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Speaker 1: Music Saved Me.

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Speaker 2: For me, like writing songs is like putting a puzzle together.

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Speaker 2: It feels like when you get that like last piece,

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Speaker 2: things click, everything makes sense and you're like, I won

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Speaker 2: the game. I finished you know, I don't know. It

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Speaker 1: Welcome to Music Saved Me, the podcast where we explored

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Speaker 1: the transformative power of music through the stories of artists

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Speaker 1: who have found solace, strength, and inspiration in their craft.

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Speaker 1: I'm your host, Lynn Hoffman, and today we are joined

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Speaker 1: by Alexandra Savior, the Portland born singer songwriter who's haunting,

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Speaker 1: atmospheric sound has captivated listeners since her breakout as a teenager.

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Speaker 1: She is literally referred to as a once in a

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Speaker 1: lifetime artist. She was discovered at the age of seventeen

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Speaker 1: by one Courtney Love after posting a cover song online,

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Speaker 1: and Alexander quickly found herself navigating the highs and the

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Speaker 1: lows of the music industry, from major label deals to

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Speaker 1: reclaiming her creative independence yay. She's known for her evocative

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Speaker 1: songwriting and cinematic style, and is weather personal and professional storms,

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Speaker 1: channeling all of her experiences into acclaimed albums like Belladonna

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Speaker 1: of Sadness and the Archer. Now, with her latest release,

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Speaker 1: Beneath the lily Pad, she continues to evolve, offering listeners

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Speaker 1: a deeper glimpse into her world and the healing force

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Speaker 1: of music. In this episode, Alexandra opens up about how

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Speaker 1: music has been both a refuge and a form of

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Speaker 1: So please join me now as we talk about resilience, creativity,

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Speaker 1: and the songs that save us again and again, Alexandra Savior.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to Music Saved Me. It's so great to have

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Speaker 1: you here with us today.

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Speaker 2: Thank you, thank you for having me.

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Speaker 1: So we're going to start with a hard question up front,

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Speaker 1: just to get it out of the way. I think

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Speaker 1: it's what a lot of people want to know, is

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Speaker 1: can you share a moment in your life when music

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Speaker 1: truly saved you or maybe provided a sense of solace

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I think that that's I think. I mean, I've

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Speaker 2: was that I was hospitalized for mental illness psychosis, and

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Speaker 2: I think getting out when I was out of the hospital,

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Speaker 2: it really helped me, Like writing songs really helped me

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Speaker 2: you know, just what that experience was like, because it's

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Speaker 2: And so I think that that was like a kind

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and well, especially the title underneath the lily Pad,

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Speaker 1: I mean just the way you described how you would

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Speaker 1: look at life from a totally different perspective. There's the

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Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah. Sometimes I think like writing music for me,

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Speaker 2: it's like a form of like my kind of unconscious

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Speaker 2: it'll be like, years later after I arrived song, I'll

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Speaker 2: this or feeling this or experiencing, you know, something in life.

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Speaker 1: That's so amazing too that they be able to look

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Speaker 1: just so you know, the longer you live, the more

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Speaker 1: It's so true, and that's probably another reason why your

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Speaker 2: Oh, you know what, I think emotionally, I don't think

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Speaker 1: Well, are there are any particular songs or artists that

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Speaker 2: Yeah, there's an album by Sybil Bear, which I feel

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Speaker 2: Lost Something in the Hills and it's I listened to

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Speaker 2: Nina Simone uh and Billie Holiday and stuff like that.

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Speaker 1: Stuff that maybe you grew up listening to.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, things that I kind of like discovered when I

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Speaker 1: Read about your parents liking the rock and roll so

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Speaker 1: I love it a musical family. You've talked openly about

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Speaker 1: the importance of honesty in your songwriting and some of

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Speaker 1: the things that I've read. How does how does being

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Speaker 2: So it's interesting because I don't know if I'm very

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Speaker 2: if I'm actually that honest. Sorry, I don't mean to

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Speaker 1: I get it.

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Speaker 2: I'm honest in life, but maybe not as much in

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Speaker 2: Have think I'm being sneaked.

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Speaker 1: Well, no, you see that though you know I'm unforgivable.

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Speaker 1: so you actually know what's being sung. Yes, they didn't

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Speaker 1: It could mean something completely different. And I don't really

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, I like that's why it's like I'm

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Speaker 2: sometimes hesitant to give too much information about what a

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Speaker 1: Tough stuff, you know, it's power empowering, it's it's an

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Speaker 1: so you are really sharing about yourself and you are

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Speaker 1: that you're doing it the perfect way. You mentioned vulnerability

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Speaker 2: Oh, I don't know, it's I think the vulnerability. I mean,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well you held on to that gem for five years.

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Speaker 1: That's hard. But even harder, I will say, is releasing

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Speaker 1: it and then everything, the judgment, the all of that's there.

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Speaker 2: it's it feels very it feels like like the album

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Speaker 2: I haven't really gotten to like see how it's affecting

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Speaker 1: Yeah, man, you're in your bedroom. Yeah, become famous releasing

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Speaker 1: just turn on. Hey, that's me. You're just looking at

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Speaker 1: downloads happening it on the internet. That's got to be strange.

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Speaker 2: I pretty much had no idea what's going on with it.

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Speaker 1: It's probably better that way. You just focus on doing

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Speaker 1: the things that make you feel good, and it's probably

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Speaker 1: better that way. Yeah. You know, early on in your career,

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Speaker 1: I read that you faced a lot of pressure, you know,

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Speaker 1: So you know, how is how is music? And has

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Speaker 1: music empowered you to sort of define yourself on your

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Speaker 2: It's interesting because I I think like early on, I

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Speaker 2: them without them existing like outside of my brain and

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Speaker 2: I think it. And then you know, having having kind

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Speaker 1: You know, I reading about you in treatment versus out

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Speaker 2: Oh? Wow?

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Speaker 1: What song that always makes you feel happy? Like the

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Speaker 2: I think Kathy's song by Simon and Garfunk Goal is

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Speaker 2: I want to say Leonard Cohen, because I also wish

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Speaker 1: Well sweet, that's so sweet. I love that. Yeah, just

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Speaker 1: You could do harmony though, Yeah. Well, Alexander Savior, it

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Speaker 1: and I'm so excited for your for your new release,

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Speaker 1: Beneath the Lily pat is what it's called, and the

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Speaker 1: music is one thing, but then if you're in the

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Speaker 1: room with it happening, it's a whole other level. So

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Speaker 1: hopefully you'll check her out, and hopefully you'll come back

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Speaker 1: and visit us again soon.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I hope though, Thank you so much for having

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Speaker 2: me