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Speaker 1: Hello, how are you? How are you feeling? I am

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Speaker 1: here back home from my retreat, sitting at my desk.

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Speaker 1: I made myself a wellness room at my house, which

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Speaker 1: was very needed. It almost felt like this room was

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Speaker 1: meant to be what it is now. So I have

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Speaker 1: my desk in here. I have a little buddha which

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Speaker 1: is a fountain. I'm pretty sure you can hear it.

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Speaker 1: It goes in and out. I think it needs more water. Anyway,

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Speaker 1: it's a very peaceful room. And this is where I'm

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Speaker 1: going to do a lot of my creative stuff and

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Speaker 1: make a little altar here. But AnyWho, the point is

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Speaker 1: that I had an amazing retreat, amazing. I drove up

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Speaker 1: there by myself, like I told you guys, and it

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Speaker 1: was a beautiful drive. And I drove back at night,

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Speaker 1: which was also very beautif full drive as well. I

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Speaker 1: was supposed to come home a day later, but I

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Speaker 1: came back a day sooner. I just wanted to come

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Speaker 1: home and see my husband and just be with my

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Speaker 1: boys at home and lay in my bed. Although I

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Speaker 1: had an amazing time out there, it was absolutely phenomenal.

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Speaker 1: Where I stayed was so beautiful. It was it was

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Speaker 1: just a river a beautiful river that was surrounded by

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Speaker 1: homes in which I stayed in one and I shared

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Speaker 1: with two other girls, and I stayed in my own room,

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Speaker 1: and I did my best not to watch any television

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Speaker 1: or be on social media too much. I just wanted

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Speaker 1: to be completely present. And I know it could be

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Speaker 1: scary to be alone sometimes, and more than anything, I

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Speaker 1: think that's what I want to tell you guys in

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Speaker 1: this voice note that I know it can be scary

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Speaker 1: to be alone, but what happens when we are alone,

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Speaker 1: in silence, in our own presence is absolutely beautiful, in

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Speaker 1: life changing. I used to be the person that couldn't

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Speaker 1: or didn't like to be alone, because when you're alone,

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Speaker 1: you're in silence, and in silence, that's where your intuition,

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Speaker 1: that's where God speaks to you. And sometimes we're scared

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Speaker 1: to hear what we need to know, so surrounding ourselves

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Speaker 1: with noise or with people or having someone to talk

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Speaker 1: to it distracts us from that. So I get it.

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Speaker 1: But I just want to encourage you to go on

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Speaker 1: dates by yourself, go eat, go to the movies, take

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Speaker 1: a walk, take a hike by yourself, go on and

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Speaker 1: retreat by yourself a little by little, take baby steps,

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Speaker 1: but it's absolutely amazing. And I love to be with

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Speaker 1: my husband. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love it.

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Speaker 1: I missed him so much, and like I said, I

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Speaker 1: missed my dogs. I was like I missed them, but

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Speaker 1: being there and sitting on a rock and just thinking

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Speaker 1: and hearing the water flow, laying on a hammock, I

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Speaker 1: took a nap on a hammock and it was so nice.

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Speaker 1: It's exactly what my heart needed and I want to

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Speaker 1: do it every so often, and maybe one day I'll

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Speaker 1: tell you guys all the details of my retreat. For now,

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Speaker 1: I want to just keep it to myself and just

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Speaker 1: reflect and analyze everything that God spoke to me about,

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Speaker 1: because He definitely spoke to me and I felt his

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Speaker 1: presence and it was beautiful to say the least. Maybe

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Speaker 1: it's something I'll keep to myself forever, but for now,

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Speaker 1: this is what I'm choosing to do. And I hope

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Speaker 1: that you guys can understand that because usually I share everything,

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Speaker 1: but I'm learning to keep some things to myself and

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Speaker 1: in my heart because it's so sacred. But I'll pray

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Speaker 1: about it and see if God calls me to tell

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Speaker 1: you guys, because this is definitely a world that I

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Speaker 1: want to be in for the rest of my life.

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Speaker 1: I feel like I came back to myself. Definitely went

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Speaker 1: back home, if that makes any sense. But I will

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Speaker 1: tell you that a part of me was left there

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Speaker 1: in a way of leaving and letting go and releasing

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Speaker 1: just things that weren't serving me, like self doubt, like insecurity,

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Speaker 1: a fear of my future. I definitely left it there

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Speaker 1: at a tree without giving too many details, but anyway,

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Speaker 1: more than anything, like I said, it's just encouraging you

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Speaker 1: guys to spend some time alone in silence and in

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Speaker 1: your own thoughts and journaling and really trying to hear

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Speaker 1: the voice within, which in my opinion, is God. I

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Speaker 1: always say this, God lives in us as us, So

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Speaker 1: that's all. I hope you are having an amazing day

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Speaker 1: and continue to have an amazing day and night and

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Speaker 1: sleep well and that you wake up feeling fabulous. Sincerely, Jay,