Speaker 1: Carolina, it is time. We have been to wait too long, girl,
Speaker 1: we have been away too long. I can't believe it, Carolina,
Speaker 1: everything that has happened, this feels like such a weird
Speaker 1: dream the past, like forty days, forty days I have
Speaker 1: been in Guarandana for more. Okay, we have to calculate
Speaker 1: the actual days. And I'm not saying that like as
Speaker 1: a badge of honor. I'm saying that, like, help me
Speaker 1: come and help me get out of this. Because when
Speaker 1: did you lock yourself? You probably left yourself up, probably
Speaker 1: like a week before I did, because I was running
Speaker 1: the streets to like that Sunday. I remember, I was
Speaker 1: wearing a mask. I was risking it all, still trying
Speaker 1: to go to work. And then that Monday they like, honey,
Speaker 1: don't come back here, like why are you here? Still
Speaker 1: king all, risking it all on the dirty trains. Okay.
Speaker 1: So I left work and I have it here on
Speaker 1: March tenth because I had something for my children on
Speaker 1: March ten. Okay, So since March ten, I have been
Speaker 1: working from home. Wow, And today is May seven, So
Speaker 1: it's about to be like a full sixty days that
Speaker 1: you've been working from home. It yeah, because then once
Speaker 1: I started hearing so by the way, welcome to life
Speaker 1: is English. We have missed you just as much as
Speaker 1: you have missed us. My goodness, I have missed our listeners.
Speaker 1: I've missed you, honey. I miss like adults interaction part
Speaker 1: I miss girlfriends, me and me, like everything that I could. Like,
Speaker 1: we need to break this thing down. This is almost
Speaker 1: like a welcome back for us, because it really is
Speaker 1: for so long. But you want me to tell you something, Caroline,
Speaker 1: I'm actually glad that we're coming back now when things
Speaker 1: are a little bit more normalized, because I think I
Speaker 1: would have been like a mess if we would have
Speaker 1: started doing this probably like week one or two or three,
Speaker 1: because I was really messed up behind this whole pandemic
Speaker 1: coronavirus COVID nineteen situation. Thank you for being honest, because
Speaker 1: I think that it was a giant misunderstanding that people
Speaker 1: didn't get where. Some people were okay, they were like,
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, I have to work from home. This
Speaker 1: is so exciting, and then some people were really struggling.
Speaker 1: And I think that because of social media, we talked
Speaker 1: about this a lot, because our lives are on display.
Speaker 1: There was so much self dialogue and inner negativity because
Speaker 1: it was like, well, I'm not making three loads of
Speaker 1: banana bread today, and Christie Teagan is making three loads
Speaker 1: of banana bread, and she has her kids doing artwork
Speaker 1: and she's being It took a lot for me to
Speaker 1: get my life together and to get my life right
Speaker 1: and to focus on the number one thing, which was
Speaker 1: my family. So You're right, I feel like it would
Speaker 1: have been in disservice to you guys to have these
Speaker 1: like fragmented episodes where we weren't all here for you.
Speaker 1: And now I feel like I can truly give what
Speaker 1: I want to give to you guys, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. So I definitely feel you and it's like
Speaker 1: we're we have more of a clear mind right now
Speaker 1: and we can serve people in a different way because
Speaker 1: I personally feel like at this point I'm more like
Speaker 1: on the other side at the beginning. Like I even
Speaker 1: did some audio and I listened to it and I'm like, wow,
Speaker 1: I sound so vulnerable and so weak and so scared
Speaker 1: and so like uncertain, And that's really not the person
Speaker 1: that I'm used to being or the person that I
Speaker 1: that I like to put forth when we do these podcasts.
Speaker 1: So it's like I'm in a better space now and
Speaker 1: I can probably talk a little bit better to our audience. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean, I think there's a lot of things that
Speaker 1: we can cover, especially like me from the perspective of
Speaker 1: being a mom and having to now juggle the entire
Speaker 1: household and you know, three meals a day, snacks, everything,
Speaker 1: going to the grocery store, the level of anxiety that
Speaker 1: I have because I am the primary like caretaker in
Speaker 1: this home. So the fact that you have to prepare
Speaker 1: yourself to go out there, and you know, this isn't
Speaker 1: gonna be something to where we're like sitting here and
Speaker 1: telling you are woes. But I want you guys to
Speaker 1: kind of just get a picture of what we've been
Speaker 1: going through over the past six seven weeks, because we
Speaker 1: haven't been here with you guys. And it isn't that
Speaker 1: you haven't been top of mind, but it's just sometimes
Speaker 1: you know, it's really important to say I can't do
Speaker 1: all of this. I need to take a step back.
Speaker 1: And it was not just one step back, it was
Speaker 1: just like you were thrust it into like a whole
Speaker 1: new world. Our life was no longer the life that
Speaker 1: we knew. Now you're homeschooling, Now you're preparing meals. It's
Speaker 1: like we went from like okay, you know, we have
Speaker 1: our homes, but we're outside and you know, to like
Speaker 1: the point that it's like, okay, you no longer leave
Speaker 1: your home. Well, no, there was like kind of a
Speaker 1: I wouldn't like. I don't like to use the word
Speaker 1: balance because I don't feel like my life is ever balanced.
Speaker 1: But I feel like I had more balanced prior to
Speaker 1: this than I do now. And I'm actually coming to
Speaker 1: you from my kids situation room, so I see all
Speaker 1: the little peers in the background, and I'm so proud
Speaker 1: of you. You're a good teacher. Yeah right, well we'll see.
Speaker 1: We'll see if they get in the second grade in kindergarten.
Speaker 1: Nobody's don't get left back. Worry about that. That's a
Speaker 1: good day. I was so happy. You know. There are
Speaker 1: some of my friends that have just said, I mean,
Speaker 1: they have thrown up their hands and they're like, bucket.
Speaker 1: My kids. They can play on their iPad all day.
Speaker 1: They can and here's the one thing that I doant like,
Speaker 1: they can resume learning. What school is open again? That
Speaker 1: some of my friends and I'm not doing them, and
Speaker 1: I'm not judging them. But here's the thing, though, honey,
Speaker 1: you know what, everybody knows their limits, and that with
Speaker 1: this whole situation, you didn't know what your limits were
Speaker 1: until you face this whole, this whole thing. So when
Speaker 1: they said that homeschooling was going to become a possibility,
Speaker 1: I said, I need knowing my children and how they operate.
Speaker 1: I need structure. So that night, until eleven o'clock at night,
Speaker 1: when I knew both of them were going to be
Speaker 1: home and we were going to start home schooling, I
Speaker 1: put up I'm gonna show you. I know I can't
Speaker 1: show the listeners, but I put up the alphabet on
Speaker 1: the wall I had. First of all, this looks like
Speaker 1: a whole like Dominican kindergarten that you're at. You know
Speaker 1: those to schools that they have a republic. You really
Speaker 1: have the alphabet up on the world. That's up on
Speaker 1: the wall. I have like their charts, they're reading charts.
Speaker 1: I have like their um they get a morning sticker.
Speaker 1: I had to come up with a whole schedule because
Speaker 1: I said, if I don't do this from the jump,
Speaker 1: these kids will never get on board. And the one
Speaker 1: thing that I said to my friends was this is
Speaker 1: a zero judgment zone. You do you, but feel free
Speaker 1: to tell me what you're going through and know that
Speaker 1: there is zero judgment. If you want to feed your
Speaker 1: kids pop tarts for dinner, have at it. If you
Speaker 1: want to give them leftover mashed potatoes with roast beef
Speaker 1: because that's what you made last night for breakfast, do it. Whatever.
Speaker 1: We need to get through this period, we got to
Speaker 1: just do it. It's a it's pretty much like survival
Speaker 1: of the fittest right now. And that's why I really
Speaker 1: kept stressing to all my listeners and like everyone around me,
Speaker 1: like listen, adaptability and being able to use your survival
Speaker 1: skills is really the only way that we are going
Speaker 1: to get through this. And it's like, yeah, granted, for us,
Speaker 1: it hasn't been like you know, we have been out
Speaker 1: in the streets. We haven't been like, you know, fighting
Speaker 1: COVID face to face. But a lot of people that
Speaker 1: I do know are doing that. You know. It's like
Speaker 1: my friends that work at hospitals, my friends that are nurses,
Speaker 1: my husband who's like an essential worker, like all of
Speaker 1: them are out there every single day. And I'm like
Speaker 1: You're gonna be fine. It's like we became counselors. Also,
Speaker 1: it's like you became a teacher, I became a counselor.
Speaker 1: It's like, does your husband still go out for work? No,
Speaker 1: he doesn't. And that's been another thing that I've had
Speaker 1: to navigate, which we will definitely talk about in the
Speaker 1: upcoming episodes, because my coworker who takes over my studio,
Speaker 1: I'm like, no, no, no, no, no no, this is not
Speaker 1: gonna work. No, you're right. It has changed the entire
Speaker 1: family dynamic. Um. As a person who was there for
Speaker 1: my friends, and you know, I always want to be
Speaker 1: here for them, I've absorbed a lot of their energy
Speaker 1: and a lot of their anxiety of what they're going
Speaker 1: through because I want to listen. I know that they
Speaker 1: need somebody to talk to. But then I left with
Speaker 1: those feelings and then I'm kind of like, what am
Speaker 1: I going to do? So I said, you have your
Speaker 1: own feelings also, So it's just like it's like if
Speaker 1: you're holding a cake in your hands, you're trying to
Speaker 1: balance it, and then they put three more on top
Speaker 1: of that one. It's like, okay, and you only have
Speaker 1: the capacity to you know, deal with so many things
Speaker 1: in a day, so I will be honest with you.
Speaker 1: Weeks five and six broke me. Weeks five and six
Speaker 1: were super difficult. I feel that I feel you because
Speaker 1: I feel like that's when they told us another thirty days. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I really was like, what the funk is going on?
Speaker 1: Like is this a dream? And every single morning, like
Speaker 1: for the first two weeks, I would wake up and
Speaker 1: be like, did I dream the pandemic? Like and yeah,
Speaker 1: and then I'm like, Nah, this ship is really happening,
Speaker 1: Like this is something none of us have ever gone through. Right, No,
Speaker 1: It's so true. And even just that like, um, they
Speaker 1: were saying how people are losing sleep and the level
Speaker 1: of anxiety and people. You know, my one girlfriend she
Speaker 1: called me and she said, I don't know what it is.
Speaker 1: I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like, you know,
Speaker 1: I can't focus on anything. And she's describing all of
Speaker 1: these things. And I said, honey, I go, you're you're
Speaker 1: having a panic attack. I said, I'm letting you know
Speaker 1: right now. You need to hang up this phone. You
Speaker 1: need to go and take some deep breaths, go into
Speaker 1: your bathroom, give yourself some time to get yourself back down,
Speaker 1: I said, and then you can call me back. Because
Speaker 1: people are experiencing anxiety that have never experienced it before,
Speaker 1: and now they know. Now they know what it is
Speaker 1: listening and the people with anxiety they're going through it,
Speaker 1: They're like, I'm experiencing anxiety the way I've never had before.
Speaker 1: And it's like just being locked up in your house
Speaker 1: every day. You know, it's like you become anxious here,
Speaker 1: your your emotions are all over the place. But one
Speaker 1: thing I can say, Carolina, is that we've all gone
Speaker 1: through it together. We all understand what everybody's going through.
Speaker 1: And I understand like when someone's frustrated because they have
Speaker 1: to cook a lot, because I'm like, okay, I cook
Speaker 1: a lot too, and they're frustrated they can't do their nails.
Speaker 1: I just did my nails myself. I'm like, Okay, they
Speaker 1: actually look good. What color is that? By the way,
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, it's like a nice little neutral.
Speaker 1: You know, I love me a good neutral. It's actually
Speaker 1: a thought e stark white. See we're on zoom right now,
Speaker 1: and this is and I apologize for the audio quality.
Speaker 1: This is part of the reason why we haven't been
Speaker 1: recording is because I don't have the capability to plug in.
Speaker 1: And this is all behind the scenes things, but just
Speaker 1: the ship I'm shipping you and Mike. If you won't
Speaker 1: plug you next time, I can get one from Amazon. Yes, okay, good,
Speaker 1: but but no, actually, if you can send me the
Speaker 1: model and then I'll just get that one. But but yeah, no,
Speaker 1: you're right, you're talking about things like do are you
Speaker 1: the type of person that orders out for a long time,
Speaker 1: for a long period of time. I think that's why
Speaker 1: I was so overwhelmed. I was not comfortable with ordering now, Oh, Karlina,
Speaker 1: I ordered out like twice because of like you know
Speaker 1: that day that I'm yo, I'm ready to quit, like
Speaker 1: this ship at the end, I hate you. Like those
Speaker 1: two times was when I ordered out because I was
Speaker 1: like my wits end. I'm like, I don't want to
Speaker 1: cook anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I
Speaker 1: don't want to be inside anymore. Like I feel like
Speaker 1: mentally it's affected me a lot. It's weird because I
Speaker 1: always sew myself as like a strong person and nothing
Speaker 1: was gonna break me. But this you still are? You
Speaker 1: still are I don't think you should discount yourself like that.
Speaker 1: You know, I think that it's but this is the
Speaker 1: reality of it. That is the internal dialogue that we
Speaker 1: have in our heads. You know, I thought I was
Speaker 1: a strong person or I thought I could get through this. Well,
Speaker 1: you don't know until you're there. So now the way
Speaker 1: that you're dealing with it, I think in hindsight, you'll
Speaker 1: look back and be super proud of yourself with the
Speaker 1: things that you managed to do, with the way that
Speaker 1: you managed to handle yourself. Um, something that I have
Speaker 1: done and that I've made sure every single week. You know,
Speaker 1: we are very fortunate. You have known. I have Mark,
Speaker 1: I have my two babies. My single friends have been
Speaker 1: going through a whole other experience. And I looked at
Speaker 1: my husband and I said to him my two very
Speaker 1: very close, close girlfriends, and I said, please, if I
Speaker 1: don't remember, remind me to check in on them every
Speaker 1: single week, I said, because these girls are going through
Speaker 1: this alone. And I know I get crazy. My husband
Speaker 1: drives me crazy, my kids drive me nuts, you know,
Speaker 1: but it's like, just think about it, all of that activity,
Speaker 1: to not have any interaction except for when you go
Speaker 1: to the grocery or when you're getting a delivery that
Speaker 1: has to be difficult. No, it definitely is difficult. You
Speaker 1: know what's crazy, It's like Bella has been you know, quarantining,
Speaker 1: so I couldn't believe it. Why did he come over?
Speaker 1: I was, you know, because for whatever reason, we just
Speaker 1: kept thinking like this is gonna end next week, and
Speaker 1: next week is gonna end next week, and we just
Speaker 1: get thinking. For those new listeners who don't know, Bella is,
Speaker 1: Honey's her sister. She's gorgeous, She's a beauty blogger. She's
Speaker 1: just like the jam. I love her. But I could
Speaker 1: not believe when I was looking on social media, I said,
Speaker 1: what is this girl doing at her own place? I
Speaker 1: know she was there, she was by herself. So it's like,
Speaker 1: for whatever reason, you know, I started feeling sick and
Speaker 1: I was like, I have Corona, have Corona, have Corona.
Speaker 1: So I went and got tested. So I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm negative, I can go see Bella. So I went
Speaker 1: to see her, and you know what's so crazy? When
Speaker 1: she saw me, she like literally broke down in tears.
Speaker 1: It was like she was sobbing because she had not
Speaker 1: seen a loved one in a month. Like I was
Speaker 1: holding her like if she was a child, and she
Speaker 1: was like, I'm sorry, I'm crying. I'm sorry, I'm crying.
Speaker 1: I'm like, you don't have to be sorry that you're crying.
Speaker 1: I understand what's happening. You haven't felt loved, touch, affection,
Speaker 1: you haven't seen family and so long that you're so
Speaker 1: overwhelmed with emotion right now. So I feel you when
Speaker 1: when you say you got to check on your single friends,
Speaker 1: because at least I get to fight with noony whenever
Speaker 1: I feel like it. But she's just alone walking even
Speaker 1: having that that person, that physical, that body that personally's
Speaker 1: right next to you, you know, it's having that that
Speaker 1: human connection is so important, and I think that people
Speaker 1: forget about that. Right now, we're about to be interrupted
Speaker 1: by my child that I told not to come and
Speaker 1: interrupt me. But yes, what do you need? Yes, you
Speaker 1: may have a milkshakee with cookies yea and astra to
Speaker 1: oh the snack game cookies. You guys have no idea. Okay,
Speaker 1: So I have a four in a six year old
Speaker 1: and I thought I thought I was on my A
Speaker 1: game with the snacks monitoring them. No, I thought I
Speaker 1: am the house that you want to come to. We
Speaker 1: have snacks of all kinds. I got granola bars, I
Speaker 1: got and I got like the good stuff too. You
Speaker 1: know what I mean, because I grew up in a
Speaker 1: house that did not have snacks. I told you my
Speaker 1: mom used to buy Jenneric the black and white box.
Speaker 1: We do get lucky charms for breakfast to a exactly.
Speaker 1: She's like the way, you know, so that there was
Speaker 1: left over from last night. So my mom never believed
Speaker 1: in sax and I'm the opposite. So these kids, all
Speaker 1: they do is fucking eat all day long. They eat breakfast, Mommy,
Speaker 1: can I have a snack? And says you just had breakfast? Well,
Speaker 1: I want a snack, I said, okay, they're growing boys.
Speaker 1: They have a yogurt Mommy, can I have another snack? Now?
Speaker 1: They want fresh fruit? Mommy, can I have another snack? Now?
Speaker 1: They want a granola bar. This ship goes on all
Speaker 1: day long, kind of they are I cannot order it
Speaker 1: fast enough to how many questions that you think they
Speaker 1: ask you a day? The questions, Oh my gosh, I
Speaker 1: can only imagine the questions are popping in this house. Okay,
Speaker 1: and they're and they're like, you know, they're children. That's
Speaker 1: a whole other subject. Like in a whole other episode
Speaker 1: is talking to your kids about COVID nineteen because now
Speaker 1: um Astre says, I'm gonna wash my orange really good
Speaker 1: because it probably he has a coronavirus. And I said, no, Ashure,
Speaker 1: it doesn't, you know, trying to explain it to them.
Speaker 1: But like, the food issue for me has just been
Speaker 1: so over. I've never thought more about food, and I
Speaker 1: think that once this is over, I want to have
Speaker 1: to think about food again, because it's smart. I do
Speaker 1: not want to think about food again. There are so
Speaker 1: many people who have learned how to cook, and they're
Speaker 1: learning so many things. I don't want to learn. I'm done.
Speaker 1: I'm done. I want them to fend for themselves. Listen, Carolina.
Speaker 1: The other day I went to sleep with no dinner.
Speaker 1: I say, I'm sick of food. I am sick of eating.
Speaker 1: I don't want to think about it anymore. I don't
Speaker 1: want to cook it. I don't want nothing to do
Speaker 1: with it. I had ramen that night. I was like
Speaker 1: this ghetto ninety and ramen is all I'm doing. I
Speaker 1: don't have it in me. I just don't have it
Speaker 1: in me. Can I tell you that I have become
Speaker 1: a ramen master. I put cilantrow in my ramen. I
Speaker 1: put a little egg in that bitch a little bit
Speaker 1: of I was so mad I didn't put nothing in it.
Speaker 1: And then people started like sending me that ramen. Somebody
Speaker 1: had hot dog, somebody had um scallions. I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: you gotta add the protein. Girl, we gotta put you
Speaker 1: on the ramen game. That thing is right. But is
Speaker 1: this like good ramen or is this like noodle ramen? No?
Speaker 1: I actually I take offense for you to say like
Speaker 1: good ramen, good ramen is top ramen. Honey, Okay, I
Speaker 1: just want to make sure I'm not missing anything here
Speaker 1: because I'm not flavored. I do not enjoy the beef,
Speaker 1: and I do chicken ramen with an egg. I cut
Speaker 1: up cilantro. I do well, yeah, I do um a
Speaker 1: little bit of worce. Sister, catchup, it is it is
Speaker 1: a whole meal. Okay, So then that way I don't
Speaker 1: feel guilty. I'm like, I got a little bit of
Speaker 1: vegetables in here. I got a little bit of a
Speaker 1: little quail egg in here. I mean, well, that's like
Speaker 1: a super fancy like with the kail egg, you know,
Speaker 1: So I feel like, right now, we're just catching up
Speaker 1: with each other, and I want people to know. I
Speaker 1: know that this is kind of like a little bit
Speaker 1: des joined it, but you have to understand it, like,
Speaker 1: Honey and I are just getting to talk to each other.
Speaker 1: We have spoken on the phone, but it hasn't been
Speaker 1: the same now, but I think they welcome it. I
Speaker 1: think they're really gonna want to know, like where our
Speaker 1: heads is at right now, what we've been doing. What
Speaker 1: are the things that you know have been I guess
Speaker 1: bothering us the most because they always hit me up.
Speaker 1: And you know, I've been able to connect with people
Speaker 1: in such a different way during the pandemic. I didn't
Speaker 1: realize I was really like that pressed for time. And
Speaker 1: it's like now I can FaceTime people. I can call
Speaker 1: my mom on the phone for an hour and forty
Speaker 1: minutes to talk about which sewing machines she wants for
Speaker 1: Mother's Day. I'm like, yo, I really had no time before. See,
Speaker 1: and I'm the opposite. I'm sorry to cut you off,
Speaker 1: but go ahead finish your thought because I want to
Speaker 1: tell you why I'm I'm kind of the opposite. No.
Speaker 1: Now it's like I'm available whoever wants to talk, whoever
Speaker 1: wants to FaceTime, whoever wants to like DM and I
Speaker 1: even answer my d ms with like video messages whenever
Speaker 1: my face is enough. I've really been able to like
Speaker 1: connect with people during this time period, and that's one
Speaker 1: of the things I'm really grateful for. Yeah, it's opposite
Speaker 1: for you, opposite UM. I feel like I'm in front
Speaker 1: of a screen from five o'clock in the morning until
Speaker 1: three o'clock in the afternoon. So because remember I'm getting
Speaker 1: up it's still at four forty five to do the
Speaker 1: morning show. When I'm doing the morning show, I'm looking
Speaker 1: at a screen a skype with UM with Greg T
Speaker 1: and Colleen, So I have that for four hours. Then
Speaker 1: right as soon as i'm done with them nine thirty,
Speaker 1: I start homeschooling with the boys, so I'm kind of
Speaker 1: like running upstairs to set them up. All I'm still
Speaker 1: doing the morning show. I'm looking at their screens with
Speaker 1: them until noon. We break for lunch. At noon, we
Speaker 1: come back for other classes at one. I'm not done
Speaker 1: until two thirty three o'clock. Sometimes, well, that's the problem, Carolina.
Speaker 1: You want to be doing a full day of school.
Speaker 1: If I was a mom, I'd be like, yeah to
Speaker 1: half a day to day, we do fun Fridays. I
Speaker 1: did finally let up and I said, you know what
Speaker 1: fun fridays. But but no, they actually have zooms with
Speaker 1: their teachers that they have to be in attendance. That's
Speaker 1: what people don't underspread and every single day, and there
Speaker 1: are printouts, there are worksheets. So not only do I
Speaker 1: have to print out the worksheets for both boys, I
Speaker 1: have to take pictures of them and send them to
Speaker 1: the teachers sometimes to have them see their progress. It's
Speaker 1: not because they're like grading them. They want to know,
Speaker 1: like if you're child having difficulty telling time, or you know,
Speaker 1: that's the unit that they're working on right now. But
Speaker 1: then the beautiful part of it is that typically I
Speaker 1: wouldn't really know what he was doing. I'd help him
Speaker 1: with his homework. I help my older one with his homework.
Speaker 1: I'd go over letters with my younger one. But now
Speaker 1: I'm really in the mix, and now I can really
Speaker 1: see what their strengths and their weaknesses are. So I'm
Speaker 1: looking at it as a gift. So when it comes
Speaker 1: after three o'clock and my friends want to face time
Speaker 1: or zoom or do a happy hour. I'm like, man,
Speaker 1: I am tapped out. I want to look at a screen,
Speaker 1: even TV. I am spent. So you know, there's a
Speaker 1: lot of ways that people are been with it. I'll
Speaker 1: be honest, I mean, totally truthful. I've been drinking a
Speaker 1: whole lot more than I normally do. I have been
Speaker 1: aware of my drinking, not to the point where it's
Speaker 1: anything to be concerned about. But I even say to
Speaker 1: Mark anything, I'll drink tequila. I will. I looked at
Speaker 1: our bar and I said, we gotta freshen this thing up.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take care of it, because you know, Mark
Speaker 1: doesn't drink with me, and you know the list stores
Speaker 1: are essentials, like you're good totally. So I've just been
Speaker 1: red wine, you know what it is. I do think
Speaker 1: that it eases me out a little bit, like nips.
Speaker 1: That's what of women are like wine. Wine. Wine. That's
Speaker 1: why there's so many wine memes, wine bars. It's true
Speaker 1: wineries because as women, we tend to lean on wine
Speaker 1: to like unwind and as a little like you know,
Speaker 1: it's like a little reward at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: like a good glass of wine. Yeah, believe the hype
Speaker 1: because it's true. We definitely imbbe and it does like
Speaker 1: kind of settle you down. So I did say to
Speaker 1: my husband, I go, look, you know, I've been drinking
Speaker 1: a lot. I want to make sure that I'm like
Speaker 1: fully present that I want to remember these times. That's
Speaker 1: so cool that that you're that aware, like you know,
Speaker 1: you can say something like that, so you know what
Speaker 1: for me it's like. And also you know, I'm constantly,
Speaker 1: like you know, watching my weight. And so I said,
Speaker 1: you know, one glass of one night, not a big deal.
Speaker 1: How many pounds did you yourself? I've gained three solid
Speaker 1: pounds to three solid pounds and nod. He said that's
Speaker 1: not bad. No, he's like, oh that's not bad. No,
Speaker 1: it's just just wait wait because we're not honey. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna put honey onto someone. Did you have one of
Speaker 1: these bottles right here? You don't know what this is? No,
Speaker 1: I don't know. Okay, I know what I'm getting honey
Speaker 1: for her birthday. First of all, my birthday is in December. Girls,
Speaker 1: send me the link so I could buy this. Okay,
Speaker 1: what is it? These are these bottles? And so what
Speaker 1: I've been doing is um so it involved with the drinking.
Speaker 1: And I said to my husband, I said, look, you
Speaker 1: know I can have a class of wine and I
Speaker 1: it's just you know, there are some people who are
Speaker 1: finishing bottles of wine and I I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1: But you don't need rehab after that. If you're doing
Speaker 1: the whole bottle of day, girl, please, are you kidding me?
Speaker 1: Rehab sounds like a dream right now. I know I'm
Speaker 1: not making light of the subject, but like to be
Speaker 1: on my own, to have like to work on myself
Speaker 1: would be so amazing. So what I said is, I'm
Speaker 1: committed to making sure that I drink sixty four ounces
Speaker 1: of water every single day. I only have to fill
Speaker 1: this up twice and I know that I get my water.
Speaker 1: I want to try to incorporate as much self care
Speaker 1: as I can without being obnoxious or getting in my
Speaker 1: head about it. You know what I'm saying. No, No,
Speaker 1: the most definitely getting your water in it is. You
Speaker 1: know what, That's so tiny compared to the stuff you
Speaker 1: probably used to do before between you know, massages and
Speaker 1: hair and workout in yoga, yoga. Water is the basics, Carolina,
Speaker 1: You're not totally I'm getting back to basics. You know.
Speaker 1: And so that's why I've been like making sure that
Speaker 1: I'm like taking care of like the little things that
Speaker 1: I can take care of. But then again I said,
Speaker 1: I'm being very harsh on myself. Again, I was like
Speaker 1: being very critical, like why do you need to have
Speaker 1: a glass of wine today? And said, you know what,
Speaker 1: if you feel like having a glass of wine, have
Speaker 1: the glass of wine. Like you're not being kind to yourself.
Speaker 1: You're telling everybody else what they need to get through it,
Speaker 1: and you're not allowing yourself that same freedom. No, definitely,
Speaker 1: if you want the wine. Drinking wine. I actually only
Speaker 1: had like three drinks the whole quarantine. I'm not a
Speaker 1: break Like I don't like to drink alone for whatever reason.
Speaker 1: It's like if I drink alone, I just feel like
Speaker 1: a total weird No like somebody, I just feel like
Speaker 1: a weird like unless other people have a drink. I
Speaker 1: would never fix myself a drink by myself at home.
Speaker 1: And then you know, I'm drinking with you. I'm a
Speaker 1: zoom you and we're gonna drink on zoom. That's what
Speaker 1: we're gonna do. Because it's like I want to drink
Speaker 1: sometimes and it's like like but nobody's drinking. Like, how
Speaker 1: do I look making myself a martini right now? Nudy
Speaker 1: doesn't drink with you because Mark doesn't drink with me. No, no,
Speaker 1: he doesn't really drink with me. He's not a big drinker.
Speaker 1: Unless we have people over, then I'll have a drink.
Speaker 1: But it it's like just me and him. He's trying
Speaker 1: to drink. Like for for Sinco de Mayo, I made
Speaker 1: like a Corvo and classes margarite. I drank like three
Speaker 1: SIPs and then in the morning I found it by
Speaker 1: the window. I was like, oh ship. I didn't finish
Speaker 1: the drink really, but that's because I felt bad. It
Speaker 1: was just me drinking. Yeah, no, not this girl. I
Speaker 1: have no shame. I will sit there. I'll tell my
Speaker 1: Actually I told my kids I need more ice. Now
Speaker 1: they know that I like to freshen up my ice
Speaker 1: of Mommy, do you need more ice for your wine?
Speaker 1: Mama needs some ice jingle, it's a white wine, sprints er, honey, Yes,
Speaker 1: go get me three cubes. Okay, and make sure that
Speaker 1: they're connected because I like them all connected, so they
Speaker 1: stay right there. But it has been you know, I
Speaker 1: think that again when we look back on it. In hindsight,
Speaker 1: it's been a beautiful time. It's been a challenging time.
Speaker 1: It's been difficult, it has been rewarding, and there have
Speaker 1: been a number of different emotions, and I think that's
Speaker 1: why it's a lot for us to handle. Oh yeah, emotional.
Speaker 1: It's like an emotional roller coaster because some days like, well,
Speaker 1: I'm just happy I don't have Corona, and then the
Speaker 1: next day you're like, I'm just so mad I can't
Speaker 1: get my ghanas. You know, So what are you doing
Speaker 1: about your gunnas? Girl? What are you doing? I can't
Speaker 1: see them from here. Good. I'm not doing a thing, Carolina.
Speaker 1: When I say you, I'm not doing a thing, it's
Speaker 1: like I need everything I need like a petty. I
Speaker 1: don't cut my fingernails short, my toes short, and that's
Speaker 1: just my eyebrows are what it is. I'm not even
Speaker 1: trying because it's just like, what's the point. I looked
Speaker 1: like circ this will lay up in this fish like
Speaker 1: a contortionist trying to do my own toenails. I swear
Speaker 1: to you, I had my leg up here and I
Speaker 1: had my arm on underneath, and I had to like
Speaker 1: get the right angle to try to get my own petticure.
Speaker 1: It was something else, and I have no found respect
Speaker 1: for these people. Oh for sure, I said, I go,
Speaker 1: these dogs are barking so loud. I need to take
Speaker 1: care of business. So I got down to it and
Speaker 1: I did. I cut up short. I was just like,
Speaker 1: this is what it is. It's gonna be the best
Speaker 1: that I can do. And I think that's the general theme,
Speaker 1: like of this first episode back, is that we're all
Speaker 1: doing the best that we can do. We really are,
Speaker 1: and we're all trying to keep it together and you know,
Speaker 1: just to not fall apart, especially like for you, like
Speaker 1: people with children. And I'm like, okay, I'm like super
Speaker 1: stressed out. I'm bugging out about having to work all
Speaker 1: day and cook all day and clean all day and
Speaker 1: and everything that I ever knew was taken from me
Speaker 1: now I can only imagine having two kids to also homeschool,
Speaker 1: Like I give it to you guys, like I think, yeah,
Speaker 1: I think the thing that you know, people wonder. I've
Speaker 1: been asked by people, you know, what, are you more
Speaker 1: concerned about what your boys? Are you concerned about their education?
Speaker 1: Are you concerned about, you know, um, them not being
Speaker 1: in a social setting, and I think that it's it's twofold.
Speaker 1: The socialization is super concerning. My kids are at an
Speaker 1: age where they don't know how to FaceTime. They're friends,
Speaker 1: so they'll say, Mommy, I want to see writer, and
Speaker 1: I'll call Writer's mommy and I'll say, hey, can you
Speaker 1: you know? Do you mind if they do a FaceTime?
Speaker 1: They'll get on the FaceTime and they'll giggle and then
Speaker 1: they like won't say anything. So for me, the bigger
Speaker 1: thing is how are we going to ease back into
Speaker 1: society with these kids, with ourselves knowing the different limitations,
Speaker 1: you know what. I think that it really is going
Speaker 1: to be a learning lesson to us. We're gonna have limitations. Americans,
Speaker 1: for the longest time, we've been respected, revered. People always say, oh, America,
Speaker 1: New York City, the greatest city in the world, which
Speaker 1: I truly believe. Super freedom. But yeah, exactly, some of
Speaker 1: our freedoms have been taken away. And I think that's
Speaker 1: what's going to be difficult as we start to reintegrate
Speaker 1: into society and get back into things. Um. I think
Speaker 1: that people are gonna have to pack a lot of patients,
Speaker 1: and I think it's really gonna show true colors for
Speaker 1: a lot of people, and we're gonna have to work together,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like, it's just everybody's gonna
Speaker 1: have to be respectful, everybody's gonna have to be mindful.
Speaker 1: It's just gonna have to be like a really a
Speaker 1: group effort, like when we get on the trains, in
Speaker 1: the street, in the store, in the restaurants, like we're
Speaker 1: just all going to have to come together, and you know,
Speaker 1: act like it's civilized adults that are conscious that we
Speaker 1: have this new virus that's gonna live with us forever.
Speaker 1: It's not going away. So now when it comes out
Speaker 1: time and they say okay, buildings opened up, everybody come
Speaker 1: back in, do you know? Yeah exactly. Don't you have
Speaker 1: a little bit of hesitation about going back into the
Speaker 1: city or are you all in? Because there are some
Speaker 1: people who are like, I'm ready to go. I want
Speaker 1: this to end. Um. I don't know. What scares me
Speaker 1: is the train. It's not even like in the building
Speaker 1: because I'm not want to be on top of people,
Speaker 1: so I don't see myself like you know, oh my god,
Speaker 1: we have a problem with that, honey. If you were
Speaker 1: on top of all the people, okay, but being on
Speaker 1: the train scares me, like it really does, especially the
Speaker 1: subway then New York New New Jersey Transit not too much.
Speaker 1: Plus it's just like you're gonna be wearing a mask
Speaker 1: or whatever the case may be. But I kind of
Speaker 1: like adapted to working from home, Like I don't think
Speaker 1: I wanna go back and be there full time. It's
Speaker 1: like now it's like I can be working by eight
Speaker 1: am versus before where it would take me till ten
Speaker 1: o'clock in the morning to make into work. So I
Speaker 1: feel like my my worktime is maximized now. I just
Speaker 1: think a lot of people and a lot of companies,
Speaker 1: and this is something that you know, there are people
Speaker 1: who are probably listening who have been furloughed or who
Speaker 1: don't have a job at all, and that's a whole
Speaker 1: other discussion, you know, the unemployment issue. But um, I
Speaker 1: think that this is going to definitely change the way
Speaker 1: that companies operate. I think our company will have to
Speaker 1: reevaluate kind of who is an essential person to have
Speaker 1: downtown in New York in one of the most expensive
Speaker 1: neighborhoods in Manhattan, you know. And I think that as
Speaker 1: we kind of go through this. I don't think we're
Speaker 1: gonna see ourselves in that building all together until I
Speaker 1: don't know, we're No, they're definitely gonna stagger like the people,
Speaker 1: like some come in the morning, some come in after you.
Speaker 1: I think, like on air personalities, now that we have
Speaker 1: the capability of doing it from home, they're probably going
Speaker 1: to keep us this way, considering that they don't want
Speaker 1: anybody to get sick and then be out. So it's
Speaker 1: like they don't want they don't want Carolina to catch
Speaker 1: Corona and then we have to work for a month
Speaker 1: because they do. Who's going to do her morning? So
Speaker 1: it's like we gotta keep Carolina nice and safe, and
Speaker 1: where is better than in her home? So I think,
Speaker 1: like on Air Personalities will probably like the last people
Speaker 1: that go back to that building. Well, I can't tell
Speaker 1: you enough how glad I am that we finally got
Speaker 1: it together, that we are back, that we are together again,
Speaker 1: that we have more episodes all the way for you guys,
Speaker 1: And we have missed you, like I said, just as
Speaker 1: much as you have missed up, maybe even more. Um.
Speaker 1: But yeah, we want to get all of your comments.
Speaker 1: Tell us what you're going through, send us kind of
Speaker 1: what the situations are that you're facing. Will be happy
Speaker 1: to help you if we can't provide you with some insight.
Speaker 1: I know that we're not, you know, professionals, but we're
Speaker 1: here for you and you can always reach out to us.
Speaker 1: I'm at the Real Carolina on all social and you
Speaker 1: can hit me on I am Honey German on Instagram
Speaker 1: and yeah, we'll listen. It won't be the best advice.
Speaker 1: There will be some type of advice exactly exactly. Maybe
Speaker 1: you can take a little bit of what Honey says
Speaker 1: and a little bit of what I say and you
Speaker 1: make it your own and then also follow at l
Speaker 1: I spanguish. That's our what what is it? What is
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Speaker 1: send us an email Life in Spanguish podcast at gmail
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Speaker 1: safe and that you're listening and that you are keeping
Speaker 1: us company. We appreciate you so so much, and we
Speaker 1: have so many more things to talk about, so I
Speaker 1: cannot wait to get right into it with you. Do
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