Speaker 1: What's up and welcome back to another episode of No
Speaker 1: Sealer's podcast with your hosts Now fuck that with your
Speaker 1: load glasses.
Speaker 2: Malone Miami guard is at G five Strip Club in June.
Speaker 3: No. In in June, she was performing at the fucking
Speaker 3: football Stadium where the Dolphins play man in like ninety days. Yeah,
Speaker 3: she said, she robbed.
Speaker 4: She robbed all queen. She said, I almost.
Speaker 3: I almost bought her apartment building right in her neighborhood. Really,
Speaker 3: damn dal fell through.
Speaker 4: Damn.
Speaker 3: She drove up, she drove the property.
Speaker 4: She said that was She was like, that wasn't my kind.
Speaker 4: I don't even you it was kind of I said, oh, ship, ok,
Speaker 4: we already knew that well with her regular everybody pacify girl.
Speaker 4: She didn't, she said she did not. Abut no, she said,
Speaker 4: she don't use them, so ain't no.
Speaker 3: You know you're gonna call her follow up album girlfriend Experience.
Speaker 4: That's why we ain't safe and what.
Speaker 1: You mean we're not say? What do you mean we're
Speaker 1: not safe?
Speaker 2: Now?
Speaker 4: What do you call COVID of the vagina that you did?
Speaker 1: COVID don't really that's different, Ship. It's like COVID will
Speaker 1: probably be like like women's into the hundreds.
Speaker 4: Inside they pushed things out, they passed the disease. Yeah,
Speaker 4: some people have very strong vaginas. I don't souse. It's
Speaker 4: like I'm gonna get BB or he's from anything. Like,
Speaker 4: I'm like, you gave me a BV. He's like, that's
Speaker 4: not The doctor said that's not a st D, but
Speaker 4: you still called it. And they don't believe that type
Speaker 4: of ship. Definitely, they definitely that you guys don't be
Speaker 4: realizing that ship. Go washing dick, don't coming over. You're sweaty.
Speaker 4: You try to stick that sweaty thing in me everything
Speaker 4: protection and then you know. No, I'm just saying, like
Speaker 4: when it's your dealship, yeah, have enough.
Speaker 3: Of a standard to in the moment say why don't
Speaker 3: you go wipe that off?
Speaker 4: Oh no, I'm a wipeline man's dick off. Hey, babe,
Speaker 4: let's do this.
Speaker 1: You wipe his dick off.
Speaker 4: For what I'm saying, if he came in sweaty, he
Speaker 4: was trying to do it real quick, I'm probably most
Speaker 4: likely wipe his dick.
Speaker 3: Well, there's a stant least standard.
Speaker 1: Why do I always have because you would suck salty balls?
Speaker 4: But I sucked some salty balls, and I did not
Speaker 4: like it. But I'm adding that like I suck my
Speaker 4: man in salty ball. That's right, bro, that's why you
Speaker 4: got a man. Girls. Yeah, I'd be one of them
Speaker 4: to talk do y'all. I like when my man talk
Speaker 4: dirty to the girl. Do y'all you know he you know,
Speaker 4: do y'all like that, Do y'all talk dirty. He was
Speaker 4: kind of looking at me like I was crazy when
Speaker 4: I told him, like, I want you to tell me
Speaker 4: like how I'm doing. I want you to say like this,
Speaker 4: you know, I like the way you suck this dick.
Speaker 1: What if you don't like it? He's like, you're doing
Speaker 1: a horrible I bet you don't want to hear that.
Speaker 3: She wants an honest she wants to be better, Like
Speaker 3: I want.
Speaker 1: To know you're horrible at this.
Speaker 4: No, and we're in the moment, you know, just a
Speaker 4: little instruction.
Speaker 1: Just what you like? That ship is whack. You're toying
Speaker 1: it wrong. Lick the ball.
Speaker 4: Over here, you know, just direct, let me know. It's
Speaker 4: gonna pump me up. It's encouraging.
Speaker 1: So you don't want to honest critique.
Speaker 3: I want you.
Speaker 4: I want you to guide you, and you don't need
Speaker 4: to guide me. And it's feeling great out. It's encouraging first,
Speaker 4: gonna make.
Speaker 1: Me want to you know better, It's gonna make you
Speaker 1: want to do better, extra better, extra better, extra.
Speaker 4: Extra better extra then and read all about it.
Speaker 1: We are to a pretty odd start on those ss.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I know right about salty ball. Okay, let's.
Speaker 3: Conversations about.
Speaker 4: Talking about mister p H. What I don't like is
Speaker 4: when I'm not doing a good job and then you
Speaker 4: just grab my head and then you just and my
Speaker 4: neck is hurting, I'm choking. I'm like, you know what,
Speaker 4: this is done, We're done.
Speaker 1: That's when you're doing a great job.
Speaker 4: That's what I like.
Speaker 1: I like him, So you would like if he grabs
Speaker 1: your head and just slams it in there.
Speaker 4: Not slams it in there. But I do don't slam
Speaker 4: it in there.
Speaker 1: But why if that's what he wants.
Speaker 4: But gagging a little bit is kind of.
Speaker 1: What if he wants you to gag a lot, that's
Speaker 1: what he likes. That's the point that probably would turn
Speaker 1: him on even more.
Speaker 4: If it's gonna turn on and I'm gonna here or
Speaker 4: something I was about to share, but I was about
Speaker 4: to wait after Oh yeah, oh yeah, particularly my first
Speaker 4: time that horse never never, it.
Speaker 1: Was y'all know, it's like Mike's going and y'all just
Speaker 1: all talking. Could y'all focused? Just focus? Okay, So you're drinking, Hey,
Speaker 1: drink some more water side because because you're talking and
Speaker 1: it's a podcast. So motherfucker's just here talking.
Speaker 4: I'm sorry, I apologize.
Speaker 1: So it's like this is no siblings jail. Pete is
Speaker 1: in Califuckingfornia. So Pete Pete in the house.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I'm in California. Red leaves in thirty hours
Speaker 3: like it's a.
Speaker 1: Wow, yeah, real real, Hey, Rick, got the weed rolled up?
Speaker 4: You already know my fate.
Speaker 1: My little sister Siah in the house. What was happening?
Speaker 1: Been drinking and tidy too much? So this is we're
Speaker 1: gonna have the controller.
Speaker 4: I'm drinking water. When'd you start?
Speaker 1: Don't don't even have to don't don't drink no more
Speaker 1: that you gotta draw. I don't do that and stop
Speaker 1: doing that.
Speaker 3: Right if I give it to Pete, this is give
Speaker 3: it to the discipline. Thank you.
Speaker 1: Yes, damn, you've got to drive.
Speaker 4: I know how to drink and dry. I can navigate
Speaker 4: a relationship. But I can navigate my bottle.
Speaker 1: I understand why you can't because you think you can
Speaker 1: drink and dry. Then listen.
Speaker 3: This is sober men and an opposing conversation with intoxicated women.
Speaker 1: Conversations with drunk women, conversations with women under the influence.
Speaker 1: I'm not in you getting too there.
Speaker 3: It is by the time when you get through this intro,
Speaker 3: you'll be there.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're you're heading.
Speaker 4: There is a safe place.
Speaker 3: This is.
Speaker 1: Listen. This is a real safe place.
Speaker 3: That the mic picked out up.
Speaker 1: This is a real safe place.
Speaker 4: I had a question. I'll ask you later.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, It's just it'll get safer than this
Speaker 1: because I need you one of those No, you do not.
Speaker 4: I got the license and everything.
Speaker 1: You don't need that.
Speaker 4: Go not give me a hard time.
Speaker 1: You don't need.
Speaker 4: Because they want your I D to match your bill
Speaker 4: and that, like, can you take my birth certificate in
Speaker 4: my passport? Please? Oh no, go to the black on
Speaker 4: one in Burbank Bourbank. Okay, that's where, thank you, I'm going.
Speaker 4: I just want a cute little.
Speaker 1: For sure. The black women was shutting that down.
Speaker 3: Definitely. No, they're knowing, they just don't by the paperwork I.
Speaker 4: Did, she can deal with her I d and then
Speaker 4: they just give her like a little quick test. That's it.
Speaker 4: They helped. You already took the test. Oh, so you
Speaker 4: should be good. If it's in the system, you should
Speaker 4: be straight. They won't let you.
Speaker 1: Wait a minute. Did the state of California deny you?
Speaker 4: Okay? So it was before I had a warrant, but
Speaker 4: I took care of Oh my god, so my warrant's gone.
Speaker 4: So now I can get one. But I just want
Speaker 4: to place that because when I tried to get one,
Speaker 4: it was like the I D address on the ID
Speaker 4: needs a mash black. It was just a lot of
Speaker 4: shit that wasn't line up. Yeah, so Holly, basically I
Speaker 4: need to change the address on ID. You just go
Speaker 4: into the DNA and they give you that little paper
Speaker 4: and you just the reason why they do that is
Speaker 4: but then it has to be registered to your address,
Speaker 4: so your address has to be current. Like I couldn't
Speaker 4: use my PO box or you do like that. I
Speaker 4: had to use my actual Okay, I don't have to
Speaker 4: do that. Regardless. ILL thought it was a place to'd
Speaker 4: be like, oh, I'll take your birth recipient in your passport.
Speaker 1: It's a state of We just had this conversation with you.
Speaker 1: Standards and discipline. California has a standard to be a
Speaker 1: gun owner. Okay, they don't want just crazy people just
Speaker 1: getting guns, and a lot of people feel it's unconstitutional.
Speaker 1: But I am not mad because the fact that you
Speaker 1: think you can drink and drive and so let guys
Speaker 1: based off how you feel. I'm not sure if we
Speaker 1: should make it my business out on. You don't have
Speaker 1: any business to put on the street.
Speaker 4: You know what. Let me tell you something.
Speaker 1: I'm not saying anything crazy. You just said on the
Speaker 1: podcast you know how to drink and drive? Did I?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 4: Excuse me, I don't.
Speaker 1: Know if I want it to be so easy for
Speaker 1: you to get a fucking gun.
Speaker 4: Can we cut this part out? I need a gun?
Speaker 1: Why do you need a gun just because she gets
Speaker 1: over drunk?
Speaker 4: Okay, it's fucked the police all day. But that's not
Speaker 4: what I was saying.
Speaker 1: So you want a gun? At to say?
Speaker 4: That wasn't what I was saying. But can we.
Speaker 3: Can we change the subject?
Speaker 1: No? We can't it. Okay, I'm gonna look, this is
Speaker 1: what I wanted to talk to you about. I was
Speaker 1: having this crazy conversation with my boy Sonny. He's from Florida.
Speaker 1: God bless we're smart brother, yep, super intelligent. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, straight out of Florida. Family from Jamaica,
Speaker 1: lives in Texas, been all over the South. Really smart
Speaker 1: brother tries his bells to help black people, me and him.
Speaker 1: But me and him sit on the opposite sides of
Speaker 1: the streets when it comes to black people. And when
Speaker 1: I'm talking about black people, I'm talking about people that
Speaker 1: are the descendants of slave culture, not like, you know,
Speaker 1: black people that are wealthy, not like the black people
Speaker 1: that were slavers, not black people that were you know, freemen.
Speaker 1: I'm talking about black slave descendants. And we were having
Speaker 1: a conversation where he felt like that specific diaspora of
Speaker 1: black people, right, that came from slaves, slave culture and
Speaker 1: American the American slave trade. Those people, he said, they
Speaker 1: make bad decisions and minus oppression, right. And me and
Speaker 1: Pete talked about this, and people got on me because
Speaker 1: they felt people's being harsh and he's, oh, he's raisist,
Speaker 1: he gotta be raising And I get it, because if
Speaker 1: you don't really live it, it sounds crazy, right, And
Speaker 1: then if you try to use loose comparisons, it sound crazy.
Speaker 1: Long story short, I was telling him, I'm like, yo,
Speaker 1: you know, like he was like, I said, yo, Like,
Speaker 1: it's just the fact that there are not a ton
Speaker 1: of opportunities, and we come from so much trauma, right,
Speaker 1: the systemic oppression right historically creates the trauma and it
Speaker 1: has a stop. Even though it's different today, it's not
Speaker 1: as bad as it was obviously in the seventeen hundreds
Speaker 1: or the sixteen hundreds of the eighteen hundreds, but it's
Speaker 1: still obvious, right, and there's still a lack of opportunity,
Speaker 1: even though there's more, it's not a balance to mount.
Speaker 1: And he was like, well, Ge, you don't think. You
Speaker 1: gotta think people making their own bad decision. And I'm like,
Speaker 1: for example, and he said, well, for example, why do
Speaker 1: black women keep having all of these kids? He said,
Speaker 1: black women are having kids to get money from the county.
Speaker 1: And obviously I was outraged, right because yes, there could
Speaker 1: be some black moms right that will do that, but
Speaker 1: that's not most black women's people where I come from.
Speaker 1: They're not getting pregnant. That's just not true.
Speaker 3: And we start having this verse relationship tell me, Jimmy,
Speaker 3: it's not a positive being subsidized to have a kid
Speaker 3: as a centive art. It's not a positive insteative to act.
Speaker 3: It's more the removal of an incentive not to act
Speaker 3: that way.
Speaker 1: Well, it's and I get that, right, because it feels
Speaker 1: like if there was no county, black people wouldn't have kids,
Speaker 1: and it's just not true. Like, right, the natural thing,
Speaker 1: the natural thing to do when you get pregnant is
Speaker 1: to have children. Sure, right, And so if you're fucking
Speaker 1: you can most likely get pregnant.
Speaker 3: We were talking earlier about social engineering and the culture
Speaker 3: of expectation and and and normative behavior and alchemists for that.
Speaker 3: The fact that that has been made somewhat palatable by
Speaker 3: subsidization makes it makes that a cultural norm because it's
Speaker 3: not oh, this happened to me. This is a god
Speaker 3: awful nightmare. Don't let it happen to you. It's like, oh, yeah, no,
Speaker 3: we're doing this. No no, no, no, no, no no no.
Speaker 1: But even then, I don't think that's necessarily true, right,
Speaker 1: I get it. I get how it could be viewed
Speaker 1: that way. Right, if you get pregnant, Okay, it's not
Speaker 1: the end of the world because state assistants or the
Speaker 1: government assistance exist. I don't think that's the point. I think,
Speaker 1: but that's not, that's not that's that's yeah, that's let's
Speaker 1: before we get there, let's let's start here, right. The
Speaker 1: point I'm making to you is, I think people want
Speaker 1: they start having sex. People can get pregnant, right, so,
Speaker 1: and I think more times than not, people do not
Speaker 1: want to get abortions. That's so true. So the point
Speaker 1: I was saying was, you know, he was saying that
Speaker 1: whatever the conversation, he's like glasses, sixty percent of black men,
Speaker 1: and Sonny's a super statistical dude. He said, sixty percent
Speaker 1: of black women right have children's they're single moms, right,
Speaker 1: And less than thirty percent of men black men under
Speaker 1: thirty are fathers. So his point was, men that are
Speaker 1: fathering black women's children, right, are fathers of multiple kids,
Speaker 1: their futures. And he said, why would black women get
Speaker 1: pregnant with the out of weaar lot with somebody who
Speaker 1: has children, dread? And I thought that was a really
Speaker 1: dynamic point. Now I understand why they got pregnant, because
Speaker 1: it was fucking sure right, sure makes sense. But my
Speaker 1: question is Red, maybe you could time in on it.
Speaker 1: Your first child's father, right, Rowland's dad, did he have
Speaker 1: a child before yours?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 1: You have children, Brett. Your child's father was his first kid?
Speaker 4: Yeah, it was his first kid.
Speaker 1: What about you?
Speaker 3: No, he had kids children?
Speaker 1: How many kids does he have now?
Speaker 4: At the time he had I want to say four children?
Speaker 3: Were they all with the same lady?
Speaker 4: It was two women?
Speaker 1: Okay? And how many kids does he have now? Sorry?
Speaker 4: He has seven?
Speaker 3: Seven with three women total or with greater than three total?
Speaker 1: Of its grander than three because she's.
Speaker 4: The third, I'm number three, and then he has one of.
Speaker 3: Okay, so four okay?
Speaker 1: And he made a good point, and I thought about that. Right,
Speaker 1: your second child, did he have kids before he did?
Speaker 1: So here's a question for you inside, right Red? What
Speaker 1: made you? Wait a minute? No, you marry him? Oh
Speaker 1: it's different. You were nineteen s that was your problem.
Speaker 4: I was at first I never wanted kids. I thought
Speaker 4: the world was a place and I should never have kids.
Speaker 4: And then I asked someone, I think when I got
Speaker 4: pregnant with my daughter, I was going through like this crazy,
Speaker 4: immercial emotional thing. And then I was already dating her father.
Speaker 4: He was off and on. So was he already was
Speaker 4: he like involved in his kids that he had, Like,
Speaker 4: oh yeah, and you guys were a chickens. When I
Speaker 4: was dating him, I would always see the girls and
Speaker 4: they were so beautiful and they were so sweet, and
Speaker 4: I didn't care about having kids, so I was just like,
Speaker 4: I don't know interacting with them, and then I just
Speaker 4: remember something happened. So this story is way long, but anyway,
Speaker 4: some storing.
Speaker 3: It up to the story as if you were a man.
Speaker 4: I was very emotional and I was wilding out, like
Speaker 4: I was doing all this crazy ass ship. And then
Speaker 4: my daughter's dad. He was somebody who never questioned me
Speaker 4: if I ever wanted to spend time with him. So
Speaker 4: I was just going through like emotional thing and then
Speaker 4: I wanted someone to be there. Yeah, so I called him.
Speaker 4: He's always like open arms. I just fucking went and
Speaker 4: then he was I want you to have my son,
Speaker 4: and I was just like, okay, So I had my
Speaker 4: daughter at twenty six, So he was just someone I
Speaker 4: was sporadically.
Speaker 3: He was a lover.
Speaker 4: Do you think that Okay? Seeing seeing that he had
Speaker 4: other kids and seeing how he interacted with them, did
Speaker 4: that mind did not I know, but that did that
Speaker 4: help you with their decision to have it? I get
Speaker 4: bregnant because how you saw how he was with me
Speaker 4: the kid. Yeah, because he was a good he was
Speaker 4: a nice, attentive father, Like he would have the kids
Speaker 4: all summer. He would give them anytime, and the kids
Speaker 4: were like so sweet and I just I love everything.
Speaker 4: So I was just like, they're like you whatever. So
Speaker 4: when I was going through like my little emotional thing
Speaker 4: and he was there for me, and then I was
Speaker 4: just like it was just one of those pivotal points
Speaker 4: in my life where I was like what is life?
Speaker 4: You know? I wanted to change, so my daughter helped me.
Speaker 3: Change.
Speaker 4: Yeah, right, but yeah, this is.
Speaker 1: What Yeah, okay, Kerry post to my back.
Speaker 4: No, it's it's it's all good. Yeah, you were you know,
Speaker 4: you were with him and you saw the potential of
Speaker 4: being the father like what he's doing soft. And my
Speaker 4: daughter she's tough because I've been saft, so I'm raising
Speaker 4: like a little muster so because I want her to
Speaker 4: not take no shit and not be easily manipulated or whatever.
Speaker 4: So I have to tell him, like you can talk
Speaker 4: to her about this or that, and he'll be like, okay,
Speaker 4: so what made y'all made you not be in a
Speaker 4: relationship with him or be married, like get want to
Speaker 4: be married to him or get married or selfishness. I
Speaker 4: think when I had my daughter, because his mom was
Speaker 4: so nice, like she bought me everything. She was like
Speaker 4: a mom I never had. So when I got breagnant,
Speaker 4: I was just like, I don't think I'm gonna have enough,
Speaker 4: said I don't think I remember me and her was
Speaker 4: on like a walk, and I was like, I don't
Speaker 4: think i'ma have enough love for him. I think I'll
Speaker 4: have enough for the baby. And then like he was
Speaker 4: trying like he changed, but.
Speaker 1: I was just like, no, but what you mean he changed?
Speaker 4: Like he he was very big in music, like just
Speaker 4: like but not bidding it anywhere. So when I had
Speaker 4: the baby, he was like trying to do everything to
Speaker 4: make me happy.
Speaker 1: And I was just what it mean changed though.
Speaker 4: Like work like he started because he was really like
Speaker 4: just doing this here and there like.
Speaker 1: So he wasn't so he wasn't.
Speaker 4: It wasn't that he wasn't providing because emotionally in everything
Speaker 4: he was there, like it wasn't about money. But he
Speaker 4: was very like I said, I think it was just
Speaker 4: me being like selfish, like not like only caring by
Speaker 4: myself and like, oh, I'm pregnant and I'm just gonna
Speaker 4: focus on the baby and me. But and then I
Speaker 4: was just like I didn't want it. It was kind
Speaker 4: of like doing fuck this shit, like how guys do,
Speaker 4: like when you give him some puzzy your neighborhood that shit.
Speaker 4: But I think that's because I know why my emotions
Speaker 4: wasn't there. But at the same time, it's like it
Speaker 4: seems like.
Speaker 1: Your only thing there was emotions. There was emotions.
Speaker 4: All I had was emotions, but for him, who were like, hey,
Speaker 4: let's try it. And I was just like and then
Speaker 4: something happened because I was gonna get a place with him.
Speaker 4: I remember, I.
Speaker 1: Just remember that you got to pull that mic closer.
Speaker 4: I wasn't gonna get a place with him.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, not you come up. Just sit back,
Speaker 1: sit back, lean back.
Speaker 4: She do it good, she up on the mic. But
Speaker 4: it was so I had gave in. I was like, okay,
Speaker 4: because every time I would just try to like talk
Speaker 4: to him, he would go in to like be together,
Speaker 4: when I was like, I'm just trying to you know whatever.
Speaker 1: You're just trying to after we have the kid.
Speaker 4: I was just trying to like try to slowly see
Speaker 4: what we could do. But because every time I give
Speaker 4: him little bit atention he will pressed me. I would
Speaker 4: just be like did you Sometimes he was just he
Speaker 4: was just that one that was just two nice so
Speaker 4: that you thought would always like be there. Is that
Speaker 4: what it was? I think? I think because my first
Speaker 4: pass and that's why even was like broke open to like,
Speaker 4: hey let's have a baby, because I was set on this.
Speaker 4: But then that happened, I was just like, oh, what
Speaker 4: you know? And then I just was like I don't know.
Speaker 4: And then he was always there. Though he was sweet,
Speaker 4: though he was.
Speaker 3: He was.
Speaker 4: Always friends and he got one that just keep going
Speaker 4: to jail.
Speaker 3: I think there was a flaw in your question. Question
Speaker 3: you you included the word thought mm hmm, and that
Speaker 3: probably was not accurately.
Speaker 1: He didn't think at all.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I didn't think about this. That was my
Speaker 4: whole point. You're just living in once you it's like
Speaker 4: we live nine lives. We lived so many lives in
Speaker 4: one so I lived my childhood and my mom. Then
Speaker 4: when I get outside, it was just like I felt
Speaker 4: like I didn't learn nothing. It's like when people go
Speaker 4: to college and they even learn shit. It was like
Speaker 4: I had to figure out me. Who am I? How
Speaker 4: do I feel? What do I think? Like, that's all
Speaker 4: I was experiencing. And here I am, you know, trying
Speaker 4: to figure out life, because I think that's just what
Speaker 4: it is.
Speaker 1: You spend the rest of your life trying to figure
Speaker 1: out life.
Speaker 4: Well, how do I not?
Speaker 1: You are? That's all we spent our lives.
Speaker 4: Yeah, Okay.
Speaker 1: The problem with it is you thought you had it
Speaker 1: figured out.
Speaker 4: I think I didn't. I think I didn't think about it.
Speaker 1: That's what Peter's saying. So it's like, and I think
Speaker 1: when we were talking earlier, you were saying that you know,
Speaker 1: you felt like your mom didn't explain things, but you
Speaker 1: can't explain things to kids, and you really like you
Speaker 1: can try. But sometimes it's like I disagree with a
Speaker 1: lot of modern parentywhere it's like, oh, I think I
Speaker 1: need to explain it all of my kids. No, sometimes
Speaker 1: your kids just need to be scared that it's gonna
Speaker 1: come with a fucked up consequence, and then later on
Speaker 1: they can figure out. Like when my father kept telling me,
Speaker 1: don't go down the street.
Speaker 4: It's different for us now because when I was a kid,
Speaker 4: my elders was like, get out my face, going your
Speaker 4: area with the kid. Yeah, right, And then we didn't
Speaker 4: have social media and all this stuff. Right, So when
Speaker 4: I'm asking my daughter and I think I'm communicating with her,
Speaker 4: I'm being open, like are you interested in this has
Speaker 4: just been presented to you? Where are you watching? Blah
Speaker 4: blah blah, No mommy, no mommy. Then you find some
Speaker 4: other She goes to my sister house, and my sister
Speaker 4: she got poky cause she finding all this stuff and
Speaker 4: issues like I don't want to tell stomach, I don't
Speaker 4: even remember me. I'm comparing her to me as a kid,
Speaker 4: and we living in two twenty three. So what I'm
Speaker 4: and what I'm I'm thinking, I'm asking you, I'm blah
Speaker 4: blah blah, and I'm thinking that you're you're being honest
Speaker 4: with me, but you you you're manipulating mommy for her
Speaker 4: her how she gets ain't tripping, so you know what
Speaker 4: I'm saying. So it's okay, mommy, Okay, my sister has
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, you're gonna get I wanted to beat
Speaker 4: the phone with a hammer but instead I was just like, Okay,
Speaker 4: I just like phone with the phone down. But it's
Speaker 4: like and then that's just how the world has us.
Speaker 4: I have to go to work, You're going to school,
Speaker 4: So whatever influence, mental influence, I'm at work. Then when
Speaker 4: I get off work, it's like, you want to pay mommy, mommy,
Speaker 4: and we talk a little bit, but I'm tired and
Speaker 4: I want to get ready to go to sleep so
Speaker 4: I can go to you know what life is this,
Speaker 4: That's what I'm just saying. So I'm not I'm taking responsibility.
Speaker 1: For the bullshit.
Speaker 4: But at the same time, it's like, fuck, this fucked up.
Speaker 4: What I gotta do to fix that shit? Like you
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. So that's just what it is.
Speaker 4: But it's all good. Yeah. Social media, Yeah, we didn't
Speaker 4: have that. We didn't have that, so they get to
Speaker 4: see all kinds of ship and make their own mind up.
Speaker 4: That that movie, Megan, I was like, that's kind of
Speaker 4: like the cell phone Innocence, you know, a little doll
Speaker 4: that gets with the girl. And she would she would
Speaker 4: never watch that, yes, but it's kind of like that
Speaker 4: that doll thing. Remember, I was like, they like it's
Speaker 4: like a demon that leeches to you.
Speaker 1: I don't I don't know.
Speaker 4: I don't watch stuff like yeah, that's why it's like
Speaker 4: she ain't gonna watch that. Yeah, But but I don't know.
Speaker 4: I'm just trying to figure out what we're all. Where
Speaker 4: are we all trying to figure out? So would you
Speaker 4: say like those things are influenced by what she's around,
Speaker 4: which or is it just really all so I blame myself?
Speaker 4: Why because I could be more? I don't know. It's
Speaker 4: just like when you have kids ahead of time, it's
Speaker 4: like you have to balanteer. It's not that much time
Speaker 4: in a day. It's like you're want to raise her.
Speaker 4: I'm still raising me and I'm not making great decisions.
Speaker 4: And then I'm in charge of a life. That's why
Speaker 4: I always say, like I want to, like you said,
Speaker 4: every day you're going to keep going through ship. The
Speaker 4: thing is you just got to keep push aboard like
Speaker 4: you need to try. Yeah, being single parent and being
Speaker 4: as you say young, I have my son at twenty four, Yeah,
Speaker 4: and I was still figuring out life. I hadn't had
Speaker 4: think you know, it wasn't when everything I should have whenever,
Speaker 4: But like you said, having him matured me because I
Speaker 4: wanted to dinner. I didn't even know how to drive before, Like,
Speaker 4: I didn't drive, I didn't care about I learned. I
Speaker 4: didn't like going with The main thing is not having
Speaker 4: children when you're not buried or with somebody like that.
Speaker 4: It's hard, period and thinking.
Speaker 1: And I think that's the point. That's why you have
Speaker 1: no business fucking.
Speaker 4: No, I agree, but you gotta remember, Gene. Now it's different.
Speaker 4: We're older, We've experienced a lot of stuff, so we
Speaker 4: can easily say that, but you know, younger, like everything is.
Speaker 1: It's ignoran Yeah, ignorance. Ignorance is not a thing, right.
Speaker 1: Ignorance is not like it's a lot of simple concepts
Speaker 1: right that that make all the sense in the world,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? You just like I was
Speaker 1: telling her, she was saying like her mom would tell
Speaker 1: her to do something, and she wanted her to explain, Well,
Speaker 1: how do you explain this life? Like, let's say you
Speaker 1: grounded his spirituality? Right, how do you explain this life?
Speaker 1: You know what, if you're fucking before you get married,
Speaker 1: most likely you can have a kid, then your kid
Speaker 1: grows up separately, then your struggle raising who the fuck
Speaker 1: can explain that? To somebody fifteen, I gotta ask a
Speaker 1: couple questions to the because you're a double servey, probably.
Speaker 3: Three would any of the three if you jump on
Speaker 3: off of a really really tall building.
Speaker 4: I wouldn't even go on a tall build I'm afraid
Speaker 4: I Oh for one.
Speaker 3: Oh for two, oh for three? All right? How did
Speaker 3: you come up with the idea that that would be
Speaker 3: bad of Hay?
Speaker 4: I hunged off the side of the buildings, but I
Speaker 4: didn't want to jump off of it because I don't
Speaker 4: know it would hurt.
Speaker 3: Sure, had you seen a person actually fall from a
Speaker 3: very tall building in land?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 1: Okay, are you.
Speaker 3: I actually did see that? Really close it?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 3: I'm fine as cool. But the point being, that's a
Speaker 3: negative outcome. You were told that, and you took it
Speaker 3: at face value without even seeing the negative outcome in
Speaker 3: real life, the other negative outcome we're talking about. You
Speaker 3: could see that negative outcome around your real life, and
Speaker 3: you still do it.
Speaker 1: And this is what Sonny's point was, and his point
Speaker 1: it was like, yo, like you see what's going on
Speaker 1: with generations of women before you. Most of us were
Speaker 1: raised by single parents, you know what I mean? Like
Speaker 1: from where we all come from?
Speaker 3: You.
Speaker 1: I mean like not maybe not us, but we were
Speaker 1: like my mom was in one house, my dad was
Speaker 1: in another house. Yeah, I mean that's just how it
Speaker 1: went right, so we know what it's like to be
Speaker 1: We saw single parents fight to raise kids. But then
Speaker 1: we followed.
Speaker 4: Sometimes it's different from what you're looking at and not.
Speaker 4: You could be looking at something you don't know what
Speaker 4: the fuck you're looking at. And then some people are
Speaker 4: different kind of learners. They're that visual like Okay, I
Speaker 4: was looking at this.
Speaker 3: I don't know what you managed to know not to
Speaker 3: jump off the building without jumping off or seeing another
Speaker 3: person jump off.
Speaker 4: What if you understand half of it but not the whole.
Speaker 3: What is this of the half that you do understand
Speaker 3: versus the half that you don't understand? What is it
Speaker 3: about the half that makes you not jump off the building?
Speaker 4: If I have a baby, I know I'll get wait right,
Speaker 4: but the part of the struggle is just.
Speaker 1: Like I was, and most likely and most likely it's
Speaker 1: going to be like so getting through it like.
Speaker 4: I got part of it's like because I'm doing okay.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well I think that's the problem how we define success.
Speaker 1: That's where it's different between where we're from in Newport
Speaker 1: Beach defining success of raising children. Sure like in Newport
Speaker 1: Beach raising children is different. It's the success is different.
Speaker 1: It's not getting through it.
Speaker 3: What it's not even that it's not even an issue.
Speaker 3: When you were in high school, what would you say?
Speaker 3: The response would be when you at home from getting
Speaker 3: a C in class or on a test, Pretty cool, chill, good, whatever,
Speaker 3: don't care.
Speaker 1: Yeah, if I got to see why men get sees,
Speaker 1: but if I got one set pretty much was nobody
Speaker 1: said no because I pretty was hurt. I was devastated.
Speaker 1: But I understand what you're saying.
Speaker 3: Yeah, the biggest thing in my high school was trying
Speaker 3: to guess the day the standard the product reports came
Speaker 3: out so you could steal them out of the mailbox
Speaker 3: running home, but out of the school from lunch to
Speaker 3: try to beat the mailman because your grands ain't home yet.
Speaker 3: Because if you got to see on a test, you're
Speaker 3: in rouble. You ain't getting shit. You ain't you ain't
Speaker 3: getting shit you were you were at the desk or
Speaker 3: at the school until the next one comes out in
Speaker 3: four weeks.
Speaker 4: Education was important in your Well, it's different, standard, but
Speaker 4: but do we think the standard exists.
Speaker 1: But do we think the standard exists because there's not
Speaker 1: as much concern about everything else. Like it's one thing, right,
Speaker 1: somebody parent, like let's say your parents or somebody in
Speaker 1: Newport's beach, right, their parents are concerned with the kids
Speaker 1: great because they live in Newport Beach, right, Which that's
Speaker 1: not to say much because they could be still checked
Speaker 1: to checking Newport. They're living in Newport Beach because they
Speaker 1: were concerned about the grade. That that's not no thousand
Speaker 1: percent true, No, that's one thousand percent.
Speaker 3: No, no, like some people or the door.
Speaker 1: No, some people know everybody that lives in Newport Beach
Speaker 1: did not get great grades as.
Speaker 3: It's not inherited in US bullshit, I know everybody down there.
Speaker 3: That is horseshit. Not all that money was inherited. That
Speaker 3: is horseshit.
Speaker 1: No, but it's it's not. It's not it's not it's
Speaker 1: not inherited money, right, it's not inherited money, right. But
Speaker 1: what it is also is money to help you get
Speaker 1: through things that come up. Because I don't give a
Speaker 1: fuck who it is. There's not a motherfuck on planet
Speaker 1: Earth that everybody's smart. I don't give a fuck, we
Speaker 1: talk about Beverly Hills, not Newport.
Speaker 3: Beach and nowhere it's it's it's not it's not simply
Speaker 3: that it's it is what you're willing to tolerate from
Speaker 3: deviation from the goal, whatever that is.
Speaker 1: I don't even think that's it though, because yeah, but
Speaker 1: even this standard, don't set it. You have to have
Speaker 1: the ability to literally help somebody get past the standard.
Speaker 1: Like let's say, if somebody is just having a learning
Speaker 1: issue that lives in Newport Beach. Literally, if you have
Speaker 1: the economics, you can hire a tutor.
Speaker 3: If you got to learn.
Speaker 4: So for me, so for me, me bringing home to
Speaker 4: see if that was that was okay in my in
Speaker 4: my household. But my children they grew up in Santa Clarita.
Speaker 4: There was no c's, there was b's and pretty much a's.
Speaker 4: And if that was that didn't happen, then it was
Speaker 4: it was a problem, very very different. You know, grades
Speaker 4: were all over three point zero, three point five, you know.
Speaker 4: But for me, I mean I had honors classes and things.
Speaker 4: But my mom, you know, it wasn't a big deal.
Speaker 4: If I gotta see, that was like okay, you know,
Speaker 4: you gotta see. I had two different like when I
Speaker 4: lived in Palm Springs with my grab haars, it was
Speaker 4: no games, ain't no seeds, Like, no, ain't no seeds.
Speaker 4: You need to be an honor roll everything. But when
Speaker 4: I moved and I came back and I was like
Speaker 4: in la or whatever. You know, my mom she was
Speaker 4: just like, you know, I just want you. She was
Speaker 4: cool to see, but I still like, I was like,
Speaker 4: g like I felt because I was getting a's and stuff.
Speaker 4: If I got like below A B or something, I'm like,
Speaker 4: what the fuck? Am I?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 4: Oh? Oh, I felt bad?
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Speaker 1: And I think, Pete, that's what I'm saying, like there
Speaker 1: is a confusion outside of where we grow up at
Speaker 1: that genuinely believes it's a set of standards, that that's
Speaker 1: the limitation, but it's not. Do I think a set
Speaker 1: of standards would help possibly, I think it can help
Speaker 1: maybe five percent of people, but most people right are
Speaker 1: struggling because you just don't come up in an environment
Speaker 1: that makes learning the sole responsibility. It's just and I
Speaker 1: know it sounds crazy because I don't want to talk
Speaker 1: about wats or counting like his fucking TJ like it's Tijuana,
Speaker 1: but like a lot like honestly, one of my home
Speaker 1: boys was raised by their grandparents. Why was that his
Speaker 1: mom was on drugs?
Speaker 3: Okay, so her mom, his mom had no standards.
Speaker 1: First, that's that's tricky. I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: tell you the issue. A lot of people parents tried cocaine.
Speaker 1: Some people parents got stuck. So no nobody like our parents' age,
Speaker 1: they was some party motherfuckers like we was. Even the
Speaker 1: most probably conservative ones tried drinking, tried alcohol, Right, they
Speaker 1: tried something, and how it affects you or why you're
Speaker 1: trying it is different. I always had this joke full, look,
Speaker 1: white people try drugs for fun. Black people, like where
Speaker 1: I'm from, not not all you know, because this is
Speaker 1: black people, but black people from the ghetto tried drugs
Speaker 1: for relief.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: So the purpose, like I was telling Sonny in its inception,
Speaker 1: is different going into it. Like, so, I think I
Speaker 1: agree with you in a sense that standard matter to
Speaker 1: a smaller demographics. But when you don't have the sheer
Speaker 1: resources to make better decisions, you probably won't.
Speaker 4: And that drug, when that drug gets a hold of you,
Speaker 4: that yeah, right, was No, it's.
Speaker 3: Still an emotional decision to deviate into a into a
Speaker 3: bad behavioral.
Speaker 1: Action, not even not even disagreeing with you. But again,
Speaker 1: that's where systemic oppression, a lack of opportunity, rejection all
Speaker 1: set in. Like it's only so much one. That's why
Speaker 1: white people, when they they be millionaire, they get two
Speaker 1: hundred thousand, they jump off a fucking cliff, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Like, and obviously this is not the
Speaker 1: mass idea, but whatch motherfucker gonna move from Newport if
Speaker 1: shit don't work out, something goes wrong, right the Jim
Speaker 1: Carrey Moviema No, uh, you know I'm talking about Uh,
Speaker 1: it's been a lot of boys. Yeah know. When he
Speaker 1: was selling, he was a part of the company and
Speaker 1: they moved him up. His name was Dick. Fun with
Speaker 1: Dick and Jane never saw it. Sure, Okay, you gotta
Speaker 1: watch Fun with Dick and Jane. Bro It's great because
Speaker 1: they was robbing liquor stores this shit because they so
Speaker 1: like he worked for a company that's like Enron. They
Speaker 1: had the company with belly up. They started taking all
Speaker 1: the Benzes and the BMW. They're finna take the house.
Speaker 1: This motherfucker just lost his mind and they start robbing banks.
Speaker 1: That's consistent in any motherfucking body that don't have the
Speaker 1: right assistant. Either you're gonna jump off a building or
Speaker 1: you're gonna rob banks. That's it don't matter. Listen, it's
Speaker 1: the same thing where where right in Watson Compton. The
Speaker 1: same thing is happening in East LA. Same thing is
Speaker 1: happening in Boston. You know those Rocksbury, all of them
Speaker 1: crazy areas where the Irish people are or the Italian
Speaker 1: people are same. Shit is in all poor places that
Speaker 1: are disenfranchised without resources and opportunity. So I agree, And
Speaker 1: you and Sonny you had the same position, right, because
Speaker 1: y'all both taught you know. He's like, well, if you
Speaker 1: meet a man like Siah, right, and he has a
Speaker 1: kid or three kids and he's not with the mother,
Speaker 1: maybe this is not the person to get pregnant by.
Speaker 1: That's a decision you can make when you're not looking
Speaker 1: for love, like in her situation where she went through
Speaker 1: whatever trauma with her parent that she took in hell
Speaker 1: like that. So the first motherfucker that put any press
Speaker 1: that she can look at as love, she gravitated. TOHI
Speaker 1: minus no matter this situation. And I agree it is emotion,
Speaker 1: but you don't have anything else like. It's very rare
Speaker 1: though for people like me. I've maintained my logic being
Speaker 1: a crypt the whole time. Even when I did shit
Speaker 1: to other people, I can figure out why it made sense.
Speaker 1: Even when I wrote the law, right, I knew.
Speaker 5: I got why it may This is a context disclaimer
Speaker 5: message right here, yo.
Speaker 1: Is entertain No, I got why it made sense. Like
Speaker 1: I'm like you, I didn't do it because of emotions.
Speaker 1: I logically processed why selling drugs made sense. Obviously I
Speaker 1: was ignorant to addiction, right, I didn't understand the diction.
Speaker 1: I never drank, I never smoked. I don't know, Mamber
Speaker 1: if I no fucking addiction. My parents ain't on drugs,
Speaker 1: you know. I mean I could see other people, but
Speaker 1: I thought motherfuckers like being homeless pushing baskets. I know
Speaker 1: that sounds crazy because you get what I'm saying. That's
Speaker 1: the ignorance of a kid. Sure fun and that's what
Speaker 1: I'm telling sign Like, like, my parents couldn't explain to
Speaker 1: me why I shouldn't be selling drugs. I don't give
Speaker 1: a fuck what they said. First off, going to jail
Speaker 1: is not nothing.
Speaker 4: It's a maturity level to be able to explain something.
Speaker 1: It's not even it's even maturation because the kid don't
Speaker 1: have the maturation to get it.
Speaker 4: I feel like I was. I felt honestly, I felt
Speaker 4: like I was smarter than that.
Speaker 1: You wasn't, I did.
Speaker 4: I ain't gonna lie. I felt like she was making
Speaker 4: decisions that were putting the family in jeopardy and making
Speaker 4: them very unhappy and making them have to suffer. That's
Speaker 4: what I felt like she was doing but that's come
Speaker 4: to her and try to talk to her normal express myself.
Speaker 4: I was silenced. So that ship was just like, well, because.
Speaker 1: What the fuck makes you think you know about any
Speaker 1: fucking thing when you can't take care of your funky ass?
Speaker 4: May I not have a conversation in peace with you
Speaker 4: about how I am feeling without you wanting to whoop
Speaker 4: my ass?
Speaker 1: Are you talking about my mother fucking business when you
Speaker 1: feel about my business? Yes, st stupid ass back that
Speaker 1: you can't watch your own asks.
Speaker 4: To just asks, you can't talk in question like not
Speaker 4: with an attitude. It's difference with your daughters is like
Speaker 4: really trying to come against you and challenge you because
Speaker 4: she disagrees with what you're saying. But if they want
Speaker 4: to see with you and have a conversation to understand
Speaker 4: what you're saying, I don't see anything wrong with it.
Speaker 4: It's a difference. It's a respect, Like if you'd be
Speaker 4: like little girl, I'm not you know, because we have
Speaker 4: attitude that's just natural. But if it's if they come
Speaker 4: to you with like some humility to have a conversation
Speaker 4: to understand, because that's our job to teach them because
Speaker 4: guess what, they're coming up after us, and they're going
Speaker 4: to be introduced to the same thing at a certain age.
Speaker 4: It's your choice, they are not. Why wouldn't I want
Speaker 4: to put her in a position to win here here,
Speaker 4: That's what I feel about it. And I felt like
Speaker 4: I was denied that. So yeah, I felt like I
Speaker 4: was smarter than her and I had to fucking It's
Speaker 4: just like when you come to Earth, you come and
Speaker 4: you get you come pure, but you get fucking and
Speaker 4: you get corrupted because the earth is the Earth is
Speaker 4: upside down, so you.
Speaker 1: Get I don't know, I think your spirit you just
Speaker 1: had a challenging spirit and.
Speaker 4: A challenging spirit, yes, because it's just like when you're
Speaker 4: beat into your head that evil was a person because
Speaker 4: you ate the apple because of fucking fucking the tree
Speaker 4: of good and evil. It's for us to know good
Speaker 4: and evil. But if you choose to do evil and
Speaker 4: you know the fucking consequences.
Speaker 1: The whole point is God said do not eat from
Speaker 1: the fucking This is the problem.
Speaker 4: People think that the God is one god. It says,
Speaker 4: let us make them in our image.
Speaker 1: When they said, I feel like Chris, hold on, hold on, hold, on,
Speaker 1: hold on, get into me on, hold on, hold on,
Speaker 1: hold on. Nothing is the saying ship that's gonna fuck
Speaker 1: you up?
Speaker 4: And everybody plays on people hold on.
Speaker 1: And this is why Pete is saying, you need to
Speaker 1: stop fucking feeling. No, no, you need to stop feeling
Speaker 1: because your feelings are fucked up. And I don't mean fun.
Speaker 1: Just listen, just listen.
Speaker 4: People manipulate people, and they like.
Speaker 1: Why the fu?
Speaker 3: You can't all right? If you're making hold a hold on,
Speaker 3: hold on. If you are, you can have a space.
Speaker 3: If you are making a decision based off of real reality,
Speaker 3: on a fixed standard with no feelings in it, then
Speaker 3: you can't fake. You can't think the universe around you.
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? You can only you can
Speaker 3: only fake what you tell a person.
Speaker 4: The universe is. And that's what I feel like. People do.
Speaker 4: They lie to fit you into their picture of what they.
Speaker 3: Want for this, to stop feeling, to manipulate your feelings.
Speaker 3: They can't lie to.
Speaker 1: Maniplicate, they can. You listen, side, The only way you
Speaker 1: can learn is listening. And this is what your mama
Speaker 1: was talking about me. Quiet, stop relying. First off, if
Speaker 1: God said I don't give a fuck, if one of
Speaker 1: let us create men, and Miami said, do not eat
Speaker 1: off the tree of life. Nobody owes you a fucking explanation. See,
Speaker 1: that's that spirit of disobedient that's in you, where it's
Speaker 1: like I need to know why, No, you fucking don't.
Speaker 1: That's the problem. You're like one of those people that's
Speaker 1: gonna go out there and learn. Every time I.
Speaker 4: Ask questions and then people be like, it's like when
Speaker 4: you go to college and they're like, anthropology says that
Speaker 4: we started up in trees with tells, and then the
Speaker 4: trees ran out of food, so we end up on ground.
Speaker 4: I asked a question like, why would we start up
Speaker 4: if we came from the earth, why would we start
Speaker 4: on the ground? And no answer. Just the book says this, right,
Speaker 4: but it doesn't make sense right because you can't think
Speaker 4: for yourself. And that's just I just feel like they
Speaker 4: just try to stuff us into this society that makes
Speaker 4: no sense.
Speaker 1: That's because you really feel like people you're doing entirely too.
Speaker 1: I know they wouldn't, do you think. Listen, you remind
Speaker 1: me of one of my own girls. I had the
Speaker 1: same conversation. You motherfuckers live in the world that genuinely
Speaker 1: believes humans are good innately right, And the thing is
Speaker 1: what's good in nately or what's natural is humans fucking
Speaker 1: each other up? That's natural since it's been two right.
Speaker 1: If you if you, if you model society off the nature,
Speaker 1: there would be no overpopulation.
Speaker 4: That's what I cry about every day, people dying, sex trafficking.
Speaker 1: Why are you crying that people are dying because.
Speaker 4: People don't know that we're all one. How's the world
Speaker 4: going to be a better place for ourselves and our children?
Speaker 4: And if they're the possibility that when they go outside
Speaker 4: they're gonna be shot.
Speaker 1: Everybody dies, that's natural.
Speaker 4: Yes, we may not natural natural, but the way you die,
Speaker 4: that's a Bushit just.
Speaker 1: Who that's how you feel about it.
Speaker 4: Yes, dying is natural, but if you dying early for late, that's.
Speaker 2: Not what it is.
Speaker 1: What's late? What's late? What's late dying? What's early or
Speaker 1: late dying?
Speaker 4: How long are you saying?
Speaker 1: How long? How long are you supposed to? How long
Speaker 1: are you supposed to live?
Speaker 4: She's saying the way that I'm feeling dying and then
Speaker 4: amable is natural. But the way and way violently.
Speaker 1: Most people don't get shot. You are very rarely, motherfucker you.
Speaker 1: But you're missing the point.
Speaker 3: She's obsessed with defining the rule by the exception. Every
Speaker 3: time we talk about anything, it's but what if and
Speaker 3: what about in this very narrow.
Speaker 4: Occurrence, Know, y'all, narrow I have. They're the variety of what.
Speaker 3: I say narrow, I mean in percentage of occurrence. Okay,
Speaker 3: I don't mean it didn't like.
Speaker 4: You need another bottle of water.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's the point side of the point that we're saying.
Speaker 1: The point that was I got you double please, that's
Speaker 1: because you're crazy. But right there, yeah, it's at the top.
Speaker 1: We got to give her a lot more water. At
Speaker 1: least one she is. She is crazy. But look, the
Speaker 1: problem is SI is like sometimes it's just better for
Speaker 1: you to follow directions and see, like I.
Speaker 4: Feel like I've been listening and following people. Actually you.
Speaker 1: Actually have never followed directions.
Speaker 4: Shut up and just okay, fine.
Speaker 1: No, but but honestly, you've never followed directions.
Speaker 4: I must have never. I think you're right. I don't listen.
Speaker 1: And that's really the truth. So you learn everything the
Speaker 1: hard way.
Speaker 3: You really only listened one time. It was to that
Speaker 3: one guy, the guy you had the kid with you
Speaker 3: haven't listened before, during or before or since then, And.
Speaker 1: You probably didn't listen him because he was like, yo,
Speaker 1: let's be togain. He's like, now I'm cool.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we need to bring him in here, and we
Speaker 3: need to get his sided.
Speaker 4: It's a weird experience being on earth, and I just
Speaker 4: feel like I don't belong heres side. I'm like, this
Speaker 4: ain't my place, Like this is it?
Speaker 1: It's not, it's not. It's not because of that. It's
Speaker 1: because you spend so much time feeling. Yeah, but I
Speaker 1: think that's also because you spend entirely too much time
Speaker 1: in your feelings.
Speaker 4: I spent a lot of time in my feelings love
Speaker 4: a lot of times in my head and yeah, I
Speaker 4: need to stop that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And it's like that's just ridiculous.
Speaker 4: So what can you help me?
Speaker 1: Yes, I'm telling you following directions, you need to start
Speaker 1: to simplify things and justplify your life and simplify your
Speaker 1: worldview and go all right, well, is this going to
Speaker 1: be better or worse? And it is? You're married to.
Speaker 4: Life, married to life, okay, like you have to like
Speaker 4: better worse?
Speaker 1: Like this is the thing about spirituality, right, and you
Speaker 1: was just really hard on Christianity, and I understand because
Speaker 1: that's a common.
Speaker 4: Thing, was christian I just feel like Christianity is not it.
Speaker 4: Only I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I'm asking you, you said Christianity had a bunch of
Speaker 1: negative things? What Christianity were You're just said a bunch
Speaker 1: of bullshit to say about it.
Speaker 4: They're lying about.
Speaker 1: I'm asking you what's wrong with Christianity that they tell you.
Speaker 4: The thing that I think is wrong with that is
Speaker 4: the only book when it's a multiple but.
Speaker 1: Minus that, what's wrong with that? The instructions they're giving the.
Speaker 4: Pages that God is a jealous God. That's the only
Speaker 4: thing I have a problem with, because I feel like
Speaker 4: God is that's Jealousy is a nasty trait. So I
Speaker 4: feel like they say that because in order for you
Speaker 4: to be jealous, they say, jealousy is also as cruel
Speaker 4: as the grave, and jealousy can cause you to do
Speaker 4: some very discussing things to people that you're supposed to love.
Speaker 4: So I want that That's the only thing I just
Speaker 4: really that good at the top of my head.
Speaker 1: That is because of how you feel about the time jealousy.
Speaker 4: Jealousy is not a trait that anybody should have. If
Speaker 4: you shouldn't have it.
Speaker 1: Why does person? What are you talking about?
Speaker 5: Why?
Speaker 4: Who I don't I have it?
Speaker 3: I guarantee you, we could put you in the right
Speaker 3: position and you will find that you have jealousy inside
Speaker 3: of you.
Speaker 4: If there's a thin line between jealousy and averma afromation.
Speaker 4: Jealousy doesn't mean that you're gonna do something do. It
Speaker 4: doesn't mean I like that though.
Speaker 1: It's not about how you but it's not about it's.
Speaker 4: Not about it's about the choices that you made. Yes,
Speaker 4: if you're jealous, but you don't act off of it's
Speaker 4: kind of like anger if you're angry and don't act
Speaker 4: off Yes, So jealousy is.
Speaker 3: About I say it's okay, it exists acknowledged.
Speaker 4: No, I know it exists. I know it exists inside
Speaker 4: of you, and and then that's the point on from
Speaker 4: there and that's it. But when you realize that and
Speaker 4: you say, like, I'm not going to act on it,
Speaker 4: then you that's the point where you go inside and
Speaker 4: try to evaluate why are you feeling that and get
Speaker 4: rid of it. Right, you want to continue to go
Speaker 4: on and have jealousy.
Speaker 1: You're going to have jealousy to the day you die. Right,
Speaker 1: that's a natural human thing, right you people, just comparison
Speaker 1: is the thief of joy.
Speaker 3: This is an interesting small illustration of kind of like
Speaker 3: the female experience as I can observe it from time
Speaker 3: to time. It really is. There's an awful lot of
Speaker 3: But this is why I wish reality was and not.
Speaker 3: But this is what reality is.
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