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Speaker 2: in the Dark, Shot in the Dark, Now to run.

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Speaker 2: Now we're pros, you think, wow, self, call.

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Speaker 1: Hello everyone, Happy Friday, Happy Friday.

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Speaker 2: Chip, Happy Friday.

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Speaker 3: Friday.

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Speaker 2: I know we're faking it, baby Razzle Dazzle.

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Speaker 1: It's Tuesday for us, but this will be airing on Friday.

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Speaker 1: I'm actually traveling, so we are getting ahead of schedule.

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Speaker 2: We got to get this ship up.

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Speaker 1: We don't even know if anyone's listening.

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Speaker 3: This is like our phone call of the week. I

440
00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:48,399
Speaker 3: had a similar situation.

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Speaker 1: There wasn't like there hasn't been a specific action that's

442
00:20:52,359 --> 00:20:54,800
Speaker 1: been taken yet, but I've been kind of grappling. It's

443
00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:58,680
Speaker 1: a work slash friendship situation for me and it plays

444
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Speaker 1: into some other things going on in my life. And

445
00:21:01,080 --> 00:21:04,080
Speaker 1: when I was talking to Terry she I was really

446
00:21:04,119 --> 00:21:07,960
Speaker 1: like trying to pick her brain about healthy confrontation, because

447
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Speaker 1: I know I've definitely played my part in unhealthy confrontation in.

448
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Speaker 3: The past, like whether it's that I stuffed.

449
00:21:14,119 --> 00:21:17,000
Speaker 1: Things and then I explode or I'm just not dealing

450
00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:19,040
Speaker 1: with things head on, so that I'm I'm like people

451
00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:21,800
Speaker 1: pleasing and trying to keep everyone happy versus actually just

452
00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:25,199
Speaker 1: owning my truth whatever it is. I'm definitely contributed, And

453
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Speaker 1: so I was kind of quizzing her because I don't

454
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Speaker 1: know exactly how to handle this certain situation. And one

455
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Speaker 1: of the issues is is that the person that I'm

456
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Speaker 1: in this situation with, I'm not sure how they're going

457
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Speaker 1: to take it, and so like I feel like I

458
00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:42,640
Speaker 1: want a tiptoe and I want to you know, I'm

459
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Speaker 1: doing the thing where I'm like, well, if I just

460
00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:48,280
Speaker 1: say it this one right way, like then everything might

461
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Speaker 1: be fine. And so that puts so much pressure on

462
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Speaker 1: how I handle it, first of all, But second of all,

463
00:21:54,280 --> 00:21:57,080
Speaker 1: it's just like I'm not being authentic again when I'm

464
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Speaker 1: doing that, I'm people pleasing or being codependent or whatever

465
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Speaker 1: you want.

466
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Speaker 2: To call it.

467
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Speaker 1: And so I really got to the fact of, like

468
00:22:04,040 --> 00:22:07,959
Speaker 1: I can only do my part in confrontation in general,

469
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Speaker 1: Like I want to make sure that I'm bringing the

470
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Speaker 1: healthiest version of that that I can, you know, to

471
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Speaker 1: the table.

472
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Speaker 3: But like the other side of it is the other side.

473
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Speaker 1: Of it, and I can't control it, Like I can't

474
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Speaker 1: control how that person reacts, I can't control how they

475
00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:25,000
Speaker 1: take what I say. I can't control what they do

476
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Speaker 1: with it after, And so I have to release them

477
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Speaker 1: and know that Like in my life, I genuinely at

478
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Speaker 1: this point at almost forty one next month.

479
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Speaker 3: By the way, is it just kidding? I feel good?

480
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Speaker 1: I love forties, But yeah, like at this point in

481
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Speaker 1: my life, I really don't want relationships even if their

482
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Speaker 1: work or whatever they are work friendships romantic where healthy

483
00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:57,720
Speaker 1: confrontation isn't happening, or that confrontation in general is just

484
00:22:57,720 --> 00:23:01,159
Speaker 1: one sided. Like if I can't bring that to the

485
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Speaker 1: table and it be received, I'm not sure that's a

486
00:23:04,200 --> 00:23:07,040
Speaker 1: healthy situation for me to be in, period, Right.

487
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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, you certainly cannot control anyone else's reaction

488
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:13,720
Speaker 2: to it. What you control is your method of delivering it.

489
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Speaker 2: It's just going to be with kindness and caring. You

490
00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:18,880
Speaker 2: can control like when you do it, because timing can

491
00:23:18,920 --> 00:23:21,080
Speaker 2: be everything. You're not going to want to like it

492
00:23:21,160 --> 00:23:23,119
Speaker 2: when it's a really bad moment for the person.

493
00:23:22,840 --> 00:23:25,280
Speaker 3: To receive it right and then drop bombs.

494
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Speaker 2: And yeah and that like and also too if you

495
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Speaker 2: at the end of it, you can be like, I

496
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Speaker 2: hope this is something that we can get through. I

497
00:23:30,400 --> 00:23:34,560
Speaker 2: really value our friendship like totally. Then that's all you can.

498
00:23:34,440 --> 00:23:36,760
Speaker 1: Do, and then it's like up to them to take

499
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Speaker 1: care of their side of the street.

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Speaker 3: It's scary.

501
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Speaker 1: I would I mean, I would be lying if I

502
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Speaker 1: didn't say, especially because of how I've been in the past.

503
00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:47,600
Speaker 1: You know, I think when you're trying to change behaviors,

504
00:23:47,640 --> 00:23:51,000
Speaker 1: it feels really uncomfortable at first, but I'll also feel

505
00:23:51,119 --> 00:23:54,800
Speaker 1: very at peace. And this month with our topics, it's

506
00:23:54,880 --> 00:23:58,560
Speaker 1: just really reiterated to me, like I have to confront

507
00:23:58,760 --> 00:24:01,720
Speaker 1: the my own shit and my own life and that means.

508
00:24:01,480 --> 00:24:02,359
Speaker 3: Good and bad.

509
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Speaker 1: Like we've had a lot of other guests, or I've

510
00:24:04,560 --> 00:24:06,200
Speaker 1: had a lot of other guests on the velvet side

511
00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:12,639
Speaker 1: of things who have faced challenges or themselves and just

512
00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:15,040
Speaker 1: like face them head on and they're like, hey, this

513
00:24:15,119 --> 00:24:16,840
Speaker 1: is what I want for my life. And I feel

514
00:24:16,880 --> 00:24:18,960
Speaker 1: I feel like very in that time of my life,

515
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:21,040
Speaker 1: like this is what I want for my life, This

516
00:24:21,119 --> 00:24:23,520
Speaker 1: is the kind of relationships that I want, This is

517
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Speaker 1: who I want to be, and all I can do

518
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:28,280
Speaker 1: is operate that way and then everything.

519
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Speaker 3: Else is up to the universe.

520
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Speaker 2: So right, yeah, we should. I think it's a really powerful,

521
00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:35,320
Speaker 2: mature place to be. And I know whenever I have

522
00:24:35,359 --> 00:24:40,119
Speaker 2: someone that comes to me and maturely confront something, I

523
00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 2: always appreciate it.

524
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Speaker 1: Me too, and that but to me, that shows the

525
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Speaker 1: health of the other person, you know, or I mean,

526
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Speaker 1: or it's like sometimes we have reactions initially and then

527
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:54,080
Speaker 1: we can process through them. But like if a person

528
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Speaker 1: isn't capable of that, like what am I doing? Waste

529
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Speaker 1: my energy and time? Like I have spent way too

530
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Speaker 1: much many years trying to like hold the relationship for

531
00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:06,400
Speaker 1: both people and I cannot do that anymore, Like it

532
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 1: has literally almost killed me. So yeah, so I don't know,

533
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:13,159
Speaker 1: it was very freeing when I got to that piece

534
00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:16,359
Speaker 1: and just kind of like settling into you know, I

535
00:25:16,359 --> 00:25:17,320
Speaker 1: can only do my part.

536
00:25:17,520 --> 00:25:19,359
Speaker 3: We'll see what happens. There you go.

537
00:25:20,320 --> 00:25:22,679
Speaker 1: We did have a couple of emails come in that

538
00:25:22,760 --> 00:25:27,399
Speaker 1: specifically to me, asked questions that felt confronting. So should

539
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Speaker 1: we should we give the listeners little advice? So we've

540
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Speaker 1: we've not done this in a minute to have started

541
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Speaker 1: reading an email as.

542
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Speaker 3: I said that I'm here here, how are you typing?

543
00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:42,320
Speaker 3: I'm trying it. Let's confront this. Yeah, okay.

544
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Speaker 1: This one came from Megan. She said, Hi, love your pod.

545
00:25:46,119 --> 00:25:49,040
Speaker 1: Just ended things with my boyfriend of three point five years.

546
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Speaker 1: Any insight on how to move forward, especially with the

547
00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:56,119
Speaker 1: feeling of shame around being alone but now, but no,

548
00:25:56,280 --> 00:26:00,159
Speaker 1: he's not the person for me in your thirties. So

549
00:26:00,200 --> 00:26:01,919
Speaker 1: she basically got to the point where she's like, this

550
00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 1: is not my person. Timeline sucks because like time's ticking.

551
00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:08,840
Speaker 1: I'm sure that's the pressure we feel as women, right, Yeah,

552
00:26:08,880 --> 00:26:11,280
Speaker 1: you've mentioned before that you don't really relate to this

553
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Speaker 1: at all.

554
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Speaker 2: Well no, not really. I mean I can relate to

555
00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:18,480
Speaker 2: the like being in a relationship where you're like, oh fuck,

556
00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:22,160
Speaker 2: this isn't the right thing. Yeah, but there being other

557
00:26:22,359 --> 00:26:25,040
Speaker 2: factors that make it scary to end it, you know,

558
00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:27,520
Speaker 2: like you know, I moved here with a boyfriend and

559
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:29,480
Speaker 2: we were like living in a house together, and it

560
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:32,159
Speaker 2: was like, right, he was going to be homeless, you know,

561
00:26:32,680 --> 00:26:35,560
Speaker 2: I know. Yeah, So I mean there are those those

562
00:26:35,560 --> 00:26:39,600
Speaker 2: things that like affect a decision, but yeah, the ticking

563
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:43,600
Speaker 2: time of like you know, what's it called nature's clock?

564
00:26:43,680 --> 00:26:44,280
Speaker 2: What do you call that?

565
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Speaker 1: I sort of feel like this is when you send

566
00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:51,320
Speaker 1: me like all the memes about vaginas, like I love

567
00:26:51,359 --> 00:26:52,679
Speaker 1: when you try to reference anything.

568
00:26:53,680 --> 00:26:56,359
Speaker 2: What is that called? Though? Yeah? Like nature?

569
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Speaker 3: I guess, like I actually don't.

570
00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:02,840
Speaker 2: Know, Yeah, like your internal clock, like internal.

571
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:03,880
Speaker 3: Clock, maybe that's yeah, whatever.

572
00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:08,160
Speaker 1: Biological clock, biological clock, that's that's the wording.

573
00:27:09,040 --> 00:27:12,159
Speaker 2: Okay, So yeah, I mean that I don't relate to.

574
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,920
Speaker 2: But I you know, I will say that, like, as

575
00:27:14,920 --> 00:27:16,919
Speaker 2: scary as it is, it's a lot scarier to be

576
00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:20,040
Speaker 2: stuck in a relationship that's not for you, amen, and

577
00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:25,720
Speaker 2: opening yourself up to the possibility, opening yourself up to

578
00:27:25,760 --> 00:27:29,720
Speaker 2: the possibility of finding the right person shouldn't be scary

579
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:33,320
Speaker 2: because now you can, you know. So I think you

580
00:27:33,320 --> 00:27:35,800
Speaker 2: have to look at the positive side of it. And

581
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:38,760
Speaker 2: you know, I know, loneliness is a thing, but like,

582
00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:41,080
Speaker 2: don't feel shame. You should be really proud of yourself

583
00:27:41,119 --> 00:27:44,520
Speaker 2: for sure taking that step, because that is scary.

584
00:27:45,080 --> 00:27:47,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love that you just said that you shouldn't

585
00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:50,840
Speaker 1: feel shame because it's like, first of all, I guess

586
00:27:50,840 --> 00:27:52,439
Speaker 1: the main thing that came up for me when I

587
00:27:52,480 --> 00:27:57,200
Speaker 1: initially read this was I totally relate in the thirties specifically,

588
00:27:57,280 --> 00:27:59,760
Speaker 1: I think that women feel that pressure immensely.

589
00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:02,360
Speaker 3: Excuse me, I hick up.

590
00:28:03,880 --> 00:28:06,639
Speaker 1: They feel it immensely because like in your twenties, it's

591
00:28:06,720 --> 00:28:09,639
Speaker 1: kind of all fun and games, like you're just having

592
00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:13,000
Speaker 1: crushes all the time. Maybe it doesn't feel very it

593
00:28:13,040 --> 00:28:14,320
Speaker 1: doesn't like feel like it has.

594
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:15,000
Speaker 3: To be very serious.

595
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:17,359
Speaker 1: And then when you get to thirty even it starts

596
00:28:17,440 --> 00:28:21,240
Speaker 1: to feel a little more like, Okay, I can't make

597
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:23,760
Speaker 1: the excuse of I'm in my twenties anymore. I don't

598
00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:25,480
Speaker 1: need to worry about that. I'm just gonna have fun.

599
00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:27,280
Speaker 1: Like you just kind of start to feel like life

600
00:28:27,320 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 1: is a little more serious and you're more of an adult,

601
00:28:29,640 --> 00:28:32,480
Speaker 1: and so you start to look at things a little differently.

602
00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:36,960
Speaker 1: But the thing about the timelines, and I do get

603
00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:39,160
Speaker 1: that it's a little more difficult if you want to

604
00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,120
Speaker 1: have kids, but like, ultimately, the main thing that I've

605
00:28:42,200 --> 00:28:45,160
Speaker 1: learned is that shit is made up, like it's beat

606
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:48,080
Speaker 1: into our head from day one, But it's just this

607
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:52,600
Speaker 1: like human construct that we've created that isn't real, Like

608
00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:56,000
Speaker 1: everyone in this life is on a different journey, and

609
00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:59,000
Speaker 1: to try to say that we should live our lives

610
00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:03,040
Speaker 1: all the same is fucking ridiculous, Like it's just not real.

611
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:06,640
Speaker 1: And I'm here to learn my lessons so that my

612
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:09,360
Speaker 1: soul can evolve, and so are you, and so is Megan,

613
00:29:09,440 --> 00:29:11,920
Speaker 1: and so is her ex and like all the things.

614
00:29:11,960 --> 00:29:15,719
Speaker 1: And if that relationship served its like served its purpose

615
00:29:15,760 --> 00:29:18,959
Speaker 1: for the season that it did, that's okay. Like not

616
00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:22,240
Speaker 1: all relationships are supposed to last forever, and in fact,

617
00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:24,840
Speaker 1: like most won't, you know, But that doesn't mean it

618
00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:28,160
Speaker 1: didn't bring something to your life, into your soul for

619
00:29:28,240 --> 00:29:32,920
Speaker 1: its next evolution. So I guess my like, if I

620
00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 1: have to give one advice, it would be to really

621
00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:37,840
Speaker 1: try to let go of the idea that your life

622
00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:42,120
Speaker 1: needs to look like anyone else's and just embrace where

623
00:29:42,160 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 1: you are now and like try to stay open to

624
00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 1: what the universe is bringing to you, because you can't

625
00:29:48,160 --> 00:29:51,040
Speaker 1: bring in new good stuff while you're still holding onto

626
00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: the past, like right, it sounds like that relationship wasn't

627
00:29:54,040 --> 00:29:56,400
Speaker 1: serving you. So like you said, good for you for

628
00:29:56,520 --> 00:29:59,000
Speaker 1: letting it go, and you're just opening yourself up to

629
00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:03,560
Speaker 1: something greater, like there's only gifts coming your way. That's

630
00:30:03,560 --> 00:30:06,440
Speaker 1: how I feel, and especially if you stay open to that.

631
00:30:07,600 --> 00:30:10,000
Speaker 1: Like I'm, like I said, about to turn forty one,

632
00:30:10,440 --> 00:30:13,320
Speaker 1: I have absolutely no fear about relationships anymore.

633
00:30:13,400 --> 00:30:13,959
Speaker 3: It's wild.

634
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,600
Speaker 1: Like I used to feel like, oh my god, time

635
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:19,800
Speaker 1: is ticking, my life is over. I'm never whatever, but

636
00:30:20,000 --> 00:30:22,320
Speaker 1: like I don't feel it. And so it's opened my

637
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:25,960
Speaker 1: dating life up to so much more fun, enjoy and

638
00:30:26,080 --> 00:30:30,680
Speaker 1: everyone who's coming is teaching me something and however long

639
00:30:30,680 --> 00:30:33,880
Speaker 1: they stay great and if they need to go, okay,

640
00:30:34,040 --> 00:30:36,040
Speaker 1: Like it's just it'll be okay.

641
00:30:36,120 --> 00:30:36,280
Speaker 3: You know.

642
00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:39,440
Speaker 1: If you are worried about kids, go freeze your eggs,

643
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:43,280
Speaker 1: start saving your money, start doing like you have options, right,

644
00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:45,800
Speaker 1: So I would just really try to let go of

645
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:49,280
Speaker 1: fitting your life into a little box and like, go,

646
00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:51,760
Speaker 1: do you this is the time to shine, girl?

647
00:30:52,240 --> 00:30:54,960
Speaker 2: Well? Yeah, and what when doing yourself, that's when someone's

648
00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 2: going to see the authentic you, yes, and be like

649
00:30:58,200 --> 00:30:59,000
Speaker 2: there's my girl.

650
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:03,960
Speaker 1: Yes, Like getting to know yourself. It's like I kind

651
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:06,360
Speaker 1: of hate when people talk about you can't love anyone

652
00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:09,000
Speaker 1: else until you love yourself. But I do think the

653
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:12,720
Speaker 1: truth in that statement is like, until you know yourself,

654
00:31:13,200 --> 00:31:15,880
Speaker 1: it is difficult to find a relationship that works for

655
00:31:15,960 --> 00:31:18,560
Speaker 1: you, you know, because and that was like a lot of

656
00:31:18,640 --> 00:31:20,640
Speaker 1: my thirties was I didn't know who the fuck I

657
00:31:20,880 --> 00:31:23,480
Speaker 1: was at all. I think you guys probably knew me

658
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:25,440
Speaker 1: more than I knew me, if that makes sense, Like

659
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:28,800
Speaker 1: I'm talking about my friend group, like you all could

660
00:31:28,800 --> 00:31:31,400
Speaker 1: see who I was more than I could, Like I

661
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:33,360
Speaker 1: was still testing things out to be like am I

662
00:31:33,440 --> 00:31:34,040
Speaker 1: this person?

663
00:31:34,080 --> 00:31:35,040
Speaker 3: Am I that person?

664
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:35,360
Speaker 2: You know?

665
00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:38,920
Speaker 1: And now I can sit a little more confidently, and no,

666
00:31:39,080 --> 00:31:41,800
Speaker 1: I am this person. Even the bad parts are like

667
00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:46,560
Speaker 1: the hard parts, and it is interesting, Like you said,

668
00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:50,320
Speaker 1: what it's bringing in is so much more aligned and

669
00:31:50,520 --> 00:31:53,920
Speaker 1: makes me so much happier than anything else I've had.

670
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:56,760
Speaker 2: So you're growing too.

671
00:31:57,480 --> 00:32:02,360
Speaker 1: I'm trying always. Okay, here's another one. This one comes

672
00:32:02,400 --> 00:32:04,680
Speaker 1: from Nikki. She said, I'm sorry, I was trying to

673
00:32:04,680 --> 00:32:08,680
Speaker 1: write an email. She's slid into my DMS. I feel

674
00:32:08,720 --> 00:32:12,320
Speaker 1: like but I feel like I or my job is

675
00:32:12,360 --> 00:32:15,720
Speaker 1: attracting so many people that quote unquote want things from me,

676
00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:19,000
Speaker 1: or I find out months later friendships were purely one

677
00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:22,520
Speaker 1: sided so they could enjoy the perks. I even had

678
00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:25,240
Speaker 1: an old friend call me out online for not helping

679
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:29,680
Speaker 1: her business with my job. I mean, apparently I'm doing

680
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:33,640
Speaker 1: something right that people want from me, but they don't

681
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:37,840
Speaker 1: invite me trying to connect because I make things happen.

682
00:32:38,960 --> 00:32:42,040
Speaker 1: So basically she's feeling used the summary of that. But

683
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:44,040
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm getting played more and more. I

684
00:32:44,040 --> 00:32:47,360
Speaker 1: love connecting with people, like you say, Kelly, but lately

685
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:49,480
Speaker 1: the balance is off. I don't want to be the

686
00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:52,440
Speaker 1: planner all the time and work and play. I guess

687
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: it would be like if every person you come into

688
00:32:54,600 --> 00:32:57,840
Speaker 1: contact with constantly ask you if their outfit was good.

689
00:32:59,240 --> 00:33:01,640
Speaker 1: That's funny, you ask me if I look at that,

690
00:33:01,720 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 1: and I'm like, nope, not.

691
00:33:02,800 --> 00:33:03,479
Speaker 3: Worried about you.

692
00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:07,280
Speaker 1: I invite people to my work events because I can,

693
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:09,760
Speaker 1: but not everyone gets that invite. But I let friends

694
00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:12,280
Speaker 1: go because I let a friend go because she made

695
00:33:12,320 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: judgy comments about me while I was in Workman. I

696
00:33:14,800 --> 00:33:18,520
Speaker 1: had to stop because having her or company while out

697
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:22,200
Speaker 1: was becoming hurtful. My true friends say, you need celebrity,

698
00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:25,840
Speaker 1: a micro celebrity boot camp. Everybody wants to be with you,

699
00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:29,800
Speaker 1: but I feel like I'm not screening situations. Well help,

700
00:33:31,640 --> 00:33:33,920
Speaker 1: you might deal with this a little bit in your job.

701
00:33:34,320 --> 00:33:43,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I mean I feel like hmm, yeah, I

702
00:33:43,840 --> 00:33:46,360
Speaker 2: potentially I do. I don't. I feel like I surround

703
00:33:46,360 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 2: myself with good people. You do that have like gotten

704
00:33:49,440 --> 00:33:52,400
Speaker 2: I mean, probably the worst culprit though, would be my sister.

705
00:33:52,880 --> 00:33:55,360
Speaker 2: But I don't ever feel like she's using me, you know,

706
00:33:55,600 --> 00:34:00,320
Speaker 2: like I just think your sister, yeah, and it's Yeah,

707
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:02,600
Speaker 2: I think the one thing she doesn't recognize is that,

708
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:05,040
Speaker 2: like any favor that I ask on her behalf is

709
00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:07,520
Speaker 2: one less favor that I can ask for myself. Sure,

710
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:09,960
Speaker 2: you know what I mean. So, but I'm happy to

711
00:34:10,120 --> 00:34:12,400
Speaker 2: like I want to get her whatever she wants, you know,

712
00:34:12,520 --> 00:34:15,200
Speaker 2: like I'm happy to do that. So I haven't really

713
00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:18,440
Speaker 2: you know, it's been very rare that I have felt

714
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:23,360
Speaker 2: that I'm being used. But the interesting thing is like

715
00:34:24,400 --> 00:34:28,520
Speaker 2: sometimes in like the dating space, I definitely recognized when

716
00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:30,960
Speaker 2: I am trying to like use it to my advantage too,

717
00:34:31,200 --> 00:34:37,280
Speaker 2: you know. Oh yeah, so and sometimes that's dangerous because

718
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:39,880
Speaker 2: then ultimately you feel like you're being you like, You're like,

719
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:42,359
Speaker 2: if it doesn't, if you're not clicking, you're like, now

720
00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:44,560
Speaker 2: they're just using me, you know, And sure.

721
00:34:44,560 --> 00:34:47,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, but then ultimately you were the one who started

722
00:34:47,520 --> 00:34:48,640
Speaker 1: I was the one that started it.

723
00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:50,960
Speaker 2: So you know, I think we're all a little guilty

724
00:34:51,080 --> 00:34:54,560
Speaker 2: of it because it's Yeah, I think sometimes that, you know,

725
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:59,719
Speaker 2: it's really important with work to not let your work

726
00:34:59,719 --> 00:35:05,680
Speaker 2: define who you are, I know, and in those instances

727
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:08,880
Speaker 2: that's like me being like part of me is like

728
00:35:09,120 --> 00:35:11,640
Speaker 2: this special access I can get you, and that's not me.

729
00:35:12,320 --> 00:35:13,960
Speaker 2: You know. If this person is not gonna like me,

730
00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:15,600
Speaker 2: they're not gonna like me. If they're gonna like me,

731
00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:18,799
Speaker 2: they're gonna like me no matter what I do. The

732
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:22,200
Speaker 2: other stuff is just like icing. So I do think

733
00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:26,520
Speaker 2: it's important for Nikki to like remember that, like, her

734
00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:29,839
Speaker 2: job isn't what she does, or isn't her job isn't

735
00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:34,080
Speaker 2: who she is, And if she feels like anyone in

736
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:37,480
Speaker 2: her life is starting to look at her as her job,

737
00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:40,000
Speaker 2: then it's probably a good time to stop inviting them

738
00:35:40,040 --> 00:35:42,560
Speaker 2: to do the fun things that your job, you know,

739
00:35:43,360 --> 00:35:47,239
Speaker 2: entitles you to, so that people stop associating and then

740
00:35:47,360 --> 00:35:51,759
Speaker 2: like your real friends will appreciate the time away from

741
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:58,960
Speaker 2: work with you a lot more. I mean, for us

742
00:36:00,080 --> 00:36:01,840
Speaker 2: working in music, a lot of what I like to

743
00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 2: do in my free time is go to see shows,

744
00:36:04,040 --> 00:36:06,000
Speaker 2: you know, It's just what I love to do. So

745
00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,399
Speaker 2: and it's it's harder for me because I don't think

746
00:36:08,400 --> 00:36:10,440
Speaker 2: of those as like work things. I think of those

747
00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:12,759
Speaker 2: as things that I'm getting to do and I want

748
00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:15,400
Speaker 2: some friends to come along with me. So it's a

749
00:36:15,520 --> 00:36:16,680
Speaker 2: little bit different.

750
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,360
Speaker 1: But don't you feel like, for the most part, like

751
00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:23,160
Speaker 1: you would be talking about when you say friends, you're

752
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:26,280
Speaker 1: talking about our friends a lot of coworkers well and coworkers,

753
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:29,080
Speaker 1: and it's like people that we've been friends with for

754
00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:32,920
Speaker 1: so long that I think we've developed the relationship ahead

755
00:36:32,920 --> 00:36:36,200
Speaker 1: of time. So, like, I guess my point is saying,

756
00:36:36,239 --> 00:36:38,480
Speaker 1: like you made a great point when you said I

757
00:36:38,560 --> 00:36:41,120
Speaker 1: have to realize when I'm leading with that in dating

758
00:36:41,360 --> 00:36:44,759
Speaker 1: because I don't know these that you have to kind

759
00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:47,400
Speaker 1: of earn that sort that space in your life.

760
00:36:47,719 --> 00:36:49,919
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, yes, yeah, correct.

761
00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:52,280
Speaker 1: I love that point. I think that is really great.

762
00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:56,040
Speaker 1: And also, like I do talk about this a lot

763
00:36:56,040 --> 00:36:58,319
Speaker 1: where I feel like I can get in that one

764
00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:02,880
Speaker 1: sided dynamic where everyone just like wants something from me,

765
00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:06,399
Speaker 1: but like, ultimately that's on me. It always goes back

766
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:10,160
Speaker 1: to me. Like if I have actually had a couple

767
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:14,560
Speaker 1: friends going through really hard times, and I myself have

768
00:37:14,640 --> 00:37:16,920
Speaker 1: had a lot on my plate, and so I've had

769
00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:20,840
Speaker 1: to really like catch myself because I can start overgiving

770
00:37:20,960 --> 00:37:23,600
Speaker 1: and taking on their problems as my own because I

771
00:37:23,680 --> 00:37:25,920
Speaker 1: do want to help them. They're people that I love.

772
00:37:26,800 --> 00:37:29,719
Speaker 1: But if it's taking away, like if it's giving so

773
00:37:29,800 --> 00:37:31,799
Speaker 1: much energy that I'm not able to function in my

774
00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:34,040
Speaker 1: own life, that's not good for either of us, Like,

775
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:36,520
Speaker 1: and I know they wouldn't ultimately want me to do that,

776
00:37:37,120 --> 00:37:39,560
Speaker 1: and so that's when I have to start setting boundaries.

777
00:37:39,560 --> 00:37:42,600
Speaker 1: Mostly the boundaries are with myself if I'm being really honest,

778
00:37:42,719 --> 00:37:45,600
Speaker 1: like I feel like most of my friends are very

779
00:37:45,920 --> 00:37:49,799
Speaker 1: accepting of me, like needing to stay to boundary. It's

780
00:37:49,880 --> 00:37:52,560
Speaker 1: mostly like I have to watch myself sort of like

781
00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:55,760
Speaker 1: what you're saying with the dating, to where I'm holding

782
00:37:56,640 --> 00:38:00,000
Speaker 1: true to myself and my schedule and my needs first,

783
00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:03,680
Speaker 1: and then when I'm my cup is full, saying okay,

784
00:38:03,760 --> 00:38:07,000
Speaker 1: like what can I do? Because if we're depleted in

785
00:38:07,080 --> 00:38:08,840
Speaker 1: our and we're on empty, like we're not good for

786
00:38:08,880 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 1: anyone else either. So I think there's it's like a

787
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,640
Speaker 1: multiple thing. It's like, don't lead with that, like you said,

788
00:38:14,680 --> 00:38:17,600
Speaker 1: like let people earn that space in your life. And

789
00:38:17,600 --> 00:38:20,640
Speaker 1: then also if you continuously are finding this dynamic, like

790
00:38:20,680 --> 00:38:23,600
Speaker 1: it might be time to look at why or like

791
00:38:23,640 --> 00:38:25,640
Speaker 1: how much you're giving in a relationship and if you're

792
00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:30,160
Speaker 1: holding boundaries with yourself or kind of because I think

793
00:38:30,239 --> 00:38:32,920
Speaker 1: kind of like we'll keep attracting the same thing until.

794
00:38:32,719 --> 00:38:33,600
Speaker 3: We learn the last thing.

795
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:37,359
Speaker 1: So like exactly you're continuously in that, then there's something

796
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:41,560
Speaker 1: the universe is trying to show you. So that's what

797
00:38:41,600 --> 00:38:42,399
Speaker 1: I got on that one.

798
00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 2: There.

799
00:38:43,239 --> 00:38:47,640
Speaker 1: You go always about looking at the fucking mirror, you know, Liken.

800
00:38:47,600 --> 00:38:52,600
Speaker 2: It's well, especially when it's something that is habitual is

801
00:38:52,600 --> 00:38:54,600
Speaker 2: not the word, If it's you're seeing it come up

802
00:38:54,600 --> 00:38:57,279
Speaker 2: a lot in your life. Oh yeah, then I think

803
00:38:57,280 --> 00:38:59,319
Speaker 2: it's important to look in the mirror and be like,

804
00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:01,080
Speaker 2: well maybe it's not what's.

805
00:39:00,920 --> 00:39:01,880
Speaker 3: The common denominated?

806
00:39:02,680 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, well yeah, like I talked about that with

807
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:08,440
Speaker 1: Terry too. You know, our instinct as humans is to

808
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:10,760
Speaker 1: always look at the other person. It's so much easier

809
00:39:10,800 --> 00:39:13,960
Speaker 1: to put blame like, especially when we're confronting new issues

810
00:39:13,960 --> 00:39:16,480
Speaker 1: in our life, it's just like, well, they did this,

811
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:18,640
Speaker 1: but like what's your part in it? And that's not

812
00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:21,760
Speaker 1: to say they're not doing anything. You just can't control them,

813
00:39:21,840 --> 00:39:28,840
Speaker 1: so you can only control yourself anyway, that's our phase.

814
00:39:31,440 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 1: Uh huh. Do you have anything else? I can't even

815
00:39:35,520 --> 00:39:37,480
Speaker 1: say it without laughing, though, Do you have anything else

816
00:39:37,520 --> 00:39:39,200
Speaker 1: you want to give to the people about this month

817
00:39:39,200 --> 00:39:41,160
Speaker 1: of confrontation or confronting?

818
00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:45,359
Speaker 2: No, I'll just reiterate to like, remember to be as

819
00:39:45,680 --> 00:39:49,080
Speaker 2: kind as possible when confronting things, whether it's to yourself

820
00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:50,800
Speaker 2: or to others.

821
00:39:51,600 --> 00:39:54,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, if you guys haven't listened to the Terry podcast yet.

822
00:39:54,360 --> 00:39:57,960
Speaker 1: She gave an amazing example of how she confronted something

823
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:01,799
Speaker 1: with her husband that I love, Like, she sat with

824
00:40:01,840 --> 00:40:04,600
Speaker 1: it for a minute until she and she couldn't like

825
00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:07,520
Speaker 1: something kept coming up for her. She sat with it

826
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:09,560
Speaker 1: to try to figure out but it was the behavior

827
00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:12,200
Speaker 1: he was doing, but it was about something in her

828
00:40:12,280 --> 00:40:14,840
Speaker 1: and she never actually figured out exactly what it was

829
00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:16,960
Speaker 1: with her. But the way she approached the conversation with

830
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:20,160
Speaker 1: him was with so much ownership and then just asking

831
00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:22,200
Speaker 1: for what you need. And I just loved it. It

832
00:40:22,400 --> 00:40:25,840
Speaker 1: like really helped me. So go check out that podcast

833
00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:28,160
Speaker 1: with Terry Cole. We also just had a bunch of

834
00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,799
Speaker 1: fun guests. One I did tell you I really the

835
00:40:30,840 --> 00:40:33,080
Speaker 1: one thing popping up in my life. And we're not

836
00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:35,160
Speaker 1: going to get to this topic today, but if anyone

837
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:37,920
Speaker 1: else has any thoughts on this ap Pacino situation.

838
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:40,279
Speaker 3: Oh wow, I can't get off it.

839
00:40:40,520 --> 00:40:43,640
Speaker 1: Like I literally cannot get off the fact that this

840
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:45,680
Speaker 1: eighty three year old man just had a baby with a.

841
00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:47,520
Speaker 3: Twenty nine year old I'm suck.

842
00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:51,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, nobody, there's one person in my life who gave

843
00:40:51,160 --> 00:40:53,480
Speaker 1: me the reaction I wanted, and everyone else was kind

844
00:40:53,480 --> 00:40:53,719
Speaker 1: of like.

845
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:54,360
Speaker 3: Why do you care?

846
00:40:54,880 --> 00:40:56,840
Speaker 2: I mean, that's kind of where I said, It's like

847
00:40:57,040 --> 00:41:01,000
Speaker 2: why do I care? But it's also I don't know why,

848
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:03,920
Speaker 2: but I'm just he's eighty three, Like, I.

849
00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:05,160
Speaker 1: Can't believe you can still get it up.

850
00:41:05,400 --> 00:41:08,840
Speaker 2: I know, well, I'm sure there's a pill involved, but maybe,

851
00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:12,480
Speaker 2: but like his sperm is still good. It's the best.

852
00:41:12,520 --> 00:41:15,879
Speaker 1: That's the fucked up thing about life. The men can

853
00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:19,520
Speaker 1: have kids until literally the day they die, and we

854
00:41:19,880 --> 00:41:23,359
Speaker 1: literally have a geriatric pregnancy at the age of thirty five,

855
00:41:23,480 --> 00:41:24,800
Speaker 1: don't even get me started on this.

856
00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:26,800
Speaker 2: Don't even started.

857
00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:29,360
Speaker 3: It's just like a whole we don't have.

858
00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:29,799
Speaker 2: Wow.

859
00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:33,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's so it is literally like it's why you

860
00:41:33,640 --> 00:41:35,960
Speaker 1: guys don't feel the pressure. I mean, like, I know

861
00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:38,440
Speaker 1: you're you're in a gay relationship, and so I think

862
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:41,839
Speaker 1: it's a little different. But in hetero relationships, like there's

863
00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:44,120
Speaker 1: so much of that Peter Pan syndrom, and guys are like,

864
00:41:44,120 --> 00:41:46,160
Speaker 1: what's the rush, And we're like, there's such a rush,

865
00:41:46,400 --> 00:41:49,680
Speaker 1: Like right, we have to live in the rush, you know,

866
00:41:49,760 --> 00:41:52,799
Speaker 1: we're forced to. And so we're also forced I think,

867
00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:55,040
Speaker 1: to grow up a lot faster in a lot of ways.

868
00:41:55,080 --> 00:41:58,760
Speaker 1: But yeah, if I was a dude, I'd be like, whoa,

869
00:41:59,080 --> 00:42:01,040
Speaker 1: I can have a baby a day three bitch.

870
00:42:04,600 --> 00:42:06,759
Speaker 2: God. I mean that's but like maybe it is a

871
00:42:06,760 --> 00:42:10,840
Speaker 2: self preservation thing too, because women take on so much

872
00:42:11,000 --> 00:42:13,160
Speaker 2: work in the role of being a mother. Could you

873
00:42:13,200 --> 00:42:15,160
Speaker 2: imagine if you were a new mother at eighty five

874
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:19,480
Speaker 2: years old, you couldn't be you couldn't. I think dad

875
00:42:19,680 --> 00:42:21,880
Speaker 2: can just like go watch TV and like a normal

876
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:24,200
Speaker 2: you know, at any age, that's what they're doing. You know.

877
00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:27,719
Speaker 2: It's like yeah, and that's I'm stereotyping. I know it's

878
00:42:27,719 --> 00:42:28,600
Speaker 2: not every dad, but the.

879
00:42:28,719 --> 00:42:30,840
Speaker 3: Hands on you think al Pacino is, let's.

880
00:42:30,600 --> 00:42:34,400
Speaker 2: Talk because he know the kid's name, who knows, he

881
00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:36,680
Speaker 2: probably will have trouble remembering it at that age. So

882
00:42:36,960 --> 00:42:38,800
Speaker 2: I just like that four.

883
00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:42,480
Speaker 1: Oh my god, his kids, his other kids are older

884
00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:45,800
Speaker 1: than his new baby mama. Yeah, I'm being so judgy

885
00:42:45,880 --> 00:42:46,319
Speaker 1: right now.

886
00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:46,719
Speaker 3: I know.

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00:42:47,400 --> 00:42:50,040
Speaker 1: It's just one of those topics that I like, saw

888
00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:53,239
Speaker 1: the headline this week and I like skip past it,

889
00:42:53,320 --> 00:42:55,000
Speaker 1: and then I was scrolling more and then I was like,

890
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:58,560
Speaker 1: wait what, And I went back and I went on

891
00:42:58,719 --> 00:43:01,879
Speaker 1: such a deep dive of that girl because everyone too

892
00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:03,840
Speaker 1: was like, well, money can buy a lot or whatever.

893
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:08,320
Speaker 1: That girl's rich. She's like a royal. They have billions

894
00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:11,840
Speaker 1: of dollars. She doesn't need money. Also, guess who she

895
00:43:11,960 --> 00:43:17,799
Speaker 1: dated before Appucino. Oh, Nick Jagger in his seventies.

896
00:43:18,120 --> 00:43:20,480
Speaker 2: Wow, she likes At least she's consistent.

897
00:43:21,080 --> 00:43:22,799
Speaker 1: I mean, she doesn't even have daddy issues. She has

898
00:43:22,840 --> 00:43:23,880
Speaker 1: granddaddy issues.

899
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:24,239
Speaker 2: Right.

900
00:43:24,280 --> 00:43:26,920
Speaker 1: It feels I just like there's I don't know, I

901
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:29,799
Speaker 1: know way too much about this family now, but her

902
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:35,319
Speaker 1: sister dated Prince Michael Jackson. Prince Jackson, Oh really do

903
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:38,400
Speaker 1: you have any questions about this family? You, guys, email

904
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:42,839
Speaker 1: me at the Edge at velvetech dot com because I

905
00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:44,480
Speaker 1: know everything.

906
00:43:46,600 --> 00:43:49,720
Speaker 3: Right, I'm trying.

907
00:43:50,760 --> 00:43:53,680
Speaker 1: My brain sometimes just won't let me be anyway. Like

908
00:43:53,719 --> 00:43:55,520
Speaker 1: I said, you can email us at the edge at

909
00:43:55,600 --> 00:43:57,960
Speaker 1: velvetedge dot com. You can also hit me up on Instagram.

910
00:43:58,040 --> 00:43:59,960
Speaker 1: I'm at velvet Edge Chip.

911
00:44:00,360 --> 00:44:03,239
Speaker 2: I'm at Chip dorsh. It's c H I P d

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00:44:03,360 --> 00:44:05,200
Speaker 2: O R S c H.

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Speaker 1: And as you guys are going into the weekend and

914
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:09,920
Speaker 1: you're living on the edge, I hope you can remember

915
00:44:10,320 --> 00:44:13,680
Speaker 1: to do this way more than I can and always

916
00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:15,200
Speaker 1: remember to a.

917
00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:17,400
Speaker 2: Casual.

918
00:44:18,800 --> 00:44:23,880
Speaker 1: Wow, you really made us like wait for that one.

919
00:44:24,040 --> 00:44:28,959
Speaker 2: It was like a little I think maybe too loud.

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00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:32,680
Speaker 3: Okay, all right bye