WEBVTT - How- to Redefine Rest, Success, and Motherhood

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<v Speaker 1>What is the mini retirement update? How's it going? Is? It?

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<v Speaker 1>Has it started?

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<v Speaker 2>So it's gonna look a little bit different and it's

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<v Speaker 2>not as like planned out as I thought it would

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<v Speaker 2>be by this point, but it's all coming together. Everything

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<v Speaker 2>is fallen into place, and I'm just excited for what's

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<v Speaker 2>to come.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's a word. Especially as moms, we're so unfree. Hey,

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<v Speaker 1>ba fan, welcome to the Brown table, Welcome to Brown Ambition.

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<v Speaker 1>I have the beautiful, the stunning Nasima McElroy here with

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<v Speaker 1>me financially intentional. If you're not already following her on ig,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not sure what you're waiting for. That's your main channel, right,

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<v Speaker 1>Are you also TikTok famous? I'm I'm not a TikToker,

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<v Speaker 1>not yet. I need to, I need to. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a lot to man. If they would just be

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<v Speaker 1>friends and you could upload one thing there and then both,

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<v Speaker 1>but they're both. It's two, they're two petties. It's a

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<v Speaker 1>whole different a whole different universe over there. Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so grateful. We both just got back for some travel.

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<v Speaker 1>I think your trip was probably more beautiful than mine.

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<v Speaker 1>But you tell me you were at Lake Tahoe. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>it was. It was actually pretty beautiful with serene.

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<v Speaker 2>It was like hot and I don't know, like most

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<v Speaker 2>people don't know like Lake Tahoe facts, but it's so

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<v Speaker 2>deep that the water never really warms up, like it's

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<v Speaker 2>always super cold.

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<v Speaker 1>But because of.

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<v Speaker 2>Global warming, it was kind of tolerable enough that you

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<v Speaker 2>can kind of get into get in it. So we

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<v Speaker 2>had a good time out there. And I have a

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<v Speaker 2>really good friend who is actually in the personal finance community.

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<v Speaker 2>Her name is Lisa Peterson. She wrote the book The

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<v Speaker 2>Mindful Millionaire. Her daughter has a house out there, and

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<v Speaker 2>her daughter has like this crazy social media following she's

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<v Speaker 2>called the adventure Addicts. And so yeah, her daughter was

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<v Speaker 2>able to buy a house in Lake Tahoe. But I've

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<v Speaker 2>been knowing her since her was like still in college,

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<v Speaker 2>and so to be able to watch their journey and

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<v Speaker 2>then to be able to like go and share and

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<v Speaker 2>all that stuff was like beautiful. And it's like she's

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<v Speaker 2>one of the kind of people that I look to

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<v Speaker 2>for like parenting advice. So it was great. We had

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<v Speaker 2>a good Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So she gets so her daughter hosted that's crazy to

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<v Speaker 1>think one day My best was one of my good friends.

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<v Speaker 1>Their kid may host me at their house, her daughters

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<v Speaker 1>in her.

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<v Speaker 2>And so she was house sitting and so you know,

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<v Speaker 2>we got to enjoy the fruits of her labor.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that even more because then you can get

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<v Speaker 1>up to no good and you don't have like the

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<v Speaker 1>kid whose diapers used to change there watching you get

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<v Speaker 1>drunk two in them afternoon for just me.

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<v Speaker 2>But it was it was great. It was a lovely

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<v Speaker 2>experience and just oh my goodness, the nature, the whole

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<v Speaker 2>familion and all the kids. They really enjoyed themselves. And

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<v Speaker 2>we actually used to live around that area. Well we

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<v Speaker 2>used to live around like Tahoe as well, but on

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<v Speaker 2>in other parts. We had never been to that side,

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<v Speaker 2>so it was a good experience. They but they don't

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<v Speaker 2>really remember it.

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<v Speaker 1>Who yeah, oh ok.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Like this one was born there and she's like,

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<v Speaker 2>I want to go back and I want to live there,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm just like.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't even like remember what it was like, but

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<v Speaker 1>you can't tell her that. So well, I love that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, the last time you were on the show. It's

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<v Speaker 1>been a couple of months since you and you Elli

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<v Speaker 1>were on the show, so we were soft launching a

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<v Speaker 1>Boo and we were hard launching many retirement. I want

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<v Speaker 1>updates on both, which one, which one we're doing? We

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<v Speaker 1>can play it cute and skip the boo. We can

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<v Speaker 1>go then retirement.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, listen, the boo situation is situationing like it's great.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, I don't know why I got worried. You're playing

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<v Speaker 1>it too cool. Yeah, it's We're good. That's going well.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you'll see I think you'll see more of that

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<v Speaker 2>situation play out.

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<v Speaker 1>So I've been gone for a week though. So my

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<v Speaker 1>trip was I went to Atlanta. I was in Atlanta

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<v Speaker 1>four oh yes, yes, yes, eight days with me and

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<v Speaker 1>Remi ru. My dad just had a kidney transplant, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was there to shuttle him from appointments and just

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<v Speaker 1>just like have eyes on the eagle because that man

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<v Speaker 1>cannot be trusted, especially not with no new organ in

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<v Speaker 1>his body, and to babysit him basically while my brother

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<v Speaker 1>was out of town. But while I was gone, my

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<v Speaker 1>five year old and my husband were here to their

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<v Speaker 1>own devices. And I had really had to let go

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<v Speaker 1>and let God because I knew I'd be coming back

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<v Speaker 1>to all of my beautiful systems being destroyed. I knew

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<v Speaker 1>that I knew bedtime was a rap. I knew bathtime

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<v Speaker 1>maybe once or twice once. Let's not talk about it.

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<v Speaker 1>When he when when real jumped in my arms at

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<v Speaker 1>the airport. I mean he smelled okay, but his hair, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, the hair was neglected. The curls were sad,

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<v Speaker 1>they were it was giving. I mean, all hair texture

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<v Speaker 1>is beautiful, but it was giving like straw, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like he clearly had not been bathed or his hair

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<v Speaker 1>had not been washed and moisturized since pool day last Tuesday,

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<v Speaker 1>okay and pool day, Oh god, oh my god, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. I can't even but I got back yesterday

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<v Speaker 1>and I am slowly just piecing this house back together

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<v Speaker 1>to uh, did you at least get to see biance again?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, on my mouth, my voice back down

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<v Speaker 1>to we're jumping all over the place. This is very

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<v Speaker 1>adhd of me. Undiagnosed, very much undignosed, diagnosed. I'm very diagnosed.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, I see Beyonce again. Yes I did,

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<v Speaker 1>And it was the best decision I ever made. I

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<v Speaker 1>haven't felt that way about spending money like where since

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<v Speaker 1>my wedding. Really, Like I can think of a couple

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<v Speaker 1>things that have I have been like, oh, that was

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<v Speaker 1>worth every overpriced dollar my wedding, because that was a time, beautiful, stunning,

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<v Speaker 1>ten out of ten. I love it and going to

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<v Speaker 1>see Beyonce, I'm never not getting fed. Like I'm leaving

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<v Speaker 1>there full if you're open, like if you go with

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<v Speaker 1>the right mindset, if you go to like have a

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<v Speaker 1>good time, because I don't know. I was sitting next

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<v Speaker 1>to people when Atlanta who were just sat there like

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<v Speaker 1>where I was in the floor seats, but they literally

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<v Speaker 1>just wanted to sit in their seats. Yeah, and Atlanta

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<v Speaker 1>I was so confused, interesting and weren't singing and screaming

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<v Speaker 1>every song. And I'm like the way I come out

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<v Speaker 1>of my own body when I'm at a Beyonce show,

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<v Speaker 1>i am just like feral. I am singing every lyric,

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<v Speaker 1>I am talking to her through the songs. I am

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<v Speaker 1>losing my voice. But it was such a good use

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<v Speaker 1>of money. I just I love money so much. I

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<v Speaker 1>love it so much because it gives me that kind

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<v Speaker 1>of experience. And I went by myself, which was very

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<v Speaker 1>grown woman. That is very grown. I did have a

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<v Speaker 1>bit of drama though I shared this on Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>was so under it because like the last thing I

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<v Speaker 1>saw like it was like your tickets wasn't right. And

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<v Speaker 1>then so I bought the ticket because when I booked

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<v Speaker 1>my trip to Georgia, it was only a few weeks ago,

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<v Speaker 1>and I mean I was I wasn't going. It wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>the point of my trip. My point was to be

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<v Speaker 1>there for Dad. I stayed a lot longer than I

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<v Speaker 1>might have if Beyonce hadn't been in town that weekend.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like the volunteers Tribute, I'll take care of dad. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the best daughter ever. Meanwhile, me get on StubHub

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<v Speaker 1>and I don't know why I didn't just go to Ticketmaster.

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<v Speaker 1>I forget how I ended up on StubHub. I have

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<v Speaker 1>bought tickets on StubHub before. I don't remember it being

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<v Speaker 1>a situation where you didn't get your tickets immediately and

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<v Speaker 1>you had to wait. And because of that, I bought

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<v Speaker 1>the tickets. They were like five hundred dollars made about

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<v Speaker 1>a ticket five hundred bucks, and I bought the ticket

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted I have been. I just saw her in London,

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<v Speaker 1>me and my friend. We we were standing in the

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<v Speaker 1>honeybuck and pit on the side of the stage, so

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<v Speaker 1>close you know, next to the fans that are blowing

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<v Speaker 1>in her. It was an amazing experience. But I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be more. I wanted to be center. I wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be further out so I can see the whole stage.

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<v Speaker 1>And I had a very specific idea of where I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to sit. So that's why I bought that ticket. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>it wastenchional. Also it was a damn good deal. It

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<v Speaker 1>was the front row of a floor section because I

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<v Speaker 1>don't like being on the floor because you got people's

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<v Speaker 1>big ass heads in front of you and you're all

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<v Speaker 1>on the same level. And even though I'm tall, I

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<v Speaker 1>knew people going to be wearing hats like we're doing

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<v Speaker 1>the most. I wanted to be front row. The morning

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<v Speaker 1>of the show, I got an email from stub Hub. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>first I got a phone call. I'm getting ready for church,

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<v Speaker 1>taking ready to church, And I got a phone call

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<v Speaker 1>and I was ignoring it because it was like an

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<v Speaker 1>eight seven seven number. And then I got the voicemail.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like, we're calling from stub Hub. The seller

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<v Speaker 1>has had issues, has had issues transferring your tickets. Maybe

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<v Speaker 1>they didn't have a ticket mmm mm hmm. I was

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<v Speaker 1>so confused. I'm like, what do you need my ticket?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I already have it? No, woman, I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>already have the ticket. I was supposed to have it

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<v Speaker 1>transferred to me, but I was so used to just

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<v Speaker 1>buying a ticket and having it that I didn't like

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<v Speaker 1>read the email carefully when I got it. So I

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<v Speaker 1>was on the phone with stub Hub and they basically

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<v Speaker 1>said that that ticket was no longer available, which I

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<v Speaker 1>was in denial because how could it no longer be available?

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<v Speaker 1>I paid for it they and their system is that

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<v Speaker 1>they send you a link to alternative choices. So the

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<v Speaker 1>seller who was clearly some like ticket, you know, ticket,

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<v Speaker 1>not as I guess, a scalper galpar yeah, not a

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<v Speaker 1>scam per se because I was going to get a

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<v Speaker 1>ticket apparently, but a bait and switch happened. So clearly

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<v Speaker 1>he had sold my cut my ticket available and sold

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<v Speaker 1>it for a higher price the day of the show,

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<v Speaker 1>So it was no longer available to me, but he

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<v Speaker 1>was offering me and I'm saying he, They said he,

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, how do you know who this

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<v Speaker 1>person is? They were on the phone with him apparently

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<v Speaker 1>on the other line, and he had I had a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of options from him available that were like they

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<v Speaker 1>were staged right bound off to the side on the floor,

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<v Speaker 1>but off to the side, and I'm like, no, I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to this matters to me. I want to be

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<v Speaker 1>dead center. I want to see I want to see

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<v Speaker 1>everything from this viewpoint. And I was really upset and

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<v Speaker 1>I was kind of like disassociated from it because I'm

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<v Speaker 1>taking care of two babies at this point and got

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<v Speaker 1>my dad and I got my actual baby, and We're

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<v Speaker 1>trying to get to church and anything. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, I'm just gonna I'm gonna I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to decline the alternative that he offered, and I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to tell stub Hub exactly what I want. I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to be center. I don't want anything else.

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<v Speaker 1>And then we went to church, and three hours later,

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<v Speaker 1>feah hours later, I oh gotta love church. Three hours later,

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<v Speaker 1>I had to claw my way out of that church

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<v Speaker 1>because you know, they had two people manning the door

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<v Speaker 1>to black people from leaving. I haven't meant to church

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<v Speaker 1>in a long time, let alone, like this is my

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<v Speaker 1>two people at the door. Oh sorry, sorry, no one

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<v Speaker 1>can leave. All pastors praying. I'm like pastor's been praying.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean no disrespect. First of all, I'm a heathen.

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't been a church in forever. But meanwhile, I

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<v Speaker 1>have my roots are in the Black Baptist Church. Like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a Southern Baptist girl, and my aunt Brenda, my

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<v Speaker 1>uncle uncle Chrystley, Uncle Booby call him, they're both like

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<v Speaker 1>assistant pastors at this really, you know, humble, What other

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<v Speaker 1>way can I describe it? Humble? Classic Black Baptist church,

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<v Speaker 1>like in the heart of Atlanta, and you know, like,

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<v Speaker 1>is the ac gonna work today? We don't know. I

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<v Speaker 1>may or. I dressed light, I brought ice water. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I'm hydrating, Like I know, I pretty much

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<v Speaker 1>know what to expect, but I haven't actually been to

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<v Speaker 1>the church, despite trying for a while. So me and

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<v Speaker 1>Remy and I should have known better because my dad

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I'm dropping y'all off. I'm gonna go get

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<v Speaker 1>a haircut. I'll see y'all later. I was like, Daddy,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't want to come to church, like, may be

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<v Speaker 1>part of that right now. I'm like, nah, I'm good,

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<v Speaker 1>see y'all later. Bye. Ran for it. But it was

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<v Speaker 1>it was actually a really beautiful experience. But two and

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<v Speaker 1>a half hours in, I was about done. I felt bad.

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<v Speaker 1>My friend and I had to get up out of there.

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<v Speaker 1>I have a two year old, he's hungry. I'm hungry.

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<v Speaker 1>I got and I wasn't going to tell them because

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to know. And I worshiped a fal

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<v Speaker 1>saddle Beyonce, but I was like, I have to go.

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<v Speaker 1>I had things to do. And they had two men

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<v Speaker 1>at the door. Yes. And at first I was like, oh, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>pastor's prying, okay, And this is after the sermon. People

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<v Speaker 1>are just going up for their blessing or whatever. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, oh, okay, gotcha understood. And then I had

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<v Speaker 1>to sit down and talk to myself. I'm like, you're

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<v Speaker 1>a grown woman. They can't. They can to stay inside

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<v Speaker 1>this building, like for me can knock this door down.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a very small church. And I had to go

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<v Speaker 1>back and be like, I'm so sorry, I really need

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<v Speaker 1>to go. My rides outside and I escaped and it

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<v Speaker 1>was and I escaped before I got to I got

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<v Speaker 1>and I know my aunt, my aunt has been dying

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<v Speaker 1>for me to come and I and and I know

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<v Speaker 1>she wanted me to like meet all the meet her

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<v Speaker 1>past her, head past her. I know she wanted me

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<v Speaker 1>to meet her whole, like the whole whole community. And

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I'm so sorry. Next time. Next time. Now,

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<v Speaker 1>I know, when Aunt Brenda tells you to come to

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<v Speaker 1>church at eleven, get there at twelve forty five, and

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<v Speaker 1>then if you spend two three and a half three

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<v Speaker 1>hours there, then you'll be there long enough to be

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<v Speaker 1>able to withstand the social interaction at the end. Because

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<v Speaker 1>I depleted, depleted, Yeah, it's way too much. Will you try?

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<v Speaker 1>You did it? Girl? I couldn't you been a better

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<v Speaker 1>person than me? Really not a church girl.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, So I I grew up Muslim, but my dad

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<v Speaker 2>was the only Muslim person in the family, and so

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<v Speaker 2>everybody else, you know, was Christian, and so I am

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<v Speaker 2>very familiar with church, but that's never been my thing,

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<v Speaker 2>and so like to be able to sit through something

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<v Speaker 2>like that, I couldn't ever.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, hey, ba fam, we're gonna take a quick break,

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<v Speaker 1>pay some bills, and we'll be right back. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>ba fam, We're back. I think only because I knew

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<v Speaker 1>half the people, and I mean it's a small trash

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<v Speaker 1>because the choir is like, oh, there's my cousin Tuki.

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<v Speaker 1>There's my cousin Ruby, There's my cousin Quita. Like it's

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<v Speaker 1>family and for me, I love that. Oh two Ki Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>well her real name is Wandra putting all her business

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<v Speaker 1>out there. No one has a real name. Everyone's got

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<v Speaker 1>it's like Uncle Boo, I mean Uncle Kresley Kresley, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, but it was me getting to see

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<v Speaker 1>them in this element. It was for me, it felt

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<v Speaker 1>like I was watching a show, not to like not

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<v Speaker 1>to token eyes or to like diminish the how much

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<v Speaker 1>they love it and how how much it means to them.

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<v Speaker 1>But it was just really beautiful for me to be

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<v Speaker 1>in that environment and to see them do their thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I never get to see my I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>my aunt brand is always trying to preach to me

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<v Speaker 1>on the phone. But it was cool. It was really

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<v Speaker 1>cool to see her in her bag, you know, in

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<v Speaker 1>the right context, not when I'm trying to like get

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<v Speaker 1>her off.

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<v Speaker 2>The phone, get off the phone.

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<v Speaker 1>And seeing my uncle Boo and like seeing the way

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<v Speaker 1>that the move the music was moving him. He's you know,

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<v Speaker 1>he's my older. These are my great uncles and they

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<v Speaker 1>are you know, they're older, they're getting on but he

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<v Speaker 1>got and he has a bad back, but he got up.

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<v Speaker 1>He was doing his little to his little two step.

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<v Speaker 1>The Holy Spirit was moving him. And you know, cousin

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<v Speaker 1>Tuki and and Brenda were they were singing, they're doing

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<v Speaker 1>and it was and then my cousin be her son

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<v Speaker 1>is like on the keys, and then two key and

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<v Speaker 1>then another. I forget. I got always cousins. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know which cousin it was who was also on the keys.

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<v Speaker 1>Another cousin's doing the drums. It's I don't know. It

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<v Speaker 1>felt really, I'm not gonna lie. I got really emotional

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<v Speaker 1>during the service and after because I won. I'm coming

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<v Speaker 1>off my zoloft finally after five years, so we have withdrawals.

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<v Speaker 1>But two All week I had been like running and

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<v Speaker 1>anxious and like doing stuff and moving from here to

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<v Speaker 1>there with the kid and my dad and all that.

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<v Speaker 1>And I had not had any quiet reflection time. And

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<v Speaker 1>there was something really special about the like being in

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<v Speaker 1>that environment because it invites you. I'm not telling anyone

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<v Speaker 1>listening anything new, probably about church, like did you know

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<v Speaker 1>at church? Let me tell you something breaking what it

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<v Speaker 1>might be teaching me because I don't know, Well, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a quiet it's a quiet reflective I mean, full shit,

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<v Speaker 1>never mind it my that church was not quiet, but

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<v Speaker 1>it is a moment that invites reflection. Yeah, and the

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<v Speaker 1>minute I started to reflect on what I had been

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<v Speaker 1>going through that week and that day, And yes I

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<v Speaker 1>thought about Beyonce tickets during it, but I try not

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<v Speaker 1>to be too distract Yeah. Everything, and then and just

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that I hadn't been to church in so long,

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<v Speaker 1>and that I hadn't really gotten to embrace this part

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<v Speaker 1>of my heritage and so long. And I'm just thinking

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<v Speaker 1>about me as a baby going to churches like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I was so shy and every time my dad would

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<v Speaker 1>bring us to church, it would be like an event,

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<v Speaker 1>like they would like, talk about us, stand up now

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<v Speaker 1>in the back. Who you got back there, Amanda? And

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<v Speaker 1>I would be mortified. And I never felt comfortable in

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<v Speaker 1>that space. So I started reflecting about all that. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm feeling very connected to Atlanta lately and Georgia and

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<v Speaker 1>so anyway, Yeah, I got in my fields. And when

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<v Speaker 1>I left church, I thought, this is when I let

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<v Speaker 1>go and let God. So when I leave church, they

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<v Speaker 1>will have figured out the Beyonce tickets, right, No, no, nothing,

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<v Speaker 1>nothing had changed, and I had I was like, either

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<v Speaker 1>going to have to fight it, like use more energy.

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<v Speaker 1>I have three or four hours, so I'm ready trying

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<v Speaker 1>to get to the show and like use that energy

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<v Speaker 1>to fight it and get the tickets that I really wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>But I was like, you know what, just give me stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Hubba offered me floor tickets, but no longer front row

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<v Speaker 1>of the floor section. Now I was in the back.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh god. So I took the ticket. I'm like, fine,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm still gonna have a great time. I'll fight with

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<v Speaker 1>them tomorrow. And I went and I had me a

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<v Speaker 1>good ass time and it was so fun nice. I

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<v Speaker 1>put together a little fit. Okay, all the girls were

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<v Speaker 1>at the country Western stores. Let me tell you, we

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<v Speaker 1>had those Mexicans work in hard, very western stores. Like

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<v Speaker 1>it's Mexicans, Okay. When the rodeo alive? Right? Oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>oh for sure. And I'm sure there's another name for

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to think of the name. What do Mexicans

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<v Speaker 1>call the rodeo? Like what their gauchos whatever, that whole

0:18:53.920 --> 0:18:56.320
<v Speaker 1>Mexican cowboy thing like that. It's I guess it runs

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<v Speaker 1>deep in Georgia, which makes sense. We have a huge,

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<v Speaker 1>huge Mexican population in and around Atlanta. But I looked

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<v Speaker 1>up the closest country Western store. I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to get some real authentic shit every time me

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<v Speaker 1>why every cowboy, Carter attendee, all the all the girls

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<v Speaker 1>had the same idea. We all got on Google, found

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<v Speaker 1>the same store and we bought the place out. They

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<v Speaker 1>were I mean like there were no boots left, the

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<v Speaker 1>hats where they were like those those girls were sweating

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<v Speaker 1>running around trying to get what we needed, like and

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<v Speaker 1>they were stressed. But tell me why Beyonce was blasting

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<v Speaker 1>on the speakers. I knew. I was like, we were

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<v Speaker 1>uplifting the local economy. This is amazing. Yes, And I

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<v Speaker 1>got a cute got a cute little bit, got some boots,

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<v Speaker 1>got a hat, had me as I loved that. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god. Wait, somehow we got on that whole tangent

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<v Speaker 1>when I was trying to ask you about your mini

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<v Speaker 1>retirement and I have no idea how, but I had

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<v Speaker 1>to get off my chest. So okay, so I went

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<v Speaker 1>to Beyonce to what what's your what's your? What is

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<v Speaker 1>the mini retirement update? How's it going?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it?

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<v Speaker 1>Has it started?

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<v Speaker 2>So I am taking a break is gonna look a

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<v Speaker 2>little bit different. Yeah, I can't. Well, yeah, there's going

0:20:18.480 --> 0:20:20.520
<v Speaker 2>to be a break. And there's some stuff that I

0:20:20.600 --> 0:20:24.719
<v Speaker 2>have to do with my kids, Like I'm taking my

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<v Speaker 2>daughter next week to Columbia for a mommy daughter.

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<v Speaker 1>Retreat, which one than the eleven year old.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, uh huh. It's like a coming up age like bonding.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, it's like the time where they start to

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<v Speaker 2>rebel and kind of pull away, but like my you know,

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<v Speaker 2>uh source to kind of like bring them back in

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<v Speaker 2>and give you the resources that you need to have

0:20:47.960 --> 0:20:50.919
<v Speaker 2>those conversations that are really hard to have or that

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<v Speaker 2>you never knew how to have because like I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>have a mom, so I didn't know how to have

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<v Speaker 2>those kinds. I don't know how to have those kinds.

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<v Speaker 2>M she left when I was five, and she was

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<v Speaker 2>around like I would go there like during holidays or whatever,

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<v Speaker 2>but she, you know, she wasn't a mom. You know

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of people, there's a lot of people that

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<v Speaker 2>don't really want to be moms, but they have kids

0:21:16.560 --> 0:21:20.399
<v Speaker 2>because but it's a whole different situations. Like Dad's like

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<v Speaker 2>you have you can you can parent, you can have kids,

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<v Speaker 2>but you don't know how to parent. It was like

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<v Speaker 2>one of those situations, so you know, all of this

0:21:27.960 --> 0:21:32.720
<v Speaker 2>stuff about parenting like like just kind of flying. But

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I'm just taking along. I believe me, Mandy,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm trying, but.

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<v Speaker 1>A good mom. I'm not the best. I didn't say

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<v Speaker 1>you were the best and said you were such a

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<v Speaker 1>good mom. Yeah, I'm trying.

0:21:50.720 --> 0:21:54.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying, like every day, like I'm trying so doing that,

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<v Speaker 2>just taking time, just being with the kids because they

0:21:58.800 --> 0:22:03.159
<v Speaker 2>need me. I can't get this time back and I

0:22:03.200 --> 0:22:08.960
<v Speaker 2>don't have a defined time, but I'm taking some time.

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<v Speaker 2>It just looks a little bit different. Like I really

0:22:12.240 --> 0:22:15.879
<v Speaker 2>wanted to take the kids to like Costa Rica and

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<v Speaker 2>like really explore and like do some world schooling, but

0:22:21.040 --> 0:22:25.520
<v Speaker 2>my daddy was like I can't do that, And I

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<v Speaker 2>was like fine because I'm not because he's really a

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<v Speaker 2>good cull parent and I'm not trying to mess up

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<v Speaker 2>the relationship up.

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<v Speaker 1>So you know, I had to give a little bit. Oh,

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<v Speaker 1>I understand, you know, I that's really tough. It's even

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<v Speaker 1>being in Georgia with my two year old for a

0:22:42.200 --> 0:22:47.439
<v Speaker 1>week and having my husband up here. I like I

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<v Speaker 1>felt the type of way about him like it was weird.

0:22:52.040 --> 0:22:55.280
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I want to see when I was

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<v Speaker 1>trying to FaceTime my five year old and like he

0:22:57.280 --> 0:23:00.480
<v Speaker 1>wasn't like enriy Kue wasn't my husband wasn't available. Mind you,

0:23:00.480 --> 0:23:02.439
<v Speaker 1>we're still married, we're together. And I was like, what

0:23:02.440 --> 0:23:04.200
<v Speaker 1>do you mean You're keeping my son from me? You're

0:23:04.280 --> 0:23:07.760
<v Speaker 1>keeping my child, I my time, you know, and you

0:23:08.119 --> 0:23:11.240
<v Speaker 1>like even you know, even so I can't even imagine,

0:23:11.359 --> 0:23:14.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, if that was you know, our forever reality.

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<v Speaker 1>So I am sad because I think the last time

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<v Speaker 1>you were on the show, you really like, you know,

0:23:20.480 --> 0:23:22.280
<v Speaker 1>you had your ideal of what you wanted the many

0:23:22.359 --> 0:23:26.360
<v Speaker 1>retirement to look like. But that's some real, real shit. Yeah.

0:23:26.400 --> 0:23:30.040
<v Speaker 2>It was some like like come to Jesus, like listen,

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<v Speaker 2>like you can't move like that because that's not your reality.

0:23:34.640 --> 0:23:38.080
<v Speaker 2>And you know, I was like, okay, well it's not

0:23:38.119 --> 0:23:40.280
<v Speaker 2>gonna work out like I thought it would, because like

0:23:40.400 --> 0:23:43.399
<v Speaker 2>I thought, like I guess, I thought I had communicated

0:23:43.440 --> 0:23:46.479
<v Speaker 2>it better and I thought we had the conversation and

0:23:46.840 --> 0:23:50.280
<v Speaker 2>even if we did, like at that point, he wasn't

0:23:50.320 --> 0:23:52.679
<v Speaker 2>ready for that. And I was like, well, what do

0:23:52.760 --> 0:23:57.200
<v Speaker 2>you do? Like I can't sacrifice this relationship. He's worried

0:23:57.200 --> 0:23:59.360
<v Speaker 2>about putting a strain on a relationship with this kid,

0:23:59.400 --> 0:24:00.359
<v Speaker 2>with the kids, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm just like, that's very fair, knowingly so, but okay, fine,

0:24:06.560 --> 0:24:12.720
<v Speaker 1>right right when they care to be involved, exactly, it's

0:24:13.119 --> 0:24:15.400
<v Speaker 1>double edged or it's like, you know, you want them

0:24:15.400 --> 0:24:17.719
<v Speaker 1>to be involved, but then they're involved and say you

0:24:17.760 --> 0:24:22.600
<v Speaker 1>have to deal with It's not a dictatorship, No, it's not. So.

0:24:23.440 --> 0:24:25.679
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I think it's all gonna work out for

0:24:25.760 --> 0:24:29.639
<v Speaker 2>the good. Like it, everything always works out, So I

0:24:29.680 --> 0:24:32.640
<v Speaker 2>don't have any bad feelings about it. It just looks

0:24:32.680 --> 0:24:38.280
<v Speaker 2>different and it's not as like planned out as I

0:24:38.320 --> 0:24:40.440
<v Speaker 2>thought it would be by this point. But it's all

0:24:40.480 --> 0:24:42.959
<v Speaker 2>coming together. Everything is falling into place, and I'm just

0:24:43.000 --> 0:24:44.760
<v Speaker 2>excited for what's to come.

0:24:45.400 --> 0:24:49.640
<v Speaker 1>I think that's a word. Especially as moms, we're so unfree.

0:24:50.800 --> 0:24:54.160
<v Speaker 1>It's so you know, how you try to have like, oh,

0:24:54.240 --> 0:24:57.000
<v Speaker 1>it's a beautiful day, it's a nice sunset, let's pack

0:24:57.000 --> 0:24:59.040
<v Speaker 1>the kids up and go to the park and just enjoy.

0:24:59.320 --> 0:25:02.840
<v Speaker 1>There's no such thing is a simple choice, you know,

0:25:02.920 --> 0:25:04.720
<v Speaker 1>even if you can plan for days and weeks and

0:25:04.760 --> 0:25:09.000
<v Speaker 1>then the reality of it, of the complications and the

0:25:09.000 --> 0:25:13.119
<v Speaker 1>people involved can quickly jerk you in a direction you

0:25:13.119 --> 0:25:15.320
<v Speaker 1>never wanted to be in or complicate everything, and so

0:25:15.840 --> 0:25:20.240
<v Speaker 1>I just I really appreciate you for sharing that, And

0:25:21.359 --> 0:25:24.560
<v Speaker 1>also I think it's a good just for anyone who's

0:25:24.600 --> 0:25:26.920
<v Speaker 1>thinking about the way that retirement will look for them,

0:25:27.359 --> 0:25:29.360
<v Speaker 1>or the way that their career will look for them,

0:25:29.520 --> 0:25:32.560
<v Speaker 1>and the vision that they have for you know, I

0:25:32.800 --> 0:25:34.680
<v Speaker 1>hear all the time, I'm gonna work really really hard

0:25:34.720 --> 0:25:37.159
<v Speaker 1>until I'm forty five, and then I'm gonna take you know,

0:25:37.160 --> 0:25:39.679
<v Speaker 1>then I'm gonna quit. I'm gonna go retire early, and

0:25:39.720 --> 0:25:42.520
<v Speaker 1>it's going to look a certain way. But life has

0:25:42.840 --> 0:25:46.879
<v Speaker 1>other plans sometimes. And does that mean that we're going

0:25:46.960 --> 0:25:50.119
<v Speaker 1>to give up the hope and the goal of getting

0:25:50.119 --> 0:25:53.040
<v Speaker 1>that time for rest and for like you said, like

0:25:53.119 --> 0:25:57.360
<v Speaker 1>you know, educating your girls globally and really exposing them

0:25:57.359 --> 0:25:59.440
<v Speaker 1>to a lot of the world and you know, to

0:25:59.520 --> 0:26:01.480
<v Speaker 1>teach all the learnings and teachings that you wanted to

0:26:01.840 --> 0:26:05.359
<v Speaker 1>give them. Like that can still happen. There's still time

0:26:05.400 --> 0:26:08.760
<v Speaker 1>for it, but maybe it's a week here, a couple

0:26:08.720 --> 0:26:12.640
<v Speaker 1>of months there, or whatever, you know, patched together. Yeah,

0:26:12.840 --> 0:26:15.520
<v Speaker 1>So what does that mean for you? Job wise? Are

0:26:15.560 --> 0:26:18.200
<v Speaker 1>you able to. I mean, you're a nurse, so you're

0:26:18.440 --> 0:26:22.000
<v Speaker 1>you have like forever job security in that sense.

0:26:22.440 --> 0:26:26.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'll be okay, Like, like the job is still

0:26:26.240 --> 0:26:31.359
<v Speaker 2>there for right now, it's just looks more like me

0:26:31.440 --> 0:26:36.719
<v Speaker 2>taking a break, but it's still it's still there. So

0:26:36.800 --> 0:26:40.439
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to take it like in increments of what

0:26:40.480 --> 0:26:42.520
<v Speaker 2>that's going to look like, if like when I'm going

0:26:42.600 --> 0:26:44.880
<v Speaker 2>to go back, or how it's going to look when

0:26:44.920 --> 0:26:48.000
<v Speaker 2>I go back. You know, I still have other stuff

0:26:48.040 --> 0:26:51.080
<v Speaker 2>going on, like when you date to one that's across

0:26:51.160 --> 0:26:54.399
<v Speaker 2>the country from you. You know, all of that stuff

0:26:54.440 --> 0:26:57.840
<v Speaker 2>has a role to play, and like how I'm gonna move.

0:26:57.920 --> 0:27:01.000
<v Speaker 2>So I'm just taking my time, letting things kind of

0:27:01.000 --> 0:27:04.280
<v Speaker 2>play out and then I just know it'll work out

0:27:04.400 --> 0:27:06.840
<v Speaker 2>as it's supposed to be. But like I said, like

0:27:06.880 --> 0:27:08.720
<v Speaker 2>it's not as defined as I thought it would be

0:27:08.800 --> 0:27:11.600
<v Speaker 2>at this point, and that's okay because it's still is

0:27:11.640 --> 0:27:12.359
<v Speaker 2>still all good.

0:27:12.920 --> 0:27:15.439
<v Speaker 1>It's still working out. We're still moving into rows. We're

0:27:15.480 --> 0:27:19.840
<v Speaker 1>obsessed with you. I want to I love the idea

0:27:19.880 --> 0:27:22.320
<v Speaker 1>of I mean, how beautiful is that to take? How

0:27:22.359 --> 0:27:24.360
<v Speaker 1>long You're going to be in Columbia with your eldest

0:27:25.280 --> 0:27:29.199
<v Speaker 1>for a week one week. Mm hmm. That's incredible. I

0:27:29.200 --> 0:27:34.639
<v Speaker 1>mean I wonder how many parents like this is what

0:27:34.680 --> 0:27:36.800
<v Speaker 1>the money is for in a way, like to do

0:27:36.840 --> 0:27:40.320
<v Speaker 1>a retreat like this. Yeah, especially like the way you said,

0:27:40.359 --> 0:27:42.200
<v Speaker 1>at a time when they're like she's becoming a little

0:27:42.240 --> 0:27:48.800
<v Speaker 1>preteen and all the changes and ugh, that's really really special.

0:27:49.880 --> 0:27:52.320
<v Speaker 1>And who hosts it is it's like a like is

0:27:52.359 --> 0:27:54.520
<v Speaker 1>it for mothers and daughters specifically?

0:27:55.280 --> 0:27:58.760
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's it's a mommy and me retreat is specifically

0:27:58.840 --> 0:28:01.480
<v Speaker 2>for that. It's the girls have to be a certain

0:28:01.560 --> 0:28:06.439
<v Speaker 2>age to participate, like it's in the they have certain

0:28:06.480 --> 0:28:10.679
<v Speaker 2>ceremonies that they do, like it's all planned out, like

0:28:10.720 --> 0:28:12.800
<v Speaker 2>the retreat space is just for us.

0:28:14.119 --> 0:28:16.240
<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, it's.

0:28:16.080 --> 0:28:19.760
<v Speaker 2>So I'm looking forward to it because it's like during

0:28:19.800 --> 0:28:22.760
<v Speaker 2>the time. Yeah, it's like during the time when you know,

0:28:23.720 --> 0:28:26.680
<v Speaker 2>you know, they're in they're they're in their preteen they're

0:28:26.720 --> 0:28:30.560
<v Speaker 2>tweens and or teenage years, and they're starting to pull

0:28:30.600 --> 0:28:33.480
<v Speaker 2>away and that relationship is starting to become afraid and

0:28:33.520 --> 0:28:35.560
<v Speaker 2>I'm starting to feel that. I started to feel that,

0:28:35.600 --> 0:28:38.040
<v Speaker 2>and I was just like I don't want that for us,

0:28:38.200 --> 0:28:41.840
<v Speaker 2>but you know, but not knowing how to navigate that

0:28:41.920 --> 0:28:44.680
<v Speaker 2>situation either it's kind of hard, so it's like right

0:28:44.720 --> 0:28:45.200
<v Speaker 2>on time.

0:28:45.560 --> 0:28:47.960
<v Speaker 1>So I'm looking forward to it. So are these like

0:28:48.080 --> 0:28:52.720
<v Speaker 1>parenting like are they a therapists or pediatricians? Like what's

0:28:53.000 --> 0:28:55.320
<v Speaker 1>is it just not.

0:28:57.400 --> 0:29:00.800
<v Speaker 2>You know what? Certification wise, I'm not a hundred percent sure,

0:29:01.320 --> 0:29:03.240
<v Speaker 2>but I know that they've been doing these retreats for

0:29:03.280 --> 0:29:06.240
<v Speaker 2>a while and have like some strong testimonies from it,

0:29:06.400 --> 0:29:09.959
<v Speaker 2>and so like, yeah, I'm not I'm not caught up

0:29:09.960 --> 0:29:13.200
<v Speaker 2>on like certifications and all that kind of stuff, but

0:29:13.360 --> 0:29:18.120
<v Speaker 2>I do go off of energy and vibes, and you know,

0:29:18.600 --> 0:29:22.160
<v Speaker 2>the energy is like where I needed to be and

0:29:22.200 --> 0:29:24.440
<v Speaker 2>what I need, the space that I need my daughter

0:29:24.480 --> 0:29:24.880
<v Speaker 2>to be in.

0:29:25.360 --> 0:29:28.680
<v Speaker 1>So as someone who has zero certifications police, I am

0:29:28.720 --> 0:29:32.240
<v Speaker 1>not all looking to judge or even like I don't

0:29:32.280 --> 0:29:34.360
<v Speaker 1>think that's even what matters. I think the testimonies, like

0:29:34.360 --> 0:29:36.920
<v Speaker 1>you said, is amazing. I'm just really curious.

0:29:37.000 --> 0:29:37.200
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:29:37.720 --> 0:29:43.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, beautiful, that's a beautiful like business to have. Costa Rica. Well,

0:29:43.880 --> 0:29:48.400
<v Speaker 1>I hope you guys have the best thing. Colombia. Colombia. Oh, Colombia,

0:29:48.440 --> 0:29:52.120
<v Speaker 1>that's right, Colombia. Confused, Oh, I hope you're the best

0:29:52.160 --> 0:29:55.600
<v Speaker 1>time ever. Even though I missed my five year old

0:29:55.640 --> 0:29:58.320
<v Speaker 1>so much. It was nice because two year old Remy

0:29:58.360 --> 0:30:01.719
<v Speaker 1>as a daddy's boy and a boy. I mean, if

0:30:01.760 --> 0:30:04.360
<v Speaker 1>Daddy's around Mommy gets the he will shove me in

0:30:04.480 --> 0:30:07.320
<v Speaker 1>my face to get me out of the way. I'm

0:30:07.360 --> 0:30:11.640
<v Speaker 1>not getting I'm like yeah, And that's why I decided

0:30:11.640 --> 0:30:13.320
<v Speaker 1>to take him. I could have taken either, you know.

0:30:13.440 --> 0:30:16.080
<v Speaker 1>The idea was just you know, I'll take one, and

0:30:16.120 --> 0:30:18.560
<v Speaker 1>I was like, no, let's let's recalibrate a little bit.

0:30:18.640 --> 0:30:21.360
<v Speaker 1>Daddy and Rion need to have some time Mommy and

0:30:21.400 --> 0:30:23.200
<v Speaker 1>the baby. I need to remind this. I need to

0:30:23.200 --> 0:30:26.920
<v Speaker 1>remind him who he you know, like who actually burst

0:30:27.000 --> 0:30:29.760
<v Speaker 1>him into this world? Right, Like, yeah, he gave me

0:30:29.800 --> 0:30:32.160
<v Speaker 1>a run for my money, honey, he is in the town.

0:30:32.400 --> 0:30:33.320
<v Speaker 1>He was bad.

0:30:35.080 --> 0:30:40.880
<v Speaker 2>Oh bit god, Oh mine too. And she is very

0:30:41.000 --> 0:30:42.320
<v Speaker 2>vocal too, and.

0:30:43.840 --> 0:30:45.880
<v Speaker 1>So much more vocal than big brother was. Big Brother

0:30:45.920 --> 0:30:47.880
<v Speaker 1>had a speech to lay till about three thirty three

0:30:47.880 --> 0:30:51.080
<v Speaker 1>and a half three thirty three and a half, and meanwhile,

0:30:51.120 --> 0:30:54.280
<v Speaker 1>Remy is like, he will tell you exactly. He sings songs,

0:30:54.560 --> 0:30:58.080
<v Speaker 1>he repeats everything I say, and he tells me everything

0:30:58.080 --> 0:31:00.480
<v Speaker 1>he wants and doesn't want. And it's like.

0:31:00.480 --> 0:31:03.440
<v Speaker 2>Telling you that they went poop again in their diaper

0:31:03.480 --> 0:31:04.600
<v Speaker 2>instead of being the toilet.

0:31:05.960 --> 0:31:07.920
<v Speaker 1>I want to take a quick break and I want

0:31:07.960 --> 0:31:09.720
<v Speaker 1>to come back. We got some buzzworthy to talk about.

0:31:09.920 --> 0:31:12.280
<v Speaker 1>We're going to do brown Boost Brown Break. I also

0:31:12.280 --> 0:31:14.400
<v Speaker 1>want to tell BA Fam about our book club pick

0:31:14.560 --> 0:31:19.120
<v Speaker 1>and how you can join our first author speaker series

0:31:19.240 --> 0:31:21.640
<v Speaker 1>for the BA book Club. So stick around, BA Fam.

0:31:21.640 --> 0:31:23.480
<v Speaker 1>We're going to be right back and again. I'm joined

0:31:23.480 --> 0:31:31.000
<v Speaker 1>by Nasima McElroy financially intentional da back all right, va Fam,

0:31:31.040 --> 0:31:34.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm back. Nasima had to go because she is a

0:31:34.680 --> 0:31:38.520
<v Speaker 1>busy woman. So I am here writing solo for one

0:31:38.560 --> 0:31:40.920
<v Speaker 1>of the best parts of my week, which is getting

0:31:40.960 --> 0:31:44.120
<v Speaker 1>an opportunity to reflect and either take a brown boost

0:31:44.200 --> 0:31:46.520
<v Speaker 1>or a brown break. Now I done told y'all every

0:31:47.240 --> 0:31:48.920
<v Speaker 1>it Well, Actually no, I haven't, because I could have

0:31:48.960 --> 0:31:51.920
<v Speaker 1>talked for hours and hours more about the Beyonce Show

0:31:52.000 --> 0:31:55.520
<v Speaker 1>Atlanta Night three. Baby, we really did it. Like Beyonce,

0:31:55.680 --> 0:31:58.680
<v Speaker 1>we are her faves. She loves Atlanta. She said we

0:31:58.680 --> 0:32:01.680
<v Speaker 1>were best dressed. It was incredible. Not only did I

0:32:01.720 --> 0:32:04.120
<v Speaker 1>have an incredible time of the show. After the show,

0:32:04.400 --> 0:32:07.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm walking, I'm just like flying. I'm like Hi on

0:32:07.680 --> 0:32:10.760
<v Speaker 1>the vibes of the Beyonce concert. Also, I might actually

0:32:10.760 --> 0:32:13.440
<v Speaker 1>have been high because the number of people who were

0:32:13.480 --> 0:32:17.840
<v Speaker 1>toking up in my row, like in the floor seats,

0:32:18.200 --> 0:32:20.760
<v Speaker 1>the contact high it could have been. It might have

0:32:20.840 --> 0:32:22.600
<v Speaker 1>been Beyonce. It could have been the fact that jay

0:32:22.680 --> 0:32:25.320
<v Speaker 1>Z was a surprise guest on night three. It could

0:32:25.320 --> 0:32:29.480
<v Speaker 1>have been the Cutwater Margarita that I had waiting in

0:32:29.520 --> 0:32:31.480
<v Speaker 1>line before I got to the show. Like who knows,

0:32:31.800 --> 0:32:35.360
<v Speaker 1>But I was feeling good after the show, and I'm

0:32:35.360 --> 0:32:38.360
<v Speaker 1>standing on the street corner outside of Mercedes Benz Arena

0:32:39.360 --> 0:32:41.280
<v Speaker 1>and they have all these streets blocked off. It's everyone's

0:32:41.320 --> 0:32:43.719
<v Speaker 1>kind of like, kind of milling about. No one knows

0:32:43.760 --> 0:32:45.520
<v Speaker 1>where the hell we are, even though a lot of

0:32:45.600 --> 0:32:48.160
<v Speaker 1>us are from Atlanta. I'm like, why is this city

0:32:48.240 --> 0:32:50.640
<v Speaker 1>so damn confusing? Where are the street signs? Where are

0:32:50.680 --> 0:32:53.520
<v Speaker 1>they all crooked? Damn? But I'm standing there trying to

0:32:53.520 --> 0:32:55.040
<v Speaker 1>figure out where I'm going to meet? My dad is

0:32:55.080 --> 0:32:58.040
<v Speaker 1>picking me up and tell me why. I hear screams

0:32:58.080 --> 0:32:59.720
<v Speaker 1>and I look to my left and I see this

0:32:59.720 --> 0:33:05.360
<v Speaker 1>black suv and the most gorgeous face and the most

0:33:05.400 --> 0:33:08.160
<v Speaker 1>gorgeous face. Can I say that again? The most gorgeous

0:33:08.160 --> 0:33:12.280
<v Speaker 1>face I'll ever see in the window, like eight inches

0:33:12.320 --> 0:33:14.680
<v Speaker 1>of window is cracked down, and I see Beyonce and

0:33:14.720 --> 0:33:18.200
<v Speaker 1>she is there. She is smiling, she's waving, and Julius

0:33:18.240 --> 0:33:20.320
<v Speaker 1>is in the front seat, and she turns the corner.

0:33:20.600 --> 0:33:22.959
<v Speaker 1>I'm right here. I'm around the corner. She turns the corner.

0:33:23.560 --> 0:33:25.800
<v Speaker 1>I run around a park car because I'm like, oh,

0:33:25.800 --> 0:33:27.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna get to wave to Beyonce. She's right there.

0:33:27.960 --> 0:33:29.760
<v Speaker 1>I run around the park car. By the time I

0:33:29.840 --> 0:33:33.600
<v Speaker 1>get there and she crosses my path, her window is

0:33:33.640 --> 0:33:37.360
<v Speaker 1>going it's pretty much up and Julius. Julius is like

0:33:37.400 --> 0:33:40.640
<v Speaker 1>hanging out the window, mean mugging. He is like looking

0:33:40.680 --> 0:33:42.160
<v Speaker 1>at that crowd, like I wish yall would try to

0:33:42.200 --> 0:33:44.560
<v Speaker 1>run up on this suv right now. I just know

0:33:45.120 --> 0:33:48.320
<v Speaker 1>he was scary. But I waved, and I'm just hoping.

0:33:48.760 --> 0:33:50.800
<v Speaker 1>I know she had the window up. It was tinted

0:33:50.800 --> 0:33:52.280
<v Speaker 1>within an inch of its life. But I hope she

0:33:52.320 --> 0:33:55.120
<v Speaker 1>saw me waving. I hope she saw the outfit that

0:33:55.120 --> 0:33:57.240
<v Speaker 1>I was wearing. I worked really hard on my fit.

0:33:58.480 --> 0:34:00.600
<v Speaker 1>I was joking that I try to look sexy and

0:34:00.680 --> 0:34:02.240
<v Speaker 1>like wear the black on black. A lot of the

0:34:02.240 --> 0:34:04.920
<v Speaker 1>girls were wearing the black on black, you know, cowboy

0:34:04.960 --> 0:34:07.880
<v Speaker 1>hat and the black outfit. But I just I'm wearing

0:34:07.880 --> 0:34:09.319
<v Speaker 1>a black two shirt right now, and I really don't

0:34:09.320 --> 0:34:10.759
<v Speaker 1>want to be I'm not gonna lie. I don't have

0:34:10.800 --> 0:34:14.080
<v Speaker 1>any clean clothes after coming home from Georgia, but I don't.

0:34:14.160 --> 0:34:16.360
<v Speaker 1>It just doesn't give me life. I wanted sparkle, I

0:34:16.400 --> 0:34:18.080
<v Speaker 1>want it pink. So that's the vibe I went with.

0:34:18.160 --> 0:34:20.280
<v Speaker 1>And I really tried to put my all into my outfit,

0:34:20.800 --> 0:34:24.319
<v Speaker 1>and it was so gratifying that just to know that

0:34:24.400 --> 0:34:28.320
<v Speaker 1>maybe Beyonce saw it. But then I wasn't even able

0:34:28.320 --> 0:34:31.360
<v Speaker 1>to be too disappointed. After her, she passed by and

0:34:31.400 --> 0:34:33.759
<v Speaker 1>her window was up because the next suv rolled by,

0:34:34.280 --> 0:34:36.680
<v Speaker 1>and the second most beautiful face in the world, Blue

0:34:36.719 --> 0:34:39.920
<v Speaker 1>Ivy Carter, is in the window and she's waving, and

0:34:40.000 --> 0:34:43.120
<v Speaker 1>right behind her is baby's sis Roomy. I just, matter

0:34:43.120 --> 0:34:44.760
<v Speaker 1>of fact, by the way, they have their own suv,

0:34:44.880 --> 0:34:47.359
<v Speaker 1>so I know Jay was in the suv with Beyonce then,

0:34:47.760 --> 0:34:50.000
<v Speaker 1>which means maybe Ja, but Jay was probably not even looking.

0:34:51.040 --> 0:34:53.600
<v Speaker 1>But Beyonce rolls by then Blue Ivy and Roomy and

0:34:53.640 --> 0:34:57.839
<v Speaker 1>then they passed by, and then who is it? Number three?

0:34:58.040 --> 0:35:02.879
<v Speaker 1>Mama Tina, Mama. I don't know who she was riding with,

0:35:03.120 --> 0:35:05.759
<v Speaker 1>but Mama Tina had her phone out and she was recording.

0:35:06.120 --> 0:35:08.240
<v Speaker 1>And when she passed by me, I was like, Mama Tina,

0:35:08.640 --> 0:35:11.440
<v Speaker 1>and I swear we made eye contact, and I was like,

0:35:11.480 --> 0:35:13.520
<v Speaker 1>she's recording. I wonder if she's gonna upload it, then

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<v Speaker 1>tell me why. I get on IG the next morning

0:35:15.239 --> 0:35:17.120
<v Speaker 1>and the first thing I see is Mama Tina uploaded

0:35:17.160 --> 0:35:20.479
<v Speaker 1>that video and there I am, my happy ass on

0:35:20.600 --> 0:35:26.480
<v Speaker 1>the street corner, waving like a fool. Martina's just so amazing.

0:35:26.600 --> 0:35:29.160
<v Speaker 1>And I'm just saying, Beyonce and the Carter family, Y'll

0:35:29.160 --> 0:35:33.760
<v Speaker 1>owe me absolutely nothing. I spent seven hundred hard earned

0:35:33.760 --> 0:35:35.919
<v Speaker 1>dollars on that show, and I would spend it again.

0:35:36.400 --> 0:35:39.160
<v Speaker 1>Not to mention what I spent in London doesn't even matter.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe my brown boosh is just gonna be. This is

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<v Speaker 1>what the money is for. Find you in experience like

0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.840
<v Speaker 1>the one that Find you in experience that brings you

0:35:47.840 --> 0:35:52.359
<v Speaker 1>as much joy as Beyonce's shows do for me, and

0:35:52.400 --> 0:35:57.480
<v Speaker 1>then do everything you can to experience listings again. So

0:35:57.760 --> 0:36:00.680
<v Speaker 1>if that's a sporting event, if it's going the US Open,

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<v Speaker 1>the Super Bowl, like, I don't know what are y'all

0:36:02.760 --> 0:36:06.480
<v Speaker 1>into out there. If whatever that thing is that lights

0:36:06.520 --> 0:36:09.920
<v Speaker 1>you up, that becomes your reason why. It becomes so

0:36:10.040 --> 0:36:13.399
<v Speaker 1>much easier to say no to everything else that could

0:36:13.400 --> 0:36:16.160
<v Speaker 1>distract you from your goals financially when you know what

0:36:16.200 --> 0:36:21.440
<v Speaker 1>you were striving for. And for me, it's like okay, kids, health, family,

0:36:21.719 --> 0:36:24.719
<v Speaker 1>and then Beyonce tickets, like that's the north start for

0:36:24.800 --> 0:36:27.400
<v Speaker 1>me forever and always. All right, but let me do

0:36:27.440 --> 0:36:29.719
<v Speaker 1>a real bron boot brown break. I'm gonna do a

0:36:29.760 --> 0:36:33.000
<v Speaker 1>break for let me look this up really quick because

0:36:33.680 --> 0:36:38.680
<v Speaker 1>dad da dada, Oh right, fine, I'm like Black women's

0:36:38.680 --> 0:36:42.640
<v Speaker 1>equal paydays last week was last week, and I know

0:36:42.680 --> 0:36:44.440
<v Speaker 1>everybody wants me to be depressed about it and talk

0:36:44.480 --> 0:36:48.160
<v Speaker 1>about how black women have to work an extra seventy

0:36:48.239 --> 0:36:51.120
<v Speaker 1>eleven hundred days in order to earn what a mediocre

0:36:51.160 --> 0:36:53.799
<v Speaker 1>white man earns. But like I said on Instagram, like

0:36:53.880 --> 0:36:56.319
<v Speaker 1>I'm really not too pressed. I don't want to spend

0:36:56.320 --> 0:36:59.400
<v Speaker 1>too much time covering headlines like that because Okay, it's

0:36:59.440 --> 0:37:01.839
<v Speaker 1>important to know that that's still happening, but also like

0:37:02.440 --> 0:37:05.560
<v Speaker 1>it's irrelevant to us, like ba fam, it's irrelevant to us.

0:37:05.560 --> 0:37:08.080
<v Speaker 1>You're listening to the show, you're listening to me, You're

0:37:08.080 --> 0:37:10.920
<v Speaker 1>getting your career, getting your negotiation advice, you're getting your

0:37:10.920 --> 0:37:14.239
<v Speaker 1>money together. It's almost too relevant to us what the

0:37:14.360 --> 0:37:17.080
<v Speaker 1>norm is for women of color because we're not the norm. Like,

0:37:17.120 --> 0:37:20.759
<v Speaker 1>we're here gathering in this space that Brown Ambition has

0:37:20.760 --> 0:37:23.040
<v Speaker 1>offered us and created for us. And why I made

0:37:23.080 --> 0:37:26.280
<v Speaker 1>this space for us, you know, ten years ago with Tiffany,

0:37:26.400 --> 0:37:29.920
<v Speaker 1>is because we are here to help ourselves and you

0:37:30.040 --> 0:37:33.719
<v Speaker 1>become exceptions to the rule. So although statistics like this

0:37:33.840 --> 0:37:36.319
<v Speaker 1>very much exist, and I know women of color, like

0:37:36.360 --> 0:37:38.320
<v Speaker 1>I know that we are out here and we are struggling.

0:37:38.440 --> 0:37:41.160
<v Speaker 1>And if you're a black woman, you're earning something like

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<v Speaker 1>fifty something cents to the dollar of a white person,

0:37:44.520 --> 0:37:47.160
<v Speaker 1>a white male, And if you're a Latina it's even

0:37:47.239 --> 0:37:51.759
<v Speaker 1>less than that, is it fifty cents? I know that

0:37:51.800 --> 0:37:54.120
<v Speaker 1>if you're a black woman you're earning something like sixty

0:37:54.160 --> 0:37:56.359
<v Speaker 1>cents or seventy cents to the dollar of a white man.

0:37:56.400 --> 0:37:59.560
<v Speaker 1>If you're a Latina, it's even worse. Listen, I know

0:37:59.640 --> 0:38:02.680
<v Speaker 1>that at the same time, we are here to create

0:38:02.719 --> 0:38:06.520
<v Speaker 1>exceptions to those rules. We are not here to internalize

0:38:06.719 --> 0:38:09.560
<v Speaker 1>data points like that. In fact, almost to a certain extent,

0:38:09.600 --> 0:38:11.520
<v Speaker 1>I wish we would stop giving them as much press

0:38:11.520 --> 0:38:16.239
<v Speaker 1>as we do. I want people in decision making positions,

0:38:16.440 --> 0:38:19.279
<v Speaker 1>you know, at businesses and on Capitol Hill. I want

0:38:19.280 --> 0:38:23.200
<v Speaker 1>them to understand the pay inequality gap. I want them

0:38:23.239 --> 0:38:26.840
<v Speaker 1>to understand that black and brown women are chronically underpaid

0:38:27.160 --> 0:38:29.719
<v Speaker 1>compared to our white counterparts. It's important for y'all to

0:38:29.800 --> 0:38:31.960
<v Speaker 1>understand that it's not important for me to dwell on that.

0:38:32.160 --> 0:38:34.160
<v Speaker 1>It's not important for you and me to dwell on that,

0:38:34.560 --> 0:38:38.680
<v Speaker 1>and to steep and stew in that feeling that I

0:38:38.680 --> 0:38:42.600
<v Speaker 1>think a capitalistic society really benefits from us feeling, which

0:38:42.640 --> 0:38:45.279
<v Speaker 1>is as if this is the only path for us,

0:38:45.280 --> 0:38:48.000
<v Speaker 1>this is the only outcome. That because the average is

0:38:48.040 --> 0:38:50.040
<v Speaker 1>such and such, then we have to expect that or

0:38:50.080 --> 0:38:52.400
<v Speaker 1>even less, or if we get a little bit above

0:38:52.440 --> 0:38:54.880
<v Speaker 1>that average or even hit that average, that we should

0:38:54.880 --> 0:38:58.839
<v Speaker 1>be grateful because this is the average for everyone. So well,

0:38:58.880 --> 0:39:02.680
<v Speaker 1>we got here, so I guess we're doing okay. Unfortunately,

0:39:02.960 --> 0:39:06.759
<v Speaker 1>you're listening to brown ambition and the ambitious part of

0:39:06.880 --> 0:39:09.640
<v Speaker 1>our nature. The reason why we created this show when

0:39:09.680 --> 0:39:12.759
<v Speaker 1>we did ten years ago is because we are embracing

0:39:13.040 --> 0:39:16.880
<v Speaker 1>the fact that the status quo, the norm, does not

0:39:16.960 --> 0:39:19.040
<v Speaker 1>have to be our reality, and that it is okay.

0:39:19.560 --> 0:39:21.440
<v Speaker 1>It is safe even and I want to say that

0:39:21.480 --> 0:39:23.920
<v Speaker 1>it is safe for us to expect more from ourselves.

0:39:24.520 --> 0:39:27.160
<v Speaker 1>It is safe, and it is possible for us to

0:39:27.200 --> 0:39:29.880
<v Speaker 1>expect more for ourselves and for us to create the

0:39:29.920 --> 0:39:33.799
<v Speaker 1>exceptions to the damn rules. So thank you BA Fan

0:39:34.040 --> 0:39:37.640
<v Speaker 1>for listening to this week's episode of Brown Ambition, Thanks

0:39:37.680 --> 0:39:39.759
<v Speaker 1>for listening to the Brown Table. Thanks for giving me

0:39:39.840 --> 0:39:42.040
<v Speaker 1>this platform. I could not do it without you, and

0:39:42.520 --> 0:39:44.200
<v Speaker 1>I want to hear from you. You can leave me

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0:39:45.840 --> 0:39:49.040
<v Speaker 1>also just email me directly. I'm at Brown Ambition Podcast

0:39:49.800 --> 0:39:52.680
<v Speaker 1>on Instagram. You can also email me Brown Ambition Podcast

0:39:52.719 --> 0:39:56.279
<v Speaker 1>at gmail dot com. You can join our Patreon don't

0:39:56.280 --> 0:39:59.239
<v Speaker 1>forget Patreon. You can join as an unpaid member and

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<v Speaker 1>I'll drop in some previews of upcoming shows and I'll

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<v Speaker 1>talk to y'all in the little chat. But oh, you

0:40:05.760 --> 0:40:08.080
<v Speaker 1>can also join the book club. Brian Ambishon has a

0:40:08.120 --> 0:40:10.680
<v Speaker 1>book club. John know that. And our first pick of

0:40:11.000 --> 0:40:14.040
<v Speaker 1>the summer was this little gem right here, got it

0:40:14.120 --> 0:40:17.400
<v Speaker 1>right here Cibo Campbell Sky Full of Elephants, Meanwhile, this

0:40:17.520 --> 0:40:20.560
<v Speaker 1>is the most overdue library book in the in the

0:40:20.600 --> 0:40:24.640
<v Speaker 1>history of man. Okay, it's not that overdue. I got

0:40:24.640 --> 0:40:27.359
<v Speaker 1>to get the real hard copy though. But we're reading

0:40:27.400 --> 0:40:30.399
<v Speaker 1>Sky Full of Elephants by Cebo Campbell. And if you're

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<v Speaker 1>in the Patreon, you don't have to be a paid

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<v Speaker 1>member to join the book club. Anybody can join the

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<v Speaker 1>book club, but do join the patreon because when I

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<v Speaker 1>have Cebo, he's coming to the book club in the

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<v Speaker 1>next week or two. So you have to be in

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<v Speaker 1>the patreon if you want to get a free invite

0:40:44.920 --> 0:40:48.360
<v Speaker 1>and a free ticket to that author series, author Q

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<v Speaker 1>and a that I'm going to do with Cibo himself.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait to talk about this book. If you

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<v Speaker 1>haven't read yet, there's still time y'all can catch up.

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<v Speaker 1>So go to patreon, dot co dot com, lash Brown Ambition,

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<v Speaker 1>check the show notes. It's in there somewhere. You can

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<v Speaker 1>join the Patreon and then please join us when we

0:41:06.640 --> 0:41:09.399
<v Speaker 1>bring Sebo into the patreons, we can have a little

0:41:09.440 --> 0:41:12.760
<v Speaker 1>chit chat. But his incredible novel and what comes next?

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<v Speaker 1>All right, ba fam, I am Mandy Money. I'm gonna

0:41:16.760 --> 0:41:20.239
<v Speaker 1>leave it there. Continue to have a wonderful summer. Thank

0:41:20.280 --> 0:41:22.680
<v Speaker 1>you again for all the support for the show, sending

0:41:22.680 --> 0:41:27.520
<v Speaker 1>all lots of love. Bye okay Va fam. Thank you

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<v Speaker 1>so much for listening to this week's show. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to shout out to our production team, Courtney, our editor, Carla,

0:41:34.719 --> 0:41:38.680
<v Speaker 1>our fearless leader for idea to launch productions. I want

0:41:38.680 --> 0:41:42.960
<v Speaker 1>to shout out my assistant Lauda Escalante and Cameron McNair

0:41:43.360 --> 0:41:45.640
<v Speaker 1>for helping me put the show together. It is not

0:41:46.080 --> 0:41:49.440
<v Speaker 1>a one person project, as much as I have tried

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<v Speaker 1>to make it so these past ten years. I need help, y'all,

0:41:53.400 --> 0:41:55.640
<v Speaker 1>and thank goodness I've been able to put this team

0:41:55.760 --> 0:41:58.520
<v Speaker 1>around me to support me on this journey and to

0:41:58.640 --> 0:42:01.720
<v Speaker 1>y'all bea fam. I love you so so so so much.

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