Speaker 1: Hi.
Speaker 2: Hey, what's your name?
Speaker 3: My name is Meg. I was the person in chat
Speaker 3: that's that I've been trying for five years.
Speaker 2: Oh you've been so how long You've been listening to
Speaker 2: the show for five years? Yeah, it's crazy. It really
Speaker 2: is crazy to me that. I mean, I remember being
Speaker 2: on I started doing this on Reddit like five years ago. Yeah,
Speaker 2: and I was like, well, every year. Every year, I'm like,
Speaker 2: all right, this is the year that you know, I
Speaker 2: gotta go do something else. And then it just keeps
Speaker 2: people keeping, which is great. It's like amazing. Yeah, well
Speaker 2: I did, And I don't mean that in the sense
Speaker 2: of I like, it's it's extremely cool that people are
Speaker 2: are still here and that we're still doing this.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I think everybody just likes to hear about
Speaker 3: other people's experiences and stuff, you know.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, Well, speaking of which, what's what what have
Speaker 2: your experience has been?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 3: Oh, dude, I've had a zillion. I have literally, I'm like,
Speaker 3: I've I've lived in vans and traveled back and forth
Speaker 3: across the country before. I like, now I live in
Speaker 3: the very southwest tip of Colorado and I've been here
Speaker 3: for like seven years, so I finally have settled. I
Speaker 3: make a fuck ton of art I went through. I've
Speaker 3: been through some crazy shit too. I went through like
Speaker 3: a house fire, lost everything, completely rebuilt my life. So
Speaker 3: I've got a million stories. Currently, I am healing from
Speaker 3: a breakup.
Speaker 2: So you've living at the ice at the southern tip
Speaker 2: of Colorado for seven years.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like right on the border of like Utah,
Speaker 3: New Mexico, Arizona, at like the four Corners.
Speaker 2: And Okay, so before that, you were running all around
Speaker 2: and like around where were you running?
Speaker 3: So I am from Jersey and I have done quite
Speaker 3: a few trips. Like I would, I would basically get
Speaker 3: either invited to an event or just like on a whim,
Speaker 3: I'd have like a thousand dollars saved it up, and
Speaker 3: I'd be like, fuck it, you know what, let's quit
Speaker 3: our job and just drive down the coast. And so
Speaker 3: I've done that a few times. I was like one
Speaker 3: of my trips, I drove up from Jersey to upstate
Speaker 3: New York, met this group of kids, befriended them They're
Speaker 3: from Florida, and then drove down to all the way
Speaker 3: to like Atlanta, Georgia, and like hitting music festivals and
Speaker 3: stuff along the whole way, and then went from there
Speaker 3: to Yellowstone National Park that's where we got arrested, and
Speaker 3: then went to Portland and then went back across the
Speaker 3: coast again back.
Speaker 2: To what were you arrested for in Yellowstone? If you
Speaker 2: want to, you care to share?
Speaker 3: Yeah, So it's pretty funny. So we were we went
Speaker 3: to Yellowstone. We did not pay for a camping site
Speaker 3: where jackasses. We were like, let's just fucking park here
Speaker 3: and camp here, and we probably wouldn't have gotten in
Speaker 3: any trouble except for we were allowed. We had beer
Speaker 3: cans out. We were asleep when this happened. We got
Speaker 3: awoken by rangers, so like, what the fuck are you doing?
Speaker 3: Not in the camping spot. You guys have open containers everywhere.
Speaker 3: And one of the kids that we were traveling with
Speaker 3: was underage, and he had an illicit substance in his hands,
Speaker 3: clashed clustered whatever class to his chest while he was
Speaker 3: sleeping in a hammock. So he wakes up and they're like,
Speaker 3: what's in your hand? That's drugs And.
Speaker 4: We were like, oh, we're not bad kids.
Speaker 3: These bikers gave it to us because there's a lot
Speaker 3: of bikers in Yellowstone and this woman checked my ID
Speaker 3: and she was like, oh my god, you're.
Speaker 4: From freaking blah blah, New Jersey and I was like yeah,
Speaker 4: and she was like I went to this high school.
Speaker 4: I was like, oh my gosh, my parents went there.
Speaker 4: And then she's like, oh my gosh, I know your
Speaker 4: mom and like to the other ranger was like, we're
Speaker 4: gonna go and bring you guys to jail right now,
Speaker 4: and she was like, no, these guys are good kids.
Speaker 1: They're good kids.
Speaker 3: We're gonna let you guys go. And they gave us
Speaker 3: like providing alcohol to a minor and then it got
Speaker 3: dropped because if you get arrested on federal lands that's
Speaker 3: a federal charge. You're in big trouble.
Speaker 2: So what was it that made you settle in Colorado?
Speaker 2: And then how has it been being in the same
Speaker 2: place for seven years after doing all this running around?
Speaker 3: It's been awesome. What made me stay here? I mean,
Speaker 3: first I lived in Denver and Boulder, which are like
Speaker 3: cities on the eastern side of Colorado, and I was like,
Speaker 3: this sucks. This isn't really Colorado. There's traffic, there's just
Speaker 3: like very yuppy culture, and so I eventually came out here.
Speaker 3: I live in a town called Durango, and it just
Speaker 3: is awesome. This town is crazy. It's just got weird
Speaker 3: people in it.
Speaker 1: Man.
Speaker 3: Like we have like weird festivals like every two months
Speaker 3: for random things, Like we've got the river festivals coming up,
Speaker 3: and then after that we've got a Dandelion festival. It's
Speaker 3: fun time. And yeah, I mean, you drive an hour
Speaker 3: north and you're going to be in the most beautiful
Speaker 3: mountains you've ever seen. You drive an hour south, you're
Speaker 3: going to be in the desert. Like really fun. It's
Speaker 3: just nature everywhere. It's beautiful. And I live like in
Speaker 3: a very rural areas cool, but there's college close by,
Speaker 3: so there's parties.
Speaker 2: And you said you're going through a breakup. How long
Speaker 2: were you with this person for?
Speaker 3: I was with him for like a year, but we
Speaker 3: had been friends for like six years before that.
Speaker 2: Are you guy still friends or was that kind of
Speaker 2: or was the friendship erosion part of the breakup?
Speaker 1: It sucks. It kind of was that.
Speaker 3: I try still to be friends, but this kid has
Speaker 3: got so many issues and it sucks because like he's
Speaker 3: ten years older than me, and I swear to god,
Speaker 3: he argues like a high schooler, but like it's just insane.
Speaker 3: He's got We both had problems with alcohol and I've
Speaker 3: been four months sober ever since the breakup, and he
Speaker 3: just won't stop and he'll call me drunk and be
Speaker 3: like I love you, I'm sorry, and then be like
Speaker 3: fuck you five minutes later. So that's that.
Speaker 2: And do you live alone?
Speaker 3: Yeah, unless you count my two kitty cats?
Speaker 2: How was uh uh? Yeah? How is your like kind
Speaker 2: of healing process? Bin?
Speaker 3: Like what you been doing, It's been fucking awesome. If
Speaker 3: anybody is struggling with mental health, I'm afraid to go
Speaker 3: to therapy or a psychiatrist. I highly advise you to
Speaker 3: just abandon that shame and to just go for it,
Speaker 3: because like I've been in therapy and I started taking
Speaker 3: this thing called a bilifi and I swear to god
Speaker 3: it has like yeah, man, and I'm on the lowest
Speaker 3: dose of it, and it has changed my life. Like
Speaker 3: I am just I don't know, man, I got a
Speaker 3: different way of thinking. It's crazy. One of my friends
Speaker 3: yesterday was over and they're like, what, what did you
Speaker 3: start taking it? And I told them, They're like, keep
Speaker 3: doing that, because you're doing fucking awesome. I'm like, thinks.
Speaker 2: Interesting, Yeah, I'm on a I've kind of made it
Speaker 2: my you know, uh, my mission for like this year
Speaker 2: is I want to find a good like ss sr
Speaker 2: I for myself because you can't. I thought, is it,
Speaker 2: isn't that an SSRI I abilify?
Speaker 3: No, no, no, it's I forget what it's considered, but
Speaker 3: it's not an SSRI.
Speaker 5: I'm on that.
Speaker 3: And I'm also on wellbutrin that also is not an
Speaker 3: SSRI I because whenever I took SSRIs, I felt like, sorry,
Speaker 3: I was running water in the background. But whenever I
Speaker 3: took those, I felt like I just like life was
Speaker 3: just I don't know, it was dulled down, you know,
Speaker 3: and it just I just felt like instead of feeling happy,
Speaker 3: I felt nothing so and I was like nothing better
Speaker 3: than sad. But I want to feel happy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it's I'm I'm on I don't know if
Speaker 2: it's like an SSRI I or anything, but I'm I'm
Speaker 2: kind of on this kick where I'm like, I think,
Speaker 2: throughout my life, I've found a lot of meeting and
Speaker 2: like uh projects and work and whatnot. But I've been
Speaker 2: you know, like flip flipping flopping with like you know, uh,
Speaker 2: mental fog or whatever the fuck. So I think I've
Speaker 2: kind of tried to accept that. It's like, all right,
Speaker 2: I think whatever's going on is something chemical that cannot
Speaker 2: be well, I mean I think there is, Like I
Speaker 2: think there is a strong like you can't just I
Speaker 2: don't think there's a magic pill that's gonna like make
Speaker 2: your life awesome, but there might be. Yeah, but I
Speaker 2: have this hope that there's like.
Speaker 3: I'm like, try abilify bro because it will, but you.
Speaker 2: Know, well anyway anyway, but yeah, but well, well let
Speaker 2: me ask you this though. What's your name again? Meg?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Meg, We're cool to just shoot the shit if you
Speaker 2: want to keep shooting the shit, But is there anything
Speaker 2: in particular that you called in to want to talk about?
Speaker 3: Honestly, Like, I'm down to shoot the ship because I've
Speaker 3: called in a million times when I've had like some
Speaker 3: crazy shit going on in my life and been like
Speaker 3: I just won't event But right now I'm like I'm
Speaker 3: doing good, So.
Speaker 2: Excellence, that's excellence.
Speaker 3: I can like tell I can give like a little
Speaker 3: brief synopsis of my life. I've been through a bunch, But.
Speaker 2: Where what do you well, let me, what do you
Speaker 2: so you you you make art, what do you do
Speaker 2: for Uh? Do you do that for work?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 3: But I do make some money on the side from it,
Speaker 3: though I haven't really been selling it lately, but I'm
Speaker 3: trying to get back into that, Like I'm going to
Speaker 3: try to run the table at our flea market and stuff.
Speaker 3: I think I might get into making soap, try to
Speaker 3: sell some of that. I make sour dough bread. I
Speaker 3: might try to sell some of that too, because I
Speaker 3: live in a very hippie dippy town where people want
Speaker 3: to buy that stuff.
Speaker 2: Cool, all right? Is it like a tell me more
Speaker 2: about the hippie dippy town. What's hippy and dippy about it?
Speaker 1: Dude?
Speaker 3: It's fucking crazy. So it's like basically like once, like
Speaker 3: there's like a stretch of street. We've got a main
Speaker 3: street that's like probably like eight block, and that's where
Speaker 3: everything kind of happens in town. And everybody here is
Speaker 3: just very like crunchy granola people. Like everybody's got there,
Speaker 3: like we've got our little homestead. Like when everybody was
Speaker 3: dying for eggs, like I was like, I don't have
Speaker 3: to worry. I know one million people with chickens, Like, uh,
Speaker 3: I don't know. Just everybody's got like little homesteads and stuff.
Speaker 3: It's very rural. There's, like I said, festivals for little
Speaker 3: insignificant things. Everybody's like, let's celebrate dambelions. They have a
Speaker 3: may pole for that thing. It's like, I don't know
Speaker 3: if you've ever seen one, but it's a gigantic pole
Speaker 3: that they attach like a bunch of strings of fabrics
Speaker 3: to it, and everybody runs in opposite directions around the
Speaker 3: pole until the fabrics all wrapped around it, so that
Speaker 3: every year it gets thicker and thicker. But everybody gets
Speaker 3: all tangled up while they're doing it. It's really cute
Speaker 3: to watch. And then like for the river one, people
Speaker 3: go crazy. They cover themselves in like glitter and wear
Speaker 3: two twos and shit, they decorate all their floats, like
Speaker 3: to everybody, here, we've got a pretty crazy river. It's
Speaker 3: got like it's got rapids that if you were to
Speaker 3: go through it, like you need to have like a
Speaker 3: helmet and be on good a good boat. But yeah,
Speaker 3: people will dress up crazy for that and like paint
Speaker 3: their faces and shit, and everybody gathers at the riverside
Speaker 3: and watches people go through the rapids. And like cheers
Speaker 3: the mom I think we also have. In the winter,
Speaker 3: there's like a two week festival that they call Snowdown.
Speaker 3: It's been going on since the eighties and again every
Speaker 3: year it will have a theme. This year's theme was
Speaker 3: Safari I think, or something like that. So everybody will
Speaker 3: dress up crazy. Oh no, it was game board themes.
Speaker 3: That's like the dumbest theme I've ever heard. But yeah,
Speaker 3: so everybody will dress up and all of the local
Speaker 3: businesses and bars and such will post games. There'll be
Speaker 3: things like I think there was like a porta potty
Speaker 3: race or something where people put bodies on wheels, and
Speaker 3: then there was like a mattress race where people put
Speaker 3: mattresses on wheels. People do ski drawing here where that's
Speaker 3: a horse pulling you on skis and you go over
Speaker 3: water and see who can't fall. So there's stuff like that.
Speaker 2: Have you done a lot of traveling arounds in the
Speaker 2: past seven years or did you, like, you know, really
Speaker 2: really settle into this town.
Speaker 3: I've settled into the town, but I've also like checked
Speaker 3: out stuff outside of it. Like I live pretty close
Speaker 3: to Moab, which is a big destination for mountain biking,
Speaker 3: and I went there over this past fall. It kind
Speaker 3: of sucks. I went with my access kind of the
Speaker 3: catalyst for the breakups. And let's see. I like, if
Speaker 3: you go an hour north, there's this town called Urray.
Speaker 3: They call it the Switzerland of America, and it is
Speaker 3: just so beautiful. I spent my birth Yeah, I spent
Speaker 3: my birthday there.
Speaker 5: Gorgeous.
Speaker 2: What's going on in Urray?
Speaker 3: I mean, you're right, I don't know how anybody lives there.
Speaker 3: It's a very tourist destination. So I think everybody kind
Speaker 3: of lived outside of it. In this little teeny tiny
Speaker 3: town called Ridgeway. I think everybody who works there must
Speaker 3: live there, and they must all travel to your right,
Speaker 3: because I think you're right, it's just all like tourist shops, restaurants,
Speaker 3: et cetera. In Ridgeway. I went to a hot spring
Speaker 3: over there. That's something I love. I love hot water,
Speaker 3: and so I went to a hot spring over there,
Speaker 3: and it's in It was a new to the allowed
Speaker 3: one and I have never seen as many like sixty
Speaker 3: year old penises in my life. Nice, very good, coming
Speaker 3: straight at you as soon as you walk in.
Speaker 2: So what's next for you? Meg and your life journey.
Speaker 2: I like, what do you what do you hope to
Speaker 2: do after you know you're your I guess I don't
Speaker 2: know if I don't know how healing works. Are you
Speaker 2: do you are? Do you mean do you magically label
Speaker 2: yourself healed? Or is it like, uh, you know, what's
Speaker 2: what's what's the next in your universe?
Speaker 3: I think right now I'm sort of kind of healed
Speaker 3: because I still answer the phone calls, you know, But
Speaker 3: what's next for me is making a cup of coffee
Speaker 3: and I'm gonna go do hair all day and then
Speaker 3: what's really next for me? I have zero clue what
Speaker 3: what this life has for me because lately it's been
Speaker 3: kind of a struggle financially. But hopefully life will give
Speaker 3: me the clientele that I need to be making enough
Speaker 3: money because this town is very expensive to live in.
Speaker 3: So really, right now my journey is just to find
Speaker 3: stability without the help of another person.
Speaker 2: Uh yeah, I mean good luck on that, Meg.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Do you know, I don't know why. I don't know
Speaker 2: why when that's you know, what is so annoying is
Speaker 2: I meant what I said just now, but when I
Speaker 2: said it, it sounded like I was being sarcastic, didn't it? Nah?
Speaker 3: Man, I get it. I fucking I People constantly think
Speaker 3: I'm being a dick because I'm from New Jersey and
Speaker 3: I'm very sarcastic, and nobody here can pick up on
Speaker 3: it because they're like all very nice.
Speaker 2: I don't know what, Like in my like, in my brain,
Speaker 2: I was like my brain's my brain said, oh, good luck, Meg,
Speaker 2: But my cool in my mouth was good luck.
Speaker 3: You're like good luck.
Speaker 2: Maybe it's maybe it's a family maybe because it's a
Speaker 2: family guy or something, just the way you say, Meg,
Speaker 2: Oh my god, no good uh good? You hate family guy?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I can't help it, bro, I just.
Speaker 2: Do Why do you hate family guy?
Speaker 1: Dude? I don't know.
Speaker 3: It's because, like I mean, I went, I graduated high
Speaker 3: school in two thousand and nine. I feel like we're
Speaker 3: probably similar age. I'm thirty three, so it was like
Speaker 3: super popular in school and everybody was just always saying
Speaker 3: fucking quotes from it, and I was like, I can't
Speaker 3: do another. I can't, like, I don't know. I just
Speaker 3: don't think they're jokes. Are that funny?
Speaker 2: Well?
Speaker 3: With South Park?
Speaker 2: Like I grew up there, you hates Okay, Okay, hating
Speaker 2: family guys one thing. But South Park is like, uh,
Speaker 2: you know, is it totally different?
Speaker 3: It's pretty funny sometimes show.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's very well written and it's very the jokes
Speaker 2: are more like I think they did a great job. Yeah.
Speaker 3: I like the one season where it starts off where
Speaker 3: where Butters is being professor Chaos and then they turn
Speaker 3: them into the dog.
Speaker 2: Well, good luck, Meg, try not to. I don't know,
Speaker 2: I don't have I don't I I I wish you
Speaker 2: sincere life. What's the name of this town, Urray. I'm
Speaker 2: gonna check that out.
Speaker 3: Oh no, no, Durango is where I live. But Urray
Speaker 3: is also awesome, and Urray is felled. Oh you are
Speaker 3: a y Some people say, oh Ray, I don't know
Speaker 3: what the fuck is the right pronunciation. Uh, look it up.
Speaker 3: You should visit sometime. Like I've always wanted to see
Speaker 3: you live, but you've never come anywhere close to me,
Speaker 3: Like I go, I.
Speaker 2: Go to I go to Denver pretty much every year.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, but Denver's like eight hours. Dude's like,
Speaker 3: I'm closer. I'm in the Southwest, so I'm closer to
Speaker 3: Santa Fe and Albuquerge. If either of those if you
Speaker 3: ever hit either of those, I will be there, like swim,
Speaker 3: I'll be in there like somewhere.
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, cool, I'll consider doing that. I'll consider doing that.
Speaker 2: I like Santa Fe. I like the have the original.
Speaker 3: Now we'll be there.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's so much fun. I went there, dude, and
Speaker 3: I like, did you know that? Like, have you gone
Speaker 3: through the exhibits.
Speaker 2: I've been to a lot of them, but I've never
Speaker 2: been to the one in Santa Fe.
Speaker 5: Ah.
Speaker 3: Dang.
Speaker 2: Well.
Speaker 3: They have like the exhibit part of it is like
Speaker 3: a nineties house or whatever, and they also have like
Speaker 3: concerts there. I went to see a concert there. Me
Speaker 3: and my friend were with a group of people where
Speaker 3: were like, Yo, these people stuck, Let's just leave and
Speaker 3: go to the exhibit. And like we went in there
Speaker 3: and tried on all the clothes and stuff that were
Speaker 3: like in these bedrooms and stuff in the fake house,
Speaker 3: and we eventually got kicked out for it. They were like,
Speaker 3: you need to.
Speaker 2: Stop, get out of here, Meg, is the anything else
Speaker 2: you want to say to the people the computer before
Speaker 2: we go?
Speaker 3: Don't be scared of facing your mental health challenges, guys,
Speaker 3: and I hope that everybody has a really really nice
Speaker 3: day and a good start to your weekend.
Speaker 2: Have a good night, Meg.
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, dude, this is you said night haha. Have
Speaker 3: a nice day.
Speaker 2: Oh shit, Sorry, it could be day or night, depending
Speaker 2: on I don't know where anyone is in the world.
Speaker 2: Well I guess I do. I know where that she
Speaker 2: is because she told me. But uh, it could be day,
Speaker 2: it could be night. Every it's it's whatever time you
Speaker 2: decide it is.
Speaker 5: Hello.
Speaker 2: Hey, what's up. What's your name?
Speaker 5: I'm Tristan.
Speaker 2: What's up, Christen? How's life Tristan? What's going on with you?
Speaker 5: I am currently at work.
Speaker 2: What do you do for work?
Speaker 5: I'm an electrician.
Speaker 2: You're an electrician. I like that. It's a very very
Speaker 2: real job.
Speaker 5: Is very real. It doesn't feel like I'm fitting and
Speaker 5: doing nothing all day.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's good. You're doing a valuable that's one of
Speaker 2: the an electrician, that's one of those jobs that AI
Speaker 2: can't replace, right you think, I.
Speaker 5: Don't think so. I mean, at least you know the
Speaker 5: physical work portion of it. I guess computers have been
Speaker 5: like planning buildings for a little while, but I don't know. Yeah,
Speaker 5: physical work, it can't really be done at least for
Speaker 5: a while.
Speaker 2: Listen. It's okay if you just wanted to shoot the
Speaker 2: shit and whatever, but is there anything in particular you
Speaker 2: want to talk about today?
Speaker 5: I don't know. I mean, honestly, I kind of wanted
Speaker 5: to just like give you a compliment, like the kind
Speaker 5: I've been watching since like the Pandemic and like when
Speaker 5: you started, and I feel like you you kind of
Speaker 5: have instead of just using this show as like a
Speaker 5: way to like learn about other people, I think you've
Speaker 5: kind of like used it as your outlet as well.
Speaker 5: And I think a lot of people are like connecting
Speaker 5: to you a lot more recently, or at least I
Speaker 5: am like hearing your you know, how you go through
Speaker 5: bit and you actually like tell us about it, which
Speaker 5: is it's helpful to hear, you know.
Speaker 2: Okay, good, I'm glad. I'm glad to hear it's helpful
Speaker 2: to hear because I have been doing that more often.
Speaker 2: And then in my off time, I wonder to myself
Speaker 2: if it's a good idea and the impetus behind it
Speaker 2: is a it just feels cathartic to like have a
Speaker 2: you know, like I guess, to publicly share your thoughts
Speaker 2: and life and then bees I assume it's helpful for
Speaker 2: other people to hear in this, you know what's going
Speaker 2: on everyone's But then I want it's funny. I wonder
Speaker 2: in my own life, I'm like, am I in a
Speaker 2: loop of some kind where I'm solidifying stories about myself?
Speaker 2: I've even talked about this.
Speaker 5: I think, yeah, yeah, I've heard you. You say, like,
Speaker 5: the more you talk about things, are you like creating
Speaker 5: this image of yourself that like isn't actually real?
Speaker 2: Well no, well no, not not that, not that. More
Speaker 2: like like if I talk about uh, like, if you're
Speaker 2: if you're constantly talking about like being depressed, you I
Speaker 2: think you create your brain just creates this story, right
Speaker 2: that you're depressed, and then that's a loop.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I don't know where I've landed on that, but I
Speaker 2: I I'm happy that it's resonating with and maybe I
Speaker 2: I have other things I'd like to talk about besides
Speaker 2: just being depressed. I guess I.
Speaker 5: Don't think I'm glad that that's all you. Yeah, that's
Speaker 5: all you like talk about. You definitely don't just like
Speaker 5: talk about that, But I I think just you know,
Speaker 5: using it as like more of a way to not
Speaker 5: only hear about other people's things, but you know, tell
Speaker 5: your your stories, whether they're positive or negative, you know,
Speaker 5: like talking about like your experiences in college, or giving
Speaker 5: advice about like staying at home like uh, you know,
Speaker 5: as long as you can so you can save up money.
Speaker 5: Like those are just like good pieces of advice.
Speaker 2: Like I'm okay, cool.
Speaker 5: And I think that. Yeah, no, I'm just uh, you're
Speaker 5: you're you're the right person to do. This is is
Speaker 5: kind of my compliment.
Speaker 2: Okay, thanks man. That what's your name, Kristin Chris, Tristan
Speaker 2: or Tristan or Kristen Kristin ta with the tea Kristin.
Speaker 2: Thanks Tristan. That actually means a lot to me. I
Speaker 2: really I appreciate that, Okay, And I know I get
Speaker 2: what you're saying, so okay, yeah, I uh, I'm gonna
Speaker 2: start doing that more, trying to use my personal experience
Speaker 2: just you know, lif. I mean, that's what I like
Speaker 2: about the show is other people's like lived experience. So
Speaker 2: I guess I'll keep I'll keep sharing, I think.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I think that's what we all we
Speaker 5: all kind of like about it too, at least I think, so, you.
Speaker 2: Know, well, what's going on with you, Tristan. How's life.
Speaker 5: Uh, Life's pretty good. I've been in a pretty pretty
Speaker 5: good relationship for the last like year and a couple
Speaker 5: of months. I just uh, we just got back from Brazil.
Speaker 2: Oh what went to go ahead? I'll like, before you
Speaker 2: go ahead, I'm gonna I'm gonna wait. I'm gonna wait
Speaker 2: for a nice long silence before I get in there.
Speaker 5: All right, Yeah, we just we just got back from Brazil.
Speaker 5: We went to uh Carnival in in Rio. It was
Speaker 5: freaking it was sick.
Speaker 2: Oh, Carnival is on my uh list? What was uh?
Speaker 2: What was up? How was it?
Speaker 5: That's great? Man. Rio is like one of the most
Speaker 5: brazy places. Like it's so beautiful, Like you're on the
Speaker 5: beach and you just like turn around and there's just
Speaker 5: huge mountains everywhere, and and it's just it's so nice.
Speaker 5: And it's like the people are also very nice. I
Speaker 5: can't speak Portuguese, but my girlfriend is from Brazil, so
Speaker 5: you kind of just like so you kind of just
Speaker 5: led me around and you know, talking to people, and yeah,
Speaker 5: it's it's a Brazilian people have a lot of fun,
Speaker 5: That's what I'll say.
Speaker 2: Cool. Cool, Yeah, Yeah, the fucking rocks. Well, I've heard
Speaker 2: Carnival is like like there's like a million fucking people
Speaker 2: in the streets and like a big DJ and like
Speaker 2: all that stuff.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean there's literally like parties every everywhere you go.
Speaker 5: There's just like some random party in the street going on,
Speaker 5: and just like a ton of music. There's like parade
Speaker 5: stuff and yeah, it's it's wild.
Speaker 2: And where do you Where are you when you're not in.
Speaker 5: Brazil, I'm in the Boston area.
Speaker 2: Pretty good, Pretty good. You sound like your life is good.
Speaker 5: Recently it's been it's been surprisingly very good.
Speaker 2: Surprisingly.
Speaker 5: I don't know. I guess I kind of have that
Speaker 5: like like imposter like all this good stuff shouldn't really
Speaker 5: be happening type of thing.
Speaker 2: Yeah, sure, sure, Why well why has it been good?
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 5: I'm just happy with my relationship. My job's been pretty
Speaker 5: like not stressful, and the only the only thing stressful
Speaker 5: is like my car is like kind of a piece
Speaker 5: of ship, So not really that that bad of a
Speaker 5: problem to have.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I I was in a airbnb and the
Speaker 2: laundry machine I was in. Yeah. I was in Japan
Speaker 2: for two months, and the first month I was there,
Speaker 2: I was really really happy. I was very peaceful, and
Speaker 2: I was in the airbnb and the laundry machine uh
Speaker 2: started leaking. It was one and the the airbnb flooded
Speaker 2: with water, and I was cleaning up the water, and
Speaker 2: I was thinking to my I was it was a
Speaker 2: very peaceful time, and I was thinking to myself, I'm
Speaker 2: so fucking happy right now that the current worst problem
Speaker 2: in my life is that my laundry machine is leaking.
Speaker 2: That's uh, that's a real I that that that piece
Speaker 2: that the that that that piece is now. H I
Speaker 2: think I left that piece in Japan, but in that moment,
Speaker 2: I remember feeling that way. So yeah, it's good.
Speaker 5: It's good to have like that perspective on it, especially
Speaker 5: when like when you do end up having bigger problems,
Speaker 5: you kind of like wish back to the times that
Speaker 5: you the only problem your laundry unit was flooding your
Speaker 5: house or yeah, you know your car sucks.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but you get I mean, any I think you
Speaker 2: can kind of do that anytime, you know, like whatever
Speaker 2: your fucking problem is, you can always be like, well,
Speaker 2: this is a better problem than getting my leg cut off.
Speaker 2: That's happening to people in places, you know, so it's all,
Speaker 2: it's all, it's all relative. I guess it's all relative.
Speaker 2: What else was I going to say to you? Tristan
Speaker 2: Tristan with a T. Is there anything that you want
Speaker 2: to talk about while we're chilling?
Speaker 5: Uh? I don't know, man.
Speaker 3: How's uh?
Speaker 5: How's working out going? How's doing your push ups?
Speaker 2: I've I'm still working out. I'm still doing you know what,
Speaker 2: maybe I'll try to do some push ups after I
Speaker 2: get off the phone with you. I got up to
Speaker 2: twenty five. I was able to do twenty five push
Speaker 2: ups in a row. Where is my award? I thought
Speaker 2: I would get a trophy or a or a agnet
Speaker 2: or something. Still doesn't come.
Speaker 5: It's it's uh, well, there was a point where you
Speaker 5: thought that you couldn't do twenty five push ups?
Speaker 2: And push ups? Yeah, yeah, I'm trying to that's your reward. Yeah. Yeah,
Speaker 2: I'm trying to get back to the weight that I
Speaker 2: was before I started being a gecko. It's fun, Yeah,
Speaker 2: it's uh. Every day feels very long to me. So
Speaker 2: if I haven't gone to the gym in a while,
Speaker 2: if it'll feel like I haven't done it in like
Speaker 2: a month. But the gym's great. I was. Yeah, about
Speaker 2: a year ago, I was like lifting weights, and I
Speaker 2: was like, I should never not do this. This is great.
Speaker 5: I wish that I had that that mindset about lifting weights.
Speaker 2: Well, I you know, I mean that mindset only came.
Speaker 2: The mindset came while I was doing it. I don't.
Speaker 2: I didn't have I wasn't like on the couch, like
Speaker 2: I should never or not left. Well, when I'm on
Speaker 2: the couch, I was like, I should never leave this possession.
Speaker 2: You know, I bet you. How'd you meet your Brazilian girlfriend?
Speaker 5: Oh? Tinder?
Speaker 2: Tinder in Tinder in Boston?
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah, she she moved up here a little
Speaker 5: bit before we met, just by herself, which is crazy
Speaker 5: to do.
Speaker 2: That's cool, but what she did do people? Still, I
Speaker 2: feel like Tinder was popular when I was like in college.
Speaker 2: I feel like now everyone like the growing up version
Speaker 2: is like hinge or something like that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I don't know. I wasn't. I don't
Speaker 5: think I was necessarily trying to get into relationship being
Speaker 5: on Tinder though, but it ended up happening that way.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 5: But yeah, I mean, sorry, go ahead.
Speaker 2: No, I was just mumbling I have nothing to say.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I guess.
Speaker 1: Yeah, there is.
Speaker 5: The more like college age thing to do. I guess.
Speaker 5: I mean, I'm I'm twenty two, so I'm not I'm
Speaker 5: not out of that phase technically.
Speaker 2: Oh sheet m, that's cool. What are you going to
Speaker 2: do with the rest of your life?
Speaker 5: I don't know. Try to make enough money to have
Speaker 5: a house? Maybe pretty good. I don't know if I'll
Speaker 5: be able to do it, but we'll try.
Speaker 2: What do you What are you planning to do to
Speaker 2: make money.
Speaker 5: Of my job? To be an electrician?
Speaker 2: I guess? Oh, yes, sorry, I forgot. You said you
Speaker 2: were an electrician. That's a very real job.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's real. I hope that I can make more
Speaker 5: more money.
Speaker 2: Doing it, would you? But did you go to trade school?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 5: I did, like night school, Like I started out of
Speaker 5: high school when I was eighteen, and did like work
Speaker 5: during the week and then night school like twice a
Speaker 5: week for four years.
Speaker 2: I have a lot of respect for you.
Speaker 5: Oh, thank you?
Speaker 2: I really do you have? You went to you learned
Speaker 2: a skill? You have a you have a You are
Speaker 2: deeply sincerely contributing to society with a skill that you
Speaker 2: put in the time and effort to learn.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that that is what happened. That's pretty crazy to
Speaker 5: hear it.
Speaker 2: But like that, Yeah, I mean that's how you should
Speaker 2: think of it. You learned to. I mean, you know,
Speaker 2: you know, you don't work, you don't like, uh, you
Speaker 2: don't like write copy for the Axe Body Spray Instagram.
Speaker 2: You know what I mean? You like, know how to
Speaker 2: do something?
Speaker 5: Yeah? Yeah, I mean I wire a bunch of different stuff,
Speaker 5: get people's lights working.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they need that ship. Yeah, man, you know, when
Speaker 2: the apocalypse happens, whoever runs the ex body Spray Instagram
Speaker 2: is fucked. They're not getting on the rocket to the
Speaker 2: moon when everything goes astray. You I don't know if
Speaker 2: any of us are. I don't know if really any
Speaker 2: of us are getting on the rocket. We're going to
Speaker 2: get us I don't. I don't think we're getting on
Speaker 2: the rock. But I think you have a You have
Speaker 2: a you have a you have a decent shot at
Speaker 2: getting on I don't know how many rockets they'll be,
Speaker 2: but you have at least you have at least a
Speaker 2: better shot at getting on the rocket than the Yeah,
Speaker 2: like someone who you know or like me or you
Speaker 2: know some someone who uh yeah it does does the
Speaker 2: X bodies The X body spray thing. Yeah. Yeah, so
Speaker 2: that's good. You're you're yeah, I mean real, You're real,
Speaker 2: You're very you should be proud of who you are.
Speaker 5: I mean that, thanks man, I appreciate that. My uh
Speaker 5: it did It definitely sucks sometimes doing this this stuff.
Speaker 5: The A lot of the guys in this are like
Speaker 5: the worst people you'll ever meet in your entire life,
Speaker 5: like so miserable and like just like trying to die faster,
Speaker 5: like drinking as much as possible and smoking like ten
Speaker 5: cigarettes at a time.
Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, I I guess yeah, I
Speaker 2: can see how that happens. I can absolutely see how
Speaker 2: that happens. I hope that you. I meant everything I
Speaker 2: said about how you should be proud of what you do.
Speaker 2: It's a hard thing, but I hope you have a
Speaker 2: plan for how you don't end up being that wanting
Speaker 2: to die, like what like some form of I guess, uh,
Speaker 2: diversification of life stock. I don't know how you do it?
Speaker 2: How do you? I mean? That's what I'm on right now,
Speaker 2: is I'm like, okay, like you, like I assume you
Speaker 2: work with a lot of people who are, like, you know,
Speaker 2: older and want to die. Sooner, you know. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 2: so but not so much anymore.
Speaker 5: No, I'm with I just worked for one guy, so
Speaker 5: me and him, and I'm kind of like I'm at
Speaker 5: work right now.
Speaker 6: I'm not.
Speaker 5: I'm on my lunch break, but I'm mostly by myself lately,
Speaker 5: so I'm kind of just like doing my own thing
Speaker 5: so I don't have to deal with those people anymore.
Speaker 5: But the first like two years of being in this,
Speaker 5: all I saw was like guys who were like, oh,
Speaker 5: I don't do this shit until you're forty years old.
Speaker 5: You're gonna fucking want to die, you know, that type
Speaker 5: of attitude like all the time. It's like, yeah, oh
Speaker 5: my god. So I think I mean, the plan at
Speaker 5: least with you know, either the company I'm at or
Speaker 5: some other company is like try to get into like
Speaker 5: more like project management. So I'm not in the field
Speaker 5: and like destroying my body.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, that's good. Yeah. No, I mean it's funny.
Speaker 2: I understand why you'd why it was miserable to be
Speaker 2: around those people, but I it don't. It sounds like
Speaker 2: it was like good to have to be around those people.
Speaker 5: Actually, yeah, I mean it's definitely. It was definitely like
Speaker 5: a learning like what not to do right.
Speaker 2: Like no, if like a dude, if like an old
Speaker 2: guy says like, don't fucking do this, I think it's
Speaker 2: probably makes sense to listen to them.
Speaker 5: Yeah, probably like an old miserable guy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm like I want to do Yeah. I mean
Speaker 2: I'm twenty seven, you're twenty two.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 2: I'm always thinking about like, uh, I feel I feel
Speaker 2: older for the I know twenty seven is young. I
Speaker 2: feel I feel like older for the first time in
Speaker 2: a in a minute, and I'm like, Okay, I've I
Speaker 2: never thought. I didn't think I would be twenty seven.
Speaker 2: I thought I would be. I thought I would just
Speaker 2: I thought I would just explode, not that I would
Speaker 2: like not like oh I'm not gonna make it or
Speaker 2: all I'm gonna like what. I just thought like I didn't.
Speaker 2: I kind of picked a certain time period where I
Speaker 2: just didn't believe the time existed beyond that. And then
Speaker 2: now the time has existed beyond that, and I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 2: I now have confirmation that that will continue to happen.
Speaker 2: What can I do to uh best respond to the
Speaker 2: inevitable notion that time will continue. We're in good spots
Speaker 2: to do it, I think, Yeah, it's a good I
Speaker 2: think I have to be aware of that the time
Speaker 2: will actually continue. And how do you brace yourself for
Speaker 2: the continuation of time. I'm probably giving a ton of
Speaker 2: people a heart attack by talking about all this, but
Speaker 2: what's been on?
Speaker 5: Maybe? Yeah? Time, time is fucking always going and it's
Speaker 5: crazy because I mean I I remember being in high
Speaker 5: school like it was fucking yesterday, and now I'm an
Speaker 5: adult and I live in an apartment that I pay
Speaker 5: rent for, which is weird.
Speaker 3: Mm.
Speaker 2: Do you know how to can you can you fix
Speaker 2: an Xbox if it's broken?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 5: I only know yeah, yeah, maybe. I mean I'm not like,
Speaker 5: uh like a like a tech like building computers, electrician.
Speaker 5: I'm like, uh, you know, give you an outlet in
Speaker 5: the wall or like put up a light or something
Speaker 5: type of electrician.
Speaker 2: Tristan is before we go. Is there any thing else
Speaker 2: that I can you to make this conversation or to
Speaker 2: make this phone call a better experience for you?
Speaker 5: No, this is this has been pretty great lyle your
Speaker 5: your best dude.
Speaker 2: Oh, thank you Christ, Thank you Christ. I'm trying. I'm
Speaker 2: trying my absolute hardest. Thank you for for being Thank
Speaker 2: you for being alive. Thank you for your compliments, thank
Speaker 2: you for your for electricity.
Speaker 5: You're You're welcome.
Speaker 3: All right, I'll.
Speaker 2: See you around the universe. Tristan, good luck, all right,
Speaker 2: Thanks Lyle. Okay, bye man, bye bye. Hi. What's up?
Speaker 1: Her name?
Speaker 2: Hello?
Speaker 1: Hi?
Speaker 2: Hey, my name is?
Speaker 1: My name is going to be sucks today.
Speaker 5: Fox suck.
Speaker 2: Fu fuck.
Speaker 1: No s O see okay fuck fuck?
Speaker 2: Okay, Well what's up? Fuck? How you doing?
Speaker 1: Okay, you didn't hear me anyway, I'm I'm surprised, I
Speaker 1: don't know.
Speaker 6: Hi.
Speaker 1: So I'm feeling I'm feeling really anxious because I really
Speaker 1: actually wasn't expecting to get through.
Speaker 2: This is uh well, I don't really know what name
Speaker 2: you were trying to give me, So I'm gonna call
Speaker 2: you Fox. This this is easily gonna be one of
Speaker 2: the lowest steaks things that you will do with your life.
Speaker 2: So there's no reason to be anxious. We'll just chit chat,
Speaker 2: we'll just talk. You know, there's no yeah, there's nothing,
Speaker 2: there's nothing to be uh to be worried about. There's
Speaker 2: no way to uh fail.
Speaker 1: No, I know, I know. It's just you don't have
Speaker 1: very many opportunities to do something.
Speaker 2: Like this, so, well, what's up Fox? What's going on
Speaker 2: with you?
Speaker 1: I'm gon take a drink really quick?
Speaker 2: Take a drink?
Speaker 1: Uh?
Speaker 2: Do you mean like you're are you taking a shot
Speaker 2: or like you're having some water?
Speaker 1: Some water?
Speaker 2: Cool?
Speaker 1: Just water? Yeah, because my mouth is filling dry. Okay. Well,
Speaker 1: so I'm old, like I'm I'm in my forties okay,
Speaker 1: and I just found out last year that I'm also sick.
Speaker 5: Okay, which.
Speaker 1: Makes sense, It makes a lot of sense. But I
Speaker 1: get the things that I'm interested in, like stuff like
Speaker 1: watching twitch and you know, trying just stay away from
Speaker 1: Instagram as much as possible for mental health reasons, but
Speaker 1: that also kind of keeping up with what's going on,
Speaker 1: you know. And I like music that young people like,
Speaker 1: and I am single, I don't have kids, and I
Speaker 1: don't have any desire to have kids, and so I
Speaker 1: don't know, I just feel weird, like I don't know
Speaker 1: how to relate to people my age. And then if
Speaker 1: I am like relating to someone younger, once they find
Speaker 1: out how old I am, they're kind of like kind
Speaker 1: of like you could be my mom or you know,
Speaker 1: something like that.
Speaker 2: So interesting. I have a lot of thoughts about this.
Speaker 2: First of all I actually want to say, is this
Speaker 2: something you've ever talked to an actual therapist about?
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah yeah?
Speaker 2: What what do what do people say? What do people say?
Speaker 1: Well, the problem is that all of these things I
Speaker 1: told you about seeming younger and having interests like that,
Speaker 1: that is a big sign of autism and women who
Speaker 1: got missed as kids, you know.
Speaker 5: And so.
Speaker 1: The problem is that there's not a lot of knowledge
Speaker 1: even in man therapists about it about adults because you know,
Speaker 1: no one ever really paid attention to adults that didn't
Speaker 1: fit these spilled out versions of what autisms should look like.
Speaker 1: So this is you probably have heard this is happening
Speaker 1: a lot to people, older people getting diagnosed, but yeah,
Speaker 1: they just don't know, and it actually ended up being harmful.
Speaker 1: I this is actually the first time that I'm not
Speaker 1: in therapy for many many years, what years and years
Speaker 1: and years, and I feel better than I ever have
Speaker 1: so and yeah, and it's because because like normal types
Speaker 1: of therapy can be harmful for people with autism, because
Speaker 1: it's basically like even cognitive behavioral therapy, a lot of
Speaker 1: times we like I'm trying to explain it, but like
Speaker 1: our brain works a certain way, and and those type
Speaker 1: of therapies. If we're not like completely clicking with it
Speaker 1: and it working for us, we get more of the
Speaker 1: come off as not doing it, you know, or not
Speaker 1: not actually doing the work or whatever. But really inside
Speaker 1: we feel like you're telling me the way my brain
Speaker 1: works is wrong and I don't have control of that.
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?
Speaker 2: Yeah, a little bit, A little bit. Well, I so,
Speaker 2: I mean, listen, here's the thing I actually uh, I mean, funk, man,
Speaker 2: I have I have if you want to dive into it,
Speaker 2: I have like thoughts. I don't know if they're I
Speaker 2: don't know if they're hard. There might be harmful. I
Speaker 2: was talking to my therapy. I was talking to my therapist.
Speaker 2: He was like, he was like, there might be harmful,
Speaker 2: just in the sense that like, I don't know what
Speaker 2: I'm doing. I just this is just my thoughts as
Speaker 2: a as a individual. If you want my uh.
Speaker 1: That's not what I meant at all. That's not what
Speaker 1: I meant at all. I absolutely want you for sure
Speaker 1: for sure?
Speaker 2: Right No, no, no, no, by the way, I just want sorry, sorry, sorry,
Speaker 2: I'm I'm gathering that not based off anything you said,
Speaker 2: just based off of the fact that you know, I'm
Speaker 2: I'm I'm a lizard guy on a podcast. But well,
Speaker 2: let's talk about this because you said a bunch of
Speaker 2: things that I thought were kind of interesting.
Speaker 5: Is that.
Speaker 2: So you have trouble relating to other people your age
Speaker 2: because of your interests and because you feel like your
Speaker 2: lifestyle is not exactly similar to what is traditionally expected
Speaker 2: of other people around your.
Speaker 1: Age, right, yeah, not at all, like not even close.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I guess let me ask you that when
Speaker 2: you're when you are like meeting people, right, Like, how
Speaker 2: through what means typically are you meeting people?
Speaker 1: Uh, in the last five or six years, I'm just
Speaker 1: not meeting people.
Speaker 2: Do you desire to meet people?
Speaker 1: Yes? Absolutely?
Speaker 2: Okay, great, yeah, so why haven't you been trying to
Speaker 2: do it over the past six years.
Speaker 1: I get in my head that Okay, yeah, I'm excited,
Speaker 1: I'm going to go do this, and then when the
Speaker 1: time comes, I just kind of freeze up and I
Speaker 1: don't do it. I don't go, and so I ended
Speaker 1: up just staying home a lot. And then then you
Speaker 1: just get in the habit of that where you're used to,
Speaker 1: like I'm used to not leaving the house sometimes for
Speaker 1: two weeks because I'll get my groceries delivered Instacart, and
Speaker 1: then I just stick to myself. But the times that
Speaker 1: I have tried to build closer relationships with people, it
Speaker 1: ended up just being a lot more superficial of a
Speaker 1: friendship than what I thought I had. And so like,
Speaker 1: you know, expecting someone to be there for me because
Speaker 1: they say, you know, you're family to me if you
Speaker 1: ever need anything, But then I needed something and they
Speaker 1: weren't there for me. Kind of.
Speaker 2: Like yeah, but no, I will say.
Speaker 1: But when that happened, I just was like it was
Speaker 1: almost like a breakup. Like I sent them a text
Speaker 1: and I said, I'm sorry, I can't be friends with
Speaker 1: you any more, and I explained why, and I never
Speaker 1: heard back from them. I they're my neighbor, so I
Speaker 1: see them occasionally, but that we.
Speaker 3: Just act like.
Speaker 1: We act like we don't see what's going on around us.
Speaker 1: And we were friends for over a year and talked
Speaker 1: every day.
Speaker 2: So so like when you're when you're getting amped up
Speaker 2: to go out leave your house and do some ship,
Speaker 2: what what do you when was the last time you
Speaker 2: were amped up to leave your house and go do
Speaker 2: some ship? And then and like what was it?
Speaker 1: Well, what do you just fine us?
Speaker 3: Amped up?
Speaker 2: Is that not what you?
Speaker 6: Is?
Speaker 2: That not what you?
Speaker 4: Is?
Speaker 2: That not what you said where you were like all right,
Speaker 2: I'm excited to do something and then when the time
Speaker 2: comes at iste I me met for.
Speaker 1: Like looking at like groups first common interests and yeah, okay.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah. So let's so like when you got
Speaker 2: amped up to look at it to go to a thing,
Speaker 2: what was the thing.
Speaker 1: It was? Especially it was a knitting group. Cool, which
Speaker 1: it does sound like something people my age do, but
Speaker 1: it's also a very young thing too, like everyone does it,
Speaker 1: not everyone, but you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Ages, So again, I'll I'm just gonna pull from my
Speaker 2: lived experience with this stuff. And this is something I've
Speaker 2: been kind of on recently. Is that a lot of
Speaker 2: the time I'm trying to come to a realization and
Speaker 2: this is like like an epiphany that I gotta kind
Speaker 2: of reach over and over and over again. And in
Speaker 2: my life, which is that like the the the action
Speaker 2: kind of precedes the motivation, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: Like I've been trying to go out and do like
Speaker 2: I'm trying to go out and do fucking like open
Speaker 2: mics and do shit or whatever, and I'll be like
Speaker 2: about to go do something or like about to try
Speaker 2: to write something or whatever like, and I'll just get
Speaker 2: like super in my head and crazy about it. And
Speaker 2: then yeah, just kind of force is the wrong word
Speaker 2: because it's actually not a force. It's just like a flow.
Speaker 2: Then I just go and do it. I get up
Speaker 2: there and I do the thing, and then after doing it,
Speaker 2: you realize the good The good feeling comes after you
Speaker 2: do it. So there's a little bit of a I
Speaker 2: think a thing where you have to push to just
Speaker 2: fucking like do it first, and then once you're there,
Speaker 2: and you'll actually feel more motivated and you'll feel excited
Speaker 2: once you're fucking there, but you're not gonna but it's like, yeah,
Speaker 2: of course, if you've been in your house for two
Speaker 2: weeks and then you try to go to a thing,
Speaker 2: there's gonna be like resistance. And weirdly, I think if
Speaker 2: you like accept the resistance and just move and push
Speaker 2: past the resistance and you just go, you'll be like, oh,
Speaker 2: this was sick, you know, but you got to get
Speaker 2: past that little bit of It's worth getting past that
Speaker 2: little bit of resistance. I suppose that's just from my
Speaker 2: own personal experiences. Every time I've pushed past a little
Speaker 2: bit of resistant, like I've I've I've taken my little
Speaker 2: gecko out like irl filming equipment somewhere and setting and
Speaker 2: setting it up and been like, what the this is
Speaker 2: not gonna go well? And then I set it up
Speaker 2: and then it goes well, and then I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 2: I just needed to. I'm glad I pushed past the resistance.
Speaker 2: So I mean, I guess that's just how it's kind
Speaker 2: of been working for me lately.
Speaker 1: I think, Yeah, no, I totally understand that that's behavioral activation.
Speaker 2: That's I know. I didn't know there was a goddamn
Speaker 2: word for it. I thought I was just didn't act.
Speaker 1: Say. Behavior activation is actually a very helpful at least
Speaker 1: for me.
Speaker 2: It's very helpful behavior.
Speaker 3: It's a matter of doing it.
Speaker 1: It's a matter of just doing it.
Speaker 2: Is So, you know, what sends me into a goddamn
Speaker 2: existential crisis is the fact that everything that I think
Speaker 2: I'm like discovering about myself is like, there's there's ever
Speaker 2: every every thought I've ever had, there's a fucking textbook
Speaker 2: to describe. There's some textbook. That is a fucking thing
Speaker 2: to describe it anyway.
Speaker 1: I think that's called getting older and learning more about
Speaker 1: things you didn't know about previously. Yeah, yeah, go to the.
Speaker 2: Go to the goddamn knitting group.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm definitely gonna make that happen. But I guess
Speaker 1: the part that I that's bothered me is the fact
Speaker 1: of who I relate to and you know, the things
Speaker 1: that I'm interested in. Aside from that, I mean, I'm
Speaker 1: not going to make that my entire life, but I
Speaker 1: do want support in my life, you know. Yeah, like
Speaker 1: I want to make friends, I want to that kind
Speaker 1: of thing. And so I guess I just I just
Speaker 1: don't know how Like in my head, I'm in my thirties,
Speaker 1: my really thirties, and then when people find out how
Speaker 1: old I am, it's kind of like I guess an
Speaker 1: it I don't know.
Speaker 2: Then then just I don't know, man. I think, just
Speaker 2: keep being, keep being whatever age you are in your head,
Speaker 2: you know, Yeah, what's the what's the point of succumbing
Speaker 2: to other people's kind of idea of what your life is?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 2: I mean also, also I think there's a thing to
Speaker 2: be set again of like you know, if you want
Speaker 2: to make friends and have a community and do all
Speaker 2: this shit, you gotta go. You gotta go first. That's
Speaker 2: what I again, that's what I'm learning in my own life,
Speaker 2: is you gotta go first. Yeah, you gotta be the
Speaker 2: one to You show up at the knitting group, you
Speaker 2: meet a bunch of friends, and then you go, hey,
Speaker 2: I'm actually gonna do another knitting group on fucking Tuesdays,
Speaker 2: and we're gonna do it at my house, and at
Speaker 2: least five other people at the fucking knitting group. We're
Speaker 2: gonna be like, all right, And then all of a
Speaker 2: sudden you got all these knitting friends, and then all
Speaker 2: of a sudden you're like, oh, I feel completely different
Speaker 2: than I did, uh, six weeks ago, because I fucking
Speaker 2: took a shot and didn't wait around for you know,
Speaker 2: life to come find me and I did something small
Speaker 2: and it fucking you know, change changed changed. But I mean,
Speaker 2: that's that's I think. The big trap that you can
Speaker 2: get into is kind of waiting for these things to
Speaker 2: find you without real life. And I'm by the way,
Speaker 2: I just really, uh, none of this is a This
Speaker 2: is all again just me reiterating my own learned experience
Speaker 2: to myself, you know, just yeah, fucking you gotta go first.
Speaker 2: You gotta go first.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean it's pretty much common sense. I mean
Speaker 1: it's like it's like diet and exercise, where you know
Speaker 1: what you need to do, you know what's going to
Speaker 1: require you just got to make yourself do it. And
Speaker 1: that's sometimes the hardest part.
Speaker 2: Yeah, knitting's cool. I wish I had something. I wish
Speaker 2: I had something funny. I feel like I you know
Speaker 2: what I've been thinking about a lot, is uh. I
Speaker 2: think when this podcast is listed as a comedy philosophy
Speaker 2: podcast and I'm realizing, I'm like, it's been I'm a
Speaker 2: little bit better at it. I think when I'm outside,
Speaker 2: I'm not. I don't feel very funny in a room
Speaker 2: alone by myself. But uh, I'll be like, man, I've
Speaker 2: done it's been about seventy minutes. I haven't said one
Speaker 2: fucking funny thing anyway.
Speaker 1: I mean, when you start talking about real life, you know,
Speaker 1: real life, Yeah.
Speaker 3: I don't know, but I mean maybe maybe so maybe you.
Speaker 1: Need to specify the kind of conversations you're looking to have.
Speaker 2: That's the thing, though, is I Yeah. But that's the
Speaker 2: thing is if every I like having those. But if
Speaker 2: every conversation is like I diarrhea on my friend's balls,
Speaker 2: that would be I think I get bored of that.
Speaker 2: I like, I like talking about real life, but not
Speaker 2: all the time. I don't know, I'm crazy anyway. What's
Speaker 2: your name again? No?
Speaker 4: I get it?
Speaker 2: Fuck Fox? Fuck?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 1: Just thank you? This was fun.
Speaker 2: Thanks for joining me on the Gecko Show. And I'll
Speaker 2: see you. I'll see you at the knitting group. Maybe
Speaker 2: I'll show up. Actually I probably won't because I don't
Speaker 2: know how to knit, but I hope you go.
Speaker 1: I think it would be kind of difficult with those
Speaker 1: big fingers anyway.
Speaker 2: So yeah, yeah, yeah, we'll have a good fox go
Speaker 2: to the knitting Go to the knitting club. Okay, okay,
Speaker 2: by Fox By it sounds I don't know, there's so much.
Speaker 2: Sometimes I sometimes I'm like, oh, I gotta you know.
Speaker 2: Sometimes I'm like, oh fuck, I'm just gonna it's all over.
Speaker 2: There's no hope. Uh this is depressing. Sometimes I'm like,
Speaker 2: ah fuck, there's no hope. It's all over. We're done,
Speaker 2: we're finished. And then you get it. But those are
Speaker 2: thought this is the thing. Those are thoughts that you
Speaker 2: have when you're alone in your house in your underwear. Right,
Speaker 2: those are the thoughts you have when you're alone in
Speaker 2: your house in underwear, and then you find their strength
Speaker 2: to all Right, I'm gonna go to fucking knitting club.
Speaker 2: You're at knitting club and you're like, oh, this a
Speaker 2: cross stitch. That's interesting. Oh look, this person made a bunny.
Speaker 2: Maybe if I keep going, I can make a bunny.
Speaker 2: And then all of a sudden, you don't want to
Speaker 2: kill yourself. I was talking to my friend on the phone.
Speaker 2: I'm sure I have said this on the podcast already,
Speaker 2: but I don't care. I'm gonna say it again even
Speaker 2: if I have. I'm talking to my friend on the phone.
Speaker 2: I was telling him about my existential crisis and he
Speaker 2: was like, he said the most genius thing to me,
Speaker 2: made a lot of sense. He was like talking about
Speaker 2: his life and he's like, yeah, me and my friends
Speaker 2: we do trivia every Monday. That's fun. Maybe do something
Speaker 2: like that. And he was like and then he said,
Speaker 2: you can't kill yourself if you have trivia on Mondays.
Speaker 2: And I was like, that's genius. How do I how
Speaker 2: do I medal? What is what is like trivia on Mondays?
Speaker 2: As a metaphor, right, like, how do I create trivia
Speaker 2: on Mondays? In my life? That's what I'm about. So yeah,
Speaker 2: go to the knitting club. Can't kill yourself if you
Speaker 2: got If you got knitting club on Mondays? From Lincoln, Hello,
Speaker 2: how's it going? How's life? What's you up to?
Speaker 5: You know?
Speaker 6: I just came back from a real therapy, so that
Speaker 6: that was pretty sick. I've been going through a breakup,
Speaker 6: which sucks. But you know, bro, we're out here, we're killing,
Speaker 6: we're doing all right.
Speaker 2: What's uh what does it mean to be out there?
Speaker 2: Like you're out like you're back dating, or you're out
Speaker 2: here like you're still alive, you're still doing it.
Speaker 6: You know, it's a weird it's a weird point. I'm
Speaker 6: actually about to graduate college, you know. Uh, so it's
Speaker 6: it's weird, you know, going through a breakup, but you
Speaker 6: know you're only going to see the person for another month,
Speaker 6: and you're only going to see like all of your
Speaker 6: other friends for another month, and then you're starting like
Speaker 6: a totally new chapter. It's pretty crazy stuff. So by
Speaker 6: out there, I mean I think I'm out there in
Speaker 6: a really weird limital space in my life, and you
Speaker 6: know it is what it is, real quick, real quick,
Speaker 6: real quick.
Speaker 1: This is crazy.
Speaker 6: Actually, did you remember do you remember do you remember
Speaker 6: Bonner in twenty twenty two?
Speaker 2: Of course?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 6: Do you remember the on the first day of Bonner?
Speaker 6: Do you remember those like two college kids with the
Speaker 6: college radio station who came up and interviewed you.
Speaker 2: Uh did they interview me while I was smoking a cigarette?
Speaker 6: It was in like that press tent area. You were
Speaker 6: in full costume. It was like middle of the day Thursday.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 6: I don't remember if you were if you were smoking
Speaker 6: a cigarette.
Speaker 3: Anyway, I was one of those. I was one of
Speaker 3: those one of those.
Speaker 6: Uh that like interviewed you and it's crazy like four
Speaker 6: years later, Yeah, no, it was.
Speaker 5: It was.
Speaker 1: It was.
Speaker 6: It was awesome with hell and I gotta be honest
Speaker 6: with you, like I was like debating, like you know,
Speaker 6: like dropping out and like doing some other ship. But
Speaker 6: you know, hey, man, you giving me an interview. You know, Hey,
Speaker 6: that was like, you know, maybe I'm kind of good
Speaker 6: at this, you know, maybe people want to.
Speaker 3: Talk to me.
Speaker 1: And I did.
Speaker 6: I stayed with it. So I was, yeah, I really
Speaker 6: appreciate that.
Speaker 2: But yeah, of course that's that's fucking that's awesome. What
Speaker 2: do you so tell? Yeah, what what's what's going on
Speaker 2: with you?
Speaker 1: Now?
Speaker 2: What what you been up to? Well?
Speaker 6: I stopped doing the radio station because my boss was
Speaker 6: a bit of a tyrant and I didn't get paid.
Speaker 6: And then I got a really cool paid job working
Speaker 6: in video production. So if you need anybody who's on
Speaker 6: their video production team, who's you know, about to graduate,
Speaker 6: still looking for a job, So he plug out there?
Speaker 2: You know, real quick?
Speaker 5: Where did you do on LinkedIn?
Speaker 2: Where'd you go to school? And what'd you Wou'd you study?
Speaker 6: I go to the University of Tennessee, so go volves,
Speaker 6: you know, big school. But yeah, I studied journalism. So
Speaker 6: started out doing radio stuff and now I'm a Now
Speaker 6: I'm doing video. It's crazy, it's fun.
Speaker 2: And then what are you what are you hoping to
Speaker 2: do after you graduate?
Speaker 6: I'm hoping to have a stable job, you know, wife
Speaker 6: and kids, a suburban American dream nothing like I know, nothing,
Speaker 6: nothing too like vanilla. But honestly, like before all like
Speaker 6: the dream job crap. I look, you just want to
Speaker 6: like have a comfortable life.
Speaker 5: That's what.
Speaker 6: That's the dream right there, you know, cause it's crazy.
Speaker 6: It's very uncertain these days. It's no longer a guarantee.
Speaker 6: I mean, it never really was, but you know it is.
Speaker 5: It is what it is.
Speaker 2: That's interesting you say that it never really was what
Speaker 2: never really was a guarantee? Yeah, what does that mean
Speaker 2: to you?
Speaker 6: Well, I mean, you know, I feel like all like
Speaker 6: the boomers out there, you know they you know, they
Speaker 6: they got these like big houses now and like Daytona Beach.
Speaker 6: You know, they're going on boats, getting like vip NASCAR
Speaker 6: passes and shit, you know, and every and everyone thinks that, like,
Speaker 6: you know, like life was easy for them, and to
Speaker 6: a degree was significantly easier to them, but you know, hey,
Speaker 6: we all had to struggle at one point, I guess.
Speaker 6: So I think I think it's a little bit weird,
Speaker 6: you know, always being like, you know, man, it was
Speaker 6: so easy back then, but I'm sure that there was
Speaker 6: some stuff that was hard. You know, I don't have
Speaker 6: to go fight no war, not to like lick boomers
Speaker 6: boots or anything.
Speaker 5: They don't deserve it.
Speaker 6: They're annoying as hell. But you know, the American dream
Speaker 6: was never guaranteed that anybody, And the American dream is
Speaker 6: probably you know, I gotta stop saying that I sound
Speaker 6: like a fucking maga crazy person.
Speaker 2: No, I mean you you say, well, look, I mean
Speaker 2: American dream. All it is in the way that you're
Speaker 2: using it is. It's just a metaphor for like what
Speaker 2: you're talking about, where you're like, look, I want a
Speaker 2: suburban home and a wife and kids and to have
Speaker 2: enough money to support them. And that's really it.
Speaker 6: Yeah, you know, I grew up with a nice family,
Speaker 6: I guess, so it would be nice to be able
Speaker 6: to kind of continue that legacy, you know, have a
Speaker 6: nice little, nice little quaint life. I don't need to
Speaker 6: be like working on movies or anything.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Yeah, that's beautiful. That's beautiful. Well, because yeah, I
Speaker 2: mean a lot of I think a lot of people, yeah,
Speaker 2: graduate from film school with like big dreams. It's it's
Speaker 2: interesting that this thing of like how ambitious to be
Speaker 2: and there's no right or wrong answer. I think society
Speaker 2: kind of compels people to believe that there's a right
Speaker 2: or a wrong answer in both directions too, you know
Speaker 2: what I mean, Like there's sometimes, uh, society pressures you
Speaker 2: to like compare yourself to other people and be like, well,
Speaker 2: you gotta if you have the potential to tell these
Speaker 2: great stories and this great career, and they're like, if
Speaker 2: you don't, you must live up to your potential. And
Speaker 2: you know, it's it's everything in fucking life is a
Speaker 2: balancing act and a double edged sword, because there is
Speaker 2: I think a lot of joy in quote unquote living
Speaker 2: up to your potential and uh, you know, working hard
Speaker 2: on things that you care about and try to build
Speaker 2: something that you care about. But doing that, it's a
Speaker 2: lot of guff and a lot of stress and a
Speaker 2: lot of anxiety. You're gonna like there's if you follow
Speaker 2: that hat, I'm gonna not inherently, but I mean, I
Speaker 2: don't know why I'm I'm just talking from my own
Speaker 2: lived experience. Is like I've tried to follow that path.
Speaker 2: I've tried to follow that path and it there's a
Speaker 2: lot of to it. And then the opposite side is
Speaker 2: like just learn to be happy with whatever your lot
Speaker 2: is and don't worry about this great big pressure of
Speaker 2: living up to your potential whatever the fuck. And again,
Speaker 2: just yeah, from my own lived experience is like, I
Speaker 2: think there's something calming in that, but I also get
Speaker 2: depressed when I'm not feeling like I'm building something or
Speaker 2: doing something that's important to me. But every individual is
Speaker 2: going to have a different answer to these questions, you know.
Speaker 2: It's kind of that's the hard part. But I mean, yeah,
Speaker 2: if you want to have a wife and a kid
Speaker 2: and just make enough money to live, you know, I
Speaker 2: think that's where do you where? You're in Tennessee.
Speaker 6: I'm in Tennessee.
Speaker 5: I'm going to get out though. Here's the thing.
Speaker 6: Knoxville is where like my college is, right, So it's
Speaker 6: like a mid sized city, you know, like like just
Speaker 6: under two hundred thousand people. It has a couple of
Speaker 6: suburbs that has a decent downtown. But it's like it's
Speaker 6: nothing huge. It's a really nice place though, And I
Speaker 6: would come back whenever they changed up their politics, of course,
Speaker 6: because Tennessee is a bit of a hell hole, you know,
Speaker 6: if you have any compassion for any people. But yeah,
Speaker 6: trying to get out, you know, So I don't know
Speaker 6: where I'm gonna be. I've applied to like places all
Speaker 6: over the country.
Speaker 2: Man.
Speaker 6: I've applied for jobs in like Washington and Cincinnati and
Speaker 6: Miami and New York, and La and I've just I'm
Speaker 6: applied to all these places, even like the middle of
Speaker 6: nowhere in Idaho. So I don't know, it's crazy, it's
Speaker 6: it's insane.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 6: I had like stability, right, I had like a girlfriend,
Speaker 6: and now you know, I have like totally in this
Speaker 6: limbo period for a month where I have no idea
Speaker 6: how my life's gonna pan out. Well, like everything to
Speaker 6: be drastically different, drastically different in like forty five days.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's yeah. But I think when you're when
Speaker 2: you're just graduated from college, I mean that's good, right,
Speaker 2: you would rather I think you'd rather things be drastically
Speaker 2: different than to be uh the same forever.
Speaker 6: Yeah, And that's so, And that's that's true. I I'm
Speaker 6: totally cool being in this limbo state that I'd be
Speaker 6: lying if I if I said I was immune to
Speaker 6: the anxiety of it.
Speaker 5: All right, Yeah, it's you know, like, yeah, it's it's
Speaker 5: it's tough.
Speaker 3: It's tough.
Speaker 6: There are a few things that I don't know that
Speaker 6: that I think would be cool. I did ah, I
Speaker 6: did stand up comedy a couple of times, you know,
Speaker 6: you know, because you know all these quirky white boys,
Speaker 6: you know, they want to do stand up comedy.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, I think I did.
Speaker 6: A pretty good job. You know, people people thought it
Speaker 6: was funnest, you know it it'd be cool to like
Speaker 6: move to city like Chicago and like join like an
Speaker 6: improv troop or something and then then I don't know,
Speaker 6: see where that takes me.
Speaker 5: That could be cool.
Speaker 2: I bet you would have a lot of fun doing that.
Speaker 2: It's funny. I recently I did stand up from sixteen
Speaker 2: to twenty two, So I did it for like what
Speaker 2: six years or something like that, and then I kind
Speaker 2: of quit once I started doing the Gecko. Although, like
Speaker 2: I do the live shows that are kind of have
Speaker 2: stand up elements to them, and I've recently gotten back
Speaker 2: into doing stand up at like like just regular stand
Speaker 2: up as myself, just like going to fucking just going
Speaker 2: to open mics around town. Yeah, and uh, it's fun.
Speaker 2: I like it is just telling.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's ridiculous, like telling a telling a joke and
Speaker 6: the like doing well, it's it's a high that really
Speaker 6: can't be matched.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know for sure.
Speaker 6: It's it's it's crazy, but no, it's awesome, man, to
Speaker 6: be honest, I wanted to like it's been a goal
Speaker 6: of mine in the last few years to like call
Speaker 6: in and like, you know, tell you about like that
Speaker 6: Bonner experience, and like, truly how much it meant to
Speaker 6: me because I hadn't interviewed a lot of people before
Speaker 6: then with that radio station, and like, you know, we
Speaker 6: we actually I think I think I just asked you
Speaker 6: for a picture and you're like, well, shit, let me
Speaker 6: do a whole interview, and kind of blew my mind, like,
Speaker 6: oh my god.
Speaker 2: He wanted to talk to me, of course, man, Yeah,
Speaker 2: it was crazy.
Speaker 1: I do have one question.
Speaker 6: Yeah, you mentioned in that interview there was a kid
Speaker 6: who like called you and told you that like he
Speaker 6: was on shrooms. Yeah, and then it's like mom walked
Speaker 6: in and you were like, yeah, do you know your
Speaker 6: sons on shrooms? Did you ever get like closure to that?
Speaker 2: I don't get closure on any of this stuff. Once
Speaker 2: the phone hangs out, Once the phone hangs up, that
Speaker 2: person has gone forever. Pretty much.
Speaker 5: It's incredible.
Speaker 6: Well, I mean, if hey, if I hang don't forget me. Okay,
Speaker 6: that's all I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I'm almost certainly going to forget your name. But okay,
Speaker 2: if you I will remember who you are. If a
Speaker 2: year from now you're like, hey, I'm that guy who
Speaker 2: interviewed you up on Aero and then called you again,
Speaker 2: I'll be like, oh, I remember you, but I I don't.
Speaker 2: I don't remember people's names for some reason.
Speaker 6: So dude, it's all good. No, I just kind of
Speaker 6: just fulfilled a bit of like a bucket list item.
Speaker 6: You know, this is crazy, this this has been like
Speaker 6: this has been my white whale is getting on.
Speaker 2: Here, and like I hope like saying thank you for that,
Speaker 2: I well, thank you very much. I hope your ambition
Speaker 2: goes further than that or not or not, I hope
Speaker 2: you well, I guess I'm so curious, like what kind
Speaker 2: of jobs are you applying for in oh around town, Like.
Speaker 6: Video production, video production specialist jobs, you know, just like
Speaker 6: trying to like work like in house with a company
Speaker 6: and like do their marketing for them, because like a
Speaker 6: lot of companies will like outsource that, but some companies
Speaker 6: have their own like team, and I feel like working
Speaker 6: in house would get me a lot better benefits and
Speaker 6: a lot more stability. I applied for a job and
Speaker 6: I'm Olympia, Washington, being the city of Olympia's video production guy.
Speaker 6: So i'd like live stream their board meetings, which you know,
Speaker 6: it's not crazy work, but you know, it's fun work.
Speaker 6: It's it's fun like just getting to like edit and
Speaker 6: video stuff. It's like I'm playing with boys.
Speaker 2: You know, it's not Look man, look man, go you
Speaker 2: could have a great life in Olympia, Washington. You go,
Speaker 2: you do your fucking stupid job, you do open mics
Speaker 2: at night, you meet some lady, you have kids, you
Speaker 2: go on hikes. Is a great life waiting for you
Speaker 2: and in any of the places that you might end up.
Speaker 2: You know, I I appreciate it. I do believe that.
Speaker 2: I really do believe that.
Speaker 6: I greatly appreciate it. I greatly appreciate it. Well, hey listen,
Speaker 6: I'm not gonna take too much of your time. I
Speaker 6: know there's a lot of people who have like actual
Speaker 6: like stories, but you.
Speaker 2: Know, I just hold on, hold on, hold on, by
Speaker 2: the oh way. I just want you to know something,
Speaker 2: and I want this is just you. This is an
Speaker 2: actual story. Your life is an actual story. I might
Speaker 2: move to Olympia, Washington. It's actually it's funny. It's the
Speaker 2: most actual story because someone could call after this and
Speaker 2: be like, you know, I did ayahuasca thirty five times
Speaker 2: and then uh made out with my dad and we
Speaker 2: moved to Paris like whatever. And it's like, Okay, that's crazy,
Speaker 2: but it's like that's not not everyone does that, you know,
Speaker 2: So this is your story even if it's not even
Speaker 2: it's a common it's a common story, but that doesn't
Speaker 2: make it not an actual one exactly.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I appreciate that, you know. I always listen to
Speaker 6: this show and I'm like, there's see who were calling
Speaker 6: them like, yeah, I was a drug dealer for twenty
Speaker 6: five years. I'm like, oh shit, But that's that's what
Speaker 6: I That's.
Speaker 2: What I like, though, is that is like life is crazy,
Speaker 2: and the sense that it on there's spectrums of it
Speaker 2: of like, oh, this is really crazy over here, and
Speaker 2: then there's a lot in the middle where it's just like, yeah,
Speaker 2: I don't know, everything's fine.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 2: Life is terrifying and joyful and also a lot of
Speaker 2: the times very very boring. So you know, it's kind
Speaker 2: of I guess an amalgam of all that. Anyway, what's your.
Speaker 6: Name again, Lincoln President?
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go.
Speaker 6: You know, I'm rocking in the free world. Later on Lincoln, Yes, sir, alrighty,
Speaker 6: Peace be with you, Gek.
Speaker 2: That was Lincoln. I don't know why I said I
Speaker 2: don't know why. The example I used was make out
Speaker 2: with your dad and move to Peru. Actually, I guess,
Speaker 2: I guess I do know why I said that. I
Speaker 2: said that because that is an unconventional thing to do,
Speaker 2: to make out with your dad and move to Peru.
Speaker 2: So actually I take back my questioning on that. Well,
Speaker 2: that was a nice podcast. That was a nice episode.
Speaker 2: Good phone calls. It's great to hear about people's lives.
Speaker 2: Do I have anything to say to end the podcast.
Speaker 2: I don't know if I do. I don't know if
Speaker 2: I do. I'm glad to keep talking to people. This
Speaker 2: is chill, this is good. I feel like we're on
Speaker 2: bonus time right now just doing this. I'm gonna let
Speaker 2: whoever's listening to this get back to their lives or
Speaker 2: get back or go is somewhere else on the internet
Speaker 2: or their phone or whatever. Thank you guys for listening.
Speaker 2: I'll be back again again next week. I think next
Speaker 2: episode I'm probably gonna end up doing a a live
Speaker 2: one like an IRL one. I like doing those. I
Speaker 2: feel like it bumps my energy up, So I think
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try that for the next episode of this.
Speaker 2: Thank you all for being here to talk to talk.
Speaker 2: I read all the Spotify comments compulsively, So if you
Speaker 2: got something to say in the Spotify comments, maybe I
Speaker 2: shouldn't read the Spotify comments. Maybe my life would be
Speaker 2: better if I just did the podcast and then shut
Speaker 2: my phone off and never looked at the internet. But
Speaker 2: who knows if I'm gonna in the event that I
Speaker 2: in the event that I cow and I cowered out,
Speaker 2: and I don't do that, you can leave comments on
Speaker 2: Spotify or YouTube and I'll try to look at them. Okay,
Speaker 2: thank you for listening to the podcast. Get Blessed, See
Speaker 2: you around the universe.
Speaker 1: Goes on the line taking your phone calls every nine
Speaker 1: KT goes through on his eyes. He just teaching him
Speaker 1: how to be like but he's not really an expert.