Speaker 1: Yeah to nice tonight, or at least it's supposed to
Speaker 1: be the night Marco comes over to make peace. I'm
Speaker 1: still waiting on a confirmation from him. To keep my
Speaker 1: mind off it. I'm getting back to my meditation. It's
Speaker 1: been a week now since I came back from viral
Speaker 1: Villa and got punished with a never ending grounding for
Speaker 1: my parents. I have not been on my meditation game.
Speaker 1: To put it mildly, my parents said I can only
Speaker 1: have Marco over like this if I agree to see
Speaker 1: a therapist and talk about my so called erratic behavior.
Speaker 1: I took them up on it, more for the sake
Speaker 1: of my relationship with Marco and the production of the
Speaker 1: rest of the podcast, and because I really want to
Speaker 1: sit with a shrink. The trouble is that I haven't
Speaker 1: been able to get in touch with Marco. He's still
Speaker 1: not answering my text and d ms. At least he
Speaker 1: hasn't blocked me or post to anything else publicly calling
Speaker 1: me out. But it means I've had to ask Janelle
Speaker 1: to get him to agree to meet with me face
Speaker 1: to face. I tried meditating on the Beano, interviewed Janelle,
Speaker 1: and I dropped last week and Beanos encouragement of just
Speaker 1: power through problems like anxiety and go for your dreams.
Speaker 1: That's what I did and going out West at least
Speaker 1: that's how I feel. I'm proud of it, electrified by it.
Speaker 1: It feels like what Janelle has been talking about with
Speaker 1: all her references to Burnee Brown and stuff on in
Speaker 1: my power. Feeling myself this way gives me the strength
Speaker 1: to take punishment from my parents like a man. But
Speaker 1: it's different with Marco. My trip Western the exposure brought us,
Speaker 1: even Marco setting his trolls on me. It's boosted our
Speaker 1: listeners and we've been able to score more unique artists interviews.
Speaker 1: Janelle and I have recorded an interview with an artist
Speaker 1: from South Africa today, Nasty c at the book of
Speaker 1: t Audio Lab Studio. The podcast is thriving, and by
Speaker 1: holding this grudge, Marco was only cutting himself out. I've
Speaker 1: got to get him back on board for his own sake.
Speaker 1: I suddenly don't feel like meditated the Texas from Marco. Finally,
Speaker 1: his ears must have been burning from all my thoughts. Okay,
Speaker 1: I talked to Jaelle. I'm gonna stop buying your place
Speaker 1: after school, so you can explain yourself. I'll see you later.
Speaker 1: One of these days, I'm going to meditate all the
Speaker 1: way to the closing bell. But not today. I have
Speaker 1: too much on my mind, too much to accomplish. It's
Speaker 1: gonna be a long one. I leave school in a
Speaker 1: good enough moved, even though another confrontation is waiting for me.
Speaker 1: When I get home, I figure i'll have a little
Speaker 1: time before Marco arrives. But as soon as I walk
Speaker 1: up the block to my house, I see that he's
Speaker 1: waiting on the stoop outside. Hey, hey, come on in
Speaker 1: and take out my key and unlock the door. No
Speaker 1: surprise afternoon appearance by my parents this time. We have
Speaker 1: the house to ourselves. Once we're inside, Marco takes a
Speaker 1: few steps into the living room and turns to me.
Speaker 1: He opens his palms and shrugs. So what do you
Speaker 1: have to say? All right, we're you getting right to it.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry I should have handled the invitation of viral
Speaker 1: Villa differently. You agree that if I couldn't go, you
Speaker 1: wouldn't go, And then I went anyway. It was selfish
Speaker 1: in me. Selfish that don't even remotely cover it. You
Speaker 1: two times me, man, We're best friends, and you just
Speaker 1: lied to get one over. Where the hell did that
Speaker 1: come from. It's not like I was playing in the
Speaker 1: scheme in it, man. I wanted to get you in
Speaker 1: Janelle on board with me to be in the one
Speaker 1: to go. It was only after our call where we
Speaker 1: decided nobody would go that I couldn't help myself and
Speaker 1: take them up on and after all, I knew it
Speaker 1: was crossing the line. But you don't know what it's
Speaker 1: like with my parents and seeing you get all these
Speaker 1: baller influencer invice all the time, I've really wanted this
Speaker 1: one for me, you know. Marcol takes a long pause
Speaker 1: to figure out how to respond. He paces his back
Speaker 1: and forth around the room. It's just not like you, man,
Speaker 1: and stung the most because it was so unexpected. I
Speaker 1: don't know what it's like. Do you think I haven't
Speaker 1: been dreaming of getting an invite like this for years,
Speaker 1: and I've been putting in the work TikTok's every day,
Speaker 1: growing my follower account. I pushed you into doing this
Speaker 1: podcast with me in the first place. I may not
Speaker 1: know what it's like to have your controlling parents, but
Speaker 1: I sure as hell know what it's like to want
Speaker 1: to reap the benefits of your own hard work, and
Speaker 1: you screwed me out of it. Well, how mature was
Speaker 1: it to air dirty laundry online and send your followers
Speaker 1: after me like a troll army. I was getting the
Speaker 1: endless notifications about how much I sucked, lived by the sword,
Speaker 1: died by the sword. Besides, you probably loved it. Got
Speaker 1: you a bunch of fresh new follows. I bet that's
Speaker 1: how you operate now, isn't that how you operate? No,
Speaker 1: I've built my following from the ground up. I'm not
Speaker 1: thirsty for follows and ship. You're acting like a taste
Speaker 1: of internet fame has gone completely to your head. Bro,
Speaker 1: You've been this way for weeks. You're acting crazy. It's
Speaker 1: not cool. The same criticism from Janelle, from my parents,
Speaker 1: now from Marco piercing through the disbehavior was unlike me
Speaker 1: that the success of here comes to break is going
Speaker 1: to my head. I'm stopped short. When you called me crazy,
Speaker 1: that really hurt. Maybe it's good I had this therapist
Speaker 1: appointment tomorrow. After all, Marco, there will be more opportunities
Speaker 1: to do stuff like viral Villa. You should know that
Speaker 1: more than anyone, and you can take them. I know
Speaker 1: that my issues with my parents and being jealous of
Speaker 1: your internet fame, well those are my issues. They're not excuses.
Speaker 1: But I did what I did and I'm done apologizing
Speaker 1: for it. Janelle and I need you back with us
Speaker 1: work in the podcast. It's your creation too. Yeah, you're
Speaker 1: damn right it is. But I don't want to work
Speaker 1: with somebody I can't trust you, but trade my trust, Marco.
Speaker 1: Come on, you can trust me. Don't be ridiculous. How
Speaker 1: long have we known each other. We can put in
Speaker 1: the work together. Don't let this little feud spen out
Speaker 1: of control like some old school be Yeah. I saw
Speaker 1: that you and Janelle have been dropping episodes without me.
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm being cut out of my own podcast,
Speaker 1: even though I'm completely in the right and you're the asshole, Marco.
Speaker 1: The point is that the podcast is bigger than any
Speaker 1: one of us individually now, but we should all be
Speaker 1: a part of it. You've got to come to book
Speaker 1: a tea and see the audio lab studio. Now that
Speaker 1: we're using the pod for our class project, we can
Speaker 1: record any views with a crazy text. It up great.
Speaker 1: You two really seem to have figured this thing out
Speaker 1: at your booze school together. It sounds like you don't
Speaker 1: really need me back at all, at least until you
Speaker 1: have another panic attack and run away from the bouncer.
Speaker 1: I'm stunned at the low blow. Maybe I deserve it,
Speaker 1: but panicky ship like when I ran off from the
Speaker 1: l A the ghat, or exactly why I needed to
Speaker 1: take bold moves with the villa. I'm ignoring that last part,
Speaker 1: and it's not like that. We need you back and
Speaker 1: we want you back. Don't take your ball and go home.
Speaker 1: Marco sulked around the room for another long minute. I'm
Speaker 1: starting to worry one of my parents are gonna get
Speaker 1: home and ruin the moment. I think he's heard me out,
Speaker 1: and I know he must want to get back in
Speaker 1: on the podcast. Deep down, there's no way he's giving
Speaker 1: that up. He just has to say it. I'm still
Speaker 1: mad at you. I'm gonna be on my best behavior.
Speaker 1: I swear he's still holding out. I'm really must have
Speaker 1: Damnage is trusting me. But I've got an ace at
Speaker 1: my sleeve. All he has to do is here this
Speaker 1: new episode Janelle and I recorded today. Without him, he
Speaker 1: won't be able to leave the podcast behind. When he
Speaker 1: hears it. Listen. First things first, you can give me
Speaker 1: notes on this new interview Janelle and I did today.
Speaker 1: It was a great interview. You gotta hear it. He hesitates,
Speaker 1: but now I know this is my winning car. We'll
Speaker 1: see how well the studio of yours boost production. Pew
Speaker 1: it up. Let's go up to my room in case
Speaker 1: my parents get home. It's because I'm back on the
Speaker 1: podcast doesn't mean we're cool, I know. So who's this
Speaker 1: artist again? Nasty C from South Africa. Janelle has been
Speaker 1: trying to schedule it for a week. It was so
Speaker 1: worth it. Listen up in your own words? Who is Nasty?
Speaker 1: That's to see is just a creatively free artists from
Speaker 1: South Africa started rapping and I was like nine years old,
Speaker 1: and I've pretty much just been experimenting with music up
Speaker 1: until today. I've don't consider myself as artists who's found
Speaker 1: this sound or whatever. I'm still growing and still experimenting
Speaker 1: and very open to like new sounds and stuff like that. Wow.
Speaker 1: I started making music period when I was like nine
Speaker 1: years old. That was my first time. But the first
Speaker 1: time I ever paid attention to music at all was
Speaker 1: because of t I he had dropped this other remix
Speaker 1: for top Back, and I saw it in this bust
Speaker 1: that used to take to school, and I was just
Speaker 1: like a nine year old in a country that doesn't
Speaker 1: really play hip hop like that, So it was my
Speaker 1: first music memory, but also just like my first time
Speaker 1: hearing hip hop like that. Like at first, I started
Speaker 1: off mimicking T. I just like wrapping his words, wrapping
Speaker 1: his lyrics and like changing a couple of words so
Speaker 1: it sounds like it came for me. And then I
Speaker 1: would remake Little Wayne Beats, t I Beats, T Pain Beats,
Speaker 1: Chris Brown Beats, like I started remaking beats, and I
Speaker 1: started making my own beats and writing my own lyrics.
Speaker 1: And I guess the older grew, the more my story
Speaker 1: started to developed, and I feel like something I needed
Speaker 1: to put on tracks as opposed to just like MI
Speaker 1: making somebody else and fast forward you have for me today? Wow? Wow?
Speaker 1: And how do social media play into that story? Social
Speaker 1: media has had a huge impact on many artists careers,
Speaker 1: more especially in my career because I'm coming from or
Speaker 1: not only just the city, but a country that doesn't
Speaker 1: really embrace hip hop like that. If you were a
Speaker 1: wrap and you sounded like anybody international. People would mark you,
Speaker 1: people will make you feel stupid. And then social media
Speaker 1: came around and people started to get a little more
Speaker 1: familiar with commercial hip hop and stuff like that. It
Speaker 1: became a lot more accessible and people understood it a
Speaker 1: bit more so by default, they started understanding us a
Speaker 1: bit more like hip hop hits word word and one
Speaker 1: of your songs you wrapped. I signed deals, but I
Speaker 1: own my soul. Can you elaborate on that? That won't
Speaker 1: be changing my bigger pictures, my message, what I stand for,
Speaker 1: how dress, how I love, how I present myself, what
Speaker 1: I like and what I don't like to do. None
Speaker 1: of that stuff will be changing. I know a lot
Speaker 1: of artists. I feel like they're compelled to adjusting and
Speaker 1: becoming what the label wants them to become, because then
Speaker 1: they'll appeal more to this market, or then they'll be
Speaker 1: radio friendly or this and that and that. I know
Speaker 1: like labels change a lot of artists, and sometimes it's
Speaker 1: not even like intestingly. Sometimes they think they're helping, but
Speaker 1: they're really just leading the artists astray. You have to
Speaker 1: know every single step or your journey, otherwise you're not
Speaker 1: gonna be able to retrace them and go back to
Speaker 1: point A or the drawing board whenever you need to.
Speaker 1: We we all have these times when we're tested as
Speaker 1: artists and there's people I need to be able to
Speaker 1: know who I am or where I am at that
Speaker 1: time when that time happens, I need to be prepared
Speaker 1: for it. If I just let anybody change me and
Speaker 1: and present me and give rapped me and whatever they
Speaker 1: feel like I should be gift wrapped in and that
Speaker 1: moment comes, I'm gonna be lost. You know, I don't
Speaker 1: want that. That's very interesting. That's very interesting. You know.
Speaker 1: I love how your culture is so visible in your
Speaker 1: videos and fashion. Is that intentional? Yeah? It is. And
Speaker 1: this is really something that I really started embracing about
Speaker 1: two years ago. Up until then, I've always just been
Speaker 1: like a modern kid, just like the rest of my generation. Yeah,
Speaker 1: a lot of them, they don't really take pride in
Speaker 1: their culture like that. I'm trying to make it cool
Speaker 1: to take pride in your culture again. I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: start wearing animal skin only tests because that's how they
Speaker 1: used to do it back in the day. No, I'm
Speaker 1: doing it like I want to do it. I'm ana
Speaker 1: hip hop head. I'm a pop at a heart, So
Speaker 1: I'm gonna mix the two and just make it cool
Speaker 1: for my generation to do that. You know what I mean?
Speaker 1: A lot of kids my age and like under right now,
Speaker 1: they don't even know their clan names. We have a
Speaker 1: thing where you have a surname and then you have
Speaker 1: clan names that they call praise names. Some people call
Speaker 1: them praise names. A lot of us don't even know that.
Speaker 1: We don't even know our clan names. So when the
Speaker 1: moments like when we have to go propose, instead of
Speaker 1: just doing it the white way where it's like you
Speaker 1: just get on one knee and then you guys are
Speaker 1: engaged and then you're gonna have a white wooden, we
Speaker 1: have to do with the traditional way where you take
Speaker 1: your uncle's and you go to the girl's family and
Speaker 1: before you even walk through the gate, you have to
Speaker 1: shout that girl's clan names as a sign of respect.
Speaker 1: We're lost right now that my generation we don't know
Speaker 1: nothing about that. I'm just trying to make it cool again.
Speaker 1: I guess it's like passing down traditions. You know, what's
Speaker 1: your clan name? So my surname is mobile and some
Speaker 1: of my clan names is like fools there, my sham
Speaker 1: news sort haveing stuff like that. They feel like ad lib.
Speaker 1: I'm trying to make it make sense to you. So
Speaker 1: you recently recorded a single title they don't with t
Speaker 1: I and all the protests are going to the Until
Speaker 1: Freedom and Solidarity Fund. How did that collaboration happen? I
Speaker 1: made the song like a year ago, and that was
Speaker 1: just around the time I've seen the Netflix series when
Speaker 1: they See Us, you remember that? So before I saw
Speaker 1: that series, I didn't really know much about like the
Speaker 1: racial injustice situation going on in the States, not that
Speaker 1: much of it, Like I've seen a couple of clips
Speaker 1: every now and then, but it wasn't like in my
Speaker 1: face like that. And then after I saw that series,
Speaker 1: I started to do my own research and just like
Speaker 1: all the clips that I kept seeing literally broke my heart.
Speaker 1: So I was like ship, So I made the song.
Speaker 1: I made the song by myself at first, actually, and
Speaker 1: it was just like coming from a sympathetic perspective. There's
Speaker 1: no aggression to it or nothing, because I haven't experienced
Speaker 1: it. It It was just like it was very sad for
Speaker 1: me to see that. And then a couple of months
Speaker 1: down the line, you have to seeing the series. But
Speaker 1: before I made the song, I was in ne York
Speaker 1: shooting a video with they said for King, and I
Speaker 1: have a mild taste of that whole situation we were
Speaker 1: shooting in. I think we were in Harlem, some rooftop
Speaker 1: and I don't know what happened, but we got raided
Speaker 1: and it was like thirteen corps upstairs, like putting us
Speaker 1: in a line, making us put out. I d s
Speaker 1: on the flooring ship, our hands up. I was like,
Speaker 1: what the funk is going on right now? And this
Speaker 1: was the fresh out of seeing like all these videos
Speaker 1: in this series, so I was like, I'm for still
Speaker 1: dying right now. I'm dying to the to the hands
Speaker 1: of policemen. This is crazy. But luckily nothing happened, and
Speaker 1: I just decided to make a song and just get
Speaker 1: it off my chest. I was more making it to
Speaker 1: just help the mothers and the loved ones of the
Speaker 1: victims here. And a year later, unfortunately the circumstance and
Speaker 1: the situation was relevant again, which is crazy. And then
Speaker 1: a year later me and t I formed like somewhat
Speaker 1: of a friendship and we have one song already in
Speaker 1: the bag, and this is not the song that's out.
Speaker 1: This is a song that's on my album. And then
Speaker 1: when this ship really got out of control and it
Speaker 1: just became like the number one topic in the world,
Speaker 1: we were just like, yo, who better to get on
Speaker 1: this song and have them put it out then t
Speaker 1: I somebody who publicly stands for this ship. This is
Speaker 1: what's happening in the world right now. This is what
Speaker 1: matters more than streams and usin and this and that
Speaker 1: and being cool and whatnot. So I was just like, yo, man,
Speaker 1: this is my idol, this is thing, is the reason
Speaker 1: I picked up a pin in the first place. So
Speaker 1: it would be an honor to have him on one
Speaker 1: of my songs, and a song that actually means something,
Speaker 1: the song that's not about everything else like that we
Speaker 1: always rap about as rappers. So we just put him
Speaker 1: on there and he was mot and happy to do it.
Speaker 1: I was just speak to do it, and I was
Speaker 1: just bad. I was just on the respect for putting
Speaker 1: up that messicy, that's what's up, that's what suck and
Speaker 1: what do you want people to know who haven't been
Speaker 1: in Africa? I mean, even for black Americans like I
Speaker 1: guess a message for those who that haven't visited the
Speaker 1: motherland the continent. Damn, it's it's so much. There's so much.
Speaker 1: They just need to come in. They just need to
Speaker 1: come home and really experience it themselves. Yeah, the pictures
Speaker 1: and the videos and the stories they don't sell it enough.
Speaker 1: It's it's not enough. People have to actually come here
Speaker 1: and see how our values aren't way different from like
Speaker 1: everybody else in the world. You put culture first, family first,
Speaker 1: before business, before wealth and stuff like that. Did they
Speaker 1: really just have to have to come home, man, even
Speaker 1: if it's for the week and then go back to
Speaker 1: your life. It's cool, but just come home for a second.
Speaker 1: I bet you would have changed their minds to to
Speaker 1: change the way they think, the way they act, the manners,
Speaker 1: and it a chains all of it. Yeah, I might
Speaker 1: have to take a trip soon. We'll be right back
Speaker 1: and now back to the show. While Marco and I
Speaker 1: spent the rest of the afternoon working on the interview edit,
Speaker 1: Nasty Seas words they're bouncing around my head. It feels
Speaker 1: like I've lost that knowledge. I made my own way
Speaker 1: out into the world, and I like it, but I
Speaker 1: can't seem to retrace the steps home, get right with
Speaker 1: the people closest to me who are hurt. At least
Speaker 1: once Mark was busy working on the pie with me.
Speaker 1: He's in the right headspace, and it feels like old times.
Speaker 1: When my parents get home, he excuses himself. It doesn't
Speaker 1: even stay for dinner. I understand it's gonna take some
Speaker 1: time and it's gonna be an awkward dinner anyway. Tomorrow
Speaker 1: is Saturday, and more to the point, my therapy appointment.
Speaker 1: I feel aunty and anxious thinking about it. I don't
Speaker 1: even exactly know why, but I don't try to meditate
Speaker 1: again at night, and even with my meds, I have
Speaker 1: some trouble sleeping. I haven't seen the therapist in a
Speaker 1: few years. I used to go to one as a
Speaker 1: kid when I was first diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
Speaker 1: It was fine, I guess, and I get where my
Speaker 1: parents are coming from now wanting me to go again.
Speaker 1: But it just feels like a replay of everything that
Speaker 1: happened after I blew up on vine when I was little,
Speaker 1: and I'm dreading that. I'm afraid of being poked and
Speaker 1: prided and diagnosed, label crazy or dysfunctional in some new way.
Speaker 1: The morning comes and Da gives me a ride to
Speaker 1: the therapist office. So are you ready for this appointment?
Speaker 1: I guess. I hope this guy doesn't change up my
Speaker 1: meds too much that messes with my moods. I'm sure
Speaker 1: he'll be responsible about it. You haven't been acting erratic
Speaker 1: aside from this one episode? How's your anxiety doing? The
Speaker 1: surge of frustration posters through my veins when he describes
Speaker 1: my jail break to the viral Villa as an erratic episode.
Speaker 1: It wasn't erratic. It wasn't a manic attack. It was purposeful,
Speaker 1: a natural outcome of the pressures I was under. But
Speaker 1: I keep a little my sudden bursts of anger to
Speaker 1: save it for the therapist. My anxiety has been okay,
Speaker 1: mostly homes up around me, Marco and Janelle trying to
Speaker 1: finish this podcast season while I'm under well, you know
Speaker 1: this grounding. My dad, Grimaces doesn't like that I'm still
Speaker 1: priding him about the grounding. Luckily, the ride isn't too long,
Speaker 1: and after just a couple more blocks will be ride
Speaker 1: in silence. He's pulled up out front of a small
Speaker 1: office building where the therapist works. I popped the car
Speaker 1: door and have one ft on the pavement when he
Speaker 1: taps me on the shoulder. You know, Ben, it wasn't right.
Speaker 1: And I agree with your mother that it's good for
Speaker 1: you to have someone to talk to about all of
Speaker 1: this spots. Just so you know what you did. It
Speaker 1: took guts. Thanks there. The psychiatrist office is your classic
Speaker 1: therapy office, tastefully decorated, the neutral colors, some plants. So
Speaker 1: you say you're here because of your parents. Yeah, they're
Speaker 1: basically making me come as a condition of getting out
Speaker 1: of grounding. How to does that make you feel frustrated? Uh?
Speaker 1: I mean, how am I supposed to get something out
Speaker 1: of therapy if it just feels like some kind of punishment.
Speaker 1: Just before I came in and here, my dad said
Speaker 1: what I did took guts. And Mom sat me down
Speaker 1: last week and showed me all these photos from when
Speaker 1: she was young, showing me she was a dancer and stuff.
Speaker 1: Just as we're really starting to communicate, they want to
Speaker 1: hand all my problems off to you. It sounds like
Speaker 1: they're doing a lot to reach out to you. Actually,
Speaker 1: you ran away from home. I didn't run away from home.
Speaker 1: I took a trip for a weekend, I left a
Speaker 1: note and it was kind of for work for work. Well,
Speaker 1: I had this successful hip hop interview podcast and I
Speaker 1: got an invite out to the viral Villa, which is
Speaker 1: one of these like hot influencer arts collectives out west
Speaker 1: going could completely blow up the podcast horizons. The timing
Speaker 1: was just bad. My parents had just found out about
Speaker 1: the podcast. I've been sneaking into the city behind their
Speaker 1: back to work on it. But I mean, I had
Speaker 1: to take the invite because I've never done anything for
Speaker 1: myself ever since I was little. I was the good,
Speaker 1: obedient kid. I went to therapy, took my anxiety man's,
Speaker 1: transferred to the right school. I've checked all the boxes.
Speaker 1: I was so afraid of breaking my parents expectations that
Speaker 1: with my friends and I launched this podcast. I went
Speaker 1: under a stage name and we masked my voice. I've
Speaker 1: been a nervous wreck because of their expectations, and the
Speaker 1: podcast has been like a way into a whole new
Speaker 1: life for me. Taking a trip on my almost the
Speaker 1: first thing I've done for myself in years. I don't
Speaker 1: want to reject it as some manic episode or something.
Speaker 1: I want to own it. I wanted to be me
Speaker 1: reclaiming my life. But my parents just don't see it
Speaker 1: that way. My friends don't see it that way. My
Speaker 1: stage name was mask On, and now I just feel
Speaker 1: like I took the mask off, and now everybody's mad
Speaker 1: at seeing the real meat. I paused for breath and
Speaker 1: the therapist takes a second. I came in here feeling defensive,
Speaker 1: but it feels good to let it all spell out.
Speaker 1: How have your medications working? Your intake paperwork said you've
Speaker 1: been having anxiety attacks. They've been better since that's at
Speaker 1: the weekend a way, but I've been feeling a lot
Speaker 1: of anxiety the last couple of months. That that's how
Speaker 1: to balance all this. This guy seems reasonable enough, but
Speaker 1: is he about to change up my meds and screw
Speaker 1: with my moods? I need stability now to get through
Speaker 1: the last stretch of this podcast production. You've obviously had
Speaker 1: a lot on your mind. Do you know what pressured speeches?
Speaker 1: I shake my head, no, it's a symptom of bipolar disorder,
Speaker 1: an urgent need to share your thoughts and ideas. When
Speaker 1: you speak about your podcast and your trip out West,
Speaker 1: I hear it bipolar disorder. Like Kanye here, we go.
Speaker 1: The hammer is coming down. I'm going to be slapped
Speaker 1: with the new label. It would be premature to label
Speaker 1: what you did a manic episode. You certainly scared your
Speaker 1: family and friends, but a lot of young folks don't
Speaker 1: exhibit bipolar episodes until they're early to mid twenties. And
Speaker 1: you didn't lose your faculties. You weren't a danger to
Speaker 1: yourself for others. So let's not worry about your parents
Speaker 1: diagnosis concerns just yet. I think we can maybe ease
Speaker 1: up on some of your heavier medication if you haven't
Speaker 1: been feeling as anxious lately. Are you willing to come
Speaker 1: see me once a week for a while. I feel
Speaker 1: the familiar swell of anxiety at the suggestion of being
Speaker 1: roped into regular appointments like I'm under watch. But I
Speaker 1: know I need to work with this guy if I'm
Speaker 1: going to get my parents off my back. He knows
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