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Speaker 1: What's up his lip service. I'm Angela Ye, I'm g. G. Maguire,

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Speaker 1: I'm Laura Maura, and I'm Jadakay Jada Dada's first time

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Speaker 1: on lid service. And first of all, I love seeing

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Speaker 1: you with my guys. I earn your leisure and so

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Speaker 1: that was you're seeing all about your business because we

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Speaker 1: did see you on the Impact Atlanta and see you.

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Speaker 1: I love seeing you like in the warehouse working with everybody.

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Speaker 1: I think that's important as a person who is has

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Speaker 1: a business for people to see you there too, like

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Speaker 1: on the ground right, like really putting the work in.

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Speaker 1: That's what it's about. That's the main reason I got

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Speaker 1: on the show because I was like, I want to

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Speaker 1: showcase myself as a businesswoman and not just like this

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Speaker 1: you know. All right, Well, before we get into all that,

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Speaker 1: you know, this is lip service, So we are going

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Speaker 1: to start with our tip of the day, So everybody

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Speaker 1: has to give a tip, all right. So the question

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Speaker 1: of the day was this one woman was asking me, listen,

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Speaker 1: I'm dating this guy. It's pretty new, but every time

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Speaker 1: I gave him oral sex, he never comes from it.

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Speaker 1: So she asked for some advice on what she can

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Speaker 1: do to actually finish the job. And she's wondering, why

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Speaker 1: is it not working? Oh, he wanted, I don't come

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Speaker 1: from head man. Yeah, my tip for this young woman

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Speaker 1: would be to just simply ask him what is it

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Speaker 1: that he needs? You know, like the best way to

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Speaker 1: get the real answer is to ask the question, what

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Speaker 1: can I do? Differently instruct me on what you like

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Speaker 1: and what you enjoy so that we can get to

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Speaker 1: the end of this. Because as much as I love

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Speaker 1: giving head, we ain't about to keep going through all

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Speaker 1: of this. I want I want the reward to from

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Speaker 1: all my good works, my jaw lock up period. Okay,

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Speaker 1: but if that's you, Jada, don't look around already. Um

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Speaker 1: So I would just say, of course acts because that's

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Speaker 1: like the main thing, Like you got to see what

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Speaker 1: your partner wants and what they like. And honestly, it's

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Speaker 1: no such thing as like bad head. You just gonna

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Speaker 1: make sure you make a real, real what it probably

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Speaker 1: isn't a thing. Well okay, but the water the better.

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Speaker 1: Not on that, but make sure he comes. But okay, yeah, right,

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Speaker 1: like dah she died giving head. I've had that same

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Speaker 1: issue too, And that's why I say when they asked you,

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Speaker 1: I don't like generate to give head because they take

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Speaker 1: so long and like you said, to pay you back

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Speaker 1: off what you guys say, wet for sure. I've learned

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Speaker 1: over the years that wet. And also you know, playing

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Speaker 1: with it with both hands and doing different things and

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Speaker 1: touching under the balls. What is the call but the

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Speaker 1: good you wet, you touch it and you just look

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Speaker 1: at him and just make sure you know you can

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Speaker 1: feel pretty much. But it's really hard to make them

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Speaker 1: calm sometimes, so we know answer that. I'm not about

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Speaker 1: to answer this for this question, but I'm gonna tell

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Speaker 1: you what I tell her. Okay, Well, before you do that,

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Speaker 1: I just want to go and give a bonus, right,

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Speaker 1: enjoy it? Yeah, you are always that matters that you enjoying.

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Speaker 1: You gotta you're gonna love it. And if he feels

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Speaker 1: like you're enjoying, pleasuring him to help get him there too. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's what I told her too, right, So don't say

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna answer it. So the first thing I

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Speaker 1: said was anticipation matters, So you gotta do a lot

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Speaker 1: about to go down there and come back up, go

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Speaker 1: mouth already, and by that time they already like, you know,

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Speaker 1: building it up. I said, you gotta make your noise

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Speaker 1: like you gotta like moan a little like you're really

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Speaker 1: enjoying it. And y, that's a lot of spit, you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And then I just think you

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Speaker 1: You gotta say but if you know your man and

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Speaker 1: you know he liked his nipples played with, then we

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Speaker 1: gotta chick daddy. Daddy, you don't wear the nipples. I mean, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I will, but not while doing that. I gotta focus.

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Speaker 1: So like I'm already trying to, like because I figured

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Speaker 1: to the tips of it. But I have enjoyed it

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Speaker 1: never might swallow. Can you call me and tell you

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Speaker 1: about the first one. I'm gonna please. Yeah, you get

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Speaker 1: your superhero strength. After that time, you're gonna go from

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Speaker 1: little little lord a big lord like Mario graduated. Stop,

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Speaker 1: oh my gosh. Now you know how the day season

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Speaker 1: I don't think it's a conversation that's needed because everybody

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Speaker 1: Like they run away from their problem, they're not ready

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Speaker 1: never like we're broken up. That's not it no more

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Speaker 1: Would you have wanted to talk? Yes, I feel like

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Speaker 1: to expect time is something that's very important to me,

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Speaker 1: They were talking about meeting because he's very successful, and

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Speaker 1: because I think sometimes relationships are public and people go

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Speaker 1: And that's what I did. And so you think it's

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Speaker 1: like things could if you know, all I'm still young too,

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Speaker 1: I mean, the love is always gonna be there. But

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Speaker 1: that I'm focused on because I feel like I'm healing

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Speaker 1: My problems. To meditate before you go stick your dick

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00:20:17,720 --> 00:20:21,560
Speaker 1: in the random. Honey. Okay, you know you think men

427
00:20:21,600 --> 00:20:24,760
Speaker 1: and they right, Men and women are different for the

428
00:20:24,840 --> 00:20:28,000
Speaker 1: reasons that they do what they do. Absolutely, especially when

429
00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:30,800
Speaker 1: it comes to sex. Like you know, we were having

430
00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:33,600
Speaker 1: it because some guys like they could be okay having

431
00:20:33,600 --> 00:20:35,240
Speaker 1: sex with somebody, they're not. They're not even really that

432
00:20:35,359 --> 00:20:37,760
Speaker 1: at traffic too, right, It's hard to have sex with

433
00:20:37,880 --> 00:20:41,240
Speaker 1: somebody that you're not like feeling, you know, as I

434
00:20:41,359 --> 00:20:43,639
Speaker 1: think I don't know how to. I mean, I know

435
00:20:43,760 --> 00:20:45,399
Speaker 1: guys have been like, yeah, I just did it. It

436
00:20:45,560 --> 00:20:48,040
Speaker 1: was nothing. But I know for me, like it's hard

437
00:20:48,119 --> 00:20:50,280
Speaker 1: to be like I don't really like him. I didn't really,

438
00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:55,600
Speaker 1: it was no such thing. It's me just like fucking

439
00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:58,480
Speaker 1: and it's like, okay whatever. It's like, no, if I

440
00:20:58,560 --> 00:21:02,080
Speaker 1: allow you in that space like I like you, I

441
00:21:02,160 --> 00:21:05,080
Speaker 1: want to pursue you. You know. So now let's talk

442
00:21:05,080 --> 00:21:07,879
Speaker 1: about the impact. Are you doing the season two? No,

443
00:21:08,080 --> 00:21:10,520
Speaker 1: I'm not doing season two? Oh for real? So you're out?

444
00:21:10,640 --> 00:21:13,679
Speaker 1: How come? Um? I feel like it was just an

445
00:21:13,720 --> 00:21:18,640
Speaker 1: experience and it just wasn't really for me as far,

446
00:21:18,840 --> 00:21:20,359
Speaker 1: and I'm not gonna even say it wasn't for me.

447
00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:23,920
Speaker 1: That show specifically wasn't for me only because like a

448
00:21:24,040 --> 00:21:26,959
Speaker 1: lot of the scenes that we did film didn't make

449
00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:29,560
Speaker 1: the show. A lot of things behind the scenes that

450
00:21:29,640 --> 00:21:32,040
Speaker 1: were going on I didn't know about. And it's just

451
00:21:32,160 --> 00:21:34,439
Speaker 1: like after seeing it air, they would like send us

452
00:21:34,480 --> 00:21:37,040
Speaker 1: the edits, and then once it go on TV, I'm

453
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:39,200
Speaker 1: just as surprised that the people watch and I'm like, what,

454
00:21:40,040 --> 00:21:42,000
Speaker 1: that's not what I That's not what I watched, or

455
00:21:42,040 --> 00:21:44,399
Speaker 1: that's not what they sent me, and um, it's just

456
00:21:44,560 --> 00:21:47,000
Speaker 1: not for me. I feel like that show, but I

457
00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,640
Speaker 1: really like towards it and started enjoying doing reality TV.

458
00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:52,880
Speaker 1: It was something like it became fun. So you would

459
00:21:52,880 --> 00:21:56,600
Speaker 1: do something that you have more creative control, yes, for sure.

460
00:21:58,280 --> 00:22:01,000
Speaker 1: Or if I just like if everybody on the cast

461
00:22:01,320 --> 00:22:03,720
Speaker 1: is on the same accord, you know what I'm saying, Like,

462
00:22:03,800 --> 00:22:05,720
Speaker 1: of course, a little drama here and there. Yeah, I

463
00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:08,960
Speaker 1: mean that's necessary. We spoke earlier about there's always a villain,

464
00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:11,280
Speaker 1: there's always a fight, there's always some type of drama

465
00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:13,440
Speaker 1: when it comes to reality TV. So that's something that

466
00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:17,320
Speaker 1: should kind of be expected when getting and we've all

467
00:22:17,400 --> 00:22:23,280
Speaker 1: done shows and been shot in actually crazy and like

468
00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:25,800
Speaker 1: you said, there were so many scenes that we film

469
00:22:26,080 --> 00:22:29,000
Speaker 1: that just didn't even make the cut. Yeah, like so many,

470
00:22:29,080 --> 00:22:33,240
Speaker 1: so many scenarios that people remember, the switching up. Yeah,

471
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:36,240
Speaker 1: and you're right, you don't get to see really what

472
00:22:36,359 --> 00:22:38,920
Speaker 1: they put together. You know what you feel when your

473
00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 1: situation that's really fucked up that you would never in

474
00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:45,760
Speaker 1: real life. You're like, man, I would never have been

475
00:22:46,119 --> 00:22:48,359
Speaker 1: at this event with these people, and now here I

476
00:22:48,480 --> 00:22:53,240
Speaker 1: am and now this personal out crazy Yeah, in the

477
00:22:53,320 --> 00:22:55,600
Speaker 1: middle of some ship I would never even in real life.

478
00:22:55,680 --> 00:22:58,359
Speaker 1: But I'm not even gonna say, like, I love the experience.

479
00:22:58,520 --> 00:23:00,919
Speaker 1: I love how it went. I up that even though

480
00:23:00,960 --> 00:23:03,320
Speaker 1: it was like a bad light that ship, really like

481
00:23:03,640 --> 00:23:06,840
Speaker 1: I had my business booming. Regardless of that I was

482
00:23:06,920 --> 00:23:08,320
Speaker 1: made to be the villain on the show or whatever

483
00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:10,720
Speaker 1: people want to say. I still like, at the end

484
00:23:10,720 --> 00:23:12,560
Speaker 1: of the day, I was handling my business. They did

485
00:23:12,640 --> 00:23:14,760
Speaker 1: showcase that enough for people to say, Okay, I want

486
00:23:14,800 --> 00:23:17,359
Speaker 1: to support her business, like let me see what she's selling,

487
00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:19,320
Speaker 1: let me check out her website. And it really did

488
00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:20,959
Speaker 1: like do what they had to do as far as

489
00:23:21,200 --> 00:23:23,760
Speaker 1: that Wait a minute, So that's why I'm like, honestly, like,

490
00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:27,760
Speaker 1: that was so cute, so cute, right, and it was

491
00:23:27,800 --> 00:23:30,360
Speaker 1: a lot of it paid off. It showed your mom,

492
00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:32,080
Speaker 1: like a side of you. That's what I was thinking,

493
00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:34,440
Speaker 1: you know what we was watching. It was like it

494
00:23:34,520 --> 00:23:36,320
Speaker 1: showed a side of you that people don't see. As

495
00:23:36,400 --> 00:23:38,600
Speaker 1: far as also your relationship, you know, with your mother,

496
00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:41,800
Speaker 1: with your sister, and how involved your mother is in

497
00:23:41,960 --> 00:23:44,960
Speaker 1: your business and you keep your family closed, so that

498
00:23:45,240 --> 00:23:48,160
Speaker 1: it did show outside of Yeah, I started I feel

499
00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 1: like that and people were too focused on the bullshit

500
00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:56,160
Speaker 1: that they have, because I also can appreciate, like as

501
00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:59,280
Speaker 1: a business owner when things don't go right, and how

502
00:23:59,400 --> 00:24:02,040
Speaker 1: devastating I could feel to you, like when you got

503
00:24:02,080 --> 00:24:03,760
Speaker 1: the clothes and you were supposed to have a drop

504
00:24:03,800 --> 00:24:06,440
Speaker 1: and then like ship, now I gotta push it back

505
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:09,040
Speaker 1: and everybody's expecting this and this came out messed up,

506
00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:10,879
Speaker 1: and this logo is not where it's supposed to be,

507
00:24:11,280 --> 00:24:13,680
Speaker 1: and that should be out of your control sometimes and

508
00:24:13,760 --> 00:24:15,680
Speaker 1: you don't know what to do. You're just still You're

509
00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:17,639
Speaker 1: still always the one that's gonna catch the blame because

510
00:24:17,640 --> 00:24:20,119
Speaker 1: it's you're responsibility. You're a line, you're the boss. So

511
00:24:20,280 --> 00:24:22,480
Speaker 1: no matter what's going on behind the scenes that people

512
00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:24,199
Speaker 1: don't really know, they're still gonna look at you like, oh,

513
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 1: she cap Cauline supposed to drop in and drop she

514
00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,760
Speaker 1: keeps pushing it back. Sure, people don't know that ins

515
00:24:29,800 --> 00:24:33,040
Speaker 1: and out, it's always yeah. So I'm glad that that

516
00:24:33,240 --> 00:24:36,080
Speaker 1: part of it was Showcase because that's what that's what

517
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:38,800
Speaker 1: I was there all the other ships. Like I hear

518
00:24:38,920 --> 00:24:41,920
Speaker 1: y'all bo, so what's next with your clothing line? So

519
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:45,000
Speaker 1: I have my upcoming drop, which is gonna be the

520
00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:47,040
Speaker 1: end of this month or March. I don't say exact

521
00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:53,640
Speaker 1: days no more. I don't exact days in production production

522
00:24:53,800 --> 00:24:56,679
Speaker 1: for sure. And um I dropped like a little um

523
00:24:56,880 --> 00:24:59,879
Speaker 1: sneak peek maybe like the week after Christmas and it

524
00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:04,159
Speaker 1: went crazy. So the girls will, yeah a little teasers. Now,

525
00:25:04,240 --> 00:25:07,720
Speaker 1: how are you in Ari now? Um? Honestly, ever since

526
00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:09,880
Speaker 1: the show, like we just don't talk like at all,

527
00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:13,320
Speaker 1: but we never really talked on a regular basis, you

528
00:25:13,359 --> 00:25:16,680
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So it's like she in her world,

529
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:18,440
Speaker 1: I'm in my world. I want her to win. I

530
00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:20,479
Speaker 1: think they still got another season coming up. They did

531
00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:23,080
Speaker 1: the re union and everything, like they're actually on what

532
00:25:23,160 --> 00:25:24,840
Speaker 1: you guys, because it's still the same season, y'all are

533
00:25:24,880 --> 00:25:27,359
Speaker 1: actually on hich one that I just found that out

534
00:25:27,359 --> 00:25:30,159
Speaker 1: the other day night. Yeah, I saw the commercial for

535
00:25:30,240 --> 00:25:34,280
Speaker 1: it last night. I didn't even know that. Yeah, I

536
00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:39,080
Speaker 1: worked out, but yeah, that's that's viewership in the wider audience.

537
00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:42,920
Speaker 1: UM I enjoyed the show. I was kind of surprised

538
00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:44,399
Speaker 1: to see that they kind of had you guys as

539
00:25:44,560 --> 00:25:46,760
Speaker 1: enemies and then it was kind of separated, like I

540
00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:50,800
Speaker 1: was expecting more of all together unity. Yeah, for sure,

541
00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:52,840
Speaker 1: I felt like Lakia was kind of doing her own

542
00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:54,200
Speaker 1: thing off to the side. I love you and that

543
00:25:54,400 --> 00:25:56,920
Speaker 1: this relationship you could tell you'all really like j friends,

544
00:25:57,240 --> 00:25:59,119
Speaker 1: Like you can see the real like love that you

545
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:00,720
Speaker 1: have for each other in the support that y'all have

546
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:02,359
Speaker 1: for each other, and the same thing I feel like

547
00:26:02,400 --> 00:26:04,399
Speaker 1: well Ari and T. But I just felt like I

548
00:26:04,520 --> 00:26:07,159
Speaker 1: expected it to be a little more cohesiveness, but with

549
00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:13,320
Speaker 1: everybody they were trying to be cohesive. But every now

550
00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:17,320
Speaker 1: cohesive and messy. But like in the beginning, we all

551
00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:20,479
Speaker 1: like weren't on a friend basis to where we texting

552
00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:22,639
Speaker 1: and talking to each other. So once it started becoming

553
00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:25,600
Speaker 1: time in the film, which was six months after we

554
00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:28,360
Speaker 1: had that original meeting, everybody, y'all coom by, y'all like, hell, yeah,

555
00:26:28,359 --> 00:26:30,080
Speaker 1: we're about to have this show. Let's go six months

556
00:26:30,119 --> 00:26:32,960
Speaker 1: we stopped talking. Now it's time to film again. So everybody,

557
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:35,159
Speaker 1: it's all weird. It's all weird. So it's like damn, Like,

558
00:26:35,520 --> 00:26:36,840
Speaker 1: how the hell are we even supposed to say at

559
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:39,480
Speaker 1: this table with the same energy when we haven't talked

560
00:26:39,520 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 1: in this months, you know what I'm saying, Like we

561
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:43,760
Speaker 1: all follow each other on Instagram, but it's like how

562
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,400
Speaker 1: we all supposed to come together? Really and everybody in Atlanta?

563
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:52,160
Speaker 1: Yeah right right, all right there? Yeah, so this happens

564
00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:56,520
Speaker 1: like just like like just like, are you planning your

565
00:26:56,560 --> 00:26:59,879
Speaker 1: own show now? Oh? No, I'm really just getting my

566
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,560
Speaker 1: acting bag. I got another movie coming out um this year,

567
00:27:03,240 --> 00:27:07,800
Speaker 1: and what's the movie. It's called Only Child. It's a

568
00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:10,199
Speaker 1: really really good movie and I had a bigger role

569
00:27:10,240 --> 00:27:12,920
Speaker 1: than the last movie I did, So it's really I

570
00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:16,360
Speaker 1: feel like it's going to open a door career path. Yeah,

571
00:27:16,480 --> 00:27:18,800
Speaker 1: so acting is something I really want to tap into.

572
00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:22,520
Speaker 1: Reality TV cool and I'm not against it. But have

573
00:27:22,640 --> 00:27:24,320
Speaker 1: you always went into act or is it something that

574
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:27,520
Speaker 1: kind of like came after everything else with the fashion

575
00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:31,000
Speaker 1: and Um, I never really wanted to be an actor.

576
00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:35,840
Speaker 1: It just kind of flow or came about after UM

577
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:39,520
Speaker 1: like TikTok And I guess this lady who filmed that

578
00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:41,240
Speaker 1: last movie Been for Love, I was and she was

579
00:27:41,320 --> 00:27:43,520
Speaker 1: like she could do TikTok's I feel like she could act.

580
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:47,040
Speaker 1: I want her to be in my and that's how things,

581
00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:52,680
Speaker 1: you know. Ye, no audition, no nothing, And I did

582
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:55,200
Speaker 1: the movie and did a good job, so it worked

583
00:27:55,200 --> 00:27:57,440
Speaker 1: out for me. But acting wasn't something I was like,

584
00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:00,600
Speaker 1: I want to be actorss No. Now, Gig, I want

585
00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,560
Speaker 1: to talk about your social media. So we saw you

586
00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:05,920
Speaker 1: got another surgery done so and I tell you responding

587
00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: to people so today, so talk about it. So what

588
00:28:09,920 --> 00:28:12,040
Speaker 1: you've got do you know? We I freely talk about

589
00:28:12,080 --> 00:28:13,879
Speaker 1: surgery anytime it comes up as a topic here on

590
00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:18,280
Speaker 1: the service or in any conversation. Um, you know. But

591
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:21,560
Speaker 1: so recently I did like both three sixty Um, I

592
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:24,480
Speaker 1: did a flex scope procedure with UM goal shout out

593
00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:27,040
Speaker 1: to ghostlex surgery. No, I can talk about it freely now.

594
00:28:27,119 --> 00:28:30,920
Speaker 1: It was a promo thing, right, so clearly required to

595
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:36,119
Speaker 1: post and to go live. So I'm freely sharing my

596
00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:39,680
Speaker 1: whole process, you know, from even before I laid on

597
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 1: the table. I you know, did the surgery live on

598
00:28:41,840 --> 00:28:47,560
Speaker 1: Instagram everything, so um in these posts the comments, of course,

599
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:50,320
Speaker 1: people going to have their things to say, oh you'll

600
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,760
Speaker 1: need that, or with a waste of money. Oh, love yourself?

601
00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:57,000
Speaker 1: Oh that right, So that's all fine, right. Everybody is

602
00:28:57,120 --> 00:29:00,000
Speaker 1: entitled to their own opinion. Opinions are like assholes. Sometime

603
00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 1: I'm sayre shitty. You know, sometimes they think right, but

604
00:29:04,160 --> 00:29:06,440
Speaker 1: sometimes you fix them and sometimes you know, you get

605
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:09,320
Speaker 1: it right. So I made a post that kind of

606
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:13,280
Speaker 1: cleared up a lot of the misconceptions about surgery and

607
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:17,000
Speaker 1: procedures and so forth. People took it the wrong way, like, oh,

608
00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:19,200
Speaker 1: how are you gonna sell You don't care about people opinion,

609
00:29:19,280 --> 00:29:21,520
Speaker 1: but you write this long book and make multiple posts

610
00:29:21,560 --> 00:29:24,160
Speaker 1: about it. It's not that that wasn't the thing. I

611
00:29:24,280 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: just want people to be informed, right, I want you

612
00:29:26,880 --> 00:29:29,320
Speaker 1: to really have facts when you think you know what

613
00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:31,680
Speaker 1: you're talking about. Like, for instance, and I'm sure if

614
00:29:31,680 --> 00:29:34,160
Speaker 1: you've gotten this on social media, every time somebody see

615
00:29:34,480 --> 00:29:40,080
Speaker 1: this shape, they automatically say BBL. No, every time you

616
00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:43,560
Speaker 1: see this, that does not equate BBL. Every woman did

617
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:46,160
Speaker 1: not have a BBL. Some women like me are actually

618
00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:48,720
Speaker 1: too small for a b b L. Like some women

619
00:29:48,840 --> 00:29:51,280
Speaker 1: like me, I already had fact butt shots in this

620
00:29:51,480 --> 00:29:55,320
Speaker 1: butt for ten fifteen years now, and I you know,

621
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:56,800
Speaker 1: I ain't no doctor gonna put nothing in there and

622
00:29:56,800 --> 00:29:59,320
Speaker 1: guess what, I don't need no more. Right, So, just

623
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:03,000
Speaker 1: to give a little clarity again, I have been doing

624
00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:06,360
Speaker 1: surgeries since two thousand five. Right, I'm on my second

625
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 1: pairer M plants. I'm on my second round of light bo.

626
00:30:10,360 --> 00:30:12,560
Speaker 1: I've had butt shots for a very long time and

627
00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:17,560
Speaker 1: thankfully I had okay experience. I have very minor uh

628
00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:21,160
Speaker 1: side effects from it now. Um, but there are women

629
00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:23,600
Speaker 1: who almost died from getting bus shots. There are women

630
00:30:23,640 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 1: who have had lots of complications. I know women that

631
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:28,239
Speaker 1: went to the same lady I went to that had

632
00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:30,400
Speaker 1: to get there is removed because their body rejected it.

633
00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:35,720
Speaker 1: You know, everybody has a different experience experience. Also, everybody

634
00:30:36,240 --> 00:30:40,560
Speaker 1: is a canvas, right. You cannot go to a doctor

635
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:42,520
Speaker 1: and say I want to look like this if you're

636
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: not giving that doctor that to work with to begin with.

637
00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:47,760
Speaker 1: And that's another misconception that people have by surgery. Oh

638
00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:49,680
Speaker 1: you need to fix this, or you need to fix that,

639
00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:52,120
Speaker 1: or you botch this, you botch that, you should look

640
00:30:52,160 --> 00:30:53,520
Speaker 1: like this, or you should look like that. And it's

641
00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 1: always the ones loud and wrong that don't know what

642
00:30:55,920 --> 00:30:59,400
Speaker 1: they're talking about. Stop working on your body. You got

643
00:30:59,480 --> 00:31:01,920
Speaker 1: Preston plance. What did your doctor tell you when you

644
00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:04,000
Speaker 1: have to get and redone? How long? Two years? Or

645
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:07,680
Speaker 1: five and ten years? Five and ten years? Most prest

646
00:31:07,760 --> 00:31:09,680
Speaker 1: and plants have a five to ten years shelf life.

647
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:12,400
Speaker 1: So after I personally didn't like my first pier, so

648
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:14,520
Speaker 1: after five years I got them done over. But I'm

649
00:31:14,560 --> 00:31:18,200
Speaker 1: going on thirteen years with this second set, and at

650
00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:19,600
Speaker 1: ten years I got them checked and you know what,

651
00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:22,800
Speaker 1: the surgeon told me, they are perfect. I wouldn't touch them.

652
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 1: If they start to give your problem, revisit it, but

653
00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:29,320
Speaker 1: as of now, you're good. Keep them right. So it's

654
00:31:29,360 --> 00:31:32,480
Speaker 1: not that old I have body dys morphia, or I

655
00:31:32,560 --> 00:31:35,440
Speaker 1: don't love myself or not even just me in general,

656
00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:38,040
Speaker 1: but women who get surgery right, because this is all

657
00:31:38,080 --> 00:31:40,240
Speaker 1: the things that they shout at you. You don't love yourself,

658
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:43,080
Speaker 1: love the body God gave you, you know, work on

659
00:31:43,200 --> 00:31:45,520
Speaker 1: your self esteem. This the third and that is not

660
00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:48,680
Speaker 1: the case of getting surgery. And when you don't get

661
00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:57,440
Speaker 1: done and then right then we do them. We don't um.

662
00:31:57,480 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: I know, I'm going a little bit of rant, and

663
00:31:58,680 --> 00:32:01,880
Speaker 1: I'm into with this. To each their own right. We

664
00:32:02,040 --> 00:32:03,800
Speaker 1: choose to do what we want to do to make

665
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 1: us happy. But it's not always about a man. It's

666
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:12,720
Speaker 1: not always about society. It's about you. You choose to

667
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:14,640
Speaker 1: do your hair the way you want to do your hair.

668
00:32:14,760 --> 00:32:16,560
Speaker 1: You choose to get your nails the way you want

669
00:32:16,600 --> 00:32:18,640
Speaker 1: to get your nails. I choose to snatch my waist

670
00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:20,600
Speaker 1: because I want to statch my waist. Yes, I love

671
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:22,680
Speaker 1: my body, but I also love my strip of body

672
00:32:22,680 --> 00:32:25,719
Speaker 1: from two thirteen. And guess what, I got that thing

673
00:32:25,840 --> 00:32:29,920
Speaker 1: right back? You can get Oh, you could have just

674
00:32:30,080 --> 00:32:31,640
Speaker 1: worked out and went to the You could have just

675
00:32:31,880 --> 00:32:33,840
Speaker 1: ate clean and went to the jump for thirty days

676
00:32:33,920 --> 00:32:36,200
Speaker 1: and you didn't even need all that. I eat very

677
00:32:36,280 --> 00:32:39,960
Speaker 1: clean business like if I wanted to lay on the

678
00:32:40,040 --> 00:32:41,840
Speaker 1: table and get it sucked out and be and you

679
00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:46,960
Speaker 1: feel and you feel good. Yeah, so I am very pleased.

680
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:51,040
Speaker 1: That's why you gotta just know what you're doing and

681
00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:53,680
Speaker 1: be happy within and be so that ship don't even

682
00:32:53,720 --> 00:32:56,240
Speaker 1: bother you, you know. But sometimes it is like, okay, no,

683
00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:59,080
Speaker 1: I'm gonna shut you all up. But like I've noticed lately,

684
00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:01,040
Speaker 1: they still don't think what they want to think. So

685
00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:03,920
Speaker 1: it's like I don't even give it the more. I

686
00:33:04,040 --> 00:33:06,480
Speaker 1: really just stepped back and like, Okay, y'all are fucking

687
00:33:06,560 --> 00:33:10,000
Speaker 1: losers and I can't Like, I'm not even about the superhoo.

688
00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:11,520
Speaker 1: A lot of it come from people that could do

689
00:33:11,560 --> 00:33:13,120
Speaker 1: it if they could, would do if they could be

690
00:33:13,560 --> 00:33:18,600
Speaker 1: people be so crazy. Posted a picture on vacation, like,

691
00:33:18,920 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: you know, I went to St. Martyin for the holidays,

692
00:33:21,640 --> 00:33:23,360
Speaker 1: and like, I don't even post a lot of stuff

693
00:33:23,440 --> 00:33:25,920
Speaker 1: like that, right, but I was this beautiful villa and

694
00:33:25,960 --> 00:33:27,920
Speaker 1: of course I want to post them to promote where

695
00:33:27,960 --> 00:33:30,840
Speaker 1: I stayed. And you know, I was just chilling and

696
00:33:31,000 --> 00:33:33,000
Speaker 1: my friend took like a little video of me, and

697
00:33:33,040 --> 00:33:34,520
Speaker 1: then I was like, Oh, that's cute. I'm gonna post it.

698
00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:37,560
Speaker 1: People was like, oh, so I hate when people post

699
00:33:37,920 --> 00:33:40,600
Speaker 1: video themselves on it. I'm like, I've been see so

700
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:42,600
Speaker 1: they're gonna find something wrong with you. Yeah. And then

701
00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:43,920
Speaker 1: and then they were like, oh, we don't need to

702
00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:45,600
Speaker 1: see this, so we're still doing this, and I'm like,

703
00:33:46,240 --> 00:33:48,600
Speaker 1: you guys, I got a brand new show about to start,

704
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:51,040
Speaker 1: you know, and I heard the only black my mother

705
00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:55,240
Speaker 1: syndicated show on I heard excited about that. It's also

706
00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:59,720
Speaker 1: it's just my birthday. It was New Year's and I

707
00:33:59,760 --> 00:34:03,240
Speaker 1: don't even barely post nothing like that because they couldn't

708
00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:09,759
Speaker 1: be there with you if you are, Because think about it, like,

709
00:34:09,880 --> 00:34:12,719
Speaker 1: damn if you're happy that like okay, if I like

710
00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:15,200
Speaker 1: my outfit right now, I love my outfit. If I

711
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:17,320
Speaker 1: posted and I know I'm posting it on Instagram, I

712
00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:19,359
Speaker 1: know they're about to be talking. They're gonna find something

713
00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:22,040
Speaker 1: to say. But I like my outfit, that's all that matters.

714
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:24,840
Speaker 1: So you posted that video you on vacation because you

715
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:29,120
Speaker 1: wanted to post it was peaceful, yeah, but I was like, amazing.

716
00:34:29,320 --> 00:34:31,080
Speaker 1: Social media is meant to tear you down. That's what

717
00:34:31,160 --> 00:34:33,360
Speaker 1: you gotta be strong minded when it's not for everybody.

718
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:37,279
Speaker 1: I was like, well, damn, you know, congrats to me, right.

719
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:41,000
Speaker 1: I've come to realize that when have negative things to

720
00:34:41,080 --> 00:34:44,240
Speaker 1: say about you, especially when they don't know you, especially

721
00:34:44,320 --> 00:34:49,359
Speaker 1: when you're someone right, it's because they they see something

722
00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:51,320
Speaker 1: in themselves that they're upset with, so they want to

723
00:34:51,680 --> 00:34:55,160
Speaker 1: project project right, Like, I've really come to that you're

724
00:34:55,200 --> 00:34:57,520
Speaker 1: miserable with yourself. You don't like yourself, so now you're

725
00:34:57,520 --> 00:34:59,200
Speaker 1: gonna tell me you don't like my hair doing damn, well,

726
00:34:59,280 --> 00:35:04,200
Speaker 1: my hair is cute, Like I said, they're losing, Like

727
00:35:04,320 --> 00:35:08,239
Speaker 1: for real, that's like loser, You're fucking loser. When I'm

728
00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 1: reading my comments, I'm like d and they're not going

729
00:35:10,040 --> 00:35:11,839
Speaker 1: to page. They'd be so like, girl, you're too cute

730
00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:14,200
Speaker 1: to even be hating, like this, what's wrong? You need healing?

731
00:35:14,440 --> 00:35:16,759
Speaker 1: The same they're saying, if you don't have nothing nice

732
00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:21,239
Speaker 1: to say, don't say nothing at all. That's saying about

733
00:35:21,239 --> 00:35:24,239
Speaker 1: that whole school, because I live about that. I'm not

734
00:35:24,360 --> 00:35:26,680
Speaker 1: even I didn't even do that, Like I neverly sucked

735
00:35:26,719 --> 00:35:31,399
Speaker 1: up comments me either, never either ever, Like I've never

736
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:33,360
Speaker 1: been that girl. But you even have the people like

737
00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:34,920
Speaker 1: I could go under a comment, like I made a

738
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 1: comment under the shave room. It was something that they posted.

739
00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:39,520
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, but I mean, I think it's fine.

740
00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:42,520
Speaker 1: Everybody should speak their mind. I got so many hate comments,

741
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:50,160
Speaker 1: just like saying I couldn't say nothing. Okay, you know

742
00:35:50,200 --> 00:35:52,440
Speaker 1: what I went. They went on my page, left messages.

743
00:35:52,640 --> 00:35:59,920
Speaker 1: You know those people are saying even in the comment

744
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:01,800
Speaker 1: in for this show. And she had to tell me, like,

745
00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:05,600
Speaker 1: Laura don't know, I'm reading the contents up about her

746
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:09,040
Speaker 1: about the response, like what do you talk about comments?

747
00:36:09,120 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 1: And it don't make your life so much more. I'm comments,

748
00:36:15,280 --> 00:36:17,680
Speaker 1: you know, the only time time because if it's on

749
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:20,440
Speaker 1: my page, and I know I'd be having like advertising

750
00:36:20,480 --> 00:36:22,600
Speaker 1: and stuff like that, So I clean up my page.

751
00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:24,400
Speaker 1: But on the other pages, I can't control that, and

752
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:27,600
Speaker 1: I go back and I'm not gonna be mad about

753
00:36:27,640 --> 00:36:29,600
Speaker 1: it because I'm like, why do I want to disturb

754
00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:31,719
Speaker 1: what I have going on? Like, clearly I don't need

755
00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:35,800
Speaker 1: to let the energy. Yeah, I don't put me. I'm sorry.

756
00:36:35,960 --> 00:36:38,080
Speaker 1: Like I read them and I'd just be like, wow,

757
00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:41,200
Speaker 1: lose their one to him? You will losing to lose it.

758
00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:43,919
Speaker 1: But I'm gonna read. I don't know. It's just something

759
00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 1: in me. I'm not gonna stop reading. Yeah, life would

760
00:36:46,040 --> 00:36:48,520
Speaker 1: be way more peaceful than I your life. It's peaceful.

761
00:36:48,680 --> 00:36:51,560
Speaker 1: And because you know you'd be so mad, you'd be

762
00:36:51,640 --> 00:36:53,680
Speaker 1: starting to respond and then you'd be like, let me

763
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:57,040
Speaker 1: know on my I'll be buying the back of my

764
00:36:57,080 --> 00:37:02,200
Speaker 1: month twitterte what you're saying on my page. I'm glad

765
00:37:02,239 --> 00:37:03,880
Speaker 1: that now I find it first because I have to

766
00:37:03,960 --> 00:37:07,040
Speaker 1: go delete it before my son seet. Yeah, you got

767
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:10,799
Speaker 1: to think about my son's going back and forth with someone,

768
00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:13,759
Speaker 1: and I had some something like yo, let it go like,

769
00:37:14,040 --> 00:37:15,840
Speaker 1: it's that they don't know you, they don't know me.

770
00:37:15,880 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 1: They're gonna and this is gonna keep was like mom like,

771
00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:21,279
Speaker 1: it's like and now he's like, I'm ready, I'm ready

772
00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:23,080
Speaker 1: to pull up on the model call. I'm like, boy,

773
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:26,640
Speaker 1: shut up. Yeah, you know. So that's why no, like

774
00:37:26,719 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 1: I make sure I just delete it or you know,

775
00:37:29,120 --> 00:37:31,279
Speaker 1: before he could see it. But sometimes it goes by

776
00:37:31,320 --> 00:37:33,000
Speaker 1: and by the time I look he's responding to having

777
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:35,480
Speaker 1: a whole conversation with him. I'm like, William, just let

778
00:37:35,560 --> 00:37:38,560
Speaker 1: it go after them surgery posts, and the people was

779
00:37:38,640 --> 00:37:40,040
Speaker 1: coming at me were like, guess what I started doing

780
00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:43,840
Speaker 1: restrict restrict restrict restricts better because I don't know. I

781
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:48,640
Speaker 1: don't know. Yeah, my friend, you see it, Yes, listen,

782
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:52,960
Speaker 1: you block them and create another page. You're talking, you're

783
00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:55,719
Speaker 1: talking to yourself. Don't get consumed in the negative side

784
00:37:55,760 --> 00:37:58,640
Speaker 1: of things, like you know, I agree with that. And

785
00:37:58,719 --> 00:38:00,759
Speaker 1: then I also saw in the pack you said, yeah,

786
00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:04,120
Speaker 1: d MS was lit okay, so and that's a that's

787
00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 1: a good part of social media. So have you ever

788
00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:09,680
Speaker 1: responded to somebody in the d M s and been

789
00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:15,399
Speaker 1: like receptive to you know, maybe potentially going out Oh,

790
00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:19,960
Speaker 1: the niggas a d in me. It's like, I don't

791
00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 1: want nothing to do with you. Nobody. I mean no,

792
00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:25,239
Speaker 1: they'd be good. Okay, I don't want to know. You know.

793
00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:30,040
Speaker 1: It's like it's not nobody. I met a guy, but

794
00:38:30,120 --> 00:38:34,520
Speaker 1: it was in person. Okay, Yeah, Like, because are you

795
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:36,279
Speaker 1: gonna screenshot me? Are you trying to set me up?

796
00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:40,480
Speaker 1: Who sent you? That's what I'm thinking? What sent you?

797
00:38:43,560 --> 00:38:51,040
Speaker 1: Trying to be? So? So, what made this guy who

798
00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:53,400
Speaker 1: you met in person stand out to you at all? Like?

799
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:56,360
Speaker 1: What what about him? Because I'm sure guys approach you

800
00:38:56,360 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 1: all the time? What about him was like a little

801
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,880
Speaker 1: bit special? He was cute, he was like different, it

802
00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:04,800
Speaker 1: was something different from like what I was used to.

803
00:39:05,040 --> 00:39:08,839
Speaker 1: I'm I wanted to tap into something else, and yeah,

804
00:39:08,920 --> 00:39:12,880
Speaker 1: it was. It was cute in the entertainment business. Or

805
00:39:13,320 --> 00:39:21,920
Speaker 1: is he like a different type of Yeah, he's we

806
00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 1: ain't about to do that. So I want to ask

807
00:39:25,160 --> 00:39:29,280
Speaker 1: you about the backlash you was getting on social media

808
00:39:29,400 --> 00:39:31,520
Speaker 1: for saying things like what type of guy you are?

809
00:39:31,560 --> 00:39:34,719
Speaker 1: Like I need a good nigga? Like why do people

810
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:37,160
Speaker 1: care so much for one? Yeah? But when Beyonce said it,

811
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:39,520
Speaker 1: it wasn't a part, but when your saying hood and

812
00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:43,839
Speaker 1: I ain't checking for you, my god. But I did

813
00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:45,839
Speaker 1: have to go back and like kind of I did

814
00:39:45,880 --> 00:39:48,320
Speaker 1: a um interview recently with the Shade Room, and I

815
00:39:48,360 --> 00:39:50,640
Speaker 1: basically was saying I probably was just like, you know,

816
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:53,479
Speaker 1: just being fly on TikTok, because not thinking it's gonna

817
00:39:53,520 --> 00:39:55,719
Speaker 1: hit the blogs, you know, just being funny myself, my

818
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:58,840
Speaker 1: true self. And what I really meant by that is

819
00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:01,319
Speaker 1: I just want to protect her, like somebody that's gone

820
00:40:02,800 --> 00:40:05,160
Speaker 1: just as much. Yeah, robbing me just because like I'm

821
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,840
Speaker 1: pointing license to carry, I keep my going with me,

822
00:40:08,080 --> 00:40:10,880
Speaker 1: Atlanta is the world is crazy and I don't leave

823
00:40:10,880 --> 00:40:13,000
Speaker 1: nowhere without it. How would it look if I got

824
00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:15,720
Speaker 1: my gun and my pat the guy in the passator

825
00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:20,839
Speaker 1: and driving see heat, I'm shooting for us. You know, say,

826
00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:22,960
Speaker 1: if you're from New York is different, right, So you

827
00:40:23,040 --> 00:40:24,799
Speaker 1: said a guy from New York where you can't really

828
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:31,440
Speaker 1: have a gun, like okay, so it is everybody got yeah, okay.

829
00:40:31,480 --> 00:40:33,200
Speaker 1: So that's why I went back and sing the protector.

830
00:40:33,560 --> 00:40:35,360
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, like I need somebody to

831
00:40:35,400 --> 00:40:36,920
Speaker 1: be like, all right, it's time to leave this restaurant.

832
00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:40,520
Speaker 1: Like but you know what right there and he we

833
00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:44,359
Speaker 1: all want somebody that has some type of like street smart. Yeah,

834
00:40:44,600 --> 00:40:47,320
Speaker 1: that's it. I was saying, like I need somebody on

835
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:49,040
Speaker 1: point just as much as I am, because I'll be

836
00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:51,400
Speaker 1: on point. Like you don't want nobody instigating a situation,

837
00:40:51,480 --> 00:40:53,640
Speaker 1: but you want to know if something happens, I'm gonna

838
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:55,919
Speaker 1: be okay. Yeah, you want to love her to person

839
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:57,960
Speaker 1: who knows there's a time and a place, you know

840
00:40:58,040 --> 00:41:01,279
Speaker 1: how to prevent and know how to talk with you

841
00:41:01,640 --> 00:41:03,960
Speaker 1: somebody I feel comfortable with, you know, like I could

842
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:06,279
Speaker 1: turn up get drunk because I know on our way

843
00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:08,279
Speaker 1: home you're gonna be making sure that's nobody following us, right,

844
00:41:08,320 --> 00:41:12,399
Speaker 1: you know, yeah, somebody that's aware. It's just crazy how

845
00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:15,200
Speaker 1: our lives get put so much, and not mine as

846
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:17,359
Speaker 1: much as you it's clearly, but our lives get put

847
00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:19,880
Speaker 1: so much under a microscope. Like once you reach a

848
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:22,680
Speaker 1: certain level of popularity, it's that you can't even sneeze

849
00:41:22,719 --> 00:41:24,880
Speaker 1: the wrong way with, but it's it gets in a

850
00:41:24,960 --> 00:41:27,520
Speaker 1: curse because I think, like for Jada, you can mop

851
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:30,560
Speaker 1: off of social media. That's the reason why you're in

852
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:32,919
Speaker 1: the position that you're in, is the support that you've

853
00:41:32,920 --> 00:41:35,840
Speaker 1: gotten so then it's kind of like you could complain

854
00:41:35,920 --> 00:41:39,040
Speaker 1: about it. But at the same time, yeah, yeah, not

855
00:41:39,160 --> 00:41:41,080
Speaker 1: that you do, but I'm saying a person could complain.

856
00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:43,600
Speaker 1: But at the same time, it's like, well it is

857
00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:46,400
Speaker 1: you know, it's what pays me, right, It's like what

858
00:41:46,560 --> 00:41:49,319
Speaker 1: you choose to do with that platform, what you choose

859
00:41:49,400 --> 00:41:51,600
Speaker 1: to do, and you know what your plane is. You

860
00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:56,520
Speaker 1: made another comment that went real crazy about like sleeping

861
00:41:56,560 --> 00:41:58,520
Speaker 1: with somebody. You know, you sleep with your man, that

862
00:41:58,640 --> 00:42:00,680
Speaker 1: you slept with him on the first and we were

863
00:42:00,719 --> 00:42:04,200
Speaker 1: talking about that sex on the first day. I waited,

864
00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:06,920
Speaker 1: and I'm mad that I wait, Like Laura just had

865
00:42:06,960 --> 00:42:10,200
Speaker 1: an experience. Yeah, it was like, I don't care about

866
00:42:10,239 --> 00:42:12,040
Speaker 1: you sleep with a person up her. I believe that

867
00:42:12,160 --> 00:42:13,520
Speaker 1: it is what it is. If I'm feeling you and

868
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:16,480
Speaker 1: you're feeling me and the vibe is right, and you know,

869
00:42:16,680 --> 00:42:19,320
Speaker 1: like things happen, it happens, you know. But then I

870
00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:21,800
Speaker 1: started saying, Okay, I need to try something that always

871
00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:23,640
Speaker 1: that happened, but it has happened. But I've been trying

872
00:42:23,680 --> 00:42:25,840
Speaker 1: to go into you know what, let me give it

873
00:42:26,080 --> 00:42:27,880
Speaker 1: three weeks a month and a half, you know what,

874
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:30,280
Speaker 1: I'm saying. And I went through the whole three weeks

875
00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:34,160
Speaker 1: of being courted, going out on dinners, going on you know,

876
00:42:34,520 --> 00:42:37,759
Speaker 1: to me dating, You understand what I'm saying. Slept with him,

877
00:42:38,360 --> 00:42:41,400
Speaker 1: sex was amazing. You know, we four months of all

878
00:42:41,480 --> 00:42:47,120
Speaker 1: of that and the whole time to him that wasn't dated. Right,

879
00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:51,120
Speaker 1: So that's the second part. We need to know what

880
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:54,279
Speaker 1: is what is the definition of dating? But as far

881
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:57,480
Speaker 1: as like having sex off the rip, you got a

882
00:42:57,520 --> 00:42:59,399
Speaker 1: lot of backlash for it. I don't see nothing wrong

883
00:42:59,400 --> 00:43:02,400
Speaker 1: with it either, right, what do you guys think? I mean,

884
00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:07,920
Speaker 1: g would tell you she has for eleven years, so

885
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:12,480
Speaker 1: that never determines like anything. And I've also made a

886
00:43:12,560 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 1: man wait because I felt like that's what I needed

887
00:43:14,560 --> 00:43:17,879
Speaker 1: to do and it was not worth my time. What's

888
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:23,480
Speaker 1: going to happen? Do listen? Might work out, it might

889
00:43:23,520 --> 00:43:26,720
Speaker 1: not work out, But like I just go off an energy,

890
00:43:26,800 --> 00:43:29,600
Speaker 1: like I'm really been on energy. So like my baby's father,

891
00:43:30,120 --> 00:43:34,680
Speaker 1: my child's father, he um first night and it's been years,

892
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:37,360
Speaker 1: tell me, tell me how it. Tell me like the

893
00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:40,320
Speaker 1: vibe was like for y'all, like the whole process. You

894
00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:43,680
Speaker 1: want to know it's crazy, are you sure? Yes? You

895
00:43:43,719 --> 00:43:49,520
Speaker 1: want to know, I love to know. So one night, UM,

896
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:53,120
Speaker 1: like I've just moved to Atlanta, had a cute condom.

897
00:43:53,280 --> 00:43:55,200
Speaker 1: So I was like, I've never had a guy over.

898
00:43:55,320 --> 00:43:57,360
Speaker 1: I can't wait. So he was like, what you're doing tonight?

899
00:43:57,400 --> 00:44:01,399
Speaker 1: And I was like, before that we met? We never met.

900
00:44:01,560 --> 00:44:03,759
Speaker 1: Before that my first time meeting him, Like I just

901
00:44:03,880 --> 00:44:06,040
Speaker 1: heard of him. When I moved to Atlanta. Everybody was like,

902
00:44:06,080 --> 00:44:07,120
Speaker 1: you need to talk to the little baby. You need

903
00:44:07,120 --> 00:44:09,160
Speaker 1: to talk a little baby, even my sister, and I'm like,

904
00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:12,160
Speaker 1: who is this person that y'all keep asked me about?

905
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:16,600
Speaker 1: And we had followed each other on Instagram and I

906
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:19,680
Speaker 1: posted his mixtape. He had dm me prior, like when

907
00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:22,120
Speaker 1: he was still in prison, and I just never paid

908
00:44:22,160 --> 00:44:23,759
Speaker 1: it no attention. But when I moved to Atlanta, I

909
00:44:23,840 --> 00:44:25,520
Speaker 1: just kept hearing about little babies, so I'm like, let

910
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:28,200
Speaker 1: me follow him. So we started following each other and

911
00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:33,000
Speaker 1: we eventually linked up and one night I was home

912
00:44:33,120 --> 00:44:34,160
Speaker 1: and he was like what you're doing. He was like,

913
00:44:34,160 --> 00:44:36,040
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come over and I was like, okay, cool,

914
00:44:36,080 --> 00:44:37,960
Speaker 1: like you could pull up. I couldn't wait because my

915
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:40,360
Speaker 1: condo was little, but I was like, you know what,

916
00:44:40,440 --> 00:44:42,680
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna I'm not gonna say I want him over.

917
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:43,920
Speaker 1: I was just like you could put up on me.

918
00:44:43,920 --> 00:44:45,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come outside and talk to you like we're

919
00:44:45,200 --> 00:44:48,600
Speaker 1: gonna chop it up. So he pulls up. I'm outside

920
00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:51,040
Speaker 1: talking to him maybe for like an hour, and um,

921
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:54,040
Speaker 1: he like I got to use the bathroom. I'm like,

922
00:44:54,160 --> 00:44:57,120
Speaker 1: it's like when I still I still trying to like

923
00:44:57,160 --> 00:44:58,680
Speaker 1: play hard to get. I'm like, it's wanted a lobby

924
00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:00,960
Speaker 1: like Consierga. Let you you know. I was like, you

925
00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:03,319
Speaker 1: know what, you could just come up, sire because y'all

926
00:45:03,360 --> 00:45:06,600
Speaker 1: both wanted him to cry. So he came up there

927
00:45:07,120 --> 00:45:10,760
Speaker 1: and we sat and talked for like maybe like four hours,

928
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:14,719
Speaker 1: and then um, it just happened. Like eventually he was

929
00:45:14,760 --> 00:45:16,399
Speaker 1: like all right, I'm going in for the kids. Yeah,

930
00:45:16,840 --> 00:45:19,960
Speaker 1: it just happened. So it was like I literally went

931
00:45:20,040 --> 00:45:22,120
Speaker 1: off energy. I didn't have no intentions like I'm out

932
00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:24,400
Speaker 1: to him, like hell no, me talking to him and

933
00:45:24,400 --> 00:45:27,080
Speaker 1: really getting to know him more. I'm like, okay, let's go.

934
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:30,120
Speaker 1: It like started getting hot talking to somebody for five

935
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:34,759
Speaker 1: hours just like five days. Yeah, that was good. It

936
00:45:34,800 --> 00:45:36,840
Speaker 1: probably was longer than that, but it was like hours.

937
00:45:37,040 --> 00:45:40,000
Speaker 1: It was like sunrise and if I was smoking to

938
00:45:40,239 --> 00:45:44,160
Speaker 1: like you know when you smoke, you we weren't. Well

939
00:45:44,200 --> 00:45:46,080
Speaker 1: he was smoking, but I wasn't even smoking. I don't smoke.

940
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 1: But it was just like good energy and was the

941
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:52,600
Speaker 1: first time was it like amazing? Because you know, sometimes

942
00:45:52,640 --> 00:45:54,359
Speaker 1: it's a little awkward when y'all don't know each other,

943
00:45:54,480 --> 00:45:57,120
Speaker 1: like with the other person. Like, so the first time

944
00:45:57,200 --> 00:46:01,200
Speaker 1: it was kind of crazy because I really wasn't on that,

945
00:46:01,520 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 1: so I didn't have no intention. I really didn't even

946
00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:08,359
Speaker 1: get the grass. Yeah, like I really didn't get into

947
00:46:08,440 --> 00:46:13,400
Speaker 1: the cut me off guard, okay, but like I was like,

948
00:46:16,200 --> 00:46:18,920
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, it was okay, I gotta I

949
00:46:18,920 --> 00:46:20,320
Speaker 1: gotta see it again because I don't really know. I

950
00:46:20,480 --> 00:46:24,759
Speaker 1: was so in the moment, like just what it wasn't

951
00:46:24,800 --> 00:46:27,040
Speaker 1: playing it was God's plans. But I would say the

952
00:46:27,120 --> 00:46:29,360
Speaker 1: reason why I said that in that comment because that

953
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:31,680
Speaker 1: was somebody I met and you know, did it with

954
00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:34,279
Speaker 1: the first night. So I was like, okay, it worked

955
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:36,600
Speaker 1: out with me. So I probably shouldn't even said that

956
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:40,279
Speaker 1: because I don't just a whole bunch of guys on

957
00:46:40,360 --> 00:46:43,319
Speaker 1: the first night put in my hands how many guys

958
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:44,640
Speaker 1: I've slept with in my whole life. You know what

959
00:46:44,640 --> 00:46:47,359
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I don't even think that matter, can't matter,

960
00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:49,799
Speaker 1: but it didn't even matter. Like it's that you say

961
00:46:49,840 --> 00:46:52,560
Speaker 1: that because there's this stereotype that like as far as

962
00:46:52,680 --> 00:46:54,440
Speaker 1: like you said, you're a woman or I sucked him

963
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:56,160
Speaker 1: on the first night. But if a man do that,

964
00:46:56,320 --> 00:47:00,800
Speaker 1: like they're not looked as you know, like that. I

965
00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:03,360
Speaker 1: just feel like, yeah, and you're gonna the first just

966
00:47:03,520 --> 00:47:07,439
Speaker 1: do it to wait three months and should be terrible. Yeah,

967
00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:12,279
Speaker 1: I can't get back, but imagine you waited that long

968
00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:15,600
Speaker 1: and the dick ain't. But yeah, it's just fun if

969
00:47:15,600 --> 00:47:19,560
Speaker 1: you want to fuck y'all ran it back and then

970
00:47:19,640 --> 00:47:22,520
Speaker 1: he the next fire the next day came with a

971
00:47:22,600 --> 00:47:27,680
Speaker 1: damn spending night bag. Yeah, it was crazy, came with

972
00:47:28,040 --> 00:47:32,279
Speaker 1: it was like the WiFi jumping in this we got

973
00:47:32,360 --> 00:47:38,279
Speaker 1: Netflix and crazy you know, cooking and yeah, because you know,

974
00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:40,800
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be honest, a lot of guys, from what

975
00:47:41,040 --> 00:47:45,560
Speaker 1: I've experienced, don't be really used to girls having nation Listen,

976
00:47:45,680 --> 00:47:48,839
Speaker 1: you know what, it's a special thing for sure. Over

977
00:47:48,920 --> 00:47:52,200
Speaker 1: the years learned there are certain women who just really

978
00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:54,440
Speaker 1: don't have their ship together. And it's like some of

979
00:47:54,520 --> 00:47:57,839
Speaker 1: the things that most women men don't experience. Some most women,

980
00:47:57,880 --> 00:48:00,960
Speaker 1: I'd be like, ain't you like that comes second nature?

981
00:48:01,160 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 1: And no, I've learned from talking to men and from

982
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:05,919
Speaker 1: men's you know, telling me like damn I didn't. Yeah,

983
00:48:06,200 --> 00:48:08,319
Speaker 1: I just hadn't had these type of experiences with women,

984
00:48:08,360 --> 00:48:10,080
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, well, who are you dating? What

985
00:48:10,239 --> 00:48:11,880
Speaker 1: type of females are you dealing with that you're not

986
00:48:12,000 --> 00:48:14,400
Speaker 1: getting this. What I think is the bare necessities are

987
00:48:14,520 --> 00:48:17,040
Speaker 1: just like you know, common regular things. So yeah, I

988
00:48:17,080 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 1: would say it come with like maturity and just going

989
00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:21,880
Speaker 1: through life and learning. Yeah. I think it's also shows

990
00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:24,560
Speaker 1: that how you was raised, how he was raised, because

991
00:48:24,560 --> 00:48:28,279
Speaker 1: I know grown women that can't do are well, that's yeah,

992
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:32,560
Speaker 1: that that's not okay when it comes like mors and stuff.

993
00:48:32,920 --> 00:48:35,000
Speaker 1: I was taught that. But like as I'm getting older,

994
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:37,640
Speaker 1: I'm realizing, like I'm learning, like it's okay to run

995
00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:39,560
Speaker 1: a bath for a guy, Like it's okay to be

996
00:48:39,640 --> 00:48:44,480
Speaker 1: submissive before I was so so after just having different

997
00:48:44,520 --> 00:48:47,279
Speaker 1: experiences with different people, it's like, okay, like you do

998
00:48:47,440 --> 00:48:49,359
Speaker 1: have to be domestic when you're dealing with the guy.

999
00:48:49,600 --> 00:48:51,520
Speaker 1: And at first, you know, I could honestly say like

1000
00:48:51,600 --> 00:48:53,480
Speaker 1: it was kind of given like a little girl, you know,

1001
00:48:53,719 --> 00:48:55,920
Speaker 1: like because I didn't know. I'm I'm gonna make sure

1002
00:48:55,920 --> 00:48:57,359
Speaker 1: the house clean, I'm gonna take care of the house.

1003
00:48:57,360 --> 00:49:00,520
Speaker 1: I'm you know, but I'm not knowing that. Okay, when

1004
00:49:00,520 --> 00:49:02,360
Speaker 1: it's time to eat, I should fix your plate. Like

1005
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:04,400
Speaker 1: I'm just learning that over the past three years. And

1006
00:49:04,400 --> 00:49:06,279
Speaker 1: I could see here with confidence to say like I

1007
00:49:06,400 --> 00:49:08,200
Speaker 1: didn't know that this whole time, and I was living

1008
00:49:08,239 --> 00:49:11,200
Speaker 1: with a guy for years and was still like not

1009
00:49:11,440 --> 00:49:13,320
Speaker 1: there mentally yet, you know, So it just come on

1010
00:49:13,400 --> 00:49:15,759
Speaker 1: maturity that it's definitely grows. And I think if a

1011
00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:18,640
Speaker 1: guy can make you feel like comfortable and secure like

1012
00:49:18,760 --> 00:49:21,439
Speaker 1: you you want to do those things. And I'm learning

1013
00:49:21,520 --> 00:49:23,759
Speaker 1: that and it doesn't have to be like afford that

1014
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:26,480
Speaker 1: traditional roles and being forced to do something. You do

1015
00:49:26,560 --> 00:49:28,359
Speaker 1: it because you like, because I want to take care

1016
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:29,800
Speaker 1: of you. It's just like right here, you want to

1017
00:49:29,840 --> 00:49:32,600
Speaker 1: take care of you too. Yeah, I'm learning that though.

1018
00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:37,520
Speaker 1: Oh that's yea. I was like tapping into my affectionate side,

1019
00:49:37,600 --> 00:49:41,000
Speaker 1: being more affectionate and stuff like that, because before I'm

1020
00:49:41,040 --> 00:49:44,080
Speaker 1: really not an affectionate person. Now that was I say that,

1021
00:49:44,360 --> 00:49:47,600
Speaker 1: you know, I'm not learned what I learned about your

1022
00:49:47,640 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 1: son Capricorn. You have Capricorn, Yeah, you have a being

1023
00:49:54,120 --> 00:49:58,719
Speaker 1: affectionate is that sometimes if you just aren't genuinely an

1024
00:49:58,760 --> 00:50:01,759
Speaker 1: affectionate person, it'll get pulled out of you from the

1025
00:50:01,840 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 1: energy that you receiver from your mate. And you're a

1026
00:50:04,600 --> 00:50:10,000
Speaker 1: liber right, Okay, My mom, my brother and my best

1027
00:50:10,040 --> 00:50:14,640
Speaker 1: friend all libras real sensitive. Yeah so sensitive. That little

1028
00:50:14,640 --> 00:50:17,320
Speaker 1: baby like she you're the same age, but she'd be

1029
00:50:17,360 --> 00:50:22,719
Speaker 1: like that little girl fill to this day. Girl, You

1030
00:50:22,960 --> 00:50:26,000
Speaker 1: are right. They actually it's funny. We just talked about

1031
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:28,520
Speaker 1: saying creative. I was talking about before you guy here,

1032
00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:31,239
Speaker 1: So they did this whole thing. The zodiac sign most

1033
00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:36,080
Speaker 1: likely to live a secret life according to astrologers, right,

1034
00:50:36,600 --> 00:50:38,279
Speaker 1: so number seven on the list, and these are people

1035
00:50:38,320 --> 00:50:41,400
Speaker 1: who they could plot a murder and you would never know.

1036
00:50:42,040 --> 00:50:46,400
Speaker 1: Number seven was Virgos, extreme, number six was aquarious, number

1037
00:50:46,440 --> 00:50:51,000
Speaker 1: five is Leo's, number four is Gemini. Number three is Scorpios,

1038
00:50:51,040 --> 00:50:54,360
Speaker 1: who are known for being mysterious. Number two was Cancer,

1039
00:50:54,400 --> 00:51:00,480
Speaker 1: and number one was Capricorn. Yeah yeah, as capri Corns

1040
00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:02,759
Speaker 1: are known to be quiet and tight lit, but they

1041
00:51:02,800 --> 00:51:04,719
Speaker 1: also have a much darker side. When it comes to

1042
00:51:04,800 --> 00:51:07,960
Speaker 1: the secrets, and can be quite malicious in nature. Due

1043
00:51:08,000 --> 00:51:10,480
Speaker 1: to their high drive for success combined with an obsessive

1044
00:51:10,520 --> 00:51:14,080
Speaker 1: and strategic authoritative nature, A Capricorn could easily be a

1045
00:51:14,120 --> 00:51:17,840
Speaker 1: secret murderer. But we're also very fiercely loyal, So Capricorns

1046
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:20,200
Speaker 1: are masters at hiding their two feelings and but secretly

1047
00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:23,200
Speaker 1: kill in the name of love, loyalty, and protecting family. Girl,

1048
00:51:24,120 --> 00:51:29,839
Speaker 1: that's a lot. I was just like the worst your

1049
00:51:29,880 --> 00:51:33,520
Speaker 1: best friend. Yeah, I'm seeing should real crazy to you,

1050
00:51:33,600 --> 00:51:42,279
Speaker 1: but I don't see you as a but either. I

1051
00:51:42,400 --> 00:51:45,759
Speaker 1: think you always pretty much straightforward and level headed and like, yeah,

1052
00:51:46,080 --> 00:51:47,719
Speaker 1: you know, honest and you know that whole thing. Like

1053
00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:50,560
Speaker 1: I don't really Yeah, I'm very practical, but I could

1054
00:51:50,560 --> 00:51:54,399
Speaker 1: be like really emotionless about things. But a lot of times,

1055
00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:56,319
Speaker 1: like your signs still like that's what you're sign, That's

1056
00:51:56,360 --> 00:51:59,320
Speaker 1: what the character characteristics is of your sign. But like,

1057
00:51:59,640 --> 00:52:01,520
Speaker 1: I'm a Pisces and there's a lot of things that

1058
00:52:01,640 --> 00:52:04,360
Speaker 1: I've learned growing up over like Okay, when I read it,

1059
00:52:04,360 --> 00:52:05,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god, that's how I was. But

1060
00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:08,600
Speaker 1: now I know how to I know that I'm like that,

1061
00:52:08,719 --> 00:52:10,719
Speaker 1: so I work on those things, and I make sure

1062
00:52:10,760 --> 00:52:13,000
Speaker 1: so when I'm start feeling, I'm like, yep, here I

1063
00:52:13,120 --> 00:52:16,080
Speaker 1: go loving others more than I love myself. Let me

1064
00:52:16,160 --> 00:52:17,960
Speaker 1: work on that. Here I go wear my heart on

1065
00:52:18,040 --> 00:52:22,320
Speaker 1: my sleeve. Let me stop extremely sensitive. So I'm in

1066
00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:26,239
Speaker 1: therapy dealing with my emotions and my sensitivity. So those

1067
00:52:26,280 --> 00:52:28,000
Speaker 1: are the things, like going to there that was part

1068
00:52:28,040 --> 00:52:29,759
Speaker 1: of it, because like every time I read Pisces and

1069
00:52:29,800 --> 00:52:31,680
Speaker 1: I read those things, I'm like, oh my god, that's me.

1070
00:52:32,600 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 1: You know, there's a lot of great things about us,

1071
00:52:35,120 --> 00:52:37,480
Speaker 1: but there's a lot of things that will cause a

1072
00:52:37,560 --> 00:52:39,640
Speaker 1: lot of hurt and a lot of insecurity and a

1073
00:52:39,719 --> 00:52:42,160
Speaker 1: lot of things within myself. So when I'm you know,

1074
00:52:42,360 --> 00:52:45,760
Speaker 1: dealing with my therapist, I deal with these things because

1075
00:52:45,840 --> 00:52:47,640
Speaker 1: I don't want to be like that. But those signs

1076
00:52:47,880 --> 00:52:50,399
Speaker 1: that that that's you. Just gotta work on those things

1077
00:52:50,480 --> 00:52:56,360
Speaker 1: that you don't like about. Everybody is who they are, Like, well,

1078
00:52:56,400 --> 00:52:59,000
Speaker 1: do you think you have any libra characteristics that are

1079
00:52:59,200 --> 00:53:03,759
Speaker 1: supposed to be kind men for you? Yeah, I have something,

1080
00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:06,040
Speaker 1: but I just feel like that just comes from my childhood,

1081
00:53:06,239 --> 00:53:10,080
Speaker 1: like trauma and just bad energy that I had from

1082
00:53:10,200 --> 00:53:13,239
Speaker 1: different situations, and you know, I don't. Really, I'm not

1083
00:53:13,239 --> 00:53:15,160
Speaker 1: gonna say I don't believe it SIDS because I always

1084
00:53:15,160 --> 00:53:18,200
Speaker 1: asked everybody i'll meet, like, what's your side? But it's

1085
00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:21,839
Speaker 1: like there's a reaction to every action in life, whether

1086
00:53:21,920 --> 00:53:24,080
Speaker 1: it happened when we were seven years old or seventy

1087
00:53:24,320 --> 00:53:26,640
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So we just experience in

1088
00:53:26,760 --> 00:53:28,839
Speaker 1: life at different rates and you just got to deal

1089
00:53:28,920 --> 00:53:30,799
Speaker 1: with it and face the problems. What are some things

1090
00:53:30,880 --> 00:53:32,840
Speaker 1: like you talk about childhood trauma, Like how do you

1091
00:53:32,880 --> 00:53:35,760
Speaker 1: see that play out now? Like me not being affectionate

1092
00:53:35,800 --> 00:53:38,840
Speaker 1: for instance, Like my mom wasn't really the type to

1093
00:53:39,080 --> 00:53:41,520
Speaker 1: just hug me and tell me she loved me. So

1094
00:53:41,680 --> 00:53:43,359
Speaker 1: now when we get off the phone, we always say

1095
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:45,120
Speaker 1: we love each other, but it's still like I love

1096
00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:47,600
Speaker 1: you too, you know what I'm saying, But only because

1097
00:53:48,520 --> 00:53:50,600
Speaker 1: coming up, like she didn't just always like give me

1098
00:53:50,719 --> 00:53:52,520
Speaker 1: hugs and stuff. My mama was my best friend, but

1099
00:53:52,880 --> 00:53:54,759
Speaker 1: as far as like affection, she didn't give that to me.

1100
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:58,040
Speaker 1: So now I'm like, just you know, even talking with guys,

1101
00:53:58,080 --> 00:54:00,759
Speaker 1: I'm like, dang, you're right. I I'm like, stand off

1102
00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:02,719
Speaker 1: is I don't cuddle you? But that's just because I

1103
00:54:02,880 --> 00:54:05,120
Speaker 1: wasn't taught that, you know. But with my son, I

1104
00:54:05,239 --> 00:54:07,960
Speaker 1: make sure like I cuddle my sign, I kissed him

1105
00:54:07,960 --> 00:54:09,520
Speaker 1: every morning, I tell him I love him so many

1106
00:54:09,560 --> 00:54:11,600
Speaker 1: times throughout the day. Were super affectionate with each other.

1107
00:54:12,440 --> 00:54:13,800
Speaker 1: And I don't want him to grow up and not

1108
00:54:13,880 --> 00:54:16,120
Speaker 1: be affectionate because I grew up not being affectionate. So

1109
00:54:16,239 --> 00:54:18,400
Speaker 1: I just like, you gotta really go back, sit with

1110
00:54:18,520 --> 00:54:22,360
Speaker 1: yourself and analyze all those things coming up, break that

1111
00:54:22,480 --> 00:54:27,240
Speaker 1: ship down, and really break that curse, because every reaction

1112
00:54:27,320 --> 00:54:29,640
Speaker 1: we're receiving right now came from something that happened a

1113
00:54:29,719 --> 00:54:32,480
Speaker 1: long time ago, or ship a couple of days minutes ago.

1114
00:54:32,680 --> 00:54:35,920
Speaker 1: What about your dad, Oh, my dad not affectionate. I

1115
00:54:35,960 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 1: didn't have a relationship with my dad. I still don't

1116
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:42,160
Speaker 1: have a relationship with him, so have like but you

1117
00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:44,640
Speaker 1: know him. Oh yeah, I know my dad. And then

1118
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:48,920
Speaker 1: my mom um, she actually got married and her boyfriend

1119
00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:52,920
Speaker 1: adopted me and my sister and really helped you with

1120
00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:55,680
Speaker 1: your sense of like wanting to have a business own

1121
00:54:55,800 --> 00:54:58,040
Speaker 1: and that this is like that who's who I called

1122
00:54:58,080 --> 00:55:00,000
Speaker 1: my dad and considered dad because I was through year

1123
00:55:00,080 --> 00:55:02,279
Speaker 1: sold and that's who really took me on my wing.

1124
00:55:02,680 --> 00:55:05,160
Speaker 1: Told me about boys. Got me like, what did he

1125
00:55:05,200 --> 00:55:07,120
Speaker 1: tell you about boys? I mean, you know, like he

1126
00:55:07,160 --> 00:55:10,440
Speaker 1: will always telling me, don't be no Honda and that

1127
00:55:10,640 --> 00:55:16,239
Speaker 1: basically everybody can have a Honda. Like when I went,

1128
00:55:17,040 --> 00:55:21,600
Speaker 1: he was like, see, don't be no Honda. He will

1129
00:55:21,640 --> 00:55:28,120
Speaker 1: always do that. It's liable. Yeah please, I'm just like everybody.

1130
00:55:28,800 --> 00:55:30,759
Speaker 1: But when I when literally I came home with my

1131
00:55:30,840 --> 00:55:34,160
Speaker 1: first car after selling I sold out my hair and

1132
00:55:34,280 --> 00:55:35,840
Speaker 1: I came home, he was like, see, don't be that,

1133
00:55:36,080 --> 00:55:39,600
Speaker 1: because like that's your parlem, Like, bro, you have for me, Like,

1134
00:55:41,239 --> 00:55:43,759
Speaker 1: but that's what you got, the first car you got, Like,

1135
00:55:43,880 --> 00:55:46,480
Speaker 1: don't be that. So he will always tell me that,

1136
00:55:46,719 --> 00:55:48,400
Speaker 1: and like he just really gave me that hustle. He

1137
00:55:48,440 --> 00:55:50,239
Speaker 1: went to China for me, help me find a vendor

1138
00:55:50,280 --> 00:55:53,440
Speaker 1: for my hair. Like so that's my dad. That's that's

1139
00:55:53,640 --> 00:55:56,480
Speaker 1: the person who you know had gave me that manhood.

1140
00:55:57,000 --> 00:55:59,000
Speaker 1: Did your biological father every time to reach out to

1141
00:55:59,040 --> 00:56:02,399
Speaker 1: you now seeing you being successful, he's just not open

1142
00:56:02,480 --> 00:56:06,040
Speaker 1: to it. Um he reached out recently, and I mean

1143
00:56:06,080 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 1: I told him I love him, you know, but I

1144
00:56:08,560 --> 00:56:11,080
Speaker 1: just feel like you don't know me no more. I

1145
00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:13,400
Speaker 1: don't even know you, you know, like I could love

1146
00:56:13,480 --> 00:56:15,239
Speaker 1: you from a distance, but as far as like having

1147
00:56:15,239 --> 00:56:17,479
Speaker 1: a relationship, I don't want to mend a relationship because

1148
00:56:17,560 --> 00:56:19,520
Speaker 1: I'm just not there. I feel like I'm past that.

1149
00:56:19,719 --> 00:56:22,920
Speaker 1: Do you feel like that comes from your success? Do

1150
00:56:22,960 --> 00:56:25,640
Speaker 1: you feel like like, don't come on be around me

1151
00:56:25,680 --> 00:56:27,359
Speaker 1: now and when you didn't want to happen? Yeah, because

1152
00:56:27,440 --> 00:56:31,480
Speaker 1: I feel like then I've been I'm twenty five, Like

1153
00:56:31,560 --> 00:56:34,000
Speaker 1: why are you just not reaching out? Damn like I

1154
00:56:34,200 --> 00:56:35,919
Speaker 1: would expect if you reached out when I was five,

1155
00:56:36,120 --> 00:56:39,400
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like, yeah, ship thirteen, you

1156
00:56:39,440 --> 00:56:41,600
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, It don't matter. But reaching out now,

1157
00:56:41,680 --> 00:56:46,200
Speaker 1: it's like I'm growing his head, like come on? What?

1158
00:56:47,320 --> 00:56:49,680
Speaker 1: But And I think I think probably also that you

1159
00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:52,520
Speaker 1: had another somebody else there as a father figure out

1160
00:56:52,560 --> 00:56:55,759
Speaker 1: because like I just read, connected with my father, I

1161
00:56:55,800 --> 00:56:57,600
Speaker 1: hadn't seen him since I was eleven, And I'm not

1162
00:56:57,640 --> 00:57:01,000
Speaker 1: gonna lie. I needed it, Like I definitely needed that

1163
00:57:01,120 --> 00:57:03,320
Speaker 1: my kids met for the first time. My oldest is

1164
00:57:03,360 --> 00:57:05,920
Speaker 1: twenty one, my youngest is eleven, And what that did

1165
00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:08,160
Speaker 1: for them and what that did for me is amazing.

1166
00:57:08,239 --> 00:57:11,120
Speaker 1: But then again, I didn't have anybody else to be

1167
00:57:11,200 --> 00:57:14,640
Speaker 1: a father figure. So like in my case, I'm super

1168
00:57:14,680 --> 00:57:17,280
Speaker 1: thrilled and happy because for the first time I felt

1169
00:57:17,360 --> 00:57:19,360
Speaker 1: the father love. Whether it was for five minutes, you

1170
00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:23,120
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying still, you know what I'm saying,

1171
00:57:23,120 --> 00:57:25,560
Speaker 1: Like it was something that I needed going into the

1172
00:57:25,640 --> 00:57:29,600
Speaker 1: new year. Yeah, she went to Dominican Republic. That was

1173
00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:33,840
Speaker 1: Chris Like what it did for him and even not

1174
00:57:33,960 --> 00:57:36,440
Speaker 1: just for me, what it did for him made me

1175
00:57:36,600 --> 00:57:39,560
Speaker 1: feel good because I don't know what the reason is

1176
00:57:39,800 --> 00:57:41,960
Speaker 1: behind him not being in my life where you know,

1177
00:57:42,080 --> 00:57:44,600
Speaker 1: I don't know what happened with my mom, Like I

1178
00:57:44,680 --> 00:57:46,760
Speaker 1: don't know, and I'm learning so much that it's like,

1179
00:57:46,880 --> 00:57:49,280
Speaker 1: you know, I'm glad that I kept a open mind,

1180
00:57:50,040 --> 00:57:51,800
Speaker 1: you know, because I could have been because it's like

1181
00:57:51,880 --> 00:57:55,520
Speaker 1: we're you know, it sounds hard open heart too, because

1182
00:57:55,560 --> 00:57:57,880
Speaker 1: it was kind of like, damn, where are you? Like,

1183
00:57:57,960 --> 00:57:59,840
Speaker 1: I don't know nothing about man right now. You know,

1184
00:58:00,000 --> 00:58:02,479
Speaker 1: I have brothers, but at one point day wearing ships.

1185
00:58:03,080 --> 00:58:05,520
Speaker 1: So it was like that that that but you think God,

1186
00:58:05,600 --> 00:58:08,320
Speaker 1: and it was blessed to have someone there to show

1187
00:58:08,400 --> 00:58:11,920
Speaker 1: you now all that is necessary because I like, then

1188
00:58:11,960 --> 00:58:13,800
Speaker 1: I will really sit down when I'm sitting with myself

1189
00:58:13,840 --> 00:58:15,800
Speaker 1: really trying to figure out life. It's like, it's that

1190
00:58:15,920 --> 00:58:18,280
Speaker 1: why I accepted so much from a man, you know,

1191
00:58:18,320 --> 00:58:20,920
Speaker 1: because I just wanted a man, you know, because I

1192
00:58:20,960 --> 00:58:23,400
Speaker 1: didn't have that growing up for real. Or I saw

1193
00:58:23,480 --> 00:58:25,520
Speaker 1: my mom you know, going in and out of relationships

1194
00:58:25,640 --> 00:58:28,760
Speaker 1: or dealing with different guys. So everything comes from somewhere.

1195
00:58:28,880 --> 00:58:30,760
Speaker 1: So it's glad that you taped back into that to know,

1196
00:58:30,920 --> 00:58:33,280
Speaker 1: like I needed this. Do you know why your father

1197
00:58:33,480 --> 00:58:35,800
Speaker 1: was just not there? Did he um in and out

1198
00:58:35,840 --> 00:58:38,880
Speaker 1: of jail? And then I guess my mom just eventually

1199
00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:41,080
Speaker 1: got tired of his ship. And then she met my stepdad,

1200
00:58:41,120 --> 00:58:45,920
Speaker 1: which moved when they had you she was young. Yeah. Yeah,

1201
00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:51,040
Speaker 1: me and my three sisters, three sisters, and it's five

1202
00:58:51,080 --> 00:58:53,640
Speaker 1: of us. My mama got twin twin boys, and when

1203
00:58:53,640 --> 00:58:56,640
Speaker 1: I got older, two older sisters. That's nice to have

1204
00:58:56,760 --> 00:59:01,600
Speaker 1: a whole Like, yes, and y'all seem to be pretty

1205
00:59:01,640 --> 00:59:04,200
Speaker 1: close and well here, yeah, we're close. I try hard,

1206
00:59:04,440 --> 00:59:06,080
Speaker 1: me and my sister. We sometimes we're seeing out of

1207
00:59:06,320 --> 00:59:07,640
Speaker 1: but like at the end of the day, that is

1208
00:59:07,720 --> 00:59:10,760
Speaker 1: my sister and family is everything, and you just gotta

1209
00:59:10,840 --> 00:59:14,200
Speaker 1: learn how to love people from a distance. Like as

1210
00:59:14,240 --> 00:59:17,000
Speaker 1: I'm getting older, I'm learning like that is what everything

1211
00:59:17,120 --> 00:59:19,400
Speaker 1: is about, even my biological father, Like I'm gonna still

1212
00:59:19,400 --> 00:59:23,240
Speaker 1: tell you I love you, but from yeah, like ain't

1213
00:59:23,240 --> 00:59:25,960
Speaker 1: no bad book. Well, I thank you so much for

1214
00:59:26,120 --> 00:59:28,480
Speaker 1: coming out here and being so open and honest you

1215
00:59:28,560 --> 00:59:30,520
Speaker 1: know with us. I've been watching a lot of your

1216
00:59:30,560 --> 00:59:33,320
Speaker 1: conversations and moves that you're making. So this is our

1217
00:59:33,360 --> 00:59:37,000
Speaker 1: first time having to sit down with Jada. I'm coming back.

1218
00:59:37,120 --> 00:59:39,520
Speaker 1: I love this and now listen, you have to and

1219
00:59:39,560 --> 00:59:41,880
Speaker 1: I can't wait because I feel like some big things

1220
00:59:41,920 --> 00:59:44,000
Speaker 1: are about to happen that you're gonna have to come

1221
00:59:44,040 --> 00:59:47,320
Speaker 1: back for. Speaking of big things, I got a little

1222
00:59:47,400 --> 00:59:55,280
Speaker 1: interruption for big that's I was like, wait, what's happening.

1223
00:59:55,920 --> 00:59:59,960
Speaker 1: I was like, wait, that's in September. Yeah, I got heat.

1224
01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:04,920
Speaker 1: A birthday came or whatever. That's so cute. Well, thank you.

1225
01:00:05,080 --> 01:00:09,120
Speaker 1: What kind of cake is that? It looks fancy moves?

1226
01:00:10,520 --> 01:00:16,920
Speaker 1: Did you make them? Cut? Yeah? Thank you guys. Happy birthday,

1227
01:00:17,200 --> 01:00:24,440
Speaker 1: Happy birthday, Happy birthday, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday,

1228
01:00:26,440 --> 01:00:33,320
Speaker 1: Happy birthday, Dear Angela. Heapy birthday to you. Let me

1229
01:00:33,360 --> 01:00:45,440
Speaker 1: make my way, yes man, that's really specifically Yeah, Yeah, birthday,

1230
01:00:47,680 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 1: Happy birthday, Happy birth, new Year, new show, new chapters, everything, Yes,

1231
01:00:53,480 --> 01:00:55,040
Speaker 1: the way up for Angela. Ye, I feel like we

1232
01:00:55,120 --> 01:00:57,880
Speaker 1: got the way thing in common. You know you would

1233
01:00:57,920 --> 01:01:02,200
Speaker 1: do something. Yes, I'm excited. That's something GOODE is the

1234
01:01:02,320 --> 01:01:06,720
Speaker 1: year so much. I appreciate it and jard you with

1235
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:08,320
Speaker 1: the first person to come on in the New Year,

1236
01:01:08,360 --> 01:01:13,840
Speaker 1: so we appreciate you to kick it all. Right, well

1237
01:01:13,960 --> 01:01:15,960
Speaker 1: it is lip service. Is there anything you want to

1238
01:01:16,000 --> 01:01:17,600
Speaker 1: make sure that you get out there that we didn't

1239
01:01:17,640 --> 01:01:21,040
Speaker 1: talk about? No, no, no, we got any upcoming from Yeah?

1240
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:25,720
Speaker 1: Anything new that were not like everything, like y'all let

1241
01:01:25,760 --> 01:01:32,680
Speaker 1: me go listen to a New Man and New Love.

1242
01:01:33,760 --> 01:01:36,640
Speaker 1: No see that? You go, Okay, we're seeing a different film.

1243
01:01:36,760 --> 01:01:38,760
Speaker 1: We're gonna find out soon because you know she's not.

1244
01:01:43,160 --> 01:01:47,360
Speaker 1: She's feeling very strategically. Yeah, okay, yeah, I'm good on that.

1245
01:01:48,080 --> 01:01:49,040
Speaker 1: Lift service B