WEBVTT - McDonald's Anyone? feat. Mark Macdonald 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:02.760 For everybody who doesn't follow me on social media. I'm 0:00:02.759 --> 0:00:05.800 announcing my new stand up tour. It's called Vaccinated and 0:00:05.840 --> 0:00:10.560 a Horny. That's referring to me and I have some dates. 0:00:10.720 --> 0:00:13.280 We have a pre sale that is on sale right now. 0:00:13.560 --> 0:00:17.280 If it's still the pre sale, the password is horny 0:00:17.440 --> 0:00:19.799 to get tickets. If you miss the pre sale, just 0:00:19.800 --> 0:00:21.680 go get your tickets. I'm coming to a city near you. 0:00:21.720 --> 0:00:25.400 I'm coming everywhere, you guys, everywhere. So I'm really excited 0:00:25.600 --> 0:00:28.880 and I can't wait to see everybody. So there's that. 0:00:29.920 --> 0:00:33.080 Here we are on another beautiful, sunny, glorious Californian too 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:36.000 hot day, Brandon. I know it's really warming up quickly. 0:00:36.159 --> 0:00:40.520 It's hot because global warming is happening and a California 0:00:40.520 --> 0:00:44.400 seems to be melting. No, you're gonna be fucked because 0:00:44.440 --> 0:00:47.199 there will be no ice left now. There's no ice left, 0:00:47.200 --> 0:00:48.600 by the way, the ice in the fridge weaves that 0:00:48.640 --> 0:00:51.599 weird taste in your mouth in the main al. Yeah, yeah, 0:00:51.600 --> 0:00:53.479 it's a problem with I know. Can you mention how 0:00:53.479 --> 0:00:57.720 disappointed I am? Very Yeah, it's getting very, very hot, 0:00:57.760 --> 0:01:00.200 and I don't like the heat. I don't like it 0:01:00.280 --> 0:01:02.200 when it's hot hot. People think l A is like 0:01:02.520 --> 0:01:05.000 some paradise, but it's much hotter than it used. People 0:01:05.040 --> 0:01:08.360 forget that it's basically a dessert here. Yes, it's a desert, 0:01:08.360 --> 0:01:11.640 you're right. I forget that. I that it's like tropical. No, 0:01:11.760 --> 0:01:14.720 it's sucking hot. Yeah, and everything is brown and arid. 0:01:15.120 --> 0:01:17.039 I want on a hike the other day, and I 0:01:17.040 --> 0:01:21.560 wanted Sarah Silverman's and it's brown. Everything is brown, brown, brown, 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:25.119 brown brown. There's no lush greenery, even though I always 0:01:25.120 --> 0:01:27.000 forget to California is the desert, and I think of 0:01:27.040 --> 0:01:29.800 it as green because everywhere I live because they bring 0:01:29.840 --> 0:01:34.600 the greenery in and then it's so expensive to maintain. Yeah, right, right, unbelievable. 0:01:35.360 --> 0:01:37.160 I'm having a diet coke right now, you guys. I 0:01:37.160 --> 0:01:39.399 couldn't help my donald's. Yeah, I had to, you guys. 0:01:39.400 --> 0:01:42.000 I had a really really late night last night, so 0:01:42.200 --> 0:01:46.160 we did stop at McDonald's muffin. I got a sausage McMuffin, 0:01:46.360 --> 0:01:47.960 which I love and I haven't had one since I've 0:01:47.960 --> 0:01:51.200 been home, sweetheart, and hash brown, which I just want 0:01:51.200 --> 0:01:53.440 to smash my face into. That's how delicious it is. 0:01:53.480 --> 0:01:55.960 So I like to get a sausage, egg and cheesewick muffin, 0:01:56.160 --> 0:01:59.800 the hot cakes and two hash Brown's. That's my hangover 0:01:59.840 --> 0:02:04.400 me hot cakes. Yes, they're pancakes, taste cake. I don't 0:02:04.400 --> 0:02:07.520 give a ship about pancakes. I don't care. I don't. 0:02:08.600 --> 0:02:10.160 I don't think I've had a pancake. We're going to 0:02:10.240 --> 0:02:12.320 have one. Oh no, no, no. I don't care about pancakes. 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:15.800 Maybe blueberry if they were stuffed with blueberries. But I 0:02:15.800 --> 0:02:18.320 don't care about pancakes at all. I don't want French toes. 0:02:18.320 --> 0:02:20.720 I don't want pancakes. I want eggs and cheese and 0:02:20.800 --> 0:02:23.560 like fry. You know, is when you get as sweet 0:02:23.600 --> 0:02:25.960 craving you have to have like you will scour the 0:02:26.000 --> 0:02:28.959 house for anything sweet, But I default to sweet. I 0:02:28.960 --> 0:02:31.880 don't care about. My favorite chocolates are called Toby Tobin's 0:02:31.880 --> 0:02:35.520 and they're dark, dark chocolate, sea salt on them, and 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:38.600 Brandon has a box of them for me at the 0:02:38.600 --> 0:02:41.240 house all the time, and he hides them because I 0:02:41.280 --> 0:02:44.560 can't control myself. But they have these. They're so fucking good. 0:02:44.720 --> 0:02:48.639 They make this turtle. Any of their nutted chocolates, don't 0:02:48.680 --> 0:02:51.480 say nutted, Oh my god, they nutted chocolates, any of 0:02:51.480 --> 0:02:54.280 their chocolates Turtle. By the way, when you're talking about chocolate, well, 0:02:54.280 --> 0:02:57.000 they're best the Nutcluster. They're best that I've had is 0:02:57.000 --> 0:03:00.639 their Rocky Road. It is delic But did you tell 0:03:00.680 --> 0:03:02.120 the woman that I just want the ones with the 0:03:02.200 --> 0:03:04.399 nuts in that? Yes? I sent an email, But why 0:03:04.400 --> 0:03:06.200 does she keep giving me the ones that? Because they're 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:08.480 pre their boxes. So the boxes that we get are 0:03:08.480 --> 0:03:11.239 predetermined because they come in different sizes and they have 0:03:11.440 --> 0:03:13.440 the chocolates that they put in those boxes, so they're 0:03:13.440 --> 0:03:15.680 made up and ready to go. So I let her 0:03:15.680 --> 0:03:19.120 know that we wanted to customize a Chelsea Handler. Yeah, yeah, 0:03:19.160 --> 0:03:21.640 I think it's time that priority. She knows I'm like 0:03:21.680 --> 0:03:24.720 her best probably your best customer in town. She's very grateful. 0:03:24.760 --> 0:03:28.359 She sends very nice messages. She loves nay Hi Toby. 0:03:28.400 --> 0:03:31.040 I should follow chuck her out at the Malibu Country Mart. 0:03:31.200 --> 0:03:33.839 You will not regret it. Oh wait, is that where 0:03:33.840 --> 0:03:35.960 she is in Malibu? Yeah, they moved from Brentwood. They're 0:03:35.960 --> 0:03:39.600 in Malibu now. Their stores really cute. I really just 0:03:39.640 --> 0:03:43.560 want weed update. Well, this is week for Weed. This 0:03:43.600 --> 0:03:46.680 is week four, Brandon. I'm losing track. Well because you've 0:03:46.720 --> 0:03:49.840 done so well. There's not been any issues. Really, you've 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:52.119 not lost it, Okay. I'm just I thought it would 0:03:52.160 --> 0:03:54.160 be more excited that I was able to accomplish four 0:03:54.160 --> 0:03:57.400 weeks of no Pianovius smoking, and I don't feel excited. 0:03:57.440 --> 0:04:00.200 I'm just like, okay, well you have strong will hour. 0:04:00.440 --> 0:04:02.440 So I think that's part of it too, that it 0:04:02.600 --> 0:04:04.960 really for me, at least from the outside, it was 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:06.600 never going to be that much of a feat because 0:04:06.880 --> 0:04:09.200 you've done it before, you could do it again, and 0:04:09.240 --> 0:04:11.720 it's not like heroin or crack. We're like, oh my god, 0:04:11.720 --> 0:04:13.720 I have to have this, like get through my day. 0:04:13.800 --> 0:04:15.720 It was a nice booster. But now you're gonna be 0:04:15.760 --> 0:04:18.039 able to enjoy it again and it won't take you 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:21.240 twenty five milligrams to feel high, right exactly. So yeah, 0:04:21.320 --> 0:04:23.200 I'll be lightheaded. I have to be very careful about 0:04:23.200 --> 0:04:25.200 my intake. I'm gonna start micro doosing up two point 0:04:25.200 --> 0:04:28.839 five milligrams. Yeah, just just start. I'm just gonna start 0:04:28.880 --> 0:04:32.080 all over again. Just pretend it's all over again, like 0:04:32.120 --> 0:04:35.560 your weed virgin. You know. I think I'm just done 0:04:35.600 --> 0:04:37.640 with it, Like I want to smoke now. It's like, okay, 0:04:37.680 --> 0:04:39.760 I did it. I showed you, Okay, but I was 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:41.960 at my girlfriend's the other night and it was hard 0:04:42.000 --> 0:04:44.599 because there were people smoking joints and I was like, wow, 0:04:44.640 --> 0:04:46.400 I really want one, and I just had to literally 0:04:46.400 --> 0:04:48.760 walk away. So you're getting the weed cravings now, well 0:04:48.800 --> 0:04:50.599 it's not. No, it wasn't the weed craving. It was 0:04:50.640 --> 0:04:52.880 like the social aspect of it. I wanted to be 0:04:52.960 --> 0:04:55.760 part of it, but you wanted to get stones, you know, 0:04:55.880 --> 0:04:59.200 like I wanted to be like stoney baloney, but with people. Yeah, 0:04:59.400 --> 0:05:01.520 because there are times people will do it on their 0:05:01.520 --> 0:05:04.640 back patio by themselves. Some brand just sent me a 0:05:04.720 --> 0:05:07.200 huge thing of new joints. So as soon as I 0:05:07.240 --> 0:05:09.440 break this, that's where I'm headed. That's nice to have 0:05:09.480 --> 0:05:11.960 that to look forward to. Yeah. Blazy lazy something they're 0:05:12.000 --> 0:05:16.120 called lazy Susan. Is it blaze Susan? Thank you, Lazy Susan. 0:05:16.640 --> 0:05:19.359 Speaking of cravings, do you have cravings when you get stoned? 0:05:19.360 --> 0:05:22.360 Because you often talk about women get the muncheese, and 0:05:22.400 --> 0:05:24.080 I always associate that, like I feel like I have 0:05:24.120 --> 0:05:26.560 pregnancy cravings when I'm stoned. I always kind of want 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:28.719 the same things. You have, things that you go to, 0:05:28.920 --> 0:05:33.880 like McDonald's del taco. Obviously, I love McDonald's breakfast if 0:05:33.920 --> 0:05:37.960 I'm hungover, So that's a morning morning tree. You wouldn't 0:05:37.960 --> 0:05:40.080 have that at night when No, no, no, they don't 0:05:40.120 --> 0:05:43.400 serve breakfast at more civilized that they do. This is 0:05:43.920 --> 0:05:46.520 this is a new development for for you maybe, but 0:05:46.560 --> 0:05:49.680 they actually started doing all day breakfast probably like two 0:05:49.760 --> 0:05:52.799 years ago. So now you can get your sausagea McMuffin, 0:05:52.920 --> 0:05:56.360 your hotcakes, which discussed you, but really excite me at 0:05:56.400 --> 0:05:59.080 any time, so it may be a good late night. No. No, 0:05:59.200 --> 0:06:00.680 I'm going to just keep out where it is in 0:06:00.720 --> 0:06:02.560 my head because I don't need to add anything else 0:06:02.600 --> 0:06:05.160 to my repertoire. I don't have anything in the house 0:06:05.200 --> 0:06:07.280 that's even fun to eat except for my Toby Tobe 0:06:07.279 --> 0:06:09.760 and chocolate. So even when I get stoned, I don't 0:06:09.800 --> 0:06:12.200 it's not about the food because there's nothing there. I 0:06:12.240 --> 0:06:15.560 have turkey, and I have tomatoes, and I have egg 0:06:15.600 --> 0:06:19.480 whites and chocolate. Well, you really do yourself a service 0:06:19.480 --> 0:06:21.560 in that way by keeping everything very clean in the house. 0:06:21.600 --> 0:06:24.240 But there's nothing worse than when you are stoned and 0:06:24.320 --> 0:06:27.520 you really want something, And well, what about if you're 0:06:27.560 --> 0:06:29.600 me and you don't even know how to operate Postmates, 0:06:29.600 --> 0:06:31.400 and so you're really stoned and you do want a 0:06:31.480 --> 0:06:36.600 meal and you can't even do it. You know, benitos tacos, 0:06:36.640 --> 0:06:39.040 that's a good one. Last time I got really stoned, 0:06:39.640 --> 0:06:41.240 I made leave I drive to get it because it 0:06:41.680 --> 0:06:43.760 was out of the delivery zone. And that's he knew 0:06:43.800 --> 0:06:47.440 I needed it badly. Fry taco shells and the reason 0:06:47.520 --> 0:06:51.240 why they're so delicious. So they have like carnitas and 0:06:51.279 --> 0:06:54.520 then they have beef shredded. It's all, and they have 0:06:54.560 --> 0:06:57.120 the chicken. But at that point you might as well 0:06:57.120 --> 0:06:59.719 just go for it because it's dipped in oil and fried. 0:06:59.720 --> 0:07:02.239 It's like you're not trying to get chicken over beef. 0:07:02.240 --> 0:07:03.880 At that point, you might as well just get the 0:07:03.920 --> 0:07:08.039 cancer straight away. I v it. As you can see 0:07:08.040 --> 0:07:10.800 by that part of the conversation that we have some 0:07:10.880 --> 0:07:16.000 unhealthy habits, but also I've been on this nutritional I 0:07:16.040 --> 0:07:18.440 really do hate using the word journey now that it's 0:07:18.440 --> 0:07:21.160 been set up that we shouldn't be using it. Sometimes 0:07:21.160 --> 0:07:22.720 it's the only word that works well. We need to 0:07:22.760 --> 0:07:25.200 come up with a replacement word then, because journey is 0:07:25.280 --> 0:07:28.480 just is too it's overused and it's I can't this 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:31.640 nutrition experience. I don't know how that works either, but 0:07:31.680 --> 0:07:34.800 anyways of it maybe. Yeah, so we haven't healthy happits. 0:07:34.800 --> 0:07:38.440 We're going to talk to our nutritionist Mark today. We're 0:07:38.440 --> 0:07:41.880 gonna talk about some body image issues, things that we 0:07:41.920 --> 0:07:45.080 all seemingly he's done with. Yeah, he's been my nutritionist 0:07:45.120 --> 0:07:46.440 since I was I think the first time I saw 0:07:46.480 --> 0:07:49.520 him was when I was twenty seven and forty six, 0:07:49.560 --> 0:07:51.240 so I've known him for twenty years and Brandon's have 0:07:51.280 --> 0:07:53.120 recently got on the band wagon with him as well. 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:55.880 It's a good way to engage in like healthy clean 0:07:56.040 --> 0:07:58.920 eating and living, and it kind of reframes your logic 0:07:58.960 --> 0:08:01.200 around food and the way you kind of think about 0:08:01.240 --> 0:08:03.800 what you're putting into your body. He always talks about 0:08:03.840 --> 0:08:07.880 food as fuel and I'm like, oh, shut up, but 0:08:08.000 --> 0:08:10.720 it's so true. It's like it is fuel. Like Larry 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:13.400 David had a quote where he said, whatever you're eating, 0:08:13.480 --> 0:08:15.800 it is either helping to keep you alive or helping 0:08:15.840 --> 0:08:20.000 to kill you. And I think that's that's really interesting. Well, 0:08:20.040 --> 0:08:23.040 today we're going to have people calling in writing in 0:08:23.640 --> 0:08:27.680 about body dysmorphia. We have an interesting submission about being 0:08:27.720 --> 0:08:30.640 a gluttonist, someone who has really unhealthy eating habits. And 0:08:30.680 --> 0:08:32.200 I'm like that, I have that, I have. I have 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:34.760 aspects of my personality that are gluttonous. If I have 0:08:34.800 --> 0:08:36.640 a piece of food in my car, it ends up 0:08:36.640 --> 0:08:38.800 in between my legs, stuck to my jeans. I watched 0:08:38.800 --> 0:08:40.720 a video the other day of this woman saying about 0:08:40.760 --> 0:08:43.200 her you know, eating habits, being gluttonous, and that she 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:46.600 will verbally tell herself these are here, I don't need 0:08:46.640 --> 0:08:48.439 to eat them all in this sitting like you can 0:08:48.440 --> 0:08:51.120 come back for these, It's okay to put them away. 0:08:51.280 --> 0:08:54.280 And as simple as that sounds like, I would eat 0:08:54.280 --> 0:08:57.680 an entire fucking bag or container of oreos, thinking like 0:08:57.720 --> 0:08:59.640 who else is going to eat these before I get 0:08:59.640 --> 0:09:01.959 back to them? So, yeah, I don't like finishing things 0:09:02.000 --> 0:09:03.439 like that. I don't. I'm not going to finish a 0:09:03.520 --> 0:09:06.200 container of oreos like that. That doesn't make me. Then 0:09:06.240 --> 0:09:08.800 I'm like, WHOA, I fucking lost the plot. Yeah, and 0:09:08.840 --> 0:09:10.600 that's a lot of my life, so I gotta get 0:09:11.040 --> 0:09:13.200 on track. Yeah. Well, I guess that's that's why you 0:09:13.240 --> 0:09:14.720 just don't get it. You don't have it around. If 0:09:14.720 --> 0:09:16.960 you don't have it around, it does work that way, 0:09:17.400 --> 0:09:18.960 I'm not gonna have something in my kitchen that I'm 0:09:19.000 --> 0:09:22.160 not going to eat or demolish when I'm you know, weak, 0:09:22.440 --> 0:09:24.360 I get it. Well, let's take a quick break and 0:09:24.360 --> 0:09:28.439 then we will get into these submissions. So our first 0:09:28.440 --> 0:09:32.240 emission comes from Aramb She is twenty six, and she 0:09:32.320 --> 0:09:34.959 writes in Dear Chelsea, I have being diagnosed with body 0:09:35.000 --> 0:09:37.840 dysmorphia and an eating disorder, and short, I hate my 0:09:37.840 --> 0:09:40.720 body despite the fact that my body is technically considered 0:09:40.720 --> 0:09:45.199 desirable or ideal by the American beauty standards. I work out, 0:09:45.360 --> 0:09:47.800 eat healthy, wear clothes I like, but I can't find 0:09:47.840 --> 0:09:52.360 anything that helps. How can I learn to love my body? Yeah? God, 0:09:52.440 --> 0:09:54.480 it's really hard to love your body. I didn't start 0:09:54.520 --> 0:09:56.120 loving my body until I was like in my forties, 0:09:56.160 --> 0:09:58.240 and obviously everybody knows because I can't keep my top on. 0:09:58.760 --> 0:10:01.880 But body dysmorphia just so common among women. It's really 0:10:01.920 --> 0:10:05.360 really disenchanting to hear how many women struggle with positive 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:08.880 body image and have eating disorders before you entered your 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:11.000 forties and started to love your body. We're able to 0:10:11.040 --> 0:10:14.000 embrace your body before that. Much healthier about my body 0:10:14.040 --> 0:10:16.080 positivity now than I was when I was in my twenties, 0:10:16.120 --> 0:10:19.800 I had antraxianer vosa. You know, when you exercise exceedingly 0:10:20.000 --> 0:10:22.040 after you eat, just to burn all the calories. It's 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:23.199 kind of like what you have right now, that's what 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:27.200 And I had that. And I would go jogging for 0:10:27.360 --> 0:10:30.040 a minimum hour, possibly two hours every day, depending on 0:10:30.080 --> 0:10:32.120 how much I weigh that morning. I still weid myself 0:10:32.160 --> 0:10:33.679 every day, you know, because you packed me with a 0:10:33.679 --> 0:10:36.000 scale and report back. Yeah, And I let you know 0:10:36.240 --> 0:10:38.800 because the weight could be an indicator of my mood. 0:10:38.960 --> 0:10:40.920 It could really dictate my day. Like if I was 0:10:40.920 --> 0:10:42.920 going to be in a good mood, I was this way. 0:10:43.000 --> 0:10:44.960 If I was in a bad mood, it's three pounds heavier. 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:49.280 Really really embarrassing stuff to even have to admit, you know, 0:10:49.320 --> 0:10:51.000 and so you don't admit it. You kind of hide 0:10:51.040 --> 0:10:53.520 it the whole time. I definitely went through a bollimic 0:10:53.600 --> 0:10:56.000 stage where I threw up for a while in my twenties, 0:10:56.040 --> 0:10:58.040 and that kind of drifted probably for the full decade 0:10:58.040 --> 0:11:00.280 of my twenties. I was just like, oh, I'll throw 0:11:00.320 --> 0:11:01.840 it up, Like you know, I had no regard for 0:11:01.880 --> 0:11:04.760 my well being, and so I finally just dawned on 0:11:04.800 --> 0:11:06.480 me that I have to actually be physically fit and 0:11:06.520 --> 0:11:08.560 strong and like I want to be, because you know, 0:11:08.600 --> 0:11:12.040 bliemia messes with your mental alacrity, like you become foggy 0:11:12.400 --> 0:11:15.319 obviously because you're depriving yourself of all the nutrients needed. Well. 0:11:15.400 --> 0:11:18.480 So much of this is also the media's representation of women, 0:11:18.480 --> 0:11:21.200 and I think that right now there's a real course 0:11:21.200 --> 0:11:25.040 correction happening where there are active participants in media trying 0:11:25.080 --> 0:11:28.079 to represent women accurately in appropriately so they don't feel 0:11:28.080 --> 0:11:31.160 this burden. But men also feel this way, and I 0:11:31.160 --> 0:11:34.480 don't know that's something men obviously don't speak about often 0:11:34.520 --> 0:11:38.360 amongst themselves, amongst each other, but there's definitely especially around 0:11:38.480 --> 0:11:40.360 l a you see it. It's embodied with these men 0:11:40.360 --> 0:11:43.000 who spend hours upon hours in the gym, or are 0:11:43.040 --> 0:11:46.000 so particular about their lifestyle habits, so they don't really 0:11:46.000 --> 0:11:49.040 give themselves leeway to enjoy life because they are so 0:11:49.120 --> 0:11:52.480 strict on their meal plans and their diet regimen and 0:11:52.520 --> 0:11:56.160 their exercise program. So I think that everyone struggles with 0:11:56.200 --> 0:11:58.920 this to some degree, but women certainly get the brunt 0:11:59.000 --> 0:12:02.960 of trying to make maintain an unachievable standard yeah, and Rum, 0:12:03.040 --> 0:12:05.520 you have to, like, it is your responsibility to get 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:08.040 yourself healthy during this time. And even though that seems 0:12:08.040 --> 0:12:10.960 like you're climbing up a massive mountain, it is so 0:12:11.000 --> 0:12:13.839 important for you to get yourself together now. So whether 0:12:13.920 --> 0:12:18.880 that's like positive affirmations or meditating or you know, seeking counseling, Like, 0:12:19.120 --> 0:12:21.320 you have to get yourself out of this habit because 0:12:21.320 --> 0:12:24.240 it's just a rut and you are the only person 0:12:24.280 --> 0:12:26.080 who has the power to do it, and someone's not 0:12:26.080 --> 0:12:28.240 going to come along and be like you have to stop. Well, 0:12:28.360 --> 0:12:31.800 Rom's on the phone, so let's tell me that. When 0:12:31.800 --> 0:12:37.160 I was talking Hi Ram, Hi, Rom, you look like 0:12:37.200 --> 0:12:40.319 a Disney princess. Yeah, you're adorable. Oh my gosh, wow, 0:12:40.520 --> 0:12:42.800 thank you. Yeah. Did you get to hear anything of 0:12:42.840 --> 0:12:46.400 what I just said. No, we were just talking about 0:12:46.440 --> 0:12:49.760 how common this is. First of all, right, everyone deals 0:12:49.800 --> 0:12:52.000 with this. Like I was just talking about my personal 0:12:52.040 --> 0:12:54.160 history of eating disorders. When I was in my twenties, 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:57.000 I was very unhealthy, you know, I was believing I 0:12:57.040 --> 0:12:58.800 had exercise in your vote. So I had a bunch 0:12:58.840 --> 0:13:00.920 of all this stuff and my friends and I would 0:13:00.920 --> 0:13:02.480 do it together. My friends and I would like throw 0:13:02.600 --> 0:13:04.679 up together. I remember in my twenties, like I had 0:13:04.679 --> 0:13:06.839 girlfriends who we were all believing together, like it was 0:13:06.840 --> 0:13:10.480 our drill, and he was talking about male feelings having 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:12.600 the same feelings. How you know, prevalent is in the 0:13:12.640 --> 0:13:15.400 gay world, so it's not unique at all. And you 0:13:15.559 --> 0:13:18.400 are you are completely responsible for pulling yourself out of this. 0:13:18.559 --> 0:13:20.960 You know, you have to change the narrative. And it's 0:13:21.000 --> 0:13:24.280 so easy to make the change. I've done it, and 0:13:24.360 --> 0:13:26.520 it seems like it's so much harder than it is, 0:13:27.000 --> 0:13:29.640 Like it is so easy to pull yourself up, because 0:13:29.640 --> 0:13:32.120 once you start to pull yourself up, like everything starts 0:13:32.120 --> 0:13:33.920 to work out for you, and it's easier to get 0:13:33.960 --> 0:13:36.960 away from bad habits. Yeah, it's I mean, one of 0:13:36.960 --> 0:13:40.040 the things that makes it so incredibly difficult in in 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:42.440 the United States at least, is it's so much of 0:13:42.840 --> 0:13:46.880 eating disordered behavior is seen as normal or or it's 0:13:46.920 --> 0:13:51.600 like glamorized or encouraged. I mean, I was shocked when 0:13:51.600 --> 0:13:55.200 I received my diagnosis last October because I didn't think 0:13:55.240 --> 0:13:57.839 anything of my symptoms. And like you said, I've got 0:13:57.840 --> 0:14:02.400 girlfriends who restrict and we talk about restricting or you know, 0:14:02.880 --> 0:14:07.000 eating disorder behaviors and it's no one thinks twice about it. Well, 0:14:07.040 --> 0:14:10.560 I think there's a movement happening towards healthy living that 0:14:10.679 --> 0:14:17.040 people often confuse with dieting, where those are not mutually exclusive. 0:14:17.160 --> 0:14:19.400 You can be someone who eats really clean but has 0:14:19.640 --> 0:14:23.280 you know, a terrible drinking problem, which obviously affects the 0:14:23.360 --> 0:14:25.360 quality of health in your life. Why are you staring 0:14:25.360 --> 0:14:27.080 at me when you say something like that, Well, you're 0:14:27.120 --> 0:14:29.520 just here. I mean, what is it? So your restriction 0:14:29.640 --> 0:14:35.000 you restrict yourself from food? Is that? Yeah? Okay? For days, 0:14:35.040 --> 0:14:37.880 just very minimal, Like I would go to cross fit, 0:14:38.040 --> 0:14:41.760 come home and have broth for dinner, right right, So 0:14:41.960 --> 0:14:45.640 it was just like I would just see how little 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:49.200 I could do basically for as long as I could, 0:14:50.360 --> 0:14:52.800 or the bare minimum. But doesn't it make you think 0:14:52.840 --> 0:14:56.080 when you know it affects your mental like crispness and clarity, 0:14:56.360 --> 0:14:59.880 how does that make you feel? So I'm in recovery, 0:15:00.200 --> 0:15:02.600 and that's one of the things I do try and 0:15:02.760 --> 0:15:05.280 continue to tell myself, like, you don't want to go 0:15:05.320 --> 0:15:08.320 back to that melancholic state where everything just has this 0:15:08.480 --> 0:15:13.640 gray haze and you're miserable and anxious, and and you 0:15:13.680 --> 0:15:16.720 know that's what I try to hold onto. What makes 0:15:16.720 --> 0:15:18.720 it so difficult is I look in the mirror and 0:15:18.760 --> 0:15:22.720 I'm just so disappointed with what I see. And there 0:15:22.720 --> 0:15:24.240 are days where I look in the mirror and I 0:15:24.800 --> 0:15:28.160 hate what I see. And that's what is so hard 0:15:28.240 --> 0:15:32.560 to shake so often, And I'm just part of why 0:15:32.600 --> 0:15:35.200 I sent the emails because I'm feel like at times 0:15:35.200 --> 0:15:38.520 I'm grasping at straws with myself. Well, you have to 0:15:38.520 --> 0:15:40.560 grasp a little harder at the good straws. You're a 0:15:40.600 --> 0:15:42.960 beautiful young girl. You have your whole life ahead of you, 0:15:43.040 --> 0:15:44.960 So this is not going to be your story that 0:15:45.000 --> 0:15:46.920 you had a needing disorder. This isn't going to be 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:48.800 your story, and that's why you have to get rid 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:50.920 of it and start your story. You know, this is 0:15:50.960 --> 0:15:53.280 just a little fraction of your life, and it's not 0:15:53.320 --> 0:15:55.640 as big as you think it is. It's just being 0:15:55.680 --> 0:15:58.080 treated like it's the biggest thing in the world. It's 0:15:58.120 --> 0:16:00.520 just a little passage of time, and you're up to 0:16:00.560 --> 0:16:02.800 make that passage of time as sure as possible. It's 0:16:02.880 --> 0:16:06.920 up to you. Yeah, can I ask you this? So far, 0:16:07.280 --> 0:16:10.960 I've not told anyone about this diagnosis, like none of 0:16:11.000 --> 0:16:13.400 my friends, because I just I don't even know how 0:16:13.440 --> 0:16:15.840 to approach it myself, much less trying to involve my 0:16:15.880 --> 0:16:19.280 loved ones. None of my family knows. Only my boyfriend knows. 0:16:19.360 --> 0:16:22.720 That's it. What are your thoughts on me sharing this 0:16:22.840 --> 0:16:25.720 with more people, or at least people in my inner circle? 0:16:26.120 --> 0:16:28.280 What would be your reason for sharing it with everyone? 0:16:29.560 --> 0:16:32.720 I guess emotional support if I'm having a bad day, 0:16:32.800 --> 0:16:36.960 or someone to fall back on, or you know, advice. See. 0:16:37.000 --> 0:16:39.560 I think that this is something that you should confide 0:16:39.720 --> 0:16:41.720 in your circle with even people that you may not 0:16:41.800 --> 0:16:45.280 necessarily be close to it because the more you normalize 0:16:45.320 --> 0:16:48.160 it for other women or men going through it and 0:16:48.160 --> 0:16:51.080 can have that conversation and have people holding you accountable 0:16:51.480 --> 0:16:53.640 and explain that this is a process and so some 0:16:53.720 --> 0:16:56.040 days you may fall short, some days you may have 0:16:56.080 --> 0:16:59.000 a more positive outlook. It's just going to make that 0:16:59.080 --> 0:17:02.160 experience fee. Will you have people behind you who are 0:17:02.200 --> 0:17:07.040 willing to go through this experience with you? Yeah? Yeah, 0:17:07.080 --> 0:17:09.120 But the most important narrative again is the one you're 0:17:09.119 --> 0:17:11.480 telling yourself, like it really isn't about other people. It's 0:17:11.520 --> 0:17:13.359 good to have other people, yes, but that should not 0:17:13.400 --> 0:17:15.440 be your crutch. You're your crutch and you're going to 0:17:15.520 --> 0:17:18.520 get yourself out of this, and your diagnosis does not 0:17:18.600 --> 0:17:21.160 define you. It's a diagnosis for a period of time 0:17:21.160 --> 0:17:25.800 in your life. That's not the way it has to be. Yeah, yeah, 0:17:26.280 --> 0:17:29.160 all right, we'll keep us posted. Okay, okay, great, Thank 0:17:29.200 --> 0:17:31.600 you so much for having me on. Please take being 0:17:31.600 --> 0:17:35.360 our patient seriously and take my advice. I will. I mean, 0:17:35.680 --> 0:17:37.840 another reason I reached out is how frank you are, 0:17:38.000 --> 0:17:40.600 and I mean I love that you post pictures of 0:17:40.600 --> 0:17:42.840 yourself naked, and I'm like, that's what I want. That 0:17:44.000 --> 0:17:46.280 could be you too. I want to post my tits 0:17:46.320 --> 0:17:50.399 online too. Well. One day girl, one day, one day. Well, 0:17:50.600 --> 0:17:53.680 thanks rom, Okay, thanks to Rob. Yeah, thank you guys 0:17:53.680 --> 0:17:56.879 so much for wrong I mean, I'm not trying to 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:59.040 diminish anyone's eating disorders, but they seem to have changed 0:17:59.040 --> 0:18:01.880 since I was growing up, because calorie restriction is now 0:18:01.920 --> 0:18:05.520 a thing, like yes, like I'm in a calorie deficit. Yeah, okay, sweetheart, 0:18:05.600 --> 0:18:07.520 we all know what's going on through your body. You're 0:18:07.520 --> 0:18:10.119 going through the change. I'm trying to go through a change. 0:18:10.160 --> 0:18:11.960 One of them would going through the change because I 0:18:11.960 --> 0:18:13.960 am sick and tired of getting my period. I would 0:18:14.000 --> 0:18:15.119 love for you to go through the change so we 0:18:15.119 --> 0:18:17.560 could finally regulate the fucking temperature in the house. Can 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:19.800 you imagine what a contact would be going through menopause 0:18:19.960 --> 0:18:22.040 or maybe I'm scared of me, but there'd be a 0:18:22.080 --> 0:18:24.040 light at the end of the tunnel. It's like the vaccine, 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:25.760 Like I'd know that something good was going to be 0:18:25.840 --> 0:18:28.000 in death, the light being death, the light at the 0:18:28.040 --> 0:18:35.080 end of the tunnel being my demise. I I don't 0:18:35.080 --> 0:18:36.960 like to think of your demise because then I really 0:18:36.960 --> 0:18:38.760 like to think about what that means for me. I'm 0:18:38.800 --> 0:18:41.680 not ready for that. I'm getting hungry, sweetheart. Okay, well, 0:18:41.760 --> 0:18:43.800 let's get through at least. What I was going to 0:18:43.880 --> 0:18:46.440 say is so calori restriction, Yes, you're in a calorie deficit. 0:18:46.480 --> 0:18:48.960 So calorie restriction, like eating disorders, have to be handled 0:18:49.000 --> 0:18:51.440 with much more attention than they were in my time, 0:18:51.480 --> 0:18:53.840 because in my time, you couldn't, like, you know, nobody 0:18:53.880 --> 0:18:56.000 cared that you had a needing disorder because everyone did. 0:18:56.040 --> 0:18:57.840 And now it's like, oh, we see the damage it 0:18:57.880 --> 0:19:00.800 does to you throughout your life. So now it's like 0:19:00.840 --> 0:19:04.240