Speaker 1: And I was just like blown away by using that
Speaker 1: as an opening line to your resume, and I just thought,
Speaker 1: what if, what if we could strive? What if success
Speaker 1: was striving for the ability to put on your resume,
Speaker 1: to start your resume with I am a man of integrity,
Speaker 1: knowing that that is the most important value you could
Speaker 1: offer to an employer or to the world, and also
Speaker 1: believing those words. Hey, guys, it's Granger Smith. Welcome to
Speaker 1: the Granger Smith podcat asked episode twenty five, a quarter
Speaker 1: to one hundred podcasts. Thank you guys for listening, especially
Speaker 1: the ones that have started with Day one, which is
Speaker 1: I believe a couple of years ago now. And then
Speaker 1: welcome the new watchers and listeners. We're on YouTube now.
Speaker 1: We've been doing this for about five episodes, and that,
Speaker 1: you know, YouTube is what I've been doing a lot
Speaker 1: of lately, and those of you that follow the multiple
Speaker 1: channels that I have and the multiple pieces of social media,
Speaker 1: you'll see that we've been doing about one video a
Speaker 1: day between the Smiths, which is our family blog. We've
Speaker 1: been doing those on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and then Amber
Speaker 1: has a new show called A Rise with Amber on
Speaker 1: the Smiths channel every Sunday morning. This podcast comes out
Speaker 1: every Monday morning, and then I've been doing a Granger
Speaker 1: blog on Wednesdays and an Earl Dibvils thing probably on Friday.
Speaker 1: So we just put out for when I'm recording this video.
Speaker 1: We just put out Don't Cough on Me music video
Speaker 1: on YouTube. And there are so many more things I
Speaker 1: have planned. I'm actually going to go this weekend head
Speaker 1: back to Mom's and we're going to get back on
Speaker 1: another Earl Dibbles. So there's Earl. It's like had a
Speaker 1: resurgence during this crazy world world thing. Guys, I have
Speaker 1: to like censor everything that I say because YouTube. I'm
Speaker 1: relying so much on YouTube right now because it's kind
Speaker 1: of on my only way to pay the bills, and
Speaker 1: they are still censoring everything and demonetizing everything. If you
Speaker 1: say certain words about the world and what the world
Speaker 1: is doing right now, there's like these keywords that they're
Speaker 1: picking up on their algorithm and then like slashing videos
Speaker 1: and demonetizing them. So it feels like about half the
Speaker 1: videos I've done, I'm still learning the new lingo that
Speaker 1: YouTube is allowing, which, by the way, isn't that kind
Speaker 1: of crazy. I mean, we talk all the time about
Speaker 1: the Bill of Rights and the First Amendment, freedom of speech,
Speaker 1: which is the amendment that allows me to sit here
Speaker 1: on this podcast and talk to you guys and do
Speaker 1: all these YouTube videos and everyone won't give you my
Speaker 1: opinion about life and love and happiness and lack thereof.
Speaker 1: And can you believe that that amendment is under threat
Speaker 1: every day? You know, we talk about the Second Amendment
Speaker 1: being under threat, but so is the first. I mean, look,
Speaker 1: look what's happening around the world and people, you know,
Speaker 1: videos getting taken down and Twitter posts getting taken down
Speaker 1: or even worse, some people's Twitter posts staying up, which
Speaker 1: is a whole different conspiracy theory. And I am just
Speaker 1: a for those of you don't know me, I am
Speaker 1: a Measley country music singer, and I shouldn't get involved
Speaker 1: too much in crazy conspiracies or world events. I'm just
Speaker 1: going to call it like I see it. And I
Speaker 1: feel like our first Amendment right is under threat a
Speaker 1: little bit. It's under fire as well as the second.
Speaker 1: So all that being said, I have to watch what
Speaker 1: I say constantly now so that I don't get slashed
Speaker 1: up or demonetized, because if I get demonetized. That's really
Speaker 1: the only income I have paying the bills during these times.
Speaker 1: Let me get to some questions. This has been the
Speaker 1: kind of the theme to the last several podcasts since
Speaker 1: I can't have a guest because we're practicing this stay
Speaker 1: away from each other thing, you know what it's called.
Speaker 1: And I've been answering your questions on social media hashtag
Speaker 1: Granger Smith podcast. Right. I've also been reading the comments
Speaker 1: from below these YouTube videos. And you could be listening
Speaker 1: to this on Spotify or on a podcast asked app,
Speaker 1: or you could be watching it on YouTube. I think
Speaker 1: there's a couple other ways too, but if you're watching
Speaker 1: on YouTube, I'm also kind of taking comments or questions
Speaker 1: from the comments and answering some of these. And if
Speaker 1: you have something you want to ask me, go ahead
Speaker 1: and comment below this video, or go to social media
Speaker 1: and hashtag Granger Smith podcast and then ask your question.
Speaker 1: And this is the first one I want to read.
Speaker 1: And I kind of I got some questions, but I
Speaker 1: have not prepared anything. I haven't prepared so my mind
Speaker 1: is completely cleared. I don't know what's about to come out.
Speaker 1: I hope I say the right things. That's the story
Speaker 1: of my life all the time. Anyway. First question is,
Speaker 1: I've listened to all of your podcasts and this morning
Speaker 1: I'm finishing up. So he listens, says, I've listened to
Speaker 1: all of them backwards, so this morning I'm finishing up
Speaker 1: episode one. Have you ever met and told Guard Brokes
Speaker 1: about his impression on you as a kid, And the
Speaker 1: answer is yes, I have. We've played a couple of
Speaker 1: shows with Garth and exactly how you think he might
Speaker 1: be he is in real life. He's, you know, the
Speaker 1: what we'd say in the band. He's the country music Oprah.
Speaker 1: You know, he's like he's a man to the people.
Speaker 1: He's a man and he never turns it off, like
Speaker 1: his eyes locked on Garth eyes, you know where everything
Speaker 1: sounds like he's reading a speech, but it's actually just
Speaker 1: coming out of his brain. That's the real Garth. And
Speaker 1: we've played a couple of shows with him and I've
Speaker 1: gotten to spend some good time with him. And what
Speaker 1: this question is asking is earlier on a I think
Speaker 1: I believe it was episode one on the podcast I
Speaker 1: talked about Garth was such a big inspiration to me
Speaker 1: into what country music is because my grandpa passed away
Speaker 1: in the late eighties, and I was it's just a
Speaker 1: little bitty. And my first impression of country music was
Speaker 1: when my grandmother put on his tombstone, if Tomorrow Never comes,
Speaker 1: will you know how much I loved you? And that's
Speaker 1: a lyric from a Garth Brooks song. And that song
Speaker 1: had just come out as brand new on country radio
Speaker 1: at the time, I believe it was eighty nine. And
Speaker 1: I saw that and I still remember that to this day.
Speaker 1: And I remember just seeing what a crazy impression that
Speaker 1: a song lyric from a songwriter, from a country music
Speaker 1: artist on country music radio, What that could do to
Speaker 1: a life, what that could do do a family. And
Speaker 1: I was witnessing at a funeral. You know these words
Speaker 1: that Garth wrote on a tombstone that will live forever
Speaker 1: in this family's memory to commemorate their love for each other.
Speaker 1: And that is crazy. And that was my first big,
Speaker 1: real impression of country music. And I didn't tell Garth that,
Speaker 1: you know what I did. I did tell Garth that,
Speaker 1: but I didn't. I just said, you know, really quick,
Speaker 1: I just said, I need to tell you that your
Speaker 1: song if Tomorrow Never Comes is on my granddad's Gravestone.
Speaker 1: I didn't go into detail like I'm doing right now,
Speaker 1: and I wouldn't say that I'm friends with him, but
Speaker 1: but we are real good acquaintances. Like we've had great conversations,
Speaker 1: and he's taught me a lot backstage, and he's taught
Speaker 1: me a lot by his words and things that he
Speaker 1: doesn't say, just the way that he carries himself, the
Speaker 1: way he takes care of his band and crew, and
Speaker 1: the way that he takes care of his fans. I've
Speaker 1: learned a lot from that guy. And he reached out
Speaker 1: when we lost River. He made a big effort to
Speaker 1: reach out and give me a hug during that time.
Speaker 1: And we did a show right around then in Boise
Speaker 1: on the Smurf turf at the Boise Football Stadium, and
Speaker 1: we did a show there together. Does the last time
Speaker 1: I saw him, and it was really special, special event
Speaker 1: across a good man man. I'm also very blessed to
Speaker 1: have met a hero like that, very lucky. Some of
Speaker 1: these questions I would kind of screenshot on my phone
Speaker 1: if I saw it several times, if I saw the
Speaker 1: same question. Here's one that I saw several times. How
Speaker 1: are you staying in shape any recommendations for home workouts,
Speaker 1: and I kind of talked about this on episode twenty
Speaker 1: four and I left it open to you guys to
Speaker 1: kind of comment if you know any home workouts, and
Speaker 1: I talked about this on a vlog on my Granger
Speaker 1: channel as well. But what I've kind of always done
Speaker 1: in trueth that to me, is starts in the kitchen.
Speaker 1: For sure. It starts with what you eat. At least
Speaker 1: that's for me. It's eighty percent what I eat, twenty
Speaker 1: percent of what I do. And I like to break
Speaker 1: a sweat once a day. It's just like a little
Speaker 1: rule I have. If I could get out and do
Speaker 1: whatever that takes to break a sweat once a day,
Speaker 1: that does really well for me. I don't know the
Speaker 1: science behind it. I just know it works really well
Speaker 1: for me. The second thing I do is I do
Speaker 1: strength training. And that doesn't necessarily mean weights. It just
Speaker 1: means I focus on muscle groups. And I've done this
Speaker 1: for probably twenty years maybe more. And what that means
Speaker 1: for me is I usually start on I usually take
Speaker 1: Sundays off, depending on the if it's a normal schedule,
Speaker 1: I take Sundays off. I start on Monday, and I
Speaker 1: do chest and I could add like triceeps to that.
Speaker 1: I could add shoulders to that, but it's mainly chest. Tuesday,
Speaker 1: I do legs and that includes you know, quads and
Speaker 1: hamstrings and calves. It could include some core, it can
Speaker 1: include anything lower body. Really. On Wednesday, I'll do back,
Speaker 1: which could be the back of the shoulders, could be
Speaker 1: lower back. Mid back pull ups is like the quintessential
Speaker 1: back exercise. On Thursday, I'll go do shoulders, which is
Speaker 1: exclusively shoulders, and I could put a little chest in
Speaker 1: that day too, just like it did on chest deck
Speaker 1: and put a little shoulders, but I'd do majority of
Speaker 1: the muscle group shoulders on shoulder Day, which is a
Speaker 1: lot of a lot of military press straight up. And
Speaker 1: on Fridays the do arms, which is biceps and triceps.
Speaker 1: On Saturdays, I will do the exercise that I had
Speaker 1: to skip for whatever reason. If I to skip one
Speaker 1: of those, and if I get to do all six days,
Speaker 1: then I'll add a core kind of abs and a
Speaker 1: little bit more cardio. Since we have all been staying home,
Speaker 1: none of that's really changed. I just I either we
Speaker 1: put together a little gym in the Geee farm, and
Speaker 1: so I'm either there or I could. You could do
Speaker 1: all of those things I just said at home, But
Speaker 1: to me, it helps to split those muscles up so
Speaker 1: I could hit chests like a ton of push ups
Speaker 1: and I can get as sore as I want and
Speaker 1: then it rest literally for six days until I hit
Speaker 1: it again. And for me, once again, I'm not a scientist,
Speaker 1: not a nutritionist, but that has been I've seen great
Speaker 1: results by splitting it up like that, and on top
Speaker 1: of all that sweating once a day. What's gotten there?
Speaker 1: What we got next? What is the best way to
Speaker 1: support a musician? And it's a great question. I see
Speaker 1: it many times and I'll answer it a million times
Speaker 1: because I feel like it's important for musicians to for
Speaker 1: this fact to get out to anyone else, because a
Speaker 1: lot of people I talk to don't know this because
Speaker 1: it's changed over the years. For instance, we talked about Garth.
Speaker 1: I use him as an example because he's sold so
Speaker 1: many millions of records that Garth really didn't need to
Speaker 1: do anything else besides make music and put out records.
Speaker 1: And that has changed dramatically now, as you know, the
Speaker 1: record business, selling records, selling songs is pretty much non
Speaker 1: existent now streaming songs has taken the place of that,
Speaker 1: and the money associated with streaming is tiny. It's fractions
Speaker 1: of pennies. So if you stream one of my songs today,
Speaker 1: which I hope you do, it's it's fractions of pennies.
Speaker 1: Back to the artist, what matters number one, by far
Speaker 1: above everything else, hands down, doesn't matter if you're playing
Speaker 1: an open mic night or if you're in stadiums is
Speaker 1: going to see this artist at a live concert, Which
Speaker 1: is why the state of events in the world right
Speaker 1: now is so crippling to musicians because that has become
Speaker 1: our number one way to pay all the bills. Number one,
Speaker 1: nothing even comes close. You cannot even compare anything close.
Speaker 1: And that especially applies to me because I've considered myself
Speaker 1: a mid level artist. I'm not a big headliner in
Speaker 1: an arena, but I'm not in the tiny bars anymore
Speaker 1: like I used to be for decades, and so that
Speaker 1: put me right in the middle where we have. We
Speaker 1: still have a considerable amount of overhead and amount of
Speaker 1: crew and band to pay, but we're still not getting
Speaker 1: the the six figure digits or whatever that you get
Speaker 1: when you play, when you headline arenas, and so so
Speaker 1: if you want to support an artist is you've got
Speaker 1: to do the one thing that you can't do right now,
Speaker 1: and that's go see a live concert. Now, if we
Speaker 1: did a streaming concert, which would be fun, and we
Speaker 1: should do that just because it's fun, but there's no
Speaker 1: way that could actually help pay bills. So and that
Speaker 1: goes with any other artists. You might be able to
Speaker 1: tip them. They might be able to make a couple
Speaker 1: hundred bucks. You know, that's awesome and every penny matters,
Speaker 1: but it's not going to pay for fourteen guys salaries
Speaker 1: and all the other expenses that go on with putting
Speaker 1: on a live concert. That's okay, Well, you know we're
Speaker 1: going we're going to we're gonna make it. All of
Speaker 1: us are going to make it through this. You listening,
Speaker 1: We're all going to make it through this. We just
Speaker 1: have to look at it like we're hanging on monkey
Speaker 1: bars right now, and our knuckles are getting white and
Speaker 1: all the blood is rushing out of our arms, and
Speaker 1: you just got to hang on. You want to drop,
Speaker 1: you want to just let go and hit the ground,
Speaker 1: but you just got to hang on. If you hang
Speaker 1: on just a little bit longer, we're gonna be okay,
Speaker 1: and that's how I feel. So the number one way
Speaker 1: you could support an artist is to go see a
Speaker 1: live concert, which is the one thing you can't do
Speaker 1: right now. Second best thing for me, literally is to
Speaker 1: watch these videos. Watch these videos, subscribe to the channel.
Speaker 1: If you haven't done that already, hit the subscribe on
Speaker 1: the Granger channel, which is what this is on. Hit
Speaker 1: the subscribe on the Smiths and we'll just keep making videos.
Speaker 1: And that's very encouraging as we see that now we
Speaker 1: don't make we make pennies on YouTube as well, But
Speaker 1: like I said earlier, every penny counts right now. When
Speaker 1: will canceled shows have a rescheduled date? Another very common question,
Speaker 1: and I don't know. I don't know. It's fun to
Speaker 1: ask people, what's your take on this whole thing right now,
Speaker 1: this whole state of the world. When do you think
Speaker 1: we're going to be back to normal? And no one
Speaker 1: really knows. I have rescheduled dates in I believe there's
Speaker 1: some at the end of May and some in the
Speaker 1: beginning of June. You know, I hope to God that
Speaker 1: those stay there, But I don't know. We could this
Speaker 1: whole thing could be the end of June or could
Speaker 1: be July, or god forbid, August or even later. My
Speaker 1: kids are out of school for the rest of the semester,
Speaker 1: so there's that. But I don't know. No one does.
Speaker 1: And I've talked to people in the highest people in
Speaker 1: every book an agency. No one knows. Everyone's just asking.
Speaker 1: We just don't know. Next question, this is interesting after
Speaker 1: talking about money. Are you thinking about getting a new
Speaker 1: truck anytime soon? Well, regardless of if I'm playing concerts
Speaker 1: or not, I drive a two thousand and eight Chevy
Speaker 1: Silverado seven one pick up. I love that truck. It's
Speaker 1: what is it twelve years old now, and it drives great.
Speaker 1: It's not a lemon, you know what I mean. When
Speaker 1: you can get a car or a truck and you
Speaker 1: just know a couple of months after you drive it
Speaker 1: around at home, you know it's a limon, Like this
Speaker 1: thing's going to mess up all the time. This truck's
Speaker 1: not a limit. It does great knock on woods. It
Speaker 1: just rarely lets me down in any way. I'm very
Speaker 1: comfortable with it. My dad drove in that truck with me,
Speaker 1: My son River was in that truck with me. I
Speaker 1: have a lot of memories in that truck. I have
Speaker 1: absolutely no reason to ever let that truck go unless
Speaker 1: it just falls off its axles and totals itself. And
Speaker 1: God forbid I reckon in it some way like that.
Speaker 1: But no, I don't. I'm not the kind of guy
Speaker 1: that drives a new truck. Who and what was your
Speaker 1: first concert when you were younger? Sixteen years old? I
Speaker 1: went to see George Strait in Texas Stadium and Irving, Texas,
Speaker 1: and I was a member of his fan club, so
Speaker 1: I stood in line. I spent the night at Texas
Speaker 1: Stadium months before with the rest of the fan club
Speaker 1: members and got up and I just literally slept on
Speaker 1: the concrete in a parking lot and got up that
Speaker 1: morning when they opened the ticket office and I got
Speaker 1: second row center in the stadium. It was incredible. It
Speaker 1: changed my life. Seeing the crowd and seeing the lights,
Speaker 1: and seeing the production and seeing all the bands that
Speaker 1: started at noon that day. It changed my life forever.
Speaker 1: And I did it. I think I did an entire
Speaker 1: podcast about this, but it was a really big deal.
Speaker 1: It made me sitting there my little cowboy hat on,
Speaker 1: you know, a little skinny me. I was by myself,
Speaker 1: by the way, I remember thinking, I want to be
Speaker 1: a part of this circus, no matter what, no matter
Speaker 1: what position. If I'm those guys up on the ladder
Speaker 1: hanging the lights, if I'm the sound guys, if I'm
Speaker 1: in the band, or you know, God willing, I'm the
Speaker 1: guy behind the microphone, I just want to do whatever
Speaker 1: it takes to be part of It just was so
Speaker 1: appealing to me. And I'm kind of a free spirit.
Speaker 1: I've always loved the idea of riding off into the
Speaker 1: sunset and roaming. That's always been me and that's that's
Speaker 1: that's really how I felt that day, So it was
Speaker 1: It's a good question because that changed my life forever. Okay, well,
Speaker 1: it wouldn't be a true podcast if I didn't get
Speaker 1: kind of deep. And I'm gonna do that on this
Speaker 1: next one. All right, reposition for this one. I've read
Speaker 1: similar questions to this, and I need to keep reading
Speaker 1: them because I keep getting the question and they repeat
Speaker 1: over and over and over, and it means people are
Speaker 1: still asking the same question and I need to keep
Speaker 1: answering it. But it says this is a hard question
Speaker 1: to answer. How do you move on from the death
Speaker 1: of a loved one and two things right off the bat.
Speaker 1: Two things come to my mind. One, you can't move on,
Speaker 1: and you know this. The person that asks this question
Speaker 1: you know this, and so I'm not blaming you. It's
Speaker 1: just we always like to correct each other on terminology here.
Speaker 1: But you don't move on, you move forward. You move
Speaker 1: forward with that memory of that person. Second thing that
Speaker 1: comes to my mind is there's no really right answer. Unfortunately.
Speaker 1: The reason I know there's not a right answer is
Speaker 1: because I had two major losses in my life. There
Speaker 1: were see five years apart, passed away suddenly in twenty fourteen,
Speaker 1: and my son passed away in twenty nineteen. And I
Speaker 1: handled both of those very very different, both of them.
Speaker 1: You know, Dad was my hero, learned everything from him.
Speaker 1: We talked every day. We were so close. He was
Speaker 1: such a supporter of everything that I did. He was
Speaker 1: a man that I wanted to be. And quick story
Speaker 1: about him, there's a million, but quick story about him
Speaker 1: is when we were going through his things after he passed.
Speaker 1: I've mentioned that we found the Ralph Waldo Emerson's success poem.
Speaker 1: I mentioned the the Teddy Roosevelt quote that I have
Speaker 1: on my arm. Dear mighty things, But One thing I
Speaker 1: have mentioned is my parents. They lived on a ranch,
Speaker 1: cattle ranch in central Texas, and Dad held on to
Speaker 1: that place knowing that whenever he was going to retire,
Speaker 1: he could sell that ranch and use that money to
Speaker 1: support himself if he's in a nursing home, or if
Speaker 1: he died early, to take care of my mother. And
Speaker 1: that was always hard. That was a hard concept for us,
Speaker 1: the three boys, because we were like, oh, I ever
Speaker 1: want you to sell the ranch. You know, that's a
Speaker 1: terrible retirement planned Dad. But that's the way he looked
Speaker 1: at it. He was just very He could just see
Speaker 1: things systematically like that, like I'll die here and then
Speaker 1: you'll take that you'll sell the ranch, and that'll provide
Speaker 1: money for the funeral. And well, he died a lot
Speaker 1: sooner than any of us had planned. But what we
Speaker 1: didn't know was he was so worried about that retirement
Speaker 1: plan he had that he was starting to apply for
Speaker 1: new jobs. So he was trying to build a little
Speaker 1: job application. And here's the point of the story. The
Speaker 1: first sentence of that job application said I am a
Speaker 1: man of integrity, and then it went on to say
Speaker 1: things that he could do, the skills that he could do.
Speaker 1: And I was just like blown away by using that
Speaker 1: as an opening line to your resume, and I just thought,
Speaker 1: what if, what if we could strive? What if success
Speaker 1: was striving for the ability to put on your resume,
Speaker 1: to start your resume with I am a man of integrity,
Speaker 1: knowing that that is the most important value you could
Speaker 1: offer to an employer or to the world world, and
Speaker 1: also believing those words. And I believed it when I
Speaker 1: read it because everyone that knew my dad felt that
Speaker 1: way about him. And it changed. It changed the way
Speaker 1: I looked at life a little bit. And you know,
Speaker 1: when someone dies, you don't get to discuss something with him.
Speaker 1: So I never got to discuss hey, Dad, I never
Speaker 1: got to tell him that I saw your resume and
Speaker 1: I saw what you put and he would He is
Speaker 1: the kind of guy that probably would have shaken it
Speaker 1: off like it wasn't that big a deal, you know,
Speaker 1: But but the truth is that it is a big deal,
Speaker 1: and that was my dad. That is just a small
Speaker 1: story about him, and there's many more, and I would
Speaker 1: like I'd love to tell him because you know, part
Speaker 1: of your question on how do you how do you
Speaker 1: move forward after losing a loved one. Part of it
Speaker 1: is telling their stories and keeping them with you and
Speaker 1: realizing that as you tell a story about a loved
Speaker 1: one and you really that that person actually lives inside
Speaker 1: of you in some strange way, and not not like
Speaker 1: some gypsy voodoo way. I mean, I mean you're part
Speaker 1: of their DNA. You know, you're part. You have a
Speaker 1: genetic makeup that is similar. And sometimes I'll laugh, you know,
Speaker 1: and I'll and I'll think, oh my gosh, that was
Speaker 1: my dad laugh. That was my dad's laugh. Sometimes I
Speaker 1: will literally look down in my hand and I'll think,
Speaker 1: that looks like my dad's hand. Like my hand's starting
Speaker 1: to look like my dad's hand. You know, you always
Speaker 1: look at someone's hand and you could you could recognize
Speaker 1: the the way the wrinkles are, you know, and we
Speaker 1: are so much a part of those people. And if
Speaker 1: you're not, if you're not in the same DNA, like
Speaker 1: for instance, if it's a spouse, then you could say
Speaker 1: very similar things. You could laugh like that person. You
Speaker 1: could say a joke in a certain kind of humor
Speaker 1: that you would have gotten only from your spouse or
Speaker 1: from your best friend. And then you realize, at that
Speaker 1: moment that they're still here, not physically here, but in
Speaker 1: some kind of spiritual way, they're still here. And then
Speaker 1: if you're a Christian, you believe that they are living
Speaker 1: forever in a beautiful place for eternity, and that we
Speaker 1: will meet again. We'll see him again. And you know,
Speaker 1: that's the first thing I thought of after Dad was
Speaker 1: I can't wait to see him again, and I know
Speaker 1: I will, and I can't wait to catch him up
Speaker 1: on everything. I grieved very differently with River, because with Dad,
Speaker 1: I would dive into pictures and videos and I would
Speaker 1: soak up as much of him as I could. And
Speaker 1: with River, it was difficult to look at any pictures,
Speaker 1: it was difficult to watch any videos, or hear his
Speaker 1: little voice or hear his little laugh. It's very difficult,
Speaker 1: and it still is to this day. I have to
Speaker 1: kind of prepare myself. And Amber will even tell me, like, Hey,
Speaker 1: I'm going to watch a River video. Then I'll have
Speaker 1: to prepare myself for what I'm about to hear, because
Speaker 1: it could just hit me like a like a freight
Speaker 1: train if I hear that little voice again. And I think,
Speaker 1: all in all, these two losses that I had that
Speaker 1: were just like monumental losses for me and my personal journey.
Speaker 1: These two men, the oldest and the youngest of the
Speaker 1: men that I loved, I've learned. I've learned that keeping
Speaker 1: them with you, telling stories about them, sometimes looking at
Speaker 1: pictures or not, but carrying that with you, carrying that
Speaker 1: not like it's a weight, not like it's a ball
Speaker 1: and chain, but carrying that spirit with you, carrying that soul,
Speaker 1: carrying that smile and that laughter and that sparkle in
Speaker 1: their eye. That's how you move forward. That's how you
Speaker 1: keep them with you. And you realize that everything that
Speaker 1: happens in your life moving forward, that many of those
Speaker 1: things are a result of the loss, and it turns
Speaker 1: into so much more glory. It turns into so much
Speaker 1: more love and beauty. And that's a magical thing. It's
Speaker 1: a beautiful thing. I don't think I could answer another
Speaker 1: question after that. After that, but thank you guys for listening,
Speaker 1: so much love for each and every one of you,
Speaker 1: all for even caring to go if you're still with me,
Speaker 1: you're even caring to go thirty minutes with me on
Speaker 1: something like this. But I will see you every Monday
Speaker 1: in this same exact format. Amber every Sunday, Smith's, Tuesday, Thursdays,
Speaker 1: Granger and earldible stuff in between all that, We'll see
Speaker 1: you guys soon. Thanks for listening, ye ye