WEBVTT - “I LIVE IN A HIPPIE TOWN”

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<v Speaker 1>Hi.

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<v Speaker 2>Hey, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 3>My name is Meg. I was the person in chat

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<v Speaker 3>that's that I've been trying for five years.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you've been so how long You've been listening to

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<v Speaker 2>the show for five years? Yeah, it's crazy. It really

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<v Speaker 2>is crazy to me that. I mean, I remember being

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<v Speaker 2>on I started doing this on Reddit like five years ago. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and I was like, well, every year. Every year, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>all right, this is the year that you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>gotta go do something else. And then it just keeps

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<v Speaker 2>people keeping, which is great. It's like amazing. Yeah, well

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<v Speaker 2>I did, And I don't mean that in the sense

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<v Speaker 2>of I like, it's it's extremely cool that people are

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<v Speaker 2>are still here and that we're still doing this.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, I think everybody just likes to hear about

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<v Speaker 3>other people's experiences and stuff, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, Well, speaking of which, what's what what have

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<v Speaker 2>your experience has been?

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<v Speaker 1>Like?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, dude, I've had a zillion. I have literally, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 3>I've I've lived in vans and traveled back and forth

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<v Speaker 3>across the country before. I like, now I live in

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<v Speaker 3>the very southwest tip of Colorado and I've been here

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<v Speaker 3>for like seven years, so I finally have settled. I

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<v Speaker 3>make a fuck ton of art I went through. I've

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<v Speaker 3>been through some crazy shit too. I went through like

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<v Speaker 3>a house fire, lost everything, completely rebuilt my life. So

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<v Speaker 3>I've got a million stories. Currently, I am healing from

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<v Speaker 3>a breakup.

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<v Speaker 2>So you've living at the ice at the southern tip

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<v Speaker 2>of Colorado for seven years.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm like right on the border of like Utah,

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<v Speaker 3>New Mexico, Arizona, at like the four Corners.

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<v Speaker 2>And Okay, so before that, you were running all around

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<v Speaker 2>and like around where were you running?

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<v Speaker 3>So I am from Jersey and I have done quite

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<v Speaker 3>a few trips. Like I would, I would basically get

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<v Speaker 3>either invited to an event or just like on a whim,

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<v Speaker 3>I'd have like a thousand dollars saved it up, and

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<v Speaker 3>I'd be like, fuck it, you know what, let's quit

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<v Speaker 3>our job and just drive down the coast. And so

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<v Speaker 3>I've done that a few times. I was like one

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<v Speaker 3>of my trips, I drove up from Jersey to upstate

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<v Speaker 3>New York, met this group of kids, befriended them They're

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<v Speaker 3>from Florida, and then drove down to all the way

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<v Speaker 3>to like Atlanta, Georgia, and like hitting music festivals and

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<v Speaker 3>stuff along the whole way, and then went from there

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<v Speaker 3>to Yellowstone National Park that's where we got arrested, and

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<v Speaker 3>then went to Portland and then went back across the

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<v Speaker 3>coast again back.

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<v Speaker 2>To what were you arrested for in Yellowstone? If you

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<v Speaker 2>want to, you care to share?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, So it's pretty funny. So we were we went

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<v Speaker 3>to Yellowstone. We did not pay for a camping site

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<v Speaker 3>where jackasses. We were like, let's just fucking park here

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<v Speaker 3>and camp here, and we probably wouldn't have gotten in

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<v Speaker 3>any trouble except for we were allowed. We had beer

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<v Speaker 3>cans out. We were asleep when this happened. We got

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<v Speaker 3>awoken by rangers, so like, what the fuck are you doing?

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<v Speaker 3>Not in the camping spot. You guys have open containers everywhere.

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<v Speaker 3>And one of the kids that we were traveling with

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<v Speaker 3>was underage, and he had an illicit substance in his hands,

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<v Speaker 3>clashed clustered whatever class to his chest while he was

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<v Speaker 3>sleeping in a hammock. So he wakes up and they're like,

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<v Speaker 3>what's in your hand? That's drugs And.

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<v Speaker 4>We were like, oh, we're not bad kids.

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<v Speaker 3>These bikers gave it to us because there's a lot

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<v Speaker 3>of bikers in Yellowstone and this woman checked my ID

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<v Speaker 3>and she was like, oh my god, you're.

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<v Speaker 4>From freaking blah blah, New Jersey and I was like yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>and she was like I went to this high school.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, oh my gosh, my parents went there.

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<v Speaker 4>And then she's like, oh my gosh, I know your

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<v Speaker 4>mom and like to the other ranger was like, we're

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<v Speaker 4>gonna go and bring you guys to jail right now,

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<v Speaker 4>and she was like, no, these guys are good kids.

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<v Speaker 1>They're good kids.

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<v Speaker 3>We're gonna let you guys go. And they gave us

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<v Speaker 3>like providing alcohol to a minor and then it got

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<v Speaker 3>dropped because if you get arrested on federal lands that's

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<v Speaker 3>a federal charge. You're in big trouble.

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<v Speaker 2>So what was it that made you settle in Colorado?

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<v Speaker 2>And then how has it been being in the same

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<v Speaker 2>place for seven years after doing all this running around?

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<v Speaker 3>It's been awesome. What made me stay here? I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>first I lived in Denver and Boulder, which are like

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<v Speaker 3>cities on the eastern side of Colorado, and I was like,

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<v Speaker 3>this sucks. This isn't really Colorado. There's traffic, there's just

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<v Speaker 3>like very yuppy culture, and so I eventually came out here.

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<v Speaker 3>I live in a town called Durango, and it just

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<v Speaker 3>is awesome. This town is crazy. It's just got weird

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<v Speaker 3>people in it.

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<v Speaker 1>Man.

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<v Speaker 3>Like we have like weird festivals like every two months

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<v Speaker 3>for random things, Like we've got the river festivals coming up,

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<v Speaker 3>and then after that we've got a Dandelion festival. It's

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<v Speaker 3>fun time. And yeah, I mean, you drive an hour

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<v Speaker 3>north and you're going to be in the most beautiful

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<v Speaker 3>mountains you've ever seen. You drive an hour south, you're

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<v Speaker 3>going to be in the desert. Like really fun. It's

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<v Speaker 3>just nature everywhere. It's beautiful. And I live like in

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<v Speaker 3>a very rural areas cool, but there's college close by,

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<v Speaker 3>so there's parties.

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<v Speaker 2>And you said you're going through a breakup. How long

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<v Speaker 2>were you with this person for?

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<v Speaker 3>I was with him for like a year, but we

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<v Speaker 3>had been friends for like six years before that.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you guy still friends or was that kind of

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<v Speaker 2>or was the friendship erosion part of the breakup?

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<v Speaker 1>It sucks. It kind of was that.

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<v Speaker 3>I try still to be friends, but this kid has

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<v Speaker 3>got so many issues and it sucks because like he's

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<v Speaker 3>ten years older than me, and I swear to god,

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<v Speaker 3>he argues like a high schooler, but like it's just insane.

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<v Speaker 3>He's got We both had problems with alcohol and I've

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<v Speaker 3>been four months sober ever since the breakup, and he

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<v Speaker 3>just won't stop and he'll call me drunk and be

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<v Speaker 3>like I love you, I'm sorry, and then be like

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<v Speaker 3>fuck you five minutes later. So that's that.

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<v Speaker 2>And do you live alone?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, unless you count my two kitty cats?

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<v Speaker 2>How was uh uh? Yeah? How is your like kind

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<v Speaker 2>of healing process? Bin?

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<v Speaker 3>Like what you been doing, It's been fucking awesome. If

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<v Speaker 3>anybody is struggling with mental health, I'm afraid to go

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<v Speaker 3>to therapy or a psychiatrist. I highly advise you to

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<v Speaker 3>just abandon that shame and to just go for it,

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<v Speaker 3>because like I've been in therapy and I started taking

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<v Speaker 3>this thing called a bilifi and I swear to god

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<v Speaker 3>it has like yeah, man, and I'm on the lowest

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<v Speaker 3>dose of it, and it has changed my life. Like

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<v Speaker 3>I am just I don't know, man, I got a

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<v Speaker 3>different way of thinking. It's crazy. One of my friends

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<v Speaker 3>yesterday was over and they're like, what, what did you

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<v Speaker 3>start taking it? And I told them, They're like, keep

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<v Speaker 3>doing that, because you're doing fucking awesome. I'm like, thinks.

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<v Speaker 2>Interesting, Yeah, I'm on a I've kind of made it

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<v Speaker 2>my you know, uh, my mission for like this year

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<v Speaker 2>is I want to find a good like ss sr

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<v Speaker 2>I for myself because you can't. I thought, is it,

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<v Speaker 2>isn't that an SSRI I abilify?

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<v Speaker 3>No, no, no, it's I forget what it's considered, but

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<v Speaker 3>it's not an SSRI.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm on that.

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm also on wellbutrin that also is not an

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<v Speaker 3>SSRI I because whenever I took SSRIs, I felt like, sorry,

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<v Speaker 3>I was running water in the background. But whenever I

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<v Speaker 3>took those, I felt like I just like life was

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<v Speaker 3>just I don't know, it was dulled down, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>and it just I just felt like instead of feeling happy,

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<v Speaker 3>I felt nothing so and I was like nothing better

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<v Speaker 3>than sad. But I want to feel happy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, it's I'm I'm on I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>it's like an SSRI I or anything, but I'm I'm

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<v Speaker 2>kind of on this kick where I'm like, I think,

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<v Speaker 2>throughout my life, I've found a lot of meeting and

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<v Speaker 2>like uh projects and work and whatnot. But I've been

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like flip flipping flopping with like you know, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>mental fog or whatever the fuck. So I think I've

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<v Speaker 2>kind of tried to accept that. It's like, all right,

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<v Speaker 2>I think whatever's going on is something chemical that cannot

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<v Speaker 2>be well, I mean I think there is, Like I

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<v Speaker 2>think there is a strong like you can't just I

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<v Speaker 2>don't think there's a magic pill that's gonna like make

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<v Speaker 2>your life awesome, but there might be. Yeah, but I

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<v Speaker 2>have this hope that there's like.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, try abilify bro because it will, but you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, well anyway anyway, but yeah, but well, well let

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<v Speaker 2>me ask you this though. What's your name again? Meg?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Meg, We're cool to just shoot the shit if you

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<v Speaker 2>want to keep shooting the shit, But is there anything

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<v Speaker 2>in particular that you called in to want to talk about?

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<v Speaker 3>Honestly, Like, I'm down to shoot the ship because I've

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<v Speaker 3>called in a million times when I've had like some

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<v Speaker 3>crazy shit going on in my life and been like

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<v Speaker 3>I just won't event But right now I'm like I'm

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<v Speaker 3>doing good, So.

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<v Speaker 2>Excellence, that's excellence.

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<v Speaker 3>I can like tell I can give like a little

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<v Speaker 3>brief synopsis of my life. I've been through a bunch, But.

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<v Speaker 2>Where what do you well, let me, what do you

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<v Speaker 2>so you you you make art, what do you do

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<v Speaker 2>for Uh? Do you do that for work?

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<v Speaker 5>No?

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<v Speaker 3>But I do make some money on the side from it,

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<v Speaker 3>though I haven't really been selling it lately, but I'm

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<v Speaker 3>trying to get back into that, Like I'm going to

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<v Speaker 3>try to run the table at our flea market and stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>I think I might get into making soap, try to

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<v Speaker 3>sell some of that. I make sour dough bread. I

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<v Speaker 3>might try to sell some of that too, because I

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<v Speaker 3>live in a very hippie dippy town where people want

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<v Speaker 3>to buy that stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>Cool, all right? Is it like a tell me more

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<v Speaker 2>about the hippie dippy town. What's hippy and dippy about it?

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<v Speaker 1>Dude?

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<v Speaker 3>It's fucking crazy. So it's like basically like once, like

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<v Speaker 3>there's like a stretch of street. We've got a main

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<v Speaker 3>street that's like probably like eight block, and that's where

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<v Speaker 3>everything kind of happens in town. And everybody here is

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<v Speaker 3>just very like crunchy granola people. Like everybody's got there,

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<v Speaker 3>like we've got our little homestead. Like when everybody was

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<v Speaker 3>dying for eggs, like I was like, I don't have

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<v Speaker 3>to worry. I know one million people with chickens, Like, uh,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. Just everybody's got like little homesteads and stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>It's very rural. There's, like I said, festivals for little

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<v Speaker 3>insignificant things. Everybody's like, let's celebrate dambelions. They have a

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<v Speaker 3>may pole for that thing. It's like, I don't know

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<v Speaker 3>if you've ever seen one, but it's a gigantic pole

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<v Speaker 3>that they attach like a bunch of strings of fabrics

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<v Speaker 3>to it, and everybody runs in opposite directions around the

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<v Speaker 3>pole until the fabrics all wrapped around it, so that

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<v Speaker 3>every year it gets thicker and thicker. But everybody gets

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<v Speaker 3>all tangled up while they're doing it. It's really cute

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<v Speaker 3>to watch. And then like for the river one, people

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<v Speaker 3>go crazy. They cover themselves in like glitter and wear

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<v Speaker 3>two twos and shit, they decorate all their floats, like

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<v Speaker 3>to everybody, here, we've got a pretty crazy river. It's

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<v Speaker 3>got like it's got rapids that if you were to

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<v Speaker 3>go through it, like you need to have like a

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<v Speaker 3>helmet and be on good a good boat. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>people will dress up crazy for that and like paint

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<v Speaker 3>their faces and shit, and everybody gathers at the riverside

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<v Speaker 3>and watches people go through the rapids. And like cheers

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<v Speaker 3>the mom I think we also have. In the winter,

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<v Speaker 3>there's like a two week festival that they call Snowdown.

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<v Speaker 3>It's been going on since the eighties and again every

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<v Speaker 3>year it will have a theme. This year's theme was

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<v Speaker 3>Safari I think, or something like that. So everybody will

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<v Speaker 3>dress up crazy. Oh no, it was game board themes.

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<v Speaker 3>That's like the dumbest theme I've ever heard. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>so everybody will dress up and all of the local

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<v Speaker 3>businesses and bars and such will post games. There'll be

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<v Speaker 3>things like I think there was like a porta potty

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<v Speaker 3>race or something where people put bodies on wheels, and

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<v Speaker 3>then there was like a mattress race where people put

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<v Speaker 3>mattresses on wheels. People do ski drawing here where that's

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<v Speaker 3>a horse pulling you on skis and you go over

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<v Speaker 3>water and see who can't fall. So there's stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 2>Have you done a lot of traveling arounds in the

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<v Speaker 2>past seven years or did you, like, you know, really

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<v Speaker 2>really settle into this town.

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<v Speaker 3>I've settled into the town, but I've also like checked

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<v Speaker 3>out stuff outside of it. Like I live pretty close

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<v Speaker 3>to Moab, which is a big destination for mountain biking,

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<v Speaker 3>and I went there over this past fall. It kind

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<v Speaker 3>of sucks. I went with my access kind of the

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<v Speaker 3>catalyst for the breakups. And let's see. I like, if

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<v Speaker 3>you go an hour north, there's this town called Urray.

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<v Speaker 3>They call it the Switzerland of America, and it is

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<v Speaker 3>just so beautiful. I spent my birth Yeah, I spent

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<v Speaker 3>my birthday there.

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<v Speaker 5>Gorgeous.

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<v Speaker 2>What's going on in Urray?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, you're right, I don't know how anybody lives there.

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<v Speaker 3>It's a very tourist destination. So I think everybody kind

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<v Speaker 3>of lived outside of it. In this little teeny tiny

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<v Speaker 3>town called Ridgeway. I think everybody who works there must

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<v Speaker 3>live there, and they must all travel to your right,

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<v Speaker 3>because I think you're right, it's just all like tourist shops, restaurants,

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<v Speaker 3>et cetera. In Ridgeway. I went to a hot spring

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<v Speaker 3>over there. That's something I love. I love hot water,

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<v Speaker 3>and so I went to a hot spring over there,

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<v Speaker 3>and it's in It was a new to the allowed

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<v Speaker 3>one and I have never seen as many like sixty

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<v Speaker 3>year old penises in my life. Nice, very good, coming

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<v Speaker 3>straight at you as soon as you walk in.

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<v Speaker 2>So what's next for you? Meg and your life journey.

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<v Speaker 2>I like, what do you what do you hope to

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<v Speaker 2>do after you know you're your I guess I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know if I don't know how healing works. Are you

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<v Speaker 2>do you are? Do you mean do you magically label

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<v Speaker 2>yourself healed? Or is it like, uh, you know, what's

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<v Speaker 2>what's what's the next in your universe?

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<v Speaker 3>I think right now I'm sort of kind of healed

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<v Speaker 3>because I still answer the phone calls, you know, But

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<v Speaker 3>what's next for me is making a cup of coffee

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm gonna go do hair all day and then

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<v Speaker 3>what's really next for me? I have zero clue what

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<v Speaker 3>what this life has for me because lately it's been

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<v Speaker 3>kind of a struggle financially. But hopefully life will give

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<v Speaker 3>me the clientele that I need to be making enough

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<v Speaker 3>money because this town is very expensive to live in.

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<v Speaker 3>So really, right now my journey is just to find

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<v Speaker 3>stability without the help of another person.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh yeah, I mean good luck on that, Meg.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you know, I don't know why. I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>why when that's you know, what is so annoying is

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<v Speaker 2>I meant what I said just now, but when I

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<v Speaker 2>said it, it sounded like I was being sarcastic, didn't it? Nah?

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<v Speaker 3>Man, I get it. I fucking I People constantly think

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<v Speaker 3>I'm being a dick because I'm from New Jersey and

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<v Speaker 3>I'm very sarcastic, and nobody here can pick up on

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<v Speaker 3>it because they're like all very nice.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know what, Like in my like, in my brain,

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<v Speaker 2>I was like my brain's my brain said, oh, good luck, Meg,

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<v Speaker 2>But my cool in my mouth was good luck.

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<v Speaker 3>You're like good luck.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe it's maybe it's a family maybe because it's a

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<v Speaker 2>family guy or something, just the way you say, Meg,

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, no good uh good? You hate family guy?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah? I can't help it, bro, I just.

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<v Speaker 2>Do Why do you hate family guy?

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<v Speaker 1>Dude? I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>It's because, like I mean, I went, I graduated high

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<v Speaker 3>school in two thousand and nine. I feel like we're

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<v Speaker 3>probably similar age. I'm thirty three, so it was like

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<v Speaker 3>super popular in school and everybody was just always saying

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<v Speaker 3>fucking quotes from it, and I was like, I can't

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<v Speaker 3>do another. I can't, like, I don't know. I just

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<v Speaker 3>don't think they're jokes. Are that funny?

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<v Speaker 2>Well?

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<v Speaker 3>With South Park?

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<v Speaker 2>Like I grew up there, you hates Okay, Okay, hating

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<v Speaker 2>family guys one thing. But South Park is like, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, is it totally different?

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<v Speaker 3>It's pretty funny sometimes show.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's very well written and it's very the jokes

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<v Speaker 2>are more like I think they did a great job. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I like the one season where it starts off where

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<v Speaker 3>where Butters is being professor Chaos and then they turn

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<v Speaker 3>them into the dog.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, good luck, Meg, try not to. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't have I don't I I I wish you

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<v Speaker 2>sincere life. What's the name of this town, Urray. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna check that out.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh no, no, Durango is where I live. But Urray

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<v Speaker 3>is also awesome, and Urray is felled. Oh you are

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<v Speaker 3>a y Some people say, oh Ray, I don't know

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<v Speaker 3>what the fuck is the right pronunciation. Uh, look it up.

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<v Speaker 3>You should visit sometime. Like I've always wanted to see

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<v Speaker 3>you live, but you've never come anywhere close to me,

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<v Speaker 3>Like I go, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Go to I go to Denver pretty much every year.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I know, but Denver's like eight hours. Dude's like,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm closer. I'm in the Southwest, so I'm closer to

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<v Speaker 3>Santa Fe and Albuquerge. If either of those if you

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<v Speaker 3>ever hit either of those, I will be there, like swim,

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<v Speaker 3>I'll be in there like somewhere.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, cool, I'll consider doing that. I'll consider doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>I like Santa Fe. I like the have the original.

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<v Speaker 3>Now we'll be there.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's so much fun. I went there, dude, and

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<v Speaker 3>I like, did you know that? Like, have you gone

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<v Speaker 3>through the exhibits.

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<v Speaker 2>I've been to a lot of them, but I've never

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<v Speaker 2>been to the one in Santa Fe.

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<v Speaker 5>Ah.

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<v Speaker 3>Dang.

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<v Speaker 2>Well.

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<v Speaker 3>They have like the exhibit part of it is like

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<v Speaker 3>a nineties house or whatever, and they also have like

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<v Speaker 3>concerts there. I went to see a concert there. Me

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<v Speaker 3>and my friend were with a group of people where

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<v Speaker 3>were like, Yo, these people stuck, Let's just leave and

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<v Speaker 3>go to the exhibit. And like we went in there

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<v Speaker 3>and tried on all the clothes and stuff that were

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<v Speaker 3>like in these bedrooms and stuff in the fake house,

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<v Speaker 3>and we eventually got kicked out for it. They were like,

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<v Speaker 3>you need to.

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<v Speaker 2>Stop, get out of here, Meg, is the anything else

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<v Speaker 2>you want to say to the people the computer before

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<v Speaker 2>we go?

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<v Speaker 3>Don't be scared of facing your mental health challenges, guys,

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<v Speaker 3>and I hope that everybody has a really really nice

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<v Speaker 3>day and a good start to your weekend.

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<v Speaker 2>Have a good night, Meg.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, no, dude, this is you said night haha. Have

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<v Speaker 3>a nice day.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh shit, Sorry, it could be day or night, depending

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<v Speaker 2>on I don't know where anyone is in the world.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I guess I do. I know where that she

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<v Speaker 2>is because she told me. But uh, it could be day,

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<v Speaker 2>it could be night. Every it's it's whatever time you

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<v Speaker 2>decide it is.

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<v Speaker 5>Hello.

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<v Speaker 2>Hey, what's up. What's your name?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm Tristan.

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<v Speaker 2>What's up, Christen? How's life Tristan? What's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 5>I am currently at work.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you do for work?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm an electrician.

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<v Speaker 2>You're an electrician. I like that. It's a very very

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<v Speaker 2>real job.

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<v Speaker 5>Is very real. It doesn't feel like I'm fitting and

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<v Speaker 5>doing nothing all day.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's good. You're doing a valuable that's one of

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<v Speaker 2>the an electrician, that's one of those jobs that AI

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<v Speaker 2>can't replace, right you think, I.

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<v Speaker 5>Don't think so. I mean, at least you know the

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<v Speaker 5>physical work portion of it. I guess computers have been

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<v Speaker 5>like planning buildings for a little while, but I don't know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>physical work, it can't really be done at least for

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<v Speaker 5>a while.

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<v Speaker 2>Listen. It's okay if you just wanted to shoot the

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<v Speaker 2>shit and whatever, but is there anything in particular you

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<v Speaker 2>want to talk about today?

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know. I mean, honestly, I kind of wanted

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<v Speaker 5>to just like give you a compliment, like the kind

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<v Speaker 5>I've been watching since like the Pandemic and like when

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<v Speaker 5>you started, and I feel like you you kind of

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<v Speaker 5>have instead of just using this show as like a

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<v Speaker 5>way to like learn about other people, I think you've

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<v Speaker 5>kind of like used it as your outlet as well.

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<v Speaker 5>And I think a lot of people are like connecting

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<v Speaker 5>to you a lot more recently, or at least I

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<v Speaker 5>am like hearing your you know, how you go through

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<v Speaker 5>bit and you actually like tell us about it, which

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<v Speaker 5>is it's helpful to hear, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, good, I'm glad. I'm glad to hear it's helpful

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<v Speaker 2>to hear because I have been doing that more often.

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<v Speaker 2>And then in my off time, I wonder to myself

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<v Speaker 2>if it's a good idea and the impetus behind it

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<v Speaker 2>is a it just feels cathartic to like have a

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like I guess, to publicly share your thoughts

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<v Speaker 2>and life and then bees I assume it's helpful for

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<v Speaker 2>other people to hear in this, you know what's going

0:21:19.480 --> 0:21:23.440
<v Speaker 2>on everyone's But then I want it's funny. I wonder

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<v Speaker 2>in my own life, I'm like, am I in a

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<v Speaker 2>loop of some kind where I'm solidifying stories about myself?

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<v Speaker 2>I've even talked about this.

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<v Speaker 5>I think, yeah, yeah, I've heard you. You say, like,

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<v Speaker 5>the more you talk about things, are you like creating

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<v Speaker 5>this image of yourself that like isn't actually real?

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<v Speaker 2>Well no, well no, not not that, not that. More

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<v Speaker 2>like like if I talk about uh, like, if you're

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<v Speaker 2>if you're constantly talking about like being depressed, you I

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<v Speaker 2>think you create your brain just creates this story, right

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<v Speaker 2>that you're depressed, and then that's a loop.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know where I've landed on that, but I

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<v Speaker 2>I I'm happy that it's resonating with and maybe I

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<v Speaker 2>I have other things I'd like to talk about besides

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<v Speaker 2>just being depressed. I guess I.

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<v Speaker 5>Don't think I'm glad that that's all you. Yeah, that's

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<v Speaker 5>all you like talk about. You definitely don't just like

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<v Speaker 5>talk about that, But I I think just you know,

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<v Speaker 5>using it as like more of a way to not

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<v Speaker 5>only hear about other people's things, but you know, tell

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<v Speaker 5>your your stories, whether they're positive or negative, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>like talking about like your experiences in college, or giving

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<v Speaker 5>advice about like staying at home like uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>as long as you can so you can save up money.

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<v Speaker 5>Like those are just like good pieces of advice.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I'm okay, cool.

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<v Speaker 5>And I think that. Yeah, no, I'm just uh, you're

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<v Speaker 5>you're you're the right person to do. This is is

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<v Speaker 5>kind of my compliment.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, thanks man. That what's your name, Kristin Chris, Tristan

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<v Speaker 2>or Tristan or Kristen Kristin ta with the tea Kristin.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks Tristan. That actually means a lot to me. I

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<v Speaker 2>really I appreciate that, Okay, And I know I get

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<v Speaker 2>what you're saying, so okay, yeah, I uh, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>start doing that more, trying to use my personal experience

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<v Speaker 2>just you know, lif. I mean, that's what I like

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<v Speaker 2>about the show is other people's like lived experience. So

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I'll keep I'll keep sharing, I think.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean, I think that's what we all we

0:23:54.520 --> 0:23:58.120
<v Speaker 5>all kind of like about it too, at least I think, so, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, well, what's going on with you, Tristan. How's life.

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<v Speaker 5>Uh, Life's pretty good. I've been in a pretty pretty

0:24:09.160 --> 0:24:12.480
<v Speaker 5>good relationship for the last like year and a couple

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<v Speaker 5>of months. I just uh, we just got back from Brazil.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh what went to go ahead? I'll like, before you

0:24:29.000 --> 0:24:31.040
<v Speaker 2>go ahead, I'm gonna I'm gonna wait. I'm gonna wait

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<v Speaker 2>for a nice long silence before I get in there.

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<v Speaker 5>All right, Yeah, we just we just got back from Brazil.

0:24:39.080 --> 0:24:42.520
<v Speaker 5>We went to uh Carnival in in Rio. It was

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<v Speaker 5>freaking it was sick.

0:24:45.119 --> 0:24:48.600
<v Speaker 2>Oh, Carnival is on my uh list? What was uh?

0:24:48.640 --> 0:24:51.240
<v Speaker 2>What was up? How was it?

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<v Speaker 5>That's great? Man. Rio is like one of the most

0:24:55.080 --> 0:25:00.439
<v Speaker 5>brazy places. Like it's so beautiful, Like you're on the

0:25:00.440 --> 0:25:02.320
<v Speaker 5>beach and you just like turn around and there's just

0:25:02.520 --> 0:25:07.320
<v Speaker 5>huge mountains everywhere, and and it's just it's so nice.

0:25:07.880 --> 0:25:12.879
<v Speaker 5>And it's like the people are also very nice. I

0:25:13.119 --> 0:25:16.639
<v Speaker 5>can't speak Portuguese, but my girlfriend is from Brazil, so

0:25:16.680 --> 0:25:19.240
<v Speaker 5>you kind of just like so you kind of just

0:25:19.320 --> 0:25:25.720
<v Speaker 5>led me around and you know, talking to people, and yeah,

0:25:25.760 --> 0:25:28.840
<v Speaker 5>it's it's a Brazilian people have a lot of fun,

0:25:29.200 --> 0:25:30.040
<v Speaker 5>That's what I'll say.

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<v Speaker 2>Cool. Cool, Yeah, Yeah, the fucking rocks. Well, I've heard

0:25:37.880 --> 0:25:40.760
<v Speaker 2>Carnival is like like there's like a million fucking people

0:25:40.800 --> 0:25:44.879
<v Speaker 2>in the streets and like a big DJ and like

0:25:44.920 --> 0:25:45.680
<v Speaker 2>all that stuff.

0:25:48.160 --> 0:25:52.560
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean there's literally like parties every everywhere you go.

0:25:52.640 --> 0:25:55.480
<v Speaker 5>There's just like some random party in the street going on,

0:25:56.040 --> 0:26:01.480
<v Speaker 5>and just like a ton of music. There's like parade

0:26:01.640 --> 0:26:05.040
<v Speaker 5>stuff and yeah, it's it's wild.

0:26:07.040 --> 0:26:08.680
<v Speaker 2>And where do you Where are you when you're not in.

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<v Speaker 5>Brazil, I'm in the Boston area.

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<v Speaker 2>Pretty good, Pretty good. You sound like your life is good.

0:26:21.280 --> 0:26:25.000
<v Speaker 5>Recently it's been it's been surprisingly very good.

0:26:26.880 --> 0:26:27.680
<v Speaker 2>Surprisingly.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know. I guess I kind of have that

0:26:32.080 --> 0:26:38.760
<v Speaker 5>like like imposter like all this good stuff shouldn't really

0:26:38.800 --> 0:26:39.920
<v Speaker 5>be happening type of thing.

0:26:40.400 --> 0:26:49.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, sure, sure, Why well why has it been good?

0:26:49.320 --> 0:26:49.639
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm just happy with my relationship. My job's been pretty

0:26:56.280 --> 0:27:01.640
<v Speaker 5>like not stressful, and the only the only thing stressful

0:27:01.720 --> 0:27:03.240
<v Speaker 5>is like my car is like kind of a piece

0:27:03.240 --> 0:27:06.800
<v Speaker 5>of ship, So not really that that bad of a

0:27:06.840 --> 0:27:07.439
<v Speaker 5>problem to have.

0:27:08.240 --> 0:27:20.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Yeah, I I was in a airbnb and the

0:27:20.320 --> 0:27:24.719
<v Speaker 2>laundry machine I was in. Yeah. I was in Japan

0:27:24.840 --> 0:27:27.760
<v Speaker 2>for two months, and the first month I was there,

0:27:27.760 --> 0:27:34.359
<v Speaker 2>I was really really happy. I was very peaceful, and

0:27:36.400 --> 0:27:40.520
<v Speaker 2>I was in the airbnb and the laundry machine uh

0:27:41.000 --> 0:27:45.520
<v Speaker 2>started leaking. It was one and the the airbnb flooded

0:27:46.440 --> 0:27:52.359
<v Speaker 2>with water, and I was cleaning up the water, and

0:27:52.400 --> 0:27:54.040
<v Speaker 2>I was thinking to my I was it was a

0:27:54.160 --> 0:27:58.200
<v Speaker 2>very peaceful time, and I was thinking to myself, I'm

0:27:58.359 --> 0:28:06.760
<v Speaker 2>so fucking happy right now that the current worst problem

0:28:06.800 --> 0:28:13.280
<v Speaker 2>in my life is that my laundry machine is leaking.

0:28:14.720 --> 0:28:20.280
<v Speaker 2>That's uh, that's a real I that that that piece

0:28:20.440 --> 0:28:24.359
<v Speaker 2>that the that that that piece is now. H I

0:28:24.400 --> 0:28:28.320
<v Speaker 2>think I left that piece in Japan, but in that moment,

0:28:29.160 --> 0:28:34.760
<v Speaker 2>I remember feeling that way. So yeah, it's good.

0:28:34.840 --> 0:28:37.119
<v Speaker 5>It's good to have like that perspective on it, especially

0:28:37.119 --> 0:28:42.040
<v Speaker 5>when like when you do end up having bigger problems,

0:28:42.080 --> 0:28:43.840
<v Speaker 5>you kind of like wish back to the times that

0:28:43.920 --> 0:28:50.280
<v Speaker 5>you the only problem your laundry unit was flooding your

0:28:50.320 --> 0:28:53.080
<v Speaker 5>house or yeah, you know your car sucks.

0:28:53.520 --> 0:28:57.760
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but you get I mean, any I think you

0:28:57.800 --> 0:29:01.120
<v Speaker 2>can kind of do that anytime, you know, like whatever

0:29:01.160 --> 0:29:03.320
<v Speaker 2>your fucking problem is, you can always be like, well,

0:29:03.320 --> 0:29:06.080
<v Speaker 2>this is a better problem than getting my leg cut off.

0:29:06.760 --> 0:29:11.840
<v Speaker 2>That's happening to people in places, you know, so it's all,

0:29:11.880 --> 0:29:15.120
<v Speaker 2>it's all, it's all relative. I guess it's all relative.

0:29:18.840 --> 0:29:20.880
<v Speaker 2>What else was I going to say to you? Tristan

0:29:22.320 --> 0:29:26.520
<v Speaker 2>Tristan with a T. Is there anything that you want

0:29:26.520 --> 0:29:28.120
<v Speaker 2>to talk about while we're chilling?

0:29:30.040 --> 0:29:33.120
<v Speaker 5>Uh? I don't know, man.

0:29:33.120 --> 0:29:33.600
<v Speaker 3>How's uh?

0:29:33.680 --> 0:29:37.000
<v Speaker 5>How's working out going? How's doing your push ups?

0:29:40.480 --> 0:29:43.640
<v Speaker 2>I've I'm still working out. I'm still doing you know what,

0:29:43.680 --> 0:29:45.600
<v Speaker 2>maybe I'll try to do some push ups after I

0:29:45.680 --> 0:29:47.920
<v Speaker 2>get off the phone with you. I got up to

0:29:48.000 --> 0:29:50.560
<v Speaker 2>twenty five. I was able to do twenty five push

0:29:50.640 --> 0:29:55.600
<v Speaker 2>ups in a row. Where is my award? I thought

0:29:55.640 --> 0:30:00.400
<v Speaker 2>I would get a trophy or a or a agnet

0:30:00.800 --> 0:30:02.920
<v Speaker 2>or something. Still doesn't come.

0:30:03.040 --> 0:30:07.120
<v Speaker 5>It's it's uh, well, there was a point where you

0:30:07.160 --> 0:30:09.600
<v Speaker 5>thought that you couldn't do twenty five push ups?

0:30:09.680 --> 0:30:17.080
<v Speaker 2>And push ups? Yeah, yeah, I'm trying to that's your reward. Yeah. Yeah,

0:30:17.120 --> 0:30:19.160
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to get back to the weight that I

0:30:19.280 --> 0:30:24.560
<v Speaker 2>was before I started being a gecko. It's fun, Yeah,

0:30:24.600 --> 0:30:31.800
<v Speaker 2>it's uh. Every day feels very long to me. So

0:30:32.240 --> 0:30:34.000
<v Speaker 2>if I haven't gone to the gym in a while,

0:30:34.040 --> 0:30:35.640
<v Speaker 2>if it'll feel like I haven't done it in like

0:30:35.680 --> 0:30:40.000
<v Speaker 2>a month. But the gym's great. I was. Yeah, about

0:30:40.040 --> 0:30:42.840
<v Speaker 2>a year ago, I was like lifting weights, and I

0:30:42.880 --> 0:30:46.600
<v Speaker 2>was like, I should never not do this. This is great.

0:30:47.920 --> 0:30:52.160
<v Speaker 5>I wish that I had that that mindset about lifting weights.

0:30:52.320 --> 0:30:54.200
<v Speaker 2>Well, I you know, I mean that mindset only came.

0:30:54.240 --> 0:30:56.880
<v Speaker 2>The mindset came while I was doing it. I don't.

0:30:56.920 --> 0:30:59.400
<v Speaker 2>I didn't have I wasn't like on the couch, like

0:30:59.440 --> 0:31:01.040
<v Speaker 2>I should never or not left. Well, when I'm on

0:31:01.080 --> 0:31:05.560
<v Speaker 2>the couch, I was like, I should never leave this possession.

0:31:06.520 --> 0:31:14.400
<v Speaker 2>You know, I bet you. How'd you meet your Brazilian girlfriend?

0:31:16.000 --> 0:31:16.880
<v Speaker 5>Oh? Tinder?

0:31:17.600 --> 0:31:21.520
<v Speaker 2>Tinder in Tinder in Boston?

0:31:22.880 --> 0:31:25.960
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, yeah, she she moved up here a little

0:31:26.000 --> 0:31:31.320
<v Speaker 5>bit before we met, just by herself, which is crazy

0:31:31.360 --> 0:31:31.640
<v Speaker 5>to do.

0:31:33.240 --> 0:31:36.480
<v Speaker 2>That's cool, but what she did do people? Still, I

0:31:36.520 --> 0:31:40.920
<v Speaker 2>feel like Tinder was popular when I was like in college.

0:31:40.920 --> 0:31:43.280
<v Speaker 2>I feel like now everyone like the growing up version

0:31:43.440 --> 0:31:45.880
<v Speaker 2>is like hinge or something like that.

0:31:47.400 --> 0:31:51.000
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean, I don't know. I wasn't. I don't

0:31:51.000 --> 0:31:53.800
<v Speaker 5>think I was necessarily trying to get into relationship being

0:31:53.800 --> 0:31:59.000
<v Speaker 5>on Tinder though, but it ended up happening that way.

0:32:00.560 --> 0:32:00.960
<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

0:32:01.640 --> 0:32:06.800
<v Speaker 5>But yeah, I mean, sorry, go ahead.

0:32:06.640 --> 0:32:09.040
<v Speaker 2>No, I was just mumbling I have nothing to say.

0:32:11.640 --> 0:32:12.920
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I guess.

0:32:13.160 --> 0:32:14.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, there is.

0:32:16.120 --> 0:32:18.400
<v Speaker 5>The more like college age thing to do. I guess.

0:32:18.480 --> 0:32:21.040
<v Speaker 5>I mean, I'm I'm twenty two, so I'm not I'm

0:32:21.080 --> 0:32:22.560
<v Speaker 5>not out of that phase technically.

0:32:23.480 --> 0:32:27.920
<v Speaker 2>Oh sheet m, that's cool. What are you going to

0:32:27.960 --> 0:32:29.240
<v Speaker 2>do with the rest of your life?

0:32:33.600 --> 0:32:39.680
<v Speaker 5>I don't know. Try to make enough money to have

0:32:39.760 --> 0:32:44.920
<v Speaker 5>a house? Maybe pretty good. I don't know if I'll

0:32:44.920 --> 0:32:46.720
<v Speaker 5>be able to do it, but we'll try.

0:32:47.880 --> 0:32:49.640
<v Speaker 2>What do you What are you planning to do to

0:32:49.640 --> 0:32:50.440
<v Speaker 2>make money.

0:32:53.600 --> 0:32:56.240
<v Speaker 5>Of my job? To be an electrician?

0:32:56.280 --> 0:32:58.880
<v Speaker 2>I guess? Oh, yes, sorry, I forgot. You said you

0:32:58.880 --> 0:33:00.640
<v Speaker 2>were an electrician. That's a very real job.

0:33:02.560 --> 0:33:05.840
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's real. I hope that I can make more

0:33:06.640 --> 0:33:07.520
<v Speaker 5>more money.

0:33:07.200 --> 0:33:11.640
<v Speaker 2>Doing it, would you? But did you go to trade school?

0:33:12.840 --> 0:33:13.040
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:33:13.080 --> 0:33:15.680
<v Speaker 5>I did, like night school, Like I started out of

0:33:15.760 --> 0:33:19.880
<v Speaker 5>high school when I was eighteen, and did like work

0:33:20.080 --> 0:33:22.360
<v Speaker 5>during the week and then night school like twice a

0:33:22.400 --> 0:33:25.840
<v Speaker 5>week for four years.

0:33:26.160 --> 0:33:27.440
<v Speaker 2>I have a lot of respect for you.

0:33:29.200 --> 0:33:31.120
<v Speaker 5>Oh, thank you?

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:36.120
<v Speaker 2>I really do you have? You went to you learned

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:39.960
<v Speaker 2>a skill? You have a you have a You are

0:33:40.080 --> 0:33:46.960
<v Speaker 2>deeply sincerely contributing to society with a skill that you

0:33:47.120 --> 0:33:49.400
<v Speaker 2>put in the time and effort to learn.

0:33:52.200 --> 0:33:57.120
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, that that is what happened. That's pretty crazy to

0:33:57.280 --> 0:33:57.640
<v Speaker 5>hear it.

0:33:57.800 --> 0:34:01.120
<v Speaker 2>But like that, Yeah, I mean that's how you should

0:34:01.160 --> 0:34:05.160
<v Speaker 2>think of it. You learned to. I mean, you know,

0:34:05.360 --> 0:34:08.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, you don't work, you don't like, uh, you

0:34:08.040 --> 0:34:12.600
<v Speaker 2>don't like write copy for the Axe Body Spray Instagram.

0:34:12.760 --> 0:34:14.359
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean? You like, know how to

0:34:15.320 --> 0:34:16.000
<v Speaker 2>do something?

0:34:17.480 --> 0:34:23.400
<v Speaker 5>Yeah? Yeah, I mean I wire a bunch of different stuff,

0:34:23.840 --> 0:34:25.000
<v Speaker 5>get people's lights working.

0:34:25.640 --> 0:34:30.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they need that ship. Yeah, man, you know, when

0:34:30.560 --> 0:34:34.080
<v Speaker 2>the apocalypse happens, whoever runs the ex body Spray Instagram

0:34:34.160 --> 0:34:38.239
<v Speaker 2>is fucked. They're not getting on the rocket to the

0:34:38.280 --> 0:34:42.920
<v Speaker 2>moon when everything goes astray. You I don't know if

0:34:42.920 --> 0:34:44.440
<v Speaker 2>any of us are. I don't know if really any

0:34:44.480 --> 0:34:46.000
<v Speaker 2>of us are getting on the rocket. We're going to

0:34:46.040 --> 0:34:47.960
<v Speaker 2>get us I don't. I don't think we're getting on

0:34:48.000 --> 0:34:49.279
<v Speaker 2>the rock. But I think you have a You have

0:34:49.320 --> 0:34:53.160
<v Speaker 2>a you have a you have a decent shot at

0:34:53.160 --> 0:34:55.520
<v Speaker 2>getting on I don't know how many rockets they'll be,

0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:56.719
<v Speaker 2>but you have at least you have at least a

0:34:56.760 --> 0:34:59.880
<v Speaker 2>better shot at getting on the rocket than the Yeah,

0:35:00.239 --> 0:35:04.920
<v Speaker 2>like someone who you know or like me or you

0:35:04.960 --> 0:35:12.520
<v Speaker 2>know some someone who uh yeah it does does the

0:35:12.640 --> 0:35:15.920
<v Speaker 2>X bodies The X body spray thing. Yeah. Yeah, so

0:35:16.000 --> 0:35:19.600
<v Speaker 2>that's good. You're you're yeah, I mean real, You're real,

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:22.399
<v Speaker 2>You're very you should be proud of who you are.

0:35:22.800 --> 0:35:30.040
<v Speaker 5>I mean that, thanks man, I appreciate that. My uh

0:35:31.960 --> 0:35:36.080
<v Speaker 5>it did It definitely sucks sometimes doing this this stuff.

0:35:38.960 --> 0:35:44.400
<v Speaker 5>The A lot of the guys in this are like

0:35:44.800 --> 0:35:47.200
<v Speaker 5>the worst people you'll ever meet in your entire life,

0:35:47.440 --> 0:35:54.120
<v Speaker 5>like so miserable and like just like trying to die faster,

0:35:54.480 --> 0:35:58.359
<v Speaker 5>like drinking as much as possible and smoking like ten

0:35:58.440 --> 0:35:59.399
<v Speaker 5>cigarettes at a time.

0:36:00.320 --> 0:36:06.600
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, you know, I I guess yeah, I

0:36:06.640 --> 0:36:10.040
<v Speaker 2>can see how that happens. I can absolutely see how

0:36:10.080 --> 0:36:13.759
<v Speaker 2>that happens. I hope that you. I meant everything I

0:36:13.800 --> 0:36:17.080
<v Speaker 2>said about how you should be proud of what you do.

0:36:17.160 --> 0:36:21.960
<v Speaker 2>It's a hard thing, but I hope you have a

0:36:22.000 --> 0:36:30.600
<v Speaker 2>plan for how you don't end up being that wanting

0:36:30.640 --> 0:36:35.839
<v Speaker 2>to die, like what like some form of I guess, uh,

0:36:36.120 --> 0:36:39.200
<v Speaker 2>diversification of life stock. I don't know how you do it?

0:36:39.280 --> 0:36:41.920
<v Speaker 2>How do you? I mean? That's what I'm on right now,

0:36:42.000 --> 0:36:45.120
<v Speaker 2>is I'm like, okay, like you, like I assume you

0:36:45.200 --> 0:36:46.799
<v Speaker 2>work with a lot of people who are, like, you know,

0:36:46.840 --> 0:36:53.239
<v Speaker 2>older and want to die. Sooner, you know. Yeah, okay,

0:36:53.320 --> 0:36:54.640
<v Speaker 2>so but not so much anymore.

0:36:56.200 --> 0:36:58.960
<v Speaker 5>No, I'm with I just worked for one guy, so

0:36:59.480 --> 0:37:01.920
<v Speaker 5>me and him, and I'm kind of like I'm at

0:37:01.960 --> 0:37:02.600
<v Speaker 5>work right now.

0:37:02.600 --> 0:37:02.880
<v Speaker 6>I'm not.

0:37:03.120 --> 0:37:07.960
<v Speaker 5>I'm on my lunch break, but I'm mostly by myself lately,

0:37:09.520 --> 0:37:14.359
<v Speaker 5>so I'm kind of just like doing my own thing

0:37:14.360 --> 0:37:15.840
<v Speaker 5>so I don't have to deal with those people anymore.

0:37:15.880 --> 0:37:17.920
<v Speaker 5>But the first like two years of being in this,

0:37:18.120 --> 0:37:20.680
<v Speaker 5>all I saw was like guys who were like, oh,

0:37:20.680 --> 0:37:23.239
<v Speaker 5>I don't do this shit until you're forty years old.

0:37:23.280 --> 0:37:25.839
<v Speaker 5>You're gonna fucking want to die, you know, that type

0:37:25.880 --> 0:37:30.600
<v Speaker 5>of attitude like all the time. It's like, yeah, oh

0:37:30.680 --> 0:37:35.000
<v Speaker 5>my god. So I think I mean, the plan at

0:37:35.080 --> 0:37:39.359
<v Speaker 5>least with you know, either the company I'm at or

0:37:39.840 --> 0:37:43.440
<v Speaker 5>some other company is like try to get into like

0:37:43.480 --> 0:37:47.120
<v Speaker 5>more like project management. So I'm not in the field

0:37:47.360 --> 0:37:49.240
<v Speaker 5>and like destroying my body.

0:37:49.719 --> 0:37:53.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah, that's good. Yeah. No, I mean it's funny.

0:37:53.600 --> 0:37:57.600
<v Speaker 2>I understand why you'd why it was miserable to be

0:37:57.680 --> 0:37:59.520
<v Speaker 2>around those people, but I it don't. It sounds like

0:37:59.560 --> 0:38:04.080
<v Speaker 2>it was like good to have to be around those people.

0:38:04.120 --> 0:38:09.120
<v Speaker 5>Actually, yeah, I mean it's definitely. It was definitely like

0:38:09.160 --> 0:38:12.440
<v Speaker 5>a learning like what not to do right.

0:38:12.920 --> 0:38:15.160
<v Speaker 2>Like no, if like a dude, if like an old

0:38:15.239 --> 0:38:19.319
<v Speaker 2>guy says like, don't fucking do this, I think it's

0:38:19.480 --> 0:38:23.200
<v Speaker 2>probably makes sense to listen to them.

0:38:23.400 --> 0:38:28.080
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, probably like an old miserable guy.

0:38:28.800 --> 0:38:32.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm like I want to do Yeah. I mean

0:38:32.560 --> 0:38:36.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm twenty seven, you're twenty two.

0:38:38.040 --> 0:38:38.480
<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

0:38:38.800 --> 0:38:44.880
<v Speaker 2>I'm always thinking about like, uh, I feel I feel

0:38:44.880 --> 0:38:46.960
<v Speaker 2>older for the I know twenty seven is young. I

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<v Speaker 2>feel I feel like older for the first time in

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<v Speaker 2>a in a minute, and I'm like, Okay, I've I

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<v Speaker 2>never thought. I didn't think I would be twenty seven.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought I would be. I thought I would just

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<v Speaker 2>I thought I would just explode, not that I would

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<v Speaker 2>like not like oh I'm not gonna make it or

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<v Speaker 2>all I'm gonna like what. I just thought like I didn't.

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<v Speaker 2>I kind of picked a certain time period where I

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<v Speaker 2>just didn't believe the time existed beyond that. And then

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<v Speaker 2>now the time has existed beyond that, and I'm like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I now have confirmation that that will continue to happen.

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<v Speaker 2>What can I do to uh best respond to the

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<v Speaker 2>inevitable notion that time will continue. We're in good spots

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<v Speaker 2>to do it, I think, Yeah, it's a good I

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<v Speaker 2>think I have to be aware of that the time

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<v Speaker 2>will actually continue. And how do you brace yourself for

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<v Speaker 2>the continuation of time. I'm probably giving a ton of

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<v Speaker 2>people a heart attack by talking about all this, but

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<v Speaker 2>what's been on?

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<v Speaker 5>Maybe? Yeah? Time, time is fucking always going and it's

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<v Speaker 5>crazy because I mean I I remember being in high

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<v Speaker 5>school like it was fucking yesterday, and now I'm an

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<v Speaker 5>adult and I live in an apartment that I pay

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<v Speaker 5>rent for, which is weird.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you know how to can you can you fix

0:40:26.600 --> 0:40:28.040
<v Speaker 2>an Xbox if it's broken?

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 5>I only know yeah, yeah, maybe. I mean I'm not like,

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<v Speaker 5>uh like a like a tech like building computers, electrician.

0:40:43.520 --> 0:40:47.160
<v Speaker 5>I'm like, uh, you know, give you an outlet in

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<v Speaker 5>the wall or like put up a light or something

0:40:51.160 --> 0:40:52.520
<v Speaker 5>type of electrician.

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<v Speaker 2>Tristan is before we go. Is there any thing else

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<v Speaker 2>that I can you to make this conversation or to

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<v Speaker 2>make this phone call a better experience for you?

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<v Speaker 5>No, this is this has been pretty great lyle your

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<v Speaker 5>your best dude.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, thank you Christ, Thank you Christ. I'm trying. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>trying my absolute hardest. Thank you for for being Thank

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<v Speaker 2>you for being alive. Thank you for your compliments, thank

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<v Speaker 2>you for your for electricity.

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<v Speaker 5>You're You're welcome.

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<v Speaker 3>All right, I'll.

0:41:34.080 --> 0:41:37.399
<v Speaker 2>See you around the universe. Tristan, good luck, all right,

0:41:37.440 --> 0:41:43.120
<v Speaker 2>Thanks Lyle. Okay, bye man, bye bye. Hi. What's up?

0:41:43.160 --> 0:41:43.839
<v Speaker 1>Her name?

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<v Speaker 2>Hello?

0:41:44.520 --> 0:41:44.719
<v Speaker 1>Hi?

0:41:45.880 --> 0:41:47.000
<v Speaker 2>Hey, my name is?

0:41:47.560 --> 0:41:50.000
<v Speaker 1>My name is going to be sucks today.

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<v Speaker 5>Fox suck.

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<v Speaker 2>Fu fuck.

0:41:56.760 --> 0:42:02.480
<v Speaker 1>No s O see okay fuck fuck?

0:42:02.719 --> 0:42:04.640
<v Speaker 2>Okay, Well what's up? Fuck? How you doing?

0:42:06.440 --> 0:42:12.920
<v Speaker 1>Okay, you didn't hear me anyway, I'm I'm surprised, I

0:42:12.920 --> 0:42:13.359
<v Speaker 1>don't know.

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<v Speaker 6>Hi.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm feeling I'm feeling really anxious because I really

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<v Speaker 1>actually wasn't expecting to get through.

0:42:25.800 --> 0:42:30.600
<v Speaker 2>This is uh well, I don't really know what name

0:42:30.640 --> 0:42:32.000
<v Speaker 2>you were trying to give me, So I'm gonna call

0:42:32.040 --> 0:42:40.600
<v Speaker 2>you Fox. This this is easily gonna be one of

0:42:40.640 --> 0:42:46.400
<v Speaker 2>the lowest steaks things that you will do with your life.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's no reason to be anxious. We'll just chit chat,

0:42:50.920 --> 0:42:55.200
<v Speaker 2>we'll just talk. You know, there's no yeah, there's nothing,

0:42:55.239 --> 0:42:58.719
<v Speaker 2>there's nothing to be uh to be worried about. There's

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<v Speaker 2>no way to uh fail.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I know, I know. It's just you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>very many opportunities to do something.

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<v Speaker 2>Like this, so, well, what's up Fox? What's going on

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<v Speaker 2>with you?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gon take a drink really quick?

0:43:16.440 --> 0:43:17.000
<v Speaker 2>Take a drink?

0:43:17.920 --> 0:43:18.040
<v Speaker 1>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you mean like you're are you taking a shot

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<v Speaker 2>or like you're having some water?

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<v Speaker 1>Some water?

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<v Speaker 2>Cool?

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<v Speaker 1>Just water? Yeah, because my mouth is filling dry. Okay. Well,

0:43:31.080 --> 0:43:37.960
<v Speaker 1>so I'm old, like I'm I'm in my forties okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and I just found out last year that I'm also sick.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, which.

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<v Speaker 1>Makes sense, It makes a lot of sense. But I

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<v Speaker 1>get the things that I'm interested in, like stuff like

0:43:56.360 --> 0:44:00.919
<v Speaker 1>watching twitch and you know, trying just stay away from

0:44:00.920 --> 0:44:04.840
<v Speaker 1>Instagram as much as possible for mental health reasons, but

0:44:04.840 --> 0:44:07.040
<v Speaker 1>that also kind of keeping up with what's going on,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. And I like music that young people like,

0:44:13.440 --> 0:44:17.880
<v Speaker 1>and I am single, I don't have kids, and I

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<v Speaker 1>don't have any desire to have kids, and so I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, I just feel weird, like I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>how to relate to people my age. And then if

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<v Speaker 1>I am like relating to someone younger, once they find

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<v Speaker 1>out how old I am, they're kind of like kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like you could be my mom or you know,

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<v Speaker 1>something like that.

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<v Speaker 2>So interesting. I have a lot of thoughts about this.

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<v Speaker 2>First of all I actually want to say, is this

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<v Speaker 2>something you've ever talked to an actual therapist about?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>What what do what do people say? What do people say?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, the problem is that all of these things I

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<v Speaker 1>told you about seeming younger and having interests like that,

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<v Speaker 1>that is a big sign of autism and women who

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<v Speaker 1>got missed as kids, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>And so.

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<v Speaker 1>The problem is that there's not a lot of knowledge

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<v Speaker 1>even in man therapists about it about adults because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>no one ever really paid attention to adults that didn't

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<v Speaker 1>fit these spilled out versions of what autisms should look like.

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<v Speaker 1>So this is you probably have heard this is happening

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<v Speaker 1>a lot to people, older people getting diagnosed, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>they just don't know, and it actually ended up being harmful.

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<v Speaker 1>I this is actually the first time that I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>in therapy for many many years, what years and years

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<v Speaker 1>and years, and I feel better than I ever have

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<v Speaker 1>so and yeah, and it's because because like normal types

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<v Speaker 1>of therapy can be harmful for people with autism, because

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<v Speaker 1>it's basically like even cognitive behavioral therapy, a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>times we like I'm trying to explain it, but like

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<v Speaker 1>our brain works a certain way, and and those type

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<v Speaker 1>of therapies. If we're not like completely clicking with it

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<v Speaker 1>and it working for us, we get more of the

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<v Speaker 1>come off as not doing it, you know, or not

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<v Speaker 1>not actually doing the work or whatever. But really inside

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<v Speaker 1>we feel like you're telling me the way my brain

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<v Speaker 1>works is wrong and I don't have control of that.

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<v Speaker 1>Does that make sense?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, a little bit, A little bit. Well, I so,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, listen, here's the thing I actually uh, I mean, funk, man,

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<v Speaker 2>I have I have if you want to dive into it,

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<v Speaker 2>I have like thoughts. I don't know if they're I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if they're hard. There might be harmful. I

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<v Speaker 2>was talking to my therapy. I was talking to my therapist.

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<v Speaker 2>He was like, he was like, there might be harmful,

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<v Speaker 2>just in the sense that like, I don't know what

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing. I just this is just my thoughts as

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<v Speaker 2>a as a individual. If you want my uh.

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<v Speaker 1>That's not what I meant at all. That's not what

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<v Speaker 1>I meant at all. I absolutely want you for sure

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<v Speaker 1>for sure?

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<v Speaker 2>Right No, no, no, no, by the way, I just want sorry, sorry, sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm gathering that not based off anything you said,

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<v Speaker 2>just based off of the fact that you know, I'm

0:47:45.840 --> 0:47:50.400
<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm a lizard guy on a podcast. But well,

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<v Speaker 2>let's talk about this because you said a bunch of

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<v Speaker 2>things that I thought were kind of interesting.

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<v Speaker 5>Is that.

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<v Speaker 2>So you have trouble relating to other people your age

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<v Speaker 2>because of your interests and because you feel like your

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<v Speaker 2>lifestyle is not exactly similar to what is traditionally expected

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<v Speaker 2>of other people around your.

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<v Speaker 1>Age, right, yeah, not at all, like not even close.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, I guess let me ask you that when

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<v Speaker 2>you're when you are like meeting people, right, Like, how

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<v Speaker 2>through what means typically are you meeting people?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, in the last five or six years, I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>not meeting people.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you desire to meet people?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes? Absolutely?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, great, yeah, so why haven't you been trying to

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<v Speaker 2>do it over the past six years.

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<v Speaker 1>I get in my head that Okay, yeah, I'm excited,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to go do this, and then when the

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<v Speaker 1>time comes, I just kind of freeze up and I

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<v Speaker 1>don't do it. I don't go, and so I ended

0:49:02.239 --> 0:49:05.440
<v Speaker 1>up just staying home a lot. And then then you

0:49:05.480 --> 0:49:07.600
<v Speaker 1>just get in the habit of that where you're used to,

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm used to not leaving the house sometimes for

0:49:10.520 --> 0:49:15.200
<v Speaker 1>two weeks because I'll get my groceries delivered Instacart, and

0:49:15.239 --> 0:49:20.120
<v Speaker 1>then I just stick to myself. But the times that

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<v Speaker 1>I have tried to build closer relationships with people, it

0:49:25.800 --> 0:49:29.000
<v Speaker 1>ended up just being a lot more superficial of a

0:49:29.040 --> 0:49:33.480
<v Speaker 1>friendship than what I thought I had. And so like,

0:49:34.000 --> 0:49:36.960
<v Speaker 1>you know, expecting someone to be there for me because

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<v Speaker 1>they say, you know, you're family to me if you

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<v Speaker 1>ever need anything, But then I needed something and they

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<v Speaker 1>weren't there for me. Kind of.

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<v Speaker 2>Like yeah, but no, I will say.

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<v Speaker 1>But when that happened, I just was like it was

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<v Speaker 1>almost like a breakup. Like I sent them a text

0:49:57.200 --> 0:49:59.600
<v Speaker 1>and I said, I'm sorry, I can't be friends with

0:49:59.640 --> 0:50:02.960
<v Speaker 1>you any more, and I explained why, and I never

0:50:03.000 --> 0:50:07.160
<v Speaker 1>heard back from them. I they're my neighbor, so I

0:50:07.200 --> 0:50:09.920
<v Speaker 1>see them occasionally, but that we.

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<v Speaker 3>Just act like.

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<v Speaker 1>We act like we don't see what's going on around us.

0:50:15.560 --> 0:50:18.080
<v Speaker 1>And we were friends for over a year and talked

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<v Speaker 1>every day.

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<v Speaker 2>So so like when you're when you're getting amped up

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<v Speaker 2>to go out leave your house and do some ship,

0:50:27.920 --> 0:50:31.040
<v Speaker 2>what what do you when was the last time you

0:50:31.080 --> 0:50:32.799
<v Speaker 2>were amped up to leave your house and go do

0:50:32.880 --> 0:50:34.640
<v Speaker 2>some ship? And then and like what was it?

0:50:35.920 --> 0:50:37.359
<v Speaker 1>Well, what do you just fine us?

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<v Speaker 3>Amped up?

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<v Speaker 2>Is that not what you?

0:50:39.640 --> 0:50:39.719
<v Speaker 6>Is?

0:50:39.719 --> 0:50:40.120
<v Speaker 2>That not what you?

0:50:40.320 --> 0:50:40.360
<v Speaker 4>Is?

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<v Speaker 2>That not what you said where you were like all right,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm excited to do something and then when the time

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<v Speaker 2>comes at iste I me met for.

0:50:46.680 --> 0:50:51.960
<v Speaker 1>Like looking at like groups first common interests and yeah, okay.

0:50:51.800 --> 0:50:54.319
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, yeah. So let's so like when you got

0:50:54.320 --> 0:50:55.920
<v Speaker 2>amped up to look at it to go to a thing,

0:50:56.000 --> 0:50:56.880
<v Speaker 2>what was the thing.

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<v Speaker 1>It was? Especially it was a knitting group. Cool, which

0:51:09.160 --> 0:51:11.480
<v Speaker 1>it does sound like something people my age do, but

0:51:11.520 --> 0:51:14.279
<v Speaker 1>it's also a very young thing too, like everyone does it,

0:51:14.400 --> 0:51:15.759
<v Speaker 1>not everyone, but you know what I mean.

0:51:16.160 --> 0:51:23.080
<v Speaker 2>Ages, So again, I'll I'm just gonna pull from my

0:51:23.320 --> 0:51:28.759
<v Speaker 2>lived experience with this stuff. And this is something I've

0:51:28.800 --> 0:51:35.839
<v Speaker 2>been kind of on recently. Is that a lot of

0:51:35.880 --> 0:51:38.160
<v Speaker 2>the time I'm trying to come to a realization and

0:51:38.719 --> 0:51:42.439
<v Speaker 2>this is like like an epiphany that I gotta kind

0:51:42.440 --> 0:51:45.040
<v Speaker 2>of reach over and over and over again. And in

0:51:45.080 --> 0:51:50.160
<v Speaker 2>my life, which is that like the the the action

0:51:50.520 --> 0:51:56.359
<v Speaker 2>kind of precedes the motivation, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah,

0:51:56.400 --> 0:52:01.239
<v Speaker 2>Like I've been trying to go out and do like

0:52:01.360 --> 0:52:03.000
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to go out and do fucking like open

0:52:03.040 --> 0:52:05.480
<v Speaker 2>mics and do shit or whatever, and I'll be like

0:52:05.560 --> 0:52:08.239
<v Speaker 2>about to go do something or like about to try

0:52:08.239 --> 0:52:10.200
<v Speaker 2>to write something or whatever like, and I'll just get

0:52:10.239 --> 0:52:13.120
<v Speaker 2>like super in my head and crazy about it. And

0:52:13.160 --> 0:52:18.640
<v Speaker 2>then yeah, just kind of force is the wrong word

0:52:18.719 --> 0:52:21.200
<v Speaker 2>because it's actually not a force. It's just like a flow.

0:52:21.560 --> 0:52:24.480
<v Speaker 2>Then I just go and do it. I get up

0:52:24.520 --> 0:52:28.520
<v Speaker 2>there and I do the thing, and then after doing it,

0:52:29.440 --> 0:52:33.520
<v Speaker 2>you realize the good The good feeling comes after you

0:52:33.600 --> 0:52:36.359
<v Speaker 2>do it. So there's a little bit of a I

0:52:36.360 --> 0:52:40.080
<v Speaker 2>think a thing where you have to push to just

0:52:40.120 --> 0:52:44.360
<v Speaker 2>fucking like do it first, and then once you're there,

0:52:45.080 --> 0:52:49.600
<v Speaker 2>and you'll actually feel more motivated and you'll feel excited

0:52:49.600 --> 0:52:52.879
<v Speaker 2>once you're fucking there, but you're not gonna but it's like, yeah,

0:52:52.880 --> 0:52:54.759
<v Speaker 2>of course, if you've been in your house for two

0:52:54.800 --> 0:52:57.200
<v Speaker 2>weeks and then you try to go to a thing,

0:52:57.239 --> 0:53:01.960
<v Speaker 2>there's gonna be like resistance. And weirdly, I think if

0:53:02.000 --> 0:53:05.239
<v Speaker 2>you like accept the resistance and just move and push

0:53:05.400 --> 0:53:10.879
<v Speaker 2>past the resistance and you just go, you'll be like, oh,

0:53:10.920 --> 0:53:13.359
<v Speaker 2>this was sick, you know, but you got to get

0:53:13.360 --> 0:53:15.600
<v Speaker 2>past that little bit of It's worth getting past that

0:53:15.640 --> 0:53:21.200
<v Speaker 2>little bit of resistance. I suppose that's just from my

0:53:21.280 --> 0:53:25.959
<v Speaker 2>own personal experiences. Every time I've pushed past a little

0:53:25.960 --> 0:53:29.560
<v Speaker 2>bit of resistant, like I've I've I've taken my little

0:53:29.600 --> 0:53:35.400
<v Speaker 2>gecko out like irl filming equipment somewhere and setting and

0:53:35.680 --> 0:53:37.640
<v Speaker 2>setting it up and been like, what the this is

0:53:37.680 --> 0:53:41.600
<v Speaker 2>not gonna go well? And then I set it up

0:53:41.680 --> 0:53:43.960
<v Speaker 2>and then it goes well, and then I'm like, Okay,

0:53:44.000 --> 0:53:47.279
<v Speaker 2>I just needed to. I'm glad I pushed past the resistance.

0:53:49.760 --> 0:53:51.520
<v Speaker 2>So I mean, I guess that's just how it's kind

0:53:51.520 --> 0:53:53.480
<v Speaker 2>of been working for me lately.

0:53:54.200 --> 0:53:58.360
<v Speaker 1>I think, Yeah, no, I totally understand that that's behavioral activation.

0:53:58.600 --> 0:54:02.400
<v Speaker 2>That's I know. I didn't know there was a goddamn

0:54:02.480 --> 0:54:07.800
<v Speaker 2>word for it. I thought I was just didn't act.

0:54:09.719 --> 0:54:13.120
<v Speaker 1>Say. Behavior activation is actually a very helpful at least

0:54:13.160 --> 0:54:13.360
<v Speaker 1>for me.

0:54:13.840 --> 0:54:15.560
<v Speaker 2>It's very helpful behavior.

0:54:15.880 --> 0:54:17.200
<v Speaker 3>It's a matter of doing it.

0:54:17.480 --> 0:54:19.000
<v Speaker 1>It's a matter of just doing it.

0:54:19.719 --> 0:54:22.560
<v Speaker 2>Is So, you know, what sends me into a goddamn

0:54:22.640 --> 0:54:25.080
<v Speaker 2>existential crisis is the fact that everything that I think

0:54:25.160 --> 0:54:29.319
<v Speaker 2>I'm like discovering about myself is like, there's there's ever

0:54:29.440 --> 0:54:32.520
<v Speaker 2>every every thought I've ever had, there's a fucking textbook

0:54:33.200 --> 0:54:36.080
<v Speaker 2>to describe. There's some textbook. That is a fucking thing

0:54:36.200 --> 0:54:38.920
<v Speaker 2>to describe it anyway.

0:54:40.080 --> 0:54:44.600
<v Speaker 1>I think that's called getting older and learning more about

0:54:45.760 --> 0:54:48.520
<v Speaker 1>things you didn't know about previously. Yeah, yeah, go to the.

0:54:48.680 --> 0:54:50.640
<v Speaker 2>Go to the goddamn knitting group.

0:54:52.200 --> 0:54:56.319
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'm definitely gonna make that happen. But I guess

0:54:56.400 --> 0:55:00.479
<v Speaker 1>the part that I that's bothered me is the fact

0:55:00.560 --> 0:55:05.919
<v Speaker 1>of who I relate to and you know, the things

0:55:05.960 --> 0:55:09.800
<v Speaker 1>that I'm interested in. Aside from that, I mean, I'm

0:55:09.880 --> 0:55:12.440
<v Speaker 1>not going to make that my entire life, but I

0:55:12.560 --> 0:55:19.239
<v Speaker 1>do want support in my life, you know. Yeah, like

0:55:19.360 --> 0:55:22.319
<v Speaker 1>I want to make friends, I want to that kind

0:55:22.320 --> 0:55:24.800
<v Speaker 1>of thing. And so I guess I just I just

0:55:24.840 --> 0:55:30.440
<v Speaker 1>don't know how Like in my head, I'm in my thirties,

0:55:30.560 --> 0:55:34.239
<v Speaker 1>my really thirties, and then when people find out how

0:55:34.360 --> 0:55:36.600
<v Speaker 1>old I am, it's kind of like I guess an

0:55:36.640 --> 0:55:37.360
<v Speaker 1>it I don't know.

0:55:38.120 --> 0:55:40.680
<v Speaker 2>Then then just I don't know, man. I think, just

0:55:40.800 --> 0:55:44.439
<v Speaker 2>keep being, keep being whatever age you are in your head,

0:55:45.400 --> 0:55:49.839
<v Speaker 2>you know, Yeah, what's the what's the point of succumbing

0:55:50.000 --> 0:55:57.400
<v Speaker 2>to other people's kind of idea of what your life is?

0:55:57.600 --> 0:55:57.640
<v Speaker 1>Like?

0:55:57.920 --> 0:55:59.800
<v Speaker 2>I mean also, also I think there's a thing to

0:55:59.840 --> 0:56:03.120
<v Speaker 2>be set again of like you know, if you want

0:56:03.160 --> 0:56:05.400
<v Speaker 2>to make friends and have a community and do all

0:56:05.480 --> 0:56:08.200
<v Speaker 2>this shit, you gotta go. You gotta go first. That's

0:56:08.200 --> 0:56:09.879
<v Speaker 2>what I again, that's what I'm learning in my own life,

0:56:09.960 --> 0:56:12.040
<v Speaker 2>is you gotta go first. Yeah, you gotta be the

0:56:12.120 --> 0:56:14.400
<v Speaker 2>one to You show up at the knitting group, you

0:56:14.480 --> 0:56:16.319
<v Speaker 2>meet a bunch of friends, and then you go, hey,

0:56:16.440 --> 0:56:20.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm actually gonna do another knitting group on fucking Tuesdays,

0:56:20.480 --> 0:56:21.839
<v Speaker 2>and we're gonna do it at my house, and at

0:56:21.920 --> 0:56:24.120
<v Speaker 2>least five other people at the fucking knitting group. We're

0:56:24.120 --> 0:56:25.279
<v Speaker 2>gonna be like, all right, And then all of a

0:56:25.280 --> 0:56:27.799
<v Speaker 2>sudden you got all these knitting friends, and then all

0:56:27.800 --> 0:56:30.000
<v Speaker 2>of a sudden you're like, oh, I feel completely different

0:56:30.040 --> 0:56:33.640
<v Speaker 2>than I did, uh, six weeks ago, because I fucking

0:56:33.920 --> 0:56:37.160
<v Speaker 2>took a shot and didn't wait around for you know,

0:56:37.400 --> 0:56:39.800
<v Speaker 2>life to come find me and I did something small

0:56:40.560 --> 0:56:44.040
<v Speaker 2>and it fucking you know, change changed changed. But I mean,

0:56:44.080 --> 0:56:47.319
<v Speaker 2>that's that's I think. The big trap that you can

0:56:47.400 --> 0:56:53.600
<v Speaker 2>get into is kind of waiting for these things to

0:56:53.800 --> 0:56:56.120
<v Speaker 2>find you without real life. And I'm by the way,

0:56:56.160 --> 0:57:00.440
<v Speaker 2>I just really, uh, none of this is a This

0:57:00.600 --> 0:57:04.520
<v Speaker 2>is all again just me reiterating my own learned experience

0:57:04.600 --> 0:57:13.080
<v Speaker 2>to myself, you know, just yeah, fucking you gotta go first.

0:57:13.600 --> 0:57:14.399
<v Speaker 2>You gotta go first.

0:57:14.480 --> 0:57:17.360
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean it's pretty much common sense. I mean

0:57:17.440 --> 0:57:20.400
<v Speaker 1>it's like it's like diet and exercise, where you know

0:57:20.480 --> 0:57:22.720
<v Speaker 1>what you need to do, you know what's going to

0:57:22.800 --> 0:57:25.640
<v Speaker 1>require you just got to make yourself do it. And

0:57:25.760 --> 0:57:27.200
<v Speaker 1>that's sometimes the hardest part.

0:57:30.640 --> 0:57:33.959
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, knitting's cool. I wish I had something. I wish

0:57:34.000 --> 0:57:36.280
<v Speaker 2>I had something funny. I feel like I you know

0:57:36.400 --> 0:57:38.240
<v Speaker 2>what I've been thinking about a lot, is uh. I

0:57:38.320 --> 0:57:44.120
<v Speaker 2>think when this podcast is listed as a comedy philosophy

0:57:44.400 --> 0:57:49.600
<v Speaker 2>podcast and I'm realizing, I'm like, it's been I'm a

0:57:49.640 --> 0:57:53.120
<v Speaker 2>little bit better at it. I think when I'm outside,

0:57:53.640 --> 0:57:56.640
<v Speaker 2>I'm not. I don't feel very funny in a room

0:57:56.720 --> 0:58:00.680
<v Speaker 2>alone by myself. But uh, I'll be like, man, I've

0:58:00.760 --> 0:58:04.280
<v Speaker 2>done it's been about seventy minutes. I haven't said one

0:58:04.400 --> 0:58:08.320
<v Speaker 2>fucking funny thing anyway.

0:58:08.440 --> 0:58:12.080
<v Speaker 1>I mean, when you start talking about real life, you know,

0:58:12.240 --> 0:58:13.120
<v Speaker 1>real life, Yeah.

0:58:13.600 --> 0:58:17.520
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, but I mean maybe maybe so maybe you.

0:58:17.560 --> 0:58:20.840
<v Speaker 1>Need to specify the kind of conversations you're looking to have.

0:58:21.800 --> 0:58:23.800
<v Speaker 2>That's the thing, though, is I Yeah. But that's the

0:58:23.880 --> 0:58:26.000
<v Speaker 2>thing is if every I like having those. But if

0:58:26.080 --> 0:58:29.680
<v Speaker 2>every conversation is like I diarrhea on my friend's balls,

0:58:31.880 --> 0:58:35.440
<v Speaker 2>that would be I think I get bored of that.

0:58:36.160 --> 0:58:39.160
<v Speaker 2>I like, I like talking about real life, but not

0:58:39.280 --> 0:58:42.439
<v Speaker 2>all the time. I don't know, I'm crazy anyway. What's

0:58:42.480 --> 0:58:43.200
<v Speaker 2>your name again? No?

0:58:43.320 --> 0:58:44.760
<v Speaker 4>I get it?

0:58:45.480 --> 0:58:48.120
<v Speaker 2>Fuck Fox? Fuck?

0:58:48.640 --> 0:58:48.840
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:58:49.920 --> 0:58:51.120
<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:58:51.160 --> 0:58:52.600
<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go?

0:58:54.600 --> 0:58:57.240
<v Speaker 1>Just thank you? This was fun.

0:58:59.240 --> 0:59:02.680
<v Speaker 2>Thanks for joining me on the Gecko Show. And I'll

0:59:02.720 --> 0:59:04.720
<v Speaker 2>see you. I'll see you at the knitting group. Maybe

0:59:04.760 --> 0:59:07.080
<v Speaker 2>I'll show up. Actually I probably won't because I don't

0:59:08.200 --> 0:59:09.840
<v Speaker 2>know how to knit, but I hope you go.

0:59:11.160 --> 0:59:12.960
<v Speaker 1>I think it would be kind of difficult with those

0:59:13.440 --> 0:59:14.880
<v Speaker 1>big fingers anyway.

0:59:15.040 --> 0:59:18.960
<v Speaker 2>So yeah, yeah, yeah, we'll have a good fox go

0:59:19.000 --> 0:59:24.120
<v Speaker 2>to the knitting Go to the knitting club. Okay, okay,

0:59:24.200 --> 0:59:29.880
<v Speaker 2>by Fox By it sounds I don't know, there's so much.

0:59:30.320 --> 0:59:33.600
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes I sometimes I'm like, oh, I gotta you know.

0:59:34.360 --> 0:59:39.240
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes I'm like, oh fuck, I'm just gonna it's all over.

0:59:39.520 --> 0:59:44.040
<v Speaker 2>There's no hope. Uh this is depressing. Sometimes I'm like,

0:59:44.080 --> 0:59:47.800
<v Speaker 2>ah fuck, there's no hope. It's all over. We're done,

0:59:47.880 --> 0:59:50.200
<v Speaker 2>we're finished. And then you get it. But those are

0:59:50.280 --> 0:59:52.440
<v Speaker 2>thought this is the thing. Those are thoughts that you

0:59:52.640 --> 1:00:01.280
<v Speaker 2>have when you're alone in your house in your underwear. Right,

1:00:02.360 --> 1:00:04.000
<v Speaker 2>those are the thoughts you have when you're alone in

1:00:04.000 --> 1:00:06.040
<v Speaker 2>your house in underwear, and then you find their strength

1:00:06.160 --> 1:00:10.360
<v Speaker 2>to all Right, I'm gonna go to fucking knitting club.

1:00:11.240 --> 1:00:15.520
<v Speaker 2>You're at knitting club and you're like, oh, this a

1:00:15.600 --> 1:00:19.440
<v Speaker 2>cross stitch. That's interesting. Oh look, this person made a bunny.

1:00:19.520 --> 1:00:21.360
<v Speaker 2>Maybe if I keep going, I can make a bunny.

1:00:22.000 --> 1:00:23.160
<v Speaker 2>And then all of a sudden, you don't want to

1:00:23.240 --> 1:00:28.080
<v Speaker 2>kill yourself. I was talking to my friend on the phone.

1:00:31.080 --> 1:00:33.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm sure I have said this on the podcast already,

1:00:33.960 --> 1:00:35.440
<v Speaker 2>but I don't care. I'm gonna say it again even

1:00:35.480 --> 1:00:37.680
<v Speaker 2>if I have. I'm talking to my friend on the phone.

1:00:39.600 --> 1:00:42.560
<v Speaker 2>I was telling him about my existential crisis and he

1:00:42.800 --> 1:00:47.880
<v Speaker 2>was like, he said the most genius thing to me,

1:00:49.080 --> 1:00:53.200
<v Speaker 2>made a lot of sense. He was like talking about

1:00:53.200 --> 1:00:55.080
<v Speaker 2>his life and he's like, yeah, me and my friends

1:00:56.880 --> 1:01:02.400
<v Speaker 2>we do trivia every Monday. That's fun. Maybe do something

1:01:02.480 --> 1:01:04.680
<v Speaker 2>like that. And he was like and then he said,

1:01:05.080 --> 1:01:08.120
<v Speaker 2>you can't kill yourself if you have trivia on Mondays.

1:01:09.480 --> 1:01:12.880
<v Speaker 2>And I was like, that's genius. How do I how

1:01:12.920 --> 1:01:17.280
<v Speaker 2>do I medal? What is what is like trivia on Mondays?

1:01:17.400 --> 1:01:20.880
<v Speaker 2>As a metaphor, right, like, how do I create trivia

1:01:21.000 --> 1:01:25.720
<v Speaker 2>on Mondays? In my life? That's what I'm about. So yeah,

1:01:25.760 --> 1:01:28.800
<v Speaker 2>go to the knitting club. Can't kill yourself if you

1:01:28.920 --> 1:01:35.520
<v Speaker 2>got If you got knitting club on Mondays? From Lincoln, Hello,

1:01:36.320 --> 1:01:37.920
<v Speaker 2>how's it going? How's life? What's you up to?

1:01:39.040 --> 1:01:39.280
<v Speaker 5>You know?

1:01:39.440 --> 1:01:43.360
<v Speaker 6>I just came back from a real therapy, so that

1:01:43.520 --> 1:01:46.760
<v Speaker 6>that was pretty sick. I've been going through a breakup,

1:01:46.840 --> 1:01:51.760
<v Speaker 6>which sucks. But you know, bro, we're out here, we're killing,

1:01:51.800 --> 1:01:52.440
<v Speaker 6>we're doing all right.

1:01:53.840 --> 1:01:57.280
<v Speaker 2>What's uh what does it mean to be out there?

1:01:57.520 --> 1:01:59.600
<v Speaker 2>Like you're out like you're back dating, or you're out

1:01:59.640 --> 1:02:01.680
<v Speaker 2>here like you're still alive, you're still doing it.

1:02:02.760 --> 1:02:04.800
<v Speaker 6>You know, it's a weird it's a weird point. I'm

1:02:04.800 --> 1:02:09.960
<v Speaker 6>actually about to graduate college, you know. Uh, so it's

1:02:10.040 --> 1:02:12.280
<v Speaker 6>it's weird, you know, going through a breakup, but you

1:02:12.360 --> 1:02:14.320
<v Speaker 6>know you're only going to see the person for another month,

1:02:14.680 --> 1:02:16.200
<v Speaker 6>and you're only going to see like all of your

1:02:16.240 --> 1:02:19.360
<v Speaker 6>other friends for another month, and then you're starting like

1:02:19.400 --> 1:02:23.160
<v Speaker 6>a totally new chapter. It's pretty crazy stuff. So by

1:02:23.240 --> 1:02:25.120
<v Speaker 6>out there, I mean I think I'm out there in

1:02:25.200 --> 1:02:28.840
<v Speaker 6>a really weird limital space in my life, and you

1:02:28.960 --> 1:02:33.919
<v Speaker 6>know it is what it is, real quick, real quick,

1:02:33.960 --> 1:02:34.320
<v Speaker 6>real quick.

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<v Speaker 1>This is crazy.

1:02:35.400 --> 1:02:38.280
<v Speaker 6>Actually, did you remember do you remember do you remember

1:02:38.320 --> 1:02:39.480
<v Speaker 6>Bonner in twenty twenty two?

1:02:39.760 --> 1:02:40.120
<v Speaker 2>Of course?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 6>Do you remember the on the first day of Bonner?

1:02:43.280 --> 1:02:45.120
<v Speaker 6>Do you remember those like two college kids with the

1:02:45.160 --> 1:02:47.680
<v Speaker 6>college radio station who came up and interviewed you.

1:02:48.480 --> 1:02:51.520
<v Speaker 2>Uh did they interview me while I was smoking a cigarette?

1:02:53.040 --> 1:02:55.120
<v Speaker 6>It was in like that press tent area. You were

1:02:55.160 --> 1:02:57.680
<v Speaker 6>in full costume. It was like middle of the day Thursday.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't remember if you were if you were smoking

1:03:00.640 --> 1:03:01.200
<v Speaker 6>a cigarette.

1:03:02.400 --> 1:03:05.360
<v Speaker 3>Anyway, I was one of those. I was one of

1:03:05.440 --> 1:03:06.440
<v Speaker 3>those one of those.

1:03:06.720 --> 1:03:10.120
<v Speaker 6>Uh that like interviewed you and it's crazy like four

1:03:10.200 --> 1:03:12.360
<v Speaker 6>years later, Yeah, no, it was.

1:03:12.600 --> 1:03:12.840
<v Speaker 5>It was.

1:03:12.920 --> 1:03:13.120
<v Speaker 1>It was.

1:03:13.240 --> 1:03:15.040
<v Speaker 6>It was awesome with hell and I gotta be honest

1:03:15.080 --> 1:03:17.760
<v Speaker 6>with you, like I was like debating, like you know,

1:03:18.760 --> 1:03:20.840
<v Speaker 6>like dropping out and like doing some other ship. But

1:03:21.600 --> 1:03:25.080
<v Speaker 6>you know, hey, man, you giving me an interview. You know, Hey,

1:03:25.160 --> 1:03:26.680
<v Speaker 6>that was like, you know, maybe I'm kind of good

1:03:26.720 --> 1:03:27.880
<v Speaker 6>at this, you know, maybe people want to.

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<v Speaker 3>Talk to me.

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<v Speaker 1>And I did.

1:03:29.200 --> 1:03:31.720
<v Speaker 6>I stayed with it. So I was, yeah, I really

1:03:31.800 --> 1:03:32.400
<v Speaker 6>appreciate that.

1:03:32.680 --> 1:03:37.680
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, of course that's that's fucking that's awesome. What

1:03:37.760 --> 1:03:39.720
<v Speaker 2>do you so tell? Yeah, what what's what's going on

1:03:39.800 --> 1:03:39.960
<v Speaker 2>with you?

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<v Speaker 1>Now?

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<v Speaker 2>What what you been up to? Well?

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<v Speaker 6>I stopped doing the radio station because my boss was

1:03:45.240 --> 1:03:48.400
<v Speaker 6>a bit of a tyrant and I didn't get paid.

1:03:48.760 --> 1:03:50.560
<v Speaker 6>And then I got a really cool paid job working

1:03:50.600 --> 1:03:54.000
<v Speaker 6>in video production. So if you need anybody who's on

1:03:54.080 --> 1:03:56.840
<v Speaker 6>their video production team, who's you know, about to graduate,

1:03:57.240 --> 1:03:59.960
<v Speaker 6>still looking for a job, So he plug out there?

1:04:00.680 --> 1:04:01.520
<v Speaker 2>You know, real quick?

1:04:01.920 --> 1:04:03.400
<v Speaker 5>Where did you do on LinkedIn?

1:04:03.680 --> 1:04:05.600
<v Speaker 2>Where'd you go to school? And what'd you Wou'd you study?

1:04:07.080 --> 1:04:09.680
<v Speaker 6>I go to the University of Tennessee, so go volves,

1:04:10.000 --> 1:04:16.280
<v Speaker 6>you know, big school. But yeah, I studied journalism. So

1:04:16.440 --> 1:04:20.440
<v Speaker 6>started out doing radio stuff and now I'm a Now

1:04:20.440 --> 1:04:22.880
<v Speaker 6>I'm doing video. It's crazy, it's fun.

1:04:23.360 --> 1:04:25.800
<v Speaker 2>And then what are you what are you hoping to

1:04:25.840 --> 1:04:26.680
<v Speaker 2>do after you graduate?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm hoping to have a stable job, you know, wife

1:04:31.120 --> 1:04:35.600
<v Speaker 6>and kids, a suburban American dream nothing like I know, nothing,

1:04:35.680 --> 1:04:39.400
<v Speaker 6>nothing too like vanilla. But honestly, like before all like

1:04:39.480 --> 1:04:41.280
<v Speaker 6>the dream job crap. I look, you just want to

1:04:41.360 --> 1:04:44.120
<v Speaker 6>like have a comfortable life.

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<v Speaker 5>That's what.

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<v Speaker 6>That's the dream right there, you know, cause it's crazy.

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<v Speaker 6>It's very uncertain these days. It's no longer a guarantee.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, it never really was, but you know it is.

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<v Speaker 5>It is what it is.

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<v Speaker 2>That's interesting you say that it never really was what

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<v Speaker 2>never really was a guarantee? Yeah, what does that mean

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<v Speaker 2>to you?

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<v Speaker 6>Well, I mean, you know, I feel like all like

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<v Speaker 6>the boomers out there, you know they you know, they

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<v Speaker 6>they got these like big houses now and like Daytona Beach.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, they're going on boats, getting like vip NASCAR

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<v Speaker 6>passes and shit, you know, and every and everyone thinks that, like,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, like life was easy for them, and to

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<v Speaker 6>a degree was significantly easier to them, but you know, hey,

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<v Speaker 6>we all had to struggle at one point, I guess.

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<v Speaker 6>So I think I think it's a little bit weird,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, always being like, you know, man, it was

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<v Speaker 6>so easy back then, but I'm sure that there was

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<v Speaker 6>some stuff that was hard. You know, I don't have

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<v Speaker 6>to go fight no war, not to like lick boomers

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<v Speaker 6>boots or anything.

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<v Speaker 5>They don't deserve it.

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<v Speaker 6>They're annoying as hell. But you know, the American dream

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<v Speaker 6>was never guaranteed that anybody, And the American dream is

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<v Speaker 6>probably you know, I gotta stop saying that I sound

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<v Speaker 6>like a fucking maga crazy person.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I mean you you say, well, look, I mean

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<v Speaker 2>American dream. All it is in the way that you're

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<v Speaker 2>using it is. It's just a metaphor for like what

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<v Speaker 2>you're talking about, where you're like, look, I want a

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<v Speaker 2>suburban home and a wife and kids and to have

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<v Speaker 2>enough money to support them. And that's really it.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, you know, I grew up with a nice family,

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<v Speaker 6>I guess, so it would be nice to be able

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<v Speaker 6>to kind of continue that legacy, you know, have a

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<v Speaker 6>nice little, nice little quaint life. I don't need to

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<v Speaker 6>be like working on movies or anything.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Yeah, that's beautiful. That's beautiful. Well, because yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>mean a lot of I think a lot of people, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>graduate from film school with like big dreams. It's it's

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<v Speaker 2>interesting that this thing of like how ambitious to be

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<v Speaker 2>and there's no right or wrong answer. I think society

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<v Speaker 2>kind of compels people to believe that there's a right

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<v Speaker 2>or a wrong answer in both directions too, you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean, Like there's sometimes, uh, society pressures you

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<v Speaker 2>to like compare yourself to other people and be like, well,

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<v Speaker 2>you gotta if you have the potential to tell these

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<v Speaker 2>great stories and this great career, and they're like, if

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<v Speaker 2>you don't, you must live up to your potential. And

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's it's everything in fucking life is a

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<v Speaker 2>balancing act and a double edged sword, because there is

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<v Speaker 2>I think a lot of joy in quote unquote living

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<v Speaker 2>up to your potential and uh, you know, working hard

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<v Speaker 2>on things that you care about and try to build

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<v Speaker 2>something that you care about. But doing that, it's a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of guff and a lot of stress and a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of anxiety. You're gonna like there's if you follow

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<v Speaker 2>that hat, I'm gonna not inherently, but I mean, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know why I'm I'm just talking from my own

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<v Speaker 2>lived experience. Is like I've tried to follow that path.

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<v Speaker 2>I've tried to follow that path and it there's a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of to it. And then the opposite side is

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<v Speaker 2>like just learn to be happy with whatever your lot

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<v Speaker 2>is and don't worry about this great big pressure of

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<v Speaker 2>living up to your potential whatever the fuck. And again,

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<v Speaker 2>just yeah, from my own lived experience is like, I

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<v Speaker 2>think there's something calming in that, but I also get

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<v Speaker 2>depressed when I'm not feeling like I'm building something or

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<v Speaker 2>doing something that's important to me. But every individual is

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<v Speaker 2>going to have a different answer to these questions, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>It's kind of that's the hard part. But I mean, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>if you want to have a wife and a kid

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<v Speaker 2>and just make enough money to live, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>think that's where do you where? You're in Tennessee.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm in Tennessee.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm going to get out though. Here's the thing.

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<v Speaker 6>Knoxville is where like my college is, right, So it's

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<v Speaker 6>like a mid sized city, you know, like like just

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<v Speaker 6>under two hundred thousand people. It has a couple of

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<v Speaker 6>suburbs that has a decent downtown. But it's like it's

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<v Speaker 6>nothing huge. It's a really nice place though, And I

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<v Speaker 6>would come back whenever they changed up their politics, of course,

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<v Speaker 6>because Tennessee is a bit of a hell hole, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>if you have any compassion for any people. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>trying to get out, you know, So I don't know

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<v Speaker 6>where I'm gonna be. I've applied to like places all

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<v Speaker 6>over the country.

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<v Speaker 2>Man.

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<v Speaker 6>I've applied for jobs in like Washington and Cincinnati and

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<v Speaker 6>Miami and New York, and La and I've just I'm

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<v Speaker 6>applied to all these places, even like the middle of

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<v Speaker 6>nowhere in Idaho. So I don't know, it's crazy, it's

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<v Speaker 6>it's insane.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 6>I had like stability, right, I had like a girlfriend,

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<v Speaker 6>and now you know, I have like totally in this

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<v Speaker 6>limbo period for a month where I have no idea

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<v Speaker 6>how my life's gonna pan out. Well, like everything to

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<v Speaker 6>be drastically different, drastically different in like forty five days.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but that's yeah. But I think when you're when

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<v Speaker 2>you're just graduated from college, I mean that's good, right,

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<v Speaker 2>you would rather I think you'd rather things be drastically

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<v Speaker 2>different than to be uh the same forever.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, And that's so, And that's that's true. I I'm

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<v Speaker 6>totally cool being in this limbo state that I'd be

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<v Speaker 6>lying if I if I said I was immune to

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<v Speaker 6>the anxiety of it.

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<v Speaker 5>All right, Yeah, it's you know, like, yeah, it's it's

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<v Speaker 5>it's tough.

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<v Speaker 3>It's tough.

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<v Speaker 6>There are a few things that I don't know that

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<v Speaker 6>that I think would be cool. I did ah, I

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<v Speaker 6>did stand up comedy a couple of times, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, because you know all these quirky white boys,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, they want to do stand up comedy.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you know, I think I did.

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<v Speaker 6>A pretty good job. You know, people people thought it

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<v Speaker 6>was funnest, you know it it'd be cool to like

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<v Speaker 6>move to city like Chicago and like join like an

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<v Speaker 6>improv troop or something and then then I don't know,

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<v Speaker 6>see where that takes me.

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<v Speaker 5>That could be cool.

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<v Speaker 2>I bet you would have a lot of fun doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>It's funny. I recently I did stand up from sixteen

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<v Speaker 2>to twenty two, So I did it for like what

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<v Speaker 2>six years or something like that, and then I kind

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<v Speaker 2>of quit once I started doing the Gecko. Although, like

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<v Speaker 2>I do the live shows that are kind of have

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<v Speaker 2>stand up elements to them, and I've recently gotten back

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<v Speaker 2>into doing stand up at like like just regular stand

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<v Speaker 2>up as myself, just like going to fucking just going

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<v Speaker 2>to open mics around town. Yeah, and uh, it's fun.

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<v Speaker 2>I like it is just telling.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, it's ridiculous, like telling a telling a joke and

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<v Speaker 6>the like doing well, it's it's a high that really

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<v Speaker 6>can't be matched.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know for sure.

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<v Speaker 6>It's it's it's crazy, but no, it's awesome, man, to

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<v Speaker 6>be honest, I wanted to like it's been a goal

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<v Speaker 6>of mine in the last few years to like call

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<v Speaker 6>in and like, you know, tell you about like that

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<v Speaker 6>Bonner experience, and like, truly how much it meant to

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<v Speaker 6>me because I hadn't interviewed a lot of people before

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<v Speaker 6>then with that radio station, and like, you know, we

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<v Speaker 6>we actually I think I think I just asked you

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<v Speaker 6>for a picture and you're like, well, shit, let me

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<v Speaker 6>do a whole interview, and kind of blew my mind, like,

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<v Speaker 6>oh my god.

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<v Speaker 2>He wanted to talk to me, of course, man, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it was crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>I do have one question.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, you mentioned in that interview there was a kid

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<v Speaker 6>who like called you and told you that like he

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<v Speaker 6>was on shrooms. Yeah, and then it's like mom walked

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<v Speaker 6>in and you were like, yeah, do you know your

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<v Speaker 6>sons on shrooms? Did you ever get like closure to that?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't get closure on any of this stuff. Once

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<v Speaker 2>the phone hangs out, Once the phone hangs up, that

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<v Speaker 2>person has gone forever. Pretty much.

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<v Speaker 5>It's incredible.

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<v Speaker 6>Well, I mean, if hey, if I hang don't forget me. Okay,

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<v Speaker 6>that's all I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm almost certainly going to forget your name. But okay,

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<v Speaker 2>if you I will remember who you are. If a

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<v Speaker 2>year from now you're like, hey, I'm that guy who

1:13:05.720 --> 1:13:07.479
<v Speaker 2>interviewed you up on Aero and then called you again,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be like, oh, I remember you, but I I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't remember people's names for some reason.

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<v Speaker 6>So dude, it's all good. No, I just kind of

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<v Speaker 6>just fulfilled a bit of like a bucket list item.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, this is crazy, this this has been like

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<v Speaker 6>this has been my white whale is getting on.

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<v Speaker 2>Here, and like I hope like saying thank you for that,

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<v Speaker 2>I well, thank you very much. I hope your ambition

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<v Speaker 2>goes further than that or not or not, I hope

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<v Speaker 2>you well, I guess I'm so curious, like what kind

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<v Speaker 2>of jobs are you applying for in oh around town, Like.

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<v Speaker 6>Video production, video production specialist jobs, you know, just like

1:13:43.120 --> 1:13:45.280
<v Speaker 6>trying to like work like in house with a company

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<v Speaker 6>and like do their marketing for them, because like a

1:13:48.479 --> 1:13:51.639
<v Speaker 6>lot of companies will like outsource that, but some companies

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<v Speaker 6>have their own like team, and I feel like working

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<v Speaker 6>in house would get me a lot better benefits and

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<v Speaker 6>a lot more stability. I applied for a job and

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<v Speaker 6>I'm Olympia, Washington, being the city of Olympia's video production guy.

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<v Speaker 6>So i'd like live stream their board meetings, which you know,

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<v Speaker 6>it's not crazy work, but you know, it's fun work.

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<v Speaker 6>It's it's fun like just getting to like edit and

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<v Speaker 6>video stuff. It's like I'm playing with boys.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, it's not Look man, look man, go you

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<v Speaker 2>could have a great life in Olympia, Washington. You go,

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<v Speaker 2>you do your fucking stupid job, you do open mics

1:14:34.240 --> 1:14:37.080
<v Speaker 2>at night, you meet some lady, you have kids, you

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<v Speaker 2>go on hikes. Is a great life waiting for you

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<v Speaker 2>and in any of the places that you might end up.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I I appreciate it. I do believe that.

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<v Speaker 2>I really do believe that.

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<v Speaker 6>I greatly appreciate it. I greatly appreciate it. Well, hey listen,

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<v Speaker 6>I'm not gonna take too much of your time. I

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<v Speaker 6>know there's a lot of people who have like actual

1:14:55.920 --> 1:14:56.760
<v Speaker 6>like stories, but you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, I just hold on, hold on, hold on, by

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<v Speaker 2>the oh way. I just want you to know something,

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<v Speaker 2>and I want this is just you. This is an

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<v Speaker 2>actual story. Your life is an actual story. I might

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<v Speaker 2>move to Olympia, Washington. It's actually it's funny. It's the

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<v Speaker 2>most actual story because someone could call after this and

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<v Speaker 2>be like, you know, I did ayahuasca thirty five times

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<v Speaker 2>and then uh made out with my dad and we

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<v Speaker 2>moved to Paris like whatever. And it's like, Okay, that's crazy,

1:15:30.200 --> 1:15:33.920
<v Speaker 2>but it's like that's not not everyone does that, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>So this is your story even if it's not even

1:15:36.960 --> 1:15:39.880
<v Speaker 2>it's a common it's a common story, but that doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>make it not an actual one exactly.

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<v Speaker 5>You know.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I appreciate that, you know. I always listen to

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<v Speaker 6>this show and I'm like, there's see who were calling

1:15:48.880 --> 1:15:50.400
<v Speaker 6>them like, yeah, I was a drug dealer for twenty

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<v Speaker 6>five years. I'm like, oh shit, But that's that's what

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<v Speaker 6>I That's.

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<v Speaker 2>What I like, though, is that is like life is crazy,

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<v Speaker 2>and the sense that it on there's spectrums of it

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<v Speaker 2>of like, oh, this is really crazy over here, and

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<v Speaker 2>then there's a lot in the middle where it's just like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, everything's fine.

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<v Speaker 5>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Life is terrifying and joyful and also a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>the times very very boring. So you know, it's kind

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<v Speaker 2>of I guess an amalgam of all that. Anyway, what's your.

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<v Speaker 6>Name again, Lincoln President?

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<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, I'm rocking in the free world. Later on Lincoln, Yes, sir, alrighty,

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<v Speaker 6>Peace be with you, Gek.

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<v Speaker 2>That was Lincoln. I don't know why I said I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know why. The example I used was make out

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<v Speaker 2>with your dad and move to Peru. Actually, I guess,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I do know why I said that. I

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<v Speaker 2>said that because that is an unconventional thing to do,

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<v Speaker 2>to make out with your dad and move to Peru.

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<v Speaker 2>So actually I take back my questioning on that. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>that was a nice podcast. That was a nice episode.

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<v Speaker 2>Good phone calls. It's great to hear about people's lives.

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<v Speaker 2>Do I have anything to say to end the podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if I do. I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>I do. I'm glad to keep talking to people. This

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<v Speaker 2>is chill, this is good. I feel like we're on

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<v Speaker 2>bonus time right now just doing this. I'm gonna let

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<v Speaker 2>whoever's listening to this get back to their lives or

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<v Speaker 2>get back or go is somewhere else on the internet

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<v Speaker 2>or their phone or whatever. Thank you guys for listening.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be back again again next week. I think next

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<v Speaker 2>episode I'm probably gonna end up doing a a live

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<v Speaker 2>one like an IRL one. I like doing those. I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like it bumps my energy up, So I think

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna try that for the next episode of this.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you all for being here to talk to talk.

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<v Speaker 2>I read all the Spotify comments compulsively, So if you

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<v Speaker 2>got something to say in the Spotify comments, maybe I

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<v Speaker 2>shouldn't read the Spotify comments. Maybe my life would be

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<v Speaker 2>better if I just did the podcast and then shut

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<v Speaker 2>my phone off and never looked at the internet. But

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<v Speaker 2>who knows if I'm gonna in the event that I

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<v Speaker 2>in the event that I cow and I cowered out,

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<v Speaker 2>and I don't do that, you can leave comments on

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<v Speaker 2>Spotify or YouTube and I'll try to look at them. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>thank you for listening to the podcast. Get Blessed, See

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<v Speaker 2>you around the universe.

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<v Speaker 1>Goes on the line taking your phone calls every nine

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<v Speaker 1>KT goes through on his eyes. He just teaching him

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<v Speaker 1>how to be like but he's not really an expert.