1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:08,680 Speaker 1: Yeah to nice tonight, or at least it's supposed to 2 00:00:08,760 --> 00:00:14,000 Speaker 1: be the night Marco comes over to make peace. I'm 3 00:00:14,000 --> 00:00:16,680 Speaker 1: still waiting on a confirmation from him. To keep my 4 00:00:16,720 --> 00:00:21,320 Speaker 1: mind off it. I'm getting back to my meditation. It's 5 00:00:21,360 --> 00:00:23,079 Speaker 1: been a week now since I came back from viral 6 00:00:23,160 --> 00:00:25,200 Speaker 1: Villa and got punished with a never ending grounding for 7 00:00:25,280 --> 00:00:29,319 Speaker 1: my parents. I have not been on my meditation game. 8 00:00:29,440 --> 00:00:32,560 Speaker 1: To put it mildly, my parents said I can only 9 00:00:32,560 --> 00:00:34,400 Speaker 1: have Marco over like this if I agree to see 10 00:00:34,400 --> 00:00:38,160 Speaker 1: a therapist and talk about my so called erratic behavior. 11 00:00:39,120 --> 00:00:41,360 Speaker 1: I took them up on it, more for the sake 12 00:00:41,400 --> 00:00:43,559 Speaker 1: of my relationship with Marco and the production of the 13 00:00:43,600 --> 00:00:45,720 Speaker 1: rest of the podcast, and because I really want to 14 00:00:45,720 --> 00:00:48,760 Speaker 1: sit with a shrink. The trouble is that I haven't 15 00:00:48,760 --> 00:00:51,520 Speaker 1: been able to get in touch with Marco. He's still 16 00:00:51,560 --> 00:00:54,320 Speaker 1: not answering my text and d ms. At least he 17 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:56,680 Speaker 1: hasn't blocked me or post to anything else publicly calling 18 00:00:56,720 --> 00:00:59,360 Speaker 1: me out. But it means I've had to ask Janelle 19 00:00:59,400 --> 00:01:00,960 Speaker 1: to get him to agree to meet with me face 20 00:01:01,000 --> 00:01:05,800 Speaker 1: to face. I tried meditating on the Beano, interviewed Janelle, 21 00:01:05,800 --> 00:01:08,360 Speaker 1: and I dropped last week and Beanos encouragement of just 22 00:01:08,400 --> 00:01:10,960 Speaker 1: power through problems like anxiety and go for your dreams. 23 00:01:11,680 --> 00:01:14,760 Speaker 1: That's what I did and going out West at least 24 00:01:14,760 --> 00:01:20,160 Speaker 1: that's how I feel. I'm proud of it, electrified by it. 25 00:01:20,160 --> 00:01:22,120 Speaker 1: It feels like what Janelle has been talking about with 26 00:01:22,160 --> 00:01:25,200 Speaker 1: all her references to Burnee Brown and stuff on in 27 00:01:25,319 --> 00:01:29,959 Speaker 1: my power. Feeling myself this way gives me the strength 28 00:01:29,959 --> 00:01:34,000 Speaker 1: to take punishment from my parents like a man. But 29 00:01:34,080 --> 00:01:38,240 Speaker 1: it's different with Marco. My trip Western the exposure brought us, 30 00:01:38,800 --> 00:01:41,759 Speaker 1: even Marco setting his trolls on me. It's boosted our 31 00:01:41,800 --> 00:01:44,760 Speaker 1: listeners and we've been able to score more unique artists interviews. 32 00:01:45,640 --> 00:01:47,640 Speaker 1: Janelle and I have recorded an interview with an artist 33 00:01:47,720 --> 00:01:51,480 Speaker 1: from South Africa today, Nasty c at the book of 34 00:01:51,560 --> 00:01:56,040 Speaker 1: t Audio Lab Studio. The podcast is thriving, and by 35 00:01:56,040 --> 00:01:59,960 Speaker 1: holding this grudge, Marco was only cutting himself out. I've 36 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:02,080 Speaker 1: got to get him back on board for his own sake. 37 00:02:03,600 --> 00:02:08,959 Speaker 1: I suddenly don't feel like meditated the Texas from Marco. Finally, 38 00:02:09,680 --> 00:02:12,400 Speaker 1: his ears must have been burning from all my thoughts. Okay, 39 00:02:12,440 --> 00:02:15,000 Speaker 1: I talked to Jaelle. I'm gonna stop buying your place 40 00:02:15,040 --> 00:02:18,519 Speaker 1: after school, so you can explain yourself. I'll see you later. 41 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:25,280 Speaker 1: One of these days, I'm going to meditate all the 42 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:28,760 Speaker 1: way to the closing bell. But not today. I have 43 00:02:28,919 --> 00:02:32,160 Speaker 1: too much on my mind, too much to accomplish. It's 44 00:02:32,200 --> 00:03:01,440 Speaker 1: gonna be a long one. I leave school in a 45 00:03:01,480 --> 00:03:04,640 Speaker 1: good enough moved, even though another confrontation is waiting for me. 46 00:03:04,639 --> 00:03:07,280 Speaker 1: When I get home, I figure i'll have a little 47 00:03:07,320 --> 00:03:10,440 Speaker 1: time before Marco arrives. But as soon as I walk 48 00:03:10,560 --> 00:03:12,320 Speaker 1: up the block to my house, I see that he's 49 00:03:12,320 --> 00:03:17,120 Speaker 1: waiting on the stoop outside. Hey, hey, come on in 50 00:03:17,960 --> 00:03:20,640 Speaker 1: and take out my key and unlock the door. No 51 00:03:20,720 --> 00:03:24,040 Speaker 1: surprise afternoon appearance by my parents this time. We have 52 00:03:24,160 --> 00:03:27,600 Speaker 1: the house to ourselves. Once we're inside, Marco takes a 53 00:03:27,600 --> 00:03:29,320 Speaker 1: few steps into the living room and turns to me. 54 00:03:29,840 --> 00:03:32,240 Speaker 1: He opens his palms and shrugs. So what do you 55 00:03:32,240 --> 00:03:35,920 Speaker 1: have to say? All right, we're you getting right to it. 56 00:03:37,520 --> 00:03:39,920 Speaker 1: I'm sorry I should have handled the invitation of viral 57 00:03:39,960 --> 00:03:42,640 Speaker 1: Villa differently. You agree that if I couldn't go, you 58 00:03:42,680 --> 00:03:47,400 Speaker 1: wouldn't go, And then I went anyway. It was selfish 59 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:51,000 Speaker 1: in me. Selfish that don't even remotely cover it. You 60 00:03:51,080 --> 00:03:53,000 Speaker 1: two times me, man, We're best friends, and you just 61 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:55,320 Speaker 1: lied to get one over. Where the hell did that 62 00:03:55,400 --> 00:03:58,320 Speaker 1: come from. It's not like I was playing in the 63 00:03:58,480 --> 00:04:00,920 Speaker 1: scheme in it, man. I wanted to get you in 64 00:04:01,000 --> 00:04:02,520 Speaker 1: Janelle on board with me to be in the one 65 00:04:02,560 --> 00:04:04,800 Speaker 1: to go. It was only after our call where we 66 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:07,160 Speaker 1: decided nobody would go that I couldn't help myself and 67 00:04:07,160 --> 00:04:09,600 Speaker 1: take them up on and after all, I knew it 68 00:04:09,680 --> 00:04:11,480 Speaker 1: was crossing the line. But you don't know what it's 69 00:04:11,520 --> 00:04:13,680 Speaker 1: like with my parents and seeing you get all these 70 00:04:13,720 --> 00:04:17,240 Speaker 1: baller influencer invice all the time, I've really wanted this 71 00:04:17,279 --> 00:04:20,840 Speaker 1: one for me, you know. Marcol takes a long pause 72 00:04:20,880 --> 00:04:23,400 Speaker 1: to figure out how to respond. He paces his back 73 00:04:23,400 --> 00:04:26,279 Speaker 1: and forth around the room. It's just not like you, man, 74 00:04:26,960 --> 00:04:29,520 Speaker 1: and stung the most because it was so unexpected. I 75 00:04:29,560 --> 00:04:31,640 Speaker 1: don't know what it's like. Do you think I haven't 76 00:04:31,640 --> 00:04:33,799 Speaker 1: been dreaming of getting an invite like this for years, 77 00:04:34,120 --> 00:04:36,360 Speaker 1: and I've been putting in the work TikTok's every day, 78 00:04:36,440 --> 00:04:38,920 Speaker 1: growing my follower account. I pushed you into doing this 79 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:41,479 Speaker 1: podcast with me in the first place. I may not 80 00:04:41,560 --> 00:04:43,599 Speaker 1: know what it's like to have your controlling parents, but 81 00:04:43,680 --> 00:04:45,200 Speaker 1: I sure as hell know what it's like to want 82 00:04:45,200 --> 00:04:48,000 Speaker 1: to reap the benefits of your own hard work, and 83 00:04:48,040 --> 00:04:50,000 Speaker 1: you screwed me out of it. Well, how mature was 84 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:52,600 Speaker 1: it to air dirty laundry online and send your followers 85 00:04:52,640 --> 00:04:54,920 Speaker 1: after me like a troll army. I was getting the 86 00:04:54,960 --> 00:04:58,000 Speaker 1: endless notifications about how much I sucked, lived by the sword, 87 00:04:58,080 --> 00:05:01,240 Speaker 1: died by the sword. Besides, you probably loved it. Got 88 00:05:01,279 --> 00:05:03,960 Speaker 1: you a bunch of fresh new follows. I bet that's 89 00:05:03,960 --> 00:05:07,240 Speaker 1: how you operate now, isn't that how you operate? No, 90 00:05:07,839 --> 00:05:09,920 Speaker 1: I've built my following from the ground up. I'm not 91 00:05:09,960 --> 00:05:12,880 Speaker 1: thirsty for follows and ship. You're acting like a taste 92 00:05:12,880 --> 00:05:15,080 Speaker 1: of internet fame has gone completely to your head. Bro, 93 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:19,000 Speaker 1: You've been this way for weeks. You're acting crazy. It's 94 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:23,520 Speaker 1: not cool. The same criticism from Janelle, from my parents, 95 00:05:24,240 --> 00:05:29,279 Speaker 1: now from Marco piercing through the disbehavior was unlike me 96 00:05:29,960 --> 00:05:31,920 Speaker 1: that the success of here comes to break is going 97 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:36,760 Speaker 1: to my head. I'm stopped short. When you called me crazy, 98 00:05:37,000 --> 00:05:40,159 Speaker 1: that really hurt. Maybe it's good I had this therapist 99 00:05:40,200 --> 00:05:44,880 Speaker 1: appointment tomorrow. After all, Marco, there will be more opportunities 100 00:05:44,920 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: to do stuff like viral Villa. You should know that 101 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:51,000 Speaker 1: more than anyone, and you can take them. I know 102 00:05:51,120 --> 00:05:54,240 Speaker 1: that my issues with my parents and being jealous of 103 00:05:54,279 --> 00:05:58,160 Speaker 1: your internet fame, well those are my issues. They're not excuses. 104 00:05:58,960 --> 00:06:01,440 Speaker 1: But I did what I did and I'm done apologizing 105 00:06:01,520 --> 00:06:03,960 Speaker 1: for it. Janelle and I need you back with us 106 00:06:04,000 --> 00:06:06,720 Speaker 1: work in the podcast. It's your creation too. Yeah, you're 107 00:06:06,760 --> 00:06:08,680 Speaker 1: damn right it is. But I don't want to work 108 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:11,200 Speaker 1: with somebody I can't trust you, but trade my trust, Marco. 109 00:06:11,320 --> 00:06:15,160 Speaker 1: Come on, you can trust me. Don't be ridiculous. How 110 00:06:15,160 --> 00:06:17,159 Speaker 1: long have we known each other. We can put in 111 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:20,440 Speaker 1: the work together. Don't let this little feud spen out 112 00:06:20,480 --> 00:06:22,800 Speaker 1: of control like some old school be Yeah. I saw 113 00:06:22,800 --> 00:06:25,000 Speaker 1: that you and Janelle have been dropping episodes without me. 114 00:06:25,279 --> 00:06:27,279 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm being cut out of my own podcast, 115 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:30,080 Speaker 1: even though I'm completely in the right and you're the asshole, Marco. 116 00:06:30,480 --> 00:06:33,000 Speaker 1: The point is that the podcast is bigger than any 117 00:06:33,040 --> 00:06:35,919 Speaker 1: one of us individually now, but we should all be 118 00:06:35,960 --> 00:06:37,920 Speaker 1: a part of it. You've got to come to book 119 00:06:37,920 --> 00:06:40,400 Speaker 1: a tea and see the audio lab studio. Now that 120 00:06:40,440 --> 00:06:42,520 Speaker 1: we're using the pod for our class project, we can 121 00:06:42,560 --> 00:06:44,919 Speaker 1: record any views with a crazy text. It up great. 122 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:47,080 Speaker 1: You two really seem to have figured this thing out 123 00:06:47,080 --> 00:06:49,360 Speaker 1: at your booze school together. It sounds like you don't 124 00:06:49,400 --> 00:06:51,599 Speaker 1: really need me back at all, at least until you 125 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:53,880 Speaker 1: have another panic attack and run away from the bouncer. 126 00:06:54,000 --> 00:06:56,719 Speaker 1: I'm stunned at the low blow. Maybe I deserve it, 127 00:06:57,360 --> 00:06:59,280 Speaker 1: but panicky ship like when I ran off from the 128 00:06:59,400 --> 00:07:01,240 Speaker 1: l A the ghat, or exactly why I needed to 129 00:07:01,279 --> 00:07:03,880 Speaker 1: take bold moves with the villa. I'm ignoring that last part, 130 00:07:04,640 --> 00:07:07,000 Speaker 1: and it's not like that. We need you back and 131 00:07:07,080 --> 00:07:10,000 Speaker 1: we want you back. Don't take your ball and go home. 132 00:07:10,520 --> 00:07:13,640 Speaker 1: Marco sulked around the room for another long minute. I'm 133 00:07:13,640 --> 00:07:15,400 Speaker 1: starting to worry one of my parents are gonna get 134 00:07:15,400 --> 00:07:18,200 Speaker 1: home and ruin the moment. I think he's heard me out, 135 00:07:18,760 --> 00:07:20,280 Speaker 1: and I know he must want to get back in 136 00:07:20,320 --> 00:07:23,640 Speaker 1: on the podcast. Deep down, there's no way he's giving 137 00:07:23,680 --> 00:07:26,560 Speaker 1: that up. He just has to say it. I'm still 138 00:07:26,600 --> 00:07:28,640 Speaker 1: mad at you. I'm gonna be on my best behavior. 139 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:32,440 Speaker 1: I swear he's still holding out. I'm really must have 140 00:07:32,480 --> 00:07:35,320 Speaker 1: Damnage is trusting me. But I've got an ace at 141 00:07:35,320 --> 00:07:38,320 Speaker 1: my sleeve. All he has to do is here this 142 00:07:38,360 --> 00:07:41,440 Speaker 1: new episode Janelle and I recorded today. Without him, he 143 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:43,480 Speaker 1: won't be able to leave the podcast behind. When he 144 00:07:43,480 --> 00:07:47,320 Speaker 1: hears it. Listen. First things first, you can give me 145 00:07:47,360 --> 00:07:49,640 Speaker 1: notes on this new interview Janelle and I did today. 146 00:07:50,000 --> 00:07:52,840 Speaker 1: It was a great interview. You gotta hear it. He hesitates, 147 00:07:52,880 --> 00:07:56,560 Speaker 1: but now I know this is my winning car. We'll 148 00:07:56,560 --> 00:08:00,240 Speaker 1: see how well the studio of yours boost production. Pew 149 00:08:00,280 --> 00:08:02,200 Speaker 1: it up. Let's go up to my room in case 150 00:08:02,240 --> 00:08:04,400 Speaker 1: my parents get home. It's because I'm back on the 151 00:08:04,440 --> 00:08:11,280 Speaker 1: podcast doesn't mean we're cool, I know. So who's this 152 00:08:11,400 --> 00:08:15,160 Speaker 1: artist again? Nasty C from South Africa. Janelle has been 153 00:08:15,160 --> 00:08:17,280 Speaker 1: trying to schedule it for a week. It was so 154 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:26,680 Speaker 1: worth it. Listen up in your own words? Who is Nasty? 155 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:31,000 Speaker 1: That's to see is just a creatively free artists from 156 00:08:31,000 --> 00:08:33,400 Speaker 1: South Africa started rapping and I was like nine years old, 157 00:08:33,720 --> 00:08:36,560 Speaker 1: and I've pretty much just been experimenting with music up 158 00:08:36,640 --> 00:08:40,560 Speaker 1: until today. I've don't consider myself as artists who's found 159 00:08:40,559 --> 00:08:44,280 Speaker 1: this sound or whatever. I'm still growing and still experimenting 160 00:08:44,440 --> 00:08:48,439 Speaker 1: and very open to like new sounds and stuff like that. Wow. 161 00:08:48,880 --> 00:08:50,880 Speaker 1: I started making music period when I was like nine 162 00:08:50,960 --> 00:08:53,440 Speaker 1: years old. That was my first time. But the first 163 00:08:53,440 --> 00:08:55,360 Speaker 1: time I ever paid attention to music at all was 164 00:08:55,400 --> 00:08:57,520 Speaker 1: because of t I he had dropped this other remix 165 00:08:57,520 --> 00:08:59,840 Speaker 1: for top Back, and I saw it in this bust 166 00:08:59,880 --> 00:09:01,200 Speaker 1: that used to take to school, and I was just 167 00:09:01,240 --> 00:09:04,839 Speaker 1: like a nine year old in a country that doesn't 168 00:09:04,840 --> 00:09:06,480 Speaker 1: really play hip hop like that, So it was my 169 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:09,360 Speaker 1: first music memory, but also just like my first time 170 00:09:09,360 --> 00:09:11,360 Speaker 1: hearing hip hop like that. Like at first, I started 171 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:15,640 Speaker 1: off mimicking T. I just like wrapping his words, wrapping 172 00:09:15,679 --> 00:09:17,360 Speaker 1: his lyrics and like changing a couple of words so 173 00:09:17,559 --> 00:09:20,280 Speaker 1: it sounds like it came for me. And then I 174 00:09:20,320 --> 00:09:23,960 Speaker 1: would remake Little Wayne Beats, t I Beats, T Pain Beats, 175 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:27,040 Speaker 1: Chris Brown Beats, like I started remaking beats, and I 176 00:09:27,040 --> 00:09:29,080 Speaker 1: started making my own beats and writing my own lyrics. 177 00:09:29,520 --> 00:09:32,520 Speaker 1: And I guess the older grew, the more my story 178 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:36,400 Speaker 1: started to developed, and I feel like something I needed 179 00:09:36,400 --> 00:09:38,679 Speaker 1: to put on tracks as opposed to just like MI 180 00:09:38,800 --> 00:09:44,199 Speaker 1: making somebody else and fast forward you have for me today? Wow? Wow? 181 00:09:44,679 --> 00:09:47,520 Speaker 1: And how do social media play into that story? Social 182 00:09:47,559 --> 00:09:51,360 Speaker 1: media has had a huge impact on many artists careers, 183 00:09:51,600 --> 00:09:55,160 Speaker 1: more especially in my career because I'm coming from or 184 00:09:55,200 --> 00:09:57,320 Speaker 1: not only just the city, but a country that doesn't 185 00:09:57,320 --> 00:10:00,120 Speaker 1: really embrace hip hop like that. If you were a 186 00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:04,480 Speaker 1: wrap and you sounded like anybody international. People would mark you, 187 00:10:04,520 --> 00:10:07,640 Speaker 1: people will make you feel stupid. And then social media 188 00:10:07,679 --> 00:10:10,440 Speaker 1: came around and people started to get a little more 189 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:13,840 Speaker 1: familiar with commercial hip hop and stuff like that. It 190 00:10:13,880 --> 00:10:16,720 Speaker 1: became a lot more accessible and people understood it a 191 00:10:16,720 --> 00:10:19,880 Speaker 1: bit more so by default, they started understanding us a 192 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:23,400 Speaker 1: bit more like hip hop hits word word and one 193 00:10:23,440 --> 00:10:26,080 Speaker 1: of your songs you wrapped. I signed deals, but I 194 00:10:26,160 --> 00:10:29,560 Speaker 1: own my soul. Can you elaborate on that? That won't 195 00:10:29,559 --> 00:10:33,040 Speaker 1: be changing my bigger pictures, my message, what I stand for, 196 00:10:33,559 --> 00:10:36,720 Speaker 1: how dress, how I love, how I present myself, what 197 00:10:36,840 --> 00:10:38,160 Speaker 1: I like and what I don't like to do. None 198 00:10:38,200 --> 00:10:40,520 Speaker 1: of that stuff will be changing. I know a lot 199 00:10:40,559 --> 00:10:45,400 Speaker 1: of artists. I feel like they're compelled to adjusting and 200 00:10:45,440 --> 00:10:48,280 Speaker 1: becoming what the label wants them to become, because then 201 00:10:48,320 --> 00:10:51,240 Speaker 1: they'll appeal more to this market, or then they'll be 202 00:10:51,320 --> 00:10:53,680 Speaker 1: radio friendly or this and that and that. I know 203 00:10:53,800 --> 00:10:56,280 Speaker 1: like labels change a lot of artists, and sometimes it's 204 00:10:56,320 --> 00:10:58,760 Speaker 1: not even like intestingly. Sometimes they think they're helping, but 205 00:10:59,040 --> 00:11:02,160 Speaker 1: they're really just leading the artists astray. You have to 206 00:11:02,200 --> 00:11:04,400 Speaker 1: know every single step or your journey, otherwise you're not 207 00:11:04,400 --> 00:11:06,640 Speaker 1: gonna be able to retrace them and go back to 208 00:11:07,360 --> 00:11:09,320 Speaker 1: point A or the drawing board whenever you need to. 209 00:11:09,800 --> 00:11:12,480 Speaker 1: We we all have these times when we're tested as 210 00:11:12,600 --> 00:11:15,040 Speaker 1: artists and there's people I need to be able to 211 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:17,360 Speaker 1: know who I am or where I am at that 212 00:11:17,400 --> 00:11:19,160 Speaker 1: time when that time happens, I need to be prepared 213 00:11:19,200 --> 00:11:21,520 Speaker 1: for it. If I just let anybody change me and 214 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:24,079 Speaker 1: and present me and give rapped me and whatever they 215 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:26,079 Speaker 1: feel like I should be gift wrapped in and that 216 00:11:26,120 --> 00:11:28,520 Speaker 1: moment comes, I'm gonna be lost. You know, I don't 217 00:11:28,520 --> 00:11:32,480 Speaker 1: want that. That's very interesting. That's very interesting. You know. 218 00:11:32,679 --> 00:11:35,080 Speaker 1: I love how your culture is so visible in your 219 00:11:35,160 --> 00:11:38,560 Speaker 1: videos and fashion. Is that intentional? Yeah? It is. And 220 00:11:38,559 --> 00:11:41,440 Speaker 1: this is really something that I really started embracing about 221 00:11:41,480 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 1: two years ago. Up until then, I've always just been 222 00:11:43,920 --> 00:11:46,840 Speaker 1: like a modern kid, just like the rest of my generation. Yeah, 223 00:11:46,840 --> 00:11:48,920 Speaker 1: a lot of them, they don't really take pride in 224 00:11:48,960 --> 00:11:50,560 Speaker 1: their culture like that. I'm trying to make it cool 225 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:52,680 Speaker 1: to take pride in your culture again. I'm not gonna 226 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:55,840 Speaker 1: start wearing animal skin only tests because that's how they 227 00:11:55,920 --> 00:11:57,440 Speaker 1: used to do it back in the day. No, I'm 228 00:11:57,440 --> 00:11:58,959 Speaker 1: doing it like I want to do it. I'm ana 229 00:11:59,000 --> 00:12:01,040 Speaker 1: hip hop head. I'm a pop at a heart, So 230 00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:03,760 Speaker 1: I'm gonna mix the two and just make it cool 231 00:12:03,800 --> 00:12:05,520 Speaker 1: for my generation to do that. You know what I mean? 232 00:12:05,840 --> 00:12:08,640 Speaker 1: A lot of kids my age and like under right now, 233 00:12:08,679 --> 00:12:10,520 Speaker 1: they don't even know their clan names. We have a 234 00:12:10,600 --> 00:12:12,240 Speaker 1: thing where you have a surname and then you have 235 00:12:12,320 --> 00:12:14,800 Speaker 1: clan names that they call praise names. Some people call 236 00:12:14,840 --> 00:12:17,120 Speaker 1: them praise names. A lot of us don't even know that. 237 00:12:17,880 --> 00:12:19,559 Speaker 1: We don't even know our clan names. So when the 238 00:12:19,760 --> 00:12:22,760 Speaker 1: moments like when we have to go propose, instead of 239 00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:24,240 Speaker 1: just doing it the white way where it's like you 240 00:12:24,280 --> 00:12:26,000 Speaker 1: just get on one knee and then you guys are 241 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:27,840 Speaker 1: engaged and then you're gonna have a white wooden, we 242 00:12:27,920 --> 00:12:30,760 Speaker 1: have to do with the traditional way where you take 243 00:12:30,800 --> 00:12:33,880 Speaker 1: your uncle's and you go to the girl's family and 244 00:12:33,960 --> 00:12:36,480 Speaker 1: before you even walk through the gate, you have to 245 00:12:36,520 --> 00:12:40,160 Speaker 1: shout that girl's clan names as a sign of respect. 246 00:12:40,320 --> 00:12:43,000 Speaker 1: We're lost right now that my generation we don't know 247 00:12:43,080 --> 00:12:45,080 Speaker 1: nothing about that. I'm just trying to make it cool again. 248 00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:49,760 Speaker 1: I guess it's like passing down traditions. You know, what's 249 00:12:49,760 --> 00:12:53,280 Speaker 1: your clan name? So my surname is mobile and some 250 00:12:53,360 --> 00:12:55,640 Speaker 1: of my clan names is like fools there, my sham 251 00:12:57,400 --> 00:12:59,880 Speaker 1: news sort haveing stuff like that. They feel like ad lib. 252 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:02,000 Speaker 1: I'm trying to make it make sense to you. So 253 00:13:02,080 --> 00:13:04,760 Speaker 1: you recently recorded a single title they don't with t 254 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:07,280 Speaker 1: I and all the protests are going to the Until 255 00:13:07,360 --> 00:13:10,800 Speaker 1: Freedom and Solidarity Fund. How did that collaboration happen? I 256 00:13:10,840 --> 00:13:14,679 Speaker 1: made the song like a year ago, and that was 257 00:13:14,920 --> 00:13:18,880 Speaker 1: just around the time I've seen the Netflix series when 258 00:13:18,920 --> 00:13:21,280 Speaker 1: they See Us, you remember that? So before I saw 259 00:13:21,320 --> 00:13:24,160 Speaker 1: that series, I didn't really know much about like the 260 00:13:24,240 --> 00:13:27,200 Speaker 1: racial injustice situation going on in the States, not that 261 00:13:27,280 --> 00:13:29,040 Speaker 1: much of it, Like I've seen a couple of clips 262 00:13:29,240 --> 00:13:31,440 Speaker 1: every now and then, but it wasn't like in my 263 00:13:31,480 --> 00:13:33,360 Speaker 1: face like that. And then after I saw that series, 264 00:13:33,800 --> 00:13:36,360 Speaker 1: I started to do my own research and just like 265 00:13:36,800 --> 00:13:39,440 Speaker 1: all the clips that I kept seeing literally broke my heart. 266 00:13:39,520 --> 00:13:42,280 Speaker 1: So I was like ship, So I made the song. 267 00:13:42,760 --> 00:13:44,840 Speaker 1: I made the song by myself at first, actually, and 268 00:13:45,040 --> 00:13:48,559 Speaker 1: it was just like coming from a sympathetic perspective. There's 269 00:13:48,600 --> 00:13:51,040 Speaker 1: no aggression to it or nothing, because I haven't experienced 270 00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:53,080 Speaker 1: it. It It was just like it was very sad for 271 00:13:53,120 --> 00:13:55,960 Speaker 1: me to see that. And then a couple of months 272 00:13:55,960 --> 00:13:58,160 Speaker 1: down the line, you have to seeing the series. But 273 00:13:58,240 --> 00:14:00,240 Speaker 1: before I made the song, I was in ne York 274 00:14:00,240 --> 00:14:03,320 Speaker 1: shooting a video with they said for King, and I 275 00:14:03,400 --> 00:14:06,720 Speaker 1: have a mild taste of that whole situation we were 276 00:14:06,760 --> 00:14:10,280 Speaker 1: shooting in. I think we were in Harlem, some rooftop 277 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:13,040 Speaker 1: and I don't know what happened, but we got raided 278 00:14:13,160 --> 00:14:17,240 Speaker 1: and it was like thirteen corps upstairs, like putting us 279 00:14:17,240 --> 00:14:19,080 Speaker 1: in a line, making us put out. I d s 280 00:14:19,120 --> 00:14:21,800 Speaker 1: on the flooring ship, our hands up. I was like, 281 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:24,560 Speaker 1: what the funk is going on right now? And this 282 00:14:24,600 --> 00:14:26,520 Speaker 1: was the fresh out of seeing like all these videos 283 00:14:26,520 --> 00:14:28,200 Speaker 1: in this series, so I was like, I'm for still 284 00:14:28,280 --> 00:14:30,960 Speaker 1: dying right now. I'm dying to the to the hands 285 00:14:31,000 --> 00:14:34,480 Speaker 1: of policemen. This is crazy. But luckily nothing happened, and 286 00:14:34,640 --> 00:14:36,360 Speaker 1: I just decided to make a song and just get 287 00:14:36,400 --> 00:14:38,560 Speaker 1: it off my chest. I was more making it to 288 00:14:38,680 --> 00:14:41,480 Speaker 1: just help the mothers and the loved ones of the 289 00:14:41,600 --> 00:14:47,200 Speaker 1: victims here. And a year later, unfortunately the circumstance and 290 00:14:47,440 --> 00:14:50,600 Speaker 1: the situation was relevant again, which is crazy. And then 291 00:14:51,080 --> 00:14:54,560 Speaker 1: a year later me and t I formed like somewhat 292 00:14:54,680 --> 00:14:58,600 Speaker 1: of a friendship and we have one song already in 293 00:14:58,640 --> 00:15:00,000 Speaker 1: the bag, and this is not the song that's out. 294 00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,200 Speaker 1: This is a song that's on my album. And then 295 00:15:02,440 --> 00:15:04,760 Speaker 1: when this ship really got out of control and it 296 00:15:04,840 --> 00:15:07,000 Speaker 1: just became like the number one topic in the world, 297 00:15:07,400 --> 00:15:09,960 Speaker 1: we were just like, yo, who better to get on 298 00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:13,400 Speaker 1: this song and have them put it out then t 299 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:17,560 Speaker 1: I somebody who publicly stands for this ship. This is 300 00:15:17,560 --> 00:15:19,400 Speaker 1: what's happening in the world right now. This is what 301 00:15:19,520 --> 00:15:22,160 Speaker 1: matters more than streams and usin and this and that 302 00:15:22,280 --> 00:15:24,280 Speaker 1: and being cool and whatnot. So I was just like, yo, man, 303 00:15:24,520 --> 00:15:26,040 Speaker 1: this is my idol, this is thing, is the reason 304 00:15:26,080 --> 00:15:27,560 Speaker 1: I picked up a pin in the first place. So 305 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:31,440 Speaker 1: it would be an honor to have him on one 306 00:15:31,440 --> 00:15:35,040 Speaker 1: of my songs, and a song that actually means something, 307 00:15:35,080 --> 00:15:37,920 Speaker 1: the song that's not about everything else like that we 308 00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:40,480 Speaker 1: always rap about as rappers. So we just put him 309 00:15:40,520 --> 00:15:42,480 Speaker 1: on there and he was mot and happy to do it. 310 00:15:43,080 --> 00:15:45,040 Speaker 1: I was just speak to do it, and I was 311 00:15:45,120 --> 00:15:47,880 Speaker 1: just bad. I was just on the respect for putting 312 00:15:47,920 --> 00:15:50,840 Speaker 1: up that messicy, that's what's up, that's what suck and 313 00:15:51,240 --> 00:15:53,400 Speaker 1: what do you want people to know who haven't been 314 00:15:53,400 --> 00:15:56,920 Speaker 1: in Africa? I mean, even for black Americans like I 315 00:15:56,920 --> 00:15:58,920 Speaker 1: guess a message for those who that haven't visited the 316 00:15:58,960 --> 00:16:03,000 Speaker 1: motherland the continent. Damn, it's it's so much. There's so much. 317 00:16:03,440 --> 00:16:04,880 Speaker 1: They just need to come in. They just need to 318 00:16:04,880 --> 00:16:09,560 Speaker 1: come home and really experience it themselves. Yeah, the pictures 319 00:16:09,560 --> 00:16:12,280 Speaker 1: and the videos and the stories they don't sell it enough. 320 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:14,720 Speaker 1: It's it's not enough. People have to actually come here 321 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:19,040 Speaker 1: and see how our values aren't way different from like 322 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:23,040 Speaker 1: everybody else in the world. You put culture first, family first, 323 00:16:23,160 --> 00:16:26,840 Speaker 1: before business, before wealth and stuff like that. Did they 324 00:16:26,840 --> 00:16:29,920 Speaker 1: really just have to have to come home, man, even 325 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:31,400 Speaker 1: if it's for the week and then go back to 326 00:16:31,440 --> 00:16:33,880 Speaker 1: your life. It's cool, but just come home for a second. 327 00:16:33,920 --> 00:16:35,440 Speaker 1: I bet you would have changed their minds to to 328 00:16:35,520 --> 00:16:37,480 Speaker 1: change the way they think, the way they act, the manners, 329 00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:39,240 Speaker 1: and it a chains all of it. Yeah, I might 330 00:16:39,280 --> 00:16:45,320 Speaker 1: have to take a trip soon. We'll be right back 331 00:16:50,680 --> 00:16:57,520 Speaker 1: and now back to the show. While Marco and I 332 00:16:57,600 --> 00:16:59,920 Speaker 1: spent the rest of the afternoon working on the interview edit, 333 00:17:00,440 --> 00:17:07,119 Speaker 1: Nasty Seas words they're bouncing around my head. It feels 334 00:17:07,119 --> 00:17:09,600 Speaker 1: like I've lost that knowledge. I made my own way 335 00:17:09,600 --> 00:17:12,199 Speaker 1: out into the world, and I like it, but I 336 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:14,840 Speaker 1: can't seem to retrace the steps home, get right with 337 00:17:14,840 --> 00:17:17,680 Speaker 1: the people closest to me who are hurt. At least 338 00:17:17,720 --> 00:17:19,600 Speaker 1: once Mark was busy working on the pie with me. 339 00:17:19,640 --> 00:17:21,920 Speaker 1: He's in the right headspace, and it feels like old times. 340 00:17:22,600 --> 00:17:26,000 Speaker 1: When my parents get home, he excuses himself. It doesn't 341 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:28,720 Speaker 1: even stay for dinner. I understand it's gonna take some 342 00:17:28,800 --> 00:17:32,480 Speaker 1: time and it's gonna be an awkward dinner anyway. Tomorrow 343 00:17:32,520 --> 00:17:36,640 Speaker 1: is Saturday, and more to the point, my therapy appointment. 344 00:17:37,240 --> 00:17:40,880 Speaker 1: I feel aunty and anxious thinking about it. I don't 345 00:17:40,880 --> 00:17:43,680 Speaker 1: even exactly know why, but I don't try to meditate 346 00:17:43,680 --> 00:17:46,080 Speaker 1: again at night, and even with my meds, I have 347 00:17:46,160 --> 00:17:49,560 Speaker 1: some trouble sleeping. I haven't seen the therapist in a 348 00:17:49,640 --> 00:17:51,680 Speaker 1: few years. I used to go to one as a 349 00:17:51,760 --> 00:17:54,320 Speaker 1: kid when I was first diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. 350 00:17:55,119 --> 00:17:57,520 Speaker 1: It was fine, I guess, and I get where my 351 00:17:57,560 --> 00:17:59,760 Speaker 1: parents are coming from now wanting me to go again. 352 00:18:00,200 --> 00:18:02,119 Speaker 1: But it just feels like a replay of everything that 353 00:18:02,200 --> 00:18:04,240 Speaker 1: happened after I blew up on vine when I was little, 354 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:07,879 Speaker 1: and I'm dreading that. I'm afraid of being poked and 355 00:18:08,400 --> 00:18:14,360 Speaker 1: prided and diagnosed, label crazy or dysfunctional in some new way. 356 00:18:15,080 --> 00:18:17,040 Speaker 1: The morning comes and Da gives me a ride to 357 00:18:17,040 --> 00:18:21,359 Speaker 1: the therapist office. So are you ready for this appointment? 358 00:18:21,560 --> 00:18:24,159 Speaker 1: I guess. I hope this guy doesn't change up my 359 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:27,240 Speaker 1: meds too much that messes with my moods. I'm sure 360 00:18:27,240 --> 00:18:31,080 Speaker 1: he'll be responsible about it. You haven't been acting erratic 361 00:18:32,480 --> 00:18:36,720 Speaker 1: aside from this one episode? How's your anxiety doing? The 362 00:18:36,880 --> 00:18:39,520 Speaker 1: surge of frustration posters through my veins when he describes 363 00:18:39,560 --> 00:18:43,040 Speaker 1: my jail break to the viral Villa as an erratic episode. 364 00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:47,480 Speaker 1: It wasn't erratic. It wasn't a manic attack. It was purposeful, 365 00:18:47,840 --> 00:18:51,560 Speaker 1: a natural outcome of the pressures I was under. But 366 00:18:51,600 --> 00:18:53,960 Speaker 1: I keep a little my sudden bursts of anger to 367 00:18:54,080 --> 00:18:58,960 Speaker 1: save it for the therapist. My anxiety has been okay, 368 00:18:59,560 --> 00:19:02,200 Speaker 1: mostly homes up around me, Marco and Janelle trying to 369 00:19:02,200 --> 00:19:05,479 Speaker 1: finish this podcast season while I'm under well, you know 370 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:10,160 Speaker 1: this grounding. My dad, Grimaces doesn't like that I'm still 371 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:13,640 Speaker 1: priding him about the grounding. Luckily, the ride isn't too long, 372 00:19:13,680 --> 00:19:15,680 Speaker 1: and after just a couple more blocks will be ride 373 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:18,000 Speaker 1: in silence. He's pulled up out front of a small 374 00:19:18,040 --> 00:19:21,080 Speaker 1: office building where the therapist works. I popped the car 375 00:19:21,200 --> 00:19:22,840 Speaker 1: door and have one ft on the pavement when he 376 00:19:22,880 --> 00:19:27,840 Speaker 1: taps me on the shoulder. You know, Ben, it wasn't right. 377 00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:32,119 Speaker 1: And I agree with your mother that it's good for 378 00:19:32,160 --> 00:19:36,000 Speaker 1: you to have someone to talk to about all of 379 00:19:36,119 --> 00:19:42,080 Speaker 1: this spots. Just so you know what you did. It 380 00:19:42,280 --> 00:19:48,200 Speaker 1: took guts. Thanks there. The psychiatrist office is your classic 381 00:19:48,240 --> 00:19:53,840 Speaker 1: therapy office, tastefully decorated, the neutral colors, some plants. So 382 00:19:53,920 --> 00:19:56,760 Speaker 1: you say you're here because of your parents. Yeah, they're 383 00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:59,000 Speaker 1: basically making me come as a condition of getting out 384 00:19:59,000 --> 00:20:03,200 Speaker 1: of grounding. How to does that make you feel frustrated? Uh? 385 00:20:04,240 --> 00:20:05,920 Speaker 1: I mean, how am I supposed to get something out 386 00:20:05,920 --> 00:20:08,040 Speaker 1: of therapy if it just feels like some kind of punishment. 387 00:20:08,720 --> 00:20:10,359 Speaker 1: Just before I came in and here, my dad said 388 00:20:10,359 --> 00:20:13,159 Speaker 1: what I did took guts. And Mom sat me down 389 00:20:13,280 --> 00:20:15,040 Speaker 1: last week and showed me all these photos from when 390 00:20:15,040 --> 00:20:17,520 Speaker 1: she was young, showing me she was a dancer and stuff. 391 00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:21,199 Speaker 1: Just as we're really starting to communicate, they want to 392 00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:23,280 Speaker 1: hand all my problems off to you. It sounds like 393 00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:25,160 Speaker 1: they're doing a lot to reach out to you. Actually, 394 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:28,800 Speaker 1: you ran away from home. I didn't run away from home. 395 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:32,879 Speaker 1: I took a trip for a weekend, I left a 396 00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:36,840 Speaker 1: note and it was kind of for work for work. Well, 397 00:20:37,200 --> 00:20:39,800 Speaker 1: I had this successful hip hop interview podcast and I 398 00:20:39,840 --> 00:20:42,399 Speaker 1: got an invite out to the viral Villa, which is 399 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:45,920 Speaker 1: one of these like hot influencer arts collectives out west 400 00:20:46,840 --> 00:20:50,280 Speaker 1: going could completely blow up the podcast horizons. The timing 401 00:20:50,359 --> 00:20:53,000 Speaker 1: was just bad. My parents had just found out about 402 00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:55,840 Speaker 1: the podcast. I've been sneaking into the city behind their 403 00:20:55,880 --> 00:20:57,920 Speaker 1: back to work on it. But I mean, I had 404 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:00,720 Speaker 1: to take the invite because I've never done anything for 405 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:04,120 Speaker 1: myself ever since I was little. I was the good, 406 00:21:04,400 --> 00:21:07,800 Speaker 1: obedient kid. I went to therapy, took my anxiety man's, 407 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:10,720 Speaker 1: transferred to the right school. I've checked all the boxes. 408 00:21:11,359 --> 00:21:14,520 Speaker 1: I was so afraid of breaking my parents expectations that 409 00:21:14,560 --> 00:21:16,880 Speaker 1: with my friends and I launched this podcast. I went 410 00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:20,360 Speaker 1: under a stage name and we masked my voice. I've 411 00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:23,119 Speaker 1: been a nervous wreck because of their expectations, and the 412 00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:25,480 Speaker 1: podcast has been like a way into a whole new 413 00:21:25,560 --> 00:21:28,439 Speaker 1: life for me. Taking a trip on my almost the 414 00:21:28,480 --> 00:21:32,000 Speaker 1: first thing I've done for myself in years. I don't 415 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:34,520 Speaker 1: want to reject it as some manic episode or something. 416 00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:38,080 Speaker 1: I want to own it. I wanted to be me 417 00:21:38,480 --> 00:21:42,119 Speaker 1: reclaiming my life. But my parents just don't see it 418 00:21:42,160 --> 00:21:45,760 Speaker 1: that way. My friends don't see it that way. My 419 00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:48,520 Speaker 1: stage name was mask On, and now I just feel 420 00:21:48,560 --> 00:21:50,560 Speaker 1: like I took the mask off, and now everybody's mad 421 00:21:50,600 --> 00:21:52,720 Speaker 1: at seeing the real meat. I paused for breath and 422 00:21:52,760 --> 00:21:56,120 Speaker 1: the therapist takes a second. I came in here feeling defensive, 423 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:58,600 Speaker 1: but it feels good to let it all spell out. 424 00:21:58,760 --> 00:22:02,280 Speaker 1: How have your medications working? Your intake paperwork said you've 425 00:22:02,280 --> 00:22:04,919 Speaker 1: been having anxiety attacks. They've been better since that's at 426 00:22:04,920 --> 00:22:07,440 Speaker 1: the weekend a way, but I've been feeling a lot 427 00:22:07,520 --> 00:22:09,360 Speaker 1: of anxiety the last couple of months. That that's how 428 00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:12,080 Speaker 1: to balance all this. This guy seems reasonable enough, but 429 00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,000 Speaker 1: is he about to change up my meds and screw 430 00:22:14,040 --> 00:22:17,199 Speaker 1: with my moods? I need stability now to get through 431 00:22:17,200 --> 00:22:20,119 Speaker 1: the last stretch of this podcast production. You've obviously had 432 00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,800 Speaker 1: a lot on your mind. Do you know what pressured speeches? 433 00:22:23,200 --> 00:22:26,480 Speaker 1: I shake my head, no, it's a symptom of bipolar disorder, 434 00:22:26,600 --> 00:22:29,480 Speaker 1: an urgent need to share your thoughts and ideas. When 435 00:22:29,480 --> 00:22:31,960 Speaker 1: you speak about your podcast and your trip out West, 436 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:36,359 Speaker 1: I hear it bipolar disorder. Like Kanye here, we go. 437 00:22:37,280 --> 00:22:39,639 Speaker 1: The hammer is coming down. I'm going to be slapped 438 00:22:39,640 --> 00:22:42,560 Speaker 1: with the new label. It would be premature to label 439 00:22:42,600 --> 00:22:45,320 Speaker 1: what you did a manic episode. You certainly scared your 440 00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:47,880 Speaker 1: family and friends, but a lot of young folks don't 441 00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:51,439 Speaker 1: exhibit bipolar episodes until they're early to mid twenties. And 442 00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:53,879 Speaker 1: you didn't lose your faculties. You weren't a danger to 443 00:22:53,920 --> 00:22:57,560 Speaker 1: yourself for others. So let's not worry about your parents 444 00:22:57,560 --> 00:23:01,480 Speaker 1: diagnosis concerns just yet. I think we can maybe ease 445 00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:03,960 Speaker 1: up on some of your heavier medication if you haven't 446 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,840 Speaker 1: been feeling as anxious lately. Are you willing to come 447 00:23:06,840 --> 00:23:08,720 Speaker 1: see me once a week for a while. I feel 448 00:23:08,760 --> 00:23:11,320 Speaker 1: the familiar swell of anxiety at the suggestion of being 449 00:23:11,400 --> 00:23:15,280 Speaker 1: roped into regular appointments like I'm under watch. But I 450 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:16,679 Speaker 1: know I need to work with this guy if I'm 451 00:23:16,720 --> 00:23:19,200 Speaker 1: going to get my parents off my back. He knows 452 00:23:19,240 --> 00:23:23,960 Speaker 1: it too, and taking fewer meds would be a relief. Yeah, yeah, 453 00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:26,520 Speaker 1: we can try that. Good. Let's get you on the 454 00:23:26,560 --> 00:23:29,560 Speaker 1: books for next week. Now tell me more about this 455 00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:54,160 Speaker 1: podcast and now an exclusive track from Nasty c Are 456 00:23:54,240 --> 00:23:57,120 Speaker 1: used to have tech in the Fridging Live Bank I'm 457 00:23:57,119 --> 00:23:59,720 Speaker 1: not going back. I had bed bugs I have which 458 00:23:59,760 --> 00:24:03,520 Speaker 1: is rats. I'm not going back. Making this cheese cannot 459 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:06,720 Speaker 1: be this easy. It must be a catch spending them 460 00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:09,800 Speaker 1: making them back. So maybe it's balancing that I used 461 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:12,560 Speaker 1: to have jack in the fridging the bank. I'm not 462 00:24:12,640 --> 00:24:15,720 Speaker 1: going back. I had big bugs, I have runches and rats. 463 00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:19,639 Speaker 1: I'm not going back. Making this cheese cannot be this easy. 464 00:24:19,960 --> 00:24:22,800 Speaker 1: It must be a catch. I'm spending them making it back. 465 00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:25,800 Speaker 1: So maybe it's balancing that I ushuld you know I 466 00:24:25,800 --> 00:24:28,159 Speaker 1: switched his tous and bring this shit home and tipping 467 00:24:28,160 --> 00:24:30,960 Speaker 1: the hats. I don't want to return from none of 468 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:34,000 Speaker 1: my bro switspetching a backs. Some people want to be 469 00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:36,399 Speaker 1: concy each is. I don't go get you some racks. 470 00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:39,639 Speaker 1: You're going on win too fast. Only guy knows how. 471 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:42,280 Speaker 1: Then't crash as soom as I find me your window, 472 00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:45,400 Speaker 1: I gott it where I fitted. If I make somebody 473 00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:48,720 Speaker 1: your lead, she's gonna have us some millies no money. 474 00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:50,760 Speaker 1: Cons will fuck it. We'll take it where you should be. 475 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:53,520 Speaker 1: Broken with city can't be or nobody in my own city. 476 00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:55,600 Speaker 1: I by like to marry My windows is teeny. These 477 00:24:55,680 --> 00:24:57,959 Speaker 1: people ain't playing my songs out of pity. They actually 478 00:24:58,080 --> 00:25:00,639 Speaker 1: genuinely fucking win me. They pay me in hands twenties 479 00:25:00,680 --> 00:25:02,800 Speaker 1: on this fifties. I'm taking it all, cats, I ain't 480 00:25:02,840 --> 00:25:06,000 Speaker 1: pick on gimming all. Let me figure it out. I'm 481 00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:08,640 Speaker 1: not a liability nigga hussling like I go. I don't 482 00:25:08,680 --> 00:25:11,040 Speaker 1: needed me, nigga. It's tall ratch till in finning. You 483 00:25:11,119 --> 00:25:13,880 Speaker 1: should have check in the fridge in the bank. I'm 484 00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:16,600 Speaker 1: not going back. I had bad bugs, I had rotches 485 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:20,320 Speaker 1: and rats. I'm not going back. Making the cheese cannot 486 00:25:20,359 --> 00:25:23,480 Speaker 1: be this easy. There must be a catch spending them 487 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:26,560 Speaker 1: making them back. So maybe it's balancing that I used 488 00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:29,240 Speaker 1: to have jack in the fridge in the bank. I'm 489 00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:31,960 Speaker 1: not going back. I had bad bugs, I had watches 490 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:35,679 Speaker 1: and rats. I'm not going back. Making the cheese cannot 491 00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:38,639 Speaker 1: be this easy. It must be a catch. I'm spending 492 00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:42,080 Speaker 1: them making it back. So maybe it's balancing that usaid 493 00:25:46,240 --> 00:25:48,399 Speaker 1: Here Comes to Break is produced by Double Elvis and 494 00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:52,160 Speaker 1: partnership with I Heart Radio. 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