1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:04,480 Speaker 1: But you eat ass. I know, I don't know why 2 00:00:04,480 --> 00:00:06,600 Speaker 1: it went there. I guess I do. I love eating 3 00:00:06,640 --> 00:00:09,920 Speaker 1: us boys. Yeah, you don't need as. I would never 4 00:00:09,960 --> 00:00:12,000 Speaker 1: eat as. I wouldn't even eat girl ass. No, you 5 00:00:12,039 --> 00:00:13,920 Speaker 1: eat no ass. You just want you want your ass? 6 00:00:14,200 --> 00:00:16,319 Speaker 2: Yes, but I understand if you're not an ass eating 7 00:00:16,400 --> 00:00:17,320 Speaker 2: because I don't ask. 8 00:00:17,400 --> 00:00:19,599 Speaker 1: But my ass is good? Is it a no negotiable? 9 00:00:19,680 --> 00:00:21,640 Speaker 1: Like if someone won't eat your ass, is it over? 10 00:00:21,760 --> 00:00:25,000 Speaker 2: Oh no, no, no, no, no, you won't even What if like 11 00:00:25,280 --> 00:00:27,520 Speaker 2: what if they just got out the shower, fresh and clean, 12 00:00:27,720 --> 00:00:29,600 Speaker 2: I would not eat no hairy ass. What if it's 13 00:00:29,760 --> 00:00:31,360 Speaker 2: Harry would not eat no man? 14 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:33,440 Speaker 1: What's the difference is as a whole, I don't want 15 00:00:33,440 --> 00:00:36,040 Speaker 1: how how do they lay put your legs so you 16 00:00:36,080 --> 00:00:40,320 Speaker 1: know if they put their left well, I've eaten ass 17 00:00:40,360 --> 00:00:44,479 Speaker 1: like this, like guys, just like this. It's harder. He 18 00:00:44,680 --> 00:00:48,519 Speaker 1: was trying not to be. But I've also had a 19 00:00:48,560 --> 00:00:51,559 Speaker 1: scenario where a man I went to the bathroom and 20 00:00:51,600 --> 00:00:53,760 Speaker 1: then I came back and he was booting up. 21 00:01:16,720 --> 00:01:18,440 Speaker 3: Welcome back to good Mom's Bad Choices. 22 00:01:18,520 --> 00:01:22,119 Speaker 1: I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and it's Wednesday. 23 00:01:22,400 --> 00:01:27,200 Speaker 3: Happy Humpday, bitches, and gentlemen. Bitches and gentlemen, it's it's fall. 24 00:01:27,400 --> 00:01:30,280 Speaker 1: You know what I think. I think I've underestimated how 25 00:01:30,360 --> 00:01:34,200 Speaker 1: much I actually love fall. I love fall energy. It's 26 00:01:34,280 --> 00:01:37,840 Speaker 1: like cold but not too cold. You can still like 27 00:01:37,880 --> 00:01:40,240 Speaker 1: wear a miniskirt, but like with the turtleneck boots. 28 00:01:40,360 --> 00:01:43,160 Speaker 3: Kelli, bitches are fake, like La bitches be fake loving 29 00:01:43,200 --> 00:01:44,320 Speaker 3: cold because it's eighty degrees. 30 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:46,080 Speaker 1: Let's be real. I was at the pool yesterday, but. 31 00:01:46,200 --> 00:01:47,840 Speaker 3: It's like a little bit of wind at five o'clock. 32 00:01:47,840 --> 00:01:51,120 Speaker 1: You're like, pull that boot out. Yeah, I love a 33 00:01:51,200 --> 00:01:52,720 Speaker 1: boot put like a turtleneck on. 34 00:01:53,000 --> 00:01:54,320 Speaker 3: I don't have a turtle necks, but I do love 35 00:01:54,320 --> 00:01:55,200 Speaker 3: a back thigh high. 36 00:01:55,360 --> 00:01:57,360 Speaker 1: Yeah. Well see I got my boots on because I'm 37 00:01:57,440 --> 00:02:00,400 Speaker 1: fully invested in the falls. I got these on. You 38 00:02:00,400 --> 00:02:01,720 Speaker 1: believe it. Yeah, those are really cute. 39 00:02:01,720 --> 00:02:04,720 Speaker 3: Actually there giving me like seventh grade, like remember that 40 00:02:04,720 --> 00:02:05,640 Speaker 3: seventh grade style. 41 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:09,160 Speaker 1: Or I remember with those loafers. If you're not on YouTube, 42 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:10,079 Speaker 1: you might need you. 43 00:02:10,160 --> 00:02:12,880 Speaker 3: You're just popping that pussy and her bitch, her boots, 44 00:02:13,160 --> 00:02:14,079 Speaker 3: her wonder boots. 45 00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:16,200 Speaker 1: You know what these broke because they're from Amazon, and 46 00:02:16,240 --> 00:02:18,120 Speaker 1: I was instead of getting me wins, I was like 47 00:02:18,120 --> 00:02:19,480 Speaker 1: no fuck that. I don't get it. I got them 48 00:02:19,480 --> 00:02:22,560 Speaker 1: fixed and now they're better than ever. Listen, let me 49 00:02:22,600 --> 00:02:23,280 Speaker 1: tell you something. 50 00:02:23,480 --> 00:02:25,840 Speaker 3: I'm a shoe bitch, and I've come to the conclusion 51 00:02:25,840 --> 00:02:29,240 Speaker 3: that generally like middle to cheaper and shoes are more 52 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:31,320 Speaker 3: comfortable and last longer. Because I mean, I also like 53 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:36,840 Speaker 3: hose shoes as you can see. Oh wait, my baby, Okay, sorry, 54 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:40,359 Speaker 3: just in case you're wondering, but there'll be those really 55 00:02:40,360 --> 00:02:42,720 Speaker 3: expensive shoes that fucking hurt. I'm like, bitch, I'm not 56 00:02:42,720 --> 00:02:44,560 Speaker 3: paying two thousand dollars so I could be fucking living 57 00:02:44,560 --> 00:02:45,320 Speaker 3: around this motherfucker. 58 00:02:45,360 --> 00:02:47,520 Speaker 1: Oh he's are my favorite shoes. I'll hit the link 59 00:02:47,560 --> 00:02:50,400 Speaker 1: in Amazon if you're interested. I'm not an Amazon ambassador, 60 00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:51,359 Speaker 1: but these shows were. 61 00:02:51,680 --> 00:02:54,840 Speaker 3: These shows were duet with fucking our favorite, our favorite 62 00:02:54,919 --> 00:02:58,519 Speaker 3: basketball wife. People can delete her Wholenessrea, Yeah, I don't really. 63 00:02:58,600 --> 00:03:00,520 Speaker 1: Damn. I never watched that video, that clip about how 64 00:03:00,560 --> 00:03:01,240 Speaker 1: she deleted her home. 65 00:03:01,360 --> 00:03:02,760 Speaker 3: She did it, bitch, it doesn't exist. 66 00:03:02,840 --> 00:03:05,720 Speaker 1: She said how she did it. She said it. It 67 00:03:05,840 --> 00:03:07,960 Speaker 1: was on the shade Room. She talked about deleting her honess. 68 00:03:07,960 --> 00:03:09,480 Speaker 1: I don't think she's that smart. I don't think she 69 00:03:09,520 --> 00:03:12,960 Speaker 1: has don't underestimate this. She is smart. She's doing something 70 00:03:12,960 --> 00:03:14,760 Speaker 1: over there. Bitch, she got a cold duo? Okay, do 71 00:03:14,760 --> 00:03:16,120 Speaker 1: you have a shoe dooing? No, but I do have 72 00:03:16,160 --> 00:03:18,800 Speaker 1: the shoe. Hey, hey, fe for it. 73 00:03:18,840 --> 00:03:22,400 Speaker 3: You if you need a real duo, you paid though? 74 00:03:22,440 --> 00:03:23,600 Speaker 1: Who deleted her wholeness? 75 00:03:23,680 --> 00:03:25,760 Speaker 3: Ill she made a good shoe, bitch, she made a 76 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:28,840 Speaker 3: good shoe. I said she couldn't delete her hohness. I 77 00:03:28,880 --> 00:03:32,320 Speaker 3: didn't say she didn't make a good shoe. Now where 78 00:03:32,360 --> 00:03:33,680 Speaker 3: the hell reports? 79 00:03:33,680 --> 00:03:34,160 Speaker 1: I don't care. 80 00:03:36,160 --> 00:03:38,720 Speaker 3: I said what I said. Anyway, How are you. 81 00:03:38,720 --> 00:03:41,120 Speaker 1: My love? I'm good, I'm great. I was just saying 82 00:03:41,120 --> 00:03:45,120 Speaker 1: I'm good because I feel like Fall is like my season. 83 00:03:45,520 --> 00:03:48,760 Speaker 1: October is my season. Although I love October, although you 84 00:03:48,760 --> 00:03:50,480 Speaker 1: do get worried around my birthday for some reason. I 85 00:03:50,480 --> 00:03:52,000 Speaker 1: don't know why. I don't know what. I was talking 86 00:03:52,000 --> 00:03:53,840 Speaker 1: to another Scorpio about this and she was like, yeah, 87 00:03:53,880 --> 00:03:55,280 Speaker 1: me too, And I was like, is it a Scorpio thing? 88 00:03:55,320 --> 00:03:56,720 Speaker 1: And I talked to another one She's like, no, bitch's 89 00:03:56,800 --> 00:03:59,120 Speaker 1: just you. So I said, okay, cool. Well, I don't know, 90 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:04,040 Speaker 1: but Fall I feel like is like we're ending, We're 91 00:04:04,080 --> 00:04:07,000 Speaker 1: going towards the end. Of the year. We're heading into 92 00:04:07,040 --> 00:04:12,200 Speaker 1: the holidays season. It's cuddle season. I'm getting like closer 93 00:04:12,400 --> 00:04:15,200 Speaker 1: to Costa Rica in January. 94 00:04:15,280 --> 00:04:17,160 Speaker 3: I cannot wait, which makes me happy. 95 00:04:19,160 --> 00:04:23,279 Speaker 1: And yeah, I just I love it. I'm good. I 96 00:04:23,320 --> 00:04:24,000 Speaker 1: love this season. 97 00:04:24,080 --> 00:04:26,440 Speaker 3: It's like hibernation season. I realized, you know what it 98 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:29,039 Speaker 3: is when I'm I realized that, like I'm the type 99 00:04:29,040 --> 00:04:32,320 Speaker 3: of person when I get outside, I just like go 100 00:04:32,360 --> 00:04:34,800 Speaker 3: out of control, like Tasmanian devil. Like I can just 101 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:36,600 Speaker 3: like start slow and then I just like get more 102 00:04:36,640 --> 00:04:39,160 Speaker 3: and more when like more energy, and then it goes crazy. 103 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:43,840 Speaker 3: So this weekend, I I had Erica went out of 104 00:04:43,880 --> 00:04:46,919 Speaker 3: town and I booked a speaking engagement and when I 105 00:04:46,920 --> 00:04:49,000 Speaker 3: booked it, I didn't realize it's on Sunday. But my 106 00:04:49,080 --> 00:04:51,440 Speaker 3: friend called me and was like, I got tickets to 107 00:04:51,520 --> 00:04:54,039 Speaker 3: Usher on Saturday. And I was like, fuck, I booked 108 00:04:54,080 --> 00:04:56,000 Speaker 3: this thing on Sunday, and but I want to go 109 00:04:56,000 --> 00:04:57,240 Speaker 3: to Usher if we want to go to Usher, So 110 00:04:57,279 --> 00:04:59,680 Speaker 3: I said, fuck that, I'm going and then I'm gonna 111 00:04:59,680 --> 00:05:02,039 Speaker 3: fly by and I'm gonna go to this fucking event. 112 00:05:02,480 --> 00:05:04,680 Speaker 3: And like for the whole week, I was like a 113 00:05:04,839 --> 00:05:06,280 Speaker 3: had to fly back spirit because it was the only 114 00:05:06,320 --> 00:05:08,440 Speaker 3: one that gotten in at eight thirty. It came in 115 00:05:08,480 --> 00:05:10,520 Speaker 3: at Burbank, and I like timed its like, couldn't take 116 00:05:10,560 --> 00:05:12,800 Speaker 3: me exactly thirty minutes from the airport to the event, 117 00:05:12,839 --> 00:05:16,800 Speaker 3: and I got back exactly thirty minutes before. However, I 118 00:05:16,839 --> 00:05:18,720 Speaker 3: told myself all week, Oh, you're an adult. You're not 119 00:05:18,720 --> 00:05:20,480 Speaker 3: gonna get fucked up in Vegas. You're gonna be like 120 00:05:20,520 --> 00:05:22,840 Speaker 3: an adult. You're gonna like go to sleep doing a 121 00:05:22,880 --> 00:05:23,600 Speaker 3: wake up on time. 122 00:05:24,640 --> 00:05:26,520 Speaker 1: I saw the stories, bitch, I saw you on the 123 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:28,400 Speaker 1: back of the bike. I was like, her eyes are 124 00:05:28,400 --> 00:05:31,320 Speaker 1: doing that thing that they do when she's drunk. Drunk. 125 00:05:32,360 --> 00:05:34,279 Speaker 3: I don't even know if I like I remember us sure, 126 00:05:34,320 --> 00:05:36,360 Speaker 3: but like not like if I was sober and then 127 00:05:36,640 --> 00:05:37,920 Speaker 3: but I do remember as we got on the back 128 00:05:37,920 --> 00:05:39,800 Speaker 3: of that bike and he was playing all the slow jams, 129 00:05:39,880 --> 00:05:41,760 Speaker 3: I was drunk. And then when we got off the bike, 130 00:05:41,760 --> 00:05:44,719 Speaker 3: the nigga tried to charge us three hundred dollars. 131 00:05:44,839 --> 00:05:47,760 Speaker 1: What I said, you are a joke, babe. 132 00:05:47,800 --> 00:05:49,839 Speaker 3: How long was the ride? Nigga is the strip? It 133 00:05:49,880 --> 00:05:52,000 Speaker 3: wasn't that long. I handed him one hundred and I 134 00:05:52,040 --> 00:05:52,839 Speaker 3: walked into the hotel. 135 00:05:52,880 --> 00:05:54,320 Speaker 1: You know what that is a lot of labor. I 136 00:05:54,320 --> 00:05:55,960 Speaker 1: don't give a I was carrying all you bitches. 137 00:05:56,120 --> 00:05:57,640 Speaker 3: You I could have got a I could have got 138 00:05:57,720 --> 00:06:00,680 Speaker 3: in a limo, and you should tell a bitch is 139 00:06:00,720 --> 00:06:02,919 Speaker 3: three hundred dollars before she get on. You fucked yourself. 140 00:06:03,240 --> 00:06:06,200 Speaker 3: So my white friends were all like negotiating. I said 141 00:06:06,240 --> 00:06:08,640 Speaker 3: I'm out, I'm out, and they like. 142 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:10,960 Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't really end up giving three hundred. 143 00:06:11,000 --> 00:06:13,000 Speaker 3: I don't think so, but I don't really remember because 144 00:06:13,040 --> 00:06:14,640 Speaker 3: I was drunk, and I remember being like, don't take 145 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:17,279 Speaker 3: them anywhere because they're negotiating with terroists and this is dumb, 146 00:06:17,480 --> 00:06:18,000 Speaker 3: and I don't know if. 147 00:06:17,920 --> 00:06:20,039 Speaker 1: We're about to go get arrested. But I walked straight to. 148 00:06:20,080 --> 00:06:22,599 Speaker 3: The casino and walked in anyway. If I got back 149 00:06:22,600 --> 00:06:27,320 Speaker 3: to the hotel, I knocked out. My phone died, and 150 00:06:27,400 --> 00:06:30,400 Speaker 3: I woke up to my good, my good, dear friend, 151 00:06:30,440 --> 00:06:33,400 Speaker 3: the only one who gives a fuck about me, Rebecca saying, Mila. 152 00:06:33,480 --> 00:06:36,560 Speaker 1: Wake up. We got to catch a flight. Orlando's calling. 153 00:06:36,800 --> 00:06:39,480 Speaker 3: I woke up, drunk as hell and a stupor. I 154 00:06:39,520 --> 00:06:41,520 Speaker 3: was just like, what time is it. She's like seven something. 155 00:06:41,560 --> 00:06:46,599 Speaker 3: My flight is at seven point thirty. I just said what, Yeah. 156 00:06:46,640 --> 00:06:48,040 Speaker 3: I just started putting stuff. 157 00:06:47,800 --> 00:06:50,720 Speaker 1: In my bag, literally like and I walked out the 158 00:06:50,720 --> 00:06:53,479 Speaker 1: front door and I went downstairs. I was so drunk. 159 00:06:53,560 --> 00:06:55,800 Speaker 3: I got into a cab. My phone was dead. I 160 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:57,880 Speaker 3: had to charge in the cab. I couldn't check in online. 161 00:06:58,680 --> 00:07:00,400 Speaker 3: I get there, She's like, you may that's the fight. 162 00:07:00,440 --> 00:07:02,160 Speaker 3: I said, I have to try. They wouldn't put my 163 00:07:02,240 --> 00:07:04,160 Speaker 3: tsa pre check on my fucking ticket. She's like, I 164 00:07:04,240 --> 00:07:06,279 Speaker 3: wish I could, but I can't. I was like, okay, 165 00:07:06,800 --> 00:07:07,919 Speaker 3: got to the front line. 166 00:07:08,040 --> 00:07:10,040 Speaker 1: Make it to the gate, bitch, and the girl. The 167 00:07:10,040 --> 00:07:12,120 Speaker 1: girl's like trying to make me consolidate my shit because 168 00:07:12,120 --> 00:07:14,400 Speaker 1: it's fucking spirit and I was like trying. 169 00:07:14,440 --> 00:07:15,800 Speaker 3: I was like, just give I had my card out. 170 00:07:15,800 --> 00:07:17,800 Speaker 3: I was like I can't. She's like, it's okay, it's books. 171 00:07:17,840 --> 00:07:19,280 Speaker 3: I was like, she is really looking out for me. 172 00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:23,440 Speaker 3: Make it back to LA make it to this fucking event. 173 00:07:23,960 --> 00:07:27,040 Speaker 3: Three minutes late. I'm the first bitch there. I don't 174 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:27,920 Speaker 3: have no earrings on. 175 00:07:28,040 --> 00:07:31,160 Speaker 1: I look crazy Orlando about like seventeen outfits in the trunk. 176 00:07:31,200 --> 00:07:34,120 Speaker 3: I'm like just putting some clothes on. And I get 177 00:07:34,160 --> 00:07:35,400 Speaker 3: there and it's just. 178 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:39,160 Speaker 1: Like this beautifully like curated white event with like horseback 179 00:07:39,280 --> 00:07:41,600 Speaker 1: riding and what it was like. It was like a 180 00:07:41,800 --> 00:07:43,920 Speaker 1: horseback riding at a dating event. It was it was 181 00:07:44,000 --> 00:07:46,280 Speaker 1: it was at the horse ranch. Her grandparents must own 182 00:07:46,280 --> 00:07:46,920 Speaker 1: the horse ranch. 183 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:50,080 Speaker 3: I'm fucked up, and they're like, you ready to do 184 00:07:50,080 --> 00:07:53,240 Speaker 3: an interview. I'm like, okay, So me and Orlando are 185 00:07:53,240 --> 00:07:55,120 Speaker 3: doing a fucking interview at some kind of at this 186 00:07:55,280 --> 00:07:57,320 Speaker 3: app and they're asking you all these questions. I was like, yeah, 187 00:07:57,360 --> 00:07:59,040 Speaker 3: well we were open and we are fucking other people 188 00:07:59,080 --> 00:08:00,520 Speaker 3: at first, and I was like, they are not gonna 189 00:08:00,520 --> 00:08:02,400 Speaker 3: be ready for these interviews, bitch. 190 00:08:02,520 --> 00:08:04,680 Speaker 1: After that I died. I was like, I don't know 191 00:08:04,720 --> 00:08:06,720 Speaker 1: how I made it here. I don't know how this happened. 192 00:08:06,760 --> 00:08:07,360 Speaker 1: I was drunk. 193 00:08:07,640 --> 00:08:10,120 Speaker 3: And then I really questioned myself, like I do every 194 00:08:10,480 --> 00:08:13,600 Speaker 3: six months for the last six years. Why did I 195 00:08:13,640 --> 00:08:14,560 Speaker 3: do that to myself? 196 00:08:14,680 --> 00:08:17,360 Speaker 1: Why am I thirty five years old still risking my 197 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:20,120 Speaker 1: money in my so you can at least charge your phone, 198 00:08:20,640 --> 00:08:23,560 Speaker 1: at least plug your fucking phone in. That's one the 199 00:08:23,640 --> 00:08:25,760 Speaker 1: one task that's it. Just plug the phone in. 200 00:08:25,840 --> 00:08:29,559 Speaker 3: That's the problem. I'm not responsible. And then Orlando cursed 201 00:08:29,600 --> 00:08:33,480 Speaker 3: me out, and then but I made it. I'm here, okay, 202 00:08:33,800 --> 00:08:36,439 Speaker 3: So just yeah, I'm working on being mature this winter, 203 00:08:37,360 --> 00:08:41,240 Speaker 3: this mature winter, this mature winter. I've been talking about 204 00:08:41,240 --> 00:08:43,280 Speaker 3: slowing down my drinking for like a long time, but 205 00:08:43,679 --> 00:08:44,680 Speaker 3: it just doesn't happen. 206 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:48,079 Speaker 1: You just have to say no. Sometimes it's what offers 207 00:08:48,120 --> 00:08:50,600 Speaker 1: you a drink. You say no, which leads me to 208 00:08:51,679 --> 00:08:55,600 Speaker 1: which leads me to. Our guest was looking like, oh 209 00:08:55,640 --> 00:09:01,320 Speaker 1: did I fuck up? You have a guest today? You 210 00:09:01,360 --> 00:09:07,199 Speaker 1: guys all the way from Houston, Texas. I'm really excited 211 00:09:07,320 --> 00:09:10,480 Speaker 1: to have her on the show. I want to say, 212 00:09:10,520 --> 00:09:13,840 Speaker 1: it's just divine because her people headed us up. Then 213 00:09:13,880 --> 00:09:16,120 Speaker 1: I happened to sit next to her manager randomly on 214 00:09:16,160 --> 00:09:19,000 Speaker 1: a solo date night by myself, and she sat next 215 00:09:19,040 --> 00:09:20,560 Speaker 1: to me and she was talking about her and I 216 00:09:20,640 --> 00:09:25,240 Speaker 1: was like, did you email us like two days ago? Anyway, 217 00:09:25,640 --> 00:09:27,320 Speaker 1: thank you so much for coming on the show. We 218 00:09:27,400 --> 00:09:36,080 Speaker 1: have Ken the Man, the Rap Priest, Priestress, Think the 219 00:09:36,240 --> 00:09:42,719 Speaker 1: Rap Queen, the Mama can the man. Hi, I'm so 220 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:47,800 Speaker 1: happy to be here. He so Ken? How old is 221 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:50,760 Speaker 1: your howld is your baby not a baby? A boy? 222 00:09:50,960 --> 00:09:55,120 Speaker 1: A boy? Only one? Yes? Would you do it again? 223 00:09:56,480 --> 00:09:58,679 Speaker 1: I feel like it's too late in the game. Now, well, 224 00:09:58,679 --> 00:10:01,760 Speaker 1: I guess he's ten, yes, starting over, that's kind of 225 00:10:01,760 --> 00:10:04,080 Speaker 1: how I feel. Then he gonna leave my baby when 226 00:10:04,120 --> 00:10:07,240 Speaker 1: I need a babysitter because he won't because my baby 227 00:10:07,280 --> 00:10:09,280 Speaker 1: five fifteen, he gonna be like, I'm gonna doing this. 228 00:10:09,280 --> 00:10:11,040 Speaker 1: I'm out sad. That was me. That was me when 229 00:10:11,080 --> 00:10:14,960 Speaker 1: my mom my mom had my brother when I was eleven. 230 00:10:15,200 --> 00:10:17,679 Speaker 2: And then see this now it's not his responsibility. I 231 00:10:17,679 --> 00:10:20,040 Speaker 2: feel like it's not my responsibility either to do hold 232 00:10:20,040 --> 00:10:20,560 Speaker 2: out his weight. 233 00:10:21,280 --> 00:10:23,520 Speaker 1: So I'm just gone. So by the time I was fifteen, 234 00:10:23,640 --> 00:10:25,240 Speaker 1: my mom was like can you I was like, I'm 235 00:10:25,240 --> 00:10:28,440 Speaker 1: going to the mall, like what you decided to have 236 00:10:28,480 --> 00:10:29,680 Speaker 1: this baby, not me? Yes? 237 00:10:29,720 --> 00:10:31,040 Speaker 2: And then I don't want to hear him tell me this, 238 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:36,240 Speaker 2: but like this is our baby you I mean, like, 239 00:10:38,040 --> 00:10:42,679 Speaker 2: oh my god, well, how I guess like I want 240 00:10:42,720 --> 00:10:44,440 Speaker 2: to go back because me and Mila did a little 241 00:10:44,440 --> 00:10:47,280 Speaker 2: bit of research on you, and we found out that 242 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:49,160 Speaker 2: you were raised by a single dad, which I always 243 00:10:49,200 --> 00:10:52,640 Speaker 2: find interesting because you always hear about single mothers raising the. 244 00:10:52,640 --> 00:10:56,880 Speaker 1: Babies aka me and Mila. But you're raised by a 245 00:10:56,920 --> 00:10:59,520 Speaker 1: single a single dad, and you are do you have 246 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:03,120 Speaker 1: Sidney sisters are you. I'm the only girl. I have 247 00:11:03,160 --> 00:11:07,280 Speaker 1: two brothers, so I was in a man's household. So 248 00:11:07,320 --> 00:11:11,000 Speaker 1: what was that like growing up? And if you don't 249 00:11:11,000 --> 00:11:13,320 Speaker 1: mind me asking, like, where was your mama when my 250 00:11:13,360 --> 00:11:14,240 Speaker 1: mom passed? 251 00:11:14,280 --> 00:11:18,520 Speaker 2: Okay, when I was younger? So ever since, of course, 252 00:11:18,559 --> 00:11:21,720 Speaker 2: my dad's been here. But it's it's kind of like 253 00:11:22,880 --> 00:11:26,440 Speaker 2: it was. It was kind of hard, only because like 254 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:29,120 Speaker 2: he wasn't a mean person or anything. It's just like 255 00:11:29,600 --> 00:11:32,520 Speaker 2: understanding a little woman and raising a little woman when 256 00:11:32,520 --> 00:11:35,760 Speaker 2: you probably never had to do it. I just think 257 00:11:35,800 --> 00:11:37,360 Speaker 2: it was just a little like we but heads and 258 00:11:37,440 --> 00:11:38,640 Speaker 2: my dad is a swarpio. 259 00:11:38,880 --> 00:11:43,680 Speaker 1: Oh, y'all know how y'all get? I'm a gemini? What's 260 00:11:43,679 --> 00:11:45,440 Speaker 1: your birthday? June seventh? Nice? 261 00:11:45,480 --> 00:11:47,240 Speaker 3: When's your birthday June twenty second? 262 00:11:47,920 --> 00:11:50,800 Speaker 1: Your cancer? Yes, you almost made the good. 263 00:11:51,800 --> 00:11:53,439 Speaker 3: That's probably the best that I just went on the 264 00:11:53,520 --> 00:11:55,920 Speaker 3: other side. I'm already toxic enough. 265 00:11:57,120 --> 00:11:59,320 Speaker 1: You didn't need to add now a little little sprinkle 266 00:11:59,360 --> 00:12:00,920 Speaker 1: of gemini. Yeah. 267 00:12:00,960 --> 00:12:03,520 Speaker 3: I think that is interesting, especially because you know, you're 268 00:12:03,559 --> 00:12:08,839 Speaker 3: a pretty uh pretty pro woman lyricists. You talk a 269 00:12:08,880 --> 00:12:11,679 Speaker 3: lot about, uh, you know, the sexuality of women, which 270 00:12:11,720 --> 00:12:13,880 Speaker 3: I think a lot of a lot of time scares men, 271 00:12:14,040 --> 00:12:16,840 Speaker 3: especially men who don't especially men who like if you 272 00:12:16,840 --> 00:12:19,439 Speaker 3: have one daughter and you're very protective of that one daughter, 273 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:22,240 Speaker 3: and like, I think men have a skewed perspective perception 274 00:12:22,400 --> 00:12:24,520 Speaker 3: of like women's bodies and sexuality. 275 00:12:24,640 --> 00:12:28,000 Speaker 1: So like, how has your dad reacted to your lyrics 276 00:12:28,120 --> 00:12:29,680 Speaker 1: or your you know, your rap persona? 277 00:12:29,720 --> 00:12:31,800 Speaker 3: Has he said anything? Has ever been a time he's. 278 00:12:31,640 --> 00:12:34,800 Speaker 1: Like, but ius on clothes? Now? He of course like 279 00:12:34,880 --> 00:12:36,640 Speaker 1: come and like drop my son off to him and 280 00:12:36,679 --> 00:12:37,520 Speaker 1: step before the club. 281 00:12:37,559 --> 00:12:41,440 Speaker 2: He'd be like, where's your clothes? It's to the point 282 00:12:41,520 --> 00:12:43,319 Speaker 2: where I don't wear him so much. He don't even 283 00:12:43,320 --> 00:12:47,520 Speaker 2: ask no more. But he's okay, Like he's he's very supportive, 284 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:49,839 Speaker 2: Like he's never like made me feel judged, that made 285 00:12:49,880 --> 00:12:52,199 Speaker 2: me feel like the horror that. 286 00:12:53,000 --> 00:12:55,520 Speaker 1: Most men may have done. You feel me Like, yeah, 287 00:12:55,480 --> 00:12:55,840 Speaker 1: I don't know. 288 00:12:55,880 --> 00:12:57,880 Speaker 2: I feel like he knowed me based so it's like 289 00:12:58,320 --> 00:12:59,840 Speaker 2: I don't think that I ever gave it off like 290 00:12:59,880 --> 00:13:01,960 Speaker 2: he he hasn't met many guys in my life, Like 291 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:03,640 Speaker 2: I don't be bringing everybody home. 292 00:13:03,679 --> 00:13:05,600 Speaker 1: I don't let me and meet my son. 293 00:13:05,840 --> 00:13:07,640 Speaker 2: Like, so it's like I think he just knows, Like 294 00:13:07,640 --> 00:13:10,599 Speaker 2: it's entertainment, and I was like, I'm happy that it 295 00:13:10,760 --> 00:13:12,880 Speaker 2: is because I did. When I first started rapping, I 296 00:13:12,920 --> 00:13:14,400 Speaker 2: was like, he gonna think I'm a damn ho. 297 00:13:15,960 --> 00:13:17,400 Speaker 1: That was my biggest insecurity. 298 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:18,880 Speaker 2: I was just like, I don't want him, so I 299 00:13:19,440 --> 00:13:21,120 Speaker 2: avoided letting him hear my music. 300 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:22,960 Speaker 1: And then he came up on it on his set 301 00:13:23,040 --> 00:13:23,560 Speaker 1: on his own. 302 00:13:24,080 --> 00:13:27,280 Speaker 2: He said, that'sh you in the car, and it's just 303 00:13:27,320 --> 00:13:29,520 Speaker 2: like he was like, you are good, Like why did 304 00:13:29,520 --> 00:13:30,280 Speaker 2: you hide this for me? 305 00:13:30,320 --> 00:13:32,640 Speaker 1: You was so good? And he always tell me like 306 00:13:32,679 --> 00:13:36,120 Speaker 1: how good I am? So that's sweet. Yeah, did your dad? 307 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:38,920 Speaker 1: I mean, because you were the only girl, Like, I'm 308 00:13:38,920 --> 00:13:40,679 Speaker 1: just so curious and maybe you don't know the answer 309 00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:43,520 Speaker 1: to this, but did he lean on any other women 310 00:13:43,559 --> 00:13:48,200 Speaker 1: in his life to kind of like help support the 311 00:13:48,320 --> 00:13:50,840 Speaker 1: need to, like, you know, raising you and knowing like 312 00:13:50,920 --> 00:13:52,040 Speaker 1: you know, when you start your. 313 00:13:51,960 --> 00:13:55,199 Speaker 2: Period for the first time, they're talled everybody. I'll never 314 00:13:55,240 --> 00:13:56,800 Speaker 2: forget that. When I started my period. 315 00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:58,880 Speaker 1: I think it was a shock to him because he 316 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:00,680 Speaker 1: was like, what the fuck did you tell him? Or 317 00:14:00,720 --> 00:14:02,360 Speaker 1: did you I had to tell me all I had. 318 00:14:03,440 --> 00:14:07,120 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm bleeding, know what the help? Please? 319 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:09,199 Speaker 1: I need a path I didn't even know what to 320 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:11,120 Speaker 1: tell him, like it because yeah, like up until that point, 321 00:14:11,120 --> 00:14:13,160 Speaker 1: had he even really talked to you about sex or like. 322 00:14:13,240 --> 00:14:15,319 Speaker 2: Then, Like I just that's that's the hard part. So 323 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:17,040 Speaker 2: that's why I say it was hard, because it's like 324 00:14:17,280 --> 00:14:19,400 Speaker 2: it's an uncomfortable conversation for a man to tell his 325 00:14:19,440 --> 00:14:23,360 Speaker 2: little daughter like this is six, this is a minstrel 326 00:14:23,480 --> 00:14:26,040 Speaker 2: like and he wasn't like he wasn't the type of 327 00:14:26,080 --> 00:14:28,800 Speaker 2: person to like be open. He wasn't like an open 328 00:14:28,840 --> 00:14:30,720 Speaker 2: book to where he was just like here, this is 329 00:14:30,720 --> 00:14:32,920 Speaker 2: what it is, cutting drys Like I had to figure 330 00:14:32,960 --> 00:14:33,960 Speaker 2: out that out by myself. 331 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:36,600 Speaker 1: So I answer your question, My daddy is a whole. 332 00:14:36,600 --> 00:14:40,920 Speaker 1: He the first hole I swear. My son told me 333 00:14:40,960 --> 00:14:43,640 Speaker 1: the other day he's like Papa always got some ladies. 334 00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:46,560 Speaker 2: Over here, And I was just like, I know, I 335 00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:50,720 Speaker 2: grew up with him, but I don't know what's wrong 336 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:51,040 Speaker 2: with him. 337 00:14:51,040 --> 00:14:54,480 Speaker 1: I'm like, just so none of never stuck. Yeah, he's 338 00:14:54,520 --> 00:14:55,120 Speaker 1: a ladies man. 339 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:58,040 Speaker 2: None of them ever stuck like long enough to where 340 00:14:58,040 --> 00:14:59,320 Speaker 2: I would get comfortable with them. 341 00:14:59,640 --> 00:15:01,800 Speaker 1: So I I feel like the most I learned. 342 00:15:01,520 --> 00:15:03,560 Speaker 2: Would probably be from I remember one of my aunts 343 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:06,040 Speaker 2: she taught me how to like properly clean myself on 344 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:08,880 Speaker 2: my period and stuff, which I was happy because I 345 00:15:09,000 --> 00:15:10,440 Speaker 2: just would have been out here I didn't know what 346 00:15:10,520 --> 00:15:13,040 Speaker 2: to do right, so and then I know people wouldn't 347 00:15:13,040 --> 00:15:16,320 Speaker 2: talk there because I'd be seeing so many nasty like 348 00:15:16,600 --> 00:15:18,560 Speaker 2: as I was like, how am I more of. 349 00:15:18,560 --> 00:15:20,440 Speaker 1: A woman than the women? With the women? 350 00:15:21,240 --> 00:15:23,200 Speaker 2: But yeah, so it's like I wouldn't say, like my 351 00:15:23,240 --> 00:15:25,120 Speaker 2: aunts taught me everything. I had to learn a lot 352 00:15:25,120 --> 00:15:25,840 Speaker 2: about myself. 353 00:15:25,920 --> 00:15:28,520 Speaker 1: But I was very a very curious child, so I 354 00:15:28,560 --> 00:15:31,800 Speaker 1: figured it out. Like yeah, I always think about that 355 00:15:31,880 --> 00:15:35,080 Speaker 1: with like single dads and just like that even that 356 00:15:35,120 --> 00:15:37,280 Speaker 1: process too of like teaching your daughter how to make 357 00:15:37,320 --> 00:15:39,720 Speaker 1: sure that she's cleaning herself right at what point like 358 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:42,360 Speaker 1: because even now with my daughter, like obviously I'm all 359 00:15:42,440 --> 00:15:43,760 Speaker 1: up in her shit, I'm like, did you do it? 360 00:15:43,880 --> 00:15:46,280 Speaker 1: Let me see? And she's like mom, And I'm like, okay, 361 00:15:46,320 --> 00:15:48,920 Speaker 1: at some point have I can't do this anymore? So 362 00:15:48,920 --> 00:15:51,480 Speaker 1: I got to do it now. So at some point 363 00:15:51,560 --> 00:15:53,520 Speaker 1: like this isn't like she's gonna be like my mom 364 00:15:53,560 --> 00:15:57,640 Speaker 1: made me like spread over for her and I to 365 00:15:57,680 --> 00:15:59,200 Speaker 1: my son, like I'm seeing I don't want that. 366 00:15:59,640 --> 00:16:02,400 Speaker 2: How my my dad like kind of wasn't comfortable, so 367 00:16:02,600 --> 00:16:04,320 Speaker 2: it's like he'd be trying to hide it and stuff. 368 00:16:04,320 --> 00:16:08,200 Speaker 1: I'll be like, I've seen it. I burst you. Yeah, 369 00:16:08,280 --> 00:16:09,960 Speaker 1: but there's a weird stigma. 370 00:16:09,840 --> 00:16:11,920 Speaker 3: I think it like coming out of it, but like 371 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:14,520 Speaker 3: just having the sex talking in general, but as the 372 00:16:14,640 --> 00:16:17,800 Speaker 3: opposite sex having the talk. It's like because I'm sure, 373 00:16:18,000 --> 00:16:19,600 Speaker 3: I'm sure he didn't have a problem talking about sex 374 00:16:19,640 --> 00:16:20,360 Speaker 3: with your brothers. 375 00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:23,640 Speaker 2: Yeah, And then I feel like I feel like it's 376 00:16:23,680 --> 00:16:25,000 Speaker 2: the dad daughter thing. 377 00:16:25,120 --> 00:16:26,800 Speaker 1: I don't feel like it's the mother son thing. 378 00:16:26,800 --> 00:16:28,760 Speaker 2: I feel like I'm gonna be fine talking to my 379 00:16:28,800 --> 00:16:31,480 Speaker 2: son about it. Not yet, because he asked me about 380 00:16:31,480 --> 00:16:35,200 Speaker 2: sexuality and they were talking about vibrators in school and 381 00:16:35,240 --> 00:16:35,760 Speaker 2: I was just. 382 00:16:35,720 --> 00:16:39,440 Speaker 1: Like, Houston's progressive, you feel me. 383 00:16:39,480 --> 00:16:40,960 Speaker 2: And then it's like he done picked up multiple of 384 00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:42,960 Speaker 2: my vibrators in life, and I bet he was adding 385 00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:44,040 Speaker 2: it up when his friends was. 386 00:16:43,960 --> 00:16:49,440 Speaker 1: Talking about it was a bad massage and you know 387 00:16:49,480 --> 00:16:51,400 Speaker 1: it just say massage or so that was there's no lying. 388 00:16:51,640 --> 00:16:53,400 Speaker 2: One time he picked up my rolls and just start 389 00:16:53,440 --> 00:16:54,640 Speaker 2: tossing that bitch and hair. 390 00:16:54,760 --> 00:16:56,760 Speaker 1: And I was like, give me that and I just 391 00:16:56,840 --> 00:16:57,280 Speaker 1: threw it. 392 00:16:57,320 --> 00:16:58,840 Speaker 2: And I was like because I just leave it under 393 00:16:58,840 --> 00:17:00,480 Speaker 2: the pillow because you know, you need easy access, Like 394 00:17:00,480 --> 00:17:01,520 Speaker 2: why would I have to get him and go to 395 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:03,880 Speaker 2: the drawer when it's my room. So it's like sometimes 396 00:17:03,880 --> 00:17:06,520 Speaker 2: they peek out the pillow and then and then it's 397 00:17:06,840 --> 00:17:08,040 Speaker 2: they end up at the end of the bed and 398 00:17:08,040 --> 00:17:09,360 Speaker 2: it's how you got it, start talking. 399 00:17:09,160 --> 00:17:09,440 Speaker 1: Like a bob. 400 00:17:09,600 --> 00:17:11,720 Speaker 2: So it's just like, I just feel like I'm not 401 00:17:11,800 --> 00:17:13,520 Speaker 2: ready for a ten year old, but I feel like 402 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:15,280 Speaker 2: the older he gets, I'm gonna be comfortable with it 403 00:17:15,320 --> 00:17:16,760 Speaker 2: because it's a boy and a girl. 404 00:17:16,840 --> 00:17:18,240 Speaker 1: It's like a mom. You know. 405 00:17:18,320 --> 00:17:21,119 Speaker 2: We handled everything anyway, like that's just our job. We 406 00:17:21,200 --> 00:17:24,560 Speaker 2: do everything doctor visits, like we in the balls, we 407 00:17:24,600 --> 00:17:27,520 Speaker 2: see everything, We asking the questions. Yeah, we wipe the 408 00:17:27,520 --> 00:17:28,480 Speaker 2: asses around here. 409 00:17:28,960 --> 00:17:29,720 Speaker 1: So I just. 410 00:17:29,680 --> 00:17:33,119 Speaker 2: Feel like, but I get while my dad didn't talk 411 00:17:33,160 --> 00:17:36,359 Speaker 2: to me about six, that's awkward, Like I don't I 412 00:17:36,440 --> 00:17:39,600 Speaker 2: wish he did, you know, me being older, because I 413 00:17:39,640 --> 00:17:40,959 Speaker 2: wouldn't have figured it the fuck out. 414 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:44,000 Speaker 1: I'll probably still be a virgin. I knew what the 415 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:45,680 Speaker 1: fuck go down? And how old are you when you 416 00:17:45,720 --> 00:17:47,360 Speaker 1: had your son? Nineteen? 417 00:17:47,440 --> 00:17:48,800 Speaker 2: I think I was going on twenty, so I had 418 00:17:48,840 --> 00:17:51,000 Speaker 2: him in Martchim. I think my twentieth birthday was in gym? 419 00:17:51,119 --> 00:17:52,320 Speaker 1: When did you lose your virginity? 420 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:55,159 Speaker 2: I want to stay like fifteen? Okay, yeah, so I 421 00:17:55,200 --> 00:17:57,159 Speaker 2: was kind of late. I didn't I just see it. 422 00:17:57,160 --> 00:17:59,439 Speaker 1: I didn't even have the fuck. I just cousins. Was fast? 423 00:17:59,560 --> 00:18:01,199 Speaker 1: You got me run these fast, bitch, you should have 424 00:18:01,240 --> 00:18:04,320 Speaker 1: told me these fast. I wouldn't. That was fast, and 425 00:18:04,359 --> 00:18:07,440 Speaker 1: now I'm fucking because I'm looking at them. But you 426 00:18:07,480 --> 00:18:10,879 Speaker 1: could have told me, like when you got pregnant, was 427 00:18:10,880 --> 00:18:13,280 Speaker 1: that like the first time or acknowledgment of like your 428 00:18:13,359 --> 00:18:15,040 Speaker 1: dad knew you were fucking, or like he already kind 429 00:18:15,040 --> 00:18:16,640 Speaker 1: of knew you knew I was fucking. I'm sorry because 430 00:18:16,640 --> 00:18:17,280 Speaker 1: I had a boyfriend. 431 00:18:17,320 --> 00:18:18,919 Speaker 2: He wouldn't let me have a boyfriend, so I had 432 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:21,399 Speaker 2: one anyway, or he had to know that that was 433 00:18:21,440 --> 00:18:24,560 Speaker 2: going down or whatever. But no, I was very nervous 434 00:18:24,600 --> 00:18:27,119 Speaker 2: that I was pregnant because I never expected that from me. 435 00:18:27,200 --> 00:18:30,399 Speaker 2: I didn't I personally wasn't gonna have any kids me. 436 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:34,960 Speaker 2: So when I got pregnant, I was like, I just 437 00:18:35,080 --> 00:18:37,040 Speaker 2: I just didn't even know where to start. So I 438 00:18:37,080 --> 00:18:39,840 Speaker 2: actually had my child's father's mom tell him. 439 00:18:39,880 --> 00:18:41,120 Speaker 1: But I wrote a letter for backup. 440 00:18:41,400 --> 00:18:43,600 Speaker 3: Now you had Can you tell my dad now I'm. 441 00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:45,760 Speaker 1: Bad, I'm a baby? Yeah, I'm having it. She did it, 442 00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:47,679 Speaker 1: she did it. I would be like, no, girl, you're 443 00:18:47,680 --> 00:18:51,320 Speaker 1: gonna have to No. She's like, you know she did it, 444 00:18:51,920 --> 00:18:54,080 Speaker 1: like you want to be grown, Be grown and tell 445 00:18:54,080 --> 00:18:56,280 Speaker 1: your daddy. Now she saw them. She told them for me, 446 00:18:56,400 --> 00:18:58,439 Speaker 1: And I feel like it's softened to blow. I never 447 00:18:58,440 --> 00:19:00,760 Speaker 1: forget him. Did you give him a letter? I think 448 00:19:00,800 --> 00:19:02,240 Speaker 1: I did. And my friend found my letter. 449 00:19:02,359 --> 00:19:04,639 Speaker 2: She was helping me move like last year, year and 450 00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:06,679 Speaker 2: a half ago, and she found my letter and it 451 00:19:06,720 --> 00:19:06,879 Speaker 2: was this. 452 00:19:07,520 --> 00:19:09,760 Speaker 1: It was so silly. I was like, I promise I 453 00:19:09,800 --> 00:19:13,080 Speaker 1: won't be I promise I'm not like my cousin. Those 454 00:19:13,119 --> 00:19:16,320 Speaker 1: cousins must really be some hosts because you were holding 455 00:19:16,359 --> 00:19:20,040 Speaker 1: onto that. I was throwing left right under the bus. Loosen. 456 00:19:20,119 --> 00:19:22,720 Speaker 1: That's her fault, her father. I got pregnant. Yes, I 457 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:24,800 Speaker 1: was looking at them holes. Should put me around them. 458 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:28,040 Speaker 1: Those cousins stay your friends, and they're about to not 459 00:19:28,080 --> 00:19:32,920 Speaker 1: be after this episode. They gotta understand. They's monna be out. 460 00:19:34,480 --> 00:19:37,040 Speaker 1: Oh my god. Well, so so then you had your 461 00:19:37,080 --> 00:19:39,920 Speaker 1: son and what was that like at twenty Like were 462 00:19:39,920 --> 00:19:42,000 Speaker 1: you did you move out or were your son raised? 463 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 1: Were you raising your son in the house with your 464 00:19:44,080 --> 00:19:45,720 Speaker 1: with your dad? Yeah, I didn't move out to our 465 00:19:45,800 --> 00:19:46,680 Speaker 1: twenty seven. Okay. 466 00:19:46,800 --> 00:19:49,280 Speaker 2: My dad's like a great man, so it's like he 467 00:19:49,320 --> 00:19:50,439 Speaker 2: didn't he he didn't want me to. 468 00:19:50,400 --> 00:19:51,560 Speaker 1: Move out of twenty seven. I was like, Dad, I 469 00:19:51,600 --> 00:19:54,200 Speaker 1: gotta spare my wings, Like you need to stay. 470 00:19:54,200 --> 00:19:56,160 Speaker 2: You're so baby like think about it, from twenty seven 471 00:19:56,240 --> 00:19:59,119 Speaker 2: you ain't never had no boys over you just you know, 472 00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:02,000 Speaker 2: because it's like you like he allowed me to be free. 473 00:20:02,080 --> 00:20:04,960 Speaker 2: Like actually, my my child's father stayed with us and 474 00:20:05,040 --> 00:20:06,560 Speaker 2: he was like, shit, what you're pregnant now? 475 00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:09,920 Speaker 1: So yeah, so it's like he was very like he's 476 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:13,920 Speaker 1: kind of like open and stuff. He understands, I think. 477 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:18,359 Speaker 2: So it was a hurtful like departure because he didn't 478 00:20:18,359 --> 00:20:18,879 Speaker 2: want me to go. 479 00:20:18,920 --> 00:20:20,080 Speaker 1: But I was like, I have a baby. 480 00:20:20,200 --> 00:20:23,200 Speaker 2: So from I had from having my baby to twenty seven, 481 00:20:23,800 --> 00:20:27,080 Speaker 2: I was in my dad's house. So the whole time 482 00:20:27,119 --> 00:20:29,760 Speaker 2: pretty much I raised him there. So I don't know, 483 00:20:29,840 --> 00:20:31,200 Speaker 2: it's like I just had to figure it out. 484 00:20:31,200 --> 00:20:34,919 Speaker 1: It was like, you know, like the motherly instincts, he 485 00:20:35,040 --> 00:20:37,720 Speaker 1: don't have them like my dad. It's like he's the dad. 486 00:20:37,960 --> 00:20:40,520 Speaker 1: So it's like I had to teach myself how to 487 00:20:40,520 --> 00:20:42,440 Speaker 1: be a mother, like I taught myself a lot in life. 488 00:20:42,800 --> 00:20:45,000 Speaker 2: I was just it's just, I know, I feel like 489 00:20:45,040 --> 00:20:47,040 Speaker 2: as a woman, it just kind of comes natural. 490 00:20:47,359 --> 00:20:49,160 Speaker 1: Like you're like, Okay, I gotta care for this thing. 491 00:20:49,560 --> 00:20:53,280 Speaker 3: You know, can't kill himself to this out. I don't 492 00:20:53,280 --> 00:20:54,720 Speaker 3: want to be like those other niggas ain't now, so 493 00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:57,520 Speaker 3: let me feel that's beautiful. I think a lot of times, 494 00:20:57,600 --> 00:21:00,399 Speaker 3: especially in like the Black Householder's this idea that like 495 00:21:00,480 --> 00:21:01,400 Speaker 3: you turn eighteen, you. 496 00:21:01,320 --> 00:21:03,600 Speaker 1: Gotta get the fuck out, you know, like grow up, 497 00:21:03,680 --> 00:21:04,040 Speaker 1: get out. 498 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:06,800 Speaker 3: You know, there's just like this underlying, but I think 499 00:21:06,920 --> 00:21:08,800 Speaker 3: it is important to let your kids know that they 500 00:21:08,880 --> 00:21:11,600 Speaker 3: have a support system and like you have somewhere to 501 00:21:11,600 --> 00:21:14,360 Speaker 3: go if something happens to you, and not like prematurely 502 00:21:14,359 --> 00:21:15,800 Speaker 3: put them out, because I think that's where a lot 503 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:17,800 Speaker 3: of especially for women, I think that's where a lot 504 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:20,200 Speaker 3: of like codependency starts because you want to be safe, 505 00:21:20,240 --> 00:21:21,439 Speaker 3: so you're just like, let me just move in with 506 00:21:21,440 --> 00:21:23,919 Speaker 3: this nigga, and then it doesn't go as plans. 507 00:21:24,119 --> 00:21:26,280 Speaker 2: I'm so glad that the nigga I was moving in 508 00:21:26,320 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 2: with was my daddy. I can't imagine living with these niggas. 509 00:21:30,320 --> 00:21:32,000 Speaker 3: How long were your new child's followed together for a 510 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:32,480 Speaker 3: long time? 511 00:21:33,520 --> 00:21:36,760 Speaker 2: Okay, last time, I guess I apparently said something that 512 00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:37,400 Speaker 2: offended him. 513 00:21:37,400 --> 00:21:39,800 Speaker 1: But here we go again. Oh you mean on the 514 00:21:39,880 --> 00:21:43,560 Speaker 1: last podcast share But I was like, well, when they 515 00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:47,879 Speaker 1: ask guess what I want television my life? Right? Yeah? 516 00:21:47,880 --> 00:21:51,280 Speaker 1: But no, I actually like we broke up while I 517 00:21:51,359 --> 00:21:56,119 Speaker 1: was pregnant. No, I okay, it was my fault. He 518 00:21:56,119 --> 00:21:59,840 Speaker 1: didn't do anything. The hormones had me fucked up, and 519 00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:00,440 Speaker 1: I just. 520 00:22:00,440 --> 00:22:03,359 Speaker 2: Guess, like I just I wasn't there anymore. Yeah, so 521 00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:06,879 Speaker 2: it's like I tried to fight through it, but so 522 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:09,399 Speaker 2: we were still together dare in pregnancy, but it was 523 00:22:09,480 --> 00:22:13,119 Speaker 2: like shortly after I was like, this is it may 524 00:22:13,160 --> 00:22:13,400 Speaker 2: not have. 525 00:22:13,359 --> 00:22:14,639 Speaker 1: Been those hormones. Go you might not. 526 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:17,080 Speaker 3: Just not like that nigga, And that's okay too. 527 00:22:18,359 --> 00:22:20,480 Speaker 1: I think that you grow, you know, when you birth 528 00:22:20,680 --> 00:22:23,960 Speaker 1: a human, like you shift and you change so much, 529 00:22:24,200 --> 00:22:27,199 Speaker 1: and I think that is like sometimes people work it 530 00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:29,479 Speaker 1: out and they push through there, or sometimes it's like 531 00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:31,880 Speaker 1: it's time I have to like go into this new 532 00:22:31,920 --> 00:22:36,680 Speaker 1: season solo. So I get it. It's it'd be hard. 533 00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:38,760 Speaker 1: It is sad a little bit. It's like, damn, I 534 00:22:38,800 --> 00:22:40,480 Speaker 1: didn't mean for this thing. I didn't want to grow 535 00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:42,080 Speaker 1: this much. I wanted you to come with me. Well, well, 536 00:22:42,119 --> 00:22:44,679 Speaker 1: think about it, you're nineteen. I mean, how much have 537 00:22:44,720 --> 00:22:47,440 Speaker 1: you changed from nineteen until? I don't know how old 538 00:22:47,480 --> 00:22:50,400 Speaker 1: you are now, but like I'm like in the next 539 00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:55,000 Speaker 1: like ten years, right, So I mean yeah, I mean 540 00:22:55,040 --> 00:22:56,639 Speaker 1: I think about like I had my daughter when I 541 00:22:56,680 --> 00:23:00,520 Speaker 1: was twenty seven, and I'm gonna be thirty six, thirty six, 542 00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:05,639 Speaker 1: and so it's like I am a whole different version 543 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:07,760 Speaker 1: of myself. Yes, there's still parts of me that are 544 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:10,840 Speaker 1: the same, but there's like a whole whole birth that 545 00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:13,359 Speaker 1: happens not only when you birth your child, but you're 546 00:23:13,400 --> 00:23:16,159 Speaker 1: also birthing this new version of yourself too. And I 547 00:23:16,160 --> 00:23:17,880 Speaker 1: think a lot of men they don't they don't really 548 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:20,600 Speaker 1: understand that, and they look at it as selfish and 549 00:23:20,640 --> 00:23:23,440 Speaker 1: it is sometimes because we have to be. Yeah, because 550 00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:25,280 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm my rule. My number one rule 551 00:23:25,400 --> 00:23:26,840 Speaker 1: is happiness for myself. 552 00:23:26,880 --> 00:23:29,560 Speaker 2: So it's like I'm not gonna stick around, Like he 553 00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:31,560 Speaker 2: didn't do anything to me. So that's what made me 554 00:23:31,560 --> 00:23:34,240 Speaker 2: feel bad because it's like he didn't deserve for me 555 00:23:34,280 --> 00:23:36,399 Speaker 2: to like it's like he didn't do anything for me 556 00:23:36,440 --> 00:23:38,800 Speaker 2: to just break it off. So I do feel bad 557 00:23:38,840 --> 00:23:41,320 Speaker 2: for that, but it's like I was not gonna not 558 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:41,840 Speaker 2: be happy. 559 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:44,640 Speaker 1: That's just not happening. I ain't found a little sense. 560 00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:48,920 Speaker 1: I just want to say, you don't A person doesn't 561 00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:51,919 Speaker 1: have to do anything to you for you to want 562 00:23:52,080 --> 00:23:54,639 Speaker 1: to depart from the situation. I think that's the mistake 563 00:23:54,680 --> 00:23:56,080 Speaker 1: that a lot of women make too. It's like they 564 00:23:56,119 --> 00:23:59,880 Speaker 1: wait for like like trauma to come in or abuse, 565 00:24:00,200 --> 00:24:03,160 Speaker 1: or like wrongdoing, and sometimes shit just isn't doesn't feel right, 566 00:24:03,240 --> 00:24:06,000 Speaker 1: like something in your soul said this is not right 567 00:24:06,040 --> 00:24:08,840 Speaker 1: for me anymore, and you had the strength enough to say, Okay, 568 00:24:08,840 --> 00:24:10,919 Speaker 1: I'm gonna moving forward. And a lot of women sitting 569 00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:12,680 Speaker 1: right now listening are still sitting in some shit that 570 00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:14,399 Speaker 1: they know they're not supposed to be in this. Well, 571 00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:15,040 Speaker 1: there's this idea. 572 00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:17,439 Speaker 3: I think women are kind of programs from birth to 573 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:22,320 Speaker 3: be people pleasers, right, Like be be how do you say, 574 00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:26,159 Speaker 3: like acceptable, be agreeable, don't take up space, don't be 575 00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:28,400 Speaker 3: a hoe, don't wear your titties out, don't do that 576 00:24:28,480 --> 00:24:30,160 Speaker 3: you know, don't fuck two niggas in the same week, 577 00:24:30,280 --> 00:24:35,879 Speaker 3: don't wear red nails, lipstick, just bells, you know, Like 578 00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:39,040 Speaker 3: there's all these weird like things that we can't do. 579 00:24:39,160 --> 00:24:41,679 Speaker 3: And so I think there's this other idea that if 580 00:24:41,720 --> 00:24:43,440 Speaker 3: you're literally not getting beat. 581 00:24:43,640 --> 00:24:44,719 Speaker 1: Then you should stay. 582 00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:47,600 Speaker 3: There's like he's he's a good man, he ain't cheating 583 00:24:47,640 --> 00:24:49,639 Speaker 3: on you, he ain't beating you, you should stay. 584 00:24:49,680 --> 00:24:51,320 Speaker 1: And that's like absolutely absurd. 585 00:24:51,359 --> 00:24:53,720 Speaker 3: And I do think like, because women are the ones 586 00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:57,080 Speaker 3: that experience pregnancy and birth, there's a tremendous amount of 587 00:24:57,080 --> 00:24:59,399 Speaker 3: growth that happens in those periods, and so sometimes I 588 00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:01,719 Speaker 3: may account to it's like evolving quicker because we have 589 00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:03,840 Speaker 3: to because we're caring for the children. But those are 590 00:25:03,880 --> 00:25:07,640 Speaker 3: also like life shifting, body shifting things that happen. It's 591 00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:10,040 Speaker 3: literally your right of passage, so it's normal that you 592 00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:12,639 Speaker 3: may change, and sometimes your partner is not doing the 593 00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:14,680 Speaker 3: same thing with you. And like, I think we also 594 00:25:14,680 --> 00:25:16,480 Speaker 3: have been told for a long time that our happiness 595 00:25:16,520 --> 00:25:19,120 Speaker 3: is not that important, especially as a mom, Like. 596 00:25:19,320 --> 00:25:20,760 Speaker 1: If you're kind of happy, that's good enough. 597 00:25:20,800 --> 00:25:22,520 Speaker 3: If your kid is happy and your kid is happy, 598 00:25:22,560 --> 00:25:24,679 Speaker 3: if two parents are in the household, and like that's 599 00:25:24,720 --> 00:25:26,400 Speaker 3: all false. 600 00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:26,359 Speaker 1: You know. 601 00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:30,480 Speaker 3: And I think we've like all seen friends or moms 602 00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:33,240 Speaker 3: staying relationships they weren't genuinely happy because they weren't getting 603 00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:36,040 Speaker 3: beat or treated on and that doesn't really equate to 604 00:25:36,119 --> 00:25:38,080 Speaker 3: like a happily ever after ending either. 605 00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:41,000 Speaker 2: It got to be like compatibility and like it's all 606 00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:44,480 Speaker 2: about mission with some passion intimacy, like everything. 607 00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,800 Speaker 1: Got to be complete, so it is. 608 00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:49,520 Speaker 2: I don't I don't think that that's one thing I've 609 00:25:49,600 --> 00:25:52,800 Speaker 2: never fought for. It's like staying somewhere that I don't 610 00:25:52,840 --> 00:25:56,440 Speaker 2: belong and people just fighting for other people. I love 611 00:25:56,520 --> 00:25:59,120 Speaker 2: my kid to the death of me, but I wouldn't 612 00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:01,800 Speaker 2: able to stay with them man for him. 613 00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:02,720 Speaker 3: Because that would be that would that would be affecting 614 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:03,400 Speaker 3: him long term. 615 00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:05,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, It's like I just feel like it would be 616 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:07,719 Speaker 2: so toxic in the househole because like somebody is not 617 00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:08,360 Speaker 2: one hundred percent. 618 00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:10,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, you're not feeding a certain part of your soul 619 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,920 Speaker 1: and and then eventually you start to break down, break down, 620 00:26:13,960 --> 00:26:15,680 Speaker 1: and it starts to affect your kid. 621 00:26:15,800 --> 00:26:18,280 Speaker 2: Because he's seeing he's growing up in an unhappy household, 622 00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:20,560 Speaker 2: like even just sitting there not talking to each other 623 00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:23,200 Speaker 2: or arguing, like all of that stuff is just seen 624 00:26:23,320 --> 00:26:25,840 Speaker 2: and now you your career grow up to thinking your 625 00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:27,480 Speaker 2: parents are not supposed to talking to how so. 626 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:30,120 Speaker 3: Or that's how love looks like? Your marriage looks like yeah, 627 00:26:30,359 --> 00:26:32,160 Speaker 3: and I know that for me even too, like having 628 00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:34,679 Speaker 3: my kids see me like affectionate and loving and like, 629 00:26:35,359 --> 00:26:36,280 Speaker 3: I need you to know. 630 00:26:36,240 --> 00:26:37,159 Speaker 1: This is what love looks like. 631 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:39,040 Speaker 3: You could you could be ill and out, but like 632 00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:40,520 Speaker 3: you don't know what it looks like for a negt 633 00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:42,159 Speaker 3: to like you and love you and not be like 634 00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:45,639 Speaker 3: strangers in a household. If you if you were putting 635 00:26:45,640 --> 00:26:48,439 Speaker 3: together a pot of your favorite love sauce, if this 636 00:26:48,520 --> 00:26:50,840 Speaker 3: is what your relationship could ideally look like, what would 637 00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:52,600 Speaker 3: that be? What would all the things that you would have? 638 00:26:53,240 --> 00:26:57,479 Speaker 1: It would have tons of communication, tons of gift giving, 639 00:26:59,720 --> 00:27:07,040 Speaker 1: bear expressive, very vulnerable understanding. Did Y know how many 640 00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:10,240 Speaker 1: people I dated that I didn't realize understanding coming to play? 641 00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:12,560 Speaker 2: Like I didn't know how much people are not understanding 642 00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:13,720 Speaker 2: and that affects so much. 643 00:27:14,119 --> 00:27:17,080 Speaker 1: That's the crazy shit. Like so I would say, first, 644 00:27:17,080 --> 00:27:18,720 Speaker 1: it's understanding, like giving you grace. 645 00:27:20,280 --> 00:27:24,480 Speaker 2: No, I would say, like when, okay, so you know 646 00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,760 Speaker 2: a degree to disagree, right, but it's still a thing 647 00:27:27,800 --> 00:27:32,240 Speaker 2: of understanding, like just because I don't agree with you, 648 00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:33,880 Speaker 2: were just because you don't agree with me, it doesn't 649 00:27:33,960 --> 00:27:36,760 Speaker 2: mean like it's like a shutdown mechanism in your mind. 650 00:27:36,760 --> 00:27:39,119 Speaker 2: It's like, no, you still have to understand my piece 651 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:40,560 Speaker 2: of why I felt like this. You don't have to 652 00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:42,800 Speaker 2: agree with it, but it's like you understand where I'm 653 00:27:42,800 --> 00:27:44,600 Speaker 2: coming from, just like I can understand where you're coming 654 00:27:44,600 --> 00:27:46,639 Speaker 2: from even though I don't agree. As long as we 655 00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:49,679 Speaker 2: understand each other's mindset, we two different people, so we 656 00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:53,160 Speaker 2: don't have to agree. But it's like I remember dating 657 00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:56,800 Speaker 2: somebody and I kept explaining something over and over and 658 00:27:56,880 --> 00:28:00,320 Speaker 2: over in the same conversation, and that you will always 659 00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:03,240 Speaker 2: the motherfucker will always just go back to what I 660 00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:06,119 Speaker 2: didn't say and say, well, this is And I was 661 00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:08,199 Speaker 2: just like, this is weird because why do you not 662 00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:09,280 Speaker 2: hear exactly what's. 663 00:28:09,080 --> 00:28:10,840 Speaker 1: Coming out of my mouth? Because men and women speak twofferent 664 00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:12,080 Speaker 1: languages and I hate that. 665 00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:15,040 Speaker 2: So I just I just feel like all of that 666 00:28:15,040 --> 00:28:18,240 Speaker 2: that's good. I'm probably missing some shit, but just happiness. 667 00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:20,440 Speaker 2: I just feel like that's what it is, Like I'm 668 00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:22,320 Speaker 2: gonna be happy or I'm not gonna be there. 669 00:28:23,359 --> 00:28:27,399 Speaker 1: No, I agree, and lots of secks. Oh forgot about that. Well, 670 00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:34,040 Speaker 1: let's cheers to that, ladies. Let's cheers to vulnerability, good sex, happiness, communication, 671 00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:38,400 Speaker 1: and good dick and pussy. Whatever. Whatever your flavors are. 672 00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:45,040 Speaker 3: The flavors can sluctuate too. I feel like like I 673 00:28:45,040 --> 00:28:47,120 Speaker 3: have seasons in my life. I was like a heavy lesbian, 674 00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:49,720 Speaker 3: and then I have seasons in my life just like 675 00:28:49,880 --> 00:28:52,840 Speaker 3: dickted dick, Dick, dick, dick, dick, and then some weekends, 676 00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:55,760 Speaker 3: you know, I'm doing in some pussy like I'm a lesbian, 677 00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:58,520 Speaker 3: and then some one come Monday back to dick again. 678 00:28:59,160 --> 00:29:04,360 Speaker 1: So just know that's that's fine. You can fluctuate. I 679 00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:07,080 Speaker 1: do feel like you want with the vibes emotion. 680 00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:08,560 Speaker 3: To be honest about the vibes are that week. 681 00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:12,040 Speaker 1: So can we have a game we like to play 682 00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:16,160 Speaker 1: with guests, and it's called trigger. Basically, I'm going to 683 00:29:16,240 --> 00:29:18,040 Speaker 1: say a word and then you say the first thing 684 00:29:18,080 --> 00:29:23,400 Speaker 1: that comes to mind, and don't overthink it and don't 685 00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:38,280 Speaker 1: hold back. It's trigger time, guys. Okay, bad habits, oversleeping, 686 00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:42,160 Speaker 1: you're Oh, I guess I already know your astrology sign. 687 00:29:42,160 --> 00:29:48,600 Speaker 1: You're a Gemini, right, marriage. I don't want to get divorced, 688 00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:56,800 Speaker 1: so I don't think I want to be married, Motherhood, patience, learning, religion. 689 00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:04,880 Speaker 1: I just believe in God, ainal eat it, eat it, 690 00:30:05,160 --> 00:30:10,960 Speaker 1: eat it, eat as my ass. Oh, I had a weird, 691 00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:14,360 Speaker 1: bucked up vision. I don't know what it was. It 692 00:30:14,480 --> 00:30:17,280 Speaker 1: was not good. It was shipped and it was in 693 00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:21,240 Speaker 1: my mouth. I don't know. We get here, but you 694 00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:25,920 Speaker 1: eat us? I know, I don't know why it went there. 695 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:28,800 Speaker 1: I guess I do. I love eating us boy as. Yeah, 696 00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:31,120 Speaker 1: you don't need as. I would never eat as. I 697 00:30:31,120 --> 00:30:33,400 Speaker 1: wouldn't even eat girl. Ass. No, you eat no ass? 698 00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:34,960 Speaker 1: You just want you want your ass? 699 00:30:35,040 --> 00:30:37,080 Speaker 2: Yes, but I understand if you're not an ass, eat 700 00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:38,200 Speaker 2: it because I don't ask. 701 00:30:38,240 --> 00:30:40,440 Speaker 1: But my ass is good? Is it a no negotiable? 702 00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:42,480 Speaker 1: Like if someone won't eat your ass, is it over? 703 00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:45,680 Speaker 1: Oh no, no no, no, you won't even What if 704 00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:47,960 Speaker 1: like what if they just got out the shower, fresh 705 00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:48,360 Speaker 1: and clean? 706 00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:50,440 Speaker 2: I would not eat no hairy ass. What if it's 707 00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:52,200 Speaker 2: Harry would not eat no man? 708 00:30:52,320 --> 00:30:54,240 Speaker 1: What's the difference is as a whole, I don't want 709 00:30:54,280 --> 00:30:56,920 Speaker 1: how how do they lay put your legs? So you 710 00:30:56,920 --> 00:31:00,880 Speaker 1: don't if they put their left man, Well, I've eaten 711 00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:03,240 Speaker 1: asked like this, Like guys, just like this. It's harder 712 00:31:05,240 --> 00:31:09,360 Speaker 1: he was trying to be. But I've also had a 713 00:31:09,400 --> 00:31:12,400 Speaker 1: scenario where a man I went to the bathroom and 714 00:31:12,440 --> 00:31:15,239 Speaker 1: then I came back and he was booted up, and 715 00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:24,200 Speaker 1: I said, like an arch in the back, bitch, like 716 00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:28,520 Speaker 1: it looked like a surprise. What are you saying? Well, 717 00:31:28,560 --> 00:31:31,440 Speaker 1: we were doing a lot of freaky shape like he 718 00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:34,040 Speaker 1: had handcuffed me. I had to handcuff him, and then 719 00:31:34,040 --> 00:31:37,520 Speaker 1: he got triggered. He didn't like that. He felt like slavery, 720 00:31:37,720 --> 00:31:38,160 Speaker 1: and he was. 721 00:31:38,160 --> 00:31:42,280 Speaker 3: Like, I don't so just back to acid. 722 00:31:42,360 --> 00:31:43,440 Speaker 1: You don't want them to put the leg up? And 723 00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,640 Speaker 1: that's I don't know. I'm just what if you found 724 00:31:45,640 --> 00:31:50,360 Speaker 1: like a more masculine position. I don't feel like I 725 00:31:50,480 --> 00:31:52,960 Speaker 1: just couldn't picture me. I'm gonna look up some masculine 726 00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:55,560 Speaker 1: ass eating positions for you. Ken wait. I feel like it's. 727 00:31:55,400 --> 00:32:06,240 Speaker 4: Like like he's flexing while he's doing oh fuck. 728 00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:13,400 Speaker 1: Arm and hammer baby, there's god. Okay. I need everyone 729 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:16,400 Speaker 1: to send in the masculine ass eating positions because I 730 00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:18,600 Speaker 1: feel like men deserve to get their as like they 731 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:20,720 Speaker 1: deserve to get their ass, and then enough they haven't 732 00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:23,200 Speaker 1: done enough work. No, what do they do to really 733 00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:25,320 Speaker 1: just have some men do a lot of work. That 734 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:30,200 Speaker 1: was good. I like to stuck on balls. You just 735 00:32:30,600 --> 00:32:33,160 Speaker 1: lifted my little bit and you get them in there. 736 00:32:33,160 --> 00:32:34,560 Speaker 1: I don't clean you wipe. 737 00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:38,760 Speaker 2: You got you a conversation about men not even wiping 738 00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:42,040 Speaker 2: the ass because they felt like that's what you didn't 739 00:32:42,040 --> 00:32:43,560 Speaker 2: see and you out there just eating it. 740 00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:46,720 Speaker 1: I know that I've vetted the niggas. I'm not just 741 00:32:46,760 --> 00:32:49,240 Speaker 1: eating any ass. Let's be clear myself. That's not like 742 00:32:49,280 --> 00:32:53,960 Speaker 1: a first night type of situation that yes, that's like 743 00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:58,240 Speaker 1: your habits. Yeah yeah, yeah, don't let I feel. 744 00:32:58,080 --> 00:33:00,720 Speaker 2: Like I will honestly be turned completely off if you 745 00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:03,280 Speaker 2: even positioned me to try to go down there, because 746 00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:06,840 Speaker 2: why you be a sneaky not leaky and fucking freaky. 747 00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:08,880 Speaker 3: I don't like if you like trying to prop any proposition. 748 00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:11,440 Speaker 1: Try to like if I want to, Like, I've had 749 00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,360 Speaker 1: a guy that like whiby sucking his dick and then 750 00:33:13,360 --> 00:33:15,840 Speaker 1: he like tries to let he like push my head lower, 751 00:33:16,560 --> 00:33:18,480 Speaker 1: and that that I did not like because I was like, sir, 752 00:33:18,560 --> 00:33:20,480 Speaker 1: first of all, let me do it. Second of all, 753 00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:22,200 Speaker 1: I don't know you that well, so I don't know 754 00:33:22,240 --> 00:33:23,240 Speaker 1: what's happening down there. 755 00:33:24,160 --> 00:33:27,240 Speaker 3: But that's the one with the weird the weird like, uh, 756 00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:31,480 Speaker 3: condition you eaten conditioners? 757 00:33:32,240 --> 00:33:39,080 Speaker 1: What's going on here? No, he couldn't. He has some 758 00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:42,760 Speaker 1: sort of condition that he was get his dick suck. 759 00:33:42,920 --> 00:33:45,800 Speaker 1: He couln't get his dicksuck. And he wanted to ask. 760 00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:48,560 Speaker 1: He wanted to ask and balls licked, but he couldn't 761 00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:50,320 Speaker 1: get his dick sucked because whenever he gets his dick 762 00:33:50,400 --> 00:33:52,360 Speaker 1: suck he always gets some sort of weird infection. I 763 00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:54,760 Speaker 1: don't know. That was not a real he gets like 764 00:33:54,760 --> 00:33:57,520 Speaker 1: the yeast infection or something. So I don't know. I 765 00:33:57,600 --> 00:33:59,720 Speaker 1: gotta go back. I want to go back and revisit it. 766 00:33:59,800 --> 00:34:01,960 Speaker 1: Don't hopefully doesn't hear the ship because you already cursed 767 00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:04,160 Speaker 1: me out one time for this story. You don't curse 768 00:34:04,200 --> 00:34:08,600 Speaker 1: you around. He just got embarrassed. Does heasy? Okay? Anyway? 769 00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:18,080 Speaker 1: Next question? Open relationship? Hell? No? No, negotiable mm hmmm. 770 00:34:18,800 --> 00:34:24,759 Speaker 1: Favorite position I think missionaries for me to lay there. 771 00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:35,319 Speaker 1: Porn category asked eating. I like lesbian as eating because 772 00:34:35,320 --> 00:34:38,560 Speaker 1: it's so nasty. It's like, you freaky motherfucker like I 773 00:34:38,640 --> 00:34:41,040 Speaker 1: like seeing men get their assy and porn like rimming. 774 00:34:41,600 --> 00:34:44,239 Speaker 1: Is it called rimming for women? To do you like porn? 775 00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:47,960 Speaker 1: Watch I have watched before. Do you like it? It's 776 00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:50,560 Speaker 1: kind of interesting. I'm not gonna lae to care about 777 00:34:50,600 --> 00:34:52,520 Speaker 1: it because I feel like this is my people. I 778 00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:56,120 Speaker 1: found about people insecure about it, like I feel it's 779 00:34:56,120 --> 00:34:57,799 Speaker 1: secure about it because I'm like, wow, am I watching it? 780 00:34:58,239 --> 00:34:59,799 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? But no, I don't. I 781 00:34:59,880 --> 00:35:04,320 Speaker 1: just glimpse by and I'm don stop glimpse on Twitter. 782 00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:05,359 Speaker 1: I sent on. 783 00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:07,560 Speaker 2: Twitter and I was and then I was like that, 784 00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:09,840 Speaker 2: you know, and I didn't stop. 785 00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:12,719 Speaker 1: You know I'm saying. My friends showed me and I 786 00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:14,040 Speaker 1: was like, I'm not interested in that, and then she 787 00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:15,920 Speaker 1: showed me and I was like, oh my god, is 788 00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:17,920 Speaker 1: so intense. And then I was like addicted, And like 789 00:35:18,280 --> 00:35:20,000 Speaker 1: ten years later, I asked her, like, remember when you 790 00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:20,920 Speaker 1: like the gay porn? 791 00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:22,279 Speaker 3: And she's like, I don't watch that anymore. I was like, 792 00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:24,839 Speaker 3: you fucking bitch, you don't turn me out. And now 793 00:35:24,880 --> 00:35:27,640 Speaker 3: I'm fucking addicted to gay porn for no reason. But 794 00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:30,080 Speaker 3: I realized it's normal because we like dicks. If you 795 00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:31,959 Speaker 3: like dick and there's two dicks. 796 00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:36,600 Speaker 1: And but it's like I like the what when a 797 00:35:36,640 --> 00:35:39,560 Speaker 1: girl is involved? Who is cool? I like to bisexual 798 00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:42,920 Speaker 1: threesomes that that's fun. It's like, y'all are nasty. I 799 00:35:42,920 --> 00:35:45,040 Speaker 1: would never do it, but I enjoy it. 800 00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:47,960 Speaker 3: I like porn that makes me think do I need 801 00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:49,400 Speaker 3: to do this in real life? And so I can 802 00:35:49,520 --> 00:35:51,600 Speaker 3: contemplate it and a lot of times it's no. Because 803 00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:53,920 Speaker 3: also I realized a lot of straight women love lesbian 804 00:35:53,920 --> 00:35:56,080 Speaker 3: important too, and I hate lesbian important. 805 00:35:55,800 --> 00:35:56,560 Speaker 1: It's so okay. 806 00:35:56,600 --> 00:35:59,680 Speaker 2: So when I started engaging in lesbian activity, I was 807 00:35:59,719 --> 00:36:03,040 Speaker 2: just like, ah, this is boring. 808 00:36:03,239 --> 00:36:03,879 Speaker 1: But that's why. 809 00:36:03,920 --> 00:36:06,880 Speaker 2: I just I truly do feel like I watch porn 810 00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:09,719 Speaker 2: that I'm not interested in real life. It's like a 811 00:36:09,800 --> 00:36:11,880 Speaker 2: fantasy like things because I would never do that. I 812 00:36:11,880 --> 00:36:14,120 Speaker 2: would never eat ass. Why am I watching as looking? 813 00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:17,920 Speaker 2: I don't know, you don't I would never eat a 814 00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:20,480 Speaker 2: female will be. But it's like I like to watch 815 00:36:20,520 --> 00:36:22,160 Speaker 2: it because because I like mine. 816 00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:25,479 Speaker 1: So you're like, okay, yeah, I'm not into the gay porn. 817 00:36:25,480 --> 00:36:27,160 Speaker 1: I tried a few different times and I was like, no, no, 818 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:30,279 Speaker 1: you do it a lot. It's like a maybe here 819 00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:33,600 Speaker 1: and there. I like gang Bang porn so so I 820 00:36:33,680 --> 00:36:35,560 Speaker 1: like when the guys are close and their gang bang 821 00:36:35,960 --> 00:36:38,840 Speaker 1: like side to side like sandwich like double holes, you know, 822 00:36:39,760 --> 00:36:43,040 Speaker 1: I like that one. I don't like aggressive six because 823 00:36:43,080 --> 00:36:46,280 Speaker 1: it looks like you're like a sensual porn searcher. 824 00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:49,319 Speaker 2: No, I like bondage, but I don't like gang bang. 825 00:36:49,400 --> 00:36:52,600 Speaker 2: It's just it's a lot of holes in the big 826 00:36:52,600 --> 00:36:52,960 Speaker 2: as D. 827 00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:55,160 Speaker 1: Yeah, it depends where I'm where I'm at, what season. 828 00:36:55,200 --> 00:36:58,279 Speaker 1: I mean, if I'm in central season and if I'm 829 00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:05,719 Speaker 1: like really want to get anyway? Uh, turn on what 830 00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:17,480 Speaker 1: your turn on? Thoughtfulness, turn off? In consideration love language. 831 00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:22,680 Speaker 1: I feel like that's what my love language is, like. 832 00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:27,520 Speaker 2: Acts of service, because there's acts of service, there's gifts, 833 00:37:27,680 --> 00:37:29,640 Speaker 2: there's like acts of service, Like I like to be 834 00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:32,239 Speaker 2: feeling like you thought of me when you before you 835 00:37:32,320 --> 00:37:35,760 Speaker 2: did it, so like you considered what I would like 836 00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:37,680 Speaker 2: masturbation on. 837 00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:42,880 Speaker 1: Do you have a specific tool you like to use? 838 00:37:43,960 --> 00:37:46,400 Speaker 1: I love the roads, but like they'd been getting me 839 00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:49,120 Speaker 1: there too quick. I'm like, ship, you gotta put on 840 00:37:49,160 --> 00:37:50,800 Speaker 1: the outside of the lip. You gotta like fold what 841 00:37:50,960 --> 00:37:55,400 Speaker 1: lip over? You can't go straight? You can't go now 842 00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:59,319 Speaker 1: you're gonna it happens so queer. I mean, it's good 843 00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:00,759 Speaker 1: when you don't got a lot of time, but then 844 00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:03,480 Speaker 1: sometimes I be like wanting to build. I want to ant. 845 00:38:03,680 --> 00:38:05,560 Speaker 3: You're gonna fold that lip over, baby, you can't put 846 00:38:05,560 --> 00:38:05,919 Speaker 3: that straight. 847 00:38:06,440 --> 00:38:08,799 Speaker 1: I don't have enough lip to fold. I wonder what 848 00:38:08,880 --> 00:38:11,080 Speaker 1: the rose would feel like on your on your asshole. 849 00:38:11,200 --> 00:38:13,600 Speaker 1: You've done it if you can have trying to put 850 00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:16,360 Speaker 1: that bitch everywhere and I don't. I'm in the grip. 851 00:38:16,520 --> 00:38:19,239 Speaker 1: How you is kind of I think it just feel 852 00:38:19,239 --> 00:38:23,000 Speaker 1: like vibrations. Tell me how that try that tonight? Yours 853 00:38:23,000 --> 00:38:25,839 Speaker 1: didn't break right? I got three and one of them 854 00:38:26,080 --> 00:38:28,160 Speaker 1: motor ran out. You have the one with the charge. 855 00:38:28,200 --> 00:38:31,280 Speaker 1: I don't like this. It's weird, like a little rubber 856 00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:33,440 Speaker 1: like it hurts a little bit, like it feels like 857 00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:38,279 Speaker 1: you're pushing the bacteria in there. I don't like, Oh 858 00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:44,600 Speaker 1: my god, therapy, I've been there. You don't look like 859 00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:47,480 Speaker 1: you like it so much. I feel like I know 860 00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:53,880 Speaker 1: how the therapist myself. I don't know you need you 861 00:38:53,960 --> 00:38:56,200 Speaker 1: the one who needed the mouse. I try to go, 862 00:38:56,960 --> 00:39:02,359 Speaker 1: you know, I try. Everything's self aware. Everybody itself says 863 00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:08,239 Speaker 1: they're self aware. Yeah that's true, except let me ask 864 00:39:08,239 --> 00:39:12,560 Speaker 1: your ex. Let me talk to your ex. Ex is 865 00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:24,400 Speaker 1: always live celebrity crush making good Okay. 866 00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:27,360 Speaker 3: I like Megan too. You know this is not a 867 00:39:27,360 --> 00:39:29,400 Speaker 3: popular statement and it's not offensive. This is like in 868 00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:31,399 Speaker 3: a good way. I always said, like she's a slutty face, 869 00:39:32,280 --> 00:39:35,799 Speaker 3: so like that. She does have that like fuck me face. 870 00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:37,520 Speaker 3: It's like like those eyebrows or something. 871 00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:40,160 Speaker 1: I don't know. She is hot, she's fine, she looks 872 00:39:40,160 --> 00:39:44,920 Speaker 1: at she looks the same as ever. Last bad choice, 873 00:39:49,520 --> 00:39:53,919 Speaker 1: probably sucking my eggs. Last, what go ahead? That wasn't 874 00:39:54,120 --> 00:39:57,400 Speaker 1: the worst thing I could a bed, but cant have 875 00:39:57,400 --> 00:40:04,120 Speaker 1: done without it. Oh, I couldn't have cause confusion. No, 876 00:40:04,280 --> 00:40:06,080 Speaker 1: that's why I'm like, Oh that's good. When you can fuck, 877 00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:08,719 Speaker 1: you can fuck an X and there's literally no late 878 00:40:08,840 --> 00:40:11,880 Speaker 1: night weird texts later on that you didn't ask for percussion. 879 00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:15,959 Speaker 1: See that. I just felt like he thought we were back. 880 00:40:16,360 --> 00:40:18,480 Speaker 1: We was not back. Okay. So that's what I'm talking about. 881 00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:20,200 Speaker 1: When you have you can find an ex that you 882 00:40:20,239 --> 00:40:22,560 Speaker 1: can fuck and they know the rules. They know the 883 00:40:22,560 --> 00:40:24,719 Speaker 1: ground rules are not getting back together. It was just 884 00:40:24,800 --> 00:40:27,359 Speaker 1: that night. That's ideal, although I don't think that that's 885 00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:30,799 Speaker 1: usually the case for most people, especially if you have 886 00:40:30,840 --> 00:40:41,879 Speaker 1: goods cannabis. Paranoid Houston men hate them. I don't want 887 00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:44,600 Speaker 1: to be there. No, No, I'm dating outside my city. 888 00:40:45,320 --> 00:40:52,200 Speaker 1: I got my lay vibe right now. Houston women pretty thick, 889 00:40:53,120 --> 00:40:58,680 Speaker 1: pretty thick, pretty thick, pretty and thick. The favorite piece 890 00:40:58,719 --> 00:41:02,680 Speaker 1: of advice you've gotten? Mm hmmm. 891 00:41:04,880 --> 00:41:07,480 Speaker 2: I never know the answer to that, because it's like, 892 00:41:07,480 --> 00:41:13,680 Speaker 2: you give so much advice. I'm gonna just say something 893 00:41:13,719 --> 00:41:15,800 Speaker 2: that I don't even know advice, but it's advice. 894 00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:18,560 Speaker 1: I don't even want to fake it's it's not corny, 895 00:41:18,719 --> 00:41:24,040 Speaker 1: but one monkey, don't stop to show that's a fact. 896 00:41:24,320 --> 00:41:28,200 Speaker 1: Don't stop the show. Three or four. That's not like 897 00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:33,560 Speaker 1: an affirmation too. I'm never gonna let that one go. Huh. 898 00:41:33,640 --> 00:41:35,680 Speaker 1: Now she knows she has a new term. She knows 899 00:41:35,920 --> 00:41:37,520 Speaker 1: I knew that two years ago. What do you think 900 00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:41,200 Speaker 1: about three or four? I love it. A lot of 901 00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:44,239 Speaker 1: people think I'm one, but no, everything is called for 902 00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:47,440 Speaker 1: the hose. That's why it's called for the three folks. 903 00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:50,960 Speaker 1: I never said that I was the whole. It was 904 00:41:51,040 --> 00:41:52,480 Speaker 1: four for y'all. 905 00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:54,800 Speaker 3: It's well, you know, there's levels of wholeness that I 906 00:41:54,840 --> 00:41:57,880 Speaker 3: think people forget. There's like professional host, which is more 907 00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:00,279 Speaker 3: of a three or four, and then there's like recordtional 908 00:42:00,360 --> 00:42:02,800 Speaker 3: host like myself or you know, I'm just hol on 909 00:42:02,840 --> 00:42:03,720 Speaker 3: the weekends. 910 00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:05,560 Speaker 2: And I think I'm recreational, right, recreation. I don't do 911 00:42:05,600 --> 00:42:06,920 Speaker 2: it all the time, but I have my moment. 912 00:42:07,040 --> 00:42:08,239 Speaker 1: What do you define as a whole? What is a 913 00:42:08,239 --> 00:42:08,640 Speaker 1: hoe to you? 914 00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:11,040 Speaker 2: I don't think nobody is a whole. I feel like, now, 915 00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:13,879 Speaker 2: if you fuck my man, you will help ass. 916 00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:18,440 Speaker 1: But I just feel like, okay, well, I would say 917 00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:23,719 Speaker 1: a HO to me would be just somebody that I 918 00:42:23,719 --> 00:42:26,200 Speaker 1: don't want to say because it's like maybe you're not 919 00:42:26,239 --> 00:42:29,239 Speaker 1: a hole of you. But I just feel like I 920 00:42:29,280 --> 00:42:31,200 Speaker 1: don't even know are y'all hoes? Before I answer this, 921 00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:32,440 Speaker 1: because I don't want to offend nobody. 922 00:42:32,480 --> 00:42:36,480 Speaker 3: You can't offend us, are y'all? I'm a self proclaimed 923 00:42:36,480 --> 00:42:39,239 Speaker 3: how so I'm okay with Like. I also think like 924 00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:40,960 Speaker 3: I don't really believe anyone's a whole. I think like 925 00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:43,880 Speaker 3: the negative ho, there's like a like the negative vibrational 926 00:42:44,120 --> 00:42:47,480 Speaker 3: low vibrational hose are hoes that carry themselves as hosts. 927 00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:49,920 Speaker 3: So if you can go outside and someone's like that 928 00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:52,600 Speaker 3: bitch is a hoe, there's a there's an energy that 929 00:42:52,640 --> 00:42:54,719 Speaker 3: comes with that type of hell. But like even me 930 00:42:55,000 --> 00:42:58,239 Speaker 3: knowing that I've had some whole heavy host seasons, you'll 931 00:42:58,280 --> 00:43:01,160 Speaker 3: never go outside with me and someone be like, Oh, 932 00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:03,160 Speaker 3: I fucked her, And that's the whole You can never 933 00:43:03,400 --> 00:43:05,880 Speaker 3: I'm a classy bitch, you know, with whole tendencies. 934 00:43:06,040 --> 00:43:10,640 Speaker 1: You don't know what these niggas will say. By would 935 00:43:10,640 --> 00:43:11,200 Speaker 1: have to whisper it. 936 00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:13,000 Speaker 3: They would never say it publicly, They would never say 937 00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:14,439 Speaker 3: it in front of me. They could never see. 938 00:43:14,440 --> 00:43:16,160 Speaker 1: People can't say that, Like a lot of people can't 939 00:43:16,200 --> 00:43:17,000 Speaker 1: say that they FuG me. 940 00:43:17,160 --> 00:43:20,040 Speaker 2: So that's why I'm like, I feel like the ones 941 00:43:20,040 --> 00:43:23,640 Speaker 2: that everybody fuck right, can we just call it that 942 00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:27,160 Speaker 2: because it's like, why did everybody fuck you? You gotta have 943 00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:29,919 Speaker 2: like everybody can't fuck me just one period, no matter 944 00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:33,120 Speaker 2: how slutty I can be, freaky acable, it's like everybody. 945 00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:35,960 Speaker 1: Just can't get the opportunity to FuG me. So I 946 00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:38,040 Speaker 1: would just say that that is what a hole would 947 00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:40,960 Speaker 1: be to me, Like a real hole is that? But 948 00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:43,960 Speaker 1: these these type of holes them not the ones I'm 949 00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:45,920 Speaker 1: talking about. It's just the whole I feel like ho 950 00:43:46,160 --> 00:43:48,200 Speaker 1: and it's just activities like doing it when you do 951 00:43:48,280 --> 00:43:50,120 Speaker 1: what you want when you feel like doing it, Like, 952 00:43:50,960 --> 00:43:52,279 Speaker 1: that's just what I feel like it is. 953 00:43:52,480 --> 00:43:57,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, I do what you want with your just don't. 954 00:43:57,400 --> 00:44:01,640 Speaker 1: Get STD Yeah that's if you do. Go the doctor. Yeah, 955 00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:06,040 Speaker 1: the doctor can't fix Listen. The doctor can fixed a 956 00:44:06,080 --> 00:44:08,600 Speaker 1: lot of shit at this point. Listen. If Magic Johnson 957 00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:16,120 Speaker 1: can be heard of aids, he can't never beget like 958 00:44:16,160 --> 00:44:19,120 Speaker 1: I'm passed it. No, I mean no, you can't. 959 00:44:19,680 --> 00:44:22,640 Speaker 3: Speaking of hose and pussy, you said that you recently 960 00:44:22,840 --> 00:44:25,279 Speaker 3: like started messing with girls during our trick. 961 00:44:25,360 --> 00:44:27,640 Speaker 1: No, not recently. I was gonna say ongoing thing. 962 00:44:27,840 --> 00:44:31,960 Speaker 2: Since like once you realize you liked bitches actually elementary. 963 00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:33,760 Speaker 2: I remember I had to crush on my best friend 964 00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:36,239 Speaker 2: and I was like, what's this feeling? But I didn't 965 00:44:36,239 --> 00:44:38,440 Speaker 2: act on it, of course. And then when I got 966 00:44:38,480 --> 00:44:42,360 Speaker 2: to high school, I have I tried my first lesbian 967 00:44:42,480 --> 00:44:43,440 Speaker 2: encounter scissors. 968 00:44:43,480 --> 00:44:47,160 Speaker 1: Didn't like it. No, scissor is not fun to me, girl. 969 00:44:47,160 --> 00:44:50,120 Speaker 1: I said that because every time I tried scissoring, I've 970 00:44:50,160 --> 00:44:53,520 Speaker 1: only had one successful scissoring and it was it was good, 971 00:44:53,560 --> 00:44:56,279 Speaker 1: And I was like, oh, and then I was like 972 00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:58,480 Speaker 1: the pussy moved again. Where we can and then we 973 00:44:58,480 --> 00:45:03,600 Speaker 1: couldn't find it. San that's I'm like treasure one moment 974 00:45:03,719 --> 00:45:06,239 Speaker 1: of a pussy and I was like, I can use 975 00:45:06,280 --> 00:45:10,120 Speaker 1: it as ship and I was like, well, that's the 976 00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:12,280 Speaker 1: coaches need to line up. It takes a lot of geogray. 977 00:45:12,280 --> 00:45:14,880 Speaker 1: I mean like a lot of like how often did 978 00:45:14,880 --> 00:45:17,040 Speaker 1: you did you have a successful scissor? 979 00:45:17,520 --> 00:45:20,960 Speaker 3: I feel like I've had a few successors successful scissoring encounters. 980 00:45:21,440 --> 00:45:25,360 Speaker 2: But she successful because one person always is successful. 981 00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:27,279 Speaker 1: But that's true. I don't even know if she was 982 00:45:27,640 --> 00:45:28,320 Speaker 1: a success. 983 00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:31,360 Speaker 3: I've also been in it wasn't successful for me, And 984 00:45:31,360 --> 00:45:32,959 Speaker 3: I'm like, if you don't get the fun off my bitch. 985 00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:35,319 Speaker 1: But that's why you have to fuck with flexible bitches 986 00:45:35,320 --> 00:45:37,360 Speaker 1: because I just like that. I'm like, I'm not flexible. 987 00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:40,080 Speaker 1: I'm I'm the weakling. Let me go on the bottom. 988 00:45:40,239 --> 00:45:43,759 Speaker 1: Do you like like fem women or yeat me? True? 989 00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:46,719 Speaker 1: I don't know. Every time I'm with a girl, I'm 990 00:45:46,719 --> 00:45:48,879 Speaker 1: always thinking about dick. That's the problem I do too. 991 00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:51,279 Speaker 1: I'd be like, if dig was involved, this would be great, right. 992 00:45:51,360 --> 00:45:52,960 Speaker 1: I'm like, if I could just have a bitch and 993 00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:55,719 Speaker 1: then we can agree to have like a boyfriend or 994 00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:58,239 Speaker 1: like an influx of men, then it would be good. 995 00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:01,879 Speaker 1: I've only had like a handful, like small, a small 996 00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:04,880 Speaker 1: handful of like really good threesomes where it was equal. 997 00:46:05,160 --> 00:46:08,160 Speaker 1: Bitches didn't start crying or get jealous, like it's just 998 00:46:08,200 --> 00:46:10,400 Speaker 1: like it's only been like a handful or like I 999 00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,640 Speaker 1: don't know that's why it would be sometimes, like maybe 1000 00:46:12,840 --> 00:46:15,040 Speaker 1: i'd master the art of scissoring and me and my 1001 00:46:15,080 --> 00:46:18,279 Speaker 1: bitch could have a good time like forty percent of 1002 00:46:18,320 --> 00:46:20,400 Speaker 1: the time and then the other sixty percent of time 1003 00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:22,320 Speaker 1: because I need dick. I also, I've never used a 1004 00:46:22,320 --> 00:46:24,440 Speaker 1: strap on. I've never like been strapped or used what 1005 00:46:24,600 --> 00:46:24,919 Speaker 1: I did. 1006 00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:27,080 Speaker 3: I had a strap on season. I lived in Atlanta, 1007 00:46:27,160 --> 00:46:29,400 Speaker 3: and you could never get a strap on near my 1008 00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:31,080 Speaker 3: pussy again, Like I'm cool. 1009 00:46:31,200 --> 00:46:34,480 Speaker 1: Give me a real pulsating blood flowing is it? Because 1010 00:46:34,520 --> 00:46:36,839 Speaker 1: it hurts? It kind of hurts. It's kind of stiff, right, 1011 00:46:36,880 --> 00:46:39,319 Speaker 1: it's not rubber. Yeah, I like that. I don't like 1012 00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:43,840 Speaker 1: that is rubber. Like I don't know. They haven't figured out. No, 1013 00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:45,799 Speaker 1: there's no, there's nothing going to figure out. You can't. 1014 00:46:46,520 --> 00:46:48,480 Speaker 1: They need want to to plug into a wall that 1015 00:46:48,560 --> 00:46:51,680 Speaker 1: can heat up kind of like like that can heat 1016 00:46:51,760 --> 00:46:53,320 Speaker 1: up and like just do things. 1017 00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:55,960 Speaker 3: You know, you watch it get up like it's ready baby. 1018 00:46:56,800 --> 00:47:01,480 Speaker 1: Oh unplugged. Yeah, okay. 1019 00:47:01,520 --> 00:47:04,160 Speaker 2: I feel like I was like I would just feel 1020 00:47:04,160 --> 00:47:06,239 Speaker 2: like i'd be fake lesbian, and you know it's like, 1021 00:47:06,320 --> 00:47:07,919 Speaker 2: oh shell, she calls me by fun. 1022 00:47:08,560 --> 00:47:11,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, I feel like I'm buy fun. But sh it's 1023 00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:16,640 Speaker 1: getting serious. So it was fun to then, yeah, but no. 1024 00:47:16,880 --> 00:47:19,680 Speaker 2: So I feel like my new lesbian experience was something 1025 00:47:19,760 --> 00:47:22,080 Speaker 2: I've never experienced before because I was because I have 1026 00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:24,160 Speaker 2: like a gay group, Like my best friend is gay, 1027 00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:27,960 Speaker 2: one of my managers is a definite, one hundred percent lesbian, 1028 00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:31,239 Speaker 2: my DJ is a lesbian. So I'm surrounded by you 1029 00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:38,360 Speaker 2: have big around you, yes, and so they I was like, 1030 00:47:38,400 --> 00:47:40,480 Speaker 2: it's not all it's piped up to be, Like, why 1031 00:47:40,560 --> 00:47:41,439 Speaker 2: y'all so gay? 1032 00:47:41,680 --> 00:47:44,840 Speaker 1: It's literally it's literally not all it's piped up to be. 1033 00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:51,160 Speaker 1: But then I had to do it the pipe up 1034 00:47:51,280 --> 00:47:52,799 Speaker 1: like and I was just like, wow, this has never 1035 00:47:52,840 --> 00:47:55,239 Speaker 1: happened to me before. Like the sex just like the 1036 00:47:55,520 --> 00:47:57,640 Speaker 1: companion like you like it was it was the I 1037 00:47:57,719 --> 00:47:59,680 Speaker 1: like the person, but it was like the sex was 1038 00:47:59,760 --> 00:48:01,400 Speaker 1: rand I'm been weird and it was great and I 1039 00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:05,360 Speaker 1: was like you saying, just like carping lunch, so. 1040 00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:07,360 Speaker 3: You feel like you're not looking for the penis and 1041 00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:07,880 Speaker 3: this and this. 1042 00:48:08,239 --> 00:48:09,600 Speaker 1: Yeah, it's like I didn't. 1043 00:48:09,480 --> 00:48:12,000 Speaker 2: Feel like I didn't need it, and I was like, 1044 00:48:12,080 --> 00:48:14,960 Speaker 2: this is new what you do to mean, But it's 1045 00:48:14,960 --> 00:48:18,200 Speaker 2: not the emotional connection. That's great too, It's just it 1046 00:48:18,280 --> 00:48:18,600 Speaker 2: was like. 1047 00:48:20,120 --> 00:48:24,000 Speaker 1: It's some sexual synergy energy and I was just like, oh, 1048 00:48:24,000 --> 00:48:25,319 Speaker 1: that's why, y'all gay. I feel. 1049 00:48:25,520 --> 00:48:28,319 Speaker 3: I went dickless for like maybe maybe a year or two, 1050 00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:31,480 Speaker 3: and I thought I don't need dick, and then until 1051 00:48:31,480 --> 00:48:32,000 Speaker 3: I did and I. 1052 00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:33,440 Speaker 1: Woke the funk up. Maybe it's kind of like when 1053 00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:35,720 Speaker 1: you're like a vegetarian or vegan, right and then suddenly 1054 00:48:35,760 --> 00:48:36,480 Speaker 1: like I need a steak. 1055 00:48:36,560 --> 00:48:39,319 Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, yeah, I don't know if I can go back. 1056 00:48:39,520 --> 00:48:41,640 Speaker 1: And even I told you, like me in Orlando had 1057 00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:44,640 Speaker 1: a successful three some of my homegirl, like I guess 1058 00:48:44,719 --> 00:48:48,399 Speaker 1: last weekend and that was recent. Yeah, it was good. 1059 00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:52,640 Speaker 3: It was my home. But I think maybe because I 1060 00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:55,160 Speaker 3: know the dick is coming to my bed that I'm 1061 00:48:55,160 --> 00:48:57,160 Speaker 3: not like pressed, you know, I'm just like I'm gonna 1062 00:48:57,160 --> 00:48:58,880 Speaker 3: get some dick either way. I could dick every day, 1063 00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:00,960 Speaker 3: but like if you're not getting dick every day and 1064 00:49:00,960 --> 00:49:03,319 Speaker 3: there's a dick in the room, I'm like, rah so 1065 00:49:03,480 --> 00:49:06,040 Speaker 3: and she she's She's like, where's the dick? And I 1066 00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:08,560 Speaker 3: was like, go ahead, and Babe delivered the dick. 1067 00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:10,879 Speaker 1: I don't think that I could share my deep I didn't. 1068 00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:11,360 Speaker 1: I am not. 1069 00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:13,680 Speaker 3: I didn't think so either. But it's my friend that 1070 00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:16,319 Speaker 3: I like, I trust. It's it's totally different than someone 1071 00:49:16,360 --> 00:49:17,280 Speaker 3: that you know your trust. 1072 00:49:17,320 --> 00:49:19,160 Speaker 1: I did it turn you on or did it? Just? 1073 00:49:19,840 --> 00:49:23,000 Speaker 1: What is? What was the feeling that was turned on? 1074 00:49:23,560 --> 00:49:26,040 Speaker 1: I want to know how the conversation. Hey, there was 1075 00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:29,680 Speaker 1: no conversation. I left and they started. We were drunk 1076 00:49:29,880 --> 00:49:32,120 Speaker 1: and that you know what it is. Tequila makes me 1077 00:49:32,200 --> 00:49:35,320 Speaker 1: really sexy. So I was just feeling very like feline 1078 00:49:35,400 --> 00:49:37,359 Speaker 1: like I think I was dancing. That's all my three 1079 00:49:37,440 --> 00:49:40,120 Speaker 1: someomes start. It's me dancing for everybody, like, hey. 1080 00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:46,080 Speaker 3: Guys, I might have noted some moo. It's like like 1081 00:49:46,080 --> 00:49:48,360 Speaker 3: crawling over to Orlando who's on the bean bag like 1082 00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:50,120 Speaker 3: a cat, and I was like staring at him and 1083 00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:51,480 Speaker 3: then she just came up behind me, so eat my 1084 00:49:51,480 --> 00:49:53,720 Speaker 3: pussy and I said, oh, okay, that is easy. 1085 00:49:54,040 --> 00:49:55,640 Speaker 1: No, she's let us. 1086 00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:58,000 Speaker 3: He saw her go up behind me and like kiss me, 1087 00:49:58,239 --> 00:50:00,600 Speaker 3: and then she leaned back, took a sip, and it 1088 00:50:00,719 --> 00:50:01,160 Speaker 3: went back. 1089 00:50:01,760 --> 00:50:03,720 Speaker 1: She had to prepare. She was like, hold on one second, 1090 00:50:04,040 --> 00:50:05,799 Speaker 1: and then she started my pussy and I said, oh, 1091 00:50:05,880 --> 00:50:09,080 Speaker 1: it's going down, and Orlanda was completely sober. We were 1092 00:50:09,120 --> 00:50:11,560 Speaker 1: the drunk one. That's like a movie. It was, oh, 1093 00:50:11,600 --> 00:50:14,400 Speaker 1: that's great for him. He was sober. What a beautiful experience, 1094 00:50:16,280 --> 00:50:19,960 Speaker 1: not those fucking she's sucking Asian. It's literally like a 1095 00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:21,440 Speaker 1: man's dream. Two drunk bitches. 1096 00:50:22,080 --> 00:50:23,600 Speaker 3: I call him middle night, like wake up, make us 1097 00:50:23,600 --> 00:50:24,000 Speaker 3: if we were. 1098 00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:26,960 Speaker 1: Drunk, consenting ass bitches. And then afterwards it was very nice. 1099 00:50:27,000 --> 00:50:30,600 Speaker 3: Afterwards she I was like thank you, and it ended 1100 00:50:30,640 --> 00:50:32,120 Speaker 3: because I think it's dick is too big. But then 1101 00:50:32,520 --> 00:50:34,920 Speaker 3: she was like I haven't. I really always thought you 1102 00:50:34,920 --> 00:50:36,080 Speaker 3: were hot and I wanted to hook up with you, 1103 00:50:36,120 --> 00:50:37,200 Speaker 3: but now I get to hook up with you and 1104 00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:39,160 Speaker 3: your partner. That was really nice and I was like, 1105 00:50:41,120 --> 00:50:42,359 Speaker 3: ba girl, call you later. 1106 00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:45,920 Speaker 1: That's cute. I love that experience for you. It's nice. 1107 00:50:46,360 --> 00:50:48,400 Speaker 1: I let that's how mon can go. I like an 1108 00:50:48,560 --> 00:50:51,799 Speaker 1: organic Like yeah, I like I couldn't plan it. 1109 00:50:51,920 --> 00:50:53,600 Speaker 3: Yeah, if you have a conversation then it gets weird. 1110 00:50:53,640 --> 00:50:56,319 Speaker 1: You're like, why you want to fuck me? Yeah? Right, 1111 00:50:56,440 --> 00:50:58,759 Speaker 1: why are you? Well? I think if you really feel 1112 00:50:58,800 --> 00:51:02,520 Speaker 1: safe in your relationship, than you can well that's what 1113 00:51:02,560 --> 00:51:09,279 Speaker 1: I'm No, there's there Listen, people will people no matter what. 1114 00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:12,160 Speaker 1: And it doesn't mean people are gonna be imperfect. But 1115 00:51:12,920 --> 00:51:14,680 Speaker 1: I think that, yes, you can feel safe in a 1116 00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:17,320 Speaker 1: relationship because you're not always safe either, bitch, you know 1117 00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:19,480 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like, no one is, you know, So 1118 00:51:19,520 --> 00:51:21,440 Speaker 1: it depends what that safety looks like. And if you 1119 00:51:21,520 --> 00:51:24,120 Speaker 1: know what that person's true essence is at their core, 1120 00:51:24,480 --> 00:51:26,040 Speaker 1: and that they love you and that they're never out 1121 00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:29,200 Speaker 1: to hurt you and cause you harm, you know, and 1122 00:51:29,560 --> 00:51:32,040 Speaker 1: historically they've shown that, you know. That's I mean, that's 1123 00:51:32,080 --> 00:51:34,239 Speaker 1: the key. That's the hardest shit to fine, right. I 1124 00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:36,080 Speaker 1: feel like the deeper we get in, the deeper, the 1125 00:51:36,239 --> 00:51:38,760 Speaker 1: dick and jealousy is gonna end. It's true, It's true. 1126 00:51:38,800 --> 00:51:40,600 Speaker 2: I feel like you gotta kiss me on the service 1127 00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:43,279 Speaker 2: when I don't trust you. That But the first the 1128 00:51:43,280 --> 00:51:45,839 Speaker 2: first seven, this is my dig I'm gonna get more 1129 00:51:45,880 --> 00:51:48,439 Speaker 2: bossessed about a week. I'm two weeks seeing I'm deep. 1130 00:51:49,000 --> 00:51:51,200 Speaker 2: I don't know, I feel like life is so long, 1131 00:51:51,440 --> 00:51:54,040 Speaker 2: I can't. I need we got to mix it up, 1132 00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:56,680 Speaker 2: like we're gonna have to do that. And also I 1133 00:51:56,719 --> 00:51:58,600 Speaker 2: am kind of I'm a voyeur, so I like to 1134 00:51:58,680 --> 00:52:01,880 Speaker 2: watch my man and get pleasure like that turns me on. 1135 00:52:02,120 --> 00:52:03,560 Speaker 1: See that's why I feel like I would like it. 1136 00:52:03,600 --> 00:52:05,560 Speaker 1: But when I'm in it, I'm like, I could never 1137 00:52:05,600 --> 00:52:08,000 Speaker 1: see somebody fuck you because I love you too much. Well, 1138 00:52:08,000 --> 00:52:09,360 Speaker 1: then you say like, well, it depends on what you 1139 00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:12,319 Speaker 1: let yourself think, because I think it's like, get fucked up, 1140 00:52:14,280 --> 00:52:16,520 Speaker 1: no now, because I've gotten fucked up. And then even 1141 00:52:16,520 --> 00:52:18,920 Speaker 1: in the fucked upness, I got what the fuck? I 1142 00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:19,480 Speaker 1: start to think. 1143 00:52:19,520 --> 00:52:22,439 Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't know these fucking bitches is happening here. 1144 00:52:22,480 --> 00:52:24,560 Speaker 3: But I also I think I think it's about safety 1145 00:52:24,560 --> 00:52:26,680 Speaker 3: with the person you're bringing in too, because this person 1146 00:52:26,760 --> 00:52:28,759 Speaker 3: is my friend. So I'm not thinking you're going to 1147 00:52:28,840 --> 00:52:30,719 Speaker 3: do some wax shit. And I think even when you 1148 00:52:30,719 --> 00:52:32,399 Speaker 3: feel safe, it doesn't mean that people are not gonna 1149 00:52:32,400 --> 00:52:32,799 Speaker 3: fuck up. 1150 00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:35,359 Speaker 1: People are still gonna fuck up. People are still gonna 1151 00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:36,279 Speaker 1: do things that piss you off. 1152 00:52:36,320 --> 00:52:38,440 Speaker 3: I'm not saying like, but you feel safe to know 1153 00:52:38,520 --> 00:52:40,640 Speaker 3: that like you might fuck up, but overall I think 1154 00:52:40,680 --> 00:52:42,480 Speaker 3: that you're not in some funny shit, because if you 1155 00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:44,640 Speaker 3: think that your person or your friend might be like 1156 00:52:44,719 --> 00:52:47,080 Speaker 3: a little bit funny like, then that's when you wouldn't 1157 00:52:47,120 --> 00:52:49,279 Speaker 3: do that. Or if it happens starts to come up 1158 00:52:49,320 --> 00:52:52,120 Speaker 3: in those moments, she'd be like, I don't trust these niggas, right, 1159 00:52:53,120 --> 00:52:54,880 Speaker 3: So yeah, I mean I bet I do agree on 1160 00:52:54,920 --> 00:52:58,080 Speaker 3: Forever's a long time, and it's like people are curious 1161 00:52:58,160 --> 00:52:59,399 Speaker 3: and want to fuck up with people, and I think 1162 00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:00,719 Speaker 3: it's the reality, right. 1163 00:53:00,640 --> 00:53:02,600 Speaker 1: Because it's like so hurtful. It's a side. 1164 00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:04,480 Speaker 3: I'm like, I want you to want only me for 1165 00:53:04,520 --> 00:53:06,719 Speaker 3: the rest of your fucking life. I'm the best bit 1166 00:53:06,800 --> 00:53:10,000 Speaker 3: you've ever seen. That's everything. But the truth is like 1167 00:53:10,040 --> 00:53:12,080 Speaker 3: it's not real, you know. And it's just like as 1168 00:53:12,080 --> 00:53:14,080 Speaker 3: the center, I can be adult enough to accept that, 1169 00:53:14,120 --> 00:53:17,200 Speaker 3: which I don't know if I ever will, then then 1170 00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:18,399 Speaker 3: maybe we can get past it. 1171 00:53:18,440 --> 00:53:21,520 Speaker 2: But I just feel like, no, I need to be 1172 00:53:21,800 --> 00:53:24,600 Speaker 2: that and to That's why I always I live by like, 1173 00:53:24,840 --> 00:53:26,880 Speaker 2: let's just have our moment until we both don't want 1174 00:53:26,920 --> 00:53:27,719 Speaker 2: it no more, you. 1175 00:53:27,680 --> 00:53:30,239 Speaker 1: Know, like because it is like you get tired of it. 1176 00:53:30,360 --> 00:53:32,319 Speaker 2: Yeah, stuff dies, and it's like even if it's one 1177 00:53:32,360 --> 00:53:34,399 Speaker 2: side and it's like still is what it is. So 1178 00:53:34,880 --> 00:53:37,719 Speaker 2: I would never force nothing, but I do feel like 1179 00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:39,960 Speaker 2: it's like in the moment, it does feel like forever. 1180 00:53:40,160 --> 00:53:42,839 Speaker 2: So that's like my moments are forever to me. So 1181 00:53:43,200 --> 00:53:46,200 Speaker 2: in our moment because I you know. 1182 00:53:46,200 --> 00:53:49,359 Speaker 1: Realistically, stuff don't last. You know. It's like stuff can 1183 00:53:49,440 --> 00:53:51,840 Speaker 1: last for thirty years and still don't last, you know. 1184 00:53:52,000 --> 00:53:55,560 Speaker 1: So that's a stretch. But I mean, but I. 1185 00:53:55,520 --> 00:53:58,160 Speaker 2: Would not want to be old back on the market. 1186 00:53:58,640 --> 00:54:00,520 Speaker 1: I'm just saying like either I'm like, don't need to 1187 00:54:00,560 --> 00:54:01,160 Speaker 1: have side hose. 1188 00:54:01,200 --> 00:54:04,200 Speaker 3: I's like I've got turned fifty because this is you case. 1189 00:54:04,320 --> 00:54:06,520 Speaker 2: Just in case, because like where are you? Because I 1190 00:54:06,600 --> 00:54:08,440 Speaker 2: just feel like fifty year old man? If y'all are 1191 00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:10,680 Speaker 2: still single and you're not like widowed or something. 1192 00:54:10,719 --> 00:54:13,720 Speaker 1: Is it with a male? Is it widowed too? Yes? Yes, 1193 00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:16,000 Speaker 1: I never knew. I just I think, yeah, right, I 1194 00:54:16,000 --> 00:54:19,600 Speaker 1: think I just feel like, why are you single? Because 1195 00:54:19,600 --> 00:54:21,280 Speaker 1: you the one is supposed to be marry people? 1196 00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:24,760 Speaker 3: You know, well, I do totally if you're after after 1197 00:54:24,840 --> 00:54:26,680 Speaker 3: a certain age, I mean it's not I don't like 1198 00:54:26,719 --> 00:54:28,279 Speaker 3: people say it to women and it's not great, but 1199 00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:30,239 Speaker 3: for men, if you've never been married, you don't have 1200 00:54:30,239 --> 00:54:32,680 Speaker 3: any kids, and that's really what you want, and you 1201 00:54:32,719 --> 00:54:37,240 Speaker 3: haven't been after so long. I'm always like, like, fucking 1202 00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:39,480 Speaker 3: adventure Bay. He was on this, you know, he was 1203 00:54:39,480 --> 00:54:42,200 Speaker 3: a little bit older. But after all I realized you're 1204 00:54:42,200 --> 00:54:43,960 Speaker 3: a little bit of a weirdo and that's why you've 1205 00:54:44,000 --> 00:54:45,719 Speaker 3: never got married or had any kids, even though that's 1206 00:54:45,719 --> 00:54:48,200 Speaker 3: really what you want. Is there's some other shit there, 1207 00:54:48,239 --> 00:54:50,160 Speaker 3: you know, not always the case. People just hold out 1208 00:54:50,239 --> 00:54:54,080 Speaker 3: until it's like the perfect person. But also no, I agree. 1209 00:54:54,120 --> 00:54:56,080 Speaker 1: I think it has to be just know it's gonna 1210 00:54:56,120 --> 00:54:59,320 Speaker 1: be work period, that's always. It's always gonna be evolving. 1211 00:54:59,360 --> 00:55:02,560 Speaker 1: There's gonna be c of amazingness and there's me seasons 1212 00:55:02,560 --> 00:55:05,200 Speaker 1: where it's hard, and you have to decide if that's 1213 00:55:05,200 --> 00:55:08,040 Speaker 1: the motherfucker you want to do the hardship with. Really, 1214 00:55:08,120 --> 00:55:10,200 Speaker 1: that's the biggest question. I feel like, do you want 1215 00:55:10,200 --> 00:55:12,040 Speaker 1: want to do the hardship with you? Can we do 1216 00:55:12,080 --> 00:55:14,960 Speaker 1: the hardship? Get it spicy and into man. 1217 00:55:15,160 --> 00:55:17,120 Speaker 2: Like, cause I feel like it's like you to go 1218 00:55:17,120 --> 00:55:19,399 Speaker 2: through hardships with your friends and it's like you don't 1219 00:55:19,440 --> 00:55:21,560 Speaker 2: want them to never be your friend again. So I 1220 00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:23,960 Speaker 2: do feel like it's maybe finding a friendship and someone 1221 00:55:24,040 --> 00:55:26,600 Speaker 2: too to where it's like you're losing more. You're not 1222 00:55:26,680 --> 00:55:31,280 Speaker 2: just losing a relationship sexually and all this other stuff. 1223 00:55:31,320 --> 00:55:33,040 Speaker 1: It's not just like because you're having a companion. 1224 00:55:33,160 --> 00:55:35,600 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like you're losing a person that you can't 1225 00:55:35,600 --> 00:55:38,319 Speaker 2: see yourself without. So you work through it because it's 1226 00:55:38,320 --> 00:55:40,680 Speaker 2: like you could get We walk past millions of people, 1227 00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:43,480 Speaker 2: you know, So it's like, why none of these motherfucker's 1228 00:55:43,480 --> 00:55:45,120 Speaker 2: your friends, you know what I'm saying. 1229 00:55:45,239 --> 00:55:46,480 Speaker 1: It's because you got your group. 1230 00:55:46,600 --> 00:55:48,480 Speaker 2: So it's like you work with your group, and you 1231 00:55:48,520 --> 00:55:50,920 Speaker 2: are like in tune with your group. You stay with 1232 00:55:50,960 --> 00:55:53,840 Speaker 2: your group, you know, So it's like it's your tribe. 1233 00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:57,520 Speaker 1: Yeah. So I just feel like with him, you're gonna 1234 00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:03,160 Speaker 1: walk past a million bitches. This is your try. But 1235 00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:03,680 Speaker 1: that's true. 1236 00:56:03,680 --> 00:56:05,440 Speaker 3: That's how I really feel that, And I feel the 1237 00:56:05,440 --> 00:56:07,120 Speaker 3: way in my relationship right now. I'm like, even if 1238 00:56:07,160 --> 00:56:08,680 Speaker 3: something gets on my nerves, you know what I'm saying, 1239 00:56:08,760 --> 00:56:10,160 Speaker 3: like at the end of the day and it like. 1240 00:56:10,280 --> 00:56:10,840 Speaker 1: Just fucked up. 1241 00:56:10,880 --> 00:56:13,120 Speaker 3: Whatever the thing is, it's like I've thought about there's 1242 00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:14,240 Speaker 3: I'm a cancer. 1243 00:56:14,280 --> 00:56:15,200 Speaker 1: I don't forget shit. 1244 00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:17,480 Speaker 3: I can literally think of like five times I could 1245 00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:20,680 Speaker 3: have broken over somebody like specifically, but I have to 1246 00:56:20,680 --> 00:56:22,879 Speaker 3: acknowledge that people are human and also like I would 1247 00:56:23,040 --> 00:56:25,160 Speaker 3: rather be with you than without you, and like that's 1248 00:56:25,160 --> 00:56:27,000 Speaker 3: because you're my friend, you know, and like that's true. 1249 00:56:27,080 --> 00:56:29,600 Speaker 3: We always talk about that people are so easy to 1250 00:56:29,600 --> 00:56:33,319 Speaker 3: be disposed, like disposed of romantic relationship. 1251 00:56:33,320 --> 00:56:34,480 Speaker 1: Oh no, what do we say? 1252 00:56:35,080 --> 00:56:38,480 Speaker 3: People are easily like disposed of like like friendships and 1253 00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,440 Speaker 3: they'll go back and yeah forever to a nigga that 1254 00:56:41,520 --> 00:56:43,640 Speaker 3: cheated on them or dog them out. But we're like 1255 00:56:43,680 --> 00:56:45,560 Speaker 3: for a bitch that did something, you'll be done. 1256 00:56:46,680 --> 00:56:49,680 Speaker 1: True, that's crazy. See do I've been giving my friends 1257 00:56:49,800 --> 00:56:53,040 Speaker 1: chances and chances, well not your chances, you. 1258 00:56:53,120 --> 00:56:56,200 Speaker 2: Know, like not like the are you gone? Like it's 1259 00:56:56,239 --> 00:56:58,600 Speaker 2: certain boundaries, but it's like you know you do I do. 1260 00:56:58,800 --> 00:57:01,080 Speaker 2: I give my friends chances, just like I really don't 1261 00:57:01,080 --> 00:57:02,840 Speaker 2: get niggas as many chances as I do. 1262 00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:06,880 Speaker 1: I would do my fla good. I got ego issues, 1263 00:57:06,920 --> 00:57:09,320 Speaker 1: though it's probably not that good, you know. I just 1264 00:57:09,560 --> 00:57:11,640 Speaker 1: I got prid of ego issues and it's like if 1265 00:57:11,680 --> 00:57:13,480 Speaker 1: I feel play, I think the point is to hopefully 1266 00:57:13,600 --> 00:57:16,040 Speaker 1: give each the same amount of chances I think it's 1267 00:57:16,160 --> 00:57:18,720 Speaker 1: just that one always leans heavier on the other side, 1268 00:57:18,840 --> 00:57:21,040 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Specifically usually for women that 1269 00:57:21,200 --> 00:57:23,480 Speaker 1: like men, they're gonna give those niggas a lot more 1270 00:57:23,560 --> 00:57:25,400 Speaker 1: chances than they are the women well that are not, 1271 00:57:25,680 --> 00:57:26,560 Speaker 1: you know, fucking though the. 1272 00:57:26,560 --> 00:57:28,840 Speaker 3: World gives the chances. The world tells us that men 1273 00:57:28,880 --> 00:57:30,920 Speaker 3: are men and they can they sink with their dicks. 1274 00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:33,000 Speaker 1: I don't live like that. That's why I be gone 1275 00:57:33,120 --> 00:57:35,280 Speaker 1: because thinking with your mind over here. 1276 00:57:35,520 --> 00:57:36,760 Speaker 3: Yeah, Like if you don't take with your mind, then 1277 00:57:36,760 --> 00:57:39,760 Speaker 3: you're not my niggas. So yeah, don't give me that bullshit. 1278 00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:44,960 Speaker 1: I'm curious to know about just like how you are 1279 00:57:45,040 --> 00:57:47,760 Speaker 1: able to or what has been like to be in 1280 00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:50,640 Speaker 1: an industry right because you're in you're in hip hop, 1281 00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:52,600 Speaker 1: you're in rap, Like there's a lot of men. It's 1282 00:57:52,600 --> 00:57:55,560 Speaker 1: a male dominated industry or women women are coming up 1283 00:57:55,640 --> 00:57:57,320 Speaker 1: a lot right now in hip hop. There's a lot 1284 00:57:57,360 --> 00:58:00,600 Speaker 1: of I think more than I've ever seen in my life, 1285 00:58:00,720 --> 00:58:03,480 Speaker 1: you know, of women really getting spotlight and it's not 1286 00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:07,200 Speaker 1: just like one person. What is it like like being 1287 00:58:07,240 --> 00:58:11,120 Speaker 1: in that industry? Like is are the men respectful of you? 1288 00:58:11,560 --> 00:58:11,600 Speaker 4: Like? 1289 00:58:11,880 --> 00:58:15,800 Speaker 1: Is there is there an overall respect or is there 1290 00:58:15,920 --> 00:58:19,040 Speaker 1: Like I feel like I do get respect, but I 1291 00:58:19,120 --> 00:58:19,920 Speaker 1: demand respect. 1292 00:58:20,160 --> 00:58:23,120 Speaker 2: So I just feel like it's also like a like 1293 00:58:23,240 --> 00:58:25,760 Speaker 2: a the way you walk into a room and the 1294 00:58:25,800 --> 00:58:30,120 Speaker 2: way you you know, communicate what you like who you are. 1295 00:58:30,400 --> 00:58:32,320 Speaker 2: It's like I don't feel like I ever give off green, 1296 00:58:32,760 --> 00:58:34,720 Speaker 2: Like I feel like I give off like you have 1297 00:58:34,840 --> 00:58:36,240 Speaker 2: to respect me or we not. We don't have nothing 1298 00:58:36,240 --> 00:58:38,360 Speaker 2: to talk about. Like I have a dominant energy and 1299 00:58:38,480 --> 00:58:40,560 Speaker 2: I have like a I know exactly what I want. 1300 00:58:40,600 --> 00:58:42,560 Speaker 2: I have a very strong mindset. I was raised by 1301 00:58:42,600 --> 00:58:44,520 Speaker 2: my dad, So it's like I walk in the room, 1302 00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:47,320 Speaker 2: I'm shy whatever. I kind of can just try to 1303 00:58:47,360 --> 00:58:49,440 Speaker 2: feel fill rooms out and stuff to where. But it's 1304 00:58:49,440 --> 00:58:51,000 Speaker 2: like it never gave a week. I could talk to 1305 00:58:51,040 --> 00:58:53,720 Speaker 2: her crazy, I could treat her crazy. I could nobody's 1306 00:58:53,720 --> 00:58:56,080 Speaker 2: ever treated me crazy. I could honestly say that because 1307 00:58:56,400 --> 00:58:58,960 Speaker 2: it'll get crazy in that bitch. So I feel like 1308 00:58:59,600 --> 00:59:03,720 Speaker 2: I just the industry is kind of weird. But it's 1309 00:59:03,800 --> 00:59:06,240 Speaker 2: like I just stay away from those type of people 1310 00:59:06,320 --> 00:59:09,840 Speaker 2: because I'll challenge me and like to where you're not 1311 00:59:10,080 --> 00:59:13,040 Speaker 2: about to think you won. It's just because you you 1312 00:59:13,120 --> 00:59:15,120 Speaker 2: know you're a man, and you say it this way, 1313 00:59:15,280 --> 00:59:17,280 Speaker 2: or it's just just not that don't work with me. 1314 00:59:17,440 --> 00:59:20,000 Speaker 1: So I'll say that it's like me and' respect me. 1315 00:59:20,360 --> 00:59:23,320 Speaker 1: But what about the relationship with women in the industry. 1316 00:59:23,440 --> 00:59:27,680 Speaker 1: Is there like a camaraderie there, because I'm curious because 1317 00:59:27,760 --> 00:59:31,160 Speaker 1: like I feel like before they're like back in the day, 1318 00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:32,960 Speaker 1: I would imagine there wasn't because it was literally like 1319 00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:36,120 Speaker 1: you had to fight for your position. And now it 1320 00:59:36,160 --> 00:59:37,840 Speaker 1: feels like there's a lot more women that are coming 1321 00:59:37,880 --> 00:59:40,720 Speaker 1: together and collabing in that way. But I'm curious what 1322 00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:43,840 Speaker 1: it's like as a female with other female artists in 1323 00:59:43,880 --> 00:59:45,560 Speaker 1: the industry. I feel like I don't have a high 1324 00:59:45,600 --> 00:59:49,840 Speaker 1: success right with them. She's like, nah, she's a nabags. 1325 00:59:49,840 --> 00:59:50,439 Speaker 1: Still the same. 1326 00:59:50,960 --> 00:59:54,200 Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel like when they do do this, I 1327 00:59:54,280 --> 00:59:56,040 Speaker 2: don't know. I'm not there, so I can't say that 1328 00:59:56,160 --> 00:59:58,920 Speaker 2: it's like fake. But I feel like it's like I 1329 00:59:59,000 --> 01:00:01,120 Speaker 2: feel like nobody really fucking with each other for real. 1330 01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:03,240 Speaker 2: Like I like the people that I fuck with, I 1331 01:00:03,360 --> 01:00:06,080 Speaker 2: truly genuinely fuck with them, and they truly genuinely fuck 1332 01:00:06,160 --> 01:00:07,680 Speaker 2: with me. But I do feel like it's a lot 1333 01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:09,520 Speaker 2: of I wish it was more. I always say this 1334 01:00:09,600 --> 01:00:11,280 Speaker 2: because I hate that it's a negative I had a 1335 01:00:11,360 --> 01:00:16,600 Speaker 2: negative situation, Like I hate that I have that too, 1336 01:00:16,760 --> 01:00:19,040 Speaker 2: cause it's like I'm gonna no, I'm not gonna lie 1337 01:00:19,360 --> 01:00:21,600 Speaker 2: and be like, oh yeah, girl, this girl dad cause 1338 01:00:21,600 --> 01:00:24,000 Speaker 2: I'm actually really truly a girl's girl. Like I would 1339 01:00:24,000 --> 01:00:25,760 Speaker 2: love to see us do more together. I would love 1340 01:00:25,760 --> 01:00:28,440 Speaker 2: to see us like I don't know, it's it's just 1341 01:00:28,560 --> 01:00:32,360 Speaker 2: caddy here, and I just feel like it's not much. 1342 01:00:32,400 --> 01:00:34,440 Speaker 2: It's a lot of everybody kind of just stand offish, 1343 01:00:34,720 --> 01:00:36,160 Speaker 2: but you don't got a vibe with everybody. 1344 01:00:36,200 --> 01:00:38,160 Speaker 1: But I feel like it could be a work relationship. 1345 01:00:38,160 --> 01:00:40,880 Speaker 2: You don't got to be like we in the house 1346 01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:45,520 Speaker 2: eating popcorn, the ritos. It could just be like, let's work, 1347 01:00:45,600 --> 01:00:47,720 Speaker 2: let's make good music, it's make money together. But it's 1348 01:00:47,760 --> 01:00:50,440 Speaker 2: like it's a spotlight thing. I feel like when women, 1349 01:00:51,240 --> 01:00:53,160 Speaker 2: I just feel like there's I always just wanted to 1350 01:00:53,200 --> 01:00:55,320 Speaker 2: be one in the spotlight, Like you don't want this 1351 01:00:55,480 --> 01:00:58,080 Speaker 2: person to surpass you. I've watched many of my peers 1352 01:00:58,120 --> 01:01:00,040 Speaker 2: surpassed me, but I never felt. 1353 01:01:00,720 --> 01:01:02,240 Speaker 1: Like I didn't want it not help them. 1354 01:01:02,280 --> 01:01:05,720 Speaker 2: I regret helping them where I regret posting them, Like 1355 01:01:05,800 --> 01:01:07,600 Speaker 2: I don't I feel like, yes, this is what's supposed 1356 01:01:07,600 --> 01:01:10,080 Speaker 2: to happen, Like, so I'll just be feeling like people 1357 01:01:10,120 --> 01:01:11,200 Speaker 2: are fearful of this. 1358 01:01:11,320 --> 01:01:15,000 Speaker 1: It's like people going their own right. There's no timeline 1359 01:01:15,400 --> 01:01:17,840 Speaker 1: because hopefully too, like that person that you have that 1360 01:01:17,960 --> 01:01:21,600 Speaker 1: relationship with also will pay that back for it, you know. 1361 01:01:21,680 --> 01:01:23,520 Speaker 1: And that's and that's the thing. And I think now 1362 01:01:23,760 --> 01:01:25,240 Speaker 1: because me and me live be in the space for 1363 01:01:25,280 --> 01:01:27,760 Speaker 1: a long time with our friendship and like creating spaces 1364 01:01:28,000 --> 01:01:31,080 Speaker 1: like our retreats where women come together. Oh my god, 1365 01:01:31,120 --> 01:01:32,240 Speaker 1: I just have this vision. I was like, do we 1366 01:01:32,320 --> 01:01:34,280 Speaker 1: need to like create a retreat for all the rap 1367 01:01:34,360 --> 01:01:39,240 Speaker 1: bitches to come together? And we all just like are like, okay, 1368 01:01:39,320 --> 01:01:42,960 Speaker 1: everyone's even an equal head. It'll be freestyle. CARDI, shut 1369 01:01:43,000 --> 01:01:46,200 Speaker 1: the fuck up. You know you've been doing too much lately. 1370 01:01:46,240 --> 01:01:50,000 Speaker 1: This is why, because you need to listen, sweetie. You're 1371 01:01:50,040 --> 01:01:53,880 Speaker 1: fine as hell, but you also shut the why. You know, 1372 01:01:54,000 --> 01:01:58,120 Speaker 1: she's my girl, the wrap therapist. That's unfortunate because I 1373 01:01:58,200 --> 01:02:01,080 Speaker 1: do feel like they're but you know what, the framework 1374 01:02:01,120 --> 01:02:03,200 Speaker 1: of the industry was created by men, so therefore there's 1375 01:02:03,240 --> 01:02:08,640 Speaker 1: always like this overarching like patriarchal almost like crabs in 1376 01:02:08,680 --> 01:02:10,520 Speaker 1: a barrel mentality that women have had to have in 1377 01:02:10,640 --> 01:02:14,200 Speaker 1: hip hop and then paired with just like personal shit 1378 01:02:14,280 --> 01:02:17,040 Speaker 1: you just ain't really worked through. You have traumas that 1379 01:02:17,120 --> 01:02:19,880 Speaker 1: are not resolved. You're getting a lot of attention you've 1380 01:02:19,920 --> 01:02:21,919 Speaker 1: never gotten before, and you don't know how to even 1381 01:02:21,960 --> 01:02:23,600 Speaker 1: deal with that, and you don't want it to go away, 1382 01:02:23,760 --> 01:02:25,400 Speaker 1: but you like you don't know how to keep it, 1383 01:02:25,480 --> 01:02:27,560 Speaker 1: but also you don't want her to have it. Yeah, 1384 01:02:27,560 --> 01:02:30,880 Speaker 1: I see that insecurities, Like damn, did I like well 1385 01:02:30,960 --> 01:02:33,400 Speaker 1: and then on Wells and other really be like it's 1386 01:02:33,400 --> 01:02:35,720 Speaker 1: really talented because we also come from a place where 1387 01:02:36,040 --> 01:02:38,120 Speaker 1: the music is written by a third party a lot 1388 01:02:38,160 --> 01:02:40,080 Speaker 1: of times, and so I think, of course that comes 1389 01:02:40,160 --> 01:02:42,200 Speaker 1: up if you're featured with other people, you know what 1390 01:02:42,240 --> 01:02:44,440 Speaker 1: I mean, And it's just you know, it can be 1391 01:02:44,800 --> 01:02:46,760 Speaker 1: I could. I would imagine even just like the culture 1392 01:02:46,800 --> 01:02:48,720 Speaker 1: of like you know, we want rich niggas and we're 1393 01:02:48,800 --> 01:02:52,640 Speaker 1: rich bitches and like that weird competition about no really 1394 01:02:52,840 --> 01:02:54,840 Speaker 1: like about like money and who has more and who 1395 01:02:54,880 --> 01:02:57,040 Speaker 1: has more opportunity and who's in what space and place 1396 01:02:57,200 --> 01:03:01,680 Speaker 1: like it's almost like it reminds me of like the NBA, 1397 01:03:01,880 --> 01:03:04,360 Speaker 1: Like it's like very aggressively like you guys have to 1398 01:03:04,440 --> 01:03:06,560 Speaker 1: like go against each other in ways, but also that 1399 01:03:06,680 --> 01:03:09,800 Speaker 1: it was designed to kind of like keep you guys, 1400 01:03:10,040 --> 01:03:13,680 Speaker 1: keep us separate, when really, like there's the act of 1401 01:03:13,840 --> 01:03:17,920 Speaker 1: creating music is so amazing. It's so liberating and so 1402 01:03:18,040 --> 01:03:20,120 Speaker 1: healing that you guys, what you guys do like and 1403 01:03:20,200 --> 01:03:22,920 Speaker 1: what you do for women too, like empowering women to 1404 01:03:23,040 --> 01:03:25,000 Speaker 1: like have autonomy over their body and talk about whatever 1405 01:03:25,040 --> 01:03:26,520 Speaker 1: the fuck they want and they can do whatever they 1406 01:03:26,560 --> 01:03:28,560 Speaker 1: want with it because it's theirs and that lot. I 1407 01:03:28,600 --> 01:03:31,680 Speaker 1: feel like it's more sellable when it's together. That's why 1408 01:03:31,720 --> 01:03:32,880 Speaker 1: I just I really hate it. 1409 01:03:32,920 --> 01:03:34,960 Speaker 2: It's like that, but I'm just not a person that's 1410 01:03:35,000 --> 01:03:37,200 Speaker 2: not gonna voice it because that's why I'm like, I 1411 01:03:37,200 --> 01:03:38,840 Speaker 2: don't know what other people receive. But it's like other 1412 01:03:38,880 --> 01:03:41,000 Speaker 2: females I talk too, they feel the same way, like 1413 01:03:41,200 --> 01:03:43,280 Speaker 2: they always be a girls are weird, and I'm like, oh, 1414 01:03:43,320 --> 01:03:44,880 Speaker 2: I'm not the only one that think that. So it's 1415 01:03:44,960 --> 01:03:47,280 Speaker 2: like it's now it's a more spoken thing for me 1416 01:03:47,360 --> 01:03:50,520 Speaker 2: because it's like I just truly wanted to be like 1417 01:03:50,640 --> 01:03:52,680 Speaker 2: I just want it to be normal. Like I will 1418 01:03:52,760 --> 01:03:55,440 Speaker 2: post my peers like on my main page, like if 1419 01:03:55,480 --> 01:03:57,560 Speaker 2: I like something, I'm gonna post it. But so what 1420 01:03:57,640 --> 01:04:00,920 Speaker 2: I've taught myself is for these people, these are probably 1421 01:04:01,000 --> 01:04:03,160 Speaker 2: just not my people. So I'm just because at first 1422 01:04:03,200 --> 01:04:05,120 Speaker 2: I was shutting down, like I ain't helping no other 1423 01:04:05,200 --> 01:04:07,920 Speaker 2: bitch y'all got me fucked up. But like now I'm like, 1424 01:04:07,960 --> 01:04:09,640 Speaker 2: I'm gonna continue to pull people up because that's what 1425 01:04:09,680 --> 01:04:11,680 Speaker 2: I would want people to do for me. Like, you know, 1426 01:04:12,320 --> 01:04:14,600 Speaker 2: so I pull people up that don't have as much 1427 01:04:14,720 --> 01:04:17,480 Speaker 2: going on as me and stuff versus like looking at 1428 01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:19,800 Speaker 2: who's not supporting who's not. It's like I'm a supportive 1429 01:04:19,840 --> 01:04:21,960 Speaker 2: person truly. So I'm like, I'm gonna just keep on 1430 01:04:22,120 --> 01:04:23,920 Speaker 2: trying to help bitches because that's what I like to do. 1431 01:04:24,240 --> 01:04:26,160 Speaker 2: Like so I just I took that out of my mind, 1432 01:04:26,280 --> 01:04:29,120 Speaker 2: like the negativity and the feedback that I get, you know, 1433 01:04:29,200 --> 01:04:30,520 Speaker 2: and I'm just like, you know, I'm gonna keep on, 1434 01:04:30,760 --> 01:04:33,160 Speaker 2: like I'll be hopping on songs with girls that you 1435 01:04:33,280 --> 01:04:37,040 Speaker 2: know that's talented to me, that don't have five hundred 1436 01:04:37,040 --> 01:04:39,640 Speaker 2: thousand followers, Like I'm still you know what I'm saying, 1437 01:04:39,680 --> 01:04:41,960 Speaker 2: Like I feel like you're talented, you can go somewhere. 1438 01:04:42,080 --> 01:04:43,920 Speaker 2: So that's just my that's just my thing. That's why 1439 01:04:43,960 --> 01:04:46,040 Speaker 2: I tell myself, like, keep doing it, girl, don't let 1440 01:04:46,120 --> 01:04:48,240 Speaker 2: that shoot you down, because that's why I always start 1441 01:04:48,320 --> 01:04:51,080 Speaker 2: back from zero, because you get fed up. It's like whatever, 1442 01:04:51,360 --> 01:04:54,120 Speaker 2: I'm blessed, I might as well, you know, keep. 1443 01:04:54,800 --> 01:04:57,960 Speaker 1: Using other people. M m yeah, you keep paying afford. 1444 01:04:58,000 --> 01:04:59,800 Speaker 1: I think that'll think. I think it takes just a 1445 01:05:00,200 --> 01:05:03,440 Speaker 1: person and another person, another person to shift the energy. 1446 01:05:03,520 --> 01:05:05,880 Speaker 1: And I think the energy in that space is already changing, 1447 01:05:06,040 --> 01:05:08,600 Speaker 1: just the fact that more women are getting attention, and like, 1448 01:05:08,760 --> 01:05:11,680 Speaker 1: I'm interested to see how it starts to shift because 1449 01:05:11,720 --> 01:05:15,840 Speaker 1: I think that I believe in us. I believe that women, 1450 01:05:15,960 --> 01:05:19,680 Speaker 1: we can We are often the change makers in those 1451 01:05:19,720 --> 01:05:24,120 Speaker 1: type of spaces and situations. So hopefully you know that 1452 01:05:24,240 --> 01:05:28,560 Speaker 1: can change. Because it's music, it's entertainment. It's such a blessing. 1453 01:05:28,640 --> 01:05:30,120 Speaker 1: It's such a gift that you guys get to do. 1454 01:05:30,400 --> 01:05:32,360 Speaker 1: It's so fun and it's so like easy going. 1455 01:05:32,400 --> 01:05:35,120 Speaker 2: It's the most laid back thing, and it's like it's 1456 01:05:35,240 --> 01:05:37,720 Speaker 2: over complicated, but really it's like, let's just make some fun, 1457 01:05:37,840 --> 01:05:40,160 Speaker 2: you say, and get millions. 1458 01:05:40,040 --> 01:05:42,320 Speaker 3: And shake ass and we all on yachts, right, Like 1459 01:05:42,400 --> 01:05:43,000 Speaker 3: why would we not? 1460 01:05:44,200 --> 01:05:46,280 Speaker 1: Can you just write like, can we just get on 1461 01:05:46,360 --> 01:05:48,640 Speaker 1: a jet, Like I just get on the jet and 1462 01:05:48,680 --> 01:05:50,280 Speaker 1: make the song and do the things we can make 1463 01:05:50,320 --> 01:05:55,120 Speaker 1: this dope playing these games. Just love to see camaraderie, 1464 01:05:55,280 --> 01:05:57,200 Speaker 1: and now it's like why not give it to them? 1465 01:05:57,240 --> 01:05:59,480 Speaker 1: It sucks that sometimes it's like the fans and stuff 1466 01:05:59,480 --> 01:06:03,720 Speaker 1: are deprived the collabs because in the background it's so stupid. 1467 01:06:03,760 --> 01:06:05,840 Speaker 1: It's like so much money out here to get Like 1468 01:06:05,920 --> 01:06:07,760 Speaker 1: they will eat that shit. They love it every time. 1469 01:06:07,800 --> 01:06:09,000 Speaker 1: They be like, oh my god, I just love this 1470 01:06:09,080 --> 01:06:12,080 Speaker 1: and I love that, you know, so what if and 1471 01:06:12,200 --> 01:06:13,440 Speaker 1: women need it, We need it right now. 1472 01:06:13,480 --> 01:06:15,160 Speaker 3: I really liked an interview you were saying that, like, 1473 01:06:16,400 --> 01:06:19,320 Speaker 3: male rappers always talk about women's bodies and are always 1474 01:06:19,360 --> 01:06:21,440 Speaker 3: sexualizing us, but when we do it, when we say 1475 01:06:21,440 --> 01:06:22,400 Speaker 3: it to ourselves. 1476 01:06:22,080 --> 01:06:24,560 Speaker 1: And it's like, oh no, they know, like body, they 1477 01:06:24,600 --> 01:06:28,160 Speaker 1: know they pussy fie the house. Oh no, right, you 1478 01:06:28,200 --> 01:06:32,080 Speaker 1: can talk about me and I can't talk about me, 1479 01:06:32,200 --> 01:06:36,880 Speaker 1: but you That's totally fine, totally acceptable. But it's true. 1480 01:06:36,920 --> 01:06:38,600 Speaker 3: But I think this is the age and the era, 1481 01:06:38,840 --> 01:06:40,720 Speaker 3: Like I always say this of the women of like 1482 01:06:40,920 --> 01:06:44,080 Speaker 3: of the empowered women, and that we are we're really 1483 01:06:44,160 --> 01:06:46,840 Speaker 3: understanding and learning our power and our sex and are 1484 01:06:47,040 --> 01:06:49,120 Speaker 3: just like in our in our speaking, in our words, 1485 01:06:49,200 --> 01:06:52,360 Speaker 3: it's a frequency. And so like you giving people the power, 1486 01:06:52,440 --> 01:06:55,040 Speaker 3: the three O fos and everybody in between, what do 1487 01:06:55,120 --> 01:06:57,840 Speaker 3: we call them, the profess the non professional, and the 1488 01:06:57,920 --> 01:07:01,160 Speaker 3: professional hopes, you know, like it's giving an energy to 1489 01:07:01,240 --> 01:07:02,120 Speaker 3: the world that we need. 1490 01:07:02,240 --> 01:07:03,000 Speaker 1: We need that confidence. 1491 01:07:03,040 --> 01:07:05,800 Speaker 3: We need that to remind ourselves that we're worthy, even 1492 01:07:05,920 --> 01:07:08,760 Speaker 3: after things happen to us. We're worthy, you know, even 1493 01:07:08,760 --> 01:07:11,640 Speaker 3: if we talk about our pussies online, we're worthy if 1494 01:07:11,680 --> 01:07:13,640 Speaker 3: we you know, we're worthy as long as we're in 1495 01:07:13,720 --> 01:07:15,440 Speaker 3: tune with our power and our pussies. And I think 1496 01:07:15,520 --> 01:07:18,720 Speaker 3: as the world wakes up and hopefully women come together 1497 01:07:18,840 --> 01:07:20,640 Speaker 3: in that we can kind of take our power back 1498 01:07:20,640 --> 01:07:24,360 Speaker 3: because I think for a long time men have kind 1499 01:07:24,440 --> 01:07:28,560 Speaker 3: of tried to keep us under, like you know, like 1500 01:07:28,640 --> 01:07:30,200 Speaker 3: a big beneath our power ring. 1501 01:07:30,240 --> 01:07:32,160 Speaker 1: Like we're this lift. And now I feel like women 1502 01:07:32,240 --> 01:07:36,040 Speaker 1: are making more money than we're just going in and 1503 01:07:36,120 --> 01:07:38,120 Speaker 1: taking it, you know, like they'll try and try you 1504 01:07:38,200 --> 01:07:40,560 Speaker 1: and give you less money and some corporate shit. But 1505 01:07:40,960 --> 01:07:43,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna go call my homegirl and be like, how 1506 01:07:43,120 --> 01:07:45,000 Speaker 1: much do they pay for this? Oh? That's crazy because 1507 01:07:45,000 --> 01:07:46,880 Speaker 1: they're trying to give me nothing, and that's also the 1508 01:07:46,960 --> 01:07:49,360 Speaker 1: power we create or they build their community and their 1509 01:07:49,400 --> 01:07:52,560 Speaker 1: community pays them, you know what I mean, like not 1510 01:07:52,680 --> 01:07:56,000 Speaker 1: relying on this Like no, my fans or my listeners 1511 01:07:56,160 --> 01:07:58,800 Speaker 1: or the people in my tribe will support what I 1512 01:07:58,960 --> 01:08:00,720 Speaker 1: do because of what I are off for them, you 1513 01:08:00,760 --> 01:08:02,920 Speaker 1: know what I mean? I don't. Yeah, so I think 1514 01:08:03,000 --> 01:08:05,400 Speaker 1: I think that's so true. I have a question before 1515 01:08:05,400 --> 01:08:06,440 Speaker 1: we get out of here, because we have a few 1516 01:08:06,440 --> 01:08:08,280 Speaker 1: more We have a few more questions. Obviously we need 1517 01:08:08,360 --> 01:08:12,240 Speaker 1: to get to the hoary because I'm really interested if 1518 01:08:12,240 --> 01:08:16,000 Speaker 1: you haven't it and affirmation, But before that, I wanted 1519 01:08:16,040 --> 01:08:19,800 Speaker 1: to know, like what is the perfect environment that you 1520 01:08:19,880 --> 01:08:22,479 Speaker 1: need to be in to like write like a song, 1521 01:08:22,600 --> 01:08:24,679 Speaker 1: and like what is your favorite song that you've written? 1522 01:08:25,479 --> 01:08:27,880 Speaker 2: I would say my favorite song that I've written this 1523 01:08:28,040 --> 01:08:32,840 Speaker 2: join them because I had writer's block and that was 1524 01:08:33,280 --> 01:08:34,760 Speaker 2: that was a I was like, you know what, I 1525 01:08:34,880 --> 01:08:36,479 Speaker 2: know what I could do because you know, like sometimes 1526 01:08:36,560 --> 01:08:39,160 Speaker 2: you write creatively, like you don't write like specifically like 1527 01:08:39,240 --> 01:08:41,360 Speaker 2: what's going on right now. It's like sometimes you just 1528 01:08:41,439 --> 01:08:44,639 Speaker 2: pull things and like you say witty, cute, fun shit, 1529 01:08:44,760 --> 01:08:47,479 Speaker 2: like disrespectful shit. But then it's sometimes it's like it's 1530 01:08:47,560 --> 01:08:50,240 Speaker 2: like your exact story. So I was like, you know what, 1531 01:08:50,680 --> 01:08:52,559 Speaker 2: I'm right about all the niggas I'm fucking with right now. 1532 01:08:52,880 --> 01:08:54,200 Speaker 2: So I put them all in one song and I 1533 01:08:54,320 --> 01:08:57,360 Speaker 2: talked about them all and that is people favorite shit. 1534 01:08:57,520 --> 01:09:00,360 Speaker 2: I was like, yes, it's like I say, join them 1535 01:09:00,400 --> 01:09:02,360 Speaker 2: if you can't beat them, Like with niggas cheating, I 1536 01:09:02,439 --> 01:09:04,880 Speaker 2: can't risk that the nigga cheating, So I'll say join 1537 01:09:04,960 --> 01:09:05,880 Speaker 2: them if you can't beat them. 1538 01:09:06,000 --> 01:09:08,320 Speaker 1: So that's what the whole premise of the song was. 1539 01:09:08,920 --> 01:09:11,439 Speaker 1: But I would say that's my favorite in and I 1540 01:09:11,439 --> 01:09:14,200 Speaker 1: would say my my perfect like studio stasion. It's just 1541 01:09:14,280 --> 01:09:14,799 Speaker 1: like a hookah. 1542 01:09:14,920 --> 01:09:17,280 Speaker 2: My friends are there having a couple of shots and 1543 01:09:17,479 --> 01:09:20,880 Speaker 2: just like saying whatever comes to my mind. Like I 1544 01:09:21,000 --> 01:09:23,760 Speaker 2: find myself like writing with pressure, and I was trying 1545 01:09:23,760 --> 01:09:26,080 Speaker 2: to eliminate that factor because when I first started writing, 1546 01:09:26,160 --> 01:09:28,479 Speaker 2: it was like so much more free because I heard 1547 01:09:28,479 --> 01:09:31,519 Speaker 2: you were an uber driver lyft driver or uber eats 1548 01:09:31,600 --> 01:09:36,800 Speaker 2: right and writing while you're running around yup? So yeah, 1549 01:09:36,920 --> 01:09:39,840 Speaker 2: So I used to write only in the car because 1550 01:09:40,120 --> 01:09:41,639 Speaker 2: I was I told you I was a hot head 1551 01:09:41,640 --> 01:09:43,080 Speaker 2: and I couldn't smoke in my dad's house, so I 1552 01:09:43,080 --> 01:09:44,920 Speaker 2: would go in my car, I would smoke, I'll play beats, 1553 01:09:44,920 --> 01:09:47,519 Speaker 2: and I would write amazing shit. So it's like I 1554 01:09:47,560 --> 01:09:49,559 Speaker 2: feel like I write really well in like a tight 1555 01:09:49,800 --> 01:09:53,160 Speaker 2: small space. But I also feel like now. 1556 01:09:53,240 --> 01:09:55,960 Speaker 1: I write in it. Now it's like a job to me. 1557 01:09:56,200 --> 01:09:58,200 Speaker 2: So it's like I go to work, so I don't 1558 01:09:58,200 --> 01:10:00,000 Speaker 2: write as much at home, which is something I wrote 1559 01:10:00,120 --> 01:10:01,880 Speaker 2: Join them at home though that I was like, my 1560 01:10:02,040 --> 01:10:04,519 Speaker 2: best shit be at the house. I'm trying to go 1561 01:10:04,600 --> 01:10:06,880 Speaker 2: back into that. But yeah, just hookah and vibes. Just 1562 01:10:07,240 --> 01:10:09,160 Speaker 2: I need to have a clear mental space. I cannot 1563 01:10:09,160 --> 01:10:11,559 Speaker 2: be emotional, like I learned that about myself. I can't 1564 01:10:11,600 --> 01:10:15,479 Speaker 2: be happy mad. I can't be sad mad or you know, 1565 01:10:15,760 --> 01:10:17,200 Speaker 2: like super emotional. I have to be in a good 1566 01:10:17,240 --> 01:10:18,360 Speaker 2: has but like, I have to be happy. 1567 01:10:18,960 --> 01:10:22,400 Speaker 3: So I've read that you were having writer's block. You 1568 01:10:22,439 --> 01:10:23,320 Speaker 3: took a year off. 1569 01:10:24,240 --> 01:10:25,800 Speaker 1: That was at the beginning because I didn't know what 1570 01:10:25,880 --> 01:10:26,600 Speaker 1: writer's block was. 1571 01:10:26,920 --> 01:10:28,760 Speaker 3: And then what made you know to be like, let 1572 01:10:28,800 --> 01:10:29,960 Speaker 3: me take a break, let me step away for a 1573 01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:30,760 Speaker 3: minute and then come back. 1574 01:10:30,960 --> 01:10:36,559 Speaker 1: I didn't know. I actually wit, Yeah, I was my friend. 1575 01:10:37,160 --> 01:10:39,320 Speaker 1: Try again. I was like, I don't know how to try. 1576 01:10:40,160 --> 01:10:42,640 Speaker 1: I'm not good anymore. I lost my juice. Yeah, I 1577 01:10:42,720 --> 01:10:44,960 Speaker 1: think a lot of people creatives can relate to that. Really, 1578 01:10:44,960 --> 01:10:46,720 Speaker 1: I have felt that way too, Like in my right 1579 01:10:46,800 --> 01:10:48,800 Speaker 1: when I was writing a lot, like I literally felt 1580 01:10:48,800 --> 01:10:53,759 Speaker 1: like I creatively blocked completely, like and I couldn't explain 1581 01:10:53,760 --> 01:10:55,840 Speaker 1: it to anyone. I would cry about it, like damn, 1582 01:10:56,040 --> 01:10:57,920 Speaker 1: like what the fuck? Yeah, I cried about it. And 1583 01:10:58,000 --> 01:10:59,800 Speaker 1: then you get insecure, and then you just don't even 1584 01:10:59,800 --> 01:11:02,639 Speaker 1: want to like perform at all because you just I suck, 1585 01:11:03,200 --> 01:11:05,639 Speaker 1: you know. I was like, who that little ride is over? 1586 01:11:05,760 --> 01:11:08,320 Speaker 1: It was quick, but you do During the year nothing, 1587 01:11:08,360 --> 01:11:09,800 Speaker 1: I was like trying to figure out my life. I 1588 01:11:09,880 --> 01:11:11,200 Speaker 1: was like, I ain't a rapping on my what else 1589 01:11:12,080 --> 01:11:14,280 Speaker 1: was the thing that, like, I guess gave me the 1590 01:11:14,360 --> 01:11:15,360 Speaker 1: confidence to come back. 1591 01:11:15,600 --> 01:11:20,240 Speaker 2: Nicki Minaj's documentary and it's like she's so passionate about 1592 01:11:20,280 --> 01:11:23,760 Speaker 2: her her music, like that's just something that she loved. 1593 01:11:23,800 --> 01:11:25,960 Speaker 1: You could tell like she's an artist that she takes 1594 01:11:26,040 --> 01:11:28,880 Speaker 1: it serious, like she loves music. So I was watching 1595 01:11:28,960 --> 01:11:30,920 Speaker 1: her documentary and I was like, damn god, I want 1596 01:11:30,960 --> 01:11:35,479 Speaker 1: to be a rapper too. I am still a rapper, 1597 01:11:35,600 --> 01:11:36,920 Speaker 1: but like, what's going on? 1598 01:11:37,040 --> 01:11:40,360 Speaker 2: So I literally cried, and when I cried, I pray 1599 01:11:40,520 --> 01:11:42,280 Speaker 2: and I spoke it up and I was like, I 1600 01:11:42,360 --> 01:11:43,880 Speaker 2: want to do this, like this is the only thing 1601 01:11:44,320 --> 01:11:47,040 Speaker 2: that I felt. I felt passion for it, like I 1602 01:11:47,080 --> 01:11:49,160 Speaker 2: couldn't find my passion. And then when I figured out 1603 01:11:49,160 --> 01:11:51,080 Speaker 2: I could rap, I was like, I really like this. 1604 01:11:51,320 --> 01:11:53,639 Speaker 1: This is fun to me. Because I was doing poetry, 1605 01:11:53,680 --> 01:11:54,799 Speaker 1: I wanted to be a therapist. 1606 01:11:54,840 --> 01:11:58,000 Speaker 2: It's like I've always wanted this type like away with words, 1607 01:11:58,160 --> 01:12:00,320 Speaker 2: helping people type of things. So I was like, this 1608 01:12:00,439 --> 01:12:02,479 Speaker 2: is so perfect for me, Like why can I do 1609 01:12:02,600 --> 01:12:04,960 Speaker 2: it anymore? When I say, y'all wrote an entire makes 1610 01:12:05,000 --> 01:12:05,679 Speaker 2: type in two. 1611 01:12:05,560 --> 01:12:09,000 Speaker 1: Weeks and put it out and it was up from there. Wow. 1612 01:12:09,240 --> 01:12:11,360 Speaker 1: But that's that's the beauty of art, right. 1613 01:12:11,439 --> 01:12:14,160 Speaker 3: It's like art begets art and so just you watched 1614 01:12:14,200 --> 01:12:16,920 Speaker 3: a film about a rapper and like, but there's you know, 1615 01:12:16,960 --> 01:12:18,120 Speaker 3: even when I was a kid, there was times I 1616 01:12:18,120 --> 01:12:20,559 Speaker 3: would watch like emotional movies and or like certain certain 1617 01:12:20,600 --> 01:12:23,479 Speaker 3: pieces of art, and that shit sparks something in me 1618 01:12:23,560 --> 01:12:26,080 Speaker 3: because there's this connection that like when you produce and 1619 01:12:26,160 --> 01:12:29,800 Speaker 3: birth something like it's going to automatically inspire more art, 1620 01:12:29,840 --> 01:12:31,880 Speaker 3: you know, And like that's why when it's inside of 1621 01:12:31,920 --> 01:12:33,439 Speaker 3: you and you feel like it's what you're supposed to do, 1622 01:12:33,760 --> 01:12:35,720 Speaker 3: there's that fire that keeps bringing you back to it. 1623 01:12:36,000 --> 01:12:38,200 Speaker 3: And that's why we literally need to birth the art 1624 01:12:38,240 --> 01:12:41,679 Speaker 3: because it's inspiring generations and other people and other neighbors 1625 01:12:41,760 --> 01:12:43,240 Speaker 3: to like birth the same shit. 1626 01:12:43,320 --> 01:12:46,519 Speaker 1: It's like a it's like a a wildfire that has 1627 01:12:46,600 --> 01:12:50,200 Speaker 1: to continue to be, you know, like to rage because 1628 01:12:50,320 --> 01:12:52,200 Speaker 1: or else without it, we can't inspire the next people. 1629 01:12:52,240 --> 01:12:56,680 Speaker 1: And like, well we'll lose the fire. Yep. Yeah. I 1630 01:12:56,760 --> 01:12:59,040 Speaker 1: think about what I went to see Beyonce and I 1631 01:12:59,280 --> 01:13:02,519 Speaker 1: was I, I've I've always liked Beyonce. They be hYP 1632 01:13:02,560 --> 01:13:05,719 Speaker 1: don't come for me, but I wasn't like crazy about Beyonce. 1633 01:13:05,960 --> 01:13:08,240 Speaker 1: And then I went to her concert, not this recent one, 1634 01:13:08,280 --> 01:13:10,280 Speaker 1: it was like a few years ago, and I remember 1635 01:13:10,520 --> 01:13:14,760 Speaker 1: it like ignited me. I was like, hold the fuck up. Wait, 1636 01:13:15,240 --> 01:13:17,479 Speaker 1: first of all, bitch, you're amazing. Second of all, I'm 1637 01:13:17,520 --> 01:13:19,960 Speaker 1: fucking It like inspired me to be like, bitch, do 1638 01:13:20,040 --> 01:13:22,360 Speaker 1: you know who you are? Like it just gave you, 1639 01:13:22,640 --> 01:13:25,519 Speaker 1: It gave me just like it just evoked this this 1640 01:13:25,800 --> 01:13:27,960 Speaker 1: energy out of me that had been dormant, that I 1641 01:13:28,040 --> 01:13:30,400 Speaker 1: thought had died that I didn't know how to reignite 1642 01:13:30,520 --> 01:13:33,840 Speaker 1: like by myself anymore. I needed that that switch, you know, 1643 01:13:34,240 --> 01:13:37,519 Speaker 1: that that burst of energy. And I would say, like, 1644 01:13:37,640 --> 01:13:41,200 Speaker 1: after that experience, like we were and we were starting 1645 01:13:41,240 --> 01:13:42,960 Speaker 1: to do our show, but like I felt that energy 1646 01:13:43,080 --> 01:13:45,320 Speaker 1: carry with me into like what I was doing here 1647 01:13:45,920 --> 01:13:48,880 Speaker 1: and so and that's what I'm saying, like women, women 1648 01:13:49,160 --> 01:13:52,360 Speaker 1: inspiring one another, women coming together and being able to 1649 01:13:52,479 --> 01:13:56,439 Speaker 1: ignite each other, support each other, awaken the dead parts 1650 01:13:56,479 --> 01:13:58,760 Speaker 1: of ourselves that were like, no, bitch, you got that. 1651 01:13:58,880 --> 01:14:01,840 Speaker 1: It's unbelievable how I'm you feel. It's so weird, Like 1652 01:14:01,880 --> 01:14:04,400 Speaker 1: you never think that a concert could you could take 1653 01:14:04,479 --> 01:14:06,599 Speaker 1: something away from it like that, because it's like if 1654 01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:09,280 Speaker 1: you think about her whole setup, it's like, how like 1655 01:14:10,320 --> 01:14:12,840 Speaker 1: how much time did you have to put into this 1656 01:14:13,000 --> 01:14:15,160 Speaker 1: and be so strict by yourself and like make this 1657 01:14:15,280 --> 01:14:16,320 Speaker 1: whole thing come about? 1658 01:14:16,560 --> 01:14:19,479 Speaker 2: Like you really had to care about what you wanted 1659 01:14:19,520 --> 01:14:21,360 Speaker 2: to do to get to this, and it's just like 1660 01:14:21,479 --> 01:14:23,040 Speaker 2: it just it does make you confident, It make you 1661 01:14:23,080 --> 01:14:24,519 Speaker 2: feel like you're on top of the world, too, will 1662 01:14:24,520 --> 01:14:25,920 Speaker 2: make you feel like, wow, I'm watching her do what 1663 01:14:26,000 --> 01:14:26,320 Speaker 2: I could do. 1664 01:14:26,400 --> 01:14:29,960 Speaker 3: It an energy harvesting that happens if you're like willing 1665 01:14:30,080 --> 01:14:32,160 Speaker 3: to absorb the energy. And it doesn't even have to 1666 01:14:32,240 --> 01:14:33,760 Speaker 3: be the same art, you know what I mean, Like 1667 01:14:34,080 --> 01:14:37,400 Speaker 3: we podcasts, but we make visuals and we write books 1668 01:14:37,560 --> 01:14:39,400 Speaker 3: and like you know, and we talked, which is also 1669 01:14:39,439 --> 01:14:42,360 Speaker 3: an art, but like it's just the frequency of putting 1670 01:14:42,439 --> 01:14:44,599 Speaker 3: something out and letting it go to the public. 1671 01:14:44,720 --> 01:14:50,200 Speaker 1: That really well, cheers to us being artists, Ladies to 1672 01:14:50,400 --> 01:14:57,760 Speaker 1: us creating energy, sound and experiences and hopefully awakening a 1673 01:14:57,800 --> 01:14:59,840 Speaker 1: few of your hosts. Your host need to be a 1674 01:15:00,360 --> 01:15:02,080 Speaker 1: and hopefully when some of you holds are gonna waken 1675 01:15:02,200 --> 01:15:03,920 Speaker 1: me too, because there's still parts of me that I 1676 01:15:03,960 --> 01:15:06,720 Speaker 1: have no our dormant that needs to be unlocked. And 1677 01:15:06,800 --> 01:15:12,240 Speaker 1: that's the journey of it all every day. So with 1678 01:15:12,439 --> 01:15:14,680 Speaker 1: that said, do you have an affirmation maybe you can 1679 01:15:14,720 --> 01:15:18,720 Speaker 1: share with the guests. Go to a Beyonce concert. Go 1680 01:15:18,960 --> 01:15:23,000 Speaker 1: to a Beyonce concert, change your life? 1681 01:15:23,920 --> 01:15:28,040 Speaker 2: I would say, I, okay, Well, I just am a 1682 01:15:28,200 --> 01:15:30,599 Speaker 2: very confident person and sometimes I just have to tell 1683 01:15:30,680 --> 01:15:33,920 Speaker 2: myself like what I can do versus what I can't 1684 01:15:33,960 --> 01:15:36,600 Speaker 2: do or how hard something is, and I always just 1685 01:15:36,640 --> 01:15:39,840 Speaker 2: tell myself anything is possible, anything that I can, like 1686 01:15:40,320 --> 01:15:42,720 Speaker 2: believe in my head that I can do. Obviously, it's 1687 01:15:42,720 --> 01:15:44,600 Speaker 2: a plan that can go on to play to execute it. 1688 01:15:44,880 --> 01:15:46,680 Speaker 2: So I would just say, just be confident in what 1689 01:15:46,840 --> 01:15:50,479 Speaker 2: you Just be confident in who you think that you 1690 01:15:50,760 --> 01:15:53,439 Speaker 2: could be. If that makes sense, Like you have to 1691 01:15:53,479 --> 01:15:56,639 Speaker 2: It starts there. It starts when an idea. So I anything, 1692 01:15:56,680 --> 01:15:57,360 Speaker 2: it's possible. 1693 01:15:58,920 --> 01:15:59,439 Speaker 1: It's a fact. 1694 01:15:59,520 --> 01:16:02,360 Speaker 3: Though, It's like as soon as you start believing it, 1695 01:16:02,439 --> 01:16:04,000 Speaker 3: then all the anything's because. 1696 01:16:03,760 --> 01:16:06,040 Speaker 1: I see it. When I saw fucking Beyones, I was like, 1697 01:16:06,120 --> 01:16:09,240 Speaker 1: anything's possible, bitch, Like this is crazy. Look at this, 1698 01:16:09,360 --> 01:16:10,840 Speaker 1: Look what you've created. Look at it. And I was 1699 01:16:10,880 --> 01:16:13,400 Speaker 1: then I was looking at the crowd and like how 1700 01:16:13,520 --> 01:16:17,240 Speaker 1: mesmerized and like how it takes such a unique person 1701 01:16:17,720 --> 01:16:22,200 Speaker 1: who has really unlocked, unawoken parts of themselves that they're 1702 01:16:22,240 --> 01:16:26,760 Speaker 1: able to kind of attract and like captive, captivate, keep 1703 01:16:26,800 --> 01:16:29,960 Speaker 1: the attention of this many people we're all and create 1704 01:16:30,000 --> 01:16:32,760 Speaker 1: this energy because we're all on the same energy, you know. 1705 01:16:33,439 --> 01:16:37,000 Speaker 1: I was like, God, damn, it's is amazing we are. 1706 01:16:40,360 --> 01:16:43,280 Speaker 1: Do you have a horry. Once I'm was dating this 1707 01:16:43,439 --> 01:16:48,000 Speaker 1: guy and then I found out he was dating his girl. 1708 01:16:49,080 --> 01:16:51,400 Speaker 1: That ain't there, Horry. I just was like, I needed 1709 01:16:51,479 --> 01:16:54,360 Speaker 1: to see what it was about if I wanted to see, 1710 01:16:54,479 --> 01:16:57,080 Speaker 1: like why y'all date and why we date? Okay, So 1711 01:16:57,200 --> 01:17:01,160 Speaker 1: I talked to her too, behind his back. It eventually 1712 01:17:01,280 --> 01:17:02,800 Speaker 1: I eventually told him, But. 1713 01:17:02,840 --> 01:17:04,479 Speaker 3: You pursued her knowing that she was talking to him 1714 01:17:04,920 --> 01:17:07,040 Speaker 3: to see what the thing, what the hype was about? 1715 01:17:08,200 --> 01:17:10,040 Speaker 1: I did. Did you see what the hype was about? 1716 01:17:10,040 --> 01:17:14,240 Speaker 1: It was hype? Okay, you know what, nigga, I get it, 1717 01:17:14,400 --> 01:17:16,160 Speaker 1: I get it. I got a good job. Did you 1718 01:17:16,200 --> 01:17:20,439 Speaker 1: have empathy? No? Did you? Did you bust them both? Like? 1719 01:17:20,520 --> 01:17:22,479 Speaker 1: Did she know he was dating you? No? It wasn't 1720 01:17:22,560 --> 01:17:24,360 Speaker 1: like a It wasn't that. It was just like me 1721 01:17:24,520 --> 01:17:26,720 Speaker 1: being delusional. You just like, it's my man. 1722 01:17:26,880 --> 01:17:27,720 Speaker 4: It was man. 1723 01:17:28,400 --> 01:17:30,080 Speaker 1: But I was just like I just I sometimes I 1724 01:17:30,200 --> 01:17:32,320 Speaker 1: just challenge myself to see what I can what I 1725 01:17:32,400 --> 01:17:32,600 Speaker 1: could do. 1726 01:17:32,840 --> 01:17:35,560 Speaker 3: Was he upset when you told him? No, he was 1727 01:17:35,600 --> 01:17:36,760 Speaker 3: trying to get get in on it. 1728 01:17:36,880 --> 01:17:38,720 Speaker 1: No, he wasn't. I think we were kind of over 1729 01:17:38,800 --> 01:17:41,400 Speaker 1: by then. That's a good one. I never that's pretty 1730 01:17:41,439 --> 01:17:43,720 Speaker 1: some g ship. That is some I kind of did 1731 01:17:43,760 --> 01:17:46,000 Speaker 1: a couple of times in my life. It's like a thing, 1732 01:17:48,760 --> 01:17:52,000 Speaker 1: is that your toxic trait? I think, and then you 1733 01:17:52,040 --> 01:17:53,680 Speaker 1: were fuck her right. Let me see what the same 1734 01:17:53,760 --> 01:17:56,080 Speaker 1: president pool with you? Pool like, I just let me 1735 01:17:56,160 --> 01:17:58,960 Speaker 1: Who's I'm gonna win? You want to another bitch? Why 1736 01:17:59,000 --> 01:18:00,519 Speaker 1: you fucking me? Let me see it? Let me see 1737 01:18:00,560 --> 01:18:02,720 Speaker 1: what this is about. Oh my god, I'm not mad 1738 01:18:02,760 --> 01:18:06,960 Speaker 1: at that. Okay. So you pulled the Three of swords 1739 01:18:07,960 --> 01:18:09,560 Speaker 1: and this what was the question you asked when you 1740 01:18:09,600 --> 01:18:12,400 Speaker 1: pulled it? You said this is gonna be my person 1741 01:18:12,560 --> 01:18:15,160 Speaker 1: or something? No, because I was so curious, Like I've said, 1742 01:18:15,200 --> 01:18:16,920 Speaker 1: I'm in love at it two weeks and I got 1743 01:18:17,000 --> 01:18:23,960 Speaker 1: a damned heart. M oh no, okay, but let's the cards. 1744 01:18:24,160 --> 01:18:27,120 Speaker 1: There's usually a deeper meaning. But upright. These are descriptive 1745 01:18:27,120 --> 01:18:30,880 Speaker 1: scriptors heartbreak, emotional pain, sorrow, grief, hurt. 1746 01:18:31,560 --> 01:18:32,639 Speaker 3: It may be about different relations. 1747 01:18:32,720 --> 01:18:34,639 Speaker 1: When the Three of Swords turns up into tariot reading, 1748 01:18:34,680 --> 01:18:36,840 Speaker 1: it signals that you are feeling deeply hurt and disappointed. 1749 01:18:36,920 --> 01:18:38,880 Speaker 1: Your heart has been pierced by the sharp blades of 1750 01:18:39,000 --> 01:18:42,320 Speaker 1: others hurtful words, actions, and intentions, and they have inflicted 1751 01:18:42,360 --> 01:18:46,400 Speaker 1: intense emotions or pains, sadness, grief, and heartbreak. These events 1752 01:18:46,400 --> 01:18:48,680 Speaker 1: are These events are often unexpected and come out of 1753 01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:51,320 Speaker 1: the blue, making them even more painful. The Three of 1754 01:18:51,400 --> 01:18:53,880 Speaker 1: Swords is also about an emotional release. When you have 1755 01:18:53,960 --> 01:18:58,599 Speaker 1: suffered a major A major, does you just resonate you've 1756 01:18:58,640 --> 01:19:02,479 Speaker 1: suffered a major? Way to go now? It is an 1757 01:19:02,479 --> 01:19:07,400 Speaker 1: excellent time to have a good cry. Maybe maybe you've 1758 01:19:07,439 --> 01:19:09,439 Speaker 1: been holding some stuff in and you just haven't allowed 1759 01:19:09,439 --> 01:19:13,840 Speaker 1: yourself to just no. Okay, Well, however, it is also 1760 01:19:14,000 --> 01:19:16,439 Speaker 1: essential that you continue to focus on the path ahead. 1761 01:19:16,479 --> 01:19:18,200 Speaker 1: You may run the risk of becoming so absorbed in 1762 01:19:18,200 --> 01:19:21,040 Speaker 1: the emotions swirling around you that you lose sight. I 1763 01:19:21,080 --> 01:19:22,680 Speaker 1: don't know who this spitch is, but it might have 1764 01:19:22,760 --> 01:19:26,040 Speaker 1: to end and I don't know. You need to just 1765 01:19:26,200 --> 01:19:28,479 Speaker 1: let go and move on. Your focus day is locked 1766 01:19:28,520 --> 01:19:31,360 Speaker 1: on the damage when it should be in recovery. It's 1767 01:19:31,400 --> 01:19:34,840 Speaker 1: a reminder that pain, sorrow, and grief are necessary part 1768 01:19:34,880 --> 01:19:37,759 Speaker 1: of life. Without pain, you would never experience the challenges 1769 01:19:37,760 --> 01:19:41,400 Speaker 1: you need to grow and develop as a person. We 1770 01:19:41,520 --> 01:19:44,599 Speaker 1: did get into it yesterday. It was make the fifth argument. Okay, 1771 01:19:44,720 --> 01:19:48,400 Speaker 1: this is not a weeks it's like two and five. 1772 01:19:50,520 --> 01:19:53,120 Speaker 1: A lot of argument coming off this beach. But you know, 1773 01:19:53,360 --> 01:19:55,599 Speaker 1: I just told the story about the affron guy, about 1774 01:19:55,800 --> 01:19:58,120 Speaker 1: the thing, and you saw said it was a bad idea. 1775 01:19:58,720 --> 01:20:01,799 Speaker 3: This is a sound honey, say it should have one argument. 1776 01:20:01,880 --> 01:20:03,920 Speaker 2: Maybe why would I just pull a random card and 1777 01:20:04,040 --> 01:20:05,360 Speaker 2: y'all got out a random d egg? 1778 01:20:05,439 --> 01:20:07,880 Speaker 1: Look, this is the now stage. Why would I that 1779 01:20:07,960 --> 01:20:09,400 Speaker 1: have nothing to do with nothing, That has nothing to 1780 01:20:09,439 --> 01:20:12,280 Speaker 1: do with nothing? Maybe that talking about my eggs? See 1781 01:20:12,360 --> 01:20:14,880 Speaker 1: out anyway? Okay, well maybe that. Maybe I need to 1782 01:20:14,920 --> 01:20:16,760 Speaker 1: get cry about him. No, but I did feel pain. 1783 01:20:16,920 --> 01:20:19,519 Speaker 1: She made me feel severe pain, like a day and 1784 01:20:19,560 --> 01:20:20,040 Speaker 1: a half ago. 1785 01:20:20,240 --> 01:20:22,920 Speaker 3: Okay, well, I'm gonna say I think I think it's 1786 01:20:22,960 --> 01:20:24,760 Speaker 3: too early to be causing any severe pain. 1787 01:20:25,240 --> 01:20:28,479 Speaker 1: It was so severe I almost lost sleep almost. 1788 01:20:29,120 --> 01:20:32,439 Speaker 3: This seems like a red flag. We were working through 1789 01:20:32,479 --> 01:20:35,080 Speaker 3: people at this point. People are still pretending and being nice. 1790 01:20:35,520 --> 01:20:38,080 Speaker 1: But I said, don't get used to the pain. I said, 1791 01:20:38,160 --> 01:20:40,200 Speaker 1: that's the thing. I think that's I think it's backwards. 1792 01:20:40,240 --> 01:20:42,559 Speaker 1: I feel like it's just starts to where you're figuring 1793 01:20:42,600 --> 01:20:43,800 Speaker 1: it out and then it get nice. 1794 01:20:43,880 --> 01:20:46,360 Speaker 2: Because why wouldy'all lie at the beginning? Why is everything perfect? 1795 01:20:46,439 --> 01:20:48,360 Speaker 2: Nothing's perfect? So why is it so perfect? 1796 01:20:48,960 --> 01:20:51,080 Speaker 1: People are generally lying. They just want to put their 1797 01:20:51,080 --> 01:20:53,439 Speaker 1: best foot forward. They really think this is the new version. 1798 01:20:53,520 --> 01:20:55,640 Speaker 1: I messed before were putting the real foot forward. And 1799 01:20:55,760 --> 01:20:57,680 Speaker 1: that's what I think it's. I think it's gonna I 1800 01:20:57,760 --> 01:21:00,639 Speaker 1: think it's gonna be perfect. Okay, well I update y'all. 1801 01:21:01,080 --> 01:21:06,240 Speaker 1: I'm I'm gonna text you the group chat. Well anyway, Ken, 1802 01:21:06,360 --> 01:21:09,040 Speaker 1: thank you so much for joining us. Can you let 1803 01:21:09,080 --> 01:21:11,720 Speaker 1: the people know where they can find you and if 1804 01:21:11,760 --> 01:21:13,840 Speaker 1: you have anything else you need to just you know, 1805 01:21:14,400 --> 01:21:19,920 Speaker 1: let's expose exposed. It's a winner. 1806 01:21:21,080 --> 01:21:23,800 Speaker 2: But no, I would just say thank you to y'all 1807 01:21:23,920 --> 01:21:26,519 Speaker 2: for having me. I just say thank you to my 1808 01:21:26,640 --> 01:21:29,800 Speaker 2: supporters and you can follow me everywhere. I'm KINDOMN I. 1809 01:21:29,880 --> 01:21:31,400 Speaker 1: A M k N t h G m A N 1810 01:21:33,479 --> 01:21:35,759 Speaker 1: And you know where to find us. 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