WEBVTT - Using Breathwork In ED Recovery with Samantha Skelly (Outweigh)

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<v Speaker 1>I won't let my body out out way everything that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm made do, won't spend my life trying to change.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm learning to love who I am again. I'm strong,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel free, I know who every part of me.

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<v Speaker 1>It's beautiful and then will always out way if you

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<v Speaker 1>feel it with your hands in there, she's some love

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<v Speaker 1>to the food there. Let's say good day and did

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<v Speaker 1>you and die out? Happy Saturday. Outweigh fam Amy here

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm sitting with Samantha Skelly. She was actually a

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<v Speaker 1>guest on my Four Things podcast a couple of weeks ago,

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<v Speaker 1>and while we were talking, I learned that she has

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<v Speaker 1>had her own journey to healing with body image and

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<v Speaker 1>food issues. So I thought, well, let's connect and let's

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<v Speaker 1>have you on Outweigh because I'm all about hearing other

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<v Speaker 1>people's journeys and journey to recovery and reminding people that

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<v Speaker 1>whatever season they're in in their eating disorder, journey. Why

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<v Speaker 1>can't I think of a better word than journey right now?

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<v Speaker 1>I think I've said journey five times in three seconds.

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<v Speaker 1>But they're not alone, and that's that's why we do outweighs.

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<v Speaker 1>So thank you Samantha for for sharing some of your

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<v Speaker 1>story with us. Yeah, I'm so excited for this. I

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<v Speaker 1>think sharing stories honestly helped me get out of it.

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<v Speaker 1>And so the fact that you have this podcast just

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<v Speaker 1>sharing stories of some of the darkest days is going

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<v Speaker 1>to create so much liberation. So thank you for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna just go ahead and read a little. Samantha

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<v Speaker 1>scaly Bio. She has spent the last decade of her

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<v Speaker 1>career revolutionizing the personal and spiritual development industries. She has

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<v Speaker 1>appeared on networks and in publications worldwide. She shared her

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<v Speaker 1>message on over four hundred stages. I mean, I could

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<v Speaker 1>go on and on and on. But you work with

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<v Speaker 1>powerful people, you work with regular, everyday people. You're very

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<v Speaker 1>into breathwork. You have your own breathwork app. You've written

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<v Speaker 1>a book called Hungry for how Venus? So where does

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<v Speaker 1>you're eating to sort of fit into this? And what

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<v Speaker 1>what was that story? And then what was recovery like

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<v Speaker 1>for you? I grew as a dancer from such a

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<v Speaker 1>young age. I always knew I wanted to dance an

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<v Speaker 1>express and to this day I still that's my favorite

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<v Speaker 1>thing in the whole world, is dancing. And so I

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<v Speaker 1>went all the way to like professional with dancing, and

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<v Speaker 1>in that there was a lot of ballet that needed

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<v Speaker 1>to take place. I hated ballet, but I needed to

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<v Speaker 1>take it in order to have the technique to do contemporary,

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<v Speaker 1>which was the style that I that I loved most.

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<v Speaker 1>And the pressure of being a ballerina and the pressure

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<v Speaker 1>of being a dancer and being a child actress manifested

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<v Speaker 1>into an eating disorder when I was eighteen. The interesting

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<v Speaker 1>thing was is I had really like aggressive body to

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<v Speaker 1>s'more feel like crazy up until eighteen, but it was

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<v Speaker 1>eighteen when it turned into disordered eating. I remember I

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<v Speaker 1>was living in Australia at the time, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>on the beach and I was thinking to myself, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not dancing as much as I was. I need to

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<v Speaker 1>go on and die it. And it was like the

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<v Speaker 1>first diet I went on and it was the cabbage

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<v Speaker 1>soup diet. Did you ever do that one? Of course? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>of course. So I went to I went to the

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<v Speaker 1>store and I just bought craploads of cabbage and I

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<v Speaker 1>just ate cabbage suit for days and days and days

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<v Speaker 1>on end. And during that time period I was on

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<v Speaker 1>over fifty diets in less than four years. I had

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<v Speaker 1>no idea how to just eat normal. I had no

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<v Speaker 1>idea what intuitive eating was. I would wake up and

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<v Speaker 1>it was interesting. I would wake up in the morning

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<v Speaker 1>and the first thought on my mind was I cannot

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<v Speaker 1>I literally can't wait to go to bed tonight. And

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't so excided, like I didn't want to die,

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<v Speaker 1>but I didn't want to live with the thoughts and

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<v Speaker 1>the body image issues and the how uncomfortable I was.

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<v Speaker 1>And so I really was living in this state of

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<v Speaker 1>just extreme anxiety, just overwhelmed numbness. I felt like a

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<v Speaker 1>prisoner in my own body, like I always wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>just like escape my body. And it was It's very

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<v Speaker 1>interesting psychologically because I was actually the that same size

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<v Speaker 1>I am and I am now, and now I'm at

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<v Speaker 1>a place where I'm like, I really love my body

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<v Speaker 1>so much and nothing physically has changed, which is so

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<v Speaker 1>wild to me, Like it's just goes to show the

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<v Speaker 1>power of the mind. And so I got to this

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<v Speaker 1>place where I'm like, I can't live like this. This

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<v Speaker 1>is really this is so unhealthy, Like I need I

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<v Speaker 1>need to get help. And so that's when I started

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<v Speaker 1>to read a lot of books and listen to a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of stories of other women getting through it, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, Okay, what I know to be true is

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<v Speaker 1>it's possible for me to live a life where I

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<v Speaker 1>am not so bogged down by food and body. I

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<v Speaker 1>know that's possible because I've seen so many women do

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<v Speaker 1>it and I've heard so many stories of it. Now,

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<v Speaker 1>what is my way of getting there? Like? How do

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<v Speaker 1>how do I get there? And I think when we're

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<v Speaker 1>going through this, like I woke up every single day

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<v Speaker 1>and I created a vision for myself of what it

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<v Speaker 1>would be like when I no longer struggle with this,

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<v Speaker 1>like how how I would laugh and how I would

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<v Speaker 1>dress and how I would drive my car, and like

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<v Speaker 1>I created the whole other reality of what does Sam

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<v Speaker 1>Scali's life look like when she doesn't struggle with disordered eating?

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<v Speaker 1>And I woke up and acted as if that was

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<v Speaker 1>already done. Like I was like, it's already done. We're

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<v Speaker 1>already over this. And I I conditioned myself and I

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<v Speaker 1>told my body and I changed my mindset, and I

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<v Speaker 1>was living this other life like it was so interesting,

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<v Speaker 1>of like this is who I am and this doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>exist anymore, and and I was making a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>progress and then I went to BALI. I was reading

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<v Speaker 1>Elizabeth Gilbert's You Pray Love like I shared on the

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<v Speaker 1>last podcast, and I found breath work. And breath work

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<v Speaker 1>was that final tool that helped me get into my

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<v Speaker 1>body discern the difference between an emotional hunger que and

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<v Speaker 1>a physical hunger que. It helped me actually know that

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<v Speaker 1>I had an intuition, like people would say, just listen

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<v Speaker 1>to your intuition, and I'm like, I am so numb

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<v Speaker 1>in my body, Like I don't even know what that is.

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<v Speaker 1>Like as soon as I would feel any sort of

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<v Speaker 1>sensation in my body, I would either over eat or

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<v Speaker 1>restrict or over exercise or do something destructive in order

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<v Speaker 1>to get back into a place of numbness. And so

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<v Speaker 1>there was no chance I would be able to feel

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<v Speaker 1>my intuition. When I found breathwork and I begin to

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<v Speaker 1>really be an advent breather every single day and really

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<v Speaker 1>using this practice. It helped to liberate something that I

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<v Speaker 1>couldn't get to either with talk therapy or journaling or meditating,

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<v Speaker 1>or there was something there was another layer of depth

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<v Speaker 1>that I couldn't get to without breath work, and so yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that was the journey and it's really interesting because now,

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<v Speaker 1>like I built a whole business on this, and I

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<v Speaker 1>wrote a book on this, and my podcast used to

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<v Speaker 1>be called hungry for having this podcast, like it's all

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<v Speaker 1>I used to talk about. But it's interesting now because

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<v Speaker 1>it almost feels like a different life. I'm like, wait,

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<v Speaker 1>I used to say no to plans because I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>like how I looked. I feel the contrast so much now,

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<v Speaker 1>of of it's the same life. I'm still Samantha Skelly.

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<v Speaker 1>But there was a time in my life where it

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<v Speaker 1>was so dark and so deep that I had no

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<v Speaker 1>life like I had. I squeezed the life out of myself.

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<v Speaker 1>And now my life looks and feels completely different, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's been an interesting, beautiful ride. And you know, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just like you're speaking, and all that I'm thinking

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<v Speaker 1>is like, this is offering so much hope. This is

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<v Speaker 1>a story of hope. And for people that feel hopeless,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure you can agree. If you've experienced an eveny

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<v Speaker 1>sort or whatever it is that you're using to numb out,

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<v Speaker 1>you almost have days where like, Okay, well this is

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<v Speaker 1>just how I am, and this is how I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to be the rest of my life, and that is

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<v Speaker 1>very hopeless. And so to hear you share the contrast

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<v Speaker 1>and how you were once there and now how drastically

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<v Speaker 1>different your life is, it's like, wow, this is yet

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<v Speaker 1>another story of hope. And of course you had to

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<v Speaker 1>put in the work to get there. It didn't just

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<v Speaker 1>like happen overnight, just like you kept taking the right

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<v Speaker 1>next step towards that. And then as if we've heard

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<v Speaker 1>that from I would say multiple people that have come

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<v Speaker 1>on in recovery, like that's been a common theme of

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<v Speaker 1>like even when you're in it, like you were just

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<v Speaker 1>in the early stages, but I still have to use

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<v Speaker 1>as if and I've been in recovery for two years,

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<v Speaker 1>because sometimes a thought will creep back in and I'll

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<v Speaker 1>be like, I shouldn't get the pizza because blah la

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<v Speaker 1>la whatever, And then I'm like, nope, I'm gonna go ahead,

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<v Speaker 1>and as if that this is my this is normal,

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<v Speaker 1>and as if like this is what I would do

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<v Speaker 1>if my brain didn't just say that, and I order

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<v Speaker 1>the freaking pizza totally totally, And what we're actually doing

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<v Speaker 1>is we're in training the body by doing that. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>it's so powerful, It's not just a quick little mindset thing.

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<v Speaker 1>We're literally putting new information in our body when we

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<v Speaker 1>choose that, and it really is a choice because sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>when the voices in your head, it's so loud and

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<v Speaker 1>powerful and it feels like truth, and it feels like

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<v Speaker 1>the only way. But if we can observe the voice

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<v Speaker 1>rather than identify with the voice, we create liberation, We

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<v Speaker 1>create spaciousness from it. And so that was my whole journey,

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<v Speaker 1>is how can I observe all of the emotionality and

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<v Speaker 1>all of the thought in my mind and know that

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<v Speaker 1>I am not those thoughts and I am not those identities.

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<v Speaker 1>Like for the longest time, my identity was I am anxious.

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<v Speaker 1>I am anxious. I am an anxious person, and I

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<v Speaker 1>wore that identity every single day, and I would make

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<v Speaker 1>excuses to not do things because I am anxious, until

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<v Speaker 1>I realized that, no, I'm actually not an anxious person.

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<v Speaker 1>I experienced the sensation of anxiety at times, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not anxious. And when I allowed myself to be liberated

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<v Speaker 1>from that identity, that's when things really begin to shift.

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<v Speaker 1>And not only can we liberate from stagnant old identities,

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<v Speaker 1>but we can actually choose the identities and the beliefs

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<v Speaker 1>that we want to step into. I am somebody who

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<v Speaker 1>uses food for fuel and and hunger. I am somebody

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<v Speaker 1>who loves their body. I am somebody who feels so

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<v Speaker 1>vibrant in the world. And I am somebody who feels

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<v Speaker 1>so good no matter what she wears, like it doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>even matter. But getting ourselves into the vibration, into the

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<v Speaker 1>belief of these new identities from that future self that

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<v Speaker 1>we're stepping into. Right, who are you when it's not done?

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<v Speaker 1>Who are you when you no longer struggle? And what

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<v Speaker 1>are you gonna do with all the spaciousness that your

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<v Speaker 1>mind was was, you know, clogging up with with the

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<v Speaker 1>disordered eating, Like, there's so much spaciousness to create and

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<v Speaker 1>to be and to play and have fun and do

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<v Speaker 1>whatever you want to do in life. It's a beautiful

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<v Speaker 1>healing process. And it's really hard. Like I'm not going

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<v Speaker 1>to sugarcoat that, no bunont done it. I'm not right.

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<v Speaker 1>It's really challenging to show up every single day and

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<v Speaker 1>to shift those thoughts and choose ourselves and take those

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<v Speaker 1>breaks to breathe and to feel and to cry when

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<v Speaker 1>we need to and to release, Like that is the

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<v Speaker 1>ultimate game of self love, Like how can I really

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<v Speaker 1>treat my body with so much compassion and care and

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<v Speaker 1>kindness and when it's hard to admit that it's hard

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<v Speaker 1>and know that this is this is a marathon, it's

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<v Speaker 1>not a sprint, And so from that angle, it's just

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<v Speaker 1>like there's a lot of healing that gets to happen. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't even say I'm totally on the other side yet,

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<v Speaker 1>because I still feel like two years in, I'm still

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<v Speaker 1>I'm infancy in my recovery or like at least coming

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<v Speaker 1>up on a toddler or something. But I still have

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<v Speaker 1>to work, but I already get to see this whole

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<v Speaker 1>other world that I never knew existed. And I get

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<v Speaker 1>to experience food as joy too. I know you mentioned,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, as fuel and and as to fulfill hunger

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<v Speaker 1>and and it is that but for me for so long,

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<v Speaker 1>because food was a big part of my family and

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<v Speaker 1>it was a love language and we gathered around the

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<v Speaker 1>table and my dad loved to cook. And some of

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<v Speaker 1>my listeners, if you're new, you don't know this story,

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<v Speaker 1>but some of my listeners know, like I missed out

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<v Speaker 1>on so many family meals because I either just like

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<v Speaker 1>didn't eat, or I didn't go or I brought my

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<v Speaker 1>own food, which was like completely causing the one way

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<v Speaker 1>my dad was trying to connect caused disconnection. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think he was like super offended and never

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<v Speaker 1>he never held it against me, Thank goodness. He was

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<v Speaker 1>very kind about it and didn't if any thing. I

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<v Speaker 1>was the one I was bringing all this toxic energy

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<v Speaker 1>into the meal because I'm like, I can't believe you're

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<v Speaker 1>going to eat that, you know, sort of attitude and vibe.

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<v Speaker 1>And then it's just crazy how food can be joy

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<v Speaker 1>And now I can gather around the table with family friends.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean even in our theme song for this podcast,

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<v Speaker 1>which I recorded with Britney Spencer, who I just absolutely

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<v Speaker 1>adore up and coming country artists. That's just so amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>I encourage you to check her out. But one of

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<v Speaker 1>the lines is gathering basically for family meals around the table,

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<v Speaker 1>eating what grandma cooked. Because now I'm able like a whoa,

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<v Speaker 1>I just got goose bumps. And that line was important

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<v Speaker 1>for us to put in because she experienced missing out

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<v Speaker 1>on certain things too all because what we're trying to

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<v Speaker 1>conform to this or something, there's different narratives for everything.

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<v Speaker 1>There's different reasons why we're doing it. But a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of times it's like, oh, well, I can't have that

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<v Speaker 1>because I D says this, this, this. But then there's

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<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of reasons why we do what we

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<v Speaker 1>do are we are very complex human beings. But the

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful thing is something as simple as is not the

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<v Speaker 1>whole part of the healing package. But for you, breathwork

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<v Speaker 1>was imperative to your healing. And I just want to

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<v Speaker 1>encourage others to go check out our chat that we

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<v Speaker 1>did on my four Things podcast a couple of weeks ago,

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<v Speaker 1>and also to check out Pause breathwork dot com, which

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<v Speaker 1>is where they can find out more info about breathing.

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<v Speaker 1>And then on Instagram you're at Samantha Skelly s k

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<v Speaker 1>E l l Y and people can check out the

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<v Speaker 1>pause app and even start the breathing because maybe if

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<v Speaker 1>they're just like they don't even know where to start.

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<v Speaker 1>And I feel like if they're listening to this podcast,

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<v Speaker 1>they're either curious about what's going on with them, or

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<v Speaker 1>they're in the thick of it, or maybe they're also

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<v Speaker 1>in recovery and they need extra tools to just keep

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<v Speaker 1>on that track. Wherever you are in your journey, you

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<v Speaker 1>can probably find thirty seconds to three minutes to five

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<v Speaker 1>minutes a day to just start in corporate that breathing

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<v Speaker 1>which will help calm you. And Samantha can give a

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<v Speaker 1>quick rundown of like how that can just help reset you,

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<v Speaker 1>especially if you're on the verge of like a binge,

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<v Speaker 1>or you've been restricting, or you're about to go to

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<v Speaker 1>the gym and you know, purge through a three hour workout,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe stop and try breathing first. Yeah, you know, it's interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like when we have those behaviors, right, whether it's

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<v Speaker 1>been drinking or binge eating or restricting or over exercising,

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<v Speaker 1>what we need to acknowledge that there's a really pure

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<v Speaker 1>need underneath the distructive behavior. Right, So the destructive behavior

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<v Speaker 1>is all of our survival strategy, right, It's like that

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<v Speaker 1>fear mind ego, like I'm going to die if I

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<v Speaker 1>don't do this type of thing. But when we get

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<v Speaker 1>into a relationship with our survival strategy, just ask your body,

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<v Speaker 1>ask yourself, what do I actually need right now? Is

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<v Speaker 1>it to go to the gym and bust out a

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<v Speaker 1>three hour workout? Like what is the pure need, and

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<v Speaker 1>when we strip it down, the needs are so simple.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like I need presence, I I need love, I

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<v Speaker 1>need connection, I need validation, I need warmth, whatever it is.

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<v Speaker 1>And so then we get to ask ourselves, how can

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<v Speaker 1>I meet these needs in a really healthy and sustainable way? Right?

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<v Speaker 1>How can I actually feel self love? Because it's like,

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<v Speaker 1>why do we go to the gym and work out?

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<v Speaker 1>I'll just create like one narrative, right, we go to

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<v Speaker 1>the gym and workout because we want to be skinny. Right, Well,

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<v Speaker 1>why do we want to be skinny because we want

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<v Speaker 1>to look at? Okay, well, why do we want to

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<v Speaker 1>look at because we think that will be more loved? Right,

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<v Speaker 1>that's just an example. Okay, Well, the true need is

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<v Speaker 1>I want to be loved. I want to feel loved.

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<v Speaker 1>So how can we meet that in a really healthy,

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<v Speaker 1>sustainable way without doing the thing that's destructive for for ourselves.

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<v Speaker 1>This is where we can really like untangle and unwind

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<v Speaker 1>the path of healing. And this is where we get

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<v Speaker 1>to bring in a lot of compassion for our destructive behaviors, right,

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<v Speaker 1>because at the at the core of it, there's a

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<v Speaker 1>really pure need. It's just being manifested in a destructive

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<v Speaker 1>behavior which is driving us crazy. I love that you

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<v Speaker 1>said compassion too, because please be patient with yourself and

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<v Speaker 1>just because you're not where I am, or where Samantha is,

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<v Speaker 1>or where your friend is, your coworker, whatever it is,

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<v Speaker 1>how whatever brought you here to listen to outweigh wherever

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<v Speaker 1>you are, I'm gonna say the word journey, which is

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<v Speaker 1>what's ironic is I'm literally wearing a journey when you

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<v Speaker 1>said so good, so um. I started off by saying

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<v Speaker 1>journey a bunch, and I'm going to end by saying

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<v Speaker 1>journey a bunch, and then I'll give a song pun

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<v Speaker 1>and be like, don't stop believing yourself. You have the power,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know it can seem overwhelming and daunting, but

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<v Speaker 1>proceed with compassion and with grace for yourself, and be

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<v Speaker 1>gentle with yourself because this isn't something that happens overnight.

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<v Speaker 1>And you're not alone. Yeah, so not alone. So thank

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<v Speaker 1>you Samantha for sharing some of your story with us

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<v Speaker 1>and some of your wisdom and insight. Definitely appreciate it. Again,

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<v Speaker 1>y'all can finder. I'm sure the best thing. Samantha Scully

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<v Speaker 1>dot com s k E l L Y and all

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<v Speaker 1>of your links and everything are there, so I just

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<v Speaker 1>I I appreciate you. Thanks for coming on four things

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<v Speaker 1>and then again doing outweigh and breathwork looks like that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's it's like the writing thing, and it's like get

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<v Speaker 1>an get in on it, get in on it all right.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Samantha. Of course, my pleasure