WEBVTT - Dating 101: Don't be Be a Psycho...Part 2 0:00:19.720 --> 0:00:24.560 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and 0:00:24.600 --> 0:00:28.280 I'm Miila. Happy Wednesday, Happy home Day. 0:00:29.360 --> 0:00:29.760 What's up? 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:32.040 Oh well, you know. 0:00:32.360 --> 0:00:35.320 Day four, four undred and twenty six hundred of quarantines. 0:00:35.720 --> 0:00:39.199 Yeah, great, everything's great. I almost died today, hell on 0:00:39.240 --> 0:00:41.600 a hike, which is for real, Like I'm not kidding. 0:00:41.920 --> 0:00:45.280 Did you relay on the floor? Basically? I really feared 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:47.360 for my life, Like I honestly was going to give up, 0:00:47.440 --> 0:00:49.120 and I was like, we just need to call someone 0:00:49.159 --> 0:00:49.839 to handle this. 0:00:51.000 --> 0:00:53.640 Did somebody come to know we had figured out? Because 0:00:54.240 --> 0:00:56.040 one did that consists of you finishing the hype? 0:00:57.160 --> 0:01:01.480 Yeah? This was like not like red summer, bitch, because 0:01:01.520 --> 0:01:05.400 I was out in the terrain. It looks so I 0:01:05.480 --> 0:01:08.480 am summer. Did you have an hur top one? I 0:01:08.520 --> 0:01:10.480 had only a sports because I thought I was like 0:01:10.760 --> 0:01:13.000 a little window of I only had a sports cause 0:01:13.000 --> 0:01:14.640 I thought I was just going for a light jog 0:01:14.760 --> 0:01:16.440 and then take some cute pictures and a hike up, 0:01:16.720 --> 0:01:18.560 like I know it was going to be like a 0:01:18.360 --> 0:01:21.520 good hill. Where'd you go in West Hills? 0:01:21.920 --> 0:01:23.240 Were hiking trails over there. 0:01:23.360 --> 0:01:26.000 It's like near my mom's house, And it was fucking crazy. 0:01:26.440 --> 0:01:29.400 How long did it take two hours? Because we got stuck, 0:01:29.560 --> 0:01:32.640 We got trapped. We walked, we typed up this hill 0:01:32.640 --> 0:01:34.360 and I was like, okay, this ship is really fucking hard. 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:35.840 But I'm like this is gonna be so good for 0:01:35.920 --> 0:01:38.160 my ass, So I was all for it. We get 0:01:38.200 --> 0:01:39.479 to the top of the hill and make my brother 0:01:39.560 --> 0:01:41.640 take pictures of me and a shit. Then he has 0:01:41.640 --> 0:01:43.760 this great idea of like, hey, like you want to 0:01:43.920 --> 0:01:47.320 venture like off across the mountain to see because there's 0:01:47.319 --> 0:01:49.160 another trail that we can get down the mountain. 0:01:49.280 --> 0:01:49.880 Was he somewhere else? 0:01:49.960 --> 0:01:52.400 Was he certain about that? He saw it? And I 0:01:52.520 --> 0:01:54.360 was like whatever, fine. You know, like me and my 0:01:54.400 --> 0:01:56.080 brother don't get to hang out all the time, so 0:01:56.160 --> 0:01:58.400 like I was like, let's do like a brother sisters 0:01:58.480 --> 0:02:00.520 hang out. Fuck it, let's do it and take pictures 0:02:00.560 --> 0:02:05.320 of me and so I we went and I was like, okay, 0:02:05.360 --> 0:02:08.200 this is this is cool. It's cool. Then we get 0:02:08.280 --> 0:02:12.680 to the place to go down, bitch. We start going down, 0:02:12.760 --> 0:02:15.640 and early on in the highke he asked me if 0:02:15.680 --> 0:02:18.480 I needed his gloves, and I was like, why would 0:02:18.480 --> 0:02:20.359 I need your gloves? So he knew what he was doing, 0:02:20.360 --> 0:02:22.240 and I was like, because I was like dying of 0:02:22.280 --> 0:02:23.679 like I was, I couldn't breathe, and I was like, 0:02:23.680 --> 0:02:25.480 I can't breathe. He's my glove. I'm like, why the funk 0:02:25.480 --> 0:02:28.400 would I need a glove to breathe? Not realizing like 0:02:29.120 --> 0:02:31.720 he yeah. Anyway, So we get to like the other 0:02:31.800 --> 0:02:33.880 side of the mountain and we start going down and 0:02:33.960 --> 0:02:39.600 like literally there's like cable link rope to scale the 0:02:39.680 --> 0:02:43.440 mountain to get down, like like a zipline, like a 0:02:43.639 --> 0:02:47.040 like like a rope that you climbed down and you'd 0:02:47.040 --> 0:02:50.000 like kick off and you have to hop down and 0:02:50.040 --> 0:02:52.240 if you let go, you could die. Why would your 0:02:52.240 --> 0:02:53.560 brother bring you on that show with it? And he 0:02:53.560 --> 0:02:55.320 had never been on that part, So how do you 0:02:55.360 --> 0:02:56.480 not need to bring gloves? 0:02:56.520 --> 0:02:56.799 I don't know. 0:02:56.840 --> 0:02:58.480 I think maybe he's gone to like some I don't 0:02:58.520 --> 0:03:01.320 fucking know. Anyway, we get we get down there, and 0:03:01.360 --> 0:03:03.120 I'm like what the fuck? And at first I'm like, Okay, 0:03:03.120 --> 0:03:05.640 I got this. I'm a I'm fucking athletic bitch. No, 0:03:06.480 --> 0:03:08.240 first of all, like my like my hands are all 0:03:08.320 --> 0:03:11.840 red because I was literally scaling the mound with my 0:03:11.919 --> 0:03:15.079 bare hands. Then we finally get to this, we get 0:03:15.120 --> 0:03:17.120 I get down the cable link. We're walking down and 0:03:17.160 --> 0:03:18.960 he's like, turn around, turn around, go back up, go 0:03:19.000 --> 0:03:20.840 back up. He's like, what do you mean go back 0:03:20.880 --> 0:03:22.360 I'm like, what do you mean go backup? There's a snake. 0:03:22.360 --> 0:03:24.160 There's a snake down here. It's huge, it's huge. We 0:03:24.200 --> 0:03:25.560 gotta go back up. I'm like, you want me to 0:03:25.600 --> 0:03:28.480 climb back up the rope? Like what are you talking? 0:03:28.480 --> 0:03:30.320 He's like, yeah, we have to. I was like, cruise, 0:03:30.760 --> 0:03:33.760 there's gotta be another option, Like I can't go back 0:03:33.800 --> 0:03:36.120 up this rope. Then like these like first of all, 0:03:36.200 --> 0:03:38.560 we saw these two white guys hiking in the distance 0:03:38.600 --> 0:03:40.520 and they like were playing like Travis Scott. And then 0:03:40.560 --> 0:03:43.040 at one point they were like, yeah, nigga, we did it. 0:03:43.080 --> 0:03:45.600 And I was like stop, yeah. 0:03:44.960 --> 0:03:47.600 Welcome to Los Angeles. You might die on a hike. 0:03:47.760 --> 0:03:50.200 And also they'll be white boys saying nigga, like while 0:03:50.240 --> 0:03:50.920 you die, like we. 0:03:50.880 --> 0:03:52.880 Did it, nigga, Like that's what he's saying in front 0:03:52.920 --> 0:03:54.680 of you. No, they were afar, but I heard them, 0:03:54.720 --> 0:03:57.800 and me and my brother were like wow, okay, and 0:03:59.040 --> 0:04:02.800 but then we needed their help. Okay, hey nigga, And 0:04:02.840 --> 0:04:04.120 I was like maybe fun of them the whole time 0:04:04.160 --> 0:04:05.640 I was like, oh, the niggas is got they're coming. 0:04:06.160 --> 0:04:07.680 And then I was like, yeah, we actually need these 0:04:07.760 --> 0:04:12.320 niggas help. So these two white boys with no shirts 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:14.760 came down to help their They were like, hey, like 0:04:14.800 --> 0:04:16.799 what's going on and they're like, well, there's a rattle 0:04:16.800 --> 0:04:19.080 snake and they're like, there is, let's go see it. 0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:23.360 You know, white people love danger, and so they went 0:04:23.520 --> 0:04:25.160 down to go see it. They're like, oh, yeah, he's 0:04:25.200 --> 0:04:27.800 only facing inward. No, no, no, you could just jump over it. 0:04:27.880 --> 0:04:29.760 I was like, let's just jump over it because I'm 0:04:29.839 --> 0:04:31.240 not going going back up now. 0:04:31.240 --> 0:04:33.400 If you know your ass chose to jump over a 0:04:33.440 --> 0:04:35.800 snake versus go up and then go up, must have 0:04:35.880 --> 0:04:39.520 been it was this bitch, no even like spiders or anything. 0:04:39.600 --> 0:04:42.800 I bitch, this shit was hard as fuck. So then 0:04:43.120 --> 0:04:46.279 we jump over the snake and then we get down more. 0:04:46.360 --> 0:04:48.479 And mind you, then my brother's trying to keep up 0:04:48.520 --> 0:04:50.200 with them because he like trusts these white boys for 0:04:50.240 --> 0:04:52.800 some reason what and like wants or he wants to 0:04:52.839 --> 0:04:54.520 like he wants them to be in front, but also 0:04:54.600 --> 0:05:00.080 keep up with them to see where they're going. And 0:05:02.240 --> 0:05:03.880 so then he's like trying to keep up with them 0:05:03.880 --> 0:05:05.400 and he's telling me to hurry up. I'm like, Nigga, 0:05:05.440 --> 0:05:07.320 I'm not going to kill myself trying to keep up 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:10.040 with these white boys. We will figure it out. So anyway, 0:05:10.240 --> 0:05:14.159 they they the white boys just openly said nigga about minutes. Great. 0:05:14.240 --> 0:05:16.599 So then they get to the next part and there's 0:05:16.640 --> 0:05:20.039 another fucking rope to go down, bitch, literally, and this 0:05:20.080 --> 0:05:21.480 one's even more dangerous. 0:05:21.520 --> 0:05:24.200 Really, like I'm low, Like, as much as it sounds traumatizing, 0:05:24.200 --> 0:05:25.080 I kind of want to see. 0:05:24.960 --> 0:05:26.400 What I want to do it well, I'll take you 0:05:27.320 --> 0:05:29.880 get gloves. Would have been better if you had gloves. 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:33.240 I just needed to mentally prepare. I was not mental. 0:05:34.839 --> 0:05:36.320 First of all, I didn't have a shirt on, and 0:05:36.480 --> 0:05:39.120 I'm like running through bushes like I got bit up. 0:05:39.279 --> 0:05:43.600 Like anyway, so we get to the second rope and 0:05:43.640 --> 0:05:47.000 I'm like, first of all, the rope was there, it 0:05:47.120 --> 0:05:49.760 just wasn't gonna help. So I found a hole through 0:05:49.800 --> 0:05:53.159 a rock. So I jumped through this hole bypassed the rope. 0:05:53.640 --> 0:05:55.400 Then we get down and we realized there's a whole 0:05:55.440 --> 0:05:59.680 other cliff with another rope and the right side. Yeah, 0:05:59.760 --> 0:06:01.400 and my brother and my brother goes to check it out. 0:06:01.400 --> 0:06:03.120 He's like, yeah, we can't. We're not gonna make it 0:06:03.160 --> 0:06:05.800 down this way. This is this is you guys, this 0:06:05.839 --> 0:06:07.600 isn't going to at this way. He's like, this isn't 0:06:07.640 --> 0:06:09.720 going to work. We're still with the whites. This isn't 0:06:09.760 --> 0:06:12.200 going to work. I mean, I'm with I'm with cruise. 0:06:12.240 --> 0:06:13.960 I would I would follow the whites too. And I 0:06:14.000 --> 0:06:15.640 was like, are you sure it's not going to work? 0:06:15.760 --> 0:06:18.360 Are you sure? And he's like yes, and I was 0:06:18.440 --> 0:06:21.680 like fuck. So we got to climb. So then we 0:06:21.720 --> 0:06:24.359 had to climb back up. I had to scale my way, 0:06:24.400 --> 0:06:27.280 like with my hands back through the hole that I 0:06:27.360 --> 0:06:29.920 jumped through. The white boys had to pick me up. 0:06:31.040 --> 0:06:33.640 Then the other way, then the other white boy like 0:06:33.640 --> 0:06:35.680 they're like, there's got to be another way around. So 0:06:35.760 --> 0:06:39.359 they start like you know, doing assessing the terrain and 0:06:39.400 --> 0:06:41.880 they find a different way and they're like, yeah, yeah, 0:06:41.920 --> 0:06:42.360 this is it. 0:06:42.279 --> 0:06:42.800 This is it. 0:06:43.000 --> 0:06:44.680 So then we're like all right, great, and so then 0:06:44.800 --> 0:06:48.320 like they just leave us. They just fucking they just 0:06:48.440 --> 0:06:50.880 left us, like not we helped them, They did not 0:06:50.920 --> 0:06:51.279 help us. 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:53.600 Said there's an important lesson here, everybody. 0:06:53.200 --> 0:06:55.120 And honestly, I was like, the lesson of the day 0:06:55.240 --> 0:06:59.839 is like, you're out here on your own. I was like, 0:07:00.120 --> 0:07:02.560 you're out here on your mother find the whole time, 0:07:03.160 --> 0:07:05.400 Like when we were looking for help, and like I 0:07:05.480 --> 0:07:07.800 was bitching the whole time. One of the guys was 0:07:07.800 --> 0:07:10.920 like searching the terrain, like he was saying shit for 0:07:10.960 --> 0:07:12.680 like a good five minutes, and we're like hello, and 0:07:12.720 --> 0:07:15.080 he's like, oh, my bad taking pictures for the GRAM. 0:07:15.320 --> 0:07:17.440 I was like, this is the most la shit I've 0:07:17.480 --> 0:07:19.280 ever heard of. People. I'm trying to get the fuck 0:07:19.320 --> 0:07:20.960 out of here. You're taking pictures for the GRAM. 0:07:21.040 --> 0:07:24.360 You have literally painted the perfect picture of exactly where 0:07:24.360 --> 0:07:27.320 we live. Okay, lots of lots of fake outdoors, neess, 0:07:27.440 --> 0:07:29.320 lots of white people saying nigga. 0:07:29.760 --> 0:07:33.840 So then we get finally we follow them, but then 0:07:33.880 --> 0:07:36.560 they leave us because we're going too slow, and I'm 0:07:36.560 --> 0:07:38.720 cursing out my brother because I'm like, yo, first of all, 0:07:38.760 --> 0:07:40.680 I'm not chasing them. Second of all, you have no 0:07:40.800 --> 0:07:43.080 hiking etiquette because you're supposed to be fucking behind me 0:07:43.320 --> 0:07:45.480 just in case I fall. You're supposed to behind me 0:07:45.680 --> 0:07:47.320 when I'm going up, and you're supposed to be in front 0:07:47.320 --> 0:07:49.880 of me when I'm going down. And he's just he's 0:07:49.960 --> 0:07:53.520 twenty and just clueless. So I'm like, all right, we 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:56.160 finally get to like a safe fish place, and there's 0:07:56.160 --> 0:07:59.520 this big ass cave like a serie, like a bitch, 0:07:59.560 --> 0:08:02.120 like a cake, not a cute like not like a 0:08:02.120 --> 0:08:06.080 little petite cave like mountain lions have lived here for 0:08:06.200 --> 0:08:07.880 thousands of years. It's definitely gonna have to check this 0:08:07.880 --> 0:08:09.800 out and report back because I don't believe shit. She's saying, 0:08:10.040 --> 0:08:12.120 did you see my stories? No, oh, you gotta go 0:08:12.120 --> 0:08:15.400 see my stories. I'm not kidding. So the cave has 0:08:15.400 --> 0:08:18.840 this crazy dark hole. I hear creatures, no making sounds. 0:08:18.840 --> 0:08:20.520 I need to hear what kind of sounds they were like, 0:08:20.520 --> 0:08:23.600 they were like doing it, Yes, it was, and it 0:08:23.640 --> 0:08:28.600 was like echoing. I was like, I don't know, no, 0:08:28.920 --> 0:08:30.960 I don't even I can't even like I can't even 0:08:31.000 --> 0:08:33.959 replicate nature sounds. They were just doing weird ship It 0:08:34.040 --> 0:08:36.120 sounds like a large hand. So yes, to the point 0:08:36.120 --> 0:08:37.920 where my brother was like, let's get the fuck out 0:08:37.960 --> 0:08:39.400 of here. Oh he was, And then I was like, well, 0:08:39.400 --> 0:08:40.920 we're already here, so let's take a picture. So that 0:08:41.000 --> 0:08:43.160 I was, and I was very la and made him 0:08:43.200 --> 0:08:47.679 take a picture of me and Finally we made it down. 0:08:47.960 --> 0:08:50.240 Literally two hours later, my daughter and my mom went 0:08:50.280 --> 0:08:52.800 on like a safe hike trail. They were waiting in 0:08:52.800 --> 0:08:55.240 the car for us for an hour. My mom was like, 0:08:55.280 --> 0:08:57.000 there was a car that needed to be My mom 0:08:57.080 --> 0:08:59.040 was like, because we drove to the trail. My mom 0:08:59.120 --> 0:09:01.440 was like, what the fuck were you doing this whole time? 0:09:01.520 --> 0:09:05.040 I was like, Cruise tried to kill me. Like, clearly 0:09:05.040 --> 0:09:08.959 I'm sunburn. I brought it up. So yeah, that was 0:09:09.000 --> 0:09:12.319 my day today, almost died and I'm really happy to 0:09:12.360 --> 0:09:15.520 be here. Wow, I'm happy to see you. Well we 0:09:15.559 --> 0:09:15.839 have done. 0:09:15.840 --> 0:09:18.760 I who've been eaten by an anonymous, unonymous creature in 0:09:18.760 --> 0:09:19.080 the cave? 0:09:19.280 --> 0:09:21.960 No, like for real? It really like. I was like, damn, 0:09:22.440 --> 0:09:28.240 nature is bigger than me. Yeah, it was my nipples 0:09:28.240 --> 0:09:28.640 out again. 0:09:28.760 --> 0:09:33.199 Patreons, do you want to see Jamiala's nipple, which will 0:09:33.240 --> 0:09:35.640 probably be featured on this whole episode because she's basically 0:09:35.679 --> 0:09:39.480 wearing a top that doesn't cover much it's covering. 0:09:42.880 --> 0:09:45.760 Sign up for Patreon backslash Good Mom's Bad Choices for 0:09:46.200 --> 0:09:55.760 Mila's weekly nipslips. Okay, so you're crazy, Cruise try to 0:09:55.840 --> 0:09:59.880 trick you into dying, but you made it just with sunburn, 0:10:00.080 --> 0:10:01.480 blistered hands and. 0:10:01.400 --> 0:10:03.400 In sick bites. Yep, I'm okay. 0:10:03.640 --> 0:10:06.559 And of course, most importantly pictures off for Instagram. 0:10:06.600 --> 0:10:11.520 Absolutely okay, they'll help post them on our Patreon today. 0:10:11.840 --> 0:10:16.199 I oh, I did lashes. I got my lashes done. 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:22.719 Oh okay, let's speaking of crazy ship. This brings us 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:27.800 to today's this week's topic, Don't Be a Crazy Bitch? 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:31.760 Part two? What was there an episode ten Ways not 0:10:31.800 --> 0:10:33.440 to be Oh? Wait, one on one. 0:10:33.679 --> 0:10:36.040 Dating, dating one on one, Don't be a psycho? Okay, 0:10:36.040 --> 0:10:37.840 this is dating one on one Don't Be a Psycho 0:10:37.960 --> 0:10:38.440 Part two? 0:10:39.320 --> 0:10:40.719 Mm hm, Because apparently. 0:10:40.400 --> 0:10:44.240 Because pitches be psycho, I be psycho, and apparently I 0:10:44.320 --> 0:10:49.880 am bitches. It goes in waves, and I know I 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:51.800 talked previously about what do we call him? 0:10:51.800 --> 0:10:56.280 Outdoor bay Wilder Wilder dis Bay, outdoor bay, which. 0:10:56.120 --> 0:10:58.320 Pick one, which I don't. 0:10:58.200 --> 0:11:02.640 Know outdoor Bay. I met a guy on hinge. 0:11:04.320 --> 0:11:06.640 Like a month and a half ago, two months ago, 0:11:06.760 --> 0:11:08.880 before we went to New York, before Corona. 0:11:09.440 --> 0:11:11.520 We had a good day blah blah blah. 0:11:11.559 --> 0:11:13.640 But you know, I don't be really meeting niggas on 0:11:13.760 --> 0:11:16.160 the hinge, so I wasn't really thinking much about it, 0:11:16.720 --> 0:11:21.280 went out of town, acted crazy because I'm crazy, came 0:11:21.360 --> 0:11:24.040 back and we went on a couple of dates. It 0:11:24.160 --> 0:11:28.200 was vivin bomb And now I'm a full blown psycho. 0:11:30.320 --> 0:11:35.400 Yep, are you guys boyfriend girlfriend? No, okay, don't yell 0:11:35.480 --> 0:11:39.679 at me. Second of all, psycho, do you think I am? Well, 0:11:39.679 --> 0:11:41.880 based on the conversations you guys have been having, I 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:50.440 it sounds like boyfriend girlfriend to me. Okay, well that's crazy. Okay, No, okay, okay, 0:11:50.480 --> 0:11:52.480 so this is the cret Okay, if he asked you 0:11:52.520 --> 0:11:53.719 to be his girlfriend, would you say yes? 0:11:56.120 --> 0:11:58.640 Okay, I don't know about that. I've already text like, 0:11:58.679 --> 0:12:01.240 I've already had like three people people message me shit, 0:12:01.320 --> 0:12:03.880 and I'm like, listen, I'm seeing somebody, despite when I've 0:12:03.880 --> 0:12:04.800 text you two weeks. 0:12:04.600 --> 0:12:08.600 Ago, despite all the sexting. You did so much. 0:12:08.400 --> 0:12:12.160 Sexting, and now I'm like, I'm seeing someone thinks that 0:12:12.320 --> 0:12:15.200 really serious, really quickly, and now stop texting me. I 0:12:15.280 --> 0:12:17.160 literally told somebody today He's like, you're supposed to text 0:12:17.200 --> 0:12:17.400 me back. 0:12:17.440 --> 0:12:20.600 I said, I'm distracted. He's like Okay, I like, good, 0:12:20.720 --> 0:12:21.199 you get it. 0:12:22.640 --> 0:12:27.120 Yeah. I've come to the conclusion I am when I 0:12:27.200 --> 0:12:29.000 like someone. It's just not it's not a good look. 0:12:29.080 --> 0:12:29.720 It's not good. 0:12:30.720 --> 0:12:31.760 It's not a good look for me. 0:12:32.559 --> 0:12:35.400 I get crazy, like not crazy, and then like the 0:12:36.200 --> 0:12:39.320 normal sense of crazy, bitches, but just like I'm gonna 0:12:39.320 --> 0:12:39.679 call me back. 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:40.160 Why do you call me? 0:12:40.160 --> 0:12:40.800 I can invite me over? 0:12:40.760 --> 0:12:41.440 Why do you want see me? 0:12:42.080 --> 0:12:45.400 And this person's verily chill, very by himself, very like, 0:12:45.440 --> 0:12:47.960 and like I can tell he's used to being alone. 0:12:48.040 --> 0:12:51.320 And so I'm just a little lommage because I'm crazy. 0:12:52.160 --> 0:12:54.120 Erica called me pray like fourteen times yesterday. 0:12:54.240 --> 0:12:57.840 You called yourself crazy. I was just referming it like 0:12:57.920 --> 0:12:59.840 you just did, like you literally if we can call 0:13:00.200 --> 0:13:02.240 too tight stressing me out, if we could count the 0:13:02.280 --> 0:13:04.360 amount of times you just called yourself crazy, it would 0:13:04.360 --> 0:13:06.280 cancel out anything. That's because I feel crazy when I 0:13:06.320 --> 0:13:06.640 like someone. 0:13:06.679 --> 0:13:09.280 I started to feel crazy because I usually don't like people, 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:13.440 and so liking someone feels out of my nature and 0:13:13.520 --> 0:13:16.840 it just feels uncomfortable. And it's just like this is 0:13:16.960 --> 0:13:20.560 very soon, this is very sudden. Granted, we took like 0:13:20.679 --> 0:13:24.440 e our second our second date, and we like watched 0:13:24.480 --> 0:13:27.920 we just sat in the car and watched the city 0:13:28.040 --> 0:13:31.080 and rolled and made out for like five hours straight, 0:13:31.120 --> 0:13:33.480 which I think anyone will fall in love doing that 0:13:33.520 --> 0:13:37.839 because that's romance. That's everything you need for romance. 0:13:37.920 --> 0:13:41.400 Yeah, eb and views that I brought soup cookies. It 0:13:41.440 --> 0:13:42.720 was great. Yeah, that combo. 0:13:43.559 --> 0:13:45.920 And then we hung out again and we did mushrooms. 0:13:46.880 --> 0:13:48.800 We again, we did another halfy and another time we 0:13:48.960 --> 0:13:52.520 did mushrooms. But mushrooms are super emotional, and I cried. 0:13:52.679 --> 0:13:54.200 I don't know why I cried. I was just feeling 0:13:54.320 --> 0:13:57.640 very safe and very comfortable, and it just got very deep, 0:13:57.760 --> 0:13:58.280 very quickly. 0:13:58.320 --> 0:14:01.600 Well, we were doing a lot of drugs while dating. 0:14:01.880 --> 0:14:04.640 Of course you're getting deep. You're not gonna be grathing 0:14:04.679 --> 0:14:08.960 the surface on Ian mushrooms. Hey, so how about your day. 0:14:09.520 --> 0:14:11.319 It's like, let me tell you about my whole life. Yeah, 0:14:11.360 --> 0:14:13.280 it's like I'm going to tell you everything that everyone 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:17.640 that hurt me, how that hurt me, you will know about. Okay. 0:14:17.679 --> 0:14:21.640 So first he said I was a slut in first grade, 0:14:21.640 --> 0:14:22.760 and I didn't know what that meant. 0:14:23.200 --> 0:14:25.720 No, honestly, that's how I found and he and I cried, 0:14:25.760 --> 0:14:27.520 girnd he just helped me and held me tighter, and 0:14:27.560 --> 0:14:29.600 I was like, I'm in loved and I'm like, maybe 0:14:29.640 --> 0:14:33.200 it's the mushrooms. But on the contrary, the following day 0:14:33.280 --> 0:14:35.600 after the drug the drugs, it's still cool. 0:14:35.680 --> 0:14:39.080 We still like each other and it's great. Really, I 0:14:39.120 --> 0:14:41.080 met some of his friends. My titties. Can I just 0:14:41.720 --> 0:14:45.160 did do one of these for you unless you just 0:14:45.240 --> 0:14:47.560 don't care. I don't Instagram to flow this, but I 0:14:47.600 --> 0:14:50.200 don't know. Instagram is tripping, Okay. I posted a picture 0:14:50.240 --> 0:14:52.160 on vagiant I just did avagiinant. I posted on our 0:14:52.200 --> 0:14:56.240 Stories stopped. Johnson posted a whole, full blown dick like 0:14:56.480 --> 0:14:57.920 it was a dick, and I was like, how the 0:14:57.920 --> 0:14:59.360 fuck are they posting this? But I can't post a 0:14:59.440 --> 0:15:02.320 nug of weed. This is retarded anyway. It's my beef 0:15:02.360 --> 0:15:06.560 with Instagram, and we smoke whatever. It's just, but it's 0:15:06.560 --> 0:15:09.360 in its pure form, not smoking just and it's pure. 0:15:09.480 --> 0:15:12.120 There's a wed pages weed Instagram page canvas. 0:15:12.200 --> 0:15:13.880 Yeah. 0:15:14.040 --> 0:15:18.320 Anyway, you were saying that I'd be psychoned. No, you 0:15:18.360 --> 0:15:19.280 were saying that. 0:15:19.480 --> 0:15:21.440 Oh, then the following days without the drug, you still 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:24.200 like him, You still like each other. We're having mature conversations. 0:15:24.240 --> 0:15:27.800 We're talking about timelines. What's your five year plan? You know, 0:15:27.920 --> 0:15:29.640 where do you see yourself. How soton do you want 0:15:29.640 --> 0:15:31.640 to have kids? He doesn't have any kids. He's forty three. 0:15:31.800 --> 0:15:34.720 You know, I'm just concerned, like I don't even know. 0:15:34.840 --> 0:15:37.840 I mean I do know, I wait. 0:15:37.640 --> 0:15:38.400 What's what. 0:15:40.960 --> 0:15:43.760 He wants kids obviously, right, okay, And I'm like I 0:15:43.840 --> 0:15:46.680 thought I did, and I do, but I'm scared i'd 0:15:46.680 --> 0:15:49.800 be post traumatic baby daddy disorder like as fuck, and 0:15:49.880 --> 0:15:51.760 so that, you know, we talked about that. We talked 0:15:51.800 --> 0:15:55.080 about I don't know, just ship the other niggas don't 0:15:55.080 --> 0:15:58.080 be talking about. I mean, I mean, I've dated people, 0:15:58.360 --> 0:16:01.000 but it's never you never seen it, Like those conversations 0:16:01.200 --> 0:16:03.200 come up because probably I'm dating twelve year olds and 0:16:03.200 --> 0:16:06.200 shit not twelve really, but you know, thirty means twelve. 0:16:08.240 --> 0:16:10.720 So it's like a brought the fresh air. But also 0:16:11.200 --> 0:16:15.120 like I'm distracted, I'm thinking about him. That feels crazy. 0:16:15.320 --> 0:16:17.680 I just you know, I'm not used to being off 0:16:17.720 --> 0:16:20.360 my game like this because you know, go and brush 0:16:20.360 --> 0:16:21.120 your shoulders off. 0:16:26.000 --> 0:16:28.040 Well, I mean, I think you're like, you know, it's 0:16:28.320 --> 0:16:30.680 the beginning. It's always like that. I think when you 0:16:30.800 --> 0:16:35.360 really like someone, you know, it's exciting, it's like it 0:16:35.400 --> 0:16:39.640 feels overwhelming, you know, yeah, that's how I feel. Like, wait, 0:16:40.480 --> 0:16:44.080 so yeah, I mean, yeah, it feels overwhelming. That's how 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:45.840 I felt with Happy Bay when it all started. When 0:16:46.000 --> 0:16:48.880 and I was acting crazy too, you know, like I'm 0:16:48.880 --> 0:16:51.960 just gonna go hang out downtown. Maybe he'll be there 0:16:52.800 --> 0:16:54.360 call me. I know. 0:16:54.400 --> 0:16:56.080 I text Erica that I was in this neighborhood and 0:16:56.120 --> 0:16:57.880 I text I'm like, hey, I'm in the neighborhood and like, 0:16:57.880 --> 0:16:59.560 he didn't text me back for three hours, and I 0:16:59.600 --> 0:17:02.200 was like, what the fuck don't you understand that means? 0:17:02.200 --> 0:17:05.439 And fighting me over Literally that voice came out of 0:17:05.440 --> 0:17:11.040 my mouth. I'm the exorsus. This is crazy. But now 0:17:11.080 --> 0:17:13.439 I get it. And I was totally talking about Erica 0:17:13.440 --> 0:17:15.200 in front of her face when she was like all 0:17:15.240 --> 0:17:17.439 infatuated with Happy Bay last year. 0:17:17.680 --> 0:17:19.280 So now you know how it feels. No, I get it. 0:17:19.320 --> 0:17:20.919 I just I don't think I like this feeling, Like 0:17:20.960 --> 0:17:21.280 I like, I. 0:17:21.280 --> 0:17:23.760 Don't like that feeling. I mean, it's exciting, it is, 0:17:23.800 --> 0:17:26.320 but then it's at least for me. I'm not don't 0:17:26.320 --> 0:17:29.880 I don't want to adopt anything I'm I'm I've encountered, 0:17:29.920 --> 0:17:33.240 but I felt like it was exciting at first, and 0:17:33.240 --> 0:17:34.840 then it never really and you know what it was 0:17:34.880 --> 0:17:36.919 with him though, I never felt totally secure in our 0:17:37.040 --> 0:17:40.760 relationship fully when we were not together, So it just 0:17:40.800 --> 0:17:44.800 I felt anxious anxiety all the time, just anxious, anxious, anxious, anxious, 0:17:44.800 --> 0:17:46.920 like is he gonna call me? I was out with today, 0:17:46.920 --> 0:17:48.960 He hasn't called me yet but seven pm, and like 0:17:48.960 --> 0:17:51.359 ours with out tonight, Like I'm not calling him, Like 0:17:51.440 --> 0:17:52.880 what should I call him? I'm a grown as a woman. 0:17:52.920 --> 0:17:54.600 I can call him, but the fuck I'm texting right 0:17:54.640 --> 0:17:55.760 the fuck now, I'm grown. 0:17:57.160 --> 0:17:58.600 How do you think she responded this like tonight? 0:17:58.680 --> 0:17:59.159 No tomorrow? 0:17:59.200 --> 0:18:01.760 Like she was do you think this means? She's like, bitch, 0:18:01.800 --> 0:18:04.600 I don't know. I'm like, well, he said we should 0:18:04.600 --> 0:18:05.960 watch this movie. What do you think that means? 0:18:05.960 --> 0:18:07.720 Tonight? Another night? Should I ask him? What date should 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:08.320 I schedule it? 0:18:08.920 --> 0:18:12.119 She's like, you were really acting crazy. 0:18:12.240 --> 0:18:14.240 I was like, why don't you just ask him? Why 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:18.080 don't you just say yeah, let me know when? Because 0:18:18.119 --> 0:18:21.520 of my psychonists with that, I've learned how to ask 0:18:21.640 --> 0:18:23.720 things because I had to because I was so psycho. 0:18:23.840 --> 0:18:25.800