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Speaker 1: Hi.

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Speaker 2: Hey, what's your name?

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Speaker 3: My name is Meg. I was the person in chat

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Speaker 3: that's that I've been trying for five years.

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Speaker 2: Oh you've been so how long You've been listening to

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Speaker 2: the show for five years? Yeah, it's crazy. It really

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Speaker 2: is crazy to me that. I mean, I remember being

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Speaker 2: on I started doing this on Reddit like five years ago. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: and I was like, well, every year. Every year, I'm like,

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Speaker 2: all right, this is the year that you know, I

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Speaker 2: gotta go do something else. And then it just keeps

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Speaker 2: people keeping, which is great. It's like amazing. Yeah, well

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Speaker 2: I did, And I don't mean that in the sense

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Speaker 2: of I like, it's it's extremely cool that people are

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Speaker 2: are still here and that we're still doing this.

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Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I think everybody just likes to hear about

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Speaker 3: other people's experiences and stuff, you know.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, Well, speaking of which, what's what what have

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Speaker 2: your experience has been?

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Speaker 1: Like?

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Speaker 3: Oh, dude, I've had a zillion. I have literally, I'm like,

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Speaker 3: I've I've lived in vans and traveled back and forth

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Speaker 3: across the country before. I like, now I live in

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Speaker 3: the very southwest tip of Colorado and I've been here

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Speaker 3: for like seven years, so I finally have settled. I

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Speaker 3: make a fuck ton of art I went through. I've

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Speaker 3: been through some crazy shit too. I went through like

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Speaker 3: a house fire, lost everything, completely rebuilt my life. So

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Speaker 3: I've got a million stories. Currently, I am healing from

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Speaker 3: a breakup.

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Speaker 2: So you've living at the ice at the southern tip

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Speaker 2: of Colorado for seven years.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like right on the border of like Utah,

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Speaker 3: New Mexico, Arizona, at like the four Corners.

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Speaker 2: And Okay, so before that, you were running all around

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Speaker 2: and like around where were you running?

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Speaker 3: So I am from Jersey and I have done quite

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Speaker 3: a few trips. Like I would, I would basically get

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Speaker 3: either invited to an event or just like on a whim,

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Speaker 3: I'd have like a thousand dollars saved it up, and

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Speaker 3: I'd be like, fuck it, you know what, let's quit

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Speaker 3: I've done that a few times. I was like one

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Speaker 3: of my trips, I drove up from Jersey to upstate

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Speaker 3: New York, met this group of kids, befriended them They're

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Speaker 3: from Florida, and then drove down to all the way

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Speaker 3: to Yellowstone National Park that's where we got arrested, and

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Speaker 3: then went to Portland and then went back across the

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Speaker 2: To what were you arrested for in Yellowstone? If you

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Speaker 2: want to, you care to share?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, So it's pretty funny. So we were we went

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Speaker 3: to Yellowstone. We did not pay for a camping site

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Speaker 3: where jackasses. We were like, let's just fucking park here

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Speaker 3: any trouble except for we were allowed. We had beer

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Speaker 3: cans out. We were asleep when this happened. We got

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Speaker 3: Not in the camping spot. You guys have open containers everywhere.

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Speaker 3: And one of the kids that we were traveling with

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Speaker 4: We were like, oh, we're not bad kids.

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Speaker 3: These bikers gave it to us because there's a lot

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Speaker 3: of bikers in Yellowstone and this woman checked my ID

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Speaker 3: and she was like, oh my god, you're.

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Speaker 4: From freaking blah blah, New Jersey and I was like yeah,

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Speaker 4: And then she's like, oh my gosh, I know your

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Speaker 4: and she was like, no, these guys are good kids.

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Speaker 1: They're good kids.

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Speaker 3: We're gonna let you guys go. And they gave us

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Speaker 2: So what was it that made you settle in Colorado?

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Speaker 2: And then how has it been being in the same

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Speaker 3: It's been awesome. What made me stay here? I mean,

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Speaker 3: I live in a town called Durango, and it just

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Speaker 3: is awesome. This town is crazy. It's just got weird

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Speaker 1: Man.

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Speaker 3: Like we have like weird festivals like every two months

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Speaker 2: And you said you're going through a breakup. How long

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Speaker 2: were you with this person for?

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Speaker 3: I was with him for like a year, but we

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Speaker 3: had been friends for like six years before that.

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Speaker 2: Are you guy still friends or was that kind of

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Speaker 2: or was the friendship erosion part of the breakup?

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Speaker 1: It sucks. It kind of was that.

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Speaker 3: I try still to be friends, but this kid has

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Speaker 3: he argues like a high schooler, but like it's just insane.

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Speaker 3: He's got We both had problems with alcohol and I've

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Speaker 3: like I love you, I'm sorry, and then be like

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Speaker 2: And do you live alone?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, unless you count my two kitty cats?

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Speaker 2: How was uh uh? Yeah? How is your like kind

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Speaker 3: Like what you been doing, It's been fucking awesome. If

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Speaker 3: anybody is struggling with mental health, I'm afraid to go

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Speaker 3: because like I've been in therapy and I started taking

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Speaker 3: I am just I don't know, man, I got a

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Speaker 3: different way of thinking. It's crazy. One of my friends

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Speaker 3: doing that, because you're doing fucking awesome. I'm like, thinks.

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Speaker 2: Interesting, Yeah, I'm on a I've kind of made it

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Speaker 2: my you know, uh, my mission for like this year

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Speaker 2: isn't that an SSRI I abilify?

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Speaker 3: No, no, no, it's I forget what it's considered, but

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Speaker 3: it's not an SSRI.

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Speaker 5: I'm on that.

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Speaker 3: And I'm also on wellbutrin that also is not an

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Speaker 3: SSRI I because whenever I took SSRIs, I felt like, sorry,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it's I'm I'm on I don't know if

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Speaker 2: throughout my life, I've found a lot of meeting and

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Speaker 2: I think whatever's going on is something chemical that cannot

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Speaker 2: don't think there's a magic pill that's gonna like make

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Speaker 3: I'm like, try abilify bro because it will, but you.

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Speaker 2: Know, well anyway anyway, but yeah, but well, well let

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Speaker 2: me ask you this though. What's your name again? Meg?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Meg, We're cool to just shoot the shit if you

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Speaker 2: want to keep shooting the shit, But is there anything

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Speaker 3: Honestly, Like, I'm down to shoot the ship because I've

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Speaker 2: Excellence, that's excellence.

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Speaker 3: I can like tell I can give like a little

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Speaker 3: brief synopsis of my life. I've been through a bunch, But.

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Speaker 2: Where what do you well, let me, what do you

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Speaker 2: so you you you make art, what do you do

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Speaker 2: for Uh? Do you do that for work?

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Speaker 3: But I do make some money on the side from it,

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Speaker 3: though I haven't really been selling it lately, but I'm

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Speaker 3: I think I might get into making soap, try to

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Speaker 3: sell some of that. I make sour dough bread. I

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Speaker 3: might try to sell some of that too, because I

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Speaker 3: live in a very hippie dippy town where people want

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Speaker 2: Cool, all right? Is it like a tell me more

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Speaker 2: about the hippie dippy town. What's hippy and dippy about it?

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Speaker 1: Dude?

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Speaker 3: It's fucking crazy. So it's like basically like once, like

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Speaker 3: there's like a stretch of street. We've got a main

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Speaker 3: like we've got our little homestead. Like when everybody was

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Speaker 3: I don't know. Just everybody's got like little homesteads and stuff.

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Speaker 3: It's very rural. There's, like I said, festivals for little

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Speaker 3: insignificant things. Everybody's like, let's celebrate dambelions. They have a

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Speaker 3: may pole for that thing. It's like, I don't know

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Speaker 3: if you've ever seen one, but it's a gigantic pole

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Speaker 2: So what's next for you? Meg and your life journey.

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Speaker 3: I think right now I'm sort of kind of healed

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Speaker 2: Uh yeah, I mean good luck on that, Meg.

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Speaker 2: Do you know, I don't know why. I don't know

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Speaker 3: Man, I get it. I fucking I People constantly think

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Speaker 2: But my cool in my mouth was good luck.

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Speaker 2: Maybe it's maybe it's a family maybe because it's a

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Speaker 2: Oh my god, no good uh good? You hate family guy?

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Speaker 2: Do Why do you hate family guy?

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Speaker 1: Dude? I don't know.

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Speaker 2: Well?

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Speaker 2: Like I grew up there, you hates Okay, Okay, hating

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Speaker 2: Well, good luck, Meg, try not to. I don't know,

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Speaker 2: I don't have I don't I I I wish you

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Speaker 3: Oh no, no, Durango is where I live. But Urray

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Speaker 3: You should visit sometime. Like I've always wanted to see

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Speaker 3: Like I go, I.

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Speaker 2: Go to I go to Denver pretty much every year.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, but Denver's like eight hours. Dude's like,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, cool, I'll consider doing that. I'll consider doing that.

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Speaker 2: I like Santa Fe. I like the have the original.

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Speaker 3: Now we'll be there.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's so much fun. I went there, dude, and

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Speaker 3: I like, did you know that? Like, have you gone

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Speaker 2: I've been to a lot of them, but I've never

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Speaker 3: Dang.

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Speaker 2: Well.

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Speaker 3: They have like the exhibit part of it is like

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Speaker 2: Stop, get out of here, Meg, is the anything else

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Speaker 2: you want to say to the people the computer before

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Speaker 3: Don't be scared of facing your mental health challenges, guys,

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Speaker 2: Have a good night, Meg.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, no, dude, this is you said night haha. Have

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Speaker 2: Oh shit, Sorry, it could be day or night, depending

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Speaker 5: Hello.

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Speaker 2: Hey, what's up. What's your name?

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Speaker 5: I'm Tristan.

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Speaker 2: What's up, Christen? How's life Tristan? What's going on with you?

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Speaker 5: I am currently at work.

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Speaker 2: You're an electrician. I like that. It's a very very

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Speaker 5: I don't know. I mean, honestly, I kind of wanted

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Speaker 2: Okay, good, I'm glad. I'm glad to hear it's helpful

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Speaker 2: Well no, well no, not not that, not that. More

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Speaker 2: I have other things I'd like to talk about besides

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00:22:27,200 --> 00:22:33,840
Speaker 2: just being depressed. I guess I.

439
00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:36,760
Speaker 5: Don't think I'm glad that that's all you. Yeah, that's

440
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:39,320
Speaker 5: all you like talk about. You definitely don't just like

441
00:22:39,359 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 5: talk about that, But I I think just you know,

442
00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:47,719
Speaker 5: using it as like more of a way to not

443
00:22:47,800 --> 00:22:51,120
Speaker 5: only hear about other people's things, but you know, tell

444
00:22:51,200 --> 00:22:53,919
Speaker 5: your your stories, whether they're positive or negative, you know,

445
00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:58,800
Speaker 5: like talking about like your experiences in college, or giving

446
00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:04,320
Speaker 5: advice about like staying at home like uh, you know,

447
00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:07,040
Speaker 5: as long as you can so you can save up money.

448
00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:09,960
Speaker 5: Like those are just like good pieces of advice.

449
00:23:10,040 --> 00:23:11,399
Speaker 2: Like I'm okay, cool.

450
00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:15,520
Speaker 5: And I think that. Yeah, no, I'm just uh, you're

451
00:23:15,520 --> 00:23:18,240
Speaker 5: you're you're the right person to do. This is is

452
00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:19,240
Speaker 5: kind of my compliment.

453
00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:24,399
Speaker 2: Okay, thanks man. That what's your name, Kristin Chris, Tristan

454
00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:29,040
Speaker 2: or Tristan or Kristen Kristin ta with the tea Kristin.

455
00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:31,320
Speaker 2: Thanks Tristan. That actually means a lot to me. I

456
00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:33,480
Speaker 2: really I appreciate that, Okay, And I know I get

457
00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:38,080
Speaker 2: what you're saying, so okay, yeah, I uh, I'm gonna

458
00:23:38,080 --> 00:23:43,200
Speaker 2: start doing that more, trying to use my personal experience

459
00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:46,679
Speaker 2: just you know, lif. I mean, that's what I like

460
00:23:46,720 --> 00:23:49,560
Speaker 2: about the show is other people's like lived experience. So

461
00:23:49,640 --> 00:23:52,320
Speaker 2: I guess I'll keep I'll keep sharing, I think.

462
00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:54,439
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I think that's what we all we

463
00:23:54,520 --> 00:23:58,120
Speaker 5: all kind of like about it too, at least I think, so, you.

464
00:23:58,080 --> 00:24:01,920
Speaker 2: Know, well, what's going on with you, Tristan. How's life.

465
00:24:03,560 --> 00:24:09,119
Speaker 5: Uh, Life's pretty good. I've been in a pretty pretty

466
00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:12,480
Speaker 5: good relationship for the last like year and a couple

467
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:19,960
Speaker 5: of months. I just uh, we just got back from Brazil.

468
00:24:21,359 --> 00:24:28,920
Speaker 2: Oh what went to go ahead? I'll like, before you

469
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,040
Speaker 2: go ahead, I'm gonna I'm gonna wait. I'm gonna wait

470
00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:33,840
Speaker 2: for a nice long silence before I get in there.

471
00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:38,920
Speaker 5: All right, Yeah, we just we just got back from Brazil.

472
00:24:39,080 --> 00:24:42,520
Speaker 5: We went to uh Carnival in in Rio. It was

473
00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:44,119
Speaker 5: freaking it was sick.

474
00:24:45,119 --> 00:24:48,600
Speaker 2: Oh, Carnival is on my uh list? What was uh?

475
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:51,240
Speaker 2: What was up? How was it?

476
00:24:51,240 --> 00:24:54,680
Speaker 5: That's great? Man. Rio is like one of the most

477
00:24:55,080 --> 00:25:00,439
Speaker 5: brazy places. Like it's so beautiful, Like you're on the

478
00:25:00,440 --> 00:25:02,320
Speaker 5: beach and you just like turn around and there's just

479
00:25:02,520 --> 00:25:07,320
Speaker 5: huge mountains everywhere, and and it's just it's so nice.

480
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:12,879
Speaker 5: And it's like the people are also very nice. I

481
00:25:13,119 --> 00:25:16,639
Speaker 5: can't speak Portuguese, but my girlfriend is from Brazil, so

482
00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:19,240
Speaker 5: you kind of just like so you kind of just

483
00:25:19,320 --> 00:25:25,720
Speaker 5: led me around and you know, talking to people, and yeah,

484
00:25:25,760 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 5: it's it's a Brazilian people have a lot of fun,

485
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 5: That's what I'll say.

486
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:37,840
Speaker 2: Cool. Cool, Yeah, Yeah, the fucking rocks. Well, I've heard

487
00:25:37,880 --> 00:25:40,760
Speaker 2: Carnival is like like there's like a million fucking people

488
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:44,879
Speaker 2: in the streets and like a big DJ and like

489
00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:45,680
Speaker 2: all that stuff.

490
00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:52,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean there's literally like parties every everywhere you go.

491
00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:55,480
Speaker 5: There's just like some random party in the street going on,

492
00:25:56,040 --> 00:26:01,480
Speaker 5: and just like a ton of music. There's like parade

493
00:26:01,640 --> 00:26:05,040
Speaker 5: stuff and yeah, it's it's wild.

494
00:26:07,040 --> 00:26:08,680
Speaker 2: And where do you Where are you when you're not in.

495
00:26:08,680 --> 00:26:12,600
Speaker 5: Brazil, I'm in the Boston area.

496
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:19,200
Speaker 2: Pretty good, Pretty good. You sound like your life is good.

497
00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:25,000
Speaker 5: Recently it's been it's been surprisingly very good.

498
00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:27,680
Speaker 2: Surprisingly.

499
00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:31,960
Speaker 5: I don't know. I guess I kind of have that

500
00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:38,760
Speaker 5: like like imposter like all this good stuff shouldn't really

501
00:26:38,800 --> 00:26:39,920
Speaker 5: be happening type of thing.

502
00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:49,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, sure, sure, Why well why has it been good?

503
00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:49,639
Speaker 1: I don't know.

504
00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:55,720
Speaker 5: I'm just happy with my relationship. My job's been pretty

505
00:26:56,280 --> 00:27:01,640
Speaker 5: like not stressful, and the only the only thing stressful

506
00:27:01,720 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 5: is like my car is like kind of a piece

507
00:27:03,240 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 5: of ship, So not really that that bad of a

508
00:27:06,840 --> 00:27:07,439
Speaker 5: problem to have.

509
00:27:08,240 --> 00:27:20,240
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, I I was in a airbnb and the

510
00:27:20,320 --> 00:27:24,719
Speaker 2: laundry machine I was in. Yeah. I was in Japan

511
00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:27,760
Speaker 2: for two months, and the first month I was there,

512
00:27:27,760 --> 00:27:34,359
Speaker 2: I was really really happy. I was very peaceful, and

513
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:40,520
Speaker 2: I was in the airbnb and the laundry machine uh

514
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 2: started leaking. It was one and the the airbnb flooded

515
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:52,359
Speaker 2: with water, and I was cleaning up the water, and

516
00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 2: I was thinking to my I was it was a

517
00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:58,200
Speaker 2: very peaceful time, and I was thinking to myself, I'm

518
00:27:58,359 --> 00:28:06,760
Speaker 2: so fucking happy right now that the current worst problem

519
00:28:06,800 --> 00:28:13,280
Speaker 2: in my life is that my laundry machine is leaking.

520
00:28:14,720 --> 00:28:20,280
Speaker 2: That's uh, that's a real I that that that piece

521
00:28:20,440 --> 00:28:24,359
Speaker 2: that the that that that piece is now. H I

522
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:28,320
Speaker 2: think I left that piece in Japan, but in that moment,

523
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:34,760
Speaker 2: I remember feeling that way. So yeah, it's good.

524
00:28:34,840 --> 00:28:37,119
Speaker 5: It's good to have like that perspective on it, especially

525
00:28:37,119 --> 00:28:42,040
Speaker 5: when like when you do end up having bigger problems,

526
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:43,840
Speaker 5: you kind of like wish back to the times that

527
00:28:43,920 --> 00:28:50,280
Speaker 5: you the only problem your laundry unit was flooding your

528
00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:53,080
Speaker 5: house or yeah, you know your car sucks.

529
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:57,760
Speaker 2: Yeah, but you get I mean, any I think you

530
00:28:57,800 --> 00:29:01,120
Speaker 2: can kind of do that anytime, you know, like whatever

531
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 2: your fucking problem is, you can always be like, well,

532
00:29:03,320 --> 00:29:06,080
Speaker 2: this is a better problem than getting my leg cut off.

533
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:11,840
Speaker 2: That's happening to people in places, you know, so it's all,

534
00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:15,120
Speaker 2: it's all, it's all relative. I guess it's all relative.

535
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:20,880
Speaker 2: What else was I going to say to you? Tristan

536
00:29:22,320 --> 00:29:26,520
Speaker 2: Tristan with a T. Is there anything that you want

537
00:29:26,520 --> 00:29:28,120
Speaker 2: to talk about while we're chilling?

538
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:33,120
Speaker 5: Uh? I don't know, man.

539
00:29:33,120 --> 00:29:33,600
Speaker 3: How's uh?

540
00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:37,000
Speaker 5: How's working out going? How's doing your push ups?

541
00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:43,640
Speaker 2: I've I'm still working out. I'm still doing you know what,

542
00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:45,600
Speaker 2: maybe I'll try to do some push ups after I

543
00:29:45,680 --> 00:29:47,920
Speaker 2: get off the phone with you. I got up to

544
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:50,560
Speaker 2: twenty five. I was able to do twenty five push

545
00:29:50,640 --> 00:29:55,600
Speaker 2: ups in a row. Where is my award? I thought

546
00:29:55,640 --> 00:30:00,400
Speaker 2: I would get a trophy or a or a agnet

547
00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:02,920
Speaker 2: or something. Still doesn't come.

548
00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:07,120
Speaker 5: It's it's uh, well, there was a point where you

549
00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:09,600
Speaker 5: thought that you couldn't do twenty five push ups?

550
00:30:09,680 --> 00:30:17,080
Speaker 2: And push ups? Yeah, yeah, I'm trying to that's your reward. Yeah. Yeah,

551
00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:19,160
Speaker 2: I'm trying to get back to the weight that I

552
00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:24,560
Speaker 2: was before I started being a gecko. It's fun, Yeah,

553
00:30:24,600 --> 00:30:31,800
Speaker 2: it's uh. Every day feels very long to me. So

554
00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 2: if I haven't gone to the gym in a while,

555
00:30:34,040 --> 00:30:35,640
Speaker 2: if it'll feel like I haven't done it in like

556
00:30:35,680 --> 00:30:40,000
Speaker 2: a month. But the gym's great. I was. Yeah, about

557
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:42,840
Speaker 2: a year ago, I was like lifting weights, and I

558
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:46,600
Speaker 2: was like, I should never not do this. This is great.

559
00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:52,160
Speaker 5: I wish that I had that that mindset about lifting weights.

560
00:30:52,320 --> 00:30:54,200
Speaker 2: Well, I you know, I mean that mindset only came.

561
00:30:54,240 --> 00:30:56,880
Speaker 2: The mindset came while I was doing it. I don't.

562
00:30:56,920 --> 00:30:59,400
Speaker 2: I didn't have I wasn't like on the couch, like

563
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 2: I should never or not left. Well, when I'm on

564
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:05,560
Speaker 2: the couch, I was like, I should never leave this possession.

565
00:31:06,520 --> 00:31:14,400
Speaker 2: You know, I bet you. How'd you meet your Brazilian girlfriend?

566
00:31:16,000 --> 00:31:16,880
Speaker 5: Oh? Tinder?

567
00:31:17,600 --> 00:31:21,520
Speaker 2: Tinder in Tinder in Boston?

568
00:31:22,880 --> 00:31:25,960
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah, she she moved up here a little

569
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:31,320
Speaker 5: bit before we met, just by herself, which is crazy

570
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:31,640
Speaker 5: to do.

571
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:36,480
Speaker 2: That's cool, but what she did do people? Still, I

572
00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:40,920
Speaker 2: feel like Tinder was popular when I was like in college.

573
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:43,280
Speaker 2: I feel like now everyone like the growing up version

574
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,880
Speaker 2: is like hinge or something like that.

575
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:51,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I don't know. I wasn't. I don't

576
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,800
Speaker 5: think I was necessarily trying to get into relationship being

577
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:59,000
Speaker 5: on Tinder though, but it ended up happening that way.

578
00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:00,960
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

579
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:06,800
Speaker 5: But yeah, I mean, sorry, go ahead.

580
00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:09,040
Speaker 2: No, I was just mumbling I have nothing to say.

581
00:32:11,640 --> 00:32:12,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, I guess.

582
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:14,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, there is.

583
00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:18,400
Speaker 5: The more like college age thing to do. I guess.

584
00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 5: I mean, I'm I'm twenty two, so I'm not I'm

585
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:22,560
Speaker 5: not out of that phase technically.

586
00:32:23,480 --> 00:32:27,920
Speaker 2: Oh sheet m, that's cool. What are you going to

587
00:32:27,960 --> 00:32:29,240
Speaker 2: do with the rest of your life?

588
00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:39,680
Speaker 5: I don't know. Try to make enough money to have

589
00:32:39,760 --> 00:32:44,920
Speaker 5: a house? Maybe pretty good. I don't know if I'll

590
00:32:44,920 --> 00:32:46,720
Speaker 5: be able to do it, but we'll try.

591
00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:49,640
Speaker 2: What do you What are you planning to do to

592
00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:50,440
Speaker 2: make money.

593
00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:56,240
Speaker 5: Of my job? To be an electrician?

594
00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:58,880
Speaker 2: I guess? Oh, yes, sorry, I forgot. You said you

595
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:00,640
Speaker 2: were an electrician. That's a very real job.

596
00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's real. I hope that I can make more

597
00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:07,520
Speaker 5: more money.

598
00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:11,640
Speaker 2: Doing it, would you? But did you go to trade school?

599
00:33:12,840 --> 00:33:13,040
Speaker 3: Yeah?

600
00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:15,680
Speaker 5: I did, like night school, Like I started out of

601
00:33:15,760 --> 00:33:19,880
Speaker 5: high school when I was eighteen, and did like work

602
00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:22,360
Speaker 5: during the week and then night school like twice a

603
00:33:22,400 --> 00:33:25,840
Speaker 5: week for four years.

604
00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 2: I have a lot of respect for you.

605
00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:31,120
Speaker 5: Oh, thank you?

606
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:36,120
Speaker 2: I really do you have? You went to you learned

607
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:39,960
Speaker 2: a skill? You have a you have a You are

608
00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 2: deeply sincerely contributing to society with a skill that you

609
00:33:47,120 --> 00:33:49,400
Speaker 2: put in the time and effort to learn.

610
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, that that is what happened. That's pretty crazy to

611
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:57,640
Speaker 5: hear it.

612
00:33:57,800 --> 00:34:01,120
Speaker 2: But like that, Yeah, I mean that's how you should

613
00:34:01,160 --> 00:34:05,160
Speaker 2: think of it. You learned to. I mean, you know,

614
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:08,000
Speaker 2: you know, you don't work, you don't like, uh, you

615
00:34:08,040 --> 00:34:12,600
Speaker 2: don't like write copy for the Axe Body Spray Instagram.

616
00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:14,359
Speaker 2: You know what I mean? You like, know how to

617
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:16,000
Speaker 2: do something?

618
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:23,400
Speaker 5: Yeah? Yeah, I mean I wire a bunch of different stuff,

619
00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:25,000
Speaker 5: get people's lights working.

620
00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:30,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, they need that ship. Yeah, man, you know, when

621
00:34:30,560 --> 00:34:34,080
Speaker 2: the apocalypse happens, whoever runs the ex body Spray Instagram

622
00:34:34,160 --> 00:34:38,239
Speaker 2: is fucked. They're not getting on the rocket to the

623
00:34:38,280 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 2: moon when everything goes astray. You I don't know if

624
00:34:42,920 --> 00:34:44,440
Speaker 2: any of us are. I don't know if really any

625
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:46,000
Speaker 2: of us are getting on the rocket. We're going to

626
00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:47,960
Speaker 2: get us I don't. I don't think we're getting on

627
00:34:48,000 --> 00:34:49,279
Speaker 2: the rock. But I think you have a You have

628
00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 2: a you have a you have a decent shot at

629
00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:55,520
Speaker 2: getting on I don't know how many rockets they'll be,

630
00:34:55,560 --> 00:34:56,719
Speaker 2: but you have at least you have at least a

631
00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 2: better shot at getting on the rocket than the Yeah,

632
00:35:00,239 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 2: like someone who you know or like me or you

633
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:12,520
Speaker 2: know some someone who uh yeah it does does the

634
00:35:12,640 --> 00:35:15,920
Speaker 2: X bodies The X body spray thing. Yeah. Yeah, so

635
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:19,600
Speaker 2: that's good. You're you're yeah, I mean real, You're real,

636
00:35:19,760 --> 00:35:22,399
Speaker 2: You're very you should be proud of who you are.

637
00:35:22,800 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 5: I mean that, thanks man, I appreciate that. My uh

638
00:35:31,960 --> 00:35:36,080
Speaker 5: it did It definitely sucks sometimes doing this this stuff.

639
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:44,400
Speaker 5: The A lot of the guys in this are like

640
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:47,200
Speaker 5: the worst people you'll ever meet in your entire life,

641
00:35:47,440 --> 00:35:54,120
Speaker 5: like so miserable and like just like trying to die faster,

642
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:58,359
Speaker 5: like drinking as much as possible and smoking like ten

643
00:35:58,440 --> 00:35:59,399
Speaker 5: cigarettes at a time.

644
00:36:00,320 --> 00:36:06,600
Speaker 2: I don't know, you know, I I guess yeah, I

645
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:10,040
Speaker 2: can see how that happens. I can absolutely see how

646
00:36:10,080 --> 00:36:13,759
Speaker 2: that happens. I hope that you. I meant everything I

647
00:36:13,800 --> 00:36:17,080
Speaker 2: said about how you should be proud of what you do.

648
00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:21,960
Speaker 2: It's a hard thing, but I hope you have a

649
00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:30,600
Speaker 2: plan for how you don't end up being that wanting

650
00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:35,839
Speaker 2: to die, like what like some form of I guess, uh,

651
00:36:36,120 --> 00:36:39,200
Speaker 2: diversification of life stock. I don't know how you do it?

652
00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:41,920
Speaker 2: How do you? I mean? That's what I'm on right now,

653
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,120
Speaker 2: is I'm like, okay, like you, like I assume you

654
00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:46,799
Speaker 2: work with a lot of people who are, like, you know,

655
00:36:46,840 --> 00:36:53,239
Speaker 2: older and want to die. Sooner, you know. Yeah, okay,

656
00:36:53,320 --> 00:36:54,640
Speaker 2: so but not so much anymore.

657
00:36:56,200 --> 00:36:58,960
Speaker 5: No, I'm with I just worked for one guy, so

658
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:01,920
Speaker 5: me and him, and I'm kind of like I'm at

659
00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 5: work right now.

660
00:37:02,600 --> 00:37:02,880
Speaker 6: I'm not.

661
00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:07,960
Speaker 5: I'm on my lunch break, but I'm mostly by myself lately,

662
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:14,359
Speaker 5: so I'm kind of just like doing my own thing

663
00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:15,840
Speaker 5: so I don't have to deal with those people anymore.

664
00:37:15,880 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 5: But the first like two years of being in this,

665
00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:20,680
Speaker 5: all I saw was like guys who were like, oh,

666
00:37:20,680 --> 00:37:23,239
Speaker 5: I don't do this shit until you're forty years old.

667
00:37:23,280 --> 00:37:25,839
Speaker 5: You're gonna fucking want to die, you know, that type

668
00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:30,600
Speaker 5: of attitude like all the time. It's like, yeah, oh

669
00:37:30,680 --> 00:37:35,000
Speaker 5: my god. So I think I mean, the plan at

670
00:37:35,080 --> 00:37:39,359
Speaker 5: least with you know, either the company I'm at or

671
00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:43,440
Speaker 5: some other company is like try to get into like

672
00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:47,120
Speaker 5: more like project management. So I'm not in the field

673
00:37:47,360 --> 00:37:49,240
Speaker 5: and like destroying my body.

674
00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:53,560
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, that's good. Yeah. No, I mean it's funny.

675
00:37:53,600 --> 00:37:57,600
Speaker 2: I understand why you'd why it was miserable to be

676
00:37:57,680 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 2: around those people, but I it don't. It sounds like

677
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 2: it was like good to have to be around those people.

678
00:38:04,120 --> 00:38:09,120
Speaker 5: Actually, yeah, I mean it's definitely. It was definitely like

679
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:12,440
Speaker 5: a learning like what not to do right.

680
00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:15,160
Speaker 2: Like no, if like a dude, if like an old

681
00:38:15,239 --> 00:38:19,319
Speaker 2: guy says like, don't fucking do this, I think it's

682
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 2: probably makes sense to listen to them.

683
00:38:23,400 --> 00:38:28,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, probably like an old miserable guy.

684
00:38:28,800 --> 00:38:32,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm like I want to do Yeah. I mean

685
00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:36,600
Speaker 2: I'm twenty seven, you're twenty two.

686
00:38:38,040 --> 00:38:38,480
Speaker 5: Yeah.

687
00:38:38,800 --> 00:38:44,880
Speaker 2: I'm always thinking about like, uh, I feel I feel

688
00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:46,960
Speaker 2: older for the I know twenty seven is young. I

689
00:38:47,000 --> 00:38:50,279
Speaker 2: feel I feel like older for the first time in

690
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:54,520
Speaker 2: a in a minute, and I'm like, Okay, I've I

691
00:38:54,560 --> 00:38:56,680
Speaker 2: never thought. I didn't think I would be twenty seven.

692
00:38:56,880 --> 00:39:00,680
Speaker 2: I thought I would be. I thought I would just

693
00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:03,520
Speaker 2: I thought I would just explode, not that I would

694
00:39:03,520 --> 00:39:05,360
Speaker 2: like not like oh I'm not gonna make it or

695
00:39:05,360 --> 00:39:08,200
Speaker 2: all I'm gonna like what. I just thought like I didn't.

696
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:12,000
Speaker 2: I kind of picked a certain time period where I

697
00:39:12,080 --> 00:39:15,640
Speaker 2: just didn't believe the time existed beyond that. And then

698
00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:19,440
Speaker 2: now the time has existed beyond that, and I'm like, Okay,

699
00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:22,960
Speaker 2: I now have confirmation that that will continue to happen.

700
00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:33,759
Speaker 2: What can I do to uh best respond to the

701
00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:38,840
Speaker 2: inevitable notion that time will continue. We're in good spots

702
00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:42,320
Speaker 2: to do it, I think, Yeah, it's a good I

703
00:39:42,360 --> 00:39:44,319
Speaker 2: think I have to be aware of that the time

704
00:39:44,360 --> 00:39:48,560
Speaker 2: will actually continue. And how do you brace yourself for

705
00:39:48,600 --> 00:39:51,040
Speaker 2: the continuation of time. I'm probably giving a ton of

706
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:54,360
Speaker 2: people a heart attack by talking about all this, but

707
00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:55,000
Speaker 2: what's been on?

708
00:39:55,360 --> 00:40:01,720
Speaker 5: Maybe? Yeah? Time, time is fucking always going and it's

709
00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:08,040
Speaker 5: crazy because I mean I I remember being in high

710
00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:11,480
Speaker 5: school like it was fucking yesterday, and now I'm an

711
00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:15,319
Speaker 5: adult and I live in an apartment that I pay

712
00:40:15,360 --> 00:40:21,000
Speaker 5: rent for, which is weird.

713
00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:22,239
Speaker 3: Mm.

714
00:40:22,600 --> 00:40:26,560
Speaker 2: Do you know how to can you can you fix

715
00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:28,040
Speaker 2: an Xbox if it's broken?

716
00:40:30,239 --> 00:40:30,279
Speaker 1: No?

717
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:38,800
Speaker 5: I only know yeah, yeah, maybe. I mean I'm not like,

718
00:40:39,040 --> 00:40:43,400
Speaker 5: uh like a like a tech like building computers, electrician.

719
00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:47,160
Speaker 5: I'm like, uh, you know, give you an outlet in

720
00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:51,000
Speaker 5: the wall or like put up a light or something

721
00:40:51,160 --> 00:40:52,520
Speaker 5: type of electrician.

722
00:40:54,200 --> 00:40:57,880
Speaker 2: Tristan is before we go. Is there any thing else

723
00:40:58,520 --> 00:41:04,480
Speaker 2: that I can you to make this conversation or to

724
00:41:04,560 --> 00:41:09,040
Speaker 2: make this phone call a better experience for you?

725
00:41:09,080 --> 00:41:11,439
Speaker 5: No, this is this has been pretty great lyle your

726
00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:12,439
Speaker 5: your best dude.

727
00:41:12,560 --> 00:41:15,479
Speaker 2: Oh, thank you Christ, Thank you Christ. I'm trying. I'm

728
00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:21,560
Speaker 2: trying my absolute hardest. Thank you for for being Thank

729
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:25,480
Speaker 2: you for being alive. Thank you for your compliments, thank

730
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:28,320
Speaker 2: you for your for electricity.

731
00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:31,200
Speaker 5: You're You're welcome.

732
00:41:33,239 --> 00:41:34,240
Speaker 3: All right, I'll.

733
00:41:34,080 --> 00:41:37,399
Speaker 2: See you around the universe. Tristan, good luck, all right,

734
00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:43,120
Speaker 2: Thanks Lyle. Okay, bye man, bye bye. Hi. What's up?

735
00:41:43,160 --> 00:41:43,839
Speaker 1: Her name?

736
00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:44,320
Speaker 2: Hello?

737
00:41:44,520 --> 00:41:44,719
Speaker 1: Hi?

738
00:41:45,880 --> 00:41:47,000
Speaker 2: Hey, my name is?

739
00:41:47,560 --> 00:41:50,000
Speaker 1: My name is going to be sucks today.

740
00:41:50,239 --> 00:41:52,640
Speaker 5: Fox suck.

741
00:41:54,440 --> 00:41:55,320
Speaker 2: Fu fuck.

742
00:41:56,760 --> 00:42:02,480
Speaker 1: No s O see okay fuck fuck?

743
00:42:02,719 --> 00:42:04,640
Speaker 2: Okay, Well what's up? Fuck? How you doing?

744
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:12,920
Speaker 1: Okay, you didn't hear me anyway, I'm I'm surprised, I

745
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:13,359
Speaker 1: don't know.

746
00:42:15,600 --> 00:42:15,799
Speaker 6: Hi.

747
00:42:16,560 --> 00:42:22,239
Speaker 1: So I'm feeling I'm feeling really anxious because I really

748
00:42:22,239 --> 00:42:24,040
Speaker 1: actually wasn't expecting to get through.

749
00:42:25,800 --> 00:42:30,600
Speaker 2: This is uh well, I don't really know what name

750
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:32,000
Speaker 2: you were trying to give me, So I'm gonna call

751
00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 2: you Fox. This this is easily gonna be one of

752
00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:46,400
Speaker 2: the lowest steaks things that you will do with your life.

753
00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:50,839
Speaker 2: So there's no reason to be anxious. We'll just chit chat,

754
00:42:50,920 --> 00:42:55,200
Speaker 2: we'll just talk. You know, there's no yeah, there's nothing,

755
00:42:55,239 --> 00:42:58,719
Speaker 2: there's nothing to be uh to be worried about. There's

756
00:42:58,760 --> 00:43:01,400
Speaker 2: no way to uh fail.

757
00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:06,920
Speaker 1: No, I know, I know. It's just you don't have

758
00:43:07,040 --> 00:43:09,319
Speaker 1: very many opportunities to do something.

759
00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 2: Like this, so, well, what's up Fox? What's going on

760
00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:13,239
Speaker 2: with you?

761
00:43:14,640 --> 00:43:16,040
Speaker 1: I'm gon take a drink really quick?

762
00:43:16,440 --> 00:43:17,000
Speaker 2: Take a drink?

763
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:18,040
Speaker 1: Uh?

764
00:43:18,080 --> 00:43:19,560
Speaker 2: Do you mean like you're are you taking a shot

765
00:43:19,719 --> 00:43:20,800
Speaker 2: or like you're having some water?

766
00:43:22,080 --> 00:43:22,560
Speaker 1: Some water?

767
00:43:23,320 --> 00:43:23,600
Speaker 2: Cool?

768
00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:30,360
Speaker 1: Just water? Yeah, because my mouth is filling dry. Okay. Well,

769
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:37,960
Speaker 1: so I'm old, like I'm I'm in my forties okay,

770
00:43:39,120 --> 00:43:43,880
Speaker 1: and I just found out last year that I'm also sick.

771
00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:45,600
Speaker 5: Okay, which.

772
00:43:47,640 --> 00:43:51,440
Speaker 1: Makes sense, It makes a lot of sense. But I

773
00:43:51,440 --> 00:43:56,160
Speaker 1: get the things that I'm interested in, like stuff like

774
00:43:56,360 --> 00:44:00,919
Speaker 1: watching twitch and you know, trying just stay away from

775
00:44:00,920 --> 00:44:04,840
Speaker 1: Instagram as much as possible for mental health reasons, but

776
00:44:04,840 --> 00:44:07,040
Speaker 1: that also kind of keeping up with what's going on,

777
00:44:07,320 --> 00:44:13,279
Speaker 1: you know. And I like music that young people like,

778
00:44:13,440 --> 00:44:17,880
Speaker 1: and I am single, I don't have kids, and I

779
00:44:17,920 --> 00:44:20,279
Speaker 1: don't have any desire to have kids, and so I

780
00:44:20,280 --> 00:44:24,480
Speaker 1: don't know, I just feel weird, like I don't know

781
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:30,319
Speaker 1: how to relate to people my age. And then if

782
00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:33,680
Speaker 1: I am like relating to someone younger, once they find

783
00:44:33,719 --> 00:44:36,399
Speaker 1: out how old I am, they're kind of like kind

784
00:44:36,400 --> 00:44:39,120
Speaker 1: of like you could be my mom or you know,

785
00:44:39,280 --> 00:44:40,080
Speaker 1: something like that.

786
00:44:40,239 --> 00:44:45,040
Speaker 2: So interesting. I have a lot of thoughts about this.

787
00:44:45,160 --> 00:44:46,719
Speaker 2: First of all I actually want to say, is this

788
00:44:46,719 --> 00:44:49,800
Speaker 2: something you've ever talked to an actual therapist about?

789
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:52,799
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah yeah?

790
00:44:52,840 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 2: What what do what do people say? What do people say?

791
00:44:58,239 --> 00:45:01,319
Speaker 1: Well, the problem is that all of these things I

792
00:45:01,360 --> 00:45:05,640
Speaker 1: told you about seeming younger and having interests like that,

793
00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:10,279
Speaker 1: that is a big sign of autism and women who

794
00:45:10,280 --> 00:45:12,759
Speaker 1: got missed as kids, you know.

795
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:15,040
Speaker 5: And so.

796
00:45:16,520 --> 00:45:18,920
Speaker 1: The problem is that there's not a lot of knowledge

797
00:45:18,960 --> 00:45:23,719
Speaker 1: even in man therapists about it about adults because you know,

798
00:45:25,239 --> 00:45:29,320
Speaker 1: no one ever really paid attention to adults that didn't

799
00:45:29,320 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 1: fit these spilled out versions of what autisms should look like.

800
00:45:35,239 --> 00:45:38,200
Speaker 1: So this is you probably have heard this is happening

801
00:45:38,200 --> 00:45:44,600
Speaker 1: a lot to people, older people getting diagnosed, but yeah,

802
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:50,120
Speaker 1: they just don't know, and it actually ended up being harmful.

803
00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:55,080
Speaker 1: I this is actually the first time that I'm not

804
00:45:55,160 --> 00:45:58,160
Speaker 1: in therapy for many many years, what years and years

805
00:45:58,160 --> 00:46:02,000
Speaker 1: and years, and I feel better than I ever have

806
00:46:03,040 --> 00:46:08,680
Speaker 1: so and yeah, and it's because because like normal types

807
00:46:08,719 --> 00:46:13,520
Speaker 1: of therapy can be harmful for people with autism, because

808
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:17,960
Speaker 1: it's basically like even cognitive behavioral therapy, a lot of

809
00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:25,759
Speaker 1: times we like I'm trying to explain it, but like

810
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 1: our brain works a certain way, and and those type

811
00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:33,440
Speaker 1: of therapies. If we're not like completely clicking with it

812
00:46:33,520 --> 00:46:37,120
Speaker 1: and it working for us, we get more of the

813
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:41,879
Speaker 1: come off as not doing it, you know, or not

814
00:46:41,920 --> 00:46:45,280
Speaker 1: not actually doing the work or whatever. But really inside

815
00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:47,440
Speaker 1: we feel like you're telling me the way my brain

816
00:46:47,480 --> 00:46:52,120
Speaker 1: works is wrong and I don't have control of that.

817
00:46:52,400 --> 00:46:53,280
Speaker 1: Does that make sense?

818
00:46:56,000 --> 00:47:00,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, a little bit, A little bit. Well, I so,

819
00:47:00,760 --> 00:47:04,480
Speaker 2: I mean, listen, here's the thing I actually uh, I mean, funk, man,

820
00:47:04,520 --> 00:47:07,319
Speaker 2: I have I have if you want to dive into it,

821
00:47:08,840 --> 00:47:11,640
Speaker 2: I have like thoughts. I don't know if they're I

822
00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:13,920
Speaker 2: don't know if they're hard. There might be harmful. I

823
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:16,000
Speaker 2: was talking to my therapy. I was talking to my therapist.

824
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:19,720
Speaker 2: He was like, he was like, there might be harmful,

825
00:47:19,760 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 2: just in the sense that like, I don't know what

826
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:23,040
Speaker 2: I'm doing. I just this is just my thoughts as

827
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:26,960
Speaker 2: a as a individual. If you want my uh.

828
00:47:28,040 --> 00:47:30,080
Speaker 1: That's not what I meant at all. That's not what

829
00:47:30,120 --> 00:47:33,120
Speaker 1: I meant at all. I absolutely want you for sure

830
00:47:33,280 --> 00:47:33,600
Speaker 1: for sure?

831
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:39,000
Speaker 2: Right No, no, no, no, by the way, I just want sorry, sorry, sorry,

832
00:47:38,719 --> 00:47:42,320
Speaker 2: I'm I'm gathering that not based off anything you said,

833
00:47:42,360 --> 00:47:45,680
Speaker 2: just based off of the fact that you know, I'm

834
00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:50,400
Speaker 2: I'm I'm a lizard guy on a podcast. But well,

835
00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:52,200
Speaker 2: let's talk about this because you said a bunch of

836
00:47:52,280 --> 00:47:53,600
Speaker 2: things that I thought were kind of interesting.

837
00:47:53,680 --> 00:47:54,080
Speaker 5: Is that.

838
00:47:56,080 --> 00:47:59,200
Speaker 2: So you have trouble relating to other people your age

839
00:47:59,280 --> 00:48:02,319
Speaker 2: because of your interests and because you feel like your

840
00:48:02,400 --> 00:48:07,760
Speaker 2: lifestyle is not exactly similar to what is traditionally expected

841
00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:08,879
Speaker 2: of other people around your.

842
00:48:08,760 --> 00:48:12,400
Speaker 1: Age, right, yeah, not at all, like not even close.

843
00:48:12,680 --> 00:48:15,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I guess let me ask you that when

844
00:48:15,160 --> 00:48:19,120
Speaker 2: you're when you are like meeting people, right, Like, how

845
00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:22,800
Speaker 2: through what means typically are you meeting people?

846
00:48:24,680 --> 00:48:29,080
Speaker 1: Uh, in the last five or six years, I'm just

847
00:48:29,360 --> 00:48:30,800
Speaker 1: not meeting people.

848
00:48:31,960 --> 00:48:34,640
Speaker 2: Do you desire to meet people?

849
00:48:35,160 --> 00:48:36,440
Speaker 1: Yes? Absolutely?

850
00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:44,000
Speaker 2: Okay, great, yeah, so why haven't you been trying to

851
00:48:44,040 --> 00:48:48,600
Speaker 2: do it over the past six years.

852
00:48:48,880 --> 00:48:52,120
Speaker 1: I get in my head that Okay, yeah, I'm excited,

853
00:48:52,160 --> 00:48:54,640
Speaker 1: I'm going to go do this, and then when the

854
00:48:54,719 --> 00:48:56,880
Speaker 1: time comes, I just kind of freeze up and I

855
00:48:56,880 --> 00:49:02,200
Speaker 1: don't do it. I don't go, and so I ended

856
00:49:02,239 --> 00:49:05,440
Speaker 1: up just staying home a lot. And then then you

857
00:49:05,480 --> 00:49:07,600
Speaker 1: just get in the habit of that where you're used to,

858
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:10,480
Speaker 1: like I'm used to not leaving the house sometimes for

859
00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:15,200
Speaker 1: two weeks because I'll get my groceries delivered Instacart, and

860
00:49:15,239 --> 00:49:20,120
Speaker 1: then I just stick to myself. But the times that

861
00:49:20,160 --> 00:49:25,680
Speaker 1: I have tried to build closer relationships with people, it

862
00:49:25,800 --> 00:49:29,000
Speaker 1: ended up just being a lot more superficial of a

863
00:49:29,040 --> 00:49:33,480
Speaker 1: friendship than what I thought I had. And so like,

864
00:49:34,000 --> 00:49:36,960
Speaker 1: you know, expecting someone to be there for me because

865
00:49:36,960 --> 00:49:40,560
Speaker 1: they say, you know, you're family to me if you

866
00:49:40,640 --> 00:49:45,839
Speaker 1: ever need anything, But then I needed something and they

867
00:49:45,880 --> 00:49:47,040
Speaker 1: weren't there for me. Kind of.

868
00:49:49,080 --> 00:49:51,960
Speaker 2: Like yeah, but no, I will say.

869
00:49:52,040 --> 00:49:55,080
Speaker 1: But when that happened, I just was like it was

870
00:49:55,120 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: almost like a breakup. Like I sent them a text

871
00:49:57,200 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 1: and I said, I'm sorry, I can't be friends with

872
00:49:59,640 --> 00:50:02,960
Speaker 1: you any more, and I explained why, and I never

873
00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:07,160
Speaker 1: heard back from them. I they're my neighbor, so I

874
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:09,920
Speaker 1: see them occasionally, but that we.

875
00:50:09,960 --> 00:50:10,719
Speaker 3: Just act like.

876
00:50:12,640 --> 00:50:15,480
Speaker 1: We act like we don't see what's going on around us.

877
00:50:15,560 --> 00:50:18,080
Speaker 1: And we were friends for over a year and talked

878
00:50:18,160 --> 00:50:18,760
Speaker 1: every day.

879
00:50:19,120 --> 00:50:23,399
Speaker 2: So so like when you're when you're getting amped up

880
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:26,839
Speaker 2: to go out leave your house and do some ship,

881
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:31,040
Speaker 2: what what do you when was the last time you

882
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:32,799
Speaker 2: were amped up to leave your house and go do

883
00:50:32,880 --> 00:50:34,640
Speaker 2: some ship? And then and like what was it?

884
00:50:35,920 --> 00:50:37,359
Speaker 1: Well, what do you just fine us?

885
00:50:37,400 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 3: Amped up?

886
00:50:38,960 --> 00:50:39,520
Speaker 2: Is that not what you?

887
00:50:39,640 --> 00:50:39,719
Speaker 6: Is?

888
00:50:39,719 --> 00:50:40,120
Speaker 2: That not what you?

889
00:50:40,320 --> 00:50:40,360
Speaker 4: Is?

890
00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:42,080
Speaker 2: That not what you said where you were like all right,

891
00:50:42,080 --> 00:50:43,759
Speaker 2: I'm excited to do something and then when the time

892
00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:46,600
Speaker 2: comes at iste I me met for.

893
00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:51,960
Speaker 1: Like looking at like groups first common interests and yeah, okay.

894
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:54,319
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah. So let's so like when you got

895
00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:55,920
Speaker 2: amped up to look at it to go to a thing,

896
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:56,880
Speaker 2: what was the thing.

897
00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:09,160
Speaker 1: It was? Especially it was a knitting group. Cool, which

898
00:51:09,160 --> 00:51:11,480
Speaker 1: it does sound like something people my age do, but

899
00:51:11,520 --> 00:51:14,279
Speaker 1: it's also a very young thing too, like everyone does it,

900
00:51:14,400 --> 00:51:15,759
Speaker 1: not everyone, but you know what I mean.

901
00:51:16,160 --> 00:51:23,080
Speaker 2: Ages, So again, I'll I'm just gonna pull from my

902
00:51:23,320 --> 00:51:28,759
Speaker 2: lived experience with this stuff. And this is something I've

903
00:51:28,800 --> 00:51:35,839
Speaker 2: been kind of on recently. Is that a lot of

904
00:51:35,880 --> 00:51:38,160
Speaker 2: the time I'm trying to come to a realization and

905
00:51:38,719 --> 00:51:42,439
Speaker 2: this is like like an epiphany that I gotta kind

906
00:51:42,440 --> 00:51:45,040
Speaker 2: of reach over and over and over again. And in

907
00:51:45,080 --> 00:51:50,160
Speaker 2: my life, which is that like the the the action

908
00:51:50,520 --> 00:51:56,359
Speaker 2: kind of precedes the motivation, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah,

909
00:51:56,400 --> 00:52:01,239
Speaker 2: Like I've been trying to go out and do like

910
00:52:01,360 --> 00:52:03,000
Speaker 2: I'm trying to go out and do fucking like open

911
00:52:03,040 --> 00:52:05,480
Speaker 2: mics and do shit or whatever, and I'll be like

912
00:52:05,560 --> 00:52:08,239
Speaker 2: about to go do something or like about to try

913
00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:10,200
Speaker 2: to write something or whatever like, and I'll just get

914
00:52:10,239 --> 00:52:13,120
Speaker 2: like super in my head and crazy about it. And

915
00:52:13,160 --> 00:52:18,640
Speaker 2: then yeah, just kind of force is the wrong word

916
00:52:18,719 --> 00:52:21,200
Speaker 2: because it's actually not a force. It's just like a flow.

917
00:52:21,560 --> 00:52:24,480
Speaker 2: Then I just go and do it. I get up

918
00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:28,520
Speaker 2: there and I do the thing, and then after doing it,

919
00:52:29,440 --> 00:52:33,520
Speaker 2: you realize the good The good feeling comes after you

920
00:52:33,600 --> 00:52:36,359
Speaker 2: do it. So there's a little bit of a I

921
00:52:36,360 --> 00:52:40,080
Speaker 2: think a thing where you have to push to just

922
00:52:40,120 --> 00:52:44,360
Speaker 2: fucking like do it first, and then once you're there,

923
00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:49,600
Speaker 2: and you'll actually feel more motivated and you'll feel excited

924
00:52:49,600 --> 00:52:52,879
Speaker 2: once you're fucking there, but you're not gonna but it's like, yeah,

925
00:52:52,880 --> 00:52:54,759
Speaker 2: of course, if you've been in your house for two

926
00:52:54,800 --> 00:52:57,200
Speaker 2: weeks and then you try to go to a thing,

927
00:52:57,239 --> 00:53:01,960
Speaker 2: there's gonna be like resistance. And weirdly, I think if

928
00:53:02,000 --> 00:53:05,239
Speaker 2: you like accept the resistance and just move and push

929
00:53:05,400 --> 00:53:10,879
Speaker 2: past the resistance and you just go, you'll be like, oh,

930
00:53:10,920 --> 00:53:13,359
Speaker 2: this was sick, you know, but you got to get

931
00:53:13,360 --> 00:53:15,600
Speaker 2: past that little bit of It's worth getting past that

932
00:53:15,640 --> 00:53:21,200
Speaker 2: little bit of resistance. I suppose that's just from my

933
00:53:21,280 --> 00:53:25,959
Speaker 2: own personal experiences. Every time I've pushed past a little

934
00:53:25,960 --> 00:53:29,560
Speaker 2: bit of resistant, like I've I've I've taken my little

935
00:53:29,600 --> 00:53:35,400
Speaker 2: gecko out like irl filming equipment somewhere and setting and

936
00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:37,640
Speaker 2: setting it up and been like, what the this is

937
00:53:37,680 --> 00:53:41,600
Speaker 2: not gonna go well? And then I set it up

938
00:53:41,680 --> 00:53:43,960
Speaker 2: and then it goes well, and then I'm like, Okay,

939
00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:47,279
Speaker 2: I just needed to. I'm glad I pushed past the resistance.

940
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:51,520
Speaker 2: So I mean, I guess that's just how it's kind

941
00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:53,480
Speaker 2: of been working for me lately.

942
00:53:54,200 --> 00:53:58,360
Speaker 1: I think, Yeah, no, I totally understand that that's behavioral activation.

943
00:53:58,600 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 2: That's I know. I didn't know there was a goddamn

944
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:07,800
Speaker 2: word for it. I thought I was just didn't act.

945
00:54:09,719 --> 00:54:13,120
Speaker 1: Say. Behavior activation is actually a very helpful at least

946
00:54:13,160 --> 00:54:13,360
Speaker 1: for me.

947
00:54:13,840 --> 00:54:15,560
Speaker 2: It's very helpful behavior.

948
00:54:15,880 --> 00:54:17,200
Speaker 3: It's a matter of doing it.

949
00:54:17,480 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 1: It's a matter of just doing it.

950
00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:22,560
Speaker 2: Is So, you know, what sends me into a goddamn

951
00:54:22,640 --> 00:54:25,080
Speaker 2: existential crisis is the fact that everything that I think

952
00:54:25,160 --> 00:54:29,319
Speaker 2: I'm like discovering about myself is like, there's there's ever

953
00:54:29,440 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 2: every every thought I've ever had, there's a fucking textbook

954
00:54:33,200 --> 00:54:36,080
Speaker 2: to describe. There's some textbook. That is a fucking thing

955
00:54:36,200 --> 00:54:38,920
Speaker 2: to describe it anyway.

956
00:54:40,080 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 1: I think that's called getting older and learning more about

957
00:54:45,760 --> 00:54:48,520
Speaker 1: things you didn't know about previously. Yeah, yeah, go to the.

958
00:54:48,680 --> 00:54:50,640
Speaker 2: Go to the goddamn knitting group.

959
00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:56,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm definitely gonna make that happen. But I guess

960
00:54:56,400 --> 00:55:00,479
Speaker 1: the part that I that's bothered me is the fact

961
00:55:00,560 --> 00:55:05,919
Speaker 1: of who I relate to and you know, the things

962
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:09,800
Speaker 1: that I'm interested in. Aside from that, I mean, I'm

963
00:55:09,880 --> 00:55:12,440
Speaker 1: not going to make that my entire life, but I

964
00:55:12,560 --> 00:55:19,239
Speaker 1: do want support in my life, you know. Yeah, like

965
00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:22,319
Speaker 1: I want to make friends, I want to that kind

966
00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:24,800
Speaker 1: of thing. And so I guess I just I just

967
00:55:24,840 --> 00:55:30,440
Speaker 1: don't know how Like in my head, I'm in my thirties,

968
00:55:30,560 --> 00:55:34,239
Speaker 1: my really thirties, and then when people find out how

969
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:36,600
Speaker 1: old I am, it's kind of like I guess an

970
00:55:36,640 --> 00:55:37,360
Speaker 1: it I don't know.

971
00:55:38,120 --> 00:55:40,680
Speaker 2: Then then just I don't know, man. I think, just

972
00:55:40,800 --> 00:55:44,439
Speaker 2: keep being, keep being whatever age you are in your head,

973
00:55:45,400 --> 00:55:49,839
Speaker 2: you know, Yeah, what's the what's the point of succumbing

974
00:55:50,000 --> 00:55:57,400
Speaker 2: to other people's kind of idea of what your life is?

975
00:55:57,600 --> 00:55:57,640
Speaker 1: Like?

976
00:55:57,920 --> 00:55:59,800
Speaker 2: I mean also, also I think there's a thing to

977
00:55:59,840 --> 00:56:03,120
Speaker 2: be set again of like you know, if you want

978
00:56:03,160 --> 00:56:05,400
Speaker 2: to make friends and have a community and do all

979
00:56:05,480 --> 00:56:08,200
Speaker 2: this shit, you gotta go. You gotta go first. That's

980
00:56:08,200 --> 00:56:09,879
Speaker 2: what I again, that's what I'm learning in my own life,

981
00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:12,040
Speaker 2: is you gotta go first. Yeah, you gotta be the

982
00:56:12,120 --> 00:56:14,400
Speaker 2: one to You show up at the knitting group, you

983
00:56:14,480 --> 00:56:16,319
Speaker 2: meet a bunch of friends, and then you go, hey,

984
00:56:16,440 --> 00:56:20,440
Speaker 2: I'm actually gonna do another knitting group on fucking Tuesdays,

985
00:56:20,480 --> 00:56:21,839
Speaker 2: and we're gonna do it at my house, and at

986
00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:24,120
Speaker 2: least five other people at the fucking knitting group. We're

987
00:56:24,120 --> 00:56:25,279
Speaker 2: gonna be like, all right, And then all of a

988
00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:27,799
Speaker 2: sudden you got all these knitting friends, and then all

989
00:56:27,800 --> 00:56:30,000
Speaker 2: of a sudden you're like, oh, I feel completely different

990
00:56:30,040 --> 00:56:33,640
Speaker 2: than I did, uh, six weeks ago, because I fucking

991
00:56:33,920 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 2: took a shot and didn't wait around for you know,

992
00:56:37,400 --> 00:56:39,800
Speaker 2: life to come find me and I did something small

993
00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:44,040
Speaker 2: and it fucking you know, change changed changed. But I mean,

994
00:56:44,080 --> 00:56:47,319
Speaker 2: that's that's I think. The big trap that you can

995
00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:53,600
Speaker 2: get into is kind of waiting for these things to

996
00:56:53,800 --> 00:56:56,120
Speaker 2: find you without real life. And I'm by the way,

997
00:56:56,160 --> 00:57:00,440
Speaker 2: I just really, uh, none of this is a This

998
00:57:00,600 --> 00:57:04,520
Speaker 2: is all again just me reiterating my own learned experience

999
00:57:04,600 --> 00:57:13,080
Speaker 2: to myself, you know, just yeah, fucking you gotta go first.

1000
00:57:13,600 --> 00:57:14,399
Speaker 2: You gotta go first.

1001
00:57:14,480 --> 00:57:17,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean it's pretty much common sense. I mean

1002
00:57:17,440 --> 00:57:20,400
Speaker 1: it's like it's like diet and exercise, where you know

1003
00:57:20,480 --> 00:57:22,720
Speaker 1: what you need to do, you know what's going to

1004
00:57:22,800 --> 00:57:25,640
Speaker 1: require you just got to make yourself do it. And

1005
00:57:25,760 --> 00:57:27,200
Speaker 1: that's sometimes the hardest part.

1006
00:57:30,640 --> 00:57:33,959
Speaker 2: Yeah, knitting's cool. I wish I had something. I wish

1007
00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:36,280
Speaker 2: I had something funny. I feel like I you know

1008
00:57:36,400 --> 00:57:38,240
Speaker 2: what I've been thinking about a lot, is uh. I

1009
00:57:38,320 --> 00:57:44,120
Speaker 2: think when this podcast is listed as a comedy philosophy

1010
00:57:44,400 --> 00:57:49,600
Speaker 2: podcast and I'm realizing, I'm like, it's been I'm a

1011
00:57:49,640 --> 00:57:53,120
Speaker 2: little bit better at it. I think when I'm outside,

1012
00:57:53,640 --> 00:57:56,640
Speaker 2: I'm not. I don't feel very funny in a room

1013
00:57:56,720 --> 00:58:00,680
Speaker 2: alone by myself. But uh, I'll be like, man, I've

1014
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:04,280
Speaker 2: done it's been about seventy minutes. I haven't said one

1015
00:58:04,400 --> 00:58:08,320
Speaker 2: fucking funny thing anyway.

1016
00:58:08,440 --> 00:58:12,080
Speaker 1: I mean, when you start talking about real life, you know,

1017
00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:13,120
Speaker 1: real life, Yeah.

1018
00:58:13,600 --> 00:58:17,520
Speaker 3: I don't know, but I mean maybe maybe so maybe you.

1019
00:58:17,560 --> 00:58:20,840
Speaker 1: Need to specify the kind of conversations you're looking to have.

1020
00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:23,800
Speaker 2: That's the thing, though, is I Yeah. But that's the

1021
00:58:23,880 --> 00:58:26,000
Speaker 2: thing is if every I like having those. But if

1022
00:58:26,080 --> 00:58:29,680
Speaker 2: every conversation is like I diarrhea on my friend's balls,

1023
00:58:31,880 --> 00:58:35,440
Speaker 2: that would be I think I get bored of that.

1024
00:58:36,160 --> 00:58:39,160
Speaker 2: I like, I like talking about real life, but not

1025
00:58:39,280 --> 00:58:42,439
Speaker 2: all the time. I don't know, I'm crazy anyway. What's

1026
00:58:42,480 --> 00:58:43,200
Speaker 2: your name again? No?

1027
00:58:43,320 --> 00:58:44,760
Speaker 4: I get it?

1028
00:58:45,480 --> 00:58:48,120
Speaker 2: Fuck Fox? Fuck?

1029
00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:48,840
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1030
00:58:49,920 --> 00:58:51,120
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1031
00:58:51,160 --> 00:58:52,600
Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go?

1032
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 1: Just thank you? This was fun.

1033
00:58:59,240 --> 00:59:02,680
Speaker 2: Thanks for joining me on the Gecko Show. And I'll

1034
00:59:02,720 --> 00:59:04,720
Speaker 2: see you. I'll see you at the knitting group. Maybe

1035
00:59:04,760 --> 00:59:07,080
Speaker 2: I'll show up. Actually I probably won't because I don't

1036
00:59:08,200 --> 00:59:09,840
Speaker 2: know how to knit, but I hope you go.

1037
00:59:11,160 --> 00:59:12,960
Speaker 1: I think it would be kind of difficult with those

1038
00:59:13,440 --> 00:59:14,880
Speaker 1: big fingers anyway.

1039
00:59:15,040 --> 00:59:18,960
Speaker 2: So yeah, yeah, yeah, we'll have a good fox go

1040
00:59:19,000 --> 00:59:24,120
Speaker 2: to the knitting Go to the knitting club. Okay, okay,

1041
00:59:24,200 --> 00:59:29,880
Speaker 2: by Fox By it sounds I don't know, there's so much.

1042
00:59:30,320 --> 00:59:33,600
Speaker 2: Sometimes I sometimes I'm like, oh, I gotta you know.

1043
00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:39,240
Speaker 2: Sometimes I'm like, oh fuck, I'm just gonna it's all over.

1044
00:59:39,520 --> 00:59:44,040
Speaker 2: There's no hope. Uh this is depressing. Sometimes I'm like,

1045
00:59:44,080 --> 00:59:47,800
Speaker 2: ah fuck, there's no hope. It's all over. We're done,

1046
00:59:47,880 --> 00:59:50,200
Speaker 2: we're finished. And then you get it. But those are

1047
00:59:50,280 --> 00:59:52,440
Speaker 2: thought this is the thing. Those are thoughts that you

1048
00:59:52,640 --> 01:00:01,280
Speaker 2: have when you're alone in your house in your underwear. Right,

1049
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:04,000
Speaker 2: those are the thoughts you have when you're alone in

1050
01:00:04,000 --> 01:00:06,040
Speaker 2: your house in underwear, and then you find their strength

1051
01:00:06,160 --> 01:00:10,360
Speaker 2: to all Right, I'm gonna go to fucking knitting club.

1052
01:00:11,240 --> 01:00:15,520
Speaker 2: You're at knitting club and you're like, oh, this a

1053
01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:19,440
Speaker 2: cross stitch. That's interesting. Oh look, this person made a bunny.

1054
01:00:19,520 --> 01:00:21,360
Speaker 2: Maybe if I keep going, I can make a bunny.

1055
01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:23,160
Speaker 2: And then all of a sudden, you don't want to

1056
01:00:23,240 --> 01:00:28,080
Speaker 2: kill yourself. I was talking to my friend on the phone.

1057
01:00:31,080 --> 01:00:33,920
Speaker 2: I'm sure I have said this on the podcast already,

1058
01:00:33,960 --> 01:00:35,440
Speaker 2: but I don't care. I'm gonna say it again even

1059
01:00:35,480 --> 01:00:37,680
Speaker 2: if I have. I'm talking to my friend on the phone.

1060
01:00:39,600 --> 01:00:42,560
Speaker 2: I was telling him about my existential crisis and he

1061
01:00:42,800 --> 01:00:47,880
Speaker 2: was like, he said the most genius thing to me,

1062
01:00:49,080 --> 01:00:53,200
Speaker 2: made a lot of sense. He was like talking about

1063
01:00:53,200 --> 01:00:55,080
Speaker 2: his life and he's like, yeah, me and my friends

1064
01:00:56,880 --> 01:01:02,400
Speaker 2: we do trivia every Monday. That's fun. Maybe do something

1065
01:01:02,480 --> 01:01:04,680
Speaker 2: like that. And he was like and then he said,

1066
01:01:05,080 --> 01:01:08,120
Speaker 2: you can't kill yourself if you have trivia on Mondays.

1067
01:01:09,480 --> 01:01:12,880
Speaker 2: And I was like, that's genius. How do I how

1068
01:01:12,920 --> 01:01:17,280
Speaker 2: do I medal? What is what is like trivia on Mondays?

1069
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:20,880
Speaker 2: As a metaphor, right, like, how do I create trivia

1070
01:01:21,000 --> 01:01:25,720
Speaker 2: on Mondays? In my life? That's what I'm about. So yeah,

1071
01:01:25,760 --> 01:01:28,800
Speaker 2: go to the knitting club. Can't kill yourself if you

1072
01:01:28,920 --> 01:01:35,520
Speaker 2: got If you got knitting club on Mondays? From Lincoln, Hello,

1073
01:01:36,320 --> 01:01:37,920
Speaker 2: how's it going? How's life? What's you up to?

1074
01:01:39,040 --> 01:01:39,280
Speaker 5: You know?

1075
01:01:39,440 --> 01:01:43,360
Speaker 6: I just came back from a real therapy, so that

1076
01:01:43,520 --> 01:01:46,760
Speaker 6: that was pretty sick. I've been going through a breakup,

1077
01:01:46,840 --> 01:01:51,760
Speaker 6: which sucks. But you know, bro, we're out here, we're killing,

1078
01:01:51,800 --> 01:01:52,440
Speaker 6: we're doing all right.

1079
01:01:53,840 --> 01:01:57,280
Speaker 2: What's uh what does it mean to be out there?

1080
01:01:57,520 --> 01:01:59,600
Speaker 2: Like you're out like you're back dating, or you're out

1081
01:01:59,640 --> 01:02:01,680
Speaker 2: here like you're still alive, you're still doing it.

1082
01:02:02,760 --> 01:02:04,800
Speaker 6: You know, it's a weird it's a weird point. I'm

1083
01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:09,960
Speaker 6: actually about to graduate college, you know. Uh, so it's

1084
01:02:10,040 --> 01:02:12,280
Speaker 6: it's weird, you know, going through a breakup, but you

1085
01:02:12,360 --> 01:02:14,320
Speaker 6: know you're only going to see the person for another month,

1086
01:02:14,680 --> 01:02:16,200
Speaker 6: and you're only going to see like all of your

1087
01:02:16,240 --> 01:02:19,360
Speaker 6: other friends for another month, and then you're starting like

1088
01:02:19,400 --> 01:02:23,160
Speaker 6: a totally new chapter. It's pretty crazy stuff. So by

1089
01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:25,120
Speaker 6: out there, I mean I think I'm out there in

1090
01:02:25,200 --> 01:02:28,840
Speaker 6: a really weird limital space in my life, and you

1091
01:02:28,960 --> 01:02:33,919
Speaker 6: know it is what it is, real quick, real quick,

1092
01:02:33,960 --> 01:02:34,320
Speaker 6: real quick.

1093
01:02:34,760 --> 01:02:35,320
Speaker 1: This is crazy.

1094
01:02:35,400 --> 01:02:38,280
Speaker 6: Actually, did you remember do you remember do you remember

1095
01:02:38,320 --> 01:02:39,480
Speaker 6: Bonner in twenty twenty two?

1096
01:02:39,760 --> 01:02:40,120
Speaker 2: Of course?

1097
01:02:40,280 --> 01:02:40,480
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1098
01:02:41,600 --> 01:02:43,240
Speaker 6: Do you remember the on the first day of Bonner?

1099
01:02:43,280 --> 01:02:45,120
Speaker 6: Do you remember those like two college kids with the

1100
01:02:45,160 --> 01:02:47,680
Speaker 6: college radio station who came up and interviewed you.

1101
01:02:48,480 --> 01:02:51,520
Speaker 2: Uh did they interview me while I was smoking a cigarette?

1102
01:02:53,040 --> 01:02:55,120
Speaker 6: It was in like that press tent area. You were

1103
01:02:55,160 --> 01:02:57,680
Speaker 6: in full costume. It was like middle of the day Thursday.

1104
01:02:57,720 --> 01:02:58,000
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1105
01:02:58,080 --> 01:03:00,600
Speaker 6: I don't remember if you were if you were smoking

1106
01:03:00,640 --> 01:03:01,200
Speaker 6: a cigarette.

1107
01:03:02,400 --> 01:03:05,360
Speaker 3: Anyway, I was one of those. I was one of

1108
01:03:05,440 --> 01:03:06,440
Speaker 3: those one of those.

1109
01:03:06,720 --> 01:03:10,120
Speaker 6: Uh that like interviewed you and it's crazy like four

1110
01:03:10,200 --> 01:03:12,360
Speaker 6: years later, Yeah, no, it was.

1111
01:03:12,600 --> 01:03:12,840
Speaker 5: It was.

1112
01:03:12,920 --> 01:03:13,120
Speaker 1: It was.

1113
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:15,040
Speaker 6: It was awesome with hell and I gotta be honest

1114
01:03:15,080 --> 01:03:17,760
Speaker 6: with you, like I was like debating, like you know,

1115
01:03:18,760 --> 01:03:20,840
Speaker 6: like dropping out and like doing some other ship. But

1116
01:03:21,600 --> 01:03:25,080
Speaker 6: you know, hey, man, you giving me an interview. You know, Hey,

1117
01:03:25,160 --> 01:03:26,680
Speaker 6: that was like, you know, maybe I'm kind of good

1118
01:03:26,720 --> 01:03:27,880
Speaker 6: at this, you know, maybe people want to.

1119
01:03:27,880 --> 01:03:28,200
Speaker 3: Talk to me.

1120
01:03:28,200 --> 01:03:28,600
Speaker 1: And I did.

1121
01:03:29,200 --> 01:03:31,720
Speaker 6: I stayed with it. So I was, yeah, I really

1122
01:03:31,800 --> 01:03:32,400
Speaker 6: appreciate that.

1123
01:03:32,680 --> 01:03:37,680
Speaker 2: But yeah, of course that's that's fucking that's awesome. What

1124
01:03:37,760 --> 01:03:39,720
Speaker 2: do you so tell? Yeah, what what's what's going on

1125
01:03:39,800 --> 01:03:39,960
Speaker 2: with you?

1126
01:03:40,080 --> 01:03:40,160
Speaker 1: Now?

1127
01:03:40,200 --> 01:03:42,520
Speaker 2: What what you been up to? Well?

1128
01:03:42,600 --> 01:03:45,240
Speaker 6: I stopped doing the radio station because my boss was

1129
01:03:45,240 --> 01:03:48,400
Speaker 6: a bit of a tyrant and I didn't get paid.

1130
01:03:48,760 --> 01:03:50,560
Speaker 6: And then I got a really cool paid job working

1131
01:03:50,600 --> 01:03:54,000
Speaker 6: in video production. So if you need anybody who's on

1132
01:03:54,080 --> 01:03:56,840
Speaker 6: their video production team, who's you know, about to graduate,

1133
01:03:57,240 --> 01:03:59,960
Speaker 6: still looking for a job, So he plug out there?

1134
01:04:00,680 --> 01:04:01,520
Speaker 2: You know, real quick?

1135
01:04:01,920 --> 01:04:03,400
Speaker 5: Where did you do on LinkedIn?

1136
01:04:03,680 --> 01:04:05,600
Speaker 2: Where'd you go to school? And what'd you Wou'd you study?

1137
01:04:07,080 --> 01:04:09,680
Speaker 6: I go to the University of Tennessee, so go volves,

1138
01:04:10,000 --> 01:04:16,280
Speaker 6: you know, big school. But yeah, I studied journalism. So

1139
01:04:16,440 --> 01:04:20,440
Speaker 6: started out doing radio stuff and now I'm a Now

1140
01:04:20,440 --> 01:04:22,880
Speaker 6: I'm doing video. It's crazy, it's fun.

1141
01:04:23,360 --> 01:04:25,800
Speaker 2: And then what are you what are you hoping to

1142
01:04:25,840 --> 01:04:26,680
Speaker 2: do after you graduate?

1143
01:04:28,040 --> 01:04:31,080
Speaker 6: I'm hoping to have a stable job, you know, wife

1144
01:04:31,120 --> 01:04:35,600
Speaker 6: and kids, a suburban American dream nothing like I know, nothing,

1145
01:04:35,680 --> 01:04:39,400
Speaker 6: nothing too like vanilla. But honestly, like before all like

1146
01:04:39,480 --> 01:04:41,280
Speaker 6: the dream job crap. I look, you just want to

1147
01:04:41,360 --> 01:04:44,120
Speaker 6: like have a comfortable life.

1148
01:04:44,920 --> 01:04:45,160
Speaker 5: That's what.

1149
01:04:45,440 --> 01:04:48,280
Speaker 6: That's the dream right there, you know, cause it's crazy.

1150
01:04:48,320 --> 01:04:51,120
Speaker 6: It's very uncertain these days. It's no longer a guarantee.

1151
01:04:51,240 --> 01:04:55,040
Speaker 6: I mean, it never really was, but you know it is.

1152
01:04:55,160 --> 01:04:55,760
Speaker 5: It is what it is.

1153
01:04:56,080 --> 01:04:59,800
Speaker 2: That's interesting you say that it never really was what

1154
01:05:00,480 --> 01:05:02,680
Speaker 2: never really was a guarantee? Yeah, what does that mean

1155
01:05:02,760 --> 01:05:02,880
Speaker 2: to you?

1156
01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:07,040
Speaker 6: Well, I mean, you know, I feel like all like

1157
01:05:07,120 --> 01:05:10,320
Speaker 6: the boomers out there, you know they you know, they

1158
01:05:11,600 --> 01:05:14,360
Speaker 6: they got these like big houses now and like Daytona Beach.

1159
01:05:14,560 --> 01:05:17,880
Speaker 6: You know, they're going on boats, getting like vip NASCAR

1160
01:05:18,080 --> 01:05:21,600
Speaker 6: passes and shit, you know, and every and everyone thinks that, like,

1161
01:05:21,640 --> 01:05:23,520
Speaker 6: you know, like life was easy for them, and to

1162
01:05:23,600 --> 01:05:27,040
Speaker 6: a degree was significantly easier to them, but you know, hey,

1163
01:05:28,240 --> 01:05:30,040
Speaker 6: we all had to struggle at one point, I guess.

1164
01:05:30,080 --> 01:05:32,560
Speaker 6: So I think I think it's a little bit weird,

1165
01:05:32,760 --> 01:05:35,520
Speaker 6: you know, always being like, you know, man, it was

1166
01:05:35,560 --> 01:05:37,320
Speaker 6: so easy back then, but I'm sure that there was

1167
01:05:37,320 --> 01:05:38,640
Speaker 6: some stuff that was hard. You know, I don't have

1168
01:05:38,680 --> 01:05:40,880
Speaker 6: to go fight no war, not to like lick boomers

1169
01:05:40,920 --> 01:05:41,560
Speaker 6: boots or anything.

1170
01:05:41,640 --> 01:05:42,320
Speaker 5: They don't deserve it.

1171
01:05:42,480 --> 01:05:46,120
Speaker 6: They're annoying as hell. But you know, the American dream

1172
01:05:46,200 --> 01:05:48,960
Speaker 6: was never guaranteed that anybody, And the American dream is

1173
01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:51,600
Speaker 6: probably you know, I gotta stop saying that I sound

1174
01:05:51,680 --> 01:05:53,760
Speaker 6: like a fucking maga crazy person.

1175
01:05:54,200 --> 01:05:56,640
Speaker 2: No, I mean you you say, well, look, I mean

1176
01:05:56,680 --> 01:05:59,520
Speaker 2: American dream. All it is in the way that you're

1177
01:05:59,600 --> 01:06:02,080
Speaker 2: using it is. It's just a metaphor for like what

1178
01:06:02,240 --> 01:06:03,800
Speaker 2: you're talking about, where you're like, look, I want a

1179
01:06:03,840 --> 01:06:06,960
Speaker 2: suburban home and a wife and kids and to have

1180
01:06:07,160 --> 01:06:09,720
Speaker 2: enough money to support them. And that's really it.

1181
01:06:10,960 --> 01:06:13,880
Speaker 6: Yeah, you know, I grew up with a nice family,

1182
01:06:14,080 --> 01:06:16,640
Speaker 6: I guess, so it would be nice to be able

1183
01:06:16,640 --> 01:06:19,960
Speaker 6: to kind of continue that legacy, you know, have a

1184
01:06:20,040 --> 01:06:23,080
Speaker 6: nice little, nice little quaint life. I don't need to

1185
01:06:23,360 --> 01:06:24,840
Speaker 6: be like working on movies or anything.

1186
01:06:25,080 --> 01:06:27,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, Yeah, that's beautiful. That's beautiful. Well, because yeah, I

1187
01:06:27,720 --> 01:06:31,000
Speaker 2: mean a lot of I think a lot of people, yeah,

1188
01:06:31,040 --> 01:06:37,320
Speaker 2: graduate from film school with like big dreams. It's it's

1189
01:06:37,360 --> 01:06:43,480
Speaker 2: interesting that this thing of like how ambitious to be

1190
01:06:44,160 --> 01:06:49,200
Speaker 2: and there's no right or wrong answer. I think society

1191
01:06:51,120 --> 01:06:55,040
Speaker 2: kind of compels people to believe that there's a right

1192
01:06:55,160 --> 01:07:00,440
Speaker 2: or a wrong answer in both directions too, you know

1193
01:07:00,480 --> 01:07:05,200
Speaker 2: what I mean, Like there's sometimes, uh, society pressures you

1194
01:07:05,360 --> 01:07:07,800
Speaker 2: to like compare yourself to other people and be like, well,

1195
01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:11,400
Speaker 2: you gotta if you have the potential to tell these

1196
01:07:11,520 --> 01:07:15,880
Speaker 2: great stories and this great career, and they're like, if

1197
01:07:15,920 --> 01:07:18,840
Speaker 2: you don't, you must live up to your potential. And

1198
01:07:19,240 --> 01:07:23,320
Speaker 2: you know, it's it's everything in fucking life is a

1199
01:07:23,400 --> 01:07:25,360
Speaker 2: balancing act and a double edged sword, because there is

1200
01:07:26,360 --> 01:07:28,760
Speaker 2: I think a lot of joy in quote unquote living

1201
01:07:28,840 --> 01:07:33,000
Speaker 2: up to your potential and uh, you know, working hard

1202
01:07:33,080 --> 01:07:35,480
Speaker 2: on things that you care about and try to build

1203
01:07:36,240 --> 01:07:40,800
Speaker 2: something that you care about. But doing that, it's a

1204
01:07:40,880 --> 01:07:42,760
Speaker 2: lot of guff and a lot of stress and a

1205
01:07:42,840 --> 01:07:48,080
Speaker 2: lot of anxiety. You're gonna like there's if you follow

1206
01:07:48,160 --> 01:07:51,360
Speaker 2: that hat, I'm gonna not inherently, but I mean, I

1207
01:07:51,440 --> 01:07:54,200
Speaker 2: don't know why I'm I'm just talking from my own

1208
01:07:54,240 --> 01:07:56,720
Speaker 2: lived experience. Is like I've tried to follow that path.

1209
01:07:57,280 --> 01:07:59,560
Speaker 2: I've tried to follow that path and it there's a

1210
01:07:59,600 --> 01:08:04,880
Speaker 2: lot of to it. And then the opposite side is

1211
01:08:05,080 --> 01:08:09,200
Speaker 2: like just learn to be happy with whatever your lot

1212
01:08:10,000 --> 01:08:13,640
Speaker 2: is and don't worry about this great big pressure of

1213
01:08:14,720 --> 01:08:18,360
Speaker 2: living up to your potential whatever the fuck. And again,

1214
01:08:18,520 --> 01:08:22,920
Speaker 2: just yeah, from my own lived experience is like, I

1215
01:08:23,000 --> 01:08:25,160
Speaker 2: think there's something calming in that, but I also get

1216
01:08:25,240 --> 01:08:31,200
Speaker 2: depressed when I'm not feeling like I'm building something or

1217
01:08:31,240 --> 01:08:34,360
Speaker 2: doing something that's important to me. But every individual is

1218
01:08:34,400 --> 01:08:40,600
Speaker 2: going to have a different answer to these questions, you know.

1219
01:08:40,800 --> 01:08:44,320
Speaker 2: It's kind of that's the hard part. But I mean, yeah,

1220
01:08:44,320 --> 01:08:46,160
Speaker 2: if you want to have a wife and a kid

1221
01:08:46,320 --> 01:08:51,519
Speaker 2: and just make enough money to live, you know, I

1222
01:08:51,640 --> 01:08:55,960
Speaker 2: think that's where do you where? You're in Tennessee.

1223
01:08:57,200 --> 01:08:57,920
Speaker 6: I'm in Tennessee.

1224
01:08:58,120 --> 01:08:59,960
Speaker 5: I'm going to get out though. Here's the thing.

1225
01:09:00,080 --> 01:09:03,960
Speaker 6: Knoxville is where like my college is, right, So it's

1226
01:09:04,040 --> 01:09:07,439
Speaker 6: like a mid sized city, you know, like like just

1227
01:09:07,600 --> 01:09:10,240
Speaker 6: under two hundred thousand people. It has a couple of

1228
01:09:10,320 --> 01:09:13,000
Speaker 6: suburbs that has a decent downtown. But it's like it's

1229
01:09:13,080 --> 01:09:16,000
Speaker 6: nothing huge. It's a really nice place though, And I

1230
01:09:16,080 --> 01:09:20,439
Speaker 6: would come back whenever they changed up their politics, of course,

1231
01:09:20,479 --> 01:09:22,920
Speaker 6: because Tennessee is a bit of a hell hole, you know,

1232
01:09:23,040 --> 01:09:27,000
Speaker 6: if you have any compassion for any people. But yeah,

1233
01:09:27,080 --> 01:09:29,960
Speaker 6: trying to get out, you know, So I don't know

1234
01:09:30,000 --> 01:09:31,800
Speaker 6: where I'm gonna be. I've applied to like places all

1235
01:09:31,840 --> 01:09:32,439
Speaker 6: over the country.

1236
01:09:32,479 --> 01:09:32,599
Speaker 2: Man.

1237
01:09:32,600 --> 01:09:36,680
Speaker 6: I've applied for jobs in like Washington and Cincinnati and

1238
01:09:37,520 --> 01:09:41,040
Speaker 6: Miami and New York, and La and I've just I'm

1239
01:09:41,080 --> 01:09:42,880
Speaker 6: applied to all these places, even like the middle of

1240
01:09:42,960 --> 01:09:47,760
Speaker 6: nowhere in Idaho. So I don't know, it's crazy, it's

1241
01:09:47,800 --> 01:09:49,040
Speaker 6: it's insane.

1242
01:09:49,120 --> 01:09:49,240
Speaker 1: You know.

1243
01:09:50,080 --> 01:09:53,320
Speaker 6: I had like stability, right, I had like a girlfriend,

1244
01:09:53,960 --> 01:09:56,720
Speaker 6: and now you know, I have like totally in this

1245
01:09:56,840 --> 01:09:58,719
Speaker 6: limbo period for a month where I have no idea

1246
01:09:58,760 --> 01:10:01,560
Speaker 6: how my life's gonna pan out. Well, like everything to

1247
01:10:01,640 --> 01:10:05,320
Speaker 6: be drastically different, drastically different in like forty five days.

1248
01:10:05,600 --> 01:10:09,519
Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's yeah. But I think when you're when

1249
01:10:09,560 --> 01:10:12,599
Speaker 2: you're just graduated from college, I mean that's good, right,

1250
01:10:12,720 --> 01:10:15,479
Speaker 2: you would rather I think you'd rather things be drastically

1251
01:10:15,560 --> 01:10:18,719
Speaker 2: different than to be uh the same forever.

1252
01:10:20,240 --> 01:10:23,840
Speaker 6: Yeah, And that's so, And that's that's true. I I'm

1253
01:10:23,920 --> 01:10:26,080
Speaker 6: totally cool being in this limbo state that I'd be

1254
01:10:26,200 --> 01:10:28,560
Speaker 6: lying if I if I said I was immune to

1255
01:10:28,640 --> 01:10:29,560
Speaker 6: the anxiety of it.

1256
01:10:29,640 --> 01:10:35,599
Speaker 5: All right, Yeah, it's you know, like, yeah, it's it's

1257
01:10:35,640 --> 01:10:36,160
Speaker 5: it's tough.

1258
01:10:36,280 --> 01:10:36,719
Speaker 3: It's tough.

1259
01:10:37,280 --> 01:10:39,160
Speaker 6: There are a few things that I don't know that

1260
01:10:39,400 --> 01:10:42,960
Speaker 6: that I think would be cool. I did ah, I

1261
01:10:43,000 --> 01:10:46,360
Speaker 6: did stand up comedy a couple of times, you know,

1262
01:10:47,000 --> 01:10:49,040
Speaker 6: you know, because you know all these quirky white boys,

1263
01:10:49,080 --> 01:10:50,400
Speaker 6: you know, they want to do stand up comedy.

1264
01:10:50,760 --> 01:10:52,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, I think I did.

1265
01:10:51,960 --> 01:10:54,400
Speaker 6: A pretty good job. You know, people people thought it

1266
01:10:54,439 --> 01:10:55,920
Speaker 6: was funnest, you know it it'd be cool to like

1267
01:10:56,000 --> 01:10:58,880
Speaker 6: move to city like Chicago and like join like an

1268
01:10:59,000 --> 01:11:01,080
Speaker 6: improv troop or something and then then I don't know,

1269
01:11:01,200 --> 01:11:02,080
Speaker 6: see where that takes me.

1270
01:11:02,360 --> 01:11:03,080
Speaker 5: That could be cool.

1271
01:11:03,920 --> 01:11:05,600
Speaker 2: I bet you would have a lot of fun doing that.

1272
01:11:06,240 --> 01:11:13,280
Speaker 2: It's funny. I recently I did stand up from sixteen

1273
01:11:13,840 --> 01:11:16,960
Speaker 2: to twenty two, So I did it for like what

1274
01:11:18,160 --> 01:11:21,519
Speaker 2: six years or something like that, and then I kind

1275
01:11:21,560 --> 01:11:24,200
Speaker 2: of quit once I started doing the Gecko. Although, like

1276
01:11:24,400 --> 01:11:26,880
Speaker 2: I do the live shows that are kind of have

1277
01:11:27,040 --> 01:11:30,120
Speaker 2: stand up elements to them, and I've recently gotten back

1278
01:11:30,160 --> 01:11:33,519
Speaker 2: into doing stand up at like like just regular stand

1279
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:36,920
Speaker 2: up as myself, just like going to fucking just going

1280
01:11:36,960 --> 01:11:42,800
Speaker 2: to open mics around town. Yeah, and uh, it's fun.

1281
01:11:43,520 --> 01:11:44,760
Speaker 2: I like it is just telling.

1282
01:11:46,360 --> 01:11:49,640
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's ridiculous, like telling a telling a joke and

1283
01:11:49,720 --> 01:11:53,240
Speaker 6: the like doing well, it's it's a high that really

1284
01:11:53,320 --> 01:11:54,120
Speaker 6: can't be matched.

1285
01:11:54,520 --> 01:11:56,959
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know for sure.

1286
01:11:56,960 --> 01:12:01,240
Speaker 6: It's it's it's crazy, but no, it's awesome, man, to

1287
01:12:01,360 --> 01:12:04,320
Speaker 6: be honest, I wanted to like it's been a goal

1288
01:12:04,360 --> 01:12:06,040
Speaker 6: of mine in the last few years to like call

1289
01:12:06,160 --> 01:12:08,519
Speaker 6: in and like, you know, tell you about like that

1290
01:12:08,680 --> 01:12:10,920
Speaker 6: Bonner experience, and like, truly how much it meant to

1291
01:12:11,000 --> 01:12:13,840
Speaker 6: me because I hadn't interviewed a lot of people before

1292
01:12:13,960 --> 01:12:17,280
Speaker 6: then with that radio station, and like, you know, we

1293
01:12:17,560 --> 01:12:19,120
Speaker 6: we actually I think I think I just asked you

1294
01:12:19,200 --> 01:12:20,760
Speaker 6: for a picture and you're like, well, shit, let me

1295
01:12:20,840 --> 01:12:23,040
Speaker 6: do a whole interview, and kind of blew my mind, like,

1296
01:12:23,080 --> 01:12:23,719
Speaker 6: oh my god.

1297
01:12:23,560 --> 01:12:26,800
Speaker 2: He wanted to talk to me, of course, man, Yeah,

1298
01:12:27,479 --> 01:12:28,559
Speaker 2: it was crazy.

1299
01:12:28,840 --> 01:12:29,719
Speaker 1: I do have one question.

1300
01:12:30,160 --> 01:12:32,200
Speaker 6: Yeah, you mentioned in that interview there was a kid

1301
01:12:32,680 --> 01:12:35,040
Speaker 6: who like called you and told you that like he

1302
01:12:35,200 --> 01:12:38,400
Speaker 6: was on shrooms. Yeah, and then it's like mom walked

1303
01:12:38,439 --> 01:12:39,960
Speaker 6: in and you were like, yeah, do you know your

1304
01:12:40,000 --> 01:12:42,320
Speaker 6: sons on shrooms? Did you ever get like closure to that?

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Speaker 2: I don't get closure on any of this stuff. Once

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01:12:45,479 --> 01:12:48,040
Speaker 2: the phone hangs out, Once the phone hangs up, that

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01:12:48,120 --> 01:12:50,320
Speaker 2: person has gone forever. Pretty much.

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Speaker 5: It's incredible.

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Speaker 6: Well, I mean, if hey, if I hang don't forget me. Okay,

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Speaker 6: that's all I'm saying.

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Speaker 2: I'm almost certainly going to forget your name. But okay,

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01:13:00,080 --> 01:13:03,240
Speaker 2: if you I will remember who you are. If a

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01:13:03,360 --> 01:13:05,680
Speaker 2: year from now you're like, hey, I'm that guy who

1314
01:13:05,720 --> 01:13:07,479
Speaker 2: interviewed you up on Aero and then called you again,

1315
01:13:07,560 --> 01:13:10,360
Speaker 2: I'll be like, oh, I remember you, but I I don't.

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01:13:10,360 --> 01:13:12,120
Speaker 2: I don't remember people's names for some reason.

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Speaker 6: So dude, it's all good. No, I just kind of

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01:13:16,840 --> 01:13:18,679
Speaker 6: just fulfilled a bit of like a bucket list item.

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01:13:18,720 --> 01:13:20,760
Speaker 6: You know, this is crazy, this this has been like

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01:13:21,040 --> 01:13:23,080
Speaker 6: this has been my white whale is getting on.

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01:13:23,160 --> 01:13:25,920
Speaker 2: Here, and like I hope like saying thank you for that,

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Speaker 2: I well, thank you very much. I hope your ambition

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01:13:29,360 --> 01:13:32,120
Speaker 2: goes further than that or not or not, I hope

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01:13:32,160 --> 01:13:35,559
Speaker 2: you well, I guess I'm so curious, like what kind

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01:13:35,600 --> 01:13:39,080
Speaker 2: of jobs are you applying for in oh around town, Like.

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Speaker 6: Video production, video production specialist jobs, you know, just like

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01:13:43,120 --> 01:13:45,280
Speaker 6: trying to like work like in house with a company

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01:13:45,439 --> 01:13:48,400
Speaker 6: and like do their marketing for them, because like a

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01:13:48,479 --> 01:13:51,639
Speaker 6: lot of companies will like outsource that, but some companies

1330
01:13:51,680 --> 01:13:54,160
Speaker 6: have their own like team, and I feel like working

1331
01:13:54,479 --> 01:13:58,080
Speaker 6: in house would get me a lot better benefits and

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01:13:58,160 --> 01:14:01,760
Speaker 6: a lot more stability. I applied for a job and

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01:14:01,840 --> 01:14:08,400
Speaker 6: I'm Olympia, Washington, being the city of Olympia's video production guy.

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01:14:08,479 --> 01:14:13,400
Speaker 6: So i'd like live stream their board meetings, which you know,

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01:14:13,479 --> 01:14:16,880
Speaker 6: it's not crazy work, but you know, it's fun work.

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01:14:17,120 --> 01:14:20,120
Speaker 6: It's it's fun like just getting to like edit and

1337
01:14:20,320 --> 01:14:22,719
Speaker 6: video stuff. It's like I'm playing with boys.

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01:14:23,040 --> 01:14:27,640
Speaker 2: You know, it's not Look man, look man, go you

1339
01:14:27,720 --> 01:14:30,320
Speaker 2: could have a great life in Olympia, Washington. You go,

1340
01:14:30,600 --> 01:14:34,200
Speaker 2: you do your fucking stupid job, you do open mics

1341
01:14:34,240 --> 01:14:37,080
Speaker 2: at night, you meet some lady, you have kids, you

1342
01:14:37,160 --> 01:14:40,439
Speaker 2: go on hikes. Is a great life waiting for you

1343
01:14:40,640 --> 01:14:43,120
Speaker 2: and in any of the places that you might end up.

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01:14:43,479 --> 01:14:46,760
Speaker 2: You know, I I appreciate it. I do believe that.

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01:14:46,880 --> 01:14:48,320
Speaker 2: I really do believe that.

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01:14:48,479 --> 01:14:51,679
Speaker 6: I greatly appreciate it. I greatly appreciate it. Well, hey listen,

1347
01:14:51,720 --> 01:14:54,040
Speaker 6: I'm not gonna take too much of your time. I

1348
01:14:54,160 --> 01:14:55,839
Speaker 6: know there's a lot of people who have like actual

1349
01:14:55,920 --> 01:14:56,760
Speaker 6: like stories, but you.

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01:14:56,760 --> 01:14:59,800
Speaker 2: Know, I just hold on, hold on, hold on, by

1351
01:14:59,800 --> 01:15:01,920
Speaker 2: the oh way. I just want you to know something,

1352
01:15:01,920 --> 01:15:05,120
Speaker 2: and I want this is just you. This is an

1353
01:15:05,160 --> 01:15:09,800
Speaker 2: actual story. Your life is an actual story. I might

1354
01:15:09,960 --> 01:15:12,840
Speaker 2: move to Olympia, Washington. It's actually it's funny. It's the

1355
01:15:13,000 --> 01:15:16,519
Speaker 2: most actual story because someone could call after this and

1356
01:15:16,680 --> 01:15:21,040
Speaker 2: be like, you know, I did ayahuasca thirty five times

1357
01:15:21,400 --> 01:15:25,560
Speaker 2: and then uh made out with my dad and we

1358
01:15:25,880 --> 01:15:29,920
Speaker 2: moved to Paris like whatever. And it's like, Okay, that's crazy,

1359
01:15:30,200 --> 01:15:33,920
Speaker 2: but it's like that's not not everyone does that, you know,

1360
01:15:34,160 --> 01:15:36,960
Speaker 2: So this is your story even if it's not even

1361
01:15:36,960 --> 01:15:39,880
Speaker 2: it's a common it's a common story, but that doesn't

1362
01:15:39,880 --> 01:15:43,080
Speaker 2: make it not an actual one exactly.

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01:15:43,240 --> 01:15:43,439
Speaker 5: You know.

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01:15:44,640 --> 01:15:47,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, I appreciate that, you know. I always listen to

1365
01:15:47,120 --> 01:15:48,840
Speaker 6: this show and I'm like, there's see who were calling

1366
01:15:48,880 --> 01:15:50,400
Speaker 6: them like, yeah, I was a drug dealer for twenty

1367
01:15:50,479 --> 01:15:55,320
Speaker 6: five years. I'm like, oh shit, But that's that's what

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01:15:55,479 --> 01:15:56,479
Speaker 6: I That's.

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01:15:56,360 --> 01:15:59,759
Speaker 2: What I like, though, is that is like life is crazy,

1370
01:15:59,840 --> 01:16:02,760
Speaker 2: and the sense that it on there's spectrums of it

1371
01:16:03,040 --> 01:16:05,400
Speaker 2: of like, oh, this is really crazy over here, and

1372
01:16:05,479 --> 01:16:09,800
Speaker 2: then there's a lot in the middle where it's just like, yeah,

1373
01:16:09,840 --> 01:16:11,280
Speaker 2: I don't know, everything's fine.

1374
01:16:12,040 --> 01:16:12,200
Speaker 5: You know.

1375
01:16:12,520 --> 01:16:19,760
Speaker 2: Life is terrifying and joyful and also a lot of

1376
01:16:19,800 --> 01:16:24,519
Speaker 2: the times very very boring. So you know, it's kind

1377
01:16:24,520 --> 01:16:27,439
Speaker 2: of I guess an amalgam of all that. Anyway, what's your.

1378
01:16:27,439 --> 01:16:31,439
Speaker 6: Name again, Lincoln President?

1379
01:16:31,760 --> 01:16:33,000
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1380
01:16:33,040 --> 01:16:34,560
Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go.

1381
01:16:38,160 --> 01:16:46,559
Speaker 6: You know, I'm rocking in the free world. Later on Lincoln, Yes, sir, alrighty,

1382
01:16:46,880 --> 01:16:47,880
Speaker 6: Peace be with you, Gek.

1383
01:16:48,400 --> 01:16:49,840
Speaker 2: That was Lincoln. I don't know why I said I

1384
01:16:49,880 --> 01:16:52,160
Speaker 2: don't know why. The example I used was make out

1385
01:16:52,200 --> 01:16:57,080
Speaker 2: with your dad and move to Peru. Actually, I guess,

1386
01:16:57,080 --> 01:16:58,760
Speaker 2: I guess I do know why I said that. I

1387
01:16:58,800 --> 01:17:02,080
Speaker 2: said that because that is an unconventional thing to do,

1388
01:17:02,520 --> 01:17:05,160
Speaker 2: to make out with your dad and move to Peru.

1389
01:17:06,080 --> 01:17:10,280
Speaker 2: So actually I take back my questioning on that. Well,

1390
01:17:10,600 --> 01:17:14,080
Speaker 2: that was a nice podcast. That was a nice episode.

1391
01:17:14,479 --> 01:17:18,879
Speaker 2: Good phone calls. It's great to hear about people's lives.

1392
01:17:20,840 --> 01:17:23,200
Speaker 2: Do I have anything to say to end the podcast.

1393
01:17:25,360 --> 01:17:27,840
Speaker 2: I don't know if I do. I don't know if

1394
01:17:27,880 --> 01:17:31,120
Speaker 2: I do. I'm glad to keep talking to people. This

1395
01:17:31,320 --> 01:17:33,160
Speaker 2: is chill, this is good. I feel like we're on

1396
01:17:33,240 --> 01:17:41,160
Speaker 2: bonus time right now just doing this. I'm gonna let

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01:17:41,560 --> 01:17:44,600
Speaker 2: whoever's listening to this get back to their lives or

1398
01:17:44,760 --> 01:17:46,960
Speaker 2: get back or go is somewhere else on the internet

1399
01:17:47,200 --> 01:17:52,479
Speaker 2: or their phone or whatever. Thank you guys for listening.

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01:17:54,360 --> 01:17:56,679
Speaker 2: I'll be back again again next week. I think next

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01:17:56,760 --> 01:18:01,920
Speaker 2: episode I'm probably gonna end up doing a a live

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01:18:02,080 --> 01:18:08,120
Speaker 2: one like an IRL one. I like doing those. I

1403
01:18:08,200 --> 01:18:11,360
Speaker 2: feel like it bumps my energy up, So I think

1404
01:18:11,360 --> 01:18:15,760
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try that for the next episode of this.

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01:18:17,000 --> 01:18:19,760
Speaker 2: Thank you all for being here to talk to talk.

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01:18:19,960 --> 01:18:24,600
Speaker 2: I read all the Spotify comments compulsively, So if you

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01:18:24,680 --> 01:18:28,160
Speaker 2: got something to say in the Spotify comments, maybe I

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01:18:28,200 --> 01:18:30,600
Speaker 2: shouldn't read the Spotify comments. Maybe my life would be

1409
01:18:30,640 --> 01:18:33,559
Speaker 2: better if I just did the podcast and then shut

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01:18:33,640 --> 01:18:36,840
Speaker 2: my phone off and never looked at the internet. But

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01:18:38,040 --> 01:18:39,920
Speaker 2: who knows if I'm gonna in the event that I

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01:18:41,200 --> 01:18:43,880
Speaker 2: in the event that I cow and I cowered out,

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01:18:43,960 --> 01:18:46,240
Speaker 2: and I don't do that, you can leave comments on

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01:18:46,320 --> 01:18:50,599
Speaker 2: Spotify or YouTube and I'll try to look at them. Okay,

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01:18:50,720 --> 01:18:53,559
Speaker 2: thank you for listening to the podcast. Get Blessed, See

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01:18:53,640 --> 01:18:54,400
Speaker 2: you around the universe.

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Speaker 1: Goes on the line taking your phone calls every nine

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01:19:00,160 --> 01:19:02,320
Speaker 1: KT goes through on his eyes. He just teaching him

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01:19:02,400 --> 01:19:06,240
Speaker 1: how to be like but he's not really an expert.