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Speaker 1: Ye when we get there after ice cream.

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Speaker 3: That is super local English humor. But you know you

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Speaker 3: I'm mini driver. I've always loved Proust's questionnaire. It was

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Speaker 3: In asking different people the same set of questions, you

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Speaker 3: And it made me wonder, what if these questions were

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Speaker 3: revealed if I asked these quesses as conversation starters. So

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Speaker 3: I adapted Prue's questionnaire and I wrote my own seven

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Speaker 3: questions that I personally think are pertinent to a person's story.

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Speaker 3: They are when and where were you happiest? What is

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Speaker 3: the quality you like least about yourself? What relationship, real

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Speaker 3: can you tell me something in your life that's grown

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Speaker 3: We've whittled it down to which questions felt closest to

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Speaker 3: fertile ground to connect. My guest today is the brilliant

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Speaker 3: But like all great people and artists who remain interested

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Speaker 3: The Forest is the Path.

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Speaker 2: And it is absolutely beautiful. Where and when were you happiest?

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Speaker 3: And I think you're doing exactly the most beautiful, amazing

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Speaker 3: It's like it's spinach in your teeth and dollar signs

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Speaker 2: So I don't know, Gary, I'm so proud of this

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Speaker 3: I hope that it was really healing, and I bet

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Speaker 3: Mini Questions is hosted and written by Me Mini Driver,

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Speaker 3: executive produced by Me and Aaron Kaufman, with production support

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Speaker 3: from Jennifer Bassett, Zoe Denkler, and Ali Perry.

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Speaker 2: The theme music is also by Me and additional music

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Speaker 2: by Aaron Kaufman.

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