WEBVTT - Kylee Russell Is Back 0:00:02.080 --> 0:00:04.080 Hey, everyone, welcome back to Bachler Happy Hour. 0:00:04.160 --> 0:00:06.080 I'm Joe and I'm Serena. 0:00:05.920 --> 0:00:09.400 And we are here with Kylie Russell from last season 0:00:09.400 --> 0:00:13.119 A Bachelor in Paradise and from Kylie, who is your 0:00:13.119 --> 0:00:13.880 bachelor Zach? 0:00:14.800 --> 0:00:18.040 Yeah, he's in twenty seven. I'm a Bacheler. What's Zach. 0:00:19.000 --> 0:00:22.079 It's nice to let's see you guys again and be 0:00:22.200 --> 0:00:23.000 back Bachelor Nation. 0:00:23.640 --> 0:00:27.160 It's so funny because we had Tyler Cameron a few 0:00:27.200 --> 0:00:29.080 weeks ago and we're like, oh, like, you've never been 0:00:29.080 --> 0:00:31.120 on the podcast, so crazy, and then this week I 0:00:31.160 --> 0:00:33.120 was like, I think Kylie's been on like three times, 0:00:33.159 --> 0:00:34.760 like she's like a regular here. 0:00:34.960 --> 0:00:37.360 This is my third time and I love this space. 0:00:37.600 --> 0:00:41.600 I always feel so welcomed and very energetic platforms beyond, 0:00:41.640 --> 0:00:42.840 so I'm excited to be back. 0:00:43.680 --> 0:00:44.640 We love having y'all. 0:00:45.040 --> 0:00:47.240 When I hear your name, I think of one thing 0:00:48.360 --> 0:00:51.000 and you said it up. You said it on our podcast, 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:54.880 and that's what I This is how I associate you. Now. 0:00:54.880 --> 0:00:56.639 Do you know what they are on Happy Hour? 0:00:56.800 --> 0:01:00.360 I think you said it on Clickbait already. It's if 0:01:00.400 --> 0:01:02.240 you do. It's something that you do that I. 0:01:02.280 --> 0:01:07.880 Drink Mountain do And yes, I really got off that 0:01:07.920 --> 0:01:10.480 podcast and I was like, why did you just word vomit? 0:01:10.600 --> 0:01:13.640 Like are you good? Because although I do that, I 0:01:13.680 --> 0:01:16.280 don't want the world to know. But I live in 0:01:16.319 --> 0:01:18.280 California now and I feel like I have to be 0:01:18.360 --> 0:01:21.920 like a healthy queen. I guess. So we've done out 0:01:22.000 --> 0:01:24.760 back on that and do and we only drink that 0:01:24.880 --> 0:01:25.679 ever so often. 0:01:26.959 --> 0:01:30.280 Really instead of waking up and having a coffee, I'll 0:01:30.280 --> 0:01:31.920 wake up and have a glass. 0:01:32.480 --> 0:01:35.920 Keep a Mountain Dew at her nightstand and wake up. 0:01:37.360 --> 0:01:40.760 The first thing, you know what though, So that is 0:01:40.840 --> 0:01:43.640 crazy Kylie like it is. But at the same time, 0:01:43.760 --> 0:01:48.080 there's people that are like crazy, crazy diet coke drinkers, 0:01:48.880 --> 0:01:52.280 and I feel like it's kind of similar. I mean, 0:01:52.320 --> 0:01:56.400 Anna Redmond is like obsessed with mountain dew. Also, I 0:01:56.440 --> 0:01:59.240 think they like sent her a bunch of I don't 0:01:59.280 --> 0:02:02.880 feel so wone now there's a community of you guys 0:02:02.880 --> 0:02:04.559 out there drinking Mountaindale. 0:02:05.240 --> 0:02:09.240 Less embarrassed now. But yeah, like I said, I've tried 0:02:09.280 --> 0:02:12.080 to kind of put my health at my forefront and 0:02:12.120 --> 0:02:14.320 be a little bit better. But I think I will 0:02:14.480 --> 0:02:16.760 if mountain dew is what kills me, at least I'll 0:02:16.760 --> 0:02:18.639 die happy. I guess you. 0:02:18.600 --> 0:02:20.840 Know what everyone has like their thing, you know, like 0:02:20.960 --> 0:02:22.760 Joe loves Pinkberry and. 0:02:22.680 --> 0:02:25.920 Like, okay, I actually don't. I'm actually I'm over Pinkberry. 0:02:28.800 --> 0:02:31.760 Is no longer ordering Pinkberry every night after But if 0:02:31.760 --> 0:02:34.840 I were, if I were to do a pop, if 0:02:34.840 --> 0:02:37.680 I were to drink a pop, my go to is 0:02:38.520 --> 0:02:38.960 a coke. 0:02:39.520 --> 0:02:42.920 Yeah, I love a good king. It's a toss up 0:02:42.960 --> 0:02:45.720 Coke Coker Mountain dew for me. But mon deu is there? 0:02:45.800 --> 0:02:46.359 My heart lives. 0:02:46.520 --> 0:02:47.639 Do you drink coffee? 0:02:48.280 --> 0:02:50.640 No? And I'm a nurse, so I work long, twelve 0:02:50.639 --> 0:02:53.720 hour shifts and not being a coffee drinker will be 0:02:53.720 --> 0:02:56.200 the death of me, just because I'm so physically tired 0:02:56.240 --> 0:02:58.360 all the time. And it would be so nice to 0:02:58.400 --> 0:03:02.160 have like that espresso boost. But it's just my tastebuds 0:03:02.160 --> 0:03:04.840 are really picky. I'm twenty six, and I have the 0:03:04.840 --> 0:03:07.800 tastebuds of like like a six year old child. So 0:03:07.840 --> 0:03:09.920 I'm hoping one day I'll wake up and they'll be 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:13.840 like evolved, but unfortunately does not yet happen, So no 0:03:13.919 --> 0:03:16.440 coffee for me. I want to like Starbucks. I want 0:03:16.440 --> 0:03:19.440 to walk in with like my cute scrubs and my latte. 0:03:19.680 --> 0:03:22.360 But it just will never be me unfortunately. 0:03:22.880 --> 0:03:25.760 That's all right, that's so funny to me. I like, 0:03:25.880 --> 0:03:27.959 so you're like a chicken fingers and fries girl. 0:03:28.040 --> 0:03:31.000 Oh, absolutely, yeah, I think too. That's why when you 0:03:31.040 --> 0:03:34.760 were traveling for Zach season at the Bachelor, one of 0:03:34.800 --> 0:03:38.120 the things put being on TV and like the emotions 0:03:38.120 --> 0:03:41.360 of like falling in love aside, Like, one of my 0:03:41.360 --> 0:03:44.600 biggest struggles was finding things on the menu in the 0:03:44.600 --> 0:03:47.800 different countries that I liked. It was a struggle and 0:03:47.840 --> 0:03:50.320 probably a red flag. But if they don't have chicken 0:03:50.320 --> 0:03:51.840 fingers and fries, like I don't want it. 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:56.200 What's the most adventurous food you've you've dabbled in? 0:03:56.680 --> 0:03:59.760 Okay, so I my junior year of college, I went 0:03:59.840 --> 0:04:04.160 to Spain for two weeks and Spanish food is very interesting. 0:04:05.800 --> 0:04:07.760 I thought. So in the South, we love a good 0:04:07.840 --> 0:04:11.200 hush puppy, and for whatever reason, I thought I was 0:04:11.200 --> 0:04:14.480 eating a hush puppy in Spain. It definitely wasn't a hushpuppiy. 0:04:15.480 --> 0:04:17.599 It was. I'd bit into it. It looked just like 0:04:17.680 --> 0:04:23.320 one and cuet. Yeah, probably, and it was not. I 0:04:23.360 --> 0:04:27.120 was very surprised that it was not what I was expecting, 0:04:27.920 --> 0:04:29.800 so I think that I think the Spanish food in 0:04:29.839 --> 0:04:32.880 Spain really was out there for me. I ended up 0:04:32.880 --> 0:04:36.480 finding an American diner in like the pit of Barcelona, 0:04:37.000 --> 0:04:39.600 and I ate there like every other day, just because 0:04:40.000 --> 0:04:42.159 I want to be so cultured, like I really do. 0:04:42.720 --> 0:04:44.720 But my taste bluds just hate me basically. 0:04:45.000 --> 0:04:47.760 But you know what, like, if you're trying things, that's 0:04:47.800 --> 0:04:49.680 all you can do. You know what I mean exactly, 0:04:49.680 --> 0:04:51.840 you don't like them, you don't like them. I feel 0:04:51.839 --> 0:04:55.600 like it's just out of your control, like what foods 0:04:55.640 --> 0:04:57.560 taste good to and what don't. 0:04:57.880 --> 0:05:00.440 Thank you, Serene, thank you for having me b And 0:05:00.480 --> 0:05:02.840 it's like you said, it's not like lack of effort. 0:05:03.120 --> 0:05:05.479 I always put my best friend forward. It's just my 0:05:05.560 --> 0:05:08.719 body rejects me. So they know I'm always advocate. 0:05:09.080 --> 0:05:11.400 I feel like I used to be judgmental of picky eaters, 0:05:11.440 --> 0:05:13.560 but then I'm like, when you think about it, it's like, 0:05:14.279 --> 0:05:16.880 if you're not willing to try different foods, like that 0:05:17.400 --> 0:05:19.000 is an issue. I think I think you should always 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:21.360 be open to, like trying different cultures foods, but if 0:05:21.360 --> 0:05:23.040 you're trying them and they don't taste good to you, 0:05:23.080 --> 0:05:25.640 Like you can't do anything about that, like if you 0:05:25.640 --> 0:05:28.720 don't like them. Oh, I'm just a girl, yeah, like 0:05:28.800 --> 0:05:32.400 the just who wants chicken fingers. 0:05:30.920 --> 0:05:34.159 I have a friend that I was just in Forida 0:05:34.200 --> 0:05:38.280 with and he he will only eat like a cheeseburger 0:05:38.400 --> 0:05:42.560 well done with catchup and like cheetos and like that's 0:05:42.600 --> 0:05:45.960 all he'll eat. But we have to pivot. 0:05:47.200 --> 0:05:54.120 So you you're from Charlotte, yes, and you are living 0:05:54.600 --> 0:05:55.400 wear in California. 0:05:55.440 --> 0:05:56.560 No, you're in San Diego right. 0:05:56.839 --> 0:06:00.360 Yes, I'm one of the basic Bachelor nations and that 0:06:00.839 --> 0:06:04.960 moved to California, San Diego specifically after being on a season. 0:06:05.560 --> 0:06:08.119 I'm actually in my apartment with I love with Jess 0:06:08.160 --> 0:06:11.440 Gerard from my season of Paradise a ZAC season. She's 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:13.640 in the room beside me. She's a work from homegirly. 0:06:13.839 --> 0:06:16.560 So my god, Hi Jack, Yeah, hey Jess, if you 0:06:16.600 --> 0:06:20.080 can hear us. But yeah, no, I have loved it. 0:06:20.120 --> 0:06:22.680 I've been here. I moved here in mid February, so 0:06:22.720 --> 0:06:25.760 it's almost been two months, which is insane how fast 0:06:25.760 --> 0:06:29.640 time it's grown. It's taken some adjustment because it's so 0:06:29.720 --> 0:06:32.800 much different than the East Coast. But I really do 0:06:32.880 --> 0:06:33.279 love it. 0:06:34.320 --> 0:06:37.599 What do you think it is that pulls so many 0:06:37.600 --> 0:06:40.039 people from Bachelor Nation to go live in San Diego? 0:06:40.080 --> 0:06:41.840 Like, was it on your radar before? 0:06:42.120 --> 0:06:44.520 Was it just like all of your friends were moving there, 0:06:44.560 --> 0:06:46.920 you thought it would be fine? Like it's the whole 0:06:47.000 --> 0:06:49.760 San Diego Bachelor Nation thing is so interesting to me 0:06:49.760 --> 0:06:52.120 because there's literally so many of them there. 0:06:52.800 --> 0:06:55.520 Yeah. So I honestly, for myself, if you would have 0:06:55.600 --> 0:06:57.560 told me prior to going on The Bachelor that I 0:06:57.560 --> 0:07:00.000 would ever move out of Charlotte, I would be like, 0:07:00.120 --> 0:07:03.680 you're insane. There's no way. I went to college there. 0:07:03.800 --> 0:07:06.520 I loved ten minutes from my parents after being out 0:07:06.520 --> 0:07:09.000 of my parents' house, Like, Charlotte was my home, it 0:07:09.040 --> 0:07:11.600 was my community, and I loved it there. And so 0:07:11.760 --> 0:07:14.600 I think The Bachelor and especially Paradise provided so much 0:07:14.640 --> 0:07:18.160 growth for me and allowed me to really become independent. 0:07:19.360 --> 0:07:22.400 And then so that kind of sparked my interest of 0:07:22.640 --> 0:07:26.280 wanting to get out of Charlotte and explore and experience 0:07:26.360 --> 0:07:29.360 new cities. And then everyone for my season, I know, 0:07:29.480 --> 0:07:34.560 Kat lives here now, Genevieve Mayo and then Anastasia and 0:07:34.840 --> 0:07:37.000 they kind of just picked up and came here and 0:07:37.080 --> 0:07:39.600 so Jess and I were like, why not us? So 0:07:39.680 --> 0:07:43.440 I think it was just it was never specifically San Diego. 0:07:43.640 --> 0:07:46.360 For me, it was I want to experience a new city, 0:07:46.680 --> 0:07:48.440 and all my friends just so happened to go to 0:07:48.440 --> 0:07:50.000 San Diego. So that's why I chose it. 0:07:50.880 --> 0:07:55.560 That makes sense because it's like it's an easy adventure, 0:07:55.680 --> 0:07:58.280 but it also feels safe probably to be like, I 0:07:58.320 --> 0:08:00.040 want to try something new, but I don't want to 0:07:59.960 --> 0:08:01.760 be like isolated and alone. 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:03.400 And you know that you're going to have kind of 0:08:03.440 --> 0:08:04.920 a beautiful too. 0:08:05.280 --> 0:08:07.840 Yeah. I mean it's not a hard place to live 0:08:07.880 --> 0:08:10.960 at all. And exactly like you're saying, Serene, I did 0:08:11.000 --> 0:08:13.760 become very independent on the Bachelor, but I don't think 0:08:14.160 --> 0:08:16.280 power to the people who can pick up a move 0:08:16.320 --> 0:08:19.440 and know no one. But unfortunately that's just not something 0:08:19.480 --> 0:08:22.360 I probably would ever be comfortable with. So it's that 0:08:22.640 --> 0:08:25.840 comfort blanket of having my friends here while exploring a 0:08:26.040 --> 0:08:29.120 beautiful inner city. You guys should come and visit. 0:08:29.800 --> 0:08:31.840 I've actually never been to San Diego. 0:08:32.400 --> 0:08:32.959 I knew that. 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:35.960 I think you've been twice, Yeah, twice. 0:08:36.040 --> 0:08:37.320 I think I would love to go. 0:08:37.400 --> 0:08:39.160 It's just like we live in New York and it's 0:08:39.200 --> 0:08:41.440 like a bit of a mission to get out there. 0:08:41.840 --> 0:08:44.240 No, it's far. It's like a six hour flight from 0:08:44.240 --> 0:08:46.319 North Carolina, so I feel like it may be a 0:08:46.360 --> 0:08:50.000 little further for good. I'm very geographically challenged, so I'm 0:08:50.040 --> 0:08:54.000 not exactly sure. But New York was actually on the list. 0:08:54.160 --> 0:08:57.480 I know Davia and we are both live in New York, 0:08:57.640 --> 0:09:00.240 and so I was like pulled in either that action 0:09:00.360 --> 0:09:04.040 or San Diego. But I hate the cold, and unfortunately, 0:09:04.040 --> 0:09:07.640 you guys' winters are brutal, so I'm going to stay 0:09:07.640 --> 0:09:09.240 over here where I can go to the beach. 0:09:09.360 --> 0:09:14.920 Basically, So what is what is a regular weekend for 0:09:14.960 --> 0:09:16.960 you guys? Are you all getting together all the time? 0:09:17.120 --> 0:09:18.000 What's that looking like? 0:09:18.440 --> 0:09:21.480 Yeah? So I think because we have the comfort of 0:09:21.520 --> 0:09:26.240 each other, we find ourselves migrating to one another. We 0:09:26.440 --> 0:09:29.440 like to experience any new restaurants. We like to go 0:09:29.480 --> 0:09:32.520 to the local bars. There's two separate kind of like 0:09:32.600 --> 0:09:35.920 fields of San Diego. You have Pacific Beach, which is 0:09:35.960 --> 0:09:39.480 like your beachy bars, kind of gives like a college vibe. 0:09:39.760 --> 0:09:43.360 And I swear Jessica is obsessed with peb like she'd 0:09:43.400 --> 0:09:46.600 probably be buried there as she could, so she often 0:09:46.679 --> 0:09:49.520 drags us to PB or there's like the little Italy area. 0:09:50.000 --> 0:09:52.200 I would say it's like similar to New York vibes, 0:09:53.360 --> 0:09:58.560 kind of like your older men women kind of just 0:09:58.600 --> 0:10:03.080 like by very low key and subtle. So I guess 0:10:03.080 --> 0:10:05.320 it just depends on how we wake up that Saturday 0:10:05.360 --> 0:10:07.640 and what we're feeling. But if it's up to Jess, 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:08.760 peb is where it will be. 0:10:09.200 --> 0:10:11.960 Where it is at And then during the week, what 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:12.920 is your life like? 0:10:13.080 --> 0:10:16.080 You were an urn right, yes, in Charlotte? 0:10:16.120 --> 0:10:19.240 Okay, I was. Yeah, I was honestly really weird because 0:10:19.800 --> 0:10:22.720 I had been talking about moving since like September of 0:10:22.840 --> 0:10:26.560 last year, and I worked in postpartum, so right after 0:10:26.600 --> 0:10:29.040 a mom and baby delivers and labor delivery, they come 0:10:29.080 --> 0:10:30.800 to my unit and I take care of them for 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:34.880 the next couple of days. And it's a very specialized field, 0:10:35.120 --> 0:10:37.840 and once you're there, no one really wants to leave 0:10:37.920 --> 0:10:40.840 because it's an amazing place to work. Long story short, 0:10:40.920 --> 0:10:43.760 I could not find a gig anywhere in San Diego. 0:10:43.840 --> 0:10:47.360 It was almost impossible, and so I'd kind of just 0:10:47.360 --> 0:10:49.280 given up. I was going to work at a med 0:10:49.320 --> 0:10:52.600 spa here already like accepted the offer, was ready to go. 0:10:53.200 --> 0:10:56.240 And then the day I moved out, I found a position. 0:10:57.040 --> 0:10:59.280 Day I moved out of Charlotte, I found a postpartum 0:10:59.280 --> 0:11:02.720 position at a hospital here, and I like interviewed on 0:11:02.760 --> 0:11:06.199 a whim. Literally within an hour later, I had an 0:11:06.200 --> 0:11:09.280 offer letter, and then two hours later I was on 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:11.560 a plane to San Diego. So it was like everything 0:11:11.640 --> 0:11:14.720 had just fallen into place. I was so like genuinely 0:11:14.720 --> 0:11:17.400 excited about my work and when I was coming to so, yeah, 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:19.319 I'm a post part of Meiers here in San Diego. 0:11:19.559 --> 0:11:21.520 Oh my god, that's amazing. 0:11:21.800 --> 0:11:24.800 It mustage just felt like truly the stars were aligning 0:11:24.840 --> 0:11:25.160 for you. 0:11:25.640 --> 0:11:29.200 Literally, because I think I was obviously excited about moving, 0:11:29.559 --> 0:11:32.079 but my job was kind of holding back that excitement 0:11:32.360 --> 0:11:35.000 because it just it wasn't where I felt like I 0:11:35.040 --> 0:11:38.959 was drawn to. And so that aligning literally was like, Okay, 0:11:39.040 --> 0:11:41.120 I'm supposed to be going here. I'm supposed to be here, 0:11:41.120 --> 0:11:42.840 and it's going to be a good experience. 0:11:44.200 --> 0:11:46.080 Nice. What what are you? What are your what are 0:11:46.120 --> 0:11:47.760 your shifts? Like? What shifts do you work? 0:11:48.960 --> 0:11:51.680 I am a unicorn and I was able to get 0:11:51.720 --> 0:11:53.280 not only a new job, but I was able to 0:11:53.280 --> 0:11:56.240 get day shifts. So I work I go in about 0:11:56.440 --> 0:11:59.280 and that's really rare, especially if you're starting out on 0:11:59.320 --> 0:12:01.760 a new unit. You're typically always nights and then you 0:12:01.840 --> 0:12:03.960 have to work through what your way up to days. 0:12:04.200 --> 0:12:06.640 So I get into the hospital around like six forty 0:12:06.640 --> 0:12:08.560 five in the morning and then I don't ever really 0:12:08.600 --> 0:12:11.640 leave until about seven forty five at night. So it's 0:12:11.640 --> 0:12:14.440 so long day once I'm there. But I only typically 0:12:14.440 --> 0:12:17.240 work three to four days a week, so I have 0:12:17.559 --> 0:12:20.040 some days of rest like today in between, so it 0:12:20.080 --> 0:12:22.400 makes it, it makes it worth it nice. 0:12:22.480 --> 0:12:25.800 That's uh, yeah, that's not bad. Then I never know 0:12:25.880 --> 0:12:29.199 because like sometimes I hear like you'all hear like nurses 0:12:29.240 --> 0:12:32.280 that work around the clock every day and then you 0:12:32.320 --> 0:12:35.559 have like there's all different hours, so I was curious 0:12:35.559 --> 0:12:36.040 about that. 0:12:36.160 --> 0:12:39.360 I empowered to them. I can agree that I was 0:12:39.440 --> 0:12:41.640 off of work for like two and a half months 0:12:42.160 --> 0:12:44.840 and so my body was used to just being lazy, 0:12:44.960 --> 0:12:47.200 and then I go into my first whole hour shifts 0:12:47.240 --> 0:12:49.720 being back, and I felt like I had just died 0:12:49.800 --> 0:12:53.240 and got back to life. So I'm slowly but surely adjusted. 0:12:53.400 --> 0:12:56.000 But it's very hard on your body, but a really 0:12:56.040 --> 0:12:56.800 rewarding job. 0:12:57.360 --> 0:13:00.600 Yeah, I feel like that's such a special unit to 0:13:00.679 --> 0:13:04.559 work in because you're kind of seeing people hopefully and 0:13:04.600 --> 0:13:08.280 like their happiest time with their news. 0:13:08.520 --> 0:13:11.600 Yeah yeah, but also like stressful because it's like if. 0:13:11.520 --> 0:13:14.240 They're not getting any sleep, the babies wanting to feed 0:13:14.280 --> 0:13:17.640 all night, the babies crying. No, it's literally so rewarding. 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:20.720 I feel like there's a lot of education that comes 0:13:20.720 --> 0:13:23.240 into my job of just like helping especially a new 0:13:23.280 --> 0:13:27.000 mom transition into motherhood. I will say, like ninety eight 0:13:27.000 --> 0:13:28.840 percent of the time, like you said, it's one of 0:13:28.880 --> 0:13:32.120 the happiest moments of their life. I do occasionally get 0:13:32.200 --> 0:13:36.080 some baby daddy drama that's always kind of interesting to see. 0:13:36.600 --> 0:13:39.560 But yes, yes, I like sometimes I like, am I 0:13:39.679 --> 0:13:42.160 working on Jerry Springer? Or like, am I in the 0:13:42.160 --> 0:13:48.280 hospital right now? But putting that aside, it's very refreshing 0:13:48.440 --> 0:13:50.199 and something I love to do. 0:13:56.960 --> 0:13:59.120 I could totally see you in that role. If I 0:13:59.400 --> 0:14:01.440 ever have a baby, I'll be like, Kylie, what do 0:14:01.480 --> 0:14:01.720 I do? 0:14:02.120 --> 0:14:04.400 I'll fly out to New York and I'll do all 0:14:04.440 --> 0:14:05.800 of the most part tricks I got you. 0:14:05.880 --> 0:14:09.439 Thank you all right? So I want to get into 0:14:10.320 --> 0:14:12.560 your dating life, but before we do, let me kind 0:14:12.559 --> 0:14:17.199 of summarize for everyone what went down, Yes, with your 0:14:17.200 --> 0:14:22.320 season of Paradise. So essentially, you're on Paradise, you and 0:14:22.360 --> 0:14:28.480 Avon leave kind of like you wishy washy, but like 0:14:28.680 --> 0:14:31.000 you're kind of in a you're you're somewhat of a couple. 0:14:31.120 --> 0:14:35.040 Then after the show airs, you guys post that you're 0:14:35.120 --> 0:14:39.400 together in San Diego, and then like twenty four hours later, 0:14:40.560 --> 0:14:43.680 you post a story or you might have posted in 0:14:43.760 --> 0:14:46.400 and feed that he cheated on you, and you guys 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:49.360 are broken up. And that's kind of the last of 0:14:49.520 --> 0:14:53.800 what I know, and I think most of the viewers know. 0:14:53.960 --> 0:14:56.400 I know you went and did file files, so I'm 0:14:56.440 --> 0:15:00.480 sure you talked a little more on that, but yeah, 0:15:00.520 --> 0:15:01.320 you want to catch us up. 0:15:02.000 --> 0:15:05.080 Yeah, so that time period of my life was a whirlwind. 0:15:05.320 --> 0:15:08.320 Just like you said, I left with Avon on the show. 0:15:08.520 --> 0:15:10.520 It didn't really look like we were happy. We just 0:15:10.600 --> 0:15:14.200 had some we had indifferences about kind of our ending 0:15:14.320 --> 0:15:16.920 when it came to the show, but we still decided 0:15:16.920 --> 0:15:20.080 to leave with each other as like boyfriend girlfriend. We 0:15:21.240 --> 0:15:23.320 I think it was like a six month time period 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:26.000 in between filming and the very end of the show. 0:15:26.520 --> 0:15:29.160 We were a strong couple, as strong as we could be. 0:15:29.160 --> 0:15:31.400 Because we were doing long distance. I had not yet 0:15:31.480 --> 0:15:34.880 moved to San Diego. I was still in Charlotte, he 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:37.600 was here, and then we would make it a point 0:15:37.640 --> 0:15:40.160 to try to see each other at least once per month, 0:15:40.280 --> 0:15:42.360 and we did a really good job with that. And 0:15:42.400 --> 0:15:46.120 then unfortunately I did find out that news, and it 0:15:46.160 --> 0:15:48.560 kind of felt like everything was just like stripped away 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:51.240 from me and I was having to start from scratch. 0:15:52.040 --> 0:15:55.440 I haven't I'm not really seasoned when it comes to 0:15:55.480 --> 0:15:59.360 being in relationships. Aside from Avan, I only had one 0:15:59.400 --> 0:16:04.160 other boyfriend and that was six years ago. So obviously 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:06.720 I've talked to guys, I've dated around, but never really 0:16:06.760 --> 0:16:10.720 been serious with anyone other than those two men, and 0:16:10.800 --> 0:16:13.840 so I've never been cheated on before. This was the 0:16:13.880 --> 0:16:18.320 first time. So having that happened to you was already 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:20.760 like a gut punch, but then having to deal with 0:16:20.800 --> 0:16:25.640 it on such a public platform that was like, I 0:16:25.680 --> 0:16:29.360 can't even put into words how devastating that was. And 0:16:29.400 --> 0:16:31.080 then I felt like I had to answer to so 0:16:31.120 --> 0:16:34.720 many people because in one breath I was posting that 0:16:34.840 --> 0:16:37.040 you were together, and then we were happy, and everyone 0:16:37.120 --> 0:16:40.920 was texting me congratulations, and then all of a sudden 0:16:41.200 --> 0:16:43.240 I find this out and I'm like feeling I have 0:16:43.280 --> 0:16:45.120 to lie to people saying thank you, and we're not 0:16:45.200 --> 0:16:49.120 together anymore. So long story short, I am in a 0:16:49.160 --> 0:16:54.400 place where I've completely moved past the emotions of finding 0:16:54.440 --> 0:16:58.200 something like that out. I'm trying to be I feel 0:16:58.200 --> 0:17:02.880 like it was a sense, to be very honest with you, 0:17:03.640 --> 0:17:05.639 It's kind of like I had the human emotion of 0:17:05.680 --> 0:17:07.960 like feeling insecure about myself there for a little bit 0:17:08.000 --> 0:17:10.160 because I'm like, well, if he chose to do this 0:17:10.200 --> 0:17:13.280 to me, then there's obviously I'm not enough or there's 0:17:13.280 --> 0:17:15.639 obviously something wrong with me, and I know that's not 0:17:15.680 --> 0:17:18.679 the case whatsoever, But it was just that human emotion 0:17:18.760 --> 0:17:22.040 of like, Okay, is there something I need to do better. 0:17:22.680 --> 0:17:24.719 I have now since grown from that and realized that 0:17:24.720 --> 0:17:27.159 that's not necessarily the case. It was just a character 0:17:27.200 --> 0:17:31.080 flaw on his end. But it's really just putting the 0:17:31.160 --> 0:17:35.560 pieces back together just because I did. We were in 0:17:35.680 --> 0:17:37.960 such a strong place where at the end of it 0:17:38.320 --> 0:17:40.639 that I thought that he was my future, in my 0:17:40.760 --> 0:17:44.880 forever and being having that stripped away from me completely, 0:17:44.920 --> 0:17:47.280 so suddenly I was like, Okay, I got to start over, 0:17:48.880 --> 0:17:50.919 and I will say, I'm not gonna lie moving to 0:17:50.960 --> 0:17:53.240 San Diego. He was a big part of that prior 0:17:53.280 --> 0:17:55.720 to all of this happening. So I had to decide 0:17:55.800 --> 0:17:58.880 one if I was going to continue to move, if 0:17:58.920 --> 0:18:01.639 I was going to ever even be willing to speak 0:18:01.680 --> 0:18:04.399 to him again, Like there were so many different things. 0:18:04.640 --> 0:18:07.399 So that was like my life was a whirlwind in 0:18:07.440 --> 0:18:11.360 December and January, and then I decided to move here 0:18:11.760 --> 0:18:15.359 solely for myself. I wanted to prove to myself that 0:18:15.440 --> 0:18:18.520 I am independent, that I can finally cut the umbilical 0:18:18.560 --> 0:18:21.480 cord from my family and I can do big things 0:18:21.520 --> 0:18:24.239 without them, And then I wanted to experience this with 0:18:24.280 --> 0:18:29.199 my friends. I think right now, speaking on dating, I 0:18:29.240 --> 0:18:32.879 am not in a position to be dating anyone. I 0:18:32.920 --> 0:18:38.159 think that circumstance really just like took everything out of 0:18:38.240 --> 0:18:41.960 me and I can't find it in me right now. 0:18:42.040 --> 0:18:44.479 I know it will eventually come to give myself like 0:18:44.480 --> 0:18:47.520 that to someone else again, So I think it's just 0:18:47.600 --> 0:18:51.840 all about time and allowing myself to fully heal before 0:18:51.840 --> 0:18:53.080 I jump back into something. 0:18:53.520 --> 0:18:58.320 What was that feeling like then moving to San Diego? Obviously, 0:18:58.359 --> 0:19:00.479 like you have your girls there, you have friends, but 0:19:00.520 --> 0:19:04.200 like he lives there right right, So you know, I'm 0:19:04.240 --> 0:19:09.200 now moving to the city where my ex I don't 0:19:09.200 --> 0:19:11.640 know exactly like how you're referring to him label wise 0:19:11.680 --> 0:19:14.320 at that time, but like my ex is living there, 0:19:14.359 --> 0:19:15.639 and like, you know. 0:19:15.560 --> 0:19:17.480 You have mutual friends in the city. 0:19:17.560 --> 0:19:20.360 Like, was there anxiety had you talked to him like, Hey, 0:19:20.400 --> 0:19:23.000 I'm coming into town, we might run into each other? 0:19:23.119 --> 0:19:26.480 Like what was that dynamic like, and how are you 0:19:26.560 --> 0:19:27.440 feeling about it? 0:19:28.000 --> 0:19:31.880 So I was definitely very anxious. I would be lying 0:19:31.920 --> 0:19:34.000 if I said that, even and I still were in 0:19:34.160 --> 0:19:37.159 somewhat of communication, so he knew that I was moving. 0:19:37.840 --> 0:19:41.680 I think he was very anxious too, just because obviously 0:19:41.720 --> 0:19:43.440 he was in a like a place, in a space 0:19:43.440 --> 0:19:45.480 where he wanted to get back together, but he wanted 0:19:45.520 --> 0:19:47.920 to give me time to heal as well. As he's 0:19:48.119 --> 0:19:51.040 been very mature in all of this. He's wanting to 0:19:51.080 --> 0:19:54.640 heal and become a better person himself before he even 0:19:54.720 --> 0:19:57.720 jumps back into anything, So he wanted I think we 0:19:57.760 --> 0:20:00.000 were both scared because we wanted to allow each other 0:20:00.080 --> 0:20:05.520 their space to grow separately before because you know, you're 0:20:05.560 --> 0:20:09.320 in a new city, that comfortability of having someone that 0:20:09.359 --> 0:20:12.639 you were once so close to can easily draw you 0:20:12.680 --> 0:20:15.639