WEBVTT - Our Polyamorous Relationship w/ Ky 0:00:15.240 --> 0:00:21.279 Oh, brother, welcome to this. 0:00:21.640 --> 0:00:24.200 That don't sit right with me. 0:00:25.520 --> 0:00:29.960 Letting letting Kay get the class camera one time, and 0:00:29.960 --> 0:00:31.160 he wants to take charge. 0:00:31.160 --> 0:00:32.960 I wanted I've always wanted to do the cloud. 0:00:33.040 --> 0:00:34.120 I get the last class. 0:00:34.120 --> 0:00:36.160 Oh, before we start every episode, we have to clap 0:00:36.200 --> 0:00:39.640 each other's cheeks so that the audio and like video 0:00:39.880 --> 0:00:43.120 is like aligned, so we do spank each other. And 0:00:43.200 --> 0:00:45.360 Ki wanted to get spanked, but we can't let him 0:00:45.360 --> 0:00:45.559 have it. 0:00:45.680 --> 0:00:52.920 Anyways, Okay, I'm gonna actually go. And I literally hate 0:00:53.000 --> 0:00:58.200 open cabinets so much. The reason why they have doors, 0:00:58.200 --> 0:01:01.520 it's because they're supposed to be shut. Wow, that was 0:01:02.280 --> 0:01:03.120 me that left it open. 0:01:05.200 --> 0:01:08.720 Well, welcome to this episode of Emergency Intercolm. If you 0:01:08.800 --> 0:01:12.360 feel like the funk shue is a little off, I 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:15.880 don't know why that word is in my vocabulary. I 0:01:15.920 --> 0:01:17.880 think it's because that lady literally fucking yelled at me 0:01:17.920 --> 0:01:21.040 over my bag. She barked at me, but I liked it, 0:01:21.080 --> 0:01:21.640 like it felt good? 0:01:22.040 --> 0:01:24.720 Did it actually feel good? No? It was really she 0:01:24.760 --> 0:01:26.600 said it. It was like really disrespectful to me. 0:01:26.640 --> 0:01:28.679 I was like, no, it fully was, but like I 0:01:28.720 --> 0:01:30.080 was like, you know what, I could get down with this. 0:01:30.240 --> 0:01:34.560 She was like very neurotic of the backstory. This girl 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:37.640 at this event, like random person was sitting next to 0:01:37.680 --> 0:01:39.640 in you at this table and and you put her 0:01:39.640 --> 0:01:41.760 purse on the ground and she was like, that's bad 0:01:42.040 --> 0:01:43.880 functuay to put it on the ground. And I don't 0:01:43.880 --> 0:01:45.720 want you to bring that energy around me, so like 0:01:46.160 --> 0:01:48.000 just like pick up your purse and so and you 0:01:48.120 --> 0:01:50.640 like put it on her seat or something, and like 0:01:51.000 --> 0:01:52.880 she was like just kept going about how like she 0:01:52.920 --> 0:01:54.520 didn't want that bad energy around us. 0:01:54.520 --> 0:01:56.400 And I was like, well, I carry bad energy everywhere 0:01:56.440 --> 0:01:58.000 I go, so I don't plan on changing that. 0:01:58.240 --> 0:02:01.080 Yeah, are you guys gonna introduce me or. 0:02:01.040 --> 0:02:02.040 Oh I forgot you were here? 0:02:02.120 --> 0:02:02.720 Yeah, that was weird. 0:02:03.160 --> 0:02:05.080 It did seem like you guys completely No. 0:02:05.080 --> 0:02:07.360 No, we were just talking about the bad functioning. We 0:02:07.440 --> 0:02:09.840 have really bad mental issues, and I was going to 0:02:09.880 --> 0:02:11.520 get to it eventually. 0:02:11.000 --> 0:02:13.639 Okay, at some point, maybe like thirty minutes into the episode, 0:02:13.680 --> 0:02:15.640 we'd be like, oh right, I also Kai here wa? 0:02:15.840 --> 0:02:18.960 Kai is here? This is Kay's episode the intro. 0:02:19.440 --> 0:02:23.160 Yeah, Well, as you can tell, what I was trying 0:02:23.160 --> 0:02:25.480 to say is if the ora is like a little different, 0:02:25.760 --> 0:02:28.720 it's because Kai is on camera today, which is something 0:02:28.760 --> 0:02:31.600 everyone begs for, Like, but they beg for KAIKM. 0:02:32.120 --> 0:02:34.240 Yeah, they beg for KAIKM. But we're giving you a 0:02:34.320 --> 0:02:37.120 Kai episode because I feel like it's it's like only 0:02:37.280 --> 0:02:40.240 right to just like get to know Kai a little 0:02:40.280 --> 0:02:43.239 bit more. I feel like you guys kind of don't 0:02:43.320 --> 0:02:46.400 know him, and I think it's important to the whole 0:02:47.919 --> 0:02:51.240 ecosystem that is Emergency Intercom for you to learn about 0:02:51.280 --> 0:02:51.880 each of us. 0:02:52.120 --> 0:02:54.520 Well more importantly, we don't have the budget for another 0:02:54.560 --> 0:02:57.480 fucking camera, Like, we don't have two cameras. This camera 0:02:57.520 --> 0:03:00.000 isn't even ours, it's Josh's the one who for the podcast. 0:03:00.080 --> 0:03:02.120 People still don't even know how to spell my name. 0:03:02.680 --> 0:03:03.720 Oh do you want to? 0:03:03.800 --> 0:03:07.080 That could be your introduction break under introduction? Who are you? 0:03:07.520 --> 0:03:08.160 What do you do? 0:03:08.240 --> 0:03:08.760 What do you do? 0:03:09.040 --> 0:03:11.000 How you filtrade Emergency in or Com? 0:03:11.160 --> 0:03:14.200 So my name is Kai Newman. It's spelled k Y. 0:03:14.960 --> 0:03:18.560 My parents just decided that they wanted it to be 0:03:18.680 --> 0:03:19.520 like that. 0:03:19.520 --> 0:03:20.720 That was fuzzy as hell. 0:03:20.960 --> 0:03:22.480 Sorry I was in the middle of Oh yeah, no, 0:03:22.520 --> 0:03:26.160 I know. Sorry, I infiltrated Emergency in or Com by 0:03:27.600 --> 0:03:31.280 talking to Druid a party about ketamine therapy for depression. 0:03:31.440 --> 0:03:33.960 You always forget that I was a part of that conversation, but. 0:03:33.919 --> 0:03:35.640 I you were a part of it, but I didn't. 0:03:35.680 --> 0:03:37.080 I thought that you didn't remember that you were a 0:03:37.080 --> 0:03:37.400 part of it. 0:03:37.480 --> 0:03:39.360 Yeah, I didn't. I didn't even actually remember that you were. 0:03:39.560 --> 0:03:41.160 No, I was fully a part of it because we 0:03:41.160 --> 0:03:43.240 were all talking about depression, and I think that's when 0:03:43.240 --> 0:03:47.920 I was still in my really really dark depression depressive episode, 0:03:48.280 --> 0:03:49.880 and then I tapped out because I was like, Oh, 0:03:49.920 --> 0:03:51.600 this for real isn't going to stop, and it's actually 0:03:51.640 --> 0:03:53.520 going to make me like end my life tonight, So 0:03:53.560 --> 0:03:54.160 I'm tapping out. 0:03:54.200 --> 0:03:56.040 I thought you didn't remember, because when I talked to 0:03:56.080 --> 0:03:58.920 you like a year later, you were like, oh, it's 0:03:58.920 --> 0:04:00.520 so cool meeting you for the first time. 0:04:00.600 --> 0:04:04.720 Because I didn't like put that together like be bodied immediately. 0:04:05.760 --> 0:04:08.600 That was the first one out of many that conversation 0:04:08.680 --> 0:04:11.400 stuck with me for a very very long time. Really, Yeah, 0:04:11.480 --> 0:04:13.960 the one outside yeah on the balcony, because me and 0:04:14.040 --> 0:04:16.640 Kai literally talked for like, I feel like three hours, 0:04:16.640 --> 0:04:20.760 and then we also like like invited other people into 0:04:20.760 --> 0:04:23.880 our discussions and it like became like this big circle 0:04:24.120 --> 0:04:29.159 of people. We commanded Yeah, Chautau on the balcony. 0:04:29.160 --> 0:04:30.920 I don't remember who else it was, though, I feel 0:04:30.920 --> 0:04:33.080 like like Nick. 0:04:32.839 --> 0:04:35.080 When I was there, and then three or four other 0:04:35.160 --> 0:04:37.640 random people that I still to this day don't know. 0:04:37.920 --> 0:04:42.120 Yeah, I remember you talking about getting like in an 0:04:42.240 --> 0:04:44.599 uber and then talking about needing to ship really bad. 0:04:45.560 --> 0:04:48.719 I don't remember that was your first introduction to India. 0:04:48.760 --> 0:04:51.120 I remember needing to ship. I feel like that's like 0:04:51.360 --> 0:04:52.599 most people's introduction. 0:04:52.760 --> 0:04:56.120 Most introductions to me are like people walking away and 0:04:56.120 --> 0:04:57.640 being like I still have no idea who that is. 0:04:57.680 --> 0:05:00.000 And that's good. That is good. You should block yourself 0:05:00.040 --> 0:05:06.320 fall from strangers. Everyone is scary, Yeah, exactly. But yeah, 0:05:06.360 --> 0:05:10.560 I I genuinely when I when we spoke. The next 0:05:10.600 --> 0:05:13.880 time I saw Kai was outside in the front of 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:14.800 the house. 0:05:15.400 --> 0:05:16.400 Like a year later too. 0:05:16.480 --> 0:05:17.920 Yeah, it was like a long time. 0:05:17.960 --> 0:05:19.520 It was almost like a year and a half later. 0:05:19.600 --> 0:05:20.760 It was a peak pandemic. 0:05:20.800 --> 0:05:23.880 Within that time, the pandemic started and then the protests 0:05:24.000 --> 0:05:26.159 in La yeah, like all over the country. 0:05:26.400 --> 0:05:28.159 Yeah, and that's when I was like riding my bike 0:05:28.200 --> 0:05:30.040 and that's why I saw you, because I came back 0:05:30.080 --> 0:05:31.039 from my bike ride. 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:33.120 Yeah, and it looked like me and Kai had just 0:05:33.160 --> 0:05:33.680 hooked up. 0:05:34.200 --> 0:05:36.719 I genuinely thought y'all were hooking up when he first 0:05:36.760 --> 0:05:38.720 started coming over. Like I don't know if I'm allowed 0:05:38.760 --> 0:05:41.080 to say that on the podcast, but that's genuinely what 0:05:41.160 --> 0:05:44.599 I thought. Like I was, like I did. I never 0:05:44.680 --> 0:05:46.400 once went to go check what you guys were doing. 0:05:46.400 --> 0:05:47.960 I don't know if you know. I never like I 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:51.800 never stepped foot. I never like Kai never introduced himself 0:05:51.800 --> 0:05:53.360 to me. So I was like, oh, this is something 0:05:53.440 --> 0:05:56.600 I shouldn't like glance twice at and like I can 0:05:56.680 --> 0:05:58.279 respect that, and like I was just like, I'm not 0:05:59.120 --> 0:05:59.880 this this man. 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:01.880 I mean, we were hooking up, but you should have 0:06:02.000 --> 0:06:03.120 just like said you thought I. 0:06:03.160 --> 0:06:05.520 Was pulling up at three pm on like a Wednesday. 0:06:05.800 --> 0:06:07.560 Yeah, I was like, yeah, they're really about it. 0:06:07.640 --> 0:06:10.880 Like I'll never for kick I've been wearing his mask 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:15.880 through the house that I was like, this motherfucker thinks 0:06:15.920 --> 0:06:16.560 were dirty. 0:06:16.839 --> 0:06:20.800 It was so that was I think about that, like 0:06:21.200 --> 0:06:22.960 That'll be an intrusive thought that I have when I'm 0:06:23.000 --> 0:06:27.279 driving gogere what happens For those of you that don't know, 0:06:27.320 --> 0:06:29.159 I pulled up to their apartment. This is the first 0:06:29.200 --> 0:06:31.440 time I'd ever like I feel like it's the first 0:06:31.440 --> 0:06:34.679 time I ever like hung out with everybody at once. Yeah, 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:36.480 And it was like if you could even call it 0:06:36.520 --> 0:06:39.320 hanging out, because like I walked in, Drew was like 0:06:39.360 --> 0:06:41.240 gonna give me I think it was like a vase 0:06:41.360 --> 0:06:41.760 or something. 0:06:41.839 --> 0:06:42.400 Yeah. 0:06:42.440 --> 0:06:44.840 And then I walked in and you guys were all 0:06:44.839 --> 0:06:47.440 sitting on the couch without your masks because you all 0:06:47.440 --> 0:06:49.520 like lived together and like hang out all the time. 0:06:49.760 --> 0:06:51.880 And I was wearing my masks. It was like peak 0:06:52.000 --> 0:06:57.320 or it was like mid pandemic. And then I was like, oh, hey, 0:06:57.360 --> 0:06:59.600 what's up. I like said hi in a really weird way. 0:06:59.640 --> 0:07:01.960 You guys are watching Dave or something. You're like, oh, 0:07:02.040 --> 0:07:03.280 it's a like random person. 0:07:03.440 --> 0:07:06.880 Did I literally it was. I remember it was like you, Me, Josh, 0:07:07.360 --> 0:07:10.640 o'rian and maybe Lucas or Christian it was like one 0:07:10.680 --> 0:07:12.720 of them. Like it was like just all of us 0:07:12.760 --> 0:07:13.520 like sitting around. 0:07:13.600 --> 0:07:17.600 I think, yeah, it was definitely Ryan was there. Yeah, 0:07:18.080 --> 0:07:19.600 and then I was just like I don't know what 0:07:19.720 --> 0:07:22.000 to do. I think I'm just gonna keep my mask on. 0:07:22.120 --> 0:07:24.600 Dude. I felt so bad because I was like, Dude, 0:07:24.600 --> 0:07:27.240 I like brought him into this environment where like it's 0:07:27.280 --> 0:07:29.200 just a bunch of people, like not a bunch like 0:07:29.200 --> 0:07:30.960 five people without a mask, and like I was like, 0:07:31.000 --> 0:07:33.640 oh my god, he's like freaking out because he's gonna 0:07:33.640 --> 0:07:35.760 get COVID from us. But we hadn't been anywhere in 0:07:35.800 --> 0:07:37.040 two weeks, so I was just. 0:07:36.960 --> 0:07:39.280 Like, yeah, no, you know what it was. It was 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:42.440 like that funny time during the pandemic where everyone's like 0:07:42.600 --> 0:07:47.680 logical sentences about like our ideas about how to maneuver 0:07:47.880 --> 0:07:51.120 through groups made no sense because it wasn't like you 0:07:51.200 --> 0:07:53.520 being in a mask. That bothered me because I was like, girl, like, yeah, 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:56.440 get yours, like I get it, Like although we're being safe, 0:07:56.520 --> 0:07:57.840 like everybody was really. 0:07:57.600 --> 0:08:00.320 Concerned with everyone was like just in there apartment. 0:08:00.680 --> 0:08:02.480 Yeah, So like I was like, oh, I get it, 0:08:02.520 --> 0:08:05.280 Like you haven't like been out. You're in like this 0:08:05.400 --> 0:08:07.480 home where like you don't know me and Josh, you 0:08:07.520 --> 0:08:09.640 don't know if we've been safe. Like that makes sense. 0:08:09.720 --> 0:08:12.280 But what annoyed me was Kai would come into the 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:14.480 house and then go into Jerw's room and take off 0:08:14.480 --> 0:08:16.480 his mask. And I was like, that's when it makes 0:08:16.480 --> 0:08:18.480 no sense. But I don't blame you because again, I 0:08:18.480 --> 0:08:20.760 feel like that was like it's like the restaurant thing 0:08:20.800 --> 0:08:22.840 where it's like they have you fucking wear your mask 0:08:22.960 --> 0:08:24.600 going to the bathroom, but then you could go back 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:26.760 out and like sit in the middle of our restaurant. 0:08:26.480 --> 0:08:28.280 And like pray your viruses everywhere. 0:08:28.440 --> 0:08:30.120 Yeah, and spray spit everywhere. 0:08:30.520 --> 0:08:34.560 I remember you. You made us work outside too, like the. 0:08:34.600 --> 0:08:35.960 First time I made us. 0:08:36.080 --> 0:08:37.880 Yeah, oh my god, you. 0:08:37.880 --> 0:08:39.160 Don't remind him of that. He's going to have like 0:08:39.200 --> 0:08:39.559 a panica. 0:08:40.720 --> 0:08:42.839 Well, I just I felt so bad. I was just like, 0:08:43.720 --> 0:08:45.920 first of all, it's stressful, like enter an apartment with 0:08:45.960 --> 0:08:47.800 a bunch of people that all know each other and 0:08:47.840 --> 0:08:48.120 like you. 0:08:48.240 --> 0:08:51.600 It's our group was like the worst like group to 0:08:51.760 --> 0:08:54.400 like assimilate, and because we're. 0:08:54.720 --> 0:08:59.080 So loud, Like we're loud as fuck. And also we 0:08:59.200 --> 0:09:02.839 are relentless and merciless and like if you can't catch 0:09:02.880 --> 0:09:05.760 on to like the jokes that we're throwing at you, 0:09:05.800 --> 0:09:08.439 like they don't stop until you either figure it out 0:09:08.520 --> 0:09:09.199 or you leave. 0:09:09.160 --> 0:09:12.440 Or you tap out. Most people tap in though, because. 0:09:12.240 --> 0:09:13.880 It's turn people out. 0:09:13.960 --> 0:09:16.439 Yeah, it's literally just like I guess we're not saying 0:09:16.520 --> 0:09:19.280 none of I know, none of our conversations are ever 0:09:19.480 --> 0:09:24.520 like like super like it's like we're saying nothing when 0:09:24.559 --> 0:09:26.800 we speak, like that's it, and you either like get it. 0:09:26.840 --> 0:09:30.440 You either get it or you don't, or you don't because. 0:09:30.400 --> 0:09:33.000 I still I just like vividly remember sitting on the 0:09:33.000 --> 0:09:36.080 couch while everybody was watching Dave and just wearing my 0:09:36.160 --> 0:09:38.160 mask and everybody else wasn't and they were like, who 0:09:38.160 --> 0:09:40.760 the fuck is this dude, because it was like at 0:09:40.760 --> 0:09:42.640 that point too, we just didn't even know how dangerous 0:09:42.679 --> 0:09:46.240 COVID was, you know. We were like, We're like, this 0:09:46.360 --> 0:09:49.679 is pretty bad. We don't know, we don't even know 0:09:49.720 --> 0:09:50.800 like how it spreads. 0:09:50.920 --> 0:09:54.199 It was honestly like respectful and you're in like almost 0:09:54.240 --> 0:09:57.120 if you like think back on it, because it was respectful. 0:09:57.200 --> 0:10:02.840 Yeah, when you ill like really latching onto that. But 0:10:02.960 --> 0:10:05.400 when you mentioned that, I'd even remember that day. That 0:10:05.480 --> 0:10:08.440 day was such a like just one of those days 0:10:08.760 --> 0:10:12.280 during the pandemic where it was just like absolute nothing, 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:14.680 like mindless nothing. I think I was straightening my hair 0:10:16.280 --> 0:10:18.439 or something. I don't know, I might be thinking of 0:10:18.440 --> 0:10:20.040 a different day. There were just so many days where 0:10:20.080 --> 0:10:21.920 all we did was sit on the fucking country douic shit. 0:10:22.160 --> 0:10:24.000 But yeah, I do remember you being in the house and. 0:10:23.920 --> 0:10:30.040 Wearing smoking blunts, eating cheese and crackers, that was your pandemic. 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:35.840 Yeahs cheese and crackers. 0:10:36.080 --> 0:10:39.800 For eating cheese and crackers, you were smoking goat cheese 0:10:40.000 --> 0:10:42.400 cream creamy goat cheese. 0:10:42.480 --> 0:10:45.080 I think I gave myself a tapeworm, but that's not 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:46.640 here there girl. 0:10:47.080 --> 0:10:52.760 Recently, we need to get tapeworms. Looky I should I 0:10:50.880 --> 0:10:53.520 think you got a tapeworm? 0:10:53.960 --> 0:10:56.800 Yeah, I do too. It's literally in my hole right now. 0:10:56.880 --> 0:10:58.959 Like I'm not kidding, I don't know what I don't know. 0:10:59.360 --> 0:11:01.599 Let me let me, let me see your excrem in 0:11:01.720 --> 0:11:03.240 after you shit and let me sick. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:05.360 Oh gonna imagine I go and like take a little 0:11:05.360 --> 0:11:07.440 turn right now, and there's little worms like crawling in 0:11:07.480 --> 0:11:09.720 and out of it. No, I straight up think there's 0:11:09.720 --> 0:11:12.160 something wrong with my stomach. Like just for everybody to 0:11:12.440 --> 0:11:14.160 as an update is because all I do is talk 0:11:14.160 --> 0:11:17.440 about my fucking shit on this podcast. Oh I thought 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:20.079 I was gonna burpen it almost to throw up. But 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:25.600 I've been that would not be good. I've been every 0:11:25.600 --> 0:11:28.880 time I go to poop, it hurts so fucking bad 0:11:29.320 --> 0:11:32.679 that like I get like really cold and like shake 0:11:32.760 --> 0:11:35.560 a little, and it's like a really really gnarly pain 0:11:35.640 --> 0:11:38.160 and it's like cramping. Up and it's like it literally 0:11:38.200 --> 0:11:40.280 feels like I'm gonna throw up as I'm pooping because 0:11:40.320 --> 0:11:42.480 I'm putting so much strain on my body. 0:11:42.720 --> 0:11:44.599 That's how you get hemorrhoids. 0:11:45.880 --> 0:11:48.440 No, but that's the thing. I'm not pushing. It's literally 0:11:48.480 --> 0:11:51.240 like I have to poop, but like to put any 0:11:51.280 --> 0:11:53.880 pressure on my body, it like sends shocks of like 0:11:54.000 --> 0:11:57.600 really intense pain in my actual stomach, not even like 0:11:57.640 --> 0:12:00.520 my abdomen. It's it's not in my intestine. It's in 0:12:00.559 --> 0:12:03.679 my stomach up here. It really hurts. And I spent. 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:08.480 Cry baby cry a little. 0:12:09.280 --> 0:12:11.439 It is it is my period. I think I think 0:12:11.440 --> 0:12:14.280 it's just my period. 0:12:15.640 --> 0:12:25.040 I was saying earlier. My new saying is immediately I 0:12:25.240 --> 0:12:27.119 rolls from India because. 0:12:27.160 --> 0:12:30.160 I was trying to get this out earlier. We were walking. 0:12:30.320 --> 0:12:34.360 Let's get some boots, but hold the house. Boots, house 0:12:34.360 --> 0:12:34.960 on the side. 0:12:35.600 --> 0:12:36.800 Oh that's really good. 0:12:36.920 --> 0:12:39.440 Let me get some boots. House on the side. Maybe 0:12:40.679 --> 0:12:46.319 down it, put it on the down low. 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:48.480 Maybe put it on the down payment of the house. 0:12:48.880 --> 0:12:49.840 What side of the boots. 0:12:50.360 --> 0:12:52.200 Let me get a side of boots. Hold the house. 0:12:52.440 --> 0:12:53.920 That's it. Let me get a side of the boots. 0:12:53.960 --> 0:12:54.400 Hold the house. 0:12:54.480 --> 0:12:57.920 That's cool. Like when you said that, I feel like 0:12:57.960 --> 0:12:58.640 I lit up. 0:13:00.160 --> 0:13:05.000 That was like, that was you lighting up? 0:13:06.360 --> 0:13:07.439 I have depression. 0:13:08.240 --> 0:13:13.760 Yeah, but that you know how that fucking came up 0:13:14.080 --> 0:13:16.480 is I illegally parked my car in this one street 0:13:16.520 --> 0:13:19.560 all the time. Today I finally was faced with the 0:13:19.559 --> 0:13:21.960 repercussions and I got a ticket, A big, hefty, fat 0:13:21.960 --> 0:13:24.040 stinking ticket. To be fair, I pushed it. I left 0:13:24.080 --> 0:13:26.120 that car there for like two hours, like I was really. 0:13:25.960 --> 0:13:28.959 Feeling myself unreal. We went in eate for an hour 0:13:29.000 --> 0:13:31.240 and we came back and like, oh, like no ticket, 0:13:31.400 --> 0:13:33.320 and we went in for another hour. 0:13:33.600 --> 0:13:35.120 Yeah, we went to a different. 0:13:36.640 --> 0:13:39.280 Power went out today. 0:13:40.400 --> 0:13:42.160 This came up is because when I was parking my car, 0:13:42.240 --> 0:13:43.840 I was like, I wonder if they would tow my 0:13:43.840 --> 0:13:45.760 car put a boot on it? And then I was like, 0:13:45.760 --> 0:13:48.560 why have no companies gone out of their way to 0:13:48.720 --> 0:13:50.959 make like portable boots that you could put on your 0:13:50.960 --> 0:13:53.880 own car, to trick towing companies and ship into thinking 0:13:53.880 --> 0:13:55.640 that you just have a boot on your car already 0:13:55.720 --> 0:13:57.000 so you can legal. 0:13:56.880 --> 0:13:58.840 Or fake tickets, put fakes. 0:13:58.840 --> 0:14:00.800 Literally, I think about all the if I get a 0:14:00.800 --> 0:14:02.760 ticket and I'm like, bitch, I'm just committing to it, 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:04.160 and I leave the ticket on there for the rest 0:14:04.200 --> 0:14:05.640 of the day because I'm like, what are you gonna 0:14:05.640 --> 0:14:06.240 double me up? 0:14:06.440 --> 0:14:08.120 My friend would just do that. He just had a 0:14:08.120 --> 0:14:10.319 ticket that he would just put on his windshield. 0:14:10.679 --> 0:14:14.040 I'm going to keep the one put it there. Really, yeah, 0:14:14.080 --> 0:14:15.240 I'm just going to do that too. 0:14:15.240 --> 0:14:15.400 Then. 0:14:15.480 --> 0:14:17.600 But yeah, I was like saying that, and then I 0:14:17.679 --> 0:14:19.960 was like, should I put boots on all four of 0:14:20.000 --> 0:14:23.360 my wheels and give my car up hair? It's literally 0:14:23.440 --> 0:14:27.640 boots And then Jerry get stuttered like insanely to try 0:14:27.640 --> 0:14:29.560 to get that sentence out. He was like, oh wait, 0:14:29.680 --> 0:14:31.640 he was like, no, no, I'm gonna say this for 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:32.480 the podcast. 0:14:32.560 --> 0:14:35.480 No wait, no I should say. I was like, can 0:14:35.480 --> 0:14:38.240 I get some boots? And then he was like, Drew, 0:14:38.280 --> 0:14:40.400 shut the fuck up and just say it on the podcast. 0:14:40.560 --> 0:14:43.160 But with that said, we thought our power went out. 0:14:43.000 --> 0:14:44.480 Today, Yeah, we thought our bill. 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:46.160 How long was it out? For? Like three hours? 0:14:46.200 --> 0:14:46.880 Like two hours? 0:14:46.960 --> 0:14:47.120 Yeah? 0:14:47.280 --> 0:14:50.320 Yeah, And we were doing the same naughty thing. It's 0:14:50.320 --> 0:14:53.080 like literally an addiction, like we're addicted to seeing how 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:55.720 high the number can go. And we like we've ever 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:58.800 since we paid it last like we haven't paid it again. 0:14:58.880 --> 0:15:00.800 You know what it is is like power going out. 0:15:01.000 --> 0:15:04.480 Paying It reminds me of my childhood. It just reminds 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:07.400 me of that fear, like of like being home and 0:15:07.440 --> 0:15:09.520 feeling safe, but then the power going out and being 0:15:09.520 --> 0:15:11.640 like what happened and my dad being like put all 0:15:11.640 --> 0:15:13.000 the food in the cooler with dice. 0:15:13.640 --> 0:15:13.840 Dude. 0:15:13.880 --> 0:15:16.080 The power going out when you were younger was the 0:15:16.160 --> 0:15:16.760 coolest thing. 0:15:17.120 --> 0:15:19.360 Lighting candles, Yeah, you'll light candles. 0:15:20.160 --> 0:15:22.080 Yeah, we would like candles. And I remember like one 0:15:22.080 --> 0:15:24.960 time it went out and my neighbor at the time 0:15:25.040 --> 0:15:27.120 I had like a crush on. I was like we 0:15:27.160 --> 0:15:32.880 were both like thirteen boned. No, we didn't bone. I 0:15:33.520 --> 0:15:38.320 just remember like she like moved in like six months 0:15:38.320 --> 0:15:40.120 earlier or something, and I was like so afraid to 0:15:40.160 --> 0:15:43.040 ever like even like talk to them. I remember like 0:15:43.080 --> 0:15:45.120 the power went out and we all, like all the 0:15:45.160 --> 0:15:47.920 neighbors like went out and we're like standing in the street. 0:15:47.720 --> 0:15:48.800 Just talking about it. 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:50.760 And I remember like she was there and I was like, 0:15:50.840 --> 0:15:52.560 oh my god, this is so exciting. 0:15:52.720 --> 0:15:54.360 Wait, what's the point of telling a story if y'all 0:15:54.360 --> 0:15:55.360 don't have sex in it? 0:15:56.480 --> 0:15:59.680 Stories can like it's not about the destinations, about the 0:15:59.720 --> 0:16:00.960 journey facts. 0:16:01.200 --> 0:16:03.120 No, it's about the climate when. 0:16:05.560 --> 0:16:06.960 When we went to it, and. 0:16:06.960 --> 0:16:08.640 It's all about busting I know. 0:16:08.680 --> 0:16:11.560 It's all about games getting to that peak of pleasure. 0:16:11.840 --> 0:16:14.560 When we had that recent power outage, I felt like 0:16:14.600 --> 0:16:16.480 such a dad. Like I went outside and stood in 0:16:16.520 --> 0:16:19.880 the road with my hands off my side like this, 0:16:20.000 --> 0:16:22.040 and I was like trying to like communicate with the 0:16:22.080 --> 0:16:25.600 other neighbors and none of them they were all dubbing 0:16:25.640 --> 0:16:27.320 the fuck out of me. I was like, so, is 0:16:27.400 --> 0:16:29.760 y'all's power out too, I'm assuming and they were like 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:32.440 they were just like look at me. And I was like, Okay, 0:16:32.480 --> 0:16:33.360 I'm going inside. 0:16:33.520 --> 0:16:34.800 Do you live in this area? 0:16:35.120 --> 0:16:38.360 Like image of you standing with your hands like against 0:16:38.360 --> 0:16:39.640 her back is so. 0:16:39.920 --> 0:16:40.920 I'm going inside now. 0:16:41.000 --> 0:16:42.760 And then I was at Airwon and I bought a 0:16:42.840 --> 0:16:45.840 million of the most probably expensive little candles ever because 0:16:45.840 --> 0:16:47.320 I was like, Oh, it's just gonna be cute, like 0:16:47.320 --> 0:16:48.840 I want to rush back home and light them up 0:16:48.840 --> 0:16:50.920 for the for like all of our friends at are 0:16:50.960 --> 0:16:53.680 at home, and the light went out on right when 0:16:53.720 --> 0:16:54.200 I paid for that. 0:16:54.320 --> 0:16:59.000 Dude, I used one of those randomly one day when 0:16:59.000 --> 0:17:01.600 you were gone, and it burnt And I'm not kidding 0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:04.160 the entire thing burnt and went out in five minutes, 0:17:04.200 --> 0:17:08.520 and that I'm not exaggerating, like it melted. You gone, Yeah, 0:17:08.680 --> 0:17:10.680 all of the wax was gone. I was like, what 0:17:10.720 --> 0:17:12.840 the fuck. I like went to and took a shower, 0:17:12.880 --> 0:17:14.479 and I came back and it was already out and 0:17:14.520 --> 0:17:15.919 all the wax was gone, And I was like, did 0:17:15.960 --> 0:17:19.560 Josh drink the wax? I swear to God winn through 0:17:19.560 --> 0:17:21.639 my head, but power. 0:17:21.840 --> 0:17:25.280 I the reason I was watching that Sly Cooper thing yesterday. 0:17:25.359 --> 0:17:28.719 That video game is literally because one of my fondest 0:17:28.760 --> 0:17:31.119 memories of playing that is like our godfamily used to 0:17:31.160 --> 0:17:34.760 live across the street from us, and then when not 0:17:34.960 --> 0:17:37.919 I think it was Hurricane Katrina, it wasn't Hurricane or 0:17:38.080 --> 0:17:41.720 it wasn't Hurricane Andrew. Maybe it was whatever hurricane hit Miami, 0:17:41.720 --> 0:17:43.520 and it was like pretty gnarly, like it was one 0:17:43.520 --> 0:17:46.240 of the bad hurricanes when I was younger. After I 0:17:46.320 --> 0:17:50.959 hit Miami, our godfamily's house actually got like really fucked up, 0:17:51.000 --> 0:17:52.800 like the roof so they couldn't stay there. And when 0:17:52.800 --> 0:17:55.639 the power finally came back on, we were all talking 0:17:55.680 --> 0:17:58.880 and like all of my god siblings like came over 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:01.320 and we were all hanging out and like we finally 0:18:01.320 --> 0:18:01.680 got to. 0:18:01.600 --> 0:18:03.480 Play we have siblings that are gods. 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:05.880 Yeah wait, we didn't know that. 0:18:06.400 --> 0:18:07.359 No nobody knew that. 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:10.640 Oh okay, Well, when God actually likes you and cares 0:18:10.680 --> 0:18:13.080 about you, he like gives you even more family because 0:18:13.080 --> 0:18:14.920 he wants you to be surrounded by extra love. Y'all 0:18:14.920 --> 0:18:18.480 don't have that. No, Oh my God, you should speak 0:18:18.520 --> 0:18:18.800 to him. 0:18:19.080 --> 0:18:20.280 So you guys were all just playing. 0:18:20.680 --> 0:18:23.080 We were playing Sally Cooper, like when the Power Came Back. 0:18:23.119 --> 0:18:24.840 That was like the first video game we were playing. 0:18:24.960 --> 0:18:27.439 And I was so happy because I was my favorite 0:18:27.440 --> 0:18:29.160 game and I was like, so I get to play 0:18:29.200 --> 0:18:30.399 this game again. Because I thought I was going to 0:18:30.480 --> 0:18:32.600 die during the hurricane, because it was just like anytime 0:18:32.600 --> 0:18:35.600 a hurricane kit hit and it was that crazy. I 0:18:35.800 --> 0:18:37.600 like swore I was gonna die and it was a 0:18:37.600 --> 0:18:41.040 crazy hurricane, Like our backyard was full of trees and 0:18:41.240 --> 0:18:42.680 all the trees got knocked down. 0:18:43.040 --> 0:18:46.760 You had hurricanes, I had tornadoes, and KAI had fires. 0:18:47.200 --> 0:18:50.880 I had fires. Yeah, my parents' house has My parents 0:18:50.920 --> 0:18:53.600 live in northern California, and my parents house have almost 0:18:53.680 --> 0:18:55.000 burned down like five times. 0:18:55.640 --> 0:18:59.159 Have y'all ever had like a fire experience of like 0:18:59.200 --> 0:19:01.760 our house burning or like something close to. 0:19:02.000 --> 0:19:06.360 Yeah. No, In twenty eighteen, the fire like reached almost 0:19:06.359 --> 0:19:08.879 our backyard. My parents could see it and then they 0:19:09.040 --> 0:19:10.080 evacuated everything. 0:19:10.320 --> 0:19:14.040 Dude, that's insane. That's literally my nightmare is because of like, Oh, 0:19:14.160 --> 0:19:15.200 I'm like literally if. 0:19:15.040 --> 0:19:16.840 Our house burnt down, I would actually, I'm not kidding, 0:19:16.840 --> 0:19:19.160 would kill myself. And that's like not a joke, Like, I. 0:19:19.240 --> 0:19:19.760 Yeah, I don't think. 0:19:19.800 --> 0:19:21.800 I have my little trinkets that I've collected over the 0:19:21.880 --> 0:19:24.119 last three years, Like what am I going to do? 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:26.640 Yeah, that's my thing is. I'm like I got all my. 0:19:26.560 --> 0:19:29.399 Little like grimlins, like we're literally goblins and we have 0:19:29.480 --> 0:19:30.119 our little No. 0:19:30.200 --> 0:19:32.080 Yeah, I have my trinkets that I like, go and 0:19:32.119 --> 0:19:33.720 I collect and I and I add them to my 0:19:33.840 --> 0:19:35.680 room and I can't stop. Every time I'm out I 0:19:35.720 --> 0:19:37.320 see a little trinket, I'm like, this needs to be 0:19:37.359 --> 0:19:38.159 at it to my collection. 0:19:38.440 --> 0:19:41.800 If my house burned down. Ketamine treatment has worked so 0:19:41.840 --> 0:19:45.879 well for me that even that wouldn't affect me, and 0:19:45.920 --> 0:19:47.080 I would just like turn. 0:19:46.920 --> 0:19:49.840 It into advanced Who do you like more mirror in you? 0:19:50.080 --> 0:19:51.760 I was going to say something so mean and you 0:19:51.800 --> 0:19:53.359 were going to win it. I was gonna be like, bro, 0:19:53.440 --> 0:19:55.200 you wouldn't care because the clothes on your back is 0:19:55.240 --> 0:19:56.400 like the same thing you wear every day. 0:19:56.600 --> 0:19:58.480 Okay, cut that. 0:19:59.119 --> 0:20:01.400 I'm sorry, K, You're awesome. That was a joke. 0:20:01.520 --> 0:20:02.119 I thank you. 0:20:02.200 --> 0:20:03.159 Do you like more mirror in you? 0:20:04.280 --> 0:20:07.400 Okay? So he's always talking to you guys at chateau. 0:20:07.720 --> 0:20:11.240 That's how wes that's how we first met, right like, yeah, yeah, 0:20:11.280 --> 0:20:13.040 so we can just go back to that story if 0:20:13.040 --> 0:20:14.400 you want, just like circle back. 0:20:14.520 --> 0:20:15.520 Yeah, okay, cool. 0:20:15.600 --> 0:20:17.240 What does it have to do with oh, you're you're 0:20:17.240 --> 0:20:18.159 awarding the pussion. 0:20:18.320 --> 0:20:19.359 I'm not avoiding anything. 0:20:19.359 --> 0:20:21.400 I was just like, you could be honest, you're you're 0:20:21.560 --> 0:20:23.280 I feel like you're closer to Drew. It make more 0:20:23.320 --> 0:20:24.280 sense if you picked true. 0:20:24.400 --> 0:20:27.160 Well, he's hesitating, which makes me good that he likes 0:20:27.200 --> 0:20:28.920 you more. Let me down. 0:20:29.000 --> 0:20:32.080 I'm closer to Drew, but I do like you guys equally. 0:20:32.160 --> 0:20:34.159 Are the reason why I say that, even though I'm 0:20:34.160 --> 0:20:37.560 closer to drews because I am afraid of women. So 0:20:38.880 --> 0:20:41.480 even though it seems like I like Drew more. See, 0:20:41.520 --> 0:20:44.320 I can't even look at you. Even it seems like 0:20:44.359 --> 0:20:47.600 I like Drew more, I actually like you guys perfectly equally. 0:20:47.920 --> 0:20:49.520 And which is disrespectful to me. 0:20:50.200 --> 0:20:50.920 No, it's not. 0:20:51.160 --> 0:20:52.480 Why do you have to like? 0:20:52.640 --> 0:20:55.760 People can see a little. I'm actually glad that people 0:20:55.760 --> 0:20:59.000 can see the manipulation and gaslighting in real time. 0:20:59.680 --> 0:21:03.920 You're one manipulating in gas lighting. No, I'm not saying 0:21:03.960 --> 0:21:05.199 you like Inya more than me. 0:21:05.359 --> 0:21:07.560 It's also funny because you're just asked you a question 0:21:07.600 --> 0:21:10.159 and you're making it this whole thing, and you're gas lighting. 0:21:10.119 --> 0:21:11.720 And then you just said you like Inya more and 0:21:11.720 --> 0:21:12.480 now I'm trying to get you. 0:21:12.600 --> 0:21:14.720 No, No, I know I didn't say that I liked anymore. 0:21:14.880 --> 0:21:15.840 I like you, guys. 0:21:15.920 --> 0:21:17.200 I hate that I'm doing this to you. 0:21:17.440 --> 0:21:20.480 Said that he wants me and my family to burn it. 0:21:21.840 --> 0:21:24.320 I've caused like violence like this between two men. 0:21:24.440 --> 0:21:26.800 Said his backyard caught on fire and he thought about 0:21:26.840 --> 0:21:28.159 throwing me into the fire. 0:21:29.359 --> 0:21:31.200 I didn't. I never said that, you guys. 0:21:30.960 --> 0:21:33.480 Because because you get final cut, you're gonna cut that out. 0:21:34.000 --> 0:21:37.639 You guys are seeing this. You guys are saying this mmmmm. 0:21:39.760 --> 0:21:43.240 Look as the third to this polyamorous relationship. 0:21:43.359 --> 0:21:46.000 We haven't talked about that. Come on, lockhands, everybody, hold 0:21:46.000 --> 0:21:47.480 my hands, really sweaty. 0:21:47.160 --> 0:21:49.160 But my hands have pea on them. 0:21:49.200 --> 0:21:53.520 I can't hold his wrist, hold his wrist, no other wrist. Yeah, 0:21:53.560 --> 0:21:54.920 we need to make a circle because. 0:21:54.880 --> 0:21:56.440 We're making a triangle right now. 0:21:58.600 --> 0:22:05.040 Okay, we are in a three way polyamorous relationship. Yeah, 0:22:05.240 --> 0:22:08.480 this is the cannot look you in the eyes though. 0:22:08.600 --> 0:22:11.119 I am still afraid of women, but partially. 0:22:11.840 --> 0:22:12.600 In the eyes I think. 0:22:13.040 --> 0:22:18.200 Yeah, I just you guys saw that I did it, 0:22:18.280 --> 0:22:18.920 and she went. 0:22:20.440 --> 0:22:21.800 It was like, you're like too close? 0:22:22.000 --> 0:22:23.199 Can you make eye contact with me? 0:22:23.480 --> 0:22:26.080 Yeah? Easy? You have hunter eyes. 0:22:26.560 --> 0:22:37.240 Yeah, I I kill my arms are and Kay's blocking 0:22:37.280 --> 0:22:39.600 on my good light, Like I need to, like, I like, 0:22:39.800 --> 0:22:42.880 y'all get and you think about saying sentimental things. 0:22:42.920 --> 0:22:44.520 I get on here and I'm like I need to 0:22:44.520 --> 0:22:45.479 look good and get clipped. 0:22:45.960 --> 0:22:48.760 The polyamorous relationship, it has its ups and downs, but 0:22:48.840 --> 0:22:50.600 like at the end of the day, like we make 0:22:50.680 --> 0:22:51.119 it work. 0:22:51.359 --> 0:22:54.600 It's good because since Kai is like not brave enough 0:22:54.640 --> 0:22:56.760 to say that he wants more love and affection from us, 0:22:56.880 --> 0:22:59.080 we can just like be really dismissive and like forget 0:22:59.160 --> 0:23:01.200 Kay's in the relationship sometimes and then we're like, oh. 0:23:01.200 --> 0:23:04.440 My god, k like yeah, pick up the slack kind 0:23:04.520 --> 0:23:08.520 of builds forts for us, and he like he buys 0:23:08.600 --> 0:23:10.160 things and drives us around. 0:23:10.520 --> 0:23:15.880 Okay, here's my take on polyamorous relationships. Okay, everyone's like. 0:23:16.000 --> 0:23:18.879 Be careful, you're walking into public scrutiny. Now, you know 0:23:18.960 --> 0:23:20.080 how hard it is to be us. 0:23:20.359 --> 0:23:23.240 Yeah. I just like looked into the camera and had 0:23:23.280 --> 0:23:28.399 an excize how many people are talking. Yeah, okay, so 0:23:28.440 --> 0:23:31.280 people are like they can't work. It's like, oh, it's 0:23:31.320 --> 0:23:32.040 like that shit. 0:23:32.200 --> 0:23:33.199 Yeah, there are a lot of people who are like 0:23:33.200 --> 0:23:33.520 that shit. 0:23:33.840 --> 0:23:35.919 Yeah. Yeah, Like I feel like a lot of people. 0:23:36.600 --> 0:23:38.919 I feel like after thirty, all of a sudden, like 0:23:39.000 --> 0:23:41.320 people just have the urge to become polyamorous now, but 0:23:41.359 --> 0:23:44.200 like before that, most people are pretty skeptical of it. Yeah, 0:23:44.920 --> 0:23:47.280 and I've heard people just be like, no, that shit 0:23:47.359 --> 0:23:50.040 can't work, Like if you have like seven people, like 0:23:50.160 --> 0:23:54.760 fucking yeah. But look at us right, like we're we're 0:23:54.800 --> 0:23:57.680 a perfect example of how polyamory can work. 0:23:57.720 --> 0:23:58.720 And it could be beautiful. 0:23:58.960 --> 0:24:04.080 But my real, my real, like thing is that what 0:24:04.200 --> 0:24:07.879 like ninety eight percent of monogamous relationships fail, Like what 0:24:08.200 --> 0:24:13.520 are we comparing that to ninety of every relationship? 0:24:13.720 --> 0:24:15.520 But then I guess you're not you're not taking into 0:24:15.560 --> 0:24:18.320 account of like how much how much research has there 0:24:18.560 --> 0:24:21.639 actually been about like the longevity of polyamorous. 0:24:21.040 --> 0:24:23.840 Or relationships or phone No one was ever meant to 0:24:23.880 --> 0:24:25.639 be in a relationship. We were all just meant to 0:24:25.680 --> 0:24:28.240 like have sex and make babies and then move on. 0:24:28.760 --> 0:24:31.680 But like, I'm not disagreeing with it. I think it's 0:24:31.720 --> 0:24:34.880 really cute to be in love. But I think polyamory 0:24:35.000 --> 0:24:37.240 is like biologically like what we were supposed to do. 0:24:37.720 --> 0:24:40.840 I agree with it, but I genuine yourself for right 0:24:40.920 --> 0:24:43.480 now in my life, I used to be like, oh, yeah, 0:24:43.520 --> 0:24:45.199 I could be like poly like of course, like I 0:24:45.200 --> 0:24:47.840 could figure that out. But like the more I think 0:24:47.880 --> 0:24:50.159 about it, it literally scares of fogotomy that like I 0:24:50.200 --> 0:24:51.439 don't have full possession of. 0:24:51.480 --> 0:24:54.119 Her, Yeah I don't. I like, okay, two things is 0:24:54.200 --> 0:24:57.280 like I think, like I think it's done for anybody 0:24:57.320 --> 0:24:59.679 to like look at any kind of like relationship like 0:25:01.960 --> 0:25:04.280 structure and be like, oh that shit doesn't make sense. 0:25:04.280 --> 0:25:06.439 Fuck that, Like it's stupid, it doesn't work, because I 0:25:06.480 --> 0:25:09.080 genuinely do think like every single person you meet, like 0:25:09.080 --> 0:25:11.960 even your closest friends, like the deeper you get into it, 0:25:12.160 --> 0:25:14.520 like within your friendships. I think you find that like 0:25:15.240 --> 0:25:18.800 everybody has such a specific way about in which they 0:25:19.480 --> 0:25:23.520 cater to like romantic or like intimate relationships. It's just 0:25:23.560 --> 0:25:25.399 like such a different playing field, and it really is 0:25:25.520 --> 0:25:28.239 by person, it's very different. Like you can have two 0:25:28.280 --> 0:25:31.360 people who are very monogamous, but or like you can 0:25:31.400 --> 0:25:33.080 have too like not two people in a relationship, but 0:25:33.119 --> 0:25:34.560 like put two people in a room who are really 0:25:34.640 --> 0:25:37.159 monogamous believe in monogamy, but then there are ideas of 0:25:37.200 --> 0:25:42.199 sex and like how like like important or how like 0:25:43.920 --> 0:25:47.399 how much they let sex like affect their idea of monogamy, 0:25:47.480 --> 0:25:49.160 Like does that make sense? Like there are people who 0:25:49.200 --> 0:25:52.480 like like for me, like I personally, especially at this 0:25:52.520 --> 0:25:55.680 point in my life, Like I see like sexual relationships 0:25:55.760 --> 0:25:58.520 as like a big thing, Like I don't I'm not somebody. 0:25:59.280 --> 0:26:01.400 I'm not somebody. 0:26:00.680 --> 0:26:02.960 Partake and like, yeah, I'm not someone who could be 0:26:03.040 --> 0:26:06.000 like a dirty little slut like Drew. It's like disgusting, Like. 0:26:07.359 --> 0:26:12.280 Yeah, and Drew ship a whole. I'm literally trying to 0:26:12.320 --> 0:26:14.119 like have as much sex as. 0:26:13.960 --> 0:26:16.800 Possible, see, and I can't do that, Like I'm just 0:26:16.840 --> 0:26:19.320 like I genuinely like I physically can't get myself to 0:26:19.359 --> 0:26:21.280 do that, because I'm just not someone who, like, at 0:26:21.320 --> 0:26:24.679 the end of the day, is that interested in sex. Actually, 0:26:24.720 --> 0:26:26.440 that's literally a line. I'm so horny. 0:26:26.560 --> 0:26:29.160 Every rose literally does have its thorns. 0:26:29.280 --> 0:26:31.199 Oh my god, he said this yesterday. 0:26:31.200 --> 0:26:33.479 I'm gonna shove your mic up your ass and it's 0:26:33.520 --> 0:26:35.159 gonna come out your mouth, and I'm gonna put you 0:26:35.200 --> 0:26:36.720 on a fucking fire like a little skewer. 0:26:36.840 --> 0:26:39.000 I would actually love that. 0:26:39.040 --> 0:26:40.080 I'm going to watch. 0:26:41.640 --> 0:26:42.480 Or are you gonna watch? 0:26:42.920 --> 0:26:43.720 I'm just gonna. 0:26:43.480 --> 0:26:45.720 Watch pants on or off. 0:26:47.080 --> 0:26:49.760 They will start on and then they will come off 0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:51.600 about three minutes in. 0:26:51.800 --> 0:26:53.679 Oh well, I forgot the super serious thing I was 0:26:53.680 --> 0:26:56.240 trying to say because Drew literally interrupted me by yelling. 0:26:56.560 --> 0:26:57.639 Something so important. 0:26:59.480 --> 0:27:03.119 I was like, totally, it's so crazy, like being up 0:27:03.160 --> 0:27:05.600 here and seeing it happen, or like you like talking 0:27:05.600 --> 0:27:08.440 about like expressing something, and then Drew just screaming, I'm 0:27:08.440 --> 0:27:09.080 a whore. 0:27:09.440 --> 0:27:11.959 Like just to break it. But basically I always saying, like, 0:27:12.359 --> 0:27:14.760 I think the same thing goes in with polyamory. I'm 0:27:14.760 --> 0:27:18.120 sure there's people who are a part of polyamorous situations 0:27:18.320 --> 0:27:22.199 and like do have tinges of believing in monogamy, but 0:27:22.400 --> 0:27:25.280 like it's just everybody is there on their own spectrum 0:27:25.359 --> 0:27:27.800 of like where they fall. So like being like polyamory 0:27:27.840 --> 0:27:30.440 doesn't fucking work is so stupid because it really does 0:27:30.520 --> 0:27:33.159 work for some people. But I think relationships in general, 0:27:33.200 --> 0:27:37.520 whether they be like polygamous, monogamous, platonic, like no matter what, like, 0:27:37.800 --> 0:27:41.280 relationships are meant to like for the most part, sizzle 0:27:41.320 --> 0:27:43.160 out and like go in and out of your life 0:27:43.200 --> 0:27:45.680 because like that's what. Yeah, like you were saying, bitch, 0:27:45.680 --> 0:27:47.760 we're fucking what the fuck are you saying? You're saying, 0:27:47.800 --> 0:27:51.480 like religions, I'm gonna smack the shit, but you were saying, like, yeah, 0:27:51.520 --> 0:27:53.679 we are just fucking animals, And like, I think the 0:27:53.720 --> 0:27:56.680 reason humans like partnership is because it's like a really 0:27:56.720 --> 0:27:58.840 big growing thing and you can lean on someone emotionally 0:27:59.480 --> 0:28:00.760 l But like. 0:28:00.920 --> 0:28:05.359 We're just animals on a spinning rock floating in outer 0:28:05.520 --> 0:28:07.320 space at terminal velocity. 0:28:07.359 --> 0:28:09.560 That's literally every thirteen year old who refuses to do that. 0:28:09.880 --> 0:28:14.119 That's ironically now, Like I literally like think about that 0:28:14.160 --> 0:28:15.919 sometimes and it freaks me the funk out, but it 0:28:15.960 --> 0:28:16.399 is grounding. 0:28:16.440 --> 0:28:19.320 I'm like, what what's your guys' body count? 0:28:20.200 --> 0:28:20.840 Oh my god? 0:28:20.960 --> 0:28:23.600 Later they actually on. Ironically, I don't know, it's like 0:28:24.000 --> 0:28:26.720 that's not enough. Yeah, when I go back to Texas. 0:28:27.600 --> 0:28:31.160 When I go back to Texas, I literally turn up. 0:28:31.600 --> 0:28:35.440 Turn the fuck up. You turn like literally. 0:28:35.560 --> 0:28:37.959 Literally turns the fuck up. He turns it out. 0:28:38.400 --> 0:28:42.560 I will actually send you a detailed account of every 0:28:42.680 --> 0:28:44.360 time I hook up with someone if you want. 0:28:44.240 --> 0:28:46.080 Me to do that for Yes, why I got to 0:28:46.080 --> 0:28:46.600 be a part of that. 0:28:47.000 --> 0:28:48.400 You can be a part of it too. Yeah, I 0:28:48.560 --> 0:28:49.800 just asked the body count question. 0:28:50.720 --> 0:28:52.520 I always ask the body count. 0:28:52.520 --> 0:28:55.120 The emergency we have the emergency intercom group chat, and 0:28:55.160 --> 0:28:57.160 then we have Drew's body count. 0:28:57.280 --> 0:29:00.520 You should discord for us, No, we're only you can 0:29:00.560 --> 0:29:04.640 talk discord. Did not bring discord. 0:29:06.880 --> 0:29:09.920 But yeah, I'll just give you a very detailed account 0:29:09.960 --> 0:29:12.960 of every I mean, there was one recently that I 0:29:13.080 --> 0:29:16.120 had to tell you about. Yeah, that was just crazy. 0:29:16.160 --> 0:29:16.840 I told you about it. 0:29:17.320 --> 0:29:20.320 That one was what then was I gonna say? 0:29:20.360 --> 0:29:20.479 Well? 0:29:20.520 --> 0:29:21.000 There were two? 0:29:21.120 --> 0:29:25.280 Actually I always brings up guy always brings up body count. 0:29:25.360 --> 0:29:26.760 And literally when I met you, I thought you were 0:29:26.760 --> 0:29:28.520 a fucking slut. But that's because I think every man 0:29:28.600 --> 0:29:29.680 is a slut, and I do believe. 0:29:35.000 --> 0:29:41.320 All Right, we're gonna photo. You actually look so fucking sexy. 0:29:41.400 --> 0:29:43.280 I know, I'm like a sexy hot That is the. 0:29:43.320 --> 0:29:46.880 Sexiest man I've ever seen such a man photo, I know, and. 0:29:46.840 --> 0:29:49.360 I look good as when I saw I'm not this 0:29:49.480 --> 0:29:51.720 is like actually airing myself out. But when I saw 0:29:51.720 --> 0:29:53.920 this photo, it turned me on. Do you ever see 0:29:53.920 --> 0:29:56.960 yourself and you see it like the time, like damn. 0:29:58.720 --> 0:30:00.440 All the time when for the most part, when I'm 0:30:00.440 --> 0:30:01.840 looking in the mirror, I'm like, damn, I'm so hot. And 0:30:01.880 --> 0:30:03.840 I immediately turned around and I want to cry because 0:30:03.880 --> 0:30:05.720 I'm like, I can't believe what I just fucking witnessed. 0:30:07.880 --> 0:30:10.480 But Drew Moji coming soon, like and share tech. 0:30:10.360 --> 0:30:13.320 Notes, You've said that forever Drew Moji is coming as 0:30:13.360 --> 0:30:15.719 soon as like You've also been like I'm gonna get 0:30:15.720 --> 0:30:18.640 a Tesla for like eight years, Like can I fucking live? 0:30:18.800 --> 0:30:22.800 I cannot live around anybody anymore. I'm busting out the 0:30:22.800 --> 0:30:26.720 notes already, girls, girls, two types of people in the world, 0:30:26.760 --> 0:30:28.800 those guys bagel bites and those who like pizza. 0:30:28.840 --> 0:30:30.880 But they supposed to prepare for this. 0:30:31.720 --> 0:30:35.280 What no like notes? Why are you on? 0:30:35.480 --> 0:30:37.880 Like You're like literally out of a hole right now? 0:30:37.920 --> 0:30:38.840 You're like freaking out. 0:30:39.400 --> 0:30:41.160 Oh should we talk about that? Do you want to 0:30:41.200 --> 0:30:44.160 talk about that a little bit? Yeah, sure, you're ketamine treatments. 0:30:44.200 --> 0:30:46.240 I don't know if that's like private to you, but no, Yeah, 0:30:46.320 --> 0:30:48.680 I'm down. That ship is so fascinating to me, and 0:30:48.720 --> 0:30:52.000 I'm sure someone out there will really love it or 0:30:52.040 --> 0:30:52.720 relate to it. 0:30:52.840 --> 0:30:56.680 Yeah, this was our first conversation ever was basically like 0:30:57.160 --> 0:31:00.520 I also think about this, like when we first started talking, 0:31:00.640 --> 0:31:02.920 I think about the fact that like, somehow, within thirty 0:31:02.960 --> 0:31:05.840 seconds we were just both talking about being violently depressed. 0:31:06.040 --> 0:31:08.800 No, it's I've said this before. Literally, people have orias 0:31:08.800 --> 0:31:10.480 and energy so that you can trust and like you're 0:31:10.480 --> 0:31:13.120 a very trusting person, and I feel like I have 0:31:13.200 --> 0:31:15.680 the same trusting orga like look at me, I. 0:31:15.640 --> 0:31:18.480 Do kill I also think because during the time we 0:31:18.520 --> 0:31:21.720 met you, literally it was in twenty nineteen, like earlier 0:31:21.760 --> 0:31:24.200 in the year of twenty nineteen, and that is when 0:31:24.240 --> 0:31:28.000 I was literally so depressed. That's all I would talk about. Like, 0:31:28.040 --> 0:31:31.440 that's all I talked about, is like, it's so fucking sad. 0:31:33.640 --> 0:31:38.160 Yeah, So what we essentially talked about is, uh, when 0:31:38.160 --> 0:31:41.040 I turned like fourteen, I just felt like I was 0:31:41.120 --> 0:31:45.520 getting very chemically depressed, like the type of shit where 0:31:45.520 --> 0:31:47.280 you wake up in the morning you're like, oh wow, 0:31:47.520 --> 0:31:50.280 like this is gonna be a fucking very hard day. 0:31:51.000 --> 0:31:56.640 And I started the whole like prescription drug saga over 0:31:56.720 --> 0:31:59.600 like ten years of just trying basically every SSR I 0:32:00.600 --> 0:32:04.400 like like antipsychotics, like anti you know, I was on 0:32:04.520 --> 0:32:06.720 lithium at one point, which is like kind of insane, 0:32:07.240 --> 0:32:11.000 but uh yeah, Like that went on until I would 0:32:11.000 --> 0:32:14.920 think I was like twenty three or twenty four, so 0:32:14.920 --> 0:32:16.120 this was like twenty years ago. 0:32:16.680 --> 0:32:18.600 But ma, you're forty seven right now? 0:32:19.000 --> 0:32:20.720 Yeah what Yeah, I'm forty seven. 0:32:21.280 --> 0:32:24.120 Oh that's kind of you look really good for forty seven, 0:32:24.400 --> 0:32:28.560 thank you. Yeah, you look really good for unless you're 0:32:28.600 --> 0:32:30.800 lying and you're like actually like twenty seven. Because if 0:32:30.800 --> 0:32:33.240 that's the case, then you look really bad for seven. 0:32:33.480 --> 0:32:36.640 They can move on. But yeah, So when I was 0:32:36.680 --> 0:32:41.680 like twenty four, I I was like, I don't know 0:32:41.720 --> 0:32:44.960 what else to do. I had never done a psychedelic drug. 0:32:46.120 --> 0:32:48.400 I had never like I was very much I had 0:32:48.440 --> 0:32:51.480 heard of ketamine, but I had never like I was 0:32:51.480 --> 0:32:54.880 like very skeptical of it. I just kind of felt like, 0:32:55.640 --> 0:32:59.959 how can this drug that like gabbers in like London 0:33:00.040 --> 0:33:03.320 and do at raves like help you with your depression and. 0:33:03.840 --> 0:33:05.680 It gives you crystals and your bladder. 0:33:05.920 --> 0:33:09.720 Yeah, yeah, exactly. And my parents were just like, well, 0:33:09.720 --> 0:33:11.320 if you want to do this, like we'll support you. 0:33:11.960 --> 0:33:14.960 And I'm really fucking lucky to have parents that have 0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:17.960 stuck with me over like a total like fifteen years 0:33:18.000 --> 0:33:22.120 at this point, trying everything and supporting me through this. 0:33:22.920 --> 0:33:26.520 And I did it, and I was really skeptical of it. 0:33:28.080 --> 0:33:30.280 I was skeptical to say whether or not it worked 0:33:30.400 --> 0:33:33.600 until like a year after I started it. 0:33:34.160 --> 0:33:36.040 But damn at those new treatments. 0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:38.280 Is that like I don't know, I think it was 0:33:38.400 --> 0:33:43.240 like twelve or thirteen damn. Yeah. 0:33:43.320 --> 0:33:44.680 Were you getta get like once a month? 0:33:45.000 --> 0:33:46.520 Yeah, it was like once a month that you go 0:33:46.600 --> 0:33:49.400 in and it's like two doctors, you talk to them 0:33:49.440 --> 0:33:52.720 for like thirty minutes, and then you get an intramuscular 0:33:52.840 --> 0:33:59.400 injection of it, and it's like basically what people do 0:33:59.440 --> 0:34:02.840 when they makes me into k hole. I think they're 0:34:02.880 --> 0:34:07.960 doing like a fraction of what they inject you with. 0:34:08.080 --> 0:34:10.600 And also you metabolize it really fucking quickly. 0:34:10.520 --> 0:34:12.840 So you're doing like it's like a k hole. 0:34:12.719 --> 0:34:18.000 Times a thousand, like like credulous. You really like destroys 0:34:18.120 --> 0:34:20.759 your sense of ego within, Like you go from one 0:34:20.800 --> 0:34:23.960 minute of being completely sober to like minute three of 0:34:24.560 --> 0:34:28.120 questioning if I'm me or if I'm my dad, Like 0:34:28.200 --> 0:34:29.320 I truly don't know. 0:34:29.440 --> 0:34:31.960 Dude, that's so scary. Yeah, that would fuck me up forever. 0:34:32.040 --> 0:34:33.239 I don't know if I could ever do that. 0:34:33.560 --> 0:34:36.160 Also, to preface this, because I don't want any of 0:34:36.239 --> 0:34:38.080 y'all watching this to be like, oh my god, that's awesome. 0:34:38.120 --> 0:34:40.600 I'm gonna go do like street kenemye. This is like 0:34:40.760 --> 0:34:43.920 all medical grade. Yeah, this is all like medical grade, 0:34:43.960 --> 0:34:46.640 like going into by doctor. Yeah, we're seen by doctors. 0:34:46.640 --> 0:34:49.879 Like it's very like medically advised. Yeah. I just don't 0:34:49.880 --> 0:34:51.399 want I don't I don't want any. 0:34:51.280 --> 0:34:55.120 Of you don't want the ketymine rats. We don't need 0:34:55.200 --> 0:34:55.839 ketmine rats. 0:34:56.280 --> 0:34:59.880 Street Keademine is also like not pure keademy Yeah, it's 0:34:59.880 --> 0:35:02.640 like angus fall. And there's also two different types of ketamene, 0:35:02.680 --> 0:35:05.960 And one of them is like actually better from neurogenesis 0:35:06.040 --> 0:35:08.919 and like growing your brain and whatever. The other one 0:35:08.960 --> 0:35:10.200 is like I don't think. 0:35:10.200 --> 0:35:12.160 And you started taking it. Also because you heard that 0:35:12.200 --> 0:35:14.200 it grows your balls too, right. 0:35:14.160 --> 0:35:18.160 Oh yeah, yeah, it grows your balls. Yeah, so now 0:35:18.200 --> 0:35:19.480 my balls are really big. 0:35:19.960 --> 0:35:25.520 Yeah in the morning he has to like you know why, 0:35:26.080 --> 0:35:29.640 we don't have to know, just like I just keep 0:35:29.680 --> 0:35:30.839 going because I'm gonna get. 0:35:33.680 --> 0:35:38.920 Poly vibes. But yeah, so I was really skeptical of it. 0:35:38.960 --> 0:35:42.480 I was really skeptical of any psychedelics in general because 0:35:42.480 --> 0:35:45.719 I was just like honestly just fucking afraid of like 0:35:45.800 --> 0:35:47.759 all of the horror stories that you hear growing up. 0:35:47.760 --> 0:35:53.080 But yeah, like after a year, I essentially I can 0:35:53.120 --> 0:35:57.080 look back at that time of when I started the treatment, 0:35:57.239 --> 0:36:01.320 and so much of my life is better. I can't. 0:36:01.360 --> 0:36:05.200 I will never say like this is for everyone, because 0:36:05.200 --> 0:36:05.719 I don't know. 0:36:05.920 --> 0:36:10.000 It's it's just like some people have like super good experiences. 0:36:09.800 --> 0:36:12.080 Some people like experiences. 0:36:12.400 --> 0:36:15.719 Some people get super horny on Will Buttrin and are 0:36:15.760 --> 0:36:19.360 able to have an infinite When I was on Will Buttrin, 0:36:19.440 --> 0:36:23.040 my penis essentially fell off. So it's very different. 0:36:23.120 --> 0:36:24.759 It's really weird down there now. 0:36:24.920 --> 0:36:26.040 Yeah, it's super weird. 0:36:26.320 --> 0:36:31.040 It's beautiful. What is like the average session look like 0:36:31.680 --> 0:36:32.759 that's like interesting, Like. 0:36:33.800 --> 0:36:36.279 It's like three hours and you go in you talk 0:36:36.600 --> 0:36:40.000 about your intentions about like what you've been struggling with. 0:36:40.080 --> 0:36:41.520 So it's like an intentions thing. 0:36:41.719 --> 0:36:45.440 Yeah, and then you get the injection and yeah, you 0:36:45.480 --> 0:36:51.040 slip into a completely different dimension that I don't. I 0:36:51.080 --> 0:36:53.439 feel like if I try to explain it, it might 0:36:53.480 --> 0:36:59.840 be really abstract and honestly, give okay. It feels like 0:36:59.840 --> 0:37:02.080 like the first time I did it, it felt like 0:37:02.200 --> 0:37:05.920 I was being pressed in between the pages of a book, 0:37:05.960 --> 0:37:08.960 and every page was like a different universe, and I 0:37:09.040 --> 0:37:12.640 was like moving between each of these different universes. 0:37:13.480 --> 0:37:15.640 I had, like wead ship, I was gonna say, because 0:37:15.640 --> 0:37:18.719 I've literally had a like a read and do psychosist 0:37:18.760 --> 0:37:21.479 that literally feels like flipping through pages of a book, 0:37:21.520 --> 0:37:24.640 but in like a really bad way. Yeah, and like 0:37:24.680 --> 0:37:26.640 a way where I'm like I had that too, or 0:37:26.760 --> 0:37:29.919 like traumatizing. Yeah, I had like I don't know who 0:37:29.960 --> 0:37:31.960 I am. Like I've had to ask people. 0:37:32.800 --> 0:37:37.160 Ego death or close to ego death experience mine, give me, 0:37:37.239 --> 0:37:37.960 I can't go together? 0:37:38.120 --> 0:37:42.719 Isn't real if you if you no, you can, you can? 0:37:43.000 --> 0:37:46.239 You can you can end that That was that was 0:37:46.320 --> 0:37:47.399 actually that was the. 0:37:47.840 --> 0:37:51.879 Death isn't technically real because if you experienced ego death, 0:37:51.960 --> 0:37:55.160 your ego wouldn't be there to be active after the fact. 0:37:55.320 --> 0:37:59.480 To explain that you had ego death, Well, I came 0:37:59.480 --> 0:38:01.920 out kind of logical, that does make sense. 0:38:02.040 --> 0:38:04.560 I came out with bigger boobs after my psychosis though, 0:38:04.680 --> 0:38:08.040 oh really, yeah, one was heavier than the other. So 0:38:08.120 --> 0:38:10.719 I had to induce myself in psychosis again from weeds 0:38:10.760 --> 0:38:13.480 so that they could even app out. Yeah, they're still 0:38:13.480 --> 0:38:14.680 a little uneven, but like you. 0:38:14.640 --> 0:38:22.680 Know that, that's really cool. But yeah, yeah, sometimes sometimes 0:38:22.680 --> 0:38:27.520 the experience is really like obtuse and really hard to 0:38:27.560 --> 0:38:32.080 like grasp. And sometimes it's very clear, like I had. 0:38:31.960 --> 0:38:33.799 What the universe is trying to tell you to do. 0:38:34.120 --> 0:38:39.279 Yeah, like I had this this really visceral experience of 0:38:39.320 --> 0:38:41.400 like doing it. And then all of a sudden, I 0:38:41.400 --> 0:38:44.000 was just in a room and I was in like 0:38:44.040 --> 0:38:48.120 my childhood bedroom, and I was playing Toontown and I 0:38:48.200 --> 0:38:54.080 was standing behind myself, like playing Toontown like as an adult, 0:38:54.600 --> 0:38:55.160 and I was. 0:38:55.120 --> 0:38:58.600 Like that you should play Tunetown as an adult, and 0:38:58.640 --> 0:38:58.960 I was. 0:38:58.920 --> 0:39:00.759 Like, I need to get back in the tune town 0:39:00.880 --> 0:39:03.319 and you rotted your life. Yeah no, But I was 0:39:03.360 --> 0:39:05.560 just like observing myself as a child and just like 0:39:05.600 --> 0:39:07.439 seeing how much pain I was in. And I think 0:39:07.520 --> 0:39:09.960 like that is kind of like an overarching theme of 0:39:10.000 --> 0:39:13.040 the treatment of just opening yourself up to like a 0:39:13.080 --> 0:39:17.960 sense of empathy towards yourself. If that makes sense. 0:39:18.040 --> 0:39:20.000 Yeah, No, it does make sense, because I think like 0:39:20.160 --> 0:39:23.200 that's why therapy was like good for me. But that's 0:39:23.200 --> 0:39:26.120 obviously a different experience because that's like literally vocalizing it. 0:39:26.200 --> 0:39:29.000 But I think about like, oh, I'm sure being like 0:39:29.200 --> 0:39:32.480 medically induced into this position where you are vulnerable and 0:39:32.480 --> 0:39:34.720 you don't have a choice of being vulnerable with yourself. 0:39:35.000 --> 0:39:37.120 But like when I first started therapy, like I ran 0:39:37.160 --> 0:39:39.360 away from it for like ever, because like being that 0:39:39.480 --> 0:39:42.400 vulnerable and like forcing yourself over those gaps was like 0:39:43.160 --> 0:39:45.520 almost impossible. And then it made it more comfortable to 0:39:45.560 --> 0:39:48.080 be depressed because I was like, well, I don't have 0:39:48.120 --> 0:39:50.839 to like be like really uncomfortable and vulnerable and like 0:39:50.960 --> 0:39:52.880 face all this pain that I have. I can just 0:39:52.920 --> 0:39:55.279 like sulk and be sad and be like I know 0:39:55.360 --> 0:39:56.799 what this feeling is, like I don't care. 0:39:57.440 --> 0:40:00.560 Yeah, I think that's that's when you get re into 0:40:00.600 --> 0:40:05.279 like a cyclical spiral depression where you're like behavior your 0:40:05.320 --> 0:40:07.640 behavior is wrong. So then you're like, life gets kind 0:40:07.680 --> 0:40:10.080 of worse. You're waking up like you're eating shitty, so 0:40:10.120 --> 0:40:11.240 you feel bad about eating shitty. 0:40:11.320 --> 0:40:13.360 Yeah, and it's just like digs you deeper. 0:40:13.560 --> 0:40:17.040 Yeah, when you get really like ten years into that process. 0:40:18.239 --> 0:40:20.200 For me, I didn't know how to get out of it. 0:40:20.239 --> 0:40:23.719 I had no clue. I did the research, but like 0:40:24.280 --> 0:40:28.000 every time the Internet, yeah, this was pre this was 0:40:28.080 --> 0:40:29.360 in the eighties. 0:40:30.000 --> 0:40:32.000 The way that I was kind of like, oh my god. 0:40:31.840 --> 0:40:34.399 It was when you said that, I don't know why. 0:40:34.440 --> 0:40:36.360 I was just like, yeah, it was pre internet. 0:40:37.000 --> 0:40:38.840 It was oh, we're not recording. 0:40:39.440 --> 0:40:41.120 Oh my god, give me with my own joke. 0:40:41.800 --> 0:40:44.040 Eh. 0:40:44.080 --> 0:40:46.960 Look, I just have nothing to add to this conversation. 0:40:47.160 --> 0:40:49.239 So I'm just sitting over here in my own head 0:40:49.320 --> 0:40:51.920 being like, oh my god, like I don't even know 0:40:52.400 --> 0:40:55.759 who I am. So y'all are triggering me. 0:40:56.080 --> 0:40:59.520 Well, I'm sorry that. I'm sorry that our self exploration 0:40:59.600 --> 0:41:03.400 and self growth that we've taken on is harming you. 0:41:03.600 --> 0:41:06.359 Like you're you're just like you're gaslighting us, threatening, Yeah, 0:41:06.360 --> 0:41:09.520 you're gaslighting us. It's feeling bad for feeling good about ourselves. 0:41:09.680 --> 0:41:12.040 I know where both of your families live. 0:41:12.640 --> 0:41:15.000 You could not say my family's address if your life 0:41:15.000 --> 0:41:15.840 depended on it. 0:41:15.920 --> 0:41:19.400 But I know where they live and I am capable. 0:41:19.640 --> 0:41:21.960 Yeah, I'm sure you spent like ten days in Miami. 0:41:22.040 --> 0:41:23.239 You can maybe figure it out. 0:41:23.600 --> 0:41:24.320 I'm a killer. 0:41:25.280 --> 0:41:26.080 The killer is here. 0:41:26.239 --> 0:41:29.040 I'm a killer. You're gonna die soon? 0:41:29.239 --> 0:41:31.120 Do you think you walk out of every academy? 0:41:34.080 --> 0:41:36.000 Drew the other day it was like I had this 0:41:36.080 --> 0:41:39.080 really morbid time. It's really really bad, but I don't 0:41:39.080 --> 0:41:42.200 want to ruin the five And I was like, dude, 0:41:42.200 --> 0:41:43.960 just fucking say it. Got it out of your system, 0:41:44.080 --> 0:41:46.600 like you have to process this like whatever. And he 0:41:46.760 --> 0:41:50.279 was like, our group's so big, and I just feel 0:41:50.320 --> 0:41:52.239 like there's no way that all of us make it. 0:41:53.480 --> 0:41:57.040 I was like, what the fuck? Like we were on 0:41:57.080 --> 0:41:59.480 our way to the aquarium to go look at fish 0:41:59.560 --> 0:42:00.640 and then I'm not kidding. 0:42:01.040 --> 0:42:05.200 I think about that actually all the time, but more 0:42:05.239 --> 0:42:07.959 so recently, I've really felt like I'm gonna die soon, 0:42:08.120 --> 0:42:11.120 like really recently, Like I'm not kidding and I'm not 0:42:11.160 --> 0:42:13.920 being dramatic. Every time I say bye to people, I'm like, oh, 0:42:13.920 --> 0:42:15.560 I got to get in like and I love you 0:42:15.640 --> 0:42:18.120 because like they're gonna remember me. And then I'm like, oh, like, 0:42:18.520 --> 0:42:21.400 I have to like make sure that, like I just 0:42:21.440 --> 0:42:22.719 like say a proper goal. 0:42:22.960 --> 0:42:25.040 Three nights ago, you didn't say I love you before 0:42:25.120 --> 0:42:27.000 bad I always say it. 0:42:27.280 --> 0:42:28.240 I stayed in the hallway. 0:42:29.080 --> 0:42:31.440 Oh yeah, and I did not forget it. 0:42:31.480 --> 0:42:33.520 But also I say good night every year. 0:42:33.520 --> 0:42:34.319 So I didn't say it. 0:42:34.400 --> 0:42:36.040 So do you I know you did it? 0:42:36.600 --> 0:42:39.120 Do you kind of feel like something big is coming? 0:42:41.920 --> 0:42:44.560 Is about to literally coming? 0:42:45.160 --> 0:42:47.840 I figured out what the big thing is. It's me 0:42:47.960 --> 0:42:50.080 being on the podcast. You know it's me. 0:42:50.280 --> 0:42:51.719 Well, I guess it is a big, bad thing. 0:42:51.760 --> 0:42:54.120 So yeah, you're right, the ultimate big thing is me 0:42:54.239 --> 0:43:00.400 heeling over. But if I actually do okay, if I 0:43:00.440 --> 0:43:05.200 do die legitimately, I want a funeral world tour. Have 0:43:05.280 --> 0:43:06.320 I talked about that before? 0:43:06.920 --> 0:43:09.280 What you talked about? 0:43:09.280 --> 0:43:12.360 This in a casket in fly me across the world 0:43:12.360 --> 0:43:14.879 to different stadiums and tour my fucking body. I will 0:43:14.960 --> 0:43:16.240 be the first. 0:43:17.680 --> 0:43:20.960 And we're going across these with him. We're going to Milan. 0:43:21.160 --> 0:43:28.080 Yeah, fashion fucking runway for why. 0:43:28.080 --> 0:43:30.960 Is that giving the same energy as that insane Michael 0:43:31.040 --> 0:43:32.040 Jackson video. 0:43:32.160 --> 0:43:36.040 You know that's me and Drew? Yeah, me and Drew, 0:43:36.200 --> 0:43:38.360 Like we were only going up we only need to 0:43:38.480 --> 0:43:41.600 like we need to just like make enough money off 0:43:41.600 --> 0:43:43.759 of this so that we can become like the most 0:43:43.840 --> 0:43:46.360 like out of world performers ever. Like that's like my 0:43:46.520 --> 0:43:49.320 plan is, like we're gonna do live podcasts, but like 0:43:49.400 --> 0:43:51.920 you're gonna expect us to sit, but we're gonna dance. 0:43:52.040 --> 0:43:57.160 We're gonna be fucking floating above the stage. Legitimately, it's 0:43:57.160 --> 0:44:00.279 gonna be Righteous jim Stones Tour, but like and I'm 0:44:00.360 --> 0:44:01.840 like literally floating. 0:44:04.480 --> 0:44:07.680 But yeah, recently I've been feeling like I'm gonna die. 0:44:07.719 --> 0:44:10.200 I don't know why. I'm just like, you know what 0:44:10.280 --> 0:44:12.320 I think it is. I've been on too many planes recently, 0:44:12.360 --> 0:44:14.759 and I'm like, I'm really upping the chances of me 0:44:14.880 --> 0:44:20.640 being on a fatal flight. And like you think you're funny. 0:44:20.680 --> 0:44:23.239 I've been looking at it the whole time, Yeah, because 0:44:23.280 --> 0:44:25.360 usually I would look at your boner, but it's blocking it. 0:44:25.840 --> 0:44:27.200 You guys saw that. You guys saw that. 0:44:27.360 --> 0:44:34.600 Saw what you also before anybody comments on my outfit, 0:44:34.880 --> 0:44:37.320 like I know everyone is having a key saying I 0:44:37.440 --> 0:44:40.600 look like Catholics, like, but I'm in my Friendly Boys era, 0:44:40.800 --> 0:44:41.319 I'm just like. 0:44:43.840 --> 0:44:48.080 Oh my god, Okay, are you are you chasing pleasure. 0:44:49.160 --> 0:44:54.080 Oh interesting, I'm in the middle. I am probably. I 0:44:54.160 --> 0:44:56.160 think I used to be chasing pleasure a lot more 0:44:56.360 --> 0:44:59.239 thinking that it would bring me peace. But in the 0:44:59.320 --> 0:45:02.200 last like six months, I feel like I've been better 0:45:02.239 --> 0:45:06.560 at evaluating what peace actually is for me. But I'm 0:45:06.600 --> 0:45:08.440 not fully there yet. Like I think I'm like three 0:45:08.560 --> 0:45:11.200 quarters of the way of being like no, not even that, 0:45:11.320 --> 0:45:14.320 I'm like a quarter of the way to actually chasing 0:45:14.360 --> 0:45:19.080 it successfully. But I'm still mostly chasing pleasure chasing peace. 0:45:19.600 --> 0:45:22.319 I double my game plan, y'all know my game plan. 0:45:22.640 --> 0:45:24.440 Yeah, I double them both. I think I need to 0:45:24.480 --> 0:45:26.600 take up more sessions of therapy so that it can 0:45:26.640 --> 0:45:28.759 be closer to piece again, because I haven't been talking 0:45:28.800 --> 0:45:29.680 to my therapists enough. 0:45:30.760 --> 0:45:32.880 The past two weeks were scary for me. But I'm 0:45:32.920 --> 0:45:35.480 coming back around. I'm coming three weeks and I'm coming 0:45:35.520 --> 0:45:36.920 back around three weeks. 0:45:37.440 --> 0:45:39.759 Yeah, Mexico hurt. 0:45:39.840 --> 0:45:43.840 You just pre Mexico, I just was like in a 0:45:43.920 --> 0:45:47.880 bad place, oh mentally, I and no one seems to notice. 0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:51.120 That's the craziest thing about the craziest thing is everybody notices. 0:45:51.200 --> 0:45:52.840 It's all anybody talking about. 0:45:52.760 --> 0:45:55.200 When I'm in a bad place. And no one seems 0:45:55.239 --> 0:45:56.960 to ask Drew, how are you? How are you doing? 0:45:57.000 --> 0:45:59.840 It's always because can we go here? Can we do this? 0:46:00.080 --> 0:46:02.359 Is Drew? Can you buy this for me? Both? 0:46:02.840 --> 0:46:04.880 No one has ever asked you to go anywhere. You 0:46:05.080 --> 0:46:08.399 don't have a car. Where are you taking anyone to hell? 0:46:08.680 --> 0:46:10.480 I honestly do you ask her to buy me things 0:46:10.560 --> 0:46:13.320 all the time? And he does spoil me sometimes. 0:46:13.000 --> 0:46:14.920 I spoiled them again. I'm getting them a burkey. 0:46:15.480 --> 0:46:19.600 Yes, you're getting guy of burking back. 0:46:20.440 --> 0:46:23.920 Baby wants green one green green green bookie. 0:46:24.160 --> 0:46:27.520 Baby wants a little green burkey inwood bookie. 0:46:27.800 --> 0:46:29.520 Yeah owl Gato Squint. 0:46:34.760 --> 0:46:35.440 Still recording. 0:46:37.360 --> 0:46:39.880 Okay, well this is awkward. 0:46:39.560 --> 0:46:41.840 Now because you like, why did y'all do that? It 0:46:41.880 --> 0:46:44.359 went on for so fucking long because it was real. 0:46:45.120 --> 0:46:47.040 You're fucking jealous of us what we have. 0:46:47.520 --> 0:46:50.440 You're just you're not in a baby daddy relationship. 0:46:50.640 --> 0:46:52.600 I don't have anything else to say to you fucking freaks. 0:46:52.600 --> 0:46:53.879 Oh yeah, I didn't even finish my thought. 0:46:53.920 --> 0:46:56.719 I'm in podcast has been fifteen minutes long. Like we've 0:46:56.760 --> 0:46:58.440 been talking for like eight minutes. 0:46:58.239 --> 0:46:59.960 And every time we like talk on here, I get 0:47:00.040 --> 0:47:01.640 freak dug because I'm like I can never tell if 0:47:01.680 --> 0:47:04.680 I'm talking for five minutes or like three hours, but 0:47:04.760 --> 0:47:06.960 I could go on forever. Oh. Also, we did not 0:47:07.120 --> 0:47:10.080 watch Being John Malcolmic, like not even like close, like 0:47:10.160 --> 0:47:12.640 we watched I watched like three other movies and it 0:47:12.760 --> 0:47:15.640 didn't even cross my mind. But we'll we'll bring it 0:47:15.760 --> 0:47:17.440 up next week, and then next week we'll be like, 0:47:17.480 --> 0:47:18.480 oh my god, we still haven't watch it. 0:47:18.520 --> 0:47:20.879 Sorry, like it's just such a hard movie to watch. 0:47:20.920 --> 0:47:24.600 And Wrequiem for a Dream is Yeah, I have I. 0:47:24.640 --> 0:47:25.400 Have some notes. 0:47:26.120 --> 0:47:27.440 Okauly, your time. 0:47:27.400 --> 0:47:29.080 Is on camera, so you better have You don't have 0:47:29.239 --> 0:47:30.160 like sex coming up? 0:47:30.680 --> 0:47:33.200 I don't have. I don't have sex on my phone 0:47:33.280 --> 0:47:35.360 right now? Do you think I have like porn on 0:47:35.480 --> 0:47:36.720 my phone during the podcast? 0:47:37.320 --> 0:47:37.560 Yeah? 0:47:38.320 --> 0:47:42.160 Yeah, okay, I have a note that says we have 0:47:42.360 --> 0:47:44.920 Jester's privilege. Do you guys know what that is? Oh? 0:47:45.000 --> 0:47:50.360 Yeah, where you can like our friend Jester nor you 0:47:50.400 --> 0:47:54.120 can say and then get away with it because no 0:47:54.200 --> 0:47:56.200 one cares what you're saying, because you've never said in 0:47:56.280 --> 0:47:56.600 your life. 0:47:56.800 --> 0:47:58.840 I say real things all the time on this podcast. 0:47:59.040 --> 0:48:02.799 I'm saying important. I'm serving politics, I'm serving news, I'm 0:48:02.800 --> 0:48:04.080 serving That's a good joke. 0:48:04.120 --> 0:48:06.880 That's a good joke because she's always, she's always. 0:48:07.680 --> 0:48:09.600 That's it for your note. 0:48:10.120 --> 0:48:14.239 No, I have I have other ones, Drew. When are 0:48:14.280 --> 0:48:15.120 you gonna let me hit? 0:48:15.480 --> 0:48:17.759 Oh my god, baby. 0:48:19.160 --> 0:48:20.040 After this? 0:48:21.040 --> 0:48:23.479 Maybe not after Oh my god. 0:48:23.560 --> 0:48:26.360 I actually love it when you play games with me. 0:48:26.600 --> 0:48:28.520 Maybe sometimes I come over and I just feel like 0:48:28.719 --> 0:48:30.840 I'm a little ball of yarn and you're like a 0:48:30.920 --> 0:48:32.800 cat and you're just like pawing me around. 0:48:33.000 --> 0:48:36.920 Yeah no, that's ex exactly what's happening. I mean, buy 0:48:37.000 --> 0:48:38.759 me something nice, Okay, treat me. 0:48:38.840 --> 0:48:43.399 I'll buy you something. I'll buy you some ethereum eth. Yeah. 0:48:48.280 --> 0:48:50.600 So oh I'm sorry. Yeah, let me fucking let me. 0:48:51.040 --> 0:48:53.719 Let me say something. Y'all are literally sexting. You're being 0:48:53.760 --> 0:48:57.239 fucking sluts on camera, Like, get a grip, have some 0:48:57.280 --> 0:48:57.840 self respect. 0:48:57.920 --> 0:48:59.880 You're both going to Jealousy is coming out, girl, This 0:49:00.000 --> 0:49:02.600 polyamorous relationship is not gonna work if you keep getting 0:49:02.640 --> 0:49:03.120 jealous of me. 0:49:03.160 --> 0:49:04.800 I don't give a fuck. I actually don't give a 0:49:04.840 --> 0:49:06.400 fuck about that. Break Up with me, Oh, break up 0:49:06.440 --> 0:49:07.880 with me, break up with me. You're not gonna do it, 0:49:07.960 --> 0:49:08.439 fuck you bitch. 0:49:08.640 --> 0:49:09.680 Okay, Yeah, we're dying. 0:49:09.760 --> 0:49:14.200 We're dumb. Okay, that's relationship is now a. 0:49:14.239 --> 0:49:16.200 Monogamous if I if I ever get broken up with 0:49:16.280 --> 0:49:18.160 I've said this before, but like, I'm gonna just keep 0:49:18.200 --> 0:49:20.759 playing the motherfucker just despite them, like break up with me, 0:49:20.880 --> 0:49:22.719 like I'm gonna lie, Like I'm literally gonna lie and 0:49:22.719 --> 0:49:24.239 make you look like a cheeter sod. You want to 0:49:24.239 --> 0:49:25.759 break up with me? And you know what's funny is 0:49:25.880 --> 0:49:29.640 I always get dumped, Like I'm always the dumpy. I'm 0:49:29.680 --> 0:49:32.520 always getting dumped. Yeah, I don't. I've never broken up 0:49:32.520 --> 0:49:36.080 with somebody like I always get dumped. Really, it's probably 0:49:36.120 --> 0:49:38.600 because I'm just so good in every person who dates me. 0:49:38.640 --> 0:49:40.200 It's like, oh my gosh, oh you are the common 0:49:40.239 --> 0:49:41.600 denominator in that situation. 0:49:41.800 --> 0:49:45.000 That's very surprising. I wouldn't have assumed that that. 0:49:45.120 --> 0:49:48.239 She gets dumb. Oh I get dumb is like in 0:49:48.360 --> 0:49:50.879 love and will like stick out a toxic relationship until 0:49:50.880 --> 0:49:51.359 the end of time. 0:49:51.400 --> 0:49:53.520 If she had, I'm like, I can fix you, go back, 0:49:55.040 --> 0:49:55.960 you can fix us. 0:49:58.239 --> 0:49:59.680 Are you not begging for us to come back? 0:50:00.160 --> 0:50:02.759 Yeah, because y'all are fucking sluts and you'll be here 0:50:02.840 --> 0:50:04.959 no matter what I could. I could fucking do whatever 0:50:05.000 --> 0:50:05.279 I want. 0:50:05.320 --> 0:50:06.640 To y'all ran through. 0:50:07.120 --> 0:50:09.040 Yeah, y'aller ran through your sluts. 0:50:09.280 --> 0:50:12.920 I am ran through and I run through. 0:50:14.400 --> 0:50:17.800 I run through meadows and I pray to Jesus and 0:50:17.920 --> 0:50:19.920 I with your other notes, you had like twenty there, 0:50:21.000 --> 0:50:23.839 and he's like, insecure, I'm not gonna lie. 0:50:23.840 --> 0:50:25.359 I've been No, I don't want you to read them 0:50:25.360 --> 0:50:26.879 because I feel like they're kind of dope. 0:50:26.960 --> 0:50:28.480 I'll read them. No, I won't make fun of you. 0:50:30.160 --> 0:50:35.920 Okay, okay. Before Google, it really meant something to know something, 0:50:36.719 --> 0:50:39.880 Like before you could google something, it was actually like 0:50:39.920 --> 0:50:42.600 if somebody had a piece of knowledge about like whatever, 0:50:42.760 --> 0:50:46.200 like for example, in a style of like knitting, like that, 0:50:46.400 --> 0:50:48.720 you really had to go and seek out that person. 0:50:48.960 --> 0:50:50.480 And now you could just watch you TikTok and like 0:50:50.800 --> 0:50:51.759 seconds and like. 0:50:51.840 --> 0:50:55.240 There used to really be a wait in having knowledge 0:50:55.360 --> 0:50:57.239 and like passing that on to somebody else, And now 0:50:57.320 --> 0:50:58.000 that's like gone. 0:50:58.239 --> 0:51:00.800 Yeah, I feel the burden of that leaving because I 0:51:00.880 --> 0:51:05.880 am the last with the knowledge to get I'm like Google, 0:51:06.239 --> 0:51:13.600 if it was personified, Google personified, that's me, girl. There's 0:51:13.640 --> 0:51:16.360 a photo. There's a doppelganger of me as a shaman. 0:51:16.440 --> 0:51:18.760 It's the scariest thing I've ever seen, Well insert it now. 0:51:19.320 --> 0:51:22.160 There's a doppelganger of me, but it's just every other 0:51:22.280 --> 0:51:25.640 Latina girl with like a wider face and brown eyes 0:51:26.719 --> 0:51:29.759 is my doppelganger. Like, I also look like every girl 0:51:29.840 --> 0:51:32.560 on the internet. You look like every other bitch. I 0:51:32.800 --> 0:51:34.399 literally do girl. 0:51:34.480 --> 0:51:37.239 Someone called me the default human and actually fucked me 0:51:37.400 --> 0:51:38.560 up for like three weeks. 0:51:38.880 --> 0:51:42.880 Oh. One of the best roasts I've ever received is 0:51:43.560 --> 0:51:45.239 I had some guys say that I look like a 0:51:45.320 --> 0:51:46.360 default Sims character. 0:51:47.440 --> 0:51:49.680 I really doing. 0:51:50.120 --> 0:51:51.839 It hit me pretty hard, and then. 0:51:51.800 --> 0:51:54.360 Somebody was like, it's not many people look like default Sims, 0:51:54.360 --> 0:51:55.240 So you're kind of winning. 0:51:55.600 --> 0:52:00.400 What the hell were we fucking talking about? Yeah, me 0:52:00.560 --> 0:52:02.040 being a fucking book of knowledge, And. 0:52:02.280 --> 0:52:04.279 I was gonna have a fucking serious comment on that. 0:52:04.880 --> 0:52:08.160 No, no, no, we can bring it back. Let's circle back. 0:52:08.680 --> 0:52:11.719 But like, actually, also, I feel like now because like 0:52:12.800 --> 0:52:15.919 like knowledge like that is so attainable that more people 0:52:16.000 --> 0:52:18.279 are just like making a competition to know how to 0:52:18.400 --> 0:52:21.200 do random shit of like, oh I I also I 0:52:21.280 --> 0:52:22.560 know how to do this, this and that, And it's 0:52:22.600 --> 0:52:25.600 like nobody is really like catering to one thing and 0:52:25.760 --> 0:52:32.000 perfecting one simple craft. Instead, people are like, oh, like 0:52:32.360 --> 0:52:34.719 it's like quantity over quality now, Like I feel like 0:52:34.760 --> 0:52:36.400 that's a huge thing. It's like, oh, I do this, 0:52:36.520 --> 0:52:37.880 and I also do this, and I also do this, 0:52:38.000 --> 0:52:40.080 and it's like what happened to the good old days 0:52:40.080 --> 0:52:42.480 of everybody putting themselves in a box and staying in 0:52:42.600 --> 0:52:46.000 that box? Yeah, I feel like that's all I sound 0:52:46.040 --> 0:52:48.560 on this fucking podcast, Like what happened to the good 0:52:48.560 --> 0:52:50.600 old days of people not believing in themselves and just 0:52:50.680 --> 0:52:51.239 like shutting up? 0:52:51.920 --> 0:52:54.480 Like the one guy one jar or yeah, the one 0:52:54.520 --> 0:52:57.640 guy one jar guy, he only did that, Yeah, and 0:52:57.760 --> 0:52:58.359 he was good. 0:52:58.960 --> 0:53:00.440 And the girl who at the tampon she ate her 0:53:00.480 --> 0:53:01.279 fucking tampon and. 0:53:01.600 --> 0:53:07.520 Yeah, left. I am guilty of that though, because I've tampon. No, no, no, 0:53:07.640 --> 0:53:09.840 It's like doing a lot of things because I do 0:53:10.000 --> 0:53:12.800 like rendering three D rendering music production. 0:53:13.840 --> 0:53:16.040 But that's all like nerd ship on the computer, like 0:53:17.160 --> 0:53:17.759 you're keeping it. 0:53:18.600 --> 0:53:22.400 I'm just addicted to slang. Yeah, honestly, I. 0:53:22.520 --> 0:53:25.040 Am a serbaholic. Like it's actually like I talked to 0:53:25.160 --> 0:53:27.520 my therapists all the time, you know what it is. 0:53:27.640 --> 0:53:29.560 I auditioned, you know what I mean, And I actually 0:53:29.560 --> 0:53:31.160 do want to take the micro quick, just to talk 0:53:31.160 --> 0:53:36.719 about it. I can't leave the house without serving the 0:53:36.880 --> 0:53:38.680 boots holding the house. 0:53:38.880 --> 0:53:40.400 Oh really, yeah, it's. 0:53:40.400 --> 0:53:42.480 You're serving the boots and the house while you're leaving 0:53:42.480 --> 0:53:42.759 the house. 0:53:43.080 --> 0:53:45.279 True. Is that hard? Is that hard for you? No? 0:53:45.560 --> 0:53:48.120 I mean it's not easy. I wouldn't say it's. 0:53:48.600 --> 0:53:50.040 No, I'm sure that's not easy. 0:53:50.280 --> 0:53:53.440 Yeah, it's like really actually really fucking difficult to be 0:53:53.560 --> 0:53:55.920 addicted to serving, Like could you imagine? 0:53:56.160 --> 0:53:58.760 No, Yeah, you know what it is is, I've personally 0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:01.960 dedicated my life to the sleigh, and every now and 0:54:02.080 --> 0:54:04.880 then I find like some like sometime to squeeze in 0:54:04.960 --> 0:54:07.799 a serve. Like I'm committed to the sleigh. Every day 0:54:07.840 --> 0:54:11.239 I do have to slay, whether that be like in 0:54:11.360 --> 0:54:15.680 a serve degree or not. But sometimes yeah, I at night, 0:54:15.760 --> 0:54:17.160 I'm like, you know what, it's my time to go 0:54:17.360 --> 0:54:17.800 and serve. 0:54:20.920 --> 0:54:25.040 Serving to the degree of sleigh. Yeah, to the to 0:54:25.160 --> 0:54:27.359 the power of sleigh. It's given. 0:54:27.480 --> 0:54:29.520 Sometimes I look at you and like, I I like 0:54:29.880 --> 0:54:32.000 refuse to believe that you're like a human who's made 0:54:32.000 --> 0:54:32.400 it this far. 0:54:32.800 --> 0:54:34.799 Sometimes I genuinely look at you and I'm like, wait, 0:54:34.880 --> 0:54:35.879 that's like enough life. 0:54:35.920 --> 0:54:37.320 What do you guys think when you look at me? 0:54:37.800 --> 0:54:38.600 What do you guys think when you. 0:54:38.640 --> 0:54:39.800 Look absolutely nothing? 0:54:40.040 --> 0:54:44.000 I want to feel your rock heart muscles and just 0:54:44.160 --> 0:54:46.320 like just hold you sometimes. 0:54:46.719 --> 0:54:48.480 Really yeah, I think you need to. 0:54:48.480 --> 0:54:48.920 Be held some. 0:54:51.080 --> 0:54:53.560 We've we've both held given Kay a little hold. 0:54:53.920 --> 0:54:55.920 Ye not enough, but it could be more. 0:54:56.000 --> 0:54:59.560 Okay, we're not dating you free find a partner for that. 0:54:59.680 --> 0:55:00.279 Kai No. 0:55:00.480 --> 0:55:02.520 Literally me to Drew yesterday we were watching a movie 0:55:02.600 --> 0:55:04.960 and like this, like a person in the movie was 0:55:05.000 --> 0:55:06.520 getting like a lot of affection and Drew was like, 0:55:06.600 --> 0:55:08.080 why don't y'all do that to me? And I was like, bitch, 0:55:08.080 --> 0:55:11.040 because that's a partner's job, Like go get a partner. Oh, 0:55:13.600 --> 0:55:15.520 this is super dismissive of you, because it's like a 0:55:15.560 --> 0:55:17.279 sweet thing I'm saying to Drew. And I do love 0:55:17.320 --> 0:55:18.520 you and I don't want you to forget that I 0:55:18.600 --> 0:55:20.800 do love you. But all the time I think about this, 0:55:21.280 --> 0:55:23.800 like Drew is like my forever partner, Like does that 0:55:23.880 --> 0:55:26.680 make sense? Like I'm not kidding it, like I believe 0:55:26.719 --> 0:55:30.080 that because I was really really like for like serious, 0:55:30.320 --> 0:55:32.680 thinking about like moving to New York and how like 0:55:33.080 --> 0:55:34.600 much I want to do that, But I was like 0:55:34.760 --> 0:55:38.680 I cannot see myself like not living within the circumfence 0:55:38.719 --> 0:55:39.040 of Drew. 0:55:39.400 --> 0:55:41.600 Girl. We'll figure it out, We'll figure. 0:55:41.360 --> 0:55:43.160 It out, We'll figure it out, we will figure it 0:55:43.239 --> 0:55:43.799 outther out. 0:55:44.040 --> 0:55:47.280 But no, genuinely, I actually do believe that we're forever 0:55:47.880 --> 0:55:50.279 together no matter what we're in this I know, I 0:55:50.360 --> 0:55:53.399 think like on our own, we're not capable of doing 0:55:53.480 --> 0:55:56.200 this life, and we need each other as support as 0:55:56.280 --> 0:55:57.400 I think everybody needs. 0:55:57.760 --> 0:55:59.920 Everybody needs their support. But like, I'm like, do you 0:56:00.120 --> 0:56:03.920 have get this is We've known each other for almost 0:56:04.000 --> 0:56:08.160 eight for eight years psycho, but I was thinking about 0:56:08.160 --> 0:56:09.800 that day. I was like, oh my god, no, because 0:56:09.840 --> 0:56:12.799 Drew's like Drew and Oriyan Like when I think about 0:56:12.840 --> 0:56:15.040 like my like really like deep future, I'm like, oh 0:56:15.080 --> 0:56:16.600 my god, Like these are people who I'm going to 0:56:16.640 --> 0:56:17.640 be like an old hag. 0:56:17.719 --> 0:56:19.440 We're going to be raising our kids together. 0:56:19.800 --> 0:56:23.200 And then Ki will like, well, you don't have that 0:56:23.320 --> 0:56:25.719 much left, you don't have that much time left. Kyle. 0:56:26.280 --> 0:56:29.759 Oh Ryan proposed a very interesting idea last night that 0:56:29.960 --> 0:56:33.160 actually I was like, hmm. She was like, I'm not 0:56:33.640 --> 0:56:35.759 so let's just have one baby and we all raise 0:56:35.840 --> 0:56:36.200 it together. 0:56:36.280 --> 0:56:38.479 Oh Ryan would fucking take the baby and run away, 0:56:38.680 --> 0:56:41.239 like I would not let us take that baby. We'd 0:56:41.239 --> 0:56:43.080 put that baby in the wrong shirt and Ryan would 0:56:43.120 --> 0:56:46.520 be so pissed you put it in a five absolutely color. 0:56:46.719 --> 0:56:48.120 If we put it in a two shirt. 0:56:48.840 --> 0:56:49.040 Give me. 0:56:49.640 --> 0:56:51.399 We put it in a gap shirt and she runs, 0:56:51.520 --> 0:56:52.719 she hits us. 0:56:53.600 --> 0:56:57.080 You know, I've known Drew. I've known you for I 0:56:57.200 --> 0:57:00.920 think two or three years now three mm hmm, So 0:57:01.160 --> 0:57:05.160 that's like a long time. And maybe I also you 0:57:05.239 --> 0:57:05.520 will be. 0:57:05.920 --> 0:57:09.399 Competing, you will be in our life for a long time. 0:57:09.640 --> 0:57:13.920 But I mean like like it's a very like it's 0:57:13.960 --> 0:57:17.080 like an integral like almost it's like a very animalistic 0:57:17.240 --> 0:57:18.440 like love that I have. 0:57:18.640 --> 0:57:20.520 For Drew, where I'm like, this is like it's like 0:57:20.600 --> 0:57:21.120 a protection. 0:57:21.440 --> 0:57:23.280 Like I think if someone hit me over the head, 0:57:23.400 --> 0:57:25.720 like I would still recognize Drew. Like if someone hit 0:57:25.760 --> 0:57:27.640 me over the head, it'd be like Drew and like 0:57:27.720 --> 0:57:29.960 my family and maybe like two other people who like 0:57:30.000 --> 0:57:31.360 if you put them in front of me, I'd be like, oh, 0:57:31.480 --> 0:57:33.160 like I remember. And if you start singing to me 0:57:33.240 --> 0:57:42.440 like in Cocoa, I remember, dude. 0:57:42.240 --> 0:57:46.440 That being clipped is the most hor And everyone's like, 0:57:46.480 --> 0:57:48.080 what the fuck is this cracker saying? 0:57:49.360 --> 0:57:50.640 I'm sure, I'll find my person. 0:57:51.320 --> 0:57:57.840 You you have that, Yeah, you've found you have a 0:57:57.920 --> 0:57:59.120 place in our life forever. 0:57:59.600 --> 0:58:03.120 Yeah you, I honestly and if you, if you tend 0:58:03.160 --> 0:58:03.440 to it. 0:58:03.880 --> 0:58:08.040 To tie all of this together, I honestly do feel 0:58:08.080 --> 0:58:13.560 like so much of being a depressed little boy was 0:58:13.760 --> 0:58:16.520 like me being shut down and feeling like really sad 0:58:16.560 --> 0:58:19.680 that I wasn't going to find people that I was like, 0:58:20.080 --> 0:58:22.320 I wasn't gonna find that like really solid core group 0:58:22.360 --> 0:58:24.640 of friends. And I have like really great friends that 0:58:24.680 --> 0:58:29.800 I've made. But I do feel like part of like 0:58:29.960 --> 0:58:33.520 getting better allowed me to like open up and like 0:58:33.880 --> 0:58:37.240 at that party, talk to you guys, and I feel 0:58:37.480 --> 0:58:41.400 very fucking lucky because, on a very real note, I 0:58:41.520 --> 0:58:45.560 love you guys, and I do feel very lucky. 0:58:45.880 --> 0:58:51.400 We love you, We love you to Okay, I'll take. 0:58:51.320 --> 0:58:53.920 The foot, You'll take his fucking platform shoes anywhere so 0:58:53.960 --> 0:58:54.640 he can be taller. 0:58:54.960 --> 0:58:58.360 These aren't I'm actually done. I'm fucking done with you. 0:58:58.400 --> 0:59:02.160 You're not done, old, You're done. This is this is 0:59:02.200 --> 0:59:02.840 what friends are for. 0:59:03.200 --> 0:59:06.520 You're trapped, You're here forever. That's the thing is is 0:59:06.640 --> 0:59:09.200 like from the outside, like the rest of people in 0:59:09.280 --> 0:59:11.640 Los Angeles probably see us as a literal fucking cult, 0:59:11.800 --> 0:59:13.960 like we're I feel like we're scary to other people. 0:59:15.800 --> 0:59:18.640 It's just, you know what, we found love in a 0:59:18.720 --> 0:59:19.720 hopeless place. 0:59:19.600 --> 0:59:20.560 And we stayed there. 0:59:21.480 --> 0:59:22.280 But are. 0:59:25.280 --> 0:59:26.600 No I did. I wrote that. 0:59:27.320 --> 0:59:31.520 Sorry Dreus in his delusional phase because he's withdrawing, he's 0:59:31.640 --> 0:59:32.560 seeing things. 0:59:34.920 --> 0:59:36.560 All right, guys, you want to do media of the week. 0:59:36.960 --> 0:59:40.560 I've always wanted to say that. How long have we 0:59:40.680 --> 0:59:40.960 been going? 0:59:41.320 --> 0:59:43.200 I feel like we've been going for like eight minutes. 0:59:46.760 --> 0:59:48.360 Do you do you want to do media? You have 0:59:48.440 --> 0:59:49.080 media prepared? 0:59:50.720 --> 0:59:52.959 No, but I will. I'll prepare while you guys do yours. 0:59:53.520 --> 0:59:54.080 I want it. 0:59:54.520 --> 0:59:58.560 I want it. Okay, I'll go, I'll go go. 0:59:58.720 --> 0:59:58.959 Okay. 1:00:00.040 --> 1:00:06.600 Movie Media was the movie totally. We watched it last night. Um, 1:00:07.600 --> 1:00:11.720 I really really enjoyed that movie. I could have done 1:00:11.760 --> 1:00:15.880 without all the weird mermaid shit, but literally, I've never 1:00:16.040 --> 1:00:20.400 rooted for sex to happen in a movie so much 1:00:20.440 --> 1:00:21.080 of my entire. 1:00:21.160 --> 1:00:23.400 Watching that movie made me realize how fucking corny I am. 1:00:23.440 --> 1:00:25.280 Because that's the second piece of media that I've watched 1:00:25.280 --> 1:00:27.720 that I'm like really like pushing this narrative of like 1:00:28.080 --> 1:00:31.080 seeing people have sex, like in that Euphoria episode when 1:00:31.080 --> 1:00:32.720 they were in the hot tub and Shot. Okay, they 1:00:32.720 --> 1:00:35.520 were in a hot tub with Shot playing like are 1:00:35.600 --> 1:00:38.720 y'all knocking about? You're oh, you're knocking about? 1:00:39.200 --> 1:00:40.960 Like our bronzins weren't gonna vibrate. 1:00:41.080 --> 1:00:43.680 Yeah, my bronzon was literally like sounding the alarm and 1:00:43.800 --> 1:00:46.760 like Hooter. The nerves were banging out my clips, so 1:00:46.880 --> 1:00:47.440 it was thumping. 1:00:47.480 --> 1:00:52.400 It was like girl the Cooter Bronson. Okay, my music 1:00:52.640 --> 1:00:55.360 of the week is Buttons VI Sia. 1:00:56.560 --> 1:01:01.120 You got me pushing imaginary school children stuff away from me. 1:01:03.400 --> 1:01:05.120 I'm sorry that sounded so good. 1:01:05.400 --> 1:01:08.040 Continue that was actually my song, and I tricked you 1:01:08.120 --> 1:01:10.720 into believing it was a song to a song, it's 1:01:10.760 --> 1:01:15.160 like a really like infamous a song infamous it was. 1:01:15.320 --> 1:01:16.720 It's a famous song. 1:01:17.000 --> 1:01:17.920 It was infamous. 1:01:20.760 --> 1:01:23.200 It's like when you're famous, but it's not for bad reason. 1:01:23.360 --> 1:01:25.200 Oh I always say infamous. 1:01:25.560 --> 1:01:30.080 Uh less talk more rock by Freeze pop classic, that's 1:01:30.120 --> 1:01:33.560 a classic. And then yeah yeah by Body Rocks. 1:01:33.920 --> 1:01:36.920 Okay, I was listening to that my. 1:01:36.960 --> 1:01:40.080 Indie slee ship. Yeah, I'm sleezed out. 1:01:41.200 --> 1:01:45.000 Well. My media of the week is for a movie 1:01:45.200 --> 1:01:49.280 Jackass Forever. Watching that literally made me so fucking happy 1:01:49.360 --> 1:01:51.080 we did it. Like, we didn't talk about this in 1:01:51.120 --> 1:01:52.960 the last episode, right, No, because we hadn't seen it 1:01:53.080 --> 1:01:55.160 yet when we did the last episode, I don't know, 1:01:55.200 --> 1:01:56.760 because we saw the movie on Friday, so we did 1:01:56.840 --> 1:02:01.240 not talk about it. But I seeing that movie literally 1:02:01.280 --> 1:02:03.240 made me so happy. We watch it with like a 1:02:03.280 --> 1:02:05.760 bunch of friends, and it literally was just like so 1:02:06.040 --> 1:02:09.760 fucking awesome, Like and seeing just like footage of like 1:02:09.880 --> 1:02:12.040 them when they were younger and like Jackass was such 1:02:12.080 --> 1:02:14.800 a big part of my childhood and I like have 1:02:15.080 --> 1:02:17.680 such a parasocial relationship to all of them, like I 1:02:17.880 --> 1:02:22.160 love all of them so fucking much. It really, yeah, 1:02:22.280 --> 1:02:24.480 really made me super fucking happy. And like the old 1:02:24.560 --> 1:02:27.200 footage inspiring too, Yeah, I was super inspiring. It was 1:02:27.280 --> 1:02:28.760 just like when you have a friend group who you 1:02:28.880 --> 1:02:31.520 like really love and like you like making things, whether 1:02:31.560 --> 1:02:33.840 it be like on a super serious note or just 1:02:33.920 --> 1:02:36.040 like for the fun of like making things with your friends, 1:02:36.200 --> 1:02:40.520 like it's bound to be beautiful and like, yeah, it 1:02:40.680 --> 1:02:42.680 was just me like saying all that when it's a 1:02:42.720 --> 1:02:45.560 movie that literally starts off with like Chris Pontius cock like, 1:02:45.720 --> 1:02:48.400 it's like it's literally like it's such a funny movie 1:02:48.480 --> 1:02:52.600 but likes on screen. But it also just had me 1:02:52.760 --> 1:02:55.280 cracking up, like yeah, it's a lot of wiener So 1:02:55.320 --> 1:02:57.840 if you go, like be re prepped, like it literally 1:02:57.880 --> 1:03:01.920 made everyone horny prepped. So yeah, like that was fucking 1:03:05.560 --> 1:03:10.840 that was fucking awesome. My uh songs of the week 1:03:11.040 --> 1:03:16.680 is low one by Lol Wayne your Mom. I'm sorry, 1:03:16.920 --> 1:03:19.680 it's a wrap, Mariah Carey watching You without Me, Kate 1:03:19.800 --> 1:03:23.880 Bush and the Devil is Loose Asha Poothley. I don't 1:03:23.920 --> 1:03:26.400 know how to say her name. Yeah that's my media 1:03:26.440 --> 1:03:28.200 of the week, baby, Okay. 1:03:28.800 --> 1:03:30.240 My media of the week is porn. 1:03:32.800 --> 1:03:35.120 The fucking turn it off because I'm gonna beat the 1:03:35.120 --> 1:03:35.520 shad of you. 1:03:35.880 --> 1:03:41.360 Okay, yeah, it's porn. 1:03:42.240 --> 1:03:44.840 Come on, like, come on, be real. This is this 1:03:45.000 --> 1:03:47.880 is your place to be vulnerable in front of people 1:03:47.920 --> 1:03:50.040 who will scognize you and being able to you. 1:03:50.360 --> 1:03:54.480 This is the new ketamine treatment podcasts, oh ship. It 1:03:54.640 --> 1:03:56.480 forces you to look at yourself. 1:03:57.200 --> 1:03:58.680 Its you to figure yourself. 1:04:00.720 --> 1:04:08.080 Okay. My media for music is fifty to fifty by Jockstrap. 1:04:09.400 --> 1:04:13.520 Very good song in a very cursed way, but it's good. Also, 1:04:14.000 --> 1:04:15.360 have you guys heard of Jockstrap? 1:04:15.840 --> 1:04:15.880 No? 1:04:16.480 --> 1:04:19.480 I didn't even I had never heard of them, but 1:04:20.560 --> 1:04:25.480 that is the most eclectic collection of sounds I've ever heard. 1:04:25.560 --> 1:04:27.800 Like that song is so different from like the next 1:04:27.880 --> 1:04:30.440 one down on their most popular and the next one 1:04:30.480 --> 1:04:33.640 down is like it sounds like old show tunes, like 1:04:33.720 --> 1:04:35.800 someone like rapping over show tunes. It's really weird. But 1:04:36.600 --> 1:04:43.120 that song is very good. And then the Yeat album Yeah, Yes, 1:04:43.440 --> 1:04:45.680 we go back, We go back what we were talking 1:04:45.720 --> 1:04:51.200 about like a year ago at least even longer. Yeah, dude, 1:04:51.960 --> 1:04:54.720 the new album is really good. I am Twizzy Rich, 1:04:55.640 --> 1:05:01.880 I'm Tonka Yeah, Andrew's Tonka Rich and we we like 1:05:01.960 --> 1:05:03.200 to put that on while we have sex. 1:05:05.120 --> 1:05:06.440 Okay, I'm done, Like I can. 1:05:06.600 --> 1:05:07.400 What do you mean you're done? 1:05:07.600 --> 1:05:08.600 You need one more song? 1:05:08.960 --> 1:05:15.520 One more song? Yeah, you don't actually have to Sparks 1:05:15.560 --> 1:05:17.720 by cold Play. Unironically, I have been listening. 1:05:19.440 --> 1:05:22.120 It's really good, a good album. It was randomly playing somewhere. 1:05:22.160 --> 1:05:24.320 I was, oh in Mexico. It was playing in a 1:05:24.400 --> 1:05:27.120 random cafe I was in with a friend, and I 1:05:27.280 --> 1:05:29.040 was like, I can't believe they're playing this. They were 1:05:29.080 --> 1:05:31.120 playing the album front two back, and I was like, 1:05:31.240 --> 1:05:34.560 this is really interesting because like not because it's cold 1:05:34.600 --> 1:05:36.680 Play playing in Mexico, but because why the fuck is 1:05:36.720 --> 1:05:38.000 someone playing that full album? 1:05:38.240 --> 1:05:38.479 Yeah? 1:05:39.160 --> 1:05:42.360 But yeah, I was like, really like depressing sad vibe. 1:05:42.400 --> 1:05:46.160 But have you watched any movies or shows just porn? 1:05:46.240 --> 1:05:49.360 Probably just porn VR like Oculus type. 1:05:50.480 --> 1:05:52.360 I actually did try that recently. 1:05:53.360 --> 1:05:55.680 That's just crazy VR porn. 1:05:55.960 --> 1:05:56.160 Yeah. 1:05:56.440 --> 1:05:57.800 Yeah, we did it in Josh's bed. 1:05:57.960 --> 1:06:01.120 Yeah, we all did it together and I wasn't invited 1:06:01.400 --> 1:06:04.600 a real story, but it was actually no, and I'm 1:06:04.600 --> 1:06:05.040 not kidding. 1:06:05.080 --> 1:06:06.320 I was in New York. 1:06:06.760 --> 1:06:08.960 Yeah, you miss out on all the good stuff when 1:06:09.000 --> 1:06:09.120 you go. 1:06:09.320 --> 1:06:13.560 I miss out on all the horny stuff. Yeah all right, Well, Kai, 1:06:14.280 --> 1:06:15.160 you haven't watched a movie. 1:06:15.640 --> 1:06:17.640 Sorry, I honestly I haven't watched it. 1:06:17.720 --> 1:06:19.200 Well, you watched Tony with us yesterday? 1:06:19.200 --> 1:06:20.720 What did you think? Totally was really good. I watched 1:06:20.760 --> 1:06:23.520 that in twenty eighteen. I went to the grove alone 1:06:23.560 --> 1:06:25.680 and watched it and it was really sad and it 1:06:25.800 --> 1:06:28.880 was so cool to like watch it again with a 1:06:28.960 --> 1:06:31.480 group of people and be like, I have friends now, 1:06:32.160 --> 1:06:32.640 not alone. 1:06:33.160 --> 1:06:33.360 Dude. 1:06:33.440 --> 1:06:36.160 Actually, I'm sorry to like literally gloss over that sad 1:06:36.240 --> 1:06:39.200 ass comment. But fun fact is, because I can't get 1:06:39.240 --> 1:06:41.320 over this is totally is a movie that I saw 1:06:41.920 --> 1:06:44.840 the fucking preview for in like late twenty seventeen before 1:06:44.840 --> 1:06:47.439 it came out, when I saw a random other movie 1:06:47.520 --> 1:06:48.920 and I saw a trailer for it, and I was like, 1:06:48.960 --> 1:06:50.920 oh my god, this movie looks awesome, Like I need 1:06:51.040 --> 1:06:53.560 to see this when it comes out. Because I have 1:06:53.600 --> 1:06:55.320 a pea brain, I fully forgot about it and I 1:06:55.480 --> 1:06:57.600 was still living in Miami, I think, when it came out, 1:06:58.720 --> 1:07:00.760 so I just never heard about it coming out, Like 1:07:01.040 --> 1:07:04.560 Miami doesn't like premiere like movies, like like indie movies 1:07:04.640 --> 1:07:06.520 or anything like that, like at theater, so like I 1:07:06.680 --> 1:07:09.240 just never saw anything for it. And then it's a 1:07:09.320 --> 1:07:11.800 movie that I've thought about pretty often, and I'm like, Okay, 1:07:11.840 --> 1:07:13.840 what is that movie about? Like it almost looks like 1:07:13.880 --> 1:07:15.520 it's about like a single mom. I guess that's where 1:07:15.560 --> 1:07:17.280 I was wrong, because it's not about a single mom, 1:07:17.320 --> 1:07:19.040 but from the trailer, that's what it looked like. And 1:07:19.080 --> 1:07:21.080 I was like, what is this movie about? Like a 1:07:21.160 --> 1:07:23.760 single mom? And she's like obviously struggling, And I could 1:07:23.800 --> 1:07:27.200 never find it until yesterday. High as a bag of Bones. 1:07:27.280 --> 1:07:32.480 I was fucking looking through HBO Max courtesy of Kai 1:07:32.920 --> 1:07:36.160 because I used his HBO Max and I found it. 1:07:36.840 --> 1:07:42.160 I have Kai's HBO Max tapped into my iPhone, my iPad, 1:07:42.440 --> 1:07:45.560 my iMac, my mac book, my TV, the living room TV. 1:07:45.800 --> 1:07:48.880 Like Hi, she was like, she's an HBO Max log 1:07:48.960 --> 1:07:52.160 in now and I sent it. Within like ten seconds, 1:07:52.200 --> 1:07:54.439 I got the notification that it has been logged into 1:07:54.520 --> 1:07:57.480 like five devices and like one of them's in Florida. 1:07:57.600 --> 1:08:01.680 You know, it's funny is that I haven't gotten You know? 1:08:01.720 --> 1:08:03.480 What it is is I demand what I need out 1:08:03.520 --> 1:08:05.640 of this relationship, and you seem to be lacking that 1:08:05.880 --> 1:08:08.440 like ability to communicate what you need. And that doesn't 1:08:08.440 --> 1:08:10.880 fall on your partners, that falls on you. If you 1:08:10.960 --> 1:08:12.880 can't express what you need, it is not up to 1:08:13.000 --> 1:08:13.919 us to read your mind. 1:08:14.320 --> 1:08:15.920 Actually that's literally what it is. 1:08:16.240 --> 1:08:19.400 That is actually how I feel in relationships. And I'm 1:08:19.439 --> 1:08:21.880 like why, like why aren't you reading my mind? Taking 1:08:21.920 --> 1:08:23.360 care of me, tucking me in at. 1:08:23.320 --> 1:08:28.360 Night, brush brushing my hair, brush me. 1:08:29.360 --> 1:08:32.440 It sounds a lot like we need parental figures. 1:08:32.280 --> 1:08:32.519 And not. 1:08:34.360 --> 1:08:39.320 Yeah, yeah, same difference, literally, like yep, we won't get 1:08:39.320 --> 1:08:39.560 into that. 1:08:39.640 --> 1:08:40.000 What is it? 1:08:45.840 --> 1:08:49.040 Okay, Well, thank you so much for being on Kay, 1:08:50.200 --> 1:08:51.880 you're gonna quit I'm gonna replace you with Kai. 1:08:52.280 --> 1:08:54.040 It was really easy, exciting. 1:08:54.400 --> 1:08:56.920 So next week tune in, it'll just be me and 1:08:57.040 --> 1:08:58.200 Kai and Drew will be dead. 1:09:00.760 --> 1:09:02.640 You're done, You're done. It's me now. 1:09:02.760 --> 1:09:04.639 Actually, now you're threatening him, and I really don't fuck 1:09:04.640 --> 1:09:05.680 with I'm gonna beat the ship out of you. 1:09:05.840 --> 1:09:09.160 No, no, you're out, You're I'm actually hell actually no, okay, 1:09:09.280 --> 1:09:10.000 I want to come back. 1:09:10.439 --> 1:09:12.360 Okay, thank you. Yeah, you're done, you're out. 1:09:14.080 --> 1:09:16.040 That I can give you the world and I can 1:09:16.120 --> 1:09:16.439 take it. 1:09:17.640 --> 1:09:19.840 All right, Well, thank you guys for watching, Thank you 1:09:19.920 --> 1:09:22.360 Kai for being on. It was a sweet sleigh. 1:09:22.720 --> 1:09:26.160 Yeah. Also, I don't think we like said who Kai 1:09:26.520 --> 1:09:28.840 was to us other than our friend. But he also 1:09:29.040 --> 1:09:32.439 like helps us with the podcast. He does like all 1:09:32.479 --> 1:09:35.080 the audio stuff and all the little edits and things. 1:09:35.720 --> 1:09:37.439 So yeah, try to us. 1:09:38.280 --> 1:09:39.200 Yeah, I think people know. 1:09:39.320 --> 1:09:41.200 Kay, do you want to shout anything out? 1:09:43.560 --> 1:09:44.440 Pout? 1:09:45.080 --> 1:09:47.000 All right? All right, bye, god bye