WEBVTT - MY FIRST TV SHOW 0:00:01.360 --> 0:00:05.000 You're listening to Jojassee one now with me Jojo Seua 0:00:05.160 --> 0:00:10.280 and iHeartRadio podcast. Welcome back to Jojo See One Now. 0:00:10.400 --> 0:00:13.280 I feel like I should do a whole episode in 0:00:13.320 --> 0:00:19.120 an accent like he might Welcome back to jj C. Now. 0:00:19.560 --> 0:00:21.560 See the problem is, I used to commit to a 0:00:21.600 --> 0:00:24.880 British accent, but now that I listen to g Flip 0:00:24.880 --> 0:00:27.840 all the time, I commit to an Australian accent. And 0:00:27.840 --> 0:00:29.960 then I'm like, Nah, it just doesn't work. It just 0:00:30.000 --> 0:00:32.120 doesn't work, all right, I gotta stop. I gotta move 0:00:32.159 --> 0:00:36.080 on from that. Anyways, Welcome back to joj Just's one Now. Today, 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:41.800 I am going on a eleven year old Jojo time 0:00:42.000 --> 0:00:44.879 travel mission, and we are going way back to the beginning. 0:00:45.120 --> 0:00:48.600 I am gonna tell you about my very very first 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:52.199 TV show experience. What was like getting on the show. 0:00:53.520 --> 0:00:55.320 Maybe even like a little bit about my life before 0:00:55.320 --> 0:00:58.440 the Show's gonna naturally come up life during the show, 0:00:59.000 --> 0:01:01.720 and I I feel like, you guys know me, I'm 0:01:01.720 --> 0:01:04.160 just gonna ramble. We know how that goes. I feel 0:01:04.160 --> 0:01:05.600 like I have like a topic that I want to 0:01:05.600 --> 0:01:07.680 talk about and then it's like, oh yeah, yeah, I'm 0:01:07.680 --> 0:01:09.680 gonna talk to myself for thirty minutes about this topic. 0:01:09.720 --> 0:01:14.119 Oh easy, let me ramble on happily. So that's what's 0:01:14.160 --> 0:01:17.279 happening right now. Buckle up, get your seatbelts on, because 0:01:17.280 --> 0:01:21.800 we are going down Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition memory Lane. 0:01:22.640 --> 0:01:28.280 I am nine years old. I honestly, okay, let's go 0:01:28.360 --> 0:01:31.000 back a little bit further. My whole life since before 0:01:31.080 --> 0:01:34.959 Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition. Grew up in Omaha, Nebraska. I 0:01:35.040 --> 0:01:40.200 was a very very different child. I was not normal. 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:43.279 I don't really know how to explain it. I've only 0:01:43.520 --> 0:01:45.920 met one kid that my mom has been like, this 0:01:46.000 --> 0:01:48.480 is what you were like, and I was like, oh, 0:01:48.520 --> 0:01:51.480 that makes sense. Actually, I'll tell you who the kid is. 0:01:51.480 --> 0:01:55.040 It's little Titus, who we love so very much. He 0:01:55.200 --> 0:01:57.320 started out as Minni Jake Paul. I feel like Titus 0:01:57.360 --> 0:01:59.960 still does a little Minijake Paul gig every every so often. 0:02:01.280 --> 0:02:03.680 But my mom, you know, we just had Titus performed 0:02:03.680 --> 0:02:06.880 with my exog pop girls. She was like the tightest. 0:02:07.080 --> 0:02:09.240 That's like pretty similar to how you were when you 0:02:09.240 --> 0:02:11.400 were a kid, and it's just you just tell that 0:02:11.480 --> 0:02:13.960 there's just something in that kid that like he just 0:02:14.320 --> 0:02:18.520 he understood something on a different level. And that's that's 0:02:18.560 --> 0:02:20.600 basically what my mom told me. I was like my 0:02:20.639 --> 0:02:22.880 whole life, and everyone that knew me when I was 0:02:22.919 --> 0:02:25.760 little would say that too. People used to tell her mom, 0:02:25.760 --> 0:02:28.000 They're like, you just need a driver into the Disney 0:02:28.000 --> 0:02:29.960 building and just set her on the ground and don't 0:02:30.000 --> 0:02:31.360 know what to do with her. And my mom was like, 0:02:31.400 --> 0:02:32.919 I don't know how it works, but I know that's 0:02:33.040 --> 0:02:35.360 not how it works. Uh now, knowing what I know, 0:02:35.440 --> 0:02:37.280 that's definitely not how it works. You would get kicked 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:40.800 uf O security in an instant. Anyways. So growing up 0:02:40.840 --> 0:02:43.799 in Omahana Rasca, I always danced my mom on a 0:02:43.880 --> 0:02:46.760 dance studio and I always loved it. But I always 0:02:46.840 --> 0:02:49.560 knew that I wanted more. I always knew that I 0:02:49.600 --> 0:02:53.160 wanted to be Hannah Montana or I Carly. I always 0:02:53.160 --> 0:02:55.920 said that I wanted a show called I Hannah Montana 0:02:55.919 --> 0:02:58.960 because I loved I Carly and I loved Hannah Montana. Uh, 0:02:59.000 --> 0:03:01.119 but you know you're you're in on Nebraska, Like what's 0:03:01.120 --> 0:03:03.560 gonna happen? You know what I mean? And so my 0:03:03.600 --> 0:03:06.040 mom brought me out to La when I was really little. 0:03:06.080 --> 0:03:09.359 I was four years old. Did this thing called AMTC. 0:03:09.639 --> 0:03:12.600 A lot of child stars do AMTC when they're really little, 0:03:12.960 --> 0:03:16.119 and it's just like a big competition where a bunch 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:19.440 of models and nectars and dancers go and they compete 0:03:19.440 --> 0:03:22.680 and they perform in front of agents and managers and 0:03:22.720 --> 0:03:27.600 it's it's basically long story short, like it's not it's 0:03:28.360 --> 0:03:33.360 it's legit, but it's a little like it's for the 0:03:33.440 --> 0:03:36.040 right people, but not really anything comes of it, if 0:03:36.040 --> 0:03:38.600 that makes sense. But it's a massive experience that like 0:03:39.280 --> 0:03:44.080 everyone does. It's a very strange thing. Anyways. So then 0:03:44.480 --> 0:03:47.120 after that, like went back to Nebraska nothing. I was 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:49.760 homeschool in my whole life so I could dance more. 0:03:50.000 --> 0:03:52.800 And just because I was too smart initially for school 0:03:53.760 --> 0:03:56.040 in kindergarten, I got tested and they were like, yo, 0:03:56.320 --> 0:03:59.280 she is at a third grade level. And my mom 0:03:59.560 --> 0:04:02.080 my school wouldn't let me grade up, and so my 0:04:02.160 --> 0:04:04.240 mom made the decision to homeschool meets that way I 0:04:04.280 --> 0:04:06.520 could grade up. And then it ended up working out 0:04:06.520 --> 0:04:08.200 because then I could dance more, and then it ended 0:04:08.280 --> 0:04:11.880 up working out even better for my TV career. So 0:04:12.000 --> 0:04:14.720 cut to Dance Moms comes out. I think Dance Moms 0:04:14.720 --> 0:04:17.400 came out when I was like six or seven, and 0:04:17.440 --> 0:04:19.960 my mom was like, why are we not on this show? 0:04:20.120 --> 0:04:23.320 Like this is literally me, like what? And so that 0:04:23.480 --> 0:04:24.960 was kind of funny when the show came out and 0:04:24.960 --> 0:04:26.800 then turns out a few years later I ended up 0:04:26.800 --> 0:04:29.160 being on it. But then they made a spinoff, Abby's 0:04:29.200 --> 0:04:32.400 Ultimate Dance Competition, and it was a preview for it 0:04:32.440 --> 0:04:33.920 on Dance Moms and it was like, if you want 0:04:33.960 --> 0:04:36.240 to submit, you know, send your audition in a year. 0:04:36.279 --> 0:04:38.640 And so my mom did the first season and nothing, 0:04:38.680 --> 0:04:40.960 you didn't hear, We didn't hear anything. And so she 0:04:41.000 --> 0:04:43.839 did the second season and she she actually she didn't 0:04:43.839 --> 0:04:45.560 tell me anything. She didn't tell me that she did 0:04:45.560 --> 0:04:47.960 at first, and then because she didn't think anything was 0:04:48.000 --> 0:04:49.480 gonna come of it. It's just like go for it, 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:51.039 but like hope for the best of Well, like obviously 0:04:51.040 --> 0:04:55.320 nothing's gonna happen. Well something happened. We got an email back, 0:04:55.400 --> 0:04:56.680 My mom got an email back, and I was like, 0:04:56.720 --> 0:04:59.680 we would like to do a Skype interview with you 0:05:00.080 --> 0:05:03.440 time when Skype was a thing. We love Skype. I 0:05:03.520 --> 0:05:06.520 love that, Like Zoom came in and like fully took over, 0:05:06.640 --> 0:05:10.920 but Skype was the og. Anyways, did a skype interview, 0:05:11.000 --> 0:05:13.840 and they loved my mom and I. So at this 0:05:13.880 --> 0:05:16.960 point in time, I'm nine years old. I'm very young. 0:05:17.520 --> 0:05:20.479 I believe the original age for the show was ten 0:05:20.520 --> 0:05:22.560 and older. But they liked me because I was I 0:05:22.720 --> 0:05:26.000 was fun I was funky, I was fearless, and what 0:05:26.040 --> 0:05:27.640 I would say, I could hold my own in the 0:05:27.720 --> 0:05:30.960 dance department. But it was more so about that personality. 0:05:31.000 --> 0:05:33.480 And they mentioned that I was very young, but they 0:05:33.880 --> 0:05:37.400 liked it, they were okay with it. And so then 0:05:37.680 --> 0:05:40.600 cut to we had another skype and then some paperwork, 0:05:40.640 --> 0:05:43.040 another skype, and then some paperwork, another skype, and then 0:05:43.080 --> 0:05:46.200 some paperwork. And on these skypes, they really would just 0:05:47.560 --> 0:05:51.080 interview my mom, interview me, interview us together, interview us 0:05:51.120 --> 0:05:53.359 without each other in the room, to like see what 0:05:53.400 --> 0:05:56.800 our dynamic really was, like, tell us scenarios and how 0:05:56.839 --> 0:05:59.080 we would react. And it was just it was really 0:05:59.120 --> 0:06:02.640 a good pat called. The casting agents were incredible for 0:06:02.720 --> 0:06:08.279 that show. And what's funny is I don't think we 0:06:08.400 --> 0:06:11.000 really knew what was going on at the time. Now 0:06:11.240 --> 0:06:14.560 knowing what I know about reality TV, they were looking 0:06:14.600 --> 0:06:16.480 for somebody who was going to make a good show. 0:06:16.520 --> 0:06:19.000 Without knowing it, I think That's what happens now is 0:06:19.040 --> 0:06:21.200 on reality TV, people think, oh, I want to come 0:06:21.240 --> 0:06:23.160 in and be the villain or oh I want to 0:06:23.160 --> 0:06:25.400 come in and be the good guy, whereas it's like, no, 0:06:25.560 --> 0:06:28.560 you just gotta naturally be that or do that. It's 0:06:28.600 --> 0:06:30.520 not something that you can fake, you know what I mean. 0:06:32.200 --> 0:06:35.520 So anyways, uh, then you have to do something called 0:06:35.640 --> 0:06:37.640 a psych test. Now, this is something that you have 0:06:37.680 --> 0:06:41.040 to do for a lot of reality TV shows because 0:06:41.080 --> 0:06:45.960 reality TV is very intense, it's very real, and it's 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:51.560 very maneuvered. Maybe is the right word manipulated? Is not 0:06:51.680 --> 0:06:55.640 the right word produced? Maybe is the right word? Scripted 0:06:55.760 --> 0:06:57.920 is the wrong word. That's when people get reality TV 0:06:58.080 --> 0:07:01.840 very confused. Is it is real? There is no script, 0:07:01.920 --> 0:07:04.919 but there is some guidance in there of what's gonna happen, 0:07:04.960 --> 0:07:07.400 and the the producers you know, in all reality shows, 0:07:07.400 --> 0:07:11.080 will be like, hey, uh, Sarah said this about Jackie. 0:07:11.080 --> 0:07:12.880 What do you think about that? You know what I mean? 0:07:12.920 --> 0:07:15.240 And so there is some like side of our conversation 0:07:15.360 --> 0:07:17.360 on how you'll find out things that you didn't know, 0:07:17.600 --> 0:07:20.800 And so you have to do psych evaluations and Abby's 0:07:20.840 --> 0:07:23.240 Ultimate Dan's Competition was one that we had to do 0:07:23.320 --> 0:07:28.200 a psychic valve for another one is like UH special Forces, 0:07:28.240 --> 0:07:30.960 we had to do a massive psychic valve for UH 0:07:31.040 --> 0:07:38.160 special Forces. And it's these psych evaluations are actually like 0:07:38.800 --> 0:07:43.360 so deep and so intense. I the first one that 0:07:43.440 --> 0:07:46.040 I like really I guess was like able to comprehend 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:48.760 what everything was was for Special Forces was the first 0:07:48.760 --> 0:07:50.720 time that I was like old enough to really like 0:07:50.960 --> 0:07:53.960 know what I was doing, and like when I was 0:07:54.000 --> 0:07:56.120 reading all these questions, it's just like a like sec 0:07:56.160 --> 0:07:58.520 the ABC or D type of thing. I mean, it 0:07:58.680 --> 0:08:02.240 is very very intense. It's crazy, it's it's a it 0:08:02.320 --> 0:08:05.520 takes it takes about an hour. It's very it's very intense. 0:08:05.600 --> 0:08:07.920 And I'm not a tester because I was always homeschooled 0:08:07.920 --> 0:08:10.600 and so for tests, I get super stressed out. And 0:08:10.640 --> 0:08:12.760 so anyways, that's a story for another time. We'll get 0:08:12.760 --> 0:08:21.960 into that another day. Bags at E DCY So we 0:08:21.960 --> 0:08:25.360 did our cycle val and we were all good, good 0:08:25.440 --> 0:08:28.640 in that department, and then they did a final audition 0:08:28.960 --> 0:08:31.080 in New York. So they ended up being twelve of 0:08:31.120 --> 0:08:33.080 us on the show, but they brought twenty four of 0:08:33.160 --> 0:08:35.719 us to New York. We did not see each other. 0:08:35.880 --> 0:08:37.760 One would go in, one would go out, and so 0:08:37.880 --> 0:08:40.480 like we like we just no one. No one crossed paths. 0:08:40.480 --> 0:08:42.880 We don't know who anyone was. But we all were 0:08:42.880 --> 0:08:44.760 in New York at the same time. This is my 0:08:44.760 --> 0:08:46.920 first time ever going to New York. We stayed at 0:08:46.960 --> 0:08:51.080 a really cool hotel. My mom drug me everywhere. We 0:08:51.160 --> 0:08:53.960 went on the subway. We went to a Rockefeller, we 0:08:54.040 --> 0:08:57.679 went to Times Square, we went to freaking Central Park, 0:08:57.720 --> 0:09:00.880 we went we went literally every where. We were the 0:09:00.960 --> 0:09:03.559 tourists that to have lived you named the New York 0:09:03.559 --> 0:09:06.000 Tourist Attraction. We saw it in forty eight hours. It 0:09:06.040 --> 0:09:08.640 was actually really fun. Looking back at the time, I 0:09:08.679 --> 0:09:10.640 was like, Mom, can't we just go chill. She's like no, 0:09:10.720 --> 0:09:12.560 because we don't come to New York. Like, this is 0:09:12.600 --> 0:09:14.000 crazy that we're in New York City. I think it 0:09:14.040 --> 0:09:16.959 was actually maybe her like second time in New York 0:09:17.000 --> 0:09:18.880 City and it was my first obviously, and so it 0:09:18.920 --> 0:09:22.640 was a very very big deal. Anyways, cut tol We 0:09:22.679 --> 0:09:25.800 go back home and we didn't think anything because we 0:09:25.840 --> 0:09:27.960 didn't hear anything. It is about a month later and 0:09:28.000 --> 0:09:30.000 we were like, all right, it just didn't happen, right, 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:32.720 And then one day we were at the homeschool store 0:09:32.760 --> 0:09:38.160 buying new homeschool books for me. This was in a April, 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:43.120 March March, I think maybe March February, February, March or April, 0:09:43.160 --> 0:09:44.719 I don't know, it doesn't matter. We'll we filmed the 0:09:44.720 --> 0:09:46.719 show in April, so it would have had to have 0:09:46.720 --> 0:09:49.480 been in March in February either way. We got a 0:09:49.480 --> 0:09:52.520 phone call and it was like, hello, is this Jesselyn. 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:56.120 It was a little English girl and my mom was like, yes, 0:09:56.160 --> 0:09:58.760 this is she and she was like, oh, well, I'm 0:09:58.800 --> 0:10:01.960 just calling to inform you, and so we were like shit, 0:10:02.200 --> 0:10:03.720 like we didn't make it, you know what I mean, 0:10:03.800 --> 0:10:07.199 because I'm just calling to inform you. And then she 0:10:07.320 --> 0:10:10.240 was like you made the show, and I just started sobbing. 0:10:10.360 --> 0:10:14.280 I mean, it was my like ultimate dream to be 0:10:14.440 --> 0:10:17.080 on Abbey's Ultimate Dance Competition. I just watched season one 0:10:17.200 --> 0:10:22.720 and so I was just so stoked. And then from 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:25.040 there it was like, oh, this is real, Like this 0:10:25.080 --> 0:10:28.960 is really really happening. Okay, Okay, what do I do now? 0:10:29.000 --> 0:10:30.400 How do I prepare now? And then it was kind 0:10:30.400 --> 0:10:32.240 of like no, We've spent nine years of our life 0:10:32.280 --> 0:10:34.679 preparing for this, like this now we just got to 0:10:34.720 --> 0:10:36.520 go and do it. So then we had we had 0:10:36.520 --> 0:10:39.240 a few weeks at home, and then we flew out 0:10:39.320 --> 0:10:44.960 to Los Angeles, California, to film Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition. 0:10:45.360 --> 0:10:48.960 It was nuts. I couldn't tell anyone that I was 0:10:49.000 --> 0:10:51.840 doing it, and so for like friends back home, they 0:10:51.840 --> 0:10:53.640 were like, where are you going? And I was like, nowhere. 0:10:53.840 --> 0:10:55.400 How long are you gonna be there? I don't know, 0:10:55.559 --> 0:10:57.439 like it was so we had to be so download. 0:10:57.480 --> 0:11:00.760 The only people that knew were my mom obviously cause 0:11:00.760 --> 0:11:02.400 she was about three, and my dad and brother. There's 0:11:02.400 --> 0:11:04.840 were the only people that knew. Everybody else we had 0:11:04.880 --> 0:11:07.360 to keep it a secret from uh. So then we 0:11:07.400 --> 0:11:10.280 got to California, we landed, we went to a hotel 0:11:10.400 --> 0:11:13.480 and they came in and I remember this so vividly. 0:11:13.520 --> 0:11:15.679 I don't know how or why because there's no pictures 0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:17.920 or videos of this anywhere, but they had me try 0:11:17.960 --> 0:11:20.520 on all of my dancewear, and they had my mom 0:11:20.559 --> 0:11:22.199 try on all of our outfits so they could take 0:11:22.280 --> 0:11:24.440 pictures of it and so they could know what we're 0:11:24.440 --> 0:11:27.240 going to look like on the show. And now the 0:11:27.280 --> 0:11:29.360 process of the show is it's an elimination show, so 0:11:29.440 --> 0:11:31.120 you don't know how long you're going to be there for, 0:11:31.280 --> 0:11:33.640 so you don't really know. You could be their twelve weeks, 0:11:33.640 --> 0:11:35.280 you could be there one week, and so you didn't 0:11:35.320 --> 0:11:37.360 really want to like unpack in the hotel. But then 0:11:37.400 --> 0:11:39.760 they were like, try on all your outfits and they're like, okay, 0:11:39.840 --> 0:11:43.200 let's unpack, right, So we unpacked and got all settled, 0:11:43.320 --> 0:11:45.880 and then like two days later, it was time for 0:11:45.960 --> 0:11:49.680 our very first day on set and they were like, 0:11:49.760 --> 0:11:51.599 pack up all of your stuff and bring it to 0:11:51.679 --> 0:11:55.600 the lobby. You're moving. And we were like what what, 0:11:56.120 --> 0:11:58.679 And so we packed up everything, we brought it all 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:02.000 down to the lobby, and we ended up living on set, 0:12:02.200 --> 0:12:04.480 so that was crazy. Once we got to the set, 0:12:05.200 --> 0:12:07.679 they were like this, this is your bungalow. You can 0:12:07.720 --> 0:12:09.719 go put all your stuff in there. And so there 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:14.240 was two houses that each had like four families in it, 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:17.440 and then there was these bungalows that was like apartment apartment, 0:12:17.480 --> 0:12:21.360 apartment apartment, and it was more like a studio apartment. 0:12:21.520 --> 0:12:23.960 Like they were very tiny, but it was My apartment 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:26.080 was in the top left, Colonnie was in the top right. 0:12:26.520 --> 0:12:28.720 Then the twin boys, Chaps and Tyler were in the 0:12:28.720 --> 0:12:32.440 bottom left. And then Ali and her mom Tiffany were 0:12:32.480 --> 0:12:35.280 in the bottom right. So we all lucked out by 0:12:35.320 --> 0:12:38.960 getting those apartments. Everybody else was all in the house together. 0:12:39.040 --> 0:12:42.960 Now the houses were nice, but like no, no, no way, 0:12:43.000 --> 0:12:45.600 no way, would not have wanted been in that house. 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:48.400 And we also were lucky because my side of the 0:12:48.400 --> 0:12:52.080 apartment had a shower, and then Kolanie's side had like 0:12:52.120 --> 0:12:54.360 a little kitchen, so we we shared that and so 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:56.040 we could use the kitchen, they could use the shower. 0:12:56.120 --> 0:13:00.080 We didn't care who used what. And then but the 0:13:00.120 --> 0:13:02.719 houses they had to use like poor to potty showers 0:13:02.760 --> 0:13:05.840 and like porda potty bathrooms. They did have a nice kitchen, 0:13:05.880 --> 0:13:08.520 but like oh so happy, and then all the other 0:13:08.600 --> 0:13:11.360 people were like, can we use your shower? And so 0:13:11.520 --> 0:13:13.559 everyone would come up to shower once they learned that 0:13:13.600 --> 0:13:17.520 we had one. Anyways, so it's the first day on 0:13:17.600 --> 0:13:20.160 set and they say the first thing that I remember 0:13:20.200 --> 0:13:23.000 them saying is everyone's on hard ice. And I said, 0:13:23.040 --> 0:13:25.559 what's hard ice? And they said this is you're on 0:13:25.640 --> 0:13:28.560 hard ice. And I said what's hard ice? Because I 0:13:28.559 --> 0:13:31.880 didn't know what that meant. And on set, ice means 0:13:31.920 --> 0:13:35.640 to be quiet. Hard ice means be dead, silent, do 0:13:35.800 --> 0:13:40.000 not speak, do not speak a word, like you cannot talk. 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:42.160 And that is just because cameras aren't up. They don't 0:13:42.160 --> 0:13:44.280 want to catch anything. They don't want to miss anything 0:13:44.280 --> 0:13:46.120 that they would have wanted to catch. So hard ice, 0:13:46.240 --> 0:13:48.600 do not speak ice is like yo, don't talk unless 0:13:48.600 --> 0:13:51.920 it's an emergency. And then there's a thing called slush, 0:13:52.120 --> 0:13:54.600 And if you're on slush, it's like talk but don't 0:13:54.640 --> 0:13:58.160 talk anything interesting. That's more of a thing that they 0:13:58.400 --> 0:14:00.920 use later, more so on dance moms, like all right, 0:14:01.000 --> 0:14:03.600 y'all are on slush right now, Like during lunch, for example, 0:14:03.600 --> 0:14:05.440 we would be on slush, So that would be like 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:08.280 you can talk, but like don't talk about like what's 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:11.240 going on on the show or during filming, talk about 0:14:11.280 --> 0:14:14.360 like your crush. That's fine. So we once you kind 0:14:14.400 --> 0:14:16.120 of knew what you couldn't couldn't talk about, then they 0:14:16.120 --> 0:14:19.560 started to imply slush, but ice and hard ice. All 0:14:19.600 --> 0:14:21.640 the time on ADC, we were either on ice or 0:14:21.640 --> 0:14:24.440 hard ice if we weren't on camera. So then we 0:14:24.440 --> 0:14:27.280 went outside for a long, long long time, and then 0:14:27.320 --> 0:14:29.600 they finally brought us into the building one by one. 0:14:29.720 --> 0:14:31.640 I feel like I was like I was towards the middle. 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:33.160 I didn't really go in first, and I didn't really 0:14:33.200 --> 0:14:36.040 go in last. It's definitely towards the middle. And I 0:14:36.160 --> 0:14:39.560 was the youngest one there, and everyone from the get 0:14:39.640 --> 0:14:46.320 go hated me. I looking back, I know why. At 0:14:46.320 --> 0:14:49.160 the time, I definitely didn't understand why. I was like, 0:14:49.200 --> 0:14:51.520 why don't these people want to be my friends? Like 0:14:51.720 --> 0:14:55.720 I am confused, and genuinely, it's just because I was 0:14:55.840 --> 0:14:59.200 nine and the rest of them were thirteen fourteen, and 0:14:59.240 --> 0:15:02.440 they just they weren't the type of girls that were 0:15:02.440 --> 0:15:04.040 going to be friends with a nine year old, you 0:15:04.080 --> 0:15:06.960 know what I mean, And they're actually there was a 0:15:07.000 --> 0:15:10.480 lot of bullying to me that went on on that set, 0:15:10.520 --> 0:15:13.680 but I never never really let it affect me. I 0:15:13.720 --> 0:15:16.960 think it actually helped kind of strengthen me. I had 0:15:17.480 --> 0:15:20.680 my priority super straight on that set. I knew what 0:15:20.800 --> 0:15:23.440 my goal was there, and it didn't really bother me 0:15:23.480 --> 0:15:27.240 that no one besides Clawnie in the kid department really 0:15:27.680 --> 0:15:30.680 cared for me, if that makes sense. I did have 0:15:30.760 --> 0:15:33.880 one person going into the show that I knew beforehand 0:15:34.520 --> 0:15:36.400 that I was a little She was kind of like 0:15:36.440 --> 0:15:40.560 a big sister figure to me actually, and I was 0:15:40.560 --> 0:15:43.400 a little that was kind of hard for me to realize, like, oh, 0:15:43.440 --> 0:15:46.080 why is even why is she not wanting to be 0:15:46.200 --> 0:15:48.040 my friend? Like she was my friend literally a week ago, 0:15:48.120 --> 0:15:50.560 what the heck? But it was just because she wanted 0:15:50.560 --> 0:15:52.600 to be with the cool thirteen year olds, And so 0:15:53.120 --> 0:15:56.360 I think I really realized that once I hit thirteen 0:15:56.680 --> 0:15:59.600 and I was in a position where I wanted to 0:15:59.680 --> 0:16:02.080 be friends with the younger people. I thought it was fine, 0:16:02.120 --> 0:16:04.600 like you can be friends with anybody, but I saw 0:16:04.720 --> 0:16:06.720 other people my age being like, ew, why are you 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:08.400 hanging out with them? And I would be like, cause 0:16:08.440 --> 0:16:11.480 they're cool, Like I don't care. It's like it doesn't matter, 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:14.239 you know what I mean? And so I really understood 0:16:14.280 --> 0:16:16.200 then once I kind of aged up and other people 0:16:16.280 --> 0:16:19.120 were like that, I was like, oh. And then I 0:16:19.160 --> 0:16:22.280 also think that translated to why I surrounded myself my 0:16:22.400 --> 0:16:27.000 closest friends with adults my whole life because they didn't 0:16:27.080 --> 0:16:29.840 they didn't have any of that cattiness that other kids 0:16:29.920 --> 0:16:32.560 my age did. You know, other kids my age wanted 0:16:32.560 --> 0:16:35.520 to be cool, whereas the friends that I chose and 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:38.400 got grew close to were like, no, it's not cool 0:16:38.400 --> 0:16:39.960 to be like that. It's cool to just be chill 0:16:40.000 --> 0:16:41.640 and like hang out with anybody. And I was like, 0:16:41.680 --> 0:16:43.800 oh oh, I like this, like this vibe is more 0:16:43.920 --> 0:16:48.080 my vibe. Anyways, back to AUDC, So the very very 0:16:48.080 --> 0:16:51.960 first day on set, me and Klawnie actually though we 0:16:52.000 --> 0:16:56.680 became so close on that show, we told our moms. 0:16:56.720 --> 0:16:58.320 On the very first day, we walked up to our 0:16:58.360 --> 0:17:00.720 moms and we said, we decided that we're be best friends, 0:17:00.760 --> 0:17:03.240 so you guys have to be best friends, and both 0:17:03.240 --> 0:17:05.880 of our moms were like okay. So then from then 0:17:05.960 --> 0:17:08.760 on out, it was like we were blue, like we 0:17:08.760 --> 0:17:11.120 were just best best friends. We had each other's back, 0:17:11.160 --> 0:17:14.000 we were there for each other. And Klannie was the 0:17:14.040 --> 0:17:16.879 next youngest. Actually that's why I think Hayley was the 0:17:16.920 --> 0:17:19.760 next youngest, but then Klannie was just they were the 0:17:19.800 --> 0:17:22.600 same age as a few months older, and so she 0:17:22.680 --> 0:17:24.359 was also on that kind of end of like the 0:17:24.400 --> 0:17:26.120 older girls didn't really want to hang out with her, 0:17:26.240 --> 0:17:29.280 and that was okay, Like she and I became really 0:17:29.280 --> 0:17:34.680 good friends. Anyways, So AUDC, the way ADC was structured 0:17:34.760 --> 0:17:38.639 was kind of crazy. It was so real. There's a 0:17:38.680 --> 0:17:41.560 lot of reality shows that I'm like, Okay, this is 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:46.720 this is like, how real is this? Right? AUDC and 0:17:46.800 --> 0:17:50.399 Special Forces are the two reality shows that I'm like, wow, 0:17:50.560 --> 0:17:54.800 Like I can't even like I can picture being on set, 0:17:54.920 --> 0:17:57.920 but I can't picture seeing a camera, if that makes sense. 0:17:57.960 --> 0:18:00.560 Like Dance Moms, for example, I'm on set, but I 0:18:00.600 --> 0:18:02.680 see the cameras, you know what I mean. It's real, 0:18:02.720 --> 0:18:04.720 but I can see the cameras and see the producers 0:18:06.280 --> 0:18:09.880 dancing with the stars. It's very real. But I can 0:18:09.920 --> 0:18:11.679 see the camera and see the producer, you know what 0:18:11.680 --> 0:18:14.639 I mean. AUDC and Special Forces have one thing in 0:18:14.680 --> 0:18:18.280 common and that it's very real, but you can't see 0:18:18.280 --> 0:18:21.000 the camera or the producer. It's all just happening. And 0:18:21.080 --> 0:18:23.840 I do think that was because I was a contestant 0:18:24.000 --> 0:18:25.800 on the show. I think like the judges and the 0:18:25.840 --> 0:18:27.880 host definitely, I mean had an idiot and they walked 0:18:27.920 --> 0:18:30.200 in the video village and they saw these things, whereas 0:18:30.560 --> 0:18:32.879 the contestant, you know, we were sheltered from all of that. 0:18:32.920 --> 0:18:36.040 We could only go in specific areas. But there was 0:18:36.080 --> 0:18:38.239 so many rules on that set. We could not go 0:18:38.320 --> 0:18:41.040 anywhere without an escort because they didn't want us running 0:18:41.040 --> 0:18:44.679 into the judges or the host or producers. We couldn't 0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:47.200 go into crafty. We could get any food we wanted, 0:18:47.240 --> 0:18:50.240 but they would have to get it for us. A 0:18:50.280 --> 0:18:52.000 lot of a lot of rules we had to ask for, 0:18:52.160 --> 0:18:54.520 like to go anywhere, to do anything. We couldn't just 0:18:54.560 --> 0:19:05.960 like go. The very first day, we're all on stage, 0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:09.400 and about two hours into that first day is when 0:19:09.600 --> 0:19:12.199 we actually met Abby for the first time. So we 0:19:12.200 --> 0:19:16.280 were all on stage warming up, dancing, improving, jumping, and 0:19:16.800 --> 0:19:20.040 Abby comes out and then she had to go back 0:19:20.080 --> 0:19:22.040 to do her entrance again. So she comes out right, 0:19:22.080 --> 0:19:24.560 we all freak out, and then she's like, oh wait, wait, wait, 0:19:24.600 --> 0:19:27.439 so then she leaves again. Now nine year old me, 0:19:27.600 --> 0:19:29.639 I don't know why I did this, but I turned 0:19:29.680 --> 0:19:33.320 around and I started dancing for Abby. No one told 0:19:33.359 --> 0:19:35.679 me to, no one gave that like suggestion. It was 0:19:35.680 --> 0:19:37.480 just something that I did naturally. I knew she was 0:19:37.480 --> 0:19:40.920 back there now, and so I just started improving or 0:19:41.119 --> 0:19:43.840 warming up and facing her, whereas everyone was still facing 0:19:43.840 --> 0:19:47.320 the front. And Abby came out on stage and again 0:19:47.400 --> 0:19:49.600 and she said, there's one of you here that's really smart, 0:19:49.600 --> 0:19:51.560 and it's the one that turned around and started dancing 0:19:51.560 --> 0:19:54.919