WEBVTT - Psychopathy

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<v Speaker 1>Previously on Happy Face.

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<v Speaker 2>Meeting Melissa's mom in person, I was really taken aback

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<v Speaker 2>by the fact that they don't look alike. She absolutely

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<v Speaker 2>looks like her.

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<v Speaker 3>Father, Keith Fell in high school. I believe it was

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<v Speaker 3>twenty five feet when they interview killers. They have found

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<v Speaker 3>that a large percentage of them damaged their frontal lobe

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<v Speaker 3>before they were twenty two, changes their whole personality.

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<v Speaker 1>I went back to my truck and rehearsed the lies

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<v Speaker 1>I planned to tell when I was arrested. What made

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<v Speaker 1>me cross the line into murder? Maybe it was my nature.

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<v Speaker 4>There was just this thing that people said in the family.

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<v Speaker 4>They would say, Oh, that's just Keith, That's just how

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<v Speaker 4>Keith is, and it seemed to be acceptable.

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<v Speaker 5>Did you feel you're in control?

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<v Speaker 6>Did you just.

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<v Speaker 7>Lose it with his soliders lost?

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<v Speaker 6>I didn't.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't think they had anything to do with control

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<v Speaker 8>and just had paybacks a bitch, you know.

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<v Speaker 7>And I just grabbed him start wailing. Of course, I

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<v Speaker 7>didn't know him to stop.

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<v Speaker 9>Now.

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<v Speaker 7>I was going to beat him to death.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm scared I look like him.

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<v Speaker 7>I came from here, That's okay.

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<v Speaker 2>My heart is so turned off.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm afraid I've built like him.

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<v Speaker 9>In the vies with the sun. I don't know, shine oh.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, I threw. The worst case scenario about tomorrow when

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<v Speaker 4>I meet with doctor Fallon is that I'm going to

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<v Speaker 4>find out that biologically my brain is wired exactly the

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<v Speaker 4>same as my dad.

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<v Speaker 2>Melissa's deepest fear is that somewhere in the threads of

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<v Speaker 2>her DNA are the same miswired strands that eventually led

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<v Speaker 2>her father to kill I'm Lauren brag Pacheco, and this

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<v Speaker 2>is happy face.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm prepared for both ways that it will like. I

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<v Speaker 4>know I'm a flawed human being. I know that I

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<v Speaker 4>sometimes can get narcissistic like everybody else. I know sometimes

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<v Speaker 4>I can be selfish like everybody else. I know that

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<v Speaker 4>sometimes I forget to say the right thing to someone,

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<v Speaker 4>or to offer the hug when they needed it. I

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<v Speaker 4>know that sometimes I laugh at inappropriate things at the

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<v Speaker 4>inappropriate time. I know sometimes I can be insensitive. I

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<v Speaker 4>know that, but that's not all the time. And I

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<v Speaker 4>know I'm not a bad person. And I can see

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<v Speaker 4>that other people are flawed too and make mistakes to

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<v Speaker 4>and that's what makes me give some comfort. Then maybe

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not a psychopath. Is that all of these things

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<v Speaker 4>that I've been looking for are just common traits amongst

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<v Speaker 4>us all. Maybe I'm just as flawed as everybody.

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<v Speaker 2>Even if you are, you're going to realize that it

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<v Speaker 2>doesn't change any of those things. You're a good person.

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<v Speaker 2>You would never do what your father's done, and you

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<v Speaker 2>could never be what he is. Last week, Melissa had

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<v Speaker 2>a pet scan to determine if her brain had the

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<v Speaker 2>neurological markers associated with psychopathy.

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<v Speaker 4>Today is a really big day for me. It's a

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<v Speaker 4>moment that.

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<v Speaker 10>I am coming face to face with something I've been

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<v Speaker 10>running away from.

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<v Speaker 2>Learning about.

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<v Speaker 10>A hard time sleeping last night, because today I find

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<v Speaker 10>out if my worst fears and insecurities are true. My

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<v Speaker 10>dad and I had a very close relationship, almost a

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<v Speaker 10>psychic connection, and it makes me wonder if my connection

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<v Speaker 10>with my dad was because our brains are similar, or

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<v Speaker 10>our makeup is similar, if I'm capable of being like

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<v Speaker 10>my dad, But I don't know. Maybe doctor Felon can

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<v Speaker 10>explain to me the difference between the brain of a

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<v Speaker 10>serial killer and the brain of a psychopath. Maybe they're different,

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<v Speaker 10>but in my mind right now, they're one and the same,

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<v Speaker 10>and I'm nervous about that.

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<v Speaker 8>Are you ready to face it today?

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<v Speaker 10>I think that in the past I wasn't in a

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<v Speaker 10>space where I could accept the results. I feel so

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<v Speaker 10>much more secure with who I am. I feel like

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<v Speaker 10>with Don's acceptance of who I am and knowing that

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<v Speaker 10>my heart is different than if my brain does prove

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<v Speaker 10>to be similar to my father, that at least my

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<v Speaker 10>heart is different. I'm actually you know, when I think

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<v Speaker 10>of the word psychopath, I think of someone who is

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<v Speaker 10>a killer, someone who's cold hearted, someone who is evil,

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<v Speaker 10>And maybe that term is the problem.

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<v Speaker 2>Melissa's definition of a psychopath is a description of her father.

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<v Speaker 2>Keith's definition, however, differs.

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<v Speaker 5>I want to know what happens in prison's mind from

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<v Speaker 5>point to point in their life.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't think person who's psychopath all their life? Yeah, no, No,

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<v Speaker 6>I think it's it's something they grow into. Yeah, And

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<v Speaker 6>it's a behavior pattern they grow into, and it's not

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<v Speaker 6>a It's like we live normal lives up to a

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<v Speaker 6>point and we make that conscious decision to go a

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<v Speaker 6>certain way, and then it's like watching Planet of the Age,

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<v Speaker 6>everything goes different directions. You don't turn right or turn

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<v Speaker 6>possibilities around it.

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<v Speaker 4>What's going through your head right now? Do you know

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<v Speaker 4>what to expect.

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<v Speaker 10>The doctor has my brain scans, and maybe I find

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<v Speaker 10>out that I am a psychopath, or maybe I find

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<v Speaker 10>out I have a brain tumor, or maybe I might

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<v Speaker 10>have a perfectly healthy brain.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 10>I could be walking into anything actually today, but.

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<v Speaker 4>I think knowing is better than not knowing.

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<v Speaker 7>Why does it matter?

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<v Speaker 2>What do you hope you're going to gain from today?

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<v Speaker 4>For me, why it matters is for a lot of people,

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like I've been under a microscope and I

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<v Speaker 4>really haven't had any tools to combat what they say.

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<v Speaker 4>But at this point, I'm almost I really don't even

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<v Speaker 4>care what other people think.

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<v Speaker 10>This is for my self awareness. This is for me

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<v Speaker 10>to be able to know how I relate to the world.

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<v Speaker 2>Doctor James Fallen is a neuroscientist and professor of psychiatry

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<v Speaker 2>and human behavior at the University of California Irvine School

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<v Speaker 2>of Medicine. I had first read about him years ago

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<v Speaker 2>in a fascinating article in The Atlantic titled Life as

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<v Speaker 2>a Non Violent Psychopath. In it, he shares his own

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<v Speaker 2>incredible experience of accidentally discovering he possessed the brain imaging

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<v Speaker 2>pattern and genetic makeup of a full blown psychopath while

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<v Speaker 2>conducting unrelated research, and how that knowledge impacted his life

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<v Speaker 2>and relationships. When Melissa shared her fears with me about

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<v Speaker 2>her own potential psychopathy, I immediately reached out to Fallin.

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<v Speaker 2>I felt if anyone could walk Melissa through her pet

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<v Speaker 2>scan and her results, doctor Fallen would be the perfect

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<v Speaker 2>person for the job.

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<v Speaker 9>Allen, Hi, how you go?

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<v Speaker 7>Cat you out?

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<v Speaker 4>Nice to meet you, Marrick, Kay, great, thank you.

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<v Speaker 7>So this is our house.

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<v Speaker 2>Doctor Fallon's house was bright and cheerful. The exterior was

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<v Speaker 2>surrounded by colorful, well tended plants and flowers, and the

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<v Speaker 2>inside was filled with family photos and art, he explained

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<v Speaker 2>was mostly created by various family members. It felt like

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<v Speaker 2>a welcoming, creative place.

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<v Speaker 5>This is my lab, yeah, because I do analysis. We

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<v Speaker 5>play experiments here. So anyway, there's where we live. And

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<v Speaker 5>I was just looking at some of the slides. Just

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<v Speaker 5>got your slides, you know, your pet scan?

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<v Speaker 4>Did you imagine that I'm nervous? Well, I don't know

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<v Speaker 4>what you know about my background.

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<v Speaker 7>I know who your dad is, certainly, but I don't

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<v Speaker 7>know much about you.

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<v Speaker 5>And I didn't want to know too much about you,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, I just because I didn't want to.

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<v Speaker 7>I didn't want to look at the scan with some

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<v Speaker 7>idea of who you were. Okay, that's the idea. The

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<v Speaker 7>less I know going in the better. Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay again, because doctor Fallon's own brain exhibits indicators of psychopathy,

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<v Speaker 2>we felt he had the ideal insight and expertise to

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<v Speaker 2>help Melissa navigate and process her PET scan results. Regardless

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<v Speaker 2>of what they revealed.

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<v Speaker 5>The behaviors are not in themselves evil. It's the context

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<v Speaker 5>that we consider making him evil, and that context is

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<v Speaker 5>defined differently in different societies. All societies are not the same,

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<v Speaker 5>So no absolute behaviors are good and bad for these things.

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<v Speaker 5>So it's not just the genes you have, because I

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<v Speaker 5>mean I inherited all these psychopath related genes.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't have much anxiety.

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<v Speaker 5>If I'm caught by somebody doing something, I can look

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<v Speaker 5>them in the face and they go, he's completely innocent.

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<v Speaker 7>So you can inherit them.

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<v Speaker 5>But if you've been treated okay, and especially with love,

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<v Speaker 5>it kind of negates that effect. All you do is

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<v Speaker 5>become assertive. Low anxiety kind of up all the time.

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<v Speaker 5>You could be glib and all this stuff like that

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<v Speaker 5>you can sell like a salesman, but it comes across

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<v Speaker 5>as an earnest in an earnest way.

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<v Speaker 4>So are you a psychopath?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not a categorical psychopath. I mean I've been analyzed.

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<v Speaker 5>I've been psychiatrically analyzed. And one of the interesting reads

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<v Speaker 5>I was looking at, you know, one of the diagnoses,

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<v Speaker 5>and it was basically the summary is that here's someone

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<v Speaker 5>who has all the thoughts and urges and dreams and

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<v Speaker 5>everything that a full blown psychopath has, but he never

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<v Speaker 5>acts them out.

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<v Speaker 7>Now, I wouldn't have known that.

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<v Speaker 5>I thought everybody was having these thoughts and really crazy

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<v Speaker 5>intense scared the hell out of people with them. I

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<v Speaker 5>always assumed because it was in my head everybody was

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<v Speaker 5>thinking this way, and they're not. The difference is that

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<v Speaker 5>I never act him out. I mean, I got absolutely

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<v Speaker 5>clean record, and I got a family. I'm still dating

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<v Speaker 5>the girl I dated at twelve years old. We were

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<v Speaker 5>both twelve, and we've been married forever, and I've had

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<v Speaker 5>a really great job forever, and I have kids and

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<v Speaker 5>grandkids and I've a normal family life. But somehow, and

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<v Speaker 5>two of the psychiatrists couldn't figure out why I was

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<v Speaker 5>not like a really bad guy because I have all

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<v Speaker 5>these other the genetics, the brain pattern and some of

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<v Speaker 5>the traits by and I just don't act the bad

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<v Speaker 5>stuff out. I'm a wonderful guy.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like I'm.

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<v Speaker 10>Relating to you right now because I feel like I'm

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<v Speaker 10>a great girl.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like I'm a great person.

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<v Speaker 7>Oh yeah, I think I'm terrific.

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<v Speaker 5>And it's not that I don't have faults, but overall,

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<v Speaker 5>I said, who wouldn't like to be around me?

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<v Speaker 7>You know? It's like I was up grade.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, and so I asked started with my

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<v Speaker 5>wife and I asked her, I said, you got to

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<v Speaker 5>tell me, now, really, what do you think of me?

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, tell me I'm not going to get mad

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<v Speaker 5>or anything. And I did that with my mother, my brothers,

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<v Speaker 5>my sister, my kids.

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<v Speaker 10>A bravery to hear what people really because I didn't

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<v Speaker 10>really care.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, you know, for me, it was part of

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<v Speaker 5>the way it is. I just was interested. I being

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<v Speaker 5>a scientist, you're able to say, I'm just scientists. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>And they all told me the same thing. They said,

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<v Speaker 5>you do really psychopathic things and you don't even realize it.

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<v Speaker 4>Did they give you examples?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh yeah, yeah, in great detail. I put people at

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<v Speaker 5>risk for the fun of it. And it's not like

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<v Speaker 5>strangers need to worry about me, But if you become

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<v Speaker 5>close to me, you gotta worry because I'll get you

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<v Speaker 5>to do something. I'm the person that runs with the

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<v Speaker 5>bulls and tries to get you to run with me.

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<v Speaker 5>That's not psychopathic, but I do it all the time,

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<v Speaker 5>and I put my people close to me and friends

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<v Speaker 5>at risk. I lived in East Africa and I went

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<v Speaker 5>trout fishing, brought my son, and I brought them into

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<v Speaker 5>a place I knew the werelions, and I said, there's

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<v Speaker 5>only a five percent chance we're going to get attacked,

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<v Speaker 5>But isn't it going to be fun? So I was,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm trying to kill them, but it was for the thrill.

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<v Speaker 5>So having the genes per se is not the death sentence.

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<v Speaker 5>What happens early to regulate those genes, which is fixed.

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<v Speaker 5>Is the problem is people always want to know what

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<v Speaker 5>percent of our behavior is determined by genes nature and

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<v Speaker 5>how much is by environment nurture. And it's almost the

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<v Speaker 5>wrong way to ask the question, as it turns out.

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<v Speaker 5>And so the idea is, if you have the genes,

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<v Speaker 5>if the gun is loaded with those alleles that tend

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<v Speaker 5>to give you those traits, and your abuse that fixes

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<v Speaker 5>those and in that case, the environment means everything.

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<v Speaker 4>So in my dad's case, he had the genes and

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<v Speaker 4>had the environment.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean this is almost every dictator, you know, really

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<v Speaker 5>aggressive dictator, and every serial killer I looked that I

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<v Speaker 5>you know, could find as much information were abused early

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<v Speaker 5>and they had in their family these traits. The only

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<v Speaker 5>one who claims he was never abused was Polpot. He

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<v Speaker 5>was the only one. I don't believe him. I think

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<v Speaker 5>you know a lot of sometimes they lie.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm learning about that with my dad. That through this journey.

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<v Speaker 4>What has been unique about my dad is that he

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<v Speaker 4>says one thing and what he does is another thing.

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<v Speaker 4>But he's so believable and what he says that people

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<v Speaker 4>don't look at what he does.

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<v Speaker 7>That's it.

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<v Speaker 4>That's and being raised with that, like I only saw

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<v Speaker 4>what he did and believed him too. And so as

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<v Speaker 4>I've been going on this journey, I've been figuring out

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<v Speaker 4>that it's not what he says that is what he does,

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<v Speaker 4>but it's exactly what you just said is how he said.

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<v Speaker 4>It was just so matter of fact and straight face

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<v Speaker 4>that you just don't even I guess, well.

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<v Speaker 7>This is the charm of it. This is real.

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<v Speaker 5>A psychopaths or people, well even narcissistic personality disorder can

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<v Speaker 5>do it with such earnestness and glibness and no anxiety.

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<v Speaker 5>You absolutely believe them. You believe them before you believe anybody.

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<v Speaker 5>And that's what makes it so pernicious and insidious. You know,

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<v Speaker 5>in fact, they you know, a real psychopath doesn't really

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<v Speaker 5>believe what they're doing is bad.

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<v Speaker 7>It's kind of just whereas a sociopath knows what they're

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<v Speaker 7>doing is wrong.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh there's a difference.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, well everybody's got a different definition. But then

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<v Speaker 5>usually people and going they're kind of the same. They're not,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, a real psychopath, we call a primary psychopath.

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<v Speaker 5>And these are the ones that are clinically psychopaths that

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<v Speaker 5>have no moral reasoning, have no guilt, they have no remorse.

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<v Speaker 5>So what makes the personality disorders so different than other

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<v Speaker 5>psychiatric disorders is that people don't know what they're doing

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<v Speaker 5>is wrong or different. And I'll give you an example.

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<v Speaker 5>We all know somebody who is obsessive and compulsive. In fact,

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<v Speaker 5>a bunch of people have OCD obsessive compulsive disorder. But

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<v Speaker 5>there are people with OCDPD, the personality disorder variant of this,

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<v Speaker 5>so they have obsessive compulsive personality disorder. The people with

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<v Speaker 5>OCD doing the crazy things every time they walk by

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<v Speaker 5>the three times and they skip over.

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<v Speaker 7>They know what they're doing is crazy, but they can't

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<v Speaker 7>stop it.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, The people with OCDPD the percentage disorder, thinks what

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<v Speaker 5>they're doing is perfectly okay and good and works. Big difference, right, So,

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<v Speaker 5>superficially the behaviors are the same, but what happens inside

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<v Speaker 5>and how they're generating what they mean are completely different. Now,

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<v Speaker 5>somebody with sociopathy like we're talking about, which it's called

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<v Speaker 5>the secondary psychopath, they know what they're doing is wrong.

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<v Speaker 5>They do have remorse, they do have guilt, they do

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<v Speaker 5>have anxiety, but they're still driven to do those behaviors.

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<v Speaker 5>So both the psychopath and a sociopath can do the

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<v Speaker 5>exact same thing, murder, rape, and everything, different reasons, and

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<v Speaker 5>a lot of times the psychopath does it for fun.

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<v Speaker 5>It's game. It's just manipulation. They're playing a game with things,

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<v Speaker 5>whereas a sociopath a lot of time could be the loser,

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<v Speaker 5>who's getting even with all the women of the world

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<v Speaker 5>or all the athletes of the world, were all you know,

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<v Speaker 5>all the blondes in the world, and it.

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<v Speaker 7>Goes on and on and on.

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<v Speaker 5>There's always but those people can be maybe not wired

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<v Speaker 5>genetically for psychopathy, but they were like bullied when they're eight, nine,

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<v Speaker 5>ten years old.

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<v Speaker 7>A lot of times these are bullied people.

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<v Speaker 5>But if you are wired for it and you're bullied,

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, it's just terrible.

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<v Speaker 8>See will my father beat me? I wondered what he

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<v Speaker 8>was feeling when he beat me? Like what was there

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<v Speaker 8>so gratifying to him to beat the shit out of

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<v Speaker 8>me and then send me to bed like nothing happened,

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<v Speaker 8>and then go back in and do what he wanted

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<v Speaker 8>to do with mom or whatever, or just go on

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<v Speaker 8>with life, and then the next day like nothing happens.

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<v Speaker 6>He's okay.

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<v Speaker 8>Now when I'm killing my victim, I'm sitting there going like, now,

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<v Speaker 8>is this what my father felt when he beat the

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<v Speaker 8>shit out of me? Is this the feeling he got?

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<v Speaker 9>You?

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<v Speaker 8>Getting answered to that I already didn't.

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<v Speaker 2>The question remains, does trauma trigger violent psychopathy or is

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<v Speaker 2>it a domino effect?

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<v Speaker 5>The thing is there's so many of these what are

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<v Speaker 5>called cluster B personality disorders. These are the ones that

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<v Speaker 5>are dangerous to other people, like histrionic, these are people

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<v Speaker 5>that are always using sex to manipulate people and they're

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<v Speaker 5>really nasty be around. And also narcissistic personality disorder and psychopathy,

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<v Speaker 5>and so for those, what you're doing is basically looking

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<v Speaker 5>at all these traits, ten fifteen to twenty traits, and

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<v Speaker 5>the standard thing is you take them. You score each

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<v Speaker 5>one of those traits from zero to two. Zero, let's

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<v Speaker 5>say zero narcissism one is kind of pretty narcissistic. Two

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<v Speaker 5>always narcissistic, like really bad. And you take all these

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<v Speaker 5>numbers and add them up, and if it's above a threshold,

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<v Speaker 5>like for psychopathy, it's above twenty eight or thirty, anything

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<v Speaker 5>from twenty eight thirty to forty, it's a full blown psychopath.

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<v Speaker 5>If you have a psychopath that's forty, you're talking about

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<v Speaker 5>such a dangerous person. I've been tested and I'm not

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<v Speaker 5>really a psychopath because I'm not a full blown psychopath,

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<v Speaker 5>but I'm like right on the edge, you know, I

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<v Speaker 5>score in the twenties every time. What I lack is

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<v Speaker 5>the criminality and the really anti social stuff.

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<v Speaker 7>I really have no interest in hurting people.

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<v Speaker 4>When I think of psychopath it seems to have a

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<v Speaker 4>negative label. Sure, but is it actually a good thing

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<v Speaker 4>to have for is it possible it could be good?

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<v Speaker 5>Well, you know full blown psychopaths, you know the thirty

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<v Speaker 5>and above and a hair scale or on a number

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<v Speaker 5>of scales. It's kind of never a good thing because

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<v Speaker 5>a lot of times they never make.

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<v Speaker 7>It past their teens or twenties.

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<v Speaker 5>They're in prison, and they can have a lot of

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<v Speaker 5>disorganized behavior. But people who are borderline or pro socials

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<v Speaker 5>that are not quite clinically there a lot of those

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<v Speaker 5>traits are very very useful for navigating and becoming successful.

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<v Speaker 5>But there are the traits. One of the two main

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<v Speaker 5>groups of traits factors is called fearless dominance, and fearless

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<v Speaker 5>dominance is a bunch of traits, but it's basically the

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<v Speaker 5>person walks into the room and they got that light

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<v Speaker 5>around him. People interpreted his charisma. They walk fearlessly. They'll

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<v Speaker 5>take chances, but they win. They know how to take

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<v Speaker 5>statistical scientific chances and win. But they'll take risks and

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<v Speaker 5>they do quite well, and people sense it. People sense

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<v Speaker 5>it immediately, So they're very attracted to it. And so

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<v Speaker 5>that's a major psychopathic trait. And if you look at

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<v Speaker 5>the study of done of US presidents from George Washington

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<v Speaker 5>on those that scored the highest from their biographers and

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<v Speaker 5>knew all about them, the ones that scored highest and

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<v Speaker 5>fearless dominance. The top ones are like Teddy Roosevelt, JFK.

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<v Speaker 5>Bill Clinton. They're thought to have charisma and great abilities

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<v Speaker 5>as leaders, but they have the highest psychopathy ratings. So

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<v Speaker 5>people are attracted to it. I mean, this is one

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<v Speaker 5>of the reasons why psychopathy is always with us, because

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<v Speaker 5>people are attracted to it.

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<v Speaker 7>These are people who will take chances.

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<v Speaker 5>You want that person on your side, so I don't

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<v Speaker 5>care if he's a bad ass. I want him to

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<v Speaker 5>be my badass. I want them to be my crook,

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<v Speaker 5>my thief, you know. And so the successive psychopaths, especially

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<v Speaker 5>the pro social or borderline pro social psychopaths, is a

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<v Speaker 5>reflection of people's own lack of morals, I think, because

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<v Speaker 5>to win, they want them on their side, even though

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<v Speaker 5>they know that they're probably going to do. It's like,

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<v Speaker 5>don't tell me what you did, just win, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>Those traits are very much enjoyed and beloved by people.

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<v Speaker 5>So you said, what are you complaining about? But you know,

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<v Speaker 5>if you want to find out if you're a psychopath,

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<v Speaker 5>you got to go talk to a psychologists psychiatrist who's

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<v Speaker 5>an expert in personality disorders.

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<v Speaker 7>There's no other way.

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<v Speaker 5>But once you are found out to have something, then

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<v Speaker 5>we can use the brain scans and the genetics to

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<v Speaker 5>note why you're that way.

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<v Speaker 8>This puts you in another world because you see, people

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<v Speaker 8>aren't expected to murder people.

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<v Speaker 6>And when you murder.

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<v Speaker 8>Someone and you're you're you have their life in your hand,

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<v Speaker 8>you just think of no one else has been there

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<v Speaker 8>about you, and and think of all the all your feelings,

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<v Speaker 8>all your emotions put all on the one that the

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<v Speaker 8>hurt that you have, and the love that you have,

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<v Speaker 8>and joy and hate and just everything all your emotions

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<v Speaker 8>you could ever put together.

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<v Speaker 7>And that's what murder's like.

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<v Speaker 2>After Fallen was able to give an evolutionary and historical

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<v Speaker 2>ex explanation of psychopathy, Melissa was finally ready to face

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<v Speaker 2>and accept her results.

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<v Speaker 5>So I gave you this kind of a general like

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<v Speaker 5>how we do stuff, you know, look on the science

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<v Speaker 5>and the biological psychiatry of it. And so would you

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<v Speaker 5>like to know what I saw by looking at your scans?

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<v Speaker 10>I would love to I'm ready you sure, Yeah, I'm

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<v Speaker 10>absolutely ready.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. I think after talking with you, I now see

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<v Speaker 4>that it might not necessarily be a bad thing.

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<v Speaker 5>But I'm just curious now, I'm just I want to

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<v Speaker 5>know such a psychopathy can be a very useful thing,

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<v Speaker 5>and it does make it criminal or bad, but you

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<v Speaker 5>can still be a pain.

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<v Speaker 7>And he has to be around.

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<v Speaker 5>With some of these, right, I mean really can, So

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<v Speaker 5>you got to be then You've got to expect that

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<v Speaker 5>from people.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, I'm ready, I'm ready, I'll follow you.

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<v Speaker 2>Doctor Fallon's office was filled with eclectic art he'd gathered

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<v Speaker 2>during his trap or was given over the years. It

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<v Speaker 2>also showcased some of his own signature paintings, which tended

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<v Speaker 2>to involve some very interesting and more than slightly disturbing

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<v Speaker 2>depictions of clowns, demented looking clowns.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, okay, So there's many ways to get a pet

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<v Speaker 5>scan or a functional MRI. You can get a cat

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<v Speaker 5>scan or a regular MRI that just looks at the anatomy.

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<v Speaker 5>But this is then looking at the function. That's the

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<v Speaker 5>main thing. The task that you did. We could have

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<v Speaker 5>you do other tasks that test your empathy before you

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<v Speaker 5>go in there for a PET scan or while you're

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<v Speaker 5>doing it for fMRI. You can be looking at a

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<v Speaker 5>mix of images of things that in normal people provoke

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<v Speaker 5>emotional empathy versus cognitive empathy. You could go through different

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<v Speaker 5>kinds of scans that probe different circuits in your brain.

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<v Speaker 5>Then we can compare it to normal people and full

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<v Speaker 5>blown psychopaths. And really to fully do it, you have

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<v Speaker 5>to do all these different scans. That's why it's hard

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<v Speaker 5>for people, the average person to do it because it

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<v Speaker 5>becomes expensive and you got to get into a pipeline

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<v Speaker 5>and research hospital pipeline.

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<v Speaker 7>But at any rate, you had it done.

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<v Speaker 5>And so you had the basic PET scan and you

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<v Speaker 5>didn't have a task, that is, you didn't have to

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<v Speaker 5>look at scary pictures and discussing things.

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<v Speaker 7>You were just told to.

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<v Speaker 4>What close my eyes And for about twenty minutes, I

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<v Speaker 4>just kept my eyes closed and I was relaxed. I

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<v Speaker 4>didn't see anything, and I try to keep my mind

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<v Speaker 4>centered and not distracted.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, so this is kind of the non task task,

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<v Speaker 5>and now it's called the default mode network. We're looking

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<v Speaker 5>for and it's a circuitry that we should see these

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<v Speaker 5>areas of the brain and a normal person light up,

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<v Speaker 5>and these are connected areas that most people's lives are

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<v Speaker 5>in this mode because you're kind of daydreaming or you relax.

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<v Speaker 7>You know there's no task there, and so a lot

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<v Speaker 7>of your life is in this mode.

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<v Speaker 5>And if you look at the connectivity of this circuit

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<v Speaker 5>of this plus with your limbics system, your emotional parts

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<v Speaker 5>of your brain, you can really get an idea on

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<v Speaker 5>why somebody is a certain way. You're simply given this

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<v Speaker 5>task and it sounds like the way you've described it

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<v Speaker 5>is exactly correct. And here's the raw scans. Part of

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<v Speaker 5>the raw scans are up here without any processing. So

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<v Speaker 5>this is ground truth, okay. And here is your pet scan. Again,

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<v Speaker 5>it's not doctored with colors or anything, okay, because usually

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<v Speaker 5>you see a pet scan, it's like there's blues and

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<v Speaker 5>red scale and that's made in software and it's kind

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<v Speaker 5>of fudged a bit. It doesn't mean it's wrong, but

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<v Speaker 5>it's fudged. This is like ground pure truth, okay. And

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<v Speaker 5>so wherever we see the dark areas you see right here,

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<v Speaker 5>they're dark. That's what has really turned on in that

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<v Speaker 5>half hour before you've got the pet scan. And so

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<v Speaker 5>here you are and here's the normal okay, And I

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<v Speaker 5>tried to this morning try to match them up if

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<v Speaker 5>I could, and it.

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<v Speaker 7>Turns out yours is completely normal.

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<v Speaker 5>So this first test that this is like your your

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<v Speaker 5>clinical scan is completely normal. So you don't have any

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<v Speaker 5>problem in your brain that anybody can see. And anatomically

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<v Speaker 5>it's not like tumors or anything like that, and there's

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<v Speaker 5>no no weirdness at all. It's completely normal. And now

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<v Speaker 5>when we looked at this, they really match up.

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<v Speaker 7>You look like a completely normal for this test. So

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<v Speaker 7>that's amazing, it's amazing normal.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it could be disappointed too, So I mean, again,

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<v Speaker 5>this is not diagnostic, but you have quite a normal reaction.

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<v Speaker 5>And you see how sort of hot you are down here.

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<v Speaker 5>I cannot turn this part of my brain on at all.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow.

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<v Speaker 5>So when I do default mode, I can't turn that on.

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<v Speaker 5>And so that's a psychopathic pattern.

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<v Speaker 7>It's normal.

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<v Speaker 2>And so after years of wondering if her father's genes

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<v Speaker 2>had somehow infected her with the same traits, the same

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<v Speaker 2>buried evil tendencies, Melissa could finally breathe a sigh of relief,

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<v Speaker 2>knowing that she was another step in the opposite direction

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<v Speaker 2>of Keith.

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<v Speaker 4>The power that he had over me. Now I feel

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<v Speaker 4>like he doesn't have any power over me anymore. I

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<v Speaker 4>feel like I'm my own person. I feel liberated. I

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<v Speaker 4>almost feel like I got out of jail. I feel

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<v Speaker 4>so much better. I almost wish I would have.

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<v Speaker 10>Done this a long time ago, that I would not

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<v Speaker 10>have been running away, but I would have never been

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<v Speaker 10>ready for it. I don't think like I am now.

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<v Speaker 4>But I feel amazing. I feel like I'm my own

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<v Speaker 4>person and free now. I'm excited about moving forward in

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<v Speaker 4>the future. Like this is less energy devoted to worry.

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<v Speaker 4>The energy that I've been using scared of my connection

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<v Speaker 4>with my dad can now be used for something useful

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<v Speaker 4>and purposeful. And it gives me everything that I need

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<v Speaker 4>to just look to the future and stead of to

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<v Speaker 4>the past.

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<v Speaker 9>If you lost me or not, do you know what

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<v Speaker 9>I an a bag?

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<v Speaker 8>What?

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<v Speaker 9>Do you know what I see?

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<v Speaker 5>You?

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<v Speaker 9>And I know what I do that you don't know me?

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<v Speaker 9>You could have that too, but you would rather be free,

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<v Speaker 9>big free.

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<v Speaker 2>In the final Happy Face, Melissa comes to a reckoning

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<v Speaker 2>with her past, her present, and her future.

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<v Speaker 1>Happy Face is a production of How Stuff Works. Executive

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<v Speaker 1>producers are Melissa Moore, Lauren Bright, Pacheco, mangesh Ha Tikedur

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<v Speaker 1>and Will Pearson. Supervising producer is Noel Brown. Music by

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