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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 1: I'm Miila. Happy Wednesday, Happy home Day.

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Speaker 2: What's up?

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Speaker 1: Oh well, you know.

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Speaker 3: Day four, four undred and twenty six hundred of quarantines.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, great, everything's great. I almost died today, hell on

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Speaker 1: a hike, which is for real, Like I'm not kidding.

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Speaker 1: Did you relay on the floor? Basically? I really feared

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Speaker 1: for my life, Like I honestly was going to give up,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, we just need to call someone

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Speaker 1: to handle this.

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Speaker 3: Did somebody come to know we had figured out? Because

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Speaker 3: one did that consists of you finishing the hype?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? This was like not like red summer, bitch, because

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Speaker 1: I was out in the terrain. It looks so I

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Speaker 1: am summer. Did you have an hur top one? I

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Speaker 1: had only a sports because I thought I was like

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Speaker 1: a little window of I only had a sports cause

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Speaker 1: I thought I was just going for a light jog

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Speaker 1: and then take some cute pictures and a hike up,

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Speaker 1: like I know it was going to be like a

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Speaker 1: good hill. Where'd you go in West Hills?

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Speaker 3: Were hiking trails over there.

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Speaker 1: It's like near my mom's house, And it was fucking crazy.

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Speaker 1: How long did it take two hours? Because we got stuck,

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Speaker 1: We got trapped. We walked, we typed up this hill

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Speaker 1: and I was like, okay, this ship is really fucking hard.

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Speaker 1: But I'm like this is gonna be so good for

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Speaker 1: my ass, So I was all for it. We get

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Speaker 1: to the top of the hill and make my brother

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Speaker 1: take pictures of me and a shit. Then he has

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Speaker 1: this great idea of like, hey, like you want to

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Speaker 1: venture like off across the mountain to see because there's

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Speaker 1: another trail that we can get down the mountain.

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Speaker 3: Was he somewhere else?

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Speaker 1: Was he certain about that? He saw it? And I

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Speaker 1: was like whatever, fine. You know, like me and my

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Speaker 1: brother don't get to hang out all the time, so

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Speaker 1: like I was like, let's do like a brother sisters

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Speaker 1: hang out. Fuck it, let's do it and take pictures

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Speaker 1: of me and so I we went and I was like, okay,

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Speaker 1: this is this is cool. It's cool. Then we get

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Speaker 1: to the place to go down, bitch. We start going down,

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Speaker 1: and early on in the highke he asked me if

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Speaker 1: I needed his gloves, and I was like, why would

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Speaker 1: I need your gloves? So he knew what he was doing,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, because I was like dying of

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Speaker 1: like I was, I couldn't breathe, and I was like,

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Speaker 1: I can't breathe. He's my glove. I'm like, why the funk

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Speaker 1: would I need a glove to breathe? Not realizing like

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Speaker 1: he yeah. Anyway, So we get to like the other

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Speaker 1: side of the mountain and we start going down and

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Speaker 1: like literally there's like cable link rope to scale the

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Speaker 1: mountain to get down, like like a zipline, like a

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Speaker 1: like like a rope that you climbed down and you'd

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Speaker 1: like kick off and you have to hop down and

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Speaker 1: if you let go, you could die. Why would your

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Speaker 1: brother bring you on that show with it? And he

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Speaker 1: had never been on that part, So how do you

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Speaker 1: not need to bring gloves?

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Speaker 2: I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I think maybe he's gone to like some I don't

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Speaker 1: fucking know. Anyway, we get we get down there, and

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Speaker 1: I'm like what the fuck? And at first I'm like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I got this. I'm a I'm fucking athletic bitch. No,

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Speaker 1: first of all, like my like my hands are all

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Speaker 1: red because I was literally scaling the mound with my

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Speaker 1: bare hands. Then we finally get to this, we get

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Speaker 1: I get down the cable link. We're walking down and

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Speaker 1: he's like, turn around, turn around, go back up, go

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Speaker 1: back up. He's like, what do you mean go back

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Speaker 1: I'm like, what do you mean go backup? There's a snake.

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Speaker 1: There's a snake down here. It's huge, it's huge. We

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Speaker 1: gotta go back up. I'm like, you want me to

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Speaker 1: climb back up the rope? Like what are you talking?

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Speaker 1: He's like, yeah, we have to. I was like, cruise,

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Speaker 1: there's gotta be another option, Like I can't go back

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Speaker 1: up this rope. Then like these like first of all,

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Speaker 1: we saw these two white guys hiking in the distance

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Speaker 1: and they like were playing like Travis Scott. And then

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Speaker 1: at one point they were like, yeah, nigga, we did it.

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Speaker 1: And I was like stop, yeah.

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Speaker 3: Welcome to Los Angeles. You might die on a hike.

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Speaker 3: And also they'll be white boys saying nigga, like while

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Speaker 1: Did it, nigga, Like that's what he's saying in front

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Speaker 1: of you. No, they were afar, but I heard them,

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Speaker 1: and me and my brother were like wow, okay, and

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Speaker 1: but then we needed their help. Okay, hey nigga, And

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Speaker 1: I was like maybe fun of them the whole time

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Speaker 1: And then I was like, yeah, we actually need these

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Speaker 1: niggas help. So these two white boys with no shirts

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Speaker 1: what's going on and they're like, well, there's a rattle

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Speaker 1: snake and they're like, there is, let's go see it.

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Speaker 1: You know, white people love danger, and so they went

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Speaker 1: down to go see it. They're like, oh, yeah, he's

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Speaker 1: only facing inward. No, no, no, you could just jump over it.

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Speaker 1: I was like, let's just jump over it because I'm

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Speaker 3: If you know your ass chose to jump over a

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Speaker 3: snake versus go up and then go up, must have

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Speaker 3: been it was this bitch, no even like spiders or anything.

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Speaker 1: I bitch, this shit was hard as fuck. So then

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Speaker 1: we jump over the snake and then we get down more.

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Speaker 1: And mind you, then my brother's trying to keep up

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Speaker 1: like he wants them to be in front, but also

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Speaker 1: keep up with them to see where they're going. And

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Speaker 1: so then he's like trying to keep up with them

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Speaker 1: and he's telling me to hurry up. I'm like, Nigga,

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Speaker 1: I'm not going to kill myself trying to keep up

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Speaker 1: with these white boys. We will figure it out. So anyway,

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Speaker 1: they they the white boys just openly said nigga about minutes. Great.

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Speaker 1: So then they get to the next part and there's

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Speaker 3: Really, like I'm low, Like, as much as it sounds traumatizing,

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Speaker 3: I kind of want to see.

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Speaker 1: What I want to do it well, I'll take you

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Speaker 1: get gloves. Would have been better if you had gloves.

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Speaker 1: I just needed to mentally prepare. I was not mental.

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Speaker 1: First of all, I didn't have a shirt on, and

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Speaker 1: Like anyway, so we get to the second rope and

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Speaker 1: Then we get down and we realized there's a whole

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Speaker 1: and my brother and my brother goes to check it out.

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Speaker 1: He's like, yeah, we can't. We're not gonna make it

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Speaker 1: like fuck. So we got to climb. So then we

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Speaker 1: Then the other way, then the other white boy like

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Speaker 1: So then we're like all right, great, and so then

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Speaker 3: Said there's an important lesson here, everybody.

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Speaker 1: And honestly, I was like, the lesson of the day

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Speaker 1: Like when we were looking for help, and like I

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Speaker 1: was bitching the whole time. One of the guys was

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Speaker 1: I was like, this is the most la shit I've

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Speaker 3: You have literally painted the perfect picture of exactly where

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Speaker 3: we live. Okay, lots of lots of fake outdoors, neess,

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Speaker 1: So then we get finally we follow them, but then

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Speaker 1: cursing out my brother because I'm like, yo, first of all,

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Speaker 1: finally get to like a safe fish place, and there's

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Speaker 1: thousands of years. It's definitely gonna have to check this

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Speaker 1: out and report back because I don't believe shit. She's saying,

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Speaker 1: did you see my stories? No, oh, you gotta go

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Speaker 1: see my stories. I'm not kidding. So the cave has

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Speaker 1: I need to hear what kind of sounds they were like,

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Speaker 1: they were like doing it, Yes, it was, and it

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Speaker 1: I don't even I can't even like I can't even

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Speaker 1: replicate nature sounds. They were just doing weird ship It

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Speaker 1: sounds like a large hand. So yes, to the point

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Speaker 1: where my brother was like, let's get the fuck out

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Speaker 1: of here. Oh he was, And then I was like, well,

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Speaker 1: I was, and I was very la and made him

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Speaker 1: take a picture of me and Finally we made it down.

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Speaker 1: Literally two hours later, my daughter and my mom went

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Speaker 1: on like a safe hike trail. They were waiting in

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Speaker 1: there was a car that needed to be My mom

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Speaker 1: was like, what the fuck were you doing this whole time?

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Speaker 1: I was like, Cruise tried to kill me. Like, clearly

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Speaker 1: I'm sunburn. I brought it up. So yeah, that was

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Speaker 1: my day today, almost died and I'm really happy to

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Speaker 1: be here. Wow, I'm happy to see you. Well we

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Speaker 3: I who've been eaten by an anonymous, unonymous creature in

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Speaker 3: the cave?

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Speaker 1: No, like for real? It really like. I was like, damn,

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Speaker 1: nature is bigger than me. Yeah, it was my nipples

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Speaker 3: Mila's weekly nipslips. Okay, so you're crazy, Cruise try to

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Speaker 3: to today's this week's topic, Don't Be a Crazy Bitch?

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Speaker 1: Part two? What was there an episode ten Ways not

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Speaker 1: to be Oh? Wait, one on one.

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Speaker 3: Dating, dating one on one, Don't be a psycho? Okay,

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Speaker 3: Part two?

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Speaker 1: Mm hm, Because apparently.

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Speaker 3: Because pitches be psycho, I be psycho, and apparently I

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Speaker 3: am bitches. It goes in waves, and I know I

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Speaker 3: talked previously about what do we call him?

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Speaker 1: Outdoor bay Wilder Wilder dis Bay, outdoor bay, which.

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Speaker 3: Pick one, which I don't.

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Speaker 1: Know outdoor Bay. I met a guy on hinge.

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Speaker 3: Like a month and a half ago, two months ago,

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Speaker 1: We had a good day blah blah blah.

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Speaker 3: But you know, I don't be really meeting niggas on

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Speaker 3: went out of town, acted crazy because I'm crazy, came

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Speaker 1: Yep, are you guys boyfriend girlfriend? No, okay, don't yell

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Speaker 1: at me. Second of all, psycho, do you think I am? Well,

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Speaker 1: Why do you call me?

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Speaker 3: Erica called me pray like fourteen times yesterday.

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Speaker 1: Well, we were doing a lot of drugs while dating.

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Speaker 1: It's like, let me tell you about my whole life. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's like I'm going to tell you everything that everyone

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Speaker 3: Like she was do you think this means? She's like, bitch,

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Speaker 3: And then I'm like, I'm so cool, you know I

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Speaker 3: Maybe Like no, it literally literally it literally makes me

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Speaker 3: I want to think about Dannian all night long because

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Speaker 3: you've had a little quarantine action.

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00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:43,040
Speaker 2: Yea.

432
00:19:43,080 --> 00:19:44,960
Speaker 3: It makes me seem like I'm only crazy bitch here.

433
00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:47,399
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm not crazy. Okay, well his time he is.

434
00:19:48,760 --> 00:19:51,159
Speaker 1: I don't think he's crazy. Okay, Well just tell the

435
00:19:51,200 --> 00:19:56,440
Speaker 1: story and I'll say where it is comes in. So, yeah,

436
00:19:56,520 --> 00:19:59,920
Speaker 1: I mean I So I joined Hinge again. You guys

437
00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:03,280
Speaker 1: I think I told you. Yes, they did, and you know,

438
00:20:03,320 --> 00:20:06,400
Speaker 1: I went on my first virtual date, which was interesting.

439
00:20:06,400 --> 00:20:08,639
Speaker 1: It was not with him, even on a series of

440
00:20:08,720 --> 00:20:11,560
Speaker 1: virtual dates too, just with one him and another appe.

441
00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:13,960
Speaker 1: So I'm with one guy and he was like hello,

442
00:20:14,040 --> 00:20:16,560
Speaker 1: greasy on the screen, like greasy as fuck, Like he

443
00:20:16,640 --> 00:20:18,560
Speaker 1: just he told me he just finished cooking, like he

444
00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:21,920
Speaker 1: was perspiring. I was like, what's happening. He's also warned

445
00:20:21,960 --> 00:20:24,240
Speaker 1: me and said he looked bad. He said that, he

446
00:20:24,320 --> 00:20:27,080
Speaker 1: just said, my hair is like outgrown. He was at

447
00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:29,160
Speaker 1: he was true, it was accurate. He didn't look good,

448
00:20:29,480 --> 00:20:32,520
Speaker 1: and for me, I just feel like if you're not

449
00:20:32,640 --> 00:20:35,879
Speaker 1: bald during quarantine, like just don't even do the virtual

450
00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:37,920
Speaker 1: dating thing. Like niggas goes out here fucked up who

451
00:20:37,920 --> 00:20:40,600
Speaker 1: actually have hairlines because they can't get their haircut, and

452
00:20:40,680 --> 00:20:43,840
Speaker 1: when they don't get their haircut, unless you're going unless

453
00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:45,919
Speaker 1: you're like trying to do like j Cole or like

454
00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:49,719
Speaker 1: I don't know, the weekend, it's just not it's not

455
00:20:49,760 --> 00:20:52,359
Speaker 1: a good look for black men out here during quarantine.

456
00:20:52,400 --> 00:20:56,159
Speaker 1: But anyway, I went on that thing. I was like,

457
00:20:56,200 --> 00:20:58,680
Speaker 1: it's cool, Like it was it was like a way

458
00:20:58,720 --> 00:21:00,280
Speaker 1: to hang out that night, you know, I mean, it

459
00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:02,439
Speaker 1: wasn't And you know the reason I liked it too.

460
00:21:02,480 --> 00:21:05,160
Speaker 1: And you know, we talked to Jamila on last week's

461
00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:08,000
Speaker 1: episode and she had basically said that you guys should

462
00:21:08,040 --> 00:21:09,840
Speaker 1: check out last week's episode. It's really good on co

463
00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:14,400
Speaker 1: parenting and just what else were talking about? Quarantine, Yeah,

464
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:17,760
Speaker 1: quarantine dating and most importantly quarantine quin And basically what

465
00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:22,000
Speaker 1: she said was that dating right now has been really

466
00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:24,960
Speaker 1: good for her because she's had been having like really

467
00:21:25,040 --> 00:21:28,200
Speaker 1: deep and like interesting conversations with men because they're home

468
00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:31,280
Speaker 1: right now and they're like not that distracted and they're

469
00:21:31,359 --> 00:21:35,040
Speaker 1: chilling and they actually, you know, it's low. It's low

470
00:21:35,160 --> 00:21:37,440
Speaker 1: commitment too, you know what I mean. It's like now

471
00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:42,520
Speaker 1: it's not no big stress of like impressing someone in persons.

472
00:21:41,440 --> 00:21:43,399
Speaker 3: Just less, there's less bullshit because the truth is like

473
00:21:43,440 --> 00:21:45,000
Speaker 3: when I when I go on a date, even when

474
00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:46,360
Speaker 3: I want to date with this guy, like it was fun,

475
00:21:46,400 --> 00:21:49,080
Speaker 3: I had a good time, but like there's drinks involved.

476
00:21:49,200 --> 00:21:51,720
Speaker 3: It's loud, not necessarily loud, but it's like you're like

477
00:21:51,800 --> 00:21:55,240
Speaker 3: hei and it's just like cool. But when you have

478
00:21:55,359 --> 00:21:58,679
Speaker 3: no choice but to just talk to someone literally in

479
00:21:58,680 --> 00:22:01,639
Speaker 3: a car on the phone, on a FaceTime in the house,

480
00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:04,200
Speaker 3: like you're literally not there's nothing else distracting, you have

481
00:22:04,440 --> 00:22:07,160
Speaker 3: only the conversation, right, So I told.

482
00:22:07,000 --> 00:22:09,680
Speaker 1: Her I didn't really believe her. And then like two

483
00:22:09,720 --> 00:22:12,480
Speaker 1: days later, I went on a hinge date with this

484
00:22:12,520 --> 00:22:14,400
Speaker 1: guy and I can't ever.

485
00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:15,719
Speaker 3: Even down to do like the FaceTime thing.

486
00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:17,480
Speaker 1: I don't know if I would do that. We feel

487
00:22:17,480 --> 00:22:19,640
Speaker 1: so weird about it. You'd rather meet in person. Then

488
00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:22,600
Speaker 1: I feel like it's even it's even better, feed me

489
00:22:22,640 --> 00:22:24,520
Speaker 1: and buy me drinks even better. I don't want to

490
00:22:24,800 --> 00:22:26,480
Speaker 1: sit down talk to you, you know, but I don't I

491
00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:32,080
Speaker 1: don't want to know. Yeah, I'm sure that's great. Okay,

492
00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:36,159
Speaker 1: So yeah, I went on your face time when I

493
00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:39,800
Speaker 1: FaceTime Hinge day with this guy, and you know, I

494
00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:42,560
Speaker 1: had really judged him before, like I had had all that.

495
00:22:42,600 --> 00:22:45,400
Speaker 1: Oh I was here, was it the first time? Yeah? Okay,

496
00:22:45,600 --> 00:22:49,120
Speaker 1: were here? I was here. Yeah, I had like had

497
00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:53,439
Speaker 1: all I had had preconceived. Notion was yeah, basically like

498
00:22:53,520 --> 00:22:55,960
Speaker 1: she was in a bitchy mood. Basically we had matched

499
00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:58,000
Speaker 1: like a long time ago, like a very long time ago,

500
00:22:58,080 --> 00:23:00,159
Speaker 1: and like we had planned a date. He canceled on

501
00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:02,480
Speaker 1: the same day and it irritated me and I just

502
00:23:02,520 --> 00:23:03,720
Speaker 1: ignored him forever after that.

503
00:23:03,960 --> 00:23:06,560
Speaker 3: Then you found him on a different dating he found

504
00:23:06,640 --> 00:23:08,280
Speaker 3: me on it. So first I was on Tinder. Now

505
00:23:08,320 --> 00:23:11,479
Speaker 3: this transferred over to Hinge, which is really weird. So

506
00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:15,080
Speaker 3: im months later, months later, like literally like six months later,

507
00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:16,240
Speaker 3: more than six months.

508
00:23:16,119 --> 00:23:19,280
Speaker 1: We matched. We matched again, and actually he had messaged

509
00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:21,000
Speaker 1: me a few times. I was still kind of being bitchy,

510
00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:23,040
Speaker 1: and you know, I just I don't know, I think

511
00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:30,960
Speaker 1: maybe of bitches they do. And so quarantine happened. He

512
00:23:31,040 --> 00:23:34,120
Speaker 1: hit me, I must be feeling nice that day, and

513
00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:36,000
Speaker 1: she wasn't even feel nice. You know what it is.

514
00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:38,000
Speaker 1: She pre planned well, but you know what, the idea

515
00:23:38,160 --> 00:23:42,280
Speaker 1: of doing a hinge date over the FaceTime seemed less pressure.

516
00:23:42,359 --> 00:23:44,520
Speaker 1: So it seemed like, you know what, fuck it, Like,

517
00:23:44,560 --> 00:23:45,760
Speaker 1: what do I have to lose? I don't have to

518
00:23:45,760 --> 00:23:48,280
Speaker 1: get dressed. Really, I don't have to go anywhere. Like

519
00:23:48,320 --> 00:23:50,720
Speaker 1: then I could literally be wearing a shirt and like,

520
00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,040
Speaker 1: you know, he doesn't see what's below? Did did you

521
00:23:54,080 --> 00:23:56,000
Speaker 1: put makeup on? I put conceal her on.

522
00:23:56,119 --> 00:23:58,600
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, I mean I'm just trying to see because.

523
00:23:58,359 --> 00:24:01,320
Speaker 1: I and also I do believe that, yeah, you should

524
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:03,800
Speaker 1: fucking put conzealurn. I still feel like if you're going

525
00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:07,560
Speaker 1: on a virtue, I am advocating for people that go

526
00:24:07,640 --> 00:24:11,800
Speaker 1: on dates, virtual dates to approach it as a real date,

527
00:24:12,359 --> 00:24:15,520
Speaker 1: mostly the black men. Okay, I need you just put

528
00:24:15,560 --> 00:24:18,800
Speaker 1: a hat on something, just take a razor to the edge.

529
00:24:19,200 --> 00:24:21,120
Speaker 1: Just I can't not if you don't know what you're

530
00:24:21,119 --> 00:24:26,920
Speaker 1: talking doing unless you're just naturally fine. Okay, because yeah, anyway, yes,

531
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:30,520
Speaker 1: I did put zeelron and mascara, and we were talking

532
00:24:30,560 --> 00:24:32,280
Speaker 1: and Jamila was in the room, and like I can

533
00:24:32,359 --> 00:24:34,760
Speaker 1: see her being a bitch from here. I was I

534
00:24:34,760 --> 00:24:36,880
Speaker 1: could see you. I just wasn't. I wasn't being a bitch.

535
00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:38,199
Speaker 1: She didn't want to do it. She was just like

536
00:24:38,240 --> 00:24:40,600
Speaker 1: I wish I could reschedule it. She was I did

537
00:24:40,680 --> 00:24:41,080
Speaker 1: say about it.

538
00:24:41,119 --> 00:24:42,840
Speaker 3: She was just in a mood because Eric could be

539
00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:44,720
Speaker 3: moody and I could just see her in here, and

540
00:24:44,760 --> 00:24:48,000
Speaker 3: I was like, poor guy, poor guy.

541
00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:49,840
Speaker 1: And then she somehow made She's.

542
00:24:49,760 --> 00:24:55,240
Speaker 3: Like telling me like, so I rolled the blends and

543
00:24:55,280 --> 00:24:57,399
Speaker 3: she comes out here, and so of course, because we're married,

544
00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:00,080
Speaker 3: I have to introduced myself, like the man and the

545
00:25:00,119 --> 00:25:01,160
Speaker 3: relationship that I am.

546
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:05,159
Speaker 1: Hello there, sir young man. Nice to meet you.

547
00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:08,600
Speaker 3: Jamila here her other man slash woman slash wife.

548
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:11,760
Speaker 1: You actually did say that. You just thought that yesterday

549
00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:13,439
Speaker 1: last night you were like, so, I'm gonna be here

550
00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:18,399
Speaker 1: a lot. I'm here all the time, did I? I

551
00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:23,200
Speaker 1: said that we're trouble and he better get used to it. Anyway.

552
00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:27,440
Speaker 1: We were just so, yeah, he got here anyway, So thankfully,

553
00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:30,560
Speaker 1: what did you ask? I asked him some really essential questions,

554
00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 1: what did you ask? They were serious?

555
00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:34,879
Speaker 3: I heard her ask him what he did, and he

556
00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:37,399
Speaker 3: went on a fucking tangent because he's a nerd about

557
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:39,359
Speaker 3: all this nerdy shit that she doesn't understand. I mean

558
00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:40,960
Speaker 3: they did I but I could see her with mine

559
00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:43,840
Speaker 3: just I get first get distracted way too close because

560
00:25:43,880 --> 00:25:46,359
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh no, I could just see just like

561
00:25:46,520 --> 00:25:49,439
Speaker 3: your face. So when she came in here, and then

562
00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:51,520
Speaker 3: you know, okay, so keep in mind outdoors e Bay

563
00:25:51,640 --> 00:25:54,160
Speaker 3: is very nerdy a little bit. So I'm like team

564
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:56,240
Speaker 3: nerds right now. So I'm like, oh, poor guy, Like

565
00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:58,600
Speaker 3: she's being such a bitch. So he comes in here,

566
00:25:58,760 --> 00:26:01,119
Speaker 3: she comes in here, she's smoking, and I introduced myself

567
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:04,040
Speaker 3: because I'm a good partner, and then I start asking

568
00:26:04,119 --> 00:26:06,240
Speaker 3: him some essential questions and I can tell as soon

569
00:26:06,280 --> 00:26:07,880
Speaker 3: as he starts answering the question, she's.

570
00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:09,760
Speaker 1: Like, oh, yeah, that's a good question.

571
00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:12,880
Speaker 3: Then he's answering it kinda well, and then she's.

572
00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:14,359
Speaker 1: Like, I forgot what you asked you.

573
00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:16,560
Speaker 3: Well, he has a kid and basically hit a kid

574
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:19,480
Speaker 3: in like a agreement and a friendship.

575
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:22,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, some weird shit. And I said, well, I'm curious.

576
00:26:22,200 --> 00:26:24,440
Speaker 3: You're just a young guy of thirty three, what would

577
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:26,320
Speaker 3: make you agree to just have.

578
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:28,320
Speaker 1: This agreement and maybe not wait around for.

579
00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:31,439
Speaker 3: A like a wife, because obviously now you're in this

580
00:26:31,480 --> 00:26:33,720
Speaker 3: position we have to explain this to this bitch from

581
00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:36,640
Speaker 3: Bumble and her friend, and we're concerned why you did

582
00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:37,640
Speaker 3: this because we don't get it.

583
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:44,200
Speaker 1: So anyway, I actually didn't. Okay, go on, anyway, You're welcome.

584
00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:48,040
Speaker 1: What are we calling him? Nerdy Bay?

585
00:26:48,560 --> 00:26:52,960
Speaker 3: Okay, nerdy Bay? Okay, hindebe nerdy Bay. Everybody's a hingchebe,

586
00:26:53,880 --> 00:26:59,320
Speaker 3: literally everybody. No, no trembling lippey. That's tender by outdoors

587
00:26:59,320 --> 00:27:01,800
Speaker 3: by outdoors bay venice by.

588
00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:05,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, you're right.

589
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:09,600
Speaker 3: So he I can see her open up like a

590
00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:10,520
Speaker 3: little clam.

591
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:16,879
Speaker 1: Shut up. I fucking can't stand you opened him up

592
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:17,360
Speaker 1: like a little clan.

593
00:27:17,440 --> 00:27:20,919
Speaker 3: I opened you because you were being bitchy and my

594
00:27:21,040 --> 00:27:22,920
Speaker 3: questions you kind of start. I could I could see

595
00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,680
Speaker 3: her eyebrows change. I could see her interests pique because

596
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:28,280
Speaker 3: of how he was answering the very specific questions is

597
00:27:28,359 --> 00:27:31,359
Speaker 3: I was asking because they were important, asking him about

598
00:27:31,359 --> 00:27:33,080
Speaker 3: his blood for white women, you know, things that she

599
00:27:33,160 --> 00:27:40,360
Speaker 3: wanted to ask but forgot, and then guess what, She's

600
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:41,680
Speaker 3: hit the plane a couple of times.

601
00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:43,960
Speaker 1: Calm the fuck down, and I'm just sorry.

602
00:27:44,359 --> 00:27:46,600
Speaker 3: Float back out to the other room to her hinge

603
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:49,760
Speaker 3: date of FaceTime and a much different mood than she came.

604
00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:54,879
Speaker 3: And so you're welcome, Thank you, Artie Bay. Anyway, fast forward,

605
00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:57,119
Speaker 3: she tells me, oh, by the way, okay, let me,

606
00:27:57,320 --> 00:27:58,359
Speaker 3: did you want to tell your own story?

607
00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:00,960
Speaker 1: Sorry? Wait, I don't know what's going on. I'm intrigued.

608
00:28:01,000 --> 00:28:02,480
Speaker 1: I don't even know what did I say.

609
00:28:03,480 --> 00:28:06,359
Speaker 3: So after that, a couple of days later, suddenly she's like, oh,

610
00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:08,720
Speaker 3: I think I'm gonna let Nerdy Bay come over and

611
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:10,960
Speaker 3: we're gonna take some mushrooms. And I said, hold on,

612
00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:13,399
Speaker 3: wait a minute, going a little fast here. I know

613
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 3: I opened you up, but you need to come down.

614
00:28:15,840 --> 00:28:19,400
Speaker 3: What the fuck is his last name? And also because

615
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:22,199
Speaker 3: you mushrooms on our first day, you're trying to take

616
00:28:22,240 --> 00:28:23,200
Speaker 3: a book out of my playbook.

617
00:28:23,240 --> 00:28:25,800
Speaker 1: You look like you you know, you know, you know

618
00:28:25,960 --> 00:28:27,960
Speaker 1: sometimes I can be uptight, and so you know, I'm

619
00:28:27,960 --> 00:28:30,359
Speaker 1: trying to open up and live life on the edge,

620
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:36,320
Speaker 1: break quarantine for total strangers, and do mushrooms. And yeah,

621
00:28:36,359 --> 00:28:38,520
Speaker 1: so I did that, and I was just having a

622
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:41,040
Speaker 1: weird day that day, Like that day was just not

623
00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:44,760
Speaker 1: Erica is a little moody. Well no, like, in my

624
00:28:45,120 --> 00:28:48,720
Speaker 1: in my own defense, that day, the day my baby

625
00:28:48,800 --> 00:28:50,720
Speaker 1: daddy's other baby was born.

626
00:28:50,760 --> 00:28:53,240
Speaker 3: So it happened to be like three days after your

627
00:28:53,280 --> 00:28:54,040
Speaker 3: baby was right.

628
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:55,960
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying like I just felt weird that

629
00:28:56,080 --> 00:28:57,920
Speaker 1: I knew that day I was going to feel weird,

630
00:28:58,360 --> 00:29:00,920
Speaker 1: and so that's why I decided to do the mushrooms

631
00:29:01,040 --> 00:29:03,200
Speaker 1: because I wanted to kind of get out of my

632
00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:06,360
Speaker 1: head because I was already starting to go in that space,

633
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:08,920
Speaker 1: and so I did them. He happened to text me,

634
00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:10,840
Speaker 1: he was like, what are you doing. I told him

635
00:29:10,840 --> 00:29:12,680
Speaker 1: what I was going to do. He said, he basically

636
00:29:12,720 --> 00:29:14,880
Speaker 1: asked me could join me. I was like, fuck it,

637
00:29:15,080 --> 00:29:17,680
Speaker 1: why not? I was? You know what, It's so funny

638
00:29:17,680 --> 00:29:20,360
Speaker 1: because I started off that day too. And I started

639
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:22,880
Speaker 1: off that day. I went to the coffee shop and

640
00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:25,240
Speaker 1: like I was driving and I felt the urge to

641
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:28,200
Speaker 1: like I knew no one, like I wasn't at my house,

642
00:29:28,240 --> 00:29:30,920
Speaker 1: like I was alone, and I felt the urge to

643
00:29:31,080 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 1: call someone to hang out with me like I and

644
00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 1: it bothered me. I was like, why can't I just

645
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:36,200
Speaker 1: be alone? Fuck?

646
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:40,160
Speaker 3: Have your feelings and yeah, you're just like you have

647
00:29:40,280 --> 00:29:41,760
Speaker 3: you feel like you want to be next to someone,

648
00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:43,040
Speaker 3: and you know, like I don't even.

649
00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:44,480
Speaker 1: Need to like, can I just go sit my ass

650
00:29:44,480 --> 00:29:46,960
Speaker 1: down at home? And I didn't, but like I just

651
00:29:46,960 --> 00:29:48,280
Speaker 1: want to. I just want to touch on that because

652
00:29:48,280 --> 00:29:50,160
Speaker 1: I feel like that's something that people I wonder if

653
00:29:50,160 --> 00:29:52,000
Speaker 1: other people experience, because.

654
00:29:51,640 --> 00:29:54,160
Speaker 3: Well, before you continue, I just think that in general

655
00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:57,200
Speaker 3: and quarantine in this space, this very isolated space, we

656
00:29:57,240 --> 00:29:58,960
Speaker 3: have limited activities to participate in.

657
00:29:59,040 --> 00:30:01,720
Speaker 1: Especially when you have the oportunity to give your kid back,

658
00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:02,640
Speaker 1: you have.

659
00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:05,720
Speaker 3: Been had a very extra amount attend like time to

660
00:30:05,800 --> 00:30:08,920
Speaker 3: attend to how you spend your energy and your thoughts

661
00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:10,320
Speaker 3: and where energy goes.

662
00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:17,160
Speaker 1: So yeah, right anyway, so yeah, anyway, he ended up

663
00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:22,720
Speaker 1: coming over and yeah, we like we chilled, we smoked

664
00:30:22,840 --> 00:30:26,320
Speaker 1: and just like talked for a while, probably two hours,

665
00:30:26,360 --> 00:30:30,160
Speaker 1: and then I was like, soops and he's never taken

666
00:30:30,600 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 1: so he took wait two hours before he took him. Yeah, yeah,

667
00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:33,960
Speaker 1: we talked and stuff. I didn't want to just go

668
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:38,040
Speaker 1: straight and like, hey, so here's cry cry my arm stranger. Yeah,

669
00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:40,640
Speaker 1: but then that's when like, so after he took them

670
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:43,000
Speaker 1: and we took them, and I was like, wait, I

671
00:30:43,040 --> 00:30:47,480
Speaker 1: don't actually know this person. What if he has a

672
00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:48,959
Speaker 1: bad trip and I to take care of him? And

673
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:52,160
Speaker 1: like I like he's here. If we responded, am I

674
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:53,080
Speaker 1: responsible for him?

675
00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:53,280
Speaker 2: Like?

676
00:30:53,360 --> 00:30:55,200
Speaker 1: What the fuck? Like then I but then I was like,

677
00:30:55,280 --> 00:30:57,880
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm gonna let it go. I'm gonna

678
00:30:57,880 --> 00:31:00,560
Speaker 1: go in my corner. That's what has to happen. And

679
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:04,840
Speaker 1: so cry over here, sir and so. But actually we

680
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:07,480
Speaker 1: had a really it was a cool trip. Like he'd

681
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:09,200
Speaker 1: I definitely had to guide him a little bit since

682
00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:11,640
Speaker 1: he'd never done it before and was he panicking. It

683
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:14,120
Speaker 1: wasn't panicking. He was just like talking a lot. And

684
00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, you probably should not talk anymore.

685
00:31:17,160 --> 00:31:19,680
Speaker 1: Just shut the fuck up, because you should just go inward.

686
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:22,920
Speaker 3: Also, I don't really want to hear you talk right now,

687
00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:24,400
Speaker 3: a little chatterbox.

688
00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:26,920
Speaker 1: Because for me, like I just feel like on mushrooms,

689
00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:30,440
Speaker 1: I do like I kind of I get introverted. I

690
00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:32,160
Speaker 1: get like I don't know, I don't even know. I

691
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:33,960
Speaker 1: wish I could maybe I should film myself one day.

692
00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:37,480
Speaker 1: But I told her, let's film herself. She literally text

693
00:31:37,520 --> 00:31:39,840
Speaker 1: me this morning, I don't feel comfortable doing that. No,

694
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:40,840
Speaker 1: I no, I get it.

695
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:43,520
Speaker 3: I feel like, well, privately, after you said that, I

696
00:31:43,640 --> 00:31:45,920
Speaker 3: was like, well, maybe who knows what's gonna happen?

697
00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:49,360
Speaker 1: You're right, that's actually a very statement. I mean, wouldn't

698
00:31:49,360 --> 00:31:50,760
Speaker 1: have to put it out no, right right, I do

699
00:31:50,840 --> 00:31:53,560
Speaker 1: would like I will probably feel myself and you'll never

700
00:31:53,600 --> 00:32:00,160
Speaker 1: see it, you guys, maybe maybe patrimo. So I I'm

701
00:32:00,320 --> 00:32:04,000
Speaker 1: very personal. I just like, yeah, I just usually I

702
00:32:04,360 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 1: sometimes I cry. Sometimes it depends what I'm I usually

703
00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:08,880
Speaker 1: try to set an attention. I can usually cry. I

704
00:32:08,920 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 1: can cry. Sometimes I can just laugh until I cry.

705
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:14,160
Speaker 1: I can just be kind of go inward and want

706
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,800
Speaker 1: to just every time I try to talk, mostly when

707
00:32:16,840 --> 00:32:18,880
Speaker 1: I'm on mushrooms. Every time I do try to talk,

708
00:32:19,200 --> 00:32:22,120
Speaker 1: I can't. It doesn't make a lot of sense. And

709
00:32:23,440 --> 00:32:25,640
Speaker 1: then I'm like and then and like, my body is

710
00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:27,720
Speaker 1: telling me to shut the fuck up. And that's what

711
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:29,760
Speaker 1: his body was doing too. He was like saying, he

712
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:31,480
Speaker 1: was like, I don't He's like, I don't even know

713
00:32:31,640 --> 00:32:34,480
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm like, should not talk. So we

714
00:32:34,680 --> 00:32:38,880
Speaker 1: just we shut the fuck up, and you guys, I

715
00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:41,280
Speaker 1: got a trampoline Friary's birthday, which is also a gift

716
00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:45,000
Speaker 1: to myself. And honestly, if you have the space, I

717
00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:49,600
Speaker 1: fully encourage you to buy a fucking trampoline, because God damn.

718
00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:53,120
Speaker 1: This is a game changer, especially if you mushrooms, specially

719
00:32:53,120 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: if you have a kid. If you have a kid,

720
00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:57,160
Speaker 1: because it makes them tire, they want to jump jump jump.

721
00:32:57,240 --> 00:33:00,040
Speaker 1: You can jump with them. It's kind of fun. You

722
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 1: can exercise. But more importantly, when you do mushrooms, you

723
00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:07,880
Speaker 1: can roll around, bounce while you roll. You can also

724
00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:11,360
Speaker 1: just take breaks jumping, and there's just you can look

725
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,840
Speaker 1: up something like childlike and like we looked up and

726
00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:17,040
Speaker 1: like it's like it's like with the trees. Oh my god.

727
00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:20,960
Speaker 1: So it was just amazing. So yeah, we so we

728
00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 1: fell in like heavily, like during that, during that mushroom moment,

729
00:33:27,080 --> 00:33:31,720
Speaker 1: and then afterwards, like after he left, and I kind

730
00:33:31,760 --> 00:33:36,720
Speaker 1: of was just like, oh my god, like no, no, no, no, no,

731
00:33:36,920 --> 00:33:40,520
Speaker 1: no no no no no no no no psycho like no,

732
00:33:40,920 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: it's more psycho like maybe I maybe I'm not ready

733
00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:46,560
Speaker 1: to be maybe I should just be single. Well, it's

734
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:47,760
Speaker 1: like you want you want someone to like, You want

735
00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:48,920
Speaker 1: someone and like you want something to like, and then

736
00:33:48,920 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 1: when you like them, you're like, oh no, but I've

737
00:33:50,600 --> 00:33:53,200
Speaker 1: never actually had that feeling of like liking someone and

738
00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:53,960
Speaker 1: then being.

739
00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:58,960
Speaker 3: Like repel, Oh I have like I don't normally I

740
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:00,840
Speaker 3: just go with it. I don't like that feeling of

741
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:02,800
Speaker 3: vulnerability at all. I mean, like I don't mind being

742
00:34:02,840 --> 00:34:04,320
Speaker 3: proud of it, but I just don't like to not

743
00:34:04,760 --> 00:34:05,120
Speaker 3: like I don't.

744
00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:08,520
Speaker 1: I don't like it. Yeah, so it was, I do

745
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:15,000
Speaker 1: it was, It's yeah, I'm you're like, it's crazy that,

746
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:18,320
Speaker 1: like I realized today that I really am. But like,

747
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:24,719
Speaker 1: also I feel still fearful because we've talked about, oh,

748
00:34:24,760 --> 00:34:26,160
Speaker 1: I'm ready to be a wife, I'm ready to have

749
00:34:26,200 --> 00:34:27,839
Speaker 1: a boyfriend, I'm ready to get my love to someone

750
00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 1: that we've had times where like I'm so glad I'm single,

751
00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:31,440
Speaker 1: like fuck niggas on quarantine.

752
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:34,640
Speaker 3: I want so I've done such a range of shit

753
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:36,839
Speaker 3: on quarantine that I'm like, who am I right?

754
00:34:37,080 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: So and like and I still do feel like I've

755
00:34:40,080 --> 00:34:44,200
Speaker 1: worked to do on myself because I'm still triggered by

756
00:34:44,239 --> 00:34:46,320
Speaker 1: things that I just feel like I should be passed

757
00:34:46,440 --> 00:34:50,799
Speaker 1: or I should be passed before I do like that better,

758
00:34:51,120 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 1: not like I should be passed like to feel bad now,

759
00:34:53,320 --> 00:34:56,640
Speaker 1: you know, but I also know that there's no perfect

760
00:34:56,800 --> 00:35:03,520
Speaker 1: moment to fall in love. And you know, I believe

761
00:35:03,600 --> 00:35:06,000
Speaker 1: that things are presented to you for a reason. They

762
00:35:06,080 --> 00:35:08,320
Speaker 1: come into your life for a reason. And you know,

763
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:10,279
Speaker 1: I've even thought like maybe there's a reason too that

764
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:12,480
Speaker 1: like I did not want to connect with him at

765
00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 1: that time, maybe like there it's come to this now

766
00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:19,040
Speaker 1: because I do feel a strong connection to him, that

767
00:35:20,840 --> 00:35:22,719
Speaker 1: it is what it is. But I will say for me,

768
00:35:23,040 --> 00:35:26,760
Speaker 1: like this time around, because I did the like super

769
00:35:27,360 --> 00:35:31,319
Speaker 1: the super crazy shit and like I just it didn't.

770
00:35:31,360 --> 00:35:34,160
Speaker 1: I not and I just didn't. I don't know. I

771
00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:39,799
Speaker 1: feel like I'm more protective of my like feelings feelings now,

772
00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:41,920
Speaker 1: not that I'm not going to give them away. I

773
00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:45,320
Speaker 1: just feel like I have to be more. I realized

774
00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:47,960
Speaker 1: that I am filled with so much. I have so

775
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:51,879
Speaker 1: much love to give. I truly do right, I really

776
00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:54,160
Speaker 1: have to be careful and it's not that I can't

777
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:56,840
Speaker 1: ever open up like that, but I feel like I

778
00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:59,080
Speaker 1: have to make sure and give it time and make

779
00:35:59,160 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 1: them kind of earn in it more because I well,

780
00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:06,160
Speaker 1: in my defense, so happy babe.

781
00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:08,640
Speaker 4: Pulled that ship out of the modes I always do

782
00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:11,600
Speaker 4: literally just like no, but some but then like then

783
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:13,960
Speaker 4: there's because I don't think this is the thing, this

784
00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:18,880
Speaker 4: is the thing about this whole ship we're not typically

785
00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:19,760
Speaker 4: those bitches.

786
00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:23,239
Speaker 3: I know bitches who I'm like, oh god, not again, Like,

787
00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:25,120
Speaker 3: don't be a dumb bitch, don't be dumb bitch. Shut

788
00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:27,440
Speaker 3: the fuck up, don't be dumb bitch. I am generally

789
00:36:27,680 --> 00:36:29,360
Speaker 3: not a dumb bitch. You know what I'm saying, Like

790
00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:30,799
Speaker 3: I'm selaptive.

791
00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:37,279
Speaker 1: For real, Like I I know I can like someone's shirt,

792
00:36:37,560 --> 00:36:43,360
Speaker 1: generally not a dumb bitch. Generally, I don't like I

793
00:36:43,400 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 1: don't jump into things prematurely. I see things.

794
00:36:45,600 --> 00:36:48,279
Speaker 3: I've had friends come tell me crazy ship like I'm like, bitch,

795
00:36:48,360 --> 00:36:49,719
Speaker 3: that sounds ridiculous on this person.

796
00:36:49,960 --> 00:36:52,600
Speaker 1: Two minds, blah blah blah. Like I rarely get in

797
00:36:52,719 --> 00:36:54,360
Speaker 1: that space. I realized.

798
00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:57,560
Speaker 3: Once it crosses over to that space, that's when it

799
00:36:57,560 --> 00:37:00,920
Speaker 3: gets scary. It's fucking psycho because I'm like, oh no,

800
00:37:01,120 --> 00:37:03,160
Speaker 3: I'm a dumb bitch, and I thought I wasn't a

801
00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:05,120
Speaker 3: dumb bitch all this time, which is even scarier because

802
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:07,439
Speaker 3: I'm probably the worst kind of dumb bitch because I'm

803
00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:09,360
Speaker 3: generally because I'm generally.

804
00:37:09,080 --> 00:37:13,040
Speaker 1: Not You've been waiting for this dumbitch moment to come

805
00:37:13,080 --> 00:37:14,680
Speaker 1: out and just give it.

806
00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:18,560
Speaker 3: It's just like give it your all, your love, your loved,

807
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:22,120
Speaker 3: give it you all like literally like zero one hundred.

808
00:37:22,880 --> 00:37:24,279
Speaker 1: But and and the part of me is like, of

809
00:37:24,400 --> 00:37:26,040
Speaker 1: course I also have work to do. We all have

810
00:37:26,160 --> 00:37:26,640
Speaker 1: work to do.

811
00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:31,480
Speaker 3: This is right, right, But also a part of me,

812
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:33,719
Speaker 3: the dumb bitch part of me that maybe the smart

813
00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:36,000
Speaker 3: part of me makes me a part of me really

814
00:37:36,080 --> 00:37:40,640
Speaker 3: knows that not one hundred, not all completely. But I

815
00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:45,680
Speaker 3: I do work well with a good partner, hence my

816
00:37:45,920 --> 00:37:49,200
Speaker 3: work wife, you know what I'm saying. Like I realized

817
00:37:49,239 --> 00:37:52,319
Speaker 3: there are like I do. I work well on an

818
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 3: environment where someone is different, like can get on my ass.

819
00:37:55,719 --> 00:37:57,200
Speaker 1: You know, I could work well.

820
00:37:57,080 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 3: Independently, but I do work well when there's like someone

821
00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:04,320
Speaker 3: to push me. And so I see that with the

822
00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:08,400
Speaker 3: potential within finding a good partner that maybe together we

823
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:11,480
Speaker 3: can like work on the healing and work and nothing like.

824
00:38:11,520 --> 00:38:13,920
Speaker 3: And I'm always on that path either way with or

825
00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:15,279
Speaker 3: without anyone, because that's life.

826
00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:16,840
Speaker 1: And I realized you have to be growing.

827
00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:20,000
Speaker 3: But I mean, I don't know, maybe that's my excuse

828
00:38:20,080 --> 00:38:22,320
Speaker 3: for being generally dumb bitch and just trying to be

829
00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:24,120
Speaker 3: in like and oh three weeks, Well.

830
00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:30,040
Speaker 1: I think it's like I think it's like I agree

831
00:38:30,080 --> 00:38:32,680
Speaker 1: with you. They yes, because I said, like, I don't

832
00:38:32,680 --> 00:38:35,200
Speaker 1: think there's any perfect moment. It's like when people try

833
00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:38,160
Speaker 1: to plan babies, you know, like there's no fucking perfect

834
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,480
Speaker 1: moment for a kid. I mean, some more power to you,

835
00:38:40,560 --> 00:38:42,719
Speaker 1: because there are some some people really accomplish that shit.

836
00:38:42,760 --> 00:38:45,520
Speaker 1: They got pregnant that month, their finances were straight, they

837
00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:48,360
Speaker 1: find probably about that house ahead of all, you know.

838
00:38:48,800 --> 00:38:50,799
Speaker 1: But generally, I think a lot of people like us

839
00:38:50,840 --> 00:38:55,080
Speaker 1: who have had kids, you know, regular people. You know,

840
00:38:55,520 --> 00:38:57,719
Speaker 1: maybe we didn't plan it, maybe it happens sooner than

841
00:38:57,760 --> 00:38:59,840
Speaker 1: we thought. Maybe it took longer than we thought, you know.

842
00:39:00,360 --> 00:39:02,719
Speaker 1: And I kind of feel like the same with relationships too,

843
00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:06,160
Speaker 1: Like you know, you can't perfectly plan the when that

844
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:09,440
Speaker 1: person walks into your life, and so it's kind of

845
00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:12,600
Speaker 1: like trying to figure out a decipher between like is

846
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:14,600
Speaker 1: this the perfect moment? Or am I making this the

847
00:39:14,680 --> 00:39:15,360
Speaker 1: perfect moment?

848
00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:17,200
Speaker 4: Like you know, like.

849
00:39:18,880 --> 00:39:22,320
Speaker 1: Is he fulfilling something that like I have a deficit

850
00:39:22,440 --> 00:39:24,840
Speaker 1: of and I need to actually not have a deficit

851
00:39:24,960 --> 00:39:26,960
Speaker 1: of it before, like you know what I mean, Like,

852
00:39:27,239 --> 00:39:29,560
Speaker 1: so is he filling up places for me? Which I

853
00:39:29,640 --> 00:39:32,440
Speaker 1: believe your partner, even when you are happy and you've

854
00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:35,120
Speaker 1: worked on things like will fill up places for you?

855
00:39:35,480 --> 00:39:37,759
Speaker 1: But which ones? What are they?

856
00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:37,960
Speaker 3: Though?

857
00:39:38,000 --> 00:39:40,840
Speaker 1: Exactly? Is it because it love? It is something that

858
00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:42,040
Speaker 1: you have needed, that's something you.

859
00:39:42,080 --> 00:39:45,440
Speaker 3: May need to fill up yourself before and asking someone

860
00:39:45,520 --> 00:39:48,799
Speaker 3: to take take on that of filling it up for you, right, yes,

861
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:49,200
Speaker 3: And so.

862
00:39:49,600 --> 00:39:52,560
Speaker 1: I don't know, Like it just gets confusing, like I

863
00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:55,360
Speaker 1: didn't and like sex really confuses shit for sure. And

864
00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:57,719
Speaker 1: I really tried to, like be hidie, I really tried

865
00:39:57,719 --> 00:40:02,760
Speaker 1: to follow a passport petting shit girl, right, I really tried.

866
00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:06,520
Speaker 1: I really did, And like we went a whole mushroom

867
00:40:06,560 --> 00:40:09,839
Speaker 1: trip no, no fucking, and then I just broke down

868
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:11,120
Speaker 1: once I was sober, which is so.

869
00:40:11,360 --> 00:40:12,400
Speaker 3: Sad, and.

870
00:40:14,600 --> 00:40:17,239
Speaker 1: Mushroom Erica is stronger than sober. It's so sad.

871
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:22,920
Speaker 5: But it's just I don't know, I don't know this,

872
00:40:23,160 --> 00:40:26,200
Speaker 5: I'm just it Also is it's also I think it's

873
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:28,120
Speaker 5: not even that because we're smart women and the fact

874
00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:30,600
Speaker 5: that we're having this conversation shit means a lot because

875
00:40:30,680 --> 00:40:34,160
Speaker 5: there's generally dumb bitches who are not even realizing they're

876
00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:35,000
Speaker 5: being psychos.

877
00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,080
Speaker 1: So at least you could say, hey, this is not

878
00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:39,280
Speaker 1: in the character for me. And maxim stupid fucking psycho.

879
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,600
Speaker 1: I like this guy who this is crazy. But also

880
00:40:41,680 --> 00:40:44,000
Speaker 1: I just think about it like we have to ask ourselves,

881
00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:45,960
Speaker 1: like really, and I need to need you need to

882
00:40:46,000 --> 00:40:48,359
Speaker 1: ask ourself. I need to ask myself. Maybe we need

883
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:52,160
Speaker 1: to a list what exactly do I like about this person?

884
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:54,160
Speaker 1: You know, it's really scary. I text you this last thing.

885
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 1: You're probably sleep because it was like four o'clock in

886
00:40:55,600 --> 00:41:00,120
Speaker 1: the morning. I went something made me brief. This it

887
00:41:00,640 --> 00:41:04,080
Speaker 1: my manifestation list. And a lot of the shit on

888
00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: my list was there.

889
00:41:05,560 --> 00:41:08,719
Speaker 3: In fact, the only two things that weren't there was

890
00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 3: he could cook and he can't cook, okay, and he

891
00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 3: owns a plant and I said I could.

892
00:41:13,000 --> 00:41:17,920
Speaker 1: Buy a plant. I forgot the plant. Oh I'm watering everything.

893
00:41:19,640 --> 00:41:23,160
Speaker 1: That kind of scared me. But anyway, yes, make a

894
00:41:23,239 --> 00:41:25,239
Speaker 1: list of like what is the list? What are need

895
00:41:25,239 --> 00:41:27,160
Speaker 1: to bring? Example, But do you think that you've had

896
00:41:27,280 --> 00:41:29,239
Speaker 1: enough time to really know if he was a checked

897
00:41:29,280 --> 00:41:32,120
Speaker 1: off everything on that list? Absolutely not, because I mean,

898
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:35,000
Speaker 1: that's okay, this is what it is. I can't trust myself.

899
00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:38,280
Speaker 1: I've previously made poor.

900
00:41:38,160 --> 00:41:40,960
Speaker 3: Decisions, and not that I didn't undo those decisions and say, hey,

901
00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:41,520
Speaker 3: I'm good at that.

902
00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:44,759
Speaker 1: I'm good, but it took time even when I saw that, Like, so,

903
00:41:46,320 --> 00:41:48,320
Speaker 1: do I be missing shit? Absolutely? Do I feel like

904
00:41:48,320 --> 00:41:50,440
Speaker 1: I'm not missing anything? Does it feel like totally different.

905
00:41:50,200 --> 00:41:52,480
Speaker 3: Than these other things that I've I knew there were

906
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:54,840
Speaker 3: some like there were some things that were dragging my

907
00:41:54,880 --> 00:41:57,000
Speaker 3: feet on but pretending like I didn't see this does

908
00:41:57,080 --> 00:41:57,719
Speaker 3: not feel like that.

909
00:41:57,960 --> 00:42:01,680
Speaker 1: No. But even though I'm a woman, I fucked up

910
00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:05,560
Speaker 1: before and so well, you can't control another person either,

911
00:42:05,719 --> 00:42:06,360
Speaker 1: like I don't know.

912
00:42:06,719 --> 00:42:08,960
Speaker 3: We only know as much as you know exactly and

913
00:42:09,200 --> 00:42:10,440
Speaker 3: so and I feel like even I don't know, I

914
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:12,359
Speaker 3: found myself sometimes to get high and be like, oh

915
00:42:12,360 --> 00:42:13,759
Speaker 3: my god, what is this like not even who the

916
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:14,200
Speaker 3: fuck he is?

917
00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:16,120
Speaker 1: Like what if he's just like about to turn That's

918
00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:18,160
Speaker 1: actually that's literally what I asked him last night. I

919
00:42:18,200 --> 00:42:19,440
Speaker 1: was like, what if you want to turn on me

920
00:42:19,520 --> 00:42:21,080
Speaker 1: and be a totally different person? And I was like,

921
00:42:21,160 --> 00:42:22,520
Speaker 1: am I being honest enough? Have I told him?

922
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:25,920
Speaker 3: Like I was just like I literally said, davantaging myself

923
00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:28,040
Speaker 3: in my brain like a fucking psycho.

924
00:42:28,239 --> 00:42:31,800
Speaker 1: I literally said to him, so what's the catch? Like?

925
00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:32,440
Speaker 3: What is what?

926
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:35,040
Speaker 1: What's wrong with you? What's wrong with you? Like honestly,

927
00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:38,600
Speaker 1: like what just And then I asked him, what would

928
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:41,000
Speaker 1: your ex say? Is your least is your worst quality?

929
00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:41,880
Speaker 1: Can't text that to me?

930
00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:42,239
Speaker 2: Oh?

931
00:42:42,360 --> 00:42:45,359
Speaker 1: He told me already? Okay, yeah, what would he say?

932
00:42:47,120 --> 00:42:47,719
Speaker 1: What did he say?

933
00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:48,160
Speaker 2: Something?

934
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:50,120
Speaker 1: Not that I didn't I was it was not enough

935
00:42:50,200 --> 00:42:52,480
Speaker 1: for me though, I was like, that's it? What was it? Then?

936
00:42:52,560 --> 00:42:55,719
Speaker 1: That was like you perfect naked? Wait what did you say?

937
00:42:58,440 --> 00:42:59,759
Speaker 1: Was it that he cares too much?

938
00:43:00,239 --> 00:43:00,479
Speaker 4: Shit?

939
00:43:01,200 --> 00:43:01,600
Speaker 3: I don't know.

940
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:03,319
Speaker 1: I don't even if I could answer that though, I mean,

941
00:43:03,360 --> 00:43:05,080
Speaker 1: I'm sure I'm too friendly. I mean my I mean,

942
00:43:06,280 --> 00:43:08,719
Speaker 1: I don't know he cares too much? Now that's a

943
00:43:08,800 --> 00:43:11,480
Speaker 1: lot that Now that sounds tricky. I can't remember what

944
00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:13,440
Speaker 1: it was that might not have been it? And then

945
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:15,319
Speaker 1: he asked me, see, this is why you can't be high?

946
00:43:15,600 --> 00:43:16,120
Speaker 3: Is I know?

947
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:16,520
Speaker 2: I know?

948
00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:21,840
Speaker 1: I literally thought, I'm pretty sure. I imagine a whole conversation.

949
00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:25,040
Speaker 1: What that happened? Thom too embarrassed? Like if we have

950
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:29,640
Speaker 1: a conversation that went like this, I was like treating, Yeah,

951
00:43:29,640 --> 00:43:32,319
Speaker 1: I don't know, I can't remember what the fuck he said.

952
00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:35,439
Speaker 1: But thinking about even thinking about that, like, what would

953
00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:38,279
Speaker 1: your ex say your worst trait is like my I

954
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:41,880
Speaker 1: think my ex would say that I made him feel

955
00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:46,400
Speaker 1: like he wasn't good enough, Like for sure, that's what

956
00:43:46,480 --> 00:43:47,000
Speaker 1: he would say.

957
00:43:47,760 --> 00:43:51,680
Speaker 3: Somebody told me that I am like a man, I

958
00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:55,040
Speaker 3: don't have any feelings, which is crazy. That person is done.

959
00:43:55,640 --> 00:43:59,359
Speaker 3: And also then I'm too friendly and I'm like all

960
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:01,520
Speaker 3: over the place trying to be friends with everybody. I

961
00:44:01,600 --> 00:44:02,719
Speaker 3: need to chill out.

962
00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:07,040
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, what do you think? What do you think

963
00:44:07,080 --> 00:44:09,680
Speaker 1: my worst trade is? But like, what do you do

964
00:44:09,760 --> 00:44:10,000
Speaker 1: you think?

965
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:12,120
Speaker 3: Do you have any if you had to complain about

966
00:44:12,160 --> 00:44:12,880
Speaker 3: one of my trades?

967
00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:21,040
Speaker 1: You're Oh, I love you, I know I love you. Yeah,

968
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:24,640
Speaker 1: No one's perfect. Do I get annoyed with you? Of

969
00:44:24,680 --> 00:44:26,440
Speaker 1: course I do. Do you get annoyed with me? Of

970
00:44:26,520 --> 00:44:28,759
Speaker 1: course you do. Like we're with you other each other

971
00:44:28,840 --> 00:44:32,840
Speaker 1: all the time. But I think I'm also not dating you,

972
00:44:33,040 --> 00:44:35,600
Speaker 1: so it's I mean, maybe if I was dating you,

973
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:39,480
Speaker 1: I'd probably say yeah, like sait dress, now I'm possessive

974
00:44:39,520 --> 00:44:41,319
Speaker 1: and I already dated a cancer and I'm like, y'all

975
00:44:41,360 --> 00:44:44,239
Speaker 1: are like, yeah, please, can you not talk to the

976
00:44:44,239 --> 00:44:45,320
Speaker 1: waitress for thirty minutes?

977
00:44:46,120 --> 00:44:47,520
Speaker 3: I'm not as bad as that cancer?

978
00:44:47,680 --> 00:44:49,640
Speaker 1: Are we not on a date or are we all

979
00:44:49,719 --> 00:44:52,000
Speaker 1: on a date? No?

980
00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:54,920
Speaker 3: Okay, I don't think of that, but you're not You're

981
00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 3: not like that. Wait one more thing that you were

982
00:44:59,160 --> 00:45:00,520
Speaker 3: going to just try? I don't know if you're just

983
00:45:00,560 --> 00:45:03,080
Speaker 3: trying to glide right over that. But anyway, after Eric

984
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:10,040
Speaker 3: had stay the following day, she received a poem, a

985
00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:14,080
Speaker 3: beautiful heartfelt handwritten text.

986
00:45:16,000 --> 00:45:20,280
Speaker 1: Poem written, hand written text, hand written text.

987
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:26,360
Speaker 3: And so this episode isn't just about me, it's about

988
00:45:27,040 --> 00:45:29,640
Speaker 3: nerdy Bay too, because clearly he's crazy.

989
00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:33,200
Speaker 1: Shit, what do you guys think it's Have you ever

990
00:45:33,239 --> 00:45:35,760
Speaker 1: received a poem from someone? Okay, I think it's very romantic,

991
00:45:35,840 --> 00:45:37,680
Speaker 1: but you know why wait wait wait, reason why it

992
00:45:37,719 --> 00:45:40,200
Speaker 1: doesn't freak me out is because my baby dad used

993
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:41,719
Speaker 1: to do that. I think it's very cute even to

994
00:45:42,160 --> 00:45:46,960
Speaker 1: write poem. I was like, should I write a poem? Cancer?

995
00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:49,800
Speaker 1: Ass bitch? I used to really like poetry.

996
00:45:51,239 --> 00:45:55,000
Speaker 3: No, do we even know what csycle and what's heartfelt anymore?

997
00:45:55,040 --> 00:45:58,400
Speaker 1: Are we just so millennium? It's like I say I

998
00:45:58,480 --> 00:46:02,560
Speaker 1: want romance and then get it. But no, I got

999
00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:05,480
Speaker 1: the poem and I actually it was I actually wasn't

1000
00:46:05,560 --> 00:46:07,239
Speaker 1: freaked out by it. I thought it was really I

1001
00:46:07,239 --> 00:46:09,560
Speaker 1: couldn't believe he wrote it because it was really actually

1002
00:46:09,680 --> 00:46:12,040
Speaker 1: beautifully written and it was very, very long. So I

1003
00:46:12,160 --> 00:46:15,799
Speaker 1: was like, when did you write this? She's just told

1004
00:46:15,800 --> 00:46:17,640
Speaker 1: me you wrote it that morning, so I was like, wow,

1005
00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:20,440
Speaker 1: this is like or maybe maybe should just flow.

1006
00:46:20,680 --> 00:46:23,319
Speaker 3: That is literally some cancer shit, because that just flow.

1007
00:46:23,440 --> 00:46:25,040
Speaker 1: That is me. I can write. The fact that he

1008
00:46:25,120 --> 00:46:27,160
Speaker 1: wrote something and sent it to me. I don't know

1009
00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 1: that takes a lot of vulnerability, especially as a man,

1010
00:46:30,200 --> 00:46:32,680
Speaker 1: to do to do that, like, I feel like that's

1011
00:46:32,719 --> 00:46:36,440
Speaker 1: a very vulnerable thing, and especially after the first date.

1012
00:46:37,400 --> 00:46:40,399
Speaker 1: It's so it could be considered psycho as well. Once

1013
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:42,520
Speaker 1: all you look at it, you know, perspective depends who

1014
00:46:42,560 --> 00:46:43,920
Speaker 1: you do it. To do it to me, I think

1015
00:46:43,960 --> 00:46:46,879
Speaker 1: it's cute, Jamila, she might be scared, but this also

1016
00:46:46,920 --> 00:46:50,239
Speaker 1: comes from someone who's was considered writing a poem.

1017
00:46:50,280 --> 00:46:53,399
Speaker 3: Also, do I need to write some poetry? I wasn't

1018
00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:55,200
Speaker 3: gonna send it though. I would write poetry and keep

1019
00:46:55,200 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 3: it to myself. I've written Okay, I'll admit I've written love.

1020
00:46:58,040 --> 00:46:59,920
Speaker 1: Poetry, and then I keep it to myself. You've never

1021
00:47:00,000 --> 00:47:04,080
Speaker 1: actually sent it out, not once. I wrote one poem

1022
00:47:04,160 --> 00:47:06,319
Speaker 1: once actually to my ex when he was in jail,

1023
00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:10,040
Speaker 1: and that was my only poem. I actually found that recently.

1024
00:47:10,200 --> 00:47:14,040
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I found it recently. It was about

1025
00:47:14,080 --> 00:47:16,279
Speaker 1: him getting out of jail. It was like, baby, like,

1026
00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:20,400
Speaker 1: it will be you and me. Plus I ree that

1027
00:47:25,360 --> 00:47:28,080
Speaker 1: it was actually not bad and that's not how it went, guys.

1028
00:47:28,160 --> 00:47:31,439
Speaker 1: It was a little better than that. But I was like, wow,

1029
00:47:31,480 --> 00:47:33,439
Speaker 1: I really sat my ass down to write this whole

1030
00:47:33,680 --> 00:47:36,120
Speaker 1: fucking poet jail poetry letter. Wow, it's beautiful.

1031
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:38,720
Speaker 3: But also, you know, it's also just that's just embrace

1032
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:42,239
Speaker 3: being vulnerable for a moment, even if it's even if

1033
00:47:42,239 --> 00:47:42,680
Speaker 3: we don't know, for.

1034
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:45,240
Speaker 1: Being cycled, if it's und if it's just for quarantine,

1035
00:47:45,280 --> 00:47:46,840
Speaker 1: even if it's no, I don't think Min's gonna be

1036
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:49,480
Speaker 1: just for quant I know. I'm just kidding, just like no,

1037
00:47:49,719 --> 00:47:50,560
Speaker 1: actually this is.

1038
00:47:50,680 --> 00:47:59,160
Speaker 3: Hold on, bitch, I'm in deep, Like, yeah, this is

1039
00:47:59,280 --> 00:47:59,719
Speaker 3: this is an.

1040
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:00,759
Speaker 1: Interesting place to be.

1041
00:48:00,960 --> 00:48:03,239
Speaker 3: I've told Erico, it's apparent that we fall in love

1042
00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:07,360
Speaker 3: once a year publicly and privately. That means we're not

1043
00:48:07,560 --> 00:48:10,320
Speaker 3: generally psycho. But no, not really, this is different.

1044
00:48:12,120 --> 00:48:12,800
Speaker 1: This is different.

1045
00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:16,320
Speaker 3: But also I think it's okay to come to terms

1046
00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:18,759
Speaker 3: and be vulnerable and feel how you feel, and then

1047
00:48:18,840 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 3: remind yourself stop backing, crazy bitch. Just let things flow

1048
00:48:22,239 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 3: and just embrace it and ride with it and be

1049
00:48:24,120 --> 00:48:27,480
Speaker 3: a woman and not overthink shit and not sabotage.

1050
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:29,080
Speaker 1: It and not think Nigga's gonna fuck this up, He's

1051
00:48:29,120 --> 00:48:31,320
Speaker 1: going to be psycho? Are you serial killer? You know,

1052
00:48:31,440 --> 00:48:36,560
Speaker 1: all those normal thoughts, and just ride the way. Yeah,

1053
00:48:36,600 --> 00:48:38,880
Speaker 1: I'm riding the rave of I'm riding the wave, but

1054
00:48:38,920 --> 00:48:41,959
Speaker 1: I'm still a rave the raven the wave. I'm still

1055
00:48:42,280 --> 00:48:45,919
Speaker 1: gonna date. I'm still gonna date because I just even

1056
00:48:45,960 --> 00:48:48,160
Speaker 1: if I like and I do like him and I'm not,

1057
00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:50,440
Speaker 1: but I just want to make I almost have to

1058
00:48:50,480 --> 00:48:53,000
Speaker 1: do that for myself because I know like I can

1059
00:48:53,080 --> 00:48:55,680
Speaker 1: be committed even for not committed, and I just want

1060
00:48:55,719 --> 00:48:59,040
Speaker 1: to make sure before I do all that.

1061
00:48:59,280 --> 00:49:01,640
Speaker 3: This is the first time I felt like I want

1062
00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:04,000
Speaker 3: to be committed and I'm not obligated to be committed.

1063
00:49:04,640 --> 00:49:06,040
Speaker 1: I feel like I don't really have time.

1064
00:49:06,040 --> 00:49:07,640
Speaker 3: I don't want to entertain anything else because I know

1065
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:10,000
Speaker 3: I'm gonna like be annoyed, like I don't want to

1066
00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:10,480
Speaker 3: hang out with this.

1067
00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:16,279
Speaker 1: Other person because I'm like, where's that, Where's outdoors. eBay, Yeah,

1068
00:49:16,600 --> 00:49:19,600
Speaker 1: I think maybe I get there with this guy, but

1069
00:49:19,880 --> 00:49:21,840
Speaker 1: it's still we've only hung out twice.

1070
00:49:22,600 --> 00:49:24,760
Speaker 3: Well, it also just goes to prove that we're still

1071
00:49:25,040 --> 00:49:27,239
Speaker 3: like in eighth grade at heart, because that's what I

1072
00:49:27,320 --> 00:49:28,000
Speaker 3: fucking feel.

1073
00:49:27,880 --> 00:49:31,920
Speaker 1: Like love does. That love is pure, It has a

1074
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:34,480
Speaker 1: youthfulness to it, and you feel it when it really

1075
00:49:34,640 --> 00:49:37,440
Speaker 1: when you start feeling those feelings and the beginnings of

1076
00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:41,239
Speaker 1: like something irrationalness. Yeah, like it's who cares, it's been

1077
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:44,800
Speaker 1: three weeks, we're in love, and it really does something.

1078
00:49:45,120 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 1: It really does something to your brain.

1079
00:49:47,680 --> 00:49:49,759
Speaker 3: Especially when you've crunch in the numbers on pattern and

1080
00:49:49,840 --> 00:49:53,400
Speaker 3: everything pans out good, then it's at I know our

1081
00:49:53,480 --> 00:49:54,399
Speaker 3: pattern is pretty lit.

1082
00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:56,080
Speaker 1: Oh so you did look at it. I looked a

1083
00:49:57,200 --> 00:49:58,000
Speaker 1: coast o M pattern.

1084
00:49:58,040 --> 00:49:59,640
Speaker 3: I crunched the numbers and I was like, oh no,

1085
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:00,840
Speaker 3: this is my husband.

1086
00:50:03,040 --> 00:50:05,960
Speaker 1: Oh no, the numbers are all adding up correctly. Where

1087
00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:09,040
Speaker 1: she's also not telling sharing the story where she literally

1088
00:50:09,400 --> 00:50:12,439
Speaker 1: was like trying to get his birthday secretly she could,

1089
00:50:13,680 --> 00:50:15,520
Speaker 1: she asked it, she couldn't remember it, she'd know she

1090
00:50:15,520 --> 00:50:17,320
Speaker 1: should text him because she didn't wanted to know that

1091
00:50:17,400 --> 00:50:19,520
Speaker 1: she was a psycho that was looking up his date

1092
00:50:19,560 --> 00:50:21,560
Speaker 1: of birth for his natal chart to see if they

1093
00:50:21,600 --> 00:50:23,560
Speaker 1: were meant to be. I was like, Erica, I've texted

1094
00:50:23,600 --> 00:50:25,200
Speaker 1: him like twice. I asked him already. He showed it

1095
00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:25,400
Speaker 1: to me.

1096
00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:27,560
Speaker 3: I can't remember. It's not in the numbers, I said,

1097
00:50:27,640 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 3: I just got I have to know. This is another

1098
00:50:30,239 --> 00:50:31,600
Speaker 3: time that my psycho when was just coming out. I

1099
00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:34,600
Speaker 3: was like, I must know what our compatibility is exact,

1100
00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:36,839
Speaker 3: not just with the birth dates, with the fucking time

1101
00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:37,200
Speaker 3: of birth.

1102
00:50:37,280 --> 00:50:38,719
Speaker 1: It's so fucking important to me.

1103
00:50:39,000 --> 00:50:41,000
Speaker 3: So I just kept texting him like every five minutes, like,

1104
00:50:41,040 --> 00:50:42,439
Speaker 3: by the way, did you get that time?

1105
00:50:43,160 --> 00:50:44,600
Speaker 1: He's like, I added you im my, thanks.

1106
00:50:44,880 --> 00:50:46,480
Speaker 3: I'm still ready to get back over there to get

1107
00:50:46,480 --> 00:50:48,200
Speaker 3: the time so I can crunch the actual numbers in

1108
00:50:48,200 --> 00:50:51,040
Speaker 3: the pattern. I just crunched the numbers in the costar. Actually,

1109
00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:53,720
Speaker 3: co Star, if you're listening, you need to share the numbers.

1110
00:50:53,840 --> 00:50:56,040
Speaker 3: I need to be able to see everybody else's time

1111
00:50:56,080 --> 00:50:58,160
Speaker 3: of birth so I can crunch those numbers into other

1112
00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:00,000
Speaker 3: other plans.

1113
00:51:03,040 --> 00:51:07,840
Speaker 1: You're witnessing it here, guys, Jamilus psychonist in action.

1114
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:14,560
Speaker 3: Anyway, the numbers came back great, So all's well on

1115
00:51:14,640 --> 00:51:15,200
Speaker 3: the horizon.

1116
00:51:16,040 --> 00:51:18,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, ours are there were there were some things that

1117
00:51:18,800 --> 00:51:20,840
Speaker 1: were not so great, But I feel like there's always

1118
00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:22,879
Speaker 1: this balance. They always try to give you the balance. Yeah,

1119
00:51:23,000 --> 00:51:25,279
Speaker 1: everything's great, but there's all that your sex life is

1120
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:28,440
Speaker 1: gonna suck. Oh that's really great. You guys are life partners,

1121
00:51:28,560 --> 00:51:31,480
Speaker 1: but you might feel boxton because the pattern loves to

1122
00:51:31,600 --> 00:51:35,479
Speaker 1: use the boxton one. Is it inappropriate to say? Okay?

1123
00:51:35,719 --> 00:51:39,160
Speaker 1: It is? It is. Okay, if you have to ask,

1124
00:51:39,600 --> 00:51:42,799
Speaker 1: it might be inappropriate. It is, it is. It's gonna

1125
00:51:42,800 --> 00:51:43,359
Speaker 1: stop right there.

1126
00:51:43,360 --> 00:51:45,600
Speaker 3: All right, then I'm becoming a mature young woman and

1127
00:51:45,719 --> 00:51:47,520
Speaker 3: I'm just gonna stop right there.

1128
00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:54,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know the things that's that The things

1129
00:51:54,120 --> 00:52:00,200
Speaker 1: that the app set about are connection shatap no. Well,

1130
00:52:01,239 --> 00:52:04,880
Speaker 1: the things that the app said about our connection, I

1131
00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:08,640
Speaker 1: kind of already feel like I already knew that kind

1132
00:52:08,719 --> 00:52:13,560
Speaker 1: of yeah, I feel it. Well, you know, the pattern is, yeah,

1133
00:52:13,560 --> 00:52:16,239
Speaker 1: God speaking to us through app. But I know there's

1134
00:52:16,280 --> 00:52:19,879
Speaker 1: no perfect there's no perfect fucking there's no pattern that's

1135
00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:22,799
Speaker 1: like you guys, everything is perfect. And that's another thing.

1136
00:52:22,960 --> 00:52:25,000
Speaker 3: Okay, before we wrap this up, that's another thing that

1137
00:52:25,040 --> 00:52:27,239
Speaker 3: I realize is scary. The scary part of it all

1138
00:52:27,360 --> 00:52:28,960
Speaker 3: is like we're going to navigate this life. We all

1139
00:52:29,040 --> 00:52:31,279
Speaker 3: kind of like mostly for the most part, my companionship

1140
00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:34,480
Speaker 3: want love on partnership. We want you know, peacefulness and

1141
00:52:34,840 --> 00:52:37,360
Speaker 3: you know, partners that help us grow. But the truth

1142
00:52:37,400 --> 00:52:39,720
Speaker 3: of the matter is is no matter who we find,

1143
00:52:40,239 --> 00:52:43,240
Speaker 3: no matter who we find in this world, every single

1144
00:52:43,320 --> 00:52:44,439
Speaker 3: person has some shit.

1145
00:52:45,239 --> 00:52:47,640
Speaker 1: Absolutely, everybody has some shit. No, it's about who shit

1146
00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:49,279
Speaker 1: you want to do it. It's about who she is

1147
00:52:49,719 --> 00:52:51,960
Speaker 1: and how well they've handled their shit and is it

1148
00:52:52,080 --> 00:52:54,120
Speaker 1: like is it compliment your shit?

1149
00:52:54,280 --> 00:52:56,840
Speaker 3: Can you handle my shit? But it's like the fucking

1150
00:52:57,120 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 3: I had to come to this conclusion that because Okay,

1151
00:52:59,600 --> 00:53:03,080
Speaker 3: so he's forty three, he's never been in love. That's

1152
00:53:03,120 --> 00:53:06,800
Speaker 3: concerning and alarming, not alarming concerning, like, Okay, are you unabled?

1153
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:10,160
Speaker 3: Are you like you have issues being vulnerable? Because I'm

1154
00:53:10,160 --> 00:53:14,080
Speaker 3: a vulnerable bitch. Clearly I'm not going crazy. But the

1155
00:53:14,160 --> 00:53:17,400
Speaker 3: truth of the matter is everybody deals with trauma. Everybody does, Like,

1156
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:19,719
Speaker 3: but are you willing to realize you're healing from it

1157
00:53:19,760 --> 00:53:20,480
Speaker 3: and you're gonna.

1158
00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:20,600
Speaker 1: Work on it?

1159
00:53:20,640 --> 00:53:22,200
Speaker 3: And he was like, you know, this is my problems,

1160
00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:24,799
Speaker 3: this is what I've experienced, and I think I'm gonna

1161
00:53:24,800 --> 00:53:26,000
Speaker 3: do this, and I've been working.

1162
00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,919
Speaker 1: On this and I'm like Helleluia Alicia telling me Lisha.

1163
00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:29,520
Speaker 3: You know, but a part of me is even like,

1164
00:53:29,600 --> 00:53:33,359
Speaker 3: you know, we we have to recognize that no one's

1165
00:53:33,400 --> 00:53:36,080
Speaker 3: going to come perfect, and like fully, like even a

1166
00:53:36,160 --> 00:53:40,319
Speaker 3: lifetime of therapy doesn't make you perfect. And honestly, unless

1167
00:53:40,400 --> 00:53:43,120
Speaker 3: you're fucking marrying someone's super rich who has had a

1168
00:53:43,160 --> 00:53:44,319
Speaker 3: lifetime with therapy.

1169
00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:48,480
Speaker 1: It's true, that's true. I think for me, like I know,

1170
00:53:48,760 --> 00:53:50,880
Speaker 1: for me, I just have like I am such like

1171
00:53:51,719 --> 00:53:54,200
Speaker 1: words actually irritate me. That's why I don't like texting,

1172
00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:56,239
Speaker 1: like and also like I don't like people making any

1173
00:53:56,280 --> 00:54:00,320
Speaker 1: promises or anything like that. And I feel like in

1174
00:54:00,440 --> 00:54:04,480
Speaker 1: my in this relationship or any relationship moving forward, and

1175
00:54:05,640 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 1: the the trajectory that I've been on is like I

1176
00:54:09,280 --> 00:54:11,400
Speaker 1: need to see the action, you know what I mean, Like,

1177
00:54:11,600 --> 00:54:16,960
Speaker 1: I just I don't know, so, you know, I just

1178
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:21,959
Speaker 1: feel like time only shows that the action, the action

1179
00:54:22,160 --> 00:54:24,759
Speaker 1: of whether or not he is gonna work on the

1180
00:54:24,840 --> 00:54:26,600
Speaker 1: things he says it's gonna work, Like it's easy to

1181
00:54:26,640 --> 00:54:29,319
Speaker 1: say that in week two or three, because you don't

1182
00:54:29,360 --> 00:54:31,680
Speaker 1: expect him to figure it out in three weeks. No,

1183
00:54:31,840 --> 00:54:33,440
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, and I'm not talking just

1184
00:54:33,480 --> 00:54:35,320
Speaker 1: about you, and like even you know the things that

1185
00:54:35,600 --> 00:54:37,840
Speaker 1: you know. My my poet has said to me.

1186
00:54:38,360 --> 00:54:41,040
Speaker 3: We're gonna chame him to poetry by he has to

1187
00:54:41,040 --> 00:54:43,839
Speaker 3: be poetry Bany. What was nerdy Bays not good enough?

1188
00:54:43,880 --> 00:54:45,920
Speaker 3: He's poetry Bany poetry b poetry.

1189
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Speaker 1: We take these names very seriously, guys, because once we commit,

1190
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Speaker 1: if that's it.

1191
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Speaker 3: My guy said something to me, He's like like something

1192
00:54:54,440 --> 00:54:56,919
Speaker 3: about talking about him, and I was like, well, I've

1193
00:54:57,000 --> 00:54:58,560
Speaker 3: never call you by name. I'm going to probably give

1194
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Speaker 3: you a name like.

1195
00:54:59,120 --> 00:54:59,879
Speaker 1: Outdoors e Bay.

1196
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Speaker 3: I said, it's so serious too, like, no, never, I

1197
00:55:04,040 --> 00:55:05,160
Speaker 3: would never do that. It's gonna be.

1198
00:55:05,160 --> 00:55:07,200
Speaker 1: Something more along the line. There's gonna be a bay

1199
00:55:07,239 --> 00:55:10,120
Speaker 1: at that for sure, but it will never be your

1200
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Speaker 1: full name. And we might say it, but we'll bleep

1201
00:55:13,000 --> 00:55:21,919
Speaker 1: it out hopefully if Erica remember that's happened too. But yeah,

1202
00:55:22,440 --> 00:55:25,879
Speaker 1: I have another Hinge date coming up next guys, Next

1203
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Speaker 1: Tuesday Hinge date. No, why do you have the plane?

1204
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Speaker 3: Okay? I was gonna say next Tuesday?

1205
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Speaker 1: The fuck you need a weak fucking notice for FaceTime? Yeah? Okay, yeah,

1206
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:38,280
Speaker 1: because if I might change my mind, between now and Tuesday.

1207
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Speaker 1: You know, I might be psycho with you by Tuesday.

1208
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Speaker 1: I get nervous on FaceTime. I need to see you.

1209
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Speaker 3: I don't know, I feel like nervous.

1210
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Speaker 1: I actually I prefer it. It's so much better, like

1211
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Speaker 1: you can hang up yeah and block them. I didn't

1212
00:55:50,960 --> 00:55:55,759
Speaker 1: think about that anyway. Anyway, this this episode is not

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Speaker 3: Quarantine ries, someone please add to ours because this is

1246
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Speaker 3: some bullshit. And I also have one I haven't I

1247
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Speaker 3: but we do. Actually we're gonna play that thing.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, we should do it. We gotta go.

1250
00:57:30,640 --> 00:57:32,400
Speaker 3: I gotta go to see my man. Okay, just kidding,

1251
00:57:32,520 --> 00:57:35,520
Speaker 3: is not my man? That was another that psycho shit

1252
00:57:35,560 --> 00:57:36,360
Speaker 3: I was talking about.

1253
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Speaker 1: He's not going anywhere I know. Okay, I'm just kidding.

1254
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Speaker 3: I hope you never freacking listen to this. This is

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Speaker 3: not good.

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Speaker 1: So this is a horry hor stories. It's time for

1257
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Speaker 1: horse from the internet.

1258
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Speaker 3: My friend sent this to me. This didn't happen to her,

1259
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Speaker 3: and I just thought this is very rude of her

1260
00:57:58,760 --> 00:57:59,240
Speaker 3: to send to me.

1261
00:57:59,680 --> 00:58:02,120
Speaker 1: Well, when you read it to me or you, yeah,

1262
00:58:02,280 --> 00:58:03,040
Speaker 1: it was scary.

1263
00:58:03,280 --> 00:58:03,960
Speaker 3: Okay, here we go.

1264
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Speaker 6: Yeah, what up? Crazy one night stand stories that'll make

1265
00:58:10,040 --> 00:58:12,400
Speaker 6: you women never want to have a one night stand?

1266
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Speaker 4: What it do?

1267
00:58:13,520 --> 00:58:16,280
Speaker 6: This is a true story. I read about this a

1268
00:58:16,320 --> 00:58:18,120
Speaker 6: while back, but I saw her here again recently. I

1269
00:58:18,240 --> 00:58:21,160
Speaker 6: was like, wow, that's crazy. So basically, this woman meets

1270
00:58:21,200 --> 00:58:23,480
Speaker 6: a guy on tender. She goes on a date with them. Afterwards,

1271
00:58:23,520 --> 00:58:25,000
Speaker 6: she goes back to his place. They have sex. She

1272
00:58:25,120 --> 00:58:27,360
Speaker 6: allows him to ejaculate on her face and chest.

1273
00:58:28,400 --> 00:58:29,320
Speaker 1: After that happens.

1274
00:58:29,400 --> 00:58:32,040
Speaker 6: Next day, things cool, but then she noticed is a rash.

1275
00:58:32,960 --> 00:58:35,160
Speaker 6: She's concerned, so obviously she reaches out to the dude.

1276
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:37,520
Speaker 6: Who's the last person she has sex with, lets her know.

1277
00:58:37,600 --> 00:58:39,840
Speaker 1: That lets him know that she's going to see a doctor.

1278
00:58:39,920 --> 00:58:41,880
Speaker 6: She goes to the doctor. Doctor says, you don't have

1279
00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:44,760
Speaker 6: an SCD sensor. To her dermatologist, this word, it gets crazy.

1280
00:58:44,840 --> 00:58:47,440
Speaker 6: Goes to a dermatologists. Dermatologists said, do you have that

1281
00:58:47,640 --> 00:58:50,520
Speaker 6: there were parasites in the guy seemen who you had

1282
00:58:50,560 --> 00:58:53,080
Speaker 6: sex with. Those parasites can only come from one of

1283
00:58:53,160 --> 00:58:56,240
Speaker 6: two places, either somebody who has sex with animals or

1284
00:58:56,320 --> 00:58:58,960
Speaker 6: somebody who has sex with corpses. She looks the guy

1285
00:58:59,040 --> 00:59:00,760
Speaker 6: up on Facebook works in a more.

1286
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Speaker 3: And ladies and gentlemen, that is a horror story if I've.

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Speaker 1: Ever heard one. Now, that's a real horror story.

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Speaker 3: And thank you Shannie Harris for that fucking ad. And

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Speaker 3: also that's why I never let people fucking come on

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Speaker 3: my face. What do you think it's like a dead person.

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Speaker 1: I'm about to throw the fuck. What does the pussy

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Speaker 1: feel like? Maybe it's really tight, kind of like everybody

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Speaker 1: starts to shut down. Stop it's really tight, pussy is

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Speaker 1: really loose. It's everything's like, I don't know, I feel

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Speaker 1: like that was muscles with no The muscles get tight, intense, stiff,

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Speaker 1: and then you release you're no, I don't know. I

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Speaker 1: don't want to release. No. I think when you die,

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Speaker 1: you release and then you start getting stiff.

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Speaker 3: I don't even appreciate her for sending that to me.

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Speaker 3: I don't even appreciate us for sharing this with you.

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Speaker 1: Guys. Dead people have typeos. I need to know. I

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Speaker 1: don't need to know. And Jesus Christ, we're gonna google this.

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Speaker 1: I don't don't. I'm really gonna go. I bet there's

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Speaker 1: a whole like secret dark internet of like people like

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Speaker 1: talking about this.

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Speaker 3: They're going to trace it back to your your fucking

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Speaker 3: htt web address that you've been searching this, and they're

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Speaker 3: gonna think you're one of them. I always think that

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Speaker 3: when I search certain things, I'm like, oh.

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Speaker 1: Well, when I'm watching porn, accidentally click on some of

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Speaker 1: this way, it looks way too young. I'm like, I know,

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Speaker 1: especially because I like.

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Speaker 3: Like, like taking advantage porn, because I like like stepdaddy,

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Speaker 3: because I have issues with what I don't know what's

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Speaker 3: going on with me.

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Speaker 1: It's my fantasies.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, oh no, they're gonna come after me. They're

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Speaker 3: gonna think I'm looking for teens something.

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Speaker 2: I know.

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Speaker 1: It gets scared, honestly, just since my neighbor got busted.

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Speaker 3: Oh, her neighbor have busted for child pornography and then

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Speaker 3: they released them back to the neighborhood. I don't understand it.

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Speaker 1: He was selling it, Honestly, I don't.

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Speaker 3: I smell them to the valley for if other people

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Speaker 3: don't smoke weed and listen to our podcast. Honestly, I

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Speaker 3: appreciate you because this is the highest shit I've ever heard.

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Speaker 3: I know because I'm listening to it as we talk,

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Speaker 3: and as the conversation just can tinues, I'm like, how

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Speaker 3: do non stone people partake in this bullshit? We're like

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Speaker 3: getting so deep and then we're talking about tight pussies

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Speaker 3: of corpses.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, Actually this weeet is making me giggili. It's

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Speaker 1: space nuts. It's an Indica. Oh and it's called space cake.

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Speaker 1: Space Cake. It's called space cake. And even though we

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Speaker 1: like space nuts in Indica. You guys, we do this

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Speaker 1: roll up segment on Patreon that where we roll up,

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Speaker 1: we roll up and then we have these very high conversations.

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Speaker 1: So they're only on Patreon. I used to check it out.

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Speaker 1: We released one last week and we're in our bathing suits.

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Speaker 3: Also, we're always doing new sex moves.

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Speaker 1: We have one dropping soon. We have to get that

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Speaker 1: on video.

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Speaker 3: We have new sex moves. It's called sex Moves one

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Speaker 3: on one also exclusively on Patreon, So you're.

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Speaker 1: Missing out pretty much. Essentially, you got to search us.

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Speaker 1: Good You have to search us because apparently we're explicit

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Speaker 1: and you can't just type in our name Patreon dot com,

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Speaker 1: backslash good Moms, Bad Choices in your space bar, or

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Speaker 1: you can just click link in our Instagram bio whatever.

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Speaker 3: Review this episode, leave us a comment, rate and review

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Speaker 3: us if you love us, if you've listened to this.

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Speaker 1: Whole, if you guys have been, especially the ones like

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Speaker 1: our day ones, Like if you're a day Wanner and

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Speaker 1: you haven't left a review, please just go give us

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Speaker 1: a little store like five if you want whatever, like

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Speaker 1: five only.

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Speaker 3: And then and if you give us one, a bit

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Speaker 3: of your fucking great reason, yeah, like.

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Speaker 1: The fact that Eric is making fun of dead quarts

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Speaker 1: pussy but or our.

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Speaker 3: White girl fry that's one of our favorite.

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Speaker 1: So have a great week and don't be a psycho.

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Speaker 3: Peace,