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Speaker 1: Welcome to We Talk Back Podcast, the production of iHeartRadio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effect Network.

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Speaker 2: So we're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion

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Speaker 2: who talks. What's up y'all?

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Speaker 3: As your girl a j Holiday. I heard that, bitch,

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Speaker 3: damn for real already? Yeah damn, y'all, Why this girl

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Speaker 3: like this? Like the lay down and record?

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Speaker 2: Y'all work so hard. Okay, I'm too tired, but guess what,

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Speaker 2: I love y'all. So I'm gonna show up every week

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Speaker 2: tired or not period. How was your weekend?

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Speaker 1: My weekend was trying to get ready to go out

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Speaker 1: of town. That's about it. I cannot fucking wait. I

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Speaker 1: must have emailed a hundred car mental places because Barbados

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Speaker 1: don't have no carbon, no cars. But I found somebody

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Speaker 1: to actually come into an office on Christmas Day.

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Speaker 2: You god man, I saw that playing and packed. Bitch.

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Speaker 2: You got your eyebrows microplated?

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Speaker 1: No girl, you know a pacosta with these things?

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Speaker 2: Oh damn, they look good.

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Speaker 1: I would driving my eyebrows at least in sixth grade, y'all,

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Speaker 1: at least.

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Speaker 2: Yours look good. My eyebrow fell out. You see that.

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Speaker 2: I've been using that treck knowing. I don't know if

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Speaker 2: I'm pronouncing it right, but I've been rubbing it down

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Speaker 2: my face and they pulled my eyebrow out. What is that?

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Speaker 2: That's treck knowing? I don't know if that's how you

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Speaker 2: said that skincare shit for acne. You don't get acne?

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Speaker 2: Why you need that? I have been getting like on

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Speaker 2: my jaw line, I've been getting like hormonal acne. So

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Speaker 2: then the doctor prescribed me that. And then instead of

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Speaker 2: just putting it on, I just I just put some

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Speaker 2: of my hand and went like, you know, it's going

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Speaker 2: like that, lazy about it, And then it took my

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Speaker 2: eyebrows out, and.

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Speaker 1: I ain't about to be like me. I ain't never

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Speaker 1: had no eyebrows. You know how my my eyebrows grow,

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Speaker 1: you know how people cut those lines in their eyebrow,

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Speaker 1: Like my shit literally grow like that. So it'd be

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Speaker 1: like here up here and then the rest of it

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Speaker 1: here be down here.

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Speaker 2: Way down there, just split down the middle, recussing your eyebrows,

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Speaker 2: trying to wild out like Jayson, let me tell you,

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Speaker 2: but what I found that I do like there's a

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Speaker 2: new Anastasia Beverly Hills. They brow pin no it's the

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Speaker 2: pen now, and you can just draw like hairstrokes and

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Speaker 2: they look like hair. I like that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I got a lorio one like that, but it

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Speaker 1: don't last that long. I need to try that.

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Speaker 2: It's new by and it's good. You should try it.

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Speaker 2: It's a good one. But what's the sayings? We're doing it? Oh?

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Speaker 2: Hold on, we skip something?

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Speaker 1: You what did you do this weekend? I ain't do

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Speaker 1: nothing but pack and get ready to go on vacation.

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Speaker 1: That I needed real bad.

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Speaker 2: So I ain't do nothing but work, work, work. I

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Speaker 2: slept ate work, that's it. It's been so busy. But

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Speaker 2: it's that time of year, you know, right before holiday.

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Speaker 2: Everybody want to look nice. They got holiday company parties,

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Speaker 2: family gatherings, friends, miss so I just been working like

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Speaker 2: a dog. Look at my head, baby, I've.

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Speaker 1: Been nothing wrong with their head, and that hair look good.

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Speaker 2: Still. If I take this headband off, the whole weave

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Speaker 2: gonna fall off. It's down bad. I'm just trying to

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Speaker 2: wait till the new year to do something in my head.

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Speaker 1: You know, I'm young getting braids right. It's not like

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Speaker 1: what you think, though.

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Speaker 2: And that's because I was gonna say something about that

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Speaker 2: I was so busy at work when I heard when

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Speaker 2: I saw you was getting braids, I was like, you

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Speaker 2: ain't had braids since we went. What you think?

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Speaker 1: Here's what I'm doing, brain in a week. I'm getting

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Speaker 1: like a braided style to put my wig on top of.

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Speaker 1: So I'm using human hair, real small, and I do

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Speaker 1: want like the stitch shit feeding.

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Speaker 2: So when I take my.

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Speaker 1: Wig off, I got like braid design small enough to

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Speaker 1: Sti'll put the wig on top.

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Speaker 2: Women and I don't.

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Speaker 1: And I still want to wear my wig like. I

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Speaker 1: still want to take pictures with my fucking wig, but

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Speaker 1: I want to swim like, so I'll have like some

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Speaker 1: lemonade braids. Don't just wear them braids because I my

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Speaker 1: head is fucking huge.

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Speaker 2: Okay, I don't want it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, your head is.

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Speaker 2: You have a normal hair, bitch, So I got my

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Speaker 2: mama had. It's a whole fucking football when you had

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Speaker 2: those braids when we went to see Cuddy or whatever

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Speaker 2: her name was, that was what's nice. That was a

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Speaker 2: long time ago too. I don't want single I don't.

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Speaker 1: I don't really like braids, right, So this is not

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Speaker 1: a thing where I want braids for vacation you know

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Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I just want to be able to

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Speaker 1: swim and not have to worry about my hair for real,

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Speaker 1: right doing it in any capacity, I could slap my

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Speaker 1: weight back on and be going by my business. So

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Speaker 1: that's what I want to. Yeah, I'll see you a

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Speaker 1: picture girl.

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Speaker 2: You doing the Whyn't you leave that wig off the

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Speaker 2: whole time? Why don't you say fuck it? It's gonna

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Speaker 2: be hot. You're gonna be like fuck that week, and

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Speaker 2: it's gonna be in the suitcase the whole time. You

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Speaker 2: ain't gonna touch it? What act like? You know me?

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Speaker 2: You know you're gonna have living that brains underneath, and

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Speaker 2: you're gonna get them long, but they're gonna.

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Speaker 1: Be No, they're not even gonna be wastlength and none

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Speaker 1: of that. Like, it's gonna be like natural looking, you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I want them to last.

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Speaker 2: The braids. So you're just getting a break down basically, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: with like some little zig zags somewhere. What did you

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Speaker 2: like the ball had braid? You seen that, remember? Oh

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Speaker 2: the braid of ball? Yes, So why don't you do that?

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Speaker 1: I don't know, I'll decide tomorrow. Yeah, when my Homeboy,

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Speaker 1: get over here to break it down for me.

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Speaker 2: Well, anyway, let's get in this head. It's just really crazy.

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Speaker 2: You can't stick too.

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Speaker 1: I know, man, listen, the only thing we have going

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Speaker 1: on this week percent because it is Christmas.

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Speaker 2: Y'all marry chrismas criminals.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, man, I know everybody saw all the headlines, right

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Speaker 1: because I feel like I'm trying to figure out why

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Speaker 1: people think I didn't see it and they're sending it

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Speaker 1: to me. So Charlamagne the God right just ain't the

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Speaker 1: deal with iHeartRadio for two hundred yeller dollars to extend

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Speaker 1: the Black Black Effect Network and I guess whatever other

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Speaker 1: endeavors he has in his partnership with ip iHeartRadio. I

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Speaker 1: just want y'all niggas to know that I don't got

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Speaker 1: two hundred million.

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Speaker 2: Dollars, right, But don't call me for no money. Everybody like,

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Speaker 2: what's yo? Cood? What? I don't what? First of all,

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Speaker 2: that's not how that works. But I am going to

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Speaker 2: see Charlamagne a video the snippet of coming to America

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Speaker 2: with our cdeo go to the Western Union. He'd be

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Speaker 2: like three hundred thousand dollars. She's like five hundred thousand dollars.

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Speaker 2: She's like, why don't you just ask for a cool million?

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Speaker 2: You know what I'm talking about. You don't think that'll

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Speaker 2: be too much?

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Speaker 4: Man?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, look you got two hundred of them, all right,

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Speaker 1: get a cool m y'all been playing a lottery that

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Speaker 1: I should have a billion dollars right now to par ball.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm gonna play my number tomorrow. I played. I

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Speaker 2: ain't check my numbers yet, and you know, in my mind,

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Speaker 2: want to come out Wednesday, Yeah, the next one, I think.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, in my mind, I win every time, Like I'm

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Speaker 1: always just shocked I didn't win too, God me too,

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Speaker 1: Like I knew I was gonna win, Like why did

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Speaker 1: I win?

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Speaker 2: It'll be our when it's our time, right, what's our

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Speaker 2: topic today? All right, y'all? So what I have been doing.

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Speaker 1: I've been doing this this thing right because y'all know

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Speaker 1: i'd be into all the things I.

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Speaker 2: Want to do.

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Speaker 1: Twelve days of miracles, manifestation, accountability, and minding your own

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Speaker 1: goddamn business, because y'all know, even if you're not an entrepreneur,

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Speaker 1: your life is the biggest business you will ever run.

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Speaker 1: Mismanaging it, you're sucking up right, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: So what this is is for you to take a

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Speaker 1: basically like a personal audit of your life. You know,

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Speaker 1: my whole life, my whole life. I've felt like I've

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Speaker 1: been worth two hundred million dollars in my mind. When

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Speaker 1: I sit back and actually do an audit, What did

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Speaker 1: I really do to get that.

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Speaker 2: Two hundred million dollars? Nothing?

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Speaker 1: Right, so that stops. Now, it don't have to be

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Speaker 1: two hundred million. But what did I do? You know,

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Speaker 1: what have you done thus far to reach your goals?

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Speaker 1: And if you're not doing the things, here's.

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Speaker 2: Where you start. Okay, So we're going to get into it,

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Speaker 2: but after this commercial we'll be right back.

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Speaker 1: All right, y'all, we're back. And this is not church

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Speaker 1: in any shape, weight or form. And I know y'all

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Speaker 1: super duper Christians. I don't think no super duper Christians

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Speaker 1: listening we talk back.

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Speaker 2: I'm sure they do.

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Speaker 1: Super duper Christians who like scatter magic and shit like that,

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Speaker 1: who I don't know go to church and do communion.

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Speaker 1: But then y'all don't believe in rituals and shit like that.

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Speaker 1: I mean, y'all in there drinking the fake blood and

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Speaker 1: eating the fake.

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Speaker 2: Flesh of Jesus Christ. But I don't know.

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Speaker 1: It's a ritual, no, that is all day long, right,

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Speaker 1: and it's the weirdest one I could think of.

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Speaker 2: But yeah, So twelve Days.

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Speaker 1: Of Miracles is essentially like you know, your twelve Days

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Speaker 1: of Christmas. And I'm sorry, y'all, I started on Sunday. Okay,

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Speaker 1: Obviously we do pre record a couple of days in advance, So.

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm gonna start with y'all because I don't know

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Speaker 2: nothing about it either, So go ahead, right, even if

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Speaker 2: you're starting to date on Christmas, you want to count

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Speaker 2: out to twelve days, Okay, So this is twelve Days

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Speaker 2: of Miracles from the Cabbala, which is simply like Jewish mysticism.

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Speaker 1: It's nothing demonic or satanic, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: So basically, you're doing a cosmic audit where you ask

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Speaker 1: the universe or that universe actually ask you, right, are

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Speaker 1: you sure you want the life you ordered? Are you

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Speaker 1: living the life you in your mind you think you

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Speaker 1: should be living, right? And what are the things that

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Speaker 1: you're doing to reach those goals? So each day lines

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Speaker 1: up with the month of the year, meaning this is

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Speaker 1: your chance to preload your blessings or at least stop

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Speaker 1: blocking them. Okay, so that is what we're doing with

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Speaker 1: the twelve Days of Miracles. Sorry, y'all, both of us sick. Sniffles,

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Speaker 1: Jesus Christ. I'm taking all the type of drugs vitamin

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Speaker 1: C overload, probably my pea. But to be orange in

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Speaker 1: a minute.

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Speaker 2: Get you some elderberry.

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Speaker 1: I got all of that, girl, I got life everlasting.

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Speaker 1: All that all right, So y'all, this is how it works.

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Speaker 1: So each day equals one month of the year. So

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Speaker 1: you're supposed to reflect, not spiral.

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Speaker 2: Okay.

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Speaker 1: There is no manifestation without accountability, right, So just like

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Speaker 1: I said, I'm asking myself, what did I do to

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Speaker 1: get to the bag? Like the major bag. You gotta

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Speaker 1: You can dress your candle up till you can listen.

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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying That that's what is setting setting,

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Speaker 2: What's the ship?

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Speaker 1: Like some sprinkle stuff? No, I mean you could put

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Speaker 1: He doesn't want you to be, you know, a poper.

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Speaker 1: That's not what he wants for his people. You know,

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Speaker 2: because it says, do I believe I deserve abundance? Why

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00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:10,120
Speaker 2: do we want luxury? But panic when the bill comes

437
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:17,760
Speaker 2: Being low maintenance is not a flex is often unhealed scarcity. Ooh,

438
00:23:18,920 --> 00:23:23,199
Speaker 2: and am I attached to comfort or security? The intention is

439
00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:26,080
Speaker 2: to build wealth without fear. Yes.

440
00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:28,920
Speaker 1: So you got a lot of people who operate out

441
00:23:28,960 --> 00:23:31,240
Speaker 1: of place, a lack probably because how they were raised,

442
00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:37,159
Speaker 1: not having and you have this scarcity mindset that you'll

443
00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 1: go back to that place one day. So people are

444
00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:43,440
Speaker 1: willing to sacrifice their integrity because the fear of having

445
00:23:43,480 --> 00:23:44,440
Speaker 1: to go back.

446
00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:48,240
Speaker 2: To that struggle period that they remember all so well,

447
00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:50,240
Speaker 2: you can't be afraid, man.

448
00:23:50,160 --> 00:23:54,320
Speaker 1: You you deserve it. You deserve everything. And the worst

449
00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:57,040
Speaker 1: people this is why all the billionaires are not like

450
00:23:57,080 --> 00:23:58,919
Speaker 1: the good people, because they don't have this shit on

451
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:02,439
Speaker 1: their conscience, right, they don't have these hang ups. They

452
00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,440
Speaker 1: go get it and they don't give a fuck who

453
00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:05,200
Speaker 1: they got to shit on.

454
00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:05,600
Speaker 2: To get it.

455
00:24:06,080 --> 00:24:08,439
Speaker 1: You don't have to do it like that. But this

456
00:24:08,640 --> 00:24:11,639
Speaker 1: is why those people are that successful. Some of us,

457
00:24:11,640 --> 00:24:14,600
Speaker 1: some people operate, you know what, integrity, and most of

458
00:24:14,640 --> 00:24:17,919
Speaker 1: them don't, right, most of them don't.

459
00:24:18,119 --> 00:24:19,879
Speaker 2: So all right, let me ask you this question just

460
00:24:19,920 --> 00:24:22,040
Speaker 2: so I can be clear and so the listeners can

461
00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 2: be clear. The questions for the theme for each day

462
00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:29,960
Speaker 2: and the reflection question should they be writing this down

463
00:24:30,240 --> 00:24:31,760
Speaker 2: and doing it each day.

464
00:24:32,600 --> 00:24:35,000
Speaker 1: You know, I was thinking about posting this or even

465
00:24:35,280 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: maybe making people a PDF if they're interested in it.

466
00:24:39,040 --> 00:24:42,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, and posting it on the page when we talk

467
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:44,320
Speaker 2: back page. But you can listen along, and if you're

468
00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:46,160
Speaker 2: listening along, you can write this shit down as we're

469
00:24:46,160 --> 00:24:50,680
Speaker 2: saying it. So Day one was Month Areas, and the

470
00:24:50,760 --> 00:24:55,159
Speaker 2: thing was beginnings, courage, and leadership, and the reflection question

471
00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:58,280
Speaker 2: how do I start things? And you gotta be honest

472
00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:04,719
Speaker 2: with yourself. Two was montha Tars and the theme was money,

473
00:25:04,840 --> 00:25:08,960
Speaker 2: self worth, in stability, and the reflection question was do

474
00:25:09,080 --> 00:25:14,440
Speaker 2: I believe I deserve abundance? Because the universe?

475
00:25:14,760 --> 00:25:17,600
Speaker 1: So they say that the devil hears you when you

476
00:25:17,640 --> 00:25:22,320
Speaker 1: speak outloud, but God hears your mind, right, So you

477
00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:24,919
Speaker 1: gotta work on your subconscious mind because those are the

478
00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:26,880
Speaker 1: things that's not on the front of your brain that's

479
00:25:26,920 --> 00:25:29,920
Speaker 1: really controlling your life. So you can say all day long,

480
00:25:30,040 --> 00:25:31,879
Speaker 1: I deserve this, but do you believe it?

481
00:25:32,400 --> 00:25:33,800
Speaker 2: Right? You really truly?

482
00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:38,639
Speaker 1: Like you gotta be so fucking delusional. Okay, you gotta

483
00:25:38,720 --> 00:25:44,479
Speaker 1: be so delusional and you will be amazed at the

484
00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:46,919
Speaker 1: things things you can create. I feel like, my problem

485
00:25:47,000 --> 00:25:50,600
Speaker 1: is I'm not delusional enough, right, right, I'm too much

486
00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:51,400
Speaker 1: of a realist.

487
00:25:51,640 --> 00:25:54,560
Speaker 2: I'm too too grounded in the reality that I'm in

488
00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:59,560
Speaker 2: now that I can't shift to the reality that I want, right.

489
00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:04,720
Speaker 1: Like, I just it's too It's like, no bullshit with me, right, Yeah,

490
00:26:04,760 --> 00:26:07,040
Speaker 1: you got you gotta get a little dumb, you gotta

491
00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:09,520
Speaker 1: get a little retarded. You got to That's the only

492
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:12,680
Speaker 1: way shit happens. You just really got to be delusional, right,

493
00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:16,919
Speaker 1: be delusional about your dreams. It's nothing is too big, nothing,

494
00:26:18,440 --> 00:26:22,600
Speaker 1: all right? So day three month, Yeah, day three month

495
00:26:22,600 --> 00:26:28,679
Speaker 1: of Gemini, my month communication, Thoughts, contracts, and reflection. Is

496
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:32,920
Speaker 1: am I honest with myself and others? And see, this

497
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:35,120
Speaker 1: is what I was talking about about that shadow work.

498
00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:41,160
Speaker 1: You know, it's hard. It is very hard, right because

499
00:26:41,880 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 1: there's nobody else to blame but yourself for your current predicament,

500
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:48,720
Speaker 1: nobody else. Even if somebody was there with you while

501
00:26:48,720 --> 00:26:50,240
Speaker 1: the ship was going bad, you allowed it.

502
00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:54,080
Speaker 2: That part allowed it. And that's the hardest part is

503
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:57,879
Speaker 2: it ain't even being honest with everybody else. It's like

504
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:00,560
Speaker 2: really looking in the mirror and telling yourself the truth

505
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:05,600
Speaker 2: and not making excuses and it's because it is it's

506
00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:08,640
Speaker 2: because of that. No, it's just because of you looking

507
00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:10,080
Speaker 2: at the mirror and own your shit.

508
00:27:10,760 --> 00:27:12,600
Speaker 1: And even once you do that, right, And I know

509
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:13,960
Speaker 1: a lot of people that they blame a lot of

510
00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:18,280
Speaker 1: things on childhood, childhood trauma, right, but healing does have

511
00:27:18,320 --> 00:27:22,360
Speaker 1: a destination. So at what point, at what point are

512
00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:24,760
Speaker 1: you going to take self accountability at your big age

513
00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:28,120
Speaker 1: and realize your parents they were just they were young

514
00:27:28,119 --> 00:27:30,159
Speaker 1: as fuck trying. I realized my mom was thirty eight

515
00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:33,280
Speaker 1: years old with three kids, bitch cheating as his fucking husband,

516
00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:35,760
Speaker 1: she pulling up at nightclubs, and shit, this nigga coming

517
00:27:35,760 --> 00:27:37,040
Speaker 1: home with blonde here on his box.

518
00:27:37,359 --> 00:27:39,080
Speaker 2: All types of shit was happening.

519
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:41,040
Speaker 1: To my mom at thirty and she was fucking traumatized.

520
00:27:41,520 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 1: She had me at thirty eight, she started having babies.

521
00:27:43,760 --> 00:27:46,679
Speaker 2: At twenty one. Think about that, right.

522
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:48,879
Speaker 1: Right, So she definitely did the best that she could do.

523
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:53,439
Speaker 1: I have a lot of empathy for my mom, A

524
00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:55,399
Speaker 1: lot of it, because I understand.

525
00:27:55,760 --> 00:27:58,880
Speaker 2: I just don't wanting people to have empathy for me now.

526
00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:02,959
Speaker 2: When I was young, I wasn't as understanding, But looking

527
00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:07,280
Speaker 2: through the lens of a grown woman is different. Yeah, yes,

528
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:11,000
Speaker 2: you see how they can go right. So all right,

529
00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 2: here's some questions you can ask yourself for day three?

530
00:28:14,080 --> 00:28:18,159
Speaker 2: Do our gossip or avoid difficult truths? And intention is

531
00:28:18,200 --> 00:28:24,920
Speaker 2: to speak with alignment? So do you say what you need? Yeah?

532
00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:27,600
Speaker 1: The intention is to speak with alignment, So be impeccable

533
00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:33,680
Speaker 1: with your word. Right, Basically that's one of the four agreements. Agreements, Yeah,

534
00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:36,840
Speaker 1: being peckable with your word. You know, we we we

535
00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:39,400
Speaker 1: on social media. There's a bunch of bullshit, gossip shit.

536
00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:41,960
Speaker 1: That's why I unfollow all the gossip pages. Of course

537
00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:43,480
Speaker 1: they still feed that ship to you because you in

538
00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:47,120
Speaker 1: an algorithm, but I don't. I don't subscribe or follow

539
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:50,480
Speaker 1: any of those pages. I unfollowed all that ship during

540
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:53,560
Speaker 1: monkey pocks, Why the fuck is this on my timeline?

541
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:58,600
Speaker 2: I don't see this right, you're talking about with my

542
00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:01,760
Speaker 2: app as monkey oh my, and I ain't see not

543
00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:05,840
Speaker 2: a single monkey with a pox. And they had us

544
00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:10,640
Speaker 2: all scared up. That shit was period in COVID, AND's

545
00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:14,640
Speaker 2: some people who had monkey pox. You saw somebody need online,

546
00:29:14,640 --> 00:29:15,520
Speaker 2: That's what I'm talking about.

547
00:29:15,560 --> 00:29:17,520
Speaker 1: It was like people online. I don't want to see

548
00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:20,320
Speaker 1: that on my timeline. I'm sorry, that's how happened to you.

549
00:29:20,360 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 1: But I don't want that in my stob conscious mind

550
00:29:23,160 --> 00:29:24,640
Speaker 1: that that could possibly happen to me.

551
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:29,760
Speaker 2: Right, No the fuck? All? Right? Day four my month,

552
00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 2: I want to do this one. This is the month

553
00:29:31,840 --> 00:29:36,920
Speaker 2: of cancer and the theme is home family, emotional safety.

554
00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:41,880
Speaker 2: And the reflection question is what emotional patterns do I

555
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:50,600
Speaker 2: carry from childhood? Do I nurture or not? And the

556
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:56,440
Speaker 2: intention is to create emotional security from within. Yeah, that's

557
00:29:56,480 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 2: a really good one for me. Remember I told y'all

558
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:02,960
Speaker 2: how I did that meditation and how I saw my

559
00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:06,480
Speaker 2: older self going to pick up my younger self from

560
00:30:06,480 --> 00:30:09,240
Speaker 2: waiting by the window on my dad, or I went

561
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:14,880
Speaker 2: to hold my hand. I was swimming with myself and

562
00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:18,480
Speaker 2: we were floating together. But it was my younger self

563
00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:20,840
Speaker 2: and my grown self and we were floating in the

564
00:30:20,840 --> 00:30:25,560
Speaker 2: ocean together. I was crying like that shit was so powerful.

565
00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:28,560
Speaker 1: That shadow work man. Next year, I'm gonna I'm want

566
00:30:28,600 --> 00:30:31,640
Speaker 1: to Costa Rica. It's probably like March April, I'm doing

567
00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:37,280
Speaker 1: the ayahuasca. I want another different experience. Yeah, I mean,

568
00:30:37,360 --> 00:30:39,160
Speaker 1: I feel like I'd be tapping in without it, but

569
00:30:39,200 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: I wanted to be more like I just want to see, you.

570
00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,160
Speaker 2: Know, I want to see.

571
00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:47,600
Speaker 1: I've been hearing some things from people who have actually

572
00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 1: actually done it. Ooh, some of y'all apparenting your parents.

573
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 2: This is some homework.

574
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:57,480
Speaker 1: It says, identify one emotional or trigger you refuse to

575
00:30:57,560 --> 00:31:01,520
Speaker 1: keep defending m M yeah, all right. So Day five

576
00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,240
Speaker 1: is a month of LEO. That's my book. He's a

577
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:09,320
Speaker 1: LEO confidence, visibility, creativity. And the reflection is do I

578
00:31:09,360 --> 00:31:15,600
Speaker 1: need validation? Do I dim myself or overperform? And the

579
00:31:15,640 --> 00:31:18,000
Speaker 1: intention is shine without ego.

580
00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:23,080
Speaker 2: That's hard for Oh, this one is very hard for

581
00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:26,280
Speaker 2: me too. Would you still do this if nobody clapped?

582
00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:33,760
Speaker 2: I struggle and it's just me being honest. I'm gonna

583
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:37,040
Speaker 2: share this with y'all, and I'm like kind of embarrassing

584
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:40,120
Speaker 2: to share this, but it's true. I will post a

585
00:31:40,120 --> 00:31:43,600
Speaker 2: picture and if I don't get no likes or nothing,

586
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:44,800
Speaker 2: I'll take it down.

587
00:31:46,080 --> 00:31:49,440
Speaker 1: That is why social media is fucking with our mental health, right,

588
00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:54,040
Speaker 1: because you realize it's not that nobody likes that picture,

589
00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:56,520
Speaker 1: is that the app didn't put it in front of people.

590
00:31:57,040 --> 00:31:58,200
Speaker 2: You see how they fuck with us.

591
00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:00,920
Speaker 1: That's why you have to disc from that, Like I

592
00:32:01,040 --> 00:32:04,920
Speaker 1: push it up for me at somebody can see it.

593
00:32:05,200 --> 00:32:08,000
Speaker 2: Right in my head. At first it's like this shit fire,

594
00:32:08,240 --> 00:32:11,920
Speaker 2: I love it, and then for some reason, I feel

595
00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:16,080
Speaker 2: like others validating it too makes it worthy and if

596
00:32:16,080 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 2: it don't do it, then now it's no longer worthy.

597
00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,040
Speaker 2: And that is mental illness to me. And I know

598
00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:24,000
Speaker 2: it's mental illness, but I keep letting it happen. Yeah,

599
00:32:24,040 --> 00:32:24,760
Speaker 2: you can't do that.

600
00:32:25,240 --> 00:32:27,240
Speaker 1: You know how to know like your shit is fucking fire?

601
00:32:27,400 --> 00:32:29,720
Speaker 2: And it is and I know that though that's the

602
00:32:29,760 --> 00:32:31,760
Speaker 2: crazy part. And I know it's fire and I know

603
00:32:31,840 --> 00:32:34,480
Speaker 2: on fire, but just something I gotta work on. And

604
00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 2: that's just me being honest. And I know I'm not

605
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:38,400
Speaker 2: the only one. I know somebody listening to me like

606
00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:39,440
Speaker 2: I do that shit too.

607
00:32:41,160 --> 00:32:44,880
Speaker 1: Oh this says posting for validation is renting self worth

608
00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:53,960
Speaker 1: by the hour. Oh all right, here's a mirror question.

609
00:32:54,920 --> 00:33:00,120
Speaker 1: Where are you performing instead of being authentic? That's DI

610
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:03,520
Speaker 1: can write down, all right, somebody can think about right

611
00:33:03,840 --> 00:33:07,560
Speaker 1: to write down an intention about I think we talk

612
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:11,000
Speaker 1: back is a place where I can just be my

613
00:33:11,120 --> 00:33:14,880
Speaker 1: full self and I don't care like I want you

614
00:33:14,920 --> 00:33:17,200
Speaker 1: all to love it, but I also don't care if

615
00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:21,120
Speaker 1: you don't like child listen, but I g.

616
00:33:22,160 --> 00:33:25,040
Speaker 2: Just be fucking with my head. Its to likes talk

617
00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:26,360
Speaker 2: about somebody still doing shit.

618
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:28,840
Speaker 1: When people don't clap motherfuckers hate me, I'll be seeing

619
00:33:28,880 --> 00:33:29,840
Speaker 1: y'all comments and shit.

620
00:33:30,320 --> 00:33:31,080
Speaker 2: And I still do.

621
00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:34,760
Speaker 1: This because guess what, I know exactly who I am,

622
00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 1: and everybody doesn't think like me because I think like God.

623
00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:43,719
Speaker 2: That people don't hate you. People just disagree with the things.

624
00:33:43,800 --> 00:33:46,240
Speaker 1: For what you know, but they don't disagreed with me.

625
00:33:46,880 --> 00:33:51,000
Speaker 1: And I have then followed up with information and then

626
00:33:51,040 --> 00:33:54,080
Speaker 1: they don't say nothing back. That anised the fuck out

627
00:33:54,080 --> 00:33:57,239
Speaker 1: of me because oftentimes I'm talking about things maybe you

628
00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:59,440
Speaker 1: just didn't know you know what I'm saying, not to

629
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:01,200
Speaker 1: say I know more than you, but I do.

630
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:05,520
Speaker 2: I be like what have you? But when you're wrong,

631
00:34:05,720 --> 00:34:08,360
Speaker 2: do you say? Do you follow up with? Okay?

632
00:34:09,200 --> 00:34:11,920
Speaker 1: Talk about I don't really talk about things that I

633
00:34:11,960 --> 00:34:14,880
Speaker 1: don't know, And if somebody's talking to me about something

634
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:15,320
Speaker 1: I don't.

635
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,560
Speaker 2: Know, I listen. I don't. I'm not.

636
00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:21,200
Speaker 1: I don't easily dismiss what people are saying, ever, because

637
00:34:21,239 --> 00:34:23,719
Speaker 1: how are you going to learn if you think you

638
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:27,239
Speaker 1: know everything? Earth is definitely a school. So if you're

639
00:34:27,280 --> 00:34:32,960
Speaker 1: not learning, like you're all right, so every day you need.

640
00:34:32,840 --> 00:34:33,320
Speaker 2: To be learning.

641
00:34:33,360 --> 00:34:35,680
Speaker 1: If somebody says something to me that sounds super crazy,

642
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:37,960
Speaker 1: like nothing is far fetched to me, right, I'm gonna

643
00:34:38,000 --> 00:34:38,600
Speaker 1: go look into it.

644
00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:39,759
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go research it.

645
00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:42,520
Speaker 1: I'm always gonna be my primary you know, I'm gonna

646
00:34:42,520 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 1: do my primary research myself. So if somebody tells me

647
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:48,120
Speaker 1: something I don't believe, I don't just dismiss what people

648
00:34:48,160 --> 00:34:49,319
Speaker 1: are saying because.

649
00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:50,480
Speaker 2: I don't agree with that.

650
00:34:51,120 --> 00:34:53,799
Speaker 1: There's there's some things that have absolute truth. You know,

651
00:34:54,480 --> 00:34:57,000
Speaker 1: look into it before you be dismissive of what somebody

652
00:34:57,040 --> 00:35:00,359
Speaker 1: is saying. And then also, yes, some things are opinion based, right,

653
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:05,040
Speaker 1: And even with opinions, a lot of times people be

654
00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:07,279
Speaker 1: saying the same shit and don't even realize it. They

655
00:35:07,400 --> 00:35:09,200
Speaker 1: just want to argue.

656
00:35:09,480 --> 00:35:14,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, sometimes people are committed committed to misunderstanding. And when

657
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:17,480
Speaker 2: I find someone that is committed to misunderstanding or someone

658
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:21,960
Speaker 2: who's always going to try to one up me, I

659
00:35:22,080 --> 00:35:23,799
Speaker 2: just just I'll let you.

660
00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:28,440
Speaker 1: Have it shine shine without ego. Like really I don't

661
00:35:28,480 --> 00:35:30,720
Speaker 1: really have it ego, especially when it comes to people

662
00:35:30,760 --> 00:35:31,040
Speaker 1: I love.

663
00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:32,839
Speaker 2: Like I'll about out you.

664
00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:35,520
Speaker 1: Know what I'm I'm not gonna let you disrespect me, right,

665
00:35:35,600 --> 00:35:38,360
Speaker 1: But I'm not leading with ego, like trying to beast

666
00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:41,440
Speaker 1: up on you at any point, you know, like I

667
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:43,759
Speaker 1: feel like people really need people need to check their

668
00:35:43,800 --> 00:35:48,480
Speaker 1: ego at the door. Month, this is my this is

669
00:35:48,520 --> 00:35:52,120
Speaker 1: my rising sign month. Day six is month of Virgo

670
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 1: and the theme is health service discipline. And the reflection

671
00:35:58,360 --> 00:36:04,680
Speaker 1: is where am I over critical? This is why motherfucker's

672
00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:07,400
Speaker 1: got a problem because I'm I. I do I criticize,

673
00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:09,840
Speaker 1: I got something.

674
00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:12,960
Speaker 2: But I think you're overly critical of yourself as well

675
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:17,320
Speaker 2: sometimes Yeah, and I feel like that's who you should

676
00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:23,279
Speaker 2: be most critical with, right, but I mean overly critical how.

677
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:28,800
Speaker 3: You will record a video and put the way.

678
00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:33,480
Speaker 2: Up not not I mean yeah, I was thinking about that,

679
00:36:33,600 --> 00:36:40,120
Speaker 2: but yeah, but also like posting a video like the

680
00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:46,759
Speaker 2: holiday video seven business Things to mean that video.

681
00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:49,960
Speaker 4: I wanted it to be perfect and it was, you

682
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:55,120
Speaker 4: see it was, but I'm perfect before then, I'm sure

683
00:36:55,160 --> 00:36:57,000
Speaker 4: it was, but.

684
00:36:59,280 --> 00:37:08,600
Speaker 2: Over over overly I don't know. It took me a

685
00:37:08,640 --> 00:37:09,319
Speaker 2: while to do it.

686
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:13,080
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, Okay, So reflection is where am I

687
00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:19,000
Speaker 1: overly critical? Do I confuse per perfection with worth? And

688
00:37:19,080 --> 00:37:23,040
Speaker 1: the intention is serve without self punishment?

689
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:33,439
Speaker 2: Is it excellence or self punishment? All right? So y'all.

690
00:37:33,440 --> 00:37:36,480
Speaker 2: The challenge name one thing you do half ass on purpose?

691
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:39,719
Speaker 1: If I start something like, see, this is why I

692
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:43,000
Speaker 1: like kind of because usually if I commit to something,

693
00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:44,080
Speaker 1: I'll finish it up.

694
00:37:44,120 --> 00:37:47,080
Speaker 2: But I really only need one reason not to finish.

695
00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 1: It up though it's like I am, I'd be full

696
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:52,520
Speaker 1: of shit and I'd be bullshit and yeah, I do

697
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 1: half ass a lot of shit on fuck your purpose.

698
00:37:55,120 --> 00:37:57,040
Speaker 2: I'd be like, that's good enough, you see.

699
00:37:57,280 --> 00:38:00,439
Speaker 1: So then when I take I don't know, seven ten

700
00:38:00,560 --> 00:38:03,560
Speaker 1: twenty takes to do a video, I don't know if

701
00:38:03,600 --> 00:38:06,120
Speaker 1: that's me being overcritical. That might be my other Gemini

702
00:38:06,280 --> 00:38:09,680
Speaker 1: kicking in like that wants it to be perfect, you know,

703
00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:14,160
Speaker 1: whereas I could have put it out at one and

704
00:38:14,239 --> 00:38:16,360
Speaker 1: probably would have taken it down when the other Gemini

705
00:38:16,880 --> 00:38:19,080
Speaker 1: kicked back in again like bitch, that's not good enough.

706
00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:29,839
Speaker 2: I don't know, all right, Day seven Monthly Libra. All right.

707
00:38:29,880 --> 00:38:34,360
Speaker 2: The theme is relationships, balance and partnership and the reflection

708
00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:39,399
Speaker 2: question where do I compromise myself for peace? M Am?

709
00:38:39,440 --> 00:38:46,040
Speaker 2: I choosing harmony or avoidance? And then tension choose alignment

710
00:38:46,239 --> 00:38:47,239
Speaker 2: over attachment.

711
00:38:49,160 --> 00:38:51,840
Speaker 1: I talk about this a lot about like, you know,

712
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:55,760
Speaker 1: black women having not been able to date as young girls,

713
00:38:55,840 --> 00:38:58,200
Speaker 1: and then now when we do start dating, we got

714
00:38:58,200 --> 00:39:01,120
Speaker 1: these attachment issues to these niggas. You should have been fired.

715
00:39:03,200 --> 00:39:06,319
Speaker 1: That's that's pretty much where this comes in at.

716
00:39:07,160 --> 00:39:09,560
Speaker 2: This is a good one for me too. You gotta

717
00:39:09,600 --> 00:39:12,279
Speaker 2: know where to let go. Yeah, I struggle with that,

718
00:39:13,360 --> 00:39:16,840
Speaker 2: and I be bending my boundaries when I like somebody

719
00:39:16,960 --> 00:39:21,800
Speaker 2: like I'll stretch him to the furthest length instead of

720
00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:25,800
Speaker 2: and it says, what boundary do you keep explaining instead

721
00:39:25,840 --> 00:39:32,479
Speaker 2: of enforcing? And baby, ooh, I keep telling him over

722
00:39:32,560 --> 00:39:35,160
Speaker 2: and over again what the boundary is and he living

723
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:39,439
Speaker 2: outside of it, you know, So.

724
00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:41,800
Speaker 1: Get you a line, steppery like y'all ain't tired of talking.

725
00:39:42,480 --> 00:39:45,040
Speaker 1: I want y'all get fed up. Is a relationship that

726
00:39:45,120 --> 00:39:46,799
Speaker 1: you know was supposed to end two years ago.

727
00:39:46,840 --> 00:39:49,320
Speaker 2: Get out of there, Get out of there. But baby,

728
00:39:49,360 --> 00:39:53,040
Speaker 2: when I do get fed up, because I'm a cancer,

729
00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:57,200
Speaker 2: please understand that when I get fed up, you could

730
00:39:57,239 --> 00:39:59,080
Speaker 2: be burning on the side of the road and I

731
00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:01,719
Speaker 2: would walk bye. I will pass by you, R pray for.

732
00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:04,400
Speaker 1: You might stop you and them a little bit just

733
00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:04,960
Speaker 1: side pissed.

734
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:08,719
Speaker 2: I don't pass by you because when I would love

735
00:40:08,719 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 2: you so hard, but when I stop, it is done.

736
00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:15,319
Speaker 1: Man, you will search for me and you will never

737
00:40:15,400 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 1: find me again.

738
00:40:17,600 --> 00:40:18,600
Speaker 2: I know I.

739
00:40:18,600 --> 00:40:21,000
Speaker 1: Give the type of love that a nigga can only

740
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:26,960
Speaker 1: dream of. So if you fumble at you gotta like

741
00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:28,920
Speaker 1: and I really act like a nigga never existed.

742
00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:29,719
Speaker 2: For sure.

743
00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:33,120
Speaker 1: When I because I think I got a high tollance

744
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:34,319
Speaker 1: for bullshits, I'll deal with it.

745
00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:35,319
Speaker 2: For a long time.

746
00:40:35,760 --> 00:40:38,480
Speaker 1: I'm I don't do that anymore. And that's one of

747
00:40:38,520 --> 00:40:45,960
Speaker 1: my things I probably figured out this year. It's not hard.

748
00:40:46,040 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 1: Relationships shouldn't be hard. So that is the thing. It

749
00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:51,960
Speaker 1: don't even have to be a romantic relationship with your parents,

750
00:40:52,120 --> 00:40:54,560
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Like with your friends, you

751
00:40:54,600 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 1: gotta you got a homegirl, you always gotta fucking argue with,

752
00:40:57,320 --> 00:41:01,080
Speaker 1: Like I don't fuck women. Why we always argue, you

753
00:41:01,080 --> 00:41:03,360
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, especially if it's just a friendship, Like,

754
00:41:03,400 --> 00:41:05,280
Speaker 1: what the fuck are we arguing about?

755
00:41:06,239 --> 00:41:06,359
Speaker 2: Right?

756
00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:08,920
Speaker 1: Is this happening?

757
00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:10,600
Speaker 2: Why is this happening?

758
00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:10,920
Speaker 5: Oh?

759
00:41:10,960 --> 00:41:14,520
Speaker 2: You know what I think? In friendships you might have arguments,

760
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:18,279
Speaker 2: but if you keep arguing with a motherfucker that's just

761
00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:21,960
Speaker 2: your friend. Like y'all ain't got no business together, y'all

762
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,719
Speaker 2: ain't got no money together.

763
00:41:23,440 --> 00:41:26,400
Speaker 1: Y'all don't live And what the fuck is y'all arguing

764
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:31,359
Speaker 1: about cho's alignment over attachment. You have to do all

765
00:41:31,440 --> 00:41:33,480
Speaker 1: things that aligns.

766
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:36,720
Speaker 2: With who you are to your core. If it doesn't,

767
00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:39,840
Speaker 2: do not move forward with it. And we be knowing, especially.

768
00:41:39,440 --> 00:41:43,960
Speaker 1: Women, we have this innate thing called intuition, right, and

769
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:47,759
Speaker 1: we be really like not paying attention to be sitting

770
00:41:47,800 --> 00:41:50,000
Speaker 1: on our shoulder telling like bitch nagging at your neck,

771
00:41:50,320 --> 00:41:55,799
Speaker 1: and you ignoring it because the dick, because of stability,

772
00:41:56,719 --> 00:41:59,400
Speaker 1: because of obligation, You're just ignoring it.

773
00:41:59,680 --> 00:41:59,960
Speaker 2: You know.

774
00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:02,120
Speaker 1: Oh you before you even got here, you knew the

775
00:42:02,160 --> 00:42:02,840
Speaker 1: ship wasn't for you.

776
00:42:04,400 --> 00:42:06,040
Speaker 2: So yeah, so are you are?

777
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:09,239
Speaker 1: If you're in a relationship, are you peaceful or just

778
00:42:09,280 --> 00:42:10,240
Speaker 1: avoiding conflict?

779
00:42:11,280 --> 00:42:11,520
Speaker 2: Right?

780
00:42:12,120 --> 00:42:14,960
Speaker 1: So that's me because when I when I'm done fighting,

781
00:42:15,000 --> 00:42:17,759
Speaker 1: I just be quiet. We've got nothing nothing else to say.

782
00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:20,680
Speaker 1: When I was arguing and yelling and stuff, I probably

783
00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:23,280
Speaker 1: still wanted it when I stopped talking.

784
00:42:23,360 --> 00:42:27,239
Speaker 2: It's awful. I talk a lot, my fuck, am I

785
00:42:27,400 --> 00:42:31,040
Speaker 2: talking to you like that? Shit is done? Right, you

786
00:42:31,080 --> 00:42:34,680
Speaker 2: get paid to talk. You pay to talk, all right,

787
00:42:35,840 --> 00:42:42,240
Speaker 2: Day eight month of Scorpio, and the theme is transformation, sex,

788
00:42:42,800 --> 00:42:47,640
Speaker 2: power and secrets and the reflection What am I afraid

789
00:42:47,640 --> 00:42:53,320
Speaker 2: to face? Where do I hold resentment? An intention? Release

790
00:42:53,440 --> 00:42:59,359
Speaker 2: control and trust? Rebirth? Mm hmm. That's a deal new

791
00:42:59,440 --> 00:43:03,399
Speaker 2: year for sure, because you know what, you find out

792
00:43:03,440 --> 00:43:05,440
Speaker 2: A lot of the shit that you were afraid to

793
00:43:05,520 --> 00:43:11,240
Speaker 2: face don't even be shipped when you face it, Like

794
00:43:10,920 --> 00:43:13,359
Speaker 2: it's so Crazy'd be like, damn, I was holding off

795
00:43:13,360 --> 00:43:19,399
Speaker 2: from doing that. There wasn't nothing right, Yeah, just let

796
00:43:19,400 --> 00:43:19,880
Speaker 2: that shit go.

797
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:22,000
Speaker 1: And earlier this year when I was getting the colonics

798
00:43:22,040 --> 00:43:23,600
Speaker 1: and all that which and I need to plan my

799
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 1: little sixth round. Sometime in January or February, we had

800
00:43:28,640 --> 00:43:30,719
Speaker 1: an episode let that shit go when we were talking

801
00:43:30,719 --> 00:43:34,560
Speaker 1: about colonics. But literally, like those sessions with this woman

802
00:43:35,080 --> 00:43:40,680
Speaker 1: were so therapeutic because it was in February and by

803
00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:43,840
Speaker 1: May I was out of my last relationship and it

804
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:47,680
Speaker 1: started with those colonics. They started with that, and then

805
00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:54,799
Speaker 1: a weekend of you know, Portobello Mushrooms. I was up

806
00:43:54,840 --> 00:43:56,840
Speaker 1: for a while and like just in my thoughts and

807
00:43:56,880 --> 00:44:02,360
Speaker 1: having all these introspective thoughts and looking at myself because

808
00:44:02,360 --> 00:44:04,279
Speaker 1: that's where it starts, and I had to get the

809
00:44:04,280 --> 00:44:04,880
Speaker 1: fuck about it.

810
00:44:04,880 --> 00:44:07,600
Speaker 2: This is no longer aligns with me. So I want

811
00:44:07,640 --> 00:44:10,280
Speaker 2: you all to ask yourself, who do you still resent

812
00:44:11,040 --> 00:44:13,080
Speaker 2: and why are they still renting space?

813
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:17,480
Speaker 1: I still resent my ex fiance. My mom will still

814
00:44:17,520 --> 00:44:19,680
Speaker 1: be talking to that nigga. That's why we know you.

815
00:44:19,680 --> 00:44:23,759
Speaker 1: You mentioned him a lot on these junks, because that

816
00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:26,440
Speaker 1: is still trauma. I'd be trying to get over like

817
00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: and talking, talking it out. That's all you're gonna do

818
00:44:29,160 --> 00:44:31,520
Speaker 1: when you go to therapy, right, So.

819
00:44:31,560 --> 00:44:33,920
Speaker 2: Talking it out so I can. Are we supposed to.

820
00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:35,880
Speaker 1: Just forget and act like shit didn't happen to us?

821
00:44:36,000 --> 00:44:39,040
Speaker 2: Or is that how it's supposed to work. No, it

822
00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:41,200
Speaker 2: don't work like things happened.

823
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:44,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, And so I don't ever want to forget it, right,

824
00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:47,600
Speaker 1: because I don't ever want to allow somebody else to

825
00:44:47,719 --> 00:44:53,000
Speaker 1: ever play with me like that again, m h in life, right,

826
00:44:53,040 --> 00:44:54,959
Speaker 1: So it's not like I don't take these things into

827
00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:59,120
Speaker 1: next relationships, but I don't. I'm not a forgiving person,

828
00:44:59,600 --> 00:45:02,400
Speaker 1: so that that might be I don't. I guess forgiven.

829
00:45:02,360 --> 00:45:05,680
Speaker 1: They always say forgiveness is for you, but I'm karma.

830
00:45:06,480 --> 00:45:11,960
Speaker 1: I do the coming around, but maybe you shouldn't do

831
00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:12,680
Speaker 1: the coming around.

832
00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:14,440
Speaker 2: Maybe you should just let it go and go on

833
00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:16,960
Speaker 2: go forth and don't come back around.

834
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:20,839
Speaker 1: I do be going forward though, Like this is a

835
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:23,719
Speaker 1: podcast we be talking about relationships and shiit, Like how

836
00:45:23,719 --> 00:45:27,080
Speaker 1: do I talk about things without giving my experience about it?

837
00:45:27,440 --> 00:45:27,960
Speaker 2: Yeah?

838
00:45:28,080 --> 00:45:29,719
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, how do how do

839
00:45:29,760 --> 00:45:30,239
Speaker 1: we do that?

840
00:45:32,239 --> 00:45:36,000
Speaker 2: You don't you talk about it until you don't talk

841
00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:38,319
Speaker 2: about it? Yeah, we're done.

842
00:45:38,360 --> 00:45:40,279
Speaker 1: That's why we're doing this type of shit for at

843
00:45:40,360 --> 00:45:47,279
Speaker 1: least for the first two months of January. But this

844
00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:50,560
Speaker 1: here has a shadow work moment. Oh you already said that. Yeah,

845
00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:52,520
Speaker 1: who do you still resent?

846
00:45:52,760 --> 00:45:52,960
Speaker 2: Yeah?

847
00:45:53,800 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 1: And you know, I'll be honest, A lot of that

848
00:45:56,120 --> 00:45:59,879
Speaker 1: resentment is towards myself. When you are in these situations,

849
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:03,040
Speaker 1: you and then you start being honest and take accountability,

850
00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:07,800
Speaker 1: Like I resent myself for having a loud shit.

851
00:46:08,040 --> 00:46:10,560
Speaker 2: You see what I'm saying. So it's like, how the

852
00:46:10,680 --> 00:46:13,279
Speaker 2: fuck you know? You walking around thinking you the ship

853
00:46:13,719 --> 00:46:14,320
Speaker 2: and you got.

854
00:46:14,160 --> 00:46:18,360
Speaker 1: A nigga really mistreating you? Right, And I'm never like

855
00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:22,080
Speaker 1: an abused person. I'm never like a victim. It's an

856
00:46:22,200 --> 00:46:25,560
Speaker 1: upheld battle fucking with me. Okay, you're gonna end up

857
00:46:25,600 --> 00:46:32,320
Speaker 1: broken before me. But I just remember, like really screaming

858
00:46:32,400 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 1: to God.

859
00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:38,640
Speaker 2: Help, Help, by God for real, damn.

860
00:46:38,560 --> 00:46:43,800
Speaker 1: In a real way. Is that you're Are you swallowing

861
00:46:43,880 --> 00:46:44,319
Speaker 1: over there?

862
00:46:44,880 --> 00:46:48,799
Speaker 2: Yeah? Swallow? I don't feel good. I don't feel good.

863
00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:55,560
Speaker 2: That was deep? That was did y'all hear that? Girl? Fuck?

864
00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:58,240
Speaker 2: You're paying y'all? Stay focused.

865
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:05,000
Speaker 1: Day nine, be the faith, oh faith, expansion.

866
00:47:04,920 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 2: Truth, And this is a month of centtarious.

867
00:47:08,440 --> 00:47:15,800
Speaker 1: Yep sagittarius reflection. What do I believe about life and God?

868
00:47:17,360 --> 00:47:17,760
Speaker 2: Okay?

869
00:47:17,840 --> 00:47:23,040
Speaker 1: Do I escape or commit? And your intention here could

870
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:29,040
Speaker 1: be expand with responsibility. Again, this is do do you

871
00:47:29,080 --> 00:47:31,120
Speaker 1: believe in abundance or you just talk about it?

872
00:47:31,920 --> 00:47:37,000
Speaker 2: Okay? And what belief would you change? Excuse me? What

873
00:47:37,000 --> 00:47:43,200
Speaker 2: belief would change your life if you lit it? That's

874
00:47:43,239 --> 00:47:44,640
Speaker 2: a good one, and that's a deep one.

875
00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:49,160
Speaker 1: I think some people are You know, you got some

876
00:47:49,200 --> 00:47:51,640
Speaker 1: people who like go to church. They really super Christian? Right,

877
00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:55,160
Speaker 1: And I don't know I said this before we started recording.

878
00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:57,520
Speaker 1: Y'all know, Jesus Christ is not a Christian, right, he

879
00:47:57,800 --> 00:48:02,480
Speaker 1: was a Jew if he was anything? Right, So you

880
00:48:02,560 --> 00:48:06,879
Speaker 1: have people subscribing to a religion that that Nigga ain't

881
00:48:06,920 --> 00:48:08,640
Speaker 1: tell you to do. Like I ain't tell you to

882
00:48:08,640 --> 00:48:09,360
Speaker 1: be worshiping me.

883
00:48:09,520 --> 00:48:11,640
Speaker 2: I told you that you could be christ Like I

884
00:48:11,800 --> 00:48:15,200
Speaker 2: told you that you also are the child of God.

885
00:48:15,239 --> 00:48:15,960
Speaker 2: It's not just me.

886
00:48:16,640 --> 00:48:18,480
Speaker 1: You think Jesus is only the child of God and

887
00:48:18,480 --> 00:48:19,839
Speaker 1: the rest of us are bastards.

888
00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:23,200
Speaker 2: No, no, ma'am.

889
00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:28,399
Speaker 1: Period, I carried a crystal's energy the same. And when

890
00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:31,960
Speaker 1: you realize that God is in you and not outside

891
00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 1: of you, you move different. You take accountability for how

892
00:48:35,160 --> 00:48:39,120
Speaker 1: you treat people, right, You take accountability for the things

893
00:48:39,120 --> 00:48:42,719
Speaker 1: that you do. You don't blame other people. That is

894
00:48:42,880 --> 00:48:46,560
Speaker 1: what being a Christian, if anything, is. And I feel

895
00:48:46,560 --> 00:48:50,120
Speaker 1: like Christianity lacks accountability, right because you always got big

896
00:48:50,200 --> 00:48:52,520
Speaker 1: Daddy in the sky that you could put all your

897
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:56,680
Speaker 1: your bad shit, or like, oh God pay, Jesus died

898
00:48:56,719 --> 00:49:00,840
Speaker 1: for us so I can just stole sittles.

899
00:49:00,040 --> 00:49:04,319
Speaker 2: I think people like not being accountable. Again, I don't

900
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:07,880
Speaker 2: think Christianity is not unaccountable. I just think it's the people.

901
00:49:10,560 --> 00:49:13,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, So I think sometimes people, once they get out

902
00:49:13,719 --> 00:49:16,200
Speaker 1: the thing right, they then go looking for something else

903
00:49:16,239 --> 00:49:18,360
Speaker 1: to believe in. So once you leave the church. What's next?

904
00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:21,120
Speaker 1: You go find people? You got all these gurus on

905
00:49:21,160 --> 00:49:24,319
Speaker 1: social media, all these different people. Then you start subscribing

906
00:49:24,320 --> 00:49:28,560
Speaker 1: to You're still fucking up because you're not searching within,

907
00:49:29,160 --> 00:49:32,600
Speaker 1: You're still looking for something outside of you. And that's

908
00:49:32,760 --> 00:49:38,040
Speaker 1: what this practice is about. It's about you.

909
00:49:38,040 --> 00:49:38,239
Speaker 2: You.

910
00:49:39,280 --> 00:49:43,200
Speaker 1: Okay, basic instructions before leaving Earth.

911
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:51,560
Speaker 2: That's it. It's about you. Ten month of Capricorn. The

912
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:58,239
Speaker 2: theme is career, authority, legacy, and the reflection question do

913
00:49:58,320 --> 00:50:04,360
Speaker 2: I define success by statu or purpose? Am I afraid

914
00:50:04,360 --> 00:50:11,480
Speaker 2: of failure or success? And then the intention lead with integrity? Yeah.

915
00:50:11,520 --> 00:50:14,879
Speaker 1: Man, I've always been afraid that I would and reach

916
00:50:14,960 --> 00:50:17,520
Speaker 1: my full potential and that is still one of my

917
00:50:17,640 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 1: only fears today, not reaching my full intentional. So that's

918
00:50:21,960 --> 00:50:25,279
Speaker 1: why full potential. So that is why I do all

919
00:50:25,320 --> 00:50:31,760
Speaker 1: these different things, just to just to get Like, if

920
00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:34,279
Speaker 1: you say you want to do this, commit and do

921
00:50:34,400 --> 00:50:38,400
Speaker 1: the things. I've been writing a fucking book since twenty eleven. Okay,

922
00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:42,400
Speaker 1: I got two movie scripts half written, Like why.

923
00:50:42,200 --> 00:50:43,400
Speaker 2: Are I finish it? Right?

924
00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:46,120
Speaker 1: I got a whome boy who has a fucking production company?

925
00:50:47,080 --> 00:50:50,080
Speaker 1: What am I doing? You got all the tools God

926
00:50:50,360 --> 00:50:53,920
Speaker 1: gave me everything I need at my fingertips, literally, this

927
00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:59,240
Speaker 1: podcast at your fingertips. Whatever you want is yours here.

928
00:50:59,560 --> 00:51:02,040
Speaker 1: But you got to meet God halfway. You've gotta do

929
00:51:02,120 --> 00:51:06,320
Speaker 1: the work. You gotta do the work for sure. I agree,

930
00:51:08,080 --> 00:51:11,920
Speaker 1: gotta do the work. So I define success by purpose.

931
00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:14,080
Speaker 1: Living in your purpose is always gonna make you money.

932
00:51:14,600 --> 00:51:16,480
Speaker 1: It's going to make you money. Like I have never

933
00:51:16,560 --> 00:51:19,600
Speaker 1: not wanted to be able to be myself for a living.

934
00:51:19,680 --> 00:51:21,720
Speaker 1: This is all I've ever wanted to do in life.

935
00:51:21,920 --> 00:51:24,160
Speaker 1: I never dreamed of a life of labor where I

936
00:51:24,160 --> 00:51:25,399
Speaker 1: got to work for somebody else.

937
00:51:25,440 --> 00:51:29,040
Speaker 2: That is never my ship. Yeah, me, neither. I don't.

938
00:51:29,200 --> 00:51:34,280
Speaker 2: I've never have. I've always worked for myself.

939
00:51:37,320 --> 00:51:39,719
Speaker 1: And I'm not afraid of afraid of failure. And if

940
00:51:39,719 --> 00:51:42,279
Speaker 1: you're afraid of failure, I mean that's that's where the

941
00:51:42,360 --> 00:51:45,000
Speaker 1: lessons come in. It's not the endpoint, because life is

942
00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:47,879
Speaker 1: the marathon, right, It's all the hiccups and the things

943
00:51:47,920 --> 00:51:48,719
Speaker 1: along the way.

944
00:51:49,440 --> 00:51:54,160
Speaker 2: It's the journey because every every l every failure is

945
00:51:54,239 --> 00:52:02,560
Speaker 2: just a step closer to where you're going. Period. All right, Yeah, legacy, question,

946
00:52:03,239 --> 00:52:06,600
Speaker 2: what do you want your name to mean? Don't answer?

947
00:52:07,160 --> 00:52:10,080
Speaker 2: Don't answer it, though, answer it for yourself as you

948
00:52:10,160 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 2: do this on your days. Don't answer it here, but

949
00:52:13,040 --> 00:52:15,520
Speaker 2: I think I want everybody to think long and hard

950
00:52:15,600 --> 00:52:18,440
Speaker 2: and write it, write it down, or internalize it, or

951
00:52:18,480 --> 00:52:20,440
Speaker 2: however you're going through these questions. I want you to

952
00:52:20,480 --> 00:52:22,440
Speaker 2: think about what you really want your name to mean.

953
00:52:24,200 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 1: You know, one day I was thinking, like, how you

954
00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:30,360
Speaker 1: actually become royalty is from creating, because you get paid royalties,

955
00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:32,359
Speaker 1: like for movies and music and stuff like that. That's

956
00:52:32,400 --> 00:52:36,600
Speaker 1: literally how you live forever. How to create, That's how

957
00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:39,799
Speaker 1: you write it forever on this realm. How you go

958
00:52:40,800 --> 00:52:47,960
Speaker 1: Michael Jackson, right, you have to create. That's how you

959
00:52:48,000 --> 00:52:48,720
Speaker 1: become royalty.

960
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:51,520
Speaker 2: I don't know if I really care about that. I

961
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:54,480
Speaker 2: just want to love the people who I love me,

962
00:52:55,120 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 2: bring joy everywhere I go and be happy. I don't

963
00:52:59,600 --> 00:53:03,680
Speaker 2: have to be remembered for generations. I don't need that.

964
00:53:05,040 --> 00:53:08,160
Speaker 2: I just want the people around me to feel good

965
00:53:08,600 --> 00:53:13,200
Speaker 2: when I'm in that space and bring joy. That's it.

966
00:53:14,280 --> 00:53:15,120
Speaker 2: They don't have to be.

967
00:53:16,760 --> 00:53:20,759
Speaker 1: To the We went over Gemini, right, So Gemini is communicating.

968
00:53:20,760 --> 00:53:23,719
Speaker 1: I got a lot of shit to say, and I

969
00:53:23,760 --> 00:53:27,239
Speaker 1: have a lot of even things I read and even

970
00:53:27,280 --> 00:53:29,799
Speaker 1: things I don't read. I just be in my mind,

971
00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:31,960
Speaker 1: i'd be knowing, and maybe that's where we get some

972
00:53:31,960 --> 00:53:35,440
Speaker 1: people nerves. I don't know, and I got like Kanye

973
00:53:35,480 --> 00:53:38,640
Speaker 1: be saying, I'm not right now for people, right, but

974
00:53:38,719 --> 00:53:43,000
Speaker 1: I know my purpose is to gather information and tell people.

975
00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:44,359
Speaker 2: That's what I'm doing.

976
00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:48,440
Speaker 1: Right, So maybe it doesn't make sense to you today,

977
00:53:49,520 --> 00:53:51,800
Speaker 1: but maybe you'll remember something I said. I'm like, damn

978
00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 1: AJ said that ship three years ago. So that's my purpose.

979
00:53:56,600 --> 00:53:59,640
Speaker 1: I just I'm just here to give spread information, give information.

980
00:53:59,680 --> 00:54:01,400
Speaker 1: Sometimes people don't want to sit down and watch all

981
00:54:01,440 --> 00:54:06,000
Speaker 1: the shit. I watch everything. I see everything, literally, like

982
00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:08,440
Speaker 1: I know a little bit about everything that's going on

983
00:54:08,520 --> 00:54:11,960
Speaker 1: in the world because I just want to know. I

984
00:54:12,080 --> 00:54:16,279
Speaker 1: just it's like I gotta know. I'm nosy. Oh this

985
00:54:16,520 --> 00:54:21,600
Speaker 1: just say maya business, my business.

986
00:54:24,000 --> 00:54:24,759
Speaker 2: That's the last one.

987
00:54:25,200 --> 00:54:28,080
Speaker 1: Alright, all right, So y'all. A month eleven is Aquarius.

988
00:54:28,120 --> 00:54:28,520
Speaker 2: Boom.

989
00:54:28,760 --> 00:54:31,800
Speaker 5: If you're the Quarius, fuck you. If no, we like you,

990
00:54:31,840 --> 00:54:35,360
Speaker 5: not the girls. I like the girls, boys boyfuck you?

991
00:54:35,440 --> 00:54:41,080
Speaker 5: Bo Okay, So do I I excuse me? Community, innovation, humanity.

992
00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:45,399
Speaker 5: That is the month of Aquarius, Day eleven. Do I

993
00:54:45,440 --> 00:54:50,560
Speaker 5: isolate or collaborate? Do I fear being different. Now, motherfuckers,

994
00:54:50,600 --> 00:54:56,080
Speaker 5: this different boy. Intention share wisdom, not superiority. That's a

995
00:54:56,120 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 5: big one, and that's what I ego kicks in at right.

996
00:55:00,480 --> 00:55:05,120
Speaker 5: You think you can't learn from somebody else. That's the

997
00:55:05,239 --> 00:55:07,120
Speaker 5: problem with a lot of people. You see that in

998
00:55:07,200 --> 00:55:08,800
Speaker 5: the conscious community.

999
00:55:09,120 --> 00:55:11,440
Speaker 2: It's like, do you feel like I think that's what

1000
00:55:11,560 --> 00:55:14,359
Speaker 2: people be feeling like you about you, even though that's

1001
00:55:14,400 --> 00:55:17,480
Speaker 2: not who you are. But I think to it comes

1002
00:55:17,520 --> 00:55:21,480
Speaker 2: off like you can't learn from anybody else, or you

1003
00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:23,839
Speaker 2: know better than everybody else, And I think that's what

1004
00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:26,960
Speaker 2: they be mad about. But you that's not really who

1005
00:55:27,000 --> 00:55:30,480
Speaker 2: you are. It just maybe comes off like that in

1006
00:55:30,520 --> 00:55:32,040
Speaker 2: the audio sometimes.

1007
00:55:32,480 --> 00:55:35,040
Speaker 1: But if I'm talking about something that you haven't heard of,

1008
00:55:35,239 --> 00:55:36,600
Speaker 1: how do you know I'm lying or not?

1009
00:55:37,520 --> 00:55:41,319
Speaker 2: You haven't even explored this thing, But how do you

1010
00:55:41,360 --> 00:55:43,200
Speaker 2: know the listener hasn't heard of it?

1011
00:55:44,880 --> 00:55:47,520
Speaker 1: Like I gave examples right of where I have said

1012
00:55:47,560 --> 00:55:50,719
Speaker 1: things here and then somebody like message me trying to

1013
00:55:50,800 --> 00:55:52,480
Speaker 1: check me about it, and I.

1014
00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:58,000
Speaker 2: Give them hear them. Yeah, like engage.

1015
00:55:58,320 --> 00:56:00,680
Speaker 1: I like to exchange and for me like that is

1016
00:56:00,719 --> 00:56:04,200
Speaker 1: one of my things over like that I need that

1017
00:56:04,239 --> 00:56:07,920
Speaker 1: in a relationship with anybody. I like to exchange information.

1018
00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:11,319
Speaker 1: I like to learn shit, so let it be an exchange.

1019
00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:13,480
Speaker 1: I don't want to talk at people either, But it's

1020
00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:16,720
Speaker 1: just me and you right here, right now, I'm talking

1021
00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:20,879
Speaker 1: you talking. We share an information in real life. That's

1022
00:56:20,880 --> 00:56:23,440
Speaker 1: how I would prefer my relationship. So if it comes

1023
00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:26,440
Speaker 1: off one sided on a podcast, that's because it's just

1024
00:56:26,640 --> 00:56:31,920
Speaker 1: me and Tammy. So if this is why you're hating me,

1025
00:56:33,400 --> 00:56:36,160
Speaker 1: you might need to look in the mirror. Okay, do

1026
00:56:36,320 --> 00:56:39,080
Speaker 1: this is eleven steps we want to Yeah, share wisdom

1027
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:42,879
Speaker 1: not superiority. Do you want to be different or understood?

1028
00:56:44,760 --> 00:56:46,239
Speaker 1: At some point you got to knock care.

1029
00:56:46,800 --> 00:56:48,120
Speaker 2: I was about to say, I don't need to be

1030
00:56:48,200 --> 00:56:49,000
Speaker 2: either one of those.

1031
00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:52,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, at some point you got to knock here. Healing

1032
00:56:52,360 --> 00:56:58,399
Speaker 1: isn't isolation, it's integration. Yes, and the challenges do who

1033
00:56:58,400 --> 00:57:01,880
Speaker 1: do you need to collaborate with instead of compete against?

1034
00:57:03,320 --> 00:57:03,520
Speaker 2: Right?

1035
00:57:03,840 --> 00:57:06,400
Speaker 1: So, a lot people think they can do things by themselves.

1036
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:08,719
Speaker 1: A lot of times, Right so you'll have black people

1037
00:57:08,760 --> 00:57:12,400
Speaker 1: talking shit like oh Charlamagne till Andy and Dale like

1038
00:57:12,440 --> 00:57:14,359
Speaker 1: why he doing that? Why you just can't do your own?

1039
00:57:14,400 --> 00:57:18,680
Speaker 1: Sometimes sometimes you have to in order to grow. You

1040
00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:21,920
Speaker 1: have to partner and if you don't understand business, just say.

1041
00:57:21,680 --> 00:57:25,120
Speaker 2: That, right. I agree, you can't do everything. What he's

1042
00:57:25,160 --> 00:57:29,400
Speaker 2: doing is amazing, and anybody got anything negative can say this,

1043
00:57:30,800 --> 00:57:33,240
Speaker 2: it's just whack okay. And so day two.

1044
00:57:35,080 --> 00:57:36,480
Speaker 1: I was about to say, then you have people that

1045
00:57:36,560 --> 00:57:38,240
Speaker 1: say shit like he got a bunch of podcasts or

1046
00:57:38,280 --> 00:57:42,360
Speaker 1: people nobody know what. We got over a million downloads annually.

1047
00:57:42,520 --> 00:57:44,120
Speaker 1: Somebody know us, right.

1048
00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:45,480
Speaker 2: Okay, So so everybody.

1049
00:57:45,560 --> 00:57:47,080
Speaker 1: I don't think that he should be just putting on

1050
00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:50,000
Speaker 1: a bunch of celebrities either, right.

1051
00:57:50,080 --> 00:57:51,120
Speaker 2: I agree. I feel like.

1052
00:57:51,080 --> 00:57:55,240
Speaker 1: Celebrities should just like actors, just keep acting, Singers keep singing,

1053
00:57:55,800 --> 00:57:57,600
Speaker 1: and then podcasters can do this.

1054
00:57:57,760 --> 00:58:03,240
Speaker 2: And keep paying. Day twelve and this is the final day.

1055
00:58:03,280 --> 00:58:07,120
Speaker 2: You guess. It's month of Pisces and the theme is spirituality,

1056
00:58:07,600 --> 00:58:11,960
Speaker 2: endings and surrender and the reflections. What am I still

1057
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:18,200
Speaker 2: holding onto? Do I trust divine timing and intention? Release

1058
00:58:18,360 --> 00:58:23,880
Speaker 2: with faith? Yes? I love this one. H What are you.

1059
00:58:23,880 --> 00:58:27,240
Speaker 1: Still holding onto because you're afraid of the void?

1060
00:58:29,000 --> 00:58:31,400
Speaker 2: These niggas a lot of y'all listeners. Think about that.

1061
00:58:31,800 --> 00:58:34,400
Speaker 2: Y'all look to the right in the bed, sleep right

1062
00:58:34,400 --> 00:58:37,720
Speaker 2: next to you while you're listening to this, I don't listen.

1063
00:58:37,800 --> 00:58:40,640
Speaker 2: I don't want to encourage anybody to leave anything healthy, honestly,

1064
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:45,160
Speaker 2: but if it ain't healthy, if it ain't growing, it's dead.

1065
00:58:46,160 --> 00:58:47,960
Speaker 2: Let it go. Yeah.

1066
00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:50,680
Speaker 1: And if you think you deserve better, you probably need

1067
00:58:50,720 --> 00:58:53,880
Speaker 1: to be better, right right, because you might be in

1068
00:58:53,920 --> 00:58:56,320
Speaker 1: that situation because that's who you were at a point,

1069
00:58:56,480 --> 00:58:58,439
Speaker 1: like I always be saying, like you are who you beat.

1070
00:58:58,720 --> 00:59:00,640
Speaker 1: You are who you are what you are.

1071
00:59:00,560 --> 00:59:01,160
Speaker 2: Who you beat.

1072
00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:05,880
Speaker 1: So it's something about this person that aligns with some

1073
00:59:06,080 --> 00:59:09,160
Speaker 1: aspect of you. You got to kill that aspect in

1074
00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:13,600
Speaker 1: order to move forward in that part you think you deserve.

1075
00:59:15,200 --> 00:59:19,920
Speaker 2: And the quiet power endings aren't losses, their graduations, So

1076
00:59:19,920 --> 00:59:23,200
Speaker 2: you're just moving forward. Let that shit go.

1077
00:59:24,440 --> 00:59:26,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, Name one thing you're surrendering this year.

1078
00:59:28,240 --> 00:59:31,800
Speaker 2: I'm going to am I am I answering it for

1079
00:59:31,880 --> 00:59:35,640
Speaker 2: the crowd? Or am I just gonna you can? I'm thinking,

1080
00:59:37,040 --> 00:59:39,400
Speaker 2: you know what I want to think about that one

1081
00:59:39,480 --> 00:59:42,760
Speaker 2: thing I'm surrendering this year, I don't know. I'm gonna

1082
00:59:42,760 --> 00:59:44,400
Speaker 2: think hard about it and then I'm gonna write it

1083
00:59:44,480 --> 00:59:47,160
Speaker 2: down as I do these steps on the twelve days,

1084
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Speaker 2: because I want to have a good answer. For that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I think mine would just be like just release

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Speaker 1: all the things in faith, just knowing everything is going

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Speaker 1: to work out exactly how you want it, because why

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Speaker 1: wouldn't it, and really, truly, deep down believing that all

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Speaker 1: things are going to work out for your greater good.

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Speaker 1: You're just surrendering to letting the universe guide me.

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Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to ask less questions, you know, and with

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Speaker 1: the roll with the.

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Speaker 2: Punches, Yeah, I want you know, I already feel like

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Speaker 2: God is moving me in the direction that I'm supposed

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Speaker 2: to be going, and everything is already in alignment. Honestly,

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Speaker 2: I just got to think about what I need to surrender.

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Speaker 2: I gotta think about it. It might be that Rose

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Speaker 2: bitch it I know it's in the band.

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Speaker 1: Get rid of that room.

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Speaker 2: Precious, precious, like the fucking lord of the reason.

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Speaker 1: Listen, when my ex left and I thought he had

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Speaker 1: like kill all my vibrators because why one plugs up

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Speaker 1: any other users batteries and both of them were simultaneously

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Speaker 1: like dead. And remember we had just did that episode

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Speaker 1: with Old Girl and she was like, DJ, bitch, I've

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Speaker 1: been DJ in ever fucking since.

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Speaker 2: And that ship is different. Oh really, what DJ? I

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Speaker 2: can DJ two? I can go back and forth if

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Speaker 2: it ain't if I can't feel reach forward in the

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Speaker 2: band and it's not close by DJ straight up, sometime

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Speaker 2: my arm gets tied at DJ and bitch, I'll be

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Speaker 2: scratching so hard running back DJ jan z aj dj

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Speaker 2: AJ on the ones and clips? Girls, what's your last? Last? Foolishness?

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Speaker 1: Manifestation does not work without accountability. Right, you have to look,

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Speaker 1: but then you have to take note and audit and

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Speaker 1: see where you fucked up at right, do better going forward?

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Speaker 2: Right. Miracles don't come from pretending. They come from participating

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Speaker 2: in the process. You gotta get in there. You gotta

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Speaker 2: get in to feel, y'all six running strict programs this year, period,

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Speaker 2: okay to it.

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Speaker 1: My favorite affirmations is health, happiness, love, success, prosperity.

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Speaker 2: And money period in that order.

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Speaker 1: Rich, okay, in spirit and in this physical world you

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Speaker 1: gotta be rich.

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Speaker 2: You need money. Amen. Yeah, that's it. That was great.

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Speaker 2: I love that. Yeah, that was good. Y'all like this

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Speaker 2: type of stuff.

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Speaker 1: Wrap it up, bitch, Yeah we have y'all enjoyed this episode,

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Speaker 1: and if you did, y'all tune in every Thursday on

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Speaker 1: the iHeartRadio Apple Way. But the fuck you get your

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Speaker 1: podcast at?

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Speaker 2: This is Buddha AJ, What My shit is?

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Speaker 1: AJ? Holiday two point oh on Instagram.

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Speaker 2: Okay kick and Tams y'all It's official tam band on

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Speaker 2: the Instagram. I love y'all so much. I don't know

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Speaker 2: if I told you at the beginning, but I tell you, yeah.

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Speaker 2: I love y'all, and I appreciate y'all for tuning in

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Speaker 2: every week. Y'all follow We Talk Back podcast page. Send

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Speaker 2: us your dumbitch stories. We still want those. We haven't

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Speaker 2: done a dumbe story in a while, and I think

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Speaker 2: we got a few of them sitting in the DM,

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Speaker 2: so we'll probably come back with one in the new year.

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Speaker 2: So I love y'all. Remember speak now and never hold

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Speaker 2: your accountability. Yeah, this is y'all.

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