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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Unbreakable mental health podcast with Jay Glazier.

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Speaker 1: I'm Jay glazer Today. Our Monday motivation is about healing

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Speaker 1: that little kid inside of us, and I've talked a

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Speaker 1: lot about that here and I'm breakable. When I went

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Speaker 1: to my recent trip to Thailand that deeper and healing

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Speaker 1: that little kid, and I realized that a lot of

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Speaker 1: what was holding me back in life when I did

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Speaker 1: things wrong or bad as a kid, and when you

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Speaker 1: have when you act out a lot as a kid,

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Speaker 1: and for me, I've depressed anxiety, so I'm bipolar and

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Speaker 1: a lot of add When that's the case, you act

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Speaker 1: out a lot, so you get in trouble a lot,

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Speaker 1: you get scolded a lot, you get punished a lot.

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Speaker 1: As a result of that, I've always felt worthy of

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Speaker 1: being punished, and I have a really guilty conscious And

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Speaker 1: it turned out I didn't realize it until I really

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Speaker 1: dealt with these monks out there who were my therapists,

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Speaker 1: how much I'm holding onto this guilt as a little kid,

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Speaker 1: and that guilt has made me feel like this terrible person.

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Speaker 1: I've talked about guilt on here, but I didn't really

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Speaker 1: realize where it's stemmed from and it's them for me,

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Speaker 1: as a little kid doing things that were labeled as

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Speaker 1: wrong or bad or you know, things have been punished for,

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Speaker 1: and then every time something bad happened in my life

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Speaker 1: moving forward, it turns out that I've said, yeah, of

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Speaker 1: course you're being punished for what you did as a kid.

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Speaker 1: That's a pretty bad hell to get caught in. And

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Speaker 1: I've been caught in that hell for my entire life.

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Speaker 1: It was groundbreaking for me to be out there with

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Speaker 1: these monks. And what they did is they said, I

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Speaker 1: want you to go back to that little kid. I

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Speaker 1: want you to see him there and what he did

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Speaker 1: that was so wrong or bad. I want you to

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Speaker 1: look at him with compassion. Was it really that wrong

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Speaker 1: or bad? Like if you look now as an adult,

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Speaker 1: would you say it deserved a life sentence for punishing yourself?

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Speaker 1: Probably not right? And for me, who I'm a big

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Speaker 1: God guy. So if you think God, who's all loving

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Speaker 1: and all forgiven, is looking to punish that little kid,

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Speaker 1: we're little kids. We make mistakes. It just happens. You

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Speaker 1: think we're getting a life sentence from God? No, So

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Speaker 1: go back and look at that little kid. Now, you

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Speaker 1: and God both look at him to other and let

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Speaker 1: him know, no, you're forgiven, you're good, you're not living

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Speaker 1: a life of punishment, and kind of free him from that.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, people, you have no idea how much

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Speaker 1: that freed me in my pain. And I still go

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Speaker 1: back now. I try every night and to let little

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Speaker 1: Jay know you're good man, You're okay. We're sorry you

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Speaker 1: went through this, We're sorry that you punish yourself all

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Speaker 1: these years at a guilt. You're gonna be okay now.

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Speaker 1: So I have to practice it. I have to get

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Speaker 1: deep with him every night. But this was deep for me,

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Speaker 1: knowing that it's time to forgive that little kid. So

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Speaker 1: I've talked in the past about shown him compassionate, but

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Speaker 1: now it's time to forgive that little kid in me.

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Speaker 1: And he's a lot happier knowing that he's okay. It's

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Speaker 1: not so bad. Change my life, folks, Let's keep walking

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Speaker 1: this walk together.