaker 1: stone cold, sober, waiting in line at Ralph's, you know,

493
00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:33,159
Speaker 1: staring at a looking at the person in front of me,

494
00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:37,040
Speaker 1: or on the metro on the way to work in

495
00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:43,240
Speaker 1: the morning, just looking out the window at a tree

496
00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:48,960
Speaker 1: that I walk by every day. Right, if you can't

497
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:53,120
Speaker 1: find beauty wherever it is, you currently are in this

498
00:28:53,480 --> 00:28:56,680
Speaker 1: very fucking moment, then you're not going to be able

499
00:28:56,680 --> 00:29:04,160
Speaker 1: to find it going to some tropical, exotic location. Uh so,

500
00:29:04,160 --> 00:29:08,880
Speaker 1: So I think that's really important, and I thank the

501
00:29:08,960 --> 00:29:20,600
Speaker 1: caller for for bringing that up. It's a really great conversation. Hello, Hello,

502
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:30,560
Speaker 1: Hi there, Hi, what's going on? Oh?

503
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Speaker 4: You know, just got done with the sash?

504
00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:36,000
Speaker 1: Say that again.

505
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:40,760
Speaker 4: I just got done with smoking wheat.

506
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:46,280
Speaker 1: Oh okay, you tried to you kind of tried to

507
00:29:46,520 --> 00:29:49,560
Speaker 1: do a little cool guy thing there. Just got done with.

508
00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:55,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, just got done with the sash. Sorry. I I

509
00:29:55,000 --> 00:29:56,800
Speaker 4: think it's the DPP adrenaline, you know.

510
00:29:57,720 --> 00:30:03,160
Speaker 1: Okay, there's somebody screaming in the bat what is so?

511
00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:04,600
Speaker 1: Why is somebody screaming?

512
00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:11,440
Speaker 4: That's actually my cat. His name is Arth Okay, yeah,

513
00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:14,600
Speaker 4: he like yells like a man, like a human.

514
00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:17,880
Speaker 1: Screaming about anything in particular. Are you.

515
00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:23,760
Speaker 4: Well, I actually just got back inside, and he's just

516
00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:24,840
Speaker 4: really excited.

517
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Speaker 1: He's like you because you're high. The cat has fear

518
00:30:29,880 --> 00:30:30,000
Speaker 1: of you.

519
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:36,480
Speaker 4: No, she's uh, just really wanting attention and treats right now.

520
00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:38,360
Speaker 4: He's a fat, fat cat.

521
00:30:39,360 --> 00:30:44,840
Speaker 1: Okay, it's a loud cat. Well, so listen, Taylor, you

522
00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:47,320
Speaker 1: said your name was? Or did I just bring that up,

523
00:30:48,880 --> 00:30:51,760
Speaker 1: Taylor because I have a call screaming thing. Whatever, Taylor,

524
00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:53,640
Speaker 1: what's going on with you? How's life? Tell me everything?

525
00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:54,560
Speaker 1: Tell me nothing?

526
00:30:56,200 --> 00:31:00,320
Speaker 4: So basically, I I've been I've been struggling a little bit.

527
00:31:03,840 --> 00:31:07,040
Speaker 4: I had a customer at my at my job, I

528
00:31:07,080 --> 00:31:08,680
Speaker 4: work at a smoke shop, so I have a lot

529
00:31:08,720 --> 00:31:10,080
Speaker 4: of crackheads come in.

530
00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:11,920
Speaker 1: And why.

531
00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:18,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, exactly, I am one of those cool guys you know.

532
00:31:19,320 --> 00:31:23,160
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, thank you for including me in the lingo

533
00:31:24,040 --> 00:31:27,360
Speaker 1: of your culture. Anyway, you had a meth person, you

534
00:31:27,520 --> 00:31:30,160
Speaker 1: had somebody who was on meth. We don't need to

535
00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:32,760
Speaker 1: define this person. We don't need to call them a

536
00:31:32,760 --> 00:31:34,800
Speaker 1: meth head, as if you know, their whole life is

537
00:31:34,840 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 1: a big you know, but they were on math at

538
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:43,280
Speaker 1: the time that they were in your store. Continue exactly.

539
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:47,280
Speaker 4: He asked me if I was an NPC. If you

540
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:49,400
Speaker 4: know what an NPC is, I do.

541
00:31:49,400 --> 00:31:53,840
Speaker 1: Know what an NPC is. It stands for non player character.

542
00:31:55,680 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 4: Yep, a non playable character. Yes, And it kind of

543
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:09,760
Speaker 4: messed me up, Like this happened. This happened like two

544
00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:14,280
Speaker 4: months ago, and uh, it's been on my mind ever since.

545
00:32:14,440 --> 00:32:17,240
Speaker 4: And like I think about it at least twice a day.

546
00:32:18,160 --> 00:32:22,200
Speaker 1: M why did it mess you up? And when you're

547
00:32:22,240 --> 00:32:25,640
Speaker 1: thinking about it, what kinds of thoughts are you having?

548
00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:33,400
Speaker 4: I just like almost realized I am that person behind

549
00:32:33,440 --> 00:32:38,239
Speaker 4: the counter for a lot of people, you know, and like,

550
00:32:38,640 --> 00:32:41,760
Speaker 4: I am that person who is doing things for people

551
00:32:41,880 --> 00:32:44,240
Speaker 4: all the time and like kind of move people along.

552
00:32:45,040 --> 00:32:47,160
Speaker 4: But I'm kind of like staying in the same place

553
00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:53,120
Speaker 4: a majority of the time, and it's just kind of

554
00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:55,880
Speaker 4: like a cycle. And it's a lot of the same

555
00:32:56,000 --> 00:33:00,160
Speaker 4: people too, with like the occasional new person who who

556
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:03,120
Speaker 4: is like messing up the timeline And I'm like, whoa,

557
00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:06,680
Speaker 4: what is this? So I like know what I'm supposed

558
00:33:06,680 --> 00:33:09,200
Speaker 4: to say with most of the people that I talk to.

559
00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:14,600
Speaker 1: Okay, let's impact this. You work at a small store

560
00:33:16,640 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 1: where a select amount of local customers, recurring local customers

561
00:33:24,280 --> 00:33:28,600
Speaker 1: are the clientele, and so you find yourself in a

562
00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:31,640
Speaker 1: bit of a loop where you are performing the same tasks,

563
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:34,840
Speaker 1: talking to the same people over and over and over again,

564
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Speaker 1: and that is distressing you. Is all that accurate?

565
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:40,360
Speaker 4: Yeah?

566
00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:46,920
Speaker 1: Okay, So now that you've identified that you're in this loop,

567
00:33:47,640 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 1: what is your relationship with the loop? How do you

568
00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:50,440
Speaker 1: feel about being in this loop?

569
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Speaker 4: I have mixed feelings about it. It's like, on one hand,

570
00:34:00,040 --> 00:34:04,960
Speaker 4: and I'm really happy like helping people. I love being

571
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:08,680
Speaker 4: the person who makes someone else happy and like makes

572
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:10,560
Speaker 4: their day. Like I used to be a barista. I

573
00:34:10,640 --> 00:34:14,359
Speaker 4: used to get people their morning coffee. That's that's them

574
00:34:14,440 --> 00:34:17,360
Speaker 4: starting their day and being a better person afterwards. You know.

575
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:19,799
Speaker 4: That's that for a lot of people. And I love

576
00:34:19,880 --> 00:34:22,760
Speaker 4: doing that, and if I can like change that for someone,

577
00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:23,640
Speaker 4: I would love to.

578
00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:24,480
Speaker 2: But it's like.

579
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Speaker 4: I'm just doing that consistently with the same stuff over

580
00:34:31,040 --> 00:34:35,040
Speaker 4: and over again, and it kind of like it's exhausting,

581
00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:35,319
Speaker 4: you know.

582
00:34:36,239 --> 00:34:39,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, do you do you get a deep sense of

583
00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:43,640
Speaker 1: satisfaction when you help somebody find the perfect pickle? Rickbull?

584
00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 4: Honestly, yeah, A lot of people like it's so much

585
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:51,600
Speaker 4: Rick and.

586
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:53,080
Speaker 5: Morty mm hmmm.

587
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Speaker 1: Well, in all seriousness, tell me, do you do you

588
00:35:00,480 --> 00:35:02,879
Speaker 1: desire for more? You seem to be having some kind

589
00:35:02,920 --> 00:35:10,520
Speaker 1: of existential crisis over the uh what is the word

590
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:19,319
Speaker 1: repetition of your life? What is there anything more in

591
00:35:19,360 --> 00:35:22,839
Speaker 1: this universe with this short amount of time that you've

592
00:35:22,840 --> 00:35:28,240
Speaker 1: been given on Earth that you wish to pursue what

593
00:35:28,239 --> 00:35:32,400
Speaker 1: what what do? Because because you're having the sexistentral crisis,

594
00:35:31,920 --> 00:35:36,040
Speaker 1: it would seem because you feel as though there's more

595
00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:42,680
Speaker 1: to your routine that rhyme unintentionally, what more do you desire?

596
00:35:46,280 --> 00:35:50,399
Speaker 4: I mean, I guess I'm going to school for hair,

597
00:35:52,239 --> 00:35:55,840
Speaker 4: so like that's something that I kind of want to do,

598
00:35:56,040 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 4: like maybe move up in that way. But also that's

599
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 4: like really easy to say, and I feel like most

600
00:36:04,800 --> 00:36:07,759
Speaker 4: people who do hair feel that way. That's all I

601
00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:12,160
Speaker 4: ever hear anyone say. But also like I don't know,

602
00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:15,520
Speaker 4: I want to make a difference somehow for a large

603
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:19,759
Speaker 4: group of people, more so than I do for just

604
00:36:19,880 --> 00:36:21,600
Speaker 4: you know, the singular person out there.

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Speaker 1: I have a few thoughts on that. First of all,

606
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:30,279
Speaker 1: with the hair thing, aren't you going to just get

607
00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:32,520
Speaker 1: into another loop where you now work at a hair

608
00:36:32,560 --> 00:36:36,439
Speaker 1: salon and you have a recurring group of clientele where

609
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:40,120
Speaker 1: instead of getting them Rick and Morty bongs, you're giving

610
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:44,640
Speaker 1: them Rick and Morty haircuts.

611
00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 4: I suppose, But at least in that way, I can

612
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:52,000
Speaker 4: form the clientele to where like if I want the

613
00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:54,720
Speaker 4: people who are constantly changing, I can have the people

614
00:36:54,719 --> 00:36:58,799
Speaker 4: who are constantly changing. That's more of like an art

615
00:36:58,840 --> 00:37:01,480
Speaker 4: form like a hobby to me.

616
00:37:01,600 --> 00:37:03,959
Speaker 1: Let me tell you this too also if I can't,

617
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:10,400
Speaker 1: you have a desire to help people on a grand scale,

618
00:37:11,120 --> 00:37:13,359
Speaker 1: which I think is that's a beautiful desire. I think

619
00:37:13,360 --> 00:37:18,000
Speaker 1: that's a great desire. I think that's a wonderful, compelling

620
00:37:18,160 --> 00:37:21,800
Speaker 1: force and it'll take you to a lot of places

621
00:37:22,760 --> 00:37:25,920
Speaker 1: if you follow that, and it'll take you to a

622
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:32,880
Speaker 1: lot of places that are fulfilling to you. But I

623
00:37:32,880 --> 00:37:40,759
Speaker 1: think you should have a different sort of relationship with

624
00:37:41,560 --> 00:37:47,720
Speaker 1: the scale aspect of it, right, Because you do feel

625
00:37:47,760 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 1: as though you get a sense of satisfaction when you

626
00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:54,760
Speaker 1: give somebody their morning coffee, when you help them find

627
00:37:55,040 --> 00:37:57,440
Speaker 1: a piece that they really like at your smoke shop,

628
00:37:57,719 --> 00:38:03,040
Speaker 1: when you give them a haircut that they are very

629
00:38:03,040 --> 00:38:04,640
Speaker 1: happy with. Is that accurate?

630
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:08,319
Speaker 2: Yes?

631
00:38:08,480 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 4: But I feel like some of them are like different

632
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:14,960
Speaker 4: forms of satisfaction. Like sometimes I'm happy to give a

633
00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:19,680
Speaker 4: person their right bull because I just like want them

634
00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:22,480
Speaker 4: out of the store faster. Like sometimes it is with

635
00:38:22,680 --> 00:38:28,520
Speaker 4: like malicious intent, but not in a way where it's

636
00:38:28,560 --> 00:38:34,040
Speaker 4: really harming anyone, I guess, you know. But like with coffee,

637
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:36,799
Speaker 4: that's a whole other story, And like with hair that's

638
00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:41,520
Speaker 4: a whole other story that's like changing an entire person's life.

639
00:38:41,760 --> 00:38:47,839
Speaker 1: Well, because here's the thing about about a scale is

640
00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:51,360
Speaker 1: and I've kind of learned this, I've been trying to

641
00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:53,319
Speaker 1: This is what I'm telling you right now so that

642
00:38:53,320 --> 00:38:57,759
Speaker 1: I'm trying to learn on my own, is if you

643
00:38:57,960 --> 00:39:01,520
Speaker 1: can't feel really really and it sounds like you do.

644
00:39:01,840 --> 00:39:04,040
Speaker 1: So I don't know what I'm what I'm telling you here,

645
00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:10,719
Speaker 1: but I think feeling really, really satisfied with helping just

646
00:39:11,200 --> 00:39:19,120
Speaker 1: one person is important because if you can't feel the

647
00:39:19,160 --> 00:39:24,640
Speaker 1: maximum amount of satisfaction and really really tap into the

648
00:39:24,680 --> 00:39:27,440
Speaker 1: maxim amount of satisfaction that you could possibly tap into

649
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:34,920
Speaker 1: by helping one person with one fucking insignificant thing, then

650
00:39:35,560 --> 00:39:38,760
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter how many people you end up helping

651
00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:44,160
Speaker 1: on this so called grand scale, because it's it never

652
00:39:44,320 --> 00:39:46,960
Speaker 1: is enough, do you know what I'm saying?

653
00:39:49,680 --> 00:39:52,840
Speaker 4: Yeah, that makes a lot of sense.

654
00:39:52,920 --> 00:39:56,320
Speaker 1: Actually, Like for me, I I you know, I get

655
00:39:56,520 --> 00:40:00,000
Speaker 1: fucking you know, I get I get emails and stuff

656
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:03,680
Speaker 1: every day of people being like the podcast has helped them,

657
00:40:04,040 --> 00:40:09,080
Speaker 1: and it's it's it's an interesting thing because if I

658
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:11,400
Speaker 1: if I sit there at my email and my DM

659
00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:14,919
Speaker 1: every day and I'm like what we need. Let's get

660
00:40:14,960 --> 00:40:17,960
Speaker 1: more and more and more people that you know are

661
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:21,000
Speaker 1: giving me a validation that I've helped them. Then it'd

662
00:40:21,160 --> 00:40:25,520
Speaker 1: never be this is never enough. Right, But if I

663
00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:30,360
Speaker 1: really take the time, I read one fucking email and

664
00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:34,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, if this is the only email I've and

665
00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:36,160
Speaker 1: I really try to think to myself, if this is

666
00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:40,919
Speaker 1: the only email I've ever gotten or ever get out

667
00:40:40,920 --> 00:40:46,480
Speaker 1: of doing this, that needs to be okay, right, I

668
00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 1: need to be like this, I like, really like and

669
00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:53,000
Speaker 1: because that feeling, that feeling won't just appear to you,

670
00:40:53,000 --> 00:40:58,080
Speaker 1: you have to tap yourself into it. Of I am

671
00:40:58,200 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 1: satisfied having help this one person by giving them their

672
00:41:06,120 --> 00:41:09,239
Speaker 1: morning coffee, like you've got to really tap into the

673
00:41:09,320 --> 00:41:14,719
Speaker 1: one singular instance of the thing or else you're not

674
00:41:14,760 --> 00:41:21,680
Speaker 1: going to be satisfied by a number. You know, if

675
00:41:21,760 --> 00:41:26,240
Speaker 1: one person giving them a nice haircut that they really

676
00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:30,400
Speaker 1: like doesn't satisfy you, then a thousand is not gonna

677
00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:34,600
Speaker 1: satisfy you. It just keeps inflating. Does that make sense?

678
00:41:36,719 --> 00:41:37,960
Speaker 4: That makes a lot of sense?

679
00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:40,439
Speaker 1: Okay, good?

680
00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:45,680
Speaker 4: Like changing the one is it just can be Yeah,

681
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:52,839
Speaker 4: more yourself satisfying yourself more than satisfying I don't know

682
00:41:53,040 --> 00:41:56,240
Speaker 4: your need to help that. I don't know that makes sense.

683
00:41:56,280 --> 00:41:57,520
Speaker 4: I just can't say it again.

684
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:02,200
Speaker 1: Well okay, so well so next time, so you work,

685
00:42:02,320 --> 00:42:03,439
Speaker 1: So you work at the smoke shop.

686
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:05,520
Speaker 4: Yep.

687
00:42:06,560 --> 00:42:08,719
Speaker 1: So next time a guy comes in and he's like,

688
00:42:08,960 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 1: I want Crusty. I want Crusty the Clown and he

689
00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:18,000
Speaker 1: has his ass hanging out and I breathe the smoke

690
00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 1: through Crusty the Clown's mouth and pack the bowl into

691
00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:25,160
Speaker 1: his ass. And next time that guy comes in and

692
00:42:25,200 --> 00:42:27,600
Speaker 1: you're like, I have that in the back, let me

693
00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:30,040
Speaker 1: get it for you, and you present it to him

694
00:42:30,040 --> 00:42:33,239
Speaker 1: and he smiles at you and whatnot, and you're like, oh,

695
00:42:33,280 --> 00:42:35,879
Speaker 1: I've helped this guy get the thing that he came

696
00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:40,000
Speaker 1: in to get. It's a really small, insignificant thing, but

697
00:42:40,080 --> 00:42:43,799
Speaker 1: you sit in the moment that you're helping him with it,

698
00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:48,600
Speaker 1: and you take every last drop of satisfaction you can

699
00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:52,320
Speaker 1: possibly gleam from that moment, because that's satisfaction. It won't

700
00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:54,799
Speaker 1: it won't just come to you out of doing it.

701
00:42:54,800 --> 00:42:56,719
Speaker 1: You have to do it, but then also mentally be

702
00:42:56,840 --> 00:43:00,880
Speaker 1: there and mentally go I'm gonna fucking hitting this moment

703
00:43:00,880 --> 00:43:03,520
Speaker 1: with this person as I'm helping them and get everything

704
00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:05,719
Speaker 1: I possibly can out of it and lean into it.

705
00:43:08,320 --> 00:43:10,879
Speaker 1: That's that's where you'll get your satisfaction.

706
00:43:12,760 --> 00:43:15,320
Speaker 4: Have you been to the shop, because you're just describing

707
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:18,399
Speaker 4: some bulls that we definitely have there.

708
00:43:19,239 --> 00:43:23,640
Speaker 1: I've spent a decent amount of time in various headshops.

709
00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:27,000
Speaker 1: Not anymore, but when I was in high school I did.

710
00:43:27,080 --> 00:43:30,319
Speaker 1: I did a lot, and I saw that accrusted the

711
00:43:30,320 --> 00:43:32,960
Speaker 1: clown Actually, I mean, fuck it, I have I have

712
00:43:33,000 --> 00:43:37,680
Speaker 1: a crust to the clown bowl that is exactly like that.

713
00:43:37,680 --> 00:43:40,440
Speaker 1: That's not true. I completely made a lot of this up.

714
00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:43,480
Speaker 1: But I hope this conversation was helpful to you, Taylor.

715
00:43:45,440 --> 00:43:50,040
Speaker 4: It was. It definitely like changed my outlook on on

716
00:43:50,120 --> 00:43:52,640
Speaker 4: that question, Like, I don't know how I'm going to

717
00:43:52,680 --> 00:43:54,440
Speaker 4: look at how I'm helping people in the future.

718
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:58,799
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. I'm glad it was helpful to you, and

719
00:44:01,320 --> 00:44:04,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take my own advice. I'm gonna think of

720
00:44:04,080 --> 00:44:08,600
Speaker 1: this call as the only one I ever take for

721
00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:13,400
Speaker 1: the course of my everything. Really, soak it up. Now

722
00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:18,520
Speaker 1: I'm sounding potentially, but I don't care anymore.

723
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:25,640
Speaker 4: Hey, it's your life. Man. You're not an NPC.

724
00:44:26,600 --> 00:44:28,879
Speaker 1: Neither are you God damn it, Taylor, is there anything

725
00:44:28,920 --> 00:44:30,080
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the

726
00:44:30,080 --> 00:44:31,040
Speaker 1: computer before we go?

727
00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:36,080
Speaker 4: Don't do drugs unless you're twenty one?

728
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:38,440
Speaker 1: Perfect? Thanks for calling.

729
00:44:40,200 --> 00:44:41,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, I have a good night.

730
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:44,720
Speaker 3: Hello.

731
00:44:45,880 --> 00:44:46,640
Speaker 1: Hey, how are you?

732
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:49,360
Speaker 3: Hey? How you doing?

733
00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:51,360
Speaker 1: Is this Sal?

734
00:44:53,440 --> 00:44:54,640
Speaker 3: Yes? Is this Lyle?

735
00:44:55,760 --> 00:44:59,399
Speaker 1: Yeah? Yes, it is you. You as anyone ever told

736
00:44:59,400 --> 00:45:02,719
Speaker 1: you that you? You totally sound like your name is.

737
00:45:02,719 --> 00:45:07,280
Speaker 3: Sal Yeah, I mean it's close.

738
00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:12,160
Speaker 1: Is are you Italian? I don't know if that's cool

739
00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:12,560
Speaker 1: to ask.

740
00:45:13,880 --> 00:45:18,719
Speaker 3: No, No, it's okay, Yeah I am, but my name

741
00:45:18,800 --> 00:45:19,680
Speaker 3: is definitely not South.

742
00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:23,359
Speaker 1: Oh okay, all right, Well you picked a great fake name.

743
00:45:24,880 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, thanks buddy for you. Man.

744
00:45:29,160 --> 00:45:31,160
Speaker 1: So, how's everything going with you? It says here that

745
00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:34,560
Speaker 1: you have a fart fetish that is a massive secret

746
00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:39,160
Speaker 1: in your life and you've never indulged in very different.

747
00:45:40,840 --> 00:45:44,719
Speaker 3: It's difficult to talk about, but I feel like I

748
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:47,839
Speaker 3: need to learn a little bit more about how to

749
00:45:47,880 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 3: approach this, if that makes any sense.

750
00:45:52,239 --> 00:45:52,479
Speaker 1: Yeah.

751
00:45:52,640 --> 00:45:56,239
Speaker 3: No, I just feel like it's it's a difficult thing

752
00:45:56,280 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 3: to talk about. M I mean, it's not something I'm

753
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:06,680
Speaker 3: definitely proud of, Like, I don't know, I feel weird

754
00:46:06,719 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 3: about it, but it's.

755
00:46:10,719 --> 00:46:15,520
Speaker 1: So sal listen, I have to ask you this question. Uh,

756
00:46:15,560 --> 00:46:19,480
Speaker 1: it's sort of just a formality here, but you're you're

757
00:46:19,480 --> 00:46:22,160
Speaker 1: being one hundred percent serious, correct you. I don't think

758
00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:22,840
Speaker 1: you would fuck with me.

759
00:46:23,120 --> 00:46:29,920
Speaker 3: But you check my search history, check the search history

760
00:46:30,680 --> 00:46:31,400
Speaker 3: on my computer.

761
00:46:32,560 --> 00:46:34,280
Speaker 1: You you watch a lot of fartard.

762
00:46:36,120 --> 00:46:38,719
Speaker 3: I want to say a lot. But when I do

763
00:46:38,800 --> 00:46:43,799
Speaker 3: watch porn, I do happen to go towards that category.

764
00:46:44,440 --> 00:46:49,239
Speaker 1: Mm hmmmmm. Okay, how long have you been into farts?

765
00:46:51,560 --> 00:46:53,759
Speaker 3: See here's the thing. It's not so much farts, it's

766
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:55,720
Speaker 3: like this is where it gets weird.

767
00:46:55,760 --> 00:46:58,479
Speaker 1: Man, I'm on board.

768
00:47:00,239 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 3: It's like the forbidden fruit, Like girls don't fart, you know,

769
00:47:05,200 --> 00:47:10,279
Speaker 3: and like, dude, bring it on. Like I don't know,

770
00:47:10,840 --> 00:47:12,600
Speaker 3: maybe it's not even the fart. Maybe it's just like

771
00:47:13,560 --> 00:47:20,680
Speaker 3: the the what would you call that, the like the

772
00:47:20,840 --> 00:47:23,640
Speaker 3: you know, like the boundary line, you know, like that's

773
00:47:23,640 --> 00:47:28,280
Speaker 3: where like I don't know, it's very it's very confusing

774
00:47:28,320 --> 00:47:29,120
Speaker 3: to me myself.

775
00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:32,600
Speaker 1: Well, you know, the weather, you're explaining it that that

776
00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:36,400
Speaker 1: you Uh, it's kind of a forbidden fruit thing, you know,

777
00:47:36,840 --> 00:47:39,960
Speaker 1: Like you know, girls are not typically very open about

778
00:47:40,040 --> 00:47:43,879
Speaker 1: flatolence about pooping. About these sorts of things, and it's

779
00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:47,120
Speaker 1: it's a forbidden it's a forbidden thing. It's a very

780
00:47:47,160 --> 00:47:51,000
Speaker 1: taboo thing. And for many people, uh you know, taboos

781
00:47:51,040 --> 00:47:54,440
Speaker 1: can be very uh you know, exciting to explore.

782
00:47:56,080 --> 00:48:02,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, so here's where it also I'm sorry, No, go ahead,

783
00:48:02,840 --> 00:48:06,480
Speaker 3: tell me, tell me more. No, I was just gonna say,

784
00:48:06,520 --> 00:48:10,319
Speaker 3: like it's weird because like I'm not I would never

785
00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:14,000
Speaker 3: kink shame anybody on the planet Earth for anything that

786
00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:17,279
Speaker 3: they're they indulge in or they want indulge in. But

787
00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:20,640
Speaker 3: I still hold myself to this is so weird. I

788
00:48:20,680 --> 00:48:23,279
Speaker 3: hold myself to a high sterandard because I don't have

789
00:48:23,320 --> 00:48:27,400
Speaker 3: a foot fetish let alone, nothing else but weird like that,

790
00:48:27,440 --> 00:48:31,000
Speaker 3: but like not weird, nothing like that. But like here

791
00:48:31,040 --> 00:48:34,040
Speaker 3: I am wanting to sniff a girl's ass, Like I mean,

792
00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:36,719
Speaker 3: I'm demented. I gotta be.

793
00:48:38,640 --> 00:48:41,240
Speaker 1: Why do you consider yourself demented?

794
00:48:42,880 --> 00:48:46,799
Speaker 3: Because it's so gross, Like if you told like in

795
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:49,680
Speaker 3: my mind, I picture myself like if I told the

796
00:48:49,719 --> 00:48:55,879
Speaker 3: previous girl like hey, fart in my face, Like they're

797
00:48:55,920 --> 00:49:00,279
Speaker 3: just gonna look at me like what Like I'm not

798
00:49:00,280 --> 00:49:03,279
Speaker 3: gonna say like the curse words, but like there's gonna

799
00:49:03,280 --> 00:49:08,120
Speaker 3: be a ton of them. Like, you know, I feel embarrassed.

800
00:49:08,160 --> 00:49:13,600
Speaker 3: I feel very ashamed of this, you know, and it's

801
00:49:13,719 --> 00:49:16,960
Speaker 3: very tough for me to digest like that this is

802
00:49:17,000 --> 00:49:22,040
Speaker 3: my kink, Like it's very it's very it's kind of frustrating,

803
00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:25,359
Speaker 3: Like I'm mad at myself for liking this. But I've

804
00:49:25,360 --> 00:49:29,680
Speaker 3: never experienced it, to be fair, I've never had that

805
00:49:29,800 --> 00:49:30,319
Speaker 3: happen to me.

806
00:49:31,719 --> 00:49:35,440
Speaker 1: I mean, let's boil down the shame here, Sal. You

807
00:49:35,480 --> 00:49:38,880
Speaker 1: say it's gross, you say it's shameful. But but but why,

808
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:43,320
Speaker 1: Like let's let's ask, let's ask why why is it

809
00:49:43,440 --> 00:49:46,960
Speaker 1: shameful for you to like farts just because a lot

810
00:49:47,000 --> 00:49:48,800
Speaker 1: of other people think that it's gross.

811
00:49:49,680 --> 00:49:53,239
Speaker 3: No, yeah, you nailed it. I think we circle back

812
00:49:53,239 --> 00:49:57,279
Speaker 3: to that taboo part of it. It's so taboo, and

813
00:49:57,320 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 3: it's so like not talked about. Like we just got

814
00:50:01,520 --> 00:50:05,200
Speaker 3: into feat like in you know that the century, Like

815
00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 3: we just got through feet. We accepted that, you know,

816
00:50:08,480 --> 00:50:13,320
Speaker 3: like it's taking a long time to get I'll probably

817
00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:15,560
Speaker 3: be dead by the time like people accept that this

818
00:50:15,640 --> 00:50:16,799
Speaker 3: is a fetus, you know what I mean?

819
00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:22,239
Speaker 1: Sal, I actually think I think such a slow pace, Sal,

820
00:50:22,440 --> 00:50:25,480
Speaker 1: this is a you know, Sal, in order for you

821
00:50:25,520 --> 00:50:28,720
Speaker 1: to be self actualized. In order for you to really

822
00:50:29,960 --> 00:50:38,720
Speaker 1: achieve happiness on your own terms, you need to transcend society.

823
00:50:38,760 --> 00:50:42,319
Speaker 1: And yeah, I think you need to transcend society. I

824
00:50:42,320 --> 00:50:45,080
Speaker 1: think that society has these rules. Some of them are

825
00:50:45,120 --> 00:50:48,399
Speaker 1: for a good reason. You know, don't kill people, don't

826
00:50:48,400 --> 00:50:49,600
Speaker 1: steal things, whatever.

827
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:52,320
Speaker 3: It is no harm. Nobody gets hurt, of course.

828
00:50:52,280 --> 00:50:54,840
Speaker 1: But in this situation, you know, this is not a

829
00:50:54,880 --> 00:50:58,920
Speaker 1: harmful thing that society is trying to event. This is

830
00:50:59,080 --> 00:51:05,920
Speaker 1: just you. You need to transcend society's views on things

831
00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:12,120
Speaker 1: and live your life for yourself sal and not get

832
00:51:12,200 --> 00:51:15,359
Speaker 1: so hung up on what other people are doing. You're

833
00:51:15,360 --> 00:51:18,520
Speaker 1: never gonna be happy if you're living by other people's rules.

834
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:23,799
Speaker 1: And I understand why, I understand why it's embarrassing, right,

835
00:51:24,239 --> 00:51:28,680
Speaker 1: But there's so much power to be had in owning

836
00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:34,440
Speaker 1: what is traditionally embarrassing, right, Because if society tries to

837
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:36,840
Speaker 1: shame you and tries to make you feel uncomfortable for

838
00:51:36,920 --> 00:51:40,680
Speaker 1: liking what you like, you know you can take the

839
00:51:40,719 --> 00:51:44,040
Speaker 1: power back and not and not let it, you know,

840
00:51:45,320 --> 00:51:50,160
Speaker 1: now let it control you. Tell me this, Tell me this.

841
00:51:51,719 --> 00:51:57,440
Speaker 1: Have you ever considered going out there trying to find

842
00:51:59,280 --> 00:52:06,600
Speaker 1: or trying to or orchestrates a sexual experience that involves.

843
00:52:06,200 --> 00:52:08,280
Speaker 3: Farts in that in that ballpark.

844
00:52:08,640 --> 00:52:09,799
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, in that ball park.

845
00:52:11,440 --> 00:52:17,680
Speaker 3: So gek, let's let's get real. Yeah. I have looked

846
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:22,600
Speaker 3: into it. It's expensive because it's not something I would

847
00:52:22,680 --> 00:52:26,080
Speaker 3: do to like a random grow at a bar. You understand,

848
00:52:26,200 --> 00:52:30,720
Speaker 3: Like I have looked online in people in this field

849
00:52:31,800 --> 00:52:37,000
Speaker 3: and it's just out of my ballpark and that that's

850
00:52:37,040 --> 00:52:40,239
Speaker 3: where it is. But at the same time, I wanted

851
00:52:40,280 --> 00:52:43,320
Speaker 3: to be genuine. I don't want it to be someone

852
00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:46,520
Speaker 3: else that's just you know, excuse my language, but just

853
00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:50,440
Speaker 3: farten in faces all day. I kind of want to

854
00:52:50,440 --> 00:52:51,360
Speaker 3: be a little genuine.

855
00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:54,719
Speaker 1: Okay, we sal I have another recommendation for you. Have

856
00:52:54,719 --> 00:52:57,680
Speaker 1: you ever been on I mean, there's all these websites

857
00:52:57,719 --> 00:53:01,399
Speaker 1: out there. Uh, I don't know any off the top

858
00:53:01,440 --> 00:53:06,919
Speaker 1: of my head, but there are many, many websites for

859
00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:15,520
Speaker 1: people whose sexual desires deviate from the norm who, you know,

860
00:53:15,600 --> 00:53:18,760
Speaker 1: congregate together to find one another. It's never been easier

861
00:53:18,800 --> 00:53:24,239
Speaker 1: actually for people with debate sexual desires to oh yeah,

862
00:53:24,239 --> 00:53:26,200
Speaker 1: oh my god, I mean read it is one.

863
00:53:27,680 --> 00:53:27,840
Speaker 3: You know.

864
00:53:27,880 --> 00:53:30,279
Speaker 1: I'm sure there's all these dating sites where people can

865
00:53:30,440 --> 00:53:34,160
Speaker 1: you know, explore their fetishes. I mean, I feel like

866
00:53:34,920 --> 00:53:37,560
Speaker 1: I feel like I feel like there is still a

867
00:53:37,600 --> 00:53:42,879
Speaker 1: lot of inhibition on your part that is keeping you

868
00:53:42,960 --> 00:53:50,080
Speaker 1: from fully diving into this thing about yourself. And I

869
00:53:50,120 --> 00:53:54,319
Speaker 1: think that you should accept it because I don't know,

870
00:53:54,480 --> 00:53:56,960
Speaker 1: I'm not you know, this is an interesting thing and

871
00:53:57,040 --> 00:53:59,759
Speaker 1: I'm not sure about it. I would love to talk

872
00:53:59,760 --> 00:54:03,120
Speaker 1: to a real psychologist about it. But I don't know

873
00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:07,960
Speaker 1: if you can make this go away. Have you talked

874
00:54:07,960 --> 00:54:10,600
Speaker 1: to someone about this going anywhere? I don't know if

875
00:54:10,640 --> 00:54:13,160
Speaker 1: you can just make this go away.

876
00:54:13,320 --> 00:54:14,319
Speaker 3: I'm too embarrassed.

877
00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:15,560
Speaker 1: I mean, why embarrassed?

878
00:54:17,239 --> 00:54:20,800
Speaker 3: Uh? First, gat, I just want to thank your team

879
00:54:20,840 --> 00:54:23,719
Speaker 3: that you had answered the phones, because I tried calling

880
00:54:23,760 --> 00:54:26,160
Speaker 3: a couple of weeks ago about this and we had

881
00:54:26,160 --> 00:54:28,120
Speaker 3: got this connected. But I had talked to one of

882
00:54:28,120 --> 00:54:30,479
Speaker 3: the gentlemen that picked up the phone, and we talked

883
00:54:30,480 --> 00:54:33,320
Speaker 3: about like this, and we had a good lack that

884
00:54:33,320 --> 00:54:35,440
Speaker 3: that was the first time I ever opened up about it.

885
00:54:35,760 --> 00:54:38,840
Speaker 3: You have no idea like this is uncomfortable for me,

886
00:54:39,239 --> 00:54:44,560
Speaker 3: you know, and you have a great team. Really appreciate it.

887
00:54:44,640 --> 00:54:47,200
Speaker 3: But he also told me something cool. He was like,

888
00:54:47,640 --> 00:54:50,279
Speaker 3: you're not the first person calling about this. So there's

889
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:54,120
Speaker 3: other people out there with this people.

890
00:54:54,560 --> 00:54:56,960
Speaker 1: Of course, there's other people. Every weird thing you could

891
00:54:57,000 --> 00:55:02,080
Speaker 1: possibly think is some unique thing to you, it's everybody.

892
00:55:02,120 --> 00:55:06,680
Speaker 1: You know, we all live, We all share this weird

893
00:55:07,960 --> 00:55:11,760
Speaker 1: thing in our brains that causes us to like farts

894
00:55:11,800 --> 00:55:16,200
Speaker 1: and you know, weird stuff fucking be depressed.

895
00:55:15,719 --> 00:55:18,439
Speaker 3: And all that shit, arm pit, haairs and whatever. Yeah,

896
00:55:18,520 --> 00:55:22,640
Speaker 3: whatever you got, Like, that's why you know, man, you

897
00:55:22,719 --> 00:55:25,000
Speaker 3: have such an awesome thing going. Man, you have no

898
00:55:25,080 --> 00:55:29,040
Speaker 3: idea how much like I appreciate you having this like

899
00:55:29,160 --> 00:55:34,319
Speaker 3: open form. I appreciate that sound idea what my facebooks like,

900
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:36,840
Speaker 3: but like this feels so good to get off my chest.

901
00:55:37,080 --> 00:55:38,600
Speaker 1: Like no, I don't know what it looks like, but

902
00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:44,040
Speaker 1: I know that it loves itself some stinky farts. He

903
00:55:44,200 --> 00:55:48,200
Speaker 1: is there, shout listen. I'll say this. I hope that

904
00:55:48,280 --> 00:55:53,840
Speaker 1: you talking about this on this podcast, has you know,

905
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:58,360
Speaker 1: gotten you at least like one ring up when wrung

906
00:55:58,440 --> 00:56:05,359
Speaker 1: up on the ladder to eventually either you know, embracing

907
00:56:05,400 --> 00:56:08,320
Speaker 1: it or talking to someone about how it can go away.

908
00:56:08,480 --> 00:56:11,440
Speaker 1: I don't know. I really like it's interesting when we're

909
00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:15,560
Speaker 1: talking about like it going away, I do I don't know,

910
00:56:16,880 --> 00:56:25,840
Speaker 1: to what degree humans can like change their psychology of

911
00:56:26,040 --> 00:56:31,120
Speaker 1: like what they are sexually attracted to. And then I

912
00:56:31,120 --> 00:56:34,200
Speaker 1: don't know what the healthy thing is if it's to

913
00:56:34,239 --> 00:56:35,879
Speaker 1: pursue it or I don't. I don't know. I wish

914
00:56:35,920 --> 00:56:37,400
Speaker 1: I had the answers of like off this ship from

915
00:56:37,400 --> 00:56:38,080
Speaker 1: a psychologist.

916
00:56:39,200 --> 00:56:42,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, the scary thing is what if and then you

917
00:56:43,160 --> 00:56:45,719
Speaker 3: just go, what if I'm thrown out there? What if

918
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:49,279
Speaker 3: some chick farts to my face? I fall in love

919
00:56:49,320 --> 00:56:52,839
Speaker 3: with this? Now I'm into the next realm. I don't

920
00:56:52,840 --> 00:56:55,040
Speaker 3: know where that goes deeper? What are they doing poop

921
00:56:55,080 --> 00:56:55,640
Speaker 3: it on my chest?

922
00:56:55,719 --> 00:56:55,799
Speaker 2: Like?

923
00:56:56,440 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 3: Where does this go? If I like that? That's the

924
00:56:59,520 --> 00:57:00,719
Speaker 3: scary part.

925
00:57:02,040 --> 00:57:05,080
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, Well, I mean look man, look man, look,

926
00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:07,200
Speaker 1: look man. If you let's let's say let's say a

927
00:57:07,200 --> 00:57:10,040
Speaker 1: girl as fartag on your face, and then let's say

928
00:57:10,239 --> 00:57:12,919
Speaker 1: you know that slowly becomes not enough for you. Then

929
00:57:12,920 --> 00:57:15,360
Speaker 1: she's shitting in your chest, Then she's shitting in your mouth,

930
00:57:16,520 --> 00:57:20,959
Speaker 1: and then she's like shitting in your ass and while

931
00:57:20,960 --> 00:57:22,680
Speaker 1: you are taking a ship and your ships are like

932
00:57:22,840 --> 00:57:27,320
Speaker 1: sumo wrestling each other inside of your assholes. Let's say

933
00:57:27,320 --> 00:57:30,360
Speaker 1: you do get to that point what it is really

934
00:57:30,360 --> 00:57:32,600
Speaker 1: so bad about that? What is really so bad about that?

935
00:57:32,720 --> 00:57:39,480
Speaker 3: So nothing except the ibar it all comes You're right,

936
00:57:39,560 --> 00:57:42,880
Speaker 3: get It comes down to my own insecurities, like I

937
00:57:42,960 --> 00:57:46,520
Speaker 3: have to find that power, but I just don't have it.

938
00:57:46,680 --> 00:57:50,880
Speaker 3: I mean, you know, like this, I'm a I like

939
00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:54,040
Speaker 3: to think of myself as a pretty good guy, you know,

940
00:57:54,560 --> 00:57:57,800
Speaker 3: but like you know, there were things in my past

941
00:57:57,840 --> 00:58:00,320
Speaker 3: where I did drugs and this and that, like gonna,

942
00:58:00,520 --> 00:58:04,080
Speaker 3: it's taking time to build my ego wop, and it's

943
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:05,320
Speaker 3: very hard to talk about this.

944
00:58:06,800 --> 00:58:07,200
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

945
00:58:08,720 --> 00:58:12,560
Speaker 3: You know, I'm clean now and I got this weird fetish.

946
00:58:12,720 --> 00:58:14,560
Speaker 3: I don't know what I would want more like the

947
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:17,880
Speaker 3: drugs are the fetish, Like I don't know. I like

948
00:58:17,920 --> 00:58:20,560
Speaker 3: being clean, so I'll take the fetish.

949
00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:27,720
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, sal If I'm tell me no, listen, here's

950
00:58:27,720 --> 00:58:29,760
Speaker 1: what I think. I said this before, but I'll just

951
00:58:29,760 --> 00:58:35,400
Speaker 1: say it again just to hammer it in. Sal. I

952
00:58:35,440 --> 00:58:39,080
Speaker 1: think for you to really be happy, you can't be

953
00:58:39,320 --> 00:58:43,440
Speaker 1: living by other people's expectations, by society's expectations. And I

954
00:58:43,440 --> 00:58:45,320
Speaker 1: hope you take that to heart, and I hope that

955
00:58:45,400 --> 00:58:49,720
Speaker 1: you move forward in a direction that you know is

956
00:58:50,080 --> 00:58:53,960
Speaker 1: overcoming those expectations. And leads to you more living your

957
00:58:53,960 --> 00:58:54,400
Speaker 1: own life.

958
00:58:56,240 --> 00:58:59,360
Speaker 3: Yeak, you're an amazing Gek. You have no idea. Man,

959
00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:01,720
Speaker 3: You're saving lives without even knowing it.

960
00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:06,160
Speaker 1: I wish you many farts to the face. I wish

961
00:59:06,160 --> 00:59:09,880
Speaker 1: you many guilt free farts to the face and shifts

962
00:59:09,920 --> 00:59:13,160
Speaker 1: to the mouth and pisses to the nose if you

963
00:59:13,200 --> 00:59:16,439
Speaker 1: get there, and I appreciate it, Sal, is there anything

964
00:59:16,440 --> 00:59:17,320
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the

965
00:59:17,360 --> 00:59:18,120
Speaker 1: computer before we go?

966
00:59:19,760 --> 00:59:24,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, guys just called Gek. Be open with yourself, get

967
00:59:24,680 --> 00:59:28,800
Speaker 3: off your chest. The guys here for real and the

968
00:59:28,840 --> 00:59:30,480
Speaker 3: team's awesome too.

969
00:59:32,000 --> 00:59:32,800
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Sal.

970
00:59:34,440 --> 00:59:35,120
Speaker 3: Get farted on.

971
00:59:36,360 --> 00:59:43,160
Speaker 1: You know, there's also Sal for every guy out there

972
00:59:43,480 --> 00:59:47,920
Speaker 1: who loves getting farted on. There's a woman out there

973
00:59:49,120 --> 00:59:55,200
Speaker 1: who absolutely loves farting on guys faces. And there's an

974
00:59:55,240 --> 00:59:58,360
Speaker 1: alternate universe where I'm getting a call from a lady

975
00:59:58,360 --> 01:00:03,080
Speaker 1: who's like, you know, hey, Gek, I have this thing

976
01:00:03,120 --> 01:00:05,320
Speaker 1: where I love to fart on guy's faces, but I

977
01:00:05,600 --> 01:00:09,120
Speaker 1: can't find any guys you know who I'm willing to

978
01:00:09,120 --> 01:00:12,320
Speaker 1: bring it up to, Like what if, Sal, I'm gonna

979
01:00:12,320 --> 01:00:20,240
Speaker 1: call this what's a what's an equally Italian name? Maria Salam.

980
01:00:20,600 --> 01:00:24,000
Speaker 1: What if Maria calls me and she's like, ghak, I

981
01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:28,240
Speaker 1: can't find a guy who face I can fart on.

982
01:00:28,280 --> 01:00:30,480
Speaker 1: Let's say Maria and Sal they meet on Hinge, some

983
01:00:30,640 --> 01:00:36,760
Speaker 1: normy dating app, and you know both Maria wants to

984
01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:38,960
Speaker 1: fart on Sal's face. Sal wants Maria to fart on

985
01:00:39,000 --> 01:00:42,640
Speaker 1: his face, but both of them are too embarrassed to

986
01:00:42,720 --> 01:00:45,480
Speaker 1: let each other know, and so they hide it and

987
01:00:45,480 --> 01:00:48,600
Speaker 1: they hide it and they never are are are true

988
01:00:48,640 --> 01:00:55,080
Speaker 1: to each other and the amazing fart sex that could

989
01:00:55,080 --> 01:00:59,480
Speaker 1: be never bees? Wouldn't that be tragic?

990
01:01:06,760 --> 01:01:10,240
Speaker 4: The GT goes all the line taking your phone calls

991
01:01:10,320 --> 01:01:13,160
Speaker 4: every night, The repeat goes down his eye.

992
01:01:13,280 --> 01:01:17,040
Speaker 3: He's teaching you cloud every life, but he's not really

993
01:01:17,200 --> 01:01:17,960
Speaker 3: an expert.