WEBVTT - Being Broke vs Being Broken 0:00:00.880 --> 0:00:04.640 Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. You are tuned into 0:00:04.680 --> 0:00:07.000 the Vitamin D with Dawn Day Podcast and I am 0:00:07.040 --> 0:00:09.640 your host, Dawn Day, here to get you excited about 0:00:09.640 --> 0:00:11.600 your life so that you can live life on purpose 0:00:11.640 --> 0:00:13.680 and for a purpose. And this is your first time 0:00:13.760 --> 0:00:17.040 tuning in and welcome Vitamin D. It's upon of my name. 0:00:17.280 --> 0:00:19.240 My name is Dawn and you get Vitamin D from 0:00:19.280 --> 0:00:21.400 the sun. So I'm here to shed light into your life. 0:00:21.600 --> 0:00:25.000 And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with 0:00:25.000 --> 0:00:28.040 celebrities and everyday people like you and me, Because if 0:00:28.040 --> 0:00:29.960 you want to be better and you want to do better, 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:32.720 then you're going to have to be able to see better. 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:35.720 So join me on this journey of living our best 0:00:35.760 --> 0:00:39.760 lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest 0:00:39.720 --> 0:00:44.479 assid I want peace for you. I want prosperity, I 0:00:44.560 --> 0:00:49.120 want courage, I want abundance. I want everything that is 0:00:49.159 --> 0:00:55.240 good to be for you. However, there's going to be 0:00:55.280 --> 0:01:00.440 a requirement and it doesn't take any outside sources. It 0:01:00.440 --> 0:01:05.000 actually takes everything that's inside of you. I need you 0:01:05.040 --> 0:01:09.880 to show up. I need you to show up so 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:14.120 that you can show out, show out so that somebody 0:01:14.240 --> 0:01:18.800 can look at you and say I'm possible. So somebody 0:01:18.880 --> 0:01:22.560 can look at you and say that I'm alone, So 0:01:22.640 --> 0:01:26.240 somebody can look at you and say that I'm worth it. 0:01:28.800 --> 0:01:36.600 We're all just looking, looking, living, learning, growing, and there's 0:01:36.640 --> 0:01:40.560 a comfort knowing that you're not alone. And fear does that, 0:01:41.560 --> 0:01:45.560 depression does that put you on a state where you 0:01:45.600 --> 0:01:53.800 feel isolated. But it's something about showing up in all 0:01:53.840 --> 0:01:59.840 of your imperfect perfectness for everyone to see, for some 0:02:00.000 --> 0:02:05.560 body to me inspired, for somebody to be encouraged. Are 0:02:05.600 --> 0:02:11.120 you ready better yet? Are you willing? Because there's no 0:02:11.200 --> 0:02:15.639 perfect moment, there's no right moment. And the thing that's 0:02:15.639 --> 0:02:21.200 so beautiful about you deciding to step up is that 0:02:21.240 --> 0:02:25.480 you're allowing to go ahead and for yourself, and being 0:02:25.520 --> 0:02:29.440 free is a beautiful thing. It's almost like you're soaring 0:02:29.480 --> 0:02:33.800 and you're gliding, gliding to your peace, gliding to your happiness, 0:02:35.080 --> 0:02:39.840 oblivious to what others may think, because you're sowing so 0:02:39.960 --> 0:02:44.600 much higher than that. I want that for you, because 0:02:44.639 --> 0:02:50.840 I want that for me. I'm growing, I'm becoming, I'm 0:02:50.880 --> 0:02:53.680 seeing myself in different angles that I didn't even know 0:02:53.760 --> 0:02:58.040 that there was a view. And I stand in awe 0:02:59.120 --> 0:03:05.800 and admiration of all the different hues. I want that 0:03:05.919 --> 0:03:14.000 for you, and I want that for me too. Let 0:03:14.080 --> 0:03:16.920 us go out there and take the rainbow. Get your right, 0:03:17.200 --> 0:03:27.320 MND right with me. I get excited about you. You 0:03:27.360 --> 0:03:31.680 will not believe what happened. I had a fun field weekend, 0:03:32.280 --> 0:03:38.040 um grateful for it. I met some new friends, hung out. Actually, 0:03:38.760 --> 0:03:40.520 a lot of things that I've put out there as 0:03:40.560 --> 0:03:45.760 far as manifesting, are coming to fruition. Ain't that amazing? 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:50.080 Like I literally wrote a list of the things that 0:03:50.160 --> 0:03:52.520 I wanted to manifest. I started each sentence with the 0:03:52.560 --> 0:03:58.640 eye a firm and I took the paper. I folded it, 0:03:59.120 --> 0:04:03.240 folded it, folded it again. I burned a candle on it, 0:04:03.720 --> 0:04:05.560 through the wax in the trash, and I looked back 0:04:05.560 --> 0:04:07.160 and now here I am less than a week, and 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:15.080 I can tell you things are manifesting. Hey, catch it now. 0:04:15.760 --> 0:04:18.080 I don't know how much you believe in manifestation, but 0:04:18.160 --> 0:04:20.680 it's one thing for me. And perhaps we do it 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:23.279 all the time because you know, we know about how 0:04:23.279 --> 0:04:25.880 important it is to speak life, We know how important 0:04:25.920 --> 0:04:27.920 it is to do affirmations. And I think just the 0:04:28.040 --> 0:04:31.080 combination of writing it down to make it plain. You know, 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:33.640 I say it's important to write things down because we're 0:04:33.720 --> 0:04:37.520 human beings having a spiritual experience. So this my spiritual 0:04:37.520 --> 0:04:39.320 being is saying, hey, Dawn, this is what we want. 0:04:39.360 --> 0:04:41.640 But now I got to communicate with my body with 0:04:41.680 --> 0:04:44.280 this physical realm and say, hey, this is what we're 0:04:44.279 --> 0:04:48.039 putting out there. So I want to encourage you that 0:04:48.120 --> 0:04:50.560 if there's anything that you want, whatever it is that 0:04:50.600 --> 0:04:53.960 you desire, write it down. So and one of those 0:04:53.960 --> 0:04:55.880 things that I listed out as far as what I 0:04:55.880 --> 0:04:57.920 wanted to manifest is that I had a lot of 0:04:57.960 --> 0:05:01.440 friends that actually moves out of l A onto other 0:05:01.480 --> 0:05:04.320 states to do on two more things. And I said, 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:07.520 I gotta give me a new group of friends. So 0:05:07.560 --> 0:05:11.040 I went out to a DJ event. Um a friend 0:05:11.080 --> 0:05:13.920 of mine had invited me out to met a whole 0:05:13.920 --> 0:05:16.360 other group of friends and we just had a great time. 0:05:16.400 --> 0:05:19.360 And when I sell you, Baybay not listen. Usually I'm 0:05:19.400 --> 0:05:21.640 in bid by ten o'clock. I'm in bed by ten o'clocks, 0:05:21.640 --> 0:05:23.560 so I can get up on my own or alarm clock, 0:05:23.640 --> 0:05:25.760 like I said, on my own at about a five 0:05:25.800 --> 0:05:28.760 thirty six, I get in the tub, I do my meditation. 0:05:28.800 --> 0:05:30.680 I do my job and not do my workout. That 0:05:30.880 --> 0:05:33.760 is the mold. But you know, I do think there 0:05:33.839 --> 0:05:35.320 is a thing where you can have a little bit 0:05:35.320 --> 0:05:38.520 of flexibility. So any who I'm going out, I mean 0:05:38.839 --> 0:05:40.920 each day night is going into the other. But it's 0:05:40.920 --> 0:05:45.000 a great time because, um, you know, when you just 0:05:45.040 --> 0:05:49.040 around great energy. But beyond all that, that's not I'm 0:05:49.040 --> 0:05:51.919 minute to slow down. As I had a minute to 0:05:51.960 --> 0:05:57.640 look down at my hand. Um, I was looking at 0:05:57.640 --> 0:06:02.400 my mom's ring. I guess it's just realized hit me now. 0:06:03.080 --> 0:06:05.520 My mom was really big on jewelry, Like, she really 0:06:05.520 --> 0:06:07.359 liked jewelry. And my daddy he made sure that he 0:06:07.440 --> 0:06:10.960 decked his baby out. Okay, he don Harold Hill was 0:06:10.960 --> 0:06:13.159 gonna make sure that Jannie Hill had her stuff together. 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:15.719 But I say all that to say is that my mom. 0:06:15.800 --> 0:06:19.320 The story is that, uh, the wedding ring my dad 0:06:19.360 --> 0:06:22.120 got her, she didn't like it so much, and so 0:06:22.560 --> 0:06:24.680 she redesigned the whole thing and put the stones in 0:06:24.720 --> 0:06:27.200 there herself. And as I looked down on the ring 0:06:27.279 --> 0:06:30.359 that my mother created, I noticed that a diamond was missing. 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:36.600 I gasped. I said, Oh my gosh, what happened. I 0:06:36.720 --> 0:06:39.000 was so sick and I'm up here fighting my emotions. 0:06:39.000 --> 0:06:40.599 I was like, doing, you were too aggressive, You're throwing 0:06:40.640 --> 0:06:42.760 your hand around, you were wearded too much, you were 0:06:42.760 --> 0:06:44.840 doing this blah blah blah blah blah. Then I was 0:06:44.880 --> 0:06:46.640 about to go into a whole emotional stay, like, oh 0:06:46.640 --> 0:06:48.479 my gosh, this is my mom's and this is what 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:50.599 I did. And then I had to just breathe for 0:06:50.640 --> 0:06:53.080 a second. I had to remind myself. I said, doing, 0:06:53.160 --> 0:06:56.960 your mom is not in this ring. And I think 0:06:57.160 --> 0:07:00.240 oftentimes we put so much value into things, and while 0:07:00.320 --> 0:07:02.520 things can make us feel good, but the essence, the 0:07:02.600 --> 0:07:04.880 power of what it is, is not in a thing. 0:07:06.160 --> 0:07:13.200 And that hit me a little, hit me differently, more personally, because, 0:07:13.360 --> 0:07:18.040 as I shared before, growing up, my mother was a hoarder. 0:07:18.560 --> 0:07:21.360 My mother kept everything and that's because of loss. She 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:23.720 was loose. She lost her husband, she lost her mother 0:07:24.320 --> 0:07:26.520 um and since she had even lost her hair when 0:07:26.560 --> 0:07:30.720 she had breast cancer, then her brother, her grandfather, my grandfather, 0:07:31.600 --> 0:07:33.280 and so I feel like, when you lose a lot 0:07:33.280 --> 0:07:35.320 of things, you want to hold onto a lot of things. 0:07:35.880 --> 0:07:39.760 So all these emotions are going in my mind and 0:07:39.800 --> 0:07:42.200 I'm like, well, wait a minute, how come much. Can 0:07:42.240 --> 0:07:45.080 I blame myself for treasuring what it is that I had. 0:07:45.440 --> 0:07:47.920 So I had to take a minutes to breathe, then 0:07:48.000 --> 0:07:51.000 had to remind myself what it is. The thing that 0:07:51.120 --> 0:07:55.320 was also interesting is that throughout this whole day now 0:07:55.360 --> 0:07:58.200 I can't exactly I don't recall the exact day that 0:07:58.240 --> 0:08:03.360 it fell out. I kept coming about of doing being 0:08:03.360 --> 0:08:08.400 more gentle. I'm I'm an aggressive individual. You know, my 0:08:08.520 --> 0:08:11.520 masculine energy comes out. I don't know why a loud romunctious, 0:08:11.600 --> 0:08:14.960 it just is what it is. I've always been heavy handed. 0:08:15.600 --> 0:08:18.360 And it was so interesting that even that day, prior 0:08:18.400 --> 0:08:20.280 to me noticing, I was talking to a group of 0:08:20.280 --> 0:08:22.640 friends and I was just saying, I was just laughing joke. 0:08:22.720 --> 0:08:24.440 You know, you just tap somebody on the shoulder, I 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:26.240 tap you on the should and you damn Ne're gonna 0:08:26.240 --> 0:08:27.600 fall out. Was aware, and I'm like, oh my gosh, 0:08:27.640 --> 0:08:30.240 I apologize. I'm so rough. I'm just noticing how I've 0:08:30.280 --> 0:08:32.600 been throwing my hands around. I picked up my shoes, 0:08:32.640 --> 0:08:34.960 I had throw them in a car, and I kept saying, 0:08:35.000 --> 0:08:36.559 like I gotta be more gentle, Like why am I 0:08:36.640 --> 0:08:39.800 so rough with things? Then, as I'm recalling back because 0:08:39.800 --> 0:08:42.760 I'm playing throughout the day, I'm just thinking how I 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:45.480 have been wearing the ring so much. And usually I 0:08:45.520 --> 0:08:47.560 try to wear like if there's an event or if 0:08:47.600 --> 0:08:50.120 I feel like, you know, for a special thing. But 0:08:50.120 --> 0:08:51.800 I was like I was just wearing it every day 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:54.120 to whether I was going here, going that. I was 0:08:54.160 --> 0:08:56.320 putting on the ring, and a part of it is 0:08:56.360 --> 0:08:58.600 because I like to keep my mom close to me. 0:08:59.360 --> 0:09:01.120 And then a part of me I was like, you know, 0:09:01.960 --> 0:09:03.840 I want to be flying because the ring is slide 0:09:05.480 --> 0:09:08.280 and on one and I'm when I was like, yo, 0:09:08.320 --> 0:09:10.200 it was my spirits trying to tell me all this time, 0:09:10.240 --> 0:09:12.400 like don chill, I don't wearing the ring, or don't 0:09:12.440 --> 0:09:14.320 just stop throwing your hands around. But I couldn't listen. 0:09:14.640 --> 0:09:16.680 And I want to encourage you to take time to listen, 0:09:17.000 --> 0:09:19.240 take time to listen more to what's going around you. 0:09:19.520 --> 0:09:21.480 But then also I had to replay it back and 0:09:21.679 --> 0:09:23.679 to be easy in myself because I can't change it. 0:09:23.840 --> 0:09:29.000 We're I'm gonna drive myself crazy. And in that moment 0:09:29.280 --> 0:09:31.200 of just saying breath, I had to be gentle with 0:09:31.240 --> 0:09:39.319 my internal self because I didn't intentionally do it. I 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:44.480 was using against purpose is to wear it. And I 0:09:44.600 --> 0:09:50.120 realized that I can't dwell in this moment. I gotta 0:09:50.160 --> 0:09:52.360 grow from this moment. So what is growing from this moment? 0:09:52.400 --> 0:09:55.760 Looks like, well, it looks like being more cognizant and 0:09:55.840 --> 0:09:58.320 checking the ring in to get checked, making sure that 0:09:58.360 --> 0:10:00.680 the stones are tightened up and halps. That could be 0:10:00.720 --> 0:10:02.640 something that I want to share with you. What do 0:10:02.720 --> 0:10:04.400 you need to tighten up? What do you need to 0:10:04.480 --> 0:10:07.559 check in on? Because sometimes we get in the motor 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:10.800 just moving, moving, going and and moving so fast and 0:10:10.800 --> 0:10:13.800 it's just like take your time, take your time, take 0:10:13.840 --> 0:10:18.240 your time. So I'm still going through my ups and 0:10:18.280 --> 0:10:22.760 downs and bounce about this ring, but or the diamond 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:25.720 I was lost out the ring, but there's nothing I 0:10:25.720 --> 0:10:28.920 could do. And I told Charlotte, my sister. She said, 0:10:28.960 --> 0:10:31.760 what now, Charlotte, she knew this type of stone everything. 0:10:31.760 --> 0:10:34.320 She's like, which one the bigat? And I was like, 0:10:34.400 --> 0:10:36.400 is that the one that smaller because there's one stone 0:10:36.400 --> 0:10:38.640 in the middle than there's others around it? And I 0:10:38.679 --> 0:10:41.640 said yeah, And she said, you know you won't have 0:10:41.679 --> 0:10:44.240 the original stone, but use it as a lesson learned. 0:10:44.840 --> 0:10:46.680 And I think for a lot of us use it 0:10:46.760 --> 0:10:49.040 as a lesson learned. I could imagine before this probably 0:10:49.080 --> 0:10:51.360 would have taken me out. This would have rattled my 0:10:51.400 --> 0:10:54.240 brain left and right and all the way around. But 0:10:54.280 --> 0:10:58.440 I had to remind myself, going, your mama is not 0:10:58.600 --> 0:11:04.000 in that ring. And it just took me a minute 0:11:04.040 --> 0:11:07.240 to adjust myself of how much we put values in things? 0:11:07.600 --> 0:11:16.760 How much value are you putting in things? Stuff? Because 0:11:16.800 --> 0:11:21.599 what happens if you misplace it. What happens is it 0:11:21.800 --> 0:11:26.800 get side of your hands. Then what you gotta remind 0:11:26.840 --> 0:11:29.360 yourself with the memories and what's important on the inside, 0:11:29.400 --> 0:11:31.920 and along with the fact of being careful and being 0:11:31.960 --> 0:11:34.720 mindful with the things that you have right now. So 0:11:36.160 --> 0:11:38.800 that was a jarring effect and it took me for 0:11:38.840 --> 0:11:43.319 a loop, but I realized it's gonna be okay. And 0:11:43.440 --> 0:11:45.559 you know, in my conversation with my sister, I also 0:11:45.679 --> 0:11:49.800 was talking to her and we got on this explanation, 0:11:49.880 --> 0:11:53.280 or we got this conversation talking about the difference between 0:11:53.320 --> 0:11:56.839 being broke and broken. Now, this was a situation I 0:11:56.880 --> 0:11:59.200 could have went down a spiral and got all brokenness 0:11:59.240 --> 0:12:03.120 and all that kind of stuf of, But this conversation 0:12:03.200 --> 0:12:06.240 really spearheaded because I was telling he how like, you know, 0:12:06.880 --> 0:12:09.040 I'm so excited about all the things that I'm manifesting. 0:12:09.320 --> 0:12:11.640 I can't wait to I finally get everything up with 0:12:11.720 --> 0:12:14.000 my house and getting it exactly the way I wanted 0:12:14.040 --> 0:12:17.480 to look like. And I'm like, man, it's so interesting 0:12:17.520 --> 0:12:19.800 that when I had money, mean, and I had a 0:12:19.800 --> 0:12:22.440 consistent job and it was coming in, I didn't even 0:12:22.440 --> 0:12:25.920 have to know how in the mindset to decorate my 0:12:26.000 --> 0:12:29.800 home like I wanted it to. And right now, while 0:12:29.800 --> 0:12:31.720 all the finances aren't in place for me to do 0:12:31.760 --> 0:12:35.280 it how I want to do it, I realized I 0:12:35.320 --> 0:12:39.839 got a different, renewed mindset. And I think changing your 0:12:39.840 --> 0:12:43.800 mindset changes things. How you look at things changes things. 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:47.320 Because I look back on when I felt like I 0:12:47.400 --> 0:12:50.720 had all the resources a k a. Money, I didn't 0:12:50.760 --> 0:12:54.920 know what to do with it. Because while sometimes we 0:12:55.040 --> 0:12:58.440 think that the money is the resource, but it's the source. 0:12:59.080 --> 0:13:02.160 Whatever is in that's the resource. That's the thing that replenished. 0:13:02.200 --> 0:13:05.400 Because I didn't have to know how to get my 0:13:05.440 --> 0:13:09.600 place together. And it's so interesting that, you know, from 0:13:09.600 --> 0:13:11.719 the outside looking in, one could think like, oh, well, 0:13:11.760 --> 0:13:14.720 perhaps the finances are there. No, the mindset isn't there. 0:13:15.320 --> 0:13:17.439 And sometimes we gotta do a better job, but checking 0:13:17.440 --> 0:13:21.120 in on ourselves, checking in on ourselves to see how 0:13:21.120 --> 0:13:23.760 we're feeling, seeing how our viewpoint, just stepping back to 0:13:23.840 --> 0:13:27.160 see ourselves. That's why I'm so adamant about stepping into 0:13:27.200 --> 0:13:29.760 the light so you can see the good and the best, 0:13:29.760 --> 0:13:31.680 so that you can grow from it. It's something of 0:13:31.760 --> 0:13:33.760 the light that gives you a little bit of rejuvenation 0:13:34.080 --> 0:13:37.439 or not a little bit, a lot. And I look 0:13:37.480 --> 0:13:41.520 back and I'm like, yo, Dawn couldn't see the light then. 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:49.320 Dawn didn't know have to know how then. And in 0:13:49.440 --> 0:13:51.720 that conversation with my sister, she said, we're doing there 0:13:51.800 --> 0:13:53.520 was probably a bit of you that was broken. And 0:13:53.600 --> 0:13:55.280 I said, oh my gosh. I was talking to my 0:13:55.320 --> 0:13:58.360 good girlfriend Shelley and I was sharing that conversation with her. 0:13:58.440 --> 0:14:00.000 She said, yeah, I know you were going through something 0:14:00.000 --> 0:14:02.520 aims and I mean I was going through it for 0:14:02.559 --> 0:14:06.640 a couple of years because I couldn't see. So I 0:14:06.720 --> 0:14:08.720 hope you open your eyes, and I mean your spiritual 0:14:08.760 --> 0:14:12.240 eyes to your life so that you can see and 0:14:12.280 --> 0:14:15.480 stop relying on just the finances or other external um 0:14:15.960 --> 0:14:19.200 resources or objects, so that you can feel fulfilled, so 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:22.280 that you can feel complete because it all happens in 0:14:22.320 --> 0:14:25.560 the inside. Because I bet that there were a lot 0:14:25.560 --> 0:14:28.320 of people or other people can say that they had 0:14:28.400 --> 0:14:30.520 less than me, and their home was probably more together 0:14:30.560 --> 0:14:32.720 than mine was. But that doesn't change the fact that 0:14:32.760 --> 0:14:35.720 I was broken from the inside and I'm still putting 0:14:35.720 --> 0:14:38.320 the pieces together. And let me tell you something that's 0:14:38.320 --> 0:14:43.520 a beauty of being broken. The reason why I say 0:14:43.560 --> 0:14:45.760 that is that you have all these pieces, and I 0:14:45.760 --> 0:14:48.320 don't know about you. When I was younger in our class, 0:14:48.600 --> 0:14:51.320 we have these things that we put mosaics together. And 0:14:51.360 --> 0:14:54.920 the mosaic picture is simply a bit, and the mosaic 0:14:54.960 --> 0:15:00.120 picture simply bits of pieces that I put together to 0:15:00.160 --> 0:15:03.960 make something beautiful? What are you making with your pieces? 0:15:06.320 --> 0:15:09.240 Sometimes we fall down so that things can be put 0:15:09.240 --> 0:15:13.360 back together right. Sometimes you have to be down so 0:15:13.400 --> 0:15:17.480 that you can get up. Sometimes the only way to 0:15:17.560 --> 0:15:22.440 go up this just cause you're down. And I look 0:15:22.480 --> 0:15:25.520 at the new, renewed Dawn, the renewed mindset I have 0:15:25.840 --> 0:15:31.840 now with Dawn, and I say, wow, almost a while 0:15:31.880 --> 0:15:34.000 from where I've been, but more so while from who 0:15:34.040 --> 0:15:37.040 I become. How I'm growing more, how I'm stepping in, 0:15:37.080 --> 0:15:39.400 how I'm allowing myself to see grace, to see that 0:15:39.440 --> 0:15:44.480 dawn that was broken, and that encouraged me, encourages me 0:15:44.600 --> 0:15:47.320 to to look at life with a different, renewed lens, 0:15:47.600 --> 0:15:49.320 because you know, sometimes you can look at people and 0:15:49.400 --> 0:15:52.640 judge them and ain't got their head together, hang out, 0:15:52.640 --> 0:15:55.200 they closes just right, but you ever asked to wonder 0:15:55.240 --> 0:15:58.560 what they could be going through. I was driving with 0:15:58.560 --> 0:16:02.440 a friend down the street and it was woman and 0:16:03.080 --> 0:16:08.840 it had to be about fifty something degrees outside from 0:16:08.840 --> 0:16:11.480 the front. It was a complete dress and the back 0:16:11.520 --> 0:16:14.600 of her ass was out like literally you saw her throwing. Now, 0:16:14.640 --> 0:16:16.080 I bet a lot of people was like, oh, she 0:16:16.240 --> 0:16:19.920 probably nasty. I ain't that her friends to her nothing? 0:16:19.920 --> 0:16:22.440 Why would she go around looking like that? And immediately 0:16:22.480 --> 0:16:24.480 it hurt my heart because I said, oh, my goodness, 0:16:25.360 --> 0:16:28.800 what could she be going through in the sense that 0:16:28.840 --> 0:16:31.600 you would walk around what you're behind out in fifty 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:35.200 degree rather And I look back at dawn and I said, 0:16:35.240 --> 0:16:37.360 oh my goodness, what were you going through when you 0:16:37.400 --> 0:16:42.520 couldn't even open your eyes to decorate your place? Well, 0:16:44.680 --> 0:16:49.920 I got through it, still getting through it, but like 0:16:50.000 --> 0:16:52.560 I said, when it's a new dawn, it's a new day. 0:16:53.080 --> 0:16:54.600 And I hope you take time to look at yourself. 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:56.200 I hope you take time to be more gentle and 0:16:56.240 --> 0:17:02.480 show more grace with yourself. Then to happen seeds and 0:17:02.520 --> 0:17:07.440 planted so that you can grow. I'm growing, I'm getting better, 0:17:07.480 --> 0:17:09.600 I'm getting stronger. I'm growing in the sense that I 0:17:09.640 --> 0:17:12.280 didn't let it take me out that I a diamond 0:17:12.320 --> 0:17:15.320 fell out on my mom's ring. What I'm growing from 0:17:15.320 --> 0:17:16.600 that is I'm gonna go ahead and make sure that 0:17:16.600 --> 0:17:18.439 I get everything tightened up and cleaned up, just so 0:17:18.480 --> 0:17:22.240 that it will never happen again, because yes, it's this ring, 0:17:22.280 --> 0:17:24.240 but it could be something else in the future. But 0:17:24.280 --> 0:17:26.320 thank god, I'm gonna catch it now. Thank God, I 0:17:26.320 --> 0:17:29.000 can look back on that dooring that looking at home, 0:17:29.080 --> 0:17:31.119 and I didn't even have to know how to decorate 0:17:31.119 --> 0:17:32.960 it because whatever dark space that I'm in, but guess what, 0:17:33.040 --> 0:17:35.320 I can see the light now, so best believe I'm 0:17:35.359 --> 0:17:38.320 decorating my place now. So I want to encourage you 0:17:38.359 --> 0:17:39.919 to see the light. I want to encourage you to 0:17:39.960 --> 0:17:42.600 see yourself. I want to encourage you to have grace 0:17:42.640 --> 0:17:45.600 with yourself. I want to encourage you not to necessarily 0:17:45.600 --> 0:17:50.040 place your value on things because things take up space, 0:17:51.200 --> 0:17:54.560 and we're making room for ourselves to grow. We're making 0:17:54.640 --> 0:17:58.680 room for abundance, We're making room for peace. We're making 0:17:58.760 --> 0:18:04.440 room for ourselves. H So, yeah, I may have lost 0:18:05.160 --> 0:18:09.600 a diamond out of my mom's ring, but I didn't 0:18:09.640 --> 0:18:13.240 lose my mama, not from where she resides on the inside. 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:16.240 In fact, I think I found another piece of her. 0:18:17.160 --> 0:18:22.720 So yeah, be gentle with yourself, get your rightem and 0:18:23.520 --> 0:18:30.160 right with me. I get excited about your lives.