WEBVTT - Conversations About Women Under The Influence 0:00:01.840 --> 0:00:04.400 What's up and welcome back to another episode of No 0:00:04.559 --> 0:00:07.520 Sealer's podcast with your hosts Now fuck that with your 0:00:07.560 --> 0:00:08.320 load glasses. 0:00:08.320 --> 0:00:19.120 Malone Miami guard is at G five Strip Club in June. 0:00:19.800 --> 0:00:23.240 No. In in June, she was performing at the fucking 0:00:23.280 --> 0:00:27.639 football Stadium where the Dolphins play man in like ninety days. Yeah, 0:00:27.800 --> 0:00:28.800 she said, she robbed. 0:00:29.600 --> 0:00:32.760 She robbed all queen. She said, I almost. 0:00:32.400 --> 0:00:35.120 I almost bought her apartment building right in her neighborhood. Really, 0:00:36.040 --> 0:00:37.040 damn dal fell through. 0:00:37.880 --> 0:00:38.160 Damn. 0:00:38.520 --> 0:00:40.400 She drove up, she drove the property. 0:00:40.680 --> 0:00:43.280 She said that was She was like, that wasn't my kind. 0:00:43.440 --> 0:00:47.000 I don't even you it was kind of I said, oh, ship, ok, 0:00:47.240 --> 0:00:54.920 we already knew that well with her regular everybody pacify girl. 0:00:55.760 --> 0:00:58.720 She didn't, she said she did not. Abut no, she said, 0:00:58.760 --> 0:00:59.960 she don't use them, so ain't no. 0:01:00.640 --> 0:01:03.600 You know you're gonna call her follow up album girlfriend Experience. 0:01:04.800 --> 0:01:07.479 That's why we ain't safe and what. 0:01:07.520 --> 0:01:10.720 You mean we're not say? What do you mean we're 0:01:10.760 --> 0:01:11.200 not safe? 0:01:12.240 --> 0:01:12.440 Now? 0:01:12.560 --> 0:01:17.960 What do you call COVID of the vagina that you did? 0:01:20.200 --> 0:01:25.360 COVID don't really that's different, Ship. It's like COVID will 0:01:25.400 --> 0:01:31.679 probably be like like women's into the hundreds. 0:01:31.840 --> 0:01:36.120 Inside they pushed things out, they passed the disease. Yeah, 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:41.680 some people have very strong vaginas. I don't souse. It's 0:01:41.680 --> 0:01:46.240 like I'm gonna get BB or he's from anything. Like, 0:01:46.480 --> 0:01:49.320 I'm like, you gave me a BV. He's like, that's 0:01:49.360 --> 0:01:51.960 not The doctor said that's not a st D, but 0:01:52.120 --> 0:01:54.440 you still called it. And they don't believe that type 0:01:54.440 --> 0:01:58.160 of ship. Definitely, they definitely that you guys don't be 0:01:58.360 --> 0:02:02.760 realizing that ship. Go washing dick, don't coming over. You're sweaty. 0:02:02.800 --> 0:02:06.120 You try to stick that sweaty thing in me everything 0:02:06.280 --> 0:02:10.160 protection and then you know. No, I'm just saying, like 0:02:10.200 --> 0:02:12.160 when it's your dealship, yeah, have enough. 0:02:12.040 --> 0:02:15.000 Of a standard to in the moment say why don't 0:02:15.000 --> 0:02:16.120 you go wipe that off? 0:02:16.360 --> 0:02:19.520 Oh no, I'm a wipeline man's dick off. Hey, babe, 0:02:19.639 --> 0:02:20.280 let's do this. 0:02:21.040 --> 0:02:22.519 You wipe his dick off. 0:02:22.520 --> 0:02:24.359 For what I'm saying, if he came in sweaty, he 0:02:24.400 --> 0:02:26.160 was trying to do it real quick, I'm probably most 0:02:26.200 --> 0:02:26.880 likely wipe his dick. 0:02:28.160 --> 0:02:31.320 Well, there's a stant least standard. 0:02:32.760 --> 0:02:35.880 Why do I always have because you would suck salty balls? 0:02:35.880 --> 0:02:37.920 But I sucked some salty balls, and I did not 0:02:38.080 --> 0:02:42.520 like it. But I'm adding that like I suck my 0:02:42.600 --> 0:02:45.040 man in salty ball. That's right, bro, that's why you 0:02:45.120 --> 0:02:50.120 got a man. Girls. Yeah, I'd be one of them 0:02:50.120 --> 0:02:52.560 to talk do y'all. I like when my man talk 0:02:52.680 --> 0:02:55.720 dirty to the girl. Do y'all you know he you know, 0:02:56.000 --> 0:02:58.480 do y'all like that, Do y'all talk dirty. He was 0:02:58.560 --> 0:03:00.320 kind of looking at me like I was crazy when 0:03:00.320 --> 0:03:01.880 I told him, like, I want you to tell me 0:03:01.960 --> 0:03:05.400 like how I'm doing. I want you to say like this, 0:03:05.919 --> 0:03:08.080 you know, I like the way you suck this dick. 0:03:08.240 --> 0:03:09.799 What if you don't like it? He's like, you're doing 0:03:09.800 --> 0:03:13.639 a horrible I bet you don't want to hear that. 0:03:14.919 --> 0:03:19.960 She wants an honest she wants to be better, Like 0:03:20.120 --> 0:03:20.840 I want. 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:22.359 To know you're horrible at this. 0:03:22.760 --> 0:03:25.600 No, and we're in the moment, you know, just a 0:03:25.639 --> 0:03:26.959 little instruction. 0:03:26.639 --> 0:03:28.959 Just what you like? That ship is whack. You're toying 0:03:28.960 --> 0:03:30.880 it wrong. Lick the ball. 0:03:34.400 --> 0:03:38.240 Over here, you know, just direct, let me know. It's 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:40.080 gonna pump me up. It's encouraging. 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:42.840 So you don't want to honest critique. 0:03:42.920 --> 0:03:43.520 I want you. 0:03:43.600 --> 0:03:48.120 I want you to guide you, and you don't need 0:03:48.160 --> 0:03:51.960 to guide me. And it's feeling great out. It's encouraging first, 0:03:52.120 --> 0:03:52.640 gonna make. 0:03:52.560 --> 0:03:55.240 Me want to you know better, It's gonna make you 0:03:55.280 --> 0:03:59.360 want to do better, extra better, extra better, extra. 0:04:01.520 --> 0:04:04.680 Extra better extra then and read all about it. 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:07.720 We are to a pretty odd start on those ss. 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:12.800 Yeah, yeah, I know right about salty ball. Okay, let's. 0:04:15.440 --> 0:04:16.640 Conversations about. 0:04:20.040 --> 0:04:24.080 Talking about mister p H. What I don't like is 0:04:24.160 --> 0:04:26.039 when I'm not doing a good job and then you 0:04:26.160 --> 0:04:28.080 just grab my head and then you just and my 0:04:28.200 --> 0:04:30.440 neck is hurting, I'm choking. I'm like, you know what, 0:04:31.880 --> 0:04:33.080 this is done, We're done. 0:04:33.200 --> 0:04:34.960 That's when you're doing a great job. 0:04:35.360 --> 0:04:36.640 That's what I like. 0:04:36.200 --> 0:04:40.280 I like him, So you would like if he grabs 0:04:40.279 --> 0:04:42.080 your head and just slams it in there. 0:04:42.200 --> 0:04:44.640 Not slams it in there. But I do don't slam 0:04:44.680 --> 0:04:45.080 it in there. 0:04:45.120 --> 0:04:46.440 But why if that's what he wants. 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:48.359 But gagging a little bit is kind of. 0:04:48.480 --> 0:04:50.000 What if he wants you to gag a lot, that's 0:04:50.000 --> 0:04:54.240 what he likes. That's the point that probably would turn 0:04:54.320 --> 0:04:54.960 him on even more. 0:04:55.800 --> 0:04:57.600 If it's gonna turn on and I'm gonna here or 0:04:57.640 --> 0:04:59.920 something I was about to share, but I was about 0:04:59.920 --> 0:05:07.560 to wait after Oh yeah, oh yeah, particularly my first 0:05:06.320 --> 0:05:10.040 time that horse never never, it. 0:05:09.960 --> 0:05:12.240 Was y'all know, it's like Mike's going and y'all just 0:05:12.360 --> 0:05:17.480 all talking. Could y'all focused? Just focus? Okay, So you're drinking, Hey, 0:05:17.720 --> 0:05:20.680 drink some more water side because because you're talking and 0:05:20.720 --> 0:05:23.040 it's a podcast. So motherfucker's just here talking. 0:05:23.040 --> 0:05:24.560 I'm sorry, I apologize. 0:05:24.839 --> 0:05:30.200 So it's like this is no siblings jail. Pete is 0:05:30.240 --> 0:05:33.640 in Califuckingfornia. So Pete Pete in the house. 0:05:33.839 --> 0:05:38.680 Oh yeah, I'm in California. Red leaves in thirty hours 0:05:39.080 --> 0:05:39.640 like it's a. 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:44.560 Wow, yeah, real real, Hey, Rick, got the weed rolled up? 0:05:44.720 --> 0:05:46.640 You already know my fate. 0:05:47.160 --> 0:05:49.480 My little sister Siah in the house. What was happening? 0:05:51.040 --> 0:05:54.360 Been drinking and tidy too much? So this is we're 0:05:54.360 --> 0:05:55.279 gonna have the controller. 0:05:55.480 --> 0:05:57.719 I'm drinking water. When'd you start? 0:05:59.240 --> 0:06:03.760 Don't don't even have to don't don't drink no more 0:06:03.839 --> 0:06:05.360 that you gotta draw. I don't do that and stop 0:06:05.400 --> 0:06:05.640 doing that. 0:06:05.800 --> 0:06:08.240 Right if I give it to Pete, this is give 0:06:08.279 --> 0:06:09.479 it to the discipline. Thank you. 0:06:09.640 --> 0:06:11.160 Yes, damn, you've got to drive. 0:06:15.400 --> 0:06:18.440 I know how to drink and dry. I can navigate 0:06:18.440 --> 0:06:21.159 a relationship. But I can navigate my bottle. 0:06:21.320 --> 0:06:24.640 I understand why you can't because you think you can 0:06:24.720 --> 0:06:29.359 drink and dry. Then listen. 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:36.400 This is sober men and an opposing conversation with intoxicated women. 0:06:36.400 --> 0:06:40.960 Conversations with drunk women, conversations with women under the influence. 0:06:41.640 --> 0:06:44.560 I'm not in you getting too there. 0:06:44.560 --> 0:06:46.520 It is by the time when you get through this intro, 0:06:46.800 --> 0:06:47.360 you'll be there. 0:06:47.520 --> 0:06:48.480 Yeah, you're you're heading. 0:06:48.480 --> 0:06:50.400 There is a safe place. 0:06:52.920 --> 0:06:54.960 This is. 0:06:56.080 --> 0:06:58.599 Listen. This is a real safe place. 0:07:00.320 --> 0:07:03.000 That the mic picked out up. 0:07:03.040 --> 0:07:04.640 This is a real safe place. 0:07:04.640 --> 0:07:07.599 I had a question. I'll ask you later. 0:07:07.839 --> 0:07:11.040 Okay, all right, It's just it'll get safer than this 0:07:11.240 --> 0:07:13.200 because I need you one of those No, you do not. 0:07:13.360 --> 0:07:14.880 I got the license and everything. 0:07:15.120 --> 0:07:16.600 You don't need that. 0:07:16.760 --> 0:07:18.240 Go not give me a hard time. 0:07:18.360 --> 0:07:18.920 You don't need. 0:07:20.400 --> 0:07:23.160 Because they want your I D to match your bill 0:07:23.400 --> 0:07:25.600 and that, like, can you take my birth certificate in 0:07:25.640 --> 0:07:29.040 my passport? Please? Oh no, go to the black on 0:07:29.080 --> 0:07:32.080 one in Burbank Bourbank. Okay, that's where, thank you, I'm going. 0:07:32.920 --> 0:07:34.320 I just want a cute little. 0:07:37.160 --> 0:07:39.920 For sure. The black women was shutting that down. 0:07:40.160 --> 0:07:46.920 Definitely. No, they're knowing, they just don't by the paperwork I. 0:07:46.800 --> 0:07:50.040 Did, she can deal with her I d and then 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:51.960 they just give her like a little quick test. That's it. 0:07:52.000 --> 0:07:54.080 They helped. You already took the test. Oh, so you 0:07:54.120 --> 0:07:56.040 should be good. If it's in the system, you should 0:07:56.040 --> 0:07:59.040 be straight. They won't let you. 0:07:58.400 --> 0:08:00.560 Wait a minute. Did the state of California deny you? 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:03.520 Okay? So it was before I had a warrant, but 0:08:03.560 --> 0:08:06.360 I took care of Oh my god, so my warrant's gone. 0:08:06.760 --> 0:08:08.520 So now I can get one. But I just want 0:08:08.560 --> 0:08:10.320 to place that because when I tried to get one, 0:08:10.360 --> 0:08:13.120 it was like the I D address on the ID 0:08:13.200 --> 0:08:15.200 needs a mash black. It was just a lot of 0:08:15.240 --> 0:08:22.360 shit that wasn't line up. Yeah, so Holly, basically I 0:08:22.400 --> 0:08:24.640 need to change the address on ID. You just go 0:08:24.760 --> 0:08:28.080 into the DNA and they give you that little paper 0:08:28.640 --> 0:08:30.880 and you just the reason why they do that is 0:08:30.880 --> 0:08:32.960 but then it has to be registered to your address, 0:08:32.960 --> 0:08:34.640 so your address has to be current. Like I couldn't 0:08:34.720 --> 0:08:36.120 use my PO box or you do like that. I 0:08:36.120 --> 0:08:37.920 had to use my actual Okay, I don't have to 0:08:37.960 --> 0:08:39.520 do that. Regardless. ILL thought it was a place to'd 0:08:39.520 --> 0:08:41.600 be like, oh, I'll take your birth recipient in your passport. 0:08:41.760 --> 0:08:45.040 It's a state of We just had this conversation with you. 0:08:45.800 --> 0:08:50.480 Standards and discipline. California has a standard to be a 0:08:50.600 --> 0:08:55.000 gun owner. Okay, they don't want just crazy people just 0:08:55.040 --> 0:08:59.040 getting guns, and a lot of people feel it's unconstitutional. 0:08:59.080 --> 0:09:01.760 But I am not mad because the fact that you 0:09:01.800 --> 0:09:04.800 think you can drink and drive and so let guys 0:09:04.880 --> 0:09:07.480 based off how you feel. I'm not sure if we 0:09:07.480 --> 0:09:10.880 should make it my business out on. You don't have 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:12.120 any business to put on the street. 0:09:12.200 --> 0:09:13.240 You know what. Let me tell you something. 0:09:13.240 --> 0:09:16.280 I'm not saying anything crazy. You just said on the 0:09:16.320 --> 0:09:19.360 podcast you know how to drink and drive? Did I? 0:09:19.880 --> 0:09:20.120 Yes? 0:09:21.360 --> 0:09:23.240 Excuse me, I don't. 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:25.280 Know if I want it to be so easy for 0:09:25.360 --> 0:09:26.400 you to get a fucking gun. 0:09:26.480 --> 0:09:28.520 Can we cut this part out? I need a gun? 0:09:29.440 --> 0:09:32.080 Why do you need a gun just because she gets 0:09:32.400 --> 0:09:33.640 over drunk? 0:09:35.280 --> 0:09:37.520 Okay, it's fucked the police all day. But that's not 0:09:37.559 --> 0:09:38.199 what I was saying. 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:43.400 So you want a gun? At to say? 0:09:45.080 --> 0:09:47.520 That wasn't what I was saying. But can we. 0:09:49.000 --> 0:09:50.280 Can we change the subject? 0:09:50.600 --> 0:09:53.240 No? We can't it. Okay, I'm gonna look, this is 0:09:53.240 --> 0:09:54.760 what I wanted to talk to you about. I was 0:09:54.800 --> 0:09:58.120 having this crazy conversation with my boy Sonny. He's from Florida. 0:09:59.200 --> 0:10:02.880 God bless we're smart brother, yep, super intelligent. You know 0:10:02.880 --> 0:10:07.320 what I'm saying, straight out of Florida. Family from Jamaica, 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:09.920 lives in Texas, been all over the South. Really smart 0:10:09.920 --> 0:10:12.840 brother tries his bells to help black people, me and him. 0:10:13.679 --> 0:10:16.520 But me and him sit on the opposite sides of 0:10:16.559 --> 0:10:19.559 the streets when it comes to black people. And when 0:10:19.559 --> 0:10:21.840 I'm talking about black people, I'm talking about people that 0:10:22.400 --> 0:10:26.440 are the descendants of slave culture, not like, you know, 0:10:26.480 --> 0:10:29.160 black people that are wealthy, not like the black people 0:10:29.200 --> 0:10:33.120 that were slavers, not black people that were you know, freemen. 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:38.120 I'm talking about black slave descendants. And we were having 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:45.120 a conversation where he felt like that specific diaspora of 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:48.320 black people, right, that came from slaves, slave culture and 0:10:48.360 --> 0:10:51.800 American the American slave trade. Those people, he said, they 0:10:51.960 --> 0:10:57.240 make bad decisions and minus oppression, right. And me and 0:10:57.280 --> 0:10:59.360 Pete talked about this, and people got on me because 0:10:59.360 --> 0:11:02.520 they felt people's being harsh and he's, oh, he's raisist, 0:11:02.520 --> 0:11:05.280 he gotta be raising And I get it, because if 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:09.000 you don't really live it, it sounds crazy, right, And 0:11:09.040 --> 0:11:12.199 then if you try to use loose comparisons, it sound crazy. 0:11:12.679 --> 0:11:14.559 Long story short, I was telling him, I'm like, yo, 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:18.080 you know, like he was like, I said, yo, Like, 0:11:18.200 --> 0:11:20.040 it's just the fact that there are not a ton 0:11:20.080 --> 0:11:22.680 of opportunities, and we come from so much trauma, right, 0:11:22.720 --> 0:11:27.679 the systemic oppression right historically creates the trauma and it 0:11:27.960 --> 0:11:30.280 has a stop. Even though it's different today, it's not 0:11:30.320 --> 0:11:33.480 as bad as it was obviously in the seventeen hundreds 0:11:33.520 --> 0:11:36.280 or the sixteen hundreds of the eighteen hundreds, but it's 0:11:36.280 --> 0:11:38.920 still obvious, right, and there's still a lack of opportunity, 0:11:39.120 --> 0:11:41.920 even though there's more, it's not a balance to mount. 0:11:42.800 --> 0:11:45.640 And he was like, well, Ge, you don't think. You 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:48.560 gotta think people making their own bad decision. And I'm like, 0:11:48.600 --> 0:11:52.280 for example, and he said, well, for example, why do 0:11:52.400 --> 0:11:56.000 black women keep having all of these kids? He said, 0:11:56.040 --> 0:11:59.600 black women are having kids to get money from the county. 0:12:00.640 --> 0:12:05.880 And obviously I was outraged, right because yes, there could 0:12:05.880 --> 0:12:09.080 be some black moms right that will do that, but 0:12:09.160 --> 0:12:12.040 that's not most black women's people where I come from. 0:12:12.080 --> 0:12:14.000 They're not getting pregnant. That's just not true. 0:12:14.520 --> 0:12:19.400 And we start having this verse relationship tell me, Jimmy, 0:12:19.559 --> 0:12:26.000 it's not a positive being subsidized to have a kid 0:12:26.000 --> 0:12:29.640 as a centive art. It's not a positive insteative to act. 0:12:29.880 --> 0:12:33.800 It's more the removal of an incentive not to act 0:12:33.840 --> 0:12:34.200 that way. 0:12:35.040 --> 0:12:38.240 Well, it's and I get that, right, because it feels 0:12:38.280 --> 0:12:41.199 like if there was no county, black people wouldn't have kids, 0:12:41.840 --> 0:12:44.680 and it's just not true. Like, right, the natural thing, 0:12:48.360 --> 0:12:51.000 the natural thing to do when you get pregnant is 0:12:51.040 --> 0:12:55.679 to have children. Sure, right, And so if you're fucking 0:12:57.600 --> 0:12:59.640 you can most likely get pregnant. 0:12:59.640 --> 0:13:04.600 We were talking earlier about social engineering and the culture 0:13:04.679 --> 0:13:08.280 of expectation and and and normative behavior and alchemists for that. 0:13:09.720 --> 0:13:15.959 The fact that that has been made somewhat palatable by 0:13:16.000 --> 0:13:22.560 subsidization makes it makes that a cultural norm because it's 0:13:22.559 --> 0:13:25.960 not oh, this happened to me. This is a god 0:13:26.000 --> 0:13:28.800 awful nightmare. Don't let it happen to you. It's like, oh, yeah, no, 0:13:28.880 --> 0:13:30.559 we're doing this. No no, no, no, no, no no no. 0:13:31.400 --> 0:13:35.400 But even then, I don't think that's necessarily true, right, 0:13:35.440 --> 0:13:37.840 I get it. I get how it could be viewed 0:13:38.240 --> 0:13:41.240 that way. Right, if you get pregnant, Okay, it's not 0:13:41.320 --> 0:13:44.640 the end of the world because state assistants or the 0:13:44.640 --> 0:13:50.840 government assistance exist. I don't think that's the point. I think, 0:13:51.800 --> 0:13:55.000 but that's not, that's not that's that's yeah, that's let's 0:13:55.000 --> 0:13:57.440 before we get there, let's let's start here, right. The 0:13:57.480 --> 0:13:59.839 point I'm making to you is, I think people want 0:14:00.080 --> 0:14:05.520 they start having sex. People can get pregnant, right, so, 0:14:06.040 --> 0:14:09.719 and I think more times than not, people do not 0:14:09.920 --> 0:14:14.800 want to get abortions. That's so true. So the point 0:14:14.840 --> 0:14:18.640 I was saying was, you know, he was saying that 0:14:18.960 --> 0:14:22.960 whatever the conversation, he's like glasses, sixty percent of black men, 0:14:23.040 --> 0:14:27.120 and Sonny's a super statistical dude. He said, sixty percent 0:14:27.200 --> 0:14:32.680 of black women right have children's they're single moms, right, 0:14:32.760 --> 0:14:37.360 And less than thirty percent of men black men under 0:14:37.440 --> 0:14:41.600 thirty are fathers. So his point was, men that are 0:14:41.680 --> 0:14:48.560 fathering black women's children, right, are fathers of multiple kids, 0:14:49.120 --> 0:14:55.680 their futures. And he said, why would black women get 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:59.160 pregnant with the out of weaar lot with somebody who 0:14:59.280 --> 0:15:03.680 has children, dread? And I thought that was a really 0:15:04.280 --> 0:15:09.280 dynamic point. Now I understand why they got pregnant, because 0:15:09.280 --> 0:15:17.000 it was fucking sure right, sure makes sense. But my 0:15:17.160 --> 0:15:20.480 question is Red, maybe you could time in on it. 0:15:21.040 --> 0:15:25.240 Your first child's father, right, Rowland's dad, did he have 0:15:25.280 --> 0:15:26.400 a child before yours? 0:15:26.720 --> 0:15:27.040 No? 0:15:27.240 --> 0:15:31.440 You have children, Brett. Your child's father was his first kid? 0:15:31.720 --> 0:15:32.720 Yeah, it was his first kid. 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:34.560 What about you? 0:15:34.600 --> 0:15:36.840 No, he had kids children? 0:15:37.040 --> 0:15:38.480 How many kids does he have now? 0:15:39.840 --> 0:15:44.600 At the time he had I want to say four children? 0:15:45.280 --> 0:15:46.760 Were they all with the same lady? 0:15:48.480 --> 0:15:49.400 It was two women? 0:15:50.000 --> 0:15:52.640 Okay? And how many kids does he have now? Sorry? 0:15:53.320 --> 0:15:55.240 He has seven? 0:15:57.040 --> 0:16:00.920 Seven with three women total or with greater than three total? 0:16:00.920 --> 0:16:02.400 Of its grander than three because she's. 0:16:02.240 --> 0:16:04.880 The third, I'm number three, and then he has one of. 0:16:05.400 --> 0:16:07.160 Okay, so four okay? 0:16:08.040 --> 0:16:11.400 And he made a good point, and I thought about that. Right, 0:16:13.600 --> 0:16:16.960 your second child, did he have kids before he did? 0:16:18.840 --> 0:16:22.440 So here's a question for you inside, right Red? What 0:16:22.720 --> 0:16:27.360 made you? Wait a minute? No, you marry him? Oh 0:16:27.400 --> 0:16:31.680 it's different. You were nineteen s that was your problem. 0:16:32.600 --> 0:16:35.800 I was at first I never wanted kids. I thought 0:16:36.040 --> 0:16:39.560 the world was a place and I should never have kids. 0:16:39.720 --> 0:16:43.760 And then I asked someone, I think when I got 0:16:43.760 --> 0:16:46.520 pregnant with my daughter, I was going through like this crazy, 0:16:46.520 --> 0:16:50.640 immercial emotional thing. And then I was already dating her father. 0:16:51.400 --> 0:16:54.120 He was off and on. So was he already was 0:16:54.120 --> 0:16:57.600 he like involved in his kids that he had, Like, 0:16:57.720 --> 0:17:00.320 oh yeah, and you guys were a chickens. When I 0:17:00.360 --> 0:17:02.360 was dating him, I would always see the girls and 0:17:02.400 --> 0:17:06.119 they were so beautiful and they were so sweet, and 0:17:06.240 --> 0:17:09.320 I didn't care about having kids, so I was just like, 0:17:09.880 --> 0:17:12.600 I don't know interacting with them, and then I just 0:17:12.680 --> 0:17:18.280 remember something happened. So this story is way long, but anyway, 0:17:18.480 --> 0:17:20.000 some storing. 0:17:19.680 --> 0:17:21.960 It up to the story as if you were a man. 0:17:23.680 --> 0:17:26.240 I was very emotional and I was wilding out, like 0:17:26.280 --> 0:17:28.640 I was doing all this crazy ass ship. And then 0:17:29.960 --> 0:17:32.560 my daughter's dad. He was somebody who never questioned me 0:17:32.600 --> 0:17:34.920 if I ever wanted to spend time with him. So 0:17:35.320 --> 0:17:37.440 I was just going through like emotional thing and then 0:17:37.960 --> 0:17:43.200 I wanted someone to be there. Yeah, so I called him. 0:17:43.800 --> 0:17:47.080 He's always like open arms. I just fucking went and 0:17:47.119 --> 0:17:49.000 then he was I want you to have my son, 0:17:49.080 --> 0:17:59.560 and I was just like, okay, So I had my 0:17:59.640 --> 0:18:02.359 daughter at twenty six, So he was just someone I 0:18:02.480 --> 0:18:05.840 was sporadically. 0:18:05.119 --> 0:18:05.840 He was a lover. 0:18:06.080 --> 0:18:09.399 Do you think that Okay? Seeing seeing that he had 0:18:09.400 --> 0:18:11.479 other kids and seeing how he interacted with them, did 0:18:11.520 --> 0:18:14.080 that mind did not I know, but that did that 0:18:14.240 --> 0:18:17.680 help you with their decision to have it? I get 0:18:17.680 --> 0:18:20.159 bregnant because how you saw how he was with me 0:18:20.200 --> 0:18:22.240 the kid. Yeah, because he was a good he was 0:18:22.240 --> 0:18:25.240 a nice, attentive father, Like he would have the kids 0:18:25.359 --> 0:18:28.359 all summer. He would give them anytime, and the kids 0:18:28.359 --> 0:18:32.880 were like so sweet and I just I love everything. 0:18:33.000 --> 0:18:35.600 So I was just like, they're like you whatever. So 0:18:35.640 --> 0:18:37.640 when I was going through like my little emotional thing 0:18:37.640 --> 0:18:39.240 and he was there for me, and then I was 0:18:39.320 --> 0:18:42.080 just like it was just one of those pivotal points 0:18:42.080 --> 0:18:43.520 in my life where I was like what is life? 0:18:44.000 --> 0:18:47.480 You know? I wanted to change, so my daughter helped me. 0:18:49.119 --> 0:18:49.479 Change. 0:18:50.359 --> 0:18:52.520 Yeah, right, but yeah, this is. 0:18:52.760 --> 0:19:01.200 What Yeah, okay, Kerry post to my back. 0:19:01.800 --> 0:19:04.520 No, it's it's it's all good. Yeah, you were you know, 0:19:04.640 --> 0:19:09.119 you were with him and you saw the potential of 0:19:09.720 --> 0:19:12.960 being the father like what he's doing soft. And my 0:19:13.080 --> 0:19:16.159 daughter she's tough because I've been saft, so I'm raising 0:19:16.240 --> 0:19:19.360 like a little muster so because I want her to 0:19:19.400 --> 0:19:23.399 not take no shit and not be easily manipulated or whatever. 0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:25.720 So I have to tell him, like you can talk 0:19:25.720 --> 0:19:27.920 to her about this or that, and he'll be like, okay, 0:19:28.119 --> 0:19:31.439 so what made y'all made you not be in a 0:19:31.480 --> 0:19:35.080 relationship with him or be married, like get want to 0:19:35.119 --> 0:19:38.199 be married to him or get married or selfishness. I 0:19:38.240 --> 0:19:42.520 think when I had my daughter, because his mom was 0:19:42.560 --> 0:19:45.359 so nice, like she bought me everything. She was like 0:19:45.400 --> 0:19:50.640 a mom I never had. So when I got breagnant, 0:19:50.640 --> 0:19:52.840 I was just like, I don't think I'm gonna have enough, 0:19:53.080 --> 0:19:55.159 said I don't think I remember me and her was 0:19:55.200 --> 0:19:56.680 on like a walk, and I was like, I don't 0:19:56.680 --> 0:19:59.960 think i'ma have enough love for him. I think I'll 0:20:00.160 --> 0:20:04.080 have enough for the baby. And then like he was 0:20:04.119 --> 0:20:05.640 trying like he changed, but. 0:20:06.040 --> 0:20:09.800 I was just like, no, but what you mean he changed? 0:20:10.200 --> 0:20:14.080 Like he he was very big in music, like just 0:20:14.200 --> 0:20:17.800 like but not bidding it anywhere. So when I had 0:20:17.800 --> 0:20:20.919 the baby, he was like trying to do everything to 0:20:21.080 --> 0:20:22.000 make me happy. 0:20:21.760 --> 0:20:23.720 And I was just what it mean changed though. 0:20:23.840 --> 0:20:25.919 Like work like he started because he was really like 0:20:26.000 --> 0:20:27.760 just doing this here and there like. 0:20:27.720 --> 0:20:29.440 So he wasn't so he wasn't. 0:20:31.400 --> 0:20:34.920 It wasn't that he wasn't providing because emotionally in everything 0:20:34.960 --> 0:20:39.399 he was there, like it wasn't about money. But he 0:20:39.680 --> 0:20:43.320 was very like I said, I think it was just 0:20:43.359 --> 0:20:47.000 me being like selfish, like not like only caring by 0:20:47.000 --> 0:20:49.600 myself and like, oh, I'm pregnant and I'm just gonna 0:20:49.600 --> 0:20:54.760 focus on the baby and me. But and then I 0:20:54.800 --> 0:20:57.760 was just like I didn't want it. It was kind 0:20:57.760 --> 0:21:00.679 of like doing fuck this shit, like how guys do, 0:21:01.240 --> 0:21:03.760 like when you give him some puzzy your neighborhood that shit. 0:21:04.520 --> 0:21:08.720 But I think that's because I know why my emotions 0:21:08.800 --> 0:21:12.679 wasn't there. But at the same time, it's like it 0:21:12.800 --> 0:21:13.440 seems like. 0:21:13.560 --> 0:21:17.879 Your only thing there was emotions. There was emotions. 0:21:17.920 --> 0:21:21.680 All I had was emotions, but for him, who were like, hey, 0:21:22.320 --> 0:21:25.800 let's try it. And I was just like and then 0:21:25.880 --> 0:21:28.600 something happened because I was gonna get a place with him. 0:21:28.720 --> 0:21:29.440 I remember, I. 0:21:29.440 --> 0:21:31.240 Just remember that you got to pull that mic closer. 0:21:31.320 --> 0:21:32.640 I wasn't gonna get a place with him. 0:21:32.800 --> 0:21:37.080 No, no, no, not you come up. Just sit back, 0:21:37.240 --> 0:21:39.400 sit back, lean back. 0:21:40.320 --> 0:21:42.720 She do it good, she up on the mic. But 0:21:43.760 --> 0:21:45.960 it was so I had gave in. I was like, okay, 0:21:45.960 --> 0:21:48.320 because every time I would just try to like talk 0:21:48.359 --> 0:21:50.639 to him, he would go in to like be together, 0:21:50.720 --> 0:21:53.160