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Speaker 1: Hello, listeners of the Therapy Gecko podcast. Welcome. My name

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Speaker 1: is Lyle. I'm a gecko human guy thing person. I'm

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Speaker 1: a man. I'm in a gecko suit. It's really hot.

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Speaker 1: I'm in a park in New York City. There's a

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Speaker 1: lot of people around this park, and I want to

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Speaker 1: talk to them. I want to get lost in conversation.

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Speaker 1: I need to exit my own brain. I need to

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Speaker 1: be in life. I need to be I'm attempting to

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Speaker 1: get into the flow state today by talking to people

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Speaker 1: about their lives. So this is going to be a

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Speaker 1: no phone call episode. It's going to be an in

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Speaker 1: real life episode for those who are unfamiliar. Real life

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Speaker 1: is that when you have a conversation with someone and

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Speaker 1: there's no technology involved in the interface between the two people.

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Speaker 1: Direct from one person's mouth into my ear, my mouth

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Speaker 1: into their ear, and then yes, through technology into your ears.

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Speaker 1: So we're in Washington Square Park, New York City. That's it.

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Speaker 1: That's all I have to say. Let's talk to some people. Hey,

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Speaker 1: what's up, man, what's going on? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Archie?

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Speaker 1: Archie. Nice to meet you, Archie. That's your day going.

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Speaker 1: Things are good? Things are good, very nice. Why are

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Speaker 1: things good?

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 4: I think things have are very stable, things are serene,

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Speaker 4: things are predictable, things are easy.

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Speaker 1: Have they always been that way?

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Speaker 5: No?

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Speaker 1: I'm so please please hit me, so things are hold on.

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Speaker 1: I just want to recount they were there, stable, serene,

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Speaker 1: and predictable, and they were not always this way.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, well I think I guess what do I

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Speaker 4: think there's several reasons why they haven't always been this way.

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Speaker 4: First off, I'm just entering a point in my life where,

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Speaker 4: you know, I have like a job that's like a

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Speaker 4: career job, so I'm like working on that great and

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Speaker 4: like showing up to work every like showing up to

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Speaker 4: work and just sort of being a worker and enjoying

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Speaker 4: that part of life. I also think that, like, you know,

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Speaker 4: so that's like I guess the like everyone gets to

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Speaker 4: a point in their life where like stuff gets predictable

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Speaker 4: in that way. Sure, but you know my life used

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Speaker 4: to be I'm someone who is like so prone to chaos. Yeah,

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Speaker 4: Like I love working in the gig economy. I love

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Speaker 4: I love living a life where it's like I could

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Speaker 4: go from like very high highs to like deep cavernous crashes.

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Speaker 4: So sort of not being on that for like kind

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Speaker 4: of the first time in my life feels pretty wonderful.

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Speaker 1: Interesting, And uh, what how did that change?

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Speaker 2: How did that change?

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Speaker 1: Like did you just gotta you just got a job

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Speaker 1: that's more predictable?

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Speaker 4: Well, I think, okay, So there's like I I got

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Speaker 4: sober four years ago, So I guess that was like

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Speaker 4: one of the first things that like sort of was

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Speaker 4: like a bid to make my life more stable.

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Speaker 1: What it inspired you to get sober?

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Speaker 5: Uh?

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Speaker 4: Mainly because I was gonna die. Yeah, I was like

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Speaker 4: pretty sure I was gonna die, either from drugs or

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Speaker 2: Yeah, something like that.

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Speaker 1: Can I ask what drugs? You were addicted to a whole.

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Speaker 4: Lot of things most most of everything, uh, but primarily

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Speaker 4: like and means, uh, loved ketamine, loved drinking, Yeah, love

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Speaker 1: What were you and you're now you're you're gone from

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Speaker 1: all those you don't smoke, you don't drink, you know,

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Speaker 1: And were you like trying to get away from something?

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Speaker 4: I think I well, I mean getting away from myself.

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Speaker 4: My friend actually sent me something recently that's like the addict,

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Speaker 4: Like the addict lives away from oneself. Yeah, so I

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Speaker 4: was completely empty internally, because my entire life has just

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Speaker 4: it's like being inside of myself.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I said some There was a kid

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: And then I was like, does that ever happen to you?

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Speaker 1: And he was like nah, he walked away, and I

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Speaker 1: and then you want to try to make what's the

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Speaker 1: what's the process for you been like off trying to

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Speaker 4: I think, you know, it's I think part of it's

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Speaker 4: do I really like what makes me whole? What are

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Speaker 4: like feel complete and for me that's like I'm an extrovert.

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Speaker 4: I love being around people. I charge around people. So

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Speaker 4: I think that's one thing that I like try my

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Speaker 4: they're just some things in my life that just make

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Speaker 4: me happy. And if I can like do those with

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Speaker 1: What are those things?

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Speaker 4: Let's see, I'm a professional yoyaer, so yeah, it's my

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Speaker 4: favorite thing in the world. I love to yo yo,

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Speaker 4: I love yoyo wing. And that's just something that like

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Speaker 4: sort of in a very uncontroversial, easy way makes me happy.

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Speaker 4: I play a lot of magic gathering, started getting back

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Speaker 4: hyper fixation, Like all of those things like make me

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Speaker 4: happy in a very just like easy way, and they

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Speaker 4: also all involve community and like the sort of larger

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, oh I love that. I love that so much.

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Speaker 1: So was it hard getting sober? Uh?

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Speaker 4: I think the uh getting sober was hard. Staying sober

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Speaker 4: a lot of maintenance. And it's a lot of things

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Speaker 4: It's just things that I'm not always like super inclined

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Speaker 1: Like what.

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Speaker 4: Without getting too into the details of what I do,

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Speaker 4: I think, you know, like there's a lot of things like, uh,

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Speaker 2: I do appreciate.

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Speaker 4: I have to, like, you know, keep in touch with

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Speaker 4: something I'm not always like inclined to do. If things

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Speaker 4: work as like a mental health and substance abuse counselor so,

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Speaker 4: like I'm around early early addiction all the time, and

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Speaker 4: the fact that I suffer from the exact same problems.

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Speaker 4: I'm just several years separated from those problems. Yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 4: can I ask how old you are?

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Speaker 2: I'm twenty three years old.

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Speaker 1: Cool, and so you got sober when you were in nineteen.

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Speaker 2: I got sober when I was nineteen, and.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so you were mainly like in your addiction phase

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Speaker 1: when you were like a kid.

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Speaker 4: No, I started using when I was like thirteen fourteen,

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Speaker 4: and then things got bad around sixteen. And you know,

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Speaker 4: obviously makes sense that I'd like, you know, like this

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Speaker 1: And so what's your what's kind of your dreams for

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Speaker 4: What are my dreams for the future. Well, there's like

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Speaker 4: I don't know what my life's going to be. I

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Speaker 4: I've completely bought out of I've fired myself as like

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Speaker 4: the arbiter of my own future. Sure, I just want

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Speaker 4: to do that most effectively. I would like to continue

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Speaker 4: doing that. But I also would like to make finals

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Speaker 4: more like that's a more physical dream that we can

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so great, do you have like a like can

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Speaker 1: people follow you if they want to see your yo yo?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: They can.

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Speaker 4: My instagram is a finite wizard, so like a wizard

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Speaker 4: with limited capabilities.

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Speaker 1: The finite wizard.

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Speaker 4: Finite wizard. Yeah, not that, but just finite finite wizard,

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Speaker 1: And how did you get into yo yo ing? I

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Speaker 4: Yeah, okay. I got into yo ing when I was

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Speaker 4: twelve years old. I my little brother like got one,

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Speaker 4: and I like picked it up and I was like, oh,

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Speaker 4: on YouTube and I saw this yoyo er named Andrew Mader,

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Speaker 4: in the year twenty fifteen. And I saw a video

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Speaker 4: something clicked to my head where it's like, if I

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Speaker 4: can do this, if I can do what he's doing,

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Speaker 4: I'm gonna like, I'm gonna be so happy with myself.

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Speaker 4: I'm gonna feel so whole with who I am as

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Speaker 4: a person. And something about just the hobby made so

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Speaker 4: much sense to me.

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Speaker 1: Now, what do you think about I have you ever

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Speaker 1: seen the yo yo ball?

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Speaker 2: The yo yo ball?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: How what do you feel about?

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Speaker 3: Yoyo ball?

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Speaker 2: Is bullshit? Fake ass?

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Speaker 4: Yo yo, fake ass yo yo, get a real yo yo,

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Speaker 1: Very nice Caleb. How do you guys know each other?

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Speaker 4: Me and Caleb met on a modeling set three years ago. Yeah, okay,

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Speaker 4: it's been a really nice talking to you, really nice

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Speaker 4: talking to you. It is your name again, Archie.

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Speaker 1: Archie, Archie. You've You've inspired me today.

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Speaker 2: Thank you very much.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate I'm inspired by the positive outlook you have

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Speaker 2: I appreciate it. Man, Thank you very much for anything else.

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Speaker 1: Do you want to say to the people of the

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Speaker 4: Let's see, Uh, you know, like today's beautiful day, every

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Speaker 4: so much.

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Speaker 1: Chie'll see you around the universe.

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Speaker 2: I see around the universe, dude, Thank you.

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Speaker 1: Bye, Acchie. That was a good conversation. I enjoyed. Uh.

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Speaker 1: I enjoyed talking to him. I don't know if we're

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Speaker 1: on keeping on. Oh Hey, what's your name, man, James, James.

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Speaker 1: Nice to meet you. What's up? James? Has life going?

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Speaker 1: It's going well? Actually, yeah, tell me? Why tell me more.

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Speaker 6: I went out last night in Brooklyn.

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Speaker 3: It was fine.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, what did you get? Totally totally wasting. I was

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Speaker 6: Yeah, we're filming a video for this dude's music.

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Speaker 1: Wait you're oh, you're filming a video for which guy?

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Speaker 3: This is Jack?

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Speaker 8: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 1: This guy?

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Speaker 2: Oh?

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Speaker 1: What kind of music does he make?

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Speaker 1: And you want to tell you want to talk about

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Speaker 1: your music? You said, think justin Timberlake and Perell. Okay,

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Speaker 1: what and so how do you know this guy through him? Okay,

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Speaker 1: my favorite. Just hold the mic.

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Speaker 6: He's my childhood best friend.

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Speaker 1: Oh okay.

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Speaker 6: These are his friends from college. And I know was

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Speaker 9: See this music video.

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Speaker 1: So what's the video about.

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Speaker 6: It's gonna be for his song. It's gonna be promoting

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Speaker 6: for a song.

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Speaker 1: Oh okay, okay, Jack, do you want to come talk? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: have a have a talk. Come, I have a seat,

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Speaker 1: we'll have the we'll have the We'll love the man himself.

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Speaker 6: Talk.

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Speaker 1: Nice to meet you, sir.

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Speaker 6: Yo.

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Speaker 3: What's up?

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Speaker 10: Man?

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Speaker 1: What's your name?

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Speaker 6: My name is Jack?

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Speaker 3: Jack.

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Speaker 1: Nice to meet Oh Jack, youman favorite? Just hold the mic.

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Speaker 1: Out of there we go. What's up? Jack has life?

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Speaker 1: So you got a whole, You got a whole You're

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Speaker 6: Man, we gotta we kind of put it team together.

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Speaker 1: Yeah what so who's who all is in the team?

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Speaker 1: Who are these guys?

448
00:19:03,000 --> 00:19:03,520
Speaker 3: Uh?

449
00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:07,159
Speaker 6: You know, I'll make music. He makes it with me

450
00:19:07,359 --> 00:19:10,240
Speaker 6: as Zan Jake. So I like social media kind of

451
00:19:10,280 --> 00:19:14,000
Speaker 6: head guy Rocco's photography and co director.

452
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Speaker 1: You got a social media guy, You got a you

453
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Speaker 1: got a Roco on the team.

454
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Speaker 6: Yeah, it's on me a long time to find somebody

455
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Speaker 6: named Roco.

456
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Speaker 1: But how did you build this whole entourage?

457
00:19:24,080 --> 00:19:26,320
Speaker 6: Fell together? Okay, I guess I don't know.

458
00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:28,200
Speaker 1: And how long have you been making music?

459
00:19:28,240 --> 00:19:28,320
Speaker 5: For?

460
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Speaker 6: As long as I can remember? Probably started it around

461
00:19:32,040 --> 00:19:32,879
Speaker 6: like twelve thirteen.

462
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Speaker 1: Very nice, very nice? And how's how's the lifestyle?

463
00:19:37,240 --> 00:19:39,399
Speaker 6: I'm exhausted. I live in Philly and I commute to

464
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Speaker 6: New York every day.

465
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Speaker 1: Oh really, wait, why do you commute to New York

466
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Speaker 1: every day?

467
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Speaker 2: I worked?

468
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Speaker 6: I worked the studio job for a long time. Okay,

469
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Speaker 6: got a second job. I teach music in Brooklyn.

470
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Speaker 1: Now, oh so nice.

471
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Speaker 6: So now I'm moving up here in about eight days.

472
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Speaker 1: Philly is a great city.

473
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Speaker 5: Man.

474
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Speaker 1: He used to live in Philly. You used to live

475
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Speaker 1: in Philly, Philly. I used to live in North Philly.

476
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Speaker 1: I went to college at Temple University.

477
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Speaker 6: Oh damn. We went to Drexel.

478
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Speaker 1: Yeah, oh you went to Drexel. Okay, so you're in

479
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Speaker 1: there more than Debt, dude. Drexel is so expensive. It's

480
00:20:08,280 --> 00:20:10,000
Speaker 1: more expensive than like the IVY leagues.

481
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Speaker 6: It's crazy. And my program director is still talking about

482
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Speaker 6: budget cuts to me.

483
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Speaker 1: But so what is this video about today?

484
00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:19,240
Speaker 6: Colors, bright colors, outside.

485
00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:20,640
Speaker 8: Fun?

486
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Speaker 1: What what inspires your music?

487
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Speaker 6: I just like dancing, and I feel like people don't

488
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Speaker 6: play the kind of music that I like dancing to.

489
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Speaker 6: And it feels like we kind of used to have

490
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Speaker 6: a different vibe going on. A lot of people are

491
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Speaker 6: trying to bring back what's going on with like you know,

492
00:20:37,480 --> 00:20:41,160
Speaker 6: early two thousands hip hop R and B Phurrel Neptune's

493
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Speaker 6: kind of production, and that's the same thing we're doing.

494
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Speaker 1: Okay, So you're trying to make So you're making the

495
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Speaker 1: kind of music that I danced to at my bar

496
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Speaker 1: mitzvah kind of a thing.

497
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Speaker 6: That you know what, I'm gonna go with that?

498
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Speaker 1: I like, well, no, you know what I mean, Like

499
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Speaker 1: like like I got a feeling like you're doing that.

500
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Speaker 6: I don't know less will I am or uh usher

501
00:21:03,760 --> 00:21:06,800
Speaker 6: all right, justin Timberlake, Okay, I don't know something like that.

502
00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:09,480
Speaker 1: So why why were you commuting for so long instead

503
00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:09,960
Speaker 1: of just moving?

504
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Speaker 3: Uh?

505
00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:14,359
Speaker 6: Because my rent was about to triple just for moving here.

506
00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:16,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, unfortunately, but you got all these guys. You're not

507
00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:17,720
Speaker 1: living with these guys.

508
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Speaker 6: Oh, they're they're all aside from the Rocco unit, they're

509
00:21:21,520 --> 00:21:23,879
Speaker 6: all from Philly, so that we're moving. They all came

510
00:21:23,960 --> 00:21:24,800
Speaker 6: up on the train this morning.

511
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Speaker 1: Couldn't you guys all? I feel like, can't you guys

512
00:21:26,760 --> 00:21:29,640
Speaker 1: all just get one like giant ass place and each

513
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Speaker 1: pay like seven hundred or something.

514
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Speaker 6: You know, I'm trying to work them into it. They

515
00:21:34,119 --> 00:21:35,680
Speaker 6: keep trying to tellbody they want to finish their degree.

516
00:21:35,760 --> 00:21:38,280
Speaker 1: But man, are you guys? You guys should drop out

517
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Speaker 1: dream you're only young ones.

518
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Speaker 6: I'm trying to say, yeah, he graduated though, so I

519
00:21:42,119 --> 00:21:45,639
Speaker 6: can't talk okay, And are you the only What are

520
00:21:45,680 --> 00:21:46,800
Speaker 6: your contemporaries doing?

521
00:21:46,840 --> 00:21:47,920
Speaker 1: What are your what are you peers doing?

522
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Speaker 6: What are my peers doing?

523
00:21:49,119 --> 00:21:49,320
Speaker 3: Yeah?

524
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Speaker 6: I got a roommate that works at Lockheed Martin full time.

525
00:21:53,720 --> 00:21:56,639
Speaker 1: Now, okay, so you gotta make a living somehow.

526
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Speaker 6: I don't know he's making he's making a living off

527
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Speaker 6: the bombs.

528
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Speaker 1: Very nice? Has a how's your love life going?

529
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Speaker 6: Oh, I'm I'm a flying solo. I guess I don't know.

530
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Speaker 5: Have you?

531
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Speaker 1: I feel like just but just like, I don't know.

532
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Speaker 1: You're like a cool rapper guy?

533
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Speaker 2: Do you not?

534
00:22:10,880 --> 00:22:14,400
Speaker 1: Does everyone not like is are there not a line

535
00:22:14,440 --> 00:22:15,359
Speaker 1: of people in love with you?

536
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Speaker 6: I would I would think going to a bar and saying, hey,

537
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Speaker 6: i'm a i'm a I'm ake I make beats, I

538
00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:25,040
Speaker 6: make music might not exactly be my my best my

539
00:22:25,119 --> 00:22:29,320
Speaker 6: best line being honest. Perhaps I've I've been told I've

540
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Speaker 6: been giving negative reviews. Wait tell me, have you have

541
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:35,000
Speaker 6: you tried that? Have you been at have you been

542
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Speaker 6: at a bar? And you're like, oh, I make music. No,

543
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Speaker 6: It's more often, like I don't know, It's more often

544
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Speaker 6: somebody will kind of drag me into something.

545
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Speaker 1: It's like, oh, dude, do I talk to him? He

546
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Speaker 1: makes music?

547
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Speaker 6: Should have a ball I have to pick up now?

548
00:22:47,359 --> 00:22:47,560
Speaker 3: Sure?

549
00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:50,040
Speaker 1: Sure, sure, But that's but that's the best of both worlds,

550
00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:51,679
Speaker 1: right because you get to brag, but you also get

551
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Speaker 1: to be humble.

552
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Speaker 6: Is it bragging if it's like my third and fourth job?

553
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Speaker 7: I think so?

554
00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:02,640
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I think so. I think that the fact

555
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:07,520
Speaker 1: that you are doing something is inherently in and of

556
00:23:07,600 --> 00:23:10,840
Speaker 1: itself worth worth value. I appreciate that depending on whether

557
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:13,920
Speaker 1: I mean not not necessarily dependent on whether or not

558
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Speaker 1: you make money off of it.

559
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Speaker 6: Fair I appreciate that. Yeah, I agree, Yeah, don't know.

560
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Speaker 6: I'm not making money off YouTube for Spotify, I'll tell

561
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Speaker 6: you that. So are you all for the love of

562
00:23:22,119 --> 00:23:22,680
Speaker 6: it at this point?

563
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Speaker 1: Are you going to miss Philadelphia?

564
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Speaker 6: Oh my god? Yeah, it's so much fun it is.

565
00:23:29,880 --> 00:23:32,320
Speaker 6: I grew up in Houston, so like, I've been in

566
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Speaker 6: the Northeast for like five years, and yeah, Philadelphia's got

567
00:23:36,520 --> 00:23:38,879
Speaker 6: so much character. I'm gonna miss it a lot. I

568
00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:42,520
Speaker 6: you know, beer tastes different in Philly.

569
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Speaker 1: I think, yeah, they got the city wise, they don't

570
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Speaker 1: really have a citywise.

571
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Speaker 6: Yeah, that's my thing.

572
00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:50,760
Speaker 1: The citywide is the beer. No, it's it's the shot

573
00:23:50,840 --> 00:23:53,320
Speaker 1: and then the beer. Yeah special. Yeah, and they'll do

574
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Speaker 1: I don't know, little themes to it. So look Corona

575
00:23:56,400 --> 00:23:57,200
Speaker 1: tequila whatever.

576
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Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, I don't know.

577
00:23:58,880 --> 00:23:59,480
Speaker 1: Oh, it's fun.

578
00:23:59,520 --> 00:23:59,879
Speaker 6: I like it.

579
00:24:00,200 --> 00:24:01,359
Speaker 1: What's what's next for you?

580
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Speaker 5: Man?

581
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:04,080
Speaker 1: After your after after this music video?

582
00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:07,120
Speaker 6: Uh, I gotta get back home because I gotta move.

583
00:24:07,480 --> 00:24:09,199
Speaker 6: I'm trying to get approved in an apartment and then

584
00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:10,359
Speaker 6: I'm moving.

585
00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: Up your solo that because do you know anyone else here?

586
00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:14,960
Speaker 6: I know a couple of people, but they all got

587
00:24:15,000 --> 00:24:17,320
Speaker 6: their own arrangements and nobody wants to live where I

588
00:24:17,359 --> 00:24:17,720
Speaker 6: want to live.

589
00:24:17,760 --> 00:24:19,080
Speaker 1: So where do you want where you're gonna live.

590
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Speaker 6: I'm gonna be in Brooklyn, Okay, well, Bushwick probably Bedstark, that's.

591
00:24:23,359 --> 00:24:28,560
Speaker 1: Why that's that's around where I'm at bedsty Dang. Man,

592
00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,880
Speaker 1: there's a bunch of cicadas flying by all the time.

593
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Speaker 6: So you're looking for a roommates.

594
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Speaker 1: Oh, I already live in a place. But if not,

595
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Speaker 1: you know you're supposed to come. I'll come over. We

596
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:40,040
Speaker 1: can share a fridge, Okay. I can have some of

597
00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:41,960
Speaker 1: the food that you put in your fridge sometimes and

598
00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,520
Speaker 1: then you can have my You have some of the food.

599
00:24:44,800 --> 00:24:48,800
Speaker 1: I have some saracha sauce. That's all. It's in my fridge. Man,

600
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:52,119
Speaker 1: my fridge is if you look, two beers and a fridge. No,

601
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Speaker 1: not too, it's two beers and a uh and sacha.

602
00:24:55,920 --> 00:25:02,399
Speaker 1: So yeah, this guy just laughed a lot. Oh thanks

603
00:25:02,680 --> 00:25:04,280
Speaker 1: that guy. You know that guy is over there.

604
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:05,800
Speaker 6: You got big fans.

605
00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:07,560
Speaker 1: Well, what's your name again?

606
00:25:07,720 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 3: Jack?

607
00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:08,520
Speaker 7: Jack?

608
00:25:09,240 --> 00:25:09,600
Speaker 6: Jack? What?

609
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:10,280
Speaker 3: Uh uh?

610
00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:12,680
Speaker 7: Jack?

611
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:15,359
Speaker 1: Give me something for the universe, man, Something for the universe.

612
00:25:15,440 --> 00:25:17,560
Speaker 1: Mean something for the universe. You're an artist. You make music.

613
00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:19,080
Speaker 1: Give us some hope, give us something.

614
00:25:18,960 --> 00:25:25,920
Speaker 6: For the universe. For the universe, it's crazy where the

615
00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:26,639
Speaker 6: Epstein files?

616
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Speaker 3: Jack?

617
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Speaker 1: Is that your name?

618
00:25:31,040 --> 00:25:31,159
Speaker 8: Right?

619
00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:35,840
Speaker 1: Sorry, I'm horrible names. My brain well, my brain is melting.

620
00:25:35,920 --> 00:25:38,159
Speaker 1: But Jack, very nice to meet you. I'll see you

621
00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:42,000
Speaker 1: around the universe. And good luck, brother, I'll be checking

622
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:43,680
Speaker 1: out you. You can plug yourself if you want.

623
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Speaker 6: My name is Jack Iris. I'll make music. I'm from Texas.

624
00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:51,440
Speaker 6: Uh if you like, you don't have to call about

625
00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:54,480
Speaker 6: usher and for h listen to me. Cool.

626
00:25:54,520 --> 00:25:56,639
Speaker 1: That's it, beautiful. Nice to meet you, man, see you

627
00:25:56,640 --> 00:26:02,400
Speaker 1: around the universe later on letter on good luck. I'll

628
00:26:02,400 --> 00:26:06,640
Speaker 1: see you guys of course. Bye, guys here, have a seat.

629
00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:13,040
Speaker 1: What's your name? Man, My name is Jason. Jason. What's up, Jason? Okay, Jason.

630
00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:16,159
Speaker 1: Before you sat down, you said I got a lot

631
00:26:16,240 --> 00:26:17,639
Speaker 1: to say. I have a lot of resentments.

632
00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 3: Now I just feel like anything you ask me, I

633
00:26:20,280 --> 00:26:21,040
Speaker 3: gotta answer for.

634
00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:23,800
Speaker 1: You don't have to do anything. This is a public park.

635
00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:27,800
Speaker 3: Oh you ask me anything, I gotta answer.

636
00:26:27,960 --> 00:26:29,879
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you have resentments for?

637
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:30,000
Speaker 4: It?

638
00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:31,160
Speaker 1: You mentioned having resentments?

639
00:26:31,440 --> 00:26:34,400
Speaker 3: Do I have resentments? Yeah? I think they left. They left.

640
00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:36,560
Speaker 3: I'm alright, I'm alright. Sometimes they come and they go,

641
00:26:36,800 --> 00:26:36,960
Speaker 3: you know.

642
00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:40,760
Speaker 8: Yeah, I'm just like over here wandering around west for

643
00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:44,720
Speaker 8: not much going on, riding my bike everywhere.

644
00:26:44,920 --> 00:26:48,480
Speaker 1: Yeah what so the resentments they come and they go

645
00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:50,720
Speaker 1: yeah yeah yeah, it's like a cycle.

646
00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:53,800
Speaker 8: Yeah no, I'm matter of fact, shout out to the

647
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Speaker 8: family court. What is family court is where they decide

648
00:26:57,880 --> 00:26:58,879
Speaker 8: you can see your kid or not?

649
00:26:59,400 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 1: Okay?

650
00:27:00,160 --> 00:27:03,480
Speaker 8: Yeah yeah, and they like always pick the woman. It's

651
00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:04,800
Speaker 8: like really unfair over there?

652
00:27:05,080 --> 00:27:06,639
Speaker 1: Is that what you don't have to talk about if

653
00:27:06,640 --> 00:27:07,399
Speaker 1: you don't want it, you know I.

654
00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:10,359
Speaker 8: Could talk about it. Yeah yeah, I'm like dealing with that.

655
00:27:11,119 --> 00:27:16,000
Speaker 8: They got me on child support and then the girl

656
00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:20,120
Speaker 8: she wants they garnished in my check right, oh yeah

657
00:27:20,240 --> 00:27:22,760
Speaker 8: for child support, and then she don't want to let

658
00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:26,800
Speaker 8: me see the kid. But she's okay with taking the money,

659
00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:28,520
Speaker 8: but she don't want to let me see the.

660
00:27:28,520 --> 00:27:30,560
Speaker 1: Kid if they garnished your wages. But you can't see

661
00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:31,040
Speaker 1: the kid.

662
00:27:31,359 --> 00:27:32,960
Speaker 8: Like they let me see him. But she's trying to

663
00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:35,480
Speaker 8: take my rights away. And she made like false allegations.

664
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:38,719
Speaker 8: She says, I'm crazy, where where's the kid is here?

665
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:40,200
Speaker 1: And he's over here and they.

666
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,120
Speaker 3: Moved to Staten Island out of all man all borrows.

667
00:27:43,160 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 1: I'm sorry to hear that. Man, Yeah, it's just one kid.

668
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:48,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, she said, I'm crazy, But how old is

669
00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:51,320
Speaker 3: the child? He's eight? He's eight, So I'm crazy to

670
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:54,680
Speaker 3: see my kid, but not to send eight hundred dollars

671
00:27:54,680 --> 00:27:55,000
Speaker 3: a month?

672
00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:55,240
Speaker 7: You know?

673
00:27:55,359 --> 00:27:55,520
Speaker 11: Well?

674
00:27:55,760 --> 00:27:58,560
Speaker 1: How you even? I mean, you know again, we can

675
00:27:58,600 --> 00:27:59,600
Speaker 1: talk about it if you want.

676
00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:01,080
Speaker 3: Your how you're not gonna talk about anything?

677
00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:01,320
Speaker 5: Yeah?

678
00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:02,919
Speaker 1: What have you been like holding up?

679
00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:03,080
Speaker 4: What?

680
00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 3: I've been acting a.

681
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:08,720
Speaker 8: Little Kanye Kanye, Like, I've been storming the courts. They're

682
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:11,200
Speaker 8: telling me lawyer is like fifteen thousand dollars. I'm not

683
00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:13,560
Speaker 8: paying a lawyer. I'm like, how can somebody change the results?

684
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:15,119
Speaker 1: Is that what acting Kanye is?

685
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:15,879
Speaker 3: Oh?

686
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:18,879
Speaker 8: No, I've been like storming them. I've been like harassing

687
00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:22,399
Speaker 8: the courts, like speaking my truth, Like.

688
00:28:22,760 --> 00:28:25,520
Speaker 1: This interview is not this isn't gonna be bad for you,

689
00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:25,879
Speaker 1: is it?

690
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:26,040
Speaker 6: No?

691
00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:26,240
Speaker 4: No?

692
00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:29,399
Speaker 1: No, no, no, okay? You know calling the cops on

693
00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 1: the cops? How do you call the cops on the cops?

694
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 8: Like when the cops ain't behaving, I call other cops

695
00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:38,200
Speaker 8: just try to correct them. And like then I go

696
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:40,960
Speaker 8: over there every day as soon as they open, and

697
00:28:41,120 --> 00:28:43,520
Speaker 8: every conversation I have, I make sure they know this.

698
00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 3: This is serious. Yeah, but I don't know you asked me, bro,

699
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:47,520
Speaker 3: I'm just.

700
00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:48,960
Speaker 2: What do you been like?

701
00:28:49,080 --> 00:28:50,960
Speaker 1: I mean it's a difficult situation.

702
00:28:51,800 --> 00:28:52,480
Speaker 7: Yeah yeah, but.

703
00:28:52,640 --> 00:28:55,200
Speaker 3: I'm good though, because I used to be like a

704
00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 3: drug addict.

705
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,600
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you are? You off of drugs now?

706
00:28:58,680 --> 00:28:58,840
Speaker 11: Yeah?

707
00:28:58,880 --> 00:28:59,080
Speaker 8: Yeah?

708
00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:00,520
Speaker 3: I think I saw them other kids.

709
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,800
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, there's another guy actually go to the same program.

710
00:29:02,920 --> 00:29:04,480
Speaker 1: Oh you did? Yeah, okay, cool?

711
00:29:04,760 --> 00:29:07,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, all right. I don't know his story. But if

712
00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:09,880
Speaker 3: you end up in that program, ship was not going well?

713
00:29:09,960 --> 00:29:11,680
Speaker 1: You know, Okay, are things going better.

714
00:29:11,560 --> 00:29:11,920
Speaker 3: For you now?

715
00:29:11,960 --> 00:29:13,200
Speaker 2: I mean way better?

716
00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:15,080
Speaker 3: Like when you're not doing cocaine? Things are better?

717
00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:15,400
Speaker 12: Man?

718
00:29:15,560 --> 00:29:15,760
Speaker 8: Yeah?

719
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:17,760
Speaker 1: What like I mean, okay, I know it's hard. I

720
00:29:17,800 --> 00:29:19,560
Speaker 1: know you're in a tough situation. But what's been Has

721
00:29:19,600 --> 00:29:21,440
Speaker 1: there been things that are positive that you're looking?

722
00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:22,880
Speaker 3: Everything is actually positive?

723
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 7: Really?

724
00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:28,280
Speaker 8: The only thing that's like a little inconvenience Okay, but yeah,

725
00:29:28,400 --> 00:29:28,880
Speaker 8: like I used to.

726
00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:30,680
Speaker 3: I don't know if you know anything about addiction and

727
00:29:30,720 --> 00:29:34,320
Speaker 3: stuff like that. I mean, like you know, like the

728
00:29:35,480 --> 00:29:36,800
Speaker 3: fannel epidemic.

729
00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:37,400
Speaker 1: Yeah I know.

730
00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:41,840
Speaker 8: Yeah, so it's like when you're addicted to that stuff

731
00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:43,880
Speaker 8: is like it literally controls you. You know, of course

732
00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:47,880
Speaker 8: you wake up like with these cravings and like you

733
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,600
Speaker 8: need to get it, you know, and now just be

734
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:54,480
Speaker 8: riding my bike everywhere because you know, my license suspended.

735
00:29:55,600 --> 00:29:58,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, and Queens. I live in Queens.

736
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 1: So how long have you been off of the fedanel

737
00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:01,760
Speaker 1: for three years?

738
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:02,200
Speaker 3: Three years?

739
00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:02,680
Speaker 1: Okay?

740
00:30:02,880 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 8: Yeah?

741
00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: And has it have you replaced it with anything that's

742
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:06,760
Speaker 1: like like positive?

743
00:30:06,880 --> 00:30:09,880
Speaker 8: So I can't like, I don't really like sit I

744
00:30:09,880 --> 00:30:11,680
Speaker 8: don't watch TV because I don't know how to like

745
00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:14,160
Speaker 8: sit down and like pause. Yeah, I feel so as

746
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,720
Speaker 8: soon as I wake up, I make like my espresso coffee,

747
00:30:17,040 --> 00:30:19,200
Speaker 8: or I gotta start running, or I gotta start go

748
00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:24,320
Speaker 8: to the gym. I bike everywhere, you know, and I

749
00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:27,400
Speaker 8: work now, and I you know, I might. I'm able

750
00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:28,360
Speaker 8: to save my money, you know.

751
00:30:28,640 --> 00:30:28,840
Speaker 1: Cool.

752
00:30:28,880 --> 00:30:30,680
Speaker 3: I mean I don't save I buy a bunch of shoes.

753
00:30:31,000 --> 00:30:31,680
Speaker 1: You buy shoes.

754
00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:34,720
Speaker 8: I buy shoes and clothes, get necessary tattoos.

755
00:30:34,840 --> 00:30:37,160
Speaker 1: That's okay, you gotta listen, man. I here's like I'm

756
00:30:37,240 --> 00:30:40,600
Speaker 1: I am a strong proponent of like saving money, trying

757
00:30:40,640 --> 00:30:43,640
Speaker 1: to be financial independent or whatnot. But sometimes when when

758
00:30:43,680 --> 00:30:45,280
Speaker 1: life text is told on you, you got to find

759
00:30:45,320 --> 00:30:46,920
Speaker 1: those little things to make you happy, you know what

760
00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:47,239
Speaker 1: I mean.

761
00:30:47,640 --> 00:30:51,160
Speaker 8: I look at it like, hey, you can save money,

762
00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:53,560
Speaker 8: but you also could be doing cocaine and risking your life,

763
00:30:53,880 --> 00:30:56,080
Speaker 8: you know, like right, And when I put it like that,

764
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:58,200
Speaker 8: it's always like, you know what, Yeah, I'm about this.

765
00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:00,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, but this is weird.

766
00:31:00,240 --> 00:31:02,720
Speaker 8: There's still always something left over, like you know, like

767
00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:06,400
Speaker 8: I save a little bit, like I don't know when

768
00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,280
Speaker 8: I want to, you know, but there's something safe, you know.

769
00:31:08,480 --> 00:31:10,240
Speaker 3: I don't know if you got any questions.

770
00:31:09,920 --> 00:31:11,520
Speaker 1: Man, Yeah, I got plenty of questions.

771
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:14,280
Speaker 8: I got you on Instagram. Oh you do have some

772
00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:16,080
Speaker 8: funny stuff. Oh thanks man for ship that.

773
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:16,760
Speaker 2: Yeah.

774
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:18,520
Speaker 1: I come here. I come here like once a week

775
00:31:18,560 --> 00:31:22,200
Speaker 1: now and every people like you know, well, I'm curious.

776
00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:24,840
Speaker 1: I'm curious about a lot of things. So okay, so

777
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:27,720
Speaker 1: life is good because you feel you're sober. Yeah, do

778
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:29,760
Speaker 1: you do anything? Do you so you know, no drinking,

779
00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:30,760
Speaker 1: no smoke or anything.

780
00:31:30,840 --> 00:31:32,840
Speaker 3: No, No, I don't even want secondhand smoke.

781
00:31:33,040 --> 00:31:33,320
Speaker 1: Okay.

782
00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:35,920
Speaker 8: Like I always wanted we to be legal, and now

783
00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:37,880
Speaker 8: I'm like, fucking make cancel that shit again.

784
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:41,600
Speaker 3: I'm like, I'm like, I'm not gonna lie.

785
00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:44,280
Speaker 8: I became like a Karen about my sobriety because oh yeah,

786
00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:46,680
Speaker 8: you know, Karen's.

787
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 1: Is not good.

788
00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:49,840
Speaker 8: But it's like sometimes that's the way I feel. It's

789
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:51,960
Speaker 8: not on purpose, it's just like serious to me. Well,

790
00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:52,720
Speaker 8: let's talk about this.

791
00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:55,800
Speaker 1: So the other guy, he was talking about escaping yourself, right,

792
00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:58,280
Speaker 1: and you're talking about drugs or a use of escaping yourself.

793
00:31:58,360 --> 00:32:00,600
Speaker 1: And I and I'm I've never been addicted the fentanyl

794
00:32:00,680 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 1: or whatever, but I'm familiar with like doing things and

795
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 1: in some sort of attempt to like escape yourself, right, yeah,

796
00:32:07,040 --> 00:32:08,680
Speaker 1: And so did give is that what you did? You

797
00:32:08,720 --> 00:32:10,240
Speaker 1: find yourself trying to escape yourself.

798
00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:12,120
Speaker 8: So in the beginning, it was just like there was

799
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:15,280
Speaker 8: nothing to do, you know, you start smoking weed, drinking,

800
00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:18,400
Speaker 8: and I never felt like like it was controlling me.

801
00:32:18,520 --> 00:32:20,760
Speaker 8: But when the hard drugs came in, like oxy, coldon

802
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:25,160
Speaker 8: and cocaine, it got to a point where it.

803
00:32:25,240 --> 00:32:26,520
Speaker 3: Was not an option no more, you know.

804
00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:29,800
Speaker 8: And at the very end, I realized you kind of

805
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:32,520
Speaker 8: realize what you're doing something for when you stop doing it,

806
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 8: you know, because you're always giving yourself what.

807
00:32:34,640 --> 00:32:37,920
Speaker 3: You need, you know, like like let's say you always

808
00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:38,720
Speaker 3: got a frou.

809
00:32:38,640 --> 00:32:40,920
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, can you just hold the mic up right, Yeah, yeah.

810
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 8: You realize you always got a fridze full of water

811
00:32:43,240 --> 00:32:45,320
Speaker 8: and anytime you need it you just go there. Right,

812
00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:47,000
Speaker 8: But let's say you don't have no water for a

813
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:49,560
Speaker 8: whole week. You realize how thirsty you are why you

814
00:32:49,680 --> 00:32:52,040
Speaker 8: drink water and stuff like that. So when you like

815
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:55,000
Speaker 8: stop consuming and using, you realize like, oh shit, I

816
00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:58,800
Speaker 8: am lonely. Oh shit, I kind of hate myself. Oh shit,

817
00:32:58,800 --> 00:33:02,040
Speaker 8: I don't know how to be around social activities. But

818
00:33:02,880 --> 00:33:05,120
Speaker 8: it's not for everybody, and everybody has to get sober,

819
00:33:05,200 --> 00:33:08,120
Speaker 8: you know, you, But it's okay to like, I feel

820
00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 8: like it's good to speak about.

821
00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:12,520
Speaker 3: It like me, because there's a lot that can't handle

822
00:33:12,600 --> 00:33:15,120
Speaker 3: it and they just like, nah, this can't be me.

823
00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:17,080
Speaker 8: I don't have to stop this, and it's just better

824
00:33:17,280 --> 00:33:20,640
Speaker 8: like to just realize if you're the person that could

825
00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:25,040
Speaker 8: use safely or drink safely, then to like think you're

826
00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:27,920
Speaker 8: not and keep ruining your life, you know what I'm saying.

827
00:33:28,080 --> 00:33:29,760
Speaker 1: So how did you learn to do? You still hate

828
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:32,960
Speaker 1: yourself some some not not really hate.

829
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:36,160
Speaker 8: Some days I have like self pity, you know, but

830
00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,640
Speaker 8: it's not as it's not as low, you know, it's

831
00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:39,240
Speaker 8: not as low.

832
00:33:39,920 --> 00:33:41,880
Speaker 1: How did it get not as love? How did it improve?

833
00:33:42,040 --> 00:33:43,360
Speaker 3: It's like it's like more level.

834
00:33:44,040 --> 00:33:46,880
Speaker 8: It's probably a couple of hours or I probably just

835
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:49,040
Speaker 8: go for a run or I slip it out and

836
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:52,960
Speaker 8: like it changes pretty quick, not like before, like you're

837
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:56,720
Speaker 8: with withdrawing, it lasted weeks and months. You know, it's

838
00:33:56,800 --> 00:34:00,840
Speaker 8: like more human itself. But yeah, yeah no, but I

839
00:34:00,880 --> 00:34:02,600
Speaker 8: don't want to make this depressing. You know, I'm I'm

840
00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:06,400
Speaker 8: a pretty exciting person telling me about Dominican Yeah, you know,

841
00:34:06,960 --> 00:34:08,760
Speaker 8: the only thing I missed about using drugs.

842
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:12,400
Speaker 3: He used to freestyle a lot, you know, I used

843
00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:14,840
Speaker 3: to you can you you haven't been able to free.

844
00:34:16,239 --> 00:34:20,000
Speaker 8: I like, yo, something's missing here, man, it's not the same,

845
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:22,719
Speaker 8: you know. Yeah I used to be that guy. Just yeah,

846
00:34:22,719 --> 00:34:24,080
Speaker 8: there's a lot of I know what they do that

847
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:27,480
Speaker 8: around here or Union Squah Square like that, just come

848
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:29,560
Speaker 8: to random people, like give me a topic, you know,

849
00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:33,440
Speaker 8: and yeah they got the Dominican Parade tomorrow, know if

850
00:34:33,480 --> 00:34:33,960
Speaker 8: you know about that?

851
00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:36,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah that's a big parade.

852
00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:37,440
Speaker 1: So wait, so you can't you don't feel like you

853
00:34:37,480 --> 00:34:39,040
Speaker 1: can freestyle as well when you're not on drugs?

854
00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:41,759
Speaker 8: And I could it just it just doesn't dot fun.

855
00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 8: You know, it's just like he's just I just got

856
00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:47,920
Speaker 8: my little vape. It's like it's cool, but it's not.

857
00:34:48,640 --> 00:34:49,800
Speaker 8: It don't hit like cocaine.

858
00:34:50,040 --> 00:34:52,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, sure, No, A lot of great ideas. I

859
00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:55,520
Speaker 1: think we're formed on cocaine. I mean, like ninety nine

860
00:34:55,560 --> 00:34:58,480
Speaker 1: percent of that's what they're all doing. Cocaine and fucking

861
00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,560
Speaker 1: Silicon Valley. That's how they came up with Facebook.

862
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:00,799
Speaker 7: Yeah.

863
00:35:00,880 --> 00:35:04,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I miss being around the girls and stuff,

864
00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:05,960
Speaker 3: you know, being in the night scene.

865
00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:06,160
Speaker 7: You know.

866
00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:10,080
Speaker 8: Sure, Now I'm like Moran. A lot of spiritual girls

867
00:35:10,160 --> 00:35:12,320
Speaker 8: and stuff. They say they're spiritual.

868
00:35:12,360 --> 00:35:14,800
Speaker 1: I don't know, are you see around a lot of

869
00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:16,760
Speaker 1: like what are you not a girls in recovery?

870
00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:17,000
Speaker 8: You know?

871
00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:18,759
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah sure yeah, yeah.

872
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 8: They don't look bad, but you kind of gotta respect

873
00:35:21,640 --> 00:35:26,080
Speaker 8: the program, yeah, of course, and respect like your own sobriety.

874
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:27,759
Speaker 8: You know. It's like it kind of don't look right

875
00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:30,120
Speaker 8: because I do care about my sobriety, and it's like.

876
00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:34,360
Speaker 3: If you kind of use.

877
00:35:34,280 --> 00:35:37,239
Speaker 8: Your your like your recovery or your sober thing, oh

878
00:35:37,440 --> 00:35:39,919
Speaker 8: to get that girls. Yeah sure, it kind of looks

879
00:35:39,960 --> 00:35:43,319
Speaker 8: a little a little a little hinge. Yeah what I'm saying,

880
00:35:43,440 --> 00:35:45,200
Speaker 8: you got to church, and you at church and you're

881
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:48,480
Speaker 8: there for girls. You understand it's kind of disrespecting God.

882
00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I understand. But you you get a strong

883
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:51,600
Speaker 1: relationship with God.

884
00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:55,319
Speaker 3: It's it's it is there. Yeah, I got a relationship, man.

885
00:35:55,360 --> 00:35:56,360
Speaker 1: What's that? What's that look like?

886
00:35:56,840 --> 00:35:58,440
Speaker 3: Yeah? I pray in the morning, I get on my

887
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:01,520
Speaker 3: knees every day, and I do meditation.

888
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:05,120
Speaker 1: I do a gratitude list. What was on your gratitude

889
00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 1: list today?

890
00:36:05,760 --> 00:36:07,120
Speaker 3: What's on my gratitude list?

891
00:36:07,239 --> 00:36:07,359
Speaker 7: Oh?

892
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:08,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, you have one today?

893
00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 5: Yeah.

894
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:12,359
Speaker 8: Yeah, I gotta do a gratitude list because I got

895
00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:13,720
Speaker 8: a lot of ship to complain about.

896
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:17,399
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I gotta at least started with the things.

897
00:36:17,640 --> 00:36:19,120
Speaker 1: Do you do the scratch your list every morning?

898
00:36:19,360 --> 00:36:19,520
Speaker 5: Yeah?

899
00:36:19,600 --> 00:36:21,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, yeah, let me get let me hear this morning.

900
00:36:21,600 --> 00:36:24,600
Speaker 8: You know that's pretty simple, you know. Grateful to be sober,

901
00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:27,239
Speaker 8: Grateful that I have access. I spoke at a meeting

902
00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:30,319
Speaker 8: this morning. Okay, like my my, you know my story. Yeah,

903
00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:33,600
Speaker 8: Grateful that I'm showing up even if I don't want to,

904
00:36:33,960 --> 00:36:37,240
Speaker 8: for sleep, a place to lay my head, music, coffee,

905
00:36:39,040 --> 00:36:40,000
Speaker 8: my son, my bike.

906
00:36:41,040 --> 00:36:43,439
Speaker 3: Oh, and these stickers I puts on the bike.

907
00:36:43,640 --> 00:36:47,800
Speaker 1: Is it the one that says uh, specialized wheel on

908
00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:50,399
Speaker 1: the wheel? Oh, the one that says robo Yeah yeah,

909
00:36:50,719 --> 00:36:52,239
Speaker 1: Oh I like those those are cool and.

910
00:36:52,360 --> 00:36:53,760
Speaker 3: I gotta I gotta TikTok.

911
00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:58,520
Speaker 8: I make like dark comedy, dark comedy on sobriety, Like

912
00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:00,880
Speaker 8: we just kind of make like being an addict is

913
00:37:00,920 --> 00:37:01,560
Speaker 8: pretty funny.

914
00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:03,160
Speaker 3: Like this ship that people do to get high.

915
00:37:03,239 --> 00:37:07,000
Speaker 8: Sure, it's like fucking you buy something for three hundred

916
00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:09,000
Speaker 8: dollars in that fucking six in the morning, You're like, yo,

917
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:10,680
Speaker 8: I'll give this shit for forty I don't care.

918
00:37:10,680 --> 00:37:11,320
Speaker 2: Right now, can I?

919
00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:13,560
Speaker 1: If only if you want to share it? But what's

920
00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:16,520
Speaker 1: the funniest thing you've done to get high? Ooh da,

921
00:37:16,600 --> 00:37:19,800
Speaker 1: I gotta think about it. I don't know if to

922
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:22,280
Speaker 1: get high, but to prove that I'm sober.

923
00:37:23,560 --> 00:37:24,279
Speaker 3: I think about this.

924
00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:26,640
Speaker 8: So I had my rehab and I had to get

925
00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:30,120
Speaker 8: drug tested every week with where my you know, urine.

926
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 8: So somebody told me you could ask somebody for the urine.

927
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:36,879
Speaker 3: Yeah.

928
00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:39,200
Speaker 8: So I called my little brother. He was about like

929
00:37:39,280 --> 00:37:41,839
Speaker 8: twelve years old, and I'm like, we have I'm gonna

930
00:37:41,840 --> 00:37:43,240
Speaker 8: give you twenty dollars tomorrow.

931
00:37:43,360 --> 00:37:43,840
Speaker 7: I need you.

932
00:37:44,320 --> 00:37:46,080
Speaker 3: He's like, you need me. No, He's like, I'm like,

933
00:37:46,120 --> 00:37:49,960
Speaker 3: I need your urine. And I put my brother through that.

934
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:51,920
Speaker 8: I was driving at the time, and I picked them

935
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:56,080
Speaker 8: up at like around seven in the morning. Posy, if

936
00:37:56,120 --> 00:37:59,160
Speaker 8: the piss is warm, it's like more legit, you know,

937
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:02,600
Speaker 8: you just it out. So we lived in Queens in

938
00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:05,160
Speaker 8: this in the rehabits. All the outpatient was over here

939
00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:07,480
Speaker 8: in the city. So I literally brought him with me

940
00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:11,560
Speaker 8: so the pists can stay out of warm temperature, you know.

941
00:38:12,280 --> 00:38:15,239
Speaker 8: So I'm I gave I gave him a cup and

942
00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:16,239
Speaker 8: I'm like, take a pic.

943
00:38:16,560 --> 00:38:16,880
Speaker 3: I don't know.

944
00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:20,080
Speaker 8: I find this funny. Man, like you literally just kidnap

945
00:38:20,160 --> 00:38:24,560
Speaker 8: your brother for his piss, you know. And uh and

946
00:38:24,960 --> 00:38:26,800
Speaker 8: he just like my little brother. He's like, this is

947
00:38:26,840 --> 00:38:29,600
Speaker 8: my big brother. I look up to him, and you know,

948
00:38:29,719 --> 00:38:32,880
Speaker 8: he pissed in the cup and he did everything right.

949
00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,720
Speaker 1: Did you end up passing the tests?

950
00:38:35,080 --> 00:38:39,400
Speaker 3: I passed passed, But I wasn't expecting this. I was

951
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,759
Speaker 3: high at the moment. Hope. It's supposedly they lower your

952
00:38:42,800 --> 00:38:43,480
Speaker 3: blood pressure.

953
00:38:44,719 --> 00:38:47,040
Speaker 8: And the guy while he's like taking my blood, he's like,

954
00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:49,000
Speaker 8: your pressure is like I don't know, high or low,

955
00:38:49,080 --> 00:38:50,719
Speaker 8: but it was what it was not supposed to be.

956
00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:53,799
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I have this part of the test.

957
00:38:54,280 --> 00:38:56,359
Speaker 1: How did you get the peak? Because don't they make

958
00:38:56,400 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 1: you go into it? Like how did you get the pee?

959
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:02,000
Speaker 1: And they was too strict, they let you go to

960
00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:06,320
Speaker 1: the bathroom by yourself. So I had the little the

961
00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:11,520
Speaker 1: little cup and I had it. I put it inside yourself. Yeah,

962
00:39:11,520 --> 00:39:13,480
Speaker 1: and then I just one, two, three, put it in

963
00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:15,239
Speaker 1: the cup and I gave it to you. So I

964
00:39:15,400 --> 00:39:17,600
Speaker 1: passed and the guy looked at me weird, but he

965
00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:19,400
Speaker 1: didn't give me a hard time because it's like it

966
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:20,360
Speaker 1: was just blood pressure.

967
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:21,960
Speaker 3: I'm like, I drink a lot of caffeine, you know,

968
00:39:22,719 --> 00:39:25,359
Speaker 3: and what else I have I done?

969
00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:25,640
Speaker 12: Man?

970
00:39:26,520 --> 00:39:30,480
Speaker 8: Oh, you know, I don't even think it's probably some

971
00:39:30,600 --> 00:39:33,600
Speaker 8: funny stuff, but there's a lot of embarrassing things, you know. Yeah,

972
00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:35,840
Speaker 8: but it's all good though. It's all good though, not

973
00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 8: like embarrassed. You know, like everybody got a story human life.

974
00:39:41,520 --> 00:39:43,080
Speaker 8: I just feel like people don't talk about this.

975
00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:48,080
Speaker 3: So the TikTok I have, I kind of like every

976
00:39:48,160 --> 00:39:49,840
Speaker 3: sound on TikTok you can find.

977
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:51,600
Speaker 8: A way to make it your own, right, And I

978
00:39:51,800 --> 00:39:56,080
Speaker 8: just like like make like I write something about like addiction,

979
00:39:56,239 --> 00:39:58,720
Speaker 8: you know, like when you're trying to get in contact

980
00:39:58,760 --> 00:40:00,239
Speaker 8: with the plug at six in the morning and he

981
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:02,080
Speaker 8: tells you to meet him up at his house and

982
00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:02,960
Speaker 8: then when you get there, he.

983
00:40:02,960 --> 00:40:05,960
Speaker 3: Don't pick up. Yep, it's not a good feeling. What

984
00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:07,960
Speaker 3: else is funny? My bad?

985
00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:09,600
Speaker 8: You asked me some questions, bro, I don't know about

986
00:40:09,880 --> 00:40:13,680
Speaker 8: if I'm getting you both time. One time, my friend

987
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:15,719
Speaker 8: I called him at like three in the morning. He's like,

988
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:18,440
Speaker 8: I'm up. And then I get to his house to

989
00:40:18,520 --> 00:40:22,640
Speaker 8: buy some stuff, and the desire to use to get

990
00:40:22,719 --> 00:40:25,440
Speaker 8: high was so strong that I'm like, yo, I just

991
00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:26,359
Speaker 8: got to this guy's house.

992
00:40:26,400 --> 00:40:27,120
Speaker 3: He's not picking up.

993
00:40:27,160 --> 00:40:30,719
Speaker 8: I'm blasting his phone, calling him on Facebook, Instagram, even

994
00:40:30,840 --> 00:40:33,240
Speaker 8: my Space, man like I need to get in contact

995
00:40:33,239 --> 00:40:34,000
Speaker 8: with this guy, you know.

996
00:40:35,080 --> 00:40:38,280
Speaker 3: And then he doesn't answer. So I try to climb.

997
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:42,880
Speaker 8: I climb through a big gate and I try to

998
00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:46,960
Speaker 8: open his window and his father comes in, like at

999
00:40:47,160 --> 00:40:48,839
Speaker 8: seven in the morning. He's like what are you doing.

1000
00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:52,080
Speaker 8: I'm like, your son, he's not picking up the phone,

1001
00:40:52,120 --> 00:40:54,800
Speaker 8: but he's like what are you doing? Like how you

1002
00:40:54,920 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 8: got back here?

1003
00:40:57,160 --> 00:40:59,160
Speaker 3: He's like, can you please leave? You know? And I left,

1004
00:40:59,239 --> 00:40:59,440
Speaker 3: you know.

1005
00:40:59,640 --> 00:41:01,879
Speaker 8: But now that I think about that. That's a little

1006
00:41:02,000 --> 00:41:03,840
Speaker 8: I don't think that's normal behavior.

1007
00:41:03,520 --> 00:41:05,879
Speaker 1: You know, like it probably wasn't. But I think part

1008
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:09,399
Speaker 1: of you know, that's part of looking back on past behavior. Yeah,

1009
00:41:09,480 --> 00:41:12,640
Speaker 1: that probably wasn't normal. But like when you're I think

1010
00:41:12,640 --> 00:41:15,400
Speaker 1: when you're in something like that, you have you have

1011
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 1: no discernment.

1012
00:41:16,239 --> 00:41:17,760
Speaker 3: You gotta do what you gotta do to survive.

1013
00:41:17,840 --> 00:41:19,320
Speaker 1: Well when you yeah, when you're in something like that,

1014
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:22,480
Speaker 1: you're like, you just have no discernment. You just start

1015
00:41:22,560 --> 00:41:25,920
Speaker 1: going through whatever it is that your brain is fucking

1016
00:41:25,960 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 1: telling you to do. And then you mature and you go, oh, yeah,

1017
00:41:29,080 --> 00:41:32,680
Speaker 1: that was fucking stupid, you know, But then you that's

1018
00:41:32,760 --> 00:41:34,960
Speaker 1: part of life. I think, yeah, yeah, yeah, you know.

1019
00:41:35,400 --> 00:41:38,359
Speaker 3: And then this one is a little dark. But yeah,

1020
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:39,399
Speaker 3: I'm telling you too much.

1021
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:41,440
Speaker 1: Man, only if you will if you want, I mean,

1022
00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:45,480
Speaker 1: I'm telling you I'll disclaim I put this on the internet. Yeah, yeah,

1023
00:41:46,520 --> 00:41:48,839
Speaker 1: tell me if you watch, you know, if there's other things,

1024
00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:50,040
Speaker 1: all right.

1025
00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:54,280
Speaker 8: But you know, in Queens, prostitution is real big okay,

1026
00:41:54,760 --> 00:41:58,120
Speaker 8: And when you get cocaine, you get real horny.

1027
00:41:58,360 --> 00:42:00,120
Speaker 1: Sure you can talk about this like that. You you

1028
00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:02,040
Speaker 1: you're talking about whatever you want to.

1029
00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:04,120
Speaker 8: Mind you don't mind talking about like horniness and all that,

1030
00:42:05,719 --> 00:42:06,960
Speaker 8: but you know, people get horny, you know.

1031
00:42:07,120 --> 00:42:09,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, people get horned. That's part of life. Yeah, normal

1032
00:42:10,000 --> 00:42:15,319
Speaker 1: you can yeah we're not so when.

1033
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:18,680
Speaker 3: You get horning, but you can't get hard.

1034
00:42:18,960 --> 00:42:22,759
Speaker 8: So it's like you have the strongest desire to do something, yeah,

1035
00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:24,719
Speaker 8: and then this it's gone.

1036
00:42:25,680 --> 00:42:28,120
Speaker 3: So they used to be this thing called like back page.

1037
00:42:28,960 --> 00:42:34,200
Speaker 8: Yeah, you find like escorts, and every time he showed up,

1038
00:42:34,600 --> 00:42:37,279
Speaker 8: it was never the girl in the picture. Sure so,

1039
00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:39,800
Speaker 8: and I knew it was never the girl in the picture.

1040
00:42:40,560 --> 00:42:42,600
Speaker 8: So I used to get a hide just by calling

1041
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:46,680
Speaker 8: the number and having hope that it actually was her. Yeah,

1042
00:42:47,360 --> 00:42:51,120
Speaker 8: And I will call like fucking like thirty numbers in

1043
00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:51,680
Speaker 8: one night.

1044
00:42:51,680 --> 00:42:54,240
Speaker 1: And you would never meet any of the like sometimes

1045
00:42:54,280 --> 00:42:56,520
Speaker 1: that would me like if they keep Sometimes they're like, yeah,

1046
00:42:56,560 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 1: this is her, this is her.

1047
00:42:57,520 --> 00:43:00,480
Speaker 8: I'm like, this is the one with the pink hannies.

1048
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:03,239
Speaker 8: They're like, yeah, it's her, it's her, and I will

1049
00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:06,160
Speaker 8: go over there. It was never heard, and I was like,

1050
00:43:06,400 --> 00:43:09,160
Speaker 8: I'm not doing this last thing. I'm gonna say this

1051
00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:13,360
Speaker 8: might be funny or I don't know. They supposedly like

1052
00:43:13,440 --> 00:43:16,240
Speaker 8: a mafia cartel with these people, you know, they traffick

1053
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:19,719
Speaker 8: people and all that. And they sent me so I

1054
00:43:19,880 --> 00:43:21,960
Speaker 8: cancel a girl right like they brought her to me

1055
00:43:22,840 --> 00:43:25,239
Speaker 8: and I'm like, that's not the girl, bro.

1056
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:25,840
Speaker 5: No.

1057
00:43:26,560 --> 00:43:27,360
Speaker 3: They got upset.

1058
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:29,920
Speaker 8: They're like, you wasted our time, and they sent me

1059
00:43:30,000 --> 00:43:34,480
Speaker 8: pictures of people's heads cut off Jesus and like slaughter.

1060
00:43:34,600 --> 00:43:36,400
Speaker 8: But you could tell that the pictures were like probably

1061
00:43:36,440 --> 00:43:38,600
Speaker 8: in Mexico, you know, they do that type of stuff.

1062
00:43:38,560 --> 00:43:40,400
Speaker 1: Okay, And I was a little scared.

1063
00:43:40,440 --> 00:43:43,200
Speaker 8: I'm like, and they started harassing me and telling you

1064
00:43:43,280 --> 00:43:44,160
Speaker 8: got to pay us their money.

1065
00:43:44,640 --> 00:43:45,080
Speaker 7: What did you do?

1066
00:43:45,719 --> 00:43:47,680
Speaker 3: I basically got wasted their time?

1067
00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:49,520
Speaker 1: No, I mean did you pay them money?

1068
00:43:49,920 --> 00:43:49,960
Speaker 5: No?

1069
00:43:50,200 --> 00:43:53,080
Speaker 3: No, it's just like you didn't. You lied to me.

1070
00:43:53,239 --> 00:43:55,440
Speaker 3: You gave me a menu, and when you know I

1071
00:43:55,480 --> 00:43:57,440
Speaker 3: asked for a burger, you brought me a vegan burger.

1072
00:43:57,600 --> 00:43:58,920
Speaker 1: So how did you So you were at a point

1073
00:43:58,960 --> 00:44:01,080
Speaker 1: where you were like I'm done, I just come and

1074
00:44:01,120 --> 00:44:04,000
Speaker 1: fucking kill me. But now you want to live? Oh yeah,

1075
00:44:04,040 --> 00:44:04,719
Speaker 1: I want to live now?

1076
00:44:04,800 --> 00:44:04,960
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1077
00:44:05,480 --> 00:44:06,200
Speaker 1: How'd you get there?

1078
00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:10,440
Speaker 8: You know? It's like I don't wake up miserable every day,

1079
00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:12,439
Speaker 8: you know, like I actually got a lot of things

1080
00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:13,200
Speaker 8: to look forward to.

1081
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:15,759
Speaker 3: I got a lot of shoes to wear that I

1082
00:44:15,800 --> 00:44:17,040
Speaker 3: haven't had time to wear.

1083
00:44:17,680 --> 00:44:19,480
Speaker 8: It's weird things like that, you know, like they say

1084
00:44:19,560 --> 00:44:21,600
Speaker 8: material things that, like it's not the most important things.

1085
00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:23,560
Speaker 8: But sometimes you who knows, you got a new game,

1086
00:44:23,640 --> 00:44:25,359
Speaker 8: you might want to play that game before you die.

1087
00:44:25,600 --> 00:44:27,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, things like that.

1088
00:44:28,160 --> 00:44:30,279
Speaker 8: And I never really wanted to die, you know, but

1089
00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:32,120
Speaker 8: the way I was living, when I was living like that,

1090
00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:34,600
Speaker 8: it could probably get you there. You know, if you

1091
00:44:34,719 --> 00:44:38,120
Speaker 8: like wasting your your whole life and wasting your check

1092
00:44:38,640 --> 00:44:42,480
Speaker 8: that quick, and like you don't have self respect for yourself.

1093
00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:45,160
Speaker 8: You look at yourself in the mirror, you look unhealthy

1094
00:44:45,239 --> 00:44:47,879
Speaker 8: and all that, that could probably get you to that point,

1095
00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:48,080
Speaker 8: you know.

1096
00:44:48,320 --> 00:44:51,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, hmm hmm.

1097
00:44:51,840 --> 00:44:54,160
Speaker 8: But yeah I live Uh I don't know if that

1098
00:44:54,239 --> 00:44:56,000
Speaker 8: helps out, but yeah, I live over there by you know,

1099
00:44:56,120 --> 00:44:56,960
Speaker 8: city Field.

1100
00:44:57,040 --> 00:44:58,960
Speaker 3: No Corona, by the met Stadium.

1101
00:44:59,160 --> 00:45:03,759
Speaker 1: Oh no, uh no, I don't, I don't. I'm not

1102
00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:06,040
Speaker 1: in a baseball guy, but I know what the metsa are. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

1103
00:45:06,040 --> 00:45:08,120
Speaker 1: I live by their stadium. Okay, yeah, yeah, by the

1104
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:10,880
Speaker 1: Seven Trains. So what what are you looking forward to

1105
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:12,160
Speaker 1: in life these days?

1106
00:45:12,880 --> 00:45:18,759
Speaker 3: Right now? Right now? I don't really know, man, like

1107
00:45:18,920 --> 00:45:19,839
Speaker 3: things are good right now.

1108
00:45:19,960 --> 00:45:22,640
Speaker 8: The thing is, you know, like I feel like a

1109
00:45:22,680 --> 00:45:24,319
Speaker 8: lot of stuff is a scam right now. This thing

1110
00:45:24,440 --> 00:45:26,200
Speaker 8: is like built for us to fail.

1111
00:45:26,480 --> 00:45:27,360
Speaker 1: What's what's a scam?

1112
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 6: You know?

1113
00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:30,600
Speaker 8: It's like one job can't even get you an apartment,

1114
00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:33,120
Speaker 8: you know what I'm saying. It's like all these things.

1115
00:45:34,120 --> 00:45:38,840
Speaker 8: Oh yeah, I don't really know what I'm looking for.

1116
00:45:39,080 --> 00:45:41,239
Speaker 8: But I think this generation has a lot of what

1117
00:45:41,600 --> 00:45:43,320
Speaker 8: I'm not saying you but a lot of us Like

1118
00:45:43,400 --> 00:45:46,000
Speaker 8: it's just it's kind of hard out here, you know,

1119
00:45:46,320 --> 00:45:48,239
Speaker 8: but I'm not I'm not like really like struggling, like

1120
00:45:48,360 --> 00:45:51,640
Speaker 8: I could go eat do whatever, but not like like

1121
00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:54,480
Speaker 8: real big goals, like real real big a cheese ones.

1122
00:45:54,960 --> 00:45:55,160
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1123
00:45:55,200 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 1: I think our generation is definitely like having problems, like

1124
00:45:59,480 --> 00:46:02,239
Speaker 1: you know whatever, having wanted to have a kid, or

1125
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:04,839
Speaker 1: get married, or have a house or do all these things.

1126
00:46:05,160 --> 00:46:07,680
Speaker 8: This this guy, this Dominican do in Spanish, He's like

1127
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:10,719
Speaker 8: he made it sound like he's like, you know, I

1128
00:46:10,800 --> 00:46:12,840
Speaker 8: could go to my country today, you know, and I

1129
00:46:13,400 --> 00:46:16,120
Speaker 8: could live for the rest of my life only if

1130
00:46:16,160 --> 00:46:19,200
Speaker 8: I die by tomorrow at seven seven thirty am.

1131
00:46:20,040 --> 00:46:20,239
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1132
00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:22,600
Speaker 3: So basically you can listen to the rest of his life.

1133
00:46:22,880 --> 00:46:25,000
Speaker 8: So it's like one of those you know, you kind

1134
00:46:25,000 --> 00:46:26,560
Speaker 8: of just get used to it, you know, you just

1135
00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:29,799
Speaker 8: kind of but things are way better, man, Like, things

1136
00:46:29,800 --> 00:46:30,800
Speaker 8: are way better, you know.

1137
00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:35,400
Speaker 3: And yeah, I'm a I don't know you deal with

1138
00:46:35,480 --> 00:46:37,040
Speaker 3: social media. I'm asking you a question.

1139
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:37,359
Speaker 6: All right.

1140
00:46:37,440 --> 00:46:41,000
Speaker 8: Sure, I'm bad because I got this TikTok and I

1141
00:46:41,120 --> 00:46:43,399
Speaker 8: got like I managed to get like in twenty twenty

1142
00:46:43,440 --> 00:46:46,200
Speaker 8: two when I wasn't working in the dark comedy. Yeah,

1143
00:46:46,360 --> 00:46:49,280
Speaker 8: and I man to got like almost thirteen thousand followers

1144
00:46:49,719 --> 00:46:52,320
Speaker 8: and like one hundred and sixty six thousand likes. Okay,

1145
00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:57,719
Speaker 8: but like the shame or something of over like the

1146
00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:00,120
Speaker 8: overthinking of knowing that even.

1147
00:47:00,040 --> 00:47:03,960
Speaker 3: Though I'm being perceived, yeah, like your videos are being watched.

1148
00:47:05,160 --> 00:47:06,719
Speaker 8: And then when I saw like people that know me

1149
00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:10,000
Speaker 8: in real life see my videos. Like I was cool

1150
00:47:10,040 --> 00:47:12,160
Speaker 8: with people that I don't know, like talking about all

1151
00:47:12,200 --> 00:47:14,359
Speaker 8: this and see my bit. But when I saw real people,

1152
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:16,320
Speaker 8: I saw like a little Yeah, I don't want you

1153
00:47:16,400 --> 00:47:17,960
Speaker 8: guys to see it. But I don't know how you

1154
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:21,120
Speaker 8: deal with it, Like you kind of gotta be yourself,

1155
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:25,080
Speaker 8: you know, how you deal with like some days like

1156
00:47:25,160 --> 00:47:26,960
Speaker 8: at night, you know, maybe you have too much caffeine

1157
00:47:26,960 --> 00:47:28,440
Speaker 8: and you overthink about like yo, what.

1158
00:47:28,480 --> 00:47:30,360
Speaker 1: I oh sorry, basically asking me, how do you not

1159
00:47:30,520 --> 00:47:33,880
Speaker 1: ever think? Yeah, yeah, about the social about social media.

1160
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:36,319
Speaker 8: Like social media and the content always being out there,

1161
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 8: because like I did it.

1162
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:40,520
Speaker 1: But like I mean, you put your phone down, man,

1163
00:47:40,600 --> 00:47:43,160
Speaker 1: you walk outside here, let me just let's let the

1164
00:47:43,239 --> 00:47:45,880
Speaker 1: videos spin. Yeah yeah, I mean you can't ever think it.

1165
00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:48,040
Speaker 1: I mean I do ever think it plenty, but like

1166
00:47:49,880 --> 00:47:51,040
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, I believe me.

1167
00:47:51,360 --> 00:47:54,759
Speaker 3: Yeah, coming from the outside is not that deep. It is,

1168
00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:58,279
Speaker 3: believe me. Like it's I think it's in it's in

1169
00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:00,960
Speaker 3: the person's head, like I see other people doing. I

1170
00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:03,040
Speaker 3: don't think anything bad. I'm like, this is fucking great.

1171
00:48:03,200 --> 00:48:07,360
Speaker 1: Well, also, like nobody cares about you. Nobody cares, nobody.

1172
00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:11,240
Speaker 1: It's uh, it's both. It's both. It's both a tragic

1173
00:48:11,360 --> 00:48:14,040
Speaker 1: fact and a beautiful fact that nobody really cares about you.

1174
00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:16,160
Speaker 3: And this guy was literally screaming it don't really matter.

1175
00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:18,919
Speaker 1: Nobody cares. Yeah right, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, nobody cares.

1176
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:21,480
Speaker 1: Nobody listening to you, nobody. Everyone has their own life,

1177
00:48:21,480 --> 00:48:24,799
Speaker 1: everyone's doing their own things. So you know, man, what's

1178
00:48:24,840 --> 00:48:28,279
Speaker 1: your name again? Jason Jason, Jason, dude, thanks for I

1179
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:31,120
Speaker 1: really appreciate your your vulnerability and your honesty. I appreciate

1180
00:48:31,120 --> 00:48:33,680
Speaker 1: you sharing your story with us here. I hope it

1181
00:48:33,800 --> 00:48:36,759
Speaker 1: was a positive experience for you. Yeah, and I appreciate you.

1182
00:48:37,000 --> 00:48:38,320
Speaker 1: Is Is there anything else you want to say to

1183
00:48:38,360 --> 00:48:39,960
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we get out of here?

1184
00:48:40,120 --> 00:48:40,319
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1185
00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:46,840
Speaker 8: Yeah, right now, bro, we here were just follow my

1186
00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:52,600
Speaker 8: TikTok Sober Facts, Sober Facts, and in my Instagram, I'm

1187
00:48:52,640 --> 00:48:57,520
Speaker 8: doing content like I ride my bike like real crazy sure,

1188
00:48:57,880 --> 00:49:00,800
Speaker 8: like really get into traffic and all that. You know,

1189
00:49:01,040 --> 00:49:02,880
Speaker 8: I've still got to do crazy stuff in the extent,

1190
00:49:02,960 --> 00:49:05,120
Speaker 8: you know, like thissk my life and stuff. Okay, I

1191
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:07,279
Speaker 8: got a little constant Yeah you always you always end

1192
00:49:07,360 --> 00:49:09,920
Speaker 8: up you know. There was something Yeah, yeah.

1193
00:49:09,840 --> 00:49:11,320
Speaker 3: I got the go pro I put it on it.

1194
00:49:11,440 --> 00:49:14,439
Speaker 8: Okay, yeah, yeah, Now I appreciate you brought on. Really

1195
00:49:14,480 --> 00:49:17,719
Speaker 8: got much to say, you know, I'm grateful. We what

1196
00:49:18,000 --> 00:49:20,640
Speaker 8: was this Washington, Washington Square Park? Yeah yeah, shout out

1197
00:49:20,680 --> 00:49:24,080
Speaker 8: to Corona Queens. You know, hopefully this video goes up,

1198
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:24,759
Speaker 8: you know.

1199
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:29,680
Speaker 1: Weird walking wrong reveal. Jason, Nice to meet you, man,

1200
00:49:29,800 --> 00:49:32,680
Speaker 1: Stay uh, stay safe, okay, don't don't don't crash your

1201
00:49:32,719 --> 00:49:33,839
Speaker 1: bike and kill yourself or anything.

1202
00:49:33,880 --> 00:49:34,000
Speaker 6: Hi.

1203
00:49:34,040 --> 00:49:34,560
Speaker 1: What's your name?

1204
00:49:34,640 --> 00:49:35,759
Speaker 10: My name is Ellen, Ellen.

1205
00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:38,279
Speaker 1: Nice to meet you, Lyle, to meet you. How's life going?

1206
00:49:38,480 --> 00:49:39,200
Speaker 10: That's going great?

1207
00:49:39,320 --> 00:49:41,880
Speaker 1: Wait, tell me more. That's such a h That was

1208
00:49:41,960 --> 00:49:44,480
Speaker 1: like an instinctively positive answer.

1209
00:49:44,560 --> 00:49:46,839
Speaker 10: My mom vacation with my family. We're having a great

1210
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:47,520
Speaker 10: time with friends.

1211
00:49:47,719 --> 00:49:50,800
Speaker 1: That's so awesome. Well, how how like how long have

1212
00:49:50,840 --> 00:49:51,600
Speaker 1: you had a family?

1213
00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:55,279
Speaker 10: I have a ten year old and a twelve year

1214
00:49:55,320 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 10: old and I've been married for fourteen years.

1215
00:49:57,480 --> 00:49:59,000
Speaker 1: Was that any of that difficult?

1216
00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:00,719
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1217
00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:02,480
Speaker 2: Was it all?

1218
00:50:02,640 --> 00:50:03,120
Speaker 1: Was it worth it?

1219
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:03,640
Speaker 3: Yes?

1220
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:04,879
Speaker 1: Would you do it again?

1221
00:50:05,040 --> 00:50:05,200
Speaker 7: Yes?

1222
00:50:05,440 --> 00:50:07,120
Speaker 1: Do you have any advice for someone trying to like

1223
00:50:07,239 --> 00:50:09,440
Speaker 1: start a family or like, who's like just started a family?

1224
00:50:09,600 --> 00:50:11,520
Speaker 10: Communicate and she be honest.

1225
00:50:12,280 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 1: Has your like communication with your family gotten like like

1226
00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 1: better over time? Yes?

1227
00:50:19,239 --> 00:50:19,600
Speaker 10: It has.

1228
00:50:20,480 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 1: How are they your like children?

1229
00:50:22,040 --> 00:50:22,160
Speaker 5: Oh?

1230
00:50:22,200 --> 00:50:23,560
Speaker 1: I have a question because you have like kids?

1231
00:50:23,640 --> 00:50:23,759
Speaker 7: Right?

1232
00:50:23,800 --> 00:50:25,800
Speaker 1: Your kids are like a little older, you know, Like,

1233
00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:28,000
Speaker 1: are you are you worried about the future or do

1234
00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:29,279
Speaker 1: you think everything will be all right?

1235
00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:29,640
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1236
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 10: I worry.

1237
00:50:30,480 --> 00:50:31,360
Speaker 1: What do you worry about?

1238
00:50:31,560 --> 00:50:36,479
Speaker 10: I worry about that there's too much access to things.

1239
00:50:36,920 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 1: Well, tell me more.

1240
00:50:38,560 --> 00:50:41,839
Speaker 10: With the internet, with social media. I worry about their

1241
00:50:41,880 --> 00:50:42,439
Speaker 10: mental health.

1242
00:50:43,239 --> 00:50:44,800
Speaker 1: Are you do your kids seem like they have like

1243
00:50:44,840 --> 00:50:45,640
Speaker 1: good mental health?

1244
00:50:46,560 --> 00:50:49,759
Speaker 10: Yes? But I seemed like that too, And then you know,

1245
00:50:49,920 --> 00:50:51,000
Speaker 10: it gets life gets hard.

1246
00:50:51,640 --> 00:50:54,920
Speaker 1: When you were ten, what do you remember about your

1247
00:50:55,000 --> 00:50:56,959
Speaker 1: life for like, when you were your kid's age.

1248
00:50:57,719 --> 00:51:01,640
Speaker 10: When I was ten, it was easy.

1249
00:51:02,280 --> 00:51:02,879
Speaker 1: Life was easy.

1250
00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:03,560
Speaker 10: Life was easy.

1251
00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:05,800
Speaker 1: Do you think life was easier for you than that

1252
00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:06,920
Speaker 1: it is for your kids now?

1253
00:51:08,520 --> 00:51:08,920
Speaker 11: I don't know.

1254
00:51:10,120 --> 00:51:13,640
Speaker 10: Maybe it was less complicated.

1255
00:51:15,000 --> 00:51:17,440
Speaker 1: What era of your life has been the least complicated?

1256
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:19,600
Speaker 10: Probably my childhood does right.

1257
00:51:19,600 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: Now feel complicated?

1258
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:21,799
Speaker 5: Oh?

1259
00:51:22,640 --> 00:51:27,000
Speaker 10: Yeah, you gotta work and take care of your work

1260
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:28,160
Speaker 10: and take care of your family.

1261
00:51:28,480 --> 00:51:30,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's complicated, but see you seem like you're having

1262
00:51:30,640 --> 00:51:33,439
Speaker 1: a great time things are. Now there's my family, there's

1263
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:36,160
Speaker 1: your family. Well, I'll let you go, unless if you

1264
00:51:36,200 --> 00:51:36,919
Speaker 1: want to keep talking.

1265
00:51:37,040 --> 00:51:38,279
Speaker 10: I'm just talking about life.

1266
00:51:38,360 --> 00:51:39,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're talking about life.

1267
00:51:39,320 --> 00:51:40,439
Speaker 10: You know, a get go about life?

1268
00:51:40,480 --> 00:51:40,680
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1269
00:51:40,719 --> 00:51:41,400
Speaker 1: Is that your husband?

1270
00:51:41,480 --> 00:51:42,640
Speaker 10: That's my husband and my daughter?

1271
00:51:42,719 --> 00:51:44,440
Speaker 1: Had you had you and your husband made at a bar?

1272
00:51:44,719 --> 00:51:46,560
Speaker 1: You guys have met at a bar. Don't you ever

1273
00:51:46,560 --> 00:51:47,919
Speaker 1: think about it? Didn't you ever think about crazy?

1274
00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 3: Like?

1275
00:51:48,080 --> 00:51:50,040
Speaker 1: Oh if I just stayed in that night, my whole

1276
00:51:50,080 --> 00:51:52,880
Speaker 1: life would be different. Isn't that crazy? What did he

1277
00:51:52,920 --> 00:51:53,799
Speaker 1: first say to you at the bar?

1278
00:51:54,800 --> 00:51:56,120
Speaker 10: You're too old and too smart?

1279
00:51:56,640 --> 00:51:57,400
Speaker 2: He said that to you.

1280
00:51:57,560 --> 00:52:00,560
Speaker 11: Yeah, he only dated young girl. Oh, my son really wet.

1281
00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:06,360
Speaker 11: He only dated young girls. And I was getting my

1282
00:52:06,440 --> 00:52:08,520
Speaker 11: master's degree, So he said I was too old and

1283
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:09,000
Speaker 11: too smart.

1284
00:52:09,120 --> 00:52:10,839
Speaker 1: He said you were too old. Were not offended when

1285
00:52:10,880 --> 00:52:11,839
Speaker 1: he said you were too old?

1286
00:52:12,640 --> 00:52:15,000
Speaker 10: No, I just showed him that I was better than

1287
00:52:15,040 --> 00:52:15,640
Speaker 10: all those girls.

1288
00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:19,560
Speaker 1: Okay, very cool? Hmm. And what was it like a

1289
00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:21,439
Speaker 1: Is it like in a college.

1290
00:52:21,120 --> 00:52:23,360
Speaker 10: Town or was it in Hermosa Beach, California?

1291
00:52:23,400 --> 00:52:25,960
Speaker 1: For most of Beach, California? Very nice? What was your

1292
00:52:25,960 --> 00:52:26,880
Speaker 1: first date after the bar?

1293
00:52:26,960 --> 00:52:30,840
Speaker 10: Do you remember a restaurant by in Hermosa?

1294
00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:32,600
Speaker 1: What made you fall in love with your husband?

1295
00:52:32,640 --> 00:52:32,759
Speaker 5: When?

1296
00:52:32,800 --> 00:52:33,439
Speaker 1: When was the moment?

1297
00:52:33,719 --> 00:52:33,839
Speaker 5: Oh?

1298
00:52:34,000 --> 00:52:34,720
Speaker 10: Oh, there's Danny.

1299
00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:39,040
Speaker 1: His honesty, his honesty. I guess, I guess the fact

1300
00:52:39,080 --> 00:52:40,640
Speaker 1: that he came up to you and immediately said you

1301
00:52:40,760 --> 00:52:44,920
Speaker 1: are too old is an indicator of some form of honesty.

1302
00:52:45,239 --> 00:52:45,600
Speaker 10: Exactly.

1303
00:52:45,680 --> 00:52:46,840
Speaker 1: Well, this is your whole family.

1304
00:52:47,400 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 10: No, we're we're heading to Cooper'stown.

1305
00:52:49,440 --> 00:52:52,640
Speaker 1: Oh the base here, Oh, you got a whole clan.

1306
00:52:52,840 --> 00:52:54,080
Speaker 10: I got a whole there's more.

1307
00:52:54,239 --> 00:52:56,160
Speaker 1: Are they troublesommer? Are they well behaved? There?

1308
00:52:56,200 --> 00:52:58,040
Speaker 10: Well, I'm a principle of an elementary school, so.

1309
00:52:58,080 --> 00:52:59,840
Speaker 1: There was the principal of elementary school.

1310
00:53:00,320 --> 00:53:02,920
Speaker 10: Well really, I'll mess those kids up if they mess around?

1311
00:53:03,040 --> 00:53:04,040
Speaker 1: Really have you?

1312
00:53:04,239 --> 00:53:04,359
Speaker 5: Uh?

1313
00:53:04,960 --> 00:53:07,160
Speaker 1: Do you do you rule with an eye and fist

1314
00:53:07,280 --> 00:53:08,320
Speaker 1: or do you rule with compassion?

1315
00:53:08,440 --> 00:53:08,920
Speaker 10: Compassion?

1316
00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:12,680
Speaker 1: That's nice? What's the number one? What's what's the number

1317
00:53:12,680 --> 00:53:17,160
Speaker 1: one issue that like kids are facing these days? From

1318
00:53:17,239 --> 00:53:19,080
Speaker 1: from what you observe at.

1319
00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:22,400
Speaker 10: The school I work at, They're they're entitled.

1320
00:53:23,440 --> 00:53:26,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, you think more so than like when when when

1321
00:53:26,560 --> 00:53:27,359
Speaker 1: you were a kid?

1322
00:53:27,719 --> 00:53:29,400
Speaker 10: What do your parents are? Lawnmower?

1323
00:53:29,560 --> 00:53:31,799
Speaker 11: Parents like to plow down all the obstacles in front

1324
00:53:31,800 --> 00:53:34,160
Speaker 11: of them so they don't have to deal with adversity. Interesting,

1325
00:53:34,200 --> 00:53:36,760
Speaker 11: and then they don't learn how to deal with struggles.

1326
00:53:37,000 --> 00:53:37,520
Speaker 1: Interesting.

1327
00:53:38,560 --> 00:53:39,279
Speaker 10: Okay, I gotta go.

1328
00:53:39,400 --> 00:53:41,640
Speaker 1: Okay, Well it was very what's your name? Ellen? Ellen?

1329
00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:43,200
Speaker 1: Very nice to meet you, and thank you very much

1330
00:53:43,239 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 1: for chatting with a Get go. You have a great

1331
00:53:44,600 --> 00:53:48,759
Speaker 1: life too. I'll see you around the universe. What a

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Speaker 1: nice uh, what a nice guest appearance from a from

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Speaker 1: an elementary school principal. That was a good interview. Hi,

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Speaker 1: I'm Nicole, Nicole. Nice to meet you to meet. What's up, Nicole?

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Speaker 1: How's it, how's it going? How's life?

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Speaker 3: What's nice?

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Speaker 1: What's happening?

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Speaker 12: Life is great? Life is great.

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Speaker 5: Well, I was just watching people waiting around in the

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Speaker 5: fountain without shoes on.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: I've seen so many people watching watching their goocha's just

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Speaker 5: squatting over the you know the stream.

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Speaker 12: Yeah, I get reels of that all the time.

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Speaker 5: But I haven't seen this fountain in person, so I

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Speaker 5: was just kind of like waiting to see if somebody

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Speaker 5: would pop a squat, but so far, no luck. Only

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Speaker 5: people waiting around without shoes on, which is also a choice.

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Speaker 1: Do you live around here?

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Speaker 7: I do?

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00:54:32,320 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 3: Yeah?

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00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:34,000
Speaker 1: And what do you go to school?

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Speaker 6: You do?

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00:54:35,160 --> 00:54:36,040
Speaker 1: What do you go to school for?

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Speaker 12: I'm a grad student in opera?

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Speaker 1: You're a grad student in opera?

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Speaker 7: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: So are you like an opera singer?

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Speaker 7: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Really?

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Speaker 12: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: Cool?

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00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:47,680
Speaker 12: Yeah?

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00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:49,520
Speaker 1: What you seem embarrassed about it?

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Speaker 5: It's a very niche interest, extremely niche. Yeah, extremely niche.

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Speaker 5: But I am a master's level.

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Speaker 1: That's amazing. How your how do you keep your voice

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Speaker 1: in check?

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00:55:00,400 --> 00:55:00,600
Speaker 3: You know?

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Speaker 5: I try not to smoke very much. I try to

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Speaker 5: do vocalese like warm ups and stuff. I try to

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Speaker 5: I try to keep a regular practice schedule, but it's

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Speaker 5: the summer, so things are a little bit loosey goosey.

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Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, okay, yeah, Now, what's the hardest part about

1375
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Speaker 1: being an opera singer?

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00:55:23,239 --> 00:55:29,759
Speaker 5: About being an opera singer, probably h I think it

1377
00:55:29,840 --> 00:55:32,000
Speaker 5: really depends on what kind of opera singer you are.

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00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:35,440
Speaker 5: For me, like, I'm a soprano, and so you know,

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00:55:36,000 --> 00:55:39,200
Speaker 5: most opera singers are sopranos. But if you're a tenor,

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Speaker 5: if you're a guy, you've got a lot more opportunities.

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Speaker 1: So you are in a area with a lot of

1382
00:55:46,719 --> 00:55:48,359
Speaker 1: other opera singers, right.

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Speaker 12: Which is great, Like that is the best part for me.

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Speaker 1: I don't feel like ranger guys. I'm wondering if they're

1385
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Speaker 1: gonna I've never ever in my life Beten kicked out

1386
00:55:56,680 --> 00:55:59,040
Speaker 1: of this park, but I'm curious. Wait, they're walking past them.

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Speaker 12: Have you done a lot of interview is in this park?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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00:56:01,280 --> 00:56:03,960
Speaker 1: This is the one place. Every single other place I

1390
00:56:04,040 --> 00:56:05,480
Speaker 1: go to in the world to do this, I end

1391
00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:07,600
Speaker 1: up eventually getting kicked out, but never at this part.

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00:56:07,680 --> 00:56:09,600
Speaker 5: Well, I mean, just look around. There's a woman behind

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00:56:09,680 --> 00:56:12,080
Speaker 5: us with like two parrots sitting on her shoulder.

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Speaker 7: Right.

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00:56:13,360 --> 00:56:14,960
Speaker 1: Oh, holy shit, there is a moment behind us with

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00:56:14,960 --> 00:56:17,200
Speaker 1: two bards. Yeah, okay, I gotta go talk to her

1397
00:56:17,239 --> 00:56:19,560
Speaker 1: after this. You got this is myself. I don't even

1398
00:56:19,560 --> 00:56:20,120
Speaker 1: have to record it.

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Speaker 12: I was just wandering. I I wandered in like waiting

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00:56:24,840 --> 00:56:27,000
Speaker 12: to see something crazy going on.

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Speaker 1: So okay, remember I was gonna ask you the opera

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Speaker 1: scene Like the other people, there are opera singers cool?

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00:56:34,480 --> 00:56:38,239
Speaker 1: Or are they like theater kids? What's the demo, what's

1404
00:56:38,280 --> 00:56:39,319
Speaker 1: the vibe, what's the scene?

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00:56:39,320 --> 00:56:41,439
Speaker 5: You know, a lot of there's a lot of crossover. Yeah,

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00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:43,160
Speaker 5: a lot of a lot of opera singers start as

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00:56:43,200 --> 00:56:46,759
Speaker 5: theater kids. Because I mean in your your hometown, is

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Speaker 5: there an opera is there? Is there an opera stage?

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00:56:49,719 --> 00:56:53,319
Speaker 5: Probably not, but there's probably a community theater, so there

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Speaker 5: there does tend to be the ven diagram is almost

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00:56:56,800 --> 00:56:59,080
Speaker 5: a circle, I would say, yeah, which might be a

1412
00:56:59,120 --> 00:57:00,799
Speaker 5: controversial tape that you used to.

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Speaker 1: Be a theater kid?

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Speaker 12: Yes, yes I did.

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Speaker 1: Do you still identify as a theater kid?

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Speaker 5: I think a part of me does. I think a

1417
00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:08,799
Speaker 5: part of me really does especially being back in New York.

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00:57:08,880 --> 00:57:11,520
Speaker 5: I'm like, there's something that there's like a part of

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00:57:11,800 --> 00:57:15,960
Speaker 5: my child self that like is extremely excited to be

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00:57:16,080 --> 00:57:18,800
Speaker 5: here just for the clout, I would say, but also

1421
00:57:18,920 --> 00:57:22,120
Speaker 5: realistically in my adult brain, I'm like, I'm just paying

1422
00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:25,600
Speaker 5: a lot of money to live here and you know, exist,

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00:57:25,840 --> 00:57:27,440
Speaker 5: and so there's that.

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00:57:27,600 --> 00:57:28,959
Speaker 12: But it is great. It's a great city.

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00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:29,640
Speaker 2: I do love it.

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00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:30,919
Speaker 1: Does singing up or hurt?

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00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:35,360
Speaker 5: It shouldn't, but sometimes it do be hurting. And when

1428
00:57:35,400 --> 00:57:37,320
Speaker 5: it do be hurting, you gotta you gotta stop.

1429
00:57:38,320 --> 00:57:40,880
Speaker 1: What happens if you get like a cold, uh, you

1430
00:57:41,200 --> 00:57:42,000
Speaker 1: just get you just.

1431
00:57:42,120 --> 00:57:47,840
Speaker 5: Gotta either take steroids to try and suppress the symptoms

1432
00:57:48,000 --> 00:57:50,520
Speaker 5: to get you through whatever you're getting through, whether that's

1433
00:57:50,600 --> 00:57:53,439
Speaker 5: like a show or if you can, you just gotta

1434
00:57:53,480 --> 00:57:56,960
Speaker 5: take time off. Unfortunately, do you get grades, Like do

1435
00:57:57,040 --> 00:58:00,000
Speaker 5: you have like a person like you sit stand, you say,

1436
00:58:00,080 --> 00:58:02,720
Speaker 5: in a room and you sing and then someone go

1437
00:58:02,920 --> 00:58:06,080
Speaker 5: like checks or box around. That's literally what graduate opera

1438
00:58:06,120 --> 00:58:09,120
Speaker 5: school is like, Yes, like that. That is the majority

1439
00:58:09,160 --> 00:58:11,960
Speaker 5: of my classes is getting up. I mean we have

1440
00:58:12,040 --> 00:58:14,560
Speaker 5: to take theory and history and all of that good stuff.

1441
00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:16,720
Speaker 5: That does you know, that's a separate thing. But a

1442
00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:19,120
Speaker 5: lot of the classes are a person of the profession

1443
00:58:19,600 --> 00:58:22,520
Speaker 5: and they give you their hot takes, and it's very funny.

1444
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:27,440
Speaker 5: Like the final for singers is called a jury, and

1445
00:58:27,760 --> 00:58:29,480
Speaker 5: you stand up in front of a room of older

1446
00:58:29,760 --> 00:58:33,720
Speaker 5: like musical people and they give you feedback. But you'll

1447
00:58:33,800 --> 00:58:36,760
Speaker 5: have one person give you the feedback of like, oh,

1448
00:58:37,360 --> 00:58:40,120
Speaker 5: this song you sang was great in your voice, good job,

1449
00:58:41,000 --> 00:58:42,960
Speaker 5: just work on this little thing. And then the next

1450
00:58:43,040 --> 00:58:45,720
Speaker 5: person will be like, that song you chose was terrible

1451
00:58:45,760 --> 00:58:47,880
Speaker 5: for your voice. I don't know who let you sing that.

1452
00:58:48,680 --> 00:58:51,200
Speaker 12: Girl you are you are doomed to failure.

1453
00:58:51,400 --> 00:58:53,520
Speaker 5: And then the next person will be like, everything was

1454
00:58:53,600 --> 00:58:56,800
Speaker 5: perfect except you mispronounced this word.

1455
00:58:58,200 --> 00:58:58,800
Speaker 12: In English?

1456
00:58:59,120 --> 00:58:59,640
Speaker 7: Is you know?

1457
00:58:59,800 --> 00:59:03,560
Speaker 5: And and but everything else was great. The feedback is

1458
00:59:03,680 --> 00:59:06,000
Speaker 5: like wildly different, and so it's kind of hard to

1459
00:59:06,080 --> 00:59:07,120
Speaker 5: take something away from it.

1460
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Speaker 1: So what's the ultimate goal? Is it like be in

1461
00:59:09,400 --> 00:59:10,680
Speaker 1: like the New York Opera?

1462
00:59:11,240 --> 00:59:15,920
Speaker 5: Well, I mean that would be wonderful. I actually enjoy

1463
00:59:16,280 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 5: higher education. So I do hope to be a professor

1464
00:59:20,200 --> 00:59:23,680
Speaker 5: someday of music and to carry on carry on the

1465
00:59:24,040 --> 00:59:26,040
Speaker 5: legacy of teaching this very.

1466
00:59:27,120 --> 00:59:29,120
Speaker 1: This might be a stupid question, but is can it

1467
00:59:29,280 --> 00:59:32,440
Speaker 1: can can the voice be taught? Is it not just

1468
00:59:32,560 --> 00:59:34,520
Speaker 1: something that one has it?

1469
00:59:34,760 --> 00:59:35,360
Speaker 12: It's both.

1470
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Speaker 5: I think our anatomy plays a large part in kind

1471
00:59:38,720 --> 00:59:42,440
Speaker 5: of where we start. Like if you know some some

1472
00:59:42,720 --> 00:59:44,960
Speaker 5: for some people, singing comes naturally. I think we can

1473
00:59:45,040 --> 00:59:47,000
Speaker 5: all we all know that, right, Like there are some

1474
00:59:47,120 --> 00:59:49,360
Speaker 5: people that we grew up with they just seem like

1475
00:59:49,400 --> 00:59:51,680
Speaker 5: they could always singing kind of thing, and then some

1476
00:59:51,880 --> 00:59:55,720
Speaker 5: people struggle more so, I think if you enjoy music

1477
00:59:55,760 --> 00:59:57,840
Speaker 5: and you enjoy singing, there's a lot that you can

1478
00:59:58,040 --> 01:00:01,920
Speaker 5: actually improve on. But we all come from different starting places,

1479
01:00:02,000 --> 01:00:04,480
Speaker 5: and I think generally the people who gravitate to opera,

1480
01:00:05,280 --> 01:00:08,120
Speaker 5: they usually were like, you know, like the theater kid.

1481
01:00:08,240 --> 01:00:10,200
Speaker 5: They got a lot of praise for their voice when

1482
01:00:10,200 --> 01:00:12,360
Speaker 5: they were younger, and so they grew up to pursue

1483
01:00:12,440 --> 01:00:16,360
Speaker 5: this thing. Like you don't usually see people pursuing opera

1484
01:00:16,400 --> 01:00:18,280
Speaker 5: who maybe like are just.

1485
01:00:18,360 --> 01:00:20,960
Speaker 1: In it for the people who sound like Abraham Lincoln.

1486
01:00:20,720 --> 01:00:22,080
Speaker 5: Who sound like shit, but are in it for the

1487
01:00:22,120 --> 01:00:24,960
Speaker 5: love of the game, Like usually not so much. Usually

1488
01:00:25,160 --> 01:00:26,480
Speaker 5: that's more like casual.

1489
01:00:26,640 --> 01:00:28,560
Speaker 1: But yeah, what do you do outside of opera singing?

1490
01:00:28,600 --> 01:00:29,840
Speaker 1: Do you have hobbies of some kind?

1491
01:00:30,320 --> 01:00:34,120
Speaker 12: Yeah, I I am a learning how to tune pianos.

1492
01:00:34,400 --> 01:00:37,680
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so I go, I do you tune them

1493
01:00:37,720 --> 01:00:38,360
Speaker 1: with your voice?

1494
01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:43,480
Speaker 5: Kind of it uses like similar muscles, I would say,

1495
01:00:43,760 --> 01:00:45,480
Speaker 5: I would say, because you have to. You have to

1496
01:00:45,560 --> 01:00:48,360
Speaker 5: recognize when something's out of tune, which most people can

1497
01:00:48,440 --> 01:00:50,520
Speaker 5: do that. Like you play a piano and it sounds

1498
01:00:50,560 --> 01:00:53,840
Speaker 5: like shit, like, oh, that needs to be tuned, you know.

1499
01:00:54,040 --> 01:00:54,760
Speaker 12: Same with singing.

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01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:57,560
Speaker 5: You you hear you hear someone singing out of tune,

1501
01:00:57,600 --> 01:01:00,720
Speaker 5: and you know, you know that that's happening, so you

1502
01:01:00,800 --> 01:01:04,040
Speaker 5: know it overlaps for sure. But yeah, I like to

1503
01:01:04,160 --> 01:01:06,400
Speaker 5: go in there and and take the guts out and

1504
01:01:06,560 --> 01:01:09,280
Speaker 5: fiddle around and try and put it back together and

1505
01:01:09,680 --> 01:01:11,800
Speaker 5: yeah mmmm and.

1506
01:01:12,160 --> 01:01:14,000
Speaker 1: A do you plan to stay here in New York

1507
01:01:14,080 --> 01:01:16,439
Speaker 1: City or would you go somewhere else to do your opera?

1508
01:01:16,600 --> 01:01:17,720
Speaker 12: I really want to stay here.

1509
01:01:18,040 --> 01:01:21,400
Speaker 5: There's a lot going on talking to you and Washington

1510
01:01:21,640 --> 01:01:24,240
Speaker 5: Square Park and you know, there's a lot to do,

1511
01:01:25,160 --> 01:01:28,560
Speaker 5: There's a lot of people to see. There's a lot

1512
01:01:28,600 --> 01:01:32,000
Speaker 5: of gooches to be washed in public fountains, Like where else.

1513
01:01:31,840 --> 01:01:32,280
Speaker 2: Do you get?

1514
01:01:32,680 --> 01:01:34,960
Speaker 1: I do really want to dive into this fountain? Do

1515
01:01:35,000 --> 01:01:35,640
Speaker 1: you want to go next?

1516
01:01:35,680 --> 01:01:35,840
Speaker 5: Sir?

1517
01:01:38,120 --> 01:01:38,280
Speaker 12: Oh?

1518
01:01:38,480 --> 01:01:42,920
Speaker 1: You wanted to. You want to photograph my hands? Okay,

1519
01:01:43,080 --> 01:01:44,919
Speaker 1: well wait, give me give me one, give me one moment,

1520
01:01:44,920 --> 01:01:46,400
Speaker 1: and then we can we can figure that out.

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01:01:46,760 --> 01:01:47,960
Speaker 12: Ye have beautiful hands.

1522
01:01:48,440 --> 01:01:50,720
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, there's there's a gentleman who wants to photograph

1523
01:01:50,800 --> 01:01:53,560
Speaker 1: my hands. Nobody's ever asked me to photograph my hands before.

1524
01:01:53,760 --> 01:01:57,120
Speaker 12: Low key, that might be like kind of a fetish thing.

1525
01:01:57,200 --> 01:01:58,680
Speaker 1: So do you think it's a fetish thing? I don't care.

1526
01:01:58,720 --> 01:01:59,200
Speaker 1: I don't mind.

1527
01:01:59,240 --> 01:02:01,720
Speaker 12: Someone can to ask what are you gonna do with

1528
01:02:01,760 --> 01:02:02,320
Speaker 12: the photos?

1529
01:02:02,400 --> 01:02:02,520
Speaker 3: Oh?

1530
01:02:02,600 --> 01:02:04,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, you just enjoy doing it.

1531
01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:08,960
Speaker 5: I can't deny that those are very lovely. They're very

1532
01:02:09,080 --> 01:02:12,080
Speaker 5: ergonomically shaped. You could hold a lot of different objects

1533
01:02:12,120 --> 01:02:12,760
Speaker 5: with those fingers.

1534
01:02:12,800 --> 01:02:16,640
Speaker 1: Do you photograph a lot of people's hands? Really?

1535
01:02:17,120 --> 01:02:21,840
Speaker 7: It's it's wonderful to see a possible story within those handes.

1536
01:02:23,760 --> 01:02:26,000
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna I'm gonna have to like I'm gonna

1537
01:02:26,000 --> 01:02:27,640
Speaker 1: I'm gonna have would you would you be willing to

1538
01:02:27,720 --> 01:02:31,480
Speaker 1: sit down and tell me more about this hat? You

1539
01:02:31,520 --> 01:02:33,439
Speaker 1: don't want to sit down. I gotta know, I gotta

1540
01:02:33,440 --> 01:02:35,360
Speaker 1: know more about this hand photography business.

1541
01:02:35,520 --> 01:02:37,760
Speaker 7: Just short, I mean, I'm happy to show you one

1542
01:02:37,840 --> 01:02:39,160
Speaker 7: I did yesterday.

1543
01:02:39,240 --> 01:02:39,920
Speaker 1: Or the day before.

1544
01:02:40,480 --> 01:02:45,240
Speaker 7: It's up to you to construct this story that person.

1545
01:02:46,080 --> 01:02:49,720
Speaker 1: Wait, who's the last person whose hands that you I

1546
01:02:49,760 --> 01:02:52,960
Speaker 1: don't know anyone. I just do it, and do you

1547
01:02:53,080 --> 01:02:54,760
Speaker 1: just you go up to random people in the park

1548
01:02:54,800 --> 01:02:56,960
Speaker 1: and you ask them to if you can photograph.

1549
01:02:56,800 --> 01:02:59,479
Speaker 7: Walking on the street and other places of the city.

1550
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:02,600
Speaker 1: Yes, can I see the most the best picture of

1551
01:03:02,680 --> 01:03:03,440
Speaker 1: hands that you have.

1552
01:03:04,000 --> 01:03:07,720
Speaker 12: You're gonna end up on Wiki hands the last one.

1553
01:03:08,040 --> 01:03:12,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, show me the last picture of hands that you took. Okay,

1554
01:03:12,040 --> 01:03:15,960
Speaker 1: all right, all right in the meantime, Okay, I'll we'll

1555
01:03:16,080 --> 01:03:17,959
Speaker 1: chat while he's pulling with a hand picture. Has anyone

1556
01:03:18,000 --> 01:03:19,520
Speaker 1: ever asked you for a picture of your hands?

1557
01:03:19,880 --> 01:03:22,040
Speaker 5: I've tried to sell pictures of my feet, but I

1558
01:03:22,120 --> 01:03:24,720
Speaker 5: had no buyers. I had no takers really, So if

1559
01:03:24,760 --> 01:03:25,720
Speaker 5: you know anyone.

1560
01:03:25,720 --> 01:03:27,320
Speaker 1: Have you actually tried to sell pictures I have?

1561
01:03:27,520 --> 01:03:29,200
Speaker 12: Maybe it's because I have fat bunyans.

1562
01:03:29,240 --> 01:03:31,600
Speaker 1: I don't know where did you Where did you try

1563
01:03:31,680 --> 01:03:32,120
Speaker 1: to sell these?

1564
01:03:32,280 --> 01:03:32,440
Speaker 7: You know?

1565
01:03:32,560 --> 01:03:35,320
Speaker 5: I had like a private Instagram account where I tried

1566
01:03:35,360 --> 01:03:37,520
Speaker 5: to sell, but again, like I don't think I was.

1567
01:03:38,040 --> 01:03:40,160
Speaker 12: I'm not tech savvy enough to like get into the

1568
01:03:40,280 --> 01:03:41,240
Speaker 12: right crowd, you know.

1569
01:03:41,280 --> 01:03:43,960
Speaker 1: Okay, I would, yeah, because there's definitely a there's definitely

1570
01:03:44,000 --> 01:03:44,840
Speaker 1: a business to it.

1571
01:03:45,120 --> 01:03:49,640
Speaker 5: Well, if anyone is really interested in asymmetrical bunyan feet,

1572
01:03:49,800 --> 01:03:51,960
Speaker 5: I can I have what they're I have the goods.

1573
01:03:52,200 --> 01:03:55,040
Speaker 1: If you genuinely want to, you can. You can uh

1574
01:03:55,520 --> 01:03:58,520
Speaker 1: plug your private feet Instagram if you really want to.

1575
01:03:59,000 --> 01:04:01,800
Speaker 5: You know, I think I deact. I let the dream die,

1576
01:04:02,400 --> 01:04:06,560
Speaker 5: but you're reigniting the dream. I'm wondering if he's going

1577
01:04:06,640 --> 01:04:08,760
Speaker 5: to ask for some some feet picks as well as hands.

1578
01:04:08,760 --> 01:04:10,480
Speaker 1: You can take pictures of my hands If I don't care,

1579
01:04:10,600 --> 01:04:12,600
Speaker 1: Let let you know what, let the universe use my

1580
01:04:12,720 --> 01:04:15,800
Speaker 1: body in whatever way is helpful choice. I don't care anymore,

1581
01:04:16,160 --> 01:04:18,280
Speaker 1: Just like let let your.

1582
01:04:18,200 --> 01:04:19,080
Speaker 12: Body is your art.

1583
01:04:19,280 --> 01:04:20,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, my body. I don't know if my body is

1584
01:04:20,760 --> 01:04:23,440
Speaker 1: my art, but my body is. My body is resources.

1585
01:04:23,520 --> 01:04:26,440
Speaker 1: It's carbon. Yeah, it's something if someone can use it

1586
01:04:26,560 --> 01:04:31,040
Speaker 1: to whatever their own. Further that like, if this guy,

1587
01:04:31,240 --> 01:04:33,000
Speaker 1: I don't know why he wants pictures of my hands,

1588
01:04:33,040 --> 01:04:35,000
Speaker 1: if he really wants to take pictures of my hands

1589
01:04:35,040 --> 01:04:37,640
Speaker 1: to you know what, I don't care. I would do whatever.

1590
01:04:37,680 --> 01:04:40,360
Speaker 5: Who cares about I'm a little offended he didn't ask

1591
01:04:40,400 --> 01:04:41,400
Speaker 5: for a photo of my hand.

1592
01:04:41,480 --> 01:04:45,160
Speaker 12: But I mean, I get it, I get it.

1593
01:04:46,760 --> 01:04:50,640
Speaker 1: Something special, Nicole, Nicole, is there anything? It's been lovely

1594
01:04:50,680 --> 01:04:53,160
Speaker 1: talking to you. I'm I'm, I'm I'm looking forward to

1595
01:04:53,200 --> 01:04:55,080
Speaker 1: seeing all your hopes and dreams come true.

1596
01:04:55,200 --> 01:04:56,080
Speaker 12: Thank you so much.

1597
01:04:56,240 --> 01:04:57,440
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1598
01:04:57,480 --> 01:04:58,680
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

1599
01:05:00,240 --> 01:05:05,800
Speaker 12: Wow? I guess like I would like to say, go

1600
01:05:05,960 --> 01:05:06,800
Speaker 12: to therapy.

1601
01:05:07,080 --> 01:05:11,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, the real therapy, to real therapy, or.

1602
01:05:11,960 --> 01:05:13,720
Speaker 12: You know, just talk to chat gybt about you talk

1603
01:05:13,720 --> 01:05:14,160
Speaker 12: to chat.

1604
01:05:14,040 --> 01:05:15,320
Speaker 1: Gybt for therapy a lot.

1605
01:05:15,640 --> 01:05:18,000
Speaker 5: Oh, I mean it's I would say, it's a supplement.

1606
01:05:18,240 --> 01:05:20,920
Speaker 5: I think I need you know, I have O c D,

1607
01:05:21,160 --> 01:05:23,600
Speaker 5: so sometimes I just need the computer to tell me

1608
01:05:23,680 --> 01:05:26,960
Speaker 5: to stop right, Like, I find that it's useful for that.

1609
01:05:27,160 --> 01:05:29,320
Speaker 1: How does your OCD manifest itself the most?

1610
01:05:29,680 --> 01:05:29,880
Speaker 3: Oh?

1611
01:05:30,880 --> 01:05:35,160
Speaker 5: I have like moral OCD moral moral, like existential moral

1612
01:05:35,320 --> 01:05:36,760
Speaker 5: OCD in relationship OCD.

1613
01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:39,680
Speaker 1: Wait, what is existential moral OCDA?

1614
01:05:39,920 --> 01:05:42,160
Speaker 12: Doesn't it sounds No, it doesn't sound bake at all.

1615
01:05:42,400 --> 01:05:44,000
Speaker 1: No, I'm big on existential crap.

1616
01:05:44,960 --> 01:05:48,400
Speaker 5: Well, I so it manifests for me as like worrying

1617
01:05:48,480 --> 01:05:52,320
Speaker 5: about everything I do, negatively impacting either like the environments

1618
01:05:52,400 --> 01:05:54,640
Speaker 5: or other people. Oh, sure, Like I used to be

1619
01:05:54,840 --> 01:05:58,000
Speaker 5: really obsessive about like plastic use, and I used to

1620
01:05:58,120 --> 01:06:01,120
Speaker 5: not let myself drive anywhere just because I'm like, oh,

1621
01:06:01,200 --> 01:06:03,920
Speaker 5: but if I like buy this one plastic thing, like

1622
01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:06,240
Speaker 5: it's going to exist in the universe forever and it'll

1623
01:06:06,240 --> 01:06:08,800
Speaker 5: be my fault and I'll just like spiral out about

1624
01:06:08,840 --> 01:06:09,320
Speaker 5: that stuff.

1625
01:06:09,480 --> 01:06:12,400
Speaker 1: But so yeah, it's like that, or like, well, you've

1626
01:06:12,440 --> 01:06:15,520
Speaker 1: heard the phrase, you know what I'm gonna say, No,

1627
01:06:16,000 --> 01:06:18,080
Speaker 1: I guess what. There's there's a phrase that is the

1628
01:06:18,120 --> 01:06:22,240
Speaker 1: answer to this. I don't know, tell people there's no

1629
01:06:22,360 --> 01:06:23,640
Speaker 1: such thing as ethical consumption.

1630
01:06:24,200 --> 01:06:26,520
Speaker 12: Yes, of course I know, and that is sort of yeah,

1631
01:06:27,240 --> 01:06:28,840
Speaker 12: I and I didn't find that comforting.

1632
01:06:29,920 --> 01:06:32,479
Speaker 1: I heard that. I was like, I'm buying a switch

1633
01:06:32,560 --> 01:06:33,680
Speaker 1: to right now. I get me on.

1634
01:06:33,840 --> 01:06:34,800
Speaker 12: I'm logged into Amazon.

1635
01:06:34,880 --> 01:06:37,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm getting Amazon Prime immediately, I'm getting two of them.

1636
01:06:37,920 --> 01:06:39,720
Speaker 12: I'm yeah, ordering everything from Amazon.

1637
01:06:40,080 --> 01:06:40,320
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1638
01:06:40,560 --> 01:06:43,000
Speaker 5: No, that's really fair, that's really fair. I think what

1639
01:06:43,160 --> 01:06:46,120
Speaker 5: helped me was medication and nothing else, honestly.

1640
01:06:45,960 --> 01:06:47,040
Speaker 1: Sure what kind of medication.

1641
01:06:47,520 --> 01:06:52,200
Speaker 5: Oh, I'm on, I'm on to Alexa and it's a

1642
01:06:52,480 --> 01:06:54,720
Speaker 5: SSR and I'm on well viutrin as well.

1643
01:06:54,920 --> 01:06:55,960
Speaker 1: Okay, I gotta give.

1644
01:06:57,320 --> 01:06:59,360
Speaker 12: It will make you sweat. I don't know like that.

1645
01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:02,720
Speaker 12: This what you're wearing now already looks a little bit warm.

1646
01:07:03,000 --> 01:07:06,800
Speaker 1: I'm already sweating too much. I yeah, I'm sweating too much.

1647
01:07:07,000 --> 01:07:09,520
Speaker 12: Well, are frogs supposed to be a little bit soggy?

1648
01:07:09,680 --> 01:07:09,720
Speaker 4: Like?

1649
01:07:09,840 --> 01:07:11,800
Speaker 12: Frogs are notoriously wet creatures.

1650
01:07:12,000 --> 01:07:15,840
Speaker 1: I'm a gecko. Oh, it's on the side, the kind

1651
01:07:16,040 --> 01:07:16,360
Speaker 1: that out.

1652
01:07:16,560 --> 01:07:17,000
Speaker 12: Don't put that.

1653
01:07:17,240 --> 01:07:18,240
Speaker 1: Okay, Hey, what's up?

1654
01:07:18,280 --> 01:07:18,400
Speaker 5: Man?

1655
01:07:18,440 --> 01:07:21,760
Speaker 1: Just look at this guy. You're awesome. Man, this guy's sick.

1656
01:07:21,840 --> 01:07:23,120
Speaker 12: I feel like I'm hugging your time.

1657
01:07:23,200 --> 01:07:26,640
Speaker 1: You're not hugging my time. I you know, like I said,

1658
01:07:26,760 --> 01:07:30,560
Speaker 1: what my time? Who cares you guys about anything?

1659
01:07:30,600 --> 01:07:33,960
Speaker 5: Dude? Okaystential morality, yeah, existential morality?

1660
01:07:34,320 --> 01:07:35,200
Speaker 3: Do you have you have you?

1661
01:07:35,480 --> 01:07:37,200
Speaker 1: Do you have you solved it? Or do you still

1662
01:07:37,240 --> 01:07:38,120
Speaker 1: feel No?

1663
01:07:38,240 --> 01:07:39,320
Speaker 12: I still feel that way.

1664
01:07:39,560 --> 01:07:42,840
Speaker 5: It's just not as debilitating because the meds like make

1665
01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:45,320
Speaker 5: me focus on other stuff more.

1666
01:07:45,640 --> 01:07:45,800
Speaker 3: I no.

1667
01:07:45,920 --> 01:07:47,760
Speaker 1: Hearing you say that, it's making me feel like it's

1668
01:07:47,800 --> 01:07:49,280
Speaker 1: making me feel good because I'm like, all right, maybe

1669
01:07:49,320 --> 01:07:51,720
Speaker 1: the meds could help me not foxate it on fucking

1670
01:07:51,840 --> 01:07:55,160
Speaker 1: whatever the hand the hands gentlemen is leaving you're not leaving,

1671
01:07:55,200 --> 01:07:59,960
Speaker 1: are you. We gotta talk about hands. Okay, all right,

1672
01:08:00,680 --> 01:08:03,240
Speaker 1: we'll come. It's a baby, Okay.

1673
01:08:03,400 --> 01:08:05,120
Speaker 12: Did he end up taking a photo of your hands?

1674
01:08:05,200 --> 01:08:06,520
Speaker 1: He didn't end up taking a photo of my hand.

1675
01:08:06,560 --> 01:08:08,120
Speaker 1: I wanted him to come talk, and he talked a

1676
01:08:08,160 --> 01:08:09,800
Speaker 1: little bit, but he didn't. He didn't want to.

1677
01:08:10,160 --> 01:08:13,200
Speaker 12: I guess he's brave enough to ask for hand.

1678
01:08:13,480 --> 01:08:15,800
Speaker 1: I'm kind of curious now if he's walking around to

1679
01:08:15,960 --> 01:08:17,880
Speaker 1: other people asking him to take pictures of their hands.

1680
01:08:17,880 --> 01:08:20,080
Speaker 12: I bet he is sup an eye on that man.

1681
01:08:21,000 --> 01:08:23,120
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, you can take my photo. There's a there's

1682
01:08:23,120 --> 01:08:27,400
Speaker 1: a young lady with a silver nose. Wow, that looks interesting.

1683
01:08:27,600 --> 01:08:29,800
Speaker 1: It's moral, you know. I've thought about that before I've gone.

1684
01:08:29,960 --> 01:08:31,519
Speaker 1: I've gone into my head and I'm like, is there

1685
01:08:31,560 --> 01:08:35,000
Speaker 1: any way for me to exist that isn't horrible.

1686
01:08:34,720 --> 01:08:36,240
Speaker 12: That isn't harmful to other people?

1687
01:08:36,479 --> 01:08:36,719
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1688
01:08:37,040 --> 01:08:40,479
Speaker 1: I think, I think. I think I honestly here. My

1689
01:08:40,960 --> 01:08:44,600
Speaker 1: thought process is that, uh, there's so many ways to

1690
01:08:44,680 --> 01:08:45,880
Speaker 1: be actively evil.

1691
01:08:46,680 --> 01:08:48,160
Speaker 12: Yeah, you know, I really are.

1692
01:08:48,640 --> 01:08:51,600
Speaker 1: There's so many ways to be Oh, oh, thank you

1693
01:08:51,720 --> 01:08:55,040
Speaker 1: so much. Uh, oh, thank you. That's so kind. She

1694
01:08:55,120 --> 01:08:59,280
Speaker 1: took a polaroid or a little a princey thingy, that's

1695
01:08:59,320 --> 01:09:03,160
Speaker 1: so kind, that's beautiful. I guess, and let's I guess

1696
01:09:03,320 --> 01:09:05,040
Speaker 1: unless if you're trying. I mean, there's people who are

1697
01:09:05,080 --> 01:09:06,920
Speaker 1: actively attempting to be evil.

1698
01:09:06,760 --> 01:09:09,000
Speaker 5: To be evil, yeah, but do they in their minds

1699
01:09:09,080 --> 01:09:11,600
Speaker 5: do they think of it that way, you know? Or

1700
01:09:11,640 --> 01:09:14,240
Speaker 5: do they just think, like, well, there's no ethical consumption

1701
01:09:14,320 --> 01:09:15,120
Speaker 5: in their capitalism?

1702
01:09:15,200 --> 01:09:16,960
Speaker 12: So I even try, you.

1703
01:09:17,000 --> 01:09:18,760
Speaker 1: Know, yes, I mean I don't know, like what, like

1704
01:09:18,840 --> 01:09:21,720
Speaker 1: what do you I mean you sing opera? Yeah, it's like,

1705
01:09:21,920 --> 01:09:26,200
Speaker 1: well you're not You're not fucking you know, going around

1706
01:09:26,479 --> 01:09:28,000
Speaker 1: beating the ship out of people.

1707
01:09:27,840 --> 01:09:28,439
Speaker 5: Like what what?

1708
01:09:28,720 --> 01:09:29,960
Speaker 3: What is that bad?

1709
01:09:30,080 --> 01:09:32,200
Speaker 12: That's true. I do try not to do that. I

1710
01:09:32,320 --> 01:09:33,320
Speaker 12: try to be a good person.

1711
01:09:33,880 --> 01:09:36,799
Speaker 1: But you know, I think there's I think there's strong

1712
01:09:37,000 --> 01:09:38,759
Speaker 1: value in the attempt of attempting.

1713
01:09:39,200 --> 01:09:39,680
Speaker 7: I think you do.

1714
01:09:39,880 --> 01:09:43,080
Speaker 1: I think you do your best, and then once you

1715
01:09:43,240 --> 01:09:45,320
Speaker 1: once you start getting your own brain and just trying

1716
01:09:45,320 --> 01:09:47,160
Speaker 1: to kill yourself over it, it's like, what are you

1717
01:09:47,200 --> 01:09:48,960
Speaker 1: even doing at that point? Who were you helping by

1718
01:09:49,040 --> 01:09:51,640
Speaker 1: just by just shaming yourself.

1719
01:09:51,320 --> 01:09:52,600
Speaker 12: For self flagellation.

1720
01:09:52,880 --> 01:09:54,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, become self fladulating.

1721
01:09:54,560 --> 01:09:55,400
Speaker 3: It's not helpful.

1722
01:09:55,600 --> 01:09:59,240
Speaker 5: I think that that is more helpful than saying there's

1723
01:09:59,280 --> 01:10:04,200
Speaker 5: no I think that the self flagellation not being helpful

1724
01:10:04,720 --> 01:10:08,240
Speaker 5: is probably the most helpful advice, just reminding yourself of that.

1725
01:10:08,560 --> 01:10:09,600
Speaker 12: But I don't know.

1726
01:10:09,800 --> 01:10:11,960
Speaker 5: For me, it's the meds. That's the only the only

1727
01:10:12,040 --> 01:10:13,639
Speaker 5: real real help that I've found.

1728
01:10:13,760 --> 01:10:16,280
Speaker 1: I'm thinking, I'm thinking, I've been talking about ketamine therapy

1729
01:10:16,360 --> 01:10:20,680
Speaker 1: for a while. You've done it. Okay, all right, all right,

1730
01:10:20,760 --> 01:10:22,960
Speaker 1: this interview just got way longer because here's the thing.

1731
01:10:23,360 --> 01:10:26,200
Speaker 1: So I was, I went through some like existential depression,

1732
01:10:26,240 --> 01:10:27,600
Speaker 1: and I was like, and then I and then I

1733
01:10:27,640 --> 01:10:29,880
Speaker 1: started taking vibe ance and then for one month I

1734
01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:33,400
Speaker 1: felt amazing. In the month of June was the best

1735
01:10:33,479 --> 01:10:35,360
Speaker 1: I had felt in my entire life.

1736
01:10:35,479 --> 01:10:35,679
Speaker 3: Good.

1737
01:10:36,040 --> 01:10:38,599
Speaker 1: I went on, I like, saw my friends. I was like, oh,

1738
01:10:38,640 --> 01:10:42,880
Speaker 1: I'm finally back. I finally, after just years of insanity,

1739
01:10:43,760 --> 01:10:47,320
Speaker 1: finally I have a people. You know, you know the phrase, oh,

1740
01:10:47,360 --> 01:10:50,720
Speaker 1: there's no there. Life is continuously rolling a boulder after hill.

1741
01:10:51,040 --> 01:10:53,320
Speaker 1: Not for me, I rolled the boulder on the hill.

1742
01:10:53,439 --> 01:10:55,280
Speaker 1: The bowler's on the top of the hill. It's gonna

1743
01:10:55,280 --> 01:10:58,080
Speaker 1: stay there forever. The month of June, everything's gonna be

1744
01:10:58,120 --> 01:11:01,800
Speaker 1: amazing forever. And now it's Li twenty whatever, and I'm like,

1745
01:11:02,120 --> 01:11:04,839
Speaker 1: fucking fuck, my fucking fuck.

1746
01:11:04,840 --> 01:11:06,240
Speaker 12: Are you still taking the Vivans?

1747
01:11:07,240 --> 01:11:07,439
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1748
01:11:07,479 --> 01:11:09,080
Speaker 1: I still take the vibans, but I'm like, oh no,

1749
01:11:09,320 --> 01:11:11,040
Speaker 1: And so now I'm like and so I was I

1750
01:11:11,160 --> 01:11:15,479
Speaker 1: was feverently researching ketamine therapy before this. Yeah, and so

1751
01:11:15,600 --> 01:11:17,639
Speaker 1: now I'm go back. How was your keine therapy?

1752
01:11:18,760 --> 01:11:23,800
Speaker 12: It was very interesting. I loved it. I don't know, hmm,

1753
01:11:24,200 --> 01:11:25,280
Speaker 12: so I'd alreadyd.

1754
01:11:25,080 --> 01:11:26,800
Speaker 1: Did it solve all your problems forever?

1755
01:11:27,360 --> 01:11:30,840
Speaker 12: Shockingly? No? But I think it did help. You know

1756
01:11:30,920 --> 01:11:33,640
Speaker 12: what it did for me? Tell me it wasn't like

1757
01:11:33,680 --> 01:11:34,640
Speaker 12: an immediate.

1758
01:11:34,400 --> 01:11:38,560
Speaker 5: Fix to my depression, but it did shake up some

1759
01:11:38,760 --> 01:11:41,639
Speaker 5: things that I think I was not wanting to look at,

1760
01:11:41,960 --> 01:11:43,880
Speaker 5: like it definitely brought that to the surface.

1761
01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:45,240
Speaker 12: Do you want me to tell you about, like the

1762
01:11:45,320 --> 01:11:46,559
Speaker 12: whole experience do you want?

1763
01:11:46,680 --> 01:11:46,880
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1764
01:11:46,960 --> 01:11:49,720
Speaker 12: Yeah? Like so I did, Yeah, like.

1765
01:11:49,800 --> 01:11:52,560
Speaker 5: A ketemine therapy that took place over the course of

1766
01:11:52,640 --> 01:11:54,559
Speaker 5: I think like three months where I would go into

1767
01:11:54,640 --> 01:11:57,320
Speaker 5: a clinic twice a week, so I would k hole

1768
01:11:57,400 --> 01:11:59,679
Speaker 5: twice a week. Yeah, I would take time off work

1769
01:12:00,160 --> 01:12:03,080
Speaker 5: k hole. My boss would let me go early from

1770
01:12:03,120 --> 01:12:07,120
Speaker 5: work to go k hole, and it was. I would

1771
01:12:07,160 --> 01:12:10,639
Speaker 5: go into a cozy little room and adminis self administer

1772
01:12:10,720 --> 01:12:14,080
Speaker 5: the nasal spray, and then I would just lay back

1773
01:12:14,120 --> 01:12:17,639
Speaker 5: on a couch in a dark room and think about

1774
01:12:18,200 --> 01:12:20,000
Speaker 5: my life, except I wouldn't really be thinking.

1775
01:12:20,240 --> 01:12:22,040
Speaker 12: I was more like falling.

1776
01:12:22,400 --> 01:12:25,640
Speaker 5: And then things that I feel like myself my subconscious

1777
01:12:25,720 --> 01:12:29,519
Speaker 5: needed me to examine more closely, would come to the surface,

1778
01:12:29,720 --> 01:12:32,320
Speaker 5: and then I would have like a trip that was

1779
01:12:32,400 --> 01:12:35,679
Speaker 5: centered around some issue that I wasn't like I wasn't

1780
01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:39,360
Speaker 5: examining enough in my non k hold state.

1781
01:12:39,720 --> 01:12:42,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, interesting, And I did.

1782
01:12:42,160 --> 01:12:44,000
Speaker 5: That for three months. But I know there's a lot

1783
01:12:44,080 --> 01:12:47,719
Speaker 5: of variety to ketymine therapy. Like I've heard of people

1784
01:12:47,800 --> 01:12:50,120
Speaker 5: who will take a really low dose of it and

1785
01:12:50,240 --> 01:12:52,719
Speaker 5: go to and like have a therapist there and basically

1786
01:12:52,800 --> 01:12:54,720
Speaker 5: have like a talk therapy session with a really low

1787
01:12:54,760 --> 01:12:55,599
Speaker 5: dose of ketamine.

1788
01:12:55,960 --> 01:12:56,880
Speaker 12: That's not what I did.

1789
01:12:57,000 --> 01:12:59,559
Speaker 5: I was just they they locked me in a room

1790
01:12:59,600 --> 01:13:04,400
Speaker 5: and said cee in an hour. So I didn't necessarily

1791
01:13:04,479 --> 01:13:06,680
Speaker 5: have the like guidance of like, yeah, I want the

1792
01:13:06,720 --> 01:13:08,920
Speaker 5: one with the person that I But you know what

1793
01:13:09,040 --> 01:13:11,000
Speaker 5: I did, I found a way run. So I would

1794
01:13:11,040 --> 01:13:13,840
Speaker 5: schedule my therapy sessions for right after the K hole.

1795
01:13:14,040 --> 01:13:16,479
Speaker 1: Oh very so I would have the K hole.

1796
01:13:16,360 --> 01:13:18,360
Speaker 5: And then I would talk about it with my therapist after,

1797
01:13:18,479 --> 01:13:20,200
Speaker 5: and she said that those sessions are some of the

1798
01:13:20,280 --> 01:13:21,639
Speaker 5: most productive we'd ever had.

1799
01:13:21,720 --> 01:13:23,720
Speaker 1: So right, So, how are you doing now?

1800
01:13:24,040 --> 01:13:25,920
Speaker 12: I'm doing much better, doing much better.

1801
01:13:26,040 --> 01:13:30,840
Speaker 5: There's there's really something to be said for stability, even

1802
01:13:30,960 --> 01:13:32,800
Speaker 5: fleeting stability, the little Do.

1803
01:13:32,840 --> 01:13:34,000
Speaker 1: You feel stable?

1804
01:13:34,160 --> 01:13:36,919
Speaker 5: Yes, I just moved out of a really toxic roommate situation.

1805
01:13:37,200 --> 01:13:39,280
Speaker 5: So I have a one bedroom in New York City

1806
01:13:39,479 --> 01:13:41,040
Speaker 5: and I'm paying one thousand and three fifty.

1807
01:13:41,240 --> 01:13:44,200
Speaker 1: You pay a thousands girl? Oh about do you pay

1808
01:13:44,280 --> 01:13:46,599
Speaker 1: thirteen fifty for a one bedroom in New York City?

1809
01:13:46,840 --> 01:13:50,519
Speaker 5: I negotiated the rent down and it was not I

1810
01:13:50,640 --> 01:13:52,560
Speaker 5: did not use my feet picks to do so.

1811
01:13:52,760 --> 01:13:54,120
Speaker 12: That was not a bartering chip.

1812
01:13:54,360 --> 01:13:56,080
Speaker 1: I can't believe you pay you have a one bedroom

1813
01:13:56,120 --> 01:13:58,080
Speaker 1: for thirteen to fifteen year. That's insane.

1814
01:13:58,520 --> 01:14:00,200
Speaker 12: It was listed for really too.

1815
01:14:00,200 --> 01:14:02,240
Speaker 5: It's listed for under two k, which is still good

1816
01:14:02,280 --> 01:14:04,960
Speaker 5: for one bedroom here in Manhattan. In Manhattan, Yes, it's

1817
01:14:05,040 --> 01:14:08,960
Speaker 5: in Inwood, which I love. I love Inwood, Yes, and yeah,

1818
01:14:09,920 --> 01:14:12,160
Speaker 5: it's really north. It's basically as north as you can

1819
01:14:12,240 --> 01:14:15,680
Speaker 5: possibly get. While still technically being in Manhattan, but it's

1820
01:14:15,760 --> 01:14:17,840
Speaker 5: you know, it's along the one line. It's nice, okay,

1821
01:14:17,920 --> 01:14:20,960
Speaker 5: but yeah, I like I met the guy. He's I

1822
01:14:21,040 --> 01:14:24,000
Speaker 5: think he's from I think he's from Russia. And he

1823
01:14:24,640 --> 01:14:26,760
Speaker 5: he listed the apartment for like under two k and

1824
01:14:26,840 --> 01:14:30,120
Speaker 5: I went to visit and I was like, I'm not

1825
01:14:30,320 --> 01:14:33,240
Speaker 5: totally sold. And I told him I had another offer

1826
01:14:33,439 --> 01:14:36,080
Speaker 5: for like one thousand and three hundred, and he was like,

1827
01:14:36,280 --> 01:14:38,439
Speaker 5: if we match that price, would you come and live

1828
01:14:38,800 --> 01:14:39,400
Speaker 5: in our building?

1829
01:14:39,520 --> 01:14:40,759
Speaker 1: Do you have an offer for a thousand?

1830
01:14:43,520 --> 01:14:45,400
Speaker 12: The truth is out. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but the

1831
01:14:45,520 --> 01:14:46,280
Speaker 12: lease has been signed.

1832
01:14:46,439 --> 01:14:49,720
Speaker 1: So so okay, what else is stable with you?

1833
01:14:49,840 --> 01:14:49,960
Speaker 7: Now?

1834
01:14:50,240 --> 01:14:51,599
Speaker 12: What else is stable? Well?

1835
01:14:52,280 --> 01:14:55,040
Speaker 5: I think so, I mean just having my own space,

1836
01:14:55,160 --> 01:14:59,040
Speaker 5: that's a that's a that's its own stability. Like I'm

1837
01:14:59,160 --> 01:15:02,360
Speaker 5: more comfortable isolation, I think just because of like the

1838
01:15:02,439 --> 01:15:05,360
Speaker 5: way my brain works. I think I function better when

1839
01:15:05,360 --> 01:15:07,600
Speaker 5: I have a lot of a loan time, So that

1840
01:15:07,920 --> 01:15:10,560
Speaker 5: for me is like a good source of stability. I

1841
01:15:10,800 --> 01:15:13,559
Speaker 5: am in a lot of student debt, but I mean

1842
01:15:13,640 --> 01:15:17,040
Speaker 5: that's consistent in like money coming in, even if it

1843
01:15:17,160 --> 01:15:19,519
Speaker 5: is loans that I'll probably never be able to pay

1844
01:15:19,640 --> 01:15:20,000
Speaker 5: off on.

1845
01:15:20,080 --> 01:15:24,280
Speaker 12: A professor's salary. But you know it's all good. So

1846
01:15:24,760 --> 01:15:26,600
Speaker 12: you know, I have the financial stability.

1847
01:15:26,880 --> 01:15:27,200
Speaker 5: I just.

1848
01:15:28,760 --> 01:15:30,160
Speaker 12: I have a lot of a lot of stuff in

1849
01:15:30,200 --> 01:15:32,719
Speaker 12: the works. I'll say, there's a lot of things bubbling.

1850
01:15:32,800 --> 01:15:33,280
Speaker 3: There's po.

1851
01:15:34,920 --> 01:15:37,719
Speaker 1: Switch pot excited about I'm excited about.

1852
01:15:37,520 --> 01:15:38,719
Speaker 12: The piano tuning pot.

1853
01:15:39,360 --> 01:15:40,280
Speaker 1: I'm excited about that.

1854
01:15:40,360 --> 01:15:46,040
Speaker 5: I'm excited about I'm excited about starting to teach teach again.

1855
01:15:46,160 --> 01:15:50,720
Speaker 5: I'm excited about that, teach voice lessons to kids. What

1856
01:15:50,880 --> 01:15:52,160
Speaker 5: else am I excited about?

1857
01:15:52,840 --> 01:15:53,160
Speaker 3: I don't know.

1858
01:15:53,200 --> 01:15:55,840
Speaker 5: I'm excited to be in the city in the summer,

1859
01:15:56,520 --> 01:16:01,040
Speaker 5: with a place of my own, and the only responsibility

1860
01:16:01,080 --> 01:16:02,840
Speaker 5: I have today is installing a shelf.

1861
01:16:03,960 --> 01:16:06,920
Speaker 1: You know, I'm I'm happy to hear that things are

1862
01:16:06,960 --> 01:16:10,000
Speaker 1: going well for you. Everyone. Pretty much everyone who sat

1863
01:16:10,080 --> 01:16:12,760
Speaker 1: down to talk today seemed as though they were up.

1864
01:16:13,280 --> 01:16:16,240
Speaker 5: Yeah it's an upday' I mean, like this is the

1865
01:16:16,439 --> 01:16:18,439
Speaker 5: if you're gonna have an update in New York City,

1866
01:16:18,560 --> 01:16:20,120
Speaker 5: Like this is where all the people who are up

1867
01:16:20,200 --> 01:16:20,840
Speaker 5: are gonna come.

1868
01:16:20,920 --> 01:16:22,559
Speaker 1: I think, Yeah, I mean, well this is a place

1869
01:16:22,600 --> 01:16:23,800
Speaker 1: where you go to get up.

1870
01:16:24,320 --> 01:16:24,519
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1871
01:16:25,040 --> 01:16:27,320
Speaker 12: Well, I I was just planning on walking through here.

1872
01:16:27,400 --> 01:16:28,679
Speaker 12: I wasn't even to be honest.

1873
01:16:28,800 --> 01:16:30,439
Speaker 5: I was sort of lying to at the beginning of this,

1874
01:16:30,600 --> 01:16:33,080
Speaker 5: saying that I came for the Gooch exposure.

1875
01:16:32,920 --> 01:16:33,840
Speaker 12: But I actually was not.

1876
01:16:34,280 --> 01:16:36,600
Speaker 1: I didn't think that you came here it.

1877
01:16:36,760 --> 01:16:40,200
Speaker 5: Oh you didn't take me literally, No, yeah, no, that

1878
01:16:40,439 --> 01:16:42,760
Speaker 5: was that was an exaggeration of the truth I did.

1879
01:16:43,040 --> 01:16:45,400
Speaker 5: I did recognize this fountain. Then I said, oh, that's

1880
01:16:45,439 --> 01:16:47,599
Speaker 5: the fountain where the guy was watching his goo chat.

1881
01:16:47,760 --> 01:16:49,400
Speaker 1: Oh, I thought this was the friend's fountain.

1882
01:16:50,280 --> 01:16:52,960
Speaker 12: I mean, you know a song by any other name.

1883
01:16:54,400 --> 01:16:57,519
Speaker 1: What's your name again, Nicole? Nicole, Nicole. This has been

1884
01:16:57,520 --> 01:16:59,760
Speaker 1: a great conversation. I very much enjoyed talking to you.

1885
01:17:00,920 --> 01:17:03,320
Speaker 1: I hope that I said this already when I when

1886
01:17:03,439 --> 01:17:05,280
Speaker 1: I was in first gonna end this conversation, But then

1887
01:17:05,280 --> 01:17:06,439
Speaker 1: you start talking about ketamine.

1888
01:17:06,560 --> 01:17:07,559
Speaker 12: I hope out.

1889
01:17:07,680 --> 01:17:09,320
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try I think I'm gonna try it out.

1890
01:17:09,400 --> 01:17:10,240
Speaker 1: We'll see what happens.

1891
01:17:10,400 --> 01:17:12,679
Speaker 5: I don't think you'll have a bad experience. If that's

1892
01:17:12,800 --> 01:17:15,439
Speaker 5: what's been like, you've not wanted to fully.

1893
01:17:15,439 --> 01:17:17,280
Speaker 1: No, that's not been the main reason. There's a bunch

1894
01:17:17,280 --> 01:17:20,400
Speaker 1: of reasons I would not mind flick. But I'm gonna okay, Well,

1895
01:17:20,400 --> 01:17:22,680
Speaker 1: I don't know right now, by my, my, my.

1896
01:17:22,880 --> 01:17:22,920
Speaker 5: My.

1897
01:17:23,040 --> 01:17:25,360
Speaker 1: Main form of SSRI right now has been this switch to.

1898
01:17:25,560 --> 01:17:26,759
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna see how that works.

1899
01:17:27,880 --> 01:17:30,080
Speaker 12: I haven't tried that one yet, but I've heard good thing.

1900
01:17:30,520 --> 01:17:31,760
Speaker 1: Dude, I don't know. I wasn't gonna get it. I

1901
01:17:31,920 --> 01:17:33,840
Speaker 1: I thought that. I looked at the new Donkey Kong

1902
01:17:33,880 --> 01:17:35,200
Speaker 1: game and I was like, who is this guy? This

1903
01:17:35,360 --> 01:17:36,880
Speaker 1: is not my guy. This is a different guy. This

1904
01:17:37,000 --> 01:17:37,840
Speaker 1: is not Donkey Kong.

1905
01:17:38,000 --> 01:17:38,120
Speaker 5: Oh.

1906
01:17:38,280 --> 01:17:40,439
Speaker 1: Yes, I've heard, because they redesigned it. But now now,

1907
01:17:40,479 --> 01:17:41,600
Speaker 1: apparently I don't know.

1908
01:17:41,760 --> 01:17:43,360
Speaker 12: Because Donkey Kong woke, she woke.

1909
01:17:43,400 --> 01:17:44,120
Speaker 7: Now I don't.

1910
01:17:44,160 --> 01:17:47,640
Speaker 1: I don't know. Maybe he's woke. He looked a little like,

1911
01:17:47,920 --> 01:17:51,280
Speaker 1: actually he's less woke. His eyes are smaller, Okay, Okay,

1912
01:17:51,560 --> 01:17:57,599
Speaker 1: yeah yeah, smaller eyes, smaller eyes conservative, So he's uh,

1913
01:17:58,439 --> 01:18:00,559
Speaker 1: I don't know, but I don't know. Apparently it's good.

1914
01:18:00,640 --> 01:18:02,800
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna tonight. I'm gonna.

1915
01:18:04,080 --> 01:18:06,320
Speaker 12: I'm surprised you were even able to get a switch to.

1916
01:18:06,680 --> 01:18:09,240
Speaker 1: I waited in line this morning this morning. Yeah, I

1917
01:18:09,720 --> 01:18:11,840
Speaker 1: got connected to my inner child this morning. I was like,

1918
01:18:11,920 --> 01:18:14,559
Speaker 1: I haven't waited in line to buy a video game

1919
01:18:14,640 --> 01:18:17,439
Speaker 1: since nineteen seventy nine.

1920
01:18:17,479 --> 01:18:19,760
Speaker 5: I don't think kenymine is gonna top that experience for you.

1921
01:18:19,840 --> 01:18:21,120
Speaker 5: I'm sorry, it's not well.

1922
01:18:21,200 --> 01:18:22,880
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know. Maybe I'll do ketamine and

1923
01:18:22,920 --> 01:18:26,600
Speaker 1: play Donkey Kong and that'll work. Yeah that, you know.

1924
01:18:27,120 --> 01:18:29,120
Speaker 12: I never tried that, but I think if I tried

1925
01:18:29,160 --> 01:18:29,840
Speaker 12: that that much.

1926
01:18:29,720 --> 01:18:32,240
Speaker 1: Actually, that's how the guy from Friends died. So I

1927
01:18:32,280 --> 01:18:32,920
Speaker 1: don't want to do that.

1928
01:18:33,160 --> 01:18:34,720
Speaker 12: But oh really I didn't know that.

1929
01:18:34,960 --> 01:18:38,920
Speaker 1: Okay, he was playing Actually I don't know if I

1930
01:18:38,960 --> 01:18:40,320
Speaker 1: don't know what he was doing, but he was doing

1931
01:18:40,960 --> 01:18:43,599
Speaker 1: he was doing ketamine outside of some form of record,

1932
01:18:43,680 --> 01:18:45,800
Speaker 1: outside of a medical.

1933
01:18:45,880 --> 01:18:46,720
Speaker 12: Are you being for real?

1934
01:18:46,880 --> 01:18:47,080
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1935
01:18:47,120 --> 01:18:47,320
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1936
01:18:47,400 --> 01:18:47,559
Speaker 7: Yeah?

1937
01:18:47,680 --> 01:18:51,559
Speaker 5: Oh wow, yeah wow, Okay, but you know, well yeah,

1938
01:18:52,240 --> 01:18:54,560
Speaker 5: I advocate for the safe use of ketamine.

1939
01:18:54,680 --> 01:18:57,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, me too. I advocate for all safe good things.

1940
01:18:57,680 --> 01:18:57,880
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1941
01:18:58,320 --> 01:19:00,479
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're gonna be fine. Everything's gonna be fun. Everyone

1942
01:19:00,520 --> 01:19:02,479
Speaker 1: in this park is gonna be fine. Everyone's up. So

1943
01:19:02,800 --> 01:19:05,559
Speaker 1: everyone's good. We're all getting switched to s. We're all

1944
01:19:05,920 --> 01:19:12,799
Speaker 1: uh getting beautiful families. Wow, we're all getting a wonderful

1945
01:19:12,840 --> 01:19:16,160
Speaker 1: fulfilling careers. Yes, yes, we're all getting ten million dollars.

1946
01:19:16,320 --> 01:19:18,040
Speaker 12: We're all getting our bunions shaved.

1947
01:19:17,800 --> 01:19:19,200
Speaker 1: Off, getting our bunions shaved off.

1948
01:19:19,360 --> 01:19:21,560
Speaker 12: Have you ever looked at what that surgery is like? No,

1949
01:19:22,560 --> 01:19:23,200
Speaker 12: I haven't either.

1950
01:19:23,360 --> 01:19:27,000
Speaker 1: It's fucking crocodile, dundee, dude, check this guy out. Oh

1951
01:19:27,200 --> 01:19:30,719
Speaker 1: never mind, never mind, I said, sorry, Yes, I said,

1952
01:19:30,880 --> 01:19:33,320
Speaker 1: I said it's crocodile, dundee. Check this guy out because

1953
01:19:33,320 --> 01:19:35,360
Speaker 1: you looked kind of like you had the Oh thanks,

1954
01:19:35,400 --> 01:19:39,240
Speaker 1: but I love your fit of course. Hey you too, man.

1955
01:19:39,439 --> 01:19:41,000
Speaker 12: I think that guy was trying to wrangle you.

1956
01:19:41,240 --> 01:19:43,839
Speaker 1: You're trying to wrangle me. Yeah, it looks like the crocodile.

1957
01:19:43,960 --> 01:19:44,720
Speaker 12: Yeah, I would watch it.

1958
01:19:44,800 --> 01:19:45,479
Speaker 1: We didn't have the hat.

1959
01:19:45,680 --> 01:19:47,720
Speaker 12: There's a lot of predators around here.

1960
01:19:47,760 --> 01:19:50,000
Speaker 5: I've noticed, like there's been two people who've come up

1961
01:19:50,000 --> 01:19:51,799
Speaker 5: to you while I've been in this chair who've wanted

1962
01:19:51,960 --> 01:19:52,640
Speaker 5: something from you.

1963
01:19:52,960 --> 01:19:55,120
Speaker 1: Dude, I don't know where the hands pick guy is.

1964
01:19:55,200 --> 01:19:56,639
Speaker 1: I gotta find them or maybe I don't.

1965
01:19:56,800 --> 01:19:58,280
Speaker 12: Just you should be safe, you know.

1966
01:19:58,520 --> 01:20:00,600
Speaker 1: I promised him a hand pick. I feel bad now

1967
01:20:00,640 --> 01:20:04,280
Speaker 1: if I don't give them my hands what's your name?

1968
01:20:04,320 --> 01:20:04,840
Speaker 1: One more time?

1969
01:20:05,000 --> 01:20:06,439
Speaker 12: I'm Nicole. I'm so sorry.

1970
01:20:07,000 --> 01:20:08,360
Speaker 1: You don't have to be sorry for anything.

1971
01:20:08,520 --> 01:20:10,519
Speaker 12: No, I don't have anywhere else to be such a

1972
01:20:10,600 --> 01:20:12,000
Speaker 12: yappy mood right now too.

1973
01:20:12,080 --> 01:20:15,280
Speaker 1: I started, honestly, honestly kind of at the very very

1974
01:20:15,400 --> 01:20:18,080
Speaker 1: very beginning of this podcast, I was like, Fuck, I

1975
01:20:18,120 --> 01:20:19,920
Speaker 1: don't think I have the energy to talk today, but

1976
01:20:20,040 --> 01:20:21,920
Speaker 1: I you know, we're gonna try, but.

1977
01:20:22,000 --> 01:20:22,640
Speaker 2: Towards and you.

1978
01:20:22,880 --> 01:20:26,280
Speaker 1: Normally what happens is the first half I have no energy.

1979
01:20:26,520 --> 01:20:27,840
Speaker 1: Though the first half I have a lot of energy,

1980
01:20:27,880 --> 01:20:31,040
Speaker 1: The second half I have no energy. Today's podcast was different. Today.

1981
01:20:31,080 --> 01:20:34,280
Speaker 1: I had a lot of less energy. The first half morega.

1982
01:20:34,320 --> 01:20:36,000
Speaker 1: The second half, Oh good, And now I feel good

1983
01:20:36,439 --> 01:20:41,240
Speaker 1: good you know what, Nicole, Yeah, everything's fine, Everything.

1984
01:20:41,000 --> 01:20:44,760
Speaker 5: Is fine, Everything is going to be fine. And I

1985
01:20:44,920 --> 01:20:47,719
Speaker 5: really feel that today I feel like there's an energy

1986
01:20:47,800 --> 01:20:53,240
Speaker 5: in the air. Sorry, I just caught a glimpse of

1987
01:20:54,080 --> 01:20:56,880
Speaker 5: like the shoe underneath the gecko foot, and I feel

1988
01:20:56,880 --> 01:20:59,639
Speaker 5: like I just saw like a peek behind the curtain.

1989
01:21:00,160 --> 01:21:03,280
Speaker 1: Faz shoes they break in one month. I buy a

1990
01:21:03,320 --> 01:21:05,040
Speaker 1: new one every month. I should just get a nicer

1991
01:21:05,080 --> 01:21:07,519
Speaker 1: pair of shoes that don't break down. But I'm lazy,

1992
01:21:07,600 --> 01:21:09,120
Speaker 1: and I is there a.

1993
01:21:09,120 --> 01:21:12,400
Speaker 12: Specific reason why, like that pair of shoes from Amazon.

1994
01:21:12,160 --> 01:21:14,920
Speaker 1: I just go on Amazon and search shoes. I'm not

1995
01:21:14,960 --> 01:21:15,680
Speaker 1: a fashion man.

1996
01:21:16,439 --> 01:21:17,280
Speaker 12: You could have fooled me.

1997
01:21:19,800 --> 01:21:22,200
Speaker 1: Because of the suit. Yeah, I wonder if there's a

1998
01:21:22,240 --> 01:21:25,040
Speaker 1: guy over here. He's holding a box of cookies. I'm

1999
01:21:25,080 --> 01:21:27,040
Speaker 1: wondering if if I let him sit down, if maybe

2000
01:21:27,080 --> 01:21:29,000
Speaker 1: he'll give me I think, I think Do you think

2001
01:21:29,040 --> 01:21:29,320
Speaker 1: you will?

2002
01:21:29,439 --> 01:21:30,720
Speaker 12: Yeah? I think you should take a chance.

2003
01:21:31,560 --> 01:21:33,519
Speaker 1: Enjoyed, Nicole? Is anything else? I say the people of

2004
01:21:33,520 --> 01:21:35,519
Speaker 1: the computer before we go to the people of.

2005
01:21:35,600 --> 01:21:40,479
Speaker 12: The computer, be boot boom bop be boot boop be bop.

2006
01:21:40,640 --> 01:21:41,519
Speaker 1: Don't know what that means.

2007
01:21:41,760 --> 01:21:42,439
Speaker 12: Don't know what that means?

2008
01:21:42,520 --> 01:21:46,400
Speaker 5: Computers, I speak, I speak computer, and yeah, I think

2009
01:21:46,439 --> 01:21:47,479
Speaker 5: all computers will understand.

2010
01:21:47,680 --> 01:21:49,200
Speaker 1: I'll throw that in Google Translate later.

2011
01:21:49,360 --> 01:21:50,000
Speaker 12: Good you should.

2012
01:21:51,240 --> 01:21:54,040
Speaker 1: I'll see her in the universe. I will, I will.

2013
01:21:54,120 --> 01:21:58,439
Speaker 1: Apparently they're worth Money's your name, Yuki? You get nice

2014
01:21:58,439 --> 01:22:02,439
Speaker 1: to meet you. I actually don't know if I have time. Well,

2015
01:22:02,600 --> 01:22:07,160
Speaker 1: let's do a quick wrap up, shall we. Okay, one

2016
01:22:07,280 --> 01:22:09,320
Speaker 1: thing that you want to say to the people listening

2017
01:22:09,439 --> 01:22:11,880
Speaker 1: up to this podcast before we go anything.

2018
01:22:13,760 --> 01:22:17,360
Speaker 9: Think about yourself first and only really Yeah, fun.

2019
01:22:17,320 --> 01:22:18,479
Speaker 1: Now I want to talk to you about more things.

2020
01:22:18,479 --> 01:22:21,120
Speaker 1: We don't have. How much power batter is on this guy?

2021
01:22:25,360 --> 01:22:26,360
Speaker 1: Seventeen percent? Okay?

2022
01:22:26,400 --> 01:22:26,559
Speaker 3: Cool?

2023
01:22:26,560 --> 01:22:26,800
Speaker 7: All right?

2024
01:22:26,880 --> 01:22:29,599
Speaker 1: Richall yu gi. Yeah, why why should we only think

2025
01:22:29,600 --> 01:22:30,640
Speaker 1: about ourselves.

2026
01:22:30,880 --> 01:22:32,160
Speaker 9: Because no one will will do it?

2027
01:22:32,680 --> 01:22:33,160
Speaker 1: Yes, it is.

2028
01:22:33,320 --> 01:22:36,000
Speaker 13: I mean at some point, even your parents think about themselves,

2029
01:22:36,040 --> 01:22:39,960
Speaker 13: I know, and they they should also live their own life.

2030
01:22:39,960 --> 01:22:43,320
Speaker 13: I know, because I need to understand that they also

2031
01:22:43,479 --> 01:22:47,120
Speaker 13: need to be like themselves and continue their lives at

2032
01:22:47,160 --> 01:22:51,000
Speaker 13: some point, and so you need to cut down when

2033
01:22:51,040 --> 01:22:51,439
Speaker 13: they don't.

2034
01:22:51,760 --> 01:22:53,479
Speaker 3: Yeah, we need So you need to.

2035
01:22:54,200 --> 01:22:58,280
Speaker 13: Do it yourself and think about yourself for your future

2036
01:22:58,360 --> 01:22:59,040
Speaker 13: life and et cetera.

2037
01:22:59,840 --> 01:23:02,880
Speaker 1: It is very true. I you know, I don't know.

2038
01:23:02,960 --> 01:23:04,960
Speaker 1: I think my most of my life, I thought of

2039
01:23:05,040 --> 01:23:07,400
Speaker 1: myself as like a staunch individualist, where I was like,

2040
01:23:07,439 --> 01:23:09,599
Speaker 1: I gotta make sure you know, I'm really like mainly

2041
01:23:09,640 --> 01:23:11,680
Speaker 1: thinking about my own life. And then I was like, no,

2042
01:23:11,800 --> 01:23:13,720
Speaker 1: the key to life is community, and like how you

2043
01:23:13,800 --> 01:23:15,439
Speaker 1: want to integrate yourself with other people and you want

2044
01:23:15,479 --> 01:23:17,000
Speaker 1: to your life is only me as good as the

2045
01:23:17,040 --> 01:23:18,960
Speaker 1: other people in it. And then I flip back and

2046
01:23:19,040 --> 01:23:21,479
Speaker 1: forth and I'm like, well shit, you know it's true.

2047
01:23:21,560 --> 01:23:23,880
Speaker 1: You as you get older, you start to realize, Okay,

2048
01:23:24,000 --> 01:23:26,519
Speaker 1: your parents love you and that's great and you and

2049
01:23:26,600 --> 01:23:29,160
Speaker 1: if you're lucky, you grow up that being the default

2050
01:23:29,200 --> 01:23:31,120
Speaker 1: your parents love you, Your parents care about you. Then

2051
01:23:31,160 --> 01:23:32,840
Speaker 1: as you get older, the amount of people who are

2052
01:23:32,920 --> 01:23:36,519
Speaker 1: like you can have friends and you're gonna have people

2053
01:23:36,600 --> 01:23:38,840
Speaker 1: in the peripheral of your life that you see, but

2054
01:23:39,000 --> 01:23:42,920
Speaker 1: the amount of people who are in your life starts

2055
01:23:42,960 --> 01:23:45,599
Speaker 1: to decrease and you start to slowly realize like you're

2056
01:23:46,120 --> 01:23:48,000
Speaker 1: exact the only one in your life. So you got

2057
01:23:48,080 --> 01:23:49,360
Speaker 1: to make sure unless if you know, you have a

2058
01:23:50,200 --> 01:23:51,479
Speaker 1: wife or kids or something like that.

2059
01:23:51,720 --> 01:23:55,320
Speaker 13: But and I think the better you love yourself, the

2060
01:23:55,439 --> 01:23:58,439
Speaker 13: better you'll be loved on your group and on your community. Yeah,

2061
01:23:58,520 --> 01:24:02,240
Speaker 13: because you will like put the limits and all the

2062
01:24:02,320 --> 01:24:06,400
Speaker 13: boundaries that you want and it will be like the

2063
01:24:06,920 --> 01:24:12,679
Speaker 13: healthier relationships, which means that you first think about yourself.

2064
01:24:13,400 --> 01:24:15,960
Speaker 13: And for that, I will encourage you everyone to go

2065
01:24:16,080 --> 01:24:19,439
Speaker 13: to a therapist. I'm from friends and like, this is

2066
01:24:19,520 --> 01:24:22,479
Speaker 13: not something that's cool yet over there.

2067
01:24:22,640 --> 01:24:24,040
Speaker 1: Oh, therapy is not cool in friends?

2068
01:24:24,200 --> 01:24:24,800
Speaker 9: No, not yet?

2069
01:24:25,160 --> 01:24:26,679
Speaker 1: Why not yet? It's going to become cool?

2070
01:24:26,880 --> 01:24:29,400
Speaker 9: Yeah of course. I mean at some point people will

2071
01:24:29,800 --> 01:24:31,840
Speaker 9: go crazy and you will have to go.

2072
01:24:32,280 --> 01:24:34,160
Speaker 1: Why do you think therapy is not cool in France?

2073
01:24:35,040 --> 01:24:40,160
Speaker 9: I think it's still like something that you put as

2074
01:24:40,400 --> 01:24:41,000
Speaker 9: crazy people.

2075
01:24:41,840 --> 01:24:45,920
Speaker 13: Yeah, for real and people don't understand the value of

2076
01:24:46,240 --> 01:24:49,840
Speaker 13: being good with yourself and go into a therapy.

2077
01:24:49,920 --> 01:24:52,400
Speaker 9: I'm a teacher. One of the things every time my

2078
01:24:52,560 --> 01:24:54,960
Speaker 9: students come to me like with issues.

2079
01:24:54,720 --> 01:24:59,040
Speaker 13: Blah blah blah, go to therapists, especially like immigrants, children

2080
01:24:59,080 --> 01:25:01,760
Speaker 13: and blah blah blah. Then to go because the duality

2081
01:25:01,880 --> 01:25:06,200
Speaker 13: between their lives in friends or in any country, plus

2082
01:25:06,439 --> 01:25:11,000
Speaker 13: their origins or parents' origins, it's a messing up moment

2083
01:25:11,080 --> 01:25:11,759
Speaker 13: of their lives.

2084
01:25:12,400 --> 01:25:15,040
Speaker 1: That's you do you go to a therapist? What are

2085
01:25:15,040 --> 01:25:16,200
Speaker 1: you talking about with your therapists?

2086
01:25:16,680 --> 01:25:21,040
Speaker 9: My parents? Mostly because I think this is the main

2087
01:25:21,160 --> 01:25:22,080
Speaker 9: issue for everyone.

2088
01:25:22,800 --> 01:25:24,479
Speaker 1: The main issue for everyone is their parents.

2089
01:25:25,240 --> 01:25:29,040
Speaker 13: How so, I mean because the parents lives their life

2090
01:25:29,120 --> 01:25:31,880
Speaker 13: for the first time as you are. So they don't

2091
01:25:32,000 --> 01:25:35,360
Speaker 13: know how to drive sometimes their life and they have

2092
01:25:35,520 --> 01:25:38,479
Speaker 13: to learn with you and when they do it. And

2093
01:25:38,600 --> 01:25:41,719
Speaker 13: they were not like us now with all these elements

2094
01:25:41,800 --> 01:25:43,880
Speaker 13: that you can have on the internet and everything. So

2095
01:25:44,280 --> 01:25:46,639
Speaker 13: they learned not good on a good way.

2096
01:25:47,640 --> 01:25:50,720
Speaker 1: Okay, So everything starts with parents because you learn from

2097
01:25:50,760 --> 01:25:52,559
Speaker 1: your parents, and how your parents treat you is kind

2098
01:25:52,600 --> 01:25:54,680
Speaker 1: of how you feel exactly. Yeah, that makes a lot

2099
01:25:54,720 --> 01:25:57,080
Speaker 1: of sense. Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Do

2100
01:25:57,160 --> 01:25:58,400
Speaker 1: you have good parents.

2101
01:26:00,080 --> 01:26:00,240
Speaker 3: Try?

2102
01:26:00,520 --> 01:26:03,760
Speaker 1: Okay, they try to give kids. I don't have yet. Okay,

2103
01:26:04,040 --> 01:26:07,000
Speaker 1: but you want to have kids, Yeah, what are you gonna?

2104
01:26:07,479 --> 01:26:09,640
Speaker 1: What do you want to impart upon your children.

2105
01:26:10,200 --> 01:26:14,000
Speaker 13: To love themselves, to be confident enough to be like

2106
01:26:14,560 --> 01:26:18,000
Speaker 13: in a loving environment where they can share with me?

2107
01:26:18,680 --> 01:26:21,200
Speaker 13: Because I think I was not able to share with

2108
01:26:21,400 --> 01:26:24,400
Speaker 13: my parents when I was not like feeling good or

2109
01:26:24,600 --> 01:26:27,960
Speaker 13: when something was not good for me and they didn't know.

2110
01:26:28,120 --> 01:26:30,560
Speaker 13: So I cannot blame them because I was not on

2111
01:26:30,640 --> 01:26:33,360
Speaker 13: a safe place to share. Yeah, so I want to

2112
01:26:33,520 --> 01:26:36,840
Speaker 13: have like for my kids, if I have ones, a

2113
01:26:36,920 --> 01:26:39,160
Speaker 13: safe place for them to share anything they want to

2114
01:26:39,280 --> 01:26:39,760
Speaker 13: share with me.

2115
01:26:40,800 --> 01:26:43,439
Speaker 1: So, yeah, I feel bad because you're you know, you're

2116
01:26:43,439 --> 01:26:46,800
Speaker 1: really being very vulnerable. You're being very vulnerable with me,

2117
01:26:47,000 --> 01:26:49,559
Speaker 1: with me right now, and I am like, I'm very

2118
01:26:49,600 --> 01:26:52,920
Speaker 1: engrossed in this conversation. But there's at least like ten

2119
01:26:52,960 --> 01:26:54,600
Speaker 1: percent of my brain it's like I wonder if I

2120
01:26:54,640 --> 01:26:56,160
Speaker 1: wonder if he's gonna let me have a cookie.

2121
01:26:56,479 --> 01:26:58,360
Speaker 9: Yeah, of course you know you can.

2122
01:26:58,520 --> 01:26:59,000
Speaker 3: You can have them.

2123
01:26:59,040 --> 01:27:01,800
Speaker 13: But because we didn't like but you didn't like them, no,

2124
01:27:02,120 --> 01:27:03,880
Speaker 13: because we we had like to test it because we

2125
01:27:03,920 --> 01:27:05,280
Speaker 13: were visiting, so we had.

2126
01:27:05,200 --> 01:27:06,479
Speaker 1: Like, can I see what? Can I see what you

2127
01:27:06,560 --> 01:27:08,120
Speaker 1: gotten there? Okay? So you tried it?

2128
01:27:08,240 --> 01:27:09,080
Speaker 2: You didn't like it? Andy?

2129
01:27:09,120 --> 01:27:11,280
Speaker 9: No, it was one with lemon and I don't even

2130
01:27:11,320 --> 01:27:11,840
Speaker 9: know this one.

2131
01:27:12,080 --> 01:27:14,360
Speaker 1: Oh this is like a that's like a cream.

2132
01:27:14,680 --> 01:27:17,000
Speaker 9: Yeah, we didn't like beat on him, so you can try.

2133
01:27:16,880 --> 01:27:18,040
Speaker 1: It's pretty good.

2134
01:27:18,240 --> 01:27:18,439
Speaker 9: Yeah.

2135
01:27:18,520 --> 01:27:22,320
Speaker 1: Here, well Norris you did Why didn't you like him?

2136
01:27:23,240 --> 01:27:23,560
Speaker 9: I don't know.

2137
01:27:23,680 --> 01:27:25,000
Speaker 1: But you're visiting from France?

2138
01:27:25,080 --> 01:27:25,920
Speaker 9: Yeah, exactly.

2139
01:27:27,720 --> 01:27:28,000
Speaker 2: Are you?

2140
01:27:30,080 --> 01:27:31,000
Speaker 1: How long are you in New York for?

2141
01:27:31,760 --> 01:27:35,760
Speaker 13: So we arrived on like last Wednesday and we are

2142
01:27:35,800 --> 01:27:37,400
Speaker 13: here until next Saturday.

2143
01:27:37,520 --> 01:27:39,040
Speaker 1: What do you observe about New York?

2144
01:27:39,920 --> 01:27:40,040
Speaker 7: Oh?

2145
01:27:40,200 --> 01:27:40,920
Speaker 9: So so loud?

2146
01:27:42,360 --> 01:27:43,200
Speaker 1: Where in France do you live?

2147
01:27:43,320 --> 01:27:43,559
Speaker 3: Pi?

2148
01:27:43,800 --> 01:27:46,120
Speaker 1: Okay, but how do you compare New York to Paris?

2149
01:27:46,520 --> 01:27:50,559
Speaker 13: It's so loud, people are like always screaming or stuff

2150
01:27:50,640 --> 01:27:55,200
Speaker 13: like this. Uh, but more generous and more friendly. People

2151
01:27:55,200 --> 01:27:58,000
Speaker 13: are more generous and friendly here. Of course I'm from Paris,

2152
01:27:58,040 --> 01:28:01,080
Speaker 13: so I mean the less Okay, for the first time

2153
01:28:01,120 --> 01:28:02,320
Speaker 13: in New York, No second time?

2154
01:28:02,439 --> 01:28:03,880
Speaker 1: Okay. Why do you guys come to New York?

2155
01:28:04,880 --> 01:28:05,920
Speaker 9: Especially living in Tampa?

2156
01:28:06,000 --> 01:28:08,920
Speaker 13: So I come often in the US and it has

2157
01:28:09,000 --> 01:28:10,880
Speaker 13: been three years now, so I wanted to come back

2158
01:28:11,320 --> 01:28:11,720
Speaker 13: very nice.

2159
01:28:11,840 --> 01:28:12,040
Speaker 3: Yeah.

2160
01:28:12,320 --> 01:28:14,120
Speaker 1: What are the French think of Americans? Do they think

2161
01:28:14,160 --> 01:28:17,320
Speaker 1: that we're stupid? You can say yes, if that's the truth.

2162
01:28:17,640 --> 01:28:18,439
Speaker 9: I don't think that there.

2163
01:28:19,040 --> 01:28:21,840
Speaker 13: They can't think about this because we're that stupid as

2164
01:28:21,920 --> 01:28:23,680
Speaker 13: much as American could be.

2165
01:28:24,120 --> 01:28:25,719
Speaker 1: I mean's goods.

2166
01:28:26,120 --> 01:28:28,960
Speaker 13: I mean, we almost elected the guy who never worked

2167
01:28:29,000 --> 01:28:31,720
Speaker 13: in his life, but for real, like never in his life.

2168
01:28:32,120 --> 01:28:36,519
Speaker 13: He's famous for probably shitting in his pants on this

2169
01:28:36,920 --> 01:28:38,680
Speaker 13: only year of college that he did.

2170
01:28:38,920 --> 01:28:42,080
Speaker 1: He's famous for shitting in his pants. Really, what's this

2171
01:28:42,120 --> 01:28:42,559
Speaker 1: guy's name?

2172
01:28:42,600 --> 01:28:44,680
Speaker 13: This is the rumor that we have, and he has

2173
01:28:44,760 --> 01:28:49,080
Speaker 13: been the first runner of the European election last year year?

2174
01:28:49,439 --> 01:28:49,679
Speaker 3: Really?

2175
01:28:49,920 --> 01:28:52,160
Speaker 1: Can you so we are not Macrown?

2176
01:28:52,320 --> 01:28:52,439
Speaker 3: Right?

2177
01:28:52,600 --> 01:28:52,640
Speaker 6: No?

2178
01:28:52,720 --> 01:28:55,519
Speaker 9: No, that's not mcons Bardilla Okay yeah, but.

2179
01:28:55,640 --> 01:28:56,840
Speaker 1: And who did you vote for him?

2180
01:28:57,080 --> 01:28:57,479
Speaker 9: Of course not?

2181
01:28:58,000 --> 01:28:59,920
Speaker 1: Is he like them? Is he like the French Trump?

2182
01:29:01,200 --> 01:29:04,320
Speaker 9: I can't even say if he's the French Trump or

2183
01:29:04,840 --> 01:29:05,680
Speaker 9: he's far right?

2184
01:29:06,360 --> 01:29:07,200
Speaker 1: Okay, that's that's it.

2185
01:29:07,400 --> 01:29:08,800
Speaker 13: I mean, this is not the same way that it

2186
01:29:08,920 --> 01:29:13,040
Speaker 13: works because we have so many political groups and everything.

2187
01:29:13,640 --> 01:29:16,560
Speaker 1: Do do your friends go to therapy or is it

2188
01:29:16,640 --> 01:29:17,160
Speaker 1: mainly just you?

2189
01:29:17,439 --> 01:29:17,479
Speaker 3: No?

2190
01:29:17,560 --> 01:29:21,920
Speaker 13: No, some of my friends goes, and hopefully most of

2191
01:29:22,040 --> 01:29:24,880
Speaker 13: them will go at some point. Okay, I'm doing this

2192
01:29:25,080 --> 01:29:28,880
Speaker 13: lobbying for them to go. Mm hmmmm, because I'm paying

2193
01:29:28,960 --> 01:29:29,479
Speaker 13: now for them?

2194
01:29:29,920 --> 01:29:31,160
Speaker 1: Are you you're paying for your friends?

2195
01:29:31,400 --> 01:29:33,800
Speaker 9: You're paying because they come to me to have like

2196
01:29:33,920 --> 01:29:34,840
Speaker 9: therapy conversations.

2197
01:29:34,880 --> 01:29:36,640
Speaker 1: Oh, you're the therapist exact.

2198
01:29:37,960 --> 01:29:39,200
Speaker 9: Either of me or someone else.

2199
01:29:39,320 --> 01:29:41,280
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, So are you a good person to go

2200
01:29:41,360 --> 01:29:42,799
Speaker 1: to for for therapy?

2201
01:29:43,160 --> 01:29:44,920
Speaker 9: I don't know. I'm not gonna judge myself.

2202
01:29:45,760 --> 01:29:47,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, to do a lot of people to I mean,

2203
01:29:47,800 --> 01:29:49,280
Speaker 1: if you're if a lot of people go to you

2204
01:29:49,360 --> 01:29:51,880
Speaker 1: for therapy it pints, you're probably good at it or

2205
01:29:51,920 --> 01:29:54,360
Speaker 1: else they wouldn't come to you, like we have to

2206
01:29:54,640 --> 01:29:55,040
Speaker 1: ask them.

2207
01:29:55,200 --> 01:29:55,600
Speaker 6: I don't know.

2208
01:29:56,080 --> 01:29:58,040
Speaker 1: Do do a lot of your friends go to you for?

2209
01:29:58,160 --> 01:29:59,479
Speaker 1: What kinds of things? Do your friends ask you for

2210
01:29:59,479 --> 01:30:00,000
Speaker 1: advice about?

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Speaker 13: Mostly with their family, because we all struggle with this

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01:30:06,120 --> 01:30:09,000
Speaker 13: energy we don't have with our parents and immigrant parents.

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01:30:09,280 --> 01:30:10,280
Speaker 9: My parents are from Turkey.

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Speaker 13: They came to friends, so it's not the same way

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Speaker 13: that we see et cetera and everything.

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Speaker 9: So we mostly have the same issues, all of them.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so you guys all have very similar like family

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01:30:20,680 --> 01:30:24,400
Speaker 1: lives exactly. How old are you? You're three four? Okay,

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01:30:24,479 --> 01:30:27,040
Speaker 1: and so all your friends like and your friends are

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01:30:27,040 --> 01:30:28,880
Speaker 1: all kind of same age, yeah exactly, and so you're

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01:30:28,880 --> 01:30:31,519
Speaker 1: all like from like similar like generation exactly.

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Speaker 13: Yeah, okay, the nineties we grew up with Internet, coming

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Speaker 13: forms and everything.

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01:30:36,320 --> 01:30:38,960
Speaker 1: Are you still friends with are still not friends?

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01:30:39,000 --> 01:30:39,200
Speaker 2: Of course?

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01:30:39,200 --> 01:30:40,880
Speaker 1: You're friends with your friends, are you? Are you still

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01:30:40,920 --> 01:30:42,400
Speaker 1: like close with very friends? You get to see them

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01:30:42,479 --> 01:30:42,840
Speaker 1: very often?

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01:30:42,920 --> 01:30:43,080
Speaker 8: Yeah?

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01:30:43,120 --> 01:30:43,439
Speaker 9: Of course.

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Speaker 1: Do they all live in Paris?

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01:30:45,080 --> 01:30:46,840
Speaker 9: Yeah, we live all on the same area.

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Speaker 1: That's so fucking now. How long have you been friends

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01:30:49,280 --> 01:30:49,760
Speaker 1: with these people?

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01:30:51,040 --> 01:30:51,960
Speaker 9: Fifteen twenty years?

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01:30:52,400 --> 01:30:55,599
Speaker 1: It's so nice, man. Yeah, that's a real blessing. I wish,

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01:30:56,160 --> 01:30:57,840
Speaker 1: you know, I have a group of like there's nine

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01:30:57,880 --> 01:30:59,640
Speaker 1: of us, and like, you know, I've been friends with

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01:30:59,640 --> 01:31:01,240
Speaker 1: them for a long time. But you know, we all

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Speaker 1: kind of we're all like in the same like East Coast.

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Speaker 1: But like if everyone lived in the same neighborhood, I

2242
01:31:06,200 --> 01:31:07,040
Speaker 1: mean that would beautiful.

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01:31:07,320 --> 01:31:07,479
Speaker 7: Yeah.

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01:31:07,520 --> 01:31:10,440
Speaker 13: I think we tried to live in the same neighborhood

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01:31:10,479 --> 01:31:12,680
Speaker 13: because also when you're in friends, it's not like here

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01:31:13,080 --> 01:31:16,040
Speaker 13: you have to live in Paris to have better jobs

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01:31:16,160 --> 01:31:19,479
Speaker 13: and everything. So it's all mostly on the same places,

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01:31:19,560 --> 01:31:22,519
Speaker 13: so then you choose to be still with them. I

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01:31:22,600 --> 01:31:24,840
Speaker 13: have some of them living in other cities, but it's

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Speaker 13: mostly all in Paris.

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Speaker 1: What are you most excited for in life moving forward?

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01:31:31,240 --> 01:31:33,640
Speaker 9: I think I've been kids at some point. Yeah, I

2253
01:31:33,680 --> 01:31:34,719
Speaker 9: would love having kids.

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01:31:35,000 --> 01:31:36,360
Speaker 1: Do you feel like you've learned a lot from your

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01:31:36,400 --> 01:31:39,160
Speaker 1: own parents that you can yeah, either either what to.

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01:31:39,200 --> 01:31:40,759
Speaker 9: Do or what not to exactly exactly.

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01:31:40,880 --> 01:31:44,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, Okay, how how often do you talk to your parents?

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01:31:44,880 --> 01:31:47,960
Speaker 9: Almost like every two days or every day?

2259
01:31:48,600 --> 01:31:48,760
Speaker 3: Then?

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01:31:48,960 --> 01:31:51,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, I can't be honest, Like, all right, you sat

2261
01:31:51,439 --> 01:31:52,960
Speaker 1: down and you were like, you were like, you have

2262
01:31:53,080 --> 01:31:54,640
Speaker 1: to be, you must be.

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01:31:54,840 --> 01:31:58,040
Speaker 9: It has been like six years now that I'm working on.

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01:31:58,120 --> 01:32:00,639
Speaker 1: This, so well, I guess well the way you said

2265
01:32:00,720 --> 01:32:02,000
Speaker 1: when you said that, and you were like you might

2266
01:32:02,439 --> 01:32:05,280
Speaker 1: man can only rely on himself. And it's like you

2267
01:32:05,320 --> 01:32:07,760
Speaker 1: have a you have a great community, you're very you

2268
01:32:07,800 --> 01:32:10,280
Speaker 1: have a wife, you have your pet, friends all around

2269
01:32:10,320 --> 01:32:12,400
Speaker 1: you have you know, you don't seem to rely be

2270
01:32:12,560 --> 01:32:13,920
Speaker 1: I mean you know what I mean, But like you

2271
01:32:14,000 --> 01:32:15,599
Speaker 1: seem like you have a lot of people in your life.

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01:32:15,680 --> 01:32:15,880
Speaker 6: Yeah.

2273
01:32:15,920 --> 01:32:20,280
Speaker 9: With bundies that I fixed, it's better now.

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01:32:20,520 --> 01:32:24,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, Yeah, that's great, man cool, Thank you so much.

2275
01:32:24,160 --> 01:32:24,400
Speaker 2: Of course.

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01:32:24,439 --> 01:32:27,280
Speaker 1: What's your name again, yugi Yi? Thank you very much

2277
01:32:27,320 --> 01:32:28,799
Speaker 1: for sitting down and talking to man. I really appreciate.

2278
01:32:28,840 --> 01:32:29,800
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

2279
01:32:29,840 --> 01:32:33,200
Speaker 1: people before we go? Julie is the best rapper in Frience?

2280
01:32:33,280 --> 01:32:38,320
Speaker 1: Who is jew Jewel? Nice to meet you man later. Well, folks,

2281
01:32:38,800 --> 01:32:42,360
Speaker 1: I think that was it. I think those were our interviews.

2282
01:32:41,960 --> 01:32:42,400
Speaker 7: For the day.

2283
01:32:42,479 --> 01:32:44,439
Speaker 1: I think they were pretty good. Who do we talk to?

2284
01:32:45,479 --> 01:32:50,320
Speaker 1: We talked to the Yo Yo man. We talked to

2285
01:32:50,760 --> 01:32:55,719
Speaker 1: the elementary school principal. We talked to the opera singer lady.

2286
01:32:56,040 --> 01:32:59,880
Speaker 1: We talked to uh the general, the other the gentleman

2287
01:33:00,040 --> 01:33:03,280
Speaker 1: at the bike talking about getting sober as well. That

2288
01:33:03,439 --> 01:33:05,840
Speaker 1: was a good That was a good group of people.

2289
01:33:06,479 --> 01:33:08,800
Speaker 1: This was a good episode. I hope you guys enjoyed it.

2290
01:33:09,720 --> 01:33:12,439
Speaker 1: I'm debating, Oh this guy left his cookies. I'm I'm

2291
01:33:12,520 --> 01:33:15,280
Speaker 1: debating if I should eat a stranger's half eaten cookies.

2292
01:33:15,360 --> 01:33:18,040
Speaker 1: I'm not above it. I'm really not above it. I'm

2293
01:33:18,160 --> 01:33:20,679
Speaker 1: really really not above it. I'm I might be above

2294
01:33:20,760 --> 01:33:24,439
Speaker 1: doing it on camera, but i'm i'm I'm I'm not

2295
01:33:24,560 --> 01:33:26,880
Speaker 1: above it. So I might do it. So anyway, thank

2296
01:33:26,880 --> 01:33:30,639
Speaker 1: you guys for listening to this. If you're tomorrow, I'm

2297
01:33:30,680 --> 01:33:34,679
Speaker 1: gonna drop my uh my, uh well, if you're watching

2298
01:33:34,720 --> 01:33:36,720
Speaker 1: this on YouTube, it's already on here. But if you're

2299
01:33:36,840 --> 01:33:39,960
Speaker 1: listening to this on the podcast tomorrow, I'm gonna drop

2300
01:33:40,160 --> 01:33:44,320
Speaker 1: my Tijuana dance battle video on Spotify, so you should

2301
01:33:44,400 --> 01:33:48,479
Speaker 1: check that out. But anyway, uh that's it. What another

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01:33:48,520 --> 01:33:52,240
Speaker 1: beautiful day of talking to people. Say safe, say words

2303
01:33:52,280 --> 01:33:55,040
Speaker 1: in the comments. If you enjoyed these conversations. I want

2304
01:33:55,040 --> 01:33:57,360
Speaker 1: to hear what people have to say. I sit down

2305
01:33:57,439 --> 01:34:00,679
Speaker 1: here for for for a bunch of time talking to people.

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01:34:00,720 --> 01:34:02,479
Speaker 1: I want to hear what people have to say. I'm

2307
01:34:02,520 --> 01:34:05,800
Speaker 1: curious if you guys have thoughts about the conversations. You

2308
01:34:05,840 --> 01:34:08,760
Speaker 1: have thoughts about live your life. Give a like, give

2309
01:34:08,760 --> 01:34:12,880
Speaker 1: a comment, give a subscribe, Spotify comments, YouTube comments, whatever. Okay,

2310
01:34:12,960 --> 01:34:15,559
Speaker 1: that's it. I don't have anything else to say. I'm

2311
01:34:15,600 --> 01:34:17,160
Speaker 1: a get go, I'm getting out of here. I'm gonna

2312
01:34:17,160 --> 01:34:19,200
Speaker 1: go play my switch to and eat a stranger's half

2313
01:34:19,240 --> 01:34:23,400
Speaker 1: eating cookie and try not to think. All right, gak

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01:34:23,479 --> 01:34:26,799
Speaker 1: bless thank you very much, see you around the universe.