WEBVTT - Episode 196 "Omeretta" 0:00:01.360 --> 0:00:13.200 Hold up, Hold up, ladies and gentle show fall Alert, 0:00:13.280 --> 0:00:15.520 Ball of Alert, Ball of Alert. Welcome to the Ball 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:18.560 of Alert Show podcast, available everywhere you get your podcasts. 0:00:18.560 --> 0:00:20.480 I go by the name of Ferrari Simmons. What is 0:00:20.520 --> 0:00:23.720 your best TIS solo? You know BT, I'm in the building. 0:00:24.960 --> 0:00:29.360 Oh man, our special guest host is in the building. Stop, 0:00:32.400 --> 0:00:37.800 I'm a readers in the building. Hard Yeah, you're also 0:00:37.880 --> 0:00:39.560 the show with us. Okay, so you gotta talk a little. 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:48.760 She is naive teeth problem, Okay, okay, are we ready? Okay? 0:00:48.840 --> 0:00:52.839 The Georgia runoff race reminder is early voting starts November 0:00:53.520 --> 0:00:58.560 Election Day December six. Did y'all here? How? Show Walker? Wait, 0:00:58.640 --> 0:01:01.760 what's his slogan? Slogan is chucking in jock, That's what 0:01:01.840 --> 0:01:05.080 that is. See. Also, you know, I guess people who 0:01:05.120 --> 0:01:09.520 are Republicans they're gonna vote for whoever is Republicans. Republicans 0:01:09.560 --> 0:01:11.240 are like gang members as long as you were in 0:01:11.319 --> 0:01:16.120 the color real because they don't even care. Everybody got 0:01:16.120 --> 0:01:18.440 anything to say about that. No, I just want to say, Georgia, 0:01:18.520 --> 0:01:20.920 this is real embarrassing. The whole world is looking at 0:01:21.000 --> 0:01:25.960 us again. Yes, but it's embarrassing that the race was 0:01:26.040 --> 0:01:29.880 so close between herschel and Raffael Warnock, like that shouldn't 0:01:29.880 --> 0:01:33.520 even when it happened. Now we have a runoff and 0:01:33.720 --> 0:01:38.560 herschel Walker is looking real winner. He's gonna win. A 0:01:38.600 --> 0:01:40.399 lot of stuff about him on YouTube. We don't want 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:42.560 him to win. This is the same man trying to 0:01:42.840 --> 0:01:46.400 abortions but don't have some abortions and got kids that 0:01:46.480 --> 0:01:48.480 he don't see or take care of. This is embarrassing, 0:01:48.520 --> 0:01:51.000 you don't. I wanted to stop his watch you goddamn 0:01:51.000 --> 0:01:56.120 football on Sunday and seeing uh Raphael Warnock police getting 0:01:56.120 --> 0:01:59.440 called on him commercial and then the herschel Walker commercial. 0:01:59.520 --> 0:02:01.520 I just start, I'm I don't want to see none 0:02:01.520 --> 0:02:04.760 of those commercials. No, most very disrespectful. Have you guys 0:02:04.800 --> 0:02:10.119 seen the commercials. It's the commercial Raphael Warnot his wife 0:02:10.160 --> 0:02:15.839 called the police on him, looking crazy and the yes, yes, yes, yes, 0:02:16.639 --> 0:02:18.880 I see it once a day. That's the old commercial 0:02:19.000 --> 0:02:22.919 that they released that because of Raphael I mean of 0:02:23.280 --> 0:02:28.079 herschel Walker's wife saying how he was abusive and he 0:02:28.160 --> 0:02:29.919 said that he wanted her to die, and I was like, 0:02:30.000 --> 0:02:32.400 I want somebody to want you to die. Don't vote 0:02:32.440 --> 0:02:36.639 for her, but I feel like the Warno warn one 0:02:36.720 --> 0:02:39.600 with his wife has no context. It's just stupid. It 0:02:39.720 --> 0:02:44.919 just shows her crying and it has no context. First 0:02:44.960 --> 0:02:51.320 of all, I'll order, did you vote? Vote? Why not? 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:57.200 I hate policy. I didn't say I feel you. It's 0:02:57.200 --> 0:02:58.880 a lot to keep up with. It's too much. It 0:02:58.880 --> 0:03:01.320 gets nasty. But it's because I don't know the truth. 0:03:01.520 --> 0:03:03.440 These people would lie and they say they're gonna do 0:03:03.560 --> 0:03:05.280 this today, but then they get in a position they 0:03:05.320 --> 0:03:07.040 don't do that they do. But let me tell your 0:03:07.080 --> 0:03:09.520 hershel Walker gonna do every monkey ass thing they want 0:03:09.600 --> 0:03:11.959 him to do, and we know that for effect. But 0:03:12.080 --> 0:03:15.320 I only the only reason I know who hershel Walker 0:03:15.520 --> 0:03:18.639 is because of the YouTube age, and the only reason 0:03:18.639 --> 0:03:20.519 I know who stays to a me is because she 0:03:20.639 --> 0:03:23.040 do a lot like with the people. But I didn't 0:03:23.080 --> 0:03:24.959 know when voting they was and none of they like 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:26.840 when they was like she lost, I was like, damn 0:03:27.360 --> 0:03:29.560 she lost for governor. And now we're trying to figure 0:03:29.560 --> 0:03:31.200 out who. Yes, I ain't know what they was running for. 0:03:31.680 --> 0:03:34.200 What do you think we can do to get more 0:03:34.280 --> 0:03:38.120 people involved? They got to be influences. Like I feel 0:03:38.160 --> 0:03:41.040 like a lot of like we don't like okay, he's safe. 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:43.200 For instance, if I'm on my platform and I'm tell 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:45.280 not all my fans to like go vote, like they'll 0:03:45.320 --> 0:03:49.360 go vote, but oh no, like they gotta like, I 0:03:49.480 --> 0:03:51.920 guess educate the influences because I didn't know what voting 0:03:51.960 --> 0:03:54.200 they was. I don't know what they're running for. I 0:03:54.280 --> 0:03:56.280 don't know nothing about them. I don't know what they're 0:03:56.320 --> 0:03:58.800 staying for anything. So it's like I can't tell nobody 0:03:58.880 --> 0:04:01.280 that any phone on that that's a good idea, that 0:04:01.440 --> 0:04:03.920 that's that's real. Please just take a minute, because we're 0:04:03.920 --> 0:04:06.440 gonna need to vote come the next two years. Maybe 0:04:06.480 --> 0:04:10.240 you need alert can do what influencers luncheon when it's 0:04:10.360 --> 0:04:15.720 time to talk politics for influencers to promote voting and 0:04:15.800 --> 0:04:18.200 the importance of it. I'm biased give the facts on 0:04:18.360 --> 0:04:20.520 every single person that would make your own choice on 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:22.640 who you want to vote for. But your voice matters 0:04:22.920 --> 0:04:24.760 because would you actually go out and vote if you 0:04:24.839 --> 0:04:32.480 knew it? Yeah, but don't we appreciate you because you 0:04:32.520 --> 0:04:37.279 could have said I did it for sure. Little baby 0:04:37.320 --> 0:04:39.320 gets his own day in a t could snap it 0:04:39.360 --> 0:04:44.880 up for him. Uh. November thirteen will now be declared Dominique. 0:04:44.960 --> 0:04:49.960 Little baby Jones day. I'm okay, get his flowers while 0:04:50.000 --> 0:04:52.640 he's here to receive them. Get your home day in 0:04:52.680 --> 0:04:55.880 the city. Yeah, in Atlanta, because Atlanta. I hope you 0:04:55.960 --> 0:05:00.640 do something all that day. I' I'll see what you're 0:05:00.640 --> 0:05:03.920 going on there. It's a little baby Atlanta. Yeah, yeah, 0:05:08.560 --> 0:05:12.200 you're sure you said everybody went from Where are we 0:05:12.279 --> 0:05:13.760 gonna talk about that in a minute. I do want 0:05:13.800 --> 0:05:15.560 to talk to bet because I just saw that. Did 0:05:15.680 --> 0:05:18.800 he reveal that he pays his barber one thousand dollars 0:05:18.880 --> 0:05:23.240 per cut? Yeah? That's killed And he did like these 0:05:23.320 --> 0:05:33.880 with the cones a thousand dollars. By that white stuff 0:05:33.960 --> 0:05:36.680 that that be on the beard that needs to be 0:05:36.800 --> 0:05:41.960 gold for him, carried magic on your face. Y'all keep 0:05:42.000 --> 0:05:43.840 in mind he's not just paying for the cut. He's 0:05:43.880 --> 0:05:46.760 paying for the barber to be available to whenever he 0:05:46.839 --> 0:05:48.360 needs him. You have to pay me if I can't 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:51.919 cut up a honey to the no most no fact. 0:05:52.040 --> 0:05:54.000 So even for touch up, how often do you think 0:05:54.040 --> 0:05:56.840 he's given a thousand dollars? That's crazy, he said, every haircut, 0:05:57.520 --> 0:06:00.880 Like even for touch ups though, like trying to usually 0:06:00.960 --> 0:06:03.200 when you're in front of a television screen, or you're 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:05.040 you know, you're you have an image that you have 0:06:05.080 --> 0:06:06.560 to keep up. You get a haircut. Once a week, 0:06:06.680 --> 0:06:08.800 you get you get a haircut, haircut, and then the 0:06:08.880 --> 0:06:10.960 next week get a lot. It's not even financially smart. 0:06:11.080 --> 0:06:14.800 So that's the same person. No, it's definitely I know what, 0:06:14.920 --> 0:06:16.600 I know what did he did? What he's doing his 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:20.200 campaigning for his barber. That means his barber is really 0:06:20.320 --> 0:06:24.760 popular and everybody's calling his barber and his availability is 0:06:24.839 --> 0:06:28.320 becoming very thin. It's Catherine for the internet, just like 0:06:28.480 --> 0:06:34.599 something up dolls. Don't call him dollars, My guys, that's 0:06:34.600 --> 0:06:36.279 a lot. That's a lot of y'all was laughing at 0:06:36.320 --> 0:06:39.800 me when I said, Oprah, Hey, fifty dollars for her eyelashes? 0:06:40.040 --> 0:06:45.000 What what again? Who was having that conversation? Okay, I'm 0:06:45.040 --> 0:06:52.320 just saying I forgot what. I saw it her eyebrows band. 0:06:52.640 --> 0:06:55.400 So it's both now whatever, man, I'm just saying, I 0:06:55.440 --> 0:06:59.160 saw that ship somewhere. Ya. That's I don't believe it. 0:06:59.279 --> 0:07:02.080 Ye All these people our money worse talking about it, 0:07:02.279 --> 0:07:06.560 not like that, though. I believe did he I think 0:07:06.600 --> 0:07:08.720 he fan the thousand. I think he is. I think 0:07:08.760 --> 0:07:13.360 he is I found. We know, we know they got 0:07:13.400 --> 0:07:15.920 a lot of money, but you also know black people 0:07:15.960 --> 0:07:19.320 with money still got that mentality, if you know the 0:07:19.400 --> 0:07:28.520 mentality I'm talking about. And that's sorry, that's like you get. 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:30.520 That's like your Barbara, cause you're here like, hey, hey, 0:07:30.640 --> 0:07:35.680 are you post me boy? Next five? Okay, and you're like, man, 0:07:35.760 --> 0:07:39.600 my Barbara charge too fifty for a lot of he does? 0:07:39.640 --> 0:07:43.360 Did he care about a free lineup? Guys? He doesn't 0:07:43.400 --> 0:07:46.760 care about the food. I care about free. I care 0:07:46.760 --> 0:07:50.240 about anything free. We don't take anything at any financial status. 0:07:50.320 --> 0:07:53.000 We're gonna take it if it's free here. I do 0:07:53.080 --> 0:07:55.640 want to get a little sad, guys, because Offset actually 0:07:55.720 --> 0:07:58.720 posted today. We had quite a couple of days ago, 0:07:58.800 --> 0:08:02.360 and Offset posted today. Their takeoff doesn't feel real. Posting 0:08:02.400 --> 0:08:04.960 you like this still doesn't feel like reality. I've been 0:08:04.960 --> 0:08:06.960 searching for the right words to say, but there aren't 0:08:07.040 --> 0:08:09.920 any that will suffice until we meet again. Rest in power. 0:08:10.000 --> 0:08:11.480 I love you. And then he had like a little 0:08:11.880 --> 0:08:15.160 swipe of you know, they're good times together. Um, And 0:08:15.200 --> 0:08:17.000 then of course he had a post with a longer 0:08:17.160 --> 0:08:22.800 version of it. But um, that's it. I still get emotional, y'all, 0:08:22.800 --> 0:08:25.280 I'm a cry baby anyway, but like literally seeing them 0:08:25.320 --> 0:08:27.640 post about him, like I get terriotic, get them up 0:08:27.680 --> 0:08:29.360 in my throat, like it's just so sad to think 0:08:29.440 --> 0:08:34.559 that they weren't all the way right bad about that 0:08:34.840 --> 0:08:37.240 and then seen it happened. There's even most saying like 0:08:37.360 --> 0:08:40.439 you gotta live there feel And that's why it's important. 0:08:40.520 --> 0:08:42.920 You know, if you really love people, just you know, 0:08:43.120 --> 0:08:45.600 Beard Hatch, it it ain't even worth all that. It's 0:08:45.679 --> 0:08:47.720 not because when it's something happened to somebody you love, 0:08:47.920 --> 0:08:50.160 you're just gonna regret there for I lie down. That's 0:08:50.160 --> 0:08:52.679 how we left off. Yea. And to the folks that 0:08:52.760 --> 0:08:55.760 got damn posted the funeral and the family said discussing, 0:08:56.160 --> 0:09:00.480 don't any pictures of videos? God damn Hill was wrong 0:09:00.480 --> 0:09:04.080 with you? Disgusting. We're always doing us type ship. Come on, bro, 0:09:04.280 --> 0:09:08.360 and we just gotta have full respect man, the internet respect. 0:09:09.160 --> 0:09:13.760 The Internet is making everything desensitizers, making people lose respect, 0:09:14.280 --> 0:09:16.319 and they're just making us not be human anymore. Like 0:09:16.440 --> 0:09:19.520 I feel like we're living in like a simulation. Robots 0:09:19.640 --> 0:09:23.960 like gooding for likes and comments and the first one 0:09:24.040 --> 0:09:27.079 to post it because you feel like something for a 0:09:27.120 --> 0:09:29.560 little bit of time. Right, But like you you talked 0:09:29.559 --> 0:09:31.560 about like squashing stuff with your family, like on Love 0:09:31.559 --> 0:09:33.040 and Hip Hop, we saw that you have some stuff 0:09:33.040 --> 0:09:36.040 going on with your mom. Right. How are y'all doing now? Um, 0:09:36.520 --> 0:09:39.640 it's straight. We're not like best friends, but we're not beefing. 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:42.400 So that's good. You're working through it. Yeah, I ain't 0:09:42.400 --> 0:09:48.520 before nobody. My family a good thing. Alright. Grammy nominations 0:09:48.520 --> 0:09:51.600 are in, Guys, Nicky Manage is not there and Summer 0:09:51.640 --> 0:09:56.520 Walker is not there. Crazy the way to start. Well, 0:09:56.720 --> 0:09:58.760 I can understand that Summer gets a little emotional. She 0:09:58.880 --> 0:10:03.520 is with child uh and what they rightfully? I was 0:10:03.559 --> 0:10:09.520 gonna say the album has been carrying these female singers 0:10:09.720 --> 0:10:11.959 fast and I don't want to say I'm gonna say no, 0:10:12.360 --> 0:10:15.240 we'll say that I echo that hand because her albums 0:10:15.400 --> 0:10:17.640 our album was fired. What Summer Walker, you deserve it. 0:10:17.679 --> 0:10:20.640 I'm so sorry you were snubbed Nicki Minaj. I don't 0:10:20.679 --> 0:10:22.360 know they might have snubbed you for other reasons. All 0:10:22.360 --> 0:10:25.599 I'm saying is Barbs is gonna get you shouldn't have 0:10:25.640 --> 0:10:28.000 anything to do with your art. Why was Nikki trendon though? 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:31.480 That hashtag? Is they saying that on Twitter. I ain't 0:10:31.480 --> 0:10:33.160 saying it because I ain't seen it. Say it, bro 0:10:33.720 --> 0:10:39.840 It says no Grammy for Granny, they referring to Nicki Minaj. 0:10:41.920 --> 0:10:47.880 Get it out of our face time. Now, this is 0:10:47.920 --> 0:10:50.959 on the heels of Nicki Minaj and Latto's beef. You know, 0:10:51.000 --> 0:10:54.240 a Lotto is nominated for a Grammy, uh this year, 0:10:54.840 --> 0:10:58.000 and Nicki Minaj is not. And you know a Lotto 0:10:58.080 --> 0:11:02.560 called Nikki a forty year old bully from their beef 0:11:02.640 --> 0:11:06.240 that they had going on. So the hashtag is no 0:11:06.400 --> 0:11:11.360 Grammy for Granny. Damn, this is said Nicki Minaj. Nicki 0:11:11.400 --> 0:11:15.199 minajs pissed somebody off, and I ain't ain't trying to 0:11:15.360 --> 0:11:19.319 articulate myself. Correct, Nicki Minaj is pissed. What do you mean, Like, 0:11:19.360 --> 0:11:22.600 who does she piss off at the gram Oh? She's 0:11:22.640 --> 0:11:25.600 just for the record, she never got a Grammy. Correct, 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:29.959 She's never gotten everything. She has accomplished everything except for 0:11:30.040 --> 0:11:34.040 that crazy though. And you know she just tapped a 0:11:34.120 --> 0:11:36.560 lot those legs when they was beefing back and forth. 0:11:36.720 --> 0:11:39.839 And now Lotto has a chance at a Grammy and 0:11:39.920 --> 0:11:44.839 if she wins, I don't But what's the qualifications for 0:11:44.880 --> 0:11:47.320 a Grammy, like you just you make, you make an 0:11:47.360 --> 0:11:49.599 album or EP and then you submit it to the 0:11:49.960 --> 0:11:53.120 You have to sign up basically, and then they vote. Yea, 0:11:53.880 --> 0:11:56.000 It's like it's like a room full of board. I 0:11:56.120 --> 0:11:58.960 do think at this point she might be getting snubbed. Guys. 0:11:59.240 --> 0:12:03.240 That's yeah, that's a long career. That's crazy because everybody 0:12:03.280 --> 0:12:08.040 got a Grammy rights my future future. Remember remember for 0:12:08.160 --> 0:12:10.440 like a ten year span, she was the only feature. 0:12:12.760 --> 0:12:15.200 But that's why I said, she must have pissed somebody 0:12:15.320 --> 0:12:20.040 off behind those doors, Like yeah, she pooped in somebody's 0:12:20.080 --> 0:12:23.160 corn flakes. Grammy nominations, Lizzos on the ballot. She is 0:12:23.360 --> 0:12:25.920 up for a lot of Grammys. Lizzo. I love her. 0:12:26.080 --> 0:12:29.440 She's she's I've met her in person and she's such 0:12:29.440 --> 0:12:35.120 a nice person. Yes, yo, we was talking about I 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:38.559 like Gotti and how he allows his artists to be 0:12:38.960 --> 0:12:41.640 who they are. All his artists are just so different 0:12:41.679 --> 0:12:44.920 and a lot of times with labels, uh you know 0:12:45.120 --> 0:12:48.520 that are smaller labels per se, all of the artists 0:12:48.559 --> 0:12:50.200 kind of be the same. But if you look at 0:12:50.240 --> 0:12:54.080 like SEEMG, everybody on SEEMG is like total different artists 0:12:54.080 --> 0:12:55.520 and it just seems like they can be who they 0:12:55.600 --> 0:12:57.280 really want to be. You know, we had we're not 0:12:57.400 --> 0:13:00.360 seeing Gorilla, you know, getting her body done one and 0:13:00.520 --> 0:13:03.400 all these crazy things. And she also spoke out against 0:13:03.440 --> 0:13:06.000 getting her body done. She said that she's not going 0:13:06.040 --> 0:13:08.800 to do that or let people billy hood her do it. Yeah, 0:13:08.840 --> 0:13:10.679 I was listening to her album. Her album is pretty good, 0:13:10.920 --> 0:13:12.440 pretty good. I didn't want to listen too much because 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:13.840 I don't want to be in the club singing her song. 0:13:14.200 --> 0:13:19.480 Everybody looking like should fired him. All right, let's take 0:13:19.480 --> 0:13:21.120 a break. We have alm A ready in the building. 0:13:21.120 --> 0:13:22.880 We're gonna be talking to her. We'll be right back 0:13:22.960 --> 0:13:25.760 with The ball Alert Show podcast, available everywhere you get 0:13:25.760 --> 0:13:28.280 your podcasts. We'll be right back with more of the 0:13:28.440 --> 0:13:34.599 Baller Alert Show. You're listening to a special edition of 0:13:34.679 --> 0:13:37.080 The ball or Alert Show. What's popping? Everybody's your girl? 0:13:37.120 --> 0:13:38.679 I'm ready to great and I'm locked in with the 0:13:38.720 --> 0:13:40.839 ball Alert Show and it's available wherever you can get 0:13:40.840 --> 0:13:44.160 your podcasts. Should be Welcome back to the Baller Alert 0:13:44.320 --> 0:13:47.000 Show podcast, available everywhere you get your podcast My dog, 0:13:47.080 --> 0:13:51.560 I'm a reader is the ball what's up? Man? Good? 0:13:51.880 --> 0:13:56.560 I'ven know uses your seventeen, eighteen, seventeen nineteen. Damn, okay, 0:13:56.559 --> 0:13:59.480 I'm taking a couple of shaving. They're just trying to 0:13:59.520 --> 0:14:03.640 sound all anyway. I appreciate you pulling up and guest 0:14:03.679 --> 0:14:07.640 hosting with us. Problem. How's Alma ready doing good? I'll 0:14:07.640 --> 0:14:11.880 be working my EP about to drop Friday. The name 0:14:11.920 --> 0:14:19.640 of it emtional gainst, emotional gangster because there's meat. What 0:14:19.760 --> 0:14:23.720 makes you an emotional gangster? Because I'm like, I'm really 0:14:23.800 --> 0:14:27.040 like a cry baby emotional. But like when I was younger, 0:14:27.160 --> 0:14:28.840 I used to like cry a lot, and I used 0:14:28.840 --> 0:14:30.800 to hate it about myself. So I made myself too 0:14:30.880 --> 0:14:33.600 because I hated crying. So now I'm like gangster, but 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:37.280 I'm still a cry baby Ones. Here's your birthday Jones twenty. Okay, 0:14:37.600 --> 0:14:42.000 I'm Gemini, Gemini girl. Never'll be a canceller, just relaxed 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:50.960 because I'm a raw alright, I'm care. I feel you. 0:14:51.120 --> 0:14:53.800 I'm a cry baby. Everybody knows I will cry at 0:14:53.840 --> 0:14:57.800 the drop of the doctor. Happen to show you. That's 0:14:57.800 --> 0:14:59.760 something I used to really hate about myself too, and 0:15:00.040 --> 0:15:01.800 and I went through a phase where it was like, Okay, 0:15:01.800 --> 0:15:04.280 I gotta be tougher. Then you find yourself like being 0:15:04.440 --> 0:15:07.000 overly emotional and not being able to get it off right? 0:15:07.400 --> 0:15:10.080 How do you get it off trying to be so 0:15:10.240 --> 0:15:14.080 gainsty with it? Um? I feel like now I'm at 0:15:14.120 --> 0:15:15.840 a point where I don't really be crying as much 0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:18.000 as I like had a period of time where I 0:15:18.000 --> 0:15:19.600 would just like crying a lot. But I feel like 0:15:19.680 --> 0:15:21.800 now I just like let it build up until like 0:15:21.920 --> 0:15:23.440 one day you just come out out, and I let 0:15:23.520 --> 0:15:25.120 it come all out at one time, and then I 0:15:25.280 --> 0:15:27.920 just la beauty back up again. Well, I'm already you 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:29.680 gotta you gotta ring or you think he put up 0:15:29.680 --> 0:15:31.800 for the camps like you gotta ring on your own. 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:36.400 And we talked about you a couple of episodes ago, 0:15:36.760 --> 0:15:39.120 and you got this man. You got this young man's 0:15:39.640 --> 0:15:42.240 name tattooed all over your damn body. I saw it. 0:15:42.440 --> 0:15:44.880 It's time for a new tattoo this young man? What's 0:15:44.920 --> 0:15:48.320 his name? Again? And how much? How many more years 0:15:48.360 --> 0:15:53.160 did you have left? Get the number? And that meaning 0:15:53.240 --> 0:15:55.280 I can't get you a number? Coming? So he coming 0:15:55.320 --> 0:16:00.200 home soon? That's all that matter up surprise exactly. So 0:16:00.320 --> 0:16:08.160 you're engaged, okay? Not yes? I mean I don't have 0:16:08.280 --> 0:16:11.400 to ring on wait, wait a damn minute, you wait, 0:16:11.560 --> 0:16:14.600 damn me. Okay, So how is that for you, like, 0:16:14.680 --> 0:16:16.800 because you know, mentally, I know that maybe a lot, 0:16:16.960 --> 0:16:20.560 you know, because of course you want to see your man. Yeah, 0:16:20.640 --> 0:16:23.360 I feel like at the beginning, like when we first 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:25.600 when he first got went to jail, it was like 0:16:25.760 --> 0:16:30.560 real hard, like nine. But I feel like now it's 0:16:30.640 --> 0:16:34.080 more of like uh ey situation, and it's just like 0:16:34.320 --> 0:16:36.640 it's focusing on him getting home. Like it's not like 0:16:36.720 --> 0:16:39.359 cause at first I used to be like real emotional 0:16:39.440 --> 0:16:42.240 about it, but it's like now I'm more like subtle, 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:45.200 and I'm just like focused on getting reach you know 0:16:45.240 --> 0:16:48.160 what I'm saying, just like get my career, like and 0:16:48.280 --> 0:16:51.120 he focused on the same thing. I'm focused on my career. 0:16:51.320 --> 0:16:53.600 And like we just we don't really argue as much 0:16:53.640 --> 0:16:55.760 as we used to. We just like we'll just be 0:16:55.840 --> 0:16:59.200 on the same page. Man, this person from Atlanta, Yeah, 0:17:00.240 --> 0:17:03.280 how long have y'all been together? Going on five years? 0:17:05.640 --> 0:17:11.080 That is not that long. Five years is a very 0:17:11.200 --> 0:17:14.200 long time and different She's gonna say, like high school 0:17:14.240 --> 0:17:16.800 sweethearts or I mean I've been knowing him. We dated 0:17:16.840 --> 0:17:19.080 when I was in high school, Like when we started 0:17:19.119 --> 0:17:20.480 dating when I was sports team and we broke up 0:17:20.480 --> 0:17:22.240 and we got together when I was twenty one, So 0:17:22.400 --> 0:17:25.600 they are childhood lovers. No, that's what that makes more sense. 0:17:25.680 --> 0:17:28.400 I was saying, like, you know, usually when you when 0:17:28.440 --> 0:17:30.920 you really commit to somebody like that, it's like a 0:17:31.520 --> 0:17:35.359 long long term. But he's been in jail most of 0:17:35.400 --> 0:17:40.879 the relationship. How does that work? How is it like 0:17:41.000 --> 0:17:44.359 for him? Um? He ready to come home? Like we 0:17:44.520 --> 0:17:46.399 had like a lot of phases who were like it 0:17:46.560 --> 0:17:48.520 was real hard on both of us at one time 0:17:48.560 --> 0:17:50.800 because we wanted to get to each other real bad, 0:17:51.040 --> 0:17:53.480 and it was like it was kind of suicidal both 0:17:53.480 --> 0:17:57.720 of us at one time. So what Yeah, I said, 0:17:57.760 --> 0:17:59.439 we was kind of suicide, and don't make me keep 0:17:59.480 --> 0:18:01.440 repeating it. Um know, I had to make sure I 0:18:01.520 --> 0:18:03.639 heard that right. Yeah it was said. It, I know 0:18:03.960 --> 0:18:06.679 it was said. But we kind of like we had 0:18:06.720 --> 0:18:09.040 to go through that because it was like it was 0:18:09.320 --> 0:18:11.680 hard on both of our part, Like we had to boat, 0:18:11.800 --> 0:18:13.680 like I guess built each other up and like build 0:18:13.720 --> 0:18:15.600 ourself up to the point where we are now and 0:18:15.720 --> 0:18:18.119 to like I really feel like I'm the one stepped 0:18:18.160 --> 0:18:20.680 up and like Lade the difference, How did you guys 0:18:20.720 --> 0:18:22.480 get through that? What did you do? What did you 0:18:22.600 --> 0:18:26.200 do to you know, get you all through? Um? I 0:18:26.240 --> 0:18:29.520 don't know. I kind of just started like telling myself 0:18:29.640 --> 0:18:32.080 that nothing gonna get battery if I like just sit 0:18:32.200 --> 0:18:34.000 in my pain, Like I'm gonna have to like get 0:18:34.119 --> 0:18:36.800 up and act like that this is not that serious 0:18:37.000 --> 0:18:39.680 and like make a change. Do you feel like you're 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:42.359 being like strong for him? Like are you finding yourself 0:18:42.440 --> 0:18:45.840 like constantly trying to keep him at a steady emotional state, 0:18:46.000 --> 0:18:48.200 because I mean, he doesn't have the same freedom that 0:18:48.280 --> 0:18:51.480 you have. Um, I know that I have to be stronger, 0:18:52.320 --> 0:18:54.000 like when we be on the phone and stuff, like 0:18:54.359 --> 0:18:56.240 we used to be on the phone, Like I feel 0:18:56.280 --> 0:18:58.880 like I used to kind of cry to him sometimes, 0:18:58.960 --> 0:19:01.320 but I noticed that the stressed him out even more. 0:19:01.720 --> 0:19:03.920 So it's like if I cry, I do when we 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:06.479 off the phone and not to him, like about my problems. 0:19:06.480 --> 0:19:07.920 Like I try not to tell him too much of 0:19:08.320 --> 0:19:10.080 like what I'm going through on the inside so that 0:19:10.200 --> 0:19:12.760 he won't be because he already stressed out in there, 0:19:12.880 --> 0:19:14.880 So I try not to put too much on his plate. 0:19:15.480 --> 0:19:17.160 Do you think that the relationship would be a little 0:19:17.160 --> 0:19:19.680 different when he is free because right now there's so 0:19:19.760 --> 0:19:21.399 much that you're not talking to him about. There's so 0:19:21.480 --> 0:19:24.240 much that you're not sharing. No, we talked, but like 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:26.560 the emotional side of it, and then you having to 0:19:26.640 --> 0:19:28.520 work and tour and not being able to spend so 0:19:28.640 --> 0:19:30.399 much time with them when he does get out, and 0:19:30.520 --> 0:19:32.879 then him being in a completely different space, like you 0:19:32.960 --> 0:19:36.320 go from being locked up to free. That's that's like 0:19:36.359 --> 0:19:39.399 a little shock when he come home. I'm cutting everything 0:19:39.480 --> 0:19:41.560 off for a sinking, Like I ain't doing a touring, 0:19:41.920 --> 0:19:44.800 I ain't doing those shows, no matter what, no matter 0:19:44.920 --> 0:19:47.480 what you got going on, you're gonna stop. Yes, just 0:19:47.560 --> 0:19:50.080 focus on family because I feel like a lot of 0:19:50.160 --> 0:19:53.879 people they put their career over like their relationship and stuff. 0:19:53.920 --> 0:19:55.160 And I mean it's fine for a lot of people 0:19:55.160 --> 0:19:59.119 because they don't have like, ah, like strong relationship. But 0:19:59.200 --> 0:20:02.040 I feel like in life, like to me, love is 0:20:02.320 --> 0:20:05.200 more important than everything. So for me, like I put 0:20:05.280 --> 0:20:08.280 my relationship over my career, Like I don't put my 0:20:08.400 --> 0:20:11.160 career over everything because like these all these could change 0:20:11.280 --> 0:20:14.280 like tomorrow, like but when you die, like people like 0:20:14.480 --> 0:20:16.920 I'm not gonna be so attached to my career like 0:20:16.920 --> 0:20:19.720 I'm gonna be attached to this person. So so you're 0:20:19.760 --> 0:20:21.639 making investments right now, trying to make sure that your 0:20:21.640 --> 0:20:25.560 money grows. Girl, Listen, here's the love. So what do 0:20:25.680 --> 0:20:29.400 you do to stay mentally saying like you, like you said, 0:20:29.440 --> 0:20:31.280 you hold a lot back? And then do you talk 0:20:31.320 --> 0:20:34.119 to somebody or do you believe in therapy or anything 0:20:34.200 --> 0:20:37.240 like chuckle for you don't you don't go talk to nobody. 0:20:38.320 --> 0:20:43.520 Um see therapy. I had wanted to try therapy before 0:20:43.560 --> 0:20:46.000 in my life, not even because of him, but because 0:20:46.080 --> 0:20:49.000 of like everything that that happened in my life. But 0:20:50.600 --> 0:20:54.359 I'm not really ready for that. Nervous about therapy. I 0:20:54.520 --> 0:20:58.720 just don't feel like to come. I don't know. I 0:20:58.760 --> 0:21:00.920 feel like it's gonna bring up so much stuff that 0:21:00.960 --> 0:21:03.440 I'm not ready to deal with. You gotta be ready 0:21:03.480 --> 0:21:06.720 to deal with, right, And he's just gonna like bring 0:21:06.800 --> 0:21:08.440 it all to the surface, and I have pushed it 0:21:08.520 --> 0:21:10.680 back so far, and he's just like I ain't out 0:21:11.160 --> 0:21:13.440 read to live my life, just kind of trying to 0:21:13.480 --> 0:21:17.160 forget about a lot of feel like you said, wait 0:21:17.200 --> 0:21:19.720 what a second, Like you said, when you do that, 0:21:20.080 --> 0:21:22.600 isn't it suppressed? And then you just like you said, 0:21:22.640 --> 0:21:26.120 you blow up sometimes. Yeah, but it's not a it's 0:21:26.119 --> 0:21:28.880 not a bad blow up. It's just like a night 0:21:28.960 --> 0:21:33.320 of crime, which feel good sometimes. So it's not like 0:21:33.440 --> 0:21:35.760 a thing where I'm just like losing my mind. It's 0:21:35.840 --> 0:21:38.840 just like me just getting it all like somebody like 0:21:39.920 --> 0:21:42.360 poke a balloon full of water and you just lit 0:21:42.480 --> 0:21:44.879 it all out. Like it's not It's not a thing 0:21:44.920 --> 0:21:48.439 where it's just overwhelming, but it's slight is needed. Well, 0:21:48.480 --> 0:21:50.000 I was trying to ask question because he was getting 0:21:50.000 --> 0:21:53.520