WEBVTT - DOJA CAT GIVES ADVICE AS A GECKO 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:00.679 Don'g a cat. 0:00:01.200 --> 0:00:01.319 Hi. 0:00:01.920 --> 0:00:04.320 What's been the most persistent thought on your mind lately? 0:00:10.200 --> 0:00:10.760 I don't know. 0:00:13.200 --> 0:00:20.120 Freedom, freedom, Yeah, just like being able to do things 0:00:20.200 --> 0:00:24.319 I like to do, and like instilling boundaries. Boundaries have 0:00:24.360 --> 0:00:25.080 been on my mind. 0:00:26.640 --> 0:00:28.960 What boundaries have you been setting lately? 0:00:30.680 --> 0:00:37.600 Like professional boundaries and and kind of just really just 0:00:37.640 --> 0:00:41.879 boundaries in general, like a like relationship boundaries. Like if 0:00:41.920 --> 0:00:44.600 I'm talking to like a guy and they're like, let's 0:00:44.640 --> 0:00:48.159 go get drinks, I'll like be like, I don't trust you. 0:00:48.240 --> 0:00:50.920 I don't even know who you are, Like I don't 0:00:50.960 --> 0:00:53.480 know you. If some guy told me that he wanted 0:00:53.520 --> 0:00:54.720 to move into a cabin in. 0:00:54.640 --> 0:00:57.920 The woods, like he was like, he is like an invite. 0:00:57.960 --> 0:01:00.720 He was inviting a movie that was his opener. 0:01:03.680 --> 0:01:06.080 What in what context did somebody just come up to 0:01:06.120 --> 0:01:08.080 you and invite you to be in a cabinet? 0:01:08.440 --> 0:01:09.039 Dating app? 0:01:09.920 --> 0:01:10.839 You're on dating apps? 0:01:10.840 --> 0:01:12.479 I'm on I'm on a dating app? 0:01:13.280 --> 0:01:14.920 Can I can I ask you what dating app you're in? 0:01:15.959 --> 0:01:18.959 I think so, Yeah, I think I'm on Rayah. 0:01:19.040 --> 0:01:19.720 You're on Rayah. 0:01:19.840 --> 0:01:20.040 Yeah. 0:01:20.080 --> 0:01:22.440 I think I'm allowed to say yes. I can say that, yes, 0:01:22.600 --> 0:01:23.400 I am on Riyah. 0:01:23.440 --> 0:01:26.000 I keep getting rejected from Riyah. Really, would you give 0:01:26.000 --> 0:01:26.679 me a referral? 0:01:27.120 --> 0:01:30.840 I don't do Honestly, you're not missing out on anything, really. Yeah, 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:34.320 everybody looks the same. Everyone has the same haircut. 0:01:34.959 --> 0:01:35.800 What haircut is it? 0:01:36.000 --> 0:01:36.400 Caesar? 0:01:37.760 --> 0:01:40.200 What's what? Other kind of like opening line, what's the 0:01:40.240 --> 0:01:42.639 worst Riya opening line you've gotten? 0:01:44.520 --> 0:01:44.720 Oh? 0:01:44.800 --> 0:01:47.680 Boy, it was long and that's why it was bad. 0:01:49.080 --> 0:01:52.800 People are I mean, I have to imagine when people 0:01:53.280 --> 0:01:56.440 match with you on Riya and they're composing a message, 0:01:56.880 --> 0:01:59.600 They're doing it like it's the most important thing they've 0:01:59.680 --> 0:02:00.400 ever put that. 0:02:00.440 --> 0:02:02.360 Down exactly how it comes off. 0:02:02.520 --> 0:02:05.520 Yeah, And that's the thing is, I'm sure it comes 0:02:05.520 --> 0:02:06.480 off like that every time. 0:02:06.480 --> 0:02:07.680 That's the craziest thing. 0:02:08.000 --> 0:02:12.360 Some people like will write like a paragraph and it's 0:02:12.480 --> 0:02:16.360 like almost like a stand up like bit. It's like 0:02:16.400 --> 0:02:18.400 they have like a beginning, middle, and end to it. 0:02:20.040 --> 0:02:20.200 Yeah. 0:02:20.400 --> 0:02:24.040 Yeah, and it's like relax, Like I do the opposite 0:02:24.040 --> 0:02:27.680 of that, because I feel like that's more more chill, 0:02:27.800 --> 0:02:31.000 more trustworthy to just kind of not really say anything 0:02:31.040 --> 0:02:31.919 meaningful at all. 0:02:32.560 --> 0:02:36.880 So like I just I'll be like, hot, do you 0:02:36.960 --> 0:02:37.959 do you ever just get a hay? 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:41.520 I don't like that. I don't like, Hey, it makes 0:02:41.520 --> 0:02:44.080 me sad. It's like someone's sitting on their phone, Like 0:02:44.080 --> 0:02:49.880 I imagine them on their phone and they're like, hey, 0:02:50.720 --> 0:02:51.359 you know what I mean. 0:02:51.440 --> 0:02:57.840 So it needs to be somewhere between hey and here's 0:02:57.880 --> 0:02:59.440 something I had chatchypt right. 0:02:59.600 --> 0:03:03.800 For me, it has to be creative. I really value creativity. 0:03:04.400 --> 0:03:08.440 So like like I say, like to some guys, I'll 0:03:08.480 --> 0:03:11.720 be like clap it and they'll be like sure. 0:03:12.960 --> 0:03:17.240 It's like it's like, no, I want to do something yeah, more. 0:03:16.800 --> 0:03:20.359 Just like something stupid and it doesn't. I can tell 0:03:20.360 --> 0:03:24.040 when somebody is saying something stupid because they're trying to 0:03:24.080 --> 0:03:27.400 be funny, or if they're actually funny and they just 0:03:27.520 --> 0:03:31.360 say stupid things. Like some people, like a try to 0:03:31.360 --> 0:03:34.160 be funny when they approach me, and then there's some 0:03:34.240 --> 0:03:38.040 people who are just like literally just naturally pretty funny 0:03:38.040 --> 0:03:40.440 and are chill and cool. 0:03:41.040 --> 0:03:45.080 This is one of the tough things to realize is 0:03:45.080 --> 0:03:48.160 that like your intentions and what you're thinking subconsciously, it 0:03:48.480 --> 0:03:53.080 always comes through whether you try really hard. Yeah, because 0:03:53.080 --> 0:03:56.440 if someone's composing a message where they're trying not to 0:03:56.480 --> 0:04:00.600 seem cool, them trying not to seem cool comes off. Yeah. 0:04:01.640 --> 0:04:06.240 Yeah, I see patterns as well on Riah Patterns. So 0:04:06.480 --> 0:04:10.520 and you have a description, and your description will like whatever, 0:04:10.560 --> 0:04:13.520 you can put whatever you want. And I notice every 0:04:13.640 --> 0:04:17.599 like ten guys, there's one guy who's like, can't wait 0:04:17.640 --> 0:04:22.600 to match and not talk and never meet, can't wait 0:04:22.640 --> 0:04:25.160 to never meet. Do you have to put a bag 0:04:25.200 --> 0:04:25.440 on that? 0:04:26.360 --> 0:04:29.960 No, you're fine, really free not free advertising, familiar highlights, sick, 0:04:30.000 --> 0:04:31.840 oh yeah, go crazy. 0:04:33.520 --> 0:04:37.840 And yeah yeah yeah yeah, there will be like every 0:04:37.839 --> 0:04:40.839 ten guys, some guys like really bitter and it's like 0:04:41.240 --> 0:04:43.880 you don't know that, we can tell that you're bitter, 0:04:44.160 --> 0:04:50.480 right right, Like relax. It's a dating app. It's not 0:04:50.520 --> 0:04:54.200 gonna be fun. It's like gonna be fucking sad. 0:04:54.200 --> 0:04:57.000 Did you did you use dating apps before you were famous? 0:04:57.160 --> 0:04:57.280 No? 0:04:57.400 --> 0:04:59.520 I didn't. But I tried to go on Tender and 0:04:59.560 --> 0:05:01.479 there was a guy who had a picture of him 0:05:01.480 --> 0:05:05.080 in front of like three exotic cars or whatever, and 0:05:05.520 --> 0:05:08.839 he just looked like a criminal, Like he just looked 0:05:08.839 --> 0:05:11.640 and he had his glasses on at night, and that 0:05:11.720 --> 0:05:14.760 usually says a lot about people. And so I never 0:05:14.839 --> 0:05:16.800 went back on again because of that one guy. 0:05:17.600 --> 0:05:20.640 Are you for Riyah? Are you? Are you looking at 0:05:20.760 --> 0:05:25.120 men and women are just just mess me. What's the like. 0:05:25.520 --> 0:05:27.680 Let's say that somebody, Let's say you had a friend 0:05:27.960 --> 0:05:30.480 who just got on Riyah and they asked you for 0:05:30.520 --> 0:05:33.280 advice on how to build a good profile. What would 0:05:33.279 --> 0:05:33.760 you tell them? 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:37.960 Put pictures of not just yourself looking hot, You should 0:05:37.960 --> 0:05:41.240 put pictures of things that represent your sense of humor. 0:05:41.920 --> 0:05:44.680 Some people don't, I guess don't have a sense of 0:05:44.760 --> 0:05:48.440 humor sometimes, and that's fine, that's life. But if you 0:05:48.720 --> 0:05:54.320 if you're like funny and cool, like like, let people 0:05:54.400 --> 0:05:55.840 know that. Let that be known. 0:05:56.440 --> 0:06:01.120 What uh like you? What are you looking for on Riah? 0:06:01.120 --> 0:06:03.920 Are you? Are you like for love? 0:06:04.040 --> 0:06:08.680 Hot funny babe? Mm hmm, hot, funny, hairy babe with 0:06:08.800 --> 0:06:13.320 a cool with a cool vibe? And who who is 0:06:13.360 --> 0:06:18.400 like not? I don't know who like has an opinion? 0:06:19.120 --> 0:06:23.039 I like people with opinions, like some people just like 0:06:24.600 --> 0:06:27.880 I don't know everything or and that's that's fine too. 0:06:28.520 --> 0:06:30.600 I don't know, honestly, I don't know what the fuck 0:06:30.640 --> 0:06:33.120 I want. I just want to be safe. I think 0:06:33.160 --> 0:06:33.880 that's that's. 0:06:34.120 --> 0:06:35.440 You just want to be safe. 0:06:35.520 --> 0:06:36.520 I just want to be safe. 0:06:37.400 --> 0:06:37.800 Hm hmm. 0:06:38.200 --> 0:06:43.800 Men are terrifying. I'm really small five three They could 0:06:43.839 --> 0:06:46.000 I could anything could happen. 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:48.320 That's crazy that somebody asks you to go with them 0:06:48.320 --> 0:06:50.800 to the cabin in the woods. 0:06:51.240 --> 0:06:56.520 Yeah, yeah, that was his opener. But like, God bless him. 0:06:56.560 --> 0:06:58.520 Like if you had gotten to know okay, if you 0:06:58.520 --> 0:07:01.119 had gotten to know him, and maybe you'd met him 0:07:01.279 --> 0:07:04.919 in public a few like what how long would it 0:07:04.960 --> 0:07:06.640 take for you to be like, you know what, I'll 0:07:06.680 --> 0:07:08.200 go and I'll go to the cabin in the woods. 0:07:08.200 --> 0:07:10.040 They would have never worked with me and him he's 0:07:10.080 --> 0:07:13.280 like too docile and sweet. Hmmm, I think I need 0:07:13.320 --> 0:07:14.120 like a little. 0:07:15.520 --> 0:07:19.840 Ledge, yeah, a little bit of edge and has your 0:07:20.080 --> 0:07:23.040 has what you has what you're looking for in terms 0:07:23.080 --> 0:07:27.000 of like the personalities of the people that you're attracted 0:07:27.040 --> 0:07:30.040 to evolved as you've gotten older, as it stayed pretty 0:07:30.120 --> 0:07:35.760 much the same throughout your life. 0:07:33.960 --> 0:07:37.320 They've evolved, absolutely, they've evolved. Like I've had a lot 0:07:37.320 --> 0:07:43.600 of really shit boyfriends, sorry guys, and then I've had, uh, 0:07:44.040 --> 0:07:49.760 you know, some some really really really great ones who 0:07:49.760 --> 0:07:53.760 have kind of and they've all taught me to uh 0:07:54.200 --> 0:07:57.880 look for the right things. And you know, in somewhere 0:07:57.920 --> 0:08:01.680 or another, I think I've just learned from from all 0:08:01.720 --> 0:08:05.680 of my relationships to some extent about what not to 0:08:05.720 --> 0:08:09.720 look for or what to avoid or what to seek. 0:08:10.480 --> 0:08:15.240 Hmm. Did you did you date a lot like in 0:08:15.360 --> 0:08:16.520 high school and stuff? 0:08:18.160 --> 0:08:18.320 Uh? 0:08:20.720 --> 0:08:26.920 Yeah, no, actually no, No, I didn't date. I did 0:08:26.960 --> 0:08:30.160 the other thing, if you know what I mean. 0:08:30.600 --> 0:08:37.600 Were you Were you popular in high school? I? 0:08:37.080 --> 0:08:40.760 I don't know, I don't not really like. I I 0:08:40.800 --> 0:08:45.360 really like the the dance sector of my school because 0:08:45.360 --> 0:08:47.880 I went to a performing arts so I kind of 0:08:47.880 --> 0:08:52.200 stayed with all the like within the circle of whoever 0:08:52.360 --> 0:08:53.000 was a dancer? 0:08:53.520 --> 0:08:56.800 Were you? Were you like sort of a theater I? 0:08:56.960 --> 0:09:00.800 Yeah, I like generally speaking, Yeah, like I liked theater, 0:09:00.960 --> 0:09:03.200 but I think for the most part I wanted to dance. 0:09:03.280 --> 0:09:08.640 And yeah, the more theatery kids, I never really got 0:09:08.640 --> 0:09:15.560 to know them that much. But then I joined some 0:09:15.559 --> 0:09:19.280 some dance cruise in l A. Yeah, and I I 0:09:19.440 --> 0:09:23.640 battled around dance battles. Yeah, dude, but I don't want 0:09:23.640 --> 0:09:25.600 to talk about it. 0:09:25.600 --> 0:09:31.760 It's so bad. Have you ever done? Would you ever rap? Battle? Somebody? 0:09:31.920 --> 0:09:35.640 I used to want to do that, and nobody that like, 0:09:35.760 --> 0:09:40.120 nobody I knew, was into it, so it just never 0:09:40.280 --> 0:09:42.720 happened for me. So I just kept dancing. 0:09:43.960 --> 0:09:46.360 Would you is that. Would you ever challenge somebody to 0:09:46.440 --> 0:09:48.360 a to a wrap or like show up at one 0:09:48.400 --> 0:09:51.080 of them, because I think every every city has like 0:09:51.120 --> 0:09:54.400 a scene of like underground and I feel like if 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:57.600 you rolled up, yeah you could destroy people. 0:09:57.840 --> 0:10:03.120 Yes, well yeah, I would love to do that, but yeah, 0:10:03.160 --> 0:10:06.920 I just don't know people that'd be down for that, 0:10:08.840 --> 0:10:13.160 you know, I know who would. I just don't like 0:10:13.200 --> 0:10:18.760 surround myself with with people very much. I'm a lone wolf. 0:10:19.520 --> 0:10:20.720 Have you? Have you always been like that? 0:10:21.280 --> 0:10:25.520 Yeah? Kind of, yeah, sort of not really, It's like 0:10:25.600 --> 0:10:29.000 comes and goes, Like right now, I'm very social, like 0:10:29.600 --> 0:10:35.800 I'm putting myself out there, but uh, yeah, I don't know, 0:10:36.080 --> 0:10:39.760 it comes and goes. I remember I'd like stay locked 0:10:39.760 --> 0:10:41.720 in my room every day and like make music and 0:10:41.720 --> 0:10:44.720 stuff on periscope. Remember periscope. 0:10:44.840 --> 0:10:48.800 Periscopes was the precursor to talk or it was like the. 0:10:49.600 --> 0:10:52.640 Streaming, Yeah it was Twitter streaming, yeah yeah. And I 0:10:52.640 --> 0:10:55.000 would go on there every single day and I would 0:10:55.120 --> 0:10:56.920 knock it out of the house. I would just like 0:10:57.280 --> 0:11:00.560 stay and make music and chow all day. 0:11:01.000 --> 0:11:04.640 I've also been having like an interesting relationship with like 0:11:04.760 --> 0:11:09.040 isolation because you you'll like go I've like gone three 0:11:09.160 --> 0:11:11.280 years and then kind of like been like, oh, I've 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:15.479 been isolating myself this entire time. Has that happened too, Yeah. 0:11:15.240 --> 0:11:17.280 For sure. And I like need a change of scenery 0:11:17.320 --> 0:11:20.920 and need people noises and things like that. 0:11:21.320 --> 0:11:24.960 What do you like? I asked this for genuine advice. 0:11:25.040 --> 0:11:29.640 What do you do when you feel like you're too isolated? 0:11:29.640 --> 0:11:32.080 How do you get yourself out of that? How do 0:11:32.080 --> 0:11:35.400 you how do you rejoin the community? 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:51.920 Uh? Oh, man, I just go on Discord. I just 0:11:52.000 --> 0:11:56.439 jump on Discord. We just hang out on Discord all day. Honestly, 0:11:56.520 --> 0:12:00.679 that's like that's I have a kind of a big 0:12:00.800 --> 0:12:02.880 friend group on Discord, and those are sort of my 0:12:03.120 --> 0:12:05.560 I just don't like see them because everybody's spread out 0:12:06.080 --> 0:12:10.080 throughout the United States. But it's just like just me 0:12:10.160 --> 0:12:13.280 and my friends on disc and that's kind of it. 0:12:13.559 --> 0:12:16.880 One of the number one things that people call in 0:12:16.920 --> 0:12:21.360 here to talk about is how do you make friends 0:12:21.559 --> 0:12:22.280 as an adult? 0:12:22.840 --> 0:12:24.360 Right? That's a great question. 0:12:24.520 --> 0:12:27.880 Yeah, And it's really and I struggle with it. I 0:12:27.960 --> 0:12:31.360 used to do stand up and that made it really 0:12:31.600 --> 0:12:35.079 easy because everywhere, because you know, you go out to 0:12:35.160 --> 0:12:37.120 bars and this is always people around. But since I 0:12:37.120 --> 0:12:41.520 stopped doing that, it got so much harder. And I always, like, 0:12:42.360 --> 0:12:44.240 I guess I try to tell people, like, find an 0:12:44.280 --> 0:12:48.480 interest that you have and join a club that's like 0:12:48.520 --> 0:12:50.600 based on your hobby or something. 0:12:50.720 --> 0:12:54.360 You ever, yeah, it's like you have to physically apply 0:12:54.440 --> 0:13:02.360 yourself to a community or something. But it's hard to 0:13:02.440 --> 0:13:07.760 even begin to fathom that when you've kind of gotten 0:13:07.760 --> 0:13:12.000 comfortable in such a you know, like a cozy or 0:13:12.000 --> 0:13:16.720 a cozy little egg. I don't know, I like, I think, uh, 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:21.040 also some people just don't don't have a hobby or 0:13:21.080 --> 0:13:28.319 don't want to do anything, and like I get that, man, 0:13:28.960 --> 0:13:31.080 I don't know, I think that I think that being 0:13:31.160 --> 0:13:34.000 creative like this, this my best advice would be is 0:13:34.080 --> 0:13:37.800 to be creative to some extent and somebody will share 0:13:38.600 --> 0:13:46.959 that thing with you that's same liking, and maybe maybe 0:13:47.000 --> 0:13:49.760 you can make something of it with with somebody else. 0:13:50.280 --> 0:13:51.679 And it doesn't have to be like I don't mean 0:13:51.760 --> 0:13:54.840 so much like it being successful, but just you know, 0:13:57.040 --> 0:14:01.720 fucking getting out there and just like doing something, making 0:14:01.760 --> 0:14:06.760 something materializing something that happens in your mind, you know, 0:14:09.280 --> 0:14:10.840 make make beautiful things. 0:14:11.000 --> 0:14:13.760 I don't know, do you feel like you've been able 0:14:13.760 --> 0:14:18.480 to attract a lot of other people into your life, 0:14:18.800 --> 0:14:22.320 friends and whatnot by making beautiful things. 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:26.040 And I don't actually yes, actually yes, actually yes, I 0:14:26.080 --> 0:14:30.680 was gonna say no, yes, so in a funny way, 0:14:30.800 --> 0:14:36.960 so like what I was you gonna say? I So, 0:14:37.520 --> 0:14:41.400 my creative director is one of my closer friends to me. 0:14:44.400 --> 0:14:49.880 And then he had an assistant to him who's just 0:14:49.960 --> 0:14:58.040 like the funniest, like coolest girl girl. I'm like, so chill, 0:14:58.600 --> 0:15:02.400 such a vibe inspires me. But she she was just 0:15:02.480 --> 0:15:06.760 his assistant. She wasn't like being creative along with me. 0:15:07.400 --> 0:15:10.240 But then I started asking her like, hey, like where 0:15:10.240 --> 0:15:12.040 do I source this? Kind of because she has a 0:15:12.080 --> 0:15:14.240 really great style. But I was like, you know, asking 0:15:14.280 --> 0:15:17.040 her stuff about fashion, and like we kind of vibed 0:15:17.080 --> 0:15:23.760 on that same thing and and we just became best friends, 0:15:24.280 --> 0:15:27.800 like closer than kind of closer than sorry bred kind 0:15:27.800 --> 0:15:30.040 of closer than me and my creative director. To be 0:15:30.080 --> 0:15:30.560 honest with. 0:15:30.560 --> 0:15:34.280 You, but everyone's worst fear is that they introduced their 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:36.600 friend to somebody and then they become closer with the. 0:15:38.240 --> 0:15:41.720 Yeah, but I mean you know, yeah, me and you know, 0:15:42.880 --> 0:15:46.280 we all we all work really really great together and 0:15:46.320 --> 0:15:50.840 we still go out like all of us, and she's 0:15:51.000 --> 0:15:54.280 just like the funniest thing. And I even started kind 0:15:54.280 --> 0:15:57.480 of making music with her. She's not musical at all whatsoever, 0:15:57.960 --> 0:16:01.080 but she has a really good scream. She has like 0:16:01.200 --> 0:16:07.720 a beautiful, like like gut wrenching, like blood curdling scream. 0:16:08.400 --> 0:16:10.680 And I'm like, dude, can you please do that on 0:16:10.720 --> 0:16:14.080 a song for me? And so she's been, she's been 0:16:14.440 --> 0:16:16.720 doing that. I had her do that on a song. 0:16:17.480 --> 0:16:18.840 It was great. Is it really? 0:16:19.040 --> 0:16:20.520 Is it a song that you put out or that. 0:16:20.680 --> 0:16:24.560 It's not out yet? And I, uh, well, yeah, it's 0:16:24.600 --> 0:16:28.000 not out yet. I might start a punk band with her. 0:16:28.400 --> 0:16:33.640 Really. So I listened to this interview you did on 0:16:33.920 --> 0:16:35.840 Apple Music and you were talking about like all these 0:16:35.840 --> 0:16:38.520 different kinds of you want to get into new genres 0:16:38.520 --> 0:16:40.800 and stuff, get into punk. Yeah, do you like Do 0:16:40.840 --> 0:16:42.240 you like to like mosh? 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:45.840 I like don't mosh, but I like the culture and 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:50.200 I like the feeling. I like the emotion that surrounds 0:16:50.240 --> 0:16:53.440 it and the you know what it insights in me. 0:16:54.320 --> 0:16:55.680 Do your favorite punk bands? 0:16:56.680 --> 0:16:59.760 Yeah? I do. I really like the Chats Right now, 0:17:00.440 --> 0:17:07.520 just currently, I'm getting into Sonic Youth. My favorites though, 0:17:07.600 --> 0:17:15.320 probably idols who else. 0:17:17.600 --> 0:17:17.800 Man. 0:17:18.000 --> 0:17:20.720 I mean, yeah, Idols is like I think my number one. 0:17:22.560 --> 0:17:25.239 I don't know a lot of the bands, but I 0:17:25.280 --> 0:17:28.240 like the jan Like do you know the Misfits, Yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:17:28.280 --> 0:17:31.960 I love the Misfits Classic. Yeah, I love like the Ramones, 0:17:32.200 --> 0:17:34.679 yeah yeah yeah. I want to go to more like 0:17:34.800 --> 0:17:38.439 local shows and just like fuck around and get punched 0:17:38.480 --> 0:17:39.280 in the face and stuff. 0:17:39.359 --> 0:17:42.560 Yeah. Yeah, I don't, like I don't like pain like that. 0:17:43.320 --> 0:17:46.880 I understand that, but like I love to, like I'd 0:17:46.880 --> 0:17:48.560 love to just surround myself in that. 0:17:50.000 --> 0:17:53.000 Do you do you ever make music that you're just 0:17:53.040 --> 0:17:55.439 like I'm literally I'm not even gonna put this out. 0:17:55.480 --> 0:17:56.640 I'm just gonna do it just. 0:17:56.640 --> 0:17:59.720 To absolutely just to like hear what it would sound 0:17:59.840 --> 0:18:03.600 like if I did this thing. Yeah, I definitely do that. 0:18:03.640 --> 0:18:07.280 I do like experimental moments where I made I made 0:18:07.320 --> 0:18:10.160 a punk song on my own with like splice and 0:18:10.240 --> 0:18:14.560 like different programs and stuff that I just downloaded. I 0:18:14.600 --> 0:18:17.879 am learning how to like actually produce and not just 0:18:18.119 --> 0:18:23.960 useugh like default noises, which I've been doing for like 0:18:24.080 --> 0:18:28.240 since the beginning, and they don't ever come to anything. 0:18:28.840 --> 0:18:34.199 They never come to fruition rightfully. So, but yeah, I 0:18:34.280 --> 0:18:39.600 like actually made like a quite okay thing the other night, and. 0:18:40.040 --> 0:18:43.080 It was cute. Did you really see you really seem 0:18:43.480 --> 0:18:45.720 like you're always I don't know if this is true, 0:18:46.160 --> 0:18:49.560 but you really seem like you're always having fun? Yeah, 0:18:49.720 --> 0:18:50.720 and I appreciate that. 0:18:50.920 --> 0:18:55.280 Yeah, I am, I am, I am. I really like 0:18:55.359 --> 0:18:57.920 to have fun. I think it's important to have fun. 0:18:57.960 --> 0:18:59.160 I think it's important to chill. 0:19:00.080 --> 0:19:03.440 Do you ever have you ever like, do you ever 0:19:03.480 --> 0:19:05.119 notice that you're not having fun and you stop? 0:19:06.560 --> 0:19:11.600 Yeah? Sometimes? Yeah, yeah, you know what? Actually, the other 0:19:11.680 --> 0:19:15.600 day I found myself I so like most of my 0:19:15.640 --> 0:19:17.960 life things have been like messy in my room or 0:19:18.000 --> 0:19:20.560 my house, and I've always had something to do, something 0:19:20.600 --> 0:19:24.080 to organize, something to like get done. The other day, 0:19:24.119 --> 0:19:26.879 I was in my room. My room was perfectly clean. 0:19:27.080 --> 0:19:30.199 I'm like great at keeping my house in order, and 0:19:30.280 --> 0:19:34.639 I found myself sitting on my little day bed in 0:19:34.760 --> 0:19:38.480 my room and just like doing nothing. Like I was like, 0:19:38.880 --> 0:19:53.680 I was just doing this. And so when I did 0:19:53.760 --> 0:19:58.080 that and I realized I was doing it, I was like, 0:19:58.119 --> 0:20:01.280 what the fuck is going on? And I like kind 0:20:01.320 --> 0:20:03.200 of understand why people meditate. 0:20:03.280 --> 0:20:05.800 I was gonna say, it sounds like you accidentally meditate 0:20:05.840 --> 0:20:09.439 I think I by accident meditated. Yeah. Yeah, how did 0:20:09.480 --> 0:20:12.320 it feel? Were you like this is gross? I don't 0:20:12.359 --> 0:20:12.600 like this. 0:20:15.560 --> 0:20:18.280 Yeah, I like wanted a vice. I wanted to like 0:20:18.320 --> 0:20:23.080 go pour a fucking glass of wine or like smoke something. Yeah, 0:20:24.800 --> 0:20:25.639 zero nicotine. 0:20:27.560 --> 0:20:30.760 No, it's very hard to sit and do nothing, and 0:20:30.800 --> 0:20:34.840 it doesn't even feel that productive because like people make 0:20:34.880 --> 0:20:36.480 it out to be like a like a big like 0:20:36.520 --> 0:20:38.920 productive thing to like meditate for an hour every day, 0:20:39.160 --> 0:20:41.920 But I don't. I don't get it, Like you could 0:20:41.960 --> 0:20:46.119 meditate for an hour every day for a year and 0:20:46.160 --> 0:20:48.360 you'd accomplish nothing. 0:20:48.400 --> 0:20:52.800 Honestly, Like I could see myself meditating. Why was the 0:20:52.800 --> 0:20:58.040 mic so far? I see myself meditating and then being 0:20:58.119 --> 0:21:02.400 like I have to meditate. Tap, Now do you see 0:21:02.400 --> 0:21:03.000 what I'm saying? 0:21:03.920 --> 0:21:07.800 Like it becomes a like like a. 0:21:07.040 --> 0:21:12.000 I have to in order to feel sane and feel good, 0:21:12.560 --> 0:21:16.240 I've got to meditate, God forbid, Like I have stuff 0:21:16.280 --> 0:21:19.560 to do, like I can't but couldn't. 0:21:19.720 --> 0:21:24.879 Okay, But the vices couldn't meditate and couldn't meditation theoretically, 0:21:26.240 --> 0:21:29.320 I guess this is the defense of it couldn't theoretically 0:21:29.920 --> 0:21:32.800 replace some of the other things that you like have 0:21:32.880 --> 0:21:34.400 to do that. I guess are like bad. 0:21:34.680 --> 0:21:40.080 Yeah yeah, yeah, but it's like maybe I want to 0:21:40.800 --> 0:21:46.439 drink like during a thing that's happening where I can't 0:21:46.480 --> 0:21:47.040 sit down. 0:21:48.240 --> 0:21:50.040 I bet meditating while drunk. 0:21:51.800 --> 0:21:55.600 Yeah, could be probably already do that now I make 0:21:55.640 --> 0:21:57.280 it easier. Yeah. Maybe. 0:21:57.520 --> 0:22:00.919 Like sometimes like when I drink, I don't feel like 0:22:00.960 --> 0:22:02.880 I know it's supposed to make you feel like social, 0:22:03.480 --> 0:22:05.080 but I like, you know when you're drunk and you 0:22:05.119 --> 0:22:05.400 go to. 0:22:05.359 --> 0:22:07.920 The bathroom, Oh my god, yeah, it's. 0:22:07.840 --> 0:22:09.959 Quiet and you just start alone with your thoughts and 0:22:10.160 --> 0:22:12.879 like in the toilet. Yeah, and it's like that's my 0:22:12.920 --> 0:22:13.520 favorite part. 0:22:13.760 --> 0:22:13.920 Yeah. 0:22:14.000 --> 0:22:14.320 Yeah. 0:22:14.359 --> 0:22:17.480 And your face, you like feel your like face, it 0:22:17.520 --> 0:22:20.960 feels good and everything's warm. Yeah, yeah, totally. 0:22:21.320 --> 0:22:24.240 I've gotten there's been a couple. Do you Are you 0:22:24.280 --> 0:22:25.600 a weed person? No? 0:22:25.720 --> 0:22:26.160 I can't. 0:22:27.280 --> 0:22:30.240 Like well, like when I smoke, pidle like get really 0:22:30.280 --> 0:22:32.800 in my head and think and stuff. And I've noticed 0:22:32.840 --> 0:22:35.560 that happens to me when I drink too, Like anything 0:22:35.600 --> 0:22:42.800 that deviates me from like normal sober mind like causes 0:22:42.800 --> 0:22:47.000 me to reflect on the normal sober mind. Do you 0:22:47.000 --> 0:22:49.280 have anything that does does that too puts you in 0:22:49.280 --> 0:22:50.080 a state of reflection? 0:22:50.880 --> 0:22:54.440 You know what kind of Yeah, I think any stimulants, 0:22:54.480 --> 0:22:58.119 like like I last night, well not last night, a 0:22:58.160 --> 0:23:02.199 couple of nights ago. I like, don't do this, kids, 0:23:02.800 --> 0:23:06.439 I smoked a cigarette and like it was great, I 0:23:06.520 --> 0:23:10.800 really liked it. But then the next day I had 0:23:10.840 --> 0:23:15.120 anxiety all day. And then I also had another day 0:23:16.040 --> 0:23:19.879 like a week before that, I had a cigarette and 0:23:19.880 --> 0:23:22.119 and it made me feel terrible the next day, like 0:23:22.160 --> 0:23:25.760 it was I've never I don't remember ever getting anxiety 0:23:25.760 --> 0:23:30.960 from smoking cigarettes or feeling wildly introspective or not even 0:23:31.000 --> 0:23:34.200 like that, just like more just kind of shitty and 0:23:34.440 --> 0:23:38.320 just you know, yeah, I uh, I think SIGs do 0:23:38.440 --> 0:23:46.480 that to me. Any sort of nicotine, any stimulant, any coffee, caffeine, tea, things. 0:23:46.200 --> 0:23:48.680 Like that into Celsius at all. 0:23:49.000 --> 0:23:51.480 No, no, Like I just can't drink it, like I can't. 0:23:51.560 --> 0:23:54.760 So I have a really crazy Celsius story, please, I 0:23:54.800 --> 0:23:58.200 like got I like almost got into a beef because 0:23:58.240 --> 0:24:02.320 of Celsius the cell. It's not me like I I 0:24:02.359 --> 0:24:06.480 so I was singing a song and like doing the 0:24:06.600 --> 0:24:11.920 voice of somebody else with the song, like I filmed 0:24:11.920 --> 0:24:16.520 myself doing the song in a crazy voice, and it 0:24:16.600 --> 0:24:22.000 was like my really bad impression of that person, and 0:24:22.000 --> 0:24:24.520 and people took it super wrong. They like thought that 0:24:24.600 --> 0:24:29.399 I was like trying to like start cause drama and 0:24:29.440 --> 0:24:33.719 like issues, when really I was just being a fucking asshole. 0:24:35.640 --> 0:24:39.119 Like people are always doing that, looking for something, looking 0:24:39.119 --> 0:24:41.840 for something. Yeah yeah, maybe I don't know if that's 0:24:41.880 --> 0:24:43.879 the fault of the Celsius. Maybe that's the fault of 0:24:43.880 --> 0:24:44.479 of the people. 0:24:44.920 --> 0:24:50.480 Yeah sure. But I also was just so I feel 0:24:50.480 --> 0:24:51.960 like with Celsius, you're high? 0:24:53.160 --> 0:24:53.600 Are you ever? 0:24:54.160 --> 0:24:55.120 If you read so high? 0:24:55.160 --> 0:24:58.960 If you're taken I have, it does make I was 0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:03.600 prescribed it metic mm hm, and I took it and 0:25:03.640 --> 0:25:06.720 I was like, I'm high right now, I'm on drugs. 0:25:06.760 --> 0:25:10.480 I'm on math. But it makes me feel like optimistic. 0:25:10.960 --> 0:25:14.280 Yeah. I think my experience was I was very robotic 0:25:14.600 --> 0:25:18.960 and responsible. But maybe it wasn't Adderall. Maybe it was 0:25:19.000 --> 0:25:19.840 something else. 0:25:20.200 --> 0:25:23.560 Like I'm I've been, I've been. I've been prescribed like 0:25:23.680 --> 0:25:27.760 SSRIs every now and then and they I just give 0:25:27.840 --> 0:25:29.320 up because you're supposed to take them for like three 0:25:29.320 --> 0:25:31.439 weeks until you feel something. And I was like fuck this. 0:25:31.680 --> 0:25:33.320 And then it got adderall and I was like, oh, 0:25:33.320 --> 0:25:36.960 this is what I thought the SSRIs would be it's 0:25:37.000 --> 0:25:42.240 just an instant optimism and appreciation for life and shit. 0:25:42.640 --> 0:25:45.480 Yeah yeah, yeah, but it's it felt. I mean, I 0:25:45.560 --> 0:25:47.480 know those people who take it every day and that's 0:25:47.520 --> 0:25:50.000 but it just felt unsustainable to me. I was like, 0:25:50.000 --> 0:25:51.560 I'm gonna be on, I'm gonna be just be fucked 0:25:51.600 --> 0:25:52.000 up all that time. 0:25:52.040 --> 0:25:53.800 Yeah, why do I have to depend on this thing 0:25:54.280 --> 0:25:55.959 when I could, like, I know, I could find it 0:25:55.960 --> 0:25:57.919 in myself. I think that's a big part of like, 0:25:58.200 --> 0:26:01.400 just in general, just like you gotta you gotta find 0:26:01.440 --> 0:26:02.160 it in yourself. 0:26:02.280 --> 0:26:04.960 I mean, I under like and if you really need it. 0:26:07.080 --> 0:26:12.200 People people will go against the argument by saying stuff like, well, 0:26:12.200 --> 0:26:17.080 if your leg is broken, you would take a pain killer, 0:26:17.200 --> 0:26:19.080 so why not do the same thing if your brain 0:26:19.240 --> 0:26:21.320 is broken? And so I respect, maybe I should give it, 0:26:21.359 --> 0:26:22.320 Maybe I should give it a try. 0:26:22.880 --> 0:26:26.800 Yeah, yeah, but you know, hey, hey man, it's a 0:26:26.840 --> 0:26:27.680 wild industry. 0:26:28.440 --> 0:26:29.880 Hey do you want to take a phone call? 0:26:30.200 --> 0:26:30.400 Yeah? 0:26:30.480 --> 0:26:30.840 I do. 0:26:31.040 --> 0:26:34.480 Let's see what's going on. Hey, folks, it's Lyle. 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Hello, Hi, what's up? 0:27:53.560 --> 0:27:54.000 What's up? 0:27:54.160 --> 0:27:54.720 Hello? 0:27:55.240 --> 0:27:59.160 Is this Carlos twenty from California? 0:28:00.680 --> 0:28:03.760 Yes, this is Hi Carlos. 0:28:05.440 --> 0:28:10.360 Hello Carlos, It says here that your ex recently came 0:28:10.440 --> 0:28:15.639 back into your life. You said it was your fault 0:28:16.400 --> 0:28:20.639 that you guys broke up, and now that she's back, 0:28:21.680 --> 0:28:24.960 you're wondering if you can maintain a friendship. Do you 0:28:24.960 --> 0:28:26.879 want to talk about about this in your own words? 0:28:29.440 --> 0:28:29.640 Uh? 0:28:29.760 --> 0:28:30.680 Yeah, I mean. 0:28:32.000 --> 0:28:34.280 It was kind of like I had I had a 0:28:34.280 --> 0:28:37.520 lot of mental health issues going on to the point 0:28:37.560 --> 0:28:40.719 of like hospitalization and like other ship. And then on 0:28:40.800 --> 0:28:42.680 top of that, like I just wasn't being like the 0:28:42.720 --> 0:28:48.360 best boyfriend and I unblocked this girl who, like I 0:28:48.360 --> 0:28:51.000 guess i'd been not even I guess, but I've been 0:28:51.000 --> 0:28:57.560 like emotionally cheating with this other girl. So my my 0:28:57.600 --> 0:29:00.760 girlfriend at the time, finds out that like we had 0:29:00.760 --> 0:29:03.920 been talking again, but like just his friends, and regardless 0:29:03.920 --> 0:29:05.880 of that, like it was it's the fact that I 0:29:05.960 --> 0:29:11.040 unblocked this person who she told me to block, right whatever, 0:29:11.120 --> 0:29:11.960 So that happens. 0:29:12.000 --> 0:29:14.040 We end and then. 0:29:14.640 --> 0:29:17.480 Recently, like I was just on tender and she's like 0:29:18.120 --> 0:29:21.560 she's still near my hometown, so like I swiped right, 0:29:22.080 --> 0:29:26.360 she swipes right as well, and then I don't know, 0:29:26.360 --> 0:29:28.520 we're just like talking to his friends again, and it's 0:29:28.520 --> 0:29:31.280 like it's cool. It feels like comfortable, but at the 0:29:31.320 --> 0:29:33.640 same time, like I just feel bad because of what happened, 0:29:33.680 --> 0:29:36.080 and I don't know if I can, like, you know, 0:29:36.280 --> 0:29:39.719 offer her a friendship with having that guilt, you know, 0:29:39.760 --> 0:29:42.320 And I don't think that's her fault, but I like, 0:29:42.520 --> 0:29:43.960 I just I'm not sure it's healthy. 0:29:44.120 --> 0:29:45.840 You know, you feel like you want to break it 0:29:45.880 --> 0:29:47.040 off completely kind of. 0:29:49.320 --> 0:29:51.640 Yeah, yeah, and like people have been telling me to 0:29:51.640 --> 0:29:53.600 do it, but like at the same time, like I 0:29:54.080 --> 0:29:56.320 think she's like I think she's a really great person, 0:29:56.920 --> 0:30:00.120 and you know, the prospect of having her in my 0:30:00.160 --> 0:30:02.560 life hypothetically sounds cool. I just don't know if it 0:30:02.600 --> 0:30:03.520 would work out, you know. 0:30:04.280 --> 0:30:12.160 Yeah, man, Yeah, do. 0:30:12.120 --> 0:30:13.000 You have any thoughts on this? 0:30:13.360 --> 0:30:16.080 I have like a not a similar situation, but like 0:30:16.160 --> 0:30:20.480 somewhat I'm trying to trying to Yeah, I mean, I 0:30:20.480 --> 0:30:24.520 don't know, man. I think I think follow your follow 0:30:24.560 --> 0:30:27.840 your gut instinct, and if you're doing something for the 0:30:28.000 --> 0:30:33.840 sake of like moving on and and finding things that 0:30:34.240 --> 0:30:38.080 benefit you to your to your soul and like follow 0:30:38.120 --> 0:30:40.360 your you know, your like your core values and stuff 0:30:40.400 --> 0:30:45.800 like that, just just follow those and and it's about 0:30:45.880 --> 0:30:49.400 you know, feeling good and not trapped in a situation 0:30:49.600 --> 0:30:52.680 that you know what I mean, you don't want to 0:30:52.720 --> 0:30:56.320 be you don't want to be trapped. No, yeah, you 0:30:56.360 --> 0:31:01.040 don't want to. And then also so just being honest. 0:31:01.520 --> 0:31:05.200 I think being honest is really really important, especially to her, 0:31:05.800 --> 0:31:12.440 and the way that you part is really important. 0:31:13.720 --> 0:31:15.560 I think like express. 0:31:17.040 --> 0:31:17.920 All those things, even the. 0:31:17.880 --> 0:31:23.640 Things that you think you wouldn't Okay, you know, you 0:31:23.680 --> 0:31:27.600 know sometimes it's like you want to dress them. 0:31:27.600 --> 0:31:41.200 Sorry, wait, what the fuck? Oh okay, sorry, hold on, Carlo, Okay, wait, 0:31:41.240 --> 0:31:43.640 we're gonna get back in. We're gonna get back Oh wait, crap. 0:31:44.360 --> 0:31:46.160 I hope Carlos might have. 0:31:47.640 --> 0:31:49.280 Left on like a pretty nice note though. 0:31:49.720 --> 0:31:52.360 Yeah you know what, Oh you know what it is? 0:31:52.400 --> 0:32:03.680 I am Oh crap. Okay, wait, sorry, this is so annoying. 0:32:03.760 --> 0:32:07.640 I have to add funds to this call in studio thing. 0:32:08.360 --> 0:32:12.400 This is a terrible time, ma, man, but we have 0:32:12.440 --> 0:32:17.040 to put quarters in the machine. Okay, let's hope this 0:32:17.120 --> 0:32:19.280 all right. I have to log into my PayPal account. 0:32:19.720 --> 0:32:22.120 Hell yeah, let's go. Okay, should I sing while you 0:32:22.160 --> 0:32:22.520 do that? 0:32:22.520 --> 0:32:23.880 That would be awesome if you could do that. 0:32:26.040 --> 0:32:26.240 Ah. 0:32:28.960 --> 0:32:30.760 Sorry, I'm a little bit different when I'm like not 0:32:32.480 --> 0:32:33.160 on stage. 0:32:37.880 --> 0:32:42.840 Oh yeah, yeah that was. Let's let's add even more 0:32:42.880 --> 0:32:43.920 funds just in case. 0:32:44.240 --> 0:33:03.120 Yeah yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah. 0:32:57.960 --> 0:33:06.560 Okay, we are back. All right. Wait we might have gone. 0:33:06.680 --> 0:33:07.920 Wait where's Carlos? 0:33:08.320 --> 0:33:11.560 Carlos? Can you hear me? He wouldn't be. 0:33:12.200 --> 0:33:25.680 Okay, let's take a call from Joe. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi, 0:33:26.120 --> 0:33:27.680 Hi Hi. 0:33:28.720 --> 0:33:32.640 How are you baby? 0:33:33.320 --> 0:33:34.000 I'm all right? 0:33:35.040 --> 0:33:35.480 How are you? 0:33:35.520 --> 0:33:36.000 Guys? 0:33:37.000 --> 0:33:41.080 We're just chilling. We're just very very very much chilling 0:33:41.920 --> 0:33:42.560 at the moment. 0:33:43.600 --> 0:33:44.600 Thank you for the singing. 0:33:45.440 --> 0:33:48.280 Oh yeah, no problem. How are you? What's going on 0:33:48.320 --> 0:33:48.840 with you today? 0:33:51.080 --> 0:33:54.680 Not much. I've been helping my mom, cream, cleaning my room, 0:33:54.880 --> 0:33:56.600 taking care of the dogs, you know, the. 0:33:58.160 --> 0:34:03.400 Nice Joe, Uh is there? What did you want to 0:34:03.440 --> 0:34:06.400 talk about today? It's fine if there's nothing in particular, 0:34:06.400 --> 0:34:07.200 we could just vibe. 0:34:07.320 --> 0:34:11.440 Yeah, oh well, I mean there's something I wanted to 0:34:11.480 --> 0:34:14.440 talk about. Also, your system is really nice. She sounded 0:34:14.480 --> 0:34:15.000 really pretty. 0:34:18.880 --> 0:34:24.320 Uh uh Bri yeah, Bree rocks. 0:34:22.480 --> 0:34:26.399 Yeah she was. She was really sweet. So I didn't 0:34:26.400 --> 0:34:33.160 want to talk about something. So my boyfriend I was like, 0:34:34.000 --> 0:34:38.440 we're about to go on one year next month, and 0:34:39.440 --> 0:34:41.520 I'm so sorry if I sound really shaky. I just 0:34:42.440 --> 0:34:49.640 my heart is taking her Hello. So, yeah, my boyfriend 0:34:50.080 --> 0:34:54.040 about to be one year. He lives like fifteen like 0:34:54.239 --> 0:34:58.600 minutes away by car. And for the longest time, I've 0:34:58.640 --> 0:35:02.279 been doing like a lot of long distance, like you know, 0:35:02.560 --> 0:35:04.520 I've been trying to make it work with other people. 0:35:05.120 --> 0:35:07.879 Like it's funny because I call I tried calling you, 0:35:07.920 --> 0:35:15.120 I think two years ago. Regarding that ex it's never 0:35:15.160 --> 0:35:17.399 got in. I think I actually was on waiting one time, 0:35:17.440 --> 0:35:22.200 but I guess it dropped. But yeah, like that was 0:35:22.239 --> 0:35:26.040 also long distance. It was like I think two hours away, 0:35:26.160 --> 0:35:28.520 and I would always go see him and like stay 0:35:28.560 --> 0:35:32.400 there for like a week and then come home. And 0:35:34.320 --> 0:35:38.080 like now that I have somebody here, you know, I 0:35:38.160 --> 0:35:41.080 mean he's always here. He's always here, like comes after 0:35:41.120 --> 0:35:43.959 a class and like stays for like maybe like three 0:35:44.080 --> 0:35:48.880 four hours. But like I don't know. I asked my 0:35:48.960 --> 0:35:52.600 friends questions, like how they feel about him, and like. 0:35:54.640 --> 0:35:55.080 I don't know. 0:35:55.120 --> 0:35:57.000 I don't think I ever tell them, mostly like the 0:35:57.080 --> 0:35:59.359 bad things. You know. I don't know if they're just 0:35:59.360 --> 0:36:01.480 biased because of my last acts or what. 0:36:02.719 --> 0:36:03.960 But like. 0:36:05.520 --> 0:36:08.200 And I talked to him about it a lot, you know, 0:36:08.480 --> 0:36:10.440 and it's something that was like on my mind. 0:36:10.280 --> 0:36:13.799 You know, are you are you? Are you enjoying this relationship? 0:36:13.880 --> 0:36:15.560 Is it making you feel happy and felicity? 0:36:15.640 --> 0:36:16.279 I love it. 0:36:16.440 --> 0:36:18.879 I haven't been this happy in a very long time. 0:36:19.000 --> 0:36:23.760 I'm being completely honest. I mean because like the last one, oh, 0:36:24.280 --> 0:36:25.360 were you trying to say something? 0:36:25.880 --> 0:36:27.600 Oh no, no, no no, it was approving. 0:36:30.239 --> 0:36:33.440 So i mean, like the last one was awful. I'm 0:36:33.440 --> 0:36:35.640 gonna give me a little context. I was. I went 0:36:35.680 --> 0:36:38.680 homeless for him. I went homeless for him. That's how 0:36:38.719 --> 0:36:41.359 much I loved him. He had nowhere to go, he 0:36:41.440 --> 0:36:45.359 was on drugs. He his mom threw him out because 0:36:45.400 --> 0:36:48.160 of all of it. She didn't want that around her 0:36:48.239 --> 0:36:50.880 kids and everything. So like I totally understand. I let 0:36:50.960 --> 0:36:55.680 him come here. He started stealing. My mom has diabetes, 0:36:55.719 --> 0:36:59.160 so he would take her needles and he would go 0:36:59.200 --> 0:37:02.279 through the bins in the back and like he has 0:37:02.400 --> 0:37:05.600 like a lot of old expired debit cards. One time 0:37:05.680 --> 0:37:08.520 and he like he stole one of my old iPods. 0:37:08.560 --> 0:37:11.640 So it was just awful. So like, now I'm with 0:37:11.719 --> 0:37:14.759 this guy. He actually took me to go get my 0:37:14.840 --> 0:37:18.840 stuff that was in the storage like bin like out there. 0:37:19.440 --> 0:37:21.719 So I'm like, I'm pretty happy with this guy. 0:37:21.760 --> 0:37:25.520 He's like seems to care really really nice. 0:37:25.920 --> 0:37:31.759 Yeah, he really cares. And but like, I mean, I 0:37:31.800 --> 0:37:34.239 know I can do things that might upset him, Like 0:37:34.280 --> 0:37:37.920 I never keep my fucking room clean, like ever, I 0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:41.080 have five dogs. It's a little hard to keep my 0:37:41.120 --> 0:37:46.759 little room clean. But I just like I would like 0:37:46.840 --> 0:37:48.960 to play with him sometimes, you know, like play video 0:37:48.960 --> 0:37:52.880 games like I like, but it's always like, oh, I 0:37:52.920 --> 0:37:57.759 can't because I'm with the boys, and I've played with 0:37:57.880 --> 0:38:06.719 his brother's friends. My personality is very let's stay out there. 0:38:06.800 --> 0:38:09.520 So jo I just if I if I could error 0:38:09.520 --> 0:38:11.360 for just one second, I guess I want to ask you, like, 0:38:11.920 --> 0:38:13.920 if you could pin it to anything, what would you 0:38:13.960 --> 0:38:17.759 say would be like if there is anything? And and 0:38:17.960 --> 0:38:20.319 I guess I'm sensing that because you called there might 0:38:20.320 --> 0:38:23.239 be what would you say if if anything at all 0:38:23.480 --> 0:38:27.319 is like the main point of contention between you and 0:38:27.400 --> 0:38:33.160 this guy that maybe you wanted some perspective on if 0:38:33.160 --> 0:38:33.920 you had to narrow. 0:38:33.719 --> 0:38:37.000 It down with you And why can't you come over, 0:38:37.400 --> 0:38:41.319 like when it's like an emotional thing, like he's like 0:38:41.480 --> 0:38:43.800 emotionally unavailable sometimes. 0:38:43.440 --> 0:38:46.720 Like do you feel like he's not giving you is enough? Attention, 0:38:46.920 --> 0:38:49.440 that that that you that you want out of the relationship. 0:38:51.800 --> 0:38:56.320 Sometimes yeah, genuinely, Like if I felt like in distress 0:38:56.320 --> 0:38:59.640 and I just feel like he wouldn't be here, you know, 0:39:00.480 --> 0:39:02.520 and then if I want to spend time with him 0:39:02.520 --> 0:39:05.320 and his friends, like it'll just never happen. 0:39:06.280 --> 0:39:10.640 There's a lot of distance between you guys. Do you 0:39:11.320 --> 0:39:13.239 do you tell him that are you honest about that. 0:39:14.920 --> 0:39:20.879 I have? And with the friend thing I've told him, Like, 0:39:20.960 --> 0:39:25.480 I just like, it's just it's just like your friends, Like, 0:39:25.600 --> 0:39:28.120 what's the worst thing that's going to happen, Like you 0:39:28.120 --> 0:39:30.560 think they're going to say something bad towards me because 0:39:32.160 --> 0:39:39.080 they aren't, let's say, pec his friends, they never have. 0:39:39.440 --> 0:39:43.440 They aren't very accepting of like people like me. So 0:39:44.320 --> 0:39:48.640 like I think that's maybe what he's scared about. But 0:39:48.719 --> 0:39:52.080 then sometimes he said it's something else, like I'm not 0:39:52.280 --> 0:39:55.440 sure what it is, but I just kind of want 0:39:55.480 --> 0:40:00.160 to be able to play with him, and I don't. 0:40:00.040 --> 0:40:03.760 Would I guess, I guess, I guess Joe. I would? 0:40:03.760 --> 0:40:06.680 I would I would say this, are you I mean 0:40:07.320 --> 0:40:11.320 to Joe? To Doe's point, were you being honest with him? 0:40:11.760 --> 0:40:15.520 And are you getting what you want out of uh, 0:40:16.480 --> 0:40:18.560 you know, is this expression. 0:40:18.600 --> 0:40:20.960 Is there any progress being made when you guys speak 0:40:21.000 --> 0:40:24.480 about your your issues? Does is he willing to change 0:40:24.880 --> 0:40:29.440 things about his situation in order to make you happy 0:40:30.160 --> 0:40:32.960 or better the relationship or benefit it in any way? 0:40:34.880 --> 0:40:37.520 He has made a lot of progress. Yeah, he was 0:40:37.560 --> 0:40:44.280 never out and somewhat out now. I think that's complete 0:40:44.280 --> 0:40:49.040 progress coming from like a very conservative family, very very conservative. 0:40:49.280 --> 0:40:52.440 So he's willing to he's willing to make leaps for you. 0:40:53.280 --> 0:40:55.240 Yeah, Okay, it's. 0:40:55.120 --> 0:40:57.640 Great, that's good. I think that that's all that kind 0:40:57.680 --> 0:41:01.279 of matters, right when somebody is willing to work. I 0:41:01.320 --> 0:41:05.600 think that a relationship is a it's a two way street, 0:41:05.640 --> 0:41:10.040 and it's a lot about you know, working on you know, 0:41:11.040 --> 0:41:15.480 on uh being together and uh, most of the time 0:41:15.520 --> 0:41:20.400 it's not work because you love being together. But yeah, 0:41:20.760 --> 0:41:24.520 there should be a mutual respect of each other's feelings. 0:41:24.560 --> 0:41:28.399 And as long as he's meeting the needs that you have, 0:41:29.640 --> 0:41:33.640 then I think you know it's worth continuing. 0:41:35.640 --> 0:41:41.200 Definitely, definitely, Joe, Is there is there anything else that 0:41:41.239 --> 0:41:43.040 you want to say to the people of the computer 0:41:43.239 --> 0:41:46.080 or anything at all that you want to mention about 0:41:46.080 --> 0:41:46.960 this before we go. 0:41:49.120 --> 0:41:52.440 Something off topic? My friend wanted to wanted me to 0:41:52.480 --> 0:41:54.719 say something that doja cat, she said, ask her to 0:41:54.760 --> 0:41:57.200 Readmaster's suckered Punch. I don't know what that means, but. 0:41:59.160 --> 0:42:00.480 Mastered punch. 0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:03.040 They want me to remaster a song that I'm never 0:42:03.080 --> 0:42:03.719 gonna put out. 0:42:03.960 --> 0:42:07.719 Oh yeah, that's it. 0:42:08.120 --> 0:42:09.439 I just want to do that for my best friend. 0:42:09.520 --> 0:42:11.840 But okay, Teller, I said, take it easy. 0:42:12.440 --> 0:42:14.640 Thank you, Joe, Thank you so much. 0:42:15.520 --> 0:42:17.680 I love you guys, and I love like your work. 0:42:18.120 --> 0:42:21.680 And you guys really make me laugh a lot. 0:42:22.080 --> 0:42:23.640 Have a good night, dude, Thank you for that. 0:42:24.200 --> 0:42:24.560 You too. 0:42:29.480 --> 0:42:32.160 What was the song called again, sucker Punch said, an 0:42:32.200 --> 0:42:37.200 old one, Yeah, very old, maybe like four five years 0:42:37.480 --> 0:42:38.680 maybe even six years old. 0:42:38.760 --> 0:42:40.440 Did you look at the past a lot or do 0:42:40.520 --> 0:42:47.120 you like to stay present? I just jen and I 0:42:47.120 --> 0:42:48.120 even musically. 0:42:48.040 --> 0:42:54.680 Sometimes I revisit the past. Uh yeah, I leave a 0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:57.400 lot of things behind, though I know how to forget 0:42:57.440 --> 0:43:00.520 about things. I know how to just close things out. 0:43:01.320 --> 0:43:08.359 I'm very good at that. Yeah, but I don't know. 0:43:08.920 --> 0:43:13.520 You know what do you not even music? Just in general? 0:43:13.600 --> 0:43:15.840 What are you the most excited about for the future? 0:43:16.760 --> 0:43:20.080 What am I most excited about for the future? Uh? 0:43:20.840 --> 0:43:21.160 Uh? 0:43:23.200 --> 0:43:30.719 Expanding my brain musically and trying things that I'm not used. 0:43:30.520 --> 0:43:32.760 To, and. 0:43:33.920 --> 0:43:37.880 Uh, going to jazz clubs. 0:43:39.440 --> 0:43:41.359 I've been trying to go to a I just moved 0:43:41.360 --> 0:43:43.799 to New York and I know they have like all 0:43:43.840 --> 0:43:45.919 these jazz clubs at some point. 0:43:46.200 --> 0:43:50.880 Yeah, God, New York has really good bar culture and 0:43:51.080 --> 0:43:54.160 jazz culture and just art culture. 0:43:54.200 --> 0:43:57.719 I think in general, do you, I'm like, do you? 0:43:58.239 --> 0:44:00.879 Is it hard for you to like go out and 0:44:00.960 --> 0:44:03.360 like bar hop and do all these things just because 0:44:03.440 --> 0:44:08.600 like of who you are? Uh? 0:44:08.680 --> 0:44:11.640 Yeah, sometimes it is. Sometimes I'm very very paranoid. I 0:44:11.719 --> 0:44:16.640 am generally just very very very paranoid about stuff because 0:44:16.640 --> 0:44:20.120 of what I do. And but you know, I make 0:44:20.160 --> 0:44:24.760 it work. I think also just even if I wasn't famous, 0:44:24.840 --> 0:44:26.400 it would still suck sometimes. 0:44:26.600 --> 0:44:29.960 Really, what do you think? Like how what do you well? 0:44:30.000 --> 0:44:30.160 There? 0:44:30.840 --> 0:44:35.640 There's like there's like creepy like men and like I 0:44:36.080 --> 0:44:39.560 I my like ass hangs out when I go to 0:44:39.640 --> 0:44:42.040 the club or I go to the bar, like I'm 0:44:42.080 --> 0:44:48.719 always wearing something very sexy, like I dress crazy. But 0:44:49.000 --> 0:44:51.960 you know, there's like stuff then people people react in 0:44:52.040 --> 0:44:55.040 certain ways and like you know, guys are just like drunk, 0:44:55.160 --> 0:45:00.880 Like drunk people are awful, you know. I just like, I, yeah, 0:45:02.680 --> 0:45:05.080 people react to the way that I am, men react 0:45:05.120 --> 0:45:07.040 to the way that I dress. That's fine, It's like 0:45:07.160 --> 0:45:13.440 it's gonna happen. But like, dude, drunk, drunk men and 0:45:13.520 --> 0:45:17.200 drunk women. I think honestly, drunk everybody really is not 0:45:17.480 --> 0:45:18.759 a vibe most of the. 0:45:18.719 --> 0:45:22.759 Time, even when you yourself are drunk. 0:45:22.600 --> 0:45:27.799 Like drunk strangers, Like, I'm fine, but it's like strangers 0:45:27.840 --> 0:45:31.320 who are like trying to talk about their astrology signs 0:45:31.400 --> 0:45:34.879 and stuff. There's already happened. That just happened to me. 0:45:36.400 --> 0:45:36.960 This conversation. 0:45:37.120 --> 0:45:39.759 Some woman came up to our table and was like, 0:45:40.600 --> 0:45:43.640 you all for like, okay, to be fair, this was 0:45:43.719 --> 0:45:46.920 like very nice what she was saying and positive, but like, 0:45:47.120 --> 0:45:50.280 don't do this. She like came up to the table 0:45:50.400 --> 0:45:52.080 and was like, I. 0:45:52.040 --> 0:45:54.920 Just want to let you guys know that you are 0:45:55.040 --> 0:46:00.359 also loved and you're also special and some when out 0:46:00.360 --> 0:46:03.360 there loves you and you're incredible. 0:46:03.960 --> 0:46:07.680 I'm a cancer. So I just like I get like 0:46:07.800 --> 0:46:10.759 this and I just can't help myself, Like and I'm 0:46:10.800 --> 0:46:13.720 sitting there looking at her like like I don't exist. 0:46:13.880 --> 0:46:17.000 I'm I'm watching her like she's like a screen, like 0:46:17.040 --> 0:46:19.520 a thing on a screen. I can't believe that. Like 0:46:20.640 --> 0:46:23.040 some people just get to that point and it's it's 0:46:23.120 --> 0:46:23.720 you know whatever. 0:46:24.200 --> 0:46:26.319 She sounded like she was on Molly. 0:46:26.800 --> 0:46:28.160 Yeah, could have been, could have been some. 0:46:28.120 --> 0:46:31.960 Mall like I do. I something like that would be 0:46:32.040 --> 0:46:36.600 hard for me because like I typically like if any 0:46:36.719 --> 0:46:40.000 stranger talks to me, like I have a lot of 0:46:40.080 --> 0:46:43.880 respects for people who are willing to approach strangers and 0:46:44.000 --> 0:46:46.160 talk to them. It's like, if someone ever does that 0:46:46.200 --> 0:46:49.640 to me, I want to like reward it by by 0:46:49.920 --> 0:46:54.440 being like, oh, yes, of course and yeah, but but 0:46:54.880 --> 0:46:57.000 that does that does sound extremely intense. 0:46:57.080 --> 0:46:59.560 I think I'm quite closed off. So I think when 0:46:59.560 --> 0:47:03.560 that stuff happens, it's just like stop it. 0:47:05.000 --> 0:47:07.080 You know, are you into astrology at all? 0:47:07.120 --> 0:47:10.520 Or I'm really like I'm I get it, Like I know, 0:47:10.640 --> 0:47:14.040 I understand the signs. I understand because my mom's really 0:47:14.080 --> 0:47:17.040 really into it, so I just can deep dive into 0:47:17.080 --> 0:47:19.799 like different signs and stuff. But I don't. I don't 0:47:19.880 --> 0:47:20.320 like it. 0:47:20.400 --> 0:47:22.960 I have Okay, here's my take on astrology. I'm curious 0:47:22.960 --> 0:47:24.879 when you think about this, I don't I think there's 0:47:25.000 --> 0:47:28.080 like I don't like the idea that somebody's like, oh, 0:47:28.239 --> 0:47:30.680 I am this sign, and so they go to a 0:47:30.719 --> 0:47:33.880 website and they read like, because you're the sign, you 0:47:33.960 --> 0:47:39.040 are like this, like because you're a Gemini, you get 0:47:39.120 --> 0:47:42.759 emotional easy or something. And then they take that and 0:47:42.800 --> 0:47:45.440 then it just becomes like a self fulfilling prophecy. They 0:47:45.480 --> 0:47:46.680 have to they have. 0:47:46.680 --> 0:47:49.360 To live by it, and so it. 0:47:48.680 --> 0:47:53.440 Causes all this like unnecessary negative personality. 0:47:54.000 --> 0:47:57.359 Some people. You can you can abuse astrology. You can 0:47:57.719 --> 0:48:03.840 you can abuse like pseudo science absolutely, just like anything 0:48:03.920 --> 0:48:10.560 that is kind of a vice. Uh you know, it's yeah, man, 0:48:11.840 --> 0:48:15.640 I I like talking about it. And I actually have 0:48:15.680 --> 0:48:18.600 a friend who's really good at readings, like doing readings. 0:48:18.920 --> 0:48:22.200 He's like fantastic. You like give him your your date 0:48:22.239 --> 0:48:24.840 of birth and then like your time, your time of 0:48:24.880 --> 0:48:28.600 birth and like all this like specific information about you, 0:48:28.640 --> 0:48:31.000 like where you were born and blah blah blah, and 0:48:31.040 --> 0:48:37.719 he'll like he'll just unust. Yeah, can I unwrap? He 0:48:37.840 --> 0:48:41.680 said that. Right now. My life is all about kind 0:48:41.680 --> 0:48:44.239 of pleasure and just kind of just going for it 0:48:44.440 --> 0:48:46.960 and just like doing the thing, even if it's like 0:48:47.120 --> 0:48:50.879 kind of dumb, enjoy it and like lean into it. 0:48:52.920 --> 0:48:57.880 Don't be ashamed there's like a massive like Saturn return 0:48:58.120 --> 0:49:02.960 situation happening for me, and that like that's supposed to. 0:49:04.440 --> 0:49:04.520 It. 0:49:04.760 --> 0:49:07.160 There's a time in my life that's happening right now 0:49:07.800 --> 0:49:09.880 for there's a couple signs that are going through it 0:49:09.960 --> 0:49:13.440 right now. But it's it's almost like the planets are 0:49:13.480 --> 0:49:17.799 asking you, do you really want this? This is what 0:49:17.840 --> 0:49:20.960 you asked for? Here it is? Do you actually want this? 0:49:21.280 --> 0:49:24.279 Is this really the life that you want to lead 0:49:24.360 --> 0:49:28.480 for forever? And it's so it's like it's crazy when 0:49:28.520 --> 0:49:30.640 he said that, because I've been going through like all 0:49:30.680 --> 0:49:36.640 this crazy fucking just like, oh my god, dude, Like 0:49:37.560 --> 0:49:39.840 I don't know, it's just yeah, it's been a wild 0:49:39.920 --> 0:49:45.319 year publicly, you know. So I think it's a little 0:49:45.400 --> 0:49:49.120 poetic and cool and interesting, and you know, sometimes I 0:49:49.160 --> 0:49:51.040 ask him for a reading because. 0:49:50.760 --> 0:49:53.680 Of that, I'm curious And you might not have an 0:49:53.680 --> 0:49:55.399 answer or have an answer that you want to share, 0:49:55.520 --> 0:50:00.360 but when faced with the planets are giving you this 0:50:00.600 --> 0:50:02.840 is this what you really really wanted? Like when he 0:50:02.920 --> 0:50:05.520 said that to you, did you have an answer? 0:50:08.480 --> 0:50:11.160 Like if somebody asked me, is this what you really want? 0:50:11.239 --> 0:50:12.239 What's my answer to that? 0:50:12.440 --> 0:50:14.840 Yeah? 0:50:15.360 --> 0:50:19.480 No, probably not really This is probably not what I want. Really, 0:50:20.080 --> 0:50:23.719 it's what I wanted. Really, it's what I used to want. 0:50:24.280 --> 0:50:27.080 It's what I think I needed to be in a 0:50:27.120 --> 0:50:29.800 safe place. I needed to get the fuck out of 0:50:29.840 --> 0:50:32.960 whatever situation I was in. And now that I have 0:50:33.080 --> 0:50:37.480 this freedom, I have a I have this like physical 0:50:37.520 --> 0:50:41.160 freedom and physical autonomy, and now I'm more in like 0:50:41.239 --> 0:50:44.840 the like the mental autonomy of it all, like like 0:50:45.320 --> 0:50:48.920 taking back my power and kind of doing what I 0:50:49.080 --> 0:50:53.879 want to do creatively, regardless of like this very uh 0:50:54.800 --> 0:51:01.080 marketable thing that I've created. I'm kind of tearing it 0:51:01.120 --> 0:51:01.640 all down. 0:51:02.000 --> 0:51:04.880 But like I mean, that's the thing is if if 0:51:04.960 --> 0:51:09.200 you were to be uh beholden to it, you know, 0:51:09.239 --> 0:51:11.160 it doesn't matter if it was like the most marketable, 0:51:11.280 --> 0:51:13.360 successful thing ever, you'd just be fucking miserable. 0:51:13.680 --> 0:51:17.240 Yeah exactly. I'd be doing the same thing every single day. Yeah, 0:51:17.520 --> 0:51:20.040 And I cannot do that. I just can't. 0:51:20.160 --> 0:51:21.759 And like, and like I said, I think the cool 0:51:21.760 --> 0:51:23.000 I think the coolest thing about you is that you 0:51:23.000 --> 0:51:24.080 always seem like you're having fun. 0:51:24.440 --> 0:51:28.480 Yeah. Fuck it rock and roll. That's honestly, that's what I. 0:51:27.960 --> 0:51:29.839 Fuck it, rock and roll, fuck it rock and roll. 0:51:29.880 --> 0:51:33.879 Fuck it, rock and roll. So I've Yeah, I've been 0:51:33.920 --> 0:51:36.560 having a lot of fun creatively. I've been painting a 0:51:36.560 --> 0:51:39.319 lot more. I'm like, yeah, it's nice. 0:51:39.400 --> 0:51:41.120 Yeah, I see you're painting a I see you on 0:51:41.360 --> 0:51:42.640 Instagram all the time painting a wall. 0:51:42.760 --> 0:51:44.400 No, I painted, and people said, I look like an 0:51:44.440 --> 0:51:46.880 old grandma with fat ankles. 0:51:47.880 --> 0:51:48.839 You want to take another call? 0:51:49.320 --> 0:51:53.440 Yeah, that's who we got, fat ankle. 0:51:54.840 --> 0:51:55.120 Hello. 0:51:55.280 --> 0:51:57.120 I heard myself say, fat ankles. 0:51:57.200 --> 0:51:57.560 Hello. 0:51:58.280 --> 0:51:59.919 How are you? 0:52:00.640 --> 0:52:01.160 I'm good. 0:52:01.160 --> 0:52:06.160 How are you hanging in there? What's uh? What's going on, Lauren? 0:52:06.840 --> 0:52:07.520 How's life? 0:52:08.080 --> 0:52:11.000 Uh not, it's pretty good. 0:52:11.920 --> 0:52:13.320 How's y'all's life going? 0:52:15.840 --> 0:52:27.879 Skip? Nick Man. We're trying to talk about things, We're 0:52:27.880 --> 0:52:29.279 trying to solve problems. 0:52:29.719 --> 0:52:31.200 Eddie. 0:52:31.719 --> 0:52:32.080 What's that. 0:52:33.800 --> 0:52:35.680 Eddie? 0:52:35.320 --> 0:52:35.440 Hi? 0:52:36.000 --> 0:52:39.880 Hi Eddie. It says here that you have an intense 0:52:40.000 --> 0:52:40.960 fear of death. 0:52:41.640 --> 0:52:49.000 Oh no, yes, yes, it is. It's it's really oh god, 0:52:50.040 --> 0:52:57.480 it's intends to to a certain degree. For example, I 0:52:58.239 --> 0:53:00.279 you know, fear of death is an every one. I 0:53:00.280 --> 0:53:01.920 don't know if y'all feel the same way I do, 0:53:02.000 --> 0:53:06.400 But like for me, it's just been like every little 0:53:06.400 --> 0:53:10.200 thing I do is just oh, this is so cool 0:53:10.239 --> 0:53:13.080 in the moment, But then I I for some reason, 0:53:13.120 --> 0:53:15.680 I just flash to, oh what if I can't do 0:53:15.680 --> 0:53:18.400 this anymore? And like so insole amount of time, and 0:53:18.760 --> 0:53:20.920 but I don't know if I if I'm making any sense. 0:53:21.200 --> 0:53:30.560 It sounds dumb, but like I feel like i'm it's just. 0:53:30.480 --> 0:53:34.480 Like, yeah, go ahead, what's your no. 0:53:34.560 --> 0:53:37.680 I think it's fine, don't I continue? 0:53:37.920 --> 0:53:43.080 But I'm just validating, all right, than I appreciate it, 0:53:43.239 --> 0:53:47.719 but like I don't know, I shit, but like I'm 0:53:47.719 --> 0:53:48.720 trying to formulate words. 0:53:48.719 --> 0:53:52.920 So I A good example is like I sit in bed, 0:53:53.239 --> 0:53:56.000 let's say three in the morning, four in the morning, 0:53:56.040 --> 0:53:59.279 rolls around, and first thought that comes to mind is 0:53:59.280 --> 0:54:03.240 me dying, and then like, oh shit, like it settles 0:54:03.239 --> 0:54:05.359 in it's going to happen something. Of course, I'm far 0:54:05.400 --> 0:54:06.920 away from it right now, by the way, I'm like 0:54:06.960 --> 0:54:11.200 barely bad at her nineteen, Like I'm far away from 0:54:11.200 --> 0:54:15.200 that time coming. But still it's like a very like 0:54:15.239 --> 0:54:19.240 a very valid thing that like I just can't stop 0:54:19.320 --> 0:54:21.719 thinking about it, can't stop thinking about it always comes 0:54:21.719 --> 0:54:22.440 in to her patients. 0:54:23.080 --> 0:54:25.520 Is it of old age, is it of natural causes? 0:54:25.640 --> 0:54:28.560 Or is it of an immediate thing that's like happening 0:54:28.800 --> 0:54:32.239 in the room, Or is it a you just think 0:54:32.280 --> 0:54:36.080 of do you think of like something falling on you, 0:54:36.120 --> 0:54:39.400 for example, or like is it where does that the 0:54:39.440 --> 0:54:41.760 fear stem from? 0:54:41.920 --> 0:54:46.480 So it just comes So I there is a one 0:54:46.480 --> 0:54:49.880 of the fears that this fear comes from. My grandma 0:54:49.920 --> 0:54:52.879 basically got into dementia and like dying really really young, 0:54:53.040 --> 0:54:55.600 like I say really really because like she died in 0:54:55.640 --> 0:54:57.319 her fifties, and like. 0:54:59.040 --> 0:54:59.399 It runs. 0:54:59.440 --> 0:55:01.400 It's a thing that into the family, like her sister's 0:55:01.440 --> 0:55:07.000 like has it really really bad? And I'm afraid of 0:55:07.120 --> 0:55:09.680 me getting that. I'm afraid more of my mom getting 0:55:09.719 --> 0:55:11.640 it because you know, she's like the she's like the 0:55:11.800 --> 0:55:15.080 direct descendant of my grandma and stuff like. That's but 0:55:15.200 --> 0:55:17.200 that's where that fear sprawled out of. Like first it 0:55:17.280 --> 0:55:20.680 started off with mental you know, decline. Then it moved 0:55:20.680 --> 0:55:24.840 on to death itself, and then my own like the 0:55:24.880 --> 0:55:27.800 thought of my own death then sparked the question like 0:55:28.960 --> 0:55:31.520 hit fuck my dad getting old as hell? 0:55:32.120 --> 0:55:34.120 What do I do about that? Hit fucked? 0:55:34.480 --> 0:55:38.840 My sister probably will outlive us, like and then and 0:55:38.880 --> 0:55:43.200 then I just like yeah, and I want to say 0:55:43.320 --> 0:55:47.000 and I want to say that it started like it 0:55:47.120 --> 0:55:48.960 probably started for then in twenty twenty because it's like 0:55:49.120 --> 0:55:54.560 just a shit year, like twenty twenty. I was convinced 0:55:54.600 --> 0:55:58.120 for the longest time made twenty fifth, Made twenty fifth 0:55:58.160 --> 0:56:01.239 exactly we were gonna hit by an asteroid and we're 0:56:01.239 --> 0:56:04.080 all gonna die. Come make in twenty fifth no one 0:56:04.120 --> 0:56:07.839 died and just the thought of dying, like Okay, yay, 0:56:08.440 --> 0:56:13.200 no lasteroid. But you know, I'm gonna die still. I'm 0:56:13.200 --> 0:56:13.759 gonna die still. 0:56:13.880 --> 0:56:17.560 I'm gonna die still something constantly. 0:56:18.120 --> 0:56:24.120 Yeah, it's Penny. And I've been trying to, like I've 0:56:24.120 --> 0:56:26.160 been trying to get into therapy and stuff. I've been 0:56:26.160 --> 0:56:29.320 trying to, you know, like make appointments and stuff to 0:56:29.800 --> 0:56:34.680 talk with someone about it. But like I'll be honest 0:56:34.719 --> 0:56:37.759 with y'all, I'm in college right now, twenty thousand dollars 0:56:37.800 --> 0:56:40.480 in debt freshman year. I don't got time for anything, 0:56:40.719 --> 0:56:43.000 like and if I do got time for anything, I 0:56:43.400 --> 0:56:47.040 just I use what I can to sleep because God 0:56:47.600 --> 0:56:53.880 working a job to this book an economy. Yeah, so 0:56:53.880 --> 0:56:57.160 so like I really just I try to pull myself 0:56:57.200 --> 0:57:00.440 out of that hole, like I try to strap myself 0:57:00.480 --> 0:57:04.319 with any little thing that there is, but I will 0:57:04.400 --> 0:57:08.680 always end up coming back to fuck. I'm gonna die. 0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:12.240 Yeah, you're working to support yourself in order to support yourself. 0:57:12.800 --> 0:57:16.360 You're you're working to support to support yourself enough to 0:57:17.240 --> 0:57:22.040 afford therapy and to even begin to Yeah, it's it's 0:57:22.440 --> 0:57:29.640 the battle of the monetary and the physical that health 0:57:29.720 --> 0:57:31.400 the body, Like what you need to do to take 0:57:31.400 --> 0:57:32.200 care of yourself. 0:57:33.800 --> 0:57:34.200 Yeah. 0:57:34.760 --> 0:57:37.800 Yeah, I don't know how you guys feel, but I 0:57:37.800 --> 0:57:41.360 think the cool thing about dying is that it happens. 0:57:41.400 --> 0:57:44.640 It's like this unifying thing that happens to everyone, Like 0:57:44.760 --> 0:57:47.560 nobody's above it. You know, it would be way worse. 0:57:48.120 --> 0:57:51.960 You know what's way worse than dying living forever. That 0:57:52.000 --> 0:57:52.880 would be horrible. 0:57:52.960 --> 0:57:54.520 It would It would fucking suck. 0:57:54.600 --> 0:57:56.080 It would suck so bad. 0:57:56.040 --> 0:57:58.000 It would be so shit. Imagine that. 0:57:59.160 --> 0:58:00.800 Think about think, yeah, I. 0:58:02.320 --> 0:58:05.680 I forever, you know, as a little as a little 0:58:05.800 --> 0:58:08.360 kid like and it's gonna sound cliche as fuck, but 0:58:08.560 --> 0:58:11.120 as a little kid, like, you know, one thinks they're 0:58:11.120 --> 0:58:13.320 gonna live forever. One thinks nothing's gonna kill him, like, 0:58:13.480 --> 0:58:16.120 believe me, Like that thought of like immortality as a 0:58:16.240 --> 0:58:19.800 kid was like, oh like nothing, like I'm invincible and stuff. 0:58:20.120 --> 0:58:24.600 Now like as a you know, maturing adult, like I 0:58:24.640 --> 0:58:27.760 don't believe me. I don't want to be Like, as 0:58:27.840 --> 0:58:30.640 much as I'm afraid of dying, I wouldn't want to 0:58:30.680 --> 0:58:33.480 stay alive after it to see that friends die. 0:58:33.840 --> 0:58:36.280 That's what you should do, is you should if you 0:58:36.280 --> 0:58:39.400 you see, you should replace this fear with the fear 0:58:39.440 --> 0:58:45.120 of living forever, and then you can satiate your new 0:58:45.160 --> 0:58:48.200 fear with your old one, which is, oh, thank god, 0:58:48.240 --> 0:58:53.880 I'm gonna die, and it becomes a meditative good thing. Yeah, 0:58:54.800 --> 0:58:57.439 are you afraid of at all? How do you feel 0:58:57.440 --> 0:58:59.200 about your mortality to. 0:58:59.200 --> 0:59:02.320 An extent, Yeah, because I know that, like I couldn't 0:59:02.360 --> 0:59:04.600 defend myself in a specific situation. 0:59:05.120 --> 0:59:08.920 I'm talking mainly about like the inevitability, not likevitability. Yeah, 0:59:09.000 --> 0:59:10.440 not like, oh I'm going to get murdered. 0:59:10.520 --> 0:59:12.560 No, I don't think that I am. I think I 0:59:12.680 --> 0:59:19.720 just yeah, yeah, I don't think I am. 0:59:19.880 --> 0:59:21.200 I hope you don't die anytime soon. 0:59:22.680 --> 0:59:25.480 I oh, yeah, I'm I don't think you. 0:59:25.560 --> 0:59:26.400 I don't think you will. 0:59:29.000 --> 0:59:31.240 Saying that that is kind of saying that's kind of 0:59:31.280 --> 0:59:32.320 like jinxing it a little bit. 0:59:32.520 --> 0:59:33.320 Yeah, I don't know. 0:59:34.600 --> 0:59:36.840 That would suck if you just died. 0:59:37.320 --> 0:59:39.200 I think I'm half of a forty ounce in me, 0:59:39.280 --> 0:59:41.160 So don't maybe take what I say with a grain 0:59:41.200 --> 0:59:43.760 of salt. 0:59:44.400 --> 0:59:46.000 Eddie, how do you before we go, how do you 0:59:46.000 --> 0:59:48.120 want to die? Like if you could pick anything? 0:59:49.680 --> 0:59:53.120 Okay, well, I've thought there has been a few ways 0:59:53.360 --> 0:59:55.960 of me dying. I if I don't die in my sleep, 0:59:56.520 --> 0:59:59.560 I want to just be killed fat, like quickly, like 0:59:59.720 --> 1:00:02.360 so I quick and painless as painless as can be, 1:00:02.360 --> 1:00:04.080 because I don't I don't want to feel shit when 1:00:04.080 --> 1:00:10.480 I die. Get that, and you know, or let's you know, 1:00:10.560 --> 1:00:13.480 let's see in what course this country takes, Like you know, 1:00:14.320 --> 1:00:16.600 let's say they legalize youth in Asia. Like if I'm 1:00:16.640 --> 1:00:20.680 like in a really bad condition, like i'd i'd rather 1:00:20.800 --> 1:00:24.000 go out like literally getting euthanized, And it sounds like 1:00:24.240 --> 1:00:28.080 it sounds barbaric, it sounds like whatever, But like I 1:00:28.080 --> 1:00:30.600 I wouldn't want to, like if I'm in a state 1:00:30.600 --> 1:00:32.840 of suffering, and like I'm asking all this too, I 1:00:33.000 --> 1:00:34.680 like as a question, like if you're in a state 1:00:34.680 --> 1:00:37.920 of suffering, you really think it's like ethical for you 1:00:37.960 --> 1:00:40.640 to hang around longer? Like you know what I'm saying, Like. 1:00:41.000 --> 1:00:43.760 I think you should put across, Like I think you 1:00:43.760 --> 1:00:47.200 should play some Tetris. Man, I think you need something. 1:00:46.920 --> 1:00:49.240 That just gets your digits. 1:00:49.400 --> 1:00:52.840 Yeah, just something that fully just gets you out of you. 1:00:52.880 --> 1:00:55.440 But you're thinking too much. Yeah, you think way too much. 1:00:55.800 --> 1:00:59.440 To stimulate, to just keep stimulating your brain with just 1:00:59.480 --> 1:01:04.200 like shit, like play something, play, play a game, play 1:01:04.240 --> 1:01:04.760 some games. 1:01:04.920 --> 1:01:07.560 Video games really are a great way to forget about death. 1:01:09.840 --> 1:01:16.040 Thank you for calling Eddie. Any final words, Uh, yeah, 1:01:16.720 --> 1:01:17.280 you're awesome. 1:01:17.480 --> 1:01:21.360 Those are You're fucking amazing. And thank you the show. 1:01:21.960 --> 1:01:24.840 I'm glad I got to talk with Thanks, ma'am. 1:01:25.320 --> 1:01:32.080 Take care Eddie. You there really is like that's all 1:01:32.120 --> 1:01:34.320 I'm looking for, man, that's all I want. That's all. 1:01:34.360 --> 1:01:36.320 That's all I want is just to be just to 1:01:36.440 --> 1:01:39.800 be in the moment, to not be with my fucking thoughts. 1:01:39.840 --> 1:01:41.800 Because when you're depressed, you're thinking about the past and 1:01:41.840 --> 1:01:43.840 possible the future, when you're anxious, thinking about the future, 1:01:43.840 --> 1:01:48.400 But when you're just playing Tetris and getting drunk, you're right, 1:01:48.440 --> 1:01:51.200 you're there, you know you don't you don't. You're not 1:01:51.200 --> 1:01:53.840 afraid of death at all. You're like, you've accepted it. 1:01:54.320 --> 1:01:55.680 Yeah, I think I've accepted it. 1:01:55.760 --> 1:01:57.960 How would you if somebody if you got diagnosed with 1:01:58.000 --> 1:01:59.400 like a terminal thing and it was like you have 1:01:59.400 --> 1:02:00.840 a week would be like I'd be. 1:02:00.760 --> 1:02:02.640 Like, oh, let me prep my brain for this. I 1:02:02.680 --> 1:02:04.400 would be like, yeah, I mean fuck it, Like what 1:02:04.440 --> 1:02:08.080 am I gonna do? Let me like do something. I Like, 1:02:09.320 --> 1:02:11.000 I'd be like, what's a fun thing I can do 1:02:11.120 --> 1:02:17.200 right now? Like, hey, this sucks, but like what's a 1:02:17.480 --> 1:02:21.640 what's a cool cool thing to get into while this sucks? 1:02:21.800 --> 1:02:22.720 A death hobby? 1:02:23.520 --> 1:02:26.120 Yeah, death rally hobby, death rally hobby? 1:02:26.200 --> 1:02:28.600 Like I'm trying to think of something. Well, I assume 1:02:28.640 --> 1:02:31.560 a death rally hobby would be something dangerous? Would it? 1:02:32.760 --> 1:02:33.560 Oh my god? 1:02:33.640 --> 1:02:35.919 It will uh breaking bad? 1:02:36.320 --> 1:02:40.160 Kind of yeah? No, selling math just as a hobby. 1:02:40.120 --> 1:02:44.920 Yeah no, not for me. But you know I think 1:02:44.960 --> 1:02:48.160 I would just like, uh yeah I would. I would 1:02:48.240 --> 1:02:51.040 just be creative as I can in that in that time? 1:02:51.760 --> 1:02:56.560 Are you tis? The concept of legacy? Is that a 1:02:56.600 --> 1:02:58.480 thing that you think about or do you think about? 1:02:58.520 --> 1:02:59.439 Like not at all? 1:02:59.600 --> 1:03:01.720 It's good, Not at all, that's good. 1:03:02.040 --> 1:03:03.479 Like I don't want kids ever? 1:03:03.840 --> 1:03:05.400 Really no never? 1:03:05.880 --> 1:03:11.480 Yeah no really because the thing about life is when 1:03:11.560 --> 1:03:15.200 you have kids, like you're gonna destroy them, like you're 1:03:15.200 --> 1:03:17.800 gonna ship Yeah, you're gonna fuck them up, like there's 1:03:17.800 --> 1:03:20.320 you don't have a choice. So I just I don't 1:03:20.320 --> 1:03:21.880 feel like fucking anybody up. 1:03:23.440 --> 1:03:25.360 I don't know, dude, it's a lot of responsibility. 1:03:25.480 --> 1:03:27.760 Yeah, no judgment towards people who have kids. It's just 1:03:27.800 --> 1:03:31.360 like that. Don't want to do that. 1:03:32.480 --> 1:03:36.240 Do you ever fantasize about domesticated life? Just like, like, 1:03:36.320 --> 1:03:38.480 are you like I want a ranch in Wyoming? 1:03:38.520 --> 1:03:38.640 Oh? 1:03:38.680 --> 1:03:40.920 Yeah, I want like dogs? 1:03:41.200 --> 1:03:43.680 Yeah yeah, hard to fuck up dogs? 1:03:44.080 --> 1:03:47.440 Yeah? I want dogs. I want to be responsible enough 1:03:47.480 --> 1:03:50.400 to take care of dogs. I like animals, Like, if 1:03:50.400 --> 1:03:54.760 I'm gonna have kids, they're just gonna be like hairy animals. 1:03:55.960 --> 1:04:02.520 Four legged, quadrut pedal. What's the four four legs on, 1:04:02.600 --> 1:04:10.840 four legs, quadruped quadrupedal, quadrupedal Q Yeah, quadrupedal puppies is 1:04:10.840 --> 1:04:11.480 what I would have. 1:04:13.200 --> 1:04:15.840 Is there a breed of dog that you're particularly interested in? 1:04:16.040 --> 1:04:19.920 I really like Scottie dogs, and I like anything that 1:04:20.120 --> 1:04:28.280 just can't kill me. So I had before I readopted 1:04:28.560 --> 1:04:32.040 my dog to my one of my best friends, I 1:04:32.080 --> 1:04:35.640 had a h what's his name or sorry, what is it? 1:04:35.640 --> 1:04:39.080 What is it called? It's called the American Bully. But 1:04:39.120 --> 1:04:41.200 I don't think that he was like pure bred. I 1:04:41.200 --> 1:04:43.160 think he had like a mixture of a couple of things. 1:04:44.200 --> 1:04:46.200 I don't know what the deal was over there with that. 1:04:46.480 --> 1:04:49.520 They didn't have really the right information. I don't think 1:04:50.160 --> 1:04:56.000 about his uh yeah, his mixture, but he was He's 1:04:56.200 --> 1:05:03.200 the perfect dog. He's like textbook gorgeo, just like perfect proportions, 1:05:03.280 --> 1:05:07.960 like beautiful, like best personality that I've ever seen in 1:05:08.040 --> 1:05:11.160 a dog. A little like jumpy, still in his puppy mode, 1:05:11.520 --> 1:05:14.080 but he has these moments where he sits there and 1:05:14.120 --> 1:05:17.320 he just looks into your eyes and he just like 1:05:17.880 --> 1:05:18.640 takes you in. 1:05:21.160 --> 1:05:23.000 Are you a cat person? 1:05:23.400 --> 1:05:25.960 I am a cat person. I have four cats. 1:05:26.160 --> 1:05:27.000 You have four cats. 1:05:27.040 --> 1:05:29.880 I have four cats. I have two babies, one sixteen 1:05:29.920 --> 1:05:30.520 year old. 1:05:30.520 --> 1:05:33.320 They come with you, and yet, uh no. 1:05:33.320 --> 1:05:35.960 They don't, because cats get stressed out and they like 1:05:36.000 --> 1:05:41.400 to be in one spot forever. They like routine. So 1:05:41.600 --> 1:05:44.080 I wouldn't do that to my babies. But I sometimes 1:05:44.120 --> 1:05:45.640 I do wish that I could bring them with me. 1:05:48.760 --> 1:05:51.600 Yeah, you know, I've always said that, Like the thing 1:05:51.640 --> 1:05:55.720 about kids is it's really the only thing, really, the 1:05:55.720 --> 1:06:01.880 only anything could happen to you, and you could figure 1:06:01.920 --> 1:06:06.520 out a way to deal with it except like grievous injury, death, 1:06:07.280 --> 1:06:10.760 going to prison, or having children. It's like the four 1:06:10.840 --> 1:06:13.480 things that like you can't you can't. 1:06:13.280 --> 1:06:15.520 Hustle your way out of Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1:06:15.400 --> 1:06:17.280 I mean you can, like it is fround up. I 1:06:17.320 --> 1:06:20.240 mean you can abandon your child, but that's that's frowned upon. 1:06:21.440 --> 1:06:23.720 That's not cool. Those are like the four permanent things. 1:06:23.760 --> 1:06:25.640 Anything else that you can quit your job, you can 1:06:25.640 --> 1:06:28.960 get divorced, you can do you have pets. I have 1:06:29.000 --> 1:06:33.720 a dog, but it's not my dog. It's like my 1:06:33.960 --> 1:06:38.080 family's dog. My dog. Wait, earlier, you said you had 1:06:38.120 --> 1:06:39.280 two questions for me. 1:06:39.480 --> 1:06:41.040 Oh, I do have two questions for you. 1:06:41.160 --> 1:06:42.240 What were your two questions? 1:06:44.600 --> 1:06:48.760 Is it is it still gay? If you come? And 1:06:51.520 --> 1:06:51.880 hold on? 1:06:51.920 --> 1:06:55.439 Wait before I want to think? Is is it still gay? 1:06:56.800 --> 1:06:59.120 Wouldn't wouldn't wouldn't it wouldn't it be? Is it still 1:06:59.120 --> 1:07:03.720 gay if you don't come? Because if you come, that 1:07:03.760 --> 1:07:05.040 would make it more gay? 1:07:05.880 --> 1:07:06.120 Is it? 1:07:06.800 --> 1:07:07.000 Oh? 1:07:07.040 --> 1:07:07.360 Sorry? 1:07:07.560 --> 1:07:13.520 Is it gay if you don't come? Is it still gay? 1:07:13.560 --> 1:07:14.400 If you don't come? 1:07:15.200 --> 1:07:16.320 Is it still wait? 1:07:16.760 --> 1:07:16.920 Are you? 1:07:17.200 --> 1:07:17.400 Are you? 1:07:17.640 --> 1:07:21.200 And I assume the context is gay sex? 1:07:21.400 --> 1:07:24.000 I wrote it correctly, and I don't remember how I 1:07:24.040 --> 1:07:24.440 wrote it. 1:07:24.760 --> 1:07:29.680 The question is is it gay? Is it still gay 1:07:29.720 --> 1:07:31.479 to have gay sex if you don't come? 1:07:31.760 --> 1:07:34.360 Yeah? 1:07:34.920 --> 1:07:37.400 Is it gay to have gay sex? If you don't come? 1:07:41.120 --> 1:07:42.560 Do you want to know what the other question was? 1:07:43.720 --> 1:07:44.040 Yes? 1:07:44.760 --> 1:07:47.480 Why isn't your face red if you're the mouth, If 1:07:47.520 --> 1:07:50.640 it's the mouth, like your face is inside of the mouth, 1:07:52.360 --> 1:07:55.680 like you should be like it should be red or 1:07:55.720 --> 1:07:59.080 like black or something. 1:08:08.040 --> 1:08:08.840 It's probably gay. 1:08:09.400 --> 1:08:10.600 Yeah, it's probably gay. 1:08:10.760 --> 1:08:20.000 Let's take another call. Hello, how any Oh? I like it? Howdy? 1:08:20.400 --> 1:08:22.080 How's it going, Carlos? What's up? 1:08:24.360 --> 1:08:29.720 I'm doing well. I have a lot going on, but 1:08:31.360 --> 1:08:35.479 I am trying to wonder how to attract a dominant 1:08:35.479 --> 1:08:38.160 woman into my life. 1:08:38.520 --> 1:08:45.920 I can help you with that. Oh yeah, okay, how 1:08:45.960 --> 1:08:46.400 old are you? 1:08:48.479 --> 1:08:49.240 I'm thirty eight? 1:08:51.720 --> 1:08:55.120 Uh? 1:08:55.320 --> 1:08:55.559 Fuck? 1:08:55.600 --> 1:08:56.559 Maybe I can't help. 1:08:56.400 --> 1:08:56.720 You with that. 1:08:59.080 --> 1:08:59.760 Because he's OK. 1:09:00.040 --> 1:09:01.920 You went through it. Yeah, I don't know. I don't 1:09:01.960 --> 1:09:04.080 know what older women are doing that that that like 1:09:04.120 --> 1:09:05.600 in your bracket. 1:09:05.800 --> 1:09:08.519 Vibes, that would be like a like at a cougar 1:09:08.600 --> 1:09:10.000 for you at this point, would be like a woman 1:09:10.000 --> 1:09:10.559 in her six Well. 1:09:10.680 --> 1:09:12.519 I also don't know what type, what what? What's your 1:09:12.560 --> 1:09:13.480 age preference? 1:09:19.720 --> 1:09:23.479 I tried and I don't know, like mid twenties to 1:09:24.200 --> 1:09:24.839 mid forties. 1:09:24.880 --> 1:09:26.080 I guess okay, cool? 1:09:26.720 --> 1:09:33.360 Uh damn, how would you attract Okay, how to attract? 1:09:34.160 --> 1:09:37.160 How to attract a dominant woman? 1:09:41.280 --> 1:09:44.519 Where wear one of those rainbow hats with a spinner 1:09:44.560 --> 1:09:44.840 on it? 1:09:45.560 --> 1:09:49.719 Yeah, you could do that. You could also you could 1:09:49.720 --> 1:09:50.080 do that. 1:09:53.560 --> 1:09:55.280 Damn a big lollipop. 1:09:55.760 --> 1:10:03.880 I'm like really struggling trying to karaoke. 1:10:06.360 --> 1:10:07.760 I don't know where do you Where do you think 1:10:07.760 --> 1:10:08.960 dominant women hang out? 1:10:09.360 --> 1:10:09.559 Yeah? 1:10:09.560 --> 1:10:11.080 Where do dominant women hang out? 1:10:11.160 --> 1:10:13.280 What about those acts throwing places? 1:10:13.840 --> 1:10:20.919 You could know? Because that's oh, maybe at a shooting range, 1:10:21.280 --> 1:10:24.320 at an axe throwing range. 1:10:24.640 --> 1:10:24.920 Go to. 1:10:26.520 --> 1:10:31.519 You're you're in Texas, right, I I am go to 1:10:31.560 --> 1:10:32.320 a gun range. 1:10:34.720 --> 1:10:37.800 Oh, I'm gonna dominant women. 1:10:38.160 --> 1:10:43.559 Dominant women want to go to a place where they 1:10:43.600 --> 1:10:50.400 feel damn it. And what does a dominant woman want? 1:10:50.840 --> 1:10:54.000 So I'm trying. I'm trying to start from from from 1:10:54.080 --> 1:10:54.880 the bottom here. 1:10:55.000 --> 1:10:55.559 I don't know. 1:10:57.040 --> 1:11:01.400 I'm not sure I know where that is. Like where 1:11:04.760 --> 1:11:06.360 go to like a like a bar that has a 1:11:06.360 --> 1:11:08.559 pool table in it. They like leaning up against pool 1:11:08.600 --> 1:11:11.240 tables and like playing. I don't know, honestly, man, I'm 1:11:12.080 --> 1:11:15.400 he might, he might be a while, might be a 1:11:15.400 --> 1:11:17.840 better help to you. 1:11:18.040 --> 1:11:23.760 Are you do you consider do you consider yourself? Are 1:11:23.840 --> 1:11:29.000 you a docile boy? I guess, I guess. I guess. 1:11:29.000 --> 1:11:33.479 A dominant woman, I assume if you want a dominant woman, 1:11:34.080 --> 1:11:39.439 you're a submissive man. Or I assume dominant women would 1:11:39.439 --> 1:11:42.680 be Would a dominant woman typically be attracted to a 1:11:42.840 --> 1:11:47.519 more even more dominant man, or to a submissive man. 1:11:48.640 --> 1:11:52.519 People are too complex for me to even like answer 1:11:52.560 --> 1:11:54.799 that do you use do you use dating apps? 1:11:56.800 --> 1:12:01.080 I try to, but like I'm already with the fact 1:12:01.320 --> 1:12:05.879 that around here people are just not my type generally. 1:12:06.400 --> 1:12:08.000 Yeah, I get that. 1:12:10.600 --> 1:12:14.960 There are a lot of people here that like they 1:12:15.880 --> 1:12:20.479 hold values that I don't. And then like, I'm also 1:12:20.560 --> 1:12:22.720 like you where I don't really want kids and there 1:12:22.760 --> 1:12:24.719 are a lot of people that really want to start 1:12:24.720 --> 1:12:26.519 families and it's not for me. 1:12:27.840 --> 1:12:32.439 Maybe a creative woman. I think creative women they paint 1:12:32.479 --> 1:12:35.679 their own they paint their own reality in some way, 1:12:36.360 --> 1:12:41.360 they kind of have control over over. They have a 1:12:42.760 --> 1:12:45.760 they have a vision, and I think you have to 1:12:45.800 --> 1:12:51.559 have a vision in order to be dominant or somewhat 1:12:51.560 --> 1:12:55.960 in control. Right, So somebody with a vision creatively. 1:12:58.360 --> 1:13:00.920 I was thinking that too, because I'm I'm trying to 1:13:01.160 --> 1:13:05.439 become a better artist, and I one of the jokes 1:13:05.560 --> 1:13:09.400 online is that you know, when people make art, they 1:13:09.560 --> 1:13:13.920 just this is their barely disguised fetish. And it's like, yes, 1:13:14.000 --> 1:13:17.200 I want to draw things that you know, turn me 1:13:17.280 --> 1:13:21.519 on and turn others on. Yeah, so maybe I should 1:13:21.800 --> 1:13:24.160 be the one to be drawing that as well. 1:13:26.360 --> 1:13:31.160 Yeah, are you do you draw like giant tesses? 1:13:32.000 --> 1:13:33.240 Yeah? Yeah, what do you draw? 1:13:34.880 --> 1:13:41.719 No, it's usually like bondage stuff and like muzzles and leeches. 1:13:42.240 --> 1:13:49.080 See your art, your art directly mirrors what you are seeking, 1:13:50.680 --> 1:14:01.519 quite literally to some extent. Okay, honestly, man, you might 1:14:01.560 --> 1:14:06.160 want to just be involved in a community that's into 1:14:06.200 --> 1:14:11.760 that sort of thing, right, Like you just you know, 1:14:12.360 --> 1:14:16.080 like poke around and see who's see who's into what, 1:14:17.880 --> 1:14:20.240 and uh, there's there's a lot of people. There's a 1:14:20.240 --> 1:14:21.840 lot of people that are that are into that. 1:14:23.439 --> 1:14:26.240 Brother, why don't you get on Uh once you get 1:14:26.240 --> 1:14:28.920 on fet life, you know, like get a life. 1:14:29.520 --> 1:14:31.800 I bet to go to fulsome have you gone to 1:14:32.400 --> 1:14:34.080 what's false? Fulsome street fair? 1:14:36.800 --> 1:14:42.080 Dude? I bet bet life in Texas is fucking crazy. Yeah, 1:14:42.160 --> 1:14:45.639 I bet this. I bet there's a scene of all 1:14:45.760 --> 1:14:48.519 kinds of people who would love to tie you up 1:14:48.520 --> 1:14:50.800 and piss in your mouth that you can find on 1:14:50.880 --> 1:14:55.719 fat life. He's not kidding. 1:14:56.160 --> 1:14:57.360 Yeah, try fet life. 1:15:00.479 --> 1:15:01.360 I would trust it. 1:15:03.880 --> 1:15:05.840 I would trust try that. Try poke around on the 1:15:06.000 --> 1:15:08.280 poke around the internet a little bit. Look at some 1:15:08.600 --> 1:15:11.520 look at some uh some forums. 1:15:12.520 --> 1:15:15.240 They go on the forums, you know, is that what 1:15:15.320 --> 1:15:17.000 you're looking for? Somebody to piss in your mouth? 1:15:18.760 --> 1:15:20.360 No? No, not really, No. 1:15:21.800 --> 1:15:22.680 So specific. 1:15:22.760 --> 1:15:23.439 I just want to. 1:15:24.400 --> 1:15:27.000 I mean, I mean he's looking if you're looking for 1:15:27.040 --> 1:15:29.120 someone to I feel like, isn't that the ultimate form 1:15:29.160 --> 1:15:32.080 of I mean, like domination is somebody peeing in your mouth? 1:15:32.280 --> 1:15:35.799 Yeah? Sure, But that's so specific because that's just water sports. 1:15:35.880 --> 1:15:39.720 That's not even that's water sports. That's like that, that's 1:15:39.720 --> 1:15:40.640 like a category. 1:15:42.000 --> 1:15:43.920 I've never heard heard it referred to water. 1:15:43.960 --> 1:15:46.519 It's literally called water sports, and it's a it's a 1:15:46.560 --> 1:15:47.719 specific category. 1:15:47.800 --> 1:15:49.040 Saying it like it's in the Olympics. 1:15:49.600 --> 1:15:52.960 I mean, it fucking kind of is with how how uh, 1:15:54.520 --> 1:15:55.720 with how intense. 1:15:55.360 --> 1:15:57.040 It can be Internet. 1:15:57.800 --> 1:15:59.759 No, I don't. I don't think he likes to gargle. 1:16:00.360 --> 1:16:02.360 I think he's more of like a I think you 1:16:02.360 --> 1:16:05.720 here more of like a cerebral a cerebral fucker. 1:16:06.920 --> 1:16:08.240 A cerebral fucker. 1:16:08.479 --> 1:16:10.519 Yeah, he's more an intellectual fucker. 1:16:12.640 --> 1:16:15.639 Yes, uh woom me with your mind. 1:16:17.880 --> 1:16:19.640 I think that it's part of I think it's like, 1:16:20.000 --> 1:16:22.519 do you do you feel you feel safe with someone 1:16:22.520 --> 1:16:26.599 who's dominant because you feel like there's somebody who is 1:16:26.640 --> 1:16:30.720 in control and and you you feel like you can 1:16:30.800 --> 1:16:33.719 lean on that a little bit and you can trust, 1:16:34.360 --> 1:16:37.799 Like you want to trust someone. 1:16:38.760 --> 1:16:42.479 I like the idea of being being vulnerable with another person, 1:16:42.720 --> 1:16:45.400 Like I really want that. I've just been alone for 1:16:45.600 --> 1:16:46.320 a while now. 1:16:46.400 --> 1:16:53.519 And yeah yeah, so okay, so this is not a 1:16:53.680 --> 1:16:57.439 sexual thing specifically. This is just you want someone to 1:16:57.760 --> 1:16:59.799 you want someone that you can trust to be vulnerable. 1:16:59.840 --> 1:17:02.559 Well, a lot of a lot of that BDSM stuff 1:17:02.600 --> 1:17:09.559 is like rooted in like a like a core saying 1:17:09.640 --> 1:17:13.439 that people people have been through different things in their 1:17:13.479 --> 1:17:17.240 life where they need to feel like they can open 1:17:17.320 --> 1:17:20.080 up to somebody or they can trust somebody, and like, 1:17:20.320 --> 1:17:23.519 for instance, like if you tie someone up, you're putting 1:17:23.560 --> 1:17:25.960 all of your it's like a trust fall, like you're 1:17:26.080 --> 1:17:31.919 just putting your You're just saying like hey. 1:17:31.800 --> 1:17:31.960 Like. 1:17:34.160 --> 1:17:36.840 Yeah, that's literally it. You're just like saying I trust 1:17:36.880 --> 1:17:39.720 you and and and and That's a huge part of 1:17:39.840 --> 1:17:43.240 relationships is trusting people. Some people have relationships where they 1:17:43.280 --> 1:17:46.760 don't trust each other, but there's nothing more ultimate than 1:17:46.840 --> 1:17:52.759 like being like being in trust with someone. 1:17:54.240 --> 1:17:57.200 That's a good way to look at it. It's import 1:17:57.320 --> 1:17:59.879 somebody who you can trust enough to tie. 1:17:59.640 --> 1:18:02.720 You up, yeah, because because once you're tied up, they 1:18:02.720 --> 1:18:07.080 could like put a cigarette on out on your nipple 1:18:07.120 --> 1:18:10.680 and you're like ow and then or they could they 1:18:10.720 --> 1:18:14.160 could they could throw you in a cold pool or 1:18:15.000 --> 1:18:17.479 something that you wouldn't like, but they won't do that 1:18:17.640 --> 1:18:21.599 because because they love because they love you, yeah, and 1:18:21.640 --> 1:18:24.400 you trust them not to do those things. Some people 1:18:24.439 --> 1:18:26.080 like cigarettes being done out on their nipples. 1:18:26.160 --> 1:18:28.400 I kind of want to get on fet life now, dude, 1:18:28.400 --> 1:18:33.040 make one. I'll make one. I run into Carlos, run 1:18:33.080 --> 1:18:35.120 wild Bill. 1:18:35.200 --> 1:18:35.400 Yeah. 1:18:36.560 --> 1:18:37.400 What would be your thing? 1:18:38.120 --> 1:18:38.920 Would be my thing? 1:18:40.160 --> 1:18:41.960 It would be would it be being a furry? Look 1:18:42.000 --> 1:18:42.680 at cosplay? 1:18:42.920 --> 1:18:44.559 Dude? All right, So a lot of people ask me, 1:18:44.640 --> 1:18:47.960 They're like, are you are? Am I a furrey? And 1:18:48.720 --> 1:18:53.840 if the defenit okay, if a furry is somebody, well, 1:18:53.840 --> 1:18:54.920 technically i'd be a scaley. 1:18:55.280 --> 1:18:56.639 You're such a fucking scaley. 1:18:57.360 --> 1:19:03.280 If a furry is merely somebody who is a human 1:19:03.360 --> 1:19:07.760 being that regularly dresses as an animal, I do fit 1:19:07.840 --> 1:19:11.040 that description. Yes, yeah, you. 1:19:11.000 --> 1:19:14.680 Know, there's nothing wrong with you. 1:19:16.920 --> 1:19:21.160 He's a coss player. He's a he's a Yeah, he's 1:19:21.200 --> 1:19:22.000 a he's a furry. 1:19:22.760 --> 1:19:32.000 Well you don't know what. Say that again, you have 1:19:32.080 --> 1:19:34.599 sex while you're in the first suit. 1:19:36.160 --> 1:19:38.400 Oh, what about it? 1:19:39.800 --> 1:19:42.320 That's what they do. They do that in the suit. 1:19:42.680 --> 1:19:45.599 By the way, no way that that lasts longer than 1:19:45.640 --> 1:19:46.280 five minutes. 1:19:46.960 --> 1:19:49.000 What having sex in a car in a first suit, 1:19:50.080 --> 1:19:52.200 you probably sweat your fucking balls off. 1:19:52.240 --> 1:19:57.360 Physically able, you have to be, not physically like just advanced. 1:19:57.439 --> 1:19:59.080 You have to be to be able to do something 1:19:59.160 --> 1:20:02.280 like that with like the gloves and like. 1:20:04.040 --> 1:20:06.080 It's like doing push ups with with like a weight 1:20:06.120 --> 1:20:06.599 on your bed. 1:20:06.640 --> 1:20:08.680 You're looking out of a mouth that has like a 1:20:08.720 --> 1:20:13.160 black mesh on it, probably and you can't see anything. 1:20:13.240 --> 1:20:14.759 Yeah, it just sounds absurd. 1:20:14.800 --> 1:20:18.800 Imagine I'm imagining it as the guy though, it's kind 1:20:18.800 --> 1:20:21.960 of like two glory holes having sex with each other. 1:20:22.200 --> 1:20:28.479 Oh wow, you're just you're right, because you're fully blocked off. 1:20:29.080 --> 1:20:32.120 You're like, you're just two walls. Yeah yeah, yeah, that 1:20:32.200 --> 1:20:34.880 are that are going at each other. Right. I've also 1:20:34.960 --> 1:20:40.080 heard that those costumes, like the real ones are like 1:20:40.320 --> 1:20:43.559 I mean people's people will drop ten geez. 1:20:43.680 --> 1:20:47.680 Oh yeah, they're so expensive. Oh my god, they're so expensive. 1:20:48.520 --> 1:20:52.720 Are you? Are you a fur suit guy? 1:20:53.080 --> 1:20:56.200 No? I consider myself a hurry, but I don't I 1:20:56.200 --> 1:20:57.479 don't have the money for the first seat. 1:20:58.080 --> 1:21:03.000 Oh you are a furry, but you don't have the suit, right? 1:21:03.640 --> 1:21:05.080 Oh okay, okay. 1:21:06.160 --> 1:21:08.639 What uh so? How do you how like you you're 1:21:08.640 --> 1:21:11.720 a phrase in you Like it's it's like mentally you're 1:21:11.800 --> 1:21:14.640 an animal or how does that work for you? No? 1:21:14.960 --> 1:21:20.479 I just I just like furry characters nice, and I. 1:21:20.520 --> 1:21:26.880 Like another identity, sorry, like you like to take on 1:21:26.960 --> 1:21:31.080 another identity other than yourself. It's the fantasy aspect of 1:21:31.120 --> 1:21:32.559 it like. 1:21:33.240 --> 1:21:35.400 That that that kind of goes along with like the 1:21:36.320 --> 1:21:39.719 BDSM stuff. It's like it's just role play with another person. 1:21:40.520 --> 1:21:46.040 Yeah. Yeah, you're you're building a scenario. Mm hmm, you're 1:21:46.040 --> 1:21:48.920 building a world. That's fun. 1:21:49.720 --> 1:21:54.480 Yeah, you should get like a what would the firstsona 1:21:54.560 --> 1:21:57.200 be of a dominant woman? Like a like a rhino. 1:21:57.960 --> 1:22:02.160 She'd be like a I don't know if i'd fuck 1:22:02.160 --> 1:22:06.920 a rhino. I don't know if she'd be a rhy 1:22:06.960 --> 1:22:09.080 I mean maybe she'd be a rhino. Fuck it, she'll 1:22:09.080 --> 1:22:11.760 be a rhino. But I mean whatever, dude, maybe like 1:22:11.800 --> 1:22:15.439 a like a horse or something. No, because you ride 1:22:15.439 --> 1:22:19.760 a horse. A horse is a submissive creature sometimes, but 1:22:19.840 --> 1:22:25.080 it's also a creature that runs wild, so to some extent, 1:22:25.280 --> 1:22:27.839 I don't know. They can go both ways. 1:22:28.360 --> 1:22:33.360 Uh yeah, I don't know, Grant, do you feel like 1:22:33.360 --> 1:22:34.200 this was helpful for you? 1:22:37.880 --> 1:22:39.000 A little bit? 1:22:39.439 --> 1:22:40.160 That's not good enough. 1:22:40.680 --> 1:22:41.559 That's good enough for me. 1:22:43.120 --> 1:22:44.599 I'll start a seed life account, I guess. 1:22:45.120 --> 1:22:45.599 Please do. 1:22:50.240 --> 1:22:50.679 All right? 1:22:52.400 --> 1:22:55.680 Have a good night, Grant you to wait? I don't know, 1:22:55.720 --> 1:22:57.479 like why the fun have been your name is Carlos. 1:22:57.479 --> 1:22:58.400 Why I've been calling you Grant? 1:22:59.360 --> 1:23:02.479 Maybe there's no called Grant whatever? 1:23:04.000 --> 1:23:06.479 By Carlos, by Carlos, love. 1:23:06.320 --> 1:23:10.800 You both, bye, good luck, dude. 1:23:10.800 --> 1:23:11.639 I have to piss. 1:23:12.080 --> 1:23:14.760 Go piss, really, yeah, go piss. I'll hang out. I'll 1:23:14.760 --> 1:23:21.880 talk to the chat. How is your bathroom break? Do 1:23:21.880 --> 1:23:22.920 you feel relieved? 1:23:23.160 --> 1:23:25.720 It was cool? I went barefoot and I stepped on 1:23:25.760 --> 1:23:29.559 something wet? Do you think I have athletes foot. 1:23:29.560 --> 1:23:36.920 Now you might have something well, I don't even know 1:23:36.920 --> 1:23:37.840 what athletes foot is. 1:23:37.960 --> 1:23:41.559 I definitely have something well, athletes foot is. Athlete's foot 1:23:41.600 --> 1:23:44.960 is more just like when like your feet are sweat 1:23:44.960 --> 1:23:47.000 it's like you got to be an athlete, but not really. 1:23:47.040 --> 1:23:50.600 It's like you're you like are wearing two tight of shoes. 1:23:51.720 --> 1:23:54.360 And you know, have you ever heard of foot in 1:23:54.520 --> 1:23:56.000 mouth disease? 1:23:56.320 --> 1:23:57.720 No, that sounds hot? What is that? 1:23:57.920 --> 1:23:59.640 I don't I was asking because that's something I've just 1:23:59.640 --> 1:24:01.720 heard of. I assume it's a disease that you get 1:24:01.720 --> 1:24:05.640 when you put your feet in your mouth. And then 1:24:05.720 --> 1:24:08.320 athlete's foot in mouth is the disease you get when 1:24:08.360 --> 1:24:10.920 you step in something wet in the bathroom and then 1:24:10.960 --> 1:24:12.799 you put your feet in your mouth. 1:24:13.120 --> 1:24:15.640 Okay, okay, so I could if I wanted to, I 1:24:15.680 --> 1:24:18.879 could have foot in mouth syndrome. 1:24:19.160 --> 1:24:21.439 Do you think people ever make themselves sick for fun? 1:24:23.520 --> 1:24:23.600 Me? 1:24:25.080 --> 1:24:29.880 Really? Yeah, that's gotta be someone's thing. 1:24:30.520 --> 1:24:32.640 Part of me likes to be sick. Absolutely. Do you 1:24:32.680 --> 1:24:34.840 ever get sick and you feel like. 1:24:37.720 --> 1:24:39.920 Yeah, you're a little you're a little high. Yeah, yeah, 1:24:39.920 --> 1:24:40.280 you get a. 1:24:40.240 --> 1:24:42.800 Little like you get a fever, like when you get 1:24:42.800 --> 1:24:45.280 the flu. Yeah, do you ever Well. 1:24:45.200 --> 1:24:48.880 It's a great excuse to not fucking do anything right, and. 1:24:51.320 --> 1:24:51.720 You are. 1:24:52.200 --> 1:24:54.720 But does it ever feel good? Like you know, when 1:24:54.760 --> 1:24:56.680 you're in bed and you're like out of body and 1:24:56.720 --> 1:24:57.679 you're like and you're. 1:24:57.520 --> 1:25:00.280 Like floating, there's a little bit of like restract of 1:25:00.320 --> 1:25:04.040 oxygen to the brain. Yeah, it does feel good. Yeah. 1:25:03.520 --> 1:25:03.720 Yeah. 1:25:04.120 --> 1:25:05.599 Are you a night quill person? 1:25:05.960 --> 1:25:07.439 No, I don't take any of that stuff. I think 1:25:07.479 --> 1:25:09.559 I'm scared of it. I think I'm scared of Nike 1:25:09.640 --> 1:25:13.000 will or scared of or maybe I'm not scared of well, 1:25:13.080 --> 1:25:15.840 night quill is always a drink thing, if you always 1:25:15.880 --> 1:25:20.960 drink it, Okay, No, I yeah, I think I just 1:25:20.960 --> 1:25:24.799 avoid anything that's like a liquid medicine. So I just don't. 1:25:25.520 --> 1:25:27.639 Not to try to put you on a new vice. 1:25:27.720 --> 1:25:31.360 But fucking Nike quill is so awesome. I've never done 1:25:31.640 --> 1:25:35.160 I've never done Lean before, but I have I would 1:25:35.160 --> 1:25:36.160 probably love it. 1:25:36.200 --> 1:25:37.240 Is that like baby lean. 1:25:38.240 --> 1:25:41.280 I Lean is just if you're done night quill is 1:25:41.280 --> 1:25:44.160 baby lean. Lean is just ni quill And like I 1:25:44.240 --> 1:25:46.400 haven't but Lean is just nicquil. 1:25:46.160 --> 1:25:53.160 Right, Uh, yes, it's like very strong. That's that's big boy. 1:25:53.240 --> 1:25:56.200 Night Quill and then night Quill is Baby. 1:25:55.920 --> 1:25:58.519 Lean and they put Jolly Ranchers in it. 1:25:59.080 --> 1:26:01.080 Yeah, and then they put your Allie Rancher's in it, 1:26:01.120 --> 1:26:03.559 and then they rot their teeth and then they make 1:26:03.600 --> 1:26:08.080 it They're embarrassing. Sorry guys, Sorry, I'm sorry. Some people 1:26:08.120 --> 1:26:10.240 like really really like that shit and they can't even 1:26:10.280 --> 1:26:13.559 help themselves, and so I understand that. So that's you know, 1:26:13.920 --> 1:26:16.920 no no, no judgment, but like, but. 1:26:19.439 --> 1:26:20.920 I don't think that. Do you think? Are you afraid 1:26:20.920 --> 1:26:22.360 the Lean community is gonna. 1:26:22.360 --> 1:26:24.400 I think that the Lean community might come after me. 1:26:24.439 --> 1:26:27.360 I think r slash Lean is gonna via via. 1:26:27.479 --> 1:26:30.280 X dot com. I think that the Lean community is 1:26:30.280 --> 1:26:32.080 gonna be really upset about that one. 1:26:33.400 --> 1:26:36.320 Well, my message to Lean community if anyone wants to 1:26:36.320 --> 1:26:39.400 hook me up with some free linen, I would love 1:26:39.439 --> 1:26:44.479 to try it. Is there any like what's left for 1:26:44.520 --> 1:26:46.360 you to try that you haven't tried yet? 1:26:46.560 --> 1:26:48.320 Why isn't your face red? 1:26:49.240 --> 1:26:50.559 I'm never gonna answer that question. 1:26:50.560 --> 1:26:54.799 Why would you do that? Why would you not answer 1:26:54.800 --> 1:26:55.320 that question? 1:27:00.080 --> 1:27:02.640 M some things in life. 1:27:04.200 --> 1:27:07.080 You love that you that you painted your face screen 1:27:07.120 --> 1:27:10.479 and you're not following the norms of how geckos should 1:27:10.520 --> 1:27:12.240 anatomically add up. 1:27:13.200 --> 1:27:14.360 I mean a normal gecko. 1:27:16.760 --> 1:27:22.679 You're like a You're like a you're like a fuck 1:27:22.720 --> 1:27:23.840 it whatever. Moving on. 1:27:23.920 --> 1:27:24.360 What's up? 1:27:24.560 --> 1:27:26.080 So what was that? What were you gonna ask me? 1:27:26.640 --> 1:27:29.120 Oh, if there's anything you haven't tried yet that you 1:27:29.120 --> 1:27:30.320 want to try in. 1:27:30.320 --> 1:27:32.840 General, anything that in oh, like. 1:27:32.880 --> 1:27:37.439 Drugs, it could the question the question was spurred by 1:27:37.439 --> 1:27:39.120 a by a drug thing, but it does not have 1:27:39.160 --> 1:27:39.679 to be a drug. 1:27:40.040 --> 1:27:42.840 Okay, okay, something that I want to try. I want 1:27:42.880 --> 1:27:56.200 to try uh uh oh, I want to go to 1:27:56.240 --> 1:27:56.799 a raith. 1:27:57.439 --> 1:27:58.719 You've never been to a raise. 1:27:58.800 --> 1:27:59.840 I've never been to a raid. 1:28:00.040 --> 1:28:01.120 I would have thought you, like. 1:28:01.360 --> 1:28:04.599 I seem like that, don't Yeah, yeah, no, I haven't. 1:28:04.640 --> 1:28:08.200 I really want to go to a rave. I want 1:28:08.200 --> 1:28:10.320 to be sweaty. I think I would have never done 1:28:10.320 --> 1:28:13.400 that in the past, just because my my I would 1:28:13.439 --> 1:28:15.360 like wear wigs and stuff and they there'd be like 1:28:15.439 --> 1:28:18.160 glue on my head and like it was gross. And 1:28:18.200 --> 1:28:19.880 like to be in a sweaty environment. 1:28:19.960 --> 1:28:22.439 I feel like you could put together like a sick 1:28:22.600 --> 1:28:23.360 rave outfit. 1:28:23.520 --> 1:28:28.400 Oh my god, yeah, yeah, it would be so chill. 1:28:28.520 --> 1:28:30.160 First of all, it would be I have two I 1:28:30.200 --> 1:28:32.760 have a couple of different outfits. My one would be 1:28:32.920 --> 1:28:37.879 like some regular like windbreaker pants with like the stripes 1:28:37.920 --> 1:28:41.040 down the side, and like a little like a tiny 1:28:41.080 --> 1:28:44.040 little T shirt. I'd put fake nipples under so that 1:28:44.080 --> 1:28:46.759 it looked like I'm my nipples are erect the whole 1:28:46.840 --> 1:28:49.760 night and it's hot, and I got glitter on my 1:28:49.880 --> 1:28:52.720 face and I have on like maybe no makeup. I 1:28:52.800 --> 1:28:56.479 might put on some like some mascara, but just glitter 1:28:56.960 --> 1:29:03.439 and then uh in like yeah, and and some sneakers. 1:29:04.800 --> 1:29:06.240 I feel like you, would you ever would you ever 1:29:06.320 --> 1:29:09.080 like are you? I know you're like experimented different genres 1:29:09.080 --> 1:29:11.040 we have? Would you ever do like a DJ set? 1:29:11.040 --> 1:29:12.720 Would you like play a rave? 1:29:13.680 --> 1:29:16.519 I don't know, And I honestly I think that, like 1:29:16.600 --> 1:29:19.920 my focus isn't very great for something like that. I 1:29:19.920 --> 1:29:23.960 think I'd get distracted quite easily. I can see myself 1:29:24.000 --> 1:29:28.400 having too much fun and then like ruining the set. 1:29:29.200 --> 1:29:33.200 I actually I put on a rave uh for New 1:29:33.280 --> 1:29:35.160 Year's this year. It was called the it was called 1:29:35.160 --> 1:29:38.439 the Reptile Rave. No way, it's called the Reptile Rave. 1:29:38.600 --> 1:29:42.240 And we got a real We got a DJ and 1:29:42.280 --> 1:29:44.880 I stood on stage and just did this. 1:29:45.040 --> 1:29:48.280 Did I hear about this? Were there like, were there 1:29:48.320 --> 1:29:49.439 like folks there? 1:29:50.240 --> 1:29:52.400 Uh, there was like one hundred. There's no it was. 1:29:52.560 --> 1:29:55.360 It wasn't like a I don't think I would be 1:29:55.640 --> 1:29:58.280 if you had heard of this, I would be extremely surprised. 1:29:58.360 --> 1:30:03.559 Oh okay, no is the reptile rave. Niche folks, niche folks, Okay, people, 1:30:03.640 --> 1:30:06.519 some people shut up in crocodile costumes. I just wanted 1:30:06.560 --> 1:30:09.240 to do something different. I don't even like MD, I 1:30:09.240 --> 1:30:12.040 don't even I don't even like a m Yeah. Yeah, 1:30:12.200 --> 1:30:13.080 I just thought it'd be fun. 1:30:13.720 --> 1:30:16.719 That's dope. I love themed parties too. 1:30:17.000 --> 1:30:19.160 Would you ever go? You should go to a Shrek Rave? 1:30:19.200 --> 1:30:20.559 That's like taken over the days. 1:30:20.600 --> 1:30:23.000 That's what I heard about. That mixed up with what 1:30:23.040 --> 1:30:27.880 you were saying. Yeah, really, Shrek Rave? What's what does 1:30:27.880 --> 1:30:31.040 that entail? Does everyone look like Shrek? 1:30:31.840 --> 1:30:36.880 I think people dress up as characters from Shrek? Okay, 1:30:37.000 --> 1:30:39.400 and then the DJ plays I assume I've never been, 1:30:39.439 --> 1:30:42.600 but I assume the DJ would play music that like 1:30:42.800 --> 1:30:45.880 samples shrack. I want to go, I want to go, 1:30:45.920 --> 1:30:47.400 I want to go. I want to get to. Two 1:30:47.400 --> 1:30:49.320 of my homies goes to the Three Little Pigs. 1:30:50.040 --> 1:30:51.080 What the fuck. 1:30:52.040 --> 1:30:54.760 That's amazing there's also a SpongeBob rave. 1:30:56.360 --> 1:30:58.800 See now I would do that. I would do that, 1:30:58.840 --> 1:31:02.000 but I'm all a Shrek. I get the whole Shrek thing. 1:31:03.160 --> 1:31:05.920 I love that. Like the producers of Shrek did not 1:31:06.120 --> 1:31:06.880 see that coming. 1:31:06.960 --> 1:31:11.200 Probably I'm surprised they haven't gotten see indeed, what is 1:31:11.280 --> 1:31:12.439 that desist? 1:31:12.680 --> 1:31:13.120 Oh? 1:31:13.200 --> 1:31:15.960 Yeah, Like I don't know how that works? Yeah, yeah, 1:31:16.600 --> 1:31:17.520 are you a SpongeBob. 1:31:17.960 --> 1:31:24.240 I'm a big sponger and I sponge frequently. I love 1:31:25.240 --> 1:31:30.800 I love SpongeBob so much. It's sad because I think 1:31:31.439 --> 1:31:33.800 and no offense to Like, I know it's not easy 1:31:33.840 --> 1:31:35.960 to make a show. This is going to seem mean, 1:31:36.640 --> 1:31:42.120 but like it. It's been bad since after season three, 1:31:42.160 --> 1:31:45.559 I think, Yeah, there's only been three good seasons of 1:31:45.600 --> 1:31:49.600 SpongeBob in my opinion. I think something happened obviously. Yeah, 1:31:49.640 --> 1:31:53.040 but I do really love SpongeBob. 1:31:53.120 --> 1:31:53.320 Yeah. 1:31:53.360 --> 1:31:54.720 Well, if so, if you were going to go to 1:31:54.760 --> 1:31:56.400 the SpongeBob break, what character would. 1:31:56.240 --> 1:31:58.760 You I would be? Well, obviously I'd be Sandy because 1:31:58.800 --> 1:31:59.759 I just want to be sexy. 1:32:01.640 --> 1:32:05.719 I I don't understand the implication that you can't be sexy. 1:32:05.840 --> 1:32:11.000 Is I just as like squid word or mister crabs, 1:32:11.080 --> 1:32:14.800 thank you. Patrick. I think you could put. You could put, 1:32:14.800 --> 1:32:16.040 you could pull it, you could I could be. 1:32:16.040 --> 1:32:18.360 A sexy Patrick. I could be a sexy Patrick. But 1:32:18.400 --> 1:32:21.200 I honestly Sandy because I love wearing a little tiny 1:32:21.200 --> 1:32:23.360 bra and then put and then. 1:32:23.439 --> 1:32:27.000 Wow, you know what she's She's like kind of naked 1:32:27.000 --> 1:32:27.400 in that hole. 1:32:27.520 --> 1:32:31.679 She's like totally like naked, and like she's like, yeah, 1:32:31.880 --> 1:32:33.479 she's got like body and everything. 1:32:35.040 --> 1:32:36.639 Sandy. Not really, she's a squirrel. 1:32:36.680 --> 1:32:39.120 I shouldn't say that we. 1:32:39.080 --> 1:32:40.160 Need Carlos's opinion. 1:32:40.920 --> 1:32:43.559 We do. We need Carlos's opinion on Sandy Cheeks. 1:32:47.600 --> 1:32:49.639 Have you have you ever done MDMA? 1:32:50.200 --> 1:32:50.559 I have? 1:32:51.040 --> 1:32:53.639 Do you like it? Yeah, it's the bit I want 1:32:53.680 --> 1:32:56.759 to do it. Last time I did it was at 1:32:57.040 --> 1:32:59.960 Coachella two years ago. I haven't done it since. 1:33:00.880 --> 1:33:06.920 Yeah, I stop doing all of that stuff way back when. 1:33:07.400 --> 1:33:12.479 But I've had a great experience on it, and I 1:33:12.520 --> 1:33:15.040 really didn't need to do it more than more than 1:33:16.000 --> 1:33:18.960 once or twice. I think I did it twice. I 1:33:18.960 --> 1:33:22.080 think I felt pretty satisfied after the second time. I 1:33:22.120 --> 1:33:24.400 think it's just like intense and I have so much 1:33:24.520 --> 1:33:27.800 like I get like overstimulated. I have a lot of 1:33:27.920 --> 1:33:30.400 energy and like I just don't even need it. I 1:33:30.439 --> 1:33:33.000 don't even need it. I think I like naturally am 1:33:33.040 --> 1:33:36.639 just like people like really genuinely think that I do. 1:33:37.600 --> 1:33:38.120 Like coke. 1:33:40.120 --> 1:33:41.519 People think I'm like a cokehead. 1:33:42.040 --> 1:33:43.200 Why do you think people think that? 1:33:46.160 --> 1:33:51.240 I Maybe because like I'm like I have like corny 1:33:51.320 --> 1:33:55.519 moments about me, Like I can be quite corny and 1:33:55.640 --> 1:33:59.840 like outspoken or something, or like I'm loud or something 1:34:00.160 --> 1:34:02.519 like I can come off very angry sometimes and like 1:34:02.560 --> 1:34:06.920 on live and shit like that. I think that's a 1:34:06.920 --> 1:34:10.599 lot of what it is. And I'm I'm just I'm 1:34:10.680 --> 1:34:12.479 just a goofy. I'm just a goofy guy. 1:34:12.720 --> 1:34:15.400 I mean, it's just it's like a it's all a character. 1:34:15.800 --> 1:34:18.519 Yeah. I think sometimes when I'm a goofy babe, people get, 1:34:18.600 --> 1:34:21.680 you know, they get uncomfortable. 1:34:22.200 --> 1:34:24.519 Are you like, are you or where you ever like 1:34:24.560 --> 1:34:25.479 a shrooms acid? 1:34:25.960 --> 1:34:27.840 I did? I did my share of shrooms. I did 1:34:27.880 --> 1:34:30.160 my acid. I quit cigarettes on acid. 1:34:31.000 --> 1:34:32.880 I heard it. I forget what interview, but I heard 1:34:32.920 --> 1:34:40.080 you tell a story about how you quit nicotine through hypnosis. 1:34:40.439 --> 1:34:44.280 Yeah, and I quit. I quit nicotine through hypnosis recently 1:34:44.560 --> 1:34:46.720 nine months ago. Eight months ago, I. 1:34:46.680 --> 1:34:48.160 Heard that, and I was like, fuck, I gotta check out. 1:34:48.640 --> 1:34:55.880 Yeah, and I have some interesting uh is it prognosis? 1:34:55.920 --> 1:34:58.679 I don't know words very very much, but I uh, 1:34:59.080 --> 1:35:03.960 I quit cigarettes. I walked in, I walked into that hypnosuccession, 1:35:04.560 --> 1:35:07.760 walked out of that building and didn't smoke one cigarette 1:35:07.840 --> 1:35:12.080 or have one nicotine vape for nine months. 1:35:12.479 --> 1:35:15.559 Really, what you can and can you explain what went 1:35:15.600 --> 1:35:16.240 on in your brain? 1:35:17.880 --> 1:35:20.240 I just was like, fuck, I want a cigarette so bad. 1:35:20.920 --> 1:35:24.040 And then I was like, I don't smoke cigarettes, but 1:35:24.080 --> 1:35:29.439 I'm not a smoker. I don't smoke. I don't I 1:35:29.479 --> 1:35:32.559 don't want a cigarette. I don't smoke, but I do 1:35:32.640 --> 1:35:35.200 want a cigarette, but I don't smoke. So that's what. 1:35:35.320 --> 1:35:39.840 There's this internal dialogue over and over and over every 1:35:39.880 --> 1:35:45.160 single day, and in my mind I would scream. Inside 1:35:45.160 --> 1:35:48.400 my head, I would go, I'm not like, I'm not 1:35:48.479 --> 1:35:49.080 a smoker. 1:35:49.120 --> 1:35:49.880 I don't smoke. 1:35:50.080 --> 1:35:53.000 I'm a non smoker. I don't smoke. I really like, 1:35:53.360 --> 1:35:54.880 I wouldn't say I don't want to smoke, but I 1:35:54.920 --> 1:35:57.599 would say I'm a non smoker and I don't smoke. 1:35:57.760 --> 1:35:59.680 And I would say it in my head over and 1:35:59.760 --> 1:36:01.960 over every time I thought about cigarettes. 1:36:02.000 --> 1:36:03.080 You make it an identity. 1:36:03.360 --> 1:36:07.080 Yeah, yeah, sort of, or just like I just think 1:36:07.160 --> 1:36:11.160 about it occupies my mind that I don't smoke cigarettes. 1:36:12.160 --> 1:36:15.280 I just don't. I'm trying to get on that wave 1:36:15.360 --> 1:36:17.840 with a I've been addicted to candy. That's like my 1:36:17.960 --> 1:36:21.720 vice is like candy and like sugar, and like that's 1:36:21.720 --> 1:36:24.760 the problem is that it's it. See the fact that 1:36:24.840 --> 1:36:28.639 it's cute is a problem because it's like, uh, well 1:36:28.640 --> 1:36:29.080 it's bad. 1:36:29.439 --> 1:36:31.320 Well do you like do you brush your teeth and 1:36:31.360 --> 1:36:32.120 everything like that? 1:36:34.360 --> 1:36:40.400 Sometimes and this is embarrassing to say as an adult, 1:36:41.040 --> 1:36:46.280 but I'll say it. Sometimes I get too lazy and 1:36:46.320 --> 1:36:49.000 I don't brush at night. I brush it every morning. 1:36:49.200 --> 1:36:50.800 You know what. I don't brush at night either. I 1:36:50.840 --> 1:36:56.080 never do. I don't brush at night. Ever, sometimes I 1:36:56.120 --> 1:36:58.519 do sometimes I like, yeah, can't. 1:36:58.520 --> 1:37:02.320 All right? So like you fu all right, you go out, 1:37:02.840 --> 1:37:07.000 you play a fucking arena show. You're you throw your 1:37:07.160 --> 1:37:12.160 entire life and your throw it all out on the stage. 1:37:12.680 --> 1:37:17.040 Yeah you're exhausted. Yeah, you have nothing left to give. Yeah, 1:37:17.360 --> 1:37:19.840 you're not gonna brush your fucking teeth after that? No? 1:37:20.000 --> 1:37:21.800 Are you kidding me? I'm not gonna brush my teeth 1:37:21.800 --> 1:37:25.320 after a relaxing night of Fortnite, I'm not going to 1:37:25.400 --> 1:37:25.920 even do it. 1:37:25.960 --> 1:37:27.559 Then, do you brush your teeth at all? 1:37:28.640 --> 1:37:28.720 No? 1:37:29.520 --> 1:37:29.760 Yes? 1:37:29.920 --> 1:37:30.120 Yeah? 1:37:30.160 --> 1:37:33.599 Why did I just say, though, God fucking damn it. 1:37:33.800 --> 1:37:36.559 Do you that the teeth? 1:37:36.680 --> 1:37:39.480 Look at my teeth. You have a nice teeth there, gorgeous. 1:37:39.640 --> 1:37:41.479 Yeah yeah, but do you brush them twice? 1:37:41.840 --> 1:37:43.720 And I brush my so so my thing with my 1:37:43.800 --> 1:37:46.400 teeth is one of my exes used to brush their 1:37:46.439 --> 1:37:49.840 teeth for like ten minutes straight, NonStop, and I felt 1:37:49.840 --> 1:37:51.680 like he had like a moral high ground over me. 1:37:52.120 --> 1:37:54.320 And so I started brushing my teeth for a very 1:37:54.360 --> 1:37:56.840 long time. And then I brushed my tongue for like 1:37:56.960 --> 1:37:59.000 five minutes every single day. 1:37:59.160 --> 1:38:02.880 Is a little it's it's weird. 1:38:03.000 --> 1:38:06.439 I brush the absolute fucking life out of my tongue. 1:38:07.280 --> 1:38:10.679 I get everything off of that thing because I'm terrified 1:38:10.680 --> 1:38:13.040 of bad breath. I even mentioned it when you were 1:38:13.040 --> 1:38:14.160 doing my makeup earlier. 1:38:14.960 --> 1:38:15.320 You did. 1:38:15.520 --> 1:38:19.040 Yeah, you didn't have, really, you swear to God. 1:38:19.320 --> 1:38:19.360 No. 1:38:19.960 --> 1:38:20.200 Cool. 1:38:21.120 --> 1:38:24.080 Here's the thing I wouldn't tell you if you did. 1:38:24.720 --> 1:38:26.240 Why am I scary? 1:38:26.479 --> 1:38:26.599 No? 1:38:26.600 --> 1:38:29.000 I don't think you're scary, but you didn't. 1:38:29.400 --> 1:38:33.000 Okay, okay, Well that's what that's fucked up. Though, you 1:38:33.000 --> 1:38:35.799 should tell me that I have might have stinky breath. 1:38:36.160 --> 1:38:38.960 I don't remember you. I don't think you did. Do 1:38:38.960 --> 1:38:40.360 you feel like you have bad breath right now? 1:38:40.479 --> 1:38:45.519 Well, my mouth did taste questionable earlier. And I'm not sure. 1:38:45.560 --> 1:38:47.040 Why did you eat anything weird? 1:38:47.280 --> 1:38:49.479 No, I did, well, I had wine and lemonade. But 1:38:49.479 --> 1:38:50.240 that's not weird. 1:38:50.360 --> 1:38:53.519 It's not weird at all. Yeah, you brush your teeth, 1:38:53.560 --> 1:38:56.439 like during the wait you had to see your ex 1:38:58.080 --> 1:39:01.960 like he was like posturing about how he brushed this 1:39:02.040 --> 1:39:02.479 to you. 1:39:02.479 --> 1:39:04.280 No, like he would, I mean like he would just 1:39:04.400 --> 1:39:07.920 be He would like do things while he's brushing his teeth, 1:39:08.120 --> 1:39:10.360 and he would keep his mouth closed so it wasn't 1:39:10.400 --> 1:39:15.760 like a mess. And he he would just like walk 1:39:15.800 --> 1:39:18.000 around the house with the toothbrush in his mouth and 1:39:18.080 --> 1:39:20.160 just like sit with it and like lay down with 1:39:20.240 --> 1:39:23.240 it in bed with the toothbrush in his mouth. And 1:39:23.320 --> 1:39:26.760 so I would look at that and go, fuck, I've 1:39:26.760 --> 1:39:28.760 got to get my shit together. And so I got 1:39:28.800 --> 1:39:34.120 veneers and I started brushing my teeth like religiously ten 1:39:34.160 --> 1:39:36.840 minutes at a time, whatever, six minutes or something like that. 1:39:36.960 --> 1:39:37.320 Not ten. 1:39:37.400 --> 1:39:39.840 Ten is ten is insane. 1:39:39.360 --> 1:39:44.680 But you know, all right, let's get into this flossing. 1:39:45.240 --> 1:39:47.080 I don't do that. And I want me to tell 1:39:47.080 --> 1:39:49.240 you something right now. I went to the dentist the 1:39:49.280 --> 1:39:51.320 other day for a cleaning and they said, do you floss? 1:39:51.320 --> 1:39:53.680 And I went no, And I was like all like, 1:39:53.800 --> 1:39:56.960 you know, shy about it and guilty and then and 1:39:57.160 --> 1:39:59.839 she was like, you're good, You're fine. 1:40:00.640 --> 1:40:02.960 You don't have to like you're the dentist told you that. 1:40:03.080 --> 1:40:05.439 My one. It's so I never had a dentist in 1:40:05.479 --> 1:40:06.120 my fucking life. 1:40:06.120 --> 1:40:08.960 Tomy, not my dentist, but the what's the other the 1:40:09.000 --> 1:40:09.920 person that helps the. 1:40:09.920 --> 1:40:11.640 Dentist, dental assistant. 1:40:11.320 --> 1:40:13.080 Dental assistant or dentist. 1:40:13.560 --> 1:40:16.000 Fuck it wait, okay, here's that If the dental assistant 1:40:16.000 --> 1:40:18.000 says you're gonna be fine and then the dentist says 1:40:18.000 --> 1:40:18.800 you got a flaws. 1:40:19.000 --> 1:40:21.719 No, the dentist didn't even say that. He didn't even 1:40:21.800 --> 1:40:23.760 like like say, hey, make sure you folost when you go, 1:40:23.960 --> 1:40:25.960 like they'd like they were just like just brush your 1:40:26.000 --> 1:40:28.160 teeth and like get in there and like once it's smooth, 1:40:28.200 --> 1:40:28.559 you're good. 1:40:28.720 --> 1:40:30.040 I don't know if you feel like that every time 1:40:30.080 --> 1:40:32.040 I go to a dentist, even a doctor. I feel 1:40:32.040 --> 1:40:34.559 like I'm like talking to the assistance. The assistants doing 1:40:34.680 --> 1:40:37.240 ninety seven percent of the work, and the doctor or 1:40:37.240 --> 1:40:38.439 the dentist comes in, looks at. 1:40:38.360 --> 1:40:40.640 The teesser quick and just dip yeah, yeah, yeah. 1:40:40.439 --> 1:40:42.640 Fuck is that ship? Yeah, you're the dentist. Shouldn't you 1:40:42.640 --> 1:40:43.200 be doing most of it? 1:40:43.240 --> 1:40:45.679 I think that the dentists in a in a way 1:40:45.760 --> 1:40:49.200 is like a They're like a surgeon almost like they're 1:40:49.280 --> 1:40:54.320 like doing the real the real deal, like getting in 1:40:54.360 --> 1:40:58.160 there and taking those what is that called the root canal, 1:40:58.439 --> 1:41:02.839 taking those things out your teeth and redoing your teeth 1:41:02.880 --> 1:41:07.520 and opening them up and splasting them with crazy. 1:41:07.120 --> 1:41:11.120 Shit you ever? Have you ever? I think they're called 1:41:11.160 --> 1:41:13.160 tooth tunes. Do you know what I'm talking about? 1:41:13.280 --> 1:41:13.479 Yeah? 1:41:13.479 --> 1:41:15.720 I remember the things that like they would uh it 1:41:15.720 --> 1:41:17.360 would play like a Justin Bieber. 1:41:17.120 --> 1:41:20.120 Song like very y two K, very early, very much, and. 1:41:20.160 --> 1:41:23.639 It would like, uh, play for two because you're you're 1:41:23.680 --> 1:41:26.799 apparently supposed to brush your teeth for two whole minutes. 1:41:26.840 --> 1:41:29.000 Now that another thing I'll admit, And I brush my 1:41:29.040 --> 1:41:32.680 teeth every day at least once I don't do it. 1:41:32.760 --> 1:41:35.519 Do you know how long two minutes is it's pretty long. 1:41:35.720 --> 1:41:38.640 It's not long. You have to What you do is 1:41:38.680 --> 1:41:42.000 you take so you need like a laptop or something, 1:41:42.280 --> 1:41:44.920 and then you just like put on music and then 1:41:44.960 --> 1:41:48.280 you just like daydream while you tooth, while you brush 1:41:48.280 --> 1:41:49.080 your teeth. 1:41:48.840 --> 1:41:51.040 You daydream. What do you dream about when you brush 1:41:51.080 --> 1:42:02.040 your teeth? Is this? I'm thinking face or I don't 1:42:02.080 --> 1:42:04.400 know if I want to say it face men. 1:42:05.720 --> 1:42:08.840 My voice cracked when I said that. 1:42:08.840 --> 1:42:12.400 That's that's really sweet. Men you dream about men when 1:42:12.439 --> 1:42:16.680 you brush your teeth? Yeah, sometimes that's really sweet. Sometimes 1:42:17.000 --> 1:42:21.200 that's really nice. That would be this if somebody how much. 1:42:21.120 --> 1:42:23.080 They annoy me, how much they want, how much they 1:42:23.080 --> 1:42:23.519 annoy me? 1:42:24.120 --> 1:42:25.040 Why do men annoy you? 1:42:26.640 --> 1:42:30.280 I don't know, It's like, why why they annoy anyone? 1:42:31.960 --> 1:42:35.559 I love men? I'm sorry, I'm just kidding. Woo on. 1:42:35.600 --> 1:42:36.600 What were you going to say? What were you going 1:42:36.680 --> 1:42:37.080 to say? 1:42:37.600 --> 1:42:39.479 What was I going to say? I was going to say, 1:42:39.479 --> 1:42:41.240 if somebody told me they were thinking about me while 1:42:41.240 --> 1:42:46.960 brushing their teeth, I would be flattered. Yeah, But if 1:42:46.960 --> 1:42:49.960 they were, if somebody told me they were rushing their teeth, 1:42:50.120 --> 1:42:51.479 think about how annoying I was. 1:42:52.200 --> 1:42:57.080 Yeah. You think about life and you think about what 1:42:57.120 --> 1:42:58.840 you want. When you brush your teeth, it's like right 1:42:58.880 --> 1:43:02.000 before you fall asleep, So you lay in bed and 1:43:02.040 --> 1:43:05.439 you think about a thing, and then you slowly fall asleep. 1:43:06.280 --> 1:43:08.000 It's like the same with brushing your teeth. 1:43:08.520 --> 1:43:09.880 You do it for a full two minutes. 1:43:09.920 --> 1:43:10.960 What do you do in the shower? 1:43:11.439 --> 1:43:12.479 What do I do in the shower? 1:43:12.680 --> 1:43:15.519 Yeah, like when you shower, like, oh, you know what 1:43:15.600 --> 1:43:17.000 I do in the shit? 1:43:18.720 --> 1:43:21.599 I don't have a shower right now where I can 1:43:21.640 --> 1:43:26.400 do this, But normally I sit down. Really I every 1:43:26.439 --> 1:43:29.240 time I can, I will sit down in the shower 1:43:29.240 --> 1:43:32.000 and I'll let the water pour over me and it'll 1:43:32.040 --> 1:43:34.200 just be like a it's very meditative. Do you not 1:43:34.240 --> 1:43:35.160 sit down in the shower? 1:43:35.680 --> 1:43:39.960 I don't because it's different when there's like balls, nothing 1:43:40.000 --> 1:43:43.320 can get into your balls because there's no like hole there, 1:43:43.880 --> 1:43:45.760 like if you I don't have balls, So like if 1:43:45.800 --> 1:43:46.679 I sit if. 1:43:46.600 --> 1:43:48.720 You're afraid, if you sit down in the shower. 1:43:48.520 --> 1:43:50.000 I'm getting athletes pussy. 1:43:50.160 --> 1:43:54.760 You're getting athletes pussy. So I can't. I can't sit 1:43:54.920 --> 1:43:59.200 on the Can you get a vaginal infection from sitting down? 1:44:00.040 --> 1:44:01.840 Absolutely absolutely? 1:44:02.560 --> 1:44:03.120 In a tub? 1:44:03.160 --> 1:44:03.759 In a tub? 1:44:03.960 --> 1:44:06.479 Yeah? Well, I mean like if you're at home, right 1:44:06.560 --> 1:44:08.960 and you have a trusted tub, but that you know 1:44:09.080 --> 1:44:11.479 does not have any vagina back. 1:44:11.560 --> 1:44:13.880 Well, that's different. That's different. If it's a tub. Some 1:44:14.000 --> 1:44:18.800 showers have like a bench in it, and something about 1:44:18.840 --> 1:44:22.439 that puts me off. I don't like the vibe of, like, 1:44:22.960 --> 1:44:24.040 seat in the shower. 1:44:24.120 --> 1:44:25.360 You're afraid you're going to catch something. 1:44:25.360 --> 1:44:27.800 I'd rather sit down on the ground, which would be 1:44:27.840 --> 1:44:31.080 the tub. I'd rather be like this because then you 1:44:31.080 --> 1:44:33.080 see I'm angled in such a way. 1:44:34.120 --> 1:44:36.400 You're you're like cradling yourself. 1:44:36.240 --> 1:44:38.240 Right, And that's me in the shower. 1:44:38.479 --> 1:44:41.519 I wonder sometimes if it's a like is that like 1:44:41.520 --> 1:44:43.720 a depressed person thing to do to sit down in 1:44:43.760 --> 1:44:44.280 the shower? 1:44:44.439 --> 1:44:46.439 You think that it is, But really it's just like 1:44:46.520 --> 1:44:48.840 quite a nice feeling to like be. It's almost like 1:44:48.880 --> 1:44:52.200 there's rain. Yeah, it feels rain like it's like a 1:44:52.240 --> 1:44:59.120 simulation of rain. Yeah, it's sad, but it's cool. It's fine. 1:44:59.320 --> 1:45:01.040 Do you ever you're a pee in the shower? 1:45:01.439 --> 1:45:04.000 Absolutely all the time. I pass on my legs every day. 1:45:04.200 --> 1:45:04.800 Yeah, me too. 1:45:05.560 --> 1:45:08.400 Yeah. Do you ever feel guilty? Like why am I 1:45:08.439 --> 1:45:09.880 doing this? This is a bad thing to do? 1:45:09.920 --> 1:45:11.800 I should I feel guilty if I like, like, if 1:45:11.800 --> 1:45:13.400 I'm staying at a friend's house and I piss in 1:45:13.400 --> 1:45:14.439 the shower, I feel guilty. 1:45:14.600 --> 1:45:20.680 Really yeah, I don't. Does that say something about me? 1:45:20.880 --> 1:45:20.920 It? 1:45:21.000 --> 1:45:22.799 Does that mean that I'm like a bad person? 1:45:23.360 --> 1:45:26.000 I mean, if I had a friend, probably if I 1:45:26.080 --> 1:45:30.120 like any of my anyone who anyone who wants to 1:45:30.320 --> 1:45:31.880 can piss in my shower. I don't care. 1:45:32.080 --> 1:45:33.920 Yeah, that's why I wouldn't care if somebody peed in 1:45:33.960 --> 1:45:34.559 my shower. 1:45:35.160 --> 1:45:38.000 I had a guy call into the show once who 1:45:38.160 --> 1:45:42.880 said that. He he said, I pee in the shower, 1:45:43.320 --> 1:45:44.920 but I know everyone pees in the shower, but my 1:45:45.040 --> 1:45:49.240 thing is I only pee in the shower. Like like 1:45:49.320 --> 1:45:53.240 he'll like if he's like at someone's house, he holds 1:45:53.280 --> 1:45:55.360 it no no, no, no, Like like like if he's at 1:45:55.360 --> 1:45:58.519 someone's house and he's like, a hold on, I have 1:45:58.600 --> 1:46:01.240 to go to the bathroom. He goes to the bathroom, 1:46:01.280 --> 1:46:02.560 A piece in the shower. 1:46:02.320 --> 1:46:03.400 Would do that. 1:46:03.640 --> 1:46:04.799 I don't have no idea. 1:46:05.200 --> 1:46:07.760 He definitely should be calling you about that issue, because 1:46:07.760 --> 1:46:08.839 that's that's an issue. 1:46:09.080 --> 1:46:11.559 I don't know what I told him, but uh, yeah, 1:46:11.600 --> 1:46:13.880 I think I've started peeing the shower every time I 1:46:14.160 --> 1:46:14.839 take a shower. 1:46:14.960 --> 1:46:16.000 Yeah, you should. 1:46:16.200 --> 1:46:19.720 But then but then I'll be in the shower and 1:46:19.760 --> 1:46:21.519 then I sit down in the shower and I'm like, 1:46:21.600 --> 1:46:23.000 wait a minute, I'm sitting you pissed? 1:46:23.040 --> 1:46:26.559 Then you sit down immediately after? Or do you wait 1:46:26.600 --> 1:46:27.879 for the yellow to disappear? 1:46:27.960 --> 1:46:29.320 I wait for the yellow to disappear? 1:46:29.400 --> 1:46:29.799 Okay? 1:46:29.840 --> 1:46:33.360 Sometimes yeah, I'm gonna get like I'm gonna get out. 1:46:33.439 --> 1:46:37.920 Sometimes I'm gonna get athletes butthole athletes balls. 1:46:38.160 --> 1:46:39.920 You can't get infection in your booty ho it's a 1:46:39.960 --> 1:46:43.160 booty hole. You haven't seen that movie? 1:46:43.840 --> 1:46:44.680 Like, No, what movie is that? 1:46:45.160 --> 1:46:50.800 It's with Tiffany Hattish and uh and Jada Pinkett Smith. 1:46:51.000 --> 1:46:52.960 Is that there's no I feel like there's no science 1:46:53.000 --> 1:46:53.200 to them. 1:46:53.400 --> 1:47:00.479 Is it called girl? It's called Ladies Having Fun. I 1:47:00.479 --> 1:47:02.799 don't know what it's called, but the movie is Ladies 1:47:02.840 --> 1:47:03.320 having Fun. 1:47:03.600 --> 1:47:05.559 You can get all kinds of infections in your butthole. 1:47:07.240 --> 1:47:11.519 No, you can't google it right now? No, you can't google. 1:47:11.560 --> 1:47:13.040 Can you get an infection in your asshole? 1:47:13.040 --> 1:47:18.280 All right, I'm gonna actually do that. Can you get 1:47:19.439 --> 1:47:35.800 an infection in your asshole? Anal yeast infections are a 1:47:35.960 --> 1:47:42.880 common fungal inaction caused by a yeast called I should. 1:47:42.560 --> 1:47:44.679 Have been had that at one point in my life. 1:47:44.720 --> 1:47:45.680 I have not gotten that. 1:47:45.960 --> 1:47:47.640 Sorry to Tiffany Hattish. 1:47:47.840 --> 1:47:55.520 Intense itching sensation around your anu is called oh paritis Annie. 1:47:55.920 --> 1:48:01.000 But don't be alarmed. Treatments and they have anti fungal creams, ointments, suppositories, 1:48:01.760 --> 1:48:05.080 and you can prevent anal yeast infect this. I don't 1:48:05.120 --> 1:48:07.720 know why they wrote this. This is redundant. They said 1:48:07.760 --> 1:48:13.640 you can prevent anal yeast infections by keeping your purreianal 1:48:14.280 --> 1:48:17.920 area clean and dry, which probably includes not sitting and 1:48:18.000 --> 1:48:20.280 piss Yeah. 1:48:20.360 --> 1:48:27.000 Probably, but but but I'm not a doctor. But that's bullshit. 1:48:27.160 --> 1:48:32.200 You cannot get an infection in your asshole. I don't 1:48:32.200 --> 1:48:33.160 care what Google says. 1:48:35.960 --> 1:48:37.080 Hey, you want to take a phone call? 1:48:37.320 --> 1:48:37.519 Yeah? 1:48:37.560 --> 1:48:46.000 Yeah, ooh is any is anything standing out to you? Yeah? 1:48:46.080 --> 1:48:48.519 I kind of like Marco Marco. Let's talk to Marco 1:48:49.479 --> 1:48:51.040 Marco Marco. 1:48:51.880 --> 1:48:57.240 Yes, Hi, what's that baby? 1:48:58.360 --> 1:48:58.519 Oh? 1:48:59.320 --> 1:49:02.280 Not not my not much. I actually just uh, I 1:49:02.400 --> 1:49:04.320 just got done closing the store of my words. 1:49:04.400 --> 1:49:07.400 So all right, what's up? 1:49:07.439 --> 1:49:07.599 Man? 1:49:07.640 --> 1:49:10.360 Has life? Oh? 1:49:10.560 --> 1:49:13.400 Not too bad? Pretty good so far? Pretty chill? You 1:49:13.439 --> 1:49:17.600 know a vibean here, you know, chilling? Depressed. 1:49:18.880 --> 1:49:20.799 Yeah, depressed. 1:49:21.240 --> 1:49:25.160 I'm just kidious no, my mom al right, just a 1:49:25.160 --> 1:49:28.599 lot of stuff happening home life. But you know, things 1:49:28.600 --> 1:49:30.120 are going pretty okay so far. 1:49:30.000 --> 1:49:34.960 Though, can we Well, I guess I'll let you say 1:49:34.960 --> 1:49:36.439 it in your own words. What is it that you 1:49:36.479 --> 1:49:38.759 wanted to to to talk about with us today, Marco? 1:49:40.520 --> 1:49:45.439 Okay, so I was talking to I actually want to 1:49:45.439 --> 1:49:47.720 talk about it, Uh, something with one of my best 1:49:47.760 --> 1:49:50.639 friends I have done, uh, one of my best friends. 1:49:50.800 --> 1:49:55.960 I still talk to him to this day, but he actually, uh, 1:49:56.920 --> 1:50:01.360 we actually did stuff together, you know, like you know 1:50:01.439 --> 1:50:04.479 right now, I'm a I'm a I'm a I'm a 1:50:04.520 --> 1:50:09.439 straight man. You know, I'm a straight young man, and 1:50:09.600 --> 1:50:13.880 uh I have a girlfriend now, but I have a 1:50:13.880 --> 1:50:17.479 best friend that you know, me and him did stuff together. 1:50:17.880 --> 1:50:21.800 You know a couple of times, you know, I know 1:50:21.840 --> 1:50:24.080 there are times whenever he would grab my crotch and 1:50:24.080 --> 1:50:27.479 in the middle of the smith's store, there are times 1:50:27.920 --> 1:50:33.439 she would There was a time, yeah, yeah, there's there's 1:50:33.479 --> 1:50:35.200 a time whenever he was. 1:50:35.160 --> 1:50:38.519 A we were what was it. 1:50:38.400 --> 1:50:40.839 We were we were in a row. We were driving 1:50:40.840 --> 1:50:43.880 in his car one time and then out of nowhere. Uh, 1:50:44.840 --> 1:50:46.479 he was just kind of the crouch again and he 1:50:46.600 --> 1:50:49.000 was like, oh, your balls are so full, Oh my god, 1:50:49.439 --> 1:50:51.920 oh you're he was like, and I was just like, 1:50:52.320 --> 1:50:54.839 I kind of was just like, oh, okay, like normally 1:50:54.880 --> 1:51:01.040 I don't normally even dances like that. But but but I. 1:51:04.360 --> 1:51:06.960 Cool, man, you didn't want to hear the end of 1:51:06.960 --> 1:51:07.479 that story. 1:51:07.640 --> 1:51:10.920 If he really wanted to discuss that issue, he would 1:51:10.960 --> 1:51:13.280 have not described how full his balls were. 1:51:13.840 --> 1:51:15.680 He wasn't describing how full his balls, or he was 1:51:15.720 --> 1:51:17.679 describing somebody else describing how full. 1:51:17.920 --> 1:51:21.000 Well, right, no, but like whatever, still like he would have. 1:51:21.640 --> 1:51:23.719 I don't know. Maybe I'm more of like a reserved 1:51:24.200 --> 1:51:28.880 person sometimes, but I think he would have maybe gone 1:51:28.920 --> 1:51:31.280 about that differently if he was being dead ass serious. 1:51:31.439 --> 1:51:32.920 Do you think he was wait, do you like I 1:51:32.960 --> 1:51:34.479 think he was like? Do you I think he was 1:51:34.479 --> 1:51:36.080 playing it up? Or you think he was a straight line? 1:51:36.160 --> 1:51:38.559 I think he was fucking around or he was getting 1:51:38.560 --> 1:51:40.760 off on like telling us this publicly? 1:51:40.960 --> 1:51:41.640 Really you think? So? 1:51:42.000 --> 1:51:44.520 Yeah, a little bit, I don't. 1:51:44.920 --> 1:51:47.200 I want to respectfully disagree. I don't think he was 1:51:47.240 --> 1:51:47.759 doing that. 1:51:47.760 --> 1:51:49.040 That's fine, that's fine. 1:51:48.840 --> 1:51:52.800 But but you do you have I've I've relinquished upon 1:51:52.840 --> 1:51:54.679 you ultimate skipping power, dude. 1:51:54.439 --> 1:51:57.200 I don't I don't know, I don't know something about it, 1:51:57.280 --> 1:51:59.479 just being like yeah. And then he grabbed my nuts 1:51:59.520 --> 1:52:05.880 and he was like, fuck, your balls are so something 1:52:05.920 --> 1:52:06.360 about that? 1:52:06.720 --> 1:52:09.920 Does anything else anything else around here? Look? Look, look, 1:52:10.080 --> 1:52:10.679 look excited. 1:52:12.040 --> 1:52:13.040 Yeah, let me see. 1:52:14.760 --> 1:52:14.920 Hit. 1:52:16.400 --> 1:52:25.480 Wait mm hmmm. 1:52:30.720 --> 1:52:42.880 Uhh I kind of up up up, kind. 1:52:43.000 --> 1:52:46.360 Kind of cryan. 1:52:48.720 --> 1:52:58.000 Yeah, okay, cool, Let's talk to Ryan. Hello, Hello, Hi Ryan, Hello, 1:52:58.200 --> 1:52:59.759 what's up? Brian? Would you want to talk about today? 1:53:00.400 --> 1:53:00.720 What's not? 1:53:01.120 --> 1:53:01.360 Wow? 1:53:01.479 --> 1:53:08.479 I can't believe I'm on Wow, what's up? I guess, 1:53:08.520 --> 1:53:14.920 I told the screener. Uh yeah, yeah, I'm really nervous 1:53:14.960 --> 1:53:15.240 right now. 1:53:17.200 --> 1:53:20.800 If you don't feel comfortable doing it, don't, don't worry 1:53:20.840 --> 1:53:24.000 about it. Oh take your time. 1:53:27.720 --> 1:53:33.960 So oh yeah, so I guess, yeah, I get. I 1:53:34.000 --> 1:53:37.320 wanted to talk about like a couple of years ago, 1:53:38.680 --> 1:53:49.280 my dad died. I don't know why, but so, and 1:53:49.360 --> 1:53:54.360 I've been like doing really well since. And it's just interesting, 1:53:54.920 --> 1:53:58.880 Like I think about like a lot of people I 1:53:58.920 --> 1:54:01.360 know are like some people I know who were in 1:54:01.720 --> 1:54:05.880 they're like when of their parents passed away, they kind 1:54:05.920 --> 1:54:10.920 of like went into like a like a dark thing. 1:54:12.040 --> 1:54:16.240 But I'm like it's happened to me, like it's happened 1:54:16.280 --> 1:54:19.360 in my life now, and I'm like, I kind of 1:54:19.400 --> 1:54:23.479 just kind of just chilling. I know, I just thought 1:54:23.479 --> 1:54:24.160 it wasn't chilling. 1:54:25.160 --> 1:54:27.080 M hmm was it? 1:54:27.120 --> 1:54:29.840 And is there anything that you wanted to talk about 1:54:29.880 --> 1:54:34.040 regarding because I I it said that, pull that up 1:54:35.840 --> 1:54:37.960 something about your cousins or. 1:54:41.040 --> 1:54:45.640 Or I think the wrong one. Yeah, this is this 1:54:45.720 --> 1:54:46.200 is what he said. 1:54:46.240 --> 1:54:51.320 Oh I see, I see Okay, okay, okay, okay, sorry 1:54:51.360 --> 1:54:55.520 my my my eyesight is kind of fucked. 1:54:55.800 --> 1:54:55.920 Well. 1:54:55.960 --> 1:54:58.920 I guess I'll ask you this, Ryan, why do you 1:54:58.920 --> 1:55:01.080 feel like you're chilling so hard? Why do you feel 1:55:01.080 --> 1:55:04.720 like you're feeling feeling good? There's nothing wrong with feeling good. 1:55:04.760 --> 1:55:06.720 I don't think do you feel do you feel bad 1:55:06.760 --> 1:55:07.480 for feeling good? 1:55:07.680 --> 1:55:08.600 Yeah, that's a good question. 1:55:12.080 --> 1:55:16.200 I've thought about that a little bit. Like Yeah, but 1:55:16.240 --> 1:55:18.280 like I guess, like I said, like, I've been around 1:55:18.360 --> 1:55:22.360 some people and they're like, you know, like their dad 1:55:22.600 --> 1:55:26.280 passed away and like he was like someone I used 1:55:26.280 --> 1:55:30.280 to know. Yeah, and yeah, it like it like really 1:55:31.160 --> 1:55:38.720 fucked him up, like obviously, yeah, yeah, and it's I 1:55:38.800 --> 1:55:44.920 guess it's just interesting thinking about like someone else going 1:55:44.960 --> 1:55:47.760 through that and witnessing it and obviously like being there 1:55:47.840 --> 1:55:53.040 for him and you know, yeah, yeah, it's just it's 1:55:53.080 --> 1:55:56.800 just interesting, like what's up. 1:55:57.560 --> 1:55:59.400 Sorry, I was just I was saying that there's a 1:55:59.400 --> 1:56:05.320 lot of feeling that come with with something that uh 1:56:05.760 --> 1:56:12.720 kind of that big you know, so I think, yeah, 1:56:12.960 --> 1:56:16.680 you know, I haven't had that hasn't happened to me, 1:56:16.840 --> 1:56:22.560 but I yeah, I mean it's it's it's valid and 1:56:22.560 --> 1:56:30.720 and I think you should always strive to feel better 1:56:31.040 --> 1:56:34.280 and and just push forward. I think that that's kind 1:56:34.320 --> 1:56:37.880 of yeah, I think that that's that. I think you've 1:56:37.960 --> 1:56:40.120 you kind of got it you you kind of got 1:56:40.160 --> 1:56:43.360 it down, like I think, you know, but I think 1:56:43.400 --> 1:56:51.480 the guilt comes comes with with your situation, uh typically 1:56:52.240 --> 1:56:58.000 so and you know, yeah, I mean it's it's good 1:56:58.040 --> 1:57:00.839 that you feel good. It is good that you feel 1:57:02.360 --> 1:57:06.560 good unless you had some sort of some sort of 1:57:06.640 --> 1:57:09.880 issue like like it, I don't know, you know, it's 1:57:10.080 --> 1:57:12.720 it's just good that you're pushing forward. Period. 1:57:13.240 --> 1:57:19.440 So there's really yeah, yeah, yeah, like I don't know, 1:57:19.480 --> 1:57:23.120 it's it's obviously been you know, I felt I felt 1:57:23.320 --> 1:57:25.000 sad and have thought about it, you. 1:57:24.960 --> 1:57:28.760 Know since of course you know, yeah, but like, you know, 1:57:28.800 --> 1:57:31.240 it's always been like when I do, when I do, 1:57:31.360 --> 1:57:34.560 it's like pretty positive. Like I'm just thinking about like 1:57:35.320 --> 1:57:39.480 you know, i'm like late like snipering in on the 1:57:39.520 --> 1:57:41.880 good stuff, you know, and I'm like, yeah, you know 1:57:42.120 --> 1:57:42.800 he was good. 1:57:43.080 --> 1:57:45.480 Did you guys have did you guys have a good relationship? 1:57:48.440 --> 1:57:52.520 Yeah, I'd say I'd say, like through it it was 1:57:52.600 --> 1:57:55.000 pretty good. There was there was also like some not 1:57:55.240 --> 1:57:59.600 good stuff, but like and I think that kind of 1:57:59.600 --> 1:58:02.880 goes in to like kind of how I've felt since 1:58:02.920 --> 1:58:06.400 he hasn't been around to it's really interesting, like you know, 1:58:06.960 --> 1:58:11.280 there's like less tension. Yeah, but also you know I 1:58:11.320 --> 1:58:14.280 love him. I loved him, you know, to death, and 1:58:15.240 --> 1:58:16.360 you know he was cool as fuck. 1:58:17.480 --> 1:58:20.440 I think that it sounds like you have the tools 1:58:20.480 --> 1:58:22.920 to deal with the situation like this in a high 1:58:22.920 --> 1:58:26.120 stress In a high stress situation, your friend may not 1:58:26.240 --> 1:58:28.919 have known how to deal with this, and not everybody 1:58:28.960 --> 1:58:31.160 knows how to deal with this when this happens. It's 1:58:31.320 --> 1:58:35.720 very it's different with everyone. And I think you were 1:58:35.760 --> 1:58:39.760 just able to you you had some some sort of 1:58:41.160 --> 1:58:48.000 mechanism that allowed you to push through and you're and 1:58:48.040 --> 1:58:50.560 that's that's Yeah, i'd say a blessing. 1:58:53.880 --> 1:58:56.520 Yeah it's sam. Yeah, I do have that. 1:58:56.800 --> 1:58:59.120 I feel like I feel like i've I. 1:58:59.080 --> 1:59:02.120 Don't know, and also yeah, I don't know, just witnessing 1:59:02.160 --> 1:59:04.480 a lot of stuff and then I'm like, Okay, this 1:59:04.920 --> 1:59:06.800 might happen to me at some point, and. 1:59:06.760 --> 1:59:08.720 Then it doesn't. I'm like, okay, so. 1:59:10.320 --> 1:59:18.040 Kind of prepared, you know, pretty prepared somehow, but like, yeah, yeah, 1:59:18.040 --> 1:59:20.440 you're right. And and and you know, the person I 1:59:20.480 --> 1:59:25.480 knew that where that happened, and I was like, you know, 1:59:25.680 --> 1:59:28.800 pretty close to them in their life. It was, you know, 1:59:28.840 --> 1:59:31.760 we were all we were like twenty and I'm you know, 1:59:31.800 --> 1:59:36.120 that was ten years ago now, yeah, like in that area. 1:59:36.280 --> 1:59:39.800 So I don't know, it makes sense. And I you know, 1:59:39.920 --> 1:59:44.640 that is also valid too. I guess it's just weird, 1:59:44.880 --> 1:59:47.960 like having it Whitney see it happening to me now, 1:59:48.200 --> 1:59:51.160 you know, or having it have happened in the past 1:59:51.160 --> 1:59:54.640 now to me and I'm like, huh, I'm still out 1:59:54.640 --> 1:59:57.360 here kicking and I'm just moving. You know. 1:59:58.200 --> 1:59:58.840 It's just weird. 1:59:59.720 --> 2:00:03.200 But and I don't I'm not sensing I'm not even 2:00:03.240 --> 2:00:05.760 sensing that you do. But I don't. I don't think 2:00:05.800 --> 2:00:08.600 you should feel guilty about that. 2:00:11.800 --> 2:00:16.520 Yeah, there's an there's an uneasiness I think about. Yeah, 2:00:16.520 --> 2:00:19.760 there's an uneasiness or an unsureness about it, like do 2:00:19.840 --> 2:00:21.800 I act this way? Do I do this? And do 2:00:21.880 --> 2:00:24.960 should I feel this way? But I think that that 2:00:25.000 --> 2:00:29.880 bottom line, it's about it's about overcoming any sort of 2:00:30.600 --> 2:00:33.880 that kind of that kind of feeling. And it's and 2:00:33.920 --> 2:00:38.040 that it's also okay to have those feelings as long 2:00:38.080 --> 2:00:40.800 as they're balanced to you know what I mean to 2:00:40.840 --> 2:00:47.000 some degree. You know, when it becomes imbalanced and you 2:00:47.040 --> 2:00:52.720 feel it and you know you need answers, you know, 2:00:52.920 --> 2:00:57.280 ask and and that's kind of I don't know, that's 2:00:57.280 --> 2:01:01.000 how I view it. I also think like knowing that 2:01:01.360 --> 2:01:04.840 you loved him, and he probably loved you, he would 2:01:04.880 --> 2:01:07.560 love to see that you're okay. 2:01:07.800 --> 2:01:09.280 Yeah, yeah, you're doing good? 2:01:10.960 --> 2:01:11.200 You know. 2:01:11.880 --> 2:01:14.400 Yeah, that's that's that's the great part about it. 2:01:15.720 --> 2:01:15.920 You know. 2:01:17.440 --> 2:01:23.800 Oh yeah, how you feeling right now? Will I got 2:01:23.920 --> 2:01:25.320 h Hell? 2:01:25.440 --> 2:01:29.720 Yeah, I'm sound pretty good, mister geto. 2:01:30.400 --> 2:01:37.200 Hell yeah, what are you doing right now? Where are you? 2:01:40.520 --> 2:01:44.920 I'm just I'm just doing my apartment, just chilling. I'm 2:01:44.960 --> 2:01:48.800 just sitting on my couch. I just said the remainder 2:01:48.840 --> 2:01:54.400 of some popcorn. It was this cinnamon cinnamon bunon popcorn. 2:01:54.880 --> 2:01:56.360 Hell, yeah, that sounds awesome. 2:01:57.160 --> 2:01:58.600 H that's about it. 2:01:59.840 --> 2:02:06.040 You beat pop chips, pop corners, hop chips, pop corners. 2:02:06.640 --> 2:02:13.040 Pop corner, pop corn corner. Yeah the place. Yeah, that 2:02:13.160 --> 2:02:15.160 is literally what I have right now. 2:02:15.720 --> 2:02:19.040 Yeah, that's with the cinnamon and they taste like okay, 2:02:19.160 --> 2:02:23.680 put put that on vanilla ice cream? 2:02:23.760 --> 2:02:27.760 Oh my god, is this. 2:02:29.840 --> 2:02:31.440 From a store? Is just like a place that you 2:02:31.520 --> 2:02:31.800 go to? 2:02:31.960 --> 2:02:35.880 No, no, no, it's a brand popcorn pop Corners. 2:02:36.680 --> 2:02:38.640 Oh it's different from pop chips. Do you know what 2:02:38.680 --> 2:02:40.160 I used to do. 2:02:40.240 --> 2:02:43.600 I used to take the I used to take them 2:02:43.600 --> 2:02:45.600 and crush them up, the cinnamon ones and put them 2:02:45.600 --> 2:02:48.600 in a bowl with protein shake, the chocolate fair Life 2:02:49.640 --> 2:02:52.720 and literally cinnamon toast crunch. But like the health vibe, 2:02:52.840 --> 2:03:00.200 the health versions. Yeah, it's amazing. You can't stop though, 2:03:00.280 --> 2:03:01.000 that's the problem. 2:03:02.040 --> 2:03:03.320 Popcorn. 2:03:04.440 --> 2:03:06.560 Put that. Put that bitch in a bowl with some 2:03:06.760 --> 2:03:10.160 with some uh, with some protein shake. But it has 2:03:10.200 --> 2:03:11.320 to be chocolate. 2:03:15.600 --> 2:03:18.240 What could be? You could try vanilla if you're feeling. 2:03:18.160 --> 2:03:20.280 I don't know. I don't trust that crazy, I don't 2:03:20.280 --> 2:03:20.920 trust that. 2:03:21.560 --> 2:03:22.680 I have I have cooked. 2:03:22.960 --> 2:03:25.600 I have cookies and cream ice cream in my freezer 2:03:25.720 --> 2:03:26.080 right now. 2:03:26.520 --> 2:03:26.960 Hit that. 2:03:28.840 --> 2:03:31.800 Okay, kind of what kind of cookies and cream ice 2:03:31.840 --> 2:03:33.960 cream is? It? Was it Ben and Jerry's. 2:03:36.960 --> 2:03:40.360 I think it's just like, uh, you know, like Kroger 2:03:40.800 --> 2:03:46.920 Proger brand. Oh yeah, don't you know the good the 2:03:47.000 --> 2:03:48.000 good cheap kind. 2:03:47.880 --> 2:03:49.640 You know nice. 2:03:50.040 --> 2:03:54.240 That's that's crazy. You literally pinpointed the fucking popcorn I 2:03:54.320 --> 2:03:54.640 was eating. 2:03:54.680 --> 2:04:02.080 That's that's great, Yeah, because that's like the only cinnamon 2:04:02.080 --> 2:04:05.120 popcorn that's worth it. 2:04:05.600 --> 2:04:07.000 I don't know why. In my head, I thought you were. 2:04:07.560 --> 2:04:09.640 A little white buckets like the icing. 2:04:11.720 --> 2:04:13.600 I thought you had like a bucket. I thought you 2:04:13.600 --> 2:04:18.560 had a bucket with like cheddar, caramel, cinnamon. 2:04:19.240 --> 2:04:19.480 Yeah. 2:04:19.600 --> 2:04:23.760 No, there's this is like a it's like a bag. 2:04:25.560 --> 2:04:27.280 There's some snacks that I want to put you onto. 2:04:27.320 --> 2:04:28.320 I don't know the name of them. 2:04:29.160 --> 2:04:30.080 How would you? 2:04:30.080 --> 2:04:33.760 Can you discribe their tiny little little like patty circular 2:04:33.840 --> 2:04:34.800 like rice. 2:04:34.840 --> 2:04:39.280 Crack, Quaker Quaker oats, fucking rice cake. 2:04:41.080 --> 2:04:48.440 No, it's it's birthday cake flavored, birthday cake like funfetti flavored, 2:04:48.680 --> 2:04:52.640 like drizzled over with like little rainbow sprinkles on top 2:04:52.680 --> 2:04:53.800 of a rice cake. 2:04:53.760 --> 2:04:55.240 That sounds yeah. 2:04:56.520 --> 2:05:02.000 Oh yeah, gosh darn it. 2:05:04.000 --> 2:05:06.120 I need to go to the fucking grocery store. 2:05:05.880 --> 2:05:07.040 And get me some snack. 2:05:09.320 --> 2:05:11.440 That's right, you know what best snack. 2:05:12.760 --> 2:05:15.480 I'm feeling like everything is going to be all right. 2:05:16.000 --> 2:05:18.480 Yeah, me too, You. 2:05:21.000 --> 2:05:21.800 I think so too? 2:05:22.640 --> 2:05:26.760 Oh yeah, Well, is there is there anything else you 2:05:26.760 --> 2:05:28.760 want to say to the people of the computer before 2:05:28.800 --> 2:05:29.240 we go. 2:05:30.520 --> 2:05:31.480 Those your gek. 2:05:33.840 --> 2:05:38.120 Gek and I love you. 2:05:38.680 --> 2:05:39.400 I love you both. 2:05:39.760 --> 2:05:43.480 This is crazy. I'm talking to y'all. 2:05:44.920 --> 2:05:45.440 Everybody. 2:05:45.480 --> 2:05:47.240 I love you, I love you. 2:05:47.760 --> 2:05:56.160 Take care about about being by. 2:05:53.720 --> 2:05:56.680 Ryan Boom, by the being so you. 2:06:03.800 --> 2:06:05.800 How you doing good? 2:06:06.200 --> 2:06:10.080 This is so relaxing, probably because I've had a half 2:06:10.120 --> 2:06:13.320 of a fucking a forty. Oh I haven't even had 2:06:13.360 --> 2:06:15.560 half of the forty Honestly, I said that earlier and 2:06:15.640 --> 2:06:17.640 I did not. I was like, not even close. 2:06:17.400 --> 2:06:29.320 To that, does you? Kat? Thank you very very very 2:06:29.440 --> 2:06:31.480 much for coming on the show. 2:06:32.240 --> 2:06:35.800 Thank you, thanks for hanging out. 2:06:36.560 --> 2:06:40.839 Sincerely. I really appreciate you coming on. Is there anything 2:06:41.840 --> 2:06:47.120 that you would like to a plug or talk about 2:06:48.720 --> 2:06:51.600 you wise, and then be just say in general and 2:06:52.160 --> 2:06:54.880 final parting thoughts feeling sentiments. 2:06:55.440 --> 2:07:07.760 Yeah, if anyone out there feels like they're struggling with 2:07:07.760 --> 2:07:15.919 with figuring out maybe who they are or with their 2:07:16.120 --> 2:07:21.600 creativity in some form. Just fucking just do whatever you 2:07:21.680 --> 2:07:25.000 want and stop listening to other people unless you really 2:07:25.040 --> 2:07:28.800 trust their opinion, and like I mean really really really 2:07:28.880 --> 2:07:31.800 really trust their opinion and you know that they're dope. 2:07:33.120 --> 2:07:45.240 Other than that, yeah, love yourself and that's it. Oh 2:07:45.320 --> 2:07:46.120 what else do I have? 2:07:46.400 --> 2:07:46.560 Oh? 2:07:46.600 --> 2:07:48.920 I have my European leg of my tour coming up. 2:07:51.200 --> 2:07:58.120 I'm gonna be going to all the Peans, just a 2:07:58.120 --> 2:08:00.560 lot of Peans. There's a lot of places on to London, 2:08:01.000 --> 2:08:04.600 going to London. I'm not going to Germany, unfortunately, I 2:08:04.600 --> 2:08:07.839 am not going to Ireland. Oh am I going to Ireland? 2:08:08.080 --> 2:08:09.800 I don't know. I don't know a lot of things 2:08:09.800 --> 2:08:11.600 off the top of my head when it comes to like, 2:08:12.560 --> 2:08:18.640 you know, the plan of Yeah, things changed around actually too. 2:08:18.680 --> 2:08:26.960 I think I'm touring with Hemlock Springs and uh, she's fantastic, 2:08:27.080 --> 2:08:36.440 She's an amazing talent, and uh what else that's kind 2:08:36.440 --> 2:08:37.800 of it? Oh, I have a Oh, I have a 2:08:37.800 --> 2:08:41.240 thing coming out. I've also a deluxe uh scarlet. 2:08:42.120 --> 2:08:44.400 O what's in the deluxe scarlet? 2:08:44.440 --> 2:08:48.600 It's called it's S two. Uh Claude Fralo is the 2:08:48.680 --> 2:08:51.520 name of the The Deluxe, but it's it's just like 2:08:51.560 --> 2:08:54.000 an eight song, seven song something like that. 2:08:54.160 --> 2:08:57.280 Roughly, Okay, I'm gonna this might sound stupid. It's Claude Fralo, 2:08:57.400 --> 2:09:01.080 the guy from Yes, Yeah, I did you name it 2:09:01.120 --> 2:09:02.280 after Claude Fralo. 2:09:02.440 --> 2:09:06.280 Because he is like A is he a tyrant? He's 2:09:06.360 --> 2:09:11.760 just like a He's like a. I feel like it 2:09:11.800 --> 2:09:16.640 connects to the story of Scarlet to some in some way. 2:09:17.040 --> 2:09:23.400 And if you look up his personality traits and like 2:09:23.880 --> 2:09:27.600 who he is and his story, you'll understand kind of 2:09:28.560 --> 2:09:33.360 the whole the whole connection. There's like a control aspect, 2:09:33.440 --> 2:09:37.080 like he just abuses his power and his control and 2:09:37.280 --> 2:09:43.360 is just like dogmatic and like is just a total cunt. 2:09:43.400 --> 2:09:48.640 And all Esmurelda wanted to do was just be creative 2:09:48.680 --> 2:09:54.640 and sang and dance. But nasty old Claude Fralo is 2:09:54.760 --> 2:09:58.480 just having a field day on her and just being 2:09:58.960 --> 2:10:03.200 awful and bad guy, a sninky man. And this isn't 2:10:03.240 --> 2:10:07.240 about anyone in like, there's not anything very personal happening 2:10:07.320 --> 2:10:11.040 to me with one person. Claude follow doesn't depict a 2:10:11.080 --> 2:10:14.200 single person in my life. It's like a it's like 2:10:14.600 --> 2:10:22.480 a metaphor for the people that creatives endure on a 2:10:23.480 --> 2:10:26.320 kind of a yeah, on like a daily basis and 2:10:26.440 --> 2:10:32.720 like a bigger picture, a bigger scale, And that's kind 2:10:32.760 --> 2:10:35.440 of what that is. It's a if you just read 2:10:35.520 --> 2:10:37.480 up on him, it's kind of it makes sense with 2:10:37.560 --> 2:10:39.520 the other stuff that I was doing on the other album. 2:10:39.720 --> 2:10:42.880 The music isn't as angry on this one though. 2:10:43.000 --> 2:10:44.640 Check Out that song hell Fi, you know the one 2:10:44.680 --> 2:10:47.720 he goes fire hell Fire? 2:10:48.320 --> 2:10:51.640 Yes, yeah, oh my god, Yeah, that's a great song. 2:10:52.640 --> 2:10:52.720 Oh. 2:10:52.760 --> 2:10:54.360 You're also headlining Coachella soon. 2:10:55.920 --> 2:10:57.720 I am. I'm headlining Code. 2:10:57.960 --> 2:10:58.200 Oh. 2:10:59.360 --> 2:11:01.000 I think we're good. I thought the fire alarm. 2:11:00.800 --> 2:11:03.720 Was Yeah, you you summoned a fire by singing that 2:11:04.000 --> 2:11:04.400 I did? 2:11:04.640 --> 2:11:05.000 He did? 2:11:07.960 --> 2:11:11.600 Yeah, I have Coachella. I'm headlining Coachella and that's gonna 2:11:11.640 --> 2:11:15.920 be fun times. Get your booties down there, let's do 2:11:16.000 --> 2:11:21.160 some dancing and uh yeah, you'll enjoy it. I think I. 2:11:21.120 --> 2:11:25.080 Hope dog a Cat. You're a legend with a voice 2:11:25.080 --> 2:11:28.120 of a generation. I'm a big fan. Thank you, appreciate 2:11:28.160 --> 2:11:28.640 you coming on. 2:11:30.000 --> 2:11:33.480 Never big goes on the line, making your phone calls 2:11:33.560 --> 2:11:37.200 every night, never goes to on his Eide's teaching you 2:11:37.280 --> 2:11:40.240 cloud the end of your life, but he's not ready. 2:11:40.440 --> 2:11:41.160 An expert