WEBVTT - New Love 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.119 Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:16.239 and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back 0:00:16.280 --> 0:00:18.840 on the air. Welcome back to get another carefully Reckless 0:00:18.840 --> 0:00:21.520 episode with your girl Jess Lari's And today I got 0:00:21.560 --> 0:00:23.320 my big sister back in the house. Say what up? 0:00:23.680 --> 0:00:26.400 What's up? Y'all? You could probably hear the smile on 0:00:26.480 --> 0:00:29.400 my face. Oh my god, it's killing me. Listen to 0:00:29.440 --> 0:00:32.920 the last time she was with us, she was not smiling, okay, 0:00:33.040 --> 0:00:36.960 but today she is. And that's all her funk that matters. 0:00:37.000 --> 0:00:40.479 Tell us how you got to this place? So, y'all. 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:45.320 A's y'all. No, I was single, but I ain't no more. 0:00:45.920 --> 0:00:48.880 Oh my lord Jesus Christ, she ain't no more, y'all. 0:00:49.760 --> 0:00:52.479 I got me amends now, and I'm gonna tell you 0:00:52.560 --> 0:00:55.400 how I got him and where he came from. I 0:00:55.480 --> 0:00:58.760 decided to go back out there. I've never been into 0:00:59.040 --> 0:01:03.480 like dating abs and stuff like that, but I saw 0:01:03.880 --> 0:01:10.560 that Facebook had a dating section. It's not like you 0:01:10.600 --> 0:01:15.640 went on a dating section of Facebook. Yeah, it's a 0:01:15.760 --> 0:01:18.039 date so it's like an old dating chat room. It 0:01:18.120 --> 0:01:21.040 really is. They next to the messages, what is it is? 0:01:21.080 --> 0:01:28.360 Next to the memories? It's next to the memories, y'all. Yeah, alright, 0:01:28.400 --> 0:01:31.120 go ahead, I ain't never know. All listen, you're always 0:01:31.280 --> 0:01:34.839 leaving some shout out and then surprising me on the podcast. 0:01:34.880 --> 0:01:36.840 I ain't know they had a dating department. Yeah, they 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:39.840 they got a dating department and took over every thing 0:01:40.240 --> 0:01:43.560 mark Berg, get your money, baby. Anyway, Um, I went 0:01:43.560 --> 0:01:46.520 into the dating section of Facebook and I created a profile. 0:01:46.840 --> 0:01:49.400 You can create a profile using the same profile picture 0:01:49.400 --> 0:01:51.680 that you have, you know, just up on your regular profile. 0:01:51.760 --> 0:01:54.040 So this is separate from your regular profile. Yeah. So 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:55.880 it doesn't give people your last name. It literally just 0:01:55.880 --> 0:01:58.640 gives them your first name and your age. You update 0:01:58.680 --> 0:02:02.840 your interests, ad age range, all the personal and things 0:02:02.880 --> 0:02:06.520 that you're interested in. You update that. So before I 0:02:06.560 --> 0:02:10.160 actually updated minds properly as far as like the age 0:02:10.280 --> 0:02:12.480 range that I'm willing to deal with, the height range 0:02:12.520 --> 0:02:15.280 I'm willing to deal with. You can pick if you 0:02:15.639 --> 0:02:18.840 want to smoke or non smoker, drinker, non drink or whatever. 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:20.720 It was a whole bunch of young niggas that was 0:02:20.720 --> 0:02:22.320 like coming at me, and I'm like, how the fun 0:02:22.400 --> 0:02:24.440 did these little nigga slip through the cracks? Because, first 0:02:24.440 --> 0:02:26.520 of all, I don't. I don't like younger guys. Notice 0:02:26.600 --> 0:02:30.000 slipped through the cracks like it ain't motherfucking Facebook chat. Yeah, 0:02:30.080 --> 0:02:33.600 they definitely slipped through the fucking bites or whatever the fun. 0:02:34.320 --> 0:02:37.440 So you can filter your ship based on what you prefer, 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:40.960 what you prefer, okay, So that means niggas was lying. No, 0:02:41.240 --> 0:02:43.840 I forgot to set that ship. That ship was like 0:02:43.880 --> 0:02:47.040 twenty six or something, and the young niggas on there like, 0:02:47.080 --> 0:02:52.760 what's up my wear you out? Oh yeah, first of all, oh, 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:55.239 first of all, little motherfucker, how did you get here? 0:02:55.520 --> 0:02:57.959 So anyway, I was talking at like seventy five niggas 0:02:57.960 --> 0:03:04.600 at one time, Dial seventy five niggas. It was seventy 0:03:04.840 --> 0:03:07.320 niggas Like that ship was like hitting, like somebody came 0:03:07.360 --> 0:03:10.320 through the block with the motherfucking chopper like that ship 0:03:12.360 --> 0:03:15.120 and she was like, Yo, how the fund did you 0:03:15.200 --> 0:03:18.040 keep up with seventy niggas? I didn't. I ended up 0:03:18.040 --> 0:03:19.760 getting five of these guys my number out of the 0:03:19.800 --> 0:03:23.639 seventy seventy niggas did not make the cutch. I gave 0:03:23.720 --> 0:03:27.639 five niggas my number, and this one guy, he was younger, 0:03:27.800 --> 0:03:30.200 he slipped through the craigs. He was like, keep trying 0:03:30.240 --> 0:03:35.800 to slip the another. So they say like they were cool. 0:03:36.000 --> 0:03:39.080 So this one motherfucker, Lord, forgive me, and please do 0:03:39.160 --> 0:03:42.320 not think that I have anything against anybody with any 0:03:42.400 --> 0:03:44.160 kind of health conditions or whatever. But this one guy 0:03:44.200 --> 0:03:45.480 he was I told him, I'm like, look, I'm not 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:47.680 looking for nothing, you know, I'm just looking for people 0:03:47.680 --> 0:03:49.760 to chit chat with so I can just you know, 0:03:49.840 --> 0:03:53.400 get by. I was like, I'm not get get by. 0:03:53.720 --> 0:03:56.560 I ain't trying to funk none of y'all. Like, so 0:03:56.600 --> 0:03:59.000 don't come at me. I'm not looking for no sexual hookups, 0:03:59.000 --> 0:04:01.320 none of that. So one guy he was cool, So 0:04:01.440 --> 0:04:03.440 I was chick chatting with him, and um, he had 0:04:03.480 --> 0:04:06.560 an underlying health condition. And then this nigga talking about 0:04:06.560 --> 0:04:08.400 some gel I don't even work no more because it's 0:04:08.400 --> 0:04:10.120 health condition. I was like, well, you know, I wish 0:04:10.160 --> 0:04:13.480 you all the blessings with your health condition and everything. Um, 0:04:13.560 --> 0:04:15.600 we just were cool. And then one day this nigga 0:04:15.800 --> 0:04:18.240 sent me a long age poem and I texted him 0:04:18.240 --> 0:04:20.320 back like I ain't even gonna hold you. I'm not 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:23.120 about to read that ship. But maybe we should stop 0:04:23.160 --> 0:04:25.840 communicating because they look like it means something to you, 0:04:25.880 --> 0:04:28.440 and I don't want to mean anything to you, damn. 0:04:28.800 --> 0:04:31.320 And is it because of his health condition? No, because 0:04:31.360 --> 0:04:33.200 I just wasn't. I wasn't looking for nothing. Then I 0:04:33.600 --> 0:04:36.320 told him that and he pretended that he understood, but 0:04:36.360 --> 0:04:39.839 he just wasn't what his health condition. Um, he had 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:43.000 kidney failure. Oh man, he had kidney failure. You know. 0:04:43.040 --> 0:04:45.279 I have you know, tons of family members and stuff 0:04:45.320 --> 0:04:48.080 like that and loved ones that had kidney failure. So, 0:04:48.120 --> 0:04:51.200 like I said, blessings to everyone with any kind of 0:04:51.360 --> 0:04:54.800 you know, renal failure, Blessings to you all. But I'm 0:04:54.839 --> 0:04:56.920 a mother, a single mother of three children. Even if 0:04:56.920 --> 0:04:59.320 I was interested in somebody, I don't want to just 0:04:59.360 --> 0:05:02.000 go into or relationship or something like that trying to 0:05:02.279 --> 0:05:05.360 have him to take care of somebody. That. Yeah, that's 0:05:05.440 --> 0:05:07.960 a lot. With three kids, that's a lot. I can 0:05:08.000 --> 0:05:10.600 see if I was with someone and you know when 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:13.039 that happened while we were together, and of course you know, 0:05:13.279 --> 0:05:15.920 his kids was good and then they failed. Yeah, But 0:05:15.960 --> 0:05:19.360 like I, I can't just go into I can't. I 0:05:19.400 --> 0:05:22.599 can't see myself it's already failed. Yeah, I can't see 0:05:22.640 --> 0:05:25.680 myself going into that. But anyway, I had to cut 0:05:25.760 --> 0:05:27.440 him off and he act like he didn't get it, 0:05:27.480 --> 0:05:31.080 so I just stopped answering the text. So then this 0:05:31.240 --> 0:05:33.800 other guy, he was like Hispanic or whatever, and he 0:05:33.839 --> 0:05:35.400 seemed like he was cool. He didn't slip through the 0:05:35.400 --> 0:05:37.960 cracks like he came after I changed my preferences and 0:05:38.000 --> 0:05:42.479 ship he was older, didn't he saying like he was cool. 0:05:42.520 --> 0:05:44.200 I think his teeth might have been sucked up or something, 0:05:44.200 --> 0:05:46.920 because oh my god, I would take Kenney fail you 0:05:47.040 --> 0:05:50.120 over some fun teeth. Damn. He smiled. He had the 0:05:51.520 --> 0:05:53.479 I can't come to get the mother, I can see 0:05:53.480 --> 0:05:56.360 your teeth. He had the uncomfortable white people smile like 0:05:56.760 --> 0:05:58.600 all of his pictures. But he says like he was cool. 0:05:58.640 --> 0:06:01.360 And I agreed to link with him to get coffee, 0:06:01.520 --> 0:06:03.080 and I gave him my number and I was like, 0:06:03.120 --> 0:06:06.800 you know, i'll chat with you over the weekend, mind you. 0:06:06.839 --> 0:06:09.279 I gave him my number one on a Thursday, and 0:06:09.279 --> 0:06:10.880 I was like, I'll chat with you over the weekend, 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:12.880 so we can, you know, set up when we're gonna 0:06:12.920 --> 0:06:16.039 go and you know, grab coffee next week. This motherfucker 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:19.120 didn't even give me a chance. Didn't get the weekend 0:06:19.120 --> 0:06:21.600 a chance to even roll around. I ain't working. This 0:06:21.640 --> 0:06:24.200 motherfucker goes and finds me on Instagram and he see him, 0:06:24.240 --> 0:06:26.400 you know, going off on my Instagram or whatever, and 0:06:26.520 --> 0:06:29.440 he texts me like, oh, I see you haven't texted 0:06:29.480 --> 0:06:31.880 me because you're so busy with your new boyfriend kissing 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:34.880 your feet. First of all, sir, what told you come 0:06:34.880 --> 0:06:37.599 over to Instagram? Where defind me? First of all, you 0:06:37.640 --> 0:06:42.880 gotta boyfriend? No, not nothing. Okay, So we're talking about 0:06:42.920 --> 0:06:46.000 kissing your v the old dude when I was putting 0:06:46.000 --> 0:06:50.760 the old neg kiss, I'm gonna say, hold on, now 0:06:50.800 --> 0:06:53.279 I'm missing the whole light now, no, no, no, no, 0:06:53.440 --> 0:06:56.120 I got you. I got you. I know what's going on. Okay, 0:06:56.200 --> 0:06:58.680 So I'm like, all right, you gotta know how that 0:06:58.760 --> 0:07:01.800 just sounded. No, remember the old dude that I was kissing? 0:07:05.000 --> 0:07:09.920 Sound like? Yeah, oh my god, hold up, hold up, 0:07:09.920 --> 0:07:11.880 I know the ship getting good. But listen to just 0:07:11.920 --> 0:07:14.000 a couple of seconds of a commercial. If you love me, 0:07:14.040 --> 0:07:20.080 you'll listen. Okay, go ahead. So, um, I just stopped 0:07:20.080 --> 0:07:22.240 communicating with him because I don't hear time, because you're 0:07:22.280 --> 0:07:23.960 just being nosy because who told you I'm over here? 0:07:24.320 --> 0:07:26.880 Then it was this other guy. Every time you turn around, 0:07:26.920 --> 0:07:28.440 he was always in the house. I'm like, nid, you 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:32.280 have a joke. And then one met on Facebook chat. Yeah, 0:07:32.320 --> 0:07:34.480 on the Facebook dating net or not at but the 0:07:34.760 --> 0:07:38.000 Facebook dating section. So then sometimes he would answer the 0:07:38.000 --> 0:07:39.640 phone and sometimes he wasn't. But I'm like, yo, if 0:07:39.680 --> 0:07:42.920 you're always in the house, like what you're doing, like 0:07:43.000 --> 0:07:45.560 you must have got a situation. And it's cool because 0:07:45.600 --> 0:07:48.760 I'm not looking for nothing, but don't lie. That was 0:07:48.800 --> 0:07:51.200 another one, and then this other guy. It was just 0:07:51.240 --> 0:07:53.520 like a brief chit chat hand that he would text 0:07:53.520 --> 0:07:55.200 and I'm like, look, my hands are I'm always doing 0:07:55.240 --> 0:07:58.560 something with my hands. It's better to just you know. 0:07:58.720 --> 0:08:01.320 And you know, they like, well, I don't know, right, 0:08:01.360 --> 0:08:02.800 Like I don't know if you'd be busy. I'm like, okay, 0:08:02.800 --> 0:08:04.960 well the only way you'll know is if you actually call. 0:08:05.000 --> 0:08:06.880 And if I if I can't talk, I'll let you 0:08:06.920 --> 0:08:09.200 know that I can't talk, all right. So then that 0:08:09.320 --> 0:08:11.600 was that guy. And then there was this other guy 0:08:11.760 --> 0:08:13.360 and he was moving my preference because you know, I 0:08:13.440 --> 0:08:19.440 like the light skins. So out of all of these guys, 0:08:19.520 --> 0:08:23.640 the light skinned one was like the most persistent. We 0:08:23.720 --> 0:08:28.880 communicated like regularly, more than I communicated with the other 0:08:29.080 --> 0:08:31.040 people that I met on there. And then one day 0:08:31.080 --> 0:08:33.040 he was like I got a confession, but not really 0:08:33.080 --> 0:08:34.640 saying he got a confession. I was like, oh, lor 0:08:34.800 --> 0:08:37.120 like what he was like, I try to highlight at 0:08:37.160 --> 0:08:40.760 you on my Space bag in the day and you 0:08:40.960 --> 0:08:45.040 curved me. And I was like, what my Space? He 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:47.280 was like, yeah, so I just basically I, you know, 0:08:47.360 --> 0:08:50.839 admired you from before, like because basically I tell you 0:08:50.960 --> 0:08:58.080 like this occurred me. Oh wow, okay, so he slipped 0:08:58.120 --> 0:09:01.160 through the cracks on my Space. He slipped, you know, cracks, 0:09:01.160 --> 0:09:03.280 he just was on there because I don't even remember him. 0:09:03.440 --> 0:09:04.880 Told then when I look at a picture of him 0:09:04.920 --> 0:09:09.160 from back then, you have your logging. Hell no, that's saying, 0:09:09.160 --> 0:09:12.199 oh I I don't hand my log in. That's crazy. 0:09:12.200 --> 0:09:13.599 If you got your log in, you'll let me know. 0:09:13.640 --> 0:09:15.000 If you got your log in, let me hold your 0:09:15.040 --> 0:09:17.520 up profile and look this nigg up real quick, right, 0:09:17.640 --> 0:09:21.280 look hold up because he probably just said that. No. Go. 0:09:23.080 --> 0:09:25.480 Then when I go and I look at pictures of 0:09:25.559 --> 0:09:27.400 him from back then, I'm like, well, damn, why the 0:09:27.440 --> 0:09:29.199 funk that kind of him? Because he was kid of ship. 0:09:29.760 --> 0:09:33.520 You know, he light skinned, told it is a little model, 0:09:33.640 --> 0:09:37.079 chisel looking face. She was looking over the good niggas 0:09:37.360 --> 0:09:40.480 going to the bad niggas, the niggas that tregger like 0:09:40.960 --> 0:09:44.920 some ship straight poop poop. It's always the niggas they 0:09:44.920 --> 0:09:47.280 want you that you don't want though. But I honestly, 0:09:47.320 --> 0:09:49.439 I feel like we linked at the right time because 0:09:49.800 --> 0:09:51.440 us being younger, you know, I had a lot of 0:09:51.440 --> 0:09:53.640 growing to do, get a lot of you had to 0:09:53.640 --> 0:09:55.920 get a lot of playout, just sys because probably if 0:09:55.920 --> 0:09:57.960 I would have talked to him back then, you probably 0:09:57.960 --> 0:09:59.400 would have broke my heart. And I probably would have 0:09:59.440 --> 0:10:01.640 tried to let us throat because he looked like he 0:10:01.679 --> 0:10:04.720 was a player most definitely, like look like he probably 0:10:04.760 --> 0:10:07.040 should have like ten kids right now, the country rain. 0:10:07.200 --> 0:10:16.920 But I say, als, oh my god, y go ahead. 0:10:17.280 --> 0:10:21.119 So he was, you know, persistent. Our communication grew stronger, 0:10:21.240 --> 0:10:23.120 and one day I'm out, you know, selling my drinks 0:10:23.200 --> 0:10:26.360 or whatever. He came to support. He literally like got 0:10:26.920 --> 0:10:28.760 like every one of the drinks that I had in 0:10:28.840 --> 0:10:31.720 my cooler and he hugged me. And this was the 0:10:31.760 --> 0:10:33.679 first time that I had a hug from a man 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:38.320 in a little while. And the hug felt so good, 0:10:38.960 --> 0:10:41.800 like it just it felt like it was supposed to 0:10:42.679 --> 0:10:44.600 like it was supposed to be and I'm just like, damn, 0:10:45.040 --> 0:10:48.280 I want another hug like it's it just felt right. 0:10:48.880 --> 0:10:50.760 I know you're probably like, what is this been talking about? 0:10:51.160 --> 0:10:53.880 How you know how it is? And you know how 0:10:53.920 --> 0:10:56.960 it is when you get that hug and then they 0:10:57.160 --> 0:11:00.320 hold you a little tight. He squeezed your littless sad. 0:11:00.679 --> 0:11:02.640 I was just like, oh man, I felt like that 0:11:02.760 --> 0:11:04.840 was a comfort hook. It felt like he was squeezing 0:11:05.000 --> 0:11:11.320 juices out for real quick. Yeah, so anyway, I might 0:11:11.360 --> 0:11:14.640 work one day and he pulled up and he surprised 0:11:14.679 --> 0:11:18.520 me with the plants. Normally guys you know, get you flowers, 0:11:18.760 --> 0:11:21.800 you know, but he surprised me with actual potted plants. 0:11:22.760 --> 0:11:26.480 Didn't know you like plants, no, but he loves plants. 0:11:27.080 --> 0:11:29.760 So that's some weird ship. You don't think that's weird. No, 0:11:29.960 --> 0:11:31.800 he just got me the ship that he liked. Do 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:36.640 you like it? Yeah? Did a diet? No. He told 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:38.760 me how to take care of it. And I felt 0:11:38.800 --> 0:11:41.880 like from jump he was trying to give a lasting impression, 0:11:41.920 --> 0:11:43.880 because you know when you buy somebody bluecat flowers and 0:11:43.880 --> 0:11:46.320 stuff like that people, and people don't even take them 0:11:46.320 --> 0:11:47.880 on and put them in water. They just like him 0:11:47.920 --> 0:11:49.840 take a picture and pulled them and then throw them 0:11:49.840 --> 0:11:53.599 away even whatever the fun that. Yeah, I put my 0:11:53.679 --> 0:11:55.840 shtion in water too, But yeah, no, I feel okay. 0:11:55.960 --> 0:11:57.800 But I'm just saying, it's just something different about a 0:11:57.880 --> 0:12:02.200 nigga coming to your job with a m like but 0:12:02.240 --> 0:12:04.760 it's all good, quay. She has a hating that is 0:12:04.800 --> 0:12:08.880 loose somebody because nigga ain't never bought her plant. No, y'all, 0:12:09.679 --> 0:12:16.720 shut up, because keep buying her them temporary, y'all. That's 0:12:16.720 --> 0:12:22.280 why she keep cutting these niggas off. Anyway, whatever for 0:12:22.360 --> 0:12:28.560 the next episode. No, so you know, I have plants 0:12:28.600 --> 0:12:30.880 that are in my room already. I added the two 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:32.800 plants that he you know, he purchased with my plants, 0:12:32.800 --> 0:12:34.080 and I was just like, oh my god, that was 0:12:34.120 --> 0:12:36.800 really thoughtful. And then my overthinking this. I'm just like, man, 0:12:36.840 --> 0:12:39.439 he's trying to make a lasting impression, you know. That's 0:12:39.440 --> 0:12:42.120 why he bought plants, like something that if you take 0:12:42.160 --> 0:12:46.400 care of it, it'll grow. That's like a relationship. If 0:12:46.400 --> 0:12:49.840 you take care of relationship and it'll grow. I don't know, 0:12:50.520 --> 0:12:53.800 mess that's how I took it. Oh so we didn't 0:12:53.800 --> 0:12:56.560 say that you like that? Yeah, but that's good as 0:12:56.600 --> 0:13:09.199 manifestation also, so why yeah but not oh my god? 0:13:09.760 --> 0:13:14.240 First as all. So hey, y'all, So over the weeks, 0:13:14.280 --> 0:13:18.080 we've gotten closer and closer and closer. Obviously I couldn't 0:13:18.120 --> 0:13:23.960 keep my legs closed. I mean, well, and your woman, 0:13:24.000 --> 0:13:33.120 you have sexual needs, you know, and bitch who it's 0:13:33.880 --> 0:13:39.640 a first of all, tony. So what we don't need 0:13:40.040 --> 0:13:42.360 for her to go in depth with is because we 0:13:42.400 --> 0:13:44.520 know just how she keeps laughing and just chuckling. And 0:13:44.600 --> 0:13:47.200 I know y'all can actually imagine how her face is 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:50.000 right now, like she is like moving, she can't keep still. 0:13:50.679 --> 0:13:54.880 She really is feeling this, dude, Yeah, ain't feeling me too? 0:13:55.559 --> 0:13:58.640 From Facebook? You know. Him and I had a conversation 0:13:59.000 --> 0:14:01.360 and he was just like, you know, he feeling me. 0:14:01.400 --> 0:14:04.080 I'm feeling him. We're like overly feeling each other, and 0:14:04.120 --> 0:14:07.280 I'm just like, all right, I deleted that Facebook dating ship, 0:14:07.360 --> 0:14:09.520 I deleted my profile. I want you to lete yours too, 0:14:09.559 --> 0:14:12.920 And he was down. I love that. I love that. 0:14:13.040 --> 0:14:15.320 That's how you none the mother's telling anything that right, 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:17.840 So he and neither are you. No, we ain't on that. 0:14:17.960 --> 0:14:20.440 We ain't on that. We deleted that ship. Now we 0:14:20.520 --> 0:14:22.760 got a commercial and if you click off of this podcast, 0:14:22.800 --> 0:14:27.920 I swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. I went 0:14:28.000 --> 0:14:31.040 on vacation for a bachelorette celebration because I'm in my 0:14:31.080 --> 0:14:33.800 best friend's wedding and I met the club with the 0:14:33.840 --> 0:14:36.040 girls or whatever we're celebrating, and I just happened to 0:14:36.040 --> 0:14:39.640 click on Instagram and I clicked on his little story 0:14:39.680 --> 0:14:41.360 bubble because I saw it. You know, he had posted 0:14:41.400 --> 0:14:45.600 some things and he posted me and I choked on 0:14:45.640 --> 0:14:49.000 the food that was eating the club, like, wait a minute, 0:14:49.040 --> 0:14:52.480 this nigga and posted me. I was like, Nigga's don't 0:14:52.520 --> 0:14:54.640 post me? What was it though? What was it? It 0:14:54.720 --> 0:14:57.000 was screenshots to me and him on FaceTime, first of all, 0:14:57.360 --> 0:14:59.280 and then it's not creepy to me, but I just 0:14:59.320 --> 0:15:02.840 didn't know that he'd be screenshotting us while we're on FaceTime. 0:15:03.840 --> 0:15:05.640 It was cute at least. I wasn't looking all up 0:15:05.720 --> 0:15:08.480 or nothing like that, but I was surprised. I was like, oh, ship, Like, 0:15:09.120 --> 0:15:10.520 what was the first thing to go to your mind? 0:15:10.560 --> 0:15:12.280 Did you? I know you didn't think it was creepy, 0:15:12.320 --> 0:15:14.040 but did you Like I was just like, oh, Ship, 0:15:14.160 --> 0:15:16.720 like this nigked these bitches about to be made on 0:15:16.760 --> 0:15:19.920 his page and he don't give a fuck. I was 0:15:20.000 --> 0:15:26.040 flattered him and I share locations. Really, we shared locations. 0:15:26.080 --> 0:15:28.560 We shared locations, and he was just like, you know, 0:15:28.760 --> 0:15:31.160 I don't have anything to hide, and I don't want 0:15:31.480 --> 0:15:34.160 you to think that I'm working with these bitches. I 0:15:34.240 --> 0:15:36.320 never had a nigger share location with me, So that 0:15:36.480 --> 0:15:41.200 right there was like, kudos to your heads off to you, sir. 0:15:41.960 --> 0:15:44.720 That's some real grown man ship because I you know, 0:15:45.160 --> 0:15:47.440 I only shared locations with my home girls and my 0:15:47.520 --> 0:15:51.280 kids and Ship. Yeah, everything that I'm experiencing with him 0:15:51.400 --> 0:15:54.440 is new for me just from being posted. Just like, oh, Ship, 0:15:54.480 --> 0:15:57.400 like you're showing me off. This one bitch was hating 0:15:57.440 --> 0:15:59.560 big time talk about something. Oh you're only sucking her 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:03.120 because that's us hilarious, sister, Like, then shut the funk up, 0:16:03.560 --> 0:16:05.280 because like that means you came to my page to 0:16:05.280 --> 0:16:08.680 come look, yeah, to see to see who you know 0:16:08.720 --> 0:16:11.520 I was related to you, because you know, he was 0:16:11.960 --> 0:16:15.160 trying to get at me back in the two thousand's, 0:16:15.160 --> 0:16:17.560 the early two thousands, So like don't hate bitch. What 0:16:17.600 --> 0:16:19.840 if she came back like in bitch you didn't even 0:16:19.840 --> 0:16:21.440 want to give him no raps, So get the funk 0:16:21.440 --> 0:16:27.360 out of anyway. You know, I slave a bit. No, 0:16:27.760 --> 0:16:30.680 we can't go there around no more. You're saying, yeah, 0:16:30.720 --> 0:16:35.160 speak for yourself, nobody playing, but either way, so you 0:16:35.200 --> 0:16:40.800 are in like a honeymoon phase right now. And boyfriend, 0:16:41.120 --> 0:16:49.600 oh my god, I don't but now it's all listening. 0:16:49.760 --> 0:16:52.720 My thing is I was with you, like on the 0:16:52.760 --> 0:16:55.240 phone with you every day, calling to make sure you 0:16:55.280 --> 0:16:57.320 were good. You never know how long it takes for 0:16:57.920 --> 0:17:00.880 your heart to heal, Ny, You never know whose treasure 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:03.320 you really are. Like if you get so stuck in 0:17:03.360 --> 0:17:07.200 one place and you you think it's like not like 0:17:07.480 --> 0:17:09.119 really the end of the world, but you feel that 0:17:09.160 --> 0:17:12.399 way because the heartbreak is upon you. Listen, I'm telling 0:17:12.440 --> 0:17:15.760 you it's always somebody winning on a treasure and that you, 0:17:15.760 --> 0:17:18.240 you definitely is what this man was praying for it 0:17:18.240 --> 0:17:20.879 because he told you that, yes he did. He told me. 0:17:21.000 --> 0:17:23.359 He told you that, he told me that he prayed 0:17:23.400 --> 0:17:27.160 for me. Yeah, and he that you know, he said, 0:17:27.200 --> 0:17:29.240 I didn't pray you know for you, you know, per 0:17:29.240 --> 0:17:31.439 se directly but I asked God to give me what 0:17:31.560 --> 0:17:34.800 I need, and he gave me you out of nowhere. 0:17:35.280 --> 0:17:37.640 So that right there. For one, like just the fact 0:17:37.680 --> 0:17:41.720 that he prays. Yeah, you know, I love that he's girlfriend. 0:17:41.800 --> 0:17:44.280 He prays. So it's just like you know, he golferd 0:17:44.280 --> 0:17:48.960 and hood nig like he going for like not golfriend. Yeah, 0:17:49.040 --> 0:17:55.159 golf you're not a girl friend. Fuck you're look bit 0:17:55.240 --> 0:17:56.919 just get all in love and want to be getting with. 0:17:57.359 --> 0:18:00.480 He a girl friend. Look, but y'all so he and 0:18:00.520 --> 0:18:02.760 he loves his kids. I'm a sucker for that. I 0:18:02.880 --> 0:18:05.160 many kids got He has two children, you have three, 0:18:05.320 --> 0:18:07.680 So he already know he's done with that like whatever 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:10.879 that Yeah, he's all down for the Brady bunch. It. 0:18:11.000 --> 0:18:13.800 He's he's talking future. He's talking future. He's talking future, 0:18:14.680 --> 0:18:17.760 not the rap, but not that kind of future. Ool Jesus, 0:18:18.000 --> 0:18:22.399 I would hope that. But so what, oh my god, 0:18:22.720 --> 0:18:25.000 So what type of future ship is he talking? Like 0:18:25.119 --> 0:18:32.320 long term you know, marriage, meshing, families, family trips. You know, 0:18:32.359 --> 0:18:35.560 so this is something that he's already wonted then, Yeah, 0:18:35.560 --> 0:18:37.840 I mean niggas is getting over real, Like he about 0:18:37.840 --> 0:18:40.240 to be thirty nine. He's a virgal like men. You 0:18:40.280 --> 0:18:44.040 know I'm a Zodiac person. He's my Virgo lover. His 0:18:44.119 --> 0:18:47.240 birthday is a week after mine. Have you ever dated 0:18:47.280 --> 0:18:50.080 your son? Yeah, August one, so I'm I told you 0:18:50.160 --> 0:18:52.359 I'm so zodiac like. So I had I had it 0:18:52.400 --> 0:18:55.280 August in August virgo. I've never had a September one, 0:18:56.040 --> 0:18:57.679 but the August one was ain't right because that's what 0:18:57.720 --> 0:19:01.320 Michael Jackson was. First of all, big, don't ever try 0:19:01.359 --> 0:19:06.879 to there's no ever trying to play with Michael later 0:19:06.960 --> 0:19:09.439 because you didn't even know. You don't ever do that. 0:19:09.880 --> 0:19:12.840 You don't say yeah, not them, umgus, because that's what 0:19:12.920 --> 0:19:20.000 Michael was. Girl, Stop playing with Michael Jack's Okay. So 0:19:21.240 --> 0:19:24.880 it's safe to say that you have been completely hold 0:19:24.880 --> 0:19:28.400 off your heartbreak. I haven't. I did not think that 0:19:28.440 --> 0:19:31.240 it would happen so early. But I don't think about 0:19:31.320 --> 0:19:36.320 anybody else m but him, Like he is all I see. 0:19:36.400 --> 0:19:40.760 He's all I think of. When he calls my my 0:19:40.880 --> 0:19:44.000 day just brightens up. He makes my heart smile. I 0:19:44.040 --> 0:19:47.479 can't even explain how a heart smile feels. But like 0:19:47.680 --> 0:19:49.960 I literally have like butterflies, Like it feels like I 0:19:50.000 --> 0:19:52.920 have butterflies on my entire tour. So were you scared 0:19:53.000 --> 0:19:58.679 at first? I really, I really do a heartbreak, I 0:19:58.720 --> 0:20:02.520 really was granted happened quickly, yes, but it happened naturally. 0:20:03.119 --> 0:20:05.679 It wasn't a forced situation. It was just like a 0:20:05.840 --> 0:20:11.400 natural bond between two humans. And that's how your monkeys. 0:20:11.840 --> 0:20:16.919 I don't meddam not too goddamnit. Now you're trying to 0:20:16.920 --> 0:20:20.960 be too deep, bitch. Come on, come on back between 0:20:21.000 --> 0:20:25.640 two humans. What you thought you was aliens before? I mean, 0:20:26.359 --> 0:20:30.359 it's just amazing. He's extremely thoughtful. He sends me random 0:20:30.359 --> 0:20:33.760 cash apps and I'm not hold hold of funk up. 0:20:34.400 --> 0:20:38.640 That's what all this ship is like. No, it's not. No, oh, 0:20:39.160 --> 0:20:42.160 I know it's I'm coming. No, No, you don't never 0:20:42.240 --> 0:20:44.760 tell me that ship. I know that's right, man, Okay 0:20:44.920 --> 0:20:50.840 put it there. No, because it's just being thoughtful. Ain't 0:20:50.840 --> 0:20:53.159 know all the ship that matters, like my birthday, my 0:20:53.200 --> 0:21:01.480 cash ap? No, No, she plays all that's just added 0:21:01.520 --> 0:21:06.800 to the to the love that you know. Yeah, he's 0:21:06.800 --> 0:21:10.439 a sweetheart and he deserves everything that he gives that 0:21:10.520 --> 0:21:14.879 he's given to me. He deserves it. I had him 0:21:14.880 --> 0:21:18.400 a nice Father's day give oh, yes, and I took 0:21:18.440 --> 0:21:21.439 him on a date, our first official date, and you know, 0:21:21.560 --> 0:21:24.199 just to let you women know it is okay for 0:21:24.280 --> 0:21:27.639 you to take you're mad on a fucking date like 0:21:27.720 --> 0:21:31.400 because they deserved that ship too, especially when they're showing 0:21:31.720 --> 0:21:34.600 Hella love to you and they always there and doing 0:21:34.600 --> 0:21:39.400 stuff for you and reciprocate. Bitch. Yeah, first of all, 0:21:39.440 --> 0:21:48.080 what they gotta be bitches, were just crying off. These 0:21:48.119 --> 0:21:53.399 men deserve to be treated as kings like they treating 0:21:53.480 --> 0:21:56.879 us like queens and stuff like that. They deserved the same. 0:21:57.040 --> 0:21:58.879 And all of them are not bad, Like, all of 0:21:58.920 --> 0:22:00.800