WEBVTT - Orion's episode 0:00:00.560 --> 0:00:03.600 The moment everyone has been begging for Merch is being 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:06.880 released next week for our second year anniversary. 0:00:07.400 --> 0:00:09.880 Time flies when you are sexy, young and free. 0:00:10.320 --> 0:00:10.840 Take a look. 0:00:10.920 --> 0:00:13.480 Let me know if you like anything. Actually, don't let 0:00:13.480 --> 0:00:13.720 me know. 0:00:13.800 --> 0:00:31.600 I don't want to know. Didn't really have that? 0:00:32.440 --> 0:00:36.360 I probably see No, I have a scer. 0:00:35.800 --> 0:00:38.440 Oh really from what give your head last time? 0:00:39.240 --> 0:00:39.360 Right? 0:00:39.520 --> 0:00:41.680 Oh, to yourself because you went to your room alone 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:43.920 and you fell asleep after giving yourself had. 0:00:43.960 --> 0:00:45.919 Yeah, you know you guys a couple of ribs removed. 0:00:46.400 --> 0:00:48.720 Yeah, wow, you have been looking really skinny. 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:50.640 Yeah, I have a snatched ways I got my ribs 0:00:50.680 --> 0:00:52.160 removed like Marilyn Manson. 0:00:52.320 --> 0:00:55.560 Yeah, and it's actually really really special. 0:00:55.760 --> 0:00:56.200 Is that real? 0:00:56.240 --> 0:00:57.040 Did he actually do that? 0:00:57.160 --> 0:00:57.200 No? 0:00:57.360 --> 0:00:59.440 Yeah, that's why he's wearing that hoodie. It's like covering up. 0:01:02.000 --> 0:01:05.200 You really, I'm covering it up with this hoodie. That 0:01:05.400 --> 0:01:08.880 is Emergency in Or Come Merch that is out July seventh. 0:01:09.280 --> 0:01:13.440 Probably we have this too as well. We handmade this 0:01:13.520 --> 0:01:15.319 for the cut version. 0:01:15.600 --> 0:01:19.000 Yes, my girls know me so. Yeah, so we had 0:01:19.000 --> 0:01:21.640 to get her right. Also, we did it intro. But 0:01:22.120 --> 0:01:24.319 welcome back to Emergency Intercom. 0:01:24.680 --> 0:01:30.880 Long awaited guests, the most asked for person by a 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:37.360 fucking landslide by Fleetwood Mac on the episode today, which 0:01:37.400 --> 0:01:40.160 is really crazy, o'rian. 0:01:40.800 --> 0:01:42.960 They had to fight tooth and nail for this, I 0:01:43.920 --> 0:01:44.520 really did. 0:01:44.920 --> 0:01:47.400 And you know what it is too is even I like, 0:01:47.600 --> 0:01:48.480 this is just annoying. 0:01:48.480 --> 0:01:49.880 But I'm like, I don't want them to see how 0:01:49.920 --> 0:01:53.040 well we get long, like I know exactly, like you're 0:01:53.040 --> 0:01:56.880 getting too much of me right now and it's terrifying 0:01:57.400 --> 0:01:57.760 to be. 0:01:57.800 --> 0:02:00.320 Perceived, So like keep that in line. 0:02:00.760 --> 0:02:05.560 No, actually don't. Don't I need a reality chat? Yeah 0:02:05.800 --> 0:02:09.239 exactly at this point in my life, I need a 0:02:09.240 --> 0:02:09.760 major one. 0:02:09.800 --> 0:02:11.560 Don't ask for that because to be funny, people will 0:02:11.600 --> 0:02:12.720 be like, okay, fine. 0:02:12.480 --> 0:02:16.520 And I actually don't, like I actually don't mean that. 0:02:16.880 --> 0:02:19.440 Once you finished watching this act like you've never seen 0:02:19.480 --> 0:02:22.600 Oryan and like you've never heard our voice exactly. 0:02:22.320 --> 0:02:24.760 Yeah, thank you. Have you done a podcast before? Yeah 0:02:24.840 --> 0:02:29.680 you yeah I have. But like a were serious normal 0:02:29.760 --> 0:02:35.560 people asking me very like serious questions. So when even 0:02:35.560 --> 0:02:37.359 like thinking about this, I'm like fuck, Like. 0:02:37.800 --> 0:02:40.160 Here I go like, okay, well I have a serious 0:02:40.240 --> 0:02:42.799 question for you. Okay, was that your first love? 0:02:44.000 --> 0:02:44.480 Actually? 0:02:44.960 --> 0:02:47.760 Why why does it always have to go here? Like Okay, no, 0:02:47.960 --> 0:02:49.960 go I want like, well, if. 0:02:49.840 --> 0:02:53.519 I'm being honest and it might hurt your feelings. 0:02:53.639 --> 0:02:59.200 No, okay, wow, it's oh god, I haven't wow and 0:02:59.320 --> 0:03:02.440 you don't understand actually no, no, no, if we're being 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:06.560 realistic here, Drew low key was I. 0:03:06.480 --> 0:03:08.480 Was going to bring that story up. I was going 0:03:08.560 --> 0:03:09.600 to bring that story up. 0:03:10.080 --> 0:03:13.840 Okay, okay, oh wait, oh playlist or. 0:03:15.560 --> 0:03:16.040 Or something. 0:03:16.160 --> 0:03:19.799 Yeah, I got from your point of view. 0:03:19.919 --> 0:03:23.120 Yeah, from my point of view, I only knew Drew 0:03:23.200 --> 0:03:26.400 from the online sphere and I never had met him 0:03:26.440 --> 0:03:29.840 in person, and he had walked in the room. We 0:03:29.840 --> 0:03:31.720 were all in like a hotel like party, and it 0:03:31.800 --> 0:03:35.320 was there weren't that many people. No, there was enough 0:03:35.360 --> 0:03:38.320 people to be embarrassed by the situation, but like it 0:03:38.440 --> 0:03:39.560 wasn't like filled to the brand. 0:03:39.640 --> 0:03:42.440 Also, it was like the first time, like I have 0:03:42.640 --> 0:03:45.640 ever seen other people on the internet that I like 0:03:45.720 --> 0:03:47.600 kind of look up to. Like I walked into this 0:03:47.760 --> 0:03:51.720 room and I was like, holy shit, Like there's like 0:03:52.000 --> 0:03:54.400 Ricky and Denzel in here, and like blah blah blah 0:03:54.440 --> 0:03:56.400 blah blah, like these are people that I like love 0:03:56.480 --> 0:03:59.080 on the internet and you see on the internet, so 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:00.480 fucking jar But. 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:03.480 Keep going anyway, Drew walked in and he's a new face. 0:04:03.520 --> 0:04:05.960 I hadn't seen him before, and you just looked so 0:04:06.000 --> 0:04:09.960 shy and so don't like and it was a precious 0:04:10.040 --> 0:04:12.960 moment to witness. And I turned to a friend and 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:16.800 I said, oh, Drew's here, He's so cute, and like 0:04:18.920 --> 0:04:23.680 the friend in question wasn't a real friend for screaming 0:04:23.760 --> 0:04:26.719 at the top of her lungs. She like, Drew passed 0:04:26.760 --> 0:04:29.800 by and she screams, hey, Drew, O'Ryan thinks you're really 0:04:29.880 --> 0:04:35.800 cute it and like darted away. I was so embarrassed, 0:04:36.120 --> 0:04:38.520 Like it was so humiliating because like it felt like. 0:04:38.600 --> 0:04:39.320 You're like ran. 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:41.000 No, I literally did ran. 0:04:41.520 --> 0:04:44.480 And I'm like stuck in this position where I'm like, oh, no, no, 0:04:44.520 --> 0:04:45.400 I did not see. 0:04:45.440 --> 0:04:47.479 You're not cute. You're not I don't think you're cute. 0:04:47.520 --> 0:04:47.960 You're ugly. 0:04:49.040 --> 0:04:51.799 That's what I would say that no. And then Drew. 0:04:51.680 --> 0:04:56.560 Left and she was like, y'all should make out, y'all 0:04:56.560 --> 0:05:00.920 should kiss right now in front of everybody, like kiss kiss, kissing, And. 0:05:00.240 --> 0:05:02.840 He was obsessed with watching people cads. 0:05:02.800 --> 0:05:04.839 Yes, And I was like in my head because I 0:05:04.880 --> 0:05:06.800 was like, oh, I've never been in this space before, 0:05:06.839 --> 0:05:09.359 like I'm like petrified, and then I walk in and 0:05:09.400 --> 0:05:12.479 I'm immediately like in my head being made fun of. 0:05:12.600 --> 0:05:13.640 A girl calls out. 0:05:14.000 --> 0:05:16.680 Then I invited her to my room later, but we won't. 0:05:16.480 --> 0:05:19.960 Talk about that about Oh y'all, Okay, Well, I don't 0:05:20.000 --> 0:05:20.320 want to know. 0:05:20.360 --> 0:05:22.040 The less I know, the better it was. 0:05:22.279 --> 0:05:26.080 It was sweet, it was simment. It was like something 0:05:26.160 --> 0:05:27.719 that's kept between us for a reason. 0:05:28.120 --> 0:05:30.000 I mean, now it's not between y'all. 0:05:30.160 --> 0:05:31.120 I mean, was it that? 0:05:31.680 --> 0:05:34.839 So it's probably just like like at a necessity, like 0:05:34.960 --> 0:05:35.640 human nature. 0:05:35.720 --> 0:05:37.200 It's not even like emotional. 0:05:37.320 --> 0:05:39.240 When was the first time we all met? 0:05:39.920 --> 0:05:42.160 I don't remember the first time we hung out. 0:05:42.640 --> 0:05:46.200 I don't either in La like y'all. I remember, there 0:05:46.240 --> 0:05:46.560 was like a. 0:05:46.520 --> 0:05:49.200 Moment I remember for first time hanging out in La 0:05:49.560 --> 0:05:51.760 like that I remember, but like the very first time 0:05:51.760 --> 0:05:53.240 we met, I could not even tell you. 0:05:53.360 --> 0:05:54.000 I couldn't tell you. 0:05:54.040 --> 0:05:57.600 I think we were just in such different worlds. Yeah, 0:05:57.640 --> 0:06:00.320 and even it was probably in a similar situation, like 0:06:00.320 --> 0:06:02.120 we were in a group of a bunch of people 0:06:02.279 --> 0:06:05.320 passing like high Hello. The reason why I don't remember 0:06:05.400 --> 0:06:08.960 is probably because it's not as traumatizing as like my 0:06:09.040 --> 0:06:12.200 brain at this point only like remembers the horrible or 0:06:12.240 --> 0:06:13.200 the really good things. 0:06:13.279 --> 0:06:16.200 Yeah, I remember the first time we like had a 0:06:16.240 --> 0:06:17.880 moment where we were like, oh my god, we're like 0:06:17.920 --> 0:06:18.400 gonna be fri. 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:21.480 It was so good. It's because and I think it 0:06:21.520 --> 0:06:24.600 is especially good because we didn't like really know each other. 0:06:24.920 --> 0:06:26.080 Yeah, because we were. 0:06:25.960 --> 0:06:28.599 Being put in We were all on a social media 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:31.599 tour when we were younger, and me and O'Ryan started 0:06:31.640 --> 0:06:34.480 being put in rooms together. But even then we would 0:06:34.480 --> 0:06:38.400 not interact. I don't even remember, like and it's not 0:06:38.480 --> 0:06:39.599 even like I was like I don't want to. 0:06:39.839 --> 0:06:40.599 Be friends with this girl. 0:06:40.640 --> 0:06:43.200 It was literally just you just had your group of friends. 0:06:43.200 --> 0:06:45.000 I had my group of friends, and it was just 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:46.480 the convenience of us staying the same. 0:06:46.600 --> 0:06:47.800 It was just the two girls. 0:06:47.800 --> 0:06:48.960 It was just the two the. 0:06:48.880 --> 0:06:50.560 Two girls on tours, like they're getting. 0:06:50.279 --> 0:06:52.400 Their room, like, oh, you're a girl, you're a girl, 0:06:52.400 --> 0:06:53.160 Like y'all will get. 0:06:53.080 --> 0:07:00.479 Along, And we did accidentally by kiss met Drew left tour. 0:07:00.880 --> 0:07:03.040 Yeah you like when you quit, And so it was 0:07:03.240 --> 0:07:03.560 Nie and. 0:07:03.600 --> 0:07:05.599 I were there left, and I remember we were it 0:07:05.680 --> 0:07:08.000 was like three in the morning. We were both in 0:07:08.040 --> 0:07:11.320 our separate beds and we had like our backs turned 0:07:11.360 --> 0:07:13.760 from each other, like keep in mind, like we didn't. 0:07:13.520 --> 0:07:16.720 Really know we like literally I we hadn't. I don't 0:07:16.720 --> 0:07:17.440 think we had ever. 0:07:17.640 --> 0:07:18.800 It was like college roommates. 0:07:18.840 --> 0:07:21.200 The one time we had spoken before that was when 0:07:21.240 --> 0:07:23.880 we took that god awful fucking picture because we found 0:07:23.920 --> 0:07:27.000 out it was going to bring up Durham and we 0:07:27.000 --> 0:07:29.920 were like, oh my god, like I don't have any girl. 0:07:30.560 --> 0:07:34.240 And it's literally like saying on TikTok like cannon event. 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:36.120 That was our canonicture. 0:07:36.400 --> 0:07:38.600 It was like we just met at the stairwells, took 0:07:38.600 --> 0:07:40.560 a photo, and then it was like hey bye see yeah, 0:07:41.080 --> 0:07:41.720 but like. 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:44.120 I was gonna say, do you remember the fucking picture 0:07:44.160 --> 0:07:46.000 of you and I? Like the first picture we took 0:07:46.040 --> 0:07:50.040 together and it's my giant, fucking nasty hair, Like. 0:07:50.160 --> 0:07:54.800 Gross, I remember I remember that actually, Like I mean 0:07:54.880 --> 0:07:58.000 just like that trip. I don't really what city were 0:07:58.000 --> 0:07:58.320 we in. 0:07:59.120 --> 0:08:00.520 I don't even literally don't know. 0:08:00.880 --> 0:08:03.000 Like do you remember your last one? Like what city 0:08:03.040 --> 0:08:04.040 you're in at all? 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:07.239 Okay, well or or something like that. 0:08:07.760 --> 0:08:10.360 Maybe I don't know, maybe. 0:08:10.120 --> 0:08:11.160 It was Atlanta. 0:08:11.480 --> 0:08:14.320 No, we literally all have brain fog because we were 0:08:14.320 --> 0:08:17.840 being like like like. 0:08:18.080 --> 0:08:19.480 Baby fed alcohol exactly. 0:08:20.400 --> 0:08:24.480 That was like our college experience literally but a yeah, 0:08:24.800 --> 0:08:28.840 and I we I was like crying because I was 0:08:28.880 --> 0:08:31.160 like in a relationship and the person I was dating 0:08:31.240 --> 0:08:32.880 was being really fucking mean to me. 0:08:33.080 --> 0:08:35.000 Scary, scary, terrifying. 0:08:36.040 --> 0:08:36.400 It was. 0:08:36.559 --> 0:08:39.679 It was like actually purgatory for me. So I was 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:43.320 silently crying because throughout that entire relationship, let's actually just start. 0:08:43.400 --> 0:08:47.760 I was silently crying and I hear like Enya also 0:08:47.920 --> 0:08:52.040 silently crying, and I like turn around and she's like 0:08:52.320 --> 0:08:55.600 crying into her pillow and I'm also crying into my pillow, 0:08:55.679 --> 0:08:57.800 and I just like I think I said something. First, 0:08:57.840 --> 0:09:00.360 I turned to you and I was like, are you crying? Yeah? 0:09:01.280 --> 0:09:04.480 Then she's like yeah, and then I just like got 0:09:04.559 --> 0:09:06.319 up and went to her bed and like held her. 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:06.800 Yeah. 0:09:06.920 --> 0:09:09.160 I literally just know each other. We didn't know each other, 0:09:09.200 --> 0:09:11.199 and we just sat there and cried together, and it. 0:09:11.200 --> 0:09:15.880 Was like, I'm so fucking so that is literally. 0:09:15.679 --> 0:09:18.840 So fun is at the time, I was like not 0:09:18.880 --> 0:09:21.319 an emotionally open person, Like I didn't even cry to 0:09:21.400 --> 0:09:21.880 you about it. 0:09:21.920 --> 0:09:23.960 When you left, like I acted all chill. I was like. 0:09:23.840 --> 0:09:27.679 Bye, like dude, Ice, Yeah, I wasn't emotionally available, and 0:09:27.720 --> 0:09:30.520 I fucking sobbed on the way to the airport. I 0:09:30.520 --> 0:09:32.800 think it was like New Jersey or something, because like 0:09:33.360 --> 0:09:35.680 it was it was because I was with Jake and 0:09:35.760 --> 0:09:38.480 Dana and I was sobbing in the back seat of 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:39.920 the car and they were in the front seat like 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:42.720 giving like side eyes to me, because like a grown 0:09:42.760 --> 0:09:43.440 man is crying in. 0:09:43.440 --> 0:09:45.440 The backseat of this car right now, it's like, hell awkward. 0:09:45.600 --> 0:09:48.920 And I was a good drown man seventeen. Well he's 0:09:48.960 --> 0:09:51.480 still sixteen. Yeah, well you just turned seventeen. 0:09:51.600 --> 0:09:52.840 Yeah, exactly, exactly. 0:09:53.280 --> 0:09:55.520 But no, it was like that was like the first 0:09:55.559 --> 0:09:57.320 time I was emotionally available too. But I think it 0:09:57.520 --> 0:10:00.120 was like a New Jersey. 0:10:00.320 --> 0:10:02.800 That makes sense because also, you know what's funny is 0:10:02.840 --> 0:10:04.280 I just remembered thinking about this. 0:10:04.520 --> 0:10:06.720 I remember the next morning we did. 0:10:06.520 --> 0:10:09.080 Start talking because we started telling each other why we 0:10:09.080 --> 0:10:11.760 were crying, and you were explaining your whole situation. I mean, 0:10:11.800 --> 0:10:13.719 you were talking about moving to l A because that 0:10:13.800 --> 0:10:15.600 was before you moved to LA and you were like, yeah, 0:10:15.640 --> 0:10:17.640 I don't know, like I don't know if I want 0:10:17.679 --> 0:10:19.920 to do that move. And I was just like I'm 0:10:20.000 --> 0:10:22.400 going to do that move, like sooner than later, and 0:10:22.440 --> 0:10:24.120 we were just like yeah, and we were really talking 0:10:24.160 --> 0:10:26.319 about it because I had just started. 0:10:26.000 --> 0:10:28.360 Seeing someone at the time, so I was like telling you. 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:33.480 About that, but I just we were getting oh, because 0:10:33.600 --> 0:10:35.720 you said I was crying over you because since I 0:10:35.760 --> 0:10:37.000 wasn't going to see you, I want to get to 0:10:37.000 --> 0:10:38.040 see your mom stinky. 0:10:39.840 --> 0:10:41.000 Yeah, I would get to have sex. 0:10:43.600 --> 0:10:45.680 Like, yeah, it's funny because you just said you were 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:48.040 a grown man sobbing in the back of a car 0:10:48.160 --> 0:10:49.280 with two other people. 0:10:50.400 --> 0:10:52.480 I got bitch, see I probably and I got. 0:10:52.480 --> 0:10:58.360 Yeah, I she got wet and it could have escalated control. 0:10:59.120 --> 0:10:59.800 This is why. 0:11:02.679 --> 0:11:04.719 See, this is why men don't cry and shouldn't cry. 0:11:04.800 --> 0:11:06.360 Because I cried and it was embarrassing. 0:11:06.640 --> 0:11:08.640 Yeah, it's funny. You consider yourself a man? 0:11:09.040 --> 0:11:12.280 Oh wow, I was. I was a man last night. 0:11:13.400 --> 0:11:14.640 I was a man last night. 0:11:15.360 --> 0:11:17.000 It's funny because I thought you were a man, but 0:11:17.520 --> 0:11:18.760 you're just a little boy. 0:11:20.559 --> 0:11:26.080 And hunger herds like, oh, hunger does hurt? 0:11:26.120 --> 0:11:28.480 Should we talk about those little escapades a little bit, 0:11:28.840 --> 0:11:33.120 not into detail, but the pch moments oh our vibes? 0:11:33.880 --> 0:11:36.520 Yeah, but I'm like, what is there to discuss other 0:11:36.920 --> 0:11:37.960 like crying? 0:11:38.360 --> 0:11:41.040 Crying despair driving up pH Listen. 0:11:41.080 --> 0:11:43.960 We literally made all three of us so much closer 0:11:44.080 --> 0:11:45.880 and also, like me and a Ryan, I feel like 0:11:46.160 --> 0:11:48.480 without COVID would not be this close. 0:11:50.679 --> 0:11:53.480 Yeah, we were, we were hanging out consistently, but I 0:11:53.480 --> 0:11:56.040 think there was like this emotional level that we couldn't 0:11:56.080 --> 0:12:00.319 break past because there was just, honestly, just how much 0:12:00.360 --> 0:12:03.320 things surrounding it. There was like shame and fear and 0:12:03.720 --> 0:12:06.600 it was just like awkward. Yeah, and we also, I 0:12:06.640 --> 0:12:10.720 mean I've had really close female friendships before, but I 0:12:10.880 --> 0:12:15.000 had hadn't. Yeah, so it was like navigating Trying to 0:12:15.080 --> 0:12:19.400 navigate that with you was honestly it was hard. But 0:12:19.440 --> 0:12:25.720 then like you came around. 0:12:23.800 --> 0:12:24.839 You know what it was too. 0:12:25.120 --> 0:12:28.600 I think, Yeah, it's just I didn't have a lot 0:12:28.600 --> 0:12:29.920 of I don't I still don't have a lot of 0:12:29.920 --> 0:12:32.720 close like female relationship are definitely the most intimate female 0:12:32.760 --> 0:12:33.559 relationship I have. 0:12:33.600 --> 0:12:34.360 In my life. 0:12:34.520 --> 0:12:37.040 Neither do it and yeah, because you get no bitches 0:12:37.720 --> 0:12:39.880 that's like separates besides the boy. 0:12:40.040 --> 0:12:41.840 But yeah, I think it's because of that. It's just 0:12:42.120 --> 0:12:43.080 I didn't know how to do it. 0:12:43.200 --> 0:12:46.240 Also, I don't think I was like super emotionally open 0:12:46.320 --> 0:12:51.480 with the whole friend group like anybody, Yeah, until like 0:12:51.840 --> 0:12:54.839 late twenty nineteen, early twenty twenty, because I just had 0:12:55.080 --> 0:12:57.120 reached a point where, like I was going to therapy so. 0:12:57.120 --> 0:13:00.000 Much I could talk. Also, I was like a fucking annoying. 0:12:59.600 --> 0:13:02.120 Bitch, Like you didn't you literally couldn't. 0:13:01.840 --> 0:13:04.880 Talk to me about anything without being like, actually. 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:07.560 Yeah, you had it right. 0:13:07.840 --> 0:13:08.040 Yeah. 0:13:08.400 --> 0:13:12.840 Literally, like I was just kind of an annoying brat and. 0:13:12.760 --> 0:13:16.320 Then life happened, and that's what happened. 0:13:16.320 --> 0:13:20.880 I do feel like I am probably the only person 0:13:20.880 --> 0:13:23.199 in your life that can like argue against. 0:13:22.920 --> 0:13:25.079 Oh my god, I literally can't. I know what you're 0:13:25.120 --> 0:13:28.000 talking about. We have to bring it up. We have 0:13:28.080 --> 0:13:28.720 to bring it up. 0:13:28.760 --> 0:13:31.640 But that will argue against you, but you'll like actually 0:13:31.679 --> 0:13:34.680 listen to me, yeah, like more so, but so. 0:13:36.080 --> 0:13:39.560 No literally, so like we went to Texas like for 0:13:40.000 --> 0:13:43.640 Easter to like see my family, and like we got 0:13:43.640 --> 0:13:46.120 a hotel room and we were just like there's nothing 0:13:46.160 --> 0:13:48.120 to do in Grandberry. So we were just like mobbing 0:13:48.120 --> 0:13:50.360 around hanging out with my family and then like going 0:13:50.400 --> 0:13:52.560 to fucking Walmart and ship and one of the times 0:13:52.679 --> 0:13:55.560 we went, we went there just literally to key because 0:13:55.559 --> 0:13:58.800 that's what you're doing, gra like literally and like we 0:13:59.360 --> 0:14:01.880 are like I don't know what you'll are budding heads about, 0:14:01.880 --> 0:14:05.720 but in you know, over the ship, and it's not 0:14:05.760 --> 0:14:06.200 even worse. 0:14:06.240 --> 0:14:09.920 I'm not gonna mention, like it was literally just semantics. 0:14:10.240 --> 0:14:14.400 Yeah, it was like it like it was solved with 0:14:14.440 --> 0:14:16.800 a Google search. But even the Google search proved that 0:14:16.920 --> 0:14:17.880 Enya had to be right. 0:14:18.679 --> 0:14:22.000 It was I still am like I'm right, but that's okay. 0:14:22.080 --> 0:14:23.760 We like know, we moved on. 0:14:24.080 --> 0:14:24.720 We moved on. 0:14:25.400 --> 0:14:29.680 But they were fighting like I've never seen anybody in 0:14:29.720 --> 0:14:31.520 their group like literally debating. 0:14:31.600 --> 0:14:32.040 We like that. 0:14:33.720 --> 0:14:36.120 It was genuinely like you would have swore one of 0:14:36.200 --> 0:14:37.160 us was gonna walk away with. 0:14:37.080 --> 0:14:42.000 A nob something about me, Like I literally like debates. 0:14:41.760 --> 0:14:44.640 Like walking with his head down behind us, Like really, 0:14:44.760 --> 0:14:48.040 like so small was you felt so small? 0:14:48.120 --> 0:14:50.240 It was insane crazy and like. 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:52.440 Trying not to laugh throughout the whole thing because like 0:14:52.480 --> 0:14:54.520 I'm like, who were you? 0:14:54.840 --> 0:14:56.800 I was laughing, Yeah, you were like you was so 0:14:56.920 --> 0:14:59.840 uncomfortable right now, and I was like, I was so scared. 0:15:00.160 --> 0:15:03.480 Girls are also why we were like, wait, okay, we 0:15:03.520 --> 0:15:06.360 gotta cut this, because freaking. 0:15:08.080 --> 0:15:09.480 Making our child in the. 0:15:09.480 --> 0:15:12.720 Car uncomfortable to choose between which divorced parents will go 0:15:12.800 --> 0:15:15.880 with no, no. But genuinely, it was for me so 0:15:16.000 --> 0:15:19.560 comical that I kept laughing because Drew's in the corner 0:15:19.560 --> 0:15:22.120 of like my left eye, like like a sad puppy, 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:24.840 and Ennya's on this side like debating me. And then 0:15:24.840 --> 0:15:25.720 eventually y'all. 0:15:25.600 --> 0:15:28.200 Are like master debaters. Though like y'all are like really 0:15:28.200 --> 0:15:29.320 good at master debating. 0:15:29.880 --> 0:15:33.040 You have like two people who have like such strong 0:15:33.160 --> 0:15:37.800 opinions who think they're like moral, like their morals will 0:15:37.880 --> 0:15:40.960 change the zeitgeist of the fucking crazy. 0:15:41.040 --> 0:15:43.000 It was really crazy, and like it. 0:15:42.960 --> 0:15:45.280 Was exactly, like exactly. 0:15:46.280 --> 0:15:46.360 No. 0:15:46.480 --> 0:15:48.560 Literally, when you get two dumb bitches in the room 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:51.160 saying exactly to each other, is. 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:53.680 Like no, literally no, no, That's what I did say 0:15:53.760 --> 0:15:56.240 this whole time. Ye like, and I'm so glad you 0:15:56.320 --> 0:15:59.680 met me there, because like I was here and where 0:15:59.680 --> 0:15:59.960 were you? 0:16:00.240 --> 0:16:02.720 And you're not rying could be the most wrong about 0:16:02.760 --> 0:16:05.720 something anybody has ever been wrong about, and if one 0:16:05.760 --> 0:16:08.160 of them agrees with them, it's they're the right person, 0:16:08.200 --> 0:16:08.960 the right. 0:16:09.320 --> 0:16:11.400 And we're gonna agree at this point, we are going 0:16:11.440 --> 0:16:13.400 to agree. There was a time where I was. 0:16:13.320 --> 0:16:17.880 Like like no, just like no, but. 0:16:17.280 --> 0:16:20.840 But I've taken her moral cus and matched it to 0:16:20.920 --> 0:16:23.520 my moral compass, and even if you put the two together, 0:16:23.840 --> 0:16:27.840 it still wouldn't be right. No, no, no, like it is though. 0:16:28.040 --> 0:16:31.160 No, it is like I'm on ironically some of the ship, 0:16:31.400 --> 0:16:34.640 like y'all like are wrong right about I'm like, no, 0:16:34.720 --> 0:16:37.080 like y'all are right about but it's probably because y'all 0:16:37.080 --> 0:16:41.240 have skewed my moral compass as well, but like put it. 0:16:41.320 --> 0:16:45.480 On paper from only my perspective and then we're all like, yes, yes, 0:16:45.800 --> 0:16:48.680 that is so true. But that's I think that's the 0:16:48.680 --> 0:16:51.520 only like real argument we've gotten into. Yeah, and it 0:16:51.560 --> 0:16:54.080 wasn't even real head's over other ship, but like we 0:16:54.160 --> 0:16:54.960 never argued over it. 0:16:54.880 --> 0:16:58.000 It was just like, like I will say, like, one 0:16:58.040 --> 0:17:01.040 thing I really love about our dynamic is that there 0:17:01.160 --> 0:17:04.440 isn't room for arguing. Like if I'm upset, you will 0:17:04.480 --> 0:17:06.880 text me like a dissertation to be like I don't 0:17:06.880 --> 0:17:09.960 know what I did, but I'm sorry, or like vice versa, yeah, 0:17:10.240 --> 0:17:11.919 or like I can't even get to the point of 0:17:12.000 --> 0:17:14.000 arguing because it's like, what's the fucking point. 0:17:14.080 --> 0:17:15.440 Y'all are communicators? 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:16.720 Yeah, we're women. 0:17:16.920 --> 0:17:19.159 What'd you say? We are? Master Bay? 0:17:19.480 --> 0:17:19.640 Yeah? 0:17:20.160 --> 0:17:21.400 Master debaters. 0:17:21.600 --> 0:17:26.680 Yeah, minus the d Yeah, exactly. Whoa the wing girls. 0:17:27.000 --> 0:17:30.040 Let's talk about let's talk about the wing Ba. Like 0:17:30.680 --> 0:17:33.040 the creator of Wingba is. 0:17:32.960 --> 0:17:36.480 Here, founder of Yeah. I don't know how it happened, 0:17:36.520 --> 0:17:38.240 but it just did. It felt right, you know. 0:17:38.359 --> 0:17:40.480 Like it's literally because I went to your house one 0:17:40.560 --> 0:17:42.000 day and I saw it and I was like, I 0:17:42.119 --> 0:17:43.040 literally have that. 0:17:43.200 --> 0:17:44.719 And then You're like, oh, my wing Ba and I 0:17:44.760 --> 0:17:46.000 was like, that's what you call that. 0:17:46.480 --> 0:17:47.840 I was like, let me give you the full name. 0:17:47.840 --> 0:17:50.760 It's Wingbot two in your three thousand. Yeah. Yeah, And 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:53.920 I haven't shied away from her since I haven't gone 0:17:54.000 --> 0:17:57.719 strong yeah literally twenty seventeen. Yeah, No, she's like built, 0:17:58.440 --> 0:18:01.560 I have another travel she has like a buddy. 0:18:01.320 --> 0:18:05.560 And used that what's her name she doesn't have. 0:18:07.280 --> 0:18:13.040 Her name isra And. 0:18:13.600 --> 0:18:16.840 With Josie we were like in the car trying to 0:18:17.000 --> 0:18:20.960 almost explain that, and it probably sounds like the craziest audio. 0:18:21.200 --> 0:18:22.680 Wait, like the whole, like the whole. 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:27.480 We didn't go into it, but we were just like, well, Manama, 0:18:27.560 --> 0:18:30.879 Sandra started dating Winglee and then that was a problem 0:18:30.880 --> 0:18:32.840 because she was with Pilot Jones a lot. 0:18:32.960 --> 0:18:35.080 She was dating Mamma Bertram. 0:18:34.960 --> 0:18:37.760 No, No, Mama Bram and Pilot Jones are dating. 0:18:38.119 --> 0:18:41.879 Yeah, but then Pilot Jones got with Manama Sandra. 0:18:42.040 --> 0:18:45.880 Okay, but let's talk about Harley Davidson being a home wrecord, 0:18:46.119 --> 0:18:48.479 Like that's the Harley Dadavis. 0:18:49.600 --> 0:18:51.120 I don't really talk about her that much. 0:18:51.640 --> 0:18:54.080 Yeah, she's happened when we talk about her. 0:18:54.160 --> 0:18:56.920 Actually, you know, I don't ever talk about Harley. Yeah, 0:18:57.240 --> 0:18:59.639 it's just like that's like she like lives in your world. 0:19:00.359 --> 0:19:02.520 But like I respect. 0:19:02.000 --> 0:19:04.280 Her, yeah, and I brought her in and like I 0:19:04.320 --> 0:19:06.880 really regret it, like she's really talkic. 0:19:06.960 --> 0:19:09.119 Yeah yeah, I mean that's probably we might have to 0:19:09.160 --> 0:19:12.880 kill away. Yeah, well you have to say. 0:19:13.840 --> 0:19:17.159 I was just going to talk about, uh so, like, 0:19:17.280 --> 0:19:19.359 did y'all ever have teachers that y'all thought were like 0:19:19.400 --> 0:19:24.280 extremely hot, like really really okay? Like specifically, was it 0:19:24.359 --> 0:19:26.919 a history teacher with those goddamn kakis and bulging the 0:19:26.960 --> 0:19:27.960 fuck out because. 0:19:27.760 --> 0:19:30.520 They knew what they were doing. They were pervy, bro, 0:19:30.680 --> 0:19:31.400 They're pervs. 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:33.800 They do that ship on purpose, like they know their 0:19:33.840 --> 0:19:35.120 bulge looks fucking great. 0:19:34.880 --> 0:19:38.600 And they like the basketball coach, yes, or like the 0:19:38.880 --> 0:19:41.680 mine was the baseball No, mine was the basketball coach. 0:19:41.800 --> 0:19:45.440 The other one was the baseball coach. But like I, 0:19:45.720 --> 0:19:48.639 it was real, it was visceral, and I loved them. 0:19:49.000 --> 0:19:51.040 They're also always too nice and we need to like 0:19:51.160 --> 0:19:51.960 put them in jail. 0:19:52.080 --> 0:19:52.240 Now. 0:19:52.280 --> 0:19:57.640 I actually agree with that because one, Oh my god, 0:19:58.160 --> 0:20:01.280 I had a lot of weird experience with like male teachers. 0:20:01.320 --> 0:20:05.040 Actually yeah, Like I had a math teacher who he 0:20:05.200 --> 0:20:08.320 was like it was like airport syndrome where he wasn't hot, 0:20:08.359 --> 0:20:10.479 but like he's the hottest person at the school by 0:20:10.600 --> 0:20:13.600 proxy bike because he's you know, a man, and but 0:20:13.680 --> 0:20:16.800 it wasn't weird like that let me step away. But 0:20:16.920 --> 0:20:19.280 he would let me cheat on all my math tests. 0:20:19.320 --> 0:20:22.239 I'm so bad at maths, so like he would let 0:20:22.320 --> 0:20:26.560 me get away with things. But I remember, like the 0:20:26.640 --> 0:20:31.080 day before graduation, I'd like, maybe I was enabling this. 0:20:32.680 --> 0:20:34.120 You were a child. 0:20:34.320 --> 0:20:37.439 You were a child him on on a social media 0:20:38.520 --> 0:20:40.800 platform and he never followed me back. But I never 0:20:40.800 --> 0:20:42.959 said anything about it. But the day before graduation, I 0:20:43.000 --> 0:20:44.679 was like walking to my car and he was just like, 0:20:45.040 --> 0:20:49.399 after graduation, I can follow you back. The day oh shit, sorry, 0:20:49.440 --> 0:20:52.800 the day of graduation, after I walked that fucking stage, 0:20:53.080 --> 0:20:53.600 followed me. 0:20:54.480 --> 0:20:55.480 Oh my god. 0:20:55.760 --> 0:20:58.400 Then the best part is a couple of years ago, 0:20:58.440 --> 0:21:01.040 I made a joke on Twitter is going to do Yeah, 0:21:01.040 --> 0:21:03.639 I know he's going to chill. Actually I made a 0:21:03.720 --> 0:21:06.640 joke on Twitter where I was like, uh, the best 0:21:06.680 --> 0:21:08.439 thing about I don't remember what it was, but it 0:21:08.440 --> 0:21:10.120 was something along the lines like the best thing about 0:21:10.160 --> 0:21:12.560 Twitter is I mean not Twitter. The best thing about 0:21:12.560 --> 0:21:15.560 Tinder is that you could get free dinner or something 0:21:15.600 --> 0:21:18.920 of the sorts. And he d m me the tweet 0:21:19.359 --> 0:21:21.240 and was just like, I just don't find this really 0:21:21.280 --> 0:21:23.640 funny because like men, Like really. 0:21:24.600 --> 0:21:25.359 I thought he was going to. 0:21:28.320 --> 0:21:30.720 I just don't take this sea like he's still see 0:21:30.760 --> 0:21:31.720 even post high school. 0:21:31.760 --> 0:21:33.520 No, soully no. But it was like in a way 0:21:33.520 --> 0:21:36.680 where he's just like respect men, because I take I 0:21:36.760 --> 0:21:39.120 take this serious and like I go here to find 0:21:39.119 --> 0:21:40.679 people and like whatever. And I was like, listen, it 0:21:40.720 --> 0:21:43.480 was a joke. And then he responds he was like, 0:21:43.520 --> 0:21:48.360 but for the record, i'd swipe right, hello bro, why not. 0:21:49.400 --> 0:21:50.600 Like let me take you to dinner? 0:21:50.800 --> 0:21:52.959 I had that's how you like win, like let me 0:21:53.000 --> 0:21:54.639 take you, let me take you to dinner. 0:21:54.960 --> 0:21:58.760 That also doesn't sound right. I always to jail, but 0:21:58.880 --> 0:22:02.040 like but to like. 0:22:01.240 --> 0:22:04.119 Like drill you about your joke and then be like, 0:22:04.440 --> 0:22:05.440 but for the record. 0:22:05.200 --> 0:22:06.320 I would I'll take you. 0:22:06.680 --> 0:22:10.160 I would yeah do that. And I don't know where 0:22:10.160 --> 0:22:13.320 he's at today. He's in jail. We need to find 0:22:13.400 --> 0:22:14.479 he's in federal prison. 0:22:14.680 --> 0:22:17.840 We're going to find him on my Raya account one day. 0:22:18.080 --> 0:22:18.240 Ya. 0:22:18.600 --> 0:22:19.880 Yeah, I love playing, right. 0:22:19.960 --> 0:22:22.560 That's like the best game ever is like to get 0:22:22.560 --> 0:22:24.560 on my Raya account, lay in a circle and we 0:22:24.600 --> 0:22:26.479 all giggle about the people on Raya. 0:22:26.880 --> 0:22:30.720 Everybody everybody cheats these games, like these apps like a game. 0:22:30.760 --> 0:22:32.520 It's not a game, literally what that man was saying, 0:22:32.520 --> 0:22:32.960 and we're. 0:22:32.840 --> 0:22:35.719 Like yeah, and it is literally, like it's so funny, 0:22:35.760 --> 0:22:36.680 it's and like you. 0:22:36.640 --> 0:22:39.600 Know what, Actually, at that time, I had no money, 0:22:39.640 --> 0:22:42.200 So yeah, I was going on Tinder to get free. 0:22:43.440 --> 0:22:44.440 He was starving. 0:22:46.480 --> 0:22:50.760 You genuinely had you were like, because you had. 0:22:52.560 --> 0:22:55.080 I was still living in Georgia and my rent at 0:22:55.080 --> 0:22:57.160 the time was like I think, like three hundred dollars, 0:22:57.160 --> 0:22:59.360 but like all I was making at the time working 0:22:59.400 --> 0:23:01.760 at American was like three hundred dollars. 0:23:01.840 --> 0:23:03.080 I was going to say, we need to talk about 0:23:03.119 --> 0:23:03.480 that era. 0:23:04.200 --> 0:23:09.040 All of my money was going towards rent, and I 0:23:09.040 --> 0:23:11.000 didn't want to ask my parents for money because like 0:23:11.040 --> 0:23:13.600 they didn't have any fucking money to give me. So 0:23:14.280 --> 0:23:18.400 I went on Tinder and I that's such a way 0:23:18.440 --> 0:23:26.320 to say. I did actually tell a guy. 0:23:26.000 --> 0:23:28.760 It's your little doggy bottom. 0:23:29.119 --> 0:23:31.359 I did tell a guy. I was like, you know, 0:23:31.400 --> 0:23:32.960 like I am on this for dinner. And then he 0:23:33.160 --> 0:23:34.480 just like kind of laughed it off, and I like 0:23:34.560 --> 0:23:36.320 laughed it off and I didn't say anything, but because 0:23:36.359 --> 0:23:40.800 I was like being serious, I was I was starving. 0:23:40.880 --> 0:23:45.280 I was like please very or shaking getting ready because 0:23:45.280 --> 0:23:48.280 you had it had your like proper meal. 0:23:48.400 --> 0:23:50.520 I was broke and I lived with a roommate who 0:23:50.840 --> 0:23:51.760 was actually. 0:23:52.320 --> 0:23:54.000 Say I was going to say, if we can talk 0:23:54.040 --> 0:23:56.880 about that, we can tell we can talk about it literally, 0:23:57.080 --> 0:23:59.920 we won't mention names, but like you. 0:24:00.440 --> 0:24:04.840 Just literally fucking crazy I've ever heard, Like to preface 0:24:04.880 --> 0:24:09.439 the story, orian had like a nightmare fucking roommate and 0:24:09.480 --> 0:24:11.840 like I know what you think, like oh, like over dramatic, 0:24:12.000 --> 0:24:17.679 but like no, like y'all like literally psycho boots, like dangerous. 0:24:17.119 --> 0:24:20.040 Like the killer behavior, but like behavior. 0:24:20.119 --> 0:24:25.080 So I met this girl, Okay, I'm just like clearly, 0:24:25.920 --> 0:24:28.280 like I said, no moral compass because there were multiple 0:24:28.280 --> 0:24:30.879 reasons as to why I should not have moved in 0:24:30.920 --> 0:24:32.840 with her in the first place, and yet I still 0:24:32.880 --> 0:24:36.120 did it because I granted forgiveness. But I met her 0:24:36.200 --> 0:24:41.400 through an ex boyfriend he was dating or his roommate 0:24:41.480 --> 0:24:44.359 was dating her. Long story short, they broke up because 0:24:44.359 --> 0:24:46.879 she was lying about her age the whole time, Like 0:24:46.920 --> 0:24:48.840 he was like a grown man and she was lying 0:24:48.840 --> 0:24:52.160 about her age. He found out on Facebook because her 0:24:52.280 --> 0:24:55.600 dad posted like, well, no she I think like three 0:24:55.600 --> 0:24:58.960 months and she told him like I needed like tell you, like, 0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:01.679 I'm not twenty three, I'm actually eighteen. And he's like 0:25:01.720 --> 0:25:05.840 fucking shell shocked by that, and he's like, whoa. I 0:25:05.840 --> 0:25:07.919 think he was like twenty four at the time or something, 0:25:08.600 --> 0:25:10.840 and he was just like, Okay, this is really weird, 0:25:10.960 --> 0:25:15.960 but like I guess. And then they kept dating I think, 0:25:16.040 --> 0:25:17.680 like only for like a couple of weeks. And then 0:25:17.720 --> 0:25:22.400 her birthday rolls around and he sees on Facebook her 0:25:22.520 --> 0:25:26.240 dad post on her wall like happy sixteenth or happy 0:25:26.280 --> 0:25:29.239 seventeenth birthday or something like that, and he was like 0:25:30.320 --> 0:25:34.000 fucking like what And I was like, oh, but she 0:25:34.119 --> 0:25:34.600 was cool. 0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:37.720 She had to do. 0:25:37.840 --> 0:25:41.320 She was like so cool, and so eventually like that 0:25:41.480 --> 0:25:45.080 like I was no longer dating and that person. So 0:25:45.200 --> 0:25:46.639 I became friends with her, and it was this like 0:25:46.880 --> 0:25:49.600 strange way I felt like me becoming closer to her 0:25:49.680 --> 0:25:53.600 felt like I don't know. We both were dating roommates 0:25:53.640 --> 0:25:54.600 and they both broke up. 0:25:54.840 --> 0:25:57.280 Yeah, so it was almost like you guys won something 0:25:57.359 --> 0:25:57.760 in the end. 0:25:57.880 --> 0:25:58.560 Yeah exactly. 0:25:58.640 --> 0:26:02.240 It's a TV show the two husbands leaving their wives 0:26:02.320 --> 0:26:03.560 for you love. 0:26:04.560 --> 0:26:08.439 Yeah, I knowed it, yeah exactly. So it was like 0:26:08.520 --> 0:26:13.960 this gorgeous moment of this crazy person who I tried 0:26:14.000 --> 0:26:19.240 to look past their behaviors. And so she was at 0:26:19.240 --> 0:26:22.920 this time, like seventeen and I was like nineteen, and 0:26:23.440 --> 0:26:25.879 she told me. We like sat down for lunch a 0:26:25.960 --> 0:26:29.119 day and she's like, oh, can you my mom's coming, 0:26:29.200 --> 0:26:31.360 Like I got this guy to like get this lease 0:26:31.400 --> 0:26:34.439 on this house. Can you lied to my mom and 0:26:34.440 --> 0:26:35.919 say that you're moving in with me and that like 0:26:35.960 --> 0:26:38.439 you basically are on this lease. And I was like yeah, totally. 0:26:38.960 --> 0:26:40.159 So we go to this house to see it and 0:26:40.200 --> 0:26:42.600 it's this beautiful house and I'm like, oh my god, wait, 0:26:42.640 --> 0:26:44.600 actually can I live here? Like I'm not kidding, like, 0:26:44.640 --> 0:26:46.520 can I live here? She's like, yeah, you could take 0:26:46.560 --> 0:26:48.520 any room. You want three hundred dollars a month, Like 0:26:49.000 --> 0:26:49.840 that's whatever. 0:26:49.960 --> 0:26:50.800 Oh deal. 0:26:51.520 --> 0:26:55.920 As I'm moving in, it's my birthday. We're going out. 0:26:56.160 --> 0:26:58.240 I see this guy from across the room. I'm like 0:26:58.280 --> 0:27:00.520 in the most heartbroken state of my fucking life. I 0:27:00.680 --> 0:27:04.240 just like got over a devastating breakup and I see 0:27:04.240 --> 0:27:05.800 this guy who for the first time in a long 0:27:05.840 --> 0:27:08.000 time that was I ever tracked anyone else. And I 0:27:08.040 --> 0:27:10.480 was like this guy over here, and she's like, oh, 0:27:10.960 --> 0:27:12.600 I thought he was cute too, and like I wanted 0:27:12.600 --> 0:27:13.960 to get his number, and I was like, not on 0:27:13.960 --> 0:27:15.800 my fucking birthday, dude. But I'm also not going to 0:27:15.840 --> 0:27:18.720 have this conversation with anyone, like that's all yours. I 0:27:18.760 --> 0:27:20.879 don't care. And she's like, no, I don't want to. 0:27:21.000 --> 0:27:23.280 I don't want to. Long story short, I ended up 0:27:23.320 --> 0:27:26.240 seeing this guy. She I came home and I told 0:27:26.280 --> 0:27:27.400 her about it. I was like, you know that guy 0:27:27.440 --> 0:27:30.280 that we saw, I ran into him at a coffee 0:27:30.280 --> 0:27:33.320 shop and we're you know, we went on a date. 0:27:33.359 --> 0:27:35.800 She's like that's so great. I'm so happy for you. 0:27:35.840 --> 0:27:38.440 And like it was like this moment where I was like, Wow, 0:27:38.480 --> 0:27:41.920 this girl's like she's just as as I am. She's 0:27:42.320 --> 0:27:45.960 so sweet, so mind you, I wasn't fully moved in yet. 0:27:46.000 --> 0:27:48.720 I went to go stay at my mom's house and 0:27:48.920 --> 0:27:50.600 I wake up one morning and I had a miscall 0:27:50.680 --> 0:27:54.880 from her and I had a miscall from him. Wait 0:27:54.880 --> 0:27:59.280 did she go see him? At the time, her only 0:27:59.359 --> 0:28:01.639 like form of social media that she was really active 0:28:01.680 --> 0:28:03.879 on was Facebook, and same with him. He didn't like 0:28:03.920 --> 0:28:06.560 have an Instagram or anything. So my first instinct, I 0:28:06.600 --> 0:28:08.040 have a miss call on the both of them. This 0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:10.040 is really weird. And I think he texted me like 0:28:10.080 --> 0:28:12.600 we need to talk about something. I went on The 0:28:12.640 --> 0:28:14.000 first thing I did was go on Facebook and went 0:28:14.040 --> 0:28:16.760 on his Facebook, and we had, all of a sudden, 0:28:16.760 --> 0:28:19.040 one mutual friend and it was her and we had 0:28:19.040 --> 0:28:21.239 never had any mutual friends. And I was like, you 0:28:21.320 --> 0:28:23.120 don't even need to tell me what happened, Like I 0:28:23.160 --> 0:28:26.439 know what happened. Anyways, I give him a call and 0:28:26.440 --> 0:28:29.440 he's like, so she invited me over to y'all's house 0:28:30.359 --> 0:28:35.359 at the crib I was living. I invited or she 0:28:35.400 --> 0:28:37.840 invited me over and like and like he was like 0:28:37.880 --> 0:28:39.520 beating around the bush and I was like, okay, well 0:28:39.560 --> 0:28:41.400 did you guys have sex? Like all that's all I 0:28:41.400 --> 0:28:42.960 need to know. Because I hadn't even had sex with 0:28:43.040 --> 0:28:48.240 this guy yet, and she she got bones before you know, folly. 0:28:48.720 --> 0:28:51.280 We were seeing each other for like about a month, 0:28:51.480 --> 0:28:53.959 but we hadn't like, like I said, it was very 0:28:53.960 --> 0:28:56.000 sensitive time for me. I wasn't ready to be you know, 0:28:56.200 --> 0:29:02.080 respect promiscuous. And turns out as he was about to 0:29:02.120 --> 0:29:04.440 answer that, like there was like a prolonged silence and 0:29:04.440 --> 0:29:06.040 I was like, no, I just hung up the phone. 0:29:06.200 --> 0:29:08.600 I drove my ass to that house as fast as 0:29:08.600 --> 0:29:11.000 I could. I opened up the door. I hadn't spoken 0:29:11.000 --> 0:29:12.640 to her all day because she like knows that she 0:29:12.760 --> 0:29:15.080 did something wrong. And I busted the door open and 0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:17.800 I charged upstairs. I started like packing all my vinyls 0:29:17.840 --> 0:29:21.280 back into like the box, open the door. She's like, 0:29:21.320 --> 0:29:23.240 I'm so sorry, and I'm like. 0:29:23.320 --> 0:29:23.840 Why would you? 0:29:23.880 --> 0:29:25.960 And we're just like yelling at each other, and then 0:29:26.000 --> 0:29:29.280 she convinces me, and I don't know if it's so 0:29:29.360 --> 0:29:31.280 much convincing me, because like I knew deep down that 0:29:31.440 --> 0:29:33.840 like this wasn't the case, but like I just wanted 0:29:34.520 --> 0:29:35.600 to forgive. 0:29:35.240 --> 0:29:39.959 Her friend and you live with her, and it's like 0:29:40.200 --> 0:29:42.120 way easier to just be like whatever. 0:29:42.000 --> 0:29:45.200 And she basically was the story being like he's doing 0:29:45.240 --> 0:29:46.800 this to us. Look at what he did to us, 0:29:46.840 --> 0:29:50.440 Like he's playing the both of us, Like this man 0:29:50.560 --> 0:29:53.160 is like terrorizing her lives. So I was like, okay, word. 0:29:53.200 --> 0:29:56.280 So I ended up moving and that was where it 0:29:56.320 --> 0:29:58.720 all goes downhill. And I don't know how I didn't. 0:29:58.400 --> 0:29:59.760 Know that happened. 0:29:59.840 --> 0:30:02.600 But before you moved, Yeah, I thought that you were 0:30:02.600 --> 0:30:06.200 already living there when that happened before I moved in. 0:30:06.720 --> 0:30:08.440 Oh my god, the last thing you moved in was 0:30:08.480 --> 0:30:09.440 your vinyls. 0:30:09.720 --> 0:30:09.920 Yeah. 0:30:10.000 --> 0:30:14.960 Girl, she was working as American Apparel and she was 0:30:15.000 --> 0:30:19.160 famous on Tumblin all of yours and she was the 0:30:19.320 --> 0:30:20.240 Tumblr girl. 0:30:21.440 --> 0:30:23.720 I am so jealous of the fact that you worked 0:30:23.720 --> 0:30:24.600 at American Apparel. 0:30:24.760 --> 0:30:27.920 That is so sick. Such a lit like I mean, 0:30:27.920 --> 0:30:29.240 it was awful, but like it's. 0:30:29.400 --> 0:30:33.479 Orally amazing, but like was it though? Like actually were you? 0:30:33.720 --> 0:30:36.240 Were you a good worker a bad work both? 0:30:37.280 --> 0:30:40.320 I was just saying, I mean to it, but let 0:30:40.400 --> 0:30:44.120 me finish a swimming story really quick. No, she's I'm 0:30:44.120 --> 0:30:46.360 trying to make this as short as possible, Like I am. Also, 0:30:46.400 --> 0:30:48.400 I heard that you said that I was a scorpio, 0:30:48.640 --> 0:30:49.600 which is blasting. 0:30:49.720 --> 0:30:51.600 I know, I know, but see how I corrected myself 0:30:51.600 --> 0:30:55.600 immediately I used virgo. No, yeah, because after I go, oh, 0:30:55.600 --> 0:30:57.600 my fucking god, she's a virgo. She's gonna be so mad. 0:30:57.800 --> 0:31:01.320 No, here's I. Yeah, that's trifling and that's blasphemous. 0:31:01.440 --> 0:31:04.000 And why would you do. 0:31:04.120 --> 0:31:05.200 Think if someone I had sex with. 0:31:05.240 --> 0:31:06.400 I was like, oh, I want to have sex with 0:31:06.400 --> 0:31:07.880 the ride, and I was like, I. 0:31:07.920 --> 0:31:13.960 Thought that the stars are pitting these two beautiful women 0:31:13.960 --> 0:31:16.880 against each other right now, like they're doing something demonic. 0:31:17.360 --> 0:31:19.880 Yeah, it will. 0:31:19.760 --> 0:31:22.640 Happen, it'll happen. Anyways, I have the ability to turn 0:31:22.680 --> 0:31:24.320 like the shortest story in the world into a fucking 0:31:24.400 --> 0:31:31.360 again dissertation. Because you're right, She like, I didn't have 0:31:31.400 --> 0:31:33.720 any friends period, so I was kind of her only friend. 0:31:33.720 --> 0:31:35.720 But I had other friends, so I would start hanging 0:31:35.720 --> 0:31:37.680 out with other people and she would get really upset 0:31:37.760 --> 0:31:39.880 and like text me and be like why didn't you 0:31:39.960 --> 0:31:41.680 invite me? Or like why aren't you Oh. 0:31:41.600 --> 0:31:43.040 My god, she's literally the killing. 0:31:42.920 --> 0:31:45.560 And like just became like really angry anytime I wouldn't 0:31:45.640 --> 0:31:47.760 involve her in things. So keep in mind, this is 0:31:47.800 --> 0:31:51.720 when we start going on this tour and I'm out 0:31:51.760 --> 0:31:55.280 of town. And she also she was just filthy. She 0:31:55.400 --> 0:31:57.960 let her dogs ship all over the house. She would 0:31:58.040 --> 0:31:59.560 leave like cereal bulls filled. 0:32:00.160 --> 0:32:00.600 This is mad. 0:32:01.720 --> 0:32:03.480 This is me talking about Josh. 0:32:03.520 --> 0:32:05.920 It was humiliating. They invite someone over and there's dog 0:32:06.000 --> 0:32:08.080 shit on the floor and like a ferret running loose 0:32:08.240 --> 0:32:11.560 like and that fucking ferret would slip under my door 0:32:11.680 --> 0:32:13.480 in the middle of the night, like it didn't have 0:32:13.520 --> 0:32:13.960 a cage. 0:32:14.200 --> 0:32:17.880 Jills really staying. 0:32:17.800 --> 0:32:20.160 And she told me. I was like, I will move 0:32:20.200 --> 0:32:22.680 in if I could bring my cats, and she was 0:32:22.720 --> 0:32:24.480 like no, no, she was like, no, that's perfect, that's 0:32:24.480 --> 0:32:26.480 totally fine. I couldn't bring my cats. All of a sudden, 0:32:26.520 --> 0:32:29.160 she's allergic to cats, and I have to keep my 0:32:29.240 --> 0:32:32.120 cats in my room with the litteral like everything. All 0:32:32.160 --> 0:32:35.240 my cats are being locked in the room. A week later, 0:32:35.520 --> 0:32:39.160 her mother gives her mother like three cats that she 0:32:39.200 --> 0:32:41.880 found off the street, and so we have three other cats. 0:32:41.920 --> 0:32:44.560 Like it was I was living in a horderhouse. It 0:32:44.640 --> 0:32:49.240 was insane. And anyways, we go on tour and this 0:32:49.320 --> 0:32:51.760 other roommate comes in and he moves in. They get 0:32:51.800 --> 0:32:53.800 really close, and I was like, you know what, fine, Like, 0:32:53.840 --> 0:32:55.640 thank god, like she's kind of off my back and 0:32:55.680 --> 0:32:58.080 like with this guy, and then I'm like, he's gonna 0:32:58.080 --> 0:33:00.000 come around, though he's gonna I started seeing her crazy. 0:33:00.040 --> 0:33:01.479 I'm like, he's going to come around and see it, 0:33:02.120 --> 0:33:05.600 and she, Oh my god. So many moments when we 0:33:05.640 --> 0:33:09.200 went out of town. I forget really what was the 0:33:09.240 --> 0:33:12.840 like like the kicker of what it all? But she 0:33:12.920 --> 0:33:15.680 would just to name a few, She'd broke into my 0:33:15.760 --> 0:33:17.320 room because I had a dead bowl on my door. 0:33:17.640 --> 0:33:19.680 She broke in my room, stole my lingerie. 0:33:20.360 --> 0:33:22.040 That's my favorite. 0:33:22.240 --> 0:33:23.240 And like being. 0:33:23.080 --> 0:33:25.360 Dound so bad that you don't have time to go 0:33:25.480 --> 0:33:27.880 just pick some shit up from Goodwill, you're busting open 0:33:27.920 --> 0:33:28.720 this girl's door. 0:33:28.840 --> 0:33:30.560 The worst thing about it is I found out about 0:33:30.560 --> 0:33:33.040 the launderie because once she posted Instagram photos of her 0:33:33.080 --> 0:33:37.080 wearing my entree, like I followed, you dude, like literally 0:33:37.240 --> 0:33:41.280 mean safe. And two I came home and she, like 0:33:41.320 --> 0:33:45.240 I said, very filthy, would leave like dirty clothes on 0:33:45.280 --> 0:33:47.800 the bathroom floor and I'm just like using the bathroom 0:33:47.840 --> 0:33:51.400 and I'm like looking and I'm like, my panties are 0:33:51.400 --> 0:33:54.280 soiled on the ground right now, Like what. 0:33:55.040 --> 0:33:59.719 Like I hadn't You're just lying? 0:33:57.160 --> 0:34:02.400 You The thing is I hadn't. It was like nice laudree, 0:34:02.440 --> 0:34:04.680 like I had no business wearing lingerie in this like 0:34:04.840 --> 0:34:08.360 moment in time. And she was just like denied every 0:34:08.440 --> 0:34:10.560 part of it, like fully denied. 0:34:10.640 --> 0:34:14.120 And then honestly, there's something so awesome about somebody living 0:34:14.200 --> 0:34:16.600 like that, because how. 0:34:16.640 --> 0:34:19.120 Like at one nile she was like, I didn't know 0:34:19.160 --> 0:34:21.760 these were yours? They weren't. They were in my drawer. 0:34:22.160 --> 0:34:23.759 Yeah, in the room that you broke it. 0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:30.560 Down, I literally broke into God what else? She The 0:34:30.640 --> 0:34:34.080 day that I moved out, I went on I went 0:34:34.120 --> 0:34:36.040 on a live stream to talk about her, but I 0:34:36.200 --> 0:34:38.200 never said her name, and no one knew who I 0:34:38.280 --> 0:34:41.319 was living with, and like no one was really on 0:34:41.360 --> 0:34:43.520 this live stream, but she was clocked in. I don't 0:34:43.520 --> 0:34:45.200 know how the fuck she was clocked. 0:34:44.880 --> 0:34:48.040 In, but back like did she's literally the killer keep going. 0:34:47.920 --> 0:34:50.480 Up and no, you're fine, and she I had a 0:34:50.480 --> 0:34:52.880 friend over and Katie and I are in the room, 0:34:53.040 --> 0:34:55.440 like and I just hear the front door open and 0:34:55.480 --> 0:34:57.760 then the front door slam, and I hear her barging 0:34:57.840 --> 0:34:59.400 up the stairs, and I look at Katie and I'm like, 0:35:00.040 --> 0:35:01.520 this isn't good because I have no idea what she's 0:35:01.520 --> 0:35:03.359 about to yell let me about and she she does 0:35:03.400 --> 0:35:06.279 like she's like cointisential white woman where they when they 0:35:06.280 --> 0:35:08.680 get mad, they go can I talk to you for 0:35:08.719 --> 0:35:11.560 a second? Pa set outside, like can you open the door, 0:35:11.600 --> 0:35:16.080 like I just want to talk to you and that no, no, no, 0:35:16.120 --> 0:35:20.040 I've been off and she basically opened the door and 0:35:20.160 --> 0:35:22.360 was like, why are you online saying that I'm moral worson? 0:35:22.400 --> 0:35:23.919 And I'm like I just like had to like laugh 0:35:23.920 --> 0:35:26.200 in her face, like like I maybe under it was 0:35:26.480 --> 0:35:29.320 that situations where I'm in arguing with I'm arguing with people, 0:35:29.360 --> 0:35:31.279 I like have to laugh because it is because it's 0:35:33.760 --> 0:35:35.920 and I'm like, listen, I never said your name, I 0:35:35.920 --> 0:35:38.640 never said anything bad about I'm only like telling the truth. 0:35:40.680 --> 0:35:43.320 I said something. Really, her mom was behind her the 0:35:43.360 --> 0:35:45.279 whole time. Actually, I forgot to mention the fact that 0:35:45.280 --> 0:35:48.920 her mom was behind her. And I was being really 0:35:48.960 --> 0:35:51.640 respectful because her mom was behind her. But it wasn't 0:35:51.719 --> 0:35:54.319 until her mother said something and her mom was like, well, 0:35:54.320 --> 0:35:56.080 maybe if you learned how to pay rent all time, 0:35:56.160 --> 0:35:59.320 you wouldn't be getting kicked out. And I was like, oh, 0:35:59.719 --> 0:36:03.799 so this is the lie. Oh she's telling people that 0:36:03.920 --> 0:36:06.560 I wasn't paying rent, so therefore I'm getting kicked out 0:36:07.520 --> 0:36:11.960 and I did something really horrible and I said something 0:36:12.000 --> 0:36:15.080 about her life that her mother does not know about, 0:36:16.480 --> 0:36:18.000 you know what. And actually I don't feel bad for 0:36:18.040 --> 0:36:22.000 this because she she literally cares again. I just said, well, 0:36:22.239 --> 0:36:24.080 how about you ask your daughter how she makes her 0:36:24.080 --> 0:36:26.880 rent money? And then I didn't say what it was. 0:36:27.000 --> 0:36:28.759 I just said, just ask her about it, and she 0:36:29.080 --> 0:36:33.279 fucking god damn it O'Ryan slams the door in my 0:36:33.360 --> 0:36:36.680 face and then Katie, Katie's filming this whole thing, also 0:36:36.760 --> 0:36:40.080 like laughing, and I'm like, what is and She's like, 0:36:40.840 --> 0:36:42.799 that night, I just packed up everything and I left. 0:36:42.800 --> 0:36:44.000 That literally would have. 0:36:44.000 --> 0:36:45.200 Fucking stabbed you in sep. 0:36:45.280 --> 0:36:47.160 And another reason why I don't feel bad for saying 0:36:47.200 --> 0:36:49.080 this because a year later she texted me and was like, 0:36:49.160 --> 0:36:50.759 I just wanted to reach out and apologize to you 0:36:50.800 --> 0:36:53.600 for everything I did. So I wasn't technically the bad 0:36:53.600 --> 0:36:53.920 guy for. 0:36:53.840 --> 0:36:57.160 Saying anything money is going on. 0:36:57.760 --> 0:37:02.279 She also was didn't have a study job, and so 0:37:02.400 --> 0:37:04.600 she was pocketing my rent money. She was pocketing my 0:37:04.680 --> 0:37:08.319 roommates rent money, and then was like asking us for 0:37:08.360 --> 0:37:11.360 more money being like, oh, we actually need like money 0:37:11.360 --> 0:37:12.360 for the security deposit. 0:37:12.440 --> 0:37:12.680 Babe. 0:37:12.760 --> 0:37:14.239 We've been in this house for six months. What do 0:37:14.280 --> 0:37:16.520 you mean we need the security right now? 0:37:16.600 --> 0:37:19.880 Crazy, It's like, hey, the security deposit fell through, so 0:37:20.000 --> 0:37:20.719 we like need more. 0:37:21.160 --> 0:37:23.320 And no, it was just to make sure it was absurd. 0:37:23.400 --> 0:37:25.640 Oh and one time when I was out of town 0:37:25.920 --> 0:37:29.800 on a press play, it was Halloween, she threw a 0:37:29.840 --> 0:37:33.160 Halloween party at her house and she invited over my 0:37:33.280 --> 0:37:36.000 ex boyfriend, who I was so devastated over, who she 0:37:36.080 --> 0:37:39.479 knew I was devastated over, and he came probably thinking, 0:37:39.520 --> 0:37:41.520 I mean for the hopes. I'm hoping that he thought 0:37:41.560 --> 0:37:44.680 that I would be there, but he went to our house. 0:37:45.280 --> 0:37:47.120 And oh, also the guy that she ended up having 0:37:47.200 --> 0:37:50.839 sex with, who I was seeing before, she told him 0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:53.400 to not be with me or to not date me 0:37:53.480 --> 0:37:56.640 because I'm like, I'm so emotionally unavailable, which like she 0:37:56.719 --> 0:37:57.719 might have been right about that. 0:37:58.040 --> 0:38:00.239 But also, y'all have known each other for like, yeah, 0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:00.840 two days. 0:38:01.160 --> 0:38:06.719 Yeah, it was also she literally went after somebody who 0:38:06.800 --> 0:38:09.760 you were actively seeing, Like that is so insane. 0:38:09.920 --> 0:38:10.680 She's a marvel. 0:38:10.760 --> 0:38:12.640 No, I'm I'm like, it's. 0:38:12.480 --> 0:38:16.600 Literally like brave people who live that lifestyle and genuinely 0:38:16.640 --> 0:38:19.880 can do it fearlessly, are genuinely soldiers. 0:38:20.040 --> 0:38:24.360 So I have the utmost respect for her in the 0:38:24.480 --> 0:38:27.680 craziest way because she has managed to live her life 0:38:27.680 --> 0:38:30.759 this way and like even like I moved to LA 0:38:30.920 --> 0:38:33.120 and a year and a half into moving, I get 0:38:33.120 --> 0:38:35.440 an email from someone who's living with her at the 0:38:35.480 --> 0:38:39.120 time being like, I live with blank and I need pointers. 0:38:39.560 --> 0:38:41.759 She told me all this about you. I believed it. 0:38:41.880 --> 0:38:43.799 Now she's doing the same shit to me and she's 0:38:43.840 --> 0:38:47.360 taking me to court like blah blah blah. So taking 0:38:47.440 --> 0:38:49.880 me to like she like needed a witness, and I'm like, babe, 0:38:50.040 --> 0:38:53.640 I'm so sorry you're going through this, but I'm not 0:38:54.120 --> 0:38:57.600 evolving myself with this. Yeah, she was a piece, but 0:38:57.719 --> 0:39:00.960 I respect it because at the end of the day, 0:39:01.000 --> 0:39:05.600 she ended up getting everything, living life and in her 0:39:05.680 --> 0:39:08.200 own way she is she has a girl boss. 0:39:08.280 --> 0:39:09.400 Yeah, so insane. 0:39:09.600 --> 0:39:14.360 Like I also, since we've lived together and with Josh, 0:39:14.680 --> 0:39:17.800 it's crazy. I'm never gonna have a crazy roommate story 0:39:18.040 --> 0:39:19.600 because oh that can. 0:39:19.560 --> 0:39:22.239 Change, like that that will change. 0:39:22.520 --> 0:39:24.080 Oh, you know what, It's funny that I said that 0:39:24.080 --> 0:39:24.839 behind your back. 0:39:24.880 --> 0:39:28.319 I'm always like, I'm like my fucking roommate. Actually, it's 0:39:28.360 --> 0:39:30.320 not really wrong to call you my roommate. 0:39:30.920 --> 0:39:33.759 But it doesn't feel when people are like my life 0:39:33.840 --> 0:39:34.759 partner that I live with. 0:39:34.920 --> 0:39:37.959 No, I literally say I live with my friends. That's 0:39:38.000 --> 0:39:38.960 I can't say roommate. 0:39:39.000 --> 0:39:43.880 It's disrespectful roommate, and then immediately go it's he's my 0:39:43.960 --> 0:39:46.640 best friend, but we live together my room. 0:39:46.760 --> 0:39:50.040 That herd you found on your floor like two or 0:39:50.040 --> 0:39:53.040 three days ago, and we thought it was Les, Yeah, 0:39:53.080 --> 0:39:54.720 it was actually me shitting on your floor. 0:39:54.880 --> 0:39:56.920 Oh why would you and you let me clean it? 0:39:56.960 --> 0:39:59.239 You watched me clean your ship, Yeah, because I was 0:39:59.719 --> 0:40:00.920 do for you to do that. 0:40:01.040 --> 0:40:02.719 I just you didn't do anything. I just like get 0:40:02.719 --> 0:40:04.799 off on that. Like it's just like this thing. 0:40:05.080 --> 0:40:06.120 She has this thing. 0:40:06.360 --> 0:40:09.480 Yeah, yeah, he's so awesome. 0:40:09.480 --> 0:40:10.080 He's perfect. 0:40:10.080 --> 0:40:12.680 But there's one thing. There's this one he loves sitting 0:40:12.719 --> 0:40:15.520 on the floor watching ship. It's really trying. 0:40:15.520 --> 0:40:16.839 I don't think I told you that. I woke up 0:40:16.840 --> 0:40:19.120 and Aol had pooped on my floor because the turd 0:40:19.160 --> 0:40:20.960 got stuck to her butt, and I think before she 0:40:21.000 --> 0:40:22.600 got on the bed, she like shook it off and 0:40:22.640 --> 0:40:24.880 then jumped on my bed, slept right next to my 0:40:24.920 --> 0:40:27.400 fucking head, and I had taken a bunch of night 0:40:27.480 --> 0:40:30.680 quill because I was like, I've been super sick and congested, 0:40:31.040 --> 0:40:33.759 so I went to go get off my bed and 0:40:33.920 --> 0:40:36.640 I wear slippers in the house, Thank fucking God, because 0:40:36.640 --> 0:40:39.360 I stepped on the show. And then the next morning, 0:40:39.400 --> 0:40:41.520 because I'm so congested, I didn't smell it and you 0:40:41.560 --> 0:40:43.120 were was like, oh, it stinks in here, and I was. 0:40:43.040 --> 0:40:45.080 Like, does it though, because I. 0:40:45.160 --> 0:40:49.200 Was selling anything. It's like immune to the smell of 0:40:49.239 --> 0:40:52.560 the litter up this way makes me sleep on the 0:40:52.600 --> 0:40:54.520 other side of the bed closest to the litter and 0:40:54.560 --> 0:40:57.000 I have to like sleep like that when. 0:40:56.880 --> 0:40:59.920 You sleep in INA's room, like Azul for some reason 0:41:00.160 --> 0:41:02.840 takes the loudest, stinkiest, grossest ship. 0:41:04.160 --> 0:41:05.040 Someone else is in the room. 0:41:05.040 --> 0:41:07.560 Because when Sabrina was staying here, it was the first 0:41:07.680 --> 0:41:10.840 night I walked to go shower and Sabrina started freaking 0:41:10.840 --> 0:41:12.680 out because it started to smell so bad in my 0:41:12.719 --> 0:41:13.640 room because his little. 0:41:13.520 --> 0:41:16.279 Just immediately the second I left the room ran into 0:41:16.320 --> 0:41:16.839 the litter box. 0:41:16.840 --> 0:41:18.200 It took a big ship. Panic. 0:41:18.320 --> 0:41:18.520 Yeah. 0:41:18.880 --> 0:41:21.720 Literally, he's learning some traits from Drew exactly. 0:41:21.760 --> 0:41:22.839 He watches his dad. 0:41:22.960 --> 0:41:25.200 He gets some anxiety and he has to like let 0:41:25.239 --> 0:41:29.240 it out. How about this, well, she has scarlet fever. 0:41:29.440 --> 0:41:34.480 Yeah, I literally have a scarlet fever golf Sorry sorry, sorry, sorry, 0:41:34.680 --> 0:41:37.440 right sorry. Thing like that is so embarrassing. 0:41:37.480 --> 0:41:38.680 It's really humiliating. 0:41:40.640 --> 0:41:44.800 What else you got, right, not much? You got something 0:41:44.840 --> 0:41:45.640 special working. 0:41:46.840 --> 0:41:49.359 The devil loves idle hands. That's why I'm here. 0:41:49.760 --> 0:41:54.200 Guys Orian has like something seriously wrong with her and 0:41:54.280 --> 0:41:57.280 like she found out about it, like was it yesterday? 0:41:57.560 --> 0:42:00.000 Found out about it yesterday? Yeah, And I'm self like. 0:42:00.120 --> 0:42:02.080 Sing, by the way, it's really sad. 0:42:02.320 --> 0:42:06.920 It's major. I think I'm dyslexic. I'm so serious. I 0:42:06.960 --> 0:42:09.759 found out that I have been paying taxes to the 0:42:09.840 --> 0:42:12.800 wrong under the wrong social Security number. 0:42:13.000 --> 0:42:15.960 It's funny because you've definitely you're committing fraud and you're 0:42:16.000 --> 0:42:17.440 just trying to like cover it up with. 0:42:17.440 --> 0:42:21.680 The you know, like I might be in federal prison 0:42:21.760 --> 0:42:25.040 next Like no one's talking about that I go to 0:42:25.040 --> 0:42:25.960 prison because then I. 0:42:25.960 --> 0:42:26.720 Have to go to prison. 0:42:27.480 --> 0:42:29.120 Hang out federal prison. 0:42:29.920 --> 0:42:33.360 Yeah, well, okay, I switched up two numbers on accident, 0:42:34.080 --> 0:42:36.799 and I'm working on it. But then I was like, 0:42:36.920 --> 0:42:39.480 this is a serious problem because I was so convinced 0:42:39.520 --> 0:42:41.840 that that was you know, my social Security number? 0:42:42.200 --> 0:42:45.000 Is it? Like you just remembered it wrong and you would. 0:42:44.800 --> 0:42:47.160 Yeah, what is your social Security number? Can you say 0:42:47.160 --> 0:42:47.640 it out loud? 0:42:48.080 --> 0:42:50.200 Should I the SA space? 0:42:50.360 --> 0:42:50.600 Space? 0:42:50.680 --> 0:42:50.919 Okay? 0:42:50.920 --> 0:42:57.440 Cool? Anyway, I it was just I was doing it 0:42:57.520 --> 0:43:00.000 right for years. I think it started in twenty twenty 0:43:00.160 --> 0:43:01.799 is when I checked my W two and it was 0:43:01.800 --> 0:43:04.120 like things were swapped and I'm like, oh fuck. And 0:43:04.160 --> 0:43:09.719 also I just like, I have a hard time phonetically sometimes. 0:43:09.560 --> 0:43:12.160 And so all the best writers in the world are dyslexic. 0:43:12.239 --> 0:43:16.279 Well of Scott Fitzgerald and Yates, you know they're dyslexic. 0:43:16.400 --> 0:43:17.719 So you're basically that. 0:43:17.719 --> 0:43:20.799 That was the first thing I looked at after taking this. 0:43:21.239 --> 0:43:24.680 We'll answer the screenshot after I took. 0:43:24.600 --> 0:43:27.040 My dyslexia test online, which I think I need to 0:43:27.040 --> 0:43:29.719 get tested in person because I don't know. You and 0:43:29.800 --> 0:43:30.920 jew should go together. 0:43:31.600 --> 0:43:32.960 That's what I said. I was like, we need to 0:43:32.960 --> 0:43:33.920 go do that together. 0:43:34.239 --> 0:43:38.439 And then I looked up writers with dyslexia, and then 0:43:39.520 --> 0:43:43.520 you know, up became a bunch of ours and my 0:43:43.600 --> 0:43:46.279 name is and it's like they are the most brilliant 0:43:46.600 --> 0:43:49.560 writers of all time. They can craft a story better 0:43:49.600 --> 0:43:52.279 than anyone who doesn't have dyslexia. So even if I 0:43:52.360 --> 0:43:57.640 don't have dyslexia, I'm going to lie and right exactly. 0:43:58.960 --> 0:44:01.279 Yeah, me and a Ryan are going on a slacation 0:44:01.520 --> 0:44:03.680 together and it's going to be awesome. 0:44:03.880 --> 0:44:04.680 It's gonna be awesome. 0:44:05.360 --> 0:44:07.720 The girls are going to be scissoring on the beach. 0:44:08.080 --> 0:44:10.800 Yeah, We're going to be tripping and scissoring on the beach. 0:44:12.920 --> 0:44:16.319 Beautiful scissoring on the beach. Weird but beautiful is that 0:44:16.400 --> 0:44:24.200 the album Snow on the Beach Taylor Swift, it's actually 0:44:24.440 --> 0:44:27.200 oh yeah that on your Riot as your song. 0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:32.719 Yeah, that is. 0:44:30.680 --> 0:44:34.560 Also I told them and Indya and everybody in my 0:44:34.640 --> 0:44:36.560 life about this. But I don't know if you know 0:44:36.600 --> 0:44:39.359 about this. But like around the same time we first met, 0:44:39.400 --> 0:44:40.319 Taylor Swift wrote a. 0:44:40.320 --> 0:44:44.400 Song about me. Oh really, Yeah, Drew looks at me, smiles. 0:44:44.440 --> 0:44:45.879 It's just like unreleased. 0:44:47.200 --> 0:44:49.840 She actually does say, Drew literally. 0:44:50.000 --> 0:44:54.280 Looks at me, big mouse. 0:44:54.640 --> 0:44:57.360 He see that was me at the party when you 0:44:57.400 --> 0:45:02.640 woke exactly. It. Actually, Taylor Swift notoriously write songs about, 0:45:02.880 --> 0:45:08.359 you know, other couples, Jack Antonofflena Dunham. We did sign 0:45:08.360 --> 0:45:11.479 an Nda, but like I think I think it's fire now. Yeah, 0:45:11.520 --> 0:45:14.479 I will say I told her all about that night 0:45:14.719 --> 0:45:19.759 and you're a legend because of it. Wow, yeah, okay, fine, Yeah, 0:45:20.360 --> 0:45:24.680 oh my god, she wrote like love story about us. 0:45:24.719 --> 0:45:26.560 You know what I should give you is the. 0:45:26.680 --> 0:45:29.440 Letter I wrote to you in twenty twenty for your birthday, 0:45:29.760 --> 0:45:30.520 because it's in my. 0:45:30.560 --> 0:45:32.680 Room right now because I don't know. 0:45:32.640 --> 0:45:36.040 Right now because it's I like read through it, and 0:45:36.080 --> 0:45:38.480 it was it was before, right before we cracked the 0:45:38.480 --> 0:45:42.800 code of being really intimate. Yeah, because we were closer 0:45:42.840 --> 0:45:44.800 in COVID, but I feel like the end of twenty 0:45:45.000 --> 0:45:47.840 by the end of twenty twenty, we were like inseparable. 0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:50.120 Yeah, oh totally. Because it was for. 0:45:50.080 --> 0:45:53.200 Your birthday twenty twenty that I wrote this and I 0:45:53.200 --> 0:45:54.680 still didn't know how to write. 0:45:54.480 --> 0:45:57.040 Something out to you and be like emotional and be serious. 0:45:57.640 --> 0:45:59.160 But I bought that for you, and I have the 0:45:59.200 --> 0:46:02.240 Florence Final because I got you the Florence. 0:46:01.840 --> 0:46:02.359 Final on that. 0:46:02.560 --> 0:46:04.360 But then I never gave it to you because I 0:46:04.360 --> 0:46:06.200 think I got embarrassed because I read the letter. I 0:46:06.239 --> 0:46:09.479 was like, it's like I'm like not being fully real here, 0:46:09.600 --> 0:46:12.160 like it's I'm still like have all my shame on 0:46:12.200 --> 0:46:14.680 my morality scale that I can't move fast, Like, no, 0:46:14.760 --> 0:46:15.239 it's so bad. 0:46:15.239 --> 0:46:17.239 I feel like anytime we've written each other letter, it's 0:46:17.239 --> 0:46:19.640 like it just ends in crying, like last last this 0:46:19.719 --> 0:46:22.280 year on your birthday, that was major. 0:46:22.760 --> 0:46:24.920 Yeah, and then Drew watches in the corner. 0:46:25.040 --> 0:46:27.480 Yeah, then I'm just here watching. 0:46:28.000 --> 0:46:29.840 I actually tell Drew first what I'm going to get you, 0:46:29.880 --> 0:46:32.799 and then Drew's like, oh, she's gonna cry, and then 0:46:32.840 --> 0:46:34.280 she cried, and she cries. 0:46:34.360 --> 0:46:35.399 I am also a cry baby. 0:46:36.960 --> 0:46:40.520 Babies, if you sit us down in a table with 0:46:40.600 --> 0:46:49.399 two glasses of wine and the topic of death, it's. 0:46:47.040 --> 0:46:49.040 Just sit y'all down at the table with two glasses 0:46:49.080 --> 0:46:50.960 of wines, and y'all will tell the same story y'all 0:46:51.000 --> 0:46:53.919 have told for the past six years to each other 0:46:54.040 --> 0:46:55.080 and love and eat it. 0:46:55.080 --> 0:46:58.800 Up every time, and like it's usually like the same 0:46:58.920 --> 0:47:01.640 stories that we still need to rehash because it's like 0:47:01.640 --> 0:47:02.880 I'm not done. 0:47:02.960 --> 0:47:05.760 It can never end. It's like I can dig through 0:47:06.120 --> 0:47:09.240 the same story. There's so many words in the story. 0:47:09.280 --> 0:47:10.800 We just have to get to the psycho. 0:47:13.719 --> 0:47:19.400 Recently it has been about like youth and it's been bad, 0:47:19.920 --> 0:47:23.560 Like we went to the chateau and we had a 0:47:23.560 --> 0:47:26.960 couple of drinks and on the Uber ride home we 0:47:26.960 --> 0:47:27.560 were his. 0:47:29.800 --> 0:47:31.759 Like, actually, I have the I think I have a 0:47:31.760 --> 0:47:33.720 picture I never. 0:47:33.600 --> 0:47:36.440 Be young again, and like it wasn't even will never 0:47:36.480 --> 0:47:36.680 be the. 0:47:36.960 --> 0:47:40.080 It was like it was it it started to stem off. 0:47:40.080 --> 0:47:43.320 We were talking about how scary it is to think 0:47:43.440 --> 0:47:45.680 that we are so comfortable in the life we have 0:47:45.800 --> 0:47:48.520 now and it feels so good, like the mundane we 0:47:48.600 --> 0:47:51.640 have now feel so good. Even though sometimes it's tiring, 0:47:52.120 --> 0:47:54.840 it feels so good. And I think what started to 0:47:54.920 --> 0:47:57.279 trigger it is we were sitting in the car and 0:47:57.440 --> 0:47:59.120 I was just thinking of all the times we've been 0:47:59.200 --> 0:48:01.680 leaving the chateau and going back to like this apartment 0:48:02.080 --> 0:48:05.120 to like sleep together. And that started freaking me out 0:48:05.160 --> 0:48:06.360 because I was like, dude, one. 0:48:06.239 --> 0:48:09.880 Day we won't live here. Yeah, so and it was 0:48:09.960 --> 0:48:13.680 I remember, really, this has kind of just been like 0:48:13.719 --> 0:48:16.600 on my mind lately. It's I'm not so much like 0:48:16.760 --> 0:48:19.879 worried or afraid of aging like I think, obviously it's 0:48:19.880 --> 0:48:22.640 like a privilege to age, and I'm really excited to 0:48:22.640 --> 0:48:24.320 see what that looks like for myself. 0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:27.239 But you're literally going to be so I know you're 0:48:27.239 --> 0:48:29.719 going to be the sexiest lady ever, I hope. So 0:48:29.800 --> 0:48:31.480 it's going to be really bad because I'm going to 0:48:31.560 --> 0:48:32.960 like be like, fuck, I can't have sex with her. 0:48:33.239 --> 0:48:34.839 You can't, she can't. 0:48:35.320 --> 0:48:37.399 Maybe when we're like older, we'll just like have sex again. 0:48:37.560 --> 0:48:38.799 No, that's literally what I think. 0:48:38.840 --> 0:48:41.239 I'm just like, someone's gonna have to have sex with 0:48:41.320 --> 0:48:42.960 each other in this group and ruin it and it 0:48:43.040 --> 0:48:44.240 might as well be y'all. 0:48:44.120 --> 0:48:46.200 It's I think we could at this probably live. 0:48:46.440 --> 0:48:48.239 I think we could live past. Like if it's going 0:48:48.320 --> 0:48:51.200 to be anyone, it'll probably make me who does it anyways, 0:48:51.200 --> 0:48:54.160 But I feel I think I just have this like 0:48:54.280 --> 0:48:58.080 vision of I've had this face for as long as 0:48:58.080 --> 0:49:01.000 I can remember, even like as a child, Like I 0:49:01.040 --> 0:49:03.400 don't know, like I've always I'm used to looking at 0:49:03.400 --> 0:49:06.280 this face. Yeah, and at one point in my life 0:49:06.360 --> 0:49:07.960 I'm going to look in the mirror and it's going 0:49:07.960 --> 0:49:10.799 to be a different face. And it's and that is 0:49:11.600 --> 0:49:15.600 so I don't, like, lack of better words, scary, to 0:49:15.760 --> 0:49:16.600 just know that life. 0:49:17.800 --> 0:49:20.319 I think about that a lot too, and especially with 0:49:20.400 --> 0:49:22.760 like I don't know if y'all ever saw those videos 0:49:22.760 --> 0:49:26.040 of those people using like that filter where it made 0:49:26.080 --> 0:49:27.960 like the younger version of themselves and they would be 0:49:28.000 --> 0:49:31.080 like sobbing, and that's like that was really scaring me 0:49:31.120 --> 0:49:33.239 because I was like, then I started looking at old 0:49:33.239 --> 0:49:36.120 pictures of myself, like from like four years ago and 0:49:36.200 --> 0:49:39.359 like seeing the change, and I still see myself as 0:49:39.440 --> 0:49:41.840 that person. And then like then I like have to 0:49:41.920 --> 0:49:44.000 re get comfortable with this version, and I know in 0:49:44.040 --> 0:49:46.120 four years I'll like look back and be like, oh 0:49:46.160 --> 0:49:48.120 my god. And then also I'm just like so hard 0:49:48.120 --> 0:49:50.840 on myself, like with my appearance and like my body 0:49:50.880 --> 0:49:53.160 and everything, and I'm just like, why can't I in 0:49:53.239 --> 0:49:55.759 this moment just love what I have because in four 0:49:55.840 --> 0:49:58.919 years it's gonna be even worse, and like I'm gonna 0:49:58.920 --> 0:49:59.200 be like. 0:49:59.160 --> 0:50:00.600 I wish I still look like that. I don't know, 0:50:00.680 --> 0:50:03.600 it's just yeah, yeah. 0:50:03.400 --> 0:50:05.839 I mean. And it's also just the phenomenon of like 0:50:05.880 --> 0:50:09.120 you look back at photos from four years ago and 0:50:09.840 --> 0:50:11.960 you're like, oh, I look so great here, but in 0:50:12.000 --> 0:50:15.880 that moment you didn't feel but also like, yeah, I 0:50:15.880 --> 0:50:20.279 don't know, like I'm not so much like it feels arbitrary, 0:50:20.320 --> 0:50:22.279 like I'm not so much worried about like wrinkles or 0:50:22.320 --> 0:50:26.200 like you know, the signs of aging. Wait, this is 0:50:26.239 --> 0:50:27.240 an amazing phook. 0:50:27.480 --> 0:50:28.120 Eh, what. 0:50:30.520 --> 0:50:36.040 You look like the girl from the chest movie like saw, Yeah, 0:50:36.040 --> 0:50:37.400 you look like on your tailored joy. 0:50:40.360 --> 0:50:43.319 Yeah, I'm not so much worried about I think it's 0:50:43.360 --> 0:50:46.239 just yeah, something to get used to and thinking of 0:50:48.200 --> 0:50:51.040 the girl I used to be, like I will be. 0:50:51.280 --> 0:50:53.120 I know, like I'm technically a woman right now, but 0:50:53.160 --> 0:50:55.040 I feel so much like a girl. I still feel 0:50:55.040 --> 0:50:55.520 like a girl. 0:50:56.200 --> 0:50:57.560 And well, you are the girl. 0:50:57.719 --> 0:51:02.080 I'm the girl. Yea, the girl. So I don't know. 0:51:02.160 --> 0:51:04.719 I was reading which you need to read Annie or no, 0:51:04.880 --> 0:51:08.400 she's I'm reading a girl's story right now. And she 0:51:08.520 --> 0:51:12.239 talks about this summer in her life of this like 0:51:12.320 --> 0:51:14.600 love affair that she or like, yeah, this love affair, 0:51:14.640 --> 0:51:17.200 I guess, And she keeps referring to herself as in 0:51:17.440 --> 0:51:19.399 the girl of fifty eight of the year fifty eight, 0:51:19.400 --> 0:51:21.879 and she's like, I don't know how to write about this, 0:51:22.760 --> 0:51:25.600 Like it feels like I'll give myself more freedom if 0:51:25.640 --> 0:51:28.920 I refer to her as she rather than I. And 0:51:29.200 --> 0:51:31.560 it's like I'm like reading this in real time while 0:51:31.600 --> 0:51:33.680 thinking these thoughts of like oh my god, yeah, like 0:51:33.760 --> 0:51:36.719 she there's this version of her that exists, that was 0:51:36.760 --> 0:51:40.080 so important, that is no longer her because she's older now, 0:51:40.120 --> 0:51:43.120 and so she feels so disassociated with it but still 0:51:43.160 --> 0:51:45.359 so attached to it and wants to write about it, 0:51:45.840 --> 0:51:49.360 but doesn't know if she'll you know, like grant herself 0:51:49.360 --> 0:51:53.280 more freedom too, if she refers to that version herself 0:51:53.360 --> 0:51:54.719 as you know, a third party. 0:51:54.800 --> 0:51:57.120 Yeah, one hundred percent. It's also insane because I think 0:51:57.160 --> 0:51:59.319 we're all at the age too where we definitely could 0:51:59.320 --> 0:52:03.040 do that with our tea nave selves. Yeah, because all 0:52:03.080 --> 0:52:08.200 three of us suffer from like nostalgia so bad. Yeah, 0:52:08.280 --> 0:52:10.600 it's like debilitating. All you can do is look back 0:52:10.640 --> 0:52:13.680 at yourself and think about the way you felt the thing, 0:52:13.760 --> 0:52:16.080 the way you saw things, the way you understood and 0:52:16.080 --> 0:52:20.279 perceived the world and you. But I'm hoping that the 0:52:20.320 --> 0:52:23.000 way I feel about my teenage self translates when I'm 0:52:23.000 --> 0:52:25.759 like fifty, I'm thinking about myself in my twenties where 0:52:25.800 --> 0:52:29.040 it's as much as I have this craving to go back, 0:52:29.080 --> 0:52:30.640 I'm like, oh my god, I would literally do anything 0:52:30.680 --> 0:52:32.840 I was like, even though I was fucking miserable, sad, 0:52:32.920 --> 0:52:36.440 like upset, confused. I want to go like part of 0:52:36.480 --> 0:52:39.560 me wants to go back, but I don't think I 0:52:39.600 --> 0:52:41.960 would if I could, because it was such a tumultuous 0:52:41.960 --> 0:52:44.800 time that it literally is terrifying to me at this age. 0:52:44.920 --> 0:52:47.480 And I'm hoping and praying to God that by the 0:52:47.520 --> 0:52:49.520 time we're in our fifties, that's how I feel about 0:52:49.560 --> 0:52:52.279 my twenties. But I feel like our tinies are literally so. 0:52:52.360 --> 0:52:58.080 Funies are like we are living like such an incredible life, 0:52:58.200 --> 0:53:00.720 Like I literally have my girls here, And what freaks 0:53:00.760 --> 0:53:03.040 me out so fucking much is like you kind of 0:53:03.080 --> 0:53:05.160 touched on it. But there's going to be a time 0:53:05.239 --> 0:53:08.560 when like we don't see each other for months at a. 0:53:08.520 --> 0:53:12.440 Time, and I don't want that. 0:53:12.520 --> 0:53:15.240 I know, Like I genuinely like when we talk about 0:53:15.239 --> 0:53:17.000 like I've seen it as a joke, but like I 0:53:17.200 --> 0:53:20.560 genuinely believe that at some point in our lives, like 0:53:20.880 --> 0:53:23.480 we will literally live on a compound together, and we 0:53:23.480 --> 0:53:26.480 will have our own spaces, with our own families, with 0:53:26.560 --> 0:53:27.680 our own land. 0:53:27.440 --> 0:53:29.719 But like we'll be a golf cart right away. Like 0:53:29.880 --> 0:53:33.360 that's what I need and I believe it. 0:53:33.400 --> 0:53:37.360 I mean, like I cannot imagine not being a drive 0:53:37.400 --> 0:53:40.560 away from you guys. And like, also we've talked about 0:53:40.600 --> 0:53:42.520 this too, and it's hard I think in the sense 0:53:42.520 --> 0:53:46.760 of like because we both we think we want children. Yeah, 0:53:46.800 --> 0:53:50.359 and like I think about having like our twenties are 0:53:50.440 --> 0:53:53.319 so fun, and I'm sure our thirties are going to 0:53:53.360 --> 0:53:54.200 be even more fun. 0:53:54.280 --> 0:53:54.560 I don't. 0:53:54.680 --> 0:53:57.200 That's the problem is, especially now as we're getting older, 0:53:57.200 --> 0:53:58.759 I feel like all of us know a lot of 0:53:58.800 --> 0:54:02.560 people in their thirties who are still like running around. 0:54:02.600 --> 0:54:04.720 They don't have kids, they don't have this like stable 0:54:04.800 --> 0:54:05.319 life that. 0:54:05.239 --> 0:54:08.800 We were all taught that would be the imagine life. 0:54:08.640 --> 0:54:09.320 For our thirties. 0:54:09.320 --> 0:54:11.719 And also as we inch closer to our thirties, it 0:54:11.760 --> 0:54:17.080 becomes more prevalent that realistically, in four to six years, 0:54:17.440 --> 0:54:19.359 none of us are going to be like, yeah, I 0:54:19.480 --> 0:54:20.440 just have to be home. 0:54:20.520 --> 0:54:23.600 I want to just really yea say, not realistic. I 0:54:23.640 --> 0:54:25.960 can realistic. I can see us having children and like 0:54:26.040 --> 0:54:29.120 having a life like outside of a friendship, like with 0:54:29.200 --> 0:54:31.480 a partner or whatever that may look like. But I 0:54:31.520 --> 0:54:33.920 don't see us as the type of people to just 0:54:34.000 --> 0:54:36.600 like live in that. 0:54:37.400 --> 0:54:37.600 Yeah. 0:54:38.040 --> 0:54:42.120 Just it's not it's just not realistic. 0:54:42.320 --> 0:54:45.520 It makes person it's no same, Like it literally makes 0:54:45.560 --> 0:54:47.920 no sense to me that, like I mean, it's different 0:54:47.920 --> 0:54:50.640 from me than y'all because like literally, like and this 0:54:50.680 --> 0:54:52.919 isn't like me being funny. Y'all have like a biological 0:54:52.960 --> 0:54:55.719 clock and that's just like scientific and like that's why 0:54:55.760 --> 0:54:58.440 a lot of people in their thirties are having children 0:54:58.520 --> 0:55:00.680 at that age. But like for me, it's kind of different, 0:55:00.719 --> 0:55:03.360 like I can wait until my late thirties to have children, 0:55:03.520 --> 0:55:05.759 like I'll be an old fucking dad. But like, I 0:55:05.800 --> 0:55:07.480 don't know, that's something else I think about a lot, 0:55:07.520 --> 0:55:10.000 because I'm like, also, who the fuck am I gonna 0:55:10.040 --> 0:55:14.279 have kids with? Because like literally I've literally yeah, you know, 0:55:14.400 --> 0:55:15.680 like I genuinely. 0:55:15.440 --> 0:55:17.440 Like beg one of us to just do it, and. 0:55:17.440 --> 0:55:19.880 Like no, it's for real, like I want kids and 0:55:19.960 --> 0:55:23.320 I will probably be raising them alone because like, girl, 0:55:23.560 --> 0:55:25.200 I've never been in a long. 0:55:25.120 --> 0:55:29.879 Term relation child. God, you are raising a child. 0:55:29.560 --> 0:55:30.319 Alone, Drew. 0:55:30.600 --> 0:55:32.240 Guys, No, I'm like a good person. 0:55:32.360 --> 0:55:33.360 No, No, I'm just kidding. 0:55:33.440 --> 0:55:34.480 They'll get red forty for you. 0:55:34.760 --> 0:55:37.239 It's amazing though, Like I've thought about that, Like I 0:55:37.320 --> 0:55:40.720 thought about the fact that for me, like a peaceful 0:55:40.760 --> 0:55:43.719 life life also sounds like getting a sperm donor and 0:55:43.760 --> 0:55:45.719 having a child on my own and just being like 0:55:46.000 --> 0:55:48.799 you have ever seen like Matilda, like miss Honey, and 0:55:48.840 --> 0:55:52.479 she's like raising Matilda basically, like that doesn't sound half bad. 0:55:52.719 --> 0:55:55.920 And also like literally all men fucking suck genuinely, and 0:55:55.960 --> 0:55:58.120 that's literally how it is, like except. 0:55:57.880 --> 0:56:04.360 Pinkeeping, babes, no, for real, I cannot part. You know 0:56:04.400 --> 0:56:05.000 what it is to. 0:56:07.080 --> 0:56:11.520 So kinkeeping is when you have a child with a fucking, disgusting, 0:56:11.560 --> 0:56:13.080 god forsaken man. 0:56:13.480 --> 0:56:15.239 And every man loves to be I want to be 0:56:15.239 --> 0:56:16.719 a dad. I want to be a dad until the 0:56:16.800 --> 0:56:18.320 dadding has to start dadding. 0:56:19.160 --> 0:56:20.320 The dad is not daddy. 0:56:20.920 --> 0:56:24.680 The dad cannot function without the mother, who is literally 0:56:24.719 --> 0:56:27.239 building the foundation of this home, whether that be by 0:56:27.280 --> 0:56:30.560 like cooking, cleaning, caretaking, caretaking not only. 0:56:30.400 --> 0:56:34.200 The kids, a husband making sharving. One's been making sharvone's clean, 0:56:34.360 --> 0:56:34.800 and there. 0:56:34.640 --> 0:56:36.239 Are like little things of that too. I saw this 0:56:36.280 --> 0:56:38.319 TikTok of this girl being like, oh, me and my 0:56:38.400 --> 0:56:40.520 husband we split our chores like he does a dishes 0:56:40.520 --> 0:56:45.080 and I go grocery shopping. Grocery shopping requires thinking about 0:56:45.080 --> 0:56:47.680 what you're gonna buy, planning for dinner. Like there's like 0:56:47.960 --> 0:56:51.680 so much that goes into just grocery shopping versus doing 0:56:53.040 --> 0:56:54.879 you know what I mean, like, like. 0:56:54.840 --> 0:56:57.800 It is so insane, and. 0:56:57.680 --> 0:57:00.759 Yeah, you just end up up keeping a whole household 0:57:00.880 --> 0:57:02.240 all on your own without realizing. 0:57:02.320 --> 0:57:05.080 And then and then the dude is like, well, I 0:57:05.160 --> 0:57:07.600 provide for this family. I go work, and I work 0:57:07.680 --> 0:57:10.240 eight hours a day. And it's like, girl, it doesn't 0:57:10.280 --> 0:57:10.799 fucking matter. 0:57:10.880 --> 0:57:12.040 But men are providing. 0:57:12.080 --> 0:57:16.560 I know they are making There's no real men, no 0:57:16.680 --> 0:57:17.280 real men. 0:57:17.160 --> 0:57:20.920 On phones build a fucking house. Very seriously mean that. 0:57:21.280 --> 0:57:23.800 And I was saying, get back to the fucking steel 0:57:23.840 --> 0:57:26.160 beams in New York City, get back on those, and 0:57:26.200 --> 0:57:27.640 so well, then that ship back together. 0:57:29.280 --> 0:57:32.400 You want children, but you don't want to like literally 0:57:32.520 --> 0:57:35.080 making took The other thing is at this point. 0:57:34.960 --> 0:57:38.080 I genuinely like, God bless whoever. 0:57:37.920 --> 0:57:39.720 I if I had ended up having kids, whoever have 0:57:39.840 --> 0:57:44.520 kids with, I genuinely also suffer from if it's going 0:57:44.600 --> 0:57:47.480 to be done right, it's going to be done by me. 0:57:48.240 --> 0:57:51.960 And I just don't see a world where anybody could 0:57:52.080 --> 0:57:55.600 raise my kid because that's my fucking kid. Let's get 0:57:55.600 --> 0:57:56.360 that right now. 0:57:57.320 --> 0:58:01.800 You are so protective over like your creative babies that 0:58:01.920 --> 0:58:04.680 like I literally think like if you have a kid 0:58:04.760 --> 0:58:06.560 with a man like it is your kid. 0:58:06.640 --> 0:58:08.720 It's not that, it's no question. 0:58:08.800 --> 0:58:11.840 It's like, get the fuck away from my child. That's 0:58:11.880 --> 0:58:15.520 my child, and I don't know, it's just like literally 0:58:15.560 --> 0:58:17.920 get away. Also, but when you were saying how we 0:58:18.000 --> 0:58:18.680 don't at you. 0:58:18.880 --> 0:58:20.720 I was just gonna say, also, it's different because like 0:58:20.760 --> 0:58:22.520 girls can twork fock you. 0:58:23.880 --> 0:58:26.120 And that's the first thing I'm teaching my daughter is 0:58:27.120 --> 0:58:28.960 she has to be able to I'm gonna make an 0:58:29.000 --> 0:58:30.160 honest woman out of her. 0:58:30.320 --> 0:58:33.560 My kids can't dance, That's gonna be really embarrassing. And 0:58:33.640 --> 0:58:35.440 that's just something I thought about them going to a 0:58:35.480 --> 0:58:37.160 party and not being able to dance, Like why does 0:58:37.160 --> 0:58:38.360 that sound really embarrassing? 0:58:38.920 --> 0:58:40.920 Like not knowing how to like just like have fun, 0:58:41.080 --> 0:58:42.160 Like that's really embarrassing. 0:58:42.160 --> 0:58:44.760 So you need to like raise your children somewhere that's 0:58:44.840 --> 0:58:47.000 like in Miami basically. 0:58:46.520 --> 0:58:47.960 So that they know how to like run around and 0:58:48.120 --> 0:58:52.120 like have fun. But I think the reason. 0:58:51.880 --> 0:58:55.680 Too, although we are all like I want kids, whatever, 0:58:55.960 --> 0:58:59.480 we have so much fulfillment in our friendships. Yeah, that 0:58:59.600 --> 0:59:03.920 it is really really really hard to imagine a life 0:59:04.000 --> 0:59:07.080 with not only a partner, but like just just imagining 0:59:07.080 --> 0:59:11.680 a whole life where our friendships aren't so coming first, 0:59:11.960 --> 0:59:15.680 because it's literally no matter what relationship I will be in, 0:59:16.200 --> 0:59:19.560 my top priority is I'm like, that's cool, but but 0:59:19.640 --> 0:59:21.520 my how am I going to be able to have 0:59:21.600 --> 0:59:26.040 my friendships and maintain them because they're so like of course, 0:59:26.120 --> 0:59:29.520 any romantic relationship I get into is going to be. 0:59:29.520 --> 0:59:33.240 Important to me. But you're not my fucking girls. 0:59:33.000 --> 0:59:36.760 Like you, like you were simply not my friends, Like there. 0:59:36.640 --> 0:59:38.880 Is no one else. I want to just sit on 0:59:38.920 --> 0:59:39.560 a couch. 0:59:39.320 --> 0:59:42.720 And watch random YouTube videos and screenplay tiktoks with more 0:59:42.760 --> 0:59:46.520 than my fucking friends, Like I just wanna it's so different. 0:59:46.720 --> 0:59:49.120 You should know it really is. Is we should all 0:59:49.360 --> 0:59:50.720 have a child together. 0:59:50.720 --> 0:59:56.760 There say we should all find one sperm donor me? Yeah, actually. 0:59:58.120 --> 0:59:58.480 Pregnant? 0:59:58.520 --> 1:00:01.640 Oh god, could you imagine is a twin? Imagine we 1:00:01.960 --> 1:00:04.760 got drew sperm and and both of us had to Oh. 1:00:04.640 --> 1:00:06.000 We can do that, we can arrange that. We can 1:00:06.000 --> 1:00:07.200 do that, Like, let's do it right. 1:00:07.120 --> 1:00:08.400 Like I don't think we should do it like with 1:00:08.440 --> 1:00:09.520 a doctor, Like let's just go to. 1:00:09.560 --> 1:00:12.040 Your room yea yeah, yeah yeah yeah, take money, take 1:00:12.120 --> 1:00:12.680 so much money? 1:00:12.680 --> 1:00:13.840 Why would we would? 1:00:14.280 --> 1:00:16.200 And I can do that because I'm straight medical. 1:00:15.880 --> 1:00:18.160 Professional I mean, you've proved it for sure. 1:00:19.280 --> 1:00:21.000 Yeah, right, but what were you saying? 1:00:22.320 --> 1:00:25.720 I forgot, Oh, I was at the same time, I 1:00:25.800 --> 1:00:27.520 was having this thought when I was washing my face 1:00:27.760 --> 1:00:29.280 because this is our second year in a row. We're 1:00:29.320 --> 1:00:33.480 doing a location. Yeah, and it's so fun, And I 1:00:33.480 --> 1:00:35.320 thought about it. I was like, oh, like it was 1:00:35.360 --> 1:00:37.160 a sweet moment where I was like, oh, like in 1:00:37.240 --> 1:00:39.600 ten years, like imagine us like bringing our like little 1:00:39.600 --> 1:00:41.640 toddlers with us, and it's just like And then that 1:00:41.760 --> 1:00:43.760 also got me on the next thought, where I was 1:00:43.840 --> 1:00:46.320 like the fact that I'm thinking of planning a vacation 1:00:46.520 --> 1:00:48.560 with my friend and her baby and my baby, and 1:00:49.080 --> 1:00:51.640 there is no like my partner is not involved in 1:00:51.680 --> 1:00:53.920 this whoever I end up with, like, I'm not thinking 1:00:53.920 --> 1:00:56.720 about us having a family vacation, Like I'm thinking about 1:00:56.720 --> 1:00:58.480 me my friends would get away for fucking fun. 1:00:58.480 --> 1:01:00.400 If we were in our home, which we're. 1:01:00.080 --> 1:01:02.720 Making her home from home, our vacation home. 1:01:03.360 --> 1:01:05.360 If we like had that with our little babies in 1:01:05.360 --> 1:01:06.760 that kitchen like running around. 1:01:07.240 --> 1:01:09.560 Like and then we should Why would a man be there? 1:01:09.640 --> 1:01:10.880 Why wouldn't man be there? 1:01:10.960 --> 1:01:13.600 No, it's actually pressing me off. Oh my god, it 1:01:13.760 --> 1:01:15.640 pisses me off, why would a man be there? Why 1:01:15.640 --> 1:01:18.120 do you want to be there? Like you're literally in 1:01:18.200 --> 1:01:20.400 my fucking snake. He's like, oh my god, I'm really 1:01:20.400 --> 1:01:22.000 gonna freak out. I'm not kidding. 1:01:24.040 --> 1:01:28.240 Cry, Oh my god, Like. 1:01:28.400 --> 1:01:30.080 Why do you want to be involved? 1:01:34.400 --> 1:01:40.320 So that's just God, no. 1:01:40.440 --> 1:01:42.320 Like you're kind of like in my business. 1:01:42.400 --> 1:01:45.240 No, you were literally oh my god, like there is 1:01:45.280 --> 1:01:46.360 the killer in the house. 1:01:47.080 --> 1:01:51.520 Killer is at the house. Like I'm gonna call the police. 1:01:53.080 --> 1:01:55.960 And like, I think we should also like arrange our 1:01:56.040 --> 1:01:57.400 kids to get married. 1:02:00.880 --> 1:02:05.520 Like mother in law live like like our kids related. 1:02:05.760 --> 1:02:08.480 Yeah, we're gonna like arrange the marriage. We'll make it happen. 1:02:08.600 --> 1:02:10.720 Yeah, well, okay, we'll keep them like. 1:02:11.400 --> 1:02:14.320 Friends growing up and then let them date around because 1:02:14.320 --> 1:02:16.360 we have to make sure that like they get together 1:02:16.400 --> 1:02:18.360 in like they're thirty. So it's like okay, y, yeah, 1:02:18.360 --> 1:02:21.120 I'm really down for this, and we'll just when. 1:02:21.400 --> 1:02:24.160 We'll always break up their relationships and then be like, 1:02:24.240 --> 1:02:26.480 oh my god, have you ever thought of I think 1:02:26.520 --> 1:02:28.200 what I'll do is if I have a daughter, I'll 1:02:28.240 --> 1:02:30.840 just raise her in my hometown and make her believe 1:02:30.880 --> 1:02:33.760 that she has to be abstinate, just like I thought, 1:02:34.520 --> 1:02:37.480 and then she'll save I'll let my daughter save myself. 1:02:37.920 --> 1:02:42.560 I'm gonna yeah, I think I'm gonna raise my child, 1:02:43.960 --> 1:02:46.640 my able bodied child in a wheelchair. 1:02:47.560 --> 1:02:49.959 And you know what's crazy full of chemicals and ship. 1:02:50.080 --> 1:02:51.960 Okay, first of all, you want Gypsy Rose? 1:02:52.120 --> 1:02:52.400 Yeah? 1:02:52.480 --> 1:02:58.480 Yeah, the podcast so fucking badil this year, I think. 1:02:58.400 --> 1:03:00.240 Yeah, and like the end of this fourth. 1:03:00.200 --> 1:03:01.600 We should have a party for it. 1:03:01.640 --> 1:03:02.960 I'm not even kidding, like we need. 1:03:02.840 --> 1:03:06.080 To go to the prison. The thing is, we should 1:03:06.080 --> 1:03:06.640 go see her. 1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:10.280 She's the girl like for real life. I genuinely think, 1:03:10.320 --> 1:03:12.040 like she did nothing wrong and I don't give up. 1:03:12.080 --> 1:03:13.040 Fuck yeah, free her. 1:03:13.120 --> 1:03:17.680 Tell are like what insane scenario she literally like what 1:03:17.720 --> 1:03:19.400 would her life be if she didn't do that? 1:03:19.480 --> 1:03:21.120 She would literally still be held captive. 1:03:21.200 --> 1:03:23.600 Yeah, no fun, and she would probably be dead. 1:03:23.800 --> 1:03:25.400 But yeah, she probably would be dead from being like 1:03:25.400 --> 1:03:26.800 pumped with medications she didn't need. 1:03:27.040 --> 1:03:27.920 But you know, it's crazy. 1:03:27.960 --> 1:03:30.440 Before I knew Gypsy Rose was a person, I literally 1:03:30.440 --> 1:03:32.880 made a joke to my brother. We're probably gonna have 1:03:32.880 --> 1:03:36.280 to cut this where I told Dante like we were 1:03:36.400 --> 1:03:39.400 literally I think I was like fourteen, and this was 1:03:39.440 --> 1:03:41.800 my humor. I was sitting in his room, and I 1:03:41.840 --> 1:03:44.320 look at him and go, if I have kids, I'm 1:03:44.360 --> 1:03:46.080 literally just gonna have one of them stay in a 1:03:46.120 --> 1:03:48.880 wheelchair and convince them they can't fucking walk and never 1:03:48.960 --> 1:03:50.600 let them have friends over and never let them out 1:03:50.600 --> 1:03:52.560 of my sight so that they never attempt to walk, 1:03:52.720 --> 1:03:53.959 and really convince. 1:03:53.640 --> 1:03:54.120 Them of that. 1:03:54.400 --> 1:03:56.600 And then one day I'm gonna let them have a 1:03:56.600 --> 1:03:58.320 friend over and I'm gonna leave them in the room 1:03:58.320 --> 1:03:59.640 and I know the friend's gonna. 1:03:59.400 --> 1:04:00.680 Be like, have you ever trying to walk? 1:04:00.760 --> 1:04:02.680 And it's gonna come up and the kid's gonna stand, 1:04:02.720 --> 1:04:04.120 and I'm gonna walk into the room and see the 1:04:04.200 --> 1:04:06.320 kids standing and I'm gonna have to break its legs. 1:04:06.440 --> 1:04:10.920 Oh my god, my god. And you're scary somethings, Like. 1:04:10.880 --> 1:04:13.160 I thought this was going to take a pause, like 1:04:13.240 --> 1:04:21.080 this is a bit yeah, right, yeah, something crying about 1:04:21.080 --> 1:04:23.200 the idea of a man being next to our kids 1:04:23.960 --> 1:04:26.160 while we're on vacation, so maybe I do need help. No, 1:04:26.480 --> 1:04:28.800 it's no, but you're like, it's real though, because I 1:04:28.840 --> 1:04:31.880 don't even want a man there when we don't have kids, 1:04:31.920 --> 1:04:35.120 Like the thought of like the only man that's allowed 1:04:35.120 --> 1:04:36.560 to be in my presence at the time is that 1:04:36.560 --> 1:04:38.800 sweet little old man putting treats at the front door, right, 1:04:38.840 --> 1:04:41.280 I know, like I love him and I'll do anything 1:04:41.280 --> 1:04:44.240 for him. Really truly, I think I would. But a 1:04:44.280 --> 1:04:45.840 man on vacation with. 1:04:45.800 --> 1:04:48.360 Us, and you know what's annoying is then it's like 1:04:49.040 --> 1:04:51.480 it's gonna be like a situation where he's like, oh, 1:04:51.560 --> 1:04:52.320 like let's. 1:04:52.160 --> 1:04:54.000 Go to dinner, like Oryan is gonna stay. 1:04:54.160 --> 1:04:56.840 I'm like, you know, saying home. You know what it 1:04:56.880 --> 1:04:59.400 is to at of the day. It's because we won't 1:04:59.400 --> 1:05:02.840 be able to share a head. No, literally, that's exactly 1:05:02.920 --> 1:05:04.680 what it is. Because the house that we say out 1:05:04.680 --> 1:05:07.800 on vacation has six bedrooms and we managed to sleep 1:05:07.800 --> 1:05:10.640 in the same bed. Are going to bed this night? Maybe? Yeah? 1:05:10.720 --> 1:05:12.600 Maybe that one was a little It hurt my back 1:05:12.640 --> 1:05:15.760 a little bit. Yeah, those pillars were mad uncomfortable the 1:05:15.840 --> 1:05:20.680 beds there. Literally, I don't think you have actually for looking. 1:05:21.160 --> 1:05:25.480 But yeah, wow, what and when an episode we've been 1:05:25.520 --> 1:05:26.240 at it for an hour? 1:05:26.880 --> 1:05:30.360 M gorgeous? 1:05:30.400 --> 1:05:34.720 Well, well I have one more thing to say. Oriana, 1:05:35.240 --> 1:05:36.640 Yeah that's the name. 1:05:36.880 --> 1:05:37.720 Was that our ship name? 1:05:37.800 --> 1:05:38.000 Yeah? 1:05:38.080 --> 1:05:38.520 Ranya. 1:05:38.640 --> 1:05:42.880 But I had a dream last I had a fortnight 1:05:43.000 --> 1:05:47.320 dream last night. I'm not kidding, and it was a nightmare. Actually, 1:05:47.400 --> 1:05:49.640 let me listen to the audio message I sent because 1:05:49.640 --> 1:05:52.240 I don't remember it, but I sent it to Josiah 1:05:52.240 --> 1:05:58.320 at like four am, like this, it's. 1:05:58.200 --> 1:06:02.520 Like cyber right outside of it, like the city was 1:06:02.560 --> 1:06:04.800 this mountain boy, and we were at. 1:06:04.640 --> 1:06:08.240 The top of the mountain, and I thought it ended 1:06:08.280 --> 1:06:09.360 up the squad. 1:06:10.840 --> 1:06:13.919 Randomly, just like, let's chump late jump, get on my back. 1:06:14.400 --> 1:06:16.840 So I got on one of the randoms back. They 1:06:16.840 --> 1:06:19.400 were younger than me, and we tove off the mountain 1:06:19.520 --> 1:06:24.600 and like ten seconds past and we had to play bearachute. 1:06:24.600 --> 1:06:25.400 I was like, what the fuck? 1:06:25.440 --> 1:06:27.040 And then you splatted on the ground. 1:06:27.640 --> 1:06:30.800 It was so scary. 1:06:31.200 --> 1:06:34.360 Jumped off a fucking mountain, jumped mountain in Fortnite and 1:06:34.520 --> 1:06:36.480 splatted on the ground. That's the dream. 1:06:36.800 --> 1:06:38.960 In the dream, were you like a Fortnite character? You 1:06:39.000 --> 1:06:39.360 were real? 1:06:39.440 --> 1:06:42.880 I was a Fortnite character. It was like the Fortnite map, right. 1:06:43.000 --> 1:06:45.880 I had a Fortnite dream with Belladine in it. Oh, 1:06:45.960 --> 1:06:47.840 I really started, yeah with your girl. 1:06:47.960 --> 1:06:50.680 Yeah, that's my friend, guys, Bella. I know Bella. 1:06:51.000 --> 1:06:53.439 Remember my dream where I thought I had a dream 1:06:53.440 --> 1:07:00.680 that CARDI b posted a photo of my cow story. 1:07:00.880 --> 1:07:03.080 I feel like you had like a crazy dream recently. 1:07:03.960 --> 1:07:08.120 They are multiple, like like my brain Like if I 1:07:08.320 --> 1:07:12.760 ever had access to Black Tar heroine, I do not 1:07:12.920 --> 1:07:14.000 know where my brain would go. 1:07:14.160 --> 1:07:19.040 No, that's me so wow, girl, we need to try 1:07:19.080 --> 1:07:19.720 ag together. 1:07:20.360 --> 1:07:24.080 No, like you, my brain terrorizes me. In the astral 1:07:24.120 --> 1:07:27.080 realm of dreaming, where would I what would I start 1:07:27.120 --> 1:07:27.760 speaking about? 1:07:28.240 --> 1:07:29.240 Actually I don't know. 1:07:29.320 --> 1:07:32.320 You would start pointing out the stars and like communicating 1:07:32.320 --> 1:07:33.040 with the star. 1:07:33.000 --> 1:07:36.360 Probably Okay, That's something I did think about. Is like the. 1:07:36.800 --> 1:07:42.000 First time I, like, uh heard about astrology was through you, 1:07:42.160 --> 1:07:45.600 like you were really obsessed with it, and like back then, 1:07:45.680 --> 1:07:47.560 I was like, girl, this shit is bullshit, but like 1:07:47.640 --> 1:07:49.960 I'm gonna do it because people like are really into 1:07:50.000 --> 1:07:52.040 it and like there might be something to it and 1:07:52.080 --> 1:07:55.160 I still like never ever fully believed. And then I 1:07:55.160 --> 1:07:59.280 started thinking about it and like, girl, like look at 1:07:59.280 --> 1:08:03.760 the fucking mo Like the moon literally controls like giant 1:08:03.920 --> 1:08:07.479 bodies of fucking water, like makes waves, like lowers the tide, 1:08:07.520 --> 1:08:10.440 raises the tide. We're made of like a lot of 1:08:10.600 --> 1:08:13.919 fucking water. So it's just like giving like it has 1:08:14.000 --> 1:08:16.160 to do something to us, Like the lunar cycle has. 1:08:16.040 --> 1:08:20.840 To also my I hate the thing about astrology is 1:08:20.960 --> 1:08:25.080 especially Australia. Australia is when you start like especially oh 1:08:25.080 --> 1:08:27.320 my god, this is just like an anti Men episode. 1:08:27.400 --> 1:08:30.679 But like the multiple times that I've like started seeing 1:08:30.720 --> 1:08:33.000 a guy and been like too afraid to be like, 1:08:33.200 --> 1:08:36.479 when's your birthday? Because I fear if I asked him 1:08:36.479 --> 1:08:38.280 on his birthday? Is like, oh, well, you're gonna guess, 1:08:38.280 --> 1:08:42.040 like what starts? Yeah, you know what I am. But 1:08:42.120 --> 1:08:43.640 you know what I also do. I sit there and 1:08:43.640 --> 1:08:46.160 I fucking pretend that I like, whatever goddamn sport is 1:08:46.200 --> 1:08:49.960 on your mind. I'm like, go Ravens, go dogs, whatever 1:08:50.000 --> 1:08:53.200 it is. Like I'm pretending I'm lying, and you can't 1:08:53.240 --> 1:08:57.280 like lil suck and lie to me that like I'm 1:08:57.320 --> 1:08:59.760 having fun when you are a. 1:09:00.080 --> 1:09:02.439 What what's so annoying about it is? Why don't you 1:09:02.520 --> 1:09:04.439 just take it as a fucking compliment. This person is 1:09:04.600 --> 1:09:07.120 interesting to you that they want to look, they want 1:09:07.120 --> 1:09:08.400 to read about you, Like. 1:09:08.560 --> 1:09:11.360 Literally, it might come from a place of insecurity, like 1:09:11.400 --> 1:09:13.920 if it says they're y'all aren't compatible, that like you'd 1:09:14.000 --> 1:09:17.200 leave or some shit. I don't know, but I am 1:09:17.560 --> 1:09:19.880 a pisces. Gemini, what do you know about. 1:09:19.600 --> 1:09:24.559 That you're emotional? And well, I guess like Pisces would 1:09:24.600 --> 1:09:27.479 be like very I mean I'm not I'm not a 1:09:27.640 --> 1:09:30.200 fucking expert on this, but like what I do know 1:09:30.200 --> 1:09:36.080 about Pisces is that they're emotional and Gemini men are 1:09:36.400 --> 1:09:41.799 very wish washy from my experience or like not only. 1:09:41.640 --> 1:09:44.720 In the context of like relationships. Is that what everybody. 1:09:44.400 --> 1:09:47.400 Bases kind of yeah, but not also like no, like 1:09:48.040 --> 1:09:52.280 Pisces are notoriously like emotional creatures. I think I'm not 1:09:52.320 --> 1:09:54.439 an expert. I like, I'm just self. 1:09:54.520 --> 1:09:57.439 Oh, you would be an astrology expert. Like I'm sure 1:09:57.479 --> 1:09:58.280 you know a lot about it. 1:09:59.080 --> 1:10:01.479 Yeah, I'm self or have ton't know anything only about 1:10:01.520 --> 1:10:04.000 me though, Well before we. 1:10:04.000 --> 1:10:07.160 End the episode, I actually do have two serious questions 1:10:07.160 --> 1:10:08.160 that I thought of last night. 1:10:08.600 --> 1:10:10.120 One is are you writing right now? 1:10:10.120 --> 1:10:13.360 Which I feel like you already answered, and you're you know. 1:10:13.479 --> 1:10:15.880 I was actually thinking about this on the couch where 1:10:16.800 --> 1:10:18.960 I don't know how this thought got popped in my brain. 1:10:19.439 --> 1:10:22.360 But I am writing, but there is no like book 1:10:22.439 --> 1:10:26.400 that there is like an active destination like theme. Yeah, 1:10:26.400 --> 1:10:28.519 like I'm writing towards something, but like I don't know 1:10:28.520 --> 1:10:33.800 what that something is writ's escapade? Well, what was crazy? Well, 1:10:33.840 --> 1:10:40.080 that's it's crazy, as I think, like I used to 1:10:40.160 --> 1:10:44.120 write so so much, and I think it was mostly 1:10:44.160 --> 1:10:49.120 because I didn't have anyone to tell these things to, 1:10:49.920 --> 1:10:52.960 whereas like now our emotion, like our relationship has become 1:10:53.040 --> 1:10:56.080 so emotionally like there, it's just so strong that like 1:10:56.160 --> 1:11:00.800 I don't fear telling you anything, so like there, the 1:11:00.880 --> 1:11:03.760 thoughts don't resort to paper anymore, they almost resort it 1:11:03.840 --> 1:11:04.040 to you. 1:11:04.280 --> 1:11:05.599 I was thinking about that the other. 1:11:05.479 --> 1:11:08.479 Day because I was like, I had this notebook that 1:11:08.520 --> 1:11:10.559 I started writing it in January and I haven't written 1:11:10.600 --> 1:11:13.839 in it since. And it's literally because I've been telling 1:11:14.040 --> 1:11:16.720 you everything. So then when I go to write, I 1:11:16.760 --> 1:11:19.719 feel kind of silly because I'm just thinking, okay, I've 1:11:19.800 --> 1:11:22.880 just explained this. Also, it sucks because we get into 1:11:22.880 --> 1:11:25.919 these like really deep conversations. I feel like what we're saying, 1:11:26.320 --> 1:11:28.439 I'm like, oh, I wish this was like written down, 1:11:29.240 --> 1:11:31.080 And when I like, when you get to a paper, 1:11:31.120 --> 1:11:34.759 it's like, am I about to repeat myself to myself? 1:11:34.840 --> 1:11:38.840 Like I literally but I don't know. I feel like 1:11:38.920 --> 1:11:42.240 we went to Big Sir and we all wrote and 1:11:42.360 --> 1:11:43.920 that was like the first time in a long time 1:11:43.960 --> 1:11:47.400 where I was just really like writing towards something which 1:11:47.439 --> 1:11:51.040 felt really good. And I don't know, I think that 1:11:51.240 --> 1:11:53.000 for the first time in my life, I can like 1:11:53.160 --> 1:11:56.040 confidently say I'm genuinely proud about what I'm writing about 1:11:56.720 --> 1:12:00.000 because I see that I'm getting better. Yeah, what I 1:12:00.200 --> 1:12:03.839 like growth, which is super nice. Which is also strange 1:12:03.840 --> 1:12:05.679 because then I'll read back some things and I'm like 1:12:06.120 --> 1:12:08.519 it almost feels like fake. I'm like, did I like 1:12:08.600 --> 1:12:11.240 make it? Like did I like plagiarize this? Like it's 1:12:11.240 --> 1:12:14.240 actually kind of good and like it doesn't like no like, 1:12:14.320 --> 1:12:17.040 which I've never ever ever had that with anything that 1:12:17.040 --> 1:12:17.840 I've written before. 1:12:18.560 --> 1:12:21.720 Yeah, you read I remember, even like twenty twenty one, 1:12:21.760 --> 1:12:25.759 when we were in well where were we for Christian's birthday? 1:12:26.360 --> 1:12:28.160 You read something that you had written. 1:12:28.400 --> 1:12:30.920 Even I was shocked because you hadn't read anything you've 1:12:30.920 --> 1:12:32.680 written in a long time, and it was more of 1:12:32.720 --> 1:12:36.439 like a personal essay. It was right next to fucking 1:12:36.560 --> 1:12:39.240 mountain Baldy or Baldy or whatever the fuck, and you 1:12:39.240 --> 1:12:41.160 read it and you didn't tell me it was yours 1:12:41.200 --> 1:12:42.280 and you read it, and I was like, dude, that 1:12:42.360 --> 1:12:42.960 was so good? 1:12:43.000 --> 1:12:44.679 What is that? And you were like I wrote. 1:12:44.479 --> 1:12:47.799 That, and I remember being like, obnestly I like your writing, 1:12:47.880 --> 1:12:49.200 but that was like a moment where it's. 1:12:49.120 --> 1:12:51.400 Like, oh, there's just like an obviously growth thing. Yeah, 1:12:51.439 --> 1:12:52.639 it was like a huge jump. 1:12:53.280 --> 1:12:57.320 And then my second question is what is your ideal 1:12:57.360 --> 1:12:59.240 writing set up that actually works? 1:12:59.600 --> 1:13:02.040 Like when are when is that? Where are you? 1:13:02.120 --> 1:13:05.200 Because I feel like for a lot of people, and 1:13:05.360 --> 1:13:09.240 just like this goes to any like creative work in general, 1:13:09.280 --> 1:13:11.720 there's this idea like Drew and me have like our 1:13:11.760 --> 1:13:14.519 desk with all our pens and papers and all these things, 1:13:14.560 --> 1:13:17.200 But how often do you actually sit there and like 1:13:17.320 --> 1:13:20.240 use all those things in that space you've gathered. What 1:13:20.439 --> 1:13:24.120 is your actual set up? Like do you feel like 1:13:24.160 --> 1:13:26.200 you have to set up the moment or does it 1:13:26.320 --> 1:13:27.320 just usually. 1:13:27.920 --> 1:13:30.000 It usually like I feel like on a day to 1:13:30.080 --> 1:13:32.920 day things will pop in my head and I'll like 1:13:33.000 --> 1:13:35.320 jot it down, and whether it's my notebook or like 1:13:35.320 --> 1:13:38.000 my notes app and my phone. But if I'm like 1:13:38.120 --> 1:13:41.559 really wanting to write, I try not to sit at 1:13:41.560 --> 1:13:44.240 my desk because or I try it even to be 1:13:44.280 --> 1:13:46.640 home period because there's so many distractions. I mean, like 1:13:46.680 --> 1:13:48.439 literally when I was finishing film for her, I went 1:13:48.479 --> 1:13:50.439 to Paris. At the time, I didn't know anyone in Paris, 1:13:50.920 --> 1:13:53.640 and I was like, there is nothing to distract me 1:13:53.720 --> 1:13:56.320 here because I'm you know, you fucking text me and 1:13:56.320 --> 1:13:57.880 You're like, let's go to Whole Foods and I'm on 1:13:57.920 --> 1:14:00.600 my way. Yeah, like any little thing I'll go to. 1:14:01.920 --> 1:14:04.559 So it's usually not home. My desk is more reserved 1:14:04.560 --> 1:14:10.080 for like revising and putting it into something. But if 1:14:10.320 --> 1:14:13.400 if I am writing at home, it's usually at night 1:14:13.560 --> 1:14:15.920 in my bed before I go to sleep, just to 1:14:16.040 --> 1:14:17.559 kind of like wrap up the day. 1:14:17.840 --> 1:14:18.800 Yeah, that makes sense. 1:14:18.880 --> 1:14:20.799 Who are your favorite authors? 1:14:23.920 --> 1:14:26.599 I mean, right now, I've said it before. I love 1:14:26.600 --> 1:14:32.240 Annie Arno, right now, Sylvia Plath, I love Annie Snin. Also, 1:14:32.280 --> 1:14:36.599 that's another thing I've realized in the past, like two years, 1:14:36.680 --> 1:14:39.120 I've not read a book written by a man. I 1:14:39.160 --> 1:14:43.639 read either. No, I've literally read like one Noble CoV 1:14:43.760 --> 1:14:48.280 book that wasn't Lolita, and that's it, Like I was 1:14:48.760 --> 1:14:51.240 written by a man. Yeah, and you know, actually it 1:14:51.280 --> 1:14:55.040 was his first He's Russian and Russian is his first language, 1:14:55.040 --> 1:14:58.160 and Lolita was the first book that he wrote in English, 1:14:58.320 --> 1:15:01.479 which is why it's like genuinely so, like such an 1:15:01.479 --> 1:15:06.640 intense book, because the verbiage in that book is insane, 1:15:06.680 --> 1:15:09.800 like even somebody whose first language is English, Like a 1:15:09.840 --> 1:15:12.439 lot of the words that he is using is like 1:15:12.760 --> 1:15:15.760 what the fuck? Holy, Like you are insane. 1:15:16.720 --> 1:15:16.760 No. 1:15:16.840 --> 1:15:19.160 I read a book of his called Mary, but no, 1:15:19.280 --> 1:15:23.000 everything I've been Like. Patricia Highsmith is also really good. 1:15:24.600 --> 1:15:27.240 God what's her name? She wrote The Price of Salt, 1:15:27.240 --> 1:15:31.599 which I couldn't finish reading for obvious reasons, the way 1:15:32.240 --> 1:15:36.960 like you read David Waight of the Earth Yeah that 1:15:37.040 --> 1:15:40.320 was like three years ago, Oh damn, Yeah, which was 1:15:40.400 --> 1:15:43.559 also really good, but it's he's a gay man. 1:15:43.920 --> 1:15:45.400 Yeah, I know that's not a man. 1:15:45.840 --> 1:15:48.080 He's a gay man and he has you know, some 1:15:48.160 --> 1:15:49.720 sensibilities there. Well. 1:15:49.760 --> 1:15:53.200 I like went on a deep dive of like nihilism 1:15:53.240 --> 1:15:56.599 and existentialism and all of that shit, like right after 1:15:56.640 --> 1:16:00.519 my brother died, and like it fucked me up, but 1:16:00.680 --> 1:16:03.559 also like it really did heal me in a crazy way. 1:16:03.560 --> 1:16:05.840 And I think like when I was like sixteen, if 1:16:05.840 --> 1:16:07.360 I picked that shit up and read that, I literally 1:16:07.400 --> 1:16:10.639 would have killed myself. I would not have been okay. 1:16:10.680 --> 1:16:13.360 But like I think that shit that's like okay for 1:16:13.439 --> 1:16:15.680 like a developed brain, especially when I was like, so 1:16:15.920 --> 1:16:18.040 I was hurting so badly and I was just like 1:16:18.400 --> 1:16:21.400 looking for answers and like it was just like a 1:16:21.439 --> 1:16:24.680 great Those were like great guides for me to like 1:16:25.720 --> 1:16:27.880 kind of just be like, oh, it kind of doesn't matter, 1:16:27.920 --> 1:16:29.840 and like if there is an afterlife, which I hope 1:16:29.840 --> 1:16:32.519 there is, I'll just see them there or I'll just 1:16:32.560 --> 1:16:34.880 wake up in this exact same fucking life and like 1:16:34.920 --> 1:16:36.120 I won't even know I died. 1:16:36.040 --> 1:16:38.280 Or like whatever. It is, Like there's so many different 1:16:38.280 --> 1:16:41.200 things that I think about it the afterlife but helped 1:16:41.200 --> 1:16:41.639 me a lot. 1:16:43.080 --> 1:16:45.760 Maybe I should revisit that because I read it and 1:16:45.840 --> 1:16:48.840 I was like it almost staligated the things that I 1:16:48.880 --> 1:16:51.280 was thinking. And I was like, fuck, like can I 1:16:51.320 --> 1:16:55.200 like read something that redirects my brain in a different scenario? 1:16:55.360 --> 1:16:57.719 What I things, like, you is you're gonna fucking read 1:16:57.960 --> 1:16:59.400 like I wish I could read. 1:17:00.120 --> 1:17:04.360 Yeah, you know, I want to read more fiction. Actually 1:17:04.960 --> 1:17:08.840 I can't do like like like no, like not real 1:17:09.520 --> 1:17:12.040 like a fictional like I mean, I guess like I'm 1:17:12.080 --> 1:17:16.120 trying to think in like recent I read twenty twenty. 1:17:16.160 --> 1:17:19.640 I read My Rest Relaxation, which is fiction, which I 1:17:19.640 --> 1:17:21.439 actually didn't think it was. I didn't know it was 1:17:21.479 --> 1:17:23.599 fiction because no one knew what that book was, and 1:17:23.640 --> 1:17:26.880 I had just like stumbled upon it, and I was like, oh, 1:17:27.040 --> 1:17:30.160 fun little memoir. And I'm like, I google the girl. 1:17:30.240 --> 1:17:32.839 I'm like, because like she describes herself as this like blonde, 1:17:33.040 --> 1:17:35.320 blue eyed, like gorgeous, beautiful girl, and I'm like, I 1:17:35.360 --> 1:17:37.200 need to know what this girl looks like. Halfway through 1:17:37.240 --> 1:17:39.040 the book, I look up O Tessa Moshfag and it 1:17:39.120 --> 1:17:44.320 is absolutely the opposite of like the way she had described, 1:17:44.640 --> 1:17:47.120 like the very opposite. And I was like, oh my god, 1:17:47.200 --> 1:17:49.840 this is not a real book. Like I went into 1:17:49.840 --> 1:17:52.160 this thinking that this was a memoir. 1:17:52.200 --> 1:17:54.080 Almost dude, I it is so annoying. 1:17:54.160 --> 1:17:56.599 I never finished that book because of my not finishing 1:17:56.600 --> 1:17:57.800 book syndrome. 1:17:57.960 --> 1:18:00.920 Which actually I two of the books. 1:18:00.600 --> 1:18:03.800 I just finished were books that I like had to 1:18:03.840 --> 1:18:04.760 finish because but. 1:18:04.920 --> 1:18:06.840 What's so annoying is like fucking star books. 1:18:06.840 --> 1:18:08.320 And I get like a third of the way in 1:18:08.680 --> 1:18:10.360 and then I move on to another book, get a 1:18:10.360 --> 1:18:11.639 third of the way in, and then. 1:18:11.560 --> 1:18:13.559 Once I revisit the other book to be like I'm gonna. 1:18:13.360 --> 1:18:16.400 Finish it, you forget I'm like, what the fuck is happening? 1:18:16.600 --> 1:18:19.200 Like I need to load on the page I've like started, 1:18:19.400 --> 1:18:20.680 and then I have to restart it and then I 1:18:20.680 --> 1:18:21.519 won't finish the book. 1:18:21.560 --> 1:18:23.280 But I didn't finish my year. 1:18:23.160 --> 1:18:27.000 Of rest and relaxation because I started it because of you, 1:18:27.680 --> 1:18:31.240 and it just reminded me of like my depression when 1:18:31.280 --> 1:18:34.200 I was not doing exactly what she was doing, but 1:18:34.240 --> 1:18:36.960 to an extent, just like drugging myself, sleeping all day, 1:18:37.040 --> 1:18:38.000 like being depressed. 1:18:38.240 --> 1:18:42.800 Yeah, and I started reading. I was like, damn, that 1:18:42.880 --> 1:18:44.920 was fun, Like why should I do this again? 1:18:45.479 --> 1:18:49.599 Because I'm literally like you're like no taking no dumb bitches, 1:18:49.640 --> 1:18:51.160 Like ain't that no? 1:18:52.080 --> 1:18:57.200 Literally yeah, it's also just such a repetitive book, so like, yeah, 1:18:57.640 --> 1:18:59.240 I could see you not finish. I think the only 1:18:59.280 --> 1:19:02.200 thing that you finish in a recent time was Consent. 1:19:03.400 --> 1:19:05.240 Yeah, that was like the book that was the only 1:19:05.280 --> 1:19:07.519 book that I like finished because I picked up and 1:19:07.560 --> 1:19:12.240 like drilled through everything else. I like have every book 1:19:12.240 --> 1:19:13.880 I own I've gotten a third of the way into 1:19:14.000 --> 1:19:18.000 and then just recently, I yeah, I did it with 1:19:18.000 --> 1:19:19.880 Milk Fed, I did it with Way. 1:19:19.760 --> 1:19:21.960 To the Earth. I still have the finished I think 1:19:22.200 --> 1:19:24.720 you just need a gripping story. Yeah, I because all 1:19:24.760 --> 1:19:28.920 of those the things. I mean, I haven't read milk Fed, 1:19:29.000 --> 1:19:31.559 but like I think because consent was like it was 1:19:31.600 --> 1:19:34.000 like tea, you're reading like the Bible. Yeah, I'm like, 1:19:34.080 --> 1:19:37.559 what's what's next? Yeah? Happened that book? I plowed through, but. 1:19:37.600 --> 1:19:41.479 I did finish like walking through a pool painted black 1:19:41.880 --> 1:19:44.880 and David's book, and then I had to restart bell 1:19:44.960 --> 1:19:48.200 Jar in Big Sir or no Big Star. Oh, I 1:19:48.240 --> 1:19:51.160 restarted it in Korea. See maybe that's why maybe on 1:19:51.200 --> 1:19:53.960 our chrip I'll read more. Because in Korea I finished 1:19:53.960 --> 1:19:57.920 cooking book and David's book on the fucking plane and 1:19:58.000 --> 1:20:01.280 just walking around and like reading to my and then 1:20:01.320 --> 1:20:01.839 I started. 1:20:01.920 --> 1:20:03.240 I had to restart fucking. 1:20:02.960 --> 1:20:05.800 Bell Jar because I picked up at like page sixty 1:20:05.840 --> 1:20:06.400 and I was reading it. 1:20:06.439 --> 1:20:08.759 I was like, literally, who the fuck is she talking. 1:20:08.560 --> 1:20:09.200 About right now? 1:20:09.240 --> 1:20:11.360 Like what is happening? So I had to restart it. 1:20:11.400 --> 1:20:13.800 And restarting a book is so annoying because like I 1:20:13.880 --> 1:20:15.519 hate reading a paragraph and I'm. 1:20:15.360 --> 1:20:17.040 Like, which, I know what you're about to say, Like 1:20:17.080 --> 1:20:17.760 I literally. 1:20:17.520 --> 1:20:19.840 Know what you're about to say. But I'm doing the 1:20:19.880 --> 1:20:22.120 thing where I pack too many books to bring. 1:20:21.880 --> 1:20:23.559 On our trip, I will be doing the same. 1:20:24.400 --> 1:20:26.840 But I'm oh, but see, like Annie's books from when 1:20:26.880 --> 1:20:28.080 you're telling me, I'm like, oh, that's. 1:20:27.880 --> 1:20:28.439 Good, I know. 1:20:28.600 --> 1:20:30.800 I think that you will finish her books. Yeah, I 1:20:30.840 --> 1:20:34.960 think that like her. Sorry this has gone on for 1:20:34.960 --> 1:20:38.040 so long this podcast, but no, literally, So I think 1:20:38.080 --> 1:20:42.280 also in the topic of even like going back when 1:20:42.280 --> 1:20:44.439 we're talking about getting older and like will change or 1:20:44.439 --> 1:20:48.679 whatever reading her talking about it, like some memoirs, she's 1:20:48.720 --> 1:20:52.040 like in her mid to late forties, and she has 1:20:52.200 --> 1:20:55.760 the same thought process as me in my twenties, and 1:20:55.800 --> 1:20:58.880 I'm like, holy fuck, I am never growing out of this, 1:20:59.080 --> 1:21:01.360 Like like I think that I'm going to have some 1:21:02.360 --> 1:21:04.960 money revelation one day. You're just going to wake up 1:21:04.960 --> 1:21:10.480 and be a new person, so wise and emotionally, emotionally 1:21:10.560 --> 1:21:15.920 kept exactly, but it's okay if you aren't. And also 1:21:17.120 --> 1:21:21.320 I really love writers like Sean tell Ackerman and Annie 1:21:21.400 --> 1:21:26.000 Orna who write such profound things with simple language, because 1:21:26.000 --> 1:21:28.160 I think that you assume in order to be a 1:21:28.160 --> 1:21:31.479 writer you have to like really woo the crowd with Yeah, 1:21:31.520 --> 1:21:36.080 you're like vocabulary almost, and they do a phenomenal job 1:21:36.160 --> 1:21:40.880 of making their work palatable but still profound in its 1:21:40.920 --> 1:21:41.719 own way. 1:21:41.840 --> 1:21:45.759 Yeah, it's also like then it's playing into the idea 1:21:45.760 --> 1:21:48.680 that you also are a woman and a writer, and 1:21:48.720 --> 1:21:51.240 there I feel like there's such a competition with yourself 1:21:51.280 --> 1:21:53.400 and the world and the way you want to be. 1:21:54.000 --> 1:21:57.400 You never want to be perceived as somebody who's lacking intelligence, 1:21:59.320 --> 1:22:02.920 So there's it's really easy to overcompensate and want. 1:22:02.760 --> 1:22:04.040 To be taken seriously exactly. 1:22:04.080 --> 1:22:06.080 So it's like I need to use big words, I 1:22:06.120 --> 1:22:10.599 need to explain this out in like extreme, like agonizing detail, 1:22:10.760 --> 1:22:12.760 so that it seems. 1:22:12.360 --> 1:22:14.680 Like I really have thought about this, but in reality 1:22:14.880 --> 1:22:15.360 it's not. 1:22:15.800 --> 1:22:17.519 And then you do read a book which is like 1:22:17.680 --> 1:22:20.720 very clearly like influenced by a phosaurus, and then you're like, oh, 1:22:20.760 --> 1:22:23.000 this is so pretentious. So it's like no one wins 1:22:23.000 --> 1:22:27.439 at the end of the day. Yeah, right right, Well, 1:22:27.560 --> 1:22:27.960 where you. 1:22:28.000 --> 1:22:30.320 Do that was emer in Sandcom. 1:22:30.360 --> 1:22:33.559 We're going to do some media we like, at the 1:22:33.600 --> 1:22:37.559 end of every episode, pick out a couple songs, books, movies, shows, 1:22:37.640 --> 1:22:42.960 whatever you've been consuming media wise, and we say them, 1:22:43.160 --> 1:22:47.439 I'll start it off when the sun hits slow dive, 1:22:47.680 --> 1:22:51.720 Ladies and gentlemen, we are floating in space spiritualized lover. 1:22:51.840 --> 1:22:57.800 You should have come over Jeff Buckley and then show 1:22:58.840 --> 1:22:59.960 what did we we watch something? 1:23:00.200 --> 1:23:02.360 Oh, y'all watch Black Mirror. 1:23:02.520 --> 1:23:05.520 Yeah, we like tuned into Black Mirror the first episode, 1:23:05.560 --> 1:23:08.639 and like, I don't think it was for me fully, 1:23:08.800 --> 1:23:12.400 like it was just giving, like everything everywhere all at once, 1:23:12.600 --> 1:23:15.000 like just trying to be something it's not. 1:23:15.280 --> 1:23:15.880 I've seen it. 1:23:16.240 --> 1:23:19.519 Yeah, and my dad posted a story he's in New 1:23:19.600 --> 1:23:21.960 York working. Listen to the fucking song he put on 1:23:22.000 --> 1:23:25.880 his story. This is like, I think my face, like, 1:23:25.880 --> 1:23:27.320 obviously we're on camera, so it. 1:23:27.400 --> 1:23:34.680 Showed you cannot have to wake up. Damn, he's with 1:23:34.760 --> 1:23:37.799 the shit. I was gonna talk about that this episode. 1:23:37.840 --> 1:23:42.439 I was gonna say. I literally, I was gonna say 1:23:42.439 --> 1:23:43.519 this what I was like, I'm just gonna say it 1:23:43.520 --> 1:23:45.120 for another episode. But since we're already here. 1:23:45.400 --> 1:23:51.080 When I was like seventeen, my buddy tag like knew 1:23:51.120 --> 1:23:53.599 about Playboy CARDI, I'm just gonna shut the fuck up. 1:23:53.600 --> 1:23:54.680 We'll just do media and then I'll tell it in 1:23:54.680 --> 1:23:55.439 a different episode. 1:23:55.439 --> 1:23:58.880 Sorry, got sees. Basically I went to Houston and that's 1:23:58.880 --> 1:23:59.360 all you get. 1:23:59.560 --> 1:24:02.120 But yeah, because if that's a long story, that does 1:24:02.240 --> 1:24:02.920 need to be told. 1:24:03.680 --> 1:24:05.519 I would try to say this in the last episode 1:24:05.600 --> 1:24:07.920 or the episode with Josiah, but I was high. And 1:24:08.280 --> 1:24:10.080 this is a song that's been sang by a bunch 1:24:10.080 --> 1:24:12.760 of people, but this is the version I like. Muskrat Love, 1:24:13.120 --> 1:24:17.559 Muskrat Candlelight by Willis Allen Ramsey, Take Control, count based 1:24:17.600 --> 1:24:19.519 d Wish that I could talk to you, The Silver 1:24:20.120 --> 1:24:24.920 The Silvers, t Tick Ticket Wears Off Todd Rundgren, and 1:24:25.000 --> 1:24:26.719 Hello It's Me by Todd run Grin. 1:24:27.320 --> 1:24:32.160 That's my media. Well, I didn't prepare for this, so 1:24:32.280 --> 1:24:35.960 you guys like really suck at your job. I feel 1:24:36.000 --> 1:24:38.160 like I've been listening to like Someone in Love by 1:24:38.200 --> 1:24:43.320 b York, I Wanted It To by ROBERTA. Flack, Valentine 1:24:43.560 --> 1:24:49.880 by Fiona Apple, and Lana's last album Like that is 1:24:50.640 --> 1:24:53.280 all I've really been like, truthfully've been listening. 1:24:53.000 --> 1:24:56.599 To respect you read anything that you're obsessed with? 1:24:57.280 --> 1:24:57.599 Mmm? 1:24:59.280 --> 1:25:01.679 Do I like media wise? 1:25:02.000 --> 1:25:02.679 Just book wise? 1:25:03.800 --> 1:25:05.800 I'm like, I will repeat it again. I'm in my 1:25:05.840 --> 1:25:07.840 Annie or No Kick. I've read like five of her 1:25:07.840 --> 1:25:10.519 books this year and I'm on my fifth at the moment. 1:25:11.160 --> 1:25:17.000 And yeah, well, thank you so much for being on 1:25:17.680 --> 1:25:18.600 Thanks having you. 1:25:19.520 --> 1:25:21.080 I feel bad because I feel like this is me 1:25:21.120 --> 1:25:22.519 and I yes. 1:25:22.400 --> 1:25:23.760 Yes, exactly exactly. 1:25:24.040 --> 1:25:25.880 It was. Well, that's the. 1:25:26.000 --> 1:25:28.719 Key why I was like hesitant because I'm like, that's what's. 1:25:28.520 --> 1:25:30.240 Kind of know that we talked about it before and 1:25:30.240 --> 1:25:32.719 I was like no, I'm literally so okay, Like literally, 1:25:32.800 --> 1:25:35.639 I just want to Ryan on so people can see 1:25:35.640 --> 1:25:38.080 her brain inside her head and see this version that 1:25:38.120 --> 1:25:41.679 we get to see and love. So I was more 1:25:41.680 --> 1:25:44.360 than happy to just sit back and chill. Also, y'all 1:25:44.360 --> 1:25:46.160 are just the girls, Like that's what it is. 1:25:46.439 --> 1:25:46.640 I know. 1:25:46.680 --> 1:25:49.000 I feel like that's most hang outs anyways, me and 1:25:49.080 --> 1:25:49.479 or I be. 1:25:49.439 --> 1:25:53.320 Like Andrew's like yeah, yeah, no I thought that too. 1:25:53.880 --> 1:25:57.680 Yeah exactly exactly literally. 1:25:57.640 --> 1:25:59.760 But yeah, thank you so much for being on. I 1:25:59.760 --> 1:26:02.360 think it was an awesome episode, and thank you guys 1:26:02.360 --> 1:26:02.920 for watching. 1:26:03.400 --> 1:26:06.720 Peace and love and unity and respect. Now let's go 1:26:06.880 --> 1:26:32.600 boom m