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Speaker 1: Guess what decision we're about to make?

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Speaker 2: Horrible decision?

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Speaker 1: How do y'all Welcome to another episode of horrible decision?

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Speaker 1: Boy do a hat make y'all goddamn Welcome y'all, it's

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Speaker 1: your girl man e v ak a full court pumps

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Speaker 1: a ka dot. Hi, everybody, my name is Weezy. We're

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Speaker 1: back for another episode of horrible. We don't have a

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Speaker 1: guest today, which means we're not fighting, which means it's

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Speaker 1: gonna be a great fucking episode. And y'all get to

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Speaker 1: hear us finally talk about ourselves because for whatever reason,

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Speaker 1: y'all motherfuckers want to act like we talk about ourselves

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Speaker 1: too much when we got a motherfucking guess, So now

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Speaker 1: we have the motherfucking floor And damn didn't I say

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Speaker 1: we shouldn't have been cussing this much early on in

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Speaker 1: the goddamn motherfucking shit My bad. I also do want

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Speaker 1: to address a comment. Oh, I know, I know.

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Speaker 2: You're going to get somebody who no, no, no, it's not even.

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Speaker 1: That I'm going to get it, but I just want

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Speaker 1: to address it because it was also it was also

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Speaker 1: a comment that I ended up bringing up bitch in

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Speaker 1: my therapy, pus A hope, and I don't let these

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Speaker 1: wople things they be making you go to therapy. No, no, no, no,

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Speaker 1: y'all hoes are not making me go to therapy at all.

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Speaker 2: Said, I should have been in there anyway.

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Speaker 1: So well, bitch, I've been in there like a good

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Speaker 1: four years now. But I just wanted to read it

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Speaker 1: because I wanted to kind of respond on ay, I

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Speaker 1: don't agree, but also why you can suck my dick

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Speaker 1: from the back.

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Speaker 2: Damn, I know, ain't that crazy? Team? I hope it's

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Speaker 2: not in my other phone. It might be in my

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Speaker 2: other phone. Damn, my bad, my bad.

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Speaker 1: Anyways, this is the problem. I have two phones now,

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Speaker 1: and so it's probably a man. He said, I have

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Speaker 2: Ready, shut the fuck up.

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Speaker 1: Anyways, it was a comment on the YouTube that what

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Speaker 1: episode was it. I think it was our last solo one, okay,

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Speaker 1: was just so interesting to me because I don't like

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Speaker 1: the word trauma dump. But I also know that you

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Speaker 1: and I spoke heavily about as well maybe in another episode.

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Speaker 2: I just don't like that.

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Speaker 1: No emotional dumping, that's what I called it, the emotional dumping,

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Speaker 1: but the trauma dumping. To me, I was just like, uh, nigga,

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Speaker 1: what like A, this is my life. B We're literally

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Speaker 1: going through things in real time, and to me, there's

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Speaker 1: no way for y'all to see the growth of you

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Speaker 1: or myself without referencing like the things that have affected

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Speaker 1: we do. And so I just didn't like that comment,

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Speaker 1: and I wanted to tell you, respectfully to suck my

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Speaker 1: think that us sharing our traumas or the things that

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Speaker 1: we go through within dating, our relationships, our friendships, I'm

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Speaker 1: in hell, even you and me, I feel like it's

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Speaker 1: not trauma dumping as much as it's like, Hey, this

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Speaker 1: we share too much. Sometimes, Yeah, I will say we

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Speaker 3: So someone said, oh her, it wasn't actually a bad comment.

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Speaker 2: Tay that shit to motherfucking therapy. Is what the fuck

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Speaker 3: Which love that Mandy's working through her trauma and theory,

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Speaker 1: And you're supposed to have Oh no, Theanna.

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Speaker 1: Well, I'll say though to me, like, and I get

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Speaker 3: But I thought to myself, what if there's someone that

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Speaker 3: We've talked about this too in a manifestation. But it's

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Speaker 3: It was Lenneus, and I shared with him the love

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Speaker 3: And I don't even talk that much, but I did

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Speaker 3: We've been working on this book for over a year.

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Speaker 3: longer with him. I'm actually elated that we did not

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Speaker 3: I mean, I remember you and I were having a

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Speaker 2: But and I will share that, share what.

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Speaker 1: I remember the exact phone call where I was like,

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Speaker 2: Right now?

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Speaker 3: We were talking Charlemagne maybe jumped on the call, and

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Speaker 3: You're like, I don't need to write a book about sex.

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, The problem is you wanted to be

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Speaker 2: I don't know. So when you're saying things you're ashamed of.

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Speaker 3: In my head, I'm like, Mandy, we're writing a book

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Speaker 2: We are who we are, How suddenly you hate? Oh no?

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Speaker 1: I literally tell I was on the call of Monument

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Speaker 2: But I'm being real though.

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Speaker 3: I actually don't think you're wrong in that. But I

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Speaker 2: Money is So I'm not saying that they're wrong. I

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Speaker 3: But when that attitude was how it started to come

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Speaker 2: No, I think it was also your therapy. You was

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Speaker 2: deeping it, bitch. Yeah, but I mean I'm still deep

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Speaker 2: in it. No.

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Speaker 1: No, through breakup and that and your man at the time,

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Speaker 1: right through that on me.

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Speaker 2: There's another layer of when you throw it in my face.

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Speaker 1: Oh wait, you said, damn Eddie, you don't know what

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Speaker 2: So the very last thing that you want to share,

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Speaker 1: Suck this nigga's dick again was literally we were arguing

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Speaker 1: Why he said you just want to go fuck for money?

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Speaker 2: When in a disagreement.

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Speaker 3: People, people know when you're vulnerable, the things that are

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Speaker 3: It's worse because a random person doesn't really feel like anything,

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Speaker 3: but you knowing that you were in my safe space

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Speaker 1: But not only that, I I listen to people with

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Speaker 2: I listen to more words to us? You know that

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Speaker 1: No, Like to me, I don't shut.

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Speaker 2: The fuck up.

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Speaker 1: To me, I don't get into arguments with my friends

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Speaker 1: No them emails dug even deeper, like to where he

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Speaker 1: He just brought.

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Speaker 2: Up like.

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Speaker 1: He said, oh, I love myself and just talking about

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Speaker 1: He talked about how Ibby stooding up on at the time,

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Speaker 2: And I'm like, niggas you and you.

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Speaker 1: You let me know how them nigga's in the firehouse

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Speaker 2: So what did you talk about? This is the first

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Speaker 2: time he crossed Is this the first time he crossed

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Speaker 1: And it was the first and last, Like he had

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Speaker 1: lied to me, he had betrayed my trust, absolutely, but

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Speaker 1: this was the first time he had attacked me on

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Speaker 1: a personal level and the last, like I never went back.

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Speaker 2: I never had another conversation with him.

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Speaker 3: But also here's the thing too, when it comes to

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Speaker 3: other thing I don't like.

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Speaker 2: First of all, I pillow talk. Here we go.

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Speaker 1: You wanted to say that motherfucking word the same way

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Speaker 1: you want to just talk about words and ears and listening.

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Speaker 3: I like to, well, at least pillo talk, and I

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Speaker 3: like to pillow talk, and I feel like that's a

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Speaker 3: normal relationship.

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Speaker 2: Shit.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, so my homegirl calls me and said some shit,

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Speaker 3: and I'm just like whatever.

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Speaker 2: Right.

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Speaker 1: It's so strange to me that men then throaty. You

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Speaker 1: don't even like.

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Speaker 2: Her, Like, bro, we all do this? Where all do you?

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Speaker 3: I'm like, stop it. I think that shit is so corny.

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Speaker 3: But Bron, this is the reason. Like when I talk

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Speaker 3: about being happy, I feel like, Okay, stuff I'm learning.

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Speaker 2: Let me say that.

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Speaker 3: I don't want to say, oh I'm happy and this avenue,

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Speaker 3: but stuff, stuff I'm learning. I hit below the belt

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Speaker 3: But I did it because I was so angry when

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Speaker 3: he cheated that I was like, oh, what do I

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Speaker 3: do to you? Back in this current relationship, I have

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Speaker 3: been having constant conversation with him about how we're having

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Speaker 3: really good and safe disagreements.

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Speaker 2: The only thing that's tough.

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Speaker 3: I like to walk away from an argument and come

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Speaker 2: He's like no, Like, we're not kids.

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Speaker 3: This is we finished this out, Like we have this

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Speaker 3: conversation and then we table it. We're not about to

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Speaker 3: have a twelve hour break so you can cool off.

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Speaker 2: We're adults, Like, let's talk this through this. And I mean, at.

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Speaker 1: First I need to leave there's a time and place

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Speaker 3: It's actually worked a little better because maybe in a

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Speaker 3: way where I'll walk away quicker if I know I'm angry,

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Speaker 3: I'll be like no, no, no no. And so it's really

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Speaker 3: dealing with me being a hotter head than him, okay,

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Speaker 3: and so he's like, yo, you have to learn how

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Speaker 3: to fucking manage that, and like, haven't open mind when

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Speaker 3: you're talking and not get so fucking riled up.

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Speaker 2: And I'm I'm learning a lot.

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Speaker 3: About communication when you're disagreeing that I haven't romantically before.

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Speaker 2: And I'm enjoying.

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Speaker 3: That process, Like there's a lot of respect that I'm

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Speaker 3: giving that I haven't before. I also have a lot

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Speaker 3: of niggas ain't shit PTSD in trauma that like I'll

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Speaker 3: act like you did something that you've never done, Like

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Speaker 3: you know what I mean, Like, oh.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, not as crazy and it's hard. Yeah, you alone.

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Speaker 2: When I say act like you've did something you've never done,

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Speaker 3: I don't know, I'm feeling really time I'll go to bed,

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Speaker 3: why because you about to fucking other bitch type shit?

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Speaker 3: Oh now not real, that's not like a verbatim thing,

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Speaker 3: but but it's just so, and it's an insecurity that

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Speaker 3: I have, right, and it's not something he's doing to me.

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Speaker 3: The nigga kin sleep right, Like I'm doing this weird

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Speaker 3: thing where I'm getting ready to be hurt and I

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Speaker 3: had to truly let go and also understand that, like

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Speaker 3: I can be loved on and it can be healthy,

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Speaker 3: and I can be supported and it can be okay.

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Speaker 3: Like it's it's the things that I think I deserve

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Speaker 3: that I've had to learn.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that I like, for.

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Speaker 3: Some reason, I just expect every man expect it, excuse me,

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Speaker 3: every man to treat me bad damn, like to.

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Speaker 2: Get ready for it.

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Speaker 3: My man's cool, but it's you know, if this happens,

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Speaker 3: I would I would like safeguard it. And I think

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Speaker 3: there's so many people listening that know that feeling where

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Speaker 3: you can find yourself falling in love. But like I

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Speaker 3: won't get too deep because I already know this might

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Speaker 1: Well, yeah, that's a that's a defense mechanism, and that's

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Speaker 1: self preserving your heart and your feelings. And I mean,

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Speaker 1: no one wants to be hurt again, Like I know

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Speaker 1: after that breakup again, y'all know first relationship, first breakup.

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Speaker 1: That shit had me fucked up, Like, I don't know

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Speaker 1: if I want to go through that again, which is

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Speaker 1: why right now I'm loving on my whole.

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Speaker 2: My holes are.

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Speaker 1: All really good, and although I don't want any of

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Speaker 1: them to be my boyfriend, I really like how they're

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Speaker 1: showing up for me in all of their individual ways.

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Speaker 1: But I've also gotten to a point where this is

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Speaker 1: the first time I know what to ask for and

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Speaker 1: I want. I know what to demand and if I'm

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Speaker 1: not getting it, I'm also so comfortable with walking away

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Speaker 1: and not accepting whatever bullshit a man has to offer me. Yeah, like,

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Speaker 1: you either gonna do this or I'm good. There's a

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Speaker 1: whole bunch of more niggas in a see plenty of fish.

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Speaker 1: I'm really glad I have my last two who ass

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Speaker 1: euro Summers and by ho, I wasn't even Wilin Wilin.

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Speaker 3: I just mean that fucking freedom. Yeah, and not to

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Speaker 3: say there's no freedom now. I'm literally going with my

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Speaker 3: HOMEBOYE to can right in fashion week. I'm like, my

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Speaker 3: man is working, so we can't. But there's a real

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Speaker 3: thing in my head of like, oh, I was completely

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Speaker 3: obsolete and free of having someone in my life, so

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Speaker 3: and that by hoan was honestly healing. I know that

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Speaker 3: that might sound crazy to some, like I don't. I

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Speaker 3: don't believe you can fuck your way through healing. But

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Speaker 3: when I say that, I mean booking a trip, having fun,

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Speaker 3: getting fucking dressed up, flirt and experience in a new city.

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Speaker 3: That healing process is the independence I was hap feeling

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Speaker 3: good without you, Like, That's what I mean by Hoeanen

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Speaker 3: can be healing. Sometimes It's not like you can fuck

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Speaker 3: through a bunch of people to feel good. But me

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Speaker 3: getting out there and putting myself out really did heal me.

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Speaker 3: Like I had wanted to have a relationship that promised

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Speaker 3: me more of a family, and I kind of felt

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Speaker 3: like I had to sit home and couldn't be too

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Speaker 3: wild because of what I was looking for. I didn't

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Speaker 3: But what ended up happening to me was I just

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Speaker 3: lived my own life. Yeah, like a lot of women

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Speaker 3: I think feel like that you are being the woman

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Speaker 3: that you thought or think your future partner wants instead

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Speaker 3: of just whatever the fuck you want.

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Speaker 2: Like really.

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Speaker 3: I used to think I should get a pad on

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Speaker 3: my back for sitting at home or a nigga i'm

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Speaker 3: talking to. I'm like, yeah, I'm at home, I'm reading

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Speaker 3: a book to day, and it was true. But it's

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Speaker 3: like I feel like I'm better because I'm doing that.

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Speaker 3: What the fuck a uacuse he gonna go get a

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Speaker 3: bitch out the club? Hello, egg gona fucking right down

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Speaker 3: and now. But it's not like I wash. I thought

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Speaker 3: that's what I was supposed to do to get what

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Speaker 3: I was asking for. It's not like I was trying

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Speaker 3: to impress this man. It's what I thought I had

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Speaker 3: to do to receive the life I want.

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Speaker 2: But it's not. And if you really don't live for yourself,

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Speaker 2: if you don't jump on that plane, if you home

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Speaker 2: on a weekend, your homegirls saying going out, you really

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Speaker 2: have nothing to do and you're single and you have

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Speaker 2: nothing the next day, bitch, go on, bitch, go outside.

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Speaker 2: Did you see the video of the white girls talking

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Speaker 2: about the devil? What where are we going? Going out?

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00:20:51,119 --> 00:20:52,840
Speaker 2: A white girl's talking about the devil?

440
00:20:53,119 --> 00:20:56,320
Speaker 1: Gila's thirtieth third birthday, one of my what you said

441
00:20:56,320 --> 00:20:57,640
Speaker 1: about the Devil I'm gonna.

442
00:20:57,440 --> 00:21:00,200
Speaker 3: Show you this video. So one of my friends was

443
00:21:00,240 --> 00:21:02,800
Speaker 3: about to cancel on my birthday. She wasn't feeling good,

444
00:21:04,359 --> 00:21:08,639
Speaker 3: and they sent this one through. Let me see if

445
00:21:08,640 --> 00:21:09,159
Speaker 3: I can find it.

446
00:21:09,200 --> 00:21:09,560
Speaker 2: Hold on.

447
00:21:10,119 --> 00:21:13,880
Speaker 3: It was these white white girls basically saying that when

448
00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:17,879
Speaker 3: you want to go out and you get the inclination

449
00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:21,600
Speaker 3: that you shouldn't, it is the devil keeping you inside.

450
00:21:21,680 --> 00:21:22,640
Speaker 2: I'm not playing with you.

451
00:21:22,760 --> 00:21:26,040
Speaker 1: It is and he is stopping you from the blessings

452
00:21:26,080 --> 00:21:27,040
Speaker 1: you're about to receive.

453
00:21:27,800 --> 00:21:31,960
Speaker 2: What, bitch, what, I'm sorry, I believe here it is

454
00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:36,520
Speaker 2: he said yes to something. Listen to me so carefully.

455
00:21:36,520 --> 00:21:39,320
Speaker 1: If you've already said yes to something and then leading

456
00:21:39,359 --> 00:21:40,960
Speaker 1: up to it, you do not want to go, you're

457
00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:42,800
Speaker 1: getting sick, you just tired, you don't want to go.

458
00:21:43,040 --> 00:21:45,000
Speaker 2: All these nons what if I just skipped?

459
00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:48,400
Speaker 1: That is because God has something so big for you there,

460
00:21:48,680 --> 00:21:50,360
Speaker 1: and the devil wants to stealing.

461
00:21:52,280 --> 00:21:58,480
Speaker 2: Get the bikes away from white girls. At this point,

462
00:21:58,840 --> 00:22:00,560
Speaker 2: I want to just stay my pajamas. Don't want to go.

463
00:22:00,720 --> 00:22:02,879
Speaker 2: Sounds like work. I don't know. I'm scared.

464
00:22:02,920 --> 00:22:04,680
Speaker 1: And then you say no, bro, Dad is an attack

465
00:22:04,720 --> 00:22:06,800
Speaker 1: from the enemy because he knows that could be fruitful. Man,

466
00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:10,680
Speaker 1: Get the fuck out of here. No, bitch, but dad,

467
00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:12,359
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you. You know I don't like that.

468
00:22:12,560 --> 00:22:14,280
Speaker 1: Well this baby, I'm gonna commit. And if a bitch

469
00:22:14,280 --> 00:22:15,480
Speaker 1: don't want to go, a bitch ain't gonna go.

470
00:22:15,680 --> 00:22:17,640
Speaker 2: That is the devil keeping you for theday.

471
00:22:17,760 --> 00:22:21,399
Speaker 1: It's me deciding I want to stay inside and watch

472
00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:24,120
Speaker 1: the real housewise instead of the outside and be with y'all.

473
00:22:24,119 --> 00:22:26,040
Speaker 2: That is an attack from the enemy. Get the fuck

474
00:22:26,080 --> 00:22:26,439
Speaker 2: out of here.

475
00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:29,280
Speaker 3: It is the summer. I might have a man, but bitch,

476
00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:31,240
Speaker 3: the wind is still blowing. I'll be at the layout

477
00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:32,120
Speaker 3: and that nigga brought that shit.

478
00:22:32,160 --> 00:22:34,320
Speaker 2: Ever, what you mean you're going to lay out? Which

479
00:22:34,359 --> 00:22:35,640
Speaker 2: I ain't gonna hold you? I am.

480
00:22:36,080 --> 00:22:38,960
Speaker 1: We are coming back early from Okay, just I gonna

481
00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:41,320
Speaker 1: do the layout, and then after the layout, my ass

482
00:22:41,440 --> 00:22:43,560
Speaker 1: is going to the Chris Brown Constant, and then after

483
00:22:43,560 --> 00:22:45,600
Speaker 1: the Chris Brown constler, I'm going to bed and hopping

484
00:22:45,640 --> 00:22:48,160
Speaker 1: on a motherfucking flight to the South of Prince to be.

485
00:22:48,320 --> 00:22:52,840
Speaker 3: A ho we we Oh, bitch, I can't wait. You

486
00:22:52,920 --> 00:22:57,600
Speaker 3: already know I'm a parent Parisian French hose. When I

487
00:22:57,640 --> 00:23:00,359
Speaker 3: told my mother where I was going, she said, Quila,

488
00:23:00,600 --> 00:23:03,040
Speaker 3: I almost didn't marry your father because I was. I

489
00:23:03,119 --> 00:23:05,520
Speaker 3: was bouncing around the South of France, and I'm telling

490
00:23:05,600 --> 00:23:08,600
Speaker 3: you I need your experience that I be in Paris.

491
00:23:08,359 --> 00:23:10,119
Speaker 1: On the gutta shit at the Little Good Club. I

492
00:23:10,119 --> 00:23:12,240
Speaker 1: ain't gonna hold out this. And I'm real happy too,

493
00:23:12,520 --> 00:23:15,200
Speaker 1: because you know, I'll be scared. I feel like crackers

494
00:23:15,200 --> 00:23:17,440
Speaker 1: don't really like me. But it's gonna be a whole

495
00:23:17,440 --> 00:23:20,160
Speaker 1: bunch of Americans. And there's this thing called Sport Beach,

496
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,200
Speaker 1: and so the athlete's gonna be out there. Girl, I

497
00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:23,840
Speaker 1: don't know already looked up the Little Ross.

498
00:23:24,240 --> 00:23:24,840
Speaker 2: I'm a piano.

499
00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 1: I was like, listen, I'm gonna be in the South

500
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:31,720
Speaker 1: of France talking to a nigga from Jacksonville. Like maybe

501
00:23:31,840 --> 00:23:34,320
Speaker 1: I'm finna stay true to who the fuck I am.

502
00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:40,960
Speaker 1: All Right, anyway, let's get into our vanilla shit. The

503
00:23:41,040 --> 00:23:44,080
Speaker 1: Vanilla Ship comes from the New York Post and it

504
00:23:44,119 --> 00:23:49,560
Speaker 1: says that Cadence OTC sweeps Plan be and Ella with

505
00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:53,600
Speaker 1: a twenty dollar morning After pill. Now y'all know Weezy

506
00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:55,680
Speaker 1: love to come on here talk about her coupons and shit.

507
00:23:56,080 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 1: But basically, where y'all it's been about fourty nine, nine

508
00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:02,000
Speaker 1: and nine for the last couple decades to get that

509
00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,879
Speaker 1: plan B. There is now a morning after pill that

510
00:24:04,920 --> 00:24:07,399
Speaker 1: can be shipped to your door within twenty four hours

511
00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:10,840
Speaker 1: for just nineteen ninety five. No, that's too much time,

512
00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:14,680
Speaker 1: roughly sixty percent off of the costs of the popular

513
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:19,800
Speaker 1: plan be one step brand. I'm not sure if it's

514
00:24:20,040 --> 00:24:23,919
Speaker 1: going to be able to be clearly shipped to the

515
00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:27,960
Speaker 1: Red States. But it says that former President Donald Trump

516
00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:32,440
Speaker 1: made headlines as he clarified that his GP White House

517
00:24:32,480 --> 00:24:37,160
Speaker 1: campaign was also looking at contraception restrictions, and he expected

518
00:24:37,200 --> 00:24:39,480
Speaker 1: some states that are going to have very different policies

519
00:24:39,480 --> 00:24:42,960
Speaker 1: than other. Oklahoma has recently advanced a bill that some

520
00:24:43,040 --> 00:24:47,879
Speaker 1: reproductive rights advocates fear could ban emergency contraceptions in iud's

521
00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 1: altogether now, one of the other things that I thought

522
00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:53,119
Speaker 1: was interesting that I ended up looking up in regards

523
00:24:53,160 --> 00:24:56,240
Speaker 1: to birth control when Weezy and I first started this podcast,

524
00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:58,800
Speaker 1: I want to say, within the first year we talked

525
00:24:58,800 --> 00:25:02,680
Speaker 1: about mail control being a thing. Now they'd haven't tried

526
00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:06,080
Speaker 1: all these different motherfucking types of research, all these different

527
00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:08,600
Speaker 1: types of There's a gel that a guy could put

528
00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:10,040
Speaker 1: on his shoulder for twelve hours.

529
00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:13,600
Speaker 2: There's uh ooral pills, There's all these things. The gel

530
00:25:13,680 --> 00:25:14,119
Speaker 2: is crazy.

531
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:17,119
Speaker 1: Now I want to tell y'all why the fuck some

532
00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:22,359
Speaker 1: of these studies did not go through. So the specimens

533
00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:25,239
Speaker 1: in which they were testing these birth control pills on

534
00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:29,640
Speaker 1: reported side effects that made them stop it. Do y'all

535
00:25:29,640 --> 00:25:33,240
Speaker 1: want to hear what the side effects were? Livedick, acne

536
00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 1: and mood swings.

537
00:25:34,760 --> 00:25:36,360
Speaker 2: Bitch. The ship that we.

538
00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:38,880
Speaker 1: Deal with is why the fuck. Men were like, yeah,

539
00:25:38,920 --> 00:25:41,520
Speaker 1: I don't really want to take it. A nigga started

540
00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:44,920
Speaker 1: getting acne. I couldn't control my emotions, and so they

541
00:25:45,040 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 1: was like, listen, I'm gonna put the burden on a woman.

542
00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:52,280
Speaker 3: Bitch, bro I just started a birth control Now I'm fine.

543
00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:56,960
Speaker 3: I'm on liasmin Lo Estra, Jen Lowestro whatever. Maybe it's

544
00:25:57,040 --> 00:26:00,919
Speaker 3: just my box because I got it in Mexico. But anyway, basically,

545
00:26:01,480 --> 00:26:05,159
Speaker 3: the first five days, man be I literally was like

546
00:26:06,119 --> 00:26:08,240
Speaker 3: trigger winning, Am I gonna kill myself?

547
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:11,000
Speaker 2: So guess what one of the men. One of the

548
00:26:11,040 --> 00:26:11,560
Speaker 2: men in.

549
00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:15,960
Speaker 1: This literally developed severe depression and another tried to commit suicide.

550
00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:19,480
Speaker 3: Oh no, like I'm I heard Sophia Franklin talk about

551
00:26:19,520 --> 00:26:22,320
Speaker 3: suicide being a symptom of Plan B, and she cried

552
00:26:22,359 --> 00:26:24,840
Speaker 3: on the episode, and she I think she talked about

553
00:26:24,840 --> 00:26:27,720
Speaker 3: how she almost didn't put it out, not joking. Was

554
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:30,840
Speaker 3: on the beach, having a beautiful time, getting fucked happy.

555
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:36,399
Speaker 3: I literally looked at the lngror and was like thinking

556
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:38,879
Speaker 3: of ways to do it, and I was like, what

557
00:26:39,119 --> 00:26:40,480
Speaker 3: the fuck is on my brain?

558
00:26:40,880 --> 00:26:42,800
Speaker 2: And I realized it was the birth control.

559
00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:45,119
Speaker 3: I didn't want to tell my man because he already

560
00:26:45,119 --> 00:26:46,520
Speaker 3: don't want me on it, but I need to do

561
00:26:46,560 --> 00:26:49,479
Speaker 3: something about the heavy bleeding and fibroids and shit. So

562
00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:53,720
Speaker 3: not saying birth control shrinks fribroids, but my fibroids are

563
00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:58,000
Speaker 3: growing and getting more exacerbated, I guess, and inflamed, and

564
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 3: my just period my boy because of the heavy bleeding.

565
00:27:03,160 --> 00:27:06,280
Speaker 3: So that was the first symptom, right and I'm like, oh,

566
00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:09,240
Speaker 3: I'm just tripping, go to sleep, wake up. I don't

567
00:27:09,280 --> 00:27:10,720
Speaker 3: know what I said to him when I woke up,

568
00:27:11,080 --> 00:27:13,600
Speaker 3: this flush of tears or whatever was going on, and

569
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:16,240
Speaker 3: he just was like, yeah, maybe we should just use

570
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:19,040
Speaker 3: condoms because you were He didn't say I was like

571
00:27:19,040 --> 00:27:20,960
Speaker 3: a crazy, but he looked into that bitch, you crazy

572
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:25,040
Speaker 3: and he said it without saying I felt so frustrated

573
00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:27,320
Speaker 3: because I was like, Yo, there's nothing we can do.

574
00:27:27,800 --> 00:27:29,480
Speaker 2: No, there's nothing we can do.

575
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:32,400
Speaker 1: And these niggas don't want to take the little acne pimples, y'all.

576
00:27:32,480 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 1: Niggas could cover that shit with a beer.

577
00:27:34,760 --> 00:27:37,480
Speaker 2: Get your acne and grow a beer and take.

578
00:27:37,320 --> 00:27:39,920
Speaker 1: This motherfucking peel because I'm not doing it. I ain't

579
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:41,600
Speaker 1: gonna hold you. I ain't getting on that shit.

580
00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:45,760
Speaker 2: Bruh. I don't want to do it. Was so fucking rough.

581
00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:48,720
Speaker 3: I just got to a place where I don't look

582
00:27:48,760 --> 00:27:51,840
Speaker 3: at knives and think of stabbing someone on myself. That's

583
00:27:51,840 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 3: how crazy birth control made me feel. Maybe it's just

584
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:58,320
Speaker 3: in my body and I'm better, But whoa bro, So

585
00:27:58,560 --> 00:28:02,600
Speaker 3: you just actually added to the hoar dirt. You actually

586
00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:06,640
Speaker 3: just added an additional good reason to just suck a dick.

587
00:28:07,880 --> 00:28:11,480
Speaker 3: So our hoar dirt for this week, y'all, comes from

588
00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:15,359
Speaker 3: a slide on the b Condoms page, which is a

589
00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:16,520
Speaker 3: black owned condom brand.

590
00:28:16,560 --> 00:28:18,560
Speaker 2: If you haven't checked them out and.

591
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:22,760
Speaker 3: They are in gy the way are they They're in

592
00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:25,399
Speaker 3: CBS is now it's super dope because I literally was like,

593
00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:27,320
Speaker 3: what I think they're almost in all of them, or

594
00:28:27,359 --> 00:28:28,280
Speaker 3: maybe it's over one hundred.

595
00:28:28,320 --> 00:28:31,600
Speaker 2: That's amazing. Well wee they gave reason number one.

596
00:28:31,560 --> 00:28:34,040
Speaker 1: Why it's good to suck a dick because you can't

597
00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,200
Speaker 1: get pregnant, so then you don't need birth control if

598
00:28:36,200 --> 00:28:39,400
Speaker 1: all you're doing is sucking dick exactly. However, here goes

599
00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:43,440
Speaker 1: some other good reasons to suck a dick. You're ready ready.

600
00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:46,960
Speaker 1: It nourishes the teeth, gum, and hair. Did you know

601
00:28:47,040 --> 00:28:50,440
Speaker 1: that sucking a dick improves blood flow to the teeth, gum,

602
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:52,760
Speaker 1: and hair. This can make your hair more shiny, bitch.

603
00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:55,360
Speaker 1: You ain't gotta use shampoo now, Just suck a dick

604
00:28:56,360 --> 00:29:00,440
Speaker 1: and your teeth and gums are more healthy. It also

605
00:29:00,480 --> 00:29:03,360
Speaker 1: a great exercise for your jaw and neck.

606
00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:06,680
Speaker 2: I can see that. Okay, you ready for the next one. Yeah.

607
00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:09,840
Speaker 1: Now, this is where maybe it doesn't work for white people,

608
00:29:10,160 --> 00:29:15,480
Speaker 1: but apparently sucking dick also slows down aging. Sucking the jaw,

609
00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:19,600
Speaker 1: It says, sucking a dick exercises and tightens your facial muscles.

610
00:29:19,920 --> 00:29:22,880
Speaker 1: These muscles are beneficial in slimming fatty tissue. Bitch, maybe

611
00:29:22,880 --> 00:29:25,280
Speaker 1: I don't sucking a dick either. You might not the wait,

612
00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:27,280
Speaker 1: is neck looking in your mouth?

613
00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:30,440
Speaker 2: This de turn reduces the appearance of wrinkles.

614
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 1: Bitch, I ain't got those, but these crackers might not be,

615
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:36,480
Speaker 1: they said, Betty Becky is be sucking dick, but maybe

616
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:37,040
Speaker 1: not enough.

617
00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:38,480
Speaker 2: Number three.

618
00:29:39,280 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 1: Now, this one, I know it can make your lips fuller.

619
00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 1: Sucking a dick draws blood into the cheeks, lips, and gums,

620
00:29:46,600 --> 00:29:49,960
Speaker 1: thus making the lips appear more fuller and well moisturized.

621
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:54,360
Speaker 1: I want to give one more because this one leads

622
00:29:54,360 --> 00:29:57,080
Speaker 1: into our horrible decision. I don't think sucking and dick

623
00:29:57,120 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 1: can give you a look plump. But okay you don't, no, no,

624
00:30:00,200 --> 00:30:00,960
Speaker 1: no at all.

625
00:30:01,160 --> 00:30:02,120
Speaker 2: That sounds like a lie.

626
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:05,000
Speaker 1: Okay, well, actually I'm going to give two more because

627
00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:06,560
Speaker 1: this has to do with health, which is going to

628
00:30:06,600 --> 00:30:09,360
Speaker 1: give lead us into our horrible decision, which is going

629
00:30:09,440 --> 00:30:12,440
Speaker 1: to let me share what y'all have almost died last week.

630
00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:17,440
Speaker 1: So this one is sucking dick they say, they say

631
00:30:18,240 --> 00:30:22,719
Speaker 1: can decrease the risk of breast cancer. Now, a study

632
00:30:22,880 --> 00:30:26,080
Speaker 1: at North Carolina State University found that women who perform

633
00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:29,560
Speaker 1: oral and swallow semen one or two times a week

634
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:33,200
Speaker 1: may reduce their risk of breast cancer by to forty percent.

635
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:34,280
Speaker 2: Let me tell you something.

636
00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 3: What protein is also something you can get with food.

637
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:42,520
Speaker 3: And what I would like to say is whatever man

638
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:45,120
Speaker 3: wrote this article is a fucking sick fuck you think,

639
00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:47,040
Speaker 3: suck my dick so you can get your full lips.

640
00:30:47,040 --> 00:30:49,080
Speaker 2: Suck my dick so you won't get cancer. Suck my

641
00:30:49,120 --> 00:30:51,000
Speaker 2: dick to say from aging. Wait, was it a man

642
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:54,640
Speaker 2: who wrote the article? I don't know, Probably you think though,

643
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:58,000
Speaker 2: or maybe a woman who really liked the sun date.

644
00:30:58,840 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 2: I just feel like this is definitely a man.

645
00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:06,040
Speaker 1: So you telling me people could have been saving but

646
00:31:06,120 --> 00:31:08,840
Speaker 1: we wouldn't have to been running on these goddamnin case

647
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:12,560
Speaker 1: if we was just sucking cut. No, No, people ain't

648
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:14,000
Speaker 1: losing weight running marathons.

649
00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:17,240
Speaker 2: Many, girl, they're not.

650
00:31:18,440 --> 00:31:20,959
Speaker 1: There's a lot of people of all sizes there, niggas

651
00:31:20,960 --> 00:31:24,680
Speaker 1: with some limb many cancer runs.

652
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:27,560
Speaker 2: Is when I'm I missed it. I thought you was

653
00:31:27,600 --> 00:31:28,320
Speaker 2: talking about.

654
00:31:32,680 --> 00:31:32,840
Speaker 1: Man.

655
00:31:32,920 --> 00:31:33,280
Speaker 2: We don't.

656
00:31:33,600 --> 00:31:37,360
Speaker 1: We're talking about muscles exercises, rakles. I thought we were

657
00:31:37,360 --> 00:31:39,480
Speaker 1: talking you talk about lips. I thought we were talking

658
00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:42,560
Speaker 1: about the outer appearance of Okay, well let's get into

659
00:31:42,600 --> 00:31:43,760
Speaker 1: the interview. Let's do it, buddy.

660
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:50,600
Speaker 2: Wait one more, one more and in your micd up.

661
00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:53,480
Speaker 2: He's started laughing. They can to hear you laughing. I

662
00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:55,600
Speaker 2: don't really like all the laughing going on. Hey, I

663
00:31:55,720 --> 00:32:00,200
Speaker 2: tell you what, not only is she a talent, I

664
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:03,000
Speaker 2: count it and a real one? Baby? Did you should

665
00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:06,560
Speaker 2: do our taxes? Listen? I just want to say this person, listen,

666
00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 2: listen with their numbers.

667
00:32:08,160 --> 00:32:12,720
Speaker 1: Shut the fuck up the last one, y'all. Sucking dick

668
00:32:13,000 --> 00:32:17,240
Speaker 1: rejuvenates your internal organs. During a blowjob, you tend to

669
00:32:17,280 --> 00:32:20,160
Speaker 1: breathe through your nose rather than your mouth. This deep

670
00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:23,840
Speaker 1: breathing through the nose brings more oxygen to your internal organs.

671
00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:27,720
Speaker 1: This helps to detoxify them and keep them healthy.

672
00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:31,840
Speaker 2: That was a weird one, now because you just breathe, well,

673
00:32:31,880 --> 00:32:34,320
Speaker 2: no breathing through your nose. This bitch was doing breathing.

674
00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:38,760
Speaker 2: What was the name of it? Say woosa? But what

675
00:32:38,880 --> 00:32:43,880
Speaker 2: was the little thing that you was talking? Nah, she

676
00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:47,960
Speaker 2: can't say that yoga. Man, Wait a man. She's not

677
00:32:48,040 --> 00:32:49,080
Speaker 2: drinking right now.

678
00:32:49,080 --> 00:32:51,800
Speaker 1: And hey, I ain't drank all week. You know why

679
00:32:52,040 --> 00:32:55,479
Speaker 1: because my horrible decision. Let's get into it now, y'all

680
00:32:55,600 --> 00:32:57,719
Speaker 1: before we get into uh doing this.

681
00:32:57,880 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 2: I am not sure how this came about. It came about.

682
00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:06,880
Speaker 1: However, I would assume one of three ways.

683
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 2: I did do.

684
00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:10,800
Speaker 1: I did have really good nasty sex where he did

685
00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:13,320
Speaker 1: go from my ass to my pussy and I was

686
00:33:13,360 --> 00:33:15,520
Speaker 1: so drunk I don't know if it was wiped in

687
00:33:15,520 --> 00:33:16,000
Speaker 1: between or not.

688
00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:18,600
Speaker 2: So that's part one that could.

689
00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:23,600
Speaker 1: Have absolutely came from really nasty, raunchy sex. I also

690
00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:26,840
Speaker 1: went to the beach and stayed in my bathen suit.

691
00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:29,560
Speaker 2: Nope, wait, that was don't just say it. It was

692
00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:32,400
Speaker 2: definitely number one. Also, I did just get well.

693
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:35,320
Speaker 1: I started feeling it and I was telling uh, I

694
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:38,240
Speaker 1: was telling Wolf in Dallas is when I first started

695
00:33:38,320 --> 00:33:44,080
Speaker 1: kind of feeling feeling weird. And apparently high stress and

696
00:33:44,160 --> 00:33:46,040
Speaker 1: heat and dehydration can also.

697
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:47,280
Speaker 2: Lead to it.

698
00:33:47,680 --> 00:33:51,040
Speaker 1: You say, what is it? So it is a uti. Yeah,

699
00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:52,720
Speaker 1: it was one, and I think we can all in

700
00:33:52,760 --> 00:33:59,400
Speaker 1: the room again. He stressed. Maybe it was asked to pussy.

701
00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:02,200
Speaker 1: It probably was the ask the pussy. But I want

702
00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:03,120
Speaker 1: to say, you did just suck it.

703
00:34:03,160 --> 00:34:04,640
Speaker 2: To clean it off. That shit don't work, butch. But

704
00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:06,000
Speaker 2: so here's the thing I was on.

705
00:34:06,520 --> 00:34:09,040
Speaker 1: I was drunk and on shrooms, so there was there

706
00:34:09,080 --> 00:34:12,000
Speaker 1: was quite a bit of parts where I don't remember

707
00:34:12,040 --> 00:34:13,480
Speaker 1: how we got from point A to point B.

708
00:34:13,480 --> 00:34:15,840
Speaker 3: By the way, the ask the pussy shit. My homegirl's

709
00:34:15,840 --> 00:34:18,520
Speaker 3: been getting UTI's a lot lately. Can't figure out why

710
00:34:18,600 --> 00:34:22,200
Speaker 3: she's been having gas strow issues. Right, turns out, when

711
00:34:22,239 --> 00:34:25,200
Speaker 3: you have diarrhea, there's an increased risk of UTI just

712
00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:27,879
Speaker 3: because everything is kind of everywhere when you're wiping, and

713
00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:29,600
Speaker 3: it's probably the same.

714
00:34:29,719 --> 00:34:35,880
Speaker 1: Well, not only that, ladies, tight jeans, wiping wrong, eating

715
00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:38,200
Speaker 1: certain foods. There are a lot of things that can

716
00:34:38,239 --> 00:34:41,120
Speaker 1: cause UTIs, And this is why I wanted to share

717
00:34:41,160 --> 00:34:46,600
Speaker 1: this story here today. So basically I misdiagnosed myself, I

718
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:47,920
Speaker 1: would say for about a week.

719
00:34:48,239 --> 00:34:49,479
Speaker 2: So when we were in.

720
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:52,239
Speaker 1: Dallas, I was like, dang, I had to keep using

721
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:54,560
Speaker 1: the bathroom. But I felt like because I was drinking

722
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:56,160
Speaker 1: a lot of water because we was outside and I

723
00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:58,480
Speaker 1: was drinking liquor. So I was like, but I had

724
00:34:58,480 --> 00:35:02,400
Speaker 1: to use the bathroom in an amount of time that

725
00:35:02,440 --> 00:35:06,040
Speaker 1: I can't mind. You, the UTI symptom that I normally

726
00:35:06,120 --> 00:35:08,439
Speaker 1: get is I have to use the bat I feel

727
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:09,360
Speaker 1: like I have to use the bath and.

728
00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:10,040
Speaker 2: Nothing comes out.

729
00:35:10,120 --> 00:35:12,640
Speaker 1: It comes out, So I'm like, that's the wory. Maybe

730
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:16,480
Speaker 1: this ain't a UTI because I'm actually pissing. So I

731
00:35:16,560 --> 00:35:19,760
Speaker 1: go to the CVS, I get AZO. I take the AZO,

732
00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:23,080
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, don't think anything of it. I

733
00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:25,240
Speaker 1: get back to New York and my side is hurting.

734
00:35:26,120 --> 00:35:28,640
Speaker 2: Bitch. I think I just sat on the plane wrong.

735
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:31,040
Speaker 2: That's so much. But Y'ALLM in the living room doing

736
00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:34,040
Speaker 2: my little yoga poses. Wait, you had no more UTI symptoms.

737
00:35:34,760 --> 00:35:37,000
Speaker 1: My piss was a little strong, but I was like, well, bitch,

738
00:35:37,040 --> 00:35:39,279
Speaker 1: maybe I ain't drinking enough water strong like scent or

739
00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:43,080
Speaker 1: yellow strong scent, strong set. So I was like, okay,

740
00:35:43,520 --> 00:35:45,440
Speaker 1: mind you. I stopped taking the AZO because I was like,

741
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:48,040
Speaker 1: I'm peing normal. Maybe you know, maybe I'm just not

742
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:51,040
Speaker 1: drinking enough water. Then my side's hurting, and I'm just like,

743
00:35:51,560 --> 00:35:54,880
Speaker 1: maybe I sat on the plane wrong. All I know is, y'all,

744
00:35:55,080 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 1: let's let's fast forward Friday night. So this is about

745
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 1: a week after I started filling the symptoms. I was

746
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:05,000
Speaker 1: with my homegirl earlier. Oh, this is the third misdiagnosis.

747
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:07,760
Speaker 1: I'm with my homegirl on her rooftop and we drinking

748
00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:10,719
Speaker 1: and I just get cold out of nowhere, bitch, I thought,

749
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:13,680
Speaker 1: because the sun went behind a cloud, I literally just

750
00:36:13,680 --> 00:36:16,680
Speaker 1: start getting really cold. I'm like, bitch, you main cold, bitch,

751
00:36:16,719 --> 00:36:20,920
Speaker 1: it's June in fucking in New York. A little nippit

752
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:22,719
Speaker 1: it a little nit nit. I go and put on

753
00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:25,480
Speaker 1: my jacket. She'd give me a toile and all boom,

754
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:30,840
Speaker 1: chill stop, go home, go to sleep, y'all know fucking line.

755
00:36:31,640 --> 00:36:34,000
Speaker 1: I wake up. It's like one point thirty in the morning.

756
00:36:34,520 --> 00:36:40,440
Speaker 1: I'm freezing, like for freezing. So I'm like, damn, go

757
00:36:40,520 --> 00:36:43,080
Speaker 1: to put the heater on. I get in a robe

758
00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:47,280
Speaker 1: and I get underneath my comforter set. Baby, I'm freezing

759
00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:51,960
Speaker 1: for about thirty minutes, like like teeth chattering, like like

760
00:36:51,960 --> 00:36:56,799
Speaker 1: like kim Mo, like like freezing to where a bitch

761
00:36:56,800 --> 00:37:00,239
Speaker 1: almost thought she was gonna chip ap, motherfucking veneer, like

762
00:37:00,440 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 1: my teeth would not stop. Like all I know is

763
00:37:04,120 --> 00:37:07,160
Speaker 1: two o'clock in the morning. I called Mama, tear me

764
00:37:07,800 --> 00:37:10,000
Speaker 1: and I just call her and I'm under and I'm

765
00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:12,640
Speaker 1: freezing my whole body. At this point, I feel my

766
00:37:12,719 --> 00:37:13,440
Speaker 1: muscles in your bag.

767
00:37:14,520 --> 00:37:16,960
Speaker 2: Bitch. I thought I was dying. I thought I was

768
00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:19,440
Speaker 2: about to meet my motherfucking maker. Bitch. I call my

769
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:24,280
Speaker 2: mom and the first thing I'm like mommym ha ha ha, I'm.

770
00:37:24,120 --> 00:37:26,759
Speaker 1: So cold, I said, and I just said something's wrong,

771
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:29,840
Speaker 1: and all I could say is something is wrong, bitch.

772
00:37:29,880 --> 00:37:30,760
Speaker 2: I start crying.

773
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:33,840
Speaker 1: And then now I realized, once you realize something is

774
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:38,319
Speaker 1: wrong with you, bitch, now everything in my I thought

775
00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:41,080
Speaker 1: I was gonna die. I went from just telling my

776
00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:44,919
Speaker 1: mom something's wrong to immediately my side her even worse.

777
00:37:45,000 --> 00:37:48,239
Speaker 1: I'm acknowledging, like what's happening with my body? And I

778
00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:51,120
Speaker 1: literally cannot move out my bed. I'm so cold, my

779
00:37:51,200 --> 00:37:55,560
Speaker 1: hands are shaking. My fucking thing is trembling. I get

780
00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:59,960
Speaker 1: up because my mom is like, call the ambulance. Now

781
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:01,960
Speaker 1: I know I'm about to die, But how much?

782
00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:02,640
Speaker 2: Bitch?

783
00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:06,719
Speaker 1: I said, I ain't paying that motherfucking ambulance bill. I said, hey,

784
00:38:06,719 --> 00:38:07,400
Speaker 1: here go my mama.

785
00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:08,480
Speaker 2: Hut on, here go ma.

786
00:38:08,480 --> 00:38:10,279
Speaker 1: Mama clearly lying too, cause she was like, girl, it's

787
00:38:10,280 --> 00:38:12,399
Speaker 1: only like five hundred dollars. Bitch, I said this shit

788
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:15,640
Speaker 1: on LIVEE. They was like, no, bitch, it's like insurance, yeah,

789
00:38:15,680 --> 00:38:18,560
Speaker 1: bitch exactly, And bitch, no, I don't have that bruh.

790
00:38:18,640 --> 00:38:22,880
Speaker 1: My mom wasn't feeling good recently in LA and I

791
00:38:23,000 --> 00:38:26,880
Speaker 1: was like, how bad is it literally, no, can Stephanie

792
00:38:26,920 --> 00:38:29,480
Speaker 1: come get you or do you need noheh, I ain't

793
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:31,720
Speaker 1: gonna hold you. I told my mama. I said, baby,

794
00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:32,680
Speaker 1: it's given.

795
00:38:33,440 --> 00:38:33,800
Speaker 2: Uber.

796
00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:36,319
Speaker 1: I said, an uber gonna get here before an ambulance get here.

797
00:38:36,520 --> 00:38:38,160
Speaker 1: So I was like, I ain't even calling no ambulance.

798
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,479
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna get up, get dressed. So I put

799
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:42,880
Speaker 1: some shit on and I said, mom, the uber downstairs.

800
00:38:42,920 --> 00:38:45,000
Speaker 1: In two minutes, I'm gonna get in the uber. This

801
00:38:45,040 --> 00:38:47,880
Speaker 1: is how, you know. I felt like I was gonna die.

802
00:38:48,239 --> 00:38:50,240
Speaker 1: She said, stay on the phone with me, bitch.

803
00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:50,880
Speaker 2: It was given that.

804
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:53,320
Speaker 1: It was given that moment on a movie. Come no, no, no, no, no,

805
00:38:53,320 --> 00:38:55,839
Speaker 1: no fuck comfort, bitch. You know, like I ain't gonna

806
00:38:55,880 --> 00:38:57,920
Speaker 1: hold you. You know, like when you get shot and I

807
00:38:57,920 --> 00:38:59,600
Speaker 1: ain't never been shot, but you know when you watch

808
00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:01,959
Speaker 1: a movie and they'd be like, stay with me, stay

809
00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:04,760
Speaker 1: with me, just think of some happy moments. I felt

810
00:39:04,760 --> 00:39:07,920
Speaker 1: like my mama was doing that because I was like, Okay,

811
00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:12,400
Speaker 1: I'm shaking, I'm shivering, and now I feel like, oh,

812
00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:14,640
Speaker 1: and we're gonna talk about the motherfuckering uber driver. So

813
00:39:14,840 --> 00:39:18,040
Speaker 1: I get in the Uber and I'm in my I'm

814
00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:20,600
Speaker 1: in my thing, mind you tears coming down my eyes

815
00:39:20,760 --> 00:39:24,080
Speaker 1: clearly say mount sign on hospital, nigga, you my ambulance.

816
00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:26,560
Speaker 1: I need you to work like an ambulance. That nigga was

817
00:39:26,560 --> 00:39:29,680
Speaker 1: stopping at the yellow light. Oh it was only eleven

818
00:39:29,719 --> 00:39:32,319
Speaker 1: minutes away. That shit took My mama kept saying, you

819
00:39:32,320 --> 00:39:32,919
Speaker 1: ain't there yet.

820
00:39:32,960 --> 00:39:34,000
Speaker 2: I said, he.

821
00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:39,560
Speaker 1: Keeps stupping and I don't know why, and now I'm

822
00:39:39,600 --> 00:39:42,839
Speaker 1: just like talking. He was bu The little motherfucker was

823
00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:44,240
Speaker 1: maybe you wanted five stars.

824
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:45,480
Speaker 2: So he was driving safe. Nigga.

825
00:39:45,480 --> 00:39:47,400
Speaker 1: It's two o'clock in the morning and nobody on the

826
00:39:47,480 --> 00:39:49,400
Speaker 1: road go through them, got damn yellow lights.

827
00:39:49,440 --> 00:39:51,120
Speaker 2: Like you're literally taking me to the hospital.

828
00:39:51,320 --> 00:39:55,520
Speaker 1: So my mom is talking me through like everything that's

829
00:39:55,520 --> 00:39:57,480
Speaker 1: happening to me, and I'm just like, She was like,

830
00:39:57,640 --> 00:39:59,479
Speaker 1: does it hurt mind you shout out to my mama?

831
00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:03,680
Speaker 1: She on, She like, it's probably your appendix, it's it

832
00:40:03,719 --> 00:40:06,080
Speaker 1: could be your kidney. Is anything else hurt your back?

833
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:07,920
Speaker 1: Hurt my mom? You know, she a nurse, so she

834
00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:11,640
Speaker 1: kind of loved this shit. She was like, she was like, no, no,

835
00:40:11,680 --> 00:40:14,000
Speaker 1: she didn't love me being but she loves figuring it out.

836
00:40:14,040 --> 00:40:16,360
Speaker 1: She loves figuring it out. So Anyways, I get to

837
00:40:16,400 --> 00:40:19,440
Speaker 1: the hospital. They take all of my vitals in the

838
00:40:19,480 --> 00:40:22,239
Speaker 1: front and a part of me. This is where I

839
00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 1: was like a little mad, But then I was little happy.

840
00:40:24,320 --> 00:40:27,400
Speaker 1: All of my vitals so my blood pressure, my heart beat,

841
00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:29,960
Speaker 1: and I didn't have a fever, so those came back normal,

842
00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:32,200
Speaker 1: which I ain't really like because then I.

843
00:40:32,160 --> 00:40:34,080
Speaker 2: Felt like they took their time. They made you wait.

844
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:35,279
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna lie.

845
00:40:35,320 --> 00:40:37,880
Speaker 1: They probably made me wait a total of like maybe

846
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:40,600
Speaker 1: thirty forty minutes, and then they put me on that.

847
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:43,040
Speaker 1: Then they put me on a bed. They put me

848
00:40:43,080 --> 00:40:44,920
Speaker 1: on a bed, put me on a little stretcher.

849
00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:45,319
Speaker 2: Bitch.

850
00:40:45,360 --> 00:40:48,720
Speaker 1: I literally felt like I was in like fucking house

851
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,719
Speaker 1: like you know, uh you never watched bitch.

852
00:40:51,760 --> 00:40:53,319
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my god, I'm on a little

853
00:40:53,320 --> 00:40:54,120
Speaker 2: I'm on a little.

854
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:56,040
Speaker 1: Bed, and they pushed me through and then they gave

855
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:58,160
Speaker 1: me the little not really a room. They turned the

856
00:40:58,160 --> 00:41:01,279
Speaker 1: hallway into all these little rooms with so they put

857
00:41:01,320 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 1: me there. So they put me there, They go immediately

858
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:08,120
Speaker 1: to give me fluids. They go to give me pain medicine.

859
00:41:08,160 --> 00:41:12,120
Speaker 2: What made you stop shaking the fluids? I was shaking

860
00:41:12,160 --> 00:41:12,680
Speaker 2: the whole time.

861
00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:15,160
Speaker 1: I would say, then maybe maybe the fluids and the

862
00:41:15,160 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 1: pain medicine kind of stopped it for a little bit,

863
00:41:17,560 --> 00:41:19,440
Speaker 1: and then I was like, Okay, I'm no longer shaking.

864
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:19,759
Speaker 2: Great.

865
00:41:20,160 --> 00:41:22,319
Speaker 1: So then they make me pissing a cup, they draw

866
00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:24,880
Speaker 1: my blood, and they gave me a cat scan y'all.

867
00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:31,120
Speaker 1: All of these symptoms, the UTI ended up becoming a

868
00:41:31,200 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 1: kidney infection. So my kidney is what caused me to

869
00:41:36,920 --> 00:41:39,680
Speaker 1: literally feel like I jumped off the Titanic and told Jack,

870
00:41:39,719 --> 00:41:42,120
Speaker 1: I'll never let go, bitch. That is how cold I am.

871
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:44,520
Speaker 1: Ill swo to God full life. I've never been this

872
00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:46,440
Speaker 1: cold in my life. I've never felt this. I wouldn't

873
00:41:46,480 --> 00:41:50,080
Speaker 1: worth wish this on my worst enemy. Like it was

874
00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:52,000
Speaker 1: the worst feeling ever. I don't even know what this

875
00:41:52,040 --> 00:41:55,000
Speaker 1: goddamn medical feeling is about to be. But basically they

876
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:57,160
Speaker 1: put me on And this is why I wanted to share,

877
00:41:57,160 --> 00:41:58,640
Speaker 1: because I know we've been giving a lot of like

878
00:41:59,040 --> 00:42:03,480
Speaker 1: just tips, and so I ended up buying piss test strips,

879
00:42:04,120 --> 00:42:06,000
Speaker 1: which you guys can get. Oh bitch, I'm about to

880
00:42:06,000 --> 00:42:09,680
Speaker 1: be testing my piss every week. Why can't they piss?

881
00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:10,719
Speaker 1: I'm about to piss on the.

882
00:42:12,560 --> 00:42:13,080
Speaker 2: Test strips.

883
00:42:13,280 --> 00:42:15,640
Speaker 1: They really for your pH but it can let you

884
00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:19,120
Speaker 1: know if there's any bacteria or so, bitch, I bought

885
00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:20,399
Speaker 1: them and I'm about to keep them in my mother.

886
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:23,399
Speaker 1: I'm about to travel with them holes. Also, they gave

887
00:42:23,440 --> 00:42:27,680
Speaker 1: me cipro floxin zipro flu axin. Someone told me how

888
00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:30,600
Speaker 1: to fucking pronounce it. But it's cipro floxin, that's what

889
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:32,879
Speaker 1: it's spelt like. And this is something you could get

890
00:42:32,960 --> 00:42:35,440
Speaker 1: in Mexico ladies for the cheap. So when you go

891
00:42:35,800 --> 00:42:39,080
Speaker 1: get get you some cipro, which is an antibiotic. And

892
00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:42,200
Speaker 1: if you take an antibiotic, make sure you get that

893
00:42:42,320 --> 00:42:46,040
Speaker 1: flucam which is flucanasan. That is a prebiotic that you

894
00:42:46,040 --> 00:42:48,279
Speaker 1: want to take, otherwise you gonna end up with a

895
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:50,880
Speaker 1: yat infection. My pussy been out of commission for the

896
00:42:50,960 --> 00:42:55,920
Speaker 1: last week. No liquor, no coffee, no spicy foods. What

897
00:42:55,960 --> 00:42:59,960
Speaker 1: are you doing, man, bitch, reading, writing, fucking watch your tea,

898
00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:02,560
Speaker 1: be catching up on tunes. I don't fucking know.

899
00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:05,280
Speaker 2: I'm like, holy shit, I can't do anything.

900
00:43:05,680 --> 00:43:11,160
Speaker 1: I will say though the fucking feeling like and again

901
00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 1: I think everyone listening, men and women both then had

902
00:43:14,520 --> 00:43:18,840
Speaker 1: a uti for it to reach my kidney, like I

903
00:43:18,840 --> 00:43:21,600
Speaker 1: ain't even I ain't even like, no, they was that important.

904
00:43:22,080 --> 00:43:25,399
Speaker 2: I was like, bitch, the kidney is like, you can't

905
00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:26,919
Speaker 2: y'all know you can't live without one.

906
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:29,120
Speaker 1: I mean yeah, I mean I think you could live

907
00:43:29,160 --> 00:43:32,080
Speaker 1: without one, but they they important as fuck.

908
00:43:33,040 --> 00:43:33,440
Speaker 2: Yeah.

909
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:35,319
Speaker 1: I didn't know that because nothing ever happened to my

910
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:39,400
Speaker 1: kidney could Now it did, And then my mama's cared me.

911
00:43:39,640 --> 00:43:42,839
Speaker 1: Then my mama was like, bitch, now that it got

912
00:43:42,840 --> 00:43:45,879
Speaker 1: a little bit infected. Was a nurse, you say, and

913
00:43:46,440 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 1: you didn't know the kidneys? First off, I didn't talk

914
00:43:48,960 --> 00:43:51,320
Speaker 1: to my mom about nothing about the hospital because I

915
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:52,000
Speaker 1: don't like blood.

916
00:43:52,800 --> 00:43:55,120
Speaker 2: So even even.

917
00:43:54,960 --> 00:43:57,439
Speaker 1: When she wanted me to, like, which is crazy, maybe

918
00:43:57,400 --> 00:43:59,680
Speaker 1: because I get a tattoo, bitch, I took that needle

919
00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:06,920
Speaker 1: like a mon the fucking g Actually, ooh, if anybody

920
00:44:07,040 --> 00:44:11,000
Speaker 1: using this opportunity for help. So I'm so embarrassed to

921
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: say this, but I'll tell a recent hospital story. So

922
00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:16,359
Speaker 1: you know, I was recently hospitalized, and I talk about

923
00:44:16,400 --> 00:44:17,279
Speaker 1: it a little bit in the book.

924
00:44:17,320 --> 00:44:18,759
Speaker 2: But for me, for horrible, it's just a little too

925
00:44:18,840 --> 00:44:22,400
Speaker 2: much actually not something to too much for horrible.

926
00:44:22,080 --> 00:44:25,440
Speaker 3: Like just to it's something for and I guess that's

927
00:44:25,440 --> 00:44:27,080
Speaker 3: may sound ridiculous because they're like what you're putting in

928
00:44:27,120 --> 00:44:27,480
Speaker 3: a book.

929
00:44:27,760 --> 00:44:29,960
Speaker 1: But Mitch, I'm gonna tell the editor to ask you

930
00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:32,719
Speaker 1: to describe more in that chapter. I think it needs

931
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:35,719
Speaker 1: more details. Ew Man, not more details in a bad way,

932
00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:37,960
Speaker 1: but I think you mentioned it in the gloss over.

933
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:39,960
Speaker 1: I know, probably because it was too scary to write.

934
00:44:40,200 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 3: But anyway, get to the hospital and basically they're trying

935
00:44:46,040 --> 00:44:46,920
Speaker 3: to put an IV in me.

936
00:44:47,800 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 2: This is a true story.

937
00:44:50,080 --> 00:44:54,799
Speaker 1: I know this sounds crazy to people, but Okay, when

938
00:44:54,840 --> 00:44:57,000
Speaker 1: I was a kid, my mom's had hard problems my

939
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,120
Speaker 1: whole life, pacemaker, different shit, whatever.

940
00:44:59,480 --> 00:44:59,840
Speaker 2: Stroke.

941
00:45:01,880 --> 00:45:04,040
Speaker 3: She wanted to leave the hospital once they were wouldn't

942
00:45:04,080 --> 00:45:06,680
Speaker 3: let her. She was getting angry, she was getting delirious,

943
00:45:06,719 --> 00:45:09,799
Speaker 3: so she pulled out the ivy and it squirted out

944
00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:11,480
Speaker 3: like a fountain. I guess that's what happens when you

945
00:45:11,480 --> 00:45:13,520
Speaker 3: do it in the middle of your You gotta clamp

946
00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:22,880
Speaker 3: the bloody it not on my face, and it really

947
00:45:23,000 --> 00:45:26,880
Speaker 3: fucking terrified me. So when I have HIV tests and

948
00:45:26,880 --> 00:45:31,759
Speaker 3: I've been able to do prick, your culture doing a

949
00:45:31,800 --> 00:45:34,880
Speaker 3: complete blood check up is like, yeah, they've got to

950
00:45:34,920 --> 00:45:39,000
Speaker 3: harness me to It's bad, bro. I'm in the hospital

951
00:45:39,760 --> 00:45:42,839
Speaker 3: and they're trying to get ivy in me and she's

952
00:45:42,840 --> 00:45:44,400
Speaker 3: like telling me to make a fist of all this stuff.

953
00:45:44,680 --> 00:45:47,800
Speaker 2: Passed out twice? Are you so dramatic?

954
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:51,440
Speaker 3: I'm not even joking. And I feel embarrassed even admitted

955
00:45:51,480 --> 00:45:53,640
Speaker 3: out loud because I like to get over it. But

956
00:45:53,760 --> 00:45:54,680
Speaker 3: it was so bad.

957
00:45:54,719 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 2: Mandy.

958
00:45:55,280 --> 00:45:57,279
Speaker 3: I remember talking to Liz Goldwyn. I'm like, Liz, I

959
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 3: don't know what to do. She's like, you have to

960
00:45:59,440 --> 00:46:02,680
Speaker 3: start thinking of your health whatever. Like she was like

961
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:05,480
Speaker 3: trying to tell me maybe hypnotherapy. You've got to do

962
00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:07,799
Speaker 3: something right. I literally they were like, if we can't

963
00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:08,880
Speaker 3: do this for you, we can't help you.

964
00:46:08,920 --> 00:46:09,640
Speaker 2: And I'm like, I'll leave.

965
00:46:09,760 --> 00:46:13,719
Speaker 1: So you know how, I actually, uh think about it now.

966
00:46:13,760 --> 00:46:17,120
Speaker 1: This is gonna be crazy, but because yo mind, because

967
00:46:17,160 --> 00:46:19,960
Speaker 1: you a horny little hope, I feel like this to help, right,

968
00:46:20,640 --> 00:46:24,480
Speaker 1: So you know how, like, well for me and I

969
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:30,759
Speaker 1: told you sex psychology wise, I be like comparing, like, no,

970
00:46:30,920 --> 00:46:32,120
Speaker 1: look how I like.

971
00:46:32,080 --> 00:46:35,680
Speaker 2: To take big dick and strong.

972
00:46:35,360 --> 00:46:37,920
Speaker 1: And hard, and I'd be like, ooh, I know other

973
00:46:38,000 --> 00:46:41,080
Speaker 1: bitches can't take dick like this. I know that when

974
00:46:41,200 --> 00:46:43,239
Speaker 1: people have to get their blood drawn they be real

975
00:46:43,280 --> 00:46:46,479
Speaker 1: squeamish and shit. So to me, I think I'm gonna

976
00:46:46,480 --> 00:46:48,640
Speaker 1: take this ship like a g I'm gonna take this

977
00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:49,200
Speaker 1: ship like I know.

978
00:46:49,719 --> 00:46:53,279
Speaker 2: Other motherfuckers ain't. No, I'm telling you.

979
00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:55,120
Speaker 1: You got to think about them drawing blood as if

980
00:46:55,120 --> 00:46:56,920
Speaker 1: you're taking a big old dick that you know other

981
00:46:56,960 --> 00:47:00,520
Speaker 1: bitches can't take, because most people can't take drawing their

982
00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:02,120
Speaker 1: blood is.

983
00:47:06,239 --> 00:47:11,080
Speaker 3: So big of it, like Alice is Beyonce uh has

984
00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:12,120
Speaker 3: a fear of whales?

985
00:47:12,520 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 2: Wait what? Because the reaction, I just had to just

986
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:18,479
Speaker 2: hear me. WHOA. I didn't know that just talking about

987
00:47:18,520 --> 00:47:20,440
Speaker 2: it was gonna make me do that absolutely. So they

988
00:47:20,440 --> 00:47:21,040
Speaker 2: walked into.

989
00:47:20,920 --> 00:47:22,680
Speaker 1: A hotel room and he took this video of her

990
00:47:22,719 --> 00:47:24,239
Speaker 1: and they were laughing with a whale and it. She

991
00:47:24,280 --> 00:47:27,960
Speaker 1: was on the floor like, no, please, no, I'm laughing

992
00:47:28,160 --> 00:47:29,640
Speaker 1: at it, right, poor Clara.

993
00:47:31,480 --> 00:47:33,920
Speaker 2: When you just started talking about that blood, I had

994
00:47:33,960 --> 00:47:36,640
Speaker 2: to start thinking about the beach and other ship because

995
00:47:36,640 --> 00:47:37,520
Speaker 2: I didn't even hear it.

996
00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:39,400
Speaker 1: And you want to know what's crazy, I'm sitting in

997
00:47:39,440 --> 00:47:41,839
Speaker 1: the bed with a whole kidney affection. Do you know

998
00:47:42,239 --> 00:47:45,480
Speaker 1: that that's the one thing that made me for two

999
00:47:45,640 --> 00:47:49,719
Speaker 1: hours straight, I was looking up animal videos so it's

1000
00:47:49,760 --> 00:47:53,560
Speaker 1: well or shark season, and so it was so wonderful.

1001
00:47:54,640 --> 00:47:57,600
Speaker 1: D it was and it was like it was like

1002
00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:03,799
Speaker 1: lions and Hyena and it was the whole an. Oh

1003
00:48:03,840 --> 00:48:06,120
Speaker 1: maybe I was because I was on drugs. They were

1004
00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:07,720
Speaker 1: the best videos ever.

1005
00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:10,920
Speaker 2: So blood play would be a nightmare for you.

1006
00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:13,000
Speaker 1: No, she'd be fucking dearing a period. That's what I

1007
00:48:13,000 --> 00:48:15,120
Speaker 1: don't want to see it. Blood doesn't scare me. Different

1008
00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:17,640
Speaker 1: So blood doesn't scare me. What scares me is the rain.

1009
00:48:17,719 --> 00:48:24,360
Speaker 1: Tra Venous needle.

1010
00:48:21,480 --> 00:48:25,520
Speaker 3: Injections don't scare me even it's that's scratching the surface.

1011
00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:27,400
Speaker 2: I see what you mean. It's the tying of the

1012
00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:28,319
Speaker 2: blue thing.

1013
00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:31,960
Speaker 3: It's closing the fist, it's the needle going into a vein,

1014
00:48:32,040 --> 00:48:33,200
Speaker 3: it's the drawing it out.

1015
00:48:33,640 --> 00:48:36,719
Speaker 2: It's really just when I see this, Oh my god.

1016
00:48:37,239 --> 00:48:39,080
Speaker 2: If you smell the alcohol swab, I bet you that

1017
00:48:39,120 --> 00:48:41,719
Speaker 2: fucks you up. And it's you say that because it

1018
00:48:41,800 --> 00:48:44,040
Speaker 2: just so bad.

1019
00:48:44,080 --> 00:48:46,319
Speaker 3: Maybe I had to sign a fucking waiver that I

1020
00:48:46,440 --> 00:48:47,960
Speaker 3: was refusing medical treatment.

1021
00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:48,279
Speaker 2: Wow.

1022
00:48:48,920 --> 00:48:54,480
Speaker 3: I was so embarrassed that me, as someone that's talking

1023
00:48:54,480 --> 00:48:56,279
Speaker 3: about shaking advocacy for your health.

1024
00:48:56,280 --> 00:48:56,799
Speaker 2: I was like, bro.

1025
00:48:57,239 --> 00:48:58,879
Speaker 3: So the next day I had to do an HIV

1026
00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:01,719
Speaker 3: dinner and then go to Atlanta, right the risky dinners

1027
00:49:02,320 --> 00:49:05,359
Speaker 3: that I've been talking about. I'm literally telling Koya. I'm like, Bro,

1028
00:49:05,560 --> 00:49:08,160
Speaker 3: I'm like, I cannot believe I couldn't get past this

1029
00:49:08,200 --> 00:49:10,879
Speaker 3: one point. And I'm sitting there knowing I'm gonna feel

1030
00:49:10,880 --> 00:49:12,640
Speaker 3: better and figure out what's wrong with me.

1031
00:49:12,719 --> 00:49:14,680
Speaker 2: I couldn't do it, Bro, that's crazy. Dog.

1032
00:49:15,120 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 3: Now I'm like about to see a hypnosis. This bitch

1033
00:49:17,640 --> 00:49:20,080
Speaker 3: is eight hundred dollars. Apparently she's worked with celebrities and

1034
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:23,080
Speaker 3: she's like the best of the best. And people are

1035
00:49:23,120 --> 00:49:26,040
Speaker 3: telling me that I should just watch videos of it happening,

1036
00:49:26,400 --> 00:49:29,080
Speaker 3: so at least seeing it learn to watch it.

1037
00:49:29,320 --> 00:49:31,080
Speaker 2: But Nigga, I can't even go. Lie.

1038
00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:33,480
Speaker 1: I think that that's how I became okay putting feet

1039
00:49:33,520 --> 00:49:36,120
Speaker 1: in my mouth. I think I saw so many videos

1040
00:49:36,320 --> 00:49:39,920
Speaker 1: of like foot porn. It like just got me to

1041
00:49:39,960 --> 00:49:41,720
Speaker 1: where I was like, bitch, I can suck.

1042
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 4: A toe if you broke it down, just like logically

1043
00:49:45,200 --> 00:49:48,359
Speaker 4: and scientifically, like you know, just.

1044
00:49:48,520 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 2: That I need to get this done. It doesn't matter.

1045
00:49:50,840 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 2: It doesn't matter because it's just feel really dumb.

1046
00:49:54,080 --> 00:49:56,239
Speaker 1: I want to have kids, my nigga was like, you

1047
00:49:56,239 --> 00:49:57,880
Speaker 1: know how much you're going to get to know how

1048
00:49:57,920 --> 00:50:00,760
Speaker 1: much they do and like each trumps.

1049
00:50:01,520 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 2: I'm really weird. I don't think you'd be embarrassed though. Well,

1050
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:07,239
Speaker 2: I didn't know it was a bad yeah, I mean,

1051
00:50:07,239 --> 00:50:09,120
Speaker 2: I mean you're dramatic, but I don't think it's a

1052
00:50:09,160 --> 00:50:11,000
Speaker 2: bad thing. Oh girl, when they woke me up, it

1053
00:50:11,040 --> 00:50:12,400
Speaker 2: was a bad thing. That's crazy.

1054
00:50:12,440 --> 00:50:14,200
Speaker 3: Also, I didn't know you can faint forward, and that

1055
00:50:14,239 --> 00:50:16,520
Speaker 3: was how I fainted the first time. So basically I'm

1056
00:50:16,560 --> 00:50:20,120
Speaker 3: saying I just thought you always go bad. So when

1057
00:50:20,160 --> 00:50:21,320
Speaker 3: I woke up the first.

1058
00:50:25,000 --> 00:50:27,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, I remember my eyes opening and I was like,

1059
00:50:28,239 --> 00:50:30,759
Speaker 1: why am I looking at my like everything had to

1060
00:50:30,760 --> 00:50:31,239
Speaker 1: come back.

1061
00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:33,560
Speaker 3: And so then they knew it was bad. So they

1062
00:50:33,560 --> 00:50:35,680
Speaker 3: bring in like a head doctor and he's cute, so

1063
00:50:36,120 --> 00:50:38,560
Speaker 3: no pun I was like, oh he was black. It

1064
00:50:38,640 --> 00:50:41,200
Speaker 3: was like a little scene and he was like, oh,

1065
00:50:41,320 --> 00:50:42,840
Speaker 3: here's you're giving us troums. I was like, I know,

1066
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:43,600
Speaker 3: I'm so scared.

1067
00:50:43,600 --> 00:50:46,040
Speaker 2: I'm flirting. Are you role playing with a fucking doctor?

1068
00:50:46,120 --> 00:50:46,279
Speaker 1: No?

1069
00:50:46,280 --> 00:50:47,160
Speaker 2: Girl, I got excited.

1070
00:50:47,640 --> 00:50:49,680
Speaker 3: And then he's but he's also trying to be nice

1071
00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:51,960
Speaker 3: to me, to me less scared, right, He's like oh,

1072
00:50:51,960 --> 00:50:53,560
Speaker 3: what do you do for work? Like he's just talking

1073
00:50:53,640 --> 00:50:57,440
Speaker 3: to just get me to calm down, right girl, a

1074
00:50:57,520 --> 00:51:00,680
Speaker 3: second he pulled out their motherfucking table. I said, girl,

1075
00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:03,239
Speaker 3: you would have thought somebody was hurting me, like really

1076
00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:03,880
Speaker 3: assaulting me.

1077
00:51:04,680 --> 00:51:06,520
Speaker 2: I had to walk out the hospital, but I took

1078
00:51:06,520 --> 00:51:07,080
Speaker 2: myself too.

1079
00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:12,320
Speaker 3: So it's so anyone that can handle scary hospital visits

1080
00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:14,840
Speaker 3: and doesn't give a shit about them, y'all are so lucky.

1081
00:51:14,840 --> 00:51:14,960
Speaker 2: Bro.

1082
00:51:15,080 --> 00:51:19,640
Speaker 1: I'm also gonna say for anybody who goes into sex

1083
00:51:20,160 --> 00:51:22,920
Speaker 1: with the risk of things like this happening, Like clearly,

1084
00:51:22,960 --> 00:51:24,799
Speaker 1: I talked to the guy and let him know we

1085
00:51:24,840 --> 00:51:29,239
Speaker 1: ain't doing that no more. But I realized because it

1086
00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:30,680
Speaker 1: was so good, I didn't hate him.

1087
00:51:30,800 --> 00:51:32,320
Speaker 2: I was like, damn, I ended up in the er,

1088
00:51:32,680 --> 00:51:36,879
Speaker 2: but that dick was so good. I was like, wait, sex,

1089
00:51:36,880 --> 00:51:38,279
Speaker 2: send me to the ar isn't it a show?

1090
00:51:38,360 --> 00:51:40,560
Speaker 1: Literally he said that on the phone today, like, well,

1091
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:42,759
Speaker 1: we literally were talking about it again. Let me say

1092
00:51:42,800 --> 00:51:44,719
Speaker 1: it like sex set me to Oh it's good. Let

1093
00:51:44,760 --> 00:51:46,640
Speaker 1: me oh, I'll be able to show you because I

1094
00:51:46,760 --> 00:51:48,319
Speaker 1: feel like nobody else because guess what.

1095
00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:48,840
Speaker 2: You know?

1096
00:51:49,000 --> 00:51:52,200
Speaker 1: It was No, it was good, like so good where

1097
00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:54,840
Speaker 1: I laughed about it now because I'm alive.

1098
00:51:55,239 --> 00:51:56,600
Speaker 2: But like in the moment, I really thought I was

1099
00:51:56,600 --> 00:51:59,000
Speaker 2: gonna die. But then I was just like, no, our

1100
00:51:59,480 --> 00:52:01,920
Speaker 2: our shitt's stories are funny on your no, once you're

1101
00:52:02,000 --> 00:52:03,120
Speaker 2: on the other side of it.

1102
00:52:03,640 --> 00:52:06,480
Speaker 1: And we literally just said, okay, we can't do that

1103
00:52:06,520 --> 00:52:09,520
Speaker 1: the next time we have sex, like no, like or

1104
00:52:09,600 --> 00:52:11,560
Speaker 1: we'll just have the wipes next door, because like the

1105
00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:12,520
Speaker 1: wipes right next to us.

1106
00:52:12,560 --> 00:52:14,759
Speaker 2: You got the wipe that dick before you put it

1107
00:52:14,760 --> 00:52:18,120
Speaker 2: back in me. But it was so good. I was

1108
00:52:18,200 --> 00:52:19,839
Speaker 2: just like, I ain't even mad at you. I mean,

1109
00:52:19,840 --> 00:52:22,800
Speaker 2: shit happens now if it wait did you did you

1110
00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:23,480
Speaker 2: have a condom? One?

1111
00:52:23,920 --> 00:52:25,000
Speaker 4: Uh?

1112
00:52:25,120 --> 00:52:29,480
Speaker 2: Yeah? Did he? I don't know. I thank you.

1113
00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:31,640
Speaker 1: I'm it would have been so no, no, no, no, no no.

1114
00:52:31,920 --> 00:52:33,680
Speaker 1: And he didn't take it off. That's the thing. We

1115
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:35,799
Speaker 1: just kept we kept switching condos. But I don't think

1116
00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:38,600
Speaker 1: he switched between that like a super easy fan.

1117
00:52:38,920 --> 00:52:41,200
Speaker 2: That's what he should have done. That's actually what it was.

1118
00:52:41,600 --> 00:52:44,200
Speaker 2: But we were no, we were we were on, we

1119
00:52:44,200 --> 00:52:48,960
Speaker 2: were we were I'm thinking that's what it was.

1120
00:52:49,040 --> 00:52:50,800
Speaker 1: We weren't switching no, because when we woke up the

1121
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:52,120
Speaker 1: next morning, it was disgusting.

1122
00:52:52,360 --> 00:52:53,920
Speaker 2: You would think I got a train ran on me.

1123
00:52:54,080 --> 00:52:56,600
Speaker 2: They were all over the room. Nice. I know that

1124
00:52:56,719 --> 00:52:57,480
Speaker 2: is nice, right.

1125
00:52:57,800 --> 00:52:59,440
Speaker 1: Like I was like, nigga, where are your friends? I

1126
00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:02,319
Speaker 1: did ask for I showed you this picture. It was

1127
00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:05,319
Speaker 1: disgusting though, Like they were ever like in the living room,

1128
00:53:05,680 --> 00:53:09,840
Speaker 1: the bathroom, the bedroom. I was like, it was like,

1129
00:53:09,880 --> 00:53:12,919
Speaker 1: were they're more than just yo dick here? It had

1130
00:53:12,920 --> 00:53:15,440
Speaker 1: to be more than just yo dick. It had to be.

1131
00:53:16,120 --> 00:53:19,120
Speaker 2: They was everywhere, which I don't mind seeing it. I

1132
00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:21,960
Speaker 2: was like, let's pick them up.

1133
00:53:22,040 --> 00:53:24,600
Speaker 3: Well, you just started fucking him, right, we just yeah,

1134
00:53:24,800 --> 00:53:28,080
Speaker 3: yeah yeah. And also I know a lot of sex workers.

1135
00:53:28,120 --> 00:53:30,879
Speaker 3: They'll exchange results and ship like that, so I think

1136
00:53:30,880 --> 00:53:33,520
Speaker 3: it's nice. Well that's the thing. That's the thing, bitch.

1137
00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:36,440
Speaker 1: I didn't have no recent results and he was filming,

1138
00:53:36,840 --> 00:53:38,760
Speaker 1: so like that is the thing.

1139
00:53:41,120 --> 00:53:43,920
Speaker 2: To use the sex workers that I do know, like

1140
00:53:44,160 --> 00:53:45,560
Speaker 2: they don't want to use condoms.

1141
00:53:45,680 --> 00:53:47,560
Speaker 1: But also if I don't have what they need and

1142
00:53:47,560 --> 00:53:50,040
Speaker 1: they have to fucking test, like they can't just trust

1143
00:53:50,040 --> 00:53:53,000
Speaker 1: my word on it, and they're real like, bitch, if

1144
00:53:53,000 --> 00:53:54,960
Speaker 1: you do got something, bitch, you gonna take money. I

1145
00:53:55,000 --> 00:53:56,320
Speaker 1: got so much better at condoms.

1146
00:53:56,360 --> 00:53:58,120
Speaker 2: They are way better.

1147
00:53:57,960 --> 00:54:02,560
Speaker 1: At having test results up to date, like say, being

1148
00:54:02,760 --> 00:54:06,040
Speaker 1: very open with everything even the next morning, like all

1149
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:08,120
Speaker 1: the things we did, he knew like, well, maybe you

1150
00:54:08,120 --> 00:54:10,520
Speaker 1: should get a probiotic. He knew about bork as he

1151
00:54:10,600 --> 00:54:13,520
Speaker 1: knew about all the things I was like, but he

1152
00:54:13,600 --> 00:54:18,960
Speaker 1: knew about because sometimes he supposed to come over and put.

1153
00:54:17,080 --> 00:54:19,719
Speaker 2: He knew about it all.

1154
00:54:19,840 --> 00:54:23,160
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you, shout out to him, Well,

1155
00:54:23,880 --> 00:54:26,040
Speaker 1: I do have real quick and it's a good one.

1156
00:54:26,320 --> 00:54:29,480
Speaker 1: Speaking of health, I think it's a good one. Gonna

1157
00:54:29,520 --> 00:54:31,399
Speaker 1: get We're gonna get new to this. And we talked

1158
00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:34,920
Speaker 1: about sucking dick. We talked about dick. This is new

1159
00:54:34,960 --> 00:54:38,160
Speaker 1: to sucking turtleneck dick. That's the title of this home

1160
00:54:38,200 --> 00:54:40,439
Speaker 1: mael Oh, by the way, if you have homail, please

1161
00:54:40,480 --> 00:54:43,640
Speaker 1: make sure you send it to miss that is horrible

1162
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:44,959
Speaker 1: decisions at gmail dot com.

1163
00:54:44,960 --> 00:54:47,839
Speaker 2: Oh not me, girl. We was literally I told him.

1164
00:54:47,760 --> 00:54:49,560
Speaker 1: I want to I told him I wanted to fuck

1165
00:54:49,640 --> 00:54:52,799
Speaker 1: him and a friend of bitch, I'm trying to set

1166
00:54:52,880 --> 00:54:55,360
Speaker 1: up a threesome. And I said so, I was like,

1167
00:54:55,400 --> 00:54:57,319
Speaker 1: show me some of your friends, bitch. One of them

1168
00:54:57,320 --> 00:54:59,759
Speaker 1: had a turtlenet dick. One was five nine and he

1169
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:01,839
Speaker 1: I'm like, damn you picky. I was like, nigga, if

1170
00:55:01,880 --> 00:55:04,239
Speaker 1: I'm gonna have my pickings of your friends, I want

1171
00:55:04,239 --> 00:55:10,239
Speaker 1: to find one the fuck. Anyways, he said my pickings, bitch,

1172
00:55:10,280 --> 00:55:12,920
Speaker 1: if I if I could choose my threesome, I wanted

1173
00:55:12,960 --> 00:55:16,000
Speaker 1: to be who I wanted to be. So okay, y'all,

1174
00:55:16,160 --> 00:55:18,560
Speaker 1: let's get straight to the point. I'm a thirty eight

1175
00:55:18,640 --> 00:55:21,600
Speaker 1: year old newly separated from my husband, and I have

1176
00:55:21,719 --> 00:55:26,719
Speaker 1: never messed with anyone who was uncircumcised until now. What

1177
00:55:26,840 --> 00:55:29,480
Speaker 1: in the hell am I supposed to do with all

1178
00:55:29,560 --> 00:55:33,000
Speaker 1: that extra flesh. We've only messed around once, and right

1179
00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:35,839
Speaker 1: after we were done and cleaned up, I said, you're

1180
00:55:35,840 --> 00:55:37,480
Speaker 1: gonna have to teach me how to please you with

1181
00:55:37,719 --> 00:55:41,560
Speaker 1: oral because I have no experience with that type. His

1182
00:55:41,640 --> 00:55:45,840
Speaker 1: immediate reflex response was yep, my jaw dropped.

1183
00:55:46,000 --> 00:55:47,799
Speaker 2: Damn. He said, no, bitch, you ain't know what to do.

1184
00:55:48,239 --> 00:55:50,319
Speaker 1: My jaw dropped, and he tried to clean it up,

1185
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:52,600
Speaker 1: but we laughed and kept watching TV after a bit,

1186
00:55:53,080 --> 00:55:56,200
Speaker 1: but he gave confirmation that the head was trash. But

1187
00:55:56,920 --> 00:55:59,600
Speaker 1: that nut he did bust had him screaming from all

1188
00:56:00,280 --> 00:56:02,840
Speaker 1: the other ship that I did what tips do you

1189
00:56:03,000 --> 00:56:06,680
Speaker 1: have ask them niggas y'all know for feedback to do

1190
00:56:06,719 --> 00:56:09,000
Speaker 1: any of y'all have uncircumcised penises in the room.

1191
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:12,520
Speaker 2: Oh? Sorry, we have them all snipped in here. Not

1192
00:56:12,640 --> 00:56:15,160
Speaker 2: believe he told her her head was traded. He said, yep,

1193
00:56:15,200 --> 00:56:17,680
Speaker 2: that ship was. I gonna say this, and I actually

1194
00:56:17,719 --> 00:56:19,920
Speaker 2: really mean this wholeheartedly. Okay, go ahead.

1195
00:56:20,840 --> 00:56:23,600
Speaker 1: I think if you really knew how to suck good dick,

1196
00:56:24,360 --> 00:56:26,040
Speaker 1: you wouldn't have been struggling that hard.

1197
00:56:27,120 --> 00:56:29,000
Speaker 2: It is not all the way up.

1198
00:56:29,040 --> 00:56:31,799
Speaker 1: And even if he has the extra long skin, a

1199
00:56:31,960 --> 00:56:35,080
Speaker 1: hard dick, you know, you just like how you get

1200
00:56:35,080 --> 00:56:35,520
Speaker 1: with blood.

1201
00:56:36,200 --> 00:56:38,480
Speaker 2: Oh it's not blood, it's only an extra long turnlenick.

1202
00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:40,839
Speaker 2: But that's what sets you all, oh my god.

1203
00:56:43,200 --> 00:56:46,000
Speaker 1: Like, I will only even deal with an uncircumcised dick

1204
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:49,160
Speaker 1: if when it gets hard, it's so big that.

1205
00:56:49,120 --> 00:56:52,239
Speaker 2: The skin just the skin just ain't really there, no more.

1206
00:56:52,600 --> 00:56:55,680
Speaker 1: Like, I'm fine seeing the skin when it's soft, but

1207
00:56:55,719 --> 00:56:59,680
Speaker 1: if it's really big and the skin goes up and over.

1208
00:56:59,480 --> 00:57:01,360
Speaker 2: It, you wouldn't put it in your mouth, Gummy, No.

1209
00:57:01,560 --> 00:57:04,399
Speaker 1: I wouldn't put I would an extra long turtleneck ain't

1210
00:57:04,400 --> 00:57:05,279
Speaker 1: going in my mouth at all.

1211
00:57:05,600 --> 00:57:07,560
Speaker 2: Okay, here's don't know what to do, so go ahead.

1212
00:57:07,800 --> 00:57:08,800
Speaker 2: You got you. The probe.

1213
00:57:08,840 --> 00:57:10,480
Speaker 1: Why I said you may not be good at sucking

1214
00:57:10,480 --> 00:57:16,240
Speaker 1: dick is because hmm, one, you probably were sucking dick

1215
00:57:16,320 --> 00:57:18,080
Speaker 1: scared because there was extra skin.

1216
00:57:18,640 --> 00:57:21,200
Speaker 2: Dallad you go in sucking dick scared, you're probably gonna

1217
00:57:21,200 --> 00:57:21,800
Speaker 2: be bad at it.

1218
00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 3: If then, yeah, you have to teach me how to

1219
00:57:25,200 --> 00:57:27,480
Speaker 3: suck your dick. You can ask someone what they like,

1220
00:57:27,680 --> 00:57:30,480
Speaker 3: but that's also something that is hello, you gotta teach

1221
00:57:30,520 --> 00:57:31,840
Speaker 3: me how to suck your dick because it looks like this,

1222
00:57:32,040 --> 00:57:34,200
Speaker 3: like I don't really even like that language, which is

1223
00:57:34,240 --> 00:57:34,680
Speaker 3: why I.

1224
00:57:37,280 --> 00:57:41,400
Speaker 2: And she had a really large labia or long labiya

1225
00:57:41,480 --> 00:57:43,160
Speaker 2: and like I thought her pissy looked like a flower.

1226
00:57:43,200 --> 00:57:45,000
Speaker 3: I loved it, but she told me that she was

1227
00:57:45,040 --> 00:57:47,000
Speaker 3: super insecure about it because dudes would be like, you

1228
00:57:47,000 --> 00:57:48,760
Speaker 3: gotta tell me, am, I supposed to suck on the side,

1229
00:57:48,760 --> 00:57:50,680
Speaker 3: like you feel that just because the labia was long,

1230
00:57:51,640 --> 00:57:54,600
Speaker 3: same shit, like you really dick shame it. And I

1231
00:57:54,640 --> 00:57:56,880
Speaker 3: know like some people joke about it, but to tell

1232
00:57:57,080 --> 00:57:59,160
Speaker 3: that was a jockey, I just wouldn't put it in

1233
00:57:59,160 --> 00:57:59,439
Speaker 3: my mouth.

1234
00:57:59,480 --> 00:58:02,360
Speaker 2: That's just kind of I think she's I think she's

1235
00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:03,120
Speaker 2: so dead ass though.

1236
00:58:03,160 --> 00:58:04,760
Speaker 3: Oh no, if it was, I guess, but I just

1237
00:58:04,760 --> 00:58:06,520
Speaker 3: feel like, if you're gonna fuck with the nigga, it's

1238
00:58:06,520 --> 00:58:07,160
Speaker 3: just weird to say that.

1239
00:58:07,240 --> 00:58:10,280
Speaker 2: But anyway, Yeah, I wouldn't ye talk about someone behind

1240
00:58:10,280 --> 00:58:15,600
Speaker 2: their back for real. No, Like you're really gonna say

1241
00:58:15,640 --> 00:58:18,760
Speaker 2: in front of me like this shit is eh? No?

1242
00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:20,960
Speaker 1: No, Like I one of my holes right now. Got

1243
00:58:21,000 --> 00:58:24,120
Speaker 1: an uncircumcised dick. He do, but when that thing is hard,

1244
00:58:25,000 --> 00:58:30,720
Speaker 1: it's circumcised. So basically what Mandy's talking about is when

1245
00:58:30,880 --> 00:58:32,920
Speaker 1: when you're hard, the skin just starts to work its

1246
00:58:32,920 --> 00:58:33,240
Speaker 1: way down.

1247
00:58:33,320 --> 00:58:35,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's what I got to do. No work.

1248
00:58:35,080 --> 00:58:38,560
Speaker 3: Also another reason that I love uncircumcised dicks because they

1249
00:58:38,600 --> 00:58:42,160
Speaker 3: feel way more sensation, so they're super pleased when you're

1250
00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:43,120
Speaker 3: doing a good job at it.

1251
00:58:43,440 --> 00:58:44,560
Speaker 2: I would say, watch videos.

1252
00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:46,320
Speaker 3: I'm not going to go through a laundry list of

1253
00:58:46,360 --> 00:58:49,440
Speaker 3: what to do, but you need to watch videos on

1254
00:58:49,600 --> 00:58:51,920
Speaker 3: how people are maneuvering their hand. I don't think there's

1255
00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:54,680
Speaker 3: anything I can really say, but you need to find

1256
00:58:54,720 --> 00:58:56,840
Speaker 3: a video that's closest to what his penis looks like

1257
00:58:56,880 --> 00:59:01,479
Speaker 3: when hard, because most uncircumcised dicks I've seen when they're hard,

1258
00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:02,440
Speaker 3: you can't tell anymore.

1259
00:59:02,520 --> 00:59:06,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's that's the ones I like. Yeah, I think

1260
00:59:06,080 --> 00:59:09,120
Speaker 1: that's most But if it is that, lie, But I

1261
00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:11,880
Speaker 1: had one and I was like, damn, it's rock hard

1262
00:59:12,240 --> 00:59:15,160
Speaker 1: and in his head disappear like.

1263
00:59:15,160 --> 00:59:17,640
Speaker 2: The kid went right over the head to get him.

1264
00:59:18,560 --> 00:59:20,800
Speaker 2: Were you taking back when he had told her that

1265
00:59:20,840 --> 00:59:23,960
Speaker 2: the head was bad? Yeah, but now I feel like

1266
00:59:24,200 --> 00:59:26,360
Speaker 2: she deserved it because she I mean, she dick shamed

1267
00:59:26,400 --> 00:59:28,400
Speaker 2: him in front of his face, like I don't know.

1268
00:59:28,320 --> 00:59:31,439
Speaker 1: What to do with your da He still got though, Yeah,

1269
00:59:31,440 --> 00:59:34,600
Speaker 1: but and he said it wasn't Yeah, I don't mind.

1270
00:59:34,760 --> 00:59:37,080
Speaker 4: I mean, okay, would you want to if it was bad,

1271
00:59:37,560 --> 00:59:40,919
Speaker 4: let's say, immediate after you busted, after whatever conundrumy'all went through,

1272
00:59:41,080 --> 00:59:42,720
Speaker 4: would you be upset if you told you the head

1273
00:59:42,760 --> 00:59:43,040
Speaker 4: was bad.

1274
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:46,840
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie. I think that we should maybe

1275
00:59:47,040 --> 00:59:49,480
Speaker 1: make improvements. I mean, I think that we should tell

1276
00:59:49,520 --> 00:59:53,600
Speaker 1: people though, like if something is unpleasurable, to tell your

1277
00:59:53,640 --> 00:59:54,720
Speaker 1: partner it wasn't good.

1278
00:59:54,760 --> 00:59:56,400
Speaker 2: Well, he came, so I guess that's why it's hard.

1279
00:59:56,480 --> 00:59:58,160
Speaker 2: But I was gonna say this, well she said from

1280
00:59:58,160 --> 00:59:59,680
Speaker 2: all the other ship, right.

1281
01:00:00,120 --> 01:00:02,560
Speaker 3: But there's a there's a thing to me about like

1282
01:00:02,640 --> 01:00:04,600
Speaker 3: immediately telling someone right after, like I think you got

1283
01:00:04,640 --> 01:00:07,040
Speaker 3: to table that conversation for a second, Like you're still

1284
01:00:07,040 --> 01:00:09,880
Speaker 3: gonna wait till you eat and pick out the endor fins,

1285
01:00:09,960 --> 01:00:12,160
Speaker 3: like you're sitting like like, let me breathe for a

1286
01:00:12,200 --> 01:00:15,000
Speaker 3: minute before you tell me my said it wasn't good. Yeah,

1287
01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:17,640
Speaker 3: in the moment right after, You're right, I don't you

1288
01:00:17,680 --> 01:00:19,680
Speaker 3: get wrong for saying that. So you probably shouldn't fo

1289
01:00:19,760 --> 01:00:22,000
Speaker 3: with that nigga, but you must like him because you

1290
01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:23,920
Speaker 3: wrote in so I guess that little turtleneck that got you.

1291
01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:27,320
Speaker 3: Oh no, I really think she gonna she gonna work

1292
01:00:27,320 --> 01:00:29,320
Speaker 3: through it. Yeah, yeah, you need to watch the videos

1293
01:00:29,360 --> 01:00:30,400
Speaker 3: of dicks that resemble his.

1294
01:00:30,520 --> 01:00:30,880
Speaker 2: That's it.

1295
01:00:32,160 --> 01:00:34,160
Speaker 3: Like, I know that sounds like I'm not giving you enough,

1296
01:00:34,200 --> 01:00:35,680
Speaker 3: but I'm glad that you gave you. I have no

1297
01:00:35,720 --> 01:00:36,320
Speaker 3: advice for her.

1298
01:00:38,760 --> 01:00:39,800
Speaker 2: I have none.

1299
01:00:40,360 --> 01:00:43,360
Speaker 1: If if like I said, but if it's an ectual

1300
01:00:43,400 --> 01:00:46,960
Speaker 1: large turtleneck, if that thing given like, I'll get I'll

1301
01:00:47,000 --> 01:00:47,560
Speaker 1: deal with like.

1302
01:00:48,000 --> 01:00:50,520
Speaker 2: Old navy gap turtleneck.

1303
01:00:50,720 --> 01:00:53,440
Speaker 1: But if it's like the expensive norseil turtleneck, you know,

1304
01:00:53,640 --> 01:00:54,520
Speaker 1: like the real thick.

1305
01:00:54,320 --> 01:00:55,439
Speaker 2: Ones that you know cost money.

1306
01:00:56,360 --> 01:00:58,600
Speaker 3: I don't want that big old thick turtleneck. We are

1307
01:00:58,680 --> 01:00:59,560
Speaker 3: also on Patrion.

1308
01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:03,880
Speaker 1: You may patreon dot com backslash Horrible Decisions and.

1309
01:01:03,960 --> 01:01:05,000
Speaker 2: This hoe is insane.

1310
01:01:05,600 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 3: We don't kink shame, but I guess we turtle next shame.

1311
01:01:08,800 --> 01:01:11,240
Speaker 3: So if you and your uncircumcised Dick want to spend

1312
01:01:11,240 --> 01:01:12,240
Speaker 3: some money, were gonna take it.

1313
01:01:12,560 --> 01:01:14,360
Speaker 1: By the way, we also want to let y'all know

1314
01:01:14,760 --> 01:01:17,760
Speaker 1: we are both venturing to the south of France.

1315
01:01:18,160 --> 01:01:20,200
Speaker 2: We we and so.

1316
01:01:21,000 --> 01:01:23,600
Speaker 1: All of the episodes that shall listen to will not

1317
01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:25,360
Speaker 1: have any updates until we get back.

1318
01:01:25,640 --> 01:01:26,440
Speaker 2: We we can.

1319
01:01:26,440 --> 01:01:30,920
Speaker 1: I say we we out there and yes? Why It's French?

1320
01:01:31,520 --> 01:01:33,000
Speaker 1: Like if I go to a nigga and just say that,

1321
01:01:33,040 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 1: he gonna say what you gonna say? What's the response

1322
01:01:35,480 --> 01:01:35,640
Speaker 1: to that?

1323
01:01:36,040 --> 01:01:42,640
Speaker 2: Says? Why? I don't know? We wait tonight? Something like that.

1324
01:01:42,680 --> 01:01:45,920
Speaker 2: What you need something tonight? I ain't gonna say we

1325
01:01:46,120 --> 01:01:47,920
Speaker 2: are yes, we is? He gonna get a wei?

1326
01:01:48,440 --> 01:01:48,520
Speaker 1: No?

1327
01:01:48,720 --> 01:01:51,520
Speaker 2: We is? Yes, we is yes, but we ain't we

1328
01:01:51,520 --> 01:01:53,880
Speaker 2: we we? How do you say? How you say dick

1329
01:01:53,960 --> 01:01:58,000
Speaker 2: in French? That's what I want to know. You got that.

1330
01:01:59,160 --> 01:02:01,360
Speaker 1: I would be out there, real American with this ship.

1331
01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:06,960
Speaker 1: I don't like this hold on because you don't like accents.

1332
01:02:09,040 --> 01:02:11,640
Speaker 1: I don't, but if they look a certain way, I

1333
01:02:11,760 --> 01:02:12,520
Speaker 1: might be okay.

1334
01:02:13,440 --> 01:02:17,880
Speaker 2: Maybe they like really went to English, don't he speaks French? Girl.

1335
01:02:19,280 --> 01:02:21,200
Speaker 1: When search first came in the league, I ended up

1336
01:02:21,240 --> 01:02:23,360
Speaker 1: being at a party where he was at and all

1337
01:02:23,360 --> 01:02:25,959
Speaker 1: I could do is say huh, And I just kept

1338
01:02:25,960 --> 01:02:28,720
Speaker 1: smiling in his face, like I know.

1339
01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:32,760
Speaker 3: Because he just looks so good. She did say that

1340
01:02:32,800 --> 01:02:35,160
Speaker 3: one little thing about that hole for that, but she's

1341
01:02:35,200 --> 01:02:35,640
Speaker 3: still bad.

1342
01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:37,440
Speaker 1: Oh no, carry us in the badage, which how you

1343
01:02:37,440 --> 01:02:38,600
Speaker 1: say dick in French?

1344
01:02:38,360 --> 01:02:46,440
Speaker 2: But I like none adults. Make sure you subscribe to

1345
01:02:46,480 --> 01:02:48,120
Speaker 2: our Patreon beat.

1346
01:02:47,880 --> 01:02:53,560
Speaker 1: That beat that up, say beat beat we we dick Dick, Yes, yes,

1347
01:02:56,680 --> 01:03:00,000
Speaker 1: joined us on Patreon this patreon dot com backslash horrible decision.

1348
01:03:00,400 --> 01:03:02,520
Speaker 1: We can't wait to tell you all of our whole

1349
01:03:02,600 --> 01:03:06,840
Speaker 1: ass stories from the Salsa France and god damn, I

1350
01:03:06,840 --> 01:03:12,600
Speaker 1: gotta work on my excent the Soso Frona anyway. Anyway, Yeah,

1351
01:03:12,640 --> 01:03:15,800
Speaker 1: this is thing yet another episode of horrible decisions.

1352
01:03:15,880 --> 01:03:19,040
Speaker 2: Y'all. Make sure y'all cure the mutis. Bye, oh my,

1353
01:03:19,400 --> 01:03:25,080
Speaker 2: what remy hernandez. You would not also have heard of

1354
01:03:25,080 --> 01:03:27,880
Speaker 2: baby Reindeer and it's insane.

1355
01:03:28,000 --> 01:03:31,480
Speaker 3: Now, Mandy hadn't watched it, so I had to get

1356
01:03:31,480 --> 01:03:34,880
Speaker 3: in and talk about baby Reindeer before everybody forgets about it.

1357
01:03:35,840 --> 01:03:38,360
Speaker 3: This is let me type in baby Reindeer on my phone.

1358
01:03:38,400 --> 01:03:40,240
Speaker 2: Hold on, Oh, I just got some tea on the

1359
01:03:40,240 --> 01:03:40,720
Speaker 2: show too.

1360
01:03:40,840 --> 01:03:43,760
Speaker 3: Oh I can So this is the text messages I

1361
01:03:43,800 --> 01:03:45,680
Speaker 3: got about it. I just typed it in.

1362
01:03:45,840 --> 01:03:52,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, girl, baby Reindeer is insane from Breonda. Next text message,

1363
01:03:52,880 --> 01:03:56,000
Speaker 1: please watch it. Actually it's a little too much. The

1364
01:03:56,120 --> 01:03:59,240
Speaker 1: key Woods April twenty second, girl Baby rein deals on

1365
01:03:59,280 --> 01:04:02,960
Speaker 1: Netflix and it's wild. I did text my man baby

1366
01:04:03,000 --> 01:04:06,960
Speaker 1: Reindeer question mark. Then someone else screenshots Cardi b talking

1367
01:04:07,000 --> 01:04:07,880
Speaker 1: about Baby Reindeer.

1368
01:04:08,520 --> 01:04:12,080
Speaker 3: Now spoiler alert, Yes, it's not really that much of

1369
01:04:12,080 --> 01:04:14,360
Speaker 3: a spoiler. Everybody been talking about how has a lot

1370
01:04:14,360 --> 01:04:15,440
Speaker 3: of sexual violence in it?

1371
01:04:15,720 --> 01:04:16,880
Speaker 2: Episode four.

1372
01:04:17,240 --> 01:04:19,760
Speaker 1: However, I think that it was okay for me to

1373
01:04:19,760 --> 01:04:21,800
Speaker 1: watch because I was super prepared to see it.

1374
01:04:22,000 --> 01:04:22,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, it should.

1375
01:04:23,160 --> 01:04:26,040
Speaker 5: I feel like it should start with a trigger warning.

1376
01:04:26,080 --> 01:04:28,680
Speaker 5: I feel like it's one of those shits. Oh it did, okay,

1377
01:04:30,240 --> 01:04:33,120
Speaker 5: that episode did. Oh, you're right there, the whole show,

1378
01:04:33,160 --> 01:04:37,880
Speaker 5: the whole show, should I remember Angeli's what who told

1379
01:04:37,880 --> 01:04:38,160
Speaker 5: me to watch.

1380
01:04:38,280 --> 01:04:39,760
Speaker 2: She's like, you gotta watch Baby Raindeer. I'm like, what

1381
01:04:39,840 --> 01:04:41,080
Speaker 2: is this? She told me?

1382
01:04:41,120 --> 01:04:43,280
Speaker 5: And then someone DM me and told me like some

1383
01:04:43,440 --> 01:04:44,960
Speaker 5: a fan dm me and told me. I'm like, let

1384
01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:47,080
Speaker 5: me watch it. I got to episode four.

1385
01:04:48,040 --> 01:04:49,680
Speaker 1: It's like the recent teas and once you get the

1386
01:04:49,720 --> 01:04:52,880
Speaker 1: twenty yes, yes, what is Baby Reindeer?

1387
01:04:53,600 --> 01:04:55,800
Speaker 2: It's an eight episode Netflix series.

1388
01:04:57,040 --> 01:05:01,160
Speaker 1: Okay, it's my god, damn, I know you're right. So

1389
01:05:02,160 --> 01:05:07,480
Speaker 1: it is a seven episode show on Netflix about stalking. Yes,

1390
01:05:07,720 --> 01:05:10,439
Speaker 1: all I know is about a crazy, big white girl.

1391
01:05:10,720 --> 01:05:14,080
Speaker 1: This stock is somebody who deserves an oscar or oo

1392
01:05:16,000 --> 01:05:17,240
Speaker 1: or emmy, whatever they give them.

1393
01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:19,640
Speaker 2: And I'm just kind of watching the shit like damn, okay.

1394
01:05:19,760 --> 01:05:22,400
Speaker 3: Like people were saying, it doesn't get good, you know,

1395
01:05:22,480 --> 01:05:24,000
Speaker 3: until the fourth episode, I disagree.

1396
01:05:24,040 --> 01:05:24,640
Speaker 2: I enjoyed it.

1397
01:05:25,560 --> 01:05:30,280
Speaker 1: What makes this show dope is this is a true story.

1398
01:05:30,560 --> 01:05:34,200
Speaker 3: So as we're watching episode one, a woman walks into

1399
01:05:34,240 --> 01:05:36,600
Speaker 3: a bar. She's kind of lying.

1400
01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:36,880
Speaker 2: About her life.

1401
01:05:36,880 --> 01:05:38,760
Speaker 3: I'm a lawyer, I know famous people, I'm this, I'm that,

1402
01:05:38,840 --> 01:05:41,840
Speaker 3: And it's like you can just tell someone's lonely, and

1403
01:05:41,880 --> 01:05:46,000
Speaker 3: when you're watching it, it kind of becomes this thing

1404
01:05:46,040 --> 01:05:49,400
Speaker 3: where you're like Okay, why do you keep giving this

1405
01:05:49,440 --> 01:05:52,400
Speaker 3: person attention? And what I learned and I don't know

1406
01:05:52,400 --> 01:05:54,640
Speaker 3: if you've ever had this experience, but like it made

1407
01:05:54,680 --> 01:05:57,040
Speaker 3: me think to myself, there are so many times I

1408
01:05:57,080 --> 01:05:59,040
Speaker 3: didn't want to talk to someone and I kept going, yeah,

1409
01:06:00,080 --> 01:06:01,280
Speaker 3: leading people on, way do that shit.

1410
01:06:01,360 --> 01:06:03,480
Speaker 5: I think it's like a guilt thing where people are

1411
01:06:03,560 --> 01:06:06,919
Speaker 5: so worried to let someone down or itself, to turn

1412
01:06:06,960 --> 01:06:10,040
Speaker 5: someone down and tell him no, and it's just inherit

1413
01:06:10,280 --> 01:06:13,640
Speaker 5: or whatever. So then subconsciously or even consciously, they just

1414
01:06:13,800 --> 01:06:15,600
Speaker 5: they're like, I'll just keep being nice. Are keep being nice?

1415
01:06:15,600 --> 01:06:18,440
Speaker 5: It's like, but that's worse because now they think there's hope.

1416
01:06:18,920 --> 01:06:21,440
Speaker 5: I'd rather just be like, nah, NIGGI you in it true,

1417
01:06:21,720 --> 01:06:25,000
Speaker 5: because I like, I've had people leave me on. Then

1418
01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:26,840
Speaker 5: I'm like, nigga, if you ain't trying to fuck, there's

1419
01:06:27,000 --> 01:06:29,560
Speaker 5: three billion people that'll gay.

1420
01:06:29,640 --> 01:06:31,800
Speaker 2: Probably. I don't know if that statistic it's true, it's not.

1421
01:06:31,960 --> 01:06:34,080
Speaker 5: But the point is there's a lot of other people

1422
01:06:34,120 --> 01:06:35,520
Speaker 5: I could be out here trying to fuck.

1423
01:06:35,760 --> 01:06:37,120
Speaker 2: Don't make me waste my time.

1424
01:06:37,640 --> 01:06:41,360
Speaker 3: And then here's the other thing, right, I don't necessarily

1425
01:06:41,400 --> 01:06:43,360
Speaker 3: know if he was leading her on, but what I

1426
01:06:43,400 --> 01:06:46,760
Speaker 3: will say. Maybe he didn't lead her on romantically, but

1427
01:06:46,800 --> 01:06:48,000
Speaker 3: there was a small part of me that was like

1428
01:06:48,040 --> 01:06:49,400
Speaker 3: I would have thought he was my friend too.

1429
01:06:49,480 --> 01:06:51,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, he gave it, you get you gave it. You

1430
01:06:51,440 --> 01:06:55,240
Speaker 2: gave a cookie? What's that? Give give cookie to a

1431
01:06:55,280 --> 01:06:57,040
Speaker 2: mouse of cookie or something like that? That book that

1432
01:06:57,080 --> 01:06:58,160
Speaker 2: we used to read in kindergarten.

1433
01:06:58,440 --> 01:07:00,160
Speaker 5: If you give a mouse of cookie here and not

1434
01:07:00,160 --> 01:07:03,080
Speaker 5: know what I'm talking about?

1435
01:07:03,360 --> 01:07:05,880
Speaker 1: Okay, well, at least someone you don't know that book?

1436
01:07:06,680 --> 01:07:08,480
Speaker 1: Oh it has a cookie and it's a white cover.

1437
01:07:08,600 --> 01:07:10,960
Speaker 5: But yes, and it's just and at least to this

1438
01:07:11,000 --> 01:07:14,400
Speaker 5: whole thing. Okay, Well, anyway, it's a book. It's a

1439
01:07:14,520 --> 01:07:16,200
Speaker 5: very popular The people in the comments are gonna be

1440
01:07:16,200 --> 01:07:17,919
Speaker 5: going crazy because it's a very popular book.

1441
01:07:18,440 --> 01:07:20,800
Speaker 2: When someone's listening in their headphones to like this doesn't

1442
01:07:20,840 --> 01:07:21,600
Speaker 2: know this? Yes?

1443
01:07:21,800 --> 01:07:24,240
Speaker 5: So anyway, it was very much that like, if you

1444
01:07:24,320 --> 01:07:27,440
Speaker 5: give someone something, they're going to ask more.

1445
01:07:27,480 --> 01:07:27,920
Speaker 2: Exactly.

1446
01:07:28,200 --> 01:07:31,600
Speaker 3: Well, so we watched this first episode. She comes in,

1447
01:07:32,160 --> 01:07:34,400
Speaker 3: she's starting to try to make a connection about how

1448
01:07:34,400 --> 01:07:36,760
Speaker 3: great she is. Now, a lot of times when we

1449
01:07:36,800 --> 01:07:39,600
Speaker 3: meet someone who's a liar like that, I find that

1450
01:07:39,640 --> 01:07:42,120
Speaker 3: it's because they really don't have anyone that likes them

1451
01:07:42,160 --> 01:07:45,400
Speaker 3: for them. They need to use the things about them

1452
01:07:45,520 --> 01:07:48,160
Speaker 3: to seem interesting. And the entire time I watched this,

1453
01:07:48,240 --> 01:07:50,000
Speaker 3: I thought about Reesasa.

1454
01:07:50,760 --> 01:07:51,960
Speaker 2: I work at this company.

1455
01:07:52,080 --> 01:07:54,920
Speaker 5: It's this didn't even think about that. But yeah, it

1456
01:07:54,960 --> 01:07:58,360
Speaker 5: was the same type of lying lying narcisses.

1457
01:07:58,520 --> 01:08:03,000
Speaker 2: Like it was so easy because it felt like it was.

1458
01:08:03,280 --> 01:08:05,920
Speaker 5: It felt like it did such a great job of

1459
01:08:06,000 --> 01:08:09,080
Speaker 5: making you feel bad for her, and then it turned her.

1460
01:08:09,240 --> 01:08:11,560
Speaker 5: It slowly turned her into a villain because you're like,

1461
01:08:11,560 --> 01:08:14,360
Speaker 5: oh no, this bitch is wild. But she played it

1462
01:08:14,440 --> 01:08:17,080
Speaker 5: so well that although you you hate her because she's wild,

1463
01:08:17,120 --> 01:08:21,440
Speaker 5: you still like feel bad for her because like, oh,