WEBVTT - Chasing The War

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<v Speaker 1>Third Squad is a podcast about war. All episodes contain

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<v Speaker 1>strong language and graphic descriptions of violence that may not

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<v Speaker 1>be suitable for all listeners. So I went down there

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<v Speaker 1>to bury him fresh out of high school. He was

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<v Speaker 1>a kid and his dad was about thirty eight, maybe forty.

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<v Speaker 1>He came up to me and said, hey, I try

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<v Speaker 1>to join as soon as I heard it happened. They

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<v Speaker 1>won't let me go over there. They won't let me

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<v Speaker 1>join them too old. And he goes like, hey, can

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<v Speaker 1>you promise if you can get over there, like can

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<v Speaker 1>you can you do something about it? And I was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I meanly, like that's all I want to do. So

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<v Speaker 1>then that like became my mission. Is like no matter

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<v Speaker 1>what I was, getting to Afghanistan, Ii'm Elliott Woods. This

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<v Speaker 1>is Third Squad Episode nine, Chasing the War. There's no

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<v Speaker 1>barber pole outside the Straight Ahead Barbershop in Greensburg, Pennsylvania,

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<v Speaker 1>but inside it's a throwback to the places where I

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<v Speaker 1>got my hair cut as a kid a few hours

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<v Speaker 1>from here. When we were young, there were old school barbershops.

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<v Speaker 1>There were, but like in that mid nineties period, I

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<v Speaker 1>think they like all faded and disappeared and nobody replaced

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<v Speaker 1>them with a long wooden bench where customers wait their

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<v Speaker 1>turn and a jar of combs bathing an ice blue

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<v Speaker 1>barber side. Straight ahead is a convincing replacement. It looks

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<v Speaker 1>like an antique barber chair. Yeah, they're both about a

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<v Speaker 1>years old, probably finished on myself. It's the centerpiece of

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<v Speaker 1>the barbershops. They're like, you have to have an old

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<v Speaker 1>chair like. The owner's name is Jeriic Fry. The first

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<v Speaker 1>time I met him, he was wearing body armor and

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<v Speaker 1>a helmet and getting ready to step out on patrol.

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<v Speaker 1>When sang for I was third squad squad leader. And

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<v Speaker 1>in the past decade he's gone from carrying a him

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<v Speaker 1>forward wielding clippers in his very own barber shop. His

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<v Speaker 1>body armor and helmet are actually on display next to

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<v Speaker 1>a shelf of straight ahead T shirts. As it happens,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in need of a trimp. So when you look

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<v Speaker 1>at these scant resources of hair that I have on

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<v Speaker 1>top of my head, what are you thinking? What is

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<v Speaker 1>your creative vision for I think you get like pretty

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<v Speaker 1>tight at the bottom, like for a wand maybe even

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<v Speaker 1>like tapered out almost that sounds good. Fry has the

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<v Speaker 1>vintage barber. Look down. He's got a leather apron and

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<v Speaker 1>his own hair styled in a classic part with the waves,

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<v Speaker 1>but he still looks like a marine, square jawed and

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<v Speaker 1>clean shaven, and a little intimidate, which he says actually

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<v Speaker 1>helps put his regular clientele at eats. When I opened

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<v Speaker 1>my shop, I really wanted to draw the correct customers,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I wanted I wanted the police. I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>the military, one of the good blue collar guys, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like I wanted the good community in here. It's not

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<v Speaker 1>all about making money. It's you know, it's about the

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<v Speaker 1>people you affect and the the people surround your show with.

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<v Speaker 1>Greensburg is a rust belt city on the east side

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<v Speaker 1>of Pittsburgh with a lot of empty storefronts and a

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<v Speaker 1>few stately old buildings that call back to better times.

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<v Speaker 1>Fry grew up in a smaller town called Irwin, about

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<v Speaker 1>ten miles closer to Pittsburgh. He moved back to the

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<v Speaker 1>area in two thousand and fourteen when he got out

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<v Speaker 1>of the core, and he's glad to be home. Pennsylvania's

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<v Speaker 1>great that people here are great families from here. I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted my boys to be raised here. Ford tells me

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<v Speaker 1>this area was pretty depressed when he was a kid,

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<v Speaker 1>but he says Greensburg has been making a gradual comeback.

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<v Speaker 1>He's proud that his barbershop is one less empty storefront,

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<v Speaker 1>and he loves his work. Your barber is not just

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<v Speaker 1>somebody to cut your hair. He becomes like a party,

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<v Speaker 1>like your family, your friend. You're probably gonna cut your

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<v Speaker 1>hair right before you get married. Uh. And then on

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<v Speaker 1>the flip side of it, you know it's a loved

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<v Speaker 1>one dies You're probably gonna be in here. You know

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<v Speaker 1>you're going to court, You're gonna be in here. So

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<v Speaker 1>I'm with you on like the facts and worst days

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<v Speaker 1>of your life. That's what I like about barbering. And like,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't walk into a barbershop and get a good

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<v Speaker 1>haircut and walk out and not feel better. That's true.

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<v Speaker 1>You can definitely walk out of a barbershop with a

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<v Speaker 1>bad haircut and not feel better, though, I just feel defeated. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean that was one of the things that drove

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<v Speaker 1>me to be a barber, is that when I was

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<v Speaker 1>in the Marine Corps, you know, I'm getting a haircut

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<v Speaker 1>every single week for nine years, and there were so

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<v Speaker 1>many disappointing haircuts and like I just never understood it, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>how how is this your job and you're so bad

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<v Speaker 1>at it? Like, and I was like, I know I

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<v Speaker 1>can do better than It's like, I can provide a

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<v Speaker 1>better service than this. Yeah. After a year of COVID

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<v Speaker 1>buzz cuts at home, Fries managed to make me look

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<v Speaker 1>like a respectable citizen again. That looks great. I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like a new man, for I was twenty four years

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<v Speaker 1>old when we first met him. Sang In one of

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<v Speaker 1>the oldest guys in the squad. He was reserved on me,

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<v Speaker 1>but I picked up on his determination to do better,

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<v Speaker 1>to constantly learn and improve for the benefit of the

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<v Speaker 1>younger Marines, and as far as he was concerned, their

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<v Speaker 1>lives were in his hands. Here we are back at

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<v Speaker 1>patrol base Fires. What's it like to be a squad

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<v Speaker 1>leader and have responsibility for these guys they're under You

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<v Speaker 1>don't ever control the Billit of squad leader carries a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of weight. Not only in charge of thousands and

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<v Speaker 1>thousands of dollars of equipment and ammunition, but you're in

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<v Speaker 1>charge of ten of the marines. Lives depend on how

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<v Speaker 1>hard you are on them and how strict you make

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<v Speaker 1>them follow and abide by rules and tactics. Even when

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<v Speaker 1>you get tired and lazy and the patrols keep dragging on,

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<v Speaker 1>you have to keep their head in the game. And

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<v Speaker 1>if you don't, if one of them lose their lives,

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<v Speaker 1>it falls on your shoulders. For I didn't start the

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<v Speaker 1>deployment with Third Squad. He came as a combat replacement

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<v Speaker 1>after the original squad leader, Sergeant Andrew Mottelski, got blown

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<v Speaker 1>up on June twelve, two th eleven. The platoon lost

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<v Speaker 1>almost all of its senior leaders to the mass casualties

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<v Speaker 1>in June, so when Fry arrived in July, the younger

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<v Speaker 1>Marines were still reeling. Boosting their morale and keeping their

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<v Speaker 1>heads in the game was a matter of life and death.

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<v Speaker 1>If one person in the squad's week, the squad will fail.

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<v Speaker 1>So everybody has to pull their own weight. Everybody has

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<v Speaker 1>to know their job, the job below them, the job

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<v Speaker 1>above them. It's more like a family that everybody works

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<v Speaker 1>together real well. Everybody gets along real well, and if

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<v Speaker 1>you don't, you fail, And failure is not an option

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<v Speaker 1>out here because people won't go home. That It was

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<v Speaker 1>the end of July two thousand eleven when we were talking.

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<v Speaker 1>Third squad had a little more than two months to

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<v Speaker 1>go before the end of the deployment. So what do

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<v Speaker 1>you hope would be the end state for your squads accomplishments?

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<v Speaker 1>And in October what you hope that you guys can

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<v Speaker 1>get accomplished by that if you keep up phone, men, phone.

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<v Speaker 1>The only thing I really care about is getting these

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<v Speaker 1>guys home and getting home with all our limbs. Anything

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<v Speaker 1>other than that just a plus yea. In the relative

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<v Speaker 1>quiet of the vacant tattoo shop he shares the building with,

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<v Speaker 1>Fry tells me about his life before the Marine Corps,

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<v Speaker 1>growing up in a working class p A family. His

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<v Speaker 1>mom worked in the food industry and his dad worked

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<v Speaker 1>and still works at a company that manufactures granite countertops.

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<v Speaker 1>I called the Pennsylvania grind here in West Pennsylvania. Like

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<v Speaker 1>these blue collar guys, they're just getting this grind and

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<v Speaker 1>it's like good enough. They're never really happy, but like

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<v Speaker 1>they're just they're doing enough, they're paying their bills, and

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<v Speaker 1>they just grind away for these employers that just take

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<v Speaker 1>advantage of them. But fr I wasn't thinking about any

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<v Speaker 1>of that as a kid. I grew up and my

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<v Speaker 1>family always knew I was going to go to the

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<v Speaker 1>military of some sort. It's like my parents joker about

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<v Speaker 1>that all the time. Like I'd be building bombs and

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<v Speaker 1>weapons in the basement, and like I always had like

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<v Speaker 1>g I Jo's and would set him up in these

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<v Speaker 1>big elaborate battles, and always watched war movies and like

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<v Speaker 1>my whole life. But like I didn't know that I

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<v Speaker 1>was going to military. They did, though Fry's destiny didn't

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<v Speaker 1>become clear to him until his senior year of high school.

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<v Speaker 1>I was sitting on my back porch of my house.

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<v Speaker 1>I was thinking about what I was gonna do with

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<v Speaker 1>my life. And I didn't want to go to college.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to get in that blue collar grind

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<v Speaker 1>and just worked till I was dead. And I like

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<v Speaker 1>had an epiphany. I just said, well, I'm gonna go

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<v Speaker 1>join the Marine Corps. He was seventeen years old. My

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<v Speaker 1>mind was made. I just wanted to go shoot weapons.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know what that meant, but that's all I said.

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<v Speaker 1>After high school for I went to Paris Island, South

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<v Speaker 1>Carolina for bootcamp. It was June two THI and even

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<v Speaker 1>though President George Bush had declared mission accomplished in Iraq

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<v Speaker 1>two years earlier. In the Battle of Iraq, the United

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<v Speaker 1>States and our allies have prevailed. An outbreak of vicious

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<v Speaker 1>sectarian fighting was derailing plans for an easy excident. The

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<v Speaker 1>Almani Army, loyal to the Shiite Claret Mark Potter outsider,

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<v Speaker 1>was responsible from much of the violence outside Falluja and Ramadi.

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<v Speaker 1>The whole time through boot camp, all they kept telling us,

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<v Speaker 1>the guys that signed up for infantry, they kept pull

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<v Speaker 1>once aside and they're like, Hey, you're going to war,

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<v Speaker 1>Like there's no question, there's no Within a year you

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<v Speaker 1>will be in Iraq, which, like is what I wanted,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, That's what I was looking for. When Fry

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<v Speaker 1>finished recruit training and got to his unit at Camp Lajeune,

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<v Speaker 1>North Carolina, he was surrounded by Marines who were fresh

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<v Speaker 1>home from the two thousand four Battle of Felujah. The

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<v Speaker 1>US and Iraqi forces launched a major offensive event Falloja Today,

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<v Speaker 1>which was already notorious in the core for some of

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<v Speaker 1>the worst urban warfare since the Battle of Way City

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<v Speaker 1>in the Vietnam War. So some five thousand US Marines

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<v Speaker 1>and soldiers stage the ground assault, and even though Fry

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<v Speaker 1>got hazed by Felujha Vets, who were obviously struggling with

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<v Speaker 1>what they'd experienced. He still looked up to him. He

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<v Speaker 1>still wanted a piece of the action, and he prepared

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<v Speaker 1>for it with laser focus. I've really cared about my job,

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<v Speaker 1>and I studied it, you know. I would study machine

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<v Speaker 1>guns and tactics and everything constantly. I just tried to

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<v Speaker 1>make myself the best I could possibly be to help

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<v Speaker 1>the Marines around me. Fry was what's known in the

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<v Speaker 1>military as a hard charger. Nothing in his life came

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<v Speaker 1>anywhere close to his devotion to the core, not even

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<v Speaker 1>his wife, Kristen, who he married when he was only eighteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Fry was a Marine infantryman, and he had a single obsession.

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<v Speaker 1>I was looking for war. I was looking for the fight.

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to connectic fight, not knowing exactly what that meant,

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<v Speaker 1>but I wanted it. But Fry kept missing the war.

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<v Speaker 1>In two thousand six, he participated in the evacuation of

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<v Speaker 1>nearly fifteen thousand Americans from Lebanon during the war between

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<v Speaker 1>Israel and Hezbollah from a U. S. Navy ship off

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<v Speaker 1>the coast. He heard the gunfire on shore and watched

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<v Speaker 1>Israeli jets zip across the sky and entire buildings turned

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<v Speaker 1>into mushroom clouds. But there was no combat role for

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<v Speaker 1>the Marines, and the experience left Fried Jones ng even

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<v Speaker 1>more for the real war, the one just across the

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<v Speaker 1>Syrian desert in a rock, where other Camp Lejun Marines

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<v Speaker 1>were taking part in a bloody campaign to retake a

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<v Speaker 1>town called Ramadi from al Qaida linked insurgents. This vated

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<v Speaker 1>city has become the operational center of al Qaida and

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<v Speaker 1>the symbolic heart of the Iraqi insurgency. Fried did end

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<v Speaker 1>up getting deployed to Ramadi a year later, but by

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<v Speaker 1>the time he got there the fire storm had already passed.

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<v Speaker 1>There was a few like little firefights, little pop shots,

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<v Speaker 1>some ideas found, but for the most part it was

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<v Speaker 1>very calm. I lifted a lot of weights and ate

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of food, and patrol a lot and stood

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of posts. But we weren't out there getting

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<v Speaker 1>in firefights, which is what I was looking for. Being

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<v Speaker 1>young and dumb, for I signed up to fight the dragon.

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<v Speaker 1>He wasn't interested in the hearts and minds counterinsurgency stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>So when the Ramadi hitch was over. He volunteered for

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<v Speaker 1>another Rock deployment, hoping this time he'd get his chance.

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<v Speaker 1>But when he got to his new base outside Felujah

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<v Speaker 1>in two thousand nine, the Dragon was sound asleep. We

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<v Speaker 1>were doing nothing but like humanitarian missions and some policing,

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<v Speaker 1>but mainly we had turned over the forces to Iraqi forces.

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<v Speaker 1>We were there just to support them at that point,

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<v Speaker 1>which was basically a huge letdown for all of us.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, we went over there and it was kind

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<v Speaker 1>of a waste of time. You know. The thing that

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<v Speaker 1>I had been chasing and heard about and read stories

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<v Speaker 1>and trained for, I wasn't able to do. Over the

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<v Speaker 1>course of five years in the Marines, Fry had spent

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<v Speaker 1>a combined fourteen months in a war zone where death

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<v Speaker 1>lurked everywhere, but he never got deep in the ship,

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<v Speaker 1>and he felt cheated, like a professional athlete stuck on

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<v Speaker 1>the sidelines. For I was at the top of his game,

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<v Speaker 1>hitting every benchmark of success in the Marines. He made

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<v Speaker 1>sergeant in less than four years, a rare feet in

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<v Speaker 1>the core. A sergeant in the Marine Corps is like

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<v Speaker 1>a god, like those are the guys you look up to,

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<v Speaker 1>like the new guys coming in like you don't even

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<v Speaker 1>talk to a sergeant, you don't even look at them wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Sergeants serve as squad leaders in the Marine Corps, and

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<v Speaker 1>for I wanted to lead a squad in the thick

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<v Speaker 1>of combat in the worst way. But it didn't look

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<v Speaker 1>like he'd get another chance in a rock where the

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<v Speaker 1>American withdrawal was already underway. Obama's Afghanistan Surge, on the

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<v Speaker 1>other hand, was just ramping up. And when fr I

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<v Speaker 1>found out that the third Battalion, fifth Marines was slotted

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<v Speaker 1>for a deployment to sang In, he saw one more chance.

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<v Speaker 1>He requested and received a transfer from Campbell June out

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<v Speaker 1>to Camp Pendleton, and almost as soon as he got there,

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<v Speaker 1>he began tryouts for three fives elite sniper platoon. They

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<v Speaker 1>told us to get our packs and the way they

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<v Speaker 1>run the hooy to the top of the hill. Had

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<v Speaker 1>about ninety pounds in my back and I stepped in

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<v Speaker 1>a waddy like a runoff, and I hyper extended my

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<v Speaker 1>right knee and blew out my A C L, L

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<v Speaker 1>C L and both meniscus with one fatal swoop. The

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<v Speaker 1>injury was severe enough that Fry had to be pulled

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<v Speaker 1>from the line. So when three five shipped out for

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<v Speaker 1>Sangon in the autumn of two thousand ten, for I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't with them. And initially it was I mean, it

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<v Speaker 1>was all anger, and it was like I was just

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<v Speaker 1>missing it, like I missed something, like I like, like

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<v Speaker 1>I said, I was chasing it and chasing and chasing,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was there. I was there, and then I

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<v Speaker 1>got hurt and couldn't do what I wanted to do,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, like I thought I wanted to do

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<v Speaker 1>in my heart. While he was injured, Fry had helped

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<v Speaker 1>train young three five marines. Now they were in harm's way,

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<v Speaker 1>and the bad news started rolling in almost immediately they

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<v Speaker 1>deploy and I go in for surgery. I'm laying in

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<v Speaker 1>a hospital bed and my buddy Maloney, he came in

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<v Speaker 1>and he tells me that one of my marines was

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<v Speaker 1>the first to die in Afghanistan, Lancecople Sparks, was shot

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<v Speaker 1>and killed. He was one of my marines from my

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<v Speaker 1>machine gun squad that I was in charge of. And

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<v Speaker 1>that just crushed me because I'm laying there in a bed, helpless,

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<v Speaker 1>and I felt like I should have been there like

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<v Speaker 1>there that in my mind there was no question if

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<v Speaker 1>I should have been there. The fact that he couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>do anything to help the three five Marines and sang

0:15:43.440 --> 0:15:46.600
<v Speaker 1>In tormented fry. But there was something he could do

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<v Speaker 1>for the families of the dead back home. So as

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<v Speaker 1>soon as I was able to like bearweight at all,

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<v Speaker 1>I started doing funerals. Because three five suffered so many casually,

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<v Speaker 1>they were really getting beat up for I volunteered for

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<v Speaker 1>the her Guard, the small detachment that escorts marines remains

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<v Speaker 1>back to their families. I thought that if it's the

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<v Speaker 1>only thing I can do, is barry take these guys home,

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<v Speaker 1>take them to their family, and put them in the

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<v Speaker 1>ground and give them the respect that I could. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>that was my responsibility that I had to do. That.

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<v Speaker 1>Part of his duty was pulling guard beside the caskets

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<v Speaker 1>during wakes and funerals. So the entire time that the

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<v Speaker 1>service was open and the people were allowed in, we

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<v Speaker 1>had a marine standing at the head of the casket.

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<v Speaker 1>Then we were in full dress blues the whole time,

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<v Speaker 1>and they stood there completely motionless. It would be like

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<v Speaker 1>an hour. We'd replace them, and we'd do a replacement.

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<v Speaker 1>Ceremonies you walk up and you slow salute, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you take his place, you take charge of the post.

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<v Speaker 1>As you're there, you can't talk, you can't do anything.

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<v Speaker 1>People are crying on you, they're thanking you, they're you know,

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<v Speaker 1>they're asking you questions, and you can't really talk. You

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<v Speaker 1>gotta You're just there as a statue. Whenever they weren't

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<v Speaker 1>on casket guard frying, the other Marines did their best

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<v Speaker 1>to comfort the families. So we're going and meeting their

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<v Speaker 1>families and meeting their kids, and meeting their wives and

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<v Speaker 1>their fathers and and and they're asking you these questions.

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<v Speaker 1>And you don't necessarily know the Marines that you're burying,

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<v Speaker 1>but you know who they are. You know, all Marines,

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<v Speaker 1>and especially anybody that gave their life for their country

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<v Speaker 1>willingly mainly for their brothers. They deserve that respect. And

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<v Speaker 1>it was it was very, very difficult because all I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to do and my power was be over there.

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<v Speaker 1>Friday had five funerals in a matter of a few months.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't combat, but being so close to so much

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<v Speaker 1>anguish was viscerating. It was the hardest time in my

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<v Speaker 1>life as far as mentally goes. I really got into

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<v Speaker 1>drinking heavily. I mean I was probably almost drinking a

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<v Speaker 1>fifth night just to sleep. The funeral that really gutted

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<v Speaker 1>him was for a three five marine from Texas who

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<v Speaker 1>was killed by a sniper and sang it on December six,

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<v Speaker 1>two ten. His name was Private first Class Colton Rusk.

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<v Speaker 1>So I went down there to bury him, fresh out

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<v Speaker 1>of ice school. He was a kid and his dad

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<v Speaker 1>was about thirty eight maybe forty, And he came up

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<v Speaker 1>to me and said, hey, I tried to join as

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<v Speaker 1>soon as I heard it happened. They won't let me

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<v Speaker 1>go over there. They won't let me join them too old.

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<v Speaker 1>And he goes like, hey, can you promise if you

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<v Speaker 1>can get over there, like can you can you do

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<v Speaker 1>something about it? And I was like yeah, I mean

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<v Speaker 1>like that's all I want to do. So then that

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<v Speaker 1>like became my mission. Was like, no matter what, I

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<v Speaker 1>was getting to Afghanistan, we'll be back after the break.

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<v Speaker 1>So when PFC Rusk's dad said can you go over

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<v Speaker 1>and do something about this? Were you thinking I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to go over there and get revenge or were you

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<v Speaker 1>more thinking I'm gonna go over there so that the

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<v Speaker 1>next PFC Rusk comes home. I mean initially, like all

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<v Speaker 1>that reaction, it all starts out as anger, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like when you see people die that you know some

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<v Speaker 1>asshole shot him for whatever reason or blew them up.

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<v Speaker 1>It's anger at first, but then when it settles in,

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<v Speaker 1>like your right mind comes around, it's that you want

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<v Speaker 1>to bring people home for I was desperate get deployed

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<v Speaker 1>to sang In as a combat replacement, one of the

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<v Speaker 1>Marines who would be sent over to fill in for

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<v Speaker 1>three fives wounded and dead. There was a problem though,

0:20:09.680 --> 0:20:12.240
<v Speaker 1>because of his knee surgery. He'd actually been put into

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<v Speaker 1>the pipeline for medical separation. He was a broken weapon,

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<v Speaker 1>and the courts didn't want him anymore. But marines are

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<v Speaker 1>trained to adapt and overcome, and that's exactly what Fried did.

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<v Speaker 1>It was before the Marine Corps switched to digital, and

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<v Speaker 1>when you switch units, you get your medical record and

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<v Speaker 1>you have to take it to that next medical facility.

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<v Speaker 1>So when I took my paperwork to the next medical

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<v Speaker 1>facility for the next unit, I pulled all of my

0:20:38.680 --> 0:20:41.600
<v Speaker 1>surgery paperwork out of it and then turned it back in.

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<v Speaker 1>So as far as anybody was concerned, I was full duty.

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<v Speaker 1>That never happened. Three five came home while Fry was

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<v Speaker 1>healing up and getting back in shape. Over their seven

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<v Speaker 1>months tour and sang In, the battalion had lost twenty

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<v Speaker 1>five marines a hundred and eighty four more were wounded,

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<v Speaker 1>with thirty four of them losing at least one limb.

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<v Speaker 1>Now was one fives turning the meat grinder. Stuck back

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<v Speaker 1>at Camp Pendleton in the late spring of two thousand eleven,

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<v Speaker 1>for I read one fives classified combat action reports from

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<v Speaker 1>Sangon with a mix of horror and frustration, like the

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<v Speaker 1>ones about a six day stretch of catastrophic I E.

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<v Speaker 1>D strikes in June two thousand eleven that robbed the

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<v Speaker 1>patrol based fires Marines of their squad leaders and their

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<v Speaker 1>platoon sergeant, leaving them with almost no experienced leadership at

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<v Speaker 1>the squad level. As soon as I saw that, I

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<v Speaker 1>knew I had to go. There wasn't an option. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't care if I had to sneak on a plane

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<v Speaker 1>to go over there by land ticket. I was going

0:21:39.040 --> 0:21:46.280
<v Speaker 1>there to help them. For I made a bold move.

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<v Speaker 1>He took his request directly to the most senior enlisted

0:21:49.600 --> 0:21:52.800
<v Speaker 1>man out of the nearly five thousand strong Fifth Marine regiment,

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<v Speaker 1>a pretty much unheard of leap in the chain of command.

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<v Speaker 1>But Fry had met the sergeant major at Rusk's funeral

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<v Speaker 1>and he was pretty sure he made a good impression.

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<v Speaker 1>He was like, Starring, Fry, you're a good marine. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>we want more of you around. If you ever need

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<v Speaker 1>anything from me, don't hesitate to ask. And I noted

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<v Speaker 1>that and kept that in my pocket. And when this

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<v Speaker 1>came up, I said, that's the only guy I can

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<v Speaker 1>go to if somebody can get you there, like he

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<v Speaker 1>can just call the order right there, and you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to go. So I went to the regimental office and

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<v Speaker 1>walked upstairs to his office, and he technically had an

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<v Speaker 1>open door policy, which like they all technically do, but

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<v Speaker 1>you don't ever go in a starry major's office. Sergeant

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<v Speaker 1>majors are scary. This one, Regimental Sergeant Major Ernest ho Pe,

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<v Speaker 1>was six ft three and looked like he could rip

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<v Speaker 1>a phone book in half. And I go in and

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<v Speaker 1>he remembered me, and I told him that. I said, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>starry Major, I know this is happening to this company,

0:22:50.400 --> 0:22:53.400
<v Speaker 1>to this tune. Yeah, you need to send me over there.

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<v Speaker 1>And he said, starting, Fry are you sure, I said absolutely,

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<v Speaker 1>And he said you're ready? Is all your order, like

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<v Speaker 1>everything ready for you to go? Can you leave? And

0:23:02.840 --> 0:23:05.320
<v Speaker 1>I said yes? And five days later I was on

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<v Speaker 1>plane in to Afghanistan, to the worst place in the world.

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<v Speaker 1>On one of his stopovers and route to sangon For,

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<v Speaker 1>I picked up a carton of Marlboro reds and a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of logs of Copenhagen. He didn't use tobacco himself,

0:23:20.440 --> 0:23:22.359
<v Speaker 1>but he figured it would soften his landing with the

0:23:22.440 --> 0:23:26.320
<v Speaker 1>lost boys of patrol based fires. It's like gold, So

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<v Speaker 1>I brought it for the Marines because, like I knew

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<v Speaker 1>that they would appreciate that. It's like a welcoming peace

0:23:31.600 --> 0:23:35.440
<v Speaker 1>treaty gift. After a few days base hopping from California

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<v Speaker 1>to sangon For, I hitched a ride on a gun

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<v Speaker 1>truck out to peb Fires in early July two thou eleven.

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<v Speaker 1>He barely stepped inside the wire when the platoon commander

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<v Speaker 1>told him to gear up. Tenner Polton goes, hey, you're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go with that squad. Do you need an Emma

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<v Speaker 1>or anything? I was like yes, So I like he

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<v Speaker 1>loaded me up with him. I got a full combat

0:23:56.000 --> 0:23:59.520
<v Speaker 1>load and I. They briefed me very quickly, and I

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<v Speaker 1>stepped right off on patrol immediately. I mean under a week.

0:24:02.800 --> 0:24:05.919
<v Speaker 1>I was patrolling and saying and from being in America,

0:24:06.560 --> 0:24:10.639
<v Speaker 1>which is insane. The squad Fries stepped out with was

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<v Speaker 1>third squad. He was their new leader, but on that

0:24:13.840 --> 0:24:17.159
<v Speaker 1>first patrol he was just along for the ride. Michael

0:24:17.200 --> 0:24:19.680
<v Speaker 1>Minor had been filling in a squad leader since Mattelski

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<v Speaker 1>got hit on June twelve, and Minor was still in

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<v Speaker 1>charge for one last patrol, Corporal Minors leading it, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I remember stepping out of the wire and I

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<v Speaker 1>had read all the after actions, and I had known

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<v Speaker 1>what they had gone through. And We're walking in a

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<v Speaker 1>single file line with the metal detector on the front,

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<v Speaker 1>which is nothing that I've experienced before. And that moment

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<v Speaker 1>I accepted that I wasn't going to make it out

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<v Speaker 1>of there except on a helicopter or in a body bag.

0:25:01.040 --> 0:25:04.000
<v Speaker 1>I had to put my thoughts in my safety aside

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<v Speaker 1>right then, because I knew that was the only option

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<v Speaker 1>to be successful. If I didn't just have to accept

0:25:11.359 --> 0:25:13.800
<v Speaker 1>the danger in order to do his job. He had

0:25:13.840 --> 0:25:15.760
<v Speaker 1>to bury his own fear for the sake of ten

0:25:15.840 --> 0:25:18.840
<v Speaker 1>Marines in a Navy corpman he just met whose lives

0:25:18.880 --> 0:25:22.639
<v Speaker 1>were now entrusted to him. You can't be afraid as

0:25:22.680 --> 0:25:25.320
<v Speaker 1>a leader. You can't show fear. You have to be

0:25:25.400 --> 0:25:30.280
<v Speaker 1>that strong, steady rock, and I wanted to be that

0:25:30.359 --> 0:25:34.439
<v Speaker 1>for those guys. So the acceptance of the fact that

0:25:35.080 --> 0:25:38.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna lose a leg for my life or both

0:25:38.840 --> 0:25:45.920
<v Speaker 1>was almost relieving. It's not a fear anymore. It's almost

0:25:45.920 --> 0:25:50.840
<v Speaker 1>a power. Back at fires after that first patrol, Fry

0:25:50.880 --> 0:25:53.000
<v Speaker 1>took stock of the platoon he'd read about in those

0:25:53.040 --> 0:25:56.399
<v Speaker 1>combat action reports. Back at Camp Pendleton, all the Marines

0:25:56.400 --> 0:25:59.239
<v Speaker 1>were just beaten down. I mean they've just been beat up.

0:25:59.240 --> 0:26:01.320
<v Speaker 1>At that point, you can just tell morale is low.

0:26:01.840 --> 0:26:04.520
<v Speaker 1>I mean, they didn't have their squad leaders. You know,

0:26:04.520 --> 0:26:06.720
<v Speaker 1>their squad leaders were hit and gone. And that's that's

0:26:06.760 --> 0:26:08.960
<v Speaker 1>their sergeant. You know, that's the person they relied upon,

0:26:09.000 --> 0:26:12.080
<v Speaker 1>and he's gone now. So what were the first days

0:26:12.119 --> 0:26:13.640
<v Speaker 1>like with them? Did you feel like they were looking

0:26:13.680 --> 0:26:15.800
<v Speaker 1>at you like, what's this guy gonna be? Like? Who

0:26:15.840 --> 0:26:20.120
<v Speaker 1>is this guy? It's like a new person joining a family,

0:26:21.600 --> 0:26:23.720
<v Speaker 1>you know, like if you entered somebody else's family and

0:26:23.720 --> 0:26:28.760
<v Speaker 1>you're like, hey, I'm here for me. It was very heavy,

0:26:28.880 --> 0:26:30.640
<v Speaker 1>like I didn't take it as a light situation. This

0:26:30.680 --> 0:26:33.840
<v Speaker 1>was a heavy thing. Entering it correctly, those guys in

0:26:33.920 --> 0:26:38.680
<v Speaker 1>that specific situation, I couldn't really understand where they were at.

0:26:39.119 --> 0:26:43.160
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know how they felt. By the time Fry

0:26:43.280 --> 0:26:46.000
<v Speaker 1>got there in July two thousand eleven, half the guys

0:26:46.000 --> 0:26:48.640
<v Speaker 1>in third Squad had already suffered at least one TB

0:26:48.840 --> 0:26:53.240
<v Speaker 1>I Shearon Lopez still had abrasions on their faces from blasts.

0:26:53.880 --> 0:26:56.119
<v Speaker 1>Rich Bolski was just back from two weeks in the

0:26:56.160 --> 0:26:59.960
<v Speaker 1>hospital after being nearly killed by shrapnel. They'd all heard

0:27:00.080 --> 0:27:03.160
<v Speaker 1>McDaniels screaming, and they'd all combed through the grass trying

0:27:03.160 --> 0:27:06.560
<v Speaker 1>to recover O'Brien. The guys might not have said it

0:27:06.600 --> 0:27:10.440
<v Speaker 1>out loud, but they were scared. They were also burning

0:27:10.480 --> 0:27:14.000
<v Speaker 1>for revenge, an emotional state that can lead to reckless

0:27:14.040 --> 0:27:17.800
<v Speaker 1>decisions with fatal consequences. Fry could have come in like

0:27:17.840 --> 0:27:20.879
<v Speaker 1>a hammer, playing the hard ass, but he knew what

0:27:20.960 --> 0:27:24.240
<v Speaker 1>the squad really needed was a cool head. I showed

0:27:24.320 --> 0:27:26.840
<v Speaker 1>him I was. I was there to just help them

0:27:26.920 --> 0:27:30.199
<v Speaker 1>and that the only thing that mattered to me was

0:27:30.359 --> 0:27:33.880
<v Speaker 1>their safety. He also knew that he would probably never

0:27:33.920 --> 0:27:37.040
<v Speaker 1>fully belong. They did the work up together, you know,

0:27:37.080 --> 0:27:41.000
<v Speaker 1>they suffered losses together, and before I got there. You know,

0:27:41.200 --> 0:27:46.080
<v Speaker 1>the struggle brings people closer. They accepted me as much

0:27:46.119 --> 0:27:50.199
<v Speaker 1>as I think you could possibly do that in that situation.

0:27:52.359 --> 0:27:55.080
<v Speaker 1>After six years in the core, Fry was finally where

0:27:55.080 --> 0:27:58.639
<v Speaker 1>he wanted to be, exactly where he was needed most.

0:27:59.320 --> 0:28:01.800
<v Speaker 1>Every time I and something, I talked to him. If

0:28:01.800 --> 0:28:03.919
<v Speaker 1>they told me on a patrol that they didn't like something,

0:28:04.720 --> 0:28:06.679
<v Speaker 1>you know, if a guy got a bad feeling, you

0:28:06.720 --> 0:28:11.760
<v Speaker 1>know that intuition, I followed it. I trusted him fully.

0:28:12.600 --> 0:28:16.320
<v Speaker 1>I didn't demand respect of them, but I earned it,

0:28:16.440 --> 0:28:19.000
<v Speaker 1>and then they gave it to me. He was back

0:28:19.040 --> 0:28:22.679
<v Speaker 1>to encounterinsurgency again, but there was lots of lead whizzing around.

0:28:23.280 --> 0:28:25.520
<v Speaker 1>The Taliban would often shoot at the Marines to try

0:28:25.520 --> 0:28:28.320
<v Speaker 1>to hurt him towards I E. B s. The typical

0:28:28.359 --> 0:28:31.959
<v Speaker 1>response to contact was to maneuver to close with and

0:28:32.000 --> 0:28:35.639
<v Speaker 1>destroy the enemy, but maneuvering could mean funneling the squad

0:28:35.760 --> 0:28:38.440
<v Speaker 1>right into an I E. D trap, So whenever third

0:28:38.440 --> 0:28:41.120
<v Speaker 1>squad got shot at, Fry directed him to drop in

0:28:41.200 --> 0:28:43.760
<v Speaker 1>place and unload everything they had in the direction the

0:28:43.800 --> 0:28:46.800
<v Speaker 1>fire was coming from. We received fire a few times

0:28:46.920 --> 0:28:50.440
<v Speaker 1>and just overwhelmed them with firepower, because that's my concept

0:28:50.480 --> 0:28:56.160
<v Speaker 1>of warfare. So our squad had stopped being attacked for

0:28:56.160 --> 0:29:08.920
<v Speaker 1>the most point, I believed because of our posture. On

0:29:08.960 --> 0:29:11.600
<v Speaker 1>a day to day basis, the squad's mission was mine

0:29:11.680 --> 0:29:15.840
<v Speaker 1>numbingly repetitive walk around advertising their presence to the Taliban

0:29:15.880 --> 0:29:17.920
<v Speaker 1>while trying not to step on I e. D. S.

0:29:18.960 --> 0:29:22.080
<v Speaker 1>But there was a larger official objective, even if most

0:29:22.080 --> 0:29:24.719
<v Speaker 1>of the guys in third Squad had never heard it explained.

0:29:26.560 --> 0:29:29.200
<v Speaker 1>The backstory goes deep into the Cold War, and it

0:29:29.240 --> 0:29:31.520
<v Speaker 1>adds a whole another dimension to the concept of the

0:29:31.600 --> 0:29:35.800
<v Speaker 1>Forever War. It's important because it offers a specific answer

0:29:35.840 --> 0:29:39.880
<v Speaker 1>to that big, nasty question, what was it all for.

0:29:43.160 --> 0:29:45.280
<v Speaker 1>The history is a little too complicated to get into

0:29:45.440 --> 0:29:47.960
<v Speaker 1>right here, but if you're interested, stick around after the

0:29:48.000 --> 0:29:51.960
<v Speaker 1>credits for a more detailed explanation. What you need to

0:29:51.960 --> 0:29:54.120
<v Speaker 1>know now is that at the time of the surge,

0:29:54.160 --> 0:29:57.360
<v Speaker 1>the U. S. State Department and top military brass believed

0:29:57.400 --> 0:30:00.840
<v Speaker 1>that delivering more electricity to southern Afghanist dan would strike

0:30:00.880 --> 0:30:05.160
<v Speaker 1>a devastating counterinsurgency blow to the Taliban. The lynchpin of

0:30:05.200 --> 0:30:09.240
<v Speaker 1>this untested idea was the rehabilitation of a hydroelectric power

0:30:09.280 --> 0:30:12.440
<v Speaker 1>station twenty miles upriver from Sangon at the Kajockey Dam,

0:30:12.720 --> 0:30:15.200
<v Speaker 1>which was itself a relic of one of the most

0:30:15.240 --> 0:30:20.200
<v Speaker 1>expensive and tragically misguided nation building efforts in American history.

0:30:20.440 --> 0:30:23.200
<v Speaker 1>But there was a huge problem. The supply road to

0:30:23.200 --> 0:30:25.360
<v Speaker 1>the dam went through some of the most ambush and

0:30:25.440 --> 0:30:28.400
<v Speaker 1>i e. D. Plague terrain in the country, including Sangon,

0:30:28.960 --> 0:30:32.320
<v Speaker 1>which meant that convoys carrying workers and construction materials were

0:30:32.360 --> 0:30:36.440
<v Speaker 1>under constant threat of attack. Clearing that road and keeping

0:30:36.480 --> 0:30:38.680
<v Speaker 1>it open would be one of the core missions of

0:30:38.680 --> 0:30:41.479
<v Speaker 1>the Surge Marines in the Helmond River Valley, even if

0:30:41.520 --> 0:30:44.080
<v Speaker 1>they were only dimly aware of the end game. More

0:30:44.080 --> 0:30:48.160
<v Speaker 1>electricity and more jobs in southern Afghanistan. In the most

0:30:48.280 --> 0:30:55.640
<v Speaker 1>narrow terms, that's what it was all for. All of

0:30:55.680 --> 0:30:58.520
<v Speaker 1>this was above fries pay grade. He saw the war

0:30:58.640 --> 0:31:00.760
<v Speaker 1>through a gun sight, and as as he could tell,

0:31:00.880 --> 0:31:03.240
<v Speaker 1>the pep fires Marines seemed to be beating back the

0:31:03.280 --> 0:31:06.760
<v Speaker 1>Taliban in their sector of the quagmire. That summer, there

0:31:06.800 --> 0:31:09.760
<v Speaker 1>were fewer firefights and the squad spent more time visiting

0:31:09.760 --> 0:31:12.920
<v Speaker 1>with locals. But even when it was quiet, for I says,

0:31:12.960 --> 0:31:16.080
<v Speaker 1>the AO was nowhere near secure. You had to go

0:31:16.080 --> 0:31:18.400
<v Speaker 1>out there with the mindset of I might get in

0:31:18.440 --> 0:31:21.600
<v Speaker 1>a firefight, or I might sit down and have to

0:31:21.680 --> 0:31:24.640
<v Speaker 1>drink tea with this person while somebody's watching me might

0:31:24.640 --> 0:31:26.320
<v Speaker 1>be setting an I d up. On the way home,

0:31:27.240 --> 0:31:29.560
<v Speaker 1>they often stopped to talk with the family who lived

0:31:29.600 --> 0:31:32.720
<v Speaker 1>almost within sight of pep fires. There were usually a

0:31:32.800 --> 0:31:34.640
<v Speaker 1>bunch of kids who would run out and ask for

0:31:34.720 --> 0:31:37.680
<v Speaker 1>candy and snacks from the guys, but when the squad

0:31:37.680 --> 0:31:41.120
<v Speaker 1>approached on one particular day in late July, the kids

0:31:41.160 --> 0:31:44.400
<v Speaker 1>were nowhere to be seen. One of them is hiding

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:46.920
<v Speaker 1>behind the corner and he's going no, no, no, no no,

0:31:47.560 --> 0:31:49.720
<v Speaker 1>and he's like like waving his hand and we're like

0:31:50.760 --> 0:31:53.320
<v Speaker 1>what you know, what's going on? And he's like and

0:31:53.320 --> 0:31:55.320
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't say anything. He was just shaking his head and

0:31:55.600 --> 0:32:04.680
<v Speaker 1>he said like boom boom. We were like, oh, like,

0:32:05.280 --> 0:32:07.400
<v Speaker 1>we walked down this road every day. They put an

0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:12.040
<v Speaker 1>idea on it, so we slowed down, slowed our patrol down,

0:32:12.480 --> 0:32:15.040
<v Speaker 1>start pushing. We had our engineer with Robinson with us

0:32:15.080 --> 0:32:18.160
<v Speaker 1>at the time, so he slows down. We start sweeping

0:32:18.240 --> 0:32:20.520
<v Speaker 1>real slow. We have our guard up, you know, we

0:32:20.600 --> 0:32:22.760
<v Speaker 1>have our weapons up. We're looking all around. I set

0:32:22.800 --> 0:32:25.840
<v Speaker 1>up little secure postures around us, and he finds three

0:32:25.920 --> 0:32:38.320
<v Speaker 1>I D s in the middle of the road. The

0:32:38.520 --> 0:32:43.840
<v Speaker 1>kids saved us, you know, that building, that relationship, building

0:32:43.880 --> 0:32:46.800
<v Speaker 1>that trust with the kids. Just just little stuff, you know,

0:32:48.160 --> 0:32:55.760
<v Speaker 1>saved us that day. Somebody would have hit that you

0:32:55.840 --> 0:32:58.120
<v Speaker 1>might want to go down. I happened to be out

0:32:58.160 --> 0:33:02.840
<v Speaker 1>with Third Squad that day, brig So I was there

0:33:02.840 --> 0:33:05.880
<v Speaker 1>when the Explosive Ordinance Disposal team came out and safely

0:33:05.920 --> 0:33:10.040
<v Speaker 1>detonated the I E D. Oh my god, God, damn.

0:33:10.120 --> 0:33:14.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm glad I didn't go off. I took a picture

0:33:14.040 --> 0:33:15.640
<v Speaker 1>of one of the pressure plates that the e O

0:33:15.720 --> 0:33:19.200
<v Speaker 1>D guys dug up. Two thin strips of what looked

0:33:19.240 --> 0:33:22.080
<v Speaker 1>like balsa would tape together with a slim gap between

0:33:22.120 --> 0:33:25.280
<v Speaker 1>them and a wire sticking out one side. A low

0:33:25.360 --> 0:33:28.480
<v Speaker 1>tech weapon used to devastating effect against the most high

0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:32.240
<v Speaker 1>tech military in the world. Third Squad had already seen

0:33:32.280 --> 0:33:35.880
<v Speaker 1>what the Taliban bombmakers could do before Fry arrived, but

0:33:35.920 --> 0:33:38.760
<v Speaker 1>he would have his chance to witness it too. First

0:33:38.800 --> 0:33:43.000
<v Speaker 1>with Matthew for it and then with Michael Dutcher September,

0:33:43.680 --> 0:33:46.560
<v Speaker 1>we stepped out. It's a normal patrol, just like every

0:33:46.560 --> 0:33:49.640
<v Speaker 1>other day that we do. We had a patrol route

0:33:49.640 --> 0:33:51.720
<v Speaker 1>to go over the river and we're going to like

0:33:51.760 --> 0:33:56.440
<v Speaker 1>the other side of day. We would get civilians to

0:33:56.520 --> 0:33:59.080
<v Speaker 1>lead us through areas that we kind of avoided because

0:33:59.080 --> 0:34:01.640
<v Speaker 1>there were I D stray there before. People didn't go

0:34:01.720 --> 0:34:05.840
<v Speaker 1>there banning buildings. We would avoid those situations unless we

0:34:05.840 --> 0:34:08.640
<v Speaker 1>had a civilian to lead us because all the civilians

0:34:08.640 --> 0:34:10.839
<v Speaker 1>in the area knew where all the bombs were, whether

0:34:10.880 --> 0:34:12.839
<v Speaker 1>they told us or not, they knew where the bombs said.

0:34:13.200 --> 0:34:15.120
<v Speaker 1>So we went across and there was a sheep herder,

0:34:16.000 --> 0:34:18.920
<v Speaker 1>and so we asked the sheep herder to lead us

0:34:18.960 --> 0:34:25.160
<v Speaker 1>behind this building. This is the story Manning Mendoza told

0:34:25.200 --> 0:34:28.880
<v Speaker 1>me In Texas. Michael Dutcher was at the front of

0:34:28.880 --> 0:34:32.719
<v Speaker 1>the patrol, so he was walking behind this guy and

0:34:32.800 --> 0:34:35.600
<v Speaker 1>usually when they walked, we wouldn't really sweep much. We

0:34:35.600 --> 0:34:38.880
<v Speaker 1>would sweep, but like they would usually walk fast, so

0:34:38.920 --> 0:34:41.719
<v Speaker 1>it was kind of quick, hasty sweeping. And then me

0:34:41.800 --> 0:34:44.920
<v Speaker 1>dozes right behind him with this weapon protecting them and

0:34:44.960 --> 0:34:49.200
<v Speaker 1>marking the ground. So we go behind the building and

0:34:49.200 --> 0:34:51.000
<v Speaker 1>they go out of sight because I was about halfway

0:34:51.000 --> 0:34:56.080
<v Speaker 1>back on the patrol, and then the strike one off.

0:35:04.040 --> 0:35:07.000
<v Speaker 1>Everybody froze, you know, because everybody just stops when that happens,

0:35:07.000 --> 0:35:10.480
<v Speaker 1>because if you start moving, there's always secondary and tertiary

0:35:10.520 --> 0:35:13.040
<v Speaker 1>I d s. So they did the correct thing, you know,

0:35:13.120 --> 0:35:16.200
<v Speaker 1>stop look around, So we're looking for somebody to start

0:35:16.200 --> 0:35:19.200
<v Speaker 1>shooting at us. Now. At this point, Bow immediately starts

0:35:19.239 --> 0:35:21.480
<v Speaker 1>spinning up air because he knows somebody got hit by

0:35:21.520 --> 0:35:26.840
<v Speaker 1>any I d I just ran. I didn't care for

0:35:26.920 --> 0:35:29.040
<v Speaker 1>my life at that time, Honestly, I just wanted to

0:35:29.080 --> 0:35:31.399
<v Speaker 1>make sure that I could get to them, possibly see

0:35:31.400 --> 0:35:36.239
<v Speaker 1>what happened, start treating the situation, provide safety for the

0:35:36.239 --> 0:35:39.040
<v Speaker 1>guys that got hit, because I didn't want them to

0:35:39.080 --> 0:35:41.080
<v Speaker 1>get shot at as they were down or trying to

0:35:41.120 --> 0:35:45.879
<v Speaker 1>work on them. I was providing cover holding Dudger's hand.

0:35:46.560 --> 0:35:49.960
<v Speaker 1>Um he was somewhat coherent at the time. I saw

0:35:50.040 --> 0:35:53.759
<v Speaker 1>that it was a like for mooral bleed in his pelvis,

0:35:53.880 --> 0:35:57.160
<v Speaker 1>which is I mean, anybody in the medical field knows

0:35:57.239 --> 0:36:00.279
<v Speaker 1>that that's that's it, even if he was in a

0:36:00.360 --> 0:36:02.920
<v Speaker 1>hospital when that happened. I mean, you bleed out a

0:36:02.920 --> 0:36:05.960
<v Speaker 1>minute Mendoza did a great job. He I mean, he

0:36:06.040 --> 0:36:10.000
<v Speaker 1>was packing the wound, he was applying pressure, really addressing

0:36:10.040 --> 0:36:12.680
<v Speaker 1>the casualty. You know, he was doing fantastic like and

0:36:12.760 --> 0:36:16.400
<v Speaker 1>he wasn't even aware that was all muscle memory he was.

0:36:16.560 --> 0:36:20.160
<v Speaker 1>He was not even there. He was in that blast

0:36:20.200 --> 0:36:24.080
<v Speaker 1>with Dutcher. He must have been steps behind him. Both

0:36:24.160 --> 0:36:28.480
<v Speaker 1>leaded the field behind us. They created an LZ. We

0:36:28.560 --> 0:36:33.160
<v Speaker 1>got Dutch out to the l Z before they were

0:36:33.280 --> 0:36:35.640
<v Speaker 1>you know, ten minutes away in the air. We got

0:36:35.719 --> 0:36:50.080
<v Speaker 1>a call over the radio that he had passed. Take

0:36:50.160 --> 0:36:52.920
<v Speaker 1>me back to the the way that you were feeling

0:36:52.920 --> 0:36:57.360
<v Speaker 1>at that time, having made it so close to getting

0:36:57.400 --> 0:37:00.799
<v Speaker 1>the guys out of there, and then you you're in

0:37:00.840 --> 0:37:03.280
<v Speaker 1>that scene where you realize that the worst thing has happened.

0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:08.600
<v Speaker 1>You know. At the time, I couldn't get tunnel vision

0:37:08.719 --> 0:37:12.040
<v Speaker 1>on the fact that Dutcher was hit because my responsibilities

0:37:12.080 --> 0:37:15.200
<v Speaker 1>to the other ten guys in the patrol um. It's

0:37:15.320 --> 0:37:20.040
<v Speaker 1>very easy to get sucked in. I was trying to

0:37:20.120 --> 0:37:25.200
<v Speaker 1>keep everything under control, you know, and the worst possible

0:37:25.280 --> 0:37:28.080
<v Speaker 1>situation that you could be in. I was trying to

0:37:28.160 --> 0:37:32.439
<v Speaker 1>keep everything handled. That's all my focus was. I knew

0:37:32.480 --> 0:37:34.239
<v Speaker 1>it was going to happen. You know, the possibility of

0:37:34.239 --> 0:37:37.480
<v Speaker 1>that happened was very very high. I just didn't know when,

0:37:38.160 --> 0:37:42.359
<v Speaker 1>and I reacted as I should. You know, I don't

0:37:42.360 --> 0:37:45.200
<v Speaker 1>think that I could have reacted any differently, any better.

0:37:46.000 --> 0:37:50.840
<v Speaker 1>Could have definitely went worse. But luckily didn't tell me

0:37:50.880 --> 0:37:55.080
<v Speaker 1>about the hours after the I D strike and getting

0:37:55.080 --> 0:37:57.719
<v Speaker 1>the patrol back to the patrol base and how the

0:37:57.760 --> 0:38:02.320
<v Speaker 1>rest of that day played out. You know, it really

0:38:02.440 --> 0:38:08.239
<v Speaker 1>got heavy then, because now I can grasp the situation.

0:38:08.880 --> 0:38:11.719
<v Speaker 1>I'm in my safety of my patrol best. I can

0:38:11.800 --> 0:38:15.120
<v Speaker 1>now think about what was just going on. It got

0:38:15.200 --> 0:38:18.520
<v Speaker 1>very heavy. It was very hard, and I allowed myself

0:38:18.600 --> 0:38:29.759
<v Speaker 1>to mourn momentarily, but then I had to then immediately

0:38:29.760 --> 0:38:34.680
<v Speaker 1>forget about it, push it aside, and get detail oriented

0:38:34.719 --> 0:38:38.120
<v Speaker 1>again because we still have thirty more days or whatever

0:38:38.160 --> 0:38:40.719
<v Speaker 1>it was to go, and I still have all these

0:38:40.719 --> 0:38:45.120
<v Speaker 1>other marines that I'm accountable for. So we had like

0:38:45.360 --> 0:38:49.120
<v Speaker 1>move on with the mission because you don't have an option.

0:38:55.239 --> 0:38:58.480
<v Speaker 1>At that funeral in Texas, when Fry told Colton Rusk's

0:38:58.560 --> 0:39:00.799
<v Speaker 1>dad that he would get to Afghanis stand come hell

0:39:00.920 --> 0:39:04.640
<v Speaker 1>or high water, and when he went to the Sergeant

0:39:04.680 --> 0:39:07.200
<v Speaker 1>major to plead for a spot as a combat replacement.

0:39:07.640 --> 0:39:11.920
<v Speaker 1>He had one overriding objective. I was a senior sergeant.

0:39:12.200 --> 0:39:15.000
<v Speaker 1>I had multiple deployments under my boat. I was very experienced,

0:39:15.520 --> 0:39:20.399
<v Speaker 1>So I felt this mass responsibility to help take these

0:39:20.480 --> 0:39:27.160
<v Speaker 1>junior marines and bring them home. That mission ultimately proved impossible,

0:39:27.480 --> 0:39:30.759
<v Speaker 1>just as it had for Sergeant Andrew Mattelski, the squad leader,

0:39:30.760 --> 0:39:33.920
<v Speaker 1>Fry replaced and for just about everyone with a leadership

0:39:33.920 --> 0:39:40.480
<v Speaker 1>position in the battalion. By the time one five came

0:39:40.520 --> 0:39:44.000
<v Speaker 1>home in October two thousand eleven, seventeen of their marines

0:39:44.040 --> 0:39:57.040
<v Speaker 1>had been killed and a hundred had been wounded. Watching

0:39:57.080 --> 0:39:59.960
<v Speaker 1>one of his own marines bleed out and being constant

0:40:00.040 --> 0:40:04.120
<v Speaker 1>he forced to imagine his own death transformed Fry. So

0:40:04.160 --> 0:40:08.759
<v Speaker 1>you were talking about how accepting that you might die

0:40:09.000 --> 0:40:13.359
<v Speaker 1>or get severely wounded changed you permanently, that you can't

0:40:13.440 --> 0:40:17.040
<v Speaker 1>undo that. What do you think about that now, all

0:40:17.080 --> 0:40:19.759
<v Speaker 1>these years later, looking back on that. I mean, it

0:40:19.840 --> 0:40:26.520
<v Speaker 1>altered my entire life. That experience, that acceptance, that understanding

0:40:26.600 --> 0:40:31.920
<v Speaker 1>and being okay looking back on that now spiritually, that

0:40:32.160 --> 0:40:42.280
<v Speaker 1>is like accepting God without saying it. It really steers

0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:48.320
<v Speaker 1>my life and guides my life to push myself constantly,

0:40:48.360 --> 0:40:51.600
<v Speaker 1>push myself because I'm experiencing this life that I didn't

0:40:51.640 --> 0:40:54.000
<v Speaker 1>think that I should. I didn't think that I was

0:40:54.040 --> 0:40:57.359
<v Speaker 1>going to be here. So in things that I do,

0:40:57.440 --> 0:41:00.280
<v Speaker 1>I push myself harder, I try harder. I do whatever

0:41:00.320 --> 0:41:04.080
<v Speaker 1>I can because every day is a gift as far

0:41:04.120 --> 0:41:07.560
<v Speaker 1>as I'm concerned. So I have to use that. You know,

0:41:07.680 --> 0:41:19.120
<v Speaker 1>I can't. I can't settle to be mediocre. We'll be

0:41:19.120 --> 0:41:47.919
<v Speaker 1>back after the break. After sanging, Fry says he didn't

0:41:47.960 --> 0:41:50.920
<v Speaker 1>feel like he needed to chase the war anymore. I

0:41:51.000 --> 0:41:54.719
<v Speaker 1>did satisfy that hunger going to singing, that that that

0:41:54.800 --> 0:41:58.120
<v Speaker 1>missing piece that I had, I did. I did quench

0:41:58.239 --> 0:42:03.840
<v Speaker 1>that it was. It was a lot more than I

0:42:03.880 --> 0:42:05.520
<v Speaker 1>thought it was going to be when I got there.

0:42:06.400 --> 0:42:10.560
<v Speaker 1>I'll say that you have an idea of what you

0:42:10.600 --> 0:42:13.120
<v Speaker 1>think that you're getting into, and then there's that reality

0:42:13.200 --> 0:42:17.880
<v Speaker 1>of what you actually get into, and the reality was

0:42:18.000 --> 0:42:23.400
<v Speaker 1>much greater than than what you thought it was. Facing

0:42:23.440 --> 0:42:26.759
<v Speaker 1>that reality with Dutcher's death was enough for Fry. He

0:42:26.800 --> 0:42:29.799
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to do it again. His wife was also

0:42:29.920 --> 0:42:33.360
<v Speaker 1>expecting their first child, a boy who they would name Jack.

0:42:34.320 --> 0:42:37.200
<v Speaker 1>The thought of potentially being killed on another deployment and

0:42:37.280 --> 0:42:40.920
<v Speaker 1>leaving his baby fatherless was unbearable. So when Fry I

0:42:41.000 --> 0:42:43.520
<v Speaker 1>saw an opportunity to get out of the deployment rotation

0:42:43.560 --> 0:42:46.040
<v Speaker 1>by serving as an instructor at the Infantry Officer of

0:42:46.080 --> 0:42:50.279
<v Speaker 1>Course in Quantico, Virginia, he took it. Two years later,

0:42:50.520 --> 0:42:53.799
<v Speaker 1>he decided to get out of the core altogether. It

0:42:53.880 --> 0:42:58.040
<v Speaker 1>wasn't easy for Fry to become just another civilian. In fact,

0:42:58.200 --> 0:43:01.600
<v Speaker 1>the come doown was more like a crapsh. I was

0:43:01.800 --> 0:43:05.640
<v Speaker 1>something in the Marine Corps. I was like the marine.

0:43:05.760 --> 0:43:08.520
<v Speaker 1>I was a badass. I was perfect at my job.

0:43:08.520 --> 0:43:10.360
<v Speaker 1>I've never met anybody better at my job than me.

0:43:10.520 --> 0:43:16.040
<v Speaker 1>Never And to accept that, like that was a different life,

0:43:16.800 --> 0:43:19.840
<v Speaker 1>you know, that was that was something that I did.

0:43:19.960 --> 0:43:22.960
<v Speaker 1>I won't ever do that again. Like I was the

0:43:23.080 --> 0:43:25.800
<v Speaker 1>coolest that I'll ever be when I was like twenty six.

0:43:27.440 --> 0:43:30.359
<v Speaker 1>For I was accustomed to getting respect and admiration from

0:43:30.400 --> 0:43:34.440
<v Speaker 1>other Marines, including the officers he trained at Quantico, But

0:43:34.560 --> 0:43:37.680
<v Speaker 1>that change the moment he decided to get out. It

0:43:37.760 --> 0:43:39.839
<v Speaker 1>was like he was a cult member, being shunned for

0:43:39.880 --> 0:43:42.680
<v Speaker 1>his decision to return to society. As soon as they

0:43:42.680 --> 0:43:45.360
<v Speaker 1>found out that like I was getting out, decided papers,

0:43:45.480 --> 0:43:50.239
<v Speaker 1>I was gone. It didn't matter anymore. No matter how

0:43:50.239 --> 0:43:52.479
<v Speaker 1>good you were before, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter

0:43:52.680 --> 0:43:54.840
<v Speaker 1>what you did before, what you did up to that point.

0:43:55.920 --> 0:43:59.120
<v Speaker 1>Now that you're leaving, they don't care for I found

0:43:59.160 --> 0:44:01.759
<v Speaker 1>out quickly that nobody on the outside gave a ship

0:44:01.840 --> 0:44:04.560
<v Speaker 1>about his years as a badass marine either. You know,

0:44:04.640 --> 0:44:08.160
<v Speaker 1>you apply for a job and they want you to

0:44:08.160 --> 0:44:13.000
<v Speaker 1>have a degree. But while these kids were going to

0:44:13.120 --> 0:44:17.160
<v Speaker 1>college and getting degrees in basket weaving, I was in

0:44:17.200 --> 0:44:20.400
<v Speaker 1>the military. I did my nine years of service. You know,

0:44:20.840 --> 0:44:25.880
<v Speaker 1>I was in charge of more men, more responsibility, doing

0:44:25.920 --> 0:44:31.680
<v Speaker 1>everything from hygiene to maintenance to cleaning too. It doesn't

0:44:31.680 --> 0:44:36.319
<v Speaker 1>matter logistics. It's all encompassing. You know, we control every

0:44:36.360 --> 0:44:39.879
<v Speaker 1>part of somebody's life, Like I did this stuff, and

0:44:39.960 --> 0:44:44.840
<v Speaker 1>none of that mattered. I basically gave up nine years

0:44:44.840 --> 0:44:50.840
<v Speaker 1>to start over back home in Pennsylvania. The hard charging,

0:44:50.880 --> 0:44:53.799
<v Speaker 1>purpose driven marine would spend his first two years as

0:44:53.840 --> 0:44:57.760
<v Speaker 1>a civilian neck deep in the most unskilled labor, digging

0:44:57.840 --> 0:45:01.600
<v Speaker 1>ditches for gas and plumbing lines. It was not a

0:45:01.600 --> 0:45:05.160
<v Speaker 1>good fit. Down in those ditches. The weight of Sangin

0:45:05.320 --> 0:45:09.040
<v Speaker 1>started to bear down on Fry, his marriage broke up

0:45:09.040 --> 0:45:12.359
<v Speaker 1>in a brief relationship led unexpectedly to a second son.

0:45:14.000 --> 0:45:16.600
<v Speaker 1>Whenever he didn't have his boys, he would resist going

0:45:16.640 --> 0:45:18.960
<v Speaker 1>home after work to an empty house where he'd be

0:45:18.960 --> 0:45:22.520
<v Speaker 1>alone with his thoughts. He took to closing down the bars,

0:45:23.000 --> 0:45:25.960
<v Speaker 1>drowning his grief and his grievances and alcohol and burning

0:45:25.960 --> 0:45:29.000
<v Speaker 1>a hole in his pocket until it just had an

0:45:29.040 --> 0:45:32.200
<v Speaker 1>epiphany one days, like covered and ship standing on the

0:45:32.239 --> 0:45:37.480
<v Speaker 1>hillside in February and Pennsylvania, that this is not what

0:45:37.640 --> 0:45:40.239
<v Speaker 1>I was made to do. There was a barbershop that

0:45:40.280 --> 0:45:48.600
<v Speaker 1>was looking to expand, so I started pursuing it. The

0:45:48.680 --> 0:45:51.400
<v Speaker 1>other barber's offered Fry a new kind of brotherhood in

0:45:51.400 --> 0:45:55.120
<v Speaker 1>a renewed sense of purpose. A year later, he decided

0:45:55.160 --> 0:45:57.120
<v Speaker 1>to go out on his own and opened Straight Ahead,

0:45:57.440 --> 0:45:59.719
<v Speaker 1>where he offers something more than a haircut to those

0:45:59.719 --> 0:46:02.719
<v Speaker 1>blue collar guys who wind up in his chair. You know,

0:46:02.760 --> 0:46:06.320
<v Speaker 1>people perceive me as something because I'm tattooed and I'm larger,

0:46:06.360 --> 0:46:08.640
<v Speaker 1>and I was in the Marine Corps. So then when

0:46:08.680 --> 0:46:11.560
<v Speaker 1>I you know, I opened up and show them that,

0:46:11.640 --> 0:46:13.920
<v Speaker 1>like I'll talk about emotions. I'll talk about like the

0:46:13.920 --> 0:46:16.400
<v Speaker 1>stuff that you don't really want to talk about. It

0:46:16.719 --> 0:46:21.000
<v Speaker 1>sets people back, but I also get a lot of

0:46:21.000 --> 0:46:23.399
<v Speaker 1>people that will open up to me because of that.

0:46:24.320 --> 0:46:27.040
<v Speaker 1>Being there on his customers best and worst days and

0:46:27.080 --> 0:46:29.880
<v Speaker 1>the days in between, gives Fry a sense of community

0:46:29.920 --> 0:46:32.720
<v Speaker 1>that's infinitely better than the bar rooms he used to haunts,

0:46:33.280 --> 0:46:36.680
<v Speaker 1>and home isn't a place for I avoids anymore. In

0:46:36.719 --> 0:46:39.480
<v Speaker 1>two thousand seventeen, he met a woman named Emily who

0:46:39.520 --> 0:46:42.680
<v Speaker 1>was also figuring out life as a single parent. Now

0:46:42.719 --> 0:46:46.000
<v Speaker 1>they're married and raising their boys together. It was Emily

0:46:46.160 --> 0:46:50.879
<v Speaker 1>who encouraged fries newfound faith. Meanwhile, his barber friends turned

0:46:50.920 --> 0:46:54.680
<v Speaker 1>him onto a different strain of religion. You're here, start

0:46:54.760 --> 0:47:01.960
<v Speaker 1>passing me, especially jiu jitsu. Just do it, a martial

0:47:02.080 --> 0:47:04.520
<v Speaker 1>art that channels the discipline and grit he developed as

0:47:04.520 --> 0:47:07.279
<v Speaker 1>a marine. He teaches classes at a local gym a

0:47:07.280 --> 0:47:10.600
<v Speaker 1>few times a week, and he trains with monastic devotion

0:47:10.680 --> 0:47:13.960
<v Speaker 1>for his own semi pro fights. He's even launched a

0:47:14.000 --> 0:47:17.600
<v Speaker 1>nonprofit called the Veteran Bushido Brotherhood that provides free martial

0:47:17.680 --> 0:47:22.360
<v Speaker 1>arts training to veterans. The physical pain and the physical

0:47:22.480 --> 0:47:25.640
<v Speaker 1>struggle get you out of your own head for a moment,

0:47:27.280 --> 0:47:31.200
<v Speaker 1>and everything becomes way clear, and you just feel better.

0:47:31.400 --> 0:47:34.520
<v Speaker 1>You know, you just feel way better. In a play

0:47:34.560 --> 0:47:39.560
<v Speaker 1>on funk cancer, the Bushido Brotherhood, rash guards say fuck PTSD.

0:47:40.680 --> 0:47:43.359
<v Speaker 1>It's a tough approach from a tough guy who's learned

0:47:43.400 --> 0:47:46.480
<v Speaker 1>to be vulnerable, a fighter who broke the hold of

0:47:46.520 --> 0:47:51.800
<v Speaker 1>his pain by reaching for connection. Has a story gotten

0:47:52.080 --> 0:47:56.240
<v Speaker 1>easier to tell the more you tell it. Yes, the

0:47:56.280 --> 0:48:00.319
<v Speaker 1>pain subsides a bit and more of an acceptance of it.

0:48:00.719 --> 0:48:03.560
<v Speaker 1>But the main thing that makes it easier is that

0:48:03.640 --> 0:48:06.960
<v Speaker 1>I use it for growth. And because I use it

0:48:07.000 --> 0:48:10.320
<v Speaker 1>for growth, I don't view it as a negative thing anymore.

0:48:10.960 --> 0:48:14.719
<v Speaker 1>You know where it was, You know something that you

0:48:14.760 --> 0:48:16.799
<v Speaker 1>push deep down in your stomach and hide and don't

0:48:16.800 --> 0:48:19.200
<v Speaker 1>talk about because men don't talk about stuff like that.

0:48:19.280 --> 0:48:24.759
<v Speaker 1>And it becomes easier when you accept it and bear

0:48:24.800 --> 0:48:28.520
<v Speaker 1>it and get better because of it. There's a name

0:48:28.600 --> 0:48:33.680
<v Speaker 1>for the positive outlook, Fries describing post traumatic growth or PTG.

0:48:34.680 --> 0:48:37.000
<v Speaker 1>It's an emerging field of study that's like a halogen

0:48:37.080 --> 0:48:39.640
<v Speaker 1>lamp at the end of a dark tunnel, an antidote

0:48:39.680 --> 0:48:43.480
<v Speaker 1>to what Fry sees as the curse of PTSD. If

0:48:43.560 --> 0:48:47.040
<v Speaker 1>we accept this thing, this blanket statement, like oh, he

0:48:47.200 --> 0:48:52.319
<v Speaker 1>is PTS take pills and now it's a crutch. If

0:48:52.320 --> 0:48:56.120
<v Speaker 1>it becomes a permanent crutch, you know, this is something

0:48:56.120 --> 0:49:00.319
<v Speaker 1>that you will just it's that negative lifestyle for for her,

0:49:00.480 --> 0:49:02.239
<v Speaker 1>like you're just stuck on it. You're stuck in that

0:49:02.320 --> 0:49:06.520
<v Speaker 1>negative cycle. You just gotta say no to. There's a

0:49:06.560 --> 0:49:09.400
<v Speaker 1>line from Ernest Hemingway, who was injured as an ambulance

0:49:09.480 --> 0:49:12.080
<v Speaker 1>driver in World War One, that captures the idea of

0:49:12.120 --> 0:49:17.399
<v Speaker 1>PTG pretty well. The world breaks everyone, and afterward many

0:49:17.440 --> 0:49:21.120
<v Speaker 1>are strong at the broken places. It's kind of like

0:49:21.160 --> 0:49:23.360
<v Speaker 1>what I was saying to Matthew for it in Texas,

0:49:23.600 --> 0:49:25.640
<v Speaker 1>when I talked about the tree that gets struck by

0:49:25.719 --> 0:49:30.000
<v Speaker 1>lightning and grows around the damage. Researchers have identified a

0:49:30.040 --> 0:49:35.200
<v Speaker 1>few reliable pathways to post traumatic growth disclosure telling the

0:49:35.239 --> 0:49:38.240
<v Speaker 1>story and being real about the trauma and its effects,

0:49:39.440 --> 0:49:43.279
<v Speaker 1>narrative development, accepting the past and imagining how the bad

0:49:43.360 --> 0:49:46.520
<v Speaker 1>days can be the foundation of a brighter future, and

0:49:46.640 --> 0:49:52.360
<v Speaker 1>service building community by helping others overcome their challenges. For

0:49:52.480 --> 0:49:54.920
<v Speaker 1>I figured out most of this stuff by trial and error,

0:49:55.080 --> 0:49:58.400
<v Speaker 1>and now he's passing it on. If I can teach

0:49:58.440 --> 0:50:02.320
<v Speaker 1>people and help one person, you know, like one person

0:50:03.480 --> 0:50:07.040
<v Speaker 1>understand and feel better about themselves and be more productive

0:50:07.080 --> 0:50:10.960
<v Speaker 1>and like have better mindset because of my experiences that

0:50:11.040 --> 0:50:13.920
<v Speaker 1>I can share, like absolutely, Like I'll do that all

0:50:14.000 --> 0:50:17.520
<v Speaker 1>day long. I'll tell my story eight billion times and

0:50:17.600 --> 0:50:21.040
<v Speaker 1>show my weakness to people. Would because it's not weakness,

0:50:21.160 --> 0:50:23.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's the strength of you know, being able

0:50:23.600 --> 0:50:33.560
<v Speaker 1>to use it as a weapon. There was a long

0:50:33.680 --> 0:50:36.760
<v Speaker 1>time when Fry wanted nothing more than to be a weapon.

0:50:37.320 --> 0:50:39.040
<v Speaker 1>But by the time he got to sang In, he

0:50:39.160 --> 0:50:41.960
<v Speaker 1>was an old man for a grunt. His hunger for

0:50:42.000 --> 0:50:44.600
<v Speaker 1>action had given way to a simpler desire to help.

0:50:45.520 --> 0:50:48.200
<v Speaker 1>He was only squad leader for about three months, but

0:50:48.280 --> 0:50:50.960
<v Speaker 1>his feelings of responsibility didn't just go away. In the

0:50:51.080 --> 0:50:55.359
<v Speaker 1>years after they said goodbye, I knew that, like, they

0:50:55.400 --> 0:50:58.439
<v Speaker 1>weren't going to be well. You know, I would try

0:50:58.440 --> 0:51:00.200
<v Speaker 1>to reach out to some of them on Facebook if

0:51:00.200 --> 0:51:01.799
<v Speaker 1>I could catch them, and I was working a lot,

0:51:01.920 --> 0:51:06.880
<v Speaker 1>and I didn't really whatever excuses out there, I we

0:51:07.239 --> 0:51:11.520
<v Speaker 1>lost connection. But it wasn't a week that went by

0:51:11.640 --> 0:51:14.279
<v Speaker 1>that I didn't think about how they were doing, if

0:51:14.280 --> 0:51:17.239
<v Speaker 1>they were all right, if they were being successful, if

0:51:17.280 --> 0:51:21.440
<v Speaker 1>they were locked in a bedroom, you know, you know,

0:51:21.560 --> 0:51:25.440
<v Speaker 1>up all night. Several of the third squad vets were struggling,

0:51:25.800 --> 0:51:28.960
<v Speaker 1>staying up all night fighting their demons with booze and drugs.

0:51:29.800 --> 0:51:32.319
<v Speaker 1>One of them, whose post military life happened to be

0:51:32.360 --> 0:51:35.200
<v Speaker 1>the picture of success, was teetering on the edge of

0:51:35.239 --> 0:51:38.920
<v Speaker 1>the abyss. It was like eleven or twelve o'clock at

0:51:39.000 --> 0:51:42.840
<v Speaker 1>night and I my phone rings. Nobody ever calls my phone,

0:51:43.360 --> 0:51:47.120
<v Speaker 1>So something triggered in me. You know, I had to

0:51:47.160 --> 0:51:50.200
<v Speaker 1>answer the phone. Any other time I would have just

0:51:50.440 --> 0:51:52.840
<v Speaker 1>I would have hit canceled. And I picked up the phone,

0:51:53.040 --> 0:51:56.480
<v Speaker 1>and I could just hear the pain. You know, as

0:51:56.480 --> 0:51:59.080
<v Speaker 1>soon as I answer, I knew who it was immediately.

0:52:01.040 --> 0:52:05.280
<v Speaker 1>It was Manni Mendoza. Yeah. Man, he answered the phone

0:52:06.120 --> 0:52:08.560
<v Speaker 1>talk like four in the morning. He was in Pittsburgh.

0:52:09.360 --> 0:52:12.279
<v Speaker 1>He was like hysterical, and I could just tell the

0:52:12.320 --> 0:52:16.520
<v Speaker 1>pain in his voice. And he like he was by

0:52:16.600 --> 0:52:18.920
<v Speaker 1>himself at college in his dorm room. He drank a

0:52:18.920 --> 0:52:21.160
<v Speaker 1>little bit, and then he went went and watched Lone

0:52:21.160 --> 0:52:24.719
<v Speaker 1>Survivor by himself, and it just triggered all of it.

0:52:25.880 --> 0:52:28.520
<v Speaker 1>So many different ways that could have gone, but he

0:52:28.640 --> 0:52:32.600
<v Speaker 1>went the wrong way. To me, it sounded like he

0:52:32.719 --> 0:52:36.320
<v Speaker 1>maybe never even thought about it. Before the whole situation

0:52:36.320 --> 0:52:38.680
<v Speaker 1>with Ducher, because he was blown up, and I mean

0:52:40.320 --> 0:52:45.720
<v Speaker 1>Mendoza was right behind him, and Mendoza like was kind

0:52:45.719 --> 0:52:51.400
<v Speaker 1>of knocked down for weeks, Like we kept him on base,

0:52:51.880 --> 0:52:56.279
<v Speaker 1>we didn't let him patrol anymore. But like I was

0:52:56.360 --> 0:52:59.040
<v Speaker 1>actually in fear that he wasn't going to return to

0:52:59.120 --> 0:53:01.759
<v Speaker 1>normal because he would just like sit on his rack

0:53:01.960 --> 0:53:04.799
<v Speaker 1>and like stare. You would talk to him, and he

0:53:04.960 --> 0:53:10.000
<v Speaker 1>was not there. It it took weeks for him to

0:53:10.000 --> 0:53:13.080
<v Speaker 1>to come back. So when I'm hearing this, it was

0:53:13.160 --> 0:53:16.560
<v Speaker 1>like a first outpouring of like a realization of what happened.

0:53:17.760 --> 0:53:23.960
<v Speaker 1>And he didn't remember completely, and he he thought it

0:53:24.000 --> 0:53:28.319
<v Speaker 1>was his fault. It was all my fault. It was me.

0:53:28.600 --> 0:53:32.000
<v Speaker 1>I did it. Like in his voice, there was no

0:53:32.120 --> 0:53:35.080
<v Speaker 1>question when he called me that he thought he was

0:53:35.120 --> 0:53:38.719
<v Speaker 1>responsible for Dutcher's death. Basically the only thing that I

0:53:38.760 --> 0:53:41.080
<v Speaker 1>could do and knew what to do was talk to

0:53:41.160 --> 0:53:45.319
<v Speaker 1>him and let him talk. And then I told him

0:53:45.360 --> 0:53:52.319
<v Speaker 1>if anybody's responsibility was mine that Dutcher died, and he

0:53:52.360 --> 0:53:56.359
<v Speaker 1>put the blame on himself. I was a squad leader.

0:53:56.400 --> 0:53:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I was in charge. These were my marines. I dictated

0:53:59.680 --> 0:54:03.960
<v Speaker 1>the robe out so these were my choices that led

0:54:04.040 --> 0:54:06.000
<v Speaker 1>us to go on this route. The Dutcher got hit

0:54:07.920 --> 0:54:11.600
<v Speaker 1>and he said, no, I was a squad leader, I

0:54:11.680 --> 0:54:13.480
<v Speaker 1>was a sergeant. I was in charge of that patrol.

0:54:16.000 --> 0:54:18.839
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't let him try to bear that. I knew

0:54:18.880 --> 0:54:21.600
<v Speaker 1>that I could. I was in the right mind to

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<v Speaker 1>bear that weight, and he wasn't. Yes, that got to me.

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<v Speaker 1>It got to me. It made me. I realized that

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<v Speaker 1>there are people who care. I was like, get that

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<v Speaker 1>out of your fucking head. You're not in charge. This

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<v Speaker 1>is my patrol, is my decision, it's not yours. You

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<v Speaker 1>were following my direction. And it kind of like brought

0:54:49.200 --> 0:54:52.760
<v Speaker 1>him back down, and I could tell his his temperament changed.

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<v Speaker 1>Everything kind of changed to calm down because I was

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<v Speaker 1>feeling the burden and here is Jered reading the burden

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<v Speaker 1>on himself and it wasn't even him, but here he

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<v Speaker 1>is trying to take that responsibility because he cares. I

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<v Speaker 1>made sure that he was, like good. When I left

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<v Speaker 1>the phone, I felt confident that he was in a

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<v Speaker 1>much better place. He was listening, He actually listened. Did

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<v Speaker 1>he tell you that he had a gun? Did you

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<v Speaker 1>know that? So? Yeah, the story that we heard from

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<v Speaker 1>Manny is pretty much identic goal to what you just

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<v Speaker 1>told us, except for the fact that he had a

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<v Speaker 1>gun and was planning on taking his life that night,

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<v Speaker 1>and the way he tells the story you saved his life.

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<v Speaker 1>That's like the mm hmmm. Situations like that is like

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<v Speaker 1>proof that God is like there, you know, I think

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<v Speaker 1>there's there's no other way that like I would have

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<v Speaker 1>answered the phone, uh, or that I would have the words,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, to comfort him in that situation, and that

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<v Speaker 1>I was put there, you know, to be his squad

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<v Speaker 1>leader and then to follow through with that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in the future. I mean, that's no absolute confirmation to me.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you hear people like I wish I would have

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<v Speaker 1>just answered the phone. I wish I would have talked

0:57:43.520 --> 0:57:48.320
<v Speaker 1>to him. I wish I'm just so thankful that I

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<v Speaker 1>answered the phone, for I didn't have to go to Sangon.

0:58:04.000 --> 0:58:06.320
<v Speaker 1>He could have filed his medical paperwork and put the

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<v Speaker 1>Marine Corps behind him, gone home to Pennsylvania and got

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<v Speaker 1>on with his life. But in a gesture that bore

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<v Speaker 1>little resemblance to the blind leap of a seventeen year

0:58:15.640 --> 0:58:18.720
<v Speaker 1>old recruit, for I made a choice to risk death

0:58:18.960 --> 0:58:22.280
<v Speaker 1>to help a few scared kids he'd never met. We

0:58:22.360 --> 0:58:25.840
<v Speaker 1>don't deploy for the country. You know, you're not thinking

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<v Speaker 1>of that. You're not deploying for the greater cause or something.

0:58:30.000 --> 0:58:33.000
<v Speaker 1>You are deploying to support your brothers and bring your

0:58:33.040 --> 0:58:36.880
<v Speaker 1>brothers back. That is what you're trying to do. You're

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<v Speaker 1>trying to make sure that as many people that are

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<v Speaker 1>your brothers, your guys, your marines, you bring them home.

0:58:46.960 --> 0:58:50.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty cynical about the greater cause that generated so

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<v Speaker 1>much bloodshed and Helmond the plan to build peace by

0:58:53.800 --> 0:58:56.920
<v Speaker 1>bringing a surge of violence along with wads of cash

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<v Speaker 1>and a distant promise of electricity, the plan to keep

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<v Speaker 1>Americans safe by killing the Afghans we didn't like and

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<v Speaker 1>forcing our protection on the ones we did. But I

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<v Speaker 1>was a journalist and sangon. My job was to ask questions,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's still my job. A decade later, Fry was

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<v Speaker 1>a twenty four year old sergeant, and for him, there

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<v Speaker 1>was no greater cause than bringing marines home alive. He'd

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<v Speaker 1>seen the alternative up close, standing guard next to caskets

0:59:29.560 --> 0:59:34.160
<v Speaker 1>while families collapsed into bottomless sorrow. He didn't want anyone

0:59:34.160 --> 0:59:37.920
<v Speaker 1>else to go through that. In the end. He couldn't

0:59:37.960 --> 0:59:42.000
<v Speaker 1>save Dutcher or spare his family, but he's not a failure.

0:59:42.880 --> 0:59:46.760
<v Speaker 1>There are ten young men home alive from Sangon whose

0:59:46.800 --> 0:59:50.640
<v Speaker 1>families owe a lot to fry, and there's one kid

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<v Speaker 1>from the Rio Grand Valley who owes him everything. M

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<v Speaker 1>Next time on Third Squad, we drive to Upstate New

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<v Speaker 1>York to visit Taylor Moody, third Squad's hungriest marine. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think I could have been more than one percent body.

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<v Speaker 1>I could feel myself getting weaker and weaker and weaker,

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<v Speaker 1>was having to carry more and more and more because

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<v Speaker 1>more and more people are getting blown up or killed.

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<v Speaker 1>Coming back from Sangon, one of the first things that

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<v Speaker 1>I did was order party peck from Taco Bell. That

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<v Speaker 1>was a mistake. I was on that pot within about

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<v Speaker 1>fifteen minutes after finishing those tacos, and I was there

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<v Speaker 1>for a minute, or was there for a while. Just

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<v Speaker 1>a reminder if you want to stick around after the credits,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll come back to that footnote about America's wild Cold

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<v Speaker 1>War experiment in Helmont. Third Squad is written and produced

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<v Speaker 1>by Elliott Woods, Tommy Andreas, and Maria Burne. It's an

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<v Speaker 1>Now back to that footnote. America's pre nine eleven experience

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<v Speaker 1>in Afghanistan is a case study in the law of

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<v Speaker 1>unintended consequences. During the Cold War, the US spent three

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<v Speaker 1>decades and more than six hundred million in today's dollars

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<v Speaker 1>in an effort to make the helm On Desert bloom

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<v Speaker 1>an usher in a new era of modern agriculture. It

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<v Speaker 1>was all part of a campaign to diminish Soviet influence

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<v Speaker 1>in southern Afghanistan. The Afghans who held power in Kabul

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<v Speaker 1>had a different goal. They wanted to increase the authority

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<v Speaker 1>of the central government in the rural south, home to

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<v Speaker 1>nomads and occasionally rebellious Pashtun families who preferred to be

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<v Speaker 1>left alone. In what would become a monument of failed

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<v Speaker 1>nation building, American contractors based out of an enclave called

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<v Speaker 1>Little America, built the Damnit Kajackey in a vast irrigation

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<v Speaker 1>network in the Helmond River Valley. They designed and oversaw

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<v Speaker 1>the construction of canals that marines would slash across half

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<v Speaker 1>a century later when they flooded into Helmond with the

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<v Speaker 1>Surge and yet another attempt to expand the power of

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<v Speaker 1>afghanistan central government into the Pashtun heartland by force. The

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<v Speaker 1>Cold War project was known by several names over the years,

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<v Speaker 1>but the one that stuck was the Helmond Valley Authority

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<v Speaker 1>or h v A. The Kajackey Power Station was the

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<v Speaker 1>hv A's last big stroke for the Soviet invasion brought

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<v Speaker 1>it to a halt in nineteen seventy nine. In the

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<v Speaker 1>decade of war that followed, America switched from funding agriculture

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<v Speaker 1>to arming the anti Soviet militias known as Mujahideen. By

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<v Speaker 1>conservative estimates, at least five hundred thousand Afghans died in

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<v Speaker 1>the fighting before the Soviets finally withdrew in nineteen nine.

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<v Speaker 1>Then the Mujahadeen turned on each other in a vicious

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<v Speaker 1>struggle for power known as the Afghan Civil War. They

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<v Speaker 1>laid waste to Kabul and brought an era of warlordism

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<v Speaker 1>and exploitation to rural areas that only ended when the

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<v Speaker 1>Taliban seized power in nineteen six. Afghans measure there forever

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<v Speaker 1>war in generations, not years. Amid all the chaos, Kajaki

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<v Speaker 1>fell into ruin and its electricity output dropped to a trickle,

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<v Speaker 1>but poppies thrived in Helman thanks to all that American

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<v Speaker 1>built irrigation infrastructure. The province became the opium capital of

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<v Speaker 1>the world and eventually a major power center for the Taliban.

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<v Speaker 1>In the twenty one century, it would become the deadliest

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<v Speaker 1>province for Coalition troops and all of Afghanistan. On the

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<v Speaker 1>eve of the surge in about two thousand eight, a

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<v Speaker 1>new generation of nation builders fixed their hopes of saving

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<v Speaker 1>a failing war on reviving the dreams of the h

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<v Speaker 1>v A, and above all, on fixing the Kajackey power station.

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<v Speaker 1>The basic idea was that powering more homes and businesses

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<v Speaker 1>and major southern population centers like Kandahar City would build

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<v Speaker 1>trust in the Afghan government's capacity to provide essential services

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<v Speaker 1>and would interrupt the Taliban's recruiting pipeline by creating more

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<v Speaker 1>attractive jobs for young men than i e. D. Technician

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<v Speaker 1>and Taliban gun slinger. No one had ever proved that

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<v Speaker 1>more electricity would lead to less violence, but that didn't

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<v Speaker 1>stop the war planners from going all in with American

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<v Speaker 1>blood and treasure. After hundreds of Coalition and Afghan casualties

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<v Speaker 1>and hundreds of millions of dollars, the Kajackey upgrade was

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<v Speaker 1>finally completed in two thousand sixteen, but the surge of

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<v Speaker 1>a like tricity didn't stop the Taliban. They retook Sangin

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<v Speaker 1>and most of Helmon from Afghan troops a year later,

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<v Speaker 1>and they seized Kandahar City in the days leading up

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<v Speaker 1>to the fall of Kabul in August two thousand one.

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<v Speaker 1>Built on the ruins of American ambition, the Taliban's poppy

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<v Speaker 1>empire is more lucrative now than ever before. According to

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<v Speaker 1>the u N, Afghanistan produces about twice as much opium

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<v Speaker 1>today as it didn't two thousand, the last year before

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<v Speaker 1>the American invasion. That's enough to supply more than eighty

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<v Speaker 1>percent of the world's heroin and helmon. Where America spent

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<v Speaker 1>billions and the Marines shed so much blood, produces more

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<v Speaker 1>opium than the rest of Afghanistan's provinces combined.