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Speaker 1: With Alexi Napola and Marisa Patton and iHeartRadio Podcast. Hi everyone,

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Speaker 1: and welcome back to I Put Forward a new week,

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Speaker 1: new info, new discoveries, and I'm so happy to have

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Speaker 1: my best Sie back with me today.

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Speaker 2: Alexia, how are you doing? Okay? Yeah, I'm not great. Well,

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Speaker 2: since you've been gone, I had to let.

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Speaker 1: The audience know what has happened in your life, and I'm.

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Speaker 2: Sure that they want to hear from you. So she's

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Speaker 2: here today, hot topic today. Tell me because I'm hop

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Speaker 2: of because well, you're talking.

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Speaker 1: About hot and you're in the hot seat. But you know,

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Speaker 1: I think the audience is going to give you grace

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Speaker 1: and we're gonna let you tell us as much as

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Speaker 1: you feel like telling us, because this is a thing

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Speaker 1: that takes baby steps and it's all very new.

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Speaker 2: And well, let's just dive in. I guess right. Okay,

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Speaker 2: So how are you doing?

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Speaker 1: Obviously some shocking things have happened in the last two weeks.

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Speaker 2: How are you feeling how handling things? Oh, it's been

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Speaker 2: three weeks, so I'm still taking it all in and

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Speaker 2: trying to understand to to process it. You know, I

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Speaker 2: think that, like in every relationship, you kind of like

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Speaker 2: go back, you know, to the seven years and we've

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Speaker 2: been together, because even though we were married for two

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Speaker 2: years and three months, because I count every day, you

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Speaker 2: just can't help yourself but to go back to those

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Speaker 2: seven years and say what went wrong? Right, I know

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Speaker 2: you're gonna make me cry.

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Speaker 1: Wait, traice system hard to talk, I know, I know,

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Speaker 1: I know, all right, take your time, take your time.

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Speaker 2: Time for the first week, for the first two weeks.

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Speaker 2: Actually still today it's been three weeks, and I'm still

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Speaker 2: going back in my head, like what happened? Yeah, And

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Speaker 2: you know, I'm a positive person, so I try to

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Speaker 2: think about all the beautiful times and we had together,

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Speaker 2: all of our beautiful troops, and I'm very positive. So

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Speaker 2: I want to remember that, you know, And I don't

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Speaker 2: want to have any anger. But I understand that an

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Speaker 2: anger is also one of the grieving stations. Stations are

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Speaker 2: I said, session, sorry, one of the stages of stages. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: I don't even know what I'm saying, okay, because I

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Speaker 2: find myself like lost. Yeah, yeah, yeah, you've been like

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Speaker 2: the blindsided. You're getting your bearings. Yes, So, but like

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Speaker 2: I said, it's been really really difficult. It's been very painful, hurtful,

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Speaker 2: and you know, I'm just getting through it. And I

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Speaker 2: want to thank you that have been like my rock,

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Speaker 2: have been by my side every day, and everybody, everyone's

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Speaker 2: all pour of love and support.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well everybody loves you and you feel good and

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Speaker 1: be happy.

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Speaker 2: And my children, you know, Peter and Frankie that I

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Speaker 2: have been, you know, by my side. And I just

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Speaker 2: believe that the only way to heal is with love

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Speaker 2: and through love. So I'm very lucky to have that

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Speaker 2: because I really do believe that love is the healing power.

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Speaker 2: It is. And you know what, you give so much love,

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Speaker 2: how you're not going to get it back. When you

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Speaker 2: give love, it comes back. When you give anger and hate,

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Speaker 2: that's what you get back. No, I don't want to

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Speaker 2: feel that. I'm never going I felt anything of you know,

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Speaker 2: hate or angry because I still love him and like

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Speaker 2: we love each other. It's not because we don't love

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Speaker 2: each other, but it's just very sad that I guess

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Speaker 2: we can figure out a way, you know, to to

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Speaker 2: fix things. And and that's why I was in such shock,

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Speaker 2: because I'm like a fighter, right.

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Speaker 1: Right, Well, somebody gave up somebody.

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Speaker 2: And I was never expecting that. You know, I thought

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Speaker 2: things were good. I wasn't either, right, I really was.

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Speaker 2: So it's been really shocking and I'm devastated. You know,

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Speaker 2: I'm pretending for tending but you know, to be okay.

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Speaker 2: But you know, I cry a lot. I stay busy.

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Speaker 2: I stay busy, which helps me a lot always, you know,

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Speaker 2: to think less of my own internal things.

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Speaker 1: You're very good at that, because I'm the first one

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Speaker 1: and just isolate. I isolate and lick my own wounds.

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Speaker 1: But you're very good at keeping busy.

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Speaker 2: But you also have Frankie. Yeah, well, I have no choice.

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Speaker 2: I have to be strong and I have to keep

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Speaker 2: on going. Yeah, I have to keep on going. I have,

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Speaker 2: you know, two sons. I have a business and you know,

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Speaker 2: and I have a life. I just can't afford to be,

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Speaker 2: you know, at home in my bed. Then that's not

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Speaker 2: how I heal, right. You know, for me, healing is

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Speaker 2: to be around keepers that love me. For me, healing

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Speaker 2: is you know, to go on walks to exercise. For me,

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Speaker 2: healing is you know, talking to people, just getting it

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Speaker 1: Everyone deals differently, everybody.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I'm very religious, so obviously I pray

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Speaker 2: a lot into prayer, you know, and praying a night

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Speaker 2: helps me fall asleep. I mean, for the first two

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Speaker 2: or three nights, I didn't even sleep, so you know,

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Speaker 2: I'm getting there, but I'm surprised you're sleeping already because

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Speaker 2: that's sleeping like five hours. But I mean for the

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Speaker 2: first two nights, like when the news broke out before that,

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Speaker 2: because I knew a few days earlier. I you know,

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Speaker 2: I just didn't sleep for like two straight nights, just

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Speaker 2: thinking it was like it was like a nightmare, like,

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Speaker 2: oh my god, what is this? Like I still think

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Speaker 2: this is real, Like I still think that maybe there's,

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Speaker 2: you know, a chance for us to to fix it

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Speaker 2: because we love each other. So for me, love has

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Speaker 2: always been such a powerful source. But you know, some

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Speaker 2: people argue and say, you know, love is not enough,

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Speaker 2: you know, and we're you know, into each other, we

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Speaker 2: like each other, like, you know, it was just I

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Speaker 2: don't know, like I'm still again just wrapping my thoughts around,

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Speaker 2: my head around it and just trying to understand how

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Speaker 2: we got here. Mm hmmmm hmm. Yeah. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: So and let me ask you something, because you know,

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Speaker 1: when the news hit the press. I remember someone DMed

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Speaker 1: it to me on Instagram and then I called you

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Speaker 1: and I said, oh my god, it's out. We only

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Speaker 1: knew like three or four days beforehand. What what what

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Speaker 1: did you think? Where do you think that came from? Like,

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Speaker 1: how in the world did that get out there?

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Speaker 2: I have no idea. I don't even know about that.

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Speaker 2: I know that I was driving and my phone started

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Speaker 2: blowing up and I had to pull to the side

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Speaker 2: because I was shaking and crying. I'm sorry. It was

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Speaker 2: actually talking no Johnny. I was talking to Johnny, and

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Speaker 2: Johnny was like, Alexia, please just pull to the side,

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Speaker 2: and I just like broke down, like couldn't. Like to me,

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Speaker 2: it's still like a movie. It's like a it's like

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Speaker 2: a surreal moment, Like I can't believe that this is

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Speaker 2: happening to me after seven and a half years, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: has this and like and how much love we had

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Speaker 2: between us that we will have a conversation and how

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Speaker 2: well you know, I was never given that opportunity.

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Speaker 1: Well, because it's like he's not like you. He's not

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Speaker 1: like you, and he doesn't do things the way that

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Speaker 1: you do. But I didn't think he'd do them like

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Speaker 1: this and surprise you. But some people just can't handle

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Speaker 1: the talking, you know, and it takes two.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, absolutely, And like I said, I mean for me,

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Speaker 2: everything I saw, everything was okay. You know, like couples,

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Speaker 2: you fight on a lot of things. It's very argumentative,

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Speaker 2: so am I. And so you know, we had some

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Speaker 2: good fights but that from that, some real good ones

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Speaker 2: for the books. But you know, but through that, like

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Speaker 2: I said, we would always you know, have a comeback

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Speaker 2: and you know, and you know and make up and

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Speaker 2: what not. Just a couples do right, right, And so

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Speaker 2: I didn't know that he could have been so unhappy

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Speaker 2: that he would fill for the worst. Yes, you know,

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Speaker 2: because I say that it's like a conversation you know,

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Speaker 2: deserve that. So after seven years, oh my god, that conversation.

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Speaker 2: That's just not even a normal way to exit a relationship.

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Speaker 1: You just don't get up and surprise someone and blindside

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Speaker 2: Like who does that? I can't think of what relationships

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Speaker 2: that's the most difficult because you know what divorces happened

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Speaker 2: every day, separations, breakups and whatnot. But it's not how

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Speaker 2: you come into the relationship, it's how you leave. And

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Speaker 2: I would have never expected him to leave like this.

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Speaker 2: You know, I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve it,

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Speaker 2: And that's what I need to tell myself, Like you

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Speaker 2: did not deserve this, because you kind of like go

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Speaker 2: know I've been a terrible wife, maybe I've been this,

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Speaker 2: that and the other.

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Speaker 1: You kind of start blaming you blame yourself every time.

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Speaker 1: What did I do wrong? What did I do wrong?

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Speaker 1: Why wasn't I good enough? Why wasn't I perfect enough?

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Speaker 1: And then we beat ourselves up, and then we try

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, you try to make it. But that's always

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Speaker 2: been me and he knows that, you know. You know,

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Speaker 2: I'm already to talk yet obviously when I'm talking from

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Speaker 2: a place of love and because how much I love him,

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Speaker 2: and I will hopefully continue to speak this way because

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Speaker 2: I want to feel love in my heart always, absolutely,

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Speaker 2: you know, towards him. So but I'm just so just

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Speaker 2: disappointed about the way he handled this, about the way

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Speaker 2: having to talk about this, like your my life changed

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Speaker 2: in a second, like everything in my life, like in

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Speaker 2: It was like on Friday night, we were out at

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Speaker 2: and that's it, and then you know, and then it

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Speaker 2: was over. So to me, it's been really really tough,

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Speaker 2: really really difficult. Sorry, my friend, that's been shocking for

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Speaker 2: me too. I can't even imagine how you feel. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: I mean, we were supposed to be in New York

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Speaker 2: right now, right now, right you Actually we're in New York.

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Speaker 1: We're doing New York, like from New York. We have

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Speaker 1: an appearance here this weekend because the show must come on,

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Speaker 1: the show must go on. But this was before, this

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Speaker 1: has been in the planning stage for six eight weeks now,

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Speaker 1: so we had planned to come Steve Todd, the four

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Speaker 1: of us, and then all of this happened. So and

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Speaker 1: then Steve said, well, you girls just go lectually. Probably

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Speaker 1: you'll have more fun with her alone. And now I'm

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Speaker 1: here alone with her, and yeah, there was a whole

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Speaker 1: plan for us to all be together.

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Speaker 2: So so to me and that and you know, many

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Speaker 2: other things, like I said that only him and I know, yeah,

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Speaker 2: and you know, and that's why I'm feeling the way

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Speaker 2: that I am right, you know what I mean, And

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Speaker 2: I can't say that I was blindsided.

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Speaker 1: So how do you feel at this point? I know

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Speaker 1: you're doing a lot of prayer and you're trying to

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Speaker 1: think of the good things, but you know, realistically moving forward,

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Speaker 1: I mean, at least for me when I have a breakup.

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Speaker 1: I've never been good at this because I am sure

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Speaker 1: like a lot of people out there, you glamorize the

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Speaker 1: good times and they always in your mind outweigh all

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Speaker 1: of the horrible things. I know, it's just something else

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Speaker 2: Like how could Like I can't cry in front of him.

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00:21:38,840 --> 00:21:42,000
Speaker 2: I'm always with him so you know, it's it's been

431
00:21:42,080 --> 00:21:44,680
Speaker 2: really really hard. I mean all of us, Evenugh I'm Frankie.

432
00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:47,560
Speaker 2: You know, changes aren't good for him. You know, He's

433
00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,399
Speaker 2: like the other day, we're having coffee and he's like, mom,

434
00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:53,600
Speaker 2: Tod's gone. So it was like I have to run

435
00:21:53,680 --> 00:21:55,480
Speaker 2: to my room to start crying.

436
00:21:55,160 --> 00:21:58,080
Speaker 1: Right, And what I mean, I understand that you want

437
00:21:58,080 --> 00:22:00,639
Speaker 1: to be strong for him, but it's okay you to cry.

438
00:22:00,880 --> 00:22:03,399
Speaker 1: I mean, should he should know that it's okay.

439
00:22:03,720 --> 00:22:04,560
Speaker 2: No, But you don't know.

440
00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:06,840
Speaker 4: No mom likes for their kids, you know, to see

441
00:22:06,920 --> 00:22:10,480
Speaker 4: them crying, you know, so you know, of course I

442
00:22:10,520 --> 00:22:12,399
Speaker 4: tried to do it like when he's not there, but

443
00:22:12,520 --> 00:22:15,520
Speaker 4: it broke my heart when he looked.

444
00:22:15,240 --> 00:22:18,680
Speaker 2: And he's like, mom, Tod's gone. So it's like, it's hard.

445
00:22:18,760 --> 00:22:21,679
Speaker 2: It's been so hard, Mariso. I would never imagine this.

446
00:22:22,560 --> 00:22:22,919
Speaker 1: I don't know.

447
00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:27,919
Speaker 2: I know me either. I'm in utter and complete shock

448
00:22:28,080 --> 00:22:29,479
Speaker 2: and dismay. Always.

449
00:22:30,080 --> 00:22:32,800
Speaker 1: Well, because you guys were used to, like, you know,

450
00:22:32,880 --> 00:22:35,200
Speaker 1: you would argue, you'd get over things, and you'd move on,

451
00:22:35,280 --> 00:22:37,119
Speaker 1: and you know, you get used to that kind of

452
00:22:37,640 --> 00:22:39,160
Speaker 1: thing and it becomes a routine.

453
00:22:39,240 --> 00:22:41,880
Speaker 2: And because we love each other so much and we're

454
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:43,679
Speaker 2: still saying, like I love you to each other, and

455
00:22:43,760 --> 00:22:46,399
Speaker 2: you know, there's it's like, I don't know, it's just

456
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:47,560
Speaker 2: so crazy that like I.

457
00:22:47,560 --> 00:22:50,440
Speaker 1: Don't know, is there a cliffhanger here? Is there maybe

458
00:22:50,480 --> 00:22:55,600
Speaker 1: there's a reconciliation. We never know, you know, Crazier things

459
00:22:55,640 --> 00:22:59,280
Speaker 1: have happened. Look at Liz Listen, Lisa Taylor and Richard

460
00:22:59,320 --> 00:23:00,480
Speaker 1: Burry the same again.

461
00:23:00,600 --> 00:23:05,800
Speaker 2: I will Yeah, you would marry him again. Yeah, I

462
00:23:05,800 --> 00:23:09,160
Speaker 2: would marry Todd again. Yeah you would. All right, Well,

463
00:23:09,720 --> 00:23:11,480
Speaker 2: I mean I only married. I was only married for

464
00:23:11,480 --> 00:23:13,280
Speaker 2: two years, so yeah, I would like to like have

465
00:23:13,359 --> 00:23:23,960
Speaker 2: a few more years with him. And by the way,

466
00:23:24,119 --> 00:23:26,679
Speaker 2: I had as many texts of people reaching out to

467
00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:29,760
Speaker 2: me and calling me as the day that Hermann passed away.

468
00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:33,240
Speaker 2: Even people that I hadn't spoken to in years and

469
00:23:33,359 --> 00:23:36,199
Speaker 2: I hadn't stayed in touch with, you know, called me,

470
00:23:36,640 --> 00:23:40,080
Speaker 2: texted me. And I'm still three weeks later receiving you know,

471
00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:44,400
Speaker 2: text and messages from people. You know, people have been

472
00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:46,560
Speaker 2: with me for so many years and I've gone through

473
00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:50,960
Speaker 2: my with me through life that and my journey that

474
00:23:51,240 --> 00:23:53,760
Speaker 2: you know, they're rooting for me because they're like, I

475
00:23:53,760 --> 00:23:56,399
Speaker 2: guess you know this poor woman. Everybody's like, but how

476
00:23:56,400 --> 00:23:58,280
Speaker 2: did it happen? Like he was so in love with you,

477
00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:01,760
Speaker 2: like you know, you guys are so in love that

478
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 2: that was the majority of the text. But what happened?

479
00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:07,000
Speaker 2: I mean, they're so in love, they were so good together,

480
00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:10,280
Speaker 2: they're so beautiful together. And that's how I felt the same.

481
00:24:10,320 --> 00:24:13,920
Speaker 2: I felt like, how is this happening? Why did this happen?

482
00:24:14,040 --> 00:24:18,280
Speaker 2: Like we love each other so much? So yeah, thank

483
00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:20,520
Speaker 2: you for you know, for like I said, you know

484
00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:23,960
Speaker 2: to all my friends and my family and my family

485
00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:26,840
Speaker 2: are really my friends because I have very little family.

486
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:30,640
Speaker 2: So the people that I'm referring to, you know exactly

487
00:24:30,640 --> 00:24:33,480
Speaker 2: who you are. And you know, once again here they are,

488
00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:36,840
Speaker 2: you know, voting for me and being there for me.

489
00:24:37,440 --> 00:24:42,639
Speaker 2: Do you still believe in love and marriage? And you

490
00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:46,720
Speaker 2: know marriage, I don't know anymore. Truthfully, that's it. I've

491
00:24:46,720 --> 00:24:50,080
Speaker 2: been lucky in love, but I haven't been lucky staying married.

492
00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:54,600
Speaker 2: Well to me, well you know so, but no, I'm

493
00:24:54,680 --> 00:24:57,520
Speaker 2: like done. I really thought I was that's it that

494
00:24:57,640 --> 00:25:00,560
Speaker 2: Todd was, you know, going to be my Okay, so

495
00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:02,840
Speaker 2: let's find her forever. Let's I am not giving up

496
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:03,720
Speaker 2: on load, Okay.

497
00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:06,080
Speaker 1: So Okay, so let's say you would have a long

498
00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:09,880
Speaker 1: term relationship again, but not sign the paper about relationships.

499
00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:12,760
Speaker 2: But I believe in love, so you're gonna Yeah, I

500
00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:15,840
Speaker 2: believe in love because I'm a hopeless romantic me too,

501
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:18,639
Speaker 2: and I need to be emotionally connected. You know, to

502
00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:21,600
Speaker 2: I already people, I already see your future.

503
00:25:21,720 --> 00:25:24,560
Speaker 1: And this is this conversation is funny to me because

504
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:26,840
Speaker 1: I know you're hurting and I felt the same way

505
00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:30,680
Speaker 1: in my last breakup. And here I am happy and

506
00:25:30,840 --> 00:25:32,960
Speaker 1: married and I don't want to be with anybody else.

507
00:25:33,080 --> 00:25:36,720
Speaker 1: But I'm really excited for you to do love so

508
00:25:36,760 --> 00:25:38,600
Speaker 1: and I can live vicarously through you.

509
00:25:38,920 --> 00:25:40,960
Speaker 2: And I'm gonna take charge of your love life. Now

510
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,840
Speaker 2: you're gonna leave me, My mom and your mother and Herman.

511
00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:49,199
Speaker 2: We're all in charge. Now, just leave it in our hands. Prayer, prayer,

512
00:25:49,240 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 2: and that my marriage didn't work out right well, Herman

513
00:25:55,440 --> 00:25:57,440
Speaker 2: wants you to be have the best and.

514
00:25:57,359 --> 00:26:00,199
Speaker 1: Be happy, and so do I, and so does I

515
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:02,120
Speaker 1: do behind and so does Nancay.

516
00:26:02,119 --> 00:26:04,479
Speaker 2: Oh, you know your parents always on people the lovels

517
00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:07,240
Speaker 2: always want that. Yeah, they always want that. But what

518
00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:11,120
Speaker 2: I can't do is until I haven't healed properly, and

519
00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:13,520
Speaker 2: I you know I can't move on.

520
00:26:13,680 --> 00:26:16,679
Speaker 1: Well, of course you need time to heal, honey. I

521
00:26:16,720 --> 00:26:19,239
Speaker 1: pulled a blanket over my head for two years. You

522
00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:21,640
Speaker 1: know that went two years is too much? Bro Well,

523
00:26:21,680 --> 00:26:23,960
Speaker 1: then COVID hit, so I got that extra year. I

524
00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:25,960
Speaker 1: did a year and then you know what, it's never.

525
00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:29,160
Speaker 2: Too much or too long. It's honest, whatever whatever may need,

526
00:26:29,320 --> 00:26:31,600
Speaker 2: it's whatever you need. I mean, I see people move

527
00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:34,280
Speaker 2: on after three months. I see people six months.

528
00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:37,200
Speaker 1: But they're not. It's not a healthy You're not healthy mentally.

529
00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:43,280
Speaker 1: For that, I emerged a butterfly, a self healed human being.

530
00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:43,640
Speaker 2: On my own.

531
00:26:43,640 --> 00:26:46,680
Speaker 1: I always say, like your wounds, I left my own wounds.

532
00:26:46,880 --> 00:26:48,800
Speaker 1: I never went to a therapist. I am a mom

533
00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:51,159
Speaker 1: or dad to talk to because they passed away. And

534
00:26:51,200 --> 00:26:54,000
Speaker 1: I did it all by myself. And we've talked about

535
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:58,760
Speaker 1: this before, and you know it made me better and stronger.

536
00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:01,440
Speaker 1: I needed that because I was very weak emotionally.

537
00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:04,440
Speaker 2: You know, maybe that's why I kept just jumping into

538
00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:08,240
Speaker 2: things that I wasn't ready for. So me isolating myself

539
00:27:08,280 --> 00:27:12,120
Speaker 2: and coming out stronger, maybe a better person, a better partner,

540
00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:15,840
Speaker 2: and I attracted something better for myself.

541
00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:18,080
Speaker 1: You know, so you know, you take all the time

542
00:27:18,119 --> 00:27:19,160
Speaker 1: in the world that you need.

543
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:23,680
Speaker 2: You know I'm talking about strong. You know. Everybody like

544
00:27:23,800 --> 00:27:26,800
Speaker 2: life doesn't prepare you for like emotional strength, you know

545
00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:28,600
Speaker 2: what I mean. It's like we're not born with that

546
00:27:28,760 --> 00:27:31,600
Speaker 2: emotional strength. You know, I have it because of all

547
00:27:31,680 --> 00:27:34,879
Speaker 2: my life lesson. Yeah, it's like everybody's like, you got this,

548
00:27:35,560 --> 00:27:36,680
Speaker 2: I know, but you can't.

549
00:27:36,800 --> 00:27:37,800
Speaker 1: That pisces me off.

550
00:27:37,840 --> 00:27:41,639
Speaker 2: Can I tell you? I know you are? That's what

551
00:27:42,119 --> 00:27:43,200
Speaker 2: That's what I keep saying.

552
00:27:43,720 --> 00:27:48,480
Speaker 1: Stop falling into this whole persona that everyone has thrown

553
00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:51,400
Speaker 1: on you. Alexi here so strong, You're so strong. Take

554
00:27:51,520 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 1: the time, cry, break down, be weak, do it in private,

555
00:27:57,160 --> 00:27:58,240
Speaker 1: do whatever you have to do.

556
00:27:58,480 --> 00:28:02,320
Speaker 2: But don't force yourself. That's strongest telling you, because you

557
00:28:02,359 --> 00:28:05,000
Speaker 2: know I speak from the heart. It's not the same,

558
00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:08,200
Speaker 2: you know, when you're fifty seven years old. My birthday's

559
00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:11,240
Speaker 2: next Friday, May through and I'm turning fifty seven. Yeah,

560
00:28:11,320 --> 00:28:13,840
Speaker 2: and it's like you feel differently inside. I don't care

561
00:28:13,880 --> 00:28:16,399
Speaker 2: how good you look at the outside and how healthy

562
00:28:16,440 --> 00:28:20,520
Speaker 2: you are, because thank goodness, I am, but inside it

563
00:28:20,520 --> 00:28:23,000
Speaker 2: feels different, like you feel like I don't have so

564
00:28:23,080 --> 00:28:25,320
Speaker 2: much time left anymore. It's true, you know, and it's

565
00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:27,320
Speaker 2: like starting over and it's not even about the man.

566
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:30,120
Speaker 2: It's starting over and so many aspects of that lie.

567
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:34,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, so it's yeah, it's very it's very

568
00:28:34,840 --> 00:28:36,880
Speaker 1: scary times, very scary times.

569
00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:41,680
Speaker 2: But you know what, I have no choice, you have

570
00:28:41,680 --> 00:28:43,960
Speaker 2: no every time I've had to be strong in my life,

571
00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:49,600
Speaker 2: it's because I've had no choice. Yeah, right, no other choice.

572
00:28:49,680 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 2: And you know what, You're right, I've come back stronger

573
00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:56,800
Speaker 2: and better, you know, how much more? Like how much more?

574
00:28:56,960 --> 00:28:58,880
Speaker 2: I know how much all I want to do. This

575
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:01,640
Speaker 2: is the last time and healthy and this is it time.

576
00:29:01,920 --> 00:29:05,240
Speaker 2: You know. I don't care about what other people think.

577
00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:09,040
Speaker 2: I care about you know, the material things and where

578
00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:10,640
Speaker 2: I live. I mean, I just don't want to have

579
00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:12,920
Speaker 2: to be moving every year or two, right, right, But

580
00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:15,320
Speaker 2: it's not so riet. I mean that's a different story

581
00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:19,400
Speaker 2: that having to move, so that's different. But I don't

582
00:29:19,440 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 2: care about any of that stuff. I would get all

583
00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:26,000
Speaker 2: of that up, everything, every single Paarachhue. I have every

584
00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:30,240
Speaker 2: single perse, every single piece of jewelry for my kids

585
00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:33,920
Speaker 2: and myself and taught just to be healthy and happy.

586
00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:35,960
Speaker 2: That's it. That's all I'm want. I don't care about

587
00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:40,920
Speaker 2: anything else. But you know, I guess I haven't been

588
00:29:41,160 --> 00:29:44,160
Speaker 2: fortunate in that way. You've been fortunate.

589
00:29:43,800 --> 00:29:47,840
Speaker 1: In many ways, and your future is going to be

590
00:29:47,920 --> 00:29:51,200
Speaker 1: bright because you're a very hard worker. People don't know Alexai.

591
00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:55,120
Speaker 1: She's a super hard worker, and she's always made her

592
00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:58,840
Speaker 1: own money, been very independent, had her own businesses. I

593
00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:00,920
Speaker 1: know they don't really talk about that on the show much,

594
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:03,760
Speaker 1: but you and I used to work together a lot.

595
00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:07,280
Speaker 1: She's always been an entrepreneur and an independent person, and

596
00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:09,720
Speaker 1: so you can always take care of yourself. You don't

597
00:30:09,760 --> 00:30:10,240
Speaker 1: need a man.

598
00:30:10,440 --> 00:30:13,000
Speaker 2: So that's not and I never and so you know,

599
00:30:13,320 --> 00:30:16,760
Speaker 2: which is very funny. So I have never been with

600
00:30:16,800 --> 00:30:19,880
Speaker 2: a man because of his financial position and how much

601
00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:23,120
Speaker 2: money he's had. Never and I've had prenuptials with both

602
00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:26,600
Speaker 2: of my husbands. That's true with Todd and with Herman.

603
00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:29,400
Speaker 2: So if you saw it, you would definitely see that

604
00:30:29,520 --> 00:30:31,040
Speaker 2: I'm not a gold digger. And now I haven't been

605
00:30:31,080 --> 00:30:33,400
Speaker 2: with any of them for their money. And many of the.

606
00:30:33,360 --> 00:30:35,280
Speaker 1: Things you have you buy, you buy yourself from me.

607
00:30:35,400 --> 00:30:38,760
Speaker 2: I remember the relationship already with money because Herman had

608
00:30:38,840 --> 00:30:41,560
Speaker 2: left me a life insurance when he passed away. And

609
00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:43,920
Speaker 2: my kids are trust so you know it had nothing

610
00:30:43,960 --> 00:30:46,040
Speaker 2: to do with that. But people are always you know,

611
00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:48,520
Speaker 2: quick to say, oh yeah, because you know this, that

612
00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:51,720
Speaker 2: and the other. And I even even think about Lisa

613
00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:54,480
Speaker 2: so much because she gets such as well yeah, and

614
00:30:54,760 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 2: I'm like, people don't understand that when you love the

615
00:30:58,160 --> 00:31:02,440
Speaker 2: person like and it's a it's an emotional stability. Even

616
00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:04,440
Speaker 2: if you know you fight or whatever it may be,

617
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 2: the dynamics of your relationship is you're like attached to

618
00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:10,920
Speaker 2: them psychologically, it's a lot. It's like you're co dependent,

619
00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:14,920
Speaker 2: and it's this emotional stability. So I'm more scared of

620
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:20,000
Speaker 2: that lack of like emotional stability than the financialstability, because

621
00:31:20,040 --> 00:31:21,760
Speaker 2: I know I can make money, and I know that

622
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:23,200
Speaker 2: I work, and I know that I have a good

623
00:31:23,240 --> 00:31:25,160
Speaker 2: income and I know what I have, so I'm good

624
00:31:25,160 --> 00:31:29,280
Speaker 2: with that. But it's like that emotional psychological stability.

625
00:31:29,360 --> 00:31:32,960
Speaker 1: Course, it doesn't matter if you have money, you don't

626
00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:35,520
Speaker 1: have money, or you live in a thatch hut with

627
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:40,840
Speaker 1: a mud floor underneath you emotional connection with another human

628
00:31:40,880 --> 00:31:43,239
Speaker 1: being and then they're no longer there that even if

629
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:43,920
Speaker 1: it's death.

630
00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:46,640
Speaker 2: It was like er my rug, like all of a sudden,

631
00:31:46,760 --> 00:31:49,400
Speaker 2: what how you say that pull a rug out from

632
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:49,760
Speaker 2: under you.

633
00:31:49,800 --> 00:31:53,480
Speaker 1: But even like when somebody dies that you you're close to,

634
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:56,400
Speaker 1: you lost that emotional attachment, that person is no longer there,

635
00:31:56,520 --> 00:31:57,920
Speaker 1: you have a right say that.

636
00:31:59,480 --> 00:32:02,760
Speaker 2: Is a lot like death because it's a loss and

637
00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:05,920
Speaker 2: you need to grieve it. And I think it's even

638
00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:08,560
Speaker 2: worse because you know the death. You know they're not

639
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:12,720
Speaker 2: there physically anymore. So it's easier because you're not seeing

640
00:32:12,720 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 2: the person, you're not talking to them. You don't have

641
00:32:15,600 --> 00:32:19,080
Speaker 2: to gut it. Does there are different things. I unfortunately

642
00:32:19,160 --> 00:32:21,640
Speaker 2: have gone through both of them. Absolutely, so I can

643
00:32:21,680 --> 00:32:24,560
Speaker 2: speak because I've been in both and it's a different

644
00:32:24,680 --> 00:32:28,440
Speaker 2: kind of loss, but their losses and you need to

645
00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:31,800
Speaker 2: heal from them absolutely. And you know, like I said,

646
00:32:31,840 --> 00:32:35,120
Speaker 2: it's been three weeks on my healing journey.

647
00:32:35,720 --> 00:32:39,760
Speaker 1: Well you look gorgeous, and you know you lost eight pounds.

648
00:32:39,840 --> 00:32:43,800
Speaker 2: It's you're killing it. But anyways, but I am on

649
00:32:43,840 --> 00:32:48,040
Speaker 2: my healing journey, and you know, I I'm very fortunate,

650
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:51,160
Speaker 2: like I was saying, because I have so many friends

651
00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:56,959
Speaker 2: that are like my family, and and that's the only

652
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,960
Speaker 2: way where I can do this. This is the I mean, honestly,

653
00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 2: the support system that I have. I'm very, very lucky.

654
00:33:03,960 --> 00:33:06,960
Speaker 2: And I tell all my friends every day thank you.

655
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:10,840
Speaker 2: You know, they all call me. They've offered everything from homes,

656
00:33:10,960 --> 00:33:15,880
Speaker 2: to cars, to trips, to to everything everything.

657
00:33:16,360 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 5: So see that's home, cars and trips. We needs a

658
00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:26,360
Speaker 5: man exactly. So they've offered men too, but are the

659
00:33:26,480 --> 00:33:28,960
Speaker 5: greatest thing in the world. We need a friend with.

660
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:32,920
Speaker 2: It wasn't anything, not only no, but you know what's

661
00:33:32,960 --> 00:33:35,720
Speaker 2: more important that the love that they have for me

662
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,480
Speaker 2: and my boys. You know, they've been in my life

663
00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:42,880
Speaker 2: in my happiest moments and my slightest moments, and they've

664
00:33:42,920 --> 00:33:44,240
Speaker 2: been there for years.

665
00:33:44,320 --> 00:33:46,520
Speaker 1: Anyone who's been here long enough seen.

666
00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:48,320
Speaker 2: It all exactly.

667
00:33:48,440 --> 00:33:52,360
Speaker 1: I'm a lifer, right, I've seen it all to twenty

668
00:33:52,400 --> 00:33:53,080
Speaker 1: four years.

669
00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:56,080
Speaker 2: Y'all do something. A lot of people don't have this, right,

670
00:33:56,160 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 2: you don't have aren't fortunate that way. And I think

671
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:01,280
Speaker 2: that that's why I can be with you here today,

672
00:34:01,320 --> 00:34:04,320
Speaker 2: because you've helped me tremendously for three weeks. Every single

673
00:34:04,400 --> 00:34:08,320
Speaker 2: day I would have to come here tomorrow for that event.

674
00:34:08,360 --> 00:34:10,680
Speaker 2: By myself, I wouldn't have come. Oh no, you know,

675
00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:13,520
Speaker 2: I just couldn't have done it now. But you know,

676
00:34:13,840 --> 00:34:16,520
Speaker 2: because of you, Because like my friends, you know who

677
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:19,960
Speaker 2: you are. There's so many of you, but you know,

678
00:34:20,239 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 2: and there's a few here in the room as well.

679
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:28,920
Speaker 2: And I think it's just such an important, you know,

680
00:34:29,320 --> 00:34:33,200
Speaker 2: thing to have absolutely in your life because and you know,

681
00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:35,200
Speaker 2: I never got you know, even though I was married,

682
00:34:35,280 --> 00:34:38,080
Speaker 2: I always kept my friends. And that's the best advice

683
00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:40,239
Speaker 2: that I can give. Like any of them, you kept

684
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:44,000
Speaker 2: them separate. No, I mean I tried to mix some,

685
00:34:44,200 --> 00:34:46,600
Speaker 2: I kept them separate. I kept them each on every way,

686
00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:50,200
Speaker 2: you know, because to me, my friends, you know, I

687
00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:52,560
Speaker 2: choose my friends. You can't choose your family, but you

688
00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:55,920
Speaker 2: choose your friends. So for me, friendship has always been

689
00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:58,160
Speaker 2: so important. My mom had so many friends because my

690
00:34:58,200 --> 00:35:01,520
Speaker 2: mom was an only child, so she always which is

691
00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:05,080
Speaker 2: a half brother, and but she didn't grow up with him,

692
00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,759
Speaker 2: so she was always her friends just like you, yeah,

693
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:10,719
Speaker 2: kind of like you. For her, friends were always so important.

694
00:35:10,760 --> 00:35:13,880
Speaker 2: So she always taught me that you needed to have friends.

695
00:35:14,280 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 2: And my friends have been my friends for like the

696
00:35:16,080 --> 00:35:17,399
Speaker 2: last twenty years.

697
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:21,960
Speaker 1: I actually, in my last breakup, I had to cut

698
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:23,760
Speaker 1: a lot of people out of my life because sometimes

699
00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:27,120
Speaker 1: maybe I'll have to do that too. Sometimes, you know,

700
00:35:27,880 --> 00:35:31,240
Speaker 1: when you come mingle friends in a relationship, they choose

701
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:34,080
Speaker 1: the exs or they choose you. They all have to

702
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:35,719
Speaker 1: make you know, you have to make a choice, and

703
00:35:35,719 --> 00:35:37,960
Speaker 1: you end up losing friends. But I feel like you

704
00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:40,640
Speaker 1: kept it kind of separate and you'll be okay. I

705
00:35:41,280 --> 00:35:45,280
Speaker 1: had a mass exodus that I had to make for myself.

706
00:35:45,400 --> 00:35:45,840
Speaker 2: Well used to.

707
00:35:45,880 --> 00:35:47,200
Speaker 1: Cutting people out of my life.

708
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:49,720
Speaker 2: Well I think so too, because those weren't really your friends.

709
00:35:49,719 --> 00:35:52,200
Speaker 2: So my friends have proven to me throughout the years.

710
00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:54,840
Speaker 2: Remember I went through a divorce with herman, and it

711
00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:57,000
Speaker 2: was kind of like the same set of friends. Yeah,

712
00:35:57,239 --> 00:36:02,040
Speaker 2: I mean yes and no, but they both loved us

713
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:03,759
Speaker 2: and they both liked us, so they were like, you

714
00:36:03,800 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 2: know what. But besides that, it was like a different

715
00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:06,239
Speaker 2: kind of Yeah.

716
00:36:06,480 --> 00:36:09,960
Speaker 1: He would have never said to anyone, you know, I

717
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 1: wasn't that person.

718
00:36:11,520 --> 00:36:13,520
Speaker 2: I think you should be put in that position. And

719
00:36:13,560 --> 00:36:16,200
Speaker 2: I'm really not worried about that anyways, because like I said,

720
00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:19,160
Speaker 2: my friends are my friends, you know for so many years.

721
00:36:19,200 --> 00:36:21,000
Speaker 1: Well, I'm not going to hang out with talk, so

722
00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:22,080
Speaker 1: don't worry about that.

723
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:25,560
Speaker 2: Are you going to follow him? Follow LARSA? Said up,

724
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:26,880
Speaker 2: who's them following him?

725
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:27,600
Speaker 6: Oh?

726
00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:30,800
Speaker 2: Should your friends follow your ex? Well?

727
00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 1: I mean that's next, that's next podcast, next podcast. So

728
00:36:42,360 --> 00:36:44,680
Speaker 1: let's talk about some more fun stuff because.

729
00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:47,680
Speaker 2: We got out with forward. Because okay, so I don't

730
00:36:47,680 --> 00:36:50,520
Speaker 2: want to cry anymore. I'm in New York City, the

731
00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:54,200
Speaker 2: day is beautiful here, and you have a bit of

732
00:36:54,239 --> 00:36:58,000
Speaker 2: a fascination with nudity and pornography. So let's just hump

733
00:36:58,080 --> 00:37:03,680
Speaker 2: into that. You're already smiling. Yeah, you always get to smiling.

734
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:06,440
Speaker 2: You are my friends. You are one of my friends.

735
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:09,000
Speaker 2: That always makes me laugh. Have you ever been to

736
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:12,799
Speaker 2: a nude beach? Bro? Actually have with Todd? What did

737
00:37:12,840 --> 00:37:13,840
Speaker 2: you guys get naked?

738
00:37:14,480 --> 00:37:14,719
Speaker 1: No?

739
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:17,040
Speaker 2: Did you know that? The naked thing? It was so

740
00:37:17,120 --> 00:37:19,480
Speaker 2: fun because you know, we live in Sunnyisles, so we

741
00:37:19,520 --> 00:37:24,240
Speaker 2: would walk in Hollandale Beach, the number one nude beach. No, yes,

742
00:37:24,480 --> 00:37:27,520
Speaker 2: it's in Hollandale, so you know we were. This was

743
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:31,000
Speaker 2: like in the beginning, Oh sorry, Halover, Hollover, same thing

744
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:33,400
Speaker 2: starts with an h oh, okay, Hollover.

745
00:37:34,160 --> 00:37:36,800
Speaker 1: Oh I just shook down the whole Hollandale neighborhood. That

746
00:37:36,920 --> 00:37:37,359
Speaker 1: zip code.

747
00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:41,879
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, Hollandale it's Hallover. Okay, their apartment's so weird.

748
00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:46,839
Speaker 2: Now down the real estate Hallovers in Sunny Aisles, which

749
00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:48,839
Speaker 2: is like prime real estate, and they allow that there,

750
00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:52,040
Speaker 2: which is fine because because it was there before the

751
00:37:52,080 --> 00:37:54,880
Speaker 2: prime real estate arrive. Right, you talk at Marco Polo

752
00:37:54,880 --> 00:38:01,640
Speaker 2: Hotel and Marco you know, all those other stuff.

753
00:38:01,640 --> 00:38:04,240
Speaker 1: But we have a bartender here. Mama needs a refail

754
00:38:05,719 --> 00:38:06,959
Speaker 1: and so yeah.

755
00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:09,239
Speaker 2: So actually the first time, well, I used to go

756
00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 2: to Europe, which obviously is on nud beach. They have

757
00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:16,759
Speaker 2: nude beaches. Everyone really topless, you know, back in the

758
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:18,200
Speaker 2: day when I was either way.

759
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:21,600
Speaker 1: I've seeing some sad ass titties on the beaches of Europe.

760
00:38:21,960 --> 00:38:24,040
Speaker 2: Of course, why would you do it, because they don't

761
00:38:24,080 --> 00:38:27,520
Speaker 2: do implants, I know, like the US, you know, like Miami.

762
00:38:27,560 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 2: Of course you'll come here to the nude beach and

763
00:38:29,200 --> 00:38:32,200
Speaker 2: everybody's tits are perfect, I know, but I saw some drippy,

764
00:38:32,239 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 2: poopy boobs.

765
00:38:33,200 --> 00:38:33,400
Speaker 7: You know.

766
00:38:33,440 --> 00:38:34,479
Speaker 2: They do it for what else?

767
00:38:35,719 --> 00:38:36,000
Speaker 7: Health?

768
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 2: Yes, D three Vitamin D. Vitamin D is good for

769
00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:43,080
Speaker 2: the rest and it lifts the back up. No, that

770
00:38:43,360 --> 00:38:47,680
Speaker 2: that's guy that would need a lot more than vitamin D. Okay, beatal, Yeah,

771
00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:50,239
Speaker 2: they do it because it's more like health and you know,

772
00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 2: it's just a culture. It's a cultural thing.

773
00:38:52,280 --> 00:38:56,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, pertaining topless when I moved. Let me ask you something,

774
00:38:57,320 --> 00:38:59,760
Speaker 1: and I'm sure you might agree with me. I'm just guessing.

775
00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:02,960
Speaker 1: Why is it always the people that shouldn't be naked

776
00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:03,359
Speaker 1: or naked?

777
00:39:04,280 --> 00:39:06,920
Speaker 2: Why? You know, because they're free not complain hold, they

778
00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 2: don't have any complexes. The people that have like the

779
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:11,360
Speaker 2: perfect bodies, they're like, oh wait, I have two apps,

780
00:39:11,440 --> 00:39:14,000
Speaker 2: not four, So I'm gonna leave on my shirt because

781
00:39:14,040 --> 00:39:17,240
Speaker 2: I'm fat. So the guy that's already or the woman

782
00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:20,520
Speaker 2: that really doesn't care about her physique and about what

783
00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:22,920
Speaker 2: her body looks like, she's the first one to take

784
00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:23,640
Speaker 2: off for clothes.

785
00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:26,440
Speaker 6: Oh yeah. And then the ones I have the perfect body,

786
00:39:26,520 --> 00:39:28,880
Speaker 6: they're like, oh my god, Vina, like I have like

787
00:39:28,920 --> 00:39:31,120
Speaker 6: a little like dimple here, like I have a little

788
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:33,040
Speaker 6: bit of cellul like and then mind you, the other

789
00:39:33,120 --> 00:39:35,400
Speaker 6: one is like yeah.

790
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:37,680
Speaker 1: And then the fat is of the tiniest pepy and

791
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:40,360
Speaker 1: then they go in the cold water and it's becomes inverted,

792
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:41,480
Speaker 1: like why would you you.

793
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:43,520
Speaker 2: Look that much to see all these deals details?

794
00:39:43,560 --> 00:39:45,759
Speaker 1: Like why would you take your pants if you look

795
00:39:45,840 --> 00:39:47,719
Speaker 1: like you have a clitterist and not a penis, Like,

796
00:39:47,760 --> 00:39:49,239
Speaker 1: why would you take your pants off?

797
00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:52,840
Speaker 2: Exactly complain. I think that that's for.

798
00:39:54,920 --> 00:39:56,760
Speaker 1: If I had a negative pepy.

799
00:39:57,280 --> 00:40:02,359
Speaker 2: But have you been? It looks like you've been and

800
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:04,799
Speaker 2: you and you stuck. It looks like it like you.

801
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,680
Speaker 1: I've been to Europe many times, but I mean here

802
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:10,680
Speaker 1: and all over. Oh no, no, no no. I went

803
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:15,799
Speaker 1: with Kelly, my child childhood friend that you know. She

804
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:17,680
Speaker 1: said to me one day because she was always crazy.

805
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:21,799
Speaker 1: She took she dived into the seaquarium late at night

806
00:40:21,840 --> 00:40:24,680
Speaker 1: and swam with the killer whales without fear. She would

807
00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:26,839
Speaker 1: jump up, could climb all the way to the top

808
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:29,160
Speaker 1: of the water tower and tell everyone to come. She

809
00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:31,680
Speaker 1: would do the craziest ship. One day she says to me,

810
00:40:32,040 --> 00:40:34,200
Speaker 1: let's go to the nude beach, Like there's a nude

811
00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:35,160
Speaker 1: beach on the key, and.

812
00:40:35,080 --> 00:40:37,720
Speaker 2: She goes, yeah, I remember on the key, yeah yeah.

813
00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:39,640
Speaker 1: And keep skating until we went to the nude beach.

814
00:40:39,680 --> 00:40:42,160
Speaker 1: We were in her little rabbit convertible. She was so funny.

815
00:40:42,200 --> 00:40:45,000
Speaker 1: Her car had a siren on it and she'd flipped

816
00:40:45,040 --> 00:40:47,480
Speaker 1: the switch and pulled people hot guys over and they

817
00:40:47,480 --> 00:40:50,440
Speaker 1: would pull over and we were the Rabbit convertible without.

818
00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:52,120
Speaker 2: A siren, but she had a siren.

819
00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:54,120
Speaker 1: Built into the car and it go whoa.

820
00:40:54,200 --> 00:40:55,000
Speaker 2: She like pull out.

821
00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:57,759
Speaker 1: People would pull over and then she'd just get their

822
00:40:57,840 --> 00:40:58,440
Speaker 1: phone number.

823
00:40:58,760 --> 00:41:00,440
Speaker 2: But she was crazy. I thought. We used to pick

824
00:41:00,520 --> 00:41:03,400
Speaker 2: up guys back by the way. Well, there were no apps,

825
00:41:03,400 --> 00:41:06,279
Speaker 2: there was no Instagram, there was no Tinder.

826
00:41:07,560 --> 00:41:09,879
Speaker 1: Apps, and tell people they're in trouble, you pat them

827
00:41:09,920 --> 00:41:11,799
Speaker 1: down and if the pad down felt good, you got

828
00:41:11,840 --> 00:41:12,320
Speaker 1: their number.

829
00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:15,680
Speaker 2: Anyway, so we went to the new beach. She's like,

830
00:41:15,760 --> 00:41:17,440
Speaker 2: let's go, and I said, okay.

831
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 1: I was always like a deer in headlights for there

832
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:21,520
Speaker 1: because I didn't know what she was going to camp with.

833
00:41:21,960 --> 00:41:24,520
Speaker 1: So we go to the new beach and there's it

834
00:41:24,640 --> 00:41:27,279
Speaker 1: was like, so we don't have to go back after

835
00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:29,640
Speaker 1: it's finished the story, because I don't want time to think.

836
00:41:29,719 --> 00:41:31,760
Speaker 2: Oh, like we went to the nude beach like nude,

837
00:41:31,800 --> 00:41:33,560
Speaker 2: Like I have to tell you my story. Okay, yeah,

838
00:41:33,960 --> 00:41:35,440
Speaker 2: I don't want to get sued for that. This is

839
00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:37,279
Speaker 2: quite humorous to me.

840
00:41:37,719 --> 00:41:40,480
Speaker 1: So do you remember the old masks that people would

841
00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:42,960
Speaker 1: like go swimming and snorkel with And the.

842
00:41:43,640 --> 00:41:46,880
Speaker 8: Mask was big mouse, It was big and oval, and

843
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:49,480
Speaker 8: it was a big like glass and it was all

844
00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:53,279
Speaker 8: one of the Okay, so we got there and there's

845
00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:55,359
Speaker 8: a guy coming out of the water and he had

846
00:41:55,400 --> 00:41:58,720
Speaker 8: the mask strapped around his waist and all his junk

847
00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:00,320
Speaker 8: was pressed up into the.

848
00:42:00,080 --> 00:42:04,919
Speaker 2: Glass of the mask. His testicles is peabeach. I don't

849
00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:08,600
Speaker 2: know you wanted to look whoa? Because I was fascinated.

850
00:42:08,640 --> 00:42:10,080
Speaker 2: I'm like, how'd you get that all in?

851
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:10,319
Speaker 1: There?

852
00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:13,719
Speaker 2: Is that your where your fascination of penises comes from? Well,

853
00:42:13,760 --> 00:42:18,320
Speaker 2: what's your childhood trauma? Fascination of penises come from? Where?

854
00:42:18,320 --> 00:42:21,879
Speaker 2: You're definitely not from a nude beach. Yeah, I was, yeah,

855
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:25,160
Speaker 2: and evident. It's so hard to hear it hadus yeah.

856
00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:27,600
Speaker 1: Because you're like, why would you be naked, put a

857
00:42:27,760 --> 00:42:30,640
Speaker 1: mamo on, throw a glass off, get.

858
00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:32,120
Speaker 2: The hell out of here? Where do you think people

859
00:42:32,160 --> 00:42:34,600
Speaker 2: look up more guys at a nude beach or women

860
00:42:34,680 --> 00:42:37,319
Speaker 2: at a new beach. I couldn't keep my eyes off

861
00:42:37,360 --> 00:42:41,280
Speaker 2: any of it. It was like, whoa. So I feel

862
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:48,279
Speaker 2: that men and women look more at men because I've

863
00:42:48,280 --> 00:42:50,600
Speaker 2: seen it. I've seen like guys and there, and it

864
00:42:50,600 --> 00:42:53,359
Speaker 2: doesn't even have to do anything with sexuality. It's just

865
00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:55,719
Speaker 2: like people are more curious, and I guess because it's

866
00:42:55,719 --> 00:42:58,799
Speaker 2: more like stranger, right, it's more unique to see like

867
00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:00,480
Speaker 2: a penis versus like a boob.

868
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:04,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, I mean that would fascinate me more.

869
00:43:04,760 --> 00:43:07,400
Speaker 2: No, I feel like I've seen like straight guys looking

870
00:43:07,440 --> 00:43:09,000
Speaker 2: at guys, you know what I mean. I think it's

871
00:43:09,040 --> 00:43:10,839
Speaker 2: just like a penis thing, Like everybody wants to look

872
00:43:10,840 --> 00:43:11,440
Speaker 2: at the penis.

873
00:43:11,640 --> 00:43:15,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I love a It's very fascinating tool. Right,

874
00:43:15,160 --> 00:43:17,759
Speaker 1: really is one of the most sot too funny. God

875
00:43:18,040 --> 00:43:20,200
Speaker 1: Creaty and I were, you.

876
00:43:20,160 --> 00:43:22,319
Speaker 2: Know, we lived in there in sunny House whatever, and

877
00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:24,360
Speaker 2: he knew about how over beach, so he's like, you know,

878
00:43:24,400 --> 00:43:26,520
Speaker 2: we used to walk on the beach. So he's like, oh,

879
00:43:26,640 --> 00:43:28,799
Speaker 2: let's just walk like a little bit this way. So

880
00:43:28,800 --> 00:43:32,080
Speaker 2: we keep on walking. But he knew exactly the day,

881
00:43:32,280 --> 00:43:34,000
Speaker 2: and I had forgotten that I hadn't like been in

882
00:43:34,040 --> 00:43:35,759
Speaker 2: Sonny House for such a long time that I had

883
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:38,120
Speaker 2: forgotten that there was a new beach there. And we

884
00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:40,400
Speaker 2: just start walking. He doesn't tell me anything, and I

885
00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:43,240
Speaker 2: like start looking at people and I'm like, oh my god, babe,

886
00:43:43,320 --> 00:43:44,000
Speaker 2: look at that guy.

887
00:43:44,239 --> 00:43:44,880
Speaker 1: He's naked.

888
00:43:45,280 --> 00:43:47,200
Speaker 2: And he's like I'm like oh my god, look at

889
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:48,799
Speaker 2: that girl. But by the way, there were so many

890
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:51,000
Speaker 2: more men than women. So that's why I'm saying, I

891
00:43:51,000 --> 00:43:52,680
Speaker 2: don't know, it's like that men like to have it

892
00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:53,920
Speaker 2: like you know, hang lately.

893
00:43:53,920 --> 00:43:56,839
Speaker 9: It's like a like whatever, a cruising spot. It's a

894
00:43:56,880 --> 00:43:59,480
Speaker 9: cruising spot, right, I mean it could be that. I

895
00:43:59,520 --> 00:44:01,839
Speaker 9: mean there were some women, but again I was just

896
00:44:01,840 --> 00:44:03,640
Speaker 9: looking at the guys, and he was like, oh, like,

897
00:44:03,719 --> 00:44:05,080
Speaker 9: don't keep on looking, because I.

898
00:44:05,040 --> 00:44:06,560
Speaker 2: Wanted to look at every single guys.

899
00:44:06,760 --> 00:44:09,719
Speaker 1: I find it quite interesting that then I would look

900
00:44:09,719 --> 00:44:10,320
Speaker 1: in the front.

901
00:44:10,560 --> 00:44:15,560
Speaker 2: Calet me finish my thought. The plus, he always had

902
00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:22,200
Speaker 2: an excellent tan okay, stopping. Todd never went there, and

903
00:44:22,320 --> 00:44:26,480
Speaker 2: actually all there was like noha guys, So I would

904
00:44:26,520 --> 00:44:28,799
Speaker 2: never go there. But no, but it was fun. So

905
00:44:28,880 --> 00:44:30,719
Speaker 2: him and I went as good to be the big

906
00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:36,239
Speaker 2: fish in a little pond. Huh, leave Todd alone, talk

907
00:44:36,239 --> 00:44:37,160
Speaker 2: about Steve.

908
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:40,640
Speaker 1: Took me to a new beach.

909
00:44:40,920 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 2: He didn't take me. We were walking and we lived

910
00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:47,080
Speaker 2: next door under we lived. We lived next door, and

911
00:44:47,120 --> 00:44:49,080
Speaker 2: it was just cool. We're walking on the beach and

912
00:44:49,120 --> 00:44:52,040
Speaker 2: he knew exactly that we were approaching all over and

913
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,759
Speaker 2: we're walking like towards the bridge, and all of a

914
00:44:54,800 --> 00:44:56,680
Speaker 2: sudden he could see my face. You know, I'm trying

915
00:44:56,680 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 2: not to look, but I'm looking at it light up

916
00:44:59,239 --> 00:45:00,960
Speaker 2: and all of a sudden, I know, because I didn't

917
00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:02,920
Speaker 2: even know. I had forgotten about how over. So I

918
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:04,719
Speaker 2: was like, oh my god, that guy's naked. And then

919
00:45:04,719 --> 00:45:06,640
Speaker 2: I looked again. The guy's nagging, and we're like, what's

920
00:45:06,680 --> 00:45:08,799
Speaker 2: going on? Everybody's naked here. So we were like I

921
00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:10,880
Speaker 2: was in my beginning, he was in his in his

922
00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:12,440
Speaker 2: bathing suit, would.

923
00:45:12,239 --> 00:45:14,160
Speaker 1: You but we thought we want to lay out naked,

924
00:45:14,480 --> 00:45:15,920
Speaker 1: even if everyone's laying out.

925
00:45:16,560 --> 00:45:18,400
Speaker 2: I would do it like alone with talk now with

926
00:45:18,440 --> 00:45:20,759
Speaker 2: other people, like I would do it like with him

927
00:45:20,880 --> 00:45:22,799
Speaker 2: like in Europe, you know, like on a boat or

928
00:45:22,840 --> 00:45:25,279
Speaker 2: you know something like that. Okay, on a beach with

929
00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:30,080
Speaker 2: other people. No, not really. And would you take it

930
00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:33,560
Speaker 2: all off or just your top? My top for sure? Yeah, yeah,

931
00:45:33,680 --> 00:45:35,600
Speaker 2: I could take off my top, like you don't want

932
00:45:35,600 --> 00:45:38,200
Speaker 2: to burn the goods down, you know down there. I

933
00:45:38,239 --> 00:45:40,279
Speaker 2: think it's like a little weird, you know, maybe like

934
00:45:40,320 --> 00:45:42,279
Speaker 2: a little little tiny like g I mean, you go

935
00:45:42,280 --> 00:45:44,040
Speaker 2: to the beach here anyways, and all the beaches in

936
00:45:44,120 --> 00:45:46,360
Speaker 2: Miami looks like a nude beach because all their asses

937
00:45:46,360 --> 00:45:48,600
Speaker 2: are out, It's true, you know, and all the boobs

938
00:45:48,600 --> 00:45:50,680
Speaker 2: are out and whatever. So you know what, It's kind

939
00:45:50,719 --> 00:45:53,600
Speaker 2: of like every beach is a nude beach nowadays. But

940
00:45:53,640 --> 00:45:56,480
Speaker 2: it is funny and it's it is entertaining to like

941
00:45:56,600 --> 00:45:59,880
Speaker 2: walk by it and see like so many people naked

942
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:01,799
Speaker 2: at the same time, and they all have a great tan.

943
00:46:02,920 --> 00:46:06,279
Speaker 2: That's why I said, you know, you know, I'm not

944
00:46:06,320 --> 00:46:06,560
Speaker 2: going to.

945
00:46:06,560 --> 00:46:07,120
Speaker 1: Say that name.

946
00:46:07,239 --> 00:46:08,680
Speaker 2: They're gonna threw you bro, not me.

947
00:46:09,000 --> 00:46:11,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, who's gonna assume he had a good tan?

948
00:46:11,480 --> 00:46:13,640
Speaker 2: And he knew where the new six is that going

949
00:46:13,719 --> 00:46:15,239
Speaker 2: to come out of page six? That's going to be

950
00:46:15,239 --> 00:46:18,200
Speaker 2: the headlight. That's going to be the headlights? You said,

951
00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:20,840
Speaker 2: not me. It's a grand poola hall over me.

952
00:46:23,400 --> 00:46:28,520
Speaker 1: All right, let's let's just say nude is going public.

953
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 2: Norwegian cruise lines get them on the wins.

954
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Speaker 1: Now has nude cruises, Norwegian Norwegianduego. It's called the Norwegian Pearl.

955
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Speaker 2: Pearl La La La La. It's set sail in twenty

956
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Speaker 2: twenty five.

957
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Speaker 1: It's an eleven. Yes, I got the deacon. Did you

958
00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 1: book that already?

959
00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:55,360
Speaker 6: No?

960
00:46:55,480 --> 00:46:58,920
Speaker 2: Man, that's not for me. It's a right voyage throughout

961
00:46:58,960 --> 00:47:01,600
Speaker 2: the caravan in days days.

962
00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:05,840
Speaker 1: You know, can suitcases? Oh my god, listen, you know

963
00:47:05,880 --> 00:47:08,960
Speaker 1: we're gonna make money with like a soothing sun block

964
00:47:09,040 --> 00:47:14,640
Speaker 1: for penises, because soothing a soothing sun block?

965
00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:17,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, how you're going to have your people imagine

966
00:47:17,920 --> 00:47:19,680
Speaker 2: like applying it and like yeah, that's weird.

967
00:47:19,880 --> 00:47:22,480
Speaker 10: Well, they might have appliers on the ship that might

968
00:47:22,480 --> 00:47:25,000
Speaker 10: be like a whole other service so they can make

969
00:47:25,040 --> 00:47:26,399
Speaker 10: money on. We need to go on there and help

970
00:47:26,400 --> 00:47:31,360
Speaker 10: them with their marketing. Think about the cruise ship workers.

971
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:35,160
Speaker 2: Oh my god, Yeah, that's too much for me. I

972
00:47:35,200 --> 00:47:38,960
Speaker 2: can't Yeah, so you wouldn't do that. I definitely would

973
00:47:39,000 --> 00:47:39,360
Speaker 2: not do that.

974
00:47:39,440 --> 00:47:42,000
Speaker 1: I wonder who they market do they? Who are they

975
00:47:42,040 --> 00:47:45,320
Speaker 1: marketing for this crazy local people?

976
00:47:46,040 --> 00:47:49,560
Speaker 2: Yeah? Right, and it's maybe like that's on their bucket

977
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:52,480
Speaker 2: list or like like a free experience, but like maybe

978
00:47:52,520 --> 00:47:55,120
Speaker 2: one day. This is an eleven day cruise, right, Like

979
00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:59,600
Speaker 2: who's going to be naked for eleven days? Naked? And wait,

980
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:02,440
Speaker 2: how many passengers? So how many oh those cruise ships?

981
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 2: Are you like five thousand people? Well? I don't know,

982
00:48:05,120 --> 00:48:07,160
Speaker 2: I would say at least two thousand. Where do you

983
00:48:07,200 --> 00:48:09,680
Speaker 2: find two thousand people that want to hang out naked

984
00:48:09,719 --> 00:48:13,440
Speaker 2: for eleven days straight in Miami? Is that? Where? Is that?

985
00:48:13,560 --> 00:48:16,960
Speaker 1: Where it should be an only fans ship and everyone's

986
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:18,520
Speaker 1: just you know, getting content.

987
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:20,759
Speaker 2: It's a whole little it's a little. If you want

988
00:48:20,760 --> 00:48:23,480
Speaker 2: to talk about OnlyFans, you do it. I'm just saying

989
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:26,680
Speaker 2: it's up today. It's crazy thought.

990
00:48:26,760 --> 00:48:29,640
Speaker 1: So, so do you think, like, how would you feel

991
00:48:29,680 --> 00:48:33,440
Speaker 1: that your waiter serves you his food naked and your

992
00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:34,640
Speaker 1: bar turner makes you is.

993
00:48:35,840 --> 00:48:38,720
Speaker 2: In order a hot dog? I ordered a burger.

994
00:48:38,520 --> 00:48:41,840
Speaker 1: Exactly, okay? And why are you starting my drink with

995
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:43,640
Speaker 1: your unit type of thing?

996
00:48:44,040 --> 00:48:48,000
Speaker 2: Right? I would do these requirements you have to have

997
00:48:48,080 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 2: it like a certain size or oh my, a certain way.

998
00:48:51,840 --> 00:48:54,280
Speaker 2: What about the women too? I think that's gross. Honestly,

999
00:48:54,320 --> 00:48:55,720
Speaker 2: that's gross. Is your reader really.

1000
00:48:55,560 --> 00:48:58,520
Speaker 1: Doing this or not pulling your leg? It's all over

1001
00:48:58,560 --> 00:48:59,120
Speaker 1: the internet.

1002
00:48:59,200 --> 00:49:01,799
Speaker 2: You haven't seen it? Oh I am? But is that

1003
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:04,359
Speaker 2: even allowed? I thought there was like a lot or something. Now,

1004
00:49:04,719 --> 00:49:06,680
Speaker 2: so what do you think the least people swingers going

1005
00:49:06,680 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 2: on these shay they're like they're they're so liberal and

1006
00:49:10,680 --> 00:49:13,440
Speaker 2: they go topless and blah blah blah. And then in America.

1007
00:49:13,520 --> 00:49:17,640
Speaker 2: We're having ships out of Miami. But you know, Chips,

1008
00:49:17,719 --> 00:49:21,879
Speaker 2: you know, a nude cruise is code for swinging. It's

1009
00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:25,879
Speaker 2: a swing ship. It's oh yeah, you know, everything goes.

1010
00:49:25,960 --> 00:49:29,000
Speaker 2: I mean, if you if you can be naked around

1011
00:49:29,200 --> 00:49:33,080
Speaker 2: two thousand other people, of course they're going to do everything.

1012
00:49:33,360 --> 00:49:35,080
Speaker 2: And do you think they go to dinner naked too,

1013
00:49:35,880 --> 00:49:39,880
Speaker 2: and go to like the General, like the bar, or

1014
00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:43,000
Speaker 2: like that big slopper. I mean, I get it to

1015
00:49:43,080 --> 00:49:46,399
Speaker 2: fool like the four the Chakuzie. Okay, if you want

1016
00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:48,359
Speaker 2: to go and naked. I mean it's so gross because

1017
00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:50,160
Speaker 2: you know, everybody peas there and the whole thing. But

1018
00:49:50,880 --> 00:49:53,560
Speaker 2: it's so gross. But imagine at the restaurant everybody's sitting

1019
00:49:53,680 --> 00:49:56,360
Speaker 2: and everybody's like naked, right, And what about people that

1020
00:49:56,400 --> 00:50:01,120
Speaker 2: aren't groomed. Grooming is a high of high importance to me,

1021
00:50:01,760 --> 00:50:04,239
Speaker 2: Like it's a fifteen off, so little veil. They're not

1022
00:50:04,239 --> 00:50:05,680
Speaker 2: going to be of their European they're not going to

1023
00:50:05,680 --> 00:50:08,880
Speaker 2: be groomed. Yeah, in some countries more than others.

1024
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:11,640
Speaker 1: No, of course, Well that's not gonna be part of

1025
00:50:11,680 --> 00:50:13,399
Speaker 1: your dating repertoire at all.

1026
00:50:13,840 --> 00:50:16,920
Speaker 2: I have plans for Alexia, and it's not going on

1027
00:50:16,920 --> 00:50:17,440
Speaker 2: that cruise.

1028
00:50:17,560 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 1: No, absolutely not, absolutely not, And you're not going to

1029
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:22,080
Speaker 1: get a job there either because you don't need it.

1030
00:50:29,680 --> 00:50:32,360
Speaker 2: Well, my friend, this has been so fun. Thank you

1031
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:36,279
Speaker 2: for making me laugh. I always do after all of

1032
00:50:36,320 --> 00:50:40,200
Speaker 2: my crying. You honestly, you really bring so much stoy

1033
00:50:40,280 --> 00:50:42,200
Speaker 2: in my life. What can I tell you?

1034
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:46,200
Speaker 1: And you make me laugh, you make me giggle, I

1035
00:50:46,280 --> 00:50:47,200
Speaker 1: make myself giggle.

1036
00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:50,000
Speaker 2: You make me forget about everything else that's going on.

1037
00:50:50,480 --> 00:50:52,319
Speaker 2: I forget about everything going on too, and then you

1038
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:57,439
Speaker 2: have to remind me arantine we're a good team. Yeah,

1039
00:50:57,600 --> 00:50:59,319
Speaker 2: maybe we should go on a cruise, but not that

1040
00:50:59,400 --> 00:51:00,000
Speaker 2: kind of a cruise.

1041
00:51:00,480 --> 00:51:02,920
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, all right, I'll work on that.

1042
00:51:03,080 --> 00:51:05,960
Speaker 10: Yes, listen, if you're like a high end cruise line

1043
00:51:06,239 --> 00:51:09,160
Speaker 10: and you want to sponsor me and bro, like it's

1044
00:51:09,200 --> 00:51:10,759
Speaker 10: Carlton Cruises or.

1045
00:51:11,200 --> 00:51:13,719
Speaker 2: For celebrity Royal Caribbean.

1046
00:51:14,520 --> 00:51:21,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, anything, but we want a cruise with people

1047
00:51:21,560 --> 00:51:22,240
Speaker 1: that work clothes.

1048
00:51:22,680 --> 00:51:27,760
Speaker 2: Yeah, clothing clothing required. Uh huh.

1049
00:51:28,000 --> 00:51:32,080
Speaker 7: All right, everyone, thanks for listening, Thank you, Thanks much, wrong,

1050
00:51:32,200 --> 00:51:34,479
Speaker 7: thank you, and I know this is very hard for you,

1051
00:51:34,920 --> 00:51:40,640
Speaker 7: and let's keep supporting a lank you for love Instagram.

1052
00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:42,920
Speaker 2: On my Instagram in real life, not on my Instagram.

1053
00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,279
Speaker 2: I don't know you. You don't know you, so the

1054
00:51:45,320 --> 00:51:47,440
Speaker 2: only one that can allow you come up to me

1055
00:51:47,560 --> 00:51:50,080
Speaker 2: and whatever. Just be kind, not only to me, I

1056
00:51:50,120 --> 00:51:52,600
Speaker 2: want everybody to just be kind to every kind to

1057
00:51:52,640 --> 00:51:53,160
Speaker 2: one another.

1058
00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:54,040
Speaker 1: You never know what.

1059
00:51:54,000 --> 00:51:55,960
Speaker 2: People are going through in their lives. You know, you

1060
00:51:56,080 --> 00:51:58,879
Speaker 2: never really know the truth. You don't live with us,

1061
00:51:59,280 --> 00:52:01,919
Speaker 2: you know, just like you know, be even us here

1062
00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:04,080
Speaker 2: that we talk about other people. You know, this like

1063
00:52:04,120 --> 00:52:07,200
Speaker 2: our job because it's hot topics, and sometimes you know,

1064
00:52:07,239 --> 00:52:09,400
Speaker 2: we have to talk about other customs. Sometimes we're heartless

1065
00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:14,360
Speaker 2: and ruthless. You know. I tend to not be you know,

1066
00:52:14,400 --> 00:52:18,560
Speaker 2: so judgmental, mad my opinion, but you know, I don't

1067
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:21,600
Speaker 2: like to hurt people. So you know, just be thoughtful,

1068
00:52:21,719 --> 00:52:22,520
Speaker 2: you know, be kind.

1069
00:52:22,960 --> 00:52:24,960
Speaker 1: We're all we're all out here hurt, and we're all

1070
00:52:25,000 --> 00:52:28,319
Speaker 1: out here human. Right, all right, everyone, thanks so much

1071
00:52:28,360 --> 00:52:28,960
Speaker 1: for listening.

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00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:33,000
Speaker 2: I put forward I found Thanks for listening.

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