WEBVTT - We're Back + Quarantine Life Ain't Easy! 0:00:00.520 --> 0:00:05.120 Carolina, it is time. We have been to wait too long, girl, 0:00:05.480 --> 0:00:11.080 we have been away too long. I can't believe it, Carolina, 0:00:11.560 --> 0:00:14.560 everything that has happened, this feels like such a weird 0:00:14.680 --> 0:00:18.439 dream the past, like forty days, forty days I have 0:00:18.600 --> 0:00:22.400 been in Guarandana for more. Okay, we have to calculate 0:00:22.440 --> 0:00:25.040 the actual days. And I'm not saying that like as 0:00:25.079 --> 0:00:28.560 a badge of honor. I'm saying that, like, help me 0:00:29.600 --> 0:00:31.920 come and help me get out of this. Because when 0:00:31.920 --> 0:00:34.720 did you lock yourself? You probably left yourself up, probably 0:00:34.720 --> 0:00:36.600 like a week before I did, because I was running 0:00:36.640 --> 0:00:38.720 the streets to like that Sunday. I remember, I was 0:00:38.760 --> 0:00:41.360 wearing a mask. I was risking it all, still trying 0:00:41.400 --> 0:00:43.720 to go to work. And then that Monday they like, honey, 0:00:43.760 --> 0:00:45.560 don't come back here, like why are you here? Still 0:00:46.800 --> 0:00:50.760 king all, risking it all on the dirty trains. Okay. 0:00:50.880 --> 0:00:54.400 So I left work and I have it here on 0:00:54.560 --> 0:00:57.920 March tenth because I had something for my children on 0:00:58.040 --> 0:01:02.240 March ten. Okay, So since March ten, I have been 0:01:02.280 --> 0:01:05.480 working from home. Wow, And today is May seven, So 0:01:05.520 --> 0:01:07.440 it's about to be like a full sixty days that 0:01:07.480 --> 0:01:10.479 you've been working from home. It yeah, because then once 0:01:10.480 --> 0:01:13.720 I started hearing so by the way, welcome to life 0:01:13.800 --> 0:01:16.200 is English. We have missed you just as much as 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:22.000 you have missed us. My goodness, I have missed our listeners. 0:01:22.160 --> 0:01:27.240 I've missed you, honey. I miss like adults interaction part 0:01:27.800 --> 0:01:33.280 I miss girlfriends, me and me, like everything that I could. Like, 0:01:33.360 --> 0:01:35.639 we need to break this thing down. This is almost 0:01:35.640 --> 0:01:37.920 like a welcome back for us, because it really is 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:40.440 for so long. But you want me to tell you something, Caroline, 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:43.920 I'm actually glad that we're coming back now when things 0:01:43.959 --> 0:01:48.400 are a little bit more normalized, because I think I 0:01:48.400 --> 0:01:50.080 would have been like a mess if we would have 0:01:50.080 --> 0:01:53.200 started doing this probably like week one or two or three, 0:01:53.280 --> 0:01:56.640 because I was really messed up behind this whole pandemic 0:01:56.720 --> 0:02:01.640 coronavirus COVID nineteen situation. Thank you for being honest, because 0:02:01.800 --> 0:02:05.760 I think that it was a giant misunderstanding that people 0:02:05.840 --> 0:02:09.640 didn't get where. Some people were okay, they were like, 0:02:09.639 --> 0:02:11.320 oh my gosh, I have to work from home. This 0:02:11.360 --> 0:02:14.880 is so exciting, and then some people were really struggling. 0:02:14.919 --> 0:02:17.760 And I think that because of social media, we talked 0:02:17.760 --> 0:02:20.480 about this a lot, because our lives are on display. 0:02:20.680 --> 0:02:25.760 There was so much self dialogue and inner negativity because 0:02:25.760 --> 0:02:27.920 it was like, well, I'm not making three loads of 0:02:27.919 --> 0:02:31.120 banana bread today, and Christie Teagan is making three loads 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:33.480 of banana bread, and she has her kids doing artwork 0:02:33.520 --> 0:02:36.240 and she's being It took a lot for me to 0:02:36.400 --> 0:02:39.119 get my life together and to get my life right 0:02:39.200 --> 0:02:41.240 and to focus on the number one thing, which was 0:02:41.280 --> 0:02:44.119 my family. So You're right, I feel like it would 0:02:44.120 --> 0:02:46.360 have been in disservice to you guys to have these 0:02:46.360 --> 0:02:50.000 like fragmented episodes where we weren't all here for you. 0:02:50.120 --> 0:02:52.960 And now I feel like I can truly give what 0:02:53.040 --> 0:02:54.800 I want to give to you guys, you know what 0:02:54.840 --> 0:02:57.560 I mean. So I definitely feel you and it's like 0:02:57.800 --> 0:02:59.960 we're we have more of a clear mind right now 0:03:00.080 --> 0:03:03.200 and we can serve people in a different way because 0:03:03.280 --> 0:03:06.000 I personally feel like at this point I'm more like 0:03:06.080 --> 0:03:09.200 on the other side at the beginning. Like I even 0:03:09.240 --> 0:03:12.720 did some audio and I listened to it and I'm like, wow, 0:03:12.760 --> 0:03:16.040 I sound so vulnerable and so weak and so scared 0:03:16.280 --> 0:03:19.680 and so like uncertain, And that's really not the person 0:03:19.720 --> 0:03:21.800 that I'm used to being or the person that I 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:25.320 that I like to put forth when we do these podcasts. 0:03:25.360 --> 0:03:27.040 So it's like I'm in a better space now and 0:03:27.080 --> 0:03:30.920 I can probably talk a little bit better to our audience. Yeah, 0:03:30.960 --> 0:03:32.560 I mean, I think there's a lot of things that 0:03:32.600 --> 0:03:35.320 we can cover, especially like me from the perspective of 0:03:35.360 --> 0:03:38.400 being a mom and having to now juggle the entire 0:03:38.480 --> 0:03:42.600 household and you know, three meals a day, snacks, everything, 0:03:43.200 --> 0:03:45.480 going to the grocery store, the level of anxiety that 0:03:45.560 --> 0:03:49.000 I have because I am the primary like caretaker in 0:03:49.080 --> 0:03:51.680 this home. So the fact that you have to prepare 0:03:51.720 --> 0:03:53.839 yourself to go out there, and you know, this isn't 0:03:53.840 --> 0:03:55.560 gonna be something to where we're like sitting here and 0:03:55.600 --> 0:03:58.160 telling you are woes. But I want you guys to 0:03:58.200 --> 0:03:59.720 kind of just get a picture of what we've been 0:03:59.720 --> 0:04:02.920 going through over the past six seven weeks, because we 0:04:03.000 --> 0:04:05.600 haven't been here with you guys. And it isn't that 0:04:05.680 --> 0:04:08.960 you haven't been top of mind, but it's just sometimes 0:04:09.240 --> 0:04:12.080 you know, it's really important to say I can't do 0:04:12.160 --> 0:04:14.240 all of this. I need to take a step back. 0:04:14.720 --> 0:04:17.240 And it was not just one step back, it was 0:04:17.320 --> 0:04:19.240 just like you were thrust it into like a whole 0:04:19.279 --> 0:04:22.400 new world. Our life was no longer the life that 0:04:22.480 --> 0:04:26.520 we knew. Now you're homeschooling, Now you're preparing meals. It's 0:04:26.560 --> 0:04:29.160 like we went from like okay, you know, we have 0:04:29.279 --> 0:04:31.880 our homes, but we're outside and you know, to like 0:04:31.960 --> 0:04:33.440 the point that it's like, okay, you no longer leave 0:04:33.480 --> 0:04:35.440 your home. Well, no, there was like kind of a 0:04:36.040 --> 0:04:37.680 I wouldn't like. I don't like to use the word 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:40.360 balance because I don't feel like my life is ever balanced. 0:04:40.360 --> 0:04:42.520 But I feel like I had more balanced prior to 0:04:42.600 --> 0:04:45.719 this than I do now. And I'm actually coming to 0:04:45.760 --> 0:04:48.680 you from my kids situation room, so I see all 0:04:48.720 --> 0:04:51.080 the little peers in the background, and I'm so proud 0:04:51.160 --> 0:04:54.559 of you. You're a good teacher. Yeah right, well we'll see. 0:04:54.640 --> 0:04:56.880 We'll see if they get in the second grade in kindergarten. 0:04:57.360 --> 0:05:00.240 Nobody's don't get left back. Worry about that. That's a 0:05:00.279 --> 0:05:02.760 good day. I was so happy. You know. There are 0:05:02.800 --> 0:05:04.880 some of my friends that have just said, I mean, 0:05:05.200 --> 0:05:07.160 they have thrown up their hands and they're like, bucket. 0:05:07.880 --> 0:05:10.520 My kids. They can play on their iPad all day. 0:05:10.960 --> 0:05:12.919 They can and here's the one thing that I doant like, 0:05:12.960 --> 0:05:15.520 they can resume learning. What school is open again? That 0:05:16.160 --> 0:05:18.560 some of my friends and I'm not doing them, and 0:05:18.600 --> 0:05:21.159 I'm not judging them. But here's the thing, though, honey, 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:25.040 you know what, everybody knows their limits, and that with 0:05:25.120 --> 0:05:28.760 this whole situation, you didn't know what your limits were 0:05:28.920 --> 0:05:33.160 until you face this whole, this whole thing. So when 0:05:33.160 --> 0:05:36.720 they said that homeschooling was going to become a possibility, 0:05:36.839 --> 0:05:40.560 I said, I need knowing my children and how they operate. 0:05:40.640 --> 0:05:44.880 I need structure. So that night, until eleven o'clock at night, 0:05:44.920 --> 0:05:46.359 when I knew both of them were going to be 0:05:46.400 --> 0:05:48.760 home and we were going to start home schooling, I 0:05:48.880 --> 0:05:50.880 put up I'm gonna show you. I know I can't 0:05:50.880 --> 0:05:54.719 show the listeners, but I put up the alphabet on 0:05:54.839 --> 0:05:56.880 the wall I had. First of all, this looks like 0:05:56.920 --> 0:05:59.640 a whole like Dominican kindergarten that you're at. You know 0:05:59.680 --> 0:06:02.560 those to schools that they have a republic. You really 0:06:02.560 --> 0:06:05.200 have the alphabet up on the world. That's up on 0:06:05.240 --> 0:06:08.160 the wall. I have like their charts, they're reading charts. 0:06:08.200 --> 0:06:10.880 I have like their um they get a morning sticker. 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:14.480 I had to come up with a whole schedule because 0:06:14.520 --> 0:06:16.480 I said, if I don't do this from the jump, 0:06:16.880 --> 0:06:20.240 these kids will never get on board. And the one 0:06:20.279 --> 0:06:22.960 thing that I said to my friends was this is 0:06:22.960 --> 0:06:27.520 a zero judgment zone. You do you, but feel free 0:06:27.720 --> 0:06:30.240 to tell me what you're going through and know that 0:06:30.360 --> 0:06:32.720 there is zero judgment. If you want to feed your 0:06:32.760 --> 0:06:36.960 kids pop tarts for dinner, have at it. If you 0:06:37.000 --> 0:06:40.800 want to give them leftover mashed potatoes with roast beef 0:06:40.800 --> 0:06:44.040 because that's what you made last night for breakfast, do it. Whatever. 0:06:44.080 --> 0:06:46.320 We need to get through this period, we got to 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:48.960 just do it. It's a it's pretty much like survival 0:06:49.120 --> 0:06:51.120 of the fittest right now. And that's why I really 0:06:51.160 --> 0:06:53.520 kept stressing to all my listeners and like everyone around me, 0:06:53.560 --> 0:06:58.240 like listen, adaptability and being able to use your survival 0:06:58.279 --> 0:07:00.800 skills is really the only way that we are going 0:07:00.839 --> 0:07:03.560 to get through this. And it's like, yeah, granted, for us, 0:07:03.560 --> 0:07:05.720 it hasn't been like you know, we have been out 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:07.800 in the streets. We haven't been like, you know, fighting 0:07:07.839 --> 0:07:10.240 COVID face to face. But a lot of people that 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:12.840 I do know are doing that. You know. It's like 0:07:13.120 --> 0:07:15.680 my friends that work at hospitals, my friends that are nurses, 0:07:15.760 --> 0:07:17.920 my husband who's like an essential worker, like all of 0:07:17.960 --> 0:07:20.160 them are out there every single day. And I'm like 0:07:20.520 --> 0:07:22.920 You're gonna be fine. It's like we became counselors. Also, 0:07:22.920 --> 0:07:25.600 it's like you became a teacher, I became a counselor. 0:07:25.960 --> 0:07:29.800 It's like, does your husband still go out for work? No, 0:07:29.960 --> 0:07:32.360 he doesn't. And that's been another thing that I've had 0:07:32.360 --> 0:07:34.640 to navigate, which we will definitely talk about in the 0:07:34.720 --> 0:07:38.520 upcoming episodes, because my coworker who takes over my studio, 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:40.520 I'm like, no, no, no, no, no no, this is not 0:07:40.560 --> 0:07:44.559 gonna work. No, you're right. It has changed the entire 0:07:44.640 --> 0:07:47.280 family dynamic. Um. As a person who was there for 0:07:47.320 --> 0:07:49.200 my friends, and you know, I always want to be 0:07:49.240 --> 0:07:51.480 here for them, I've absorbed a lot of their energy 0:07:51.520 --> 0:07:53.640 and a lot of their anxiety of what they're going 0:07:53.680 --> 0:07:56.960 through because I want to listen. I know that they 0:07:57.000 --> 0:08:00.520 need somebody to talk to. But then I left with 0:08:00.560 --> 0:08:02.760 those feelings and then I'm kind of like, what am 0:08:02.760 --> 0:08:05.480 I going to do? So I said, you have your 0:08:05.480 --> 0:08:08.880 own feelings also, So it's just like it's like if 0:08:08.880 --> 0:08:10.760 you're holding a cake in your hands, you're trying to 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:12.560 balance it, and then they put three more on top 0:08:12.600 --> 0:08:15.720 of that one. It's like, okay, and you only have 0:08:15.760 --> 0:08:19.080 the capacity to you know, deal with so many things 0:08:19.080 --> 0:08:21.040 in a day, so I will be honest with you. 0:08:21.120 --> 0:08:25.840 Weeks five and six broke me. Weeks five and six 0:08:25.960 --> 0:08:29.400 were super difficult. I feel that I feel you because 0:08:29.400 --> 0:08:33.000 I feel like that's when they told us another thirty days. Yeah. 0:08:33.320 --> 0:08:37.000 I really was like, what the funk is going on? 0:08:37.160 --> 0:08:40.160 Like is this a dream? And every single morning, like 0:08:40.240 --> 0:08:42.160 for the first two weeks, I would wake up and 0:08:42.160 --> 0:08:48.360 be like, did I dream the pandemic? Like and yeah, 0:08:48.400 --> 0:08:50.720 and then I'm like, Nah, this ship is really happening, 0:08:50.720 --> 0:08:55.000 Like this is something none of us have ever gone through. Right, No, 0:08:55.160 --> 0:08:57.600 It's so true. And even just that like, um, they 0:08:57.640 --> 0:09:00.559 were saying how people are losing sleep and the level 0:09:00.559 --> 0:09:03.240 of anxiety and people. You know, my one girlfriend she 0:09:03.320 --> 0:09:05.960 called me and she said, I don't know what it is. 0:09:06.040 --> 0:09:09.200 I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like, you know, 0:09:09.320 --> 0:09:12.160 I can't focus on anything. And she's describing all of 0:09:12.240 --> 0:09:14.280 these things. And I said, honey, I go, you're you're 0:09:14.320 --> 0:09:17.800 having a panic attack. I said, I'm letting you know 0:09:18.040 --> 0:09:20.400 right now. You need to hang up this phone. You 0:09:20.440 --> 0:09:22.880 need to go and take some deep breaths, go into 0:09:22.960 --> 0:09:26.600 your bathroom, give yourself some time to get yourself back down, 0:09:26.720 --> 0:09:28.760 I said, and then you can call me back. Because 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:33.360 people are experiencing anxiety that have never experienced it before, 0:09:33.480 --> 0:09:36.440 and now they know. Now they know what it is 0:09:36.679 --> 0:09:41.160 listening and the people with anxiety they're going through it, 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:45.480 They're like, I'm experiencing anxiety the way I've never had before. 0:09:45.880 --> 0:09:48.040 And it's like just being locked up in your house 0:09:48.280 --> 0:09:51.880 every day. You know, it's like you become anxious here, 0:09:51.960 --> 0:09:54.640 your your emotions are all over the place. But one 0:09:54.640 --> 0:09:58.760 thing I can say, Carolina, is that we've all gone 0:09:58.840 --> 0:10:02.120 through it together. We all understand what everybody's going through. 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:05.000 And I understand like when someone's frustrated because they have 0:10:05.000 --> 0:10:06.480 to cook a lot, because I'm like, okay, I cook 0:10:06.520 --> 0:10:09.400 a lot too, and they're frustrated they can't do their nails. 0:10:09.440 --> 0:10:11.080 I just did my nails myself. I'm like, Okay, they 0:10:11.160 --> 0:10:12.800 actually look good. What color is that? By the way, 0:10:12.800 --> 0:10:14.480 I was gonna say, it's like a nice little neutral. 0:10:14.520 --> 0:10:16.600 You know, I love me a good neutral. It's actually 0:10:16.840 --> 0:10:21.760 a thought e stark white. See we're on zoom right now, 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:24.160 and this is and I apologize for the audio quality. 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:26.120 This is part of the reason why we haven't been 0:10:26.160 --> 0:10:30.000 recording is because I don't have the capability to plug in. 0:10:30.160 --> 0:10:32.000 And this is all behind the scenes things, but just 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:34.080 the ship I'm shipping you and Mike. If you won't 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:38.360 plug you next time, I can get one from Amazon. Yes, okay, good, 0:10:38.640 --> 0:10:41.160 but but no, actually, if you can send me the 0:10:41.200 --> 0:10:43.800 model and then I'll just get that one. But but yeah, no, 0:10:43.920 --> 0:10:46.800 you're right, you're talking about things like do are you 0:10:46.920 --> 0:10:49.400 the type of person that orders out for a long time, 0:10:49.480 --> 0:10:51.160 for a long period of time. I think that's why 0:10:51.240 --> 0:10:55.440 I was so overwhelmed. I was not comfortable with ordering now, Oh, Karlina, 0:10:55.480 --> 0:10:59.280 I ordered out like twice because of like you know 0:10:59.320 --> 0:11:01.560 that day that I'm yo, I'm ready to quit, like 0:11:01.600 --> 0:11:06.880 this ship at the end, I hate you. Like those 0:11:06.920 --> 0:11:09.320 two times was when I ordered out because I was 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:11.440 like my wits end. I'm like, I don't want to 0:11:11.440 --> 0:11:13.880 cook anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I 0:11:13.880 --> 0:11:16.280 don't want to be inside anymore. Like I feel like 0:11:16.520 --> 0:11:19.800 mentally it's affected me a lot. It's weird because I 0:11:19.800 --> 0:11:22.160 always sew myself as like a strong person and nothing 0:11:22.240 --> 0:11:25.440 was gonna break me. But this you still are? You 0:11:25.520 --> 0:11:27.920 still are I don't think you should discount yourself like that. 0:11:28.040 --> 0:11:29.800 You know, I think that it's but this is the 0:11:29.840 --> 0:11:33.200 reality of it. That is the internal dialogue that we 0:11:33.320 --> 0:11:35.480 have in our heads. You know, I thought I was 0:11:35.520 --> 0:11:38.280 a strong person or I thought I could get through this. Well, 0:11:38.320 --> 0:11:41.960 you don't know until you're there. So now the way 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:44.280 that you're dealing with it, I think in hindsight, you'll 0:11:44.320 --> 0:11:47.280 look back and be super proud of yourself with the 0:11:47.360 --> 0:11:49.840 things that you managed to do, with the way that 0:11:49.880 --> 0:11:53.960 you managed to handle yourself. Um, something that I have 0:11:54.120 --> 0:11:57.960 done and that I've made sure every single week. You know, 0:11:58.040 --> 0:12:01.480 we are very fortunate. You have known. I have Mark, 0:12:01.559 --> 0:12:05.680 I have my two babies. My single friends have been 0:12:05.720 --> 0:12:11.000 going through a whole other experience. And I looked at 0:12:11.040 --> 0:12:13.040 my husband and I said to him my two very 0:12:13.120 --> 0:12:17.200 very close, close girlfriends, and I said, please, if I 0:12:17.240 --> 0:12:21.080 don't remember, remind me to check in on them every 0:12:21.120 --> 0:12:23.840 single week, I said, because these girls are going through 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:27.680 this alone. And I know I get crazy. My husband 0:12:27.760 --> 0:12:30.000 drives me crazy, my kids drive me nuts, you know, 0:12:30.040 --> 0:12:34.080 but it's like, just think about it, all of that activity, 0:12:34.400 --> 0:12:37.800 to not have any interaction except for when you go 0:12:37.840 --> 0:12:40.920 to the grocery or when you're getting a delivery that 0:12:41.000 --> 0:12:43.480 has to be difficult. No, it definitely is difficult. You 0:12:43.520 --> 0:12:46.199 know what's crazy, It's like Bella has been you know, quarantining, 0:12:47.520 --> 0:12:49.520 so I couldn't believe it. Why did he come over? 0:12:49.679 --> 0:12:52.160 I was, you know, because for whatever reason, we just 0:12:52.240 --> 0:12:54.000 kept thinking like this is gonna end next week, and 0:12:54.080 --> 0:12:55.839 next week is gonna end next week, and we just 0:12:55.920 --> 0:12:59.280 get thinking. For those new listeners who don't know, Bella is, 0:12:59.360 --> 0:13:03.240 Honey's her sister. She's gorgeous, She's a beauty blogger. She's 0:13:03.320 --> 0:13:05.720 just like the jam. I love her. But I could 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:07.600 not believe when I was looking on social media, I said, 0:13:07.720 --> 0:13:09.640 what is this girl doing at her own place? I 0:13:09.679 --> 0:13:11.960 know she was there, she was by herself. So it's like, 0:13:12.000 --> 0:13:14.360 for whatever reason, you know, I started feeling sick and 0:13:14.400 --> 0:13:16.320 I was like, I have Corona, have Corona, have Corona. 0:13:16.480 --> 0:13:18.240 So I went and got tested. So I was like, oh, 0:13:18.280 --> 0:13:21.400 I'm negative, I can go see Bella. So I went 0:13:21.440 --> 0:13:23.440 to see her, and you know what's so crazy? When 0:13:23.480 --> 0:13:26.720 she saw me, she like literally broke down in tears. 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:30.800 It was like she was sobbing because she had not 0:13:30.920 --> 0:13:35.280 seen a loved one in a month. Like I was 0:13:35.360 --> 0:13:37.520 holding her like if she was a child, and she 0:13:37.640 --> 0:13:39.600 was like, I'm sorry, I'm crying. I'm sorry, I'm crying. 0:13:39.640 --> 0:13:41.200 I'm like, you don't have to be sorry that you're crying. 0:13:41.240 --> 0:13:45.400 I understand what's happening. You haven't felt loved, touch, affection, 0:13:45.520 --> 0:13:48.280 you haven't seen family and so long that you're so 0:13:48.360 --> 0:13:51.760 overwhelmed with emotion right now. So I feel you when 0:13:51.840 --> 0:13:54.000 when you say you got to check on your single friends, 0:13:54.000 --> 0:13:56.480 because at least I get to fight with noony whenever 0:13:56.520 --> 0:14:00.560 I feel like it. But she's just alone walking even 0:14:00.640 --> 0:14:04.840 having that that person, that physical, that body that personally's 0:14:04.920 --> 0:14:07.199 right next to you, you know, it's having that that 0:14:07.320 --> 0:14:10.880 human connection is so important, and I think that people 0:14:10.920 --> 0:14:13.720 forget about that. Right now, we're about to be interrupted 0:14:13.720 --> 0:14:15.440 by my child that I told not to come and 0:14:15.480 --> 0:14:19.280 interrupt me. But yes, what do you need? Yes, you 0:14:19.360 --> 0:14:22.680 may have a milkshakee with cookies yea and astra to 0:14:22.880 --> 0:14:30.320 oh the snack game cookies. You guys have no idea. Okay, 0:14:30.320 --> 0:14:31.880 So I have a four in a six year old 0:14:31.920 --> 0:14:34.440 and I thought I thought I was on my A 0:14:34.640 --> 0:14:40.840 game with the snacks monitoring them. No, I thought I 0:14:41.000 --> 0:14:43.440 am the house that you want to come to. We 0:14:43.600 --> 0:14:46.240 have snacks of all kinds. I got granola bars, I 0:14:46.280 --> 0:14:48.680 got and I got like the good stuff too. You 0:14:48.720 --> 0:14:50.080 know what I mean, because I grew up in a 0:14:50.080 --> 0:14:51.720 house that did not have snacks. I told you my 0:14:51.760 --> 0:14:54.000 mom used to buy Jenneric the black and white box. 0:14:54.640 --> 0:15:01.600 We do get lucky charms for breakfast to a exactly. 0:15:01.680 --> 0:15:06.040 She's like the way, you know, so that there was 0:15:06.240 --> 0:15:09.320 left over from last night. So my mom never believed 0:15:09.320 --> 0:15:13.120 in sax and I'm the opposite. So these kids, all 0:15:13.160 --> 0:15:18.880 they do is fucking eat all day long. They eat breakfast, Mommy, 0:15:18.880 --> 0:15:20.760 can I have a snack? And says you just had breakfast? Well, 0:15:20.840 --> 0:15:23.280 I want a snack, I said, okay, they're growing boys. 0:15:23.280 --> 0:15:25.680 They have a yogurt Mommy, can I have another snack? Now? 0:15:25.720 --> 0:15:28.200 They want fresh fruit? Mommy, can I have another snack? Now? 0:15:28.240 --> 0:15:30.600 They want a granola bar. This ship goes on all 0:15:30.760 --> 0:15:35.000 day long, kind of they are I cannot order it 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:37.440 fast enough to how many questions that you think they 0:15:37.480 --> 0:15:42.160 ask you a day? The questions, Oh my gosh, I 0:15:42.200 --> 0:15:46.960 can only imagine the questions are popping in this house. Okay, 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:49.440 and they're and they're like, you know, they're children. That's 0:15:49.480 --> 0:15:52.320 a whole other subject. Like in a whole other episode 0:15:52.400 --> 0:15:54.800 is talking to your kids about COVID nineteen because now 0:15:55.280 --> 0:15:59.040 um Astre says, I'm gonna wash my orange really good 0:15:59.080 --> 0:16:02.960 because it probably he has a coronavirus. And I said, no, Ashure, 0:16:03.760 --> 0:16:06.720 it doesn't, you know, trying to explain it to them. 0:16:06.960 --> 0:16:10.240 But like, the food issue for me has just been 0:16:10.880 --> 0:16:13.600 so over. I've never thought more about food, and I 0:16:13.640 --> 0:16:16.000 think that once this is over, I want to have 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:18.600 to think about food again, because it's smart. I do 0:16:18.760 --> 0:16:21.320 not want to think about food again. There are so 0:16:21.360 --> 0:16:23.840 many people who have learned how to cook, and they're 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:26.960 learning so many things. I don't want to learn. I'm done. 0:16:27.120 --> 0:16:30.040 I'm done. I want them to fend for themselves. Listen, Carolina. 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:32.280 The other day I went to sleep with no dinner. 0:16:32.360 --> 0:16:34.920 I say, I'm sick of food. I am sick of eating. 0:16:35.360 --> 0:16:37.640 I don't want to think about it anymore. I don't 0:16:37.680 --> 0:16:39.320 want to cook it. I don't want nothing to do 0:16:39.360 --> 0:16:41.120 with it. I had ramen that night. I was like 0:16:41.160 --> 0:16:43.760 this ghetto ninety and ramen is all I'm doing. I 0:16:43.760 --> 0:16:45.320 don't have it in me. I just don't have it 0:16:45.360 --> 0:16:47.920 in me. Can I tell you that I have become 0:16:48.000 --> 0:16:51.200 a ramen master. I put cilantrow in my ramen. I 0:16:51.240 --> 0:16:54.360 put a little egg in that bitch a little bit 0:16:54.440 --> 0:16:58.160 of I was so mad I didn't put nothing in it. 0:16:58.240 --> 0:17:00.640 And then people started like sending me that ramen. Somebody 0:17:00.680 --> 0:17:04.000 had hot dog, somebody had um scallions. I'm like, no, 0:17:04.160 --> 0:17:06.439 you gotta add the protein. Girl, we gotta put you 0:17:06.480 --> 0:17:09.240 on the ramen game. That thing is right. But is 0:17:09.280 --> 0:17:12.840 this like good ramen or is this like noodle ramen? No? 0:17:13.440 --> 0:17:16.439 I actually I take offense for you to say like 0:17:16.560 --> 0:17:19.600 good ramen, good ramen is top ramen. Honey, Okay, I 0:17:19.640 --> 0:17:21.679 just want to make sure I'm not missing anything here 0:17:21.720 --> 0:17:26.080 because I'm not flavored. I do not enjoy the beef, 0:17:26.520 --> 0:17:30.720 and I do chicken ramen with an egg. I cut 0:17:30.760 --> 0:17:34.679 up cilantro. I do well, yeah, I do um a 0:17:34.720 --> 0:17:39.280 little bit of worce. Sister, catchup, it is it is 0:17:39.320 --> 0:17:42.040 a whole meal. Okay, So then that way I don't 0:17:42.080 --> 0:17:44.320 feel guilty. I'm like, I got a little bit of 0:17:44.400 --> 0:17:46.840 vegetables in here. I got a little bit of a 0:17:46.920 --> 0:17:49.720 little quail egg in here. I mean, well, that's like 0:17:49.800 --> 0:17:52.520 a super fancy like with the kail egg, you know, 0:17:52.680 --> 0:17:55.800 So I feel like, right now, we're just catching up 0:17:55.840 --> 0:17:57.439 with each other, and I want people to know. I 0:17:57.440 --> 0:17:58.800 know that this is kind of like a little bit 0:17:58.800 --> 0:18:00.320 des joined it, but you have to understand it, like, 0:18:00.320 --> 0:18:02.280 Honey and I are just getting to talk to each other. 0:18:02.320 --> 0:18:04.159 We have spoken on the phone, but it hasn't been 0:18:04.200 --> 0:18:06.399 the same now, but I think they welcome it. I 0:18:06.400 --> 0:18:08.159 think they're really gonna want to know, like where our 0:18:08.240 --> 0:18:10.800 heads is at right now, what we've been doing. What 0:18:10.920 --> 0:18:13.560 are the things that you know have been I guess 0:18:13.920 --> 0:18:16.560 bothering us the most because they always hit me up. 0:18:16.600 --> 0:18:19.840 And you know, I've been able to connect with people 0:18:19.880 --> 0:18:22.040 in such a different way during the pandemic. I didn't 0:18:22.080 --> 0:18:25.159 realize I was really like that pressed for time. And 0:18:25.200 --> 0:18:27.760 it's like now I can FaceTime people. I can call 0:18:27.880 --> 0:18:29.760 my mom on the phone for an hour and forty 0:18:29.760 --> 0:18:32.000 minutes to talk about which sewing machines she wants for 0:18:32.119 --> 0:18:38.280 Mother's Day. I'm like, yo, I really had no time before. See, 0:18:38.320 --> 0:18:40.639 and I'm the opposite. I'm sorry to cut you off, 0:18:40.680 --> 0:18:42.359 but go ahead finish your thought because I want to 0:18:42.359 --> 0:18:45.280 tell you why I'm I'm kind of the opposite. No. 0:18:45.280 --> 0:18:47.960 Now it's like I'm available whoever wants to talk, whoever 0:18:48.040 --> 0:18:51.960 wants to FaceTime, whoever wants to like DM and I 0:18:52.040 --> 0:18:54.520 even answer my d ms with like video messages whenever 0:18:54.560 --> 0:18:59.000 my face is enough. I've really been able to like 0:18:59.119 --> 0:19:01.600 connect with people during this time period, and that's one 0:19:01.640 --> 0:19:04.720 of the things I'm really grateful for. Yeah, it's opposite 0:19:04.720 --> 0:19:07.840 for you, opposite UM. I feel like I'm in front 0:19:07.880 --> 0:19:11.400 of a screen from five o'clock in the morning until 0:19:11.840 --> 0:19:15.680 three o'clock in the afternoon. So because remember I'm getting 0:19:15.720 --> 0:19:17.720 up it's still at four forty five to do the 0:19:17.760 --> 0:19:20.160 morning show. When I'm doing the morning show, I'm looking 0:19:20.160 --> 0:19:23.119 at a screen a skype with UM with Greg T 0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:26.400 and Colleen, So I have that for four hours. Then 0:19:26.560 --> 0:19:29.119 right as soon as i'm done with them nine thirty, 0:19:29.320 --> 0:19:31.600 I start homeschooling with the boys, so I'm kind of 0:19:31.600 --> 0:19:33.760 like running upstairs to set them up. All I'm still 0:19:33.800 --> 0:19:37.239 doing the morning show. I'm looking at their screens with 0:19:37.400 --> 0:19:41.600 them until noon. We break for lunch. At noon, we 0:19:41.760 --> 0:19:45.359 come back for other classes at one. I'm not done 0:19:45.440 --> 0:19:49.200 until two thirty three o'clock. Sometimes, well, that's the problem, Carolina. 0:19:49.240 --> 0:19:50.680 You want to be doing a full day of school. 0:19:50.720 --> 0:19:52.119 If I was a mom, I'd be like, yeah to 0:19:52.200 --> 0:19:56.520 half a day to day, we do fun Fridays. I 0:19:56.560 --> 0:19:58.439 did finally let up and I said, you know what 0:19:58.800 --> 0:20:01.760 fun fridays. But but no, they actually have zooms with 0:20:01.840 --> 0:20:04.120 their teachers that they have to be in attendance. That's 0:20:04.119 --> 0:20:08.200