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Speaker 1: Well, hello, Hey, what's up man?

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Speaker 2: Dude?

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Speaker 3: I just wanted to say, like, I remember you used

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Speaker 3: to do our morning announcements.

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Speaker 1: Dude, you met, You sent me a text and you

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Speaker 1: said I wanted to talk about how you used to

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Speaker 1: do the morning announcements at our school. Yeah, yeah, you're

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Speaker 1: a gecko. Uh yeah, I went to Franklin High School.

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Speaker 3: Uh back in weren't you used to dude, they used

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Speaker 3: to do our morning announcements.

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Speaker 2: Yeah it was.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I used to do the morning announcements of Franklin

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Speaker 1: High School back in two thousand, shit those ten years ago. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: twenty sixteen.

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Speaker 3: That's fucking crazy, dude.

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Speaker 1: Now you're a gecko, now, my gecko.

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Speaker 2: That's insane.

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Speaker 3: That's so inspirational, and you could be anything you ever

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Speaker 3: want to.

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Speaker 1: I thought, what did you say? Did you think I

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Speaker 1: was good at the morning announcements?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I thought you were pretty solid at it. I thought

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Speaker 3: you going to like a new station or something, but

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Speaker 3: you did it your own way.

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Speaker 4: What.

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Speaker 1: I don't don't give you your last name, but what's

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Speaker 1: your first name? I don't know who you are?

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Speaker 2: Dan? Daniel?

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Speaker 1: Fuck, I actually actually have no idea who you are.

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Speaker 2: Dan.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you were you graduated like I think a year

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Speaker 3: or two before I did. I graduated twenty eighteen.

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Speaker 1: Wait, do we know each other?

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Speaker 3: You probably know my older cousin.

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Speaker 1: What's your older cousin's first name?

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Speaker 2: Alan?

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Speaker 1: Did your older cousin once throw a huge party? Dude?

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Speaker 3: That was he did once?

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Speaker 1: Were you were you there?

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Speaker 2: I was not. He actually dicked me. He didn't invite me.

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Speaker 1: He didn't fucking invite you. I don't think he invited me.

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Speaker 1: I think I just showed up.

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Speaker 3: He just dicked me. I live right down the street too.

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Speaker 3: I kind of touched off.

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Speaker 1: That was a legend. That was a legendary party. I

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Speaker 1: remember showing up at that party and feeling like it's

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Speaker 1: maybe the weirdest I've felt in my whole Some of

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Speaker 1: the weirdest I've ever felt in my whole life is

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Speaker 1: like being at like a college party where I can

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Speaker 1: not a cost the high school party, where like I

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Speaker 1: could see other people like who were good at socializing

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Speaker 1: and like being whatever. I was so nervous. I was

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Speaker 1: just like standing in I remember, just like I was

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Speaker 1: at the party. I was just standing in one spot,

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Speaker 1: just trying really hard to like get through the night

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Speaker 1: to just to like get through the night. I used

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Speaker 1: to be really bad. I used to be a little bit. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I used to just like not know how to just

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Speaker 1: inhabit space. I had so much social anxiety. And then

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Speaker 1: what happens is, over the course of the next ten years,

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Speaker 1: I slowly realized that uh uh, nothing and no one

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Speaker 1: don't have enough social anxiety. I actually need more to

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Speaker 1: prevent myself from uh uh, annoying someone by talking to them. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's not true. I actually I do. I do still

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Speaker 1: have social anxiety in some situations, but less of in

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Speaker 1: less of a like, No, that's not true. I have

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Speaker 1: social anxiety in some situations. I was recently in a

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Speaker 1: situation where I had some social anxiety. But I also

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Speaker 1: I don't social this is I don't. I've kind of

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Speaker 1: come to the conclusion. I've come to the conclusion that

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Speaker 1: I am correct in all of my social interactions, not

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Speaker 1: in the sense of like I'm like right about everything,

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Speaker 1: but that as long as I'm not being a dick, like,

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Speaker 1: however our interaction goes is fine. Like if I'm a

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Speaker 1: that's fine. I'm still I'm valid in my own existence

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Speaker 1: as a human being, and so I don't there's no

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Speaker 1: There's only like, there's only like I like, if I'm

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Speaker 1: like being a dick or if I'm being rude, that's different.

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Speaker 1: But there's no way for me to like be annoying.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I could, you could be annoying, but you're

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Speaker 1: still if you're annoying, you can still be correct and

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Speaker 1: valid in your existence. Do you know what I do?

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Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying?

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Speaker 3: I do get what you're saying. It's it's deep. It's

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Speaker 3: like if you're if you're trying to just speak your arm,

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Speaker 3: you know, and like you're not being disrespectful, Like there's

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Speaker 3: no way you could be wrong technically.

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Speaker 1: Exactly right, exactly because the social anxiety comes from like, oh,

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Speaker 1: people are judging me, and it's like, well, judging you

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Speaker 1: on what you know, what the.

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Speaker 3: Dress up as a get go for the first time?

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Speaker 3: What inspired that?

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Speaker 2: Wait?

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Speaker 1: What are you doing now, Daniel? What do you what

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Speaker 1: do you what did you grow up to be?

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Speaker 3: Oh, I'm accounting, but I just got fired.

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Speaker 1: So, oh, you get why'd you get fired?

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Speaker 3: I said it was performance related, but it was really

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Speaker 3: I think because I took.

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Speaker 2: Some time off work.

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Speaker 3: Okay, well, yeah, they probably weren't happy about it around this.

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Speaker 1: What did you take? What did you take time off

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Speaker 1: to do?

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Speaker 2: Uh?

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Speaker 3: How do I explain the how do you I spent

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Speaker 3: some I spent some time in jail. Let's just let's

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Speaker 3: just say that.

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Speaker 1: Oh, okay, is that related to why you got fired?

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Speaker 3: Probably they said it was performance related, but I mean

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Speaker 3: you take some time off and uh, you know you're

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Speaker 1: I mean when you say you took some time off,

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Speaker 1: and not explain why? Like how long were you in

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Speaker 1: jail for?

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Speaker 3: No? Yeah, like I told him, Hey, I got some

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Speaker 3: personal stuff going on, like I had to messag, jump

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Speaker 3: off my laptop.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, So how long were you in jail for? For?

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Speaker 3: Like ten days?

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Speaker 2: It was a fun experience at all.

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Speaker 3: I highly recommend that not be a good experience and

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Speaker 3: not to go there.

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Speaker 1: What hap what happens?

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Speaker 2: What happened?

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Speaker 3: I don't I really don't want to talk about the

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Speaker 3: details because the storm.

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Speaker 1: I'm going, well, you don't have to, but like can

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Speaker 1: I what what? What can we hear? Because I'm so

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Speaker 1: we I feel like I gotta know some I.

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Speaker 3: Mean, like long story short, like a domestic situation where

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Speaker 3: my ex started breaking things and called the cops and

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Speaker 3: I was when I got in trouble.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right. I thought I thought I would have

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Speaker 1: thought I would I I knowing, I thought you were.

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Speaker 1: I thought you were trapping.

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Speaker 3: No no, no, no, no, no, no, no, I did

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Speaker 3: that back in the day.

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Speaker 1: Yeah that runs of the family.

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Speaker 3: Not in the family, No, just just the mind, dumb

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Speaker 1: I thought your cousin trapped?

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Speaker 3: No, no, what were you?

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Speaker 1: Were you trapping? In high school?

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Speaker 2: A little bit?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? Here and there Ermin and German?

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Speaker 1: Did I ever buy weed? Did I ever buy weed

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Speaker 1: for you in high school?

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Speaker 2: I don't remember. I really don't it.

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Speaker 1: Maybe who who did you sell weed to? In high school?

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Speaker 1: Give me their full name. Don't give me their full name,

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Speaker 1: give me their first name.

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Speaker 3: There was a lot of people that were like, I don't,

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Speaker 3: I don't know, like I don't, I don't even like

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Speaker 3: it's so long ago, I don't even remember. Like everyone

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Speaker 3: it was a lot of different random people from all

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Speaker 3: a farm where I myself in like Prell County.

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Speaker 1: Can I be? Can I actually be honest with you?

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Speaker 3: Be something?

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Speaker 1: So when I was in high school, I had a

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Speaker 1: lot of friends who trapped, and it always that was

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Speaker 1: kind of that actually might still to this day be

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Speaker 1: one of my great aspiration. I mean, it's never gonna

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Speaker 1: come to It's another lifetime, right, But like selling, we

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Speaker 1: like being, you know, being twenty, Like Okay, what am

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Speaker 1: I gonna say? Like the lifestyle of trapping while you're

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Speaker 1: in high school, it always looked so fun to me.

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Speaker 1: It wouldn't be fun to do.

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Speaker 3: I remember this guy named Sasha, I tell tell me more, bro,

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Speaker 3: He's mean, he's just gotten himself in like the craziest

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Speaker 1: Yeah, like like the like all the guys who would

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Speaker 1: before weed was like fucking legal everywhere, but like there

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Speaker 1: running around. They would always be running around. They're always

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Speaker 1: running around, like they're alway, They're always getting a text

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Speaker 1: from some guy. They're always like they seemed like it

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Speaker 1: I know, of course it's like, well they're only friends

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Speaker 1: but it just seemed like a fun way to like, yes,

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Speaker 1: to do it now. If I were twenty eight and

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Speaker 1: selling weed the high schoolers, I that does not sound

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Speaker 1: like a fun experience. But being sixteen and just like

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Speaker 1: driving around like you would smoke everyone up, you know,

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Speaker 1: like because everyone knew that you were fucking uh, that

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Speaker 1: you were packing right, and you kind of felt like

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Speaker 1: the man. You kind of felt like an alpha provider.

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Speaker 1: You know, you were like packing everyone's bowl, Like I

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Speaker 1: just the kids, the kids who did that. I just

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Speaker 1: was like I always envied that lifestyle. I was wondering

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Speaker 3: Do you remember do you remember there used to be

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Speaker 3: a lifestyle where people used to buy like glass and

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Speaker 3: walk into the plug's house and he would have like

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Speaker 3: a bong or like a fucking y rig that he's like,

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Speaker 3: you know, this thing is made by.

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Speaker 2: Some wook on.

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Speaker 3: Top of a mountain with the lightning stright, and he

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Speaker 3: carves his.

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Speaker 2: Name into it.

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Speaker 3: You can see, like with a lead pencil. He carves

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Speaker 3: his name into it. And yes, it's the most rare

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Speaker 3: thing on earth. If you smoke out of this thing,

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Speaker 1: Well yeah, maybe in another life I'll sell way to

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Speaker 2: Oh hey, what's that man?

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Speaker 2: Dude? Uh? You can call me beat b B.

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Speaker 2: Life is life? And you know I been going through

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Speaker 2: I have known both of them for like twelve years.

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Speaker 2: She is married with three kids. And I don't even

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Speaker 1: And so you and your ex wife co parent pretty decently.

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Speaker 2: They they were gonna hold me to three days, which

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Speaker 2: I was like, you couldn't have Like when I got out,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's fair, that's fair. That is the I think

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Speaker 3: Now?

450
00:22:44,720 --> 00:22:47,040
Speaker 1: I mean there's a cog. I mean, there's eighty billion

451
00:22:47,080 --> 00:22:51,080
Speaker 1: ways to questions, but what's why you depressed?

452
00:22:51,119 --> 00:22:54,320
Speaker 2: You know that's been trying to figure out, you know, uh,

453
00:22:55,240 --> 00:22:57,719
Speaker 2: what really is the root of my depression? And I

454
00:22:57,720 --> 00:22:59,879
Speaker 2: have not found it therapist yet to be able to

455
00:22:59,880 --> 00:23:06,320
Speaker 2: help me quite answer that question if there is a

456
00:23:06,520 --> 00:23:09,359
Speaker 2: root cause or if there is just a chemical imbalance.

457
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:13,159
Speaker 1: I mean, what do you like your life?

458
00:23:15,080 --> 00:23:16,840
Speaker 2: I'm in the process of trying to get a new

459
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,760
Speaker 2: job because to make things even more interesting, I still

460
00:23:19,800 --> 00:23:25,200
Speaker 2: work with the said sister. Oh no, yeah, it's fuck,

461
00:23:25,320 --> 00:23:26,280
Speaker 2: it's fucking shitty.

462
00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:29,440
Speaker 1: You guys still wait you're no contact but you don't

463
00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:30,560
Speaker 1: but you work together?

464
00:23:31,320 --> 00:23:32,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I don't. I just don't speak to her

465
00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:33,200
Speaker 2: at work.

466
00:23:33,280 --> 00:23:36,320
Speaker 1: I okay, you're like no eye contact.

467
00:23:37,560 --> 00:23:40,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's a keep my head down around her. I'm

468
00:23:40,320 --> 00:23:42,440
Speaker 2: not like, I don't want anyone to ever be like, hey,

469
00:23:42,520 --> 00:23:44,960
Speaker 2: he was talking to her and get back to my

470
00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:47,639
Speaker 2: ex wife because then she's she would take the kid away,

471
00:23:49,840 --> 00:23:54,200
Speaker 2: and I choose my child over anyone else.

472
00:23:54,400 --> 00:23:59,680
Speaker 1: So yo, what the fuck that's crazy?

473
00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:02,800
Speaker 2: But yeah, working on getting a new job.

474
00:24:03,560 --> 00:24:05,360
Speaker 1: That's good. What else is going on?

475
00:24:06,040 --> 00:24:08,320
Speaker 2: Bought a house other day, been working on that and

476
00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:09,560
Speaker 2: that's about it.

477
00:24:10,280 --> 00:24:12,640
Speaker 1: Okay, hmmm.

478
00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:14,040
Speaker 2: Hmm.

479
00:24:14,240 --> 00:24:15,200
Speaker 1: I mean, do you have friends?

480
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:20,600
Speaker 2: Uh not? I mean I do, but nobody I speak

481
00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:25,600
Speaker 2: to the past few days. One of my friends has

482
00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:28,040
Speaker 2: been helped me help me work on like electrical stuff

483
00:24:28,040 --> 00:24:30,760
Speaker 2: at the house. But like, that's the most I've interacted

484
00:24:30,800 --> 00:24:33,399
Speaker 2: with another human being in a long time.

485
00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:41,360
Speaker 1: Listen, I'm not a real therapist, but I mean, yeah, dude,

486
00:24:41,520 --> 00:24:44,520
Speaker 1: the most depressed, the most depressed I have been in

487
00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:49,119
Speaker 1: my life is always when I'm like fucking alone, you know.

488
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:52,159
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I try to plan things and then I

489
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:55,520
Speaker 2: like back out last minute, you know, just the energy

490
00:24:55,520 --> 00:24:59,600
Speaker 2: of doing it. Do you like when I am planning Michigan.

491
00:25:00,119 --> 00:25:03,240
Speaker 2: So I am, I'm going to follow through with that

492
00:25:03,320 --> 00:25:04,879
Speaker 2: and I'm going up there with some friends.

493
00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:08,600
Speaker 1: Okay, that's pretty good.

494
00:25:08,359 --> 00:25:09,320
Speaker 2: What what other?

495
00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:11,680
Speaker 1: What things have you been like planning? Like your friend's

496
00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:13,360
Speaker 1: text you like, yo, let's go out to the thing,

497
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:15,200
Speaker 1: and then you say yes, but you know, show up.

498
00:25:15,880 --> 00:25:18,199
Speaker 2: Like yeah, we'll make plans to do something, and then

499
00:25:18,280 --> 00:25:19,960
Speaker 2: last minute I'm like, hey, like, I can't do it.

500
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:23,920
Speaker 2: I got to do this instead, you know, like or whatever, bullshit,

501
00:25:23,960 --> 00:25:25,640
Speaker 2: excuse I want to make up.

502
00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:33,159
Speaker 1: And that's because you're just like exhausted.

503
00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:37,280
Speaker 2: Exhausted even if I haven't done anything. Yeah hmm.

504
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:43,679
Speaker 1: Okay, So what do you do when you get home

505
00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:44,120
Speaker 1: from work?

506
00:25:46,600 --> 00:25:49,320
Speaker 2: Typically I will hang out with my kid for a

507
00:25:49,320 --> 00:25:51,960
Speaker 2: little while if he's going to be going back to

508
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:57,000
Speaker 2: his mom's house. If not, I am either just trying

509
00:25:57,000 --> 00:26:01,200
Speaker 2: to pick up time at work or I am playing

510
00:26:01,280 --> 00:26:02,200
Speaker 2: video games.

511
00:26:03,040 --> 00:26:09,919
Speaker 1: Have you thought about doing something that is gets you

512
00:26:10,040 --> 00:26:11,399
Speaker 1: around like other people?

513
00:26:12,359 --> 00:26:12,560
Speaker 2: You know?

514
00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:16,600
Speaker 1: Because that's the thing about Plack. That's the thing about plans.

515
00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:19,880
Speaker 1: I don't know like plans are. Actually I think plans

516
00:26:19,920 --> 00:26:23,119
Speaker 1: are a bad plan. I say, I mean this is

517
00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:25,280
Speaker 1: the I've repeat this on like every episode of the

518
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:28,760
Speaker 1: podcast by now. But like you have to find some

519
00:26:29,320 --> 00:26:33,840
Speaker 1: activity or community where like it's the antithesis of plans.

520
00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:37,320
Speaker 1: It's something where you just show up and life happens,

521
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:38,560
Speaker 1: you know what I mean.

522
00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:45,399
Speaker 2: Yeah, I am from a small town, like small area

523
00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:49,320
Speaker 2: in general, there's no like big towns around, so it

524
00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:51,400
Speaker 2: is hard to find like a group of people too.

525
00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:54,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's what I mean in places like that,

526
00:26:54,440 --> 00:26:58,240
Speaker 1: that's what that's what like churches for I don't know if.

527
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:02,000
Speaker 2: It really just I damn NERO went to church just

528
00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:02,680
Speaker 2: to try it out.

529
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:06,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, that No, that means seriously, that is like what

530
00:27:06,880 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 1: like the main reason for like it's just church in

531
00:27:10,359 --> 00:27:14,440
Speaker 1: a small town is just like something where you can

532
00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:16,720
Speaker 1: like show up and there's just like people you know there.

533
00:27:19,200 --> 00:27:22,119
Speaker 2: I tried doing AA for the same kind of reason,

534
00:27:22,280 --> 00:27:26,360
Speaker 2: just to yeah there we go, you know. But those

535
00:27:26,359 --> 00:27:28,120
Speaker 2: are all like church based and it's hard to get

536
00:27:28,119 --> 00:27:33,320
Speaker 2: into whenever they're like preaching instead of just like talking

537
00:27:33,359 --> 00:27:39,240
Speaker 2: about life and it's more of just a church session I.

538
00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:40,760
Speaker 1: Guess, sorry, talking about when they talk about like the

539
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:41,520
Speaker 1: higher power.

540
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:45,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, like the ones I've been to, I've been to

541
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:47,840
Speaker 2: two or three different ones, and each one They're all like,

542
00:27:48,359 --> 00:27:51,119
Speaker 2: the only way you can do this is with God. Like, well,

543
00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:53,520
Speaker 2: I've been doing it two years without them.

544
00:27:54,840 --> 00:28:02,840
Speaker 1: Well God, well God and like higher power. Uh aren't

545
00:28:02,840 --> 00:28:07,720
Speaker 1: necessarily the same thing, you know what I mean?

546
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:12,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, they but they definitely are like pushing God.

547
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,879
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I don't know what's God mean to you,

548
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:18,680
Speaker 1: like a like a physical.

549
00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:23,439
Speaker 2: Anything floating around in the universe, you know. Yeah, yeah,

550
00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:28,159
Speaker 2: different to you than he is to me and to

551
00:28:28,240 --> 00:28:28,919
Speaker 2: the next person.

552
00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:33,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, well church is side. The only reason I mentioned

553
00:28:33,600 --> 00:28:35,639
Speaker 1: church is because it's the only thing I didn't think of.

554
00:28:35,760 --> 00:28:38,520
Speaker 1: That's like in a small town, I would say you

555
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:41,200
Speaker 1: should move, but you have a child and you want

556
00:28:41,160 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 1: to child, and he just bought a house. Uh, it

557
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:48,040
Speaker 1: can't be that. I mean, dude, you there's gotta be

558
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,360
Speaker 1: something right, like you just need you just you just

559
00:28:51,520 --> 00:28:54,400
Speaker 1: you need something where you're like out and around people,

560
00:28:54,520 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 1: like I do think that is everyone's wired differently, but

561
00:28:57,680 --> 00:28:59,440
Speaker 1: that at least just in my own life, that that

562
00:28:59,560 --> 00:29:01,080
Speaker 1: to me is like one of the just the power

563
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:05,760
Speaker 1: players against you know, depression.

564
00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:10,280
Speaker 2: If I could get past uh the bars being you

565
00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:13,400
Speaker 2: know bars and serving alcohol and just being around at a bunch,

566
00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 2: I do enjoy playing pool. That's the setting is wrong.

567
00:29:23,480 --> 00:29:30,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, interesting. Oh that's fucking sucks. Yeah, damn because pool,

568
00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:31,960
Speaker 1: because that's a good that's a good, that's a good

569
00:29:31,960 --> 00:29:34,800
Speaker 1: thing like doing like a pool. Are you at a

570
00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:37,000
Speaker 1: point where you can be Yeah, that sucks right because

571
00:29:37,480 --> 00:29:41,800
Speaker 1: pool is like a good like legit ass like a

572
00:29:41,880 --> 00:29:45,960
Speaker 1: community hobby thing like they have like tournaments and it's

573
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:49,640
Speaker 1: very social, but like it is inherently always around alcohol.

574
00:29:50,960 --> 00:29:54,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, I I'm good around alcohol. I just realized I

575
00:29:54,560 --> 00:29:56,720
Speaker 2: don't really like being around it too much. It does

576
00:29:56,760 --> 00:30:00,479
Speaker 2: like trigger a little bit like wanting it. But I

577
00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:03,200
Speaker 2: do kind of fight that off with when I get

578
00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 2: like an urge, I'll drink a THHC.

579
00:30:05,360 --> 00:30:08,960
Speaker 1: Drink oh really like you know mix.

580
00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:13,680
Speaker 2: It was kind of like bubbly and.

581
00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:15,280
Speaker 1: That's pretty good.

582
00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:17,240
Speaker 2: So like that kind of fights the it or like

583
00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:19,200
Speaker 2: itches the scratch there a little bit.

584
00:30:20,560 --> 00:30:21,880
Speaker 1: So why don't you go to more and you start

585
00:30:21,960 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 1: like going to more pool halls?

586
00:30:24,800 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 2: Coming back to depression again, just not bringing myself to

587
00:30:27,520 --> 00:30:30,000
Speaker 2: do it, not holding myself accountable.

588
00:30:30,640 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, I get you, man, I get you. I get you.

589
00:30:34,920 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 1: I get you. I uh no, I don't know. It's

590
00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:42,040
Speaker 1: like I have I have Yeah, I have friends who

591
00:30:42,040 --> 00:30:44,280
Speaker 1: when they get depressed, they just like cut everyone off

592
00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:45,840
Speaker 1: and they like don't want to do shit or talk

593
00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:49,960
Speaker 1: to anyone. I feel the opposite where I'm like, I

594
00:30:50,480 --> 00:30:56,200
Speaker 1: feel like, I like, if I'm depressed, I need to.

595
00:30:54,440 --> 00:30:56,560
Speaker 3: Be around out of it.

596
00:30:57,000 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, And so at a certain point, against your

597
00:31:00,880 --> 00:31:03,320
Speaker 1: own will, because that's the thing, where is it some

598
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:05,200
Speaker 1: part like against your own will? You have to do

599
00:31:05,280 --> 00:31:08,120
Speaker 1: these things because it's not gonna feel because you for whatever,

600
00:31:08,280 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: like our bodies are designed so stupidly, you know, because

601
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:18,800
Speaker 1: like you don't know how you're gonna feel in any

602
00:31:18,880 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 1: given situation until you're actually there. But you have to

603
00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:28,200
Speaker 1: like physically bring yourself to the thing before you realize

604
00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 1: that the thing is going to make you feel better

605
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:34,720
Speaker 1: than you would just sit around not doing shit.

606
00:31:36,280 --> 00:31:40,400
Speaker 2: No, that totally makes sense. I did you know. A

607
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:43,960
Speaker 2: couple months ago, I finally brought myself to go to

608
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:45,040
Speaker 2: a reptile show.

609
00:31:47,560 --> 00:31:50,400
Speaker 1: Well, why did sucks? Why did it suck? Why did

610
00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:50,760
Speaker 1: it suck?

611
00:31:51,960 --> 00:31:54,320
Speaker 2: They had so much packed into a tiny They had

612
00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:57,080
Speaker 2: like a three story building and put it in one

613
00:31:57,120 --> 00:32:00,880
Speaker 2: tiny room, and it was just like too much in

614
00:32:00,920 --> 00:32:03,160
Speaker 2: one little room to like try to be able to

615
00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:08,440
Speaker 2: see anything. So all the animals were cool. Uh, but

616
00:32:08,920 --> 00:32:12,280
Speaker 2: I did find like the most authentic, like Mexican restaurant

617
00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:15,240
Speaker 2: I could sign by just walking into a random place and.

618
00:32:16,520 --> 00:32:17,000
Speaker 1: There we go.

619
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:17,440
Speaker 2: See that.

620
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:21,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's the did you live your life?

621
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:25,160
Speaker 2: Non English or only English speaking person in there, And

622
00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:27,200
Speaker 2: I was like, this is to be the best goddamn

623
00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:28,000
Speaker 2: food I ever had.

624
00:32:28,560 --> 00:32:33,479
Speaker 1: Yeah, there we go. See that's fucking see. I listen,

625
00:32:33,800 --> 00:32:36,920
Speaker 1: I'm no expert on solving depression, but I like, I've

626
00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:39,360
Speaker 1: I have it, and I know what the fucking like.

627
00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:42,959
Speaker 1: Depression just it goes it goes away as a result

628
00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 1: of like actually living your life, and it comes to

629
00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:53,160
Speaker 1: you as a result of like stewing about your life,

630
00:32:53,680 --> 00:32:56,000
Speaker 1: and so situations like that where you're like, oh, I'm

631
00:32:56,080 --> 00:32:59,080
Speaker 1: I'm I'm excited by walking into a new restaurant. Oh

632
00:32:59,120 --> 00:33:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm in the moment of being with my kid. This

633
00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:03,360
Speaker 1: that The other thing is whatever you can do to

634
00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:06,800
Speaker 1: like be in your fucking life is is really like

635
00:33:06,840 --> 00:33:11,280
Speaker 1: the only cure for it. No, you're absolutely right, And

636
00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:14,160
Speaker 1: that's why alcohol. That's why alcohol is so Yeah, I

637
00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:16,720
Speaker 1: mean that's why people that's why alcohol is so addicting.

638
00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:19,800
Speaker 1: Is because that's why addictions are addicting, is because they're

639
00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:22,640
Speaker 1: people are just looking for ways to, you know, get

640
00:33:22,640 --> 00:33:24,760
Speaker 1: into the present. Whether it's like sex or weed or

641
00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:28,000
Speaker 1: food or whatever. We just want some dopamine hit that

642
00:33:28,040 --> 00:33:30,520
Speaker 1: brings you into the present moment.

643
00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:36,360
Speaker 2: And I do believe that's probably a part of the

644
00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,960
Speaker 2: reason that, like, you know, coming back to the cheating,

645
00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 2: I needed that dopamine of someone I don't know, I

646
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 2: guess showing affection in a way.

647
00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:49,959
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's that's the That's a device

648
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:50,320
Speaker 1: for sure.

649
00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 2: Yeah.

650
00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:52,600
Speaker 1: I know you can get addicted to it, for sure,

651
00:33:56,680 --> 00:33:58,640
Speaker 1: but but that good news is you can also get

652
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:03,320
Speaker 1: addicted to pro social things like playing pool or hanging

653
00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:06,160
Speaker 1: out with your friends or your kid or whatever.

654
00:34:07,160 --> 00:34:10,719
Speaker 2: You know. No, you're right, I I do need to

655
00:34:10,719 --> 00:34:11,800
Speaker 2: get out and try something.

656
00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:13,960
Speaker 1: What's your name again, man?

657
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,319
Speaker 2: Uh, you can call me b B.

658
00:34:18,719 --> 00:34:21,920
Speaker 1: But I'm glad we got to talk. This was this

659
00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:22,560
Speaker 1: was nice, man.

660
00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:25,560
Speaker 2: I'm glad I listened to you almost every day.

661
00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:28,120
Speaker 1: Hey, thanks man, I appreciate I'm honored to be part

662
00:34:28,120 --> 00:34:28,760
Speaker 1: of your routine.

663
00:34:33,640 --> 00:34:35,279
Speaker 2: But it was a pleasure talking to you. Man.

664
00:34:35,840 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 1: Anything else you want to say to the people of

665
00:34:37,160 --> 00:34:38,080
Speaker 1: the computer before we go.

666
00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:41,680
Speaker 2: I just talk to your spouse as if you're having

667
00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:48,120
Speaker 2: issues your significant others than you, and that is.

668
00:34:48,080 --> 00:34:50,520
Speaker 1: All it was. Either it was either B or D,

669
00:34:50,680 --> 00:34:52,719
Speaker 1: but whichever one was, have a good rest of your

670
00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:53,319
Speaker 1: entire life.

671
00:34:54,480 --> 00:34:55,879
Speaker 2: You too, See you around.

672
00:34:55,960 --> 00:35:00,319
Speaker 1: See you man, pool hall. Maybe I'll go to a

673
00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:03,839
Speaker 1: pool hall, be a cool guy at the pool holl,

674
00:35:05,280 --> 00:35:09,360
Speaker 1: smoke a cigarette, get addicted to cigarettes. You know what,

675
00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:12,200
Speaker 1: Fuck the pool hall. I'll just stay home and smoke cigarettes.

676
00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:16,360
Speaker 1: Hello is this Lyle?

677
00:35:16,640 --> 00:35:16,879
Speaker 2: Yeah?

678
00:35:16,880 --> 00:35:18,080
Speaker 1: What's up man? What's your name?

679
00:35:18,280 --> 00:35:19,360
Speaker 2: My name is Jacob?

680
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:22,120
Speaker 3: And you called me eating some purple Doritos?

681
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:25,800
Speaker 1: What? What flavor is the purple dorito? Is that? What

682
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:28,600
Speaker 1: the doritos? The doritos themselves aren't purple?

683
00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:28,759
Speaker 2: Right?

684
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:30,920
Speaker 1: You're eating the purple The bag is purple. That's the

685
00:35:30,920 --> 00:35:32,520
Speaker 1: sweet and spicy chili flavor.

686
00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:36,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's yeah.

687
00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:37,600
Speaker 3: I know my put them away.

688
00:35:37,360 --> 00:35:40,080
Speaker 1: Now that's out. I keep them out. Who cares? Live

689
00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:42,440
Speaker 1: your life anyway? What's up?

690
00:35:42,480 --> 00:35:42,680
Speaker 2: Man?

691
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:44,759
Speaker 1: What's up with you? How are you? Who are you?

692
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:45,800
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

693
00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:46,760
Speaker 2: Jacob?

694
00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:49,960
Speaker 1: Jacob? What did you do today?

695
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:56,120
Speaker 3: I worked most of the day. I worked as a

696
00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:59,680
Speaker 3: pool tech. I clean pools and work on filters and

697
00:35:59,719 --> 00:36:02,560
Speaker 3: palm and systems and all that. So that took up

698
00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 3: most of my day. I thought I was supposed to

699
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:08,880
Speaker 3: go do something for the county uh, and then I

700
00:36:08,960 --> 00:36:11,600
Speaker 3: checked my email and realized that I was wrong as

701
00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:14,480
Speaker 3: I was on my way there. So I had dinner

702
00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:19,720
Speaker 3: with some friends and then I came home to work

703
00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:23,640
Speaker 3: on my uh little a little side hustle.

704
00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:26,200
Speaker 1: What's your side hustle?

705
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:28,799
Speaker 2: Well, I do.

706
00:36:28,880 --> 00:36:32,360
Speaker 3: A concert photography and videography, and I worked with a

707
00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:35,480
Speaker 3: bunch of artists and do like music videos and stuff

708
00:36:35,520 --> 00:36:41,560
Speaker 3: like that in every spare minute that I have though, Wait.

709
00:36:41,360 --> 00:36:44,200
Speaker 1: You have a you have a pretty cool life. Actually,

710
00:36:44,840 --> 00:36:46,000
Speaker 1: do you like your life?

711
00:36:46,760 --> 00:36:47,799
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's a lot of fun.

712
00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:51,760
Speaker 3: I get to uh get to go to concerts for free.

713
00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:54,719
Speaker 3: I might be shooting a band at a soccer game

714
00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 3: tomorrow in DC. I'm also uh a Maryland resident. I

715
00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:03,440
Speaker 3: know you come from the land of Maryland. So shout

716
00:37:03,440 --> 00:37:04,720
Speaker 3: out Maryland.

717
00:37:04,320 --> 00:37:07,799
Speaker 1: Shout out, shout out Maryland. What part I shit? I

718
00:37:07,840 --> 00:37:10,640
Speaker 1: want to ask you, like where specifically in Maryland you are,

719
00:37:10,719 --> 00:37:12,799
Speaker 1: but I don't want to dos you. But also if

720
00:37:12,800 --> 00:37:13,799
Speaker 1: you don't care, I don't care.

721
00:37:13,840 --> 00:37:14,000
Speaker 3: I know.

722
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:15,239
Speaker 1: Well, it's up to you.

723
00:37:16,600 --> 00:37:20,160
Speaker 3: I mean, I live in like the northern part of Maryland.

724
00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:22,520
Speaker 3: I can tell you if you want to, I could

725
00:37:22,560 --> 00:37:26,280
Speaker 3: tell you, like roughly, I don't know where in Maryland

726
00:37:26,400 --> 00:37:29,040
Speaker 3: you're exactly from. I could tell you where I'm from

727
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:30,040
Speaker 3: if you want to bleep it.

728
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:36,880
Speaker 1: Out, dude. I I today, someone swatted me like five

729
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:40,600
Speaker 1: years ago. Have I ever told this story? Somebody fucking

730
00:37:40,760 --> 00:37:45,600
Speaker 1: uh like found where I live and they like, they

731
00:37:45,600 --> 00:37:48,239
Speaker 1: found where I live, and they called the police and

732
00:37:48,280 --> 00:37:51,759
Speaker 1: they were like, hey, I live at and then they

733
00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:54,880
Speaker 1: gave my address, like pretending they lived at my place,

734
00:37:55,440 --> 00:37:57,600
Speaker 1: and they were like, I live at you know such

735
00:37:57,640 --> 00:38:00,880
Speaker 1: and such a dress, and a man has broken into

736
00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:04,759
Speaker 1: my house wearing a and he's wearing a gecko costume

737
00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:08,399
Speaker 1: and he has a gun. And the idea of being

738
00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:10,520
Speaker 1: they were trying to get the cops to come to

739
00:38:10,600 --> 00:38:13,360
Speaker 1: my house and think I had a gun so they

740
00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:15,840
Speaker 1: would kill me. Isn't that crazy?

741
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:18,279
Speaker 2: Yeah?

742
00:38:18,680 --> 00:38:21,440
Speaker 3: Where I don't know what scale you were at five

743
00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:24,520
Speaker 3: years ago to And I feel like I see it

744
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:28,600
Speaker 3: happening to like these giant streamers, but like, were you

745
00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:30,680
Speaker 3: streaming at the time or did it just happen?

746
00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:33,160
Speaker 2: Yeah?

747
00:38:33,160 --> 00:38:35,200
Speaker 1: The question is whether or not I had enough clout

748
00:38:35,239 --> 00:38:38,839
Speaker 1: to be uh, to be to be swatted. All that's

749
00:38:38,880 --> 00:38:41,000
Speaker 1: to say, I don't want that to happen to you.

750
00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:42,560
Speaker 1: You know, I don't want that to I don't want

751
00:38:42,560 --> 00:38:47,879
Speaker 1: somebody to say, you know, I clean pool filters and

752
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:56,439
Speaker 1: I have a gun whatever? Uh anyway, ah fuck you're

753
00:38:56,560 --> 00:39:04,279
Speaker 1: uh your name one more time? Jacob, Jacob, Jacob. It's

754
00:39:04,760 --> 00:39:07,000
Speaker 1: it's genuinely, it's completely okay if not. I'm trying to

755
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:11,239
Speaker 1: be a little more loose today. Sometimes, you know what's

756
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:14,440
Speaker 1: funny for the past. For a lot of times on

757
00:39:14,480 --> 00:39:16,560
Speaker 1: this podcast, I say to someone it's okay if not,

758
00:39:16,560 --> 00:39:17,719
Speaker 1: but do you have something you want to talk about?

759
00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 1: And a lot of times I don't actually mean it

760
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:22,160
Speaker 1: when I say it's okay if not, I mean that

761
00:39:22,160 --> 00:39:24,799
Speaker 1: about fifty percent of the time depends on what mood

762
00:39:24,800 --> 00:39:27,520
Speaker 1: I'm in today. I'm I could take her to leave it.

763
00:39:27,560 --> 00:39:32,319
Speaker 1: We could talk about pools for an hour, But do

764
00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:35,080
Speaker 1: you have something you want to talk about today?

765
00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 3: Do you call me because I called you? Or did

766
00:39:37,520 --> 00:39:39,000
Speaker 3: you call me because I texted you.

767
00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:43,320
Speaker 1: We're on the phone together right now. That's all that matters.

768
00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:45,800
Speaker 3: I was gonna say, because I left you at text,

769
00:39:46,200 --> 00:39:51,160
Speaker 3: but I saw you might find interesting didn't read it. Okay, well,

770
00:39:51,200 --> 00:39:52,640
Speaker 3: I can reiterate if you'd like.

771
00:39:52,600 --> 00:39:54,040
Speaker 1: To please, please please.

772
00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:58,880
Speaker 3: I have this kind of conglomerate that I call the

773
00:39:59,040 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 3: Mysterious that is really a embodiment of all the failed

774
00:40:07,920 --> 00:40:13,120
Speaker 3: relationships and situationships I had in like middle school, high school,

775
00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:17,440
Speaker 3: you know, like kind of those early I don't know

776
00:40:17,520 --> 00:40:19,600
Speaker 3: what I'm doing, I don't know how to talk to girls,

777
00:40:20,360 --> 00:40:23,360
Speaker 3: made a lot of mistakes. Yeah, and I call it

778
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:28,160
Speaker 3: the Mysterious X because I like, I was kind of

779
00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:32,440
Speaker 3: the first of my friend group to really like start dating,

780
00:40:32,520 --> 00:40:35,640
Speaker 3: and me and my buddies weren't really like public with

781
00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,720
Speaker 3: like we didn't talk too much about like the girls

782
00:40:38,719 --> 00:40:40,719
Speaker 3: we were talking to. It was kind of weird, like

783
00:40:40,920 --> 00:40:44,200
Speaker 3: the anount. We didn't talk about it, but when it

784
00:40:44,239 --> 00:40:46,279
Speaker 3: would be brought up, it's like, oh, I just kind

785
00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:50,600
Speaker 3: of you know, it's a conglomerate of multiple different females,

786
00:40:50,640 --> 00:40:53,480
Speaker 3: but it's like, oh, that is was just an experience

787
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:55,319
Speaker 3: I had with the mysterious X.

788
00:40:55,760 --> 00:40:57,920
Speaker 1: Okay, I have multiple questions. I'm also looking at your

789
00:40:57,920 --> 00:41:01,040
Speaker 1: text now. You said, dear GEK, life has been good,

790
00:41:01,160 --> 00:41:05,040
Speaker 1: but the conglomerate. That is, the mysterious X haunts me

791
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:09,560
Speaker 1: too often. I also long for the nomadic lifestyle because

792
00:41:09,560 --> 00:41:12,319
Speaker 1: the housing market sucks and I do not dream the

793
00:41:12,360 --> 00:41:16,440
Speaker 1: American dream, but I feel held down by my girlfriend

794
00:41:16,800 --> 00:41:19,879
Speaker 1: and current situation. Okay, those are two things. Let's start

795
00:41:19,880 --> 00:41:23,359
Speaker 1: with the first thing. What Okay, when you say the

796
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:27,440
Speaker 1: mysterious X. Ex. By the way, it's not like a

797
00:41:27,520 --> 00:41:32,719
Speaker 1: chemical or whatever. When you say the mysterious X. This

798
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:36,799
Speaker 1: is a conglomerate. This is multiple people that you are

799
00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:46,919
Speaker 1: referring to as one person. Correct, Yeah, okay, and these

800
00:41:46,960 --> 00:41:53,120
Speaker 1: are okay. So the mysterious X is a force that

801
00:41:53,320 --> 00:42:01,040
Speaker 1: is created by the traumas endured you at the hands

802
00:42:01,080 --> 00:42:03,600
Speaker 1: of all of your previous ex girlfriends.

803
00:42:03,920 --> 00:42:07,040
Speaker 2: Girl, yeah, pretty much?

804
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:11,319
Speaker 1: Okay, how many of how many ex girlfriends make up

805
00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:16,560
Speaker 1: this force that is the combination of all your ex girlfriends?

806
00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:22,560
Speaker 3: It was it was really like middle school high school situationships.

807
00:42:23,239 --> 00:42:25,520
Speaker 3: There was only like one or two that was like

808
00:42:26,120 --> 00:42:28,359
Speaker 3: we were kind of dating but not really, but it's

809
00:42:28,440 --> 00:42:29,400
Speaker 3: essentially like.

810
00:42:32,719 --> 00:42:35,360
Speaker 1: Middle school. These are middle school situationships.

811
00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:39,600
Speaker 3: It was like people I was talking to as like

812
00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:43,600
Speaker 3: you know, getting through puberty, like learning how to talk

813
00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:49,319
Speaker 3: to and like, you know, lots of you know, emotional

814
00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:52,200
Speaker 3: mistakes made. It's like just growing up learning how to.

815
00:42:52,760 --> 00:42:55,760
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm only I'm only nineteen now.

816
00:42:56,040 --> 00:42:59,000
Speaker 1: Okay, I was gonna ask how old you are? Because yeah,

817
00:42:59,080 --> 00:43:04,080
Speaker 1: I mean, dude, do you guys, I you're nineteen? How

818
00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:08,120
Speaker 1: are in what way? Is your your middle school relationship

819
00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:09,560
Speaker 1: still haunting you?

820
00:43:15,080 --> 00:43:19,320
Speaker 3: Unfortunately? It's like people that I still see every once

821
00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:21,759
Speaker 3: in a while and like randomly come across them at

822
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:24,319
Speaker 3: the gym or like there is still kind of in

823
00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:28,960
Speaker 3: friend circles. So it's like I get reminded of like, oh,

824
00:43:29,120 --> 00:43:32,239
Speaker 3: you know, me and that person used to talk and

825
00:43:32,239 --> 00:43:34,080
Speaker 3: we're like a thing for a while, and now we're not.

826
00:43:34,280 --> 00:43:35,080
Speaker 3: It's just awkward.

827
00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:39,600
Speaker 1: But dude, it's like, why is that? Why is that awkward?

828
00:43:39,680 --> 00:43:40,960
Speaker 1: It's middle school, man.

829
00:43:43,480 --> 00:43:45,960
Speaker 3: It's it's really not awkward. It's just me stuck in

830
00:43:45,960 --> 00:43:49,520
Speaker 3: my head making it awkward. Like exactly full conversations with them,

831
00:43:49,600 --> 00:43:53,759
Speaker 3: like nothing happens, but like in my head it's like, oh,

832
00:43:53,880 --> 00:43:56,960
Speaker 3: I got reminded of that one text I sent to

833
00:43:57,000 --> 00:43:57,839
Speaker 3: them that one time.

834
00:43:57,920 --> 00:44:01,000
Speaker 1: You know, dude, yeah, I listen, my friend, you have

835
00:44:01,040 --> 00:44:03,080
Speaker 1: a free listen. You have a free pass to be

836
00:44:04,000 --> 00:44:07,880
Speaker 1: as cringy and stupid as you want in middle school

837
00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:10,640
Speaker 1: and high school. Man, you're your knight to Why are you?

838
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:11,960
Speaker 1: What are you doing with your life?

839
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:12,080
Speaker 2: Now?

840
00:44:12,120 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: Are you in college?

841
00:44:15,400 --> 00:44:15,520
Speaker 2: So?

842
00:44:15,719 --> 00:44:19,680
Speaker 3: I was in college. I dropped out of community college, okay,

843
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:25,640
Speaker 3: because I've been doing all this like concert media stuff

844
00:44:25,840 --> 00:44:31,000
Speaker 3: and ended up kind of getting successful with it and

845
00:44:31,080 --> 00:44:36,080
Speaker 3: making decent money with it. And I was taking classes

846
00:44:36,120 --> 00:44:38,839
Speaker 3: for it just because I was interested in it. And

847
00:44:38,880 --> 00:44:41,560
Speaker 3: then I like didn't learn anything from my classes, and

848
00:44:41,640 --> 00:44:44,280
Speaker 3: I was learning way more by just being a doer

849
00:44:44,719 --> 00:44:47,520
Speaker 3: and going out and actually getting stuff done and networking

850
00:44:47,560 --> 00:44:50,080
Speaker 3: and meeting people and you know, going to do stuff

851
00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:52,759
Speaker 3: that I was like, this is kind of dumb. I'm

852
00:44:52,800 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 3: just gonna stop paying for classes and just go do

853
00:44:56,120 --> 00:44:57,000
Speaker 3: what I enjoy doing.

854
00:44:57,520 --> 00:45:03,919
Speaker 1: Cool, Okay, all right? So, uh you have a girlfriend now,

855
00:45:05,440 --> 00:45:08,839
Speaker 1: I do, well, So why and you're happy in that relationship?

856
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:10,359
Speaker 2: Yeah?

857
00:45:10,480 --> 00:45:13,839
Speaker 3: Yeah, very much. We've been together, uh a little over

858
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:14,799
Speaker 3: three years now.

859
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:19,719
Speaker 1: Okay, So dude, what I mean, I don't know if

860
00:45:19,719 --> 00:45:21,520
Speaker 1: you're I don't know how serious you are about any

861
00:45:21,520 --> 00:45:25,840
Speaker 1: of the ship. But like the conglomerate known is the

862
00:45:25,920 --> 00:45:31,040
Speaker 1: Mysterious ex I mean is that Is that really a thing?

863
00:45:31,120 --> 00:45:33,560
Speaker 1: That's like, you're in a you have a successful business

864
00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:36,600
Speaker 1: and you're in a successful relationship. Why do you give

865
00:45:36,600 --> 00:45:38,680
Speaker 1: a shit about anything that happened to middle school?

866
00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:46,400
Speaker 3: I really don't. I'm really like past them ultimately. But

867
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:48,879
Speaker 3: then it's like, you know those late night thoughts where

868
00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:51,920
Speaker 3: I'm up too late, you know, working on stuff I

869
00:45:52,120 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 3: just like get reminded. It's like, oh, you know, I

870
00:45:55,000 --> 00:45:57,480
Speaker 3: gotta reminded that person or like one of them randomly

871
00:45:57,520 --> 00:46:02,440
Speaker 3: added me on Snapchat like semi recently. Is like all

872
00:46:02,520 --> 00:46:06,040
Speaker 3: this just like brings back weird, awkward memories, you know,

873
00:46:06,160 --> 00:46:08,480
Speaker 3: throw my mood off for a day or two. And

874
00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:09,920
Speaker 3: then it's like, you know, when I'm back to like

875
00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:12,960
Speaker 3: normal life and I completely forget about it. And then

876
00:46:13,440 --> 00:46:15,360
Speaker 3: a couple of months later, it's like, oh, you know,

877
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:16,640
Speaker 3: I'm reminded of them again.

878
00:46:17,280 --> 00:46:18,680
Speaker 1: You know what I'm gonna do, Actually, I'm gonna make it.

879
00:46:18,800 --> 00:46:20,839
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make this worse. You want to hear something

880
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 1: that that will actually make you feel worse, go for it.

881
00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:29,440
Speaker 1: You know how You're like you're uplate at night and

882
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:34,200
Speaker 1: you start ruminating about like, uh, cringey stuff that you

883
00:46:34,239 --> 00:46:37,640
Speaker 1: did in middle school. Right, I'm gonna make it worse

884
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:42,360
Speaker 1: for you. And in just a few years you're gonna

885
00:46:42,360 --> 00:46:45,960
Speaker 1: be up late at night ruminating about cringey stuff that

886
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:48,239
Speaker 1: you are doing right now.

887
00:46:49,760 --> 00:46:51,719
Speaker 3: Cringy stuff that I'm telling a get go.

888
00:46:51,760 --> 00:46:55,000
Speaker 1: On the phone exactly exactly. This is the kind of

889
00:46:55,080 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: thing that you're It's like a cycle. You're gonna be

890
00:46:59,560 --> 00:47:03,520
Speaker 1: reminist saying on how cringey it was to cringe over

891
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:06,840
Speaker 1: your middle school ex girlfriend.

892
00:47:09,520 --> 00:47:12,040
Speaker 3: I just remembered, can I go on like a slight

893
00:47:12,200 --> 00:47:14,640
Speaker 3: side tangent, I have a little story that kind of

894
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:15,799
Speaker 3: pertains to you.

895
00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:20,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, sure, sure, Wait you have a story about story.

896
00:47:21,640 --> 00:47:27,919
Speaker 3: So you had an episode recently about a woman who

897
00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:33,719
Speaker 3: worked with rats, and you talked about like, oh, what

898
00:47:33,800 --> 00:47:36,680
Speaker 3: if one of the rats became sentient, and like would

899
00:47:36,719 --> 00:47:38,120
Speaker 3: you let the rat free?

900
00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:38,839
Speaker 2: Yeah?

901
00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:39,680
Speaker 1: Yeah I remember that.

902
00:47:39,760 --> 00:47:40,000
Speaker 2: Yeah.

903
00:47:41,040 --> 00:47:44,880
Speaker 3: Well, like the next night, I had the most vivid dream.

904
00:47:44,960 --> 00:47:47,279
Speaker 3: I haven't had like vivid dreams in a while. I

905
00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:52,399
Speaker 3: had the most vivid dream about a sentient rat that

906
00:47:52,520 --> 00:47:55,320
Speaker 3: like came out of a pool and was like talking

907
00:47:55,360 --> 00:47:57,960
Speaker 3: to me. I was like in my dream, I was

908
00:47:58,000 --> 00:48:00,600
Speaker 3: like I heard about this somewhere, and then I was like,

909
00:48:00,680 --> 00:48:09,520
Speaker 3: thinking about you in my dream talking to this sentient rat?

910
00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:11,600
Speaker 2: Is that weird?

911
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,400
Speaker 1: So you had had a dream about me?

912
00:48:17,440 --> 00:48:20,080
Speaker 3: Well, I had a dream about a sentient rat, and

913
00:48:20,120 --> 00:48:23,000
Speaker 3: then it kind of came like a lucid dreamer, I

914
00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:25,120
Speaker 3: kind of realized I was dreaming, and then I like

915
00:48:25,719 --> 00:48:26,839
Speaker 3: was consciously like.

916
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:28,840
Speaker 2: Oh, this is what Lyle talked about.

917
00:48:29,160 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 3: This is like it's like that trained situation where you

918
00:48:32,280 --> 00:48:36,200
Speaker 3: like you can either hit five people or you change

919
00:48:36,200 --> 00:48:39,000
Speaker 3: the track and it hits you know, one person and

920
00:48:39,080 --> 00:48:40,399
Speaker 3: you're responsible for their death.

921
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:41,120
Speaker 2: It's like what am i?

922
00:48:41,200 --> 00:48:43,960
Speaker 3: Am I gonna let the sentient rat go? Or am

923
00:48:43,960 --> 00:48:45,759
Speaker 3: I gonna like turn it?

924
00:48:47,560 --> 00:48:51,320
Speaker 1: Having the dream itself is like the train situation.

925
00:48:52,719 --> 00:48:55,680
Speaker 3: No. Well, in the in the episode, when you were

926
00:48:55,680 --> 00:48:58,520
Speaker 3: talking to a woman, she like raises rats to be

927
00:48:58,640 --> 00:49:02,520
Speaker 3: sped to like cats and snakes and stuff, And the

928
00:49:02,600 --> 00:49:05,080
Speaker 3: situation you posed to her was like, if you found

929
00:49:05,080 --> 00:49:07,400
Speaker 3: the sentient rat, would you just let him go or

930
00:49:07,400 --> 00:49:11,120
Speaker 3: would you keep him there to be fed to the snakes?

931
00:49:12,239 --> 00:49:15,439
Speaker 3: And I was like faced with that same situation of like, oh,

932
00:49:15,520 --> 00:49:17,359
Speaker 3: do I like talk to the rat and let him

933
00:49:17,400 --> 00:49:20,600
Speaker 3: go free and just let him like live a ratitudy life,

934
00:49:20,719 --> 00:49:22,879
Speaker 3: or do I like turn him into a lab and

935
00:49:22,960 --> 00:49:26,200
Speaker 3: like let people do science on him and find cures

936
00:49:26,200 --> 00:49:27,240
Speaker 3: to cancer or something.

937
00:49:29,760 --> 00:49:45,240
Speaker 1: What's your name again, Jacob? I don't think it's weird, Jacob.

938
00:49:45,280 --> 00:49:46,480
Speaker 1: Is there anything you want to say to the people

939
00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go?

940
00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:55,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, I would say, just just be a go getter.

941
00:49:55,520 --> 00:49:57,640
Speaker 3: Do things. It doesn't matter what you do, as long

942
00:49:57,680 --> 00:50:02,359
Speaker 3: as you're doing something. That's been my one of my biggest.

943
00:50:02,000 --> 00:50:02,520
Speaker 2: Things in life.

944
00:50:02,520 --> 00:50:05,000
Speaker 3: I've gotten to do some really cool stuff I got

945
00:50:05,080 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 3: I've gotten to shoe for a bunch of cool bands

946
00:50:07,280 --> 00:50:10,160
Speaker 3: and meet a bunch of cool people and do all

947
00:50:10,160 --> 00:50:13,279
Speaker 3: these cool things with you know, a hobby and an

948
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:16,120
Speaker 3: art that I never thought i'd be doing, only just

949
00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:17,960
Speaker 3: because I thought it was fun, and then I went

950
00:50:18,000 --> 00:50:20,040
Speaker 3: and did it. And now I get to, you know,

951
00:50:20,480 --> 00:50:24,120
Speaker 3: you do what I love doing and make money from it.

952
00:50:24,160 --> 00:50:26,359
Speaker 3: And it's a lot of fun and I love it

953
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 3: every single day. So just go do just don't don't

954
00:50:29,800 --> 00:50:31,160
Speaker 3: sit still. Just go do something.

955
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:33,120
Speaker 1: Thank you, Jacob.

956
00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:36,520
Speaker 3: Awesome, Well, thank you, Lyle. Have a good night.

957
00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:38,799
Speaker 1: Hey you too, man, good luck, good luck with the

958
00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:39,759
Speaker 1: mysterious X.

959
00:50:41,360 --> 00:50:42,399
Speaker 3: I appreciate it.

960
00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:44,560
Speaker 2: No, no, I'm thank you.

961
00:50:45,800 --> 00:50:56,440
Speaker 1: See Jacob. That was Jacob. Hello, Hi, Hello?

962
00:50:57,320 --> 00:50:58,200
Speaker 5: Oh is this the Get Go?

963
00:50:58,880 --> 00:50:59,120
Speaker 2: Yes?

964
00:50:59,239 --> 00:51:04,880
Speaker 1: Who is this? My name's Riley, Riley have do you

965
00:51:04,880 --> 00:51:07,719
Speaker 1: ever see this show? This is fucking Nickelodeon show. It's

966
00:51:07,760 --> 00:51:10,799
Speaker 1: called The Replacements.

967
00:51:11,160 --> 00:51:12,279
Speaker 5: Oh, I haven't heard of it.

968
00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:15,279
Speaker 1: Ah, there's a character in the name, right the show

969
00:51:15,320 --> 00:51:21,719
Speaker 1: goes Todd and Riley were oh so sad. Then they

970
00:51:21,840 --> 00:51:24,160
Speaker 1: replaced all the people in their life. You know.

971
00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 3: That's that.

972
00:51:24,719 --> 00:51:28,319
Speaker 1: It's about these two kids and they can point at

973
00:51:28,320 --> 00:51:31,440
Speaker 1: someone and press a button and they replaces them with

974
00:51:31,480 --> 00:51:35,480
Speaker 1: a different guy. Uh huh.

975
00:51:37,680 --> 00:51:39,600
Speaker 2: I one thing I ever watched.

976
00:51:39,719 --> 00:51:41,640
Speaker 5: Oh, we just looked familiar.

977
00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:44,359
Speaker 1: Oh you looked it up. Okay, I'm looking it up too.

978
00:51:45,239 --> 00:51:54,440
Speaker 1: This is definitely something that uh what years is from?

979
00:51:54,719 --> 00:51:54,799
Speaker 2: What?

980
00:51:55,040 --> 00:51:59,680
Speaker 1: Who created it? Wonder what they're doing? Now? Wow's let's

981
00:51:59,719 --> 00:52:03,480
Speaker 1: see created by Dan Santat. What's he up to?

982
00:52:04,680 --> 00:52:07,240
Speaker 5: What did he get my text?

983
00:52:07,920 --> 00:52:10,719
Speaker 1: Dan Satat was born in nineteen seventy five to Thai

984
00:52:10,840 --> 00:52:14,160
Speaker 1: immigrants in Brooklyn before moving to California when he was three.

985
00:52:15,880 --> 00:52:19,240
Speaker 1: What's he doing right now? Hold on, he's a commercial illustrator.

986
00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:22,120
Speaker 1: Well he's doing pretty good. He's like put you always.

987
00:52:22,160 --> 00:52:23,040
Speaker 1: He's making books.

988
00:52:23,840 --> 00:52:26,160
Speaker 5: Now like children's books.

989
00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:31,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, he made a book called a fish boy named Sashimi.

990
00:52:33,239 --> 00:52:34,240
Speaker 5: But did he get my text?

991
00:52:34,600 --> 00:52:37,719
Speaker 1: Are you hold on? Hold on, Riley, hold on, hold

992
00:52:37,719 --> 00:52:41,320
Speaker 1: your horses, Riley, Jesus Christ?

993
00:52:43,280 --> 00:52:44,640
Speaker 5: Can't we on talking to the get go?

994
00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:48,520
Speaker 2: Well?

995
00:52:48,600 --> 00:52:55,279
Speaker 1: Interesting? He was a commercial illustrator for GQ Russia. Oh uh,

996
00:52:55,920 --> 00:52:59,799
Speaker 1: he's got two sons, a bird, three dogs, and a cat.

997
00:53:00,400 --> 00:53:02,640
Speaker 1: This guy is cool. Imagine you just make like a

998
00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:05,640
Speaker 1: like if you just have three years where you make

999
00:53:05,680 --> 00:53:08,360
Speaker 1: a Disney Channel show and then you write children's books

1000
00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:11,760
Speaker 1: and you have a and then you buy a bird?

1001
00:53:12,920 --> 00:53:13,880
Speaker 5: Is it like a parrot?

1002
00:53:15,600 --> 00:53:20,520
Speaker 1: It doesn't say what kind of birdie? He just says

1003
00:53:20,560 --> 00:53:24,279
Speaker 1: he has a just says a bird, three dogs and

1004
00:53:24,320 --> 00:53:29,760
Speaker 1: two cats. All right, what did you want to talk about?

1005
00:53:31,239 --> 00:53:34,359
Speaker 5: I was going to ask your opinion on what you

1006
00:53:34,400 --> 00:53:40,920
Speaker 5: think about if smut books h are equivalent to porn?

1007
00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:47,200
Speaker 1: Are smut books equivalent to porn? Well, smut books have

1008
00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:50,200
Speaker 1: from what I understand, I from what I understand, smut

1009
00:53:50,239 --> 00:53:58,560
Speaker 1: books kind of vary in their level of graphicness. Correct.

1010
00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:02,760
Speaker 5: Yeah, and uh.

1011
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:06,560
Speaker 1: Do you I mean do you read smut books?

1012
00:54:07,239 --> 00:54:13,200
Speaker 5: Yeah? I mean there's like that really popular one it's uh, like,

1013
00:54:13,280 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 5: the really popular one is a Court of Thorns and Roses.

1014
00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:18,640
Speaker 1: And who does that?

1015
00:54:20,840 --> 00:54:26,960
Speaker 5: Oh, let me check. I have the book, but I

1016
00:54:26,960 --> 00:54:29,759
Speaker 5: haven't read it yet. It's by Sarah J.

1017
00:54:30,520 --> 00:54:31,120
Speaker 3: Moss.

1018
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:34,120
Speaker 1: Wait okay, so you have you have the book, but

1019
00:54:34,200 --> 00:54:35,120
Speaker 1: you haven't read it yet.

1020
00:54:36,360 --> 00:54:36,640
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1021
00:54:37,680 --> 00:54:43,640
Speaker 1: But uh but okay, but you read books of this genre.

1022
00:54:46,520 --> 00:54:49,280
Speaker 5: Like romantic fantasy books.

1023
00:54:49,800 --> 00:54:55,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, yeah. And do you I mean, do you

1024
00:54:56,000 --> 00:54:59,520
Speaker 1: think that they are on the same level as porn?

1025
00:55:00,960 --> 00:55:04,399
Speaker 5: I don't think so. But obviously a lot of men

1026
00:55:04,760 --> 00:55:10,279
Speaker 5: like and like the Manisphere saying that, like it's equivalent

1027
00:55:10,400 --> 00:55:12,600
Speaker 5: kind of but I disagree.

1028
00:55:13,000 --> 00:55:15,040
Speaker 1: Okay, well, so what so these guys from the manisphere

1029
00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:18,600
Speaker 1: are saying their equivalent? What what's what's their arguments?

1030
00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:26,600
Speaker 5: I mean, none of the men in like the Manisphere

1031
00:55:26,600 --> 00:55:28,400
Speaker 5: really have good arguments, to be honest.

1032
00:55:28,760 --> 00:55:32,200
Speaker 1: So well, I didn't ask if it was a good argument.

1033
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:36,279
Speaker 1: I just what is the argument of uh that it's

1034
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:37,080
Speaker 1: that it's porn.

1035
00:55:38,719 --> 00:55:45,880
Speaker 5: Well, but you're like reading it versus seeing the actual

1036
00:55:45,960 --> 00:55:50,160
Speaker 5: videos of porn, you know, uh huh, So I don't really,

1037
00:55:51,960 --> 00:55:55,200
Speaker 5: I don't know. I can kind of see it a

1038
00:55:55,200 --> 00:55:59,120
Speaker 5: little bit of being equivalent, but not to the extent

1039
00:55:59,200 --> 00:56:01,040
Speaker 5: that men's I think it is.

1040
00:56:02,160 --> 00:56:05,520
Speaker 1: Do like the men in your real life, do they

1041
00:56:05,760 --> 00:56:07,560
Speaker 1: do they believe that they're they're equivalent?

1042
00:56:08,400 --> 00:56:10,120
Speaker 5: Uh in my own personal life.

1043
00:56:10,600 --> 00:56:18,279
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean there is an aspect of okay, and

1044
00:56:18,320 --> 00:56:20,360
Speaker 1: there is an aspect of it where it is like

1045
00:56:21,800 --> 00:56:25,280
Speaker 1: genuinely for the plot correct like that, Like the plot

1046
00:56:25,360 --> 00:56:31,160
Speaker 1: lines of these books are meant to be engaging. You

1047
00:56:31,160 --> 00:56:33,400
Speaker 1: don't watch poor and for any sort of like engaging

1048
00:56:33,440 --> 00:56:35,800
Speaker 1: plot line exactly.

1049
00:56:36,080 --> 00:56:39,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, And honestly, a lot of the smut books that

1050
00:56:39,239 --> 00:56:45,359
Speaker 5: are popular are more it's like eighty no, like even

1051
00:56:45,480 --> 00:56:49,759
Speaker 5: like ninety percent of it is just storyline, and there's

1052
00:56:49,760 --> 00:56:51,680
Speaker 5: like ten percent of smutt you know.

1053
00:56:52,320 --> 00:56:54,560
Speaker 1: I mean, are you jacking off to this stuff? That's

1054
00:56:54,560 --> 00:56:58,040
Speaker 1: another big thing. No, if you're not jacking off to

1055
00:56:58,080 --> 00:57:01,279
Speaker 1: the star, then it's not even on the same and

1056
00:57:01,360 --> 00:57:06,280
Speaker 1: it's not even in the same universe, right, Yeah, Okay,

1057
00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:06,960
Speaker 1: have you.

1058
00:57:06,920 --> 00:57:08,640
Speaker 5: Ever read any spot books?

1059
00:57:09,080 --> 00:57:14,600
Speaker 1: When I was younger, I was like fourteen, I there

1060
00:57:14,680 --> 00:57:16,440
Speaker 1: was I actually actually think I've talked about this on

1061
00:57:16,440 --> 00:57:20,160
Speaker 1: the podcast before, but there was this like website called

1062
00:57:20,360 --> 00:57:24,240
Speaker 1: my first Time dot com where people would like tell

1063
00:57:24,400 --> 00:57:27,160
Speaker 1: stories about like losing their virginity and whatnot. I think

1064
00:57:27,160 --> 00:57:28,919
Speaker 1: there was just people, but a lot it was probably fake,

1065
00:57:29,000 --> 00:57:31,400
Speaker 1: but like people would just tell like stories about like

1066
00:57:31,520 --> 00:57:34,400
Speaker 1: meeting someone and then like having sex with them for

1067
00:57:34,400 --> 00:57:36,120
Speaker 1: the first time. And I used to jack off to

1068
00:57:36,160 --> 00:57:38,640
Speaker 1: that when I was like fourteen, But since then I

1069
00:57:38,680 --> 00:57:39,480
Speaker 1: haven't really.

1070
00:57:39,280 --> 00:57:44,720
Speaker 5: Been like, how did you even like come upon that?

1071
00:57:44,920 --> 00:57:47,640
Speaker 5: Because like when I was fourteen, I didn't even think

1072
00:57:47,680 --> 00:57:50,400
Speaker 5: of looking for something like that, Okay.

1073
00:57:50,120 --> 00:57:53,000
Speaker 1: But when you were But when you were fourteen, you

1074
00:57:53,040 --> 00:57:55,800
Speaker 1: don't look for these things. They just they find you,

1075
00:57:55,800 --> 00:57:58,280
Speaker 1: you know, like when you were fourteen exactly, like you're like,

1076
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:03,280
Speaker 1: you're listen, you're you read smell you're former Tumblr person? Correct,

1077
00:58:04,080 --> 00:58:04,360
Speaker 1: I'm not?

1078
00:58:04,520 --> 00:58:05,600
Speaker 2: Actually no?

1079
00:58:06,360 --> 00:58:09,680
Speaker 1: I mean no, yeah, what was your site? What was

1080
00:58:09,720 --> 00:58:12,760
Speaker 1: your thing for?

1081
00:58:12,840 --> 00:58:12,920
Speaker 3: What?

1082
00:58:14,040 --> 00:58:14,760
Speaker 1: For the Internet?

1083
00:58:16,680 --> 00:58:21,160
Speaker 5: I mean it was really just Instagram and Snapchat. You know.

1084
00:58:21,320 --> 00:58:22,439
Speaker 1: How how old are you?

1085
00:58:23,440 --> 00:58:23,960
Speaker 5: Twenty two?

1086
00:58:24,840 --> 00:58:29,360
Speaker 1: Okay? Uh, that's that's so that's a that's about that's

1087
00:58:29,440 --> 00:58:34,760
Speaker 1: enough of a generational gap. Uh.

1088
00:58:34,800 --> 00:58:35,480
Speaker 5: How old are you?

1089
00:58:36,600 --> 00:58:38,440
Speaker 1: Uh? Forty seven?

1090
00:58:39,760 --> 00:58:40,600
Speaker 3: You're forty seven.

1091
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:42,520
Speaker 5: You're like you were young.

1092
00:58:43,160 --> 00:58:45,800
Speaker 1: I'm not forty seven. I am not forty seven years old.

1093
00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:56,520
Speaker 1: I'm I'm who cares? Okay, so, I mean, what can

1094
00:58:56,560 --> 00:58:59,080
Speaker 1: I say you? Why did you want to ask me this?

1095
00:59:01,240 --> 00:59:03,400
Speaker 5: I don't know, because I feel like it's like a

1096
00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:07,560
Speaker 5: controversial question, and I've gotten like mixed reviews as to

1097
00:59:07,680 --> 00:59:12,000
Speaker 5: like other people's responses and everything. So I was curious

1098
00:59:12,040 --> 00:59:16,800
Speaker 5: to see your stance on smut books versus porn.

1099
00:59:17,920 --> 00:59:25,640
Speaker 1: Does if I search up Rouge the Bat from Sonic Nude,

1100
00:59:25,960 --> 00:59:31,160
Speaker 1: that's not smut, right, that's like what does that count as?

1101
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:31,400
Speaker 2: What?

1102
00:59:31,520 --> 00:59:35,080
Speaker 1: That's what would you? What category would you put that under?

1103
00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:38,560
Speaker 1: If I wanted to read stories about Rouge the Bat

1104
00:59:39,720 --> 00:59:46,040
Speaker 1: engaged in in a tryst with Shadow or perhaps on

1105
00:59:46,040 --> 00:59:50,040
Speaker 1: on one regardable evening the Eggman, that would that would

1106
00:59:50,120 --> 00:59:53,040
Speaker 1: be under a under smut?

1107
00:59:53,800 --> 00:59:56,240
Speaker 5: I guess I would. Yeah, that would be under smut.

1108
00:59:56,280 --> 01:00:00,960
Speaker 5: And it's probably gonna be on.

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00:59:59,160 --> 01:00:01,960
Speaker 1: On what what bad?

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Speaker 5: You don't know what good?

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01:00:04,680 --> 01:00:11,160
Speaker 1: What wet pad? Yeah? W A T TPA D it

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01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:16,880
Speaker 1: does this is a porn fan fiction? No? No, no no.

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Speaker 5: It was just like a like an app that you

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01:00:21,000 --> 01:00:24,920
Speaker 5: could uh pretty much upload your own stories, like you

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01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:27,480
Speaker 5: don't have to be like a published off like a

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01:00:27,760 --> 01:00:30,760
Speaker 5: like author or whatever. But some of the stories on

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01:00:30,880 --> 01:00:34,520
Speaker 5: there actually did get published because they were super popular,

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01:00:36,520 --> 01:00:40,920
Speaker 5: but watpad was like a big thing when I grew up.

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Speaker 1: At least, what was the most intriguing thing that you

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Speaker 1: have read on? What ped?

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Speaker 5: Oh it's been forever, but man, that I don't remember. Actually,

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Speaker 5: I haven't been on it in years, Riley.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you should check out that show the replacements. It's

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Speaker 1: pretty it's I want I'm gonna rewatch this guy Dan

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Speaker 1: Okay's so I'm inspired by this guy. He's had a

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Speaker 1: really long and good career. Man, he's fifty. How old

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Speaker 1: was he when he made the replacements? He was like,

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Speaker 1: my damn, he was like, what year was he born?

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01:01:29,760 --> 01:01:33,000
Speaker 1: Nineteen seventy five? He's thirty one?

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Speaker 5: Okay, so he was thirty one.

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01:01:35,360 --> 01:01:38,080
Speaker 1: Yeah that's pretty good. I feel like I'm almost thirty one.

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Speaker 5: How old are you?

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm almost thirty one, Riley? Is there anything else

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Speaker 1: you want to say to the people of the computer

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Speaker 1: before we go?

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Speaker 5: No, I still didn't really get your opinion on if

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Speaker 5: you think.

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Speaker 1: What do you mean and give what do you mean?

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01:01:58,560 --> 01:01:59,960
Speaker 1: And give my opinion? Well, what do you mean?

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Speaker 2: Give?

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01:02:00,880 --> 01:02:03,800
Speaker 1: I totally? I absolutely gave my opinion.

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Speaker 5: Do you think it's actually like equivalent?

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01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:08,360
Speaker 3: Yes?

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01:02:08,600 --> 01:02:10,560
Speaker 1: Well, I gave you my opinion. I said, it's not

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01:02:10,800 --> 01:02:12,480
Speaker 1: they were not even in the same universe.

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Speaker 5: Okay, okay, perfect, thank you, that's perfect.

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Speaker 1: You came in here with some kind of I don't

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01:02:22,160 --> 01:02:23,760
Speaker 1: do you feel like you got what you wanted out

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01:02:23,800 --> 01:02:32,240
Speaker 1: of this interaction. I don't know I can handle whatever

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01:02:32,320 --> 01:02:34,440
Speaker 1: the truth full answer is.

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Speaker 5: I mean to be honest, I'm kind of drunk.

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Speaker 4: Okay, and I didn't even think that I was ever

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Speaker 4: gonna be able to talk to you, so I was

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01:02:48,560 --> 01:02:49,560
Speaker 4: kind of caught off guard.

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Speaker 5: I thought it was, you know, shot in the dark.

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Speaker 1: You know, what do you do? What do you It's

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Speaker 1: Tuesday night? What do you are you celebrating something? No, well,

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01:03:06,440 --> 01:03:08,480
Speaker 1: every day is a day to celebrate.

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01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:13,120
Speaker 5: That's true. It's a you know, every day you should celebrate.

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Speaker 1: I'll see you around the universe.

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Speaker 5: Riley, all right, I'll see you.

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Speaker 3: Get go, dude.

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Speaker 1: Please tell me if someone else knows remembers this show. Uh,

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Speaker 1: it's a little strange that they can just like, oh fuck.

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01:03:33,160 --> 01:03:41,920
Speaker 1: Nancy Cartwright played the main kid. Gray de Leslie played

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Speaker 1: the other kid. Why do I know who this woman is?

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Speaker 1: She's like a super famous uh voice actress person who

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Speaker 1: she played she played uh oh, she played Vicky, the

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Speaker 1: babysitter on the line every nine nos Id just teaching

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Speaker 1: you to how to have your life, but he's not

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Speaker 1: really an expert.