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Speaker 2: All right, break it down.

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Speaker 1: If you ever have feelings that you just wont Amy

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Speaker 1: and Cat gotcha, Cob and Locking No, brother, ladies and folks,

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Speaker 1: do you just follow Ann the spirit where it's all

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Speaker 1: the real stuff to the chill stuff and the m

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Speaker 1: but Swayne, sometimes the best thing you can do it

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Speaker 1: just stop you feel things. This is feeling things with

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Speaker 1: Amy and Cat.

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Speaker 2: Happy Tuesday. Welcome to feeling things. I'm Amy and I'm Cat,

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Speaker 2: and we both have feelings of the day, and I

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Speaker 2: can see in our doc they're very different. I have

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Speaker 2: no idea why you're feeling disgusted, but I'm feeling eager.

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Speaker 2: You go first.

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Speaker 1: I want your feeling today, you.

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Speaker 2: Know I want to feel eager.

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Speaker 1: Actually, here you go. I'm gonna twist this frown upside down.

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Speaker 1: I'm feeling disgusted because a couple of days ago I

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Speaker 1: awoke with what looks to be and you can give

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Speaker 1: your feedback on this, but it looks like I have

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Speaker 1: which from my friend who's an esthetician, is what I've

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Speaker 1: But it can't be that.

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Speaker 2: Actually, because isn't it hormononal? Yeah? Yeah, I've had dermatitis

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Speaker 2: on my back before. I don't know if that's exactly

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Speaker 2: I got it at? You know, CBS or Walgreens, crapefruit scrub? No, no,

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Speaker 2: no packs. So I got a Google pack. I know

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Speaker 2: what you're saying, Packsaw, it's the X with X right.

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Speaker 2: Maybe it cleared my back. I mean I was living

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Speaker 2: a bar of soap of the This what I'm going

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Speaker 1: Wait, I wonder if I could use it on my face.

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Speaker 2: I mean maybe you could. My dermatologist told me that

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Speaker 2: you can use Dan Driff shampoo on your face, but

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Speaker 2: I don't know if that applies for hormonal bumps.

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Speaker 1: So I'm taking a new medication that I know. That's

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Speaker 1: why I don't know, but that's why I'm assuming it's

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Speaker 1: because I'm frustrated.

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Speaker 1: I think I'm more frustrated than disgusted, because I'm not

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Speaker 2: Oh, okay, pan ox, panox soal.

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Speaker 1: What is paxl. That's a drug, paxels so much pharmaceutical drug.

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Speaker 2: There's the There's lots of different panox sole products. I

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Speaker 2: scynth though, because it has a job to do. They

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Speaker 2: also have a acne banishing body spray. Just get some

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Speaker 1: I don't know anything is gonna fix it unless I

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Speaker 2: And so well, what we do know is this is temporary. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: and while you are feeling disgusted, you don't look just

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Speaker 1: It's pretty bad.

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Speaker 2: But how close are you sitting to your client?

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Speaker 1: Not that close? And I think that's also I think

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Speaker 1: Well, that's true, but I said, you can't just lie

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Speaker 2: I am acknowledging that your face feels and looks bad

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Speaker 2: I am also telling you they don't look as bad

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Speaker 2: But the thing is, I didn't even see that text

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Speaker 1: So what I'm doing is image management. I'm like calling

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Speaker 1: You walk in said it. Yes, So I do realize

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Speaker 2: Just called image image management. Yeah, well is that a tool.

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Speaker 1: It's something that we do when we are trying to

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Speaker 2: So it's more of a tactic than a tool.

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Speaker 1: So it's like me saying, I know what you're thinking.

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Speaker 2: So you know it's an unhealthy coping tool and you

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Speaker 2: So what should we do instead? If we had that

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Speaker 1: Yeah, what should we do opposite action, which is the

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Speaker 2: Well, you did dish out compliments. You were like, your

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Speaker 2: Well, it's not so much what it's looking like, it's

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Speaker 1: Why smell?

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Speaker 2: The ends of it smell okay, But I feel like

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Speaker 1: Vow to Okay, this is gonna be so hard to

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Speaker 1: Like I'm gonna see my mom later. She already knows

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Speaker 2: That's okay to want to vent, but you there's no

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Speaker 1: To be like, look and now I've told you your

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Speaker 1: Yeah. And do you have your little I feel like

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Speaker 1: I think maybe you've told me that fact before.

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Speaker 2: Yes, because you get to see the the wonders of

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Speaker 2: I don't think you get to know them, especially if

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Speaker 1: What is the Disney character as it? That's like in

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Speaker 2: I know, whatever room I go to, my dog and

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Speaker 1: You're talking what you were good going through is like

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Speaker 1: It would have had an unh some unhealthy dynamics. I

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00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:26,960
Speaker 1: would say they're toxic.

439
00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:30,159
Speaker 2: Yeah, you go, unhealthy dynamics, that's it. And there was

440
00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:32,080
Speaker 2: multiple players.

441
00:20:32,240 --> 00:20:33,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, so.

442
00:20:35,040 --> 00:20:38,560
Speaker 2: It was like a really fun video. I was like,

443
00:20:38,880 --> 00:20:43,280
Speaker 2: please make this game stop, and it does. Yeah, it did.

444
00:20:43,520 --> 00:20:45,320
Speaker 1: But I do think toxic is one of those words

445
00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:48,040
Speaker 1: now that it's thrown around way too much, and we

446
00:20:48,119 --> 00:20:50,720
Speaker 1: kind of use it as an excuse to either not

447
00:20:50,760 --> 00:20:53,520
Speaker 1: look at our own stuff or not sit with discomfort

448
00:20:53,840 --> 00:20:56,159
Speaker 1: or not. And that could be just the discomfort of

449
00:20:56,600 --> 00:20:58,159
Speaker 1: the fact that this is the way the world is,

450
00:20:58,400 --> 00:21:01,000
Speaker 1: you know, right, So I just go through them and

451
00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:03,600
Speaker 1: you can tell me if any feelings show up. And

452
00:21:03,640 --> 00:21:08,680
Speaker 1: this comes from therapy for women. At therapy for women, someone.

453
00:21:08,359 --> 00:21:11,879
Speaker 2: Disagreeing with you, right, that's uncomfortable.

454
00:21:11,280 --> 00:21:13,800
Speaker 1: Not toxic, just uncomfortable, which I feel like that's a

455
00:21:13,800 --> 00:21:16,400
Speaker 1: lot of times, and it's not so simple. It's not like, oh,

456
00:21:16,800 --> 00:21:20,400
Speaker 1: she said that this hamburger wasn't good. It's if somebody

457
00:21:20,440 --> 00:21:23,320
Speaker 1: disagrees with you about a behavior or decision you made

458
00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:27,280
Speaker 1: or something like that, or you're disagreeing with them, they

459
00:21:27,320 --> 00:21:29,960
Speaker 1: have a different idea of what they need to do.

460
00:21:30,359 --> 00:21:31,920
Speaker 1: A lot of times we're like, oh, they're just being

461
00:21:31,920 --> 00:21:33,639
Speaker 1: toxic or they're so toxic I need to cut them

462
00:21:33,640 --> 00:21:34,919
Speaker 1: out of my life. And it's like, well, I just

463
00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:38,480
Speaker 1: think sometimes we need to leave space for some differences,

464
00:21:38,640 --> 00:21:40,960
Speaker 1: and that's okay that they think that what you did

465
00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:43,120
Speaker 1: was probably not the right decision, you can still think

466
00:21:43,160 --> 00:21:43,639
Speaker 1: it's okay.

467
00:21:43,920 --> 00:21:46,040
Speaker 2: My boyfriend and I were having a conversation with another

468
00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:49,359
Speaker 2: couple just a couple of days ago. Actually it's very recent,

469
00:21:49,480 --> 00:21:51,560
Speaker 2: and I woke up kind of even thinking about it,

470
00:21:51,600 --> 00:21:54,600
Speaker 2: like thinking if I was a toxic person, that I

471
00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:57,240
Speaker 2: would have maybe in that conversation because we weren't agreeing.

472
00:21:58,119 --> 00:22:01,720
Speaker 2: I could have like I stared at them like they're crazy,

473
00:22:02,520 --> 00:22:04,560
Speaker 2: and then shut it down, like when we got in

474
00:22:04,560 --> 00:22:06,520
Speaker 2: the car, I could be like, we're not hanging out

475
00:22:06,560 --> 00:22:09,399
Speaker 2: with them anymore. But I'm proud of myself. I didn't

476
00:22:09,640 --> 00:22:11,000
Speaker 2: do it, But I don't know why I woke up

477
00:22:11,040 --> 00:22:12,960
Speaker 2: with that thought. And maybe it was like a hint

478
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:16,199
Speaker 2: of like maybe we shouldn't hang out with them, But

479
00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:17,840
Speaker 2: I was proud of us for being able to have

480
00:22:17,880 --> 00:22:21,040
Speaker 2: a difficult conversation and everybody, you know, five minutes later

481
00:22:21,119 --> 00:22:24,719
Speaker 2: laughing about something else. We definitely did not agree. What

482
00:22:24,800 --> 00:22:27,600
Speaker 2: I did was I said I don't agree with that.

483
00:22:28,040 --> 00:22:30,240
Speaker 1: Good for you. That's not how I see it's healthy.

484
00:22:30,359 --> 00:22:32,440
Speaker 2: And then they're like, oh, well, this is one of

485
00:22:32,520 --> 00:22:34,639
Speaker 2: my favorite things about this person. Da da da, And

486
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:37,560
Speaker 2: I'm like, that's not how I see that at all,

487
00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:41,119
Speaker 2: and it was a yeah, it was a healthy, I

488
00:22:41,119 --> 00:22:43,239
Speaker 2: guess disagreement. I didn't know you were going to talk

489
00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:45,879
Speaker 2: about this, But when I'm thinking about it, it was

490
00:22:45,920 --> 00:22:48,600
Speaker 2: a little uncomfortable, but not terribly. But it is weird

491
00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:50,720
Speaker 2: that I woke up this morning having that thought of, like,

492
00:22:51,280 --> 00:22:52,879
Speaker 2: there were probably some people that would have been that

493
00:22:52,880 --> 00:22:54,880
Speaker 2: situation and they would have just like cut it off.

494
00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:59,760
Speaker 2: I cut the relationship off because of just how black

495
00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:02,520
Speaker 2: and why so many things seem lately, especially in the

496
00:23:02,600 --> 00:23:05,680
Speaker 2: like the political landscape and oh yeah, how people are

497
00:23:05,720 --> 00:23:09,720
Speaker 2: just so my way or the highway. Like if you

498
00:23:09,760 --> 00:23:12,040
Speaker 2: don't think like I do, well, you're you know.

499
00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:15,120
Speaker 1: You're toxic, yeah, or you're bad or And I think

500
00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:17,399
Speaker 1: there are things that you can feel really strongly about

501
00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:20,000
Speaker 1: and you can have like deal breakers for yourself. Sure

502
00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:23,040
Speaker 1: that's okay, but not everything has to be a deal breaker,

503
00:23:23,080 --> 00:23:25,720
Speaker 1: And we need to learn how to sit in myself included,

504
00:23:25,840 --> 00:23:28,159
Speaker 1: Like I think I'm part of this because it's easier

505
00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:29,600
Speaker 1: to be like, oh, I don't want to deal with

506
00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,359
Speaker 1: that anymore, so I'm just not going to have a

507
00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: relationship with them, versus like sit with the fact that like, yeah,

508
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,200
Speaker 1: these people might believe this, and that's hard for me

509
00:23:37,280 --> 00:23:40,560
Speaker 1: to comprehend. But I think that even goes into we

510
00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:43,520
Speaker 1: talked about the drama triangle a couple weeks back, maybe

511
00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:45,679
Speaker 1: a month, that was in December. I think if you

512
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:48,520
Speaker 1: haven't listened to that episode, I highly recommend it. Part

513
00:23:48,560 --> 00:23:52,159
Speaker 1: of the drama triangle is to lower expectations and create boundaries.

514
00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:55,159
Speaker 1: And I can just create boundaries around those things, and

515
00:23:55,240 --> 00:23:58,960
Speaker 1: so when I no longer have that conversation, like if

516
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:01,760
Speaker 1: it's about something political, for instance, I don't talk about

517
00:24:01,800 --> 00:24:04,280
Speaker 1: politics with that person, and then I can start to

518
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:06,640
Speaker 1: see the other things that I still might find redeeming

519
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:10,760
Speaker 1: about them. And again, this is all nuanced, So I'm

520
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:13,960
Speaker 1: sure there are plenty of reasons why you would want

521
00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:20,080
Speaker 1: to cut a relationship, relationship up, a relationship off with someone.

522
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:23,120
Speaker 1: But if it's we're just saying, like, not every time

523
00:24:23,160 --> 00:24:26,000
Speaker 1: somebody disagrees with you, are they toxic people? It just

524
00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:29,600
Speaker 1: sometimes is difficult to sit with right proud of you.

525
00:24:30,119 --> 00:24:32,920
Speaker 2: Well, thanks, I mean, I wasn't sharing it free to

526
00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:35,840
Speaker 2: be proud of me at all, but I will take it, yeah,

527
00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 2: because I guess when I think about it, I'm like,

528
00:24:37,800 --> 00:24:41,400
Speaker 2: we did handle that well yeah, huh, okay, yeah, now

529
00:24:41,400 --> 00:24:44,680
Speaker 2: it happened. If it happens again, they're done.

530
00:24:45,280 --> 00:24:49,280
Speaker 1: Two strikes, they're out. Second one is being asked to compromise.

531
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:51,840
Speaker 1: Not toxic, just uncomfortable.

532
00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:57,080
Speaker 2: I feel like, if someone's asking you to compromise, how

533
00:24:57,119 --> 00:24:59,000
Speaker 2: would that ever be perceived as toxic?

534
00:24:59,160 --> 00:25:02,280
Speaker 1: If they're asking you to give something up unclearly yeah,

535
00:25:02,280 --> 00:25:04,040
Speaker 1: and they're like, I can't believe they would ask me

536
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:07,040
Speaker 1: of that. I mean, this is spectrum of ways that

537
00:25:07,080 --> 00:25:09,119
Speaker 1: this would show up. It's not just like hey, like,

538
00:25:09,160 --> 00:25:10,760
Speaker 1: can we meet at five thirty in set of five?

539
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:12,480
Speaker 1: Like I don't think anybody is sorry.

540
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:15,879
Speaker 2: I'm thinking like the compromises, like okay, if you don't

541
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:20,640
Speaker 2: want salmon for dinner, and maybe you don't want beef,

542
00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:22,080
Speaker 2: can we meet in the middle on chicken?

543
00:25:22,760 --> 00:25:25,560
Speaker 1: I think that could be like a exam. I don't

544
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:28,240
Speaker 1: know an exact example of this, but more grand scheme

545
00:25:28,280 --> 00:25:32,520
Speaker 1: that would be more like straight with somebody, like you're

546
00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:36,720
Speaker 1: doing some business decision and like I don't see it

547
00:25:36,760 --> 00:25:38,119
Speaker 1: the way you see it, so I'm asking you to

548
00:25:38,119 --> 00:25:38,920
Speaker 1: meet me in the middle.

549
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 2: Or it's like you're having a compromise your integrity though.

550
00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, well that would be toxic. I don't know that

551
00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:47,760
Speaker 1: that might not even well if they're I think that

552
00:25:47,800 --> 00:25:50,560
Speaker 1: this is where it gets nuanced, because you might have

553
00:25:50,600 --> 00:25:54,320
Speaker 1: different ideas of integrity. And if it's somebody's like, hey,

554
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:57,400
Speaker 1: we should steal from this person, that's the one thing.

555
00:25:57,440 --> 00:26:00,879
Speaker 1: But if they just like are great the line of

556
00:26:00,920 --> 00:26:03,280
Speaker 1: something that isn't that big of a deal, they might

557
00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:07,360
Speaker 1: not be toxic. You might just have like way stronger morals.

558
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:11,120
Speaker 1: That doesn't mean that they're toxic. And that sounds bad.

559
00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 1: I feel like when I even say, but there's levels

560
00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:13,800
Speaker 1: of it.

561
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:16,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, I get what you're saying.

562
00:26:16,760 --> 00:26:21,280
Speaker 1: Okay, feeling guilty when you hurt somebody isn't toxic. It's

563
00:26:21,359 --> 00:26:24,440
Speaker 1: just uncomfortable. And the alem me explain this one, because

564
00:26:24,600 --> 00:26:28,359
Speaker 1: I see you're a little confused. I think sometimes when

565
00:26:28,480 --> 00:26:33,920
Speaker 1: people hurt somebody's feelings, they are like, I don't need

566
00:26:33,960 --> 00:26:35,879
Speaker 1: to feel guilt because I did what is right. Like

567
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:37,879
Speaker 1: I had to stick up for myself. It's that whole

568
00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:42,600
Speaker 1: like if it's not a hell, yes, it's a no,

569
00:26:43,119 --> 00:26:46,560
Speaker 1: or that like very strong black and white of I

570
00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:49,000
Speaker 1: have to start self caring for myself and then I

571
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:52,480
Speaker 1: leave people out. So we talk ourselves out of feeling guilty.

572
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:54,800
Speaker 1: So this one is saying like, it's okay for you

573
00:26:54,800 --> 00:26:58,000
Speaker 1: to feel guilty if you hurt somebody's feelings, that's not toxic.

574
00:26:58,040 --> 00:27:00,720
Speaker 1: It's okay to feel that. Because I think lady, we've

575
00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:03,000
Speaker 1: been studying, we the world has been setting the message

576
00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:04,520
Speaker 1: of like you don't have to feel bad for that,

577
00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:07,280
Speaker 1: and like it's actually okay to have some guilt.

578
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:09,760
Speaker 2: Oh good, okay, yeah.

579
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:11,760
Speaker 1: Because if we hurt somebody these feelings, it's okay to

580
00:27:11,840 --> 00:27:14,520
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, I didn't like that. I do feel

581
00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:15,600
Speaker 1: a little bit guilty of that.

582
00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:20,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, let's feel stuff around that. Yeah it should feel uncomfortable.

583
00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:23,679
Speaker 1: Yeah, it should feel uncomfortable. Because then what happens is

584
00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:25,800
Speaker 1: like there is again it's a nuance. It's a fine line.

585
00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:28,600
Speaker 1: There are things that like I'll sit with a client

586
00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:31,240
Speaker 1: and they'll be like they'll say, like, I feel so guilty,

587
00:27:31,280 --> 00:27:34,440
Speaker 1: and I'll ask them, well, tell me what you did wrong.

588
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,680
Speaker 1: Guilt is helping you, like stay in your moral compass,

589
00:27:37,720 --> 00:27:40,040
Speaker 1: Like it's helping you do the right thing, So tell

590
00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:43,200
Speaker 1: me what you did wrong. And sometimes they can identify

591
00:27:43,240 --> 00:27:46,240
Speaker 1: something like okay, well that makes sense. It sounds like

592
00:27:46,280 --> 00:27:49,000
Speaker 1: in that scenario, there wasn't a way for you to

593
00:27:49,000 --> 00:27:52,320
Speaker 1: get what you needed and also not hurt anybody in

594
00:27:52,359 --> 00:27:54,919
Speaker 1: the process. So like, maybe there is a repair you

595
00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 1: might want to make, who knows, And also you might

596
00:27:57,560 --> 00:27:59,199
Speaker 1: want to give yourself grace because you were putting a

597
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:03,240
Speaker 1: hard position. But then there's also people who are like,

598
00:28:04,240 --> 00:28:06,200
Speaker 1: I did this thing, and I'm not going to feel

599
00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:08,800
Speaker 1: bad about it because xyz, even if they stepped on

600
00:28:08,880 --> 00:28:12,680
Speaker 1: people's what is it step on their toes or they yeah,

601
00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:15,639
Speaker 1: hurt people in the process. And I think that is

602
00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:19,359
Speaker 1: our way of trying to reconcile, getting your needs met

603
00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:23,119
Speaker 1: and also not having to have feelings. Does that make sense?

604
00:28:23,240 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 2: Yeah? Back to the if it's not a hell yes,

605
00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:27,960
Speaker 2: it's a no. How do you feel about that?

606
00:28:28,080 --> 00:28:28,520
Speaker 1: Hate it?

607
00:28:28,680 --> 00:28:29,200
Speaker 2: You hate it?

608
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:31,600
Speaker 1: When at first first people will started saying that, I

609
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:34,840
Speaker 1: was like, heck, yeah, that was in like peak hustle culture.

610
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:38,400
Speaker 1: Speaking of the twenty sixteen you know, it's been a

611
00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:41,640
Speaker 1: thing lately of reminiscing on twenty sixteen. I feel like

612
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:43,800
Speaker 1: that's when that got really big around that time.

613
00:28:44,520 --> 00:28:45,920
Speaker 2: If it's not a hell yes, it's a no.

614
00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:48,959
Speaker 1: It was a girl boss all of that, And I

615
00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:50,960
Speaker 1: think that is black and white.

616
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:53,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, and there's so much great. I feel like sometimes

617
00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:55,600
Speaker 2: I would try to apply that and I'd be like, but,

618
00:28:56,600 --> 00:28:58,960
Speaker 2: like I've probably said, like but I don't really know

619
00:28:59,160 --> 00:29:00,600
Speaker 2: for sure, like is.

620
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,200
Speaker 1: It a but I kind of want to do it?

621
00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:04,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, And then I'm like, but I guess if it's

622
00:29:04,840 --> 00:29:10,680
Speaker 2: not a definite clear yes. Now I understand some things

623
00:29:10,720 --> 00:29:13,920
Speaker 2: like if you need to make a quick decision, that

624
00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,400
Speaker 2: could be a quick method you use of like if

625
00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,920
Speaker 2: you're making me make up my mind right now and

626
00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:21,080
Speaker 2: I'm only like a little bit in then okay, I'm out.

627
00:29:21,720 --> 00:29:25,400
Speaker 1: Yeah. I think it was that was intended. See, we

628
00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:27,960
Speaker 1: just take everything too far. That was intended to help

629
00:29:28,040 --> 00:29:31,560
Speaker 1: people say no, because it was really targeted towards women,

630
00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:32,160
Speaker 1: I think a lot.

631
00:29:32,480 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 2: Okay, what about this one? No is a complete sentence?

632
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:39,640
Speaker 1: Okay, another one that I used to love and now

633
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:43,920
Speaker 1: I feel torn on because sometimes explanations are needed, sometimes

634
00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:47,040
Speaker 1: they're not. The intention I think behind that was so

635
00:29:47,160 --> 00:29:49,960
Speaker 1: people didn't feel like they had to over explain themselves.

636
00:29:50,360 --> 00:29:55,520
Speaker 1: But if you asked me a question, name something that

637
00:29:55,560 --> 00:29:58,479
Speaker 1: you would ask me for, Like, I don't know what

638
00:29:58,520 --> 00:29:59,240
Speaker 1: do you need from me?

639
00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:03,400
Speaker 2: While I'm trying to think of how serious do we

640
00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:03,920
Speaker 2: want to make it?

641
00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: Okay, if you ask, if you text me and you're like,

642
00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:08,520
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, my car it broke down on the

643
00:30:08,560 --> 00:30:10,800
Speaker 1: side of the road. I'm gonna be late for work.

644
00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:13,480
Speaker 1: Can you come pick me up? And I just said no,

645
00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:17,280
Speaker 1: I just n period sent it to you.

646
00:30:17,360 --> 00:30:19,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, that would be that was aggressive. That would just

647
00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:22,400
Speaker 2: be weird, Like we don't talk like that, Okay, But

648
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:24,760
Speaker 2: I don't know that that's what it's for, right, Like

649
00:30:24,800 --> 00:30:25,400
Speaker 2: what if it were?

650
00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 1: But I think that's the point is it's intended for this,

651
00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:32,160
Speaker 1: and then we've used it for all these other we

652
00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:36,240
Speaker 1: exaggerate to make us less uncomfortable about doing that.

653
00:30:36,320 --> 00:30:39,000
Speaker 2: Okay, here's one where I think maybe it applies more.

654
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Speaker 2: I love the car example, but that's just like not

655
00:30:41,320 --> 00:30:44,440
Speaker 2: like you would never be like no, But if someone

656
00:30:44,520 --> 00:30:46,600
Speaker 2: was trying to protect their personal peace and maybe they

657
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:48,200
Speaker 2: had a lot going on and they didn't have the

658
00:30:48,240 --> 00:30:51,440
Speaker 2: bandwidth for somebody else's drama, and maybe I call you

659
00:30:51,560 --> 00:30:54,120
Speaker 2: and you know that I have something dramatic going on,

660
00:30:54,240 --> 00:30:56,600
Speaker 2: and I'm like, or I text you to give you

661
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:58,480
Speaker 2: a heads up, like, hey, do you have time to

662
00:30:58,520 --> 00:31:02,080
Speaker 2: talk today about like this just happens drive me crazy,

663
00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:04,560
Speaker 2: and then you, knowing where you are with your mental

664
00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:07,480
Speaker 2: health for this day, you're like, I really don't have

665
00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:09,800
Speaker 2: the capacity for her drama today, so you just replied

666
00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:13,760
Speaker 2: that no again. But that's to protect your peace, I know,

667
00:31:14,040 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 2: But I feel like someone that might be a case

668
00:31:16,360 --> 00:31:18,440
Speaker 2: where someone might be like, I don't need to explain myself.

669
00:31:18,520 --> 00:31:19,880
Speaker 2: I just don't have time for them today.

670
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:20,160
Speaker 1: No.

671
00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:23,880
Speaker 2: But then that is weird because I would want you

672
00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:28,080
Speaker 2: to say. What I would really appreciate from you is, Hey,

673
00:31:28,840 --> 00:31:30,440
Speaker 2: I know you're going through a lot, and I would

674
00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:31,960
Speaker 2: love to work through this with you. I don't have

675
00:31:32,040 --> 00:31:34,680
Speaker 2: the bandwidth for it today, but maybe tomorrow.

676
00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:37,760
Speaker 1: Yes, you're using that like the phrase like it knows

677
00:31:37,760 --> 00:31:40,680
Speaker 1: a complete sentence. I think it's supposed is supposed to

678
00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:43,320
Speaker 1: and like the Grand scheme of things help people say

679
00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:48,240
Speaker 1: sentences like you said not just say an oh, it's

680
00:31:48,280 --> 00:31:50,920
Speaker 1: been taken to literally if that makes sense, Like that

681
00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:52,960
Speaker 1: was just me saying no, because if you did ask

682
00:31:53,000 --> 00:31:54,400
Speaker 1: me that, I would be like, oh, I can't today,

683
00:31:54,920 --> 00:31:57,280
Speaker 1: but here's another day x y Z. And some people

684
00:31:57,320 --> 00:31:58,880
Speaker 1: could even say like I don't have the time today.

685
00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:02,600
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry, Like what but just me being like, oh,

686
00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:05,080
Speaker 1: my therapist said knows a complete sentence, so I should

687
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:07,640
Speaker 1: practice doing that, and me just saying n O period

688
00:32:07,680 --> 00:32:12,640
Speaker 1: to you, you would probably be like that was harsh.

689
00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:15,200
Speaker 1: What's going on with her? And like whoops? And so

690
00:32:15,240 --> 00:32:17,479
Speaker 1: it's not clear. I don't think that that's clear. And

691
00:32:18,040 --> 00:32:21,320
Speaker 1: you've taught me like being clear as kind? Or is

692
00:32:21,320 --> 00:32:22,560
Speaker 1: it Brene Brown that taught you that?

693
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:25,240
Speaker 2: No, I mean, I don't know who originally said it.

694
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:27,560
Speaker 2: I'm sure a lot of people say it, but my

695
00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:31,440
Speaker 2: mentor of sorts, you know, her name's Alex. Yeah, she

696
00:32:32,160 --> 00:32:35,400
Speaker 2: has drilled into me clear ast kind. Also I got

697
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:37,520
Speaker 2: it from Janet way back in the day therapy. No

698
00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:41,680
Speaker 2: clear is kind? Unclear is unkind? Okay, A lot of

699
00:32:41,680 --> 00:32:44,760
Speaker 2: people in the recovery space too, you hear.

700
00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:45,040
Speaker 1: It a lot.

701
00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:48,200
Speaker 2: So SIT's bro, it's a good reminder.

702
00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:54,000
Speaker 1: So no complete can be a complete sentence. And that's

703
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,760
Speaker 1: not the sentence that we use. When we use it exactly,

704
00:32:58,080 --> 00:33:01,120
Speaker 1: it doesn't sound as good and instagram graphic. I think

705
00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:02,400
Speaker 1: that's part of the problem there.

706
00:33:02,760 --> 00:33:06,800
Speaker 2: Okay, So what else isn't toxic? Just uncomfy?

707
00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 1: Someone expressing disappointment, Like if somebody shares with you that

708
00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:14,200
Speaker 1: they're like disappointed in something or it could be something

709
00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:18,440
Speaker 1: you did, it could be something whatever. They're not being toxic.

710
00:33:19,320 --> 00:33:20,240
Speaker 1: It's okay to do that.

711
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:21,920
Speaker 2: It's just uncomfortable.

712
00:33:21,960 --> 00:33:24,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, to hear it, just hear that. Yeah. Now again,

713
00:33:24,880 --> 00:33:28,200
Speaker 1: this is all nuanced. So there's levels of this, and

714
00:33:28,600 --> 00:33:32,240
Speaker 1: the last one is conflict that leads to growth. So

715
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:36,840
Speaker 1: any conflict that leads to growth most likely is not

716
00:33:36,880 --> 00:33:40,320
Speaker 1: going to be toxic to be healthy, conflict that leads

717
00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:43,400
Speaker 1: to growth versus disruption and destruction.

718
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:49,120
Speaker 2: I will say too, like, certain things are uncomfortable. This

719
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:52,560
Speaker 2: isn't profound, like nothing, Like what's she going to say?

720
00:33:52,720 --> 00:33:56,760
Speaker 2: You're gonna be like, well, yeah, duh. But it's helpful

721
00:33:56,840 --> 00:34:02,360
Speaker 2: to consider in your thoughts when pondering comfort. Things are

722
00:34:02,440 --> 00:34:04,640
Speaker 2: uncomfortable until they're not.

723
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:14,320
Speaker 1: Okay, funny because you set it up. But I know

724
00:34:14,440 --> 00:34:16,280
Speaker 1: that is a good pension.

725
00:34:16,560 --> 00:34:20,120
Speaker 2: My My point is, when I'm looking back over the

726
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:24,320
Speaker 2: last five or six years, some stuff that used to

727
00:34:24,360 --> 00:34:31,040
Speaker 2: be so uncomfortable for me isn't uncomfortable anymore because I

728
00:34:31,160 --> 00:34:36,040
Speaker 2: leaned into the uncomfort. I got comfortable with the uncomfortable too.

729
00:34:36,600 --> 00:34:41,920
Speaker 2: So now new situations, circumstances arise and you have to

730
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:46,080
Speaker 2: navigate those waters. And now I'm just picturing like a

731
00:34:46,120 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 2: bicep lifting like a dumb bell, like but because I exercised,

732
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:55,920
Speaker 2: Like it's this picture a dumbell that's like says uncomfortable,

733
00:34:57,680 --> 00:35:01,880
Speaker 2: and I'm like lifting it like the more I lift it,

734
00:35:01,320 --> 00:35:04,840
Speaker 2: the easier it gets, and so it's not uncomfortable anymore.

735
00:35:05,160 --> 00:35:07,759
Speaker 2: Like over time, not in that same overtime. No, Like

736
00:35:07,800 --> 00:35:10,279
Speaker 2: I'm talking like some of the stuff maybe took two

737
00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:14,080
Speaker 2: years or and I'm talking about in ways of how

738
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:18,560
Speaker 2: you communicate, in ways of how you operate in relationships,

739
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:25,600
Speaker 2: of how you handle something toxic or uncomfortable. But because

740
00:35:25,640 --> 00:35:29,480
Speaker 2: you exercise that that muscle, like, the more we avoid,

741
00:35:29,680 --> 00:35:32,440
Speaker 2: because then that's you never face the uncomfortable, so you

742
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:35,680
Speaker 2: don't learn how to lift it. Yeah, now you've follow it.

743
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:37,200
Speaker 1: No, I love what you're saying.

744
00:35:37,239 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 2: It was just your setup that really got me. You've

745
00:35:40,239 --> 00:35:44,520
Speaker 2: never pictured a dumb bell that says uncomfortable, never use that,

746
00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:47,520
Speaker 2: but who knows I might use that? Now? Be like

747
00:35:48,200 --> 00:35:52,400
Speaker 2: picture it. You're at the gym and you go over

748
00:35:52,680 --> 00:35:54,680
Speaker 2: to the weight rack and you pick up the dumb

749
00:35:54,719 --> 00:36:00,120
Speaker 2: bell that says uncomfortable. You know because like one day, Oh,

750
00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:02,239
Speaker 2: I was at the gym with my boyfriend the other

751
00:36:02,280 --> 00:36:07,080
Speaker 2: day and we were doing what's the bench an incline bench,

752
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:10,800
Speaker 2: and I was doing chest presses, yeah, like on an incline.

753
00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:18,040
Speaker 2: And I've seen and read from many experts in perimenopause

754
00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:23,640
Speaker 2: that perimenopausal women need to be lifting to exertion, like

755
00:36:24,680 --> 00:36:28,279
Speaker 2: by the eight rep it should be very very difficult,

756
00:36:28,400 --> 00:36:31,160
Speaker 2: like maybe eight is your max. And you know, a

757
00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:32,880
Speaker 2: lot of time, like I grew up in a lifting

758
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,799
Speaker 2: weights of like three sets of fifteen, you know, and

759
00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 2: then you just kind of do it, and it's you know,

760
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:40,000
Speaker 2: by the time you get fifteen, it's hard but whatever.

761
00:36:40,080 --> 00:36:42,439
Speaker 2: But we're talking like by the time you're doing eight,

762
00:36:42,480 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 2: it's like I can barely right. So my boyfriend is

763
00:36:45,600 --> 00:36:49,200
Speaker 2: even spotting me because I normally lift like five or

764
00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:52,879
Speaker 2: ten pounds, but he I got twenty five pound dumbbells

765
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:54,560
Speaker 2: in each arm.

766
00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:55,479
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

767
00:36:55,520 --> 00:36:57,120
Speaker 2: But I mean he was there so that if it

768
00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:01,000
Speaker 2: fell like or if I, yeah, like I buckled and

769
00:37:01,040 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 2: like dropped it, I would be fine. But I told

770
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:06,200
Speaker 2: him I wanted to practice maxing out and I could

771
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:09,120
Speaker 2: only make it to eight, and then we set him down,

772
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:11,440
Speaker 2: and then I tried it again and I made it,

773
00:37:11,480 --> 00:37:13,560
Speaker 2: Like I think by the third time, I started to

774
00:37:13,560 --> 00:37:15,399
Speaker 2: trust myself a little more and I made it to nine.

775
00:37:15,600 --> 00:37:18,919
Speaker 2: But I know next time we go back, I'll be

776
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:21,160
Speaker 2: more comfortable to be like, OK, yeah, let's get the

777
00:37:21,200 --> 00:37:23,160
Speaker 2: twenty five, because when he first bought me the twenty five,

778
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:26,920
Speaker 2: I was like, stop, no, let's try twenty He's like, no, no, no,

779
00:37:27,000 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 2: let's try this. But I'll be more inclined to lay

780
00:37:29,520 --> 00:37:31,080
Speaker 2: down and be like, yeah, give me the twenty fives

781
00:37:31,120 --> 00:37:34,520
Speaker 2: because I know I can do it, And then fast

782
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:36,600
Speaker 2: forward maybe two or three more gym visits, and I'd

783
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:37,880
Speaker 2: be like, get the thirties.

784
00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:40,319
Speaker 1: And even the confidence that I can even see like

785
00:37:40,440 --> 00:37:41,760
Speaker 1: happening after your time story.

786
00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:46,400
Speaker 2: So when something uncomfortable happens, my point is you're ready

787
00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:48,600
Speaker 2: for it. Yeah, and you're gonna be like this isn't

788
00:37:48,600 --> 00:37:51,440
Speaker 2: gonna be easy to lift, but I know I can

789
00:37:51,480 --> 00:37:53,040
Speaker 2: do it. Well.

790
00:37:53,040 --> 00:37:55,200
Speaker 1: It's what you're saying too, is like the only way

791
00:37:55,600 --> 00:37:56,239
Speaker 1: through is through.

792
00:37:56,840 --> 00:38:00,560
Speaker 2: Don't get me through us through? Yeah, and the you know,

793
00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:03,320
Speaker 2: like I said a couple of minutes ago, at the beginning,

794
00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:07,000
Speaker 2: things are uncomfortable, are uncomfortable till they're not.

795
00:38:09,239 --> 00:38:11,200
Speaker 1: You heard it here first Ladies and Gentlemen.

796
00:38:11,600 --> 00:38:14,120
Speaker 2: Quoter what was I don't even remember the exact quote,

797
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:16,279
Speaker 2: but it's like things are uncomfortable until they're not.

798
00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:20,080
Speaker 1: That literally, the thing was sweet. Nobody's ever probably said

799
00:38:20,080 --> 00:38:30,200
Speaker 1: that before either, so you can really I'm kidding. I'm sorry.

800
00:38:30,239 --> 00:38:32,239
Speaker 1: That was kind of mean. You got excited.

801
00:38:32,800 --> 00:38:38,600
Speaker 2: Well you're toxic, okay, So so that ends that segment. Yeah,

802
00:38:38,960 --> 00:38:42,359
Speaker 2: so things that aren't toxic just uncomfortable.

803
00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:45,719
Speaker 1: And this is not an exhausted list, obviously, it's just

804
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:48,960
Speaker 1: this one little thing I found online that I liked

805
00:38:49,239 --> 00:38:50,040
Speaker 1: good reminders.

806
00:39:01,560 --> 00:39:03,839
Speaker 2: So I made protein balls the other night that were

807
00:39:03,880 --> 00:39:06,239
Speaker 2: not good at all, and my boyfriend had to say, like,

808
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:09,000
Speaker 2: this isn't your best work. But I had to improvise

809
00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:12,920
Speaker 2: because I didn't have everything, and you know, I typically

810
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:16,600
Speaker 2: if I'm putting protein powder in them, it's unflavored. Way, well,

811
00:39:16,600 --> 00:39:19,640
Speaker 2: I was out, so I'm unflavored. So I used a vanilla.

812
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:21,160
Speaker 1: That's where you went wrong.

813
00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:23,440
Speaker 2: It went so wrong, and then I thought, well, i'll

814
00:39:23,440 --> 00:39:26,799
Speaker 2: fix this. I'll add a little milk ew I know,

815
00:39:27,239 --> 00:39:32,080
Speaker 2: wait's I don't know, I don't know it needed. I

816
00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:34,120
Speaker 2: just thought, well, I'm just gonna go rogue from the

817
00:39:34,160 --> 00:39:38,080
Speaker 2: recipe and just like try something different and create it.

818
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:41,840
Speaker 2: And then it was like mushballs and they eventually hardened.

819
00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:44,160
Speaker 1: Did you eat them or did you throw them out? Yeah?

820
00:39:44,400 --> 00:39:46,120
Speaker 2: When you saw me eating one earlier, that was one

821
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:48,080
Speaker 2: of them. I'm not going to waste it.

822
00:39:48,239 --> 00:39:50,400
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, you're really good at not wasting.

823
00:39:50,040 --> 00:39:53,879
Speaker 2: Food, thank you. So wasn't my best work at all.

824
00:39:53,920 --> 00:39:55,799
Speaker 2: And I had to take that feedback from him, like

825
00:39:55,920 --> 00:39:59,040
Speaker 2: he wasn't being toxic. Though. It was uncomfortable because I

826
00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:01,640
Speaker 2: was like, well, shoot, dang, I didn't like hearing it.

827
00:40:01,960 --> 00:40:04,560
Speaker 1: Well, and did you kind of like know though? Yeah?

828
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:05,839
Speaker 2: I kind of like knew, but I mean I didn't

829
00:40:05,840 --> 00:40:07,839
Speaker 2: think they were like terrible. But he was just like, oh,

830
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:09,200
Speaker 2: it's not your best work.

831
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:12,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, it would be a little bit harder for you

832
00:40:12,200 --> 00:40:13,680
Speaker 1: to hear that probably if you're like, oh my gosh,

833
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:14,879
Speaker 1: these are so good taste someone.

834
00:40:14,960 --> 00:40:17,239
Speaker 2: He was like, oh, oh yeah, that would be difficult

835
00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:20,000
Speaker 2: and said I knew I went rogue. I said, well,

836
00:40:20,080 --> 00:40:23,880
Speaker 2: I had improvise and this is what we got, so

837
00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:28,359
Speaker 2: take it or leave it, buddy. So then last night

838
00:40:28,560 --> 00:40:30,840
Speaker 2: I was at his house and he had all the

839
00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:34,680
Speaker 2: ingredients for the balls minus protein powders, so these aren't

840
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:38,560
Speaker 2: protein balls. We just made balls and he had everything else.

841
00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:40,759
Speaker 2: And he's like, okay, do it your way. So I

842
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:43,520
Speaker 2: pull up the Feeling Things podcast, like, I go to that.

843
00:40:43,560 --> 00:40:46,080
Speaker 2: Do you ever do that? Like? I literally go to

844
00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:48,319
Speaker 2: our cooking made post so many times. I know, but

845
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:49,920
Speaker 2: I just didn't after my mishap.

846
00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:51,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I didn't like, I can't take any chance.

847
00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:55,759
Speaker 2: I didn't trust myself. So I went to on our

848
00:40:55,800 --> 00:40:58,200
Speaker 2: Instagram page and I went to the cooking video of

849
00:40:58,320 --> 00:41:00,360
Speaker 2: the first time we made the protein balls, and I

850
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:02,319
Speaker 2: was like verbat him and I had measuring cups out

851
00:41:02,320 --> 00:41:05,319
Speaker 2: and I'm like, we're not messing these up. Well, he

852
00:41:05,360 --> 00:41:08,640
Speaker 2: doesn't like chocolate chips, which is something we put in there.

853
00:41:09,320 --> 00:41:10,839
Speaker 2: He doesn't like them. He'll pick them out.

854
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:13,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, he doesn't like the flavor.

855
00:41:13,040 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 2: He doesn't like chocolate speaking of bumps. He's like it

856
00:41:16,239 --> 00:41:18,880
Speaker 2: breaks me out. And I'm like one chocolate chip and

857
00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:22,439
Speaker 2: he's like, well there's not one, there's like half a cup.

858
00:41:22,560 --> 00:41:25,040
Speaker 2: Does he like the flavor of chocolate? Not really, he

859
00:41:25,480 --> 00:41:27,960
Speaker 2: just doesn't. He's like, I've never been someone habit and

860
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:30,040
Speaker 2: trust me. He's like, if I when I have chocolate,

861
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:32,439
Speaker 2: I my skin is different. So it's like, I don't

862
00:41:32,480 --> 00:41:32,920
Speaker 2: mess with it.

863
00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:35,880
Speaker 1: You think that my bumps. I'm just kidding.

864
00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:37,480
Speaker 2: Is it chocolate?

865
00:41:37,680 --> 00:41:41,279
Speaker 1: I don't think it. Wait, that is so interesting. I

866
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:42,680
Speaker 1: feel like you don't meet that many people that like

867
00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:44,600
Speaker 1: don't like love chocolate.

868
00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:48,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, he does not love chocolkay, so I said, And

869
00:41:48,360 --> 00:41:51,080
Speaker 2: he did have chocolate chips. I mean he has kids.

870
00:41:51,120 --> 00:41:52,520
Speaker 2: So I was like, do you want me to not

871
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:54,120
Speaker 2: put in the chocolate chips? I said, but I feel

872
00:41:54,120 --> 00:41:55,719
Speaker 2: like it's going to miss something because, like to me,

873
00:41:55,760 --> 00:41:59,000
Speaker 2: the chocolate chips yes, a little crunch. And he's like, well,

874
00:41:59,080 --> 00:42:04,000
Speaker 2: I have rice crisps like Cereal. Why are you?

875
00:42:05,480 --> 00:42:07,080
Speaker 1: At first, I was thinking, right.

876
00:42:07,040 --> 00:42:10,439
Speaker 2: Well, the degree the brand specifically, because I will say

877
00:42:10,480 --> 00:42:14,240
Speaker 2: the puff in these is nice. The brand is one degree.

878
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:18,200
Speaker 2: I looked at the box. One degree maybe brown rice puffs?

879
00:42:18,480 --> 00:42:18,800
Speaker 1: Okay?

880
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:20,239
Speaker 2: He said he got them at Whole Foods, but I'm

881
00:42:20,239 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 2: sure you could get them at public Sir Kroger, I

882
00:42:22,480 --> 00:42:26,040
Speaker 2: don't know. And HB shout out from a Texas listeners

883
00:42:26,600 --> 00:42:29,600
Speaker 2: and let me tell you, we didn't put chocolate chips.

884
00:42:29,600 --> 00:42:33,800
Speaker 2: We put the brown rice crisppuff ball thingies so good.

885
00:42:34,000 --> 00:42:35,319
Speaker 1: I'm imagining that being good.

886
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:40,640
Speaker 2: I mean, game changer. You could even add it with

887
00:42:40,680 --> 00:42:41,200
Speaker 2: the chocolate.

888
00:42:41,640 --> 00:42:42,759
Speaker 1: Can I still have the chocolate ships?

889
00:42:43,360 --> 00:42:45,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, well I think I have rice cake.

890
00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,799
Speaker 1: So i'magining it just like adds a little bit more

891
00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:49,280
Speaker 1: like airy crunched.

892
00:42:48,960 --> 00:42:50,799
Speaker 2: And airy crunch is a good way to put it.

893
00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:53,279
Speaker 2: And let me tell you, as soon as I get

894
00:42:53,320 --> 00:42:55,520
Speaker 2: I'm out of ingredients at my house. But now that

895
00:42:55,560 --> 00:42:57,040
Speaker 2: I've made this at his, and I got to go

896
00:42:57,080 --> 00:43:00,279
Speaker 2: get my own box of one degree and I got

897
00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:02,360
Speaker 2: to get some unflavored way because I like having the

898
00:43:02,360 --> 00:43:05,560
Speaker 2: protein in them. I'm making these with the chocolate chips

899
00:43:05,600 --> 00:43:09,840
Speaker 2: and the puffs and it's it's like our recipe elevator.

900
00:43:10,600 --> 00:43:13,279
Speaker 2: It's the twenty twenty six version. I cannot wait.

901
00:43:13,360 --> 00:43:16,719
Speaker 1: I have a question about this though, because do you

902
00:43:16,800 --> 00:43:19,920
Speaker 1: need to add more wet ingredients in.

903
00:43:19,880 --> 00:43:21,200
Speaker 2: There so they stay together? No?

904
00:43:21,360 --> 00:43:23,840
Speaker 1: Oh really nope, because sometimes mine are a little dry,

905
00:43:24,239 --> 00:43:26,120
Speaker 1: so I add a little extra honey or peanut butter.

906
00:43:26,719 --> 00:43:27,960
Speaker 1: So this was still okay.

907
00:43:28,040 --> 00:43:30,600
Speaker 2: How much of the of it did you use? Like

908
00:43:30,640 --> 00:43:33,600
Speaker 2: a cup did not measure? Because I just was like, oh, well,

909
00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 2: I'm just adding it in for an extra crunch. So

910
00:43:35,719 --> 00:43:37,360
Speaker 2: I just sprinkled it. So I have to get a

911
00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:39,080
Speaker 2: measurement if people want that, But I think you could

912
00:43:39,120 --> 00:43:43,400
Speaker 2: just like sprinkle to you'll till you're content. Okay, so

913
00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:46,200
Speaker 2: do you sort of like with the chocolate chips, I

914
00:43:46,200 --> 00:43:48,320
Speaker 2: think we have a measurement on our recipe.

915
00:43:48,320 --> 00:43:50,160
Speaker 1: But like something you too much, too much?

916
00:43:50,200 --> 00:43:52,840
Speaker 2: I agree, sometimes it's too much, so you could do less,

917
00:43:53,600 --> 00:43:55,640
Speaker 2: just add as you go, figure out what works for you.

918
00:43:55,920 --> 00:43:58,680
Speaker 2: And I gotta say, this is one of those things

919
00:43:58,760 --> 00:44:03,560
Speaker 2: that was born out of maybe some uncomfortableness because I

920
00:44:03,600 --> 00:44:07,200
Speaker 2: had to go through the crappy balls and and my

921
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:09,839
Speaker 2: boyfriend say like, oh, not your best work to then

922
00:44:10,280 --> 00:44:13,200
Speaker 2: the next night me wanting to prove myself at his

923
00:44:13,320 --> 00:44:15,680
Speaker 2: house to be like I got you. I know last

924
00:44:15,760 --> 00:44:20,080
Speaker 2: night they were pretty bad, but I can do this

925
00:44:20,400 --> 00:44:22,120
Speaker 2: and I'm going to make you some good balls.

926
00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:24,480
Speaker 1: And I did it, and I did it, but it

927
00:44:25,000 --> 00:44:25,919
Speaker 1: life was forever change.

928
00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:27,680
Speaker 2: But I probably wouldn't have made them. Yeah, So like

929
00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:30,120
Speaker 2: also look at it that way when you're going through

930
00:44:30,160 --> 00:44:32,360
Speaker 2: something uncomfortable.

931
00:44:32,360 --> 00:44:34,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's giving you the push you need what to

932
00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:35,200
Speaker 1: get to you?

933
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:36,319
Speaker 2: What is going to come from it.

934
00:44:36,480 --> 00:44:40,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, what does this make possible? Better balls? Better balls?

935
00:44:40,719 --> 00:44:43,120
Speaker 2: Crunch your crunch your bone.

936
00:44:43,000 --> 00:44:45,600
Speaker 1: Crunch your balls. So that was a game changer.

937
00:44:46,840 --> 00:44:51,160
Speaker 2: I want to try that. Yeah, I'm loving I'm loving

938
00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:53,160
Speaker 2: those balls. In fact, I'm going to go over to

939
00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:54,759
Speaker 2: my boyfriend's house today and there's going to be some

940
00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:56,480
Speaker 2: left and I can't wait to eat one since I

941
00:44:56,480 --> 00:44:59,359
Speaker 2: don't have the ingredients at my house yet. So I'm

942
00:44:59,360 --> 00:45:01,920
Speaker 2: going to be eating more those today and I'm going

943
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:07,960
Speaker 2: to be finishing book Lovers. Finishing, Yeah, let me finishing it.

944
00:45:08,040 --> 00:45:09,200
Speaker 1: When did you start it.

945
00:45:11,760 --> 00:45:14,400
Speaker 2: Two days ago? Maybe when I right when I finished Nightingale?

946
00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:17,000
Speaker 2: I picked it right up, which is quite the difference

947
00:45:17,040 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 2: because Nightingale, uh was obviously historical fiction, very heavy, like

948
00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:27,359
Speaker 2: I was crying, and so I was happy to roll

949
00:45:27,440 --> 00:45:31,960
Speaker 2: into something lighter, and I decided to make my first

950
00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:34,480
Speaker 2: Emily Henry read Book Lovers.

951
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:37,000
Speaker 1: Can you give us a summary of what it's about?

952
00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:39,359
Speaker 1: Because the title doesn't really make me want to read it?

953
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 2: Okay, Well, it's two people. They love books crazy, and

954
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:50,480
Speaker 2: so they're one is a book editor and one as

955
00:45:50,520 --> 00:45:51,960
Speaker 2: a book a literary agent.

956
00:45:52,200 --> 00:45:54,319
Speaker 1: Are they women as one a man?

957
00:45:54,560 --> 00:45:56,880
Speaker 2: Are they one as a man and one as a woman.

958
00:45:57,120 --> 00:46:02,279
Speaker 1: Oh, the book Lovers Love is multi dimensional there, Yeah,

959
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:02,960
Speaker 1: isn't it? Okay?

960
00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:06,080
Speaker 2: But it's I'm like, really cute. Oh and there's a

961
00:46:06,120 --> 00:46:11,920
Speaker 2: cute sister of relationship happening. Okay, I like also in

962
00:46:11,920 --> 00:46:15,640
Speaker 2: The Nightingale there was a sister relationship. Well, define it's cute.

963
00:46:15,840 --> 00:46:17,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's different. I was gonna say I like her

964
00:46:17,760 --> 00:46:20,080
Speaker 1: books because they're easy read. So that's what sounds like.

965
00:46:20,160 --> 00:46:22,360
Speaker 1: That was easy read, like you're you're almost done with this?

966
00:46:22,719 --> 00:46:26,720
Speaker 2: Yes, Although Nightingale I appreciated the font on the book

967
00:46:26,840 --> 00:46:30,960
Speaker 2: was a little bit bigger. So switching from that to

968
00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:34,600
Speaker 2: Book Lovers, the book is smaller. And I need my

969
00:46:34,719 --> 00:46:39,120
Speaker 2: reading glasses. I need reading classes. I got mine by

970
00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:41,400
Speaker 2: prescription and then I lost them, and I've been so

971
00:46:42,040 --> 00:46:45,160
Speaker 2: upset about them because they were expensive that I've refused

972
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:47,879
Speaker 2: to get new ones because I keep hoping i'll find them.

973
00:46:48,840 --> 00:46:51,719
Speaker 1: But yeah, I don't. I think maybe if they are

974
00:46:52,239 --> 00:46:54,319
Speaker 1: glasses that help you see.

975
00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:56,319
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I can see. I can still see.

976
00:46:56,600 --> 00:46:59,480
Speaker 1: If you're straining to read, I think that makes your

977
00:46:59,480 --> 00:47:00,319
Speaker 1: eyesight worse.

978
00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:03,520
Speaker 2: Right, Really, it's not like a muscle. I'm not exercising it.

979
00:47:03,719 --> 00:47:06,440
Speaker 1: No, I think it's straining makes your eyesight worse.

980
00:47:06,640 --> 00:47:08,800
Speaker 2: Oh. I feel like if you start to use glasses

981
00:47:08,840 --> 00:47:12,640
Speaker 2: too soon before you need it, you become too dependent

982
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:15,600
Speaker 2: and you weaken your eye. Did I just make that up?

983
00:47:17,800 --> 00:47:18,960
Speaker 2: At least that's what I'm hope.

984
00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:19,520
Speaker 1: I don't know.

985
00:47:19,600 --> 00:47:21,560
Speaker 2: I don't know either. I was just hoping for that

986
00:47:22,040 --> 00:47:23,200
Speaker 2: being the case, you know.

987
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. I think if you need glasses,

988
00:47:26,239 --> 00:47:29,879
Speaker 1: the best solution is like to wear them, get them

989
00:47:29,880 --> 00:47:30,520
Speaker 1: and wear them.

990
00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:32,560
Speaker 2: Get them and wear them. What are you reading?

991
00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:36,440
Speaker 1: So? Well? I put this book in the newsletter last week,

992
00:47:36,480 --> 00:47:39,040
Speaker 1: but I've been reading. I'm on a Kristin Hannah kick,

993
00:47:39,239 --> 00:47:41,680
Speaker 1: which is who wrote The Nightingale. But I'm saving The

994
00:47:41,760 --> 00:47:43,839
Speaker 1: Nightingale because I want to read that, and I listen

995
00:47:43,880 --> 00:47:46,640
Speaker 1: to all my books. So what's going to happen is

996
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:48,360
Speaker 1: I'm probably never going to read The Nightingale.

997
00:47:49,080 --> 00:47:51,319
Speaker 2: No, you have to. I know it might be my

998
00:47:51,400 --> 00:47:53,640
Speaker 2: favorite book ever, and I know I just finished it.

999
00:47:53,680 --> 00:47:56,720
Speaker 2: But okay, it catapulted its first place.

1000
00:47:56,880 --> 00:47:59,000
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, her my favorite book is one of her books.

1001
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:00,839
Speaker 1: It was It's the Winter and the one that I

1002
00:48:01,360 --> 00:48:02,360
Speaker 1: months ago talked about.

1003
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:03,680
Speaker 2: Well, that's what I need to read next.

1004
00:48:03,800 --> 00:48:08,400
Speaker 1: It's so good. But I'm reading listening to Four Wins,

1005
00:48:08,640 --> 00:48:11,640
Speaker 1: which is about the Great Depression and the dust Bowl

1006
00:48:11,800 --> 00:48:15,560
Speaker 1: and people moving to California for jobs and then the

1007
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:19,520
Speaker 1: startup unions. Sounds so boring if you would have told

1008
00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:23,319
Speaker 1: me that. Oh literally, when it was done, I was

1009
00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:25,360
Speaker 1: upset that there wasn't more of it, like I wanted

1010
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:28,279
Speaker 1: to keep going. Very good and you learn. That's the

1011
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:33,040
Speaker 1: best part about historical fiction is you learn. Yeah, and

1012
00:48:33,080 --> 00:48:33,800
Speaker 1: I love learning.

1013
00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:38,799
Speaker 2: You know us learn learn, learn, which I sent you

1014
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,440
Speaker 2: something to teach you something about cars and humans. We

1015
00:48:42,480 --> 00:48:46,719
Speaker 2: can end on that. It was an Instagram video that

1016
00:48:46,760 --> 00:48:50,799
Speaker 2: popped up of doctor Matt Townsend. He was doing looks

1017
00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:53,839
Speaker 2: like a podcast interview with somebody, and he looked like.

1018
00:48:53,800 --> 00:48:56,640
Speaker 1: The sweetest he did little man.

1019
00:48:56,800 --> 00:48:58,279
Speaker 2: At first, I was like, is he real?

1020
00:48:58,440 --> 00:48:58,920
Speaker 1: Is this ai?

1021
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:02,200
Speaker 2: Like everything, I'm questioning everything, But he's I googled him.

1022
00:49:02,239 --> 00:49:06,960
Speaker 2: He's real. He's got a PhD. And he was talking

1023
00:49:07,120 --> 00:49:14,280
Speaker 2: about highly sensitive people. But he broke us into two categories.

1024
00:49:14,320 --> 00:49:17,920
Speaker 2: Humans put humans in two categories, Like you're either a

1025
00:49:18,040 --> 00:49:22,120
Speaker 2: Chevy or a Ferrari, Right, is that what he said?

1026
00:49:22,160 --> 00:49:22,359
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1027
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:24,400
Speaker 2: Both are good cars. Both are great cars. It's not

1028
00:49:24,440 --> 00:49:27,120
Speaker 2: about that it's about horsepower. It's not about that it's

1029
00:49:27,120 --> 00:49:30,560
Speaker 2: a good car or not. It's that Ferraris. I don't

1030
00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:33,400
Speaker 2: know how many times faster, but he described highly sensitive

1031
00:49:33,400 --> 00:49:42,440
Speaker 2: people as being four times more sensitive to stimuli, smell, circumstances,

1032
00:49:42,560 --> 00:49:46,520
Speaker 2: emotional events, news, probably anything in the world. So that's

1033
00:49:46,520 --> 00:49:48,799
Speaker 2: more of like the Ferrari. So just for the sake

1034
00:49:48,840 --> 00:49:51,040
Speaker 2: of the story, it's probably does to have four times

1035
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:56,600
Speaker 2: the horsepower. I don't know, but Ferraris are these people,

1036
00:49:56,880 --> 00:49:58,880
Speaker 2: and it made me think of you. And I was like,

1037
00:49:58,920 --> 00:50:01,200
Speaker 2: I think CAP might be a Ferrari, And so I

1038
00:50:01,239 --> 00:50:03,520
Speaker 2: send it to Kat and she was like, Okay, I

1039
00:50:03,520 --> 00:50:04,799
Speaker 2: think I am a little bit Like I don't think

1040
00:50:04,800 --> 00:50:06,360
Speaker 2: I'm a Chevy, but I don't think I'm a Ferrari.

1041
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:10,200
Speaker 2: So then I googled what's in between and a lower

1042
00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:11,160
Speaker 2: end Porsche.

1043
00:50:12,120 --> 00:50:14,239
Speaker 1: Which I don't love that it says lower end. Can

1044
00:50:14,280 --> 00:50:15,080
Speaker 1: I just be a Porsche?

1045
00:50:15,080 --> 00:50:18,759
Speaker 2: Well, because there's certain Porsches, I guess Porsches, but do

1046
00:50:18,840 --> 00:50:19,520
Speaker 2: you know Porsches.

1047
00:50:19,560 --> 00:50:23,800
Speaker 1: Porsche, Yeah, you said it that way earlier feels elevated.

1048
00:50:24,719 --> 00:50:30,960
Speaker 2: So certain Porsches have more horsepower, like a super high

1049
00:50:31,440 --> 00:50:32,319
Speaker 2: I'm on the lower end.

1050
00:50:32,880 --> 00:50:35,960
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm still high, and again the Chevy's still good.

1051
00:50:35,960 --> 00:50:38,560
Speaker 1: But I think also the information he was giving was

1052
00:50:38,600 --> 00:50:41,040
Speaker 1: to help people understand that these people have so many

1053
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:45,080
Speaker 1: gifts to be more sensitive in that word sensitive not

1054
00:50:45,239 --> 00:50:47,399
Speaker 1: supposed to be negative. They have so many more gifts

1055
00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:49,920
Speaker 1: where they can attune to things differently, and they can

1056
00:50:49,960 --> 00:50:52,920
Speaker 1: prepare differently and all of that. But the problem is

1057
00:50:53,000 --> 00:50:54,960
Speaker 1: when you aren't aware of that, it's easy to get

1058
00:50:54,960 --> 00:50:57,400
Speaker 1: off track, and it's easy for all the stimuli to

1059
00:50:58,000 --> 00:51:00,200
Speaker 1: get you off the track versus help you get where

1060
00:51:00,200 --> 00:51:03,080
Speaker 1: you need to go faster. Yeah, you just said it

1061
00:51:03,120 --> 00:51:04,040
Speaker 1: in different words. Yeah.

1062
00:51:04,040 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 2: He was talking about how a Ferrari on a track

1063
00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:09,959
Speaker 2: is awesome, like it's doing its thing and it's gonna win.

1064
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:12,399
Speaker 2: But yeah, you take it off the track and it's

1065
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:13,280
Speaker 2: a little disaster.

1066
00:51:14,200 --> 00:51:14,520
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1067
00:51:14,560 --> 00:51:16,840
Speaker 2: So make sure if you're a highly sensitive person, you

1068
00:51:16,880 --> 00:51:20,160
Speaker 2: get on track, get it together, keep it together, be aware,

1069
00:51:20,400 --> 00:51:22,600
Speaker 2: be aware where the track is, be aware where the

1070
00:51:22,640 --> 00:51:23,600
Speaker 2: track is. Yeah.

1071
00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:26,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, so where would you what would you be?

1072
00:51:26,600 --> 00:51:29,040
Speaker 2: Because yeah, I don't think that you're I'm not a Ferrari,

1073
00:51:29,080 --> 00:51:30,359
Speaker 2: but I don't think I'm a Chevy either.

1074
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:32,319
Speaker 1: But I don't think you're at my level. Like I

1075
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:34,080
Speaker 1: think I'm a little more sensitive than you, not in

1076
00:51:34,160 --> 00:51:35,360
Speaker 1: a I'm better than you.

1077
00:51:35,920 --> 00:51:39,480
Speaker 2: I think it's true a chill than yeah, like you

1078
00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:43,400
Speaker 2: have to get to the airport like five hours early,

1079
00:51:44,960 --> 00:51:46,880
Speaker 2: or like parking the other night we went to dinner

1080
00:51:46,920 --> 00:51:48,320
Speaker 2: and you were like, I have to hang up the phone.

1081
00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:52,280
Speaker 2: That's parking lot stressing me out. And then your husband

1082
00:51:52,400 --> 00:51:54,200
Speaker 2: is like he got there before you, and you got

1083
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:55,920
Speaker 2: a really good parking spot on the street, and he

1084
00:51:55,960 --> 00:51:58,000
Speaker 2: even knows how you are, so he texted me and

1085
00:51:58,080 --> 00:51:59,799
Speaker 2: was like, hey, do you want my parking spot, because

1086
00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:01,880
Speaker 2: he knew that just giving you that spot would like

1087
00:52:02,760 --> 00:52:03,879
Speaker 2: then ease your mind.

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00:52:03,920 --> 00:52:06,239
Speaker 1: It was too stressful for me to switch and park

1089
00:52:06,280 --> 00:52:08,560
Speaker 1: into that spot because it was parallel, so I ended

1090
00:52:08,640 --> 00:52:11,040
Speaker 1: up parking in a big parking lot. He walked over

1091
00:52:11,120 --> 00:52:13,600
Speaker 1: in the rain to my car, got in the driver's seat,

1092
00:52:13,680 --> 00:52:14,799
Speaker 1: and then parked my car for me.

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00:52:15,040 --> 00:52:16,200
Speaker 2: Oh, and it.

1094
00:52:16,200 --> 00:52:18,640
Speaker 1: Was raining and it was dark, and I have a

1095
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:20,600
Speaker 1: stigmatism and I can't see at night very well.

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Speaker 2: Right to you being highly sensitive, it's just it's just

1097
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:31,120
Speaker 2: one of the things I see you too, as like

1098
00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:36,400
Speaker 2: very intuitive and like I thank you. I trust your gut.

1099
00:52:38,040 --> 00:52:40,960
Speaker 1: You're more like flow a lot of times.

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Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, but I just so organized my silverware precisely,

1101
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Speaker 2: oh very in a very precise way.

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00:52:48,560 --> 00:52:51,279
Speaker 1: When I got here today, I brought my oatmeal, but

1103
00:52:51,280 --> 00:52:53,400
Speaker 1: I didn't have a spoon, and so I opened her

1104
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:56,839
Speaker 1: silver ward war and I just feel like I looked

1105
00:52:56,840 --> 00:53:01,040
Speaker 1: at you blankly and was like, that's gone on in

1106
00:53:01,040 --> 00:53:06,800
Speaker 1: this drawer because every spoon and fork is perfectly set

1107
00:53:06,840 --> 00:53:09,560
Speaker 1: on top of the next, and they even look pristine

1108
00:53:09,640 --> 00:53:09,920
Speaker 1: like there.

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00:53:10,160 --> 00:53:12,440
Speaker 2: And it's the way I stack them up and down

1110
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:15,160
Speaker 2: like I have a method. Oh yeah, it's I don't

1111
00:53:15,200 --> 00:53:17,160
Speaker 2: know what it is, but I love when I'm unliving

1112
00:53:17,160 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 2: the dishwasher. I'm like, and one, I don't know that

1113
00:53:22,560 --> 00:53:25,480
Speaker 2: that's when your porch comes out. Maybe I'm like, I

1114
00:53:25,520 --> 00:53:28,200
Speaker 2: wish you would show up in other things because there's

1115
00:53:28,200 --> 00:53:29,920
Speaker 2: a lot of stuff. I don't need to be that

1116
00:53:30,440 --> 00:53:34,640
Speaker 2: organized at all. But that's a drawer that I take

1117
00:53:34,640 --> 00:53:35,400
Speaker 2: a lot of pride in it.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate that drawer. It honestly, that dor calmed me

1119
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Speaker 1: down a little bit.

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Speaker 2: Really Yeah, okay, good, happy I could do that. Okay,

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Speaker 2: So just be aware where are you on the sensitivity

1122
00:53:46,640 --> 00:53:49,279
Speaker 2: scale and know when you're off track.

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Speaker 1: Yeah cool, because.

1124
00:53:51,120 --> 00:53:52,520
Speaker 2: When you're off track, then get wet.

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Speaker 1: Yeah another quote by anyone.

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Speaker 2: All right, well, thank you for listening. We appreciate you

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00:53:58,920 --> 00:54:02,759
Speaker 2: so much. You can follow on socials, Feeling Things podcasts

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Speaker 2: on Instagram, TikTok All the Things, and email us for

1129
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Speaker 2: couch talks. Hey there at Feeling Things podcast dot com.

1130
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Speaker 2: And we hope wherever you are, you are having the

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Speaker 2: day you.

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Speaker 1: Need to have. Bye.